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I Hate My Husband
i really hate my husband the father of my baby boy. he just doesnt seem to care about our son. he hasnt put any effort to come see his son. Damian is almost 5mths old and his dad has only seen him once. doesnt all to see how he's doing doesnt come to see him nothing he'd rather party with friends. at least his family makes an effort to see him. today his parents came and picked me upand i went to my sister-laws graduation which her brother didnt come. he didnt even call or anything didnt try to come see his son either im so done with the stupid bastard he can go to hell for all i care. he's a fuckin loser who will get whats coming to him karma's a bitch.how can he even call himself a father. so screw it im done being nice and understandable. so fuck him.

Things I Hate About People
Thinking about some annoyances that bug me: *When a man meets his best buddy’s new girl and he acts cocky when he’s probably really only trying to cover up the fact that his has so little life experience. *When I invite someone who is a friend of someone I love to an event that I am hosting at my cost and they hook up with the one person I tell them to stay the hell away from because I’ve already learned my lesson about that psycho bitch but don’t have time to tell them the details. *Men who try to act cool, but suck so bad at hunting that the only people they conquer are friends of the ‘other’ women in the life – be it friends of their sisters, siblings of their friends and/or the friends of friend’s girlfriends. If they didn’t have these initial contacts they would never get laid by any people of quality. [weaklings] *People who get up earlier than anyone else in the house, turn on music or a television in the atta

Small Talk
We all have certain things that we hate and find completely and utterly annoying. For me, one of those things is small talk with people I could not give a rat's ass about, like co-workers or neighbors (small talk is a very typical American habit. In Eastern Europe you can avoid this unpleasantry by giving that person an evil eye or condemning them to hell. In Somalia, you can feed that person to a pack of hungry lions or people)There is always that awkward moment upon encountering that said person and making a forced eye contact, when I feel obliged to break the daunting silence in fear of being considered rude or unwelcoming. There is always that wonderment of who is going to start talking first (usually its the other person), always followed by a severely pointless question or comment like: "Its nice outside, isn't it?" which always makes me want to answer: "I'll be darned! I had no idea, since I was locked up in a cage for the past few days and did not just walk in here behind you f

Shapes
It is quite fascinating how much our life experiences shape us as human beings, sculpting every minute detail in our human forms. Some of those forms come out shiny and smooth, very pleasant to touch and to come in contact with, with innate abilities to bounce off any light that shines upon them. They might not be too deep, but all you need to know about them lies on the smooth surface, easily visible to the naked eye (unless there are some deeper cracks that might form overtime).Some come out with jagged sharp edges others might hurt themselves on, and deeply carved crevasses inside which no one is able to see or set a foot. Sometimes it might take a very powerful flashlight to see the wonders hidden in those crevasses, yet sometimes there are no wonders to begin with but cold empty space.While some may begin as shiny smooth specimens, if touched too roughly, they sometimes may crumble, revealing not so smooth bottom layers. Our shapes may change depending on the amount and quality of

Sick And Tired
I am sick and tired of the shit that people do. they act one way and then they do shit and act another. I hate it when people are happier talking to someone else then talk to the people that they say that they love and are happy to be with. I also am sick of people writting shit on there pages and not telling me the one they should be telling. I am so sick and tired of it. I am sick and tired of when I want so loving it's im to tired or not in the mood, but if others want it, it's go to be now. I am sick of people chatting it up till late into the night and is always has a smile on there face and is not happy if they have to talk to me. I give up, I really do. I am sick and tired of going through this shit.

Fate
Have you ever seen a sand clock? Have you flipped it over and observed those tiny grains of sand all over sudden come rushing through the funnel, one just like the other, hurrying to get to the narrow part, pushing and shoving while being concentrated in a tight spot, just to fall through and join its counterparts all the way at the bottom?For hundreds of thousands of years, since the beginning of humanity, we have been going through a gigantic sand clock of life, starting all the way in a top chamber the moment we are born and making our way down every second without stopping. Unlike the sand clock, however, we do not get to start all over again once we reach the bottom and the clock is turned upside down to repeat the process. This is where this analogy ends and the reality of our existence begins. Since the beginning of human experience we have been trying to find the explanation for our presence and the reasons for overcoming the struggles that life throws in our face. Do we ponder

Marriage
just wanted everyone on here to know my husband is this super sexy man on here with faults...like being on fubar to talk to desperate people like urselfs...... it makes him feel like a real man or something...just like u im asking what am i not doing right to keep him happy at home....i guess i will never really know since he tells me i do every thing right and great for him, that hes just stupid and likes to act like an ass.

Where The Name Comes From.
Bisclavret By Marie de France Since I'm making lais, Bisclavret Is one I don't want to forget. In Breton, "Bisclavret"'s the name; "Garwolf" in Norman means the same. Long ago you heard the tale told-- And it used to happen, in days of old-- Quite a few men became garwolves, And set up housekeeping in the woods. A garwolf is a savage beast, While the fury's on it, at least: Eats men, wreaks evil, does no good, Living and roaming in the deep wood. Now I'll leave this topic set. I want to tell you about Bisclavret.

Fun Fact Blog #1
This is a rip off of Morrigan's Fun Facts Mumms. For those of you that are new to this here is what you do: Comment saying one little fact about yourself. It can be funny, sad, outrageous, boring, silly, etc. Whatever you wish to tell us :) This is drama free and all about being positive. This is just a fun way to learn more about each other. To see what we have in common or to learn a little about our differences. Perhaps this will spark some interesting discussions. I do have a few rules for the blog: *anyone can comment, you can even curse *have fun *no disrespect or drama or I will block you Also when the replies become difficult to read (grrrr @ missing words in replies) please start a new comment 'box' I will start off with a fun fact about me. My name Lipstick fits me because I own about 200 tubes of lipstick and lipglosses.

Just Thinkin
JUST THINKIN Today I sit and think About the places I have been The people I have met And the things in which I’ve seen So many places have I traveled All so beautiful and unique All so rich in history Yet so different on their streets They seem to attach right to you Their wonder their beauty their strengths And when you leave their borders Everything seems to cease The people that I’ve met Are all so different yet the same While DNA defines us Our bodies tell us were the same Everyone has their problems Their weaknesses and their strength Some can solve their issues While others hide and weep Many things have I seen Some wonderful and mystique Others dark and dreadful When death they cannot defeat Destruction Tares down the walls We have worked so hard to build And when there is a breakthrough All the secrets are revealed We try to keep them hidden So our fears and pain cannot be seen But it’s when we are alone That we

Facebook
Ok, so I logged into facebook today, I dont go there to often. On the side they have that whole, people you may know thing, and who do you think pops up in there......Dawn!! The one woman who I can't seem to get away from!! What is up with that? She is also on myspace too. In her profile, yes I looked, she has that she likes spending time with her boyfriend. Her "boyfriend" is butt nasty, and a major dirtbag! I know I am not the best looking guy in the world but this guy is just ugly, she had to stoop very low to get him. He is a drunk, and now she is too, and user, he brags about how he inst worryed about having to work cause she takes care of him. She thinks he is sooo great. If she where to lose her job, and she will, he will be gone in the blink of and eye. I will sit back and smile and say "I told you so". I worked with this man I know him very well. And it will all come to pass, in time. I might be unemployed but I will not ever let someone take care of me. OK OK I am letting the

You Fucking Piece Of Shit Douchebag
I AM ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LIVID. THIS FUCKING ASSHAT ask me for his link as I can not post it in any type of fubar forum, be it blog, bully, status. ugh!!!! WAS SUPPOSEDLY SELLING ME AN AUTO 11 FOR 7 MILLION FUBUX corey_thom...: hold on ->corey_thom...: sent ->corey_thom...: cool corey_thom...: ok sent seven mil i will send one ->corey_thom...: i'll take an auto 11 and give you 7 mil TOOK MY FUBUX AND IMMEDIATELY BLOCKED ME NOW THIS WASN'T SOME RANDOM STRANGER. THIS IS SOMEONE I CALLED FRIEND AND CHATTED WITH ON A SEMI-REGULAR BASIS. HIS COWARDLY ASS HAS SET HIS PROFILE TO FRIENDS ONLY, OF WHICH HE WONT HAVE MANY SHORTLY. I'VE MESSAGED EVERYONE ON HIS FRIENDS LIST. FUBAR WON'T DO JACK SHIT ABOUT THIS PIECE OF SHIT SCUM BAG BUT I WANTED TO WARN EVERYONE. HIS LAME, PATHETIC, ASS IS NOW TRYING TO BUY AN CHERRY BOMB WITH MY FUCKING FUBUX. THIS WAS GOING TO BE THE AUTO 11 I WOULD HAVE BEEN RUNNING ON MY BIRTHDAY. HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME. THANKS A FUCKING LOT YOU PIECE OF S

Grrrr
To say I'm Pissed off would be an understatement. I don't understand how I can be me and get walked all over. It seems that nothing that I do is ever good enough. Well guess what I'm not fucking wonder woman if you don't fucking like it too god damn bad. I'm done trying to please anyone. I can't take this anymore. I am not anyone's door mat. If you don't like who I am then don't talk to me. Just don't try and sneak behind my back and run your mouth about me because I'm not stupid. When you talk to me treat me with some form of respect because if you don't I will block each and every one of you. Yes I said it call me a bitch call me whatever the fuck you want to but I'm done play nice. I'm a kind hearted person yes but I will not take this nor should I have to. Anyways I love some of ya

My First Time
The first time I had sex I was 15 and going out w/ a boy named Mike. There's not a lot to do in the town I went to Highschool in so we decided to hike up to this waterfall we both knew of. After we got to the top and cooled down he sat me on his lap and we started making out, i loved the feel of his hands as they slid under my shirt to play w/ my breasts, even if he wasn't very good at freeing them from the bra and where he left my bra on me was a little uncomfortable. I'm not sure how it happened but next thing I know he's pushing me to lean back and he's sliding his hand down my jeans under my panties and before I can stop him he's rubbing my clit. When he starts sliding his fingers up and down and grazes my hole I was overwhelmed with the need to have him inside me, mentally begging him to slide into me, my pussy was throbbing inward and aching for it. When he finally did he continued rubbing my clit with his thumb and slid his finger in and out of me slowly, it was wonderful and th

Rightous Gentiles
111th CONGRESS1st SessionS. CON. RES. 11Condemning all forms of anti-Semitism and reaffirming the support of Congress for the mandate of the Special Envoy to Monitor and Combat Anti-Semitism, and for other purposes. IN THE SENATE OF THE UNITED STATESMarch 19, 2009Ms. COLLINS (for herself, Mr. CARDIN, Ms. SNOWE, Mr. RISCH, Ms. MIKULSKI, Mr. ISAKSON, Mr. CHAMBLISS, Mr. BINGAMAN, Mr. SCHUMER, Mr. SANDERS, Mr. BAYH, Mr. BENNETT, Mr. CASEY, Ms. LANDRIEU, Mr. KYL, Mrs. GILLIBRAND, Mr. WYDEN, Mr. LIEBERMAN, Mrs. FEINSTEIN, Mr. SHELBY, Mrs. MURRAY, Mr. BARRASSO, Ms. MURKOWSKI, Mr. ROBERTS, Mr. BROWN, Mr. SPECTER, Mr. NELSON of Nebraska, Mr. MENENDEZ, Ms. CANTWELL, Mr. ALEXANDER, Mr. WICKER, Mr. THUNE, Mr. VOINOVICH, Mr. HATCH, Mr. DORGAN, Mr. NELSON of Florida, Mr. KERRY, Mr. MCCONNELL, Mr. DURBIN, Mr. WHITEHOUSE, Mr. CORKER, and Mr. BURR) submitted the following concurrent resolution; which was referred to the Committee on Foreign Relations ----------------------------------------------------

2 Million A Year For Radio Propaganda.
TITLE III--ASSISTANCE TO SUPPORT DEMOCRACY IN VIETNAMSEC. 301. ASSISTANCE.(a) In General- The President is authorized to provide assistance, through appropriate nongovernmental organizations and the Human Rights Defenders Fund, for the support of individuals and organizations to promote internationally recognized human rights in Vietnam.(b) Authorization of Appropriations- There are authorized to be appropriated to the President to carry out subsection (a) $2,000,000 for each of the fiscal years 2010 and 2011.TITLE IV--UNITED STATES PUBLIC DIPLOMACYSEC. 401. RADIO FREE ASIA TRANSMISSIONS TO VIETNAM.(a) Policy of the United States- It is the policy of the United States to take such measures as are necessary to overcome the jamming of Radio Free Asia by the Government of Vietnam.(b) Authorization of Appropriations- In addition to such amounts as are otherwise authorized to be appropriated for the Broadcasting Board of Governors, there are authorized to be appropriated to carry out the po

Sex
This ain't a story. A conversation I had earlier made me end up writing something. Reading it, I think it's probably quite shareable. Why? Because I felt like it! So the conversation was about oral sex, with a friend of mine. Not the oral sex with her, the conversation. ;) So anyway, we got to talking about things we DON'T like members of the opposite sex doing when they're going down on us. Then we got sortof bored after like, two things each, and decided to guess what we thought the other didn't like. Since we've had sex maybe eight or nine times down the years - she and I have this random thing where suddenly we just want to rip each other's clothes off, the rest of the time we're nothing but friends, it's kindof weird actually... anyway, since we've actually HAD sex, this should be easy, right? Wrong. She had no idea the things I don't like, despite having mentioned a bunch of them in the past. This amazed me, frankly, since I'm hardly reticent about saying what I don't enjoy. O

I Like Music Montages
If i could live anywhere in the world it would have to be inside a Romantic Comedy. I wouldn't even be picky about it. I'll take any of the J-Lo, Julia, Sandra, Meg, Nicole etc.etc. vehicles for box office happy. I don't really like those movies. I usually only watch them when they re-run on TBS or it's someone elses treat. But if I could live in one I totally would. I think it would be nice to meet the love of my life in a chance meeting or through some wacky misunderstanding. I think it would be fantastic to be thought of as a princess when I'm really a maid, or vise versa. I think it is completely tragic that the slightly immature man of my dreams isn't pining over me and my no nonsense, all business approach to life. And I truly believe that there is something wrong with me and all my girlfriends because we never drink 'ritas and then dance around the kitchen table while singing "Lime in the Coconut". Perhaps it's due to our lack of kitchen tables. I would even be fine with the

Judgement
When I was growing up, and didn't want to eat, my dad used to say: "no, you ARE hungry, and thats why you will eat it". I guess ever since then it is my peeve when people tell ME what I am and what I am not. For some reason, people LOVE analyzing me, as if I am a prime choice for some weird psychological evaluation. I have different standards from most people, and thats why they believe they have to pick my brains apart like a puzzle, and try to fit me into THEIR mold. I have my weaknesses, and I am more vulnerable than most people ever imagine, and I'm not a hardass as most people think I am. But I was born in a different country, at a worst possible time, among much different people, under much different curcumstances. And I have a much different set of rules and values that stems from my background. People who didnt go through the same shit I have have no say in what I am like, and what I SHOULD be like.Not even God should judge me, cuase the motherfucker hasn't been in my sh

Got Dang Natives- Crazy If U Know This Is True.
White Folks: Move out when they're 18 with the full support of their parents.Natives: Move out when they're 28, having saved for that nicehouse and are a week away from getting married...unless there's room in the basement for the newlyweds.White Folks: When their mom visits them, she brings a nice bundt cake and you sip coffee and chat.Natives: When their mom visits them she brings 3 days worth of food and begins to immediately tidy up, dust, do the laundry or rearrange the furniture.White Folks: Their dads always call before they come over to visit them and its usually only on special occasions.Natives: Are not at all fazed when their dads come overunannounced on a Saturday morning at 8:00 and start pruning the trees with a chainsaw or renovating the garage.White Folks: You can leave your kids with them and you always worry if everything is going to be OK, plus you have to feed them after you pick them up.Natives: No problem. Leave the kids there and if they get out of line, the Aunt

Haha Watcha What U Do?
CURTAIN RODS----She spent the first day packing her belongings into boxes, crates and suitcases.On the second day, she had the movers come and collect her things.On the third day, she sat down for the last time at their beautiful dining room table by candle-light, put on some soft background music, and feasted on a pound of shrimp, a jar of caviar, and a bottle of spring-water.When she had finished, she went into each and every room and deposited a few half-eaten shrimp shells dipped in caviar into the hollow of the curtain rods.She then cleaned up the kitchen and left... When the husband returned with his new girlfriend, all was bliss for the first few days.Then slowly, the house began to smell..They tried everything; cleaning, mopping and airing the place out.Vents were checked for dead rodents and carpets were steam cleaned.Air fresheners were hung everywhere. Exterminators were brought in to set off gas canisters, during which they had to move out for a few days and in the end they

Some Are Just Wow!
Two Navajo couples were playing Navajo Ten one evening. Bahe accidentally dropped some cards on the dirt hogan floor. When he bent down under the table to pick them up, he noticed Chizzy's wife Rita wasn't wearing any underwear under her Navajo dress! Shocked by this, Bahe upon trying to sit back up, hit his head on the table and emerged red-faced. Later, Bahe went outside to get some fresh air. Chizzy's wife followed outside and asked, "Did you see anything that you liked under there?" Surprised by her boldness, Bahe courageously admitted that, well indeed he did. She said, "Well, you can have it but, it will cost you $500. After taking a minute or two to assess the financial and morals of this offer, Bahe confirms that he is interested. She tells him that since her husband Chizzy works swing shift Friday afternoons and Bahe doesn't, Bahe should be at her Hogan around 2 p.m. D.S.T Friday afternoon. When Friday rolled around, Bahe showed up at Chizzy's Hogan at 2p.m. sharp and aft

Just Cause.
I will never apologize for the things we've donenor regret the fights we've lost and wonI'll always remember those fucked up callsall the videos in the bathroom stallsyour pleading "I've got a secret but you might think it's wrong"my assuring "its okay love, I've known all along"shared glances, the same way we thinkmartini glasses in a dirty sinkroads to nowhere with no plan at allholding each other up before we fallstumbling in strange cities, sea salt in our hairbreaking glass in public, its not too rarebroadway walks and breakfast at nightDrinking under the bridge in the summer lightwe're hitting it full force, doing what we gotta dono one can touch us, this friendship is true

I Love The Conversations I Have With People, When They Make Me Think:)
Date: Jun 12, 2009 5:20 PM Subject: RE: Body: I do. They say what they think people want to hear. Let me ask you if you were on your death bed and loved someone with all uour heart but they did not love you would you want them to lie and tell you they love you or be honest and break your heart before you go? There in lies your answer. People don't like hurting others feelings. Though one thing they do not realize is that though it may hurt your heart will heal it is better to be told I don't love you than I love you and find out later on they never did you that said i think saying it and taking it back to appease someone is the biggest betrayal of the heart ever. I don't believe in fate, I believe we make our own destiny and we have a say in what fate sets in motion. I don't believe it is soly up to fate. I believe there is more than one person out there for everyone, I do not believe in one soul mate. If that was true everyone would always be single. We would always be alo

A Year Later. How Things Change. Lmao
Whats good everyone. Its been about a year and a couple months.. I met this chick off fubar and went to go meet her.. Apparently, one of her "friends" didnt like that idea so he would text her and tell her all these different things about what he would do for her and to her.. Nigga is quite funny. So she would text him and talk to him, u know, the type of shit young females do. How he wants to eat her out and he wanted to do it so bad. So anyway, we stop talking becuase she wanted to tell him what goes on in the bedroom and tell him she wanted to be with him. Which i dont understand since he has a girlfriend. But get this, he gets happy as hell that we stop talking, he tried to write a "blog" about me sucking in bed.. Sounds kinda homo, right? I mean, why does it concern him how i am in bed.. Sorry dude, i dont swing that way. Now here is the funniest part.. Me and his "girl" are close friends and i have learned something about him. Whats fucking with all this time he hating on me, he

Fought You Once
I fought you once and I will fight you againI will fight you within, I will fight till I winI fought you once and I will fight you againI will fight you within, I will fight till I winI fought you once and I will fight you againI will fight you within, I will fight till I winI fought you once and I will fight you againI will fight you within, I will fight till I winI'm pretty sure it all began when I was just a kidWith no fuckin' friends just a dog to giveAll my love to I just want to cut my skinAnd that's just what I did it helped me cope withinIt's hard for a child livin' day after dayWhen nobody that would care if they saw this faceI knew I wouldn't be missed if I just cut myself awayThe day my only friend died I had a tight grip on the bladeAnother rip in the page, I wanna whip out the gaugeI'm so sick of this rage, such a prick to fuck with a kid this ageBorderline suicidal when I finally decided it wasn't worth all the painI rise up out of the earth in the rain and wait for the d

Poetry
"JUST LIKE YOU" I can see the secrets That you hide behind your eyes I can see the sadness That you bury deep inside I can touch your heart As it crumbles into dust I can touch your soul As they all betray your trust I can feel your shame As you tell your desperate lies I can feel your pain As your courage slowly dies I can taste your anger As you rage against the dark I can taste your sorrow When your struggle leaves no mark I can understand All that you are going through I can understand Because I'm just. . .like . . .you

Deadbeets! Lol
Following is a review on TripAdvisor for the hotel I'll be staying at when I'm in San Francisco in a few months. It was hard to leave my normal hotel choice, but after having spoiled Humus left in the ice bucket and the door handle about ready to fall off, it was time for a change. Shame cause the place use to be nice. Anyway, here's the review. I would probably take it a wee more serious if it wasn't for his typo! LMAO Stayed for a few days and loved it. Ditto on all that has been said--very clean, excellent location, exceptional value. I would give it five stars except that the front desk personnel were without exception some of the most sullen and creepy individuals I've ever seen working in customer service. But if you don't mind the low IQ and verbally challenged deadbeets at the desk, this is definitely a great place to stay.

