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Sorry A$$ Men
I am so sick of sorry ass men. All I want is to be treated with a little respect.. a little sincerity... a little kindness. I am not a booty call, I am not your personal plaything, I am not a cyber-whore. If I'm not good enough to take to dinner and or out on a date, then I'm not good enough to spend the night with you. Plain and simple, end of story. If you are looking for a booty call or a one night stand... keep looking, I'm not the one. I am sure there are some dumb bitches out there, probably running rampant on this site as a matter of fact, that would not mind being treated like a whore but I am not one of them. You talk a good game about wanting to spend time with me and wanting to get to know me when all you're hoping for is a shot at getting in my pants. Well let me let you in on a little secret... I was born in the morning but it wasn't this morning. I am not stupid and I know what you're up to... but what you don't get is that I'm a hell of a lot smarter than you and apparen
Arousal from raping a victim.
Give It 2 Me Right!!!!
  I don't want it all the time, But when I get it, I better be satified So give it to me right, Or don't give it to me at all 
Not Sure...
I am not sure exactly what I feel today. I don't feel sad, for once I am not angry, I just feel sort of empty. I wanna find someone to share my time with, but I don't trust anyone based on how things have been for me. If I do run across someone I MAY have something in common with, I seem to sabotage any possibility. I am not sure why I do that. I feel like the screaming is so loud someone will hear it & come rescue me, but no one hears it but me. I guess that means I am not ready, or just no able. Maybe I am far too damaged now. I guess someone will have to do it for me since I don't seem capable to do it for myself, but since it doesn't happen, I Oh well.  Maybe next life...
What I Have Noticed...
Things are never easy..   No matter how we try to make everyone happy, it is impossible.   I just want someone, I can be myself around...   I am a fun, flirty, freak. I like to have fun, be silly, and cuddle.   It's really hard because, lately I have been judged HARSHLY, over my flirty attitude. And it's really not fair.. I am going to be 19 a week from Friday... I deserve to be happy, in any and all relationships. and a boyfriend, if it comes to that..   All I am saying is...   I need my match..   I THINK I have found one but, the past has taught me to tread slowly.. And have fun. So that is what I am doing.   I just wish I could stop my other friends from being dickheads and flipping out on me.   One friend, is about to lose me the next time he (yes HE) flips out on me.   *pssst to my special friend, you know who i mean*   This has been a long week... I think I have suffered through enough drama to "trump" my whole 19yrs.   xoxo  
 gettin worse everyday it seems . have I said M S really kinda sux ?   It's slowly (but not slow enough) taking away my freedom . I've decided that I'm not getting any gimpier than I am .  My youngest daughter asked me how did I know .  I simply told her cuz I said . (wish it was that easy)
New Roomie!!!
So far so good in living with my friend, he keeps to himself and lets me do whatever I want.  He told me when I moved in that it was up to me if we had sex or not,  that he wasn't letting stay there just to get a piece of ass!  that's why I like him so much!!!!! Good news on roomie front!  Samatha, my friend from school, the girl I wrote about.  Sam came over last night and we went out to late dinner, just her and I.  She was wearing these tight jeans that hugged her ass, damn I wanted to peel them off her! :)  Anyway, we talked for a few hours while nibbling on some rabbit food.  We talked about everything except sex.  I finally brought up her bf and what she was going to do.  Sam said that she didn't want to stay with him anymore, that he changed way too much, getting to be too posessive and even "suggesting" things for her to wear.  She said she could stay at home with parents for a little while but they wanted to sell their place and move out of state soon and she has a good job h
freindshiips are  strange ,just like relationships once you think you have them  figured out, and then they arent what they seemed to be and they change on you when you  try to  test them to see who they really are and not the front they put on just to see if they can take what they want because the think you have money or connections to get them out of trouble because they don,t want to work or go do things like a responible humanbeins that they should be in  life.
Vnv Nation- From My Hands
So much i thought i'd have to say Though i try to speak my meaning strays. We can't avoid the facts that brought us here.I have come to say goodbye. The lies i try to tell with my own eyes;An act of pride a willful compromise. Please understand how torn i am When i walk away from here. I lament the moments we won't share. If i am far too sentimental i apologize. Please understand this is who i am And who i'll still be when i've walked away from here. You know i'm not unkind When i say in the futureThe past is just the past. No going back No change of heart But this is now Time will not differ. My thoughts(?) betray so easily confess(?)How long i'll wait here after you have gone. Nothing ends(?) but i don't believe that nowPlease don't walk away from here. I went alone and i remember days.Nothing will change a single fact(?) of who you were to meOh come what may forever to the endI find it so hard to let you go. And hush now let it go nowThere's no need for sad goodbyes.Hus
The Way Love Works
Its amazing how love works. First off you fall in love. That makes you act funny and do every thing you can to make the person you fell for feel the same way about you. Usually it works but some times it fails miserablely. then thats where the pain comes in. You sit back and watch the one you love off with some one else oand it feels like they are  a million miles away where you can't see them. So you talk to them any way you know how just to keep the hope that you might win them over alive a little longer. In the end You'll cry and It will feel like your heart is being torn out but you will live...... And that is a fate worse than death because at least in death you would have the release and no pain. But in life after love you find misery every where. Plus it seems like every one knows what has happened and keeps there distance like your a leper or some to the one that know what it feels like, "I feel your pain' and for the ones that don't I pray you never have to
Lyrics To Song Carpe Noctem
Tanz der Vampire - Carpe Noctem (Seize the Night)Lyrics:Vampire 1:Come with me and bless the night !Let the darkness be your salvation.Curse the day ! Escape the light !Break of chains of imagination !Come with me and seize the night !Nows the time for some insperation !Leave the day and lose the light,No taboos, only new sesations !Vampire 2:In the shadows of the city ???? A hero's waiting for the call !And all the devils are waking up.And all the angels start to fall.Vampires 1 & 2:In the shadows of the cityWe're dying for a thrill !We're going out over the edge !We're moving in for the kill !Vampire Group 1:You've got to curse the day.Its nothing but a merciless light, So open up your armsAnd then you get down on your kneesYou suck in all the darknessAnd you ready now to seizeSeize the night !Seize the night !Vampire Group 2:Dies irae, Kyrie. Libera me, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Requiem da, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Libera me, Domine !Dies irae, Kyrie. Requiem da, Domine !*Dies ira
A Special Star
You know who you are, you stole my heart in a blink. What a wicked woman to leave this boy to crave that taste of you again. A smile from you fills my heart to point of explosion. Your eyes bleed through mine to see right through me and show me who I am. Your lips keep me frozen under your power. Not have I ever felt so at ease, like there has been a lingering spark from another time. Its funny how a Star came to make me feel whole again. Under our sky of broken paths we managed to find more than we imagined. I'll never stop trying cause your light shines greater than you see.
I Will Wait
I will wait for you to feel the same as I, for you to see the moon the same color as I do. I will wait for you to be able to foretell my love verses and find warmth in my arms. I will wait until your path is my path and until you give me your soul as I have surrendered. I will wait for you to dream and soon desire to kiss. I will wait for when your hands to yearn my touch and to be always in your memories. That my presence is the world you want to feel and that one day you could not survive without my love. I will wait for you to feel nostalgia for me. I will wait for the time for when you ask me not to part from you. Maybe you will never be for me, but I will wait.
New Insight
Mmmm now that’s my woman she knows how to treat her man gooooooooooooood Sweet taste of golden sun on your lips The tides swell at the shake of your hips You walk trembles the mountains foundation And the rise of your breast makes or breaks a nation Tell me true Do I seek the 9th wonder or do I seek u cause u are all that is needed in this world, phenomenal woman exceeds all expectations of any limitation that man can set and has meet gods challenge by becoming the helper and caregiver as well as caretaker of his first creation of man and bearing , rearing, and guiding god’s gift to man and woman...children..You are just that...a true gift, a treasure truly undiscovered Just showing you how a woman should and needs to be appreciated And how I see them : ok you can break it down to the basis of survival and procreation, but physical attraction and  hormones can only take u so far More is needed to truly be immortal in the eyes of the generation that comes after u
Gosh I Miss Y'all!
I have been incommuicado for awhile due to only having internet at work and then it depends on if there's a computer available. So...thank you to those of you that have been taking such good care of me in my absence! You know who you are... :) I will check in here when I can. I'm finding that if I get to work a half hour early there's usually a computer available so I'll do my best to check in here when possible. Life is coming at me fast and furious right now so I'm hangin' on and not doin' too bad! Love y'all and miss ya's!!! Take care and stay outta trouble...nah...have fun!! LOL\ Until next time...xoxox
You can hug yourself.You can give someone a hug. It can be an affectionate one.It can be of friendship.It can be a "just because" one. Right now..I need a HUG.
Wounds So Deep
wounds so deep not even a knife can reach to cut out the pieces and allow my pain to heal walking within the darkend shadows from which i turn to hide desprately trying to release this painful poison within my body these wounds are buried deep within a knife can barely scratch the surface this pain is like an itch I can not scratch I feel it burning within my vains as it flows through my body tingling with every second wounds so deep not even a knife can reach desprately wanting this pain to cease and disappear wounds so deep not even a knife can reach walking through this world my mind is in a haze like an intoxicating drug becoming more and more addicted to how it feels knowing that its wrong unable to fight the silent whisper of it pulling me in covering me like the ocean waves consuming the shore it washes over me like nothing ive ever felt before on one hand unwanted  and wrong yet tasting so incredably intoxicatingly sweet needing to feel more of it its like
The Day After
The day after the worst day I have ever had I think.I dont have much feeling in me today>Life has delt me a hard blow and now the work of repair begins . As this day moves forward i must be dilagent as i go through changes that may or may not be synonomous to life as i know it at this time .You can only mean the word forever one time in you life with someone  that really counts .everything else never really did .I will be live always at crossroads lounge,evenings and weekends,sometimes during the day as well and this page becomes a diary please read every day a new post will always be here .
Too Fat
okay, so the simple truth is: i weigh way too much. ive gone to being a 190 lb lean muscle fighting machine to a 245lb tub of lard. so in the last month, ive cut out sugary drinks and fast food. here i am a month later at 235. only 45 more lbs to go...wish me luck. im gonna need it.
I Was Thinkin...
So yea I was thinkin and I came up with I want a relationship but I'm not lookin for one does that even make sence? I didnt think so. I also came up with I think I wanna be a body builder. Scary huh? I thought so. I also thought about bein a Marine. Perfect huh? YEA IT IS!! I thought about bein a porn star. Creepy huh? Yea it is! Anyway this blog was completely random and I just went on about stupid bullshit to see what other people will say about it.   ........ so yea.
Not Feeling Well ..
alright, so this may be just a bit extreme, but whatever thats just who i am.i want nothing more in my life then to find the perfect person to spend the rest of my life with, but these days i just dont think that person is out there anymore. and everyone seems to think they are that person. so here are some guidelines for what I want and dont want... pretty much if you have these things dont talk to me.. 1. kids or want kids- i dont want em and i dont want a man that thinks he can change my mind cause he wants em, sorry 2. if youve been married, sorry. im afraid of marriage and dont believe in divorce, so if youve been there, im sorry. 3. smoker, heavy drinker or drug abuser- dont get my wrong i drink from time to time, i just dont want an alcoholic or pot smoker, whatever. 4. if you live with your parent, dont have a vehicle and or drivers license, dont talk to me. the last thing i need is another free loader. 5. you must also have a freakin job! i get that times are though but
Fascinating Biology Facts
 Fascinating biology facts> The largest cell in the human body is the female egg and> the smallest is the male sperm.> It takes the food seven seconds to get from your mouth to> your stomach.> One human hair can support 3 kg (6 lb).> The average man's erection is three times the length of his> thumb..> Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete.> A woman's heart beats faster than a man's.> There are about one trillion bacteria on each of your> feet.> Women blink twice as often as men.> The average person's skin weighs twice as much as the> brain.> Your body uses 300 muscles to balance itself when you are> standing still.> If saliva cannot dissolve something, you cannot taste it.> Men who read this are probably still busy checking their> thumbs
What Starts With F And Ends With K
A first-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students The teacher asked, 'Harry, what's your problem?' Harry answered, 'I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!' Ms. Brooks had had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office. While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test. If he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave.  
Post Turtles Explained
  While suturing a cut on the hand of a 75 year old Texas Rancher whose hand was caught in a gate while working cattle, the doctor struck up a conversation with the old man. Eventually the topic got around to Obama and his bid to be our President.  The old Rancher said, 'Well, ya know, Obama is a post turtle. 'Not being familiar with the term, the Doctor asked him what a post turtle' was.   The old Rancher said, 'When you're driving down a country road and you come across a fence post with a turtle balanced on top, that's a post turtle.'   The old Rancher saw a puzzled look on the Doctor's face, so he continued to explain. 'You know he didn't get up there by himself, he doesn't belong up there, he doesn't know what to do while he is up there, and you just wonder what kind of dumb asses put him up there to begin with ' ?
