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Lonliness
I need to get this out.. My heart is aching more than usual... Or then again maybe it's just now that i am allowing myself to feel what is hurting me... I miss my friend my sister!!! My poor nephew who was so young leaving this world... I don't know why i am writing this blog.. Maybe i just need to write what i feel so i don't have to keep it locked up inside anymore... My Family I can't talk to about anything cause if i do it makes me weak... I don't think of myself as weak just a very emotional person and i don't see anything wrong with showing emotion.. I do everything for everyone else but never take time for myself.. It's getting harder and harder to hide my tears... They are flowing as i write this blog right now... I just wanna get everything out so i don't have to feel this pain anymore... But I know that will not happen because It's something that can never change... MY sister will always be gone as well as my nephew!! If anyone wants to help me figure out anoth

The Lucky Postman
It was the mailman's last day on the job after 35 years of carrying the mail through all kinds of weather to the same neighborhood. When he arrived at the first house on his route he was greeted by the whole family there, who congratulated him and sent him on his way with a big gift envelope. At the second house they presented him with a box of fine cigars. The folks at the third house handed him a selection of terrific fishing lures. At the fourth house he was met at the door by a strikingly beautiful woman in a revealing negligee. She took him by the hand, gently led him through the door, and led him up the stairs to the bedroom where she blew his mind with the most passionate love he had ever experienced. When he had had enough they went downstairs, where she fixed him a giant breakfast, eggs, potatoes, ham, sausage, blueberry waffles, and fresh squeezed orange juice. When he was truly satisfied she poured him a cup of steaming coffee. As she was pouring, he

Fettish Club
i was with my friends this last passed weekend and i found myself headed to a club. im not really the club type but since i wasnt driving a decided to go along with it specially since i knew we would have to leave shortly because we were also having a house party... any way it turned out to be a fettish club i guess. women were dressed in dominatrix clothing with just tape across their nipples. the most interesting site i have eva seen. in the upper level was the vip lounge. there was this guy doing things to women and it made them go wild. one of the tools he used was a black glove.. i dunno what else this glove did but when he tapped the women she seemed to orgasm. im not even sure if he touch here. i have soo many question but the next onewont be for weeks and i wont be here bleh maybe some of you kinky people know what that guy was doing

Bubba
Bubba went to a psychiatrist. " I've got problems. Every time I go to bed I think there's somebody under it. I'm scared. I think I'm going crazy." "Just put yourself in my hands for one year," said the shrink. "Come talk to me three times a week, and we should be able to get rid of those fears." "How much do you charge?" "Eighty dollars per visit, replied the doctor." "I'll sleep on it," said Bubba. Six months later the doctor met Bubba on the street. "Why didn't you ever come to see me about those fears you were having?" asked the psychiatrist. "Well Eighty bucks a visit three times a week for a year is an awful lot of money! A bartender cured me for $10. I was so happy to have saved all that money that I went and bought me a new pickup!" "Is that so! And how, may I ask, did a bartender cure you?" "He told me to cut the legs off the bed! - Ain't nobody under there now !!!"

Another Use For Duct Tape...aaahahahahaaaaaaaahahahah
This is mega funny cuz my ex-hubby's name is Paul and he loves his duct tape....makes me wonder things about him even more now...aaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahaaaaahahah. Jeff walks into a bar and sees his friend Paul slumped over the bar. He walks over and asks Paul what's wrong. "Well," replies Paul, "you know that beautiful girl at work that I wanted to ask out, but I got an erection every time I saw her?" "Yes," replies Jeff with a laugh. "Well," says Paul, straightening up, "I finally plucked up the courage to ask her out, and she agreed." "That's great!" says Jeff, "When are you going out?" "I went to meet her this evening," continues Paul, "but I was worried I'd get an erection again. So I got some duct tape and taped my penis to my leg, so if I did, it wouldn't show." "Sensible" says Jeff. "So I get to her door," says Paul, "and I rang her doorbell. She answered it in the sheerest, tiniest dress you ever saw." "And what happened then?" (Paul slumps b

Everyone Gets 10s!!!
So people on this site are way too sensitive... Or at least some are... I was bored so went into that stupid I'm bored... section. Yea, well... It seems if you're bored you better rate everyone 10s while in there... For I didn't. Seems people can't handle a lower score which I'm thoroughly confused about. I got screamed at by some woman saying you dont get points for a 7. Well, I'm sorry I dont think you look like a 10. Hell! I dont think I look like a ten! For once I felt like being honest and rating poeple how they looked to me... But I guess this was wrong cuz this woman bitched me out and blocked me. Normally I'd just let it roll off my back but this time I'm writing this first.... Then I'll probably head to bed and never think of the woman again... I just wanna know if you only get points for 10s... If you're supposed to rate everyone a 10 no matter what you think... Why the fuck do they have 1-9? I mean I know I take more from a person commenting than rating cuz

Girls Vs. Women
Girls leave their schedule wide open and wait for a guy to call and make plans. Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits in. Girls want to control the man in their life. Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling. Girls check you for not calling them. Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't. Girls are afraid to be alone. Grown women revel in it...using it as a time for personal growth. Girls ignore the good guys. Grown women ignore the bad guys. Girls make you come. Grown women make you come home. Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man. Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man. Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e, don't want him hanging with his friends). Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special...and goes to kick it with her own friends! Girls think a guy

Contests - I Need Your Help!!
This is the first contest I entered EVER! So please go rate my photo? I'd love to win the million dollar mansion! LOL Thanks much love! I AM OFFICIALLY THE SECOND SEXIEST CHERRY! LOL It's ok, I'm still a winner!

Basically A Wtf!
Just recently I read a "joke" about the death of common sense. As I have watched different things over the last week or so, it has made me realize, that it is not so much a joke. Has also made me ponder a few other things... First.. Marriage.. Monogomy.. Respect.. Committment.. all falling into a nice little pie. I met an older couple the other day at the hospital and they had been married almost 55 years. Amazing!!! It is amazing in the fact that in todays world, marriage for that long is almost unheard of, first off.. secondly, they are not marriages with respect or committment anymore. They are for the convenience of never being alone. As I watched this couple leave I thought of so many people I have "met" or have known and where their relationships are. They will never make 55 years, thats for sure. They are always looking for that "better" bed partner.. healthier partner.. richer partner.. What ever happened to "in sickness and in health" or "for richer or poorer".

Lust Mate
I knocked on Lenorah’s door wondering what sight I would be greeted with this time. She put the V in voluptuous and I couldn’t wait to see how she had adorned her 44-28-50 frame on this evening. For those of you who think fine women only wear a size five I beg to differ. Lenorah had a flighty personality. She was the type of female who was always looking for something new and exciting to do and she would often leave town at the last minute for a trip to the West Indies or a gig with her band. She continually pressed me for a committed relationship but what she really wanted was a man who would meet her every whim when she decided that she wanted to be in town. I didn’t play that shit but I strung her along just enough so that I could hit it. I know it was wrong but it was a lust thing and I had to have what she had to offer. Lenorah opened her door and Sergio immediately got hard as he always did in her presence. She wore a frilly white blouse with a plunging v-cut

Pregnant Turkey
I can't believe that some people are this gullible. One year at Thanksgiving, my mom went to my sister's house for the traditional feast. Knowing how gullible my sister is, my mom decided to play a trick. She told my sister that she needed something from the store. When my sister left, my mom took the turkey out of the oven, removed the stuffing, stuffed a Cornish hen,and inserted it into the turkey, and re-stuffed the turkey. She then placed the bird(s) back in the oven. When it was time for dinner, my sister pulled the turkey out of the oven and proceeded to remove the stuffing. When her serving spoon hit something, she reached in and pulled out the little bird. With a look of total shock on her face, my mother exclaimed, "Patricia, you've cooked a pregnant bird!" At the reality of this horrifying news, my sister started to cry. It took the family two hours to convince her that turkeys lay eggs! Yep..................SHE'S BLONDE

The Big Picture
Excerpts from Seneca Wisdomkeeper Edna Gordon's VOICE OF THE HAWK ELDER: ~*~ I BELIEVE in another world, a better world. I believe in many worlds, as many worlds as there are places to put'm in all of Creator's Creation. ~ Creation's much much bigger than we think. It's so big the whole sky full of stars is just a tiny part of it. ~ Creation's not just out there-- it's here inside of ourselves, too. Each one of us IS a universe. Every molecule, every atom is a Universe, a World with still other Worlds inside o' that. That's how Creation IS! It's so big in so many ways you and I can't even dream of it all. ~ BE A SHARER, be a giver, be a helper and the whole of Creation opens up around and over you, like an Umbrella Tree. All of Creation is like an Umbrella Tree we live under--really, inside of, 'cause we ourselves our part of it! ~ That's the most wonderful thing of al

I Could Be Your Addict
One hit and I could be hooked, you could be my drug leave me wanting you, a constant desire in my mind, Left in a haze, a lovely numbness could surround me, One OD I couldn't resist,I could be your addict...

True Friendship
"True Friendship" (With none of that Sissy Crap!!!! ) Are you tired of those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley faces on this card-Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship. 1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad. 2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3. When you smile -- I will know you finally got laid. 4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get. 5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining. 6. When you are confused -- I will use little words. 7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want to catch whatever you have. 8. When you fall

"hotrodguy"
I met "hotrodguy" pretty much right after joining CT and am very thankful for such a good friend. He is a very kindhearted, good friend who is always there when I want to chat, whether just to say HI or to ask for advice. It was kind of funny actually, when we first started talking because I had just blocked someone that was bothering me from CO and of course, poor hotrodguy thought that it was him since he too is from CO. Well, needless to say that it was not him that I was upset about and there it went from there. lol Hotrodguy is definitely into his Hotrod's and has some great photos! He also has his very own Hotrod and it is definitely a HOT one! :) I have always been a fan of Hotrod's and have not only been to quite a few shows but was a judge too. :) If you want to meet someone who can chat with ya about Hotrods or just want to stop, say Hi and check out his pics, please do! Now, I have to tell you that he is a little shy until he gets to know you but with some time, he pro

Divorce - Polish Style
A Polish man moved to the USA and married an American girl. Although his English was far from perfect, they got along very well until one day he rushed into a lawyer's office and asked him if he could arrange a divorce for him -- "very quick." The lawyer said that the speed for getting a divorce would depend on the circumstances, and asked him the following questions: LAWYER: "Have you any grounds?" POLE: "JA, JA, acre and half and nice little home." LAWYER: "No," I mean what is the foundation of this case?" POLE: "It made of concrete." LAWYER: "Does either of you have a real grudge?" POLE: "No, we have carport, and not need one." LAWYER: "I mean, What are your relations like?" POLE: "All my relations still in Poland." LAWYER: "Is there any infidelity in your marriage?" POLE: "Ja, we have hi- fidelity stereo set and good DVD player. " LAWYER: Does your wife beat you up?" POLE: "No, I always up before her." LAWYER: "Is

9-11 Video
Note: The video of 9-11 contains some graphic footage. It lasts about 10 minutes and someone has obviously spent a great deal of time assembling it. Regardless of political viewpoint, it should serve as a reminder never to forget. Music by Enya. http://www.olivetreeviews.org/topics/movies/attack.html

Such A Long Day
Ya know, at first I thought would be a good day. OH man was I wrong. Well, no matter how harsh things seem to get in my own effed up life, world events always seem to put these minor issues into perspective. Mah prayers go all the families and friends of those killed at VT. So today I drink to them.. "Here is to those, Let us drink this toast Of those that were lost by another distraught Let us raise our glasses with tears in our eyes N hold that their memories forever live inside" Prost, Cheers n drop that 40

To All My Friends...."thanks For Your Time"
THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME. (ONCE YOU READ THIS YOU WILL UNDERSTAND) A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door. It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him. Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday." Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days. "Jack, did you hear me?" "Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said. "Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'

Another Gracious Thank You . . .
I wanted to thank all of my friends for the support again while I am dealing with another tragic death amongst my friends. I don't know if I would class it as luck, but when out with friends on Friday night, Chay was posing for pics . . . only hours before she decided to take her own life. Am I surprised that you bleached out your hair to platinum before checking out of this flea bag of a motel called life? Nah . . . It was your way of doing things . . . Again, all I am left with is memories . . yes, that is selfish, but you know what, taking your own life was selfish and I have a right to be angry with you!!!!! You had it all, and unfortunately, none of us will ever know why you did this . . . You could have talked to any of us . . . You could have picked up the phone and called me . . . Yes, you were far away, but I was always here for you!!! You could have hoped back on a plane and flew back home . . . I guess, AGAIN, I am left

The Health Benefits Of Hydrogen Peroxide
This is interesting... The Health Benefits of Hydrogen Peroxide "I would like to tell you of the benefits of that plain little old bottle of 3% peroxide you can get for under $1.00 at any drug store. My husband has been in the medical field for over 36 years, and most doctors don't tell you about peroxide, or they would lose thousands of dollars." 1. Take one capful (the little white cap that comes with the bottle) and hold in your mouth for 10 minutes daily, then spit it out. (I do it when I bathe.) No more canker sores and your teeth will be whiter without expensive pastes. Use it instead of mouthwash. (small print says mouth wash and gargle right on the bottle). 2. Let your toothbrushes soak in a cup of "Peroxide" to keep them free of germs. 3. Clean your counters, table tops with peroxide to kill germs and leave a fresh smell. Simply put a little on your dishrag when you wipe, or spray it on the counters. 4. After rinsing off y

The Auditorium
After dinner I changed and headed off to the auditorium. He was waiting there for me. We went inside. There was no work that needed to be done so we just sat there talking and laughing for a while. Then he kissed me. I just melted into his arms. He laid me down on some pillows that were on the floor of the stage. He kissed me deeper and more passionately than before. He ran his fingers through my hair and I could suddenly hear some light, romantic country music. I smiled. He rested his hands on my waist and just looked into my eyes. We made some sort of connection then because when he kissed me again, I felt my stomach flutter. We kissed and held each other. He slowly started to move his hand towards my breasts. he said "if you want me to stop, just tell me to stop." He kissed my neck and slowly unbuttoned my shirt. He kissed down to the "v" of my chest and stopped. He opened my shirt and traced his finger down frommy neck to my breasts. He kissed me deeply while he

Sleeping Disorder
I seriously think I have a sleeping problem. Every night, no matter how little sleep I get the night before I still cant go to sleep until about 3 AM. And it is sooo fristaring becaue my mind says I am sleepy but my body won't respond. It is fristrating because I only get about 4 hours of sleep every night before my son wakes and he wakes up at 7 AM like clock work. So now I am up and tired but I cannot let him run around the house unsupervised. He is a good child...save from the potty training....and I know he won't cause trouble, but I know as soon as I let my guard down is when he will hurt himself doing something or worse. I am constantly falling asleep at work...tho I never get caught but that is still not right. And i know that the reason I have had a bad attitude lately is due to lack of sleep, but I still cant get a goodnights rest. I need to see a specialist!

I Want To Thank
All Of My Friends In Which Has Helped Me Threw-Out This Contest,,, Names #1 Skye, Green Eyes With 42 DD's , Chez ,Papa Daddy, Chuck, M&M, Kevin And A Few Others. If It Wasn't Fer You Guys I Wouldn't Be Where I'm At Now,, I Know It's Not The Best Tattoo In The World However It's Mine And I'm Damn Proud Of It... Remember If Theres A Time You Ever Need Me Fer Something Please DO NOT (HESITATE) To Ask Cause I Will Be There!!! (((I Love You All An Thanks Again Fer Everything)))

This Is What Love Is All About!!!
It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 a. m., when an elderly Gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be Over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation. I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as He was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there For a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I a

Helpful Hints You'll Want To Use
Clean your glass shower To clean the glass in your shower easily, apply lemon juice to the glass with a sponge. Then, take newspaper and wipe the lemon juice off the glass. It will be clean and sparkle with no scrubbing! Heat up leftover pizza in a non-stick skillet on top of the stove, set heat to med-low and heat till warm. This keeps the crust crispy. No soggy micro pizza. I saw this on the cooking channel and it really works. Easy Deviled Eggs Put cooked egg yolks in a zip lock bag. Seal, mash till they are all broken up. Add remainder of ingredients, reseal, keep mashing it up mixing thoroughly, cut the tip of the baggy, squeeze mixture into egg. Just throw bag away when done easy clean up. Expanding Frosting When you buy a container of cake frosting from the store, whip it with your mixer for a few minutes. You can double it in size. You get to frost more cake/cupcakes with the same amount. You also eat less sugar/calories

Life Is So Prescious....
As I sit here tonight, I send my thoughts and prayers to the friends and families who are grieving for the loss of their friends and family memebers whose lives were suddenly taken in the VT massacre. Who would of thought that when these lost souls woke up yesterday morning that it was their last day to wake up? I have always tried to live my life to the fullest and to know that tomorrow is not promised to me. You know you hear about those who say "if I could of only told them.." "if I could of only held them one more time". Life is so very prescious and no one knows what tomorrow brings. My daughter and I say our prayers together every night and we always make sure that we include those who are fighting for our country and for the past two nights, we have prayed for the family members and friends who lost someone whose lives were taken way to early from someone who cried out for help, but was not heard. His cries might not of been as obvious as people are used to, but even one of his

Fantasies And Things I Enjoy, What About You???
Tell one of your favorite sexual fantasies. Don't hold back!: It would have to be some 4sum activity MFMF style... She and I are in a 69 enjoying each other as the guys are fucking us at the same time.. this gives us opportunity to enjoy the penetration as well as lick and suck pussy and cock all at once.. You get all the joys of visual, as well as taste, touch and scenscory overload from all that you are feeling.. (it would make me scream and squirt no doubt) Even better if the guys switch back and forth to mingle the flavors! Naughtiness in the car always turns me on, especially in moving traffic in daylight.. love the aspect of getting caught! Or someone peaking in as I am either teasing you or touching myself for your viewing pleasure while you are driving.. I lean over and lick and suck your ear and nibble your neck and work my way down... be careful, keep your eyes on the road.. then I lean back against the passenger door facing you and play with my tits, p

The Dance
Your eyes open, where am I you ask yourself? This isn't my room. I went to sleep in my room, that's my bed but where am I. You wipe your eyes and they focus. You're right you are no longer in your room. You now lie in a meadow filled with fragrant flowers, a coolness in the air and the moon shining brightly down upon you. You know this place, it's a place where you spent many a childhood days. You hear a voice call to you. You turn in the darkness and see a hand reach out for yours. "Care to dance?" The voice asks as you take the hand. You try to see who is there but the persons face you can not see. Only hearing the softness of their voice. Caring and tender you both dance. No Music is heard only the music of your breathing and heart beats. Your dance partner softly whispers to you " I see you still enjoy dancing in the moonlight like you did when you were young." Softly you whisper back "Yes, I do how did you know that I danced in the moonlight when I was a child?" The reply is clea

Excuse Me, Sir...
You are not from Japan. The fact that you've forced all of your friends to add a Japanese honorific to your name does not make you Japanese. Hey, I love French culture as weird as that sounds. I lived there for years. But I don't make people call me Pierre. You are not a ninja. You are Mr. Retarded-san.

When I Die...
When I die in a tragic car wreck, or at the hands of some psychopathic gunman, please please please don't make cheesy gif's to post on your profile or put a stupid plastic cross where they found my body. I know you mean well, but I'd like to think that my life was a tad more meaningful than a hastily and poorly crafted tribute from strangers on the interwebs who feel they must publicly display some sort of grief while they troll for cleavage.

Nothing Really Interesting.
Well, somehow, I basicly lost the silly game I started.I think my brother started some shit with people or something, but I don't know. The thing is, there's people who have absolutely no life. They must spend every waking hr on that game. These people were abused or something in real life. They ain't really inot picking on people their own size. They would probably kick babies if they could get away with it, and then probably waste them by not eating them with icecream... I guesse I'm glad that these people spend time on the internet and aren't out torturing small animals though, or any animals for that matter. I have more productive things I need to do than spend as much time as they have to have spent on the game. Like math homework. This might sound like a winy, I lost why me blog. But I'm actually happy that I don't feel the need to waste my life on that game, even the little that I would have spent on it. It's a simple rpg sort of game,I'm not sure why I even spent as mu

Human Being In Pursuit Of Destruction
"Mrs. Landisis’ 6th grade class. I sat in the third row next to Theresa Hayes. And it was there that I first discovered alienation and baron path. The taunting and the badgering by the other kids made me realize the depths of human evil and the dark underbelly of human society. I'd close my eyes and pretend I was someone different. That I wasn't a misfit. You can't erase the dream, you can only wake me up. I didn't care. I never obeyed the rules. Because even back then I realized the nothing... Nothing in nature behaves so consistently and rigidly as a human being in pursuit of destruction.

Long Stressful But Productive Day
I am worn out people. I'm to worn out to even try and reinstale the IM that uninstaled itself again. Sorry,Yeah I know your crushed not to talk to me. LOL riiiiight. But it is worth it! It's been a long day. But productive. Things are starting to come and jell into a workable plan. I was able to find funds..welll it's called my orgy cover band does 3 gigs this weekend. But that means no selling of things dear to the hearts of us.And it means funds will be there to use. The gigs will take the piss outta me though. I'm the singer..ummm i'm not the type stands by the mic n sings I move all over that stage. Not real great to do with the stiches n shit but hell I've giged feeling worst.I am damn skiked to be doing the gigs.Been way to long.Thoush we're moveing more to our own songs I know a few orgy will find it's way into the set..pretty much we'll have to since we're still blue Monday. Many of you won't get this it's ok(yea,Rave i know I speek in code sue me).But the one I'm aiming t

Now, For All Those, Not Intelligent Enough
Now, for all those, not intelligent enough, or able-minded enough, or coherent enough, to understand the message that I've been giving in the preceding months, I'd like to reiterate it, for posterity. You see I had an abusive childhood. I was teased, taunted, tormented, picked on, bullied, and beaten. But that was then, and this is now. And now, all the freaks, mutants, misfits, the disenfranchised, the hopeless, the unwanted, the dregs of society, have come forth from out of the shadows, to stand beside me, to help me gain my vengeance, against those, that treated me poorly. But don't blame me... blame yourselves! You made me what I am! It's your fault. So don't blame me. So it is written. So it shall come to pass.

When I Grow Up
When I grow up I want to be a super hero! I want to save the world and make people happy I want to be someone's hero too. When I grow up I want to help people in trouble and put out fires I want to rescue kitties stuck in trees When I grow up I want to dance to beautiful music I want to tell stories and wear beautiful costumes When I grow up I want to help people to read and write I want to help people learn about all sorts of things When I grow up I want to inspire future life. I want to encourage new presidents, leaders and heros When I grow up I know that I can do anything I know I can be whatever I want to be and do what I want to do I know this because my Daddy told me so

7 Weeks And 6 Days
Ok so I found out the other day that I am prego.... I always wanted a baby but I seem to have mixed emtions about being this way. I know I want the baby i guess i am just scared. Mom says its just my hormones kicking each others ass thats making me feel all weird and that all normal. hopefully the all day sickness goes away soon lol cause its kicking my ass at the moment!

