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I Did It, By Jingo I Actually Did It!!!!
I have just rated track number 4598 of 4598 tracks in my music library. I listened to the whole bloomin lot and rated each as I went and my God do I have some rubbish music in among the good stuff!! Now I just need to check through as I noticed some cover art was missing and a few of the band names have picked up the album title so I'll get those updated and then I'll be ready to rock n roll. Oh and ready to add the 350 albums that I have on vinyl (already added 50) using my USB turntable and analogue to dig recording package. Then I can rate them as I go and can also slip in the new stuff coming down the torrent as I type. Life is sooo good today, I'm gonna have a celebratory banana!!

April 13th, 2007
Well for my friend that have been taking the time to read my blogs here another follow up. I called Sudbury housing and I owe them $208 for the toilet. I was so mad all I did was cry. I called Ontario works to see if they will pay for it and I just have to wait and see what they say. I so need them to pay this. Like how much money does housing think I get in a month. So today I have to make a few phone calls to see if I can have this money covered by Ontario works. Nothing can seem to go right for me this month. I got to go out with my girlfriend last night to see a movie and it was so nice. We went to see Premonition. My boyfriend did some work in the basement so that helps me out that much more. I also forgot to tell everyone that Tuesday my daughter fell down my basement stairs shes okay, shes a strong little girl. Cried for 3min then ask for her juice and car back. She had a few marks on her face but now there almost gone so that good. Last night a friend of mine that I was

Fucking Pathetic
3 fucking comments!! to 3 different people to thank them for adding me and I get this shit!! Error: you're temporarily blocked from commenting because you have repeatedly flooded the cherrytap servers. your account has been flagged as abusive. continueing to flood our servers will result in it's deletion. try again in 10 minutes. play nicer next time. --babyjesus aka the fascist antichrist, i know. How the fuck does that constitute flooding? Get a fuckin grip sheesh this place gets fucking worse.

Click On Pic For Me Pleaseeeee Help Me!!!
The Mother's Day Free Blast Contest started last night. I put the the picture from the contest here so u can just click on the pic and it will take u to the page to comment bomb & rate it. I need all the help from my friends and fans u can give me. Remember when u comment bomb, after 8 comments change your message and u can do 8 more and then so on and so on. I will be sending each one that gives me help a little something when the contest is over. And if you give me 100 comments or more I will send a very nice gift to you. Hugs and love to all. Debbie

How I See Myself 2
so ok a few month agos i wrote a blog about how some people can be cold to each other. what i mean by this is that people lookin at me like i should just stay home and not come out in public, well that happend a few months back after a Def Leppard concert, it got me down and wanting to kill myself and just leave this world to make pople happy. Well fast forward a few month and god im so glad i have friends like all my cherry friends who have helped me past that. I love life and i have so many wonderful people in my life. Kimmie my lil Skittles i love you babe and u are awsome. Di u rock so hard u make me smile all the time. Tammy what can i say about you, one thing i can say is Careing, your heart is alway open to me and i thank u for that. My buddy and Co owner Shewolf she has had my ear everyday and she was ready to come here and smack me down if i felt that way again ty hunny u rock ( and ya daughter is a funny one lol). and then theres Danni omg she helped me when i was at my lowes

Racism
What do you think the chances are the Oprah will have the Duke Lacrosse players on her tv show to let them voice thier concerns how thier lives were ruined by the false charges levied against them?? An old co-worker and I got into it the other day because of the IMUS comments... It is amazing that the same people who got upset by that, say nothing if Jesse Jackson calls NY "Hymie Town" and Al Sharpton creates fake rape charges with the Brawley case.... While doing some research on HATE CRIMES from the FBI I was floored by this... I think it was 88% of all hate crimes are black on white.... Liberal press must miss that.... We will always have racism I am sorry to say, but it is not just white against black.... Based on the HATE CRIMES it appears there is more racism in reverse.... I still love Princess's comment about me to co-workers at AT&T.. Tom is not racist. He hates everyone the same...

Protect Yourself And Your Rights
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A Dream I Had Last Night
A Dream i had last night............ I watched a snail crawl along the edge of a straight razor, my dream. That's my nightmare, that snail, Crawling, slithering, along the edge of a straight razor and surviving.

The Horror
" I've seen horrors...horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to judge me. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that...But you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror. Horror has a face...And you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies.

I Am Back Home
I am back home, I know, so soon, but the dollar is not doing well against the Euro and i had to come home early. I did get to see western part of Germany, Luxembourg, Belgium, Britain, Ireland and of course the Netherlands, where I spent most of my time and made alot of friends. i will miss my friends in Emmen, its near the German border in the province of Drenthe. I will return when I can. I was very upset to leave and I was in tears. Well I hope to hear from all my friends and fans soon......... Take care. Pete

Things Most Girls Don't Know..
Yea theres many things we wish guys knew...but on the other hand theres alot out there that we don't know about them or just haven't actually believed yet.....read this it will make you think!!! Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them! (oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE) --"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone. --Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. --Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes. --Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. --Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. --Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-y

Hi All
Wow so far so good gr8t site here i do wish to meet some gr8t friend's and have a goodtime. Like i said im just a country gal laid back easy as hell to speak to but i do speak how i feel so on that ya all have a good one. Im going to try and work on my page today is my day off so i'll try and say hi to all. Tara

How I Feel
After a year I turned the corner And our eyes caugt love's glance As with every time I see you, My spirit lifted up to dance. Delighted in your presence, Ecstatic at your vision, The unity that i feel, Can only be fates provision. Such a sense of oneness As we walked out into the night, The feeling of your beauty, Bathes like summer light. Longing has taught me patience, And love has made me wise, Life has taught that to be the best, Stand fast and never compromise. I have seen you for two years, And well happily wait plenty more, So that when I come home, You'd greet me at the door. So if the planet permists, We shall live as one, And everyday shall be a comfort, Like the warmth of the rising sun. Your eyes are as doves, That make joy in me to rise, And to have you as my wife, Shall be a lover's paradise.

Why
Why must people play with emotions Why must they play with hearts Why must peopl set in motion Feelings that threaten to tear it apart Why must people put on a mask Why must they hide behinde a lie Why do they do anything you ask Just to do stuff to make you wanna die Why do people tell you they care Why do they tell you they want you too Why do they then disapear And to bring them back your not told what to do Why must love be such a tragic emotion Why does it so easily turn to despair Why do i feel i drown in an ocean Just because she told me she'd care.

A Poem Of Hope
It started so sad, the way my world fell apart shes going to leave me that was my fear from the start the way she was actin does she really care it was just to much to feel my heart tear that was the feeling it feels so long ago the wound is mending our love will grow those thoughtswere pointless i have nothing to fear i know that she loves me and i will hold that dear ill go through changes to show how i feel ill prove it to her shell know my love is real to keep my mouth shut learn to keep my distance if i can do this shell give less resistance oh so overwhelming the things i must do so she will know i love her i know this is true but thats all over all those things i felt are through and this is now Dominique I LOVE YOU

...mouth...
I feel like I’ve been blown apart, There are pieces here I dunno where they go, I dunno where they go, Kiss me on my salty lips, Bet you feel a little crazy but for me, We’re famous on tv ** Would it be my fault if I could turn u on? Would I be so bad if I could turn u on? When I kiss your mouth I wanna taste it, I turn you upside down don’t wanna waste it I jump on you, you jump on me, You push me out and even thought you know I love you, I’d be inclined to slap you in the mouth, When I kiss your salty lips, You will feel a little crazy but for me, I’ll be famous on tv ** ** Now would it be my fault if I, Took your love and threw it wide, You might restrain me, But could you really blame me? And you will feel your blown apart, All the pieces they will fit to make you whole, And I know where they go ** When I kiss your mouth I wanna taste it, I turn you upside down don’t wanna waste it When I kiss your mouth I wanna taste it, I turn you

Another Deppressed Ass Poem
im fallin apart so easy to die she toys with my heart brings tears to my eyes im the one and only so she says with a smile wants someone beside me should i walk that mile let her do what she pleases let her have another man oh GOD help me JESUS i dont know if i can she wants my permission to be with another should i go into submission pretend theres no bother can my mind stay sane will my heart stay whole can i pretend it didnt happen not bring it up again or will i be nappin in my own pool of sin

Broken Heart
I messed up my future I pushed away my lover I wish she were my wife happily I would give my life to stand by her side and make her my bride I love her more than anything i would give her everything one day I hope she will see that I am changing me and shes always been the one for me Its tearing me apart to know i lost her heart feelings from my past caused in her a laps and now i push them away in hopes she'll return one day. how easy it wouldve been to end my life just then i get lost inside her eyes it makes me want to cry I know she'll be there to the end but for now only as a friend

16 Signs You Love Someone
16 SIGNS YOU LOVE SOMEONE When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago. FIFTEEN: You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again. FOURTEEN: You walk really slow when you're with them. THIRTEEN: You feel shy whenever they're around. ELEVEN: When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time. TEN: You smile when you hear their voice. NINE: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. EIGHT: You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them. SEVEN: They're all you think about. SIX: You get high just from their scent. FIVE: You relize you're always smiling when you're looking at them. FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them. THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole t

Friday Links: Imus Cancelled, Radiothon Continues, New Boobs On Ratemywow, New Videos Online
LISTEN TO TODAY'S SHOW ON AUDIBLE (link usually active by 3pm EST) It's Friday The 13th, kids...and it is kind of gloomy for folks in the radio business. Our pal Don Imus was let go from CBS Radio last night a mere day after his MSNBC show was cancelled. In the middle of his annual Radiothon, no less. We made such an impact by helping out with the charity event yesterday, that we're going to do it again! WFAN/Imus in the morning Radiothon Donations: Donate Online HERE Or donate via phone at this number: call 877-877-6464...and tell 'em who sent you! Our own Jim Norton has already flown out to Vegas for the kickoff of the 2007 Traveling Virus Tour, so Rich Vos is filling in this morning (Rich flies out later on today). Also, remember - Tomorrow starting at 2pm (Vegas Time), the O&A Show will be live from pool side at the Hard Rock Hotel to announce the rest of the Traveling Virus Tour dates and to goof off before and during the show. Remember kids, there are still tickets ava

Change...
Good Morning and how is your Friday summing up so far? Mine has started and I am doing a half day at work and a full day at home…ha ha Time to finish those wood floors. So my wish for you this weekend in April is to have a good time in what ever time you are planning and may what you wish for surely come true. I put together a rhyme titled “What If” The reason some things come to me are not always clear but today I felt in rhyme so I hope you enjoy. Have a great weekend A huge hug and an assortment of pats Mart What If… What if, the world stopped today? Turning, spinning and whirling in everyway. Would your tasks be finished, what do you say? Those you put off for another day. What if, there were no crimes, All was pleasant and mostly safer times. Would we be content all of the time? Or would greed take a toll and stop us on a dime. What if, all countries big or small lived in peace? Not in haste and discontent which each other in the least Commerce was treate

Irish Gas Station
Taking a wee break from the golf course, Tiger Woods drives his new Mercedes into an Irish gas station. An attendant greets him in typical Irish manner, unaware who the golf pro is... "Top o' the mornin to ya". As Tiger gets out of the car, two tees fall out of his pocket. "So what are those things, laddie?" asks the attendant. "They're called tees," replies Tiger. "And what would ya be usin 'em for, now?" inquires the Irishman. "Well, they're for resting my balls on when I drive," replies Tiger. "Aw, Jaysus, Mary an' Joseph!" exclaimes the Irish attendant. "Those fellas at Mercedes think of everything.

Pain In The End
I have found in my mind Things I once left behind Now without a second thought I know the pains I wrought Apologies of dissappointed blame When I already did the same Rather not just one faulty of lies We choose to act greater and more wise Looking to what we can find Only enable to see as if to be blind Hating our untruths caught Tying webs of deceit in knots Pointing out others shame Treating life as a game Caring less as to why Giving in as we all slowly die Forgetting forgiveness is easily said As others lie in our bed Hurt being promised not In the end that is all I got...

Wild Irish Ho'sý
An Irish daughter had not been home for over five years. Upon her return, her father cursed her. Where have ye been all this time? Why did ye not write to us, not even a line? Why didn't ye call? Can ye not understand what ye put yer old mum thru? The girl, crying, replied, "Sniff, sniff... Dad... I became a prostitute..." "Ye what!!? Out of here, ye shameless harlot! Sinner! You're a disgrace to this family." "OK, Dad -- as ye wish. I just came back to give mum this luxurious fur coat, title deed to a ten bedroom mansion plus a savings certificate for $5 million." "For me little brother, this gold Rolex and for ye daddy, the sparkling new Mercedes limited edition convertible that's parked outside plus a membership to the country club... (takes a breath)... and an invitation for ye all to spend New Years' Eve on board my new yacht in the Riviera, and..." "Now what was it ye said ye had become?" says dad. Girl, crying again, "Sniff, sniff....a prostitute dad

Directions From New York To London This Way Not Me You ????????????????????ý
Take 60 seconds to do this, I guarantee you will show someone else, it's too funny not to. 1. Type www.google.com in your url/address box and hit enter 2. Near the top and above the search box, click on "maps" 3. Near the top and below the search box click on "get directions" 4. Next to the word Google type "New York" in the first box (the "from" box) 5. Now type "London" in the second box (the "to" box) 6. To the right of London click on "get directions" button 7. Scroll down to step #23 Wouldn't you like to talk to the person responsible for this step?

Why Aren't Women This Cheap For Dinners And Such ???????
Oil Change instructions for Women: 1) Pull up to Jiffy Lube when the mileage reaches 3000 miles since the last oil change. 2) Drink a cup of coffee. 3) 15 minutes later, write a check and leave with a properly maintained vehicle. Money spent : Oil Change $20.00 Coffee $1.00 Total $21.00 Oil Change instructions for Men: 1) Wait until Saturday, drive to auto parts store and buy a case of oil, filter, kitty litter, hand cleaner and a scented tree, write a check for $50.00 2) Stop by 7/11 and buy a case of beer, write a check for $20, drive home. 3) Open a beer and drink it. 4) Jack car up. Spend 30 minutes looking for jack stands. 5) Find jack stands under kid's pedal car. 6) In frustration, open another beer and drink it. 7) Place drain pan under engine. 8) Look for 9/16 box end wrench. 9) Give up and use crescent wrench. 10) Unscrew drain plug. 11) Drop drain plug in pan of hot oil: splash hot oil on you in proces

Three Womený
Three women who were friends in high school have returned to their hometown, to attend their 45th reunion and have lunch together. Their talk turns to their position in life, and it's clear that they are trying to one-up each other. The first woman says, "My husband is taking me to the French Riviera for two weeks," and then looks at the others with a superior demeanour. The second woman! says, "Well, my husband just bought me a new Mercedes," And looks about with considerable pride. The third woman says, "Well, to be perfectly honest with you, we don't have much money and we don't have any material possessions, but 13 canaries can stand shoulder to shoulder on my husband's erect penis." After a long silence, the first woman looks shame-faced and says, "Girls, I've got a confession to make. I was just trying to impress you. We're not really going to the French Riviera, we're going to my parent's house for two weeks." The second woman says, "Your honesty has shamed me. To be

Bush And The Call Girls
One day about a month ago, President Bush was looking for a call girl. He found three such girls in a local lounge, a blonde, a brunette and a Redhead. To the blonde he said, "I am the President of the United States . Now how much would it cost me to spend some time with you?" She replied, $200." To the brunette he asked the same question. Her reply was $100. He then asked the redhead. Her reply was, "Mr. President, if you can Get my skirt up as high as my taxes, my panties as low as my wages, Get that thing of yours as hard as the times we are in, and keep it Rising like the gas prices, keep me warmer than it is in my apartment And screw me the way you do the public, then believe me, Mr. President, It isn't going to cost you a damn cent."

For Mothers Day Please
I need comments and alot of them to win a Mothers Day contest ! So can you all pease take a second and comment me or even better a few mins and BOMB me Thanx! Tara Now Click The Pic ! Please be kind and help

Untitled
The room is quiet. Too quiet. So quiet that I can hear the ticking of a clock, or the passing of traffic on the highway a quarter mile away. I sit alone at my computer. Forgotten, a cigarette burns in my hand while my cold coffee sits on the desk. A cat paws at the door from the outside, just wanting to be let in from the cold. It's cold inside too. I continues to stare at the sceen, which has gone black. The power is out. Maybe I should've payed the electric bill this week. My hands begin to shake. They've been doing that a lot more lately. A tear wells up in my eye, then escapes and travels down the side of my cheek. The cat lets out a mournful cry. The cigarette begins to smolder in the overfull ashtray. When did everything go wrong? The wind howls oustide. Lightning flickers on the horizon as a gentle rain decends upon the street. A cell phone rings in the other room. Even after all that's happened, they still know where to find me. They still need me. I have nothing le

Shit On My Mind
OK IF EVERYONE IS WONDERING Y I HAVENT REALLY BEEN MYSLEF LATLEY IT IS CUZ I GOT A FEW THINGS ON MY MIND THAT ARE BUGGING ME AND NO THIS BLOG AINT GONNA CONTAIN THEM SO TO BAD I WILL OPEN UP TO EVERYONE WHE THE TIME IS RIGHT OK EVERYBODY SO DONT GET TO WORRIED ABOUT ME IM A BIG BOY I WILL BE FINE IM JUST GONNA LOCK MYSELF IN MY LIL ISOLATION CHAMBER FOR A BIT YES I WILL TALK TO A FEW PPL THE ONES THAT I KNO REALLY CARE TO TALK TO ME ANYMORE BUT THE REST I KNO WHO MY TRUE FREINDS ARE ON HERE AND WHO I CAN CONSIDER A REAL FREIND EVEN IF I SEEN THEM IN REAL LIFE YES FREINDSHIPS LIKE THAT DO COME OF THIS PATHIC SITE BUT MOST IS JUST BULLSHIT ANYMORE PPL SAY THEY ARE YOUR FREIND TILL UR NOT AROUND FOR A FEW DAYS AND THEN BAM THEY STOP TALKING TO YA AND EVERYTHING ELSE BUT YET ANYWAYS ILL COME OUT AND TELL EVERYONE WUT IS REALLY BUGGING ME SOON ENOUGH I JUST GOTTA SE A FEW THINGS FIRST BUT UNTILL THEN HAVE FUN WITH LIFE AND ALL THE OTHER SHIT YHALL DO IM FUCKING OUTTA HERE

Dreaming About My Wedding
This morning before I woke up to dogs barking and someone being outside and the freaking telephone ringing >.< I was dreaming about being in my church. It was packed. And I was in my wedding gown. I was sitting in the front row on the left side as you go into the sanctuary. Thing was...Teddy wasn't there. I wasn't worried. I don't think he was late or stood me up...I think he was still getting dress and it was like a rehearsal or something. Then Danny (my preacher) married these two ten year old boy and girl because they were I think cancer patients and had fallen in love. (it was so cute) and although they were young, they knew more about love than I did. They saw it in ways I didn't. Like they knew that they were too young to start a family and to do the initmate thing, but they only wanted to be married to each other and I cried. Then I stood up and it was just about time for me when I was rudely awakened. >.< Such a good dream.

My Soul
There is this place deep within my soul, That knows how love should feel. A place that has been closed and dark for so long, That I thought it would never see the light of day. Then one day as I sat reading the people in chat, Watching them talk and laugh. This Lady started talking to me, teasing me, A shower grope, little cute remarks, they sure made me smile. I thought to myself that she is so cute and funny, Then a link to a website was shared. I was struck by hers eyes how beautiful they are, They seemed to look right into my soul. A few days go by as we talk each day, Does she know that she has cracked the door I have shut on my soul? If she could only see the smile on my face when I see her logon, Could she know that she has entered my soul? That place I have kept locked and dark for so long, Has now seen some light, can it really be true? A phone number shared, long conversation in the night, This place in my soul, no longer seems so dark.

My Love
Life has taught me many things, But the one that is never easiest to handle is loss. One must Love Large. No matter the cost. I have know a several small loves in my life, These are some good memories to have. But of the few Large Loves I have had, My Love for you has been strongest. How this happened in such a short time I do not understand. Please don’t ask me to try and explain why this is so, Even though I have thought long and hard, I cannot explain it. I hope one day you will understand my love for you. Until then, I am now and forever will be your friend. by INXS421 03/30/07

Lesson Learned
When I was a child I lived with so much pain, My father left this world without having a chance to say good bye. Years went by and my Nana left us too, Fortunately she had this chance to see us all before her time came. More years go by and wouldn’t you know, Both of my other Grandparents left me with never having a chance to say good bye. The pain and loss I feel to this day, Of never having a chance to tell them all how much I love them. Never again will I miss a chance, To tell those I love just how much I care. Though their feelings may not be the same, My love for them will never change. This lesson I have learned is one I will share, Never miss a chance to tell those who are special to you, Just how much you care and love them. For our time is finite and ever so fleeting. by INXS421 04/04/07

If I Tell You
If I’ve said I love you a thousand times, It could never be enough. My life is now more complete, Then I had ever hoped for. With you as my friend, This world no longer holds any fears. With you by my side, Any dream would pale in the light. Your shining eyes, that beautiful smile, Brings more joy and peace than I have ever known. The feel of you wrapped safe in my arms, Oh how I have loved those times, more than you can ever know. If I tell you I love you a million times, It would be a million times too few. For this love that I feel for you, Can never be more than any man has felt before. I wish you could know my heart, the way you make me feel, Just by being you, thank you for all that you have done. by INXS421 04/07/07

I Miss
Her voice, whispering gently in my ear, The partial grin on her mouth telling me I'm full of it. The twinkle in her eye that means she has a plan, The arch of her back when cradled in my arms in the expectation of a warm kiss. The scent of her neck right before I nibble it, maybe bite, The pure delight when I hold her in my arms and she become weightless. I can go on and on, there's more and more endless. For all the planning in the world is meaningless because when I see you, Hold you, I become enamored all over again. I'm in no rush, not at all. It’s just these are some of the things I miss. by INXS421 04/02/07

I Just Want You To Know
I've thought, and still think of you, Every day, without exception. I haven't forgotten one moment we've shared, I still cherish them as a rose loves the sun. I've thought about you at every turn, you’re there in my mind, The first person I'd want to share with all that happens in my day, Your influence and presence are so strong. I wonder that there's no one that will measure up to you for me, It's not a physical desire, it's well beyond that, but the deep connection we had, Maybe still have, our deep desire to gain understanding and trust. I just can't seem to find any of the qualities you possess, Anywhere but in your arms and I just want you to know. I'm not expecting anything, I just miss you so and wanted you to know. My love for you has blossomed into something, My heart has finally known joy, It has been so very long, since I have felt this way. I just want you to know, I Love You. by INXS421 04/09/07

Haunting Dream
Last night I awoke from a dream, Thinking there was someone in my room. I know the noises in the house most likely it was the boiler, But I woke in a sweat, heart beat out of my chest. I asked if it was you, I reached out to a figure, It was just my imagination. I flicked the lights on and realized it was just a dream, It was so haunting, scary in a way. Hair of a lions mane, pale skin and loving eyes. Softly I smiled…. It had to be your memory. by INXS421 04/03/07

People Are Stupid!
OK PEOPLE ITS NOT THAT HARD IF YOU DONT LIKE MY PIC OR PROFILE DONT LOOK AT IT! i dont understand all u loosers that feel the need to rate others down, probablly just to make yourself feel better, fucking childish as hell and pathetic! come on i thought we where all adluts on this site? guess i was wrong... looks like alot of you have alot of growing up to do, or so it seems!