Nursing Home Sex
Harold is 95 and lives in a Senior Citizen Home.  Every night after dinner,Harold goes to a secluded spot in the garden behind the Center to sit andponder his accomplishments and long life.One evening, Mildred,  age 87, wanders into the garden.. They begin to chatand before they know it, several hours have passed.After a short lull in their conversation, Harold turns to Mildred and asks,"Do you know what I miss most of  all?"She asks, "What?""Sex!!" he  replies.Mildred exclaims, "Why you old fart. You couldn't get it up if I held a gunto your  head!""I know," Harold says, "but it would be nice if a woman could just hold itfor a while.""Well, I can oblige," says Mildred, who unzips his trousers, removes hismanhood and proceeds to hold it.Afterward, they agree to meet secretly  each night in the garden where theywould sit and talk and Mildred would hold Harold's  manhood.Then one night Harold didn't show up at  their usual meeting place.Alarmed, Mildred decided to find Harold and make s
To All The Kids Who Survived The 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's And 70's!!
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As infants &children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cup cakes, white bread and real butter and drank Kool-aid made with sugar, but we weren't overweight because,
A Farmer In Love
Guy walks into the bedroom carrying a sheep in his arms and says,"Honey, this is the cow I make love to when you have a headache." The wife, laying in the bed reading a book, looks up and says,"If you weren't such an idiot, you'd know that's a sheep, not a cow." The guy replies, "If you weren't such a presumptuous Bitch, you'd realize I was talking to the sheep."
Without You-hinder
I just wanna be alone tonight I just wanna take a little breather 'Cause lately all we do is fight And every time it cuts me deeper 'Cause something's changed You've been acting so strange And it's taking its toll on me It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently Without you, I live it up a little more every day I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end When I watched you walk away, well, I never thought I'd say I'm fine without you Called you up 'cause it's been long enough And you said that you were so much better We have done a lot of growing up We were never meant to be together 'Cause something changed You were acting so strange And it's taken its toll on me It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave Without you, I live it up a little more every day Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently I didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end When I watched yo
Another Poem
To be in loveWhat does that meanDoes love truly flowFrom sea to sea When you find the oneYou truly care aboutYeah, you will knowWithout a doubt To be in loveWhat does that meanJust you waitAnd you will see Nothing is to highNothing is to farAll you have to do is reachAnd you can grab the stars To be in loveWhat does that meanTo fall in loveWill set you free 06/02/98
Everybody Knows
It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the painI’m trying to find the words to say, please stayIt’s written all over my face, I can’tFunction the same when you’re not hereI’m calling your name but no one’s thereAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I still can’t believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe’ve heard it all before, that everybody knowsJust how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsI don’t care what the people sayThey brought it all in anywayBaby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-saidIt seems like you just don’t knowThe radio’s on, you're tuning me out,I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me downAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I
So Sick Of The Bullshit
i'm sick of people telling me they think i'm pretty and they think i'm and they think i'm that.. but then they turn around say they dont want me.. well why not. what makes me not good enough?god damn i'd rather have you tell me the truth and say i'm sorry i just dont like you.  than say all this bullshit about me being this and me being that and how you like me, but just dont want to date me.  but have no reason at all..  way to make a girl feel real good about herself..  
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Shamanism X V
Criticism of the term “shaman” or “shamanism”Certain anthropologists, most notably Alice Kehoe in her book Shamans and Religion: An Anthropological Exploration in Critical Thinking, are highly critical of the term. Part of this criticism involves the notion of cultural appropriation. This includes criticism of New Age and modern Western forms of Shamanism, which may not only misrepresent or 'dilute' genuine indigenous practices but do so in a way that, according to Kehoe, reinforces racist ideas such as the Noble Savage.A tableau presenting figures of various cultures filling in mediator-like roles, often being termed as "shaman" in the literature. The tableau presents the diversity of this concept.Kehoe is highly critical of Mircea Eliade's work. Eliade, being a philosopher and historian of religions rather than an anthropologist, had never done any field work or made any direct contact with 'shamans' or cultures practicing 'shamanism', though he did spend four
Dont Know How To Use This Help?
How? do I chat with people? HELP PLEASE?  
Step By Step
Step by step I will arrive to the place where your heart lives. Up to you door I will reach, and when it answers I will say,  it is your love I seek.. Step by step I will reach to the place where your heart lives. I know that my big dream is difficult, but I will bring it to reality. I will be relentless in my intent to be your love and until you extinguish my anguish to have you.
This Is The Way It Goes....
i can shead a thousand tears. i can say im sorry over and over again. but nothing i do will take away the pain i caused you. my mistake a momentary lapse of judgemnt has hurt you and for that i am trully sorry. you mean everything to me. have all of me. my heart i gave you. and yet i do something so silly and redundent that it will mess everything up for us. i would do anything to take it back but i cant.  i dont want to loose you or let you go. cause the good times out way the bad ones. this you must agree. for when we are good we are great. so many hurdles we must over come for us to be. i wonder will they ever cease? i have siad im sorry so many times. but i have never once said......I am completly in love with you. and im so sorry i have hurt you. hopefully one day you will forgive me............
What To Wear?
I am trying on different slacks. Putting and taking off. I removed one, I noticed a draft. Looking down at my pants on the floor is my panty..still in the pants. Don't you just love it when your panty is attached to your pants?? LOL Back to deciding what to wear.....
A Crowd "pleaser"
Lying naked next to youI know you feel it tooYour pulse starts to quicken As my cock starts to thickenYou roll over and spread your thighsI climb on top and look into your eyesYou wrap your arms around me and press your lips to mineYour legs lock tightly around my hipsI slip inside, such a tight fitThrusting slowly in and out, making you so wetAs I gently kiss you up and down your neckPushing deeper as you begin to moanYour panting gets louder as my rod churns your honey holeGetting lost in ecstasy as we move as oneTeasing your hard nipples with the tip of my tongueYou pull my hair and arch you back as I bury my face between your breastsThe room starts to spin as I struggle to catch my breatheI roll over, letting you on topI push even harder as you beg me not to stopGripping you tightly by the soft flesh of your assPushing deeper, harder, faster, with all the strength that I haveYou scream "I'm ready to cum!" I say "Wait, I'm almost there"The sweet smell of your juices permeate the air
Her Beauty
Her BeautyMy pen hath not the ink,Nor my mind the wit,To capture here in verse by my hand,Her Beauty I behold.Light from an endless star filled sky,Her eyes.Countless summer's warm gentle breeze,Her whisper.A thousand crystal cool mountain streams,Her kiss.Miles of pure white sand beach,Her smile.Wave after wave of crashing crimson tide,Her passion.Ranges of majestic snow capped mountains,Her strength.Deepest and widest of dark blue oceans,Her love.All of Creation itself fails to compare,In the entire depth of Universe,No single being past or now resides,Her Beauty I behold
My Great Love
My great love, it has always been you my aura, heaven and paradise. My great love, if it wasn’t for you, my empty life would be without light. My great love, I would like to be the beggar, king and sentinel of your loving. To dream without waking up, that I am your joy of night and day and to always be yours. My great love, I met you but centuries before we found each other. I felt you sweetheart for your passion and without realizing it has become a prose. I am now happy, my great love, because the dry tree of my life now has flourished.
How Much More Can She Take?
As most of my friends on here know,my 14 year old daughter was diagnosed almost a year ago with Melanoma.She has gone through many surgeries and had her lymph nodes removed because the cancer had spread.She has been on a type of chemo called Interfuron 3 days a week since Jan of 2009 and will be on it until Nov of 2009.Things have been looking up for her.The chemo is rough but she is strong and she is so looking forward to it being over.We just got back from Disneyland thanks to Make~A~Wish and her hopes were high. Then we get a call yesterday from her doctor's office.Jess(my daughter) has been having alot of pain in her hips so they sent her for an MRI a couple days before we left for our trip.The results said her hips were fine,but the reason her belly was cramping was she has ovarian something(I forget what they called it,and forgot my notepad where I wrote it down at work).Basically she has cysts on both her ovaries and they are bleeding.So now she has to go to the gyno and have t
I haven't ranted in quite a while, so here goes... I have an amazingly wonderful (and sometimes completely aggravating) talent. It's called a bullshit detector. I am REALLY good at reading people and situations. This is a talent I believe I was born with, and cultivated through my years of working with the public. My job now is technically not necessary, but I am very good at what I do, and I make good money doing it. Part of my job is being able to size up whether or not someone is wasting my time, and not spending fruitless hours trying to obtain the impossible. Same goes for the people on here. I know there are quite a few people on here who don't like me. I know there are quite a few who have made it their mission to try to piss me off. Here's the deal, I don't kiss my boss's ass and he signs my checks. I don't kiss my customer's asses and they make me my commission, so why the fuck do some of you people think that I am going to bend over and kiss yours? It's NOT GOING TO HAPP
You Are What You Love.
“You are what you love, not what loves you. This might be one of the biggest misconceptions ever perpetrated about love. There is this pervasive embodiment of the experience as a coupled experience, it’s legitimacy resting in it’s reciprocation. When love is withheld, rejected or takes some other form, the one who loved first is belittled, even if only in his/her own mind. The stories of unrequited love and the range of tragedy and heartbreak from love unmet has filled the airways since we began to sing or tell our stories. The universality of the loss experienced by love gone wrong, or never really given a chance, or interrupted too soon by tragedy is something we all share. The pain is as deep and real as any cut with a knife. The sadness and loneliness of loving and losing the object of our love is searing like a burn and shadows us for weeks, sometimes months. This is the story that many of us never get over, sometimes keeping us away from the prospect of lovin
Are Your Thoughts Killing You?
Are you aware of the thoughts that are detrimental to your health, your relationships and your achievements?Do you know how to create the life you desire?We all have this amazing center of power - “Our Mind” - to use to create the good life we desire.Most people do not know how to use it wisely.This is why for some people life is a real struggle, while for others life flows smoothly. Why do you think this is?Everything in life starts with Thought!Negative; contaminating; destructive; weak and scattered thinking produces negative results...While positive; uplifting; contributory thinking produces peaceful, positive solutions and outcomes...When you can control and direct your thoughts, then you will be able to control your circumstances.Are you in control of your mind or is your mind controlling you?To be the master of our own mind is the first spiritual law. Everyone seems to be concerned about what they put into their material house, how they decorate it and who they enter
My Thought On A Website!!
Cyber love is a figment of our imagination. A wonderful fantasy of our individual creation. I bought all the lines that came to own me. Never understanding the feelings that I couldn't see. Never realizing my heart he was stealing. Too caught up in the overwhelming feeling. Some people need a lesson to learn. I got mine and can still feel the burn. I never allow myself to make the same mistake twice. So don't read more into my words because I'm just being nice. I can be your friend but my secrets you"ll never know. Inside of my heart is someplace you will never go. Even when you believe you are very close to me. A superficial women is all you will ever see. So don't ask me for love or something else I don't feel. I'm not trying to be a bitch ,I'm just keeping it real. Everything that matters is what I won't share. So don't be foolish and begin to really care. Please ask nothing from me except some casual chat. Because that is all I have to give..nothing but that. I'm so much wiser and
Just One Vote, Please!!
