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Theme Song For The Day
Lyrics to Jojo Too Little Too Late Ooh no Come with me, stay the night You say the words but boy it don't feel right What do you expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late) You take my hand, and you say you've changed But boy you know your beggin don't fool me Because to you it's just a game So let me on down Cause time has made me strong I'm starting to move on I'm gonna say this now Your chance has come and gone And you know It's just too little too late A little too wrong And I can't wait Boy you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late) You say you dream of my face But you don't like me You just like the chase To be real, it doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late) I was young and in love I gave you everything but it wasn't enough And now you wanna communicate Go find someone else In lettin you go, I'm lovin myself You gotta problem But don't come askin me for help Cause ya kn

Theme Night!
Living A Fantasy!! What if we lived in a world that told a story. Where our clothing spoke of our fantasies. A sexual world.......... Imagine hosting a theme night with costumes and a mandatory dress code. The theme of course being, Fantasies!! The goal for this "theme night" being: to get people to come out of their shells. Unfortunately, one night is too short a time to change things, the world, men and women. Certain people really CAN identify with a fantasy, others believe it to be something dirty and some people are unable to feel completely liberated. But overall, out of the one's that do show up, the one's who've actually tried their hardest to find a costume, discover a whole new world. Well, maybe not, I am exagerating a little. Anyway,,,,,,Shall we continue...... The fantasies we see at this Soirée vary from School Girl to Millionnaire......We even have a sexy Actress and a Stripper. Wow!! Without actually being the host of a party where an orgy is happe

~~the Man Who Knows His Math~~
He writes: I was riding to work yesterday when I observed a female driver, who cut right in front of a pickup truck, causing the driver to drive onto the shoulder to avoid hitting her. This evidently angered the driver enough that he hung his arm out is window and gave the woman the finger. " Man, that guy is stupid," I thought to myself. I ALWAYS smile nicely and wave in a sheepish manner whenever a female does anything to me in traffic, and here's why: I drive 48 miles each way every day to work. That's 96 miles each day. Of these, 16 miles each way is bumper-to-bumper. Most of the bumper-to-bumper is on an 8 lane highway. There are 7 cars every 40 feet for 32 miles. That works out to 982 cars every mile, or 31,424 cars. Even though the rest of the 32 miles is not bumper-to-bumper, I figure I pass at least another 4000 cars. That brings the number to something like 36,000 cars that I pass every day. Statistically, females drive half of

& The Mailman Was Late Today
& i got tired of waiting for him. i swear...if today went any fucking slower it would be going in reverse. ech. time needs a sugar rush. lol. it days like this that drain me of all my wonderful energy. but hey...thats life right? damn...i just realized i broke yet another nail...im starting to think that this long nail thing is a tad overrated. yosh came over last night for a sleepover. i hadnt seen her since i left karate...and that was almost 2 years ago. she got into kingsville...tried that out but her party girl ways got the best of her and she dropped out. now shes at some college in mexico & doing pretty good. she kinda freaked when she asked me where sean was i told her hed left for san diego back in december for the marine corps. i luv that girl to bits...after all shes another one of my many bad influences. it was awesome seeing her again. i woke up kinda late today. it seems that the only time i can actually find some sleep is during the day. i had a good lunch...g

***** The Mouth Holds *****
His lips grasp mine like supple glue His tongue moves wet and deep Drenching us inside and out Mouth holds like vice grips That hold all my wet lips open He won't let go I push away his hot body Sigh I'm tired and guilty For feeling criminally good Why should I let go of something that feels so good

* The Mysteries Of Isis *
Exploring the Sacred through the Ancient Goddess Isis Welcome to the Mysteries of Isis, a sacred space dedicated to Isis. As a Goddess of light, communication, and energy, what better place for Her to be? Winged Isis, who wafts light and life-giving breezes from her wings. A Few Words on Isis... Isis calls to all who share her vision of the universe. Once called, some of us answer, and, with that answer, begins an amazing relationship between the human and the divine. Because Isis does not only call; she answers. One of her ancient titles is Epekoos, the One who Hears, the one who responds to the needs and prayers of her worshippers and, as I see it, her allies. The divine spirit of Isis reaches through and to all things. She is a divinity who enjoys simplicity and complexity, science and art, feeling and intellect. There is nothing in you that does not find a parallel in Isis -you don't need to stop thinking, stop questioning, to stop loving or stop yearning, to

~ The Marine ~
Below is a poem being sent from a Marine to his Dad. For those who take the time to read it, you'll see a letter from him to his Dad at the bottom. It makes you truly be thankful for not only the Marines, but ALL of our troops. THE MARINE We all came together, Both young and old To fight for our freedom, To stand and be bold. In the midst of all evil, We stand our ground, And we protect our country From all terror around. Peace and not war, Is what some people say. But I'll give my life, So YOU can live the American way. I give YOU the right To talk of your peace. To stand in your groups, and protest in our streets. But still I fight on, I don't bitch, I don't whine. I'm just one of the people Who is doing YOUR time. I'm harder than nails, Stronger than any machine. I'm the immortal soldier, I'm a US MARINE! So stand in my shoes, And leave from your home. Fight for the people who hate you, With the protests they've shown. Fight for the stranger,

"the Mob Goes Wild" Clutch
The Mob Goes Wild Please Allow Me To Adjust My Pants So That I May Dance The Good Time Dance And Put The Onlookers And Innocent Bystanders Into A Trance Give Disease So The Swine Will Marry And Propagate Lies. Tough Luck For Elected Officials. The Beast You See Got Fifty Eyes. Bring It On Home, Spread The Wealth. Play It Cool, The Hand's Been Dealt. Now, All The Odds Are In Our Favor. Save The Victory Speeches For Later. Streets On Fire, The Mob Goes Wild. 21 Guns, Box Made Of Pine, Letter From The Government Sealed And Signed Delivered Federal Express On Your Mother's Doorstep. Condoleeza Rice Is Nice, But I Prefer A-Roni. And That Man On The T.V. Who Speaks To The Dead, You Know That Man's A Phony. Everybody Move To Canada And Smoke Lots Of Pot. Everybody Move To Canada Right Now. Here's How We Do It: Bum Rush The Border Guard Before He And His Dog Ever Knew It. Streets On Fire, The Mob Goes Wild. 21 Guns, Box Made Of Pine, Letter From The Government Se

Theme Song For The Week
Pressure pushing down on me Pressing down on you no man ask for Under pressure - that burns a building down Splits a family in two Puts people on streets It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out Pray tomorrow - gets me higher Pressure on people - people on streets It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out Pray tomorrow - gets me higher Pressure on people - people on streets Turned away from it all like a blind man Sat on a fence but it don't work Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn Why - why - why Love Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking Can't we give ourselves one more chance Why can't we give love that one more chance Why can't we give love Cause love's such an old fashioned word and love dares you to care for The people on the edge of the night And love dares you to change our way of Caring about ourselv

300 The Movie
From: Jody Tyler ( jt23)~The High Pope of Denver Thank you Vivid Imagination It is spring, 480 BC Persian King Xerxes, continuing his fathers, Darius, master plan to conquer the Hellenic city-states, arrives in Hellas. The previous Persian invasion and diplomatic attempts have already turned most northern Hellas tribes and states to the Persian side. But the people of Athens and Sparta, the largest Hellenic powers at the time, feel quite insulted by the Persian emissaries requesting their surrender to Xerxes and slay them. In Sparta, King Leonidas consults the local oracle, which gives two options: either a spartan king will have to be sacrificed or Sparta will be burned to the ground. A year earlier (481, BC) a panhellenic consortium of all southern city-states have already recognized the superiority of the spartan army (the best organized and trained army at the time) and have announced King Leonidas supreme commander of the combined Hellenic army. It i

"the Marine" Pass It On Please
Please don't delete this until you send it on, Let's > send it around the > world. > FRIENDS ARE BORN, NOT MADE > > > This is a poem being sent from a Marine to his Dad. > For those who take the time to read it, you'll see a > letter from him to > his Dad at the bottom. It makes you truly > thankful for not only the > Marines, > but ALL of our troops. > > THE MARINE > > > > We all came together, > Both young and old > To fight for our freedom, > To stand and be bold. > > In the midst of all evil, > We stand our ground, > And we protect our country > From all terror around. > > Peace and not war, > Is what some people say. > But I'll give my life, > So you can live the American way. > > I give you the right > To talk of your peace. > To stand in your groups, > and protest in our streets. > > But still I fight on, > I don't bitch, I don't whine. > I'm just one of the people > Who is doing your time.

"the Marine" Please Pass This On...
Please don't delete this until you send it on, Let's > send it around the > world. > FRIENDS ARE BORN, NOT MADE > > > This is a poem being sent from a Marine to his Dad. > For those who take the time to read it, you'll see a > letter from him to > his Dad at the bottom. It makes you truly > thankful for not only the > Marines, > but ALL of our troops. > > THE MARINE > > > > We all came together, > Both young and old > To fight for our freedom, > To stand and be bold. > > In the midst of all evil, > We stand our ground, > And we protect our country > From all terror around. > > Peace and not war, > Is what some people say. > But I'll give my life, > So you can live the American way. > > I give you the right > To talk of your peace. > To stand in your groups, > and protest in our streets. > > But still I fight on, > I don't bitch, I don't whine. > I'm just one of the people > Who is doing your time.

"the Military Wife"
The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, “Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one. What’s wrong with the standard model?” The Lord replied, “Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both mother and father, be a perfect hostess for four to 40 with an hour notice, run on black coffee, handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry on cheerfully, even if she is pregnant and has the flu, and she must have six pairs of hands.” The angel shook her head. “Six pairs of hands?” “NO WAY!” The Lord continued. “Don’t worry, we will make other military wives help her. And we will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husbands achievements, sustain the pain of separation, beat soundly when it is overworked and tired, and be large enough to say, “I understand” when she doesn’t and “I l

"the Morning"
The Morning It is morning. I look out my window and see the morning dew glistening on the grass. The sun newly rose above the horizon. There is a faint mist, dampening the air. I walk outside. The air smells of a fresh new day. A time to make a fresh start, a time to right our wrongs, a time for beginnings. I look across the street. A squirrel scampers down a tree trunk in search of food for the day. A neighborhood dog barks. The birds begin singing their praises. I go back inside, and eat my breakfast Today is good, for it is morning.

Theme Song
As per suggestion of one of my best friends, I will now blast White Snake- Here I Go Again before heading out to school. I don't know where I'm going But I sure know where I've been Hanging on the promises and songs of yesterday And I've made up my mind I ain't wasting no more time Though I keep searching for an answer I never seem to find what I'm looking for Oh Lord I pray you give me strength to carry on 'Cause I know what it means To walk along the lonely street of dreams And here I go again on my own Going down the only road I've ever known Like a drifter I was born to walk alone But I've made up my mind I ain't wastin' no more time I'm just another heart in need of rescue Waiting on love's sweet charity And I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days 'Cause I know what it means To walk along the lonely street of dreams And here I go again on my own Going down the only road I've ever known Like a drifter I was born to walk al

"the Man With A Tear"
from the womb i came, as a child she gave me a name. from her, from here i begin, the tiniest of sin. time progresses and i learn the ways, every last one of the 6,935 days. the day i was born i began to die, but i surpassed that evertime i got high. the day i met my assailant, i was my only monovalent. with my eyes i saw my lies, as a corpse would gather flies. everyday and everynight inside i cry, and only wish i would die. my words float away in the breeze, here is my cursed disease. i felt the anger build into a rage, nothing could stop it until the next ice age. my life depicts itself as a riddle, but one spends his life to piddle. everyday inside i bleed, but only i realize and heed. i am a man without fear, but i am a man with a tear.

~the Master's Song~
Silken strands slipping through alabaster fingers slender, veined, webbed deep cut lines race across the now reddened palm. Quivering orbs rosed, welted, swelling muffled whimpers chancing to escape but confined by the hard plastic ball the leather straps hugging her she is submission he hums the song of pain. ~Kory~ 2002

Them Daze
Them daze Remember when we just sat around And listened to that sublime sound While we sipped from our glass of rum Givin’ away our lunch money to smoke us some Chorus: Those were our ultimate days Now it seems some like a big strong daze Creeping in the back of our brains While we sleep in the back of trains Remember when we just laid down And cleared our minds without a frown Feeling all the worries get washed away “Fuck taxes” is what we used to say So light up the blunt and start inhalin’ Get on the yacht and keep on sailin’ Don’t forget to pack that bong And sing along to this motherfuckin’ song Chorus

Theme Song
my life's theme song Pretty Girl by Sugarcult Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about And that's what you get for falling again you can never get him outta your head And that's what you get for falling again you can never get him outta your head chorus: Its the way that he makes you feel its the way that he kisses you its the way that he makes you fall in love She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and her killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men And that's what you get for falling again you can never get him outta your head And that's what you get for falling again you can never get him outta your head Chorus Pretty girl Pretty girl Pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everthing pretty soon she'll figure out you can never get him outta your head its the way that he makes you cry its the way that he's in your

Theme Song
Your Theme Song is Beautiful Day by U2 "Sky falls, you feel like It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away" You see the beauty in life, especially in ordinary everyday moments. And if you're feeling down, even that seems a little beautiful too. What's Your Theme Song?

#1 The Magician
TarotScopes ~ #1 The Magician If you birth number is the number 1, then your Tarot card association is The Magician. )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( Characteristics: If you are using your energy in positive manner, you are energetic, dedicated, focused, original and creative. You have the ability to use your skills to accomplish a task. You have a lot of imagination which you use to create solutions. You are spontaneous, self-confident, flexible, and determined. You are also capable of influencing other people. ***Negative traits associated with the use of negative energy: If you are blocking your positive energy you maybe experiencing these traits. You may be deceptive, manipulating, weak of will, insecure, and you may apply your skills to destructive ends. ***Actions that may block positive energy: Worry, Worry, Worry!!! The absolute blocker of all!!!. Worry will create a wall; worry will lead to unscrupulous behav

"them Girls"
I'm sorry to let you kno, but I am not one of those girls who will get on cam and show all kinds of shit off. Esp. to people I barely kno. Just because I have these pix up, doesnt mean I will... so please stop asking me. Esp. you jerks that are only talking to me BECAUSE of my pix and thats what you want. So, I'm sorry, but if that's all you want... please, just don't bother.

"the Mirror Of My Soul"
I almost passed him by, then turned and glanced his way again, drawn by what, the clothes bizarre, yet bleak, or shoes grotesque, that could not help but make me laugh, or could it be the painted face, with nose of red I'd seen so many times before? The hat, askew upon a head of hair so wild, that never could be tamed, and then I looked into his eyes, and saw reflections, mirrors of my very soul. I drowned in pain of loneliness and sorrow. The haunted smile, betrayed, shared, but for brief short moments, as once again, I felt a loss that time could not erase. The nod between us, seen by none, much less understood. A bond between us, that was our alone, yet, never having met, we lived a lifetime. My lifted hand fell helpless by my side, as sadly, we each turned and walked the other way.

~!~the Meaning~!~
To love is to share life together to build special plans just for two to work side by side and then smile with pride as one by one, dreams all come true. To love is to help and encourage with smiles and sincere words of praise to take time to share to listen and care in tender, affectionate ways. To love is to have someone special one who you can always depend to be there through the years sharing laughter and tears as a partner, a lover, a friend. To love is to make special memories of moments you love to recall of all the good things that sharing life brings love is the greatest of all. I've learned the full meaning of sharing and caring and having my dreams all come true; I've learned the full meaning of being in love by being and loving with you.

Theme Song
Someone wrote this for me it cracks me up.... tits out clits drippin punk mofuckins stand there figurin watch ya while kiki smoke that dro the mistakin her for any type of Ho--ney she pop ya ass drop ya to knees... the whole time she steadly puffin on her weed

Theme For The Coming Year
It's funny how a song can just grab me because it's inspirational or reflects my life at the moment. Welcome to the planet Welcome to existence Everyone's here Everyone's here Everybody's watching you now Everybody waits for you now What happens next? [Chorus:] I dare you to move I dare you to move I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor I dare you to move I dare you to move Like today never happened Today never happened before Welcome to the fallout Welcome to resistance The tension is here Between who you are and who you could be Between how it is and how it should be [Chorus] Maybe redemption has stories to tell maybe forgiveness is right where you fell Where can you run to escape from yourself? Where you gonna go? Where you gonna go? Salvation is here REL

*the Magic Bus*
Howdy folks! We've made some changes to the rules of the Magic Bus RATE, FAN & ADD Club. So please check out the updated Magic Bus Blogs on our homepage. If you are NOT a member, there's still room onboard. So get on this Magical Mystery Tour NOW. Good for fast levelling, meeting new friends and fans & we'll be sure to serve you loads of cool experiences. Some earthly, others....well you never know! So are you adventurous, get your ticket now! You can find out how to obtain your ticket in the aforementioned blogs on our homepage. That's all for now. Keep on trucking!

Them 11-b's (army Infantry)
My honey heard me comin' on my left right on left I saw Jody runnin' on his left right on left I chased after Jody and I ran him down Poor ol' boy doesn't feel good now M.P.s came a runnin on their left right on left The medics came a runnin' on their left right on left He felt a little better with a few I.V.s Son I told you not to mess with them ELEVEN Bs

02-01-08 (the Magic Is Threw)
YaY January is over! I hope this finds you with at least a few good Memories of another month gone bye. And full of hope & wishes for this new month ahead. I've never taken to any cold weather holidays, so in 14 days is when I officially let out a sigh of relief! After the last of the hearts have healed from the string of 3 hallmark holidays ... I start perking up & eagerly await saint patty's day. That's when we should have finalized everything for the trip to the Kentucky Derby (hopefully) It's also the time when the weather starts to show a lot more signs of spring locally! And SPRING is since it is the theme What I truly think is a ~m a g i c a l~ time of the year! Everything is coming back from it's winter slumber As though from the dead ... Freshness of the spring grass Okay ... I really got to stop, Those thoughts will depress me if I look outside and see the gloom of winter staring back at me =/ Good time to change the su

1996 Theme Song
Your 1996 Theme Song Is: California Love by Tupac and Dre Let me serenade the streets of L.A. From Oakland to Sacktown The Bay Area and back down Cali is where they put they mack down Give me love! What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

Them,, They ,, Their
THEY have no 8 hour days THEY work all night into the day and all day into the night THEY are awakened and ready in THEIR clothes in a moments notice THEIR work clothes are not fashionable and may not even be clean THEY are full of dust and dirt from last time and weigh more then 100lbs THEY wear this 100lbs plus up hills, down hills,on and through any kind of terrain and weather THEY are out in the field for days at a time THEY survive on rations or what THEY can retrieve from THEIR surroundings snakes, crickets, roaches, any type of nourishment THEY can get to fuel THEIR bodies so THEY can keep going to finish THEIR mission or what so many of THEM call "just THEIR job" there are no fancy restaurants no comfortable chairs or favorite table where THEY eat THEIR meals not even a old beat up hot dog vender's cart water may not be tasted or in reach for days not only do THEY have the weight of THEIR clothes on THEM THEY also have the mental strain of w

Them, They, Their....thanks Again G.o.o.d. !!!
THEY have no 8 hour days THEY work all night into the day and all day into the night THEY are awakened and ready in THEIR clothes in a moments notice THEIR work clothes are not fashionable and may not even be clean THEY are full of dust and dirt from last time and weigh more then 100lbs THEY wear this 100lbs plus up hills, down hills,on and through any kind of terrain and weather THEY are out in the field for days at a time THEY survive on rations or what THEY can retrieve from THEIR surroundings snakes, crickets, roaches, any type of nourishment THEY can get to fuel THEIR bodies so THEY can keep going to finish THEIR mission or what so many of THEM call "just THEIR job" there are no fancy restaurants no comfortable chairs or favorite table where THEY eat THEIR meals not even a old beat up hot dog vender's cart water may not be tasted or in reach for days not only do THEY have the weight of THEIR clothes on THEM THEY also have the mental strain of w

Theme Night...(short Story By Me) Comments Welcome
At 8 o'clock at night, on a quiet evening, just sitting on the couch in the living room is the last place you would expect to hear a loud bang. But, as the front door comes flying open, the only thing that protects the wall from being smashed is a pillow that happens to be laying on the floor. You are startled at the intruder standing in your living room. He is a tall man, at least 6 foot tall. He is dressed all in black with a black ski mask covering his face. His dark blue eyes are offset against the dark mask and clothing that he is wearing. But, you have more pressing concerns. In his right hand is a gun. The man scans the room and sees you sitting there. Since you were not expecting company, you are only dressed in a pair of lacey silk purple panties and an oversized tee shirt As you start to stand, the man takes 3 steps toward you and points the gun directly at your chest. The only thought that crosses your mind as you stare at the black gun with the brig

~the Magic Of Kindness~helping Bonnie
Thank you to Ben, Lou, Mysta, BobbyBones, The Grinch & FairyGodmother for showing Bonnie some luv yesterday! A nice dent was made in her quest for being a Henchman but she still has 300,000+ to go. She doesn't have much stash, I got it rated in less than an hour. Only has 300+ pics which doesn't take much time either. In 5 minutes we have a long day of Happy Hours & it would be greatly appreciated by Bonnie & myself if you'd spank her today. DJWîččâ~Mgr §ðmê†hïñg Wï¢¢å †hï§ Wå¥ Çðmê§~ mum to wanda, rena, tina, drew , tom & leon@ fubar I offer jello shots to those that come back & tell me you spanked her!!! I know I have awesome friends on my list so let's go show Bonnie the magic of kindness & help her out today! ~*~XOXO~*~Lizzy

'the Midnight Maiden'
A French Rose 'The Midnight Maiden' Like a distant star, a lantern burned on the balcony of the fair Lady Jina, a cloudless sky and wedding ring moon quoting poetry she could remember. "Hello Madam, it is I, the poet you asked for, what be your pleasure milady, from Dante La'bo?" The call came from the grounds below hearing a smile from a French Rose. Lady Jina walked out on the balcony like a ship on a slight rolling sea. Tossing silver coins like shooting stars, "Recite some poetry, Poet ... please!" "Yes Milady, shall I come inside?" "No, you can be poetic from there, I wish to be read to while I soak in a bath," Lady Jina let out a giggle and then a laugh. "Very well," Mis'ier La'bo replied disappointed. He began quoting poetry from Tristan: 'the Plaintes d'Acante et autres ouvres' Lady Jina returned to her tub of luxury. The Poets words sailed over the balcony Lady Jina slipped in to her watery dream. There in the pool of passions desire was

Theme Days
ALRIGHT for all those dont know I DJ at FORBBIDEN n Forbidden's CELL BLOCK from 12-3am est ON SUNDAYS I DECIDED TO DO THEME NIGHTS which have turned out to be a giant hit n success well so far i gave gotten many ideas for them but I want the FANS to decide what they wanna HEAR so please leave comments on what you would LOVE to hear or have as a THEME NIGHT I will eventually set up a voting area once i figure out how. so far we done 80's rock n OL SKOOL hip hop P.S. I know others are gonna end up biting off my STYLE....OFTEN IMITATED never ever DUPLICATED

4 The Military Haterz
This is an accident voice message that was left on a Mothers Machine from her son in Iraq. For the haters if you love so much in DREAMING that they are there for vacation here is a NEWS FLASH. This is every minute of everyday of their lives and they do this just to give you the right to speak your mind and have the freedom to practice your religion and to walk down the street without this and sleep in the safety of your own bed in your warm house and drive the cars you drive and date who you want. I Pray for the safety and the Angels to watch over every Soldier there and to bring them home (which I do know some will do the ultimate sacrifice for us) I Honor you all and Salute everyone that has been in war zone and THANK YOU FOR YOUR DUTY ABOVE AND BEYOND. HUGS AND MUAHS AND LOVES TO ALL OF YOU

Theme Music
I was watching Indiana Jones today and I considered how integral the theme music is to the story. I'm a fan I'm not ashamed to admit and as soon as that little bit of music kicks off and you know that means Indy is about to do something incredibly cool and daring, I feel that adrenaline rush and feel like I'm there swashbuckling alongside him, willing and capable of accomplishing anything. James Bond instills exactly the same emotions in me. It occurs to me that these feelings wouldn't be half so powerful without the music. I then consider that if this story was real - if Indiana was actually out there doing these things - then he probably couldn't hear that music. It makes me think he must be a greater man than I just to keep on saving the day without hearing a soundtrack. The point of all this, even though it isn't really much of a sane point, is that I'd like to think that in some alternate dimension someone is watching my movie right now - the movie about me. If this is the c

The Theme To Courtship Of Eddies Father
People let me tell you 'bout my best friend, He's a warm hearted person who'll love me till the end. People let me tell you bout my best friend, He's a one boy cuddly toy, my up, my down, my pride and joy. People let me tell you 'bout him he's so much fun Whether we're talkin' man to man or whether we're talking son to son. Cause he's my best friend. Yes he's my best friend. (scat finish

" The Magic Of Love "
♡♥~The Magic Of Love~♥♡ Love is like magic And it always will be. For love still remains Life's sweet mystery!! Love works in ways That are wondrous and strange And there's nothing in life That love cannot change!! Love can transform The most commonplace Into beauty and splendor And sweetness and grace. Love is unselfish, Understanding and kind, For it sees with its heart And not with its mind!! Love is the answer That everyone seeks... Love is the language, That every heart speaks. Love can't be bought, It is priceless and free, Love, like pure magic, Is life's sweet mystery!!

