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Burden
Entrenched in the thoughts of dark despair....What can be done to help prepare?....RIvers are growing, current so deep....Surrounded by canyons and walls so steep...I try to fightit, my body is weak... Czatching my breathe, unable to speak.... As i push forward, distractions come clear... Uncovering thing I've learned to fear... Pressing issues, this rain can't last long.... Amazed how long I have been so strong....Can I take on more water to reach my dry land?.... Someplace in the sunlight where I can stand?.... Leave behind all those torments of loosiing my path... Pull away all the thing to feel my own wrath....Basking in my essence, find my true glow.... Bury that past, so too never show...........Eric Garcia...Copyright ©2009

Reality Strikes....
I have no clue what I'm doing anymore. Every time I make a decision, which at the time I think is right, it turns out wrong. And now I've put myself in the position where I've been hurt.... again. You'd think after that I'd want to put a stop to any and all communication with the person who did that to me, but I can't. I just can't do it. When I made my soon-to-be-ex leave I thought it was a good thing. I thought I'd be happy again. And I was for a little while, but I'm not anymore. I know what I want, that's for damn sure. What I want is not to be alone for the rest of my godforsaken life, to be with someone who isn't bothered by all my little annoying qualities, and most of all I want that person to be somewhere near me and not 3,000 miles away. But do you think I could actually meet someone like that around here? No, not a chance. There's guys who want to meet me and, before they even get to know anything about me, expect me to go to them and do whatever it is they want me to do. I

Finding
Have you heard the story, of the lonely heart?Not too filled with glory, saddening from the start. Kinda fills with worry,pulls ones self apart. Makes one kinda hurry,hesitant to depart.For all those who scurry,looking till you smart.Forever is never to early, for love is just an art.

Real Men Bleed Bbq Sauce!
So several years ago, when my kids were smaller, we had some neighbors over for a BBQ. They had brought down their Go-Kart, and all my kids and their kids, plus other neighborhood kids, were all taking turns tearing up the yard in it. I noticed one of the foam pads that protect you from face-planting into the metal bar was hanging off and about to come off completely, so I called out to whoever was driving it at the time to come over to me. I grabbed a couple of tie-wraps and cinched it down nice & tight. Flipped my trusty Buck knife open to cut off the ends of the tie wraps, but because my knife was somewhat dull, I had to really press down hard, and oops, sliced right thru the tie-wrap and stuck myself in the leg. It went in about an inch (tip first), blood immediately starting coming out and going down my leg, soaking my sock & shoe. My daughter Rachel (my youngest, she was about 5 at the time) was there watching this, and started freaking out! Her face was white as a ghost and she

Dating And Ocean City
I didn't notice there is a text editor on here wild.. well anyways hey I haven't written a blog in a while. Thought I'd write about dating and beach time that i have coming up on sunday. Lots of complaining but oh well.. I'm pretty angry but I really shouldn't be cause I'm not working and its good to chill. Dating is lame for me cause I can't seem to mesh well with women.. lol i sound like such a homo saying that. Oh well.. Anyways I always have found someone great in a month or so just to get it slapped in my face. Nobody said finding love is easy. Just when you get the hang of someone.. and it fails with me. and you gotta find someone else you gotta change yourself as much as you don't want to because every girl is different. Nobody seems to want to change for me. But guys I know not have difficult in finding a woman. I don't get it. I think its cause I don't go to bars or clubs. I hate social situations cause there is a lot of competition and game playing. That just

Dreams ...so Many Dreams....
When I was a younger man I had such dreams. Oh such wonderful , glorious dreams. Now I'm older, ok, a lot older and those dreams are gone. Long buried. Put away like some baseball cards in a box under the bed. What happened? Where has time gone? Remember when you grew up and your block (and maybe the ones surrounding it) were the limits of your imagination / kingdom? The next town over was like going to another country? How freedom was riding your bike without a care in the world. Where your biggest concerns was, what ice cream to get when the good humor truck rolls down your street. Should I play chutes and ladders? Operation? Hungry hungry hippo? Laying in bed on a cold snowy winters day, hearing the town's air raid siren go off meaning school's canceled. Having a catch with my Dad in the backyard. Running with my sister catching lightening bugs , letting them go, watching thier blinking lights go higher and higher into the nightsky, our dreams and prayers are with th

Pedophiles Like Spores Are Running Loose In Your Cupboard
Cake Mixes & Toxins- **PLEASE READ** Pass this on to ALL in your address book. You never know whose life you may save by doing so. For those of you at work, PLEASE remember to check your cupboards when you get home tonight!!! This is confirmed on Snopes http://www.snopes.com/medical/toxins/pancake.asp vv A student at HBHS (high school) had pancakes this week and it almost became fatal. His Mom (registered nurse) made him pancakes, dropped him off at school and headed to play tennis. She never takes her cell phone on the court but did this time and her son called to say he was having trouble breathing. She told him to go to the nurse immediately and proceeded to call school and alert the nurse. The nurse called the paramedics and they were there in 3 minutes and worked on the boy all the way to the hospital. He came so close to dying. Evidently this is more common then I ever knew. Check the expir

Links Of Love.
A spiral chain of love glows, an irridesent shell. It is there that love goes, humans loving swell. Two and fro that sea flows, back and forth as well. As we die the field grows, till heaven rings its bell. As your frigile heart slows, death to close to tell. I will stand with all those, who caught you as you fell.To: B.M.T, I love you Always!

Aww You Made Me Ink!
I gotta get random with my blog titles what with these blog title thieves roaming the fu free men. >:D So here's why I hate married people. No not all married people, just a strong 92.4% of them. It seems like once you say those vows you lose all free will and dignity. I haven't seen my friend Danielle in a hot minute. In fact she got married while I was away. She wouldn't even know the guy if his friend hadn't liked me and wanted to hang out. He's married now too. Both guys are military. Big shock right?? Anyway, I texted today to see if she wanted to go out, to which she replied that she was broke. So I says that's cool, just come over here with the ball and chain and we'll catch up. She replies "ok we'll head out that way" Sound like a tentative plan to you too? So I texted at 9 or so and asked if she was still planning on stopping by, so she replies "no we're fishing. "I say, "wow, thanks for the heads up." I mean I'm not trying to be a baby, if she wants to miss out on my awesom

Gay Site To Have Fun With
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It's About The Sex Survey...
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO ME WITH YOUR ANSWERS. DON'T BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND OR HUSBAND OR WIFE OR S.O.

The 2 Worst Days Of My Life...
WELL I WILL START OFF BY FIRST SAYIN TY EVERY1 FOR UR PRAYERS! MANY OF U HAVE ASKED WHUT HAPPENED TO MY DAUGHTA...SO INSTEAD OF TYPING IT OUT TO INDIVIDUALS ILL SAY IT HERE. THURSDAY MORNING MY DAUGHTA ASKED ME CUD SHE GO TO A FRIENDS HOUSE FOR A CPL HRS I IN RETURN SAID YES...BE HOME AT 4, SHE LEFT AT NOON. WELL SHE NEVER MADE IT TO HER FRIENDS HOUSE :( AS SHE WAS WALKIN UP THE ROAD A 20 YR OLD MAN APPROACHED HER AND STARTED TALKIN TO HER AND CONVINCED HER IT WAS OK FOR HER TO COME BACK TO HIS AUNTS HOUSE (which the aunt was not at home) DURIN THE TIME SHE WAS THERE SHE ATTEMPTED TO LEAVE SEVERAL TIMES AND HE WUD NOT ALLOW HER TO LEAVE...SHE WAS GONE ALL THURSDAY AND THURSDAY NITE. TODAY (friday) WHEN THE AUNT ARRIVED HOME SHE FOUND MY 13 YR OLD DAUGHTA THERE AND HEARD HER CRYIN...THE AUNT THEN WENT UPSTAIRS AND JUST FROM LOOKIN AT MY CHILD SHE CUD TELL SHE IS A MINOR...THE AUNT ASKS WHERE IS UR MOTHER...MY DAUGHTA DIDNT ANSWER AT FIRST BC THIS MAN WAS STILL IN THE SAME ROOM AND SHE

69 Questions...
69 QUESTIONS 1. Initials: K.M.M.2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: Joan of Arc3. Favorite fruit? Bananas4. For or against same sex marriage? Don't Care5. Are you allergic to anything? Bullshit & Assholes6. Are you bisexual? I'm try-sexual... I might try anything once...7. Have you ever slept in someone elses clothes? Yes8. How many U.S states have you been to? Too many to think about9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? 8 or 10 10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? No11. Name something physical you like about yourself? My boo-tay12. Something non-physical you like about yourself? My ability to get to the minutia...13. Do you have any pets? Yep14. What is your dream car? One that's Paid For15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go? Anywhere, Everywhere...16. Are you bipolar? Nope, I'm a Living Contradiction...17. What dream car do you want your husband/wife to drive? Screw a car... Drive a Harley...18. Where would you want to go on a f

Ugggg
So I ran into the person who gave the worst advice of my life today....He wanted to know how I was doing and what I was up to. Kept asking questions about how the last 4 yrs of my life have been....I just avoided the questions. On my way home all I could think about it how horrible I have been and of the awfull things that have been done to me. Really makes a person think about why people love n care about them...and for the life of me I cant figure it out. truth is I shouldnt be here, so the question is why am I. I dont supose I will ever know. But for tonight I I will remember my friends and family that have already gone on thier lives taken before their lives had truly begun.............I know this is jumbled and makes no since but please bear with me.

Egypt Log Entry 2
Here we are again. 13 days into training and still in Kansas. Actually started doing some of the physical training today tho. It was called "drown-proofing". You think you are a strong swimmer and can take it till you actually get inot the water in full gear and sink like a rock. Anyway, Dsys have been long and sleep hours short. but like i said to friend. That's the life of a soldier sometimes. Mission first! Till next time. Later

Letalis Votum...
Look into my heart and see her there I was dead as dead can be She came in the darkness and brought me out She who lives by the stream Judged and vindicated is her soul She came to me as a child of darkness She has shown me her inner light Such severe beauty forces me to bow Her presence inspires me to soar Her voice has brought me to new horizons The thought of her spurs me to betterment The monster I see in me she fears not She is mother to many Cognatio Animus She of many names Letalis Votum...

For Women Only!!check This Out!!
I glad to know that us man are still good for somethings lol!!! Hey girls: 101 uses for a man SCIENTISTS can now grow synthetic sperm, so do women need men any more? Well, there are a few things they're still good for. 1 Whistling at you in the street on your 41st birthday (this should be a state-funded initiative). 2 Model railways, the running and maintenance of. 3 Bird fancying. 4 Particle physics. 5 Eating up the elderly tub of coleslaw in the back of the fridge after an evening at the pub. 6 Opening all those terrifying envelopes that the bank will insist on sending you. 7 Catching spiders. 8 Bringing you tea in bed in the mornings. 9 Forgetting your anniversary, but then wildly overcompensating with a completely over-the-top gesture, preferably involving diamonds. 10 Making your limited capacity for grooving look positively Madonna-esque by dancing around you wildly, arms and legs jerking like a demented puppet. 11 Lending you (often without knowing it)

Dgasgwq
Work was blah..blah blah blah. Had a meeting and had a big bbq afterwards. I ordered steak...even though I don't like steak much but I didn't like the chicken the last time they did the big bbq.I have perfect attendance for over a year...yay me...If you have perfect attendance for a certain amount of years, they give you a gift card to the employee store... whoopie... I never really buy anything there because I don't even wear Nike stuff... But I can probably get 2 or 3 pairs of shoes with my gift card. We're having this Summer Event thing at work...Every year, we'll have one in the summer and one in the Winter. This summer, we'll be having a bbq, carnavil games, and i forget what else. I can invite one guest and I have no idea who the hell to bring. I volenteered to help out with the place for a while that day...I'll be getting paid double and half... woot. More money...I'm also going to be help touring the place for guest and family of the Nike building...go me. I'll be getting my

Sometimes The Greatests Growth
where to start??? recently i have had to face my past transgressions... FEAR held me back in so many ways! PROCRASTINATION made it all the harder even still... but i am still the same inside and hopefully my friends can still see that beautiful light with in me...and in time i will once again share my light and gift...in my own way... there is much i will be doing during the next days, weeks months...and i take each day one step at a time..in this i shallover come the last obsticale that are left in my path, so i may trully full fill my life as it should and will be... i wish to share simply things in this journey as they come to me ...maybe it will help another person... hope you all enjoy the song below. untill our paths cross again have a blessed journey my friends. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1-Y6HqHqy8

Come On Then
Everyone can ignore this, is for someone in particular. 1 - "Sound is ripping through your ears, The deafening sound of metal nears" 2 - "No mercy for what we are doing, No thought to even what we have done" 3 - "Do unto others as they have done unto you, But what in the hell is this world coming to?" 4 - "Spineless from the start, sucked into the part" 5 - "Dealing out the agony within, Charging hard and no one's gonna give in" 6 - "Suspicion Is Your Name, Your Honesty to Blame" 7 - "My Life Suffocates, Planting Seeds of Hate" 8 - "All that is, was and will be, Universe much too big to see" 9 - "The man takes another bullet, He keeps them all within" 10 - "Good day, how do, And I send a smile to you" 11 - "My eyes seek reality, My fingers seek my veins" 12 - "Dolls of voodoo all stuck with pins, One for each of us and our sins" 13 - "And it feels right this time, On this crash course with the big time" 14 - "How could he know t

Is It?
doesn't life get crazy. and yet you have no control though you think you do. LIFE ON THE EDGE sometimes feels it's the only way to get by. suppress the business with rebellion. it's not right. sometimes i just want to get crazy with a hot girl who wants to get crazy back. but does that make things better? i feel like i'm livin on a JAGGEDEDGE!

Work Food
i'm new to work. so far i've been eating out instead of saving money and eating in. honestly, i'm too lazy to cook for food. i want something simple and quick. hot pockets is the only thing that comes to mind. and no i dont want cereal :P help me? should i mumm about this? i bet you nobody will read this..

All The Days
i remember that day you said i do till death do us part the lies, the cheating has left me empty trusting a soul to deliver happiness is a failed cause love is a broken watch like time doesnt pass by, love doesnt exist for so many things i wish i could change the day i met you is the only thing that remains what i would do and what i would have said sure would have lead me another way i dont know how i will ever trust again i know now im meant to be alone all the days

Broken Roads
A stranger dreams in patience along the broken roads his trip has been long, he grows evertired from the distance a lift on the horizon the gleam of the sun beating off the plains step by step he inches the beaten path has taken its toll be silenced from the pain be quiet from the drain another day of struggling along the broken roads

Open Your Mind
open your heart open your mind open your sprit open your soul open your body open your hope open your dreams open your mind to new things open your hands to new wishes open your eyes to the light of another day open your mind by cleon

Gearing Up For The Fight I Don't Want To Have But Must :s Pt 1
I'm not in the mood to have this fight but I must . . . . Just found out today that my daughter will not be receiving TSS service next school year, cuz the school didn't/refused to provide input. This is good on one hand cuz now the school district will have to step up and do right by this child. On the other hand, the school district can keep being an ass and refuse to provide the child what she rightfully needs to excel in school and life. I'm going to bet that the district will continue to fight me and my daughter. The school district dropped the ball when she was little and totally ignored the signs that this child is autistic. . . all the therapy that she would have been given is geared towards children around the age of 3, there is no program or help for adolescents that need the must needed therapy that the 3 year olds are getting. I've tried for 13 years to get the district to do right, and now it looks like I have no choice but to take to the Dept of Education and pursue

What's This?
A blog?? To write in?! HERE?!?! Anywho. Alannah's doing really great. She's getting big! 14 months old. Not sure height and weight, but back in may she was 24.25 inches and 29lbs. She's teething again- three at once it looks like. Catching up? She's been spending time with her dad, which has been going well. I was worried she would scream the entire time away from both Mom and I, like she did with Jen and Brad- but nope. She's older now though, and probably has some instinctual things going on. Work's work. Been busy this week. Have almost 10 hours OT this week. Ug. I'm definately ready to have a day off. Sunday come quick! Anyways, once the washer is done I'm gonna grab a shower I think before Alannah goes to bed. I may go at the same time! Oh! I almost forgot. Boys suck. That's all I can say about that.

Okay, Thats It...
Okay, breast reduction please! I just realized I had a piece of cinnamon roll hanging on the underside of my boob...I had a cinnamon roll an hour ago...and only noticed because I had to check myself out in the mirror when leaving the kitchen :o

The Games Begin
THE GAMES BEGIN Just when you think You can let your guard down And start living again….. The games begin. The masks are donned. The lies are camouflaged with interest. The colloquy becomes an imaginative banter. The games begin. The smiles, the body language, the affection, The actions, the reactions…. Is it genuine or a learned art? The games begin. And then, when the comfort is back And the armor has disintegrated… A lesson is learned again, the hard way The game has now ended… The best player has won And the loser again builds the walls Retreats into the comfort of solitude&helli

Two Become One
Tonight As darkness falls Upon a moon kissed weary earth Stars sparkle in ebony skies Dancing in sweet rhythm To our whispered words of love Two bodies wrapped together In a sensuous lovers embrace A deep hunger for each other So plain to see upon each face Each heated touch Each fevered kiss Kindles white hot passion Brings oh such bliss Two hearts come together Now to beat as one Two souls joined forever Two bodies become one

Broke
broken hearts cant truely be mended. when you care for someone it always takes more then one person caring to make things right. to make things work. distance is the worst factor. it makes you cry it makes it hard and it makes everything not really worth the while. but true love does conquer all as long as it goes both ways. it cant just go one way. i found out the hard way. nothing is worth saving unless you feel it the best way. being broken hearted is the worst thing ever. i guess only one quote says it best. make sure the juice is worth the squize. if it is dont loose a drop and keep it all. things are difficult and people get hurt if they care. but hey what do i know im just a guy with a broken heart that has never mended. dont take my word for it. try it your own way. hopefully your ending will be a happy one unlike mine.

Your Hands In Mine
Clasping your hands in mine Sharing love and affection Caressing in blissful dreams Feel heart to heart connection Wrapping me in your warmth In soft kisses everywhere Together laying side by side In the dreams which we share With whispers from your lips Beckoning me sensually I welcomed with open arms Sharing our nights in intimacy Swaying with sensual rhythm I felt pleasure in every way Releasing the passion within Together till night turns to day

Dreams
The possibilities are endless Of dreams in continuation If you add thoughts to mine We can share imagination Continue nights with sequels Let your desires flow free Unlocking unending dreams Share the key to creativity Ignite the passionate flames Until the embers glow red Dreams have no limitations Once inhibitions are shed On a blanket 'neath the stars The moon lights the shore Embrace in nights together Each dream reveals more

Consumed
Say nothing, Love,For your eyes speak volumesThe warmth of your unspoken words consume meLet your outstretched armsAct as wings... covet me,The sensation of your warmth consumes meSay nothing, Love,For your eyes speak volumesThe warmth of your unspoken words consume meLet your outstretched armsAct as wings... covet me,The sensation of your warmth consumes meGrant me this timeTo love you gently,Allow your warmth to consume meFor I promise you when we part...I shall never forgetHow your warmth consumed me

Oh My God!
A wealthy women is being shown around the hospital. During her tour> she passed a room where a male patient was masturbating furiously.> > 'Oh my GOD!' screamed the woman. 'That's disgraceful! Why is he doing> that?'> > The doctor who was leading the tour calmly explained, "I'm very sorry> that you were exposed to that, but this man has a serious condition> where his testicles rapidly fill with semen, and if he doesn't do> that at least five times a day, he'll be in extreme pain and his> testicles could easily rupture."> > "Oh, well in that case, I guess it's okay," said the woman.> > As they passed by the very next room, they saw a male patient laying> in bed while a nurse performed oral sex on him. Again, the woman> screamed, "Oh my GOD! How can THAT be justified?"> > Again the d

Every Breath...........
I awake each day with a smile And greet it with a laugh; The world is a treasure to me Because of you. Every time I think of something sad, I replace the thought- with you! My mind is instantly changed And my heart is filled with gladness. Every breath I take is meant for you, I live this life surrounded in joy And I bathe in the promise of your love, My soul belongs to you. Each time I see something beautiful I want to take it and bring it to you; My life has so much meaning now All because of you.

Saying Good-bye Is Never Easy
Hello Furiends, It's time for me to say good-bye to all of you. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day to get on Fubar anymore, so I have made a very difficult decision to leave. For my friends, I'll be more than happy to give you my email address, so we can stay in touch. I've made some really good friends on here and will always cherish our friendship. Angel Wings

Fubar Is Getting Old
It's been forever since I last blogged anything, so I am going to do now. . .It has been out of work for five (5) months now, and between hanging out with the family and searching for another job I have been spending way too much time on Fubar. I have come to to realize that most of the guys out there in Internet land are just plane stupid, and I'm sick of it all.My stat message, when I am going to be away from the computer, normally reads “[Out] Yahoo Message me.” Now if you even take five seconds to read my profile you would see right below my music video in light bright blue is my Yahoo Messenger screen name. Now is it really that hard to read a profile?Also I have been getting tired of people asking me if I am single or how my boyfriend is doing. Again if you take five seconds to read my profile you would see that I am single.What else. . . Oh yeah again thing I am sick of is people using “S'up” and/or “Sup.” Hello really? Are we not all

Impartant Pic
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson . As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades.. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villain to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the American people findthe need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood , and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all ofa sudden he's a freaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? What about all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All those Soldiers who

Boyfriend Application
Name:Birthday:Location:Hair color:Eye color:Height:Religion:Are you still a virgin:Tattoos or piercings:Favorite Animal:Smoke:Drink:Make the first moves:Opinion on Cuddling:Favorite Band/music:Favorite Food/Beverages:Fav. Colors:Fav. Sounds:Fav. smells:Fav. Movies:Fav. TV Shows:FAv. Places to hang out/or just be:Special Talents:Describe your perfect date:One special/unique thing about you:What would you do to get my attention:Would you tell me the truth no matter what:4 words to describe you:Highest education:What do you see in your future:Favorite physical feature/quality:Whats the longest relationship you?ve had:Why have you applied to be my boyfriend:Whats your ultimate weakness:Who has been the most influential person in your life and why:Are you a vegetarian:what turns you on the most:What kind of a woman do you respect:Have you ever regreted a hookup:How many sexual partners have you had:What first attracts you to me:Whats the most valuable thing you could recieve from another hu

Street Race
people here in north carolina is nothin but a street racers community, and im one of them. but i know its illegal in all i already out ran the cops once and so on, but now i only race when im challenged but i really dont care anymore my rep is wat keeps me out of trouble so duces

Just A Blog Update On Me.=) Read Please.
Hey there all my fu friends.=) Just wanted to blog and do a little update for you guys.Its been about a week and a half since I've made Oracle.I'm enjoying it.I like being able to pimp out my friends and just surprise them and help them out and its cool to have pimps to sell if you get fu-broke lol.Most of you have probably noticed that my fu-family is very small.I only have 4 people.These people I am the closest to on the site and are always there for me.Jusmik05 is my bestest friend here.He is great! My boyfriend is in my family and of course I love him to death.He is my world.Sabbath is a very close friend here.We haven't known each other very long but he stood out from the first day I met him.He's a doll.=) and of course there is my slave.He's a good little slave boy.=) I'm sure most have noticed I did away with my nsfw.I got sick of the judgemental people and being begged every 5 minutes to see it.I have no problem with people having nsfw because everyone has different limits.Don'

Update
Ok so I have a temporary fix for my internets. I ended up having to buy sooo much more than I anticipated for the apartment so I'm a little strapped on funds right now. But I'm still alive and stuff. I missed some of you lovely people. Kinda sucks that some of you didn't even seem to notice my absense.