What It Is You Do To Me..
There you sit smiling And it's you I watch wanting But you don't even know What it is you do to me So I keep on watching and wanting as I bleed Every time I look at you Every time I talk to you Every time I smell you My heart continues melting And I am forever dreaming Whenever you pass me by Whenever you catch my eye I feel like I want to cry Because of what it is you do to me Your eyes gleaming And your lips pleading And your hands exploring While my heart remains bleeding Every time you look at me I wonder what it is you see Every time you talk to me And I hear that beautiful voice My knees get weak My stomach flutters My chest collapses My neck hairs tingle And I stop breathing Just in that moment in time When you do what it is you do to me As I sit here yearning I imagine you sleeping And I want to hold you endlessly Forever in my arms for eternity I'll continue dreaming As long as you are living breathing being

Need Help
Ok...My son just turned 4 and he is still refusing to go poop in the toilet or even let anybody know he has to go poop. I am at my limits with him before I just jump his ass about it. I have tried rewards, I have tried the Potty chart, I have tried just sitting him on the toilet for lengths of time, but he will just not go!! He has never expressed any fear of the toilet cause he goes pee in it all of the time (tho only when I make him). He is perfectly happy sitting in his pee and poop until the days end. And it frustrates me to no end because he will sit there and say yes about needing to say something about going to the poty, but he just totally disregards it when the act occurs. Is there some new theory or invition I am not aware about??

~you Are...~
A heart filled with love A gentle touch A healing kiss A warm hug A best friend A play mate A secret keeper A wish maker A heart mender A monster scarer A promise keeper An organizer A warm embrace A party planner A taxi driver A dreamer ~You are~ ~A Mom~

I Have Delt With More Pain
I have delt with more pain I have delt with more suffering I have delt with more anguish then what ever human being as ever had to bear I have suffered from the hands of my parents I have suffered at the hands of mine friends I have suffered from every conceverable manner and I am tired I am tired

Imagination And Lust
Mmmmm, that was quite the visual. Watching you on my computer stroking your dick for me. Seeing your hand pump slowly up and down. Knowing you are doing for me made my nipples hard. I'm cold and lonely waiting on a chair for you to cum and take me... one hand is rubbing my nipple and the other hand is... slowly and ever so lightly making circles around my clit, feeling it get hard thinking of you baby... I slide my finger into the wetness... slowly pushing it in and pulling it out, my head is thrown back, lost in the ecstasy of the touching. My nipples are so hard baby I'm pulling and pinching them, my clit is hard and I'm so wet I slide another finger into myself, thinking of you wishing you were here. I hear a noise and look to find you standing there, I can see by the bulge in your pants you have been watching for awhile. I stand up and my robe falls off my shoulders to the floor and I walk towards you, my eyes never leaving yours, I'm barely breathing knowing

Family Picture
Pictures on the refrigerator A true artist ~ the designer A creative imagination Fun loving and heart filled scribbles Giggling from another room Faces and hands covered in paint A look of "I'm sorry" on their faces A burst of laughter comes from me A nose, a face, a picture of Mommy Mommy is playing now With paint on her face Giggling from another room Faces and hands covered in paint A look of "we're in trouble" on their faces A huge smile comes from him A new nose, another face, a picture of Daddy Daddy is playing now With paint on his face Giggles from another room Faces and hands covered in paint A family is playing together Hang their portrait on the refrigerator

Hellyeah On Hard Files This Week!
Thursdays 7 pm ETRebroadcast Saturdays 3 pm ET Hard Files is a weekly one hour aural glimpse into the music and lives of some of your favorite metal bands.This week Hard Attack's Jose Mangin is proud to have Vinnie Paul, Tom Maxwell and Jerry Montano from HELLYEAH on to discuss the Texas sized party going on in their self-titled debut, out in stores now! Hear music from HELLYEAH, Pantera, Nothingface, Deadlights, Mudvayne, and more in this exclusive metal ass kicking!Coming up on Hard Files: Lamb Of God, Trivium, Mike Patton (Faith No More/Tomahawk/Peeping Tom/Fantomas), The Haunted & Dark Tranquility, Poison The Well, Down, Megadeth, Devildriver, Type O Negative, Cannibal Corpse and more!

My Fuckin Foot Hurts
So the day before Easter i hurt my foot...it hasn't really gotten any better... So finally today i called the doc... Gotta go in the morning for x-rays....wish me luck Did i tell you all i am thinkin about contacts? I went and had an eye exam...and they ordered me a trial pair...if they ever come in i will get to try em out for a week... I have never worn contacts...kinda worried...lol so once again wish me luck... I also need you guys to cross your fingers that my car gets fixed fast... Thanks guys....*hugs n kisses*

Golisano Sends Letter To Bettman
Golisano Sends Letter To Bettman Brad Riter - Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 6:15 PM Following is the text of an official letter that was sent by Buffalo Sabres owner B. Thomas Golisano to NHL Commissioner Gary Bettman today. http://www.wgr550.com/sabres/fullstory.php?id=2195 ---------- Gary B. Bettman, Commissioner, National Hockey League, 1251 Avenue of the Americas, 47th Floor New York, NY 10020 February 24, 2007 Dear Gary, I am deeply concerned with the standard the NHL has adopted that seems to allow violent hits to the head. In light of the most recent injury to our captain Chris Drury, I am calling on you to address this issue immediately before another player is seriously injured or worse. In our recent game with the Ottawa Senators, an opposing player skated half the width of the ice surface, approached Chris Drury from his blind side, and delivered a blow to his head which dislodged his helmet, severely lacerating the area around his e

Asylum Dreams
Asylum dreams Setting in my padded cell With one foot in the gates of hell Demons taunting me at my feet With loving stories bittersweet Tempting me at heavens gates with lustful passions And a sinful face A body like virgin wine Tempting my flesh Taking my time My comfort is it’s valium time The needle pricks me and helps me unwind Raving red hair and blushing checks With leather curves oh so sweet A rising image in my head as they chain me to the bed Fighting off the coming peace Gasping for air Trying to breath A calming in my veins Soft and fuzzy a pulse with no pain Warring with my sleepy eyes Wishing my hands could touch her things As the sand drops to me I hope I can go on with this lustful valium dream. Scott Baker

If You're Going To Do It, Do It Big
Oh yes, if you're going to screw up, make sure you do it royally. I found out today that a mistake I made when I was a newbie at my job has cost my company $1 million. Granted, we're an insurance company, so paying out the big bucks is going to happen from time to time, but OMFG. Thankfully, I'm not being held accountable for it, as it's not the first time someone has made the same mistake. It is, however, the first time the same mistake has resulted in a MILLION DOLLAR claim. To top it all off: The policyholder who had the accident is dead. So move over, Steve Austin. I am the million dollar woman.

A Regret, A Love, A Loss
A shock, like lightning flashing It starts slowly falling A quiet pitter patter Like a tapping of your finger to the beat of a song They are tear drops Tear drops falling on my pillow Outside I hear the thunder Banging & Raging Crashing like my broken heart Shattering the night sky The rain ~ the pieces broken apart The wind is blowing Crushing the rain against the trees ~ my home I hear the howling ~ Reminding me of my hollow heart The crashing, the howling, the bright flashes of light My tears ~falling harder than the rain I drown them away The rage inside me hits with the power of lightning Broken glass, torn pillows A picture is all I have His death is mine also Alone this late night All I can do is remember Remember our memories we would've shared They are tear drops falling on my pillow

Getting Married And Meeting My Real Dad
I just got married a week ago and its been awesome too. Its so wonderful having the man I have in my life. I couldn't ask for anyone else better than him. He is my everything. All I could've ever asked for in a man. And getting to meet my real dad for the first time on march 21st 2007 was the most awesomest feelings too. I still can't believe it either. I spend time with him everyday too. Its awesome getting to know who he is and things that I never knew when I was a very young child. And now I can find all the stuff out. Soon I hope to get to meet my grandma that lives in Washington. I am excited about that too. Its been a truly awesome experience for me and very overwhelming with everything. My husband and my new family its just awesome.

A Special Kind Of Heart Ache
A heart felt conversation, held by dual strangers. Alone in the dark, imaginations run wild. The nothing~the silence~the peace Bringing those strangers closer together. More common ground than they know it. The Sparks. A flame burning deep within. A choice~a decision must be made. Is it destiny or is it fate? A decision must be made. They talk, they laugh, they cry. What more can they share? Reality tears them apart. True love~dreams~happiness. Memories are all they have now. They talk, they laugh, they cry. Memories draw them closer, when they are so far apart. Longing for desire, love and lust. Memories are where they meet now. Alone, alive and in love.

Ladies Am I Cute?
(Note: This blog is Strictly for the ladies No execption!!!) Okay, I notice that alot of people on here give 10's(for pics)just to be nice & thats cool! However, it's not always the truth. Is it Cherries? In fact, alot of us deserve 5's & under(just being Real). So, I've set this blog up to find out the truth. I want nothing but un-cut, raw, Real-ass answers to this blog! On a scale from 1-10, Am I cute? If possible, give feedback on your answer!!! (Note: I'm a grown ass man. I can handle what- ever you dish out. No I want hate you in the morning, nor retaliate upon anyone who thinks less of me.) Just Curious!!!

Dirty Quiz
*Dirty quiz* 1. What is a four-letter word that ends in "k" and means the same as intercourse? 2. What is it that a cow has four of and a woman has only two of? 3. What can you find in a man's pants that is about six inches long, has a head on it, and that women love so much that they often blow it? 4. What word starts with "f " and ends with "u-c-k"? 5. Name five words that are each four letters long, end in "u-n-t " one of which is a word for a woman? 6. What does a dog do that you can step into? 7. What four letter word begins with "f " and ends with " k", and if you can't get one you can use your hands? 8. What is hard, six inches long, has two nuts, and can make a girl fat? 9. What four-letter word ends in "i-t " and is found on the bottom of birdcages? 10. What is it that all men have one of; it's longer on some men than on others; the pope doesn't use his; and a man gives it to his wife after they're married? *Answers* 1. talk

You Save Me
Every now and then I get a little lost My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed Every now and then I'm right up on the edge Dangling my toes out over the ledge I just thank God you're here 'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun 'Cause when I'm a firecracker comin' undone Or when I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy No matter where my reckless soul takes me Baby you save me It's hard lovin' a man that's got a gypsy soul I don't know how you do it, I'm not sure how you know The perfect thing to say to save me from myself You're the angel that BELIEVES IN me like nobody else And I thank God you do 'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun When I'm a firecracker coming undone When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy No matter where my reckless soul takes me Baby you save me I know I don't tell you nearly enough That I couldn't live one day without your love When I'm a ship tossed around on the waves Up on a

Xxx Survey
Body: 1. Anal or oral? oral 2. Chocolate or whip Cream? both! 3. Ice or feathers? ice 4. Two girls and a guy or two guys and a girl? 2 girls and a guy giggles 5. Movie porn or live porn? both 6. What do you wear to bed ? pjs 7. Love making or hard fucking? love making 8. Do you shave ? yes 9. Spit or swallow? swallow 10. Do you masturbate ? yes 11. Whats your turn on ? boots and heels 12. Whats your favorite position ? hmm not sure 13. Do you belive in no glove no love ? yes 14. Where would you really love to have sex ? in a scared grove 15. How long can you go ? (and be honest) have no idea does it look I time it? 16. Bondage or soft & gentle ? soft and gentle 17. Have you ever had sex in public ? no 18. Do you touch yourself and get turned on ? yes 19. Is there anyone on your mind you want to have sex with ? yes 20. List one person on your friends/family/fan list you would have sex with? yes! Be honest !!

Medal Of Honor For Scio Marine
Medal of Honor for Scio Marine The nation's highest military honor was awarded posthumously today to Corporal Jason Dunham, a Marine from Scio, New York. Marine Corporal Jason Dunham Click here to send Cpl. Dunham's family a message The messages will be posted in the WNY Pictures of Pride page. The following is a brief description from the Pentagon of what Cpl. Dunham did to earn the Medal of Honor. Medal of Honor presentation From the Pentagon: Cpl. Dunham's squad was conducting a reconnaissance mission in Karabilah, Iraq, on April 14, 2004, when a nearby convoy returning to base was ambushed. Hearing gunfire, Dunham and his squad rushed over to help suppress the attack. He led a team a few blocks south of the immediate ambush site and ordered his squad to block seven vehicles attempting to leave. As they approached, an Iraqi insurgent jumped out of one of the vehicles and grabbed Dunham by the throat. As Dunham fought the enemy hand-to-hand, two Ma

Ways To Help Deployed Troops
http://www.clermontyellow.accountsupport.com/flash/UntilThen.swf During the holiday season, I hope everyone will keep our troops who are deployed and their families in your thoughts and prayers. I know that the war in Iraq is an extremely controversial topic these days, but whether you support the war or not, our soldiers deserve our respect and our support. Unfortunately, because of the war controversy and many peoples dislike of the situation in Iraq, this contempt gets placed on our troops and they are coming home to a country that no longer shows support and thanks to them for the service they provide. We take many things for granted in this country, including our freedom, which we would not have if it was not for our fathers and grandfathers, etc., and which we won't have in the future if it wasn't for those who selflessly volunteer to serve their country. Please remember that it is the people that we elect (which I hope EVERYONE voted) who decide for these men and wom

The Rain And Pain
In parts of this country yesterday and today many have seen rain. The rain we have seen and felt is not just rain, but the tears of the fallen. Fallen soliders and the fallen VT students. They weep not in sorrow but for the loved ones left behind. They weep for the pain that is on this earth. They weep for us. Evil one the battle yesterday it might win another day, but it will never win the war. Bless the soldiers fighting for us and bless the fallen VT students...Even the one that did the shooting.

Have You Had The Feeling?
Have you had the feeling that you were acting like a little child? Have you had the feeling that there was something wrong, how could it all seem so right? Have you had the feeling when someone was so excited about something you would do for them? Have you had the feeling that made you happy every moment you took a breath? Have you had the feeling someone was watching over you? Have you had the feeling that your life seemed so complete? I do have that feeling! I enjoy that feeling. I don't want this feeling to ever stop.

This Is For My 1st Love...may He Always Watch Over Me From Heaven
You are my everything You are my angel For you this poem i write You are there to lift me up when i fall You are there to make all the tears fade away You comfort me when i need it most You dont care how many ups and downs we have had you always find a way in your heart to forgive me You have been through all my afflictions You have been there through all my losses and defeats Ill always remember all the good times and pray the bad ones dont repeat You are the definition of a true friend in my book I love you so dearly Joe no one could ever replace you my real ANGEL....

Slave Begs
Bound by Master's Strong Hands devotion is Manipulated by His Firm Touch The Intensity of His Voice The Dominance of His Mind..."You Are My slave!" And slave, gagged as securely as she is Bound, begs still... Eyes glaze over with lust, begging... Nostrils flare and lungs gasp for air, begging... Neck vein pulses to the rhythm of a pounding heart, begging... Breasts heave and swell, straining wax-coated nipples, begging... Skin glistens and crawls with a prickly, crimson blush, begging... Hips gyrate, involuntarily, begging... Shaved pussy lips slippery with sex, begging... Cunt gaping, begging... Wanton slave body writhing... Begging... Pleading... Master, take me...slave begs!

My Heart
The blood now flows from deep inside my heart the hand that holds it shall keep us far apart and place my love in a box to stay for years until this heart may love again sans tears. My heart is cracked, so worn by years of pain The fragile monster shall not again be plain Oh, the tears I've cried, the blood I've shed for love The pain I've felt the Hell I've known from above My thought my hopes so dashed so torn, so meek That hate has burned my heart so black and bleak It is my hand that holds this heart so frail I'd rip it from my chest to stop my wail I've loved, I've lost I've cried the tears of white I bleed this white and prepare for coming night In the night I'll stay, in the night so dark I'll lie never to taste a kiss of love I'll sigh but never again shall I cry...

Key To My Heart
Key To My Heart I never saw you coming, I fell so hard. You got me on your hook of love, You reeled me in with your charm. At first we were just friends, But little did I know You're the one that I could never let go. You have given me so much, You mean more than any words could ever say. Although I write you many poems to express my love, I still don't give you enough. Right now this is all I can give, This is everything I know to do, And the reason I do it is I fell for you. I do have a special gift for you. It isn't much, but it's a start. It doesn't cost you anything, But it's worth a lot. My dearest Angel, I give to you The key to my heart, Bought and paid for with your love. I don't give it away very easily, So hold it dear. Giving it to you brings me no fear.

There Is A Special Something About You...
There is a Special Something about you... Something...that draws me to you and makes me want to get to know you better. Something...that stirs-up my emotions every time I see you; every time I am near you; every time I hear or speak your name. I really don't understand why I feel this way, or, what this is all about; I only know that my heart tells me ~with each and every pounding beat~ that the Special Something about you... could turn into Something Very Special for us.

What I Love About You
What I Love About You I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.

Forward Progress
Mair, Briere, Vanek score as Sabres regain series lead UNIONDALE — Adam Mair was shocked to be sent over the boards so quickly. The fourth-line winger has been a minimalist when it comes to ice time, but Lindy Ruff called out the line moments after it had just completed a satisfying shift. “We came off and then Lindy doubleshifted us,” Mair said. “I don’t know. He’s just so good at reading if a guy’s having a good shift. He put us back out there.” Mair went back out and proved his coach’s hunch correct. Mair waylaid New York Islanders winger Trent Hunter in the defensive end and stormed back to bury the opening goal of the Sabres’ 3-2 victory in Game Three of the Eastern Conference quarterfinals Monday night in Nassau Coliseum. Mair’s goal triggered a three-goal second period and was his first in the playoffs since — fresh out of juniors — he scored in his NHL debut for the Toronto Maple Leafs. Sabres co-captain Daniel Briere potted a five-on-three power-play goal fo

Am I Alone
Am I Alone I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide. My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see. Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared. I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad. I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day.

I Miss You Mom
DOES HEAVEN HAVE A PHONE NUMBER? Mommy went to Heaven, but I need her here today, My tummy hurts and I fell down; I need her right away, Operator, can you tell me how to find her in this book? Is heaven in the yellow part? I don't know where to look. I think my daddy needs her too; at night I hear him cry. I hear him call her name sometimes, but I really don't know why. Maybe if I call her, she will hurry home to me. Is Heaven very far away, is it across the sea? She's been gone a long, long time; she needs to come home now! I really need to reach her, but I simply don't know how. Help me find the number please, is it listed under "Heaven"? I can't read these big, big words; I am only seven. I'm sorry, operator, I didn't mean to make you cry, Is your tummy hurting too, or is there something in your eye? If I call my church maybe they will know. Mommy said when we need help, that's where we should go. I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall.

Emotion....
I GeT EmOtIoNaL OvEr My eNcOuNtErS WiTh PeOpLe I'D FeLt A SpEcIaL SoMeThInG AbOuT. WhO KnOwS wHaT tHaT iS, MaYbE a ShArEd MoMeNt, a MuTuAl Agreement, Or MaYbE aN iNtAmAtE cOnVeRsAtIoN. I DO NOT JuDgE pEoPlE, AnD I AccEpT FaCe VaLuE oF WhO ThEy ArE. If ThEy MaKe An EffOrT tO CoMuNiCaTe ThIeR PaIn, SoRRoW, NeeDs, I OpEn MySeLf, tO Offer ThEm My AttEnTiOn. MoSt TiMeS, I'm ReVeRReD aS A FoNd MeMoRy, A NiCe GuY, aN UnFoRgEtAbLe StRaNgEr ThAt HeLpEd ThEm OpEn ThIeR tHoUgHts, To See EXaCtLy WhErE ThEy WeRe CoMpELLeD tO rEaCh OuT tO Me. In ThE EnD.....I'M WaRmEd By My ThOuGhTs. I LeD ThEm AwAy FrOm Me, On ThIeR QuEsT To FiNd ThEmSeLvEs. OnCe AgAiN, I StAnD ThErE EmPtY. Ahh BuT It MaKeS Me SmIlE, AnD It MaKeS Me EaGeR, To Do It OnCe MoRe. " PuDiTiNu " http://www.myspace.com/puditinu http://www.myspace.com/pudit2u

My Ode To Crush
My Ode To Crush I love someone, It's so true, Is it the same for you? I think of him all day long, Even though I know it's wrong, For he is with another, How jealus I am of that other, She's my best friend, and I don't want our friendship to end I don't want it to end over a boy, Even though she can annoy, I try to think he's not worth it, but if I can't have him I'll have a fit, Sometimes I want to cry, Cause he can tell a good lie, Making me want to blush and die, But he can also lift me off my feet, Just to knock me down with a simple sound, A sound of a word, Such a heartbreaking word,

My First Deleted Friend?
I found out today that my sisters so called boyfriend is cheating on her like mad and when sshe tries to talk to him he hides? WTF? What a low life man, and he is supposed to be crippled too? bet that is a lie also? Wounder how mant women he is stringing along? Well he may get by with it with other women, but not with my sister she is too kind of a person to have to deal with the likes of him... Sir white knight ,ECT... you are the lowest scum of the earth to treat women as you do.You drop my sister or so help me I shall let all of ct know what a sorry person you really are. and believe me I can. She is a sweet heart but I am a bitch from hell and you just made my shit list buddy. you will never be good enogh to be ct godfather of nothing ! You are a sorry low life bottom feeder and yopu had best leave my sister alone! I mean it man. I have your number fellow so now deal with me. you even say hello to her after you tell her you have another womon and I will come after you and so will

Friends
Friends I would wait for you outside heavens gates, Lend you my golden wings. For you I'd beg gods forgiveness, Stop bullets with my hands. For you I'd die a thousand deaths, wash away the pain. rid your world of hate and war, Plant flowers on your grave. For you I would do anything, Yhink of me everyday. best friends in our lifetime, The day after forever is where we'll meet again....

An Open Letter
Next year will mark 10 years since I have been out of high school. I never graduated, that was my choice. I chose to drop out. I would never say it was forced upon me. Because for the most part, we always have a choice. If I am to be honest for a long time I blamed my peers for "forcing" me to make that choice. Which is a load of bullshit. Because no one should have that much power over you. But still I went on believing that I was "forced" This is how it went down. At that time in my life I felt like my fellow peers were out to get me. It is true that I was ostracized. And my offence was nothing I could change no matter whether I dieted or what clothes I wore. A wheelchair is a wheelchair, you can't wash it away. But by no means was there a school wide conspiracy against me. Although that is how I felt. I thought that everyone that stared at me were thinking about how "awful" I was. That I didn't deserve to breathe the same air they did. Although I could never read someo

My Reason For Starting This Blog
I'm creating this blog so I can post all the funny jokes I find across the net and theres alot. I hope e1 enjoys them as much as I do. I think ones personality comes out when we discover what makes them laugh.

