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Bad Ivy... (short Story)
Bad Ivy… Fall 2006 I was arrested, outside my old apartment building on 3rd St. The ride to the local police station was a haze, as I was trapped inside my thoughts. What had I done? Why was I in trouble? I didn’t even notice when we stopped. I just remember a tall, thin man in a dark uniform pulling me out of the car by my arm. He smelled of cigarettes and very cheap whiskey; the mixture made me sick. I was led straight to an interrogation room with sickly gray walls, one metal table and two uncomfortable chairs. I was instructed to sit opposite a large mirror that took up almost an entire wall. I noticed right away my black eye and swollen cheek. My lip was cut, too. How the hell did that happen? I reached up to touch the bruise on my face, seeing the blood on my hands. I looked down at them, not even recognizing them. My hands were cut and red, my knuckles swollen and bruised. Some of the blood was dried, but some was still fresh. A fat cop caught my attent

A Through Z
t h e l e t t e r A Are you available?: - No Do you like apples?: - Sure What annoys you?: - Stupid people t h e l e t t e r B Do you know anyone named Billy?: - Yes When is your birthday?: - November 12th t h e l e t t e r C What's your favorite candy?: - Skittles Who's your crush?: - Can't tell you :) When was the last time you cried?: - Uhm, actually.. it's been a while. t h e l e t t e r D Do you daydream?: - Sure What's your favorite kind of dog?: - I dont have one really.. as long as he's cute. What day of the week is it?: - Friday t h e l e t t e r E How do you like your eggs?: - Over easy or scrambled. Have you ever been in the emergency room?: - Yep What's the easiest thing ever to do?: - Eat? t h e l e t t e r F Can you do a flip?: - Can you reach the sky? Do you use fly swatters?: - Nope, I usually wait for whatever flying insect it is that is annoying me.. to land and then I spray it to death

Result Of Quiz-which Kind Of Girlfriend Are You?
You scored as Perfect Girlfriend. You're the perfect girlfriend. You're the kind of girl that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy places (though that would be nice)Just hanging out with him is enough to make you happyPerfect Girlfriend75%Sensitive Girlfriend50%Motherly Girlfriend44%Bad Girlfriend38%Not interested Girlfriend19%Which Kind of Girlfriend are You?created with QuizFarm.com

Blinkers !!
''There's nothing but bad news in the newspapers to make us live in a constant state of paranoia. That's what they want because it keeps people in fear.'' ''We were brought up to believe that science and engineering were going to make the world a better place. Now we've got pollution and everything and it seems we've come to a halt. But I think we've got to retain some faith in believing tomorrow will be better than today.'' ''If I had five million dollers I'd start a radio station because something needs to be done. It would be nice to turn on the radio and hear something that didn't make you feel like smashing up the kitchen and strangling the cat.'' ''I've got no doubt the fourth dimension exists. But is it just like the world we're trying to escape from? I need to know if you're allowed to smoke in there...''

An Uncomfortable Survey
An Uncomfortable Survey 1. Longest relationship: 4 1/2 years 2. Shortest relationship: 8 months 3. How many people have you broken up with? 3 4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 9 5. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? yes 6. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? yes 7. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? yes 8. Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?: hell yes 9. Are you happy being single or in relationships? sometimes both 10. Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend? HELL NO 11. Have you ever been cheated on? HELL YES 12. What is the most important PART of being in a relationship? Being honest and spending time with the one you love 13. What is the worst part of being in a relationship? them wanting to spend more time with their friend than you 14. Worst relationship? last one 15. Have you ever had your heart broken? Why HELL YES 16. Do you ta

Freedom Without Responsibility?
A well-aimed bullet would have stopped Cho. But gun-free zones are not the only areas in need of reclamation. The concept of the individual as a responsible, self-determining agent is the foundation of a free society. Liberty requires that psychiatric mumbo-jumbo not be allowed to oust morality. - Ilana Mercer World Net Daily published this article today: Evil, not ill - By Ilana Mercer, about the shooter in the Virginia Tech killings. The last paragraph, I thought, was worth quoting and commenting on, especially the middle sentence:"The concept of the individual as a responsible, self-determing agent is the foundatioin of a free society." We seem to have forgotten this for the most part in today's society. People today wish to make the government responsible for them. They look to the government to protect them from crime and fraud, they want the government to insure them against unemployment and poverty, and they want the government to provide medical care. There was a time when

* Co-creation * Divine Intention * Divine Right Order * Source * Yunasai * Source Seed *
********************************************************************************************* Co-Creation ********************************************************************************************* When the Intension of consciousness within he manifestation is aligned with the Original Divine Intention of our Source, then energy/consciousness flows freely both ways and it is appropriate to speak of Co-Creation. Through Co-Creation both the non-manifest and the manifest aspects of consciousness work harmoniously to create realities. (Introduction to the Monad - Class Module) When we use our gift of Free Will to direct our energies in a manner congruent with the Divine Right Order of Universal Unified Field Physics (which implies co-creative, non competitive co-evolution for all), the scalar-wave design of our personal Scalar Shields remains organized upon the intrinsic design of universal and personal Primal Order. (The Kathara Bio-Spiritual Healing

Results Of Quiz :: Are U In Love???????
You scored as Hell Yeah! . You are totally & completely in love! You'd do almost anything to be with this person, because for you, the sun rises and sets with them.Hell Yea100%Sounds More Like Lust67%Hell No25%Are u in love???????created with QuizFarm.com

Love Grows
with me being military and all i have seen love grow faster when you can't see ro be with the ones that you love cause it will make you realize how much you truely love and miss them and then when the time comes for the two fo you to meet up it will make it that much better

Getting To Know Someone
Getting to know survey 1. Birthday: March 3rd, 1969 2. Birthplace: Alabaster, Alabama 3. Current Location: Birmingham, Alabama 4. Eye Color: Blue 5. Hair Color: Red 6. Height: 5\'5\" 7. Right Handed or Left Handed: right 8. Your Heritage: Irish 9. The Shoes You Wore Today: flops 10. Your Weakness: life 11. Your Fears: life 12. Your Perfect Pizza: ham,bacon and mushrooms 13. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: starting my life over 14. Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol 15. Thoughts First Waking Up: DAMN

Just Another Blog....
I'm just blogging because I have some time and can't sleep.... Well nothing new really. I'm just looking up Marc Anthony songs on youtube. ^_^ Well Not much else to say really. Guess I will go....

Another Poem
This was another poem from my archive, from back before my fella and I were together...the good thign is, he still makes me feel this way with every touch of his hands... Making love with you..... is like music for my soul.... the way you make me yours and have all of the control. Making love with you... is like fireworks in my brain.... the way my body responds to your touch and sets my skin ablaze..... Making love with you.... it is like opening the dam to a rushing river the way you make me come alive. Making love with you... is like the ocean washing over me, flooding my body so deep and so strong with a passion as undying as the tides. Making love with you... is beyond anything I have ever known... and everytime we make love... it feels so right....like I am home.

New Info On The Contest!!!
Okay, so I got a little bit more info on the contest. As you know, the next round is going to be at the Serra Bowl on May 13th. There will be 12 Singers competing that night and 2 will move on to the next round which will be on May 19th at the Serra Bowl. There will be 22 people competing there from other bowling alleys and 11 will move on to the next round. I believe those 11 will then be competing in Vegas and the Winner will Open for Leann Rimes and receive $5,000 dollars and a recording contract. John, the KJ, will be getting more info for me. If anything is wrong I will repost this. Here's some more Info: Contestants from all over California, Nevada, and Utah will come to Serra Bowl in Daly City on May 19th at 4:00pm for the regional finals of the 3rd International Bowling Karaoke Superstar Contest. Thousands will compete throughout the nation in Bowling Centers for their time in the spotlight and a chance to win a trip for two (2) to Las Vegas on June 25th, for

Sinch-something More
The worst is yet to come, so vulnerable and dumb say the words and I'll dissolve Tell me how long should this last I've been forgetting how to act and These memories will burn like gasoline And I believe there's something more cause this isn't what I've been looking for If I blink my eyes I'm afraid I might miss some of it This makes no sense a mirage of an oasis but it kills my time Well try to remember what I sought, I never gave it that much thought Does it really matter at all, cause there really is no time for opening up my eyes Cause you know that I have seen it all before And I believe there's something more cause this isn't what I've been looking for If I blink my eyes I'm afraid I might miss some of it This makes no sense a mirage of an oasis but it kills my time Well I wish I could always feel this good, I wish that I could always feel this way, Wish I could always feel this good, wish that I could always know what's out there Cause I believe there's something m

The Greatest Of These
But now abideth faith, hope, love, these three; and the greatest of these is love. - 1 Chorinthians 13:13 Faith, Hope, and Love are some good things He gave us; and the greatest is Love. - Alan Jackson

Child Abuse Prevent/awareness
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Coming Home-
Welp, It's officially Official..I'm a Washingtonian again. Tacoma..What a trip. I remember whistfully when all I knew of this town was the wonderful aroma on muggy days. And of course the crime rate back then. Yep, it's true , not Seattle.... Tacoma. Two weeks now I've been here and I still don't think I know much more than the 1 mile radius of my new flat. But, (I have to admit) sometimes, just sometimes, starting over can truly feel - Free. Okay so, it's a long story from the beginning to the finish off where I am now. Let's just say it's been 10 years coming this giant circle I've wandered in. From one side of the U.S to the other. Coming "home" after 10 very long miles worth of years honestly still feels completely surreal. Like I should be catching a plane back out at any minute. So- this is truly what growing up must feel like. Kind of like when most people have felt when they meet 'That one," or find out 'the first is on the way'. It's like so here we are. We'v

Receiving Singleness As A Gift From God
Receiving Singleness as a Gift from God Nancy Leigh DeMoss We can all remember occasions when we had our heart set on receiving a particular gift, only to be disappointed by the giver's selection. Perhaps he didn't know us well enough to choose something appropriate. Or maybe she just didn't have time to select a more meaningful gift. Thankfully, however, most gifts are not disappointing. Generally, we think of a "gift" as something desirable. We like to know that someone has been thinking about us, and we look forward to receiving gifts that friends have picked out for us. What is the appropriate response when someone gives us a gift? First, we receive the gift; then we thank the giver and proceed to use the gift for its intended purpose. In all the universe, there is no greater Giver than God Himself. He loves to give good gifts to His children! As with human givers, when God gives us a gift, He is pleased when we receive it, thank Him for it, and use it for its in

Closer To My Divorce
this is awesome my divorce is almost final and i am happy even though my ex and I are friends just found out some bad news about his girlfriends and its sad news she has a brain tumor and not sure whats going on she has to be careful even though i hate the bitch i don't wish this on her so i do hope she gets better

Schedual For This Week!
I know some of you guys start worry about me when i'm gone, for ever and ever so here's my schedual for the rest of the week! Tomorrow I'm going to be babysitting at 3 Saturday I will be working the Pistons Game at 3 Sunday I will be working the Tigers game in the morning! So don't worry i'm still alive! Just half way dead!!!

Join Me???
I'm on this site, I've got about $8 so far, I get to cash out at $30. I get $5 for each referral that stays active by reading emails. I like it, it's easy, and would love you all to sign up and at least see if you like it. Thanks, Jen & Zach

Yes Again
Where can I go to hide myself? Who can I go to besides myself? Can I confide in anyone but myself? Or is it just me all by myself? I've spent some time by myself. To try to better understand myself. I had to go and lose myself. Only to truly find myself. I can rely solely on myself. And never have to question myself. I use to carry the burdon myself. No longer will I blame myself.

Can You Guess
Skin of cream and honey poured over an hour-glass figure made for debauchery, long black hair with blunt-cut bangs that framed the sinful innocence of her dark almond-shaped eyes and her sweet, bright smile made her the quintessential pin-up. Her heaving bosom, rarely covered in more than thin sheaths of silk or lace, led to a tiny waist and perfect full hips often confined within the domineering walls of a corset. The patrons of erotic photography desired the endless lines of her milky thighs and the stiletto-created curves of her calves’ to often be decorated with frilly garters and eye-catching fishnets. Photos have displayed her as demure and naïve, much like a virgin on her wedding night, mature and experienced, like a seductress awaiting payment for her services, and more than willing to experiment in lifestyles considered taboo by most. The versatility of her body, face and personality made her an iconic cult phenomenon.

Im Faded!!!!
Wow im like sooo faded riight now i need mandingo like really really baaad i miss ma man!!!=( im like sooo bored so if ur black n ur cute hit me up on yahoo messenger ladyxxxtasy20!!! but chea luv yall muahz!!!!

My Day
my day was ok i went out with freinds got askled to have a 3 some i got pissed this girl kept toching me thy werent hot either.and im not that type of girl anyhow.im well respected in my area..i had my house inspection today evrything went good.i need more freinds in my area im from pottsville i hang there alot all the time si work there to so any one from pottsville hit me up..i like to meet people get to know theme and hang out and chill.

Ice
Very Important to Note: Isn't it true that we all carry our mobile phones with hundreds of names/numbers stored in its memory but yet nobody, other than ourselves, know which of these numbers belong to our near and dear ones? Let us for a moment create a scenario wherein (God forbid); We are involved in an accident or had a heart attack and the people attending us get hold of our mobile phone but don't' know which number to call to inform our family members. Yes, there are hundreds of numbers stored but which one is the contact person in case of an emergency? For this reason, we must have one or more telephone numbers stored under the name ICE (In case of Emergency) in our mobile phones. Read below for more details..... Subject: " ICE " Campaign Recently, the concept of " ICE " is catching up quickly. It is simple, an important method of contact during emergency situations. As cell phones are carried by majority of the population, all you need to do is st

Result Of Quiz :: What Is Your Sexual Style?
You scored as Hot. You are Hot, you scream and are wild, people love doing anything sexual with you.Hot69%Sweet56%Violent56%Wet50%Exciting44%Soft38%Awkward19%Shy6%What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

Result Of Quiz :: How Are You In Bed?
You scored as Sex Goddess. You are masterful at sex. You make your partner's knees weak, put him down for the count for days at a time-- and you know it! You've had some practice, and read some books, but mainly, it's just who you are.Sex God80%A Romantic73%A Slave To BDSM58%Virgin13% How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

What Is A True Friend
What is a true friend,a true friend will stand by you,a true friend when be there when you need them,a true friend will lend a shoulder to cry on,a true friend will be there in a time of need,a true friend will be there in the long run,a true friend will stand the test of time with you,a true friend dont care if your fat,ugly or poor,a true friend will talk to you anytime of day or nite,a true friend will last forever

Result Of Quiz :: What's Your Kinky Turn On?
You scored as Biting. When it comes to being kinky, your biggest turn on is biting. You love the ectasy of teeth sinking into your flesh, and are probably willing to return the favor. Sex just isn't sex without using your teeth.Biting83%Blind Folds75%Chains/Handcuffs50%Whips33%Bondage25%Blood17%

Quote For April 20
Wars are seldom caused by spontaneous hatreds between people, for peoples in general are too ignorant of one another to have grievances and too indifferent to what goes on beyond their borders to plan conquests. They must be urged to the slaughter by politicians who know how to alarm them. -- Henry Mencken Bonus Quote: I love the smell of napalm in the morning. You know, one time we had a hill bombed, for 12 hours. When it was all over, I walked up. We didn't find one of 'em, not one stinkin' dink body. The smell, you know that gasoline smell, the whole hill. Smelled like... victory. Someday this war's gonna end... -- Lieutenant Colonel Bill Kilgore Apocalypse Now This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Chicken Pox, A Birthday And Bad News...
Today and tomorrow are typically a bit rough for me. 11 years ago today, I was home sick with the chicken pox. I did have a healthy case of chicken pox as a 3 year old child, and I have the pictures to prove it. In fact, I had to stay home from going to the Chuckles the Clown show for my brothers birthday. I am still a bit bitter over that. They say that if you've had chicken pox once that you will never get them again. My 6 year old son was exposed to chicken pox at the proverbial birthday party. Two weeks later I wasn't surprised that my 10 month old daughter contracted them, but I didn't expect to get them myself again. It was also the day after my nephew's birthday...my husband and I had legal custody of him. I hadn't bought all of the gifts that I had wanted to because of becoming sick. My husband was supposed to pick up the few remaining items on his way home from work. He had wrecked his work van and we were still waiting for the insurance company to reimburse him, so he was d

Chinese Translation Error Blamed For Slur On Sofa Label
TORONTO, Ontario (AP) -- Doris Moore was shocked when her new couch was delivered to her Toronto home with a label that used a racial slur to describe the dark brown shade of the upholstery. The situation was even more alarming for Moore because it was her 7-year-old daughter who pointed out "nigger brown" on the tag. "My daughter saw the label and she knew the color brown, but didn't know what the other word meant. She asked, 'Mommy, what color is that?' I was stunned. I didn't know what to say. I never thought that's how she'd learn of that word," Moore said. The mother complained to the furniture store, which blamed the supplier, who pointed to a computer problem as the source of the derogatory label Kingsoft Corp., a Chinese software company, acknowledged its translation program was at fault and said it was a regrettable error. "I know this is a very bad word," Huang Luoyi, a product manager for the Beijing-based company's translation software, told The Associated Pr

Why Im Fat
ok to answer some questions why im FAT i got few fat people in the family,my 1 dog is over weight,im fat cause i eat to much pizza and donuts,i have trouble losin weight wow after i turned 30 but trying.sometimes its a struggle but,i know someday i wont be fat but hey im me just o answer a few questions hope this helps to ones they ask me about my weight,thanks

Instant Karma Gonna Get You...
so now we have a situation where the sealing boats are trapped in the ice off the East Coast of Canada-thus rendering their brutal and bloodied assault on these individuals um, dead in the water-so to speak. sympathy for them? sympathy for the devil? hmmmm-i think not. when one sets out to slaughter hundreds of thousands of individuals for the sheer delight-oh, and a few ducats, in an extremely short period of time, loaded down with all kinds of rationale, all the while playing scramble to see how many you can kill to score the most dollars, the inevitable happens-a spree that doesn't wait to ensure a swift death, or even a death-a horrific crime against both these creatures, and nature since the consequences are of yet unknown as to how the environment and immediate ecosystems will be impacted-a complete and utter absence of any ethics or morals in presupposing that we have the right to engage in such a crime against another species that shares this planet with our species-and so m

The Worst Day Ever
This morning when i woke up. I reached out wanting her. Finding nothing but the morning cold in place of her warm body. I found myself...pressing my eyes closed wanting to pretend that if i streched my arms a bit further, i would find my fingertips gracing her curvacious back. I strech, and strech not wanting to admit to myself that shes no longer there. I strech my arms across that space for miles it seems, hands slowly reaching longer than the shadows of morning in the bed room. And when my hand does touch upon something, its always her pillow. That carrys the light scent of her...what was that fragrance that i found myself missing? The one that i had taken for granted.... Its almost gone now i tell myself as i inhale slowly. In a few days i know that even that will be only a memory. I find myself outside myself, looking at a man in a bed alone, pressing pillows to his nose....with his eyes still clenched shut. I watch myself slowly roll over sighing regrets of things said

Men
FIRST, THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY LAST BLOG...COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PEOPLE!!! Why is it that when you start talking to a guy and maybe there is some chemistry but you don't want to rush in to anything but you start to get close even though you shouldn't. And the whole time you talk to him, he is paranoid about all the other guys that comment on your page, thinkin you are fukkin everyone or going to. (even though you haven't fukked him) He doesn't want anyone to look at your pics or anything. he gets mad!! He wants you to call him all the time and tells you he is going to call at a certain time but doesn't. Then when you call him late at night he has some FEMALE answering his house fone late at night, im talkin 1 or 2 am and you know he doesnt have no sisters livin there. his family is in another state and this girl was not black, so can't try that line. She gives the fone to him and he very nervously HANGS UP THE FONE and turns them OFF..he knows he got busted... PLAYERS, I SW

Love And Sex All Rolled Into One...
I wrote this poem over a year ago, back before my love and I were free to be together. It is just a little something special for him. A passion, a fire ignites in my soul a touch, a feeling too strong to control A flame that burns so bright and so deep it effects my days, and keeps me from sleep. A kiss, a breath upon my skin it heats me up from so deep within, A sliding of bodies, a bite, a caress, it puts all my strength, my will to the test. A yurning, a pleasure, so sweet is the pain my blood boils as it flows through my veins. A passion so hot that it took me by surpise, it takes over my soul when I look in your eyes. I love you baby.....

About You
I POUR OUT MY HEART,I LAY BARE MY SOUL I CRY OUT EACH NIGHT TO MAKE ME WHOLE NO WORDS ON DEAF EARS CAN SOOTHE MY SORROW I HATE THE THOUGHT OF AWAKENING TOMORROW WALK DOWN FORWARD,BACK TO THE RIGHT PREPARE TO MEET THE CREATOR TONIGHT EXPLAIN TO HIM WHY YOU PERSIST BEG FOR YOUR WORTRHLESS EXISTENCE MY SYMPATHY LIES BURIED IN A SHALLOW GRAVE A JUST REWARD FOR THE LIFE IVE LED SO LONG TO THE MEMORYS OF DAYS GONE BY I CLOSE MY EYES AND SAY GOODBYE

Pic Ratings
Hello my CT friends & family just thought i would post another rant on pic ratings...well i am so bloody sick & tired of rating ppl a 10 no matter if i know them or not & getting a shity 1 or 9 on my pics by ppl who dont know me what the fuck is going on & also rating my good mate Angels R Reals picslow as well what gives these bitches the bloody right to rate my or anyone of my family & friends here lower than a 10. Please bitches get out of my face & if you camnt rate properly dont rate pics at all. another rant by Me. Haters please dont rate

When We Decided To Let Love In
I have no idea why I decided to resurface. Oh, yeah, I remember... TO TORMENT ADAM RELENTLESSLY! No, wait, that couldn't be it. Well, when I figure out why - I will send out an e-mail to all of you who happen to have me connected to your blackberries, bluebrries, grapes, apples, MSN and bananas. For once, I am really happy. I'm well aware I've said that like... ohh.. nine BILLION times in the lst forty-eight hours, but I could tell because as I was singing to the Goo Goo Dolls in my PT Cruiser (God, I hate that thing), I was blushing!! I was actually blushing like crazy! - I'm kinda hot when I blush - And I know that it was because I belonged to him again. Ooh, I am so overjoyed to have him in my life and I am thankful EVERY DAY that he puts up with my mindless, stupid, crap. He loves me, and I have known for years he and I would find each other in the dark. I love you, Bug. I love you more than I could love anything and you complete me.

