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Blue tears do fall upon the sweetest of cheeks, But no one sees them only the shadows and me. Try to find me among the shadows if you must, But beware for there is no way you could catch up. Seek and you will not find me; Instead you will harppen upon unfaithful ground. If you shall find me among the mist of the ShadowBlue Lake There by my side will be a blue glass That you must drink. It holds more magic then you will ever know, But be for warned the journy is cold, And it tortures the soul. Walk where you must, Tread lightly as you go, So that the lake of Shadow Blue Tears wont drag you Into there sarrows. writen by AimeeBuchanan 7/9/09
Something Funny
Someone close needs to learn a lesson that only you can teach them: How to appreciate the smaller things in life. It's a good time for you to show, rather than tell, them how it's going to be.
Things That Boggle My Mind
I have posted several blogs on the horrific tragedy at Burr Oak Cemetery which is near where I live. My mind can't seem to wrap about this. However, there is one fact that keeps bugging me. Where are the caskets?! I mean, as of now, 300 graves have been violated and destroyed. (That number is expected to rise.) They have found piles of human remains as well as broken up headstones and cement vaults. NO mention at all of the caskets. Not even in the photos. So, where the hell are they? Surely, if they were lying around SOMEONE would have seen them. We've all seen how big a casket is. Kinda hard to miss one not to mention 300! Maybe it's an odd point to bring up, but it just really makes me wonder.
Cyber Love
CYBER LOVE    Cyber love is a figment of our imagination. A wonderful fantasy of our individual creation. I bought all the lines that came to own me. Never understanding the feelings that I couldn't see. Never realizing my heart he was stealing. Too caught up in the overwhelming feeling. Some people need a lesson to learn. I got mine and can still feel the burn. I never allow myself to make the same mistake twice. So don't read more into my words because I'm just being nice. I can be your friend but my secrets you"ll never know. Inside of my heart is someplace you will never go. Even when you believe you are very close to me. A superficial women is all you will ever see. So don't ask me for love or something else I don't feel. I'm not trying to be a bitch ,I'm just keeping it real. Everything that matters is what I won't share. So don't be foolish and begin to really care. Please ask nothing from me except some casual chat. Because that is all I have to give..nothing but that. I'
Until We Meet
Until We Meet gl Until we meetMy nights will be a little colderMy days a little shorterMy heart will beat a little less rapidUntil we meetI know that my arms will be emptyMy mind hurting from the constant thought of youMinutes will seem to be hoursHours will seem to be monthsWhile months will seem like eternityUntil we meetThe stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of lifeUntil I am gazing at them in your armsAnd the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishingUntil it is you that I share the my food withAnd Until we meetI will not feel wholeMy world will seem incompleteUntil that wonderful dayWhen our eyes make first contactAnd our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwindThe words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song"Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."                        
My Day
What a day! took my chair out to go visit an old friend at another nursing's just a mile or so farther then the mall (2.4 miles to mall) when i get there i realize I am almost out of juice! I'll never even get 1/2 way back! So, I call my place and ask if someone can bring me my charger...i charge for an hour and head out....30 minutes later (means probably 2-2.5 miles) i see my power guage is nearly empty! good thing i am now 1/2 way home..about another 25 minutes...and right in front of an emergency entrance. i go in, explain i need to plug in...they put me in a small room behind the desk, i plug in and nap for an hour....BTW, i had my charger with me this time....made it home safe...sunburned, tired, but safe and happy!
And The Anguish Continues...
Burr Oak Cemetery was closed Saturday, declared a crime scene by police. But, like each day since the news that bodies had been dug up and their plots resold at the historic cemetery, hundreds of devastated families still came to find out if their loved ones resting place had been disturbed. Investigators have turned their attention to a second section at Burr Oak, known as "Babyland," where most infants and children were buried. At least ten families said they could not find headstones for their children. That's where Gail Cooper's 6-year-old daughter was buried 25 years ago. "That was my baby," Cooper told the Sun-Times as she broke down in tears. "To think that maybe they took her and threw here over in the corner like she was a piece of trash. That disturbs me a lot." Dart said they have not found bones in the area but that records for the area are a mess. "The record-keeping here is outrageous, absolutely outrageous," Dart said. Carolyn Towns, 49, who was the former manager
Favorite Quote From Stephen King
remember one thing my friend whenthings look there worst drive away into the future and forget the past try to keep smiling get a little rock and roll on the radio and go toward all the life there is,with all the courage you can find and all the belief you can muster. be true, be brave,and stand. for all the rest is darkness from the book it by stephen king
Epilogue (r)
February 14th The Great Hall was filled to capacity, and had been enchanted with a second level of seats on the sides, and those were full as well.  Most of the Hogwarts staff were in the second row, along with the Ministry, but Hagrid and Grawp occupied places along the back wall, and along the sides was standing-room-only.  The ceiling reflected a bright blue sky, and white sashes with the Hogwarts seal and the Gryffindor lion draped from the ceiling and the upper level.  At the end of the Hall, the head table was gone, and on the dais stood a lone figure in dress robes signifying her signet of office.  Minerva McGonagall, Headmistress of Hogwarts, stood waiting for what was already described in some circles as the Wedding of the Century to begin. Minerva spoke.  "Since the days of the Hogwarts Four, one of the happiest duties that the Head of the school has been able to perform within these walls is the one we are gathered here for today.  I have been fortunate and honored to do t
Chapter 31: Aftermath (pg-13)
The Hogwarts Halloween Ball went on that night, and Harry and Ginny attended as Harry had promised, but with Ginny still being weak from the battle, they didn't stay long, but the party lasted all night. Harry simply left with Ginny to the Burrow, along with the rest of the Weasleys.  Mainly it was for two reasons, as he explained to them upon leaving the Great Hall. "Look, we're exhausted, and we need the rest.  I also need some interference run for us so we can get that rest."  Harry pleaded with Molly. Molly simply smiled and gave them both a hug.  "Go rest.  Right now, I think if you asked to become Minister of Magic you'd get it.  If we tell people you're out of circulation to get some rest, they'll let you get some rest.  Especially if *I* tell them, in the way only a mother can." "Thanks, Mum." they both said gratefully, then disapparated to the Burrow.  They headed to Ginny's room, closed, locked, and silenced the door, and promptly fell asleep in each other's arms.  The re
Chapter 30: Head To Head (r)
September 16th Potter Calls out Dark Lord! Challenge of Duel to the Death. In a stunning development, Harry Potter publicly challenged He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named to a duel to the death. "It's finally time to end this war," Potter said.  "If doesn't respond, we'll simply label him the coward that he is, and simply start exterminating Death Eaters.  Not capturing, exterminating." When asked about the time and place of the duel, Potter replied, "It's a fitting time and place for his end.  On Halloween sixteen years ago, at Godric's Hollow, he tried to kill me, and he failed.  It is appropriate, and even a little ironic, that it will end where it started." Per arrangement with The Boy Who Lived, needs to simply accept his fate or decline and be hunted down by simply sending a response to the Prophet by the end of the month.  A copy of the challenge made by Potter is on Page 2. Apology and Retraction In a related story, the Daily Prophet announces the suspension of Rita Skeeter.  Ms
Chapter 29: Snake Eyes (r)
September 13th >Severus? Snape awoke with a start.  What is Potter doing here? >Not here, Severus, just in your head.  I apologize for the intrusion, but I needed to speak with you in person.  Can you arrange to spy on the Order for a while? I can try.  If I can manage it, I shall see you at Grimmauld Place tomorrow.  Now get out of my head! >My apologies again, and thank you, Severus. * * * Harry withdrew from Snape's mind.  He hated the intrusion, but could think of no better way to talk to him.  But he had no such qualms about the next intrusion. "Legillimens Silencio."  He plunged into Voldemort's sleeping mind, and planted a single thought: Severus shall return to spy on the Order of the Phoenix. He withdrew from Voldemort's mind, resisting the temptation to plant a song from a Muggle musical group in his head.  "While that would be perfect to drive him completely nuts, it would give it all away.  Better save that one for later.  I warned him that he should learn more th
Chapter 28: The Hunt (r)
September 12th That evening found the four teen Death Eaters in detention, the first day of a month's worth imposed by McGonagall and backed up by Slughorn.  Harry and the Weasleys took advantage of the time away from prying eyes to scour Dumbledore's library.  Surprisingly, McGonagall joined them. "The revelation that I am the last in the line of Rowena Ravenclaw has made me want to figure out how that could be," she told them, as she pulled out some genealogy books.  "I think that I might find something that could help you along the way." Harry welcomed the help.  He was still swamped in grading papers, even with Lupin and Spout helping, and that took time away from research on the Horcruxes, not to mention quality time with his wife.  Ginny was in charge of the Hospital Wing that night, giving Madam Pomfrey a night off, which was a luxury for her during the school year.  It was a light night for her, with only a third-year in the Wing with her ears being restored after a run-in w
Chapter 27: Breakout (pg-13)
September 11th The next morning, Severus looked up from his potions book to see Ginny's head in the fire at Grimmauld Place.  "Severus?  I need to speak with you." "What is it, Miss Weasley, which interrupts this work?" sneered Snape. "Stuff the attitude, Severus," Ginny said crossly.  "It's about that work." She related to him what she saw the previous night during the transformation.  He listened carefully, his sneer giving way to interest and then astonishment.  As she finished, he was stroking his goatee and frowning in thought. "Miss Weasley, that is indeed impressive, and most useful.  I must apologize for my earlier attitude.  You realize what I am working on, of course.  It is most challenging." "Understandable, Severus.  We'd all like to see a cure." "Could I ask a favor?" asked Severus.  "Could you bottle up that memory so I could examine it better?" Ginny smiled.  "Already thought of that."  She held out a silvery vial. Severus took it.  "Thank you."  He placed it
Chapter 26: Full Moon (pg-13)
September 9th A week later, Harry and Ginny were enjoying a Friday dinner in Harry's rooms, discussing the day's activities.  DADA classes had been going well, all years on the schedule Harry had laid out, and coming up to speed nicely.  Ginny, for her part, had gotten plenty of hands-on experience in healing first- and second-years who had run-ins with Peeves, Slytherins, and Quidditch tryouts.  After dinner they moved to the couch to cuddle, and she finally had time to remember to ask Harry something. :I've been meaning to ask you this, love.  Poppy wants us to document what happens with our Bond. :Why is that? :Well, since it hasn't happened in almost a millennium, she thinks that documenting what happens with us could be a priceless and unique opportunity for medical and magical research.  I agree with her, but I told her I'd talk to you about it first before agreeing. :Do you know what she has in mind? :Part of it the physical aspects, although when it comes to certain areas
Chapter 25: Classes Start (pg-13)
September 2nd Harry looked at his first class of the day, a group of fourth-years, and began the speech he had prepared for this day. "All right, you all know who I am, so let's get some things sorted out.  In this classroom I'm not 'The Boy Who Lived,' 'The Chosen One,' or any of that rubbish.  I am 'Professor Potter,' 'Professor,' or simply 'sir.'  This is Defense Against the Dark Arts, and everyone here needs to take it seriously."  He paused to continue as he walked around the room. "I will not show preference to anyone, even to my own House.  Arrangements have been made to remove even the slightest hint of that.  So if think you can slide by in here because you're a Gryffindor or a 'friend of Harry's,' think again.  Voldemort is still out there, gathering new support and plotting his revenge, and if you think he'll let you slide by, you will be fatally mistaken."  There were some gasps at his use of the name. "I only have a few rules here, and I'll make them brief and simple."
In light of yesterday,  i'm going to purge myself of some family and many friends, i'm just not very trusting anymore.  Sorry folks that knife blade went in deep and twirled like spaghetti.   It's this or delete/  So, for some of you... goodbye.
Chapter 24: A New Year Begins (pg-13)
August 31st Two days later, Harry and Ginny stood at the gates of Hogwarts, waiting, hand in hand as usual. Ahead of them, a dot appeared in the sky, and it grew bigger and bigger.  Soon they could make out that it was two figures on a broom, moving towards them at what for that broom would be considered a moderate pace for the Potters, but nowhere near its top speed.  The pair on the broom settled in for a perfect landing as Harry opened the gates. Ron and Hermione ran through the gates and Harry closed them behind the pair.  Ginny got the first hug from her brother, and Harry was attacked by the mess of bushy brown hair that was Hermione.  Then hugs were exchanged between best mates and best girlfriends. "Welcome back, you newlyweds!" Ginny grinned.  "Come on, you can fill us in on the gory details later.  Right now, McGonagall wanted to see you as soon as you arrived.  She has your letters." "Well, not all of the details, Ginny," Hermione blushed.  "Some things are best left un
Chapter 23: Cramming, Then Unwinding (r)
August 6th - 28th The next three weeks were as intense in study as Harry had ever seen, and just as bad for Ginny.  They only had meals as time to relax, and they both found it very difficult to stay focused on their own individual studies.  Harry found himself answering questions for Ginny through their link constantly, and Ginny found herself learning not only her own level but at Harry's as well.  Every day they would spend blocks of time in study, with breaks for meals, or a run around the Quidditch pitch, in the air on brooms, or as phoenixes, or on the ground as dogs and lions.  The studies they had together they worked together, even to the point that the professors were teaching them together, and Ginny quickly got up to Harry's level.  For the lessons that Ginny had that Harry did not, he spent the time with Lupin and McGonagall figuring out how to do lesson plans and organizing his classroom, office, and private rooms, with Dobby helping on the latter.  Each night Harry and
I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me
Chapter 22: Planning (pg-13)
August 6th Everyone decided to have a lie-in the next morning, simply because after three non-stop days of battles, pranks and weddings, everyone was either exhausted, hung over, or in some cases, both. One couple was neither and was up early.  Instead, they were outside in the morning air.  A passerby, if there had been any around, would have seen two dogs running around the Quidditch pitch at top speed.  One was sleek and fast, a black and red blur, and the other one just as fast, but even redder and some fur flying behind. Eventually they slowed to a trot, and the greyhound and the Saluki ran together side by side, shoulder to shoulder, a perfectly matched couple.  Occasionally the greyhound would playfully nip at the muzzle of the Saluki and vice versa.  They left the pitch and headed to the front steps of Hogwarts, where they came to a stop.  The two changed forms, and Harry and Ginny, sweating from a good morning workout, headed into the Great Hall (which had turned back to no
Chapter 21: I Do Gotcha! (pg-13)
August 5th :Harry! Wake up! You need to get ready! :I'm already up Ginny.  I'm in the Prefects' Bathroom taking a bath. :Oops, Sorry, Harry!  Although I'd be lying if I didn't wish I was in that tub with you. :Yeah, me too.  See you in the Atrium. Harry finished his bath and dried himself, then headed back to the DADA Office under his Invisibility Cloak. * * * "I'm telling you, you will do nothing to ruin this wedding, Fred and George, and if you do, Charlie and I will hex you into next week and demolish your shop!" shouted Bill.  "You will leave Harry and Hermione alone!"  Bill glared at them, and with his scars from his battle with Greyback he looked overtly dangerous. Fred and George shrunk from his gaze.  "All right, we'll let them be today," grumbled Fred. "But tomorrow, all bets are off!" finished George. "Go take your seats."  Bill and Charlie headed to the common room to get dressed. * * * Harry met the others at the common room.  "All right?" he asked Ron. "So far
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Chapter 20: Conversations (pg-13)
August 4th The combined rage of Fred and George kept Bill and Charlie busy the next day running interference for Harry and Hermione, who smartly decided to disappear to the Room of Requirement at Hogwarts.  Ron and Ginny stayed behind at the Burrow.  Fred and George still couldn't believe that they were standing by their significant others. "Blast it, Ginny, we both saw what happened!"  Fred shouted for the umpteenth time. "I have complete trust in Harry, whether you like it or not.  He told me nothing happened and I believe him, and remember we can read each other's minds.  Now, excuse me, but I have a dress fitting to get done!" Ginny stalked out of the room in a mock huff and headed to Molly's room, where there actually were dresses being fitted. "Ron, what about you? Are you going to find out what Hermione is up to with Harry?" George complained.  "Fleur believes us; that's why Hermione is no longer a bridesmaid!" Ron just shrugged.  "I trust both of them, and that's it."  Yep
Chapter 19: Double Wedding? (r)
August 3rd With Bill and Fleur's wedding only two days away, things at the Burrow kicked into high gear.  With all of the details to be worked out, Bill, Arthur, Harry, Ron, and Remus hardly saw their other halves, and instead were put to work getting both Grimmauld Place and the Burrow ready.  It was decided that since the wedding was going to be in the Burrow garden, the girls would be at the Burrow and the guys at Grimmauld Place. Unfortunately, things weren't going well at all.  All the preparations came to a screeching halt when it was discovered that every wizard minister in Britain who could do the ceremony was either booked or otherwise unavailable.  Apparently the victories of the day before inspired a lot of elopements and otherwise postponed weddings to go forward.  Fred and George barely could keep up with their fireworks orders, even with Lee and Charlie helping out. This left Molly in tears and in a panic.  Fleur wasn't much better, but rather than worry, about it, s
Chapter 18: Aftermath (pg-13)
The Daily Prophet Evening Extra carried the news to the Wizarding World. Dark Lord Defeated, on the Run In a series of stunning developments, You-Know-Who attempted to make a statement to the Wizarding World that the second war was underway.  In a three-pronged attack, the Dark Lord's forces struck at Hogsmeade, Azkaban, and the Ministry itself. In each case his forces were routed, led by forces from the Ministry, Aurors, and the Order of the Phoenix, and coordinated by Harry Potter himself. Details are still emerging, but it appears that the Dark Lord's plans were known in advance, and at each location the Death Eaters walked into an ambush. It is now rumored that the Dark Lord, shaken after this decisive and devastating defeat, has fled the country to regroup his forces. More coverage on Pages 2-5... Page 2 Azkaban: Dementors Revolt, Get Destroyed; No Escapes At Azkaban, a Dementor revolt was expected and prepared for, but what no one expected was the complete and utter dest
Chapter 17: Coup D’not (r)
Thirty Death Eaters appeared in the fireplaces of the Great Atrium and looked around.  The Atrium clock rang noon.  The Atrium had been under repair since the battle a month ago, and scaffolds were still around the edges as the upper areas had not been finished yet.  They moved into the hall further and headed for the lifts. Behind them, Tonks and nine other Aurors watched them make their way forward.  Their job today was simply to follow and catch those fleeing the ambushes ahead. The Death Eaters got into the lifts and exited at their assigned stops.  At the top level, the last ones got out and headed for the offices.  Each target already had an infiltrator in place, so the takeover Voldemort planned would be relatively easy.  Bellatrix Lestrange made her way to the Minister's Office.  She opened the door to the outer office to see the secretary sitting there, waiting for her, per the Dark Lord's instructions.  "He's in there," she whispered.  "The infiltration went perfectly, all
Chapter 16: The Battle Of Hogsmeade (pg-13)
Fred and George observed the village from their brooms as the Death Eaters apparated to the end of the village.  The streets were empty.  In the distance the Hogwarts bell tower struck noon. The cry went out and the Dark Mark appeared in the sky, pale in the sunlight. "MORSMORDE!" The Death Eaters made their way up the main street, randomly blasting at shops, trying to cause damage.  Some shops caught on fire, others took damage to their facades. At the other end a group of Aurors apparated and stood there, waiting.  They had their own coins, and they were all on conference call. "Cast shield spells, everyone," Fred murmured into his coin.  The Aurors glowed briefly. "Bring up the shop shields," George called quietly into his own.  Below them, the shops glowed slightly. "Raising the back wall," Fred murmured again into his coin.  He waved his wand.  A solid metal wall appeared silently behind the Death Eaters. "Fire!" George commanded into his coin.  The Aurors began launching
Chapter 15: Operation Squeeze Play (r)
August 2nd By morning, they had all mastered the spell wandless and silently.  Harry apparated to Grimmauld Place and retrieved his Firebolt, and returned in time for breakfast. They returned to the War Room for final reports. "Last checks, people," Ron told the assembled lieutenants.  "Hogsmeade?" "Ready and waiting," Fred replied.  He had dropped off the second Amoeba Suit, this one in a female cut, for Ginny.  She had quickly changed, and she and Harry now looked like the perfect match everybody knew they were. "Ministry?" "Standing by, locked and loaded," said Tonks. "Madam Pomfrey and St. Mungo's are standing by as well."  This was from McGonagall at the Floo. "All right, excellent.  There has been a slight change in plans.  Remus will stay here to coordinate things, and he has his instructions.  Hermione, Ginny, Dobby and I will be joining Harry at Azkaban.  We found a flaw in the operation, and we're the fix." "Are you sure, Ron?" asked Lupin.  Ron nodded as Harry hande
Chapter 14: Cleaning House (pg-13)
Hermione continued her research in Dumbledore's library.  It was nearly impossible to get her out of there, stopping only to use the bathroom, and Dobby made sure she had lunch. Sighing, she put aside the book.  Another dead end.  Anything made magically can be destroyed magically.  There's got to be a way.  But what?  Think, Granger! Dementors are repelled by Patronuses, which are created using the happiest of thoughts.  Ron's plan is to get them stuck on both sides by Patronuses so they cannot flee and are forced to deal with them.  But once they are contained, then what happens? I need help on this. She pressed her coin.  "Ron?"  His face appeared. "What is it, 'Mione?"  She blushed. "Send Fred and George to the Room of Requirements with some Portable Patronuses.  I need to do some experimenting." "Right away." Ron's face disappeared. Hermione got up and left the library and headed to the seventh floor.  She walked past a blank wall three times, frowning in thought.  A door
Chapter 13: Operation Polyjuice (pg-13)
August 1st Harry got up early the next morning, to find Ron already up and in the War Room, checking final plans. "Remember, it goes down at 10 AM sharp."  Harry noted. "We'll be ready, Harry.  You just keep Voldemort busy until I coin you that it's OK." "I think I can handle that."  Harry patted his pocket.  "I'm going to mess with his mind some more today as well.  Moony is getting Ginny up to speed on Occulmency.  I'm hitting Gringotts early to get the paperwork adjusted before the meeting.  McGonagall will be there, and so will Flitwick." "Harry, are you sure that messing with his mind like this won't put you and Ginny at extra risk?"  Ron asked. "Trust me.  Or better yet, trust Snape."  Harry grinned.  Ron blanched, then turned to his notes. "Operation Squeeze Play is set.  After tomorrow we'll know what a squished Dementor looks like.  Or a thousand." "Hogsmeade?" "Fred and George have all the traps in place, and we're ready." "I'm wearing the Amoeba Suit, and my glasse
My brother went into the hospital , June 25th to get chemo shots. He developed infections and it got bad. He had luekemia and eventually the infections wore off . However, he is just resting in the hospital in Philly and they are just going to make him as comfortable as possible. Liver shut down, kidney shut down and hes getting no chemo . Now its just a waiting time til its his time for him to go with my mom. All this happened too soon and caught us off guard. I feel so sorry for him and sad as we cried the other day. He knows whats going on, just too soon for him to go at 52.  
Lost For Words
Just found out one of my friends I grew up with has commited suicide. I find myself lost for words and saying to myself"he couldnt have, I cant see him doing that.. I must be missing something" Even came close to looking for someone too blame. The thing is you dont know anyone well enough then yourself, as much as you think you might..noone knows what is goin on in someones life or mind 100% I have known him since primary and find memories flooding my mind,yet sadness is over powering and the want too vomit is overwhelming. I sat here for 30 minutes thinking I knew what too type,what too say to his myself. but I dont.
Chapter 12: A New Family Comes Together (pg-13)
Drinks were passed around.  Ginny changed Harry's hair from red back to black, explaining while the gesture was nice, it just wasn't Harry. Ron stood up, looking a little embarrassed.  "Harry, you're my best mate and all, but I think I speak for all my brothers when I say, you better take good care of my sister!  Here's to you both, you were always made for each other."  Bottles and glasses were raised in tribute. "Albus, I think it's time to explain this," Molly began. Dumbledore sighed.  "Yes, Molly I think it is.  Let me start out by asking Harry and Ginny some things."  He turned to them.  "Harry, would you show everyone your Animagi?"  Harry nodded, then changed into his forms: first the lion, then the greyhound, then the phoenix, then back to himself.  Ginny's eyes went wide with recognition. "So that's it!  I saw that in what I thought was a dream, but it wasn't a dream." She turned to Harry.  "I saw myself as a lioness, then a Saluki, and then a phoenix, but each time I was
Chapter 11: Birthday Surprises (pg-13)
Harry and Fawkes stepped out of the Floo into the Burrow kitchen to find it empty except for a familiar face hooting at him.  "Hedwig!" he called softly, going to her perch and stroking her feathers.  She nipped him affectionately.  "I've missed you girl, and I'm glad you're safe." Hermione came into the kitchen in a rush, saw Harry, and stopped.  "Oh, good, you got my note. Remus was looking for you; he's in the living room." Harry shrugged and stepped into the hall, and made his way to the living room.  The door was closed.  He turned the knob and opened the door to the darkened room. A blinding flash hit him and several arms pulled him into the room. "SURPRISE! HARPY BIRTHDAY, HARRY!" Harry grinned from ear to ear.  He sort of knew this was coming, but they had gone all out.  Sirius and Dumbledore's portraits beamed at him from the mantle, there was a mountain of gifts in one corner, a huge cake and a skirted table groaning under a matching mountain of food and drink next to it
Level This Lovely Lady. She Has Just A Bit Over 250k To Go. This Should Be Easy.