Pick A Number...
Okay...Pick a number between 1-150. Whoever gets the closest without going over gets a 1 credit bling. You only get 1 guess. You have until 6pm central time...so about 20 mins =) I'll announce the winner at 6pm too. Go!

"breathing Slowly"
"Breathing Slowly" Who am I to save you, To try and tame you, And now that you are free of me, But next time when you break down, Is it me you'll take down, With you on your knees? So who was I to hurt you, To desert you, When you needed me there, So now that you've learned to hate me, You're finally set free, I fall to my knees, And I'm breathing slowly, Like you said to do when you had lost control, My head spins from God's wind, That carries you away from me, Looks like you got away from me, This time, For good... And since those days have passed me by, I'm in and out of life, The way you used to be, You know I always was the strong one, But now I've come undone, Sweet Release...(come to me) And I'm breathing slowly, Like you said to do when you had lost control, My head spins from God's wind, That carries you away from me, Looks like you got away from me, This time, You got away from me oh yea, You got away for good...

Not Forgotten
I have not forgotten you Or the things you would do The way you smiled at me Just how happy we'd be Friends forever is what we'd say But it didn't turn out that way Laughing, crying, and talking Happy by myself, just walking On the phone for hours on end On one another we learned to depend To brighten each others day In one very special way Joking around and making plans too Thinking of all the things we could do The fun we would have when we meet Because of complications, we admit defeat You're not there like you use to be However, your memory will remain with me You will not be forgotten so easily, You know I will never forget what we had to let go It was special and I'll treasure it forever If they ask if I regret if, I will say never What we had was special, it will remain that way And on that subject I have nothing more to say

Smoke And Mirrors
.........Smoke and Mirrors......... Arising in thought, my judgment disguised..... Smoke covered mirrors, deep hidden lies..... When will I give into my own true appeal?..... Allow myself triumph or some room to heal..... Walking my days clouded in thought..... How hard I have battled, the emotions I’ve fought..... Doubting my chances, stealing my choice..... To the point I can’t recognize, even my voice..... Why do I continue to live my days..... Punishment, turmoil in so many ways...... So heavy this burden of unclean guilt..... Nothing to stop it, this body does wilt.... To crumble inside and rot with no sun..... So hard to keep trying when my soul weights a ton.... Looking around at what to achieve.... And how many emotions I kept from my sleeve...... Covered and hidden from anything close.... It won’t be to long before I am a ghost.... Gracefully walking where no one can see..... I beg to differ, that’s already me..... Eric Garcia 4-16-2009

Simply Distraught
.....................Simply Distraught..............Tired, exhausted this sand that I walk.....Growing so weary this life that I talk....Come to the distance, what do I find?...All the excuses I hide behind...Shadows cast over, the tempatures rise... Stared at to long it has burned my eyes...Unable to see in this life I have led...Uncover things I have know to dread Pounding in silence with no one to hear... Fall to my knees unable to tear.... Reaching the point i dont wish to return...Can't see through these eyes while they carry this burn. What do you do when your landscape is gone?...Nothing to live, nothing to spawn...Cursed by this silence that has taken my soul. Starved me of things that once were my goal. Surrounding my breath,.. contraction is fair....Heavy my breathing in this stagnate air...Overwhelmed with this anger that wont disspate... All these emotions what stands out is the Hate...Controling desire to leave it behind... not scared of the darkness I know I will find...

Second Chance
My eyes are open wideBy the way I made it through the dayI watch the world outsideBy the way I'm leaving out todayI just saw Haley's Comet, she wavedSaid, "Why are you always running in place?"Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphereTell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I canTo make them realize this is my life, I hope they understandI'm not angry, I'm just sayingSometimes goodbye is a second chancePlease don't cry one tear for meI'm not afraid of what I have to sayThis is my one and only voiceSo listen close, it's only for todayI just saw Haley's Comet, she wavedSaid, "Why are you always running in place?"Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphere"Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I canTo make them realize this is my life, I hope they understandI'm not angry, I'm just sayingSometimes goodbye is a second chanceHere is my chanceThis is my chanceTell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I canTo make them

From Tigression
Tigression sent this to me an a messege here and it is so beautiful.. that I had to share it.. OMG.. wow!!! Thank you Tigression!!! "...only a few of us on this site could actually fathom you...Pain through the ages neither lessened nor faded,Consumed by her search left her silent and jaded,Never finding true love... to break death’s cold wrappingsTo feel life flow within her and not merely trappings.How long had she waited with arms outstretched,For life to beat rhythm within her troubled breast,For someone to see past the blood on her hands,To know and to grant her most secret demands?How long had she yearned for the sun on her face,Lifeblood coursing within her, no need for a taste?But a mate for her soul never ventured nor daredTo see past her shell to the spirit she bared.Each age that passed, more slowly she countedEach silent scream as her blackness it mounted,Until the day came when true-love did burn,And opening her coffin, whispered softly in turn,“I offer my

Demons Of War.
Devil cries of war and wins, people left in shame. Hatred spawning horrid sins, as they writhe in pain. And under all your tattered skins, you play a twisted game. All around you patience thins, the world will make you tame!

For You?
Time has come once again to make salutes for you wonderful people. If you already have a salute from me....no need for another. This only applies to those I have not made one for yet. If you want a salute from me....please leave me a comment here, or send a private message stating you would like one. They will be posted this coming Tuesday, and if it belongs to you. By all means.....RIP IT!! :P God Bless all of you! Love, That tall guy you hate to love!

Moron Of The Week Part 2
Just when you think Pittbull or w/e he calls himself today is the only form of entertainment here you get things like this in your SB or a request *LOL* So just for shits and giggles I vanity search his yahoo name and he has pages all over the globe begging for cam2cam..He is from Italy. (the shame of it) Are the women there that bad now? *shakes head* So here is this weeks moron :

He Kicks Ass!!
ok...so i have this friend...he's way awesome...his name is joe aka joe...he's one of those friends that if you EVER need anything he'll be the first one there to help ya out. he's truly amazing...i just thought everyone should know how awesome i think he is. yall should so be friends with him...you wont regret it...promise...

Sigh
I grow wearier every day, hearing on and on about Love. I think maybe, in the interest of preventing suicidal depression, and mental illness in general, that Hallmark should be Nuked and all manner and forms of the concept of Love stricken from the record and language. Wow, never thought I could be that succinct.

Theory Of A Dead Man : Not Meant To Be Lyrics
It's never enough to say I'm sorry It's never enough to say I care But I'm caught between what you Wanted from me, and knowing If I give that to you I might just disappear. Nobody wins when everyone's losing Oh, it's like One step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, Oh, it's like Trying to turn around on a one way street I can't give you what you want And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see Maybe we're not meant to be It's never enough to say I love you No, it's never enough to say I try It's hard to believe that's there's No way out for you and me And it seems to be, The story of our life Nobody wins when everyone's losing It's like one step forward and two steps back No matter what I do you're always mad And I can't change your mind, oh It's like trying to turn around on a One way street. I can't give You what you want and it's killing me And I, I'm starting to see That maybe we're not meant to be There's st

25 Owners :)
Hey! i need to be bought 25 continuous times in 24 hours by 25 different people. This is to level.. I also cant be disowned. Please help me by buyin me at the cheapest price possible so others can afford me down the road! :) Thanks!!!!

Day 1
I guess there is so much intolerance in our society. It is not just the color of your skin or the way that you worship your God that people discriminate against anymore. Society as a whole is getting just so damn narcissistic and bitchy. Every other commercial on TV is about fixing what is wrong with you. What if there is really just something wrong with society? What if its okay to have one tit bigger than the other, two moles behind your left ear, graying hair, limp dicks, a few stretch marks here and there, and of course the terribly unwanted love handles? I would gladly be friends with real people, with real issues. I don’t want some fake made up shell of what a person wants to be. I would rather talk to a 85% burn victim about the way to solve cancer and global hunger than some super-model chick about Prada or Versace. We as a people have become so materialistic and uncaring. We have people living in hunger and homeless residenced in the richest country in the world, yet we

Being Used
Ok this is my space to vent..I don't expect anyone to give a shit, and thats fine. Don't read it if it offends you. If you don't like it don't click it. If I give you my time, lend an ear, offer a shoulder, listen to your problems...its means I know how to be a friend. If you can't reciprocate any of the things I do regularly for people I care for, then you lose me. And I may not be perfect, I am sensitive and caring and I get my feelings hurt sometimes, but I am one hell of a good friend and you don't get to have my tlc! I am so fucking sick and tired of being understanding and sweet for you to pick up and drop me once you don't need the sympathy or attention. Thats bullshit. I am not putting up with being used like this cuz I don't deserve it. Don't sniff around anytime you think you can have a lil play time with no questions asked. Not gonna happen. I'm married and it says so right on my page so I got nothing to hide. I give my yahoo to individuals who completely und

Politics Again
I am insane, people. I have only just realized this, owing to the excessive amount of inconsequntial information that has been crammed into my head in the course of life. I came to this epiphany earlier today when I was considering the heeping piles of crap I psycho-accumulated in persuing philosophy as a course of study lo these many years ago, a sort of synthesis of the mass of western thought formed in my head gunk and it was simply this- To grow up or live in for an extended period and adhere to the rules customs and strictures of a society is to be a member of said society. Said society then takes onto itself certain responsibilities such as to preseve its componant individuals lives and livlihoods. When these responsibilites are not addressed and upheald by that society, where is the logical basis for continued obedience to the laws of said society? The founding fathers said there was none and picked up guns to fight. Despite this and two hundred plus years of celebrating that r

Rock Us Hard
SATURDAY .... SPANK THE KITTY AND GRAB THE TIGERS TAIL "DYNAMIC DUO" AUTO 11'S AND BOMBING!! SPANK THE KITTY... YOU KNOW THE KITTY LIKES TO BE SPANKED *SMILES* ALL BOMBS WILL BE RETURNED WITH THE EXCEPTION YOU DO NOT HAVE A FOLDER OF 250 PICS. SORRY, I SEE NO EXCUSE FOR IT. I HAVE UPLOADED ALL MY PICS 1 AT A TIME. JUST DO IT. YOU WILL BE RATED BACK FULLY, BUT NOT BOMBED. IF YOU CHOOSE TO MANUALLY RATE A FOLDER OF 250 MAIL ME AND I WILL BOMB YOU >>>>IT DOES NOT MATTER TO ME IF YOU HAVE AUTOS OR NOT! PLEASE USE YOUR HEAD, I (AS MOST DO) BOMB DURING A HAPPY HOUR. YOU RATING DURING A NON HAPPY HOUR DOES NOT = ME BOMBING YOU DURING A HAPPY HOUR. DO YOU SEE HOW THAT WORKS? FEELIN LUCKY? BLING ME THE FEELING LUCKY BLING (OR THE EQUIVALENT IN CREDITS AS MANY TIMES AS YOU WANT) AND SEE WHAT SALUTE(S) I COME UP WITH FOR YOU.... I WILL BE MAKING SALUTES OVER THE WEEKEND. ******YOU WILL ALSO BE GETTING MY 1ST EVER FU SALUTES! I'M FEELIN' EXTRA NAUGHTY!! BLING ME THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT AND

Things I Would Change.
I know none of this is really going to matter, because it's not like I can change anything on this site. Just some things on here really bother me. Here they are, in no particular order. 1. Blogs would have stayed the same. This new format is stupid. You can't embed anything and the HTML on them is messed up. 2. Bling. I think most of them are stupid. For example the Pimp Hand and Shield. Really, who uses them now? To be honest, I think the Auto-11 and Bomb bling are stupid. It makes it too easy to get points. No one really needs to interact with people. 3. Comment approval. It's stupid. People should be able to make any comment they want. If a person doesn't like it, they can delete it. It's simple. 4. Page settings. The option to chose between "power", "newbie", and another one, was awesome at first. But honestly, why do we need TWO bar tabs? Just get rid of the one that is where bulletins use to be. Put the bulletins/MuMMs back. Things were simple then. 5. Blings again. Why

Im Fat
so today im gonna start a new exercise routine....my goal is to try and lose my fatness or at least most of it in a few months..id like to get back to where i was after football my senior year which was 230...right now im 267.5 my goal is to lose at least 2 pant sizes...go from a 38 to a 34 will keep you posted

Things That Are Ment To Be~
Well seems my girl placed a blog before me..... Well Im still in N.C. and have been building my business?, with another branch in NC, I would continue to talk about that... But... I'm not here for that, Im here to blog about my life as it is today.... I arrived in NC early evening looked around for my girl came to relize she wasnt in the airport, I was "oh shit I did tell her the right date... didnt I?",I called her said to her, ermmm you here if so where are you girl? Her reply Im running behind but Im on my way.... I laughed thinking "typical female making her man wait"... She called to inform me she was here, I told her I would meet her at the curbside, I walked out and looked around and saw her way at the end along the curb... I was cracking up! I said I see you slut come get your owner, she replied yes Master... she took to m

Happy Hour
I have been around here long enough to see the negotiations, the bribery, the auctions, etc. I am thinking about doing something entirely different. Here's the deal: I will be giving away a Happy hour in August. (August 14th seems to be a good day for this). The deal is, though, I won't be giving it to you. I would like you to nominate someone to receive it. Send me a private message with whom you would like to receive it, and why. The best nomination gets the happy hour gifted in the name of the nominator. Please do not nominate more than one person. There is nothing wanted in return. Also, please be sure the person you nominate doesn't have me blocked and please make sure to include a link to their profile in the private message. Thanks, Ninja

Frustrated!
I NEED HELP! FOR YEARS NOW I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT A WOMAN'S WORTH!! I MEAN MY KIDS ARE GETTING OLDER & NOT WANTING TO HANG OUT WITH DAD ANYMORE & AT TIMES IT DOES GET LONELY. I HAVE NEVER BEEN MARRIED & IN REALITY AM TERRIFIED OF IT. AS I GET OLDER I WANT TO BE IN IT FOR LONGIVTIY NOT A ONE NIGHTER OR JUST AROUND TO SATIFY THE NEEDS. FUCK THAT! TIRED OF IT! DID IT FOR TOO MANY YEARS! I HAVE READ BOOKS, WATCHED MOVIES, WATCH THE OXYGEN & LIFETIME NETWORKS BUT I DON'T GET IT! THEY JUST SHOW THE UGLY STUFF & THAT'S NOT ME - NO WAY SHAPE OF FORM!! I NEED POINTERS NOW REMEMBER I'M A TALKING GORILLA SO I DON'T HAVE A LOT TO WORK WITH. BUT ANY IDEAS WOULD BE APRRECIATED. THANK YOU! COMMENT OR MESSAGE ME WITH YOUR ADVICE PLEASE & THANK YOU!!!

07/10/09
Fact of the day: Being unmarried can shorten a man's life by ten years. “Hmm… not sure if the (married) part is the reason or if he just has someone that loves him.” I think its love =) “What’s sad… all the poor bastards who can’t wait to die cause they hate their wives and yet they get to live an extra 10 years or so.” ROFLMFAO!!! Joke of the day: A woman is like a pack of cards ... ... You need a heart to love her ... A diamond to marry her ... A club to smash her head in ... And a spade to bury the bitch

Ensign: The Lord Hath Not Spoken By Me, Part 3
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 10 July 2009 “Now therefore, behold, the LORD hath put a lying spirit in the mouth of all these thy prophets, and the LORD hath spoken evil concerning thee.” You could have heard a pin drop as Micaiah the prophet of the LORD was saying this, considering his audience. Ahab the king of Israel and Jehoshaphat the king of Judah were on their thrones situated in the threshing floor of the gate to enter Samaria, Israel’s capital city, and four hundred prophets (“thy prophets” of 1 Kings 22:23, the opening verse today) have already told their king to go attack Ramoth-Gilead because his success is guaranteed. Guaranteed by the prophets? No. Guaranteed by the LORD? Yes, to fail. The LORD isn’t breakin

Better To Smile Than Frown...
George Strait "She'll Leave You With A Smile" I can see you're falling for herFriend you know she once was mineSo I guess I oughta warn you'Cause you're showing all the signsShe's a devilShe's an angelShe's a womanShe's a childShe's a heartacheWhen she leaves youBut she'll leave you with a smileWhen she held me it was HeavenIt was worth the losin' painAnd when she's gone she'll leave you wishin'She'd just roll your way againShe's a devilShe's an angelShe's a womanShe's a childShe's a heartacheWhen she leaves youBut she'll leave you with a smileShe's a devilShe's an angelShe's a womanShe's a childShe's a heartacheWhen she leaves youBut she'll leave you with a smile

I Wonder Why(listen To Dmx - I Wish While You Read This)
why do people do the things they do? why are there ignorant assholes that beat up women? why can't we stop these people? why do they have to hurt others? why do they have to give men a bad rap? i'm a good man. i wish i could do something about it. women do not deserve to be treated in this way. no matter what they do, no one has the right to hit a woman. why do men feel they have the right to do so? is pregnancy a reason? i don't think so! i don't know the guy that did this and i don't ever want to meet him. i'm so sorry that you had to go through this!! i've been through alot with women and i never ever raised my hand. men that even think about raising a hand to a woman should be thrown in jail. to all those men that weren't......FUCK YOU!!!!!! if i ever see you, i will hurt you in ways you never imagined. you better hope that day does not come! Peace to all the women that have been hurt

Simple Things In Life Mean More....
Faith Hill "Take Me As I Am" Baby, don't turn out the lightI wanna see you look at meWhisper only truth tonightNot just promises and empty fantasiesI don't need a bed of roses'Cause roses wither awayAll I really need is honestyFrom someone with a strong heartA gentle handWho'll take me as I amBaby, I need for you to knowJust exactly how I feelFiery passions come and goI'd trade a million pretty wordsFor one touch that is realI don't need a bed of roses'Cause roses wither awayAll I really need is honestyFrom someone with a strong heartA gentle handWho'll take me as I amFrom someone with a strong heartA gentle handWho'll take me as I am

Taps
If any of you have ever been to a military funeral in which taps was played; this brings out a new meaning of it. Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true: We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps.' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes. But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings. Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Ellicombe was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia . The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land. During the night, Captain Ellicombe heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach

Fuwedding
INVITE YOU TO JOIN THEM IN THE EXCHANGING OF THEIR VOWS!! TONIGHT@10 P.M. EST.!! IN THE TRAP DOOR!! COME KICK BACK ENJOY THE WEDDING!!! STAY FOR DRINKS AND EXCELLENT TUNES!! (repost of original by '†† ¥ø¥ø††' on '2009-07-10 10:51:17') (repost of original by '0ral.fixati0n*Engag3d 2 Rand0m Cha0s*H3ad 0f GraPhics At The Trap d00r' on '2009-07-10 10:55:26')

Distorted Reality.
Open eyes and hollow soul, darkness takes you in. Lost in path, and in goal, the future does begin. Heavy thoughts take their toll, patience ran too thin. When you finish heads will roll,in hell you'll forever spin.

What Religion Is Your Bra?
What Religion is Your Bra? A man walked into the ladies department of Myer's and shyly walked up to the woman behind the counter and said, 'I'd like to buy a bra for my wife. ' ' What type of bra?' asked the clerk. 'Type?' inquires the man, 'There's more than one type?' ' Look around,' said the saleslady, as she showed a sea of bras in every shape, size, colour and material imaginable. 'Actually, even with all of this variety, there are really only four types of bras to choose from .' Relieved, the man asked about the types. The saleslady replied: 'There are the Catholic, the Salvation Army, the Presbyte rian, and the Baptist types. Which one would you prefer?' Now totally befuddled, the man asked about the differences between them. The Saleslady responded, 'It is all really quite simple. . The Catholic type supports the masses; The Salvation Army type lifts the falle n; The Presbyterian type keeps them staunch and upright; The Baptist type makes mountains out of

Blame Me
You know very well that you failed me and that you forgot about your promise. You know for sure that you deceived me, even when no one can love you as I do. I have many reasons to despise you, but I wish you well. Please tell who ever asks you that I never loved you, tell them I cheated and that I was the worst. Blame me, and with my pain cover your back.

Littles
Over the past few years something new has emerged in our area... We have more people developing sides of themselves and dynamics based on the "littles" concept. I will admit at first this held no appeal to me other then they are fun to have as friends at parties. [They bring barbies and like to color!] As time has passed, my fascination has become an understanding of sorts. It's with the "little girls" I feel the closest bond. I know what it feels like to be a scared little girl with a naughty side just looking for the person who could make you feel safe, love you inspite of your temper/behavior and perhaps even help you grow up. I have that kind of feeling when my "five year old" comes out. My five My five is a DOMINANT SADIST. I have no idea if she is trying to work through my feelings of powerlessness as a child [which there were many of, as I always felt like an adult trapped in a child's body] OR if she is the very core of the mean bitch I am in total. She's the one who IS a

Life Or A A Lil Bit Of It...
my thoughts come out better when i write, or type.. coz when i speak it dont come out right.. sometimes it's difficult to express myself when i speak especially in english.. coz, my major language when speaking is Filipino. But don't get me wrong tho, i can handle my accent very well, (but sometime it slips out in some words) people i talk to tells me all the time that i talk very good english, like how it sounds, how i speak but talking with real words is difficult.. coz, when i try to translate my thoughts in my head from filipino to english, it comes out differently.. it's hard to express what i want to express in words.. so, when i write or sometime type, i could do some editing, or try to read it again for it to come out the way i feel it should..

Death #1
Family Distraught After Chocolate Death OSHA Called To Scene To Investigate CAMDEN, N.J. - A man who prayed for a job for weeks dies in a tragic accident at a chocolate factory in Camden, N.J.. Slideshow: Man Dies In Chocolate Tank Police were called to a warehouse and manufacturing facility on the 700 block of North 36th Street around 10:45 a.m. Wednesday for a report of a man who had fallen into hot chocolate. The Camden County prosecutor's office identified the victim as 29-year-old Vincent Smith II of Camden. He was a temporary worker at the Cocoa Services Inc. plant. Smith was loading chunks of raw chocolate into a melting tank, but he slipped and fell into the tank. Co-workers shut off the valve and tried to reach him, but failed. Devastated family members arrived at the hospital and were wondering what happened, and how their loved one could possibly have died. "He was good kid. Always positive, never negative. He was always laughing," said Teresa Smith, his aunt. "We

Dj Wookiee
COME CHECK OUT DJ WOOKIE AT RED DRAGON'S REALM..HE'S RAWKIN THE RED DRAGON RIGHT NOW!!!Just click the lounge logo and hope to see ya there!HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT TIME!!! WE ARE HIRING FOR DJS...PLEASE COME!!