Ode To Lovecraft
Some stories should not be told, but find a teller of tales with a steeled heart and listen to words of the bold, who hath no conscience but to impart the secrets from the darkest art. Alas, one storm-ridden night, came the sound should nay be heard, upon which caused much a fright to those who now say nary a word, and now they sleep in nightmares absurd. It was the winter of nineteen oh three, when the clouds blocked the sun's skyward run. Perched deep in the jungle of the city, accross from the house of the rising sun, beneath the roof of a saddened one. Among his years, he sat quietly still in his attic room aloft the family home. He was content beside his window sill with his skin evermore clinging to bone as his life surely wasted til gone. But among these streets of yore, came up a building of much debate, a house of legend and lore, a home to strangers I can't relate and brewed souls filled with hate. Who among these patrons of hell, drunken s

Random Thoughts
ok I havent gotten any sleep in almost about 40 hours and I cant seem to pass out. So all that is running in my head right now is a mixiture of whose a ho and Super heros. It is coming out like this: If I could be a super ho I would be sha na na, Telling the world of my hooker prices and all of the lives they distroy. LOL WOW! ok did I mention random and prolly wont make any sense at all. And for all of those HATERS out there NO I am not drunk, I am not stoned, I am not even geeked ok. *that was last night you missed it* now I am dealing with the repocussions of no sleep and not being able to sleep but feeling like a pile of shyt.On the up side had a great convo with my Ex fiancee in cuba he is as safe as a marine deployed in cuba could be and he said he will be back in July and that we are going to totally hang out and that makes me happy. Even though we have both moved on he was my friend for 2 years before we dated and before we were engaged. Oh Teddy sorry for no lobster pics, I wa

Love And Happyness
A good friend of mine wrote this for me(Andrea)..hope everyone likes it and now i can get a new start on life...and wish me luck with making the right choices so that i can be happy... Faith of the fears let them cry no more deep inside shower the sun of brightness and show the love will never fade the pawn of your hands is the world of life let them fly high into the sky and let the depth of strength grow so high in the deep in soul and your will relive again with no more pain say hello to a new beginning with a brand new lighten path and show a smile will never frown again.

Army Soldier Goes Missing!!!
The Army decided to test out the new uniforms but unfortunately the test subject went missing the night before he was due to the testing site. Upon speaking to his wife she stated "The last thing I remember saying to him was asking him to clean out the garage." A man hunt will go into effect later today if the missing soldier does not return to his squad by 1300. With all the sad reports going on today i had to do something that made people smile. Soldiers dont want to hear about losses every day. We know we've lost our battle buddies. I miss mine all the time. But we need a smile here and there.

A Daydream Remembered
I was sitting in my small condo on my bed wrapping gifts to send to my little brother and nephews. Startled, I hear a knock at the door. Beings I was sitting in my pajamas, a night shirt and shorts, I decide to grab my robe putting it on, on my way to the door. I peek through the peephole to find David standing on the other side. Opening the door I stood there in a bit of shock, “Hay, what are you doing here?” “Just thought I would stop by and see how you were doing. Is it too late?” He asked noticing me in my robe. “No, not at all. Come on in. I just had to get comfortable after my shower. I’ve only been home for a couple of hours from my second job.” “You have a second job?” He asks as he walks in and starts taking off his coat. “Yea, it helps me to save to get a bigger place.” He walks further in and notices the cutting mess on the bed. “Are you busy? I can come back later.” “No that’s ok; I was just finishing wrapping a few gifts for my nephews. I’ve got to ge

Ice ( In Case Of Emergency )
Very Important to Note: Isn't it true that we all carry our mobile phones with hundreds of names/numbers stored in its memory but yet nobody, other than ourselves, know which of these numbers belong to our near and dear ones? Let us for a moment create a scenario wherein (God forbid); We are involved in an accident or had a heart attack and the people attending us get hold of our mobile phone but don't' know which number to call to inform our family members. Yes, there are hundreds of numbers stored but which one is the contact person in case of an emergency? For this reason, we must have one or more telephone numbers stored under the name ICE (In case of Emergency) in our mobile phones. Read below for more details..... Subject: " ICE " Campaign Recently, the concept of " ICE " is catching up quickly. It is simple, an important method of contact during emergency situations. As cell phones are carried by majority of the population, all you need to do is st

A Mistress' Love For Her Princess
i'm standing before a precipice, staring into Infinity. Looking down, i can see the vegetation growing on the cliff. my toes hanging over the edge. My only contact with her is My hand on Her shoulder. With that hand, I push you forward. But not further then you can take before you fall. This is Trust. your heart is beating a thousand times. The taste of adrenaline on your tongue. Thoughts flying through Your mind. And I know. You Trust Me, to take you to the edge, but never beyond what you can take. To never let you fall, and to pull you back when you need. I Trusts you, to let me take you to that edge, to put you faith in me. And to ask for more.

* Twelve Attitudes & Responsibilities Of Mastery * Spiritual Integration * Soul Integration *
********************************************************************************************* Twelve Attitudes & Responsibilities of Mastery ********************************************************************************************* Part of the process of Spiritual Integration of our Higher Selves (Identities) or Expansion of our Consciousness involves "re-programming" the way we think. Our thoughts create our reality and the life experience we have on the inside and the outside of us. The following Attitudes and Responsibilities, when embodied and "lived" will help to change our thought patterns. Thoughts that we simply take for granted because they are part of the programming we currently carry. Changing the thought patterns is actually changing the programming in the personal shields. The Attitudes and Responsibilities of Mastery are crucial to understanding what kind of choices lead to what kind of outcomes, and provide guidelines regarding choices t

Pee Stamina
THIS IS THE SAME DAY AS EVERY DAY TOTALLY INOCUOUS IN EVERY WAY FADING IN AND OUT BLURRING THE LINES FORGETTING TO FORGET TIME AFTER TIME I DONT KNOW HOW I CAME HERE OR IF I CAN GET OUT I WALK AROUND SILENTLY SCREAMING AND NO SOUND EVER COMES OUT THISWORLD IS ROTTEN TO THE CORE I CANNOT FACE IT ANYMORE MY EYES ARE BURNED OUT FROM MY TEARS MY SOUL IS WEARY OF THE FEARS SO THIS I SPEAK INTO THE WIND ITS TIME FOR THE END OF LIFE TO BEGIN THE WORLD IS POISONED AND LEFT FOR DEAD AND THERES NO PEACE WITHIN MY HEAD

"thinking Of You"
"Thinking of You" Misty rains softy fall - the tears sliding down my face. All I can think of is you - my heart is a cold empty place. Your words haunts me as the world around me turns. All this love for you silently grows and burns. I am the sensitive poet - I am the brightening noon. I wish and pray all the time that the hurt will leave soon. I am the moody sunset - glowing pale and bright. You are the hopeful sunrise - that never fades the night. The rose catched no tears - the thorns have no soul. My feelings are my thoughts that I have no control.

Space
PLEASE DON’T GET MAD RIGHT AWAY LISTEN TO ME I DIDN’T MEAN TO HURT YOU IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT I DON’T HAVE ANYONE JUST LIKE WHAT YOU THOUGHT I JUST CAN’T UNDERSTAND MYSELF I DON’T KNOW THE REAL REASON WHY IM ASKING YOU TO GIVE ME SPACE FOR AWHILE I LOVE YOU, BUT I NEED TO BE ALONE FOR NOW DON’T THINK THAT I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE I JUST NEED TO FIND MYSELF THE LENGTH OF TIME THAT I WILL BE GONE WILL BENEFIT US BOTH PLEASE DON’T CRY PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT WE NEED TO DO THIS SO WE WOULD FIND OUT MORE ABOUT EACH OTHER SO WE WOULD FIND OUT IF WERE MEANT FOR ONE ANOTHER DON’T STOP YOUR FEELINGS IF YOU FOUND SOMEONE ELSE WHILE IM GONE BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I STILL LOVE YOU, I JUST NEED TO BE ALONE FOR NOW I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND MYSELF I NEED SPACE TO BE FREE FOR AWHILE I LOVE YOU BUT I NEED TO BE ALONE

Tell Me
THERE ARE NIGHTS WHEN I CAN’T HELP BUT CRY AND I WONDER WHY YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME WHY DID, IT HAS TO END SO SOON WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME TELL ME, WHERE DID I GO WRONG WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND COMPLETELY WHEN I THOUGHT THIS LOVE WOULD NEVER END BUT IF THIS LOVE’S NOT OURS WE HAVE TO LET IT GO WITH YOUR GOOBYE

.:.:. Growl .:.:.
So my sis is now 25, no big but my dad is mad she no work but she can't so he darts at me instead about how i no have one n can. Like i have worked befor but i quit cause te job sucked. So I was like I shall get one after i come back from vacation so that gives me into end of June. FUCK! like idk where i wanna work. any ideas...

Let Me Be The One To Break It Up
SOMEBODY TOLD ME YOU ARE LEAVING, I DIDN’T KNOW SOMEBODY TOLD ME YOU’RE UNHAPPY BUT IT DOESN’T SHOW SOMEBODY TOLD ME THAT YOU DON’T LOVE ME NO MORE NO, SO YOU’RE WALKIN’ OUT THE DOOR NOBODY TOLD ME YOU’VE BEEN CRYIN’ EVERYNIGHT NOBODY TOLD ME YOU’VE BEEN DYING BUT DIDN’T WANT TO FIGHT NOBODY TOLD ME THAT YOU FELL OUT OF LOVE FOR ME SO I’M SETTING YOU FREE SOMEBODY TOLD ME YOU STILL LOVE ME, I DON’T KNOW WHY SOMEBODY TOLD ME THAT YOU ONLY NEEDED TIME TO CRY SOMEBODY TOLD THAT YOU’LL LEARN TO COME BACK WHEN OUR LOVE IS REAL AGAIN LET ME BE THE ONE TO BREAK IT UP SO YOU DON’T HAVE TO MAKE EXCUSES WE DON’T NEED TO FIND A SET UP WHERE SOMEONE WINS AND SOMEONE LOOSES WE JUST HAVE TO SAY OUR LOVE WAS TRUE BUT HAS NOW BECOME A LIE SO IM TELLING YOU I LOVE YOU ONE LAST TIME THEN GOODBYE TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY YOU DON’T HAVE TO LEAVE LIKE THIS, NO BUT IF LOVE ME THEN PLEASE STAY DON’T KEEP ME WAITING FOR THAT FINAL KISS WE COULD BE TOGETHER THROUGH THIS TASK OR WE

Maybe
THERE ARE WORDS WAITING FOR A CHANCE HOPING THAT YOU’D UNDERSTAND THE THINGS I WANNA SAY BUT MY LOVE WENT STRONGER THAN BEFORE I WANT TO SEE YOU MORE AND MORE BUT YOU CLOSE THE DOOR WHY DON’T YOU TRY TO OPEN UP YOUR HEART I WONT TAKE SO MUCH OF YOUR TIME MAYBE IT’S WRONG TO SAY PLEASE LOVE ME TOO CUZ I KNOW YOU’LL NEVER DO SOMEBODY ELSE IS WAITING THERE INSIDE FOR YOU MAYBE IT’S WRONG TO LOVE YOU MORE EACH ‘CUZ I KNOW IT’S HERE TO STAY BUT MY LOVE IS STRONG I DON’T KNOW IF THIS IS WRONG BUT I KNOW TO WHOM YOU SHOULD BELONG COME BACK TO ME TIME HAS GONE AWAY TO EASE MY MIND BUT IT NEVER, EVER LEAD MY HEART THOUGH YOU’VE BEEN AWAY FOR SO LONG STILL I FEEL FOR YOU HOW CAN I, MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE YOU’VE COME ONE TO LOVE ME AGAIN I REMEMBER HOW WE USED TO BE ALL YOU DID YOU SAID WAS THINK OF ME WHEN ONE NIGHT YOU SAID IT’S OVER, YOU WERE LEAVING ME HOW I CRIED, TRYIN TO TELL MYSELF IT WASN’T REAL THAT I WAS JUST DREAMING PLEASE COME BACK TO ME I’VE BEEN ALONE I

'till My Heartaches End
I RECALL, WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME YOU TOLD ME MORE, SO MUCH MORE LIKE WHEN THE TIME YOU WHISPERED IN MY EAR “THERE WAS HEAVEN IN YOUR HEART” I REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOU’D BE HERE FOREVER THEN YOU LEFT WITHOUT EVEN SAYING THAT YOU’RE LEAVIN’ I WAS HURT AND IT REALLY WONT BE EASY TO FORGET YESTERDAY AND I PRAY THAT YOU WOULD STAY BUT THEN YOURE GONE AND OH SO FAR AWAY I WAS AFRAID THIS TIME WOULD COME I WASN’T PREPARE TO FACE THIS KIND OF HURTING FROM WITHIN I HAVE LEARN TO LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU MAYBE I JUST DREAM OF YOU TONIGHT BUT IF INTO MY DREAMS YOU’VE COME AND TOUCH ME ONCE AGAIN I’LL JUST KEEP ON DREAMING ‘TILL MY HEARTACHE END

Assholes
Sorry, I'm sick of the assholes on this site. If you weren't an asshole to me, then sorry I'm not talking about you. If you want to stay in contact with me, e-mail me at TwistedTearz421@hotmail.com if not, it was nice knowing you.

Abortion
Month one MOMMY I am only 4 inches long but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy I'm a boy!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby.

Sorry About Me Not Being Around
sorry i haven't been around the last couple of days and you probbly won't see much of me for a few more days. we had a death in the family yesturday and just trying to cope with the loss but i will be back before long and i hope to talk to my friends i have on here.

Song Of The Night 2
A classic by Simon and Garfunkle- The Boxer, the last verse hits home. I am just a poor boy Though my story's seldom told I have squandered my resistance For a pocketful of mumbles Such are promises All lies and jests Still a man hears what he wants to hear And disregards the rest When I left my home and my family I was no more than a boy In the company of strangers In the quiet of the railway station Running scared Laying low, seeking out the poorer quarters Where the ragged people go Looking for the places only they would know Lie la lie... Asking only workman's wages I come looking for a job But I get no offers Just a come-on from the whores on Seventh Avenue I do declare, there were times when I was so lonesome I took some comfort there Lie la lie... Then I'm laying out my winter clothes And wishing I was gone Going home Where the New York City winters aren't bleeding me, Leading me, going home. In the clearin

* Love *
********************************************************************************************* * Love * ********************************************************************************************* The feeling of Love is the result of the condition of vibrational harmonization, or the co-resonance of consciousness, between the lover and the Beloved. Through the condition of At-One-Ment with Source, through selflessness and humility, genuine Love can be known. In terms of "felt experience", At-One-Ment creates the feeling of absolute love, Unconditional Love, the quality of love the our Source Mind experiences toward all it's manifestations (with whom It eternally remains in a state of vibrational co-resonance of consciousness). Absolute love IS the eternal vibrational resonance of consciousness that holds the structure of the Cosmos together. Absolute love creates the experience of absolute joy and ecstatic fulfillment - and - in human terms generates the a

The Disappointment
Well, as usual I was disappointed. What can I say. The one thing I have waited for so long for still has not happened. Just when I thought that maybe this would be the week I would find out I was pregnant and no, I didn't. I had the hard task of telling my husband the news which it was not what I wanted to tell him yet I still had to do it. how I even kept from crying at work much less when I told him I'll never know. I found the strength to not cry (which for me is difficult as it is) so this is what I am going to do this weekend. If I am online it's probably just going to be just checking emails and going to play in Pogo to just have some time by myself. I'm ok (I think) but I just hate that I disappointed him as much as myself in this whole thing. Love to all of my friends, fans and family. Lori

Blood Hate
The vampire rises from deep, dark sleep Stretching undead limbs Moving on the earth again Paying for his sins Live a death in loneliness Heart that never beats Ducking into shadows Walking night-time streets Killing innocent people Just to get a meal The hunger is unfaded So many souls to steal Always so much pain Runnin thru my head What the hell was i thinkin When i became undead Smell the fear inside them The taste of salty skin Hear the sound of horror Feel the evil within Spreading all the hatred Drain them two by two Next time i get hungry I might just come for you!

The Greatest Darkness, The Light Untouchable
Some days i feel unloved i feel dismissed vulnerable hated used abused poorly treated emotionally destroyed. The light i reach for dim like a dungeon dank. The hand i used to hold became a faded memory,a run away. I struggle i stress cry and try. I attempt i devote i feel like im dying inside. More and more my support goes away, as i try to keep, beg to stay. were they ever true and real with me? Or were they nice when they really wanted to put me out of my misery? 4 months in a hospital alone 3 months training for war a social situation alone scares me even more 18 months in iraq vs. a year at home pack up my shit i want to go. devote my life to a better cause to something i know i can excell and try for. fear of the unknown hatred of what is what is it with me? why do i feel like this? all i want is arms to keep me safe. to hold me tight and say all is ok. But as we all know the greatest darkness in life, i

Noone Knows What's Done Is Done.
Well, I'm awake as usual by myself. Too much has been going through my mind lately and it's insane inside this place. I've noticed how down and depressed I've been for some time now and I now understand it is my own fault. I wanted to grow up and be an' adult way too fast and now I'm stumbling foot over foot with my decisions. What happened to being innocent and pure and enjoying life. Instead I'm messing up time after time and clinging to things I want so desperately to come true. It isn't, it won't and I hate to give up hope but seriously it's been a long hard road. And this time the bump knocked me off and it feels like it's time to move on. Now, before you think I'm all emo cry baby I'm really not. I'm just so sick and tierd of being, well...sick and tierd. I need to kick it in gear, as well as the people around me because this is Heather's life and Heather needs to fucking get it together. I feel bad for some things I've done recently, but I won't let that hold me back.

Family
There are moments in life we feel lost in translation. we are floating away from what we know. But sometimes we need to know we are loved by our family we need them when we don;t even know we need them. i try so hard sometimes to fit into my family but i;am different we are all different in our ways. but i plan to start a family one day and when that happens everything will come together. I;am a family man and i'am going to have an amazing family and i will never let what happened to my family happen to my own. this i swear. Be there no matter what that is what it means to be a father, husband. I will never let them down. I finish this by saying that i have so much to tell the world but some things a just for you. And your own mind.

Hurt Me Once..shame On You. Hurt Me Twice..shame On Me!
If it wasn't enough to tear my heart up piece by piece you should have let me know.... My dignity was worn down and tarnished, brought back to me in lies. Suspecting was never enough, constantly bringing us to our knees...It would have never been what you have guessed... Beat me until I'm calm...Choke me until my breaths are steady...scream at me so I have nothing left to say...Hold me close so I can imagine you would never hurt me... I wanted to be stronger...as tears ran to a continuous pattern...He never cared, never shed a tear, pushing all his fears in and out my body in bruises and wailing words.... Ashamed for the time wasted, the scars inside my heart full of dissapointment and regret... Never had a reason to care, leave me alone for nights, trying to avoid all the predicted fights... twisted by your tales, I'll shed all the tainted chemicals in me, forcing myself to believe what you say as the truth... Beat me until I'm calm...Choke me until my breaths a

God Forgive Me For I Have Sinned
If I would have known my life was goona end up like this i'd of not been so happy that it was not ended the night I pulled the trigger and nothing happened. I was foolish for making him my last chance at something good, I should have known better. Seems in love we never see the darkness, we see this light, shining so bright we get blinded. For 5 years I was blinded and to be quite honest I liked not being able to see. He was this breath of fresh air, what I needed when everything seemed so bleek. I feared he'd end up being the same kinda cretin just like the rest, but his words, his lies made me push that all aside. I gave in and trusted, trusted more then ever in my life only for it to blow up in my face. Empty promises and sappy words haunt me, they taunt me, mock me, and laugh at me as I sit in the corner balled up crying. He said we can't allow things to kill us, we have to push past, move on..obviously he didn't love me as much as he claimed to have if he could do that (move on wi

Ouch Pt. 2
Apparently there's a connection between my throat and my brain because that seems to be worn out too. I just came very close to wishing a couple of people a happy nirthday. I don't mean that I made a simple typo,that happens everyday when you type as poorly as I do). 2 times in a row, I had the submit button clicked and was about to release it when I noticed what I had typed. Thankfully it's late and I won't have to do anymore thinking tonight. LOL Ps I just had to edit this one twice. Once to fix a typo and the second time to fix a typo that I made during the first edit.

If I Died Tomorrow Would Ya Cry For Me?
I have many friends, few close. I live in my own little word where I rule all, and nothing goes right. I time and time again allow those in who do nothing more but harm me and take up space. It's a sickness I am afraid, a sad ..sad, existence. I adore my daughter even tho I know one day she too will hurt me, I love my job and [most] of the people I work with. I suppose compared to most my life is a garden of blooming fragrent roses, I only wish I could enjoy them. Tonight I struggled with my life. I tried to sit, ponder if I died who would care...no one and I guess, i'll settle for that.