"the Magical Illusion Of Poetry"
"The Magical Illusion Of Poetry" ~~~~~ Packed bar room, piano sitting outside on the deck under the stars, Love songs playing on an old rickety jukebox of long ago tunes, Old man standing in the corner watching the people in the crowd. ~~~~~ Strolling outside he spots the old piano and sits down stroking the keys, As softly as a midnight summer's breeze his fingers tickle the ivory, Bringing to life the magic held within each key as he finds the words to sing. ~~~~~ Long ago memories of a love he has kept locked deep inside his heart, Slowly flows to life with each verse of the song he sings tonight, And baby can you hear me now, Can you hear this love I've kept alive? ~~~~~ From out of the darkness a mystical fog arises around the dancers, His old voice bringing to life the magic of each verse his heart sings, And on the beams of moonlight her form appears within the mist. ~~~~~ Baby can you hear me now, Can you feel the magic of this love, Can you taste the passion

Them Monkeys First Trip
Okay folks the MONKEY is packing as I type . Im hoping he arrives to his first place safe and sound. Hes realy happy to be leaving my home to visit all my fu friends anf their friends . He has his lil bag packed and is sitting by the door. I will keep you all posted on his trip licks Sarab78

...the Mission Goes On
(Be warned, I was in a foul mood when I wrote this!) Most people live in the world of what we believe to be reality. But there is a darker world just below the surface, unseen by most. A place more dangerous, more terrifying, and it is closer than most think. There are things about him you don't know. Things you wouldn't understand. Things you couldn't understand. Things you shouldn't understand. A lone wolf, a crazed and wild-eyed soldier. Scarred and damaged from countless battles, he is on a suicide mission. Yet, he presses on with the realization that each fight may be his last. Raging against the injustices of the world, his fight continues. Each time he strikes down one, two more emerge. He knows it is hopeless, and still, his fight continues. Every time he looks down the barrel or through the scope at another monster, he is forced to make a choice: "Allow the scumbag to live and through inaction, become indirectly responsible for its future

~the Meaning Of Gestures~
What the gesture means... -Kiss on the stomach: I'm ready. -Kiss on the Forehead: I hope we're together forever. -Kiss on the Ear: You're my everything. -Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends. -Kiss on the Hand: I adore you. -Kiss on the Neck: We belong together. -Kiss on the Shoulder: I want you. -Kiss on the Lips: I like you. ____________________________________________________ What the gesture means... -Holding Hands: We definitely like each other. -Slap on the Butt: That's mine. -Holding on tight: I don't want to let go. -Looking into each other's Eyes: I just plain like you. -Playing with Hair: Tell me you love me. -Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go. -Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you. ____________________________________________________ Advice: Don't ask for a kiss, take one. If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love. Peace.

"the Mirror."
The Mirror You can fix your blouse, and you can fix your hair You can seek a just opinion, from the one that’s standing there From the same deep eyes you always see, staring back at you A mere reflection in the mirror, something less than true You can mask with makeup, those lines upon your face A travel log etched in skin and lost to time and space Taking time to do it right, the years they fade away If you listen to the mirror and what it has to say But me I’ve never needed that, to see you as you are Be it magnified up close and keen, or viewed here from afar To me the mirror is just a sheet of lying empty glass The things it shows today will fade, when the present meets the past So smash it into fragments, say goodbye to ageless tears I promise you that’s just a rumor about the seven years But before you break it, take a look, at an image bold and true And you’ll see me standing by your side, staring back at you. Copyright 2009 by Steve Santini

"the Military Wife" By Soldier Hard
The Military Wife (Lyric's) by Soldier Hard Whisper: THE MILITARY WIFE…… Military Wife talking: …Someone asked me if I missed you, but I didn't answer, I just closed my eyes, and I walked way, then I whispered….. "I miss him so much!" Verse 1 Yeah we know it's hard, you're left all alone, We hear your pain when you're sitting crying on the phone, The Military Wife yeah your job's tuff, Your working double time just to get the job done, It's hard on us, but it's harder for you We got our soldier's out here and all you got is you own two! You're paying bills and taking care of the kids, Your Praying every single day that we don't get killed (Damn) I can't imagine the stress ya'll go through, The problems that we caused, and that's why we love you, We know at times you wanna throw in the towel, But you know we can't make it through this war without you, So you stand up, stand tall, you're filled with pride, And you say to yourself…."I

Them.....
Oh Lord help me I bought them!! I SWORE I wouldn't cuz they are so damn ugly!! I bought a pair of UGG boots. That isn't even fair to say, since I am so damn cheep, I bought FUGGS. Ever since I broke my toe this winter my feet have been freezing. For anyone not from around here, it is like 10degrees every freakin day. The only shoes I can wear are some slide on Sketchers (also ugly) and I am sick of snow all in them. So, I had to break down & find something that I can wear that won't make me cry, & these ugly things fit the bill. Sorry to all the fashionista's out there, they are cheap knock offs, but I don't care!! I will be back in my trusty Chuck Taylors soon enough!!

Theme Sunday Pt 2
This Sunday night's theme is country. Come in, drink, meet new people most of all HAVE FUN!! Listen to the best dj's around. Preshow 8pm - 10pm Show 10pm-2am Will have trivia like every theme night. CLICK PICTURE TO ENTER

"the Million Dollar Fubucks& Cherry Bomb Bling Giveaway"
Im trying to help this sweetheart win a Happy Hour Contest that someone cheated on with their votes! So in order to catch up, i will be randomly selecting ppl who help go and rate this pic. I will be giving away 5 grand prizes of 1,000,000 fubucks, and also 50 prizes of 20,000 in fubucks. In addition to these prizes, i will be selecting one person to win a Cherry bomb Bling. The winner of this bling will be the one i feel did the most to help out. Please rate the pic in this link, the contest she is in is just a one rate contest, thats all you have to do, and send me a message letting me know you did so. I will be randonmly giving out these prizes on the 20th of March. Good Luck, and have fun.... PLEASE DONT NOT VOTE FOR KIMBERLY, as she is the person we are trying to beat!! Fubar doesnt allow me to hold as many comments as i have recieved, so im asking all the ppl that have helped out, to please send me a message so you will be seen when the time comes to hand out these prizes. The on

Themes
Ok, So my friend just talked me into doing a photoshoot for a calendar. My month is going to be December. So Im wondering if I should do a "Miss Xmas" theme orrrr like a "Santas Lil Helper" kinda thing... Lol, what are your thoughts or suggestions for themes or poses? Note me please!

Theme Day Postponed
Regrettably I have to postpone theme day for today, due to my laptop crashing... Unfortunately this wouldn't be a problem but my accounting files are stuck in it... I hate being computer illiterate.. Needless to say the accounting files are not backing up properly so I'm rolling up my sleeves and I'm going to either be A. stuck on the phone all day B. trying to back up to one of the other two computers.. which means i will try starting from scratch.. C. start crying and throw myself over a cliff... possibly all three... So I'm sorry but i can not do a theme day today.. please take it on your selves to be me.. then you can all be wicked for a day.. believe me its fun... Love you all Bastards. Wicked

Theme Song For My Life
So i took this quiz on facebook today...... whats the theme song of your life. i got foo fighters, learning to fly. the explaination seems to fit pretty good. The Lost-Soul-Trying-To-Find-My-Way type. You have been on a path, but don't know where you're going, or where you want to go. "And I'm looking to the sky to save me Looking for a sign of life Looking for something to help me burn out bright" Only you can find the way to go.. so nows the time to find it in your heart what you want and learn to fly without any assistance! the time is now, i know what i want, i know where i want to fly to, and am working on taking those steps to get there now.

"the Man He Wants Me To Be"
I will walk thru the valley without a tear in my eye; because of a man who gave his life that I shall keep mine.And for that love he has giving me I shall devote myself to him for all time. After being beating, tortured and then nailed to a cross to die,just so that someday I shall have internal life and walk by his side. He has giving me the straight, power and the will to serve him, to do his work by his will and not that of mine.With all his grace and glory that I may enter his kingdom and thru him that I may shine.

[the Most Wonderful Time Of The Year]
Y'know what I'm not going to do here? Post fucking song lyrics. Uh anyway. I need a few days off.For several reasons, but Also, I'll get this out of the way Two years ago I went to jail. *gasp!* Yeah, if you were keeping up you already knew about that.What I'd like to say I've accomplished in that time is ...... how I'd like to celebrate my life is: ... Alright, I got nothing.*looks back to one year ago*Okay, I have my degree, I'm casually dating someone, I have a full time job, I'm not experiencing constant searing stomach pain, I have disposeable income.My house is cleared of all rodents and sloppy moldy messesI have time to appreciate (not enjoy- appreciate, as in I work now so it makes my free time exponentially better)my free time and hobbies. I'm not up to my neck any more.More like my ankles. I've laughed.I've loved.I've sang and cried. I'm not where I want to be.Still need another Zero on my paychecks.Still need a romance that won't explode in my face.Stil

[the Most Cruel Month]
I guess it wasn't so bad.She asked me to "call if I wanted to hang out"and I did.At 5:30.She didn't pick up.I texted her the details, basically stating"I wanna hang out... my parents want to hijack my weekendHALP!!!...call me when you can :)" she said "Okay :)" ... there's one ... four problems with this girl. 1. Kind of a space cadet on stuff like that.I might be here waiting ... STARING at my phone willing it to ring. Okay, no might about it, that's exactly what I'm doing. She has this weird history of blanking out on these things.Bless her heart.From what I can gather its never willful but she might very well forget alltogether to call me. say "oh yeah... he wanted to spend time with me" at exactly 11:00 Sunday night :/ Suh-igh. Its not that I have the time this weekend,that I have ANY idea what I'd do with heror... any of that really... *shuffles his feet*haven't you ever just wanted someone specific around? Anyway, the theme tonight is unintentional cruelty. Accidental

[the Manliest Man To Have Ever Done Manly Things As A Manly Man.]
Gatts gets me hard :3 what can I say? Also, I looked into kits for Berserk (which I now have volumes 1-33) Those kits range from $95 to $400 to $1000. *sigh* don't think I'll partake for a while. Other than that I don't really have any kits I'm just gagging to put together. DSH's cleaned smoothed and sketched. I really just need to break down and start priming my 1/144 Gouf... which I'm probably going to start right after this. Friggin royals are down five runs :/ umm ummmm um um um um um um *shrugs* I dunno I lost a little momentum after Neue Ziel was finished, but I can't expect more out of that than what I got, it was practice. Now here's a fair question:why would you seed and proliferate an unsubtitled DVD rip of something? Second one I found in a month.Cocksuckers.

[the Mails]
I'm planning to spend about ...200 on models.Yeah... from the same bag of fuck that I bought from last time, but ... he does have competitive prices and great bulk discounts.included is the Jonny Ridden Zaku. Which is a PAIN in the ass to get I see this thing appear and disappear on Amazon all the god damn time. Another version 1 Gouf (which I already own, but this gives me a chance to customize and practice more, for pretty cheap too) I'm queued for another Kampfer (because ... hey, who can't use 2 bazookas, 2 shotguns, and an all around decent kit?) The char gelgoog ver 2 for about ... $20 off the normal price Also, I finished the Gouf version 1 this weekend and finished my Gyan ... this weekend. Oh... ... and I got the last layer of black down on my 1/144 Gouf. He's... ... well... there's definitely limits to what can be done with masking tape. I learned some stuff. he's not done, but he's nearly done. For right now I'm going to use my enhaler, crack

Them
Them Have you ever looked at the stars in the sky? Thought about someone and didn't know why? You catch yourself smiling up into space Thinking of them and their sweet gentle face You shake your head to try and clear your mind It's never that easy as you will find You wonder why you keep thinking of them All the while hoping you're not just a whim You've been down this road, you know where it leads It's not just their wants, it's not just their needs Take a step back and think for a minute This is your world, do you want them in it? I've made my mistakes as we all have done I've taken the path's traveled by none If I bare you my soul and let down my guard

"the Man Of My Dreams" A Poem I Wrote That Is Published Along With "can't Sleep Thinking"
The man of my dreams, Is not as he seems, blinded by his touch, I just love it too much, He wispers in my ear, He sneeks up my underwear , Hes up to every measure, He gives me pain He gives me pleasue, He knows my deepest desires, He uses wipes and wire he never tires, My sex fantasy come true until I come to,

[the Meat Of Kings]
It is at least100 outI was promised 85 high.So I'm quitting at the halfway point, snacking on some ceranno, getting my front yard done in 2 hours (1 hour of break to prevent heat stroke) is good for me even on an 85 degree day.I found a few beautiful things in my travels though.A conversion kit.$89 on an $80 kitmixed feelingsover 150 new parts. Hi Nu Full armor conversion.Now, there's a 1/144 conversion for the Full armor Nu Gundam from Bandai, there's a 1/144 and 1/100 conversion for Hi-NuIt looks about the same (different paint scheme, and not as many funnels)I have never seen a Hi-Nu full armor conversionalsokinda weirded out that I can find this on tatsu-hobbybut not the Rx-78 full armor conversionnot that I think I would use the RX full armor conversion.At least not on my G3. And ... you can just buy Full Armor Gundam as a standalone 1/100. No hacking of an RX-78. No expensive conversion.Also a conversion I wasn't aware of the Zeta II. I like it, but I'm

[the Meat Of Kings]
Apparently while I was buzzed last night I ate about 1/3rd of the prosciutto I had.Bummer.I'm not going to remember most of that experience.Anyway, last night I couldn't sleep (surprise)I've been up a whole 20 minutes.And someone told me I inspire them.Aw. That's always nice.But last night I also drew my old personalized suit Abgrund and in doing so, I may have come up with an existing bandai kit that might be modified into him.See Abgrund is this big, spooky (I'm not bothering to scan and post the picture right now) faceless hulking gimp. He has a spinal column-like midsection supporting two huge arms with lode chains.His eyes re 8 small rivets that look something similar to spider eyes, clawed fingersetc.I was trying to draw something that was the sum of my fears as a mobile suit, so I drew a blank (hah- get it? Cuz he has no face) and out popped Abgrund, now that I have him, I think of him more of an interdimensional pet with the ability to rip a tank in half with his hands.The Gyan

"the Meaning Of Free Love "
It is the sharing, cariing, giving, forgiving, loving and being loved. walking hand in hand, talking heart to heart Seeing through each other's eyes. Laughing together, weeping together. praying together and believing and thinking god for each other for that is shared is a beautiful thing. It enriches the soul and makes the heart sing.....

The Theme Song To My Life
Seems Like Ive Been Here Before, Just Outside Some Closing Door, Standing Here Just Searching For A Light. You'd Think By Now Id Have It Down I Know I Should Be Wiser Now. No Ones Gonna Bail Me Out This Time... Im Not Getting Any Better At Goodbyes, Im Not Any Better Now Than When I First Began It Hurts Every Bit As Much As It Did Way Back Then... I Suppose I'll Drink Alot The Only Thing For Sure Is Im Not Getting Better At Goodbyes. Friends My Come And Friends May Go But Lovers Memories Die Slow They Wont Always Let You Know Its Time. Even This Shall Pass I Guess And You'll Be Just Like All The Rest And I'll Start Dusting Off All My Best Lines And Im Not Getting Any Better At Goodbyes. Im Not Any Better Now Than When I First Began It Hurts Every Bit As Much As It Did Way Back Then... I Suppose I'll Drink Alot Only Thing For Sure Is Im Not Getting Any Better At Goodbyes ...Im Not Getting Better At Goodbyes. =============================================================================

Them From The Outside. Danny G
CHARLOTTE, N.C. -- Charlotte Bobcats coach Mike Dunlap decided to pack the paint Saturday night and make the San Antonio Spurs beat them from the outside. Danny Green and company did just that. Green scored a season-high 23 points and the Spurs set a franchise record with 19 3-pointers to hand the Bobcats their seventh straight defeat, 132-102. Green was 7 of 9 from 3-point range and the Spurs shot 56 per cent from behind the arc. Tony Parker had 22 points and nine assists as the Spurs won for the ninth time in 10 games to push their record to 17-4. Green and Parker were a combined 18 of 22 from the field. "Tony was driving and the defence was collapsing on Timmy (Duncan), so there were a lot of open shots from the perimeter," Green said. "We were driving and kicking and moving the ball. It makes the game a lot easier when youre making shots. We havent been shooting the ball as well lately from the outside so I dont blame them for trying to do that." Dunlap said he decided to focus on

Then Losin My Daughter
t now christmas time boy the months have passed it seemed like it took forever jus to try to start a new year we struggled wit the pain and with all the tears not knowin what was gona happen that was gona bring more tears the day was xmas eve and the call was fast as light the baby is not breathing i struggled wit all my might i dipped in jus a minute to rush to my baby girl not knowin what had happened not knowin what was goin on the ride was long and painful the wait i dreaded more feeling alone and cold i know that she was gone watchin the doctors in the hallway me hitting the cold floor my body couldnt handle it it couldnt take much more my little tiny angel my only pride and joy why did u do this why did u let her go i knew that she was gone but my mind couldnt deal walkin into the room the sheet over her head i scream and i flip my baby aint dead i cant handle this my heart is totally gone sittin there in that room felt like forever holdin h

...then Baby....damn...
Heard the door slowly open above the shower’s sound. You were home early and knew where I’d be found. I got goosebumps all over contemplating impending fun. Knew I’d moan and scream before this steamy shower was done. The curtain moved…just slightly. I could sense you oh so near. Soon that barrier of plastic parted and Baby, you were here. You stood before me grinning tall, bronzed and proud I let out an appreciative sigh, provocative and a little loud. You were wearing only man muscles. I felt a sudden stream of steam. I hoped that you would hustle I had a craving for some cream. You stepped into the heated mist wickedly whispered in my ear “You need long and lingering showers,” as your hand caressed me…right here! Your lips were sweet love talkin and your fingers erotically walkin over each inch of smooth ivory skin. I softly moaned for you to touch it again. We lost all our reserve and reason as that steamy water beat d

Then And Now
Sad but true!!! Scenario: Jack pulls into school parking lot with rifle in gun rack. 1973 -Vice Principal comes over, takes a look at Jack's rifle, goes to his car and gets his to show Jack. 2006 - School goes into lockdown, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail and never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized students and teachers. ++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. 1973 -Crowd gathers. Mark wins. Johnny and Mark shake hands and end up best friends. Nobody goes to jail, nobody arrested, nobody expelled. 2006 - Police called, SWAT team arrives, arrests Johnny and Mark. Charge them with assault, both expelled even though Johnny started it. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Jeffrey won't be still in class, disrupts other students. 1973 - Jeffrey sent to office and given a good paddling by Principal. Sits still in class. 2006- Jeffrey given huge doses of Ritalin. Becomes

666 The Number Of The Beast!
[666] Number of the Beast 660 - Approximate number of the Beast DCLXVI - Roman numeral of the Beast 666.0000 - Number of the High Precision Beast 0.666 - Number of the Millibeast / 666 - Beast Common Denominator 666 ^ (-1) - Reciprocal of the Beast 1010011010 - Binary of the Beast 6, uh... what was that number again - Number of the Blonde Beast 1-666 - Area code of the Beast 00666 - Zip code of the Beast 1-900-666-0666 - Live Beasts! One-on-one pacts! Call Now! Only $6.66/minute. Over 18 only Please. $665.95 - Retail price of the Beast $699.25 - Price of the Beast plus 5% state sales tax $769.95 - Price of the Beast with all accessories and replacement soul $656.66 - Walmart price of the Beast $646.66 - Next week's Walmart price of the Beast Phillips 666 - Gasoline of the Beast Route 666 - Way of the Beast 666 F - Oven temperature for roast Beast 666k - Retirement plan of the Beast 666 mg - Recommend

Then & Now!
TALK ABOUT TRUISMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jack pulls into school parking lot with rifle in gun rack. 1973 - Vice Principal comes over, takes a look at Jack's rifle, goes to his car and gets his to show Jack. 2006 - School goes into lockdown, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail and never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized students and teachers. ++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. 1973 - Crowd gathers. Mark wins Johnny and Mark shake hands and end up best friends Nobody goes to jail, nobody arrested, nobody expelled. 2006 - Police called, SWAT team arrives, arrests Johnny and Mark. Charge them with assault, both expelled even though Johnny started it. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Jeffrey won't be still in class, disrupts other students. 1973 - Jeffrey sent to office and given a good paddling by Principal. Sits still in class. 2006 - J

Then And Only Then
THEN AND ONLY THEN What baffles me about America is the money that we spend every year on the destructive and unappreciative Jew. We are one of the most powerful countries on the face of the earth, yet we are frightened of the stolen land that we support. Is it just me or has the white race been taken over by the hooked noise bastards who stole a country and who can not keep that country afloat without aid from the United States. The Jew has killed American popularity in the world theater due to their standings in the middle east, and now it seems that our troops are sent over to the middle east every five to ten years in order to save the jew from being totally overrun. We are living in a time that we are taught to fear and loath, the jew is involved in our everyday lives but most peoples eyes are still shut to the fact. With the jewish run media and the Jewish influenced schools a child can not learn anything that hasn’t already been tampered with by the Jews greedy hands. I

Then There Were Five.
Some nights like this... after months like this, I find myself cranking out pictures of a satisfactory caliber, talking to friends and family members that actually enjoy my company and don't just tolerate me- and I'm still a god damn mess. I think I might be one of those incurable cases of problematic. I was watching a documentary about interventions, and one lovely young lady on that episode was a cutter, I believe her name was Tamela. And she had the scarred, beautiful, and ripened to sweet perfection body that I need in my life for worship and re-useable entertainment. As I watched her trace whispy lines that erupted with blood down her wrists, across her thighs, between her tits, and over her ... unmentionables, I found myself in a combined state of arousal, and earnest longing. One part of me wanted to encourage her, beg her to cut deeper, to bleed for me, to come for me. The other side of me wanted to hold her down protect her from herself, explain that if she would just let m

* The No Contest Contest *
SALUTATIONS TAPPED CHERRIES and CHERRY TAP COMMUNITY - COME ONE, COME ALL - TO THE * NO CONTEST CONTEST * !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ************************************************** WHAT'S THE POINT ???? ************************************************** ************************************************** THIS IS THE NO CONTEST ! CONTEST ************************************************** ************************************************** .... THE RULES ARE SIMPLE AND UNIVERSAL IN LAW AND NATURE: ************************************************** YOU ARE LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY! ************************************************** YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AS YOU ARE..... ************************************************** YOU ARE AS SEXY AS WE ALL ARE..... ************************************************** YOU ARE AS INTELLIGENT AND AMAZING AS THE REST OF THE CHERRY TAP COMMUNITY!!!! ... *************************************************

"the Night Joe Gave Ken's Bong A Try"
"The Night Joe Gave Ken's Bong a Try" Sung to the tune of the 1970s pop song "The Night Chicago Died" It sat there alone and still Perched on the window sill It was Ken's crude homemade bong Which is the subject of the song When my dear old roomate Joe Grabbed that sucker to take a blow Then things when horribly wrong On his first hit off that bong ----------{CHORUS}---------- He just wanted to get high On the night Joe gave Ken's bong a try Brother, did that pipe pack quite a punch Brother, enough to make Joe blow his freakin' lunch Yes, it did -------------------------------- When Joe took a nice big toke He began to gag and choke The bong water gushed down his throat And man that was all she wrote Then Joe bolted up and ran Tearing a path straight for the can And it was said by one of the local punks Joe's in the bathroom blowing chunks ----------{CHORUS}---------- He just wanted to get high On the night Joe gave Ken's bong a try

8-30-06 4th Entry
August 30, 2006, 06:30:am I was driving home from taking my roommate to work and my mind started racing with different thoughts to help keep me a wake. Boy did it wake me up lmao. I got into thinking about what kinds of things I should put in this journal thingymajig. What came to mind is more information about me purrsonaly. How I think. How I feel. Things like that. How else are you the reader (even if that reader is only me) supposed to understand my way of thinking. My struggles with the weight. The main thing I got into thinking about is my internet family. How ironic that first thing that comes to mind are all my past and present internet friends. The family I talk to but never see. The family that I can open up to even though they may be thousands of miles away. I've been using the internet since about 1998. It was about a year after my mom died. Boy did it change my life. I love talking to people from all over the world. I've talked to people in China, Scot

9-3-06 5th Entry
September 03, 2006, 07:58:pm Not really in the mood to write today but figured I better as its been a few days since last entry and I need to keep making myself do this so it becomes habit forming. All the ideas I had a couple nights ago have just poofed from my brain. So I guess I'll just do a little update on things and skip the life pondering moments this time. Knowing me though it will still turn out to be a long entery rotflmao@me. I love to write even when I don't feel like writting. I was supposed to quit smoking 9-1-06. Was gonna do cold turkey. I failed miserbly. Well maybe I shouldn't say or feel that as I did cut down to about 1/4th a pack, which that itself is a good thing. I just don't feel like that, even though logically I know that is a plus and an improvement. Feelings and logic though are 2 different things. I'm starting on my 2nd pot of coffee today in an attempt to frigging stop eating and hold off on urge to grab a cig. Crimeny I'm gonna gain all the weigh

9-6-06 6th Entry
September 07, 2006, 01:11:am I'm in a rather odd mood tonight. I have no idea what-so-ever whats gonna come out of these fingers but I need to write. Might be another book length entry, might only be a few paragraphs. Ya never know with me lol. Have you ever wished things in your life would have been different but at the same time you'd never change it? I'm in this bit of a quandry. I hate how my life has been but I'd not change it for the most part. I bet you may be thinking if this is supposed to be a journal concerning my path to getting thin again, you must remember one thing. Our lives affect us completly, totally and utterly. Every little thing that has happend in my life has lead to this quest to be thin again. Notice I don't use the word skinny. Goddess, I hate that word lol. I don't want to be skinny. I want my curves, not bones protruding. Anywho, pulling another SideTrackedKatt ;) I've no clue why my mood is so strange. Its like I'm trapped but at the same tim

9-8-06 7th Entry
September 08, 2006, 02:07:am Well I came up with a subject to talk about tonight. Men. Yea, men have affected my goal in different ways. As they affect all women. And yes I know we women affect you males, so hush, this is my story dang it ;) rotflmao. When I was thin, in my Army years, I was asked out a hell of a lot of times. Apparently I was desirable. Even had an incident where my gorgeous AIT friend and I were chased by dozens of men and that is NOT exagerating, we were so good looking. My fiance of that time nearly freaked lmao. Never ran so fast in my life lolol (too bad I can't post pix in here, lol I have pix of us that day). Lemme tell ya what, celebs have my total sympathy with that mobing crap. Been there, done that, never again! We were terrified even while it was exzilerating lol. When I got home, I was still asked out but not nearly as much. You'd think I would have been the happiest, most confident purrson around huh. Nope, I believed I was a blimp and dis