Flame
The feel of your body next to me, The warmth of your skin against mine. Softly kissing you, terrified of this first night, Will you want me? Do you know how hard my heart is beating, The fright I feel laying here next to you. Looking into those beautiful eyes, Trying to read what they are saying. I am surprised to see, My feelings reflected back at me. Snuggled up close to you, Feeling your heart beat. Are you as afraid as I am, Do you wonder if I find you attractive? Look into my eyes, see my passion, This flame burns so hot for you. We have talked of this night for so long, Can you know how much I want you? Honey, feel my love, taste my kiss, Know always that for you, this flame burns hot and true. by INXS421 04/11/07

Do You Know
When I look into your eyes, My heart soars so high. When you flash me those loving smiles, I forget all 900 miles. When you hold me in your arms so tight, I know the world has been made right. Waking up to the feeling of your warm body next to mine, Those are memories I will treasure for all time. This I know was true, Before I met you, my dreams were so blue. Do you know the effect you have had on me? byINXS421 03/30/07

Beam Of Light
There is this place within us all, That is capable of such love and happiness. For some, it is a dark and lonely place, Where the light never shines. For others, it is such a bright place, Blinding the soul with such intensity. Those who only know the darkness, Miss out on more than they can ever know. This I know, for I was one of those who dwelt in the dark, Missing out on what the light has to offer. No more that dark place, Banished once and for all. The light is now all that I see, Burning my soul with such passion. For when she came into my life, Just being my friend, a beam of light cut through the darkness. Now that dark place burns ever so bright, With a love and friendship that I never thought could be mine. The only thing that I want her to know, That she has brought my soul to life with her love for me. All that I am now, the happiness and joy of living, Has all come from the first little beam of light. by INXS421 04/11/07

As Clear As Day
As clear as day, I grasp the benefit of the woman. All of her experience and all of her scars, Yet she gives me more than she expected. The one I thank on a daily basis, For the most delicious energy I have ever tasted. With no hesitancy, I would say it to her face and smile. There are so many things in my heart, It is as clear as day …….to me. by INXS421

All Things Are Possible
How should a man show his love, For this is one of the hardest things men must learn. To just say the words, no, for they are just wind, But to support the woman he loves with all his heart and soul. To see the love blossom in her eyes, When she knows her man will stand beside her all through her days. To feel the touch of her skin, As you walk hand in hand down all the roads of life. To smell the sweet perfume of her skin, When you hold her tight when she is in need of a hug. To feel her warm body pressed against yours, On a cold winters night. All this and more, are what men need to learn, That showing the woman you love will bring you more happiness. A woman’s love is the rock on which all men can face the world, And know that with her by his side, all things are possible. by INXS421 04/07/07

Once Again
So its happened once again... I have been hurt again just like always.... it always happens when you least expect it... and it always hurts like hell... i am tired of hurting and tired of being hurt.... I dont even know what to do... And right now i am hurting so bad and i have no one to talk to... I hate feeling alone but it seems to happen all the time... SO All i have to say is FUCK LIFE.......

A Simple Kiss (angel)
A simple kiss to remember you by, Your warm breath on my skin. You have touched me in so many ways, More than just the physical. When I have held you in my arms my love, I knew an Angel had come to Earth in you. Twice now I have watched my Angel fly away, My heart has flown with her each time. I wonder at times if she knew what she carried, Those times she has flown from my arms. I know an Angel can never rest, She has so much work do to. But if she needed to rest at times, She will have my heart for her pillow. And when she flies away again, A simple kiss is all I need. For it will hold me heart and soul. Until her time for rest comes again. by INXS421 04/03/07

A Quick Note
Just a quick note as I pass through my day, I want to give you more than any other man has. When you open your eyes, I want you to always have a sense of peace surrounding you. As you go through your day, I want you to look forward to our time together in the evening. The laughter, cooking together, walks in the moonlight, A feeling of love you may never have had. We have many up hill battles to hurdle, But together we can make things happen. You have slowly come to me in a subtle way, To my amazement you really do want the best for me. I love you my darling more with each passing day, I know I shouldn’t tell you this as we are so far away. by INXS421 04/02/07

Fat
good day all why is it that my profile attracts a bucket load of Fat people??, now before you start deriding me and calling me names I,ve nothing against porkers some of my freinds are bloters and some woman really are bbw, but none whove approched me on here so far are, and why do they have the most revealing pics?? keep it covered its not big and its not clever..well actually it is big but hey you know what I mean

A Place In My Heart
There is this place in my heart, That hopes one day we will never part. Friends, Lovers or more, We will wait to see what opens that door. The joy and love we share, One day there might be more if we dare. Though that time might not happen for years, Waiting for it will cause us no tears. If this is meant to be ours, It will not matter the passing hours. I feel so much passion and love for you Dear, I long for the time to hold you near. by INXS421 03/31/07

A Frozen Place
Where once there was heartache and sorrow, Joy has come to live. Pain and loneliness had dwelt there so long, No longer, for joy has come to live. How long has it been this frozen heart did beat, Chilled to my soul, alone with my grief. Glowing eyes and a charming smile, Melt the ice that had formed close to my heart. Warm arms that embraced not only me, But that frozen place that I though would always remain. Never again will the ice form, For I know that joy has come to live there. by INXS421 04/04/07

A Connection Of The Heart
Though we live far apart, We share a connection of the Heart. Laying in each others arms, To me, the World can do us no harm. My heart beats strong and true, With this passion that burns for you. When you smile at me so bright, It sets my world alight. With this connection of the Heart, Our friendship will never grow apart. by INXS421 03/28/07

More Writing...
He stood, he breathed, therefore, he existed. At least, that's what his thoughts would tell him. But after three years of feeling invisible, he was convinced that the critics were wrong. Just because your brain worked didn't make you alive. Just because you breathed didn't force you to exist. Just because your heart beat didn't mean you could love. He had nothing left to say to the world. His thoughts were skewed; his inspiration was as good as dead. Once one of the most powerful creative minds in North America, he was now void of life and incapable of love. It was all because of her. She crept into his every thought. It was as though she was there, whispering those blessed sweet nothings in his ear once more. But this time, instead of joy, they only brought pain. The memories of better days gradually weighed down on his heart until finally, one day, he could bear it no longer. Today was that day. He stood, he breathed, he existed. Escape lay at his feet, a mere decision away.

An Actual Place To Live
well after years of wondering around ailessly around the country ive finally got a stable place to live for the time being everything is going well ive got a job and all though its not an actual job its still work none the less my coffee house plans are under way ive got grant writers lawyers ppl whos specialty is making buisness plans realtors and anything else i need for the coffee house itll be open hopefully during the next winter and not only that i am no longer stressed out about stup[id fucking drama except from some dumb ass raver chick trying to be all bad ass and threaten me a few times and and a few of my friends/family oh well shes gone and no longer bothering me but besides that i have no other current plans in my agenda other then sitting around and doing really much of nothing

What Would You Do? Ladies Only!!!
ASK YOURSELF THISWOULD YOUDATE? KISS? TUCH? SLEEP WITH?HOW HOT AND SEXY IS THIS GUY?WHAT ALL WOULD YOU DO WITH THIS GUY?PISS, SHIT, AND OR SPIT ON IF GONE DOWN ON YOU?SOMETHING ELSE THAT YOU WILL DO? Please send a message to me to tell me what you would do with the guy in the pic? Tell me what all you would like to do and what all you would do if you wanted to and or didnt want to but would do anyways? feel free to speek your mind and say it as though you mean what you say!!!

Captivation
Morning Dawn Ok so i've been sitting here for last hour ha yeah no appointments till 11.30 hehe ;) But i got just one problem! My mind has gone blank!!!!!! Now i'm thinking i'm writing this so other people can read it wtf!? lol I dont have shit to hide besides real men can express their feelings and thoughts right? right!?? One sec need coffee brb ;p Back now :D Ran out of coffee so had to settle for tea yum yum...awww c'mon you know you wish your tea tasted this good lol So i'm trying to think of what i want to say to you that i havent already said a hundred times already. Choose your words carefully now boy haha Ok so i know that we fight alot, argue, call each other names, deny each others needs...oh wait shit, thinking about the wrong person here :p WONDERFUL WOMAN THAT YOU ARE. YES YOU FUCKER. CANT IMAGINE A DAY PASSING BY WITHOUT YOU. FUCKING HEART STEALER!! CAPTIVATED MY IMAGINATION AND HEART AND SOUL AND THEN SOME ;) You walked lightly into my life

Questions
1. What is your full name?....John Henry Koch Jr. 2. When is your Birthday?.... 5/8/1962 3. What is your e-mail address?... 4. Do you smoke?....Nope, smoked for about 19 years and then quit on my 39th birthday. Haven't smoked since. 5.How many sexuall partners have you had?... More than a few, less than a lot 6. If you can't answer, is it really that many?.... Wasn't aware I was supposed to be keeping score 7. Can you cook?....Hell, yes!!! I'm a damned good cook. 8. What was your dream growing up?....I'm a kid from the 60's .... an astronaut of course! 9. What talent do you wish you had?....To sing, I couldn't carry a tune in a bucket. ;-) 10. Favorite place?....The beach 11. Favorite vegetable?....green beans 12. What was the last book you read? .... "The Taking" by Dean R. Koontz 13. What zodiac sign are u ?....Taurus 14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?...Not a single one 15. Worst Habit?....I was going to put procrastination, but I desided to put it off until later. ;-

The Good Usually Outnumbers The Bad
There are those who consistently talk trash about the U.S. military. There are those who will actually call them Murderers. But, I am a military wife. I am proud of my Husband in everything he does. He is currently in another state, in school for the Army. He's been there since November, and he will finally be home in 25 days. On the back of my truck are 2 stickers. One says "I Love My Soldier". The other says "My Ass Belongs to a US Soldier" I have had so many compliments on these 2 simple stickers that it is almost mind boggling. I have had old men walk up to me as I am putting gas in my Truck, and pat me on the back. I constantly get thumbs up signs Peace signs and even a few kisses blown at me while driving through town. So, where is this going? I finally had my taste of the negative the other day. I did not tell my Husband, for I believe it would have upset him, as it did me. I was leaving the Post-office, I had just put the car seat back in the truck,

Prettiest Or Best Picture Contest
Ok this is my second contest ever..The first one went so well thanks guys & gals...Yes it becomes a little more harder this time...This time you need 7,000 comments. But the 1st prize is better...Contact me if you wanna enter... This can be any picture you have in your photo's, any kind of photo that you want... RULES 1.) No HARASSING other contestants..NO EXCEPTIONS 2.) No NSFW Pic's 3.) The picture must remain in your photo's until the contest is done... Anyone can join this contest. I am looking for 25 contestants but there can be more. (Space Permitting)... 1st Place Prize.............(Silver MotorCycle) 2ND Place Prize.............15,000 CHERRY BUCKS 3RD Place Prize.............10,000 CHERRY BUCKS 4TH Place Prize.............50 CHERRY BUCKS NO TIME LIMIT ON THIS CONTEST...CONTEST GOES TIL SOMEONE REACHES 7,000 COMMENTS...

Why Is This???
WHY IS IT? Alot of guys think that tits or boobs are the best ting ever and I have to dissagree!! I think that a female butt is like the best thiong along with the hips and there face, eyes, hair as well as mabe saying that shor and petette is the best thing!!! We all know that butts come in many different types of shapes and sizes like other thing we know of!!! Some guys even thing that a female has not butt when they do!!! See a few of the pic samples bellow of what I think is a hot butt!!! This is what looks good to me!!! However the middle pis is the perfect one to me!!! Do you have one better? Show me a pic and I will tell you if its better!!!! NOW THOSE ARE GREAT BUTTS

A Greeting
What you see is History Current mood: awake Category: Music Hey whats up? Thought I would finally drop a few lines on the site. I have spent some time going through it aand I must say its very interesting. I see all types of people sharing some of the same interest very nice. Anyway I am writing here to inform you that we are coming to a few select places within the month to come, if you are interested in coming out to a show and seeing some intense metal in your face below are the dates of some of the shows we will be playing. I hope to see you there and enjoy yourself. If you have no idea what I am talking about here is a website you might want to check out, has plenty of information for you. Take care www.godforbid1.com PPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ..>..> ..>..> May 10 2007 8:00P Rex Theatre Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania ..>..> May 11 2007 8:00P Mad Hatter Covington, Kentucky ..>..> May 12 2007 8:00P Waukesha

Becoming Burned Out
Working as a dual rated worker in the casino business after fifteen years I find that I am getting burned out. With all the new staff and new ownership in the casino business. I find that people are taking all kinds of cheap shoot at me. from Cansino Managerial to dealers, also customers are taking their shoots also. By putting words into my mouth (ak miss qouting what I have said). I know I have a temper and try my best to avoid stressful problems and events. Problem is people go out of their way to get under my skin to stress me oput at times. So I get written up for my temper. So I have to bite the bullet and listen to the Casino manager and Shift boss say I have a bad personnality. When I do not. I like having fun and can handle stress when I know it is coming. Problem is when others are working to blind sided me and talk bad about me or say things about me when I have no clue that it is said to some one else until I called to the office for a formal write up. All this does is pis

My Angel
You scored as You are an Angel of Beauty. You are an Angle of Beauty. You seek all those things which are visually appealing as well as those that are beautiful on the inside!You are an Angel of Beauty75%Angel of Light75%You are an innocent Angel63%You are half Fallen/ half Light Angel!50%You are an Angel of Pain31%What kind of Angel are you??(PICS)created with QuizFarm.com

Kissing
You scored as Romantic Kisser. Good for you! You know how to kiss and hopefully you have a certain someone to experience a serge of happiness with. If not, it doesnt hurt to flirt kiss a little hehe. Just dont get carried away. Romantic kissing is always a plus! Kissing is an art keep it up and youll be really good! Here some tips: 1. Be ready 2. no smoking 3. start slow 4. up the intensity 5. develop rhythm 6. change it up 7. pay attention to hands 8. experiment 9. respond 10. repeatRomantic Kisser88%Yippy Ki Yay!56%Your more of a class act than youre giving yourself credit for38%How good do you kiss?created with QuizFarm.com

Nascar!!!!
You scored as Kasey Kahne. You are Kasey Kahne. You are a major cutie! Everyone loves you and you have the most amazing eyes in the world. You are so loved that some people are jealous of you but don't let their thoughts bring you down just keep on being a beautiful person inside and out!Kasey Kahne75%Elliot Sadler70%Jeff Gordon70%Kevin Harvick60%Michael Waltrip55%Dale Earnhardt Jr.50%Tony Stewart50%Dale Jarrett30%Kurt Busch25%Mark Martin5%What Nascar driver personality are you?

My Symbol
You scored as Ankh. The Ankh is a representation of life. You are inspired by life, and all its splendor, and you feel you are empowered by your symbol.Ankh88%Biohazard75%Cross69%Skull31%Swastika19%What's your symbol?created with QuizFarm.com

Kinky Lol
You scored as Very Kinky. You are very Kinky. Yuo are not over the top but you like kinky arousements and you are willing to try something new every time. You will make a very fun sex partnerVery Kinky70%A WUSS !!50%Average30%A Sicko10%How sexual are youcreated with QuizFarm.com

This Is Fucked...
Ok so within the past ten minuts i have gone from a complete fukin hyper nut case, to a fuckin depressed worthless piece of shit. Gotta love wutever it is thats wrong with me. However as i finally figured out what the lyrics bouncing around in my head were, and as usuall music can say what I am thinking better than i can. yup. but im working on my new song that has been fucking shitty since the start. I hate just about everything right now. I cant find the fucking MP3 for this song...Blows goats majorly.

Introduce Yourself
COPY AND PASTE THIS TO A NEW EMAIL AND SEND IT TO ME :) You're on my friends list. I'd like to know 25 things about you. Just hit reply to sender. Thanks! You'll be surprised how much you didn't know about your friends after this! 1. Ever punch someone in the face? 2. How old are you? 3. Are you single or taken? 4. Eat with your hands or utensils? 5. Do you dream at night? 6. Ever seen a corpse? 7. Have you ever wished someone dead? 8. Do You Like Bush, the president? 9. Whats your philosophy on life? and death? 10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know.. 11. Do you trust the police? 12. Do you like country music? 13. What is your fondest memory of me? 14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? 15. Would you date me? 16. What do you wear to sleep? 17. Have you ever peed in a pool? 18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to? 19. If I only had one day to live, what would we

The Imperfect Me..
Tonight , I will open my heart, tonight I will cry it loud, tonight my soul will dance and tonight , tonight I am gonna LIVE MY LIFE….. When I was a child and up to now I always picture my world as a rose colored glasses, simple yet refreshing ,young and carefree, sweet , innocent ,naïve, I thought life then was easy, When I want to play I will play, I can laugh, I can cry and I can TALK and NOT HIDE.. I considered myself a Leaf ..I am a leaf,,, I am a strong leaf , I try to hold on to that strong tree , the wind may blow, the rain may come and the rain will go ,I am still there hanging on, trying to be strong, trying to give them shade, shade that comes from my heart, for them to feel my love, my care and my value ,, but now I smell the autumn air reminded me that the winter time is coming and even the the strongest leaf will fall .. but I tried to hold on , be strong . I really tried but I guess that’s not enough , , I was starting to fall, fall, fall, fall, fall and

What A Fun Thursday
Thismorning we watched a video in my psyche class about being a father. It was kinda depressing, because it made me think about trinity. ( My ex's daughter. ) But whatever. Then I was upset in english class, since it's right after that class. The paper I thought was due today, is due next week, and he didn't want us to hand then in today. He ended up talking about a family and their kids " fell off " when they left the house. One was in jail or something, and one was a stripper in vegas. He seemed to put both of those as bad things. Old people must think they can get away with that shit, cuz ' Who's going to kick an old guy in the face? ' I really should have said " Atleast she didn't become an english teadher ! " Only a few more weeks, then I start 2010. I hope that one isn't as bad, the teacher I signed up for is highly recomended by one of the people at the veteran's place at school. About a month ago, I tried to explain to people that I didn't have a contract. I coul

Earth
You scored as Earth. You have a mother personality. Much like the earth, you care for everyone whether you know them or not. A lot of people abuse your good nature, but you don't mind, as long as their happy. You're in touch with reality, and very reliable. You're not too stressed taking everything a bit at a time, many people find comfort in this behavior. Parties are most likely not your thing, you probably prefer hanging out in small groups with a couple of your friends.Please Tell me what you think! Negative feedback VERY welcome! Tell me how to fix it! :) Earth100%Water75%Fire63%Light63%Air56%Darkness38%Ice19%What Element Are You? (BOY+GIRL ANIME PICS & DETAILED ANSWERS)created with QuizFarm.com

Normal Sex
You scored as Normal Sex. You like to do the things the way they were meant to be done. But this doesn't mean you can't be an animal in bed.Normal Sex89%Orgy61%Oral Sex44%Phone Sex39%Anal Sex17%Cyber Sex17%Gay Sex0%What kind of SEX do you love? (pics)created with QuizFarm.com

Top Ten Things That Sound Dirty At The Office But Aren't
TOP TEN THINGS THAT SOUND DIRTY AT THE OFFICE BUT AREN'T: 10. I need to whip it out by 5. 9. Mind if I use your laptop? 8. Just stick it in my box. 7. If I have to lick one more, I'll gag! 6. I want it on my desk, NOW!!!!! 5. Hummmm...I think it's out of fluid! 4. My equipment is so old, it takes forever to finish. 3. It's an entry level position. 2. When do you think you'll be getting off today? And the number one thing that sounds dirty at the office but it isn't: 1. It's not fair...I do all the work while he just sits there!!!

Am I In Love?
You scored as Hell Yea. U are totally in love, u would do anything to be with this person and u would die for them.Hell Yea100%Sounds More Like Lust33%Hell No33%Are u in love???????created with QuizFarm.com

My Heart
You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You\'re grateful for what you have in life, even if it\'s not perfect. People love you for who you are, don\'t ever change that- it\'s what makes you the great person that you are.Blue93%Pink75%Yellow68%Green29%White21%Red14%Orange14%Black11%Purple11%~What colour is your heart?~created with QuizFarm.com

New News. Lol
Hello everyone. Today I have better news. fist off. My mom is doing better. I know that becsue she is back to herself. And has not cdalled me. Mathew my ex lover is doing great to. I have been talking and texting him and his wife. As you know we made up. So that was a good thing. I talked to my grandmother today. She told me that one of my grant uncles died. And the pared him today. She said that one of uncles has cancer. And one of my great antes is stell sick from brest cancer. But the rest of my family is doing good. So that is a good thing. I do wary about them. I hope the of you my friends, family, and fans here are doing good to. You all have been so wonderful to me. Thanks.

Sex Good
You scored as Sex God. You are a master at sex. You make your partner weak in the knees, and you know it. You've had the practice, and you've read the books, but don't get too cocky (pun intended) or you'll get put into place.Sex God73%A Slave To BDSM65%A Romantic65%Virgin38%How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

Tired Of The Mundane
This is getting kinda boring...lame....and this site has so much stuff going on it slows my computer down...and there doesn't seem to be any Real, Genuine people out there...is that just the web...or is that how the world at large has become...disconnected???