And All Of This For You...
nine inch nails.the great below staring at the sea. will she come? is there hope for me. after all is said and done. anything at any price. all of this for you. all the spoils of a wasted life. all of this for you. all the world has closed her eyes. tired faith all worn and thin. for all we could have done. and all that could have been. ocean pulls me close. and whispers in my ear. the destiny i've chose. all becoming clear. the currents have their say. the time is drawing near. washes me away. makes me disappear. and i descend from grace. in arms of undertow. i will take my place. in the great below. i can still feel you. even so far away. i can still feel you. even so far away...   So... Another one of those odd sort of days, but this one is filled with a sense of longing. not the cold acceptance that everything is damned. i long for all those things i've convinced myself don't exist, that i don't want. love and family and children... yeah, i kinda want a kid right now. but it'll p
To A Wonderful Gothic Woman (d'hark Julez)
Here is one of the closest and dearest people I know. D’hark Julez is true blue guys and gals and a jewel of a best friend. I am proud and blessed to know and call her family. Go and show her some gothic love.I also wanted to pimpout her wonderful work and second home as well as mine, The Dhark Domain. You can SB or private message one of us for the details.   $safe_uid_dname@ fubar
Birthday Sex
There are 365 Birthdays. Out of all of the billions of people who live in the world, there has got to be somebody born on each day of the year. We're going to try to accomplish the task of seeing if we can fill the calendar up with a birthday on every day of the year.Add your name next to your birthdate and lets see if we can do it!!! (Hey and don't delete any one) Copy and paste and make a new bulletin! ! ! ! ! ! ! !January 1-Dustin Engler!!!January 2 -January 3 -January 4 -January 5 -January 6 -Courtney BryantJanuary 7 -Ricky "Dunn Dunn"January 8 -January 9 -January 10-January 11-January 12 -January 13 -Judge D.January 14 -Samantha marie KlossJanuary 15 -autumn nicole pateee(:
Birthday Sex
There are 365 Birthdays. Out of all of the billions of people who live in the world, there has got to be somebody born on each day of the year. We're going to try to accomplish the task of seeing if we can fill the calendar up with a birthday on every day of the year.Add your name next to your birthdate and lets see if we can do it!!! (Hey and don't delete any one) Copy and paste and make a new bulletin! ! ! ! ! ! ! !January 1-Dustin Engler!!!January 2 -January 3 -January 4 -January 5 -January 6 -Courtney BryantJanuary 7 -Ricky "Dunn Dunn"January 8 -January 9 -January 10-January 11-January 12 -January 13 -Judge D.January 14 -Samantha marie KlossJanuary 15 -autumn nicole pateee(:
Removed For Lack Of Bling.... Lol
Well, a new low for Fubar.... I became friends with ♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε®®Y♱Pìε-MemberofCandyShop- Page can be found here... Started talking the normal how are you's ect. further into the convo she found out I do not put money on fubar, thus could not buy her bling... She then removed me from Friends lol Here is the Convo... remember read bottom to top.....   (UPDATE She has now Blocked me)     >♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: Wow.... ♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: ok thanks bye ->♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: I am sorry, I do not put money on here, much rather spend it on my Nieces and Nephew or other more important things ->♱§ШεεŦѼĈħε...: Why are you wasting my time? ♱§Шεε&
Beautiful And Sad
 The other day I heard a story, so beautiful yet sad. It went something like this.  I fell in love, tottaly and unexpectedly. His eyes as blue as the sky. Holding the weight of the world in them. His lopsided smile so broad it could light up an entire nation, and make ease a nervous soul. His every movement drawing me in, his every word captivating me. The way my heart pounds and my breathing quickens is shameless. I fear it will betray me. I feel but 16 again, and me, a full grown adult. Every day drags on by. The clock ticking loudly. The minutes pass slowly, Tick tock. Louder and louder the ticking grows. I can not even hear myself think. I wish for the day  to be gone so i may get a glimpse, but tonight is not the night. Busy lives and another day is gone. I would but let my life pass in a flash if only for  one glimpse. Another day dawns, another day of slowly ticking minutes. The morning seems to take years to pass. I check my phone, still nothing. Then as if on command the ph
I Should Be Crying But I Just Can't Let It Show
Pray to God you can copeI stand outsideThis woman's workThis woman's worldOooh, it's hard on the manNow his part is overNow starts the craft of the fatherI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingAll the things I should've said that I never saidAll the things we should of done that we never didAll the things I should've given but I didn'tOh darling make it goMake it go awayGive me them back to meGive that little kissGive me your handI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingOf all the things we should've said that were never saidAll the things we should've done that we never didAll t
The One Who Has My Heart!
Will you walk with me, the path of life,to explore every bend of the roadEnjoy with me the beauty of life,along its wonderful wayFind comfort with me, in each other's arms,when grief crosses our pathFind strength with me, in each other's strength,when despair lies in waitLaugh with me, a single true laugh,to enlighten another's distressCry with me, a single true tear,to understand true happinessCherish with me, the wonders of life,as they need to be preservedRejoice with me, in the mysteries,of what is yet to beFind peace with me, in each other's souls,when the world has gone insaneFind love with me, in each other's hearts,until this life has been fulfilledAnd when the path comes to an endI hope we can say from withinWe've known the beauty of true love,our love came from within
..for Veterans & Their Families Only
       OBAMA IS SURPRISED > I checked this out on "truth or fiction" and it is truth , but the proposal was withdrawn after Sen. Akaka, democratic chairman of the veteran affairs committee refused to let it out of the committee. The president then withdrew the plan. ******************* > HERE IS HIS RESPONSE WHEN HE BACKED OFF FROM HIS DECISION TO LET THE MILITARY PAY FOR THEIR WAR INJURIES......... > WHAT A EMPTY HEADED PERSON HE MUST BE.... SEND THIS TO EVERYONE TO SHOW JUST WHAT HE THINKS OF OUR MILITARY WHO FIGHT FOR OUR COUNTRY AND GET HURT PROTECTING OUR FREEDOM!!! > Bad press, including major mockery of the plan by comedian Jon Stewart, led to President Obama abandoning his proposal to require veterans carry private health insurance to cover the estimated $540 million annual cost to the federal government of treatment for injuries to military personnel received during their tours on active duty. > The President admitted that he was puzzled by the magnitude of the opposition to
Wishing Wells
In my mind's eye I see myself Going places... I've never been Seeing things... I've never seen Doing things... I've only dreamed. But in plain view I've seen cold truth. The pointless squandered days of youth. How many chances I Passed on by For wishing wells That came up dry. Poem By Tammy C.
We Don't Dance In Kansas City
Don’t we dance in Kansas, City   We don’t dance in Kansas, City we’re a sleepy bunch   We only move to protest the proliferation of movement
being close to death has brought a new meaning to life, live it !!! one moment at a time , smile when you can and hide your pain from the ones who care about you.   I have not been on for awhile the reason is I have had one medical problem after the other, my left lung collapsed and they removed a 1/3 of it causing a great deal of pain and healing time away from the computer and the ones who are my friends , as well as my job. today I am mostly healed but with new problems I have been diagnosed with emphysema of both lungs and it is very hard for me to breathe and sit at a computer for very long no treatment has been given yet I am working out something now with medical stays in the hospitals and treament very soon I will address that, yes I still work and yes I still ride a bike but these days there is an engine on it. life has been hard but so to are your problems life is hard... thank you for all that have sent well wishes and are still on my list you are all truly a gift from a
Lookin For Someone To Kick It With
lookin for someone to kick it with in tucson, hit me up!
8.8 Million To Get My Angel Wings
Well I made Oracle on July 2nd.I can't believe I'm alreadly this close to Angel! Only 8.8 more million.The only problem is I didn't find out until the other day I need 25 referrals to level.I only have 4 lol.If anyone can help with referrals please pm me with what you want..because everyone wants something here lol.I need help and if anyone can help I will be very grateful.Thanks to everyone who has helped me be so successful the last 5 1/2 months I've been on fu.I love it here most of the time and it's fun.Love my fu family...   P.s....Still taking donations for the spotlight fun any help given at all will be appreciated.
[sleep Is Stupid. And So Is Spongebob]
My dog and I really don't talk much.And mostly when we do, its because we don't agree.But one thing is certain...I have absolutely no reason to get out of bed tomorrow, and she's probably the only reason that I will.I think in one of those vague, 2 steps removed kinda ways she saves my life.She's getting cunty though.I have to actually pick her up about halfway just to get her to go to bed.I think she's figured out how heavy she is... hell she figured that out months ago.To win at tug of war she just lays down on her back.I taught this dog judo much too son.And now she's taken to jumping off my back as a springboard if she outmaneuvers me.Lil bitch.She actually did a death-roll today midair as I held her collar- coulda broke my thumb if I wasn't smart about placing it.Kicked me in the balls 3 days in a row.We play retardedly rough, but what's rough for her is fetch for normal sized dogs.I still think back to the guy hand raising tiger cubs who broke his hips and knee just from being bu
A Note To My Friends
Hi and good morning friend... it's in the middle of week already hope your day has be wonderful so far... .. Life is about change... Sometimes it's is a Painful Sometime it is Beautiful Most of the time it is both. .. Just open ur eyes & see that Life is Beautiful!!! .. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they are meant to be there they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help you figure out who you are... .. have a Awesome & Happy Hump day and a Good & lovely week!! .. .. Hugs & Kisses
Red mist all around seeping into the ground the smell of blood in the air Coldness all around brings stillnessWhispers you hear from your own fear telling you to run.Chills and goose bumps all over your body.What’s going to happen next eating away at you making you feel like you cant move.Your mind saying run your body wont move and all u smell is blood and all u see is red.All you know is what you don’t know how you got here where here is when will you leave this place that brings your worse nightmares to life…
So Called Bestfriends?
So, My best friend(or so I thought) and I had a conversation the other day. And it came to me that she was a total bitch and was more about herself and the bar life. Before she was nineteenwe always hung out and did things together, and after i had my son she stayed a night in the hosp with me and everything was well and whatnot but then she turned nineteen and everything changed and we never spoke for 3 months till the other day.  Does it seem fair that i always there.. then she has a bar life and just does not bother with me. Thought best friends stuck it out through thick and thin! Seems like You never know who your true friends are, till they really show their true colors. 
Poorly Run Lounge
I'd like to say I enjoy going into lounges chatting with decent people, and making new friends..After all that's what fubar is about right? And you can never have enough like minded friends? Well I joined a lounge Thunder's Oldies Night Club it was okay slow very slow not many ppl chatter as it's a new lounge.  So every mornin I would drop invites to get the lounge going in which I thought was decent..Only to find out that it's poorly run, the pushiness of the owner and his staff was unbareable..It's a group of people that love drama, pushing people around, making up stories, talking behind peoples backs, Oh yes and they ban you for doing nothing wrong, if you're idle they eject and ban you...It's mainly a lounge that if you dont go along to get along you are ejected and banned..If this is the type of lounge people enjoy I say give it a shot... A group of people that say they cant and wont put up with DRAMA...well by gawd QUIT CREATING THE DRAMA and you wont have any... Now I'd like
July 22nd, 2009
This one was very odd. Brad, me, my mum, and his father were at a picnic. There were GIGANTIC grabe. like, graped the shape and size of corndogs. and they were juicy, and delicous, and I nommed them lots. At one point, they became normal sized agai nand i was sad. then we went to the swingset and swung.     Very odd.
10 Commandments Of A Teenager...
10 COMMANDMENTS OF A TEENAGER 1) Thou shall not sneak out when parents are sleeping. (why wait?) 2) Thou shall not do drugs (Alcohol last longer) 3) Thou shall not steel from K-Mart. (WalMart has a bigger selection) 4) Thou shall not get arrested for vandalism. (Destruction has a bigger effect) 5) Thou shall not steel from thy parents. (Every one knows grandma has more money) 6) Thou shall not get in fights. (Just start them) 7) Thou shall not skip class. (Just take the whole day off) 8) Thou shall not strip in class. (Hooters pays more) 9) Thou shall not think about having sex. (As Nike says Just Do It) 10) Thou shall not help old ladies cross the street. (Just leave them in the middle)
