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Thursday, April 10, 2008  UNSURE unsure   I am unsure of who I am anymore.  I feel lost and confussed.  I am not sure if I am even capable of being loved anymore. I've been hurt and my heart destroyed so many times, i dont know if the man I decide to love can ever pice it back together, into its beutiful shape so that it can truley be loved or maybe I am afraid that he will be able to pice it back together and then stomp on it and shatter it again.  But what is worse,  To love again and have the possibility of betrail or to never be loved again by someone at all?   To have still blood and a cold heart or to take a risk?  I am so lost and confussed... unsure of who is real and who is fake.  Scared of the pain, how do you know who to trust your most valued possesion with?  Who will treasure it and who will break it into?  I've trusted, I've listened to my heart... and had it ripped out. Now, my mind, Ive tryed to use instead and it hurts even more. I dont want to lose
Angel On My Screen
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL ON MY SCREEN ANGEL ON MY SCREEN Current mood: happy Category: Writing and Poetry   I met an angel on my screen So friendly, kind and sweet... he makes me feel so special I long for when we’ll meet... We’ve talked for hours here online And many on the phone... he’s brought such joy into my life When once I was alone. The love I feel within my heart Was but a dream to me... A dream that once was out of reach Has become reality... Ever present in my thoughts Always in my heart... Forever shall I love him And never shall we part. I met an angel on my screen So full of life and love... An angel that was sent to me From Heaven up above... Always with a kind word His laughter fills the air... His love is neverending A love that’s always there. So if you ever meet someone My wish for you is this... I wish you all the love I’ve found For it’s the sweetest gift... The feeling that you are so loved No
A Chance Of Meeting
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ~A CHANCE OF MEETING~ A CHANCE OF MEETING Current mood: creative A Chance Of Meeting...On my screen you cameout of the blue,Awakening my heart from painto feelings before I never knewWe are both scaredof the road fate has shownTwo souls pairedto a destiny still unknownShould we choose to meetand tempt these hands of fateIt would take two, for the odds to be beatTo lead us to eternity and heavens gateShould we choose to notwould our minds constantly wonder,Was that the one I always soughtOn that do we dare to ponder?For you have touched me deepI long to hold you for all timeTo be mine, forever to keepFor us to share a lifetimeI want your passionate kissto take my breath awayNever want to miss your touchwhile in each others arms we laySo now the decision is ours to makeI’ll treasure you whatever may beMy heart is here for you to takeLoyalty I’ll vow should you give yours to me
I Cant Be With You Today
Thursday, April 10, 2008  I CANT BE WITH YOU TODAY... I CANT BE WITH YOU TODAY   I can't be with you today but if you close your eyes and think; I'll be beside you in the kitchen wearing your shirt - standing by the sink. I'll be with you in the bedroom waiting quietly on your bed; Just close your eyes and think of me, relive those memories in your head. I'll stand by you in the bathroom, an unlikely place to meet; I'll smile at you so playfully as I let you brush my teeth. I'll be your light in the darkness, shining steady through and through; You only have to watch it glow to know I think of you. I'll be the music that you listen to, I'll be there in every song: I'll laugh with you and sing with you, and comfort you when your day's gone wrong. I'll be the wind that ruffles your hair, I'll be that warm embrace; I'll be the hand on your shoulder, I'll be the tender touch on your face. I'll be the clock gently ticking, reminding you of the tim
I Will Always
  Thursday, April 10, 2008  I WILL ALWAYS........ I WILL ALWAYS.... Category: Writing and Poetry    I will always be hereI could NEVER turn awayI know you’d do the same for meFor us, it’s just that way.Between us is a bondLike no other I have knownThe moral ethics that we shareMentally, are written in stone.This is starting to sound sappyAnd that’s just something we don’t doSo just remember this my friend...As it always has been, and still is now...I will always be here for youNo matter whatNo matter when No matter how.
Wishing Stars
Thursday, April 10, 2008  WISHING STARS WISHING STARS Category: Writing and Poetry          I’m looking at this star tonight, Wishing wishes would come true. I wonder while I stand and look, If you see the same star, too. Tonight although there’s miles between us, Perhaps our souls can meet. At the point this star begins, Our two hearts can find their beat. Do you feel the need for someone, To fulfill your empty life. I’m wishing for the same thing, As I watch this star tonight. This gentle breeze I’m feeling, That soothes my heart of sorrow. I’m wondering will it find you, And soothe your heart tomorrow. A hopeless born romantic, Ever searching for true love. Wishing wishes in the darkness, To this star that hangs above.
One Tear Drop
ONE TEAR DROP     Category: Writing and Poetry         It follows in her shadow, won’t ever let her be... stares into her soul until she can hardly breathe.. It’s a never ending race inside, with nothing there to win... can’t run, her will grows tired all because of him. As the days drag on by, she commits an inner suicide... smiles on the outside but what’s inside, she cannot hide.. One tiny teardrop, (but there is so much more in pain)... because of him she will never be the same.
Reality Check
Thursday, April 10, 2008  REALITY CHECK REALITY CHECK Current mood: annoyed Category: Writing and Poetry   Thrusting in and out of conciseness, Lost in a daze. My memories blurry..... My life a haze. Living in the past, thinking about the old days.   Wishing and wanting, my past is with me like a ghost forever haunting. Stripped of reality and losing my own mortality.... I struggle.   My heart is broken, yet I smile, laugh, and keep on joken. An act..... so I’ll be, what others expect of me....  my pain I will not let them see.   I feel hurt and betrayed, what happened to the life that I once made?   I feel incomplete, not good enough........... I yearn so badly for true love.
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL ANGEL Current mood: content Category: Writing and Poetry Maddening, swirling, tumultuous thoughts give my heart no peaceMuscles tensing, heart’s wrenching, longing for releaseWalled off from emotions, numbed to dreams of blissFrantically grasping for a hold, sliding further into the abyssAll color drains from my world, subtle shades of gray permeateBroken shards cast illusions, hope falsely propagatesA former warrior, battle tested, I frantically disguise my fearsResolve dissolves, nervousness abounds as my refuge disappearsAs autumn’s cycle nears an end, the ice begins to advanceStealthily attacking, patiently awaiting for a perfect chanceA frozen heart, desolate and bare, obscures all that would try to seeThe warmth reflected, gives off no heat, illusions mask realityOn hands and knees, mumbling pleas, I search for sanctuaryTo glimpse beyond this desolation, to a world of possibilityEyes closed, perceptions peeked
Could I Be?
Thursday, April 10, 2008  COULD I BE YOUR ANGEL? COULD I BE YOUR ANGEL? Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry The lover sleeps and amid his dreams His angel comes on sunlit beams. To waken him with kisses sweet, For her love for him is oh so deep. She wakes him with her caresses light Upon his skin and smiles so bright. And in her eyes, he sees the love She feels for him neath stars above. He comes to her to gently place, Kisses upon her neck and face. To caress her body and touch her soul. For together two become a whole. The love they make is deep and true And in this embrace their love renew. When all is done and all’s been said, Upon her breasts he rests his head. And hears her heart beat for him alone. A greater love, he’s never known
Can I?
    Thursday, April 10, 2008  CAN I? Current mood: content Category: Romance and Relationships   Lives are for living I live for youDreams are for dreaming I dream for youHearts are for beating mine beats for youAngels are for keeping. Can I keep you?
Solitary Confinement
Thursday, April 10, 2008  SOLITARY CONFINEMENT SOLITARY CONFINEMENT   Solitary Confinement Category: Writing and Poetry   Solitary Confinement You laughed at my weaknesses- so I feared to show them.You trampled on my dreams- so I dreamed alone.You were too busy to listen- so I never spoke.You handled my secrets indiscreetly- so I ceased to share them.You were insensitive to my needs- so I hid them from you.You never seemed to understand- so I stopped trying to communicate.You hurt me by your indifference- so I bled inwardly.You wouldn’t let me near you- so I kept my distance.You cared for my physical needs - so my soul became impoverished.You drove me into myself- so now I am imprisoned.
Eveything Goes On....
Thursday, April 10, 2008  EVERYTHING GOES ON WITHOUT YOU EVERYTHING GOES ON WITHOUT YOU everything goes on without you   Without you, the ground thaws, the rain falls, the grass growsWithout you, the seeds root, the flowers bloom, the children playThe stars gleam, the poets dream, the eagles fly, without youThe earth turns, the sun burns, but I die, without youWithout you, the stars roar, the breeze warms, the girl smiles, the cloud movesWithout you, the tides change, the boys run, the oceans crashThe crowds roar, the days soar, the babies cry, without youThe moon glows, the river flows, but I die, without youThe world revives, colors renew, but I know blueOnly blue, lonely blue, within me blue, without youWithout you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beatsWithout you, the eyes gaze, the legs walk, the lungs breatheThe mind churns, the heart yearns, the tears dry, without youLife goes on, but I’m goneCause I die, without you
Angel Tear Drops
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL TEAR DROPS ANGEL TEAR DROPS Angel Tear Drops Category: Writing and Poetry   Love this poem~~ My guardian angel, once careless and free,flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.Her smile had left us without a trace.Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.I knew that angels, often content,were very special presents that God had sent.To see one so sad,so afraid,so alone,had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.Her wings lost feathers,comforting and soft,falling from the stars,floating aloft.Her pain was felt throughout the land,to feel true misery is impossible to stand.I prayed so that when her hurting stops,I’ll be able to taste the angel’s teardrops.
My Dear Friend
Thursday, April 10, 2008  A POEM FOR MY DEAR FRIEND A POEM FOR MY DEAR FRIEND A poem for my dear friend Current mood: content Category: Writing and Poetry The day I met you I found a friend - And a friendship that I pray will never end. Your smile - so sweet And so bright - Kept me going When day was as dark as night. You never ever judged me, You understood my sorrow. Then you told me it needn’t be that way And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow. You were always there for me, I knew I could count on you. You gave me advice and encouragement Whenever I didn’t know what to do. You helped me learn to love myself You made life seem so good. You said I can do anything I put my mind to And suddenly I knew I could. There were times when we didn’t see eye to eye And there were days when both of us cried. But even so we made it through: Our friendship hasn’t yet died. Circumstances have pulled us apart, We are separated by many miles. Truly
Thursday, April 10, 2008  DREAMS DREAMS Category: Writing and Poetry   awake in bed, i remembera dream i had, clearlya moment i’d cherish foreverin my heart i’d like to keep dearly and as seconds pass, i can feelthat dreams, fleeting away they goand my heart turns into a barren fieldagain with frozen snow awake in bed, i liefeeling like a bird with broken wingswishing it’d rather die’cause every move it makes, it stings then i remember anothera dream, with me that always stayeda present from my heavenly fathera new set of wings for me he had made
Never Have I Fallen
Thursday, April 10, 2008  NEVER HAVE I FALLEN NEVER HAVE I FALLEN Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry   Never Have I FallenYour lips speak soft sweetnessYour touch a cool caressI am lost in your magicMy heart beats within your chestI think of you each morningAnd dream of you each nightI think of your arms being around meAnd cannot express my delightNever have I fallenBut I am quickly on my wayYou hold a heart in your handsThat has never before this easily been given away
First Thing
FIRST THING Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry You’re the first thing I think of Each morning when I rise. You’re the last thing I think of Each night when I close my eyes. You’re in each thought I have And every breath I take. My feelings are growing stronger With every move I make. I want to prove I love you But that’s the hardest part. So, I’m giving all I have to give To you... I give my heart
Simple Joys
  I made my little girl laugh the other night. I was in a space and place of simple joys and it manifested in a chicken dance down the hallway and a rousing rendition of my own lyrical gangsta song: I AM THINKING THAT YOU ARE STINKING BUT I THINK I STINK TOO!!! followed up with: ALRIGHT! OKAY! ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT  ALRIGHT ALRIGHT OKAY! and back to flipping grilled cheese sandwiches I went. It surely is better than the sometimes ceaseless weeping I do while I demand for my grandson to be returned to me, and then outline the detailed plot that took him from me - beginning with the day he was born and the nurses inspired fear by saying they could not find the third vein in his umbilical cord.  Of course I gather my thoughts together eventually and realize that I am in denial. I have a huge imagination. And all sorts of pejoritive words could be leveled at me, while I blinked in hurt confusion because I always have good intentions. I thought it was really nice of the hos
Angel Who Walks Upon The Ground
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL WHO WALKS UPON THE GROUND... ANGEL WHO WALKS UPON THE GROUND Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry   The moment I opened my heart and let you in I saw this great love starting to begin. I opened my eyes to a vision of you I hope, I pray your feelings are true. I have loved and I have paid the cost And I have felt the pain of the love I lost. But, now, I think I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground. You go beyond all limits for me Just to show your love endlessly. I could search my whole life through And never find another ’you’. You are so special that I wanted you to know I truly, completely love you so.
Alyssa And Katelyn
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ALYSSA AND KATELYN ALYSSA AND KATELYN Current mood: cheerful When I imaginethe life you will live,I think of the pleasureyour presence will give.I see the joy your smile will lightand the wonders you’ll weavewhen your dreams take flight.I feel the hopethat will grow with your graceand the difference you’ll maketo each heart you embrace.I imagine your lifeas I know it will be;for, my daughters, you’ve givenall this to me.
Growing Up
Thursday, April 10, 2008  GROWING UP GROWING UP Current mood: cheerful   Life is fleeting, years rush past.... and little girls grow up so fast! Let me take time out to be glad that mine’s still here with me. And though I’m busy through the day, let me take time out to play... Let me take time out to smile, to linger with her for a while... To invite her under the table for tea and dress up silly as can be. Let me take time out to sing and dance and skip and twirl and swing... To splash in puddles when it rains and make her fancy daisy chains. Let me take time out to hear about the things that she holds dear. Let me tuck her in at night, hear her prayers, turn off the light. And for one more moment let me pray and thank God that we shared this day!
Current mood: content Category: Writing and Poetry   All alone, I wait by the phone. Hopeing you’ll call, why do I have the feeling I am about to fall? Wondering where your at... Wondering who your with... I am beging to wonder if true love is just a myth. I thought I had found  Mr. Right, but I am sitting here alone again tonight. I don’t want to yell, I don’t want to fight... I just want you to wake up and see the light. I really do love you and my love is unconditional and true. I don’t want no one else, my heart is only with you. Please, don’t hurt me... Please, don’t ever leave... My heart can’t take being decieved.                                       1999’
Thursday, April 10, 2008  WARNING WARNING Current mood: crushed Category: Writing and Poetry      True love does not exist.   It is a fantasy that lives in the heart’s of people who hope and belive. ( I know- I was one of those people.)  They are disillusioned by the thought of such happiness, that their heart is overwhelmed, causeing them to be blind to the truth.  Love is not real,  it is fake.  Fake words, fake emotions, in order to get what one wants... then they are through with you.  The pain is enough to distroy one’s soul and send them into such a life of pain and misery, it would be worse than what hell would be like.  A eternity of tourment.  There is no truth only a world of lies.  There is no true love, only diseption in order to get into one’s mind and soul, so they can control you and your emotions.  Then once they have played with your heart, they steal it and then there gone. You are left with a broken heart and they simpley
I dred this so much, I already long for your touch.  The warmth of your skin melts my heart and your presence makes me feel alive.  Without you I do not feel whole, you are apart of my soul.  Where did we go wrong?  I have wanted someone like you for so long.  I feel like I cant breath, I do not want you to leave.  I dont know how to make things right, all we do is fight.   I thought it was love at first sight... now I am not sure how  you feel, all I know is the love I have for you is real.  Please, dont let our love end, I need you.  You are not only my love, but you are also my friend.  Sense I have been with you, I’ve felt my heart start to mend. I’ll ask you once more, please dont let our love end. 6/26/2002
Current mood: content Category: Dreams and the Supernatural   I’m running down an endless Road. I can never get to the end. Shh.... Somethings following me. Running faster, I feel my heart beat throbbing in  my chest. I look back and.... My face hits the hard concreat. I feel it’s breath lingering over me. I look around for somewhere to run, somewhere to turn.  I see an old church... I run inside, it’s dark. _No one in sight._ I hear it behind me again... I fall to my knees with eyes shut and scream, for only God can help me! I open my eyes... It’s gone. I lay on the floor and weap, till I fall asleep. Then I awoke in the morning light, with God now by my side. (Nothing to fear.)
A Drem I Had....
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural   I sit on this huge carnival ride as wind wisp’s around me, some gentle, some harsh... like diffrent voices speaking to me.  I can hear thier whispers as the wind swirls around my body.  The sky turns to darkness around me as I’m lifted into the air, I can no longer see the Earth.  I look around and see Im not alone... my mom, family, friends and people of all nations are on this ride with me.  Then the winds start to blow again as the ride starts to turn. Turning faster and faster as the wind starts to make a low rumbling sound.  The harsh wind was smacking us in the face, taking our breath away.  The wind made a sound as if it were a voice speaking to us in an unfamilar language.... Yet we understood every word. It wanted us, It wanted our soul, it wanted us to give in.  It was like demons trying to climb up to me and my family... screaming our names. People were falling off the ride left and right, down into the black bottomless p
I Still Remember
I still remember the worldFrom the eyes of a childSlowly those feelingsWere clouded by what I know nowWhere has my heart goneAn uneven trade for the real worldOh I... I want to go back toBelieving in everything Yet knowing nothing at allI still remember the sunAlways warm on my backSomehow it seems colder now
Check This Out Its Awesome   Please take the time to check this out its well worth it.
Current mood: anxious   Waiting     Wanting,lusting,to be held,to be loved,to feel warmth,to feel your beating heart. Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,heartless winds.Falling into invisible arms;into an abyss of love. Wishing,hoping,that my desires will be filled;my desires of loving warmth. Wanting to be held,comforted,loved. Dreaming of passionate embraces,of tender kisses,loving words,romantic nights. Waiting for undying love.
[your Session Has Expired(?)]
Well my eyes hurt, and my damn keyboard's stallingand I've got numbass/compacted spine I'm rubbin all the crhome off my slinky when I'm homeand my dog's still pretty OCD about this whole heat thing, and she's a crampy bitchy mess.But hey, I get an hour lunch, and I just worked 8 hours in a place I didn't mind so much.I mean yeah, primarily I deny people health insurance in a faceless beaurocratic hell of paperwork that's only 2% of the time filled out properly by people that actually deserve/need the programbut hey... at least I've got a job for 6 months (wait for me to post a blog in 3 days saying 86 the 6 months try a week)so I'm already daydreaming about my first paycheck, its gonna pay back the old man. Then PSP. Then shoes. ... and models whenever the hell I canand fuckin mousetraps.Not enough have died in recent history they're getting ballsy and loud again.I wonder if there's a mouser out there I'm not allergic to that my dog won't eat... like a badger... with spikes and lazers.
Answer This..
How can something that's not there hurt so bad?
The Worst Thing
The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.
I need someone to be there for me, I need someone to talk to me, I need someone to spend time with me. Instead, I'm getting more depressed, I only really have myself.
What could have been Current mood: contemplative Category: Writing and Poetry   When I lay myself down to sleep, I pray to the Lord my soul he’ll keep and when I am done praying for you.... I can’t shut my eyes, I just lay and weep.   I can’t shut my eyes because when I do, all I can see is an image of you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   My heart aches for something true.  The only question I have is why couldn’t it have been you? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Life hurts and loves not fair, There could have been so much for us to share, but now you have gone to someone else and forgotten me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I guess it’s true that love is blind...  I loved and you are blind.  That’s why you have her and I was forgotten and left behind. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Love isn’t enough, when lust steps in, and that’s where all the pain begins. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It hurts so much to love you the way I do, and look at you and realize how much you don't care.
I Wrote This Poem When I Was 16
 - I am an ordinary girl who like to write poetry.- I wonder how the world will be when I have children. I hear gun’s and bomb’s exploding and people yelling at eachother.       I see the night sky light up with fire. I want so badly to stop the hate and anger in the world. - I am an ordinary girl who likes to write poetry.-   I pretend that the world is full of love for one another of every race.     I feel the harsh reality of life. I touch a crying child hurt by prejudice, promising him everything will be okay. I worry that I can’t keep my promise. I cry because I know he will continue to face anger toward him all his life and he is just an innocent child. -I am an ordinary girl who likes to write poetry.-   I understand that this world is never going to change, unless the people of this world are willing to change. I say we are all equal no matter what race or religion we are. I dream that one day the world will except one another for who they are
My World
My world is not happy, my happy place has locked me out, and all I want to do, is get away. Running and screaming and crying, as the tears from the sky drench me, with the reality of my decision. And the knowing, that things with never be the same.
I've Come To Realize
That nothing in my life will be exactly the way i want it. That no matter how hard you try you will never be able to change how people are. Some things in life will always disappoint you. When you accomplish things in life only real friends will be  there to support you. Unwanted pregnancies are just a shame. The harder you try the less chance there is for survival. Some people will never take you seriously. Money is the root of all evil. There is not enough faith and trust in this world. Life is only as good  as you make it. Care only for the people who care about you.. the rest of them should just shove off. Jealousy only causes problems. Who ever said men and women cant be just friends?? Hope for the best but prepare for the worst. If you believe in any of this... Please comment.
Thursday, April 10, 2008  REMEMBERANCE Category: Writing and Poetry Rememberance.......... She remembers it all,All the people who had saidThey cared, but did they really?She remembers it all,The sound of laughter andHow happy she’d been, but was she really?She remembers it all,His arms around her andHe said "I love you, but did he really?She remembers it all,The pain she’d felt when he left,How her heart ached, but was it really?She remembers it all,The feeling of being so alone,The feeling no one cared, but did they really?But now they’ll remember her,Staring at the knife in her handHow easy to slit her wrists, but will she really?
So I am just sitting here watching Tv wishing o how he would ask whats wrong with me why so quiet why not a look towards his way something. I recieve still not a word only wish i could make him see o how dearly i love him for who he is inside maybe its  how he makes me feel o so sweet n comfortable with those strong arms and o so fearless of hurting me which he could never not physically at least! I love him i do i wish he could sleep next to me keep me safe and love me as much as he does my children even though they are to another! I pray he sleeps beside me lushes for me gets excited when he sees me and o dearly how i wish my sacrfices he would see and actually appreciates! Justin I love you and love you strength o so close to be i love uuuuuuuuuuuu JMS! 
To The People Who Dont Give A F*ck!
Is There Such Thing As True Love?