I Am Nice !!!
You scored as Nice. Your nice. Please rate my quiz!Nice100%Outgoing94%Fun88%Shy19%Immature13%Dramatic13%mean0%what kind of person are you? (shy,outgoing,fun,mean,immature,dramatic or nice?)created with QuizFarm.com

Soft
You scored as Soft. You are nice and soft, you love everyone and everyone loves you, while you are fiery or too exciting, you are always pleasant.Soft88%Exciting81%Sweet75%Hot75%Wet50%Shy50%Violent44%Awkward6%What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

What The Heck Kind Of Trip Is This?
Garg... I know I said I wasn't going to post... But I just needed to vent a tiny bit... I went on what was supposed to be a quick flight home for a job interview... Not the first time I've done this... and probably won't be the last... But this trip has been frustrating... 1. I'm still ill and I found out that flying makes it feel worse... 2. I had to get up an hour earlier and drive in sludge to get to the plane still on time. 3. I set off the metal detectors and had to be patted down... I figured I would at the first airport since I was wearing bondage pants... but I got it again today while dressed "civil" and probably will again tomorrow to take my other flight... 4. First thing I did when I got home was puke... damn that all to hell... 5. I barely made the interview on time cause I couldn't read my own directions... 6. I nearly got kicked out of my interview because I brought my phone in by mistake and had to be dropped off... 7. Had to do a 2 ho

Guys!
Guys are like stars.... there's a million of 'em and only one will make your dreams come true!!! How true is this??? We spend our whole lives searching for that someone who makes our dreams come true, yet sometimes the person that can do that for you is right in front of your face and you dont even realize it!!! The only advice i have for this is to keep your eyes, ears, and heart open otherwise the love of a lifetime may just fly on by!

12 Signs You Love Someone
TWELVE When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago. ELEVEN: You walk really slow when you're with them. TEN: You feel shy whenever they're around. NINE: You smile when you hear their voice. EIGHT: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. SIX: They're all you think about. FIVE: You relize you're always smiling when you're looking at them. FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them. THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time. TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself. NOW MAKE A WISH. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO...... ******* ****** ***** **** *** ** * ** *** **

Shoot Me? Twice? Three Times? It Actually Takes 11 Bullets To Kill Me.
01. When's the last time you ran? few days ago 002. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? some do. 003. What are you reading right now? this 004. Do you celebrate 4/20? Nope. No weedies for me. 006. Favorite ice cream? Ben and Jerry's NY chocolate chunk mmmhmm. 007. When was your last doctor's visit? three weeks ago. 008. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? no, i have horrible painful (physically) nightmares that wake me up constantly. 009. Have you ever been married? Nope 010. "First Loves Are Never Over;" is this true for you? No, its mos deff over. 012. If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would they find you wearing? boxers and a beater. 013. What type of music you listen to? Metalcore, rock. 014. Have you ever been on your school's track team? fuck nope 015. Do you own a pair of Converse? nope 017. Do you eat raw cookie dough? when its around. 018. Have you ever kicked a vending machine

Lol
Computer problems & customer service This has got to be one of the funniest I've heard of in a long time. I think this guy should have been promoted, not fired. This is a true story from the WordPerfect Help line which was transcribed from a recording monitoring the customer care department. Needless to say, the Help Desk employee was fired however, he is currently suing the WordPerfect organization for "Termination without cause." This is the actual dialogue of a former WordPerfect Customer support employee (now I know why they record these conversations) Employee --"Rich H. computer assistance; may I help you?" Customer--"Yes, well, I'm having trouble with WordPerfect." Employee --"What sort of trouble?" Customer--" Well, I was just typing along, and all of a sudden the words went away." Employee --"Went away?" Customer--" They disappeared." Employee --"Hmmm. So what does your screen look like now?" Customer--" Nothing." Employee --"Nothing?" Custo

From {***angeleyes***}
I just want to express my SINCERE THANKS to Maria aka...Sexy Mama, for running the first contest I was in, and to ALL my family & friends that have helped me win. You ALL know who you are, and I want YOU ALL to know how much I appreciate your dedication, extreme effort, & countless hours of comment bombing me, despite all those crazy error messages we were all getting. My God, you people are totally AWESOME!! Not only were those error messages a huge nuisance, but they were pretty damn annoying as well. I know at times I would get ticked off because it caused alot of problems here on my end. I can only imagine how you felt at times. I know the comment bombing and delays from the error messages took ALOT of your time away from other things you wanted or needed to get done on here, at home, or anywhere else. Please know that from the bottom of my heart, that truly means the world to me. It shows what TRUE and GENUINE FRIENDS you are, and I love you all for your great BIG hearts. I consid

Why Couples Don't Have Sex
TO MY DEAR WIFE: During the past year I have tried to make love to you 365 times. I have succeeded 36 times, which is an average of once every ten days. The following is a list of why I did not succeed more often: 54 times the sheets were clean 17 times it was too late 49 times you were too tired 20 times it was too hot 15 times you pretended to be sleep 22 times you had a headache 17 times you were afraid of waking the baby 16 times you said you were too sore 12 times it was the wrong time of the month 19 times you had to get up early 9 times you said weren't in the mood 7 times you were sunburned 6 times you were watching the late show 5 times you didn't want to mess up your new hairdo 3 times you said the neighbors would hear us 9 times you said your mother would hear us Of the 36 times I did succeed, the activity was not satisfactory because: 6 times you just laid there 8 times you reminded me there's a crack in the ceiling 4 times you told me to hurr

A Sinking Ship?
Coming over from that other place whose name shall not be mentioned so long ago, the LC, now the CT used to be a far superior alternative to that other place. People were spreading the word left and right about how great this place is and it was expanding faster and faster every day, and probably still is. While that place most people left was constantly buggy, the CT ran like a swiss watch, and after all that Happy Hour, ViC and Blast money kept rolling in, it seemed to get even better, at first. Then things started to go downhill. People who you thought were close friends turned out not to be who they were. Someone else's pictures were used and a fake profile was created. Suddenly they implemented new rules to ostensibly prevent people who were using scripts to cheat. And suddenly we were rating too fast, commenting too fast, flooding the server in one way or the other. Apparently whatever is preventing the cheating from occuring, is also penalizing those of us with newer comp

Poem: Ragnarok
COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL. PLEASE DO NOT COPY WITHOUT PERMISSION. THANK YOU. Ragnarok Listen Now to story told Of a time which may be soon With the sun eaten by Skoll As Hati shall the moon Giants awaken to cry of Fjalar Gullinkambi the gods alert Fenrir freed in his place afar Jormungand shall poison the earth Hymir aboard Naglfar shall come Loki shall lead the dead Surt's fire giants come Now comes a time of dread Sound the horn Heimdall Call the gods to war Einherjar rise ye all To battle and to gore Meet all at Vigrid Plain Come gods, come dwarves, come elves The earth with blood to stain Valkyrie have prided themselves In their choices among the slain Odin's might against fang of Fenrir Thor's hammer strikes Jormungand Freyr shall meet Surt here Tyr and Garm die by the other's hand Prepare a great funeral bier Odin gone and Fenrir tired Vidal shall tear the jaws apart The battle long, becomes mired Surt shall mighty fires start All the worlds b

Someone Educate Me - Is This Sh!t Real?
i saw this about ten years ago on the official bonsai kitten.com site and was severly disturbed i got the link from rotten.com (go figure) and like a dumbass i had to go and check it out here is a smaller site (thankfully not nearly as graphic - oh you would have had nightmares): http://zealcorp.com/bonsaikitten/ if you are bothered...check out this link to sign a petition: http://www.gopetition.co.uk/online/1251.html

Hot Fantasy Of Mine
Sitting on a stool at the hotel bar we sip our drinks and chat. We are beaming and the entire bar can see it. Every hot man is checking me out and every hot chic is giving you the bedroom eyes. Smiling at the end of the bar, a man and his wife give us a nod and then look back at each other. Getting off on the attention that we are receiving you put your hand on my thigh and start to slide under my skirt, all the men lean over to catch a peek. Getting to the point of no return we decide to pay up and leave. As we walk out I see the sign for the hotels pool and tug at your shirt. It is 3 am and the room is empty, just a blue green light which reflects from the lights under the pool. We walk into the room, me in front of you and you walking super close behind me with your arms around me, kissing my neck and rubbing your hands along the front of my blouse. Knowing that we are alone you squat in front of me and reach under my skirt and slide my panties down my legs. Standing, you lo

Bad Mood Rising
Just got out of the hospital today after 4 days in. I hate being in the hospital. Its so lonely in there especially after visiting hours are over. Still waiting for something to change about the direction things are going, in a pretty crappy mood. Listened to this song, the video is in my stash if you want to hear/see it. If you say the NIN version is better than the Johnny Cash version, I will scissor-kick you in the head. Johnny Cash- Hurt I hurt myself today to see if i still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing thats real. The needle tears a hole; the old familiar sting, try to kill it all away, but I remember everything. (Chorus) what have I become, my sweetest friend? Everyone i know, goes away in the end, and you could have it all: my empire of dirt, I will let you down, I will make you hurt. I wear this crown of thorns upon my liars chair: full of broken thoughts, I cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time, the feelings dissapear.

To My Love Tammy
My love for you is so true i cant go one second without thinking of you you are my life my hero I look upto you your that true one that special one your the one who has me for forever. your the one that i love with all my heart and soul

I Dunno Why Any More!!!!
I just don't know why any more....all i did was trying to be happy and some how some way something always comes up or gets in the way...i just don't know any more cause i gave it my hardest and i love him so much but is it any good any more??? I can't help but to have doubts when the clouds are black and not white or gray no more so i don't know how to feel or what to do i just wish once in my life god would answer my prayers.....cause all i want is to feel his arms wrapped around me and his lips on mine and the smile on his face i just want to see that again....it'd be so nice!!!! Chelle

Sorry That I Have Not Been Really Talkative Lately
This whole week has been very busy and my stepfather is back into the hospital...I don't know what's wrong with him now. Hopefully on Friday, I can relax and take my brain out of my head..I do hope everybody has had a wonderful week!! Take care always!! Jeremy

Sexual Iq
You have a sexual IQ of 146 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Uss New York
USS New York It was built with 24 tons of scrap steel from the World Trade Center . It is the fifth in a new class of warship - designed for missions that include special operations against terrorists. It will carry a crew of 360 sailors and 700 combat-ready Marines to be delivered ashore by helicopters and assault craft. Steel from the World Trade Center was melted down in a foundry in Amite , LA to cast the ship's bow section. When it was poured into the molds on Sept. 9, 2003, "those big rough steelworkers treated it with total reverence," recalled Navy Capt. Kevin Wensing, who was there. "It was a spiritual moment for everybody there." Junior Chavers, foundry operations manager, said that when the trade center steel first arrived, he touched it with his hand and the "hair on my neck stood up." "It had a big meaning to it for all of us," he said. "They knocked us down. They can't keep us down. We're going to be back." The ship's motto? "Never Forget"

Lovers
What kind of a LOVER are YOU?You are a PASSIONATE LOVER!When it comes to sex and relationships you put 100% into both. You like to have fun and try new things but you pay alot of attention to the PASSION that lives in side of each kiss, touch or meaningful word. You contain the whole package and any man would be would be very lucky to have a women like you!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Sad Day
Kurt Vonnegut November 11, 1922 – April 11, 2007 Rest in peace. Some of my favorite quotes: A purpose of human life, no matter who is controlling it, is to love whoever is around to be loved. Kurt Vonnegut, Sirens of Titan How nice--to feel nothing, and still get full credit for being alive. Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse-Five Say what you will about the sweet miracle of unquestioning faith, I consider a capacity for it terrifying and absolutely vile! Kurt Vonnegut I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center. Kurt Vonnegut What makes you think a writer isn't a drug salesman? Kurt Vonnegut, Cat's Cradle

Things R Lookin Better
well i moved here to kansas from missouri n jan wasnt diggin it at all...but now ive gotten a job 2 take up all that borin free time...plus have met chick that moved here same time i did but from florida...we have been kickin it n ive been enjoyin the time spent wit my family...n now im goin 2 b gettin a car next mth so i can go visit wit my best friend back home(she girl n pics wit holey jeans)n all my other peeps that r back home that i miss kickin it wit...so yea thhings r gettin better n it helpin change my additude bout liven here....

Win A Trip To San Francisco The 27th Of April
and see Kaiser Chiefs, The Walkmen, and my buds The Little Ones at the Warfield in SFO. But you have to be creative! http://nmeontour.imeem.com/ Good Luck! A couple of tracks for your listening pleasure:

We Should Dance
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance....

Houston Bitches About "nappy Headed Hoes"
1st off I apologize for not getting the Pistons and Bulls Game reviews up. Reason for that is I've been feeling under the weather, as fucked up as it has been its a wounder why I sick. ANY Who, My throat is a hurting due to the shit load of coughing I've been doing. However I felt good enough to get online and do this Rant as it may be called. My throat is still hurting but hopefully I can get one up after the Knicks and Nets game tomorrow Friday April 13th, 2007. Until then enjoy this little rant! You got to ask the question WHAT DOES NAPPY MEAN? I haven't found 2 answers that match exactly. Some say it means pillow head or what your hair looks like after a Nap. Some say it means black people hair. I heard a black lady say on CNN it means Kinky Hair and she said LIVE on NATIONAL TV that being told you have Nappy Hair isn't offensive unless it is said by Males and even though this lady said she would be ok if a white female said it, she clearly was lying!

This Is What I Do...
1. Do you know anyone in Prison? Currently...no 2. Have you ever logged onto a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush's myspace? Not on purpose, i just hit the home button. 3. When is the last time you ate Peanut butter and jelly? A really long time ago. 4. When did you last have a home cooked meal? Its been forever. 5. Have you ever gotten naked at a party? Yeah, taquila makes me not me. 6. Name someone you miss: My grandfather. 7. Are you named after a grandparent? nope 8. Who loves you? I dont know. no one. there there is the easy answer. 9. Do you throw up gang signs? I flipp the bird. 10. Have you ever broken a rib? No but i would like to. think it will be fun expericen. 11. Would you rather be a girl or a guy? Guy. 12. Who is the most spoiled person you know? Alot of my friends have never had a job, and therefore i find them to be spoiled. 13. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love? I think i found one, gimme the money. 14. Have you ever h

As We Grow
AS WE GROW As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back!

I'm Lost And Need To Go Home
Anybody that knows me.. knows that this happens quite often. I'm not sure if there's anything that can actually help me either. I try to go out with friends or keep myself busy, so I don't think about it. Sure, most of the time (unless it's brought up) being out and such does help. Then I get home and it's a completely different story. When I sit down and actually try to figure out what's got me like this.. All I can come up with is this... I'm completely torn apart from missing: * Everyone that's ever been one of my best friends * Being able to walk out a door and have my mom sitting at the computer or sleeping on the couch * All the cute retarded things my dad calls me that always annoyed me * Being forced to fish when I didn't want to.. and catching to first fish * Driving the boat * Riding dirt bikes with my dad and burning my thigh on the muffler in the process * Camping in the desert * The way my big brother used to act like I never hurt him but grunt in pain as s

Trust Me With Your Heart
Trust Me With Your Heart Why does your heart grow doubtful dear? Tense and beating, full of fear. I keep with me your everlasting love, and bless the day God sent you from above. You remain my angel and I feel that I must, tell you that within you, you have my trust. My love is the tide, your soul is the shores, you have my heart, do I have yours? I'll belong to you till the very end, and you will forever stay as my lover and friend. It has been so good like this from the start, so darling please, trust me with your heart.

Drying Your Tears
Drying Your Tears Tear drops fall from your blue eyes and my heart stops a beat at their sight. I pull you close to me, try to take the pain from you, make it my own. My cheek lays against yours and your tears burn my face as I whisper, "Darling, it will be all right." My tears blend with your own, your pain now mine, and our tears become one as they fall in rivers on the sheets. I dry your tears with kisses, soft upon your face, shelter you from pain in the recesses of my love. Our bed becomes a chalice and we drink in each others sorrow, finding salvation in each other's arms; pain washed away giving rise to passion 'till we forget there ever were tears.

Hand And Hand
Hand In Hand Laying underneath the stars, On a warm silent night. Your arms are wrapped around me, And everything feels right. You kiss me sweet and softly, I feel your warm gentle touch, You help me feel protected Under the sweet night sky rush. My world before me is perfect. There's nowhere else I want to be, Except laying underneath the stars Hand in hand, you and me. Just when everything is perfect, And you seem so delicately sweet, A rush of wind comes past me As I'm swept beneath my feet. Nothing could be more right, There's nowhere else I want to be. Let's take a walk my only love, Hand in hand, you and me.

Wings
Wings If I had wings to fly I'd breathe in deep and spread them wide as I leap from the cliff into the wind where the gulls glide. Crossing this wide sea I glide above cruel waves that reach up to drown my flight in their cold deep blue-green graves. And as your day grows slowly light I'd arrive on worn-out wings to hold you in your waking dreams and feel you soft and gently warm in my embrace at last.

Eyes
What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures) EdenYou have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable. Take The Quiz Now!Quizzes by myYearbook.com

Grammar Lesson
Ok I know I'm not perfect and most people do it out of laziness,but this is a pet peev of mine.. They're = they are ie.They're coming to my house. There = something is somewhere ie. Their place is over there. Their = is a posesive ie. I'm going to their house. I might not have explained it the best,but I think everyone'll get the idea. Oh and the word stupider...is not a word! say what is more stupid... Ok I'm done and sure that someone will pick on my grammar and yes I notice the blog name I wrote grammer,to late to fix that. Oh oh wait I forgot Threw = I threw it out Through = I'm through with this blog

40 Spontaneous Questions
1. Where will you be in an hour? Possibly sleeping. It's 1 am now. 2. Who will be your next kiss? Probably Sean's back. 3. Is there something purple within 10 feet of you? the haze. 4. Are you wearing socks right now? No, never if I can help it. 5. When was the last time you went out of state? I travel to Ma. and back all the time. 6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? Nope 7. What was the last thing you had to drink? Iced hazelnut coffee. 8. What are you wearing right now? Yellow Champion t-shirt and white shorts. 9. What was your last purchase? Dunkins and butts. 10. What's the last thing you wrote down? Can't remember.. Good thing I wrote it down huh? 11. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? April in Cali. 12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? hmm...nope 13. Do you have a pet? Many of them! 14. What's the last sporting event you watched? Cars racing eachother on Bull Run. 15. What

Levelin' Up...give Me A Shove
I'm on that downhill sloap now, headed for level 13. Drop in and give me a shove to help me out! Lots of photos, and over 1,500 stash items to comment and rate. Hope to cya there! THANKS! Lev@ CherryTAP

A Note To The Men On Ct
I do NOT have a webcam I am not going to get one I do not want to see you jerk off on your webcam Please stop pushing me to watch your desperate attempt to get off It's not attractive And I've probably seen bigger dicks than your's It's pathetic to ask over the internet "do you like it?" "Is it the biggest you've ever seen?" "are you wet?" No, I am not wet Its like winning the special olympics, only you think you are the best, in reality, you're still retarded.

Love Is
Love is written in God’s heaven above In His book is each divine love When you first met your one and only You knew you’d never again be lonely A love so true as the sky is blue You know too that you’ll follow through So special is the thrill Excitement as love grows, until You ask that special one to marry It is almost too scary Unless you hear them say yes And then you feel so blessed To share your life with a husband or a wife No matter happiness or strife A true love will endure And always will mature A lifetime adventure Everyone knows it’s a risky venture But true love always wins So let yourself begin Enjoy each precious moment You’ll find peace and contentment And as the years follow Your life will surely mellow

My Love Profile
Pisces - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring. Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your partner has ever met. You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with. Your negative traits: You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood. It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should. You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest. Your ideal partner: Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways Your dating style: Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners. Your seduction style: Fearless - you try what your partner suggests, no matter how unusual. Loving. You'll take your pleasur

Friendship
Friendships Like flowers they need to bloom slow Allowing loving friendships to grow Friendships can be a lifetime treasure Allowing growth without pressure Just as flowers need attention Friendships need love, not contention As flowers of all shades Loving friendships won’t fade Friendships need to connect In time they earn respect Just as flowers have roots In time developed strong shoots Friendships are like the ivy vine Becoming stronger they entwine Truest colors of the rose True sincerity friends expose I love and appreciate all my friends Thankful to God above love transcends Rather have my friends then gold, diamonds or jewels All of my friends live by the Golden Rule

Frustrated
Really starting to think I should give up on dating all together. Men are just fucking stupid. The one guy I really like apparently likes me back, or so his friends tell me, but is scared. Get the fuck over it! He's so scared, that he's going to fuck every other girl in sight. *rolls eyes* I'm done with him. Ha. I keep saying that, but I keep going back to him. I can never have a real relationship with him so I don't know why I try. I'm REALLY tired of guys treating me like a whore. "Of course I respect you, I really like you!" Then, whether they get what they want or not, they disappear either way. I'm ok with being single, but I'd like to find a guy I can be with. I don't think my expectations are THAT high! Maybe I should just start acting like a guy and fuck anything that walks. Too bad I'm to emotional to do that

Ben And Jerry's Free Cone Day!!!!
"Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day is an annual event, held in late April or early May, in which Ben and Jerry's scoop shops give out free ice cream cones all day. Over one million free cones are given away each year. Charitable organizations are often present at the stores each year and enjoy a significant amount of fundraising success. The first Free Cone Day was held on May 5, 1979. It was done by Ben and Jerry as a customer and staff appreciation event for the one year anniversary of their ice cream store's opening, and has continued ever since. The 29th annual Free Cone day will be April 17, 2007."

Cant Please The World...
Today has been the most aggravating day I have had in a really long time. One person that I genuenly care about has decided to be a asshole to me for no reason...than blame it on me being grumpy...which i wasnt but whatever.. Than I managed to piss off the one person that has been managing to put a smile on my face lately... Im willing to take full blame for pissing them off... but it wasnt something I did on purpose...but apparently that doesn't matter much to them because they are no longer talking to me... im sicking of playing lifes games... i guess im just a sore loser....

