Fubar Blog Posts 4

I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings!
I know why the caged bird sings A free bird leaps on the backOf the wind and floats downstream Till the current ends and dips his wing In the orange suns raysAnd dares to claim the sky.But a bird that stalks down his narrow cageCan seldom see through his bars of rageHis wings are clipped and his feet are tiedSo he opens his throat to sing.The caged bird sings with a fearful trillOf things unknown but longed for stillAnd his tune is heard on the distant hill forThe caged bird sings of freedom.The free bird thinks of another breezeAnd the trade winds soft throughThe sighing treesAnd the fat worms waiting on a dawn-brightLawn and he names the sky his own.But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreamsHis shadow shouts on a nightmare screamHis wings are clipped and his feet are tiedSo he opens his throat to sing.The caged bird sings withA fearful trill of things unknownBut longed for still and hisTune is heard on the distant hillFor the caged bird sings of freedom By Maya Angelou

Frozen Tears
After I realized what I’ve done can’t be reversed I cursed. Ashamed of my choices and pain I changed, the noise in my ears confirmed my darkest fears. Then I felt the burning sensation mixed with aggravation what a difference a year in my life can be from deep love to “I don’t know and is this just large figment of my imagination”? Now he’s gone and I’m all alone wishing he could rescue me from my self inflicted misery. Handicapped by my fears refusing to show emotion mentally numbed I can hear it but I ignore my ears, I get in the shower and cry, just like frozen tear drops in the snow so easy to hide.. I don’t know why I keep running from the demons inside, yet I can never really hide. I slowly act as if I don’t remember so lost in my December. Looking back over the years I was molded by my childish fears and I refuse to let them know how weak I really was. I smile and in no one will I confide like those frozen teardrops in the s

The Innocent Smile
Innocent smile The innocent smile, so bright and calm. It lasts forever through out the time. one dark hour for the brightest eternity. Time will mend all wounds, but the oh so bright innocent smile with heal the scars. Day after day, night after night, nightmares will come. Just lay there in rememberence of that bright beautiful smile. So calming and soothing. So happy and joyful. What might of been a lost for now is an eternal gain. Because after all, the life you once lost will once be resumed. By: Brian Hundertmark aka Saint 2/24/2011 12:09 a.m

Little Red Cap
My name, my…real name is of little importance. Folks around here often call me ‘Wolf,’ although they wouldn’t know me if they saw me. Always on the careful side of things, I lurk in the shadows away from the public’s eye. Oh, how they watch…Oh, how I watch them. I wait so patiently, so still, waiting for the right prey. For I am the horrors this lonely village made me out to be, I am a hunter of kinds. The day’s air was cool on my skin. My hand moved to my side on its own accord, pulling out a meat clever. I ran my fingertips across the blade…sharp, beautifully sharp. I placed the clever back, smiling to myself. I was self confident, so sure that I could have anybody I wanted, love anybody I wanted…do anything I wanted. I’ve been to this village many times before. The folk often chat amongst themselves. I hear word of a girl, Little Red Cap so very often. I’ve seen her from distances, never close enough. But even

Lullaby Of A Dead Man
Life is still spinning Your end, my beginning And everything I hope for has been strangely set aside Breathing for living My mind is forgiving And destiny is proving to be absent from my life I know it, I feel it I know when you're sleeping I know the things you're dreaming And I know you will never give up and die Conscious fulfilling, the darkness revealing All faults and insecurities are shining like the sun Eyes are decieving Your mind will stop breathing and All that you are made of will now rightly become mine Father, why have you forsaken me? My life is gone Father, know how long it's taken me? I live again I know when you're sleeping I know the things you're dreaming I know when you're sleeping I know the things you're dreaming I love when you're weeping Even death can't stop this feeling

If More Likes Are Really Important To You
go to settings and change to the new profile style (not the new viewing style- not "fsb"- the new profile style, which is in a different place on the settings page), then people can like you when they visit your page. (and if they aren't important to you, they aren't- this is not a poll, this is a tip on how, since I see complaints from time to time. I changed to the new profile style because it looks neat. and I enjoy having more likes, I admit, but I'll at least pretend that wasn't the primary reason ;) Still, it does allow me to 'like' everyone who _comments_ on my page too, at least for so long as I can see their comments. Some of the changes take some getting used to.) Off to work and pre-work preparation and such now, but...

Blog #2... Not For People That Dont Like To Read. Lol.
I'm not PERFECT. I'm actually so far from it but truth is I don't wish to be perfect. I'd rather have someone like me for me. For the person I am. So for those of you who think they really want to know the real me then read on and if not stop now. My name is Jennifer. Born and raised in the middle of the Pacific Ocean on the islands of Hawaii. I've spent all my life here and for some people it's a little hard to imagine. I'm 27 years old and like everyone else have had my share of lifes problems. I will however not get into it all in a blog on a website. However I am here to get things off my mind so I will speak some of my past experiences. At the age of 13 my only brother past away of a heart condition. He was only 11 years old. My best friend and the one person that I could always depend on even at such a young age. It's the bond of unconditional love. And yet life goes on. I met my second boyfriend and the guy that would end up being my husband 2 years later. I will admit it wa

I Am Bi-polar......
It amazes me that they just love to hate me, but they can't leave me alone. One peeps says because I ask him about corn and maize...he thinks I am a racist! I wonder how he would have handled it if he had been seated at the dinner table and Captain Ahab would have asked him to pass the corn! He probably would have stood up and called the Captain a racist! What fun! Listed below is what prompted me to post this piece....I happen to look in at the ladies and how they were talking about me and how they wanted to screen shot my comments to tattel tale on poor little bi-polar joseph, oh for the shame of it all! Anyway, read below a portion of what i cut and pasted: Josefs mumm is down there Dr Black said: i'm blocked.. Peacey fu owned by fu wifey said: I'm shocked. SHOCKED I say Dr Black said: i know.. what person in their right mind would block sweet little ole' me? Peacey fu owned by fu wifey said: he blocked me, unblocked me, blocked me again. he made some serio

8 Hair Care Treatments You Can Make Yourself (repost)
Photo: iStockphoto Eggs, yogurt and honey are, at first glance, all components of a tasty breakfast — but they also happen to be hair treatment ingredients, and affordable, all-natural ones at that. And they're not the only ones. Did you know, for instance, that the oils in avocados more closely resemble our own skin's oils than any product in the beauty aisle does? Or that the mild acidity in lemon is an effective — and gentler — alternative to chemical-laden products? Next time your locks need a lift, save money by using one of these kitchen fixes. For all hair types "The [raw] egg is really the best of all worlds," says Janice Cox, author of "Natural Beauty at Home". The yolk, rich in fats and proteins, is naturally moisturizing, while the white, which contains bacteria-eating enzymes, removes unwanted oils, she explains. To use: For normal hair, use the entire egg to condition hair; use egg whites only to treat oily hair; use

Random Act
I've decided that I am going to try and fill my blog with random nonsense when I can. It's been way too long. Surveys are always a great way to start. -Stolen from Ick R Us- 1. First thing you wash in the shower? Face. 2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Black. I always wear black. :S 3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Probably. 4.Do you plan outfits? No. Then again. It always helps when your wardrobe consists of Jeans, black slacks, shirts with the variety of color....meaning black, gray, blue, red, and boots or chucks. Hah... 5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?Sore... 6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? My shirt. 7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? Aim. But I do say "Lawl" Sorry, Ick...I say Wow. :( 8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? ...I don't remember my dreams very often. If I do...I forget them after a day or so. 9. Did you meet anybody new today? Nope. 10. What are you craving right now? A Mello Yello. 11. Do you floss? Wh

The World Today
You would be hard pressed to turn on the news and not hear the words record breaker or never seen before from the reporters. Whether it be the largest typhoon ever to hit Australia, the worst winter on record, the largest flood, drought, earthquake, tornado or volcano. Then there is the collapsing economies all around the world, protests and riots, wars and rumors of wars and corrupt governments all around us....Who is to blame for all this chaos? Not one person but all of us are to blame. We have experienced these things in our life before, if we are old enough to remember, but never before have they all happened at once and the intesnity and frequency of these events that are growing at a geometric ratio and the world is in extreme danger while most of us ignore what is going on around us for we don't want to disturb our life in a bubble, outside our comfort zone. What is truly amazing is that the prophets predicted this time thousands of years ago and now we see it

Stuffed Chicken Breasts
If you're tired of plain old chicken, this little trick makes a world of delicious! You will need the following: Chicken Breasts Rice Chopped seasoning tooth picks meat tenderizer Preheat your oven to 400 degrees. Start out with 3 to 4 large chicken breasts. For a jucier outcome, marinate them in fat free tialian dressing for at least 3 hours. Next, get a bag or box of seasoned rice. Suggestions: Uncle Ben's Wild Rice Rice-A-Roni (pick a flavor) Spanish rice Jambalaya Dirty Rice Follow the directions on the box for cooking the rice. Once your rice is done cooking put it aside.

Fridays Are Alwas Good
Life's Journey Every road in life has curves, bends, bumps, and hills. Although we choose our path, We might not acquire insight or knowledge From the paths we have chosen. When we travel, we want our roads to be straight, With little or no bumps to disturb our smooth ride. But, life offers little in the way of guarantee's. With each bump we learn more about how strong we can become. How weak we really are. Each turn uncovers a beauty and the ugly realization that, We are not in control of the roads which lay ahead. Measure how far you have gone not by age, But by the knowledge you have achieved during your travels. Look back upon the roads on which you have traveled, Not to find fault but in search for what went right on your road. Embrace your triumph's. Accept your defeats. Shed your doubt and despair Replace them with realistic goals that are attainable. Stop reaching for the stars, When beauty surrounds you on the road which you have chosen to travel.

The Drunk Eskimo Makes The Headlines Again
The Drunk Eskimo Shatters Masturbation World Record! Share It's official, The Drunk Eskimo is the new king of masturbation. In a stunning feat of endurance and determination, The Drunk Eskimo achieved 36 orgasms in a 24 hour period! Sleeping intermittently during the 24 hour marathon, The Drunk Eskimo remained focused and aroused by his impressive library of pornographic films. With over 400 films in his library and 3 televisions playing movies at all times, he had a continuous stream of footage to aid him in his quest. It is apparent by the massive development of the muscles in his forearm that The Drunk Eskimo is not your average masturbator. In an interview with UJ reporters after the record setting event, The Drunk Eskimo was quoted as saying, "masturbation for me is a way of life. I've been training for this day since I was 13 years old and I'm happy with my performance today". This record was formerly held by German Student, Hans Blickstein who achieved 27 orgasms in a 24 hour pe

Healing Herbs
The humble herb and spice rack in your kitchen today need not be just a decorative feature, although they look quite pleasing to the eye hanging on the wall, in both modern and old fashioned styled homes. They can in fact hold a plethora of natural healing ingredients that can also add great taste to the foods you eat every day.Of all the herbs and spices you can choose from for flavor, there are 15 that are more powerful than the rest. Below is the list and you may well be surprised to learn of the many diverse conditions for which they've proven so very useful.1. BASIL - Basil is an herbal carminative, that is, it can relieve gas and soothe stomach upsets. One possible explanation for its calming effect is a compound called eugenol, which has been shown to help ease muscle spasms. Research is still preliminary, but laboratory studies also suggest that compounds found in basil may help disrupt the dangerous chain of events that can lead to the development of cancer.2. CAYENNE - Cayenn

Love Lost
Ring…ring…click. Hello? This is your wakeup call Mr.Dramun, what are you doing with your life? What...what was that? Click. Adrian Dramun roused himself in an upright position, his legs hanging over the edge of the bed. He stared dumbly at the telephone he held in his hand. Cheap motel pieces really, hardly able to call them telephones in this society of cell-phones (Four in every household, we swear). It was tainted a dull yellow, the mouth piece barely hanging on. With disgust of the device Adrian slammed the phone down, finally releasing the mouth piece from its purgatory of the hundreds of hot breathed creatures that spoke to it. Adrian hunched his shoulders and rested his elbows on his knees. He buried his face into his hands. This was a morning ritual to him. Wake, clean off the sleep from his face. He would do this for about a minute, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands as if that

Good Saturday All
Moving On When I close my eyes and I discover that I am not who I thought I was Who am I When i wake up and find out that all that I ever was Was a lie When I thought things were good To find out now I was fooling myself Who did I fool then? What do I do now? Move on I open my eye's and look into the mirror To see who is staring back I like who I see I now know Where I am going I now know Who I am I now like my life I am not fooling anyone Not even Myself I have A destination I have A purpose I have A sense of fulfillment I encourage Each day's arrival With eager Anticipation I have Grown as a person I am Embracing life I am Satisfied I am

Really?
You need something on Fubar? Like... your life hangs in the balance?! Maybe you want something, but I seriously doubt that you need anything on Fubar. Your life will go on if Fubar ends tomorrow. If you really believe you need something on Fubar, maybe you should reexamine your life and priorities. Too many people confuse needs with wants. I need to eat. Later.

The Blind Side
Courage is a hard thing to figure you can have courage based on a dumb idea or a mistake but your not suppose to questionadults or your coach or your teacher because they make the rules maybe they know best but maybe they dont it all depends on who you are where you come from didnt at least one of the 600 guys think about giving up and joining with the other side i mean valley of death thats pretty salty stuff thats why courage is tricky should you always do what others tell you to do sometimes you might not even know why your doing something i mean any fool can have courage but honor thats the real reason you either do something or you dont its who you are and maybe who you want to be if you die try for something important then you have both honor and courage and thats pretty good i think thats what the writter was saying that you should hope for courage and try for honor and maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some too. This essay that Michael Oher had to

Check Out Lost Chapter
Please click/copy and paste the link below and check out Lost Chapter. They are a new band that just got signed to Deka records. Im on the street team to drive traffic to their website. My buddy is one of the guitarists and they need more support for their music. If you like metal then youll love it! Visit them, I am counted for clicks :) Thanks Melanie http://www.reverbnation.com/c./a14/1680508/219820/Artist/958765/Fan/MissionsAgent_88498_33577319/link

Jlm Auction
The JLM Auctions The JLM is going to be holding 2 auctions coming up... A lounge auction and a picture auction... The reason for the 2 auctions is for the people that can't make the lounge auction... Members can choose which auction they rather be in or they are able to choose if they want to be both... Both Auctions will start tuesday night March 1st at 9PM EST... The Lounge auction will be located in Velvet's Playground and be ran by Storm... The Picture Auction will held on the JLM Group Page and will be ran by Superman... If you want to be in the Lounge auction... Please send Storm a Private Message letting her know you want in and what you are offering so that she can add you to the the Lounge auction... For the People wanting to be in the picture auction... Send a private message to the "JLM Group Page" saying you wanna join the picture auction and what you offering in this auction... The picture Auction will run for ONE WEEK... closing at 9PM EST on March 8th.

"friends"
So I am like every other member here. Go along with the rating and chat with a select few. I stopped by someone’s profile today and noticed that they have over 15,000 friends. An educated guess is that most on here and including this person, probably only talk to maybe 10 people on here closely. So I say that this online world we are in is just like life. We meet and even interact with many people. But who of them are your true friends? Not many I say. Who of them would you open up to? Tell them your real life..your past..who you really are. Yes..I am sure many on here are honest and I am not saying that people are different on here. I am saying that no matter how honest you say are, can you say that you don’t hold anything back? Doubtful. So being on here helps us practice the real world. We protect are selves to not letting too much out. We try to read and analyze people to see if they are “worthy” of knowing the real you. It is a game that we play dodging

How Does It Happen Love
I woke up one morning with a Fantasy of thee I could not believe it could Happen to me What Magic had she done to put The thought in me She must be a witch after all Can’t you see My defenses were strong With all kinds of logic My heart and my mind were protected From all that could cause it But alas the one thing I Had Not foreseen Was how powerful magic could Break through and be seen The moral is simple with form Clear and true When your Dating a witch this could happen to you

How To Get On Cam In Area 51
to get on cam, go to "www.ustream.com" cam1 user= area_51_radio cam1 pw= area51cam cam2 user=area_51_radio2 cam2 pw= area51cam2 click broadcast in the upper right hand corner of your screen once logged in, and youll see the adobe window open up, and click allow, and once you see yourself in the video window, click start bradcast and announce you are showing your dirty ass house in Area 51 lounge

Me New Fav,. Song!!
I work down at Ashberry Hills Minimum wage, but it pays the bills Cleaning floors and leading hymns on Sunday Katherine Davis, room 303 Sweetest soul you ever could meet I bring her morning coffee everyday Chorus: She calls me Raymond She thinks I'm her son Tells me get washed up for supper before your daddy gets home She goes on about the weather how she can't believe it's already 1943 She calls me Raymond, and that's all right by me She talks about clothes on the line in the summer air Christmas morning and Thanksgiving prayer Stories of a family that I never had Sometimes I find myself wishing I'd been there Chorus: When she calls me Raymond She thinks I'm her son Tells me get washed up for supper before your daddy gets home She goes on about the weather how she can't believe it's already 1943 She calls me Raymond, and that's all right by me There's a small white cross in Arlington Reads Raymond Davis '71 Until she can see his face again I'm gonna fill in the best I can Cho

A Penis, A Cucumber, A Pickle
A Penis, A Cucumber, and A Pickle where all sitting around talking about how thier lives suck. The Cucumber says "Ya'll think you have it rough, every time I get big, fat, and juicy, they cut me up and put me in a salad.",,,The Pickle says "you think you have it rough, every time I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick me in a jar and pour spices and vinegar on me.",,,The Penis says "ya'll think you have it bad, every time I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick a platic bag over my head, stick me in a dark room and bang my head against the wall til I throw up on myself and pass out!"

Chain And Bound
iam lost in a world filled with nothing but darkness as i try to gasp the bit of hope i have left i find my self struggling to hold on but as i slip and fall endlessly into nothing more then a deep forgotten void i try and get my self up but i find my self chain up with my demons laughing at me telling me they will never let me go my mind is always racing but it is also my worst foe it always seem to toss me things that i would rather forget the more times i try and fake how i truely feel just to please other people the more i seem to get lost even more how do i over come it how do i conquer it is it so easy to slip into total darkness will i ever find my peace my light forever into darkness i was born in the cold dark world as every seem to not always see things as they really are the world is black and white for that is what i see there is no middle ground who can save me who will be my light to blank out the darkness in witch i feel

The 38 ( Somewhat Personal / Intimate ) Confessions U Guys Asked For =)
1 ) i litterally cant function withour music. i even sleep with my ipod on 2) im addicted to facebook . i cant go a day without it - yep im serious 3) i have borderline personality disorder - its NOT multiple personalitys. 4) i also suffer form severe deperessive and anxiety disorder - the hospital used to be my 2nd home -no joke 5) i am STILL in love with the backstreet boys 6) Drake ( the rapper and jimmy from degrassi ) got me through a fucked up break up / miscairage 7) i cant have kids for the next 2 1/2 years - if i dont get another round of implanon - 8) im not even sure if i want kids anymore 9) im spiritual..NOT religious. i believe in god, i pray, but i wont step foot in a church unless im getting amrred or its someones funreal. it amkesme feel fake after me hospitalizations 10 ) i ussed to be highly obsessed with eric roberts and kenny chesney - i still like both iof em, but is more controlled now haha 11 ) i have successfully written 44 songs and a copious amou

Lol
A man walks into a bar and immediately realizes its a gay bar. He thinks to himself I'm not gay but I really want to drink so he walks up to the bar. The bartender asks " what's the name of ur penis?" The man says "man get out of my face, I'm not like that, just give me a beer." The bartender replies "I'm sorry sir but I can't serve you until u tell me the name of your penis." The man says "okay what's the name of your penis?" The bartender realizes ' mine is named nike, you know Just do it." The man thought for a moment then replied " mine is named secret." The bartender replied "Secret?" The man explained you know, "strong enough for a man, made for a woman."

Hospital
Update on Phil's condition He took a fall down a set of stairs recieving a mild concussion along with a granmal siezure. he should be released on friday. He says all rates will be returned from comments and from PMs. Please show him lots of love, he will be doing a godmode to show thanks to friends and family. Family friend

Eye Patch
I have been reminded of an adage Eye for an eye In the Old Testament it gave angry people an excuse for Revenge Yet they ignored the Old Testament that says Vengeance is mine...sayeth the Lord That tells me that people thousands of years ago KNEW that there would always be people Who are capable of great violence * manipulation Just living on this planet gives you an eye patch I for one am happy to have one eye left And a body that lets me Experience All of this...with an eye oatch

Freezing
Damn You October!For your ghastly wind has brought out the winter clothes that bind us!I miss the tits of summer and smoking outdoors gives me chapped lipped talk!It nibbles the filters of my ciggeratte as it takes me ten minutes to utter the words "Open the door!"How I long for the warming kiss of July,with its itchy smells of clipped grass and the smoky cardboard fire starters of backyard barbques... The Winter is for hibernation and peacefull dreaming of tropical islands and grassy skirts,palm trees and mai tais,and exotic locales scaled down to fit your special corner.The warm womb of my bed is at times for peacefull slumber,and others of wild thrashings of extasy that make me forget the miserable cold that makes my trees miss me,but only for the moment. Spring calls to me from afar and implores me to hold out my weary son.For I will be with you again.In the meantime stop your whining and be a man

Why
THIS IS FROM GOTHIC MAIDEN WICKED NYMPH WHO IS IN HER REDNECK FORM TONIGHT !!! The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to.Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone. Every time I see you all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that i am not over you and you are so over me . I don't know w

I Am Going To Lose My Son!!!
My ex wants to move with no job, place to live or anything else because she thinks the grass is greener on the otherside...If I dont let him go he will resent me forever for not giving him the chance... I am so lost.. and there is nothing I can dooo....

A Nice Saying
While you scream at your woman, there's a man wishing he could whisper In her ear. While you humiliate, offend, and insult her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how beautiful she is. While you hurt her, there's a man wishing he could take her pain away. While you make her cry, there's a man stealing smiles from her. **this was not meant to comment on only meant for a reminder. (h) Maia

Sex Games From A-z {m N O And P}
Mother, May I? Enough Said. Play Mother, May I? in the bedroom, and you can't do a damn thing without getting permission first. Okay, so I still have a little girl lurking inside in me. Naked Twister. It doesn't get any easier to explain than this. Hit up a toy store and buy the old-time favorite kids' game Twister. Take it home, get butt-naked with your mate pop in Cooley High or Shaft, make a pitcher of Kool-Aid and play the game. Of course, being naked gives it an interesting 'twist' (no pun intended).Open House.This can be done in two ways. If you live in an area where kids go to bed as a decent hour, open up all your curtains, shades and blinds one night, turn on all the lights and freak the hell out of each other. I know it sounds silly, but the mere thought that someone might be watching can be a fantastic turn-on. The other way it can be done is to fuck each other in the house full of people while taking the risk that someone might walk in on you. This can be very exhilarating

Stop Paternity Fraud!
I wish they had a law like this in New Jersey twenty years ago! http://www.hutchnews.com/Todaystop/paternity-bill--1 State rep backs paternity bill Genetic tests would be mandatory for Kan. births - married couples' kids, too. By Mary Clarkin - The Hutchinson News - mclarkin@hutchnews.com A bill introduced Wednesday in the Kansas House of Representatives would require every child born in Kansas to submit to genetic tests to determine paternity for the child. Prior to leaving the hospital, the child, mother and alleged father shall submit to genetic tests, the bill states. When asked for clarification, bill sponsor State Rep. Melody McCray-Miller, D-Wichita, said the mother would not have to undergo DNA testing. ----------advertisement----------- The intent of the proposed bill would apply to married couples, too, even those having their second or third baby. The one-page bill states that tests shall be done by experts qualified as genetic examiners. If the birth occu

I Now Know What I Must Do
WHY DO I EVEN TRY WHEN I TELL YOU HOW I FEEL IT MAKES YOU SMILE BUT YOU STILL WALK AWAY AND TELL OTHERS THAT YOU WANT SOMEONE THAT LOVES YOU FOR YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE AND IM STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU . I KNOW IM JUST A GHOST AND NOTHING I SAY CAN BE HEARD... BUT THE TRUTH BE TOLD IM NOT A GHOST I AM REAL I BLEED WHEN CUT AND HAVE PROVED IT ... I DO SHED TEARS WHEN DOWN. I WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND WAITING WITH OPEN ARMS BUT IT MIGHT BE TO LATE WHEN THAT DAY COMES. CUASE I MAY ALREADY BE GONE AND I NKOW I WONT BE MISSED AT ALL NO TEARS WILL BE SHED FOR THE LOST OF THIS BLACK WOLF.. I AM TO EVIL TO BE MISSED. I AM ALWAYS IN TEARS AND HEART IS BREAKING APART FROM BEING SHATTERED. I AM SO READY FOR THE PAIN TO GO AWAY AND THE HEART TO STOP BEATING.. I CANT KEEP GOING KNOWING THE ONE THAT I LOVE MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THIS UNIVERISE THINKS IM THE WROST AND MOST EVILIST ALIVE.. I HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS AND TRYED TO SHOW THE LOVE YOU DESERVE BUT I SCREWED THAT ALL UP SO I

Trigger Time
I just recieved my monthy email from the powers that be at Xbox, although I admit I almost liked it better when Microsoft did not send out these "freindly" emails. It reads as follows: R4Bulletz, here's your personalized Xbox News and Info: Gamer Score 12055 Total time on Xbox Live last Month: 94 Hours 58 Min Your Most Frequent Activity Last Month: Call of Duty Black Ops 48 hours 22 Min. Other Activities You Enjoyed: Assassins Creed Brotherhood 21 hours 32 Min. Netflix 15 Hours 30 Min. Its almost depressing. Add me if you want to play: Gamer tag r4Bulletz

Doing Porn
sorry for the miss leading but i know for a fact some people only care about one thing and thats pussy and dick dont say you dont becuse about 98% of people on here do i should know i seen some of peoples names in folders that they view so by sitting there telling me you dont is making you a fucking lier thank you very much now why iam i writeing this oh its simple iam tired of the drama but more then anything else iam tired of having my mind fucked and played with you want to know why i honestly have a complx when it comes to my looks and my self esteem will its purely simple and ill tell you and no its not just the people on fubar its everyone around the world even in my area iam tired of people just looking to get off either to my pics or what i can do for them i notice i get check out alot more for my nsfw then i do for my own photos that tells you something there also i get told there are some people who seem to be attacted to me and how much they seem to want me will here th

Being Lied To And Played For A Big Fool
I am not aure what gives people so much pleasure in playing games with someones emotions and their trust . I tried to figure out why this person felt it was right to for the past year lie and lie and lie thinking I wouldnt soon figure it all out , sad part is I had to find out due to her partner "friend" joined her in this game and then used me as the big joke . You will know her when you come across her she is arrogant bossy and very very untrustworthy . aim My god I was raised so much better then to toy with someone like this , I mean am i the only one who believes in honesty , truth , and all round being decent to someone you claim to care about ? . I am now burned for the last time am very very careful now who gets my trust.