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Chapter 10: Preparations (r)
  July 31st "Harry! Wake up! Breakfast!" Harry awoke with a start, fumbling for his glasses, to see Dobby with a tray of breakfast sitting on the bed. "Eat up, Harry Potter, sir, you is having a big day today, and Mizzez Wheezy says you is to have a good breakfast before you sets out.  Dobby is to accompany you today as well." squeaked the house-elf. "Okay, okay, Dobby, I'm up."  Harry dove into his breakfast and managed to put down the 3-egg omelet that was loaded with onions, mushrooms, peppers, bacon, cheese, and mustard.  While eating, he waved his wand and transformed Dobby's multiple hats and socks into a neat Muggle pinstriped business suit, complete with Muggle wingtips and a derby hat compete with ear holes.  He looked like an elfin version of Fudge.  Dobby looked in the mirror and squeaked with joy. From above the bed, Sirius grinned.  "I think they call that a 'zoot suit' if I'm not mistaken," he said.  "Dobby, that outfit could even get you a date with a pretty witch!
Chapter 9: The Day Before (pg-13)
  July 30th Harry stepped out of a fireplace at the Ministry of Magic.  Today he was on business and covert movement was neither necessary nor desired.  He checked in at the main desk, drawing some raised eyebrows, and then made his way to the Apparation Testing Office.  He set up the appointment for his test for August first at 9AM.  Then he headed for the Minister's Office.  He walked in and went straight to Fudge's inner office without so much of a look at the secretary or Percy Weasley.  Cornelius Fudge looked up from his paperwork with surprise and irritation as Harry closed the door and locked it and silenced it behind him. "Fudge, it is time to talk." Harry sat down. "What do you want?  I'm a busy man, and I'm Minister of Magic.  You just can't just walk in like this!" blustered Fudge. "Well, I just did.  Now, are you going to be an insolent prat, or are you going to shut up and listen for once?  Here's what is going on, Fudge, so pay attention!"  Power radiated from Harry,
Chapter 8: Reaching An Understanding (pg-13)
July 24th The next day, Harry and Fawkes apparated to outside the Potions classroom.  He knocked on the door to Slughorn's rooms.  A moment later, the door opened. "Harry, m'boy, what are you doing here?" Horace Slughorn asked as he ushered them in. "Professor, I need to ask you something, "Harry began. "Go on," Slughorn prompted. "Well, as you know, I'm gearing up to finally take on Voldemort.  I need some help from you.  Specifically, I need a potion made up, and since it needs to be perfect, I need your help to make it," Harry continued. "Well, that I can help you with a little.  What potion are you referring to?" "Felix Felicis." "That's easily done, simply because I have it here, already finished."  He went into the Potions classroom. Harry and Fawkes followed.  He went over to a cabinet and opened it up, and pulled out a bottle.  He handed it to Harry-a bottle full of golden liquid.  Harry pulled out his wand and waved it over the bottle, uttering the unbreakable charm on
Chapter 7: Weasley Family Meeting (pg-13)
  Fawkes apparated to over Ginny's bed, dropped the parchment on the bed, and disapparated again.  Ginny came back from the bathroom just in time to hear the second flaming crack.  She saw the parchment on the bed and stared at the Potter crest, a lion and phoenix, facing each other, and a pack of greyhounds below them, all on a shield of red and gold.  She had never seen it before but she understood immediately, and it dawned on her that the dream she had just days ago made sense. If I was seeing these symbols living in my dream, in pairs, then that must mean there is another one out there, but who? Wait a minute!  That pairing was with me each, time! Was that other one ME? Then who was the first one? Thinking fast, she activated her coin. "Remus? Can you come in here a moment?" Lupin's face appeared.  "Sure, be right there." Moony apparated in with a soft "pop."  "What's up?" "Have you ever seen this before?" she asked, pointing to the crest. Lupin gaped at it. "I haven't s
Chapter 6: Heart’s Desire (pg-13)
Harry and Fawkes apparated into an unused second-floor classroom.  Sitting there, as it had in his first year, was the Mirror of Erised. No Sorcerer's Stone, no Quirrell, and no Voldemort this time, he thought.  But I have to know for sure.  What will I see this time? He approached the mirror.  Fawkes landed on the floor behind him and opened a magical link.  Harry, absorbed in the mirror, didn't notice. At age eleven he saw his parents in the mirror, but when he showed the mirror to Ron, Ron saw himself winning the Quidditch Cup and as Head Boy.  Ron did the former last year while Harry was under his "lifetime" ban from the sport by Umbridge, but the latter appeared to be out of reach now with the school closed. I probably will have that lifetime ban lifted this year, since that bitch isn't here anymore.  Besides, she never specified what lifetime the ban was for-mine, or hers when she actually gets one!  Harry smirked.  He looked in the mirror, Dumbledore's words from minutes bef
Chapter 5: Talking To Dumbledore (pg-13)
July 23rd Harry and Fawkes arrived outside the Headmaster's office at Hogwarts with a flaming crack.  The statue moved aside immediately and Harry stepped onto the moving staircase as Fawkes settled on his shoulder.  They reached the top and Harry knocked on the door.  "Come in," he heard McGonagall's voice reply.  He opened the door. McGonagall was behind her desk, which was covered in parchments. "Harry, welcome, I wasn't expecting you," said McGonagall with a smile.  "Please forgive the mess; Peeves has been up to his usual tricks.  This time he's been using sticking charms on doors, and I can't seem to figure out the right counterspell." She waved at the parchments.  "I was looking through some old records for some ideas." Harry frowned for a moment.  "Have you tried, 'Abiungo Door?'" McGonagall looked at him for a moment sharply, then her eyebrows raised.  She turned, waved her wand at a door in the room and said the incantation.  The door flew open with a bang.  "Yes, that's
Chapter 4: Wills, Wards, And Winnebagos (pg-13)
July 20th Harry’s plans for the Dursleys continued unimpeded.  Fred and George apparated over to America and found plenty of motor home information and were due back soon.  Tonks spent her time with Harry teaching him Auror techniques and combat skills, after first enlarging his room and transforming it into a workout gym.  They were hard at it when a tabby cat with thin spectacle markings appeared on Privet Drive, hopped over the fence, up the front tree, then with a leap landed on the window sill, where it watched as the two dueled.  Tonks was an even match for Harry, but the cat distracted her enough for Harry to slip in a body-binding jinx. Tonks fell forward onto the mat.  Harry noticed the cat on the window sill and promptly released the jinx on Tonks as the cat changed form into Professor McGonagall. “Ouch,” groaned Tonks.  “I wish I hadn’t landed face-first on that!” “Good afternoon, Nymphadora, Potter,” said McGonagall.  &ldqu
Warning Labels, Disclaimers, And Side Effects. Part I
I've joked about having an abundance of flaws that should be clumped into some sort of warning label before anyone decides to invest any amount of time in me. Some have already run into one or many of them as everyone does after enough time. So for the rest here's the breakdown:   I have a really hard time reaching out to people. In any way. Sometimes I don't even know how to hug my own friends when they're falling apart in front of me. My response is always to make a joke of it or just sit there feeling anxious about not knowing how to react. I'm not a toucher, or hugger, and I rarely give out compliments. This is often misread as me not caring which obviously hurts my relationships with friends and partners. I remember my last major boyfriend.. crying, crumbling in front of me.. begging me to hug him. And I just looked at him, conflicted. Something kept me from getting up and doing anything. I was frozen. It's awful. My psychoanalysis of this is an obvious one - my childhood. Surpr
2nd Auction - Heart Shaped Shaved In Chest Salute Avail!
If you buy me in the auction, I will:A) Send you a home made cupcake via US mailB) Sing your praises in my shower - yes -you can listen on the phone as I sing about you if you wish.  C) Tattoo your screen name on my left butt cheek.D) SB what ever you want me to say to whomever you want me to say it to.(5 times total)OK OK - All these are for reals, except C. Lastly - I will shave a heart into my chest hair and make a salute with your name if by some strange occurance of drunken auction bidding you buy me a HH.  That is all I have.  Nigh Nigh & Godspeed.
Chapter 3: Malfoy Manor (r)
July 18th “Bring in the boy and Severus,” said a high, cold voice. Behind the chair facing the fire, two figures approached.  One was tall with greasy black hair and a pointed nose, the other, shorter, with silvery-blonde hair.  Both were in black robes, but while the taller one had an air of calmness about him, the shorter one was definitely scared. The chair turned around, away from the fire, and its occupant, a pale man with red slit eyes and slits where a nose would be, glared at the two arrivals as if staring at bugs to be squashed. “Tell me, Severus, why should I not kill you both right now?” asked Voldemort coldly.  “That old fool Dumbledore was Draco’s to kill, not yours!  And he couldn’t even muster the courage to do even that!” “My Lord, there is a simple explanation.  I knew that Draco would be unable to complete his task.  He is at best a poor student, full of bravado and bluster, but when push comes to shove he is
Chapter 2: Back At Privet Drive (pg-13)
Harry was silent all the way back to Privet Drive.  He found it better to stay silent since his thoughts were roiling at the moment, between Dumbledore, his friends, Ginny, and the Dursleys.  Sitting next to Dudley was no help as Dudley took up most of the back seat.  He shifted once and felt the locket against his leg, which just added another thought to the mental train wreck in his brain. Why did that git Snape kill Dumbledore?  Dumbledore trusted Snape and was betrayed! Hermione’s right, we need to stick together, but I’m scared! I don’t want any more family to die! You prat, that’s why you’re in this car, even though you’d rather be going to the Burrow! “This will have to do you until the end of the month.” What will these people do to me next? Who is R.A.B.??? Now THAT was some kiss! “We’re here,” Vernon grunted, the first thing he said all the way home, and only then did Harry realize the car had been si
Sunday, June 12, 2009 - Wheres The Rewind Button, Eh?
Hey everyone,   I decided to start writing a blog about my real life.  I do have another blogging site which I also like, but I talk to a lot of people on here so I thought I might get more honest/helpful feedback.   Well today has been alright.  I feel better then yesterday.  Uplifted a little bit I suppose you could say, though certainly not up to my usual happy bubbly self. A lot has been going on lately....all at once...since about four days ago maybe.  Where's the rewind button, eh?   I may be moving to Florida by the 1st of next month.  I found this out two days ago, which is part of the reason I'm so down lately.  I'm just frustrated with life in general. And, my best friend Josh is in the navy, well he had his seperation bored this past wed. and found out that he has to stay in the navy for four more years.  We were going to room together while we went to school and we haven't seen eachother in over a year, so there goes that too. The worst thing I'm going through right n
Chapter 1: King’s Cross (pg-13)
Harry got off the train feeling the worst he had ever felt, even worse than when Sirius died.  Ron and Hermione had let him be on the train, but now they approached him quietly. “Harry?” Hermione asked tentatively with a hand on his shoulder. “Are you going to be all right?” Harry savagely shook off her hand.  “Not right now, Hermione, please.  I need to sort this out myself, alone,” he said sadly. Ron angrily whirled him around.  “Look at me, Harry!”  Harry still looked down at his feet, refusing to meet his eyes.  Ron looked at his best mate, seeing the dark circles under his eyes, the tear lines running down his face, and lifted Harry’s chin up to look him square in the eyes—eyes that were normally bright green but right now were more dull greenish-black and bloodshot.  Ron made a mental note to ask Hermione and Ginny later about that, but continued.  “We’re all feeling it, Harry, maybe not as much as you, bu
Prologue: Train Of Thoughts (pg-13)
July 16th Harry Potter sat alone in a compartment on the Hogwarts Express, lost in misery.  Despite the idea of something as normal and happy as a wedding at the Burrow coming up, depression and anxiety clawed at Harry.  The events of That Night all refused to leave him, of Dumbledore screaming from the Nightmare Potion in the cave, of the Dark Mark over the castle, and worst of all, the fake locket, Dumbledore’s slow-motion fall off the tower from Snape’s Killing Curse.  But the worst of all was what he felt he had to do just hours ago, which was breaking up with Ginny.  It broke his heart, he loved her that much.  He felt like a huge part of him was missing. Hermione and Ron were elsewhere, doing their prefect duties, and Neville and Luna had decided it was best to let Harry have some space, but the absence of his friends did nothing to improve his mood; in fact, it made it worse.  He felt…abandoned.  Again. The locket was a heavy lump in his pocket, reminding h
I wrote this a while back because I was dissatisifed with Deathly Hallows.  I wasn't happy with the plodding pace and the lack of anything resembling ability by Harry.  It seemed, frankly, that Rowling simply mailed it in on large parts of teh story, and the whole Deathly Hallows thing struck me as just lame.  So I decided to change things up some and give the characters some spirit and panache. This story picks up on the Hogwarts Express, just after Dumbledore's funeral.  As always, the characters are Jo Rowling's.  But the story is mine.  I hope you enjoy it.    
My Friends
I dont do this often .....but today I have gotten 3 messages from friends worried I was angry at them and upset at how distant I have been I am just going to take a moment to let you on my list know I am sorry I am not the same and not really talking I do not mean to upset any of you or give the impression I do not care or have written friendships off. I am just going through some personal stuff and when I am this emotional and twisted around I with draw into myself is how I cope if I dont I am walking around crying 23 hours out of the day. no I dont want to talk about it yes I do love you all still yes I do need you all still yes I will be okay give me time please be patient with me  
Fubar User Friendly...and Some F Word Links..
Sometimes you meet people on here, they come and go as so many do, and for some people, the song remains the same. This is one of my oldest friends here on Lost Cherry / Cherry Tap / Fubar. She’s recently come back , and yes, she is real. One of the nicest people you’ll ever meet, quick to help out real friends and of course , as always around here, to make new ones. She’s at level 19 right now and for those of you that need to “level up” people for whatever level you need to get to , I couldn’t think of a more deserving real Fubar friend. So with that all in mind, I give you…. Witheld Beauty@ fubar She’s very “User Friendly”….lol…please repost so that all of the dude friends on your list can make a new friend as well …and have a great week ahead al
The Parents Of 16 Childre Slain
London Was Burning
  Had such a fun time back in London for two nights doing comedy at Watford, which also gave me time to catch up with my daughter Ashley who is living in London for three weeks. She is working and writing and keeping busy.   Ashley is living with a lovely woman called Sue; she owns an amazing house in Islington. So, I organised to meet her at Groucho club in Soho. Just as I arrived in Watford, Ashley called to say that the whole of Dean Street (where the Groucho is situated) was closed due to a big fire in Soho. Crap! So then we moved the meet up at Soho House which wasn’t closed even though it is also close to the fire!   I was really looking forward to being with her even though we had only been apart one whole day! Poor Ashley is missing her daddy! The man who annoys the fuck out her, the man who constantly irritates her yes that man, she is distraught without him.   Anyways I too am having strange reactions to my baby being away from home as everyone who knows me or
A Little News Just So U Kno Lol
  i just want everyone to know for starters RL Is Numero Uno,and i have had alot going on in the past 5 days....  i AM NOT ignoring you guys, i appreciate all the fu luvins and i am glad to have friends like u all.. i havent returned luv since thursday or said thank you to anyone that has bombed me or sent me gifts and i feel bad about it.... Things have really sucked for me since Thursday night , We had a death in the family and that was horrible, always hard to deal with death!! i think we all know that ... And then the iceing on the cake friday my moms found out some reallly really bad news about her health.. so   im sure u all  kno i havent felt like or had time to be on fubar :-( Although  it looks like i am logged in 24/7  because for some ungodly reason i cant log fubar off of my blackberry  .. so it is just staying logged in all the time and i have ppl in shout thinkin i am ignoring them, and that isnt the case at all !!! i just kinda wanted u all to know the deal cus i am sure
Finding Myself
I don't care anymore if I let you down I believe that I need to be free I'm so used to my life with you around I don't know anymore....the real me And i thought i found my self today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you All these tears that I've cried You must be tired of taking care of me but Its what you do best and I'm a liar cause really its what I need And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you Someone like you Someone like me Maybe its change that set you free Free.... And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you And I thought that I found myself today And I thought that I had control All the change in my life just fell away For a moment I didn't need you
Don't Be Nervous, Little Boy....
He stands there, naked, hands behind his back, head bowed...She says nothing, but he can hear Her walking around him, looking at him, probably with contempt, other women do, and She isn't any different...She's probably thinking, just another loser to pay the rent, another pathetic little  hentai who— "Don't be nervous, little boy," whispers Misaki-sama in his ear. "I-i—" he starts to stammer, tripping over what he wants to say, he always does. "You worship women," Misaki-sama says, not a question,"you are prepared to give yourself over to Me here, now, asking only for the privilege of serving, worshipping, fearing and obeying My every whim, asking only that I use, abuse and take what I want from you." "Very well," Misaki-sama, patting the slut's bare bottom.  "Don't bother telling Me your name," She adds,"you no longer have one, you no longer are anything to me but a mindless piece of ass existing solely for My amusement." Firm hands press on the slut's shoulders, for
1. I constantly take pictures of myself no matter where i am or who i am with. 2. I cross my sevens and my z's 3. I used to consider myself bisexual. 4. I think the world of myself and think everyone else should do the same. 5. I am a huge goofball and nothing brings me more joy than making someone laugh, even if it's at me. 6. I watch porn. Nothing wrong with porn. 7. I have a slight infatuation with vampires. 8. I can be very shallow. 9. It takes alot to earn my trust. 10. I have never been in love. 11. I think marriage is a sham. Don't know why anyone gets married. 12. I have been married once. Never plan on making that mistake again. 13. I look at myself in any refective surface I can find and love to watch myself walk. 14. I do not fear dying. 15. I am divorced 16. I prefer Dr. Pepper over Coke. 17. I like soy. Really llike soy. 18. I was a vegan for a year and lost a lot of weight and got really sick... but I looked fierce and would do it again. 19. I am easily
To Whom It May Comcern.......
well for almost all of  my 1st year here on fu I was online atleast 15 hours a day. I lived in the middle of no where & the closest city has so small there really wasnt anything to do once you got there. For the last something like 3 months fubar was the last thing I was doing when I had the time. Over that time I sorted through my entire house. Between cleaning,packing,giving things away & throwing thing away. I've moved to a much bigger city with more things to do that keeps me so busy. My moving is the best thing I could of done. Well.....over this time when I put me & my life 1st I've realized that some people who were stating to be my friends got upset because this time I was so busy making my life better that I didnt have time to come on here & help level people & give all my time to certain people. I'm real sorry but I guess it was good that it worked out this way because I hate being played. I know there are afew that knew I was gone from the computer for a logic reason & when
Ask Me Anything!
I'm extremely bored. Ask me anything below and I'll answer you, honestly. OH shit, here we go :P
China Overtakes Us To Become World's Largest Auto Market
BEIJING: China has for the first time overtaken the United States as the world's largest auto market with sales of locally-made vehicles surging 17.7 per cent to 6.1 million units in the first six months this year. Sales of China's domestically made automobiles topped 1.14 million units in June, up 36.5 per cent over the figure a year earlier, the fourth month in a row surpassing the 1.1 million units mark, the China Association of Automobile Manufacturers (CAAM) said. China's vehicle sales in June rose to 1.14 million, the second-highest month to date after April's 1.15 million units, out of which passenger car sales hit a monthly record of 872,900 units, it said. Total auto sales for the first half of the year (Jan- June) rose to 6.1 million, up 17.7 per cent from a year earlier, out-pacing the US market, where passenger car sales in the same period plunged to 4.8 million amid the economic slowdown. CAAM said sales of such automobiles topped 1.14
Cant Speak
Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything they want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live with all my soul Inside Can't speak Can't talk Can't stop for the reeling cause Or love I told 'em all about it Can't talk 'cause I'm already lost Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide It's hard I just can't forget it Gonna fade 'cause I'm already dead Can't think Can't dream Don't care if I live or die Don't talk I just can't believe it Gonna fade 'cause I'm already dead Can't think I cant dream I don't believe anything I see I really don't wanna get it Gotta leave or I'll live to regret it Can't speak Can't lie Don't go anywhere to hide Can't think Can't cry Keep thinking of a suicide Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything I want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live with all my soul inside Can't speak Can't talk Can't do anything I want Can't hide Or change your mind Gonna live with all my soul inside
Got My Sons For Two In Half Weeks
Take This Quiz!
This is a quiz for people who know everything! I found out in a hurry that I didn't. These are not trick questions. They are straight questions with straight answers. 1. Name the one sport in which neither the spectators nor the participants know the score or the leader until the contest ends. 2. What famous North American landmark is constantly moving backward? 3. Of all vegetables, only two can live to produce on their own for several growing seasons. All other vegetables must be replanted every year. What are the only two perennial vegetables? 4. What fruit has its seeds on the outside? 5. In many liquor stores, you can buy pear brandy, with a real pear inside the bottle. The pear is whole and ripe, and the bottle is genuine, it hasn't been cut in any way. How did the pear get inside the bottle? 6. Only three words in standard English begin with the letters "dw" and they are all common words. Name two of them. 7. There are 14 punctuation marks in English grammar. Can you name at lea
New State Slogans
Alabama: Yes, We Have Electricity Alaska: 11,623 Eskimos Can't Be Wrong! Arizona: But It's A Dry Heat Arkansas: Literacy Ain't Everything California: By 30, Our Women Have More Plastic Than Your Honda Colorado: If You Don't Ski, Don't Bother Connecticut: Like Massachusetts, Only The Kennedy's Don't Own It Yet Delaware: We Really Do Like The Chemicals In Our Water Florida: Ask Us About Our Grandkids Georgia: We Put The "Fun" In Fundamentalist Extremism Hawaii: Haka Tiki Mou Sha'ami Leeki Toru (Death To Mainland Scum, But Leave Your Money) Idaho: More Than Just Potatoes ... Well Okay, We're Not, But The Potatoes Sure Are Real Good Illinois: Please Don't Pronounce the "S" Indiana: 2 Billion Years Tidal Wave Free Iowa: We Do Amazing Things With Corn Kansas: First Of The Rectangle States Kentucky: Five Million People; F
Rain And Fire
Rain fallsa steady percussionof hollow drops on the metal roof.Invoking a dreamy feeling,firelight dances with shadowsupon the walls in an intimate display.Pitch crackles as the fire burns hottermy hand in yours as you pull me to you,lips hovering just a whisper away.Electricity flows between usalmost visible in it's intensity.I sip the wine you pouredfeeling a heady rush, sweet and warm.Our bodies so heated from the fires that rage inside and out.Your fingers curl around mineas you lean close,settling your lips gently on mine.Hands tangling in my hair,kiss deepening,as the rain and fire sing a lulling duet.Nothing else matters.Just this moment,this kiss,you and I. Poem By Tammy C.
Embarrassing Medical Exams
 1. A man comes into the ER and yells, 'My wife's going to have her baby in the cab!' I grabbed my stuff, rushed out to the cab, lifted the lady's dress, and began to take off her underwear. Suddenly, I noticed that there were several cabs -- and I was in the wrong one.Submitted by Dr. Mark MacDonald, San Antonio , TX 2. At the beginning of my shift, I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall. 'Big breaths,' I instructed. 'Yes, they used to be,' replied the patient.Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle , WA  3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct. Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a 'massive internal fart.Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg  4 During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist, he informed me, his doctor, that he was having trouble with one of his me
Rays Of Light
ShadowsTrickle acrossVerdant fieldsPainting changing shades of darknessLike an artistWith careless hand Sun waking from afternoon's reposePeeking through the cloudsSilvering the edgesMaking its presence known in the beautiful valleywhich lay covered in dull ebonySunlight here and thereIn dappled patchesEver changingFlickeringAlmost living Rays of light caressing the meadowWith silken fingersTender like a loverPlayful like a childGently creepingAcross darkened land Shadows resistingWanting to stay and playA mad game of tagSunlight in pursuitAs shadows flitGigglingAcross fertile earth Poem By Tammy C.
False Representatives
Your Essence
Slipping your shirt downonto my skinI inhale your scentand close my eyesI feel you,the softness of the fabriccaressing my bare skin,so sensual.Your scent meshing with minelingering around meenveloping me in a hug that lasts all day.Wrapped in your essencewhen I can't be in your arms. Poem By Tammy C.  