15 Pieces Of Advice To Be Passed On To Your Daughters..
15 PIECES OF ADVICE TO BE PASSED ON TO YOUR DAUGHTERS 1. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers. 2. What do you do if your boyfriend walks-out? You shut the door. 3. If they put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all up there. 4. Never let your man's mind wander - it's too little to be out alone. 5. Go for younger men. You might as well - they never mature anyway. 6. Men are all the same - they just have different faces, so that you can tell them apart. 7. Definition of a bachelor; a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable. 8. Women don't make fools of men - most of them are the do-it-yourself types. 9. Best way to get a man to do something, is to suggest they are too old for it. 10. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener. 11. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital. 12. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years. Even in biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions. 13. If he
Dont Turn Me Away
Looking down im filled with dread It feels like my life is hanging by a thin thread Cannot rest throughout the night Nightmares leaving me with nothing but a fright Dreams intruding that can never be Daydreams barge in, but ones ill never have happen or see I wish above all else to close my exhausted eyes Be free from all the deceit and lies I feel like im falling apart Although i knew this would happen from the start I never get to keep happiness in my life I feel like a biohazard it always ends in strife The last few years have been hell to deal I wish i could block out my feelings and just not feel To shut them off and just not care To not care if life was fair I'm forced to tread on with what ive been dealt To be alone in the feelings ive thought or felt i feel like i can never catch a break To find something to assauge the ache Disappointment floods in from ones i thought i loved Everyone always pushes and leaves me feeling unloved They ignore my wants and my dreams Leaving me
Moments In Life
There are moments in life when you miss someoneso much that you just want to pick them fromyour dreams and hug them for real! When the door of happiness closes, another opens;but often times we look so long at theclosed door that we don't see the one,which has been opened for us. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile tomake a dark day seem bright.Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream;go where you want to go;be what you want to be,because you have only one lifeand one chance to do all the thingsyou want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong,enough sorrow to keep you human andenough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarilyhave the best of everything;they just make the most ofeverything that comes along their way. The brightest future will alwaysbe based on a forgotten past
Update On Chica
Hey everyone, I am so so sorry I haven't been able to be on lately. As the ones of you who are close to me already know my laptop completely crashed.. I moved out of my apartment back in with the 'rents bc of personal issues. I am now working full time and overtime to get myself a new car and a place of my own all while taking care of the baby and helping raise my siblings. I miss you guys all so much and I get on and check my stuff whenever possible. I have a new man in my life. His name is Danny but everyone calls him Boda. He is awesome. We've been seeing each other for almost a month now. I have made some new friends out here as well. I was WAY depressed because I was so far away from my family and friends that I'd known forever but I'm doing MUCH better now. I will continue to check in and let you guys know what is up. Just ask me anything you guys wanna know and I'll be sure to answer! Please don't forget about me. I am doing the best I can!   WITH ALL MY HEART Ashley Nichole
Feel The Breeze
as i feel the breeze blow on my face i close my eyes and see you face your smile, you bright eyes i think about our first kiss how our lips touched and our hands searched our bodies as we kissed we drew closer towards each other till we coildnot get any closer our kiss searching and explorling i felt your breath as you were searching for air as we kissed  not wanting topart to breath i draw you closer to me holding you tight not wanting to let go i open my eyes and see the deep blue sea the clouds in the sky and im all alone feeling the breeze on my face i close my eyes again and wish you were with me once more      
Familiar Taste Of Poison
Drink the wineMy darling you saidTake your timeAnd consume all of itBut the rosesWere only to drain my inspirationsThe promises were spoiledBefore they left your lips[Chorus}I breathe you in again just to feel youUnderneath my skinHolding on toThe sweet escapeIs always laced with theFamiliar taste of poisonI tell myselfThat you're no good for meI wish you wellBut desire never leavesI could fight this'Til the endBut maybe I don't want to win[Chorus]I don't want to be savedI don't want to be so politeI want you on my mindIn my dreamsBehind these eyesAnd I dont wanna wake upNo not this time[Chorus]
Hello Fu Friends   I have decided to hold an auction.   Entry fee is 50k   Minimum bid is 100k   No i dont have some snazzy name for this auction its just a damn auction lol   i need your offering and a valid photo link to the pic you want used.   Start date will be july 27th at 12am est and will close on august 10th at 12am est   ownership will last one month   if there is drama say goodbye you are out   there is no deadline on when you can join but i would like it to be sooner then later   If you are interested just let me know       lets keep this simple please send all the info i need in the fupal transfer i hate the run around game if you need help with your offering i have a auction photo in my default but its really easy its stuff like rates, gifts, salutes, etc
My Thoughts For This Thursday
this week the police finally found the dead body of 8yr old tori stafford. she was kidnapped back in april and her killers sitting in jail right now awaiting trial. no an amber alert had been issued after she had been missing for over two days. now the amber alert was not isssued right after a child had been missing because according to the police she did not fit the criteria. now give me a break. how could a child still missing after 24hrs not fit the criteria for an amber alert. some people need their heads checked.  the case was even shown on americas most wanted. the one good thing that came out of this is the amber alert system in ontario is being revised and 8yr old tori can now rest in peace. but what about her killers should they be put in general population and not in their own private cells i think they should. child killer paul bernado gets his own cell his own tv and has every thing he wanted cause he is afraid of getting killed in general population. no offense but he dese
New Here
ok so yeah im new here and i dont really know what im doing so heres to figuring things out... i reeally hope i dont fuck up my computer trying to work it all out that would just be me and my luck... FUCKING GREAT... so anyways... come be my friend or somyhing... i dont know... GO FIGURE... right well besides that i dont know
Too Tired To Process Thought...
Tubeway Army.You Are In My VisionFade to scenes of violence. Like a TV screen but silent. Where the victims are all paid by the hour. Staring at the ceiling as she gyrates all around me. I'm trying to forget she's done this all before. Far too many people. For a quiet night with myself. Oh, I could be anyone tonight. Focus on a feeling I've detected while I was sleeping. Sing a chorus of On Broadway and deny it all. You are in my vision. I can't turn my face. You are in my vision. I don't move my eyes. You are in my vision. I don't move at all. You are in my vision. Delicate bodies that decay beneath their clothing. Play Gods in an empty house in Paris. The wreckage of our hero lies. Broken in the corner and. Everyone pretends they like to live that way. You are in my vision. I can't turn my face. You are in my vision. I don't move my eyes. You are in my eyes. I don't move at all. You are in my vision.     So... new theory for a new short(ish) story (novella) ... Listen to Replicas,
Take Time To Have Fun
Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine.I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. >>From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible.How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word 'refrigeration' mean nothing to you?How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television?I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, 'How about going to lunch in a half hour? She would gas up and stammer, 'I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain.' And my personal favorite: 'It's Monday.' She died
Fuck That !!
what'z up nigga? im jus toleratein a bunch of niggaz motherfuckerz plotin on a nigga their a fuckin bitch nigga! make sure you bring it Pac Hey yo Pac ! do that shit westside style! an make sure you bring that real shit ! HEY YO PAC!! You heard it wrong nigga, there ain't nothing sweetabout my techniQueI have you checkin for my breathless quotes! I wrote deadlyMy history so thoroughly involves destructiOnniggaz left with their ass bleeding lyrical fuckingopen upFirst to bust! let me see your heartTurn the lights down because I might clown in the darkWhen I Check in the heartz of Men what do we find??Niggaz watching for my pockets planning plots on mineAm I Blind? Let My Rhymes speak!For Me In History a Legend You cant find meDon Makaveli bitch*! bow down to deathrowFuck What You Say! We Are UntouchableNow that we done shook Dr. dreHe aint made a beat in 6 yearsswear he's the shitwon't get no record sales sucking on Nas's dickLet Me get my preach on niggadrop the beat I get my freak ont
These are the Keys to a Loving Lasting Relationship ~ Enjoy!~ Love one another with all your hearts.~ Give more than you take.~ Don't ever take your relationship for granted.~ Have heart-to-heart talks and really communicate.~ Be trusting, playful, intimate and kind.~ Appreciate all the little, special things.~ Recognize that time spent together is a treasure.~ Make the most of what each day brings.~ Know that nothing is sweeter than the warmth of one hand within another.~ Walk together in the direction you want to go.~ Be supportive and sharing and open to changes.~ Always continue to grow.~ Cherish this blessing which so few truly find.~ Have dreams to reach out for through the years.~ Share one another's smiles through the good times.~ Be everything to one another through the tears.~ What your time together lacks in quantity, make up for with quality.~ Call to say "I love you" in the middle of the day.~ Keep your sense of humor and hold on to your hopes.~ Don't let work or worries
My Bestest Friend
For My Bestest Friend Friendship is something to hold on to But for me that's not the case Cause I don't feel I need to keep Something that can't be erased I am sure of what I have Cause with you I have no doubt For what we've built, can't ever fail It's what I care about I find it hard to describe This thing that we share Especially when there's nothing else That ever could compare Others always know That together we will be For there can never be another "Tani and Kerrie" Those two words, known all over Might as well be one Cause without a Trish, there is no Lorie I'm sorry, it just can't be done For you're the "U", and I'm the "S" And forever that will be Cause together we make "US", and so you complete me and YOUR MY BESTEST FRIEND!!!
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Sexual arousal from fire.
One Of The Worst Things Ive Heard Lately
so i was just watching the news about this 8 year old girl that got gang raped in a shed by 4 kids ages 9-14, the girls mother blames her for getting raped when the kids just grabbed her and raped her...granted they were all friends but still what the fuck this bitch thinks that her 8 year old daughter deserved to get raped, man i wanna punch her... i dont care what she might of done or what but noone deserves to get raped. tell me how would anyone else feel if i t was their daughter in that situation(god forbid), u would be pissed and want justice i know i would..not blame her for getting raped...shes 8 YEARS OLD FOR GODS SAKE COME ON...she prob doesnt even know what the word rape means
Another Long Periond Of Astinence
I don’t believe this.  I never thought this could happen again, or at least till I was in my fifties.  Some of  you may be wondering why I am even bringing this up in the first place, I don’t know, bored, get it off my chest.  I don’t really expect sympathy or pity over this, so bear with me.  The reason I am talking is that in the next month or so, I will have completed my second time since becoming sexually active that I have went without sex for two years.  Now, I will have to say it was more by choice than of something that was forced upon.  For one, my situation for the past year or so was not very good and a relationship was the last thing on my mind to have, because I tend to want to have money first before having a relationship, mainly to me that is the whole idea.  Of course, I do know some of my friends that do tend to jump first into whatever they get their hands on and worry about money second, if they do worry about money.  Obviously, the relationship ten
Writting /thoughts
friedship is like a garden,if you don,t take care of it ,weeds will grow in it and thegarden will die andbcome a useles equity in the work you did in the begining to produce love ,respect,honesty and a bond beween two people when the great spirit crossed paths with one another in the first place of your uncrtainty of your life termoil.
New To Fubar
so I'm new to fubar. need to get a recent pic of myself for my profile. any help would be great!!
...... lo que realizo es las manos que se alimentan la boca no son todos los caminos la mano que se alimenta, ahora debeiia yo estar de pie en el coridoor de abandono.. o llevar a hombros el falues de una leccion aprendida sin excusas..   es el tiempo que la mosca por y no espera a ningun hombre, mujer, o nino, en estas opciones de vida son hechos la cama que a menudo buscamos es el que que hemos puesto.. coger de su destino por los caminos de opciones choosen para ser,   lanzo el corazon que duele dolores.. es la vida vivimos como un no en vano...   FUEGO POETICAS
My #1 Friend
Alissa aka Goddess Curvy is totally awesome.  She was a no brainer for my #1.  All of fuland plz show this lady lots of love!
Shadows lurk, expand, devour more and more with each passing hour.   I won't speak or cry to you but I'll smile and lie to you.   Forget I ever said a thing as I let my consciense ring.   You'll look away and I will sigh another day passing me by.   Forge a new life o'er this past I don't think this dam will last.   Will I live to see a day that the shame will falter and skitter away....   and the cliche rhymes in my head will take their place with the dead.                
I say that I'm a cliche, and yet the words from your mouth and yours and yours mean nothing to me.... I can move a room, child.   Ego built on reality, I'll fall back on my own two hands, with strong wrists to lift me back up. Forget the time I spent wasting wasting away devouring time with the meaningless and trivial. tomorrow will be mine.  
I Thank You.....
I Thank You I thank you sir for what you did for me. For the purple heart you got while keeping us free. And Im sorry that our nations gratitude is so dry. And for the memories that you now carry and the tears you now cry. For your trudging threw mud, and fighting til dawn. While losing close friends but still carrying on. For taking the shells, sadly hearing the screams. For living threw hell, that now lives in your dreams. And Im sorry sir it had to turn out that way. And Im sorry more when ungrateful people say the shit they say. But I thank you truly the best I can.                        And I count it an honor to just shake your hand
Yo Ho
  Yo, ho, haul together,hoist the colors high.Heave ho,thieves and beggars,never shall we die. The king and his menstole the queen from her bedand bound her in her Bones.The seas be oursand by the powerswhere we will we'll roam. Yo, ho, haul together,hoist the colors high.Heave ho, thieves and beggars,never shall we die. Some men have diedand some are aliveand others sail on the sea– with the keys to the cage...and the Devil to paywe lay to Fiddler's Green! The bell has been raisedfrom it's watery grave...Do you hear it's sepulchral tone?We are a call to all,pay head the squalland turn your sail toward home! Yo, ho, haul together,hoist the colors high.Heave ho, thieves and beggars,never shall we die.
Bubba Walks On Water
 Bubba had long> heard the stories of an amazing>  family> > tradition. It> > > seems that his father,> grandfather and>  great-grandfather> > had all been able to> > > walk on water on their>  21st birthday. On that special> day,> > they'd each> > > walked across  the> lake to the bar on the far side> for> > their first legal>  drink.> >  > > So when Bubba's 21st> birthday came around, he and>  his> > pal Jim Bob took a> > > boat out to the middle of> the lake, Bubba  stepped out> of> > the boat .... And> > > nearly drowned! Jim Bob> just  barely managed to pull him> to> > safety.> >  > > Furious and  confused,> Bubba went to see his grandmother.> > 'Grandma,' he>  > > asked, 'it's my> 21st birthday, so why can't I> > walk 'cross the>  lake like my > > pappy, his father, and his> father before  him?'> >  > > Granny looked deeply into> Bubba's troubled eyes and > > said, 'Because your> > > father, your grandfather> and your great  grandfather> were> > born in January,> > > when the lak
Things I Won't Do...