You Only Want It Cuz It's Over
Inside she cries, outside all lies. When it gets to much to handle she hides. Fears consume her, more so then she would ever admit to. People like her need not feel as when she begins too all take pride in bringing her down. The very minute she notices one knows her quickly she switches it all up. This is such a tiring process, yet so very much needed in these times. Every so often she blocks out the world, that too gets trying. She wants to escape but what to do? Running and running is all she can do. I wanna help her. Chasing her often becomes tedious. Lately i've just sat back and let her run herself ragged. Most times this amuses me. We often fight. Course I wn as she is so much more weaker then I. Nightly I challenge her, I want her to prevail yet time an dtime again she lets me, us both down. [sigh] Torturous lemme tell ya. When I am happy - her sad. Fact is, I cannot fight me any longer. Something has gotta give.

4th Of July
I SAW YOU AGAIN,THAT ONE 4TH OF JULY, THERE WAS NOT ONLY FIREWORKS IN THE SKIES, BUT THEN I SAW IT ALSO IN YOUR EYES, ON THAT HOT SUMMER'S DAY WE AGAIN KISSED, HUGGED EACH OTHER AND HELD EACH OTHER CLOSE FOR THE TIME WE HAD MISSED, WE WERE TOGETHER INTO LATE INTO THE NIGHT, THE FEELING WE GOT WAS SUCH A DELIGHT, WE WALKED HOME UNDER THE LIGHT OF THE MOON, AND PROMISED WE'D SEE EACH OTHER SOON, AND WE WERE RIGHT,IT DIDN'T TAKE LONG, FOR TODAY,WE ARE STILL HOLDING STRONG.

Jade's Reminder....................
As Master walked through the door, His eyes scanned the room noticing the few things that were out of place. His coffee cup was still on the table, along with the strewn about morning paper. The immediate look of displeasure crossed His face. He did not expect much from Jade, just the things He did require of her He expected done. Jade's disobedience had been of annoyance to him these past few weeks. However after a day like He had today, this was one of the last straws. Master had been pleased with Jade's behavior and submission to Him since He had taken her in. Master had decided to give Jade a little more freedom as a reward. But to Master's dismay she had begun to forget her place at His feet. Master took a seat on the couch, turning on the tv. As He sat watching the evening news, He heard the back door quietly shutting. Jade knew she was probably pushing the limits, not being at the door at His arrival. However Jade, figured she could just explain to Master that she was out swi

Homeless...
Doin all this shit again After all these years What the hell is wrong with me? I bring myself to tears Bein homeless all over again Why's it happen to me? Everytime i get settled in I get told to leave Gettin darker, gettin cold, Where am i to go? Always end up on the street Mother and child without a home Once i hit the bottom And think i can fall no more I slowly start to stand up And fall back to the floor Why my stance is shakey I can never plant my feet firm You'd think that after all these years There's something i could learn Next time i'll think different Next time i'll be smart Now's the time to change things God, where do i start???

Abortion Ruling
I am so tired of hearing about how this whole ruling on the abortion ban is so wrong and against the rights of women!!! I believe that abortion should be illegal anyway so the government has made a GOOD start in my eyes and this is the only good thing that I can see that the Bush Administration has done since elected to office and I applaude them for that!!!! Earlier today I had sent the following e-mail to the Vice President even tho I know I will probably never hear a reply to it but never the less I sent it anyway so here it is... Mr. Vice President, Hello, my name is Brandie Craft and I am writing to you in regard to the abortion ruling. I personally am 100% Pro-Life and agaist abortion all the way and I think it should be banned completely but I know that is probably not possible but the one thing that is bothering me is the whole thing about how it is said that the partial-birth abortion is inhumane and I quote " The Republican-controlled Congress responded in 2003 by pass

My Thoughts #2
Every day of my life i thankgod for showing me life can only get better the day i met the women of my life (krysten). I truly beleive that life is a spectalur thing. I have so many goals in life and they are starting to come together. That is truly amazing that i can now breath life clearer, Knowing i have a great start to a life that will be so amazing.

The Submissive's Creed (d/s)
the submissive's creed ~Unknown Author i will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. i realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Master and i from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm. i will not try to manipulate my Master. i will not push to make a scene go the way i feel it should. i will keep an open mind about trying things that i am not accustomed to or comfortable with and expanding my limits. i will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being. i will accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases my Master, and will do my best to fulfill His wishes and desires. i will not allow myself to be harmed or abused, i know that submissive does not equal "doormat". i will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives, i will share my knowledge and experiences with others in the hope that they will learn from where i have been, i will t

New Still Working Out Bugs
hey friends sorry my site isn't as cool as urs but like i said still looking for a stool to get comfortalbe in and get my site up and running like all of urs. so please bare with me well more like give me a chance and time to get the tap flowing then i'll party with the rest of u all. oh well friends tc and thanks.taking one for the road catch u all later on.

Leaving A Positive Footprint
Blessing Space Physical space acts like a sponge, absorbing the radiant of all who pass through it. And, more likely than not, the spaces we move through each day have seen many people come and go. We have no way of knowing whether the energy footprints left behind by those who preceded us will invigorate us or drain us. Yet we can control the energy footprint we leave behind for others. In blessing each space we enter, we orchestrate a subtle energy shift that affects not only our own experiences in that space but also the experiences of the individuals who will enter the space after us. While we may never see the effects our blessing has had, we can take comfort in the fact that we have provided grace for those that follow after us. When you bless a room or an entire building, you leave a powerful message of love and light for all those who will come after you. Your blessings thus have myriad effects on the environments through which you pass. Old, stagnant energy is cleared,

What Have I? Viii
Promise me. Take me in. Like some strawberry flavored poison. Revel with me as the city burns. Dance with me in the blood of the old world. Have I found peace in chaos? Have I... What have I found in you? Everything? Nothing? The universe... Or a happy ticking bomb? Will you always be here? Or just long enough to break me? I think I'd enjoy both. The dead part of me will be beautiful. The knife twisted in my tiny heart will become a new altar of worship. To my goddess. My end. The remnants of that messy tryst will be an inkblot in the history books, your accension, my collapse, and a fetching face fuck of grit and loving torment accenting your poutey perfection. Like an ocean of bloody money shots. You've got a little something on your chin dear. And it tastes like the nothing of you and me. Like a world gone rotten. Like a promise kept. Or we could wake up from the real together... watch the flickering gems of a dying society from the

Ouch
We just finished the second session for this month's episode of TAS (This one's gonna take a while). This was supposed to be our April Fools Day show (until Scott's work schedule got in the way) so we're doing our yearly cast someone else's script with our characters show. This time it's Pulp Fiction (last year it was MacBeth) and I'm playing Vincent (Travolta's part) and doing an old man voice (Wilber Smith) and I'm now realizing that doing a loud high pitched voice for the better part of 2 hours (even with copious amounts of water) is quite painful. Anyone know where I can get a new throat?

Quizzy....
let try this..please copy quiz & delete my answers & put your answers pop me PM. this just for fun & get know friends more. if you have the time. thanks. hugss love ya. ~Mary~ 1. WHAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY? Finding my Art book..I left it at Wyandotte center last week Thursday…thankful other Mary found it & put it in Gayle’s office. 2. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8:00 THIS MORNING? Getting ready for at group 10am to 11:30am 3. SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN 1995? Made ginger bread house with grandma gussie..she passed in 2001. 4. LAST THING YOU SAID ALOUD? “I love you grandma..bubye…see you tomorrow.” 5. HOW MANY DIFFERENT THINGS DID YOU DRINK TODAY? Milk in morning before art group…& Water 6. WHERE IS YOUR BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW? No Idea wish I knew I miss Mindy…Lost touch after moving back to KS in 2003. 7. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOOTHBRUSH? Purple& white 8. LAST THING YOU BOU

I Don't Understand
i don't understand how you make me feel everytime that you're around i don't get how you can be so loud but yet, you did not make a sound i don't understand why my heart skips a beat whenever you say my name i don't know if all the things you do or say are part of a mind game i don't understand why i get all nervous when you just casually walk by i don't really get it.... i really don't get it... how your presence can make me sigh i don't know why i melt inside whenever you sit next to me i seriously don't understand how these weird feelings came to be what is it about you... yes... you... that makes me feel like this??? and why oh why... why why why!? do i yearn for just one kiss??? why do you get me all twisted with your smile that's oh so fine... when you said hi to me the other day i swear i was on cloud nine! i can't believe the things you do and yet you're totally unaware how all day i can just look at you... and stare... and stare... and

Best Firefighter Pic Contest
This is my first attempt at hosting a contest.. I was trying to come up with a unique contest for ct and this is what I came up with.. BEST FIREFIGHTER PIC EXAMPLES BELOW... THEY CAN BE OF YOU FIGHTING FIRE YOURSELF, OR JUST FIREFIGHTING PICS YOU FOUND SOMEWHERE ONLINE, ETC.. IT DOESN'T MATTER. AS LONG AS IT DEPICTS FIREFIGHTING IN SOME WAY.. SEND ME THE LINK TO THE PIC IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE Superman~GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY~@ CherryTAP OR YOU CAN CONTACT MY SISTER, DIXIE DARLIN, Dixie Darlin~CT Wifey of Faery Dragon~@ CherryTAP AND SHE CAN GET THE LINK TO ME.. EITHER WAY IS FINE.. THIS ONE IS ME^^ THE ABOVE ARE SIMPLY EXAMPLES OF THE TYPES OF ENTRIES I AM LOOKING FOR AND CANNOT BE USED AS ENTRIES FOR THE CONTEST.. RULES ARE AS FOLLOWS 1. NO COMMENT BOMBING FROM Fake sites. 2. Show support for Firefighters. 3. Have FUN AND GOOD LUCK. Prizes: 1st prize: Corvette 2nd prize: Mens/womans ring. {{PRIZES

Dear Wife, Dear Husband
Dear Wife, I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you for good. I've been a good man to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you had quit your job today and that was the last straw Last week, you came home and didn't even notice that I had gotten a new hair cut, cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You came home and ate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don't tell me you love me anymore, you don't want sex anymore or anything. Either you are cheating on me or you don't love me anymore, whatever the case is, I'm gone! Your EX-Husband P.S. Don't try to find me. Your SISTER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!! -------------------------------------------------------------------- Dear Ex-Husband, Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It'

Thanks For All The Love & Friendship!!!
To my Cherry Tap Friends & Fans, I'm so grateful that you all have come into my life. Each one of you have touched my heart in a special way and I wish I could get to each and everyone of you the same way!!! I know I probably will never meet most of you in person but just knowing that you're there even behind a PC screen means alot to me. I look forward to everyday seeing each and everyone of you and knowing what's new in your lives. I thank all those who have left me wonderful picture comments and comments on my profile. The ratings have been awsome too!!! This all lifts my spirit up just knowing there's complete strangers that can show love to one another meeting for the first time. We may hide behind a PC screen but if you take the time to read what a person has to say, you can tell what kind of person they are and feel what they have to say comes from the heart. I truly care about each and everyone of you and I believe that if you treat those the way you want to be treate

Angel
There's a land where I go when I need to share that's not on a map, yet exists everywhere A land of names without faces, a curious place A modern creation thats called cyber-space There's all sorts of people with cute little names Like Pookie, and Sandman and Rosebud and Flames Some are just snobs and some are real fun And Some of them just want to find someone But both good and bad they all play a role Still each one unique, but part of the whole We talk and laugh and wonder why We flirt and hug and sometimes cry We can't be heard and can't be seen Yet, there it is, right on our screen But all in all the most curious part Is the power it has to open our heart To share with a stranger those things we've concealed Which to our closest of friends we'd never reveal Our deepest regrets and most troubling fears The scars in our life which bring us to tears What gives them the power to reach into me and show me the truths that I never see How do they

Personality
Floating around in all these sites makes one aware of a growing trend. Pretending. Why is it so popular to be someone other than who you are? Or is being yourself where no one knows if you are really you the only place you feel safe being you? Confusing isn't it? Exactly. Oh,... the tangled webs we weave. If only one would just be who they are, wherever they are, how much simpler life would be. Do you agree? Do you know? For myself, I am being me without being me.By that I mean to say that I mean what I say, but I have used a fake identity here, so I am not really being totally me. Why? Because, as I said, I am a very private person, and I don't know all the people here. What's your story?

Help
hey everyone i am so close to level will you please come by and help me out...i am maxed out oh photo rates right now but if u leave me a comment on this blog and help me by commenting or rating i will return the love as soon as i can rate again...thank you so much Danielle

Colonoscopies
Colonoscopies are no joke , but these comments during the exam were quite humorous..... A physician claimed that the following are actual comments made by his patients (predominately male) while he was performing their colonoscopies: 1. "Take it easy, Doc. You're boldly going where no man has gone before! 2. "Find Amelia Earhart yet?" 3. "Can you hear me NOW?" 4.. "Are we there yet? Are we there yet? Are we there yet?" 5. "You know, in Arkansas , we're now legally married." 6. "Any sign of the trapped miners, Chief?" 7. "You put your left hand in, you take your left hand out..." 8.. "Hey! Now I know how a Muppet feels!" 9. "If your hand doesn't fit, you must quit! 10. "Hey Doc, let me know if you find my dignity.." 11. "You used to be an executive at Enron, didn't you?" 12. "God, now I know why I am not gay." And the best one of all.. 13.. "Could you write a note for my wife saying that my head is not up here?"

I Like How Some Leave After 2 Days
just wondering i love how some people after 2 days they say they wanna know ya they never answer email or anything back wow just wonderful kinda hard to know some body in less then 2 days guess im still learning just my 2 cents,wanna get to know somebody give them longer then 2 days,please dont say you wanna know them then some stud comes along and well by by o well some people amaze me ok

Prey...
The core of dark desire Masked by good intent Dug your way inside But dropped the shroud too early... Who are you?! Please if you're watching me on "Adrian"s behalf I just want to be left alone... I'm already in a dark place...leave me be.... Piper

A Lot Of Stuff--ranting And Venting
where to start...what to do.... i am getting tired of whiners, liars and stupid people but alas this has been going on for all of eternity and will continue to the end of time.... the mumms have been attacked by The Point Whore People....which do you prefer, which is better....WHO THE FUCK CARES! Make a survey! Damn! i like points as much as the next person cuz i like to level but isn't that what the i'm bored link is for? You also get points for your stash and they NEVER expire and people can vote yes or no there too and comment or whatnot....GET A FUCKING CLUE! and if you still want to know...i prefer Coke, Papa John's, my favorite color is purple, i am a Christian, i don't support the war but i do support the troops, i wouldn't kill anyone in any fashion, i don't drink, i don't do drugs, i am not a virgin, and i ride both sides of the fence....i can't think of anymore off the top of my head.... Liars suck...PLAIN AND FUCKING SIMPLE! Don't tell me one thing and do the comple

Wtf?
ok i have seriously no idea wat day it is... i know its 420, but i duno wat day it is! wat the fuck.. i got a 'happy thursday' tag in my comments, but i honestly thought it was tuesday, but the smoking ban comes in on the 30th and thats a monday, so it cant be thursday! IM SO CONFUUUSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEDDDDDD!!! *mental note - stop staying up until 5am with no caffiene!* ~Kronik Kitten~

Please Help This Man Out
LOL WELL I HAD TO GET U TO READ THIS SOMEHOW COULD YA'LL PLZ COME HELP ME COMMENT BOMB THIS AWESOME GUY IN HIS CONTEST IT IS OVER TOMORROW AND HE IS CURRENTLY BEHIND WOULD REALLY LIKE TO SEE HIM WIN.

Save Early, Save Often!
Yesterday, I shot Katja Kassin and Kurt Lockwood for Manhandled 2! I have not shot Katja in a long time so I was definitely excited to see her in action. I have to say though, I originally had another girl scheduled and found out from a male performer that this other girl had a hooker mentality and really didn't care for sex. I know everyone has different opinions on performers, but when I hear that, I cannot find one reason to shoot her. I don't care how hot she is! You see, in my eyes, I would rather see a girl who is into sex and not the typical hot girl over a girl who everyone thinks is gorgeous. I know not everyone will agree with me, but it's my movie, right? So, I needed a hot, sexy, reliable and professional girl in the skin biz to replace the hooker-minded girl. Who was better than Katja Kassin? No one! I have never gotten a bad scene from this German beauty. I have never had to wait on her for anything and not to mention she is very business smart! I could go on all day abou

Dancing On My Life As If It Were The Grave
only if i die will all my wishes come true. you will love me you will respect me you will finally listen to me. you will wash clothes take out trash pick up after yourself clean the bathroom you will go to church tell the truth about us and yourself stop blaming me for your own lack of self-.... when i die finally your lies will unearth truths that u dare not tell me as if i'd stop breathing ...and that's what you wait for.

Saw A Great Show
I just got back from seeing the Live show of "The Lord of the Dance". It was the best live show i have ever seen. If you get the chance to see it then I suggest that yo do. It was very entertaining and the music and dancing was superb.

How I Deal With Writers Block
Writer's Block by wolf359 Wolf sat at the bar looking at the glass before him on the polished oak. The amber of the scotch reflected the light on his hand resting next to the glass. He wanted the drink as a starving man wants a meal. The writers block was killing him, it had been two weeks since he had been able to get ideas to flow from his head to his keyboard. He was so engrossed in the desire for the contents of the glass, that he didn't even notice the woman sit on the stool next to him. Climbing on to her stool, Deb noticed the man next to her. He was about forty, six feet tall, and about two hundred pounds. His short hair was beginning to gray at the temples and his short-cropped beard was flecked with gray. Noticing that he wore an gold earring, she wondered which way he swung, these days you couldn't tell. Looking closer, she could see he was wearing gray slacks, and shirt with the collar open and a dark blue blazer. Hanging from the pocket of

Recurring Memory
I've tucked you away in a corner of my heart where no wind or rain could reach you. So deep inside my emotions of you are hidden Sometimes it's as if you never existed. Then suddenly for no reason explained you show yourself like the sun peering through on a cloudy day. And I am again reminded that my love for you does not fade but grows stronger with each pounding of my heart. "I love you"

Although....
....I love you all, I am feeling like there is no point in staying around. My pics are gone, and when I rate others and goto leave a comment I see where my old account was with my comment on it and it's like a constant reminder that the account here is so fleeting, anything can make it deleted, and so the "why bother" comes to mind when it all can be taken away again....I would love to leave a blast so all my friends could find me again yet then it would just be putting money into the pocket of the person who took all my hard work and alot of my friends away so fuck that...so I will be around once in awhile but not like I used to be. Nothing against any of you, you all have been great and showed me such love to which I try to return. I just get upset when I see my old comments with a pic of "I was here" and when you put your cursor over it it says "N/A".... reminds me of how I got screwed and makes me wonder why I am going through it all again (my page, pics, blogs, etc). If you wan

Attn All Fff And Cb/cg's...
RoughneckMP the Sheriff of CB/CG called me last night, I just wanted everyone to know that he is doing good. He has spent the last week and a half in his homestate of Ohio on some well deserved R&R. He will leave this Saturday back to Germany, then first week or so in May he will be heading to Afghanistan for 15 mos. I ask that everyone pray for him that he stays safe. Please show him how much we appreciate all that he is doing for us. http://www.cherrytap.com/user/428999 Largest Database of ImagesFor Comments And Profiles at FreeCommentTags.com

R.i.p. Gary Hooker
ALRIGHT MOST I KNOW WON'T EVEN LOOK AT THIS BUT MY GODFATHER THE GUY THAT MY FATHER HAS BEEN BEST FRIENDS WITH SINCE THEY WERE IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL PASSED AWAY TODAY 04/19/2007 AT 5AM... HE WAS TRULY CLOSE TO ME!!! HE DIED AFTER BATTLING WITH A BRAIN TUMOR/CANCER... HE SPENT THIS LAST YEAR WINNING A REWARD AND SPENDING MOST OF HIS TIME IN A AIR PLANE FLYING TO CLINICS TRYING TO GET BETTER... IT WAS A TERRIBLE TIME... I FEEL IT WAS BETTER FOR GOD TO JUST LET HIM GO UP TO BE WITH HIM THOUGH ITS VERY SAD STILL INSIDE. HE LEFT BEHIND HIS WIFE JENNY, BROTHER AND JENNY'S TWO BOYS AND 1 GIRL. ANYWHO THATS WHATS GONNA BE UP WITH ME FOR AWHILE... IF ANYONES WONDERING WHATS GOING ON WITH ME... NOW YOU KNOW!!! ANYWHO... IM STILL HERE FOR ALL OF YOU REGARDLESS CAUSE THATS THE WAY I AM, BUT YEAH... YOU KNOW THE DRILL... LOVE KISSES AND HUGGS... DJ C51 GIRL AKA JO JO

Cleaning House
IN 48 HOURS I AM CLEANING HOUSE AND PEOP;E WHO DONT WANT TO FAN ME BACK OR ADD ME AS FRIEND AS I HAVE OR RATE ME A 10 AS I HAVE THEN I WILL BE REMOVING THEM I WANT YOU ALL TO PLEASE JUST CHECK IT OUT AND SEE IF U FANNED ME/ADDED ME/AND RATED ME IF U DID SEND ME AN EMAIL SAYING YOU HAVE AND I WILL DO THE SAME THANKS FOR YOUR PATIENTS AND UNDERSTANDING.

Sucky Day
hmmmm well today sucks ass... today was suppose to be my 6th anniversary... well I'm divorced, so I didn't make 6 years. Oh well... at least now I'm able to live the single life, and not have any major worries.