Love Me
Love me in the morning sun As the golden rays of morning light move across ivory skin warming it to your touch Setting soft auburn locks ablaze as you rake your slender fingers through it.. Kiss me with the passion and desire of a lover Set my soul on fire with each press of your lips Make me hunger for your lips and only yours. Touch me with feather light fingers My skin shivers at the simple thought of your touch I yearn just for one more caress of your hand hoping that they will last a life time. Hold me till dark becomes light and light becomes dark Enfold me in your arms so that nothing can touch us and we are safe Make me belive that in your arms is where I always belong Love me in the dark of night When my nightmares come and the only thing to soothe them is the gentle tone of your voice Love me aginst all odds when all others say it won't say it will.. and I will love you with the greatest passion and desire any man has ever known..

Happened To California's Economy
Joel Kotkin wrote a great article about what happened to California's economy. "The whole article is too long to put on one blog so for now Im only going post a part of it. Let me know what you think. So if we are to assign blame, let's not start with the poor, old anti-tax activist Howard Jarvis (who helped pass Proposition 13 and passed away over 20 years ago), but with the bigger culprits behind California's fall. Here are five contenders: 1. Arnold Schwarzenegger The Terminator came to power with the support of much of the middle class and business community. But since taking office, he's resembled not the single-minded character for which he's famous but rather someone with multiple personalities. First, he played the governator, a tough guy ready to blow up the dysfunctional structure of government. He picked a street fight against all the powerful libera

The Straight Low Down
Okay so here I am back to fu..again lol after a some what short absence. there are things I am doing different on this go around so I just wanted to talk a little bit about it here. First its okay to give me complimets..no really it is lol second of all I am flirty persom, just deal with it, if you cant move on, your in for some serious heart break. I am easy going and will befriend everyone, last time I excluded the 1000000 friend types as I guessed any real convo with somone who had so many friends would be impossible; turns out I was wrong and im plenty man enough to admitt that when it happens..rarely as it does lmao!! Am I a confident person...are you serious lol do you even have to ask, doesnt mean im arrogant, I can back up everything I say but sometimes I lay it on a little thick just to get a laugh or two:). alright more to come on here good enough for now and comment on this stuff will ya:) thanks loves and hugs, Jc

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Pain
PAIN IS SOMETHING I AM USE TO THE FEELING OF NOT BEING WANTED THE FEELING OF BETRAIL THAT FEELING ON EMPTYNESS PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVEING THE BODY WELL I MUST BE A VERY WEAK PERSON CUZ PAIN IS ALWAYS ESCAPEING MY BODY SOMETIME SOMEONE WANTS TO BE LEFT ALONE BUT SOMETIME EVEN WHEN THAT PERSON GETS WHAT THEY WANT ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH

I Know My Type , Can You Guess It?
Almost all Japanese are aware of their blood type. The idea began when some in the west were touting the idea that the asian peoples were more closely related to animals then humans, or lower on the evolutionary chain, since type B blood was the predominant blood type in asians and animals. As ludicrous and unscientific as this idea was, it was insulting to say the least. Modern science disproves this obviously faulted idea. In the 1930's Furukawa Takeji (1891-1940) set out to disprove this notion and a new idea was born. However, the idea of personality traits being influenced by blood type remains. Companies in Japan even had divided workers by blood type. Here are the general ideas of each blood type. The Rh factor plays no role in the blood type/personality idea: Type O You are the social butterflies. Often popular and self-confident, you are very creative and always seem to be the center of attention. You make a good impression on people and you're often quite attractive. Orga

Ppvii
So here's the thing. We don't have to date long. Just buy me some flowers and spend the night with me and we can say goodbye. But do buy me flowers that will die before my sheets are cold mmmmk. Bitterness is a nasty pill to swallow. I don't want it. But I am sitting here explaining to my buddy why it is I am not going to be seeing someone I thought I was. Why do I need to explain someone else's actions or choices? FFS...I am so not in the mood for explanations when I know nothing. I know my job, my kids, myself, but as for anyone else I only know what I am allowed to know. I can assume...and I am probably dead on there..but it's not the same as knowing. And seriously I know it's me. I don't need any advice or consolation. I am not interesting. I am extremely naive and incredibly easy. I am also fat. I am boring. Blah Blah Blah! I will not stay bitter..it will pass quickly...but I might be a bit shitty or short for a while. I am not feeling spectacularly spunky. But do feel

Performance Enhancing Drugs?
I must admit as a youth I was a huge baseball fan. Baseball, to me, will always be the great equalizer of childhood sports. There's a place for each childtype. From the large power athlete. The rangey lanky kid. The pudgey kid and everything in between. But, that's kids... Professional athletics is a Multi-Million dollar business and so the question of chemical enhancement and its use has arisen. Before we attempt to denounce it consider this. Michelangelo was a drunk. Bob Dylan, very obvious as well as bands like Dave Matthews. Hell what's Viagra if not a performance enhancing drug? And, while wives still might not pay their husbands millions for using it, how many men who need Viagra wouldn't want to reward its makers millions? The point is. we accept performance enhancement in all the asthetics around us, everyday. What is sports, if not physical asthetics? So, do you want to pay to see bunts or home runs? Just asking... DP

In Loving Memory Of Dizzied ♥
DizzieDNovember 28, 1977 - May 17, 2009 We Thought Of You With Love Today,But That Is Nothing New.We Thought About You Yesterday,And Days Before That Too.We Think Of You In Silence,We Often Speak Your Name,

Your Free Time - For You Who Is Always Talking To Eveyone Else...lol
Your free time, if all possible please give it to me. In return I will give you my whole life or whatever is left of it. Please give preference to all those love demanding people, but your free time if all possible, give it to me. It does not matter if is only two minutes, or one, with just one I will be satisfied. Just as long as we live them together, the best of your free time, please give it to me. And then when they reclaim you and call you again, I will say that your remainder time, if it’s possible, please give it to me.

Vent
Lettin all out loose with the Pain I felt insane nothin is plain plauged all in hate. Nothin relates nothin's ever straight disfigured plate left in hate. Lettin loose off with what i feel lettin my mind chain off goin in with what intent lettin myself Vent Speakin on how i feel purpose of how it is in this cold of a harsh reality that puts me Down In my ever sist to own. Your always in my zone won't ever leave me alone. Get urself gone go & play with ur bone. Not one to cross with a bite nothin more i'm all in despite out of sight hidin tryin to find where i'm runnin to cuz I just never Knew Lettin off with so much content. feelin in discontent. Lettin off with what I Vent Indispite out of my mind losin lost in myself. No one to give care or help. It's all shit nothin i'm not it. Take the ground to fall you leave but ur not in all. Vent distent intent try to tell me that i can't do this or have a voice leave with no choice but to tell. Where I fell nothin ever good i feel s

Why
my best friend was asleep in her bed... the next thing she knows she is fighting a pillow that is over her face while some guy rapes her. i have been with her for over 24 hours.. have gotten about 3 hours of sleep... about to try to get a few hours in before work...after i eat something so my stomach doesn't eat my spine blarg

Obama Set For Emotional Visits To Vatican, Ghana
by Charles Babington, The Associated Press Friday July 10, 2009, 8:05 AM AP Photo/Rebecca BlackwellA vendor folds tee-shirts commemorating U.S. President Barack Obama's planned visit to Ghana, at a streetside stall in central Accra, Ghana on Thursday. L'AQUILA, Italy (AP) -- President Barack Obama is wrapping up finitely detailed talks with his G-8 partners on economic and environmental challenges and turning to more photogenic events: meeting the pope and becoming the first black American president to visit a mostly black African country. He was throwing in a televised news conference from Italy for good measure. Obama, his wife and daughters were to meet Pope Benedict XVI shortly before leaving Italy late Friday for Ghana. The two men have spoken by phone but not met before, aides say. In Ghana, officials expect a tumultuous reception for Obama, whose father was from Kenya. Because the first family arrives rather late Friday night, the main ceremony in Accra will occur Satu

Spaniard Gored To Death During Bull Run
Spaniard gored to death during bull run by Alvaro Barrientos, The Associated Press Friday July 10, 2009, 8:26 AM AP Photo/Peio H.EFEA unidentified wounded reveler is taken away on a stretcher after being gored in the neck on Friday by a bull during the San Fermin bull run, in Pamplona, northern Spain. The reveler was declared dead shortly after his arrival at hospital. It was the first such fatality in nearly 15 years. Nine others were injured in a particularly messy and dangerous chapter of the tradition. PAMPLONA, Spain -- A charging bull gored a young Spanish man to death Friday at Pamplona's San Fermin festival, the first such fatality in nearly 15 years. Nine others were injured in a particularly dangerous and chaotic chapter of the running of the bulls. Pamplona officials identified the man as Daniel Jimeno Romero, 27, from Alcala de Henares, outside Madrid. He was on vacation with his parents and girlfriend, who identified him. The San Fermin festival Web site said Ji

Fallen;
You got a fight on your hands and the master has plans for you to sleep with the gods of heavenly lands, I pulled the trigger and gave you a dose of reality as I watch you lay there and count your blessings while you bleed. You escaped from this world and I have set your soul free so when you get up to God you better thank me, My life spins out of control and I go on this roll to give you eternal life like vampires who roam in the darkened of casted nights. My wolverine has escaped from me and I have torn you piece by piece, It claws at your heart and jumps from a far and you still have hatred in your eyes but your mind is about to die along with that body you called the temple of life, The hatred destroys me, the hatred annoys me, the hatred consumes me, the hatred is in me let it release! Just open those eyes and see the fear you possess towards the things I've taken away and don't be affraid to die with out peace. Your children are calling, your children are falling, and i

Blonde Mortician
Blonde mortician A man who just died is delivered to a local mortuary wearing an expensive, expertly tailored black suit. The female blonde mortician asks the deceased's wife how she would like the body dressed. She points out that the man does look good in the black suit he is already wearing. The widow, however, says that she always thought her husband looked his best in blue, and that she wants him in a blue suit. She gives the Blonde mortician a blank check and says, 'I don't care what it costs, but please have my husband in a blue suit for the viewing.' The woman returns the next day for the wake. To her delight, she finds her husband dressed in a gorgeous blue suit with a subtle chalk stripe; the suit fits him perfectly. She says to the mortician,

The Big Hunt
Since I live in a hunting lodge, I’ve been contemplating offering asparagus hunting trips. A trip would start out mid-morning with a tour of the farm, a chance to meet and greet the chickens. I’ll make a light lunch, so that you will have sufficient stamina for the hunt. Over lunch, we’ll discuss technique. “The asparagus will not come to you. You have to come to the asparagus.” I’ll explain how some of the patches are marked with fence posts, but these are older plants, and they often don’t produce as well as the newer, out-of-the-way ones, the ones you have to find on your own. The easiest way to spot the plants is to look for last year’s stalks, tall, fern-like clumps, generally knocked into the grasses by the wind. Sometimes, though, you will see a lone purple-headed spear sticking out of the grass, beckoning you. Tread lightly; watch where you walk. You might find yourself surrounded by a patch of big ones. Because we only

Point Cunts
Why do people feel the need to enter a stupid ass auction? Why do people want to see their value measured in pointless cyber points and fubux? Are they that insecure that they need to have their little egos stroked?

Wishful Thinking
If you dream, day dream and wish for something to come true, how long until that gets granted, if it does? I'm like a caged rat, running in circles, looking for a way out and not getting anywhere. I'm just stuck.....day dreaming....wishing for a difference.

"but, Other Chicks Have Worse..."
Many, many moons ago (last November), I wrote a blog trying to explain what Fubar considers NSFW. While the guide had a lot of information in it, it was in no means the complete and comprehensive guide, but still targeted key points I use when determining what to place the big bad NSFW stamp on. Since this guide came out, I've gotten many requests to review photos that had been marked by a bouncer at one point or another. Sadly, it seems that people still make up their own rules when it comes to what they think they can display in public. I eventually followed up with a blog called Flagging Photos: the Life Cycle to explain what happens when photos are reported. I attempted to answer an often-asked question: "Why flag mine when other people have worse?" It seems the answer I put down wasn't good enough (or, more realistically, wasn't the answer they wanted to hear). The thought came across to me today that I'm going to put together a blog, chronicling everyone who asks me to unmark a

Fifty Years Of Math 1959 - 2009 (in The Usa )
Fifty Years of Math 1959 - 2009 (in the USA )Last week I purchased a burger at Burger King for $1.58. The counter girl took my $2 and I was digging for my change when I pulled 8 cents from my pocket and gave it to her. She stood there, holding the nickel and 3 pennies, while looking at the screen on her register. I sensed her discomfort and tried to tell her to just give me two quarters, but she hailed the manager for help. While he tried to explain the transaction to her, she stood there and cried. Why do I tell you this? Because of the evolution in teaching math since the 1950s: 1. Teaching Math In 1950s A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price. What is his profit ? 2. Teaching Math In 1960s A logger sells a truckload of lumber for $100. His cost of production is 4/5 of the price, or $80. What is his profit?

Love Is Not A Crime
I shouldn't. Even though I say I shouldn't I can't seem to help it I look at only your face again... again Even though my heart, soaked in tears, is torn I can't turn my neck around My heart that desires you seems to be asking... Is love a crime? Are these feelings bad? Even though you say it's wrong, I'll take the punishment, if only I could have you My chest is so numb and my heart seems like it's going to burst Even though you hate me and curse at me, I can't love anyone but you Even if I become a criminal... Even though I pass a day in tears, I can't seem to talk My heart only want you, often I... Even though I hide, these feelings cannot be hidden They cry out to me - saying that they can't live without you Is love a crime? Are these feelings bad? Even though you say it's wrong, I'll take the punishment, if only I could have you My chest is so numb and my heart seems like it's going to burst Even though you hate me and curse at me, I can't love anyone but you Even if I become

I Don't Have Any Friends So I'm Gonna Blog!
I've been sick. I called out of work the other day. But today I decided to suck it up and go in. Totaly should not have. It was not worth it. I feel even worse now. I hate pretty much every one I work with. The labor part of it is also not fun when you are sick dizzy fevery and puking. I only puked a little bit while I was at work. A few things have changed at work about the daily schedule. I tried screwing around a little bit with some of it but nothing seemed to be saving correctly so I gave up. I just wanna go to sleep and when I wake up to feel normal again, no rash, no runny nose, no fever, no headache, no dizzy. Oh well. I did take advantage of the fact that WalMart has Star Trek TOS on sale for $50 a season. So now I have that to watch later.

Arrogance And Confidence
The DIFFERENCE... Im confident internally because I know I can handle mine and if I wanna set goals ect. Arrogance...Is very common here. Between females like the current spotlight and some fruit having a video pic taking his shirt off is just IMO a"im better then you" and I got a prob with that. I see here and around the whole worls people using their eyes rather then a brain. Sure ima peep a girls ass when she walks by and all by am i gonna go "yo baby holla at cha boi?" lol no, 1st off I think people who talk like that need to get shot, and noooooooo it aint racist for all you over sensative liberal hippies it's just annoying. And naa it's not out of jealousy, my point is that people like that have destroyed hope for alot of people who feel the need they gotta be a chick who's 100 pounds and always thinks her ass is too big and pretty boy fruits that take pics with their shirts off thinking their Romeo and really just need their face pounded so afterwards they can know what it's

Thieves Beware-an Apology
To the guy who tried to mug me in downtown night before last. I was the guy with the black Burberry jacket that you demanded I hand over shortly after you pulled the knife on me and my girlfriend. You also asked for my girlfriend's purse and earrings. I hope you somehow come across this message. I'd like to apologize. I didn't expect you to crap in your pants when I drew my pistol after you took my jacket. Truth is, I was wearing the jacket for a reason that evening, and it wasn't that cold outside. You see, my girlfriend had just bought me that Springfield Operator Custom Pro Package M1911 .45 ACP pistol for Christmas, and we had just picked up a shoulder holster for it that evening. Beautiful pistol, eh? It's a very intimidating weapon when pointed at your head, isn't it? I know it probably wasn't a great deal of fun walking back to wherever you'd come from with that brown sludge flopping about in your pants. I'm sure it was even worse since you also ended up leaving your shoes,

Silver
Sweat travels her curves, a silver x upon her face, A smile hidden underneath, her eyes welling with tears "Was i bad?" she remembered asking her master his brown eyes cold he lashed her the kiss of the leather on her flesh. " You didnt clean the toilet" "BUt...mast...." he lashed her a yelp ringing into the halls. She cried hopig for pity but he taped her black mascara streaking her face. He pushes her into a chair. Her screams muddled into the tape. His wrath come across her face with his open palm. A rage fills her she loved him but he wouldnt let her go. Her arms hurting his strong arms pushing her shoulders into the wood. He looks into her soul "GET UP BITCH" He said. She had never heard this from him before enraging her. She flings him into the ground the fall confusing him she binds him to this post smirk into the tape her eyes toture his soul."Wait... what... what are you doing?" She quirks a eyebrow placing her hands into her hips her hand running over the leather the sweat on

With Me
The kindness I show does anyone know? or does it come out inside-out? I don't ask for much just a loving touch. Believe me I try but happiness passes by Oh Please Let It Be Me! (what's wrong with me?) Some feelings I'm told start out warm, end up cold This same feeling leaves my heart reeling.

That Strong
There are times I feel That Strong Yelling till it's gone Because it's gone all wrong I'm here alone listening in monotone Can't I come across? (is it gone? have I lost?) Driving at breakneck speed flying off the cliff because it's the feeling I need I feel That Strong playing a one-sided game to me, it's all the same. It hurts so much living without a loving touch words and rhyming way off my timing Can it be that no one knows? My hurt feelings, does it show?

Sharp
I want you all to take a momentbecause I know you're good at thatto think.Because I know you're NOT so good at that.When you encounter a man in the pain of lossdo you approach and offer him a dollara prayeror a hand?Loss isn't the right word.In the battle of life and happinessattrition seems more appropriate.Defeat is all but inevitable. Unopened boxes, unsharpened pencilsdusty blank pages, moldy air rusting pansunadressed notes apologizingproclaiming, punctuating.

Eyes Of Blue
With your Eyes of Blue told me of which I knew You are the One to make me come undone. Oh girl, you take me there, where no one can compare. There is so much delight in the feelings you excite. With me you can have your way, 'cause you keep heartache at bay. There is more that I need to say but I need you here today.

Bitterness Can Make You Laugh
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? some drunk skank poets wife 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Sunday, i squeezed a little tear 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Who hand writes things anymore? What is this the Dark Ages? Sheesh 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Cat 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? some days they're kids, some days they're demon spawn. But I guess technically that would still make them kids, so long story short....yes 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Interesting, my 1st and 2nd personality get along GREAT, it's the 3rd one we have trouble with 7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? NEVER 8. INNIE or OUTIE? bellybuttons are gross. the end. 9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? nah that's cool 10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? I dont really think about cereal in that way 11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? I very rarely wear shoes with laces 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? coffee 14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING

Im Funny
DO YOU LIKE SLURPEES? 7 eleven ftw! TV OR COMPUTER? TV! Computer! Tv on my computer! Computers on TV!!!! arghghghghghg technology. I MUST be connected to it all DO YOU 'PAINT' ON YOUR COMPUTER? I do not "paint" on my computer, im pretty sure that would ruin it WHAT HAPPENED ON YOUR WORST DAY EVER? I dont like talking about the day they stopped making Smooth glide eyeshadow in rammalamadingdong HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN SO FRUSTRATD YOU CRIED? ohhhhh yes that's been a daily occurance lately WOULD YOU RATHER GET SHOT OR DROWN? jesus, these are my choices? like to death? DO YOU HANG WITH FAMILY OR FRIENDS MORE? just the voices in my head man DO YOU LIKE FRiED CHICKEN? no but funnily enough I DO like fried pigeon DO YOU CLEAN A LOT? only my guns HAVE YOU EVER EATEN CHICKEN WITH KETCHUP? wtf is the obsession with poultry? ARE YOU MESSY OR NEAT? im pretty neato thanks....oh you meant....oh messy CAN YOU WHISTLE THROUGH YOUR TOOTH? no because i have T

Wit
Have you ever dated someone more than twice your age? um no, I dont have daddy issues Have you ever "dined and dashed"? I prefer to eat and run Have you ever been cut off by a bartender because you were too drunk? no but i've been cut off by a dealer for being to cracked out Have you ever dated someone just because they had money? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA, um no Have you ever flirted with a cop to get out of a ticket? never gotten a ticket, so you tell me Have you ever gone on a first date with no underwear? My pimp said that's the way it's done. what? no? *shrugs* Do you treat attractive people better than others who aren't as attractive? no i treat all people equally bad Are you more comfortable with friends that are less attractive than you? no, that brings down my game Have you ever hated a job to the point that you tried to get fired? not consciously, but im pretty sure locking myself in my office and eating and talking on the phone all day was a cry for

Fear This.
Your death will come regardless, time never leaves you be. Our world is ever heartless, a twisted reality. Lest ourselves be honnest, depart from tyrany. Then moderately faultless, we'll face our destiny.

Into The Sun
im gonna twist these wordsuntill they seem so ubsurdwhat do i meanwhat does it matter anywaystill leave'n, there aint much to sayso i guess i'll kick rocksdont matter now, i'll get lostmaybe i'll walkyeh, i'll walk for milesmaybe while im out ill learn how to smilecause i bean so down and outmayby i should just split towni got a friend lives up tword the outer bankswell kick some tunes catch us some tasty wavesso im out. out againwill you miss me? were we realy friends?maybe i'd stayyeh, i'd stay right hereif i thought that i had some one who caresso if by land or if by seeill travel on into eternityinto the sunyeh, im on my waydone packed my bags im leave'n today

I Love Her Words
one of her babies is rotting in the sun and the other one was found drowned in the ocean her mom and dad are in their van crushed and bloated and her husband was thrown from his fishing boat so please give me a break from all your complaining about who was mean to you and how your stepdad is a pain - i care, i swear, but i just can't take it, not today all i can think about are tsunamis and earthquakes everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone the only reason she's alive is she grabbed a palm frond and held on and held on you can call me crazy but it seems to me we could have sent more than we spend in one day killing iraqis to help the hundreds of thousands who are injured and diseased and hungry and homeless and without families i'm appalled by our government's initial reaction and the fact that they asked for a verbal retraction from the folks who called them stingy they're just covering their assets well,

A Letter For Rick
Dear Rick, Hi... How are you? I wanted to write you to let you know something you should know already, but I am thinking of you.. I have known of you for about seven or eight years now. It has been about two years since we have actually met eachother face to face. I remember the first night we spent to-gether.. i also remember when you showed me things about who i am, it was scary... your the first one i heard tell me about me being negative.. dont think i forgot that.. i could never forget... i also know how i fell into dispaer.. i also know who put us in hell... ill never forget that felling.... i want you to know i love you... God knows that more then anyone.. i pray to god to help us threw our financal issues right now.... you and i well be fine, you wait and see.... as long as we got eachother.... and stand together to help eachother out well be fine... youare my best friend.. you know me better than anyother soul..... thank you so much for all your love, for standing up for me

Steps To Freedom
Change What Isn’t WorkingWe have all had the experience of realizing that something in our lives is not working. This knowledge can come as a sudden realization or a nagging feeling of doubt that grows stronger, waking us up to the fact that something needs to change. Some people have a tendency to act rashly and make sweeping changes before even understanding what the problem is. Other people fear change, so they live with the uncomfortable awareness that something needs to shift but won’t do anything about it. Between these two extreme responses lies a middle way that can help us powerfully and gracefully change what isn’t working in our lives.The first step is remembering that your life is made up of parts that belong to an interconnected whole. Changing one thing can change everything. Because of this, small changes often have a big effect. Sometimes much bigger changes are necessary, but the only way to know for sure is to take the time to really understand the p

Permanently Parents
The Changing Nest Once individuals become parents, they are parents forevermore. Their identities change perceptively the moment Mother Nature inaugurates them mom or dad. Yet the role they undertake when they welcome children into their lives is not a fixed one. As children move from one phase of their lives to the next, parental roles change. When these transitions involve a child gaining independence, many parents experience an empty nest feeling. Instead of feeling proud that their children have achieved so much—whether the flight from the nest refers to the first day of kindergarten or the start of college—parents feel they are losing a part of themselves. However, when approached thoughtfully, this new stage of parental life can be an exciting time in which mothers and fathers rediscover themselves and relate to their children in a new way. As children earn greater levels of independence, their parents often gain unanticipated freedom. Used to being depended upon

Walking Through
When Doors Open When a door opens, walk through it. Trust that the door has opened for a reason and you have been guided to it. Sometimes we have a tendency to overanalyze or agonize over the decision, but it is quicker to simply go through the door and discover what’s there as that’s the only way to know. Even if it doesn’t seem right at first, opening this door may lead to another door that will take us where we need to go. Doors open when the time is right for us to enter a new space, metaphorically speaking, and we can have faith that walking through is the right thing to do. Sometimes we linger in the threshold because we are afraid of leaving our old life for a life we know nothing about. We may have voices inside of our heads that try to hold us back or people in our lives saying discouraging things. These voices, internal and external, are known as threshold spirits, and they express all the fears and doubts that arise at the beginning of a new life. Never

Where I Have Been This Week
So Monday was when the ex's trial started. I testified on Tuesday morning and the jury got the case that afternoon. Wednesday morning the verdict was guilty. He was taken immiediately into custody. His bondsman is trying to get me to cosign on the new bonds and I told her no. I am free of this guy that I was tied to until now. So why do I feel so empty? I know it was all a game and he fucked with my head. I am looking into therapy now. So thats the big news!