Lady Gaga - Love Games
Let's have some fun, this beat is sickI wanna take a ride on your disco stickLet's have some fun, this beat is sickI wanna take a ride on your disco stickI wanna kiss youBut if I do then I might miss you, babeIt's complicated and stupidGot my ass squeezed by sexy cupidGuess he wants to play, wants to playI love game, I love gameHold me and love meJust want touch you for a minuteBaby three seconds is in it for my heart to quit itLet's have some fun, this beat is sickI wanna take a ride on your disco stickDon't think too much, just bust that thickI wanna take a ride on your disco stickLet's play a love game, play a love gameDo you want love, or you want fameare you in the game?Through the love gameLet's play a love game, play a love gameDo you want love, or you want fameAre you in the game?through the love gameI'm on a mission and it involves some heavy touching, yeahYou've indicated your interest, I'm educated in sex, yesand now I want it bad, want it badI love game, I love gameHold me
Day 2 Taste Of Buffalo
So I did try a few things today that I wanted to try.   But before I get to that the crowd was insane today.   I can't even begin to explain how long the line for tickets was.   (don't have time to download the pictures today, plus I have to figure out the best way to post them). Before my movie I went to Danny's again and tried the Medium size Beef on Weck Soup.  It was pretty good.  Then it was onto something I didn't notice until I read the news on the taste of Buffalo this morning.   Red Osier Has a Hot Roast Beef Sunday.  It is hard to describe but wow was it tasty.  It really was very good.   So I left for a bit and went to see Bruno at The Market Arcade or what ever they call it now.  With out giving anything away it was wild, and Funny.  It wasn't as funny as I thought it might but It was still pretty good.  But I the other hand it was also funnier then I thought it might be.  Some times with a movie like that they show you all the funny stuff on the previews.  Yes it was very
Jogged 4 Miles In The Heat
Just got back from jogging 4 miles in the heat(96 degrees). It was tough, but feels rewardig now. I smashed my bluetooth keybaord up before i left and needed to relieve some stress anyway.Time to pig out on Oreos and chocolate milk! lol.
My Husband, The Love Of My Life.
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Common Sence...........
DOES ANYONE FUCKING HAVE ANY ANYMORE??? I am seriously begining to wonder.Now high horses arnt my thing...... well not on purpose anyways. I know that my moral high ground differs from everyone elses to the extent of being hypocritical at times.Lessons learned from a hard lived past. I wasnt and still am not any sort of angel but for the love of god what is it with some people. Ok ok forget about how people choose to live their lives...... thats none of my concern. But cmon...... people do have the ability to know right and wrong as far as their own mouths are concerned and what to say and when to say it....... it doesnt take a genious to figure out that some things are a BAD idea to talk about. You dont tell an old jewish person that the holochost never happened, you dont tell tramatized Vet that they fought in a worthless war..... Morals are not the issue here...... everyboys are different. But dont tell me I have to tak you as you are or not at all then get mad when I dont return yo
Read Me First!!!!!!
I pretty much write and read to a predetirmened beat in my own head. Its a mood thing I'm sure. Anywho most of my shit probably wont make as much sence to you as it did me at the time since well I cant exactly share the beat without reading it aloud myself and well thats just never gonna happen so I guess all I'm saying is that I hope I dont piss alot of people off with my shit...... its really not worth it ;)
God Damn Fortune Cookies
Now I know I'm not the first person to say something like this and I wont be the last. Now usually I find it funny how un-fortunesq they really are....... BUT, tonight takes the cake. Now after eating my orange chicken and boneless spare ribs from my favorite place ( Mings) I decided to crack open the two cookies that I normally throw away because of how silly they are. And to my surprise this is what I read....."You have an ability to sence and know higher truth." WOW..... not bad right? Almost a fortune.......I mean not really but very intuitive.... Now heres where it gets fucked up. My second fortune........"Hard words break no bones, fine words butter no parsnips" .......... OK WTF IS THAT??? I thought fortune cookie ment it gave you a fortune......... not that you had to be a fortune teller to read into what these fucking things mean. Why dont they just start putting jokes in there so when people get stoned and want some chinese food they have something to entertain themselves aft
Asking Again.spotlight.
I have been craving that spotlight since I started on fu.I would loooove so much if I could get it.I can only get it on wednesday's since I am above level 25.       Please! Please! If you can spare any fubucks I will be more then appreciative.Anyone who donates over 1 million will recieve one safe for work salute from me.Can I do this?       I believe that with the awesome friends I have I'll be able to get spotlight.Help a girl out?     If not I will have to cut off all your heads.=) J/k J/k.   P.s.Brokeass thank you for being the only one to donate so far.1 million that was kind of you.Salute coming soon for you.  
My heart my soul my life feels blessedA feeling that I hope will last.To know you is to know a dreamThat I've always wondered what it meansOr a sunset that is so perfect and trueThese are the thoughts I think of youI walk alone on a lonley beachWith the idea that one day that will not beForever is a long and winding gateThat in the end is worth the waitDay dreaming of days of happiness and blissThese will be dreams that I will not missAfter the sunset of my closing mindI think of you behind my closing eyesForever will be worth the walk to the gateAnd in forever, true love...Will be worth the wait.
Another Angel on their kneesReluctantly clipping off their wingsGiving up on God and faithForever lost through time and space.Malcontent towards God was not in mindThe Devil I do not seek to findThis path was decided long agoThis path that I must walk aloneTo suffer for those who could not atone For those who could not suffer aloneFor those distraught and ravaged by painFor those who selfishly suffered in vainConfused by this senseless actGod had no choice but to reactTo find out why an Angel was lostTo understand why and at what costMy child why have you forsaken me?Why did you decided to leave?The kingdom of Heaven is not easily gainedSo, on this earth you shall forever remainNow the Angel begins to sayAs peaceful as a summers dayWithout concern upon his heartThese words from his mouth begin to dartIn Heaven I could not idly standWatching those I care for across this landSuffer and fret through life aloneFor those things in life they can not atoneMisery will now be the life I leadHap
Seeing Through Closed Eyes
The sun is setting behind my closing eyes. I stared into a mirror and overlooked the life which wasnt meant to be. Broken, the mirror falls to the floor. On my knees I recall the events of my life, one by one in the individual shards of glass. While staring into those reflections with great joy, happiness, pain and sorrow flowing through my eyes I realize that a life separated is no longer a life. With my warmth flowing down my hands onto the floor covering the life left behind, I understand that that bad can not be seperated from the good in your life. Cluttering the shards into a disorganized pile to be discarded like so much else viewed invaluableunwanted. Staring at the life left in disarray on the floor, the reflections fadeas the sun setsbehind my closed eyes.
Sitting here wondering, what life is all about. When is this ride over? When did it ever start? What starts off as daydreams, quickly tunr to nightmares. Tormented by my past and terrified of my future..... But then again, who really cares?
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Up And At Um
Hot ashes smoldering in the fire. Cold sand sifting between my toes.The smell of stale beer and left over hotdogs still float in the air. And the sun creeping from behind me over the treeline shining across the glassy lake as I watch the ducks sneakily creep around looking for handouts......... I love mornings on the beach.
Day Dream
Falling trees with hanging leaves fluttering in my mind. A simple life with simple times hiding behind the times.Soul searching and blood thirsting socioty seems to thrive. Full of agravation and frustration with the world as it needs to be.I do not need or want any of lifes hypocricysI will stand alone, if I must, upon my mountain top.Blissfully watching "life" pass me by looking off my giant rock. And all this useless and needless drama will finally come to a stop.Happy to be, to see, to love, to laugh, bring back the beauty that lifes ment to be. Will it be done? Can it be done? I guess we'll just have to wait and see!Don't let the world get ya down. Lead by example or dont complain. My small and insignificant words of wisdom to anyone who cares to hear them. Find something you love and hold on to it. A person, a hobby, and idea or even a dream. Be true to yourself.Peace to allNick
Hate your life, hate the world, I promise I'll never tell. Speak your heart, speak your mind, or I promise you'll hate yourself. Love your husband, love your wife, I promise you only have to try. Play with your children, show them you love them, I promise its worth the time. Follow your path, be true to yourself, or I promise you'll want to cry.Forgive your enemys, forget your hate, I promise you'll enjoy the sigh Be your best, love your family and friends, and I promise you'll never die.
Today Is A Day,
So over the past week I have gone from thinking my daughter is leaving and may never return(still possible) and my mother having a heart-attack.Moms has since checked out of the hospital with a clean bill of hearthealth.Turns out a pinched nerve can make scholars of over 8 years think someone is having a heart-attack.Dont get me wrong,they know more than I and I am THANKFUL for their help,but come on.This isnt "House".I dont want a fucking dramatic series of events.I want my mother to come home ALIVE and WELL.I have only been in the mechanics field for a year and can diagnose(sp?) a problem better than that.8 FUCKING YEARS it takes to be a doctor.Come on wake up people.Healthcare isnt free for her and they are not gonna foot the bill for that shit.But she is good and I am happy.I would have really lost it if she hadnt been ok.I am a MOMMAS BOY! I love her.She is my rock.She has ALWAYS made sure I was doing good,even if it affected her situation.That is what mothers do.Which is one reas
How in the world do people get so many "token" on the penny slots? I can't even win 300 at once. My eyes are burning and I want ice cream.
Minds Song
No rest for the wicked, no tears for the weak. No time for myself, and no time for sleep. Can't describe my feelings, everything feels so bleak.  I get lost in my own thoughts, and my heart feels so weak. But my mind is sharp and my friends keep me strong.This feeling of dread, never stays long.I will continue to laugh, to love and to live.Always try my best, and give all I can give.Try to live for the moment, reguardless of the day.And forget about tomorrow, its still a day away.I dream every night, to find the peace in my soul.To live for the now, its my ultimate goal.
Things In Boxes
Face to faceso we canslowly erasefrom thisplace to placeso God can never hear me.So you could defineor you could be fineDONT JUST WHINE!!!
A memory... A glitch in the brain  to keep you grounded to the real life around you. Afterall, what purpose could holding on to something like a harsh word,  a hard day, a heart broken or the loss of a loved one? Are the good times you keep worth the bad ones that you revere.......A heart can only handle only so muchEvery memory you keep takes a piece with itIs it worth to save the fleeting moments in timeIs it worth the pain, the hurt and the sorrow To remember things you wish to forgetTo feel the love that you use to haveThe voices that echo That familier scentTo feel a touch when noone is aroundLove is fleeting, but loss is worth rememberingYou carry your dreams on a string in your pocketBut a broken heart is worn on your sleeveWho makes the rules of the blackened mindpoisioning the heart and soulOr Does remembering the badJust make the good that much sweeter?Perhaps its the one learning tool man has yet to masterAn inigmaPerhapsThe sweet sarchasim of your cluttered mindForever regr
Richeous in the rainA needle for the painFeeling like the markA scared child in the dark   Bring light into the world Make yourself shine Remember who you are And who you want to beForever isnt foreverJust a happy thoughtA jesture for the futureBut today can not be lost
Words On The Brain
*Sitting my mind shiftingDreaming my body drifting* Like the proud Oak in the woodsDead but standing strongMy body growing tiredMy will is staying strongComfort me and care for meBut coddle me notA friend for me, and my heart to theeDon't let this moment be forgotCary on and strive for allYour world is all you've gotYour your own brothers keeperBecause you'll never be weakerThen you are when you need it the mostFall back on yourselfBe open and trueTake advantage of your friendsThey want to be there for youMy thoughts are at randomMy mind is a blurBut one thing I knowAnd one thing stays trueI have love in my heart..... and I have it for you!
Hello Sub
So my good friend pimped me out and I got this little gem in a PM. Where do these guys come from? I mean seriously? Of course if anyone is interested let me know I'll SB you the contact info. Cause I think I'll pass. your submissive behaviour as good as your outer appearance? i message you, because i have seen you while i was roaming arround the profiles...i am looking for an online-sub. when you are interested in bdsm related chats, cam-to-cam chats, tasks, exercises and when you would like to know more, just send me a message. it would be really nice to talk with you about this...have you ever thought about serving someone? to serve someone mentally or sexually... to take care about somebodys needsto talk with me about mental or sexual desires... to act as submissive for me. a dominant who tells you what to do, how to react and that takes care of your submissive needs if you have some?to please me mentally or sexually... to act as submissive on command... to know how it is
Desolate Resentment
For far too long I believed in something that was doomed to perish. I have overstepped my boundaries into the gates of pure untamed happiness. A place where most insist I do not deserve nor do I belong. For a good while many were happy to see me in such a place where others sought out to destroy my membership within this realm of constant smiles and giggles. Shortly there after constant parties formed a mutiny to rid me of any happiness creating a pure demon of desolate resentment and destruction. No more am I to be complimented on the beauty of my happiness and will but doomed to a life of constant berating by those who fall in the path of jealousy for what I had. They have taken everything and here I am left with nothing and completely alone.
My Fault!!!
To You It Shall Always Be My Fault. You Stay Out Until 2... Thats My Fault. You Get Into Trouble... My Fault. You Get Sick..... Thats My Fault. You Have No Money, No Friends And No Life ALL MY FAULT!!!!! You Have A Bad Day.... All On Me... I'm The Reason You Are Unhappy. Im The Reason You Yell. Im The Reason You Break Things. Im The Reason???? Then Leave... Just Go! I Wont Stop You! I Never Have! I Say Go You Stupid Ass! It's My Fault You Lost It? It's My Fault I Hurt? It's My Fault????? GO.... GO .....GO Im Begging Just Leave! Stay Away.... Don't Show Up One Day, With The I'm Sorry Baby, I Dont Care Anymore! Im Not The Problem You Fuck, Just Leave Me Alone, Straighten Your Shit Out, 23 New Charges... Guess Those Are My Fault Too? Fuck Off You Stupid Shit. I Have Better Things To Do. Rott There Im Not Bailing Your Ass Out. Guess What It Aint My Fault!!!!!
Love Letter
i have always thought that love letters are the best way to express how we feel about each other. when speaking we tend to hold back. when writing its all laid out. i love to read love letters from ages ago and see how they would express themselves. this is one of my faves. i hope that youre inspired. Sullivan Ballou wrote to his wife Sarah just one week before he and 27 of his close comrades and 4000 Americans in all would die in the battle at "First Manassas". July the 14th, 1861 Washington D.C. My very dear Sarah: The indications are very strong that we shall move in a few days -- perhaps tomorrow. Lest I should not be able to write you again, I feel impelled to write lines that may fall under your eye when I shall be no more. Our movement may be one of a few days duration and full of pleasure -- and it may be one of severe conflict and death to me. Not my will, but thine 0 God, be done. If it is necessary that I should fall on the battlefield for my country, I am ready. I have no
Motorcycle Riding And Sexuality many of you all out there are motorcycle riders, or even passengers?   Then you know of some of the most hilarious shit that we riders do out there-- for instance-- as with anything, you can find a sexual connection, IF your mind is dirty enough.  For example, motorcycles have always had a subliminal connection with eroticism   for example: 1. when motorcyclists take corners, we, "roll our hips and get low" 2. when we are traveling at a high rate of speed, we are "comin' in hot, fast, and heavy"  3. Front wheel "stoppies" are just like rough sex, "face to the ground, ass in the air" 4. and the last thing that binds motorcycle riding with sex.."the vibration you feel will cause your rods to tighten and lubrication to flow free, and get your engines hummin"    
What Do You Think Of This Dream?
I am making myself get up out of bed to type this one out... I have had quite a lot of strange and epic dreams lately about people I know that have been providing me strange insight into what is going on behind the scenes in their lives. So last night (or this morning, as I fell asleep around maybe 6am?) I decided to start recording my dreams again in some type of way whether recording them in a book or on a tape and keeping a way to record these dreams beside me or near me in some way that would/will be easy to convince myself to get up and write these ideas down.   Somewhat recently I received an email from some stranger who says he goes by the handle of “seerinc” on many of the sites he has run across me on. This name seems vaguely familiar but I can't think of what specific instances I may have actually spoke to him in. He goes onto say he has some what of a psychic ability and had a strange dream about me and my grandmother and was warning me to cherish my time w
Poem #1
I loved you like no onethere was nothing that i wouldnt do for the sake of "us"over hundreds of miles there were lies and secretsWe came together in an explosion of confusion and betrayalThere was a battle within you I took you in and sheltered you, i gave you all of meThere are times i look back now and think how could i still be so naive?drugs and sex consumed you and you shut me out. I knew your heart i couldnt win.This was written for my friend brandy.
Poem #2
The stars shown like fairy dust in the cloudless moonlit sky.moonbeams gazed down on ivory sand.a warm sticky mid august breeze brought a hint of freesia and honeysucklea girl reminicent of aphrodite exits a tent like cabana with long beaded curtainsfollowed by violet butterflies.her round face and cherry red lips were just visible in the light of the full moon shining on crashing waves.The sand warm under her feetin the distance a soft lullaby played on a violinthe girl a little more plump than she would have likewith dark brown hair, large eyes, and pale skinwas not beautiful or even pretty in the usual sensebut there was something that made you take notice.a mystical air if you will.her bare skin shines like sliver as she braces herself.she walks slowly toward the warm dark water her destinythis is what she has left, all she has leftshe embraces itit is her fate to become one with the ocean.
You Are Leaving Because I Want You To.
You are leaving because I want you to, the moment I want I can stop you. I know that you need me, so it doesn’t matter what you will is, I still own you. I want you to go to other worlds and I want you to meet other people, I want other lips to kiss you so that you may compare me forever. If on your trip you shall find a love that understands you and you feel that he loves you more than anyone, then I will turn around and I will disappear witn the sun when the dusk dyes.
A Beautiful Mess
You've got the best of both worlds You're the kind of girl who can take down a man, And lift him back up again You are strong but you're needy, Humble but you're greedy And based on your body language, And shoddy cursive I've been reading Your style is quite selective, though your mind is rather reckless Well I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is Hey, what a beautiful mess this is It's like picking up trash in dresses Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write Kind of turn themselves into knives And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear 'Cause here we are, here we are Although you were biased I love your advice Your comebacks they're quick And probably have to do with your insecurities There's no shame in being crazy, Depen
Do you hear me, I'm talking to you Across the water across the deep blue ocean Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying Boy I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the sea I keep you with me in my heart You make it easier when life gets hard I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh They don't know how long it takes Waiting for a love like this Every time
Emo Blog
Hello,   THis is an emo blog. Mainly cause i have been rwading them and got all envious because i too wanted an emo blog.   that  is all   good bye
Slow Dance
Pardon me for saying, I was afraid she never gave me the time of day If love is a slow dance, i just hope for one chance I hope time could stop, its hard for me to breath She's really walking over here to me What should i say? What should i do? Don't let this end now Slow this dance down I could stay here all night... Forever [2x] This is not my strongest point that she knows She pardons me for stepping on her toes I heard she's a pageant queen So what's she doing dancing with me? I hope time could stop, its hard for me to breath She's really falling in love with me What should i say? What should i do? Don't let this end now Slow this dance down I could stay here all night... Forever [2x] Dance with me forever... Teach me every step, every tip and every turn Your arms around my neck you make want to learn.. I'm only getting better Don't let this end now Slow this dance down I could stay here all night... Forever Don't let this end now [2x] Slow Dance A Slow Dance
Built For Sin
There's a train leaving town if u hurry up i think u just might make it Damn it i hope u make it Conscience is a faint, unpleasent sound, You've worried enough, here's your chance now take it Damn it A heart attack is sleeping in your chest, waiting until the timing's best So make a move, while you're still breathing Say so long to innocence From underneath the evidence You taste like Heave, but God knows you're built for sin There's a lie, for every truth, If you take these pills, I think you just might make it Dammit I hope you make it When you were mine, was I for you, Just one cheap thrill just to help you make it Dammit I hope you didn't fake it Hypocrisy has really aged you well The white on your nose is your secret to tell So you should speak, while they're still listening Say so long to innocence From underneath the evidence You taste like Heaven, but God knows your built for sin You can scream out loud But your panic falls on deaf ears This is where you've brought yoursel
Just Sayin
so im just writing this to tell you about what this blog is about. i love lots of music and the thing that means the most to me with music are the lyrics. i love to share them with people it makes me feel like i might be helping someone. you never know if something so small can change a persons whole perspective or whatever. anyway i hope you enjoy reading the lyrics rate comment do what you do. thanks for the takin the time to read this xoxoxox kellie
Poem #3
She can smell the leaves turning golden and redShe walks and walks down lonely dirt pathsThis is her time.She sees squirrels hurrying to gather food.There are baskets of apples and harvest food on neighbors porches.Family and friends from long ago come to mind.The crispness of the new england air clears her head and covers her in cinnamon warmth.Everything in nature is preparing for winterAutumn is when things change and die but are reborn into something better and moremajestic.In this she sees herself.She wants to be new and full of potential like soon to come spring days.
Idk I Feel Like This Sometimes
have you ever had a feeling that you couldnt really explain. not scared or mad or happy but something else. like in your stomach is like a big ball of emotion and it just makes you want to cry? thats how i feel right now. i cant explain why. the smallest things hurt my feelings now. it doesnt matter who it is or anything i feel like crying all the time. im sad. and the worst part is. i honestly think that no one really cares. my friends see me as having fun and laughing but i think they cant handle this side of me or maybe they really just dont care if im unhappy. i hate my life the spot that im in right now. people think that its so easy being so carefree but actually i worry about so much. im always thinkin about things that happened so long ago and if i did something differently would it be different would i be different. life is strange. the things that come back to you. i cant remember alot of the good things but all the bad are right there lingering in my memory. and i know that
Child Rape
So i have been thinkin about something lately and i want as much input as possible please. one of my friends went through something and it made me think. why are sex offenders able to go to jail and get off so easy. they do some of the worst things. i personally think that killing someone is better than hurting a child and having them go through their whole like knowing about it and having to live with it. can you imagine? i cant. so i was looking at some stuff and thinking some of these people have had mutiple offenses and are not in jail. why? why arent laws on child molestation and child rape or indecent assualt on children more strict? god forbid someone download music illegally or something harmless like that they get a huge fine and like 10 years in prison. but a sex offender might now this is a big might get 10 years in prison. and the ones that dont when they get out they dont even register its crazy the laws for that arent even inforced and its insane. someone if you can pleas
Nickelback - This Is How You Remind Me (dedicated To All My Ex's)
Never made it as a wise manI couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing’Tired of living’ like a blind manI'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling’And this is how you remind meThis is how you remind me of what I really amThis is how you remind me of what I really amIt's not like you to say sorryI was waiting on a different storyThis time I'm mistakenFor handing you a heart worth breaking’And I've been wrong, I've been downBeen to the bottom of every bottleThese five words in my headScream, "Are we having fun yet?"ya, ya, ya, no noYa,ya, ya, no noIt's not like you didn't know thatI said I love you and I swear I still doAnd it must have been so badCause living with me must have damn near killed youAnd this is how you remind me of what I really amThis is how you remind me of what I really amIt's not like you to say sorryI was waiting on a different storyThis time I'm mistakenFor handing you a heart worth breakingAnd I've been wrong, I've been downbeen to the bottom
Nickelback - Feelin' Way Too Damn Good
This is how I feel. I missed you so muchThat I begged you to fly and see meYou must've broke downCoz you finally said that wouldBut now that you're hereI just feel like I'm constantly dreamingCoz something's gotta go wrongCoz I'm feelin' way to damn goodFor 48 hours I don't think that we left my hotel roomShould show you the sightsCoz I'm sure that I said that I wouldWe gotta make love just one last time in the showerWell something's gotta go wrongCoz I'm feelin' way to damn goodAnd it's like, every time I turn aroundI fall in love and find my heart face down andWhere it lands is where it shouldThis time it's likeThe two of us should probably start to fightCoz something's gotta go wrongCoz I'm feeling way to dam good, ohFeelin' way too damn goodSometimes I think best if left in the memoryIt's better kept inside than left for goodLookin' back each time they tried to tell meWell something's gotta go wrongCoz I'm feelin' way too damn goodAnd it's like, every time I turn aroundI fall in l
Is There Really A Heavan?
Beacuse if there is, i cant wait to go.
I Miss You
"the THINGS you HATE about ME, are the things that MADE ME TRUE, part of who really i AM so its BETTER that YOU HATE ME for WHO I AM than LIKE ME for being SOMEONE who I PRETEND to BE"
Time slips by with no malice; it only must. And yet here I sit wishing for better days. And without love she stares on with no disgust. I lay her and think of our love last May. Why ask do I wish for such small things. You ask a riddle of the ages. I have searched the world for rings and wings. And not even Mages, could bring my happiness from the grave.    
Current Events
Stocks and bombs fall together,  both turn into sand.  In a horrid spin forever,  we give unto demand.  Only in our strength we weather,  fixed to where we stand.  Only worse yet never better,  viewing all at hand.  To the world just a debtor, they our merry band.  Pursuing on a lost endeavor, over foreign land.