Rehabbed Rivals Share A Lot
The hardest part is not the waiting, it is the hoping. There were times when Tim Connolly was recovering from his two concussions that his spirits hurt worse than his head. It was tough getting through the days when he felt better, then worse, then better. It was difficult believing, as he was sitting out nearly a full season on two occasions, that there would be a night like tonight, when he finally appears in a playoff game at Nassau Coliseum. Nor could the Sabres center ever have believed, when he didn’t miss a single game because of injury through his first four years in the NHL, that he would be in the position of sympathizing with the other team’s goalie. But sure enough, Connolly and Rick DiPietro — back-toback Islanders first-round draft picks in 1999 and 2000 — said almost the exact thing about the stretch of hard road they share. “It’s not something you want to see anybody go through,” said Connolly, 25, whose concussion last May 8 kept him out until the final two

I Don't Understand
Why do all the feelings come? They come and go. I feel sometimes I'm caged within. Some the meaning of them I just dont know. Why do I hurt so much? And hide when really I need to let them show. I hide behing laughter and smiles. Inside I'm a shaken bottle of carbonated emotions that wants to blow. Sometimes I feel like I can take on the world and my mind tells me I can do anything. Lack of sleep send an adrenaline rush. Other times I can't drag myself from death like sleep. I drag through the day and toss and turn in the night. I wish I knew what I felt. I wish to know myself. by JMC "I Dont't Understand"

More
well, i fell back to earth a little while back to feel something nice - love. and yes, i felt it, and it was wonderful. but, while i was visiting, i also felt - many other things. which i do not care for. so i think - that i shall fly... far up high... where i came from. and feel not. no more. i like it, more. :(

Slave To Master...you Know Who You Are
Serving her Master, with a heart full of pride Loving unconditionally, needing the training he provides Absolute trust and respect, shared between the two Very happy to obey, when he tells her what to do Every minute away from him, he lingers in her mind Teaching her to look inside, for the strength she must find Opeining her heart, mind and body to her Master’s requests Happy with herself only, when she can pass all of his tests Endless devotion, she will feely and gladly give Realizing her very life, has now become his Maybe she will stumble, sometimes she will fall Accepting when her Master, must discipline it all Setting up her limits, with honesty and trust Taking her past them, will be a must Earning the privilege to serve as his slave Respecting all her Master will do or say

What Really Grinds My Gears!
You know what really grinds my gears? Is when I spend so much time on here showing love to so many people, yet only half return the favor! I mean I know they see it. The comments, becoming peeps fans, gifts, etc. All this & for what? For some of you to not even bother to return the love, let alone come by & say, "Hi" or "Thanks"! Maybe it's Me, maybe i'm fucking with the wrong Cherries, maybe i'm not that cute, maybe i'm not doing enough on here. On the other-hand! Maybe it's You!!! And that's what really grinds my gears!

Away For A While...
Well, as you may have noticed, I have not been around much. Work problems, family problems, and finding a new house as well. But! As of the 1st of May, I will be back! And will prolly be spending a whack-load of time here on the tap like I used to. So thanks to everyone who has kept posting comments. I miss you all! I've been away soo long, I've even lost my crush!! :(

Sins You All Nsfw / Adult Content
One touch....a heat, a fire, a feather-soft searing of the flesh. Calloused hands smooth as velvet. I see it in your eyes...the want, the need, the animalistic pull. You pull me close...melting into your soft body...and you place your lips so softly on mine. Spinning, lost in the moment...somewhere I hear the silent humming of the universal vortex as it spins in ryhthm. I open my eyes and see you again...that blue-grey flame...words whispered that I cannot hear but know by heart. Collision of heat as hands trace curves...trace veins...down to your soft center...down to this low point where heaven blends seamlessly with the feminine form. I can smell your sweet scent as you spread your legs, I can hear your heart beating and the blood in your veins. And I am lost...for I don't know if this is my body caressing yours or yours caressing mine, my lips on yours or yours on mine. Is this my heartbeat? Is it yours? Whose blood is beating in such chaotic, tantric rhythym? We've lost one

Dance Dance Dance With Me
World spins...stops...oneness...a sense of wholeness...as our warmth melds together. Our breaths beat with irregular regularity. Cheek to cheek...feeling your velvet skin brush my face...the scent of your hair like the first breath of fresh mountain air after being in the city for a year. Crush...tender, yet strong...firm, yet gentle...your two arms placed so lightly around my body. Hands carressing the back...fingers in my hair...your breath upon the nape of my neck sends chills through me. My hands tracing the soft lines of your back...to the fur on your low back...fingertips following the sway...the softness of your hair underneath my hand. Breast to breast, cheek to cheek...all but for a moment and then we break the hug with our i love you's.

Yay I Can Relax!!
i am sooo glad to have power back...has been out since sunday night. we have a generator for the necessities but no hot water...i am going to soak in a nice hot bath...and i can craft again..i really missed my sewing machine..but i did get some knitting done:) so i guess it wasn't a total loss...

Word Of God Speak.
I'm finding myself at a loss for words And the funny thing is it's okay The last thing I need is to be heard But to hear what You would say [CHORUS] Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to see Your majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness Word of God speak I'm finding myself in the midst of You Beyond the music, beyond the noise All that I need is to be with You And in the quiet hear Your voice [CHORUS] Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to see Your majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness Word of God speak Would You pour down like rain Washing my eyes to see Your majesty To be still and know That You're in this place Please let me stay and rest In Your holiness I'm finding myself at a loss for words And the funny thing is it's okay:

Is This Muthafucka Serious??
Ok. This is some shit that might end up getting someone killed. If any of you know me and my blogs you know I can never write a short one. I have to give you the full story or else the shit wont sound complete. I will try to take out some of the details so it doesn't be too boring, but my logs are for me to vent so however long it is...it just is that long. My sister is going through some shit with her soon to be ex husband right now and I am mainly pissed because I cannot be there to help her out. She is living in Texas wit her 3 kids basically all by her lonesome. And with that said, this muthafucka is fuckin with her every chance he gets. Everybdy thought this muthafucka to be cool and sft spokes, but as many of you know, a few of them are some silly muthafuckas. And, well...yeah...he is one of them. He is one of them young dudes that can't hold his alcohol. He gets drunk and then becomes violent. This was prven when he got drunk, laid hands on my sister, and tried to forc

Shackles
crawling towards you i tilt my head up my gaze meets yours i am waiting for you to command me i stay silent you slowly draw me to my feet i look away undeserving you hand me shackles i wear them willingly you lead me to the bed i kneel down beside it you sit down and put a finger to my lips i run my tongue along your finger then crawl between your legs my tongue runs up one thigh then slowly down the other i focus my attention between and gently take your head into my mouth running my tongue in circles around the tip i bend my head forward pulling in the entire shaft sucking gently, still using my tongue to stroke underneath as i continue to move you in and out of my mouth you lean forward grabbing the shackles pulling me onto the bed i look at you bewildered, as i'd not finished you lie back and pull me on top of you i let my pussy surround you as i begin to move slowly up and down i want to kiss you, but you haven't offered me your lips i stare into y

Thunderbird In Honor Of The Victims Of Virginia Tech
For those old enough to remember Quiet Riot, you might remember a song called Thunderbird. If you are not old enough to remember the band go to iTunes and download the song. The song was written bt Kevin DuBrow in dedication of the passing of Randy Rhoads passed on in 1982. Anyway, these lyrics come straight from the heart...listen to the song and think of the victims of Virginia Tech when you do. You might cry, you might not, but the song fits. QUIET RIOT lyrics

Sex With A Bbw
Sex with a BBW She sits on my cock, it’s heavenly, Bouncing and jiggling, it’s to die for, Face sitting, it is done heavily, On a rug is OK, but not the floor. Her jugs are always gigantic, Definitely more than a mouthful, If she had been on the Titanic, She’d have filled the hole with a breastful. With an ass that’s bigger than another, Softer than any other chick’s, A bum that is broad as two others, It can take and satisfy all dicks. If you like your babes dainty, You’ve cum to the wrong place, no maybe.

Another Erotic Story
You and I were out one night at a local nightspot we often go to meet friends, and have a few laughs. When we arrived we both noticed a very pretty lady sitting at the bar. I found I couldn’t take my eyes off her. She was about 5’5, with short, very stylish blond hair. She looked to be in her late 30’s with a beautiful lean body. I’ve always felt attracted to some women, especially those that seem confident, in control and yet very feminine. You went up to the bar to get us drinks and I saw you chatting with her. You just can’t resist flirting with a pretty lady. You came back to the table with our drinks and a few minutes later she came over and asked if she could join us. Her name was Lorri. Her perfume was intoxicating and her bright blue eyes were penetrating. When she sat down her short skirt rode-up high enough to show the top of her thigh-highs. Her legs were just perfect and she crossed them to my side of the table so I had the best view of them. I felt a jolt of sexual ener

Send This To All Ur Friends
Not to sound bad but i dont have enough time in the day to send this to everyone so its easier for me to blog it!!! I love ya all and dont want to leave anyone out!!! Catherine 2007-4-17 17:10:33 Send This To All Ur Friends, And Me If I Am 1. If U Get 7 Back U R Loved 1-3 u r a bad friend 4-6 u r a ok friend 7-9 u r a good friend 10-& ^ u r a great friend Dear Friend, When u feel like crying....call me. ! . ! . ! I dont promise that I will make u laugh, but I can cry with u. If one day u want to run away dont be afraid to call me. I dont promise to ask u to stop...... but I can run with u. If one day u dont want to listen to anyone..... call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if u call...... and there is no answer..... come fast to see me. Perhaps I need you. ____0000000000______0000000000_____ __000________000__000________000___ _000___________0000___________000__ 000_____________00_____________000_ 0

Rest In Peace Henry Martinez ( Nino ) April 10, 2006
Here i sit feeling sad and numb at my new job .. not knowing what to think or how to feel . my sister called me about 7:00 pm tonight and told me my Nino ( GodFather ) passed away this morning . He was something special that when i was a child in problems with my mother , He was always there to help me and talk to me . He gave me advice and no matter what, would never turn His back on me . i just lost a patient on the 7th of March 2006 who helped me finally grieve the lose of my GrandMother , and now to lose Him is more then i can handle at this time. i really feel like i want to just go crawl under a rock and hide forever and let no one close to me so i can't lose no one else again. How much can one endure ? the saying is that God won't put more then what one can handle on his or her plate . This i beg to differ because i can't handle more .. i am not as strong as i thought i was . i let someone get into my every depth , making more so vunerable .. i work with elderly folks and

Movie Trailer
well it is nearly that time. ill be graduating in three weeks. our portfolio show is in two weeks. cant wait to show off all of our design work to the community. Anyway, our theme for the portfolio show is a movie premier so all of our advertising is following those lines. come check out my page and see the movie trailer that we shot for our tv commercial, its awesome, considering we are graphic designers and not movie makers...lol.

Missing My Son
Toughest part of my life isn't work, or money. It isn't finding someone to love, though that's pretty hard too. It is the days away from my son. It is an emptiness that can't be filled with anything else. Some things take away parts of it. If I talk to a friend on the phone, and they have kids, I will just sit quietly and listen to them.. whether its laughter... tears.. fighting. I could listen to it all day. I would do anything to have that every day. So days like this.. the emptiness hits hard. I know I didn't have a choice in staying. As much as I hated to leave, I could not have been a good father if I stayed. Just wish I had more of a chance to be a father.

Quote"s
When you say "I would die for you" to those you love, the truth of those words may be not that you give your physical life, but that you are willing to die to the past and be born again in the present where you can live fully and freely -- where you can give us the love we need. - bell hooks Plenty of people miss their share of happiness, not because they never found it, but because they didn’t stop to enjoy it. -William Feather The true secret of giving advice is, after you have honestly given it, to be perfectly indifferent whether it is taken or not and never persist in trying to set people right. Hannah Whitall Smith No one person can possibly combine all the elements supposed to make up what everyone means by friendship. - Francis Marion Crawford

1st Rant
Okay so I am getting into college now for computers so I can make that money to give it to bill collectors. I figured I needed to do something besides what I am doing. I need a new jeep since the one that I have is basically FUBARed, so that is another reason I need some money. They say that money is the root of all evil but I think it is the lack of money that is the root of all evil. If everyone had money then noone would steal anymoney unless your an idiot that is just greedy. So, that is all I have to say right now maybe I will write another one later.

50 Year Difference.
Scenario: Jack pulls into school parking lot with rifle in gun rack. 1957 - Vice Principal comes over, takes a look at Jack's rifle, goes to his car and gets his to show Jack. 2007 - School goes into lockdown, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail and never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized students and teachers. ++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. 1957 - Crowd gathers. Mark wins. Johnny and Mark shake hands and end up best friends. Nobody goes to jail, nobody arrested, nobody expelled. 2007 - Police called, SWAT team arrives, arrests Johnny and Mark. Charge them with assault, both expelled even though Johnny started it. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Scenario: Jason won't be still in class, disrupts other students. 1957 - Jason sent to office and given a good paddling by Principal. Sits still in class. 2007 - Jason given huge doses of Ritalin. Becomes a zombie. Schoo

Wanted Dead And Alive
So here I was walking out of class today after a very relaxing massage and lo and behold my car is gone. I call all the tow companys, city impound and finally the cops... yup some fuck up stole my beat to shit caravan... SO much for my massage!! I'm just fucking livid.. who the fuck are these assholes that think somebody driving a beat up 15 yr old van can afford to lose it. It aint like its worth insuring against theft (deductible is twice the value of the fucking thing. Yep Im angry... fuckin fucker fuck fuck asshole summbitch cock suckers anyway. Cops tell me theres a good chance they'll recover it within 72 hours... we'll see.. but if they do it most likely will be burnt and or have been used in a robbery. or it may just be even more beat to hell.. chances of catching the fucking fucker cock suckers is about 10,000 to 1 Its amazing how ones brain function goes downhill when they are angry isnt it? I should be far more creaticve with my expletives for the dirty cock sucker as

Thoughts & Prayers
Just wanted to send my thoughts and prayers out to everyone who may have been involved or who may have had family involved in the tragic events of the past couple of days at VA. TECH. May god bless all of you.

Who Knew It Could Still Hurt...
I thought that I was over pain and thought that I could move forward and open myself up to you. I thought that true friends were always to be loyal to each other. I never asked you to prove it...never asked you to show it. I thought it just simply was. I thought the words were real and that true friendship never dies. You called me your best friend and I held that close to my heart because you knew all I had been through last year and how hard it was for me to trust completely again. I stood by your side trusting and I cared without limits, loved you as family without asking anything of you back. I cared and loved with all my heart...as I do all my true and close friends. ******I would always stand by your side no matter what...damn you for not doing the same and for putting someone less important between our friendship. Thank you for being ashamed of me and what we have as a friendship. ****** You cried on my shoulder and spoke that we would be friends forever...that me m

Pearl Jam Says It Best...
Waitin, watchin the clock, its four oclock, its got to stop Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech As he opens the door, she rolls over... Pretends to sleep as he looks her over She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man... Cant find a better man (2x) Ohh... Talkin to herself, theres no one else who needs to know... She tells herself, oh... Memories back when she was bold and strong And waiting for the world to come along... Swears she knew it, now she swears hes gone She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man... She lies and says she still loves him, cant find a better man... She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man... Cant find a better man (2x) Yeah... She loved him, yeah...she dont want to leave this way She feeds him, yeah...thats why shell be back again

To All Of You
I AM SO GRATEFUL TO ALL WHO HAVE TAKEN SOME TIME TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY OR JUST TO LEAVE A COMMENT. THERE ARENT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY FOR ME TO TELL ALL OF YOU HOW MUCH. YOU HAVE ALL MADE ME FEEL SO WONDEFUL WHICH IS QUITE A FEAT FOR A BASTARD LIKE ME LOL. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU OXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOX THANK YOU CASTLE

Of Myself I Am Nothing
Possessed of a spirit in the middle of the night That forces me to ponder and sit and write Of things that do own my heart and mind Of things beyond me that are hard to find Maybe I think way too much about life Get lost in the substance hardship and strife Maybe it is a distance that does call Maybe I get lost in the sum of it all To rest and let go would be a sweet dream For so much of life is heart break extreme Longing for innocents touch and sweet smile Longing to close sweet distance of miles For the heart beats and longs for those it lost And would pay any price no matter the cost To hold and feel the love yet again To feel the end of that dull pain To rest and know the world is right This is the dream that makes joy take flight Sweet nothings yet are the stuff of fantasy Sweet dreams held in hope by fools like me Sweet the knowledge that tomorrow is not set And only god knows and we may see yet Release in the joy of love to return I hold on to hope for it

Blindfold
Blindfold The taste of fear is somehow sweet not completely real . . . perhaps anticipation of the unknown, the vivid flash of imagination low tones, words barely whispered against a straining ear by unseen lips heated by desire of a slave for her Master she answers with silence, behind the blindfold only her heartbeat speaks of her need as it pulses hot in her neck yet He knows . . . words unneeded, unwanted. hot flashes of pain, a nipple compressed by strong fingers air sucked between clenched teeth a dark laugh echoes in the silence the sweet bite of the clamps over turgid flesh, throbbing, aching satisfaction in her soul, fire in her blood hands held firm by a leather embrace outstretched from her sides like a female heretic on the cross what will He do? Giddy with curiosity spread . . . bound by the shackles of her submission and His iron control the warm glide of fingers over flesh masculine touch, the scrape of a finge

"naked"
"Naked" By Etain "Undress yourself", he ordered, a warm voice, overlaid with the cold of command. She loved that voice, loved the way it caressed her ears. It always made her weak, the soft heat building within her, making her eager to obey. Even so, she hesitated, standing on the carpeted floor, a floor light shining in her eyes, blocking out all sight of the cozy bedroom she knew she was standing in. She always hated this part; reveling the many flaws of her body to his eyes. Kind eyes, stern eyes, they had never judged before, but still that fear stirred within her. She wanted to refuse, feeling vulnerable. She wanted to, but then there was his voice. His voice, now she had to obey. Slowly, she started to unbutton her blouse, setting her jaw, removing herself from the room. It would be over soon, and the play would resume, and she would lose herself in her submission yet again. "Stop." "Stop Master?" she questioned in surprise. She could not see him, wher

I'm A Hater!! Heehee!
1. CHEATERS....(ALL KINDS) 2. THE SUN.....(WHICH IS WHY I AM PASTY WHITE) 3. FAKE BOOBS..(CAUSE THEY ARE WELL...FAKE)(MINE ARE REAL BTW) 4. VIOLENCE....(IT SOLVES NOTHING) 5. DRIVERS WHO TALK ON THEIR CELL PHONES AND CRASH INTO ME THEN SAY ITS MY FAULT, GRRRRRRRR) 6. TWEEKERS....(THEY ALL TURN BAD SOONER OR LATER) 7. HACKERS.....(STOLE MY YAHOO SN....GRRRRRRRR) 8. RACISTS.....(ITS WHATS INSIDE THAT COUNTS) 9. THIEVES.....(GET YOUR OWN!!) 10 STALKERS....(THIS WILL BE ON BOTH HATE AND LOVE LISTS,) (HAHA)

I Did My Best!
I did everything in my power to make you happy! You were never happy! After 5 years and you still weren't happy I finaly realized that you weren't going to be happy! I also realized that it wasn't my fault that you weren't Happy. I admit that I gave up! There wasn't much else I could do, Your being unhappy was killing me! I finally realized that you weren't going to be happy, So I left hoping that it would make you happy. Not a chance cuz you are still not happy! I hoped that the new "one" in you life would life would make you happy, cuz I still care and want only the best for you, But apparently not because you are still not happy! I really wish I knew what to do, mostly because the love I had left for you has long turned to pity and is slowly turning to disgust. Not hate becauese I am long past that. (i will admit that I tried) Am I happy? not at all. there isn't a day that goes by that doesn't remind me of something that happened while we were together, and make me feel like I fa

Not Ready To Make Nice
Forgive, sounds good Forget, I’m not sure I could They say time heals everything But I’m still waiting I’m through with doubt There’s nothing left for me to figure out I’ve paid a price And I’ll keep paying I’m not ready to make nice I’m not ready to back down I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round It’s too late to make it right I probably wouldn’t if I could ‘Cause I’m mad as hell Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should I know you said Can’t you just get over it It turned my whole world around And I kind of like it I made my bed and I sleep like a baby With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’ It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger And how in the world can the words that I said Send somebody so over the edge That they’d write me a letter Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing Or my life will be over I’m not ready to make nice I’m not re

Vt
A word from the UK,events in your country have shocked us here,people are precious!this is terrible for us aswell,letting all my American friends know that we are thinking of you all!condolences to the families of these fine people,its so very very,sad.prayers being said,may God bless all of you and somehow give you some strength!

49 Little Or Unknown Facts About Chuck Norris . . .
For Chay . . . Your hero . . . WHEN LIFE HANDS YOU LEMONS, ASK FOR TEQUILA AND SALT . . . 1. Chuck Norris once roundhouse kicked someone so hard that his foot broke the speed of light, went back in time, and killed Amelia Earhart while she was flying over the Pacific Ocean. 2. Chuck Norris' tears cure cancer. Too bad he has never cried. 3. Chuck Norris does not have AIDS but he gives it to people anyway. 4. Rather than being birthed like a normal child, Chuck Norris instead decided to punch his way out of his mother's womb. Shortly thereafter he grew a beard. 5. When Chuck Norris plays Oregon Trail his family does not die from cholera or dysentery, but rather roundhouse kicks to the face. He also requires no wagon, since he carries the oxen, axels, and buffalo meat on his back. He always makes it to Oregon before you. 6. Chuck Norris sold his soul to the devil for his rugged good looks and unparalleled martial arts ability. Shortly after the transaction was finaliz

How... Odd. No Complaints Here, Mind... Well... Not In The Short Term...
I can access my homepage (cherrytap.com/home.php ) without going through 25 layers of "update your quicktime version" warning. I haven't yet, but I can. Hrm... Good. Because at this aye moment, yes, ;^) I have to start a laundry... *vanishes*

The Beginning -chapter 1
The Beginning Emmeline rolled over displeased as the alarm clock irritant blared blasphemy in her ear. She stared at the clock for a moment, wanting to smash it against the wall for awaking her at 6:45 in the morning. Aggravated, she not only pounded her fist into the sleep button or thrust the annoyance into the nearest wall, but sighed and made a distasteful attempt to get out of bed. Light from behind a blinded window provided just enough site to find a red marker from her nightstand. Facing the wall there the shattered alarm clock lay, she swiftly uncapped the marker and placed a rather large “X” over the eleventh of august on her wall calendar. Only one hundred and seventy nine school days left to go. Scratching her ratty head and rubbing her eyes, young Emmeline somehow, through her dreary haze, managed to find her way to the mirror where she began to inspect herself. Sighing in disappointment she tediously meandered to the chest of drawers in the corner of

Words To Taps
Day is done, gone the sun, From the lake, from the hills, from the sky; All is well, safely rest, God is nigh. Go to sleep, peaceful sleep, May the soldier or sailor, God keep. On the land or the deep, Safe in sleep. Fading light, dims the sight, And a star gems the sky, gleaming bright. From afar, drawing nigh, falls the night. Thanks and praise, for our days, 'Neath the sun, 'neath the stars, neath the sky; As we go, this we know, God is nigh. Sun has set, shadows come, Time has fled, Scouts must go to their beds Always true to the promise that they made. While the light fades from sight, And the stars gleaming rays softly send, To thy hands we our souls, Lord, commend.