Update-surgery!!
HEY GUYS... PARDON THE SPELLING OR ANY TYPE-O'S BUT IM PRETTY STRUNG OUT ON MEDS RIGHT NOW... SO MANY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING WHATS GOING ON SO HERE IS THE JUST OF IT... I SAW THE ENDOCRINOLOGIST ON MONDAY. IM BLACK AND BLUE AND RESEMBLE A LARGE PIN CUSHION! ATLEAST THIS GUY HAD A CLUE UNLIKE THE OTHER QUACKS IVE SEEN. AFTER MUCH BLOOD NEEDLES AND ULTRASOUNDS, THE VERDICT IS SURGERY ASAP. THE MASS IS THE SIZE OF A FIST. ITS THE RIGHT SIDE ONLY. NO PART OF THE THYROID IS WORKING RIGHT NOW. HE SCHEDULED ME TO MEET WITH THE SURGEON ON THE 17TH. HIS HOPES ARE THEY CAN REMOVE THE RIGHT SIDE AND WITH DRUG THERAPY THE LEFT SIDE WILL KICK IN. UNFORTUNITLY AFTER EXAMING IT THE TUMOR IS NOT SMOOTH. THERE ARE NODS AND PART OF IT IS SOLID AND PART LIQUID. HE IS NOT SENDING ME FOR ANOTHER BIOPSY. HE THINKS THAT ONCE THE SURGEON IS IN THERE HE WILL NO RIGHT AWAY IF ITS CANCER OR NOT. IF IT IS THEY WILL GO AHEAD AND REMOVE BOTH SIDES... WE ARE HOPING FROM THE LOOKS OF THINGS THAT IS ATTACHE

Where Is The Loyalty?
Ok, here is my burden. I was working at a job I truely love. I worked with mentally retarded individuals. All going well for 361days.Then one day im accused of verbal abuse toward my favorite client. Do I even need to tell you guys that I didn't do? I didn't do it! Well, there were no witnesses only the one person that accused me was around me. All the other staff were in the kitchen the doors shut, and I was outside with my clien where I was suppose to be. Long story short, I spilt tea on myself and supposedly I called my client a "worthless piece of shit". #1 this client is someone i truely love, I share whatever I have with him from my drink to my Marb's. I think more of him and the other clients than alot of my acquaintences. I do not make a habit of cussing people out period. No matter who they are. #2 this client did not spill or throw the tea on me. So I had no reason to cuss him anyway. Well the question I have about loyalty comes in where the co-workers lied on me and about t

Child Safety *recall*
Kolcraft Enterprises recalled 1 million play yards, the Consumer Product Safety Commission said, because the side rails can unlatch unexpectedly. The recall is of Kolcraft Travelin' Tot play yards and similar items sold under the names Carter's, Sesame STreet, Jeep, Contours, Care Bears and Eric Carle, The CPSC said. Consumers should stop using the item immediately. consumers can contact Chicago-based Kolcraft at 866-594-4208 or kolcraft.com for a free repair kit, the commission said.-Washington Post~Make a difference, Join the Movement~

*join The Movement* Ma Sues U.s. Over Marriage Law
Massachusetts sued the U.S. government Wednesday over the federal Defense of Marriage Act, which defines marriage as a union between a man and a woman. Massachusetts Attorney General Martha Coakley said the law interferes with the right of Massachusetts to define and regulate marriage as it sees fit. The 1996 law denies federal recognition of same-sex marriage and gives states the right to refuse to recognize same-sex marriages performed in other states. Massachusetts was the first state to legalize same-sex marriage.The lawsuit, filed in federal court in Boston, argues the act "constitutes and overreaching and discriminatory federal law." Before the law was passed, Coakley said, the federal government recognized that defining marital status was the "exclusive prerogative of the states." the U.S. law's definition of marriage denies same-sex couples access to benefits given to heterosexual married couples including federal income tax credits, retirement benefits, health insurance cove

Typical
"How DARE you not be a stock broker, but a lousy cashier? You told me you worked at a big firm when you approached me at a bar. I am looking for a man of my dreams, to love and cherish forever,and you having a great job would've definitely made me love you for the rest of our lives. We would've had a huge wedding, in which I would've picked out the most expensive dress and flowers to spend your money on; I would've invited all my single girlfirends in case you had equally hard working friends they could share their happiness with. YOu could've been goin to work every day, while I would have spent all your hard earned money to make my nails/hair/skin look pretty. How DARE you be such a lying lowlife??" -Bar Skank woes

Remember Me
Remember me Smile under the sun And know that it is me looking down on you The warmth on your cheeks is only a kiss from me. Laugh when you see the stars glittering in the midnight sky Knowing tha i always watching over you the glittering stars is only a wink from my eyes. Cry when yu see the rain fall from the gloomy grey clouds Its only my tears knowing that i can't be with you right now. Smile when you the rain passes and a rainbow forms And remember that I am smiling when i think about your laugh I will see yo soon my heart, my soul, my life, my Aidan. For my Loving son Aidan MJ Watters.

U Can't Have Enough Friends
I have 1 true friend and i wouldn't change that for the world. she stood by me through the worst part of my life. Been there when i lost my parents and when my son past. She is a true friend and so happy that she is my friend.

Idiots That Insult Children
These two people came to my page and started bad mouthing my 3yr old daughter for no reason. Calling her ugly and everything else. beware of these two. http://www.fubar.com/user/2785629 http://www.fubar.com/user/3203513

------^-------6
We should have quit back when we learned this wasn't everything, that it all fades. but we never learned how not to care. somehow, it still fades. these are the days that should have killed me...getting to comfortable with pain. going nowhere in the name of hope, growing into broken bones. the fractures have all healed, and i forget that they were there. 'sometimes' becomes every time. just wait, it will be any time. and you'll forget where you come from, if you can say it to yourself for long enough. but you're not going anywhere. 'long enough' becomes your life...forgot how you got there. we aren't letting go. we aren't letting go. this is letting go. and i'll forget where i come from. said it to myself for long enough. i can't go anywhere from here. been living 'long enough' to know that it's been long enough. i'm letting go

Quarter Life Crisis
http://www.eyeweekly.com/article/55882 Check out this article, peeps. I don't know about you, but I totally feel this way about life right now. Let me know what you think or how to get around it.

Random
some days i sit and think "what the hell happened to me?"...when i was 18 and just graduated from high school i knew i wanted to be either a history/PE teacher or continue my culinary arts education...i was accepted into the art institute of seattle culinary arts program on a full scholarship but i gave it up to move to missouri to help out my aunt rebuild her house after hers was burned by arsonists. al though i didnt expect to be thanked it still would have been nice to hear or at least say they appreciated the fact i gave up a career to bust my ass and get degrated because i wasnt an ass kisser. i moved home and met my daughters mom which i consider the worst decision i have made...but i love my daughter more than anything and nothing will ever change that. i have made mistakes in my past but i was young and stupid and yes i spent a lil bit in jail but i wish people would learn to leave that stuff in the past and realize that i am not that same person i once was...i want peo

Losers
These are the type of guys I seem to attract!!!Let me give you the warning signs Losers...the ones who have NO job, NO hope of finding one, won't look but swear they can't find one, oh and big flashing sign...has a kid and they don't pay support (or 2)Liars... constantly changing their story, swearing up and down you didn't get it right the first time they told you!!Lost Puppy Dogs...mooching off you, using you for a place to lay their head(s) you BIG ONE HERE.. THEY CHEAT ON YOU OR THEY USE YOU TO CHEAT ON SOMEONE ELSE, and they swear its ok there is nothing going on anywhere else!! Then after they have used you for everything they can get out of you, they run of with some nasty skank who thinks they are so lucky, even though the guy is going already cheating on them!!! ROFLMAO!!! WATCH OUT GIRLS, AND GUYS, THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!!!! EVEN HERE!!!

Pissy Mood...
I am in a pissy mood today. It is mostly due to some of my Fu-friends. I know lots of people get on the internet & make up a personality that is better than their realilty, but I don't. I am me & I am real. I get really tired of the idiots here who want you to talk dirty to them, cam them or generally do whatever it takes to jack them off, but you don't seem to be looked at as a real person. I may be words on a screen, but I am a person with real feelings. I have a salute posted. The point is to prove I am real. So why do so many people here treat each other like shit?? I am not saying all do, just some. But it is ALWAYS the ones who tell you they are "not like the rest", "why would I lie?" and "trust me". Any time I see any of those sentences, I know I am talking to a lying asshole. I don't know why I let it get to me, but sometimes it just does. Today is one of those days.

Pudgey, Our Loving Pup
R.I.P. PUDGEY on x-mas 2008 we got our daughter a puppy.. he was such a cute little thing, just an adoreable lil pup. when we went to pick him up he was in a litter of 7 pups the guy was giving away. after a few moments this pup was just standing there with his front paws over the edge of the box. our daughter went over to him & they were nose to nose. he licked her & she kissed him back. they were ment for each other, love at first puppy kiss if you will. at first we had a hell of a time gettin him trained to potty outside & being "gentle" around the baby (our daughter). but it didn't take long realy until he was the one gettin the blunt of the punishment.... from the lil one!!! lol she jumped on him , sat on him, poked @ his eyes, pulle dhis ears & lips, and he never snapped at her. not even once. now how many puppies or even full grown dogs will let a child do that with out snapping at them? likwe i said they were made for each other. he was her protector. the way i was tea

Life
Whats good yall some times in life u must take the good with the bad it hurts when u cant please everbody at once but things happen 4 a reason just so long as the ppl that matter and cares 4 u knows that u tried ur best no matter what i hope whom ever reads this can relate on a issue or two in life we must choose the paths we r given if u make the wrong choise bad will happen if u make the right choise good will happen whos 2 say whats right or wrong in some ones life dont judge others unless other judge you 1st member god is love and thats the strongest thing we all have and can hold on 2 peace love and happyness 1 love 1 god 1 world in all

Feelings
Why Is t when you pour your heart out to someone,90% of the time you et the anwer"I dont know what to say or WOW?"I feel like i have put a damper on our friendship by telling this person how i felt.Was i wrong for doing it?

Why.
Why is it that in the month or so we have been up and running I see so many ups and downs? I see people with out THE Baby Dolls in their name. I see people not showing love. I see members who have their buzz meter's at 0%. I see members VERY close to leveling, yet not getting help. But then on flip side I see members like Joy, who every single day I see her on several members pages, gifting, commenting , rating. I see Tonya, recruiting, keeping home page open. I see Luscious, making tags and pics. I see other members being active. I'm not pointing fingers, naming names ( for the negative anyway) but I want us to be THE strongest we can be. I want us to be THE group that people think about when they think about premiere groups on fubar. I want to be a trend setting group. I want other groups to envy us, pattern their OWN groups after ours. But most importantly I want EVERY member to feel love from EVERY member. Ok. I'm done. *steps down from soap box*

Head In Hand
I just do no understand on how I end up with head in hand Maybe... It is how I do not want to be emotionally hurt because I'm tired of dusting off the lonely dirt Please do not get me wrong I have wanted to talk all along But when you are near, you freeze my reaction because I feel the pull of your attraction so you see it's my emotional being that I always abort in doing so, I cut myself short.

Own Echo
Listen to the night where the sounds take flight This is my time every night it's the same it's my thoughts I can't tame I build empires trying to fulfil my desires listen to the night it's where you know you can hear your own echo

Blog Of The Decade.
'From the start of the first plane To the edge of the next day First time, and first place Just know who you are.. "Square One" .Coldplay Look up, look down look all around, you constantly look for answers, with every dying second of your existance. You stare at the clock, you wonder what everyone you knew or had known is doing at a given time. You contemplate. You think 1 2 3 a b c's and X and Y and wonder just what it is you exist for. You wonder what you'll be known for when you die. Who did Adam and Eve really originate? When did Bill Gates make such an inspiration to the modern world? The answer isn't as complex as you might think..you see why? Because it begins with 'you'. We are all after something, someone or a goal for persuit of an originating value. We all want to achieve success. We often don't realize what success is until a certain age, and your higher up enlighten you about it. I'm talking about your parents, who are the reason you exist. Whether your

New Timer
Well since this is the first time here on Fubar I will tell a little about myself I am 53 years young, and newly Divorced after 8 years of being married to a nut case. Hope to meet a lot of new friends here

Is Either You Or No One.
Those hands that lead me to life’s street. That face that compels me to look on my knees. There’s only one, there’s just one. Is either you or no one. That voice that councils me to believe in smiles. That hair that covers me like a rain of caress. There’s only one, there’s just one. Is either you or no one. There’s no way out, because behind you my love there’s a mist. If you didn’t exist, I would have to invent you. Like the sun to the day, is either you or no one.

Never Trust Anyone
~ Acid_Induced_FairyTale~ this person led me to believe that she wanted a real realationship, and told me that she wanted to spend all the time in the world togethor, well i made the time, on the first day i saw her, stupid me gave her a 100 to help her pay a bill and right after that, i was blown off. left hanging, etc..you do the math, so everyone pass this along,here is another prime example DTA!!!! DON'T TRUST ANYONE YOU DON'T KNOW... hows it feel to have your true self put out there for the world to see? hurts don't it

100 Greatest Rock Songs Of The 90's
01: Nirvana - "Smells Like Teen Spirit"02: U2 - "One"03: Faith No More - "Epic"04: Nine Inch Nails - "Closer"05: Pearl Jam - "Alive"06: Metallica - "Nothing Else Matters"07: Red Hot Chili Peppers - "Under The Bridge"08: Radiohead - "Creep"09: R.E.M. - "Losing My Religion"10: Pearl Jam - "Jeremy"11: Alice In Chains - "Man In The Box"12: Live - "Lightning Crashes"13: Soundgarden - "Black Hole Sun"14: Metallica - "Enter Sandman"15: Nirvana - "All Apologies"16: Stone Temple Pilots - "Plush"17: Rage Against The Machine - "Killing In The Name"18: Aerosmith - "Cryin'"19: Alice In Chains - "Rooster"20: Dishwalla - "Counting Blue Cars"21: Stone Temple Pilots - "Interstate Love Song"22: Jane's Addiction - "Been Caught Stealing"23: The Verve - "Bittersweet Symphony"24: White Zombie - "More Human Than Human"25: Oasis - "Wonderwall"26: Blind Melon - "No Rain"27: The Smashing Pumpkins - "Tonight, Tonight"28: Beck - "Loser"29: Collective Soul - "The World I Know"30: Nine Inch Nails - "Hurt"31:

Liars
there are many of them in this world-- they take on various guises, and they feed on what people desire most-- for some, its the idea of love and the feeling of being loved..for some its the thrill of seduction and lust.. and I despise them.

She's Busted!
Meet Nina: Profile Link: http://fubar.com/user/846218 Many of you may know this user or at least recognize her. She claims her name is Nina. She's 26, single, and has no salute. As you can see her profile became private. Before her profile was changed to private I browsed through her photos. As always it struck me as odd that a girl with new photos uploaded and some photos taken with a professional camera, didn't have a salute. One of her photos had a radio station banner hanging up in the background for 96.7 kiss fm. Kiss fm is an Austin, Texas area radio station. So the myspace browsing began. After a bit of searching I came up with this profile: http://www.myspace.com/alijean05 . I sent the profile two friend requests with messages attached which were quickly declined. So I put my fingers to work and found "Allison"s facebook profile. According to the facebook profile Allison is 22 and in a relationship. You might recognize her boyfriend if you've ever looked through nina's

" I Hate The Tree I Fall From"
"the apple dosen't fall far from the tree" i wiah i fall from the farest branch and rolled dwon the hill.my family is so disfunctional to be together,because they agrue about any little thing that piss some one of.dose any one wish they didn't inhert any habits from their family.i wish for it most of the time,mostly when the fights are here and thst most of the time.

Happenings
Hey ya all! Been awhile... look Im on another page, I woke up one mornin and relized virtually conjoined at the hip but now we are the same person on Fubar, and life partners in Real Life... Yes hes still here in North Cackalacki, Hes expanding his business here ...and thats a good thang...we really been learnin each other and throw in three others (my children).... And every mornin I wake up and think to myself " OMG Hes still here"... Im learnin what its like to be with a man that I can be completely honest with, he still makes me blush and the passion I feel for him is stronger then ever, I watch him with my children I see our family developing... Funny enough I have trust issues and it amazes me everyday this "Ex-Playa" is the person I trust above all others, Im proud of him, hes still brings a smile to my face every mornin and gives me that reason to continue my life... On a final note and synopsis: of our time thus far plane, kiss, sex, kids, more kids, drama, movies, hote

:":":
Severed heads dont roll quite as well as expected a perfect body bag prom queen waiting for her close up like a declawed pussy cat bleeding on my new rug that tied the room together so well club soda is an economically sound solution and sallow skin spoils if not properly refridgerated

Booby Trap
And no, not my boobies. Or my trap. I had to move out of my house this weekend; thus kitty and I are trapped in my parents' lair for a few days. (Kitty isn't that fond of grandma and grandpa tastic. But she assures me that tunafish will help her cope.) You might ask: Why did you have to move out of your house for the weekend? And I will grumble and launch into the tale. The house I'm living in isn't mine. It's my parents' second farm, and it's actually a hunting lodge. And every summer, some family comes and rents the house so they can all stay together for a family reunion. They're old people. Old people apparently do these things. Anyway, I spent the better part of this week (and by "better part" I mean the "worst part, the part when I wasn't boozing by a campfire") getting ready for their arrival, packing my things, cleaning, putting my stuff away. I wouldn't really care that much about putting my things away, but I was warned that they're very snoopy people. When they

Well That Sucks.
1. My phone died at some point yesterday evening. 2. I finally remember to charge it at about 5 this evening. 3. I decided to take a nap when I charged my phone. 4. I should NEVER take a nap that late in the evening. 5. I dreamed about moving and ice cream. 6. I still feel tired.

Rates
There are only a few people that rate anything but a 1 10 or 11 and that is something that kinda bothers me So should they make a new rating system or what? Like a bad good great thing Maybe throw in if your picture gets vetoed enough its automatically deleted

Divorce Agreement.....
DIVORCE AGREEMENT THIS IS INCREDIBLY WELL-WRITTEN AND IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE IT'S BY A YOUNG PERSON...A STUDENT!!! WHATEVER HE RUNS FOR, I'LL VOTE FOR HIM...OUTSTANDING. Dear American liberals, leftists, social progressives, socialists, Marxists and Obama supporters, et al: We have stuck together since the late 1950's, but the whole of this latest election process has made me realize that I want a divorce. I know we tolerated each other for many years for the sake of future generations, but sadly, this relationship has run its course. Our two ideological sides of America cannot and will not ever agree on what is right so let's just end it on friendly terms. We can smile and chalk it up to irreconcilable differences and go our own way. Here is a model separation agreement: Our two groups can equitably divide up the country by la

Safe Word
She faces to the left. It's the only comfortable position when her wrists are bound together above her head. She lies on her stomach and watches the candlelight shadow of me preparing. The smell of the jasmine incense hangs in the air like a silent witness to the evening. She move against the ropes. Not to get free, but to feel that she can't. She resists the tug of the ropes securing each ankle. Embarrassed, yet excited by the open position. The noise of the leather strap makes her flinch. The sharp pain brings a whimper. The Safe Word goes unspoken. Blood flushes her face as she anticipates the next stroke. She squeezes, then relaxes; not knowing which will lessen the pain. The lash comes sooner than she expects. A louder sound, a sharper sting, yet the Safe Word goes unspoken. While her cheek warms, she feels the light touch of my glove tracing her tattoo. The colored curves of the design on her lower back feel icy cold compared to the hot marks on the back

Please Vote For Me!
i am trying to win tickets for nickelback ( yeah i know they are lame but i never win anything!) please help by going to this link http://www.1065.com/cc-common/radiobase/contest.html?id=22264&_show and voting for #165 (i think) with the giant tonguering! thank you all

New Bling Auction
NEW bling auction up-- take a look ends at 10pm tonight central time! http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1660183&albumid=1762772&i=1422025985 if link does not work just go to my pic folders!! Good Luck

For Mr. Adorable
Last night I had the weirdest dream..... It was the future and everyone had flying cars and houses floating in the sky. It took a while to get use to flying but i started to be able to make tight turns and stop on dimes in my hybrid cadillac SUV which runs on the worlds garbage. I felt good driving around in a large SUV making the world a cleaner place..... I'm sure at one point during this dream i must have been using my arms to fly the car because i remember Jeff telling me to stop hitting him... back to the dream I'm floating around in my cadillac, trolling for woman when i see my friends. Witty, Witchie, Satara, LaLa, Pixie (oh I've missed Pixie), Blue, Brain ...... the list carries on.. well I couldn't take my eyes off their cleavage... all these woman are LARGE BREASTED. They make me drool... woman make me drool ( no wonder my pillow was drenched when i woke up. Needless to say i pick them up , Cerri and GBT, Sweet and Lilboops.... once i get all the woman in the cadillac i fl

Wouldn't A True Friend Stab You In The Heart And Not In The Back?
Hey, Man..It's been a long day. Worked all day. I am learning that maybe I don't understand some of my friend's like I thought I did. It's crazy, you know.. I mean you think you know someone and then they turn around and stab you in the back. Wouldn't a true friend stab you i the heart and not in the back? I don't know it all seems crazy...