Playlist Quiz Time
Today's playlist quiz! I know I promised this MONTHS ago, but I get distracted easily!! Anyhow, this time I gave you the first letters of every word in the title and the band name -- SO DON'T FORGET TO GUESS ON BOTH!!   Have a great time. The name of this playlist - "Music To Thump Yer Ass To"   Y_ L_ [I n_ a D_ W_] by P_ F_ Will some cold woman in this desert landMake me feel like a real man?Take this rock and roll refugee B_ B_ by  L_ S_ Well, she's shakin' that thing (Bam-ba-Lam) Boy, she makes me sing (Bam-ba-Lam)   W_ P_ by The A_ B_ I don't know why, I let that mean woman make me a fool   R_ C_ by M_ PULL UP YOUR PANTSSTEP OUT, TAKE A CHANCE   H_ M_ by S_ H_ Tight pants and lipstick She's riding on razor's edge She holds her own against the boys Cuts through the crowd just like a wedge   E_ W_ Yo_ by B_ S_ You crave attention--you can never say "no"Throw your affections anyway t
I Need To Party
Ok so I'm gonna have a party, Rain or Shine, SO If your in Maine, Coming to Maine, or close enough to Maine to travel, send me a message and let me know if your interested in coming, I don't know the date just yet but I will let you know
South American Glass Frog
It's not every day a person helps someone out. There was a time when people actually did give a fuck, where they would do anything to help  a person out from the bottom of their heart. Not too many could consider themselves that fortunate to have such pleasantries in life. Then again, with time, everything does have to change before it balances itself out. Donald had been one of the more fortunate ones on this day, when he had stumbled across what he considered to be a guardian angel. The epiphany of it all- He never believed in them until the near- fateful day. Perhaps it was fate that had smiled down on him, perhaps it had been , by chance, some sort of miracle that this person helped him save his own life- or perhaps it was just some coincedence this person happened to be walking by when it happened. At age 24, Donald had a very broken heart. The downpours of life hit him hard like a hailstorm, ever raging it's plunderous evil upon one's head and shoulders. The day lay expired, b
This Was Written By A Soldier In Iraq
THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A SOLDIER IN IRAQ - I AGREE!!!. Okay, I need to rant. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on MichaelJackson. As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was anentertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spentmillions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to manypeople. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, andI respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the pointof my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses theirminds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to thecountry was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need toflock to a memorial in Hollywood, and even Congress sees the need tohold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's afreaking martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? Whatabout all those SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom? All
Letting Go
It is our holding on that leaves us stuck in a rut of victimization - feeling all alone, isolated and constantly on the defensive. Letting go is a choice we make on our own behalf. We choose to let go into life, into a natural world that welcomes us, into our own true nature. It can be frightening to let go of the familiar. So we don't have to let go all at once. We can let go little by little, one day at a time. Today we may choose to let go enough to smell the beauty of a rose. Or perhaps we may ask for a hug from someone who genuinely cares for us and respects our boundaries. The more open-handed we become, the more open our hearts are to receive life's gifts. I open my heart to receive. T. Thomas Surviving with Serenity
Caa #117 Update #2
Mare and I would like to thank all of you for your continued prayers, they really helped during this time of mourning. God Bless you all.   Love, Doc
With This Knife
I let myself fall into a lie I let my walls come down I let myself smile and feel alive I let my walls come down no matter how I try I don't know why you push so far away you wrapped your hands tight around my heart you squeezed it full of pain with this knife I'll cut out the part of me the part that cares for you with this knife I'll cut out the heart of me the heart that cares for you I can't believe the way you took me down I never saw the pain coming in a million broken miles like poison FOR my veins with this knife I'll cut out the part of me the part that cares for you with this knife I'll cut out the heart of me the heart that cares for you with this knife I'll cut out the part of me the part that cares for you with this knife I'll cut out the heart of me the heart that cares for you the hate and the fear the nightmares that wake me up in tears the nightmares and the hate and the fear the nightmares that wake me up in tears the nightmares and the hate and the fear t
Instead of being a mumm it should have been a blog:  Sorry folks  
90 Day Plan...
30 Days: End of July 2009 -July 20th, 2009:  Have completed my five training calls and become completely confident in my ability to recognize when someone (a prospect) is a good match to be added to the system and join my team. -July 31st, 2009: Have connected enough people to the system that I have sent you (Becky Ringler) 1,495.00 dollars to purchase my personal copy of beyond freedom. 60 Days: End of August 2009 -August 31st, 2009 Have my rent of 525.00 dollars per month paid ahead of time for the months of September, October, November, and December totaling 2,100.00 dollars. -Have the money to purchase my tickets to any team events, Super Saturdays, or Conferences from this point forward.  After this day nothing will prevent me from attending any Liberty League International gathering. -Have in a savings account 8,400.00 dollars on the way to my ultimate goal of 25,000.00 dollars by the end of December 2009 for a month long trip to India with my favorite person at the time.
Just Wondering...
Have you ever met someone that from the very first moment you saw them, they completely took your breath away? That when they talked to you, it felt as if your tounge became stiff, mouth became dry, heart began to race, thoughts jumbled, and your stomach felt as if there was an enormous amount of butterflies fluttering around inside? Has anyone ever gotten through to you so clearly that they seem to be the only one you can think of? And it gets so bad that you can't stand to be away from them too long without any form of touch or communication? Do you know how it feels to have that one person that could always make you smile and laugh or even cry if only out of pure joy? Can you recall ever having cared for someone so much that the mere mention of their name purges you of every single negative feeling and brings an upbeat clarity to your day? So much so that you can't help but just start randomly speaking fondly of them just so your day can be filled with their memory? Have you ever ha
Disgusting Factoids About Me
I have had a week before showers I pick my toenails, then they lay around the house Sometimes I pick at my nails, then my finger bleeds like crazy, and I drip the blood all over as a joke Once I smeared blood on my face like war paint in the shower I pee in the shower    
Is This Love?
Is this Love?   There is a burning in my soulOnly he can quenchFear makes my body trembleOnly his voice can sootheWill he love me or use me?|Caress me or abuse me?   My heart burns inside meHis voice reverberates in my mindI dream of his kissI crave his caressMy knees trembleWhen he is nearCan this be love?
My Horoscope Of The Day
You may be feeling just fine, Pisces, but there seems to be trouble brewing on the domestic front. Even with that, you have very nice relationship energy, with lots of trust and respect involved. If you are not in a relationship, you will not be in the single condition for long. It looks like you will be discussing money issues with someone else, such as a business consultant, accountant, financial adviser and so on. Try to follow their advice strictly for at least the next 40 days. Post Horoscope To Profile Hide Your Love Horoscope It is best, Pisces, that you stop obsessing about matters of the heart and focus on the things in life that bring you your true joy. You may find that your closest friends will be your biggest resources right now while you get through this little gray period. If you are attached, the issue that has been on the table for this long will need to be dealt with, but today is a day where you can let it sit a little longer. Single? To say you are going abo
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Helloween- If I Could Fly
My Lady
My lady's presence makes the roses red,Because to see her lips they blush for shame.The lily's leaves, for envy, pale became,And her white hands in them this envy bred.The marigold the leaves abroad doth spread,Because the sun's and her power is the same.The violet of purple colour came.Dyed in the blood she made my heart to shed.In brief: all flowers from her their virtue take;From her sweet breath their sweet smells do proceed;The living heat which her eyebeams doth make
A Red Rose
O my Luve is like a red, red rose    That’s newly sprung in June; O my Luve is like the melody    That’s sweetly played in tune.   So fair art thou, my bonnie lass,    So deep in luve am I; And I will luve thee still, my dear,    Till a’ the seas gang dry.   Till a’ the seas gang dry, my dear,    And the rocks melt wi’ the sun; I will love thee still, my dear,    While the sands o’ life shall run.   And fare thee weel, my only luve!    And fare thee weel awhile! And I will come again, my luve,    Though it were ten thousand mile
With A Glance Of Your Eyes
With a glance of your eyes you could plunder all the wealth of songs struck from poets’ harps, fair woman! But for their praises you have no ear; therefore do I come to praise you. You could humble at your feet the proudest heads of all the world; But it is your loved ones, unknown to fame, whom you choose to worship; therefore I worship you. Your perfect arms would add glory to kingly splendor with their touch; But you use them to sweep away the dust, and to make clean your humble home; therefore I am filled with awe
If You Change
Dear, if you change, I’ll never choose again; Sweet, if you shrink, I’ll never think of love; Fair, if you fail, I’ll judge all beauty vain; Wise, if too weak, more wits I’ll never prove. Dear, sweet, fair, wise,-change, shrink, nor be not weak; And on my faith, my faith shall never break.   Earth with her flowers shall sooner heaven adorn; Heaven her bright stars through, earth’s dim globe shall move; Fire heat shall lose, and frosts of flame be born; Air, made to shine, as black as hell shall prove: Earth, heaven, fire, air, the world transformed shall view, Ere I prove false to faith, or strange to you.  
Pleasures Of The Flesh
Lest you get the wrong impression from my recent writings, my life hasn't exactly become a model of wholesomeness. It's close to wholesome, but not quite. It's just such a far cry from my previous life, which was so filled with corporate excess and marked by bouts of living on vodka and cocaine, as to make my current life seem, well, downright wholesome in comparison. In my current life, every now and then, I skip the construction work and dine on special cookies, baked using my grandmother's recipe, but with a delightfully intoxicating twist. Then I sunbathe, read a novel. Sometimes I end up in the garden, where the act of weeding becomes more interesting, more soothing, more thoughtful, in a fuzzy-brained kind of way. When I sunbathe, I read. Sometimes, my reading turns to the prurient.  As my eyes drift across the page, my hand drifts to my belly, wanders lower. Bathed in sunshine, surrounded by chirpy birds, buzzy bugs, and tall, rustling grasses, I come, and go, and come again.Occ
In Memory
There is a song by Travis Tritt that I like called "I see me". It is a song about how as a father, he sees his son grow. When I look at Sean, I see Dan. Sean was blessed with his fathers  smile, his warm way with people, his charm. When you met Dan, you met a long lost friend you never knew was missing. He just pulled you in. He could recall stories about you that you had forgotten yourself. He knew your name and never forgot it. He was a walking hug, and shoulder to lean on. Warm and giving, a father to all of Sean's friends. In a day when men with such heart and warmth is rare, losing him is a grueling blow.  Sean, at 35, has now lost both his parents. Dan was the reason Sean didn't lose it when his mother passed. dan was the rock of the family. I hope Sean is strong enough to be the rock for his family now. God save us all.
I Loved You First
I loved you first: but afterwards your love     Outsoaring mine, sang such a loftier song As drowned the friendly cooings of my dove.     Which owes the other most? my love was long,     And yours one moment seemed to wax more strong; I loved and guessed at you, you construed me And loved me for what might or might not be –     Nay, weights and measures do us both a wrong. For verily love knows not ‘mine’ or ‘thine;’     With separate ‘I’ and ‘thou’ free love has done,          For one is both and both are one in love: Rich love knows nought of ‘thine that is not mine;’          Both have the strength and both the length thereof, Both of us, of the love which makes us one.
i borrowed some money from some on here an d dont remember who i promised her to pay her back
Auto & Bomb Salute Contest!!!
Let it all matter what's going on let it go. Storms may come then they leave and there is a brighter day!
Whats Been Going & Scared To Death
Ok I need to vent out right now cause I am kind of scared shitless. Those of you who know me real well kind of know whats going on, but it still is stressinf me out bad. This year I have already been in the E.R. 28 times for some messed up abdominal pain that they can't find the cause for. With all the tests they been running they found out a few other things. We knew that 3 of the vertabre that I broke in my back never totally healed, but come to find out there is moderate twisting, and hooking. Then they go and find the pulyps in my intestines. Still know cause. Then I was hurting bad one day. I ended up passing out, and doing a head plant into the floow. Well they did a C.T. scan since I can't get an MRI cause of my VNS implant. Come to find out I have a huge cyst on the right side of my brain. Now I am utterly scared and stressing because Wensday I have to go see a neurosurgeon. I am freaking I mean I'm 27 have a 4 year old son, and really haven't got crap done in my life that I wa
Wizard And Friends
Sex Freak
Flaming Multi-colored
Will You Give This To My Daddy?
Will you give this to my Daddy? As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.'Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer.. I immediately turned around and witnessed One of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen.Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering.When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and Cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families.Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal.Just when I thought
Day 1 Taste Of Buffalo
First of all I hope everyone who went and is still going to go has a great time. I was nice to run into Margaret, Nicole, Mike and Bill. When I first got there guessing about noon maybe a little bit sooner it was coming down pretty good, and you could tell it kept a lot of people away even just the threat. Yeah the Umbrella was kinda a pain but it was a good time. First I saw these cool looking cars, Ford Fiesta's they aren't even out yet. Later on I found out (she was pretty cute also) that you can take them for a test drive, that is pretty cool. I tried the Mandarin Chicken Pasta from the place called some thing like crankshift cafee, It was good quality but it was cold pasta not warm so I didn't like it. Hesters's Pub and Grill I think had this really good Chicken and Sausage Gumbo. Fruit20 essentials was giving away free samples near the fountain in the center. The stuff is pretty tasty and they gave me 2 full bottles so that was awesome not sure if they did that aft
A Question To Answer?
Last night I hooked up with this one guy I have been seeing on and off for awhile now, it is completely sexual!  We went to the drive in and spent the whole time making out and fucking, we do this once every month or so and it is always a great time, he really hits my gspot.  He usually drops me off at my place and takes off, but last night I invited him up for a drink and he came up.  I live in a two flat, an old house converted to two apartments.  My gf lives in apartment below, she lives there with her bf.  Anyway, about a hour after I got home she came up and walked in.  Me and my friend were hanging out watching a movie, he is into old b&w movies.  She has met him before and never really seemed interested in him, saying he is too old for her!  Last night was different, she was being playful with him and me.  He got me aside and told me he would leave so her and me could have some alone time together!  We walked back in room and b4 I could say anything she came up to me and kissed
"envy And Admiration"
Envy someone and it pulls you down. Admire them and it builds you up. Which makes more sense?
--==chance Or Choice==--
wen u met d ryt prson 2 luv n d ryt place, n d ryt time, that's "CHANCE". wen u met sum1 ur attracted 2, that's CHANCE 2. being caught that their r many people out there hu r more attractive, smarter, richer than ur mate n yet u decide 2 luv ur mate just d same, that's "CHOICE". -just try to think this- "fate brings people, but its still up 2 u 2 make it happen. we may met sum1 by CHANCE, but loving n staying w/ that sum1 is still ur CHOICE."  
Lightning Strikes Redux
I was feeling so much hyper energy after everything that went on last night at my apartment, so i decided to go for a midnight ride through downtown Dallas..the sights and sounds of the nightlife were very intoxicating..but I couldnt help but have my mind on something..or rather, someone...she always is,
My Freedom
My body aches, but no scars to show,This kind of hurt, no one will know.One deep breath and a smile appears,The life in which I've loved to fear.I fake my way through one day at a time,My dreams they haunt me, living these lies.Please let me break free Before I'm down on my kneesIt's to hard to carry onWhen you're only so strong.And I try to believeWon't someone rescue mePlease just take me away!!!!!!!!!!I fight and I try to carry on in my lifeBut all I feel is the hurt insideEvery night, my tears, they fall,The only one who understands, my favorite dollI squeeze her so tight, only she can see,The hurt inside I want to let it free.Dreaming my dreams, And screaming my screams,They're wearing me down,As I fall to the groundI hit that ground with a cold, hard slam,Because there's no one around to give a damn.I shatter to pieces when I hit that floor,And My body screams "I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!"Please lend me a hand, that's all I needJust one caring soul, and I will be free.
Those who know me well or have explored my blogs enough will understand this and yet some still won't so I shall attempt to explain for anyone who cares to know.   Normally these days pass with no hassle or issue but this year I am for some reason very aware of them. 8am  July 13, 1999 I lost my fiance in her sleep to a brain aneurysm. I think the realization of that 10 year marker is what is triggering me this year. I purposely become ignorant of the calandar this time of year but this year it has caught me. 10 years later and it can still bleed out of me like it was yesterday if i allow it, well this year I am allowing it. Forgive me for being short, not myself, isolated, just generally not much myself these next few days. I am not a drinker but I am thinking getting lost in a bottle for a day and just letting this bleed out of me might be my direction. If i piss you off over these next few days all I can ask is to understand. I hate when I get like this but once I am I gotta rid
Friend Who Are Dieing Ro Neet
Wow U ever met someone who changes ur whole lif just with their vibe,their conversation and interest in u! guest what people that happen to me and Im dying to reach ouy and love that person!  ACE KA BOOM Its all bout u baby!
I have a Samsung m500 phone from Sprint. I have been tryin to change my voicemail message yesterday, and can't seem to figure out how to. So frustrating, considering that its a fuckin phone, and not a rocket ship. grrr
Now You Know Better
Rating people's photos does make the time go by sometimes but lets be real people. Now I don't understand why people, you know who you are, who are not very interesting to look at tend to get bitter when I don't give you a ten or eleven. C'mon now I am trying not to be UGLY but this is starting to bother me just a tad. I just don't understand why certain individuals, once again you know who you are, feel or get offended when the rating which was given to ya'll was way higher than should have been expected. Ya'll should take this as a compliment instead of acting like all the food in the fridge was all out. You know as well as I do that your rating is not going to be as glamourous as you want it to be. I try to be nice and give you a good rating and what do you do? Act like i am the one who closed the cafeteria door's on you. You turn around and give me a very low rating. It is not like getting on a scale you know....when you get on of course the numbers are high and when i get
This Ain't Fun Anymore
Hey ya'll. I don't know who all will read this. I really got to get some things straight. All this fubar stuff was fun for a while. Now....seems to be stale, It may just be me. I just don't know anymore.I guess what I'm getting at is this....who would miss me if I did leave the Fu? I may be being selfish for wondering. I have a friend who is leaving and its gonna hurt me. We will stay in touch however. But that don't change me feeling out of love with this. I guess I just need a bunch of reasons to stay or 1 real good reason to go.
I am so bored and yet tired right now. My oldest son has some bad stomach bug and doesn't want me to go to bed so I have been staying up with him anyways I have been reading other peoples blogs  and yes some are johnny devils :)  but it really makes me wonder about things.  All these women who beg for blasts, vip , hh , tickers, bling etc normally get it. Why do people waste there money on people who beg for things? Is this something like the White Knight syndrome ?  I also can't understand why they would buy these gifts for people we all know damn well are fake accounts. Its not hard to fake a salute as Johnny Devil has proven to us over and over again for over 3yrs in his blogs.At least one thing is going to start happening soon if it hasn't already. Scrapper left a comment stating ..................... SCRAPPEROnline3 days ago-- 28 of 34fubar is a place for people to come and have fun. I do not think anyone would care if you just flat stick said you wish to remain anonymous and ar
ok so im a lil confused maybe yall can help me understand it. so 2 fridays ago i went out dancing like i always to and for clarification purposes i dont go out dancing to "hook up" or "get laid" or get a number i go out to dance and have a good time, but i dance with this girl who invites me to the table with her friends she ask some questions and i answer and after she says im not looking for a one night stand or a boyfriend im looking for friends, i said great im not either im lookin for dance partners, so she gave me her number and said if you ever want someone to dance with or when your going out dancing give me a call. so i call her on monday and leave a messege that i might go out thursday with a buddy who teaches dance and i will be going out friday, dont hear from her all week until thursday when she tells me shes gonna hang out with some friends...ok no biggie..i dont know if she went out friday or not. so 2 days ago (being friday) afternoonish i sent her a text and ask "wh
Veterans Of The Streets
      There are a lot of veterans other than WOR even though the streets can often seem like a battle sometimes knowing who you can trust all of the safe alleys, streets and the best times to travel them.  The mind never slows or shuts off with every step there is caution and uncertainty a chance the next step will be the one where someone will either befriend you or try to cause you harm.  I had learned looks would not always save someone that charm only goes so far and just being polite as you pass people leaves most people thinking there is an ulterior motive behind the smile.  I found that if you hold your head up and appear to be just another someone walking by you become invisible chances are no one will remember you by the end of the day.  I had the looks, smarts, attitude and all that came from it was people twice and three times my age drugging me getting me drunk to have sex with me it would not have been so bad guys were doing it also that is were caution came in to play.
Loves Mark
Once I stood still waiting,  holding heart in hand.  A thousand fears creating,  a hole in which I stand.  Is fire worth sedating, or giving to demand?  A feeling liberating, from poverse unto grand.  It is intimidating, or even only bland.  Only no mistaking,  you own me by brand.
The Last Trench
The Last Trench As they walked through the bodies strewn throughout the overran trenches, one officer could not help but comment on the composition of the dead laying everywhere:"Old men with silver locks lay dead, side by side with mere boys of thirteen or fourteen. It almost makes one sorry to have to fight against people who show such devotion for their homes and their country."Silver haired men lay across the bodies of thirteen-year-old children piled in clumps or scattered individually where a last desperate stand had been made. The blood of both meeting in one final offering to freedom, liberty and homeland. In clumps they lay with bodies broken, mangled, and torn by shot, explosion, and hand-to-hand mortal combat. A last dying grimace of determination frozen forever on many of the faces. Their blood now coagulating in clumps upon each other and on a ground that could absorb no more. These then were the defenders of the last trench.No ancient Spartan battled more bravely at Therm
Pain Is Pleasure
To Her Pain Is Pleasure From the prick of the gun when she gets ink done To the crack of the whip when it meets with her skin She knows no other pleasures She has no other Highs Her drug of choice is deeper then you could ever apply She is like some dark seductive hellion who you love to know Though she has this dark secret no other knows She waits for His commands To order her to obey Him and only Him She feels the soft silk around her wrists and awaits the puriest of pleasures She feels the wind of the whip across her body before it meets it's target For she only knows the truest of pleasures That of which is yielded by His hands , His lips and His body To her ...Pain is Pleasure ....and Pleasure Is Pain.  
well i plan on winning the lottery here very soon (lol big wish)   and chatting with a very nice friend got me thinking,   if i was to get myself states side who would want a visit from me?
For Those Who Know Me
I don't care were you come from, what you look like, what you have done or what might be done. If you are at my side I will die for you.
"wings Of A Butterfly"
Heaven ablaze in our eyes We're standing still in time The blood on our hands is the wine We offer as sacrifice [Chorus] Come on, and show them your love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul, my love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul This endless mercy mile We're crawling side by side With hell freezing over in our eyes Gods kneel before our crime [Chorus] Come on lets show, them your love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul, my love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul (Rip out the wings of a butterfly) Don’t let go (Rip out the wings of a butterfly) For your soul [Chorus] Come on, and show them your love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul, my love Rip out the wings of a butterfly For your soul (Rip out the wings of a butterfly) Don’t let go (Rip out the wings of a butterfly) [x2] For your soul
Soul Bleed - Damageplan
Now that I'm all alone, painfully aware I'm starting to feel the cold, knowing you're not there Caught somewhere between my fears and dreams All I have are demons here for company Come and look inside, hope you like what you see And if you run and hide, you're scared of what is me Bind my idle hands they only claw at me Drown in emptiness my soul is left to bleed Throwing a shadow on every thought I have Knowing that something's gone echoes in my head Caught somewhere between my fears and dreams And all I have are demons here for company Come and look inside hope you like what you see And if you run and hide you're scared of what is me Bind my idle hands they only claw at me Drown in emptiness my soul is left to bleed        
"heaven Tonight"
I hold your hand in mine I hold your hand and you're so lonely Oh so lonely Your eyes have lost their light Your eyes have lost their light and you're empty Oh my God you're so empty (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight Trying to find the heart you hide Trying to find the heart you hide in vain Oh in vain And you're my haven in life And you're my haven in death, Baby Life and Death my Darling (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) [Repeat] That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you)
"right Here In My Arms"
She is smiling like heaven is down on earth Sun is shining so bright on her And all her wishes have finally come true And her heart is weeping. This happiness is killing her. She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 2x] So hard she's trying But her heart won't turn to stone... oh no She keeps on crying But I won't leave her alone She'll never be alone She'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 2x] [bridge] And she'll be right here in my arms So in Love She'll be right here in these arms She can't let go [Repeat 3x and fade out]
The Golden Rule........