All I want is someone to love me and to love them back is that to much to ask for, but to find the right one it almost seems imposible try to give your heart to someone and it seems like you always get hurt or someone messes w/your emotions...I am about ready to give up!!!!  Hmmm what to say anymore I dont know I am tired of being confused all the time ugh what to do in my life and where it is going from here anyways I am venting again like usual!!! Gotta go love to all my friends just tired of it all!!!!!!!!!!!
nothing on my mind but sex lol
Another Poem..
Confusion of where to stand After infidelity, I still held tightly to your hand. Forgave, tried to forget Involuntarily you eventually would admit Of all the manipulation and apparent lies spoken Already knew, hoped you would realize what you had broken Changed your dishonest lustful selfish way Still afraid, still broken to my dismay Rendered a fool To knowingly stay with someone so cruel My heart no matter reaches out for you Hoping your repentance was true After several months of lies and manipulation becomes hard for me to see If you strongly care for me Easily tempted, you say it's hard to do what is right Knowing now you're unsure makes it difficult for me to love without spite Afraid that you cant be strong Afraid that over time you will do me wrong I need you to show and let me know everyday That you care for me in the same unconditional way.
I had to think. If this stranger is Federal whatever he was very sloppy and a month later I nailed the so called Feds. GreenLight tells someone wants me to proceed. I'm a member of something and they are happy and The Holy Roman Catholic Church is gloating. IN TMO there is a secret brotherhood and they are very happy since I'm waking up. Do you really think this world is going to continue as it is? C'mon you die here only to be born in a different world to die there and be born here. It is the wheel of life and continues for ever unless I and others say no. Norio  
Heart Break
Heartbreaker   What is this feeling? That’s reeling in my heart Stirring chaotically in my mind Gentle kisses and tender caresses Flash briefly in my head Of the one night we laid in your board broken bed This cant be love It must be lust Our relationship quickly evaporated into dust I feel abused Yet happily mistreated You told me I wasn’t being used But you seem to have fleeted
Doobie Brothers
What a night Saturday Night. Dobbie Brothers in town @ the rock in the park it was so freaking awesome. My gf and me had an awesome time it was her fist concert going backstage after a concert to meet the band members. I took some pics and hope to have up on sight asap. Other things happening in my world, I am heading to new orleans LA to help rebuild lower 9th ward after Katrina hit it did alot of damage so i will be blogging from NO LA while i am there and put up pics of my weeks stay as they happen.   TATA 4 now Mr.Wes 
I'm the one you call Jigsaw yes i'm a puzzle can you figure me out?
Wanna Take Care Of You....
No Day is over if it leaves a memory!
I'm Melting
let me take away your pain... let me love you, let it never be the same. Today let us start, I look past your tears I offer unconditional love Today I removes all your fears. It is so much i ask looking forward away from the past happiness forever to last. I'd write you a 100 poems full of joy and love Yes I must believe Your my angel from above.
Broken Dreams
All I gave you were nothing but good dreams and all you gave me were nightmares!  
Real Life Experience.
Failure and eperience is what makes you a better person
Well since I have had a terrible case of the Mondays today, it is great to see the Yankees still playing the best baseball they have played in about a decade!  11-3 in the top of the 9th...  10 out of 11 isn't too shabby...   let's keep this tear going!!   goodnight to all and always.... GO YANKS!!
About The Trick Mfkn *bubzy*
Back Online!!
Hey I'm back online. Been really busy plus I moved. I'm on live every Monday on from Brooklyn New York featuring new Artists and favorites. and produce a Saturday show for 4AM Eastern, Saturdays on in Los Angeles, California, featuring Dj Mixes from around the world. Continuosly building my website and getting exposure for the Artists I Promote and Book and in between, doing Urban Environmentalism in my city doing my share to protect your Air, Water, Soil while adding Job and Social components for the communities to strengthen from the inside out. I handle Marketing and New Media so I will let you know whats going on doing what I do best, being with you all in Cyberland. Don' forget I have dates to Dj for you and I have dates open for my Artists to work with you. Visit the Talent Roster page and the Booking Form on the site. lol I was in a commercial with them also airing on NBC WWLP 22 and I put it on my site www.Drag
Bowling And Buying.
I just got back from bowling. I have to say, other than my first game, I'm proud of myself. I got a 123, 189, and 168. I did have probably the best laugh I've had in years too. Some guy was there and I swear he was more of a woman, with his hair and fanny packS than I am. Well, I don't have a fanny pack, but yeah. He was so into himself, lol. I can't explain it, you would have had to have seen it. Every few seconds he was flipping his hair back and the man had 2, yes 2, fanny packs on. I guess he was too much man for 1.   On Facebook I'm buying Zak Bagans. I keep fighting this one guy, his name is Adam. Every time I buy him back he changes the status, lol. The first time it said "Quit buying him, he's mine". This time it is "I'll fight for him as long as I have to!". Now, am I the only one that thinks its weird? I dunno. Maybe it's not, lol. Zak is rather sexy.....
Life, Is Love,or Just;life
My Favorite Video... Lets See If It Works
Snake River Conspiracy - Vulcan
Leveling Blog #488
$safe_uid_dname@ fubar 232,000 to Oracle:)Autos on
Close Minded Foo's Need Not Read
EUREKA! Finally a place to rant and rave like a silly maniacal bag lady on crack!!! I think it would be nice if people would start taking responsibility for their own actions! I mean come on, we are all adults here...or we should be...I think silly two cent words like "I can't" should be permantly abolished from our vocubulary...if you think about it...we have plenty of other two cent words to throw around....Maybe if that happens, doors would start opening....oh who knows? Not very much good comes from a shut down mind....other than bruised hearts....*sighs* just a thought....don't really expect anyone to read this...let alone care what i'm ranting about....but ohhh it clears the air....the clutter in my head has quieted and think!!!
Second Part
His hands were touching me everywhere that just made me melt everytime.  I wanted nothing more than to feel him throbbing deep inside me.  My body was beffing for him to grab me and take complete control over my body, so that I can have complete satisfaction.  I wanted so badly to tease and pleasure him just as much as he was doing it to me.  He let go of my hai and his had slid down to my inner thigh again.  He was playing with my pussy, I slid my hand down his chest and further down his throbbing member.  It was more than what I expected.  I wanted more of him.  I decided to do the one thing that I knew would drive him crazy.  As I crept under the sheets, I could feel him fighting me because he knew that I would keep plaing with him and teasing him til I got to taste him.  As I continued to feel him pulsate harder and harder inside my mouth, I kew that he was becoming closer to full reliefand I was closer to tasting him.  He grabbed me by my shoulders and pulled mon top of him.  I co
What Is Your Biggest Regret
Well if you want a serious answer... I suppose, I would have to say, not saying, I love you to my dad, before he left for Iraq.. We were fighting.. Stupid stuff.. I was a younger teen, and well.. that is just how things went.. Boys, make up, something, really stupid.. Not being able to take a course I wanted in "specials"... I was angry at him when he left... Funny enough.. I was "daddys little girl".. we never fought..but, we were... My step dad is great but, he has a HUGE family, tons of sons, no daughters..but, me.. I miss my dad... I wish I could somehow just go back and tell him.. I guess that is my one and only regret... I'm not tagging anyone... if you want to read this, please do... and if you want to post one, go ahead.. Sorry, I tend to be very honest.... :(   (added: I know my aunt misses my dad too... they were very close.. HE raised her....  so, I know how she feels....)
   Up until about a year and a half ago, I lived my life a lil bit shady. Not intentionally, but because I never wanted to let anybody down. So I wore a mask, told people what they wanted to hear, let them see what they wanted to see. I lost alot living that way, so, I came to the conclusion, I am who I am, love me or keep it fuckin' pushin'!!! The funny thing is that now, the same people who wanted that change, that prayed for that change, seem to like me more the other way!!! Well, I guess you win some and you lose some. But for those of you who don't like it, I've come too far to let you change me back, if I have to walk this road alone and leave some of you behind, just remember, I owe you all who I am today, but I owe myself and my kids more!!!
This It Is, Fubar
* .: "..·•Ultra* .: "..·•Well here it is, almost three years on this site, for better or worse, and it doesn't get any more prominent than this. Think of this as my tell all" diary about my experiences and what goes on in my head. In '06 it started off as Cherrytap' and Lost Cherry' before that, when the BabyJesus known as Mike Hedlund, originated 'Fubar' It was a site for being social, and popping your social cherry' Well, after having been through my Myspaces, and Lavalife's just to try to met woman on the internet, and even after my father told me "It's not a good way to meet people" I still did it.I did actually meet 3 people from the internet since 2004 Liz in Miami, ristin in Jupiter and Christine 'Druggie' Alabasa in WPBeach. All lasted a day each. You see, I was never a relationship type of man. Some guys just have it or care nothing more about it. I have had the dream since I was a little boy as an only child to 'be independant'. And it actually came true. I work a d
Vote For Woo's Boobs!!
Go vote on Woo's mumm now!!   http:/ Woo™ said:if we get this to 1000 votes i will load my breasts on here in an open for everyone folder..   Do it now!!!!!!!!!!!        
I'm done... *wanting what i can't and won't ever have*letting myself be walked on*being unhappy with my appearance*putting more effort into friendships than i get in return*longing to be someone's world*putting on a smile all the time, even when i don't want to*waiting for prince charming*with two faced people*with unloyal people*being a pushover*allowing myself to be in last place*allowing myself to be treated poorly*backing downI don't want to be Broken more. I am going to fix myself. Get happy with myself.  By myself.  Only I can do it.  And I need to, for my own sake.And right now, I honestly don't give a shit who I step on along the way, because I'm tired of being stepped on myself and I won't allow it anymore. I'm going to get my confidence back, I'm going to improve my self image.  I'm going to improve my life.You're welcome to come along with me, or fuck off.  Your choice.All I can do now is worry about me and focus on me, which is what I should have bee doing all along. A
I entered the office and walked to the receptionist. "Mr. Drake to see Ms. Taylor." The woman checked her book, nodded and told me to have a seat. The office was neat, efficient and quiet. I noticed that each time the door to Ms. Taylor's office opened she was either on the phone or giving orders to one of the secretaries that went in and out like worker ants in a colony. They were the ants and she was the queen. After waiting about 10 minutes, I was escorted into her office. I looked around, not a pencil out of place. She nodded to the chair in front of her desk and told the secretary to bring me coffee. When the secretary had brought me a cup, she told her no interruptions for the next 15 minutes. I sat sipping my coffee. She looked at me and I got the distinct impression I was being examined like a piece of livestock. "Well Mr. Drake, that is what I call you isn't it?" "Just Drake is fine.""Well Drake. I contacted you because of your name and your profile. I don't need a relationshi
Not Giving A Shit. Step One: 'fuck Da Po-lice!
So here is yet another goddamn profile site I have to fucking keep track of just so I can see how much the internet loves me? FUCK! Shadow, why did you do this to me? I can't stand this shit, myspace is annoying enough as it is. Yet now everyone has a goddamn zwitter, or a zanga, or a geocities, or a myspace page..... And now here is fucking Fubar! Fucked Up Beyond Affordable Repair! I couldn't care less now, I hope they delete this shit because I'm not throwing forth the effort to do it myself. "But Craig, here you can give gifts and gain..." WHAT THE FUCK ABOUT I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCKING RAT SEMAN BASTARD CHILD FROM THE SHIT RIDDLED BOWELS OF SATAN HIMSELF DIDN'T YOU GET?! I'm out, anyone who really gives a fuck about finding me just skower MySpace for an asshole named Blind Kenshi. Now go ahead and make your 'Jesus must have skull raped you as a toddler, didn't he?' comments or forever hold your beer.
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Dj Whobe
Twitter My Twat I don't get it. I mean, I GET it but seriously? Do you think people honestly care what you're doing every 10 minutes? So, if you participate on, what does that make you? A Twatter.       Sincerely, the chick bored out of her mind and waiting for her food to arrive, and can't think of anything else to blog about - ReL  
Cool Job Hunting Stuff
My name is Art. I am a recently graduated UCLA MBA student. In this economy, even graduating from UCLA Business School will not guarantee you a job. I have been trying all of my connections to find a great job but seem to have no luck. So I began searching for some great tools on the internet that I could use to either get a leg up on the job Job Interview Videos and Interviews on Video search and came up with some cool websites. A cool place I found was resume video and Video Interviews It’s a great tool to search for upper level management, or account executive jobs. Another great place to find tips, and ideas about how to write a resume, or how to give a great interview is Trust me, these websites are gold! Just thought I would share the knowledge. Good luck everyone!
Color Blind
I am colorblindCoffee black and egg whitePull me out from insideI am ready I am ready I am ready I amTaffy stuck, tongue tied Stuttered shook and uptightPull me out from insideI am readyI am readyI am readyI am...fineI am covered in skinNo one gets to come inPull me out from insideI am folded, and unfolded, and unfoldingI amcolorblindCoffee black and egg whitePull me out from insideI am ready I am readyI am readyI am...fineI am.... fineI am fine
Women Don't Like Sexual Men
Why Don't women like men that only want sex?..ain't it still a compliment to want someone for just there body & not their minds?...means they think your good enough to want you for at least something.I sure wish men & women could close the sexual game closer to 50/ theres not so many fights over it.i have control over both my heads but i was just curious is all.
New Entry Over At My Main Blog - Harrassment Incident
Just recently made this post over at me main blog on my own website, about some bother i've been getting @ Twitter & Wikipedia since early Sunday morning (and not having much luck getting the person responsible's butt kicked over it):
My Search
my attempt to weed out the snobs has run into a snag: fubar wont let you look at too many profiles, so I have yet to get through the first ten of my pages of friends. tomarrow I will continue. I must go now. also, if fubar thinks of itself as baby jesus, it should be torn down to the roots for that blasphemy. fubars so far from jesuslike it might as well be an american christian.
My Slide Show On My Profile
Hey to all blogers i have a slide show on my profile feel free to go on and see what's up k love to all .
~ The Heart Of A Mustang ~
  The heart of a mustang is like that of a mountain. It stands strong and regal ,  no storms can tear down. She runs wild and free, while the wind sails through her mane. There is no destination just the wild calling her name. She hears it in her heart then starts running with the wind,  the sun on her back and the warmth upon her skin. She cannot be broken, her heart is oh so strong, she visits sweet warm places , but never stays too long. The wild is her home as she runs so free and proud, when the night air falls on her face she knows that peaceful sound. For tomorrow she'll set out. running like the wind . She'll be happy once more, for the wild called again. Laura C. Wilson 7-27-09
Sarcastic? Oh Yes..a Bit
HOLY HELLThis one is fucking spot ON wow LMFAO Abnormally Sarcastic. People can't tell if you're angry, happy, or constipated. You probably make jokes that no one understands and you think it's because they're stupid and not because sarcasm isn't always funny. You might be joking all the time but since it's in your nature to test different levels of sarcasm in people you probably don't laugh much. Everyone thinks you're smart but also kind of an ass too.  
I Walk Alone
(I walk alone in life)  All that I see, I see alone.The love that once filled my heart and my sole.Forever will be lost and forever will be stole.My life is empty, my dreams are fading. Who I once was, is only a shadow.I lift my head, breath then swallow.My mind is empty and my heart is hollow.I Dreamed a Dream and it once come true. About a girl, her eyes were blue.She was an angel she was my star. I always loved her from afar.She said she'd love me till the end. My one and only lifetime friend.I felt so lucky, to live my dream.Then she left me, and I died inside...So I walk alone, all by myself.I dream alone, all by myself.I live alone, all by myself.  I am alone, ALL BY MYSELF...Scott P Tabor: 7/25/09
Stolen From Klover
The Week of the Seeker – Gemini 3 June 11-18 You are always on the move – probing, testing, tasting and exploring the most interesting things life has to offer. You are not afraid to take chances and are attracted to risk and danger. You are restless and life is never dull around you. You are truly independent a real adventurer. You stretch the truth and please those around you with your undeniable charm; you often get your way. You are good with money. Love and affection are important to you, you can be warm and giving and then cool and detached. You thrive on change and often move from one partner to the next. Strengths: Exploratory – Risk Taking – Money Wise Weaknesses: Emotionally Volatile – Disillusioned – Impatient
Another Thought
why Plato rocks - Platonism ;-- "people live without the divine inspiration that gives him, and people like him, access to higher insights about reality" theyre many ways to view this, but to me is stating that inspiration can come from many different areas of life but a person can live individualistic if we accept alternatives as possibilities, it gives us a greater understanding of reality. Plato, many times, stated there is more than a single reality (look up his idea of forms for example). Were individual because we DONT think alike, we DONT believe alike.........but that shouldnt bee seen as long as its within the boundaries of the laws of a democratic society (in ou case at least)
Wow. Just Wow.
Im growing alarmed by the trend folks are partaking of blocking users without salutes...I want to see if I can set up something whereby people who have such a blockage set up wont be able to see my profile. anti-snobbery! hehe. normally its not a big deal, but really, this past week Ive found a dozen or so people on my friends list who have me so blocked. That is messed up, I mean, I didnt accpet YOUR friend requests, every single person on my friend list is someone I contacted, I ASKED for it, and they added me and then turn around and say "oh, but youre not allowed to check out my profile anymore!" whatever. snobs are lame people, and in the end they will get what they deserve so I guess I shall stop talking about it, following this one thing: Im going through my list, if you are a snob, you will be blocked. and good riddance too!
I sit alone in a state of mind that wishes to go back about a year...To go back and change so much...It is a thing that cant be ever truly undone...To avoid leaving a life that was so good to me...Throwing it all away like none of it really mattered...I miss being able to see my sister and talk to her...I regret the fighting we did between the two of us...I looked for a way to run and I found it...Packing my stuff, I ran to live in another world...Thinking it was for the best, I just took off not looking back...I ran into the arms of a girl that I thought was my happiness...Sitting within her grasp I blocked out all my troubles...About a month later, I returned back home...I had come to see my sister, and say Goodbye I Love You...The hardest part was walking in the shadows in the time of the passing...I helped lay her down for her final rest with tears falling down my face...Once returned home, I worried about losing the one person that made me happy...I had nightmares about us splitti
Birth Week
Dammit this one is pretty accurate The Cusp of Exposure – Leo/Virgo Cusp August 19-25 You are an interesting blend of introvert and extrovert. You are an outstanding observer and judge of character. You know how to watch, silently without drawing attention to yourself. You have a great memory and are objective; you can also be a dependable and reliable friend. You have the need to be understood. You do not easily attach your passion and affection to someone but when you do you form long lasting relationships. You can be very private, self centered and secretive. Strengths: Self Contained – Observant – Flamboyant Weaknesses: Narcissistic – Secretive – Non Sharing
So this is the last week of summer courses for school, I am going for Office Technology Assistant, or an educated secretary. Eventually I am going to get my M.B.A. but that will take awhile. So I have never really done this blogging thing before but I thought maybe I would start. School is great I never used to like school but I think that now that I chose this path it is much more appealing to me. So anyways I just took my final exam for Analytical Writing I am hoping I do well I have a B in that class now so a perfect score on that will bump me to an "A" here is hoping wish me luck!
Are You Cereal??
Sooo...   I was too lazy to wash cereal bowls after each meal, so now I havea nice collection of 6 in my sink. The question is:   the cereal dried, and now its like a fuckin cynder block. WTF??! I let it sock, but its still like a rock. OMG
Love Is Pain
why does love have to hurt?   really now think about it......everything to do with love seems to cause pain.........
Salutes, Just Plain Silly...
I love the profiles that are viewable only by people who have salutes. This amazes me because 95% of you are only here to level and receive bling. So, I don't see why it matters who is fanning, rating, crushing or adding you. Also, this is the only site that even has this, for a so called adult site it sure seems pretty childish to me. I mean you don't have all your friends on facebook, hi5 or myspace send you a pic with a name or number to prove that they are who they say they are, do you? I'd hope not!!! People say they don't want to be friends with a fake person, well just because someone sends a pic with a name on it, doesn't mean they are being themselves on here. It is the internet people don't forget that. All kinds of things can be photoshoped in. I have a pic with Jerry Rice and I have never met him.. haha.  I just find it all a little silly. Of course this is only my opinion, to each his own though.
Need A Laugh????
I have 2 jobs. The 1st: I have 3 ladies, that I help with shopping, going to the Dr., cleaning their house. basically what ever they need... my 2nd job, I work at the U S Census Bureau  doing surveys... I drove almost to my 2nd job today before I realized... I don't work
Ultima Thule- Sverige
I love this :)
How is trust measured? do we simply use instinct, trust someone, them blame them if we get shit on? If thats the case then its really not THEIR fault........its as much ours for giving so much trust to them in the first place. By nature there are always going to be elements of selfishness because by nature humans have a huge survival instinct, whatever it takes to survive, in general, is what we will do. The downside to being human is setting boundaries or beign ABLE to know WHEN to set boundaries. If someone hurts us, many of us immediately blame the person for doing so, HOWEVER if we had set boundaries in the first probably wouldnt have happened. There are evil people, there are selfish people, and there are people that will accept anything just to be loved or feel better. in reality? which is worse? just a thought for the day
If I should disappear one day look me up at the Shakopee Women's Correctional facility. I may have slit my ex-husband's throat. I'm going to try to not get caught, but hey...I've always sucked at hide and go seek.
Someone I Used To Know
I see her walking with him She used to be mine She's still beautiful After all this time In a way I want to say hi But instead I walk on by I don't say anything It's best just to go After all She's just someone I used to know   I see you out On the sidewalk downtown Your blackened teeth Hidden by a frown The drugs have wasted Away your flesh Your sunken eyes look Like they're staring at death You took to the needle When you couldn't get enough from the blow I just turn my eyes away From someone I used to know   The memories and faces Plague my dreams Like the beating of a thousand Apocalyptic locusts' wings The voices and laughter The "I love you"s They threaten what sanity I have left to lose I run to the sink and Over my face, let the cold water flow And look up at the mirror At someone I used to know    
Government Swine Flu Advisor On Vaccine Maker Payroll
Many people seem genuinely baffled that western governments are hyping the arrival of a swine flu pandemic as if it’s the greatest threat to humanity since the bubonic plague, despite the relatively low number of deaths from the virus, unaware that the pharmaceutical industry has been intimately joined at the hip with the state for decades. Another illustration of that fact is the revelation that one of the UK government’s top advisors on swine flu also happens to be a sitting board member of GlaxoSmithKline, the company selling dangerous and untested swine flu vaccines, as well as anti-viral drugs Tamiflu and Relenza, to the NHS. “Professor Sir Roy Anderson sits on the Scientific Advisory Group for Emergencies (Sage), a 20-strong task force drawing up the action plan for the virus. Yet he also holds a £116,000-a-year post on the board of GlaxoSmithKline,” reports the Daily Mail. We also learn that Anderson was “one of the first UK experts to call the o
When Johnny Comes Marchin Home Again...