I'm never gonna1. Give you up2. Let you down3. Run around and desert you4. Make you cry5. Say goodbye6. Tell a lie and hurt you And ditto goes for Rick Astley...
Solar Eclipse Over Chongqing,china
Male equivalent of nymphomania.
Giving Back...are You A Giver?
All of us can be philanthropists regardless of age, ethnic group, or economic status. While philanthropy is often expressed by a significant monetary donation to worthy causes, writing a check is only one way to flex your giving muscles. Many of you already use a combination of resources, including time, treasure, and talent to support causes you care about. The common goal of all givers is to promote the welfare of others. Whether you’ve reaped rewards from life or feel you’ve been denied them, be one of those resilient individuals who help others simply because it feels right, just, and satisfying to do so. While you may recognize that acts of charity and community service are good and necessary, you may not believe that you personally can make an impact on society. You may feel overwhelmed with the enormity of need that exists. You’re only one person after all, and there is so much to be done. But don’t be discouraged. Begin. As they say, if you save one
Sleep Well Baby
  She laid in bed as she tried to fall a-sleep. Tossing and turning as she normally had. Her mind began to wander as she thought of him lying next to her. Intense sexual desire began to flood her body as she softly moaned in extasy. She felt the soft touch of hands running down her face, and ever so slowly down her body, as if they were his hands, but they were so familiar they could have been her own. She was in disbelief as she opened her eyes to see if her dream were not real, only to find that the hands that she felt were the hands of the man that she desired most of all. As she gazed into his baby blue eyes, all she could see was a passion so deep for her that the heavens and earth seemed to stand still. He grasped her body in such a manner as to say" I am here to control your every move, but also have you want me to." As he thrust her nearly naked body against his own, with an authority that she yearned for, he ripped her blouse off of her and began to lick every inch of her perf
Be Honest With Me...
Its time to step up and be a man You said brutal honesty will be the plan So why the deceit and why the lies? Why continue to put pain behind my eyes? Why continue to jab me in the heart? You promised to be honest from the start Dont hide, dont run Step up and destroy me, just get the deed done Dont run and hide when youre scared. Be honest with me if any feelings we had were once shared Say what you want and not what you think i need Get the pain over with quickness and speed Run the other way if you must Destroy me, annihlate my trust Gather your balls the times at hand Time for you to take your last stand If you dont want friendship tell me, youll be free Be honest and true the deceit hurts me if you even see Dont fuck with my heart, to keep me under your spell Just destroy me and leave my heart where its fell Basically, im sick of being lied to. i want one fucking person in my life to be honest for a change. If you dont like me and dont want to be around me then say it and dont f
Our Song
"On Bended Knee"Darlin' I can't explainWhere did we lose our wayGirl it's drivin' me insaneAnd I know I just need one more chanceTo prove my love to youIf you come back to meI'll guaranteeThat I'll never let you goCan we go back to the days our love was strongCan you tell me how a perfect love goes wrongCan somebody tell me how to get things backThe way they use to beOh God give me a reasonI'm down on bended kneeI'll never walk again until you come back to meI'm down on bended kneeSo many nights I dream of youHolding my pillow tightI know I don't need to be aloneWhen I open up my eyesTo face realityEvery moment without youIt seems like eternityI'm begging you, begging you come back to meCan we go back to the days our love was strongCan you tell me how a perfect love goes wrongCan somebody tell me how to get things backThe way they use to beOh God give me a reasonI'm down on bended kneeI'll never walk again until you come back to meI'm down on bended kneeGonna swallow my prideSay I'm so
The Right One...
     People think that I am crazy or that it scares them away that I know this already. I don't think I am wrong in anyway and my instincts are just setting in. I have given this a lot of thought and I do know what I am looking for in a woman. I have no reason not to believe that she may not be on here so I am willing to meet and get to know anyone on here.      This is what I am looking for: Body shape/size doesn't matter to me (seriously) Must be willing to have kids (if she can't there are other options) Must not have a "premade family" Must be okay with the outdoors Must not be a hardcore drinker      These are the resrtictions but a couple of them can be bent to allow "the one" into it if I happen to find her.
Its Something Gettin Out My Mindand Its For You Jessica
Her heaven Vs. My hell She sweetie like melons I'm worse than a felony but yet this is my heaven in this hell Shes the the sunshine in my rain and I'm the damage in my pain but yet this is my heaven in this hell She keeps me in line like skates But I smash hearts  like grapes but yet  this is my heaven in this hell I am the damage in your pain She's the she the the umbrella in the rain but yet this is my heaven in this hell even though i am the demon in disguise  I will never trade her for thick thighs or pretty eyes Cause she is my heaven in my hell.
Empty -by Ray LamontagneShe lifts her skirt up to her kneesWalks through the garden rows with her bare feet, laughingI never learned to count my blessingsI choose instead to dwell in my disastersWalk on down the hillThrough the grass grown tall and brownAnd still it's hard somehow to let go of my painOn past the busted backOf that old and rusted CadillacThat sinks into this field collecting rainWill I always feel this waySo empty, so estrangedOf these cutthroat busted sunsetsThese cold and damp white mornings I have grown wearyIf through my cracked and dusty dimestore lipsI spoke these words out loud would no one hear meLay your blouse across the chairLet fall the flowers from your hairAnd kiss me with that country mouth so plainOutside the rain is tapping on the leavesTo me it sounds like they're applauding usThe quiet love we makeWill I always feel this waySo empty, so estrangedWell I looked my demons in the eyeLaid bare my chest said do your best destroy meSee I've been to hell and
Lilac Wine/jeff Buckley
I lost myself on a cool damp nightI Gave myself in that misty lightWas hypnotized by a strange delightUnder a lilac treeI made wine from the lilac treePut my heart in its recipeIt makes me see what I want to seeand be what I want to beWhen I think more than I want to thinkI do things I never should doI drink much more than I ought to drinkBecause it brings me back you...Lilac wine is sweet and heady, like my loveLilac wine, I feel unsteady, like my loveListen to me... I cannot see clearlyIsn't that she coming to me nearly here? Lilac wine is sweet and heady, where's my love?Lilac wine, I feel unsteady, where's my love? Listen to me, why is everything so hazy?Isn't that she, or am I just going crazy, dear? Lilac Wine, I feel unready for my love,feel unready for my love  
Conversion (part 2)
Vanessa:I wake to dim light and the rattle of chains.It takes a moment for me to realize that the chains are attached to my own wrists; apparently, I have been restrained to Michael's wall with my arms above my head. I’m still in the outfit I had on when I killed my husband -- short skirt, stockings, and heels.“You’re finally awake,” Michael says from a few feet away. “It’s been several hours.” He is wearing a pair of loose fitting tie-wasted pants and little else; his bare chest is hairless and incredibly muscular, as are his arms and shoulders. Now I’m awake.“Why am I chained to a wall?” I ask, more sarcastically than I’d hoped.“You’ll see soon enough,” he says. “When your first blood-lust hits you tonight, you’ll be… rather difficult to control. So I restrained you first.” He explains further to me that the first night after a change like mine is typically the worst night I&r
Are They Kidding Me???
So there is a group of people Sueing Denny's because their food has Excessive amounts of Salt in it. Now, I agree this isn't good but here's a peice of advise... DON"T FUCKIN EAT THERE!!!!!!  Why sue them when eating there is your choise???? Here's a few things you SHOULD know... #1. Coffee is HOT #2 HOT cocoa is HOT #3 Ice Coffee is COLD #4 and maybe the most important, IF YOU DID NOT MAKE IT YOURSELF, YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS IN IT.... #5 Do not whine you got fat eting Fast Foods      Do not whine there is excessive amounts of salt in resteraunt food      Do not comlain fast food is bad for your kids....   Try cooking aty home with fresh food, it's amazing and you know what goes into it, not just ingr. but the love that went into making it... GO FIGURE....
We need to change racial attitudes and perceptions of each other as a society. The police and black folks has been a problem long before I ever got here. Now that it  has national attention and the white house attention maybe something can be done. We don't need another Rodney King situation.
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New Season - It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia
So I'm just so excited today because the best show on TV is back with a new season in a few months. I have 4 shows that I bother to tivo, and this is one of them. If you've never caught it, you should!
Party What?
 Woman who is passed around the party for sex purposes = Party Favor      Party Pooper = The male version of the same thing     How wrong is this?
Some New News!
Yesterday Sam took off work and packed her stuff at her old place and moved it into storage until out place is ready.  She told her parents that she is going to be staying with a friend, so they can go ahead and sell their place.  They were excited by that.  The jerk wasn't there when she moved but a friend of his was there to let her in, she has three brothers who helped her move.  The friend told her that the jerk got the message that he won't ever again contact her.  He said the jerk was scared and he didn't scare easily.  I want to ask my friend what he did but not sure if I should..........Anyway, all is well here, going to go out after I write this and enjoy the weather, we have a forest preserve close by with trails and thinking about walking them.  Same is gone today with her brothers, she is taking them to a show and dinner for helping her and my friend has to go into work today for some extra me is all alone today! Sam did go to bar for me last Thursday night and
I cant help but feel that something has changed between the love of my life and I. I live in Indiana and she lives in Texas. I know that long distance relationships are hard. We were in a long distance relationship with one another back in 2004. She had gotten scared and pushed me away. I know that she is probably just busy because she has two little boys and she is currently on the night shift as an LVN (nurse). We both had agreed that no matter what. We would tell one another how we are feeling. Especially if it is about our relationship. For some reason I feel like something has changed between her and I. And I dont know why or what. Maybe it is just my imagination. But I am truely scared that I may have lost her again or that I may have pushed her away. I've sent her a txt about how i feel and have asked her if something has changed or if I have lost her or pushed her away. And she hasnt answered back. I feel that this time its my fault.
Making Burgers
A man walks into a hamburger shop and orders a regular meal. Later, the waitress brings his meal to him. He takes a bite out of it, and notices there's a small hair in the hamburger. He begins yelling frantically at the waitress, "Waitress, there's a hair in my hamburger! I demand to see what is going on!" So, the waitress takes him back where the cook is and to his demise, he sees the cook take the meat patty and flatten it under his arm pit. He says, "That's disgusting!"Then the waitress says, "You think that's disgusting you should see him make donuts."
Hey everyone, I just ran into a peculiar situation, rare in fact, looking back at my weeks on Fubar.  I rated and fanned someone, who got all upset about being fanned without having been asked 'permission'  So, I'm checking to see how rare this is.... anyone out there want to be asked before they get fanned? if so how come? There may be a good reason, I don't realize yet, and I may not be the only one. I'm just asking, don't feel like you have to defend it. Anyone just happy to get fanned period! lol  
Im horney 4 only 1 man. He got me off 15 times last night and never even touched me. LOL. Damn he is good.I had the best time ever last night. WE talked all night and it was amasing. I have never gotten off that many times in a row with out being touched. A year is jus to damn long to go without. Guess who it is  
Shatterd Faith
to the ones who walk among the  truely loved, the ones who love and the ones that are passionate. who know who you are and y you even do this to ppl is beond me! you finde someone and you fall for them not knowing what you really feel till you loose it or you wreck it with disregard, selfishness and take it for granted. so y even try to think you can make it better finding someone eles to take there place? im here to tell ya you cant take another heart and feed it lies, half truths, and say you love this person when in fact the one you truely love is the one you left behinde! if you havent fixed what you broke or shatterd in your past and you are still drawn to that person, you have no bisness hurting another with what and how you feel about a husbend, ex or even a separtaion! i know this will never stop but i wish ppl would take the time to heal or maybe think about what they really want befor they break or shatter another heart!! they allways ask y dont you trust me? and say im not d
Lily Baby
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Stolen From Dagorath
Heartless Fu-diva?
Lesson Learned.
Did you start a wait for me, buried-in knees deep? And in your own elegancy, docile, sound asleep. As I thrashed out jealously, to dumb to what I reap. Furthering my own idiocy, fall further from a leap. Now I found humility, from hours made to weep. In my own civility, now I'm yours to keep.
I remembered black skies, the lightning all around meI remembered each flash as time began to blurLike a startling sign that fate had finally found meAnd your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserveSo give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory cleanLet the floods cross the distance in your eyesGive me reason to fill this hole, connect the space betweenLet it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divideThere was nothing in sight but memories left abandonedThere was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snowAnd the ground caved in between where we were standingAnd your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserveSo give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory cleanLet the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divideIn every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd denyAnd each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hideAnd your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserveSo give me reason to prove me wron
About Me Pics
To know me..These movies are powerful in music and story.  I beleive in them..