9-12-06 8th Entry
September 12, 2006, 02:05:am I guess tonights subject is gonna be set backs and frustration. There is so much to be done before I have the surgery. I have to quit smoking completly and be smoke free 2 months before I can even see the surgeon. I also have to quit all caffiene completly before I see the surgeon. I also have to be doctor supervised weight tracking for 6 months, before I see the surgeon. Guess what folks? I got a lot to do before I see the surgeon lol. I think I'm gonna kick him in the tushie when I get to see the surgeon. Lmao, sorry, hadda amuse myself a bit there, thus the seeing surgeon thingymabobs. I'm getting horribly sick and its frustrating me cause when I get sick (bad cold) I tend to eat more. I went crazy today and bought a crapload of junk food *cringes at my weakness but damn its tasted good so far. But I think I finally out chocolated and sugared myself (yea right lol). I better have anyway. I ate so much junk food today, I had to have gained back h

9-16-06 9th Entry (part 1)
September 16, 2006, 01:07:am Not really sure, yet again, what I should talk about tonight. Kind of hard to think of of things to write about when there are so many ideas floating around in my mind, yet I keep doubting myself as to what I should put. I'm still having reservations about writting this stuff, but I continue to also have the urge that I must do it. So I guess I'm gonna lol. Well lets see...This past week I had my psycological evaluation for the gastric bypass. I've gone through it before but since it has been over a year, I had to take it again. Apparently I did pretty good because the Doc said it looks like I will be able to handle it (the process after the surgery). Told me though to keep an eye on the OCD and make sure to let Doc know if I go a bit haywire due to medication adjustments after surgery. I should be ok though cause I've been off the meds for a few days and am doing pretty good considering I've been sick all this week and am getting worse (sick). Not

9-16-06 9th Entry (part 2)
September 16, 2006, 01:59:am Ok so I'm in the mood to talk about some of my goal reward type things. Not really sure I should call them rewards but the things I will do when I get the weight off. I'm definatly going to be getting a complete full new wardrobe. I'm actually gonna have clothes for each season again too. Not just wear what I have until they are threadbare and holey. I want JEANS lol, and leather and skirts and shorts and nice shoes and jewelery and omg there are so many things I want. When I was thin I was a clothes horse big time lol. I'm gonna be worse this time. I want to look good in clothes and make clothes look good lol. Well its true! The clothes make the purrson while the purrson makes the clothes! I'm gonna be one hot mamma hehe. Another thing I am going to get is a motorcycle. Sue is going to take the money she saves from quitting smoking with me to save for a bike. She got me interested lol so I'm gonna do the same. I've always wanted a harley. I've onl

9-22-06 10th Entry
September 22, 2006, 04:29:am I'm having trouble coming up with ideas on what to write in here. If anyone is reading and has some, feel free to send me ideas. Once I've got something to sink my mind into, I can run with it lol. I think tonight I will talk about why I'm thinking of such silly things as my goals for when I succeed in getting the weight off. Its because I need to look forward to something. To give myself the support I need to keep going with what I am working on. The quitting smoking right now. If you don't have something to look forward to, in my opinion, then your chances of failure rise. I'm so used to failing myself that its easy to do. Its extremely hard to continue pushing myself towards sucess. Some of my goals may seem a bit far fetched for someone heading into middle age and living with a friend and her family in order to get back on my feet finacially but I believe I can make some of them happen. I also realize to why I've gone through most of m

9-29-06 11th Entry
September 29, 2006, 11:09:pm Guess tonight will just be a rambler, but then again any time I talk its a ramble lol. Oh hush to my friends, I'm allowed to tease me about me hehehe. Anywhoo, so far I've not quit smoking totally but have determined that Sunday Oct 1 is the day. No ifs, no ands, no buts (literal and figurative hehehe). I'm going to do a sort of ritual and Sue is gonna go with me. I'm gonna take all the cigs I have left and go to a stream near by and I'm gonna bury some for Earth, burn some for Fire, throw some to the Wind and the rest shall go for Water. The Spirit, well thats my giving them up and proving to myself and the Lady that I am worth her picking me. Sue's gonna take some pictures for a friend and also for me to see and remember what I tell the Lady that day. While I speak freely about all in my life, there are some things that are just between my Goddess and me lol (well that and the fact that right now I have no idea what I'm going to talk to her about ro

10-17-06 12th Entry
October 17, 2006, 03:26:am Its been a bit longer then I normally have been going in between postings so figured I better write something. I'm in a down slope on my emotions the last couple weeks. Real bad. I'm struggling to keep from berating myself for failing to quit smoking and am gaining weight badly. I have to guess no less then a 10 pound gain since beginning of Sept *sighs. I must yet again point out the fact that not all my entries are going to be upbeat, funny and thoughtful. Are you always that way? Didn't think so. So don't think so of me. I do actually feel a little bad (ok so maybe more then a little) for not writing more often this last couple weeks but I don't want this to turn into a "pity me" journal. I don't want or need any pity, but worry people might do so. I'm eating more when I'm struggling to not want a cigarette. Its also hard when there is only 1 non smoker in a house of 6 people, 5 smokers. Sue implimented the rule that only her hubby is all

10-26-06 13th Entry
October 26, 2006, 03:47:pm I'm in a bit of a "driving myself nuts and not sure what to do anymore" quandry. My emotions have decided to take a roller coaster ride continuously the last few weeks. One day I'm fine, the next I'm crabby, cranky and just plain miserble. I'm going totally insane with not being able to fully quit smoking. In fact I've gone UP instead of lowering more *sighs. Went from a pack lasting almost a week to lasting only 3 maybe 4 days. I've begun sleeping long hours again. Like I used to. Not every day though. But in the last 2 weeks there has been 3 maybe 4 days where I have almost literally slept 24 hours. I know some of the answers to that. Privacy. Alone time. Its the only time I have peace and quiet. Its the only way I can feel as if I have any time to myself. Its driving me bonkers. There are so many people around all the time. I don't even bother closing my door half the time anymore because it will just be opened within an hour or so of me coming

10-28-06 14th Entry
October 28, 2006, 01:03:pm Well the last couple entries have been a bit of a downer huh. These things happen. I just have to find a way to make sure I don't stay down. I can't let the frustration get to me. Thats what most of the down feeling is. Total, complete, utter FRUSTRATION! No one made me get fat but me. But who's trying to help me get unfat? Sometimes it feels like no-one. Other times it feels like everyone. Oddly enough, it never feels like an in-between situation. Don't it figure? Such is me lol. I do have quite a few people on my side. That encourage me and make me feel better. Sue and her family. My Aunt. The doctors. My online friends (you all know who you are). No matter how low I get, they keep right on trucking along with me. Kicking me in the ass when I need it. Letting me cry on their shoulders when that is needed. Making me think and feel when all I want to do is curl up in a ball, fall into a deep sleep and never wake up. Patting me on the back and sayi

11-9-06 15th Entry
November 09, 2006, 12:28:pm Well I went to the doctor today and got good news and bad news. Guess I'll do a good news bad news writeage today hehehe. Good news.....I have actually dropped 3 pounds since late September (last time I was there, I wasn't able to make my Oct appointment). Don't know how that happened but its a good thing. Bad news.....I have athritis in my right knee now in addition to my spine, thus the severe sharp pain I've been dealing with for about a week. Good news.....I got a prescription for a new product to help me quit smoking. Its called Chantix. You start the pill 7 days before your chosen quit date and then on that day you quit. If you slip up, you just keep trying and it usually takes a couple to few weeks for it work but apparently it does work. I'll give updates on how thats going once I start (have to get the Rx first lol). Bad news.....I'm still smoking, so more then likely my surgery hopes for the beginning of January are going to be delay

12-6-06 16th Entry
December 06, 2006, 04:35:pm Well it has been a long month. Not a lot went on, so I was quiet. Thats about to change. I have an appointment to see the surgeons office (not sure yet if I actually see him or if I see his people first) on Dec 18th. I met the goals I had to other then I lied about the smoking. I'm down to 2 or 3 cigs a day and getting sicker each day when I light up so the Chantix is doing its job! I figure another week, 2 tops and I'll be completly off. I feel horrid about lieing to the docs about the quitting but I had to in order to speed things up. Sue told me to go ahead and do it cause I was in a quandry. I HATE lieing! But in this instance, there was no choice. Reason is because at work, our union contract is up in February. Rumor has it that the company wants us to go back to the shitty insurance. The one that I dropped because it was no help to me at all. The one where I had 5 frigging doctors group together and inform the insurance company that it w

12-10-06 17th Entry
December 10, 2006, 07:03:pm I'm getting more nervous about seeing the surgeon. I keep thinking of what is going to happen. Its so hard to imagine, yet I can't stop thinking about it. I'm scared to death yet anxious to get it done. Now I'm researching again the differences between the Lap-Band and the actual bypass. Part of me wants the speedier loss with the bypass while the other part of me wants the least complications. I guess I'll just have to keep reading again and do a pro-con comparison lol. I went all day yesterday and half of today without a cig! I only smoked a half of one when I did finally give in. Nasty tasting it was lmao. Its getting easier to go longer distances of time between puffs. I don't even get jittery unless I'm pushing myself too far. But I made it over 1 full day, fully awake and not a big jittery! Only had a couple points of bad craving and I just told myself I can wait another hour. Such a big issue with such little things (the cigarettes).

12-23-06 18th Entry
December 23, 2006, 09:05:pm Well I saw the surgeon on the 18th. *sighs* I have to have a sleep apnea test and then they are going to work on getting the surgery through the insurance ;) (had ya worried there for a second with that sigh didn't I, hehehe). I passed all the doctors requirments, but he is adding the sleep apnea test because I snore (apparently like a freight train, its been told to me that the peeps here try to decide who's worse. Me or LA the boxer dog rotflmao). If I'm good to go with this test and the insurance accepts, I'll be having surgery hopefully the middle of February. The doc is booked until then so couldn't get things done faster. But at least its getting done. Good timing too. The last couple weeks have been hell on me with my back. I've even missed 2 days of work this past week because I was in so much pain I could hardly walk. The days I did get to work, people could apparently tell I was having a bad time of it because it was written all over

1-27-07 19th Entry
January 27, 2007, 05:55:pm I'm still waiting on the sleep apnea test. I've called a couple times to find out what is going on but all I get told is they are setting several appointments and I'll get a call when its done. Apparently its going to be 2 appointments. 1 to see the doc and 2nd for the overnight sleep. Oh yea that one should be fun, NOT. I'm a night owl by nature. Even when I have to be up at 5 am for work, I'm usually never in bed before 12 lol. Definatly not getting the surgery in Feb like I'd hoped. If I do its gonna be a miracle thats for sure. I'm beginning to have my doubts its even gonna happen. That bothers me. So I'm doing my best to keep from getting depressed over it by tormenting my friends and being goofier then normal. It helps most of the time. But not all. I'm worried that If the surgery goes through then I'm gonna get depressed again. Its all I can think about anymore when I'm not deliberatly keeping my mind occupied with other things. Goddess, I

2 The Next Move - Walking
Okay, you've written down that you want to do something, that re-emphasized your idea, gave you a better degree of committment. It's a very positive thing, work toward being positive, avoid being negative. You are probably still thinking about where you ultimately would like to go and that is just fine, there are some basics to take care of first anyway. All fitness and ultimately competition programs require a basic level of physical capability, you will be the one to determine how far you want to go. The areas that need to be developed are your cardio-vascular ability, your strength, and your mental attitude. It is a good idea to start with walking. With this I have made the assumption that you aren't doing much at this point. With your car or some other way, measure a three mile route and note the places where the individual miles occur. If possible make that route a continuous circle without repeats. For women, assure that it is a safe and populated area and DON'T walk

2-24-07 20th Entry
Not much to update on concerning the gastric bypass. I will know nothing until after the sleep apnea and thats another month away. This waiting is killing me. I'm stressing so badly now that my blood pressure reached triple digits on the bottom line for the first time ever (116, top was 180something, I never have understood that other then to know it aint good). But then I also have broncitus that I'm dealing with too. Not to mention a quack of a doctor thats already not on my good side and has me searching for yet another new doctor. I so regrete picking this one. I can't stand how his office is ran and how he tries to bully me into doing what he wants. Yea he is the doctor but ya know what, ITS MY FRIGGING BODY! I know what has worked for me and what hasn't! I've paid attention to the dozens of different medicines I've been put on for my pain and for my OCD. He doesn't even know who I am and he wants to change them all! Damned quack. Doesn't care for his patients othe

16 The Need For Rest
Here is one that will really confuse you. After all this work, physical and mental now I'm going to give you a hard core truth, muscle is developed during rest. When you are working out you are tearing the muscles down so they can grow during recovery. That recovery is rest. So take a day off probably more often than you think you should. In fact if your fitness program is working good, you will probably think that you're goofing off. It takes a different form of discipline than you've used during workouts but it does take discipline for sure. A total day off will happen when you're a beginner or up to the intermediate levels of fitness. When you get deep into it your rest days will more than likely be doing a different muscle group while the group you did yesterday doesn't do very much. If you are getting ready for a big event the rest you take prior to the event is a critical part of your "peaking". Avoid that rest and you won't do as well as you would have. So h

Then Don't Add Me
So, this site is to make friends and whatever else happens, happens. Sexual preference aside, it seems as thought everyone is a friend/fan/comment/rate whore/addict/junkie, so is there a rule when sexual preference is "different" or what you would like it to be percieved as "different". Being in Hawaii, I pretty much comment and rate everyone, and if you reply, it'll keep going. I check my alerts, if you're in there, you'll most likely get a comment. I realise not everyone is of the same sexual preference, I know what is appropriate, DON'T ASSUME that just because I'm gay the comment is going to be a naked guy with flames all around him. If i rate/comment you, check out my page, if you don't like it, don't rate/comment back, and you won't be bothered. SERIOUSLY!! some people are too full of themselves. If you don't like it...STAY OUTTA MY ALERT BOX!!!

Then She Smiled
...then she smiled and my heart, sank like a rock I smiled back, and thoughts of poetry begin to fall like snow a slow moving drift when each words land they melt, to my sunk'n heart beautiful feelings, beautiful emotions waking, like the dawn of a new day her dark brown eyes turns to copper, when she looks to the sun as her hair, flows with her motion a silly smile, sticks to my face as she turns, with a smile music plays in my mind beautifly, as my words turn to song if you only knew, the beauty you have shared with me your smile, your eyes, and your long hair flowing with your movements, so gracefull, so smooth as I get carried away, no I wont, no I will not fall in love with you, its crazy, to feel like this for an angel then, with her beautiful brown eyes she sees my thoughts, and hears my song she spreads her wings, tall and wide she smiles, then she flies away to the sky she swoops through the clouds, and

Then Virgin...lmao
A guy out on the golf course takes a high speed ball right in the crotch. Writhing in agony, he falls to the ground. As soon as he could manage, he took himself to the doctor. He said, "How bad is it doc? I'm going on my honeymoon next week and my fiancee is still a virgin -- in every way." The doctor told him, "I'll have to put your Willie in a splint to let it heal and keep it straight. It should be okay by next week." He took four tongue depressors and formed a neat little 4 sided splint and taped it all together ... an impressive work of art. The guy mentions none of this to his girl, marries her, and goes on their honeymoon. That night in the motel room, she rips open her blouse to reveal her beautiful breasts. She said, "You're the first; no one has EVER touched these." He immediately drops his pants and replies.. "Look at this, .. still in the CRATE"

~the Naked Doll Family Everyone Welcome~
THE NAKED DOLL FAMILY` YOU CAN BECOME A MEMBER OF THE NAKED DOLL FAMILY ..BY SIMPLY CHANGING YOUR NAME AND WHEN YOUR ONLINE PUT YOUR BEER MUG AS YOUR NAME AND THEN...NAKED DOLL. WHAT IS NAKED DOLL FAMILY... WELL YOU KNOW THOSE BARBIE DOLLS YOU SEE IN THE YARD SALES WITH NO CLOTHES ON AND THEIR HAIR IS A MESS..WELL THATS WHAT A NAKED DOLL IS..SO BECOME A MEMBER OF THAT FAMILY..AND YOU WILL BE WANTED..NOT A CAST AWAY ANY MORE:) THERE IS NOTHING YOU NEED TO DO IN THIS FAMILY..SIMPLY JUST BE A MEMBER AND A FRIEND..

Thenetwork Is Forever Offline
DEVIL MACHINE NETWORK IS DISBANDED.KANG AND I WILL CONTINUE TO RECORD AND PLAY AS DISIAM,AND ARE LOOKING FOR A BASSIST AND A RHYTHM GUITARIST.NEW MYSPACELINK UP AS SOON AS WE DESIGNIT,STAY TUNED FOR MORE DETAILS/

Then This
If this is beautiful, As crimson on a petal the glint of laughter in the loving eyes the cool rush of streams that head down a divide this is life, rushing upon us seldom time to take a breath. Then this is beautiful. Childhood smiles of late night movies long after the cinema closes the reels play in our heads distant places captivate our dreams and roll them into us. Every shade of life is in this blade of grass whirled between my fingers I make it whistle and it pierces the sky.

4-3-07 24th Entry
Uhoh, 2 entries in 2 days. Scarey huh? Relax, I'm actually feeling quite normal (even though its taken 6 darvacet and 2 800 mg ibuprophen, but hey, I'm not depressed today cause I can handle the pain, is a good thing it is). I know I'm having more bad days then good now but I'm trying to find ways to help that when I can think properly. I do try to pull myself through this even though it may seem lately that I'm simply a total wimpering idiot. But hey, I am at times. I'm stressed out. I'm hurting like hell most of the time physically. I'm quite frustrated. Shit happens. I'll get over it and eventually be quite embarassed at my low times even though I know deep down it happens. So I bet my regulars are thinking something along the lines of "Ok Katt, whats up your sleeve that your in a good mood after sooo much bad mood times?". Well let me tell ya the answer to that. Its my arms. But then again, I'm wearing sleeveless shirt right now so I'm thinking that maybe t

4-4-07 25th Entry
Ok, don't fall over in heart failure reggie peeps. Your not seeing things. 3 days in a row! The last 2 not icky. Pretty nifty huh lol. So today I figured I would be a tad bit smart to do a bit of explaining as to what the gastric bypass actually is. I won't go into too much detail because I actually did a little bit of research to find a couple good sites that show and explain more about the surgery then I can tell. So here are some sites. http://www.bariatricedge.com/dtcf/pages/gastric_bypass.htm?pgn=6 This is the surgery I am more then likely going to have. http://www.bariatricedge.com/dtcf/pages/band.htm?pgn=6 This the the lapband surgery. http://www.bariatricedge.com/dtcf/pages/home_visited.htm This is the site address, good information. http://www.clevelandclinic.org/health/health-info/docs/2500/2534.asp?index=9671 Another site with information on surgery. In general, basically what is done with the gastric bypass is..... your cut in the bell

Then There Was You.
I had waited and ached for some strong loving arms And someone to ease my pain and help me feel calm, For these blessings I wondered what I had to do I just opened my eyes - and then there was you. I had never believed in those fairytale things Hearts and flowers and Valentines and Cherubs with wings, If there was true romance then I never knew Until I opened my eyes - and then there was you. Somehow my life changed and it spun me around I was given a chance to enjoy the love that I found, I finally felt happy and had pure love sweet and true And all this is mine - cause now there is you.

Then She Kame Along!
Thiz iz a poem i wrote...yeah, itz kinda um...well, itz not the best..but i wuz upset n' wrote it fast! Woot WoO!!! hehe! I f-in el oh ve ee all my poetry!! Then She Came Along!!! I love him, and he loved me, then she came along, and ruined it for me I like how it used tu be, he'd hold me close, make me feel warm and secure, then she came along, take a look in the mirror He'd kiss my lips, and tell me he loved me, then she came along, this is all so wrong He'd call me everyday, just tu hear my voice, then she came along and took him from me He used tu cuddle with me, he made me feel so free, then she came along, and ruined it for me!!!

4-9-07 26th Entry
Gotta love doctor offices that have staff that are so incompitent they make your life crazy. So here's the scoop as to why I say that. As my regulars should well know by now, the doctor I deal with now is not one of my favorite offices to visit. I've had nothing but problems from the get go (january this year). It just got worse. So much worse that it could mean I have to do 3 more months of doctor supervised wieght loss. If I decide to say fuck it and find a new doctor, it will mean 6 months. So yea, nice long possible delay I'm facing here. Here's the story. My surgeon office needs a copy of the medical stuff I went through with my old doctor that left her practice (6 months weight loss supervision, note the 6 month ggrrrr, I also had 4 months nutritionist and a mental evaluation. Luckily those 2 offices the surgeon has the results so no worries there). In January when I switched to my new doctor, I signed paperwork to get copies of my medical records sent ov

Then My True Love Has Hair Of Red
My sweet’s embrace grabs hold of something deep within my soul. Her magic touch soothes my heart and fills an empty hole. My sweet’s kisses are so soft and gentle, more exquisite than fine wine. Her slender fingers course through my hair, sending shivers down my spine. My sweet’s gaze I dare not meet too long, although it may be bliss. For in her eyes of ocean blue, I may fall into the abyss. My sweet‘s an earth bound angel, whose wings she had to shed. If my sweet be my true love, then my true love has hair of red

5-12-07 27th Entry
Guess its been a while since my last update. I've been feeling rather burned out lately. The only thing that catches my interest of late is playing EverQuest. Kind of funny right now that I have a bit of urge to write but gotta have the music of the game booming in my ears. Could be cause of how sick I am to that the music is soothing and giving me a bit of a push. Not much though *sighs* I had the sleep apnea test. Went fine. Kind of weird having all the wires hooked to my head via some icky pasty stuff. Didn't take me long to fall alseep either. The bed was really comfy. Anywhoo, I was told in the morning that at first, while I was sleeping on my side, there was very little apnea activity. Then I rolled onto my back. *sighs*, the way it looks, I'll be back for sleep apnea treatments. However I won't find that out until July 3rd! ANOTHER couple months of waiting! Makes me wanna cry, literally. I can't take the waiting anymore. I keep thinking that they ar

Then Came The Dawn. . .
S.C. lawmakers consider allowing concealed weapons on campuses Story Highlights• S.C. House subcommittee passes measure • Bill is not expected to pass the Legislature before adjournment next month • Opponents of the measure fear more accidental shootings • 37 states ban guns at schools COLUMBIA, South Carolina (AP) -- To prevent school shootings, some South Carolina legislators want more guns on campuses. A House subcommittee approved a measure Wednesday that would allow concealed weapon permit holders to carry guns onto public school campuses, from elementary schools to universities. Supporters say having trained and armed gun owners in schools could prevent massacres like the April 16 shootings at Virginia Tech, where one armed student killed 32 people. Only Utah currently has a law allowing concealed weapons on campuses. "We're not talking about kids. We're talking about responsible adults," said Republican Rep. Jeff Duncan, who sponsored the bill. Opponents fear

"the Natural" Randy Couture To Aid Returning War Fighters
Couture's Foundation to aid Soldiers in need By Thomas Gerbasi Heavyweight Champion Randy Couture sees the headlines. He reads about the tragedies, hears many wonder what the youth of the United States are doing to effect change in this world, and the prognosis is almost always negative. But then he’ll visit a military base or medical facility, and he’ll see young people who are not only doing their part to improve their lives and the lives of those around them, but who epitomize the best of what this country has to offer. “You go and meet a bunch of these soldiers, some of whom are perfectly healthy and over there putting it on the line, and some of them who have come back wounded, and you realize quickly that you are looking at and staring in the face of the backbone and of the foundation that our country was built on,” said Couture. “It’s alive and well in these guys.” That’s a good thing for the present and future here in the States, but there is also the down side, the f

5-20-07 28th Entry
I can't wait till this emotionaly gambit I've been running lately goes away. I hate this up and down crap I'm going through. I sit and wonder how much more I can take waiting wize and I wind up telling myself I've gone this far, I can go a few more months. I just have to change the time frame of my plans for the future. But the hardest thing in that is I have to find a way to give up having kids. One the things I've wished for since I was around 17. I wanted to have a set of twin sons in my mid 20's. It ain't gonna happen. People keep telling me that it can. Keep trying to help me not give up on that but I have to face reality. I can't have kids now because it would more then likely put me in a wheelchair due to destroying my back with the weight addition. So by the time I get the surgery, get the weight off and would be capible of carrying the rugrat (or rugrats in my hope), I'd be over 40. Too old in my eyes to have kids. So I gotta give up one dream that I've nev

5-21-07 29th Entry
I got an extremly nifty phonecall today.....I no longer have to wait until July 3 for my sleep apnea test results! I go this wednesday!!!!! 2 days! OMG I'm so relieved right now I could cry lol. Its been so hard waiting and waiting and now just POP, almost 2 months time is knocked off the wait time. It means resceduling my doctor appointment with Doc Quackers, which means I'll get scolded again, which means I'm just gonna tell him to go shove his head up his ass and find another doctor. Well ok, maybe for this month and June, I'll bite my tongue and pretend patience. The last thing I want to do right now is miss this month and next month appointments when its the last thing I have to do (unless my old doctor has sent my old records, which if thats the case then I have no worries. This is just a precaution to make sure I have the 6 month doc thing in.) I'm so excited and relieved and feel silly for how low I've been (I always feel silly when I've pulled through a low

5-27-07 30th Entry
Have you ever reached a point in your life that you can't help but think of the crossroads you've crossed? The dead ends in life that flipped around to be new openings? Pondered "What if this had happened this way or that that way?" Regreted, while at the same time not, regreted the paths you've taken? I'm having one of those times tonight. For the first time in what seems like ages, I actually have the house to myself for almost a full day. I've enjoyed chilling downstairs watching a few movies, talking to FizzFizz (my dog). Hell I even cooked supper. Just one of those Campbells meal in a box things but hey, I used the oven and mixed the batter for the bisquits so it was cooking. I watched "Over the Hedge", "Forrest Gump" (one of the all time best movies ever made, and of course it made me cry and think as usual). Lastly I watched "Somethings Gotta Give". Excellent movie. But another one that made me cry and think. And think. And think. Did I mention between the 2 movies I cr