Does It Ever End?
ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I WROTE ONE OF THESE BUT THERE ARE SOME THINGS ON MY MIND. FIRST AND FOREMOST I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT ONCE SOMEONE GOT TO KNOW ME THEY WOULD KNOW WHAT TYPE OF A PERSON I AM. I'M PRETTY QUIET FOR THE MOST PART UNTIL IT STARTS CAUSING ME GRIEF. I'VE LEARNED SINCE MY DIVORCE TO FINALLY SPEAK MY MIND... WHICH I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE MOST PART, BUT WHEN YOU COME OUT OF A MENTALLY ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP IT TAKES MANY YEARS TO GET OVER. I STILL STRUGGLE WITH THE FACT OF WHAT HE USE TO SAY AND IT TAKES A TOLL ON YOUR EVERYDAY LIFE WHEN YOU HEAR STUFF FROM YOUR SO CALLED FRIENDS THAT ARE SIMILAR TO WHAT YOU HAD HEARD IN THE PAST. I HAVE HAD A COUPLE RELATIONSHIPS ON HERE WHICH OK, FOR I AM A SINGLE PARENT RAISING TWO CHILDREN, I WORK FULL TIME, AND THIS HAS BEEN MY GET AWAY AND WHEN YOU FINALLY CONNECT WITH SOMEONE YOU FINALLY FEEL AT PEACE WITH YOUR FEELINGS OF SELFCONSIOUSNESS WHEN THEY ARE TELLING YOU THINGS TO BOOST YOU UP WHERE EVERYONE DESERVES TO BE. BUT IN RECE

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l U.S. -China relations: a newfound maturity Article Summary This article explains how China has evolved past the U.S.A in economy and technology to become the new Super power. Even though China is a Dictatorship, they have become a powerful society and want to involve the Americans into their country. Chinese President Hu Jintao came to America knowing that being the two largest economies in this world, China will need to work with our Country. The two Presidents talked about how they feel one another should run their country, flaws in the way things are run and the two countries coming together to help one another better the country’s economies. President Obama had a private dinner with China’s Hu Jinto to show China’s people that America is equal and a big part of Chinese economy. China is looking to become the better economy with American help of exports. The Chinese spend about 1/5 of what America spends on its defense. Our military is powerful enough

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Update.......They have removed some of the wires and hoses from him they are now running tests to make sure he is able to function with no assistance, and to make sure that he does not have any swelling or clots in the brain. They are also checking his memory long and short term. He remembers things with a reminder otherwise he does not remember anything right now, they are trying to find out why he is still expected to be out by weekend. Phil is recovering fast they just want to make sure he is working to full mental capacity.

Checking Back In ....ltns
It's been a long time since I logged in here. So I figured I'd post an update for those that care. I'm still going to school but changed my major to small business, I also have started my own business which can be found at http://carouselcreationssoaps.yolasite.com so come visit with me there anytime :) School is going well, I just have to make sure I can keep up with my course work and with all the things you have to keep up with when you start a business. And I am the only person producing the items for sale so that's makes things a little more hectic :) But it will all work out in the end I'm sure... My kids are growing the youngest just turned 17... it's crazy that's for sure. Well take care and leave me a message if you like :)

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so, my brain surgery was 2/1, still recovering. On the 13th I ended up aspirating, for those who don't know what that means I vomited and acid washed back into my lungs. I'd gotten food poisoning and aspirated when my body rejected the bad Mc' Donalds. You can bet I wont eat there again. Well my lungs filled up with so much acid my back and chest were on fire. I felt like I was dying. Turns out, I was. I went to my local ER, they told me I was faking it with out checking my O2 sats, the amount of oxygen saturation in your blood. They pumped me full of duladid, a pain killer, and sent me home. Also told me they didn't want to see me back that day. I ended up back in there coughing up enough blood to fill paper towels. They took me serious then, check my O2 which was at 89 and plummeted every time I moved or got up to use the bathroom. It got so bad I couldn't breath on my own and I was still hacking up blood. The Doctors told the people I lived with that I wasn't going to live and wante

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love isnt just a word thrown out when u fuck ur lover, its word used so she will know u dont ever want to live with out her... love is patience and attention... not hey lets sit in silence 5 feet apart, babe shh my shows on... love isnt what u felt for me is it?? love is what u used to get me... and kept using to keep me...

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I have to vent here .....bout my dear old ex....cause uh...hes a desperate little pigfuk & i just found out hes harassing my family again and its takein every ounce of fiber in me not to fucking kill a motherfucker.... So this dude....that i dated for a long time because i was young & really fucking stupid....Now let me just put it fuckin out there.....He has serious mental issues......My parents have worked in the mental health department for YEARS....longer then i have been alive SO i am pretty much an expert at spotting a psychotic fucker when i see one.....why i didnt RUN the opposite direction screaming wildly when i met this man is beyond my understanding because trust me.i have spent weeks questioning that.....& i really dont feel like stateing the true signs and symptons of a psychotic sociopath....but he fits any and every description ....& i now know why (at the time i thought it was dangerous and sexy and uhm...i had daddy issues ) he wanted to get in a serious relat

Drown
Drown Split second Light extinguished Enveloped in darkness Frigid and foreboding Suddenly alone Arms reach out Hoping to find you Discovering nothing But four walls closing in Racing heart echoing Solitary sound Pressure amplifying Air violently depleted Waves come crashing in Swirling waters from bottom to top Cries for help unheard Icy cold filling my lungs Suffocating screams Vanquishing thrashing limbs Until stillness overcomes Leaving only desolation SMF

Fubard - Poem By Me
A sea of faces without a name. Sucked into a world thats meerly a game. We are pawns and many are played, some are remembered though memories fade. Yet here we are another day lost in this madness never finding a way and its safe to say..many of us will never leave. Hooked on a virtual high the adrenaline rushes as time passes by. This isn't real not flesh nor blood yet souls are consumed in the flood. Many have been hurt in this place yearning for love yet losing the race. Tell me could you even do this step away for a moment thinking of times you missed the clock ticks on by as the sands of time seep away some have died waiting for that day to find true love in a virtual land never feeling that touch alone where they stand. Its a terrible fate but it happens each day filling the void through hearts led astray, could you paint me a picture with your shades of grey? Theres no light hiding in the dark yet you desire to feel a spark , a little flicker an internal flame as y

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*FROM SCRAPPER'S BLOG* You tube has changed there embed codes and members are haveing and issue with loading the video to their profile. Here is what needs to be done to be able to load the video to your profile. 1. go to youtube and choose the video you would like to be on your profile 2. click on "Embed" 3. do not use the code that comes up when you click on embed 4. Scroll down a little and you will see 4 different boxes. 5. you will want to check the last box so you can post the video to your page. The code will then revert back to the old code which you can post onto your page. Thank you SCRAPPER and Vampire Bill the Bouncer for putting this together. *Additionally, you may want to choose not to include related videos, to enable privacy-enhanced mode or set a custom size and any color layout, if available. As of this posting, clicking Enable privacy-enhanc

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When it comes to my birth, all I really know is the day it occurred. As to where it happened I don't know if it was Delaware or Pennsylvania. I do however know that when I was young, before the age of five, I attempted to pop a wheelie on my bike and managed to end the scenario with a scar that lay upon my head to this very day. I know this occurred before I was five because that was the year that my father went on a hunting trip and the same man never returned. He was shot three times with bird-shot and the pellets would have killed him if not for a single random occurrence that saved his life. He was Smoking. Yes, the cigarette saved my fathers life. His hand was holding the coffin nail up to his lips and shielded his throat from the pellets. Unfortunately, the gunshots and the resulting surgery combined with the later aneurysm resulted in the man who returned from the incident being a completely different person than the one that left. A man who had trouble com

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Does anyone really like the seizure inducing default photos? Does anyone really look at me as a decrepit old man that likes to collect and post photos of women young enough to be my granddaughter?

Boobs
http://bodyrockin.wordpress.com/2011/03/05/stare-at-boobs-for-longer-life-study/ Body-rockin.com's News-Thrills & Sex Just stuff for grown folks, nice or a lil naughty! « ‘I love porn!’ Upfront Cameron Diaz reveals! Stare at boobs for longer life: Study Posted by Body-Rockin Interactive Fun Zone Frankfurt, Germany, December 6 — A rather bizarre study carried out by German researchers suggests that staring at women’s breasts is good for men’s health and increases their life expectancy. According to Dr. Karen Weatherby, a gerontologist and author of the study, gawking at women’s breasts is a healthy practice, almost at par with an intense exercise regime, that prolongs the lifespan of a man by five years. She added, “Just 10 minutes of staring at the charms of a well-endowed female, is roughly equivalent to a 30-minute aerobics work-out.” A five-year research on 500 men: Researchers at three hospitals in Fr

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"Look kid, I know you're hurt, and I know you've lived most of your life lonely. I get that. You're upset and you're mad, I know, because you've got angry eyes like mine..." Thats the last I ever heard from the old man outside my building. He never smiled, but every day, I passed him as I left for work. And he just looked down, like a man condemned to die. Maybe he was, who knows? He told me once his name was Leo and i just smiled. I never had to say a word, somehow, he already knew my name. Leo never said much, but when he did speak, his eyes twinkled like glistening water, and i almost suspected he was father time. He'd look at me sometimes and id hear "Hey kid, why so down?" He always gave me hope. Even when his clothes were wore down to rags and some people called Leo a bum, he never asked for anything. He wasnt a hard man, just proud. Too proud to ask for ANYTHING. He'd survived two wars and came home to nothing, being proud wasnt too much to ask for. Leo simply gave. First

I Pray For You
I haven't been to church since I don't remember whenThings were going great '˜til they fell apart againSo I listened to the preacher as he told me what to doHe said you cant go hating others who have done wrong to you.Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn.Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them.I pray your brakes go out running down a hillI pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I'd like toI pray your birthday comes and nobody callsI pray you're flying high when your engine stallsI pray all your dreams never come trueJust know wherever you are honey, I pray for youI'm really glad I found my way to church'Cause I'm already feeling better and I thank God for his words.Yeah I'm going take the high road,And do what the preacher told me to do,You keep messing up and I'll keep praying for you.I pray your tire blows out at 110.I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos.I pray your brak

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Call Center | Louisville, KY, USA (I am calling a customer.) Me: “May I speak to [customer's name] please?” Woman: “He’s not here.” Me: “This is [name], with [phone company]. I am calling to remind you that your phone bill was due on the 5th and is in danger of being disconnected. Can you tell me when you will be able to pay it?” Woman: “How did you get this number? It’s unlisted!” Me: “Ma’am, this is the phone company. We gave you this phone number.”

Dark Clouds
Dark clouds swirl overhead Just like the night she discovered him dead Ominous winds whistle through the trees Morbid thoughts sound in her head like buzzing bees Enough time has passed for her to not be haunted And yet thoughts of him continue to come.... undaunted She wants to be free, to finally let go Will she ever be able to do that? She just doesn't know.

Fubar Games
games of love, stories of woe but the drama here in fuland is a never ending flow this place can be fun with fantasies to play so long as you realize it isn't reality, at the end of the day so many seem to forget though that the people behind the screen are real some with broken hearts that are not so easy to heal with feelings and hopes and dreams some don't care it seems some play this game not caring if others are hurt or misled some get lost in this fantasy world they have trapped inside their head i like to play the game to some extent there are times (like this) when i even like to vent i like to meet new people and make a new friend or two but there isn't any reason to purposely make someone blue even in fu-land there is such a thing as courtesy, manners and love respect and honesty and a higher force above! Life happens.... let's help our friends survive it. (giggles)

Sex Games From A To Z {y And Z}
You Do Me. Mutual masturbation. Get each other off. Or, for those who have a dildo hanging around, you can fuck you woman with a dildo until she cum. Whatever's clever. The Pinkie (which would be Z lol). The Pinkie means taking all of my suggestions for sex games and playing each and every one of them in the span of two months. I wonder how many of you can do it, 'cause that means fucking EVERY NIGHT. If you decide to take the Pinkie Challenge, email me at sassinsweet@yahoo.com and let me know the results. Have fun!

Todays Gift To You
Hands My voice is silent Though my mind shouts My hands always write What my heart's all about When depression Over-shadows my joy My hands keep on writing To help fill the void When deep within me My soul crys in pain My hands keep on writing To help me keep sane I write about things I can't seem to say My hands keep me writing To show me the way So when my voice goes silent And my minds shouting out It's my hands that are sharing Shedding no doubt

Crazy Babblings Number One...
oh how i would love to live among my true sisters, to be at one with the salt water, the fish....the life of the ocean!! Oh how i long to life in what i wish had been my true form... To go out and be who i am inside! To not be looked at as strange silly girl, who wants nothen more then the atention of others!! How can one get granted the wish to be eternal! At one with mother earth, at one with the water....At one with the deep black see... How can one choose to be something so strange and even make beleave!! Dose one wake up one day and decide to change? Or does one merly get born in to a huge life of knowing that you do not belong in this form??? I think this is the way i was made!! Like the man who wishes to be a tiger, Or men who become women, or women who decide to become men... I am yet just another product of that blurred line between men and women, where more then a few humans fall...I am so dieing to have what i desire! And wish to one day scream it from the ocean de

My Love
this girl sits and wonders can she do it? can she really please Him, He has others that call Him Master and this girl trys hard to stand her place.. but the other feelings she has for Him scream for the pain to stop that she wants Him all to her self, she knows she can never have him she knows this in her mind but her heart will never listen instead it just goes on and breaks everytime she realizes that He will never be hers and hers only. she loves Him more then she thinks He knows.. yea there has been some come and go but none have ever compared to a Man she has never touched nore ever kissed.. Why does she subject herself to this type of love why does she let her heart feel this pain daily, ill tell you why because she is a slave to His love and to Him she will always belong even when she is weak and He has to remind her to be strong...

Poetry
So many words go unspoken, As we linger here in the dark. There is a thing or two I wish you to know, But all the words seem to slip away, As you tenderly wrap me in your embrace. Still I wish I could find a way to say, I never thought dreams could come true Yet you showed me that they do, When you came into my life. You set my soul free, With every kiss we share. That from the moment I saw your face, These feelings washed over me Like a tidal wave agaist the jagged shore. Tell me you feel the same. Tell me there is nowhere else you would rather be. Then here at this momemnt in each others arms. So many words go unspoken As we linger here in the dark. Trying to find a way to let the other know How wonderful life is here together silent in the dark.

A Masters Love
I slowly push open the door and step into the dim candle lit room. Before my eyes had time to adjust to the darkness, I felt hands and a silk scarf closing around my head blindfolding me. I know he is in the room. I can feel his eyes upon me, staring through me. But there is nothing but a thunderous silence lingering in the air. Not a sound of a foot step or even a heavy sigh. Not knowing for sure where he is, I shiver with anticipation. My senses are all heightened. And I swear I could feel his breath enveloping me. I've longed for his touch since I first set foot in the room. All I can think is... where is he? What does he want from me? And what will he do with me? As I stand there in the darkness waiting and wanting.Suddenly I hear his voice, as he commands me Stand There!I obey, with my deep longing of him touching me growing stronger every moment, but I dare not move. I stand in my appointed place for what seems an endless amount of time. From the corner behind me I hear rustling

Serching For My Dark Queen
FOR FAR TO LONG DO I SPEND TIME SERCHING FOR YOU, THE ONE THAT WOULD BRING REAL LOVE INTO MY HEART, THAT WANTS TO SEE WHAT LURKS IN MY SOUL AND WANTS TO BE A PART OF. ARE YOU THE ONE THAT WOULD APPRECIATE THE LOVE I HAVE TO OFFER, TO TREAT YOU LIKE A QUEEN IS ALL I WANT TO DO, TO BE YOUR KING IS ALL I WANT TO BE. IF YOU REALLY THINK YOU ARE THE ONE IVE BEEN SERCHING FOR IN THIS GOD FORSAKKEN WORLD THEN LET ME KNOW, TELL ME THAT IM AM YOUR DARK ANGEL, HELP ME LOVE AGAIN.

I Thought This Would Make An Awesome Song
I am Hurting I reach for you But your not there I cry for you But you cant hear I long for you But your not here I go to you But you just disappear. I wonder if I am ever going to get over you I'm still searching for some light some hope to hold I get thought each day I just don't live in it When I lay down my head your always there Because your inside it Your not next to me to hold on to me And you just don't get it You dont need my love like I need yours You cant share you heart your mind your life your soul You can't give give what I need to feel whole again Cause you never really knew me like I thought you did I cry out you name But you don't listen Cause your never here When I need most You live like a man Who wants his freedom You only love me when You need me you just use me I hate what your doing to me And I wont live with it Cause I am not going to sit by Waiting for you to realize That I am The best thing

Five. Four. One. Two. Three. Four. Three. Four. Three.
I could probably use a cigarette.No cash in the skin. No fuzz in the shoes.No rattle in the sofa.Damn.Just another jones-a-day blues.On the right days, in the right moodan old skewer can take you places.Keeps your mind off the fact that you haven't lit upand banished your demons for several days.Gotta get em out somehow.Phone's ringing. Phone's still.Stop expecting me to have something to say.Some days my lips are cracked, and I'm afraid to smile.I bet you were expecting some math.Some rhythm, some flow.Did I tell you the one about the whistling dervish?Damn its hard to whistle with a mouth so dry.Like rolling your face in glass just to ask for directions.Its a lot like purgatory.Just keep walking by the same rock...when all you wanted to see was a bluesmanhead to toe in red.Not for any particularly mischevious metaphor.Its just that in a sea of gray you miss the bright.In a song of cold, you want the burn.In the forced march of lifeyou justwant to

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Michael Moore on the Class War: Wisconsin shows America how it’s done 03.06.2011 07:43 pm Michael Moore’s speech in Wisconsin is truly a MASTERPIECE of political oratory. You have to watch it, it’s absolutely riveting. One of the most vital statements of brutal political and economic fact that an American citizen has ever said with the eyes of the world upon them (and Moore’s never been shy in that department, has he?). To Michael Moore, I say “Bravo, sir.” And to the brave working (and retired!) people of Wisconsin and the Democrats on the lam fighting these over-reaching Republican goons on our behalf, you are the very, very best amongst us in a dark time in our nation’s history. Heroes. Citizens. Citizens. Heroes. Talk about speaking truth to power, this is a knock-out. Moore’s words, the crowd, the moment. It’s stunning theater. The fight in Wisconsin makes me prouder to be an American than I have ever been in my

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I’ve always been curious about the world around me, which can explain my love for travel.....seeing different places, meeting new and exciting people and cultures, doing something different. I guess that’s what separates us from those who are never curious about their surroundings, always staying in one place...you know that ones who never wonder what’s on the other side the bridge.............. As far back as I can remember I always loved crossing bridges, seeing the "other side" to me it meant that I was going somewhere new , leaving the old life behind (even if it was for a lil while). I’ll always welcome change (hmph my resume can explain that better for me...lol). Case in point I recently ran into "the left turn when I should’ve made the right turn" and while she looked good (hell she’ll never stop looking good) but after talking for a minute something dawned on me...it was that she likes where she is, meaning that no matter what she’

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We are all taught lessons throughout life.....some by choice and others by fate, it takes a wise individual to not only survive these encounters but to learn and give back what was given to them You go throughout life learning and experiencing knowledge (good as well as bad) and depending on what you take from it, shapes you into the person you'll ultimately become. There are some who have these experiences upon them only to not truly learn from it, instead they see it as some form of payback for all years they were without it and now seek out to claim the rest of it as their own not caring about who they hurt in the process.....now some will say I'm doing this for my kids sake and to show them that only the "weak" give up the chance to strike when the opportunity comes around.........funny thing about knowledge,the moment you take it for granted is when you miss out on the chance of a lifetime and once it passes you by, the odds of it coming your way again are almost always 0

Keeping Interest
When you first meet that person that gets your attention (like no other) wonderful things happen....all of a sudden you find yourself smiling more, pick your head up when you walk, start to "look" better to others around you....basically you get back into your life and get involved, cause you know that for whatever the reason you have someone that has brightened the "light" in you and made it shine again. for months you two share everything about each other from likes to your dislikes, your goals as well as what you fear......the two of you make an instant, beautiful connection that it gets harder and harder to get off the phone or leave the other's sight and thought you hold back while your spending time with this someone what you don't see is that lil by lil you start to let down your guard and fall for them (sometimes even when we do "see" it we don't care) cause we're soooo wrapped up in the feeling that we are thought of and cared about on a regular basis...... So why do thin

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Waking up and realizing that you missed out on alot does something to a person whether it be from someone who never truly understood you, to a situation you "know" you shouldn't let get any further that saying hi.......when you wake up and finally realize that what you thought you saw was not what you see after you awoke......it's time to rethink things and maybe even change a few things But that's just the begining in the state of awaking, things that you left blurry have cleared up either by you finally seeing the truth or by someone...or something else clearing a path for you and then you make a choice to either see them for what they truly are.....or since you have gotten used to them being blurry they go right back to that which in my case makes me the fool for doing that.....how many times can you be there through the crying,venting, and basically listening to their negativity and then have them turn around and say that they don't know you or care whether your there or

Recent Events...
first off, I'd like to say sorry.. I havn't been myself lately. I've been jumping to conclusions. I've been a real asshole lately. I have been without my anti-depressants, aka my happy pills for a couple of weeks. I've been stressed beyond my usual daily stresses that I have to deal with. and a few weeks ago, my mom got some bad news, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. so now on top of everything, I've been worried too. I took her today to get the results of the biopsy, and at least it wasn't as bad as I expected. the lump she found was about the size of a golf ball, and I was really worried that she would be the next in a very long list of close family and friends that were diagnosed with cancer and in a flash were gone. the doctor told us that she has stage 2 cancer that started in a milk duct. it hasn't spread, and the lymph nodes do not appear abnormal. she got a call back this afternoon and she's scheduled for pre-op on Tuesday, and surgery on Friday. once she's healed she'll

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re-posted (thanks kristy): So, let me get this "straight"...(SO TO SPEAK)...Kelsey Grammer can end a 15 year marriage over the phone, Larry King can be on divorce #9, Britney Spears had a 55 hour marriage, Jesse James and Tiger Woods, while married, were having sex with EVERYONE. Yet, the idea of same-sex marriage is going to destroy the institution of marriage? Really?

Meh....my Mind
I look, I see but i can't see what it is you see. Everyday staring at a reflection that I think who is that? Everyday looking at the pictures saying to myself, who is that, that can't be me. I don't see what it is you see, I am unable to invision that myself. What I see you can't even imagine. I don't see me, I see something else. Who is that, I ask myself? I will never be what others are like I will always just be me. Somedays I'm happy with that but then those days sneek up where I wish I was more like someone else. Many scars, deep inside, that hinder me to see what it is you see. So many things that you have yet to know of why I feel this way. Emotional scars run deep for things that have been kept secret. Somedays they slip and reach the surface but for the most they stay buried deep inside a wandering mind. I'm sorry I am unable to see me like you see me. I'm sorry it frustrates me to hear the words you speak. I just don't know how to take all this in, I wi

Cosby For Prez In 2012
There are four boxes to be used in defense of liberty: soap, ballot, jury, and ammo. Please use in that order. Bill Cosby has a great way of "distilling" things. Looks like he's done it again! AMERICA NEEDS A CANDIDATE WITH THIS PLATFORM!! I HAVE DECIDED TO BECOME A WRITE-IN CANDIDATE FOR PRESIDENT IN THE YEAR 2012. HERE IS MY PLATFORM: (1). Any use of the phrase: 'Press 1 for English' is immediately BANNED!!! English is

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Are you entertained yet? Do you hate my guts? am I a monster for what I have done? Judge me accordingly for the moment but do not pass final judgement on me until you have taken a walk in my shoes. I had girlfriends in the past but they were far and few, the pain I suffered from the loss of my wife and daughter was horrid. Phantom fire trucks raced in my head all through this time, all I wanted was death, all I needed were bullets. When you stumbled across my page I told you I was a real motherfucker, and I stand true to that claim. I am real because I do not fear to tell you where I have been and where I am going. Every word typed here within my page is true. I have nothing to hide. I am going to be a warrior, a soldier and I want my story told just in case something somehow happens to me along the way. As I have stated before I am not proud of what I have done, though sometimes I may seem like I am boasting or being cocky. this is how I felt at that moment, this is the truth. I leav

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so i just watched a news clip about the burger joint called "the heart attack grill" where there slogan is "a taste worth dying for" and where anyone over 350lbs eats free, and they have burgers named after various bypass surgeries and their spokesman died at the age of 29 standing at 6'8 and weighing 578 lbs...I just wanted to share this with you and im also curious to know your thoughts on this. Here's the link to the news clip if you wanna review it for yourself. http://news.yahoo.com/video/us-15749625/the-heart-attack-grill-24471051

Bush Security Official: Al Qaeda Could Use King’s Anti-muslim Narrative As A Recruiting Tool (repost)
Today, House Homeland Security Committee Chairman began his “personal quest” to scrutinize the patriotism of American Muslims through his hearings on the radicalization in the U.S. Muslim community. King insists that his pursuit is “the logical response” to the “threat level” posed by the community, adding “it makes no sense to talk about other types of extremism, when the main threat to the United States today is talking about al Qaida.” Not only are King’s assumptions incredibly inaccurate, a former Department of Defense official in the Bush Administration states that his crusade is helping homegrown terrorism. Jennifer Bryson, who spent a few years doing counter-terrorism work while working for the Defense Intelligence Agency from 2003 to 2008, pointed out that King’s fear-mongering is “dividing the world between Muslims and non-Muslims,” the “same tactic” used by Osama Bin Laden and Al-Qaeda

Auctiong My Points
AUCTIONING MY POINTS FOR A DAY AUCTION!!! It's my first auction that I'm hosting and up for grabs are my points for the day and not only THAT but my points for the day as I run a BOOMY and POLISHER combo!!! The Rules are as follows: 1: I am auctioning my points and will be giving my points to the highest bidder. Day of alturization will be on the days of Sunday-Wednday. The day can be picked and agreed on by winner and myself 2: I ALONE will determine which is the winning bid and when the auction ends 3: On the day of the alturization I will be running a BOOMY AND A POLISHER,so know that the points you get will be substantial,please take that into consideration when bidding. 4: All bids are to be left as a pic comment on the pic located in the AUCTIONING MY POINTS FOLDER...ONLY BIDS WILL BE ACCEPTED AS COMMENTS IN THAT FOLDER OUTLINE FOR THAT DAY I will begin at 3 am eastern standard time whi