Old Loves
Sometimes it is very hard to let go of old loves and what might have been. When you think of your old love you picture all the good times. You recall how they were there for you. You can never forget their touch, smell, and their little ways of making you feel so wonderful. How does one let go?
Southern Cutie Is A Fake.
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D
Country With A Kick
We would like to have every one come by and check out the SXR LOUNGE. We play country music 24/7 with live dj's. You can join the fun and make requests. Most of all we know how to play the new stuff no one has.    THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.   DJ RENAGADE  FOR SOUTHERNXTREMERADIO  
Stepping Stones Of Life
      steping stones of life. Current mood:  awake life is full of steping stones, i think heart break is one! we break hearts and fix them, for others. its kinda weird how we can be the stone for another when we have a hard time building our own! i think god for my friends! they are my concrete for my steping stones! we meet people that touch our hearts and fill the emptyness in us! my stones are starting to get stronger. the changes that iv mad have ben really hard and has took aolt of time! finaly my foundation of my life is geting stronger and biger! im 36 years old and single, but iv learned so much from the ones that hurt my heart to know now what i really want! i look like a bad boy out side but inside im a big teady bear! some day i hope to meet that part of me thats missing and fill the lonelyness left inside! everything i got now is enoph for me! to the ones that have broke my heart, thank you! to the ones i broke theres im sorry! it lifes way of making us who we are
This Is So Fucking Cute!!
      fuckn love this!! Current mood:  amused . Two little kids, aged six and eight, decide it's time to learn how to swear. So, the eight year old says to the six year old, "Okay, you say ..ass' and I'll say ..hell'". All excited about their plan, they troop downstairs, where their mother asks them what they'd like for breakfast. "Aw, hell," says the eight-year-old, "gimme some Cheerios." His mother backhands him off the stool, sending him bawling out of the room, and turns to the younger brother. "What'll you have?" "I dunno," quavers the six-year-old, "but you can bet your ass it ain't gonna be Cheerios.  
Celebrating Being A Veteran!!!
How I Feel
Just some thing to know a bout me.  I try to go in to the military as soon as I got out of high school. I wasn’t excepted because I can’t read so well or right but I have gotten better not by much it’s still a work in progress. Lol another reason I was trend down was I have two screws in my right foot but my father was in the navy he was radio man on a destroyer one of my grandpas was in the air force in world war II and my dads four brother was in an Amy and the marines one of my uncles john was a sergeant and in the green brays and I am have had a relatives in ever war all the way back to the civil war.   I am prude of my family and my history I support our troops My father is in the legend of homer for the shrines if it wisent for our troops then this country would never know real freedom.  If I was ever drafted then I would go and I would know what to fight for all the thing that our honored troops fight for us and this country  !
Today was was just feeling like blah..blah a la... Had to work with someone that I dislike today and it wasnt' that one bitch... some dude that started to give me a attitude when I was semi training him on day. I was only suppose to shadow him, to make sure he was doing his training right...he basically got the job fine when he was being trained the day before and I was just around him as a shadow. I wasn't able to shadow him all the time though because I was needed in other places. So I had told him if he had any questions, just pull me away from the other place and I would help him. Few hour later, he told me that I was a real bad trainer and narked on my manager. Uhh hello, I'm only suppose to shadow you and help you when you needed never asked for my help with anything. So how can I be a bad trainer when he didn't ask for help, I was busy working in other places and I was only suppose to shadow him? He also thinks he's one of those "Oh I know all an
For One More Day.....
if you could have one more day with someone close who has died who would it be and why?     mine is my want to tell him that im sorry for the hurt i caused him and my mom when i was younger   when he was sick i tried to but never could
The Perfect Night
THE PERFECT NIGHT BY THOMAS CLOUD She walked into the room dressed in a sexy black lingerie,her voluptious breast compliment her medium sized waist,Her ass plump like two small watermelons.She stroled over to the sofa where i was sitting, My eyes in awe, my penis getting hard. the thoughs running through my mind were almost perverted.She gently and slowly took the remote from my paralyzed hand,She took hand and placed it on her thigh,slowly up and down her nighty making sure to run my hand up under her nighty.As my hand traveled up her nighty i felt my erection growning immensly.Slowly with my other hand i began stroking and massaging my penis,thoughts of passion and lust raiding my mind.She then slaps me across the face and says "No No touching yourself"She then run my fingers around her vagina slipping my fingers inside from time to time,My penis begins to throb as she licks my fingers. She shoved me back onto the sofa and slowly began unbuttoning my shirt,slowly m
What The Hell?
CHICAGO, Illinois (CNN) -- Authorities will investigate an Illinois cemetery after a bone found on the ground there was determined to be human, a sheriff's spokesman said Saturday. On Friday, a worker dropping off vaults at Mt. Glenwood Cemetery, in Glenwood, Illinois, noticed a bone lying on the ground, Cook County sheriff's office spokesman Steve Patterson said in an e-mail. The bone was located in an area where vaults, old headstones and other cemetery materials are stored, Patterson said. The worker contacted authorities and the bone was taken to the Cook County Medical Examiner's office, which determined that it was human, Patterson said. "Based on that information, the sheriff's police will now start an investigation, which will include interviewing those working at the cemetery, among others," he wrote. "I don't know whether this is a sign of a greater problem or if there is a valid reason why this bone was found where it was." The discovery comes days after three people f
A Slight Detour Through Asia
  A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man, pt. 7   Or A Slight Detour through Asia   "Life is Cheap ...but Toilet Paper is Expensive" -an Old man in Thailand, 1994 O.K, so maybe Aum Shinrikyo wasn't the "Bringer of Death" (aka, The Punishment from G-d), that they wanted to be. They tried, on a dozen occasions at least, to bring Armageddon to Asia. Yet, they failed.  They were truly the "Cult That Couldn't Shoot Straight".  If you haven't heard of Aum Shinrikyo, then read my last blog, "A 250-Year-Old Boogey Man, pt. 6." Its o.k., I'll wait. Didja read it? Ain't it funny? Yeah, I thought so, too.  That's right, yeah, Aum Shinrikyo sucked, but whatcha gonna do?  Never throw rocks at a man whose holding a machine gun, I say.  A bunch of lame ass nerds, who wanted to create some "body counts", but they failed.  They wanted to bring Armageddon, and all they did was become a joke.  So just who caused the massive deaths, the massive body counts, to the Land of the Rising Sun?
I love your face and your warm embraceWhen you hold me, its like youve always known meKiss on the forhead the meaning of admirationIts like a love creationWhen you kiss me I can feel how much youve missed meHow you look in my eyes its like you can see my soulI cant express my feelings for you bc there is no words to describe my complete blissI feine for your kiss and would die for your smileIm addicted to you
When The Music Is Over
After surgery to remove a cancer tumor the hospice group came to my house to provide post op care.  Their doctor warned me that agressive treatments to kill the final 10 percent of the cancer remaining (assumed remaining) would put me back into the hospital and although I might gain some extra time that time would not be much fun (I will not go into details).   So at this moment I believe I will not subject myself to an attempt to get cured by x ray bombardments.  Hospise will make sure the rest of my time here will be as comfortable and as painless as possible.   However.... cancer is a funny thing and sometimes it can reverse itself,  this i will not know for a few months.  The doctor said he cannot speak about miracles and must stick to the science of course.   Although I must take it easy to recover from surgery it is not in my nature to sit around dieing so I will focus on living instead.  I am not feeling down and out nor depressed,  and ready for whatever this journey has to o
A Damn Fine Explanation
The  wife came home early and found her husband in their  bedroom making love to a very attractive young  woman.          And she was somewhat upset.~~  'You are a disrespectful pig!' she cried. 'How dare  you do this to me -- a faithful wife, the mother of  your children! I'm leaving you. I want a divorce right  away!'          And the husband replied,  'Hang on just a minute love, so at least I can tell you  what happened.' 'Fine, go ahead,' she sobbed,' but  they'll be the last words you'll say to  me!'        And  the husband began -- 'Well, I was getting into the car  to drive home, and this young lady here asked me for a  lift. She looked so down and out and defenseless that  I took pity on her and let her into the  car.          I noticed that she was very  thin, not well dressed and very dirty. She told me  that she hadn't eaten for three  days.          So, in my compassion, I  brought her home and warmed up the enchiladas I made  for you last night, the ones you wouldn't eat
Something For Sister's Friends And Family!!
For The First A Long Time...
For the first a very very...VERY long time...I have something to look forward too... and it is probably one of the best things...I will ever have, as far as I'm concerned...;)... going to see Otep...on 8/19/09...might not mean anything to anyone else...and forgive me if I don't give a shit bout that...;)...But... It means more to me...than anyone will ever know...and I just felt the need to say that dammit!!!...;) And...after that show...if I should die... I...will have then...died complete...yeah...I will...;)...
Fantasy Nights
My wife and I were over to our friend’s house for New Years. It had become a bit of a tradition for us since we got married. The wife was pregnant with twins and almost due, so it had been months for me without sex, unless you call jerking off sex.Well, as the night wore on I got chatting with a friend (Jane) of my mate’s wife (Michelle). At about 10 pm my wife turns to me and says she is tired and is heading to bed, so I kissed on the cheek and said goodnight. I went back to chatting with Jane and as the New Year came we kissed each other on the cheek and said happy New Year.At about 2 am there was just me Jane and Michelle awake. The other guys had passed out or gone to bed. Jane suggested a game of pool so we started playing, when Michelle said, “Let’s make it fun and play strip pool. For every ball you don’t sink you have to loose some clothing. I was a bit taken aback at first with the alcohol and the idea of seeing both them naked or at least partly
Poetry From My Book
How do you deal with pain?When it consumes you like the heat of a summers’ dayWhen all your life you’ve hidden it awayThen someone comes along and says it doesn’t have to be that waySays be yourself you are a flowerYou let go, then in a blink of an eye your world turns sourHow do you deal with pain?When you lye in a sea of disparityOvertaken with thoughts of uncertaintyHow do you deal with pain?When all the acts and words you thought to be trueTurn out to be lies simply fed to youHow do you deal with pain?When it comes to passThat preceding daysWere filled with misguided notionsShowered with false emotionsHow do you deal with pain?When all you thought was real in your lifeEnds up in strifeHow do you deal with pain?If what you feel devours you spiritIf everyday you constantly feel itHow do you deal with pain?When expectations of the one you loveSeemed not so far out of reachWhen foreseen acts of the one you loveAppeared as though they would not end up breachHow do you
Damaged - Danity Kane
My best friend says this is my song, not just as an aftermath of my marriage, but from all the other shit I've been through in my life.  I had to laugh.  Funny, sad & true at the same time. "Damaged"Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?Tell me,are you patient,understanding?Cause I might need some time to clear the hold in my heart and II've tried every remedyAnd nothing seems to work for meBaby, (baby)this situation is driving me crazyAnd I really wanna be your ladyBut the one before you left me so[Chorus:]Damaged, damagedDamaged, damagedI thought that I should let you knowThat my heart isDamaged, damagedSo DamagedAnd you can blame the one beforeSo how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix itHow you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?)Do Do you got a first aid kit
My Sister And Friend Pokimex
My sister sigh.....what can I say She's nuts and a sweetheart everyday I love talkin to my sis she always sumin new but one things for sure there always a fuck you but she can be soo sweet and caring at times but someones always makin her loses her mind she a great friend an I thinks she's great and always on time even if she's a lil late my sis what can I say she supports me everyday I love my sis and she a good girl Sis is always letting me know what's in her world I find myself cussin people out cause some treated her wrong But when I got there shes already got them actin like emo's in thongs it's funny she knows I'm ready to ride but when she goes off, I gotta go run and hide my sis SMC soundin off like a SMG sigh..... what is there else to say you are the best sister I can have and I wouldn't have it anyother way THANX SIS MUAH!!!! OH SHIT SHE GOIN OFF AGAIN GOTTA GO PEACE!!!!
When Life Gives You Lemons
The local bar was so sure that its bartender was the strongest man around that they offered a standing $1000 bet. The bartender would squeeze a lemon until all the juice ran into a glass, and hand the lemon to a patron. Anyone who could squeeze one more drop of juice out would win the money. Many people had tried over time (weightlifters, longshoremen, etc.) but nobody could do it. One day this scrawny little man came into the bar, wearing thick glasses and a polyester suit, and said in a tiny squeaky voice "I'd like to try the bet." After the laughter had died down, the bartender said OK, grabbed a lemon, and squeezed away. Then he handed the wrinkled remains of the rind to the little man. But the crowd's laughter turned to total silence as the man clenched his fist around the lemon and six drops fell into the glass. As the crowd cheered, the bartender paid the $1000, and asked the little man, "What do you do for a living? Are you a lumberjack, a weightlifter, what?" The man replied,
  Well it started off as a crazy year, my last semester in High School, get called to the guidance counselors’ office and find out that I need three history credits to graduate.  I already had planned on having almost totally computer/free periods (completed all computer classes) for this last semester, and even maybe taking some college level courses.  Damn, there goes my “easy” schedule.  I figure that I would take Modern European History (since I have been back from Germany less than 2 years ago), Civil War History (since I am a civil war buff) and Modern Government.  I will admit here that history is my worst subject, but figured these would be the easiest for me.  Problem is all the dates basically coincide; I barely pass with a D, D and a C.  My plans to design IBM Computers (the ground work as already laid down) disappear.  To bring the grades back up, I go to a community college after I graduate (yes, I did graduate, barely though, but I graduated) where in t
Things I’ve Noticed Since I Moved To The Woods.
