N1gh7m4r3 FU Engaged to Cheeky's blog: "Emotions"

                                         Lost

Another day aririves, at least you think it is a new day, you can't really be sure anymore, they all have started running together, night into day then day into night, and again an endless cycle, with hopes and dreams dashed upon the rocks along the way.  Life has taken on a drab overcoating, that drapes over everything, touching everything in your life, nothing can escape its embrace, colors aren't as vibrant, food doesn't taste as it should, and even sex has lost the pizzaz it once had.  You shuffle around in your lil life till one day the lights finally go off, and there you are, standing there in the dark, alone and afraid.  The cold starts wrapping itself around you, bringing goosebumps to your flesh.  You stand there debating what to do; you can stand still, feeling life course around you flowing with the course of time swirling past, with no chance of anything ever changing, or you can start to move in a direction, any direction, back forward or side to side.   You take a small step at first, then another, and you are moving.  What are you looking for? what do you hope to find?  Yourself? Someone else?  Who can say, we are not you, we just watch you like a mouse trapped in a maze to see what you will do next.  I noticed you when you came in, all a mess, and beautiful.  I thought that you were about the prettiest thing i had seen in a long time, so i started watching you to see where you would go, and now you are here.  I see you over there lost and alone, i can feel your pain and your loss, your desires, your hopes and your dream.  My heart yearns to just run over and pick you up in my arms, kissing your face, and stroking your hair like you were my own child and tell you how everything will be alright again.  -Sigh- but i mustn't do that yet, you are not ready, and i have done that too many times to get a slap in the face to rush out into it again.  So i watch, the shuffling of your feet, watching you struggle, and play, waiting for something, just not knowing what it is.  You lift your head and look around, like you can see something, but i know you can't...surely you cannot.  And like that you turn in my direction, and start walking toward me.  My heart starts beating irregularly and my palms start sweating.  I am only an observer, i am not permitted to move, only observe.  You are coming closer, i can hear you feet as they tap on the floor.  My eyes start to get that  wild look about them.  I can smell you as you come closer still, like a wraith floating on the air, i can see the shape of your body, the lovely curves, they hairs flowing around your face, looking so much like an angel to me.   Till there you are standing before me, only a few inches away, you look up at me, and our eyes meet, a goofy smile lights my face, and i see you smiling back at me, my heart skips several beats as you reach up, and  put your arms around my neck.  Your face inches closer, till i can't help myself, a moan escapes from me before our lips touch.  Lightning courses through me, so soft and wet, and full of passion, the last thing i remeber is seeing the light in your world turning on, as the light around me dims.  With a start i  realize that now i am the one that is lost, feeling the softness of your body pressed against mine, i kiss you again, not caring, happy for the moment.

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