Dating Sucks
Searching for that Pearl in a Sea of Oysters Current mood: pensive Category: Writing and Poetry Why is it so difficult to meet anyone of Quality? Someone who will go the extra mile, say sweet things out of the blue. Do I expect too much? Have I romanticized what dating should be? Or is it just that impossible to find a beautiful Soul? It's more than just sexual satisfaction, that is a part of the puzzle; but hopefully we are more complicated beings than that--more Evolved. I want someone who satisfies my Soul...and damn it, I require a lot of attention and affection. Is no one capable of being that chivalrous? Or is it that no one is up for the challenge because it would require effort? I suppose I could drive myself to the walls of Insanity were I to dwell much longer on the subject. So I Exile myself...Reclusive...Alone...Dreaming that there is a Pearl for me among all the Oysters...in hopes that I am not casting my pearls before swine... Or are gay men just unable to thi

Any One Feel Like Me?
Around the corner I have a friend, In this great city that has no end, Yet the days go by and weeks rush on, And before I know it, a year is gone. And I never see my old friends face, For life is a swift and terrible race, He knows I like him just as well, As in the days when I rang his bell. And he rang mine but we were younger then, And now we are busy, tired men. Tired of playing a foolish game, Tired of trying to make a name. "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him." But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes, And distance between us grows and grows. Around the corner, yet miles away, "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today." And t

Obsessed "x" Fianci
Please be careful of adding "oboromale" to your friends list he has an active domestic violence order against him for 4th degree assault and 2nd degree animal cruelty in Daviess County Owensboro, Ky. with criminal charges pending final hearing!!11

Pmdd
I felt crazzy for years befor id start told doctors they said i was just fine then im explaining it to a friend and she said maybe i had this so i wanted to post it so other wiman who get like this befor their their period only could no they arnt crazzy lol Let's talk symptoms. What sets PMDD apart is that some of your symptoms, especially your emotional symptoms, are so severe that they significantly interfere with the way you live your life just before your period. These symptoms can make it difficult to focus, slow you down at work or affect your personal relationships. The list of symptoms on this page is not here for you to diagnosis yourself, but rather to find out if your symptoms are among those associated with PMDD. We're all different, and how one woman experiences symptoms of PMDD is not the same as another. The important thing to remember is that now, you and your healthcare professional can help fight the symptoms that significantly interfere with work, school or yo

Frustration
Well, I'm frustrated about a few things. I want to get a new pickup, a new place to live...I have the money, but dammit I had to buy $1800 worth of inventory for my business. It's not that much, that's for sure considering I spent 3 times that last month. Oh well such is life.

Constantly Longing....
"I know that it's a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now. I thought that I was doing well but I just want to cry now.Well, I know that it's a wonderful world , from the sky down to the sea, but I can only see it when you're here, here with me." James Morrison. This world is so huge sometimes and at times so small. Tonight the miles seem huge and the ocean seems so wide.It always feels that way when what you want is far from you. Tonight for a few great moments, the world became small. As I talked to my love, the world became small enough to fit into the palm of my hand, for our words were flowing together like the sea and the ocean combined. We are constantly gravitating to each other, constantly making the earth form around us in order to facilitate our merge, but how horrible it is to be so close yet not touching. I battle with the question of, Is it harder to leave or harder to stay behind? I recently left my love behind, yet again, to live in the atmosphere we created toge

Poems
THE ENDER its getting lonley its getting cold bread on the counter is getting old the less we think the more we drink drunken on failure regrets as hard as it seems all that we need is to close to be seen behind the mirrior painted on your face the skeloton of lifes discrace feed me this feed me lies cut the wrist watch me die eroded with pleasure leave me were i lay drowning in a puddle of dismay such a shame your pride hidden behind a wall brick by brick you will fall turn your head close your eyes our love today dies Kevin Smith _________________________________________________ WHY IS IT DARK earse my pain leave me sain tie a knot forget me not tie it good leave no slack take my life make it fast why is it so dark why am i alone the thoughts i can not condone i cant handle the torchure the pain leaves me sore eating its self into a scab red comes to the top the pain will ne

Ppl
ppl r such assholes 2 me when i try 2 talk 2 them they dont talk back iti pisses me off of they tryed talkin 2 me i would talk back i gues they think they r so much better then every 1 else they have 2 be assholes

I'm Just Funny That Way.
I guess I am just weird that way I had to go do My STD screening for this part I am doing in this Lesbian erotic horror porn video Julie Simone is directing later this month. Wheeeeeee, they take one cup of pee and a vial of blood + $120 from Me and in 3 days to a week (which in Adult Film Industry time is called 1-3 days) I get back a paper telling Me what I already know... Negative, Negative, Negative and Negative. No hiv, no gonno, no clap, no syph... Oh yeah people, if "pink is the new black", then "Syph is the new hiv". And "Gonno is like the new Herp". Yum, makes you really want to go make new friends, huh? The nurse thought it was funny that I love piercing and tattoos, but feel My veins should not be punctured... HEY, IT'S MINE, AND I NEED THAT STUFF TO LIVE.

A Song I Wrote...it Kinda Sucks
(chorus) > > > > > > > everytime i see ur smiling face > > > > > > > i fly up to the sky > > > > > > > but everytime i cry > > > > > > > i die a little > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 1) > > > > > > > i live to see ur smiling face > > > > > > > the soft touch you give > > > > > > > passion in your kiss > > > > > > > the love in ur heart > > > > > > > makes me all go weak in the knees > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 2) > > > > > > > so much time has gone by > > > > > > > i hate myself for letting you go > > > > > > > it was probably the best thing to do > > > > > > > but it still kills me in the end > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (bridge) > > > > > > > i still need you here with me > > > > > > > i still love you with every piece of my heart > > > > > > > i love you til the very end > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (chorus) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > (verse 3) > > > > > > > i have crie

Say Goodnight
Say Goodnight Say goodnight my friend This loneliness is about to end One more for the road and then Goodnight, Goodnight You gave up on your life Broken Glass, cuts like a knife Forever more I will adore Goodnight, Goodnight And I dreamed of flying Angels Of Loves first epic glance And, now my love has gone and put An end to our romance So say goodnight my Love I’ve got a date with the man above To apologize for my failure of Goodnight, Goodnight And I dreamed flying Angels Of storybook Romance Impassioned nights And snowball fights And Slow Romantic dance So I’ll say Goodnight and pray It’s what you do not what you say I hope you find your way and then Goodnight, Goodnight Goodnight All ~ jskins

Fucking Drama I Am Deleting All Of My Online Shit (read Asap)
Ok because of certian people starting drama over stupid shit that happens online and shit I am deleting my myspace and all other accounts on any online site's if you fucking want too get ahold of me then you better send me a message ASAP and I will give my contact info in real life for you too get in contact with me. Lance

Pen Pals Needed By Email
WHO WOULD LIKE TO WRITE RO US? IF U WOULD LIKE TO WE ARE GOING TO LET U EMAIL US AT semperfi_the_all_american_team AND U CAN SEND US NE THING YOU CARE TO LETTERS, PICTURES, POEMS, WHAT EVER U WANT, WE REALLY WANNA HERE FROM U IT IS EASIER HERE THEN THROGH SNAIL MAIL. HOPE U ALL WOULD PLEASE LET EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT OET SITE CANT WAIT TO HERE FROM U ALL. THANKS AGAIN UNITED STATES ARMED FORCES_

Lifes 2 Effin Short!!
lifes 2 short,so love the ones ya got! do u like it when your walking down the street minding your own business,and some butt pirate,gives you a dirty look for not one single reason? dont u think about it,if not all day for a least awhile,and wonder what u did wrong,and analyze everything your wearing,how you look,smell,walk,talk,smile,everything about you the some1 could possibly not like,which is every fucking thing about you! b/cuz lets face it,everything about us annoys some1....if not every1....so why be the person giving dirty looks,making others have a bad day,giving some poor girl an eating disorder b/cuz not she thinks she so fat she deserves your dirty little looks...or starts cutting her wrist b/cuz even pervect strangers dont like her...until she ends up cutting to deep,even though she knows there people in her life that love her,and that she loves very much...but theres just to much pain and hate in this evil world she was born in...do you want her death on your consience?

Love
~Love~ Devotion so strong with respect A love for one you’d never neglect Sometimes we see a person from afar Our heart skips a beat, and we wonder who they are? When we meet that special one we feel enchantment Over time a love develops and we feel contentment You begin to feel the warmth and friendship Developing slowly over time with courtship Everyone sees adoration that you have for your mate Sometimes we wonder did we meet through fate? In the twinkle of your eyes, and smile on your face A love so true just for you to embrace Endearment for family and friends Our affection for them transcends With warmth, fondness and attachment Feelings of closeness are so apparent Many types of love as we grow Even a little pet set our hearts aglow Children are so special God’s gifts Our hearts and souls feels such a lift Each love so different and yet so constant An emotion of affection very much abundant For family, friends and that special mate

What Do You Think Of My 2cents?
Reader's Ask , Jade : What is Promiscuity? I like sex , a lot. A lot more than I have it, tragically, and that’s not for lack of opportunity, but, rather, because I have moral preconceptions and perhaps even fears that I just can’t get past ( STDs, my Catholic youth etc ). I’ve said before that anyone can get laid if they set their standards low enough. I still believe that, and doubt that will change anytime soon. But I went and made a comment in response to one of my readers’ comments a couple days ago and have since received an email asking me my definition of promiscuous. That alone would have given me pause for thought, since definitions are generally arbitrary, but the moral semantics of it, that's a different beast altogether. But then the reader went on at length and that then left me utterly flummoxed. This is the hefty tome..... What makes one promiscuous? It seems that promiscuity has a negative connotation; Is this because

I'm A Movie Star??
So I'm in a movie!!! I die in it...but I'm in a movie. It's going to be presented at my colleges Blu Moon Film Festival thats happening at my school next weekend... So April 21st, I'm a mini-starlet, ever so briefly. I'm a sucky starlet, but one nonetheless Unfortunately this little gig did not pay...I'm majorly hurting for money, and I have no services to offer you peoples for money... Curses... ok, I have to study for a spanish test I have tomorrow morning...Only a Week and a day left of classes!!! Then exams...but still...OMG ITS ALMOST OVER!!!!!!!!!! YAY

A Tear
A tear fell today. Something I knew was coming Something that I have been holding back. I know how it is when someone pushes someone away and the other person tries and tries, I was once that person. But now I am stronger and less dramatic. And it is happening to me now I am on the receiving end. I am the one that is worried about him going back to his ex. I am the one that has to sit and watch her throw herself on him and grasp for every little shred of light. I am the one that has to sit and worry and wonder and...cry A tear fell today... A tear of worry A tear of dread A tear for you

Drunk Funny
THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Innovative 2. Preliminary 3. Proliferation 4. Cinnamon THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Specificity 2. British Constitution 3. Passive-aggressive disorder THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Thanks, but I don't want to have sex. 2. Nope, no more beer for me. 3. Sorry, but you're not really my type. 4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight? 5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing

Written By My Soon To Be Hubby
What am I gonna do? Sometimes feels like I'm on fire. Sometimes I'll keep hangin on, maybe I'm the only one. My vision is blurred, these emotions are stirred.You walked my way, that morning I didn't know what to say.I guess one way or another, your to stay. Maybe I'm not the one to blame, you took my hand, didn't let go. Don't take me away cause my times not done. My clearest dreams. Have yet to come. If I should die as I sleep, may those who knew me. Those who heard me speak though some called me weak.If I should slip or fall away know I never ment it again anyway. If I fade before I wake, take solice in the words I take.

Attributed To Jay Leno
The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence, two-thirds of the citizenry just ain't happy; they want a change. So, being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, "What are we so unhappy about?" "Is it that we have electricity and running water 24/7?" "Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter?" "Could it be that 95.4% of these unhappy folks have a job?" "Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year?" "Maybe it is the ability to drive from the Pacific Ocean to the Atlantic Ocean without having to present identification papers a

Repost Of "the Female Squirting Orgasm Part 2"
Hey everyone. First i want to apologise to everyone for taking so long to get this second part posted. I have been swamped with request's from other websites, and had to take a break to catch up. I promise, i wont take so long to get to the third one. With that said, i guess im goin to jump into this head first. The very first thing that i want to make clear, is that i will not specifically teach in an article that write, because every person is different, and i dont want to cater to the "typical" person, and leave others out. I cant very well write every single way to make you have a squirting orgasm....i would be here all day everyday for the next ten years. The reason behind contacting me, is because i need to ask a couple questions before i get into teaching, so that i can cater it to you. The reason i write these articles is to inform people....to let them know that they have a place to turn if they have questions about this subject. I write them to dispell any

Double Standered
Double standards to me is when two groups are expected to behave in a similar way. But when one of those groups gets out of line, it's accepted and when the other gets out of line that group is condemned. It can also be a set of principles allowing greater opportunity or liberty to one group than to another. Today, Whites face a wide range of double standards. Whites are told that we should not think in terms of our race with pride, but non-whites are urged to promote their race. Whites are told that we should step aside in the political arena and allow non-whites more political power. At the same time non-whites are urged to get more involved and to take greater authority in politics. Non-white politicians openly say that in areas were their numbers are in the majority they should be the only ones that should be allowed to represent their people, while at the same time whites are told when it comes to politics we should be colored blind. Whites are told it is wrong to have an orga

Married Ten Times
A young man married a beautiful woman who had previously divorced ten husbands On their wedding night, she told her new husband, "Please be gentle, I'm still a virgin". "What?" Said the puzzled groom. "How can that be if you've been married ten times? "Well, husband #1 was a Sales Representative; he kept telling me how great it's going to be. Husband #2 was in Software Services; he was never really sure how it was supposed to function, but he said he'd look into it and get back to me. Husband #3 was from Field Services; he said everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the system up. Husband #4 was in Telemarketing; even though he knew he had the order, he didn't know when he would be able to deliver. Husband #5 was an Engineer; he understood the basic process but wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state-of-the-art method. Husband #6 ! was from Finance and Administration; he thought he knew how, but he wasn't sure

To My Angel
I never felt pain Till the day that we met I never new that you Could hold my heart in the palm of your hand I never knew a smile Could make or break my day I never knew I could love so much I never knew that mommy I love you Would be the equivalent to a Beethoven symphony I never knew my life would change Until that day you first looked up at me

Cinderella.......
I’m standing on the stairs in a magnificent hall Wearing the dress that I bought for the ball It’s long and flowing, sparkling white My tiara of diamonds shines in the light At the bottom of the stairs you’re waiting for me And I gracefully float down for all to see You take my hand and touch my face You’re the only one I notice in the expansive space We’re now dancing in shadows of flickering light Holding each other close, holding each other tight You kiss my neck and then touch my face Then kiss my lips in a loving embrace Time stands still whilst we are together Feels so good, it seems like forever I look at the clock, that cannot be right But the bells start to chime, confirming midnight But there’s no need to leave From the ball tonight I’ll be with you my prince For the rest of our life.

My Life Is So Mess Up
Tears fall from the sky Raindrops from my eyes as I cry I must confess; My life is a mess I don't want to try I would love to lay down and die Why must I live? I've got all this love to give But nobody to receive it They don't appreciate it; they think it's worth shit! Maybe it is, maybe it's useless Maybe it's true, maybe it's worthless But I have more To live for I want revenge I want to turn the tables; to have a change I hate the people Who think living my life is simple Those who say I think too much And those who say those lies and such Raindrops fall from the sky Tears from my eyes as I cry My life is a mess And that I must confess

Repost Of "the Female Squirting Orgasm Paet 1"
Anyone that knows me, knows that i have a massive obsession with female squirting orgasms. For that matter, if you read my page, you would know that. The reason i bring it up, is because so many women have told me that i need to write a blog about this, so i have decided that i would.....and explain my obsession, and maybe enlighten a few people on the myth's, and misunderstandings. Since i teach so many women how to have squirting orgasms, my original intent was to write a blog teaching women that wanted to know how to do it.....but i have learned that in every instance, the circumstances are different, so one generalized, well writen blog may not work for everyone....so ill keep teaching on a one on one basis. With that said.....lets cover a few things real quick. MYTHS - WHEN A WOMAN SQUIRTS, SHE IS REALLY PEEING. This is absolutely false. People that say this, are truly ignorant, and show it by making assumptions about something they know nothing about. The truth of the ma

Team Work
Here is some Ct team work.. RIGraywolf writes the poems and I do the backgrounds for them... Here his newest one.. and I have his other two here also for those who may have missed it before.. Just Clink on the links to rip them Military Reservists Child Abuse Awarness Thank You (Firefighter Tribute)

A Few Chuckles
This guy walks into a bar wearing a Lions jersey and carrying a little wiener dog that also has a Lions jersey on with a little Lions helmet too. The guy says to the bartender, "Can my dog and I watch the Lions game here? My TV at home broke and my dog and I want to see the game." The bartender replies, "Normally, dogs in the bar would not be allowed, but it is not terribly busy in here, so you and the dog can have a seat at the end of the bar. But, if there is any trouble with you or the dog, I'll have to ask you to leave." The guy agrees and he and his dog start watching the game Pretty soon the Lions kick a field goal and the wiener dog jumps up on the bar and walks down the bar and gives everyone a high five. The bartender says, "Hey, that's cool! What does he do for a touch down?" The guys answers, "I don't know, I've only had him for 3 years." ********************************* Collection Plate The church service was under way and t

A Night At Outland
Endless circles ever searching for a hidden Shangri La Dark desire in the shadows, now heeding a secret call Broken façade, fading image, so easily overlooked Down the steps into the shadows, now my soul is surely hooked Decorations border corny, cobwebs, grave stones grinning skulls Uneven dance floor flashing lights, even antique disco balls Fruity drinks with bizarre names, packing strong alcoholic punch One drink two drinks go down smoothly, till my senses start to crunch Now into that web I willingly leap Cast myself into a night at Outland Spinning bodies fill the floor to thunderous seductive beats Leather and lace clad the figures, myriad of tasty treats Gestapo goddess, corseted biker, gothic ghouls and guys As pulsing beats enthrall the ears, spinning patrons enthrall the eyes Scents and sights and sounds assail; bodies pressed cause pulses to race Warmth within a gentle touch, staring into a smiling face Lips meet and kiss hot fingers dance, their need wil

Go Ahead And Call Me What You Will
How many are actually paying attention to this? There are African Americans, Mexican Americans, Asian Americans, Arab Americans, Native Americans, etc. And then there are just Americans. You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction. You Call me "White boy," "Cracker," "Honkey,""Whitey," "Caveman" ... and that's OK. But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger, camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink ... you call me a racist. You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Day. You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You have Yom Hashoah You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi You have the NAACP. You have BET. If we had WET (White Entertainment Television) ... we'd be racists. If we had a White Pride Day .. you would call us racists. If we had White History Month .. we'd be racists. If we had an

Installing Husband
Dear Tech Support, Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a Distinct slow down in overall system performance -- particularly in The flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0. In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, Such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed Undesirable programs such as NFL 5.0, NBA 3.0, and Golf Clubs 4.1. Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes The system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but To no avail. What can I do? Signed, Desperate ---------------------------------------------------------- Dear Desperate First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System. ! Please enter the command "http: I Thought You Loved Me.HTML" and try To download Tears 6.2 and don't forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update. If that ap

Devoted And True To The Life
Devoted and true, Entangled by your love, A willing prisoner Ready for your possession. Eternity can belongs to us. Softly reach for my hand. Take me with you. More than willingly, And without reserve, Surrendering myself To the One I belong to. Embrace this passion and Raise us beyond the stars.

Open And Have Fun
Two Names You Go By: 1. Angel 2. Ellen Things You Are Wearing Right Now: 1. shirt 2. jeans Two Things You Want in a Relationship: 1.Honesty 2. Trust Two of Your Favorite Things to do: 1. Internet 2. Sleep Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment: 1.MONEY 2. a husband Two pets you had/have: 1. kitten 2. Two people who will fill this out first: 1. chuck 2. art Two things you did last night: 1. Internet 2. cryed Two People that live in your house: 1. Just me 2. kity Two things you ate today: 1. popcorn 2. chips Two people you talked to last: 1. melanie 2. daughter Two Things You're doing tomorrow: 1. Internet 2. looking fora job Two longest car rides: 1. wisconson 2.ohio Two Favorite Holidays: 1. New Years 2. Valentines Day Two favorite beverages: (non-alcoholic) 1. pepsi 2. Milk Two favorite beverages: (alcoholic) 1. miller 2. bloody mary

Imus Staken
Don I mus. A man who has been in the broadcasting business for many years. Said something in poor judgement to make light of a womans basketball team. NO while I agree that he said someting very wrong. BUt here is where I walk that dangerous line. If some one like Chris Rock, or any other black personality made this comment. People would have laughed at this statement. I am sorry, I am not a racist, or whatever term you would like to use. But this man is not being treated fairly in my opinion. I mean when a black comedian makes fun of the way white men dance. You don't hear us cry out in rage. We laugh and aknowledge the fact we can't dance. I am sorry, I don't think what he said was proper. But I also don't think that the punishment is fit for the crime. Suspend his ass,, yes, fire his ass, NO. I am sorry, this just got blown way too far out of proportion.

Nintendo Wii
JUST RENTED THE NEW NINTENDO WII AND FOUND IT WAS AWESOME TIGER WOODS 07 KICKS ASS AND THE WII SPORTS IS AWESOME I ENCURAGE ANY ONE TO BUY ONE IT'S GREAT FUN FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY AND THE CONTROLLS ARE GOOD TO FOR 400 DOLLARS IT'S MONEY WELL SPENT.

My Karma-- I Agree
You Have Good Karma In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others. Your caring personality really shines through. Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out. But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots. How's Your Karma?