Choosing a roommate you like is important. Being able to stand yourself is essential. The fog wafting through the trees is as lovely as the morning sun streaming through them, in its own way. The mist collecting into clear drops of water at the end of branches is lovelier than jewels. A dog inside a house always wants to go out, and a dog outside the house always wants to come in. Quiet is a weird sound. Nice—but weird. A wood stove is a lot warmer than central heat. Pick-up trucks are NOT brand new shiny toys used just for showing off your manhood. Getting the mail requires hiking boots and a walking stick. Curb side garbage pick-up is a luxury most people take for granted. Worn out, ratty blue jeans are NOT a fashion statement that one pays $75 for. They get that way from actual work. The number of “friends” you have drops dramatically when they have to make an actual effort to see you. Waiting for nice weather to do roof repair is not an option. Nei
A Wish
A Wish   I lie on the ground,and stare into space,the stars start to move,into the shape of your face. I see you there now,looking down at me,with that cute little smile,that I like to see. You say "close your eyes","tell me what you see",I see only two people,just you and me. We're walking the shoreline,with our feet getting wet,the horizon turns pink,as the sun starts to set. We make love through the night,on that white sandy shore,then I hold you while thinking,I could want nothing more. Oh I wish I could be,in that one special place,as I lie on the ground,and I stare into space.
Turkey & The Tree
A turkey was chatting with a bull.   'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.'   The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.   Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.  
Bomb.....thank You
O.K. time for a short rant. I've been able to buy a few Bombs & I've bombed some of my better Friends. Now for the rant, if someone Bombs your album i'm not asking for much but I think a "Thank you" is appropriate. I thought that people that i've had conversations with would say it but evidently I was wrong. Mostly everyone (even the non-friends) says thank you am I wrong to want a message or a shout saying "Thank you"?
Silent Sacrifice
I do not enjoy existing this way, Hiding in the shadows from the light of day. Unseen by those I see yet felt by those I touch, I live in a world where war governs much   With my weapon in hand and many faces in my head, I look them in the eyes, those who’s blood I’ll shed. For I feel no pain and feel no hate, Towards those who’s life I’m about to take.   I am the hand of God; I am the dealer of fate. From a distance, in the trees and shadows I wait. With a round in the chamber and the bolt locked tight, I look them in the eyes through my telescopic sight.   They do not see me; they have nothing to say, To the sniper in the bushes 500 yards away.
Things That Come To Mind When Your Husband Is Gone
Her light brown hair shone in the moonlight. It seemed darker, more mysterious even, by the glint of the firelight. He could barely make out the creaminess of her skin in the dark, but her eyes were pools of blackness and he regretted that he couldn't tell if they were dark brown or lighter in color. It was summer. They were camping in an effort to escape the technological age. No televisions, no cable, no computers, no telephones, not even a newspaper. True refuge from the pressures of the mundane world. They were with a group that specialized in re-creating the middle ages. The age of honor and chivalry. Of troubadours and traveling minstrels. The white pavilions gleamed in the moonlight, not with the shine of the modern nylon tent, but with an opalescence that was unique to true canvas. The fire was dwindling, but the haze lingered, not just from their fire, but from the hundreds of campsites surrounding them. Crickets chirped merrily in the night air, and the sound of drums beating
From above or below. Its only later that we know. Someone said "He who takes no chance has no chance" Come stroll awhile through the labyrinth. Promising never to imagine we cant. Joined at last, the crazy search winding down. Your eyes say me, while selecting the perfect gown. Since this is this and that is that. We say "Lets place the broom and leap fast" For inside we realize, its our God given right. Just as darkness must accept impending light. Ther are moments we should offer no resistance. Surrendering so sweetly, to heavenly happenstance. You give, I give, really means we give. As we truly meld, penning our best narrative. warmerthan (c) 1997
The Letter I Wrote My Angel Baby I Just Lost
Dear my little baby, Hi hunny. This is your mommy. I know you don't understand why you can't see me or feel me holding you in my arms. I don't understand either. You were only about 8 weeks old when I lost you. I am so sad and angry. I wish I could still be carrying you. I am so angry, cause I know it is my fault you left this world so early and before your time. I just don't understand why you left me so early. Everyone is saying that it was meant to be. I just don't believe that. What I believe is that it is my fault that you died, and that it is my fault that I lost you. I just don't understand at all. If you were still with us, you would have a great family to greet you when you would of came into ther world. You would of had 2 older brothers to play with. You would've got to see me and your daddy's face. I wish I could see your precious little face. To have your precious little hand to grab ahold of my finger. I wish I could see you smile at me for the first time. I wish I could s
In My Heart
I dreamed about you,and your sweet kiss,and when I awoke,I yearned to touch you,but I couldn't...I saw us strollingalong my street wherethe maples hadturned crimson,and I wanted to point out their beauty to you,but I couldn't...I struggled througha stressful day,wishing I couldsee your smile,hear your voice,feel your reassuring touch,but I couldn't...I sat on the couch,yearning to talk to you,to share the happeningsof the day,to feel your handcurve so perfectlyand smoothly into mine,but I couldn't...And before I went to sleep,I wanted to hold youand love you,and tell youhow much I love you,but I couldn't...because you're so far away.But I will alwayskeep you here in my heart.
Song Stuck In My Head
i was watching bones a while back and heard this song and now for some reason its stuck in my head..apparently the girl in the video died and this is a tribute vid but the song is least i think so
Taco's Theory I
If a blonde and a brunette are dirving down the road, with the windows rolled up, and if the blonde is driving 65 mph, then the blonde rolls down her window...... how many brain cells are lost, by the brunette, due to the cross flow of wind from the blonde's brain?
Magic Works-the Weird Sisters
And dance your final danceThis is your final chanceTo hold the one you loveYou know you've waited long enoughSo, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidOf being hurtDon't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd make your final moveDon't be scared, she want you tooYeah, it's hard, you must be braveDon't let this moment slip away...Now, believeThat magic worksDon't be afraidAfraid of being hurtDon't, don't let this magic diesThe answer's thereOh, just look in her eyesAnd don't believe that magic can dieNo, no, no, this magic can't dieSo dance your final dance'Cause this isYour final chance
Taco's Theory's Ii
To make the consumers feel better about purchasing a used car there is CarFax. To this idea I ponder--- Is there a girlfriendfax?*   *Twiggy not included in this theory!*
Annie Lennox-into The West Lyrics
Lay down, your sweet and weary head.Night is falling. You have come to journey’s end.Sleep now, and dream of the ones who came before.They are calling, from across a distant shore.Why do you weep? What are these tears upon your face?Soon you will see.All of your fears will pass away.Safe in my arms, you’re only sleeping.What can you see,on the horizon?Why do the white gulls call?Across the sea,a pale moon rises.The ships have come,to carry you home.And all will turn, to silver glass.A light on the water.All souls pass.Hope fades,Into the world of night.Through shadows falling,Out of memory and time.Don’t say, We have come now to the end.White shores are calling.You and I will meet again.And you’ll be here in my arms,Just sleeping.What can you see,on the horizon?Why do the white gulls call?Across the sea,a pale moon rises.The ships have come,to carry you home.And all will turn, to silver glass.A light on the water.Grey ships passInto the West.
Taco's Theory's Iii
It has alwys been said, "Never trust anyone farther than you can throw them." Where does the catapolt come into the equation?
Taco's Theory's Iv
If you lick a rubber dart, it will stick to the wall. This fact is true If you lick a pussy, will it stick to a wall?
Taco's Theory's V
If a guy masterbates in the shower, is that considered mass suicide? Or juse genocide by self-indulgence of mother nature?
The Day After Jerm 33
last night was to say the least memorable. friends and family were there to celebrate my birthday with me. i am grateful. even if it seemed like the cactus and whatever other party time aids were puttin me sideways. i guess when it is your get to choose what to i chose alot of stuff. all in the confines of my own room and backyard. paranoia overwelmed me for a bit but it went away. i had a good time though. i got to know someone  even more as well. and...i think that was the best gift i got. not to put anyone else down but in all honesty finding out more about this person is what i will remember the most. im happier now that i know this person and she knows me. and that to me is an awesome gift. birthday or not. a real person in a fake world. along with being a wonderfully positive and passionate beautiful woman. and to think i was told there we'rent any real women on here. i guess that was proved wrong. haha...woops. no need to BE right...if i
I Love You!
To: David Martin When you make a commitment to a relationship, you put your attention and energy in it more profoundly. You realize its not just you anymore, its two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever. I know babe I have only known you a short amount of time. This is only the best way I can explain this to you. I love you and you have become the spirit in me. The fire in my heart is lit again because of you. Love is one thing in my life that has been a worry for me, a song to me, and a dream that I have dreamt. It has never been a reality. I know this isn’t going to be easy, I know its going to be hard. I have come to the realization that love doesn’t just cause pleasure, it causes pain. David with you though, I don’t worry anymore. I want this, and every girl has the chance to get something as good as us. I cant pass you up, nor would I ever think to. Even if I had the whole world to write on to express how much I love you, it wouldn't al
God Loves Blondes
God Loves Blondes A blonde finds herself in serious trouble. Her business has gone bust and she's in dire financial straits. She's so desperate that she decides to ask God for help. She begins to pray..."God, please help me. I've lost my business and if I don't get some money, I'm going to lose my house as well. Please let me win the Lotto." Lotto night comes, and somebody else wins it. She again prays..."God, please let me win the Lotto! I've lost my business, my house and I'm going to lose my car as well." Lotto night comes and she still has no luck. Once again, she prays..."My God, why have You forsaken me? I've lost my business, my house, and my car. My children are starving. I don't often ask You for help, and I have always been a good servant to You. PLEASE let me win the Lotto just this one time so I can get my life back in order." Suddenly there is a blinding flash of light as the heavens open. The blonde is overwhelmed by the Voice of God Himself..."Sweetheart, work wi
Saying Goodbye To Mother (not Sad At All)
SAYING GOODBYE TO MOTHERYou Don't Have To Own A Cat To Appreciate This One!  You don't even have to like 'em!We were dressed and ready to go out for the New Years Eve Party.  We turned on a night light, turned the answering machine on,covered our pet parakeet and put the cat in the backyard.We phoned the local cab company and requested a taxi.  The taxi arrived and we opened the front door to leave the house.The cat we put out in the yard, scoots back into the house.  We didn't want the cat shut in the house because she always tries to eat the bird.My wife goes out to the taxi, while I went inside to get the cat.  The cat runs upstairs, with me in hot pursuit. Waiting in the cab, my wife doesn't want the driver to know that the house will be empty for the night.  So, she explains to the taxi driver that I will be out soon,'He's just going upstairs to say goodbye to my mother.'A few minutes later, I get into the cab.  'Sorry I took so long,' I said, as we drove away.  'That stupid bitch
Government Swine Flu Advisor On Vaccine Maker Payroll
Many people seem genuinely baffled that western governments are hyping the arrival of a swine flu pandemic as if it’s the greatest threat to humanity since the bubonic plague, despite the relatively low number of deaths from the virus, unaware that the pharmaceutical industry has been intimately joined at the hip with the state for decades. Another illustration of that fact is the revelation that one of the UK government’s top advisors on swine flu also happens to be a sitting board member of GlaxoSmithKline, the company selling dangerous and untested swine flu vaccines, as well as anti-viral drugs Tamiflu and Relenza, to the NHS. “Professor Sir Roy Anderson sits on the Scientific Advisory Group for Emergencies (Sage), a 20-strong task force drawing up the action plan for the virus. Yet he also holds a £116,000-a-year post on the board of GlaxoSmithKline,” reports the Daily Mail. We also learn that Anderson was “one of the first UK experts to call the o
Ultima Thule- Sverige
I love this :)
Love Is Pain
why does love have to hurt?   really now think about it......everything to do with love seems to cause pain.........