She Smiles (life Through The Eyes)
Spring dew glistens on a bended reed Turns her green eyes blue Bright eyes glance up to greet the morning sky And the world can’t help but smile And in the summer she sings Of fairy tales and song bird songs Morning innocence hides its face As the world sings with her She cries tears of pity As the fall of leaves reveals a barren landscape But instead of mourning She makes of mural of their beauty And the world paints with her Snowflakes shimmer on her lashes She reveals the beauty that diamonds bring Tosses her head lightly And brings a million stars falling to the ground Saying that one day she wants to sparkle the same In the morning she greets the day with a smile And as darkness descends, she smiles, shining through When the sun is high, she is happy When clouds float in, she names them And she plays a game with the world Flowers are her decorations And the world is her playground In one smile, she will have the world By it’s little finger And the world will compl

Judith *a Perfect Circle* Sure To Piss A Few Off...i Apologize...but It Shouldn't Change Friendship....
Judith You're such an inspirationFor the ways that I willNever, ever choose to beOh so many ways for me to show youHow your savior has abandoned youFuck your God, your Lord, your ChristHe did this, took all you had andLeft you this way, still you pray, never stray, neverTaste of the fruit, never thought to question "Why?"It's not like you killed someoneIt's not like you drove a hateful spear into his sidePraise the one who left you broken down and paralyzedHe did it all for you...He did it all for you...Oh so many ways for me to show youHow your dogma has abandoned youPray to your Christ, to your GodNever taste of the fruit, never stray, never break, neverChoke on a lie even though he's the one whoDid this to you, you never thought to question "Why?"It's not like you killed someoneIt's not like you drove a spiteful spear into his sideTalk to Jesus Christ as if he knows the reasons why

Mental Property Damage
I wrote this last night but didn't post it. haha. So................................ hahaha. I ditch my friends to come home and write a stupid ass blog! lmao. Not really. I was going to work some more on my research paper but I just realized that I have an extra 8 days that I was previously unaware of...to work on it. I LIKE this.I think something that is funny about me is that I let people drop all their shit on me. This leaves me with noone to drop my shit on. Because too many people see me as that person that doesn't get frusterated or overwhelmed or too crazy or too annoyed or anything at all. I never get anything at all. Besides everyone elses' everythings. But thats just because I don't normally like to talk about things that bother me and if I do...I will be very sarcastic or jokey about those things. I don't like people to know my problems or to try to formulate a special ashely plan to fix my life. And then again, I really dont have that many things that bother me or that m

Military- Can You Give This To My Daddy
As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.'Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed One of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen.Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As t...hey began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone) was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering.When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and Cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families.Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsung heroes who are putting their lives on the line everyday for us so we can go to school, work and home without fear or reprisal.Just when I thought I could not be more proud of

Japan
The news of the earthquake in Japan and then the Tsunami following the event have sparked a world wide focus on doom and gloom. I encourage everyone to look at it in a different light. Let me explain.... Some of you know me, but most of you don't yet. For those that do know me, they know me as a Peaceful Warrior. I am a follower and huge proponent of 'The Law of Attraction'. The Law of Attraction was first introduced to me when watching the movie, 'The Secret'. This then led to the teachings of Abraham through Jerry and Esther Hicks. As I delve deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole these principles become more real to me. Thoughts are things. Everything that has been created on this planet was first a thought, then that thought manifested itself into reality. The car you drive was first a thought. The coffee mug you are picking up at the moment was first a thought. This webpage was at first a thought. There are negative thoughts and there are positive

Biker Joke
Joe wanted to buy a motorbike. He doesn't have much luck untilone day, he comes across a Harley with a 'for sale' sign on it.The bike seems even better than a new one, although it is 10 yearsold. It is shiny and in absolute mint condition.He immediately buys it, and asks the seller how he kept it in suchgreat condition for 10 years.'Well, it's quite simple, really,' says the seller, 'whenever thebike is outside and it's gonna rain, rub Vaseline on the chrome. It protects it from the rain.'And he hands Joe a jar of Vaseline.That night, his girlfriend, Sandra, invites him over to meet herparents. Naturally, they take the bike there.But just before they enter the house, Sandra stops him and says,'I have to tell you something about my family before we go in.''When we eat dinner, we don't talk. In fact, the first person whosays anything during dinner has to do the dishes.''No problem,' he says. And in they go.Joe is shocked. Right smack in the middle of the living room is a

[symbolism]
Well, I got 4/4 calf thrusters "done". Set, assembled, partially filed.There's also some parts I could add to them so, Gouf is still a work in progress. No big surprise there right?In the meantime... I've been thinking about symbolism.My father's father's coat of arms has... bees on it.I've already mentioned to Supe what some of that imagery can mean, and he also pointed out death for the hive "die for a cause".Bees are workers, team members, and willing to die just to injure you.Its kinda cool >>But... not really me.I'm a loner. I prefer idealism to pragmatism, aesthetics to 100% practicality, It's something I've been working on with color theory, color symbolism and now I'm working out some imagery that's unique to me.It doesn't -have- to have anything to do with mobile suits, but it probably will eventually.Symbols... and it can't just be something I like. Hell, if I was even to combine symbols and colors I like- I don't think I could actually come up with anything. Maybe I'm goin a

My Hijab
HIJAB What do you see when you look at me Do you see someone limited , or someone free All some people can do is just look and stare Simply because they can ' t see my hair Others think I am controlled and uneducated They think that I am limited and un-liberated They are so thankful that they are not me Because they would like to remain ' free ' Well free isn ' t exactly the word I would' ve used Describing women who are cheated on and abused They think that I do not have opinions or voice They think that being hooded isn ' t my choice They think that the hood makes me look caged That my husband or dad are totally outraged All they can do is look at me in fear And in my eye there is a tear Not because I have been stared at or made fun of But because people are ignoring the one up above On the day of judgment they will be the fools Because they were too ashamed to play by their own rules Maybe the guys won' t think I am a cutie But at least I am filled with more i

Toonacy Prequel
Came up with this in a random moment's silliness, and that led to my ongoing Toonacy series. (Sylvester says) I lay so still upon the box When really I was stalking Playing it crafty as a fox To stop that damned bird squawking (Tweety Pie says) I tawt I taw a putty tat Asleep atop the telly I moved in for a closer look And wound up in his belly!

Why Is It??
Minnesota sucks so bad in the guy department, i need to find me a good southern boy that was brought up with good manners and knows how to treat a lady.... really thinking that the men in minnesota only has a few hopefully maybe ill find one of those hidden few on here from my state...lol are you really out there?

Kinderbar, Funbar
Should there be two sections on fubar, kinderbar for those twenty-five years and younger,or for those who shave a decade or more off their age, or add the same amount ? And funbar for those twenty-six years or older who can prove it?

Today Was The Worst Day Ever
today was a very shitty day i fuckin swear if any of yall seen AVATAR the part where she tells him you are baby you make alot of noise like baby ignorant baby yea my bf in them words pissed him off by thinking another way was better. he found out that hes gonna lose the house over 300 dollars in back property taxes he tells me to sign the back of the title for the car so the guy he was gonna barrow money from could hold it well i told him since i didnt know the person i wanted to see the money first to be sure he wasnt gonna be screwed which i though was a good idea fuck no it wasnt he flew off the handle acted like a lil kid haveing a fuckin temper tantrum pulled all his shit out of the car told me to take the fucking car and leave and go to charlies house which is an ex bf of mine and his friend all coz charlie calls me on my cell but i dont ansewr it i know what he wants and im not givin it to him ive told him im not cheating on my bf but he still persists. well anyways i got tired

Mom
Haven't done THIS in a long long time! Mom is out of hospital & in a skilled nursing facility for the time being.....let's see.....she had pneumonia, shingles & an infection in her blood. So....if I don't get to my daily rates, it's probably because I'm either at the nursing home, working or helping my daughter move, as she & her hubby split up! Alot going on in our lives right now but still thankful for life! Hugs & love to all!

It's Monday So That Must Mean It's Blog Day....
I’m tired. I’m tired of the whole online thing. I’m tired of being alone and unemployed. Unfortunately there’s nothing I can do about the later 2 but the 1st is going to be easy to rectify. Sure I’ve spoken to a great group of people here on fubar. The problem lies in the fact they are a million miles away, or in disappointing marriage or relationship. I have become the virtual big shoulder to cry on. I wish I could be like every other swinging dick on fu and have a 1 track mind. Maybe I should. Maybe I shouldn’t listen to you prattle on how your hubby cheated on you and stole your furniture. Or your failed marriage. Or how you messed up with some guy at work and now are feeling guilty. But I say nothing…other than offering words of encouragement. Where’s my fucking encouragement? Where’s the “I know what you are going through my friend”. These are the same people that virtually pounce on me when I get online. A

My Abyss
When I close my eyes, I become engulfed by darkness; Empty and eternal. There is no sound, Save a faint chiming in the distance. Memories flood back to me at the call of the chimes; In my despair I cry out, Begging my demons to let me go. There is silence but I know they are laughing. So I continue to fall Deeper and deeper into My Abyss.

Gently...
Touch me – not only with your fingertips but also with your soul. Reach into my mind and explore the deepest part of me. Hold me in your arms and know me. Know my body, yes, but don’t forget to know my heart as well. Go slowly, softly, gently… When you reach out to me, you’re holding so much more than my flesh. When you caress my face, you are also tracing the contours of my being.Remember, my love, that you hold my very passion in your hands.Remember, and remembering, tread softly so as not to crush my essence underfoot.

When Is Enough, Enough?
I got this awesome man I have been crushn' on for 6 months, we used to talk everyday, every mornin it was the most wonderful experience in my whole life, to have someone that devoted but now sometimes we dont chat n he doesnt share much of his life with me, I know I'm moody n mushy but crap, should I just cut my losses n suck it up to experience or do I stay loyal n stay his lovin honeybuns? I thought when is enough, enough, n that answer is never if u love someone!!! What does my heart say? It hurts knowin what can happen, oh dear what should I do??

When I'm Sad, I Come Back
it seems like i'm only on the fu when i'm sad. every breakup in the past few years has lead me back here. it's not a bad thing. i'm not trying to be all emo. or overly sentimental. just wanted to say. that even though there are TONS of assholes here (and perves) there are a few nice people who always manage to cheer me up when i am down. and i thank you for that dearly. also. chat me up late enough and we can get frisky, 'cause i'm single now wooo. jk.

His Desire...her Memory
He slips through with a wicked laugh, feeling the shadows swirling. Feeling the anguish and betrayal. Though he is a cad, he caresses just the edge of the wall with the barest touch to the shadows for bringing him here. His breath catches, his body tenses, as eyes quickly flash darting to the bed. The smile, a mixture of lust and venom twists those lips. Easily moving behind a curtain as her screams fills the room, and him, like the sweetest music. He watches himself bring her body to another shaking orgasm that rips more screams from her. A mix of sweet pain, and horrible pleasure. The him of that time slapping at her exposed flesh as she writhers on the bed trying to close herself to protect as such as relish the pain, pleasure, everything filling her, going through her, making her... The bed of metal with a cruel lovely design moves slightly. Where the shackles bounce now grabbed as she is opened roughly. They are closed to bite along her wrists, her ankles, a

A Mom,s Heart
I make mistakes...sometimes more than I would like to admit....But I will always be there for you..to hear you..to cheer you..to laugh and cry with you...to protect you with my life...I will love you for eternity with all my heart,uncondionally. I,m your mom!! Shout out to my son, I love you!!! I am the luckiest mom in the world, and I am so very proud!!!!! Work hard, I am with you every step of the way!! Live your dream, it is within your reach. And God bless you for being here for me.

Just Wanted To Share About An Email From My Internet Comp. Dowlnlaoding Porn,lol.
Aight here goes. Was towards the end of work tonight and I get an email on the phone from Charter Cable saying I have comitted a copyright violation an a recent DL. First I thought was bullshit until I got home and clicked the link,lol. The email had all the info of what time and what I downloaded with a bit torrent on vuze (needless to say vuze is now gone). Reading on in the letter it said I may be responsible for monitary reinbursement. Dohhh ! Well I clicked the link with tha case file and what not , and says the settlement offer is $125 if I pay by a certain date, if not then I may be resposible for more and will be turned over to there legal . So a warning to you all dont download Hornt Black Mothers #10...rofl......wasnt worth no hundred and tweny 5 fuckin dollars. So dont download any movie from the company Evasive Angles Entertainment, bunch a turds. Guess Ill stick to the good ole white bbw and mature ladies porn. Lesson learned. So anyone esle ever gotten one of these le

Clothes Shopping Surprise... Written By My Friend Jim About Me.
I was walking through the store browsing some clothes and I noticed her working there. She was talking to another employee and she caught my eye. Maybe it was her sexy red hair, maybe the way she filled out her blouse with those nice soft looking breast or maybe it was how Nice and curvy she looked. Non the less, I could not take my eyes off her and the twinge in my cock told me...that I'd love to fuck her if I had a chance. I caught her glancing my way, not sure if she caught me staring, but I noticed a smile on her face indicating she enjoyed the attention.I noticed that she turned to leave and I couldn't help myself and followed her at a distance. I notice she stopped to straighten items on a counter and I approached her. She looked up and smiled and asked if she can help me. I smiled back and responded that I sure hope so because I had a slight problem. She asked what is the problem and I smiled and told her that it was her. She looked startled but also curious and asked what did I

St. Urhos Day
St. Urho Legendary Patron Saint of Finland Saint Urho's Day - March 16 This modern tongue-in-cheek legend has added another touch of humor to Finnish culture. It appears to be the Finn's answer to St. Patrick who drove the snakes out of Ireland. The Finns are able to upstage St. Patrick by having their celebration on March 16th, the day before St. Patrick's Day. This is how the legend goes: One of the lesser known, but extraordinary legends of ages past is the legend of St. Urho, patron saint of the Finnish vineyard workers. Before the last glacial period, the legend goes, wild grapes grew with abundance in the area now known as Finland. Archaeologists have uncovered evidence of this fact scratched on the thigh bones of giant bears that once roamed northern Europe. The grapes were threatened by a plague of grasshoppers until Urho banished the lot of them with "Heinasirkka, heinasirkka, mene taalta hiiteen." In memory of this

After Ordering
After your order has been placed, please (via private message) contact SLDC or myself with your real name and order number. That's the only way we (Purgatory Dance Party) will get credit for helping with the sale.

Where Do We Even Start?
The rising death toll is not the only measure of devastation in the multiplicity of disasters that have engulfed Japan. At least 3,570 people were confirmed dead as of today, March 16, 2011. But the story is far worse than that. It has been estimated that in Miyagi Prefecture alone, the toll will exceed 10,000, and it may do so in one small town of 17,000 alone. In addition to the death toll, 140,000 people living within 20 kilometers of the dying Fukushima Dai-ichi nuclear plant have been ordered to stay indoors to avoid radiation, and another 180,000 were evacuated from the immediate area of the plant two days earlier. In Europe, some 500 bone marrow transplant centers have been put on standby to treat radiation victims from Japan. In total, nearly a half million people have been evacuated from their homes, or from hometowns where they have no homes remaining. Tens of thousands more await rescue or delivery of food, water and medicine. Nearly a million households have no ele

Being Single
So if you're single, you can smile.You don't have to get anyone's permission to do anything. You don't have ...to accept treatment that is not okay with you. You decide what you do with your time. If you choose to be in a relationship, you'll choose wisely and take your time getting to know the person.You'll choose someone worthy, and in the meantime, you will BE someone worthy.

About Me
ok here we go im a down to earth guy who loves the outdoors.Im very close to my family.I enjoy helpin my family and friends with whatever they need.I have a wonderful woman in my life that i love with all my heart.Im very caring person and ive been told i have a huge heart.I can make u smile when ur down .My girl says im good looking lol.Im smart when it comes to fixing electronics and i know abt my music(im learning abt country as we speak) lol.My girl made me writs this since im not the best at writng about myself.If theres anything anyone wants to know just ask

From Joker Who Always Seems To Know What Im Thinking
When faith showers you with a great hope share it with everyone you loveFor it was more than just a shower, it was a way of saying that “No, don’t disbelieve know that when you need the tears to make it through you can always count on it as insurance.”When trust showers you in a form of friends look for that small umbrella of escapeFor when it pours at its hardest even the biggest umbrellas aren’t there to shake the plethora of droplets that come down so instead of using that umbrella as a cover use it as a way of amusement because when it stops pouring you are left with that person you were running with and they were there to stick up for you.When reminiscence showers you in a form of nostalgia break free of that hearth in your heartFor a picture is more than a thousand words, that memory inside of you was more than just a figment of imagination and that moment of your past was more than a mistake and a step…because the picture reminded you no matter whe

Who Am I?
I deleted the last blog and decided to start another and repost this as the other blog wouldn't let anyone comment or anything (said didn't exist) on one of the entries and couldn't even try to delete that entry so... Good question. I'm not anyone terribly special although more than I can count that know Me would and have disagreed on this. I am just an average 35 yr old (in 2011) single male just trying to live in this world. The thing that makes Me different than probably you (maybe not but more than likely) is the fact that I'm physically disabled and wheelchair bound. I probably just lost 80 percent of My readers (especially female) right there since it seems to be a major factor in My life. It has caused Me at times to have severe self esteem issues due to the fact that, at least I feel, women that I attempt to ask out instantly just see the chair and think "well he'll never be able to please me" so they turn Me down. With this being the case, I have a tendency to

What Is This Feeling?
WHAT IS THIS FEELING? I SEEM TO LOVE YOU BUT OTHER TIMES I SEEM TO LOATHE YOU I CANT BE WITHOUT YOU. OR JUST NOT BE WITH ANYONE I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME. BUT WHY DO I HAVE THIS FEELING? I LONG FOR YOUR VOICE AMD I WOULD DIE TO HEAR YOUR LAUGH BUT, IS THIS LOVE OR MERELY JUST LUST? WHAT IS THIS FEELING??

Chrome Issues
Chrome 10.0.648.119 beta (just upgraded today, but been having issue for several weeks)Flash version(s) below...1. In your Chrome browser navigate to Chrome://plugins. 2. Click the plus sign next to Details on the top right of the window to display more information. 3. If you see two versions of Flash, look at the path to the program. 4. Click the Disable link next to the version that starts with C:\Windows\SysWOW64\Macromed\Flash\. 4. Leave the version enabled that starts with C:\Users\[your-username]\AppData\Local\Google\Chrome\ (or similar path that applies to your operating system).5. Open a new Chrome window.6. Navigate to a website (such as YouTube) with Flash content to test.

To His Coy Mistress
I truly adore this poem... It's suggestion of spontoniety always grabs me, it also reeks of lust. To His Coy Mistress-- by Andrew Marvell Had we but world enough, and time, This coyness, lady, were no crime. We would sit down and think which way To walk, and pass our long love's day; Thou by the Indian Ganges' side Shouldst rubies find; I by the tide Of Humber would complain. I would Love you ten years before the Flood; And you should, if you please, refuse Till the conversion of the Jews. My vegetable love should grow Vaster than empires, and more slow.

The Empty Pocket
My fantasies, though soundly sleep stir quite awake in me. My fingers linger twixt letters yet, they never hit a key. Guitar, the love my hands address the body my arms hold, sang warmly at her neck's caress. Tonight her voice is cold. This chair is jail. This house a tomb. That bed is the abyss. Could suffering cease if just my cheek suffered but a kiss?

A Sleepy Night, Disturbed......
The night air is frigid and a sleepy fog settled over the city. I beat my leathery wings against the wind to keep the frost off of them. Cattle, all they are, going about their unsuspecting lives. Milling about, going about the business of living and dying. The latter being of the most import to me. A hunger gnaws at me as I negotiate my way between the buildings. An ancient hunger that turns my attention to the miserable masses before me. I let out a shrill scream in the wind, thats right pull your covers up, cowards. That will keep the bad things away. There are worse things in this world than the monster under your bed...Hahaha.....I swoop down, into the rural part of town now, flitting from rooftop to rooftop, debating, deciding, like the hand of fate, who will satisfy my hunger... I peer into a window, and direct my eyes to the couple sleeping. Like pigs in a blanket, too easy...I think Ill be dramatic today...I reach my clawed hand forward, and scratch at the glass, my nails le

The Bad Touch By Bloodhound Gang
Ha-Ha! Well now, we call this the act of mating But there are several other very important differences Between human beings and animals that you should know about I'd appreciate your input Sweat baby sweat baby sex is a Texas drought Me and you do the kind of stuff that only Prince would sing about So put your hands down my pants and I'll bet you'll feel nuts Yes I'm Siskel, yes I'm Ebert and you're getting two thumbs up You've had enough of two-hand touch you want it rough you're out of bounds I want you smothered want you covered like my Waffle House hashbrowns Come quicker than FedEx never reach an apex just like Coca-Cola stock you are inclined To make me rise an hour early just like Daylight Savings Time Do it now You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel Do it again now You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel Gettin' horny now Love the kind you clean up with a mop and b

Cop Are Bad
on march the 23 my car was makeing a turning lef on yellow a and one car was comeing straight on a yellow ligh and he hit me and the fucking man was speeding do you guys thank it was my fault the cop say it was my fault but he was speeding and now i will have to pay that fucking cop $150 thanks to him now we dont have a car fuck him you know what i know %110 i will wim when i win i want that fucking to get fire or i want $450.

And The Big Winner Is!!!!!!!
THANK YOU TO WYATCOXX for bidding on me...you won me love. WINNING BID: $50 bling pack and 3 day blast! He will receive all sorts of amazing goodies...see previous blog for details. If anyone would like to purchase anything off the list...talk to me in private and we can work something out. LOVE TO YOU!!!

A Lil Cry
I feel myself slipping more and more everyday into the Darkness Pain and Lonelyness of my past ive tryed so hard to stay true to all my promises of staying clean and sober but in the last few days things have been happening and they have left me BROKEN with no will to stay clean and sober im fighting the urges with every ounce of my body soul and mind its just so DAMN tough i tryed talking to a few of ya about whats bothering me its just not enough i really need some help on this Its just so hard on me I really dont want to end up bk on that road in my life but if my fears come to light it might just happen

Personalized Profile Skins
Want to see some of my work please click this link and it will show you a slideshow of my skin work. http://fubar.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=6866405&bl=1 All skins are guaranteed to be updated with fubar and all images will never be deleted or moved if your skin does have a error please contact me and i will fix it for free. All payments are requirred before delivery of the rip skin link given to you (due to some people try to scam). My skins are made in the order they are recieved it maybe up to 24 hrs before i reply to your private message but don't worry i will get back to you. *** Reason i don't charge 10mill or 20mill to make skins is because i don't think skins are worth that much my prices will drop lower than they are now in the future so please be sure to check back with me before you decide to go somewhere else. for people who try to waste time and cry about every lil thing i do not refund any money unless it is my fault on my end while the skin don't work!

A Fallen Soldier
The Soldier gets a letter saying he has to go to war His wife is 8 months pregnant The soldier has to leave for war His wife is almost going into labor The wife just had a daughter The Soldier hasn't slept in days His wife can't sleep cause of the baby The Soldier after 3 months finally gets a phone call home He finally hears his daughter cry The Soldier is killed by a surprise bombing His daughter says daddy for the first time Now his wife is a widow The daughter never met her father He died for his country They gave his wife a pin and flag All they could say was I am sorry The daughter never knew her father.

American's Son
Our Son, the Soldier How great a man he must be To be joined in the fight to Set another part of the world free Our Son the Soldier So very proud of you we are To all of us who love you You will always be our shining star Our Son the Soldier So far from home and in a foreign place Just close your eyes to See a familiar face. Our Son the Soldier So very far away We will all be waiting with open Arms on your coming home day

It's Just A Beautiful Day...
Finally spring has come back to Berlin... :DI woke up and the sun was shining through my open window. I decided to let work be work and stayed in bed longer. I enjoyed the sun shining onto me. It was awesome... So now I am happy again... And that's good for me... and for all of you hehe At work now... and you know what, I don't care it's still a beautiful day! :D

Failure Is Obama's Strategy
On March 2, President Barack Obama anointed Vice President Joe Biden as his lead negotiator on coming to an agreement with congressional conservatives on this year’s federal budget. Biden then spent half a day on Capitol Hill talking with Republicans before jetting off to Europe. The next week, Senator Joe Manchin (D–WV) attacked the President on the Senate floor: "Why are we doing all this when the most powerful person in these negotiations—our president—has failed to lead this debate or offer a serious proposal for spending and cuts that he would be willing to fight for?" What Manchin doesn’t seem to realize is that failure is Obama's plan.After an unprecedented two-year spending spree, President Obama is not looking to change Washington's bad habits anytime soon. However conservatives got the message in last November's elections. The American people want them to take substantive steps towards scaling back an out-of-control government. House Republicans

I Fine
I find myself alone in life, saddened as I walk along but I raise my head up high, knowing I must be strong and resist the company of one that's not right for me although the sweet relief from loneliness it would be for in the end it could only mean pain for them and I I never wanted to be the reason that another must cry A moment in the sunshine is not worth a year of rain if you will but wait,the right one will cure the pain

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9
Day 01 – Your favorite song (Somebody to Love - Queen)Day 02 – Your least favorite song (Lips of an Angel - Hinder)Day 03 – A song that makes you happy (Fuck You - Cee Lo Green)Day 04 – A song that makes you sad ( Behind the Wall - Tracy Chapman and Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick)Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone (Best I Ever Had - Drake)Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere (Antes Muerta Que Sencilla - Maria Isabel)Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event (Prozak - Dexter Freebish)Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to (La Vie Boheme - RENT)Day 09 – A song that you can dance to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wU0ucfoBcXM I can dance to lots of stuff...but Janet's choreography is always amazing so I picked this. Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleepDay 11 – A song from your favorite bandDay 12 – A song from a band you hateDay 13 – A song that is a g

Farewell My Lovei
Is it really true our love is over now?Can it be time for us to say goodbye?Too soon, it’s much too soon, my love, for me;You smile with ease, but I can only sigh.We’ve shared our lives and given so much love;I can’t believe we’re really going to part;You’re moving toward a new life without me;I’m left with scars upon my broken heart.Go on now, if you must; I’ll get along;How much it hurts, I don’t want you to know.I’ll set you free without inducing guilt,But as you leave, the silent tears will flow.I can’t be mad; I love you way too much;I’ll hide my sadness now, so you can’t tell.Sweet happiness is what I wish for you;Farewell my love, I hope that you fare well.

The Rainbow And Real Fun
The weave of romance, friendship and love Always alive, moving with the two Their hopes and sharing The strength and warmth Each can give Each can be free And then the play unfolds When each can Live for the other Nurturing and inspiring Only the problems unforgiven Could end . . . The rainbows and real fun The times outdoor and flush With each other and breezes The light fills both lives A beach is the edge of their one heart The sky the cover of the naked Excitement and delight In giving Giving Giving If it isn't giving It isn't living

Sorry
My heat breaks, my tears flake, Thought I'd never feel this way. You dug deep, my veins seep; I dread each and every day. Always alone, life goes on; My heart and soul will pay. Wish there's something, Soemthing you could say...