I THINK NO MATTER WHAT OTHER "BIBLE" RULES THERE ARE SET...THIS SHOULD BE A PERSONAL RULE FOR EVERYONE......CAUSE WHAT GOES AROUND WILL ALWAYS COME BACK AROUND TO YOU........     you always remember those who helped you no matter  what it always remember them.....and i dont mean only the ones who bomb u and chuck bling at you cause they may posess the power of the almighty dollar.....i mean the ones who will sit on your page and rate and rate and rate day in day out just to show they support u..even in the most difficult ways (fucking bouncer checks lol)...the ones who come out of the blue and just totally rape a whole album or your entire stash  even tho u havent even said two words yet that day....just because maybe they saw u scrollin or noticed u uploaded a new pic....those are the friends u must always remember  the ones who will come rate you even if you dont have on those ever popular auto 11's
Funny Text Messages
1.(631): Just chased the kids into the backyard with kitchen knives. Best. Babysitters. Ever. 2.(775): Not good, Ive never been this late. We need to talk. (504): Error 1684C: You're last text was undeeliverable. Subscriber is our to the aera. 3.(302): Would you rather have a 10 inch but pencil thin penis or a 2 inch very fat one? (845): Fat, it's not about touching the bottom it's about raising hell of the sides. 4.(614): I'm not going to blow you while you look at fish on the internet. 5.(402): I shaved my pubes to make my cock look like it has a lions mane. to surprise the girl that works at the zoo when she comes over. 6.(215): After she swallowed she let out a hurge burp. No BS. I'm the cock of the walk. (610): I think you have the wrong number. But at any rate, respect. 7.(440): yea ive hooked up with like half those guys (1-440): and i've hooked up with the other half...when our powers combine, we are captain slutbag 8.(205): we were exchanging secrets last night... sh
Daily Dumbass 1
hi please pimp slap this dumb motherfucker...hes an idiot...a good friend but an idiot...i cant say why but while u are at it go give him love...but only AFTER you call him a dumbass   $safe_uid_dname@ fubar
A Woman's Vengeance
I broke your heart,I broke your faith in love,I betrayed you,I made you feel like your less of a man, and surprisingly i still dont care.You said I love you,You said I was your only one but i really wasnt I was just the one who didnt ask questions.I was the one who made life easier for you but not anymore.At night I lay awake thinking about you thinking about how good it would feel to see you lying in a 10ft grave staring up at me with those big,dumb brown eyes,I wonder how it would feel to watch you lay there helpless crying,broken,afraid, and alone. Then I remember thats exactly how I felt when I with was you, thats how you made me feel day in and day out so i've come to the conclusion I really wouldn't give a shit i would probably acutally enjoy it.You act innocent, loving,caring, sweet and romantic , the perfect gentlemen.You sweep girls off their feet like its nothing then you pounce on your unsuspecting victim. The loving,caring,gentlemen fantasy you portray so well disappears an
The Truth Revealed
I just want to cry You have no idea why Telling me it's not true You may not see it, but I do You stare at other girls The truth now unfurls I saw you look that way When I had something to say That picture I went to delete You said no, I feel so incomplete Like I wasn't good enough for you I'll never be no matter what I do I know that's not how it really is, I can see That no matter what you will always want me It's human nature for you too look around I shouldn't worry, I shouldn't make a sound Is it the way I look, or what I say That causes you to turn and look away Can it be they have something I don't Just say something because I won't I don't know what to think My heart shatters, the shards sink I'm nothing compared to the others there But give me a sign, let me know you care
Seasons Of Change
Tears falling from my eyes Clouds cover the skies Tears begin to pour The clouds can withstand no more Hair blowing in the breeze You said goodbye with such ease The scent of spring in the air Your hands go through my hair Sun that burns my skin Pain that's hidden within Light so bright, I cannot see You've gone and left me Snow draped white on the ground I love but you are no where to be found Icy days send shivers down my back Days so long now I've lost track The leaves fall from every tree Before you left you claimed to love me Leaves caused memories to come rushing back The courage you gave me I now lack With each seasons passing comes more pain Realizing that without you I've nothing to gain They come and go without care or remorse And if possible I'd take you back of course
so my ex is texing me asking me if im ever gonna date or if im gonna ever get married in the future and of course i said yes and now shes all butt hurt   this is the same girl that still sleeps with her baby blanket and just had a baby with some random dude
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Diving In
As many of you all know, Tuesday I will be moving into a transitional community living type of place. I won't be allowed to have my laptop there, so my time on here will be minimal. I will be letting someone control my account while I am not on, so if you shout or send a message and are not answered, don't be alarmed. I am scared to death of this change that is going to become. I keep asking myself, what if these women don't like me? I have isolated myself so long that I am scared to jump into the communtiy type living. I am also hoping and praying that this is going to be what I need to get a jump start to get back on my feet and back to normal. They have suggested that I apply for a temporary state grant to take care of my depression and to get help with the antidepressants. I am kind of reluctant on that, but I may just have to do it temporarily. I feel like I am totally diving into this head first, hoping I can hold my breath long enough till I can swim properly or with the assi
My life is depressing. what should i do? there is no answer. there is no change. My state of being is sad. my world is long gone. where do i turn? where can i go? no one can answer. no one knows. my heart achs for that one special person. all i get is heatbreak. i try moving on. i try to forget. all i feel is sadness. My life is a world of sadness. a world of depressing memories.
Why would you be married and be involved in this site. That makes no sense.
Wasp - The Idol
Will I be alone this morning Will I need my friends? Something just to ease away my pain No one ever sees the loneliness behind my face I am just a prisoner to my fame If I could only stand And stare in the mirror What could I see? One fallen hero with a face Like me And if I scream would anybody hear me If I smash the silence, you'll see what fame Has done to me Kiss away the pain and leave me lonely I'll never know if love's a lie, ooh Being crazy in paradise is easy Do you see the prisoners in my eyes? Where is the love to shelter me? Give me love, love, love come set me free Where is the love to shelter me? Only love, love, love, love set me free Set me free
What's Up!
I feel sometimes that I'm unappreciated on this site. I try to be nice to people but I get no comments back. Everybody is in their own little world. I sense no closeness to anybody here. Any comments are from ladies luring you to yahoo for some cam stuff that cost money. Where is the love?
[attempt Number 2- That Dish]
*mutters in creole*Alright, so ... I just found out I can make huarache but that's not important.What IS important, is that... *yells at tv screen*what?Oh-I've picked up a discount pork butt roast(shoulder)and I have intentions of creating the legendary chile verde of topeka's Rosa's (again).*sigh*this is something that has eluded me for an entire year since they closed their doorsthe DAY OF MY COLLEGE GRADUATION > < !I think I'm lacking tomatillos, but really I think I'll live.I know exactly how it tastes, I'm hoping this offering will be adequate.If not we continue to reverse engineer.Speaking of reverse engineering.Huarache. I need a steady supply of masa. You can make this out of 1 egg, 1 quarter cup of milk- and crunchies of tortilla blended into a batter consistency.Its the same method Alton Brown used to make masa tots, only I didn't go as nuts with mine, think ... hocake, only... tortilla only... naan.So its a corn pan bread, and the additives really are endless- but there's no
Meeting Perfectly_inked
Inked, were we going to write things in depth, or just write the important details?
So Here It Is
There comes a time when a woman needs to realize that she does not have what it takes. It sucks when you come to that conclusion.
Friends Or Not Friends.. Pls Read And Reply
P. O. R. T. R. A. I. T
You didnt have this face then..calm..and at times sad..and thin..nor those eyes that see seas so empty..nor those bitter thotz...that are not of good but as some good deedz you were didnt have the strength then as you do now...strong and solid as a pillar..yet time crumbles you to the didnt have this heart then that you hate to bare today.. You were never aware of changing so a mirror then was your face lost...or now do you realize life...filled with roads to cross...     nate fuego.. fuego poeticas...
Will Game Bring Harm To One’s Life?
In recent years, online game has developed rapidly in China. Many people believe that online game produce positive effects on economic growth and we should try our best to promote online game. But what these people fail to see is that online game may bring about a disastrous impact on our life. As for me, I'm firmly convinced that too much tourists bring harm to the life.      The bad impact of online game, take wow power leveling for example on the life has mainly expressed itself in various ways. One way is the process of exploiting a new scenic spot. In order to attract players, a lot of artificial facilities have been built, which have certain unfavorable effects on the life. This process usually breaks the ecological balance of the area. In some mountainous places, trees are being cut down to build hotels for others to see and explore the beauty of the mountains. Then land slides and mud-rock flows come up. Another way the development of online game has damaged the life occurs whe
My Love K3wi
So i been on fubar for 6 yrs on and off, and i wasn't really looken for a girl..but shit happens..after a few i finaly found the one , that i can say that i can say .. i want to spend every sec wit . her name is k3wi on fu .. i love this girl so much .. i havn't feal this way in a very long time.. we have are times , just like every other relastionship has instore .. but we fix em and move on kinda.. she has done some shit that pissed me off, but i cant see my self wit out her in my life . i want to marry this girl .. i feal a spical bond beween us when we talk .. she make me happy , most of the time .. i really do love u k3w. When the time comes we will finaly meet and thats when the magic is goign to start ..  i want to be thier for her , durign the times needed and not needed. i want to care about her, i want to cuddle wit her . at this point of my life ..iu cant see my self wit out K3wi thier for me .. my life feal unconplete wit out her thier .  k3wi is my soul mate . and me and
Funny Things About Fubar
Well about people on fubar The people in green almost always rate you what they truely think of you until someone gets mad at tells them off because they weren't rated a 10   That someone will rate you a 2 but will add you to there friends list   Ok I listed two things now its your turn to list a couple.
For It
For It I wait for itLike the seasons wait to changeFor what you ask? For loveEven though it makes you feelContempt, maybe derrangedMaybe not nowBut just waitEverything is bound to twistBound to change Yet still I wait for itSearch for itEven when tears fall like rainI reach for itYern for itTry to make amends for itImplore itLearn your lesson,Yet still fall for it.
Dirty Laundry
you know who you are and i know others know who i am talking about   you can tell everyone all the shit you want to make yourself look better...but im not the one that would call and say "come help we are so busy" and then 20 minutes later say "ok im going out drinking have fun" when its still busy then deciding it was ok to start banging married guys and thinking its ok....   i worked my ass off for you working doubles and musta been nice to take any day off that you wanted...i offered to give you more money to cover things but you would never let me...but then you got pissed because i sent flowers to my best friend that fucked up her back so bad that she still cant work almost a year later just to make her feel a lil got pissed because i wouldnt let you strong arm me like you do to every other guy that is in your life and that is why you will be a fucking miserable old lady because you can never be happy because one guy fucked you over now you think e
Love Break Down
The undescribable feeling that is love people think they know what love is, but love isnt what you feel it is the level of the relationship you have with some one, depending how intament you are with them, because you are intament to some degree with everyone, intamency is how you get along with someone you can be intament with your freinds, family, even complete strangers that you might not see ever again. love is just another degree of relationship, that is why you can love so many thing's in this world, but even the degree that is love is also broken up into several part's , when you look at it, love can just mean you care about someone or something. so this thing that is love is just another word for feeling or relationship even intamency, these four things that are listed fall in the same category but they are able to get more pacific to what they mean where love isnt it is a combanation of all three. intamency which u have with everyone or everything. relationship which in t
Political Humor
While suturing a cut on the hand of a 75-year-old rancher, who's hand was caught in the gate while working cattle, the doctor struck up a conversation with the old man. Eventually the topic got around to Obama. The old rancher said,"Well, ya know,Obama is a 'Post Turtle'.'' Not being familiar with the term, the doctor asked him what a 'post turtle' was. The old rancher said, "When you're driving down a country road, and you come across a fence post with a turtle balanced on top, that's a 'post turtle'." The old rancher saw the puzzled look on  the doctor's face so  he continued to explain. "You know he didn't get up there by himself, he doesn't belong up there, he doesn't know what to do while he's up there, and you just wonder what kind of an idiot put him up there to begin with."
To try and fail To try and fail To try and fail Is a moment to care to give up Is a moment of wonder Is it really worth it? Is a moment of wonder Is this the correct path? To try and fail To try and fail To try and fail Is a moment of wonder Does this road in life go through? Is a moment of wonder Am I just not good enough?
Daddy's Love
A Daddy’s love A love that can barely be measured by leaps and bounds. It’s a love that by itself completely wraps itself around you. A love that makes you feel as safe as your mother’s womb. It’s a love that you take pride in.   When that cold shoulder comes around You’re left with a sad heavy heart. As if that safe secure feeling was taken right from underneath you! A feeling of falling left to catch yourself; And to climb your way back into the security of your mother’s womb. Waiting for the cold shoulder to turn around. Anticipating for the very moment To jump into that lov
Awesome Accuracy
I'm You/you're Me
Wake up now or fall away Crash headlong into the wall Take the sin you've sown Eat it whole Take the long walk You know you'll never come back Such a long and dusty road Should you stay the path or stray Gallows call Keep your smile Laugh to hide the pain Broken by the world that bore you I've made you this way Yes it's me I came to you in your need I promised salvation Just came to see you bleed You can't cry now because of me Hold all your pain inside I hope it poisons you I'm the nothingface Look up to me and beg I make you want me here You will never make me leave When they look at you they can only see me What you were is what I'm going to be I am the sum of your sin I'm You...
When you bear your soul to someone, what do you expect? Will they see what you want to show them? Probably not.  They will see what they want to see and not the whole. They will, depending on how they feel, about you or life in general, look for the parts.  They will find the dark parts and tell you how foul you are.  They will find the red of you angers, or the greens of your envies. But your soul in not a rainbow, white light split into colors.  It is whole, the way you are, not the parts of you.  It is more than the sum of the parts. When you find someone that will look at the soul and tell you truth of the total of what they see.  Then. You have found a friend.
Trying To Buy
im looking to buy bling packs auto11 or a cherry bomb or a vip for me and my fiance anyone interested in selling let me know in a private message or in sb
Most Inportant Thing 2 Me
i love my wife her name is tancie thompson we are almosf af our 1 year and aniversarie and im so exited about it i cant what till aug 9 thats the 1 year mark 4 us we have a beautiful baby girl toghether shell be a year old septemger 21 ill have pics of her soon i hope im not too good wit comps so ill have my wife put them up so every one can c and rate them so till then ill bring this to a close   my 1st blog about the only inportant thin in my life my family linx johnathan thompson
Break Up
The following text conversation started at 3:30 pm, while I was still at work.   Guy:    Hey BabyGuy:    I miss youGuy:    Oh, you don't have your phoneGuy:    TearsGirl:    What?Guy:    I was cryingGirl:    Why?Guy:    Cause I am sadGirl:    Why are you sad?Guy:    I miss you a lotGuy:    ......, I need to ask you somethingGirl:    What is it ......?Guy:    Are you thinking of breaking up with me?Guy:    And be honestGirl:    Unfortunately yes. I haven't said anything yet because it is the hardest thing i have ever done. I do love you, I just don't think I am in love with you.Guy:    It's ok. I kinda thought that's what it was when we talked last.Girl:    I am so sorry .......Guy:    It's okGirl:    Are you sure?Guy:    I knew this would happenGuy:    I saw it in a dream a week agoGirl:    Really?Guy:    YeahGuy:    I have been crying all weekGuy:    So i knewGirl:    What did you see in your dream?Guy:    You leaving meGuy:    Tears in your eyes, but me smilingGuy:    Why I am smil
6 New Personality Disorders Caused By The Internet
** warning ** this is long. It is from one of my favorite sites and it made me laugh. I could find several people from here that fit most every disorder. No need to comment, I just thought that if any of you were bored it might make you laugh also.   6 New Personality Disorders Caused by the InternetThe Internet makes people crazy. We all know this. The guy on the message board who just called you a shitclown for owning a different video game console than him probably would have been perfectly polite had you met in real life.In fact, we're thinking it's time they updated the psychological diagnostic manuals with this list of new disorders that only seem to kick in once the person opens a web browser.#6.Online Intermittent Explosive Disorder (a.k.a. The Thin-Skinned Rage-o-holic)Like serial killers, these people seem pretty normal at first. For hours or even days, they'll carry on funny, charming conversations in a forum or comment section. But then something, anything, sets him off a
Old Keybaord
My laptop keybaord has been punched, spilled on, and abused for the last 3 years and is finally wearing down a bit. I have been typing fast and pressing enter expecting my words to be completed... but, when i look up to proof read a little, I find my wording and letters missing. Damn...
There After
Gail Cooper thought she had made peace with her daughter's death nearly 25 years ago. On Saturday at the Burr Oak Cemetery in Alsip, Cooper walked into a terror like she's never known. "This is like an Alfred Hitchcock movie," said Cooper, gesturing toward the backed-up traffic, the line of family members and the dozens of investigators who have closed the entire cemetery and declared it a crime scene. Cooper learned the section of Burr Oak called "Babyland" -- where her six-year-old girl was buried after she was killed in a car accident -- was a new focus of investigators who have already found a mass grave in another portion of the cemetery. "That disturbs me a lot, you know?" Cooper said, breaking down into tears. "To think that maybe they took her and threw her over in the corner like she was a piece of trash. That was my baby." Four Burr Oak cemetery workers were charged with digging up hundreds of graves and reselling the plots. More than 300 bodies are suspected to be distu
… from a rib you were maid, so it’s written creation writes… oh,  oh.. my love, I adore thee and your beautiful ways… trance, yes.. the power of your stare, not of stone I become in your love’s eye view
Aligning Your Wheels
Some people would ask, ''What do I need to do when I get a wheel alingment''? One you can get different price quotes from other and various shops that does wheel alignments and figure which ones won't charge you more than what you want to pay or is needed to be payed. Replace your tie rods, ball joints and swaybar bushings. All of these can and will cause problems down the road such as... getting another wheel alignment if they are not replaced, every little thing on your car can cause problems one way or another. Such companies won't tell you this cause either they don't know that these problems exist, or they don't WANT you to know that these problems exist. These parts wear out badly and can cost you money down the line when it could of been avoided from the get-go. Having all this done can also save you gas. Also; getting taller tires can increase your gas milage.
Does She Know
There's not as much blood as I thought there would be. Still, it is bright red.  Does she care?  Will she even know? Someone will have to clean this up, but, it's not too bad. Still, there should be more. It's hard to think straight, with all this redness on the floor there's some on the door.  Will she even know.  It was just a small sting, no pain, it was quick.  Then the redness came.  How could she know, if I don't tell her it's here? I think I miss her even more now.  Does she even care? I need to get up.  Everything has slowed down.  I must clean this up. I'll just wrap a bandage aroung the wrists.  She'll never know.  And by the time she finds out, they'll be healed.
Working Out
so this is day 2 andim already finding muscles i forgot i had...owie
It Came To Pass
  Many times often humanity judges, I’ve done this myself.. now I stand correct with self.. when you’re so right the wrongs never felt, I am not the one that breathes all breathe in all life.. what stone shall I cast vast on mortality with might.. smite, hate,  envy ... it all flows the same.. I’m no savior , no jooks of shook nooks.. hooks or fascinations whomever’s temptations.. let the last be first an out last the words from our pads.. scripts, tablets, mallet or hammer.. cut from t he stone milk and honey is it’s clone..
Metaphore.. ((black Diamond))
…it’s seen rear by the naked eye.. yet, its sheer beauty holds no disguise.. workers dig for its hidden values without knowledge of what they seek.. wealth.., greed.., riches.., breed deceit.. dismantled from self knowledge they steady their dig.. this diamond holds aged beauties at eyes view, its true.. an old age seasoned, discovered for all.. meaning me and you.. dark not clear as a windowpane but..,  sparkles reflecting light from its darkness.. what revelation could deny.. many have died for seeking, without return.. less their greed.. I am what those workers seek, I am of thee creations truth which is lead by the words of natures creation.. sought vengefully, plotted upon from rage full currencies.. the rays shine endlessly, black diamonds focal stands.. threw out hymns of enemies hands… 
Ate Some Shity Veal Tonight
Can you believe VEAL tasting like shit? yeah exactly. Went to this restruant called copelands, got me an appetizer of Cajun shrimp; it tasted like crap. I ordered my entree, Veal, and it came with some shrimp pasta b.s and you guessed it. both were nasty.Service was bad to. I left a 61 cent tip. Believe me i am the opposite of cheap; I usually leave 5$ for every 25 i spend, or 5$ per 3 drinks at the bar.
Friend Is A Newly-wed
Yeah, my best friend got married last weekend and just got back from his cruise. It's kind of wierd when all your friends and acquaintances start getting married. Makes me feel lonely, but I'd rather be alone than married, lol.
Ever Throw Up Cause You Are So Pissed
I feel like that.. just wanna either punch a wall or shoot someone cause you are so angry.  This shit with the beach is becoming more of a pain that enjoyment.  All day I have been thinking about it.  I really do want to go and been planning this for about a month now.  I should've planned this better but I assumed a lot of people would be there for me and they kind of shitted on me.  Another proof that nothing in life is guaranteed.  You would think at least one person would come through.  Thats why I talk to tons of people rather than focus on one.  I tell you that you can't do anything right.  You focus your whole life on one person and its not right.  than you try to be social and broaden your network.  Than you get either called a whore or selfish when in honest you can't trust anyone for being there for you cause they are their own person.  I really wish I understood cause I stay inside all the time and its not gonna help me socialize.  Than I go out too much than I seem like a p
Stupid Fuckin Birds
never teach a bird to say something you aren`t prepared to listen to continuously. african grey has been saying " stupid birds" for 2 straight hours
My Bomb List
Lucky@ fubarShaunna@ fubarChelleBelle@ fubarKally@ fubarBigSexy@ fubarmost evil@ fubarL1wolf@ fubarBarry goddammit@ fubarwitchesbrew@ fubarKatie@ fubarSRV
Bass Sold
Sold my bass last week on Ebay for 700$ (was originally 1100$) SO i could buy a new handgun. I like exploring new things and Gun skill is one of those things. I have a 308 semi-auto sniper rifle but yeah guess what no handgun! So i sold the bass and should be getting my money Friday or saturday of next week.Pay-Pal requires you to wait 3 days after your shipped item is confirmed delivered before they release your funds, then you have to wait 3 days for the funds to transfer to your bank account. It's bulshit but the covenience of E-bay is awesome.
I Went To A Party
I went to a party,And remembered what you said.You told me not to drink, MomSo I had a sprite instead.I felt proud of myself,The way you said I would,That I didn't drink and drive,Though some friends said I should.I made a healthy choice,And your advice to me was right,The party finally ended,And the kids drove out of sight.I got into my car,Sure to get home in one piece,I never knew what was coming, MomSomething I expected least.Now I'm lying on the pavement,And I hear the policeman say,The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,Mom, his voice seems far away.My own blood's all around me,As I try hard not to cry.I can hear the paramedic say,This girl is going to die.I'm sure the guy had no idea,While he was flying high,Because he chose to drink and drive,Now I would have to die.So why do people do it, MomKnowing that it ruins lives?And now the pain is cutting me,Like a hundred stabbing knives.Tell sister not to be afraid, MomTell daddy to be brave,And when I go to heaven,Put Daddy's Girl
Chinese Friend In Vancouver
The friend that lives in Vanouver is "Jerry" he's chinese and i met him in 2005 when i was living in Australia. He spoke better english than australians(lols) We were introduced by this guy from Germany(met him at Kingsford Airport) Anyways it was pretty cool we had fun making fun of australians and ever since have been good friends.Jerry's first time in the USA was October of last year when he flew to vegas, i went and met him and boy did he love the USA. I knew he would, people always do. When you leave the USA and return from a foreign country, you realise how awesome and different our States are. The best thing i ever heard in my life was "welcome back to the United States" at LAX customs.
When It Rain's It Mother Fucking Pours...
ya know. there are so many quotes involving lifes trials and trivulations but  they all mean one is shit. so graba spoon and start eating cause its never gonna go away. and no a pfa is not another way of saying i love you. it means you're an idiot and i'm not dealing with it for another minute. 4 years mother fucker. 4 fucking years. and you still have your head in your ass with 2 additional kids that you cant take care of. bitch please. i am not holding your hand for nothing no more. GROW UP!! keep your head out of your ass and your dick in your pants and maybe JUST maybe people wont call you a loser worthless piece of shit. just maybe. but i am now going to get DRUNK. cause i deserve a break from reality with my boo. peace out FUCKERS!
Those of you who have known me for a bit have heard my tales of the pain i have gone through my whole life.  Fact is i have fu - proposed to a few women on here only to be told no and then there have been those who i thought i was very close to who have become engaged or married to others... i DO NOT begrudge anyone their happiness, but i, as usual, am alone... so when this VIP runs out... i'm deleting or taking a VERY long hiatus, as there's nothing for me here.  I'm a troll, i get it and i should have never expected anything more... goodbye...