My Fav Pomes
We, unaccustomed to courage exiles from delight live coiled in shells of loneliness until love leaves its high holy temple and comes into our sight to liberate us into life. Love arrives and in its train come ecstasies old memories of pleasure ancient histories of pain. Yet if we are bold, love strikes away the chains of fear from our souls. We are weaned from our timidity In the flush of love's light we dare be brave And suddenly we see that love costs all we are and will ever be. Yet it is only love which sets us free. Mya Angelou Your hands easy weight, teasing the bees hived in my hair, your smile at the slope of my cheek. On the occasion, you press above me, glowing, spouting readiness, mystery rapes my reason When you have withdrawn your self and the magic, when only the smell of your love lingers between my breasts, then, only then, can I greedily consume your presence. M

Sad Day For Me Tomorrow
Monday my friend/coworker died at work of a heartattack.He was only 46 yrs old.He was complaining of chest pains monday morning and he went to get a drink at the pop machine and fell to the ground.By time the medics he was blue,they gave him this stuff and stuck it right in his heart but didnt respond he died right there.So now tomorrow he gets laid to rest and im so gonna miss him.I have visions of him laying there all blue.Anyway im drinkin all wkend i need to be numb. R.I.P Don u will be sadly missed

Memorandum 003 Faq
MEMORANDUM 003 MEMORANDUM FOR: GENERAL RELEASE SUBJECT: FAQ FROM: ORDER CQ Q. What is The Order (official)? The Order is a militant movement in favor of culture preservation. The band is at the center of The Order, but not The Order in its entirety. This body promotes the values of strength, unity, and honor, and push for a new era of life. Q. What is C.P.P.? C.P.P. Stands for the Cultural Preservation Party. It is a private division that is intended to further demonstrate strong opinion towards the declination. Q. Why is Cultural Preservation Important? A. To preserve one's culture is to sustain a way of life through not only your generation, but also the next without changing the initial values and properties. We must not allow our life to endure culture shifts that would prove disastrous to the reputation, and survival of our culture. "Without Cultural Preservation, we are at the mercy of industry and record label executives to dictate to us what our Cu

Stupid Cherrytap
WHY IS THE SITE ALWAY'S DOWN FOR REPAIR WHY IS THE SITE ALWAY'S SLOW IT NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME HOW OFTEN IT'S DOWN FOR BEING SUCH A BIG SITE ON THE INTERNET WHY DO THEY ALWAY'S ADD MORE STUFF WE DON'T NED IT'S JUST MY OPION BUT CHERRYTAP TO ME IS PISSING ME OFF AND IT'S HARD TO DEAL WITH.

Close
The night terrors that run thru my eyes of me running and searching trying to find my guys i see it again unfold in my head the shrapnal the screams the whole reason they are dead seeing the movement ruffly 300 metes away so natural so innocent on such a warm fall day i never thought that might be the end of me i never thought someone could hold such a key i thought i was invincable just like superman tho i found out differnt when i hit the cold unforgiving land

. To Whom It May Concern.....1o-16-o6.
to who it may concern... i am sitting here writing you a letter. because i have all this bottled up feelings. when i speak to you i get these feelings. feelins of joy & happiness. when i hug you. i get that warm imbrace. when i see your smiling face. i melt all over. in my mind i want you for myself. i want you to be mine. but then there are times that i feel that you are different. times that you are distant from me. that you crack a fake smile. but again i could be wrong. i melt for your smiling face. i melt with that warm imbrace. i want to lock you up & throw away the key. because i want you to myself. i want you to grab my hand & tell me that everything is goin to be ok. i want you to grab my hand & tell me to that we are goin to walk away from our pasts. & make ourselves a new life together. but then i think could this all be to real. could it be just all to real that you feel this way for me? just grab my hand. make me take that leap if yo

Empathy
Someone cracked a smile but I don’t care Your laugh reminds me of a braying mare Pushed out of here and not welcome there I think someone hates me but I don’t care Cheating hasn’t done much to keep this fair There’s victory waiting for me but I don’t know where Pains in my chest but I’m not scared I just hit code red and I don’t care I don’t like to bet but I do dare If you don’t have a camera, feel free to stare I know that in your world it is so rare To see such a large low hanging pair Reveling in what you can hardly bare You scream “please stop” while I say “yeah right there” You can set my head on fire I’ll just grow more hair You take the easy way I’ll take the stairs Tag me as a criminal well I don’t care My liberties are uncivil but I don’t care Say my needs are trivial still I don’t care I’m gonna make you cry just because I can Got my head up my own ass but I don’t care Tell me that I can’t pass well I don’t care Apparently this chance is my last sti

.untitled. 1o-18-o6.
? when i first walked in the door. ? i seen your smilin face. ? we were introduced. ? but we have knowen each other for years. ? as we sat & talked about how things used to be. ? how we all wantted to go back to that time that innocence's wasn't lost. ? but now the years have came & gone. ? as we all sat still reminising about our pasts. ? i caught you out of the croner of my eye. ? i could see that smilin face. ? i seen that look in your eyes have changed from the first time i walked through that door. ? the look you gave me across the room could've made me melt. ? but there was one thing that made me feel weird & i knew i couldn't touch. ? so i had to keep my feelings aside. ? when i heard from you a few weeks later. ? you had my mind racing. ? makin me think & feel something that i haven't felt in along time. ? then we had a chance to meet again. ? we all just sat & reminisced again. ? as the night drew to a close. ? it gave us time to be just

The Cruise
THE CRUISE DEAR DIARY . DAY ONE I am all packed and ready to get on the cruise ship. I've packed all my pretty dresses and make-up. I'm really excited. ______________________________________________________ DEAR DIARY . DAY TWO We spent the entire day at sea. It was beautiful and we saw some whales and dolphins. What a wonderful vacation this has started to be. I met the Captain today and he seems like a very nice man. ______________________________________________________ DEAR DIARY . DAY THREE I spent some time in the pool today. I also did some shuffle boarding and hit some golf balls off the deck. The Captain invited me to join him at his table for dinner. I felt honored and we had a wonderful time. He is a very attractive and attentive gentleman. ______________________________________________________ DEAR DIARY . DAY FOUR Went to the ship's casino . did OK ... won about $80. The Captain invited me to have dinner with him in his state room. We had a l

Noid
I think that someone’s tapping my phone There’s a distorted click as I wait for the dial tone I’m getting too scared to leave my home And I’m pretty fucking sure that I’m being followed Watching the reflections in parked car windows Because it’s too obvious to look over my shoulder The same black sedan has passed me 3 times in a row And I see it slowly creeping its way up the road Each day I have to find a new way into my home Cloak and dagger my way through the back door Turn off all the lights and keep the blinds closed Turn on the TV and turn up the radio Before you talk remember to keep your voice down low Or maybe you should just write it so the words can be disposed This message will self destruct this note will explode Have to make sure the secrets aren’t exposed Covering my walls with Millar and tinfoil To the doorknob I’ve attached a toaster oven heating coil If I ever hear the burning scream I’ll know it’s time to light the heating oil Molotov myself to pro

.untitled.1o-19-o6.
i sit & wonder if i am goin to feel your breathe again. thtat warm gentle breathe on my ear when you whisper those sweet nothings. that warm breathe down my neck, when you kiss it so softly. that tender touch of your finger tips when you run them down my arm. you know that's my weakness. you know that takes my power away. & makes me yours. i miss the breathe down my neck. down my body as you kiss me all over with them warm lips. it's been so long since i felt that warmth. i have been feeling cold & dead for so long. i am always wondering when i get to feel that warm breathe to bring me back to life. i know one day i will. til then i have this spot saved next to me in this cold death state. your breathe, your touch. i am waiting for to bring me back alive. i just sit here ina zombie state, with my heart still beating. but only beating as half of one. i know that when your heart starts beatin next to mine. with them warm kiss from the lips of my true one. alls y

Stalkers
Well, I feel like crap. I'm tired. I'm stressed, I'm worn out. I want something to go right for once. It just seems like everything has to go wrong all at once... I'm so sick and tired of bullshit stress... it's like, no one can get a single story straight. And then people lie, and try to cover up their lies... and cause more drama bullshit... and i'm upset as hell because i can't seem to figure out what the fuck to do w/ my life... i'm so like, blah confused. This custody stuff w/ the girls is working out ok so far. I have them one week, he has them the next... it actually works pretty well. I enjoy being able to hang out w/ my kids, and hand out with my friends, like, all at the same time, rather than it being a fight to do so... that part is pretty nice. I feel like I can parent my children how I please rather than fighting about it. I have just gotten so and sick tired of fighting all the time... I want to be able to just live my life, the way i feel is right, and not be quest

Check
The earth shakes all around me and it will never stop The bombs continuously drop Prop up the spine and pick up a mop I think we might need a shovel to clean up all this slop Disenfranchised by the stigma of shock Someone sewed a tassel to the end of my cock Warring pied pipers are collecting their flocks Who said my name? Do I have to hate you too? Who said refrain? I heard some bad advice today Ride a jet stream Accept the festering Bite down hard 1-2-3 testing There’s nothing left that’s unresented Repressive representation Slit throat bleeds of alienation Who’s jumping out the window? Don’t sweat the shadows being blind is sublime I carry a broken watch, I have no time I am 6 afraid of 7 because it ate 9 So I multiply 111 times Until I demonize Ravage the skies with blood red eyes Taint stained war cries Decapitate and burn The end must be ensured But the jaw still lives And the grave still turns

.my Mi Amour. 1o-23-o6.
as i sit here listening to them same old songs i keep thinking that i have that betrayed you. i have told something that came up in my life. something very dear to me, i may lose. i want you to know that i have not betrayed you. you are here in my mind, heart, & soul. i am here for you in always, my mi amour. as i have told you times & tomes before that i am never going to leave your side. but right now i have to be with the one i may lose. but u will be waiting for you. i know i will see you soon. bit not soon enought,mi amour. please believe me i am herefor you & only you. you are part of my strength & my happiness. as of now my mi amour, i am going to be here for a short time. but lost lost for a short time. i am going to come back to you my mi amour.

Razor's Edge
I just made a whole new page on my site.... check it out Strong 20 inch Alchemy wallet chain with razor link, split ring, trigger-clip and black leather coffin belt loop. Retail Price: $15.00 Our Price: $8.00 + $8.00 Shipping Black and red 2 in 1 ripped top with Skull Embrace Print. Retail Price: $19.95 Our Price: $14.95 + $8.00 Shipping Short sleeve black t-shirt with an all over print of the Skull Wrap design. Retail Price: $19.95 Our Price: $10.95 + $8.00 Shipping The popular Mortum chain format, with heavy pewter links, but with a razor blade of despair and vitality. Retail Price: $19.95 Our Price: $16.95 + $8.00 Shipping A sturdy black leather, Psalter style ring binder with velcro leather clasp and fitted with topaz cabochonned pewter trimmings. At their centre is a bone-resin disc plaque, available in two versions. Retail Price: $49.95 Our Price: $19.95 + $8.00 Shipping

Love
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ~I Corinthians 13:4-8~ There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer; no disease that enough love will not heal; no door that enough love will not open; no gulf that enough love will not bridge; no wall that enough love will not throw down; no sin that enough love will not redeem... It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble; how hopeless the outlook; how muddled the tangle; how great the mistake. A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all. If only you could love enough you would be the happiest and most powerful being in the world... ~Emmet Fox~

Wtf
is anything on this site working tonight im not getting alerts when my friends upload new stuff the bullitans are messed up again and it takes me forever just to rate a few pics. Is this happening to everybody else or is it my shitty computer acting up again

.you Told Me You Were Staying. 1o-26-o6
you told me that you were staying. you lied to me. you told me that everything was goin to be ok. you have gone & left me here alone to defend for myself. i am in that zombie state again. but it's ok. i know you knew you were somewhere else when you were fillin me with them lies. but it's ok. i know the truth now. i have let you, just that little bit. but just not enough for you to break me down. this zombie state that i am in. is just fine for me. because i know no one will come close & destroy me. i am happy in this state. because i am not ever goin to break. you had your chance with me. but those lies come through that you were hiding. now that my zombie eyes are open. you can just see alittle bit a life left in me. but now you know that i am not goin to wait for you. because my heart is beating still. but my strength & the blood in my vains. are not yours no more for the taking. you dug yourself in a deeper hell. a hell alone for youself. ple

.dream.11-13-o6.
11:39 PM - Dream...wrote on 11-13-06 i sit in the sand feeling the tide splash agaisnt my feet. i am staring up at the stars.making a wish that u were next to me. i close my eyes.listening to the waves splash. in those waves i can hear you callin my name. i write ur name in the sand with my finger tip. i close my eyes again.to hear that wave splash. hoping to hear u call my name.but this call is different. as i open my eyes & look up to those stars.i am looking deeply into ur eyes. looking deep into those sparkles that are brighter then the stars above.as u lean down to grab my hand. i know u are going to take me away. take me away from my pain & this hell that i am in. as u raise me form the sand.u pull me near& brush my hair away from my face. pull me near. u press ur soft lips to mine. at that moment i feel my black heart beat again.a beat that has not been felt in this numb body. u slowly move ur soft lips down my neck. which u know makes me weak to my knees

The Time Is Now Or Never
I am going offline but I will be able to check my messages weekly. Please dont take me off your friends list. I will chat with everyone from time to time. I will miss everyone :) I know I said a few days ago that would be my last day on here lol well we thought it would be. Tonight is my last night online on the computer. The computer goes back at 9:30am tomorrow. I am going to miss everyone so much. If you dont have my email addy already its sweet_n_sassy_girl4 @yahoo.com Thats also my yahoo id if u want to add me too.I can get ims and emails on my phone and thats about it lol. I wish I could get on cherry tap on my cell phone. I will get on a computer weekly if not a few times a week. I will miss everyone so much!!!!((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Why
WHAT IS UP WITH GUYS COMING TO MY PAGE TO GIVE ME A 1? WOW ........A 1 ON MY PAGE.... OH I THINK I AM GONNA JUMP IN THE LAKE. LIFE IS OVER. WOW.....A ONE AND WHEN I TELL THEM THANK YOU, THEY DONT TALK. PURE PUNKS.....!!!!!!

.untitled O1-3o-o7.
did you ever have that feeling that it's to good to be true. for some reason i have that feeling now. i mean i the happiest i can be. but then there are moments that i feel i may be just gettin lyed too. or it was just the fact that i have been treated like shyt in the past. i dunno. but it really fuckin bothers me that i don't know. god my mid gets the best of me. but i seriously have this gut feeling that i am goin to get ran over like a frieght train. if that happens. i am so done with people & lettin them in close. sorry just had a little thing on my mind just felt that i had to get off.

Repost Of "mens Behavior" For The Ladies. Its Long, But Explains Alot
How to understand men better The very first question that may come to mind is, what qaulifies me to write this, what makes me such an expert? Well, first and foremost, im a guy.....and if a man is judged by how much he masturbates, i would be the uber man. Second, i have been young, and stupid, i know all the games, and tricks, and ploys that men use to thier advantage when it comes to women. Third, having been a man my whole life, i know exactly how men think, and they react to certain women and situations. Now, you might also be wondering why i would be so willing to divuldge such information to you, and break the secret code of men. Well, there are a couple of reasons for this as well. First, i cant tell you how many women have come to me to tell me about thier asshole boyfriend, or thier abusive husband or vice versa, all of which could have been avoided had they understood men better, or knew how and why men act the way they do. Second, i think that most men on this planet

,untitled O2-o1-o7.
.untitled o2-o1-o7. i feel that my heart maybe riped from my chest. after the first real heartbeat i felt in my zombie state. i lay at night in this state wondering is this going to be the day that i fall back into this dark abyss. i wonder if it was something that i did to have this feelin that i belong in this abyss. with my wiccan ways. is there a speel or charm i ma cast over your eyes to show that i maybe the right one. but with thise wiccan ways can only show you what i want you to see. but with that i still wouldn't know where your heart truely laid. now i ask...... DO YOU EVEN KNOW?

Tremble
Wake up Wipe out the sleep spread open the theighs take it in deep penetraion aside its all heaven in where smooth as a dolphin your pussy is bare honey to some the way you make me cum nastier the better pulling it out..come getter im sexier than some more passionate than most i make you scream 3 times more than beetlejuice the host im pretty tired but never time to quit I'd rather sex your body than work, that bullshit ~Timmy~

Curtains
Old, but classic..... gotta love this CURTAIN RODS---- PRICELESS She spent the first day packing her belongings into boxes, crates and suitcases. On the second day, she had the movers come and collect her things. On the third day, she sat down for the last time at their beautiful dining room table by candle-light, put on some soft background music, and feasted on a pound of shrimp, a jar of caviar, and a bottle of spring-water. When she had finished, she went into each and every room and deposited a few half-eaten shrimp shells dipped in caviar into the hollow of the curtain rods. She then cleaned up the kitchen and left. When the husband returned with his new girlfriend, all was bliss for the first few days. Then slowly, the house began to smell. They tried everything; cleaning, mopping and airing the place out. Vents were checked for dead rodents

Two Women In Heaven
TWO WOMEN IN HEAVEN Two Women Talking In Heaven 1st Woman: Hi! My name is Maggie. 2nd Woman: Hi! I'm Sylvia. How'd you die? 1st Woman: I froze to death. 2nd Woman: How horrible! 1st Woman: It wasn't so bad. After I quit shaking from the cold, I began to get warm and sleepy and finally died a peaceful death. What about you? 2nd Woman: I died of a massive heart attack I suspected my husband was cheating, so I came home early to catch him in the act. But instead I found Him all by himself in the den watching TV. 1st Woman: So what happened? 2nd Woman: I was so sure there was another woman somewhere that I started running all over the house looking. I ran up into the attic and searched and then down into the basement. I went through each closet and checked under all the beds. I kept this up until I had looked everywhere, and finally I became so exhausted that I just keeled over with a heart attack and died. 1st Woman: Too bad you didn't look in th

A Daddys Love
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirmi ng imp atiently, nxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them wa

Smart Ass Answers
SMART ASS ANSWER #6 It was mealtime during a flight on Hooters Airline. "Would you like dinner?" the flight attendant asked John, seated in front. "What are my choices?" John asked. "Yes or no," she replied. SMART ASS ANSWER #5 A flight attendant was stationed at the departure gate to check tickets. As a man approached, she extended her hand for the ticket and he opened his trench coat and flashed her. Without missing a beat, she said, "Sir, I need to see your ticket not your stub." SMART ASS ANSWER #4 A lady was picking through the frozen turkeys at the grocery store but she couldn't find one big enough for her family. She asked a stock boy, "Do these turkeys get any bigger?" The stock boy replied, "No ma'am,they're dead." SMART ASS ANSWER #3 The cop got out of his car and the kid who was stopped for speeding rolled down his window. "I've been waiting for you all day," the cop said. The kid replied, "Yeah, well I got here as fast as I could." When the cop finally stoppe

Didn't Expect That...
So I was walking the mall, looking for the T-mobile store so I could pay my bill. I took the wrong entrance again. Straight in, get to the long stretch of slap-happy stores and window buys, turn left. Walking passed the cell phone accessory cart with all the cell "bling" and mesmerizing light configurations for batteries, another left. Now I see my destination on the right-hand side next to Nordstroms. I walk in, pull my wad of cash out, go up to the seemingly arrogant 19 year old working there, give him my cell number, he gives me my balance, give him the money, and I leave. Walking out of the store, I stop and look either way. Do I go back the way I came or go straight through the dept. store and make my escape from the sea of spring shoppers and eye-catching items begging to be bought by me?? Fuck it. As I'm walking back the way I came, the amount of people that I'm walking passed seem to dissipate. The closer I move towards the doors to the outside, the less people there are. At ab

Thanks Tothe Support Lounge
Hey guys. I went into the support lounge earlier and I just wanted send out a heartfelt thanx out! I got firefox and of course now it works!!! So thanks again ya'll.....it's so nice to be somewhere that ppl actually care about each other's issues and we're not just another member #. Catch ya laterz Chrissy

Medicare Problems
Medicare Problems The phone rings and the lady of the house answers, "Hello." "Mrs. Ward, please." "Speaking" "Mrs. Ward, this is Doctor Jones at the Medical Testing Laboratory. When your doctor sent your husband's biopsy to the lab yesterday, a biopsy from another Mr. Ward arrived as well, and we are now uncertain which one is your husband's. Frankly the results are either bad or terrible." "What do you mean?" Mrs. Ward asks nervously. "Well, one of the specimens tested positive for Alzheimer's and the other one tested positive for AIDS. We can't tell which your husband's is." "That's dreadful! Can't you do the test again?" questioned Mrs. Ward. "Normally we can, but Medicare will only pay for these expensive tests one time." "Well, what am I supposed to do now?" "The people at Medicare recommend that you drop your husband off somewhere in the middle of town. If he finds his way home

Families And Online Gangs Ct Member Of The Cooper Clan--a Pet Peeve Rant
hail cooper member of the cooper of ct klan local 3401! Attend your local union meeting. As a yahoo 20's love chat vet, I know about online gangs. Hey, Coop, come join us, make a nickname C0op3r_R4v3ns69 and we're gonna be cool and hack stuff and boot "ragheads". BTDT. So I'm searching for some insight why that type of social behaviour is on CT. I ask the question "Why". I swear, human behaviourists are writing notes and speaking into their tape recorders as they study the online virtual networking world as people interact with one another as if it is one major network soap drama airing at noon on your local channel. This is most like geared to ad agencies targeting warez for us 20-30 somethings that are attached with umbilical cords to our keyboards in effort to make profit on something that is called a blast or a blockbuster rental membership. But that's another story. Back to these families. The only thing a family is useful for is gaining cherry points. "Hey, Susie, we'll

The Attic
A single shaft of sunlight throws what's left of this dusty old attic into sharp relief. Dust shifts and floats in and out of this golden beam, disturbed by my recent passage. Even with the sunlight, nothing has a clear shape. Boxes, furniture…old pictures…a forgotten jacket…all these things blend together into shapeless masses that are impossible to discern from one another until you are right on top of them. This world of black and gold; its stillness is only broken by the shifts and trembles of age, a house still settling after g-d alone knows how many years of emptiness. Dust has settled over and onto everything, hiding years worth of memories under it. Here and there a picture has been removed, picked up, the dust half smeared off in an attempt to view whatever might have been in it. Old forgotten faces stare out of these smeared glass panes. None of it made any difference…each picture was as unfamiliar as the last, each face, each smile was as unknown as my own when I'd

Sundays Hurt...
ooh, heres how it should go sunday - run 4 miles, 3 sets 15 dips one set slow negs 10, abs (oh yay...) 3 sets of 40 crunches 2 sets side crunches 2 sets of ten crunches hold 30 lbs. (yeah loads of fun), finish off with finish off with breathing exersizes and meditation .50 hours sunday seems fun huh? wait till you see thursday, ugh.