Heres Another 1
poem,thoughts whatever you want to call it Scars on my wrist just shows how much pain I'm in stead of holding it in building up inside it exscapesthrough my blood for a second I feel no pain no hidding sarrows just relief from everything faild at suicide now cutting the only thing I got left no one cares what happens to me so why should I the more I care the more I love the pain the sarrow I have to deal with loss is hurtful then a few scares heartach is love that fails might as well have your heart ripped out thats what it feels like an your left with the mess

Darnell Scott To Congress
"Since the dawn of creation there has been both good & evil in the hearts of men and women. We all contain the seeds of kindness or the seeds of violence. The death of my wonderful daughter, Rachel Joy Scott, and the deaths of that heroic teacher, and the other eleven children who died must not be in vain. Their blood cries out for answers. "The f first recorded act of violence was when Cain slew his brother Abel out in the field. The villain was not the club he used.. Neither was it the NCA, the National Club Association. The true killer was Cain, and the reason for the murder could only be found in Cain's heart. "In the days that followed the Columbine tragedy, I was amazed at how quickly fingers began to be pointed at groups such as the NRA. I am not a member of the NRA. I am not a hunter. I do not even own a gun. I am not here to represent or defend the NRA - because I don't believe that they are responsible for my daughter's death. Therefore I do not believe that they need t

Call It What You Will Poem Thoughts Whatever
crack open a beer chase my pain away living a lie hiding behind a fake smile bottled everything up escapes from a slice in the wrist lay dying on the floor covered in my own blood tears run down your face kept asking me why but I couldnt give you that answer

Techology Woes...
Read this last month...been awhile since I've been moved by prose... Technologies of the soul tend to be simple, bodily, slow, and related to the heart as much as the mind. Everything around us tells us we should be mechanically sophisticated, electronic, quick, and informational in our expressiveness--an exact antipode* to the virtues of the soul. It is no wonder, then, that in an age of telecommunications--which, by the way, literally means 'distant connections'--we suffer symptoms of the loss of the soul. We are being urged from every side to become efficient rather than intimate.** ...I think I need to go the laundromat more often. *antipode=opposite **from Soul Mates by Thomas Moore

Mary Wollstonecraft
Women are systematically degraded by receiving the trivial attentions which men think it manly to pay to the sex, when, in fact, men are insultingly supporting their own superiority. • No man chooses evil because it is evil; he only mistakes it for happiness, the good he seeks. • It appears to me impossible that I should cease to exist, or that this active, restless spirit, equally alive to joy and sorrow, should be only organized dust -- ready to fly abroad the moment the spring snaps, or the spark goes out, which kept it together. Surely something resides in this heart that is not perishable -- and life is more than a dream.

The Laura Peel Benefit Show
We've organized an event to help a good friend of ours out. Laura Peel is a 22 year-old mother of two whose been recently diagnosed with advanced melanoma. As she's almost constantly undergoing treament one-hundred miles away from her job, she's unable to work to pay for the medical bills she's racking up. She's going to need a community effort behind her to see her through this, and this is what we aim to achieve. She's been an active member of the local music scene since she's been able to get herself into bars(which was in early high school), and we've been friends for just as long. The great thing about this woman is her attitude about her affliction: her disposition hasn't been affected in the least. She's been facing her endeavor with courage and a smile, and she isn't asking for any of this. She doesn't have to. The event will be hosted @ Suck Bang Blow Four Corners in Garden City on saturday, April 21 @ 4 PM. 6 bands including AFTERMATH, CIRCLES IN AUTUMN, PRIMO NOCTIS

Daters And Players
I am posting this to be responded to... Guess that makes me a player...or am I? Is there a middle ground? Dating seems much more noble, doesn't it...at least the way the paragraph is worded. Player seems really low, yes? Dating is the activity of looking for a suitable partner for a relationship. The word refers to two daters agreeing on a time and date when they can meet and engage in some activity, thereby assessing their suitability for one another. Typically a person may date many different partners during the same time period in order to have the best chance of finding their most suitable available mate. A womanizer, player, or philanderer is a man who engages in love affairs with women he cannot or will not marry. The love affairs are typically sexually motivated, with little emotional attachment. The most famous of these is typically Giacomo Casanova, though his motivations and level of commitment are debatable. There is no corresponding term of "manizer" in the l

The Warmth And The Chill
The Warmth and the Chill I came here to feel the sun go down to think of what I've lost and what I have yet to gain My loves my hurts Watching the warmth disappear behind my heart so, I can feel it again when I wake t redfearn 12/6/06 Chimera i've got dragons to slay and demons to fight i'm not about to hide from my own heart and all the ugliness that resides there if I don't face that horror, that pain how can i ever cherish amy own happiness t redfearn 12/6/06

Falling In Love
falling...falling...falling into a deep hole... filled with blackness... and sorrow... everything seems hopeless... without any reslove... the littlest thing hurt... the biggest thing numb... somehow nothing matters... and nothing would help... but you try... you gave me a hand... but I couldn't grasp it... you gave me a rope... but I couldn't tie it... you gave me a parachute... but I couldn't open it... and when it seems like you got nothing left... you gave me your love... and that stop me from falling... done by christine

Noticeable Notice !
This one goes out to all the people that took the time to, at least, visit my profile. I feel compelled to show these chosen few some love and thank them by stating my gratitude thast they've done so. Even though I've been a member for such a short time on this particular site on the electronic super-highway, I think that there are a few things that I still need to learn and I will continue to do what I can. The time that I spend on "cherrytap" is limited because my days are set aside for school purposes. I guess that if I were to be engrossed in participating in some of the things that are offered for a person to do, but in relation, I could possibly miss out on doing something that may be in my best interests to tend to - rather than trying to collect a bunch of points that only have imaginary use. Anyways, I don't want to come off like a person that tries to - should - people to bend to legitimate reasons for not being a CHEERY. But, I guess that's the way that the cookies cr

Mad Atoms - A Poem
THE MAD ATOMS I. My loneliness drives me to run run run to another's lonliness I will seek the one who will hurt me as before I seek seek But can never wait for the void to find me For the solitude the solice I crave I fear Fear forces me to run from my bliss I ache I seek too much I run too much into the arms of other's fears then, they are mine I forget my own I lose myself But not the way I need to the way I truly hunger for I run run run to the people like you. II. Like a mad atom a chain reaction a white light Blinding us to the beatings we inflicted We destroy ourselves in that We Before we are ready for it Part of the masses the dross the mob the worst common denominators Now... I run from people like you To the solitude To my arms Silence Solice Confidence The I of my eyes Silence silence... and the rest is silence... * t redfearn 1/2/02 & 10/18/06

Close My Eyes
I close my eyes and see your face. I feel your arm`s sweet embrance. With your everlasting love and grace. I close my eyes and see your face. How can a woman be so much more, than ever thought in life before. I close my eyes and see your tears, as you take away all my fears. My eyes are open, now I see, All the things you are to me.... done by christine

Stopped By You
i used to know my family and my friends too but you took it all away because i thought you were true i used to have a heart and maybe a soul too now lost in darkness becuase i loved you i used to smile and sometimes laugh too all that has changed and turned my world blue i used to be strong and had a spirit too where has it gone? I thought i knew i used to know me and even you too i once lived but i was stopped by you done by christine

The Inventor
The inventor of the Harley-Davidson motorcycle, Arthur Davidson, died and went to heaven. At the gates, St. Peter told Arthur, "Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles have changed the world, your reward is that you can hang out with anyone you want to in heaven." Arthur thought about it for a minute and then said, "I want to hang out with God." St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room, and introduced him to God. God recognized Arthur and commented, "Okay, so you were the one who invented the Harley-Davidson motorcycle?" Arthur said, "Yeah, that's me...." God commented: "Well, what's the big deal in inventing something that's pretty unstable, makes noise and pollution and can't run without a road?" Arthur was apparently embarrassed, but finally spoke, "Excuse me, but aren't you the inventor of woman?" God said, " Ah, yes." "Well ," said Arthur, "professional to professional, you have some major design flaws in your invention: 1. There's too

Feelings Of Life
I hear someone screaming in my ears No one is around me as far as I can see I then realize the one who screams It is me I never thought Thought I would consider a friend a pesky flie Or that would bicker bicker as I do with my sister I am growing into a woman Yet I don't understand I don't know how the world works sometimes I hate it I know I'm tough but I am also weak I never show my true feelings not a thing Yet I'm always crying Crying in my heart done by christine

Can You Feel Me?
I can feel you You are out there somewhere Somewhere not too far away We have to make our paths cross We have to finally meet our destinies Our Destinies that is eachother. I can feel you I know what I have to do Do you know what you have to do Can you feel me? I leave you with what I have given you In hopes that you will find your way to me In hopes that you will follow your heart Follow it to me Follow it to your fate. Can you feel me? done by christine

Goodnight
A silent glare crosses the room As the presence of time grows near Staring at the reflection Of a face that has shed a tear Aging beauty still glows brightly Even if it's night In an eye, a sparkle shines Lips smile ever so light A hand touches the old age That brought the memories A tiresome blink of the world And the memories will fade The history to be taught to the young ones The battles that were fought Peace that was promising The end of a legend A lesson in life See the world Before you say goodnight.. done by christine

Key To My Heart
There's so much love locked inside of me In your hands, you hold the right key The key holds the pathway to my heart Let the love I have for you, pour on out. Please don't hesitate on opening the door For it's you my love, the key was made for. Lose the key, and then you will see My love will be locked from you for eternity. done by christine .

Me
APRIL = Smarts APRIL Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

The Test Of True Love
On drop of blood is a small price to pay for a life of love or at least that's what i some people would say What would you be willing to sacrafice to be with someone you love for all time Would you sacrafice your own blood to save that person or would you let them suffer instead? would you be willing to sacrafice your life for there's or would you rather live yourself and go on without them knowing that you had a chance to save them but you backed away from it These queestions if you answered true to them will tell you how much you truely love the person you think you want to be with all your life. done by christine .

Wrong
Where did I go so wrong with you I'll ever understand why you did,what you it You choose the booze You thought you could drink your responsibility Like it didn't exist Blaming everybody,but yourself You were busy running from everything I think at times you were running from yourself I think you need to take reality check Realize what you are about to lose You didn't want a home life I could never understand why,you did want to be home You had a good women at home author-M.G.

Are You Mine
Deep into the evening In the middle of the night I see your pretty face In the pale moonlight Theres no need to run No need to hide You are the one I can feel it inside Give Me a sign To show me your mine done by christine .

And My Family Grows....
I am go glad that so many of my yahoo family is coming to cherry tap...and yes I know that not everyone will of us it all the time....and we all have myspace...but hey...I am having fun...and I hope you all do to.... I love ya'll Di A GREAT SONG TO MY FRIENDS...

Looking Back
Why has it all come down to this My world has come crashing down Now that you're gone Why must you do this to me? Although I am hurting so bad I can't look back Not this time I've got to move on And find someone else But there is one last thing That I want to ask you Please don't look back in disgust At the days I held your hand Please . . . look back At all the times we shared And smile And know that we had fun And know that you will always Always be in my heart And I will always love you . . . done by christine

I Think This Song Defines Me .
SHINEDOWN LYRICS "Burning Bright" I feel like there is no need for conversation Some questions are better left without a reason And I would rather reveal myself than my situation Now and then I consider, my hesitation The more the light shines through me I pretend to close my eyes The more the dark consumes me I pretend I'm burning, burning bright I wonder if the things I did were just to be different To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation Here and now I'll express, my situation [CHORUS (2)] There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right Such a cruel contradiction I know I cross the lines its not easy to define I'm born to indecision There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose With no particular rhyme or reason [CHORUS (2)]

Me
...About You... Eye Color Blue Hair Color Brown Height 5'7 Favorite Color Purple Screen Name ::~Jaime~:: Favorite Band I would have to say Creed Favorite Movie Just Friends Favorite TV Show King Of Queens Your Car Toyotta Corolla Your Hometown Ft.Hood,Texas(where I was born) Your Present Town Ogdensburg Your Crush's First Name ????? Your Grade none Your Style different...depends on what I want to wear ...Have You Ever... Sat on your rooftop not here...but I used to Kissed someone in the rain yes Danced in a public place yupp Smiled for no reason all the time Laughed so hard you cried deffinatly Peed your pants after age 8 haha...guilty Written a song tried...lmao Sang to someone for no reason yes Performed on a stage yes when I was little Talked to someone you don't know everywhere I go Made out in a theater yupp Gone roller skating since 8th grade no Been in love yes ...Can You... Write with both hands no Whistle yes Blow

"no One Else"
I see her soul die beneath his fingers. He has snuffed out her life like the flame of a candle. He doesn't know and doesn't care that he has ruled her life over a year. He only knows of himself. I feel the pain that echoes through her body. Her fragile existence has been shattered. She has lived her life for him and he hasn't bothered to notice. He only lives for himself. I hear her tears as they ring in the darkness. I cannot withstands her suffering any longer. She knows no other way of life and now she must try to move on. For he only loves himself. done by christine

Is There Anyone Out There?
Is there anyone out there? Yelling down the pitch black hall I wondered if they were there? Do they hear my calls? Solitude to overcome . Are they friends? Or long days to overcome? Talking to myself in black and white . The verbal communication is what I write. Jaded from the passing time. Keeping myself company with this rhyme. Shadow figures on the wall . The movement light dancing , Is the call . Entertainment on whim. My mind is cluttered My loneliness is my sin. Echoes of a time to pass My solitude is what I grasp Wicked is this curse For with my self I shall converse . By Scott baker

Without You
When I look back on these times forgotten All i'll see is you All the pain and hurt you caused The neverending tears From your forgotten promises The pain endured From all my lonley times Without you When i look back on these times forgotten All i'll see is death Thre death of you, me, and a love in vain My lost hurt soul Shall feel no more pain, and shed no more tears For a love once strong But now gone The pain I once endured Now makes me strong done by christine

My Memory Of You.
I have all the pictures of when we were two But I don't need pictures to remember you I can see your face every single night I can almost feel you holding me tight I know all the ways you used to be I can only hope that you remember me. done by christine

Some People Are Just Cruel
There are many who say things, without a care in the world who they hurt. Careless words behind her back. Do they not think the object of their derision will ever hear? One I love and care for was hurt today, by some heartless comments. No, for all of you who may read this, it was not done here at Cherry Tap. Yes, there are some who are not nice. But neither I or my friend prejudge anyone. All that I have had a chance to talk with have been fantastic! I just would like to take this moment to tell my special Lady friend, I Love You and I am always here for you 24/7/365. Never let the Bahstids (yes, that's my New England accent!) Get You Down!

Two People In One
Two people in one, one happy,one sad. Two sides of me, one mad and one glad. There's only one side I try to let show; my feelings inside the others don't know. I'm two people in one-- as strange as that sounds, the real me inside no one has found. done by christine .

I Love You So Much
I love you so much You don't have a clue I love you so much That's all I ever do I love you so much I wish you could know I love you so much But I'm still standing low I love you so much I can feel your heart beat I love you so much But I fall back in defeat I love you so much I don't know what to say I love you so much And you'll love me, too, one day. done by christine .

I Couldn't Help It
I sit here all by myself thinking about the world today. How everything seems to happen at the wrong times. How everything is all work and no play. Where did all the fun go? I can't seem to see. That as I grow older. I'm loosing a part of me. Then I think to myself," Life's not so bad" I mean I got you and you got me. I have no reason to be sad. It's you that I get up each day. With out you I wouldn't be me. Life with out you would be hard for me to say. You are the one that God made me for. The closer you get to me, The faster my heart soar. Your my friend, your like no other. But most of all. You are the one i want in my life . done by christine .

Baby I Still Love You
i still can't forget the dream-like glint in your eyes even though i still search for you i can't realize that our special light had burned away as i was thinking about you everyday but how can i forget you i thought our love was true tears flowing from my downcast eyes the air is full of my cries what more do i have to give what reason do i have to live looking out the window now im supposed to stand i dont know how livin in the world of loneliness victim of love please dont be like this what went wrong i do not know this love for you i want to show thinkin about the days dreamin about the past i really wanted our love to last our love was so true baby i still love you done by christine .

Silently Loving You
I sat watching the rain come down Late one stormy night Trying to convince myself That what you said was right. You said it's better we're apart But as hard as I try I simply can not stop loving you To my heart I can not lie. I remember times of me and you Walking hand in hand Then you changed and left me here With all our broken plans. At night sometimes I almost hear You calling out to me Reminding me that I will always be Silently loving you. done by christine

I Promise
I promise to always love you, I promise to be true, That I will forsake all others For this love I offer you. So why can't you say I love you And make a promise too? I will always be there, No matter what you do. I promise to always cherish you, And the hard times we'll see through. I promise I'll always be there; Will you be there for me too? It takes two to work together To make a house a home. I will do my very best, But can't do it all alone. As I promise all these things to you, I hope you understand, I like to know I'm a woman to my special man. A woman needs attention And to know that she's loved too. To you I send this message; It's the last one I'll send you. done by christine

True Love
I looked into His eyes, There was no doubt in my mind, I was looking into the future, Our future. The days passed by, Then the months passed by, Nothing. Dreams spoke to me, I had visions of the future, Just dreams. He spoke to me, Dreams had become reality, Hope was restored. As time passes, He will realize the truth, This is who we are. done by chrisitne

Pics
My self XXX pics are coming back, be on watch for them. However if you are on my friends list and I can not see private photos that you have you will either have to make it to where I can see your pics or you will be removed from my friends list. This has been a public serice announcement for the better good of a females moisture lol.

The Demon Within
Deep in the core of me, there's a side I rarely show, Buried in the heart of me is something I hope you never know, Locked behind my eyes, Is someone you'll seldom see, Stored behind my very soul, is the one I don't want to be. Trapped in every part of me, fighting to get out, Is something dark and sinister, that most only read about. This twisted and demented thing, trapped within my soul, Putting thoughts inside my head, urging me to lose control. Always tugging at the chains of a past I wish I didn't know, Pulling me into its misery like a tainted sea of undertows, I can not be rid of this demon, no matter how I try, The day that I'm rid of this thing will be the day I die. So if I seem so not myself, as the person you usually see, Blame not my troubled heart, my friend, but the demon within me.

My Fucking Ex
WELL MY EX CALLED TO DAY TO BITCH ME OUT BUT I SAID FUCK YOU YOUR THE BITCH WHO WHANTED TO LEAVE NOT ME SO WERE ARGUED FOR 20 MINUTES THEN SHE HUNG UP AND SENT A TEXT MESSAGE TO MY CELL HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT WHAT A BITCH SHE IS SO I DELETED IT AND TOOK HERE OFF MY PHONE AND NO LONGER HAVE HERE EMAIL EITHER SO OVERALL SHE IS A BITCH A LIER AND A SLUT SO FUCK HERE.

For Him (dream Lover)
I feel you next to me at night, Your breath soft upon my skin, I can hear you whisper my name, Your voice, my favorite sin, I can feel your gentle touch, Feel your lips brush against my own, I'm too far gone to stop this now, All traces of restraint have flown. Caught up in my dreams and mind, I'm wrapped up in the feelings, Leaving the real world far behind. When I close my eyes to these four walls, I can see your wicked smile. And my mind reaches out to you, Destroying all the boundaries and miles. Its seems as if our souls meld together, Somewhere beyond time and space, And the passion overwhelms me, As I reach out to touch your face, The very heavens seem on fire, As I let the mystery wind down, Your caress the only thing i feel, My name on your lips the only sound. Heaven can know no greater pleasure, Hell can provide no greater anguish, Than knowing it's nothing but a dream, And I can never have more than this. I've welcomed you each night fall, Since

Nascar
Ok after the race sunday we all heard Tony Stewart cry and cry.. He is such a fuckn cry baby from hell.. Hes just as bad as Jeff Gordon... Juan Pablo Montoya was in no wrong sunday in the race.. He didnt intentionally hit Tony.. It was a racing deal... Tony is just mad cuz he got beat by a rookie... I think it is funny as fuck that he beat Tony neways and he would of beat Tony neways if tony wouldnt of spun out.. Then Tony wants to talk bout no being netype of frien if Juan then says if he had enuff money he would retire.. but does nebody remember how bad Tony was with his attitude and spinning ppl out?? Look who had to got to anger management.. lol... Dont get me wrong Tony is a good driver but he needs to learn alot of respect..Juan is a rookie and he is gonna make mistakes.. Everybody is not perfect... Then what do u think bout Dale Jr.. driving for a different team sunday for 9 laps? Let me know... I want him to go to RCR if he leaves DEI and drive the #3 car.. Thats what his plans

Some Thoughts
Well i weighed in a little too late on monday which even then was a day late.. but i maintained so that good i guess better than a gain.. ... The down fall.. i watching this show and i wish i could pull off this look with a skinny suit.. or blink and be where i use to be.. this journey is not easy it is really tough.. havent given up yet..