Miscellaneous Stuff About Me
Please allow me to introduce myself, I'm a man of wealth and taste....or something. Not really though. In real life I'm a happily married mother of two obnoxious little children. A two year old boy and an eight year old girl. I've been married for over nine years now, and yes, that means I got married at 15. No, it wasn't a cult thing or an arranged marriage. I love my husband very much, as evidenced by the fact that we're still together. I like to read. A lot. Total bookworm. I mostly read Science Fiction and Fantasy, my favorite authors are Mercedes Lackey, Anne McCaffrey, and Piers Anthony. I watch a lot of t.v., or used to, now I don't get any channels. Favorite t.v. show of all time is Firefly, by my Big Damn Hero Joss Whedon. He also created Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel, not that any of you care. Best movie ever made is Serenity, the movie sequel to the show Firefly. Also loved V for Vendetta, The Three Musketeers, Sin City and, well, way too many others to list. My top t
Travel Before Boot Camp
I'm getting real anxious about boot camp, its only about 7 more weeks before i have to go. Not sure what exactly to expect but i need to unwind and travel, one last time, before giving up my personal freedom i've had for so long.I am flying to seattle with my buddy to meet up with my friend, he lives in vancouver and will pick us up and hook us up with a house to stay in. It's pretty cool and i've never been to Seattle or canada.
No Gain
When I think I’ve thought it threw.. seems I’ve only moved an inch on the pathway , a pathway of light unhued  and hewn from lies.. on this journey to and fro.. mist of  ill doom..  it is here it is there.. it looms lingered.. how can I reach my heights intended, when those heights are moved by ill intentions.. you see them, can I see.. they walk, can I walk.. walk a different path from these.. now I judge those as them.. I’m no better, to whom do I mortally judge.. are these pathways meant  for my own destruction in their shadows shadowed in loomed darkness.. my mind wonders on heavens I do not see.. my third eyes mind helps me.. shall I see..
my daughter was born in september of august of 2001 my gf gave birth to a son ethan scott. when he was 8 months old he was killed by a drunk drivedr in a car parents did not know about ethan because of the bullshit i was going through with aly at the time...macy and ethan were coming to the beach so that my parents could meet him for the first time...i never to this day have told them the truth.   macy blamed me for his death because before she left she had called me to tell me they were heading down and wanted to get ahead of weekend traffic...i told her to talk to me a lil longer because i was just about off work and so we talked a lil longer then she said she had to go and that she would call me on the road.   she said if i had let her go then ethan would still be alive and threatened to call the police if i spoke to her again...she had him cremated and took his ashes somewhere to the midwest with her.   to this day i cannot cry over anything sad....i h
What Have I Done?
"What I've Done" In this farewell There’s no blood There’s no alibi ‘Cause I’ve drawn regret From the truth Of a thousand lies So let mercy come And wash away What I’ve done I'll face myself To cross out what i’ve become Erase myself And let go of what i’ve done Put to rest What you thought of me While I clean this slate With the hands of uncertainty For what I’ve done I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!! What I’ve done Forgiving what I’ve done
Bound by silenceLost in the abyssInternal tortureThis pain I must endureTrapped behind your maskYou keep hidden your vile pastYour fake facadeYou didnt fool me for longI seen you in your worstIt was me that you hurtHow dare you sit there so proudWith you head in the cloudsYour fate is tied to meAnd your eternal blasphemyMy torture has come to an endAnd finally yours begins~~
No Title
what have you done to me?a black cloud of blood as feelings creep.once we shared heaven,hand in hand and glad-hearted,but your heart soured.a painful vision of lies -tears follow hate, follow memory,love taken a storm of hatred,i reject you.
I Sold My Soul For A Photograph
  I Sold My Soul For A Photograph   I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I would have sat upon the sun, I would have swallowed a bullet from a gun, I would have given up my heart & lungs, Just to see the photograph again, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I'd swim into the jaws of death, I'd get a knife stabbed into my chest, I'd swallow nails just for a laugh, If you think I'm crazy, You don't know how far I'd go, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, Of you; Just to see your smile again..
Lets See Right Quick
as some of you know i lost my globals tonight...and if ya didnt know now ya know :P anyways if ya saw it you know i didnt say anything offensive, but my mumms have been getting reported for years! how sad is that? YEARS!!! every non NSFW mumm i post gets deleted by, most likely, the same individual (or plural)!  so right now, right here im gonna ask the sorry ass, weak minded, pathetic person (or persons) to come foreward now and fess up! I like to keep my friends close and myt enemies closer, so under this rukle, im guessing they are probably on my friends list,  or yours (the reader) so here we go...lets do this now! speak up!
Deleting Most Of The People On My List
This is how it is, I try to help people. always. There will be a selected few that will stay on my list. Most will be deleted !!! I help people level all the time and when I need it well they arent there so, i am not playing their games anymore. I have always been nice and now i am a cold hearted person. i found out who my real friends are on here so bye to yall and have fun doing it to someone else. I am keeping just the good ones. I do love my friends
What Is Love
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think: "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8 When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5 "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6 "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4 Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny
I Just Love This Shit!
Life has a way of just ripping me apart. I just love this shit! You ever find someone you are sure is perfect for you and they are taken by another. Taken by another who is an absolute monster. Treats them terrible and yet they run back with their tail tucked between their legs like a homeless curr dog. I genuinely just don't like most people. Everyone is so superficial, trying to conform or please the majority, that I just cannot deal with the average person for very long. Then along comes someone I actually like being around. We can laugh at the same morbid or tastelesss jokes. Yeah whatever you don't know me, Get wild on everything under the sun and not have to explain or feel guilty about our sinful pleasures. I want life to be real with my next ex-wife, ya know? Nothing lasts forever, everything degenerates or decomposes with time. Some say there is someone for everyone we just have to find them. What I want to know is: Where the fuck are you chic? Is there really anybody out ther
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:   "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8 When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5 "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6 "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4 Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Da
Hi To Everybody
Hi every one I'm new just wish to say hi and make new friends, I rate pics but if they are poor qwality or in poor taste I give them a low rating, might not be you it may be the pics themselfs.
Long Time Cumming
  Her nipples ached with desire.....a desire that no man had yet been able to fulfill. At 32 years old she never thought she would find anyone that made her feel like she was fulfilled. Then at work she saw him a nice looking young man that seemed like the all American guy. After a few weeks of talking to him he asked her on a date she was hesitant at first but accepted. Now after 6 months of dating he seemed like her perfect match. He was so different than all the other men she had been with. He was sweet and caring but still dominate and wild! Just the kind of man she had longed for. He was tall and thin with blue eyes and light blonde hair. Very clean cut looking and his large thick cock that she could not get enough made him even better! He made her wet just day dreaming about him. The way he would kiss her thighs and softly kiss her pussy made her mad with desire.  He would tease her till she was ready to scream. He was the only man that could make her beg him to lick her clit. T
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From The Mouths Of Babes...
"Mom! We opened General Jesus!" "What Lauryn?" "On Star Wars! We opened General Jesus!" "Oh, you mean General Grevious." "No dummy, I know my game...its General Jesus"
Why Do We Have Fealings?
Why is it that people be they man or women, be what they may, have fealings?  I have wondered this for a while, and have an answer.  This may not be the right answer or the one you are looking for but its mine.  The reason we have fealings is because god doesnot want us to enjoy life, for the reason is this is hell.  Yes when your evil or sin he sends you back to try again.  Back to this desalit wasteland we call earth.  This hell he has made for us to live in.  This is why we all die, this is why we have fealings, this is why we exsist.  To be punished and thats all.
Need To Know Who Wants To Be A Member!
OK..just a few rules and whats expected to be a meber! After u read please leave a comment letting me know u read and want to stay a member! First and foremost we are a family and there should be friendship, loyalty and respect! We are here to help each other first! Make sure you have r/f/a all members! Please put the home page in your family if you can! And please become a member of the lounge also! All I ask is you check in often with the homepage to see if there are new blogs or new members! We are gonna be doing a little more to have fun here! Just please be patient with me as it will start soon! I will keep you all updated on that! Let's all just have fun!
Just Married
On July tenth 2009 Bobby Gene Parker and Cathy Joann Bunch were united in Holy Matrimony!!!At 7pm on July 9th Bobby asked me to marry him,after I said yes, we said to each other lets do this right away, I then said I bet we could do this tomorrow.So I got up at 8:45 am so unusual for me, cause I work second to third shift, and I called the court house, I found out what we needed to do and proceeded to make an appointment with the circuit clerk, she told me if we could be there by 11:30 am then we could get married that day, JUNE 10TH.We applied for the license and waited in the rotunda for about 25 minutes, waiting also for our witnesses to come, which were my father and step mom.Then we all proceeded to her office found the best place to stand for good pictures and proceeded with the ceremony.As we said our vows we both almost cried with our hearts hugging each other with great joy.It was very intimate and sweet!We have a certificate that is framed and is placed in our livi
I just discovered I've been cheated on and lied to for about a year now.  Some vague comments in the past few months didn't sit well with me and now I know why.  I'm not hurt  by the cheating so much as the lying.  Kinda sad huh?  I loved this man with all my heart and would do anything for him.  I was even looking to move out where he was.  I mostly hurt by the fact he didn't have to balls to say yes I've been lying to you.  I wonder if she knew about me before he moved in or not? I know I still love him and would have forgiven him if he had owned up to ANY of it and he has yet to answer any accusations.  He just stop talking to me.  no answers.  Just me finding her blog. With pictures. and half of those pics he has sent me.  the other half are ones she is in!  Is it too hard to ask for honesty?  I would not have liked that he was living with someone else but I couldn't prevent it not living nearby.  I was going to post her blog here but decided I'm not that vindictive yet.  but on o
I So Belong Now
So yesterday at work I was asked to help by the premises manager to carry some stuff down from the third floor of this building to outside. Out of him and his three staff he only had one guy helping me carry these 13 heavy sacks, even though it turned out he and the other two could've helped as they had nothing else to do. K, so we start taking these bags to the agreed drop off point, when this guy (Ian)  suddenly changes his mind and wants them taken somewhere else, further away and smaller. He says because they're a fire hazard (outside, I think not). So I talk to Rosie (his second in command) to make a compromise, whereby we move all 13 to the original place first, then from there to where he wants them. But no, apparently the kids are going to play with them so he doesn't want them there. I know this is a pile of shit and that he is talking out of his ass, so I go talk to his boss, who agrees they should stay in the original place. He gets pissed off with me and stops the guy
I Need A Drink
Sipped Refreshing Ice tea On a Sunny afternoon it Cooled down then Shaded Palms Glanced at what was Greener on her side Chocolate fantasy Images Creams dreams During the day Brunch cleaned Sponges Absorbing The elements of The theories Of revolt lusts appetizer The Main course was Intimate tastes Switch Try to fight it Giving in entangled Sending it to you Telepathically wound When spoken No sounds You feel my words Read my lips With the Vowels and consonants I Strip your body Of its wordy shell Of paraphrasing Letting the pearl be shown Writing expressing lessons taught While learning Sharing remembering What it is to feel And not to feel but which is more beneficial? I need a drink Copyright@2009micheck12isthisthingon?
The Scuba Diver (medium)
There is a forrest fire. As the firefighters are batteling this blaze they come across an untouched patch of forrest. All around is burnt. In the center of this patch is a man dressed in full scuba gear. No tire tracks anywhere around. There isn't a body of water for 500 miles. How did he get there? How did he die?   P.S. This one actually happened in oregon. The police were baffeled for 6 months. A 7 year old girl solved this with one question!
Too Late
dont you know it the moment I realize I have a lot to say today my time at the library is over. thats the way it is. every time. just wish i had a friend in real life. oh well. later.
Moving On...
This morning I woke up and thoughts were going thru my mind. As I continue I knew I had to say to myself just move on...Theres no space for me in your life...Let alone a small place in your Loving heart...So I pace myself on leaving you behind...I can't dwell on what could've, would've been...I just wish you the best and hope all goes well... I now look forward to that one special guy who I can say will be one of a kind... The one who appears in all my dreams...He will make me happy and never have me shed tears...I will look deep into his eyes and say "I will be here for you, thru the good or bad times...I will never disappear" Because I have found my soulmate , my one True Love... My mind is clear and at ease now for no one has ever come near to what I feel and see in you... I thank God each and every day for sending you my way... God has given me hope along with patience ... I now know he was there to hear.
This Feeling That I Hold Deep Inside...
Makes me want to go away and hide.All I want to do is lay aside Feel the tears come running down my cheeks as I cry,It's so hard to stop but I continue on to try,No one sees as they dry.This feeling that I hold deep inside All I want is for someone to be by my side,And it seems like I just get tossed aside.
My Daily Grind
Since I have retarted doctors who cannot seem to diagnose why I have pain 24/7. I have to pick and chose my battles everyday like sitting here now I will pay for it tomorrow but I try to get online as much as I can.
The Warehouse (medium)
The police break into a warehouse and find a man hanging from the rafters. He is ten feet off the ground. The door was locked from the inside. There is no other entry into the warehouse besides the one door. There is nothing else inside the warehouse except a pool of water.   How did he hang himself?
Come And Mend My Broken Heart...
Come to me and mend my broken heart Open the door to yours and take away this painLet’s come together as one and try to Love again I can come to you whether it will be in a car, plane even the train. Remember …Me for You and You for Me As I’ll be your Sun and you will be my MoonPatience is what I have as I know I’ll see you soon.Come to me and mend my broken heart Let’s set a date to meet...that would be a start If things work out than I don’t ever want to partAnd if not I would still thank God for giving me the chance to be with you and now I must depart.
Hope These People Burn For This!
ALSIP, Ill. (STNG) - Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart declared all of Burr Oak Cemetery in Alsip a crime scene Friday night after more remains and altered grave sites were found in a second part of the cemetery. "It has become abundantly clear to us that this crime scene is going to continue to grow," Dart said. "We do not have an end in sight." The newly discovered remains were found in the southern part of the cemetery near 127th Street. But missing or fake paperwork kept by cemetery workers will make it difficult to determine how many graves may have been disturbed. Asked if the number of affected graves would exceed his estimate Thursday of 300, Dart said: "I would be shocked if it doesn't change the number," he said. "It's becoming clear there are potential crime scenes littered throughout the cemetery." Dart said members of the public may come to Burr Oak to provide information to the sheriff's office about their loved ones. But no one will be allowed past the front entrance for
I have finally found sum1 who has accepted me with all my faults.... He knows that even tho i'm busy I'm always there for him. He lifts me up and makes me smile everyday. He wakes me up in the most inventive ways and I am his queen. He lifts my spirits with just a gaze of his eyes and he holds me close each and everynight. Tho he may not physically be seen he is 100% real. He comforts me and lulls me to sleep each night! He iz my oove and I am his! So I'm sorry to all you ladies who are still looking for your mister right, I have found mine and i'm holding tight.
I Will Send My Love Your Way...
If there was no sunshine to your day To those days when you feel aloneI will send my Love your way… Just remember I will be there soon to come homeTo run my fingers thru your hair Don’t worry I wont run away As I look into your eyes and just stare I will send my Love your way… Wrap my arms around you and hug you like a Teddy Bear I want to do that every weekday Than as I move away but yet still close Sneak a quick kiss on your nose I will send my Love your way… Lay beside you as we watch our favorite show Tell you that I Love You Because Bebe with you is where I want to stay....x0x0
Before You Came Into My Life...
My nights were cold with no one to hold...Dreamt of you numerous times...But my story was never told...All my doubts, pain and cries seem to be fading...Taking things slow because I'm still debating...Whether what you say its honesty and meaningful...Or is it just flirtatious and lustful gestures... We will have our time together and being hopeful thats all I can ask for...We will test our Love for each other... We will go beyond extreme measures...Have beautiful meaningful pleasures...Know one thing that I will cherish and never forget You or Our moments together... I will keep them profoundly within my heart to treasure.
A Soldier's Thoughts...
Tick tock tick tock is all I hear as the seconds go by from the clock Waiting to finally head back to my family & friends at home At times it’s boring I need to keep busy so that I won’t feel all alone… This is the life of a soldier keeping it real and strong Some of them make it and some just feel like they don't belong Wanting to go back to civilization But they won't Cause It's in their blood to keep moving on Head up high and proud of their duties for this country… Fighting for our peace & freedom Take a look at them they stand out in a crowd Some may fear of what’s to come Their own tears will be held within Enemies are drawing near but they certainly won't hide I am forever grateful for these men & women of honor, integrity, and pride … May God Bless you all and your family Bring you back home safely …We have you in our thoughts, and deeply in our prayers.
The Desert 2 (hard)
There is a man in the middle of the desert. He is naked. He is clutching a piece of straw. Nothing around for hundreds of miles.   How did he get there? How did he die?
The Desert ( Easy)
There is a man in the middle of the desert. He is chained to a rock. He is wearing a suit and cape. Nothing around for 500 miles.   Who is the man? How did he die?
They Are The Love Of My Life...
One of God’s precious Creations Dedicated to a good friend of mine thats in the Armed Forces for his daughters...Love Ya Lots x0x0 I am thankful for he has given me what truly Love is all about For them I would do anything even give my Life without a doubt There are no words to express my emotions They are my first thoughts when I wake up to the sunrise by the ocean They are what keeps me going strong, Happy and I’m committed to their devotions They are the Love of my Life Even if they seem afar I will be there for them wherever they are I miss their hugs, kisses, laughs and believe or not their cries Makes me frown when they are not around but I know they miss and love me so that brings me up and not down They will always be in my thoughts and deeply in my heart Because They are the Love of my Life My Precious daughters for you I am here and know that I will never depart.
Jack And Jill (easy)
Jack and Jill are lying in a pool of water. There is broken glass all around.   Who are Jack and Jill? How did they die?
All I want is for him to whisper sweet melodies in my ear, feel him gently caressing my body as he is drawing near, This is just a dream you see Because I find myself alone and tears start to run down from my eyes Is falling in Love so difficult Because I don’t seem to understand All I want is for him to talk to me and smile while he’s grabbing my hand Hold me tight Because that’s what I need at the moment and see where we stand Sorry if I’m asking for much Just wanted to hear you missing me Instead I feel empty with my heart like it’s been crushed.  
The Cabin (easy)
There is a man in a cabin. He is in the middle of writting a letter. Lighting flashes outside. He dies.   How does he die?
My Eyes...
There’s no sparkle in them...Yes they are shining, But not because they are full of life...Just signs of crying. A simple hello from made them glee, Cause for that moment you thought of me. I don’t need to meet you to know that you are the one I want to be with. There’s something in my heart and soul that tells me so, That’s good enough for me...Cause my heart has never failed me before. Always follow your heart no matter the distance ...Love will find its way down the road. To make both hearts, both souls least that’s what I was told. So take a closer look at my eyes...see the emptiness, the sadness inside. Realize that at one point... You were the one that gave them happiness...that’s now left behind.
Your Smile...
All I see in a picture of you... are these piercing dark eyes. Took a glance at your smile and though we are miles apart, That smile just opened up my heart. Just a simple thought of you... My heart feels this warmth and happiness inside. I can’t describe it, I just know that this feeling is right. Though I have never met you yet, I know that we will connect. You will see it in my eyes; you will feel it in my touch and even Sense it in my soul. I care about you and yes we are just friends. But if you let us we can be so much more. There’s something About you that captured my attention, something that makes me want To show you affection...nothing more, nothing less. One day we can put this to the test? Find that your decision you will not regret. See how things go, who knows maybe... You will give me a chance and see that I’m not here to play games or even fight. Just want to get to know you better and see that I am real. Have me close to your hips
The Rules
1. I will lay out a scenerio and that is all the information i will give you. 2. You can ask me any question you want as long as the only answer i give is yes or no. 3.Solve the mystery by thinking outside the box. 4. This is strictly for fun and the exercise of the mind.   These are murder mysteries so if you don't want to look then don't but you have been warned!!
Lets Make A Deal
You & I
It was a beautiful sunny day in May. Do you remember? We exchange notes on the 8th day. Now I can’t wait til the day when we first meet. Just to see you in front of me Mmm how sweet. I do believe in Love at first sight. Can’t wait to kiss and hold you tight. I will take you to the beach . . . hand in hand. We will talk, hug, and even play in the sand. Yes like teenagers who are in a Love crush. I would act that way cause I miss you so much. You will see that I’m not here to take you as a fool I want to please, tease and even make you drool. Let’s take things how they come. You and I will dance to the beat of the drum. If God permits you and I will become . . . us, we, even one.
How Will It Be?
This was written for a friend of mine who was in a long distance relationship...didn't know much about their romance but I  try my best to know how he felt about her :) My love as I lay upon my pillow and gaze into the light. I wonder how it will be when we first meet for the first time, Will you still love me and want to keep me close to your heart? I wonder how it will be to hold you in my arms, Will you accept me as I am and tell me that you don’t ever want to part? I wonder how it will be to kiss your soft lips, Will you in return kiss me and tell me how you want a brand new start? I wonder how it feels to touch your silky skin, Will you let me and feel the warmth deep within? I wonder how it will be to caress your beautiful face, Will you gaze into my eyes and tell me that I have filled that empty space? All I want is to see you, embrace you, kiss you and if you let me . . . make love to you at a slow pace.
I Imagine You Here Next To M E...
  I imagine you here next to me I can’t seem to get you off my mind. I imagine you here next to me as I wish to confront and tell you that you are so kind. I imagine you here next to me as I wish that I can press rewind. I imagine you here next to me as I wish that we can go a place where we can dine. I imagine you here next to me as I wish that we could gaze into each others eyes. I imagine you here next to me as I wish that I can tell you that you are so fine. I imagine you here next to me as I wish that we can caress each other wherever that will be. I imagine you here next to me as I wish to be in a place where we can sip some wine. I imagine you here next to me as I wish to make love to you in every way you like. I imagine you here next to me as I wish to take you to a place where you can be mine. I imagine you here next to me If only one day you can come to me and give me some kind of sign. As I wish and imagine you here next to me...
You Ask Me Why You?
You have what I Love in man... With your dark eyes that are so mesmerizing How I would love to see you sleep so peacefully. With your dark hair that is so shining How I would love to run my fingers thru it gently. With your scrumptious lips that are so inviting How I would love to kiss them ever so softly. With your personality that is so charming How I would love to share it with you intimately. With your smile that is so captivating How I would love to be the one to keep it there so cheerfully. With your masculine physique that is so fascinating How I would love to hug, kiss, and make love to you nightly. With your masculine sexy voice (lol) that is so pleasing How I would love to hear you laugh so loudly. With your kids that you give your unconditional loving How I would love to share my love with you & yours ...sincerely. Aren’t these great traits to find in a perfect mate? You ask me why you? I say why not you! I still anticipate with having fate... I ju
I Hate That...
I hate that you wont talk to me, I hate that we will never be. I hate that you don’t send me e-mail, I hate that this love may not prevail. I hate that I may not see you, I hate that I’m feeling blue. I hate that I am not there, I hate that this might not be forever. I hate that you wont give us a chance, I hate that you won’t let me show you true romance. I hate that I cry, I hate that you won’t believe me when I say I won’t lie. I hate that we are far apart, I hate that this pains my heart. I hate that I can’t go back in time, I hate that you may not be mine. I hate that we are two, When all I wanted was to be with you.
Patiently I Await...
A day without hearing your voice is like a morning without a sun rise, A night without seeing the moon shine so bright. Oh I pray to thee to keep you close to me, Though we are miles apart, I will keep you close in my heart. A place where its full of Love with a warm hearted soul. My heart continues to grow, With each passing day that goes. If only you knew how you make me feel, See how my face & eyes glow with glee. Someday you will realize how much you mean to me, How I long to be with you and miss you dearly. I will wait here....patiently, For the day to arrive when you & I meet. We will hug, kiss, and make Love so sweetly. No need to worry for I will be yours .....completely.  
Notice M E
Notice Me... Here I stand Waiting patiently for you to come hold my hand Trying to make you understand No need to make a demand For I am here...your wish is my command Notice Me... My heart aching from all this pain Yet my Love for you will sustain With time I know our Love can attain With our trust and strength we can obtain I promise to keep our house, our children well maintain No matter what happens in our lives...I will do my best to have our family retain Just believe in me, in us...I have nothing to lose but gain.
Lost Love...
I knew this was a great start From our first hello I didn’t want us to depart You told me that we should remain friends But why? When I know deep inside you want it to be more I’m not here to hurt you, all I wanted was to be a friend and perhaps your lover Just wanted us to explore See how love can be when two people who desire each other Two people who don’t want another Two people who belong together Just want you to know that if you were mine there will be no other I do wish you the best in love and life But I wont give up that easily without a strife Cause you are still the one I want Though it kills me to think that you found another But I guess this is just another dream of mine So as I lay here in my bed...wishing and hoping that someday he will not decline I will find my true love one day and he will know that what I say is not a line
Is It You?
We met each other online and as time went on I knew that someday you will be mine. What you needed was time to see if we entwine. I felt alone and depressed but when I heard your voice on the phone I knew that you would be someone special in my life We talked for hours and made each other moan. Lets get together and become one We can let everyone in the world know what we have become. Two people who started has strangers Two people who became friends Two hearts, two souls who are now one. I love you in many ways you’re my inspiration, my angel that was sent from above I want to be the one by your side until my dying day.