Hurrah! Hurrah! Well give him some hardy STDs again, hurrah! Hurrah! Oooh!! Can it be ARMY wife day? You know, the loving, supportive woman missing her man as he is off in some hostile land daily risking his life for his country. Except that she is being loving and supportive to everyone BUT her man, because the selfish cunt cant go more than 3 days without being the unfaithful whore that she is, taking guys out for drinks on her mans hard earned hazard pay, and then sneaking them in the house past her sleeping children to get fucked doggystyle by the guy in the bathroom while her face is bouncing around the toilet bowl, purging the too many to count jagerbombs she had earlier. The ARMY cunt is generally a carrier of various STDs, reading like  highschool textbook complete with full color in home models, and maybe some lingering discharge still oozing from her gaping maw. If CSI ever came to this bitches house, theyd end up having to profile the last 10 years worth of soldiers on ba
Not A Day Goes By
Got a picture of you, I carry in my heart Close my eyes to see it, when the world gets dark Got a memory of you, I carry in my soul I wrap it close around me, when the nights gets cold If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine But the truth is, baby If you could read my mind Not a day goes by That I don't think of you After all this time You're still with me it's true Somehow you remain Locked so deep inside Baby, baby, oh, baby Not a day goes by I still wait for the phone In the middle of the night Thinking you might call me If your dreams don't turn out right And it still amazes me That I lie here in the dark Wishin' you were next to me With your head against my heart If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine But the truth is, baby If you could read my mind Not a day goes by That I don't think of you After all this time You're still with me it's true Somehow you remain Locked so deep inside That baby, baby, oh, baby Not a day goes by Minutes turn to hours A
Long As I Live By Jmm
The world's been spinning 'round since time began An' when it stops, it's out of my hands So I could swear forever for all it's worth Or give you every day I have on Earth Long as I live Long as I breathe With every heartbeat I'll need you near me I won't leave you behind 'Til the Lord says it's time to go with him I'm yours long as I live No matter if there's mountains you can't move Or harder times then you thought you'd go through And the weight of your world's too much to bear Just remember I'll always be there Long as I live Long as I breathe With every heartbeat I'll need you near me I won't leave you behind 'Til the Lord says it's time to go with him I'm yours long as I live The moon and stars aren't mine to give Neither is eternity But I'll give you a promise tonight That I can keep Long as I live Long as I breathe With every heartbeat I'll need you near me I won't leave you behind 'Til the Lord says it's time to go with him I'm yours long as I live I'm yours long
Just A Few Thoughts
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My Nutball Stalker 7-27
My Lack Of A Life...and Other Things That Suck.
I wander through this life mired in the drudgery of day to day. I wake up, send my daughter off to school, clean house, put in job applications online, take care of my Mom, argue with my son over getting his chores done, welcome my daughter home from school, cook dinner, clean up from dinner, go to the pool for about an hour or so, take a bath, hop online for a bit, and go to bed...where I stare up at the ceiling [sometimes with tears in my eyes] until exhaustion drags me down into sleep. All of this, just so that I can awaken the next morning to do the same thing. While I love the people in my life, it's not difficult to hate the life itself. I'm bored. I'm lonely. I'm starved for companionship. I have memories of a different life. A life before my mother became ill. A life where I had a rewarding office career and colleagues I admired.  A life where I had a great group of friends and a life outside my home. A life where, on a Saturday night, I could drop the kids off at my mom's h
Things Happening In The Name Of Chaos
A metric fuckton of fuck landed on my fuckplate... Until recently, I've been hiding and licking my wounds in Denver, CO. Most of my home life consists of deciding whether to work the next day or no, playing Half-Life2 and searching teh intrwebz for better porn. This came to a screeching halt about 4 weeks ago. A friend alerted me to the fact that a friend of his was stranded, so I made contact to see if I could help. Enter, REALICIDE and it turned out, their car had died the previous day, so I politely offered to ferry them around to find a new one. Upon driving back from said purchase, I made a snap decision to give them MY car to use for the rest of their music tour. A lot of persons have expressed to me how weird, generous and awesome that is, but that's not the perk. The perk is, I'VE MET SO MANY FUCKING PPL I NEVER KNEW EXISTED IN DENVER! It almost makes my head spin. Anyway, so then I'm thinking to meself, "I need a road trip," and make plans accordingly. I leave denve
Much Love Cali Friends!
Watch the guy in the pew behind her. He just cracks me up! We're praying, really really hard, that this is a joke, because if it's not and this person has survived as long as she has it means that we've reversed the course of evolution and have no hope as a species. At a 2008 city council meeting the politicians and citizens of Santa Cruz were treated to testimony from a young woman who may, in fact, be the stupidest person alive. She began by explaining that food is good: I think that we should make a perfect pesticide for the crops but it's good for people and healthy and keeps the crops preserved too because we need the food because it's food and stuff. That, while expressed poorly, is the smartest thing she says in the video. She goes on to say: We can be rich in cotton and mining metals and silkworms and we can makes things, we can make things cars, the machine can make it for us...on the East Coast they have slaves and they believe in slavery and made in China, but
My Brain Hurts- A Rant About Idiotic Children.
My brain hurts. I'm utterly sick of children nowadays. Here's a conversation I just had- "Hi.""Um, Hello.""*crosses fingers* r u a satanist?""I'm not a damned sheep. Do you even know what it is?""um ru at evil at least?""You're an utter moron. Goodbye." Kid's gotta be like fucking 10 years old. Seriously. I just sat there, staring at my screen, feeling my brain scream in agony. How can anyone be such a complete and utter fucking tool? Lemme clear something up about satanism- First off, most popular figures use the imagery simply to sell albums, books, videos, etc. Hell, Tom araya's a catholic. Don't claim to follow a religion you know NOTHING about because some band uses it to make themselves popular. Hell, even a lot of black metal bands that supposedly follow it only do it for the publicity. Secondly, do you children even know how many different types there are, or do you just claim it to be a "rebel"? Yeah, it's SOOOOOO rebellious to be a fucking idiot. Way to go. I can name
Chinese Mafia And Michael Jackson?
VALLEJO -- A 7-year-old boy was accosted by a woman with a steak knife in a Vallejo grocery store before his parents fought her off, police said today. The boy was standing with his family in the produce aisle of the Grocery Outlet at 66 Admiral Callaghan Lane ( when 47-year-old Dana Stevenson of Vallejo walked up to him about 12:10 p.m. Saturday, police said. Stevenson grabbed the boy around his neck in a chokehold, produced a steak knife and began rambling about the Chinese Mafia and Michael Jackson, police Lt. Lee Horton said. Stevenson then began dragging the boy from one end of the produce aisle to the other, Horton said. The boy's father grabbed Stevenson from behind and forced her arms up and away from the child, police said. The boy's mother grabbed her son and took hold of the assailant's hand at the same time. The mother suffered a laceration to the palm of one of her hands while struggling with Stevenson, Horton said. Store employees and other shop
Any Girls From Houston Or Pearland!
Any BBW women out there from either houston or pearland, feel free to hit me up, lets get to chatting and become friends!
Wow I Dint Know Tht Talking To An Ex Girlfriend Was Bad
so ne way i havent wrote a blog in a while so this one is gonna be kinda long  but may be short. first thing DID YOU KNOW THAT TALKING TO A CO WORKERS WIFE ABOUT MUSIC IS OFFENDING? I SURE AS HELL DINT but i gues it is offending  idk how but watever this world is getting stupider and stupider as time comes and goes and two did u know tht taking to an ex girlfriend jus having a friendly conversation nothing sexual or bad pisses ppl off all because they automaticaly assume tht you are being scandelous watever happend to its not about the past but about the present and future but iguess sum women jus hold grudges to damn long i forgot tht being frined with your ex girlfriend or boyfriend was a bad thing i mean wat the hell i am a very friendly guy i dont hold grudges why cause i know it was in the past and its not like i can go back and change the past the past is the past get over it and understand tht being friends isnt bad at all but oh wait i am wrong on tht to and finally the last th
And Then She Blocked Me
cuz i told her she shouldnt be stupid and stuff in my own special loving way   she posted the extasy mumm  
Now that it's all said and done,I can't believe you were the oneTo build me up and tear me down,Like an old abandoned house.What you said when you leftJust left me cold and out of breath.I fell too far, was in way too deep.Guess I let you get the best of me.Well, I never saw it coming.I should've started runningA long, long time ago.And I never thought I'd doubt you,I'm better off without youMore than you, more than you know.I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.I'm finally getting better.And now I'm picking up the pieces.I'm spending all of these yearsPutting my heart back together.'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,I got over you.You took a hammer to these walls,Dragged the memories down the hall,Packed your bags and walked away.There was nothing I could say.And when you slammed the front door shut,A lot of others opened up,So did my eyes so I could seeThat you never were the best for me.Well, I never saw it coming.I should've started runningA long, long tim
You Stay Classy San Diego
Hola Amigos/Amigas!  I’m back from vacation.  What’s that?  You say you didn’t realize I was gone?  Fine.  I don’t need your sympathy “welcome back!”   I’ve been marginalized and ignored by better people than you!   Nevertheless, I’m going to tell you about my vacation.  I just spent 7 glorious days lounging about in San Diego.  San Diego is lovely for a number of reasons.  But the biggest reason San Diego is lovely is that it is NOT Phoenix.  You see, we’ve been averaging 110 + degrees for the last couple of weeks here in the PHX.  It’s the type of weather that makes household pets burst into flames if they go outside to pee.  Whereas, in San Diego, they are lucky to top 80 degrees – ever.  Which is why every July, Arizonans invade the beaches of San Diego with our mandals, bad Hawaiian shirts, and dry, flaky skin.   Upon arriving in the Land of Ron Burgundy, I immediately rented a surfboard for a week.  I’m n
Saying Goodbye To Mother (not Sad At All)
SAYING GOODBYE TO MOTHERYou Don't Have To Own A Cat To Appreciate This One!  You don't even have to like 'em!We were dressed and ready to go out for the New Years Eve Party.  We turned on a night light, turned the answering machine on,covered our pet parakeet and put the cat in the backyard.We phoned the local cab company and requested a taxi.  The taxi arrived and we opened the front door to leave the house.The cat we put out in the yard, scoots back into the house.  We didn't want the cat shut in the house because she always tries to eat the bird.My wife goes out to the taxi, while I went inside to get the cat.  The cat runs upstairs, with me in hot pursuit. Waiting in the cab, my wife doesn't want the driver to know that the house will be empty for the night.  So, she explains to the taxi driver that I will be out soon,'He's just going upstairs to say goodbye to my mother.'A few minutes later, I get into the cab.  'Sorry I took so long,' I said, as we drove away.  'That stupid bitch
Happy Birthday
happy birthday to me
God Loves Blondes
God Loves Blondes A blonde finds herself in serious trouble. Her business has gone bust and she's in dire financial straits. She's so desperate that she decides to ask God for help. She begins to pray..."God, please help me. I've lost my business and if I don't get some money, I'm going to lose my house as well. Please let me win the Lotto." Lotto night comes, and somebody else wins it. She again prays..."God, please let me win the Lotto! I've lost my business, my house and I'm going to lose my car as well." Lotto night comes and she still has no luck. Once again, she prays..."My God, why have You forsaken me? I've lost my business, my house, and my car. My children are starving. I don't often ask You for help, and I have always been a good servant to You. PLEASE let me win the Lotto just this one time so I can get my life back in order." Suddenly there is a blinding flash of light as the heavens open. The blonde is overwhelmed by the Voice of God Himself..."Sweetheart, work wi
I Love You!
To: David Martin When you make a commitment to a relationship, you put your attention and energy in it more profoundly. You realize its not just you anymore, its two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever. I know babe I have only known you a short amount of time. This is only the best way I can explain this to you. I love you and you have become the spirit in me. The fire in my heart is lit again because of you. Love is one thing in my life that has been a worry for me, a song to me, and a dream that I have dreamt. It has never been a reality. I know this isn’t going to be easy, I know its going to be hard. I have come to the realization that love doesn’t just cause pleasure, it causes pain. David with you though, I don’t worry anymore. I want this, and every girl has the chance to get something as good as us. I cant pass you up, nor would I ever think to. Even if I had the whole world to write on to express how much I love you, it wouldn't al
Order In The Court
“And thou shalt make an altar of shittim wood, five cubits long, and five cubits broad; the altar shall be foursquare: and the height thereof shall be three cubits.”  Chapter twenty-seven of the book of Exodus opens with more construction instructions, in the case of verses one through eight for the altar of the burnt offering (it’s actually called that in chapter four of the book of Leviticus).  The fact that’s what the altar will be used for comes from verse three’s description of ashes – what’s typically leftover from a fire, shovels for said ashes, basins, fleshhooks (to remove said item from the altar if it hasn’t burned with the animal sacrificed), and firepans.  The fact that these are made of brass along with the altar made with horns (in verse two, there to bind the animals being sacrificed) being overlaid with brass per verse two as opposed to gold indicates it’s meant to be used by the people.  For a place of worship, tha
Short and Sweet :) For the rest of my Life I know we are miles apart But one day we will be as one and never depart from each other No other compare to You Because with You is where I want to start anew With You is where I want to  be Forever...
The Day After Jerm 33
last night was to say the least memorable. friends and family were there to celebrate my birthday with me. i am grateful. even if it seemed like the cactus and whatever other party time aids were puttin me sideways. i guess when it is your get to choose what to i chose alot of stuff. all in the confines of my own room and backyard. paranoia overwelmed me for a bit but it went away. i had a good time though. i got to know someone  even more as well. and...i think that was the best gift i got. not to put anyone else down but in all honesty finding out more about this person is what i will remember the most. im happier now that i know this person and she knows me. and that to me is an awesome gift. birthday or not. a real person in a fake world. along with being a wonderfully positive and passionate beautiful woman. and to think i was told there we'rent any real women on here. i guess that was proved wrong. haha...woops. no need to BE right...if i
Fuck You (my Link Drop Back To Idiots!)
Why did you just drop your dumb ass link in my shout box?  Do I know you?  Did you even rate my page before asking for a favor from a complete stranger?  Didn't think so!   FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!
Something Different
Ive been busy the last week or so and have missed alot of people here. Before I left a friend started a blog having others ask him questions about himself. I liked the idea and being bored at the moment I thought I would do the same. (Thnkz for the idea Emanon)   So here are the rules... you can ask me anything you wish to know and I will answer it as best i can... if it is something I dont not wish to be made public I will either tell you in private or just say it is something I wont answer at the time. Im hoping for some good thought filled questions so take your time and give me something good.
The World Of Darkness
I had a dream, which was not all a dream.The bright sun was extinguish'd, and the starsDid wander darkling in the eternal space,Rayless, and pathless, and the icy earthSwung blind and blackening in the moonless air;Morn came and went--and came, and brought no day,And men forgot their passions in the dreadOf this their desolation; and all heartsWere chill'd into a selfish prayer for light:And they did live by watchfires--and the thrones,The palaces of crowned kings--the huts,The habitations of all things which dwell,Were burnt for beacons; cities were consum'd,And men were gather'd round their blazing homesTo look once more into each other's face;Happy were those who dwelt within the eyeOf the volcanos, and their mountain-torch:A fearful hope was all the world contain'd;Forests were set on fire--but hour by hourThey fell and faded--and the crackling trunksExtinguish'd with a crash--and all was black.The brows of men by the despairing lightWore an unearthly aspect, as by fitsThe flashes
Dear Kotex
Dear Kotex... down2basics: Dear Kotex:I recently noticed that the peel-off strip of my pantyliner had a bunch of Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as:    a.. Staying active during your period can relieve cramps.    b.. Avoiding caffeine may help reduce cramps and headaches.    c.. Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh.    d.. Try Kotex blah blah blah other products...Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a functioning set of ovaries. Go ahead and tell a menstruating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh.Like we need more fluid inside our bloated bodies from hell...but go ahead. See what happens and report back. I'll wait.While you're at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I guaran-freakin-tee that the first responders will be females who just ovulated. This advice was some brain functionof a male.... right???Staying activ
New Songs Added
BlastFM added 4 songs to its play list. World Without Heroes - Kiss Firehourse - Kiss Christiine Sixteen - Kiss Demolition Man - The Police Give a listen you'll love it!  
Sectional Champs Auto
As some of you already know, my son's team won the sectional baseball championship yesterday.  Since I help to coach the team, we leave for the state tournament on Wednesday and if we keep winning, we will be there until Monday night!!!!  Soooooooo, I am gonna celebrate today @1pm Futime by activating an auto 11 and then sometime along the way, blow up a bunch of "chit"!  Come by and help celebrate with and maybe even level yourself on me!!!!
Taco's Theory's Vi
I though I had an idea, For a sec I wondered what was the thought. So I was thinking on what I thought. The thought was on the idea of thinking of just ideas. Ideas of events that might happen if I let them. If I let the ideas grow within. Then the following statement is true-- I am a slave to myself?
Understanding The Zenith 42 Plasma Hdtv
Zenith 42 Plasma HDTV sets, also known as plasma HDTV displays have been obtainable for several years; however, they are more popular than ever today. The outstanding reason for the recent boost in popularity of Zenith 42 Plasma HDTVs is that they used to be very expensive, but now, since a lot of manufacturers are making them, the competition has grown and the cost of the plasma televisions has decreased.
Taco's Theory's V
If a guy masterbates in the shower, is that considered mass suicide? Or juse genocide by self-indulgence of mother nature?
The Official British Army Fitness Programme
Your 16-week planner to military fitness This 16-week fitness programme has been developed by the Army Physical Training Corps, and is based on the one that it issues to potential recruits to enable them to pass basic training. Make it to the end of level 4 (see below) and you'll have achieved the basic level of fitness required of a trained soldier ... Before you start, assess your current fitness level Warning: Please check with your doctor before beginning this or any other strenuous exercise regime Week 1 Day 1 • Walk-jog for 20 minutes (jog for 2min, walk for 2min, etc) • 1 x press-up max score • 2 x 5 dorsal raises • 2 x 5 tricep dips • 1 x sit-up max score • Rest 30-90sec between sets Day 2 • Rest day Day 3 • 10-minute warm-up • Run fast for 30sec, rest for 2 minutes, repeat 5 times • 10-minute cool-down Day 4 • Rest day Day 5 • Walk-jog for 20 minutes (walk for 1min, jog for 3min, repeat 5 times)• 1 x
Taco's Theory's Iv
If you lick a rubber dart, it will stick to the wall. This fact is true If you lick a pussy, will it stick to a wall?
Country Girl Gone Nympho
Country Girl Gone Nympho Your mama warned you about me. I am your sweet innocent country girl neighbor. I wanted to see how it felt to be naughty. I go out in a very tight, very short jean skirt and a shirt tied under my huge ddd breasts. I make sure all of you guys can see me playing on the fence. You soon realize I have no panties or bra on. So you move so you can get a better view of my sweet, tight pussy. XOXO Love XOXO Exotic Flame -- Hugs and Kisses Exotic Flame
Taco's Theory's Iii
It has alwys been said, "Never trust anyone farther than you can throw them." Where does the catapolt come into the equation?
Annie Lennox-into The West Lyrics
Lay down, your sweet and weary head.Night is falling. You have come to journey’s end.Sleep now, and dream of the ones who came before.They are calling, from across a distant shore.Why do you weep? What are these tears upon your face?Soon you will see.All of your fears will pass away.Safe in my arms, you’re only sleeping.What can you see,on the horizon?Why do the white gulls call?Across the sea,a pale moon rises.The ships have come,to carry you home.And all will turn, to silver glass.A light on the water.All souls pass.Hope fades,Into the world of night.Through shadows falling,Out of memory and time.Don’t say, We have come now to the end.White shores are calling.You and I will meet again.And you’ll be here in my arms,Just sleeping.What can you see,on the horizon?Why do the white gulls call?Across the sea,a pale moon rises.The ships have come,to carry you home.And all will turn, to silver glass.A light on the water.Grey ships passInto the West.
Taco's Theory's Ii
To make the consumers feel better about purchasing a used car there is CarFax. To this idea I ponder--- Is there a girlfriendfax?*   *Twiggy not included in this theory!*
Magic Works-the Weird Sisters
And dance your final danceThis is your final chanceTo hold the one you loveYou know you've waited long enoughSo, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidOf being hurtDon't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd make your final moveDon't be scared, she want you tooYeah, it's hard, you must be braveDon't let this moment slip away...Now, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidAfraid of being hurtDon't, don't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd don't believe that magic can dieNo, no, no, this magic can't dieSo dance your final dance'Cause this isYour final chance
Taco's Theory I
If a blonde and a brunette are dirving down the road, with the windows rolled up, and if the blonde is driving 65 mph, then the blonde rolls down her window...... how many brain cells are lost, by the brunette, due to the cross flow of wind from the blonde's brain?
French President Leaves Hospital
France's President Sarkozy leaves a Paris hospital, having spent the night under observation after collapsing while jogging.
Iran Judge Urges Arrests Decision
The head of Iran's judiciary orders a decision within a week on prisoners arrested after June's disputed elections, reports say.
7/27/09 Dilbert
Yet Another
another song stuck in my head
I Am.
I am a fucking liar and a slut. you guys should love me for that though right. see you all soon just tell me when and where. im more than willing.
The Time Has Come...
I've gotten my camera back... and a new dress I have yet to show off.  I was thinking, what would be the best way to show off my dress, then I realized SALUTES FOR PEOPLE... yes yes I'm going to do that again.  Please comment on here if you'd like one.  Don't message me about them all that does is get my box cluttered.   ~Fangs~
People who pretend to be some one they arent can get a life. No offense if you are one but I hate that with a purple passion. Some may say Im a bitch but I dont see the point in arguing with them. People are going to think what they want arguements arent with them. People are going to think what they want arguements arent going to stop them. It took me a while to realize that.Wear your confidence like make up. No one on this earth is ugly in my opinion. There is going to be one person on the planet to think you are hot. So dont worry about people who tell you that stuff.
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About Me
i changed mine because apparently people didnt get the hint so i had to make it a little more blunt...i have 4 friend requests that im gonna be nice and send them a drink and say that they never readit and that they should take their skanky whore self elsewhere
You don’t know me and I don’t know you. In reality who knows what we are. And like a stalker I pursue you for love, even if you don’t know my address, my last name, and the key to my heart…. Someone loves you, someone is waiting for you, someone is dreaming you, and you know is me. Someone thinks about you all the time, someone seeks you, and at last found you. Someone loves you and someone is me.