Yup
yeah still waiting for Something to go my way. I gotta say even with all Ive seen and experienced through my short years the current state of the world economy has brought home the greed and evil of America more than anything else. The fact that folks are still more concerned with bernie madoff stealing from the wealthy elite than making changes necessary so folks at the bottom arent starving on the streets just goes to show. Middle class people really think restructuring things to eliminate poverty will lead to their suffering materially and thats all that matters. But Im too tired of it, too tired of caring what happens. Nothings going to get better anyway all of its just going to end up as somebodies excuse to exploit the poor because thats the real heart of capitalism. I wish communists werent so dead set against anything spiritual cause Id really go in for it now. Just the idea Id have a job would be a nice change. whatever. Id be willing to put up with just about anything just

Fake Profiles!!!
it seems I have a problem with an old friend again!!they are making fake profiles just 2 put out trash about me and my friends use caution! if u get any messeges about me or u get trash BLOCK THEM!!!(profiles are ht 1 always & bluejays girlfriend IGNORE BOTH.and I am sorry If any 1 of u were offended by them.

About Us.billy And Krystal
well to begin with.me and krystal both met here on fubar,and we fell completely in love with each other.we are not together in real life and have plans to get married as well.we both been through alot by ourselves and together.but we have both lived to over come it all,and it has made us both very strong as a couple.we are both very deeply and maddly in love with each other,and we would love to thank our close friends for standing by us through everything.first and foremost to beth we love you so very much sweetie,you have been there and helped us both alot through everything and we would be where we are now without you.to all of our close friends at the lounge"where the wild things are"we love you all and thank you all for being there for us and supporting us through everything we couldn't have had our fu wedding without you all.

Breath
In a time of war we stare blankly at the setting sun and wish for days past. I say grab the remainder of your life and push forward toward that inevitable time of chaos. When each and every last breath from the whirring oxygen tank is more precious than sex or money. Look forward to the now and make every moment, every friend, every encounter more exciting than gold or glitter; make it your own. I will; will you.

Labels
Labels can be Dangerous, when someone labels another person. It may be that when a person does this they feel that way about themselves down deep inside. Is there any other reason to why they choose to project their issues on another. if one doesn't know how to handle this it can be devastating and damaging to them not only emotionally and mentally it can hurt them with their self esteem. What kind of character does a person truly have and how does this reflect the relationship they have with themselves? The reality is the only way to take a label or comment whether it's negative or positive is to say Thank you! Each person decides how to take it and it solely depends on their relationship with themselves. Sometimes when we fail we learn and sometimes we don't. Some of the greatest and most amazing people throughout history failed many times until they accomplished what they set out to do in the first place. We are always learning and always have constant and never ending improvement i

July 25th The Riff Port Jefferson Ny
7/25/2009 12:00 PM at THE RIFF - PORT JEFFERSON L.I. -ALL AGES!! with Urban Waste and The Wretched Ones 1615 Main St., Port Jefferson, New York Cost: ALL AGES!!! SATURDAY JULY 25 AT THE RIFF 1615 MAIN ST PORT JEFFERSON DOORS AT NOON FIRST BAND AT 12:30 $15 ADVANCE $18 DAY OF SHOW THERE WILL BE FOOD!!! ! 12: NOON- DOORS OPEN 12:30- SECURE YOUR WEAPON 1:15-CURBJAW 2PM:DISCLOSURE 2:45-YO! SCUNT 3:30-DEALING WITH IT 4:15-POINT COUNTERPOINT 5PM-BLACKOUT SHOPPERS 5:45-THE NONDENOMS 6:30-LIVE FAST DIE FAST 7:15- AGGRESSIVE FORCE 8PM-THE WRETCHED ONES 8:45-LAST CALL BRAWL 9:30-ENDANGERED FECES 10:15-URBAN WASTE IN BETWEEN BANDS JAMMING INSIDE, WE HAVE ACCOUSTIC ACTS PLAYING ON THE DECK- LONESOME ACT, DAVE "MOTHA FUCKIN’" WEBER, AND MICHEAL LEO WOOD . (MORE TBA).. BBQ GOING ALL DAY (INCLUDED WITH ADMISSION) AND WE’LL BE RAFFLING OFF SOME GOODIES TO RAISE MONEY FOR A GOOD CAUSE! TICKETS GO ON SALE MAY 30.

Adult Questions ... Dont Be A Pussy
Adult Questions - Don't Be a Pussy Body: (1) Is there anyone on your top friends list you would have sex with?Yes .. she knows who she is if she would come back on(2) Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?all day long (3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?nope (4) Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?hell no i dont even want to see me naked lol (5) Shower or bath while having sex?shower (6) Do you want someone aggressive or passionate in bed?Passionate(7) Do you love someone in your friends list?i love many on my friends list but only one has stolen my heart (8) Love or Money?not sure both suck (9) Credit cards or cash?Cash .. dont have cards anymore (10) Have you ever wanted a best friend?yes but she isnt my best friend anymore we dont talk .. maybe i should have told her lol (11) Camping or a 5 star hotel?Both (12) Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?state park in NJ .. it was cold and the snow made it hard to finish (13) W

Just Some Shit
ok well this is my first blog on fubar. so lets go and see where i can take you? im a father of 2 great kids and i love them more than any thing in the hole world. i came from a small town i mean real small. but i got big dreams i think you can learn more coming from a small town. i know i did ha ha ha. i love to draw and to sk8 board and ski and snow board and i love vid and pc games. and for the most part music. music is 2nd just under my kids i love music so damn much that if i was cut off i would be lost for ever. i play guitar and drums. so thats about it for now. this is just a warm up so sit tight and injoy.

So This Is
a cool guy who not only needs monies for spotlight but is less than a mil away from GF $safe_uid_dname@ fubar i havent decided whether to start over once i reach GF or take a break...a lot has happened recently and i have to decide whether i want to just close off this chapter entirely or just walk away for a bit id love to go out with a bang either way and i would really appreciate this

From A Messege I Got Here
Someone sent me this messege here.. and she would like to remain nameless...it is so sad.. i thought I would share it with you and Gods knows she is right.. so here it is..it tugged at my heart strings and it happens a lot here and us women are hurt a lot cause of it. i read your note and i know what you mean,,,alot of guys wont even rate any part of your page if there are no nude pic or if a person doesnt display most of their flesh,,i have had countless men just pass my page up or not even rate any of my pix because they didnt have anything to feast their eyes on,,,how sad. You are very beautiful and you dont need to show off anything else,,if men dont like it...screw them,,they are shallow to begin with.,,thx for your time,,,hang in there,,you are lovely...

Again
The leaves crunched under our shoes as we headed for the clearing in the woods. I watched as Steve picked through some rubbish, finding a suitable target. He chose a mini propane container, the kind used for camping, and balanced it on a rock. Stepping back, he handed me the gun. It was a Glock, 9mm, somehow much heavier than I had expected. “What do you want me to do?”He flashed me a somewhat exasperated look. “Just shoot.”“But where do you want me to stand?”“Right where you’re at.”“Isn’t this too close? Shouldn’t I be farther away?”He shook his head. “No. If you’re going to have to shoot someone, they’re going to be close, only about the length of a room from you.”I paused. I had never thought about aiming a gun at a person. I had been target shooting before, years ago with my brother. We were setting the sights on his gun, and doing so involved me running up to the target after ea

Help Him Make Godfather
USMCMARC is only 2,000,000 AWAY FROM GODFATHER! Come show your support for this Service and Family man by helping him level to GODFATHER status! Click his pic to visit his profile. Let's make him GodFather!

A Repost Of An Old Blog, A Reminder...
Just An Old Blue Chevy? created @ 2007-03-17 15:34:58 11 March, 2007 I65 North near Shepardsville KentucyIt was a nice sunny Sunday afternoon in North central Kentucy.I was on my regular route to Detroit Michigan like always.Traffic was moving along, in the middle lane was an old chevy.I was getting irritated by it, sitting there along side my 80,000lbs rig thinking If I blow A tire where that car is I will take out the windows. But then I saw the little boy in the passenger seat, pointing at the tractor and trailer I was driving up the road, looking at all the little details only children see and adults miss and automotive engineers live for.Then I saw his happy little face as they came along side my tractor. He looked to be about 10 to 12 years old, he pumped his thin small arm up and down signaling for me to blow my air horns as children love to do.I gave him a few honks, he smiled and asked me to do it again.I did as he asked, He gave me a big smile and a w

How To!
How To! HOW TO GET STUFF OFF YOUR CHEST in Seven easy steps!By The BulldogFollow these steps and be assured of mental stability and happiness!1:Drink a bottle of Patron, Call them and hang up to make sure they are home!2:Drive over to the place they are at!3:Find a BIG ROCK (One that you are able to throw btw, This is CRITICAL!)4:Tie or tape your note with your thoughts to said and sought out ROCK!5:Throw the ROCK with note taped to it THROUGH the BIGGEST window. (This way you are assured their undivided attention.)6:Stand on the sidewalk and scream the name of the person you wish to comminucate with!7:Wait for Police to show up and arrest you!Many people have successfully used these methods!You can see them in use EVERYDAY on TV!Just Watch Cops!

Life
Okay so today is a blah mood just tired of routine and tired of just being alone. Choices in life either lead you to triumph or disaster and you know I am fine with this but does the path have to be so rough. Also, what about the negative people in your way why do they even matter instead of trying to help someone out they just want to see you fail. I feel blessed to know the positive people in my life whether it be online friends in other states or family close enough to visit. I just get bummed out that the fact of hurting somebody's feelings and making them feel like crap seems to be cool these days. I think you should watch your words and actions cause it all comes back in the end

Just Where Do I Start?
It's neither here nor there but in between not so tangible that it could be seen The heaving tempest of notions of conflicting feelings and emotions Friends and lovers are in a blur Just how does this occur? It has never been clear then again it doesn't help looking through the bottom of glass of beer Once what was and what has never been... all I want is a little bit of heaven. So when the sea of friends and lovers do part? Just where do I start?

Tonight Is For U
U walk in the house, candles burning, music playing, and rose petals lay through the house. U remove your coat and before it can hit the floor I catch it. U turn to me and see me holding a towel over my arm. I kiss u and say "welcome home my love." U ask "What is going on?" I say "Shhhhhhh" then lead u to the bedroom. U hear water running from the bathroom. I sit u in a chair and remove your shoes. I stand u up, turn u around, and slowly remove your shirt giving u a kiss on the back of your neck. Then I remove your bra and skirt kissing u on your lower back. I slowly remove your panties and stockings, then guide u to the bathroom. Candles line the tub, music plays, and the scent of oils fill the air. I help u into your bubble bath filled with rose petals. U sit slowly relaxing into the hot bath. I begin to bath u starting with your feet moving up your legs to your thighs. I move up to your shoulders massaging them as I wash them. I stand u up so I can get your back. I wash your bac

Cater To Your Man
I awake to in your maids costume smiling at me. U have a drink in one hand and a towel in the other. I begin to ask "what is going on" but before I can u put one finger to my lips and just shake your head slowly side to side as if to tell me not to talk. It is a saturday morning so no work for either of us. U pass me the glass and sit at the foot of the bed til i finish it. U take me by the hand into the bathroom. U start the shower as I brush my teeth. I feel a kiss on my cheek and u briefly exit the room. U come back in and slowly remove my shirt then get down and remove my boxer briefs. I turn to u and all wear now are thigh high stockings (black with lace top). We both climb into the shower and u begin to wash me starting with my back. U work your way down the back of my legs. I turn around and look into your beautiful eyes. U kiss me then begin to wash my chest. As u work your way down u see I am slightly aroused. U say "I may have to take care of that." As u finish washing

New Sbg Contest
http://www.fubar.com/lounge/62741 Here Ye! Here YE! ALL SBG's Are now in the position to nominate one another! What for? A 3 month VIP!!! ONLY 10 SBG'S CAN BE NOMINATED. BOTH THE SARGE & THE SPONSOR WILL NOT PARTICIPATE IN WHOM THE NOMINEE'S ARE. THAT IS UP TO YOU! YOU MUST BE A LEVEL 25 & UP TO BE A CANDIDATE! THIS BEGIN'S TODAY! 7/9/09 IN 20 DAYS ALL NOMINEE'S WILL BE POSTED! & FROM THAT POINT ON, YOU THEN HAVE 90 DAYS TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT FOR YOUR NOMINATED SBG. SARGE WILL DECIDE WHO IS TOP NOMINEE IN 20 DAYS FROM TODAY 7/9/09! THE POINT OF THIS IS TO HELP LEVEL OUR HIGHER LEVELED SBG'S. ALL SBG'S ARE WELCOMED TO PARTICIPATE. THOUGH THE NOMINEE'S MUST BE LEVEL 25 & UP! TO DECIDE WHO GETS THE VIP? THOSE WHOM ARE NOMINATED WILL RECEIVE A CUSTOM PHOTO OF THEM SELVES DONE BY SARGE HIMSELF. THE CUSTOM PIC MUST BE IN YOUR DEFAULT FOLDER! THE MOST RATES & COMMENTS WIN'S THE VIP! GOOD LUCK! HAVE FUN! & NOW GET TO NOMINATING YOUR FAVORITE SBG! THIS

A Fantasy Of 3 Women
A friend of yours calls u up and invites u on a girls night out. It will be u, her, and a friend of hers. She tells u it will be an amazing night u won't ever forget. U ask, "What to wear?" she says " Make it sexy but don't wear any panties." U ask "Why?" she says " None of us are, we are being free tonight nothing holding us back." U get dressed putting on a nice fitting dress that stops right above the knee. U slide on your thigh high stockings, no panties. U pull out those sexy shoes with the ankle strap, 4" heels, and open toe to show off your freshly pedicured toes. Grab your necklace that falls perfectly between your breast. Your friend arrives u open the door and as u look at her u think " Damn she is sexy in that dress" and " that split in it hits the right spot on her thigh." U both walk to the car and u see her friend and she is gorgeous. Yall go to dinner, then hit the bar. Yall dance half the night but only with each other no guys allowed tonight in this party. All ey

A Dream
A dream floats into my head. A dream where u are laying on the beach enjoying the sun. The ocean is calm and the sun is bright. There is a slight breeze just enough to keep u from getting to hot. I lay next to u enjoying your beauty and the sound of the ocean. U turn to me asking me to rub tanning lotion on your back. I happily say baby anything for my little teapot. I put the lotion in my hand, rub them together, then begin to massage it into your skin. I start at your shoulders, working my way down your back and ending at your legs. When I am done we relax, enjoy each other, and wait the day out until the sunset. The time has come for the sun to go down so that it can rise again. I sit with u between my legs, holding u, and watching the sun drop behind the horizon. We wait and watch as the day becomes night/ We see every star as it awakes and adds a sparkle to the night sky. The moon begins to glow and reflect of the ocean. As I look at the beauty of the night I only think of how it

Long Hard Road
I've been all around this crazy town trying to find what I could call mine So I had to go On that long hard road. Searching for a wife I am looking for a home trying to find a place I can call my own and here I go On that long hard road I started over there I ended up here spent many a nights drinking all kinds of beers Don't you know? I'm on that long hard road If I told you once I told you twice living on the road you get twice the vice When you're on The long hard road Let me tell you what I almost forgot

Here And There
Here and There What Do I Care? A confused mind being unkind with undefined borders with careless guards. Trying to make sense of it all dragging this chain and ball Here and there To and fro What do I know? A LOT!

In No Hurry
What to do when frustration sets in Where alienation is the next of kin and solitude cannot be found and you are standing on less than solid ground. Well my friend, that is where I am. and from what I can see there is no end. Now do not feel sorry No need to worry As you can see I am in no hurry.

What Is
Didn't know what to say, when I saw you the other day. Feelings came back hard, too intense for me to handle, for I still hold your candle. Days turned into years, beers into tears. I gave it all away, trying to make you stay. So there you have it and it's no wonder, it's just another young lover's blunder. What is and what is not, is that old memories cannot be bought.

I Need
I need to get out so bad, I could shout! the tides of argument are so erratic feelings lean toward a panic over here, over there who is to care? I do not know where to turn to where to go but what comes to mind is that I need to start living on my own time. I can no longer wait for the end of the debate. I will do my best that I can to carry out my plan to be my own man.

Are You Happy?!
ARE YOU HAPPY?! ARE YOU SATISFIED?! SINCE YOU TOOK YOUR LOVE, RAN AND HIDE? DO YOU THINK A CHANGE WOULD HELP YOU OUT?! YOU'RE LOONEY WITHOUT A DOUBT! ARE YOU HAPPY?! ARE YOU SATISFIED?! NOW YOU'RE NO LONGER AT MY SIDE DO YOU THINK A CHANGE WILL WOULD HELP YOU OUT? YOU ARE A BITCH! WITHOUT A DOUBT!

Can't You See?
Can't you see? what you mean to me? feelings so true, I have for you seeing you throw your love away it's more than I can take. I know my love is here to stay. My love, I have so much to give, it is for you I live. Please, I need to know, is my feelings only for show? for you, is it the same? or is it a one-sided game? Can't you see, can't you hear my plea? I need you here in my arms. I need you to chase my lonelyness away. I need you to say; Yes, I feel the same way. got that merry-go-round feelnig Girl, you have my world a-reeling up and round and round down can't you see how it could be, between you and me?

In The Eyes
Smile on my face 'cause I found the trace the trail to bliss in the eyes of a young miss Soft, subtle beauty, the look of innocence, with the undercurrent of sultry passion. Come, let's dance and light up the night with romance.

In Heaven
Stars are shining in heaven and I living in solitude needing romance to intrude another night feeling less than complete passion dressed in sultry fashion is what I have in mind two hearts beating in time pair of souls sharing the caress of the knowing all this I want to do when I'm with you

Without A Doubt
You are a friend, without a doubt and I did not want you to feel left out so here is a line or two, to show I think of you too. I have you as a friend because I enjoy our talks which I find stimulating more often than not So if these words sound too contrived please forgive them for they had just arrived.

Sigh!
A glimmer of hope to know you care to know you want me to know you're there interest it comes and fades away nothing changes just the day it seems to be the way it goes a vicious cycle my heart knows I let go i have no hold waiting i am to be told we can be friends this is true but wasnt my hope when i kissed you the hand is open laid down by me i cant take more misery the flowers bloom refusing to die why must this make me cry?

Far & Few
It's been far and few in between to all the good people I've seen So here's a c ouple of lines to let you know that from time to time you come to mind. You never know how far you can go until you reached the end. But from the very start, you took hold of my heart when you called me your friend.

Small Towns
reminds me of home only instead of tractors and> dirt roads think boats and bayous and who would> think out in the bayou you would pick the same canal to> party in that your dad decided to trawl in that day. > > The> only one missing is the one I used to live by: Make sure the> dirt road you pick is NOT where your daddy is coon hunting> with his buddies!!>> SMALL TOWNS> > > > Those who grew up> in small towns will laugh when they read this.> > > > Those> who didn't will be in disbelief and won't> understand how true it is. > > 1) You can name> everyone you graduated with. > > 2) You know what> 4-H means. > > 3) You went to parties> at a pasture, barn, gravel pit, or in the middle of a> dirt road. On Monday you could always tell who was at> the party because of the scratches on their legs from> running through the woods or cotton field when the party was> busted. (See #6.) > > 4) You used> to'drag'Main . > > 5) You whispered> the 'F' word and your parents knew within the>

Phone Boning
Ok I know that this is a touchy subject, but what is the big deal on phone boning if you care about one another? Look this is how I feel about it. I feel that if you and that other person are into each other then phone boning them is fine. I don't feel that people who claim that they are into one another should be thinking about doing that with anyone other than the person they are very much into. It is obvious that if they are doing it with other's then they were not into one another to begin with. Stop being a prude and learn to live life the right way. Now go and have some fun!!

Sexual Desires
Just a thought~~ Ever wonder why people walk around so up tight daily? You go to the store every1 is a grump ass, you try to say hi they look @ you like your crazy~~ There is too much negativity going around~~ I feel if more people would start their day off the "RIGHT" way then there would be more smiles in the world LOL Stop being so uptight and get in tune with your inner self and your sexual desires!! When you start doing that the world will be a happier place!! Live by Mr Rogers words: (lol) "So lets make this the most beautiful day, Since we're together we might as well say, Would you be mine? Will you be mine? Could you be mine? Wont you be my friendly neighbor? ( LOL) awwww Gotta love Mr Rogers~~ Now take Sammie advice:If you want to walk around with a smile on your face then listen to your inner self and stop being a bore (don't be scared) lol Before you get outta bed start your day the "RIGHT" way (daily) like brushing your teeth lol and I gaurentee you wont be a grump ass

Story...
There are 3 things you should never try in life. 1) Wasabi, the super hot sauce offered with Sushi, especially if you don’t wish to look like an idiot, fanning your open mouth with your hands; 2) Grated cheese with marinara spaghetti and 3) Taking your cat to be groomed when it’s very rainy, especially if the car park was miles away from the Vet of your choice. Sometimes I wonder where my angels are! If they are beside me, with a notebook in hand, scribbling down notes and rating my actions to every solution I come up with, or else playing poker, God only knows wher

When You Fall In Love
From the movie: Captain Corelli's Mandolin "When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part."• Don Juan DeMarco "Have you never met a woman who inspires you to love? Until your every sense is filled with her? You inhale her. You taste her. You see your unborn children in her eyes and know that your heart has at last found a home. Your life begins with her, and without her it must surely end."

Priceless Lol
> THREE YEAR OLD BOY IS> SITTING ON THE TOILET.> > > HIS MOTHER THINKS HE HAS BEEN IN THERE TOO LONG, SO SHE> GOES IN TO SEE> WHAT'S UP.> > THE LITTLE BOY IS GRIPPING ON TO THE TOILET SEAT WITH HIS> LEFT HAND AND> > HITTING HIMSELF ON TOP OF THE HEAD WITH HIS RIGHT HAND.> > HIS MOTHER SAYS: "BILLY, ARE YOU ALL RIGHT? > YOU'VE BEEN IN HERE FOR A> WHILE."> > BILLY SAYS: "I'M FINE, MOMMY. I JUST HAVEN'T> GONE 'DOODY' YET."> > MOTHER SAYS: "OK, YOU CAN STAY HERE A FEW MORE> > MINUTES. BUT, BILLY, WHY ARE YOU HITTING YOURSELF ON> THE HEAD?"> > BILLY SAYS: "WORKS FOR> KETCHUP."

How Could You????
Tell me something people. What adn how would you react to finding out that your best girlfriend has been dateing your x husband who had not even giveing you your divorce papers yet after 2 years ??? In had been the best of friends with her for 10 to 13 years. And you tell me if you think I did the righr thing ,by ending the friendship between her and my x husband?? Ye4a It will take me a very long time to get over the fact , that thay are together. I dont even want to talk to them right now. I just cant belive that notonly would thay do it to me,but my son who use to date the girl who my x husband is seeing. ????? Now you tell me. I would love to read your comments on this one. Thank you.