Finished Work Showcase
If there is a way to post video's on here than I will post my work for you all to see, I graduated from the New York Film Academy last year. Been making movies since I was old enough to opporate a video camera, yes one of the old massive VHS tape recorders, lol. I have since moved on to actual film as well as HD, as well as eneavoring into teaching myself special effects, and 3D compositing. Please take a look at my work on youtube.com/whateverproduction4 and lemme know what you think! There are, comedies, drama, action, religious, stoner comedies, etc for you to choose from, and we create new video's all the time so stay tuned for more, and tell your friends too. We've even been trying to create what we like to call ITV, (Internet TV), I know there are things similar to it, but this is someday going to be our own online TV network. We've got a few mini-series ideas as well as full length series run show concepts too. So once again I hope you enjoy what we have to offer so far, a

Please Don't Go
Please don't go awayIt hurts so much insidePlease don't run from meI know the fault's all mineWe were so close now so far awayAnd I wish I could say all the things I really wanna sayBut I buckle under the pressure how could I let her slip awayAnd I, you know who you are I don't think I need to say any namesAnd I don't know if you'll ever again look at my faceIn your life, so now I turn to the knife I wanna embrace this bladeCause I can't imagine life without you never dare let something in my waySo now I write my stupid letter that will let her know know my pain insidePlease don't go awayIt hurts so much insidePlease don't run from meI know the fault's all mineI really can't explain how I let you out of my gripsI must be out of my witsCause all this happened to evaporate now I'm back in the placeThat place I never really wanted to faceI can't get back in this motherfuckin' race againWith a pace that will never be like it was back thenMy bat's crackin' and I don't think I'll ever feel t

I Stumbled In Stoned,- Now I'm Forgotten
I came upon this site at nite chasing elusive electric girls puasing only to fill and lite my muses rocket fuel my secret sin, and cock's delight but somehow I was lost in the smoky morning's illusions... Forgotten by AFS (changoparati) I wait to speak with you, yet I’m forgotten Deprived of any sustenance to soften The roaring hunger of my soul for thee A most pitiful beggar shall I be For your adhortations, starved, I swoon. Falling into a state of passive gloom

Last Letter
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us allAnd now I don't know where you've goneYou fight for our country, you were fighting for us allAnd now I don't know where you've goneYou were the one I loved, you were always on my mindI could never get enough, we were always spending timeBut now the time is spent, I never thought it wouldI cried the day you went, just like I knew I wouldYou went to fight this war, the battle rages onI miss you so much more, when I turn the tv onThe news brings painful thoughts, I wish that you were homeI wish this war would stop so I wouldn't have to be aloneAnd now I write a letter, howI feel about this, warBut I never got one, backI wait for it every, dayThe war is getting, worseI think I'm gonna, burstIt's eating me, aliveIt's freezing me, insideI clench your picture as I clench my gunI clench my teeth as I unload round oneYou fight for our country, you were fighting for us allAnd now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've goneY

[blechk, Dreams]
It was opposite day in my dreams last night. My ex and I were reconcilled, there was a version of MGS that I hadn't played because "snake was old" and I could only remember that the password I've now had a year was something I had forgotten completely when I use it at least once a day and it has a personal meaning. Well, the password and MGS were actually both symbolic on some level of not being in that relationship anymore. I'd explain, but I don't want people even attempting to crack my pw, and explain the circumstances of my acquired property, that being said, I think I know what it all meant. Even attempting to take her back would be forgetting the drama and betrayal. Even if I wanted to, and I don't. So here's your monthly reminder- don't forget. And stay guarded. I honestly offend people by having such high walls... I'd say its not my fault, but it is, and I'm not apologizing for it. Give me the chance, and I'll drive you to mexico in attempts to hide you from the CIA. Just say

Psst.. Want Bombed??
Hey there Friends.... I am trying to cut 1/2 off on becoming Oracle tonight, so this is what I plan on doing. I am going to turn Off my Shout Box & light my Bomb (Thanks Mongo) . In order to be bombed tonight, you need to have rated a 250 folder of mine & Message me to let me know. It's all about being fair, I sit here days on end at times & rate pics & only get a Profile rate in return. We're all busy, I understand that. I am mainly* interested in those that are not yet Oracle, so now's your chance, if you want to be Bombed tonight then stop by & show me some love & leave your link to your folder in a Private Message. *If Blinged, you will Automatically be Bombed

Free And Open Minded
So i just got back from Iraq and getting ready to go on leave and have noe one to but friends to hang out with. They are good friends but I would like to meet someone of the opposite sex. I love fishing and I am plannin on goin tonight. Along with fishing and hunting I like to Cook. BBQ and soem stuff on the stove. I am a simple person and easy to get along with. If you want to know more about me just ask me. If you like me then just maybe we can hang out sometime.

Irc Fun
Boredom is a terrible thing. There is a reason, however, that I am never actually bored and only approach it, slowly.That reason is my ability to find ways to amuse myself.Example: I'm having so much fun right now. pretendin' to be a HNG and randomly demanding nude pictures from random women and then being all "mmm..yeah..can I laminate this?" "laminate it?" "yeah..you know..so the fluids won't damage it.." I'm basing my score on how many stop answering me at lamination what's the score so far? i love a good sporting event 9-6. 6 being the number who were either not freaked out or actively encouraged it. which is sortof worrying. so.. are you saying this humorously? or like really being serious I'm totally doing this. at least I'm totally doing the -saying- I'd never laminate pictures and masturbate on them. it'd be a waste of plastic. and also gross. almost forgot that bit.* entropy roots for the losing team ..oh wait, that's both sides.I know, you want to see an example, right? Well

The Good Left Undone....ch.2
So there's been much drama in the past month. Seems like every guy I find worth letting my guard down for is just a liar or so seriously messed up in the head they don't see things they do as "wrong". So I Travis and I were introduced by a mutual friend (whom I think is the greatest btw) back in November. We started messaging little by little, completely platonic and online only until about 3 months ago. We had our first conversation and then the beginning of last month was when we first started actually hanging out. I thought he was the most amazing guy ever! He was the only guy that I was ever interested that could actually do "manly" thinks like change the oil, know about cars and fix-it stuff in general. He was a good listener, complete gentleman and at the same time, he was no pushover. I guess the saying of being too good to be true always applies though. I found out about "Holly" through another site. She was his current GF at the time and his claims were that she told him she

Love
When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is when you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not a part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try. You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall. Y

Being A Perv* ;)
Being on Fubar for so long made me realize that i m not the only Perv on this fuckin planet lol I am so glad that i found some very good pervs friends on fu and i m happy that i will never be alone again .. lol So thankyou all the perv out there especially the sexy perv hotties on here that i love to listen and talk to and get to know their crazy ideas and creations on Fubar ;) So dont ever stop being a sexy perv that i love you all to be... muahh to all my sexy perv ladies..... you know who you are ;) So you better leave *Pervy* comments lol

What Next???
Great News, NOT Hip surgery is a on. I will be put in traction and my joint pulled apart.( Sounds Horrible doesn't it? ) Although this surgery will be a walk in the park compaired to my last surgery in Pittsburg. Me on crutches is going to be interesting. I'll be an accident waiting to happen. I have been walking on a torn cartledge for almost three years. I did a half split fall about three years ago. My friend noticed a few days later that my entire thigh was black. Not black and blue just black. I should have had it checked out then. You know what they say hind sight is 20/20. ( I so miss his awsome smile ) So off to Pittsburg for surgery. I will be recuperating at my daughters house for awhile. Which means the lap top and DIAL UP Aaahhh! I hate dial up but it's better than nothing. I'll be up and dancing in no time without pain finally !!!!! YEAAAAA!!!! Say a big prayer for me PLZ...... .

I Wud Like,....
i c all these pix being made, and i so am jjj! lol ;) got that frm hoe and wild hehe but ive got the tools 2 make almost any of these pix and video's but i tend 2 get lost n wat i am doing! then it takes 2 long doing so, and im all warn out b4 ive gotn halfway done, i used 2 have a good emagination 2, but its seemed 2 haved grown up lol (tho I hav not!) lmao but if i had sum kind of giudence, sum one that has good know hows! i cud follow as i learn my own hows toos :D so in a fun way, how many of u like 2 either test me, (gotta b sumtin simple at first....this isnt a bragging contest) lol tea hea OPEN YA DAMB EARS! i SAYD I WASNT ANY GOOD! lmao *jus kiddin* but either test me (alone) or lets make it a grp event! we can have the same project, c if we cant make the same tings! ...then as we get better, we can up the scales.... scails.... sca.... up it UP IT TA HELL! lol *ahem* we can make difrent projects, we can (in levels and steps) make ....hmm, 4got my last thought lol but hey, than

The Mummy Awards
Sitting here in my boredom (and considering I am at work so fapping at my desk would be a VERY bad idea), I came up with a concept and would like some input. Movies have the Oscars, Music has Grammys, Why can't the Mumms have the Mummy awards... We all get to vote on such things as... Most butthurt mumm poster Best tits in a mumm Best cock in a mumm MuMM of the year Well.. that's all I can think of... I want more suggestions, and if this may be a good idea or not.

Ensign: Faith Of My Fathers
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 12 June 2009 Around this time of year, I’m usually writing a message that ties in to what we now call D-Day, the beginning of the Allied invasion of Europe during World War II. “D-Day” is technically the term for the opening day of any military attack, but the one sixty-five years ago this past sixth of June is the one most people remember best in regard to it. But my father wasn’t in the opening assault on Omaha Beach; indeed, he was with the Army inspector-general’s office and got there with that office on the twelfth – today, sixty-five years ago. Most of what I know about my dad’s military experience comes from what he told me as well as some of what I’ve seen, but I’m tryi

The Verse Of The Day
Goodbye cruel world.. Of this shape a star of fiveAlso applies to the one with six sidesAgainst the sun and against the moonI warn you that these two combinedWill bring man�s doomOf ten horns and seven headsCount your fingers and the continentsOn your head or in you right handThis new moral code that the media commands Believe not in their clever wordsBecause faith inacted are the loudest heardAll these things I say are trueUnderstood sadly by a chosen few... you April 2-0-2-9 the final timeThe end my friend in not near the hour in fact is quite hereWhen the moon becomes red to guide the risen deadThis means God�s turned his back on youIt�s a Friday the 13th of course you won�t live to see noon I am a prophet of doomI am the profit of doom So now the star has fallen washing away the seasThe seventh seal now opens it�s raining your fearsAre you paranoid the coming asteroidHas got your name tattooed on itThis stone�s called Apophis it brings

Just A Vent
I been talking to the transitional place that I want to be at. They staffed my case yesterday and she called me this morning telling me before I can come in that they want a psych test done. She is worried about what she seen in my doctors things about the depression and anxiety she read about in my doctors paperwork and also that I never followed up or never continued to take the medication. I never continued cuz at that time I didnt have medical so I didnt have the funds to pay for the pills and didnt want to rack up the bills going to the doctor. She is also worried about how I isolate myself, and this I do know that I do..... I am hoping this all turns out properly and I get accepted in, cuz this is very very important to me.

Helpful Tips For Junk Mail & Telemarketers
THIS IS FROM ANDY ROONEY! I LOVE IT!!! Tips for Handling Telemarketers Three Little Words That Work !! (1)The three little words are: 'Hold On, Please...' Saying this, while putting down your phone and walking off (instead of hanging-up immediately) would make each telemarketing call so much more time-consuming that boiler room sales would grind to a halt. Then when you eventually hear the phone company's 'beep-beep-beep' tone, youknow it's time to go back and hang up your handset, which has efficiently completed its task. Those three little words will help eliminate telephone soliciting. (2) Do you ever get those annoying phone calls with no one on the other end? This is a telemarketing technique where a machine makes phone calls and records the time of day when a person answers the phone. This technique is used to determine the best time of day for a 'real' sales person to call back and get someone at home. What you can do after answering, if you notice there is no one ther

The Hamburger Jihad
There is a jihad in America against the Hamburger. It's a silent war, with most people never seeing that it actually exists, but its there lurking beneath the surface. The only way you can get drawn into this war is to try to actually get a hamburger somewhere. Then you will see the Cheeseburger warriors try to descend upon you and force the cheese down your throat. If you look at the McDonalds sign it says "McDonald's Hamburgers" but once the Cheeseburgler got into town, he removed all the hamburgers from the menu. You can buy a hamburger separate, and you can get it in a happy meal, but try to order one off their combo meals; There aren't any! It has actually gotten so ridiculous that if you order the two burger meal with hamburgers they actually give you "two cheeseburgers w/o cheese." Even the places which pride themselves on giving you your burger your way will always try to slip the cheese in more often than not. Wendy's and Burger King are all guilty of forcing the chee

Military Comeback
OH YEAH! Love This Comeback !!!!! One of my sons serves in the military. He is still stateside, here in California . He called me yesterday to let me know how warm and welcoming people were to him and his troops everywhere he goes, telling me how people shake their hands and thank them for being willing to serve and fight for not only our own freedoms, but so that others may have them also. But he also told me about an incident in the grocery store he stopped at yesterday on his way home from the base.. He said that ahead of several people in front of him stood a woman dressed in a burkha.

Come To Me
come to me i would like to see if you are real or just a dream.To feel your fangs slide down my neck,to feel your hands in my hair.Come to me just so i know you are real and not some dream,to feel your body next to mine.to know you are real and not just a dream. Come to me just let me see you standing near i would not say anything to anyone about you,or about your kind.just so i know you are real and not some dream,to know all that i have read is real and not all lies.just to let me know you are real and not a dream i would like to know this it would be cool by kim McMindes

Monday's New Theme!!
It has come to my attention on how Hard Trailer Park Hoes and Gigolos would be to hold with the Seamus versus Wicked Bet running. So to make my life easier we will be having Greek Mythology day... Please come wearing togas and eating grapes... here's the list so far Artemis= me Voluptas= Pixie Medusa= Witty Ick somethign= Seamus "loser of the bet" Poisedon= Chainsaw Shits& Giggles= Zeus Hercules= Name Crisis Hades= Hugh Eros= Bonz Haphaestus= Jobob Uranus= Pedro Aphrodite= Blue Eyed Soul Erebus=Husky Redneck Athena= Amykins John Stamos= Ketch22 Apollo= Fwee (there goes my fantasies of the fish) So grab your Gyros and your togas OPA WICKED

Life
I walk down the long, dark winding tunnel. Darkness consumes my soul with every step…. yet still I walk and walk and walk. Searching, searching for something elusive, something essential that will make my life complete yet not knowing what it is. Despair claws at my core, heartache consumes my being, indifference is what I strive for, always trying to lessen the ache of being alone. Friends are there yet not around, they try to understand, but how can they understand when I can’t fathom what’s erroneous. Smiling faces all around, laughing, full of glee… poison in my soul and wounds, slowly consuming, ever consuming until all is gone. Humanity, compassion, kindness all fades to nothingness in the face of sadness and freezing cold hatred for all things light and pure…the world is inky black and devoid of hope, how much longer until all feel as I do and weep for their salvation? Rodney aka Rhino

Dreams Of Impatient Pillowtalk
In the towers that peer over the dreamscapea land of rainy days and rainbowssmall laughter carrying on the breeze,dodging drops so we may have a song to dance to.Hand in hand, another holding you closeour feet begin to the worldly beatsmearing bright paints onto an easel of greya whispering into the torrent of sounds around usa love-painted epiphany dwelling in a starry eternity.And thus, with the laughter on the breeze,you and I would be set freereligated to a new day ahead,and with many words left unsaid, we would guess...reaching our hands together into the darkest nightto pull stars 'cross the skies and light a heart again. © Nick Rice 2009

Falling And Hitting The Ground.
I don't like what you did to my heart Don't know why you tore it apart Can't seem to grasp the truth The pain is like pulling a tooth That just won't come out I was torn into pieces I've never ever felt this down An arrow straight through my heart Me falling and hitting the ground Questions that have swarmed me Have taken over and won't leave I run to my only place of security Still I feel alone So here I am The unloved one, I roam I've walked these roads before They only fill me with regret Time and life can leave us in shreds Cut open, and left in dread My only chance to survive Has walked out the door into the world, Good-bye. Poem by Tammy C.

The Sky Weeped
Memories are all that remain,Of a perfect love gone wrong,Memories of your warm smile,Of your soft loving caresses,And your sweet tender kisses,Memories so bitter yet so sweet,Where my lips curl into a smile,Yet the joy never to reach my eyes,As unbidden tears streak down.Memories of a classic love story,That ended on a rain soaked day,As if the sky saw and empathized,And weeped along with my heart. Poem By Tammy C.

Rewiring
Because our former small-town parish was not a wealthy one, our pastor was dependent on parishioners for upkeep and maintenance of the church. Once he asked my husband, Sam, to rewire the confessionals. The only way to reach the wiring was to enter the attic above the altar and crawl over the ceiling by balancing on the rafters. Concerned for my husband's safety, I waited in a pew. Unbeknownst to me, some parishioners were congregating in the vestibule. They paid little attention to me, probably assuming I was praying. Worried about my husband, I looked up toward the ceiling and yelled, "Sam, Sam, are you up there? Did you make it okay?" There was quite an outburst from the vestibule when Sam's hearty voice echoed down, "Yes, I made it up here just fine!"

Have You Looked Deeper Into The Mirror.
each time i look in the mirror i see an image of someone i knew before, but when i take a closer look, the sight before me makes my eyes sore, an image of a past history thats lurking just behind my eyes. the shadows are all reminiscent and my image is nothing more than a mere disguise. an image is an animated facilsmile, an image that stares right back at you, a color copy of what we think were supposed to, but the image dosent know what it cannot see. now when i look in the mirror, i look at the image for what its truly for, to treat life a little dearer, for many things to be explored................................................

Life Used To Be Good, But .....
i used to trip and stay so high, i'd even climb buildings and think i can fly, i never jumped but i soon fell,and where i'm at now is my own personal hell this single life is far worse than it seems, with tearful pains of long lost dreams, the nights alone lying in my bed, with romantic memories lost in my head, missing the the calls that never come, ignoring excuses that sound so dumb,or other peoples views to help me cope, but since they are so far and few, i spend all my time feeling lonely and blue, so listen all you men and women, life is too precious to treat as a toy, before you say things that you don't mean, just to level up... think about the persons feeling, when they're let down...................................................................................