Song Stuck In My Head
i was watching bones a while back and heard this song and now for some reason its stuck in my head..apparently the girl in the video died and this is a tribute vid but the song is least i think so
"" Hope ""
Hope is like a road in the country; there wasn't ever a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence.
All Is Lost
when the sky is  grey  no  sun in sight and u  feel  like nothing is right what should u  do ? who should u turn to ?when u feel  all is lost  all u  want is some of  what u lost  u want to the sun to shine  to make u feel  something is right  but til the sun sun shines all is wrong with  the  fight and streangth u have in inside all will be alright  so  smile  bright to the sky and say  ALL IS FOUND 
Ok whats the name of the NIN song, ugh, I want to f&ck you like an animal?
Aint Life Just Freakin Grand??
I've been off site for a long while and am getting back in the swing of things again, sorta.  Was laid off and sniveilin like a little girl about that then when I got back to work it was 6 days a week and I was eatin that up like candy.  Now I'm a freaking Foreman, chasin my damn tail more that I ever like to.  Boss says, hey it's more money.  Whatever.  Overtime is gone, I'm at at straight 40 a week and I have guys under me getting mad overtime and makin my paycheck look way freakin sad.  AINT LIFE JUST GRAND.
In My Heart
I dreamed about you,and your sweet kiss,and when I awoke,I yearned to touch you,but I couldn't...I saw us strollingalong my street wherethe maples hadturned crimson,and I wanted to point out their beauty to you,but I couldn't...I struggled througha stressful day,wishing I couldsee your smile,hear your voice,feel your reassuring touch,but I couldn't...I sat on the couch,yearning to talk to you,to share the happeningsof the day,to feel your handcurve so perfectlyand smoothly into mine,but I couldn't...And before I went to sleep,I wanted to hold youand love you,and tell youhow much I love you,but I couldn't...because you're so far away.But I will alwayskeep you here in my heart.
Grils Message If U View Me
if a dude want to fight of do something to hert a girl if they need help  they call me because kno women should go thow evil by a dum azz man but if one come to me they better come right because i don't fuckin play kno games men should treat women just like them  most men better kno that if they want to fight they better fight me insted of a girl or women because i am a 100% pro fighter in boxing
The Letter I Wrote My Angel Baby I Just Lost
Dear my little baby, Hi hunny. This is your mommy. I know you don't understand why you can't see me or feel me holding you in my arms. I don't understand either. You were only about 8 weeks old when I lost you. I am so sad and angry. I wish I could still be carrying you. I am so angry, cause I know it is my fault you left this world so early and before your time. I just don't understand why you left me so early. Everyone is saying that it was meant to be. I just don't believe that. What I believe is that it is my fault that you died, and that it is my fault that I lost you. I just don't understand at all. If you were still with us, you would have a great family to greet you when you would of came into ther world. You would of had 2 older brothers to play with. You would've got to see me and your daddy's face. I wish I could see your precious little face. To have your precious little hand to grab ahold of my finger. I wish I could see you smile at me for the first time. I wish I could s
Update On My Heart!
Well everyone I called my doctor today an I will be have a TEE done which is a camera going down my throat, I will be knocked out for it thank god but I am not prepared for will be next month not sure on the date will let you know when the letter comes in the mail...
Well Its Here
thats right today is the day i leave for florida....i wont be on til sometime wednesday or thursday....i leave at 920 tonite and i get in around 430 wednesday afternoon   luv me and stuffs
Four Rules To Understand What Makes People Tick
Breaking down human behavior into rules might seem like a gross simplification. But even with the complexities, it is easy to fall into the same mistakes. I’d argue that many heated fights, lost sales and broken hearts are caused by a few critical errors. If you make the wrong assumptions, you’ve lost before you begin. By keeping in mind these rules, you can avoid repeating the same mistakes. Rule One: People Mostly Care About Themselves People aren’t thinking about you. A damaging myth to buy into is believing the amount of time you think of yourself compares to the amount of time others think of you. In reality they are nowhere close. I’ve used this example before but I believe it deserves repeating. Take a look at the different slices of this chart. The biggest is the time you spend thinking about yourself. The second is the time spent thinking about relationships, but how they affect you. What does Julie think of me? Will my boss give me a raise or fire
Of Nice Guys And Hoebeasts
Over the course of many shifts spent in the sleaze factory known as Fubar, ive come across a great many cumdumpsters profiles and status messages wondering where all the nice guys are.  I cant help but to wonder at the inherent stupidity of these hags. Do you really expect to attract a "nice man" when the majority of fubar has seen you drill your turned out vag 6 ways from Sunday either on cam, or in your ever so alluringly titled "Floppy Twat" NSFW album? You know that neat lil trick you do with your 12 inch black dildo with the 2 years worth of cunt crust that youre too busy begging for attention on fubar to get up and wash off? Were not attracted to the swarm of flies following The Hammer thru the air as you wave it around. Any sane person wouldnt trade a bag of shit to see your NSFW, much less spend 10 dollars on some bling credits to stare at the cluster of scars that your last herpes flare up left you with. You want a nice guy? Letting that random stranger that you met 3 hours
Your Pain
Your painI looked in to your eyes the other dayI saw your pain it made me cryCause I never ment to hurt youI never wanted to make you cryThat is not my natureI just wanted to reach out and hold youI wanted you in my armsI hated to say the wordsThat made you cryPlease find the powerThe power to healI hate to see this painOf my awful wordsMaybe I should have told you liesNo, what would that have doneNothing it would only hurt moreI am sorry I hurt youInever wanted toPlease forgive me
Youyou:have a way like no one else.Can hurt like no otherYou:can make me laugh.Can make me cry.You:can make me so mad.Can make me so happy.You:can be so niceone minutecan be so cold and evil the next.You'vesaid you love mesaid you hate meYour:so goodso badYour:so evilso coldYou:I want youI want all of youYou:I love you
www.jesus.comI miss you soI wish we couldtalk again.If only for a minuteso I could say good bye.Someone once told me try www.jesus.comI looked at them and laughed.I didn't know what else to seemed like a crazy ideaI sat down at my computer tonightI typed in the address and my fingerswrote to Jesus. I asked him why?I asked why you? His answer came back.My dear sweet child she is still alive for you always have memories.Know this to my child the breathing part is in heaven my child.The breathing part is in heaven.
Way Me
Why Me?Why me Hun?Why my heart?Why do you love me so?Why confess this to me?Why say the words now?Why does this confuse me so?Why me? Why me?Why do you dothis to me?Why me? Why me?Why do these feeling haunt me?Why do they haunt you?Why do they taunt?Why me?Why us?Why now?
What I Need
What I Need I wish I could find something to fill this void.Something no one else has. Is this unreasonable?I need to know I have his heart. I want to know he listens to me I need to know I am not a bother to him. I need two strong  arms to hold me when I am down.I need to know he cares. I need to jump in his arms at the end of the day.I need to kiss him and be held in the evening.I need to snuggle. I need to hear those words that mean so much.Is that so much to ask? I need to know he thinks of me.I need to know I am in his heart. Am I crazy? I need to much,I need love. Its to much to ask I know. I want the affection.I have to be crazy to have a need like this.
Valentines Day
Why Valentine's Day? Why do we need one day?To show someone loves. Hugs, Kisses, and Caresses... Little gestures of love.Flowers, candy, and jewelry... Little tokens of love. Does it really matter? Why only one time a year? Romantic evenings, Heart felt words...Why do I need only one day a year? Valentine's DayWhy this day to show you? What you mean to me. When there are 364 other days... I can do the same. So why valentine's Day?
Tug Of War
Tug of war for a soulA cold damp musty eerie darknessdraws me near It holds metight not letting go it tugsand pulls determined to winmy soul the light it pulls meback I am in a tug of warfor my soul friends I fearmy life is dead I fearthere is no other way thereis only this damp musty eeriedarkness and the sound ofSatan’s song.
To My Babies
To my Babies:My children My lovesMy LifeMy BabiesI am always watchingwatching theein the morningin the eveningwhile you dream in sleepKeeping gaurdKeeping you safewatchingwatching you growbecome young adultsMy babies alwayswith every tearand angery wordI am proud of youI will always be watchingI will always be hereI love my babies I am watching you.           ~Love             Mommy
Online Store
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Time:Sitting here looking at the clockWatching the hands rotate roundTime seems to be never end                                      Time never stands stillThe hands of time continueto rotate around the faceHour by hourminute by minutesecond by secondTime is a never-ending storyTime stand still for no oneThere is no way to stop this storySitting here in this moment ofsilence writing the words to anew story in this momentAs it all makes up the newhour in the time webeen given in this never-ending existence called time
This Thing Called Love
This thing called lovecold sweatshot flashesits an itch Ijust can't scratchthis thing called loveit heats me upit sets me ablazeI just can't get enoughmy hearts on fireIts a rash I can't controlthis thing called love is drivingme crazyI can't eat I can't sleepI have to get control of this thingthing called love before it destroys methis thing called love
The Day
The day The day starts still and silent.The birds chatter as the sun comes up.Chasing away the fog. I sit at your side. Watching waiting for you to open your eyes.The man stands in the doorway calling our name.His face unreadable.Will the words be ones I want to hear?Will his words tear me apart?Will his words be joyful or painful?I take hold of your hand.Holding as tight as I can as a tear rolls down my face.I feel the lights around me going outI feel so closed off.In the days end
A stinging forms Something catches in my throat Our friendship is on unsoiled ground.My eyes burn my heartbreaksInside I am not so soundA mask covers my pain When tears begin to fallTears roll down my cheeks like water cascading over the edge of a cliffThis pain is just to much to bare.My eyes  red and swollen My face is blotchyMy cheeks are wet and itchy.
Standing Before Me
Standing before meThere a man standing before meHes more than a friendHes more than a lover Hes my mind, body, and soulThis man standing before me Is my missing linkThe part that makes me holeThis man standing before meIs you your the one standing before me No one else could understand The things I say.This man standing before me Can take my breath with just a side ways glanceHe leave me with weak knees every time we touchThis man standing before me is the oneMy eturnal soulmate my partner in lifethe one I love.
Soul Mate I found the person of my dreams... Some one that makes me thinks...Someone that makes me dream... Someone to make me smile...Someone to help me reach my goals... My hopes... My dreams... Its you that my heart is fond of The one that inspires me The one that I want to spend the rest of my life with.You’re my Soul mate My mate for lifeThe one I want to dream about The one I want to wake up to
Road I Won't Take
A mind wanders a heart strays  another road I won't take. Choices made  pointless atempts to get laidThings that matter seem to fadeAs night turns to dayI am still here. in the mirror.the crow caws there go the law.Sirens and light flashI better hide my stash. Cause there minds wander on my cash.I see my guy So fucken HIGHPressing up on some thighHis heart straysCause you know what Thats messed upAnother road I won't make.
In Remembrance
In remembranceI sit here alone thinkingasking myself why?Why did she have to die?I sit here questing my painwondering if I am actually even saneI sit here looking down the laneI know your not coming home but it stilldoes not ease the pain the pain  in myheartthere is a terrible rain  CauseI am in such pain
Reason    My life now has reason. My life has explanation. I thought I had no alibi too want to live no defence to care. Then I looked at you and I found new justification to want to go on . You've given me explanation to go on. Reason I can't explain pleas I don't careto know I have a rationalization to why I need to belong
A Thought ~ Unfinished
ever feel that you ment the most wonderful person.but your talking to them thru a box.You talk every day and have finally reached an impass.The box just does not convay your feelings any more.When you feel like running away you know they won't stop you when you want to cry their there to lead you a shoulder and cry with you.When you pick up the phone  you know you can call them and they will listen.But that just does not seem to be enough anymoreAll you want to do is comfort them hold them and kiss themLove them. How do you fix the distance. Convay your feelings.
Dead Inside
Dead inside Have faith in meKNow I am always hereKnow I am trust worthyKNow what I say is truemy heart is shatteredMy heart is brokenI am dieing inside.Am I already dead My heart beats but I feel nothingmy feet step But yet I don't seeYOu tell me to have faith in youWhy Have you proven that you are trustworthy?A heart can only take so muchThen it takes over itself closing itself offbuilding that wall.Leaving me feeling dead inside
Do I Exist To You
DO I exsist to you?Do I exsist to youOr am I just a body laying cold.DO I not breath?Do I not have a heartbeat?that beat only for you?Your the one I want to come home to The one I want to lay next to.Am I not the one that shares your bed at nightAM I not the one that crys on your shoulder.Yet I seem to not exsist You seem to look past me.You talk but not to me. You listen but not to me. Why why doesn't my heart exsist Why don't I exsist?
Smokey Bar
A smokey bar... a pair of sexy dreamy eyes... a heart skipping a beat....    our eyes meet the smoke is thick the smell is rank one will never forget 2 hearts beat for each other the music is loud the food is bad drunks picking fights. still I watch you night after night I watch over my frosty beer mug For those sexy dreamy eyes.  Want to get close. Yet to afraid to move. A heart lonely and broken. sad and weeping  Needs someone to hold.
PainHiding things broken hearts secretsA pain like no other liesAll told to meWhy? Did you enjoy causing this pain What have I done  To make you hate me  this way And cause  this painI wonder now if I can trust you at all You told me liesYou hide things you cause me painYou make me wish I was 6 foot under This pain you caused you just don’t understandThis is not the type of pain you can just forget It takes time to go away
Object Of My Affection
The object of my affectionyou!You have no ideawhat you mean to me.Let me trythese few simple words.You’re my air,my day,my night.You’re theblood plotting itsWay thru my veins.You’re theMorning dew onmy newspaper.You’re my reason to live.You’re myReason to breathyou’re my heart my soul.My Inspiration.You’re my beingmy heart belongs to youAnd you aloneI know I make mistakes.We all have imperfections but itsIt’s your uncanny ability to forgivethat imperfection………..Your abilityto overlook it that keeps me here with you.You’re my world.My everythingI could never throw this all awayyou’re the object of all my worldlyAffection my heart belongsto you.You hold the only key that can unlockthis love eternal.My hopesmy dreamsMy EternityWhen I said for betteror worst I meant every word.You’re the appleof my eyethe reason I go onthe reason I do what I do…………Is for you.I love you like no
Not Just Me
Not just meI was once just mesad and alone staring out the windowwishing to find someone like youthen one day you walked in and itsbeen bliss ever sinceHaving met you has ment so much You openedmy heart to the ways of loveYou showed me a side of you no one else eversees that is compassionate I can't wait to spend my life with youYou are my life my lovemy heart my soulits no longer you its no longer menow its us for eternity
Back To School
After raising 4 kids, and losing one husband, I decided to return to college and get the degree I had started, but never finished. And so, on my first day of college, eager with anticipation, and more than a little nervous, I took a front row seat in my first class in over 40 years, a literature course. The professor told us we would be responsible for reading five books over the course of the semester, and that he would provide us with a list of authors from which we could choose. He ambled over to the lectern, took out his class book, and began "Baker, Black, Brooks, Carter, Cook..." I was working feverishly to get down all the names, when I felt a tap on my shoulder. The student behind me whispered, "Slow down! He's just taking attendance!"
From above or below. Its only later that we know. Someone said "He who takes no chance has no chance" Come stroll awhile through the labyrinth. Promising never to imagine we cant. Joined at last, the crazy search winding down. Your eyes say me, while selecting the perfect gown. Since this is this and that is that. We say "Lets place the broom and leap fast" For inside we realize, its our God given right. Just as darkness must accept impending light. Ther are moments we should offer no resistance. Surrendering so sweetly, to heavenly happenstance. You give, I give, really means we give. As we truly meld, penning our best narrative. warmerthan (c) 1997
My Love
My LoveMy love for you is strong and true your the apple of my eye.The blood coursing thru my veins.The love of my life.your the air I breaththe one my family adoreswhen I look in to your eyes Isee  a love that lasts a life timea feeling thats never been felt.When I see you, feel you, hear youmy heart races and skips a palms go sweaty my knees go weak.My heart melts whenYou enter the room.Your my Love My lifemy eturnity.You make me feel strong you make me feel protected As long as you here I know were safe
Moving On
 Moving on I wasted my life.On men like you Here today. I am taking a stand. I am moving on.  I am done with you  I am moving on  You’re not worth being bluenor the shit you put me thru.I am movin on New stomping ground.
My Inspiration
My InspirationShe is so smallshe is so brightshe is the reason I worry at nightshe is the reason for my breathingshe makes my life completeShe makes me smileshe makes me proudshe is my worldshe is my inspirationShe makes me laughshe makes me cryshe is my everythingShe is my worldshe is my inspiration
Moving On
Moving on I wasted my life.On men like you Here today. I am taking a stand. I am moving on.  I am done with you  I am moving on  You’re not worth being bluenor the shit you put me thru.I am movin on New stomping ground.
Love Or Fake
Is this love or fake Caring, understanding. TrustworthyThis describes youOr so I thoughtYou showed me Another sideA side I don’t care toKnow a side I can’t trust and won’t trust This new side hurts like no other now I wonder can I trust you at all Are you really that?Caring trustworthy understanding man I thought you were I may never know
Light Goes Out
Another light goes outA soul turns dark the morbidtruth be told The light burnsout the air grows cold. Anothercandle is blown out A bodylying cold and ridged on thefloor  as we all stand aroundthat light turns out somewhere in the darkness  There was someone else’s candleburning out
Let Me In
Let me inI was alone For so longI have watched you for so longI have admired you from afar I amto scared to approach toscared of rejection Please listento my pleaI don't want to be alone anymorePlease don't close that windowon my heartdon't close me outmy heart beats for youI have never wanted to be with anyonequite like thisopen that door Let me inso were never alone again
This Has To Last
This has to last.I lean in and kiss your lipsTasting the remnants of the dinner I cooked.I look deep in to your eyesBecause its time to go.I kiss you againThis will have to last.Till I am in your armsI will crawl back in to your armsI'll hold you againI just have to make this lastTill we are together againwill it last?Will you forget?Can onekiss lastwill I still feel your lipsone, two, four hours from now?It has to it just hasto be enough to carry us thru.To remind us of each other
Knight In Shining Armor
My knight in shining armorI am imprisonedin a cold cruel prison waitingon my rescuermy savior my knight inshining armor I knowhe’s out there he justhas to find meRescue me from this darknessthis eternity of dread My knight will light my pathHe will rescue me from my darkness andtake me away.
Is My Life A Game
Is my life a game?Is my life a game to you?Is my life a piece of toilet paperyou use and throw away.Am I not a real person with feelings to?Am I something to be used and thencast aside like yesterday underwear?Was I something to just pass the time?You never loved me.You only used me.You waited till Igave my heart to youthen you trampled it in tothe ground
InspirePonders Looking out the window Seeing a world of wonder Looking for something For something That just ain't there  The music plays on and on but whereWhere are the words?Where is my sunshine?Where is my spirit? Where is the thing that inspires me? Lost-- I am at a no winning situationWith no way out
I See
 I see I can see your chestI wish you were holding me againstI see your muscular armsI long forI want to be held in as youwhisper sweet things in my ear. But in this darkness I sitall alone with out youWith out some one to holdwith out someone to share hopes and dreams
I Miss You
I Miss YouYour smileyour eyesyour lipsI miss youYour smellyour caressYour body against mineI miss youHow long will I...How long till you...When will you say to me...I miss youI miss telling you thingsI miss the look in your eyeI miss the way you held meI miss youI took the chanceI told you my feelingsthing I had hiddenBecauseI miss youHave you figured outwhat I am trying to say I MISS YOU!!
II sit here all emotionalI sit here feeling depressedI sit here and cryyou shoot down my dreamsyou shoot down my hopeWhat goal do I havebut to be your slavebe your dollI am not your childyou are my equalnot my parentI don't need another parentI need an lover a friendI sit here cryingMaybe I am a crybabyMaybe I am emotionalBut you make me that way
I never ment to hurt youI never ment to make you cry.I would rather have to diethan make you cryPlease don't hate As it seems it was to lateTo make a date.I never ment to hurt you.I couldn't if I triedIts not something I dothe pain was just too muchI never ment to hurt you no I'm not that kind
HolidaysDays grow short and weather grows cold.As holidays grow near.Silver bells can be heard.Crowds begin to swell.Ho Ho Ho!Holidays are hereSnow covers balls of red and green twinkle under the moonlight.Oh what a holiday sightChristmas lights sparkle like the northern star. Lighting the way for Family and friends. To join in the holiday cheer.Here are the holidays just in time for snow.As the snow falls we are warmed by the hot sweet treat  While watching  the snowflakes.Dancing on the frozen window sills.
~Him~Your Hair,Your face,your Eyes,your lipsI see every DayYour fingers,your hands,your armsI can feel wrapped around meThe sensations I get from your breathon my neck or your scent. Your fingertipsgrazing my skin. Is the only thing I missBaby I need you in my arms.Baby I need to feel your love.
Hes That Man
He's that manby Mirinda WilbertMy superheroMy saftey netmy guiding lightmy saftey harnessHe's that manMy rock my soild groundHe's that manMy heart my soulmy lifeYes He's that manHes the man that makes me wholethe man that completes me the man that believes in me that man that pushes me.Yes HE'S THAT MAN!!!
Handswe all have themthey start out so smallwe use them to satisfyexplore we gnaw on themthey are always by are sidethey never leavelittle hands make little messesand little prints on fresh cleaned glassas those little hands learn they get hitand break many thingsbut you know what is funnythose little hands never stoplearning till we diel have them you have themand they start out so small
An empty slient still darknesshowling winds.Branches cracking gates creakThe rain pours down my mind wanders  the lights begin to fadeThe thunder crashessending shivers down my spine.The leaves rustleGoosebumps appear So dark So coldSomething rattles in the distanceSomething make me go coldMy breath heavy infront of me.
Giving Up
Giving up  Its to hard I am throwing in the towelMy hope my dreams there just out of reach.I try and I try  for every step forward I am pushed back six. I can't handle it.I am losing it. My mind is gonna go.My friends they are so far away. Never there to hold. To comfort.Never there to lend a helping  hand.Here it is take it I am thruThe  towel is for you.I am washing my hands. Its to hardI can't stand the load.The tears they fall and the knife nowdull. I have nothing left. I give up I am tossing in the load.