Totally Creeped Out By This Friend Request
LightDrake (Enf... (Dragons rule) 2009-07-09 11:35:08 My full name is Jon Kossow.To tell you some more about me love. I am a good guy,the world needs more of us.I am a man of virtues.Love is a virtue,Honesty is a virtue,Mercy is a virtue,Patience is a virtue,Fairness is a virtue,Faith is a virtue,Honor is a virtue,Self-sacrifice is a virtue,only when it is needed to save the life of another.I hope and pray to god that the right woman sees me for who I am not what I look like.I don't care what someone looks like true beauty comes from within.I don't care if she is rich or poor,money can't buy my love.I do want a girl who wants to be married and have my children.I also want her to like it in the rear if your wondering im just putting all my info out there so you get to know me.Im just an average looking guy with battle scars from a long time ago,who must find his future wife.Im a smart guy and a gentleman.Do i interest you?Let me know if you are interested sweetheart.If you

O Is For Orgasm
My impatience will be my undoing. I have been around the block so many times I must have a embedded foot path. Full steam ahead...and the immediate yanking of the brake will usually snap me back to reality. I'm still going to cut my hair. Maybe next weekend or the week after since I have to go to a professional. What I won't be doing is sitting here looking at my cell phone, willing it to ring. Been here too many times to waste yet another day. Just like that old country song...you got to know when to hold'em, know when to fold'em, know when to walk away...and know when to face the reality of the situation. O is for Orgasmless!

Steal Across The Sky With Diamonds
This is probably the last book I will see published with the imprint “A Sci Fi Essential Book” and the specialty channel’s logo above it. Two days ago the Sci Fi Channel changed its name to SyFy; they’re pronounced the same, but I wonder what possessed the marketing geniuses there and at NBC (SyFy’s owners) to change it that way. I can’t say it’s bad, necessarily, but it’s got the effect of a seal playing a trombone – great that it can, but why should it? The book I’m referring to, Nancy Kress’ “Steal Across The Sky” (ISBN 9780765319869), is one I can heartily recommend, and I didn’t need Sci Fi’s “essential” designation to check it out. I liked the plot and once I finished the book last week got floored by its implications, for my faith (that’s a shock) as well as the fact it’s a good story, best because the main character aren’t and don’t act like “t

15 Jul 05
This is my account of what occured on the day of 15 Jul 05 while serving in combat operations in Baghdad Iraq. I was on a special security team called a Personal Security Detatchment, or PSD for short. We were pulled from our Infantry line units, and thrown into HHC (HQ). Our main objective for our 12 man team was to provide critical close security for our upper echelon chain of command, reporters, government officials, VIPs (not of the FU type) and on site static security for meetings. Essentially, we would mostly take commanders to meetings, pull security and bring them back. I was fortunate enough to be in a real good unit 3rd Batallion 156th Infantry out of Lake Charles, LA (Louisiana Army Guard). They led from the front, as we did raids, Traffic Control Points (TCPs), route clearance, humanitarian aid. It was great. And since you are on a PSD, you don't get a small area of operations. Because you work for a command, they have several smaller line units under them, so the HQ

Dbt Song
DEAD, DRUNK, AND NAKED (Hood / DBT)When I was a young boy I sniffed a lot of glueMom sent me to rehab, they told me what to doWe didn't have much money; the lord picked up the tabThey made me write him love songs, sitting in my roomNow I just drink whiskey and drive around my friendsGet a haircut, get a job, maybe born againAnd if you're living badly, we'll tell you how to liveDead, drunk, and naked…If you're out there listening, I just want you to knowI been doing just fine, psychiatrists tell me soMy scars are patched up; my arms have almost healedMy demons almost tranquilized, my pains almost killedMe and old Jack Daniel's, become the best of friendsWe got all them Baptist's to die for our sinsI know the lord is comingThe South will rise again! (Dead, drunk, and naked)Daddy used to tell me, everything comes down to what they say about you when you're not aroundAnd I wish that he was here now, I'm sure he would be proudNo one talks about me; the voices are too loud.So if you

Come Buy Stuff And Spice Up Your Love Life
Slumber Parties www.slumberpartiesbynicholesage.com come check it out and place orders, theres alot of good stuff spread the word. Tons of toys and gag gifts and lotions and lubes and for the women there are cute little outfits there too. All resonably priced, if you have any questions about any of it feel free to ask me!

Lost
Lost Another day aririves, at least you think it is a new day, you can't really be sure anymore, they all have started running together, night into day then day into night, and again an endless cycle, with hopes and dreams dashed upon the rocks along the way. Life has taken on a drab overcoating, that drapes over everything, touching everything in your life, nothing can escape its embrace, colors aren't as vibrant, food doesn't taste as it should, and even sex has lost the pizzaz it once had. You shuffle around in your lil life till one day the lights finally go off, and there you are, standing there in the dark, alone and afraid. The cold starts wrapping itself around you, bringing goosebumps to your flesh. You stand there debating what to do; you can stand still, feeling life course around you flowing with the course of time swirling past, with no chance of anything ever changing, or you can start to move in a direction, any direction,

07/09/09
Fact of the day: The average four year-old child asks over four hundred questions a day. “Someone save me” Joke of the day: Why sex is like riding a bike…. 1. You have to keep pumping if you want to get anywhere. 2. It's best to wear protective head-gear when going into unfamiliar territory. 3. You can do it with no hands, but it's best not to try it until you have a lot of experience. 4. It's easier to learn with the help of someone who has a lot of experience. 5. You c

Frog
so i dont think (i may be wrong ) that he has had a VIP before ....i wish i could find someone to get him one so he can level finally and add some more pics cause he is a good friend and deserves one atleast once so he can have the fun of deciding who gets his 11's if any one can help lemme know and i will make u a salute if you can vip him thanks for reading this frog~greeter@SNAKEPIT!~@ fubar

Favorites?
I've noticed that a certain person on here has favorites. Not a single thing I've said has ever been "approved" by them. Ugh. It's not like I'm being mean. I guess I should say.."everything is wonderful"

Waterfalling
Where stands man within God's timeline Should love smite hard and deep and true? Might he not find the cosmos staring At his stumbling step, his furrowed brow? Might he not try to touch the heart of new-love And find his arms too short, his hands unclean And fail, but in the reaching, win A smile from above for his trying? Might he not view his beloved as a raging torrent, One that sweeps away all rational thought? Might she be likened to a cascading waterfall

Am I A Horrible Friend Or What?
I have a problem and I need to get it off my chest. I realized the other day that I am a horrible friend on fubar. I feel a bit like a user and I wanted you all to know that I do love you in my own special way. Hopefully you can help me with my problems 1.I hardly ever rate anyone's pictures. I hate doing it, I would rather spend hours chatting then hitting 11's on pics. 2. I accepted all those friend requests during my spotlight, while knowing in the back of my head I would delete them first chance i got. 3. There are people on my family list that i like but they never come to my blogs or talk to me. Do i delete them and then do i explain the reasons. 4. Every once in a while I wipe out my entire fan and secretly admired friends. Cause I think its fun to see my face pop up on their pages again. 5. I dont understand why people like me, im a total perverted dork. It amazes me people talk to me. 6. I love giving fumbling its my downfall, I give and then when i run out, i reali

Something Heavensent
It was so in the beginning That man should love woman That he should love her… …with all his heart …with all his mind …with all his being And with every ounce of his soul. That he should have an unquenchable thirst For her and for all that she is. That he should build a life for her …filled with the sweetness of true-love

Virgo Horoscope For 7/9/09
Your ego has probably been feeling quite strong lately, and you may be feeling an extra boost of self-confidence, dear Virgo. Don't be surprised if this ego of yours gets somewhat threatened, however, when someone appears out of the blue with a fanciful attitude that is aggressive, opinionated, and not quite on the same track as you. You may find it hard to deal with people today, since they may be a bit spacey in general.

Enough Is Enough!!!!!!
Others Have Died This Month Sooooooo True!! With no disrespect intended to the Jackson family, this sure does reveal the shallowness of our value system in this country. While the focus today, tomorrow and for the next God-knows-how-many-days will be the death of a pop culture icon; while many will mourn, wail and quite literally make fools of themselves over it and while many will speak endlessly about it, allow me, if only for a moment, to remind us all that others have died this month; others whose lives were cut short; others who leave behind loved ones and whose families will dearly miss them; families who'll suffer with much more dignity and honor than we'll be exposed to on the tube in the coming days. Yes... it's true... we've suffered a great loss... but forgive me while I tell you that I'm not talking about the king of pop music. These American military members died in Iraq this month: Sergeant Justin J. Duffy Specialist Christopher M. Kurth Specialist Charles

Through The Pain
Is the open book that is my heart So difficult to read that you, Finding not the answers there That you seek, tear at the pages, Rip them up in your frustration, And toss the pieces so that They fall like bloody snowflakes To bathe the ground beneath Your parting feet? Is the language that my heart speaks So opposed to that which you know,

Don't Speak To Me Of Crushed Hearts
Hide from the world Sweet and gentle creature. Protect yourself from the realities of life. Do not attempt to interact with others, Close yourself in...build the walls, Shut all doors.

So Close... And Yet
And the little girl sat huddled, hunched Intently staring, glaringly gazing into The tiny star found in her hand. And as she watched it, selfishly, Sharing it with only she, it grew and By its gleamings could be seen, the

Measurements
By the measured tread of time’s sure footings We count such matters as we deem important And glance, by chance, at those times seldomed In moments odd, and by luck unnoticed. And as the portents of age following age Unravel the veil of cosmos spanning chronometer

Wet Discretions
You are a velvet sea of deep bluegreen... Filled with constant life, Ever-moving, Ever-hungry, ever-changing. And I, a hot and constant sun, move Slowly towards my unavoidable passing… Closer and closer I descend to your

A Mistress On The Plantation
My name is Louise Antioch and I am a female psychopath. Having antisocial personality disorder isn't a disease. It's a lot of fun to me. Trust me on that one. A five-foot-ten, plump, green-eyed, blonde-haired woman without conscience. That is yours truly. One of the free spirits out there who can do anything at all without feeling guilty. These days, it's the early 1900s and I live in rural Georgia. My family has owned the Great House Farms for years. We've become short-staffed, so I hired some people to work for us. A lot of folks from the local black village were looking for work and I hired them. I paid them decent wages, and expected some good service. My most unruly worker was Sheila, a tall and muscular black woman from Atlanta. I decided to teach her a lesson. I invited her inside for some tea and crackers. As soon as she got inside, I cornered her. I had a demonic light in my eyes and I could tell it scared her. Good. Sheila was a large black woman and thought she could inti

Is Anyone As Tired As Me?
I had a dream last night. In it, God finally got tired of it all. Tired of women with crushed hearts and men with one-track minds. Tired of men who abuse women and particular those who hurt children. Tired of the all those who have no idea what true-love is. Saddened by the games and the heartbreaks that people play and cause. Tired of the anguish suffered by those few who do know what love means who must suffer through gauntlets of innuendo and suspicion and distrust and half-commitments. In the dream, God asked me what He should do about it. He said He was really tired of it all and left the decision completely up to me. I thought long and hard about it…. About lonely single mothers, single parent homes, fatherless children, the state of public education, the homeless, those starving, plagues and diseases of all types. I thought about drugs and alcohol and battered women. And lastly, I thought about all the virtuous women I had met in my life… of how much I t

How To Have A Forever Love
Measure me not with your man-made measures …For I would never do such things to you …For I have known the heart of new-love …And it transformed my world anew. How might I prove the truth of this? …That it is in giving that we receive …That it is in loving that we know true-love …Finding no means then to deceive. Should I be like so many others? …Who play with words and twist their call …Who play with hearts and therefore

Completely Random
i HATE my upstairs neighbor... and even more i cant stand the other one that lives above my bathroom... they sound like friggin elephants trampling around .... im ready to move... but know... i just cant right now... but still .... you would think these people would have respect for the ones that live below them esp at 3AM!!!! ok i feel better!

Funnies
Today, my town had a carnival to raise money for cancer. I ran a kissing booth, when a really cute guy came up paid his $20, looked at me, and said "not even for cancer." He took his money and left. FML Today, my friend's son asked me how much coke costs in this place. I told him "about a dollar?" He said "wow, that's really cheap for blow." He's 10. FML Today, my boyfriend broke up with me over the phone. He said there was someone else, and that he has been in love with her for a while. Turns out, the new girl was his online video game character. I got dumped for a video game. FML Today, I came home to find my mum on the phone to the doctor. When she hung up I asked what had happened. She said they found a sexually transmitted disease in my bloodtest, and then she began to call me a slut. I'm 14, and am still a virgin. After 5 mins of crying, she tells me she was joking. FML Today, my girlfriend missed our date, so I text her angry, telling her if she can't make our da

My Collars - Past And Present
My collars - past and present The ONLY formal collar I ever gave was to my wife. We were together about three years when we found the perfect one. It was a silver band type choker necklace. My dear friend, Mistress Max Rulz had given me a lovely pendant - a silver heart with a lovely purple stone [my favorite color] that we would put on it to personalize it to reflect my ownership. This was her formal collar. She was to wear it to special events, but not daily. When we broke up, it was not the one I kept... See I have this tiny metal lock box thingie that my last hubby used to keep his night vision in with several trinkets from former people who served under me. It helps me remember what lessons I learned from each experience. *See I do have a slice of sentimentality left in my cold, black heart! The one I have from my time with Kimi is locked away in my little box of memories is my 'everyday' collar. It's a silver chain with a "Brain" character charm hanging off it that we got in M

Faking
Today, me and my boyfriend came back to my house after a night on the town. Thinking the house was empty, we proceeded to have sex. Just as it was getting good my phone rings. It was a text from my mom, "Quiet down. Even your father can tell your faking." FML

Undies
Little Susie goes home from school and tells her mum that the boys keep asking her to do cartwheels because she's very good at them ? Mum said : " YOU should say NO - they only want to look at your undies". Susie said: " I know they do that's why I hide them in my backpack"!!

Update: Hmmmm
Alot of you have been wondering has been up with me and why Ive been gone for so long. Ive been currently working on some music with different bands and recording tracks for them. My primary band Red War Memorial's cd is officially finished. CD Release date is still unknown. Things at work have finall picked back up some. So that helps with getting bills paid on time. Another thing, the way I see it, no one deserves me as your love, husband, boyfriend, or whatever I may be (close friends I adore). I trust no woman. you can thank a certain someone for screwing it up for good. I win and you lose deal with it. Now, if I decide to start again, and that special someone tells me the truth upfront and holds NO secrets, then maybe. this person whomever she may be, needs to prove herself to me. Ive proved myself over and over again. Quite frankly Im through with proving myself to anyone. Im not here to impress anyone. Im just me. screw me over just once and you're gone from my

My First Time!
My first sexual experance was climbing through the window of my girlfriends house when I was 14...she was 15 and she was grounded for doing something stupid..so the only time I could see her was late at night..so there we are in her room at night...fucking away all summer long...so you know what they say is true...if you don't let the boys in through the front door they will be climbing in through the windows....

Lover...
Across a crowded room our eyes meet,my palms begin to sweat i shake as if i had parkisons. My mind begins to wonder to your soft lips a smile curling on them as my hand runs into your hard chest. You grasp me tightly yourhand exploring my every curve i let out a sigh. Those beautiful lips place soft kisses into my neck and breasts my head tosses in passion. I grab you close pressing my lips to your ear "take me" I say. Your lips curl into that smirk again driving me crazy i run my fingers through your hair the feel of your body close to mine i guide your hand over my special places your fingers sinking into me... i gasp grabbing you into a kiss. you want more better comment...

Infj (i Have Therapist Written Alllll Over Me)
I-Introverted / 67%N-Intuitive / 38%F-Feeling / 38%J-Judging / 11% Idealist Portrait of the Counselor (INFJ) Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind th

On Joy And Sorrow
On Joy and Sorrow Kahlil Gibran Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears. And how else can it be? The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven? And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives? When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater." But I say unto you, they are inseparable. Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed. Verily you are suspended like scales

The Plan - You Help Me, I Help You
So I recently launched a new photography project, called The Plan. It's basically a setup where I book photoshoots for people for dirt cheap in order to buy the new photo gear I need, and in return, I hook everyone up who helps out with a huge freebie. Check out my photoblog for details! Edit: The Plan is over. Thanks!

On Giving
On Giving Kahlil Gibran You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. For what are your possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow? And tomorrow, what shall tomorrow bring to the overprudent dog burying bones in the trackless sand as he follows the pilgrims to the holy city? And what is fear of need but need itself? Is not dread of thirst when your well is full, the thirst that is unquenchable? There are those who give little of the much which they have--and they give it for recognition and their hidden desire makes their gifts unwholesome. And there are those who have little and give it all. These are the believers in life and the bounty of life, and their coffer is never empty. There are those who give with joy, and that joy is their reward. And there are those who give with pain, and that pain is their baptism. And there are those who give and know not pain in giving, nor do they seek

My Whore List
Fubux:1.shitfaced everyday2.pimpout on page3.3 SFW salutes4.rate 300 pix 10's5.owned by in nameCash:1. 300 11's a week if VIP offered2. Bling me and you get half3.3 SFW salutes and 3 NSFW salutes (of my choosing)4.Added as #1 family5.NSFW surprise if offered 65 bling pack or higher

Don't You Wish You Were As Cool...
...as this baby?! STILLWATER, Okla.--A quirk of the clock and the calendar has given a Stillwater family an unforgettable memory. When the time lined up on Wednesday afternoon at 12:34:56 on 07/08/09, it was more than just a twice-a-century alignment. They also had a unique reason to celebrate. "It just so happened that when they took me back, when he got here, it was 12:34:56," said Lydia Uhrig. Baby Denis Uhrig defies the odds, arriving by Caesarean section at 12:34:56 on 07/08/09. Her son's birth certificate says his birth happened at 12:34:56 at 07/08/09. Uhrig said she planned to have little Denis by Caesarean section on Wednesday anyway, but the special birth time was a bonus. "I thought that it was very unique," she said. "It was just something that I never thought would happen in a million years." She said her son's birth was extra-special for his grandma, who shares a birthday with her grandson.

In Case U Didnt Know
Which day are there more collect calls than any other day of the year? A. Father's Day --------------------------------------------------- The State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska -------------------------------------------

Kahlil Gibran--on Friendship
On Friendship Kahlil Gibran Your friend is your needs answered. He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving. And he is your board and your fireside. For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace. When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay." And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart; For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed. When you part from your friend, you grieve not; For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain. And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit. For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught. And let your best be for your friend. If he must know the ebb of your ti

For Those Reading!!!!
FML is a website that i get these off of.. they no way have anything to do with me LOL i have had a couple of people ask me... ok i dont take nakey pics with my cell phone then sell it on ebay... i dont hump pillows in my sleep... LOL... just so you guys know! take it easy!

Breakfast In Bed: Through A Man's Eyes
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. Breakfast in Bed – the man’s perspective Hmmmmm, I can’t believe the power of sensory memory. I can still fell Kayla’s warm sensual lips running up and down my shaft. As I reach down to relieve the ache, her soft cheek meets my searching fingers, and I smile. I feel her answering smile in the palm of my hand, in the change of her mouth surrounding me. In a smooth motion she replaces her lips with the warmth of her hands as she kisses a path to my mouth – “Good morning”, she says. I then watch as she places a finger against her lips. Her tongue flicks out to moisten the tip, indicating promises to come. She then slips her finger into her parted lips and circles it with her tongue. Slowly she withdraws her moistened finger and places it on the breakfast tray she has placed on the console table beside the sofa bed. Her finger lazily stirring on the tray

A Soldier's Home Cumming ;p
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. If I were your first stop once you got back from deployment, I would prepare the condo for the care I would take with you. Ya big man, you would actually have to deal with being pampered just a little... When you arrive I would not say a word (don’t get use to that ;D lol), but I would take your hand, and after you drop your luggage.. would slowly press you against the wall.. one hand, linking fingers with you and holding you against the wall while the other would cup your neck and pull you to me for that kiss i so want from you... you would try to tease me, knowing i want it, but i would tease back, because you want it too... then the grins would leave and the seriousness of the passion would come and we would kiss... slow, deep, thorough... both moaning... you would take my hand from your neck and link those fingers too, then holding our linked hands you would move them behind me, capturing me in

The Snowangel The Snowboarder ;p
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. This year, I’ve decided this island girl is tired of waiting for her Canuk friends to grow a pair and come out in the snow and play with me, so I’m heading to the hills for some R&R alone. Throughout the day, I keep noticing a very tall, broad stranger. A snowboarder... never tried that, but damn I’d like to try him! All I can see is his lips, and a teasing smile every once in a while, but I’ve been waiting for him to take off the goggles so I can see his eyes... then, I’ll know. At the end of the night... I decide it’s time for a little soak and a little steam... I’m lucky, I stayed on the slopes just a little too long and there are only a handful of people in the hot tub. I notice he’s one of them. I’ve asked around, his name is Patrick. I have a few choices... one tub has 2 couples, the second has two pretty hot young men, but the third one..

Snow Angel & Snow Boarder ;p
This year, I’ve decided this island girl is tired of waiting for her Canuk friends to grow a pair and come out in the snow and play with me, so I’m heading to the hills for some R&R alone. Throughout the day, I keep noticing a very tall, broad stranger. A snowboarder... never tried that, but damn I’d like to try him! All I can see is his lips, and a teasing smile every once in a while, but I’ve been waiting for him to take off the goggles so I can see his eyes... then, I’ll know. At the end of the night... I decide it’s time for a little soak and a little steam... I’m lucky, I stayed on the slopes just a little too long and there are only a handful of people in the hot tub. I notice he’s one of them. I’ve asked around, his name is Patrick. I have a few choices... one tub has 2 couples, the second has two pretty hot young men, but the third one...hmmmm... Patrick. I smile. No brainer. I head over to the hot tub with the hott

Site Maintenance Tonight (07/09/09) From 11pm - Midnight Pst
we're replacing some old hardware and adding some new stuff late tonight between 11PM and Midnight PST. during this time the site might be a little weird, and for 5-15 minutes probably unreachable for everyone. have no fear, everything should be back to normal by midnight (probably a lot sooner). werd. ps: i'm working on a new mumm area for the power homepage. yay. -mike

Allow Your Own Inner Light To Guide You
Allow Your Own Inner Light to Guide You There comes a time when you must stand alone.You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.You must be willing to make sacrifices.You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way.

A Strong Woman Versus A Woman Of Strength
A STRONG WOMAN VERSUS A WOMAN OF STRENGTH A STRONG WOMAN VERSUS A WOMAN OF STRENGTH A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape... but a woman of strength builds relationships to keep her soul in shape. A strong woman isn't afraid of anything ...but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear. A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her ... but a woman of strength gives the best of her

Kindness
Kindness In the quest to create a gentler, more loving world, kindness is the easiest tool we can use. Though it is easy to overlook opportunities to be kind, our lives are replete with situations in which we can be helpful, considerate, thoughtful, and friendly to loved ones and associates, as well as strangers. The touching, selfless acts of kindness that have the most profoundly uplifting effects are often the simplest: a word of praise, a gentle touch, a helping hand, a gesture of courtesy, or a smile. Such small kindnesses represent an unconditional, unrestricted form of love that we are free to give or withhold at will. When you give the gift of kindness, whether in the form of assistance, concern, or friendliness, your actions create a beacon of happiness and hope that warms people's hearts. The components of kindness are compassion, respect, and generosity. Put simply, kindness is the conscious act of engaging others in a positive way without asking whether those

Hatred
HAVE YOU EVER HATED SOMEONE SO MUCH YOU WANT THEM TO DIE BUT SAYING THAT HURTS THE ONE YOU REALLY LOVE AND THAT IS NOT GOOD BUT HATRED IS THE FORMOST PART OF ANGER ITS MY HATRED FOR THE PERSON EVEN BREATHING I CANT STAND THAT PERSON AND DONT WANT THAT PERSON EVEN AROUND THE ONES I LOVE AND I CAN NOT DO ANYTHING ABOOUT IT BUT ITS OK CUZ TIME WILL TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING PEOPLE THAT TREAT OTHER PEOPLE BADLY WILL GET THERES I JUST WISH I COULD BE THE ONE THAT GIVES IT TO THEM LIFE IS FULL OF REGRETS AND ONE THING I DONT REGRET IS TELL THIS ONE PERSON IN MY LIFE I HATE THEM LIFE IS SHORT TO BAD I SPEND MINE HATEING SOMEONE SO HARD THAT I CANT LIVE IT LIKE I WANT TO

Wish It Was Real
Friday, July 10, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You could fall in love today and yet your feelings may have little to do with the people in your life. You are more open to the idea of romance, whether or not you are willing to express your desires. Since a current attraction might be the result of your daydreams, you don't really require anyone to act out your fantasy. If no one shows up, just enjoy the fruits of your imagination.