Obstacles Are The Stepping Stones Of Success
OBSTACLES ARE THE STEPPING STONES OF SUCCESS by Harvey Mackay A man was walking in the park one day when he came upon a cocoon with a small opening. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through the little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It looked like it had gotten as far as it could, so the man decided to help the butterfly. He used his pocketknife and snipped the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily, but something was strange. The butterfly had a swollen body and shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected at any moment the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened. In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and deformed wings. It was never able to fly. What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting c

For The Victims & Loved & Cherished Ones Of Vt...
" Butterflies To Heaven " -------------------------------------------------- GONE, YET NOT FORGOTTEN, ALTHOUGH WE ARE APART, YOUR SPIRIT LIVES WITHIN ME, FOREVER IN MY HEART... IF BUTTERFLIES COULD FLY TO HEAVEN, THEY WOULD BRING MY LOVE TO YOU, AND YOURS RIGHT BACK TO ME... 04/16/2007 A DAY NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN @-- NAMES OF THE VICTIMS OF VT > Body: In Memory of the Following... > > Now in the arms of the Angels... > > 1.Ross Abdallah Alameddine, 20 > 2.Jamie Bishop, 35, > 3.Brian Bluhm, 25, > 4.Ryan Clark, 22 > 5.Austin Cloyd, 18, > 6.Jocelyne Couture-Nowak, age unknown > 7.Daniel Perez Cueva, 21, > 8.Kevin Granata, 45 > 9.Matthew Gwaltney, 24 > 10.Caitlin Hammaren, 19 > 11.Jeremy Herbstritt, 27 > 12.Rachael Hill, 18 > 13.Emily Jane Hilscher, 19, > 14.Matthew La Porte, age unknown > 15.Jarrett Lane, 22 > 16.Henry Lee, age unknown > 17.Liviu Librescu, 76 > 18.G.V. Loganathan, 51 > 19.Partahi Lombantoruan, 34

A Great Life Lesson
An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck. One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do. After two years of what it perceived to be B bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house." The old woman smiled, "Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other

My Ex Boyfriend
He calls me when he wants to He never answer the phone when I call He is a very good lover He stood me up nth time He promised me forever He said he cannot live without me But he is still alive And I am not with him now He told told me he love me He still tell me that now He told he misses me He still say it until now He told me he miss my kisses And nobody kissed him like i do He said he miss making love to me And nobody loves him like I do He said he still want me And wished that I still want him too He said he wanted to see me again I told him that's a good thing to do He had been telling me he'll visit me He had been saying that for three months He said he is still my boyfriend I think it's a waste of time He said its gonna be us forever Where did he get that lie? He said there will be no end I couldn't even smile I've told him goodbye 26 times He came back and I accepted him 27 times What a fool am I? I wish he could read this But he don't even know

How High Up The Sex Mountain Are You?
GOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEEEEEEEEE!!! You scored as At the top.. Yup, you've climbed Sex Mountain to the top. You know how to give it good, and receive it even better! Lucky you!At the top.83%Somewhere in the middle.67%At the bottom.0%How high are you up Sex Mountain?created with QuizFarm.com

Friends
Well it might seem weid why im writing bout people i haven't seen in years but you know what i love these people & i miss them with all my heart.. (basically) anyways.... ill give the name of a person and a comment or good memory bout them, Tiffany Izer, she's like a sister to me. I love her so much. We would always play kick ball & roll with the guys, we have great Blonde moments! & we will always be BFF's for life.. no one can stop tht from happening! Khyrsten Hitt, omg I love this girl so much.. we are sistah no matter what! Khyrsten & i where born to be Wild & crazy together. We always used to hang out, play kick ball.... talk bout things... & always sleep over at eachothers houses! this girl is so cool.. i miss her soo much, i talk to her every chance i get, her lil sister Bryttnie Hitt is the same, but we never played kick ball together

If I Don't Get This Back, I Understand.
If I don't get this back, I understand. But I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to 15 people that you really care about, including the person that sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back, then you are loved. Nobody knows what they have until they lose it. You never leave the person whom you love for the one you like, because that person who you like will leave you for the person whom they love. Tonight, right at 12:00am, your true love is going to realize that they LOVE you! Then something is going to happen to you between 1:00 and 2:00 a.m. Tomorrow, be ready for the greatest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you are going to have bad luck in love for the next years of your life. Send this to 15 people in 15 minutes. Do it if you wanna know who your real love is

Alive Again By Artistic
she came into my life like a speeding arrow she struck my heart at full speed, I fell before I realized anything I was on the ground crawling on hands and knees I fell hard for her it became a moment of clarity and a moment of confusion she took my breath away that is when I knew something in me had died when I found myself on the ground facing the heavens, I had awaken for the first time I realized NOW, I FEEL ALIVE that was the first time I could breathe again for the first time I could see again and I saw an ANGEL to me, SHE IS HEAVEN SENT if not for her coming into my life I would still be that guy without words that guy, without thoughts I grew passionately in love I gave her, my heart I kept the arrow she struck me with since then, I have learned as if, I was never here everything had become strang to me slowly, I began to understand the meaning of lifes gifts I began to le

Things Arent Too Bad Concidering...
Thought i would let my friends know that all is going pretty good concidering. Kids are healthy, and happy. Mike and I broke up awhile back, and I still live here with him for another couple of months. Im waiting for my daughter to get out of school, and then they are going to their dads, and I will start packing, and move. I hope to be completly moved,and working by the end of June. I am moving back to the Joplin (Mo) area where I have friends and family. Hope all is well with my friends....MUWHAAAAAA ~~Amber

Walmart
One day, in line at the company cafeteria, Jack says to Mike behind him, my > > >elbow hurts like hell. I guess I better see a doctor." "Listen, you don't > > >have to spend that kind of money," Mike replies. "There's a diagnostic > > >computer down at WalMart. Just give it a urine sample and the computer'll > > >tell you what's wrong and what to do about it. It takes ten seconds and > > >costs ten dollars...a lot cheaper than a doctor." So Jack deposits a urine > > >sample in a small jar and takes it to WalMart. He deposits ten dollars, and > > >the computer lights up and asks for the urine sample. He pours the sample > > >into the slot and waits. Ten seconds later, the computer ejects a printout: > > >"You have tennis elbow. Soak your arm in warm water and avoid heavy > > >activity. It will improve in two weeks." > > > > > > That evening while thinking how amazing this new technology was, Jack > > >began > > >wondering if the computer could be fooled. He mixed some tap

Poetic Justice
Ironically enough today I have heard from several friends that I have lost contact with in the last year. Each of them asks the usual things but also they have allowed me a little piece of knowledge that makes me feel wonderful. My ex fience who I loved very much. We had a bike shop together and well it turned out very badly. He moved down south with his ex wife and girlfriend. Well he fell on his face and moved back and I can't wait till he hears that I am still working at a bike shop. Part of me still wants to say I love him but the other 99% just wants him gone that is why I gave him my bike. But as a woman I wish I could be mean but I would just rather let him look at me knowing I am still working at a bike shop and he isn't and let him dwell on that.

Girlfriend Application
sEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THiS BACK TO YOU! Ladies TiTLE iT "BOYFRiEND APPLiCATiON" Fellas TiTLE iT "" GiRLFRiEND APPLiCATION 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Birthday:. 5. Hobbies: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. Would you ever ask me out? 5. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 6. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 7. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 8.Would you walk on the beach with me? 9. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 10. Do you/have you talked about me? 11. Do you think I'm a good person? 12. Would u take a nap with me? 13.Do you think I'm cute? 14. If you could change anything about me -would you? 15.Would you dance with me? 16.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? 17. Would you go to "myspace.com/soccerbabe1592" and add it ? 18. If we w

Alive Again
she came into my life like a speeding arrow she struck my heart at full speed, I fell before I realized anything I was on the ground crawling on hands and knees I fell hard for her it became a moment of clarity and a moment of confusion she took my breath away that is when I knew something in me had died when I found myself on the ground facing the heavens, I had awaken for the first time I realized NOW, I FEEL ALIVE that was the first time I could breathe again for the first time I could see again and I saw an ANGEL to me, SHE IS HEAVEN SENT if not for her coming into my life I would still be that guy without words that guy, without thoughts I grew passionately in love I gave her, my heart I kept the arrow she struck me with since then, I have learned as if, I was never here everything had become strang to me slowly, I began to understand the meaning of lifes gifts I began to le

Thomas Ready To Run To Daylight With Sabres
Thomas ready to run to daylight with Sabres Thurman Thomas was a regular at Sabres' games during his tenure with the NFL's Buffalo Bills. Back in late March, Thurman Thomas was in Buffalo visiting his father-in-law, Bob Mariacher, who was recovering nicely after a bout with encephalitis. While in town the newest member of the Pro Football Hall of Fame decided to take in a Sabres game. The Sabres honored Thomas at the game by presenting him with a Sabres jersey with Thomas’s name as well as his No. 34 that he made famous with the Buffalo Bills. Going to a Sabres game is nothing new to the former running back, considering he was a regular at their hockey games while a member of the Bills for 12 seasons (1988-1999). In fact, Thomas is one of the Sabres’ biggest fans, even to this day while residing outside of his home in Orlando, Florida. Interestingly enough, Thomas’ hockey roots go back to his days growing up outside of Houston. “It was back in Houston when the

Sabres Wait For Enemy
By Tim Graham and John Vogl NEWS SPORTS REPORTERS Updated: 04/08/07 9:50 AM WASHINGTON — It’s down to Teddy or Toronto. The Buffalo Sabres, who were the first team to clinch an NHL playoff spot, have to wait until today — the final day of the regular season — to find out who they will meet in the first round. The candidates are the New York Islanders and coach Ted Nolan, who must beat the New Jersey Devils this afternoon to earn the spot, or the archrival Maple Leafs. Toronto’s third-period comeback Saturday night against Montreal capped a gunslinging, 6-5 affair. The victory eliminated the Canadiens and gave possession of the final playoff spot to the Leafs, whose regular season is over. They will hold onto the No. 8 seed if the Devils beat the Islanders; New Jersey is locked into the second spot, so it has little incentive to win. “We knew it was probably going to come down to the last day or the night before, so there’s not a lot of difference,” said Sabres coach L

When I Came Into Work Today...
(Originally posted on March 1, 2007)I felt like this guy.(I know I've posted him before, but he deserves it again. Especially since I felt exactly like this today. I even sighed when I got off the elevator.)tag: work, careers, job, tired-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Buffalo Sabres Capture 2006-07 Presidents' Trophy
Buffalo Sabres Capture 2006-07 Presidents' Trophy NEW YORK (April 7, 2007) -- The Buffalo Sabres have captured the 2006-07 Presidents' Trophy, awarded to the club finishing the regular season with the League's best record. The Sabres (53-21-7, 113 points) clinched the trophy today for the first time in franchise history following their 2-0 victory over the Washington Capitals. The Presidents' Trophy winner is guaranteed home-ice advantage throughout its participation in the Stanley Cup Playoffs. With the victory, the Sabres established a franchise record for wins in a season, surpassing the previous mark of 52 set last season. Buffalo also tied the franchise record for points in a season, matching the 113 in 1974-75, and can set a new mark with at least one point in its final game of the season, tomorrow at Philadelphia. With Tuesday's 4-1 win at Pittsburgh, the Sabres clinched their first division title since 1996-97 and the fifth division crown in franchise history. The win

Heart Warming
HEARTWARMING STORY Here's a heartwarming story about the bond formed between a little girl and some construction workers. This will make you believe that we CAN make a difference when we give a child the gift of your time... A young family moved into a house next door to a vacant lot. One day, a construction crew came in and began building a house on the empty lot. The family's 5-year-old daughter became interested in all the activity going on next door and spent much of each day observing the workers. Eventually, the construction crew, all of them gems-in-the-rough, more or less adopted her as a project mascot. They chatted with her, let her sit with them while they took coffee and lunch breaks, and gave her little jobs to do here and there to make her feel important. At the end of the first week, the men presented her with a pay envelope which contained $2.00.The little girl took this home to her mother, who said all the appropriate words of admiration, and sugg

Sabres Still Have Something To Play For
Daniel Briere and the Buffalo Sabres look to end the season on a high note against the Philadelphia Flyers this Sunday on NBC. The Buffalo Sabres have been so good this season it seems almost like they clinched a playoff berth months ago. They’ve already clinched the Eastern Conference crown and the Northeast Division title, but there is still one more order of business the Sabres want to take care of before the Stanley Cup Playoffs start. They are still in the hunt for the top position in the entire NHL, jockeying with the Detroit Red Wings atop the league standings with a Presidents' Trophy and home-ice advantage throughout the playoffs still up for grabs. “Well, I think it's a great goal,” Sabres coach Lindy Ruff has said of winning the Presidents’ Trophy. “Is it important? In the big scheme of things, it's not what we're after. I think we're on our way to try to win the Cup. If the Presidents' Trophy gets in the way, I'm OK with that. It's not something that we focus on.

The Legend Of The Idiot Boss: Living A Chessmatch
(Originally posted on January 23, 2007)For the past few months, I have scheduled appointments early every other Monday morning to get out of one company meeting.This week, though, Idiot Boss rescheduled the meeting I missed to this morning today (Wednesday). Therefore, I had to sit through the crappy meeting, listening to him talk about all sorts of things.However, I will have the last laugh. My wife gave me a stomach bug that the emergency room doctor said is infecting about half the county. I probably passed that bug to everyone in the room. Including, of course, the Idiot Boss.See, it's like chess. You have to think several moves ahead...tag: Idiot Boss, meetings, revenge, business, health-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

In Benefit For Parete, A Subplot On The Ice
http://www.buffalonews.com/102/story/41499.html Sabre alumni, police renew heated rivalry Everyone’s promoting it as a benefit for wounded Buffalo Police Officer Patty Parete, but there’s an interesting subplot to Thursday night’s hockey game between the Buffalo Sabres Alumni and the Buffalo Police Department in HSBC Arena. A few years ago, in a 3-on-3 Corporate Challenge game between the Sabres organization and the Buffalo Police Department, the game got a little physical, with Sabres coach Lindy Ruff and Lt. Paul R. Delano both using their sticks for more than stickhandling and shooting. “Paul started it, and Lindy responded in kind,” Detective William C. Donovan said. “That’s the way it is in hockey.” “Lindy joked afterwards that he was afraid of driving around Buffalo, that he would get a ticket,” Sabres public relations director Michael M. Gilbert said. “The Buffalo police guys certainly haven’t forgotten that.” But the competition will all be in fun Thursday n

Damn It....
what a pain in the ass...... I was going to go and blow some film at the park with a friend, until I found out it's almost 4pm, and my model is supost to go with someone else while they get there tattoo's finished (which incidently she didn't remember she had to do) I can go and shoot later, around 7pm or 8pm but the point was to shoot with natural light!!! I'm annoyed.........What else is new??

Ruff Not Sure If Connolly’s Ready
http://www.buffalonews.com/111/story/47879.html Buffalo Sabres center Tim Connolly has proclaimed to the coaching staff he’s ready to play. It’s foreseeable doctors will clear him to return for Saturday’s road game against the Washington Capitals. That doesn’t mean Sabres coach Lindy Ruff will feel comfortable enough to use the itchy triggerman. “A doctor can clear him to play, but let’s be realistic,” Ruff said Thursday before the Sabres played the Boston Bruins in HSBC Arena. “The conditioning part could be an issue.” Everybody knows Connolly’s medical history by now. He hasn’t played for 11 months, his status vacillating between encouraging to demoralizing sometimes on a daily basis. Now that the Baldwinsville native is tantalizingly close to making his long-awaited return, the Sabres indicated they would be cautious in re-inserting him. “The overall question still is conditioning,” Ruff said. “There’s nothing else. He hasn’t played in [11 months]. You can try

No Place Like Home
No place like home Sabres vs. Bruins: Buffalo adds to its pile of team records while rallying to beat Boston By Tim Graham Updated: 04/06/07 7:47 AM The Buffalo Sabres piled out of the bench amid jubilation. They skated over to goalie Ryan Miller and congratulated him on breaking a record. They lauded Thomas Vanek for his big goals. They let Maxim Afinogenov know they were glad to see him blurring about the ice again. Then the Sabres skated to center ice and raised their sticks to salute the HSBC Arena faithful to close out one of the most memorable home seasons in Buffalo history. The Sabres concluded their regular- season home schedule Thursday night, beating the Boston Bruins, 4-2. The Sabres won after trailing by two or more goals for the 10th time this season, two such comebacks short of the modern-day NHL record. The Sabres also solidified their chances of clinching the President’s Trophy. With two games to play against the Eastern Conference’s two

Has This Ever Happen To U??
A man walks up to a woman in his office each day, stands very Close to her, draws in a very deep breath of air and tells her That her hair smells nice. After a week of this, she can't stand it any longer, and goes To the Human Resources Department to report him. She tells HR what The man does and wants to file a sexual harassment suit against him. The HR supervisor is puzzled by this approach and asks, "What's sexually threatening about a co-worker telling you your hair smells nice?" The woman replies, "Its Keith, the midget."

Fast Update On Me
hello friends and fans, well i have landed the all time job and starting monday i will only be worken one job as then i will be maken more money an hour then having both jobs put together, so what a big relief now i can start resting and relaxing and be on here more often, see yall soon

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Ummm... Nope. Can't See It...
(Originally posted on January 23, 2007)What's wrong with this picture?(I'll give you a hint: Monty Python sung a song about it...)tag: religion, catholic, condoms, sex, humor, funny-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Buffalo Sabres Myspace Party With Location
I'm forwarding this from my MYSPACE ACCOUNT. Hopefully some of us can make it there & meet in Person! Click to join NHLFA_Sabres This is BLOGGED on both the Yahoo Groups and Cherry Tap here: http://cherrytap.com/blog/68533 Please Stop by & leave me some comments and Thoughts. Take Care & Have a Happy Easter, David Hello Sabres fans, The Myspace Sabres are hosting a party in conjunction with AdbTees.com on Saturday April 21st, at Club W, 199 Deleware Ave. at 7pm to benefit the Buffalo Sabres Foundation. Entry to The Sabres Celebration Event will be a $5 donation to the Buffalo Sabres Foundation and will get you raffle tickets for some great door prizes including, but not limited to, local merchant gift certificates, "God Bless Playoff Beard" shrts, themed gift baskets, autographed music DVD's, swag form the local outfitter Zumiez, and much more. There will also be a GRAND PRIZE DRAWING for a framed and signed Ryan Miller jersey, and si

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I personally recommend this must have tool for any musician, writer or lyricist. 100% FREE! Click Here to Learn More Click Here to Learn More "This is a 'must have' for any musician, writer or lyricist! No doubt, there will be statesmen and government copywriters using this program for speech writing (if they aren’t already!). This software is a 'no-brainer' for inclusion into school programs and as an adjunct tool within the curriculums; it is simple enough to be used at the grade school and high school levels and provides such advanced features that university students will benefit greatly by using it as well! This very well may be the 'killer app.' of the lyrical world and it’s FREE!" More... ~Professor Joseph Pisano Director of Music and Fine Arts Technology Assistant Chairman of Music and Fine Arts Grove City College, Grove City, PA

Fighting Issue Should Be Least Of League's Worries
Fighting issue should be least of league's worries By Scott Burnside, ESPN.com Do us a favor and wake us when the fighting debate is over. Ho-hum. Is there anything more predictable than the outcry over the role of fighting in hockey after a couple of highlight-reel KOs? The NHL should be less concerned about the place of fighting in the game than the apparently criminal lack of IQ of players who are most likely to fight. At the very least, it would make for an interesting college study -- are players who fight regularly more or less likely to be considered dunderheads than the rest of the NHL population? We don't think it'd take too long to come up with a thesis. Exhibit A would be Todd Fedoruk, who squared off with New York Rangers bruiser Colton Orr and ended up with his face caved in for his troubles. If it weren't for the fact this is the second time this season Fedoruk has suffered such a fate, we might be able to work up a bit of sympathy. But Fedoruk's beating follo

Sabres Top All Pro Teams In What They Give To Fans
Sabres top all pro teams in what they give to fans ESPN ranks 122 sports franchises By Gene Warner Updated: 03/27/07 3:54 PM Sabres owner B. Thomas Golisano likes that fans think they're getting a bargain. It will be another 2½ months before any team skates around a National Hockey League rink, hoisting the Stanley Cup in triumph. But the Buffalo Sabres already can claim they’re No. 1 — in an ESPN The Magazine ranking of all 122 major professional sports franchises. Called the Ultimate Standings, the listing ranks pro franchises on how well they pay back their fans for all the time, money and emotion fans invest in their teams. “The Sabres score big in our fifth survey of how pro teams pay back their fans — and teach the rest of sports a lesson on stoking the faithful’s fire,” states the sub-headline of the story, being published Wednesday. That lofty ranking comes just four years after the team was mired in bankruptcy, with both its ownership and

Just A Poem....many More To Come...at Least One A Day!
A woman who doesn't see herself The way she truly should Is somewhat like the past mistakes You'd change them if you could Beauty shown in every sense Sincere in every glance Never seeing her own potential Afraid to take the chance To me you can do anything And I'd be there 'till the end Standing by you as a partner Or even just a friend Let me show you what I see So you can understand Why I want to be with you And hold you by the hand Take you in a warm embrace And gaze into your eyes Kiss you gently on your lips And let love surprise 12/23/03 ``` Cory

How Horny Are You After All?
You scored as Night horny. You tend to get hot when the others are getting tired. You want to have some in the dark time, possibly in the candlelight or in the dark with moon as your only light. Night time can be very romantic with moon, stars and candlelights, but be aware your companion might get tired before it's late enough.Night horny94%Morning horny94%Day horny67%How HORNY are you after all?created with QuizFarm.com

How To Clean Your Toilet
1. Put both lids of the toilet up and add 1/8 cup of pet shampoo to the water in the bowl. 2. Pick up the cat and soothe him while you carry him towards the bathroom. 3 In one smooth movement, put the cat in the toilet and close both lids. You may need to stand on the lid. 4. The cat will self agitate! and make ample suds. Never mind the noises that come from the toilet, the cat is actually enjoying this. 5. Flush the toilet three or four times. This provides a "power-wash" and rinse". 6. Have someone open the front door of your home. Be sure that there are no people between the bathroom and the front door. 7. Stand behind the toilet as far as you can, and quickly lift both lids. 8. The cat will rocket out of the toilet, streak through the bathroom, and run outside where he will dry himself off. 9. Both the commode and the cat will be sparkling clean. Sincerely, The Dog ===================================================================

What Is The Nhlfa_sabres
Are you asking yourself -- What is the NHLFA_SABRES? Well the NHLFA_SABRES is a Yahoo Group that I created, to find other Sabres fans that are interested in starting a Buffalo Sabres Chapter club of the NHL Fans' Association (NHLFA). Now you don't need to Live in the Buffalo to join the Group. Just want to enjoy watching the Buffalo Sabres or even Hockey in General. Click to join NHLFA_Sabres

What Is The Nhlfa
What is the NHLFA? It is the National Hockey League Fan Association http://www.nhlfa.com/ The NHLFA was established in 1998 to give average hockey fans across North America an affordable (that is, free!) way to express their views on the NHL. We all recognize that hockey today is first, big business and second, sport. It's the fans who keep this business afloat. But of all the interest groups involved in hockey, fans are generally at the bottom of the pecking order, while paying top dollar at the ticket office, the concession booth and the souvenir store. The National Hockey League and owners have Gary Bettman as their representative; the players have Ted Saskin, Executive Director of the NHLPA; the fans have very little representation. The NHLFA aims to change that and to give fans a voice in the future of the NHL. The NHLFA is governed by a four person board of directors in Ottawa. Our primary means of elevating the collective voice of hockey fans is through our year

Hokie Poem
This is about what happened at VA Tech. It is not close to saying enough, but really, what can you say? Eyes and ears Wide open Your soul remains Aghast You search for Information In hope of finding Clarity But how can this Make sense A classroom becomes A makeshift morgue Calm and reason Collapse We will never Have the answer Why Merely speculation And theory All we know Is we can’t know The explanation For this Tragedy

Jabberwocky
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe; All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe. "Beware the Jabberwock, my son! The jaws that bite, the claws that catch! Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun The frumious Bandersnatch!" He took his vorpal sword in hand: Long time the manxome foe he sought— So rested he by the Tumtum tree, And stood awhile in thought. And as in uffish thought he stood, The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame, Came whiffling through the tulgey wood, And burbled as it came! One, two! One, two! And through and through The vorpal blade went snicker-snack! He left it dead, and with its head He went galumphing back. "And hast thou slain the Jabberwock? Come to my arms, my beamish boy! O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!" He chortled in his joy. 'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe; All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe.

How Sexual Are You?
You scored as Very Kinky. You are very Kinky. Yuo are not over the top but you like kinky arousements and you are willing to try something new every time. You will make a very fun sex partnerVery Kinky100%A Sicko30%Average30%A WUSS !!20%How sexual are youcreated with QuizFarm.com

A Poem For My Son, Written When He Was A Baby
To my wonderful, beautiful boy, You fill my days and nights with joy. To watch you grow and see your smiles, I'd walk a hundred thousand miles. I'd do anything to keep you safe, For you I have so much love and faith. You are what keeps me going when nothing else seems right, I love to hug you and hold you tight. Dont forget that I love you dear, I want to keep you close and near. I'll never ever stop loving you, Until my last breath, this is true. I love you Jaedon, Love, Mommy

The Lost
Perpetual wandering, insane mumblings, twiddling of fingers. Lost in the darkness, I wander alone. I fear not as this has always the way for me. I am lost for all of time that has been and is to be, the dark is part of me and i dwell in this place, my eternal purgatory. Remembering the light , sometimes I long for it, to see it, to touch it, to be a part of it. I was a part of it once!, so long ago . I can barely recall. Now I only know this place!, I only know this moment, the darkness reaches inside my mind, it puts thoughts there to torment me, I embrace them, they are all I have.

Struggle
Struggle as a child took her first breath those precious brown eyes opened for the first time admiring the world around her a small finger clung to her hand... as now there was a bond... from mother to daughter... months went by as mother carried child.. a mother anticipated the arrival of a miracle.. when the time came to rock that child to sleep in sync were both heart beats... At the moment she took her journey to heaven she took the mightiest breath she could and suffered no more she met those beatiful angels at heaven's door.. as days pass and months go by a mother awaits the moment she will again see her daughter alive every minute of every day a mother struggles through life even to find the right words to say....... not as complete as she once was but somewhat content in knowing Makenzie is with god............