Now That I Found You
Now that I found youSince finding youmy life has meaningand appeal.I smile for no reasonI hum a little songI skip for the pure enjoyment.You've become:My knight in shiningarmorthe air that I breathethe sun that browns my skinThe rain that falls from the sky.You are my every thingsince I found youMy heart belongs toYou since finding you
This Force
This forceThere is a force running thru mesomething I can't  explain All I knowis there is an energycoursing  thru my veinswhen your around I feelwarm, loved, and specialThis force I can't explainonly when I see your facedoes it come aliveIts like  your the plugthe electricity this force I can'texplain the feelings that coursethru me I hope it never ends
Feared Run
Feared RunWe all Fear!We all run! Why?Unknown reasons! Are we scared? Yes !! Of the unknown. Why do we run? Unknown Knowledge. What do we run from?The fear of the unknown
The 1st Gal Who Ran Into My Sight
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Eternal Hell
Eternal hellThis is my living darknessin my eternal hell morebuilding up every dayLeaving darkness wherethere should have been lightThe head poundsthe eyes ache theheart turns coldand hard Blockingout the feelingsas it turns to stoneTo hide from this eternal hell thathas become my lifeMy eternal hell
Debbullan's Official Message...reaching Out To Dr. Benjamin
I am sending this evening because I found Dr Benjamin's email address earlier today. I verbally confirmed with the clinic Dr Benjamin will receive emails through the below address. Make this letter as public as you feel comfortable. Please ask everyone to keep in mind they are emailing a non profit clinic since Dr. Benjamin runs it, it also happens to also be the only way I have been able to confirmed we can contact the Doctor. Thank you for your hard work, your diligence and your heart for the patients that need you.Within the announcement I read of your being named US Surgeon General, you have been called a "superb communicator" as well as "The Future Voice of Health" Dr. Benjamin, please embrace Hepatitis C as a focus during the daylight of your public service.With your experience I am trusting that I do not have to repeat information and statistics about both HCV and Hepatitis C that you surely know as fact. Actionable focus is in dire need of your attention Doctor. Doctor you k
Dreams.  (    Second half of dreaming)Images Unclear by the light,  The fog of this dream.It does seem so real though…The   picture inside my head.The ideas are all so clouded.Is it fact or fiction?Real or make-believe?Is it just a dream?I want it to be so real.Dream!How can it be this real?The lights the fogBlocking the images of my dreams.Yes that’s the powerOf dreams. Leaving you wondering.Dreams.
Dreaming I've been dreaming of you all nightOf how, to hold you so tight.We lay under the stars so bright.Dreaming, of dreamless sleep at night.Dreaming of how to tell each other each night.The deepest things in our hearts tonight.Deep in dreams, of you, are so right.Dreaming, of you again tonight.Dreaming, of you in the twilight.Dreaming, of catching your sight.Dreaming, of the night we don’t fight.Dreaming, of holding you tight.Dreaming, I got it right.Dreaming,I've got that right.
Daddy's Rose
Daddy's RoseDaddy has a little rosethat he has had from a seedHe gave it lighthe gave it lovehe gave it lifeand let it beHe cared for ithe pulled the weedsand gave it room to growTo hearts beating in timecalling to one anotherthat’s Daddy's little Rose
comfortA memorya picturea bookcomforta shirta blanketa chaircomforta handan arma smilecomforta bottlea typea smellcomfortthese are your thingsthat comfort mecomfortI gather them andhold them closecomfortI embrace them. I hugthem When your not aroundcomfortThey bring you closethey hold me tightthey make me feel safecomfortthey remind me of youthey comfort me whenI am bluecomfortI feel safe when your not here as long as Ihave them. Comfort.
What Color Are His Eyes
What color are his eyes?I looked at you thousands of timesand never once sawI watched you face millions of timesstill I did not knowI watch you comb your hair to go out with your friendswhy sis I never lookI helped you pick shirts and ties and tuxesand still never sawI changed your diapers and powered you bottomI never noticedI bathed you when you were smallbut I never looked at themthe man behind the desk asked mewhat color are his eyes?
Can't Stay Angery
Can't stay angryTo night we fought...tonight you had me so angry...I need to be angry at you  but...I Can't ...That look...those eyes...your just can't stay angryat you I rather hold youcaress you... Tell youwhat you mean to me.How you’rethe air...the water...the sun...the moon...the stars...Your everything to me...I rather hold you than be angry.So hunny...All is forgivenbecause...I LOVE YOU.
Can't Do This
I can't do this anymore.I would rather walk out the door.You say you want to feel love.But you build walls all around.I am at a loss I don't know how to help.I don't know what to say.I have a plea that just won't do.I have begged I have pleaded.I don't know what else to do.So I do nothing.Instead I watch you build the walls higher and higher.Soon we won't see you at all.
Alonealone in an empty world of darkness.With no light I sit by myself with no one to holdno one to share my emptiness I sit  herein the darkness staring down the road waiting to see you the peoplepass by and no one cares It just grows darker and darker In myhell I am alone I see it now so alone.
Ain't A Fool
Ain't a foolChanges were madeI ain't that fool any moreold ways no more cause that fools dead and goneThings are gonna change for better or for worse Waitand see cause I ain't that fool anymorea fool I once was I can not denybut things changeI grew upand I ain't that same guy I ain'tno foolAt least not the one you knewyou can kiss my asscause I ain't that fool no more.
A Man I See
A Man I SeeI look in your eyes I seea man of compassiona man of gentlenessa man of kindnessI look at this man and I seelove for his childrencompassion for his childrengentleness for his childrendiscipline for his childrenwhom he lovesI look at this man I see aman with guiding handshusband with loving handsfriend with caring handsfather with strong handsI see a man that wants to teachright from wrong to his childrenI see a man thatis not afraid to admit when he is wrongin love with hisfamily
A Friend
A friend You have always been There when I needed a Friend. You always gaveMe encouragement. You lent me your strongArms when I needed em. You lent me a shoulderWhen I needed it. You’re my true friend. The one I share withThe one that cares.The one I hold in my heart. My friend. The one who supportsThe one who makes me smile The one I can alwaysCount on  You’re my best friendAlways.
A Feeling
 A feeling the sun shines thru the haze of the day as you watch the blue blue sky. Just as life seems a maze And your confused by the events of the day. When you think your carring the world on your shoulders.and That no one cares. You need a laugh you need a hug you need to wipe the tears away. Stand up take a deep breath and face the day. Grab your paint brush and paint the it comes to you. Know your not alone in feeling this way. Break thru the haze of the day.Send the feelings aray.Break yourself free.You know thats the key.
moreHe is more than my companionHe is more that my guiding lighthe is more than my escortHe is my life accompanimenthe is my life's mateHe completes meShe is my heartshe is my soulShe is my beingShe makes me laughshe makes me cryshe completes meWe are the air that the other breathswe are each others heart beattwo hearts beating intime wanting to be oneso today I ask my heartmy soul my companion, Mybest friend to join me as one.
Supreme Court To Hear Obama Birthplace Suit
AP- WASHINGTON  D.C. - In a move certain to fuel the debate over Obama's qualifications for the presidency, the group Americans for Freedom of Information has Released copies of President Obama's college transcripts from Occidental College Released today, the transcript indicates that Obama, under the name Barry Soetoro, received financial aid as a foreign student from Indonesia as an undergraduate at the school. The transcript was released by Occidental College in compliance with a court order in a suit brought by the group in the Superior Court of California. The transcript shows that Obama (Soetoro) applied for financial aid and was awarded a fellowship for  foreign students from the Fulbright Foundation Scholarship program. To qualify, for the scholarship, a student must claim foreign citizenship. This document would seem to provide the smoking gun that many of Obama's detractors have been seeking.                          Along with the evidence that he was first b
You Gotta Lol @ This
> Two gay men decide to have a baby. They mix their sperm together and> have a> surrogate mother artificially inseminated with it. When the baby is> born,> they rush to the hospital. A dozen babies are in the nursery ward,> eleven> are crying and screaming. Over in the corner, one baby is smiling> serenely.> > > A nurse comes by and to the delight of the gay fathers, she points out> the> happy child as theirs.> > "Isn't it wonderful?" one gay says to the other. "All these unhappy> babies> and yet our baby is so happy. This just> Proves the superiority of gay love!"> > The nurse says, "Oh sure, he's happy now, but just watch what happens> when> I pull the pacifier out of his ass.">
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Amsale – The Gifted Designer Of Bridal Creations
Do you know Amsale Aberra? If you’ve ever walked down Madison Avenue and you look up to the 2nd floor of 58th Street, you will see some of the most beautiful Custom wedding dresses adorning their window. Amsale is a gifted designer who is already renowned for her AMSALE and CHRISTOS collections. This is a woman who’s passion for celebrating brides and the magical experience that is a celebration shows in each and every gown she touches. More and more people find her for the Custom wedding gowns and custom prom dresses everyday.This is one question from an interview by Amsale. Anything else you want the readers to know about your designs? Your Custom wedding gowns or Custom prom dresses should be a reflection of your personality. It should be something you feel completely yourself in, completely comfortable, and something that in twenty years you'll look back on and love just as much as you did the day you wore it. There are a lot of dresses out there – a lot to see,
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Keeping My Patience
                K.eeping M.y P.atience   I sat back for far too long filled with hesistancy and trepidation, a spectator on a battlefield in a world gone wrong whom held caring and consideration. silent and patiently I viewed those around me fall and still I remained focused, not getting caught up,sucked up in it all The need to intercede felt hopeless.  It could've been simple to continue to watch the fall of the unprotected, but my patience and non judgementalism, that once directed and controlled my anger and had, allowed analysim, had now become affected So now I'm fighting not only on the
Autos & Cherry Bombs
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Deep Love
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Mysterious love, uncertain treasure Hast thou more of pain or pleasure! Endless torments dwell about thee: Yet who would live, and live without thee! Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, Often hot and fierce, But still only light and flickering. As love grows older, Our hearts mature And our love becomes as coals, Deep-burning and unquenchable.
My First Homework
So I have been accepted for a 2 year full time course in graphics and design art, specialising in photography, starting in september. I also got my first homework assignment, to take a series of shots, each showing one of the following as its theme, texture, line and finally shape. The last part of the assignment is to find 3 photographers who specialise in these areas and discuss their work, this one is stumping me so far. here is one my images so far.
Republican Moms For Marijuana: 'time To Legalize Is Now'
BOULDER, Colo. — As a Republican mother committed to legalizing marijuana, political life can be lonely. But while many in my party whisper about the Drug War's insanity, we should shout it from the rooftop: the time to legalize is now. Calling for a new approach doesn't make me a pothead. In fact, while I freely admit to having previously smoked marijuana -- as do more than 95 million other Americans, including our last three presidents -- I choose not to be an active marijuana user today. While opponents may argue that legalization is all about a bunch of twentysomethings wanting to get high, the debate deserves a more respectful and truthful analysis. Take medical marijuana. On July 20, Colorado's Health Board voted down a proposal that would have effectively shuttered the medical marijuana dispensaries serving as crucial sources of legal marijuana across the state. As a result, courageous patients, including AIDS survivor Damien LaGoy, will not have to take to dangerous st
What You Might Not Know About The Recovery Act
Washington SIX months ago, when President Obama and I took office, we were confronted with an economic crisis unparalleled in our lifetime. The nation was hemorrhaging more than 700,000 jobs a month, the housing market was in free fall, and the fate of the financial system hung in the balance. Credible economists were handicapping the probability of a depression. The actions we took — passing the Recovery Act, stabilizing the banking system, pressing to get credit flowing again and helping responsible homeowners — brought us back from the precipice. Monthly job losses are down, financial markets are improved, and economic contraction has slowed. We still have a long way to go, but clearly we are closer to recovery today than we were in January. The Recovery Act has been critical to that progress. Notwithstanding this progress, the nature of the Recovery Act remains misunderstood by many, and misconstrued by others: critics have suggested that the entire $787 billion is be
Iowa To Re-schedule Marijuana?
  Iowa State Capital (Iowa State Website) Iowa’s Board of Pharmacy Examiners is holding a series of meetings over the next few weeks to let the citizens of Iowa decide if marijuana is really a Schedule I drug. The results will then be presented to legislature in an official request to change the classification. Read the proposal here (pdf).Currently, marijuana is a schedule I drug according to the Uniform Controlled Substances Act. This means it has, “no currently accepted medical use in treatment in the United States.”Does it mean that if the drug does become a medical treatment, this alone would negate that drug from being a Schedule I substance? I mean technically it does say to have no currently accepted medical use, but it doesn’t say by who. Shouldn’t the fact mean something that thousands of doctors, who are the ones that use something medically, have been taking advantage of marijuana’s ability to treat medical conditions?I guess I am just
Things That Come To Mind When Your Husband Is Gone
Her light brown hair shone in the moonlight. It seemed darker, more mysterious even, by the glint of the firelight. He could barely make out the creaminess of her skin in the dark, but her eyes were pools of blackness and he regretted that he couldn't tell if they were dark brown or lighter in color. It was summer. They were camping in an effort to escape the technological age. No televisions, no cable, no computers, no telephones, not even a newspaper. True refuge from the pressures of the mundane world. They were with a group that specialized in re-creating the middle ages. The age of honor and chivalry. Of troubadours and traveling minstrels. The white pavilions gleamed in the moonlight, not with the shine of the modern nylon tent, but with an opalescence that was unique to true canvas. The fire was dwindling, but the haze lingered, not just from their fire, but from the hundreds of campsites surrounding them. Crickets chirped merrily in the night air, and the sound of drums beating
The Corner
I know I gave this a push before, but I finished it at the weekend, and it is fantastic.  An incredible piece of journalism, and manages to mix thought-provoking analysis of the big picture of the failings of America's War On Drugs, and the fallout experienced by its inner cities, with a close-up focussed look at how this affects one Baltimore corner through the eyes of one family.  Epic in scope, yet moving in its personalisation, it's nigh-on essential reading, and I'd encourage anyone to pick it up.
The Storm Has Grown
Something That I Wrote About My In Laws That Like To Butt In
This love is empty, this life I live a lie. I am no longer my own, sadly just a part of everyone's daily life, a routine. I awaken each day to the sunlit loneliness, yearning to live again.    Moments of happiness run through  my mind, only to trip over reality and fall so painfully into the place that has been made for me.    My soul hangs on to the last flicker of hope for passion unleashed! My heart slowly bleeds out from the wounds so unsparingly opened, ripped wide from selfish thoughts, self crippling by an upbringing that willingly kills another's exploration of pleasure and life. Dooming them to a worthless, self indulging life and power trips of control that is offered as a filler to their own emptiness and non existing ego, that has been inflated by a misconception of their own reality.
A Lil Something I Worte A While Back
Peeling back the layers with all faults exposed. Memories of past regret lay raped from constant thought, scars are the souls decor lining the walls so sweetly with bitterness of before, some ripped open, others slowly healing....the deeper ones lay quite, not speaking the warnings of what is to come.  A vision dies by the hands of fate.... Tears of anger stream down the face of the lover, burning the soft flesh. Silent sorrow poured into the pillows at night while the other slumbers so deeply beside, never knowing the pain that is released from his own oblivion. Teasing with the softest of touches he brings the pleasure to surface, a touch of heaven too soon torn away only to leave the lover alone once again.  Careless words are spoken that shred the spirit and deadens the heart, the mind poisoned with hurt and anger slowly builds the scar covered walls, mind racing trying to catch the heart before it falls so deeply into the abyss of lies and false hopes.  Begging for it to stop,
Mummer Hater Love...
A saved shitbox session with Bulletproof Pitbull  this is what happens when you are nice to the crazy person!   ->BULLETPROO...: thank you BULLETPROO...: have a good one and happy b-day to your daddy ->BULLETPROO...: bed* ->BULLETPROO...: but i gotta go to be gotta get up early ->BULLETPROO...: it was nice talkin to you BULLETPROO...: i'm still unbeatin hell ive even eat bounty hunter the wolf messge in a bottle havok misfit ->BULLETPROO...: Im gonna head to bed Im super pooped BULLETPROO...: there all about of ass kisser BULLETPROO...: its pathetic ->BULLETPROO...: Ive had to do it myself before BULLETPROO...: u can't tell me you wouldn't do the same if you was in my shoes ->BULLETPROO...: aaah ok BULLETPROO...: i do in my me folder its only for friends because people ripp my shit ->BULLETPROO...: why dont you have pics of yourself on your profile? BULLETPROO...: they will never adment it but i do BULLETPROO...: i own them thats a fact ->BULLETPROO...: best thing to do is let it sli
I Need Help
Be Real Be True Be Honest Be Open With Me
truth that hurts is better than web of lies
Leveling Blog #487
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Jul 26, 2009 [[misshandyman]]
Today wasn't bad. If you've been paying attention you know that I moved from my fathers back into my mothers house today. Yes, the begining of the end! -strange pause- Today we riped up the carpet, primed the walls, painted the walls, packed everything and brought it to my mothers, and unpacked it into the living room.  Tomorrow I get to unpack my bedroom. I've decided I'll wake up at nine, hop in the shower and proceed to accompany my now empty box and give it some life. Then I've got to run to UScellular and take full responsibility for the 3 lines that are in my dads name since he's moving to Florida.  Then I'll go to sadona, and job hunting in general.  Then I'll do some random choor that needs done around the house, pratice guitar and read some of my book.  Oh and call and check up on regeristing for fall classes. What an interesting day tomorrow will be. SIGH. I'll probably take a half an hour nap in the middle of the day somewhere. Otherwise today I played with my 2 year old si
THE SPOILED UNDER-30 CROWD!!! If you are 30 or older you will think this is hilarious!!!!When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tearsWith their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. Whenthey were growing up; what with walking Twenty-five miles to schoolevery morning... Uphill... barefoot.BOTH waysYadda, yadda, yaddaAnd I remember promising myself that when I grew up,There was no way in hell I was going to layA bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had itAnd how easy they've got it!But now that... I'm over the ripe old age ofThirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth oftoday.You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to myChildhood, you live in a damn Utopia!And I hate to say it but you kids today youDon't know how good you've got it!I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If wewanted to know something, We had to go to the damn library andLook it up ourselves, in the card catalogue!!There was no email!! We had to actually writeSomebody
In An Auction
hey guys i'm in an auction come bid. if that doesn't work heres he url
Silent Sacrifice
I do not enjoy existing this way, Hiding in the shadows from the light of day. Unseen by those I see yet felt by those I touch, I live in a world where war governs much   With my weapon in hand and many faces in my head, I look them in the eyes, those who’s blood I’ll shed. For I feel no pain and feel no hate, Towards those who’s life I’m about to take.   I am the hand of God; I am the dealer of fate. From a distance, in the trees and shadows I wait. With a round in the chamber and the bolt locked tight, I look them in the eyes through my telescopic sight.   They do not see me; they have nothing to say, To the sniper in the bushes 500 yards away.
Song Stuck In My Head
posted in comments cuz the blogs sucks donkey dick
Bomb.....thank You
O.K. time for a short rant. I've been able to buy a few Bombs & I've bombed some of my better Friends. Now for the rant, if someone Bombs your album i'm not asking for much but I think a "Thank you" is appropriate. I thought that people that i've had conversations with would say it but evidently I was wrong. Mostly everyone (even the non-friends) says thank you am I wrong to want a message or a shout saying "Thank you"?
The Priest & Nun
A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg.   The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, 'Fathe r, remember Psalm 129?' The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.'   Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.'  
Frozen Bird
  A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.   While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out!   He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.   Morals of the story:
Turkey & The Tree
A turkey was chatting with a bull.   'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.'   The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.   Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.  
A Wish
A Wish   I lie on the ground,and stare into space,the stars start to move,into the shape of your face. I see you there now,looking down at me,with that cute little smile,that I like to see. You say "close your eyes","tell me what you see",I see only two people,just you and me. We're walking the shoreline,with our feet getting wet,the horizon turns pink,as the sun starts to set. We make love through the night,on that white sandy shore,then I hold you while thinking,I could want nothing more. Oh I wish I could be,in that one special place,as I lie on the ground,and I stare into space.
All Because Of You
  All Because of You I awake each day with a smileAnd greet it with a laugh;The world is a treasure to meBecause of you. Every time I think of something sad,I replace the thought- with you!My mind is instantly changedAnd my heart is filled with gladness. Every breath I take is meant for you,I live this life surrounded in joyAnd I bathe in the promise of your love,My soul belongs to you. Each time I see something beautifulI want to take it and bring it to you;My life has so much meaning nowAll because of you.
All Dreamers Understand
  All Dreamers Understand   Our love was a romantic bookfrom the sacred day we met,your gentle charm enthralled mefrom then-on the scene was set:A sunny day, a rainy day,it mattered not to me,if I could see your happy faceand walk and talk with thee. When snow was falling from the skyand chilly breezes blew,were it not for your embraceI'd pine the whole day through.So now we are alone my loveI offer you my hand,to join with yours in wedlockas all "dreamers" understand
All I Can't Say
ALL I CAN'T SAY   There are so many words I cannot say, when I look into your eyes. I want to be able to tell you one day, but I'm left speechless every time that I try. You must have stumbled across the key, and discovered so much more. You found a hidden place in me, you found my heart and opened the door. And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend. Will it ever be the same again? If it passes will it be the end? I realized it was worth so much, as I lie in bed that night. So I allowed my soul to be touched, without even putting up a fight. Are my eyes deceiving me, when I see you standing there? Are you playing games, just to prove I care? You speak my name in a prelude, in a reference to love, with such loving attitude, as if it were a message from above. With the palms of your hands pressed firmly against mine, a white doves lands, and the sun begins to shine. Someday I will see, though that day has not come yet. You'll say you love me, but will you ever forget? If that ha
All I Have To Give
ALL I HAVE TO GIVE You're the first thing I think of Each morning when I rise. You're the last thing I think of Each night when I close my eyes. You're in each thought I have And every breath I take. My feelings are growing stronger With every move I make. I want to prove I love you But that's the hardest part. So, I'm giving all I have to give To you... I give my heart.    
All I See Is You
ALL I SEE IS YOU   I remember us,the way we used to be,I'd hold you in my arms,your smile so sweet to me, But now when I see you,you look right through me,I feel so alone now,but when I close my eyes... ...All I see is you. The love we used to share,gone up in whirl winds,will I ever love,or ever live again, I am tired of crying,and I am done trying,To remember all about you,but when I close my eyes... ...All I see is you. All the love I am sending,the memories I won't sell,I know there must be an ending,to the story I will tell, I dream only of your love,and happiness in life,I try not to think of you,but when I close my eyes... ..All I see is you.
All My Life
  ALL MY LIFE   It was not so long ago when I thought I'd never meet someone like you. Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control Believing I'd never fall. All my life I thought no one would melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, a heart hardened by the past, protected by shields so vast. Slowly I was falling without even knowing. Only to find out too late I have no choice but to accept my fate. I could dream, I suppose forever, I could hope there will never be any 'us', that's our destiny so I wake up to reality. I lied when I said I didn't love you, that my feelings for you are through. I lied not because I wanted to but because I love you and I still do. I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you but I just have to let go. I can't hold on much longer 'coz for us there's no forever.