I'm A 5...hahahahaha
Some woman who happens to be a level 10, so I know she isn't new to CT, rated my pic a 5... Soooo I went to her profile and took a look... I wanted to see if it was our typical rude person trying to piss me off or if it was a fake profile or someone new to CT... Wellll.. she looks real... isn't new... so I guess I must really be just a 5... I will now go to my corner and feel shame... If ya wanna check her out her name is Spank Me! ... and if she is better looking than me..then.... SHOOT ME...HAHAHAHAHA... Love to all.. Peace...SPIN

Family
gurl has tried to keep herself busy all day, from playing around on here with all my fellow cherries to cleaning house, to constantly checking email. The thing about it is, no matter what one tries to do on a day they find themselves depressed, nothing seems to help no matter how busy they try to keep themselves. It's kinda funny how when someone goes almost 3 years without something and then all the sudden it's given back to them, they just can't get enough of it. When that something that meant so much is jerked out from under them again it's even more devastating than it was the first time and the pain is deeper and more severe than it was the first time. The sheer fear of never getting it back again can scare the hell out of them, give them some really crazy thoughts they otherwise wouldn't think of, and can eventually drive them to doing things they normally would never do. Now, sit and think about what matters most in life to Y/you and imagine what Y/you would do if

Never A Fool Again
Once a fool always a fool When does the circle end. How long do you travel in a circle Are you always waiting for to see what’s around the curve What are you waiting for… The circle to end Or trying to find were it begins So when will it end… Tonight

Fictional Event....???
A fictional event... Not meletious intent... From a mile a away... All the horse shit... On ct... You can smell... All the scams... All the... Wanna be ballers... Spitting forth their... Best game... No matter pic... You put up... Private or... Just plain site... To someone's server it is saved... Right...??? What a gag... Some ones... Got the worlds largets... Porno mag... Not melitious intent... Mean while... Some where... Across the planet... They be peddlin pics of you ... With out a clue... Till you catch your... Kids friend... Tossing off to you... Of course this is all... Fiction, slight of hand... Nice misdirection... This is not an acusation... Nor melitious intent... A target this may make me... In a flash... Down the rabbit hole... I go... For this is a fictional event...??? BBE...Ehhh 2006 All rights reserved.

My Tarot Readings 1
Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair, always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You very much want to be liked and because of your need for approval and acceptance, you are easily influenced by others' opinions, especially when young. You so much want to please that often you will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as phoniness or wishy-washiness The Inner You: Your Real Motivation You are a gambler and an adventu

Idk Anymore....
WELL TODAY IS JUST ANOTHER DAY, I GUESS... WHY IS IT YOU THINK LIFE COULDN'T BE BETTER, SOMEONE HAS TO PROVE YOU WRONG???? OR SOMETHING? IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL SUNNY DAY TODAY AND THEN *BAM* THAT QUICKLY CHANGED... I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, TIRED OF TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT ON MY OWN... I'M WALKING AWAY AND STARTING OVER. I MEAN, ONE PERSON HAS A LIMIT... AND I'VE EXCEEDED MY LIMIT A LONG TIME AGO. I HELD HOPE THAT THIS WAS GOING TO WORK, BUT EVERYDAY... I GET PROVEN WRONG... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.. I CAN ONLY BE PATIENT FOR SO LONG... AND WELL I THINK I'VE HIT MY BREAKING POINT... I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I CARED ABOUT EVERYTHING... AND WHAT DID I GET? BIG OL' NOTHING!! EVERYDAY I GIVE ME BEST... NOT TO JUST YOU, BUT EVERYONE AND I FIND THAT EVERYDAY THAT LIST GETS SMALLER.... AND THE LIST OF PEOPLE THAT SHOW ME THE SAME RESPECT IS HELLA SMALL!!! I'M TIRED NOW... I'VE HAD ENOUGH... I'M EMOTIONALLY DRAINED... IT'S TIME TO FEEL LOVED AGAIN... IT'S TIME TO FEEL WELCOMED

Afternoon Swim
by heather in wi (again) I was living in a small university town, doing graduate study on my degree. The university was very good, but it was in the Bible Belt, and the town was Dullsville personified. An aunt had died leaving me a sizable inheritance, and I could concentrate on my studies, most of the time. I'm female, and single. I had several bad relationships with men that left me with the feeling that I could live without them for a long while. Still, I am human and my sex drive still sits there and simmers in the background. One bright point in Dullsville, was Susan, a lovely, rather shy married woman, only a couple of years my senior. She was studying at the University, taking some courses in the same field as I. We studied together from time to time, and became friends. Her husband was Mr. Dullsville himself. They had a backyard pool with a high privacy fence around it, and she invited me over often to swim after classes, and when I had a half day of classes. I love swimm

Mother Nature
mother nature by kandy Deep in the woods of Tennessee in the midst of its rolling mountains and tall pines lays a small, crystal clear lake. Up a winding pathway north of there is a cozy cabin. It is away from the bustling noises of the city that, along with the sounds of the forest, made it a perfect hideaway for John and Deana. Here they could relax, commune with Mother Nature, and get in touch with their inner spirit. They loved going to the cozy bungalow no matter what season it was. However, one of their favorite times was early spring. Often there was still snow covering the ground. Mother Nature’s white blanket gave the area a sense of tranquility. It was the last Friday of March. The two of them were sitting at the kitchen enjoying breakfast wondering what to do for the weekend. That particular week had been hectic and they wanted to do something to relax. While still thinking Deana gathered up the dishes and placed them in the sink. She was busy washing them when

Lost
I never felt like this.I can feel my life slip.I'm going insane no one can help me today.I feel as if every thing has gone to shit.I can't take this any more. I watch my life go out the door.You may say i'm sick you may say I have lost it but if you where in my shoes you would see it to.This is the way I feel it seems that sanity has left me here alone.

Music Rocks My World
Passive by: A Perfect Circle Dead as dead can be The doctor tells me But I just can't believe him Ever the optimistic one I'm sure of your ability To become my perfect enemy Wake up and face me Don't play dead 'cause maybe Someday I will walk away and say You disappoint me Maybe you're better off this way Leaning over you here Cold and catatonic I catch a brief reflection Of what you could and might have been It's your right and your ability To become my perfect enemy Wake up (Why can't you?) And face me (Come on now) Don't play dead (Don't play dead) 'Cause maybe (Because maybe) Someday (Someday) I'll walk away and say You disappoint me Maybe you're better off this way Maybe you're better off this way (×3) You're better off this (×2) Maybe you're better off... Wake up (Why can't you?) And face me (Come on now) Don't play dead (Don't play dead) 'Cause m

Go Ahead...
Post more blogs, make more sites, continue to lie, bash, trash, stalk/harass, post sexual pictures you took of me when I was just a teenager, endanger me and mine some more, whatever the f**k. I'm done with it all. I'm done with you. Remember, I've taken years of your physical, verbal, mental/emotional abuse, your lies, betrayals/infidelities, your thefts, deceptions, etc. So, you go ahead, continue to do what you have done so well all these years. Transfer your discrepancies unto me some more. Lie to try and make me look like the bad guy. All because I am done with all of your bullshit. Most of all, I'm done with you. BEEN done. I ended it between us. Just accept it already, and move on. The only one your hurting, and going to continue to hurt, is yourself. All of these years with you have helped me to build an impenetrable shield, which you & your ways can no longer break through. The only thing that matters is FACT, of which I know all. I could care less otherwise, because the only

Sexuial Zodiac
Gemini You are a master flirt. You know just how to pick up hotties, but it is usually just a one night stand because you are out to have fun. You like sex to be fun. You are not afraid to spice it up with some sex toys, blindfolds and food. Your ideal partner would be open minded, and into having fun too. Sex matches: Libra, Aquarius Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Perfect Guy
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life. • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. • leave her cute text notes. • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful. • look into her eyes when you talk to her. • let her mess with your hair. • touch her hair. • just walk around with her. • FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES. • look at her like she's the only girl you see. • D0N'T MAKE HER CRY EVERYNiGHT. • tickle her even when she says stop. • hold her hand when you're around your friends. • when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • get her mad, then kiss her. • tease her and let her tease you back. • stay up all night with her when she's sick. • watch her favorite movie with her. • kiss her forehead. • give her the world. • let her wear your clothes. • when she's sad, hang out with her.

Skeleton Key 2
Over the next couple of months..I will be involved in another Darkstone Ent project called SK2Darkstone EntertainmentI did a film called Oria with them, which is a sequel to Shadowhunters..I'm excited about this project and I'm looking forward to seeing some of the cast that I worked with the first time

Armageddon - The Truth I Had This Several Timez
I was walking down a street . It was warm . They sun was out then it started to get cold . The ground broke open with hellish fire that went beyond the heavens. Demons started to pour out on the crushing the buildings and things that man had mad on earth . Then from the sky the sky craked open and Angels took flight to the earth . When they hit the ground with God and Jesus the ground flattend and the water dried up . I relized that i was the only one there thats was human . So i asked God why would you tell mankind to forgive and forget . When you don't do it your self . He didn't answer . I asked satan why he was mad at God after all these years . He looked to the ground . I look at jesus he look the other way . So i didn't bother to ask him . So i asked both of them who messed up my life. And they pointed at each other . And they started storming at each other while i was in the midst of them . And i remember yelling out stop and they di

You, Feel, Know
Your kisses make me shiver Your touch makes want to moan your name Your body against me shakes my core You deep in me makes me go into a world of extasy Feeling you all over is all I ever want Feeling you penetrate my mind makes me want you more Feeling you touch my cold heart makes me melt Knowing your here makes me smile Knowing your falling for me makes me fall more for you

Cousins Memorial
A community gathered to mourn the loss of a little Rochester boy who was accidentally run over by a U-Haul truck. Family and friends filled Rohr Street Thursday night to remember 4-year-old Misael Santiago. "Every little candle, every little light is just shining his way, so he can see his way better up to heaven, " said Misael's mother, Wildy Quintana. Misael was killed Saturday when he ran into the path of a truck that was backing out of a U-Haul rental facility on Rohr Street. The driver of the truck was not charged in the incident. The boy's death posed questions from his classmates. "I guess they were good friends, I was trying to explain to her about it. It was sad, but, she started crying," said Surmone Goins. Goins is the mother of a 4-year-old who attended pre-school with Misaeal at School 45. Teachers at the school are feeling his loss too. "I was proud and blessed to be his teacher. He couldn't have been a nicer little boy. He was an angel on

Nin
I still recall the taste of my tears. Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head till I dont want to sleep anymore. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this all go away. You make this all go way. I just want something. I just want something I can never have You always were the one to show me how Back then I couldnt do the things that I can do now. This is slowly take me apart. Grey would be the color if I had a heart. I just want something I can never have. In this place it seems like such a same. Though it all looks different now, I know its still the same Everywhere I look youre all I see. Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this

How The First Earth Day Came About
By Senator Gaylord Nelson, Founder of Earth Day What was the purpose of Earth Day? How did it start? These are the questions I am most frequently asked. Actually, the idea for Earth Day evolved over a period of seven years starting in 1962. For several years, it had been troubling me that the state of our environment was simply a non-issue in the politics of the country. Finally, in November 1962, an idea occurred to me that was, I thought, a virtual cinch to put the environment into the political "limelight" once and for all. The idea was to persuade President Kennedy to give visibility to this issue by going on a national conservation tour. I flew to Washington to discuss the proposal with Attorney General Robert Kennedy, who liked the idea. So did the President. The President began his five-day, eleven-state conservation tour in September 1963. For many reasons the tour did not succeed in putting the issue onto the national political agenda. However, it was the germ of the ide

The Message Of The Day Is: 04/19/07
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile. Send to all the people you love and don't want to lose in 2007, even me.... If you get 3 back, you are a great friend Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we`re here we may as well dance...

50 Green Tips For Earth Day And Beyond
Earth Day is right around the corner. It’s a reminder to me to start thinking about how I can make an impact (or less of an impact) on our planet. In honor of Earth Day, send us your green tips, shopping suggestions, and earth-friendly green practices! 1. Lower your thermostat. Buy a programmable thermostat. 2. Reuse your water bottle. Avoid buying bottled water. In fact, reuse everything at least once, especially plastics. 3. Check out your bathroom. Use low-flow faucets, shower heads, and toilets. 4. Start a compost in your back yard or on your rooftop. 5. Buy foods locally. Check out Eat Local Challenge and FoodRoutes to get started. Buy locally made products and locally produced services. 6. Buy in season. 7. Buy compact fluorescent light bulbs. You'll find more on energy-efficient products and practices at Energy Star. 8. Turn off lights and electronics when you leave the room. Unplug your cell phone charger from the wall when not using it. Turn off energy strips and surge

Trying To Be Profound.
When you don't try to write deep things, they come naturally. When you are unaware of your surroundings, and the noises in your head, things come out easier. There are points and times when you have the ability to say what you want and mean something totally different than what comes out. Here I am sitting at my computer, my coffee buddy just leaving for work, and I am at a loss of what to say, or what to write. Do I write about what is going on inside of my head? Do I write about what we share when we are together, besides coffee and really good conversation? Do I go off topic, should I go off topic? I'm not sure anymore of what is happening with me. I'm not sure what I really want in this life. I find that there are people that come into your life at the right time, and the right place, that make you see things in a different way. That make you think a little differently, that make you re-think your current situation. They go happily to quick check and sit in the car while

Dear Sir.
and just like that your life can be broken into pieces. like a bat to a winshield or a stone giving a lake the ripple effect. everything can be shattered in an instant. so easily without any reason not to. simple words can hurt so much although unintentional. empty words are so much worse. i think empty words come from empty people devoid from emotion and any sense of caring at all. just a question...why would someone say something and not mean it? and then the recipricol...why would people not mean something when they say it? it you have something to say then say it. but please dont give me your empty words. those empty words h.u.r.t so much more than saying |nothingatall|

Recent Bulletins
The bulletins that have hit saying that people are making fun of the VT massacre, Columbine, and 9-11 are sick individuals. I read an article from Newsweek this morning on one of the victims accounts, what it is like to be on my cell phone and having a 9-1-1 operator telling me she cant understand what im saying. I could not imagine sitting in a classroom, watching my instrusctor get shot, then having to lay still to make this psychopath think im dead as he shoots a girl that is next to me in the back and shoots me three times as he is walking and unloading his weapons. For the Columbine shooting, do you know what i t is like to have your husband overseas, when you hear on the news that there has been a shooting at a Colorado High School, and you have kids going to high school in CO, the fear that runs through your body as well as the guilt when you find out that it was not the school that your child goes to? As far as 9-11, what you do when put into a situation that you k

Against The World
I remember you you said we could take on the world we wrote songs and played shows you gave me confidence the rhythm section the foundation stability talent a breath of life taken late one night you probably were listening to the stones gone in an instant never got to say it was nice to know you nice to be around you nice to call you my friend i miss you i miss those days no worries just music just us against the world

I Cant Help It
what the hell, Usually this time of year im happy as hell... but instead im sad. I dont get it. And I cant show everyone that im down, because they will all demand an explanation. One that I cant give them. I dont know why Im sad, I just am. So I do things to try to cut this phase short. I got a tattoo finished, i bought new jewelery for my tongue. I forced myself to be out around people, and now Iv closeted myself. Cartoons and cookies for me tonight. I know Im pissing people off, and alienating the ones that love me.... but I just cant help it.

Blood And Wine
thoughts of the end black and red a carnival of spirits a dance with the dead my religion drips blood and wine an uncontrolled urge a bad spot in your mind i sit and wait for time to pass a time a memory that will always last black and red red and black turn the clock forward or turn the clock back

Read Else Where!
my thoughts are dark,sad,hot tonight. so don't read this just look the other way. Because none of it makes sense and there is no order to it. so here it go's. "Just what ever." my thoughts are full of you like always. Like always I'm kicking myself in the ass. You'll never know what my feelings are. I try so hard to be open and let them out. But every time I get blinded by everyone else feelings. So you'll never know what your words do to me. You'll never know what your laughter does to me. You'll never know how you touch my soul. You'll never know how happy you make me. You'll never know how hard it's for me to breath when your around Or how hard it is not to breath when your not here. You'll never know how much we are alike, Or how much we aren't alike. You'll never know how you make me cry. You'll never know how you make me laugh. You'll never know how badly I want to touch you, Or how badly I want to taste you. You'll never k

Hosting My First Contest.. Taking Entries For Prettiest Eyes..
PRETTIEST EYES CONTEST!!! I WILL BE TAKING ENTRIES UNTIL I GET AT LEAST 10 PEOPLE, MEN AND WOMEN CAN BE IN THE CONTEST.. (No NSFW!) 1ST PLACE GETS A YACHT!!!! 2ND PLACE GETS A PORSCHE!!!! 3RD, PLACE GETS A TROPICAL VACATION!!!! AS SOON AS I GET 10 PEOPLE TO JOIN IT WILL START.. IT WILL LAST A WEEK FROM THE DAY IT STARTS, AND COMMENT BOMBING AND BOMBING YOURSELF IS ALLOWED.. IF THERE IS A TIE THEN RATES WILL COUNT!! Contact me for all the info! Thanks! Hott and Horny!

Wanted: Marriage Material!
Instead of my usual delightful banter, I am cutting to the chase! WANTED: Unattached Polyamorous Bi-Sexual Submissive White Female Sex Fanatic! Age: Not as young as my daughter or as old as my mother Height: Tall enough to reach what she needs or willing to ask for help when she cant. Weight: Not so skinny your bones clacking sounds like yhatzee, not so fat you cant function easily in bed. Hair: Yes please Eyes: Two please. No more, no less. No Druggies, Drunks or Drama Queens need apply! Still here? HOLY SHIT! Ummmmm lets find some more ways to thin the herd a bit... No Animal Allergies - Including Dogs and Horses. No Smoking Allergies - Actually a smoker would be preferred. No Psycho Ex Lovers, Husbands, Boyfriends. Kids are okay but I did my diaper duty, you gotta do yours. Still here? Okay Ummmmmmmmmmmmm.... No Neat Freaks No Slobs No ADD / ADHD bullshit No Bi-polars without meds! No Depressed basketcases without meds and a clean bill of health from MY d

Real Friends Whether It's Online Or In Person
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT, I REPOST PEOPLE'S BULLETIN'S AND I TAKE EVERYBODY ELSE'S LITTLE SURVEY'S THAT THE LEAVE IN A BULLETIN AND I RATE OTHER PEOPLE'S PICS, PROFILE AND EVEN STASH BUT WHEN I CREATE MY OWN BULLETIN AFTER SENDING ME SOMETHING INVOLVING FRIENDS AND WHETHER THEY HAVE MY BACK OR NOT AND NOT ONE PERSON HAS RESPONDED TO IT AND WHAT REALLY FRUSTRATES THE LIVING HELL OUT OF ME IS PEOPLE ARE COMPLAINING ABOUT A GUY OR TWO GUYS LAUGHING ABOUT 9/11 OR THIS VT KILLINGS OR EVEN COLUMBINE AND YET ALL THREE WE'RE DEPRESSED AND PSYCHOTIC AS HELL AND I FOR ONE, YES, I'LL ADMIT, I'M KIND OF DEPRESSED BECAUSE I'M WONDERING RIGHT NOW IF I DO HAVE FRIENDS, YES I DO HAVE A GIRLFRIEND BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO KNOW THAT I HAVE FRIENDS AND WHETHER THEY REALLY HAVE MY BACK OR NOT! I DON'T CARE FOR ANYONE TO MAKE FUN OR LAUGH ABOUT TRAGEDY, NOT ONE DAMN BIT BECAUSE ENOUGH HAS HAPPENED TO ME TO WHERE I WON'T MAKE FUN OF SHIT LIKE THAT EVER WHETHER IT BE 9-11 OR THE COLUMBINE SHOOTINGS OR EVEN

More Children Die
Children dying Not given a chance to live To Learn To Love Taken by another Trying to show the world Making a name against those who they hate Women who turn from them Those with more than they have Innocents who merely are there In a good place At a very bad time Dances, classes, alone in their rooms Peace is broken by madness Sharp sounds Deep pain Never ending darkness Back in the light Parents cry Memories flow Friends mourn Somewhere, someone sees the story A newscaster tells of death They don't cry They don't mourn They plan They dream of darkness They dream of death They look for a good place at a bad time They look into innocent eyes And they kill The cycle starts again And more children die

Sacrifice
They say that time changes things But you actually have to change them yourself And that change must come from within During this time I have taken to look inside myself to see what the answers were I've finally realized that the important thing is this I have to be to able to sacrifice what I am for the sake of what I will become

Gun Control..
When madmen go on killing sprees in America, they use guns. Inevitably, in the aftermath, the arguments about gun control begin. But a poll conducted in the days after the Virginia Tech massacre found that the majority of Americans don't fully align themselves with either the pro- or anti-gun arguments. The MSN-Zogby poll found that 59 percent of Americans do not believe stricter gun control policies would have prevented Cho Seung-Hui from killing 32 people and then himself in the worst mass murder in America's history. The poll found that only 36 percent of those polled believe stronger gun control could have prevented the shootings. However, arming more Americans with guns is not the answer either, most people say. Slightly more than half of those polled—54 percent—say that more guns would not stop killing sprees. Thirty-eight percent believe a better-armed populace could help prevent such mayhem. (The interactive survey of 1,336 adults nationwide was conducted April 17-18, 200

Suicidal Thoughts
suicidal thoughts.................. Current mood: crazy Suicidal thoughts! the feeling of giving in to the pain and suffering being endured for so long. Trying to imagine at night, alone in my room what it would be like if my life was to end. Or what if I ended my life what here and now. Knifes are at my finger tips. Wanting to grab the cold wooden handle the bares blood stains from the war's in the Phillipines form soldiers that has passed through a single swing of a blade. Hearing the voices in my head speak to me and want me to end my pain and suffering. Willing to get in a tub of water and dropping a electrical cord in the tub to die fast. Again, I ask myself is this how I should end my life? I know it is not proper to burry your son before his parentes but someday it just might happen. Shall I take a .22 and blast my self and have brains splatterd all over the wall? Remebering hearing my mom telling me i'm not worth living! YOU SHOULD DIE was her exact words! Grandmother be

6 Reasons Not To Mess With Children.
A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales. The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal, its throat was very small. The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible. The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah". The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?" The little girl replied, "Then you ask him." A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing. She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was. The girl replied, "I'm drawing God." The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like." Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "T

Who Is Watching The Kids
EVERYONE NEEDS TO READ ALL OF THIS and HAVE YOUR CHILDREN READ IT TOO! After tossing her books on the sofa, she decided to grab a snack and get on-line . She logged on under her screen name B yAngel213. She checked her Buddy List and saw GoTo123 was on. She sent him an instant message: ByAngel213: Hi. I'm glad you are on! I thought someone was following me home today. It was really weird! GoTo123: LOL You watch too much TV. Why would someone be following you? Don't you live in a safe neighborhood? ByAngel213: Of course I do. LOL I guess it was my imagination cuz' I didn't see anybody when I looked out. GoTo123: Unless you gave your name out on-line. You haven't done that have you? ByAngel213: Of course not. I'm not stupid you know. GoTo123: Did you have a softball game after school today? ByAngel213: Yes and we won!! GoTo123: That's great! Who did you play? ByAngel213: We played the Hornets. LOL. Their uniforms are so gross! They look like bees. LOL GoTo123: What is your team called? B

I Have Learned By Vincent John Ancona
I Have Learned by Vincent John Ancona http://www.myspace.com/phagaccino In this life That greatness Is a careless whisper away And is found where you least Expect it. I have learned. I have witnessed that true love Should be experienced, not sought after. Nor tempted through the wreckage of impatience Pulsating inside the heart's of all men A black worm through the apple I have seen. I have felt that life is short And must be cherished That the clock stops for no one Not even the planets And that time presses forward. I have understood. I have noticed that an indigo dusk Is not permanent That all creations wonders pass by In the blink of an eye That all mens struggles Are not in vain. I have remembered. I have seen how small I am And how great the Universe is How the cosmos so briefly grace us With its solar omnipotence And how one person can change so much I have struggled. I believ

We Learned Of Love By Joseph Pisano
We Learned Of Love by Joseph Pisano http://www.mustech.net Holding hands in the park- We learned the secrets of friendship Holding each other in our arms- We learned of our deep affection Holding each other tightly- We learned to survive the bad times In caring for one another- We learned of Love Joseph M. Pisano, Professor of Music and Fine Arts at Grove City College, Grove City PA, is an educator, ensemble conductor and jazz trumpet player. More information about him can be found at http://www.mustech.net and http://www.jpisano.com.