This Semester!
The semester is almost at a close. I am so looking forward to the summer. This weekend is going to be hot, and its the first weekend we have had here in Wv worth walking outside.... Gonna get some riding in... YAY!!!! Well Cherry tap is kool, I'm new here but I am learning very quickly how to manage my site. Ok thats all for now. !!

On Altars And Family
(Originally posted on January 23, 2007)A few weeks ago, I decided to move my altar into a spare bedroom we are currently using for storage. This would allow me to perform rituals without having to kick my wife out of the computer room (where the altar is now). So I spent quite some time cleaning up the spare bedroom to make it possible to use it.Now, my step-father-in-law (I'll call him Jail Bird) is currently in prison for a crime he (according to my wife and mother-in-law) did not commit. He is coming up for a parole hearing at the end of March. My wife said that if he gets paroled, he would need a place to live for a while as part of the requirements for being paroled. This means that he would get the spare bedroom and the altar would stay where it is.I was slightly disappointed, but hey, he's family.Last night my wife called up her mother. It seems that JB sent my mother-in-law a letter stating stuff like he could never completely trust her (or something to that effect). My

What Piercingare You?
OK.........so this is really funny......hahahhahahaha....cuz I don't have the typical normal piercings...lol!!! You scored as Dirty Piercings. AH!!! You dirty person you! Put that away!!! Who did that for you!? Your the kinkiest of the kinkiest and probably think you're hot stuff. Well, maybe you are but that's kinda nasty. Ew. Weirdo.Dirty Piercings100%Labret Piercing90%Tongue Piercing90%Nipples90%Belly Button Piercing80%Earlobe Piercing80%Cartilage Piercing80%Lip Piercing60%Nose Piercing30%What Piercing Are You?created with QuizFarm.com

Door-to-door Belief Peddlers
(Originally posted on January 22, 2007)Fortunately, I don't have to put up with the bullsh!t of evangelicals coming to my house and waking me up. At the very least, my bedroom air purifier makes enough racket that I can't hear them knocking on my front door. Hey, that's the only reason I HAVE an air purifier - for the noise.But this guy has problems with a Mormon infestation. So he takes matters into his own hands...tag: atheist, atheism, video, humor, funny, religion, Mormons, revenge-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Basement Is Flooded
Until this stupid moisture ceases where i live I will be spending the majority of my time sucking...haha WATER out of my basement...bunch of pervs I adore ya...but I can't sit and type so please dont think I am ignoring you...I am bored in my basement watching water be sucked up to be pumped out....if you dont know this about me yet you do now..I FUCKING HATE CONNECTICUT RAIN!!!!! there i said it...I feel a little better :Þ not that half of my "friends" will read this but those who do care about me will...lol so thanks for reading what i have taken time to type!!! infact if you have 50 cherry bucks maybe you could flood me with the dirty weeds so they could suck out the water faster :) if not thats cool but it would be fun to see how many ppl want to help me dry out my basement LOL mad loves!!

Trying To Love You
Artist/Band: Yearwood Trisha Lyrics for Song: Trying To Love You Lyrics for Album: Jasper County I blew out all my plans The world fell in my hands The day that I began Trying to love you The secrets I have kept The nights I haven't slept I've laughed until I've wept Trying to love you Trying to love you...No one's come as close or gone so far Trying to love you...I've lost and found myself in who you are Trying to love you...So easy and so hard, trying to love you I've watched myself get stuck Squandered all my luck Almost given up Trying to love you Trying to love you...It broke my heart, it's chipped away my pride Trying to love you...Everytime I'd see that faultline slide Trying to love you...I've crossed the great divide trying to love you Trying to love you...I've screamed your name, I've slammed a thousand doors Trying to love you...I've worn a million miles across the floor Trying to love you...Still I could not ignore trying to love you It's

Another Stupid Quiz
(Originally posted on January 22, 2007)I found another quiz that I'd like to share with you... Congratulations your a REAL Slut! Your definitely not going to lose it because you sure are using it! Your Motto: "The More I Drink The Better She Looks! Your Sign: "Double Bag It!" * Don't forget to pratice SAFE SEX! Take The Slut Quiz Now!"Slut Quiz - Men" is available here***starXtest v2.0*** tag: quiz, slut, mature, adult, humor, funny-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Try Not To Cry...pass This On For Their Memory
Mommy.. Johnny brought a gun to school, He told his friends that it was cool, And when he pulled the trigger back, It shot with a great crack. Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told, I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold! But Mommy, when I went to school that day, I never said good-bye, I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry. When Johnny shot the gun, He hit me and another, And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother. Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much, And please tell Zack; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush. And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now, And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now, And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best; Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest. Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class, And never to forget this, And please don't let this

Virginia Tech
My Heart goes out to the familys and friends of the Virginia Tech victims, my their souls find peace, lets keep this Blog going to show that we care! please repost plus add your names and where you live!.... james (scotland uk)

Ptsd
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder has taken its hold on a good number of the guys in the platoon that Im the medic for. I know this isnt a physical ailment, but its definately an ailment. I myself have been diagnosed with this disorder and can see myself changing day to day. Im very edgy. I snap at people for minute reasons. I am very jumpy, even when I know there is no clear and present danger. Its rough for me, being the "doc" to help my guys with this when I myself am suffering. I can suggest that they see combat stress, which doesnt help at all.... or I can suggest they talk to a chaplain, which also doesnt work, at least in my experience. I see the guys changing daily, very much like myself. Its a catch 22 situation that is very real. We are in no way going to come back the same people that we once were. We were soldiers once, and proud.

Real Good Man
Girl you've never known no one like me Up there in your high society They might tell you I'm no good Girl they need to understand Just who I am I may be a real bad boy But baby I'm a real good man I may drink too much and play too loud Hang out with a rough and rowdy crowd That don't mean I don't respect My Mama or my Uncle Sam Yes sir, yes ma'am I may be a real bad boy But baby I'm a real good man I might have a reckless streak At least a country-mile wide If you're gonna run with me It's gonna be a wild ride When it comes to loving you I've got velvet hands I'll show you how a real bad boy Can be a real good man I take all the good times I can get I'm too young for growing up just yet Ain't much I can promise you 'Cept to do the best I can I'll be damned I may be a real bad boy But baby I'm a real good man I may be a real bad boy Oh but baby I'm a real good man Yes I am

Check Bryant Mcgill's Gift For You!!
I will be randomly giving gifts to people who repost this bulletin, post the bulletin link below on MySpace, or any other creative place you can get the word out. Use the comments here on this post to tell me what you are doing, and where. I will be selecting the people who are the most creative and aggressive for gifts. Here is a link to banner and bulletin codes:(Please post this anywhere you can on the internet)http://www.bryantmcgill.com/Free_Rhyming_Dictionary/Please_Promote/ Thanks for your help, Bryant This powerful writer's editor and reference is for all of my Cherry Friends members that love to write blogs, prose, poetry and songs. This gift is something into which I have put a cumulative effort of over 10 years of hard work.http://www.VersePerfect.com(Click on the DOWNLOAD button at the top of the page)The latest version is just now being released here in the US after a Tokyo debut a few weeks ago. First, Enjoy the product! ;-) Secondly, please tell any

Two Faced World...
Beautiful masks with smiling faces and caring eyes kind words of support genuine hugs offered all belong to people I have known a life time Some of which I called "friends" Today, many forgot to wear their faces I have come to know Left behind with their Christian ways For the first time I saw them for who they truly are Seeing exactly what I mean to them When ones life changes so dramatically you begin to open your eyes to many things I have often said so many times, "That will never happen to me" Funny, but it could and I'm here to say for myself it did, many times over. More to say on this but out of time... so to be continued... ~Melody

My New Stores
(Originally posted on February 15, 2007)I started a store (well, TWO stores) at Printfection.com. One is Bealzes' Garden of Hellish Delights and has Satanic, Pagan, and Gothic symbols. (Not too many yet, but I am working on it.) The other store, here, will have things of a more normal flair, such as humor and political things.I don't think I'll make much money with either of them, but I figure it can't hurt to try. Be sure to check them out!tag: satan, satanic, satanism, satanist, religion, commerce, humor, funny, store, Printfection, money, shopping-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Life
Years passing by along this railroad called life. You notice how things are changing while you're trying to convince yourself that you are in control over yer personal existance. How crude it is when it suddenly comes clear that you are still a fuckin' puppet in this game, called life.

Why Do We Hurt And Hurt Others?
Very often, we shut our hearts or shut others out to protect ourselves from being hurt. While we are on guard, we are defensive. Often we become unapproachable and unavailable. We look for, and usually find, an ulterior motive in everything and everyone. The motives and agendas we see, whether they exist or not, are the reasons we must protect ourselves. At the same time, we are isolated and lonely. We dont want to be hurt. We dont want to be alone, but we dont know what to do about how we feel. In general, people are not out to hurt you. They hurt you because you expect to be hurt. They hurt you because your barriers look and feel very similar to their barriers. When people see their issues being reflected back to them, they often become afraid of what they see and feel. In response, they want to get to you before you get to them. In the process, you get hurt. You must accept that people are not out to hurt you. They hurt you because they dont realize that what they do or how they

Ricks Pimp List
THIS IS MY CURRENT LIST OF PEOPLE THAT I HAVE TOLD I WOULD HELP. I HAVE BEEN A LITTLE LAX IN HELPING THEM AND I AM GETTING ON IT, MAYBE YOU CAN HELP ME OUT BY HELPING THEM. 1 MONTH BLAST, NEEDS 25,000 COMMENTS. 1 MONTH BLAST, NEEDS 25,000 COMMENTS. FOR A 30 DAY BLAST: CUP OF JOE'S CONTEST, 1st PLACE WINS HAPPY HOUR, 2nd-4th GET A BLAST ENDS APRIL 26th 2007 CUP OF JOE'S CONTEST, 1st PLACE WINS HAPPY HOUR

Dark Lord Of Our Full House
Even those minuscule few (at least on this planet, I hope) who have no idea what Star Wars is before it became a codeword for the United States' Strategic Defense Initiative are familiar with at least one of the characters from the film. Even if you've never seen (never mind a Star Wars movie, we're talking any motion picture) Darth Vader, it's very likely you know who he is. With the 1999-2005 release of the Star Wars "prequel" trilogy of movies, the moviegoing public and the world at large has been reintroduced to a figure who's come to represent the supreme villain. When the American Film Institute made a list of the greatest movie villains on the 20th century, Darth Vader ranked third behind Hannibal Lecter and Norman Bates. No disrespect meant to Thomas Harris and Alfred Hitchcock (the creators and developers of Lecter and Bates in the written and visual media, respectively), but George Lucas' contribution to the dark side will be a day long remembered. I was eight years ol

Curses At Workses
(Originally posted on January 19, 2007)Last night my wife told me she had cursed two of my coworkers, ones who were going to open the business with me but never seemed to work on it. One of them has been robbed twice in the past month. Fortunately, he had insurance. He's moving out of his apartment, but I wonder if it'll help...In other news, I had lunch last week with Putz Boy. I ignored him quite well. I think he got the feeling I don't care for him...tag: curse, coworkers, Putz Boy-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Im So Damn Mad!
well... I went to the dr. with lindsey today and they havent told her what it is yet... she was hateful to me all day! Like I did something to her? I dunno... I told her I would take her to the dr again thursday if she wanted... she said "no, you'll just complain....".. I dont know what to do about her anymore... she is my best friend... But... why does she have to be so damn hateful? Then.. I left the house and stevie didnt have a ride to work, so I got a call that he was at pooter's mom;s house and he had to find a way to work, so I had to go and get him and make sure he got there... He is almost 25.. sorry I am not raising a kid here... get a life and grow up... I am tired of him using us... I feel so fucking used... My mom called a lil while ago... My aunt is in the hospital again and the state is taking custody of her.. she had a stroke and my other aunt had been taking care of her... she stopped eating and was starving.. so I think she is going to die.. I just dont know w

My Fanfictions...
LOL Thank Barry for giving me the courage to post my fanfiction up... Go to this link for my most known story called "Winter Hearts" and if you happen to like the story, look under mediaminer.org for scarredbride in the X rated section. http://www.mediaminer.org/fanfic/view_ch.php?cid=128426&submit=View+Chapter&id=45004 ~TF

Important Information For All!!!
IMPORTANT INFORMATION (please inform also your friends w/o emails) Three women in North Florida turned up at hospitals over a 5-day period, all with the same symptoms. Fever, chills, and vomiting, followed by muscular collapse, paralysis and finally, death. There were no outward signs of trauma. Autopsy results showed toxicity in the blood. These women did not know each other and seemed to have nothing in common. It was discovered, however, that they had all visited the same Restaurant (Olive Garden) within days of their deaths. The Health Department descended on the restaurant, shutting it down. The food, water, and air conditioning were all inspected and tested, to no avail. The big break came when a waitress at the restaurant was rushed to the hospital with similar symptoms. The spider was captured and brought back to the lab, where it was determined to be the Two-Striped Telamonia (Telamonia dimidiata), so named because of its reddened flesh color and numbness spell. This spider's

And Now For Something Completely Different...
(Originally posted on January 19, 2007)As a different matter, I definitely will NOT be getting a Blu-Ray player.News Story: Sony says 'no' to porn on Blu-ray Disc(Truthfully, I refuse to buy ANY Sony products anyway. I am still pissed off at their rootkit debacle.)tag: Sony, news, rootkit, porn, Blu-ray-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

April Deals
Ok so April's almost over and it was ok...I got me a house and a few parties booked. But I am most excited about my upcoming housewarming party,mainly because it has been so long since I entertained and I just can't wait. I have a huge menu planned and lots of desserts....But enough with that this was supposed to be about my April special... So here it is for the locals: Book a party for April or May and you will receive a FREE Daddy from the Nati'...or something of that value. Plus 10% of the total party sales in free gifts. And here for web orders: Place a order in the month of April or May and receive a Free spa kit which includes bubbles, a pulsa bath ball, and a candle. Total value of $35.00. Now for everybody: Place a order or have a total party sale of $500.00 and you will recive a gift basket complete with all the NEW products......

Warning To All
Warning to all women here on ct... This guy thinks he is the greasted gift to all women ... He likes free milk and said he doesnt want to be bothered with the cow... He said women on here are sad and we wished we were 10's in the real world , I just wanted to warn you that he is a very charming man...lol Thanks Texas Goddess... UalreadyknoW@ CherryTAP

Helping Out A New Friend Here On Ct
Hey all!!! Stop by and check this gal out and leave her some love and some points so she can get up to the next level. Damsil in Distress (come check out my profile, rate me add me and fan me. i will return the favor!)@ CherryTAP

A Real-life Horror Movie
(Originally posted on January 19, 2007)Well, I watched a video today called America - Freedom To Fascism by Aaron Russo. In it, Russo asks several government people to show him the law requiring us to pay income tax. No one, not EVEN the IRS officials, would (or maybe COULD) show the law requiring that income tax must be paid.There are several links you can view information of the video, such as the Wikipedia entry that discusses the movie in at least a slight depth and the official website where you can view the trailers for the movie.It is basically a scary movie that everybody needs to watch...tag: income tax, politics, liberties, rights-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

In The 1213 B.c.
A long time ago, in a house which seems nothing but just a ordinary house but every night at 12:00am (midnight). The townspeople would would dress in black clothes then go into the old house which was a church inside and that the townspeople would go into this house outside and church which was inside and they would put up black candles upon the pope. and then they would bring in a sacrifice which was a baby then they would lie it down on the pope and they would do a curse that would the baby's family would be slaves for the indians. then they would cut the baby's arm and pour the baby's blood into a cup then they would drink it then kill the baby.

The Alternate Ending To Charlie Brown's Christmas Special
(Originally posted on January 18, 2007)While stumbling around the Internet, I found this page which has an alternate ending to the Charlie Brown Christmas special.I like it all, except for the very last scene. :-)tag: Charlie Brown, satan, satanic, satanism, satanist, humor, video, movie, mature-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Lord Give Me A Sign By Dmx
[Intro:] Yeah..Uh In the name of Jesus (thats right) No weapon formed against me shall prosper (preach) And every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn (preach) (Lord give me a sign) For this is the heritage of the servants of the Lord (preach) and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord. (preach) Amen [Verse 1] Lord Give me a Sign! I really need to talk to you Lord Since the last time we talked the walk has been hard Now I know you haven't left me But I feel like I'm alone Im a big boy now but I'm still not grown And I'm still goin' through it Pain and the hurt Soaking up trouble like rain in the dirt And I know! Only I can stop the rain Wit just the mention of my Savior's name IN THE NAME OF JESUS! Devil I rebuke you for what I go threw And tryin make me do what I used to But all that stops right here As long as the Lord's in my life I will have no fear I will know no pain from the light to the dark I will show n

I, Too, Have A Dream
(Originally posted on January 15, 2007)Not so much as a dream, more of a daydream or some form of wishful thinking.It starts with having the power to immediately control anybody's mind through any electronic medium, such as video, audio, or even face-to-face contact without regards to language or anything.The first thing I would do is to make advertisements to have everybody on Earth send one penny to my bank account each year. That way I wouldn't have to work at a suck job again.(Gotta have a bit of Greed with something, huh?) :-)Then, I would go to Congress. I would have the congresscritters enact laws to legalize all consentual crimes, to rework the election system into something more fair to third-party candidates (IRV or something similar), there would be no campaign contributions to gain favors, etc.I would create commercials that would cause all violent criminals to turn themselves into the police and/or kill themselves.I would make everybody realize that, while their religio

Helplessness
Last night, there was a boy @ work who had run away, and come back... well, was forced back... I asked him how old he was. He was 15. I told him a little story... I said "When I was a little bit younger than you I was in DHS and was in a placement here in Enid. I'm not originally from here, and I was mad they placed me here. So, I took off. More than once. And one time I was gone for almost 3 months. Then got arrested and charged w/ 127 felony counts. The one piece of advice I'll offer, if you run, do it during the middle of a semester, and make sure to finish a semester somewhere, so you have grades and transcripts. The last thing you want to do is fuck up your highschool transcripts." He looked at me, smiled, and saide "Yeah, you're right", and began asking me about my body piercings and tattoos, and we sat and discussed all that BS for a bit. I told him to stay somewhere for a bit this time, get settled, it was almost the end of the school year. He said "Yeah.. i will... for awhile.

Angel In The Darkness
Life through a demented window, what my world has become. I see it all through smeared glass, there's a bustle of activity...all the movement an oddity to my senses. A trickle of light here and there only to be banished moments later by the chaos. What is that lies just out of reach? What is that I can't make out? A puzzle in the corner holds the secrets, pieces lie scattered across the floor. Pieces of dreams, hopes, ambition, and self...pieces that are getting smaller, drifting away with the breeze. Pieces I will never recover from their lost recesses. I just see it different then you do, I see the reality, I see the truth, I choose to see what's actually there, not the facade that we are always putting on for one another. I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY!!! Can't you hear me screaming!?! Stone faces still walking by...no notice given. I cry...I cut...I heal. A vicious cycle of mutilation that keeps me focused. What else is there to concentrate on? All we see is the evil, the nasty, our news

Flash Page Artist Needed (will Pay For Work)
I need some one who can make a flash page with the basic tools, creative, Gothic and easy to use. Please get with me for more details on what I want. I am willing to pay, how much is based on what can be done and how detailed it will be, or just quote me a price, be fair about it. Here is what we have so far, its REAL basic.. http://www.daghome.com If you know some one who can help out with this PLEASE let me know ASAP... Thank you!

Prayer For Virginia Tech
Father, right now we acknowledge You & we acknowledge Your presence & >Your sovereignty. Father we lift up Virginia Tech & the people affected >by the evil that has taken place on the campus. We pray that Your >Spirit be with them. We pray that Your loving arms be wrapped around >them & comfort them in this tragic time. We pray for families, >neighbors, & friends. We pray for staff, professors, & administrators. >God, we pray for people. We pray for humanity. We pray that this event >will not cause people to turn from You but it will cause a nation to run >to You like they have never run before. We pray for increased faith. >We pray for spiritual growth. We pray for Christian fellowship & >salvation of souls. We pray that your hand will move mightily over >Blacksburg, VA & over this nation. Touch souls right now & comfort >broken hearts. Forgive us for our sins Father. In Your Son Jesus >Christ name we pray. Amen. > > > >***Please forward this so that

My New Year's Resolution
(Originally posted on January 12, 2007)Most years (hell, ALL the years until now), I don't bother with resolutions past "Keep breathing for another year." This year, though, I have a resolution.Ahem!“This year, I resolve to indulge in each of the Seven Deadly Sins at least once a week.”(If you have trouble remembering them, think of the characters on Gilligan's Island:* Skipper: Wrath & Gluttony* Thurston Howell III: Greed* Mrs. Howell: Sloth* Ginger: Lust* Professor: Pride* Maryanne: Envy...leaving the job of Satan to Gilligan. (Remember, he wore red and always foiled the escape plans...)Lust (masturbation), Sloth (don't wanna get up), Wrath (idiot drivers!) and Gluttony (food!) are my normal MO. I do feel Pride sometimes, but I don't revel in it. (It's more of a passing fancy with me.) And Greed and Envy are things I rarely feel, which is probably why I'm still stuck at this job with the Idiot Boss.tag: seven deadly sins, new year, resolution, gilligan's island, satanism,

Just Thinking ... Way Too Much !
A tender spirit lost and suffers for what has never been Tears of anguish washed away but left the pain of sin What is love worth and why would one sell themselves so cheap Why would any take the chance and get in so damn deep To soar on clouds and walk the stars and feel joy in the thought Of one who holds loves light and through caring has taught Lessons of undying love and what it means to feel Lessons of torture and pain when she my heart did steal And ran away without a word and never to explain Left to feel the feelings and work back through the pain So left with the question and not sure what is true Is love real or is it just need that holds us to pay due I will always seek the answer and wonder where is home I may wander never knowing and forever left to roam And maybe there is no answer and maybe it is life And maybe I just think too much time to let go of strife By R . Thomas Dinsmore I tend to think too much don't I ?