Then He Came
The night was stormy. The lightning flashing across the sky like dancers in the the night. The rain poubding of the roof matching the the beating of my heart. The fear in me that it may become worse. Standing by the window watching the actual beauty of it but afraid of the danger sent an almost eroctic feeling through me. The feelings warring against each other. How to find peace of mind and body on a night like this. Being alone and knowing that my fears may take over my mind. But I could not draw myself away from the sight before me. Listening to the thunder roar, vibrating the house, I did not hear my bedroom door open. Nor did I sense a presence in the room. Not knowing that standing in front of the window that every time hte lighting flashed across the starlite heavens, the gown that I was wearing became transparent ant showed the outline of my body beneath it.He stood there watching me. Wondering what was going through my mind as I looked outside. The silhouette of my breas

~~the Next Reagan~~
The Next Reagan By Bruce Walker (No relation Rich,Jack) Two months ago, I wrote an article, "The Next Reagan," in which I outlined many of the reasons why Fred Thompson will be the next Ronald Reagan. Events since then have confirmed my arguments. I predict that Fred Thompson will enter the Republican nomination, that he will win it fairly easily, and that he will also defeat Hillary comfortably in the presidential election. Why? First, no Republican since Ronald Reagan draws remotely as much genuine enthusiasm among conservatives as a serious presidential candidate. Both of the Bush presidencies have been mild disappointments. Though respect for our current commander-in-chief is high, President Bush is simply not an effective communicator or articulator of conservative principles. President Bush, however, is light years ahead of Senator Dole, the 1996 nominee, and also better as a communicator and campaigner than his father. That is how bad things have been for con

Then We Have All The People On Ct Needing Help In There Lounges
I need help to but most of the ones u hirer are low life scum of ct they want the title and till u that morning they be there at nite then not show up for a week at a time.It's hard screening the real people and the wannabe's

7-2-07 34th Entry
No updates on insurance approval and no new doctor visits lol. I just felt like writting a little bit about part of my "support system" via internet friends etc. I've been writting this journal for nearly a year now. The longest I have ever kept! Its not easy at times but there are a couple people that keep me going just by simply asking if there are updates. I thank the Goddess for all the people that have put up with me during the last year. Who knows how bad off I'd be if I didn't have my friends. I think about everyone thats let me know in some form and even those that haven't and hope ya'll are having a nifty day or whatever it time it is when I think lol. But right now there are 2 on my mind, 1 more-so then the other (even though they are hooked up together, and its not really 1 more-so but more intently for some reason). I'm not gonna go into detail, not that I know much detail but needless to say theres tension and fighting within said couple and I worry abou

Then And Now...wake Up America
Subject: Fw: Then And Now... > > > > > Scenario: Jack pulls into school parking lot with rifle in gun rack > > 1956 - Vice Principal comes over, takes a look at Jack's rifle, goes > to > his car and gets his to show Jack. > > 2006 - School goes into lockdown, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail > and > never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized > students and teachers. > > ++++++++++++++++++++++ > > Scenario: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. > > 1956 - Crowd gathers. Mark wins. Johnny and Mark shake hands and end > up > best friends. Nobody goes to jail, nobody arrested, nobody expelled. > > 2006 - Police called, SWAT team arrives, arrests Johnny and Mark. > Charge > them with assault, both expelled even though Johnny started it. > > ++++++++++++++++++ +++++++++++++ > > Scenario: Jeffrey won't be still in class, disrupts other students. > > 1956 - Jeffrey sent to office and given a good paddling by

7-22-07 35th Entry
Well I guess I should bite the bullet and update this journal. Its almost 4 am and I'm pretty tired but figured I better stop delaying. (Update a little while into this, its already a long one, your gonna need time to read this one). I got updated on how things are going with the insurance company last week. I found out that I have to start the 6 month weight loss/watch portion of the process over. Yea, this 6 to 8 month process is now already up to 13 months, now I have another 6 months to add on and then there's no telling how long it will be for waiting on the surgeon. IF I get accepted, that is. Can we say major blow to the nerves and frustration? But I'm holding it together better then I thought I would. The first couple days I was teary and angery. VERY angery. So angery in fact, I fired my doctor. So yea, on top of the newest delay, I have to find another doctor again. Fun fun, joy joy. So here's the story in as brief a nutshell as I can get it. The do

Then We Started Our Vacation
I have to honestly admit we started our vacation on the right foot (I am guessing it's because we had just woke up at the time) and then as the day progressed, I was doing something then he decided that I was doing it wrong and was going to "show" me how to do it (I was putting a car freshener thing in the truck) and instead of letting me do it, He tried to take over. Well, that got over pretty quick. Then we got home and we were reading the paper while sitting on the porch, and I started sneezing. So then it was time to decide if a nap would be helpful or not. I took my allergy medication and did go lay down. I am really not surprised I laid back down. I was going to enjoy the first day of my vacation no matter what it took. Then we go back to Saturday night....I had the chance to talk to Bill, who was on the way to Hooters, with his cousin and some other relatives, and his cousin I had not spoken to since about 1993 (about the same time Bill and I lost contact) and so last night

Then Came You
I was left all alone; with my heart in my hand. I walked on the beach; and built castles in the sand. For now I know the reason; for all the salt in the sea. It's from all the tears shed; from other girls like me. As I walked from the shore; a solitary figure came into view. I began to wonder who it was; but then came you. You took my hand and kissed it; then told me your name. I couldn't believe what was happening; things just weren't the same. You held me close in your arms; and things felt so right. You took me home later; then left for the night. You came back day after day; saying things I needed to hear. You brought warmth into my heart; keeping away every fear. I look back on that day; the first day we met. Thank you for your love darling; Your love I will never forget.

Then I Come To Realize (poem)
I'm alone and empty you are my happiness being with you makes the days go faster the night longer hold you in my arms i come to realize when i see you, you brighten up my day when your not around i miss you when your around i still miss but i know your there the thought of losing you is tearin me apart being with you makes my hole and the emptyness inside me gone i come to realize when im with you nothing else matters its like the world has stopped and it revoles around us for the moment then sometimes i get scared and i do things that hurt us then i come to realize that not what i want cause it makes me empty and alone then i come to realize i feel deep down i love you but im scared i dont wanna get hurt so i push it deep inside me and denie i feel this way then i come to realize it hurts more doing this then just letting you know the way i feel then i come to realize they one thing im scared of is love it hurts when it dont

8-4-07 36th Entry
Hey the entry that matchs my age lol. Maybe I'll be a smartalex and match my next one to my birthday to age lol (37 on the 21st, Goddess I feel old while at same time I don't lol). Fair warning, yet again this one is more then likely going to wind up being a book. But there are things I discovered about myself recently that I feel I must share. I need to open up more to make this journal "complete" in a sense. I've talked alot of myself, how I got to be fat etc etc etc. Now its time for more truths. Truths about myself that render me a moron at times. Its time for me to let go of more of my demons and move on and grow as ME. Truths that 2 maybe 3 people total in my life know about. There are things I will not open up about to anyone unless I know I'm safe with them. Even most of those I KNOW I'm safe with, don't know unless they've figured it out by my speak. Maybe not talking about some things is part of my holding myself back. Holding things in for me is not a go

*the New And Improved Ultimate About Me*
Basics:Name:LisaDate of Birth:11-5-1970Birthplace:Los Angeles,CACurrent Location:Oklahoma City,OKEye Color:Blue/GreenHair Color:BlondeHeight:5'2"Heritage:Mom's side/Indian-Real Father's side/GermanPiercings:SeveralTattoos:YesFavourite:Band/Singer:INXS-MICHAEL HUTCHENCESong:The StairsMovie:Right now EquilibriumDisney Movie:I still love Pete's dragonTV show:Lost/Rescue me/Nip-Tuck/The Office/MindfreakColor:PinkFood:Pasta Baby!Pizza topping:HawaiianIce-Cream Flavor:Coldstone-Cake batterDrink (alcoholic):Midouri SoursSoda:Dr. PepperStore:Victoria's SecretClothing Brand:AeropostaleShoe Brand:NikeSeason:FallMonth:DecemberHoliday/Festival:ChristmasFlower:Lily,for my granddaughter's NameMake-Up Item:Anything from SephoraBoard game:Lord of the Rings MonopolyThis or ThatSunny or rainy:SunnyChocolate or vanilla:ChocolateFruit or veggie:FruitNight or day:NIGHT!!Sour or sweet:SweetLove or money:I have both ;)Phone or in person:DependsLooks or personality:BothCoffee or tea:CoffeeHot or cold:HotYour:

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8-21-07-37th Entry
Hehehe, told I might wait till my 37th birthday to put up my 37th entry LMAO. So yea, today I turned 37. I feel old but in a good mood. My friends have made my day nifty. Now if only the flipping rainy days would stop so my pain level will drop! I hurt like a bitch lol (arthritic spine and knees, yea, best bad weather tellers ever, lemme tell ya! Blah lol) Not much new with trying to get the surgery process moving along. I have a sleep apnea doctor visit thursday. I've actually been using the machine (cpap) the last week or so since I got the nose mask instead of the full facial. I don't wake up with major panic attacks anymore while using it. I still am only sleeping a few hours at a time but doing it several times a day/night and I actually don't feel like I'm full zombie when I wake up. I think its helping some. It seems I've finally stopped ripping that mask off in my sleep as well (the first few nights I woke up with it beside me, so it didnt fully panic attack me

9-7-07 38th Entry
Well I met my new doctor yesterday (9-6) and she is so friendly and she spent a good bit of time listening to me explain what all is going on and what I need her to do! I was very impressed. Professional too but not to the point of intimdating. More along the lines of "I know my job, you know you, lets work together" type thing is how I feel. Granted, she may prove me wrong (*says sarcastically..like that would be a first lol) but hey, she listened! And listened. And listened lmao. I felt rather bad for her lol. By the end of the visit, she did have a slightly overwhelmed look about her lmao. I appologized cause I did feel bad springing so much on her at first visit. But there was nothing else I could do. So here"s the run down as best I can in shortness (yea yea yea, I know, ME and writing short doesn"t go together lol, I can"t help it lol). Anywhoo. Work situation..... Work approached me a couple weeks ago and suggested I see about going on short term disability. In a nut s

Then And Now
The back of this photo has in my dad's handwriting, "11th District Installation/Department of Illinois/September 17, 1977/McHenry County, Illinois/American Legion Post #491". My mom got the photo before she and my dad divorced in 1993 and wrote beneath it so she'd remember, "Bob + Dave, When you said Pledge to Flag". (I prefer "David" to "Dave", but I'm not going to correct my mom on that! LOL) I got it from Mom when Martha, Sarah, and I visited her last year and we were going through old photos. It really is one of the ones of me (yes, that is ME, short, blond, and wearing the Legionnaire cap almost too big for my head) I'm most proud of because, besides showing Dad with his arm around me, it shows us sharing something. Dad's being installed as the state commander at this ceremony and I'm leading the meeting hall in saying the Pledge of Allegiance. Wow. Today, nearly thirty years later, I woke up early and brought my son Jeffrey with me to Bethany Lutheran's Brakfast with th

Then
Remember then, Dreaming of when Our childhood fears Would be gone with the years. Now we look at the past Wondering why it didn't last. Days in the hot sun Always having fun. Going for a ride Letting the bike glide. Biking, sledding, Swimming, swinging, Days of old Never to be sold. Signs of change Widely range. Moving away No more play. Friends forever Talk almost never. Through the years, Our lives shift gears. Laughter, smiles, Fears, miles, Distant souls Drifting goals. Friendship the art Connects our hearts. Now that it is when We dream of Then. 3/3/04

Then She Said My Name
Let me tell you 'bout the book That I've been reading It's got all my favorite words Let me tell you 'bout who I saw scheming Ya better know it's not my girl Let me tell ya 'bout what I've been seeing It's the window to the world Let me tell you 'bout the secret I've been keeping Said the oyster to the pearl Are you sorry? No not me And tell me why should I be Cause I've been knocked right off of my feet And no I didn't even miss a beat I never thought a love could be like this Then she said my name Now I'm wrapped around her finger I'll never be the same So let me tell ya 'bout the joke That you've been living Said the clown to the fool Let me tell you 'bout The wheel that keeps on spinning Said the teacher to the school Are you worried? Well could be, cause I'll tell you what I've seen I've weathered storms that would sink most ships Yes I know when to button my lip Offer me a melody Pour a cup of wine Spill your deepest memory And someday

11-3-07 39th Entry
(((Up until the point where I say its a couple days later, I had written an off-liner. This one is really long because of that. I'll be doing some frequent shorter posting the next few days or so because I have more to tell from what was going on while I was off-line))) I've been sitting here off-line for nearly 2 months now. Man has it been hell! BORED is my constant state of mind. I've not once had the urge to to write until this entry. I struggle to keep my hopes up, my fears down and my depression away. FRUSTATED is my constant emotional state. Lemme tell ya, its not fun. I've worried a couple people slightly a couple times with my extreme lowness. But in general I'm standing on my tootsies still *wink*. I've been doing good in other ways *big grin* (for the first time in stating this news)... In the month of Sept '07 I lost 21 pounds. With little effort. My success??? I was taking Meridia (15 mgs), a diet pill that didn't give me any kinds of wacky side eff

Then You Die
I got a voice mail from my ex wife saying that my sister in law passed away Friday. Talk about being hit hard. She was the the baby of the family and may have lead the hardest life of her of her family. She was under 40. I remember all the hear ache she caused my in laws. I remember all the heart she she caused my ex. She walked her walk and got lost in the lime light of drugs. One of the last times I seen her she looked like a human raisin. All the life sucked out of her. Last I had heard she found the road to recovery and was on it. She didn't die from an over dose she died from the after effects from years of abuse. She leaves behind both parents, a brother, two sisters an ex husband, a daughter and grand child, numerous nieces and nephews. Years ago I was on the same path of destruction. For those who read my profile you know I have over 13 yrs of sobriety. I know at least one person is asking themselves what are you doing here. FUBAR home of the online happy hour. Well th

Th End Of It
you are who everyone thinks you are so fragile and alone so desprate and cold just needing a warm soul do you look like you will sell your self to anyone and everybody? for little or nothing? just to be alone in the end like the last leaf on the tree hanging on by hope impossible to stay there through a cold upcoming end. so take my hand and follow me just hang on and wait for me keep calling my name and i will eventually find what you are looking for could you find your own way? can you make your own path? be something you can respect? without whithering away like the rest? so hold on and have faith that we will meet again in our dreams.

Then Now And Tomorrow!
yeah im in maryland now. a lot more fucking different than i thouhgt it would be. getting up everyday at 7:30 and working from 8 0'clock in the morning till abt 6 or 7 at night is bullshit especially when i have to load over fucking 300 tires on a fucking mid sized big rig hauling truck for hauling used and new tires. and its all i have right now. im starting to do all of the thing like my fucking ged my fucking license permit blah blah blah etc etc what the fuck ever. hang out with my drunk friends at nights get waisted off of budwieser and whiskey or taquila mm yummy. yeah i miss my nephew. i love that kid so fucking much id take a bullet a beat down anything in the world for him to be my own man. ive always wanted a kid. yeah well being 20 yrs old its hard to find a woman here in glenburnie md a place called marley who would be willing to have one with you. but uh my biggest fear and also goal is to a soldier. to serve my country with honor respect dignity courage and to

Then The Wind Changed
Then the Wind Changed Then the wind changed empty arms left behind kaleidoscope of thoughts windmills of the mind. Then the wind changed memories whisper through trees words of love spoken drifting in the breeze. Then the wind changed autumn tears fall slowly down leaves of love left lying scattered on the ground. Then the wind changed no longer bearing fruit barren..slowly wilting dying at the root.....

Then Laugh
Build for yourself a strong box, Fashion each part with care; When it's strong as your hand can make it, Put all your troubles there; Hide there all thought of your failures, And each bitter cup that you quaff; Lock all your heartaches within it, Then sit on the lid and laugh. Tell no one else its contents, Never its secrets share; When you've dropped in your care and worry Keep them forever there; Hide them from sight so completely That the world will never dream half; Fasten the strong box securely- Then sit on the lid and laugh. Bertha Adams Backus

11-12/13-07 40th Entry
Wow! My 40th entry already. I used to think I'd never make it to 10 let alone 40th lol. The odd date is because I started this entry late on the 12th and finished on the 13th hehehe. So I guess I'll do a lil bit of updating. Yea yea yea, quit yer groaning, we all know its more then likely gonna be another mini book entry lol. Bite me! I like to write ok lol. I can't believe how many compliments I've gotten sine I put up the new pictures. Totally blows my mind at points. I've even got a few guys wanting to get to know me (*faints in shock lmao). Its so weird! Must admit, it does help the ego with a lil boost while at the same time overwhelms me. I started working on the website to put this in. Gonna take a while but its started lol. Luckily I put this journal in other sites because I discovered VampireFreaks didn't hold all the entries. I was like oh phooey patootie lol. Good thing I decided to do the site, that way I know I will have all the entries when the time comes to deci

~ The Next.....~
I dreamt of you last night. I felt your touch again. I love it when I visit you, if only in my dreams. I smiled once again. I always seem to do, when you come to me. I am shining just for you. Time does not matter. Distance is but a thing. Nothing holds back the feelings, or the passion that you bring. I wait so eagerly, for the next one yet to come. The next time we're together, the next time in the sun. Because it shines so bright. The darkness goes away. you fufill each desire. I love it when you stay. But then I wake up, to the real world that I live. I have to let you go again and all the love you give. But I know you will be back, my dreams will keep you near; to keep you close to me , till the next time we meet on here.

4 The Nerd Girls
Hey heres a question. I love intelligent nerdy girls. The nerdier the better!! So i ask all of you nerd girls out there to help me out. What is a good way for me to meet nerd girls? comments always appreciated!!!

*the New And Improved Ultimate About Me*
*The New and Improved Ultimate About Me* Basics: Name: Jennfier Date of Birth: 02/04/1980 Birthplace: Mesa, AZ Current Location: Mesa, AZ Eye Color: Green Hair Color: Strawberry Blonde Height: 5'6.5 Heritage: Irish, German, maybe French or Russian Piercings: 26, Ears, Tongue, Labret, Nipples Tattoos: 8, ankle, foot, back, arms and boobie Favourite: Band/Singer: Flogging Molly Song: The Way of The Fist, Five Finger Death Punch Movie: Empire of the Sun Disney Movie: I hate Disney TV show: ATHF Color: Gun metal Grey, flat black, Green, Brown Food: Meat Pizza topping: Ham Ice-Cream Flavor: Vanilla Drink (alcoholic): Rum Soda: Coke Store: Grocery : ) Clothing Brand: Levi's Shoe Brand: Adio Season: Summer Month: October Holiday/Festival: Halloween Flower: Orchid maybe... Make-Up Item: ??? Board game: Don't know. This or That Sunny or rainy: Rainy Chocolat

Then You Know
When you feel someone's love more then they give it, then you know. When you hear I love you before they say it, then you know. When you feel a touch before they are with you, then you know. When everyone else around you fades into a blur but the one you are looking at, then you know. When their voice is the first one to start your day and the last one to put you to bed , then you know. When you cook their favorite meal before asked, then you know. When you find yourself looking at all the years to come before tomorrow, then you know. When you can throw yourself in the wind and be free in love, then you know. I know I make it sound pretty simple and that loved is never actually known, but when you are happy, content ,and not feeling alone. Then you are blessed to know that love is attainable and is worth all the tears, and the hurt, so grab your shovel and start moving the dirt. Start making your path to the one that you want and don't ever look back, Even when th

5-16-08 44th Entry
I figured I better give a brief update. I had to delay calling surgeon (this time my situation, not problems with doctors) due to some money issues (can't pay co-pays without money ya know). But I did finally call and was supposed to have appointment on the 19th (May). I got a call back to find out that in 06, when all this began, the nutritionist put down I wouldn't be elegible because I smoke and drank. Drank? A few times a year (maybe once a month or so if even that much considering I'll go months on end without touching booze, and usually its wine unless I go to the bar, which is next to never) means I get rejected? OMFG. Needless to say I freaked. I'm so stressed out its making me sick. The smoking I can see, but the drinking? Anywho, I see the nutritionist on the 20th and then can call surgeon's office again, IF she says I am eligible. How ironic is that. 5 doctors and a therapist recommend the suregery and a non doctor could screw my chance up. I am so close to givin

5-21-08 45th Entry
I saw the nutritionist yesterday. I must say it was very hard on me. I was so stressed worrying I was literally getting sick (even though I've got a cold thats been going on for a couple weeks I could tell it was the stress sick I get at times). Anywhoo, it was a blah morning waiting for 4pm. Luckily Bishop let me bounce my frustrations etc off him and it helped me keep from getting too out of control. Coley went with me and that helped as well. So a great deal of thanks goes to Bishop and Coley for keeping me from being a total nutcase. Yea yea yea, I know, I'm always a nutcase, hush! lol. Thank you to everyone else that said some prayers etc for me. Much appriciated. Guess you'd like to know what happened eh? What if I don't wanna tell ya? Hmmmmmm. Oh all right, you win. I'll tell. She told me to go ahead and call the surgeon again. I've done a good job changing my habits since Dec 06. The reason she had to see me was because all she had to go one was my ol

Then What
It's funny how much music has touched on my life so much in the past month. I have always felt like Country Music described my life, but lately, it's dead on. I mean one song in particular this morning did it for me. Granted, it's a song that would apply to both sides of my relationship with my Spousal Unit (SU) of late. The SU wants to move on in life without me to try and find happiness. She said she doesn't want to be married to me anymore. I am coming to grips with this, but when I heard the song on my Home Entertainment System (the laptop, with my MP3s, plugged into my DVD player which has surround sound) coming through so clear, I realized it wasn't just me the Clay Walker was singing about. Then What, by Clay Walker Well I got a good friend who's got a good life He's got two pretty children and a real nice wife But he never seems quite satisfied I said I know what's on your mind But you better think about it before you cross that line The grass ain't always

Then And Now
Eight years ago … I’m reminded how important Pamela is, how important she really is to me, even when I don’t feel like a million dollars (or even have one!) There I was, telling a person from church who had asked about Pamela’s new job, which by all accounts is exciting if not exhausting. Sometimes I feel that way too, climbing up a down escalator. But at least by climbing, I am avoiding a descent into hell on earth. Isn’t it true that man shall not live by bread alone? Yes, but too-often-human me forgets the second part of Jesus’ response to Satan (Matthew 4:4): “by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God”. What am I concerned, what am I allowing myself to be more concerned, about – filling my belly or feeding my spirit? There is no need to be afraid of what I don’t understand, or even the next few minutes. The same yesterday, today, and forever – that’s said about Christ, and for that matter can only be said about Him. Only those who consciously control, who

6-25-08 46th Entry
Sorry to all those that have been waiting for updates. I've spread the word, I just kept forgetting to update journal. My brains fried. What else is new lol. So I saw the surgeon on the 9th and he approved me. Since that time I've been waiting for news from the insurance company. I'm supposed to hear something by the end of this week. Its been 3 weeks already blah. I called the surgeon office the other day to check up on whats going on since this is THE final step! I'm scared to death. Like that isn't new news lol. I've been drowning myself in working on graphics and a forum I created to keep my mind off the waiting. The strains finally gotten to me and I've been having headaches for over a week now. Too much stupid stuff going on besides the waiting. I can't take much more. Mentally, for the most part, I'm doing ok. Its the physical strain of the stress thats getting bad. If your a Leo, you know what I'm talking about. So anywho, I created a forum that I'm gonna open up. Its

6-30-08 47th Entry
Its been 3 weeks today since I saw the surgeon. I didn't hear anything by Friday. I called the surgeon's office this morning and there was still no word *sighs*. Guess I'm in for more waiting BLAH! My brother showed up today. I found out with his health problems he has to do 3 specific exercises daily. I am going to start taking walks with him (20 minutes, I think I can survive that as long as the heat doesn't bite me in the butt lol) so I'll start getting some minor exercise done. Hopefully by the time he goes back home it will be a habit for me. I need to do it anyway. Since I've been off work I've not been walking around no where near as much as I should (bad me, I know). I've been hearing that people that have had the surgery get far more active quickly. I was watching some TV with Chuckie earlier and they were about amusement parks like Dollywood. I think I'd like to make a goal of next summer having enough weight off to go to a place like that. Roller coaster ri

7-25-08 48th Entry
I came across this in saved files. I'd forgotten I'd wrote it during my 2 month absence from the internet. The vision is a dream I'd actually had. Rough time frame of this writing is Oct 2007. Not sure if it should go in journal yet. (((((UPDATE...I decided to go ahead and make this an official entry))))) Have you ever felt like theres a void in your life thats being fulfilled yet you still feel that void as painfully as ever? I am not sure exactly how to explain how I feel but its like something is being added to the void I've had for a very long time. But the void is there, ever present. I wonder if it will ever fill and leave me whole. Complete. Truly Me. Someone has been calling to me for quite a while via astral. Someone I know. Yet don't. I seek answers to things I doubt I will find until I go to the Goddess. I've asked so many times for the empty to be filled. For the loneliness that never leaves to fade away. Yet deep down, I know it may never be. Not in

7-25-08 49th Entry
Sure has been an insane time for me lately. My brother came to stay for 2 weeks. It was supposed to be 11 days but he wanted to go home Monday instead of Friday so it went 2 weeks. I was tickled pink! We mended some wounds that have bothered me for quite a long time. Time will tell if he will come again to visit but he said in front of Aunt Liz that he does want to. I'm really happy about that. Of course I been stressing over waiting. And waiting. And waiting. No insurance to surgeon office updates every time I called. Then things around here got BAD. Shane, Sue's youngest son was almost killed in a motorcycle accident a week ago. He is a mess. But luckily he was so healthy that he is improving faster then doctors thought he could. He's had 4 or 5 surgeries so far repairing the damage. Due to having to take care of the animals here, then Dylyn the 3 yr old grandson Sue was added to the picture, I haven't been able to go to Pittsburgh to help them and its tearing m

7/30/08 The Note Before Our First Meeting....
This morning I'm getting on a plane bound for Maine. I wake up after five hours of sleep I think I'll go insane. I can't wait to see my beautiful Syn and her two girls. The nervousness is finally grabbing hold of me. I've never flown before this should be a rather interesting experience. My beautiful Syn I love you with all of my heart you and the girls mean the world to me. I'm nervous as hell about meeting you right now. I can't wait to step off the plane and see you and take you in my arms. I can't wait to see those two beautiful girls either. Forever and always, Your Master.