Helping The Higher Levels
I am ALL for helping people level. I rate the newbies 3-4 times a day. I rate/fan all my friend requests. I bomb/rate/bling people that are getting close to leveling. I've also been known to hand out autos/bombs/bling/blasts/pimpouts just because I think you deserve it. I've spent a great deal of time helping out newbies get around fu. I've also spent a lot of time making custom skins for people and skins for users to grab it they like them. I bust fakes so the good people spend their money on GOOD people instead of liars that are just out to use them. I rarely ever ask for anything in return. The few times that I have asked for help I either only get it from my close friends or don't get it at all. Since these new levels have come out begging has reached a new level. Theres ability point begging, bling pack begging, fuowned begging, auto/bomb/bling begging, secret admirer begging, and fubucks begging on top of the normal "help me level" begging. I never see the beggers helping out th

Marquis De Sade On Pain
There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience.-Marquis De Sade

Education
"Educatio est omnium efficacissima forma rebellionis" which is scripted in Latin. The English translation means "Education is the most effective form of rebellion". The moral of Thorin's quote is that much more can be accomplished with a book rather than a bat. The system itself cannot be beaten by simply dropping out and having a middle finger attitude. To truly make a difference, you need not only angst, but also a firm foundation on what makes the system what it is. Past revolutionaries (Che, King Jr, Gandhi....) all knew how to use the system to their advantage and bring about change. Society loves stupid people because they are so easy to control. To truly make a difference organize with the tools that truly bring about change: Education and Unity. The sheep (people in general) are force fed crap everyday via the media. Unfortunately, they take it all in with their mouths open wide. The uneducated cannot tell the difference between truth and lie, instead they tend to believe every

Marquis De Sade On Lust
Lust is to the other passions what the nervous fluid is to life; it supports them all, lends strength to them all ambition, cruelty, avarice, revenge, are all founded on lust. -Marquis De Sade

Marquis De Sade On Sexuality
In libertinage, nothing is frightful, because everything libertinage suggests is also a natural inspiration; the most extraordinary, the most bizarre acts, those which most arrantly seem to conflict with every law, every human institution... even those that are not frightful, and there is not one amongst them all that cannot be demonstrated within the boundaries of nature. -Marquis De Sade

Marquis De Sade -on Wickedness
Behold, my love, behold all that I simultaneously do: scandal, seduction, bad example, incest, adultery, sodomy! Oh, Satan! one and unique God of my soul, inspire thou in me something yet more, present further perversions to my smoking heart, and then shalt thou see how I shall plunge myself into them all!Marquis De Sade -

Marquis De Sade-quote On Evil
Evil is a moral entity and not a created one, an eternal and not a perishable entity: it existed before the world; it constituted the monstrous, the execrable being who was also to fashion such a hideous world. It will hence exist after the creatures which people this world.Marquis De Sade -

Marquis De Sade Quotes
All universal moral principles are idle fancies. Marquis de Sade All, all is theft, all is unceasing and rigorous competition in nature; the desire to make off with the substance of others is the foremost - the most legitimate - passion nature has bred into us and, without doubt, the most agreeable one. Marquis de Sade Are not laws dangerous which inhibit the passions? Compare the centuries of anarchy with those of the strongest legalism in any country you like and you will see that it is only when the laws are silent that the greatest actions appear. Marquis de Sade Are wars anything but the means whereby a nation is nourished, whereby it is strengthened, whereby it is buttressed? Marquis de Sade Between understanding and faith immediate connections must subsist. Marquis de Sade Destruction, hence, like creation, is one of Nature's mandates. Marquis de Sade Happiness is ideal, it is the work of the imagination.

You Know What?
You know what? I have something to tell you and I don’t know how to begin to explain what I have inside. I just don’t seem to find the words, neither a verse nor a prose, maybe a rose could show you. The thing is, that I don’t know how, but since you showed up my heart started to sing. I want to tell you that I’m crazy about you and in this rose I’m giving you my life. I give thanks to heaven for meeting you and I’m telling the stars how beautiful I felt that day.

Smart Car; Thanks For This One Too Dove!
what we will be forced to drive quite soon. But look at all of the 'great new choices' we will have from 'The SMART Car'.... The Smorvette! The Smaudi A3 AWD! The Smamborghini! The Smorsche! The Smerrari! And last, but not least

Crazy Cajuns
Cajun AngelsGabriel came to the Lord and said, "I have to talk to you. I have someCajuns up here in Heaven who are causing some problems. They areswinging on The Pearly Gates, my horn is missing, and barbecue sauce isall over their robes! Ham hocks, spareribs, and crawfish shells are allover the streets of gold. Some folks are walking around with one wing. They have been late taking their turn in keeping the stairway to heavenclean. There are watermelon seeds all over the clouds! They have eatenalmost every animal up here! Some of them aren't even wearing theirhalos, saying it is messing up their hair."The Lord said, "I made them special, as I did you, my angel. Heaven ishome to all my children. If you really want to know about problems,let's call the Devil and see how he is dealing with his Cajuns."The Devil answered the phone, "Hello? Dang it, hold on!"The Devil returned to the phone and said, "Hello, God, what can I do foryou?"God replied, "Tell me what kind of problems you are hav

Stupidity
Spread the Stupidity Only in America ......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front. Only in America.....do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke. Only in America.....do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters. Only in America ......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage. Only in America .......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight. Only in America.....do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering. EVER WONDER ...

Cajun Joke: Boudreaux Gets Married
Now Boudreaux, he fall in love wit Marie and he ax > > her to marry him... > > > > > > Marie > > was very naive and uninformed about da birds and da > > bees. > > > > > > Boudreaux was a poor fisherman and could not afford > > to take much time off for a honeymoon. So, dat night > > dat dey were married, dey retired to his little shack on da > > Bayou Teche. When Boudreaux was undressing, Marie > > said, "Oh Boudreaux! What dat is?" > > > > > > Boudreaux, being very quick thinking and sensitive to

Facts About Louisiana
Viva La Louisiane!!!If Hurricane Katrina causing the levees to break in New Orleans is the only thing you know about Louisiana , here are a few more interesting facts about the Bayou State : * Louisiana has the tallest state capitol building in the nation at 450 feet. * The Louisiana Superdome in New Orleans is the largest enclosed stadium In the world. * The Lake Pontchartrain Causeway is the longest over-water bridge in the world at 23.87 miles. * Louisiana's 6.5 million acres of wetlands are the greatest wetland area in America. * The oldest city in the Louisiana Purchase Territory is Natchitoches, Louisiana founded in 1714. * The first bottler of Coca-Cola, Joseph Bie Denharn, lived in Monroe, Louisiana and was one of the founders of Delta Air Lines, initially called Delta Air Service. * Delta Airlines got its start in Monroe, Louisiana when Parish Agent, C.E. Woolman, decided to try dusting the Boll Weevil that was destroying the cotton crops in the Mississippi River Delt

Your Cooking/food Lesson For The Day!
Every body should read this.I have used an onion which has been left in the fridge, and sometimes I don't use a whole one at one time, so I save the other half for later. Now with this info, I have changed my mind....I will buy smaller onions in the future.Written by Zola Gorgon -author of several cookbooks..Watch out for those spoiled onions.I had the wonderful privilege of touring Mullins Food Products, makers of mayonnaise. Mullins is huge, and is owned by 11 brothers and sisters in the Mullins family. My friend,Jeanne, is the CEO. Questions about food poisoning came up, and I wanted to share what I learned from a chemist.The guy who gave us our tour is named Ed. He's one of the brothers. Ed is achemistry expert and is involved in developing most of the sauce formula. He'seven developed sauce formula for McDonald's.Keep in mind that Ed is a food chemistry whiz. During the tour, someone asked if we really needed to worry about mayonnaise. People are always worried that mayonnaise wil

Blessed And Proud To Grow Old
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love ... I will.I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the j

True Love
How to Dance in the RainIt was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if

Cajun Joke ( Boudreaux & Thibodeaux )
Now Boudreaux, he fall in love wit Marie and he ax > > her to marry him... > > > > > > Marie > > was very naive and uninformed about da birds and da > > bees. > > > > > > Boudreaux was a poor fisherman and could not afford > > to take much time off for a honeymoon. So, dat night > > dat dey were married, dey retired to his little shack on da > > Bayou Teche. When Boudreaux was undressing, Marie > > said, "Oh Boudreaux! What dat is?" > > > > > > Boudreaux, being very quick thinking and sensitive to > > Marie's naive young ways said, "Marie, my love, I > > am da only man in da world wit one of dees." And, > > den, he proceeded to show her what it was for; and Marie was

That’s How I Remember You
That’s how I remember you, your hair in freedom and an ice on fire, so different from the rest. I remember you like that, letting yourself be admired, untouchable, inaccessible, unreal, cold as the wind, dangerous like the ocean, sweet as a kiss. That’s how I remember you, playing to fall in love, conceited, capricious, and ideal. I remember you like that, loving without love, impassive, impossible to reach.

Dead As A Doornail...
I have reached the end of the internet. I think I've run out of stuff to look up, I've mastered Mafia Wars on facebook, I can't find any porn to keep my interest. This place has turned into a morgue since people have found lives. What's a girl to do?!?

Have Something To Say
Have something to say.I wanna scream it out loud...I wanna yell to the city and want to scream it cause I'm proud. I had a dream to day!I've had a thought.Ive had my revaluation and its not what i sought. I've dreamed this dream for days long past.But this thought in my head ... It just lasts... I wanna breathe again.Take that long awaited breathI WANT HOPE AGAIN.To lay my worries to rest. I want to thrive againthrive on love. i want hope again i want yours.Open your heart and ill open doors. Open hope to me and ill sail any sea.Open that heart and believe in me... I'll be perfect...as i always thrive to be.I'll stay yours and be what ever you want me to be. Let me be yours,I'll let you be mine.Let me have hope again,Help me learn to shine. give me hope...I'll take your pain.I'll love you without question and have the world to gain.

For Those Who Know Me.
I just found out that I have Cervical disc degeneration is a common cause of neck pain, most frequently felt as a stiff neck. Cervical degenerative disc disease is much less common than disc degeneration in the lumbar spine because the neck generally is subjected to far less torque and force. Nonetheless, a fall or a twisting injury to the disc space can spur degeneration, and accumulated wear and tear on the disc over time can also lead to neck pain caused by disc degeneration. Finding out that this is a injury that happoned in my early childhood. DR. told me that I was in much to bad of shape for my age. In addition to having the low-grade pain of a stiff or inflexible neck, many patients with cervical disc degeneration have numbness, tingling, or even weakness in the neck, arms, or shoulders as a result of nerves in the cervical area becoming irritated or pinched. For example, a pinched nerve root in the C6-C7 segment could result in weakness in the triceps and forearms, wrist

Socialism...
Alot is being said now about the Obama administration's leftist leanings and the country slipping towards socialism. As an actual socialist and a member of DSA (Democratic Socialists of America) be assured there is nothing further from the truth. Socialism is very different than a capitalist state and it is a system which is run by and elevates one thing... LABOR. State owned and state controlled businesses and banks are not part of the a socialist movement unless the government was made over and controlled by laborers, I'm not simplly speaking about party affliation. GM being bought out by the government and run by the government is state enforced Capitalism, not socialism. The fact is GM and many other indutries have and continue to receive a great degree of corporate welfare... this is nothing new. The main difference in this situation was that government not onlt supplied funds and loopholes, this time the government wanted a say in the decision making. I would hope all of

Gate Boarding
At the airport for a business trip, I settled down to wait for the boarding announcement at Gate 35. Then I heard the voice on the public address system saying, "We apologize for the inconvenience, but Delta Flight 570 will board from Gate 41." So my family picked up our luggage and carried it over to Gate 41. Not ten minutes later the public address voice told us that Flight 570 would in fact be boarding from Gate 35. So, again, we gathered our carry-on luggage and returned to the original gate. Just as we were settling down, the public address voice spoke again: "Thank you for participating in Delta's physical fitness program.

God's Garden
GOD LOOKED AROUND HIS GARDEN AND HE FOUND AN EMPTY PLACE. HE LOOKED DOWN ON THE EARTH AND SAW MY DADDY'S TIRED FACE. HE PUT HIS ARMS AROUND HIM AND LIFTED HIM TO REST. GOD'S GARDEN MUST BE BEAUTIFUL HE ALWAYS TAKES THE BEST. HE KNEW THAT HE WAS SUFFERING HE KNEW THAT HE WAS IN PAIN . HE KNEW THAT DADDY WOULD NEVER GET WELL ON EARTH AGAIN HE SAW DADDY'S ROAD WAS GETTING TOUGH AND THE HILLS WERE HARD TO CLIMB. SO HE CLOSED MY DADDY'S EYELIDS AND WISPERED "PEACE BE THINE" IT BROKE MY HEART TO LOSE HIM! BUT HE DIDNT GO ALOINE FOR PART OF ME WENT WITH HIM THE DAY GOD CALLED HIM HOME. I LOVE YOU DADDY AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

Recently Written Poetry
The first one is a bit more classical and I think I may try too hard at it... Change Winds of change come sweepingTheir breath a gentle breezeWillow branches weepingAnd oak leaves barely sneeze Grasses bow beneath the weightOf transparent changes' passingChange of seasons' quickening gaitTurbulence no longer lacking The longer the winds blow unheededMore resistant to the galeThe more damage done excessiveAnd more likely one is to fail So when the gentle sighing kissesThe skin of your upturned faceBe sure to note it, lest you miss itHasten your collective pace The second is a bit more edgy, I think. I dunno. Wrote these between classes, so I didn't spend much time on them. That's always the best work, though. lol. Do this Don't make me do thisI don't wanna do thisWhy do I always do this?Please don't make me do this Get your act together girlBefore this falls apartBefore you fall apartWhen everything unfurls You always end up this wayWanting ever to goNever can you st

Life In The Fast Lane...
This week has beat my ass into the ground like no other! I had to cover what was closed on Friday on my Monday plus, do my floral.... *is beat* Yesterday, it felt like 150 degrees in my van ...it sucked. So, that is my excuse for not doing the "floral" blog this week...not that I think you missed it or anything. I don't dig this new home page format at all!! wtf do we need two bar tabs for, and wtf can't I block all of it? grrr.... *shrug* I really don't care much...just that "monkism" about me I guess *blush* I'm taking another short fu break this weekend *dances* So, have fun everyone and be safe!!! ♥ PoStaL

I Wish I Was Devious...
constantly hear about how guys are incapable of expressing emotion. Maybe it's my contrary nature, but fuck that! You asked for it...I am 25 years old, with a mind that fluctuates between a 5 year old's optimism, and 90 year old's crushing surety that all is wrong in this pathetic fucked up little world we live in. I live in constant fear of myself. I have PTSD, whether or not any of you bastards care is none of my concern. I do. It's real. It's why I sleep little, and think too much.I don't drink anymore. Drinking leads to time I can't remember, time I won't get back, and it led to a marriage I will always regret. My only true pride in my life so far is a beautiful little blond girl with a knowing smile, and heart-breaking blue eyes. She has more value than could ever be equaled. She is my reason to get up every morning, to try to sleep each night, and to make it to work everyday whether or not I succeeded.I have a passion, obsession, and fixation with eyes. They are the windows to a

Gettin Laid
Perusing the mumms once in a while, I see the hens cackling about "Oh, I wish I could get laid, I have to use the Bob", or "I havent been laid in years, I want it so bad", blah blah blah What they are saying is...I wish I could find a guy that will think my fat ass, obsession with Real Housewives NY, and incessant shopping for purses that match my skin tone are cute enough to consider waiting til the 10th date to have sex. Go to a bar, and wink at any dude. Unless you look like something that crawled out of Oprah's ass and died, you'll have no probs gettin some cock. Unfortunately, byt "gettin some dick" they mean "some wallet and a good job". Pffst.

Fakers
Soo...I found several people that pathetically pretended to be Russian, I have no idea why. Two were guys, both with a word "Russian" in their name., Upon contacting them in my native language, they revealed with shame that they are either 1/4th Russian, or a 5th generation Russian. I was like WTF? False ad, my friend. Another was a cunt that pretended to not only put Russian in her name, but also steal my RL name (Natasha). When asked where she was from in Russian, she responded with "da"...wtf, are you retarded? Then I called her a stupid dumb cunt in Russian, to which she replied with "I'm from NY". WTF?? I dont get this whole "Ill pretend to be from elsewhere" shit.

Ass
So, in leu of me not gettin a vacation to Cali, resulting in a wasted plane ticket and much frustration, because some nutsack at work decided to quit, I have decided to take my bitter cuntness to the workplace. While people constantly accuse me of having an awful temper, I believe that I am a pretty nice person if you dont fuck with me. ANd I guess they have breached that treshhold. I never argue off the boat, or raise my voice, or bitch and swear. I take things calmly, and then let them fester and get to me more and more, until I get REALLY pissed off and decide to quietly make that person's life a living hell. Or at least, a limbo. While I have crossed words with my boss many a times, I know when to keep my mouth shut in order to keep my fuckin job. Sooo... I stopped being nice to her. I had a whole buncha registration cards for the guests, and I threw half of them away, making it look like they are all there. So now she'll have to print them individually when they come i

Up All Night
Up all night, playing on the web, feeding habits and my newest addiction to just being online. I have too many to keep track of them all, then start staying up all night twisting everything from a coherant view. Spun out and unable to stop. I am definitely my own worst enemy. Sometimes you just got to say fu it and stick a dollar into the salvation army bucket, if you know where I'm coming from please tell me. You can pick your friends and you could pick your nose, bujt you can't wipe your friends on the living room couch. Authored by a friend on acid in95

My First Entry
lost in the eyes of an angel, she takes my heart and breath away when i kiss her i close my eyes and am lifted into seventh heaven cause im lost in the eyes of an angel, i cant sleep one second cause i might miss a breath from you thats the truth but now my heart belongs to you i was once lost completely but now im found in the eyes of an angel held in the arms and flying thru the clouds because of you hearts of gold in a field of bluei fall to pieces when i hear you my heart races across the world because of you

Some Things You Just Can't Explain
A farmer was sitting in the neighborhood bar getting drunk. A man came in and asked the farmer, "Hey, why are you sitting here on this beautiful day, getting drunk?" The farmer shook his head and replied, "Some things you just can't explain." "So what happened that's so horrible?" the man asked as he sat down next to the farmer. "Well," the farmer said, "today I was sitting by my cow, milking her. Just as I got the bucket full, she lifted her left leg and kicked over the bucket." "Okay," said the man, "but that's not so bad." "Some things you just can't explain," the farmer replied. "So what happened then?" the man asked. The farmer said, "I took her left leg and tied it to the post on the left." "And then?" "Well, I sat back down and continued to milk her. Just as I got the bucket full, she took her right leg and kicked over the bucket." The man laughed and said, "Again?" The farmer replied, "Some things you just can't explain." "So, what did you do then?" th

My Apologies
I want to apologize if I've seemed out of it or distant recently to anyone. I buried my father on Tuesday which leaves me no living relatives. Finding myself suddenly alone, I'm at a loss for what to do and where to go. Please bear with me, I'll get my life back on track but it may take some time.

What F'n Ever
Sometomes this world gets to me. It kicks me in the ass. It treats me like a little whore on prom night. I just get so tired of all the shit the world dishes out. That's why I like it here. I am me. Sometimes I'm more than I am.I come online, be it here or another site I enjoy such as this, I can let go.I just get a kick out of what people say and pics they post. We all are here for a good time. That'a a good thing. Personally, I'm here to have a good time and meet some interesting people. I'm doing both. So what if I have failed at some things, been visited by the repo man, and just otherwise made a mess of me. I am me. I like to say this.....I have some awesome friends here and I love everyone of you. Love my fans too. If the world don't like that.....what f'n ever. I got a big reward coming to me when this life is over. Thanks for letting me vent. I'll be ok. "I'm alright. Nobody worry bout me."

Mini Vacation...
Dear Friends and Family, I will be gone on Vacation from Friday (July 10, -Sunday but I'll be mobile if you wanna say "HI"..Plz say Hi due to the fact that it will take 10 hrs to get there uugghh.. talk to you all soon (h) - BabyDoll

Revenge
I sit in the dark corner of your mind waiting, waiting till i can savor the delicious moment of your demise.You locked me away , so long go but you never forgot me you never forgot your dark past and i'll never let you forget it.You tortured and brutalized me for years till you one day my body was lifeless and i was no more.You killed my spirit,my soul and my love but as sit here i countdown the days till im relased from my internal prison and able to get my revenge.The day i am freed from this hell you will know what it is like to be a murdered soul living amoung the lonely and deprived.You will know my pain just give it time.

Sunshine Cleaning
So even though I think the MuMM votes went to 'Public Enemies', time dictated we caught this, which was on later. As expected, Amy Adams and Emily Blunt made for an impressive and thoroughly watchable duo. For my money, two of the finest young actresses out there at the moment. Excellent support from Alan Arkin, Chloe from '24' and that guy that sold Dawson drugs in 'Rules Of Attraction'. Perhaps a trifle on the light side, with a so-so ending, but plenty of both laughs and moving moments on the way, and the faultless leads make it a thoroughly enjoyable experience. Not an astounding find, then, but a great way to spend an evening without massive explosions or being masturabated at by Megan Fox.

I’m Turning Off My Lights
I’m turning off my lights, to think about you. That way, I will let my imagination fly. That’s the place where I can do all things. It's where there are no impossible. Who cares if I’m only dreaming, if happiness finds me there? How will I hold you? When will I kiss you? When will I give you my most passionate desires? I will bite your lips; I will be filled of you. And that’s why I’m going to turn off the light, to think about you.