Vatican Can Be Sued
(Originally posted on January 11, 2007)According to this news story, the victims of pedophiliac priests can sue the Vatican for damages. I wonder how it'll work. I mean, Vatican City is a sovereign nation. The Roman Catholic church is in this sovereign nation. So (a) where will the court venue be, (b) who will represent the defendant(s), (c) how will the judgment be enforced, etc.While I am happy the church is getting the same treatment it allowed its priests to do to young boys, I still don't see how it'll work or even for that matter how anything'll change.It reminds me of one guy who said the victims should just drop the charges because the church “did so much good.” HA! That guy pissed me off to no end!tag: christianity, evil, sexual abuse, child abuse, vatican-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Just Thoughts Of Today.
I 'm siting here remembering all the things that blue wolf and red wolf had said to me. We had got talking about many things those few nights and days that we talked. I had ask them why all these animals were coming to visit me in my dreams and in my awake hours. Then i remember how we talked about my past and how a dark Grey wolf had come out of the woods when I was just 4 years old at the time. I had talked to blue and red about it and all the other stuff that happen to me. They said that I was a Grey wolf that all of those animals spirits were coming to me for one reason or another. I remember how I told them I thought I was a lone wolf for I never had a pack like they do or so many others I know of. I also remember telling them how I just did not understand a lot of the thing's that happen around me and to me. They said in time you will,well it's been about 3 years since I talk to either of them and yes I understand some of the stuff that's happening to me and around me and other s

I May Be Leaving...
As some of you may know, I had drill this weekend...also as some of you know, my unit was tasked for Iraq and are mobilizing very soon...not being able to go, gave me many mixed emotions that's hard to explain, unless you're a soldier. Sunday, our CO told us that, with nothing in writing as of yet, the rest of our unit was tasked out for a second mission to Iraq...so I have some stuff to do...have to be seen by some doctors, to medically clear me. I thought I escaped the microscope of the medical review board...well, long story short, my senior NCOs and I were trying to pull a trick, so my medical shit would disappear after my enlistment ended this Nov....but, I guess it didn't work out with this new mission in hand :( Well, I'll keep you guys posted here and thank you for all the luv and kindness you all have shown me...I'll try to stop by everyone's page to show some luv, but things are about to get pretty hectic for me...so I hope you all understand. Love, hugs and kis

Direct Link Is Working
This is temp until I can find some one to pay to make a flash into for our site and basic info. http://www.daghome.com Yes its basic but all I have time for at this moment.. I will keep everyone up to speed about changes. Thanks DD

Where Do You Want To Go Today? With Whom? Why?
(Originally posted on January 11, 2007)I was just reading a news story I thought I'd share. The first sentence is:The U.S. agency best known for eavesdropping on telephone calls had a hand in the development of Microsoft's Vista operating system, Microsoft confirmed Tuesday.This means that the agency spying on United States citizens and has decided it wants to be able to get a backdoor into computer systems has had a hand in creating one of the most popular operating systems for general users.Now the article states that they didn't do any programming, but are you willing to take that risk?Might I suggest Linux?tag: linux, windows, nsa, spying, politics-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Tradgedy At Vt
I JUST WANTED TO TAKE THE TIME TO THANK EVERYONE WHO IS JOINING ME IN THE SUPPORT OF THE SHOOTING AT VIRGINA TECH COLLEGE. I DO NOT KNOW ANY ONE THAT GOES THERE. I JUST WANTED TO DO SOME THING FOR ALL THE FAMILY MEMBERS, AND PEOPLE WHO HAVE FRIENDS THERE. IF YOU SEE MY BULLETIN PLEASE REPOST IT. THANKS AGAIN I AM KEEPING MY VT RIBBON UP UNTIL SUN DOWN SUNDAY. OUR "WONDERFUL" PRES. FOR ONCE IS DOING THE RITE THING AND LOWERING THE WHITE HOUSE FLAG TO HALF STAFF UNTIL THAN. PLEASE JOIN ME IN SHOWING SUPPORT. RIP THIS PICTURE FOR YOUR HOME PAGE PICTURE UNTIL THAN. MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS GO OUT TO ALL THE FAMILYS.

5 Duties Of A Husband
5 Duties Of A Husband 1- Love her The first duty of a man to his woman, or a husband to his wife, is to love her. Now, you might say, "Well, that goes without saying! Move on to number two!" However, what goes under the name of love has little to do with love. The word 'love' has become a misunderstood word. For example, people say, "I love my job. I love my home. I love chocolate cake." Generally what they are talking about is what those things do for them. "The home makes me comfortable. The cake satisfies my sweet tooth. The work satisfies my desire for a career." The word 'love' has become a word to describe the lusts of the flesh, and nothing more. You can only measure love by your sacrifice, not by your enjoyment. That is, the sacrifice that you make for the betterment of someone else. If you talk about loving your wife, and you mean by that that she does a lot of good things for you, that's not love. That's her loving you. To say that a man loves his wife is to ta

*yep, It's Happened Again!*
Well my husband told me on the 9th of April that I was pregnant again, and I told him he was crazy.. Why? Because it took us 5 1/2 years to get pregnant with Serenity our 4 month old daughter, so getting pregnant again so soon was furthest from my mind.. Well on the 13th my montly was 2 days late, so I went and got a home preg. test, and guess what? Positive!! I went yesterday, the 16th to have it confirmed in a doctor's office & well I'm prego again!! Oh and the best news (being sarcastic) is that this new baby is due on Dec. 16th, 2007 which is the same day my now 4 month old will be turning 1 year old, the same day!!! Crazy crazy is all I have to say.. But it's a blessing eaither way, my husband wants a boy, so hopefully he'll get his wish this time around.. Plus the kids can grow up together and be close to each other being that they will be so close in age..

Relax...have A Homebrew!
I'm dorking out by quoting Charlie Papazian but then again, he's the hero of the homebrewer. It's probably not apparent enough but you will see a picture with 3 different beers in it, all homebrewed by me. There's a Pale Ale, a Porter and a Stout. The Stout is pretty much all gone and I still have yet to drink most of the others. I do give away a lot of beer or trade it for other homebrewed beer. I'm making a new batch on Friday. It's a lot of fun and easier than one would think. I can see myself making beer professionally one day.

He Could Have Been My Friend
HE COULD HAVE BEEN A FRIEND. He could have been someone He could have been a King He could have been a poet He could loved to sing He could have been a dreamer He could have had a plan He could have taught another brother How to be a man He could have been a doctor He could have saved a life He could have been a father He could have taken a wife He could have been an athlete He could have won the game He could have been an actor He could have had such fame He could have chosen a different path He could been in a different place He chose instead to make his mark He chose Virginia Tech as the space He could have changed the world He did without even knowing And even though his journey is done His memory keeps on going His name was Ryan Clark And though tears mark his end Of all the things he could have been He could have been my friend. Rest In Peace Ryan, may angels guide you home. Lil-Shaq

The End
ok everyone now that I have your attention as of may 15th many of you who like listening to radoi statoins on the internet may notice your favorite statoins dissappearing this is because the riaa pushed a bill through congress and will kill internet radio

Bryant Mcgill's New Offer
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Quiz
You have a sexual IQ of 153 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Your Profile
Here is what I like to see in a profile: Location - Just put your zip code in. It only shows the city. Something ... anything! ... about you. I don't care what it is. At least five words. Comments - html comments enabled. A picture - It doesn't have to be you. Just something you like that shows in your profile view. If you have more than three, please put the rest into your stash for the sake of page load speed. Music - Video or Track, preferably with an off switch. Just one. Please put the rest of your videos and tracks in your stash. Background - Not necessary, but a nice touch. This is only what I look for on the profile page itself and has nothing to do with the pictures in your photos.

Life Is Like A Prison
Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a window, To see birds, trees and sky, But you're better without one - Stops you aiming too high. Watching freedom is painful, For those locked away. Seeing joy, love and happiness, Another price that you pay. Strong is good, weak is bad. Be it false, be it true. Your mind makes the choice, And enforces it too. Cell walls built by society, With rules to adhere. If you breach the acceptable, You had better beware. Hide the pain, carry on, Routine is the key. Don't let on that you're not, What you're pretending to be. Lock it all up inside you, How badly that bodes. Look out for that one day, When it all just explodes. Leaving naught but a shell, Base functionality too. But killing all else, That was uniquely you. So how do you grow,

From My Puppy Back In Atlanta
Woof....woof....lick lick, Hi Jen, I miss you! Prince has been bugging me lately..jumps on me when I am asleep....sneaks up on me.....chases me/// but I get even...I drag him around by the collar,,but he tries to scratch me. Anyway, it's pretty boring here, no one takes me for many walks, and I love to play fetch. Dad has had me on a diet since Christmas...but I am feeling friskier and I guess it was good. The weather is nice but I sure would like to see you.. Hope you will come for a few days and keep me company...it really is pretty in the back yard....Dad doesn't say much but mom cries because she misses you and knows that you are having a hard time.. Please come see me, oh and yeah you can say Hi to Prince too... Woof, woof your best friend in the world! Ranger Dog ps...write soon...I miss you.

Thoughts On Bush's Speech
(Originally posted on January 11, 2007)I admit I didn't watch Bush's (I admit I have trouble calling him “The President”) speech last night. I don't care for him and, quite frankly, can't wait for him to get out of office. Mind you, I didn't vote for Kerry or Gore against him since I thought those were two other losers, but now I kind of wish I did.Anyway, as I said, I didn't watch the speech. But I did read a transcript of the speech. In it, he mentions that he took some advise from the Iraq Study Group (ISG).Now the funny thing is the Iraq Study Group report stated that troop increases aren't feasible.The talking points paper on the Americans Say No Event Kit page even states that last summer we increased the amount by 12,000 personnel which did nothing.I think that Senator Biden is correct when he said the administration knows we lost the war and is just waiting for the next President to basically leave them holding the bag.tag: Bush, Iraq, speech, politics, war-*-*-*-*-*-*

Broken Hearted
My heart no longer moves No more flutter or skip a beat When you are around You toke care of that When you broke my heart With your lies,alibis,drinking,women Thats all you care about you didn't see what it was doing to me,until it was to late Now you want me back thats not going to happen I'm not putting my poor heart threw that again M.G.

Last Night... Today
Last night I sat out with the stars and gazed wondering if they could hear the silent wishes I send. Truly beautiful in the glow they bask in. It reminded me of being with friends. Last night I sat out with them and pondered many, many, many thoughts of life. I pondered the reflections of myself in my eyes. I pondered the moments of all my strife. Last night my mind was far away from usual. I focused on things deep down that I felt. I tried to see beauty where none once stood. It was the stars, like eyes, watching me melt. Last night in that glow that shined from above I seen pictures of memories that I tried to forget. It was almost like real yet known to be past. The memories suppressed for so long I kept. So today I woke up and sat back outside. This was what my blue eyes seen. Malachi playing with dragon flies. Oh what the sight has done for me. So precious is he, my dog and my life. Tranquility

It's A New Day Or Weekend Of Horror
I feel that I need to make some things clear about my last blog. The story that was written was true, but some of the descriptive words were changed from the original words that I had said. I emailed Stephen Dark and told him how I felt about the story and this was his response. On Apr 14, 2007, at 8:28 AM, stephen dark wrote:MichelleI was saddened to read your thoughts. You can't invest two months of your life in a story and not have an emotional commitment to it.I was promised 5,000 words, but the editor renegged and I got 4,000. I do a lot of interviews simply because I want to be certain that what I write is what I believe to be the truth, at least as I understand, as I perceive it.My one regret is that an editor put the verb pout in place of my describing Aiden as being miserable while you were away from the business. I should have fought for my original description. For that, my apologies. I wrote several distinct versions of the story. The first, which was very different in styl

Work
We'll I resigned from being the army fundraiser cordinator. There was to much drama involved and liars. It was fun while I did it. I enjoyed it alot but oh well. Thankfully my other 2 hobbies / jobs ( private investigation * finding biological family memmbers* and running a online animal shelter)might keep me happy until I go back to school. I am so scared about going back to school. I want to go into the criminal investigation field. No not csi stuff people lol . I already can get a degree in infants and children physical therapy but thats not what I want to do with my life. I still think about my dreams when I was growing up in Ca. I wanted to own a 1million acre ranch and take in unwanted horses. Then turn around train them and give them to children with special needs. I love /loved my horses and pony when I was a kid. I used to get up in the middle of the night and just ride them in the pin. I would fall asleep and sooner or later they would shake to wake me up lol. I lo

Belladonna - Ex Mormon / Sex Machine...
On April 11th, the Salt Lake City Weekly released a story entitled "Sex Machine: Ex-Utahn Belladonna, faces porn stardom with relish and some reluctance. I spent five months talking on and off with Stephen Dark, the editor, about my life and my work. I also got him in touch with John Stagliano, Nina Hartley, Claire Adams, Aiden Kelly as well as my mother. I was really excited to read this story and felt that people would be able to really learn from me and my experiences. I'd chosen to be nothing but honest in my interviews because I don't see why I should cater to anyone else's ideas of what I should say about my job or life. This is my life and I make my own decisions. When I was sent the link to the online version of the story I was very anxious to see how it turned out. I got about half way through it and felt that I couldn't comprehend some of the words I was reading. Listen, I know I don't have a high school education but come on, will everyone reading this understand all of the

The Phenomenon That Is Inflation
I was a little nervous this morning while I was preparing myself for the scene today, because, let's face it. I don't do 25 scenes a month anymore. And would I be able to handle almost 40 minutes of getting DP'd? I guess that's pretty normal getting the butterflies before performing. I feel like today I chose two great performers and I was going to get a great scenes out this one. Ahhhh. John Strong and Mark Wood. Top notch, male performers, in my eyes. This was probably one of the best DP's I've ever done. And I'm not just saying it. We went straight the whole time, with no stopping. You don't usually get that when shooting, I very rarely do, unless of course I'm in the scene. But I am just so damn proud lately. Everything is going according to plan. *evil grin* Waahahahaha. Besides that, I did a 5 minute interview on the phone today with Penthouse magazine that will be out in a couple weeks. I'm very excited about shooting my fuck doll, Rebeca Linares, tomorrow in a DP with the two g

Doc Johnson Owns Me!
Another successful day at Belladonna Entertainment. I'm proud to announce that I signed the contracts today with Doc Johnson. Yes, you heard me right. I, Belladonna, will have my own line of sex toys distributed through Doc Johnson! Don't run out to your local sex shop right now because there is quite a process before my pussy and ass will hit the store shelves! We toured around the plant and they showed us from beginning to end and I can't even begin to describe how complicated and precise the process is to make a dildo. If everything goes smoothly, you'll start seeing my toys in adult stores about 6 months from now. In the next two weeks, I go in to get my molds done. My ass, my pussy and my mouth, you name the hole, and it's yours! I'll also be using all of my own signature toys in my movies! And they even said if I wanted some custom one off toys, they would make them for me! I feel so grateful right now. Maybe there are some other girls in this business that have their own lines,

Clogged Pipes & Plastic Assholes!
Not that there's a need for me to apologize, but, sorry that it's been a few days since I've blogged, but I've been exceptionally busy! Listen to all this shit thats going on right now... The first thing I'm going to talk about, I'm really excited because I have longed for this to happen for some time now. I'll be having a meeting this month with a major adult sex toy company about possibly making my own line of Belladonna sex toys! I really feel like this is a positive step in my career. I know my toy line will do really well, especially since I have toy driven girl/girl movies. I will probably even have a Belladonna signature Pussy/Ass mold that you can personally punish, if you must. I will definitely keep you all informed on the status of that venture. And speaking of other business opportunities, I was contacted by PT, a director for VIVID, the other day. He's interested in casting me in a movie he's shooting sometime next year. The role he has in mind for me is Cleopatra. I alway

Landing Back Above!
Oh... where do I begin. Well, I guess landing in Cairns would make the most sense. It was a short 2 hour flight from Sydney to Cairns, pronounces "Cans" by the locals. When I arrived, Bobsy was there waiting for us. I had the evening to relax, then we were going to dinner at a Balinese restaurant. They seem to be really big on meat in Bali. Which is fine with me. I dove right in! I enjoyed the meal. The part about dinner I liked most though, was being able to share it with Hui. Hui is the boss man at Cal Vista. He's the guy who hooked me up with this trip out to Australia and possible my next trip out to Melbourne in November for Sexpo! Still not set in stone, but pretty damn close!Needless to say, the hotel was the best there was in Cairns. It was the Shangri La and my view was just beautiful. It was non-stop ocean and mountains! I took full advantage of it every morning and night! On the first working day, I made my way down to the convention hall. When they told me that I would have

Landing Down Under!
I know I promised you my vide blog on Monday, but hey, shit happens. I know you're supposed to be a bit earlier than 1 hour for international flights but we got there a bit earlier than that. We checked in, got through security and had about 3 hours to spare. How do you kill time in an airport?You read 3-d magazines! Sports Illustrated swim suit issue this month is partly in 3-d and even comes with a pair of cheap paper and plastic 3-d glasses. It looked pretty cool for about 3 pictures, but then it started to cause a headache. I also read my other favorite magazines,Stuff, FHM and Maxim.At around midnight we finally boarded our non-stop flight for Sydney. A 15 hour flight. The good thing. You get to watch VOD movies, music and some video games and tv shows. The other good news, we got a whole row of 4 seats to ourselves. The bad news, it was a 15 hour flight. Other good news, I did do some video of this day, but not like I will put it up because Aiden has no way to get it on the compu

He Needs Prayers
My older brother is what is called a manic depressant and last night in an attempt to end his life he took around 30 1mg xanax and drank a six pack of beer. We found him thank god before it was to late. He is now in a psych unit to try to help him get his self straight. He has 4 children 20, 16, 13, and 12. The 20 y/o is in the marines and is preparing to go to Iraq. I don't agree with what he did but I have been in the fire and ems service long enough to understand why these people do this kinda of thing. I just hope and pray that he doesn't loose his children to there mother since she sexually abused both of the boys. I have the 2 younger ones with me trying to take care of them but understandably there are very concerned about there dad. Please everyone keep him in his prayers. All this depression started because of a damn exwife of his that he still claimed to love and all she did was play games with his head and heart. I really wish someone would be the hell out of her.

Joke;-)
Two old men were fishing off a bridge as they had done daily for many years. Suddenly a funeral procession came down the road. The one old man reeled in his line, lain down his pole, faced the street and bowed his head until the procession had passed. He then picked up his pole and started fishing again. The other fisherman was amazed and stated "I didn't know you were that religious." The other looked at him and said "Least I could do, we've been married 42 years!"

A Day Of Mourning
Hello to all, I would like to take the time to say my prayers are with the families and friends of the Virginia Tech comunity. This is a sad time for alot of us. I sat here now watching the local news in total sadness, though I personally didnt know any of the victims I still feel the pain of those who have lost a loved one. Times such as these are just so hard to grasp as we all sit and wonder why. How could someone commit such a hanus crime.So many innocent peoples lives taken for simply being at the wrong place at the wrong time. As I have said so many times life is so precious and we never realize how much until things like this occur. I send my deepest symphathy ro all. If anyone of you would like to talk to me about this I am a good listener and I will do anything within my abilities to help. IT brings to mind of all the other school shootings and sends shivers down my spine. I have children of my own in school and it scares me to death thinking how this could have been ther

Thanks
Thank you.... My heartfelt appreciation goes out to all of you who have taken the time and trouble to send me "forwards" over the past 12 months. Thank you for making me feel safe, secure, blessed, and wealthy. Extra thanks to whoever sent me the one about rat crap in the glue on envelopes cause I now have to go get a wet towel every time I need to seal an envelope. Also, I scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason. Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains. I no longer drink Pepsi or Dr.Pepper since the people who make these products are atheists who refuse to put "Under God" on their can. I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer. I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS. I no longer use deodorant! -since it causes cancer, even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day. I no longer go to shopping malls because someone migh

Fucking Cowards
First I want to say that my thoughts and wishes go out to the families of those who lost loved ones at Virginia Tech. That being said, these are my thoughts on that topic.... Any asshole who is THAT much of a fucking coward who has to resort to that sort of violence to solve his/her problems, if you are just going to turn the gun on yourself in the end, Then save everyone else the hassle and start with yourself... The innocent have lives and families who care and that is NOT to say that the gunman's family didnt care about him but stop being a pussy and start with yourself!! This is just another reason I am all for "conceal and carry". Or maybe, better yet, try this... If ya want a challenge, come to my house next time... try that shit with someone who can fire back!! See how far the pussies can make it when they get fired back on!

To My Peeps.....
WELL FOLKS ANOTHER DAY IS UPON US AND I HOPE THAT FOR ALL OF YOU PEOPLE WHO THINK LIFE IS UNFAIR......THAT IS THE POINT, CUZ IF IT WAS FAIR THEN EVERYONE WOULDBE PERFECT AND NOBODY WOULD FALL IN LOVE. I AM SENDING A SPECIAL 'HELLO' TO SWTNSXY, NATURE, HETHER, PRECIOUSCHANCE, BRANDI AND ALL THE OTHERS WHO HAVE MADE MY 'WELCUMMING' SO SPECIAL. MWAH MWAH TO YOU ALL!

At Home
so i'm home tonight... i don't have any work because i worked this morning and i just got home maybe i'll like go work-out or something... u know it takes alot to get this body man i wish i can stand around and eat chocolate all day and not gain a pound... my friend Sarahs like that sometimes i just want to kick her....Ugh...the weather sucks! i really would have loved to go out...i'm pissed...i've decided to do nothing maybe i'll watch tv...AW WHATEVER!! i'm going to roll a j...i'm fucking bored Raven

Please Visit Cherrie's Page
I am so proud of My girl, I would like to ask everyone who visits and enjoys my blogs to visit her page. she has so much to offer in her blogs, I think you would enjoy them also. just copy and paste her URL and stop by... fan, rate, and add if you would like. I am sure she would enjoy the company. :P http://cherrytap.com/cherrie Thanks, SLAYER

The Number One Way To Annoy Me...
Make me late.... So I was supposed to hang out with one of my friends today. My darling Azzie invited himself along, he spent last night with Angie so he didn't get home till almost one in the afternoon. I was supposed to meet my friend Noon-ish It takes an hour to get to my friends place, so I was two hours late and my friend wasn't there. Basically to stay on my good side remember... Don't make me late... and Don't invite yourself along or try to guilt me into inviting you along if you can't show the fuck up on time. and this has been a crazy Nita PSA

Health
Back from the E.R.They did EKG,Oxegen,Chest Exray,Blood.Everything was normal so they say.They gave me a script of Vicodans.So I just ate lunch so I could eat 1.My symtoms of chest pain are related to the fact my body,doesn't have it's precious Xanax + Trazodone no more.I have been Weening myself off it for over a month.An everdently my body is still feaning for my 7 yr.addiction to these fine benzo's.I had no choice but to ween myself off of them.As I can't get into the City.My various Doctors have been trying to get me off them for many yrs.To no avail.I haven't slept well for 5 nights now.Maybe I can get some herbs Valarian Root that smells like feet.except it gives me Nightmares.Anyway I'm Home an online in bed,resting.The useless people that Live here actually washed the Dishes an did the Laundry.Shity weather here.Hopefully I didn't worry my many Sweet friends to badly.Musta been U-alls prayers that Kept me safe.