8-17-08 50th Entry
2 days left till surgery. I've been struggling with a lot of emotions. I've tried several times to make myself update this but my mind just wants to jump like rabbits. For a few days I even had incessant chattering going on in my brain that was driving me mad! Thank Goddess for Bill and Sue. They helped get that slowed down. BTW by the incessant chatter I mean I couldn't stop thinking and wondering about anything and everything and it was to the point I couldn't even rest right. Between the stress of everything thats going on here and concerns over surgery and after thoughts, I'm turning into someone far from my normal me. It worries me. Heck what ISN'T worrying me lately. Seems every one of my dearest friends have something going on, anywhere from roommate's issues to online family thats got health problems. I know for the most part I can't do anything other then send up prayers and try to be there for them when then need to vent. I'm sucking at that big time lately tho.

Then I Found You
I was alone Then I found you Hollow to the bone Then I found you Weathered and worn Then I found you Battered by love's storm Then I found you I had given up Then I found you I had enough Then I found you Couldn't take anymore Then I found you No strength to soar Then I found you Lost my faith Then I found you Turned my back on fate Then I found you

9-14-08 54th Entry
Ok so I've said before I was going to do pictures. I've got some of me in '06 and some with surgery time frame. This is actually going to be the hardest entry I've done yet. Granted I'm brutally honest about being fat. Obviously or I wouldn't be doing this journal. But it is easier to talk then then show because I have a massive hang up about how I look. In my mind, no picture of me looks good anymore. Yes I know its a hang up I need to get over and I will. I am working on thinking good about myself and knowing that I can be pretty and that it is ok for me to think good about myself. But even as I bitch and moan to one of my dearest friends about doing this, its like he said, I wouldn't be true to myself if I DIDN'T do this. Hopefully as time goes on it will be easier for me to put pictures in here to show my progress. So here I go biting the bullet and posting links to pictures. Being honest here, its got my stomach churning and eyes tearing up in anxiety. That's how hard this i

10-4-08 55th Entry
I've been getting so many people asking me what the band is etc I figured I'd go ahead and re-explain it in here. Please realize that I'm using my own terms for things and go with what I've researched and been told by surgeon. Different doctors may do things differently. You'll have to talk to your doctors for better information on what they do when etc etc etc. What I put is just a simple guide as well as showing what I have been through. Basically the band is kind of like a C clamp that goes around the top part of the tummy. There is a pouch type thing that lines the inside. As the band is sitting on top of stomach, a small portion of the tummy is folded over the band to hold it in place. Now the folding over part I've seen in some sites but not others. The inside of the "clamp" is lined and there is a line that runs from it to the skin. The portal as its called, sits under the skin (you can't see it but you can feel it when you tense tummy muscles). After surgery, you w

11-13-08 56th Entry
I had my 2nd adjustment 2 weeks ago. I had not lost weight by the surgeon scale (I'd lost 1 pound at nutrionist office and another pound at family doctor office, aka 2 pounds in 2 weeks). I did loose a few ounces type thing but I don't count it if its not full pound. I did fine until after the shot was done. For some reason this time I started bleeding badly. The blood soaked an area about 3 inches long by 1 wide on my pants and shirt then started dripping. I was standing at the check out waiting and felt something wet and thought "Ok that's strange, the saline is leaking back out." No I have no idea why I would think that but I did rotflmao. So anywhoo I said to the nurse after I lifted shirt to check "Um I'm bleeding, bad." So they took me back to the office and there was several drops of blood on the floor. You could tell where I'd gotten off the table and walked over to the counter to look at the sample band and show Sue. They put a pressure bandage on it and it stopped

Then There You Were
I thought I had everything, Then there you were. When I saw you I needed to know all about you. I found out bit by bit, not liking all I heard. Then there you were, When my heart was broken. You told me everything would be okay. I was ready to move on with my life but There there you were. To show me you loved me and cared and I gave you my heart. Then there you were, To say those three very magical words And to make my heart melt. I knew you were the one,. Then there you were, To surprise me with that gorgeous diamond as I said YES! Then there you were To ask me when that day will be. Then eleven months later, There WE were - hand in hand. Then there we were, Two years later with twins in our arms. From the beginning I thought I had it all, Then there you were. Written 02-06-02 by ME

Then Why
If i were to die in a dark, would you come find me If i were to love you to no end, would you love me back If i were to scream your name, would you listen If i were to hold you close. would you push me away If you needed help, would i be the first one you called If i gave you the key to my heart, would you keep it close If said your name with my last breath, would you ever let go If i held you in my arms, would you hold me back If i kissed your soft lips, would you kiss me back If i looked at you with my blue eyes, would you turn away If my heart shattered, would you be there to pick up the pieces If i said that I'd wait for you, would you come after me If i were to wither away from the world, would you notice If i forgot the song to my heart, would you sing it to me If i was a hollow shell, would you still love me If i filled the hole i fell in, would you dig me out If you can answer any of these, then please tell me why....

Then You Walked In
Then You Walked in Before I ever met you I was caught in a storm The lightening had hit And my heart had been burned The rain seemed to keep falling My breath had become shallow I was beginning to drown In my pain and my sorrow Life can be cruel at times Dealing you the devil’s hand Things can become crazy While you sink in the sand Sleep becomes a distant thought As the night becomes your friend Then in the midst of it all Somebody comes walking in Then you walked in my life The thunder began to cease The rain began to subside And I could finally breath Before you the storm raged Darkness outshined the light I was just about to give up Then you walked in my life My world is still undone And I am still spinning But since you walked in At least I am healing You may never look at me Through the eyes I desire But just being who you are Has calmed the raging fire

Then I See You
when the pain becomes so great and all you have is yesterdays when the anger is so strong your afaid for people near when the frear is all consuming you forget whats good in your life when sadness is like a cloudy day hiding the brightness of living life when your lost and empty.. then i see you... and I remember that your there, I'm not alone and someone cares. I remember your vows and your love it keeps me safe keeps me alive keeps me bound to you..

4th Entry
Please don't think that I think I am perfect. I do know that the love I give is perfect, but the rest of me is in constant growth and repair lol. I have made many mistakes in life,l but very few I would take back because they have made me the man I am. I tend to learn on the first try -- well there were times that it took many more because my heart hates to give up hahaha. That's when a 4x4 had to be used. What fun would life be without it's little lessons. And how would we know a great day without having some really really unfun days to judge them by. I raised my babies (babies 20 and 23 but still my babies) so that they understood that life wasn't going to just hand them milk and honey, they had to find it in the middle of the spoiled cream and bee hives. And expect to be stung a few times along the way. So if I have any avid readers of this blog, you might be wondering, what does this old, ugly, fat man have to offer to any woman other than flowery words and nice

5th Entry
I have a hard time when ever I talk about what I seek in a woman, because I get caught up in the thinking of "why do I think I deserve such a woman" or "who am I to expect so much". Being a natural sales person, of course I have some conceit, but much of it has been beaten out of me over the years of failure to find what I needed in my life. So before I decided to write this today, I spent some time thinking about the person I am and have come to realize that, if my previous entries were true, which they were, then the love I offer to a woman is better than most and I should not be afraid to expect to have a woman be better than most. So again to my readers, your always welcome to comment and tell me I'm crazy and that I don't deserve what I seek. Or that I will never find what I am looking for. But in my mind and heart I have always believed that I deserved happiness for a lifetime. And also that if God made me to be the way I am, then he will have made women that can

6th Entry - Soul Mate
Let me expand you thinking on Soul Mates. There is a lot of thought that there is only one Soul Mate for every person. As I thought about this, I realized that this thinking was flawed. If that was so, then why would we ever join any dating site; ever talk to any person outside of our state or even in another country? The internet has not been around that long. Before the internet, our choices where those in our area. But now we can meet and fall in love with people from all over the world. So my belief is that there are many, possibly hundreds of people who are our soul mates. Of course the challenge is finding one of them. What is a soul mate? My thinking is it is someone who answers all your questions, all your emotions, etc with the answers that make sense to you. With answers that make your smile, make your mind say "Yes that is the answer I wanted to hear" and then your heart goes "Yeah Baby". Someone who protects our feels, listens to us, and loves us ju

7th Entry - Still Wondering Why? Last Entry??!!
Some still wondering why I am looking so hard to find a woman to spend my life with. I know many people are very happy being single and living that kind of life. When I started dating at age 13, I had only dated a few girls before I started dating girls with kids. Yes 14 year old girls with kids. So I started being responsible at an early age. I dated a lot when I was in my teens and got it out of my system. When I married the 1st time, I was ready to be married. Wrong woman, but ready to be married. I have spent 25 of the 29 years since I was 18 in committed relationships. Its what I know and who I am. As my life is getting back on track again and I am getting ready for my next 47 years, I find I am only missing one thing (well besides a few million dollars haha) a woman to share my days and nights with. I enjoy have a woman to spoil every day. I have always hated sleeping alone. I enjoy having someone who I can bring flowers too. There is much much more

Then The Fight Started
My wife and I were watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire while we >> were in bed. >> >> I turned to her and said, "Do you want to have sex?" "No," she > answered. >> >> I then said, "Is that your final answer?" She didn't even look at me >> this time, simply saying "Yes." >> >> So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a friend." >> >> And that's when the fight started.... >> ********************************************************************* >> >> I asked my wife, "Where do you want to go for our anniversary?" >> >> It warmed my heart to see her face melt in sweet appreciation. >> >> "Somewhere I haven't been in a long time!" she said. >> >> So I suggested, "How about the kitchen?" >> >> And that's when the fight started.... >> >> ********************************************************************** >> >> Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, >> grabbed the dog, and slipped quietly into the garage. >> >> I hooked up the boat up to t

Then To Now
The walls are all spinnin again I look in the mirror and see a devilish grin Is it real or am I hallucinating again? I hear voices but I can’t make out a damn think there sayin again Damn, I guess I’ll just set here and let myself spin In a downward spiral straight to oblivion Insomnia just settled in an it looks like another binge Another plot at revenge Can I succeed or will it end as soon as it begins Clean for two months but I’m about to give in Fuck it looks like I already did Lookin up but all I see is the stars I look around and all I see is the bars What I’d give for just two xanax bars Or a line of coke so I can jump in front of speeding cars Leanin back in the passenger seat Passin blunts while the devil chauffers me If hes here then where God, ain’t he listenin to me

Then And Now
What I knew then..... That mommy's kisses made everything better That Santa, the Tooth Fairy, and the Easter Bunny were real That someday Prince Charming would come carry me away That swing-sets, slip-n-slides, and playgrounds were fun That miracles can happen That best friends are forever. What I know now.... That mommy's kisses still make everything better only now I'm the mommy That Santa, the Tooth Fairy and the Easter Bunny will always be real as long as there are children to believe in them. That Prince Charming isn't always charming, but still could show up and carry me away. That swing-sets, slip-n-slides, and playgrounds are still fun, they just hurt a little more. That miracles are born every day. That best friends are not always forever but sisters are. Sometimes we need to sit back and reevaluate things, what I've realized is that I've been blessed with a wonderful daughter and true friends or sisters as I like to call them. I'm still waiting on prince-not-so

Then Why Don't We Pray?
THEN WHY DON'T WE PRAY?The highest privilege ever afforded to man is the power of prayer....then why don't we pray?The right to talk to the highest potentate in all the universe......then why don't we pray?The most powerful force accessible to man is the potential of prayer......then why don't we pray?The greatest longing in the heart of God is to talk to His children......then why don't we pray?Nothing is impossible to those who pray......then why don't we pray?No man ever fainted or faltered who gave himself to prayer......then why don't we pray?Every sin is forgiven, every stain is washed clean, all guilt diminished tothe man who prays......then why don't we pray?Hell moves farther away, satan flees from the man who prays......then why don't we pray?Anointing will come, mountains will be moved, valleys made smooth, riversmade crossable, the inaccessible made accessible, the impossible madepossible, dreams come through to the man who prays......then why don't we pray?J

Then She Never Answered Me Back
->DJ_SASSY69...: hey how bout...go fuck yourself...again DJ_SASSY69...: o u have nothing to say now or what DJ_SASSY69...: hey come in and join us man DJ_SASSY69...: AND IF UR GOING TO BE A DICK I WILL TELL U NOT TO COME IN DJ_SASSY69...: all i said is u can come join us and U DONT HAVE TOO BE A FUCK HEAD NOW DO YA DJ_SASSY69...: u now what i did not drop my link in ur room case i have not been any where so ya ->DJ_SASSY69...: go fuckyourself....maybe if you had some respect and asked me first before dropping your stupid link on me i would have thought of it but since you lack any and all respect fuck off DJ_SASSY69...: hey come join us i just opend this am http:...

Then I Got Blocked Before I Could Respond
read from the bottom up of course NYCNurse: ur the only ass that came back with a stupid answer... every one else said thanks and sure NYCNurse: GTFO fubar then jackass NYCNurse: my bullshit? i just did u a favor and thats ur appreciation asshole? ->NYCNurse: um no...kindly take your bullshit else where NYCNurse: Rating ur profile 11, and making sure im ur fan... plz rate my contest pic - fubar.com...

Then The Fighting Started....
then the fight started.........My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels.She asked, 'What's on TV?'I said, 'Dust.'And then the fight started...******************************************My wife and I are watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire" while we were in bed.I turned to her and said, "Do you want to have sex?""No," she answered.I then said, "Is that your final answer?"She didn't even look at me this time, simply saying, "Yes."So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a friend."And then the fight started....******************************************Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, grabbed the dog, and slipped quietly into the garage. I hooked up the boat up to the truck, and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. The wind was blowing 50 mph, so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, and discovered that the weather would be bad all day.I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back into bed.

Then & Now
Then you held me captive Now Im a boss You used to be able to beckon me Now I dont answer your call You once were able to melt my heart Now I got my brand new start I used to think I'd die without you Now I stand alone The truth be told you lost your strangle hold

Then.
Fleeting focus fading... leaving me irreverent again. Fighting, bleeding, gnashing, bashing. Forgive me if you will, I cannot find it in me tonight to give it all away. Remember that time when I would pull the stars down for you I would burn and burn just so I could see you smile once... Yeah, those days are gone Gone away. Lovely lips are lying leaving me with whispers. dying, trying, thrashing, crashing. Follow me if you will, but destruction is all that lies beyond this. Remember that time when I would pull the stars down for you I would burn and burn just so you would say you loved me once.... yeah those days are gone Gone away.

"the Nsfw Crackdown, The Mentally Ill And A Holiday Song"
Well my friends it is that time of the year again, time for Holiday stress, holiday shopping and all of the good and bad things that the holidays bring upon us. It’s a time where seemingly every year that you always remember things that happen during the holidays, making for a lifetime of memories. In Fubar World, it’s pretty much the same. You see Xmas Auctions, holiday bling pack specials, everyone it seems with a Santa hat of some variety on for the weeks leading up to the holidays. and in past years, have a present of some variety under your Xmas tree when you sign in, which you can’t open until Midnight 12/25 Pacific Time. When I lived on the east coast that amounted to 3 AM. Needless to say. There were some funny milk and cookies moments there. This year, we have a new twist , this NSFW crackdown policy for default pictures that was put in around Thanksgiving. Which basically said you can’t be in your underwear or slam you boobs into your default picture.

.....the Night Before Christmas By Black Widow.....
I wrote this for fun no pun intenened at chistmas or santa just for a laugh which we all need !!!! .....The Night before Christmas by black widow..... Twas the night before Christmas and not a prostitute was in sight; santa claws was on the cornor selling crack and coke all night, and he as the pimp that he is stood on the corner clling ho ho ho all night Santa had been busted but Rudolf was alright… Tethered to his slay, he gave a big shout… “Please Santa come back” as he gave a little pout. Santa was an alcoholic, but no one could care less… Best of all was those lousy millionaires… The prostitutes were dreaming of some nice white fun… But when Santa came round all they got was a load of his stinking cum. So let this be a lesson to those better off… Santa ain’t dead yet so you better back off… Surrounded by her pimp the prostitute gave a wink… For Santa in the corner that was code for show us you

Then You Walked In
Then You Walked in My LifeBefore I ever met youI was caught in a stormThe lightening had hitAnd my heart had been burnedThe rain seemed to keep fallingMy breath had become shallowI was beginning to drownIn my pain and my sorrowLife can be cruel at timesDealing you the devil’s handThings can become crazyWhile you sink in the sandSleep becomes a distant thoughtAs the night becomes your friendThen in the midst of it allSomebody comes walking inThen you walked in my lifeThe thunder began to ceaseThe rain began to subsideAnd I could finally breathBefore you the storm ragedDarkness outshined the lightI was just about to give upThen you walked in my lifeMy world is still undoneAnd I am still spinningBut since you walked inAt least I am healingYou may never look at meThrough the eyes I desireBut just being who you areHas calmed the raging fire

[the Next Big Idea]
This is what I was working on Sunday. Linearts to test out a color scheme before I actually post it. Sees I gots these goufs.... and I wants to dos me some custom colors And I'm... pretty lazy. Well, thats not really the problem, the real problem is I'm also still stockpiling for a workshop, and I'm always planning other builds. And people keep calling me for 10 hours of every weekend. The purple one on the right is the original concept... which I arm wrestled for hours then I turned around and did the one on the left based on the same team's older custom colors. Left is the fan favorite on the robot forum I joined. You would NOT believe how hard it is to find black and white linearts for these fuggers. That was half the battle. I broke down and picked up a flat red and a glossy bright yellow for a couple other builds... what the fuck was the red for? ... ... ... uuuuuuuuh... And I picked up some sandpaper glue and squeeze bottles. Seriously what was the re-OH!Duh. The gr

Then There Was That First Little Bite....
As of this moment, I just saw someone upload a mobile picture so I'm wondering if there is a FuBar app I could get for my IPhone. I only joined a few days ago (well duh, num nuts), and I'm finally figuring the ins and outs of the site. I've started making some friends, some on account of random questions, and others because I don't mind answering the pervy questions. It's not like drunk guys in bars don't ask the same things to your face, and it's a lot more comfortable online. I am always online, and no I'm not some loser with nothing to do, I just work on my computer all the time, or my phone. And yes, it is very boring! I'd rather be somewhere, anywhere, even another part of my house. Oh well, tough shit. Back to work.

Then Came You
I was so alone that I didn't know what to do. I was lost to despair... and then came you. You dispelled the darkness of a life that was harsh and unkind, and you gave me the strength to leave the shadows behind. Your every word holds magic that makes my heart shine, and I'm so thankful for the day I met you online.

Then He Blocked Me
Someone who at one time meant a whole lot to me recently waltzed back into my life. 18 mos ago he just dropped of the face of the earth. And he approaches me in my SB pretending to be someone else. Figures he will drop the bomb of who he is only after chatting for an hour. In the past he lied to me and made promises to me and my children only to break them. He uses others pics on here everytime he starts a new profile...he lies to others and he uses them. I seriously think he is mentally ill. He lives in this fantasy world and refuses to be who he is. Anyways...this is the conversation we had this morning. Then after all that...he blocks me. Must have struck a cord. GBT owned ...: It's not that...i just don't know what you want me to say or do 7:41am Lollipop: just smile hon 7:42am Lollipop: i did it to make you smile 7:42am GBT owned ...: I did smile sillyhead 7:43am

" The New Arrival "
It didn't take long for him to say goodbye that's when he noticed the tears in my eyes.. He never had once seen me cry but that was the day that I felt as if I could die the pain or the sorrow which hurt most I couldn't tell but now he is gone so what the hell... Now that I found a true love that's here with me to forever stay we planned to be married and happily on our way. Now the first is history and will not be missed. This guy of mine now, oh man can he kiss....

Then - Brad Paisly
I remember trying not to stare when I first met you, you had me mesmerized and three weeks later in the front porch light taking 45 minutes to kiss goodnight I hadn't told you yet but I loved you then but now your my whole life now your my whole world I just can't believe how I feel about you girl like a river meets the sea, stronger than its ever been we came so far since that day and I thought I loved you then and I remember taking you back to where I first met you you were so surprised there were people around but I didn't care I got down on one knee right there and once again I thought I loved you then but now your my whole life, now your my whole world and I just can't believe the way I feel for you girl I can just see you with a baby on the way I can just see you when your hair is turning gray what I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more but I said that before and now your my whole life, now your my whole world I just can't believe how I feel for you

Then And Now
I used to think that if his hand was up my shirt and we liked the same music we might be in love That love was something shared in the dark hours of the morning between the navy sheets of his best friend's older brother's bed where he'd tell me I was a good kisser and in the awkwardness of day I'd remove all evidence of our presence there, plucking long blond hairs from the pillow cases That was love then Now I know that love is something passed from your honey browns to my denim blues and my head fitting perfectly beneath your collarbone I know that it's my fingers entangled in your dark curls and holding you other hand when you drive my car I know it's the fact that you accept my faults praise my silliness and that you prefer me to my own body This is love now

Then Again.....no Wait, Maybe Not
I guess no one might care enough but sometimes I actually think, sure I do.... then again...no wait, maybe not. I happen to know its possible that others can experience the same thing at times. Whether or not, ya all want to admit it. Come on it is totally more comfortable to not think all the stinking time. A change of mind or second thought is your brain not wanting overtime. Its just easier, maybe it is easier on your celebral cortex or your cerebrum. I know there maybe times, like me, you might very possibly look foward to sleep. When you get to shut down for the night and just take a minivacation from the whole ordeal or coming up with ideas. You could also want to change the times you log into this site, thinking that your all that. Its not always looked upon kindly when you take and have that attitude train that likes running right over the lesser ranking peoples of this or any site. It isn't always good for anyone to see your less intellegent side, even if its neverminded by

Then Charged In. He Came Up Short
ROME -- Lazio jumped ahead of Inter Milan into second place in Serie A following a 1-0 win at struggling Sampdoria on Sunday in the final Italian league action before the holiday break. Marshawn Lynch Limited Jersey . The capitals other club, Roma, beat AC Milan 4-2 to end the Rossoneris four-match winning streak in the league, with 20-year-old forward Erik Lamela scoring twice at the Stadio Olimpico. In Genoa, Lazios Brazil playmaker Hernanes took advantage when Sampdoria goalkeeper Sergio Romero was down on the ground to score in the 31st minute. It was Samps first match since former Lazio coach Delio Rossi replaced the fired Ciro Ferrara as manager. Earlier in the lunchtime fixture, Inter needed an 85th-minute equalizer from Esteban Cambiasso to secure a 1-1 draw at home with Genoa. Cambiasso headed in eight minutes after Italy under-21 striker Ciro Immobile had given Genoa the lead at the San Siro after dribbling past defender Andrea Ranocchia. Inter had a chance to win in the 90th

Then You Can Tell Me Goodbye - Eddy Arnold
Kiss me each morning for a million years Hold me each evening by your side Tell me you love me for a million years Then if it don't work out, then if it don't work out Then you can tell me goodbyeSweeten my coffee with a morning kiss Soften my dreams with your sigh After you've loved me for a million years Then if it don't work out, then if it don't work out Then you can tell me goodbyeIf you must go I won't grieve If you'll just wait a lifetime before you leaveBut if you must go I won't say no Just so we can say that we try Tell me you love me for a million years Then if it don't work out, then if it don't work out Then you can tell me goodbye Then you can tell me goodbye

"the Next Day At Work"
A woamn named Bianca and i go along fairly good. not that we saw all that much of each other. after all, as an advisor, i only made money when i was visiting clents, so i spent very little time actuall in the office. Our relationship was mostly via the phone, with our converstion fousing on me getting up to date info on my clients. I guess that's why she caught me off guard the day i showed up on my motocycle. i wasn't planing on working that day, so i was dressed in jeans and a T shirt. we have srtict dress codes in the office, and we are not allowed to enter the office area without a dress shirt and tie on. So i walkied up to the counter and asked Bianca if she would go and get my mail for me.

"the Next Day At Work"
She came back with a few pieces of mail and smiled as she pointed at my helmet. "I didn't know you had a bike." "Yeah, i've been riding since i was old enough to have a license. there's nothing like feeling the wind on your face as you ride the open road.""Oh, i can think of at least one thing that feels better," she said with a wink, but you are right, the feeling on a bike id=s great! It's been a long time since i've been on a bike, though. Maybe some time you'd give me ride?" I'd love to let you ride me, err, with me, i mean." She smiled back, obviously enjoying the flirting. "Well, i'd love the ride either way." "Tell you what Bianca, i've got a few things to do this afternoon, but how about i pick you up after work and we'll go for a bit of a ride?"

"the Next Day At Work"
"That sounds like a wonderful plan," she said, her face lighting up. "However, i can't ride on the bike in this thing." She pointed her hands at her outfit. she had on a loose fitting blouse and a short skirt. Her legs seemeed to go on forever, and i couldn't help but take a longer look than necessary. "Why don't you pick me up at my place about a half hour after i get off. That way i can quickly get changed into riding gear." "Sounds great," i said, taking down her address. "I'll see you then." I headed out and jumped on the bike and started down the road, trying to tell myself not to get too excited. After all, it may have just been harmless flirting. It might just be a bike ride. but i couldn't stop myself from thinking about Bianca riding something else also. Later that day i showed up at her place right on time, the roar of my bike signaling my arrival about thirty seconds earlier. I jumped off the bike and took a spare helmet out of one of the saddlebags just as Bia

"the Next Day At Work"
She was incredible looking. Her reddish brown hair was held back in a ponytail. She was wearing a red T shirt that clung tight to her body, revealing the shape of her two precious breasts, pushing out from the materila. she wasn't wearing a bra, and her nipples were clearly as excited about he ride as i was. Her jeans were skin tight, in fact, i can't remember ever seeing someone with jeans so tight fitting. I took in her incredible figure and had to hold my breath for a second, imagining what it would be like to undress her. Her face was still lit up, her full lips smiling through red lipstick. As she came down the walkway toward me, she seemed to be showing herself off to me. She walked slowly, allowing me to take her in. She knew she was hot and was proud of the kind of reaction she was causing in me. I watched as she reached up and put her shades on, slowly, her eyes staying on mine until they were lost behind the dark lenses of the shades. "So do i look like a bok

"the Next Day At Work"
Wtih that, i started the bike and we jumped on andheaded down the street with the roar of the engine echoing through our ears. As we headed down the opend road, we said very little. Not that you can't talk on the bike. ?you do have to yell, but it is possible to have a converstion. It just seemed like talking wasn't necessary at that point. I was enjoying the feel of the bike and the fel of the woman with her legs wrapped around me. Her arms were wrapped loosely around my waist, and i couldn't help but fantasize about them moving lower. thr bike vibrated with each twist of the throttle, and i wonderd what it fetl like for her. Was she any where near being as turned on as me? I Knew How Vanessa felt after a long ride. She showed me many times Her pussy would be soaked by the end of an hour long ride. she said the vibration of the bike did wonders to her body. Many times she would reach down and rub my dick as we rode the highway. Was Bianca experiencing the same thing?

