I feel like a sex toy
That is all I ever really was
Held down
And played with
No feelings or emotions
Just a hollow body
A child's mind
And my heart wrenching screams
That tore me apart
No one ever heard me
Or so it seems
Used
And tossed to the side
Always trying to run and hide
Scared
And scared
My soul forever taken
By one too many people
Who took me forsaken
I will never be the same
I'm torn to little pieces
Pieces' of me'gone
Lost
My mind is like a whirlwind
Never really slowing down
My heart is frozen
From the hate'
I need this all to end
Before it's all too late
These memories attacking me
Driving me insane
I just want this all to make sense
This little girl
Used
And abused
Simply tossed away
I was doomed from the start
I never knew
What love was
And now
My sick and twisted perception
Maybe holding me back from all that I love
Worthless
Useless
Merely a toy
Just some guy's fun
Is all I ever was
My voice gone
I could never speak
This pain is restless
It hasn't stopped in weeks
No one understands
How dark my world is
How I cannot escape
My worst nightmares
My dreams have always
Been crushed
I wish I could slit my wrists
And watch the blood rush
I can't give up
I need to fight
No matter how much
My body is shaken in fright
Just a sex toy
Just a little girl
Her innocence
Stolen
Her memories
Forgotten
Ten years
Later
It's all attacking me
Forced to be a toy
So easily destroyed
A little girl
A child
A baby
Simply grew up
Was tossed into
This unknown world
It was time for me to be a big girl
No more dolls
And candy land games
I had to listen
Or my
Punishment was always
Extreme
Scared to speak
Paralyzed in fear
Afraid to acknowledge
All I know to be real
Running away from all that I'm afraid of
LIFE
