Not much to update on concerning the gastric bypass. I will know nothing until after the sleep apnea and thats another month away.
This waiting is killing me. I'm stressing so badly now that my blood pressure reached triple digits on the bottom line for the first time ever (116, top was 180something, I never have understood that other then to know it aint good). But then I also have broncitus that I'm dealing with too.
Not to mention a quack of a doctor thats already not on my good side and has me searching for yet another new doctor. I so regrete picking this one. I can't stand how his office is ran and how he tries to bully me into doing what he wants. Yea he is the doctor but ya know what, ITS MY FRIGGING BODY! I know what has worked for me and what hasn't! I've paid attention to the dozens of different medicines I've been put on for my pain and for my OCD. He doesn't even know who I am and he wants to change them all! Damned quack. Doesn't care for his patients other then to try and bully them into what he wants. WRONG! I have a feeling its going to be a case of I tell him to go to hell and walk out of his office, informing him and his staff exactly what I think of their lazy, careless ways quite soon.
Needless to say my normal perky self is fading fast, I'm struggling to not give up hope and I can't stop worrying. I havn't been able to work a full week at work in a month due to higher pain levels. This week is the first time its not pain, its due to broncitus (Which I may add, my lovely doctor says "Oh you have broncitus", goes silent, so I say, "Should I stay off work or not?" He say "Oh go back to work".) So I go back to work and wouldn't ya know it, I nearly collapsed several times, and actually had points of nearly blacking out when I coughed. But I was ok to work. Fucking quack. I had to call off again yesterday. There's a point added to my record at work :( :( :(
Scuse my language but obviously I'm jacked at how this guy's office and himself treat me. I am not a damned piece of paper to be folded up, mailed off to insurance company for payment due.
No wonder my blood pressure jackknifed to the highest its ever been by over 20 some points on the bottom level. Thats just in 1 week dearies. I'd just seen this dipshit the week before and my blood pressure was purrfectly fine. I was so impressed with him, I wanted to vomit at the thought of going to see him again.
*Sighs* I pray the Goddess lets me survive this last little bit of time in hell before I jump from the frying pan into the fire with having the surgery. I'm thinking this is a test to see how I'll hold up when things go out of my control totally.
More to be written later.