"the Next Day At Work"
What would those incredible lips feel like wrapped around my shaft? I don't know why, but i was sure that she would give an incredible blojob. She just seemed like she had the perfect lips for sucking dick. I found myself getting lost in the idea of this beautiful French vixen on her knees as i stood before her with my dick pointing out tward her, full red lips and took in my rard tool. Slowly it disappeared inside that hot mouth, her eyes closing as she too ne in as far as she could. Her tongue flicking and sliding around the shaft as her lips closed around it. Then slowly at first, she would began to suck. Moving her head back and forth, taking me out right to the tip of the head before sliding me back in as far as possible. Soon my hips would began to help, and i would began to pump as i enjoyed fucking her mouth. I thought of what it would be like to explode inside that lovely mouth. Would she swallow my cum. Does she enjoy that kind of thing? I sure hoped so.

"the Next Day At Work"
My thoughts shifted to her lying on the bed, naked and ready. Her legs spread apart, beckoning me to her. i imagined what her pussy would taste like as i buried my face between them. She would moan as her hips raisded up, trying to get more of my tongue in her. Her words would shift back to her native tongue as she encouraged me to do more while speaking French. I thought of moving up her body, enjoying her breasts before finally settling down on her, sliding my dick inside her pussy. How tight would she be? Probably very tight. My dick would slide in deep and the warmth of her juices would almost be too much for me to handle. Our fucking would be intense, hard and fast. "You just ran a stop sign back there." I jumped at the sound of her voice and was quickly brought back to reality. "you must have been deep in thought," she yelled over the roar of the engine.

"the Next Day At Work"
Ilooked down and realized that i was moving far faster than the speed limit. i eased up on the throttle and felt the bike slow down. "Yeah, i guess i was." "What were you thinking about?" Bianca asked, her hands tightening around my sides. "Well, perhaps i should tell you later." I couldn't think of what else to say. "I have a better idea," she replied. "Let's head back to my place and you can show me." My lips parted in a wide grin, she knew exactly what i had been thinking. and she didn't mind. I turned the bike around and we started the ride back to her place. It seemed like the road went on forever and we would never get home. finally we pulled up outside her home and jumped off the bike. "that was amazing!" Bianca said, pulling the helmet off her head. "I definitely need to learn how to ride. I could do that every day. I've got chills all over my body. and the vibrations, well, let's say they do wonders to me."

"the Next Day At Work"
She leaned over and kissed me, catching me off guard, and then pulled away. "Thanks for taking me for a ride, Lee." She handed me the helmet, and for a minute i thought she was going to say goodbye and leave me standing at the curb with a massive hard on in my pants. She moved fast and started up the driveway. I just stood there, holding both helmets, looking like an idiot. I didn't know what to say or what to do. i was just mesmerized by the lovely sight of this shapely woman moving up the walkway to her place. She walked up the stairs and took a hold of her door handle, and then turned around and looked at me. "Well," she said, lifting a finger and inviting me to come, "are you done riding or are you ready for more?"

"the Next Day At Work"
I quickly threw the helmets in the saddlebags and lock tto the bike. I tried to keep my eyes on the lovely woman at the door as i secured the bike. I saw her wink and disappear into the house and found myself moving quickly, not really caring if the bike was stolen or not. I walked quickly up the walkway and headed inside, closing the door behind me. She was nowhere to be seen. Then i noticed a sock hanging off the forst stair, heading up to the second floor. I smiled as i looked up the stairs seeing the second sock about halfway up. I kicked off my boots and started toward the staircase, pulling off my own socks and undressing as i followed the path of clithing. At the top of the stairs i found her red T shirt that had clung so tightly to her chest just a few minutes earlier. by now my own shirt was off, and i was unzipping my jeans. Her jeans were laying just outside what must have been her bedroom. I paused and picked them up. i thought about how tight they were

"the Next Day At Work"
I walked into the bedroom and saw her, lying in the middle of her king size bed. With her arm drapped over her breasts. Her legs wer crossed and i couldn't see any part of her pussy. "Hi," she said, barely above a whisper. She was toying with me, but i didn't mind. I was hooked. She had me. Not that it would have taken much to get me. "Hi," I said back, walking toward the bed. I stood at the side of the bed and looked down at her. My dick stood up at full alert, hard and ready. I watched as her eyes moved from my face down my body and locked on my manhood. "Who's your friend?" She asked , turning onto her stomach and sliding toward me. Before i could say anything, i felt her lips wrap around my dick and she began to suck me. I looked down at her naked body, her smooth back flowing down to her firm ass. I wanted to kis and nibble it so badly.

"the Next Day At Work"
Her mouth was so much hotter than i anticipated. Her tongue very forcefull on my shaft. Her hands reached up and began to pull my balls as her mouth sucked in most of my 8 1/2 inches. I groaned at how good it felt. her mouth did wonders. I had never experienced a mouth this good. She knew how to suck dick. Her hands squeezed harder around my balls, encouraging them to give her a prize. she was determined. I think she knew that i was ready to explode while on the bike. It didn't matter what happened, i wasn't going to hold my load for long. I guess she figured the best thing to do would be to get me off quickly and then we could focus on a longer sesion after i recuperated.

"the Next Day At Work"
What ever her thinking, she just sucked harder. I wasn't in her mouth more thsn two minutes before i grunted and felt my dick swell and my load blasted into her warm mouth. She let out a short squeal as she swallowed all i had to offer her. Her hand continued to squeeze my balls trying to get every last bit of cum out of me and into her mouth. Slowly she pulled her mouth off my shaft, gently kissing it a few times, licking the tip of my head clean. She looked up at me and smiled. "Thank you, that was a delicious treat." She moved back to the middle of the bed, turning onto her back and pulling herself up to a sitting position. This time she made no attempt to hide her body, and i looked down at her lovley breasts sticking out firmly from her chest.

"the Next Day At Work"
Bianca's next comment caught me completely off gaurd. "Tell you what, Lee. Why don't you sit over there on that chair until you catch your breath." Her eyes pointed over to a rocking chair in the corner of her room. I looked over at it and then back at her. I was confused and it showed. "Trust me. lover. Sit in the chair." I was intrigued and moved to the rocker and sat down, my dick slowly become limp as it relaxed from the great sucking it had just received. I looked over at this great vision of loveliness laying naked on her bed, wondering why i wasn't beside her. "I need to twell you something, and i hope you don't get upset with me over it," she started, her words coming slowly and carefully. too carefully to be serious. I could tell she was playing with me, but i had no idea what she was going to say next.

"the Next Day At Work"
"From the moment you agreed to take me for a ride, i knew that we would end up here afterwards. However, i wanted to do something a little extra with you tonight. so, i invited a friend you know to join us." My first thought went to that ass hole, my manager, who was having an affair with my wife. Just my luck, i thought to myself. ?now i have to share a second woman with him! "Would you mind if Myria joined us?" Bianca said, looking over at the open door. I followed her gaze and saw Myria standing in the door frame. Myria was another woman from the office. I guessed her to be about 35. She had very short blone hair and the deepest blue eyes i've ever seen. Her and Bianca were best friends, but i had no idea that did everything together.

"the Next Day At Work"
Myria stood with her arms at her side, completely naked. Her breasts were about half the size of Bianca's and stood firm, her nipples at attention. My gaze moved down her very lovley body, pausing at her midsection, noticing that she was shaved. "Hi Lee," she said, as she walked into the room. "Thanks for inviting me to join you guys, Bianca. I really enjoyed watching you suck his beautiful black dick." I was shocked sitting in the chair listening to theses to hot vixens talk about me. i watched as Myria climbed onto the bed and kisses Bianca. "Hmm," Myria moaned. "i can still taste him on your mouth." "just wait until you have him yourself, Myria, he's very tasty indeed."

"the Next Day At Work"
They kissed again, this time their mouths opened and their tongues met. I watched as their hands began to feel their way around each other's body, their lips staying tight against each other.Bianca was the first to break the kiss. She moved down Myria's body until her lips closed around a nipple. I was frozen as i watched Bianca pull at Myria's nipple with her teeth, nipping at it while her hand closed around the other breast. Bianca's breathing was coming heavier as Bianca began to move further down her body. I looked down and saw my dick responding to the hot sight on the bed. Bianca moved down between myria's legs and began to eat her. I couldn't believe my eyes as i saw how excited Myria was to have another woman's mouth on her pussy. She groaned as her hands reached for Bianca's darker hair, pushing her deeper between her legs.

"the Next Day At Work"
My view was from the bottom coner of the bed, and i couldn't see Bianca's mouth on Myria's pussy, but i knew what she was doing. Bianca was on her knees, and her pussy was in full view. Like Myria. it semed to be clean shaven. It glistened with juice and i found myself staring. Finally i decided to join the fun. I stoo up and moved over to the bed. Bianca was still enjoying Myria's pussy, and i decided that her own pussy was just too accessible for me to ignore. She jumped slightly as she felt my tongue touch her moist lips. She lifted her ass a little higher in the air to allow me to get my tongue deeper into her. The only sounds in the room were the slurping of pussy juices and the moaning of the two vixens as they enjoyed the oral delights. Soom Bianca turned around and kissed me. The taste of her own juices mixed with those of Myria as our tongue met. Myria moved to join us and the three of us stood on our knees, kissing and feeling each other.

"the Next Day At Work"
Soon the women lowered me to the bed and Bianca lifted her leg over me. She slowly lowered herself down on my very hard dick. My dick easily entered her soaking wet pussy, and she settled down on top of me. Meanwhile, Myria moved up to my head and lifted herself up and down onto my face. She sat backwards so that she could look at Bianca. Her pussy tasted so different than Bianca's as it settled down on my mouth. The women began to kiss and play with each other's breasts as Bianca moved up anddown on my shaft. My tongue slid deep inside Myria, and i lapped up her pussy with abandonment. all of us were groaning with passion. I reached down and slide a couple of fingers into Bianca's pussy as it pounded down on my dick. I knew that i was going to last a while since i had already cum once. with my fingers wet from her juices, i moved my hand under Myria's leg and up to her ass. As i continued to likc her pussy, i placed one of the wet fingers at her tight ass hole and began

"the Next Day At Work"
She was the first to cum. She began to buck on my face a i finger fucked her ass while my tongue flicked at her clit. Her moans muffled by Bianca's mouth locked on her mouth. I pumped my hand harder as i felt her pussy lips tighten on my mouth. As she came, she literally squirted her juices deep into my mouth. I dranked her up as her pussy shuddered on my lips. Myria reached down and bagan to play with bianca's clit as she rode my dick. She squeezed and pulled at her pussy as my dick moved in and out of her. I felt her began to tighten and it was too much for me. I grunted as my dick started to swell for a second time and i exploded my load dep in side of her. As soon as my cun hit the walls of her pussy, bianca began her own orgasm, moaning loudly as her pussy tightened even more around my dick. Later the girls lay down beside me, one one each side. I wrapped my arms around them, and we cuddled for the longest time. Finally, i told them i had to get going. i jumped in

The Theory Of Everything By Ken Wilber
This one was a bit heavy going as it kind of tails off into airy fairy land but the basic concepts of consciousness and how everything is interlinked is a good one and well worth knowing about, also Don Beck from Spiral Dynamics is a mate of Ken's. I think that was one of the reasons between the fallout between Don and Chris but dont quote me on that. Ken has also set up the Integral Institute and other stuff

The Theology Of Toys
The Theology of Toys * Capitalism - He who dies with the most toys, wins. * Hari Krishna - He who plays with the most toys, wins. * Judaism - He who buys toys at the lowest price, wins. * Catholicism - He who denies himself the most toys, wins. * Anglican - They were our toys first. * Greek Orthodox - No, they were OURS first. * Branch Davidians - He who dies playing with the biggest toys, wins. * Atheism - There is no toy maker. * Polytheism - There are many toy makers. * Evolutionism - The toys made themselves. * Church of Christ, Scientist - We are the toys. * Communism - Everyone gets the same number of toys, and you go straight to the opposite of heaven if we catch you selling yours. * Baha'i - All toys are just fine with us. * Amish - Toys with batteries are surely a sin. * Taoism - The doll is as important as the dumptruck. * Mormonism - Every boy may have as many toys as he wants. * Voodoo - Let me borrow that doll for a second

Theocracy ...
"Theocracy is the worst of all governments. If we must have a tyrant, a robber baron is far better than an inquisitor. The baron's cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity at some point be sated; and since he dimly knows he is doing wrong he may possibly repent. But the inquisitor who mistakes his own cruelty and lust of power and fear for the voice of Heaven will torment us infinitely because he torments us with the approval of his own conscience and his better impulses appear to him as temptations... The nearer any government approaches to Theocracy the worse it will be. A metaphysic, held by the rulers with the force of a religion, is a bad sign. It forbids them, like the inquisitor, to admit any grain of truth or good in their opponents, it abrogates the ordinary rules of morality, and it gives a seemingly high, super-personal sanction to all the very ordinary human passions by which, like other men, the rulers will frequently be actuated. In a word, it forbids wholesome doubt.

Theory Of The After Life
Hell Awaits All alone,by myself, sitting on the edge Should I jump ,should I stay and watch the people go One by they march on down into hades deep Do I follow, do I wait, still I do not know Do I try to clean my act and be a perfect man Do nothing wrong, repent my sins, do more than I can To make it up to Heaven, where the good have gone Or go to Hell with my mistakes and let my life go on I'd be with all the others who went there own way We will all meet in Hell on the judgement day So goodbye I'll live my life without a single regret While you keep trying to be perfect till your final breathe So long to earth and fare thee well 'Til I see you all in Hell

Theory And Reality
Little Johnny gets home and has to learn the difference between theory and reality. He goes to his mother, Mom do you know the difference between theory and reality. His mom busy making dinner, asks johnny to go ask his father. Johnny goes to the garage and asks his father, "father, whats the difference between theory and reality?" The father replies, thats easy son. Johnny I want you to go ask you mom if she would sleep with someone for a million dollars. Johnny goes to the kitchen, says "mom, would you sleep with someone for a million dollars?" Mom after thinkin for a few minutes, says " well Johnny we could use a new washer, dryer, fridge, and some other things, so yes I would sleep with someone for a million dollars." Johnny runs back to his father, Dad!! "mom said yes, we needed new stuff, and yes she would sleep with someone for a million dollars" So the father then says to Johnny, well son go ask your sister if she would sleep with someone for a million dollars. So JO

2 The One That Was The Best Thing 2 Ever Happen 2 Me
I wrote this on NOVEMBER 23RD 2006 I LOVE Her with all my Heart & Soul, She is the only one that i've ever loved like this & Meant it in my Entire Life. She is the only person that can make me smile when im down in the dumps no matter how sad or depressed i am she's the one girl that I know for a Fact i could Spend the rest of my life with & have no possible regrets for the rest of my life. Knowing she is by my side. No one truly knows the real meaning of a DREAM COME TRUE or the meaning of HEAVEN ON EARTH until they've met this BLUE EYED ANGEL. I will never be able to find anyone else like her for the rest of my life even if i tried to find another like her. People Leap hoping that they'll fly & not drop like a rock, SHE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN MAKE ME FLY and make me truly realize that i am a lucky guy to have such an amazing girl in my life. I LOVE HER. I ALWAYS HAVE & I ALWAYS WILL

Theory Of A Deadman-make Up Your Mind
Make up your mind and I'll make up mine Don't worry about me I'll be fine Those words that you said to me why wasn't I listening I wish I hadn't met you at all. I started thinking I'll sit back and relax and wait for the morning We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time If we breakup, we'll wind up losing both of our minds So wake up, let's make up and do this for the last time Make up your mind, and I'll make up mine Don't worry about me I'll be fine The last time you yelled at me I swore that I heard you say I wish I hadn't met you at all. I started thinking I'll sit back and relax and wait for the morning We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time If we breakup, we'll wind up losing both of our minds So wake up, let's make up and do this for the last time When will we make up, will we break up. Let's wake up,

*the 1 & Only Time Cancer Is A Good Thing*
Your True Love Is a Cancer Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you. What Sign Is Your True Love?

A Theory...
"The essence of nonviolence is love. Out of love and the willingness to act selflessly, strategies, tactics, and techniques for a nonviolent struggle arise naturally. Nonviolence is not a dogma; it is a process." Thich Nhat Hanh

~~the Old Cowboy~~
> >THE OLD COWBOY: >An old cowboy went to a bar and ordered a drink. As he sat there >sipping his whiskey, a young lady sat down next to him. She turned to >the cowboy and asked him, "Are you a real cowboy?" He replied, "Well, >I've spent my whole life on the ranch, herding horses, mending fences, >and branding cattle so I guess I am." She said, "I'm a lesbian. I >spend my whole day thinking about > > women. As soon as I get up in the morning, I think about women; when I >shower, watch TV, etc., everything seems to make me think of women." > A little while later, a couple sat down next to the old cowboy and >asked him, "Are you a real cowboy?" He replied, "I always thought I >was, but I just found out I'm a lesbian."

~~the Origination Of Liberals & Conservatives~~
Humans originally existed as members of small bands of nomadic hunters/gatherers. They lived on deer in the mountains during the winter and would go to the coast and live on fish and lobster in the summer. The two most important events in all of history were the invention of beer and the invention of the wheel. The wheel was invented to get man to the beer. These were the foundation of modern civilization and together were the catalysts for the splitting of humanity into two distinct subgroups: 1. Liberals; and 2. Conservatives. Once beer was discovered, it required grain and that was the beginning of agriculture. Neither the glass bottle nor aluminum can were invented yet, so while our early humans were sitting around waiting for them to be invented, they just stayed close to the brewery. That's how villages were formed. Some men spent their days tracking and killing animals to B-B-Q at night while they were drinking beer. This was the beginning of

Theory Of Fear
Trapped in a universe where only peace is wanted, but how would we have solace when it lie unaccomplished without chaos? Sitting, contemplating the rain as it falls all around me. Are the spirits washing away my sorrow or adding to this dance of my profound and martyred thoughts? Perhaps opening a forbidden glory over neutral thought could create a calming moment within the chimera which haunts our dreams. vV""VIC""Vv

~~the One Finger Salute~~
Leading the fight is Gunnery Sgt Michael Burghardt, known as "Iron Mike" or just "Gunny". He is on his third tour in Iraq. He had become a legend in the bomb disposal world after winning the Bronze S tar for disabling 64 IEDs and destroying 1,548 pieces of ordnance during his second tour. Then, on September 19, he got blown up. He had arrived at a chaotic scene after a bomb had killed four US soldiers. He chose not to wear the bulky bomb protection suit. "You can't react to any sniper fire and you get tunnel-vision," he explains. So, protected by just a helmet and = standard-issue flak jacket, he began what bomb disposal officers term "the longest walk", stepping gingerly into a 5ft deep and 8ft wide crater. The earth shifted slightly and he saw a Senao base station with a wire leading from it. He cut the wire and used his 7 in knife to probe the ground. "I found a piece of red detonating cord between my legs," he says. "That's when I knew I was screwed." Realizing he had been su

'the One'
Entry for December 28, 2005, (THE ONE ) I ACHE FOR THE ONE, THE ONE WHO LONGS FOR MY TOUCH, MY KISS, MY VOICE, MY HEART BEAT, MY SOUL, WHEN WE ARE APART. AS I WILL LONG FOR HER. I ACHE TO BE LOVED AND APPRECIATED FOR ALL THAT I AM AND HAVE TO OFFER. AS I WILL FOR HER. I ACHE FOR A SOUL AND PARTNER WHO COMPLIMENTS ME AS I WILL HER IN THIS LIFE. I ACHE FOR INTELLECTUAL, SPIRITUAL AND PHYSICAL LOVE AND PASSION. I ACHE FOR THE ONE TO SHARE LIFES JOY AND WONDER, PAIN AND SORROW, HAND IN HAND. I ACHE FOR THE ONE, THAT WHEN MY FLESH,BLOOD AND BONES, CAN NO LONGER SUPPORT MY SPIRIT AND SOUL, SHE WILL BE BY MY SIDE WHEN I PASS. AND HER TEARS AND SOBS SHALL BE HEARD AND FELT BY THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN AND THE DEMONS IN HELL. THEY SHALL FEEL HER SORROW AND WILL CRY WITH HER, AS I WILL FOR HER. I ACHE FOR THE ONE, ONE TRUE LOVE, MY SOULMATE DEDICATED TO THERESA" RAVEN BLACK" COACHMAN.THANK YOU FOR YOUR INSPERATION. TO J. DAVIS FOR ASKING THE QUESTION "WHAT MAKES YOU ACHE " . Peace, strength an

"the Old Rugged Cross"
"The Old Rugged Cross" On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross, The emblem of suffering and shame; And I love that old cross where the dearest and best For a world of lost sinners was slain. [Refrain:] So I'll cherish the old rugged cross, Till my trophies at last I lay down; I will cling to the old rugged cross, And exchange it some day for a crown. To the old rugged cross I will ever be true, It's shame and reproach gladly bear; Then he'll call me some day to my home far away, Where his glory forever I'll share. [Refrain]

"the One"
"The One" We sit on the beach so close in the sand, We're watching the waves and you reach for my hand. You turn to me and look in my eyes, The kiss you gave is no surprise. As we sit watching the sun set, I'm wondering if you are the one. The waves lick the shore Brought on by the tide, We laugh and joke as they chase us inside. We enjoy the warmth of a newly built fire. We sit in its glow as the tide becomes higher. We remember our day, recall the fun and the whole time I am wondering if you are the one.

A Theory ..
Einstein at the end of his life was trying to prove that time was an illusion. He believed that everything was happening at the same time, past, present and future. So, if he is correct, there are other dimensions, I think he said about 11 of them. Meaning there is a possibility that there are 11 of you spread out in different dimensions living at the same time. Which brings me to the topic of this blog. A theory I have about Deja vu or Deja vecu. Deja vu is explained in Wikipedia as an "experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously" Where as Deja vecu is described as an "experience involving more than just sight, which is why labeling such "déjà vu" is usually inaccurate. The sense involves a great amount of detail, sensing that everything is just as it was before." If Einstein was correct, then maybe deja vu or deja vecu is the present you meeting or connecting to a you in another dimension. When this happens, our thoughts of the past or

Theodore Roosevelt's Ideas On Immigrants And Being An American In 1907
Theodore Roosevelt's Ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one langu age here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907 Every American citizen needs to read this!