Deaths Companion
We chatted as if we shared the same thoughts and feelings, Our laughter filled the emptiness deep within creating more meaning; Time we shared with one and another building a bond so strong, A friendship builton honesty and trust that will last very long; One would think this was all two would need in a relationship. As the talking and laughter would continue through the night, Our bodies grew closer and our arms wrapped each other tight; Honesty like this between two people you would think couldn't be, Trust here isn't a question that we ask because we understand -see; No matter what happens at least we will always have our friendship. Unable to realize the truth we seemingly grew closer, but further away, The honesty wasn't honest and the trust couldn't be trusted -who's to say; Arms unfolded and the emptiness seemed to come back into our lives, Unknown to what was realling to come we weren't prepared for the strife; But now the end has come and even death has rea

Ranting
Okay. So I have come to the conclusion that the Internet has created a world of dumb people. WhO In ThErE RiGhT mInD hAs ThE pAtIeNcE oR tImE tO tYpE lIkE tHis? It takes ten times as long to sit there and type like that. And what is the point? So you can look like a 15 year old uneducated slob? Another thing that has been bothering me lately. Do men really only care about seeing tits on cam? Seriously, the amount of males that show up in my SB wanting to "cam" is disgusting me. Half of you are prolly married, and the other half of you are probably pathetic slobs that don't have real pictures of yourself up because you are too ashamed to show yourself. Here's a hint to those that are fake: Take down the fake pictures, and get a life. Real women have respect for themselves, and won't show their tits to you on cam. There is a fine line between when that is acceptable and when it isn't. Some strange guy on the internet? Unacceptable. It's degrading to think that you can't at the very least

Get It Right By Glee
Get It Right What have I done? I wish I could runAway from this ship goin underJust tryin to help out everyone elseNow I feel the weight of the world is on my shouldersChorusWhat can you do when your good isn't good enoughAnd all that you touch tumbles down?Cause my best intentions keep makin a mess of thingsI just wanna fix it somehowBut how many times will it take?Oh how many times will it take for meTo get it rightTo get it rightCan I start again, with my fate againCause I can't go back and endure thisI just have to stay and face my mistakes,But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through thisChorusWhat can you do when you're good isn't good enough?And all that you touch tumbles down?Coz my best intentions keep makin a mess of things,I just wanna fix it somehowBut how many times will it take?Oh, how many times will it take for me toGet it right?BridgeSo I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fairI'll send down a wish and I'll s

Buried Provision In House Gop Bill Would Cut Off Food Stamps To Entire Families If One Member Strikes (repost)
All around the country, right-wing legislators are asking middle class Americans to pay for budget deficits caused mainly by a recession caused by Wall Street; they are attacking workers’ collective bargaining rights, which has provoked a huge Main Street Movement to fight back. Now, a group of House Republicans is launching a new stealth attack against union workers. GOP Reps. Jim Jordan (OH), Tim Scott (SC), Scott Garrett (NJ), Dan Burton (IN), and Louie Gohmert (TX) have introduced H.R. 1135, which states that it is designed to “provide information on total spending on means-tested welfare programs, to provide additional work requirements, and to provide an overall spending limit on means-tested welfare programs.” Much of the bill is based upon verifying that those who receive food stamps benefits are meeting the federal requirements for doing so. However, one section buried deep within the bill adds a startling new requirement. The bill, if passed, woul

Fall From Gracelessness
When the waves crash through the walls we build,where will we lay our heads at night? I’ve followed this pattern of unjust recollections just to satisfy my tattered and torn sense of self. With an undying lust for higher appraisals we prop ourselves upwith no regard to those whom we value. I’m sharing as much light with you as I can, but I've never had enough to even light my path. If you’re standing with me the fall would be greater than if we stood alone. The greater the fall, the greater the cause. This void of eternal misconceptions is where we dwell when we descend from gracelessness.On the eve of our desolation, we will not appease the fastidious demons yearning for our souls. They will suffer our wrath as we stand in defiance of this meaningless devastation. So stand with me under this fading light.This path cannot be traveled alone.No matter the outcome it will be beautiful. So stand with me until the night eclipses all the days.No matter how far

Sex
How can you live without sex in your life Sex in the morning Sex in the evening Every minute of the day Sex... Sex... Sex... Sex is great Sex is bad Do it hard when you get mad Sex today Sex tomorrow Sex everyday when you're in sorrow Sex on the bed Sex on the floor Have it everyday you will want more.

Cute Or Not?
I'm not really sure how many people will actually see this, but I can't decide if this is cute or not. Part of me thinks it is because the kid has no idea what she's really saying and part of me thinks it's sad because she doesn't know what she's saying and her parents more than likely put her up to it. Anyway, video in comments =] Ugh, I can't post the video in my comments so here's the link to it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=niOn-HGTdk8

It's Good To Be A Woman!
1. We got off the Titanic first. 2. We can scare male bosses with mysterious gynecological disorder excuses. 3. Taxis stop for us. 4. We don 't look like a frog in a blender when dancing. 5. No fashion faux pas we make could ever rival the Speedo. 6. We don 't have to pass gas to amuse ourselves. 7. If we forget to shave, no one has to know. 8. We can congratulate our teammate without ever touching her rear end. 9. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there. 10. We have the ability to dress ourselves. 11. We can talk to the opposite sex without having to picture them naked. 12. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we are aware that we will look like an idiot. 13. We will never regret piercing our ears. 14. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.15.. We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence because they aren't listening anyway.

Save Public Education In California!!
Here is some info for you to send to assembly members. It's especially important to send to Republicans because we need 2 of them to vote with the governor. Norwalk's assemblyman is D Tony Mendoza district 56, but you can send e-mail to anyone. We want to adopt the governor's budget and extend the current tax rates in order to save public education. http://www.assembly.ca.gov/clerk/memberinformation/memberdir_1.asp Obviously calling is great too. =)Talking Points •Public education is in a state of financial emergency, and this budget does not restore any of that much-needed funding. The $2 billion deferral in K-12 funding and the proposed cuts to higher education will directly impact students and programs. •Our students are facing larger class sizes and the reduction or elimination of art, music, career technical education programs, and transportation. According to a California Watch report, more than 1 million students are losing up to 5 instructional days as dist

Entry Way Quickie
Nikki walked in the front door and before she could turn to close it, she found herself backed against the entry way wall. Hands began to roam over her body and in the darkness she felt her lover's lips meet her own. God Jess knew how to kiss. Her lips teased Nikki with just the right amount of want and need. Her tongue knew just the right way to caress Nikki's lower lip. It wasn't long before both women were on the road to overheating. Nikki let her keys drop to the floor on one side of them and as her free hand found her woman's face, she felt the buttons on her blouse pop open. Jess didn't want to waste anytime when it came to getting Nikki naked and ready for her. Between the buttons hitting the floor, small sounds of sexual need could be heard coming from both of them. Nikki felt herself pulled away from the wall long enough for her blouse to be pulled completely off. All that was left on her now was her skirt and panties and she knew by the way Jess was going at it,

Toy Shopping
"I have a surprise for you..." I say as I open the door. I pull you inside and brush my lips against yours. "I'm driving." Usually, you drive, the truck's sexy, but I want to make an impression that only a little red car can do. I think you figure out where we're going when we're half way there. I notice you fidgeting next to me and I can tell you're thinking about that conversation we had a few weeks ago. I have this fantasy... I take your hand in mine and place them both on my thigh. This gets an askance glance. I slide your hand higher and part my legs just a little. I smile and you relax. I meet you behind the car in the parking lot of Centerfolds. I pull you to me and back against the car. My hands slide down your back to your ass, pulling you into me and pinning me against the warm metal. I want you. Your breath comes short. I break off the kiss and whisper "Do you trust me?" in your ear. Taking your hand, I pull you towards the little store. We pass through the met

Dance Fan
When I am on stage I feel like I am in vacuum. My fellow dancers almost seen like they are surreal, the audience is dimly light to the point that they are blurred faces. I often feel like I am alone moving with the music, feeling it's vibrant impulse on my body. My senses are alive; when it is going good I feel it in my heart. A feeling of completeness a feeling of joy.On opening night last winter that whole experience for me changed, and changed in a way that it will never go back. It changed with a glow of a face in the crowed. A face that stood out where faces never have in the past. A soft beautiful face with a glowing smile, warm, inviting and intriguing. It took me out of my rhythm and subsequently helped to contribute to one of my personally worst performances. Oh, while everyone congratulated me on another great performance I knew better, and I knew because I didn't feel it nor sense it. Rather my mind and body were focused on that face.As we stood in finale and

Dear Cutter & Dear Razor Blade By: Anonymous
Dear cutter & Dear Razor Blade by:anonymous Dear Cutter, Come a little closer,Come to me.I am the only one,That can set you free. Your friends and family,They don't care.So I'll be your friend,Since no ones there. I can cure depression,I can stop the tears.I can take away the pain,That you felt for years. I'll never break a promise,I'll never tell a lie.I'll never be the one,That makes you wanna die.

Mending
Mending Broken hearts do often mend And often mend they do It’s a simple true equation Like one plus one is two And in this world of written laws Of things we know as true I sit and cry and wonder why… Where did I go wrong with you? For if broken hearts do often mend And often mend they do My broken heart is not one of them And still remains in two I gave of myself freely Gave myself to only you And what went wrong I know not I know not what to do How is it that broken hearts often mend And often mend they do? When mine refuses to accept repair And thus remains in two?

Washing My Hands
Washing My Hands Washing my hands Watch the dirt fall away Scrubbing til they bleed Watch it run down the drain Water sluicing over The raw wounded flesh Baptizing this lover Start over fresh Never say never The opposite proves true Always say ever When you know what to do Soap in the wounds Brings the pain anew Washing my hands Suds over sinew Watching them heal Still red and angry Each and every weal Still hurting, still hungry Watch it unfold Some morbid little story Forget it untold For it has no glory Washing my hands And sealing my fate Gently I stand The pains slowly abate Let the wounds close Clean and full of pain Never fester from the blows Always start over again Washed my hands And now they are dry Put lotion on and go Don't even dare cry

The Tree
The Tree Imagine one thing, if you can Just close your eyes and see That in a wasteland meadow There lies a little seed And in this parched grassland Where nothing pleasant can grow This little seed burrows Til it finds fertile soil below Now where did the seed come from? If this land is so forsaken? It is actually a piece From a dying tree shaken Because that tree was stricken Taken for granted and left for dead It made one last effort And so the seed was shed Then days go by and by And slowly turn into weeks The storm rages in the sky And soon a thunder head leaks The blessed rain caresses The tortured and parched land It gently stirs to waken And thus gives the seed a chance More days go by, then weeks And slowly but surely, true That little tiny seed seeks The sunlight poking through When the tree had died A bit of knowledge it did impart That seed knew what lied ahead, For that tree it was a heart And now the drought was over The rains came and fell Sunny skies now prevai

The Faithful & The Fools
alright readers listen up because you may learn something. ladies, if you know you can't control yourselves from droppin those panties anytime an opportunity arrives to have a hot encounter with a stranger, then don't get involved with a decent guy who treats you right. same thing for guys ok don't jump into a serious relationship with a girl just because she's good to you if you're going to lead her on while you add to a laundry list of things that you do that you dnever ever want her to find out about. i'm so sick of seeing these couples in these terrible relationships everywhere i go. i'm beginning to think that vegas isn't right for me anymore you know, being in love and all. i'm going to give a couple of examples here and y'all decide what kind of person you are and what kind of person are you with. take this situation right, let's say you bring your lady or whatever to a party or a gig where someone you got with before is also hanging around. now me, i'm a real ass type of guy,

All About Me
I thought it was time that I told all my friends here more about myself and my life so far in this world. My name is Jessie, I am 19, soon to be 20. Was born in a small town and still live in one. I can't ever imagine myself living in a bigger city. Nothing against those who do, but I like the wide open spaces where I can spread my wings and explore. When I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with a rare Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma. From that moment to this very second I have tried to live my life the best way possible. I have failed at times and when I was 13 I had sex for the first time with a boy from school. I thought it would make me feel older, all it did was make me feel worse than before. For about a year or so I was what some would call a slut, my grades where dropping and I was having sex with boys and I even started smoking pot and thought about but didn't smoke crystal meth. It was my lowest part of my life so far but it got worse. After years of emotional abuse to my mom

Wow It's Been A Long Time...
i think the last time i logged onto fubar was last fall. i see some of the same people as i did before, but some have gone and others have come in their place. i suppose that's the nature of online existance. relationships are temporary and for the most-part, shallow. but that's ok. being male, my true purpose in being on fubar is just to look at your boobs. oh man... ween is completely insane when you're stoned! so headlines about me... i took up snowboarding this winter. i'd love to do it regularly, but lift tickets are freakin expensive. no worries though... it's warm enough to skate now, and there is a park close to my house. :D my job is evil. i got hired on at a junk food factory, working on controls. there is this engineer from seattle that is in our plant regularly because he did most of the controls for the equipment. the man is a paranoid, psychotic asshole. it turns out that i was hired so that they might never need to deal with him again. the problem is th

Thoughts Inspired By Johnny Devil
So JD posted a folder of some pictures that he (and others including myself) found pretty dang skanky. You know what? They are! From what I understand (and I may be wrong) it was for a contest for a bling. Men and women alike got naked and graphic for this thing!! Are you kidding me?? Nope it's very true. Do you young people have any idea what you're doing? Is this stuff you want your children seeing?? Cause let me be the first to tell you once it is on the net it is never going away. Have I done or said some things I'm not proud of? Yep! Would I want my kids seeing it? Hells no!! Do you think before you do something like this? Obviuosly not! I'm not saying you should be ashamed of yourself or your bodies, however is this something you'd want your mom or dad or husband or wife, girlfriend, boyfriend or children looking at? Ask yourself that before you post some of the stuff you do. Johnny got slammed by one person (or more) because one of the girls was classy about her nudity. REALLY

A Reason, A Season Or A Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on. When people come into your life for a SEASON . . . Because your turn has come to share, grow, or l

Phantom
I miss the first kiss that our lips never knew I miss the embrace that was meant only for you I miss the love we never shared I was a fool, you never cared I miss the nights caught up in your eyes I miss the tenderness of your sweet goodbye I miss the laugh that I never inspired Only you, my dear, could take me higher I miss the child we never conceived I miss the warmth of a cold winters eve I miss the caress you now give to another How can I move on, we were meant for each other You inspired my fire and allowed me to dream It came crashing down, the same old routine I allowed myself to believe and have faith You turned it all around, leaving me in disgrace I’ll try as I can to leave you behind Memories drip down turning water to wine I’ll never forget your passion or fire Forever my love, you will be my desire

Biten
Ugh. So my Mom and Step-dad got a new dog. Not that they really needed it, but anyway. The dog growled at my youngest and snapped at him. My Step-dad is making all kinds of excuses as to why it happened. Thing is, he wasn't even in here when it happened. I seen it and so did my Mom. My son didn't do a thing to the dog. When it happened my Mom just sat there. She didn't tell the dog no or anything. I'm the one that had to do something about it. It's happened three times. My Step-dad is upset because I said I didn't want the dog out while the kids were here. Ugh. I know I'm not wrong about this. I'm just tired of him making excuses for the dog that they've had for 3 days that was given to them. They know NOTHING about the dog...just that it was free.

Yay! Im Learning!
Breaking up and having your heart break is a disaster, you feel as if your not worth anything and you think that no one else will luv u again, but chances are: there is someone out there in the world waiting for you to enter into their lives and before you know it, you’ll know that the one who broke your heart is not worth thinking of anymore…..that is why they say in life….luv never fails….if you find that special someone…..jus’ have patients, someday your dreams will come true…..a lil’ advise to all the heartbreakers out there, who are depressed because there boyfriends are playing games with you, don’t ever think of clinging to the past, it’s not worth crying and hoping that everything will be o.k…..don’t regret being with him, jus’ let folks go and move on with your life, because someday he’ll regret and he will come back to you and know that he turned his back on some

Texas Cops Ticket Thousands Of Schoolchildren To Raise Revenue, Some As Young As 6-yrs-old (repost)
Chris | InformationLiberationFlashback: The Government Would Rather You Die If It Nets More RevenueThis is how low your government will go. Cops in Texas have been writing thousands of tickets to schoolchildren for $250-$500 each for the "crime" of "misbehaving in school" so the government can raise revenue. This has been going on now for over five years. The Texax Tribune reports: With the rise of get-tough juvenile crime policies across Texas, the municipal courthouse has become the new principal’s office for thousands of students who get in fights, curse their teachers or are generally “disorderly” on school campuses — even in elementary schools, according to data collected from school systems by Texas Appleseed, a nonprofit research and advocacy group focusing on social and economic justice. Dallas ISD’s police department, for instance, issued criminal citations to 92 10-year-olds in the 2006-07 school year, the latest year for which su

Autism Awareness Day April 2nd.....
Apparently April 2nd is National Autism Awareness day. Autism Speaks wants us to "light it up blue" because every disorder deserves a color. Blue, puzzle pieces, rainbow colored ribbons with puzzle pieces....what do you think of when you think of autism? I get angry. I get scared. Then I get angry again. If you Google Autism Treatment you will see what we are up against. There were over 17 million pages that appeared. I scoured one or two of those and found no less than 70 different treatments. The general scuttlebutt is that there is no one cause, and no known cure. This is a disorder, or by some accounts a disease that is at epidemic proportions. One in one hundred and ten children will be diagnosed with some form of Autism. It seems to be attacking our boys more than girls, however when girls are diagnosed they seem to be more severe. The fact that there are so many theory's and no real answers scares the heck out of me. I have started to realize that for us, my son became a vi

Welcome To The Kinky Blog
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Why Have Empathy?
No one had empathy for me What is empathy? I will make a knew definition Empathy requires being there Example...if you see a dog's corpse in the field with no context You have no empathy. It is just a dog that died in the field at some time And it is has interrupted your nice walk By smelling really bad & making you decide whether to call animal control to pick it up An annoyance No empathy If you had been there when that dog died Lets say it had cancer And it was instinctually going away from the pack because it knew it was dying And YOU knew it had cancer STILL no empathy because you knew it was dying But you think it is cool that it did that....selfless You would bury it And be sad but not too much so Then what about if it was tortured & killed The empathy would be there I guess So then what is empathy? You can only have Empathy if you were there

Am I The Devil ????
He came round last night and the converstion steered towards God. He said something that made me believe he believed in God (fucking hell!!). So I asked him if he believed in God and he replied in his thick Yorkshire accent : Must do !!! I'm going out with the Anti-Christ !!

Step Out: Walk For Diabetes
Ok people of the Fu, As many of you do not know i live with diabetes. This year i am participating in Step out: Walk for diabetes.We are also taking donations for diabetes research.If you would like to donate any amount i would really appreciate it. I lost my mother to diabetes when i was 8 years old. Here is the site to make donations http://main.diabetes.org/goto/sjreynoldstx

Lyrics Adele - Fire To The Rain
I let it fall, my heart And as it fell, you rose to claim it It was dark and I was over Until you kissed my lips and you saved me My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak To stand in your arms without falling to your feet But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win But I set fire to the rain Watched it pour as I touched your face Well, it burned while I cried 'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name When laying with you I could stay there Close my eyes, feel you here forever You and me together, nothing is better 'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true And the games you's play, you would always win, always win But I set fire to the rain Watched it pour as I touched your face Well, it burned while I cried [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/set-fire-to-

The Meeting 2
It was months since he seen her. They had been passing the time they were apart by keeping each other company on cam for hours a day. He loved it when she let go of her shyness and would decide to cum for him on cam. He looked at those pictures often as well as the voice clip he took of her cumming during the times the spent apart. This was a surprise visit; she had no idea he was going to show. He told her that he was spending the day at his friend’s house and that the signal for his cell was iffy there so she wouldn’t think anything was up. He boarded the plane with the anticipation of looking into those beautiful eyes of hers, especially beautiful as he remembered when she came for him again and again. During the layover, he decided to call her to see what she was up to this weekend. She said she had plans with her best friend and they were going out dancing and that the kids were away for the weekend at their dads. Little did she know that he had contacted her best fr

Bad News
My son is in the Army. He was just informed that his troop will leave for Afganastan in June.. Its very hard on me since hes my baby boy.. I worry everyday about the unknown..Well i know its for a good cause but having a hard time dealing with this right now

Listening
I'm sitting alone at my desk.. lost in thought, when I heard the idling of the engines at the station across the road. I have the window opened just a little to let air in. A cool breeze. It is peaceful as I sit with my coffee. I look out the window and see the platforms at the station. All lit up. I hear a whistle blowing. A train is coming in from New York City. As the passengers leave, traffic will increase. But it won't be long before I am able to concentrate again. Paulette (a friend) mentioned the sunrise and appreciating the start of a new day.. a blessing... with her coffee. Seeing the sun rise to greet a new day. I like the sunset and the evening. The opportunity to wind down and relax. The common factors are peacefulness and coffee... lol. The house is very quiet. We spend much less time in peaceful reflection and listening. We get lost in the hustle and hurry of our day. Take time to relax and appreciate. It helps reduce stress. I sometimes use the time for prayer. We

The Simple Life
Given that the only interesting thing I get to do each day is think, I tend to go on mental tangents that lead me to places that one should only visit either drunk, or well off their rocker. But here I am, stone cold sober and stamped mentally sane, so why is it that the things that I visualize even when sober, even when sane, scare the hell out of any one with a rational thought left in their physic. Damn if I know anything that could have any reference to what I am thinking, most of the time I try to ignore my thoughts and turn on the television. I look to have someone else's voice fill my head, someone else's story fill my life, and this is the only relief that I know. Turn off the world and turn on "momma's stories". Only they are not stories my mother would have watched, they are the ideas of twisted and depraved individuals and I can not get enough of it because I am no longer thinking for myself, no longer thinking anything worth contempation. I really need a cigerette.

Torture
Why must you torture me so?Can't you just love me as is?So sick of the treatmentI'd rather have the disease.You beat me mentally,it's really sickining.Just put me down,right in the heart,here, I'll help,I'll hand you the gun and show you where to aim.How can you say you love me then leave?To know the cure is heartbreak,I don't even want to stand your pain.Can't I just lay down in agony and sleep?You are my wicked witch and love is the poison apple.Why do you treat me like this?I handed over my soul over to youand now as my blood turns to ash,to you I say,I love you and goodbye.

My Story
She had been home from the hospital for 2 weeks....but something was wrong. She couldn't wake up. Not fully anyway. She had to pee and in her half asleep fog, she tried to make it to the bathroom, but fell. I rushed to her and helped her get up and to the toilet. "WTF?" i was thinking...."she had been doing okay. What the fuck is going on?" For 2 days I'd been doing this. Sleepless nights, trying to go to work, but too afraid to leave her alone. "Okay" i thought too myself, "that's it." I called an ambulance, they came and got her & i followed. Once she was in the ER, her doctor, who just happened to be there, gave her a shot of something & within 15 minutes, my Tracey was back, wondering what the hell happened. I remember feeling relived...hugs & kisses were abound. Her doctor comes in and tells her: "If you go back home, you ll die there." She was admitted. The next week goes by, im dividing my time between work and the hospital, endless nights are many...life becomes a blur

A Leo's Prayer
God bless my family when I am away, Leave the lights on I'll return from harms way, Grant me courage and strength to protect others each day, So they live in peace without worry, fear or dismay, Bless those who have fallen given their life for another May their spirit live on from then and forever, Return me home to my family at the end of each night, May I pass through the door before the morning's first light, Shall I give my life for another before the dawn breaks today, God bless my family when I am away.....

I'm The Target
When all you are is nice to people, all they ever do is take advantage of you. its like come on!! work does it to me all the time, i get verbaly abused by co workers and customers and nothing ever gets done about it, my manager is a b!tch she is two faced and im her target for when she gets angry, she has slamed doors in my face, made me lift things that weigh about 100 pounds or more without any help, when i work with mostly guys, i get yelled at for one of my shirts not being tucked in.... the list goes on and on im tired of it

Pence Lets Truth Slip On Uncompromising Stance: ‘we’re Trying To Score A Victory For The Republican People’ (repost)
The federal government appears to be hurtling towards a shutdown following the inability of congressional negotiators to reach a compromise last night on a continuing resolution. New polling finds that most Americans want their leaders to reach a negotiated agreement rather than stake out their respective positions. Polls from Gallup and the Wall Street Journal/NBC News find that self-identified Democrats and independents want leaders to compromise while self-identified Republicans would rather see the government shut down than compromise. Last night, Rep. Mike Pence (R-IN) appeared on Fox News to explain his uncompromising position over funding the federal government. At one point, Pence appeared to let the truth slip out about the true aims of Republican negotiators, telling host Greta Van Susteren that what Republicans are trying to do is score a victory for “the Republican people.” Soon after realizing that he said that out loud, he backtracked, saying that h

Not Always Right | The Formula For Laziness
retail | HI, USA Me: “Thank you for calling [store]. How may I help you?” Caller: “Hi. I was wondering if you had [brand] formula?” Me: “If you hold on, I will go check.” (I go and check. I come back on the line a few minutes later.) Me: “Thank you for holding, ma’am. We have the formula. Would you like me to hold some for you?” Caller: “No, I’m in the parking lot. I just wanted to make sure you had it today before I came in.”

Where Is God?
omg where is god? im so disgusted with so much going on on this planet but my heart goes out the the 'survivors' of the 'old school ifbc church' their male dominated 'cult motto, "to forgive and forget" in my opinion, seems to have become an excuse for extremely perverted and sadistic behavior against there own women... how sad for those women that put up w/and allow such treatment and are being deceived ... in my opinion those men have damaged the image of christ the worst...and are devils come to deceive and rob you of your dignity...cheat you and ...when is god gonna come and sort this all out...

Not Always Right | A Picture Perfect Resolution
Drug Store | Lakewood, NJ, USA Me: “Hello, sir. How can I help you?” Customer: “I came in a couple hours ago to pick up my pictures, and my wife says we’re 17 pictures short! This always happens when we come here! Is it really so hard to keep track of one f***ing order?” (The customer continues to rant for several minutes, getting louder and more obscene. The phone rings.) Me: “Thank you for calling [store], how may I help you?” Caller: “I was in there an hour and a half ago and the dumb*** in front of me left 17 pictures on the counter that I accidentally took home with my pictures. What kind of moron leaves pictures on the counter?” (I hand the phone to the irate customer.) Me: “It’s for you.”