Laying Flowers
What's the point in laying flowers? If they just blow away, Have you ever stopped for a moment? Just to watch them sway. And where do they go to? Aside from the memory in your mind, Wondrous, you look to heaven, Did they really leave you behind? And all of the pretty colors, Do they match your broken heart? Like the imprinted blue and purple bruises, That have hurt you from the start. And like the tiny petals, So fragile and light, Just like you they shatter, As you bear your constant fight. Beautiful like your memories, You've caught over the years, They survive by rain water, But it kills you to shed tears. And just like everything, They only last a little while, And they wither along with you, As you try to find your smile. And the stem in the middle, Is so tender and shows care, And just for a moment, You think that their still there. And like that single second, It all seemed to be OK, You waken from your splendor, As you watch the last

To Pain: To My Family
All I see is tears, All I hear is crying, All they talk about is suffering, All they do is cry. I try not to hear, I try not to cry, I try to always look happy I try not to make tears fall out of my eyes. I want the pain to go away, as fast as it came, I want everybody to be happy, I want my life to be tame. I want things to be alright. I pray for my dad to be strong, I pray for my mom to be healthy, I pray for the things that I did wrong, I pray for my family to be happy again. I need a friend to rely on, I need to be brave, I need hope in my life, I need faith. You try to hide the pain that's dwelling inside of you. How can I make it through the day? How can I make things better? How can I help in any way? How can I take all this pain? I can do things on my own, I can do the chores by myself, I can make it through the pain, I can try and make everything better. I hope the things I do can help in any little way, I hope this day will neve

Phone Number
JUST FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES.. REPOST TIS AND SEE HOW MANY PHONE NUMBERS YOU CAN GET... ITS AL IN FUN SO LETS HAVE SOME FUN!!!!! NAME____________ AGE___ STATE YOU LIVE IN_________ STATUS __MARRIED __ TAKEN __ SINGLE PHONE NUMBER __________ COULD I CALL __YES __ NO WHAT TIME IS BEST_____

Cheaters!!!
A few people on here got caught for cheating, using programs to up their rank, without actually earning. Some are in the process of getting caught, and the rest of you cheating WARTS on the body of CT will get caught eventually. and why will you get caught? cuz u cant shut up about it, u feel the need to brag. so to each of you who have cheated to move up on here , wether u got caught or not........ your character will reveal itself eventually and I WILL LAUGH MY ASS OFF at you when you do get caught...... WAY TO GO DUMBASSES! AAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAA

Yep, I'm A Bit Green...
I honor of Earth Day coming up, just wanted to get a few things out there that may interesting to those of you who give a shit about this place we all call home... * Meat production (especially mass-produced): Can take seven or more pounds of grain to produce one pound of beef and livestock consumes 70% of America's grain. If you alone gave up beef once every seven days, you could save the 840 gallons of water it takes to produce a single serving. * If everyone in the US reduced the amount of junk mail he/she receives every week, 100 million trees would be spared each year. (www.ftc.gov, click "for consumers", "telemarketing", "unsolicited mail..." will show you how! ) * Install faucet aerators and high-efficiency showerheads and in year's time you'll save bet. 1,000 and 8,000 gallons of water. * keep track of your thermostat!! Adjust it down 2 degrees in winter and up 2 degrees in summer and you'll keep nearly 880 pounds of carbon dioxide from warming the earth. * The a

A Single Tear
A wild laugh or a fear small, A single tear says it all... The emotions of a mother holding her child, His first sight and her smile mild, And the speck of water in her eyes, Looking at a face where her world lies. Her boundless love for the one small, A single tear says it all. The agony of a widow for her dead soul mate, The curse she puts on her ill fate, The farewell of the sweet days they shared, The days they laughed, they cried, they cared. The pain of the widow, her hopes small, A single tear says it all. The feelings of the mother of a bride, Her never-ending happiness and the painful tide, On seeing her daughter go away, Somewhere far, amidst the swaying may. Her emotions both big and small, A single tear says it all. The despair of a soldier facing defeat. The feeling of the two lovers dying to meet. A wild laugh or a fear small, A single tear says it all.

What Does This Mean?
I was trying to Respond to Dreamweavers private message.An this Error came up.Sorry,Your on the List or Sorry you made the List.Is that the Deleete List?. To all my Friends u want to stay in Touch,Troutmaster48@yahoo.com

Storms
Storms Margie DeMerell There will be storms, child There will be storms And with each tempest You will seem to stand alone Against cruel winds But with time, the rage and fury Shall subside And when the sky clears You will find yourself Clinging to someone You would have never known But for storms.

An Apology To Friends And Fans
I want to thank all of you who have helped me get to my current level here at CherryTap. I really do appreciate it. I want to apologize for my failure to respond to/leave comments as often as I'd like. It's just that thinkgs are a little hectic for me right now... working seven days a week for the last two months, and going to school on top of that I don't have as much time to spend talking to all the great people I have met here. I will try to do better in the future, but please be patient... thanks!

My Definiton Of Pain
The Lightning Flashes in my head I try to love again but the feelings dead The pains too high, too much to bare But who's to care? no, there's nobody there No one to stop me from falling down My heart cries out but no one's left around to make a sound Well, i guess thats where I'm all alone Not that it matters cause my hearts made of stone Yeah i guess this is what I get for passing the test Shoulder to Shoulder with the men who give a hundred percent This life... made up of pain, deceit and lies, and men men who cry because nobody's left alive When do the good guys get a chance to change the tide No, never... I guess we're just along for the ride So much for the happy ending between husbands and wives And at the end of this verse Another Soldiers inner burn dies

Listerine Agent Cool Blue Recall
This one hit close to home as my daughter has been using this stuff since she had her seizures and been 'sickly'. I'm sure it's just a coincidence but if your children or your friends children are using this stuff, PLEASE be sure they are aware. This information can be found at http://www.agentcoolblue.com/#anc-pressrelease As of April 12, 2007: We are currently experiencing heavy call volume on our toll-free consumer line. If you are looking for a REFUND ONLY, click here. Print and complete the form, then mail to secure your AGENT COOL BLUE™ refund. Consumer Statement McNEIL-PPC, Inc. has announced a voluntary nationwide consumer recall of all lots of the GLACIER MINT™ and BUBBLE BLAST™ flavors of LISTERINE® AGENT COOL BLUE™ Plaque-Detecting Rinse after the Company determined that the preservative system is not adequate against certain microorganisms. McNEIL-PPC, Inc. has been in full communication with the FDA regarding this issue and the decision to implement a voluntar

*pentagon Extends Army Active Duty To 15 Months*
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 WASHINGTON — In a change of Pentagon policy, Defense Secretary Robert Gates announced Wednesday that all active duty Army soldiers deploying to Iraq and Afghanistan will now serve their tours for as long as 15 months, an increase over the standard year-long deployment. In an acknowledgement of the strains the U.S. military surge in Iraq is having on the military, Gates told reporters that the new policy will be effective immediately on all units in the Central Command area of responsibility. The troops will continue to return home to their stations for not less than 12 months rotations. The rule will apply to all except for of two brigades currently deployed that have already been extended to 16-month deployments. "Without this action, we would have had to deploy five Army active duty brigades sooner than the 12-month at home goal. I believe it is fairer to all soldiers that all share the burden equally," Gates said, adding that the policy will pre

I Prefer
I prefer date: 2007-04-12 19:46:32 Comments over ratings anyday!! So i would appreciate them!! Hook me up in my just me folder, all pix are nsfw and my settings are to friends only even tho it says fam only, i'm gonna change my settings back pretty soon so take advantage, and fan me to!!

Youtube Thought
I was avoiding the recordings of John Bell Young playing with the general thought "I've heard of this fellow- so - probably this isn't legally uploaded." A little investigation reveals that yes, he has his own presence on that site, which he uses to offer masterclasses to interested students. Ok, change in plans, will occasionally link to his performances also...

My Gurlz :)-only
this is for all my girls... you all know who you are.. i aint gotta tell you. anyways.. i love you!! A simple bitch is someone you met through somebody else. * A real bitch is someone you knew from back in the day and we still kickin it now! A simple bitch will take you where you need to go.* A real bitch throws you her keys and say it needs gas in it! A simple bitch will tell you not to fight, it aint worth it*.A real bitch will say beat her ass and look at the crowd and say "bet nobody jump in". A simple bitch will let another bitch know she can back the fuck up or get knocked the fuck out.* A real bitch will just knock her the fuck out!!! A simple bitch tells you, she's had enough to drink.*A real bitch tells you we need another shot, we bout to get fucked up! A simple bitch goes to the club with you and sits down.* A real bitch goes to the club with you and says lets show these simple bitches how we do it. A simple bitch hates it when you call after t

My 1st Contest
Hey everyone! I know everyone is getting tired of contests but this happens to be my 1st, (and probably only), contest and I need some help. I am currently in 3rd place out of about 20. If anyone could help it would be greatly appreciated. Here is the link and thanks again! http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=586853&albumid=308803&i=4100841319

Is It Okay To Look?
Is it Okay to Look? Dr. Gary and Barbara Rosberg America's Family Coaches Our culture has bought into two lies about pornography: Most guys look at porn. It’s normal behavior. Porn does not hurt anyone. It’s no big deal. Here’s the truth – men have trouble separating love from lust. Love is personal; lust is impersonal. Love is a matter of giving; lust is a matter of taking. Love seeks stability; lust is short-lived. Love overcomes addictions; lust fuels addictions. Men who just “look at” pornography have begun the descent down the slippery slope to sexual addiction, and that hurts both them and their wives. Men addicted to porn compartmentalize; they put loving their wives in one box and lusting after pictures of nude women in another box. They don’t see the connection. So, what for women are inseparably entwined – love and sex – can seem to be in two entirely separate places of the male psyche. Some men have asked us – “Is it ok just to look at pornography as long as i

An Unhappy Poem
Dear God why can't you hear my crying, My mind and soul, in chains, in hell are bound. Sisyphus's burden I share. No end in sight for all eternity, The world asks me to live, but my free spirit Cries I won't. I do know my body is a temple, So much like the one in the city Of the Great King. Beset on all sides by hell fire, Always to be remembered, but left in the dust. The darkness is my only friend. The darkness like a velvet shroud, Caresses my flesh as my spirit dies. My body left behind as my eyes cloud over. My reward the murderer's hell So much like the one I had tried to escape, So much like the one I had loved

But Only One
sometimes things trigger memories. it can be a smell, a place, or even a shirt. most-times art reflects life, but sometimes life reflects art. "One woman can make you fly like an eagle, another can give you the strength of a lion, but only one in the Cycle Of Life can fill your heart with wonder and the wisdom that you have known a singular joy." ~Deputy "Hawk" Hill, Twin Peaks

My Salute's Been Rejected!
You guys see anything wrong with my salutes??? Here's one that was rejected: > > > Your SALUTE has been rejected! Please review the FAQ for what is appropriate for salutes. If your salutes are continually rejected, your account will be removed. > > The rejected salute photo is below: > > I wrote back what was wrong with it.....

Judge Gently
JUDGE GENTLY Pray, don't find fault with the man that limps Or stumbles along the road. Unless you have worn the shoes he wears Or struggled beneath his load. There may be tacks in his shoes that hurt Though hidden away from view. Or the burden he bears placed on your back Might cause you to stumble too. Don't sneer at the man who's down today Unless you have felt the blow That caused his fall or felt the shame That only the fallen know. You may be strong but still the blows That was his if dealt to you In the selfsame way, at the selfsame time Might cause you to stagger too. Don't be too harsh with the man that sins Or pelt him with word or stone Unless you are sure - yea, doubly sure - That you have no sins of your own. For you know, perhaps, If the tempter's voice should whisper as soft to you As it did to him when he went astray It might cause you to falter too.

So You'll Play The Mistaken And I'll Play The
So let's not even try you're right let's ball it up and throw it out the window It's becoming all so clear in my mind I've thought this thing through like once or twice I feel that this is my last request to you Hold your breath Bottle it up and save it for the next one It's safe to say we've been riding this all night None of this will ever change your mind It's never safe to rely on borrowed time Now we're both undone and it's time to open up your eyes Consequence, it's our need in times like these Feeling free is our modern disease You're a classic disaster, with a knack for losing your exterior I'm so sick From staring at the mirror This all needs a break from you And I'm used to this I fear that I am just an end So you'll play the mistaken and I'll play the victim In our screenplay of desire and I'm still writing the letters I'll never send Running in circles I can't forget how many times I've played this in my mind Feeling free, Feeling free Consequenc

Chaparral On Saturday
I cant wait to go to Chaparral this weekend. I need to ask them several questions. I plan to get a quad here soon after we buy a truck, plus I'm thinking about trading in my bike, so I need to see what all could be done, etc. I also want to see if I can find someone to ask about sponsorship. Never hurts to ask. I could use the discounts. So, Saturday we are going riding with my cousins, then off to Chaparral!

Moon Shot...
The other night, I was sitting around thinking that romance is gone...wondering where all the romantic thinking men were...if there were any left at all... THEN..... While texting with Jack...he took a picture of the beautiful full moon that night, and sent it to me...telling me it was our moon...300 miles apart and he was sharing his moon with me. I nearly died right there... He made me believe again... This was OUR moon that night...

Annoyed!
I get tired of men saying they want to have sex with me,or they want to see naked pictures of me, and I don't have any,and if I did,I wouldn't let anybody see them except my boyfriend! I mean if they like me for me,thats ok,but if they want to have sex for the sake of having sex,then no thank you! And I have my boyfriend anyway,so I'am off limits! If thats the case,them I will tie your balls together and staple them or something horriable!

Broken Woman
Silent cries late at night, yes it is me hidden away underneath the shelter of the dark for nobody else to see with words still unspoken words still lefts to say my heart stays broken hurting more each and every day praying to leave your loves curse willing the pain to wash away and take away the hurt isn't it funny how the people we love the most can make us feel the worst..

What Can You Get
Strong 20 inch Alchemy wallet chain with razor link, split ring, trigger-clip and black leather coffin belt loop. Black and red 2 in 1 ripped top with Skull Embrace Print. Short sleeve black t-shirt with an all over print of the Skull Wrap design.

Taking Applications For A Female
ANY OF U FINE LADIES OUT THERE IN THE NEW ENGLAND AREA THAT ARE GOIGN TO BIKE WEEK 2007 IN LACONIA AND WANT TO GO RIDING WITH ME PLEASE FILL THIS SHORT APPLICATIN OUT AND RETURN TO MY MAIL BOX. BASICS Name: Age: Birthday: Location: Eye color: Hair Color: Height: Measurements: Favorite Bands: Favorite Movies: Religion: Smoke?: Drink?: Drive?: Job?: Piercings/tattoos?: Favorite type of music: Favorite sport?: Riden on the back of a bike before?

To Everyone That Helped Me Win My First Contest
I just want to express my SINCERE THANKS to Maria aka...Sexy Mama, for running the first contest I was in, and to ALL my family & friends that have helped me win. You ALL know who you are, and I want YOU ALL to know how much I appreciate your dedication, extreme effort, & countless hours of comment bombing me, despite all those crazy error messages we were all getting. My God, you people are totally AWESOME!! Not only were those error messages a huge nuisance, but they were pretty damn annoying as well. I know at times I would get ticked off because it caused alot of problems here on my end. I can only imagine how you felt at times. I know the comment bombing and delays from the error messages took ALOT of your time away from other things you wanted or needed to get done on here, at home, or anywhere else. Please know that from the bottom of my heart, that truly means the world to me. It shows what TRUE and GENUINE FRIENDS you are, and I love you all for your great BIG hearts. I consid

Modeling
Hello everyone....here is the link, there is also a link directly in my profile with a "vote for me" symbol by it! Either way I would REALLY appreciate if you took a moment to vote...during the day sometimes the site is a little slow!! You can vote daily, and the contest ends June 10th!! I really need some support to make it into the top 50 so I can continue on into the second part of the contest.... I appreciate all the support!! Here is the link: http://216.117.193.21/modeling/profile.asp?SmashBox_ProfileID=1250606

"i Wonder Why"
I wonder why the grass is green and the sky is blue, and my head is filled with thoughts of you? You made your choice it is plain to see, but I keep thinking maybe it was me? I open my blinds to let in the light, darkness can flee from my empty life. I'm burning those bridges you left behind, afraid to look back now, of what I might find. My days are filled lying in bed, of stormy moments, of feelings of dread. I secretly wish you'd look my way, but reality is cruel and you'd never stay. You left without a sound, I knew we were through I still regret, remaining so true. If I had a backbone, I'd scream and yell and happily tell you to go to hell!!!!

Strip-searched At Dulles!
On my trip to Virginia, I was amazed at how beautiful this state was. I had thought that the East and the South would be old and used up, but not so. But the traffic and roads are enough to make one emigrate. I ate crab cakes, and all kinds of wonderful things from a huge salad bar. [But they didn't have grits. But that was OK.] I wondered at the soft air in Virginia. Lots of oak trees. I approve of that. I began in Norfolk, and then up to Falls Church to visit my aunt. I was dragged to the Smithsonian, where she carefully examined 85 Japanese woodblock prints for three hours, and took me to her favorite sculpture garden. We snacked in the Museum of Modern Art, next to IM Pei's famous fountain whose waters descend via stepped stones or brickwork and splash against an interior glass wall on one side of the café, one level below the street. For my belated birthday dinner, we went to a special Chinese restaurant, at which I had some nice food and was greatly

25 Things My Mother Taught Me!!
1. TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE. "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning." 2. My mother taught me RELIGION. "You better pray that will come out of the carpet." 3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL. "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!" 4. My mother taught me LOGIC. " Because I said so, that's why." 5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC. "If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me." 6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT. "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident." 7. My mother taught me IRONY. "Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about." 8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS. "Shut your mouth and eat your supper." 9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM. "Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!" 10. My mother taught me about STAMINA. "You'll sit there until all

Abot Me
YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 47 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You're on my list, so I wanna know you better! =) JUST HIT REPLY TO SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A MESSAGE THEN, REPOST THE EMPTY QUESTIONS AS A BULLETIN. 1. What is your full name? evis marie buchanan 2. When is your Birthday? april 7,1964 3. What is your e-mail address? montana4164@yahoo.com 4. Do you smoke? yes 5.How many sexuall partners have you had? 10 6. If you can't answer, is it really that many? 7. Can you cook? yes 8. What was your dream growing up? nurse police ,army 9. What talent do you wish you had? singing 10. Favorite place? montana 11. G-strings or thongs? both 12. What was the last book you read? the chamber 13. What zodiac sign are u? aries 14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? ears 15

Coffee In This Life
Coffee in this Life And now, in someplace I had never seen, I have thoughts inside for you, feelings I never tried to say. I gave you nights and days for nearly a year, but not time enough nor concentration of effort to describe, and all I locked you out of was my rebirth. Perhaps it was only exasperation as we tried to thwart our mundane lives with something divine and clear; I tried to dislike your smoking. Not to die, not to die nor God forget for all we have been told, that this loneliness is just the lingering of hope. And every morning we push these thoughts aside, like silverware in a restaurant. There is only time for coffee in this life, and a few quick salutations and farewells. This foolish longing, to come together in belief and well, for the slow, loving words that take unto themselves great heights, and stand beyond ritual through all the years.

Blonde And The Lord
THE BLONDE AND THE LORD A blonde wanted to go ice fishing. She'd seen many books on the subject and, finally getting all the necessary tools together, she made for the ice. After positioning her comfy footstool, she started to make a circular cut in the ice. Suddenly, from the sky, a voice boomed, "THERE ARE NO FISH UNDER THE ICE." Startled, the blonde moved farther down the ice, poured a thermos of cappuccino and began to cut yet another hole. Again from the heavens the voice bellowed, "THERE ARE NO FISH UNDER THE ICE." The blonde, now worried, moved clear down to the opposite end of the ice. She set up her stool once more and tried again to cut her hole. The voice came once more, "THERE ARE NO FISH UNDER THE ICE." She stopped, looked skyward, and asked, "IS THAT YOU, LORD?" The voice replied, "NO, THIS IS THE MANAGER OF THE HOCKEY RINK"

Sickeningly Sweet
A white night becomes a black day. I awake, and look up to the sky. And for once, everything is okay. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. The gentle breeze across my bare chest, No other feeling like it. Put my nerves to the test. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. Faster and faster, around the bend. Drifting here and there, I’m not ready for this life to end. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. Just got to feel that adrenaline. My sickeningly sweet drug. It makes me feel alive again. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. Gave up weed, but then again…Took it back, A disappointing realization. My will, easily side-tracked. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. Found God all over again. It’s time, right now. This shit has to end. Here in the driver seat, Drivin’ along, not missin’ a beat. A white night becomes a blac

Best Convent In Texas
Best Convent in Texas A man is driving down a deserted stretch of highway, when he notices a sign out of the corner of his eye that Reads: SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION - 10 MILES Thinking it was a figment of his imagination, he drives on and soon he sees another sign SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION - 5 MILES Suddenly, he begins to realize the signs are for real... SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION - NEXT RIGHT His curiosity gets the best of him and he pulls into the drive. On the far side of the parking lot, is a stone building with a small sign next to the door reading: SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION He climbs the steps, and rings the bell. The door is answered by a nun in a long, black habit, who asks, " What may we do for you, my son?" He answers, "I saw your signs along the highway, and was interested in doing business." "Very well, my son.... Please follow me. " The man is led through a winding pa

Come Join Me In The Livewire Radio Lounge
CLICK HERE TO JOIN THE FUN IF YOU WANT TO HAVE A GOOD TIME WITH AWESOME DJS THIS IS THE PLACE TO BE RIGHT NOW YOU CAN ALSO TUNE IN TO OUR STATION VIA OUR WEBSITE LIVEWIRE V69.0 RADIO SO CLICK THE LINK AND COME SEE WHAT WE'RE ALL ABOUT!! YOURS TRULY, DJ KAREBARE

Ocouple
An elderly couple, who were both widowed, had been going out with each other for a long time. Urged on by their friends, they decided it was finally time to get married. Before the wedding, they went out to dinner and had a long conversation regarding how their marriage might work. They discussed finances, living arrangements and so on. Finally, the old gentleman decided it was time to broach the subject of their physical relationship. "How do you feel about sex?" he asked, rather trustingly. "Well," she said, responding very carefully, "I'd have to say, I would like it infrequently." The old gentleman sat quietly for a moment, then, looking over his glasses, he casually asked, "Is that one word or two words?"