Why Still Health Break And Where Did Those Nsfw And Personal Pics Go?
Just a quick note to say such a HUGE THANK YOU to all my friends and family that have been keeping me shit-faced, rating my pictures and keeping my account going. Although my ranking dropped some, it certainly didn’t much thanks to some very awesome friends. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am still unable to come back due to health issues although I shall be back soon. I have autos and bombs that I need to run and then assess what to do with my account. For those who were looking and noticed, yes, My NSFW pics are ALL deleted and most of my individual pics as well. After the debaucle of having my pics posted on an adult website, they were posted to CraigsList last week with some very crude offering of myself, so apparently, pictures of me need to be very scarce. I’ve deleted all my profiles from websites except a couple now and shall begin the never-ending work of trying to remove personal info from the internet. It’s amazing how much is out t

A Letter
Dear Newest Love Interest in NY,I know you want me to come and see you. Believe me, if I had the money, I would have already flown out. My plans for travel this year have prevented it, thus far. I wish I had gotten a contract sooner, but I have have to make you wait until I'm back from being on tour, instead. I love you. I miss talking to you. every time I close my eyes, I dream of lying in your arms. I hope that's enough to sustain you until I can get there.Huggles and kissles,That Hobo You Know

Cyber-sex
Recently, my girlfriend walked in on me having cyber-sex with a woman who lives half way across the country. I had known this chick for a couple of months but only online when we decided to cyber. My g/f came in early from work and caught us. To make a long story short, she went ballistic, packed her stuff and left me because she said I was cheating on her. Let it be known, I never met this cyber partner and never intended to. To me, it's nothing more than reading a Hustler or Playboy magazine but my g/f said it was cheating. When she asked me why I did it, I told her the truth...it felt nice to know that other chicks found me attractive. I didn't do it because I wasn't getting any attention from my g/f, in fact, we have, or should I say HAD a great sex life. It was just nice knowing that other women find me sexy and attractive, and hey, it beats solitaire all to hell. What do you folks think? Am I right or is my girl right? Is cyber-sex innocent fun or is it cheating?

Benefit.....
BENEFIT AUGUST 1ST @ CORNER POCKET IN PASADENA A benefit is being organized to help raise money for Cheryl Smith & James Green. They were involved in a terrible motorcycle accident in Winnie, TX while on their way back home. Both were taken by life flight to Memorial Herman Hospital. Cheryl suffered a broken leg which required surgery & a large portion of her leg required extensive skin grafts & surgery to repair muscle tissue that was lost. She will be unable to walk for a minimum of 3-5 months. James remained in a coma for 10 days and is currently being treated for brain injury & trauma. We are still unclear about the extent of brain injury James has suffered but it is certain that he will need a lot of rehab. He is the sole provider for his family and is now unable to work. He and Cheryl have 2 young children who still need to be provided for. This family is now unable to pay the bills on their home as well as the medical bills. WE NEED LIVE BANDS!!! We are loo

Wtf Shaft???
So its after 1am, here I am sittin here watchin my baby sleep, which is what I should be doing as well but how can I sleep when my babies hooked up to all the fkn machines? So I let my bestie talk me into signing up for this fkn site. Lord I must be outta my fkn mind. Fk it~ Idgaf anymore! I have learned in the year of being a single divorced mom that if a man has the internet~ he ain't bein faithful to you! PA-LEASE! Too much fkn temptation, even if every bone in their body is loyal. You put a lappie or pc in front of that muthafkr and he will find his way into some badness! Even if your man is over seas in sandland doesn't matter if he's talkin to you 24/7 on im ~better believe hes lookin at another bitches titties on an im window. lmfao! Been there~done that! It's sickening to me that noone seems to be faithful or geniune anymore. Seriously! You meet someone and you click but something just ain't quite right. You wanna trust em but at the same time there's that instinct telling yo

Ghost Hunting
I was recently asked to convert a ghost hunting website into a sister site for a paranormal research team. It has been a very tiring and frustrating last few days. But what I really need is help from anyone who is interested in paranormal research. I need to begin adding articles involving EVP's, different views involving the paranormal and other paranormal activities. If anyone has a particular interest in the subject, please feel free to send me a message. Until then, who is from Tulsa and wants to go ghost hunting?!

Back To Losing It But
i've been productive doing so. sure ive had almost countless seizures last month and the beginning of this one already but thats just stress and poor eating habits and um...epilepsy too. some dont think the last one exists...only when the seizure is seen not heard haha. i thought a girl and i fell for each other on fubar. then the line was severed...zzzzip! its so easy to just stop talking to someone online that you dont have to worry about it i guess. but i worry no matter where im at haha. when it comes to a connection with someone...even on an internet connection...it still counts to me. because it doesnt just go on with "fu-love" and dipshit bling to make the girl impressed. if using this god forsaken thing to actually meet someone and progress beyond emails and phone calls...then thats great. but when it only goes as far as those 2 things...its a stalemate. at least to me. you cant just pass the person on the street and ask them whats going on... its gotta be written

Zombie Take-out Episode 7: Zombie Take-out Goes To Nilbog
Zombie Take-Out Episode 7: Zombie Take-Out Goes to Nilbog is now online Scotto and Uncle John change plans and interrupt their exploration into the Roddy Piper oeuvre to take advantage of a rare opportunity to discuss what many have called the worst movie of all time. Some have even called it the best worst movie. This week … Troll 2. Does it live up to its reputation? Will it scar Scotto for life? Listen and find out. I don’t know. http://zombietakeout.com

I Want Em!! All 15 Million!!!! Help!
Heartistic's new game is a pirate game and the prize is 15,000,000 fubucks. I want em all!! lol So if you want to help me win please visit her blog to learn how to play. http://fubar.com/blog/147861/1041431 My fubar id number is #1037376 you will need this if you are sending me some rum!! I wanna be the drunkest pirate ...............and the richest!!!!!!!!! Oh.........and every time you send me rum, you get some too!! HELP!

Faba Is Up For Auction
your chance to own FABA looking for FUbux or bling packs linx hate me so copy and paste this please? http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=884347&albumid=1672350&i=3500858203 bid now share with friends?

Faba Contest Chance To Win Your Choice Of A-11 Or Cherry Bomb!
get your morph rated and commented Rates = 5 points Comments = 1 point most points at month end wins if you dont have a morphs pik and want in contest message FABA you will be added ASAP P.S. linx dont work in my blogs so check FABA's pik albums for morphs PRIZE IS YOUR CHOICE OF... A-11 OR CHERRY BOMB

Vip-a-thon (moved Here)
OFFICIAL FABA VIP-a-thon sign up sheet more VIP-a-thon info here http://fubar.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=6626714&bl=1 if you agree to and can committ to this list you the FABA member will:R/F/A if havent alreadyadd owned by your name in minekeep you shitfaced when neededrate/re-rate all your pixrate your stash and blogs1 SFW saluteRandom comments/giftsR/F/A your top 5 and r not curently VIP if VIP expires while VIP-a-thon is running u may sign up then this will work on a first come first serve basis FABA will try to find an owner for all who sign up &nbs

Discipline
The submissive has to surrender their being to the full control of the Mistress to be trained. Training needs discipline. They have to learn, when they step out of line, punishment will be their first reward. And that is the role discipline plays in various situations. Are you not feeling just a little guilty about your hidden desires? Have you not sneaked away, played truant, to visit your Mistress? That is stepping out of line, not being the person you really are, and you must be disciplined for your attempts to play another part. Discipline can be administered in various ways. How would it be done? The use of toys is essential and requires a working knowledge and uses for each one. Often a heavy hand is required for those brave enough to be spanked over the knee, often replaced by paddles and slippers, which sting and burn the skin with its touch. Light, sensuous whips, genital w

Tattooing To Raise Money For Cancer Research
HEY PARTY PEOPLE! AS MANY OF YOU MAY ALREADY KNOW MY MOTHER HAS BEEN VERY SICK FOR A YEAR NOW. THE DOCTORS HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DISCOVER THE CAUSE OF HER EXTREME ILLNESS UNTIL RECENTLY. SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH A HORMONE PRODUCING TUMOR IN HER LARGE INTESTINE. THIS TUMOR IS NOT CANCEROUS, HOWEVER, THIS TUMOR PRODUCES HORMONES THAT CAUSE BREAST CANCER. AT HER RECENT MAMMOGRAM, THE DOCTORS DISCOVERED A LUMP IN HER BREAST. THIS LUMP HAS BEEN DETERMINED TO BE BREAST CANCER. HERES WHERE MY AWESOME IDEA COMES INTO PLAY. I HAVENT WORKED OUT ALL OF THE DETAILS YET. IM LOOKING FOR INTERESTED TATTOO ARTISTS AT THIS TIME TO PLEDGE A FEW HOURS ONE WEEKEND (DATE WILL COME AT A LATER TIME) TO TATTOO TO RAISE MONEY FOR CANCER RESEARCH. IF THINGS GO AS I PLAN THEM TOO IT WILL BE ABOUT THE SIZE OF A TATTOO CONVENTION, OVER A 3 DAY PERIOD. IM CURRENTLY SPEAKING TO SOME BIG NAME TATTOO ARTISTS WHO ARE EXCITED ABOUT HELPING WITH MY IDEA. (I WONT GIVE AWAY THE NAMES JUST YET BUT ONE OF THEM HAS THEIR OWN SH

Missed Opportunity
well well well... ok so back in the high school days... there was this girl. i liked her, but i was always a dumb ass at what to say to girls. i suppose i'm still dumb in the brain but just less scared, lol. so... after just starting up facebook, i found her. even though i'm back home in MN i didn't get the chance to see her. i suppose finding her on facebook was pretty good. long story short, i once responded to a question wrong and it hurt her feelings and we kinda stopped talking at that point. i really liked her as a friend, but after she stopped talkin to me, it hurt me a lot to not have that friendship. well, in hind sight, you know how you think back to those days and there was this girl that you say, "man. i wish i could have married you..." well, i think she was the one for me. i just really like her personality and who she was as a person. on top of that, she was really cute too. well, i'm deploying, and this is my last night back home in MN before i fly back to b

All I Want
Nothing's so loud As hearing when we lie. The truth is not kind. And you've said neither am I. But the air oustide so soft, is saying everything Everything All I Want is to feel this way To be this close, to feel the same. All I want is to feel this way The evening speaks I feel it say... Nothing's so cold as closing the heart when all we need is to free the soul. But We wouldn't be that brave I know And the air outside, so soft is confessing everything. Everything.... All I Want is to feel this way to be this close, to feel the same All I want is to feel this way The evening speaks I can hear it say... And it won't matter now whatever happens to me though the air speaks of all we'll never be it won't trouble me. And it feels so close let it take me in let it hold me so I can feel it say.... Toad the Wet-Sprocket

Poem For Paps Jim
I'd walk a mile,Just to see you smile.That's what Papa use to say,Before he'd leave the very next day.His blue eyes shinning like stars,On a dark country night.His smile so comforting and bright.Always knowing how to make things Seem so rightHe made you laugh when he said silly things.His favorite one was "You'll always be my horseEven if you never win a race."He came up with storiesJust to put a big smile on your face.When he got sick his eyesSeem dull like a fading light.He grew weak but never gave upAnd put up a fight.He couldn't speak when I last saw him.They asked do you have anything to say to Papa Jim?I love you PapaWhen are you coming home?All he did was squeeze my handTo let me know he loved me too.On April 15, 1999 his years had endedAnd a part of me died inside.But I'll always remember him sayingI'd walk a mileJust to see you smileBefore he'd leave the very next day

Status Messages
I have gotten a few messages about mine and what it means. I am a firm believer in personal responsibility, and seeing what is going on around you. Too many people are blinded by personal feelings to see things for what they are. I implore all of you to remove the veil from your eyes and take a good look at what is going on around you. At home, at work, in your daily activities. Ignorance is never an excuse. Just because you choose to live in the dark, does not make what is happening any less wrong. We can all make this world a better place for future generations if we simply take time to take responsibility. That is all.

Waves
We all go through different things in our lives with many feelings and emotions attached to each situation. We can deny ourselves of this or choose to embrace whatever comes up. Pain is one of these where some will cover it up escaping it any way they can so they don't have to look at what it really is. If we choose to allow it to work through us we can walk with it exploring and becoming friends. It can take us too many levels. Are we wanting this or do we want to stay stuck in our zones? Any thought is followed by an action then a feeling. There is always hope and a light that is out there when we have a glimmer to at least try and see it. When we look deep inside of ourselves in our soul many things happen and it takes us to a world that some may not even know is there. What is the difference between self pity and empathy? It is huge for instance feeling sorry for ourselves or someone doesn't get us anywhere. Empathy is about compassion and caring about someone which is like unco

Which Mummer Would You Want To Meet The Most?
So after hanging out with Broken Angel and Witty last weekend and then again with witty tonight, I was wondering who is the one person in the mumm world you would want to meet....but here's the deal...you can only pick one person. So be very careful who you pick. lol

Sex Slaves
Friend and I had an argument: I said that retards would make perfect sex slaves, since they don't know whats goin on, wouldn't tell, and alotta ppl would pay good bux to bang a cute tard girl (I saw one at a Botanical Garden, and was like "whoa, thats a waste of tits!" She said I'm fuckin sick.

Just A Lil Diddy....
I thought for once i would write about something im most passionate about: Friendship Now granted I dont have many but those i do have i cherish to the end of the earth.. granted i do worry if i have upset them in some way shape or form since i do have a way with running my mouth off from being blunt...but no matter what i do love them and hope that if i have offended they could come to me about it Stacie (known to some as Per on here) is one of my greatest friends... i have known her for 10 years... which is an aweful long time...me and her have been threw it all.. well just about...and i just want to take this time to say to her... I love you girl... you have no idea how much you have made my week while you was here... it reminded me so much of the good ol days from when i lived back there in wv.. us being silly and cackling and what not.. i havent laughed so hard in a long time... thank you for that :) i so cant wait to do it again... the more i stay on this site i am making mor

I Want You
Taste my PassionFeel my desireFeel my hearts lust filled fireFeel my LoveThis very nightTaste my PassionGaze into my eyesand see my paradiseTouch my heartEmbrace my soulFeel the hunger inside MeThe Hunger for LoveI sit here in the darknessSearching for your intimate lightI watch the candlesblowing in the windTaste my PassionFeel it as the clockstrikes midnightFor I live for the nightand lovemaking after midnightKiss meTouch meTaste my Passionat midnightTaste my PassiontonightAching and lustingfor a loverMy body hungersmy soul cravesI lick my lipshungering for a man to kissto touch, to embrace and caressto feel my sensuality, and taste mypassionate fireaching and lustingwith so much passion and desirefor a loverIts been an eternitysince I have sharedand embraced I'd just like to add...passions of the fleshDesires of the soulsince I have felt the pleasures of intimacy, and lovemakingHungering, Cravingaching and lustingFeed me with your passionEmbrace me with your desireAching and lusting

I Dont Care
My heart is breaking again but again why do i think you would understand outside i am happy, i am content, i am aware inside i am scared and i am alone, i am searching but this treason is at sea, is it me? for all the things i have come to love, find the evil inside andthis black heart withers and dies who am i fooling? just myself or everyone around? can YOU see it? the scares bear a story, which ripped me apart i pretend to be ok with this, but i am not all i want is live but as i have been told love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife in times when i wanted to end it all, you were there but where are you now? on the coat tail of another hoping and wishing things will work out, but you ignore me the one person who has given everything for i am a fool, to think you would love me like i love you i wish my life would leave me, suddenly... for it isnt worth it to love and to of lost is maddening.... to not know love is ignorance and as they say... ignor

What Can I Say?
Dear Blog it's been ages since my last confession, so here goes. I had a big fight with a Christian in Nottingham. To be fair he was carrying sweets in a basket and walking nicely in tan leather shoes and offering sweets to strangers in the town square. But when he gave me a leaflet that states "Come pray with us we are outside Debenhams and we can cure cancer and every illness including headaches" I snickered as it added headaches as an after thought. The man sat and smiled beatifically the offered me a sweetie. I said "No". "So if I go pray with you guys outside Debenhams I can stop my friend's cancer right here today?" I asked smiley man. "That's correct" he said. "Ok, you know that's a big pile of shit" I replied. We then debated God's role in curing cancer and his ability to dish out sweets. He tried to say that how will I know my friends cancer wont be cured unless I pray, I told him I have prayed and he still has cancer and my brother still has cancer and HIV and I

Fubucks, Credit, Etc.... Wtfu?
i know i`m not the first person to have this reaction & who knows, i might get excommunicated from fubar for this! "attempting to inspire revolution"! i just really get kinda irked by the fact that in order to "buy someone a drink" or some other gift i have to have, what? at least 150 fubucks at my disposal? i only got 3 fubucks to rate a pic, i don`t know what other actions get you, i haven`t taken time to find out first hand, but this means that in order to buy 1 person 1 beer i have to rate 50 pix... WTF is up with that?! yeah, i know, most members are fumillionaires several times over. BFD! i haven`t broken 6000 fubucks yet! how the fuck are they gettin` all that dinero?! i haven`t figured it out yet! when i did have 5000 some odd fubucks i went through it like fire through a toilet paper factory! then there`s the issue of credits. i`m here to goof off, get to know people, you know. why in the fuck would i intentionally spend a dollar of my hard-earned REAL money to buy non-

Finally Standing Up
I have not been here in a long time. I was working, Attending school, and hauling the kid to school and his job, plus taking care of the house. A lot of you will understand. But, I have a purpose here now. I lost my job - yet again - back in April. The company I worked for blocked my unemployment. They have lied about the whole situation and are using me as a scape goat. I am so tired of being kicked around and walked all over and having been put through it numerious time, at my age it is about time I stood up for myself. I just know I am going to win my appeal on the unemployment. But, I do not intend to stop there. I plan on taking them to small claims court for the late charges I was charged because they did not follow state law that says an employer has 7 days to get an employee who has been terminated their final paycheck. Mine was 20 days later. I also would like to recoop my late charges on bills because of them blocking my unemployment. When all of this is done, You will se

Coming Soon
SO MOBB DECIDED TO MAKE A STATION AND A LOUNGE AT THAT ! WE WILL BE LIVE 24/7 PLAYING RAP,HIPHOP,OLD SKOOL, RnB, DANCEHALL,CLASSIC ROCK AND WILL BE HAVING LATIN NIGHTS ( REGGAETON ) ! THERE ARE 4 LIVE CAMS ! THE LOUNGE WILL BE INVITE ONLY THAT MEANS YOU CAN ONLY BE INVITED ! NO BULLIES EXCEPT FOR PROMOTE ! PLEASE RSVP BY LEAVING A COMMENT ! WE ARE HIRING DEDICATED STAFF RIGHT NOW SO IF YOU WANNA WORK HERE YOU WILL HAVE TO PRIVATE MESSAGE ME OR THE OWNER ! WE ARE HOPING TO GET THIS OPENED BY AUGUST SO BE PATIENT ALL ! AND AGAIN MAKE SURE TO RSVP BY LEAVING COMMENT THANK YOU ! FROM THE OWNERS MoBB & STARLITE !

Rip Daddy
rip daddy i love you and miss you oh so much!!!! 6-8-09 The Dash Poem I read of a man who stood to speak, at the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on this tombstone from beginning ….to the end.He noted that first came his date of birth and spoke the following with tears. But he said what mattered most of all, was the dash in between those years.For the dash represents, all the time he spent alive on earth. And how only those who loved him know what that little line is worth.For it matters not, how much we own; the cars, the house, the cash, what matters most is how we live and love and how we spend our dash…So think about this long and hard. Are there things you’d like to change?For you never know how much time is left, that can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough, to consider what is true and real. And always try to understand, the way other people feel.And be less quick to anger, and show appreciation more, and love the

99 Condoms !!!!!
99 CONDOMS !!!!!A guy walks into a local pharmacy and walks up to the counter where a lady pharmacist is filling prescriptions. When she finally gets around to helping him he says, "I'd like 99 condoms please."With a surprised look on her face the pharmacist says, "99 Condoms!?! Fuck me!"To which the guy replies, "Make it 100." xoxoxobestmoviestar

My Ep Album
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Skeletor
Sooo... hubby and I just went to a local Russian restaurant- Zhivago. There was a woman there- and it was a creepiest sight I have ever seen. She had...no meat, nor muscles on her bones. Meaning...she most likely weighed about 40 lbs, at about 5'7 height. Her cheeks were nonexistent, and she could barely move by herself. Hubby went to the bathroom to take a closer look at her, and was like OMFG...ALl the ppl just covertly stared at her, cause it was a FREAKY ASS sight. She came up to one of the tables, and took a crumb and put it in her mouth. On our way out, we saw her sit in some fancy car in a driver's seat. There were 3 Russian dudes standing around ,lookin at the car cause it appeared that she somehow hit their car. I was like...how the FUCK does she even drive??

Is Not The Same
You are so many people that, please tell me, who I’m I speaking to? Don’t you see that you are not the same? You are the one who says: “stay with me, I promise to give you storm, give you a bad time…” I promise, (if you are listening baby) to give you art… Because is not the same to say: “Stay and we will see” than “Stay, and we will see’. Is not the same “to be” than “to be at”, is not the same “to be at” than “to stay”, No way! Neither “to stay” is the same as to “stop by”. Is different to be conformed or to fight, is not the same, is always different. Please open the door, give me some air because I will suffocate. Iis not about which side you want to be on, to be in one side or to be on the side… (You see), I don’t know how to say it, is not the same, it is different. To live is the most dangerous thing life has to offer

My Friends Saved My Sanity
Since my divorce,life has actually been better. I am now able to be back on fubar and other forums without the crazy wench over my shoulder. I am also able to be around my friends again. You see,I have friends of many different backgrounds and situations and that terrified my ex-wife. As did my writing erotica. I asked her why one night during a fight and she stated that it was too weird for her. Even if my friends liked her and she admired my writing,it was too weird? lol. So I let go of the annoying pain she left me in and began doing as I had always done,made the best of my life. I haven't gone on any dates yet but I have met some cool women. I guess it was my ex's insecurity playing in our demise. The fact that I had friends and I needed "me" time. As I stated earlier,I have many kinds of friends,male,female,Asian,Black,Hispanic,White. As well as gay,straight,bi and yes,Transgendered. My ex hated this but I never cared,they are my friends and I love them all. I come from a fam

Breath
His touch makes me shiver His touch makes me ache His fingertips gently brush my skin Making me anticipate where he will touch next Everytime he touches me I feel love and makes me want him even more than I already did When his lips touch and kiss my neck I almost loose control His fingertips running softly down my spine His breathe on my stomach The feeling I have when u runs his fingers through my hair Our bodies intertwined as we kiss uncontrolably Making love for hours on end Then I realize I wish reality was just like my dreams

Fakes, Cons And Why People Are Numbers...
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The Unofficial But Official Demon And Angel Blog
This is the place to post your rants, ideas, feedback and questions about the new levels. Eric and I will do our best to answer yoru questions as quickly as possible.

Dumb People, Cons, Fakes And Why Some People Are Numbers...
..well well well, it most certainly has been a long time since I’ve done anything like this, that’s for sure…. …I guess that’s what a lot of you come here for , or came here for, or send fake drone accounts in here to view (why I dunno) or told your friends about over the course of time, or whatever. Or agree, or disagree or whatever the case may be…. …there’s a lot goin on here these days, tons of new levels which actually force people to interact with each other, wow the novelty! That’s definitely a step in the right direction, some may disagree, but that’s usual around these parts. Half the time I’m lucky I remember what level I am at all, points were just, really never my thing on here….After all, a 350,000,000 fubuck spotlight does lend toward the extreme end of the circle now doesn’t it?….but like always this place ebbs and flows and like a good filter, the trash usually finds a way to slip through the crac