All Of You
All Of You   The sound of your voice is music to my earSo soft, sweet, and clearThe kiss from your lips words can not explainIt takes away my worries and my painThe caress of your hand sends shivers down my spineEveryday I thank God that your mine. The sight of your lovely face takes away all my fearsYou're the one I want to love through out the yearsFor an eternity I want to spend in your armsEveryday graced by your beauty and your charms.  
All Over Again
ALL OVER AGAIN Last night I fell in love with youAll over again,More deeply in love,Than ever before.No one has ever expressed their love for meWith such beautiful and kind words. Last night I fell in love with youAll over again,With such stronger faithThan ever before.Knowing that you will always be there for meWhen dark shadows enter my life. Last night I  fell in love with youAll over againWith a stronger friendshipThan ever beforeWhen ever I need a tender shoulder to cry onI know you will wipe away the tears Last night I feel in love with youAll over againWith more respectThan ever beforeI look up to you and admire your strengthIn turn you have strengthen me Last I feel in love with youAll over againWith such careThan ever beforeNow I truly believe how much you care for meYou have given me life. Last night I fell in love with youAll over againWith more happinessThan ever beforeYou have brought back to me smiles and laughterThrough your loving eyes. Last night I fell in love
A Loving Peace From You
  A LOVING PEACE FROM YOU From the glowing embers of your spiritCame a little warmth of your loveTogether we set it in a cozy little spotSafe from the world up above Then a soothing breath from your lungsHelped to ignite the flameOn that lonely candleIn the core of my soul As time passed day by dayConflicts caused great winds to blowBut you cupped your hands around itAnd it just flickered with a brilliant glow They say that nothing is foreverBut I don't believe that's trueThat little candle in my heartIs a loving peace from you
A Loving Peace From You
  A LOVING PEACE FROM YOU From the glowing embers of your spiritCame a little warmth of your loveTogether we set it in a cozy little spotSafe from the world up above Then a soothing breath from your lungsHelped to ignite the flameOn that lonely candleIn the core of my soul As time passed day by dayConflicts caused great winds to blowBut you cupped your hands around itAnd it just flickered with a brilliant glow They say that nothing is foreverBut I don't believe that's trueThat little candle in my heartIs a loving peace from you
Always   I took your love for granted,Could not see through my blind eyes,I did not know how much I loved you,Now, in pain, I realize. You've found someone, I know you, Love,But the flame you lit burns on,I've really got to let you go,I must accept... you're gone. I wish I could just rewind timeTo how it was before,But however much she loves you now,I will always love you more.
Always And Forever
ALWAYS AND FOREVER Basking in the warmth of your smile And the music of your laugh I feel your tenderness And your oh so witty style I don’t know why god blessed me With such a friend as you But it makes my pleasure complete And very happy too The way you always know me And exactly what to do When my loneliness gets me down And I’m so very blue The way you see into my soul And looked behind my eyes And I don’t have to hide my feelings And put on a disguise With you I learned to trust And as I person I have grown Who could have possibly told me How could I have known That you would come in to my life And my beauty would start to bloom And like a pretty butterfly Come out of my cocoon To share your tender heart The warmness of your smile The courage of your wisdom For these I’d walk for miles To be thinking of a time When you’d no longer be there For me to gaze upon in delight And all our feelings share Is not acceptable to me Because in my life Is whe
    Antidote As I lay in the darkness,I wait for her to free me,Free me from my fears, my worries,Time slows down when she is near,For she is the key that opens the lock,The one that holds the chains down on me. I am finally set free, but I am empty inside,I cannot find a way through this lonely life of mine,For I cannot find my heart,It was lost in time, torn to pieces,The same one I left open to the world. I am now with her, my heroin, my savior,She has found the pieces,One by one she puts them together,I will never feel lonely again,For she has given me a reason,A reason to keep living, a reason to never give up love.
A Million Times
A MILLION TIMES I have seen you a million times And every time I see you I fall in love with you all over again My heart starts to race My frown turns into a smile And all my worries are now in my past When you smile at me my heart melts You give the sweetest hugs Every time you hug me Your smile is like a new day Your sense of humor is like no other The ability you have to make me smile Is all you need you love me Your laugh is so soft and sweet Just looking in your eyes Makes me melt inside Your lips look so soft Soft enough to kiss You, yourself relive me from all pain Your hands are as soft as a pillow The way you comfort me is amazing Every time we say good-bye I start to cry I say good-bye to you too many times I said good-bye to you a million times
A Moment To Remember
A Moment To Remember   A place we goto let us knowthat our love is always trueand that we will never be blue. A memory on the edge of timeA place where we are so sublime,A distant dream on a midnights evesomewhere far from acknowledged leaves. A time in which we fell deeper in lovejust like to turtle doves.We sang our songs and gave our tokento remember one single moment.
Am I Crazy Or Is This Love?
  Am I crazy or Is This love?   It seems you were sent straight to me from above Your smile is bright enough to bring the day Your eyes so blue, I just have to say There couldn't be anything more perfect in one place Your beauty is much deeper than just your face They say love takes time but yet . . . . It feels as if we've already met It feels like we were meant to be Together forever . . . You and Me
A Loss Of My Kid
As all of you know, My pets, my “kids” mean the world to me and this evening I had to bury one of them. It's funny how this little shit who would chew my shit up and make me so mad brought so much joy into my life. My kids are my world and a part of me was put in a hole tonight. I will miss you Desi, my little man.      
Gone But Not Forgotten
...Some time ago, when I first joined the fu, I had stuff boiling in my head, words that cried for release. I remained aloof to almost all I met, to even those closest to me and this in itself had begun to bother me, to make me feel inhuman in a way. Over this last weekend, an experience changed me down deep in my soul, and my eyepoint view has changed dramatically. What follows here are words I put down after burying my FATHER, but what comes afterward is different, and you will know it when you read here we go......Real men are conditioned from an early point in life to contain the things that put them in small, sealed boxes and bury them in the far, nether regions of our mind where only we can get to them. C, it's done for a reason. We have to be tough, immune, bulletproof. We have to be rock steady "WHEN THE ELEPHANT WALKS" the military puts it. Therefore, my dear readers, there are dark, emotional things that come to the surface at indeterminate points, and
Lightning And Fireworks Celebration Of Lights 25 July 2009
Its a must see.   In my stash. Peace All
Why Don't You Let Me Love You
Nobody wants to be lonelyNobody wants to cryMy body's longing to hold youSo bad it hurts insideTime is precious and it's slipping awayAnd I've been waitin' for you all of my lifeNobody wants to be lonelySo whyWhy don't you let me love you
Angel and Demon.   I know what the level 28 abilities are for them, but what are the upper level abilities? And Why don't some of my higer up friends use them on me??? hahaha. I just wanna see what they are.
Soldier's Poem
Ok, Iknow I screwed this up the first blog go figure. But anyhow. This is a short poem I found in my wallet today. I isn't long but I remember my grandma gave it to me when I deployed to Iraq, I kept it for the whole deployment and then some. God and the Soldier All men adore In the time of trouble And no more: For when war is over And all things righted God is neglected The old soldiers sighted. I have no clue what this entails but I have had it in my wallet for almost 6 years now.
Things I’ve Noticed Since I Moved To The Woods.
Choosing a roommate you like is important. Being able to stand yourself is essential. The fog wafting through the trees is as lovely as the morning sun streaming through them, in its own way. The mist collecting into clear drops of water at the end of branches is lovelier than jewels. A dog inside a house always wants to go out, and a dog outside the house always wants to come in. Quiet is a weird sound. Nice—but weird. A wood stove is a lot warmer than central heat. Pick-up trucks are NOT brand new shiny toys used just for showing off your manhood. Getting the mail requires hiking boots and a walking stick. Curb side garbage pick-up is a luxury most people take for granted. Worn out, ratty blue jeans are NOT a fashion statement that one pays $75 for. They get that way from actual work. The number of “friends” you have drops dramatically when they have to make an actual effort to see you. Waiting for nice weather to do roof repair is not an option. Nei
Her Death
Vanessa Out of all my regrets u r 1.  The last time i heard your voice was Sept. 17th 2001, on my B-Day.  Worst of all it was on my voice mail, the same day i was to leave for Ft. Leonard Wood, the day id leave everyone behind for the ARMY.  I miss you more than anything in this world, i cry everytime i think of how selfish i was and how i wish i just could see u one last time, to tell u good-bye and ask u y u didn't tell me how sick you were, y did u hide it from me, we were so close u were more than my God-Mother, u were my best-friend the only person i could turn to for anything.  ive since learned that u passed away in november of 2001 and thats all i know, i need u right now, so bad.  my life is such a mess, id give anything to turn back time, i would have went with u instead of staying here, i wouldn't have joined the ARMY and i would have the closer i need.  i will never give up finding u, i love you with all my heart, my Vanessa.........
The Mind Wanders
I'm sitting here waitin to talk  to you..........and it's raining here. Listening to it hit the sliding glass door and balcony.......what would this be like in your arms.......with you in mine. I'm thinking of things I've not allowed into my mind for sooooo long now.....and I DON'T KNOW HOW to conquer the touch your slide my fingers down your feel your breath against me......and I am nervous, so try again.
i wanna punch my ex wife in the face     /end
The Perfect Night
THE PERFECT NIGHT BY THOMAS CLOUD She walked into the room dressed in a sexy black lingerie, her voluptuous breast compliment her medium sized waist, Her ass plump like two small watermelons. She strolled over to the sofa where i was sitting, My eyes in awe, my penis getting hard. the thoughts running through my mind were almost perverted. She gently and slowly took the remote from my paralyzed hand, She took hand and placed it on her thigh, slowly up and down her nighty making sure to run my hand up under her nighty.As my hand traveled up her nighty i felt my erection growing immensly.Slowly with my other hand i began stroking and massaging my penis,thoughts of passion and lust raiding my mind. She then slaps me across the face and says "No No touching yourself"She then run my fingers around her vagina slipping my fingers inside from time to time, My penis begins to throb as she licks my fingers. She shoved me back onto the sofa and slowly began unbuttoning my shirt,
Sick of your attitude sick of you your social clubs your flavour of the month i dont care you know you dont know shit fuck your popularity contest i wanna see a murder contest why are you even here? who do you know and who fucking cares?
  Well it started off as a crazy year, my last semester in High School, get called to the guidance counselors’ office and find out that I need three history credits to graduate.  I already had planned on having almost totally computer/free periods (completed all computer classes) for this last semester, and even maybe taking some college level courses.  Damn, there goes my “easy” schedule.  I figure that I would take Modern European History (since I have been back from Germany less than 2 years ago), Civil War History (since I am a civil war buff) and Modern Government.  I will admit here that history is my worst subject, but figured these would be the easiest for me.  Problem is all the dates basically coincide; I barely pass with a D, D and a C.  My plans to design IBM Computers (the ground work as already laid down) disappear.  To bring the grades back up, I go to a community college after I graduate (yes, I did graduate, barely though, but I graduated) where in t
When Life Gives You Lemons
The local bar was so sure that its bartender was the strongest man around that they offered a standing $1000 bet. The bartender would squeeze a lemon until all the juice ran into a glass, and hand the lemon to a patron. Anyone who could squeeze one more drop of juice out would win the money. Many people had tried over time (weightlifters, longshoremen, etc.) but nobody could do it. One day this scrawny little man came into the bar, wearing thick glasses and a polyester suit, and said in a tiny squeaky voice "I'd like to try the bet." After the laughter had died down, the bartender said OK, grabbed a lemon, and squeezed away. Then he handed the wrinkled remains of the rind to the little man. But the crowd's laughter turned to total silence as the man clenched his fist around the lemon and six drops fell into the glass. As the crowd cheered, the bartender paid the $1000, and asked the little man, "What do you do for a living? Are you a lumberjack, a weightlifter, what?" The man replied,
I Love My Life Right Now.
  So I got home from school, i walked through the door and WOW.... the  dishes was done , the living room was cleaned up and the kids was taking a nap.I was shocked,but  a good way.See my husband  must think im super women.I say that because  he thinks I can do it all, give plasma 2x a week, school 3 days a week, work 4 days a week, 3  small kids to take care of the moment I get home,and to top the list he(hubby) want me to clean the house.Now I don't mine doing these things ,but come on now!! thats alot on 1 person, and I told him so. He didn't want  to hear me.So I stop doing the dishes. After 3 days and no clean dish, he had to wash them.    :D    and now it's like he heard me. He's  been so nice and soo sweet to me. Alot like the man I married 9 yrs ago. I hope things keep getting better between us,to where we can move on with our life together. Well folks I just wanted to update you all. If your the praying type please keep us in your prayers.
My Sister And Friend Pokimex
My sister sigh.....what can I say She's nuts and a sweetheart everyday I love talkin to my sis she always sumin new but one things for sure there always a fuck you but she can be soo sweet and caring at times but someones always makin her loses her mind she a great friend an I thinks she's great and always on time even if she's a lil late my sis what can I say she supports me everyday I love my sis and she a good girl Sis is always letting me know what's in her world I find myself cussin people out cause some treated her wrong But when I got there shes already got them actin like emo's in thongs it's funny she knows I'm ready to ride but when she goes off, I gotta go run and hide my sis SMC soundin off like a SMG sigh..... what is there else to say you are the best sister I can have and I wouldn't have it anyother way THANX SIS MUAH!!!! OH SHIT SHE GOIN OFF AGAIN GOTTA GO PEACE!!!!
Who Knows.........
Have you ever just wanted to give up finding that special someone? Have you ever just wanted to give up on love? To never risk being hurt once again. To not bother trying anymore or meeting people. Have you ever been so sick of trying to figure out? Have you ever put yourself and your wants and needs aside that you don't know how to do anything else but put others first ALL the time? This all seems to be where I'm at these days and I am sick of it all!! I have one special friend that could be more but I am sick of trying to figure that person out and always left feeling in the lurch or lost. So for now limbo is where I sit and just waiting for something..........  
Test New Bully  
A Zero To The Left
Your memory lingers like a summer’s rain and it falls upon me. Like an exploring volcano is my passion for you. But a slow fire burns and soaks at the same time. I don’t know what to think; perhaps I’m just a zero to the left, and as much as I want to multiply my love times your scorn, I always get a zero.
Damaged - Danity Kane
My best friend says this is my song, not just as an aftermath of my marriage, but from all the other shit I've been through in my life.  I had to laugh.  Funny, sad & true at the same time. "Damaged"Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?Tell me,are you patient,understanding?Cause I might need some time to clear the hold in my heart and II've tried every remedyAnd nothing seems to work for meBaby, (baby)this situation is driving me crazyAnd I really wanna be your ladyBut the one before you left me so[Chorus:]Damaged, damagedDamaged, damagedI thought that I should let you knowThat my heart isDamaged, damagedSo DamagedAnd you can blame the one beforeSo how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix itHow you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)Do Do you got a first aid kit
Sooo...tonight I went over to my great aunt with my mom and grandpa.   We had one of those "talk about other members of the fam when they are not there" convos, and I was amazed to hear all this stuff about my grandma from her sister in law.   My grandma is extremely stubborn, and seems VERY stern and unemotional, but...she treats me like a grandma would, so I never really knew how she was with others. My great aunt said that she doesnt know why her brother was even with her, cause she totally didnt give a shit about anyone but herself, had him completely pussywhipped, and always had a heart of stone.   This made me cringe inside a little, since it was my grandma they were talkin about...who made me yummy food every day, taught me violin, walked me to school, put up with my scandalous behavior.   And yet, thinking about the way she talks to others, the way she carries herself, and the way she treated my late grandpa, I can totally see where my great aunt is coming from. *sighhh
Princess Rbk And Johnnydevil....helmet?
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Do They Sell Diapers At The $1 Store???
New babies are suppose to be a good thing. When you find out someone is pregnant you're suppose to be happy. Right? I just found out my favorite little cousin is pregnant. She's not working right now and neither is HE. She has fibromyalgia and they're living in a packed house with her mom. So what now? Horrible timing. It's not fair. She deserves better. She's worked so hard all her life to NOT be a statistic, to NOT be a young mom depending on her parents. Now this. Just like everyone else? NO. I'm just so sad. I know it's not about me, ffs. She and I are so close...she deserves more. I cried on the drive home. This child will be born into a fucked up world with this shitty economy, living off the government with parents who are still babies themselves. This fuckin sucks.   -REL
Poetry From My Book
How do you deal with pain?When it consumes you like the heat of a summers’ dayWhen all your life you’ve hidden it awayThen someone comes along and says it doesn’t have to be that waySays be yourself you are a flowerYou let go, then in a blink of an eye your world turns sourHow do you deal with pain?When you lye in a sea of disparityOvertaken with thoughts of uncertaintyHow do you deal with pain?When all the acts and words you thought to be trueTurn out to be lies simply fed to youHow do you deal with pain?When it comes to passThat preceding daysWere filled with misguided notionsShowered with false emotionsHow do you deal with pain?When all you thought was real in your lifeEnds up in strifeHow do you deal with pain?If what you feel devours you spiritIf everyday you constantly feel itHow do you deal with pain?When expectations of the one you loveSeemed not so far out of reachWhen foreseen acts of the one you loveAppeared as though they would not end up breachHow do you
My Love
I really thought that you did love meThat day you clocked me in da face.You said my fried up chili chitlinsTurned out to be a pure disgraceI thought you were, like, all romanticWhen you unloaded in my hair.You've left me feeling sad and frantic,Your crusted jizz is still in there.I really loved the way you touched meWith your size 13 army boot,The way we shared together needlesWas just so ultimately cuteI thought you were the one and only,You even had my email addyI want you livin in my trailerAnd be my 16th baby daddyBut now my life is done and overYou've turned it into livin hellThe day you told me that youve knocked upThat ugly skank from Taco Bell
Something New...
Since the moment i saw him life was worth while..a sence of being and a sence of style..brought into my life like a great surprise..he doesnt know it though he tries..hope and love will guide us through...all you should know is i think i love you
So walking past a tattoo parlour twice or more a week has got me to thinking about getting one done. This is purely still a thought at this point, but I've been thinking of the getting the pic below on the back of my left shoulder.   Any thoughts?       And obviously just the bird...
High School Memories
What school did you go to?Columbi River Who were your freshman teachers? Mrs. Mckinney,Mrs. Mills,Mrs. Miller,Mr. Paola,that cunt Ms. Valeos Who did you like?a few that would be offended if they knew i breathed the same air they did How many A's did you have? F's? 2 A's no F's Were you a nerd? noDid you think you were cool because you were in highschool? at first but then i realized i was an idiotWho was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? my daughters mom was my first gf actuallyHow many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in high school? 0Did you swear much in high school? like a sailor...still doWho was your favorite teacher in senior year? Mr. O'RourkeDid you have any major crushes? oh yeah...Shannon Ponciano and Erica Sanders(she looked like winney coopers twin sister)Who was your best friend? Jerimiah PorterDid you go to any dances? Senior Prom and thats it...i was always turned down for the othersDid you actually dance? i did actuallyWhat sports did you play? footb
Cant Be Good
ever get the feeling ur mind/brain is taking a holiday? well i do, and mine is.........i feel like my mind is floating just in front of me, functioning fine but not totally in control, kinda like a dream, i was fine earlier, i aint been out today so theres no way i been spiked, not that a blog will shed any light but you never know...might hav happened to someone else. seem to be missing a few hours too, i dont think i fell asleep as i dont remember waking which makes it all the more surreal feeling. maybe im just tired, i dunno.
I cry all the timeFor reason not knownI search for that girlThe one that is home grownI dream of how she would beAnd how great she will actOne day i will find herI know for sure thats a factI know that when i doAway will go my painUntil that day happensI continue standing in the rain
Dakota Rock Fest Adventure
  Dakota Rock Fest was the 24th and 25th this month.  I wanted to go so bad, but me nor any of my friends that also wanted to go could afford it.  One drunk night last week, my buddy threw out the idea that we could sneak it.  I was game.  I like adventures.  Friday I went and met up with my buddies at their house for our excellent journey.   It started off by not being in the turning lane at a red light on Cliff Ave. when we needed to turn left.  Fuck it, nobody was coming, so he gunned it.  Parked the truck at D's and walked the backway to the bike trail.  Sweet.  It was a lovely day, warm with a nice breeze.  I had my hair in low pig tail braids.  Perfect.  We are marching along the trail, listening to the music and cheering like we are right up there with the rest of the crowd.  The passerby's were giving us interesting looks, but it was fabulous.  We were living in the moment, not having a care in the world.  The three of us.  Great friends.  Already had made a few phone calls to
Childhood Memories
share your fondest childhood sad stuff tho this is happy time dammit     when i was growing up we had a big hill next to my house and my best friend had a radio flyer wagon with slats and so all the neighborhood kids would go to the top of the hill and fly down it....we lived on a dead end street but if a car came the spotters at the bottom would yell "CAR!" and we would stop...and by stopping i mean we usually went ass over teakettle from tipping the wagon
What Decade Fits Your Personality
What decade fits your personality 1970's You have a great taste in music and a particular love for rock. You love to chill and party with your friends, and most consider you the epitome of "cool" because of your rebellious nature and sense of adventure for life. You're trendy in style and have strong opinions about religion and politics. You are against "the man" and the injustices of the world and tend to have a guard up with people you don't know very well. But you save your deepest emotions and romantic side for that special someone.You have a lot of inner convictions and beliefs, but definitely come across as extremely easy-going and flexible. You are actually a good mixture of the two, but once in a while you let your laziness get the best of you. You're all about having a cause and having even more of a great time...sometimes TOO great of a time ;)
Opening Up The Network
Ive started working on a community site that will make it alot easier for the fans to interact. Also, since in Beta mode i get to play with lots of new ideas, for the most part if your not shy you can check it out and post stuff, Im looking at creating an RM model add you can stop by and check out the progress on that.   ClubRed      
Lift Your Drinks!!!!
To Men with big dicks and long licks...........................   and for you fella's....................   To Women with big tits and tight slits...............
A Blue Star In Your Eyes
A BLUE STAR IN YOUR EYES   I never knew there would be a better tomorrow But you've come into my life and taken away all my sorrow My days of sadness are a thing of the past Because I have found true love at last My days of emptiness are gone for good Because you fill a void in my heart that you should You've opened a window You've shown me the light And my love for you will continue to burn bright.  