Alone
I am broken and weak it is you I seek take me into your embrace I want you to see my face Is it to late? why is it myself I hate? I am always to blame I feel I am living in shame I scream at my creator wonder if he is even there to him without words i speak it is him I seek i am wanting to leave this world I have known never again having to feel alone regrets have taken my life as I sit here, I look at this knife I am tired of being the fool tired and alone I obey the rules I am living in a haze feeling I am running out of days so I sit here and stare wondering why I even care are these feeling I have even real? or is this how I truely feel? outside i hear the thunder my soul, it starts to shudder I hear the voices mumble so loud I stand and stumble I trip and I fall it is my name they call oh no the knife, it is to late I have met my fate DLAbrams

My Love Poems "so Ladies..."
so ladies keep calling him your baby, keep calling him your man, keep calling me a stupid whore, I truly understand.... But all your words won't change it, They won't effect my song But if it makes you feel the better, string yourselves along You can say he's yours You can think me crazy But while your saying this and thinking that His arms I'll lay in lazy And when you waste your time Thinking I'm a phase He's oh so deep inside of me Screaming out my name february 28th, 2011

Pay
They cut the pay of those who protect us from harm.After 9-11 they should be paying them more.So our solders are supposed to give thier lives for us but we cant pay them wtf.if anything we are in debt to them for our lives and thier pay should reflect that.If you agree with me contact your local congress and file the complaint.They need to know that its not ok.

Love??
I’m not questioning the amazing feeling you get when you think you’re falling in love with someone. I am, however, wondering what exactly it is that makes us want to fall in love (especially for those of us that have a plethora of broken-hearted memories, some of which may live on when the right subject or name is brought up). Why should we put someone so far up on a pedestal that they mean more to you than yourself? One of the worst feelings a person can endure is realizing you mean absolutely nothing to the person that means the most to you. Could love possibly trigger the manifestation of otherwise unrecognized insecurities in our heads? That would prove to be another downfall in the concept of love. Is there some kind of void that needs to be filled with the affection of another? It’s your own decisions in life that make you the happiest. That certainly doesn’t require the presence of another, although there is no denying that good things never feel

Perfectly Stated
As we grow up, we learn that even the ONE person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You WILL have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was BROKEN. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll CRY because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and LOVE like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be AFRAID that your life will end, be afraid that it will never BEGIN!!

Advantages Of Being A Women
Advantages Of Being A Women: 1.We got off the Titanic first. 2.Taxis stop for us. 3.Men die earlier, so we get to cash in on the life insurance. 4.We don't look like a frog in a blender when we're dancing. 5.We can hug our friends without wondering if she's gay. 6.We can hug our friends without wondering if we're gay. 7.We don't have to fart to amuse ourselves. 8.We can congratulate our team-mate without touching her butt. 9.We have the ability to dress ourselves. 10.We have enough sense to realize that the easiest way to get out of being lost is to ask for directions.

Bohemian Gaddafi - Sing Along!!
Whoooweee this was a tough one! Reading the news one morning over breakfast I learned that his first name was "Muammar", and suddenly, without really thinking about it, I had four verses in my head to the tune of Bohemian Rhapsody. So it had to be done. Go grab your copy of Bo Rhap, and sing along! If anything doesn't appear to fit perfectly, listen more closely to the original vocal delivery. It does match spot on, I promise! Worked hard on this bugger, would appreciate some comments :) BOHEMIAN GADDAFI Are you a real man Or a caricature Don't you understand You're not wanted any more Open your eyes As your regime dies And see... You're just a crackpot You'll get no sympathy Ruling by the gun, laying low Time to go, don't you know Natives have had enough Days are getting rougher For you, it's true Mu

Used!
Used ! Funny how life works out But in the end someone will get hurt Well I guess the end is here I feel your blade running down my spin I feel you chocking me and using me The pain is almost to much to bare Like idiot I stay because that’s all I’ve ever known But something deep inside is telling me to fight I don’t know how long I can resist the temptation anymore I cant explain why I love you even when your at your worst I cant explain why I let you hurt me I’ve never let someone do that before Yea I have made mistakes at least I own them The only mistake I did with you was taking down the brick wall around my heart I allowed you to hurt me to this day I still don’t understand it. I walk alone in the forest daring something to kill me Cuase that’s the closest I’ll ever get to you I push myself to do things I fear so one day I can face you When I do my feet won’t be shackled my hands will no longer be tied I fear that

Usless Thoughts
Useless thoughts As I listen to the beat of my heart as it fades to a silence I begin to feel the numbness taking over my body as it pulls me away from the shell I have left behind I stare at my remains, it looks hollow and empty. I ponder for a moment and wonder if this was meant to be was I destined to be alone when I die and never feel the warmth of another’s touch or love? I often wondered if I would be alone when I died or if I would be lucky enough to be in the arms of someone I loved holding me tight as I passed on to the next of what was unknown to me. Would the people I loved and known be there to greet me into my next journey in life?

Reflections
when I read back over this (read original blog entry below) I am struck by how my notions of desire and exceitment have altered. Society tells us what is right and wrong and we continue to let them dominate us. Why? Each person should seek out their own definition of such and embrace it.

Everything
Into the dark grey cloudsIhe sun spys throughInto the dark black caveDeep inside your soulIn the dark room I hear your screamsdeep inside your heartI see your bloodThrough your vains I see ur heart raceThrough your eyesI see your painIm behind youto walk you through yourfearsCall my nameI'll be by yoursideThrough all things Life puts you throughI'll be your Everything

No, Really.
Ruffled your feathers in stormy weathers You look at me still in that way I turn away and feel your gaze My every deed betrays you And yet you stay. Perhaps you enjoy the taste of your tears Perhaps the lessons are never learned Perhaps. Or perhaps my emptiness will swallow me whole. And I welcome it. C'mon in, the water's fine.

*~* My First Auction~*~*
Please go vote/rate and bid if you can! It is my very first one! Love on the auction owner too! He is awesome! Thank You So Much! XOXO Go Here: http://www.fubar.com/heather-bid-staring-off-at-500k-fubucks/photo-429545-2303901-2980796917

Checking Out
Sometimes you think about the many problems that are in your life. You don't want to make them other peoples problem. Depression is a major medical issue. When "checking out" is used, it doesn't mean going to the store. It is the indirect way of saying that you want to die. I admit that I have thought about this exact issue. Isolation, being rejected, lonelinessor just not fitting in could serve as the trigger for this action. Why write this now? It just occurred for me. The desire to checkout. Luckily I have a plan in place to prevent this for occurring. My reason for breaking down is loneliness and depression. Loneliness can occur even when around people. I also have Bi-Polar, Obsessive Compulsive and Attention Deficit w/ hyperactivity. I want to eventually become a Social Worker. I wonder if the depression will kill me before then. Don't ignore phrases like "checking out". A suicidal individual will often not directly tell you of his plans. My friend Roger killed himself. Later

My Thoughts
if your gonna to take the time to look at a pic, y can't you at least rate it sorry i don't have the looks for you, sorry for taking up your time by just tryin to talk to you but then agian, most girls on are here for themselves they want points, but cant return you gotta have the looks for them to just be your friend, and if u say anything to them your hitting on them you don't have to change ur status when i talk to you, to in a relationship just say you don't want to be my friend its not hard well thats all i have for now. tune in have more later

A Romantic Jaunt In The Night Air
Hitting the streets, they appear a lot calmer than they did from up there. Especially down here, looks can be deceiving, and mistakes can cost you more than your life, Too many suckers lose their souls down here, its a regular buffet........... Walking the streets at night is everything you could want in your garden variety killing machine.....First ya got your military, over armored jailors, dont see em, unless theres sunlight. And never this far from the wall. Thats right wall, if you can imagine a 2nd century defense against a 21st century threat, fuckin joke...... Next you have your special ops, always up to something. They are the only ones you will ever see at night, and this place is a playground for those walking hard ons. Armed to the teeth and kill anything that moves. Extreme prejudice, but you have to appreciate their dedication to to their cause. Just as lethal on the civilians as on the baddies, but what they are up to is a mystery to me. Then of course are your rabid d

Ok I Had To Share This...
I had a Dream.... LOL no really I had a dream last night f*cking Funny! Ok so BabyJesus had this like Bible he made of all the diss letters he's ever recieved from fellow fubar members on this site and this one just happen to be written by MFKN Blue Eyes... Now I was just doing my regular thing on fubar... Rating people and such and LLCQ SBs me and says that Blue Eyes had talked mad shit to Mike about me... lol I'm like thinking the worsst not that I'm worried cause you know.... Anyways the letter stated: Dear BabyJesus, Your a fucking Asshole for letting C51 and DJ Hard Drive Talk shit to me all the time and make videos about me doing guys in parking lots for bling packs! I swear Im going to delete my account and never spend a dime on here again. la la la you probley know the rest... So after seeing that he had another blog that was NSFW linked to the Bible Blog... I step into it and find out that its all the Inboxes and SB's betewwen Blue Eyes and all the people on Fubar

A New Day
Life is looking up. I have realized what I haveknown all along. You can not change anyone. You can move forward and take life as it comes. I have convinced myself to smile when I feel sad, to laugh when I just wanna cry, to not show those that thrive off my pain, my emotion. I love who I have become. Today is a new day :)

Irreligion Quotes
Kill a man, and you are an assassin. Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror. Kill everyone, and you are a god.~ Jean Rostand I contend that we are both atheists. I just believe in one fewer god than you do. When you understand why you dismiss all the other possible gods, you will understand why I dismiss yours.~ Stephen Roberts Man is certainly stark mad: he cannot make a worm, yet he will make gods by the dozen.~ Michel de Montaigne Which is it, is man one of God’s blunders or is God one of man’s?~ Nietzsche We, on our side, are praying to Him to give us victory, because we believe we are right; but those on the other side pray to Him, too, for victory, believing they are right. What must He think of us?~ Abraham Lincoln Invisible Pink Unicorns are beings of awesome mystical power. We know this because they manage to be invisible and pink at the same time. Like all religions, the Faith of the Invisible Pink Unicorns is based upon both logic and faith. We have f

Life, Love And Fubar Part 2b
Ok... so here is the update! A short while after my last update, remember that one?, it's just underneath here, I was in a lot of pain and I was having pains in my lower chest too which was new... so off I went to the ER... Good or bad, it had to be done! So I get here and low and behold, I'm told that, yes I have pain because of my cancer but I now also have a heart arrythmia brought about by the pain from the other sodding thing. So they hook me up to a heart monitor and stuff me full of tablets to sort out the rythm of my heartbeat and stick me with syringes full of some sort of pain killer and put me in a bed facing a window that had a wonderful view of brick wall... Good day huh?? To top it off, they tell me that I have to stay here till the morning and see if my heart will maintain the correct rythm. The interesting thing to me is that I'm now told that, to avoid any further heart complications, I can't have any stronger pain medication. Now without stronger pain meds, doesn

Just Saying 1
what's wrong with playing with guns, driving a 4x4 Chevy, getting dirty, still looking as killer in jeans & boots as that girl in a dress & heels :) True love is waking up next to your partner and thinking " Well, I could smother them with a pillow or make breakfast. Sigh. Pancakes it is." One might say the glass is half empty. One might say the glass is half full. I just wonder who the hell has been drinking from my glass. says the leading cause of divorce is marriage Apple have put on hold plans to release a new iPod designed for children to use... Apparently "itouch Kids" wasn't an ideal product name. if people could read minds i would be screwed . is wondering what color does a Smurf turn when it holds its breath too long?? So someone asked me today "Are you going crazy?" and I said "Yeah, I've been there, follow me, it's this way!" thinks that thinking about the thoughts of thinking are too thinkable for thoughts to be thought about thinking, i think Trust me, you could

......
FUCK!!!! I have a nice place to live, and somebody good in my life, and am taking steps toward a career I will excel in. So, why the hell do I suddenly want to go 6 Star Wanted Level a la GTA right now? People I care about are thriving, I am starting to thrive, the people I deal with at work are finally respecting my efforts, and I recently had an awesome time with a lot of my friends to celebrate getting older. So why the fuck do I feel like this? Why do I feel like I have no control over my life and a need to go full feral and stomp through the countryside burning and pilliaging? Hell I have everything but Viking blood in me so I can't even use that as an excuse. Am I stuck in a rut? Do I need a vacation? If so from what; my job or my social life? Oh who am I kidding I don't have a social life....my commute makes my work day 12 hours instead of 9, I am underpaid and overworked to the point where I need to build myself a TARDIS and Sonic Screwdriver almost to keep up. Sorry about tha

Fubar Webcam? Whatz The Deal Too Many Prevs On The Net
when did fubar turn into freaky web cam show,? like do every1 have to web cam? and whatz the deal nine times out of ten most guys and girls want to freak cam? my point is this there penlty of free porn on the internet? my bottom line is this dont get upset or even mad when ask to do the do(if u get what i mean)lol the web cam is ment to be used to veiw the person u talking to cause there alot pplz that photoshop there pics.smdh would i ever do it maybe maybe not.when u an adult u do what u gotta do.

Shoutbox Fun..
Rachie: you have been funapped for being to sexy click the link to be freed fubar.com... 10:15pm more To Rachie: (fu) 10:16pm reply Rachie: wow ur hostile 10:16pm more To Rachie: (y) 10:16pm reply Rachie: (fu) 10:16pm more To Rachie: (fu) (fu) and I'm blocked..

Poetry
I HAD TO GET AWAY, I HAD NO CHOICE. BECAUSE OF YOU I NO LONGER HAVE A HAPPY SOUL. I AM IN A WORLD SO COLD. I TRIED SO HARD TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT. YOU MADE ME HATE YOU. I HAD TO GET AWAY. YOU NEVER CARED IF I STAYED. YOU TOOK AWAY THE ONE THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY. AND I WAS THE ONE TO BLAME. YOU MADE ME BELIEVE SHE DIED BECAUSE OF ME . YOU TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME WHEN I WAS IN NEED. MY HEART BLEEDS FOR YOU. IT BLED FOR YOU INDEED. YOU NEVER CARED FOR ME . MY DAYS ARE NOW LONELY AND MY NIGHTS ARE SO COLD. I AM FOREVER LOST. SECRETS ARE LEFT UNTOLD. I AM LEFT WITH A BROKEN HEART, DROWNING IN YOU SOUL.

One Of My Mixes...
so, since a couple of people have commented on my music player on my fubar page, I thought I'd share one of my little mixes with everyone here. I occasionally make mixes still (for thos of you who didn't read my profile, I used to have a radio show in Boulder and also DJ'd in a club) so...this is a short little mega-mix...meaning I use only small portions of songs...only a couple of minutes or so before I transition into the next track. I started rushing towards the end of the mix, so I don't think this one turned out as good as it could have, but I still really like the song selection and MOST of the transitions in this one. Hopefully you'll enjoy it too! edit: okay...so apparently I can't embed the media player in this blog...so you'll have to go to this page to listen to it...my apologies :( http://www.mixcloud.com/DJ712/synthpopfuturepop-megamix-v20/

I Am Only Me
I am only me, that is all that I can beNo more, no less, don’t second guess I love, I laugh, I live and cry,I’ve wished at times, that I could die Some days I’m funny, others I’m not,sometimes I’m in overdrive and can’t stop I am a loyal and honest friend,You know that I’ll be there until the end I am a father/mother, my children my greatest gift,The smiles on their faces always give me a lift I am a romantic, sensual, and passionate too,to the love of my life, I’ll share this with you I can be sweet and shy or sassy and bold,I’m quite a handful, or so I’ve been told I am not perfect, I do have my faults,like when I get scared I put up high walls Or I’m not as forgiving, as I’d sometimes like to be,because when I hurt, I hurt deeply My logic is all my own, at times misunderstood,because I don’t always do things for my own good I have many facets, like a diamond you see…I am only me.

Relationships Every Girl Needs To Read This
ReLaTiOnShIpS If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why wo

Simple Plan - Your Love Is A Lie
I fall asleep by the telephone.It's 2 o'clock and I'm waiting up alone.And tell me where have you been?I found a note with another name.You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same.'Cause I can feel that you're gone.Can't bite my tongue forever,While you try to play it cool.You can hide behind your story,But don't take me for a fool.You can tell me that there's nobody else. [but I feel it]You can tell me that you're home by yourself. [but I see it]You can look into my eyes and pretend all you wantBut I know, I know, your love is just a...lie. [lie x2]It's nothing but a...lie. [lie x2]You look so innocent,But the guilt in your voice gives you away.Yeah, you know what I mean.How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you.And do you think about me when he fucks you?Could you be more obscene?So don't try to say you're sorry,Or try to make it right.Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.You can tell me that there's nobody else. [but I feel it]You can

For Now
She walks through the fog in a haze.Her mind overpowered by the smell of blood and death, it chills her down to her soul. All around here she sees the remains of an ever smaller and smaller circle of men wowomen and children

Winning ..charlie Sheen Winning Lyrics Lol
Ehh.. ya... I... I... I... I'm on a drug called Charlie SheenIt's not available, if you try it once you will dieYour face will melt offAnd your children will weep over your exploded body (over your exploded body)You love to party?What's not to love?The run I was on made Jagger and Richards look likeDroopy eyed armless childrenThat's how I partyThat's how I partyI was bangin 7 gram rocks, that's how I roll - winningI have one gear: GO - epic winningAre you bipolar?I'm bi-winningWin here, win there, win win everywhereI'm a total frigging rock star from mars - winningCome on brah', I got tiger blood - winningYou borrow my brain and you're like "DUDE, CAN'T HANDLE IT!"Win here, win there, win win everywhere(Songify dude) I've got a list -- help me sort thisFrom the epic win to the desperately winlessChicken nuggets - WINNINGBubblegum - WINNINGPretending to text to avoid someone - EPIC WINNINGSlow dancing - WINNINGSlow pantsing - WINNINGBreakin the rules of the Geneva conventions - WEAKAdon

The Story As I Heard It
PETER and the WOLF Music by Sergei Prokofiev Narrated by Boris Karloff The story was on a 78 LP. When you opened the Album cover, there were pages inside with the pictorial story of Peter and the Wolf. (Imagination Needed) ENJOY http://youtu.be/IB66bInIXAY

Facade
My own inequity echoes back to me, the planted seed. The real is false to me, with pretense freed. I shower my cohorts with tales of brilliant deed. The lies are truth in the falsest of light. Befit for only those bereft of sight. Pass the ammunition to fuel my foulest thought. A truly dispicably cruel intent is sought. Lap it up like mothers milk. The warm embrace. A fleeting chase. And then the shadow. The dark. The cold. Alone again with the thoughts. Hello, old friends. I despise you. Mad? Yes. I believe I am.

Observations
Have you ever delved into yourself to find out what makes you, you? What I’m talkingabout are the little things, those tiny idiosyncrasies that you do all by yourself, or whenyou think no one is watching. I went to the napkin because the receipt was pissing me off.What sadistic bastard would play this song ever ( 15 by Taylor Swift). You know a lot ofpeople would think sitting in a bar by yourself is depressing even sad, this is incorrect,sitting at a bar by yourself warrants a glimpse into your fellow bar patron’s soul. Boozelowers inhibitions, and with these new lowered inhibitions people say things, do things,and act a certain way that’s a glimpse into the true person in which you are observing. Donot be afraid of what you see, just make your decisions the way you choose because withomnipotence comes the ability to plan for everything all at once, you cannot do this, don’ttry. Just remember that a man much wiser than myself once said “to thy self be tru

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Buttons
This is the basic setup of the button you are creating * If it is a join button put JOIN if members put MEMBERS. This Helps me to know what the button is fast and simple! Site to make the actual images for the buttons. You could also use a program, xara, photoshop as examples. http://cooltext.com/ http://flamingtext.com/logos/ To upload the images with either; http://photobucket.com/ http://imageshack.us/ There are others as well but these are the recomended free ones that i know. Add the lounge number at the end of these links/change the 00 to the lounge number. Edit Lounge Link - http://www.fubar.com/edit_new_lounge.php?lid=00 Join Link - http://www.fubar.com/mylounges.php?join=00 Memebers Link - http://fubar.com/new_loungemembers.php?lid=00 Drinks Link - http://www.fubar.com/lounge_round.php?lid=00 Banned Link - http://fubar.com/new_loungebanned.php?lid=00 This link is for when someone has a profile blocked and they need banned! It also works for when they are not

Fubar News
Two of our apps are in the new Amazon Android App Store and on iTunes. These are some of the games available in the fubar game room. Please go download these apps and help show some love by rating the apps. 1) Card Ace: Hold 'em http://www.amazon.com/Self-Aware-Games-Card-Ace/dp/B004RR82L6/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&s=mobile-apps&qid=1300993603&sr=1-3 2) Card Ace: Blackjack http://www.amazon.com/Self-Aware-Games-Card-Ace/dp/B004RR7KCS/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&s=mobile-apps&qid=1300993603&sr=1-4 Each app can be liked, rated, and reviewed. If you have an android device then downloading the app is probably good too. If you could take a few minutes to do this for both. Additionally clicking to vote that the reviews already there were helpful is a nice extra touch. :) This should literally take you about 3 minutes total. 1) Card Ace Casino on iTunes http://itunes.apple.com/us/app/card-ace-casino-hd/id408468471?mt=8 2) Card Ace Casino on iTunes http://itunes.apple.com/us/app/card-ace-casino/id

Don't Be Late
night is closing in all around her dark shadows dance ahead of her on the wall the day, in her mind is but a blur she anxiously makes her way to his room down the hall heart beating so rapidly with fear regret fills her mind for losing track of time his voice sounding in her head, almost like he was whispering in her ear do not be late, it was rule number nine and ahead, down the hall, he waits impatiently thinking "why is she so late?" she will be punished for this disregard for his rules perhaps a good flogging until she drools his naughty little mate when finally she enters his room at least she had the forethought to enter on her knees her first words being "forgive me Master, if you please" he thinks to himself, she is pretty as a flower in bloom he will enj

September 11th 2010
Ladies and gentlemen, on this the ninth anniversary of one of the most horrendous days inAmerican history, I urge every person of every faith to shuck the chains of organizedreligion, to instead of saying that we are Christians, Catholics, Muslims, Buddhists, Ect.To start living by the teachings of your chosen prophet, to love and except, rather thanhate, kill, and abuse in the name of a god that wouldn’t ask for that ever. Not to rape, notto kill, not to steal these are all actions that are deplorable in every faith, so why can’t wecoexist if we all share the planet in which we all have no choice but to live on. Yes thereare actions of solitary organizers that claim that which ever god you subscribe to, talk tothem and tell them that these atrocities are necessary for the further of their selectedreligion, when actually it does nothing to further your cause or anyone else’s for thatmatter. I ask you to open your eyes and stop following these people who teach intolera

Hearts And Scars
Have you ever been hurt in the past? Who am I kidding, we all have. Have you ever let your scar come back to bite you in the butt and ruin possibly the best thing that has ever happened to you? Yeah well, I'm a retard and might have just done that. I met someone recently who has done things to my heart I have never felt before. In a good way that is... But, my past crept up on me. I got really scared. This girl is beautiful, smart, funny, kind, caring, has a great heart and is just an all around great person. Why would I get scared of that? I got really scared because of my past. I let a scar tear open just the tiniest bit and let old fears take over. I pretty much spooked myself. I thought...a girl like this would never go for a guy like me. Even though I know my past is the past, I allowed those old pains back in. I hate living in my past. I always look to the future, but for some reason I let it creep up on me and get the best of me. I was a fool to do so. I never had the best of li

My Whole Life
People...I just do not get sometimes.And I really dont want to try to understand them. NewsFlash. You still annoy me. And I dont need you. Being one color or another on Fu will not make me notice you more.In fact, if you are a certain envy color, I will not notice you, but look past you.Being a certain color, now shows me what your true intentions are.But enough about fu... My life has gotten a bit more complicated. This was something I was hoping I could avoid and somehow it would disapear.Anyone know of any magic makers? More lately my fists have been clenched and white.I dont like having to have my wall up, waiting for the next mind-fuck-attack.As times goes by the more I forget about the good and the bad of that used to be life.I dont miss him. I miss having someone to wake up with, someone to care for, someone to cook for . Love for me has changed. It was never the stuff of fairytales. But the need to be crazy deep inlove with someone, the feeling that you would die wit

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 23
Day 01 – Your favorite song (Somebody to Love - Queen)Day 02 – Your least favorite song (Lips of an Angel - Hinder)Day 03 – A song that makes you happy (Fuck You - Cee Lo Green)Day 04 – A song that makes you sad ( Behind the Wall - Tracy Chapman and Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick)Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone (Best I Ever Had - Drake)Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere (Antes Muerta Que Sencilla - Maria Isabel)Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event (Prozak - Dexter Freebish)Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to (La Vie Boheme - RENT)Day 09 – A song that you can dance to (Feedback - Janet Jackson)Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep (Hallelujah - Leonard Cohen or Rufus Wainwright)Day 11 – A song from your favorite band (Norwegian Wood (This Bird Has Flown) - The Beatles)Day 12 – A song from a band you hate (Just Dance - Lady Gaga)Day 13 – A song that is a

No Gifts, No Glory...
Ok fubarians, This Blog is for the many people out there that are on Fubar alot. How many of you start the day out making sure all your friends are sh*t faced and have gifts from you only to sign on later to find not even one of them returned the luv? It amazes me that people are so caught up in the "game" they forget they have "real" friends out there. Don't know how many of you that has real friends on fubar that they have invited to play by you, or friends you have met offline from fubar, But I can confidently say that I have not lost track of those people on my list, just more than half are never around or if they are, they would rather buy gifts for their "new friends" I dont know maybe thier tits are bigger, or they have a nicer body, hell maybe they show nudes, in which I do not care to show all for points, or for any other reason. Just feels that I have to earn gifts, or attention or even a short conversation. So in conclusion of this little segement Im calling "No gifts, No Gl

Legalizingin Maine
Lawmaker proposes legalizing, taxing marijuana One state lawmaker wants to legalize marijuana, and not just for medicinal use.State representative Diane Russell, who's a democrat, is sponsoring a bill that would legalize the drug and allow the state to collect taxes on it. Russell's proposal would allow Mainers to use and grow marijuana. It would also levy a seven percent sales tax on the drug. She says the taxes would generate $400,000 in the first full year, and hundreds of thousands more after that. Russell says both democrats and republicans have already signed on to support the plan. She's planning a news conference for Wednesday to discuss the details. Tuesday, April 19 2011, 12:40 PM EDT

Thank You ....
I would like to thank my grandparents for teaching me long ago to treat people with the respect they deserve to cherish a movie like it was a night out at the opera that a woman loves with a fierceness none can compare too a mother can be the tigress when her baby is in danger but they taught me most of all that my flaws were not mistakes but assets only I could have that I was a diamond in the rough my cracks were not flaws but facets that the sun would light up I was never gonna be a man made one polished by machines i was gonna be my own diamond beautiful with flaws inside and out i would like to thank them for giving me a chance to know all of this for loving me for me my flaws and all for teaching me that for me to say I love you I say it not as an endearment but from my heart my very being my soul my blood I thank you for helping me learn to be just me a woman a mom a lover just me copyright@tamithalynn

Women
After glancing at "Irate Women" Parts 1 & 2, and saying to myself 'there is no fucking way I'm going to read all of that shit' it occurred to me that no one else is, either. If they did they'd realize 1st and foremost that I detest the Heterosexual ideal that "the man" hauls his burly ass out the door and brings home a big ole buck for the wife and kids to eat while the woman tends the garden, bakes bread and bends over for the guy as a reward for his Hard work, that whole schlemiel to me is people imitating animals because they're too fucking lazy and stupid to use their Powers of Creation to make an interesting life for themselvesSo to make a long story short - I can't marry you because I already am and I can't afford to keep you as a mistress, nor pay you for any kind of sex or sex related thing not even $2 a minute so I can cum watching you on cam. So now you're probably thinking well what the fuck are you doing on here ... are you a faggot or what? Read my profile

Hope Of Light
When darkness falls on our weary hearts, and hope seems to fade away, We tend to lose a sense of life, not wanting to move on to another day.Life is full of pain and discouragement, we wander around lost and hurt, Wanting to feel something more, Needing to pick ourselves up from the dirt. One tragedy after the next may come, none more tragic than the rest, Shoving us deeper inside ourselvesplacing us on an impossible precipice.We must be strong and look ahead, never giving ourselves completely.For if we do our souls could be lost,forever longing for peace eternally.Light is there if only we could see, unveil our eyes from under the sheath.Welcome the sun and all it's warmthand allow ourselves to once again breath.

