special edition's blog: "whats on my mind "

im at a time in my life where i am begining to see what has gone wrong and what has been a blessing in my life

i have 2 beautiful little girs and would do anything for them

although my relationship with my ex wife is nonexzistant i am blessed to have had her in my life and see the best thing that came out of that marrige is my eldest daughter izzibella she is 3 then there is a breef relationship with the mother of my youngest daugher shianne and it was a learning experience to say the least

now i feel i am ready to start seeing other people again but not going to rush into anything because it hasnt worked out in the past if i befriend a woman the first thing they think is i want in their pants witch is not the case i want a woman who isnt about games and bullshit one i can laugh with talk to and most important grow with i need someone who is willing to accept me for who i am

todays socitey is messed up when it comes to how we are protrade as egotistical peopleyou know there are some of us out there that just want to be loved is that so damn wrong to ask

there are also other things i would like other than a relationship and that is to provide for my daughters in any way i can i have givin up my freedoms to serve the military and am a disabbled vet so i know what it means to sacrifice and i am willing to do anything for the benifit of my children i want to open a restaurant it has been a goal of mine for years now

there are a million things i want to do and only a few i need to do and that is be the best father i can me and to never forget the past

many people say i live in the past but i tell them that i remember the past so i can go in the future