Questions 7-11-09
  Ask me ANYTHING   And for the smartasses out there, this doesn't mean type in Anything? and means ask me some friggen questions. Curious about me? Ask. Curious about the workings of nature? Ask. Curious about why you fail? Ask. Relationship advice? Ask. Just...ask something, I'm bored.
Next To You...
  A place so joyful and bright. A place to be thankful for, cause I’m holding you tight. I’ll make a special dinner for you with candlelight. All I want is things to go right. Has I dim the lights, and feel you next to me oh what a delight. Let me feel your warmth and maybe I just might. Let’s make love and not fight. It’s what I dreamed of every night. So come next to me and let me kiss you good night, and whisper sweet words in your ear until the morning light. Next to you, I know things will be alright.
Poems By M E :)
When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so true and gentle When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so different and sentimental When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so kind and sharing like mothers When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so strong and admire by others When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who’s confident and cares so much When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who loves and never judges you in such When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so sweet and never lie When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who I want for me and never want to say good bye
90's Metal Bands
Page 2 con't: a list of 90's mental bands.........     Anthrax Cannibal Corpse Cynic Dark Angel Death Deicide Disincarnate Iron Maiden Kreator Megadeth Metallica Morbid Angel Obituary Pantera Sepultura
Soul Talk
A subtle, yet compelling shift of focus is affecting our society. That shift is felt not only on an individual level but globally as well. Hungering for fulfillment and meaning, people seek the harvest of spiritual food... NOW is the moment to claim our power, the power of LOVE within.. As we respond to our desires for meaningful lives, we are enabled to respond to one another. When we choose to balance and heal ourselves, we can experience the dissolution of inappropriate patterns. In action in our lives, we can feel the freedom that comes from releasing negative thoughts and emotions. Character weakness can be replaced with the strength and courage to change the world. Healed and at peace, we are like pebbles tossed in a pond, affecting all those with whom we come in contact, inexorably and gently, in ever widening circles.... Our lives are the expression of a deep inner knowing that our very existence, each breath we take, each beat of our hearts is the manifestation of the ultimat
List Of 80's Metal Bands
I figured I'd look up the groups of the 80's perhaps there's a group missing along the music list for DJ's to check into. 80s Metal Bands AC/DCAcceptAerosmithArmored Saint AutographBad EnglishBlack SabbathBon JoviBostonBrittny FoxBullet BoysCinderellaDamn YankeesDanger DangerDef LeppardDio, Ronnie JamesDokkenDream TheatreEnuff-Z-NuffEuropeExtremeFirehouseGreat WhiteGuns and RosesIron MaidenJackylJudas PriestKing DiamondKingdom ComeKISSKixKeelKrokusLA GunsLita FordMegadethMercyful FateMetallicaMotley CrueMotorheadMr. BigNight RangerOzzy OsbournePoisonPretty Boy FloydQueensrycheQuiet RiotRattRoth, David LeeRushSaigon KickSaxonScorpionsSeduceSkid RowSlaughterSteelheartStryperTangier TeslaTriumphTrixterTwisted SisterVan HalenVixenWarrantW.A.S.P.White LionWhitesnakeWingerY & TZebra
Become A Slave/submissive
Have you ever wanted to b a submissive/slave but were scared because you didn't know how? I can help teach you if you have any questions feel fre to send me a Private Messege.
Happy Ever After
Happy ever AfterBy Madison RoseDarkest hour;cutting deep wounds...into thy own flesh;with the sharp knife of truth~Painting a bleak portrait...of thy dismantled self;scattered, dispersed,throughout eternity~Chased by the soul collector;imprisoned by thy own my lost time;on my disappointments I dine~Losing the vortex of dreams;deeper into the fog,of illusion~~ Castles and kings...happy ever after;fate and destiny...frogs turning into princes; and sitting down to wonderland~
~**Forever**~ Smacking shrill, the wood-plank winces momentarilyas it strains against that sodden-pointed burden~Bruise and bump concealed...wordlesslywaiting...intolerantlyand in a while, by greasy polish, will let slip blooming~Soon too, rough-tread leads and beats theminto little bits so scant, scuffle-dartedinto crevice-nooks...forever tether-hooked .. alonescratched and shreddedby no means to be found...those bits...consequently scarce...tear-stainedMicro-feelings~You needn't take any of itleast of all to heart...since, if I were clever...articulate...enough to envisionyou, I would spot you through that windowfaded-soft in your cut and comfortable jeans;So throw them back on … or off:I couldn't care less of such preambles~But reaching...for..somewhere...linking time pasteternal...stuck between now and then~embrace that notion now, thena longer moment, whileI navigate stardust...cross seamlesssultry seas and wait …forwaves of salient silence to washthat giddy-glared b
Child Of Darkness~~
    Child of Darkness~~ By Shannon Madison Rose child of darkness child of light...raise thy torch to illuminate the pathkindling thy flame into the abyssof the primordial void...banishing shadows from theinternal caves of thy soul~ Embraced by bliss of eternal night;enduring in thy self made dungeon...of immoral assumptions and...poisonous conscience blooming;in the dark soil of destiny~ A warriors song, a battle cry;standing brave while...hearing thy screams in the nightclaws of reality, sharp as razors;alight in the brilliant blaze,of courage found deep within,the broken parts of thyself~
                   Dreams when the sun goes down on a misty eve i feel alone but yet i am not alone i feel the spirits of those who have passed on i hear them call to me,but i am not afraid cause they help calm my mind when the veil of darkness surrounds me and i travel to places that only i can go in my mind when the sun rises in the morning hours i am back to reality i am again just another person in a world of people but in my dreams,im more im anything that i wish to be and go where i want but is life really life or are our dreams the reality of life that we dont wish to face and we just dream of living
Chatroom "winner" Of The Day
suck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: *unzips my pants*me: How lovely for you *rolling eyes smilie*suck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: It's not lovely for me. It's lovely for you cause you get to wrap your lips around it and suck like a good girlme: double ROTFLMAO smiliessuck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: maybe I have to just stuff it in your pieholeme: Maybe you need to get a life and live Am I suppose to be impressed here because quite honestly, you sound like an idiot!suck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: Oh! This coming from another chat room hero? Why don't your quit typing bullshit on the keyboard and start typing something that I can jerk off tosuck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: thats your jobsuck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: so get movingme: You wanna jerk off? Get a I'm not here for your entertainment or your wanna be jerk off Unzips my pants?! Probably don't have shit to see!me: Loser!suck_the_cum_out_of_my_hard_cock: You still trying to get my attention? Bu
This Gets Worse And Worse
This cemetary isn't too far from my house, so I drove past it today just to see. It was heartbreaking! The whole area is surrounded by Police Crime Scene tape. The side streets surrounding the cemetary are blocked off by Sherriffs, so only if you live there can you get in. Family members looking for relatives had to park about a block away and they bused them over. There were probably about 30 people being helped when we went past. The cemetary is closed to the public. Actually, another cemetary a block or so down was taped off as well. I don't know if there's any involvement at that cemetary or they just did it to keep the area free of gawkers. Overall, the cemetary appeared to be in good condition. The only really disturbing thing was there were white tents set up in several places. I don't know if these are areas that were affected or not. ALSIP, Illinois (CNN) -- A Cook County cemetery where hundreds of graves were dug up and allegedly resold has been declared a crime scene, meani
Action Lyrics
Go! I'm in love with a beauty She is a cutie Somebody say they saw us kissin' in da movies We had a drink or two We saw Rush Hour Two Then we went home and we made our own movie [Chorus:] Lights Camera Action ya dig? Lights Camera Action ya dig? It's showtime, it's showtime, show me yours show you mine [verse 1]Like OoOoOo it's goin' down in dis bitch Like a boxer in the first round in dis bitch 1-800 I would dicky down in dis bitch Uptown in dis bitch don't make a sound in dis shhhhh Now let me whisper in ya ear every single word your little ear wanna hear Flip ya body over have no fear Can I put my tongue here until you tear? Cry baby cry baby suck ya momma titty You know I like dem old I might have yo momma with me I like your girlfriend and your girlfriendses Honor my pole like a flag on da end bitch [Chorus: x2] Lights Camera Action ya dig? Lights Camera Action ya dig? It's showtime, it's showtime, show me yours show you mine [verse 2]i say ohh girl i love you sooh ohh girl i love
The Awakening By: Miss Savannah
He slowly awakes and hears her breathing deeply as they lie next to each other. He turns his head and realizes she is still sleeping. She is lying on her back, legs slightly apart; her right hand nestled under her breast, the other on her hip. He gently moves down the bed and ever so lightly begins to kiss her bare hip, working his way down her leg to mid-thigh then back up again.He continues moving his body, touching her ever so lightly so she can become accustomed to his caresses. He gently moves her legs apart as he settles in between them, slowly lowering his face into the "V" of her legs. He feels the heat emanating from her and grins to himself as he smells her womanhood. Her breathing is deep, a sure sign she is still sleeping. He slowly moves his head closer, sticking his tongue out as he gets the first taste of her for the day. She hasn't tasted better.He slowly works his tongue all over her pussy, never penetrating the folds of her lips. He wants her to get used to his tongue
Saturdays Sumthin
Bomb Deal
Stupid Encounter #12
More Fakes For The Weekend...
Check the blog below and to the left marked NSFW with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D
More Fakes For The Weekend...
More fakes amazing…right? Check out this one with the clearly altered letters in the salute… Then this one, which is retarded , then is wondering why these aren’t approved?!!? Thanks to Stewie for finding these amazing morons and passing them along….I encourage everyone to do the same. I hope everyone’s staying cool this weekend, it’s a mighty hot July out there….and I’d like to that everyone that has sent in their nominations for me to the F word, it really means a lot and it does show me who my real friends are as well as the real people of Fubar who actually care about the truth…if you haven’t already, it would mean a lot to me to get in there for a lot of reasons…the link to send the noms to is and just leave it a status comment, thanks everyone, stay cool have fun leveling and peace….
What The Hell!~
Ok whats the deal????? I was asked to get Joy some feminine pads for her monthly erm.... monthly erm thang... So I went with my oldest step-son to the store. We walked into Wal-Mart and into the hygene department and we were looking for the pads, and OMFG! a whole wall dedicated to the feminine products... I mean what the fuck! What a rag doesnt work anymore? It became rediculous, I mean my step-son at one end of the wall and me on the other using our cell phones looking for certain brand of pads! for fuck sakes what is up with these 3000 differant brands of pads! All I can say is.... Thank god Im a Man , sheeeesh W.H.  2009~
A Little Dessert Before Dinner
After a time of cuddling, you feel my hands caressing you, up and down your spine while I gaze into your eyes. I am sending you a silent message that I want to give you more. You smile saying, "what is it baby?" My eyes smile along with my full soft lips. "I think you could use some pampering, and nourishment after that love session." I lean in closer, take a nip at your lower lip and say, "be right back." I stand, knees still trembling from the rocking orgasms you gave me earlier. You see my naked body, the shape of my ass as it sways with each dainty step. I turn and look at you over my shoulder, and smile devilishly. You lay there wondering just what I am doing and how could we possibly have a marathon fuck so quickly after the last explosive moment we just shared. You rub your head, and sigh. Your cock begins to awaken, but you are so relaxed, you are unaware. I return to find you nearly asleep. I've got some warm caramel topping in a little tub, I lay it o
Me & Neesi Gettin Hitched
  Come Join Us As We Unite TogetherIn The Bonds Of Fu MatrimonyDJ Reddawg & Neesi Sunday July 12th, 20099:00 pm E.S.T. click pic to enter The Red Dragon's Realm Stop By The Lounge And Have A Drink With UsJoin And Have Some Fun!!
Come Join Us As We Unite TogetherIn The Bonds Of Fu MatrimonyDJ Reddawg & Neesi Sunday July 18th, 20099:00 pm E.S.T. click pic to enter The Red Dragon's Realm Stop By The Lounge And Have A Drink With UsJoin And Have Some Fun!!
Ok...I rarely if ever ask for help for myself.  I do consistantly ask for help for my friends tho.  I rate all my friends and family's pics,blogs,stash..i post bullys...I do what i can for whoever needs help.  With that said, i do not feel the love back.  A handful of people actually rate my stuff and/or the things of my friends/family.  I see people who have cherry bomb upon cherry bomb and they skip right over as if they are not "Fu sistas", "Family", or "Freinds".  Any of you who know me, know i don't put just anyone in my friends/family...i put people in there that are i haven't heard from u, if i havent had the favor returned of rates, if i feel that u have been fake, i am deleting.  I am not trying to be mean, i am just being honest, i dont feel we should waste our time and space on people that could care less.  For all of you that are consistently there for me and my friends/family..i luv u!!! ty so much for all ur help and i will continue to be there for u!...mua
Never Again
never again. Current mood:heart broken never again will my heart ache,never again will i see your face,never again will there be love in your eyes,never again will i feel your embrace.never again will my heart beat,never again will heart heal,never again will my life be the same,never again will your love be real.never again will i love,never again you will be mine,never again will i kiss you,never again will i be fine.never again will we be the same,never again will we enjoy what he had,never again we will be together,and never again will i be sad.
when a girl or guy you have someone keep it real be honest its the best policy you ask the question are you engaged what do you say some say yes others make up a story you watch the show cheaters you know what happens people get hurt and busted i suggest you be honest whether its relationships or other topics
I Can Haz Win?
Since Misfit downloaded 300 boob gifs and procured the win for Fubar...I downloaded 363 boob gifs. One-upmanship anyone? Me = win + 63 Misfit = -62 ptz from top win Drool, fuckers!!     Misfit no longer wins fubar
The Nuptials Of Reddawg & Neesi
  Come Join Us As We Unite TogetherIn The Bonds Of Fu MatrimonyDJ Reddawg & Neesi Sunday July 12th, 20099:00 pm E.S.T. click pic to enter The Red Dragon's Realm Stop By The Lounge And Have A Drink With UsJoin And Have Some Fun!!
He Ain't The Leavin Kind
They tried their best to drag him out Of a courthouse down in montgomery Now they want to kick him out of school And take him off our money They can take those words off of paper and stone But he aint gone, no He ain't the leavin' kind He'd never walk away Even from those who dont believe And wanna leave him behind He ain't the leavin' kind She stayed mad at him for a lot of years For taking her husband Started losing her faith and thinking that Her life meant nothin But when she looks at those kids She raised all by herself She knows she had some help Yeah she knows He ain't the leavin' kind He'd never walk away Even from those who don't believe And wanna leave him behind He ain't the leavin' kind No matter what you do No matter where you go he's Always right there With you Even from those who don't believe And wanna leave him behind He ain't the leavin' kind
Bronx Build-a-bear Toys Stuffed With Millions In Heroin
Second story today comes from the Bronx in New York. Now I have friends with little kids that love these stores, but complain about how much some of the specialty bears cost. I have to wonder how much these would go for on the street: Bronx Build-A-Bear toys stuffed with millions in heroin They don't stock this option at your local Build-A-Bear store. Authorities announced Saturday a massive heroin bust in the Bronx, where dealers were moving millions of dollars in dope inside Build-A-Bear dolls. The drugs were packaged in tiny glassine bags branded with names like Barack Obama, Swine Flu and Crime 360, a nod to a detective series on A&E. "The agents walk in and there's heroin and all the dime bags and the Build-A-Bears just sitting there," said Erin Mulvey, spokesman for the Drug Enforcement Administration. State, local and federal law enforcement officers seized 33 pounds of heroin with a street value of about $33 million and arrested 12 people on Friday. The suspects were w
I've decided to go on welfare, how do you do that?
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women today seem to be nothing but whores and liars...must be a full moon coming   /end rant
Name Change
I remember when I was gettin my green card when I was 15, I was asked if I wanted to change my name to somethin else. I said yes, to Alice Cooper, but my mom totally flipped and told the dude that no, I'm not changin my name to anythin.   Later, gettin my citizeneship when I was 22, they asked me the same qn, and I wanted a more American name. But hubby was like WTF no,lol   Should I oficially change my name (Natasha) to Russian Foxx?
Verse Cry
… I can’t see’em comin from my eyes,  I gotta make the verse cry.. can’t hold this pain staining my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry… … their she goes as I said hello my names fuego, smiles of her face ending late night convo.. thoughts of us walks in parks the talks inking in her visual, traveling huge towns.. the sights, the tours, encoring more never soar or left in frowns.. sexy, independent, intelligent intellect, own money own thoughts what man wouldn’t want that.. won’t take a dime from me, every thought of her is how it’s suppose to be… … I can’t see’em comin from my eyes, so I gotta make the verse cry.. I can’t see it coming from my eyes.. the pain it stains my heart my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry.. …time goes fast tics on the clock goes the beat of my heart, knew it from the start we’d never part.. a team, a force a loves regimen making our mark.. who’d
for some reason, asses gross me out. I dont see how butts can be hot, since they are filled with poop. ewww
.. ... controversy  copy-writes political views, staggering poetic rights leaving verses to choose.. i'll be dead awake.. i'll be alive asleep.. the arts inspires masses whole, their shell be peace.. As i share the work of an artist, smoke pass flames I’m a mental crazed versed arsonist.. threw poetics  take you places mortality glares, best believe the son sets reigning  their.. two in the chamber means spirit within me, not a ghost it's soul residing in me.. you can't see it physically though sonically it  knows me, the  subconscious relics uniquely combining me.. past  the rough, and dammed life cursing us.. threw the market labels tarring trust.. flesh and bone removed from social lust.. I’ve been their.. I was their.. was all of me.. clarity and with art proceeds the greedy movements against we.. I desire well for them you and me.. inspiration saves blood from lands.. sprit and body, and the mind I command..
I See Past
  … I see past pass, my pass passes my past in pass... should the mass mass, the masses mass pass the lives for better life… offerings… they ring bells… ring a bell or bells that pass past, passes pass problems arise amidst destiny, fate… how brutal we, I, you… them, of shallow hollows unsound… unsafe to whom and of what faith, labeled… pass past the mass passes the past for labeled tags, names, fame, earthy things slain…
Come As You Are
I had to exorcise some things out of my mind, so I went for a midnight bike ride last night and I didnt get back to big D til about 6 in the morning..I went about as far as Shreveport, LA, and turned around and came home..though I will tell you I was riding at a very high rate of speed, and thankfully I wasnt caught...I've already had one ticket on my Buell (which, is paid, I swear LOL)
My Dad
There is a pattern with my dad: whenever he gets married, he doesnt have time for me. His last wife prevented him to see me for over a year, which made me a lil pissed, moreso at him. The current one doesnt hate me, (as far as I know), but he never "has time" for me anyways. When confronted, he says I work "odd hours" (11pm to 7am), hence he can't do anythin with me. I call BS. What do you say?
Electric God Is With Us On Our Sixth Wedding Anniversary
I hope I’m not too sacrilegious with today’s title, but I wanted to encompass all that’s going on.  First, to my readers on 360, this is the last blog entry you’ll see here.  I expect you know already that Yahoo is closing its popular site on Monday and a lot of people who’ve contacted me are avoiding the rush and moving their profiles to other sites.  Including Yahoo, ironically; they’ve opened Yahoo! Profiles there and so far I’m not impressed with it, so after today you may not see me there anymore.  But that’s OK; I’ve got places on Tagged, Fubar, and Multiply going strong (though only the latter two have my blogs ongoing).  I went to 360 and got all my blogs before November 19, 2006 – the day my Multiply blog begins – because to me they’re part diary and part record of life.  Our daughter Sarah was four months old when I started to write there … wow. Martha and I celebrate our sixth wedding anniversary
The Passing Of Way Too Many In My Life
Just found out that another ex boyfriend of mine passed away on the 3rd.  I've lost 7 wonderful friends since April. That's 7 too many :-(   thought this was fitting Beatles' song "In my Life"There are places I remember All my life, though some have changed Some forever not for better Some have gone and some remain All these places had their moments With lovers and friends I still can recall Some are dead and some are living In my life I've loved them all But of all these friends and lovers there is no one compares with you And these memories lose their meaning When I think of love as something new Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life I love you more Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life I love you more In my life I love you more
Lately I'm gettin tired of swoopers. Those are people on your friends list that swoop down on occassion into the SB, say hello, then disappear. After about 5 hrs they reply to you again.   Soo...I just stopped responding to all the pointless hi's, hows it goings, etc cause its a waste of my 5 seconds :)   Not tryin to be a bitch, but why should I reply to you in a first place?
The Wireless Monopo;ly
when i had AT&T wireless, the signal every where I am, wasnt the 3G tired of it and switched to Sprint and I have much better signal. BUT the wireless device itself is the same company. Sierra wireless. the modem sucks and i have had the same problems with it, the program doesnt detect e the modem. Thats when the fun starts...uninstall the program, restart, reinstall, restart....bleh   so how was your morning?
She died of a broken heart at age 16 Smeared make-up,and sorrowful tears.Stain the beautiful face,that he had promised to love for all his years.Her eyes are bloodshot,from hours of crying.He said he was in love,but the whole time he was lying.He used her and abused her,then just walked away.Shattering her broken heart,without remorse or dismay.She no longer had any will to live,and blood quickly covered the knife.Thanks to his selfish ways,at age 16 this beautiful girl took her life
To Someone Who Crushed My World
To someone who crushed my world I began my ascent at minue zeroYou made so sure of thatYou tried to keep me down hereYour complacency has been your downfallNobody made you king of the worldAnd I'm here to dethrone youSo kiss the ring motherfuckerIt's my time, my time to shineGrasping for the straws as they fallMaybe you can make a splint for your broken egoFor your broken egoSo I say thank you for the scarsAnd the guilt and the painEvery tear I've never criedHas sealed your fucking fateWhat did you take me for, a fool?Or were you just too blind to seeThat every effort made has failedAnd there is no destroying me?Hate can be a positive emotionWhen it forces you to better yourselfYou built me, constructed my desirePerfected my hatredNow I'm driven to be ten times better than you think you areTen times better than you think you arePiece by piece I've built my wallsAnd burned the bridges downThat lead back to people like youSo full of malice, so full of scornYou tried your best to crush
Hubby is at work, so no car for me.   Should I   a) call my mom and go out with her at the expense of potentially gettin into yet another confrontation because she drives me insane?   b) lay on the dusty floor and pretend to be dead   Goin out with friends is not an option, since I dont have any friends    
I'd Love To Be Your Last
If I had it my way. This would be the first time that you made love. I'd be the first man that your hands touched. But we'd both done our share of living. Takin chances we were given. I've never been big on looking back. I don't care if I'm your first love. But I'd love to be your last. If I could do it over. I'd have waited for this moment to give my heart to you unbroken. But if our mistakes brought us together. Doesn't really matter whether, we were saints or sinners in the past I don't care if I'm your first love. I'd just love to be your last. All I know is what I see when I look at you. And all I see is what I'm feeling down inside. And all I'm feeling is the feeling that I finally got it right. When I wake up tomorrow. I'm going to throw my arms around you. Thank my lucky stars I found you. Cause I know your heart has so much more than any man has touched before that. Nothing matters more to me than that. I don't care if I'm your first love, but I'd love to be your last.
FALL Oh, look, there you go again Puttin' on that smile again Even though I know you've had a bad day Doin' this and doin' that Always puttin' yourself last A whole lotta give and not enough take But you can only be strong so long before you break So fall Go on and fall apart Fall into these arms of mine I'll catch you Everytime you fall Go on and lose it all Every doubt, every fear, Every worry, every tear, I'm right here Baby, fall Forget about the world tonight All that's wrong and all that's right Lay your head on my shoulder, and let it fade away And if you wanna let go, hunny, its okay Fall Go on and fall apart Fall into these arms of mine I'll catch you Everytime you fall Go on and lose it all Every doubt, every fear, Every worry, every tear, I'm right here Baby fall Hold on, hold on, Hold on to me Fall Go on and fall apart Fall into these arms of mine I'll catch you Everytime you fall Go on and lose it all Every doubt, every fear, Every worry, every tear, I'm right here
At The Far Ends Of Chaos...
I look yet see not but more suffering and lies; the lemmings just continue on swatting their flys. The TV turns white with fuzz as I wish for sleep; when had my life turned to counting sheep? Nearly a year ago when the world was young; I met a woman who promised a life of fun. We swooned, she swollowed and life was grand; then one day when happiest I was, she left my land. And now she sleeps with another man...