Casting A Shadow
Some people say do the best you can and do what feels right. Stand up for what you believe in don’t take any shit from anyone. Keep doing the best you can and pray that others will follow in your footsteps. Live everyone moment like your last but live it the best you can! Don’t have regrets if you live a selfish life, don’t complain when compassion isn’t shared. If you have a thirst for love but you only dish out hate then its misery that you’ll be drinking. What creature that is man? Is it warm? Compassionate? Or is it cold and hatful? Out of all the animals in the kingdom we’re the only ones who kill each other over race, beliefs, and cruel hatred. Since when is proving your better than someone else the logic in life when we are equal in the eyes of God? Since when does money, a car, and job define a man? Was it supposed to be ethics, kindness, passion, respect, and peace and Prosperity towards your fellow man? We replaced it with

Don't
I don't want to hear the "I told you so"I don't want to hear the "I'm sorries"I don't want to hear anymore false bullshit blown up my ass....You didn't tell me shit but some false words..You ain't fucking sorry, hell you could care less.I don't want to hear the "You deserve better"I don't want to hear the "I know how you feels"I don't want to hear your words filled with pity...You don't know what it is I deserve...You have NO damn clue how I feel...When you have been where I have been and the things I've seen, The things I've been through just to make it here......maybe someday you will be able to tell me these words. Yes I'm exposed Yes I've been broken Yes I am a mess Yes I don't trust Yes I don't believe in many Yes I care Yes I have a heart Yes I build walls to keep those out. Yes I am a bitch Yes I want things to go my way Yes I want happiness Yes I am just a human.....

Best Quote Every By Bob Marley
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She's loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect, you aren't either & the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking of you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she know's you can break: her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she... makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." — Bob Marley

Life
i remember the days when my mind used to beoverrun with emotions and thoughtsof all things good and the worst;as time went by,with each new day,and with a brand new life to look forward to,my mind emptied itself in a flash, just like that;with a cup of coffee in hand,i sit back and think about the yesteryears,smiling at the change that has taken over meand the life that i have been blessed with now;strolling down the memory lane,unafraid of the future,blinded by the ecstasy of livingeventually, with eyes wide open,i’ve come to understand, thatsome things, including life, change for the better;

Every Guy
Every Guy To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured

Wow Just Wow, Idiots
0:23pm iNiNjAdUrM...: dude whats ur issue? 10:26pm Hype: didn't have one, he was pissed cause i was hitting on someonew he likes before and he just got jealous 10:27pm iNiNjAdUrM...: no u were hittin on his woman 10:27pm Hype: well i'm only human, if he wants to be drunk with power and boot me, so be it, not going to get mad cause he's being a baby 10:27pm iNiNjAdUrM...: n its a lil odd to see someone older the guy you diss call the younger man old >.> 10:28pm Hype: well seniority 10:28pm Hype: not age 10:28pm iNiNjAdUrM...: older then the guy * 10:28pm iNiNjAdUrM...: seniority really? 10:28pm Hype: age means nothing, male and female 10:28pm Hype: its how you act, he's acting like a child and i don't care 10:28pm Hype: if he can boot me 10:29pm Hype: obviously he has more power than i 10:29

Carefully In The Garden Farm
I find In the dictionary the definition of one strange stone, Actually i not have the name of the stone, very strange happens when i find the definition of the stone, i not pay attention of this and pass a way the page and forget the name of the stone, where find in the dictionary. The Dictionary said this stone have the property to desappear all thing what stumble with this, and it's ancient. The Very Curious is, when pass two Month then, i find in one pharmacy near where I live, a magazine of Enigma where corroborate this strange stone exist in the real life, and it's too invisible, The magazine said: One farmer in his home farm desappear in front Eyes of his family, when he said to one of his son, he go to the garden farm to check out the horses, when walk to the garden farm to check out like two minute when said, happens this mistery success just desappear, i think it's probable he stumble with this strange stone where i find in the dictionary, and i think this strange

Not Always Right | Shouldn’t Have Rented Conspiracy Theory
Online Movie Rental | Portland, OR, USA Me: “Thank you for calling [online movie rental]. How can I help you today?” Caller: “Yes, I’m having a problem with my account. I think I may have uncovered a serious conspiracy to keep me from getting movies!” Me: “That’s definitely not good. I’d love to take a look at your account. May I have your name please?” Caller: “I’d better not give you my name. They may be listening now. I’d rather make this as anonymous as possible.” Me: “That’s fine. What’s going on?” Caller: “My postman will only pick up my movies every three days unless I put a dollar in each return envelope. I’m afraid you guys are paying them to do this!” Me: “I can assure you we want you renting movies. That’s what we’re in business for. Have you tried returning your movies from another location?” Caller: “When I do t

Not Always Right | Up-front Desk
Hotel | Perth, West Australia, Australia (A guest is checking in.) Guest: “And would it be okay if I bring a prostitute to the room later?” Me: *startled* “Uh. Well. I guess if no other guests are in anyway disturbed or affected.” Guest: “Well, that’s terrific. She’ll be coming by at about 8:30pm. But if she looks ugly, just send her back without giving her my room number.”

The Reasons Marijuana Is Illegal *** $e$ 420 Special ***
Racism FearProtection of Corporate ProfitsYellow JournalismIgnorant, Incompetent, and/or Corrupt Legislators Personal Career Advancement and GreedMarijuana was legal up until former U.S. President Ronald Reagan was a child. The HEMP plant has many uses , such as clothes ( woven fabric ) , rope , incense , food , paper , etc. The first U.S. Marijuana law was enacted in the Jamestown Colony in Virginia , mandating that all farmers grow MARIJUANA / HEMP , as well as making it “ LEGAL TENDER” for taxes, etc.

My Life.
im so sick of the world it hurts when all u are to people is a sex toy i wish i could be perfect but i will never be and that sucks no matter how hard i try i will never be skinny, cute, or smart enouh for anyone and that truely hurts.

Looking For Advice
April 24, 2011 To whom it may concern, I have been having a problem lately with my boyfriend and i don't have any idea what i can do to help the situation. Let me tell you first of all that I am not very good at comforting people and making them fell better. A while back my boyfriend has killed his best friend in a car crash, he was drinking, but from what he told me, he wasn't drunk. The road had a bunch of gravel on it and he lost traction. He was also speeding because his ex dumped him to go out with this firend. SO now that you know this back story, here's my issue. He his getting very distant with his emotions with me. Everytime I ask him to tell me what is wrong with him he tells me everything is fine and not to worry about it. Yesterday he told me that the anniversery of the crash was coming up and he had to get through it. Now and then he will drink alot and try to drown the pain in alcohol. And everytime he does I have to make sure that he doesn't do anything stup

A Friend Moved In Today.
I don't know how many of you have friends who have hit hard times in the past few years. Maybe you've been hurt by the economy. We've got a lot of friends who are selling their extra vehicles, vacation homes, furniture, what ever, just to make their house payments and pay taxes. A lot of them are working a third or forth job. Our friend, M, had a successful business. He drove a Jaguar, had 2 amazing Harleys, a 4x4 truck, a good sized house on a big lot, & flew a private plane to Vegas on a regular basis just to play. He had a crew of 8 guys working for him full time. Life was great. But the economy changed everything. Last year he sold the Jaguar for $40K less than it had been 'worth' just a couple of years ago and he sold one of his Harleys. He had been picking up a few little jobs here and there; just enough to pay the mortgage and his bills. But things changed quickly around a year ago. His $40K Harley was just repossessed last week. His house will belong to the bank on May 1, and

Wtf????
So my day started out pretty normal.. Idiots pissing me off.... Stupid Drivers yada yada... but then.. The day progressed. I wound up getting in an extremely odd conversation over Biological Piracy with a waitress at the cafe I go to on a regular basis. Now I have had great conversations with waitresses before.. the odd part was this waitress is normally a complete air head who gets confused on mostly basic concepts. So here I was thinking that hey.. that was odd but refreshing.. not even assuming the rest of the day that would follow suit. I then get hit on by at the least 6 gay guys. Now normally one i can see... That has happened before. But 6??? I usually take this as a compliment because from what I have always seen gay guys generally have good taste in the looks department and fashion department. But then to be hit on by a couple of extremely beautiful young ladies was definately out of the realm for my normalcy. Especially when they offered favors.... ok.. at this point

Have Faith In Your Heart, Hope In Your Wishes, & Love Always.
If we all know how fleeting time is, why do we waste it? Why do we settle for mediocre when we can have and deserve so much more. People, myself included, waste their lives while living and at the end we fight for it....why can't we be content with where we are on the journey because Time will never be our ally or friend.

My Thoughts & Beliefs!
I follow the beliefs of the Native American Indian, which is spiritual, respecting the land, water, people and elders *and also the ones that have passed to the other side*. *I don't believe in something that MAN has written, then passed the wordings down from generation to generation, then contradict themselves in the process*. My ancient ancestors knew nothing of these written words *but as it turned out, it was something that was pressed/pushed upon them *do (as I say) or die (if you won't, cause you're my property or slave)*, it's something I can't or will not walk a path with. So much division with religion, so many books stating their beliefs are correct...Bible, Koran, etc.,* mine is better than yours* mentality. *Hinduism, Judaism, Zoroastrianism, Buddhism, Shinto, Confucianism, Jainism, Taoism, Christianity, Islam, the list is long and far reaching*. I don't knock someone for what they believe in, to each their own.

Easter
I'm not a Christian, although I was raised Russian Orthodox. I'm not anything, I'm just a person. I believe in evolution not in being ruled by dead people from a time I never knew. I was delivered to this condition by what is known in Greek as Thelema. But what is Easter?There was this person represented by the name Jesus Christ who had certain beliefs that upset the powers that be and they told him to denounce what he speaketh or vee Kill you. So the death of Jesus represents a very important milestone in "human evolution"; similar to the milestone of Abraham refusing to make a human sacrifice of his son. A person died for what they believed in and his followers saw the importance of that and felt morally compelled to somehow ensure that humanity, for the good of itself and for the good of "human evolution", remembered that fact. So it was decided that from the death of winter to the rebirth in Spring, when all buds and blooms are resurrected - that it Shall be remembered, that this

30 Day Song Challenge - Days 26-28
Day 01 – Your favorite song (Somebody to Love - Queen)Day 02 – Your least favorite song (Lips of an Angel - Hinder)Day 03 – A song that makes you happy (Fuck You - Cee Lo Green)Day 04 – A song that makes you sad ( Behind the Wall - Tracy Chapman and Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick)Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone (Best I Ever Had - Drake)Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere (Antes Muerta Que Sencilla - Maria Isabel)Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event (Prozak - Dexter Freebish)Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to (La Vie Boheme - RENT)Day 09 – A song that you can dance to (Feedback - Janet Jackson)Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep (Hallelujah - Leonard Cohen or Rufus Wainwright)Day 11 – A song from your favorite band (Norwegian Wood (This Bird Has Flown) - The Beatles)Day 12 – A song from a band you hate (Just Dance - Lady Gaga)Day 13 – A song that is a

Phenomenal Woman Maya Angelou
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's sizeBut when I start to tell them,They think I'm telling lies.I say,It's in the reach of my armsThe span of my hips,The stride of my step,The curl of my lips.I'm a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That's me.I walk into a roomJust as cool as you please,And to a man,The fellows stand orFall down on their knees.Then they swarm around me,A hive of honey bees.I say,It's the fire in my eyes,And the flash of my teeth,The swing in my waist,And the joy in my feet.I'm a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That's me.Men themselves have wonderedWhat they see in me.They try so muchBut they can't touchMy inner mystery.When I try to show themThey say they still can't see.I say,It's in the arch of my back,The sun of my smile,The ride of my breasts,The grace of my style.I'm a womanPhenomenally.Phenomenal woman,That's me.Now you understandJust why my head's not bowed.I don't shout or jump aboutOr have to talk real

Alone Edgar Allen Poe
From childhood's hour I have not been As others were; I have not seen As others saw; I could not bring My passions from a common spring. From the same source I have not taken My sorrow; I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone; And all I loved, I loved alone. Then- in my childhood, in the dawn Of a most stormy life- was drawn From every depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still: From the torrent, or the fountain, From the red cliff of the mountain, From the sun that round me rolled In its autumn tint of gold, From the lightning in the sky As it passed me flying by, From the thunder and the storm, And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue)

If You Forget Me Pablo Neruda
I want you to knowone thing.You know how this is:if I lookat the crystal moon, at the red branchof the slow autumn at my window,if I touchnear the firethe impalpable ashor the wrinkled body of the log,everything carries me to you,as if everything that exists,aromas, light, metals,were little boatsthat sailtoward those isles of yours that wait for me.Well, now,if little by little you stop loving meI shall stop loving you little by little.If suddenlyyou forget medo not look for me,for I shall already have forgotten you.If you think it long and mad,the wind of bannersthat passes through my life,and you decideto leave me at the shoreof the heart where I have roots,rememberthat on that day,at that hour,I shall lift my armsand my roots will set offto seek another land.Butif each day,each hour,you feel that you are destined for mewith implacable sweetness,if each day a flowerclimbs up to your lips to seek me,ah my love, ah my own,in me all that fire is repeated,in me nothing is extinguished o

Still I Rise Maya Angelou
You may write me down in historyWith your bitter, twisted lies,You may trod me in the very dirtBut still, like dust, I'll rise.Does my sassiness upset you?Why are you beset with gloom?'Cause I walk like I've got oil wellsPumping in my living room.Just like moons and like suns,With the certainty of tides,Just like hopes springing high,Still I'll rise.Did you want to see me broken?Bowed head and lowered eyes?Shoulders falling down like teardrops.Weakened by my soulful cries.Does my haughtiness offend you?Don't you take it awful hard'Cause I laugh like I've got gold minesDiggin' in my own back yard.You may shoot me with your words,You may cut me with your eyes,You may kill me with your hatefulness,But still, like air, I'll rise.Does my sexiness upset you?Does it come as a surpriseThat I dance like I've got diamondsAt the meeting of my thighs?Out of the huts of history's shameI riseUp from a past that's rooted in painI riseI'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,Welling and swelling I bear in

The Broken Heart William Barnes
News o' grief had overteakenDark-eyed Fanny, now vorseaken;There she zot, wi' breast a-heaven,While vrom zide to zide, wi' grieven,Vell her head, wi' tears a-creepenDown her cheaks, in bitter weepen.There wer still the ribbon-bowShe tied avore her hour ov woe,An' there wer still the hans that tied itHangen white,Or wringen tight,In ceare that drowned all ceare bezide it.When a man, wi' heartless slighten,Mid become a maiden's blighten,He mid cearelessly vorseake her,But must answer to her Meaker;He mid slight, wi' selfish blindness,All her deeds o' loven-kindness,God wull waigh 'em wi' the slightenThat mid be her love's requiten;He do look on each deceiver,He do knowWhat weight o' woeDo break the heart ov ev'ry griever.

Saddest Poem Pablo Neruda
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance." The night wind whirls in the sky and sings. I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. On nights like this, I held her in my arms.I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky. She loved me, sometimes I loved her.How could I not have loved her large, still eyes? I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her. To hear the immense night, more immense without her.And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass. What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.The night is full of stars and she is not with me. That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.My soul is lost without her. As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.My heart searches for her and she is not with me. The same night that whitens the same trees.We, we who were, we are the sa

Confessions Of An Explosive Libido...(repost Plus)
Ok, so it's not a completely accurate title but here goes. I have for the most part led a charmed life. Although it did not always start out that way. I was picked on a lot when I was younger but the one saving grace about it all is that the only people who were ever nice to me...the only gender was women. I love women and women as a gender in whole...I have no shame in admitting it. My mom is a woman...my sister is a woman...and for the most part, just as there are women who have mostly male friends....I have a lot of female friends. I feel comfort with women. Been living with them since my dad died when i was 14. I have acquired a lot of understanding about women and women issues(no shame in going to the store to buy maxipads if you get my drift). My only issue is when I am very testosterone driven which gets me into trouble more times than not....as most women would exclaim...."Men!" However, I have always been treated very well by women and I feel that I will be spending the rest o

The End
The End. Written April 15, 2011 Can't sleep ... I'm frustrated and overwhelmed from all the things I want to say to you. but there is no point in saying anything ... because you don't know how to love me anymore. So let all your so called *friends* cheer you on as you make this last mistake. They couldn't possibly know what’s in your heart when after all these years, I barely saw your true heart myself. Your victory will be very hollow when you realize what you've missed ... and you start to remember that it wasn't just me that made mistakes. So, paint a untrue picture of a man who was so wronged if that's what gets you through this ... Be sure to color it in a way that you're a saint. Forget all the lies I had to swallow, all the promises that were broken, that I had to forgive and forget the fact that you would not let me go ... What was it that you were hanging on to till now, Instead of letting me move on? You selfishly kept me there, hurting me a

Lust...love...infatuation...obsession...rejection
ok, so you met someone amazing. you talk 24/7 right. text, im, phone, skype, shoutbox...all that good stuff. week one. constant contact. cutesy status comments. posting youtube vids of cheesy love songs on eachothers pages. putting eachothers names in your own. "person1 FE2 person2". week two. things are still good, but maybe not commenting as much...or not as soon as you log on. week three. you see them commenting someone else...that person is moving up on their tops. you aren't skyping anymore and no more phone calls. you text them first, sometimes they respond, hours later. maybe you even got fumarried but you only get the occasional comment. they don't rate your page first when they logon. maybe the skip out on giving you all of their pimps or they're not shitfacing you every second of the day. week 4. fudivorce lol. you fight, talk shit. hate one another. what happened to that amazing person you were so in love with. i'll tell you what...no space. every second was spent commu

Warning!!!!!
Everyone be warned there is a pro stalker and fake on fubar she is the owner of naughty playground and is posing as a 26 year old blonde but she is really 65 she says she is a teacher but in fact she is a lunch lady she says her name is Ashley but in fact her name is Debora she steals pics from other members on fu posing as herself which it is not she has taking girls at her school to take pics to pose as herself and has been investigated by the law her in the United States and in England Be WARNED she is a pro con and has to be stopped don't be fooled her and the naughty play ground lounge is full of her cons she has several accounts as cutie and as love ....YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

My Love Of My Life
I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine.

Lord Help Us
Hi Lord, its me. Things are getting bad here, gas prices are too high, no jobs, food and heating cost too high. I know some have taken you out of our schools, government & even Christmas. But Lord, I'm asking you to come back and re-bless America, we really need you. Thanks Lord, I love you!Jesus forgive us for not stepping up for you.Let us sing it from the rooftops that we belong to Jesus Christ!

What Is All This Mess?
Being my first blog on here I considered introducing myself, but then I decided that's kinda what the whole profile thing is about. Anyway, as I'm trying to take in all that is involved in this website I was thinking about all the social networking sites in this world. Between Facebook, Myspace, and twitter, people pretty much know what you're doing, where you're doing it, and who you're doing it with at all times. Now, for some of us, that's pretty fucking fantastic. Those of us that have always loved being the center of attention now have people watching your every move from across the country, even from the other side of the world in some cases. I seem to have forgotten my point... oh yea, basically what I'm trying to say is everyone should pay attention to me at all times. I promise I'll "wow" you at some point or another.

New Blog
the old blog has gone. so it is the best to start over again. at first i will introduce some older material that could still be seen here. i am sure it is interesting for the most people. when you don't like it... just don't watch. the blog is marked as nsfw. i would like to show you what a former slavegirl from me wrote about her training. Ex-Slavegirl S I will never forget the day "Misterak" known to me now as Sir... my Master, my Owner came into my life. He changed my life for the greater. I had always fantasized about being a slavegirl, being owned. However I had never been in touch or talked with a dom that had an effect on me to completely surrender myself to him. Until Sir sent me an email simply asking me if I make a good slavegirl. I was fascinated by him form the start. His authority is ever present when he is near. Sir is not onlydom but he is charming, witty and extremely intelligent and well educated. Beeing in his presence is a very moving

Women
5 DEADLY TERMS USED BY A WOMAN. (1) FINE - this is the word women use to end an argument when they know they are RIGHT & YOU need to SHUT UP. (2) NOTHING - means SOMETHING & you need to be WORRIED. (3) GO AHEAD - this is a dare, not permission, DO NOT DO IT. (4) WHATEVER - is a woman's way of saying SCREW YOU. (5) THAT'S OK - she is thinking long & hard on HOW & WHEN you will pay for your mistake.

Winner #2
MIKEDD691 hrOH MY GOD YOU VERY BEAUTIFUL YOU SHOULD A MODEL OR A GODESS.TO MY EYES YOU ARE BOTH.WHEN MY EYES SAW YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE AND YOUR GLORIOUS,SUBLIME, DELIGHTFUL BODY OF YOURS AND YOUR PULCHRITUDINOUS,COMELY,BEAUTIFUL LONG LEGS.I THOUGHT OF PERFECTION.YOU ARE A GODESS.I AM SURE YOU HEAR THAT EVERY DAY OR ALOT.AND IF YOU DONT YOU SHOULD HEAR THAT EACH TIME YOU TAKE A BREATH.I WISH I WAS THERE WHEN YOU READ THIS TO SEE YOUR BEAUTIFUL LIPS MOVE.I AM JUST WRITING WHAT IS IN MY HEART WHEN I SAW YOUR PICTURE

Its The End...
A tear comes to mind, when I think of you And remember the time when our friendship was new. A gentle smile centered on your face, And I knew that then was the time and place, To kiss you, I did and felt a tick back in my heart. I thought we'd be forever and never part, But now we have come to a fork in the road, Where we must no longer carry each other's load, Let the burden off our shoulders and not leave a scar, For the paths we are taking are very far apart. I will remember always the places we went, And cherish forever the time we've spent. So now is the time where I say goodbye, Spend one last minute lost in your eyes. As much as I know that we can't stay, I hope our paths will cross again some other day....

Disease Of Your Affection...
don't lie to make me happy i don't need a tainted charm your false feelings bring emotional harm i am afraid of loneliness our love no longer true but can i stand alone without leaning on you disease of your affection penetrating me your beauty like a virus attacking violently not to worry, ill be fine i'll make it through the day but when tomorrow comes i'll have the courage to walk away

The Hardest Part.
today i learned a lessonthat will always be truesaying goodbye to someoneis the hardest thing to doi've never felt a lossuntil i said goodbyei thought i was strongand i broke down and criednever will i forgetthe times we hadthough the reflections are happyit makes me rather sadthe most brutal of mencries at the pasti only wish the good times would lastso i humor myselfi'd smile if i couldwhy can't things work out?because life isn't supposed to be that good

Man Hunt Pt 1
Man HuntBy Kimberly LooneyHe said that when the time came, he'd explain it all to me. What he didn't tell me, was that he simply meant to let me be. When the time came, he was already long gone, and I? Well I was already just as gone. He had already taken my heart, what reason had I to stay? I had come to realize something of a hint of agony is his voice as I walked away into the cold December night. He had hurt me more than I was EVER going to admit to him, so I simply put on my bravest face, and walked forwards towards the way of no where. Once, I had said to him "I could die happy knowing you love me." He simply replied "please don't go where I can't follow." It was then, at that very moment, that my heart broke at the thought of leaving him to ever face the world alone, and in that same moment, I loved him more than I ever had before. Now, as he stood there watching me, listening to my angry footfalls in the snow, I fought back tears and choked back the urge to scream. I wanted to

Slavegirl K
i want to introduce Slavegirl K, it is the best to give her the possiblity to do that on her own. written by Slavegirl K: im slavegirl k i am in the u.s. i enjoy many things reading, cooking, camping, swimming ect... i am a country girl,..however i love the city i love to go clubbing,...hangout at a coffee shop,...i love to sing and go out to a karokee bar with my cousin. i can be a strong willed person sometimes and i tend stray from the path every now and then but i am happy that i my sir honors me by keeping me in line and helping me through things. i plan on starting college soon and i am glad that sir will be there with me to help, because i know that i will need help keeping to my studies. a lovely young Slavegirl. a natural servant and nice contact. i don't want to miss knowing her and it is always nice to talk with her. she is eager to learn and does know about her needs and interest a way better then most mature slavegirls do. isn't that a good

Thoughts
As so Happens every once in a great while I find myself with time on my hands and nothing of any importance to think through and I begin thinking of decisions that I have made over the course of my life. Yeah I know, thats a lot to think about but it is like they say... Hind sight is 20/20. Most of the thoughts I have keep going over the wrong decisions, the if only I had done this or not did that sort of thing and I keep asking myself why? Why keep digging the past up and the only thing I come up with is.. I hate to lose. I have always taken pride in the fact that I have never let anyone beat me so bad at anything in life that I couldnt look them in the eyes and ask Is that all you got? My most current situation is the fact that my wife of 18 years and I have finally decided enough is enough. I should say she finally agreed with me that we have burned too many bridges between us that our paths lie in different directions. The main reason for this is she hates my new job where as I lov

Sometimes Its About You.
Some storms are quietNo caterwalling and bailful bansheesjust broken branches and fallen leaves the following morning.Was it sudden, was it violentor did the bough just give inwith no lingering goal or hanging hope? A thousand fracturesor a singular snap? You might never know.Not without a note,signed, dated, postmarkedloved ones in the most unexpected places. Where will I be when I hear the news?Was it something I didn't say?