Theodore Roosevelt On Being An American...
The year is 1907...one hundred years ago...read under the picture Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907

~ The Original Numa Numa (gary Brolsma) ~
Hey i gotta give the kid credit it started it all and got a pretty good run of fame with it :) The Original Numa Numa (Gary Brolsma) He was the first and will always be the best !!! The Original Numa Numa (Gary Brolsma) See more like this on kontraband.com

Theodore Roosevelts Words Of Wisdom
I would like to quote Theodore Roosevelt’s ideas on immigration, voiced in 1907: “In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace or origin. But this is predicated upon the person’s becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American … There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn’t an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag … We have room but for one language here, and that is the English language … and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people.” I believe in immigration — legal immigration. I do not believe any immigrant has the right to come to the United States and expect to be handed a carte blanche

The Theory Of A Bong
Basic Principles. A bong is simply a smoking apparatus, which filters the smoke you inhale through water instead of through a filter or roach. The various procedures a bong utilises to convert marijuana into pure filtered cool smoke are as follows: The starting point of the process is with the bowl that will contain your cannabis. This must be fire proof so that when you hold a flame to the weed it wont go up in smoke, and also must have tiny holes in the bottom to allow the smoke to be pulled through. The next stage the smoke goes through is to travel through a hollow pipe that is attached to the bottom of the bowl containing your weed. The pipe will enter into the side of a large vessel containing water. The hole in the side of this container should be airtight, and the bottom of the pipe must be submerged in the water. The water is the next part of the process. The cool liquid acts as a filter for dust particles and other nastiness that floats along with the smoke,

'the Other Woman' (a Very Touching Story Of A Mother And Her Son, A Must For All You Moms)
" THE OTHER WOMAN" After 21 years of marriage, I discovered a new way of keeping alive the spark of love. A little while ago I had started to go out with another woman It was really my wife's idea. "I know that you love her," she said one day, taking me by surprise. "But I love YOU," I protested. "I know, but you also love her." The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. "What's wrong, are you well," she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. "I thought that it would be pleasant to pass some time with you," I responded. "Just the two of us." She thought about it for a moment then said "I would like that very much." That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit

The Theory Of Multiple Intelligences
Sternberg's Conceptions Robert J. Sternberg has devoted much of his career to the study of various conceptions of human intelligence. Starting with his Triarchic Theory of Human Intelligence (Sternberg, 1985), he has expanded on his view of human ability and success. Successful intelligence is defined as that set of mental abilities used to achieve one's goals in life, given a socio-cultural context, through adaptation to, selection of, and shaping of environments. Successful intelligence involves three aspects that are interrelated but largely distinct: analytical, creative, and practical thinking (Sternberg, 1998). Practical Intelligence is the ability to size up a situation well, to be able to determine how to achieve goals, to display awareness to the world around you, and to display interest in the world at large (Sternberg, 1990; Sternberg et al., 2000; Wagner, 2000). Prof. Sternberg is working on several projects that examine the interrelation of his various conceptions of a

Theory Of An Mc
THEORY OF AN MC................ MOST PEOPLE FORGET OR DONT KNOW ABOUT THE MC AND THE JOB OF AN MC.... BUT FIRST WE MUST DISCUSS THE DIFFRENT TYPES OF MC'S. 1) HIP HOP MC- WHO IS ALL ABOUT HIS OR HER SKILLZ AND FLOWN ON THE MIC RYMING ABOUT THERE LIFE AND SITUATIONS....... 2) DRUM N BASS MC- WHICH IS THE SAME AS THE HIP HOP MC TO AN EXTENT BUT ALSO GETS AN KEEPS THE CROWD HYPE WHILE THE DJ PLAYS...... 3) RASTA/ RAGGA/ REGGIE/ DANCE HALL MC- WHO IS ALOT LIKE THE HIP HOP MC BUT ALSO SINGS..... 4) UK MC- WHICH IS LIKE THE HIP HOP AND THE RASTA/ RAGGA/ REGGIE/ DANCE HALL MC.... 5) THAT GUY AT THE CLUB OR FROM THE RADIO- THEN THERE IS THAT GUY WHO JUS YELLS AND TRYS TO GET THE CROWD HYPE WHILE YELLING OVER VOCALS AND MENTIONING BAR SPECIALS AND OCCASIONALY INTRODUCING THE DJ'S..... 6) THAT POOR GUY- WHO GETS CHOSEN TO INTRODUCE THE DJ'S B 4 THEY PLAY WHO IS 2 NERVOUS AND HAS NO CLUE WHAT TO SAY OR DO BUT DOES IT ANY WAY.... OR ITS THE PARTY PROMOTER.... 5

@ The Office
The cold wind blew down. John fiddled with his key at the door. It was around seven in the morning and the door was locked. It was always locked at this time as John was the first one to arrive at work on these days. John finally got the door opened and went in. He ran toward the closet to shut the alarm off but half way there realized it was not going off. “Maybe they forgot to shut it off last night.” He thought out loud. It was either that or someone as already in but highly unlikely. He checked his box but it was empty. No mail from yesterday had been delivered. He went up the stairs to the office to be sure everything was working alright. He got to the top step and walked into his office when he saw her. She sat on her desk . He clothes were draped over her chair. She was wearing her undergarments, a sexy lace bra and panties. She sat there starring at him with her legs crossed. “I know what you want.” She said. “You try and hide it but I see the way you look at me wh

Theodore Roosevelt
It is not the critic who counts, nor the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again & again; who knows great enthusiasms, great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, & who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those timid souls who know neither. -- Theodore Roosevelt"

~~the Ol 3:15 Update~~ Wsc Bombing For October 19th
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Theodore Roosevelt's Ideas On Immigrants And Being An American In 1907.
The year is 1907, one hundred years ago...... READ PRINT UNDER PICTURE Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907 Every American citizen needs to read this! KEEP

2 The One Who Should Of Read My Lowrater's Ode Blog
you should go home and look in the mirror bitch cause your the one who is the fucking dog if i could id rate you a 1 for one ugly hog bitch youve put yourself in the dog house you see

2 The One I Love
you came 2 me when i was down and made me smile and took away my frown youve made me a better man you even showed me real love like no one else can you came from heaven to rescue me cause without you i was like a ship lost at sea "tbc"

2 The One I Love Whole Heartedly
u r my one n only tru love my angel sent from up above ur the light of my life when i have none ur like a rainbow but much prettier than one ur smile is like the stars at night shining bright for the world see i thank god cause i know u love me ur eyes are my favorite color or hue the most sexiest shade ive seen in blue so i thank u for bein there for me my lil woman aka my sexy lady ur all i want n what i need the love from u my heart does feed ur what keeps me goin my heart a pumpin and my blood a flowin

Theodore Roosevelt's Ideas On Immigrants And Being An American In 1907.
Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but s omething else also , isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907 Every American citizen needs to read this!

Theodore Roosevelt
"In the first place we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the man's becoming in very fact an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag, and this excludes the red flag, which symbolizes all wars against liberty and civilization, just as much as it excludes any foreign flag of a nation to which we are hostile...We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language...and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1919 Theodore Roosevelt wrote these wordsin a letter

Theodore Roosevelt's Ideas On Immigrants
Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907. "In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people." Theodore Roosevelt 1907

2012 The Odyssey
With a New Year starting, I sit and think about life. I think about my souls level and what more needs to be done in that area of growth. I have left a few things and people behind, they would not fit into my new year or to the new person I have become from past things that have occured. I have no room for people who can not forgive, or want to say what someone else does is right and everything I do is wrong. I have no room for people who have done nothing but make me unhappy. I still love these people with all my heart, but I can't have the negativity anymore. I think about my beliefs, and know that it is the best thing for all.If I were not such a spiritual person, I would want to act like they do. It is very hard to keep yourself a level above other souls. It is something that you wake up everyday and work on with all the negative crap that happens. I read a lot of spiritual books and articles. In 2006 I ran across the armeaggdon that is to happen in the world in 2012. Some of you

Theories
So I’ve been thinking a lot lately…about Love, about Life, about the simple day-to-day bullshit that piles around us…and I’ve got some interesting theories I’d like to share…If you do read through this, thank you for taking the time to listen to my ramblings of nonsense… Number 1~ By definition, the Human Condition is Insanity-doing the same thing over & over again expecting different results. The cycles & patterns we fall into, and the excuses we make for our mistakes are pathetic. We blame everyone around us for our own faults, we run back to the very thing we know is wrong, and we make choices based on the influences & opinions of others. Why don’t we try being ourselves for a change? How about being Honest, Selfless, Faithful, Loyal, Moral, True…how about being a Superhero??? Number 2~ Money is truly the root of all Evil. It starts wars, destroys friendships and relationships, breaks apart families, destroys Integrity, turns decent souls into thieves and liars…and there’s a

Theo Is Playing In This.....no Its Not Fake Ass David...
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Theory #1
Life is actually a dream. You are in fact a higher being for lack of a better word. You are sleeping right now, and your mind has created an alternate dimmension that is real. Every being creates their own dream dimmension,and every one of these dream dimmensions are independant of everyone elses yet still woven together to the point where we are interacting, much like individual threads are woven together to make a piece of yarn. When you wake up from this dream, your whole sleep universe is destroyed, erasing the "people" that aren't part of this sleep machine, people your mind made up as "life" filler. Tomorrow: Quantum immortality and how it applies to mirror people.

~~~the 411 On Me~~~
Instructions......(I was tagged by....Stacey aka 'j33p♥lovah♥Owned.by.Johnny.Chimpo♥) - MMMMMMMMM the one i likes to "LICKS" Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 10. I am a smoker and think it should be legal!! It is all natural! 9. I have been married and divorced 2 times!! 8. I have a unique gift that few know about! 7. I live by myself!!! 6. I have had a nervous break down within the last year! 5. I am very hard to offend!!! 4. I don't like liars!! And won't stand for it at all!! 3. I hate my breasts!! 2. My mother's nickname for me is "Pyscho" !! AND THE NUMBER ONE WEIRD FACT ABOUT ME ISSSSSSSSSSSSSS ......!!!!! 1. IT EMBARRESSES

Theonlinedatingclub.com
BE WARNED!!! I have ran across a user here scammimg for theonlinedatingclub.com. We met here and she said she really wanted to meet me and we traded IM addy's' then chatted on yahoo IM. She was overly friendly and 'loving'. Then she said she could not use yahoo at work, and repeatedly insisted I join her where she could at theonlinedatingclub.com... So I did as a free member... Immediately she insisted to upgrade so we could use their online chat... So I upgraded to silver member and went to chat... Immediatly she mailed me and said 'chuck, I can't hardly connect with you.. Please upgrade platinum like me'... Then I realized it was a bait and switch scam. I went to cancel the subsciption and lo and behold there is no link to do that. Their FAQ says go to members area to unsubscribe. I clicked on every link there and none was to unsubscribe. Their FAQ said you can contact online support, but never found a link for that either. I left them a comment which I never got a res

Theoretical P-wave Travel Times
Magnitude 5.4 GREATER LOS ANGELES AREA, CALIF. 2008 July 29 18:42:15 UTC Theoretical P-Wave Travel Times These maps show the predicted (theoretical) travel times, in minutes, of the compressional (P) wave from the earthquake location to points around the globe. The travel times are computed using the spherically-symmetric IASP91 reference earth velocity model. The heavy black lines shown are the approximate distances to the P-wave shadow zone (103 to 140 degrees). Theoretical P-Wave Travel Times City Distance (degrees) Travel Time (min:secs) Arrival Time UTC Phase Los Angeles, California 0.41 0:08.2 18:42:23.2 Pg Phoenix, Arizona 4.77 1:11.5 18:43:26.5 Pn San Francisco, California 5.37 1:19.7 18:43:34.7 Pn Albuquerque, New Mexico 9.25 2:13.0 18:44:28.0 Pn Golden, Colorado 11.60 2:45.1 18:45:00.1 Pn Seattle, Washington 14.24 3:21.3 18:45:36.3 Pn Wichita, Kansas 16.99 3:57.2 18:46:12.2 Pn Brownsville, Texas 19.29 4:24.4 18:46:39.4 P Mexico City,

Theory Of A Deadman - So Happy
oh yea like this one and relate Put the bottle down, finally got somethin’ to say Take another look around and find someone else to play Needless to say .. That you’ve got problems There’s no f#kin’ way .. that I’m gonna solve them It’s never the same .. every time you slip, then you fall down, down, down Ever wonder what I been thinkin’ about? I been thinkin’ bout throwin’ you out Chorus I’m so happy about you .. I’m fed up, so get up and get out I’m so happy now we’re through .. I’m fed up, so get up and get out I was so afraid, now you’re gone away Sent you packing, look who’s laughin’ now I’m so happy that I feel this way I’m so happy that I threw you away Put your problems down and pick up what’s left of the pain Take a good look at yourself and see who’s really to blame Needless to say .. you got issues There’s no f#kin’ way .. that

Theory Of A Deadman - "since You've Been Gone"
It seems that nothing ever goes my way Since you broke my heart when you left that day There's nowhere to go so just stay with me Cuz since you've been gone, I've been beggin' you please To tell me you're not alright And you needed to come home (Since you've been gone) To tell me you're not okay And you needed me all along Since you've been gone I need to hear from you Since you've been gone It seems that every time you swear to God that you're leaving I'm down on my knees beggin' you to stay There's nowhere to go so just stay with me Cuz since you've been gone, I've been beggin' you please To tell me you're not alright And you needed to come home (Since you've been gone) To tell me you're not okay And you needed me all along Since you've been gone Please don't leave me here alone Just stay awhile Make me smile Please don't leave me here alone Just stay awhile And, baby, smile Since you've been gone I need to hear from you Since you've been gone

"the One"
Take my hand. I won't let you fall. Don't be afraid. I'll hold on to you. You're so close to me. Close enough to touch. Will you turn away? Or want me just as much. Am I good enough for you? Or am I just setting myself up? For a broken heart. Just don't break my heart. You're the one I've been looking for. Yeah the one I've been hoping for. I want to give my love to you. Baby I would die for you. You're the one I've been praying for. Yeah the one I've been wishing for. I want to give it all to you. Baby I just need you. Lay your body down. I will hold you tight. Close your eyes and sleep. I can promise you. That I'm here to stay. If you want me to. I will never leave. Just give me the chance to show you.

11.06.08 - The Outfield - Your Love (you'll Know It When You Hear It)
SONG VERSION BELOW YOUR LOVE - THE OUTFIELD VIDEO VERSION BELOW Your Love - The Outfield LYRICS BELOW Josie's on a vacation far away Come around and talk it over So many things that I wanna say You know I like my girls a little bit older I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight I ain't got many friends left to talk to No where to run when I'm in trouble You know I'd do anything for you Stay the night but keep it undercover I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight Trying to stop my hands from shakin' Somethin' in my mind's not makin' sense It's been a while since we were all alone I can't hide the way I'm feelin' As you leave me please would you close the door and don't forget what I told you Just 'cause you're right - that don't mean I'm wrong Another shoulder to cry upon I just wanna use your love tonight I don't wanna lose your love tonight Yeah I just wanna use

A Theory On Time Travel?
Size -Relevent To- Speed -Relevent To- Distance (A to B) -Relevent To Size- that's a possible equation(sp?) Think about it .. .. if one (A Different Life Form -IE- An Ant) Does time go faster or slower due to size? on a massive scale not a minor one. Like Atoms and Molecules Now, If One Could Control All Said Factors I Think It's Possible To Control Time, Not Like How Fast/Slow SomeThing/One Goes .. well ... maybe .. but actually controlling the flow of time it's just a thought and purely theoretical not even close to applicable @ this point in time with current technology but one never knows ^_^ Size (Obviously, All Variables) + Speed (All Variables) + Distance (Possibly 4th Dimensional) I have'nt quiet thought out 100% the Distance part

11.10.08 - The Offspring - Gone Away
SONG VERSION BELOW Gone Away - Offspring VIDEO VERSION BELOW Gone Away - The Offspring LYRICS BELOW Maybe in another life I could find you there Pulled away before your time I can't deal it's so unfair And it feels And it feels like Heaven's so far away And it feels Yeah it feels like The world has grown cold Now that you've gone away Leaving flowers on your grave Show that I still care But black roses and Hail Mary's Can't bring back what's taken from me I reach to the sky And call out your name And if I could trade I would And it feels And it feels like Heaven's so far away And it stings Yeah it stings now The world is so cold Now that you've gone away

"the One True"
MY heart is yours and has been ever since i placed it in the hollow of your hand.Never untill you gently curled your fingers around it has my heart known such love.There is no one i rather call my girl than you.There is no hand i'd rather hold than yours.There is no one i rather make love to than you.No one i'd rather share my dreams with,No one who can hold my heart as tenderly as you.

~the Other Side~
I don't want fake friends,fake relationships...fake anything..be real with me..as real as I am with you ...I am not afraid to cry ....I am not afraid to tell you what I think...why do that with me..Don't think it is a requirement to be my friend ...because...I would not do the same for you...Life is too short to pretend anything at all ...especially with myself...and if I do not like you ..I may not tell you out right, but if you ask me...be prepared to hear the truth as I see it ... Why waste time...we both can be doing other things much more enjoyable and not feel either pressured or have to play a part in some play . THIS IS REAL LIFE...if you can be real with me...then go fake it somewhere else ..... I will give my all to any relationship I value ...friendship or intimate working one too...whether you would or will is entirely up to you...Although , I may be hurt when I find out you genuinely do not care about me half as much as I do you... I will get over it...at least I have

Theoretical Math Interests
AREAS OF MATHEMATICS THAT I LIKE THE MOST This will probably sound boring to you. sorry. 1. topology in general, and topological groups where I convinced my pal famous topologist James Dugundji who I was auditing in another course to also present another course in my college dorm the next semester for credit. The students did the lecturing. 2. homotopy theory, part of algebraic topology, which is of interest in economics high class work also. 3. surgery theory and obstructions, part of algebraic topology 4. fibre bundles, where I gave a seminar in graduate school after studying one of the 2 only books on it for 2 years 5. differential topology and singularity theory, where I am researching to entend the work of Rene Thom and the genius Russian V.I Arnold. This is also known as catastrophe theory 6. category theory in the foundations of math, which is partially a revised set theory, and also a way to say "hey this is the same situation in another area, so the same proof app

Theory
There are four states of consciousness and competence that you may pass through as you learn, as in the model below. Conscious-Competence model Conscious Incompetence Conscious Competence Unconscious incompetence Unconscious Competence Unconscious incompetence As an unconscious incompetent, you do not know what you do not know. You are lack knowledge and skills in the area in question and are unaware of this lack. In this state, where you can exist for a very long time, you are not as competent as one or more of: You think you are You actually could be Other, more competent people In this state, you may be in one of two positions. Ignorance is bliss, as they say, and you may well be happily naive, not realizing that you are not competent. You also may be in a faking state, where you believe you are competent, and either do not realize that you are in this state or are covering up your incompetence (in which state you may be in t

Theory Of A Deadman - Bad Girlfriend
For those who love this song! Theory Of A Deadman - Bad Girlfriend Lyrics: My Girlfriend's a d**k magnet My Girlfriend's got a habit She's hot, can't stop, up on stage, doing shots, Tip the man he'll Ring the bell, get her drunk she'll scream like hell. Dirty girl, gettin' down, dance with guys from outta town. Grab her ass, actin' tough. Mess with her, she'll f**k you up. No one really knows if she's drunk or if she's stoned, but she's Comin' back to my place tonight! She likes to shake her ass she grinds it to the beat She likes to pull my hair when I make her grind her teeth I like to strip her down she's naughty to the end You know what she is, no doubt about it She's a bad, bad girlfriend! Red thong, Party's on, Love this song, sing along. Come together, leave alone, see you later back at home No one really knows if she's drunk or is she's stoned But she's coming back to my place tonight. I say No one really knows just how far she's gonna go,

Theory Of A Deadman - Not Ment To Be W/lyrics
For All of my ex's!!! LOL and others relationships that failed. This song is for you! LOL!! Second type of Lyrics Of Theory Of A Deadman - Not Ment To Be: It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to you I might just disappear. Nobody wins when everyone's losing Oh, it's like One step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, Oh, it's like Trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And

Theory Of A Deadman - Hate My Life
So sick of the hobos always begging for change I don't like how I gotta work and And they just sit around and get paid I hate all of the people who can't drive their cars. Bitch you better get outta the way Before I start falling apart I hate how my wife is always up my ass She always wants to buy brand new things But I don't have the cash. I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! How come I never get laid, nice guys always lose. How could she have another headache There's always some kind of excuse I still hate my job, my boss is a dick "I don't get paid nearly enough To put up with all of his shit" I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! Yeah! I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage, You know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass, Then her daddy punches me in the face So if you'r

Theory Of A Dead Man : Not Meant To Be Lyrics
It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to you I might just disappear. Nobody wins when everyone's losing Oh, it's like One step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, Oh, it's like Trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, oh It's like trying to turn around on a One way street. I can't give You what you want and it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see That maybe we're not meant to be There's st

Theory Of A Deadman- Not Meant To Be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to ya I might just disappear. Nobody wins when everyone's losing Oh, it's like One step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, Oh, it's like Trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, oh It's like trying to turn around on a One way street. I can't give You what you want and it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see That maybe we're not meant to be There's st

Theo Arrested….
The Greek public is in shock for the last 48 hours after the most popular model in the country Theo Theodoridis was caught with 4 kilos of cocaine at the airport in Sofia on Sunday night. Because of his exceptional beauty, the 32 year old Theo is often compared by the young to the ancient Greek God of the sun Apollo and is loved by the older because of his numerous charities. Theo can sweep people off their feet with his appearance on the catwalk, which guarantees him numerous prestige jobs and in the last 1-2 years he proved he has actor’s talent as well. This is why the news that he is caught carrying drugs worked as a cold shower for his fans, who are mainly 10-11 years old or even 70 and up. The 32 year old model was caught at the airport in Sofia with a fake passport when he was trying to get on the airplane for Istanbul. The passport control police found his real passport too and informed their Greek colleagues right away. He was also being searched for from the Greek police f

Theo's Sinful Drinks
Theo’s Sinful Drinks His looks upon you are like Liquid Marijuana that will consume you like wild fire. His smile and haunting green eyes are like Liquid Cocaine flashing wicked desire at you. His kisses are like Patron wooing you into submission. Kiss in the Dark room is like shock therapy on a sex ward where he is the playing your personal and private doctor. His touches and words of sinful desire leave you breathless like a After 8 Shooter that you drank too much of. Flaming Lemon Drop are your kisses trembling down his body of endless sin. Slow Comfortable Screw is what he is about to share with you. He will always give you plenty Screaming Orgasm for all to hear like a haunting wind echoing a wicked sinful porn movie being played too loud. Your soul is Tickled Pink finally he is making love to you. Your soul is Red Hot for his wicked acts that have yet been place upon your heavenly body. Theo’s sinful drinks are always sweet as a Orange Blossom just being freshly made

...the Only One In Red...
loud, brash, harsh,your footfalls in the hallwayI started. I hadn't expected you this early.I steel my nerves,I can't back down now.your shadow appears at the doorway,a sharply defined sillohuetteI hear your breathslow and fullrelaxingyour hand on the lightswitchI had to act fast.the bat I found in the garage in my handsI raised it over my head as the light came to lifeyour eyes flickered up toward the weaponthey widened momentarily as it came in contact with theback of your skull.my calm faceunperturbedwas the last you sawand now your face, serene for the painyour earthly body was feelingwas pressed against the floor.I worked with ease and efficiencyeach practiced move worked out hours ahead of timepremeditatedyour breath wascoming in quick, shallow gasps.the lesion at the base of your skull swelling quicklyputting pressure on your spinal cordthe adrenaline pumping through my veinsmy head falls back,the corridors of your house filled withpeals of my laughterthat's the

Theory, Hell. It's Poetry.
Ray Bradbury, the author of “Fahrenheit 451” from which the above quote is taken (his main character says this over a radio in his ear before he reads from a forbidden book to his wife and her friends), is touchy when you edit or bowdlerize-disguised-as-editing any of his work, and I can’t say I blame him. It’s like Teddy Roosevelt once said to a critic regarding one of his own books; our twenty-sixth president opined, “I’ll accept criticism of my style, but I won’t stand for tampering.” I could do worse than be in such company as … well, my attempts at literary artistry. And the cursing I don’t mind when it makes sense in the plot! “How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days” is one of my favorite movies because its only profanity that I remember is in keeping with a card game; remove the word, and you miss the point, along with a major plot development. You think I’ll tell you all I have in my scatological arsen

Theory Of A Deadman...last Song For My Brother....
Last Song Theory Of A Deadman The light that's in your eyes, like everyone wants it to beWell can't you see that it must be this wayWho knows who's wrong or right, just as long as you're here tonightJust like my mother, always taking my likings awayWhen nobody's watching usI missed the last songI blame myself for just standing there too longI missed the last songI blame myself for just standing thereI miss the love, I miss the holidaysI miss my best friend, cheap cigars, stupid kids and movie starsAnd just like my father, always taking my likings awayWhen nobody's watching usI missed the last songI blame myself for just standing there too longI missed the last songI blame myself for just standing there too longWhy does it feel like this world is just not for usWhy does it feel like this world's all they've got for us

Theological
okay so i had this little discussion with a girl at work a while back... she's a dedicatied jesus freak btw but still kinda cool.... anyway so she's going on about this theology professor and this religious concept... most people have probably heard of it but let me explain it... he had a class where he taught and he asked his students to choose between 3 boxes.... 1 god exists and you believe and you go to heaven 2 he exists and you don't believe and you go to hell 3 you don't believe and he doesn't exist and you just die...and they weighed the pros and cons their conclusion being that you have nothing to lose by believing or something along those lines... now being the argumentative little shit you all know me to be and knowing there is no way to convince a true believer god doesn't exist so there was no point arguing about that and it would hardly be any fun anyway i found something far more devastating to propose... a 4th choice... as god says in the bible "Thou shalt have no othe

[the Only One In The Universe]
You ever have a wild sex dream about the one person in the universe you've truly been attracted to and I don't mean the passing fancy of "ooh what a great butt" I mean a magnetic must have draw. That was last night for me. We spoke. We conspired. We parted. And she told me to meet her where I had never dared to tread... I was saddened not knowing where that was, or thinking it to be a metaphor obscuring the moment in dream logic but in moments I was on the path bursting through doorways following arrows of great lotus petals toward her her scent her presence. I was afraid. Afraid that I'd wake. Afraid that she'd disappear before I felt her. Touched her. Tasted her. But through the last doorway she stood, trembling, tiny uncontained explosions of anticipation throughout her body. We kissed. We wandered over soft flesh. We made love. On hardwood floors unabashed unashamed but terrified of our knowledge that this was but a dream. I'd sa

The Theory Of Justification For Homicide
Someone asked me a question recently, and it caused me to think a lot. So, in typical fashion, I am posting the answers I have found here....The question: "What do you think makes someone deserving of death? And what gives you the right to be the one who kills another?" The answer: I believe that if someone does more bad then good, then they deserve to die. A person who is a chronic threat to the basic mechanics of society must be removed from the population in order to provide for the safety and security of the people. When I look at death as a punishment, I don't look at the past. Vengeance is a child-like concept; killing one person for killing another just gives you two dead people. One of those people had a chance to change.Sometimes killing such an individual is the only way to accomplish this. If someone does more bad than good, presuming it can be measured relative to the worth of a human life, then the person should simply have a debt of humanity that needs to be r

Theory 1
My theory to the Walking Dead- Glenn was originally Dr. Sheldon Coopers roommate on the Big Bang Theory...Then Glenn pizza delivery person and delivered pizzas to Sheldon. Glenn was a pizza delivery guy before the apocalypse which you learn in season one......Glenn seriously must have pissed off Sheldon to no end and therefore Sheldon released the virus which caused the apocalypse....

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"the Pleasure Of The Pain: Why Some People Need S&m"
"The Pleasure of the Pain: Why some people need S&M" © Psychology Today - September/October 1999 article by Marianne Apostolides Bind my ankles with your white cotton rope so I cannot walk. Bind my wrists so I cannot push you away. Place me on the bed and wrap your rope tighter around my skin so it grips my flesh. Now I know that struggle is useless, that I must lie here and submit to your mouth and tongue and teeth, your hands and words and whims. I exist only as your object. Exposed. Of every 10 people who reads these words, one or more has experimented with sadomasochism (S&M), which is most popular among educated, middle- and upper-middle-class men and women, according to psychologists and ethnographers who have studied the phenomenon. Charles Moser, Ph.D., M.D., of the institute for Advanced Study of Human Sexuality in San Francisco, has researched S&M to learn the motivation behind it--to understand why in the world people would ask to be bound, whipped and flogged. The

"the Pleasure Of The Pain: Why Some People Need S&m" Cont
"The Pleasure of the Pain: Why some people need S&M" © Psychology Today - September/October 1999 article by Marianne Apostolides ~~ continued from previous page, click here for beginning of story ~~ Marina is a prime example. She knew from the time she was 6 years old that she was expected to succeed in school and sports. She learned to focus on achievement as a way to dismiss emotions and desires. "I learned very young that desires are dangerous," she says. She heard that message in the behavior of her parents: a depressive mother who let her emotions overtake her, and an obsessively health-conscious father who compulsively controlled his diet. When Marina began to have sexual desires, her instinct, cultivated by her upbringing, was to consider them too frightening, too dangerous. "So I became anorexic," she says. "And when you're anorexic, you don't feel desire; all you feel in your body is panic." Marina didn't feel the desire for S&M until she was an adult and ha

"the Player"
The Player He'll meet you and sweep you off of your feet He's nice and he's funny, so cute and so sweet Surprisingly, he likes the same things as you He does all the things that you love to do He's the perfect guy, the one of your dreams You belong together, or so it seems! He looks in your eyes, and plays with your hair He tells you that he'll always be there His touch is so soft, his hold is so tight, His words are so soothing, his kiss is just right! You ditch all your friends for your new obsession You don't realize your future is full of depression You think that you love him, you give him your heart Little do you know that he'll tear it apart You do what he wants, you know its not good You told him slow down, and you think he understood You let it slide by, he's just having fun You'll learn to like it as time goes on! He's taken your heart, and locked it away And you see him with a different girl the next day You cry and you grieve, but then you forgive, He

~the Perfect Mate~
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~~the Pearly Gates~~
> A man appeared before St. Peter at the Pearly Gates. > > "Have you ever done anything of particular merit?" St. Peter asked. > > "Well, I can think of one thing," the man offered. "Once, on a trip to the Black Hills out in South Dakota, I came upon a gang of bikers, who were threatening a young woman. I directed them to leave her alone, but they wouldn't listen. > > So, I approached the largest and most heavily tattooed biker and smacked him in his face, kicked his bike over, ripped out his nose ring, and threw it on the ground. I yelled, "Now, back off!! Or I'll kick the sh*t out of all of you ! > > "St. Peter was impressed, "When did this happen?" > > "Just a couple of minutes ago." > > >

&& The Pain;;
Why, that is all I want to know. Why;; the people I know Why;; the people I care about. Why;; now. Why, Kaylah, My Father, Cassie, and now Brett. Why so close to together in death. Its too much to handle. It just not right. Noone should have this much pain. Its just too much.

~ The Pledge Of Allegiance ~
The following words were spoken by the late Red Skelton on his television program as he related the story of his teacher, Mr. Laswell, who felt his students had come to think of the Pledge of Allegiance as merely something to recite in class each day. Now, more than ever, listen to the meaning of these words. "I've been listening to you boys and girls recite the Pledge of Allegiance all semester and it seems as though it is becoming monotonous to you. If I may, may I recite it and try to explain to you the meaning of each word?" I me, an individual, a committee of one. Pledge dedicate all of my worldly goods to give without self pity. Allegiance my love and my devotion. To the flag our standard, Old Glory, a symbol of freedom. Wherever she waves, there's respect because your loyalty has given her a dignity that shouts freedom is everybody's job! United that means that we have all come together. States individual communities

~ The Power Positive Thinking ~
The 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud lady, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with her hair fashionably coifed and makeup perfectly applied, even though she is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. Her husband of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, she smiled sweetly when told her room was ready. As she maneuvered her walker to the elevator, I provided a visual description of her tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on her window. "I love it," she stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy. "Mrs. Jones, you haven't seen the room ... just wait." "That doesn't have anything to do with it," she replied. "Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged ... it's how I arrange my mind. I already de

~ The Price Of Children ~
The Price of Children Something absolutely positive for a change. I have repeatedly seen the breakdown of the cost of raising a child, but this is the first time I have seen the rewards listed this way. It's nice. The government recently calculated the cost of raising a child from birth to 18 and came up with $160,140 for a middle income family. Talk about sticker shock! That doesn't even touch college tuition. But $160,140 isn't so bad if you break it down. It translates into: * $8,896.66 a year, * $741.38 a month, or * $171.08 a week. * That's a mere $24.24 a day! * Just over a dollar an hour. Still, you might think the best financial advice is don't have children if you want to be "rich." Actually, it is just the opposite. What do you get for your $160,140? * Naming rights. First, middle, and last! * Glimpses of God every day. * Giggles under the covers every night. * More love than your heart can hold. * Butterfly kisses and Velcro hugs.

"the Paintbrush"
I keep my paintbrush with me Wherever I may go, In case I need to cover up So the real me doesn't show. I'm so afraid to show you me, Afraid of what you'll do - that You might laugh or say mean things I'm afraid I might lose you I'd like to remove all my paint coats To show you the real, true me, But I want you to try and understand, I need you to accept what you see. So if you'll be patient and close your eyes, I'll strip off all my coats real slow. Please understand how mush it hurts To let the real me show. Now my coats are all stripped off. I feel naked, bare, and cold, And if you still love me with all that you see, You are my friend, pure as gold. I need to save my paintbrush, though, And hold it in my hand, I want to keep it handy In case someone doesn't understand. So please protect me, my dear friend And thanks for loving me true, Now please let me keep my paintbrush with me Until I love me too.

Thepoet Is Holding An “erotic Poetry Contest”
ThePoet is holding an “EROTIC POETRY CONTEST” Cum on and read some great “Erotic Stories” Just click the link below To comment on mine. Follow the link below to read my story http://cherrytap.com/blog/40786

-=[the Perfect Husband]=-
-=[The Perfect Husband]=- Several men are in the changing room of a golf club. A mobile phone on a bench rings and a man engages the hands free speaker-function and began to talk. Everyone else in the room stops to listen. MAN: "Hello" WOMAN: "Darling, it's me. Are you at the club?" MAN: "Yes" WOMAN: "I am at the shopping centre and found this beautiful leather coat. It's only $1,000. Is it OK if I buy it?" MAN: "Sure,..go ahead if you like it that much." WOMAN: "I also stopped by the Mercedes dealership and saw the new 2006 models. I saw one I really liked." MAN: "How much?" WOMAN: "$70,000" MAN: "OK, but for that price I want it with all the options." WOMAN: "Great! Oh, and one more thing ... The house I wanted last year is back on the market. They're asking $950,000" MAN: "Well, then go ahead and give them an offer of 900,000. They will probably take it. If not, we can go the extra 50 thousand. It really is a pretty good price." WO

"the Push On/turn On"
Where I was weak before, I am strong. I am done being pathetic, And dragging along. Where I have once failed, I shall succeed. I will take who I was, And make him bleed. I will bleed the mother fucker dry! I won't be ashamed of you anymore. So it is time for you to just fucking die! I won't be ashamed of you anymore. You are the past, I am the present. Don't fight it, I'll make it quite unpleasant. I will chain you down, And I will fuck you up. Raking off your skin, Draining your blood into these cups. I will cut out your eyes, and tear off your ears. Fill your head with lies, And manipulate your fears. I will break you at the knees, and make you crawl. I will laugh at your screams and pleas, and watch you fall. This is the end of you, and the beginning of me. I will not be ashamed of you anymore! I will not be ashamed of you anymore! You can run and hide, or stay and die. That is your choice. Either way, You are done. But me, I

9-11-01 The Pentagon
If you haven't seen some of the facts on the plane that crashed into the Pentagon you need to check this out. Just take about two minutes and see if you think the government tell us the truth about things. http://www.asile.org/citoyens/numero13/pentagone/erreurs_en.htm

"the Pasture Of Mind"
"The Pasture of mind" How I used too love to roam, in the pastures of grass so Green. And too pick wild flowers, I have never seen. I used too love to sit upon the hillside, that was so steep, and watch the cows tramping about, on sturdy feet. I would listen too birds in sweetness sing, that seemed to fill the air with freshness and everything. The smell of new blossoms, on the trees, which were almost covered, with honey bees. But too add to this pleasure land of mind. A little brook, that did wind through this lonely Green pastures of mind. I hope you enjoyed reading this poem as much as I enjoyed sharing it. This poem was written in 1938, by my grandmother, Clina Beryl White (Vintinner), when she was a Senior in high school.....

"the Perfect Drug" (nine Inch Nails)
I got my head but my head is unraveling cant keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling I got my heart but my heart's no good you're the only one that's understood I come along but I don't know where you're taking me I shouldn't go but you're wrenching dragging shaking me turn off the sun pull the stars from the sky the more I give to you the more I die and I want you you are the perfect drug the perfect drug the perfect drug the perfect drug you make me hard when i'm all soft inside I see the truth when i'm all stupid-eyed the arrow goes straight through my heart without you everything just falls apart my blood just wants to say hello to you my fear is warm to get inside of you my soul is so afraid to realize how every little bit is left of me take me with you without you everything just falls apart it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces

" The Passing Of A Dream "
Help me out of my prison of darkness Created by the shadows of my ego. Awaken me from my dream of fear Where guilt, blame, and attack Beckon from shadowed doors. Help me to see the world differently By finding no value in blame Ans self-condemnation. Help me to experience Love As my only reality. Help me to cross only The bridges of forgiveness That I may come Out of darkness Into the light.

...the Pain Of You...
Seeing you face to face. Just being in your warm embrace. That way you made me feel, I can't believe it was real. Why can't we go back to the way we were? Instead of you and her, with my life a blurr. We were in a hypnotic trance, It was our very own Gothic Romance...

~~the Power Of Women~~
The Broken Mower When our lawn mower broke and wouldn't run, my wife kept hinting to me that I should get it fixed. But, somehow I always had something else to take care of first, the truck, the car, playing golf ...... always something more important to me. Finally she thought of a clever way to make her point. When I arrived home one day, I found her seated in the tall grass, busily snipping away with a tiny pair of sewing scissors. I watched silently for a short time and then went into the house. I was gone only a minute, and when I came out again I handed her a toothbrush. I said, "When you finish cutting the grass, you might as well sweep the driveway." The doctors say I will walk again, but I will always have a limp. Moral to this story: Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right, and the other is the husband.

~~the Passing Of An Old Friend~~
Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in out of the rain; Why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 -year- old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they th

"the Park" At The Hardrock
Well everyone who likes to have a good time and see some kool independant wrestling (i know you have had your fill of all the drama) but im wrestling tonite with all my friends at the "PARK BAR" which is located at the HARDROCK CASINO FOOD COURT OUTSIDE We are doing a whole card show and having all kinds of fun things as well..great food and drinks if you are 21 and over and even if you are not you will still be able to enter wearing a wrist band if your 18 and under....children must be accompnied by adults!!! please come out and support your south florida independant wrestling federation CCW..we would love to see you!!! WED JUNE 27, 2007 THE PARK BAR AND LOUNGE 21 TO DRINK / 18 TO ENTER / CHILDREN MUST COME WITH ADULT SUPERVISION AND ARE WELCOMED FOOD AND DRINKS / SPECIALS /AUTOGRAPH SIGNINGS WITH THE WRESTLERS COME AND SEE SUMMER HAZE KICK SOME ASS!!!

> The Perfect Couple
> > Once upon a time, a perfect man and a perfect woman met. After a perfect courtship, > they had a perfect wedding. Their life together was, of course, perfect. > > One snowy, stormy Christmas Eve, this perfect couple was driving their > perfect car along a winding road, when they noticed someone at the side of the road > in distress. > > Being the perfect couple, they stopped to help. > > There stood Santa Claus with a huge bundle of toys. Not wanting to > disappoint any children on the eve of Christmas, the perfect couple loaded > Santa and his toys into their vehicle. > > Soon they were driving along delivering the toys. > > Unfortunately, the driving conditions deteriorated and the perfect couple; > and Santa Claus had an accident. > > Only one of them survived the accident. > > Question: Who was the survivor? > > >>Scroll down for the answer. Trust me, it's worth it) > >> > >> > >> > >> > >>Answer: > >> > >>The perfect woman survived.

~~the Perfect Storm~~
Subject: Fw: Fw: Chelsea > > > Chelsea Clinton was departing her plane at the airport and came upon > a soldier and proceeded to talk to him. She asked him where he had > been, to which he replied "Baghdad". She praised him for what he had > done for the country and asked "Were you scared?" > > He replied, "No, but I am scared about what I am facing as I return > to the United States." > > Chelsea asked, "What are you afraid of as you return to the United > States?" > > He looked seriously at her and said "I am afraid of three things: > > Osama, Obama and Yomama." > > > >

"the Pillsbury Doughboy"
The Pillsbury Doughboy Has Passed Away Please join us in remembering a great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, the California Raisins, Betty Crocker, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions. Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, two children, John Dough and Jane Do

~the Passage Lead To Answer~
I love you for you, the mist of your words is meaningful. You treasure a soul for your love and faith. Time passes every day your not in my mind. You create such deep passion for the one you love and cherish. For what has been created in such month's,will the love last between us. Does out heart's have the strength for a life time? If so what to believe in such time spent. Losing one an another will cause fate of a lost. Does life know what to give us? Do we know what will come a head? The heart will only tell and the days that pass.

#5 The Priest/hierophant
#5\'s The Priest/Hierophant )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( )o( If your birth number is a 5 then your Tarot association is The PriestHierophant. Characteristics: If you are using your energy in a positive manner. You are Merciful, and Kind. Patient, Enduring, Good, and Forgiving. You are also inspiring and Spiritual. You have a deep appreciation for Rituals, Heritage and Tradition. You work the best within a routine or a schedule. You may volunteer your help or services to organizations especially those connected to God or Community. You also have the ability to Believe and to have Faith. ***Traits associated with the use of negative energy: Over kindness, too generous and timid. Tendency to cling to the old even if no longer useful. You may hate change. You may also be stubborn, obstinate, unyielding and opinionated. ***Actions which may block positive energy: Having a \"know-it-all\" attitude. Not being open to new influences. Inabi

"the Perfect Southern Woman"
Yesterday, I was having a phone conversation with my best friend, Lucas. I forget what brought us to the particular subject, but at one point he said, "You and your mom are the very essence of the 'perfect' southern woman." I laughed and asked him what all sch a title involved. He said he could not list the specifics on the spot, but he would mull it over and get back to me. Well, today I recieved an e-mail from him in reply: "Sara, I think you personify the perfect southern woman because you are the kind of woman who could accomplish all of the listed items in a single day (and enjoy yourself the whole time): 1) Cook three full meals for a house-full of people; 2) Clean an entire house; 3) Wrangle, entertain, and keep happy a whole brood of kids; 4) Build a fence; 5) Buy a month's worth of groceries with $100; 6) Balance a checkook to the decimal; 7) Herd animals; 8) Prepare food for a 20-person Super Bowl party, and watch the game; 9) Play a game of backyard family fo

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'the' Password
Here's your laugh of the day !!! Password A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at the appropriate point in the process, told him that he would now Need to enter a password..Something he will use to log on. The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figured he would try For the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention. So, When the computer asked him to enter his password, he made it Plainly obvious to his wife that he was keying in... P... E... N.. I... S... His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied: PASSWORD REJECTED. NOT LONG ENOUGH GIGGLES LOL HAVE A GREAT DAY NOT DIRTY...BUT, NOT SQUEEKY CLEAN EITHER...=NSFW

"the Painted Flesh"
The Painted Flesh Tick tock, tick tock- Time undresses me so feverishly, gingerly peeling away every fabric of emotion. ~ Another grain of sand that I capture in my hand ~ Strands of hair wrapped around this infinite contortion. ~ The painted flesh, aroused and fresh ~ Death whispering a tidal wave of swords: But I can’t hear these words. My ship is anchored and my heart’s a glowing lantern- “An exquisite infant-phantom” in this masqueraded lore. I disembark And multitude of neon sparks twirl around my every scar, leaving me reborn, unharmed and charmed… …until time embraces me again. ~ The painted flesh, intact-perplexed ~ An ancient thought brushed back to life. 1/9/2008

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This is for the poet who raped my mind stole my soul left me empty and on the road who painted scenes upon my heart and planned schemes to rip apart for the one I love but won't admit still in denial this sinking ship This is for the one JSDEUEL Copyright 2008

*the Promise*
You are my first romance And Im willing to take all the chance Just to be with you Forever I will be true to you Its a Promise to you I do Till my Life end... When darkness fall Just look up the sky When you see the rainbow up above Im there in its tail To follow you and guide you To make your Dreams came true... You are my First and Last My Love for You will Never Last Promise,You´ll wait for me Till the Sunset is gone When the Rainbows color vanished And the Rains rinse your Tears I´ll dance with you in Heaven With the sweet silver songs of a Lark Written By:Rachel Wiehl