Love
LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T TAKE FOR GRANTED, IT IS LIKE A PLANT, IF YOU DON'T NUTURE IT, LOVE WILL DIE. LOVE CAN BE THE MOST EXCITING THING TO COME INTO YOUR LIFE. BUT IT IS SOMETHING THAT HAS TO BE WANTED LOVE, WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT ONE SHORT WORD COULD RULE PEOPLE'S LIVES IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS IF PEOPLE COULD EMBRACE THAT ONE SHORT WORD AND PASS IT ON TO EVERYONE THEY MEET THEN EVERYONE COULD ENJOY LOVE, HAPPINESS, AND WORLD PEACE.

What Men Truly Know
What men truly know by Bryant H. McGill and Chris S. Heinen, December of 2004 http://www.myspace.com/bryantmcgill Men know many things Of beginnings, middles and ends Lifted heroes, fallen Kings Changes like the winds Needs, Hopes, and distant dreams The suffering that makes us stronger Things that are, and things that seem And a life, we wish was longer Birth, death and a brief moment For mistakes guilt and regret Sins that need divine atonement Our wrongs to thus unset Many more; are the things unknown Yet all can know good deeds Thus are mighty beauties grown From such wanton seeds

As A Young Girl
AS A YOUNG GIRL MY MIND IS FULL OF VISIONS OF WHO I WANT TO BE AND WHERE I WANT TO GO HOW I WANT TO LIVE AND WHO I WANT TO LIVE WITH MY HEART IS FULL OF DREAMS LIKE THE HOUSE I WANT TO LIVE IN THE KIND OF CAR I WANT TO OWN THE WEDDING THAT I CAN ONLY DREAM OF AND THE MAN OF MY DREAMS STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO ME AND RIGHT NOW THAT MAN IS YOU SWEETHEART

Accident
ok i was driving to this place called crossroads and i went to turn and i didnt turn the wheel all the why and i hit this dude. i got out of the car my car didnt have any damage. and the guy had no lience and it wasnt his car. and he didnt speak english! and he wanted 1,500 for damages and there were no damages to his car. thank god my car is made of plastic

One Night With The Portly Pimp, What Would You Do?
OK Ladies here is your chance For a prize to be determined at a later date, tell me what you would like if you had an evening with me. The most original and creative answer wins.

Why Don't Ya'll Listen?
i recently updated the aboutme section in my profile the jist of which was: to any and all guys lookin for a cheap thrill don't bother comin near my page. i don't want to rate your pix, i don't want ya'll lookin at mine. i'm here to make friends not spend my time talkin to perv's and nut jobs. if ya'll want points rate me, fan me idon't mind, if ya wanna add me go ahead but dont expect me to start gettin fucked up with y'all. since i've posted that they've gotten worse fuck off and leave me alone if ya'll don't wanna get to know me.

From My First Look
FROM MY FIRST LOOK WITH THE FIRST TOUCH JUST LIKE A BOOK ON A BURNING TORCH I FELT WITHIN THE ODDEST FEELING THAT KEEPS ON GROWING WITHOUT A CHANCE OF FLEEING THE FEELING UNKNOWN WITH ONLY ONE ANSWER AS EVERY ONE KNOWS WHICH IS KNOWN AS TRUE LOVE

A Discussion In School
In class today (Technology Science & Culture)The issue was brough up about Gun Control. With most of the students being young and inexperienced in the world I got the usual barrage of "we need to ban them all", & "Guns Kill people". Here is my listed response verbatim: Ahh the professor takes up a subject that I am a qualified expert on. So we understand that I'm not talking out of my backside, I will explain. Please note this is not to brag, this is to let people know that I DO know what I am talking about. I shot my first gun at age 8. At age 11 I was competing regularly. in 93 I was rated among the top 10 shooters in the nation for my given discipline. I have been a certified Instructor for over 11 years. I served in the U.S. Army as a member of the 3rd Ranger Bn., Ft. Benning Ga. I have worked as a lobbyist in having the Right to Carry law passed, then re-passed in my home state of Minnesota. On an average year I used to put 60,000 rounds downrange. Mind you this is with a

A Quote For Men
My Father taught me how to be a man – and not by instilling in me a sense of machismo or an agenda of dominance. He taught me that a real man doesn’t take, he gives; he doesn’t use force, he uses logic; doesn’t play the role of trouble-maker, but rather, trouble-shooter; and most importantly, a real man is defined by what’s in his heart, not his pants. Kevin Smith,

In The Depths Of Your Eyes
IN THE DEPTHS OF YOUR EYES I SEE LOVE LIKE NO OTHER A REAL SENSE OF CARING TRUST COMPAIRED TO NO OTHER AN EQUAL FEEL FOR SHARING KINDNESS WHICH ONLY COMES FROM THE HEART A TRUE FEELING OF FORGIVENESS A COMPLETE UNDERSTANDING OF MY SOUL AND HEART WILLINGNESS TO GIVE ME HAPPINESS THE COMFORT THAT IS TAKEN AND GIVEN ALL THE JOY THAT IS RECEIVED AN OPENING TO YOUR SOUL THAT IS BEING GIVEN SEEING ALL IN BEING RECEIVED WITH UNDERSTANDING AND KNOWING THE VOID IN YOUR HEART AND MINE IS FINALLY FILLED

My Imperfections.
The other evening, I was eating dinner at a local restaurant, minding my own business...laughing with my daughter over stories of her day, watching my son fill his plate at the buffet...when a woman walked up to the table. I had never seen this woman before in my life, but she approached me and started asking questions about my skin. "I know this is odd and I hate to bother you but...is that dermatitis?" She asked me, pointing to my chest and left cheek at the skin discoloration there. "I only ask because I noticed it from across the room... {gee, thanks for reminding me how noticeable my imperfections are, you bitch} ...and my grandson has something that looks a bit like that. We've been thinking it might be dermatitis." I was speechless. I seriously didn't know what to say. And, for those of you who know me, you know that doesn't happen often. My daughter and I looked at each other, wide-eyed. After stammering for a moment, I explained to her that the discoloration had

In Memory Of Diane Wright
Hello to you all. This is my first blog and it is going to be a sad one. Yesterday April 17, 2007 one of my co-workers was killed on her way to pick up a load of students. A truck hit her school bus head on and then burst into flames. The driver of the truck was able to get out, Mrs. Diane was not so lucky. She was killed on impact and the bus also caught on fire. Please, Please if you pray, say a prayer for Mrs Diane's family as well as all of us. When I say us I mean her bus driver family. This could have easily been me or any other driver on the road. She will be laid to rest on Friday. Fortunately, the bus was unloaded. We all take for granted that we will always have another day to live. That is not the case. This could be my last blog if the good Lord calls me home. However, I hope I live to post several more. Never hesitate to tell some one that you love them. You may never have that chance again. Thank you for taking the time to read this and please remember the Wrig

The Perfect Relationship
TO SEE WHAT'S NOT SHOWN TO HEAR WHATS NOT SPOKEN TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S SAID TO SHARE YOUR FEELIGNS WITH EACH OTHER TO FEEL WHAT'S NOT PHYSICAL TO ACCEPT THE OTHER'S FEELINGS TO GIVE WITHOUT CARING TO RECEIVE WHAT'S GIVEN TO GIEV ONE'S HEART WITHOUT FEAR TO ALWAYS BE THERE FOR THE OTHER TO CARE FOR WITHOUT EXPECTATIONS TO LOVE WITHOUT CONDITIONS TO SAY I LOVE YOU WITH YOUR HEART

Cam Shows
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My Ex's Blog....
Well a little cooling off and Im fine LOL, Ya know I figure Im not gonna get in an uproar, Actualy its kind of a good thing, I get rid of a syko and someone else inherits the bitch. So it kinda makes things real easy to move on. I just cant figure out why I keep marrying Ho's First one cheated while I was on the road, Second one did the same thing and the thrird one moves a Divorced man in while I am out working on the road and then post blogs about the Will dude throwing swinging dicks in my face, Ok so I admit it I had the electric cut off that was in my name , But I figure all them dicks shes on they can pay the shit themselves, No sense in my credit getting fucked when she decides not to pay it. Right ? Yea so now you figured it out the Poll I did was about my sittuation ( see Blog The REsults are in ) I figured we would leave this one better than the last time and I dropped it left the electric on and next thing I know shes posting blogs about meeting men every night and tha

Lord Byron, The Incantation Of Manfred
When the moon is on the wave, And the glow-worm in the grass, And the meteor on the grave, And the wisp on the morass; When the falling stars are shooting, And the answer'd owls are hooting, And the silent leaves are still In the shadow of the hill, Shall my soul be upon thine, With a power and with a sign. Though thy slumber may be deep, Yet thy spirit shall not sleep; There are shades which will not vanish, There are thoughts thou canst not banish; By a power to thee unknown, Thou canst never be alone; Thou art wrapt as with a shroud, Thou art gather'd in a cloud; And forever shalt thou dwell In the spirit of this spell. Though thou seest me not pass by, Thou shalt feel me with thine eye As a thing that, though unseen, Must be near thee, and hath been; And when in that secret dread Thou hast turn'd around thy head, Thou shalt marvel I am not As thy shadow on the spot, And the power whi

Fulfill Your Best Possibilities
You know how completely right it feels when you genuinely offer kindness to another person. You've felt how truly right it can be when you're following a positive purpose with focus and passion and commitment. And you know how wrong it can feel when you give yourself over to doubt, negativity, anger, and empty indulgences. So why do you keep going down those negative pathways, and so often turn your back on what you know is right? Perhaps it's the perception that you have no other choice, that you're obligated to be tossed around by whatever comes your way. But that's not the case at all. Certainly there are all sorts of things which are outside your control. But you always have complete control over what you do about them. That uplifting and energizing feeling of doing what you know is right can be a part of every single moment if you choose for it to be. The sickening feeling of regret need never darken even a single day. At any given time you can choose to punish yours

Life
FROM A SEED YOU PLANT IT WATER IT SO IT WILL GROW YOU WATCH IT GROW OVER THE YEARS YOUR AWED OVER THE CHANGES IT MAKES AND YOU WONDER HOW MANY MORE CHANGES ARE TO COME OVER THE YEARS SO YOU START PAYING MORE ATTENTION TO IT AS THE YEARS GO ON AND YOU REALIZE THAT THE CHANGES IT MAKES ARE TIED DIRECTLY INTO THE PATH YOU HAVE CHOSEN TO LIVE SO YOU START TO EXPERIMENT BY TAKING OTHER PATHS THAT YOU WOULD NOT NORMALLY TAKE AND OVER THE YEARS OF EXPERIMENTING YOU NOTICE THAT IT HAS STARTED TO WEAKEN SO YOU STOP TAKING THOSE OTHER PATHS YOU'VE BEEN TAKING AND AS THE YEARS GO BY YOU NOTICE LITTLE CHANGE SO YOU START PAYING CLOSE ATTENTION TO THE PATH BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN YOU CATCH YOURSELF STARTING DOWN ONE OF THOSE OTHER PATHS AND YOU JUMP BACK TO THE PATH YOU WERE ON AND AS THE YEARS GO ON YOU WATCH IT GROW STRONGER LITTLE BY LITTLE WHICH MAKES IT EASIER FOR YOU TO STAY ON YOUR CHOSEN PATH

Friends
Hello! FRIENDS ARE LIKE BALOONS ONCE U LET THEM GO U CANT GET THEM BACK SO IM GOING TO TIE U TO MY HEART SO I NEVER LOSE U. SEND THIS TO ALL UR FRIENDS INCLUDING ME! SEE HOW MANY U GET BACK ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ....I Love you .....I Love you ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ....I Love you .....I Love you ......I Love you .......I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you ........I Love you .......I Love you ......I Love you .....I Love you ....I Love you ...I Love you ..I Love you .I Love you .I Love you .I Love you ..I Love you ...I Love you ...

Lord Byron, The Vampyre
A turban carved in coarsest stone, A pillar with rank weeds o'ergrown, Whereon can now be scarcely read The Koran verse that mourns the dead, Point out the spot where Hassan fell A victim in that lonely dell. There sleeps as true an Osmanlie As e'er at Mecca bent the knee; As ever scorn'd forbidden wine, Or pray'd with face towards the shrine, In orisons resumed anew At solemn sound of "Alla Hu!" Yet died he by a stranger's hand, And stranger in his native land; Yet died he as in arms he stood, And unavenged, at least in blood. But him the maids of Paradise Impatient to their halls invite, And the dark Heaven of Houris' eyes On him shall glance for ever bright; They come---their kerchiefs green they wave, And welcome with a kiss the brave! Who falls in battle 'gainst a Giaour Is worthiest an immortal bower. But thou, false Infidel! shall writhe Beneath avenging Monkir's scythe; And from its torments 'scape alone To wander round lost Eblis' thr

What You Have Given Me
YOUR TOUCH IS LIKE A COOL BREEZE THAT MAKES YOUR HAIR STAND ON END AND SENDS A CHILL DOWN YOUR BACK AND MAKES YOU SHIVER FROM DEEP INSIDE YOUR LOOK IS LIKE A CUP OF HOT COCO THAT MAKES YOUR BODY FEEL WARM ALL OVER AND A NICE SOOTHING FEELING INSIDEAND A FEELING THAT NOTHING CAN GO WRONG YOUR LOVE IS LIKE NOTHING ELSE I HAVE KNOWN IT MAKES ME FEEL TINGLEY ALL OVER AND IT HAS CONQUERED THE WALLS OF MY PAST AND NOW I CAN SAY I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS THANKS TO YOU MY LOVE

Do You Has?
Have you ever thought to yourself, "Self, please stop touching me." And then yourself says back, "But you know you like it." And then you get all creeped out that the voices are back? You might need therapy.

Broiled Sea Bass With Fennel
Broiled Sea Bass with Fennel This wonderful French dish traditionally uses the bass called loupe de mer, which isn't available in U.S. waters. The good news is that sea bass, striped bass and various snappers make terrific substitutes. Have your fishmonger scale and gut your fish, and you're ready to go! Credit: McClane's New Standard Fishing Encyclopedia Servings: 4 Ingredients: Bass * 1 (2-to-3-pound) sea bass * Salt * Pepper * 1/4 cup heated Pernod or brandy, optional Stuffing * 1 cup fennel stalks, cut into 2-inch pieces * 4 tablespoons melted butter * Salt * Pepper * Sweet butter * Ground fennel Alternate stuffing * 2 stalks celery, split lengthwise and cut into 2-inch pieces * 3/4 teaspoon ground fennel * Butter * Salt * Pepper Directions: Season the cavity of the dressed fish with salt and pepper. Fill with fennel stalks, butter, salt and pepper (or alternate s

You Know What I Love?
When I spend twenty five fucking dollars on a new monroe stud and then I lose the stupid thing while redoing my make-up. That's the second fucking one I've lost in two days. If I didn't have such chubby cheeks maybe I wouldn't have to wear it loose and then I wouldn't lose shit. I hate my face.

We Are Virginia Tech
When a native of Virginia thinks of institutes of higher learning, at least six can come to mind to the common Virginian: University of Virginia, Virginia Tech, Virginia Commonwealth University, University of Richmond, James Madison University and Radford University. Naturally all of these schools have one rival or another, but the one that really stands out is UVA vs. Tech. I have to admit that I am a fanatic of UVA. It was never something that was drilled into my head, I just couldn't understand who could like a school whose mascot was a turkey. My animosity towards Tech turned into seething hatred when those damned Hokies beat my beloved Caviliers year in, year out in football. That all changed on April 16, 2007... Unfortunately in life, it takes a tragic incident that can change one's views on age old rivalies. We all know of the senseless act of violence that Cho Seung-Hui carried out of the faculty and student body of Virginia Tech. The massacre rallied our commonwealth

Naughty Guys And Gals
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I Wonder...
How do you let go of something that you have loved and held dear for years? I have to figure this question out soon because it is eating me up. I can't seem to just get over it and move on. I am talking about someone I hold close to my heart still to this day. It has been years since we were together and I never got the closure that I needed for it to be truely over. I talk to him every now and then but then we go through these spells where he doesn't want to answer me at all. He wont return my calls or IM's. Yes it drives me nuts but I just can't seem to let go. We have always had a mutual agreement that he would smile for me when he tells me to go away. But even through the break up and both of us getting remarried he still will not tell me to go away. Part of me says it is because he still loves me but then the other 90% says that I am absoluty crazy and he is just being a ass. But the worse things get with the current hubby the more I just want him to be that sholder tha

A Poem For That Special One! ;)
Walking thru cherrytap, Looking from girl to girl, She fell right into my lap, She has basically rocked my world! Learning about her life, Listening to every spoken word, Wanting to ease her strife, Letting her know she is heard! I am offering out my hand, Of friendship, and love, Writing your name in the sand, Wishing on a star above!

Another Song
"Right Here" "by Staind" I know I've been mistaken But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made I've got some imperfections But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting I hope you're not intending To be so condescending it's as much as i can take and you're so independent you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting I've made a commitment I'm willing to bleed for you I needed fulfillment I found what I need in you Why can't you just fo

The Most Functional English Word
The Most Functional English Word Well, it's shit ... that's right, shit! Shit may just be the most functional word in the English language. Consider: You can get shit-faced, Be shit-out-of-luck, Or have shit for brains. With a little effort, you can get your shit together, find a place for your shit, or be asked to shit or get off the pot. ! You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit, And tell others to eat shit. Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference between shit and shineola. There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits. There is bull shit, horse shit, and chicken shit. You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit, shoot the shit, or duck when the shit hits the fan. You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle. You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit. Some days are colder than shit, some days are h

New Ct
Hey friends and family I ended up with 2 CT's so i am not going to keep this one going. My other email add for CT is partygrl123@yahoo.com please add me as ur friend so we all can keep up Hugs and Kisses everyone

The Mind Of A Killer
The Mind of a Killer: First let me offer my sincere condolences to the families affected by the Virginia Tech dramatic shooting. May God bless the souls of all the victims that suffered this awful tragedy. On Monday April 16th 2007 a gunman massacred 32 people at Virginia Tech in the deadliest shooting rampage in modern U.S. history. I can only hope for the millions of people involved in the fields of mental health, criminology, psychology, psychiatry, law enforcement, and community leaders to read my work. May they be able to acknowledge "The Universal Code" in action. Furthering one's cosmic consciousness can only sharpen the perception and anticipate the action of a potential killer as to avoid another terrible tragedy. Erudite men from all ages understood the Universal Clock and dwelt with the Universal Mind accordingly and as Porphyry wrote, "He is happy who having learned the scheme of his nativity and knowing his guardian angel, becomes liberated from Fate." A modern inf

Goodnight My Peeps!
CommentCloset I came home today with a sick child with a fever of 101.0 so i guess i best get some rest in case i get a wake up call at 3 am because her fever reducer wore off. Goodnight all, Much love!HUGS~Heather

Best Friends
Thank you for being my friend Thank you for listening When I didn’t need judgement Or even advice But just needed to talk Thank you for smiling When all I needed was to know That someone cared Thank you for laughing When I needed to feel happy Thank you for that small gift That made me feel special Thank you For remembering my birthday Thank you For lighting a candle when darkness fell upon me Thank you for holding my hand Thank you For being my friend

Offline!
I gotta get rid of my internet for a while, at least until i can get a better paying job. just got a new car and that has priority over internet. I will try to check my stuff as often as possible, but im not sure how often. I hate doin it, but i promised i would get rid of it if a new car was got. I got much love for all my fellow cherrys, and ill see you on the flip side!!