Thats How You Do It
Ding Dong! Osama's dead. a bullet to his fucken head? The Bastards FUcken DEAD! Ding Dong! Bin Ladens Finally dead.Wake up - sleepy head, rub your eyes, get out of bed.Wake up, the Bastards dead. He's gone where the goblins go,Below - below - below. Yo-ho, let's open up and sing and ring the bells out.Ding Dong' the merry-oh, sing it high, sing it low.Let them know The FUCKTARD is dead!As Mayor of Notta damn thing, In the Country of the USA, I welcome this day most regally. But we've got to verify it legally, to seeTo see?If HEIf HEIs morally, ethic'llySpiritually, physicallyPositively, absolutelyUndeniably and reliably DeadAs Coroner I must aver, I thoroughly examined the turd. And he's not only merely dead, he's really most sincerely dead.Then this is a day of Independence For all the World and their descendantsIf any.Yes, let the joyous news be spread The wicked Bastard Terrorist at last is dead

A Special Thanks!
Now I lay me down to sleep,One less terrorist this world does keep.With all my heart I give my thanksTo those in uniform regardless of rank.You serve our country and serve it wellWith humble hearts your stories tell.So as I rest my weary eyes,While freedom rings, our flag still flies.You give your all, do what you must.With God we live, in God we trust .... Amen

Work
Lets see Just graduated a leadership course. It was my second course as I did one in the Air force aswell. I finished with a 96.82% avg during the 10 test three week course. Not the best but above average. Other then that unless i extend a year, I'll be moving out again in about 9 months to another lcoation. As far as work work goes, I enjoy most of the people I work with and the job is great

Caring For The One You Love
A lot is written and discussed about love. What is love? What are the different types of love? What phases does love go through? And so on. You presume that when someone says that 'I love you', he/she cares for you. He/she cares for your likes and dislikes, cares for your comfort, cares to keep you happy and takes care not to hurt you. And you do the same for him/her. Unless one cares, how can love be complete? Many relationships suffer immeasurably, because partners claim that they love each other, but show no care. It is like saying - 'I love him/her so much, but I fail to understand how to keep him/her happy? I don't understand what to do? I feel so helpless.' What use is love if this is the situation? If you love someone so much, try to find out. Rather you should know. Either you don't love, or the other person has changed beyond recognition for you and you really feel helpless. It is the memory of the old love that makes you say- 'I love him/her so much. The present reality is di

Undisclosed.
To whom it may concern: In regards to last night When you ripped my shirt, and entered me I want you to know, it just wasn't right And when I say right I don't mean it was wrong I just mean that the shirt you tore Cost me $5.99 When you were done, and we were both spent My poor shirt dangled uselessly So next time you're here, and you want to claim me Just remember the shirt you destroyed so nonchalantly And when my hands travel up your chest, and to your collar The ripping you hear, it's just a charge For the $5.99 and the shirt you owe me.

For My Baby
FOR MY BABY IM SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOUWONDERING IF YOUR DOING THE SAMEI SEE YOU EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYESI SEE YOU WHEN IM AWAKEI CANT GET YOU OFF MY MIND I LOVE YOU SO MUCHYOUR MY EVERYTHINGI HAVE ONE THING I NEED TO KNOWDO I MAKE YOU HAPPYLIKE THE WAY YOU MAKE ME HAPPY GOD I HAVE BEEN FLOATING ON CLOUD 9KNOWING THAT YOUR MY WIFE

Immaturity And Bullshit At Its Best...wonderful...
so ill break it down real simple: girl likes boy, boy likes girl -- agree that they have way too much incommon and are too mutually attracted to not see where it goes -- guy asks girl if she has facebook, girl says no -- guy searches on facebook, finds out girl has a facebook -- guy calls her out for lying about it but doesnt get mad, laughs it off and says it doesnt matter and no worries -- girl then completely severs all ties with guy for "Reasons unknown" verdict: AWESOME

M'lord And I
Rolling hills, fields of green, battles going on, much to be seen.. Watching m'lord swing his sword in the sun, can't wait to embrace him, can't wait to be one.. I'm always entranced, watching him fight, wicked smile to myself, can't wait for tonight.. As the sun sets, battles all done, m'lord walks on over, from a victory hard won.. I wait by his tent, begin to pull him inside, for he knows that I want him, much passion inside.. No words are spoken, as he sits in his chair, I take off his helm, running fingers thru his hair.. M'lord reaches out, wraps his arms round my hips, I slowly kneel down, beginning to kiss his warm lips.. Tongues dancing slow, our breath coming quick, I slowly pull back, on his neck I begin to lick.. Moving up slow, I nibble on his ear, I whisper to him softly, what he wants to hear..As the tent is lit up, from outside the glowing fire, I tell him I want him, with a burning desire.. With one gauntlet tangled, in my long flowing hair, I continue to whisper, tell

Wicked Tongue
Lick me on down baby, suck on my hardened nips..Roll your tongue all around them, flick it out across their tips..Move your tongue on down lower, work your way to the fire below..Taste the sweet sweat upon my body, slide it on down nice and slow..Roll it across my stomach real soft, you make me shiver in delight..Work it baby in your magical way, make me cry your name into the night..Roll it on down even lower, feel it on inside my thighs.. Bring it on up to my hot sweet muff, watch my passion really rise..Flick it on over to my magic button, feel your hands upon my hips.. Lick me all around oh so slow, while I writhe against your lips..Taste my sweet nectar as I arch my back, call your name as I start to come.. How I love when you bathe my body, with your oh so wicked tongue...

Dreams
Wind blowing across the hills so green, In my dreams, I am with my love, a soft wind blows across me as I stand upon the hills.. I walk thru the gardens of many flowers, stopping to admire the rich colors that are ablaze with the setting sun. Walking up into the castle, I feel the coolness of the stone floor beneath my bare feet as I walk through the home that I so love. Seeing my love at the top of the stairs, he takes my hand as he leads me to our large bed, while many candles light up the evening dusk that falls down upon us.. Much passion envelops us as we wrap ourselves tightly against each other, and i feel the warmth of his chest as i lay my head down upon it. My heart and soul is filled with much desire as I breathe in the scent of him..Always will I long for him, Always will I dream of the highlands, Always will I love him...

Celtic Knight
Everytime I close my eyes visions of us come to me so clear, Even when we are apart m'love, I always feel you near. Upon your horse I have seen you sit, his breath blowing in the crisp morning air, In your eyes I've seen your love, evident in your intense stare. I've seen you on a battlefield, I've seen the celtic knight deep inside you, I've also felt and touched the gentle side, that no one has ever knew. I've inhaled the scent of your armor, fresh with the outside air, I've kissed your lips by candlelight, Ran my hands through your long braided hair. I've held my body against yours so tight, while the sea crashed against the shore, I've whispered into your ear of my love, pledging all of me forevermore. I've held your hand against my heart and have brought it to my lips, I've looked deep within your intense eyes, while I've kissed your fingertips. Hold me tight, My Celtic knight, and never let me go, For my love will always be for you, This I want you to know...

Storm
I'm thinking many thoughts of you, my love tonyte, Imagining my body wrapped around yours so tight.. Rain pouring down as lightning flashes across the sky, It's a passionate night love, for you and I.. Candles all aglow setting a mood just right, Come into my warm embrace, let me love you throughout this night..Let us undress each other slowly, never taking eyes off one another, Give into our sweet desires, as the rain pours down pure passion between each other..Sound of thunder rumbles outside as my heart begins to race, Lightning and candles illuminate our bodies, as we hungrily kiss and embrace..Laying down together upon the soft bed, so much desire in my heart, I look deep in your eyes and tell you my love, how much i miss you when we're apart..While the wind and rain blow all around, against the windows ever so strong, I wrap myself around you tightly my love, for to you I want to belong..As the storm rages on your body covers mine, and we caress each others hot skin, I nibble on

Dimention 27 Chaper 1-7 Preview .... Submit Your Pics To Have A Character Based On Your Image!
"Dimention 27" Chapter one a lot to do with advertising Lock Downly the third was the last in a long line of space captains. His great grandfather the first Lock downly was known as the brilliant invention of the dimention jumper. The same inventor was now known as Lock Downly senior. After whom Captain lock downly the first took over, followed by Lock Downly the seccond, Who was replaced by Captain Lock downly squared. a clone of captain lock downly the seccond. and it was almost time for captain lock downly the third to walk in his fathers, granfathers, great grandfathers, and a clones, foot steps and Become a space captain and an inventor. incidentally it is this captain lock downly (the third one)to whom, who, whoms?... its the guy whos we follow in this adventure..... not his cryogenicaly frozen great grandfather, grandfather, his granduncle the clone, or his father, whom although not frozen for tax reasons or to preserve death along with the first the lock downly's I ass

Osama Bin Laden
Let's be clear on this: OBAMA did NOT kill Bin Laden. An American soldier, who Obama just a few weeks ago was debating on whether or not to PAY, did. Obama just happened to be the one in office when our soldiers finally found OBL & took him out. This is NOT an Obama victory, but an AMERICAN victory!!

Karma -
Force them to see Im told with a reputition from years before Why cant they know?ill fight this with nailIs this not our nature?My choice is seen and I have lost with no chance for venganceWhy have we chosen to close this space once again Ill show you my cell with its rotting decor Or will I?the walls are still grandI know where my fate liesIts always with me screaming though Ive chosen to not hearFor that ill pay more than was worth,Why wasnt I taught of this?Why must I learn through painHumilityWas I lost when this knowledge was passed ?To learn this way is a true mark of a being of which was layed in my lap ofIgnoranceFor hell you haveto take with you and seethe only thing removed no more matter to hold it insideNo more Fill the glass and then the room It will never be held back Tho whos accountable?you always werethat voice is that of pure balanceI know when its here It speaks so loudTo let me know of unjust and forsaken triumphI know what ill take with me as I know to not enjoyAs

Stubbed?
Dear Miss Ninja,I don't mean to sound superficial, and please don't make fun of me because this is a serious problem. I met a guy online and I was very very cautious about getting serious with him. I let the relationship grow slowly, I spoke with him first in chat, then eventually by phone. I saw him on cam and he shared photos with me. After a year of chatting almost every day we met finally three days ago. He walked down from the gate at the airport and I was so relieved to see he really was the tall dark and handsome man I expected him to be. The attraction was immediate, and we both felt instantly comfortable with each other. On the way home we stopped at a cafe for a glass of wine and a light dinner. That is when things went bad. He raised his glass for a toast, and wrapped around the stem of the glass was the tiniest, fattest little pinkie finger I have ever seen. It's been three days he has been here with me and I can't stop thinking about it and glancing d

A Vision
What mine eyes has seen is thus, A smile so fine and truly beautiful tis truly glorious. The beating of my heart it overwhelms, I can chance think of another, Then you turn and walk away, Sadly, never to discover my heart.

Why???
Why am I more comfortable with the "unreal"? Why does it make me happy to know the "dead" surround me? Why does it please me when my loved ones see "them" too? Why? To know the sane see what the "insane" see as well? I am happy, tonight! Perhaps, I am not quite so insane..... *smiles* PEACE and LOVE be with you all!!!!

A Slate Wiped Clean
A SLATE WIPED CLEAN The effect of the ripples through time an overload of pressure crushing the mind. Of all the dreams once held so very dear knowing there so far away yet are so near. Left to reflect on what to expect being alone now, surviving somehow. For when all came into view to realize long was I surrounded by the repeated lies. Lost in confusion past and present dead uncertain of the future that’s yet to be read’ Left to wonder if the rumble of thunder will cease to exist or painfully persist. Despite all that has transpired for I swore won’t lose sight to the depth of my inner core. And never is there to be acceptance of any defeat but a call to arms having hope of the one I seek. A challenge to address after sins confessed not causing a scene but treated as a queen. So it is of the essence to find and to approve upon my body quivering as mountains moved. For a quest now laid to rest a future now seen the heart has

He Cried
He Cried From a distance he watched. A world created by his father.Such beauty he had bestowed there. Sensual fragrances speaking of truth. Images of green indicating much life. And the glistening of stars holding hope.Looking beyond the essence of all beings.There a young man striking his mom.An addiction for lustful things and theSorrow of drugs... created by hands of man.For he needed her money to support his love.Forgetting... from her womb she kept him safe. And there into the nights thunder an explosion sounds.Her son watches the spirit of his best friend end in flight.As the war against life continues to reap what it sows. Murder of thousands for the power and wealth to be.He cried, for he knows there still are othersWho will never accept and be set eternally free. Watching the rapes and sins of men and women. All for the moments whim, a life implanted by human seed.Yet now unfeeling as futures end before ever to begin.He cried indeed for so many of our countries are dyingIf

Blood Lust.
Beneath the moon light, she looked into his vampire eyes full of hunger and lust. His hands caressing her body bringing her more and more to a full power of lust. His fangs nipped and nibbled at her skin, drawing small amounts of blood, as his hands stroked her aching pussy. The soft moans of pleasure escaped her lips from his touch, bringing her to her knees before him. She sensually starts to take his cock into her mouth, licking and slowly savoiring the taste of his immortal flesh. Her eyes looking up at his as she indulged on his length. Dropping to his own knees, he captured her in a fierce hungry kiss, and started to tease her clit once again. He layed her back to the ground looking at her full nude body. Licking away the trails of blood on her chest, he dips his head between her thighs, licking and devouring her fully. She cried out in pure ecstasy as his tongue teased and her treasure, while slipping two fingers into her wetness. He stopped for a moment to gaze upon her face

Shine
Could be a season's best. Could be a perfect day of rest. Or could rot away in the midday sun. Make a joyous noise or the wail that sets the tale of the horrors just begun. Darkness shines too. Parent to the light. Storms. And mannered chaos. Fueled by nightmarish constants in a greenlit sky.

Celebrate May 5 !
This was received by my sister, "from a friend", in May of 2011. I have edited it for effect. Tomorrow is May fifth. Most Americans, through news media, will think it is ONLY Cinco de Mayo. On five May 1961, LCDR Alan B Shepard was the first American to go into space. I know this as I was a crew member on the aircraft carrier USS Lake Champlain (CVS-39) which was the recovery ship. All I did was to stand on the flight deck and watch his descent by parachute to a landing about two miles from ship. I watched as Marine helos picked him and capsule and deliver them to ship. This was one of the greatest moments in my life. Alan B Shepard is also only one of twelve persons that have walked on the moon. Dad Jim JJ Red

Feeling A Little Out Of It
hello Fubar friends and family Hmmmm a little bit about me lets see... friends tell me i am a great and sexy friend. i try to be i guess i love my friends and family but sometimes i dont feel apprieciated. i guess thats why i am on my computer alot i live in a fantasy world so i dont get hurt or i try to not get hurrt but it dont always seem to work that way. I do know one thing if i could i quit my job and become a phone sex operator or maybe on the video cam we shall see. right now i just want to loose some weight and feel better about myself.

The Dark Tormentor Awakes
A lone figure walks down the service tunnel in the subway. He is carrying a vial. His footfalls not disturbing the dust as he travels. Muttering to himself, as he walks. Reaching the spot that looks perfectly like and other spot along the long access corridor. Alderic bites his hand and in his own blood traces an arch in the wall of the tunnel. The arch becomes a large boulder. Taking the vial of blood, her blood. He puts it to his lips and kisses it. Standing there a moment in silence, he then pours the contents into a fissure in the rock. With that done he walks away into he darkness and is gone. I feel the warmth of her blood dripping to my heart of stone, softening it, My lady summons me. Waking from my slumber, My ancient wings wings creak and slowly life returns to my limbs. As the warm viscous fluid reached my extremities, my claws tighten and loosen. My talons stomp, cracking the concrete under me. I let out a cry of rebirth, that is older than the hills. It echoes in the tunn

S.o.s
Inside me Im screaming,but nobody pays attention. I f I had arms,I could kill myslef. If I had legs,I could run away. If I had a voice,I could talk and be some kind of company for myself. I could yell for help,but nobody would help me. Normally I dont do Metallica,but this was too good not to put down.

Pet Behavior Issue !
Near the end of last week, our family pet , Tux (american short hair cat) was out in the breezeway (the area between the garage and main house) as my mother was telling him to get inside , so she could shut the door as the heat was still on . For no apparent reason that i know of he started hissing and growling at her, which at the time was rather amusing because he never hisses or growles. We left him out there for a while to cool off, and he ended up coming in on his own like a half hour later. Guess he got pissed off for some reason. Then yesterday, the same thing happend, but this time when she tried to touch him, he swated at her. Catching her on the top of her hand pretty good. Which resulted in the same thing, being left out there for a while to cool off, but me being me wasnt having that. Have to show the little piss ant this kind of behavior isnt acceptable , so i went and got a water squirt bottle. When he hissed at me, that was it. I havent done anything to deserve bei

Let's Get Ready To Rumble.......
This will be the first of many blogs i'm sure as I have many exciting nights at the job. For those of you that don't know I am an assistant manager at a Movie Theater. Working in the customer service industry has its ups and downs more downs than ups and sometimes its just so out there I want to share when something good happens :) Tuesday May 3, 2011: I was finishing up in the back filing paper work and such we had just locked the doors because the last movie had just started oh around 11pm. Around 11:45pm the other manager and I hear alot of commotion at our guest services desk. We proceed to see what was going on and now wish we hadn't lol. Normally around this time the lobby is pretty empty with it being close to the end of the night and the last hard go movie watchers in their movies at god awful times js...but this time the lobby was almost packed with people. A lady yelled out "Yall got a fight in the theater" *FACE PALMS* not only was it almost the end of the night but we got

The Enemy
The enemy called love is shapeless, faceless, and it envelops us all in a cloud of jealousy, ignorance, stupidity and outright madness. Most of us take it for granted and are too afraid to face the reality of accepting true love when it looks us dead in the eye. Most people run and hide because they are too afraid of true love, or they blame the world around them, or their own problems, or whatever pathetic excuses they use to mask their ego and their own self hatred. If you love someone, why run away and hide? I always thought true love was not being able to live without someone, yet why do people say they need time, space, closure, whatever? Maybe I am way too cynical, but I do know this. Eventually TRUE love will find me. And that true love will not run away and hide when the chips are down, love will not cheat on me with people I am close with, love will not blame everyone else for how fucked their reality is. When love finds me, even though it has beaten the shit out of me, I will

Lonely Dreamer
I close my eyes, and instantly as if a dream, i feel a warm hand on my hip... tracing its way across the curve of my hip, feeling the hollow with roughened finger tips. Excitement electrifies my skin ... baby soft i feel the heat warming me instantly .... im ablaze with excitement and a longing for more. Slowly the caress continues down my theigh turning at me knee to the front of my theigh, fingertips trailing along my inner theigh brushing softly and slowly building the heat inside me to boiling tempuratures... my legs tremble, my belly churns with anticipation and desire... my heart is pounding, threatening to escape my chest... Afraid to open my eyes, spoiling what is starting out to be an amazing dream... i simply lay back ...and enjoy the sensation of being stoked like a fire, gently and slowly built with tiny touches of heat in just the right places to soon ignite into a slow burning blaze ... one that i keep hidden from the world, it lies just beneath the surface always threa

Are You Listening?
Noone is going to read this anyway, since it's like pulling teeth to freaking get people to read my about me, but i figured i'd put it up just in case there are those people out there who like to read. I'm not a total bitch. I try not to be anyway. I don't put everyone in the same mold. But there is only so much I can look beyond the same behaviors before I finally just chalk most of the men on here up to being pretty much the same. All I ask for is that when you first talk to me, do NOT set in with the sex talk. ESPECIALLY if you're fugly, and you know if you're fugly, so don't deny it. Yep, my tits are huge. And Yes, I take some pretty damned awesome pictures. I wouldn't post them if I looks hideous in them. Who would? No, I'm not going to cam with you the first time I talk with you. You'll be hella lucky if I ever do. Cause guess what? I don't look like my pictures all the time, and I want you to keep the delusion that I'm HOT. That and the overwhelmingly vast number of you ma

Winner #6
My status: DUDE, I'M SICK OF ASININE COMMENTS IN MY SB. I don't care about your penis or what you think about my ass or breasts etc... KEEP IT TO YOURSELF! Apparently this guy can't take a hint http://www.fubar.com/862880 snoborda: u have amazing tits To snoborda: seriously? are you a complete prick? snoborda: i never said i'd ever show u my penis bitch so get over it 5:28pm reply snoborda: just cuz u have big floppy tits they dont make up for ur haggard face 5:53pm more To snoborda: now you're grasping at straws. enjoy being ugly

Taxed To Death
This is a sound off story in my local newspaper Congratulations. Between Governor Quinn taking an additional $200 a month with his 66 percent tax hike and governments continually raising my property taxes as the value of my property has diminished by 25 percent, I give up. You have finally forced me to look to another state to live and away from my family and friends to try and make a living. I suppose I should be grateful to you for finally bringing down the taxable fair market value of my home for the first time since I’ve lived here (although you are still $34,000 over what my recently appraised house is worth. I guess it was foolish on my part to expect a decrease in my taxes, but lo and behold, you simply raised my tax multiplier so I am actually paying more than last year). Like many others, I was unemployed for 11 months. I am once again gainfully employed and trying to dig myself out of the hole caused by, among many other things beyond my control, bureaucrats who a

Selfish People Make Me Sick
Ok my fubar friends, here is something for you to chomp on, Here is it Mothers day, Everyone is celebrating their mothers today, and Me being a mother myself, am happy I get to spend time with my kids. However, this is where this passage gets interesting, I live 300 miles away from my children and dont get to see them much anymore, they prefer to be with their friends and go to school in a familar place, So this weekend, BEING MOTHERS DAY, I thought it would be nice to take a trip on the bus to see my kids, Not even before I hit town, people are calling me making plans for me to spend the whole day with them and I can spend time with my kids when we were done. So I called this morning and said I wasn't going riding with them because my kids are the reason I am in town. These people try to make me feel guilty for not dropping what I want to do for them. When I dont see them riding their happy harley riding asses to where I live? Sounds a little one sided to me..So I say, That if they

Mothers
Today is a day of celebrating. But also a day of mourning. There are mothers who have lost there children from war, drugs,,addictions,,murder,drive bys. There are mothers who cant hold there children today due to the fact that the fathers will not let them see them. Living in diffrent states and mor. My heart goes out to you and and my live goes to you. I know what your going thu as I cant see my kids today. The bond of that love is undesribeable and I want to say..I honoror you for your courage and fight th get thru everyday. In life we all go thru challenges. Mothers and fathers both as parents face the hardest ones when it deals with our children. To provide shelter, chlothing, food etc for them also. When the kids are sick we are the ones who nurse them to health. We have to make certain choices in life~ some good~ some bad. When they include our children its even harder..hurts even more. Ans some mothers and fathers wake up without there kids there. Its not the best feeling at a

Another Quick Joke
A young woman goes to her doctor's office, afraid of the strange developm ent on the inside of her thighs . . . a green spot on the inside of each. "They won't wash off, they won't scrape off and they seem to be getting worse." The doctor assures her he'll get to the bottom of the problem, and tells her not to worry until the tests come back. A few days later, the woman's phone rings.Much to her relief, it's the doctor. She immediately begs to know what's causing the spots. The doctor says, "You're perfectly healthy - - there's no problem. But I'm wondering, is your boyfriend a Harley guy?" The woman stammers, "Why, yes, but how did you know?" "Tell him his earrings aren't real gold."

At A Time
im at a time in my life where i am begining to see what has gone wrong and what has been a blessing in my life i have 2 beautiful little girs and would do anything for them although my relationship with my ex wife is nonexzistant i am blessed to have had her in my life and see the best thing that came out of that marrige is my eldest daughter izzibella she is 3 then there is a breef relationship with the mother of my youngest daugher shianne and it was a learning experience to say the least now i feel i am ready to start seeing other people again but not going to rush into anything because it hasnt worked out in the past if i befriend a woman the first thing they think is i want in their pants witch is not the case i want a woman who isnt about games and bullshit one i can laugh with talk to and most important grow with i need someone who is willing to accept me for who i am todays socitey is messed up when it comes to how we are protrade as egotistical peopleyou know there are som

Perfect Love
Truth and honesty is what I seek, in order for our relationship to reach the peek, of pure exploding extacy that is share between just you and me and to build a love that will last for eternity.The bond of trust sould not ever be broke and can never be fixed without any words being spoken.Not Lettin go of the hurt and pain, whether past or present , can only make the falling of our love destint. So let God shine his amazing light and sit back and watch how high this love takes flight.