A Blue Star In Your Eyes
  A BLUE STAR IN YOUR EYES   On the wings of an eagle,My love for you flies.Soaring higher and higher,And touching the skies. I reached up above,And pulled a star from the sky.To place it within,Your precious minds eye. To dwell there forever,As my love for you.On the wings of our love,Enduring and true. I honor you my darling,With all that I am.Please darling please,Will you be my man? There are so many things,My heart wants to say.I love you sweetheart,There is no other way.
A Breathtaking Fantasy
      A Breathtaking Fantasy   My dearest, here I am planninga trip down the lane to the sea,in August as the sun is shiningand you're there to comfort me.A breathtaking fantasy. Over the fields we will ramblepicking fruit from God's bramblesoft fruit for jelly & blackberry pie,oh happy day ~ sing I, sing I,as my eyes point up to the sky. We should be well-nourishedwith His gift of the purest,edible berries, and vitamin "C"giving us strength and vitality,ever to be in love you see. My dearest, here I am planninga breathtaking trip to the sea,down lover's lane so beguiling,berries will grow wild and free.A breathtaking fantasy.
Brand New Day
  A BRAND NEW DAY Rest your head and close your eyesEverything will be okayFor when you wake with the sweet sunriseIt will be a brand new dayTurn down the lights and pull me closeFeel only the beating of our hearts as we layFor when you wake with the soft morning breezeIt will be a brand new dayRelax your body and caress my soft hairLet all of life's worries melt awayFor when you wake with the warm summer scentIt will be a brand new dayFall fast asleep and dream with meWhisper "I love you, I'm here to stay"For when we wake in each other's armsIt will be a brand new day
A Dreamer Of Dreams
A DREAMER OF DREAMS You have come to me from a distant land,Dreamer of dreams, to fill my hearts desire,Sweet music flowing from your nimble handThat plays within... to light my passion's fire. A symphony of word and thought you bring.Excitement builds upon crescendo's sound,Brought forth in tones to make my light heart singFor all the beauty that, with you, I've found. A life is changed in just an instant's time,All darkness fled before that brillaint sunThat shines from spoken words of softest rhymeAnd speaks of treasures, only just begun. This mystic meeting gives my heart a glowThat few have seen and only you will know.
A Cute Poem For A Cute Girl
    A CUTE POEM FOR A CUTE GIRL You changed my world with a blink of an eye That is something that I can not deny You put my soul from worst to best That is why I treasure you my dearest Marites You just don't know what you have done for me You even pushed me to the best that I can be You really are an angel sent from above To take care of me and shower with love When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear And your touch have chased away all of my fear You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile It is even better everytime you smile It so magical those things you've made To bring back my faith that almost fade Now my life is a dream come true It all began when I was loved by you Now I have found what I am looking for It's you and your love and nothing more Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment In my life something I've never felt I wish I could talk 'til the end of day But now I'm running out of things to say So I'll end by the line you already
A Fine Romance
A FINE ROMANCE One day, your arms will possess me,One day, you will ask for my hand,One day, the ring will be shining,In the sun as we walk thro' the sand. One day, romance will caress me,One day, the church bells will chime,And we will go cruising together foreverFor the love of my dreams will be mine.
A Gentle Touch
A GENTLE TOUCH A gentle brush of his fingers,Sending shivers down my spine.In the love I see in his eyes,Is a love that equals mine. He greets me with a smile,And leaves me with a kiss.If he were to ever leave me,I couldn't imagine what I'd miss. Maybe it's his touch,Or the way he makes me feel.But whatever it is,I'm head over heels  
A Gorgeous Pleasant Surprise
A GORGEOUS PLEASANT SURPRISE   You came into my life so quick, A gorgeous pleasant surprise,I hoped you wouldn't give me the flick,Then, a beautiful friendship did arise. Our bond was so very strong,It couldn't help but turn into love,We wondered if going further was wrong,But we fit each other like a glove. It feels so right to be so near,To feel like we are but one,Sometimes our love is worth a tear,Those tears of joy, I'm sure there are more to come It really is love, my baby,The longing for one anothers lips,You are my beautiful young lady,I know it as we dance with my hands upon your hips.
A Heart Of Stone
  A Heart Of Stone   Once I had a heart of stoneFor it had surley lost its homeIt could not love or wanted tooBut in my life, then came you. The stones began to fall awayAs happiness began to fill my dayA feeling so sweet and special tooCould this be love, I pray is true. My heart now sings a song of loveFor I know that it was  sent from aboveMy heart is warm, there is no coldHard no more, but with wings of gold. It soars above the sky so highSometimes I think of why and cryMy heart now sings a loving songFor the part of me I thought was gone. The gift that you have given meIs so important, can't you seeNo more sadness or being aloneFor now my heart returns to home
A Knight In Shining Armor
  A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR In this world full of hurt and pain,I need someone who would help me through the rain.To comfort me when Im sad,Doing everything just to make me glad. In this world I need a Brave Knight,Who would never give up any fight.A knight who would dry away my tears,Telling me to overcome my fears. A knight who loves me for who I am inside,With him there's nothing more I need to hide.A person who will still be standing strong,Eventhough everything has gone wrong. I need someone who is willing to give me more,Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor.
A New Life Waiting
A New Life Was Waiting Inviting - exciting - emotionwith power I had never known,a world of unchained devotionbecause you were my very own.I had fallen in love with you. Together we sailed in springtimeto an isle beyond seas of blue,and when we returned, a new lifewas waiting, in a valley of dreamswhere I first fell in love with you.
A Friend In Need
  As I stated in my My Sanity Saved blog,I have friends who would do anything for me but now,has come the time to do anything for one of those friends.  I have a friend who is a heroin addict,she's been that way since 2006. It started after a guy she dated got her on the stuff. Now that he left her for some whore,she's left alone with her habit. I'm not sure how to approach this because of three factors,I have been in love with her for a long time (before her addiction)I am newly divorced and I don't want to seem like I'm using her need for help to gain a new relationship beyond friends. Katrina is one of the greatest people I know. She's one hell of an artist and a damned good friend. I have been staying at her place,trying to convince her that what she's doing is going to kill her BUT most importantly,being there as her friend.   It kills me just to look at her,the drugs have made her so different. Not just in looks but in her self-esteem. I've dealt with this with my ex and my dad
Ilove You
Every time we embrace,I go to that far away placeWhen we just walk hand in hand.I’m in never, never land. Whenever I look into your eyes,I begin to get butterflies,Then my heart skips a beat,And our lips passionately meet. You are always on my mind,Your face is all it can find.I think about you every dayAnd know it’ll work out somehow, some way. Some say we’re dumb and foolishSome say we should do as we wishBut all my heart could ever doIs tell you that I’ll always LOVE YOU.  
Little Princess (by Hevvyd)
Little princess, why do you weep?Has the sun left you and gone to sleepOr is it because you’re lonely, restless, and meekLittle princess has God not blessed you with a beautiful child?Has he not given you His love in the eyes of a child?Little princess, why do you sigh?Have all of God’s angels left you without any stars in the skyOr is it because time has slipped through your hands, and all that’s left are grains of yourMost painful timesLittle princes has God not embraced you and warmed you with his heartDid he not lay down his life, just to set you a part?Little princess, why do you hide?Are you scared someone will see the child inside?Or is it easier to hide your fears, when no one is around to see your crystal tearsLittle princess don’t be silent, tell God what you seekIf He made the heavens, I’m sure He has what you needLittle princess He wants to make amends, just hand him the pieces and His angels will mend.
They Say...
They say if you want something done right you should do it yourself, but I have my own version: If you want something done, do it yourself.
Being A Single Woman In America
Being a Single Woman in America: The Do's and Don'ts; The De-classified guide to survival if you want to stay sane and avoid heartbreak; and reason's to enjoy and revel in your single lifestyle.   First I'm going to start with the Do's and Don'ts. -Do have fun. Enjoy the witty banter and flirtation here and in the real world. Enjoy the eye candy, remember it's okay to look....just sometimes don't touch or you might get bitten. -Don't give out your personal info unless you trust the person. Whether you met him here on Fubar; online in general; make sure that they talk to you about more than just sex, and things of a sexual nature. Look for someone who likes talking (in my case japanime, WoW, fantasy books, history, philosophy and theology-NEVER GO INTO POLITICS until you're really close with the guy). If you are only looking for just sex..well then go for it, you were warned. -Do put your foot down early. It's easier to do so then, then wait and realize your living to please othe
The Big Corona
Fantasy Nights
My wife and I were over to our friend’s house for New Years. It had become a bit of a tradition for us since we got married. The wife was pregnant with twins and almost due, so it had been months for me without sex, unless you call jerking off sex.Well, as the night wore on I got chatting with a friend (Jane) of my mate’s wife (Michelle). At about 10 pm my wife turns to me and says she is tired and is heading to bed, so I kissed on the cheek and said goodnight. I went back to chatting with Jane and as the New Year came we kissed each other on the cheek and said happy New Year.At about 2 am there was just me Jane and Michelle awake. The other guys had passed out or gone to bed. Jane suggested a game of pool so we started playing, when Michelle said, “Let’s make it fun and play strip pool. For every ball you don’t sink you have to loose some clothing. I was a bit taken aback at first with the alcohol and the idea of seeing both them naked or at least partly
Murmer Me In Ecstacy
Cool glimmer the day of fireQuench thy hand of my desireWhispers echo in the windCaught among the thoughts therein Shall I ring the prison bellsCaught among the endless swell Day be done and yet it comesCall to me in ecstasyI could be your destiny Day is as daylight breaksFor there’s a whim upon my plateChance it will be my very fateTo chance among the choice I make Murmur me in ecstasyBeneath the light that we both seeFor I am yours and you will seeThat this is how it’s meant to beFor there’s a light you leave in me   Darryn John Murphy
Sack Lunches
The Sack LunchesI put my carry-on in the luggage compartment and sat down in my assigned seat. It was going to be a long flight. 'I'm glad I have a good book to read Perhaps I will get a short nap,' I thought.Just before take-off, a line of soldiers came down the aisle and filled all the vacant seats, totally surrounding me. I decided to start a conversation... 'Where are you headed?' I asked the soldier seated nearest to me.'Petawawa. We'll be there for two weeks for special training, and then we're being deployed to Afghanistan.After flying for about an hour, an announcement was made that sack lunches were available for five dollars. It would be several hours before we reached the east, and I quickly decided a lunch would help pass the time.As I reached for my wallet, I overheard a soldier ask his buddy if he planned to buy lunch. 'No, that seems like a lot of money for just a sack lunch. Probably wouldn't be worth five bucks. I'll wait till we get to base'His friend agreed.I looked
A Love Now Lost
I glance upon the memories of us I begin to cry. Why did I let you take my heart And throw it to the side. I thought things were perfect I guess thoughts aren't always true. Forever in my mind I could see myself with you. Now those dreams are gone Faded in the night. The light that shined around you Is no longer shining bright. You're no longer my one and only It seems you're never there. Please don't get me wrong I assure you, I'll always care. I've given up so much for you It doesn't seem, you quite know. I gave you an everlasting love
Truth Hurts
What Part of Europe are you from: The part whose ass we saved or the part whose ass we kicked? "Fairness" isn't giving my money to lazy people. Silly liberals paychecks are for workers. I'm Republican because we all can't be on Welfare. White straight republican male (How else can I piss you off today?) Don't spread my wealth around, spread my work ethic. If it sounds like Marx and acts like Stalin, it's probably Obama. You think healthcare is expensive now? Wait till it's free! Why in the hell should I have to press "1" for English? Try being informed instead of opinionated. Republicans: We work hard so you don't have to. Actually no one owes you crap. How long before you admit that Obama was a mistake?'s that whole "hopey-changey" thing working out for ya? Government doesn't work: Please return my taxes "I believe the best Social program is a job."-Ronald Reagan Confuse a liberal: Use logic and facts How will Democrats stand up to terrorists when they can't
You Are The One For Me
You Are The One For Me   Your the one for me In my heart I feel like we were meant to be No one has ever made me feel the way I do But thats was way before I met you I've never fallen in love so fast I just hope this feeling will last Your the one I've been searching for my whole life And one of these years I wish to be your wife I hope you feel the way I feel Because all of this just seems to wonderful to be real.  
Missing You
  Missing You I'm missing you like crazyI think I'm going madI simply can't stop thinking of the special times we had. Each moment lasts an hourEach hour lasts a dayThe clock is ticking slowlyJust because you went away. I need you here beside meI just want to see your faceTo feel your precious heartbeatAnd be lost in your embrace. I gaze out of the windowAnd look up at the moonI play the waiting GameAnd pray you'll be here soon. They say hope springs eternalWell I only hope it's trueFor I can't bare the emptinessThat comes from missing you.  
Your Magic
Your Magic   One glance from her eyesso dark and so brown,put him under her spell,his world spun around One smile from her lips,his heart skipped a beat,her womanly spell,knocked him right off his feet One word, just one look,he flew out of control,and her magical spell,touched the heart of his soul Her voice of pure velvet,his thoughts were now drifting,her magic and laughter,her joy so uplifting For her magic, her charms,her feminine ways,would enchant him would capture him,all of his days His heart was now hers,his love hers to keep,for the power of her magic,that moved him so deep For the love in her eyes,sent him out of control,and her magical spell,played the harp of his soul.
You Were Once
YOU WERE ONCE   I once loved you so much And for so long. Why did you leave When I did nothing wrong? Your smile was once the sun On a dark, rainy day. It would clear up the sky And keep it from being gray. Your eyes were once the shine Of the world's glowing light. Or were they the twinkling stars That once filled the night? Your hands once had power To give me the softest touch. They'd always give me a slight tingle, Which is why I loved them so much. Your hugs were once the medicine That'd change a frown to cheer. A shiver would run through my body Every time I feel your love near. Your kisses were once the wind, They were fresh and breezy against my face. They were gentle, so gentle, It's something no one will replace. But, now you like someone else, And it's driving me insane. Although it's over for us, The love we had still remains. And so I tell myself... Never again will I cry. You were once everything to me, That I can't deny. But I couldn't keep my promise And brok
Happy Ending
[Tech N9ne] I don't even wanna fucking do this song, for real But I wouldnt be real if I didnt [Tech] I be sittin by myself and I be thinkin, mamma what have I become All I wanted was a family, but when I look I be the only one Losing everything but money, everybody left and I dont even get to see my young Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run On the road, doin shows, get the woes, when it slows gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin sold I've been doin this a minute but I think I wanna end it cause I'm on a higher level when I go But the music I be doin it, be losin, make it hard for me to grow All I wanted is a family portrait, see my babys on a ranch with horses But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets. I was livin really good but I torched it I'm sorry ms jackson, I'm speakin for real and I never meant to make your daughter cry But I guess I'm a failure with women and I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die Feel like I'm rotting away, my
Control Freaks Part 2
   Well here we ago again with the contrl freak issue.....   Now theres a rumor that my lounge and my sister lounge is causing drama???? I know for a fact that we arent. We dont tell our members and our staff who they can talk to un like you.    Both our lounges are DRAMA FREE! As you very well know by now that you are banned from my lounge because of the drama that you came in and started when you knew that I wasnt there. And you had to start it with my other owner. You didnt have the guts to come in when I was in there because you know that I WLL NOT TOLERATE THE DRAMA FROM YOU OR YOUR  STAFF!!     LEAVE MY SON ALONE!! YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS BECAUSE HE DIDNT WANT YOUR ALCOHOLIC OLD BODY OR THAT OF YOUR MANAGER! AND HE WAS SMART ENOUGH TO LEAVE YOUR LOUNGE ( THE BEST THING THAT YOU DID WAS FIRE HIM).       ITS TOO BAD THAT AT LEAST 8 OR MORE LOUNGES WANTED HIM... SO YOU THINK THAT YOU HURT HIM? NOT IN THIS LIFE TIME! YOU ONLY PROVED A POINT THAT HE IS WELL LIKED AND WANTED. SO SUFFE
Killing Time... :)
Are you ready for some questions that you barely find in other surveys?Bring it on.. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, any problems?Not at all.. Good times a go ;) we always have fun together Have you ever caught a fish?Plenty o' fish What was the last beverage you had?ICE.. yeah im addicted to ICE Are you someone who worries too often?Not worries... but over thinks too much yeah Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?ummm nope.. i would have to put pants on Did you wake up before 8am this morning?hahahaha yeah.. around 6 am.. GOOOD morning Do you wear eyeliner?yes i do Do you get mad easily?not at all Have you ever felt like you were not good enough?at times yes.. but i KNOW that i am in the end How do you feel about your hair right now?its messy and dirty... Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?yep.. Truth or dare always turns sexual, doesn't it?only the fun games do. Where is the person who has your heart?Many people hav
Journey Of The Soul
I used to sit and listen to the sounds of the ocean. Listening to the waves as they brushed the sandy skin of the earth. The gentle rasping sending soothing vibrations to the soul. The feel of the water brushing my legs feels like the carress of a lover. I lay back and close my eyes and dream as the water slowly washes away the stress and worries of the hectic life around me. The cycle of the ocean's gentle carress lulls me to a timeless sleep where my soul floats in an endless sea of emptiness. Opening my eyes I see the world with a new sight. The darkness is washed away as the vivid colors leap out at me. I am able to see the world for what it truly is and not what we are made to see it as. I can truly see for the first time the unlimted possibilties that lie before me.  I stand and smile, looking out over the ocean of my soul. Feeling at peace once again, i turn and walk back to the darkness that man has created. The light of my soul keeping the darkness from touching me for yet
Caa #118
One of my dearest friends here on fubar has special need of angel prayers of healing, love and strength.  She has found out that her husband has cancer.  My prayers and thoughts go with you and your family, my dear friend.   Doc
I'm Engaged!!!
We went up to the cabin again this weekend.... We love it so much up there!!! Took a hike up to elephant rock with my man this morning....sun peaking through the clouds... tree tops as far as the eye could see...aspens chiming in the wind... Ssssoooooo pretty... He gets down with one knee on the rock, opens a tiny black box and says... "I was wondering if you'd marry me?" Of course, I said YES!!! *dances* My ring is sooooo gorgeous!! It's three Aquamarine *my birthstone* with four small diamonds surrounding set in white gold...before you fuckers call my man cheap...this ring is perfect for me *not high maintance, at all* As soon as I get it sized, I'll take pictures.... *grinz* It's all soooo perfect!!! ♥ most of you... PoStaL
For The First A Long Time...
For the first a very very...VERY long time...I have something to look forward too... and it is probably one of the best things...I will ever have, as far as I'm concerned...;)... going to see Otep...on 8/19/09...might not mean anything to anyone else...and forgive me if I don't give a shit bout that...;)...But... It means more to me...than anyone will ever know...and I just felt the need to say that dammit!!!...;) And...after that show...if I should die... I...will have then...died complete...yeah...I will...;)...
This Guy Was Just Scary
  Ugg, I dislike when people are so miserable in there own lives that they are miserable human beings to others. This guy only sent me a friend request a couple of weeks ago and I haven't heard from him once since then. I'm usually very kind and loving until someone really pushes me past my limit, and this one did. He's now blocked and I only have 3 people on my block list in two years. If you read it, start from the bottom.He's in red.He blocked me before I could get his URL. ->69MiNdFrEa...: wow, and I don't remember one communication from you since then. I'm not out for the points. I'm here for fun and friends. You are not a pleasant person and I told you when I figured that out to take me off your list. There was no reason whatsoever for you to write what you wrote. I get many friend requests a day and I try to keep up the best I can. I do best with people who like to give as well as receive and obviously you just want to receive. 69MiNdFrEa...: whatever happened to you?...I ac
Death To Bin Laden
September Eleventh Two Thousand and One,The sun was just rising, the workday begun.When all of a sudden, from out of the sky,Four airplanes descended, thousands would die.Heroes were made and heroes were lost,The price of our freedom had taken its cost.Faceless cowards had raped our great land,But throughout the whole crisis,United We Stand.The face of Evil had reared its head,Many children were orphaned,More than three thousand known dead.But throughout all the fire, the dust and the smoke,America fought on, we never lost hope.Old Glory arose, forever She'll wave.In the land of the free,And the home of the brave.These hateful savages,The pain they well planned.Just sealed their own fate,For United We Stand.Bin Laden's al- Qaida,The Demons he commands.We Americans don't fear you,For United We Stand.Bin Laden ( ITS TIME TO DIE)LT.David MartinUnited States Marines Special Warfare and counter-terrorismUS Special Operations Command MCSOCOM © LT.David Martin
Wall Has Been Removed
I have now retired the Wall of Cock. It was fun while it lasted now I am on to something more creative. Laterz all.
545 Vs 300,000,000
If only America would wake up and realize WE are supposed to be the government and those 545 are just our representatives to do as WE want.     EVERY CITIZEN NEEDS TO READ THIS AND THINK ABOUT WHAT THIS JOURNALIST HAS  SCRIPTED IN THIS MESSAGE.  READ IT  AND THEN REALLY THINK ABOUT OUR CURRENT POLITICAL DEBACLE. Charley  Reese has been a journalist for 49 years. 545  PEOPLEBy Charlie Reese Politicians are the only people in the world  who create problems and then campaign against them. Have you ever  wondered, if both the Democrats and the Republicans are against deficits, WHY do we have deficits? Have you ever wondered, if  all the politicians are against inflation and high taxes, WHY do we have  inflation and high taxes? You and I don't propose a federal budget.  The president does. You and I don't have the  Constitutional authority to vote on appropriations. The House of  Representatives does. You and I don't write the tax code, Congress  does. You and I don't set fiscal
Blacks Be Gone
I have come to the fact that i would be the most happy person in the world is i were to never in my lifetime again see a black person.this feeling came over me the other day.
Today is the day i am going to redo my picture folders.  I wanna give my friends a more taste of me but also want to keep my real nawty pics for my fam! Yesterday I was all alone, my friend was at work and Sam was off with her brothers.  So I decided to go to local forest preserve and walk for a few hours.  I love to walk keeps me in shape, well that and sex.  I never really had any bf's or gf's in school, was pretty much a loner and didn't think I was all that pretty and definitely not sexy.  Kids use to tease me about being gangly.  Anyway, I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18, prom night, a gf date got some guy to take me, he was in college and found out after we had sex, that he had lost a bet, so I was the boobie prize, so it was like another year before I had sex again and it was the same, not real thrilling at all, kept wondering what all the fuss was about, that everyone always talked how great it was.  I went to college for a couple of years, didn't really get into the w
Obama Just Approved $10000 4 All U.s Citizens
Dj Wreckless
Avian influenza (“bird flu”) is an infectious disease of birds caused by type A strains of the influenza virus. The infection can cause a wide spectrum of symptoms in birds, ranging from mild illness, which may pass unnoticed, to a rapidly fatal disease that can cause severe epidemics. Avian influenza viruses do not normally infect humans. However, there have been instances of certain highly pathogenic strains causing severe respiratory disease in humans. In most cases, the people infected had been in close contact with infected poultry or with objects contaminated by their faeces. Nevertheless, there is concern that the virus could mutate to become more easily transmissible between humans, raising the possibility of an influenza pandemic. look sweetie not a threat to most people! last time i checked i wasnt in a 3rd world country handling diseased chickens! you goof!