An Untrue Heart
You can walk away knowing that you were lovedKnowing that you were the moon and the starsKnowing that someone believed in you, and believed in your soulSomeone who would rather give you up, than to believe your heart untrueMy heart can hold sweet memories of stolen moments in your armsMy dreams can recall the fire and passion of your kissAnd I’ll still believe in you, I’ll believe in your soul. I would rather give you up than believe your heart untrue. Poem by Tammy C.

Variations
When you are dealing with a set of options to determine the total number of possiblities you have to take the base set and put it to the factor of the number of variables. For example, license plates, if you go with the standard three letters and three numbers then you have the possibility of 17,576,000 (26^3*10^3), of course this doesn't count for the entire series that they throw out such as ASS, KOK, FUK, and etc, but the basic principle still applies. When you have a set with combinations, lets say for instance a pizza, where you can have multiple versions of the same choices then your variations are based on 2 to the factor of the number of possibilities. To go with the pizza example lets say you have ten different toppings to choose from, you would then have 1024 (2^10) different types of pizza you could order. I'll break this down in a simpler example so you can see the math. Your toppings choices are Pepperoni, Sausage and Ham, that would give us 8 (2^3) as the number of p

Why
is the end really so near. there once was a time, when everything seemed so clear what happened when did everything become so blury was i asleep was i high or did i really just watch it bly right by so cold i feel, lithe depths of the ocean yet so warm from the skies and heavens why do i do these things to these things to myself why do i do these things to ones i love where is this taking me what is it keeping me from it there any such light at the end of these tunnels im trapped in?

Pain
yesterday is gone, today is here turned back no less, with more i fear the pain and suffering, today i feel no less than yesterday, but more than real once alive, i know no death but dead alive, with no less than one more breath the more thy dead, the less alive a wise man once said take thy chance and live thy dead. walk thy path and thoult shall see one shall die, if thoult live the live meant for me

Here We Go Again!!!!
so had left my hotshot job a couple weeks ago and was very relieved as i probobly hated it as much as anything i have ever done. but after a few days of calls from the company to continue, with an agreement to only run the west and more pay..i agreed to stay on.i made a trip to the southwest and back and during that trip realized this was just a dead end road.being paid by the mile you spend lots of time doing tasks taht you get no compensation for..like spending 10 hours in las vegas on tuesday to deliver and pick up.....NO PAY. plus the fact that the job had no benifits at all...just the milage. everything else was..""PART OF THE JOB""".. SORRY, I DON'T WORK FOR FREE... so i will pursue a new position, with a company that will pay me for my time,,,reward me for my experience and at least offer the basic benifits. won't be easy in this economy, but can be done.hope you all have a wonderful weekend..big hugs..marty

Love
I understand the things you say,Even though it makes me sad,We sat and had a talk today,I gave you everything I had.Even if you don’t come back,I’ll wait this year for you,Even if this love you lack,I’ll do what I want to do,I’m happy, even if you’ve gone away,I continue to keep this love for you,In hope that you’ll come back to me,on a distant far found day,They think I’m stupid, they laugh at what I do,They criticize and ridicule this love I have for you,It dosen’t matter anymore, nothing matters anymore,The only thing that matters anymore, is the love and what its for,Just know that I will love you,And maybe that is sad to hear,But I will do what I want to do,Even if that means a year.Maybe you don’t love me,And you think this will just be more easy,But I’ll be waiting, in my heart forever,Even if that means my love for someone else,Will end up being never

Amazingly Simply Home Remedies
Avoid cutting yourself when slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by using the sink. For high blood pressure sufferers: simply cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock, will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives; then you'll be afraid to cough. You only need two tools in life: WD-40 and Duct Tape. If it doesn't move and should, use the WD-40. If it shouldn't move and does, use the duct tape. Always remember: Everyone seems normal until you get to know them. If you can't fix it with a hammer, you've got an electrical problem. And finally, a daily thought: SOME PEOPLE ARE LIKE SLINKIES; NOT REALLY GOOD FOR ANYTHING BUT THEY BRING A SMILE TO YOUR FACE WHEN PUSHED DOWN

What Would You Do ...for The Right Woman
what would you do for the right woman woud you send her a note telling her the sun has lost its shine cause she isnt near you that with her near the world seems magical woud you send her a bouqet of roses telling her the hue reminds him of her lips after passionate kissing the petals silkiness is pale in comparsion to her skin would you move a moutain just so you could have a clear path to her what would you do if she asked you show me you truly love me what would you do to win this womans heart ....

Life Goes On
a song of truth written by the innocence of youth seven ways to sunday home away from home your not alone all in sync whatever you think is this the game of fortune and fame they say life is no fun who are they, away they fun be who you goin to be but your no different than me take a chance learn to dance around and around life is full of sound you just have to listen open you eyes to a vision of perfection or decision what is right or even wrong life goes on.....

A Summer Day
It was a hot, steamy summer day. The temperature had to be near 100 degrees. I was lounging in the pool, and getting hungry. I figured I could run inside, whip up some mac n cheese and bring it back out to eat while still enjoying the cool water. So I got out, wrapped a towel around my thong-clad body, and went inside. I boiled the water, cooked the macaroni, then while it was draining, went to get the butter and milk out of the fridge. Shit, no milk. I didn’t feel like getting dressed to run to the store and thought of the new neighbor I had seen move in a week ago. He might have milk, and I only needed a little bit. So I threw on a skimpy top and a skirt over my thong, and went next door. His car was in the drive, so I knew he was home. I know I looked like a hussy, barely dressed, but it was so freakin hot out, I was sure he would understand. I knocked tentatively on the door and waited, sort of hopping from one foot to the other, because the porch was blistering hot. The door

What I Want
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you up when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, ot will stay awake just to see you sleep.. wait for the man who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,who holds your hands in front of your friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without your make-up on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU. Hardest thing to get is the one that you want the most... the one you can't do without ....

Ugh
I couldn't get much sleep last night. I think I fell asleep sometime after midnight. Had stuff on my mind. Woke up around 3am, way before my alarm went off. Heard Rich come home and he was making some noise down stairs. I tried to call back asleep, but my mind kept traveling. Ya know how you can sometimes cry yourself to sleep, I think I woke up crying. That's only happened a few times. I thought about some things that could make me smile, but then I think of other things that goes with that thought and just makes me sad again. Heard Tigger in the bathroom scratching at the litter box. I don't know why he can't just cover up his shit. He doesn't even touch the damn litter but he's gotta wipe his paws on something...I yelled at him a few times to have him stop..he finally stopped and ran down stairs. Then I smelled his dookie and said "Fuck, now I'm up" Came downstairs and Rich said "Wow you're up early, Did I wake up?" I said..Yeah, sorta, but it's okay. I've had stuff on my mind. I'

Damn It's Been A While...
Wow, it's been YEARS since I last logged on here *blushes* Looking back over my last few posts... I got the job that I previously wrote about, and have been there for two years now :) I quite enjoy it, so that's always good :) The girl from Boston that I previously wrote about is now my fiance. We've been engaged for about 18 months, and have been dating for three years. We plan to get married next year, so I'm looking forward to it :) The plan for the moment is that we'll get married here in Australia and live here for a while, then look at moving somewhere else in the world. Life is good, I'm happy. If you read this, PLEASE comment - keep me coming back!

Something To Think About!!!
A broken heart is hard to mendbut we sit back and pretendthat every thing is OK when it's notand the love that you shared you haven't forgotbut all the bad things we did we seem to forgetand wished that we can take it back, that you can betevery one has been down this road beforeand we kept it behind closed doorsthe truth is out but there is no reason to shoutwe smile and laugh to keep from crying and y'all know I'm not lyingbut it is time to let it go and move onour merry way because he/she is goneand never coming backto the person they think is whack.The truth to a broken heart that has been torn apart.

The Light In The Darkness
As I stare into the darkness of the all consuming abyss… …I see the light of her ever present beauty. Like a torch seen out of the ubiquitously thickening fog on the moors… …the captivating radiance of her inner power draws me ever closer. Her exquisite form draws me ever nearer, withdrawing me from this infernal damnation… …enraptured by the presence of self she seems to radiate like water off the fall, I hunger. Longingly, I strive to endeavor to push ever onward; drawing on some unknown, intimate fortification… …looking within, only to see the darkness without; I pull my resolution into a firm concept of focus. And like the blacksmith working tirelessly at the forge, I strike a thunderous blow with the tools at my disposal… …caring not where the sparks fly, I war with my deeper need; seeing the destiny of things to come in the craft and skill of my work. And with the quenching of my warring emotion

My Mind Adrift, My Soul Set Free
I've spent a life in hiding, Always seeking but never finding... I've thought long and hard, It would be easier to get lost in a shard… In seeking to better me, You are all I see… My mind adrift in what could be, I strive to make something I wish to achieve… I'm lost in the turmoil, Down here rooting through the soil… The longer we dance around this tree, My soul yearns to be set free… Looking down the way… …thoughts running astray… Take a chance, come whatever may... Mr. E

[not Here For The Pie]
I didn't really have much to say so I decided to flow a bit.I made ... what is esentially the lowest form of food, its a saltback ham broth bean gruel. I managed to make it smokey, but the damn beans didn't finish right the first time around and the broth I had was like... liquid salt fat run off turned mostly solid again. It will totally keep you alive, but I'm also out of most forms of starch beyond a package of pasta and...instant potatos older than me.I do still have frozen corn! And... *looks suspiciously at his dog* my very expensive chorizo. I have everything I need to make my chorizo alfredo.Still waiting a couple days on jobs, still ... slowly decaying like everyone else over... wait I'm generating new cells til 34 nevermindPoint is... I'm not sure. I think Tree's doing okay. Me my bro and a couple friends are advancing in FFXI boy I tell ya, that game really picks up after level 60, but its work work work. Attune this, slay that, meander here, get lost there, make friends wit

My Brother Terry
To all my friends on here wondering what is going on with my brother Terry. Currently he has been in the hospital for a month. He is hooked up to a respirator and numerous tubes and wires. To give you a little on his history with medical problems... Terry has had both his pancreas and kidney replaced with donor organs. This was due to his diabetes destroying his body. After he recovered from that and lost his Dad last year he came down with Lymphoma Cancer. Terry has beaten that also.On May 14th he went to the hospital with a fever he couldn't break. Now mind you the anti-rejection drugs he takes are immune suppressants so that his body will keep the organs. The doctors have been unable to help him, he has pneumonia. Terry is a fighter, but every prayer will help. It is difficult to see him the way he is now, they have him knocked out. Today they have been having problems keeping the feeding tube down him. Tomorrow they are going to do surgery to replace the respirator tube with a trac

Leper Colony
Does my eye offend you? Should I roll it down the hill... Should I wear an iron mask or warn you with a bell? In quarantine, I stay unseen - I still know how to feel. And though you never touch me, I am sure nothing ever touches you. You've no need to defend your actions I can understand. My mirror wept "surrender", so I threw in both my hands, before I just conceded I can't figure in your plans. Though I'll never touch you, you'll be sure nothing ever touches me. I shrivel when the sun comes out, I cry beneath the moon. You'll find me in a long lost alley, hiding in my "room". But don't you dare come near me cos I don't know what I'll do... If someone ever touched me, maybe I could just consider touching you...

Now Teaching Summer Beginning Ballroom Classes:
I am going to begin teaching Beginning Ballroom Dancing classes this summer. The following is a list of my experience:3 1/2 years dance classes including college courses in Ballroom Dances such as swing, rhumba, waltz, foxtrot, salsa, and tango.3 years of experience as a teaching assistant in Ballroom Dance classes.2 years experience teaching Ballroom Dancing workshops in the community.1 year experience for Dance performance with International Dance Theatre.The cost will be $10/ hour per couple,Bring a friend, family member, or neighbor, and let's Dance!!!Just send me a message to schedule an appointment.~Thank you,

Prayer For My Pup
She needs prayers... Calling all animal lovers, and just kind people. Hi Yall. I try not to ask anything of my friends. But I have a very sick puppy I have been feeding every hour on the hour for 3 days now. Giving fluids under the skin and all the meds I have. The vet sent her home today to die. Im weak,tired and sick and dont know how much I have left in me. But she is a fighter so as long as she is willing to fight Ill fight for her. All Im asking is for prayers. What every God or Gods you pray to. What ever spiritual path of light you walk. Send her a few prayers, light and love. She may not make it. But it cant hurt! Thank you guys!! Brought 2 U by: TATERS NEED LUV TOO

*sighs*
I used to write alot of poems..... but then i lost my inspiration to write them..... until now..... i have so many words to say..... but what to say and how to say it is where i get stuck...... For so many years I thought I knew what happiness was. I thought I was in love for so many years.... And that she was going to be the one i spend the rest of my life with..... But I sit here and think about the past and all the pain I endured.... Emotionally, physically and mentally.... I thought that was what love was..... That was all I knew as love..... But now I know I was wrong..... How I feel now..... The past will never amount to how I feel now. Because of all the damage and hurt I've gone through I had a wall built up. Was determined to NOT let anyone back in...... Until You...... I can't even explain how you were able to break down my walls. But you did. I'm happy that it was you that did though. I would have never found my words again..... You managed to help me find my hear

Time To Unload...
lol well here i am once again...alone...destroyed. I sit and wonder how i can find whati thought be the best girl ever...and her turn out to be the worst. How sad is it to actually come bragging to someoen you say you love about cheating one them lol. Please aint nuthing but a joke game she played. But is this fer real? I lay down again and fall into a deep sleep. There i am again on the side walk sitting down knees up hood up and my head laying on my knees. I look up at the sky and all aroudn me...no one there. I can see myself sitting there and the blood rolling down my face replacing my tears. Only so much heartbreak and pain one person can go through. the tears have turned to blood. TTheheartbreak happened enough that i fill up with pain and heartache and it spills. I look at the torture and pain. I see the many ways to end all existance and i watch myself go through each one. lol and whats funny people ave no remorse for causing this pain. oh but they do have a nice thingto say ab

Honesty
Hello... I was talking to a friend tonight.. and made me see how I have to be honest with everyone.. I told this person I can't.. I told him that I HAVE to fake being happy when I talk to people cause I was scared that if I told them how I really am.. they wouldn't talk to me anymore. People want happy happy to talk to. Not people that are down and hurt and even on the verge of being suicidal. So, when people ask me "How are you?" I say, "I'm good or I'm okay" and all the while I am crying knowing I am miserable. Sometimes I can't see the keyboard to type for the tears. There are a lot of stuff going on offline that I never bring online.. I hide that part of myself from people. But I can't hide it anymore. From now on I will be totally honest about how I am and people walk away.. they walk away.. nothing I can do to help that. I can't do that anymore. I won't bitch or whine anymore about the whores and what's bothering me about this place anymore. Because I am losing all my friends an

The Best And Ever Paying Home Business Online
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Need Help Pleeaasseee!!! Lol
Ok so here is the deal.... I have tried everything to try and fix my profile and nothing seems to be working.... I have deleted all my skins and turned them off but still cant get it to go back to the default so I can get a better skin.... Nothing is working.... can someone PLEASE tell me what the heck I am doing wrong????? I have even tried adding a new skin and that doesnt work either.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Any help will be greatly appreciated!!!! Thanks!! :)

I Fall For You Everyday
A Love Letter to the Love of My Life Dear my darling gorgeous Felicia Greetings, in the most romantic name of our love... I want to inform you that I send great pleasure To the ONE I LOVE. Felicia, you hold a very special place in my heart, That no one else could ever hold. I love you more than life itself. I'm so crazy over you. If you should break this love I have for you, All the stars will fall from the sky, And the mountains will fall into the sea. There are so many things I love about you. Without you in my

Distance...
(another poem I stumbled across...*QUITE* relevant to me)Distance...A thousand kisses will never be,Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,Tomorrow will be the day I love you more,Than today or yesterday or ever before,Words and phrases will never do,What my heart feels so deeply for you,Deeper and deeper my feelings go,My head is spinning too and fro,I want you here, forever and more,For our hearts to join and together explore,Our hearts beat and beat as one,Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun,Yet, slowly my desire turns to rage,My heart feels as though it's within a cage,You are so close yet so far,At times like this I wish upon a star,I wish you were here and not over there,Yet life is hard as well as unfair,All I can do is wish and wait,Until we meet again as that is our fate,I love you more than my words can say,And forever my love will grow each passing day,Until the day I gently hold your face,Kiss your lips within a candle lit place,Hold you close and feel you near,Kiss y

Poem 2
Come and take my hand and never let go Lets both hold on until time stops And let our love forever shine, let it show Until the stars, clouds and sky drops You and only you could tame my soul With the first smile that you gave me That first glance made me whole It was all I need to set my pride free That moment my heart was yours forever And it has always been beating for you It will be until the very ends of forever and ever With the flame you started, burning so true My life’s never been the same without you And I’ve lived with your love always inside me It gave me strength and pulled me through Your love opened my eyes it made me see Without you, there is no me……… Sitting here alone, looking at your photos Because it’s all I have of you right now I can feel my love inside as it still grows And I wish that I could make you feel it somehow My

Poem For An Angel
Poem for an Angel I'm now at work staring into space Thinking of you I see your face A face that holds a wonderful smile To see your face I travel many a mile And as soon as you see me your face lights up We kiss we cuddle I cherish your touch A touch that I miss when we've far apart But your always in my mind in my heart We never know what life will bring Sometimes your happy sometimes you sing You're made me happy made me glad I'm no longer lonely no longer sad For I have found someone so wonderful Life with you will never be dull You never thought it could be like this A love so real a love you have missed

What Happened To Mama!!
Ahhh...well I'm sure this one will start an argument but I gotta put it on record! OK! What is the deal with these 2000 ladies! (in general if this doesn't apply then obviously I am not referring to you) It is no secret that every a man wants a wants a woman like his mom. Now, no woman will replace mom but sheesh...come close! This is what I am talking about. ME i am a neat freak well not really but I am very organised. Everything has its place. Now I live with a woman, she is the mother of my daughter, she is a model, she's fun and firey and all that...cool...Sounds perfect this is where the problem comes into play. She is a procrastonator and not very neat. I am the type of person who will use one cup all day. To me, there is no reason to get a new glass every time I'm thirsty. I have a huge set of dishes and I might actually use 10% of them. If I eat something, I take it straight to the kitchen when I'm done and wash it out and bam..kitchen is clean. Now you might argue tha

Should I?
Well I am thinking maybe I should leave fubar for alittle while... Just not feeling it right now maybe its because ive had a real shitty week. I dont know. I am also seeing now that people who said they were my friends and wanted to be in my life were all just being liars and didnt mean any of it. The ones who are dear to me know who you are and I love yall so much and so very happy that I have met yall on here. But yeah if you dont see me for like a month or two im taking a break. If you have the cell number then you can always text and call me there. But we will see I will probably get drunk or very bored and get back on here. Who knows.

Candi, My Babygirl
I love my Babygirl. her name is Candi. She is my world, and I'd give my last breathe if it meant she'd get to keep hers. She means everything to me. I have made quite a few mistakes in the past up through the recent past. I know that no matter how much I appologize, it doesn't change the fact that I messed up. I just hope she can find it in her heart to forgive me for my wrongs. I will do everything in my power to not wrong her again. So much has happened in the last few weeks that I was sure everything was going to be ok, we were gonna make it, be back together, and live "happily ever after." My most recent mistake looks like it might have cost me that fairytale ending. I hope she knows just how much I love her, and how sorry I am for doing what I did. I want to make you happy, Babygirl, but if you don't believe that I can, then I hope you are able to find someone that can make you as happy as you deserve to be. No matter what happens, I am here for you, one way or another

Failure
I WOULD LIKE YOU ALL TO THINK ABOUT THIS . THIS IS A COMMENT THAT I HEARD FROM A ...... WELL IT DOESN'T MATTER TELL ME IF THIS MEANS ANYTHING TO YOU OR HAS ANY IMPACT ON YOUR LIFE , YOUR PAST OR YOUR PRESENT . IN ANY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE YOUR GEATEST ASSETT IS THE NUMBER OF FAILURE'S SINCE YOUR LAST SUCCESS. IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS PLEASE CONTACT ME . IF YOU DO KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS AND UNDERSTAND THIS . PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE CONTACT ME .( ITS PRICELESS ) VICTOR

Last Walk
Last Walk I look to my Right,I see a Golden city filled with Love.An Old man looks into my eyes,he reads my soul and looks depressed.I look to my Left,I see a Lake of fire filled with Chaos.A beautiful Angel looks me in the eye,he sees my soul and smirks.I look behind me,I see a world filled with Pain.A timeless Woman peers into my eyes,she sees my soul and gives me a Hopeful nod.I look forward,I see an endless journey filled with MysteryNo one attempts to read my soul.I smile and continue my journey alone.