Hate
No this is not really a poem , more like a collection of feelings thrown out in words. ----- I hate you I hate you god how I fucking hate you Im not playing your fool ,Im not going to care Im tired of this game ,so guess what... were through no more I loves no more I cares you can choke on that ego I DONT FUCKING CARE Id rather be hit , by a bullet gone stray then spend another minute listening to the shit that you say Im better then that , Im actually too good for you so dont even bother and please dear, dont try Im done with your lies Im done with your games not even if you changed your ways you made me a fool , more like a clown but somehow you always could turn me around But not this time , I hope you choke good luck and god bless goodbye and so long I hope you are proud , I hate you no doubt

Gettysburg Battlefield And National Fallen Firefighters Memorial
If you would like hi-resolution copies or to see more pictures like I posted under "Pictures I have taken" visit my website (http://skylerhart.com) and click on the downloads link. Once on the downloads page Click on the "Pictures taken on 19 Apr 2007" link to download a compressed folder containing 148 pictures. When you are finished downloading, extract the files to the folder of your choice and veiw the pictures. Hope you all enjoy them if you decide to download them! I had a lot of fun taking them. ~Sky

Iron Horse Cowboy (poetry - Written In 2001)
Iron Horse Cowboy ================= Grips instead of reins, Tires instead of hooves Gas instead of hay, Growl instead of snort My horse is Japanese steel, And my range is the Interstate 15. I'm an Iron Horse Cowboy in the Southern California haze My steed stays in the parking lot instead of left in a field to graze. Always at the ready, saddled by default My horse of Japanese steel is ready. . .a twist of a key and we're off. I'm an Iron Horse Cowboy in the San Diego haze Stuck in traffic, we idle. . .if it were flesh, it would graze... My Cowgirl's now at her job An accountant for a small firm Her pony's waiting outside on the asphalt, parked at the curb. 500 cc's of Suzuki steel and black as midnight with no moon Her pony's waiting outside with a full gas tank Ready to ride... We are Iron Horse Cowfolk in the San Diego haze My Lady and I, together, we ride our asphalt and concrete range... Robert Patrick McGuire Copyright ©2007 Robert Patrick McG

I Never Knew My Father (poetry - Written In 2001)
I Never Knew My Father ====================== I never knew my father He died when I was small Didn't know what I was missing Because my mother did it all. No, I never knew my father I understand it's just as well For what he did to our family (If there's divine justice) His soul's spending an eternity in Hell. I never knew my father No Dad, nor any of his kin, Why make an effort to know them After all this time - now 34 years Where would we ever begin? If he hadn't died, he would have left us This we know - he left a note I wouldn't have known him anyway No regrets - just his way No, I never knew my father It's just as well. Robert Patrick McGuire Copyright ©2007 Robert Patrick McGuire

Armchair Bull Rider (poetry - Written In 2001)
Armchair Bull Rider =================== I dream of the challenge The snort The smell The fight The try 2000 pounds of yard-wide bull beneath me But dreams are as close as I'll get Just an armchair bull rider In corporate America Where the only "bull" I ride Is the financial kind And the only snorts Are of derision Robert Patrick McGuire Copyright ©2007 Robert Patrick McGuire

2 Movies Pissing Me Off!
Well, Im gonna make a mad rant right now about 2 movies coming out in the theatres. The Invisible, and Disturbia........now I am sure that these will be box office hits, but COME ON PEOPLE! We have seen these before! I Loved the movie The Invisible when it came out the first time as "GHOST!" and oh my my my.......I Absolutely LOVED Disturbia the 1st time Hitchcock did it.... "REAR WINDOW!" I mean do the people in hollywood think we are all idiots!? It just pisses me off. However: Saw the movie Grindhouse, and it was really nice to see original movies, even the fake Movie trailers made this movie MOST Excellent. Anyways that is my rant.......thank you for tolerating it. ~~BW

Dreamweave
I am here to weave your dreams to let your fantasies come through let me know your innerfantasy and let me weave our dreams together so our dreams can come true So let me weave your dreams and who knows what will come through

A Rider's Lament (poetry - Written In 2001)
A Rider's Lament ================ A steel bronc With a gray naugahyde saddle Sits in my driveway today. 800cc's of proud Honda steel All set and ready to ride; A touring bike beauty With a body of pearl white Sits, waiting in the rain, outside. It's too cold to ride, Too wet on the roads, So my steel bronc sits In the driveway today. A steel horse cowboy, Getting cautious and old, Waits for warmer mornings to ride. Be patient, my friend, They're soon on the way, But for now, it's just way too cold. Robert Patrick McGuire Copyright ©2007 Robert Patrick McGuire

Reflections On Relationships
Instead of writing about my day as I usually do when I am not writing Poems. I thought I'd just write straight about how I feel about things in general. I'll try not to get too emo on everything. I've had my fair share of downsliding on friendship, actually just relationships in general. Be it platonic or not. I've attempted to have friends on a platonic level. They have resulted in too much as usual. They usual get so intense they turn into something i don't want. Or they start off good and work backwards. I'm still hoping for the best no matter what. I take advice from a good friend of mine. She tells me that I am cool. The reasoning is that no matter how fucked up people treat me, ignore me, act like they are busy when they are on here 24/7... I still matter to stay the type of person I am. Which makes me happy... i don't see myself as the type of person who changes much. The only extreme change that happened in me was from my first real sexual relationship.

It's A Rainy Dull Day
Just spilling thoughts here...... I woke up this morning to a virtual blizzard and thought to myself - yep it's gonna be one of those days. Luckily, the snow gave way to a cold rain, however, the gloom of the day had already set my mood. I have been licking the wounds of a break up since last year and days like this always make me think of those times when we used to cuddle under blankets - talking, laughing and just spending time together. Kind of weighs heavy on the heart. None the less, the day has been as dreary as my mood today and all I could think of is what I could have done different to save my ten year relationship. Nothing comes to mind yet everything comes to mind and as my day goes on, I smile politely to people at work, share a joke or two and put my nose to the grindstone so thinking of anything other than work was not an option. My day continued on as it normally does and before I knew it, it was time to head home. I was riding the bus home - which takes m

A Cowboy's Life (poetry - Written In 2001)
A Cowboy's Life to my wife, Elaine, and our daughters, Kasandra and Dezirae My black wool hat It's as black as our cat But without the insistent purr. With a rattlesnake band And small silver conchos, it's grand, Western, made of felt, not fur. Black leather I wear A jacket, with easy care, And Durango boots as black as the night. "Cowboy" they call me And a steel cowboy I am, A rider of iron horses On and off concrete on-ramps. "Cowboy Daddy" to my little girl And just "Daddy" to my older daughter My wife's my sweet cowgirl With whom my life's so complete - I love you, my sweethearts, You're truly my world, My wife, my love, and my two sweet girls. Robert Patrick McGuire Copyright ©2007 Robert Patrick McGuire

Coming Undone
Keep holding on When my brain's tickin' like a bomb Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me Sweet bitter words Unlike nothing I have heard Sing along mocking bird You don't affect me That's right Deliverance of my heart Please strike Be deliberate [Chorus] Wait I'm coming undone Irate I'm coming undone Too late I'm coming undone One looks so strong So delicate Wait I'm starting to suffocate And soon I anticipate I'm coming undone One looks so strong So delicate Choke choke again I thought my demons were my friends Getting me in the end They're out to get me Since I was young I've tasted sorrow on my tongue And this sweet sugar gun Does not protect me That's right Trigger between my eyes Please strike Make it quick now [Chorus] I'm trying to hold it together Head is lighter than a feather Looks like i'm not getting better Not getting better (Korn)

How?
Never say I love you, if it isn't really there.. Never talk about feeling, if you really don't care, Never hold my hand, if your going to break my heart Never say your gonna, if you never plan to start, Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye, If you really mean forever, then please say you'll try Never say forever, because forever makes me cry... *************************************************

Precious Time
Tears shine like diamonds, As they rain from my eyes, I send this lonely wish, To the first star in Heaven's sky, A wish to hold you close to me, And wake by your side, Feel your breath on my skin, as I softly kiss your eyes, If these tears could make a river, The I could swim my way to you, I hope you know in your heart, I'd swim any ocean for you, If my thought of you could give me wings, I'd fly there tonight, And if it really is the thought that counts, Believe me I tried, If I could change time, I would speed it up and stop it too, To the moment you are in my arms, Then be lost in that moment with you, I've come to find some wishes, just don't come true, Thats why I am so greatful, For the precious time I spend with you. I love you my little angel!

Forever And Always True
Theres no mountain high enough, Theres no wall I won't climb, Forever isnt long enough, To out wait this heart of mine, I'm here for you, A thousand times on end, Then without a second thought, i would do it all again, I never dreamed I could fall this far, I never knew I could love so much, Every time you smile at me, I love you twice as much, I never knew I could do the things I do, You make me shine just by being with you, I love you more than life its self, Forever and always True.

What Is A Friend?
Being someone's friend is one of the most precious gifts you can give someone. Well, it can be if you are a true friend. It doesn't matter if it is real life or on the net, though some people will argue people on the net are not "real" friends. So what is a friend? I have rambled a little about that before. A friend is someone who listens... or when on the net... reads. Listening isn't just hearind/reading the words, but understanding the meaning behind them, the feelings, the reasons you say them. A friend wants to listen. It isn't something forced on them, but they really want you to open up and tell them. A friend is honest with you. Sometimes that means telling you things that hurt, things that you don't want to hear. But even when things are hard to say to you they willtell you the truth. A friend forgives. It doesn't matter what was done, in the end they forgive you. Sometimes this can be hard. I know some of my best friends have ripped out my heart, but I

In Your Thoughts
In your thoughts you can go anywhere and do anything that you can imagine. No person or circumstance can prevent you from having the thoughts you wish to explore. Even when the worst that could happen has indeed come to pass, in your thoughts you can turn it around. Even if everything seems to be working against you, you still can think of ways for it all to be working in your favor. Your thoughts can take you back in time and forward too. Thoughts can take you to the top of the highest mountain and into the middle of the deepest forest. Your thoughts can linger contemplatively in a particular place, or travel instantly to the other side of the universe. The only limit upon your thoughts is what you choose to think. And whatever thoughts you choose to have are the very thoughts that will direct your life. They'll determine how you perceive whatever comes your way, and they'll be responsible for what you do about it. Always you are able to choose your thoughts, in every ki

Holding A Contest
CONTEST IS.... MEN AND WOMEN WITH SEX ABS OR BUTTS....SEND ME PRIVATE MAIL....MUST BE ONE THAT WILL NOT BE nsfw..... THERE WILL BE TWO WINNERS..... ONE MALE ONE FEMALE.... SO MEN....DO U WANT A BRACELET SO LADIES...DO U WANT A THOSE DIAMONDS EARINGS... COME HIT ME WITH UR BEST ABS...MEN....WOMEN...LETS SEE IF U GOT THE BEST BUTT ON CHERRYTAP.... SEND ME PIC THAT U WANT ME TO RIP AND PLACE IN THIS CONTEST.... I NEED 10 WOMEN AND 10 MEN BEFORE I CAN START THE CONTEST.... BABYGIRL....AKA FIRESTAR DAUGTHER

1,000 Miles
1,000 miles, what I would give to reach through this phone, Touch your beautiful face, To finally be home, I close my eyes and picture you, curled up on the bed, holding your pillow like it was me, the phone resting by your head, Chorus: Tonight I close my eyes, Its one more dream of you, One more dream about your eyes, And holding you, Tonight when i close my eyes, Its one more dream about you, One more dream about your eyes, And how Heaven shines through, Baby- know I love you, more each passing day, Seems this distance pulls my heart closer, Though the tears fall the same, Keep your faith, Know it in your heart, That I am all yours, Even when we're worlds apart, Chorus

Down
Goodbye, goodbye again So weighed down Drowning in my sins I go down to the altar I genuflect the deities there I was told I was a star Where is the light? Where is the light I was supposed to shine? Are all stars as obscure as I? Was it all a lie? Was it all a lie? Goodnight, goodnight again Nightmares wait For me to come to bed I go down to the water I wash the blood off there I was told I was great What happened to me here? What happened to me here That stole me away into fear? Are the great as lost as I? Was it all a lie? Was it all a lie? Goodbye, goodbye again For the last kiss on your fiery skin I go down to the fire I burn my iniquities there I was told I was beautiful What happened to my visage? What happened to my visage? I was supposed to be this wonderful image. Is all beauty as horrid as this? Was it all a lie? Was it all a lie? Goodnight, goodnight again One more kiss You give my flesh and then We go down to our dreams

People Just Stop Ok
Look my last blog was abotu my life ok - no one else's life - someone elses's problem brought me to a point where I needed to let out some shit about my life. MINE - those are my experiences no one elses, my thoughts no one elses, my words no one elses. I did not write it to offend people I wrote it to feel better in my own mind and try to give someone a look into the mind of someone who has been hurt in life . . . someone who hasn't been sheltered away by the love of family and all that. These blogs are mine and arenot meant to upset anyone. I talk about what affects me - I do not try to make myself a part of something I am not I do try to help people - which I am now seeing must fucking stop. I can't help those who do not want to be helped and I am tired of being used in situations that I am not a part of but only try to give my opinions on. I never get the entire truth so therefore I am done with helping others . . . If you continue to read the blogs that puts you at f

Sex Toy
I feel like a sex toy That is all I ever really was Held down And played with No feelings or emotions Just a hollow body A child's mind And my heart wrenching screams That tore me apart No one ever heard me Or so it seems Used And tossed to the side Always trying to run and hide Scared And scared My soul forever taken By one too many people Who took me forsaken I will never be the same I'm torn to little pieces Pieces' of me'gone Lost My mind is like a whirlwind Never really slowing down My heart is frozen From the hate' I need this all to end Before it's all too late These memories attacking me Driving me insane I just want this all to make sense This little girl Used And abused Simply tossed away I was doomed from the start I never knew What love was And now My sick and twisted perception Maybe holding me back from all that I love Worthless Useless Merely a toy Just some guy's fun Is all I ever was My voice gone I could never

Paradise
Depression pulls at you Like the arms of a sadistic fantasy. You fall back into nothing To watch the world disappear Within a crimson chasm. Nothing breaks the falls You don’t stop falling Even through the bloodied concrete Not until you reach her arms. You shudder there in the only paradise You have ever been able to escape to. Jealousy puts more green In your eyes than any gem comprehends. You’d put her under glass And label all the parts If only she wouldn’t’ve Had to hurt through it all. You contemplate How to kill competition Even when you’re in her arms. You shudder there in the only paradise You have ever been able to escape to. Obsession keeps pictures Of her in your wallet and on your walls. You want to keep her happy And will do anything To make sure she knows it. You won’t stop hunting Her every imprint on the earth. You’ll beg for her to kiss you When you’re being held by her arms. You shudder there in the only paradise You have ever been a

Just My Warped Humor
I was in my car alot today so for whatever reason i just had this lil iner demon that said be a lil bad so i rolled down my window and screamed out he(meening my hubby michael)is wearing wolverine underwear.Then I started laughing at my own thoughts ok I think this is funny.I thought about a shirt that had a pic of a baby with big red circle and slash through it that said be a baby killer....masterbate.LOL.I know like I said warped humor.Then I thought of this one.Swallow b*tch there are whores getting paid for what you can have for free.LOL OMG Im so warped but that to me is funny

Angela Aki
I must say that my husband, Jeremy, had got me hooked on Angela Aki. She mostly sings in Japanese, but love her songs just the same! Here's some karaoke video of her song "This Love" One of my favorites.

Umm I Dunno
A million ways to hurt yourself, I've found a million and one, A daily war against myself, just to see how far I can go before it can't be fixed My masochistic ways will catch up to me someday, teeter myself along the edge, just before I leap, Pain is only temporary, reminds you that you're alive, I just make sure I'm still living...

Prayers
On Tuesday morning 32 kids woke up not knowing it would be the last day of their lives. Their parents woke up that morning thinking they would see their kids for summer break, have them home for Thanksgiving, and Christmas only to find out that these just past were the last ones they'd have with them. 1 teacher's family woke up thinking he would be home for dinner to sit and chat about his day. We wake up everyday and think we will have tomorrow not knowing if that will be our last. So out of the past few days experiences and sadness take it as a lesson. Live everyday as if it were your last. Don't take anything for granted in this world. Because as quick as you were brought in fate can take you out. Never go to bed mad at your loved ones. Never miss the chance to tell them you love them. For it could be the last time you get that chance. Remember all the families, faculty, and students of VA Tech. They all need our prayers. May God be with those who were lost and their families.

21 Apr 07 - Saturday
1782 Friedrich W A Fröbel Germany, educator (founded kindergarten) 1911 Leonard Warren New York NY, baritone (Metropolitan Opera 1939-60) died on stage 1915 Frick [W Groebli] Swiss clown (Frick & Frack) 1926 Elizabeth [Alexandra Mary Windsor II] queen of England (1952- ) 1930 Don Tyson founder, Tyson Foods) 1937 Charles Lee Herron Kentucky, FBI most wanted fugitive (Jan 1 1986) 1947 Iggy Pop [James Newell Osterberg] Ypsilanti MI, rocker (Zombie Birdhouse) 1951 Tony Danza Brooklyn, (Tony Banta-Taxi, Tony Micelli-Who's the Boss) 1951 Paul Carrack Sheffield England, rock vocalist (Mike + the Mechanics -All I Need Is A Miracle, Squeeze/Ace-How Long) 1956 Rick DeMont US, 400 meter swimmer, drug disqualification (1972 Olympics) 0753 -BC- Traditional date of the foundation of Rome 1836 Battle of San Jacinto, in which Texas wins independence from México 1904 Ty Cobb makes his pro debut for Augusta (South Atlantic League) 1910 Mark Twain [Samuel Langhorne Clemens] author

Darkest Secret
Give me devotion; I’ll return it with pleasure. Show me domination; I’ll be your little submissive . Show me tenderness; I’ll be your sadistic whore. Give me your heart; I’ll devour and possess you. Tell me your fantasies; I’ll become your darkest secret. vV""VIC""Vv

Back...
Hey Everyone, Well, they've done some work on my PC and on my connection is better, so I'm gonna try this again. If ya'll are interested, please rate and leave comments. I seem to make a better board when I know ya'll are reading it... Enjoy....

Ignored
I guess its normal for the people you've backed up, and stood by almost like brothers to ignore me. It seems that my own brothers would like to keep my cheese out in the wind too. Then theres someone who is a puppet master behind this, and I'm so fucking disgusted that hes using his own children this way to keep tabs on each other, and their mother. If theres friction between him, and one son, well he uses the others against him. If the two sons who spend time together once a week, well if something breakes off the plans, even if the other is very sick he gets a massive guilt trip. I'm alone tonight, totally, just sitting here with noone to even phone and its really annoying. If I said I derserved it, I know that would be bull.

What Now!
What Now! i seem to be saying this to myself alot lately. My son calls my name while screaming at the top of his lungs, what now i say mommy he says i lost my car. Great i thought he busted his head open, but it was just his car lost. Baby says my husband, what now i say, where are my work shoes , under the bed , i say without even looking, thinking to myself i spoil him to death , if his head wasnt attached to him he'd lose it. What now , i say alot but i wouldnt be myself if i never said what now thats what makes my family my family and i would never in the world give that up for anything. So no matter how frustrating i get at them because i say what now i will always love them because i say what now!

Pt. I Insomnia; Pt. Ii Vertigo
Insomnia She rolled over to see the clock strike 4:31 a.m. once again. A heavy sigh forced itself from her chest as she decided to get up. Though ... nothing presented an idea as what to do when she did. The girl couldn't stand one more second of TV, the mechanical buzz of her computer just made her want to scream (And besides, it would wake the others) and eating anything at this hour - where sleep supposedly has you locked under some sort of drowse intangible by men - stood far away from question. Nonetheless, she ripped the blankets off her body, releasing the seductive warm pocket to be ravished by the cold grip of the winter night. Perhaps, she thought, trying to use some old and polite dialogue with herself - if only to preserve chivalry or just out of plain dispositional ways, a short but very early call to my dear love would not bother any of those whom lie dormant. A dark shock of hair fell over her blank stare as if to laugh in her face at the innocent thought. She soon g

Lust Between Two
Words danced exotically from the fervent lips of the zealous and desiring woman; her breath caressed the flesh of his sensitive throat with a love of its own. Her fingers, tiny temptresses of another world, alighted his sides and chest with a fiery passion, a will of their conjuring to share in this emotion. Her skin, a calming therapy for his longings, smoothed over Lustwick’s body as a pale eulogy of rational thought, making obscure the organization of his mind. He fell into her eye forever, two dark pools of flame from which Lustwick would never return without a price. His blood boiled, causing his heart much ache as he groped in the fervor for her body enveloped in taboo. Time wouldn’t stop, let alone move on - careless of others. Time did not exist while Victraelle’s touch lay upon him; a spell only she could command forth onto Lustwick’s empire of a man. ‘Twas a spell he dared not fight; did not want to discard. They could call it a hex, but one stood never so sweet. Her

Live Interview Knon.org
If you care to, my hubby's band "SPLINTER" will be appearing on KNON 89.3 FM in Dallas {it can also be heard on WWW.KNON.ORG} From 8 To 10 PM TONIGHT!!!!!!!! The show is called "HARD TIME RADIO"!! Tune in if you missed the World Premier Last week. Hope you catch it! Peace! Stefani

Why
Why does love hurt and make me cry? Wishing I was with you or much rather die? Why does it seem like this was meant to be, Testing the love between you and me? The stars are so many; I can't even count, That’s how much I miss you, no doubt! Why does it feel like I am trapped? And you are my hero without a map? Knowing you'll be waiting whenever I call, You'll always be there whenever I fall. Why does love hurt and make me sad? I want to hurt myself because I am so mad! The pain inside me is so real, It's hard to believe you’re the real deal. I reach out to you but you are not there, My heartaches seem so hard to bare. I know you think this is so unfair, I could just leave and not even care. People will say we're not really in love, But only we can tell if our love is love. Sometimes I feel all alone, As if I could be in my own little zone. Wishing I could hold you again and again, Knowing when I'm with you there is no end. Why does love h

Random Things
I'm gonna talk about random things today. First subject: Jealousy Jealousy is a controlled emotion. We can choose to be jealous or not. I choose not to. No one in the their entire life is meant to experence everything or be with someone 24/7. I see all these girls get jealous that their boyfriend, fiance, husband, or whatever hugs someone else. Like OMG... Hugging someone else outside of the family doesn't mean that they are screwing each other when you turn your back. COME ON! The only reason anyone gets jealous is an insecurity with themself. All they need to do is take a deep breath and let it all float away. If that doesn't work, seek therapy. Of course, if you see your man or woman screwing someone else...that's different. Second subject: Whoreizm (if that is even a word) A majority of the people I work with are single moms. I love them all to death. I admire them too because they work to feed their kids and put clothes on their back. I'm not gon

I Feel The Need To Tell The World........
That you suck and if you actually read this garbage then you really don't have anything better to do and I was being sarcastic with my first blog...... I really don't want to know how you feel and further more I do believe that if you truly think that life is great then maybe you should marry my ex. Don't comment my blog and don't rate it. If you do that you're a horrible person for not respecting my wishes.:| HA!!!!