Camping Trip
Two men camping in the mountains had spent four days together, and they were getting a little testy. One morning, the first friend says, "You know, we're starting to get on each other's nerves. Why don't we split up today. I'll hike north and spend the day looking around, you hike south and spend the day. Then tonight, we'll have dinner and share our experiences over the campfire." The second friend agrees and hikes south. The first man hikes north. That night over dinner, the first man tells his story: "Today I hiked into a beautiful valley. I followed a stream up into a canyon and ate lunch. Then I swam in a crystal clear mountain lake. As I sat out and dried, I watched deer come and drink from the stream. The wildflowers were filled with butterflies and hawks floated all day overhead. How was your day?" The second friend says, "I went south and ran across a set of railroad tracks. I followed them until I came across a beautiful young woman tied to the tracks. I

"i'll Be"
What do I think? What'll I say? Thoughts on the brink Of fleeing away. Words in my mind Floating about Thoughts too confined Stand up and shout! Tell them all now They're listening still. They may not care now But hear me they will. Who cares of the rest's Opinions of me? My plan's the best I'll be what I'll be!

Boobs
A family is at the dinner table. The son asks his father, "Dad, how many kinds of "boobies" are there? The father, surpised, answers, "Well, son, there's three kinds of breasts. In her twenties a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm. In her thirties to forties, they are like pears, still nice but hanging a bit. After fifty, they are like onions." "Onions?" "Yes, you see them and they make you cry." This infuriated his wife and daugher so the daughter said, "Mom, how many kinds of "willies" are there?" The mother, surprised, smiles and answers, "Well dear, a man goes through three phases. In his twenties, his willy is like an oak tree, mighty and strong. In his thirties and forties, it's like a birch, flexible, but reliable. After his fifties, it's like a Christmas tree." "A Christmas tree?" "Yes, dead from the root up and the balls are for decoration only."

Linesville
I AM SO EXCITED!!! I need me some Sista time i misses that lady somethin fierce.... and if i am not mistaken...she needs me right now too *sigh* why can't her life be as good to her as she is to others? anyway...imma be gone all weekend...feel free to message me and such..:)

Lil Leroy
Little Leroy came into the kitchen where his mother was making dinner. His birthday was coming up and he thought this was a good time to tell his mother what he wanted. "Mom, I want a bike for my birthday." Little Leroy was a bit of a troublemaker. Leroy's mother asked him if he thought he deserved to get a bike for his birthday. Little Leroy, of course, thought he did. Leroy's mother, being a Christian woman, wanted him to reflect on his behavior over the last year and write a letter to God and tell him why he deserved a bike for his birthday. Little Leroy stomped up the steps to his room and sat down to write God a letter. LETTER 1: Dear God, I have been a very good boy this year and I would like a bike for my birthday. I want a red one. Your friend, Leroy Leroy knew this wasn't true. He had not been a very good boy this year, so he tore up the letter and started over. LETTER 2: Dear God, This is your friend Leroy. I have been a pretty good boy this ye

Subject: Fw: Kids & Cussing
Had to share this one. A 6 year-old and 4 year-old are upstairs in their bedroom. "You know what?" says the 6 year-old. " I think it's about time we started cussing." The 4 Year-olds nods his head in approval.. The 6 year-old continues, "When we go downstairs for breakfast, I'm gonna say something with 'hell' and you say something with 'ass.' The 4 year-old agrees with enthusiasm. When their mother walks into the kitchen and asks the 6 year-old what he wants for breakfast, he replies, "Aw hell Mom, I guess I'll have some Cheerios." WHACK! He flies out of his chair, tumbles across the kitchen floor, gets up, and runs upstairs crying his eyes out with his mother in hot pursuit, slapping his rear with every step. She locks him in his room and shouts, "You can stay in there until I let you out." She then comes back downstairs, looks at the 4 year-old and asks with a stern voice, "An what do YOU want for breakfast, young man

Im Back
well hello everyone i missed you all been working my ass off whent out to the east coast what a shit hole ...got to spend the weekend in jail there what fun.so now im in elpaso tx.tell morning 2 deliver.i think i whent thru withdraws not being able to talk to you all.so now im sitting here trying to catch up and say thank you to all how left me comments and messages keep up the chat talk to you all soon,

Blonde
The body builder takes off his shirt and the blonde says, "What a great chest you have." He tells her, "That's 100 lbs. of dynamite, baby." He takes off his pants and the blonde says, "What massive calves you have." The body builder tells her, "That's 100 lbs. of dynamite, baby." He then removes his underwear and the blonde goes running out of the apartment screaming in fear. The body builder puts his clothes back on and chases after her. He catches up to her and asks why she ran out of the apartment like that. The blonde replies, "I was afraid to be around all that dynamite after I saw how short the fuse was!"

Three Woman.
Three women die together in an accident and go to heaven. When they get there, St. Peter says, "We only have one rule here in heaven...don't step on the ducks." So they enter heaven, and sure enough, there are ducks all over the place. It is almost impossible not to step on a duck, and although they try their best to avoid them, the first woman accidentally steps on one. Along comes St. Peter with the ugliest man she ever saw.. St. Peter chains them together and says "Your punishment for stepping on a duck is to spend eternity chained to this ugly man!" The next day, the second woman steps accidentally on a duck, and along comes St. Peter, who doesn't miss a thing, and with him is another extremely ugly man. He chains them together with the same admonishment as for the first woman. The third woman has observed all this and, not wanting to be chained for all eternity to an ugly man, is very, VERY careful where she steps. She manages to go months without steppi

To A Keeper!
TO A KEEPER! ,One day a mother died. And on that clear, cold morning, In the warmth of her bedroom, The daughter was struck with The pain of learning that sometimes There isn't any more. No more hugs, No more lucky moments to celebrate together, No more phone calls just to chat, No more "just one minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most goes away. Never to return before we can say good-bye, Say "I Love You." So while we have it . . it's best we love it . . And care for it and fix it when it's broken And take good care of it when it's sick. This is true for marriage .... And friendships .. And children with bad report cards; And dogs with bad hips; And aging parents and grandparents We keep them because they are worth it, Because we cherish them! Some things we keep -- Like a best friend who moved away Or a classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that Make us happy, No matter what. Life is impo

Shoot
I have been offered to shoot for the Musclecars pinup girls calendar. I will also be modeling for them. very excited but a little freaked out to. I have never had anyone else take my pictures before. Should be fun and exciting..

An Ode To My Present.
Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb Lyrics Hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home? Come on, now. I hear you're feeling down. Well I can ease your pain, Get you on your feet again. Relax. I need some information first. Just the basic facts, Can you show me where it hurts? [Chorus] There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship's smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'. When I was a child I had a fever. My hands felt just like two balloons. Now I got that feeling once again. I can't explain, you would not understand. This is not how I am. I have become comfortably numb. [Incredible David Gilmour guitar solo...] Ok. Just a little pinprick. *ding!* There'll be no more ...Aaaaaahhhhh! But you may feel a little sick. Can you stand up? I do believe it's working. Good. That'll keep you going for the show. Come on it's time to go. [Chorus]

Error 5 Again
"ratings blocked for 10 minutes. stop flooding our servers! --babyjesus" Guess what I got the first time I clicked anything 12 minutes later. "ratings blocked for 10 minutes. stop flooding our servers! --babyjesus" So does that mean its really for 25 minutes?

You Appeared
out of thin air you appeared, distant, but certain your voice became the wind that soothed me at night. sometimes I listened to you sleep even so far away I felt close for you were drawing me close. you sent pictures, you sent words, you sent me silly and cherished things; but the best you sent me were your feelings and amazingly, I felt them hardly able to believe; but I believed. now, having crossed the mountains, lofted over prairies, my heart winged with hope, I reached the pinnacle and all that is left is thin air. Rebecca PS Best wishes anyway. Honest. (Ex girlfriend)

Man Of The House
A husband had just finished reading a new book entitled, "YOU Can Be The Man Of YOUR House!" He stormed to his wife in the kitchen and announced, "From now on, you need to know that I am the man of this house and my word is Law. You will prepare me a gourmet meal tonight, and when I'm finished eating my meal, you will serve me a sumptuous dessert. After dinner, you are going to go upstairs with me and we will have the kind of sex that I want. Afterwards, you are going to draw me a bath so I can relax. You will wash my back, towel me dry and bring me my robe. Then, you will massage my feet and hands. And tomorrow, guess who's going to dress me and comb my hair?" The wife replied, "The f......' funeral director would be my first guess."

This Key
Take this key. This key I give you. Hold it close, And never let it go. For this key, You see, Hold many more powers Than you and I can see. This key I give you. This key you are about to take. Holds the secret, Behind what it takes. To open the door To a brand new place. This place you are about to enter, Is a magical one indeed. This key that you hold, Will take you there instantly. Take this key that I give you, And unlock the door. For you will find the magic If you just explore.

My Heart
Be careful with this heart you touch. For it is a fragile one indeed. It can easily be broken, But does not easily mend. For I give you my heart, Out of trust. And I trust you. That you will not break it. For if you touch this heart, You will see. You will see the power it holds. The power to amaze thee. Now I ask you, To be careful with this heart. This heart is fragile indeed.

I Want You
I want you here with me. I want you here tonight. Why can it not be? Why is this not right? My heart is burning, My body is yearning. Just to feel your touch. I want you so much. I want to lay next to you, And be with you so. I want the two Of us to glow. Into the night. With the starts in the sky. I will feel delight, And won’t want to cry. When this day comes. I will be in such gleam. To finally be With the man of my dreams!

I Want
I want your arms wrapped around my body I want to feel the warmth of you next to me Your fingers touching and caressing me I want your lips pressed against mine And that look in your eyes I want to hear your sweet voice Whispering in my ears Telling me how you want me I think about you all the time I can’t get you out of my mind You are with me in my thoughts You are with me in my dreams I want you with me now I want to be close to you I want you to be closer to me I want YOU!

Bethany
Well since the very first time I saw this girl, I knew i was in love. Tingles shot down my back. My stomach did that knot thing and I just knew we were destioned to be together. Then life slapped me in the face. She was my friends girlfriend who i was supposed to meet, not a room mate like i soooo deeply hoped. I felt sick. I felt like crying. I felt like shouting to GOD or whoever was in control of my fucked up existance. I went home called my girlfriend and tried to put it out of my mind. I blew my friend off for weeks. I just Knew I couldn't stand seeing the one woman i felt such a deep Soulful connection to so far out of reach. I tryed to tell myself "you dont even know her." "She won't like you" "you have a good girlfriend don't fuck that up" but of course it didn't work. My friend invited me over tryin to convince me to let him tattoo me. I broke down and we Hung out and i saw her. I had been having a shitty day. Worked sucked, my girlfriend offered no real attention, and i w

Away
You make my heart race, You make my heart soar. I can’t wait to see you walk through that door. I want to touch you, I want to feel you. I want you sitting right next to me. I dream of the day, When you will say… I want to be with you, I want to stay. Take me in your arms, And take me away. Take me to a place Far, far away. You make my heart race, You make my heart soar. Walk through my door.

"new Life"
I've been sitting around this life for years, Not enough laughs and too many tears. Trying to figure out where it all went, These wasted years that I have spent. Searching for something to go beyond, Life's a stone skipping across a pond. At the last skip, it hits with a splash, Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash. Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart, Poking and prodding an underused heart. This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul, Living this life has taken it's toll. In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn, Tumbling down all tattered and worn. Revealing new life, a child within, Born free of hate, of suffering and sin. Now my eyes see what has never been told, Striving forth happy, confident and bold. Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly, Into this new life my spirit will send me. Living and laughing, loving it all, I stood myself up and answered the call. The darkness has gone, replaced by the light, I gave up the darkness wit

Info!
It has been scientifically proven that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli (E. coli) bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine (or rum, whiskey, beer or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting. WATER = Poop WINE = HEALTH Ergo: It is better to drink booze and talk stupid than to drink water and be full of crap. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information; I am doing it as a public service.

The House Poem
The House Poem My home! How I do love you and, loving so, in knowledge seek to name and place each room. My kitchen is the east, the heart, first of every morning cold, and first to be warm, to give true nourishment and repair all harm. The south is my treasure-trove, my mind, the room of greatest changing shape where everything is stored from which I make all hidden things my own. The west room—the living warmth that holds the companionable society of my youth and age, that has sheltered friends and given host to multitudes. This room the west, is the spirit of the place. Now to the north. Do you fear it cold? Do not—for this room knows the stars and all their meanings, is thoughtful before sun first marks day upon the door. This is the desk that cupboards the histories, and here the bed that proves the promise holds. Here is the secret place we begin our lives in grace, and here in loving embrace we shall end, and truly, in all good time, begin aga

Yet Another...
Another of my favorite songs ever: When The Crowds Are Gone- Savatage I don't know where the years have gone Memories can only last so long Like faded photographs, forgotten songs And the things I never knew When the skin is thin, the heart shows through Please believe me what I tell you is true Where's the lights, turn 'em on again One more night to believe and then Another note for my requiem A memory to carry on The story's over when the crowds have gone All my friends have been crucified Made life a long suicide true Guess we never figured out the rules But I'm still alive, my fingers feel Gonna play on till the final reel's through And read the credits from a different view Where's the lights, turn 'em on again One more night to believe and then Another note for my requiem A memory to carry on The story's over when the crowds have gone When the crowds are gone When the crowds are gone And I'm all alone Playing the saddest song Now that the

Geography Of A Woman :
GEOGRAPHY OF A WOMAN : Between 18 and 20 a woman is like Africa , half discovered, half wild, naturally beautiful with fertile deltas . Between 21 and 30 a woman is like America , well-developed and open to trade especially for someone with cash . Between 31 and 35 she is like India , very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty . Between 36 and 40 a woman is like France - gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit. Between 41 and 50 she is like Yugoslavia , lost the war - haunted by past mistakes. Massive reconstruction is now necessary. Between 51 and 60, she is like Russia , very wide and borders are un-patrolled. The frigid climate keeps people away . Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Mongolia , with a glorious and all conquering past but alas, no future. After 70, they become Afghanistan . Almost everyone knows where it is, but no one wants to go there. THE GEOGRAPHY OF A MAN : Betw

Jugement Day!
A 45-year-old woman had a heart attack and was taken to the hospital. While on the operating table she had a near-death experience. Seeing God, she asked "Is my time up?" God said, "No, you have another 43 years, 2 months and 8 days to live." Upon recovery, the woman decided to stay in the hospital and have a face-lift, liposuction, breast implants and a tummy tuck. She even had someone come in and change her hair color and brighten her teeth! Since she had so much more time to live, she figured she might as well make the most of it. After her last operation, she was released from the hospital. While crossing the street on her way home, she was killed by an ambulance. Arriving in front of God, she demanded, "I thought you said I had another 43 years? Why didn't you pull me from out of the path of the ambulance? God replied, "I didn't recognize you."

Under
Empty and alone. I sit here by myself. I stare into the unknown. Trying to find oneself. There is such a void In these eyes. As I try to avoid All of these grey skies. Often I wonder why I have fallen so deeply under. I reach for the sky Only to fall back down.

Coincidence
A chicken farmer went to a local bar, sat next to a woman and ordered a glass of champagne. The woman perks up and says, "How about that? I just ordered a glass of Champagne , too!" "What a coincidence," the farmer says, "This is a special day for me, and I'm celebrating." "This is a special day for me too, I'm also celebrating!" says the woman. "What a coincidence!" says the man. As they clinked glasses the farmer asked, "What are you celebrating?" "My husband and I have been trying to have a child, and today my Gynaecologist told me that I'm pregnant!" "What a coincidence," says the man, "I'm a chicken farmer and for years all my hens were infertile, but today they're finally laying fertilized eggs." "That's great!" says the woman, "How did your chickens become fertile?" "I used a different cock," he replied. The woman smiled and said, "What a coincidence. . .'

Cure For The Sexual Headache
A husband emerged from the bathroom naked and was climbing into bed when his wife complained, as usual, "I have a headache" "Perfect," her husband said. "I was just in the bathroom powdering my penis with aspirin. You can take it orally or as a suppository, it's up to you."

Shopping With Mother!
A little boy goes shopping with his mother and is standing outside of the ladies dressing room waiting for his Mom to come out. While waiting the little boy gets bored and just when his Mom comes walking out, she sees her son sliding his hand up a mannequin's skirt. "Get your hand out of there!" she shouts. "Don't you know that women have teeth down there?" The little boy quickly snatches his hand away and thanks his lucky stars he didn't get bitten. For the next ten years, this little boy grows up believing all women have teeth between their legs. When he's 16, he gets a girlfriend. One night, while her parents are out of town, she invites him over for a little action. After an hour of making out and grinding on the sofa, she says, "You know, you could go a little further if you want." "What do you mean?" he asks. "Well, why don't you put your hand down there?" she says, pointing to her crotch. "Hell no," he cries, "you've got teeth down there!" "Don't be rid

Living The Good Life
Two old ladies were outside their nursing home, having a drink and a smoke, when it started to rain. One of the ladies pulled out a condom, cut off the end, put it over her cigarette, and continued smoking. Lady 1: What's that? Lady 2: A condom. This way my cigarette doesn't get wet.. Lady 1: Where did you get it? Lady 2: You can get them at any drugstore. The next day, Lady 1 hobbles herself into the local drugstore and announces to the pharmacist that she wants a box of condoms. The guy, obviously embarrassed, looks at her kind of strangely (she is, after all, over 80 years of age), but very delicately asks what brand she prefers. "Doesn't matter son, as long as it fits a Camel." The pharmacist fainted.

Wedding Test!
THE WEDDING TEST I was a very happy person. My wonderful girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we decided to get married. There was only one little thing bothering me... It was her beautiful younger sister. My prospective sister-in-law was twenty-two, wore very tight miniskirts, and, generally, was bra-less. She would regularly bend down when she was near me, and I always got more than a nice view. It had to be deliberate because she never did it when she was near anyone else. One day this "little" sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations. She was alone when I arrived, and she whispered to me that she had f eelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome. She told me that she wanted me just once before I got married and committed my life to her sister. Well, I was in total shock, and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm goin

What Do I Have To Do?
You make it hard to breathe It's as if I'm suffocating And when you're next to me I can feel your heartbeat through my skin It makes me sad to think This all could be for nothing I wish there was a way For you to see inside of me I've never felt this way About anyone or anything Tell me What do I have to do to make you happy? What do I have to do to make you understand? What do I have to do to make you want me? And, if I can't make you want me What do I have to do? I know exactly what you're thinking But I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be That was a part of me that never made me proud Right now I think I would try anything Anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope you see what loving you would do to me All I want is one more chance, so tell me... What do I have to do to make you love me?

Really I Tried!
Send This To All Ur Friends, And Me If I Am 1. If U Get 7 Back U R Loved 1-3 u r a bad friend 4-6 u r a ok friend 7-9 u r a good friend 10-& ^ u r a great friend Dear Friend, When u feel like crying....call me. ! . ! . ! I dont promise that I will make u laugh, but I can cry with u. If one day u want to run away dont be afraid to call me. I dont promise to ask u to stop...... but I can run with u. If one day u dont want to listen to anyone..... call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if u call...... and there is no answer..... come fast to see me. Perhaps I need you. ____0000000000______0000000000_____ __000________000__000________000___ _000___________0000___________000__ 000_____________00_____________000_ 000____________________________000_ 000___________THANKS__________000_ _000____________FOR___________000__ __000__________BEING_________000___ ___000__________MY_________000____ _____000______FRIEND____

Alyssa Likes To Play
...want to watch her play on cam? Message her on MSN (alyssa_alex@hotmail.com) Yahoo (babyphat_xxx_vegas) or AIM (alyssaalex69) PLEASE only message if you intend on purchasing some playtime Prices start at $50 / 15 minutes and you must have a pay pal account So lets have some fun!

I Want To Be
I want to be exstatically, unconditionally, unforgettably,accidentally,anxiuosly, awkwardly,wildly,passionately,unexpectedly,truthfully,foolishly,tenderly,surprisingly,in love. I want my last thought before i sleep and my first thought when i awke to be of my love. I want to feel a loving hand grab me and hold me close that we become one. I want a love that doesn't have to be said to be known but felt. I want to look into my lovers eyes years down the road and know that he still neds me and wants me as much as he did the first day. I want a man who would be proud to have me on his arm and let the world know that i am his. He wouldn't hesitate to kiss me just because he felt the need to. I want a love that would hold me when i was scared, comfort me when i was sad and laugh at me when i said something stupid. and totally of track. What do you think? To much to ask for?

Wtf
i am so getting sick of Ct not letting me rate thins on happy hour whats the point of all those people spending 100 buks if they cant get what is worth it t them? i also dont like being blocked for 10 mmintes for rating how are we supposed to get our points if we cant rate NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!

The Kinky Principal
Principal Sternn is sort of an older guy. I'd probably place him in his early 50's. He stands about 5'11" and has super dark brown hair, it almost looks black. He tries to cover his bald spot by slicking it back. He has a little extra baggage, but appropriate for a man his age. Principal Sternn use to be the Head Master for another boarding school in California. I've been told that he can be pretty brutal at times. In Principal Sternn's office, Mr. Davis very descriptively told him what he had witnessed. Principal Stern told Mr. Davis to leave and then proceeded to tell us that we can't do that on the confines of the campus. He then asked me to go and wait out in the hall while he spoke with Melanie. I could hear him tell her that if she wanted to lact like a slut at this school then should should be treated like one. Then I heard him tell her to pull her panties down and bend over the desk. Next I heard a "whack" followed by a loud moan. This continued for about 10 minut

Surprise, Surprise!
I'm flattered and pleased! I'm so much fun to party with, apparently, Kayla, one of last weeks party group, has decided we are going out again this weekend!! Oh, happy day, lol! I will try to be a bit more moderate this time, lmao!! I'm sure Sarah and Kayla will take good care of me!