Just How Im Feeling
IT IS SAD WE GET TOLD I LOVE YOU AND YOUR MY WORLD AND DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU NO MATTER WHAT WE HAVE TO WORK THREW. AND THEN ONE DAY YOU COME HOME FROM WORK JUST TO BASICALY GET TOLD TO FUCK OFF NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY TO TALK THE PROBLEMS OUT WITH THE PERSON. THEN SHORTLY AFTER SHE WALKS OUT ON YA SHE IS SUPPOSELY IN LOVE WIHT SOMEONE ELSE BUT I AM TO BELIVE SHE WAS NOT TALKING TO HIM BEFORE SHE LEFT OR WHILE WE WAS TOGETHER.. IF IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND I WOULD BE THE BAD PERSON IN ALL OF THIS FOR WALKING AWAY OVER SOME MESSAGE TO SOMEONE ELSE THAT HAPPENED BEFORE WE WAS BACK TOGETHER AND TWO SIMPLE WORDS THAT WAS NOT TYPED A CERTAIN WAY. BUT THEN AGAIN EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT AND IM THE CAUSE AND REASON THAT SHE IS THE WAY SHE IS... IT IS FUCKING FUNNY HOW SHE EVEN SAID SHE COULD NEVER BE WITH ANOTHER GUY AND BE TRUELY HAPPY LIKE SHE IS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER.. AND SHE WOULD BITCH ABOUT THE LIL BITCHES THAT PLAY GAMES WITH MENS HEARTS AND EVEN BITCH ABOUT A GAL THAT PLAYES WIHT

Black Death (horror/suspense)
major good movie i watched the trailer for it and was like blah ill just have it on in the background as i clean boy was i wrong i couldnt look away one bit majorly good edge of your seat! type of movie thumbs up jajaj im not gonna tell u what its about cause ill spoil it haha im wayy too detailed lol

Laid Off
OK. I havent posted a thing in here for a little while. 2 yrs ago I was let go by a company. It was a bullshit deal and they found out they were wrong and that even though I had a case, I didnt sue them. They asked me to come back and fix the problems that the people who lied to them and got me fired created. I tried to save the company, but there was way too much embezzlement and fraud to fix. So, today, they laid me off. Its not so bad. The owners are going back to a company that we all worked at a while back. I was part of the package without knowing it. But, its hard to go from VP and GM to regular joe .... and its going to hurt .... maybe ... The other hard part is that I still have to interview .. for another company I quit twice .... Damn .. I can be an idiot sometimes ... OK .. time to drink

I Would Remind You There's Still A Minor Skirmish Here In The Pacific
Besides being Mother’s Day yesterday (and if you didn’t remember, shame on you), the eighth of May is also the anniversary of the generally acknowledged end of the Second World War in Europe, known in shorthand as Victory in Europe Day or V-E Day. True, the global conflict we call World War II didn’t end with the surrender of Germany or the death of Adolf Hitler (which occurred May 1, 1945, exactly a week before and on the anniversary of Osama bin Laden’s death sixty-six years later); there was still Japan fighting in the “minor skirmish” a character from the novel/play/movie “Mister Roberts” cites, the Chinese by and large fighting each other, and one history I’ve read makes the case that World War II did not end until Vietnam was reunified in 1975. Hm. Or as Watchmen’s Rorschach would say, “Hurm.” And you thought Winston Churchill’s characterization of World War One through World War Two (1914-1945) as

Casualties
It was a quiet Sunday morning. The noise of the night and the suffering screams of the dying, had vanished with the rising sun. The city seemed peaceful. The sobs of the survivors and the occasional self inflicted gunshot wound are the only noises that permeate in the rising sun. Here and there people start to move about. Burning the dead, and running from the zombies that wander the streets. Alone in her third floor apartment, Amber Dawn, looks out through a crack in the blinds. Her hands bitten with arthritis slowly and dully stroke her closest friend and confidante Henry. Henry was the only person that always seemed to know when she was lonely or scared. Now proudly in his 11th year of life, Henry was fat and happy to let her dully pet him. It had been almost a year since the bridges were blown, and the world went to hell in a handbag. For Henry nothing in his world had changed. His Momma, who cared for him all these years still fed him. When she would forget, he would simply catch

The Virtuous Woman: From Proverbs 31
The Virtuous Wife 10 Who[b] can find a virtuous[c] wife? For her worth is far above rubies. 11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain. 12 She does him good and not evil All the days of her life. 13 She seeks wool and flax, And willingly works with her hands. 14 She is like the merchant ships, She brings her food from afar. 15 She also rises while it is yet night, And provides food for her household, And a portion for her maidservants. 16 She considers a field and buys it; From her profits she plants a vineyard. 17 She girds herself with strength, And strengthens her arms. 18 She perceives that her merchandise is good, And her lamp does not go out by night. 19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff, And her hand holds the spindle. 20 She extends her hand to the poor, Yes, she reaches out her hands t

How Do You Rate In Bed????
CAPRICORN-BY FAR THE BEST IN BED! Once you have opened this blog, there is no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist perdictions. Read your sign, then repost this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label. If u dont repost this u will have bad luck for as long as its says in the description! LEO- WILD IN BED! Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at alot. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal. Addictive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found! 7 years bad luck if u do not repost. TAURUS- THE FREAK IN BED! Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as... u...no...Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser, very funny. Awesome personality, St

Not Perfect
I'm not perfectI make mistakesI have regretsAnd I tend to forget dates I've lost my temperAnd I've let it showSome times I hold grudgesWhen I should let it goI'm very sarcasticAnd some days I don't careI've hurt many peopleAnd the punishment I bearSome days I can be meanBut some days I'm niceSome times I say thingsWithout thinking twiceI always hate morningsAnd some times I ramble onSome days I need my friendsAnd some days I'm withdrawnSome days I don't eatAnd some days I stuff my faceMost days I'm cool and collectedBut some days I'm all over the placeI can be indecisiveBut still need a planSome times I depend on others

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
A woman, who claims she was deceived in an online relationship spanning 18 months, is suing a Batavia woman for fraudulent misrepresentation, seeking $100,000 in punitive damages.Paula Bonhomme, of California, said she believed she fell in love with a man online in 2005, and she was befriended by a collection of 21 of his friends and family online, even being comforted by them when he “died” of liver cancer in 2006. But Bonhomme, 50, never met Jesse Jubilee James in person, though she talked to him on the phone, sent him gifts valued at $10,000, planned to move in with him and then mourned his “death.”Bonhomme was introduced to her online love – said to be a Colorado firefighter – and his online entourage, through Janna St. James-Priggie, 58, who lives on the 800 block of Washington Street in Batavia. Bonhomme’s suit claims that St. James posed as Jesse James and his extended family and friends in an elaborate online bamboozle that ultimately d

Just Some Thank You's. And A Rant I Guess
There is really a lot I have to say about this site, but first I really have to thank baby j and Scrapper for keeping this place possible (even though at times i don't agree they do the best job, but i'll cover that in my rant later) & allowing me to meet the man that I fell in love with, my amazing fu-hubby and RL bf, Jacob. MANY of you who know me, know Jacob and i have been together for a while, but haven't gotten to meet in person yet. He is stationed in Japan and had to stay over there longer because of the (stupid) Tsunami. HE IS COMING HOME IN LESS THAN A MONTH! We are both super excited about this. A lot of you who are my friends on here have seen the SS or heard about our problems, and I thank you guys for standing by me (and us). I know I have not been the easiest person to deal with during this time. I have gotten super emo and whiney, sometimes not talking to people for hours or days at a time. && I think it's about time.. I want to thank some of those closest to me perso

The Ride
Sitting in the passenger seat, trying to get comfortable... dropped my shoes on the floor, and rest my feet on the dash....its still a lil chilly with the windows down, so i rub my legs a lil to keep them warm with the breeze from the open window... its warm out, but not really warm... my legs are smooth as silk ... and as i rub i can smell my sunflower scented lotion floating on the air...warm fingers join mine as i rub my legs, a big warm hand envelopes my theigh slowly glides up and down rotating around my knee and fingers dipping into that sensitive spot behind my knee... my left hand wanders to his theigh, being careful while he drives not to push too hard, i massage his theigh from his knee up to his hip ... rotating my hand to his inner theigh and traced his balls and hard cock with the tip of my pinky through his jean shorts.... i unbuckle my seatbelt and lay down so my head rests on his side, sliding a hand up his inner thiegh to find what ive been wanting so much... ;) he doe

Im October 27th, Whats Yours????
.Im October 27th, Whats Yours????Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac. After Libra's intellectual exploration of other people, Scorpio's interest is in discovering other people's emotions and how they respond to the world around them. Scorpio is the Sign of Sex and Death, the beginning and ending of things, and they explore these ideas from an emotional standpoint. People born under this Sign are investigative and probing, often strongly intuitive and penetrating. As the eighth Sign, Scorpio also rules the eighth House: the House of Sex. The Astrological Symbol of Scorpio is the Scorpion. Like the mythical Scorpion, people born under this Sign tend to be strong-willed and wary of being controlled by others. At times they can be self-destructive, like the Scorpion who kills itself rather than letting someone else kill it. They are very determined, and once they've made up their minds they are unlikely to change them. They tend to be stubborn, refusing to give up when o

Illegal Immigration Is No Laughing Matter
The White House correspondents' dinner might have been two weeks ago, but President Barack Obama continued his comedy routine yesterday in El Paso, Texas, only this time Donald Trump wasn’t the butt of the jokes. Instead, during a speech on immigration, the president mocked Republicans at large, the rule of law, and any American who takes the defense of our nation seriously.Respectfully, Mr. President, illegal immigration and border security are no laughing matter.But to the president, they apparently are, especially when it provides fodder for a purely political speech, delivered amid a round of campaign fundraisers in the Lone Star State. After claiming that his administration has "gone above and beyond" Republicans' calls for immigration reform (which he hasn't), Obama launched into an all-out assault on the GOP: We have gone above and beyond what was requested by the very Republicans who said they supported broader reform as long as we got serious about enforcement. All the

Sitting Here Thinking
I SIT HERE LOOKING BACK ON THE PAST AND THE PROMISES MADE TO ME AND I MADE MYSELF.... I SIT HERE THINKING OF YOU NIGHT AND DAY WISHING I COULD HEAR YOUR LOVELY VOICE AGAIN.... YOU SAY YOU WANT A MAN THAT WONT WALK AWAY BUT YET YOU CANT SEE THAT THERE IS A MAN STANDING HERE THAT HAS NOT WALKED AWAY AND NOT GIVEN UP..... TRUE LOVE AND TRUE BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE NEVER GOES AWAY NOR CAN IT BE SHUT OFF LIKE A LIGHT SWITCH... I SIT HERE THINKING OF THE WORDS THAT HAD BEEN SAID ON BOTH ENDS AND THEY WERE PRETTY HURTFUL... BUT MY HEART WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW I FEEL FOR YOU... I SIT HERE THINKING AND ASKING MYSELF DOES SHE EVEN THINK OF ME ANYMORE DOES SHE EVEN MISS ME AN DBEING IN MY ARMS... I SIT HERE THINKING HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS HOLDING YOU IN MY ARMS AND FEELING YOUR TOUCH WHEN I GET DOWN AND DEPRESSED... JUST SITTING HERE THINKING TO MYSELF WILL SHE ACTLY READ THIS NOW THAT IM DONE WRITING THIS OR WILL SHE EVEN CALL ME ON THE PHONE... YOU DONT RELIZE THE TORMENT I P

Smoke Rings In The Dark
SMOKE RINGS IN THE DARK Well I won't make you tell me What I've come to understand You're a certain kind of woman I'm a different kind of man I've tried to make you love me You've tried to find a spark of the flame that burned But somehow turned to smoke rings in the dark The loneliness within me Takes a heavy toll 'Cause it burns as slow as whiskey through an empty aching soul And the night is like a dagger Long and cold and sharp As I sit here on the front steps Blowing smoke rings in the dark I know I must be going 'Cause love's already gone And all I'm taking with me are the pieces of my heart And all I'll leave are smoke rings in the dark The rain falls where it wants to The wind blows where it will Everything on earth goes somewhere But I swear we're standin' still So I'm not going to wake you I'll go easy on your heart I'll just touch your face and drift away Like smoke rings in the dark I know I must be going 'Cause love's already gone And all I'm taking with me are the pi

The Wise Woman's Stone
The Wise Woman's Stone The Wise Woman's Stone A wise woman who was traveling in the mountains found a precious stone in a stream. The next day she met another traveler who was hungry, and the wise woman opened her bag to share her food. The hungry traveler saw the precious stone and asked the woman to give it to him. She did so without hesitation. The traveler left rejoicing in his good fortune. He knew the stone was worth enough to give him security for a lifetime. But, a few days later, he came back to return the stone to the wise woman. "I've been thinking", he said. "I know how valuable this stone is, but I give it back in the hope that you can give me something even more precious. Give me what you have within you that enabled you to give me this stone." I thought of you when I read this for you are more precious than the stone in the way you touch peoples lives!! Smiles Ray Sent to me by my friend Dancer...THANK YOU

I Think I Shall Write A Fucking Blog On Fucking Fubar.
Ok, first to start off: If you have a fucking problem with what I'm going to say, fuck yourself. I don't wanna hear it, this is my life and since none of you assholes even know me, you can keep your meaningless opinions to yourselves. Unless, of course, it's something good that i WANT to hear. Contuining on... I apologize in advanced if any of you 32+ year old freaks read this and are somehow offended, but deal with it. Have I really come to the point where I'm writing a fucking blog on Fubar? Guess so. ANYWAY. My life has come to somewhat of a cross-roads. I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past couple of days and have completely turned my back on everything that I thought I should do to eventually become the successful person that I thought I'd always be. I've enrolled in Empire Beauty schools in Boston, which is a fucking far cry from being a clinical psychiatrist like I've always wanted. I'm desperately trying to come to terms with the fact that my father is

Porn Viewer
I copied this from NBC news. The U.S. has found so much pornography in the possession of al-Qaida operatives during previous raids that it spurred investigations into whether porn photos were being used to send coded messages, a former U.S. counterterrorism official told NBC News. At one point, U.S. officials had pursued a probe into whether al-Qaida was using special software that would allow the email transmission of porn photos implanted with hidden messages that could be deciphered by recipients with the right code. "We thought this was the way that messages were being transmitted," said the official.At one point, U.S. officials had pursued a probe into whether al-Qaida was using special software that would allow the email transmission of porn photos implanted with hidden messages that could be deciphered by recipients with the right code. "We thought this was the way that messages were being transmitted," said the official. My words-----someone had to "decipher" the porn

Is That You???
IS THAT YOU? Is that you I see in the distanceIs that you I hear when needing adviceIs that you coming into my dreamsIs that you holding my aching heart I see shadows of places you've not beenI hear echos of your voice unspokenI visit memories of moments we've not hadI feel marks you've left on my untouched heart Is that you I see behind meIs that you I hear asking adviceIs that you I visit in my dreamsIs that you I touch of aching heart I cast shadows of places we will goI speak ehcos of words we will knowI share memories of times we'll haveI place marks on your untouched heart Is that you beside meIs that you that I hearIs that you in my armsIs that you in my heart MELANIE

Guys Night ....
some times it's just a needed thing that fraternity be a part of a guys life... I live in a world surrounded by girls and it's a difficult thing for me to admit but I need that guy bonding... it's a necissary evil that once in a while you go out and forget all the drama that is associated with the chase and capture of the heart in society... in favor of a gaining a better understanding of male solidarity and let's face it guys it's us against them in almost every aspect of life.. and we loose on most every front ... eccept guys night ... \ I have to say it... guys nights just plain rule

Jyf Family
I have to say I am blown back by how big our family group has grown in the past week, all I ask is that everyone holds true to the family rules and follow the bolg as well as daily rates, drinks and gifts, so far I have seen that ev1 has been following the family rules, keeep it up. As for now we are not looking for anymore members but, if you know someone that you think would be good for the family let me or Vixen know and we will discuss it further, with that person. DevilDog JY Owner JYF FNDR JYF Family

Poem I Wrote A Few Months Ago
i cant explain this feeling inside me everytime i hear your voice apart of me just dies i said id never fall easy yet here i stand fucked over yeah, that covers it. you say you love me where the fuck is the proof ? you say you want me to be your wife but all i see is a wall a wall that i feel like cant be broken missing how it used to be then you whisper you still love me what the fuck is that supposed to mean to me ? does it mean anything anymore ? proof...where is my proof... ? walking away is what i really want to do your making me fall in love your making me make a mistake guess i was right all along it turned out exactly as you planned me heart broken you feeling like i was just someone to fuck. congrats, you won. GAME OVER.

Why Am I Leaving Fubar
The Reason Why i am deciding to leave Fubar for forever is people treat me like shit and the site i remember it as 4 and a half years ago called Lost Cherry Has gone but back then people were fun to have around but fubar has now become unfun and treating me like noone gives a fuck about my feelings on here i admit i have got good friends on here but most of them aren't on here that much anymore and people who i thought were my friends have changed and now they treat me like a ex friend they wish would just die and leave them the fuck alone forever things i dislike on fubar are having 2 my bar tabs the so called video chat the stupid fubar lotto and this totally stupid idea of a daily fubar ranking noone gives a shit abouttheir ranking on here oh and the my stats thing noone cares about that either but on the other hand fubar has it's good points but right now so much of the ugly side of fubar is making my mind up to leave forever so therefore i have decided to mark my 5 years on fubar

How?
How do u get over someone when u been with them for a long time? How do u watch movies that remind u of the old days with them? How do u sleep alone? How do u forget all the lil things? how do u forget the good and bad times u had with them? How? :'(

My Youngest Son
my 18 year old son leaves for Afganastan May 27th 2011. He will be gone for a year Please keep my son and my family in your prayers than he returns home safe.. and all the soldiers are renuite with there families soon

Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatings And Likes! And False Popularity
I think we need to clear something up people. I like to play the fu-game as much as anyone but I draw the line at asking random people I dont know, asking them on their page, to do stuff for me ,add/rate/like/ bling/ whatever! If I am not light blue or green because I am not that popular, i can live with that (quite frankly I like the peace and quiet). Keep your begging crap and expectations off my page. While we're on that note, how popular are you really if you have to ask anyone for anything other than drinks on this site? The fact is if you beggars didnt beg, people like me who prefer to earn their fubucks might actually be genuinely popular. It feels a lot better to earn everything i get than to sell myself whether it be my body , or my dignity for popularity on a website. Yeah, that makes me better than you, get over it! So heres the deal, keep your begging crap off my page and keep your expectations off my page. I dont go to your page asking for crap i dont deserve I expect y

Invictus.....
Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever Gods may be, For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of Circumstance, I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeoning’s of Chance, My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears, Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years, Finds, and shall find me, unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley 1875

3 Stages Of Pain (in Poem Form)
Polestar EclipseStage One "White Noise"Sudden intense betrayal constitutes unfortunateInability to see the flame come apartBurning on the other side of the heartIt is so bleak & so terribly darkStirring life inside a deciduous parkSelect emotions try to cease flowingDangerous feelings if no light is showingThey battle in static, stubborn & slowingFaith is unhinging, experienced & knowingLeaving behind a shock, rippling & numbingBarriers shift as new things are comingNumb is peaceful, although away peace is runningMolten rock pain rising from depths, quite stunningStage Two "Unhinged"What a site to see; monkeys going crazyConfusingly lying to themselves & can't seeFrightening creatures lacking consistancyKnow what they want, then change their mindsAllowing assumptions in between linesContributing idiocy unto their peersBuilding useless walls around all their fearsDisgraceful these morons w/ their hateful tearsSuch disappointment to be in the gene poolAdding pain to more pain right along

Sometimes I Feel As If I'm Insane...
Do any of you know what its like to suffer from a mental illness? Because of the traumatic things in my past its left me with some very deep emotional scars in the form of illnesses I can't get over. I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2. Which I heard is pretty common. I also have PTSD. Which untill recently I thought was something only soldiers get but evidently anyone with severe trauma can have it too. And the worst one I believe is anti dissasociative personality disorder. Which comes in the form of multiple personalities. Why am I blogging about all this...I dont know maybe somehow I really dont want to feel alone in this. Maybe me reaching out is kind of a cry for help maybe seeing if anyone else sufferes with the nightmares the torture the pain I endure every day. Not to mention the people I've hurt and all my shattered dreams I just would like to know is there anyone out there that can see this...that knows this pain that can identify with it like I do...please if your out ther

Run For Your Lives.....
I guess its about that time... once again. You fuckin people out there have outdone yourselves in some shiny new effort to piss me off. 1.) Lady with a half pint of perfume on JUST to go to the grocery store. Bitch... No one in a grocery store standing in line to check out, ever wants to fuckin deal with the gaggle of bees and mosquitoes that lurk around you. Knock it off. A subtle fragrance goes a long way... just in case you have OCD and cant help but pump the bottle an odd or even number of times before setting it down, start off with a dryer sheet, just rub it around the neck and go from there. Step two, is shedding the frumpy trailor park queen Moo moo you got out of the blair catalog last spring. Get a clue. 2.)You whiny ass Non-smokers. I smoke. Fuck you. I can no longer smoke indoors cause of all of your tears and letters written, so now I'm forced to do it outside, 110 degree heat index or 4 foot of snow. So when I'm standing outside of a bar and you walk

The Fleeting, Fickle Heart
To most people the heart is a reassurance that there is life,Each heartbeat meaning that perhaps you are safe, Safe from the rigid, sharp blades of the world. Who is to say that this beating heart may have it's pace quicken,Merely by the chance at seeing someone. Is this that fiddle player love? The one who plays gentle soothing melodies with the strings of your heart,Or even almost painful torrents of notes all together. Ah, but isn't the heart a resemblance of this fiddle player?Isn't the heart the mere foundations where love resides?Or is love merely something to preoccupy the heart? Is it not the beating heart of a lover that reassures you as you are drawn near,Led to believe that all is well and will continue to be so? Is that the meaning of the heart? What happens when that lover becomes a source of pain,One of which makes this lover almost unable to bared any longer? Is that when the fiddle player has finally drawn the last few, sorrowful notes?The ones that signify the

Master Slave Details
1 AGREEMENT 1.1 Binding Agreement This document, dated TENTH day of FEBRUARY 2008 (herein known as the "start date"), is a five year contract of voluntary slavery between Andrew XXXXXXXXXX herein referred to as "Master", "Him", "He" or the related form "Master's" and Matthew XXXXXXXXXX herein referred to as "slave", "sex slave", "pain slave", "houseboy" or "it" or the related forms "its" or "itself". The agreement consists of 8 main clauses with numerous sub-clauses within them and supersedes any previous contract or agreement. slave, through signing this contract, is binding itself totally and completely, without limit (except as explicitly defined below), irrevocably to servitude to Master. slave relinquishes all legal and cultural (and both explicit and presumed) rights, privileges, prerogatives and status to Master to become His property as a slave for Him to own and use as He sees fit. 1.2 Term This contract is binding for five calendar years from the

Remember Me -- 224
Wishing we were together still, out in town dressed to kill. Must of been a total fool, the embers of love will cool. I no longer care to live, I've nothing more to give. When I'm still on my death bed, I say remember me when I'm dead. You never were that fair, everyday passed without a care. We use to be in love together, I will love you forever. Remember me with smiles and laughter for that how I will remember you. if you can only remember me with tears then find something better to do.

So Much Heaven Yet So Much Hell -- 172
This place that I dwell, it feels so much like hell. You even play with my head, and I hear voices of the dead. I can't hide my fear, will you want me near. Your love is so mild, bottled up inside wild. I'm inside fate, the emotion is hate. You have a chance, for the last dance. So much heaven yet so much hell, one day soon time will tell.

Time Travel
Time travel is the concept of traveling forward and backward to different points in time, much as we do through space.Unsolved problems in physics: Is time travel theoretically possible? Is it practically possible? If so, what are we to make of the time travel paradoxes, such as going back in time and killing one's own grandfather, etc.?Humans are in fact always traveling in time - in a linear fashion, from the present to the immediate future, inexorably, until death.Some theories are predicated on the fact that we move forward in time, and both forward and backward in space. Since time and space have been shown to be intrinsically linked, travelling forwards and backwards through time is not a theoretical impossibility.Currently, traveling at speeds approaching the speed of light can cause time dilation, the effects of which cause the individual traveling to pass through time more slowly. From the perspective of the traveler, external time would be going much faster, causing the trave

Because Of You
Because of youmy world is now whole,Because of you love lives in my soul.Because of youI have laughter in my eyes,Because of you I am no longer afraid of good-byes.You are my pillarmy stone of strength,With me through all seasonsand great times of length.My love for you is pureboundless through space and time,it grows stronger everydaywith the knowledge that you'll always be mine.At the altarI will joyously say 'I do',for I have it all nowand it's all because of you.

Malware From Flash Graphics
Safe Browsing Diagnostic page for glittergraphicsnow.com What is the current listing status for glittergraphicsnow.com? Site is listed as suspicious - visiting this web site may harm your computer. Part of this site was listed for suspicious activity 5 time(s) over the past 90 days. What happened when Google visited this site? Of the 659 pages we tested on the site over the past 90 days, 81 page(s) resulted in malicious software being downloaded and installed without user consent. The last time Google visited this site was on 2011-05-19, and the last time suspicious content was found on this site was on 2011-05-19. Malicious software includes 72 exploit(s). Successful infection resulted in an average of 3 new process(es) on the target machine. Malicious software is hosted on 8 domain(s), including aaaooo.co.cc/, fereeeppp.co.cc/, traff-ins.co.cc/. 3 domain(s) appear to be functioning as intermediaries for distributing malware to visitors of this site, including js-ghost

Please Read
To my fufriends & family,I'd like to thank JohnnyDevil for posting this blog, I feel like we should all know about this, if you haven't read the blog, go to http://jdnewbeginning.blogspot.com. We can have fun on the site, however we should be careful of these situations. Also, if you would like to read a really good book, I would recommend a novel called The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. Thanks for taking the time to read this, -Dorothy

Save Me
SAVE ME I got a candleAnd I've got a spoonI live in a hallway with no doorsAnd no roomsUnder a windowsillThey all were foundA touch of concrete within the doorwayWithout a soundSomeone save me if you willAnd take away all these pillsAnd please just save me if you canFrom my blasphemy in my wastelandHow did I get hereAnd what went wrongCouldn't handle forgivenessNow I'm far beyond goneI can hardly rememberThe look of my own eyesHow can I love this a life so dishonestIt made me compromiseSomeone save me if you willAnd take away all these pillsAnd please just save me if you canFrom my blasphemy in my wastelandJump in the waterJump in with meJump on the altarLay down with meThe hardest question to answerIs whyWhySomeone save me if you willAnd take away all these pillsAnd please just save me if you canFrom my blasphemy in my wastelandSomeone save meSomeone save meSomebody save meSomebody save mePlease don't erase me

Hurt
HURT I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here [Chorus:] What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

Love Hurts
LOVE HURTS love hurts, love scars, love wounds, and mars, any heart, not tough, or strong, enough to take a lot of pain, take a lot of pain love is like a cloud Holds a lot of rain love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts I'm young, I know, but even so I know a thing, or two I learned, from you I really learned a lot, really learned a lot love is like a flame it burns you when it's hot Love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts some fools think of happiness blissfulness, togetherness some fools fool themselves I guess they're not foolin' me I know it isn't true, I know it isn't true love is just a lie, made to make you blue love hurts, ooh,ooh love hurts ooh,ooh love hurts [Guitar solo] I know it isn't true, I know it isn't true love is just a lie, made to make you blue love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts ooh ooh love hurts ooh ooh...

Tale Of The Broken Heart
I stand outside the door of the room where I have kept my heart since the devastation. Key in my hand a stare at the door, dare I open it? Risk devastation again? I lower myself to look thru the keyhole and peek thru it, I can see the scars. Remnants of the pain. Permanant damage I wonder? I straighten and look at the door, the bolt, the lock. I turn and lean my back against the door and close my eyes. Thinking of the defenses I have spent years building. Hiding behind physicality and dispensing with emotion. At war within myself, desire and rationality at odds. Should I do it, try to love again? I turn put my hand on the bolt, the key in the lock and pause.

The Tanner's Remorse.
Alorid wasn't entirely sure why he wasn't a merchant. He was an age and a half past his prime, married, and one level down from wealthy. He even had a partner to run the store, and pay the taxes when he was away. His skinning knife glided against sinew, with each artful flick a minescule shred of skin fell into a scrap bin at his feet. Fox fur. He could've raised them, trapped them, married off a pretty daughter or two, and left the skills and store to a handsome son or two. They had stopped at one. That wasn't the plan when they were courting, and after they had wed, but one was unexpected enough. They had tried for so many years, so overjoyed at his arrival, his departure had nearly brought ruin to their house. The blade jumped and stopped hard in the side of Alorid's palm leaving a deep gash and a trickle of crimson. Cursing and moving carefully, Alorid left the blade in the side of his hand and placed the skin he had been working on aside before it was stained. He had sworn to

Her Lost Soul
To feel to deeply is to open her soul to self destruction is to expose her heart to more pain, to risk shattering there is one from whom she hides no longer and from those who she once shared her everything with she once again hides, defends and guards against them whereas this one soul is linked, intertwined with hers to once again be cherished and protected to once again feel the care from another it is in his shadow she now resides until the time comes for her to cast all shadows aside (BY xox wickedghost)

Good Friends
People come to fubar for many reasons. To play it like a game. To make friends. Whatever reason, I have made some really great friends. Some I have been friends with for 5-6 years now. One friend in particular has been a great friend, The Dark Knight 4u. I hear that some ppl are talking shit about him but, from talks with him he has been really cool. He works hard, he's a great father and a great friend. He doesn't sugar coat anthing. He doesn't play people. For those talking shit about him.. why? Drop it already. Much much love to my other great friends on here. Ya'll are awesome. Very greatful for those friendships. Ya'll crack me the fuck up. I know ya'll have my back and you're there for me and it goes vice versa.