Judge Me
Judge Me Silence,Rains upon me,As to not even a breeze,Blows my way.My thoughts eat away,Devouring all that I am,Gormandizing until there is,No more.How dare you,Force me to feel,Force me to think,Of all your thoughts.You have much nerve,To think that I bow down,Before all of your importance,Before all of your damned opinions.How dare you judge me,For things I can't help,How dare you judge me,When even I haven't judged myself.

Eyes
Eyes Nowhere to run,Nowhere to hide;Going crazy all the time.Dedicating their lives,I see faith in your eyes.Never you hear the discouraging lies.I hear faith in your cries,It was written in your eyes.I guess it's no surpriseI couldn't read your mind.One, two, three, four, five;I see fire in your eyes.Watch me rise,Watch it grow--itWill never go awayThe endless pain in my eyes,Praying to dieLeave you where your comrades lie.

From The Mountaintop!
Lo ! and Behold! I am come down from the mountain, bearing a new message from He who is most high! He spoke to me from a cloud of smoke surrounding a burning bush that seemed to burn forever. Upon viewing this miracle, I prostrated myself before Him and asked, "Lord, What is the meaning of life?" So sayeth HE who is most high, " DUDE! ... WHAT?... ER... UM... UH...I FORGET. GOT ANY CHEETOS?"

I Miss You By Jody L Mood
I miss you in the morning, When all the world is new, I know the day can bring no joy, Because it brings not you. I miss the well-loved voice of you, Your tender smile for me, The charm of you, The joy of your unfailing sympathy, Because the world is full of folks; it's true, But there was only one of you. I miss you in the noontide, The crowded city street, Seems like a desert now, I walk in solitude complete. I miss your hands beside my own, The light touch of your hand, The quick gleam in the eye of you, So sure to understand. I miss you in the evening, When daylight fades away, I miss the sheltering arms of you, To rest me for the day, I try to think I see you yet, There in the firelight gleams, Weary at last; I sleep, And I still miss you in my dreams.

Naughty Nightie Auction!
HEY TO ALL MY SEXIES!!! I'M IN A NAUGHTY NIGHTIE AUCTION. IT'S GETTING DOWN TO THE WIRE NOW. BID IS CURRENTLY @ 1 MILLION. COME ON YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT!!! I'M NOT WORTH MORE THAN 1 MILL. *SAD FACE*... SEE PIC AND OFFERS BELOW: I WANT TO ADD EXTRA THINGS TO THIS NOW. IF YOU OFFER ME 135 BLING PACK I WILL BUY YOU AN AUTO AND A BOMB PLUS EVERYTHING ABOVE...THAT'S RIGHT AN AUTO AND A BOMB AND I WILL KEEP THE EXTRA CREDITS. FOR AN OFFER OF 350 CREDITS I WILL BUY YOU 3 AUTOS AND 3 BOMBS PLUS THE ABOVE, AND I WILL KEEP THE REST. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHO'S GOING TO OWN ME!!! :) HERE IS THE LINK TO THE ACTUAL AUCTION! http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2125463&albumid=1674687&i=1236331320&idx=4 MWAH!!!!!!!!! LOVE ALL MY FU-S!

Someone Tell Me Why [very Personal]
Once upon a time there was a sweet and innocencent little girl, who always had a smileo n her face Whom always thought postive, and could brighten up anyones day with just a glare of her pretty face. But one day she grew up and became something she couldnt even reconize herself Who is this animal she's become? why must she act this way and do the things she does? Why cant she just go back to when her life was perfect and nothing could possibly go wrong?? She once wanted candy and cartoons, Now she cant go without sex and drugs She once was able to make decisions in a flash, Now she cant decide on nothing She was once loved by all, now they only laugh at her, and the guys only use her for her body, the girls pick on her and try to start fights She used to go cry to her daddy, but now she runs and hides her problems behind a bottle of alcohol Why, cant i get my act together and be the adult i started out to be? Why must I make everything so damn compliucated? God pleas

Life Is Like A Ball Of Clay...
Life is like a ball of clay. We are born into this world like a ball of clay…. We are nothing special. Then as we grow we begin to get molded by the choices we make and the things we go though. It’s like we are the clay and God is the artist. Each day we go through He molds us making us that much more perfect to put into his glass case (heaven) and show us off. I believe that each hardship….each choice shapes a different part of our lives. Each person we meet makes an impact on how we are developed. It’s like we are born this block of clay and with every decision every hardship some clay is scraped off in order to mold the character. The harder the decision or hardship the more clay comes off. When life is over and we die that’s when God had decided we are good enough to go into his collection, good enough to be put in his glass case. For the ones that don’t go to heaven its because they grew hard and refused to be molded into a better more u

Traveler
I am a traveler. Duffel bag always at hand. Any wind might blow me to another shore. My heart, spreading its wings, is bleeding. I am a visitor. I bought a one-way ticket, though I will depart. The tides of life will drag me out into the open sea. My soul, bracing its fins, is weeping. I am a passing thought. The intensity of my longing, amplified by the abridged half-life of my abidance. My love, counting its minutes, is chanting. My love and desire, burning like the fires of Alexandria's lighthouse. Knowing they will become history, then become myth, knowing they will never be forgotten, shine brightly. I am not a poet. The words you are reading are merely a keyhole to my soul. My hand, feverishly trembling, in your hand, was there to guard you. Wanted you, to hold on to me, to not let me go. But I am a traveler. Your hand could not stop me. Broken hearts line my path, for I can not linger - not even to love. My obituary, paying tribute to daemons, recites your beauty and pain.

Blah
Blah..my weekend is all over. Back to jail I go and slave away making money for nasty bills and such. I haven't ate much at all today...I feel hungry but not hungry... Since I woke up I had a muffin, coffee, a few small rice cakes and some dried fruits and coffee again. Last night, I cooked up some shrimp fried rice and eggrolls...spent a lot of time cooking it all and I barely ate it. On monday at work, one of my coworkers had asked me if I lost weight...I told her I lost some but nothing too major. She's also trying to lose weight and she has. She's doing better than I am, but at least Im still losing weight slowly...I still haven't gone to the gyms in a while. My appatite has just been so different. Rich brought home subway yesterday and I just picked at it. I'm not starving myself on purpose...I just don't eat as much as I used to I guess...I dunno..just odd... Anyways... Went to the grocery store to do food shopping for the weekend....gotta love how kids just stare at me. Som

Issues
If you really don't want to know anything about me then leave right NOW!!!! My name is Ryan. I am a 25 yo. I have not had the easiest life in the world and I have trouble telling anyone about me or my life. So just hang on for this ride if you wanna read... I grew up in a single parent home w/ my mother. I had minimal contact with my father for most of my life. And by minimal I mean I went 21 yrs with only seeing him for 36 days total in that time. I hada home in North Carolina and he had been diagnosed with lung cancer and liver matastization. I really wanted to know my fater so I brought him to live with me there. I only had 6 months of time with him before he died. There is nothing in the world that would make me wanna trade that 6 months for. I learnd so many things about him that I had always wanted to know. My mother is the only rock in my life. She has been there for me as much as she possibly could the enitre time. She is the strongest person I have e

Never Titled
A darken soul searching for peace of mind. Takes a look into the morning light. Rest in the warm of the powerful glow, and watched as it cleanes her soul. She takes a breath with in her self, and feels it freeing her from the darkness that once binded her. She feels the wind sweep across her and feels the chains of fear, darkness, and chaos breaking and falling letting her be free. As she sits in the glow of sweet sunshine. She now see's and feels her soul take flight. And as she travels her path of light She hopes the light grows stronger each and everyday. Blesses her with more then knowledge and peace. So mote it be. by Aimee Buchanan

Darkness Falls Upon Her
In the dead of night you see me. Watching you from above. Looking down on your spirit. Awaiting the right time to take it. As you sleep sound and peaceful. You look above your self, You see me staring back at you and say nothing of it. You allow this darkness of me to enter into your soul, And consume every part of you until you and I are whole. You feel and see this happen, And yet you never fight me. It makes me wonder if you ask for it or merily invited me. So I step back and no longer take of your louccious spirit, Until that day you decide that deep with in your soul, You wanted me too. Aimee Buchanan

This Will Make Your Hair Stand Up
One day a man saw an old lady, stranded on the side of the road, buteven in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So hepulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was stillsputtering when he approached her. Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stoppedto help for the last hour or so. Was he going to hurt her? He didn'tlook safe; he looked poor and hungry.He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold.He knew how she felt. It was those chills which only fear can put inyou.He said, "I'm here to help you, ma'am. Why don't you wait in the carwhere it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan Anderson ."Well, all she had was a flat tire, but for an old lady, that was badenough. Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put thejack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to changethe tire. But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt.As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she rolled down the window and

Duel
He stood at the very edge of eternity. His face poured with sweat, his hair matted together in bloody clumps. He could feel a stabbing pain when he breathed. A broken rib, mayhap two. And then there was the gouts of blood that ebbed from his head; ears. nostrils, eyes, mouth. "So this is dying," the man said, "Alright then." he charged at the hulking figure that stood before him and drew his gun from the holster that snaked across his side. It was an elegant looking machine; a Smith and Wesson Classic .44 revolver. "Wait." And to his surprise, the man felt his feet falter. "After all this, you want me to WAIT??? Why?!" "So that I may pose a dying man's question," the hulking figure replied, "Are we well met?" "I don't understand you." "Come now Alex. We haven't the time for foolishness. It's no secret we are both staring over the edge of eternity. So I'll ask you again. Are we well met?" "Aye, so we are." "Then let's end this as the gentlemen we are, and not as the barbarians w

Saying What You Do Or Doing What You Say
You may tell me one thing but you show me another. I see what I see. You may say anything or nothing and I will see that as well. I have thoughts in my head and words waiting to be released. I do what I say and I say what I mean, I do not feel the need to be evasive or elusive. If I wish to be kind I may not be abrupt, but take the easier route to soften the blow. I feel rage and sadness and wish to feel nothing at all.

Maybe Word
Sadness knocked my doorMy tears opened that doorWho took my lover??!!I lost my love now?!!Maybe it’s my mistake??Maybe it’s just a running lifetime ‘Maybe ‘word, it has a thousand meaning Maybe it’s not my faultMaybe my time has goneMaybe word is a sea of secretsA sea there is no harbors forOn that painful sea shores, her steps Those steps prince like a wounds wide openedAnd my eyes filling them with tearsMy days are lostMy dreams are burnedThe sun, that shining sunIt set long time now, sleep my poor eyesSleep over my wounds, but please don’t tell my secretsThe one was my soul, she hasn’t set yetShe still in my soul.Maybe it’s my faultMaybe my time has gone!!Every time I try to forgetMy heart yell: I can’tI can’t, but who can ,can.A journey was written long time agoAnd it has to be walked We have to travel.Maybe it’s my mistakeMaybe it’s my faultMaybe my time has goneMaybe word has a thousand meaningMaybe word is a

My Lil Room
She used to run out of school and come to my roomIn school she learns seines lecturers and easy issuesBut in my room she was learning much much moreEvery day in school is a normal single dayBut in my room, it’s a many yearsNow , she isn’t coming any more to this poor roomShe thinks that she learned all lessons and classesBut only smart knows what they missThat with all lessons in school there is homework’s and questionsBut with every lesson in my room there are grammars and benefitsOnly wise human who learns what life teachWhile she .she wasn’t that wiseThat even with all lessons she tokeShe still a kid in this worldStill a baby girlWhile this roomWith its small wallsIs a big worldAnd the lady who will graduate of all classes of my roomI am sure she will be a perfect ladyA lady of my life-------------------------------W.B: FM

For Every Child Who Cries At Night
For Every Child Who Cries at Night For every child who cries at nightAlone with shame and pain and frightFor every child who wants so muchTo only feel a gentle touchFor the beaten child, who cries in painWhose tears run silent, like the rainFor the child used to satisfy lustWho never learns to love or trustFor the child taken from her homeAnd made to feel so all aloneFor the child whose home is just a shellWhere life becomes a living hellFor the child who smiles but cannot feelBecause of scars too deep to healFor every child who yearns for loveI hope and pray to God aboveTo hear your cries and heal your painAnd give you back your life again

My Hands Are Itchy
Why are my hands so itchy? I took baxter for his walk and half way through my palms got itchy. I thought maybe a mosquito got me but now the whole palms of both my hands are itchy. I've washed my hands like 4 times now with anti-bacterial soap and they are still itchy as can be. I checked on web md they say I have the black death. i don't think so though because i haven't been around any Europeans or rats. Man this is frustrating. Also... What makes you so damn special? no really, i want to know.

Hospitals Blow Chunks!
Okay well, I am finally home after a 3 day vacation in the hospital. Fun, fun! Alot of friends have been leaving me messages askin what happened and I figured this would be the best way to let everyone know without haveing to re-type everything over and over. I'm tired... This past Sunday evening I started feeling.. icky. I woke up at my usual time Monday morning sick as hell, throwing up , freezing, burning up with fever. Naturally I assumed I'd caught some nasty virus and that it would pass. I continued to throw up /dry heave ( yeah I know. nasty ) all day Monday, all night and by Tuesday morning, I knew something wasn't right. Christian took me in to the Emergency Room where I continued to throw up. I'd been trying to drink water and gatorade to keep from dehydrating... hmm.. it didn't work. They got me in for a CAT scan and an upper and lower GI . I sat for a couple of hours waiting for the tests to be read and all. Finally they informed me that I had some form of

The Past Day Has Dragged
i miss talking to who i love and think about when im alone. even as little conversation as it was we were having. the more guys that hit on me, the more i realize how alone i will ALWAYS be. i need... i need a guy who likes me to open his eyes and be straight forward with me. to realize that he is in love with me, and when he realizes that, i need him to tell me and i need him to not change his mind and i need him to know that once i say "I love you too," it means i will ALWAYS be there for him. no matter what. i dont want to feel like a third wheel. i dont want to feel like a charity case. i dont want to feel like a burden when im w/ my friends because ive been one to my family my entire life. boys r all the same and just so...strangle-worthy. slutty chicks r nice to look at. however, they will not be there for u, to take care of u when u r throwing up in the middle of the night!

Another One Bites The Dust
Got a call from my friend the bar owner last week. He wanted me to come in and DJ for him on Saturday night, so I said no problem and got a sitter. I hadn't worked for him in several months, so this was a welcome invitation. I got to the club, began my show, and after an hour or so a girl walks in who took my breath away. She was scoping me out most of the night, and when the opportunity presented itself, I went out to the dance floor, offered my hand, and we danced as if we had been partners for years. Every sway, dip, step were in near perfect unison. Before the night was over I had passed her my number and email address, asking her to call me. She playfully said she probably wouldn't, but I got a text the next day raving about what a great time she had, etc. and we spent most of Sunday communicating both by phone and online in chat. Monday as well. Tuesday as well. By Tuesday night, I had a gig downtown, and at one point I "serenaded" her by calling her in the middle of a very

Seriously?
I seriously need to vent about things. I know it seems like I do that a lot, but I can't help it. I'm a complainer. You either like it or you don't. I can't help who I am. Anyway, off to the vent/rant. First off. I do NOT like being stalked. I just want the person to stop coming to my stuff. [yes they are blocked] I want them to stop sending me messages on Yahoo. To stop texting my phone. To stop commenting to me in MuMMs. I just want them to act like they don't know me. Maybe I'm just wishful thinking, but yeah. Another thing I need to vent about is my job. It's not the best job in the world, I hate it actually...but it's a job. They are very flexable about when I can get time off. They also pretty much let me do whatever I want there. HOWEVER I just found out that some KID that works there was offered a job as a "shift leader". He's just graduated high school. He has no clue what it takes to open the place, he can't write on any of our cakes..let alone make one. If something

Kylie Busted Sunny
The FUs have spoken. Quite a few of you have asked me to bust this user. I'm going to make this short, to the point, and simple. Meet Sunny: Sunny✯Sou... User link: http://www.fubar.com/user/2370737 The girl in the photos name is Kylie (I do know her full name but will not make it public). She lives in Iowa and is 20 years old. She's one of the most commonly faked girls on the net. There's hundreds of fake profiles of her all over the web. A month or two ago Kylie removed everything from her myspace account (which is the ONLY profile she has) due to the constant fight against fakes. HOWEVER I have three of her photo salutes AND three video salutes for proof: Photo Salute 1: Photo Salute 2&3: Video Salute 1: video link: http://tinypic.com/player.php?v=j81uli&s=4 stash link: http://www.fubar.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=6622466&bl=1

*breathe-thump-breathe*
Listen to your heart… @ *Breathe*… *Breathe * @ Close your eyes and listen… Close your eyes and see … @ *Breathe* … *Breathe* @ … @ Heart,…. heart what should I do I’m lost in this world with no one but you I walk through the crowd, …but I can not see Who is that person,…who might they be @ … @ *Breathe *… *Breathe * @ I reach out a hand…. and people grab on … But when I take a step… they are all gone @ … @ The ones that remain… I hold very dear … But I know all but one will disappear…. @ *Breathe *… *Breathe* @ Alone in the fog, it will just be us And this person that’s left I know I can trust… @ *Breathe *… *Breathe* @ Please tell me who… Who is beside me? … @ …. @ Behind this fog hiding their face…. Who is this person you say is first

Cross Canada Adventures
well we are beginning our journey back across canada from halifax to victoria.mixed emotions I have as I have met some fantastic people here and once again its time for us to leave .we are heading back to victoria which also makes me happy as all my family is there. tomorrow we sign the papers on our house and are on our way to moncton . I have a few friends there that i cant wait to see . We are planning to go to crystal palace but we will see how that works out .we may all just hang out at the hotel and let the kids . i thought i would keep a blog on my adventure and fun times as we go ..cheers.. well we made it to moncton and enjoyed our time at crystal palace ..the weather was not that nice to drive up in ..lots of fog and rain .we are sittin back after a swim relaxing and going to enjoy the game .. off to quebec tomorrow

Buy Cialis Rx Erectile Dysfunction Medication
Buy Cialis Rx Erectile Dysfunction MedicationBuyCialisRx.comphone: 866-441-3579email: info@BuyCialisRx.comBuy Cialis for a prescription medicine taken by mouth for the treatment of erectile dysfunction (ED) in men.Buy Cialis exactly as your doctor prescribes. Cialis comes in different doses (5 mg, 10 mg, and 20 mg). For most men, the recommended starting Cialis dose is 10 mg. Cialis should be taken no more than once a day. Your doctor will prescribe the dose that is right for you.Cialis can cause your blood pressure to drop suddenly to an unsafe level if it is taken with certain other medicines such as nitrates and alpha-blockers, and recreational drugs that contain nitrates called "poppers". A sudden drop in your blood pressure could cause you to become dizzy, faint, or have a heart attack or stroke. Until you are certain how you are affected by Cialis, use caution when driving or operating heavy machinery. Cialis contains some lactose and should not be taken by patients who are lacto

About Wats Going On
ok so here it is it has been a few weeks im sick not from a cold im sick from stress not sleepin and i have lost 10 lbs cuz i havent been eatin my fingers are swelling on me idk y but it hurts like a b... when it does i am gettin a total of 4 hours of sleep at night 5 if lucky my hair is not as strong as it use to be its gettin weak im stressed out cuz my home life i cant wait to get out one day but it wont be anytime soon so it looks like i will be stuck here on this bed talkin to everyone from it love ya guys u rock :P

Shameless
Here's my redo blog after the epic failure of a blog earlier. Ok, it's not really a blog so much as a shameless self-promotion. I was coerced into getting a snapvine with promises of singing comments and british accents. I has the british accent comment, buuut, so far that's it. So please, leave me stuff. I'd have posted the widget, but for some reason the code wouldn't work properly. I dunno. http://www.snapvine.com/blueeyedsoul

The Knob
The Knob If this doesn't make you laugh, you're dead!!!! A woman visited a plastic surgeon who told her about a new procedure called 'The Knob,' where a small knob is placed at the top of the woman's head and could be turned to tighten up her skin and produce the effect of a brand new face-lift. Of course, the woman wanted 'The Knob.' Over the course of the years, the woman tightened the knob, and the effects were wonderful, the woman remained young looking and vibrant. After fifteen years, the woman returned to the surgeon with two problems. 'All these years, everything has been working just fine. I've had to turn the knob many times and I've always loved the results. But now I've developed two annoying problems: First, I have these terrible bags under my eyes and the knob won't get rid of them..' The doctor looked at her closely and said, 'Those aren't bags, those are your breasts.' She said, 'Well, I guess there's no point in asking about the goatee.'