The List Of Rules
Now here are the rules from the male side . These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE! 1. Men are NOT mind readers. 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one : Subtle hints do not work ! Strong hints do not work ! Obvious hints do not work ! Just say it! 1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. 1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. See a doctor

Advice Please!!
Hello Everyone! I am new to this site, so any helpful information about this site, would be much appreciated. Any mistakes that you made that you could tell me about so I won't make the same. Or if you just like to give advice, I would really appreciate it! Thanks!

Volume Iv - Idiots
I usually don't post others' insights, but this was simply too funny to pass up!! Idiots of 2006 Number One Idiot of 2006 I am a medical student currently doing a rotation in toxicology at the poison control center. Today, this woman called in very upset because she caught her little daughter eating ants. I quickly reassured her that the ants are not harmful and there would be no need to bring her daughter into the hospital. She calmed down and at the end of the conversation happened to mention that she gave her daughter some ant poison to eat in order to kill the ants. I told her that she better bring her daughter into the emergency room right away. Number Two Idiot of 2006 Early this year, some Boeing employees on the airfield decided to steal a life raft from one of the 747s. They were successful in getting it out of the plane and home. Shortly after they took it for a float on the river, they noticed a Coast Guard helicopter coming towards them. It turned out that the chop

Why Must You Do This To Me?
Let's talk about our feelings.. They can be good or bad, sad or glad, what ever you want them to be. So lets see how you are doing today. How are you? What do you feel like right now? Do you feel this way for a reason? Why makes you feel this way? Tell me all about you... Age? Gender? State? Married? Children? Work? Do you have a life besides cherry tap? Tell me about your problems.... Do you hate life? Do you want to make a difference? Do you cut? Do you do drugs? Are you looking forward to 4/20? Do you tripp out on shrooms? Do you drink? Do you smoke? DO you really want to answer all my questions? Do you hate me? Don't you have anything better to do than read/respond to this?

Im Bleeding Out
Make me bleed Aim for the heart It's what you need ... All that I feel Is bleeding out All of my fears All of the doubt I'm bleeding out The pain and the fear I'm bleeding out The end is so near What made me so dark Twisted and weak What caused the pain Hurt and misery I'm letting it out I'm letting it go I won't be caught again Lying so low I'm bleeding out The pain and the fear I'm bleeding out The future is near When the blood is all gone The anger disappears The newly found light Replaces the fears

Part 1 Of My Career
On January 6, 1986 I got in the car with my recruiter to be taken to the Albany MEPS for processing onto active duty in the United States Navy. My recruiter was the best and there hasn't been a day that I would buy him a beer if I ever met up with him. I was a Seaman Apprentice (E-2) because I had enough college credits. In my last semester of college, I had earned enough credits for Seaman (E-3) but the transcripts were not going to be available until a few days after I left. My recruiter was so awesome that he went to my college, got the transcripts and sent them in. I was advanced to Seaman on January 15, only nine days after going in. While in boot camp, I was assigned to a drill company because of my background in music, especially brass instruments. I started playing the Baritone (I played trombone) in the Drum and Bugle Corps, and soon I was the lead baritone. Each week we put on a show for the families who came out to see their men graduate. This was in San Diego, an

Prayer
They say when your life is over the past flashes before your eyes, You are my past and future and I hold you deep inside, while my life exits through my cries. The tears build up and i release them as they fall and down my face, I wish God would help me make you happy and help me through this painful phase. Dear god If you could lend me a hand I will take you into my heart and wipe away my tears, I could give him the world he has always wanted and help him get over his fears. He wants me to move on , he wants me to have a nice life, How can I grab his heart and force it to rewind? Will we ever love again, cant you make him see I will wait? He has been taken away but I know we can overcome this test of fate. Ive had dreams of him and while we were growing old, But in my heart I know he wants a knew start and im no longer the one he wants to hold. He wants me gone, he wants me out of his life, He dosnt love me anymore, he doesnt want me for his wife. You have failed me on

Raise Your Expectations
Raise your expectations It can be tempting to lower your expectations when things are not going your way. Yet the most realistic response is not to lower your expectations, but in fact to raise them higher. It may seem that lowering your expectations so they're more in line with your reality would protect you from disappointment. Yet lowering your expectations is sure to bring on even more disappointment. If you're disappointed with the results you're getting, it's not because your expectations are too high. It's because those expectations are not high enough to pull you forward. Raise your expectations to the point where they become so meaningful and compelling that you cannot help but fulfill them. Choose those expectations that will drive you in each moment to do what must be done to reach them. When the going gets rough, the answer is not to give up on your dreams. The answer is to grab on to those dreams, and to put them front and center in your life. Set yo

Pyscho Test
Psycho Test Read this question, come up with an answer and then scroll down to the bottom for the result. This is not a trick question. It is as it reads. I answered it right so I must be psycho lol A woman, while at the funeral of her own mother, met a man she didn't know. She thought this guy was amazing, so much her dream guy, that she believed him to be just that! She fell in love with him right there, but never asked for his number and couldn't find him. A few days later she killed her sister. Question: What is her motive in killing her sister ? ( Give this some thought before you answer ). SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. SCROLL DOWN. Answer: She was hoping that the guy would appear at the funeral again. If you answered this correctly, you think like a psychopath. This was a test by a famous A

Drury Scores Twice For Sabres
UNIONDALE, N.Y. (AP) - Chris Drury has a knack for scoring big goals. "For whatever reason, pucks seem to find people like Chris," Buffalo coach Lindy Ruff said after Drury scored twice to help the top-seeded Sabres beat the New York Islanders 4-2 on Wednesday night for a 3-1 lead in the first-round series. Thomas Vanek and Jason Pominville also scored, and Ryan Miller made 24 saves in his second straight victory on Long Island. The win moved the NHL regular-season champions into position to end the series Friday night in Buffalo. "We feel pretty good, but know there's still a long way to go," said Drury, the former Little League baseball star who has two game-winning goals in the series and 14 in 102 career playoff games. Jason Blake and Mike Sillinger scored for the Islanders, and Rick DiPietro stopped 27 shots in his third start since returning from a concussion. "We have to come out and play a great game Friday night." DiPietro said. "They're a great team and they're

Private Messages
Sending a private message now creates: 1) a carbon copy sent to your cMail; 2) notification (in the alerts, not on top of them :) ) 3) no notification that a private message was sent. If the message contained an inline image (say, an image with a link, to a contest), this does cause a problem. cMail doesn't support these inline images, apparently. You can do an image -attachment- as you can with most regular e-mail these days. But an e-mail that says "Please click this link!" will be a mite confusing! The original may be in your private message folder for a little while until the pmessages are phased out entirely (you may want to look through that folder- as CTap said, as noted in the last few blogs here on the subject, hint hint NUDGE!!!!!!!!!!!- and save the private messages you most want to keep, on your drive perhaps...) Eric

Not Good Enough
Tears fall rapidly As I sit alone here sadly Your face in my head My heart feeling dead. I know that it's over Which makes my heart even lower God, I want there to be a you and me But it's plain that it's just not meant to be. Now it's time to accept the true scene Time to let go of the dream You wont kiss me in the moonlight rain or the snow And why I'm not good enough I guess I'll never know

Love
heres my idea of love.when you love some one what loves you back your heart skips when they are near.there touch makes you want more.there smile can make the darkest day better.when you come to your house its only home if they are there.you give them your heart and hold theres to you always.you spend your life making your love happy in all things.you are there when they cry to kisses away there tears and hold them close.when you see them all you want to do is hold them cloes and tell them you love them always .

This Is Not An Echo. Best Movie Ever, Ever, Ever, Ever
Let me start by saying.. Zombies shouldn't be allowed to carry concealed weapons. Never. I mean how is that fair? Really, if you think about it.. It's not fair at all. They already have the advantage. The whole "Grrrr" thing totally counts as an advantage. And the eating you alive.. Also counts. But a gun? Really? It's not fair I tell you! - Clears throat. - So.... That wasn't completely random. I have just watched the best movie EVER. Best zombie movie ever. Best sword fighting movie ever. Best bad versus good movie ever. The best EVER! It was.. Oh. Words fail me. It went from having me squealing loudly to covering my eyes and Ewing. Gasp! The gore! The gore was awesome. Almost as awesome as the fight scenes. And the humor? AH! BEST EVER! So, so! You have to go watch it! I don't care how you see it, but you just must! Tis called Versus. And I will be ranting, and raving about this movie for many, many, many years to come. I repeat. And stress this point. BEST. MOVI

Dear Suicide
Here I am once again down and depressed writing to you as I'm dying slowly inside of me. You came back to my thoughts. I thought you were gone but I was wrong. You have been in my thoughts again. I've been thinking of you these past 2 days. Right now I feel I can only turn to you. You're the only one that can solve my problems. You're the only one who can help me and make all my pain go away. Oh Suicide, what shall I do ? I,m so depressed and always thinking of Death even though I'm scared of it. I'm so fed up of everything going on in my life. I want to live but I'm just not able too. I'm too weak. I'm not strong. The pain has taken over me. I've failed myself again. I'm fed up of crying. Fed up of trying and to be happy. I keep my head real low so no one can see the pain that shows. There's nothing left for me to do. The game of life is hard to play but I'm gonna lose it anyway* Oh Suicide, what shall I do ? You're the only one I can turn too.

This Sounds Like A Good Idea To Me! Ice
Very Important to Note: Isn't it true that we all carry our mobile phones with hundreds of names/numbers stored in its memory but yet nobody, other than ourselves, know which of these numbers belong to our near and dear ones? Let us for a moment create a scenario wherein (God forbid); We are involved in an accident or had a heart attack and the people attending us get hold of our mobile phone but don't' know which number to call to inform our family members. Yes, there are hundreds of numbers stored but which one is the contact person in case of an emergency? For this reason, we must have one or more telephone numbers stored under the name ICE (In case of Emergency) in our mobile phones. Read below for more details..... Subject: " ICE " Campaign Recently, the concept of " ICE " is catching up quickly. It is simple, an important method of contact during emergency situations. As cell phones are carried by majority of the population, all you need to do is sto

Ramblings On Love, Pain, And Mistrust
Do you ever wonder about the people that never seem to care about others? Yeah I didn’t either until here recently, then today I started on some sort of tirade while talking to someone for this very thing. I promised a blog which addressed what I was talking about since I was getting more and more angry the more I talked about it earlier. So here are my thoughts on the subject, which I freely admit before you begin reading this is unorganized and rambling - I have decided to just write it as it flows not to worry about anything else. Rejoice people now you can see my wicked little thought process - lol. I have noticed that the more I talk to people the more that I see the true lack of compassion that individuals have for one another.. They will trample and stomp upon anyone to get what they think that they deserve, what they feel they have earned so to speak. I am not saying that I do not do this because I do to an extent but not the way that I have observed here as of late.

You Live In Wyoming
If your local Dairy Queen is closed from September through May, you live in Wyoming. > > > If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance and they don't work there, you live in Wyoming. > > > If you've worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you live in Wyoming. > > > If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a wrong number, you live in Wyoming. > > > If "Vacation" means going anywhere south of Salt Lake City for the weekend, you live in Wyoming. > > > If you measure distance in squares of farm land,you live in Wyoming. > > > If you know several people who have hit a cow more than once, you live in Wyoming. > > If you have gone from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day and back again, you live in Wyoming. > > > If you can drive 75 mph through 2 feet of snow > during a raging blizzard without flinching, you live in Wyoming. > > >

A Free Market?????????
They call it free market Think about this one > > > > It is short but very interesting! > > > > A car company can move it's factories to Mexico and claim > >it's a free market. > > > > A toy company can out source to a Chinese subcontractor and > >claim it's a free market. > > > > A shoe company can produce its shoes in Southeast Asia and it's > >a free market. > > > > A major bank can incorporate in Bermuda to avoid taxes and > >claim it's a free market. > > > > We can buy HP Printers made in Mexico > > > > We can buy shirts made in Bangladesh > > > > We can purchase almost anything we want from 20 different > >countries. > > > > BUT heaven help the senior citizens who dare to buy their > >prescription drugs from a Canadian or > > Mexican pharmacy. That's called un-American and illegal and

Here Are Some Useful Herbs And Their Uses
Alfalfa (Medicago sativa): can be drunk as a tea to improve the appetite. Is supposed to aid in cure of peptic ulcers. Considered a diuretic - will rid the body of retained water. Angelica (Angelica archangelica): Drink the tea to stimulate the appetite, relieve flatulence, and as a diuretic to stimulate kidney action. Also a general tonic for weakness and nervous headache. The tea is supposed to bring on menstruation and dispel afterbirth. The powder of the root is useful to prevent infection when fasting (3/8 tsp at a time) and a tea or decoction of the root can be useful for stomach and intestinal problems, including ulcers and nervous vomiting. In large doses can have adverse effects on heart, blood pressure and respiration, so use with caution. Externally, a decoction of the root can be used for scabies or itching skin. Elements of Sun and Fire. The root carried in a blue cloth bag is a protective talisman. Was considered to be under the guard of angels and therefore a good

Song
You had my heart, and we'll never be world apart Maybe in magazines, but you'll still be my star Baby cause in the Dark, You can see shiny Cars And that's when you need me there With you I'll always share Because When the sun shines We’ll shine together Told you I'll be here forever That I'll always be your friend Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end Now that it's raining more than ever Know that we still have each other You can stand under my Umbrella You can stand under my Umbrella (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh) These fancy things, will never come in between You're part of my entity, Here for Infinity When the war has took it's part When the world has dealt it's cards If the hand is hard, Together we'll mend your heart Because .. When the sun shines We'll shine together Told you I'll be here forever That I'll always be your f

Medical Exam #65
I recently turned 65 and had to choose a new primary care physician For my Medicare program. After two visits and exhaustive lab tests, he Said I was doing "fairly well" for my age. A little concerned about that comment, I couldn't resist asking him , "Do you think I will live to be 80?" He asked: Do you smoke tobacco or drink alcoholic beverages?" "Oh no," I replied. "I don't do drugs, either." "Do you have many friends and entertain frequently?" "I said, "No, I usually stay home and keep to myself". "Do you eat rib-eye steaks and barbecued ribs?" I said, "No, my other doctor said that all red meat is unhealthy!" "Do you spend a lot of time in the sun, like playing golf, sailing, Hiking, or bicycling?" "No, I don't," I said. "Do you gamble, drive fast cars, or have a lot of sex?" "No," I said. "I don't do any of those things." He looked at me and said, "Then why do you give a damn?

Guh Work...
So who wants to go to work for me tomorrow? You'll get to spend the day doing, web/graphic design, search engine optimization, random IT work, ebay sales, product testing, and anything else they can throw at me. In short, you will be a swiss army knife. ... have fun ... oh crap, thats my job... 0_0

International Very Good Looking Day
Today is International Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman's Day, so please send this message to someone you think fits this description. Please do not send it back t o me as I have already received it from a Very Good Looking, Damn Smart Woman! And remember this motto to live by: Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!" Have a wonderful day !

The Reality Of Vampires
OK I realize that most of you people out there are goofy over Anne rice and her retarded idea of what a vampire is. Heres the reality. Vampires as you envision them dont exist.They never existed the way you tards think they did. The reality of it is that the only sickos that have even thought they were vampires and christ forgive me for this but psychologist actually decided to actually label it as a mental problem that needs treatment. however i look at it as just some retards that read one too many glamourized novel or saw one too many movies. AND COME ON PEOPLE. WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO SPEND YOUR PATHETIC LIFE DRINKING BLOOD WITH THE CHANCE OF CATCHING SOME DISGUSTING DISEASE. GET A FREAKIN GRIP.

Friends
Of all the friends I've ever met, You're the one I won't forget. And if I die Before you do I'll go to heaven And wait for you I'll give the angels Back their wings And risk the loss Of everything Just to prove My friendship is true I'm thankful to have Family and Friends like you!

You Dont Be Afraid
When you find love, wherever you find it whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient,and it'll come to you when you least expect it. You don't be afraid and remember: "TO LOVE IS TO LIVE!"

Having A Real Shity Day
Ok so next to my grandma dying today has been the worst day of my life. My house was on fire yall. I woke up at 500 am to get ready for another day at work when low and behold i here crackle and pop so i golook in the garage and holy shit bat man my garage is up in flames so the first thing in my mind is get evrey bodey out we all got out and in the nick of time too. it just amazed me how much we take for granted when i saw my house up in flames it makes ya realize the things we dont think bout much. well the good news is the only real babd part of the house is the garage and part of the kitchen the rest is all smoke damage. so its fixable i guess. however i did lose 6 very important things in the fire and they ment the world to me. they were my world and unforcenently i cant ever have them back no matter what i do they r my 6 cats they died of smoke intalation we were unable to go back in the house to get them but god knows we tried. so to my angles tails trinity patches ester

O0o0o0o0o0o Hell No!!! How Wrong Is This
Ok its like so....Iam walkin to where I catch the bus to get to work the other day on the way to where I have to go in order to catch the bus....well on my way to there is a 1/2 way house.....I was walkin down the street and just happened to look over and heres this HUGE and i mean HUGE bare ass starin back at me.....OMG this sob was showing the world what he had!!!! balls hanging and the whole nine yards!!!! I didnt know if i was to lmao at him scream run like hell or what but that shit was just flat out scarey not to metion nausating!!!! Anyways for all tt needed a good laugh here ya go

The Elements Of Wicca
The Elements of Wicca Wicca is a nature based religion. We follow the tides of the moon and the path of the sun in our celebrations. We honor the Earth and the world around us. One of the most important ways we incorporate the natural world into our daily lives and Wiccan practice is by honoring the elements, sometimes referred to as the Quarters or the Directions. Generally, there are four elements that are recognized by all Wiccans. These are Air, Fire, Water and Earth. Often, depending on the tradition a person is working with, a fifth element is recognized, Spirit. Each of these elements has a different energy and fits into our practices in its own special way. Each has correspondences which can help give the practitioner a way to focus on the energy of the element he/she is working with. Let’s take a look at each element individually. Keep in mind as we do, that I work from a general, eclectic Wiccan path, and that I am in the Northern Hemisphere. There may be differences

Mia
sorry I havent been around much steven started his second part of his chemo treatment, so Ive been spending a lot of time up at the hospital. He is progressing well, and the problem he had with a blockage in his leg is now all sorted. The hair loss has started, he has only a few strands left now, even less by the time the second session has finished. I have relay the good wishes people have left for him. And agian i would like everybody for their kinds words and prayers during this difficult time

I Cried Today
An old friend called me today. As I sat and spoke for an hour. She asked of what’s come and past. We spoke of her husbands We spoke of our children. When she set of a ticking time bomb with in me. A question so normal So honest and pure Aren’t you married yet As I rushed her off the phone My mind it swirled Thought of sadness Of loneliness I’m all alone I cried today No one can her what I say No one knew how I felt No one noticed my pain No one saw my tears I cried today Cant you make it go away The pain with in, The hole in my heart

Poem For One...
TO TRIN AND ALL THE OTHERS...THIS IS JUST A SAMPLE OF THE BEST...WRITTEN IN JUST 3 MINS... DEEP INSIDE THE WOUNDED SOUL KEPT LOCKED AWAY FROM HARSH REALITY PUT ASIDE LIKE WASTED DAYS SHELTERED FROM THE HARDENED PAST IF LOVE WERE TOO SHATTER YOUR WORLD WOULD IT CRUSH YOU OR MAKE YOU STONGER WOULD YOU REJECT AN OPEN HEART AND TENDER ARMS OR ACCEPT THAT THIS IS YOUR FATE PUT ASIDE YOUR JADED WAYS AND EMBRACE THAT WHICH IS A PHENOMENON A TRUER LOVE HAS NO-ONE KNOWN AND A BETTER LOVER SHALL NO OTHER BE.

Sexual Powertrip(one Big Lie)
It started And then it ended With one big lie?! I'm sorry for the way I treated you I'm stuck in my ways to just run In the opposite way when things get comfortable I'll keep on licking till your flavor is gone Chorus: But it's getting more impossible To keep a straight face and be trusted with I love you Yeah, I love you (One big lie) (Bla bla bla, bla bla bla, bla bla fucking bla!) Don't trust my words when I'm in bed with you I'll bring the message but the message gets lost Yeah you opened your legs and maybe I promised you You didn't notice that my ankles were crossed Chorus: But it's getting more impossible To keep a straight face and be trusted with I love you Can you show me how to treat someone? I don't recall ever learning how I keep fucking up Cause I keep fucking up I keep fucking up!

Ever Feel Like Gum Scraped Freshly From The Bottom Of A Shoe?
I do... it's not a very happy feeling. And yet I am still happy, happy because last night I got to talk to someone new who is beautiful and has more than two braincells in their head. Appearently I have a bad habit of being mean to anyone who isn't a "super model rocket scientist" quote via Azzie. I for a while thought I had been through all of them, I was wrong. I found one more, too bad he lives so far away. Meh.