Tired
Tired of being told I love you when you don't mean it Tired of being ignored by you whenever you feel like it Tired of being the slave in this life Tired of being constrained by your hype Tired of you in general Tired of my heart feeling Life is tiring to those who give up Are you the one who gives in? Or are you the one who tries again?

I Will Be Away For A While....
Last night my mom past away in her sleep. No one is for sure how and why. We are having an autopsy performed to help understand the reason she is leaving us so soon. For this reason, I will not be on here as much for a little while. It is time to visit with my family, arrange dates, and mostly for me... to cope with all of this. I want to thank everyone who is my friend on Cherry Tap and appreciate your kindness. To my close friends ~ thank you for being there for me and being someone I can talk to. :) (XOXOXO Rose and Sam) To Brian ~ You have no idea how much you mean to me. Thank you for letting me release my emotions so early this morning. I will keep in close touch of what is happening. I love you with all my heart baby. Thank you everyone and I will see you guys soon. Lots of love from me and my family, XOXOXOXOXOXOXO ~Kirsten

Why????
Why does it feel like no matter what I say it seems to me to get turned around? Why do my faults have to come to the surface? I know what they are I don't need them thrown in my face. I know that I spend to much time on the computer and I know that I don't spend enough time with my son, but I don't need to be reminded every time I turn around. I am crying inside cause I know what I need to do and I don't know how to do it. I am screaming inside cause I want so much more in life. I don't understand why things have to be the why they are? I don't understand why I am the way I am. Maybe there are things in my past that I let control me and I don't want to admit it. I want to be loved, not feel like I am being controled, but maybe that is the way it is suppose to be. I don't know and maybe I will never know. Maybe I am to be alone for the rest of my life, because maybe that is how long it will take for me to find myself. Maybe me being alone isn't such a bad thing in the end. I really don'

What Do You Do
What do you do when everyday is just another heart break, so many bruises have been left. I don't know how much more my heart can take. There isn't a lot left to give. What do you do when everything that was so close has gone away. When thats all that kept you together. When we don't have anything left to say. Its a sad story and its mine. What do you do when you're hurt, when he ignores your pleas, when he treats you like dirt. When your mind can't take anymore abuse. What do you do when all tries fail, and when he shows he doesn't care. When he continues to tell another tall tail. How is this fair to me. What do you do when you know your dieing inside, because of what he says. Because you know he lied, what is left to get me through the night. What do you do when you have to make choice to live or die? When you know if you stay you have nothing. When you know if you stay all you will do is cry. Because he isn't in love with you anymore. What do I do when i have to choose to sta

The Perfect Storm
The Perfect Storm Tear drops fall like rain, thunder is the sound of pain. Anger floods through lighting comes too. The tears fall to the stone cold ground, a storm is coming round. Wind blurs my view, my terror breaks through. Trees are ripped from their roots, a brown owl hoots. Heart ache fills my being, smiles are all you're seeing. You never understand, the noise in my head from the band. This is the perfect storm, this is all in my form. Tear drops fall like rain, your carelessness drives me insane. Tears silently fall down my cheeks, these few kind words I speak. As I lay here to die, I hope you don't cry. Because then you will cause a storm that will do more harm then good, just remember to do everything you should.

Mothers Day Contest
Mother’s Day Contest Starting April 12th at 6pm Pacific Time And ending at 6pm May 13th Mothers Day! GRAND PRIZE 30 DAY BLAST 2nd place a 7 day blast 3rd place a 3 day blast 4th place a 1 day blast

Gods Teardrops
When I was a young child I wondered why it rained I use to ask my mommy if god was feeling pain she didn't have an answer just smiled at my words so everytime it rained I wondered if god was feeling hurt I wondered if it was tears, from seeing his children commit such sin I thought about it each time the clouds started rolling in I would look out my window and see the drops fall to the floor than I would look at the sky and ask god to not cry no more And still till this day, when the clouds begin rolling in I pray to our lord and ask for forgiveness for my sins So maybe that is why on rainy days I feel so blue I sit at my bed and god I cry with you

7 Places
In the annals of Heaven, the plans were prearranged, that man would fall short, and a price would be paid. The covenant was laid out, and the prophecies foretold, that a perfect lamb would come forth, from out of David's fold. The first shedding of this lamb's blood happened on eighth day, with the ritual of circumcision, in keeping with the promise Abraham made. He grew to be a carpenter, and learned the promises of The Word, coming to the realization, He was the King foretold. In the Garden of Gethsemane, His blood landed on the ground, to break the curse of Adam of toil by the sweat of our brow. He prayed that God would take the cup, of bitterness He had, to not withstand the whipping post, or agony from roman soldiers hands. the third place was on the whipping post, as they ripped the flesh from bone. The torture of which none of us, will ever truly know. The stripes from bones and metal He withstood, freed us from all disease, were you aware that al

.quick.bitch.
stupidity annoys me. sure cherry might be a pro-active sexual site...but that doesnt entail forgetting how to read. or how to speak to people like they're human beings instead of pieces of meat. apparently conversation is to much to ask for eh? lemme tell ya...'hey baby you've got some nice boobs' is really not the way to intrigue...well anyone i know. sure maybe if you're a brainless twit that comment might elicit a giggle. if you're a brainless twit i apoligize...well at the very least im sorry you're a brainless twit. *sigh* oh the humanity. wherefore art thou? *shakes head* *wanders away*

Distant Memory
You're just a distant memory Thats barely a part of me You're just a distant memory That I no longer see You're just a distant memory In my past you'll stay You're just a distant memory so far away You're just a distant memory I don't want to remember You're just a distant memory in the month of December You're just a distant memory of a relationship gone wrong You're just a distant memory but I will never forget our song You're just a distant memory you know this was all your fault You're just a distant memory my heart still in your vault You're just a distant memory But forever it will stay You're just a distant memory I wish so badly it would go away.

The Costume Closet
So, I followed her back behind the stage in the auditorium to a small room. This was the costume room where all the old costumes and props were stored. In here I don't think a soul would've been able to hear us. We started kissing and fondling each other. Soon our shirts were unbuttoned and our breasts were barely covered by our bras. While we were kissing and feeling each other up, Mr. Davis must have crept in quietly and shut the door. I started rubbing on her pussy when I heard an unfamiliar sound. I looked up and around. I saw no one. I kept playing with her pussy. Then I heard her moan out loudly. She was cumming with the thunder. She had me sit on a big wooden box. She lifted my skirt and pulled out a life size, jelly dildo. She turned on and fucked my pussy with it. She thrust it into my wet hot pussy over and over again. Some times she'd do it real slow and teasingly. Other times, when she wanted to hear me cum, she do it to me real hard and fast! Then out of t

Crimson River
A crimson river flows from her wrist, she feels no pain, she becomes one with her past. her body starts to become numb, the crimson river starts to cover the bathroom floor. she starts to fade away into a deep slumber never to be woken. her heart beat starts to fade away slowly leaving nothing but a memory she eyes are filled with tears just waiting to fall with sadness. can no one hear her silent screams? her painful past? or is it just a nightmare? she sings a song of farewell in the arms of an angel she stays in her world of make believe now. the crimson river stops as does the silent heart beat.

There's A Fungus Among Us!!!
The biopsy results came in, Eliath has been diagnosed with a fungal infection - which has been associated with most people growing up in the Mid-West (which he did). They say that he might have had this fungus for years and could have gone on with this fungus without knowing about it and never suffered adversely for it - if his body had not already been weakened by the infection from the dental work. With his body already in a weakened state the fungus was able to take a stronger root and grow unchecked - causing his current condition. Untreated, this could have become fatal. Treatment will be anti-fungal medication, on a level that they will be forced to watch the rest of his body for adverse effects - the worst of which could be kidney failure and death. However, there is a chance that they may be able to send him home (though I would imagine no time soon) with his P.I.C.C. line and a nurse, along with plenty of IV fluids and medications. Unfortunately, the treatment time fram

Falling From You
Falling From You I feel so empty, Yet it hurts so bad, The days are lonely, Nights so sad. My cries are echoing, Into the silent night, I feel really lost, And not all right. My heart is shattered, World crumbling down around me, Inside I'm broken, Not who I used to be. My body is aching, And I can't sleep, I'm barely hanging, And sometimes I can't weep. I'm searching for answers, That I'll never find, I can't let go of, What I need to leave behind. I'm singing my praises, Whispering somebody's name, I'm looking around me, And it's not the same. And everything I'm wishing, Is lost in a secluded dream, And nobody has stopped to notice, It's not how it may seem. Too afraid to look inside, Right into my soul, Don't want to find the truth, That I lie un whole. Ad I'm barely breathing, Holding back for the day, That I can actually stop, To say that I'm OK. And slowly looking deeper, To make sure it's true, Because right now, I feel

Eternal Darkness
Who do you turn to when no one cares? Why try to run? There's no place to hide. Why bother to cry? No one sees your tears Why try to shout? No one will hear. But your heart will soon grow cold, and pain will no longer hurt. Anger will consume your thoughts. Any possibility of love will be lost. Trapped in your own prison, is where you will stay. You will live in eternal darkness, For you're far to cold these days.

Real?
Music drowns out the voices, Making them fade into the deep, Never to be heard again. But I am the one sinking, Into the crimson sea around me. There's no music playing, But the voices are still fading. Reality becomes a distant dream, Reminding me that I can escape. But maybe I dont want to escape? Maybe I dont want to feel nothing? Maybe I just want to feel real...

Red Fridays
RED FRIDAY WILL YOU GIVE THIS TO MY DADDY? As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support "Red Fridays." Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work

Great News Article
A British newspaper salutes Canada. This is a good read. It is funny how it took someone in England to put it into words. Sunday Telegraph Article: Salute to a Brave and Modest Nation - Kevin Myers, The Sunday Telegraph LONDON - Until the deaths of Canadian soldiers killed in Afghanistan , probably almost no one outside their home country had been aware that Canadian troops are deployed in the region. And as always Canada will bury its dead, just as the rest of the world, as always will forget its sacrifice, just as it always forgets nearly everything Canada ever does. It seems that Canada 's historic mission is to come to the selfless aid both of its friends and of complete strangers, and then, once the crisis is over, to be well and truly ignored. Canada is the perpetual wallflower that stands on the edge of the hall, waiting for someone to come and ask her for a dance. A fire breaks out, she risks life and limb to rescue her

Broken Soul
My heart and soul have fallen apart, Unable to take the broken pieces of my soul that fell apart, I drown in tears, In a pool of confusion and sadness, Tears full of memories, Bad and good, Wishing to build up strength, To grasp the remainder of my soul, Before they fade, Fade away like the years, The years that come from months, The months that come from days, Still I lay, Hopelessly waiting for something, That something will lend an invisible hand, A hand to carry, A hand to lift, But still my soul drifts away, For the wishing of something Ends up nothing, Still I lay, Tasting the water and salt of my memories, There it goes The very last part of my soul, Still here I lay hopeless, breathless, and lifeless

Standing In The Rain
Ever thought of standing in the rain as a good pasttime? I guess seeing that I don't ever do it, I wouldn't know if it is or not. But I have always wanted to go outside and just sit in the rain while it pours over me. Kind of like a cleansing feeling. I see people on tv getting their shirts all soaked and hair plastered to their faces, but they seem so sublimely happy when they stand under the falling rain. I wish it were that easy. Guess I won't ever find out unless I try it huh? So anyone ever tried it and found it to be gratifying? Or any other feeling?

An Ode To My Past.
And to the person in my past that it applies to... LIMP BIZKIT LYRICS "Re-Arranged" Just think about it Lately I've been skeptical Silent when I would used to speak Distant from all around me who witness me fail and become weak Life is overwhelming Heavy is the head that wears the crown id love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down [Pre chorus] but you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain because you know it all and I guess things will never change but you might need my hand when falling in your hole Your disposition ill remember when im letting go of... [chorus] you and me we're through and rearranged It seems that your not satisfied there's too much on your mind So you leave and I cant believe all the bullshit that I find Life is overwhelming Heavy is the head that wears the crown I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down [pre chorus] [chorus] .. you're no good for

This Says It All - Girlfriends
THIS SAYS IT ALL: Time passes. Life happens. Distance separates. Children grow up. Jobs come and go. Love waxes and wanes. Men don't do what they're supposed to do. Hearts break. Parents die. Colleagues forget favors. Careers end. BUT - Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you, or come in and carry you out. Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, mothers, grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins and extended family all bless our life. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no ide

Thursday 4/12/07
Well, my cousin should be in town by now I think, and tomorrow evening I'm going out to dinner with her my aunt and my mom and looking forward to getting to see her and having a girls evening out at Olive Garden. Yummy, lol I love that restaurant. Not sure how long she'll be in, so hopefully I'll get to see her again before she leaves as well. Today was yet another boring day for me lol, I listened to Crush FM and chatted in their room. That station and room are addicting lol. Well, I think this is all that I'll write for now. Have a great night everyone.

My Friends, Please Read!
Hey guys, just wanted to tell you all I won't be around for several days. My computer is being really really evil and I have to get it fixed. I'm bumming my sis' laptop right now. If you rate my pics or something and want me to do yours, message me and I'll do it when I get back, On a fun note, my cousin Vivian is visiting from Cleveland! I'm taking off with her tomorrow morning to Mexico for a few days. After that I'm gonna drag her around to class with me and stuff =) I'll stop in when I can. Love you all!!

Philippians 4:13
Philippians 4:13 --- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.

Wednesday 4/11/07
Didn't do a whole lot today.Just the usual chatting and listening to CrushFM. The weather here has been wet and nasty, so I hope that it clears up this weekend so that I can spend some time with my cousin while she's in. It was a boring day today, so not much for me to write about so I guess this is all that I will put for now. Have a great day all.

Subject Naughty Adult Survey
Subject Naughty Adult Survey Be honest. If you aren't honest then what is the point? Fill it out and re-post as a bulletin. Have fun. 1) Ever been to a strip club ? Yep 2) Ever been to a bar? more like, how often! 3) Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club? Yes, but it really wasn't my fault... Drunk punk! 4) Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere? Yes, that was my plan that night! 5) Kissed someone of the same sex? no 6) Thrown up from drinking too much? Yea, but not in a really long time 7) Had sex in a car? Yes 8) Had sex at the beach? Yes, the sand sucks! 9) Had sex in a movie theater? oral 10) Had sex in a bathroom.? helloooo... shower sex! 11) Had sex at work? Yes, 12) Have you ever been in an "adult" store? Yes 13) Bought something from an adult store? Yes 14) Have you spent over $100.00 in one visit to the adult store? Not with my money, but yes! 15) Ever had sex with a person of the same sex? No 16) Is there anyone on your friends list

Poem 26
I'm sorry for causing that pain in your heart. I'm sorry for causing us to be apart. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. Go back and prevent that very last crime. I reminice about the times of living with you. All the little things you knew just when to do. The moments we had were often out of sight. Another chance is all ask A chance to tell you That when we broke up Deep inside, I didn't want to You're the only one Who has made me happy You're the only one Who makes me feel so alive I know you might not care But the love I have for you It's real More real than anything I've tried to move on No not with another Just life in General But I can't just yet Something in my heart says That things dont have to be this way I don't just love you as my lover I also love you as my friend Before all this happened we could talk about anything Now we can talk about nothing This wall of silence between us Kills me everyda

Ozzfest Is Free This Year!!!! Hell Yeah!!!
OZZFEST ANNOUNCES HOW FANS CAN OBTAIN THEIR FREE TICKETS TO THIS SUMMER’S GROUND-BREAKING EXTRAVAGANZA You’ve heard about how OZZFEST is boldly redefining the concert industry this year by making all the tickets to the summer’s premiere touring concert festival entirely free for fans. Well, Ozzfest fans have a number of ways to score a pair of tickets to “FreeFest”--which will rock mightily with festival’s namesake OZZY OSBOURNE and Lamb of God, Hatebreed, Lordi, Behemoth, Mondo Generator, Nile, Ankla, Circus Diablo, The Showdown, 3 Inches of Blood, Daath, Chthonic and In This Moment. Ticket codes will be distributed through sponsor websites beginning May 12. Details on these programs are available on ozzfest.com, livenation.com, monsterenergy.com, jagermusic.com and fye.com. In the meantime, various sponsors will have offline initiatives, details of which will also be available via their respective websites. These codes can be redeemed for tickets beginning June 12--exac

Poem 25
The day I saw you, My heart was complete, You taught me how to be strong, You helped me back up on my staggering two feet. You told me you loved me, That meant alot, Though were going separate ways, The love I had for you is permanent, In my heart is where it stays. Now, Alone I must journey on, Your love and memories, Within my heart they'll always live on. Our feelings for each other were devoted Like a beautiful rose, to me you were a MUST. In my eye's, you were like the eternal skies,Now I am left with only saddness and endless cries.

Update....
Things are going pretty good. I have been working for over a month now, got a car that i know will run, lossing weight, taning wow... alot of things hey. I am now looking for a second job to keep all my bills up an running good lol... Well Im at work using there computer i better get going here hehe... Take care.. Luv yaz

Broken Promises To A Loving Heart
You came into my life like Cupids Arrow shot straight into my heart. The Temptation was kindled the Flame runnin' hot inside. You gave special meaning to my new found Freedom. No matter what I say or what I do My promise to you was broken. Through all of our tender moments a Bond was made to grow. The Encouragin' words that flowed between our lips are quiet now The dreams will have to be hidden in our thoughts. The memories of what I wanted to do will stay forever in my heart and soul. The Sadness that comes from my Broken Promise envades my mind. There are no words to describe how I feel The Pain, The Need, The Desire I feel won't go away. When I should be Reachin' for your Hand N' Smilin" up to You. I let you Down, Takin' N' Givin' so much Happiness the Emptiness fled in a hurry like time. Just sittin' here Fightin' back the tears. So Sad, So Alone. My Broken Promise to you keeps enterin' my thoughts. I really need you back close to my Heart again.

Feeling Great!
For those that haven't talked to me in a while, I've got great news. I finally found the motivation to get things back on track. Last June I slowly let my life fall apart when my mother was diagnosed with cancer. As a result of that I let myself get out of shape and I gained back the 50 pounds I had lost years ago plus some extra. I am proud to say that on February 26th (6 weeks ago) I started eating right again and as of today I was down 20 pounds, only 50 more to go. :) I was able to put on a pair of jeans I bought last August but never fit. I've been going strong and have felt no real desire to cheat. My goal has been 1600-1800 calories per day and 30 carbs and I consistantly stay on target every day. Tonight I did my first real workout in over a year. I'm exhausted but it feels great. I bought a balance ball and 2 pound weights for sculpting and worked out in the basement. Superman stretches, stomach crunches with the weights, push ups, bicep pushes, leg lifts, s

My Fears Of Being Hurt Again
what was I so afraid of? today as you read this you'll find out Just what I was so afraid of Beacuse I was afraid of getting hurt I was afraid I would'nt be everything you wanted in a woman. And I can't deny the fact that Your still in my heart as I think of you day and night It Brings tears to my eyes and they make me realize That you're not like any other guy And although I hurt you a lot it hurts me even more And broke my heart into a million pieces That I made me see the other side of you, The one I never wanted to know, one who Was cold hearted and angry at the world still I've never stop caring or loving you I have never shed this many tears for any one The way I shed them for you I hope that someday you can forgive me Im asking you to take my hand and let me be what you know I can be Someone who Deeply Cares for you

When I Least Expected
I met you when I least expected to. I was at my lowest point. You were like a shooting star... You brought light where there was only darkness, hope where there was despair, love where there was none and passion where there was numbness. You made everything new and bright and shiny. Every day was special... an adventure. Your kisses left me breathless. Your arms around me left me wanting for nothing. I never felt so loved or so safe. And then, as quickly as you appeared, you were gone. I ran scared I thought we were forever... I guess I was wrong. Will You ever Forgive me I miss you baby.

Only Time Will Tell
Looking back on our time together still brings me to tears. I withdraw into those moments we had which were so consumed with passion, and so full of promise. If I could go back and re-live each of those precious moments with you I would certainly do it. I know my feelings for you were, and still are, feelings of love unlike anything I have ever known. My fear is that I'll never again feel that racing heart, those butterflies in my stomach, and the fireworks that always erupted when we made love. Only time holds the circumstances that will either confirm, or dash my fears. I loved you and I have no regrets about that. You are a wonderful man. And you were always very honest with me. Never once did you lead me on, or allow me to believe something that wasn't true. the memories I have for you are treasures that I will NEVER let go. You really are the greatest love I ever had.

Pedophiles Need To Be Shot
Parents and children's advocates please read and repost! Recently, a very serious problem has been brought to the attention of several members of cafemom. It is a very heinous website called www.puellula.com . This website is a safe haven for pedophiles. The heading on their main page reads, "A Celebration of the Splendor of Little Girls". This website includes links to pictures, or "art" as they call it, of little girls, confessional blogs, a directory of resources for pedophiles (for "both boylovers and girl lovers, as well as anybody else looking for information about pedophilia and consensual child love"), as well as many other links. This site has a manifesto, stating demands to the government to legalize pedophilia. The most disturbing, though, is a link to a page title Sugar and Spice that is specifically for little girls who have "fallen in love" with a pedophile. This site is set up to draw in little girls. It looks like any other fun little girly page. It tells girls t

Poem 23
It's been a long time since we've spoken or even seen each other. When we were together, it felt so right. I miss the way you would hold me so tight. I wish you could just see how much you mean to me. I know it's my fault but I wish I could take it back. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. You're always on my mind. The only time I see you is in my dreams. You were the best thing that ever happened to me. I pray that one day we will meet again and things will be like they use too. It was when I was with you when I felt special and felt the love that words can't describe. I will always love you and you will have a special place in my heart.

Afraid To Fall In Love
I was afraid to fall for a man after all of the times that I had been loved and left before. I was afraid of being left, used, cheated on , but you showed me what love really is. You to have been loved and left before, and I know that you were as scared as I was. Because You told me Never to say the L word or I had to go! But now our lives seem to be empty without the other. Or at least Mine does, I can only speak for myself. I have done some things that hurt you, and I am sorry....I realize how much you loved me. But sometimes we realize things to late My love for you continues It will never fade. You were my one true love, I love you with all of my heart and soul. You were my everything. I love you.