A Good Joke
A Mafia Godfather and his attorney are meeting with an accountant who has embezzled money from the mob. The Godfather demands to know where it is.The attorney interrupts, "Godfather, remember, this man is a deaf mute. But I know sign language." The attorney, using sign language, asks the accountant where the 3 million dollars is.The accountant signs back, "I don't know what you are talking about."The attorney says "He doesn't know what you are talking about."The Godfather pulls out a pistol, puts it to the accountant's head, and says, "Ask him again where the damn money is!"The accountant signs back, "OK! OK! OK!, the money is hidden in a suitcase behind the shed in my backyard!"The Godfather says, "Well....what did he say?"The attorney says "He claims you don't have the guts to pull the trigger."

Clearing Cookies And Cache (ie)
To clear cache and cookies in Microsoft Internet Explorer,perform the following:Internet Explorer 5 and 6:1. Open Internet Explorer2. Click 'Tools'3. Select 'Internet Options'4. On the 'General' tab, click the 'Delete Cookies' button in the'Temporary Internet Files' section5. Click 'OK'6. On the 'General' tab, click the 'Delete Files' button in the'Temporary Internet Files' section7. Check the box marked 'Delete all offline content'8. Click 'OK'9. Close Internet Explorer10. Reopen Internet ExplorerInternet Explorer 7:1. Open Internet Explorer2. Click 'Tools'3. Select 'Internet Options'4. Click the 'Delete' button in the 'Browsing History' section5. Click 'Delete Files'6. Click 'Yes'7. Click 'Delete Cookies'8. Click 'Yes'9. Click 'Close'10. Click 'OK'11. Close Internet Explorer12. Reopen Internet Explorer

Missouri?
So I kind of could have made a MuMM, but yeah. I don't want to. Here's the thing, my friend wants me to come visit her for a week in Missouri. I'd be paying for the one way ticket there, and she'd be paying for my ticket back. I haven't seen her in YEARS, and I'm wondering if it would be worth it. =/ Yeah, I know..I sound so damn cheap. The tickets are about 162 each. Ugh, I don't know what to do.....help!!!!

Forever In Our Hearts .....our Beloved Katt R.i.p
Death, my friend, you are always there,from you, no one flee, you are everywhere,still, I wonder, why you are not here anymore...Death, my friend, you release others from pain,all those people, they get free, so many slain,yet, I ask, why I am still here in vain...I stare to the madness, I see just my pain,it staring me back, drowning me in the sadness...My tears flow, blinding me, just for vain,for no reason, my mind falling to the emptiness...I stare in the mirror, once again,I see my eyes, I see mirrors of madness...Death, you are my sweet love,come and give me your cold embrace...Wrap your icy arms around me,hold me, kiss me till I die...Let me feel your cold touch,feel you, feel death of my flesh...Release my soul from this agony,give me freedom...In my life I have lost some things, twice. I had forgotten how to smile,how to see bit further, beyond this misery.I had forgotten how to be happy, how to trust anyone, give them power over me.I had forgotten how to be me,buried everythi

My Hero
I can remember back to the rip young age of 12 when I wanted something from the store and asked my dad for the money. He told me then if I wanted something then earn it. So thats when I got my first job at 12 years old. It seemed thru the years I strived to prove that old man wrong on one thing after another but all I did was prove him right. I remember to this day when i trained my first horse at 15 or 16 and my dad had brought me home a brand new cowboy hat, boy I was happier than a puppy with 2 peckers. Well I was until he told me when you earn it you can have it. Took me a year to get that hat and many bruises, sore spots and saddle sores later he gave it to me. To be honest the way he treated me it was almost to the point that he dispised me and i was the youngest and only boy out of 5 kids. I spent many a day and night working on a cattle ranch riding fence, tending to the cattle, earning the right to call myself a cowboy, and all the while hating my father for the way he tal

Road Trip
I was on my way to the beach for a nice, relaxing overnight stay. The first time in forever I was going to be alone, and able to enjoy complete solitude. I was speeding down rt. 1 when this weird noise started. It was coming from the engine, but I had no clue what it was. It was dark out, drizzling, and just not ideal circumstances to be stuck on the side of the highway. I stopped the car, as the noise was getting louder, and popped the hood. I was muttering to myself how stupid this was, since I had no clue what I was supposed to be seeing. As I stood there staring at the engine, I saw a car pull over ahead of me and stop. My stomach started churning, and I was thinking all sorts of horrible scenarios, ending in my death, or rape, beating…damn, I watch too much tv. As I looked up a man got out of the car and started toward me. I couldn’t see what he looked like in the dark, but he didn’t seem menacing. He was carrying a flashlight, and shown it on me as he approache

I'm Losin' It!!
Zomg! I hate bugs. I mean, I lose my mind when I see some of them. I can handle ladybugs, flies, and even small spiders....but any spider bigger than a dime or any centipede will send me screaming like a little bitch. Well, this week I've had a run in with more than I'd like. I was taking my towel off my head yesterday and this giant centipede fell off my towel, I heard the little bastard hit the floor...I jumped straight up onto my bed screaming. Ma yelled down the stairs wondering what the hell I did, and when I said "Oh, just a centipede" she about laughed til she peed. Last night, I was using the loo just before bed and in crawls this terrible looking spider...I grabbed the nearest cup and dropped it over it. Score 1 for me! Well, just now...there was a hornet in my dishdrain. Ugh! Well, I reached under the sink for the bee killer and zapped the jerk w/ it....well, I about made myself pass out from the fumes...I can practically taste the junk...and I keep coughing. Ugh, I hate inse

Tru Friends
True friends**** *stick up for you when your being put down *will always have your back *deserve all your luv and trust *lend u their shoulder's when your sad *can make you laugh when ever *don't care if your crazy or quiet *make you feel safe *will never judge you *will never put you down *don't care what others think of you *will love you for ever *can never forget u *are the most precious gifts!

Something I Wrote Last November For Remembrance Day
A TIME TO REMEMBER Today we all paused for a moment of silence to remember those that have passed on before us in preserving our freedom that we enjoy today. Novenber 11, 1918 the day the Armitice was signed to end World War 1. What does Remembrance Day mean to me, it means a time to say thanks to the veterans that have died in fighting for the freedom of other people. Have you ever had to stand at a cenotaph at attention for hours on end with no breaks while the cenotaph is being watched over. I have and let me tell you it was an experience that I will always remember, standing there in the cold. But it gave me time to reflect on the price paid for our freedom. And how much their sacrifices means to all of us. And how thankful I am for what they have done. Canadian, British, American, and Russian soldiers all fought in World Wars 1 and 2 to stop the occupation by German and Janpanese troops. It was during World War 1 that Canada fully became a nation when the m

How I Met My Husband
It was 2001. I was on a red line L train at 12am. he was too. He was one of the 10 ppl in a car, and the only cute one. He was lookin at me throught the reflection, I did too At my stop, I and came up to the door to get ready to get off (or to get him to notice me), and he said that I had a a cool necklace (it had a spider on it) he followed me to a parking lot, and I thought he was cute, so I wasn't freaked out. He was kinda behind, so I pretended to be tying my shoe lace so he would catch up. He started talkin to me about music, where I was going, etc. We wound up talkin next to my car for an hour. He lost his .com job, and was going to move home to CA next month He went back to Cali for a friend's wedding, and when he came back, he called me and we went out on a date. We went to a park by my house, where we made out in the grass, then a hot dog place. After that we went to his house, and watched movies for awhile. That was followed by going to a Mexican hole in the wall,

Flake
I know she said it's alright But you can make it up next time I know she knows it's not right There ain't no use in lying Maybe she thinks I know something Maybe maybe she thinks its fine Maybe she knows something I don't I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying It seems to me that maybe It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand in my way Cause no one NO not no one Likes to be let down I know she loves the sunrise No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes And I know that when she said she's gonna try Well it might not work because of other ties and I know she usually has some other ties And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em Maybe she'll help me to untie this but Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you. It seems to me that maybe It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand

6 Inches
Coming into the bar and ordering a double, the man leaned over and confided to the bartender, "I'm so pissed off !" "Oh yeah? What happened?" asked the bartender politely. "See, I met this beautiful woman who invited me back to her home. We stripped off our clothes and jumped into bed and we were just about to make love when her god damned husband came in the front door. So I had to jump out of the bedroom window and hang from the ledge by my fingernails!" "Gee, that's tough!" commiserated the bartender. "Right, but that's not what really got me aggravated," the customer went on. "When her husband came into the room he said 'Hey great! You're naked already! Let me just take a leak.' And damned if the lazy son of a bitch didn't piss out the window right onto my head?" "Yeech!" the bartender shook his head. "No wonder you're in a lousy mood." "Yeah, but I haven't told you what really, really got to me. Next, I had to listen to them grunting and

Kenneth Your In Deep Dodo.
Dear KENNETH, You wait till I get my rock climbing hands around your neck. You told me that you were sad that 360 was closing and that you found a cute place to go. Ok ok being blonde and not wanting the headache of looking at all the kiddy sites "I said" where lol. I would or thought of Myspace, Facebook, Multiply, Tagged, or even Opera, Nooooooooo you picked a bar. You never told me it was a meat market where I would be considered "fresh meat". No shirts, shoes and in some cases pants lol and cowboy hats. Well ya better get your Arse in here and help me navigate, I had a picture viewed as not so good and I put up one up wearing a dress you can see through and its ok sheesh. Could use some big screen TV's to watch football lol. Huggs ya you little Shyt.

New Reverend
After talking to a few people I know, I have come to the conclusion that, if for no other reason than to get my thoughts out there in case anyone agrees, I should have a blog. The blog itself (or at least, the one under this title) will primarily be my thoughts on belief structures, but anyone who reads these should feel free to comment with questions, or even just your thoughts. FIRST BLOGOver the course of my life, it has occurred to me many times that there are a plethora of very significant similiarities inherent in many of today's religions across the world. As a newly ordained reverend (non-denominational) it is part of my responsibilities to know the many forms of ceremony in most of these religions, if only for the sake of being thorough. It is also beholden to me to at least attempt to understand some of the basic forms for many of these religions, so that through understanding, I can better serve more people. As it currently stands, I don't have a specific religion that I cla

Zombie Take-out Episode 4: Take Me Home
Zombie Take-Out Episode 4: Take Me Home is now online Zombie Take-Out finally takes on a zombie movie … a really bizarre zombie movie. A zombie movie that has as much in common with Night of The Living Dead as it does with The Red Shoe Diaries and the work of Federico Fellini. This week, Scotto and Uncle John discuss Dellamorte Dellamore better known (in the USA, at least) as Cemetery Man. Gna! http://zombietakeout.com

Bisons Win And Weekend
So first of all if my boss is reading this, thanks for the Baseball tickets and the day off. I'm still in shock that the Bisons won and that it didn't rain. The bisons beat the Durham Bulls. I call them one of the Icon teams. What I mean is that people who don't follow baseball have heard of them. That alone doesn't make them a good team. I think part of the reason they are so well known is from the movie Bull Durham. I admit I have never seen it. From what I heard that movie is more about sex and relationships then it is about baseball. Anyone who has seen it is that true? So the other night The Penguins won and that means game seven in Detroit on Friday night. That should be a great game. Since the start of the series I didn't think the Penguins could beat Detroit. Both teams are great and have great goaltending. But Detroit is just to good at home, and the home team has won all 6 games. Assuming I do what I want to do, I'm going to miss the game and go to Club

Seamus Versus Wicked
It has come to my attention that Seamus does not believe i can not be nice helpful and sentimental for at least 48 hours. I have decided that we should make a bet out of this. I agree that Witchie(stupid spell check) should be the unbiased judge to our bet and will decide in the end who is the winner and who will be the looser. There will be no arguing as to her ruling and she has the power of the veto... If you witness one of us breaking said rules please rat Seamus out immediately.... Here are the rules: 1. Wicked must be nice and helpful threw out Monday and then again on Tuesday 2. Seamus must be genuine and sweet during these days to 3. We may not avoid being on Fubar if found guilty you forfeit and I immediately win the bet. 4. If and When Wicked wins you will pimp her out begging and stealing from everyone you know in order for her to get enough money for the spotlight.. 5. If Seamus wins Wicked will pay for the FU marriage for at least one months time, she will also

Whores Ii
Soo... I posted one of my earlier excapades in a mumm, in order to see the responses. Well, it appears that its perfectly fine and notable for men to troll for a piece of ass by various pretenses, and be considered ..."cool", or "just a guy" but if the genders are reversed, its making her a whore, or a slut. Like women can't find someone just for a piece of dick, not for some stupid relationship. I guess it stems from an inherited thought that women are only there to please men. Which makes a woman that has sex with a guy just for fun still a "pleaser". Without assumption that she might be doing it cause SHE wants it. I dunno, it all seems very confusing.

2009 Fantasy Fest Events And Schedule
Fantasy Fest 2009 in Key West is special as it marks the 30th Anniversary of this infamous event that draws 50,000+ people to the island every October. (NOTE: this festival is NOT for children-especially at night). 2009 will be my 10th straight Fantasy Fest and is shaping up to the best yet. Many of the events throughout the week in Key West require a cover charge or donation but most are nominal and many of the proceeds go to local children’s and other charities. NOTE: Many “unofficial” or private party events occur throughout the week. Look for flyers, postings and word-of-mouth from locals and participants so that you can pick and choose your desired venue as you cannot possibly do everything there is to do in Key West each night. Always re-check times and locations and remember that especially as the week goes on, that some events sell out or are so crowded that limited observation/participation can be expected and that standing room only may be encountered.

Come Help ♥~bratt~♥ Level
I'm Pimping out my sweet friend Bratt I know already know her and be real good friends with her, if not then you are missing out. She is a really cool person to know and I'm glad to have her as a friend. She's fabulously sweet & cute!! Rate, Fan, Add, Bling, Bomb Her. I'm pimping her out so come and show her some mad Fu Lovin and spank her to Oracle she will return all the love. Add Her, Fan Her, And Rate Her Bling, Bomb Her. Why Are You Still Reading This Go Show Her Sum Fu Loving! ♥~Bratt~♥Owned by **Stilts**

Never Ending Circle
softly she kneels before placing her soft cheek against his thigh she feels her enslaveded heart start to race she inheales and savors the essence of him fires begin within her belly he fells her heart, body and soul she could never imagine herself anywhere but at his feet no other can make her feel this way her blue eyes gaze over him,hungry with need, she feels the flames begin her heart interwoven with his, she is slave he is Master in was in the gor. stuff i looked tho a while ago and i really liked it so i put it on here

Property Part3
"Please can I cum?" she begged, kissing the top of my shoe. She was on her hands and knees, her big ass in the air, whimpering at my feet."You are so adorable when you beg, pig," I chuckled, ruffling her hair with my free hand. I had a cigarette in the other hand, and the ash was getting long. "Open wide."She tilted her head up to look at me, and with a grimace opened her mouth. I tapped my ash off on her tongue. Her eyes got watery."Quit being such a baby. I didn't burn you, did I?"She shook her head. Her hair bounced off her cheeks."Do you want me to have to get up and go get an ashtray?"She shook her head again, eyes still tearing up. Now her red lipstick was smeared with gray ash."So what is your problem, crybaby?"Thank you for using me as your ashtray, Sir.""You don't seem really thankful," I said slowly. "Now what were you saying about cumming?""Well, Sir..." she stuttered. "Last night you told me you would make me cum if I... if I...""If you what, pig?" I sighed, acting ignorant

Property Part2
I stood in front of the full-length mirror and slipped into my new dress shirt. It didn't look too bad – maybe I wasn't the conventional ladykiller type, but for a certain type of woman I was attractive. The shirt was adorned with dancing red flames and devil's forks, over a black backdrop."What do you think, pet?" I asked M.She was kneeling on the floor next to me, watching me with big, sad eyes.She was, of course, insanely jealous that I was going out tonight. She grumbled a response, and I laughed at her."Look at me," I said to her. She looked up, and I spit in her face. "Don't be a bitch. Tell me what you think."Her lower lip trembled. Sticky clear ooze shined from her thighs. She didn't move to wipe off her face."You look very handsome, sir," she whispered."Thank you," I said with a smile. "Now go fetch my black shoes."As she crawled away I admired the new tail she had, and smacked her ass. The week before I had found a lovely buttplug at the adult superstore, a thick black

Property Part1
She is over my knee, naked save her collar. I am still in my work clothes, shoes, tie and all. I haven't had time to shower yet. My pattern was disrupted when I came home and found my sub breaking the rules.M, my pet, gets off work thirty minutes before I do. We have established that she has plenty of time to come home, shower, start dinner, and be waiting for me, naked but for her collar, on her knees inside the front door. Sometimes I need to be sucked off when I first walk in the door, other times I just pat her on the head and send her into the kitchen. Once in a while I'll have her bathe me, or strip me and give me a tongue bath (only in those instances when I'm feeling particularly demanding and evil).But when I came home she was on the phone with her friend. When I entered she looked at me, her eyes wide. She was sitting on the counter, legs crossed at the ankle. Her legs were smooth and pale white, very nice. Her body was supple and freshly scrubbed her pubic area cleanly shave

Hatred
Deep down where there is none left. Half empty on a tank of breath. Feelin less & less n downed each day. Lost & can't find my way hopin/lookin for that person to stay. Listen to what i have to say not just go over me. It's such a tragedy how one has to be. When one goes through things he has to endure. It's only pain for more. For whatever else is in store. I am only me not only one myself. Seemin how less I can help or go on for one to be. No one really seems. All that life was a matter was only a dream. Watch as the blood streams looks into the vanilla cream sun light. Lookin at all that is not right my life is not me i'm not one to be or one to see through the glass mirrorly. Everything's unjudgely all i can say is why why why me This is not my way to live this is not what i give this is not how it is this is not how it goes this is not how i know this is not what it shows. This is not Me!