~~~the Penis Wants A Raise~~~
The Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: 1. I do physical labor. 2. I work at great depths. 3. I plunge head first into everything I do. 4. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. 5. I work in a damp environment. 6. I work in a dark area that has poor ventilation. 7. I work in high temperatures. 8. My work exposes me to diseases. ~~~~~~ Dear Penis, After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the management denies your request for the following reasons: 1. You do not work 8 hours straight. 2. You WORK IN SHORT SPURTS AND fall asleep after EACH brief work period. 3. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. 4. You do not stay in your designated area, and are often seen visiting other locations. 5. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. 6. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. 7. You don

"the Pit"
“The Pit” They used to be quite common Now you hardly see them anymore Those little wooden shacks With the moon carved in the door A primitive place to relieve one’s self To take a piss or shit But folks should be more careful Of where they choose to sit One August at my summer camp When I was just a Scout And we were camping in the woods There were a few of them about And instantly I hated Going out there late at night I knew I didn’t like it Because something felt not right It wasn’t the smell, although that was bad And it wasn’t where I had to sit No, what bothered me were the horrors I imagined In the bottom of that pit And it sure didn’t help when late on Friday My buddy Charles went out there at night And we heard that scream that chilled our hearts Yes, it filled our souls with fright So we ventured out to the worn old shack Sure that he was playing a prank And we creaked the weathered door open And peered into the air that stank But

"the Poet."
“The Poet” Hunched over working at his desk, blending words to share His keyboard tapped incessantly into the smoke filled air With a mighty effort he wrestled thoughts and feelings from his mind And fought to find the phrasing, well suited to the rhyme Sometimes the words came easy, as if gifted from above Velvet whispers of pleasant nouns, and the vowels filled with love Long suppressed emotions now filling up his screen A depth of soul, uncommon things, of which others could only dream And so it went, he worked his loom, to make a tapestry It’s very threads, parts of his heart, laid bare for all to see Tales so real they came alive and became something one could touch But his gift was his undoing, because the poet cared too much And then one day it came undone, the pieces flew apart When the wars and famine and darker things gripped his artist’s heart With all the troubles of the world now knocking on his door That gentle man he drew the blinds and the poet

~*the Pied Piper Beseacheth Thee*~
Dont trust the pied piper, as he beseacheth thee He's song is not as happy as it seems... The melody you seek Was never really gone, What faded once was blackened for a reason Change isn't always there in season. So as the piper plays Turn your head away, release unto yourself forget his ways. Something that was beautiful, fragile yet unique Don't play the pipers song you think you seek Let your fears free as the piper watcheth thee Never let him see what he has found As you beseach the piper, learn within his words The pipers song was never meant to be heard. So as the piper plays Beseaching you today, Turn your head and close your eyes Now is not time for compromise Restrain from the pipers meloncholy song Whats done will be forever done

[the Post That Will Likely Get Me Removed From A Few Lists]
Sure does take me a while to get used to this work and then come home to think shit.Well, the only bad news I heard today was I might wind up trained for billing.Not enthusiasticbut fuckall it's not collections or case management.And yeah, I might've made a few comments about single moms today on fubs. Hope nobody that counts is pissed.Bear in mind, I am SWIMMING in uneducated, multiple child single parents (or backdoor daddies) abusing or begging for the system.I went through at least a couple hundred today, and frankly after only 16 hours I want to lower the incentive to lose your job and have kids in this country.But damned if I'm not thinkina lotabout my old plan.The one with my three artistic and unbalanced kids I loved very much and a country house that smelled like bacon and pinesol.I guess its kinda got my paternal instincts tickin again, sucks cuz ... my start dating a nice sane girl instincts, or fucking a wild chick instincts and getting custody really aren't cracklin right

Thepink Dress
The Pink DressThere was this little girl sitting by herself in the park.Everyone passed by her and never stopped to see why she looked so sad..Dressed in a worn pink dress, barefoot and did try, the girl just sat And watched the people go by.She never tried to speak.She never said a word.Many people passed by her, but no one would stop.The next day I decided to go back to the park in curiosity to see If the little girl would still be there.Yes, she was there, right in the very spot where she was Yesterday, and still with the same sad look in her eyesToday I was to make my own move and walk over to the little girl.For as we all know, a park full of strange people is not a place for young children to play alone..As I got closer I could see the back of the little girl's dress.It was grotesquely shaped.I figured that was the reason people just passed by and made no Effort to speak to her.Deformities are a low blow to our society and, heaven forbid if you make a step toward assisting someo

...the Pond Pt2
....continued "The Pond" He lets go of me as blood drips down his back from the scratches he had received. He looks me in the eyes with deep intent, and asks me why do I feel the way 1 feel. Unable to answer, I just stare back at him. "You dug your nails into my back, but it's my face that feels pain" he exclaims. I stand still awaiting his next move. He walks, I folllow. I end up standing on a boulder;and he circles me. Unaware of his intentions, I turn myself toward him as he circles,watching his every move. He says that where im standing is something spiritual, a burial ground or something. He starts on a rant about how he doesn't really exist, and how he is 800 years old. "Shut up! That's just the gin talking" I say. His demeanor, his eyes, they all change as if he became possessed. He asks if he scares me and then says "you only fear the things that you dont know". He's right, I don't know, and at this point,to be honest, I don't want to know. I walked to the car as fast as

"the Prayer For 2010"
H-A-P-P-Y N-E-W Y-E-A-R!!!!!!!,The first decade is gone from the 21st century and the time of THE LORD is at hand.I give my allegiance to the vision of GOD,HIS LOVE AND SALVATION for A-L-L HIS Children. Concerning Our present days,I'd like to start with PSALMS 106 Witch reads;Parise ye the LORD.O give thanks unto the LORD;for HE is good:for HIS mercy endureth forever.Who can utter the mighty acts of tthe LORD?who can shew forth all HIS praise? Blessed are they that keep the judgement,and he that doeth righteousness at all times.Remember me,O LORD,with the favour that thou bearest unto thy people:O visit me with thy salvation;That I may see the good of thy chosen,that I may rejoice in the gladness of thy nation,that I may glory with thine inheritance. IN JESUS NAME,A-Men and Selah. Ihope the new year has been very good to you so far,for we are a continually blessed people before and in GOD. I want to thank everyone one of you who has come into my mylife and enriched it greatly with y

[the Problem With Having An Idea...]
Is that I've got 20 other ideas that will eventually turn into projects. All of which probably involve fewer intricacies and require less practice than this one. Sooooo Deathscythe. I put down some preliminary sketches, and I decided to stick with the whole wings/redemption thing. And Out of my brain popped a seraphim. Why not? He has all the hinges necessary for six wings and a sword (what I often interpret the 7th wing to be in my work :P) So I have... Huge.Plans. For this kit. Color scheme is light metallic trimWhite body (pearl finish if I can get it)and dark purple panels Torso/waist mods:planning to reshape the panels to resemble a crusader's tunicpaneling some of the cockpit and less organic designsmay remove back-skirt, current design impedes maneuverability. limb mods:none planned at the moment Wing mods:extensive.Possibly scrap building all new wing/armor plates (or just sanding off some surfaces) and crafting "feathers" and attaching to the outside of all six win

[[the Purple Berries]
People that have sex for money have always intrigued me.Taking a base, biological need and capitalizing on ittaking what should be free, fun and frequentand turning it into an industryAt some pointthat specifically aroused me.I think it has to do with the specific woman, and the specific circumstances, and just how far she's willing to take it....*shivers*there's this girl on an altporn site though...lets just say her body is familiar to me.Leave it at that.So... why the fuck am I still awake?... because some fucking tard rang my phone ten minutes after I fell asleep. I didn't even pick up or see who, I just unceremoniously hit "shut up" and rolled over.Let's recall the rules shall we?Rule #1 Do not fuck with my sleep.Rule #2 if I don't want to fuck you, I don't want to talk to youThe rest of the rules generally apply to oral sex in public bathrooms.Or they don't apply to this conversation.And where exactly was this conversation going?I don't know.I woke up... and I jerked off to above

[the Purple Berries Part 2]
Well...I did nothing productive today.But god I'm hotgod I'm richgod I'm bored.Around 11 I decided to take off... maybe spend money on a food or beverage item I did not needand then contemplate my life.I decided against it because with my luck, I'd get field sobriety tested for one drink by a bored copand I wasn't hungryandhonestlyI was worried about bumping into familiar faces.I always am in this city...Only so many safe places...I did get pulled over though.4 blocks from my house.For "no tag light" ... "tag light?"Picture this. Thin, clean cut 25 year old red haired male listening to exotica at midnight (NPR) squinting and smiling winningly to something that represents one of his greatest fears (the cop) knowing full and well that he's on a last call roundup and wasting his time on some bored kid with insomnia when there's probably some asshole swerving and hitting elderly pedestrians within earshot.I was blasting that jazz too >> helped me relax.I still don't think my car even HAS t

[the Purple Berries Part 3]
I kinda just want to go somewhere and read the classifieds (as pathetic as they ALWAYS are) and smoke this cigar I've had for a couple months. Funny how much you miss public smoking after its taken from you.Ass bags.One of the last saving graces of this town was that it hadn't bought into thatHIPPYbullshit.Parts per MILLION people... moving on.Y'know, every now and then I get the chance to voice my concerns about my job, about my life, about my time left.Every time I say I'm doing twice the work of others, there's a look of surprise that comes across my audienceapparentlythat's a bad thing.I dunno... this is just a warmup. A resolve check.Before I force myself to go outside... and possibly buy a bunch of shit I don't need. Maybe even talk to strangers.Course... if I walk out on my job that'd give me all the time in the world to write my resume, look for a house, and look for a job.Maybe not all in that order...Alsothat live version of In Rainbows is better. Just saying."starting positi