New To Fubar
                       Hello All,Today a friend did invited me to Fubar, and i thought well take a look and see what it is ..never did hear from Fubar before.Well and see here I am ..Think fubar is a nice place to meet new friends and spent some time at.Thanks all for the nice welcome!!!!     ps: will ad soon more to this blog
Something For Sister's Friends And Family!!
Do You Want A Bomb Or An Auto 11 Bling?
Rest In Peace
What Is A Lounge?!
So I was sitting here and I was wondering "WHAT THE HELL IS A LOUNGE?!", yea I know it's about chatting, but theres gotta be something about it that just brings you back. I never really got it, I knew the fun part about it. You know the Dj's that played the live music & going on cam to just do it. But I never fully got it to recently. A lounge is almost like a "GREAT FRIEND", you don't base it on its "LOOK", you base it on it's "FAMILY". The conversation that even though you never met these people, you can still look back and laugh. You base it on how you can be you, and if you've found the right "LOUNGE" you is just "RIGHT". No judging ,(well only when your typing starts to look like this "Suzps guszy whathz goning on?" then you judge how much that person had to drink @ the bar LOL). Forbidden INC. is that "RIGHT LOUNGE" for me, i've been all over fubar(lil fuwhore LOL), but I always come back to Forbidden INC. The people there are just out of this world "LITERALLY" LOL. They ge
Revealed: The Secret Evidence Of Global Warming Bush Tried To Hide
Photos from US spy satellites declassified by the Obama White House provide the first graphic images of how the polar ice sheets are retreating in the summer. The effects on the world's weather, environments and wildlife could be devastating   Satellite images of polar ice sheets taken in July 2006 and July 2007 showing the retreating ice during the summer. Photograph: Public Domain Graphic images that reveal the devastating impact of global warming in the Arctic have been released by the US military. The photographs, taken by spy satellites over the past decade, confirm that in recent years vast areas in high latitudes have lost their ice cover in summer months. The pictures, kept secret by Washington during the presidency of George W Bush, were declassified by the White House last week. President Barack Obama is currently trying to galvanise Congress and the American public to take action to halt catastrophic climate change caused by rising levels of carbon dioxide in the
Baby Hyena In Truck
Bite Me Update
Sooo...   thanks everyone for advise.   The swelling has gone down, and the redness went away. Now all is left is itching, but I can live with that. I guess no Dr trip for me afterall! yay!
Without You
Being without the one that you love is a pain worse than death. It is a slow aching need that develops into a diseased poison coursing through your veins.Your arms are empty and ache to hold him, your voice shakes as your surf on the wave of tears that are sure to come as you say goodbyes. There is that awkward moment where you just look into one another's eyes and you seem frozen there; you just don't want to turn and walk away, though you know you must.A cold chill rushes over you as the love fire slowly smolders to barely a warm ember, you can still feel their simple kiss upon your lips and feel the strength of their grasp but with time it seems to pass some and so the cold sets in. The darkness of loneliness you now wear like a burial shroud and you retreat into the solitude of the world without them.You know in your heart that you must let them go if ever they are to return to you and that where your lover goes you cannot always follow; but somehow it is still not a comfort to you
Some Random Statuses Fo People That Checked Me Out
(DAMN I wanna eat some pussy!!) (Creepy guy at work grabbed me and wouldn't let go today....) (Biggest Boobs On Fu...Bling Pak To See!!!)   (What's A Girl Gotta Do For A Nifty Auto's Bling? LoL)   (When i go on a rating spree i start with my fans)   (HATERS CAN KISS MY A**!!! THERE'S PLENTY OF IT SO PUCKER UP B*TCHES!)   IF UR GONNA STALK MY PAGE, ATLEASE FUCKIN RATE ME!!! DAMN  
~ticker~ I Can Haz Prophet?
I have no shame, and am not against self promoting lol. I can't seem to catch my ticker, so let me know if you see it.   I'm also about 3 mil from leveling to Prophet, and have these handy Auto-11s, so spread the word.   This message was brought to you by the letter D.
How Was Your Day Going?
This is how I heard YOUR day was going!!! First you had trouble getting out of bed You had a stiff neck You washed your hair and couldn't do a thing with itYour new diet really doesn't seem to be working out You pulled a muscle when you tried to exercise The boss chewed you out at work
Attention All 2nd Alarm Hotties!!
As many of you know, some time a go, one of our founders, Firechief, left the group.  He left the other founder, Blue Demon, and Annipoo the Norwegian Goddess in charge. However, we find it hard to continue this group, cause of all that has happened. So, we want to rebuild the group, starting from scratch.. We want the group to becomme a 2-part group, one for males and one for females. Blue Demon and Annipoo will be the founders of this new/old group. All of the current hotties are more than welcome to stay with us. We need your help to help us choose a name for this group, something new yet bold. Please help us out, and if you have any questions, just ask. Xoxo - Upper management Top suggestion at the moment is to make it hotties and hunks. Girls remain 2nd alarm hotties, and guys will becomme 2nd alarm hunks!
I like comming to Fu bar, but I must admit, I am not to crazy about some of the poor excuse for peeps that reside here and make stupid ass judgment on others . I can't help wonder why they are so ignorant, and judgemental towards the dead : example a mumm I read about Michael Jackoson.  For gawd sake let the man the man rest in peace.  I am sure you have skeltons in your closet and your far from perfect. Every one has something they wish they could change.  I know I have plucked up many times,  and wish I could have changed it but I cant. I can only learn from it and hope never to pluck up again. But gawd some of the peeps on here are so juvenile its sickining. What the pluck is wrong with you guys.  Are you that misserable you have to bring others down, to make your selfs feel important. Sad way to get attention,  from my perspective,  it only makes you look like a sad indivdual with no life.  And very ignorant. Why not try and be nice, and have some postiive things to say.
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$safe_uid_dname@ fubar     Rate my brother! he is ze awesum
What Is Butt Dust???
What, you  ask, is 'Butt dust'?  Read on and you'll  discover the joy in it!  These have to be original and genuine. No  adult is this creative!!  JACK  (age 3) was  watching his Mom breast-feeding his new baby sister. After a while he asked:  'Mom why have you got two? Is one for hot and one for cold  milk?' MELANIE (age  5) asked her  Granny how old she was. Granny replied she was so old she didn't remember  any more. Melanie said, 'If you don't remember you must look in the back of  your panties. Mine say five to six.' STEVEN  (age 3) hugged  and kissed his Mom good night. 'I love you so much that when you die I'm  going to bury you outside my bedroom window.'    BRITTANY (age  4) had an ear  ache and wanted a pain killer. She tried in vain to take the lid off the  bottle. Seeing her frustration, her Mom explained it was a child-proof cap  and she'd have to open it for her. Eyes wide with wonder, the little girl  asked: 'How d
Scatterd Peices
If my soul were made of glass I'm sure that you would see It's cracked in many places And it's hard to tell it's me The cracks started long ago I can't remember how Perhaps it was my childhood I really don't know now I can't remember younger years No matter how I try But it must have started there When I began to live a lie Drinking parents do confuse Mixed messages all around What's a child suppose to do When hatred does abound They love us when we all behave That's all fine and good But when you start to be yourself They make their rules understood Do as I say; not what I do It's a crazy mixed up place Especially when you're growing up And it's always in your face Do I try to please Or should I run and hide? It really doesn't matter When no one's on your side Too busy parents never listen What's a child to do? They don't know who they really are Am I me.....or Am I you? Yes, I'm sure that's where it started So very long ago It only goes to show you A child reaps; what his par
We'll C Whos Stronger
so, for the most of you all i'm just some random girl you would like to get to kno, or just use me for rating on the other hand there are a few of you that know a lot about my personal life or have a little knowing. Last night was the first time in my life i think i just randomly stood up on my own 2 feet and said what was on my mind. I'm sitting at home with my son while his dad is with another girl, up until 30 mins before he left me he wanted to be with me and have everything to do with me. He left because of a stupid fight... but needless to say. there is only a few things i can do, and i gave him 2 hours to get back to me on it. either he wants to be with me and work through everything or he needs to just let me go and stop saying he loves me cuz he has a pretty fucked up way of showing it. I have bent over backwards for this boy and yet it doesnt matter he still runs back to the bitch... i mean this girl isnt even cute.... shes freakin stupid... and it comes down to the fact i'll
Most Dramatic Eyes Contest.. Come Enter
OK, I am gonna hold my FIRST ever contest for you ladies and gentlemen of the Fu!! Its the MOST DRAMATIC EYES--- submit to me in my email either the actual picture or link to the pic of what you want to use for this contest. EX... Crying, shocked, happy, sensual, sexy, surprised, lusting, bored, depressed.... etc..... Please tell me the title you want under the photo as well. PICTURES DO NOT HAVE TO BE OF JUST YOUR EYES. IM JUST LOOKING FOR SOMETHING IN THEM THATS ALL... SO PULL OUT YOUR BEST EXPRESSIONS AND LET ME SEE THEM!! ALL pictures are due in by Sat August 1st at midnight. Entry fee is $40k The prize will be YOUR choice of a one month VIP and a ticker or a $20 bling pack and a ticker. SO the prize is WELL worth the entry fee!! SALUTE IS NOT REQUIRED FOR THIS CONTEST!!! I wish you all the best of luck!! Show me those windows to the soul!!   Winner will be chosen on NUMBER OF RATES not comments! ALSO TELL YOUR FRIENDS TO JOIN IF I GET A GOOD NUMBER OF PARTICIPANTS
Statler And Waldorf   anyone know how to may the embed code to work, i tried but just stays as a code
Would you please go vote on my mumm. I want to open a contest and just want your thoughts on this question---- THANK YOU!!
off to surgery i go and to many i am doing a favor. you all know who you are. Norio  
A Damn Fine Explanation
The  wife came home early and found her husband in their  bedroom making love to a very attractive young  woman.          And she was somewhat upset.~~  'You are a disrespectful pig!' she cried. 'How dare  you do this to me -- a faithful wife, the mother of  your children! I'm leaving you. I want a divorce right  away!'          And the husband replied,  'Hang on just a minute love, so at least I can tell you  what happened.' 'Fine, go ahead,' she sobbed,' but  they'll be the last words you'll say to  me!'        And  the husband began -- 'Well, I was getting into the car  to drive home, and this young lady here asked me for a  lift. She looked so down and out and defenseless that  I took pity on her and let her into the  car.          I noticed that she was very  thin, not well dressed and very dirty. She told me  that she hadn't eaten for three  days.          So, in my compassion, I  brought her home and warmed up the enchiladas I made  for you last night, the ones you wouldn't eat
Get Nekkid With Dj Liltulip!
It is time once again for my Serene Sunday show at 8am today, or in just 30 minutes!!!So get connected & happy listening! Of course Stay Nekkid!
When The Music Is Over
After surgery to remove a cancer tumor the hospice group came to my house to provide post op care.  Their doctor warned me that agressive treatments to kill the final 10 percent of the cancer remaining (assumed remaining) would put me back into the hospital and although I might gain some extra time that time would not be much fun (I will not go into details).   So at this moment I believe I will not subject myself to an attempt to get cured by x ray bombardments.  Hospise will make sure the rest of my time here will be as comfortable and as painless as possible.   However.... cancer is a funny thing and sometimes it can reverse itself,  this i will not know for a few months.  The doctor said he cannot speak about miracles and must stick to the science of course.   Although I must take it easy to recover from surgery it is not in my nature to sit around dieing so I will focus on living instead.  I am not feeling down and out nor depressed,  and ready for whatever this journey has to o
The Murdering Heart
Down on my knees I beg you back I beg you back into my life for one final chance for one final chance to feel the loveI once had so long ago You shy away from my touch you can barely look at me I fall to the floor so lost and confused Blood smeared on my face you cry tears of joy for no longer are you broken, no longer are you alone ,you have found your place in this world and in her arms.I have fallen from grace in your eyes and shall love no more.  My maggot filled heart lay in pieces on the floor as I watch helplessly from afar your soul  was once tarnished and bruised but as she picks you up in her arms and takes you away in her warm embrace, you welcome her love,embrace her security and trust for once again you feel whole .You have found passion again and have broken the mold that once was encrusted in our lives.You are no more alone, no more are you a broken little boy.You look upon me once more but only as a broken down soul not as the woman you used to love and cherish but only
Sick And Twisted Love
Down on my knees my heart in two i was once unbreakable but now im lost without you I'm lost without ur touch,without you kiss,without ur sweet embrace.I wish to kiss your sweet sweet lips just for a taste of your undying affection. You are my master and i your slave for you break me night after night and i love you more each day.You beat me till im blue but i still care for you.My heart yearns for your affection as each day grows and grows but you see me as a pain that gives you unbearable blues.You look at me with disgust and realize i am your pinup doll to treat as you wish.With my heart on the floor you prey on my weakness and make me wish i never did exist.I lay here now in this cold dark bag the bleeding has stopped and my heart beats no more i am alone and without your love but unfornately for me this came too soon.
Educate Yourself.
  "Interstella 5555" AKA: Daft Punk: Discovery. This is the ENTIRE 'movie'. The days of "Rock Operas" aren't dead, just hidden. Before you paise, or Kanye West, give credit where it's due. Discovery is the second studio album by the French house duo Daft Punk, released on March 13, 2001. It marks a shift in the sound from Chicago house, which they were previously known for, todisco and synthpop styles. The album also provided itself as a soundtrack to the anime filmInterstella 5555: The 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ystem, which was a collaboration between the creators of the album, Leiji Matsumoto, and Toei Animation. All of the music videos for the tracks on the album are segments of the film     Now dance, bitches.              
Sweet, I weighed myself this morning thinking I would of gained at least a pound but I lost another!! Yay me!! 19 lbs gone!!
I love your face and your warm embraceWhen you hold me, its like youve always known meKiss on the forhead the meaning of admirationIts like a love creationWhen you kiss me I can feel how much youve missed meHow you look in my eyes its like you can see my soulI cant express my feelings for you bc there is no words to describe my complete blissI feine for your kiss and would die for your smileIm addicted to you
Tetris Inoculation Against Ptsd Flashbacks
Imagine an inoculation that a soldier could take within an hour or two of witnessing a particularly traumatic wartime event. If there was a drug to prevent flashbacks from occurring later on, most soldiers would probably take it. Call it an Anti-PTSD drug. But what if that drug wasn’t a drug at all, but a simple computer game you could equip every military unit with on the front lines? Yes, researchers who did an analogue study on 40 undergraduates suggest that the old computer game Tetris can actually help prevent future post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) flashbacks. Here’s their theory: Our theory is based on two key findings: 1) Cognitive science suggests that the brain has selective resources with limited capacity; 2) The neurobiology of memory suggests a 6-hr window to disrupt memory consolidation. The rationale for a ‘cognitive vaccine’ approach is as follows: Trauma flashbacks are sensory-perceptual, visuo-spatial mental images. Visuo-spatial c
Behold my broken heart, so fragile and so frail. What once was full of hope and love, is now embraced in Hell. A heart that loved a lifetime, a heart forever true. A heart that found its keeper the day that I found you. Now a barren, empty wasteland, beneath a cloudy sky. It was true love that broke this heart and sentenced it to die.  
Skips A Generation.
I'd tell you all about it, but there's a pebble bein kicked down the road.Say's he's mine. I don't think it to be possible.He knows nothing of the bombardment of vulnerabilitythe stockades of just as well.Fit that square boy.No sir.Then let's play with frogs and strum on the po'ch.Every day should be an adventure.A new discovery, an avalanche of crazy questionsand my granny's scrambled eggs, and gampa's bologna sandwiches.Where the air smelled like cold mist, and the rocks never quite skipped right.But there was crackle on the drive up when company was cominand old dogs chasinor dozin at my feet like big lovin slugs.Where its coyote lullabiesand crowin rooster wakeup callsgeneric coffee, and a good day everyday.Losing streak on the radio. Bad lamplight to read by.Shooteven had a woodburnin stove.Now that's the life.
A gorgeous young redhead goes into the doctor's office and claims that her body hurts wherever she touches it."Impossible!" says the doctor. "Show me."The redhead takes her finger, pushes on her left knee and screams in pain. Then she pushes her elbow and screams in even more. She pushes her stomach and screams and then she pushes her ankle and screams even louder. Everywhere she touched made her scream.The doctor said, "You're not really a redhead, are you?"Well, no" she said, "I'm actually a blonde.""I thought so," the doctor said. "Your finger is broken."
A Slight Detour Through Asia
  A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man, pt. 7   Or A Slight Detour through Asia   "Life is Cheap ...but Toilet Paper is Expensive" -an Old man in Thailand, 1994 O.K, so maybe Aum Shinrikyo wasn't the "Bringer of Death" (aka, The Punishment from G-d), that they wanted to be. They tried, on a dozen occasions at least, to bring Armageddon to Asia. Yet, they failed.  They were truly the "Cult That Couldn't Shoot Straight".  If you haven't heard of Aum Shinrikyo, then read my last blog, "A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man, pt. 6." Its o.k., I'll wait. Didja read it? Ain't it funny? Yeah, I thought so, too.  That's right, yeah, Aum Shinrikyo sucked, but whatcha gonna do?  Never throw rocks at a man whose holding a machine gun, I say.  A bunch of lame ass nerds, who wanted to create some "body counts", but they failed.  They wanted to bring Armageddon, and all they did was become a joke.  So just who caused the massive deaths, the massive body counts, to the Land of the Rising Sun?
Women (and All Men Over 30)this Baby Face Has A Lot To Learn!!!
Hello my fubar friends, ok, I don't know how to invert it so start reading this conversation from the bottom. Donedeal lives near me and has asked me out before but I said no. The main reason has nothing to do with his age but his immaturity. So he comes back after a few months and wants me to go out with him. I didn't catch the beginning of the conversation online but that is the gist.  When I say "prove me wrong" i'm asking him to prove me to be wrong in deleting him as a friend originally.  all you women, take up for our "older men" (if you're over 30 i'm talking about you,lol.) And all you "older men" take up for yourselves. Here's the conversation, it starts at the point I begin to remember who he is...remember to start at the bottom. The wishy washy stick he's referring to is men over 30's cocks, lol. $safe_uid_dname@ fubar Donedeal: block->Donedeal: look, I didn't ask you to come here and hit on me, be nice, or get lost, and if you don't do one or the other I'll bl
A Slight Detour Through Africa
A 250 Year Old Boogey Man pt 5 or A Slight Detour Through Somalia "How can a country, that is so beautiful as this, be filled with the ugliest motherfuckers you are every likely to meet?"-Pat O' Rourke, Somalia, 1992 Mogadishu was a Shit Hole. Now trust me when I say this, because during my time in Africa I visited some really horrible places, but Mogadishu was a Shit Hole. It was a G-d Forsaken Fucking Shit Hole, no doubt.I was there, in Dec. of 1991, a full year before the Americans showed up. Further, I was there a full two years (Operation "Gothic Serpent", Oct. 3-4, 1993) before the famous scene from Black Hawk Down (the only reason you have ever heard of that G-d forsaken fucking Shit Hole). Why was a nice Jewish boy, in Somalia, in 1991? Why was a young Medical student who graduated third in his class from a prestigious UC school, in East Africa? Well, because I was there to save my fellow man, of course.Thus is the stupidity of youth.We showed up, and thought we were t
A Slight Detour Through Maryland
A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man pt. 3 Or A Slight Detour Through Maryland "Don't worry sir, your chances of catching a disease from this inoculation, is less than 1 in 10"-A well meaning orderly, to me -1990 So, here I am, and I'm in Ft. Detrick, Maryland. I'm 20 years old, and I'm on my way back to Africa. Since I'm going to a little known (at that time) segment of Zaire (today the Democratic Republic of the Congo), the government wants to keep me safe. You never know what these foreign duty assignments can give ya. And, even though I don't know where I'm going, exactly, I'm still looking forward to it. In fact, I'm gonna be assigned to a place called the River Ebola. Yeah, that EBOLA. Don't worry, ‘cause I didn't know what it meant at the time either. So, I'm at Ft. Detrick, the headquarters of the United States Army Medical Research and Materiel Command (USAMRMC). In other words, the United States Chemical and Biological experimentation ward. I'm 20 years old, I'm
What The Hell?
CHICAGO, Illinois (CNN) -- Authorities will investigate an Illinois cemetery after a bone found on the ground there was determined to be human, a sheriff's spokesman said Saturday. On Friday, a worker dropping off vaults at Mt. Glenwood Cemetery, in Glenwood, Illinois, noticed a bone lying on the ground, Cook County sheriff's office spokesman Steve Patterson said in an e-mail. The bone was located in an area where vaults, old headstones and other cemetery materials are stored, Patterson said. The worker contacted authorities and the bone was taken to the Cook County Medical Examiner's office, which determined that it was human, Patterson said. "Based on that information, the sheriff's police will now start an investigation, which will include interviewing those working at the cemetery, among others," he wrote. "I don't know whether this is a sign of a greater problem or if there is a valid reason why this bone was found where it was." The discovery comes days after three people f
The Perfect Night
THE PERFECT NIGHT BY THOMAS CLOUD She walked into the room dressed in a sexy black lingerie,her voluptious breast compliment her medium sized waist,Her ass plump like two small watermelons.She stroled over to the sofa where i was sitting, My eyes in awe, my penis getting hard. the thoughs running through my mind were almost perverted.She gently and slowly took the remote from my paralyzed hand,She took hand and placed it on her thigh,slowly up and down her nighty making sure to run my hand up under her nighty.As my hand traveled up her nighty i felt my erection growning immensly.Slowly with my other hand i began stroking and massaging my penis,thoughts of passion and lust raiding my mind.She then slaps me across the face and says "No No touching yourself"She then run my fingers around her vagina slipping my fingers inside from time to time,My penis begins to throb as she licks my fingers. She shoved me back onto the sofa and slowly began unbuttoning my shirt,slowly m
stupidy is not a handicap or is it you tell me please? thank you.

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