Breakfast
Eyelids flutter, the soft rustle of the wind in the trees outside the bedroom window; she turns to Him, watching as He sleeps. Amazed at the way this man can bring chills to her spine after such a short time. Grateful to be here with Him, her Master; after all those months submitting to Him online; she is finally where she was made to be. Their relationship started as most cyber ones do, flirting in the main room, a few private sessions; neither realizing it would ever come to this until they stood in front of one another at the airport. He had sent for her, she is still in awe; for she had not even a second thought when the airline tickets arrived. She belonged to Him online, heart and soul and soon, body. She was still a bit confused as to why they had not yet had a session, chalking it up to nervousness on both their parts; or maybe it was just not time yet. She’s only been here less than 24 hours after all.Her hazel eyes roam over Him, the soft black sheets tangled within His

I Prayed...
Did you know you are a blessing? I prayed for a man that first loves God. Only a man who does can even begin to love me. I prayed for a man that has love for himself. Only a man that does even knows how to begin to love me. I prayed for a man that understands the meaning of friend. Only a man that does can be a true friend to me. A lover must first be a friend and that is what you are to me. I prayed for a man that would love me for me, not what he wants or thinks I should be. Only a man that does will know the devotion of a good woman. Do you? I prayed for a man that knows how to express himself. Only a man that does is not afraid to tell me what he feels and needs, good or bad. I prayed for a man that desires to take care of me. It has more to do with commitment than money. I want someone who has eyes for only me and it can be seen in his actions. I prayed for a man that I could laugh with. A man that can make me light up with just the thought of him. That is a feel

Avoid This One : Hey Everyone, All Of My Friends And Family Know That I Am Pretty Easy To Talk To And That I Am Usually A Friendly Person. This Afte
Hey Everyone,All of my Friends and Family know that I am pretty easy to talk to and that I am usually a friendly person. This afternoon, This person hit me up in shout box and this was our conversation I have copy and pasted it as it was said, not backwards as it appears in the shoutbox:1uniquemale: u horny this afternoon hmm->1uniquemale: no, but thank you for asking1uniquemale: id make ur panties very wettt n creamy->1uniquemale: thanks anyway, my boyfriend takes care of that for me1uniquemale: then go fuck his lil 2 cm dck then n get off this site->1uniquemale: I didn't do anything to you , why are you so angry..... I have friends on this site.. this is not a porn site... why don't you get off this site.1uniquemale: go finger urself n let ur dog lick on uIf he had read my about me on my page, He would have known that I am only here for friends.... and , if he would have looked at any of my pictures, he would see that I don't even own a dog...lol!Basically this guy wanted cybersex a

Cure For Cancer
(Someone sent this when I had my cancer scare) Dear God, I pray for the cure of cancer. Amen We are sometimes mistaken when we fear that which is big.Godzilla, King Kong,Asteroid, Armageddon.At least we can see it when it comes.We are sometimes mistaken when we fear that which is big.Change, birth,death, love.At least we can throw our arms wide around it.God of big things,God of great deeds,God of the drama of the Exodus,the parting of the seas,the fire on the mountain,the creation out of nothing,we are wonderstruck by You,dazzled by big things.But are You not also the God of the small,God of the turning leaf,God of the grain of sand,God of the passing shadow,God of the rotting fruit?I address You nowas God of the small,because sometimes we are mistaken when we fear that which is big,when that which is most frightening of allis small,the size of a melanomic cell,the size of a metastatic pinpoint,the size of a golfball,the size of a grapefruitgrowing where there is

Life
This is my life, this is my timeIn the game it's got me slowly going out of my mindThis is my life, this is my timeAnd I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fireThis is my life, this is my timeIn the game it's got me slowly going out of my mindThis is my life, this is my timeAnd I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fireI'm alive and it's every minute, every second in itThis is life, this is prison, this is only the beginningBut the time I was given for these lines that I've writtenEvery rhyme that I spit is like a sign that I'm livin'Give me pain, give me death, give me hate, give me loveWhen I lay upon the fire give me rain from aboveGive me pain, give me death, give me hate, give me loveWhen I lay upon the fire give me rain from aboveThis is all about wrong, this is all about rightThis is not about bark, this is all about biteAnd it's about the everything that you're praying for at nightThis is all about the music, this is all about lifeEvery street, every block, every burro

Furious
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Singin For Teh Saint
Alright guys....and gals. For those who actually show up & read these things. I had a big ole blow out planned for my bday this year. Per usual in Saints world, shit started falling apart. So I decided fuck it. If I make no plans, they can't get ruined right? Scrapped it all. But I do want a few smiles for my anniversary of being vaginally expelled from my maternal units innards. This is where I turn to you fuckers. I wanna FuBdayParty. I want countless offkey renditions of Happy Birthday invading my Snapvine. Think a few of ya could manage that for me? Yes, I'm asking for me. Not asking much, just a chorus of that wretched song. Gimmee Happiez demmitt! Love youz fuckers.

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Updates On Mother
My mother had a stroke Sunday luckly she was already in the hospital, she had under gone knee replacement surgery in both knees! They have her in Icu now b/c she can't talk, or use the right side of her body, or even swallow it goes back into her lungs. Doctors say we should see improvement alil everyday but it will be a very very long road to recovery for her! I thank you for all the nice messages everyone sent to me and kind comments! I'll update this as I get updates on her!

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Thursday, June 11, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You are ready to enjoy yourself today, but it might not be as simple as you expect. You are willing to play, yet something holds you back from fully participating in the present moment. It's a challenge to balance your desire for pleasure now with your need to establish a deeper and more intimate connection. There's no reason for endless analysis. Just keep bringing your attention back to the current situation and act from your heart, not your head. oh freaking great

Amy's Rant For Today
I'm going to rant. You're going to think I'm a bitch. Oh well. I'm sick and damn tired of trying to reach out to friends and be kind just to get ignored or disrespected in return. If someone is kind enough to be concerned for your well being then don't be a total douchebag to them. This goes for online and offline friendships. I'm sick and damn tired of the woe is me people. They think it's the end of the world when one little thing goes wrong. I can bet you that 9.9 chances out of 10 I can find at least one person who has it rougher than you. So get over it, move on, and become a better person because of it. Yes, you have permission to quote this to me when I start to get emo about things. I'm sick and damn tired of people lying to me about the most petty things. I was NOT born yesterday. I can see you change your status, leave people comments, and other things. So don't lie to me and tell me you weren't online or you weren't sitting at your computer when I sent the SB message or

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Bondage
Well this girl at work seems all nice and friendly and everyone likes her and she is all funny n sweet .... well that's the nice part about her... Ok last night i was exploring some bondage site n stuff and i came across this kinky bondage site and registered just for fun and guess what there she was all kinky n naughty and of course dominatrix there ... lol i was so shocked I dunno if i should have been so astonished ....well every ones has a kinky side I hope i am right lol

Please Have A Go At My Friend Asb's Quiz
[1] Who was the last person you texted?A fubar friend who is ill[2] You were in the car with?No one[3] Went to the mall with?Myself[4] Person you talked on the phone with?My best friend Jane[5] You messaged/â€‹commented on Fubar?The turtle is born...T/F Only answer with True or FalseQ:Kissed some one on your top friends?YesQ: Been searched By Cops?False Q: Been suspended from school?FalseQ: Sat on a roof top?TrueQ: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?falseQ: Broken a bone?FalseQ: Have shaved your head?True, I always doQ: Played a prank on someone?TrueQ: Had/have a gym membership?False I have a Home GymQ: Shot a gun?True..Air RifleQ: Donated Blood?True, to save a lifeWOULD YOU RATHER:[1] Eat or drink?Eat donuts[2] Be serious or be funny?Funny - Always[3] Go to the beach or mountains?Beach, I am an ocean surf fanatic[4] Die in a fire or die getting shot?shotANSWER TRUTHFULLY:[1] Sun or moon?Sun[2] Winter or fall?Fall[3] Left or right?Right[4] Black and white or co

Hmmmm...
A woman from Los Angeles, who was a tree hugger and an anti-hunter, purchased a piece of timberland, near Grants Pass, OR. There was a large tree on one of the highest points in the tract. She wanted a good view of the natural splendour of her land so she started to climb the big tree. AsShe neared the top she encountered a spotted owl that attacked her. In her haste to escape, the woman slid down the tree to the ground and got many splinters in her crotch.In considerable pain, she hurried to the nearest doctor.She told him she was an environmentalist and an anti-hunter and how she came to get all the splinters.The doctor listened to her story with great patience and then told her to go into the examining room and he would see if he could help her.She sat and waited three hours before the doctor reappeared.The angry woman demanded, 'What took you so long?'He smiled and then told her, 'Well, I had to get permits from the Environmental Protection Agency, the Forest Service, and the Burea

Testing Something Out
Hi folks, There is something I want to do and first I wanted to try out a few things to see if I could get it looking the way I want. So, to be honest, this blog isn't going to be that informative, but it will help me with future blogs. Here is a test picture I want to share If that came out right, there should be a coral colored tea rose picture here. Well, we will see, won't we ;-) Here is hoping that everyone is having a great day @};- Paul

Come Here.
Time is passing by and I have not been able to kiss you, to give you love, to hold you. I know you feel the same as I do, but I’m tired of not being with you. When you call me, I am able to pretend that I am happy with it, but as soon as I hang up the phone there is great sadness. I am tired of all the “I like you” and the thousands “I want you” that you send me through email. Come here and tell me face to face, because through the computer I can’t feel a thing. You are keeping me from seeing your body laid on my bed. I notice time passing by and you are so far. Come here and make my life longer, come here and heal this wound, come here because through pictures I can not touch you and less give you love. Come here baby, because none can be adored by chatting on the computer. Come here because is not the same to talk to you, than to touch you, and feel your warmth.

It's That Time Again... Schleproks Monthly Vip Giveaway....
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My Heart Just Crumbles
Had the opportunity to visit my son Chris at work before heading to the doctors about hubbys back. He told us that re bar might be a thing of the past and that his boss was looking into other things to do like bag, salt, ashvalt, dirt etc. And when he gets the machine and a few contracts then he figured his older bro Derek will be called back. My heart sank again, with out my oldest boy working we will not make it financially. Hubby is just not earning enough and I cant work due to my medical problems. He then went on about his own situation and I could see the stress lines on his forehead. He even commented on going grey. I thought what? only 23 and going grey wtf. My heart just crumbled as he went on talking about his situation. I wish to God I could help but I can't . We are as just as bad off as he and his fiance is. I just came home and sat and kept my thoughts to myself. It hurts when your child is hurting and needs help but your hands are tied and you cant do a

Winter
Within this winter nightmare My limbs grow colder with every passing hour But as the frostbite slowly spreads throughout my body I sense the end is drawing near Pleading with my conscious And with a whisper of salvation I hope to sway his dieing breath Now as I drift off into this final slumber My dimming light is blown away as if it were the last time Now laying here in the dark surrounded by my fear My dieing thoughts are visions of love A scarlet maidens dream

"i Love You"good Bye...
"I Love You"Goodbye... I know that we have had fun Fun with our bodies Fun with our sences I know that one bright early day I gave you my body Gave it for fun I know that I said I Love You You had my body,You had my soul I know that I left you alone Alone with out my body All alone with out my sences But you left me regret,pain and sorrow Though I dreams of your touch and alluring your humble face in my thoughts Remembering those passionate desire we shared But I have nothing to say now than I Love You Goodbye....

The Bluest Blues
I couldn't wait to see you - waiting by the doorThere's no one there to meet me - and your clothes are on the floorSorry if I hurt you - and I made you cryCouldn't stand to see you - with another guyIt's the bluest blues - and it cuts me like a knifeIt's the bluest blues - since you walked out of my lifeCouldn't really tell you - how you hurt my prideSomething broke within me - down insideI never knew I loved you - til you went awayNow the loneliness surrounds me - everydayIt's the bluest blues - since you walked out of the doorIt's the bluest blues - cause I won't see you no moreI'm sorry if I failed you - if somehow I'm to blameIt's the bluest blues I'm feeling - it's a cryin' shameI just can't live without you - face another dayIt's the bluest blues I'm feeling, and it's here to stayIt's the bluest blues, and it cuts me to the bone It's the bluest blues, when you can't find your way home

**nsfw Story*** Beyound Phone Sex
I have always loved sex. Phone sex is my most popular form of entertainment. I think it's because of the secretiveness. I like being able to imagine my partner as I hear him and pretend to feel him without ever really knowing who he is. I have a few phone partners. All of them have a vivid imagination and I enjoy the sensual time we spend together. It's my form of masturbation without feeling alone. I usually find someone I like talking to online and in a few weeks we make a decision to take our fantasies to the phone or not. I have only a couple of rules. You must be willing to participate, I'm not going to reach through the phone and stroke it for you. You also must have a feather handy and have an open mind. No bullshit or I'm done. And, we won't be talking again. Without an open mind, neither of us will get off. The feather is because I have long hair and find it sensual to drape it along a man's chest as I make my way down to his groin. There was one guy I had talked with online t

Suprise In My Email
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Sonnet 130
Sonnet 130 by William Shakespeare My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;Coral is far more red, than her lips red:If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.I have seen roses damasked, red and white,But no such roses see I in her cheeks;And in some perfumes is there more delightThan in the breath that from my mistress reeks.I love to hear her speak, yet well I knowThat music hath a far more pleasing sound:I grant I never saw a goddess go, My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground:And yet by heaven, I think my love as rare,As any she belied with false compare.

Sonnet 58
Sonnet 58 by William Shakespeare That god forbid, that made me first your slave,I should in thought control your times of pleasure,Or at your hand the account of hours to crave,Being your vassal, bound to stay your leisure!O! let me suffer, being at your beck,The imprison'd absence of your liberty;And patience, tame to sufferance, bide each check,Without accusing you of injury. Be where you list, your charter is so strongThat you yourself may privilege your timeTo what you will; to you it doth belongYourself to pardon of self-doing crime.I am to wait, though waiting so be hell,Not blame your pleasure be it ill or well.

Sonnet 18
Sonnet 18 by William Shakespeare Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?Thou art more lovely and more temperate:Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,And summer's lease hath all too short a date:Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,And often is his gold complexion dimmed,And every fair from fair sometime declines,By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed: But thy eternal summer shall not fade,Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Annabel Lee
Annabel Lee by Edgar Allan Poe It was many and many a year ago,In a kingdom by the sea,That a maiden there lived whom you may knowBy the name of ANNABEL LEE;And this maiden she lived with no other thoughtThan to love and be loved by me. I was a child and she was a child,In this kingdom by the sea;But we loved with a love that was more than love-I and my Annabel Lee;With a love that the winged seraphs of heavenCoveted her and me. And this was the reason that, long ago,In this kingdom by the sea,A wind blew out of a cloud, chillingMy beautiful Annabel Lee;So that her highborn kinsman cameAnd bore her away from me,To shut her up in a sepulchreIn this kingdom by the sea. The angels, not half so happy in heaven,Went envying her and me-Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,In this kingdom by the sea)That the wind came out of the cloud by night,Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. But our love it was stronger by far than the loveOf those who were older than we-Of many far wiser than

Drawn
Drawn The ticking of the second hand ceases, At just the sound of your voice. The dark clouds halt, in the midst of a night sky. I close my eyes and you appear. Your chiseled cheekbones content. The depth of your eyes intensely gazing into mine. Your lips so soft, gentle, yet passionate, strong. The purity of your tender skin, Against a backdrop of the blaze of your emotion raging fervently. No wind blows; Cricket silence; The relentless beating of my heart, A fixation to illustrate my addiction - the rhythm of obsession. The moon held captive, by a gridiron of midnight glitter. I am entranced, Enthralled in your aura. You consume every part of me - Heart, Mind, Body, Spirit, Soul. As Sun draws Earth into orbit, Holds her close, gravitational pull; I am drawn to you, My Sun, The center of my world. No chains to bind, The simple need to just exist.

The Future Life
THE FUTURE LIFE by: William Cullen Bryant (1794-1878) How shall I know thee in the sphere which keeps The disembodied spirits of the dead, When all of thee that time could wither sleeps And perishes among the dust we tread? For I shall feel the sting of ceaseless pain If there I meet thy gentle presence not; Nor hear the voice I love, nor read again In thy serenest eyes the tender thought. Will not thy own meek heart demand me there? That heart whose fondest throbs to me were given -- My name on earth was ever in thy prayer, And wilt thou never utter it in heaven? In meadows fanned by heaven's life-breathing wind, In the resplendence of that glorious sphere, And larger movements of the unfettered mind, Wilt thou forget the love that joined us here? The love that lived through all the stormy past, And meekly with my harsher nature bore, And deeper grew, and tenderer to the last, Shall it expire with life, and be no more? A happier lot than mine, and larger ligh

Thanatopsis
THANATOPSIS by: William Cullen Bryant (1794-1878) To him who in the love of Nature holds communion with her visible forms, she speaks a various language; For his gayer hours she has a voice of gladness, and a smile and eloquence of beauty, and she glides into his darker musings, with a mild and healing sympathy, that steals away their sharpness, ere he is aware. When thoughts of the last bitter hour come like a blight over thy spirit, and sad images of the stern agony, and shroud, and pall, and breathless darkness, and the narrow house…make thee to shudder and grow sick at heart;-- Go forth, under the open sky, and list to Nature's teachings, while from all around-- earth and her waters, and the depths of air-- comes a still voice-- Yet a few days, and thee the all-beholding sun shall see no more in all his course; nor yet in the cold ground, where thy pale form was laid with many tears, nor in the embrace of ocean, shall exist thy image. Earth, that nourish'd thee, sh

A Psalm Of Life
A PSALM OF LIFE by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Tell me not in mournful numbers,"Life is but an empty dream!"For the soul is dead that slumbers,And things are not what they seem.Life is real! Life is earnest!And the grave is not its goal;"Dust thou art, to dust returnest,"Was not spoken of the soul.Not enjoyment, and not sorrow,Is our destined end or way;But to act, that each to-morrowFind us further than to-day.Art is long, and Time is fleeting,And our hearts, though stout and brave,Still, like muffled drums, are beatingFuneral marches to the grave.In the world's broad field of battle,In the bivouac of Life,Be not like dumb, driven cattle!Be a hero in the strife!Trust no Future, howe'er pleasant!Let the dead Past bury its dead!Act -- act in the living Present!Heart within, and God o'erhead!Lives of great men all remind usWe can make our lives sublime,And, departing, leave behind usFootprints on the sands of time;Footprints, that perhaps another,Sailing o'er life's solemn main,A forlor

Awaken My Sweet
Awaken My Sweet The night wind whispers to the oak tree “Awaken my sweet, Rustle your leaves for me.” Then, and only then will she dance. Her spirit rising with every breeze. She’s longed for his arrival, Waited, ever so patiently, for his return. She craves the caress of his breath To fulfill her every desire. Her branches part Inviting this waft to enter her every crevice To fill her with his aroma - The scent of desire, The fragrance of lust, The sweet perfume of yearning. She craves him, Aches for him, Hungers for his touch, He is the source of her sustenance, Nourishing her every need. Though she cannot see him, She knows he is there. He consumes her, Envelops her within his soul, Swallows her whole. And she melts in this apparition, Inhibitions lost, No reserves to speak of, As she sees pleasure in his eyes. Sees that he is pleased with her dance, Her response to his embrace. And as quickly as he arrived, Is as quickly as he depa

Unsettled Tide
Unsettled Tide She sits alone at the edge of a sandy shoreLooking out to the horizonIn the distance, she sees the swell of the oceanAnticipating it’s arrivalShe knows the tide is buildingForce…Fury…RageIncarcerated by this approaching waveWill it hit her hard…knock her over?Will the contained ferocity subside as it approaches shore?She wonder what affect this advancing torrent will have on her. It has had its way with her too many times. Brought her to her knees… Rendering her oblivious to the world around her. Her soul, drowned by the sea of emotion, So enraptured by its consumption Of her spirit. This feeling she knows all too well And she prepares for it. It draws nearer and nearer. She braces. The sand but a faulty foundation. Here it comes… Eyes closed, Palms clenched, No breath escapes her lips, And she feels it. The slightest touch of moisture Against her scorched skin. It mocks her; Teasing, Tormenting, Tantalizin

Love Hurts.
Why loving someone hurts so bad? I never had to think about it. Now that's all I think about. Relationships should be so simple. Find someone to love, fall in love, be happy the rest of your life. What a joke!!!!! It's nothing but a lie, and I've been the biggest fool of all. Love isn't real, just a term. Be used than tossed a side like a piece of garbage, a laughing stock for the world to know about. Just a big joke, but I'm not laughing any more!!!!!!!