The Marine
SEND THIS TO EVERYONE ON UR E-MAIL LIST,SPREAD THE WORD,KEEP IT GOIN! MySpace Codes God is Greater than ANY problem I have !!! Please don't delete this until you send it on, Let's send it around the world. FRIENDS ARE BORN, NOT MADE This is a poem being sent from a Marine to his Dad. For those who take the time to read it,you'll see a letter from him to his Dad at the bottom. It makes you truly thankful For not only the Marines, But ALL of our troops. THE MARINE We all came together, Both young and old To fight for our freedom, To stand and be bold. In the midst of all evil, We stand our ground, And we protect our country From all terror around. Peace and not war, Is what some people say. But I'll give my life, So you can live the American way. I give you the right To talk of your peace. To stand in your groups, And protest in our streets. But still I fight on, I don't bitch,

Help!!!! I Need Some Advice.
ok...I need some advice and I don't know what to do. I love Galen with all my heart and soul, but it it is getting really frustrating for me. The man pays no attention to me in the bed and would rather watch tv than have sex with me. I know that he has been sick and I can feel for that, but even before then we only have sex every other week and only when i say something. I want to know what gives. I know he loves me. He tells me all the time, but sometimes i wish that he would make me feel more wanted. Please don't say that he is cheating on me. i know for a fact that he isn't and please don't tell me it is because of my looks. I know that I may not be the best looking girl here, but I do have feelings and if that is what you are going to say then you can take your comment elsewhere. Here is the other problem. there is a guy in tampa that keeps begging me to get married to him. I can't because i love Galen, but right now I am feeling like i am just here to be his maid.

Who I Am Makes A Difference
"Who I Am Makes a Difference." A teacher in New York decided to honor each of her seniors in High School by telling them the difference Each of them had made. She called each student to the front of the class, one at a time. First, she told each of them how they had made a difference to her, and the class. Then she presented Each of them with a blue ribbon, imprinted with gold letters, which read, "Who I Am Makes a Difference." Afterwards, the teacher decided to do a class project, to see what kind of impact recognition would have on a Community. She gave each of the students three more blue ribbons, and instructed them to go out and spread this acknowledgment ceremony. Then they were to follow up on the results, see who honored whom, and report to the class in about a week. One of the boys in the class went to a junior executive in a nearby Company, and honored him for Helping him with his career planning. He gave him a blue ribbon, and put it on his shirt.

Busted
Just curious if you found out a guy was lying to you or a girl for that matter how would you bust them? or would u collaborate more with the person that you found out from, let the person dig more of a hole and then bust them? We are trying to think of a way to bust a guy for the games he's playing and can't decide how to do it and when to do it but both of us are antsy about waiting lol but both wanna wait to see how much of a hole he can dig for himself!

Just A Lil Story...
~Warning:: Not for virgin eyes. lol~ In the background, Your favorite ballads are playing softly, as I lay You down upon the soft, silky sheet. Around You, the scent of wild jasmine and the soft glow of blood red pillar candles create a relaxing atmosphere. The moment my hands touch Your bare neck and shoulders, I can feel the hard knots. They're physical manifestations of the stress You've collected and I happily adopt the task of soothing them away. As I rub the first handful of massage oil into Your neck, You moan Your appreciation for the scent I've chosen. I rub hard enough to work those knots loose, but gently enough to relax You as You deserve. I work my hands into Your smooth, oiled skin, feeling those knots grow smaller and smaller, until they are gone. I move down to Your back, where my hands find even greater tension. I rub and knead Your flesh, working the tension away. I can feel the subtle burning in my wrists now, but I say nothing; Your pleasure is my sole purpose. I

04/19/07
How come somedays no matter how good they start off and no matter what you do to keep them going that way by the end of the day you are pulling your hair out trying not to scream at everyone. Some how I manage to keep myself calm enough to talk to customers and my boss without yelling but I am not sure how. I just want to strangle someone. I busted my ass all day everyday this week to get shit done and everyone thinks their shit comes first. Well they are going to come into a new realization once my bike is done cause I will say you know what screw it and go ride. People are going to yell at me anyways when it isn't my fault why not do something for them to yell about. Stupid people, and everyone wonders why I say I am more biker than 90% of the guys I know around here.

Something Has To Be Done Now!!!!!
I'm not posting his picture because he is a sick bastard!!! nabito@ CherryTAP this guy needs to be banned from CT. he's a 38 year old man who keeps posting child/teen porn as his primary picture. They keep getting removed and he keeps adding them back on. This is unexcusable and he needs to be removed from the site all together. everyone needs to contact cherry support and report him!!! REPORT HIM

History According To Testicles.
To take an oath, ancient Romans put a hand on their testicles. That's where testimony comes from. True story. Cue the laughter. Sad that I have to make this NSFW purely because of the word TESTICLE.

What For Love Would You Do
To all the couples out there who well aren't where they'd like to be with each other I have been thinking about how easy people give up on love !I was married for 12 years not happy but for what I thought everyone wanted including my self the children not the right reasons to stay with someone.But I'm really writing this because He said something wise to me once and in fact was why I finally made up my mind to end it. He said that "when you love someone you never really ever stop loving them if you do it was never love in the first place He actually had heard this on the radio and I knew right then that I never truly ever did love this man .Now that I know what true love feels like and that there is nothing that will get in it's path but the people in it and if they give up it wasn't meant to be in the first place. I close my eyes and see the ocean and think of all the distance that separate Tomaran and I and not once not FUCKING ONCE have I thought I should give up not a option.And i

My Horiscope For Today.. I Hink It Is A Sign
Picking up the pieces is easier when you realize that you can make a lovely mosaic from the remains. Believe it or not, one day you'll soon be grateful that this didn't work out when you see the results from its demise. new words to live by for me i think...

Here's A Good One For You To Digest:
A CHINESE COUPLE GOING WILD WANTS TO HAVE A PURE WHITE CHILD, SEEKS ADVICE WHAT CAN BE DONE FINDS A WAY OF HAVING ONE. WATCHING TV AND WHILE THEY SIT FINDS A WAY OF DOING IT ON THE JOB WITH OUT DELAY SIDE WAYS IN A OLD CHINESE WAY. BABY BORN MUCH WILD DELIGHT, LITTLE DEVIL, PUREST WHITE FATHER. PROUD AND FULL OF GLEE TELLS SECRET LEARNED ON TV HOOLEE HOOLEE ME NO FOOL ME PUT PERSIL ON ME TOOL.WIFE SHE ALSO VERY FUSSEY SPRINKLES OMO ON HER PUSSY. YOU WONDER WHERE THE YELLOW WENT ON ME BALLS SPRAYED WITH STERADENT!

I Will Stay
I WILL STAY Turn around shut the door walk the other way Don't you Know here for you I will stay CLose you heart hide your soul keep all those feelings deep inside Yet here I will stay for you confide day by day life spins out of control deeper and deeper into your blackhole Don't you see I see into your soul Not seeking not looking wanting to be all alone Yet when am with you i feel like I am home fate brought us together Not playing its usual crule game Why won't you see it is for the better Your life will never be the same. Turn around shut the door walk the other way Don't you Know here for you I will stay You won't be so lonley now I know you have seen dreams turn into nighmares I know your hearts been ripped and torn apart But now I will be here to chase away the fears I know the hurt and pain that is on your eyes back to the day when the inocence died Turn around Shut the door walk the other way Don't you know here for you I will stay

Dear Diary
Dear Diary, don't let him know, Dear Diary, keep my secret safe, Don't let anyone know the words upon your page, Don't tell him I care, don't let the feelings show, Don't share my secrets, I don't want him to know, Dear Diary, only one to keep my secrets, Dear Diary, keeper of my sorrows and regrets, I can tell you anything between these hidden pages, My whole life shown in all it's different stages, Secrets of my heart, secrets of my soul, Things that some people must never ever know, Dear Diary, my savior and my confidant, Dear diary, sometimes you're the only friend I've got. Dear Diary, don't ever let my true feelings show, I care more than he could ever know. Closing the cover, I trace your spine, Knowing inside my secrets you bind, Never to be seen by unknowing eyes, Never to be corrupted by life's cruel lies, Dear Diary, back to your hiding place you go, Taking with you secrets that only you know.

Barbie Is An Egotistical Glorified Slut!!
I just wanna know why girls always have to be perfect and flawless. You can look at things two ways - It can be cute or it can be a flaw. I think the freckles on my bottom lip is cute. If I were a Barbie doll though, I would be thrown in the slightly imperfect pile. That is what guys do most of the time when picking a girlfriend BUT you can go with your hussy, fake personality, good looking girls and bitch about how she doesn`t treat you right and how you never have anything to talk about. Just remember the only thing that made you let that one girl go - that girl that could have made you happy was because of the fact that she was slightly imperfect because of a freckle or because she had too short of hair, too long of hair, was too pale, too dark, too fat, too skinny, too short, too tall, ect. So, if me having freckles, being too tall, having too big of boobs, having a ghetto booty, the fact I can`t cook, I don`t like wearing makeup, having my own opinion, being a little bit blunt

Where No One Can Hear Me
Where no one can hear me I sit alone listening to voices that no one can hear Looking out the window watching and listening as the storm comes near The thoughts that are there I can hardly Bare. The storm comes closer lighting its way With the loud clash of thunder booming in my head does in come for me now with no looking ahead I sit alone listening to voices no one can hear A storm in my head I can hardly bare. I walk out to the porch wanting it to just take me away trees whip around as to grab me up with their limbs It grows darker now is there no one to lead the way? I shudder and cry deep from inside I cannot hide. Then I look to the West a shining orb By a tree Am I seeing something that is real? I walk now towards the light will it set me free? As I get closer the storm seems to heal. The light grows stronger so now it appears there is a person standing there no its a lady She reaches out here hand as I get near She smiles and grows br

Hmmm
Von Humboldt says, No matter how good or great a man may be there is yet a better and greater man within... Few of us ever have risen equal to our best vision. The place at the top is only won by the brave; and the average persons courage leaks out before he reaches the top... What makes a person great? .What are the stepping stones to greatness? Some people stumble upon greatness for a cause they believe in..like I'll give you an example Malcolm Little, was just a run of the mill thief who couldnt read at all....he went to prison for 10 years..discovered the religious belief of the Nation of Islam and become a self taught man. Malcolm Little became Malcolm X. It took something like prison to change a man, that wasn't going any further in life other then the graveyard ....cause thats where he was headed. Do we become great after we have lived life and pasted on? Or are we great in our own right, like with friends and family?.... doing things like stepping up to the plate when all hopes

The Devil To Pay
DEVIL TO PAY Go on now take your chances See how long you can go to girl to girl. I can read the lines between your stolen glances And I know it is time to fold this losing hand Because you are drawn to the flame By the thrill and the shame Of this cheating game they taught you how to play And you have only the devil to pay You have been flying so high you do not see You are blind to the writings on the wall But someday you will look down You will find you have no place to fall. When the bright lights are gone and you are standing alone Forsaken in the naked light of day Then you will know it is all over but the dying And you still have the devil to pay Go on with your friends while you have them cause you know they are getting fewer everyday you can not wait to let them take you to the bottom I am tired of standing in your way But when you hit the ground Do not come here looking around For the pieces of real love that you threw away That is the price y

My Head Hurts
JUST CAUSE MY OPINION DIFFERS FROM URS U BLOCK ME WHAT AN ADULT THING TO DO HAVE U EVER BEEN TO A BAR????????????????????? SHOOT DARTS DRINK BEER SHOOT POOL DON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THNINK THAT'S WHERE I GO . TALK TO PPL NO POULARITY CONTESTS. FIST FIGHT OR TWO THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN DAMNIT QUIT THE FUCKING WHINING

At Night I Dream Of You
At night I dream of you, Coming to be by my side. I see your silhouette at first; I watch your calm, quick glide. Dream of me", she said as she left him on line "Dream only of me my love, and me alone" And later that night, when his body hit the bed, Visions of her beauty danced through his head Vivid images We both have Pictures in our mind. Our night's love, our passion; All in our dream we shall find. Our devotion in reality we Share Once again, you'll whisper to me, "Hello, my dear angle so sweet " Your touch eases me, holding me Removing any fear. knowing your devotion to me His first dream of her was Her seeing her walk into his arms Dancing with the night, Under the full moon's light The beauty of her face reflected in his eyes Never before had he felt so happy, never before had he felt so alive Vivid images We both have Pictures in our mind. Our night's love, our passion; All in our dream we shall find Our devotion in reality we Share Your g

Another Day Another Disaster
as the northeast flooded, rain falling like the biblical days of noah, a young man killed 33 people at virginia tech, more troops died in iraq and the government grows more foul with every passing moment as more secrets are ousted to the public. these are the disasters that form the bond between people and bring unity as one culture. from fighting the fight in iraq to helping those in need and for some praying for the families of the fallen victims of this weekends tragic events. as people it is in our nature to feel pain joy sorrow and fear and all of wich have been felt alot since the day the towers came crashing down in new york city, but as people and human nature differ so do opinions on the topic. some conspiracy theorist say we did it all while others say it was the work of terrorists any wich way the events in the states are chaning the youth and desesitizing them to future struggles. im not saying the media is bad but when is it time to take a stand and voice as one union of p

Stream Of Conciousness;
I said we can run away. We can run away to a far off place where no one will ever find us. It was almost winter and the air was chilly. From the green plastic chair you stared. You stared into nothing and seemed to be thinking of the world. I think we should go to England. I know it rains all of the time and that things may seem to be dreary all of the time, but as long as we have each other, I think that we could make it work. The wind blew through your hair and you raised your eyes to my level. A look of wonder and adventure came upon your face. If you want to come with me, I am leaving tonight. Tonight and tonight only. I have a feeling that if you don't come with me tonight, you may never see me again. You looked towards the ground and looked at a bug crawling towards your shoe. You thought to yourself how insignifigant the bug was. So will you go with me? I think that if you are, you should go home now and, you know, just kind of get things ready. Wash some of your clothes do what

A Life Poem
A Life Poem Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind. Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind... Life can be blissful and happy and free... Life can put beauty in the things that you see... Life can place challenges right at your feet... Life can make good of the hardships we meet... Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin... Life can reward those determined to win... Life can be hurtful and not always fair... Life can surround you with people who care... Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs... Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns... Life teaches us to take the good with the bad... Life is a mixture of happy and sad... So... Take the Life that you have and give it your best... Think positive, be happy let God do the rest... Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet... Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet... To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall... Ta

See The Future? Or Change The Past?
Ok someone close to me recently brought up this question and it's been on my mind alot lately.Which would you rather be one of your abilities "see the future? or change the past?" Honestly I have though quite alot about this one and although there are a ton of things I wish I could change in my past to make life more pleasnt in the here and now but I think I'd rather see the future so there never again would be any need to ever wish to change my past I could know ahead of time what was to come and go from there and make life how I want it firsthand.So Here in knowing how I feel about it which would you choose? To see the future? or change your past?

Australia's Xpress Magazine Talks With Hellyeah
Featuring members from Mudvayne, Nothingface, Danzig and Pantera, Hellyeah is one of those supergroups that is just as likely to get people cringing as it is to get them excited. JOSIE SMITH reports. Pay no mind to the fact that each of the members of Hellyeah is a celebrated musician in his own circle; the joining of forces appears to be causing some consternation. Being a distinctly southern-influenced beast all of its own, the project is hardly going to be the second coming of any of the aforementioned bands. But as Hellyeah/Mudvayne frontman Chad Gray explains, he doesn’t see that as reason enough to discount the band or its debut release. “Hellyeah is just really something to be excited about and I hope people get behind it,” he says. “I think the biggest reason why somebody wouldn’t get behind this is if they’re not open-minded enough because it’s a really diverse little record. There’s some really heavy songs on it, some really mellow songs, some beautiful songs and chaotic

Soil To Support Hellyeah On Select Dates
Chicago's SOIL will support HELLYEAH on the following dates: May 27 - Madison, WI @ Barrymore Theater May 30 - Omaha, NE @ Sokel Auditorium Jun. 01 - Wichita, KS @ Cotillion Jun. 02 - Tulsa, OK @ Cains Ballroom Jun. 03 - Lubbock, TX @ Southbeach Jun. 05 - Corpus Christi, TX @ Pavilion SOIL, SEEMLESS and LIGION will team up for "True Rock Tour" in May. SOIL's latest CD, "True Self", was released in May 2006 via DRT Entertainment. The follow-up to 2004's "Redefine" was recorded and mixed at Bomb Shelter studios in Los Angeles, California with producer Ulrich Wild (STATIC-X, TAPROOT).

You Know Your Hearts Breaking
You know your hearts breaking when you are to hurt and dont have enough energy to go to your favorite store. I lost the most important thing in my life today. Now i feel like my whole world has crashed all around me. My mom just went to walmart and I LOVE going to walmart. But since i now have a broken heart to deal with i dont have the energy to mess with going to walmart. I guess im also spending every moment i can to myself to cry and get my thoughts in order. But how can I get my thoughts in order when my worlds still crashing down around me? How do I fix this? How do I show him I love him? How do I show him I would never do anything to hurt him? How do I show him hes the only one for me? That if I cant be with him I dont want to be with anyone? I dont want to give up on him. I love him and dont want to lose him. Ill always love him but dont have a clue how to show it. No I dont expect anyone to actually answer. I dont expect any comments on this. I just need to get thoughts out. L

My Lover
it was not in my fate to meet my lover had I lived longer, this would still be my only desire to live on your promise is to make my life a lie would I not have died of happiness if i trusted it from your frailty I learnt that the promise was delicate it would not stand broken had you been determined someone ask me about your half-drawn arrow would i even feel this pain if it had pierced my heart what kind of friendship is this, that friends are now advisers someone should ease my pain, someone sympathize with me from every nerve drips blood without restraint as if that which you think is anguish is but a spark threatening as love is, there is no deliverance from the heart if not the torment of love, it would be the torment of life whom shall I narrate the pangs of these evenings of sorrow i would have not resented this death, had it come only once that I died and was disgraced, why was I not just drowned never w

Tomato And Lettuce
Okay so a guy is near the end of his senior year in high school. Unfortunately, he still has to share a room with his younger brother who is only 9 years old. One night, he decides to bring his girlfriend home for a little fun. They have bunk beds and the guy notices that his little brother is already asleep on the lower bunk, so he and his girlfriend climb up to the top bunk. As you might expect things start to heat up. The guy remembers that his little brother is sleeping below so he tells his girlfriend to whisper "lettuce" if she wants it harder and "tomato" if she wants a new position. Lettuce!!! Lettuce!!! Tomato!!! Lettuce!!! Tomato!!! Lettuce!!! Tomato!!! She screams. Lettuce!!! Tomato!!! Whoa!!! PULL IT OUT!!! PULL IT OUT NOW!!! I can't get pregnant! Then the little brother shouts up, "Hey, would you guys stop making sandwiches u

What Type Of Girl Are You?
You Are Confident Sexy You're one sexy chica, and you know it. You've got the confidence to strut your stuff... And approach any man who happens to catch your eye. You may make a guys run away, but the true men will appreciate your moxie. What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

My Sexual Catch Phrase
Ok, there's a story here. When I was in college I took a creative writing course, It was right after lunch, so a couple of the students in the class would grab lunch and head up to the room to eat. One day we were talking about sexual inuedos and the like, when one of the girls mentions that her brother would refer the female "parts" as a taco. So I asked, "Does that make the cheese sex?" Because we were in creative writing, I decided to write a poem (a VERY bad poem) about cheese, just to see if anyone got the joke, as it were. Needless to say one guy (you know, THAT guy), made the first comment. "Is cheese a metaphor for sex?" We all had a good laugh and that was that, or so I thought. Our prof was a cool guy, and on the last day of class, he promised he was going to bring in some munchies and have one last blast. The main course was...(wait for it).... CHEESE. So today I take this quiz. brown eyed girl's Sexual Catch-Phrase is... "Anybody got any chee

Pisces
center> Pisces You have an awesome imagination, and often put it to use for sexual purposes. You are very romantic and don’t hook-up with random people very often. Because sex to you is about showing your love, you are incredibly romantic in bed, and very giving. You tend be in a serious relationship more often then not. Sex matches: Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Poem 03
your the rose That’s not on the market or for sale. More precious Than a wet rose Single on a stem You are caught in the drift. I’m stunted, with your soul, You are lifted in the crisp sand That drives my breath away in the wind. Can the spice-rose Drip such acrid fragrance Hardened in a leaf? Would you let me get next to you? To find out that side in you? Believe, I'm the one to be with.....

Dear Cat ...
You know you wanna do it! Dear Cat, I ____ you. You have a nice ______. You make me _______. You should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me = ________. If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I would build a _______ just for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________. We could __________ under the stars. If there were another chance, you would __________. Love, _______________ (P.S. ______________.)

America - Lonely People
I think I posted this once before, but I like it and I was thinking about it, so I figured I would post it again. This is for all the lonely people Thinking that life has passed them by Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup And ride that highway in the sky This is for all the single people Thinking that love has left them dry Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup You never know until you try Well, Im on my way Yes, Im back to stay Well, Im on my way back home (hit it) This is for all the lonely people Thinking that life has passed them by Dont give up until you drink from the silver cup And never take you down or never give you up You never know until you try

My Thoughts This Week On Some Things That Have Happened
today i was just doing alot of thinking on things in life and other stuff while at work. yes i actually do think about things while building atm componants lol. no in all seriousness its been an interesting april. on monday the students at Virginia Tech were shaken up byy the murders of 32 people by one mentally unstable person. two of the 32 dead were teachers 1 from Isreal and 1 from Canada and students from around the US and the world. first off i am offering my sincerest condolences to the students, families, and teachers of Virginia Tech. you are all thought about up here in Canada as well. did the 32 people deserve to die no they didnt. if we had a time machine i am sure we would like to turn back time if we could to prevent the loss of these innocent lives. up here in canada we have been affected by school shootings. MONTREAL, TORONTO, AND IN ALBERTA. so we stand hand in hand with the people of VT to mourn the loss but we should also take in comfort that they did have a good li