DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

i've been productive doing so.

sure ive had almost countless seizures last month and the beginning of this one already but thats just stress and poor eating habits and um...epilepsy too.

some dont think the last one exists...only when the seizure is seen not heard haha.

i thought a girl and i fell for each other on fubar.

then the line was severed...zzzzip!

its so easy to just stop talking to someone online that you dont have to worry about it i guess.

but i worry no matter where im at haha.

when it comes to a connection with someone...even on an internet connection...it still counts to me.

because it doesnt just go on with "fu-love" and dipshit bling to make the girl impressed.

if using this god forsaken thing to actually meet someone and progress beyond emails and phone calls...then thats great.

but when it only goes as far as those 2 things...its a stalemate.

at least to me.

you cant just pass the person on the street and ask them whats going on...

its gotta be written or called by phone for.

when that doesnt work.

it doesnt work.

sucks...seriously for me it does.

thats why im writing it...ive been singing for the band about it a bit.

i mean it got to me in a real sense and not just a "wtf mate?" text.

maybe im just nuts.

and thats good for my art and music progression but it also leaves that hole in me still there.

almost like i have to be alone to stay an artist.

maybe thats why so many were drugged up crazy or killed themselves from not being able to fill that void that no matter how many songs written and sang.

or paintings made and sold.

true emotion and passion towards and from another person cant be "made up".