Please Help Lucky Mclovin Become The First Leprechaun Oracle
MY TWO YEAR FuVERSARY IS COMING UP ON JULY 2nd I REALLY WANT TO WIN THE TITLE AS FIRST ORACLE LEPRECHAUN I WILL BE RUNNING AUTO 11'S ON THURSDAY JUNE 11th @ NOON EST (3pm FuTIME) SO PLEASE HELP ME K.O. THE POINTS TOWARDS LEVELING TO ORACLE RATE ME, BOMB ME, BLING ME IF YOU CAN. ALL LUV IS APPRECIATED, AND WILL BE RETURNED PLEASE PM WHEN YOUR DONE SO THAT I DON'T MISS YOU IF YOU GET KNOCKED OFF MY BAR TAB ₤ựϛǩƴ Ṁč₤ὅṽḭη The Leprechaun King@ fubar

He Never Left
He Never Left Light breeze whispersCaressing her nape.A chill sent through her body,Tingle, numbness;She hears a flutter.Could it be? Has He returned?Eyes closed,Magnificent hope,She’s awaited this moment,Longed for Him to come again.The anticipation consumes her.Her breath laboredAs if inhaling His soul.His touch,Light as the feathers that adorn him.She melts into His gentle arms.In the strength of His hands, She is protected.For though she’s already fallen,He will never let her fall.As she awakens, Gazes upon His lovely face;The kindness in His eyes,His tender lips,The essence of love that radiates from His skinEnvelops her completely.Sigh of relief, Her angel has returned.Though she doesn’t realizeHe never left.

Sins
This is my attempt at encapsulating the 7 Deadly Sins in a single poem. The woman is in no way, metaphorical of my character. Sins Delicate fingers graze the ample multitude of linens and pelts hung neatly. Shades of indigo, ebony, crimson she paints intricately over the fair features of her pallid skin. Her gaze constant, confident as the reflection before her returns with carnal glances, Emerald orbs scanning every inch of her exquisite form. She walks the streets, nose held high as it very well should be, For none merely grazes the height of her beauty…and she knows it. Snickers and white noise of back talk sling from every direction The seemingly dull piercing of blunt edged daggers from women who long to be her. To her, their words are simple child’s play. Eyes of men devour her with every effortless step she leaves. As she continues, not a care crosses her mind That she destroys their every desire with a poised turn of cheek. With a graceful flip of go

In Repair
I love to write but hardly blog, and whether anyone is interested or not, I have alot to say. I used to write alot and it helped me to figure things out. You would think writing on a public blog would feel alot different than writing privately knowing no one would read it, but it doesnt to me. Im a surprising girl with a surprising outlook on life considering the surprising amount of pain I've endured. I am a recent survivor of domestic violence. I fled with my (at the time) 3 year old son to a shelter in Philadelphia and they flew me home to Sacramento to the WEAVE shelter here. My son's father was brutally abusive and I am probably lucky to be alive and have my child in my custody. Our case with CPS was closed for only 2 months (after being under their thumb for a year) when he beat me up for the last time. I am in repair, for obvious reasons, and this blog is going to be a part of the process, Ive just decided! I am an artist, a model, a student, a single mother, and a surv

Gee... Excuse Me!
I swear!!!Just when I think I know my friends...?????Fuck!!WTF did I do?!No, I am not about "ranking" my friends!But... to be below the one infectious disease!?!?(some of you know WHO I am talking about)I just don't fuckin' get it!!!I mean, really.... does me being so sensitvie such an inconvenience... to all???Yeah, I get it. I know some roll their eyes at me.. thinking.. "oh great, not again!"Just because I share that I am hurt and do NOT like viewing lying faces... doesn't mean to drop me!I so am fuckin' tired of being stabbed... in the heart! :(I guess... I never should've looked. But... damn it.... I see now that I am of no importance to ones I call "best" friends.Really..... taking applications for *NEW* best friends! :(

"truly Blessed Friendship"
When you are hurting inside and open your most vulnerable side where your deepest feeling hide I will stay with you and listen. when you are alone and sad I want to be there for you as you are there for me and keep our secrets safe from harms way. When you want somebody to keep good company on a trip so you won't have to go it alone I want to be the one that will comfort you whenever you need me to. Knowing you would be there for me too. When life's journey takes wrong turns and we stray from the path. I want to be there with you finding the right track that will take us back to where we need to be knowing that you are there with me. When you are happy my heart is full of joy and when you are sad my eyes fill with tears because your friendship means and says that you will always be near and that mine will always be here when you want or need me you really are my best friend I hope that I am yours together we can open any door. Christopher Kortz Decemb

Hommie Hopping Dip And Dot
AAAAHHHH What is it with females. I can understand that when you get burned by past boyfriends you tend to not trust anymore, but when your man proves over, and over, and over that he is not like your past ones. Are you going to keep comparing him to them or what? My ex Kathrine left me for her ex who hurt her bad and then. When he kicks her to the curb again. She come back to me thinking that all is to be okay and I will forgive her. That's crap she moved out my place and left her stuff there while she moved back in with him and had sex with him, while she was supposed to still be my girlfriend, and to top that. Just got told by my brother that while we were together she was giving him head. Supposedly.What am I supposed to do? How do I responded to all this with-out violence?

Abk
so i think i finally found that special guy ive been searching for so long. i love how he makes me smile and laugh i love how sweet he is to me... yeah ive done some fucked up things to him but hes still givin me a chance :D im deffinately not fckin this one up hes a keeper.. i can honestly say i love hi with all my heart.. and i whouldent hae it anyother way.. net time i get a chance im gunna go c him and it will be great im looking so farward to it. i dont thin ive ever felt so happy with a man in my life.. grr everytime i talk to him i feel so loved :D i love you abk

Blessing Above
Alone along lives way searching for someone that will make my heart complacent someone to share in everything I would do and share her life with me for the rest of my days, rest of my nights and all that lays between someone to grow old with. Needing to find a companion who is needing love and tenderness when we find one another a love that would make us whole and I knew then if all the days of our lives were filled with wishes and dreams that came true. Our hopes and dreams nurtured with love would enhance our blessings too the way I used to be has change because of the way you were before we became as one. It had made two lonely hearts stronger in their love and showed what we have is a blessing from above. Christopher Kortz 01-05-08

Story/joke
A woman stops to fuel at a local filling station while filling her automobile She couldn’t help but take notice to a gentleman filling some gas cans after Fueling his pickup one large one medium then he commenced to fill one rather small 1 ½ x 2” fuel can. Puzzled the woman was compelled to ask the complex question sir she said if you wouldn’t mind may I inquire what was the 1 ½ x 2” can for? The gentleman replied sure what do you want to know now even more confused the woman reasked why did you put fuel in the little can? The gentleman said miss it is for my ring! The ring she questioned the gentleman replied yes my ring! Tired of the gentleman’ vague responses she turned to leave and heard the sound of a rather small engine. The gentleman’s ring was vibrating causing his hand to jerk uncontrollably in a reciprocating motion the more he turned the jewel one way his hand went faster the other way it went slower. So the woman walked back

Nostalgia
My mom and I used to go out to lunch every Friday. I would drive down to her work, wait in the parking lot, and revel in the sight of my mom walking out of that building dressed all spiffy, her heels clicking across the parking lot. Sometimes I would drive, or sometimes I would unlock her car with my spare key and wait in the passenger seat.Sometimes she would pay, sometimes I would pay, but no matter what, it was always a good time. I would fill her in on my latest drama, she would give me advice, or get on me about texting too much...which I actually miss.Sometimes we would go to the mall to look around, and end up eating Auntie Anne's pretzels instead of an actual lunch. Then we'd eat them in the car and she'd get on me when I'd get salt all over the seat.We'd get back to her work, I'd say goodbye, drive home...And I'd already be on the phone with her, ready for another conversation. Sometimes we'd talk for quite awhile, even though we had just seen each other.My mom and I used to c

Morning Fuck Up
i woke up this morning and went to my computer like i do every morning and jump on yahoo and i got a message from my ex roommate who is liveing with me temporary i have a history of having a voilent temper and it does not come out much like it did when i was much younger however this morning it did i dont no how i was able to cool down but i did and the subject witch was said was the cause of the outburst as you know i have alot of problems mentally becuse of my mother and what i was put thu for the most part iam great and now i was able to put it behide me but this morning it got to me he seen on my status on yahoo that iam finally getting confidents in my self and he said to me awww your getting confident becuse your mother never loved you mind you there not much i take personal but when you talk about a touchy subject like that or my cat then you better run no thanks to that cunt my mind is all fucked up becuse of her if it was not for me that dude would be liveing on the

Gilda Radner
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Gilda Radner Born Gilda Susan Radner June 28, 1946(1946-06-28) Detroit, Michigan, United States Died May 20, 1989 (aged 42) Los Angeles, California, United States Years active 1973 – 1986 Spouse(s) G.E. Smith (1980-1982) (divorced) Gene Wilder (1984-1989) (her death) Gilda Susan Radner (June 28, 1946 – May 20, 1989) was an American comedienne and actress, best known for her five years as part of the original cast of the NBC comedy series Saturday Night Live, for which she won an Emmy Award. Radner's death at 42 of ovarian cancer helped increase public awareness of the disease and the need for earlier detection and treatment.

Jude- Older Work
So I suppose it's about time I get off my ass and do something with this blog again. I've neglected it for far too long which is unbecoming of a gentleman of my craft. So, without further adieu, I give my latest short story, "Jude". Enjoy... She says to me, "Don't worry, I'll take care of everything," and sets a vulgarly large, black purse on the bed. She pulls her saintly white dress over her head and slinks over to me like a cat. She whispers in my ear, and her breath sends an electricity through me that I won't soon forget. I grope eagerly for my wallet and pull out a wad of bills I can't bring myself to count, as well as a decayed looking condom. She takes the money from me, and places it in one of her shoes. Before I can tear open the condom wrapper, she snatches it away and says, "You don't need it." Her hand dives into my pants and my member stiffens at her touch."Don't you worry about disease?" Her lips are by my ear again and she whispers,"I never worry." She nibbles at m

Tgif!
THE CONTEST ENDS TODAY! (FRIDAY) WE HAVE MADE GREAT LEAPS THANKS TO FRIENDS!! YOU FRIGGIN ROCK!! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU! WE STILL NEED ONE LAST PUSH TO GRAB THE LEAD THOUGH AND WIN THIS!! I SAY WE CAN STILL DO IT!! DON'T MAKE A LIAR OUT OF ME LOL I WILL STILL PAY OUT 1,000 FUBUCKS TO RATE THE PIC. PLEASE FOLLOW THESE INSTRUCTIONS TO RATE THE PIC. YOU WILL SEE "STARS" PIC LINK IN THE COMMENT AREA BELOW. CLICK ON IT TO RATE IT. IF IT SAYS IT IS PRIVATE, THEN YOU MUST RATE,FAN, AND ADD THE HOST FOR NOW. THE HOST IS THE CANDY SHOP AND THEIR LINK IS THERE ALSO. ONCE THEY ACCEPT YOUR REQUEST, PLEASE COME BACK HERE AND CLICK ON HER PIC TO RATE IT. IF YOU CANNOT FIND MY PAGE AGAIN LOOK UNDER TOP BLOGS, IT IS #7, AND IT WILL BRING YOU STRAIGHT HERE. AFTER RATING HER PIC, PLEASE MAIL ME TO LET ME KNOW YOU RATED IT, WHETHER YOU WANT THE FUBUCKS OR NOT. THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT FROM A RECORD KEEPING STANDPOINT. THANKS AGAIN TO ALL OF YOU THAT HAVE TAKEN THE TIME TO HELP WITH THIS AND

An Older Work, But A Good One. More To Come
The town was dead and silent, the smell of the sea hanging thickly in the morning air. There was nary a cloud in the sky, displaying the full brilliance of the heavens God had wrought. This was a perfect night. A night where spent lovers might whisper sweet nothings into each other's ears. A night so perfect that even the slightest change in the air might somehow defile it, as a chilling north wind might defile the petals of a rose. On the silent street he seemingly materialized from the ether of the darkness, stepping from the perpetual nothingness of the shadows. He was tall by even tall standards, towering nearly seven feet above the ground. And yet there was something gentle about his demeanor and posture. He seemed relaxed, and uncaring, his hands jammed deep into the pockets of a dusty black coat. But one look at his face would cause even the mightiest of angels to tremble in fear. He was handsome enough, but it was his grin, his sinister grin. It was the grin of a cruel child

If You Jump, I'll Jump
Smiles and her laughter its the only thing that I've been waiting for a time regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time ...the only thing that I've been waiting for. I hope its something worth the waiting cause its the only thought that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like Emily she's simple yet confusing her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble days seem like years in this month of December the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep and never will I give up trying cause you're everything to me I hope its something worth the waiting its the only thought that I ever feel real thunder storms could never stop me cause there's no one in the world like emily there's no one in the world like Emily

Lonely In A Crowd
Ever feel lonely, even when there's a room full of people. Ever wonder why you can't have a strong connection to that one person your so drawn too? Or have you been with your mate and felt that he wasn't even there really, that you didn't even matter really as far as he is concerned. You are merely taking up time and space at that particular moment. That if you could be put in a box and stored until needed, that would be the preferred way to deal with you. Being lonely is a terrible thing but being lonely with someone else I think is even worse. This is relationship limbo.

Letting Out Frustration
Just a Rant about relationships and life. There has been many times that I have wondered about finding just that right person to have the perfect relationship with. Many people think that having a relationship with someone means sharing everything with one another, or not sharing a damn thing with each other. I seriously doubt that has anything to do with it. I have been through many relationships in my time. Granted, I'm only 28 years old, but I think that I have the perfect idea for having a perfect relationship with that special someone. Heart break comes at a price, but it also has it's reward. Yes, the heart is broken for a time, but the momeries that are had are either good or bad, depending on how you look at them. The relationship I had gotten out of was like a 20 marriage ending violently with divorce with one side winning over the other person. The person I fell in love with was taken advantage of from me. I was also taken advantage of from her. S

Random
) Is there anyone on your friends list you would have sex with?OMFG, YES(2) Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?OH RIGHT AT SUNSET WITH THE WINDOWS SHDES ARE OPEN AT THE LAST SUNLIGHT SEEPING IN OVER US!!(3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?OMG YES, LATE NIGHT EARLY MORNING PARTYS!!(4) Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?NO COMMENT!!! (5) Shower or bath while having sex?OMFG YES!! LOVE IT!(6) Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bedBOTH, WANT SOMEONE THAT LIKES TOO BE IN CONTROL AND NOT AFRID TO GIVE UP THE CONTROL!(7) Do you love someone in your friends list?YES!!!!!(8) Love or Money?love!(9) Credit cards or cash?CASH!(10) Have you ever wanted a best friend?WORKING ON THE BEST FRIEND PART, THEN WE WILL SEE!!!(11) Camping or a 5 star hotel?CAMPING!! (12) Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?CITY HALL STEPS MIDDLE OF THE DAY ON A FRIDAY AT THAT (13) Would you shave your entire body (including your head)?IF SHE IS WORTH IT (

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Death
I LIVE IN A TOWN OF 1200 THIS WEEKEND A COUPLE AND THERE GRANDAUGHTER(15) WERE BASICALLY EXECUTED GANGLAND STYLE. THE GIRL WAS IN MY SONS GRADE. WHY WE MAY NEVER KNOW. THERE ARE SPECULATIONS BUT AS OF NOW NO COMMENTS HAVE BEEN MADE BY THE LAW AS TO WHY,WHO,OR WHEN.YOU HEAR OF THESE THINGS ON THE NEWS BUT IT`S NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN IN A SMALL TOWN.THESE PEOPLE WERE EASY GOING LIFE LOVING FRIENDS OF MINE LIKE THEY WERE OF SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS TOWN.BAD ENOUGH THE COUPLE BUT WHY THE 15 YEAR OLD GIRL.SO MANY QUESTIONS SO FEW ANSWERS.MAY GOD REST THEIR SOULS AND HELL OCCUPY THE KILLERS.I REALLY WISH FOR CLOSURE TO THE FAMILY LEFT BEHIND TO DEAL WITH THE AFTER MATH.LET`S HOPE FOR THE BEST AND LET THE VICTIMS REST.AMEN

Little About ~ladyfaith!
So, I'm not much for blogging really. Don't feel you all need to know every little detail of my life. But figured I would post a little bit more about myself. Let's see. I will soon be 28 years old. I'm a single mom of 2 beautiful little girls who are my entire world. They are 6 and 8 years old. Currently single. Liking it that way really. Don't have much time for dating now a days anywho. Currently working for a helpline call center. Gotta love being yelled at on a daily basis, right? I'm also a full time student. Working on my AA in BA with a concentration in Healthcare Admin. Due to graduate in Novemeber of 2009. Only took me 10 years after graduating high school to get a college degree, but I'm doing it! Not sure if I want to continue on with schooling or not. Figure I will know by Novemeber what I want to do. Hopefully life will be fairly calm by then. So there is a little about me. If you want to know anything else.....ask!!! Till then.... ~LadyFaith~

My Gift To You
My gift to you is my love, given from deep in my heart. It is the best i have to offer and it's yours untill this earth we depart. You have captured a part of me so fragile, For it is my heart i have lost to you my love, the one i hold most dear. I chose to love you now with all that i am, and i pray that God follows us to guid our steps as we cross this land. For it is with his blessings we will live most at peace with each other. For he is the reason after all we found each other....I love you! 06-10th-2009

It Is What It Is....
GUESS WHAT?!?!?! I fucked Kaliko, Courtney, SmackDaddy AND SupaFly this weekend!!!!! Surprised???? Me too. Wud of liked to know too so I cud of enjoyed every minute of each one of em. This is my explanation as to why I am gone off this site. Over the last 10 months since I have come back I made it to Oracle. Yaaaay me!! I have made so many friends real and Fu and found so many other fakes, phonies and wannabe's I feel that no matter how hard someone can try the Fu will cross over into real life. You find friends, enemies, haters, tru love and even a baby daddy or mama off here . I have been through a lot in the last 10 months and those close to me know the deal. I have come to a point in my life that I need to do me, I LOVE my true friends and if ur lucky enuff to be one you know this, BUT with that being said once b!itches on here decided that MY life is more interesting than their own we have a problem. I DO ME so you DO U!! My ass became FuFamous on here for some dam reas

Should U Decide To Bomb Me
IF YOU CHOOSE TO BOMB ME, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THIS IS WHAT I DO. I KEEP THE NOTIFICATION MAIL IN MY BOX SO SHOULD I BE ABLE TO TRADE FUBUCKS FOR A BOMB I CAN BOMB YOU BACK. I BOMB BACK WHETHER YOU HAVE AUTOS ON OR NOT. THAT NEVER MAKES A DIFFERENCE TO ME. I ASK THAT IF YOU RUN AN AUTO 11 TO PLEASE LET ME KNOW VIA MAIL BECAUSE I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO RATE 250 OF YOUR PICS IN RETURN, IF NOT MORE. WHO WOULDN'T BE? IT ALL BENEFITS US BOTH. BUT I ONLY KNOW IF YOU LET ME KNOW! I JUST WANTED TO ADDRESS THIS SO EVERYONE KNOWS HOW I GO ABOUT CHERRY BOMBING. THANKS

Friend On Fubar
I just wanted to let everyone know in the fubar community about a member that was so sweet and caring while I was in the hospital. Her name is adreamer0111 and while I was in the hospital she called to see how I was doing and kept calling till i left. To me that is truly a friend and it also shows me that she is a wonderful person as well. adreamer0111 I will forget it and you have a very special place in my heart. Thanxxxx Brad.

