Well I met my new doctor yesterday (9-6) and she is so friendly and she spent a good bit of time listening to me explain what all is going on and what I need her to do! I was very impressed. Professional too but not to the point of intimdating. More along the lines of "I know my job, you know you, lets work together" type thing is how I feel. Granted, she may prove me wrong (*says sarcastically..like that would be a first lol) but hey, she listened! And listened. And listened lmao.
I felt rather bad for her lol. By the end of the visit, she did have a slightly overwhelmed look about her lmao. I appologized cause I did feel bad springing so much on her at first visit. But there was nothing else I could do.
So here"s the run down as best I can in shortness (yea yea yea, I know, ME and writing short doesn"t go together lol, I can"t help it lol).
Anywhoo. Work situation.....
Work approached me a couple weeks ago and suggested I see about going on short term disability. In a nut shell, my physical problems (aka athritic spine from hell when not on meds) had me missing days and I "hurt productivity". Well daaaahh *sighs* (I always feel guilty enough as it is when I have to call off, now they"ve driven me to the point I won"t call off, I go in even when I can barely walk).
Anyway, to put it in my terms as to how I felt things were being guided in typical big company fashion (aka sleazy legality with silent meaning), go on the disability while I do the 6 month weight loss again, come back for a few weeks, then go back out for the surgery (as long as that goes well) or they will find some reason (more then likely not making the high rates half the time) to let me go even though they can"t do anything to me for the health issues because I"m protected under the family medical leave act. They worry I"m going to end up being taken out by AMED.
Understandable, but where the hell was all this concern years ago when my original back problem started....BECAUSE OF WORKING THERE!!!!!!!! *growls and sighs*
Anywhoo, I"m thinking it will be the best thing for me. I"m quite certain my stress level will drop drastically and I"ll be able to loose weight better.
So wish me luck there. I find out next week (can"t call the sick pay place until Wed (9-12) to find out if approved or not. If not, I"m going to appeal and have purrsonel at work help me out by showing him all my meds).
Now for the medically stuffs lol.
I"ve lost some weight recently with little effort! I"m at my lowest weight in a few years (391 down from highest of about 440).
My blood pressure has dropped a little more so I may not need BP meds (blood work was done to see about some of my meds if needed or not still).
I'm going to try Meridia to help get some weight off (part of the process is I got to loose and keep off weight).
I've been smoking badly the last month or so, so I asked to be put back on the Chantix and this time I'm doing it because I want to quit. First time I didn't actually want to, so I failed in the end (when I went off ALL my medicines when I fired old doctor). My goal for FINAL quit date is Oct 31. I hope to be off way before then but that is my deadline, period. Even if it kills me lmao.
I'm also going to be forcing myself to do my diabetic blood tests daily even though I don't feel I actually need to but I am determined that with this new doctor, I'm going to start fresh and continue to tell myself I am worth working on my health and to keep up what I am supposed to. I didn't do good before because up until Sue and I had the "talk", I didn't feel I was worth doing anything for. I'm changing that still, and doing good :) I'm actually starting to feel it too. I think thats why some of the weights coming off. I'm treating myself with little things still like doing my nails, occasionaly my hair and foot cream (I gets flakey foot lmao no not athetes foot, dry footsies).
So in general, the day I turned 37 is the day I started feeling for ME. AND MEAN IT! I've done this type thing before and always failed myself within a short amount of time but this time its different. Hard to explain but I can tell.
Hope everyone that reads is having a nifty day and that you continue to have nifty days :)
More to be written later.