New Map
Hello everyone I have a new map and I would really like it if everyone could sign it so that I get a better idea where everyone is at. I promise I won't stalk you unless you want me too well then I guess that isn't considered stalking now is it hehehe Have a great day. Tiffany Notbarbie

Caitiff
Caitiff (World of Darkness) From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Caitiff are a fictional group of clanless vampires in Vampire: The Masquerade, a role-playing game by White Wolf, Inc. Lacking patrons or allies, holding no real power as a group, Caitiff are held in contempt by the Camarilla. The Sabbat's Caitiff are treated as a clan; known as Pander, a title whose namesake is a politically powerful and clanless vampire Joseph Pander, they find direction through the Sabbat. Since they are clanless, they do not specialize in any particular discipline, but have the freedom to learn any discipline or develop their own. However, finding a mentor for such a pursuit can be difficult. Clanlessness can stem from many circumstances - the sire rejected the individual, the embrace went wrong, their blood is too thin to develop the peculiar characteristics of the sire's clan, or the sire was also a caitiff. Some take great pride in lacking a clan, claiming to be descended directly

Powerful Free Editor & Reference For Cherry Bloggers, Writers, Musicians And Poets! I Need Your Help Getting The Word Out...
Well, it is finally released folks! ;-) Now I could use your help to get the word out... What are some things you can do? You can post a blog here on CherryTAP, You can Re-Post a bulletin, You can post a blog or bulletin on MySpace, you can email your friends and do them a favor, You can post on a group you belong to, You can post on a message board you use, you can write about it on your blog, you can post the banner on your profile here and other places... yahoo 360, MySpace, Facebook, Tribe, Send a message to you email addresses... Any other good ideas? Here is a link to banner and bulletin codes:(Please post this anywhere you can on the internet)http://www.bryantmcgill.com/Free_Rhyming_Dictionary/Please_Promote/ This powerful writer's editor and reference is for all of my CherryTAP community members that love to write blogs, prose, poetry and songs. This gift is something into which I have put a cumulative effort of over 10 years of hard work.http://www.VerseP

Can't We Try
Heard this last night walking thru WalMart. It had been so many years since I heard this song, but it is still just as beautiful now as it was than! I see your face cloud over like a little girls And your eyes have lost their shine You whisper something softly I’m not meant to hear Baby tell me what’s on your mind I don’t’ care what people say About the two of us from different worlds I love you so much that it hurts inside Are you listening Please listen to me girl Can’t we try just a little bit harder Can’t we give just a little bit more Can’t we try to understand That it’s love we’re fighting for Can’t we try just a little more passion Can’t we try just a little less pride I love you so much baby That it tears me up inside I hear you on the telephone With God knows who Spilling out your heart for free Everyone needs someone they can talk to Girls that someone should be me So many times I’ve tried to tell you You just tur

Baali
Baali (World of Darkness) From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The Baali are a fictional bloodline of vampires, from White Wolf Game Studio's Vampire: The Masquerade and Vampire: The Dark Ages books and role-playing games. The Baali are very strongly rejected by both Camarilla and the Sabbat, because of their infernalist nature — they are called "monsters" and "demons" even by the other vampires. Much of the Baali symbology is Mesopotamian and Phoenician in origin. The very name Baali is originated from the Phoenician word Ba'al, meaning "great lord". Origins The Baali are infernalists who once dealt in the names of ancient beings that existed before the "Let there be Light" of Genesis (as simply knowing the names of such powerful beings can give one access to some of that power). Baali legend says there was a group of people called the "First Tribe" who discovered the existence of those old ones and became their acolytes. They were degenerates, who murdered their parents

Just Thought U Should Know
American Medical Association researchers have made a remarkable discovery. It seems that some patients needing blood transfusions may benefit from receiving chicken blood rather than human blood. It tends to make the men cocky and the women lay better.

Findings
When Scorpio and Capricorn make a love match, they get an opportunity to not only enjoy a loving relationship and learn the value of being a pair, but also to grow and mature as individuals. These two may be wary about sharing themselves with one another at first, and this emotional caution may dampen the initial impact of this relationship. These two tend to be a bit cautious (Capricorn) and pensive (Scorpio), and it takes a while for them to feel comfortable with a significant other. Though they may be shy of getting involved and not the quickest to trust and share, these two Signs will discover that they can have quite a profound connection -- one of friendship and deep loyalty. Much can be learned when a Scorpio and Capricorn get together -- and the lessons they learn, while difficult at times to endure, are worth the trouble they might cause. From their stable, capable Capricorn mate, Scorpio can learn to bring their overheated emotions into control. Capricorn must be careful,

Water Vs Wine
In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink one liter of water each day, at the end of the year we will have absorbed more than one kilo of Escherichia coli (E. coli), the bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming one kilo of Poop. However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine (or rum, whiskey, or other liquor), because wine goes through the purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit.

Vampire Quiz
You scored as Marius. You are the quiet cool. You are so mellow people are lulled into a false sense of security. When you are pissed god help anyone who crosses you?Marius92%Armand75%Blade75%Deacon Frost75%Dracula75%Lestat67%Spike58%Akasha58%Louis50%Angel25%Whose your Vampire personality? (images)created with QuizFarm.com

Help Her She Needs More Ratings!!
Okay everybody Kimmy needs your help. 45 ratings till her salute moves up in rank. She's my best friend on here and an amazing woman. Lets help her pic move up in rank. She always returns the love just let her know in a private message. Thank you :) (repost of original by '†Nature†' on '2007-04-17 12:00:41') (repost of original by '~SILVER FANG~Covenant of shadows~big bro to phoebs~' on '2007-04-17 12:01:41') (repost of original by '†Nature†' on '2007-04-17 12:02:30')

God Bless Va Tech...
...those who were killed or wounded, the students who's friends have been killed or wounded, all the parents, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, teachers, who have to live through this nightmare, some of who are still waiting to hear if theirs is a victim. The men & women in law enforcement, emt's, surgeons, nurses. And the lawyers. But the administration. May justice be served. —Aug. 1, 1966: Charles Whitman points a rifle from the observation deck of the University of Texas at Austin's Tower and begins shooting in a homicidal rampage that goes on for 96 minutes. Sixteen people are killed, 31 wounded. There was a guy going home from a shooting competition. He sees what's going on, takes out his M1A, shoots back at Whitman. This allowed the cops to get up into the tower to get him. Of course the news won't tell ya that part. VA Tech is absolutely liable. They have a no guns on campus policy. But. This is not going to go that way. And that is beyond fucked up.

This Darkened Hell
When you look in my eyes, What do you see? An everlasting darkness Consuming me. Tears of blood, Stream down my face, Signs of the shame, Scars from the pain. You try to stop it, But to no avail. This all consuming darkness, My living hell. Stand back, run away I dont need you now, You can't understand, You never could lend a hand. For how can you save, My fractured soul, I'm too far gone, So just go and leave me alone. Alone to die, Alone to dwell, I dwell alone In this darkened hell. (c.)(4/2007)

The Defender
I wrote this up for a contest that's being held by Borders, because my sister asked me to. It's called the "Times Mom Stood Up For Me" Writing Competition. Only caveat is that it has to be 300 words or less, which is tough! I thought I'd share. I was not a well child. I say that, not with self-pity, but in a matter-of-fact tone. You see, I can be matter-of-fact about my medical problems because of my mother. To her, my problems were not disabilities or even challenges. They were… simply part of being me. When I was in college, I came down with a bad cold in early December – the worst possible time to get sick when you’re a singer, especially at my school, where the annual Christmas Festival is equivalent to The Big Game at any other school. But illness was something I took for granted, so I donned a hat and scarf and headed off to class. After all, I was there for an education. Unfortunately, when you are ill and can’t sing, peer pressure dictates you hole up in your r

Hello All
So, this is my first time on this site. I normally use MySpace or VamprieFreaks, but I'll try to hang around here as much as possible to get the hang of things. A little about me.... I'm 23 and live in Louisiana. I'm a huge heavy metal fan, and I was in a band called SynthetiK SanitY, and the nickname sort of stuck with me... Check me out on myspace if you'd like, it's www.myspace.com/the_blayze Hope to talk you all soon! Keep on rockin'!

Nosferatu
Nosferatu (World of Darkness) From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The Nosferatu are a fictional clan of vampires from White Wolf Game Studio's Vampire: The Masquerade, Vampire: The Dark Ages and Vampire: The Requiem books and role-playing games. They are uniformly hideous as a result of the flaw in their vampiric bloodline, though each individual's physical monstrosity is unique. Nosferatu frequently reside in catacombs, cemeteries, and sewers. The Nosferatu, also referred to as 'Nossies' or 'Sewer Rats', commonly take residence in sewers or underground tunnels, and are highly regarded as information-brokers. Frustrated over their monstrous appearance, many Nosferatu will Embrace the very vain and/or very beautiful out of spite. Vampires Embraced in this way are often referred to as Cleopatras, named after the character from Freaks. In Vampire: The Masquerade, the Nosferatu are associated with the Camarilla. Their symbol is a drama mask. The clan of Nosferatu has several

Black Label Society-blood Is Thicker Than Water
Here comes the rain Another day, another storm I've been down,down, down For oh, so long I'll walk this mile And I'll ask no quarter For in the end Blood is thicker than water They try to break me but I refuse to die They try to break me but I refuse to cry Here comes the rain Another day, another storm I'll walk this mile And I'll ask no quarter For in the end Blood is thicker than water ---------------------

Rip For Vt Students
Please rip for students that died yesterday morning. If i get level I can rip it...I have 114 photos. I can put it on my profile til I can rip it. if would help me Level I would be greatly help anyone in need. Hugs to friends & fans. Love, ~Mary~

50 Mistakes Women Make During Sex
just some stuff a friend sent me 50 mistakes women make during sex i dont know 1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out. 2. Thinking that kissing needs to be this sweet romantic thing all the time. Sometimes pressing your lips against your partners mouth while you get off is the hot. It depends on the situation. 3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoozing and you're all wound up. 4. Expecting him to cuddle. Men and women are wired differently. Sex makes most women want to talk and bond and all that shit. It makes men pass out. It's a biological thing. Stop fighting it, and stop holding it over his head, it's not his fault. 5. Expecting him to fall asleep with you in his arms. That shit is

Xiii
XIII Sitting in my chair one night past sunset when there is no light I sit there, suffering from a sickness that may soon bring my end Suddenly, I hear a noise a hollow rapping on my door, late at night thirteen times comes the knock, I open the door but find no one Returning to bed, I hear the clock strike however odd this is, I own no clock the ringing continues, thirteen times then comes again the knocking, thirteen times A shadow rises at the foot of my bed cloaked in black, it grips a scythe and stares into my soul with two eyes like embers Death has come at last to harvest my soul now , on the thirteenth hour my time has come lifting the blade above its head, I hear "your time is up" the blade is swung and I am no more END

Our Own Animal Planet
(Originally posted on January 10, 2007)We're a bit broke at home right now. We haven't paid our trash service since last year and it has therefore been cut off. BUT... a neighbor just moved and left their trashcan with a sticker paid up until a while in the future.So last night I made a daring moonlit raid to grab the can.I put some of our trash from our overflowing can into it, then reached for a couple of bags on our porch. It was then I noticed I was being watched...An opossum (which we call possums) was watching me from the porch railing.Ugly, ain't it. Mind you, ours wasn't snarling. Truthfully it looked more embarrassed than anything.Anyway, I knocked softly on the back door to get my wife out there. We gave it a carrot & some cheap cat food. It ate it & went on it's jolly little way.We have a few animals in the neighborhood. I have seen a heard of at least five deer cross the road there. There's a feral cat we named The Kitten that lives under our house. And I left som

You've Got Questions...
(Originally posted on January 10, 2007)One thing I am getting a little addicted to is the Yahoo Answers site. It's kind of fun asking and answering questions about various things.One of my questions deals with the new 14 Points of Fascism and if we're really experiencing something bad.Most people, though, are just saying yes or no without giving reasons behind it, which is what I was really after.tag: Yahoo, Yahoo answers, questions, fun, hobby-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Tremere
Tremere From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The Tremere are both a fictional clan of vampires, from White Wolf Game Studio's books and role-playing games set in the World of Darkness (Vampire: The Masquerade and Vampire: The Dark Ages), and a fictional House within the Order of Hermes in the role-playing game Ars Magica. Vampire & Ars Magicka The continuity of two games was formerly linked, and they were at one stage both owned by White Wolf Game Studio, and in this continuity the House of magicians spawned the clan of vampires as described below, but remained a major House of the Order within the time frame of Ars Magica. Continuity of Ars Magica is now separate, and the vampiric Tremere are no longer part of official continuity. The remainder of this article discusses the World of Darkness continuity, and is likely to be confusing if taken as Ars Magica continuity, though many details (such as clan symbol), are the same in both, and there are some general similarities. Th

Lasombra
Lasombra From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The Lasombra is a fictional clan of vampires, associated with the Sabbat, from White Wolf Game Studio's Vampire: The Masquerade books and role-playing games. The Lasombra are the Sabbat's counterpart to the Ventrue. The Lasombra have the ability to create and control shadows. Unlike most other vampires, the Lasombra do not cast reflections in mirrors or other surfaces, much like vampires of popular culture. They are also even more susceptible to sunlight than other Cainites, except the Followers of Set. The Lasombra clan's unique discipline is Obtenebration, which allows them to manipulate shadows and even the unformed substance of the primordial void, known as the Abyss. The effects they can create range from causing flittering shadows which have actual substance, transforming their own bodies into an expression of darkness and emptiness, and even the ability to temporarily submerge a small area of the immediate environment into th

List Of Canadian Casualty's
Since 2002, 53 Canadian soldiers and one diplomat have been killed in Afghanistan. Here is a list of the deaths: 2002 April 17 — Sgt. Marc Leger, Cpl. Ainsworth Dyer, Pte. Richard Green and Pte. Nathan Smith, killed when U.S. F-16 fighter mistakenly bombed Canadians. 2003 Oct. 2 — Sgt. Robert Short and Cpl. Robbie Beerenfenger, killed in roadside bombing. 2004 Jan. 27 — Cpl. Jamie Murphy, killed in suicide bombing while on patrol. 2005 Nov. 24 — Pte. Braun Woodfield, killed when his armoured vehicle rolled over. 2006 Jan. 15 — Glyn Berry, British-born Canadian diplomat, killed in suicide bombing. March 2 — Cpl. Paul Davis and Master Cpl. Timothy Wilson, killed when their armoured vehicle ran off road. March 29 — Pte. Robert Costall, killed in firefight with Taliban. April 22 — Cpl. Matthew Dinning, Bombardier Myles Mansell, Lt. William Turner and Cpl. Randy Payne, killed when their G-Wagon destroyed by roadside bomb. May 17 — Capt. Nichola Goddard, an ar

Well
I have managed to last longer than I did last time without the fags, stopped on the 12th March and haven't smoked since. I am still on the patches, forgot them yesterday and kept on falling asleep at work, so hopefully if I can manage to wean myself off the fags properly will then need to wean myself off the patches. But anyway not doing so bad seeing as its the 17th of April today though.

Virginia Tech Convocation
Dont forget what you were doing at the time of this horrrible event that has taken place in our country. Let us mourn and pray for all the lives that were lost. Pray for the school and the families and friends of those that have lost their lives to a madman who did not care about human live. Lets stand as a nation again and get through this horrilbe event that has affected so many peoples lives. The Virginia Tech Massacre....when will these senseless killers stop......Prays go out to the students, the faulty, and the family members that have lost loved ones. Lets give thanks to those who gave their lives to protect lives of others.....

Plz Read N Help My Friend,daniel!!
http://philly07.livestrong.org/macstrong215 Hey y'all ...this post is for a friend I have met here at cherry tap.He is a cancer survivor & is participating in the LIVESTRONG CHALLENGE this year.I would like to see everyone help out..even if its just a small amount.C'mon cherry tappers.....I donated...let's see how many CT peeps we can get in the donating spirit!! Thank You ALL LOVE MY CT Family!!! HUGGGGS ReD

Religion & Politics
(Originally posted on January 9, 2007)A while back, I mentioned that one reason Funda-mental-ists should be for the separation of church & state is that sooner or later we will have a new religion creeping its rules into our laws.Now, the Right Wing Watch says that some groups are now seeing that happen.Yes, xtians, this is your wake-up call...tag: Right Wing Watch, Freedom From Religion, Church/State Separation, liberties-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

The Start Of A New Life....
We had been friends for some time now, and we were able to talk about anything, including relationships and sex. It's not everyday you cross paths with a man that you can have a plutonic connection with, let alone openly discuss sex with, without it leading to anything beyond that! At least that's what I thought. My birthday was fast approaching and my friend suggested that we catch up for a weekend at his beach house and just hang out and totally relax. This wasn't out of the ordinary and given that I didn't have anything planned and was more than likely going to spend yet another birthday on my own, allowing my work to consume me, I said yes. Friday night quickly approached and before I knew it I was on my way down the coast. Windows down in my car, soaking up the wonderful sea breeze, it felt so good! I couldn't help but wonder what the weekend had in store for me as I continued my journey. I turned into the long driveway that lead to the beach house. I could see the

I Realize That I Am A Big Fucking Weirdo.
10 really dumb facts about me.... 1. I can't stand when the webs of my fingers are wet. 2. I put on one sock, then shoe, then next sock, then shoe. Schwab hates it. He yelled at me. 3. I can only drink milk out of a glass. But if you touch it or sip it or make contact with my milk at any point......I can't drink it anymore and you are an asshole for doing that to me. (Same thing with icecream) 4. When I am hung over.....I watch indian music videos. (As I am doing now) 5. I touch my face alot when i'm nervous. 6. I hate the fact that now that my hair is growing longer....I have to brush it more than once a day. 7. When I was little, I thought gay people were just men and they had sex by touching the ends of their penises together. 8. When I sleep I have to have my ears covered by the blanket.....but not my nose. 9. I want to learn more about working on cars. 10. Apparently when I was a baby I was scared of the color green, and whenever someone would put a

Fascism Anybody?
(Originally posted on January 5, 2007)In 2004, a man named Lawrence Britt wrote an article about the 14 early warning signs of fascism and compared it with what was going on in the United States at the time.A few days ago, Heather Wokusch wrote a follow-up article about what is currently going on.It's not good news.Now don't get me wrong. I am not stating that we have a deeply fascist government right now. These are the early warning signs.And if you think that it can't get worse for your rights and liberties, well, Bush wants to read your mail.tag: fascism, George Bush, politics-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Ravnos
Ravnos From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia The Ravnos are a fictional clan of vampires, from White Wolf Game Studio's Vampire: The Masquerade books and role-playing games. Unlike most vampires, the Ravnos are associated with neither the Camarilla nor the Sabbat; much of the Ravnos symbolism is Middle Eastern and Asian, and the organization is centered in India. In Europe, these vampires are associated with Gypsies. Their symbol is a pointed cross. Even when compared to other vampires, Ravnos are not seen as being especially honorable; they are often seen as compulsive gamblers, thieves, liars, and criminals in general. This is because of the Ravnos' unique curse, that their beast is especially clever and cajoling. Rather than the usual feral desires for violence and gorging on blood, the Ravnos beast tempts its host with crimes and infractions against society. In this way, the Ravnos beast is more similar to the classical "devil on the shoulder" than the usual Cainite version (wh

Fire Fighters And Our Troops
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Answers
Why do we get out of bed every morning? Is there really a reason? Do we do it for ourselves, or for others? Why do i ask all these silly questions? Like, why is there air that we breathe? Why do my eyes change colors? Was my hair meant to be brown or red ? Why are some people so mean? Then others are too nice. Someone has to ask these questions, right. I just have to find out for myself. Are there really such things as stupid questions? Why do we have different colors of skin? why is the grass green and the sky blue? Do I really think too much? What got all this started anyway? Is there someone watching over all of us? Who do I ask these questions too? Just looking for a few ANSWERS!!!

Why ?
sitting here just thinking why, you ever do that yourself, see this is my life and i wonder all the time, here are a few question you may also ask, why are we here, is there really a reason? why do we love people that want love us back? why are we always trying to better ourselves? do we not like us the way we are ? why do we work, sleep and eat, we are all going to die anyway? why do i even sit here and give a fuck? why is the sky blue and the grass green? why do people say taking a shit ? where are you taking it ? there are a lot of unanswered questions, i would like to ask, but who do i ask. why do i think to much? why do i look the way i do? why am i always not able to sleep? why cant i just be happy? why god why? how about you , do you ever ask why?

The Dog Food Diet (thought This Was Funny)
I was in Wal-Mart buying a large bag of Purina for Mac and was in > line to check out. A woman behind me asked if I had a dog........ > Duh! > > I was feeling a bit crabby so on impulse, I told her no, I was > starting The Purina Diet again, although I probably shouldn't > because I'd ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 > pounds before I awakened in an intensive care unit with tubes coming > out of most of my orifices and IV's in both arms. Her eyes about > bugged out of her head. > > I went on and on with the bogus diet story and she was totally > buying it I told her > that it was an easy, inexpensive diet and that the way it works is > to load your pockets or purse with Purina nuggets and simply eat one > or two every time you feel hungry. The package said the food is > nutritionally complete so I was going to try it again. > > I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by > now enthralled with my

Moore Crap
(Originally posted on January 5, 2007)You should know who I'm talking about.And again, we see why he was kicked out of the Supreme Court with this news story where he wants to limit religious-based First Amendment challenges.Figured out why I don't like religion and politics mixed yet?tag: Roy Moore, idiot, civil liberties, religion, politics-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

Why Cant I
I try and I try as hard as I can, still I cant succeed as a man. You are so pretty in your blue, still why cant you see what`s inside of you! Yet you can`t see what it is inside, why do you hide all the pain inside. You see me,but I cant see you . You see me, but I cant see you. Lonely yes I must be, but that is all there is to me. Cant tell you what I have been through, just don`t want it to happen to you. Tired that is what I may be, but you came to see me. And now I know where and I know how, that it is that you see. What it is you see in me! Why cant I!!!

Another Survey Bout Me
What would you do if?: What would you do if? The President of the United States called you:Tell him to fuck off and hang up on his ass! You won the lottery:I would take care of my family and get anything and everything i ever wanted You got invited to be on a reality TV show:Hell yeah lets do it! You caught a friend stealing from you:Turn they ass in no one deserves to steal You witnessed a murder:uhm I am not sure n this one A random stranger offered you candy:take it and throw away MySpace and Facebook closed:cry!! LOL A genie granted you one wish:I wish i never ran out of money again You lost your favorite possession:Get over it and move on You found 10 dollars on the ground:pick it shit up .. Your date throws up on you:end the damn thing right then and there Someone cuts off a chunk of your hair:cut theres off too ALL OF IT Your favorite celebrity comes to visit you:

So, Who Would You Believe?
(Originally posted on January 5, 2007)So, who has more clout: A group of scientists who make it their life's work to ferret out mysteries and increasing our knowledge, or some washed-up child star who makes a board game?Well, Kirk Cameron hopes it's the washed-up child star, since he has come out with a game supposedly "proving" that evolution didn't happen.You can't just make stuff like this up. It'd be funny if it wasn't so sad...tag: game, creationism, evolution, Kirk Cameron, idiot-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!

My Birthday!!!
WELL IT'S ONLY ONE WEEK TILL MY BIRTHDAY NEXT FRIDAY AND I AM EXTREMELY EXCITED!!! FIRSTLY, CAUSE I HAVE NO IDEAS WHAT TO EXPECT. SECONDLY, BECAUSE I MADE IT HERE AND AM SO VERY GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE AND TO BE CANCER FREE OVER 8 YEARS WHOO HOO! FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ACTUALLY CARE MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT FRIDAY APRIL 27TH PLEASE LEAVE LOVE ON MY PAGE OR THROUGH E-MAIL PAPI22NJ@AOL.COM THANX A BUNCH XOXOXOXOXO CHARLIE

Have You Ever.... When You Were Drunk
HAVE YOU EVER... WHEN YOU WHERE DRUNK fallen asleep with your face in the toilet? taken off your clothes? kissed someone of the same sex? woken up next to someone you didnt know? puked on someone else? fallen down a flight of stairs? driven a car? stolen anything? broken anything that wasnt yours? sang stupid songs really loudly? gotten kicked out of anywhere? told someone you hated that you loved them? cried uncontrollably? went out in public? yelled to a crowd 'IM DRUNK'? talked to a police man? laughed until you peed your pants? talked to your parents? smoked pot? did pills? ______________________________________ Who gave you your first drink? Who first got you drunk? Where was that? Who's your favorite drinkin' buddy? Do/did your parents allow you to drink? How old were you when you first got drunk? What's your favorite drink? Do you like to drink hard liquor s