How I Feel Right Now
so yea right now i feel like cryin and im not sure why, i just dont know if i can handle everything right now, i have family problems out the ass, grandmas in bad shape and everyones fighting, got friends comin to me with their problems so im helping them even tho i cant even help myself i feel like shit i seriously feel like hiding in a corner and crying call me whatever you want i just cant take all of this, then i have guy trouble on top of everything else, if its not dealin with pervs its dealin with shallow guys, to tell everyone IM FAT you dont like it fuckin move on with yourself like i can take another guy likin me until he finds that out then books it, heres the deal ppl im five foot three and i weigh 320 pounds no joke im short im fat if you dont like it delete me now, quit talkin to me do whatever cuz im seriously goin to stop caring its not like i dont have enough to worry about with world war III goin on in my house like everyday and worrying if my grandma is goin to die

6/10/09 Update
Hello everyone!!!! Thanks so much for all the love and support!!! OMGosh I had no idea...but yeah then again I did...thank you all so very much for all your prayers and love!!! My main thang to say and to my daughter Jessica who did so much to keep everyone informed about me...which she did not have to do, but knowing how much everyone here means to me she did...she belongs to a website and would want me to do the same for her so ..let's all hope that day never comes, I may tell some of her secrets...lmao....trying to find some humor in all this sadness.... This has been really hard on my family if anyone...me I'm like a bad penny I keep showing up...I'm to mean for anything really bad to happen to me...without the support of my family and all of ya'll ... I suppose this would of been extremely hard on me and not sure if things would have been such a great turn out... so I thank you all so very much and love each and everyone of you who prayed and hoped for me and my family ... you

Funny From One Of My Buds
this is from one of my buds -- i died on the floor laughing loll Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety. WAY TOO COOL! Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded 2 AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs.?? AWESOME!!!? Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave! Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking

Paul Haag Saenz, At Cafe Med, June, 19, & 20,
Hey Every Body! Take a look at this, Jammin at Cafe Med, 4809 Stockdale Hwy, Bakersfield, Ca. Aug 7, & 8, Fri, and Sat, Christina Varner, Lead singer, Paul Haag Saenz, on Guitar & Jimmy J, on sax. This Cats play the best music in town, The kind of music you love to hear & dance too. R&B, Pop, Oldschool, Oldies, Country, Smooth Jazz, Salsa Latin, So lets boogie on down too Cafe Med, and tare the roof of the motha sucka baby. For more info call Cafe Med, At 661 834-4433 one of the fineness restaurant in the city of Bakersfield, Good food, Drinks, & Dancing, invite all you`re friends, will see you there.

Needing Prayers :(
My family has lots of issues... going on right now.. :( first my daddy went into the hospital yesterday and they found spots on his stomach.. they did not know what they were :( and so did a biopsy. Plus his health is just not the greatest anymore.. then my mom went into the hospital.. She had a day surgery.. They were checking some of her arteries in her neck.. and they came back ok.. Told her to watch what she ate.. When she got home... she told me my Uncle was in the hospital.. He may not make it much longer.. His heart is working at 10%... not to mention my baby daddy is still not paying child support nor will he ever! and I am getting so sick and tired of working to jobs,.,, Have you ever just gotten so fed up with life that you are just depressed?? I think I am there.. *sighs*

For My Princess
> Dear World, > > I bequeth to you today one little girl...in a crispy dress... > with two blue eyes...and a happy laugh that ripples all day > long... and a flash of light blonde hair that bounces in the > sunlight when she runs. I will trust you will treat her well...> > Shes slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning...and > skipping off down the street to her first day of school....and > never again will she be completely mine....prim and proud she will > wave her young and newly independant hand to say "good bye"....and > walk with little lady steps to the schoolhouse.> Now she will learn to stand in line ....and wait by the alphabet > for her name to be called. She will learn to tune her ears to the > sound of school bells ...and deadlines... and shell learn to > giggle ... and gossip... and look at the ceiling in a > disinterested way when the little boy across the room sticks out > his tongue at her....and shell learn to be jealous. And shell > learn how it

Psychoanalysis Of A Penguin
Body: Psychoanalyze Yourself; Don't read ahead, just copy and paste the following into a NEW bulletin BEFORE you read my answers. Then answer the following questions one at a time WITHOUT LOOKING AHEAD with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read what each answer means at the end.1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who's with you?the love of my life ... Harley 2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?Why the hell am I in the woods? I'd see a deer3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?the deer would stand there as long as i didnt move and wed watch each other 4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house describe it.its a victorian house ...old but modern and with huge windows -- beautiful and open 5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?Nope6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?flowers and homework stuff

Waiting ...
i close my eyes and lay down to the sweetness of slumber ... i cant sleep for thoughts of you slipping into my eyes behind the closed lids ....i see ur smile and ur face dances be4 me .....i dream of ur hands on my hips and my body is awake in an instant .... i hear u whisper into my heart .... i touch where ur mouth has been and soon im alive with the feel of ur lips ... mouth parting and small sounds of pleasure escape into the dark room ... all alone but so close to u in my soul .... i touch my most private places and as the tips of mounds harden and a distict wetness over comes me .... the want of u ... the need of ur hardness against my unique curves ... i feel the ache as i climb higher .. swirling excitement as i moan out ur name in the heat of passion ..... i sucumb to the sensations and remember how it felt to feel u drive into me .... how u pulled my hair and i looked up at u .. look at u from over my shoulder .... begged for more ... never wanting that moment to end ....the

What Was I Thinking
It never fails. Its all the same. I'm tired of the games u play. Well count me out. Yeah it makes me heartless. Yeah it makes me cold.. You react upon reactions. I never meant for this to happen. I never meant to be this way. I don't know what i was was thinking but today it really did change. I will always be there. I will always have ur back.. But nothing more than that.. I won't come to u with anything. I won't do this. I can't.. I'm sorry.. I fucked things up.. Go figure its just like me... What the fuck should i even care. Im waisting to much time in such a hollow place... what was i thinking.. who were u to play back on it.. U had a part in it.. but no it's selfish of me To even blame u at all.. Cuz I knew better...

Erotica ... For You
You open the door and step through. The candles on the nightstands are lit, they offer up their fragrance to us. Just a hint of Jasmine and Rose, nothing overpowering, but enough to awaken the senses. Soft music is playing softly in the background, the notes wafting upon the air and curling around you. The drapes are drawn, but billow from the slight breeze coming in from outside.You look over to the corner and see the candlelight dancing in the full length mirror. You eyes return to the bed and you see that the comforter is turned down, the crisp sheets revealed and inviting. Your eyes move to me as I stand beside the bed in my short pink velvet robe, a smile spreads across your face, matching the one on mine. You turn and close the door quietly and walk to me. You stand before me and I tremble slightly as you lean down to kiss me. Our lips meet gently and my mouth opens slightly to welcome your warm, probing tongue. You take me into your arms and hold me close to you as our tongues

Hate Me-blue October
(If you're sleeping are you dreaming If your dreaming are you dreaming of me? I can't believe you actually picked me.) ("Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you ware doing. You sounded really uptight last night. It made me a little nervous, and a l... And... Well... It made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just wanted to make sure you were really OK, And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication. You know I love you, and... Take care honey I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye bye") I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you l

Good Days And Bad
There are about 15 kids who run around outside my back court who do fuck all but constantly scream like Ian Huntly is on their wee heels every single minute of the day. There is a wee boy who lives through the wall and the screamy kids yell up at his window for hours, his name is undecipherable to me but I think it Rizwall, he never answers and I think he is either dead or moved away. I wish someone would tell them - I can’t shout down at them as they are all Asian and I will look like a scary racist. But the poor wee kids take turns screeching ‘Rizwahhhll” every hour until their throats hurt and they give in or their mums come out and take them all up to their beds.They are all as cute as hell, but they never stop screaming and it echoes all the way round the car park and bounces off the circular architecture and the noise is deafening. I want a tea time nap without it sounding like kids are chained to a radiator and screaming for their God Rizwall to come rescue

Getting On Cam
I will be getting on cam around 11:15PM (eastern) Ask anyone! We have fun, and talk trash about everything from WoW to Canada :) (in the best way possible of course) My name on the site is AthenaH So come chat! We normally jump from topic to topic like an ADD fly :) It's absolutely free, no obligation to buy anything you don't want to, and I never pressure (Unless you are a douche, then I normally inform you of said acts of douchery) You just need a valid email address to confirm your account, no credit card, for a basic account. They never spam you, and are owned by the same people who own MyFreePaysite.com SignUp Here SignUp Here Hope to see you all there!!

Let It Go-blue October
Where do you go When the day is long And where does your heart beat And who is wrong Why do I feel this way Why do I kneel How could I let it go Why do I feel Why do I feel Why Follow me home Through the, the maze and on I'll show you the road That I led you the wrong way on Why did I go that way Why do I steel How could I let her go Why do I feel Oh why did I go that way Why do I still How could I let her go Why do I feel Why do I feel Why Why Why did I go that way Why do I need How could I let her go Why do I feel Oh why did I go that way How could I still Oh how could I How could I How could I How could I How could I

What A Night..
Let me start by saying, I love the class I am about to vent about. It is a WONDERFUL class, and I will learn a lot. There are just people in this class who are rude and obnoxious and just ARGHHHH drive me insane. We have a few girls in class who are VERY religious, that is fine, it is their preference, BUT do not preach to the class and do not continually go on about religion and what your church or group does etc. This has been a problem since this class started. Not only myself, but also a few others are quite frustrated with it all. Then sighs… The teacher asked a question and I responded, which led to a few certain class members jumping down my throat. One rule we have in this class is that there are to be no personal attacks. Well to me that rule was thrown out the window tonight. I was so upset that I almost just walked out of class. The main people involved in doing this were people who are close to graduating from our program. Well… I am new to the program and I

Amazing-blue October
How am I supposed to breathe? I try to relax. I touch your still frame So I can watch you closer And study the ways I believe I belong to you, to you So I scratch at your waist line... your doll hair I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow So I make you my religion, my collision, my escape goat So have I found your secret weak spot, baby? [Chorus] Can you pretend I'm amazing? I can pretend I'm amazing... Instead of what we both know Instead of what we both know I cut to the punch line baby Can we pretend I'm amazing Instead of what we both know Now our history is for sale And for that I apologize You see you're my only know how The study of when I believed I belonged to you, to you You see I've made you into something more delicious, My sweet ghost So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

My Room And My Lady
I couldn’t dream my ladythat such a girl would visit my roommy room which doesn’t deserve to bea room of some twentieth centuryit’s a room of a cave manbut you were a prophet in the home of unbeliefyou entered it and brought the lightyou erased its walls paintings with your handit is a dark caveand you are a preacher prophetyou deleted all old lawsto make it the best citythat you are my lady the first visitorthe first explorerthen you became the queenand here it is my queen that old same roomas you left itno hand ever touched itI don’t know whyMaybe because I didn’t love anyone elseOr because I forgot what is loveThat because love was with you and for youAnd will not be but you- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -W.B: FM

My Letter
To the one whom live in my memories and thoughtsTo whom traveling in my dreams as a princessI want to say that you are my DecalogueWhich god gave meBut I didn’t keep you the right wayI want to tell you that you are myBible and PentateuchYou are my eve which god createdOnly for meI am sure that even if I wrote thousands of psalmsThat you will not forgive meBut you are my lady and I would like your hellI hope that I was your Adam in many thingsI want you to know one last thingEven after ten yearsYou didn’t separate my dreamsEven for a single nightEven when I am with another womanOur eternal date will be every nightTill I heal of this illnessOr I die with itI will keep taking this medicineTill death or health -------------------------W.B: FM

Lost Love
Been over a year now since she left.It's easier now then at first but still hurts to feel failure all the time. I failed to keep her happy. We fell into a rut and could not climb out. we stopped doing things that we needed to do to keep love alive and it went away never to be seen again. I have bad times and good times. lately a lot more good than bad. I have found some new friends on here and they keep my mind off the bad by just being happy and cheerful. thank you all for what you have done to help me along this path.

Survey 1
You got laid last night, didn't you?Well isn't that a bit personal? =] If you must know, I did, I did. :) Shh.Have you ever kissed someone that's name started with a 'B'?Yes. Stupid jerk face :/ haha. Is there anyone that hates you right now?Its a slight possibility. But hate is a very passionate feeling and I haven't made anyone mad in a very long time so in my mind its also slightly doubtful.Have you ever woke up next someone and wanted to puke?Nope. I believe im a bit more responsible then that....or rather, a whole lot more responsible :)What is one thing that would instantly make you dislike someone?Child molesters, gay haters If someone liked you, what would be the best way for them to tell you?I suppose words might work best =] Do you like me?!If you won a lot of money in the lottery, what would you do first?Bankkkkkk it.

Sharing Space And Energy
Cohabitating with Others Our homes are our havens. These places where we come to rest, recharge, and dream in safety and comfort allow us to better face the challenges of the world outside our doors. When sharing a living space with others, an awareness of the thoughts and feelings of everyone involved is essential in creating the peace we all desire. Regardless of where we lived before, each time we cohabitate with others it is important that we make the effort to share the space in a way that supports everyone. We need to remember that in a shared space, everything we sense can also be sensed by another person. Peace will not likely be the result when the senses are filled with the sight of unwashed plates, intrusive sounds, unpleasant smells, the feel of a foreign substance beneath bare feet, or the taste of food tainted by an uncovered onion in the fridge. But if we communicate and listen with respect to those with whom we share a space, we may find that one enjoys washing dish

Choosing A New Response
Common Fears Everyone has fears—it is a natural part of being human. Fear can protect us from harm by sending a rush of adrenaline to help us physically deal with potential danger. But there are times when fear may keep us from participating fully in life. Once we realize that fear is a state of mind, we can choose to face our fears, change our minds, and create the life we want to live. Our minds are powerful tools to be used by our higher selves; like computers, storing and using data to make certain connections between thought and response. We have the ability to observe these and choose differently. No matter where the fear came from, we can create new connections by choosing new thoughts. When our souls and minds are in alignment, we create a new experience of reality. This journey requires many small steps, as well as patience and courage through the process. Here’s an example: You decide to overcome your fear of driving on the freeway. Your plan of action starts

The Tragic Story
They say beauty is wasted on the insane and deranged. Not a day goes by without the wish, that it was all a lie. Self control is given no quarter and here comes another mood swing, once again, my emotions control me. Once again, rage is king and depression reigns supreme. The depths of empathy and failure have succumbed to my misery and with the desperate throbs of passion I have chosen this ultimate path, in which I find the answers to deny the future of all my sanity. None of this makes sense and with knowing that sad, sick, statistic I have overruled my boundaries. One second I find myself immensely and utterly madly happy... The the next I am drunken off my own sadness and morbidness, with tears and cries and screams of doubt rushing through my empty soul and lost for words on how I feel. No one even begins to understand what exactly I feel, it all makes perfect sense in my fucked up ill mind. But the truth is... It doesn't... It never does... And it never will. I swept the ocean

..and We Rose From The Seas...
Aye.Was a different age back then too. More primal.Shadowy, sure. But more real, too Not gonna lie, we did some baaad mojo back then. Ever wonder why octopi trigger such intense fear and loathing? Or why the name Ry'leh still resonates even after all these "stranger aeons"? And how did a hack from Providence know so bloody much? There is much unseen.Much that should NEVER be seen. Stuff not meant to be seen under a yellow sun, Not meant to be heard by a sane mind. These too, are in the empty spaces. But aye. We ruled then, in that long ago age. Long before your ancestors descended from trees, We rose from the very Sea itself. Bearing madness and death like gibbering, ruined Santa Clauses. Wielding Magicks to wrack asunder the skies themselves. Dreaming reality into life.Or breaking it on a whim. And you remember, even if you don't know what, or even WHY. Oh yes.You remember.We do too.Those AREN'T rats in the walls. And you knew that all along. But ya

Eww
Okay, so I'm going through this young ladies pics tonight....reading the comments on them...okay, keep in mind this lady weighs nearly 4 bills and is "I'd hit it with my truck ugly"....all the comments are "mmm baby i wanna hump you" and "id like to open you wide." Wtf!? Why don't you people leave me pervy comments huh? huh? HUH? Then I remembered...I have a better class of friends who only molest me in my shoutbox :p

Those Who Came Before
Turning to Ancestors for Guidance Many entities assume the role of spirit guide. Throughout our lives, we may call upon angels, animal and nature spirits, ascended masters, and celestial guardians for aid, protection, and support. Our ancestors represent another wellspring from which we may draw wisdom in times of need for they, too, can act as our spirit guides. Since our forbears spent at least one lifetime experiencing the tribulations that are a part of human existence, the perspective they can offer is a uniquely grounded one. Ancestral spirit guides can empathize with our fears and our frailties, worry, temptation, and feelings of insecurity. Once you have requested their guidance, they will see to it that you emerge unscathed on the far side of conflicts and are well-equipped to fulfill your potential. If your relationship with your relatives was strained when they were earthbound or you feel disconnected from your heritage, the thought of asking your ancestors for aid can

Waves Of Healing
Ocean Meditation Like us, the sea is ever-changing. And, like us, the earth’s vast oceans appear at a distance to be stable and homogenous. But beneath the mask of solidity that both we and the sea wear, there lies unpredictability, sensitivity, and power. There is much we can learn from the ocean, representative as it is of our inner landscapes. The rough sounds of the sea’s waves are spiritually soothing, and its salt can purify our physical selves. Yet not everyone has the luxury of living by the shore or even visiting the coastlines where water and land meet. The ocean, however, exists in our conscious minds, put there by images we have seen and descriptions we have read. Wherever we are, we can access that mental image and use it as the starting point from which we can help to heal our emotions by meditating on the sea. To begin, gather together any ocean artifacts you may have on hand. Seashells, a vial of sand, beach glass, stones rubbed smooth by the pounding su

And One More Note, Lol.
Because, I kinda have to. These words are as much influenced by Uncle Hank as Uncle Steve;I just hope I can even attempt to capture that razor-edge clarity.If I succeed, thank them.If I fail, 'tis my fault. (Uncles Hank and Stephen being Monsieurs Rollins and King, respectively.And while they're not blood they're as much family as any of you are.Which is to say, probably damn good company in a pinch.) Correction;DEFINATELY good company when shit gets hinky.Same way I'd trust you, my friends, to have my back during Ragnarok.Hells, we probably WON'T win that one, lol.But we'll damn well die WELL.And our names shall be legend.

Generosity Of Spirit
Being Happy for Others We all want to be the kind of people who are happy for others when they experience success or a cause for celebration in their lives, but it isn’t always easy. Sometimes powerful, dark feelings come up at times when decorum dictates that we should be feeling the opposite. Instead of reaching out and celebrating for our loved one, we may feel the rising up of our own pain. This pain may arise because we feel jealous of our friend for having something we don’t have. It may arise because our friend’s success will lead to us losing them in some way. And it may arise for reasons we don’t yet understand. The important thing is not to brush it under the rug, but to take it seriously and look at it; suppressing it will only make it worse. At the same time, we need to be sure to find a way to congratulate our friends and celebrate their successes as if they were our own. The struggle with being happy for others presents itself early in life. I

Hidden In The Spaces Between
That's the secret, true believers It's all in the empty spaces. All the empty faces, That we will never truly know. It's the things unsaid That kill you an inch by bloody inch at a time. But those spaces, places, faces? They are also oasises. Water, in this desert. That's why this is a dance as much as a walk; You have to find the truth. Or invent a lie that allows sleep. There's true horror, down here. But also, salvation. So don't be afraid of the Big Empty, my friends. But don't allow it free reign, either. Because sometimes, words are salvation too. And sometimes you don't always have as much time a ya think, to say goodbye, hello, what have ye. Just remember this; Not all the spaces are truly empty. But neither are the places full, either. So never hold thine tongue, if ye must speak. But make each word, each breath MEAN something. Tune in next week, Faithful Reader, I may even teach you how to breathe. Or maybe not. Thus it is as it is.

R.i.p Mom
Mommy. I love you and i miss you so much. you was my world my soul my everything.Mommy u was there for me at the good times and the bad. I think to myself i have many more things in life to go thru and i wish u could see. i wish u was here for me when i make my dreams come true. but really the truth is u r there. ur there everystep i take every breath i make and every tear i shed cuz mommy ur apart of me. u always have been but now ur always going to b with me cuz ima never let u go. u will b n my heart and my soul and my mind. u will b my ANGEL that will watch over me.mommy i miss u so much words cant even express the way i feel and the way i miss u. i love u with all my heart theres nothing i can say to make things better for us. the family really misses you. so much theres only one thing ima say( UR N A BETTER PLACE YOUR PAIN IS GONE AND UR WALKING WITH THE LORD AND THE ANGELS I JUST KNO UR SMILING DOWN ON US SAYIN DONT WORRY BOUT ME.) im not going to lie it helps some but there w