System Security Virus
OKay ladies and gents, i don't care if you can't stand me or if you are my best friend, this is info we ALL as computer users NEED to know how to get this thing OFF, because it WILL lock up ALL of your EXE changes your desktop backround to a blue one thatt is telling you that you are at potential risk for virus' and that all info that you have ever put onto your computer or browsers will be seen by malicious poses as an anti-virus/anti-spyware program with annoying popups and makes you think that the only way to get these various virus that it "finds" is by buying the program..DON'T DO IT! I had to look it up to find out how to remove it from my computer and found that many people who have been affected by this virus have done just that and have lost their money because it is NOT a real anti-virus program. It stayed on their computer and annoyed the hell out of them. {Just a side note..I run AVG on my computer and it got passed that without so much as a glitch,
Longing for a miracle that will transform your life? Miracles happen, and if we don’t want that magic to disappear on us, we need to learn from each epiphany -- to integrate it, apply it, and build on it so we can permanently shift to a new level of being. The real key to fulfillment lies in ONGOING transformation: building our awareness of daily opportunities to change our perceptions and raise our consciousness. Life is about dissolving the old and creating anew. The more we open to accepting and learning from every life experience, the more our lives transform. "Enlightenment must come little by little -- otherwise it would overwhelm." -- Idries Shah
Dan Wilkerson
On wendsday, I recieved a call from a friend of mine, Sean, that hit me like a brick between the eyes. His father has Cancer. The doctors have done all that they can and it is about quality of life, rather than length now. Friday, I went to see Dan, and was struck by the man I saw in bed. The scene was similar to when my mothers boyfreind Ed passed away. Hospital bed in the living room, his favorite music playing softly, people huddled in another room tryingt their best to comfort each other all the while battling their own pain. Dan was this. God, was he thin. All the time I had know him, he had been a robust man. In 15 years, I cant remember ever hearing him raise his voice. He was strong, in personality and physique, his cherib body decieving. And he always had a smile on his face publicly. Even when his wife passed away, he was a host, a comforting presence when iside you knew he was raging toward heaven, but grateful Nikki was no longer hurting. He was a provider. Long after Sean
Day 2
   “Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”    “Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever.”   In order for a relationship to last the trust value has to be evenly distributed.  It’s a two way venue…both has to have similar strengths in how they trust each other.  I think that one of the main forces of destruction for the value of trust someone has for the other is based on two opposing factors:  reality and imagination.  Imagination can lead to fictitious scenarios that can seem so real that they seem to betray reality.  I say if you didn’t see it first hand or you haven’t been in a situation to have doubt then why act like the action happened? 
Auctioned Off
Doing my first auction tonight 9PMest @   #1 friend, salute and 20/11 rates per day for a week...   If interested stop in..if not? stop in anyways!!!lol   xoxo
Proof   At bedtime The night before As the tinsel fell from the tree Among the scented pine needles And the angel viewed from above It was all about Santa.   The smile Was altered The result Under the pillow A tooth for a quarter
The Untimely Passing Of Jeff Goldblum
Since once again entering flash code is a pill all I can offer is this link. Worth the watch, too funny!
Why Do Men Treat Women Like Shit
Why do men treat women so badly on here, why cant they have respect for them for who they are. Am glad i was raised treat every female with respect n with love no matter how bad the treat me, Am glad not like them, i treat everyone with respect no matter what less they lie or cheat on me then yeah be ass hole! Am way different from most these guys on here, looks n age don't mean shit to me. It's the feelings you have for the person that matters the most the feelings from your heart is the most important. Not the looks or the age!  whats up these guys talking dirty, to women that some fucked up shit!! Men should have alot more respect for these gorgeous ladys if wasn't for them we all be gay! I all ways treat my friend's loved ones with respect no matter what because want to be treated the same way!
To Meet You Was My Fortune, To Love You Is My Pleasure.
Wine is better in your mouth, an “I love you” is always more tender in your voice, in your body the nights are always shorter; I am becoming sick with love.   I would like to walk your hair; I would like to make night in your skin, to think that it was all a dream and then discover you again.   It is unbelievable to love you like I would, like a man does a woman, and for you to be mine. So mine, just mine, make you part of my skin. To meet you was my fortune, to love you, o woman, is my pleasure.   I would like to drink from your breasts sunrise’s honey, my fingers explore for trails and finally reach the end of your essence.   Body to body we will slow dance, and with a love poem fuse myself in the shadow with you.
Life changes rather quickly sometimes. Sometimes one day can really change how people view things. I am excited about the changes that have happended in my life. I look forward to seeing what the future holds.
A Pure Blast!
So last night I met up with some new people from another site that I've been on for about 5-6 years.  Anyways I've got a folder (party pics more to come later) that's pics from the party.  Now I'm just giving the heads up that right now you won't see me in the pics because I'm just loading what I took with MY camera.  There's still pics from like 4 other cameras but I'm waiting on those people to upload their pics and send them to me.  Then I'll have pics of me to load but these pics will show you the type of craziness we were doing lol
What's Your Love Type?
Your Love Type: INFP The Idealist In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship. For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up. Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive. However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space. Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ What's Your Love Type?
What Aphrodisiac Are You?
You Are Vanilla You are incredibly sexy and sensual - yet still sweet and innocent. You have an exotic, mysterious vibe. You leave people wanting to know more. You know how to make lovers relax, calm down, and be vulnerable. You draw people in and make them addicted to you. You're a lot more potent than people think. What Aphrodisiac Are You?
What's Your Gift?
Your Gift is Intellect You are a big thinker, and you're always playing with new ideas. You are curious about the world. You enjoy learning and developing new theories. You enjoy researching, analyzing, and solving problems. Thinking hard feels good! You're the type of person who finds most mental tasks to be easy. You love to stretch your brain. What's Your Gift?
Just Hanging Trying To Get Stoned
looking for party buds to get stoned
Well, I'm Unemployed, Ya.
I worked a job that I loved...a lot of hours sometimes, but I loved it.  I also lost that job 4 days ago.  I was told that there was an overall "reduction in workforce," and unfortunately, there were 3 others in our 2 local branches that lost their jobs as well.  Yeah, I spent the first 2 days on the couch going through kleenex like air, but I think this morning I have a fresh perspective on things.  Maybe this is the time to finish my RN, maybe even go on for a Bachelors' or Masters' degree?  I even thought about a degree in Emergency Management.  Not sure...but I guess in looking at it now, it's more of an opportunity.  I'm going to get my printer working and submit some stories for never know.  I guess I just wanted to make sure you all knew...when one door closes, another opens.  Never look at it as an ending, but a new beginning.  I've marked this as NSFW because, well, let's face it...this is Fubar after all, there will be some assmunch that will inevitably leave
Now Hiring All!! Lounge Immediate Assistance/membership Needed
OK Friends,  and Fubar Members... I am Looking for any assistance that I can receive. I  currently own four lounges. All four are in need of staff members, as well as regular visiting members. I would like for anyone interested in helping with any of, or all of my lounges to please contact me ASAP by Private Message.  I have a primary person who wants to DJ, I need some assistants for that person, as well as someone who can help us find a program that will work. I need people to help with promoting the lounges better than I can by myself. I need the bouncers, and lounge control people. Please check them out anytime you like. I have one for NASCAR Fans, one for Motorcycle riders, one for Firefighters, and one for EMT/Paramedics/Rescue people. Thank you very much for your time, I look forward to hearing from you. Branwei Lounge Owner!!!!
Wisdom From The Tom Cat
Gentle Thoughts for Today -  Birds of a feather flock together . . . .and then crap on your car.A penny saved is a government oversight.The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat have gotten to be really good friends.The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement .He who hesitates is probably right.Did you ever notice: The Roman Numerals for forty (40) are  XL.'If you think there is good in everybody, youHaven't met everybody.   If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in mind to blame.The sole purpose of a child's middle name is so he can tell when he's really in trouble.There's always a lot to be thankful for if you take time to look for it.  For example I am sitting here thinking how nice it is that wrinkles don't hurt.Did you ever notice: Whe
The Silver Rose
When one is the wife of a Army service member and this member has been deployed twice, the wife gets a silver double rose pin. She gets this for their Gratitude and Respect during those tough times. I am not a military wife or GF to anyone at this moment. but I used to be a Marine fiancee. Ever since I lost my loved one I supported the troops. This couple(of which husband is in Army) I recently started to get to know gave me this pin because they believed I deserve it for all i have done and will do for active service members of my own country and of the US. Thank you D and R. YOUR RAWK!!!
About Me
I am new to this but I am true to this so give me some time and I will blow up really quick.
My Brother Tim(666mr.crowley)
  My brother Tim was a member of fubar you can still see his page(666Mr.Crowley) it hasn't been taken down.  He committed suicide on May 4th.  I didn't find out till the elventh after the funeral.  The medical examiners report says that he shot himself in the chest with a handgun at his home in mansfield.  He died a little bit later at the hospital.  He had contemplated suicide a lot he had some mental issues that really made life hard for him.  He had also lost what was the love of his life a girl named Breanna.  She had been horribly tortured and killed.  This destroyed Tim and also left him very paranoid that they would come for him next, even though they weren't.    Needless to say he constantly felt guilty, he believed that he should have been able to save her even though we all know he couldn't.  He was cremated and his ashes will be placed at a family plot in seymour Texas.   I felt the need to write this so that instead of repeatedly explaining things, which was very hard for
Time to turn the page,to re-arange the stage,at your given pace, in this day and age, onlyyou know what to create.Forget about the past,its already happend, moments may not last,treasure what you have,it gos so fast.If a mistake was made,step out of the sun, and walk in the shade, tomorowis another day, see what happens when you press play.
You know the place for shoes, were there is plenty to choose, all sizes and shapes, no matter how your foot is shaped.Welcome to stompers footwear,were we will look afteryour feet, and give yourfoot a treat.Come in and accessorise,with our foot branded franchise, will caterfor your needs, for whatgos on your feet.
Life On Paper
As it happend,or is it forseen,this is what lifeas to offer, this is no dream.Life iis scripted before it goesto screen,day by day, real life, believe it,this it whatyou see.Written by the penwhats my savior,its happening now,life on paper.
Dancing In The Stars
Suzuki cars and jeeps,my song, my beat, its RnB, on the dancefoor,me at the bar, were thedrinks are cheap.Come 17th June, you will be singing this tune,written especially for you,from Sammy and Rachel,big sister and best mate,to.Have a good 19th, nolonger in your teens,just remember how goodthings are, when youredancing in the stars.
A Fairwell Poem
You are ready for departure,leaving us soon, no longer a marketing assistant, took it asbad news. The streets are going to be safer now that you around, no baton necessary, as the new pcso, none frontline, around town. What is left is an empty chair,who is your replacement? Themanagement are in despair, my final wishes are good luckand take care
In da house, yeah, what you got,fireman and hoes, bling and gold,walking the streets, sexy femalesto meet, no surrend no retreat,this is Beeb.Will pimp your ride, give it bodyworkand style, my touch your drive, walking the laps, taking no crap, meand my homees, you will get it straight back.Drugs and smack, whats up withdat, having none of that, cansmell a rat.With me and my boys, there is onlyone choice, listen to the voice, feelthe noise.
Love, Lust, Life, Beautiful
Love is commitment,what you share witheach other, only onewill do, they can neverbe, with another.Lust is what I crave,can not hold onto this passion, what I getfrom you, an insensation,be brave.Life as its path, what Iwant, what I dream of,stearing the way, norehearsal, no replay.Beautiful to me, what I want, what I see, its onlyyou and me, I believe.
This is the one forYou that I write,I can not stop thinkingof us, When I gazeinto Your eyes.Enjoying are timeTogether, want itTo last for eternity,Forever.You have captured myHeart, my soul, feelingsI have are completelyWhole.
Feel alone when yourNot here, miss youSo bad, want you toBe near.It is great that I feelLike this, because withYou I commit.It's hard being seperated,And apart, to you, whoHave captured my heart.
        Sunrise   Sunrise Soft light Simplicity Sensitivity Sensuality Sexuality Spontaneity Sufficiency Sunrise   poet
Pass You By
Dont let the momentgo by, might miss achance, and seeemotions run dry.You know who she iswhen heaven and earthcollide, the furure awaits,dont let it pass you by.
Live For The Moment
Live for the moment, it may nevercome again, theres onle one chance at doing it, without regretand torment.Try to make it as happier, as canbe, with a partner or loved one,or who ever you want to be with.One chance there is, for a life tolive, this is the moment, to careand commit.
Tell Bout Me
Stalkers herestalkers therestalker follows me everywhereblocked him on yahoorun him off hereHe pops up againand i dont really careHe thinks i dont see himits plain as dayHes looking for his next victimthat he can playHe is demandinghe crys like a bi**chhe wonders why ppl dont like himhe needs to stop being a snitchI hope he reads thisand really understandsthat being a stalker is theworse in the land.Cry me a riverstalk someone elsehope she is readyfor your selfish BS
The Diff (rf Joke)
whats the diff between MJ and Peter Pan?   Peter Pan had a child in him
Makes You Say Hmmm...
This is written by a young soldier serving his third tour of duty in Iraq. Thought you might find his take on the Michael Jackson news interesting and he's right. Okay, I need to rant. I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson.. As we all know, Jackson died the other day. He was an entertainer who performed for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things that make him a villian to many people. I understand that his death would affect a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't the point of my rant. Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN people, the Amercian people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood, and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing? Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and al
Prayers For Zachary Lane
Spotlight Fund! Means Alot To Me.
I have been craving that spotlight since I started on fu.I would loooove so much if I could get it.I can only get it on wednesday's since I am above level 25.   Please! Please! If you can spare any fubucks I will be more then appreciative.Anyone who donates over 1 million will recieve one safe for work salute from me.Can I do this?   I believe that with the awesome friends I have I'll be able to get spotlight.Help a girl out?   If not I will have to cut off all your heads.=) J/k J/k.
 A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at theappropriate point in the process, she told him that he would now need toenter a password.  Something he could remember easily and will use eachtime he has to log on. The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figuredhe would try for the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention. Sowhen the computer asked him to enter his password, he made it plainlyobvious to his wife that he was keying in........         P...       E...       N...       I...       S...       His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied:      ***PASSWORD REJECTED. NOT LONG ENOUGH***
Solitary~existing Alone
i look around 4 uur not therei call 4 uu do not answeri wish 4 uu do not cumi even rub a lamp 4 unothingcan u feel mecan u feel my lonelinesscan u understand my sadnesscan u feel my solitarinesssolitaire is a game I playbut not a life i want
O Horten
If you like a film what is in Norwegian, in which a train driver retires, and then misses his last train-run, and buys a new pipe, and visits his mum, and has some export lager in a restaurant, and goes swimming late at night, and decides not to sell his boat, and meets a really weird drunk guy whose fridge is broken, and this is all done with an other-worldly sense of abusrdist whimsy, and almost gets a bit too weird near the end, but then it's okay when it finishes, then you're probably the sort of person who would enjoy 'O Horten' which I saw last night. Yeah, obscure European cinema.  On a Friday night out.  I'm ten times more cultured than you will ever be.  Be impressed.
Me On Me
stayin as high as i can in life
Signs Of Blood Clots & Stroke
Blood  Clots/Stroke - They Now Have a Fourth Indicator,  the Tongue     STROKE: Remember  the 1st Three Letters.... S. T. R.     STROKE  IDENTIFICATION:   During a BBQ, a friend  stumbled and took a little fall - she assured  everyone that she was fine (they offered to call  paramedics) .she said she had just tripped over  a brick because of her new shoes.
There was a buncha guys at the show, huge muscleheads with their shows off. And it made me realize how much I hate meatheads. I doubt there was an ounce of brains in their heads, and I just hate those self absorbed idiots that spend hours at a gym.   For some reason, lately I like short dudes too. Maybe I should just fuck em all?   gdammit, Im out to Walgreens for milk. What I'm wearing? a bright pink Enforcer shirt, green cut offs, and green flipflops. Mavelous
One day at work a sparrow fell out of his nest and I took him home to try and save him. I knew the odds were very unlikely that I would be able to help him. He was almost ready to fly. I took him home and the first thing I did was to get him to drink lots of water. I think I read somewhere that is one of the greatest dangers for a bird is dehydration. I took him to the sink and let little drops of water fall off my finger onto his beak. He didn’t know what I was doing at first but he figured it out and started drinking a lot. It seemed to help him. I then took little bits of raw hamburger meat and rolled it up into tiny balls and stuffed it down his throat. I did this for a couple weeks. It was hardest on him when I would go to work because he would have to go 8 hours without food or water. So in the mornings before I left I would stuff him. I decided to buy him a cage and some seed. I put him in the cage and showed him the seed and after a few times he figured it out. He started
Food From God
This is very interesting...... It's been said that God first separated the salt water from the fresh, made dry land, planted a garden, made animals and fish..... all before making a human. He made and provided what we'd need before we were born. These are best and more powerful when eaten raw. We're such slow learners... !!! God left us great clues as to what foods help what part of our body! God's Pharmacy! Amazing! A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... and YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes. A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All of the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food. 
Fallen Angel
  A Fallen Angel She walks with her broken wings,Knowing that she wont be able to fly. She carries her shatter heart,Knowing that it will never be put back together.He has destroy her once more.When will she learn, he is no good.Its always the same She believes what he said. Gives him her heart, And opens her wings.Only to let it shatter in a million pieces, And for her wings to break.Her happiness is no more.Her trust has slowly faded into the night,Along with herself.All she knows now is to be broken.Her will to live has fade as well She cant believe he broke her againMaybe one day she will learn.She is now one of the fallen She will no longer will fly She will no longer love or be loved For she had to learn her lesson She should of never had let him get to her.For now she is the fallen angel.
Fallen Angel
  A Fallen Angel She walks with her broken wings,Knowing that she wont be able to fly. She carries her shatter heart,Knowing that it will never be put back together.He has destroy her once more.When will she learn, he is no good.Its always the same She believes what he said. Gives him her heart, And opens her wings.Only to let it shatter in a million pieces, And for her wings to break.Her happiness is no more.Her trust has slowly faded into the night,Along with herself.All she knows now is to be broken.Her will to live has fade as well She cant believe he broke her againMaybe one day she will learn.She is now one of the fallen She will no longer will fly She will no longer love or be loved For she had to learn her lesson She should of never had let him get to her.For now she is the fallen angel.
dilemma...     I have nothing to drink here, and I REALLY need milk for my cereal. Should I lift up my lazy fuckin ass and go to Walgreens down the road?   I am so lazy right now *cries   and there is something moldy in my trash, which is making me suffocate here
4 Bidden Present
4 Bidden Present       he jus called. it's almost my birthday! most times we jus cuddle n watch movies bringin n New Year's/ My Birthday with Dick Clark. Ok we start out watchin movies or Dick but after the first 10 minutes snuggle closer cuz i'm always cold. he becums a baby n starts sucking my nipple. sucs so hard i no milk is gonna squirt out. but tonight he tells me to get dressed. hmmm.....wat should i wear? It's winter here but no snow but its gonna get cold tonight. i'll work that out later after i take my long bath. I have my pet run my water n add the bubble think i try Mango got da body butter for Christmas. i get n it's soooo nice so relaxing. I lay my head back. seems like few minutes later but i no it had to b longer the water has started to cool. i can hear something can feel sum 1 standin ova me. i jerk my eyes open. o... its jus one of my pets. she wants to play. i tell her i can't play i gotta get dressed. she goes over to her mat n sits down.
The Show
Soo, hubby and I just came back from the metal show in Wisconsin, where 12 bands were playing. There were 3 bands playin at the same time in diff rooms. WTF? I hate when they do that shit...But I got to see Ensiferum from Finland and Necrophagist. ANd now I have a nice huge bruise on my arm, a busted toenail, and a mild head concussion from headbutting someone by acident.   The venue (The Eagles Ballroom) gives away free concert tickets in the end of their shows (last time I got Megadeth and Slayer tix, it was pretty fuckin sweet). So now I have  Korn tix, Hollywood Undead, Sick Puppies, and somethin else, 8 tix each. And I wanna give them away instead of throwin them in the trash.   PS I discovered that my right ear is lower than my left one.
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With the enormity of the situation apparent in his face as he spoke, Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart on Friday evening declared the historic Burr Oak Cemetery in Alsip a crime scene and closed off public access to it immediately. "While we understand the demand for information, we just can't jeopardize a crime scene, and it's becoming clear there are potential crime scenes littered throughout this cemetery," Dart said. He offered a number of examples to illustrate the magnitude of the situation, telling how a family went out looking for 10 family members on Friday and couldn't find a single one; how a headstone for a military veteran was apparently paid-in-full 17 years ago but never seen; how entire portions of gravesites were completely missing from a section of the cemetery; and how the company had no record of people buried there when their family members were certain they were. Earlier in the day, Dart had sought a temporary restraining order to stop new burials, but later dropped
Sick A$$ People
This is truly sickening. There are several people my mom works with that have been affected by this. One lost her son when he was ten years old. His was one of the graves affected. She said it was like losing him all over again. Another woman went to check on her grandmother. Nothing but a hole. Another went to check on her parents...there were different headstones in place. July 10, 2009 (ALSIP, Ill.) (WLS) -- Thousands of people have come to the cemetery since Wednesday looking for answers about that happened to their loved ones.We know the soul rests in peace. The desecration of bones though is criminal neglect. That's why this place should be closed down the it's a crime scene until there is a reorganization of the books," said Tyron Page whose mother was buried at Burr Oak. Thousands of families are waiting for word on their loved ones remains. ABC7 talked with some of those families on Friday. As many as 300 bodies have been removed from their graves at the historic African-Am
Creepy Old .....
So there is this boy living with his dad. In the park I and my fam reside. Who has taken great intrest in my boy. claiming that there "friends". My boy tells me that he just follows him n his friends around. Talking with my son n his Real friend, an looking at the F.B.I.'s website, this person has shown sighns of predietory grooming traits. I also need to say that my boy was 14 when we moved in, now he is 16. I have told my boy n his real friend that this man, who's now 36, is bad news! And if he comes tword them, to run back home. So that we will call the cops an file a restraining order. GRRRR  
Questions 7-10-09
  Ask me ANYTHING     And for the smartasses out there, this doesn't mean type in Anything? and means ask me some friggen questions. Curious about me? Ask. Curious about the workings of nature? Ask. Curious about why you fail? Ask. Relationship advice? Ask. Just...ask something, I'm bored.
The Want
How something can grab you control you demand... Push you to limit, push forth your hand... Modest it is for it does not even ponder... Growing by virtue, you start to grow fonder... Pulling directions you don't wish to go... Uncovering things you hoped wouldn't show... Desperate it is, grabs the slightest chance... Heart starts racing the next time to dance... Hearing my voice screaming so loud... My sounds are silenced the thickening cloud... Starts at my head I' ve lost all control... Feel it poison my insides and even my soul... Weakening body not feeling so strong... Sacrificing the knowledge of right and wrong.... Desire it has to weaken my thoughts... Runs through my head with its words its taunt... Trying to get me to that one state of mind... Come take me now and fun you will find... It does not take much I let go in a hurry... Not even to care that it's me that I bury... Eric Garcia copyright 2008
Support Our Troops Train
fuck auf die Menschen hier alle Homosexuell Deutschland ist so ein besseres Land. Scheiße und die Vereine sind die scheißt
Far Away
The meaning of life is yet to end..... To leave behind your love and friend...... To walk Alone through the rough of times.... And never hear the church bell chime..... Those whom wait to hear the bell..... Will find himself burned in hell..... Approaching the darkness stripped of sight..... Will learn that's still the least of fright..... Some will run and disappear..... To be cut off by their biggest fear..... Now I know it's time to die..... As I find my life a shameless lie...... To speak of times I never knew..... To speak of times that I out grew..... To walk alone in the midst of the night..... Searching for the forgotten light..... I try to speak, I speak out loud ..... As I lie, deep in the ground..... No one hears, no reply ..... Now I know, I was born to die ........ Copyright ©2006 Eric Robert Garcia
My Theme Song
So sick of the hobos always begging for change I don't like how I gotta work and And they just sit around and get paid I hate all of the people who can't drive their cars. Bitch you better get outta the way Before I start falling apart I hate how my wife is always up my ass She always wants to buy brand new things But I don't have the cash. I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! How come I never get laid, nice guys always lose. How could she have another headache There's always some kind of excuse I still hate my job, my boss is a dick "I don't get paid nearly enough To put up with all of his shit" I hate my job, all of my rich friends I hate everyone to the bitter end. Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight I hate my life! Yeah! I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage, You know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass, Then her daddy punches me in the face So if
Your Screams
Crumbling silence, this awakening cloud... All has shaken, even the ground... From distant sight you feel it appear.... Filling in with dark, what was once clear... Running to beat it, but loosing your edge.... As you dodge all the smoke and stay clear of the ledge... How weak you are to this growing power... You hope you can make it through the next hour... Then the screams, the echoing call... It controls all your efforts, to your knees you fall... As it approaches, you can't raise your head... You can't think for yourself because now you are led.... Led by this evil that won't show its face.... This evil that clawed its way into your space... This battle from outside it has chose to begin... But now the real fight starts from with-in.... Ripping and tearing at all your life’s choice... You hear the screams, But now in YOUR VOICE.... Eric Garcia copyright 2008

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