I sit alone in a state of mind that wishes to go back about a year...To go back and change so much...It is a thing that cant be ever truly undone...To avoid leaving a life that was so good to me...Throwing it all away like none of it really mattered...I miss being able to see my sister and talk to her...I regret the fighting we did between the two of us...I looked for a way to run and I found it...Packing my stuff, I ran to live in another world...Thinking it was for the best, I just took off not looking back...I ran into the arms of a girl that I thought was my happiness...Sitting within her grasp I blocked out all my troubles...About a month later, I returned back home...I had come to see my sister, and say Goodbye I Love You...The hardest part was walking in the shadows in the time of the passing...I helped lay her down for her final rest with tears falling down my face...Once returned home, I worried about losing the one person that made me happy...I had nightmares about us splitti
   Up until about a year and a half ago, I lived my life a lil bit shady. Not intentionally, but because I never wanted to let anybody down. So I wore a mask, told people what they wanted to hear, let them see what they wanted to see. I lost alot living that way, so, I came to the conclusion, I am who I am, love me or keep it fuckin' pushin'!!! The funny thing is that now, the same people who wanted that change, that prayed for that change, seem to like me more the other way!!! Well, I guess you win some and you lose some. But for those of you who don't like it, I've come too far to let you change me back, if I have to walk this road alone and leave some of you behind, just remember, I owe you all who I am today, but I owe myself and my kids more!!!
Close Minded Foo's Need Not Read
EUREKA! Finally a place to rant and rave like a silly maniacal bag lady on crack!!! I think it would be nice if people would start taking responsibility for their own actions! I mean come on, we are all adults here...or we should be...I think silly two cent words like "I can't" should be permantly abolished from our vocubulary...if you think about it...we have plenty of other two cent words to throw around....Maybe if that happens, doors would start opening....oh who knows? Not very much good comes from a shut down mind....other than bruised hearts....*sighs* just a thought....don't really expect anyone to read this...let alone care what i'm ranting about....but ohhh it clears the air....the clutter in my head has quieted and think!!!
Wanna Take Care Of You....
I'm the one you call Jigsaw yes i'm a puzzle can you figure me out?
Another Poem..
Confusion of where to stand After infidelity, I still held tightly to your hand. Forgave, tried to forget Involuntarily you eventually would admit Of all the manipulation and apparent lies spoken Already knew, hoped you would realize what you had broken Changed your dishonest lustful selfish way Still afraid, still broken to my dismay Rendered a fool To knowingly stay with someone so cruel My heart no matter reaches out for you Hoping your repentance was true After several months of lies and manipulation becomes hard for me to see If you strongly care for me Easily tempted, you say it's hard to do what is right Knowing now you're unsure makes it difficult for me to love without spite Afraid that you cant be strong Afraid that over time you will do me wrong I need you to show and let me know everyday That you care for me in the same unconditional way.
Thursday, April 10, 2008  REMEMBERANCE Category: Writing and Poetry Rememberance.......... She remembers it all,All the people who had saidThey cared, but did they really?She remembers it all,The sound of laughter andHow happy she’d been, but was she really?She remembers it all,His arms around her andHe said "I love you, but did he really?She remembers it all,The pain she’d felt when he left,How her heart ached, but was it really?She remembers it all,The feeling of being so alone,The feeling no one cared, but did they really?But now they’ll remember her,Staring at the knife in her handHow easy to slit her wrists, but will she really?
I Wrote This Poem When I Was 16
 - I am an ordinary girl who like to write poetry.- I wonder how the world will be when I have children. I hear gun’s and bomb’s exploding and people yelling at eachother.       I see the night sky light up with fire. I want so badly to stop the hate and anger in the world. - I am an ordinary girl who likes to write poetry.-   I pretend that the world is full of love for one another of every race.     I feel the harsh reality of life. I touch a crying child hurt by prejudice, promising him everything will be okay. I worry that I can’t keep my promise. I cry because I know he will continue to face anger toward him all his life and he is just an innocent child. -I am an ordinary girl who likes to write poetry.-   I understand that this world is never going to change, unless the people of this world are willing to change. I say we are all equal no matter what race or religion we are. I dream that one day the world will except one another for who they are
What could have been Current mood: contemplative Category: Writing and Poetry   When I lay myself down to sleep, I pray to the Lord my soul he’ll keep and when I am done praying for you.... I can’t shut my eyes, I just lay and weep.   I can’t shut my eyes because when I do, all I can see is an image of you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   My heart aches for something true.  The only question I have is why couldn’t it have been you? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Life hurts and loves not fair, There could have been so much for us to share, but now you have gone to someone else and forgotten me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I guess it’s true that love is blind...  I loved and you are blind.  That’s why you have her and I was forgotten and left behind. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   Love isn’t enough, when lust steps in, and that’s where all the pain begins. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The Worst Thing
The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.
Current mood: anxious   Waiting     Wanting,lusting,to be held,to be loved,to feel warmth,to feel your beating heart. Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,heartless winds.Falling into invisible arms;into an abyss of love. Wishing,hoping,that my desires will be filled;my desires of loving warmth. Wanting to be held,comforted,loved. Dreaming of passionate embraces,of tender kisses,loving words,romantic nights. Waiting for undying love.
I Still Remember
I still remember the worldFrom the eyes of a childSlowly those feelingsWere clouded by what I know nowWhere has my heart goneAn uneven trade for the real worldOh I... I want to go back toBelieving in everything Yet knowing nothing at allI still remember the sunAlways warm on my backSomehow it seems colder now
A Drem I Had....
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural   I sit on this huge carnival ride as wind wisp’s around me, some gentle, some harsh... like diffrent voices speaking to me.  I can hear thier whispers as the wind swirls around my body.  The sky turns to darkness around me as I’m lifted into the air, I can no longer see the Earth.  I look around and see Im not alone... my mom, family, friends and people of all nations are on this ride with me.  Then the winds start to blow again as the ride starts to turn. Turning faster and faster as the wind starts to make a low rumbling sound.  The harsh wind was smacking us in the face, taking our breath away.  The wind made a sound as if it were a voice speaking to us in an unfamilar language.... Yet we understood every word. It wanted us, It wanted our soul, it wanted us to give in.  It was like demons trying to climb up to me and my family... screaming our names. People were falling off the ride left and right, down into the black bottomless p
Current mood: content Category: Dreams and the Supernatural   I’m running down an endless Road. I can never get to the end. Shh.... Somethings following me. Running faster, I feel my heart beat throbbing in  my chest. I look back and.... My face hits the hard concreat. I feel it’s breath lingering over me. I look around for somewhere to run, somewhere to turn.  I see an old church... I run inside, it’s dark. _No one in sight._ I hear it behind me again... I fall to my knees with eyes shut and scream, for only God can help me! I open my eyes... It’s gone. I lay on the floor and weap, till I fall asleep. Then I awoke in the morning light, with God now by my side. (Nothing to fear.)
Thursday, April 10, 2008  WARNING WARNING Current mood: crushed Category: Writing and Poetry      True love does not exist.   It is a fantasy that lives in the heart’s of people who hope and belive. ( I know- I was one of those people.)  They are disillusioned by the thought of such happiness, that their heart is overwhelmed, causeing them to be blind to the truth.  Love is not real,  it is fake.  Fake words, fake emotions, in order to get what one wants... then they are through with you.  The pain is enough to distroy one’s soul and send them into such a life of pain and misery, it would be worse than what hell would be like.  A eternity of tourment.  There is no truth only a world of lies.  There is no true love, only diseption in order to get into one’s mind and soul, so they can control you and your emotions.  Then once they have played with your heart, they steal it and then there gone. You are left with a broken heart and they simpley
Growing Up
Thursday, April 10, 2008  GROWING UP GROWING UP Current mood: cheerful   Life is fleeting, years rush past.... and little girls grow up so fast! Let me take time out to be glad that mine’s still here with me. And though I’m busy through the day, let me take time out to play... Let me take time out to smile, to linger with her for a while... To invite her under the table for tea and dress up silly as can be. Let me take time out to sing and dance and skip and twirl and swing... To splash in puddles when it rains and make her fancy daisy chains. Let me take time out to hear about the things that she holds dear. Let me tuck her in at night, hear her prayers, turn off the light. And for one more moment let me pray and thank God that we shared this day!
Alyssa And Katelyn
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ALYSSA AND KATELYN ALYSSA AND KATELYN Current mood: cheerful When I imaginethe life you will live,I think of the pleasureyour presence will give.I see the joy your smile will lightand the wonders you’ll weavewhen your dreams take flight.I feel the hopethat will grow with your graceand the difference you’ll maketo each heart you embrace.I imagine your lifeas I know it will be;for, my daughters, you’ve givenall this to me.
Angel Who Walks Upon The Ground
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL WHO WALKS UPON THE GROUND... ANGEL WHO WALKS UPON THE GROUND Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry   The moment I opened my heart and let you in I saw this great love starting to begin. I opened my eyes to a vision of you I hope, I pray your feelings are true. I have loved and I have paid the cost And I have felt the pain of the love I lost. But, now, I think I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground. You go beyond all limits for me Just to show your love endlessly. I could search my whole life through And never find another ’you’. You are so special that I wanted you to know I truly, completely love you so.
First Thing
FIRST THING Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry You’re the first thing I think of Each morning when I rise. You’re the last thing I think of Each night when I close my eyes. You’re in each thought I have And every breath I take. My feelings are growing stronger With every move I make. I want to prove I love you But that’s the hardest part. So, I’m giving all I have to give To you... I give my heart
My Dear Friend
Thursday, April 10, 2008  A POEM FOR MY DEAR FRIEND A POEM FOR MY DEAR FRIEND A poem for my dear friend Current mood: content Category: Writing and Poetry The day I met you I found a friend - And a friendship that I pray will never end. Your smile - so sweet And so bright - Kept me going When day was as dark as night. You never ever judged me, You understood my sorrow. Then you told me it needn’t be that way And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow. You were always there for me, I knew I could count on you. You gave me advice and encouragement Whenever I didn’t know what to do. You helped me learn to love myself You made life seem so good. You said I can do anything I put my mind to And suddenly I knew I could. There were times when we didn’t see eye to eye And there were days when both of us cried. But even so we made it through: Our friendship hasn’t yet died. Circumstances have pulled us apart, We are separated by many miles. Truly
Could I Be?
Thursday, April 10, 2008  COULD I BE YOUR ANGEL? COULD I BE YOUR ANGEL? Current mood: artistic Category: Writing and Poetry The lover sleeps and amid his dreams His angel comes on sunlit beams. To waken him with kisses sweet, For her love for him is oh so deep. She wakes him with her caresses light Upon his skin and smiles so bright. And in her eyes, he sees the love She feels for him neath stars above. He comes to her to gently place, Kisses upon her neck and face. To caress her body and touch her soul. For together two become a whole. The love they make is deep and true And in this embrace their love renew. When all is done and all’s been said, Upon her breasts he rests his head. And hears her heart beat for him alone. A greater love, he’s never known
Wishing Stars
Thursday, April 10, 2008  WISHING STARS WISHING STARS Category: Writing and Poetry          I’m looking at this star tonight, Wishing wishes would come true. I wonder while I stand and look, If you see the same star, too. Tonight although there’s miles between us, Perhaps our souls can meet. At the point this star begins, Our two hearts can find their beat. Do you feel the need for someone, To fulfill your empty life. I’m wishing for the same thing, As I watch this star tonight. This gentle breeze I’m feeling, That soothes my heart of sorrow. I’m wondering will it find you, And soothe your heart tomorrow. A hopeless born romantic, Ever searching for true love. Wishing wishes in the darkness, To this star that hangs above.
A Chance Of Meeting
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ~A CHANCE OF MEETING~ A CHANCE OF MEETING Current mood: creative A Chance Of Meeting...On my screen you cameout of the blue,Awakening my heart from painto feelings before I never knewWe are both scaredof the road fate has shownTwo souls pairedto a destiny still unknownShould we choose to meetand tempt these hands of fateIt would take two, for the odds to be beatTo lead us to eternity and heavens gateShould we choose to notwould our minds constantly wonder,Was that the one I always soughtOn that do we dare to ponder?For you have touched me deepI long to hold you for all timeTo be mine, forever to keepFor us to share a lifetimeI want your passionate kissto take my breath awayNever want to miss your touchwhile in each others arms we laySo now the decision is ours to makeI’ll treasure you whatever may beMy heart is here for you to takeLoyalty I’ll vow should you give yours to me
Angel On My Screen
Thursday, April 10, 2008  ANGEL ON MY SCREEN ANGEL ON MY SCREEN Current mood: happy Category: Writing and Poetry   I met an angel on my screen So friendly, kind and sweet... he makes me feel so special I long for when we’ll meet... We’ve talked for hours here online And many on the phone... he’s brought such joy into my life When once I was alone. The love I feel within my heart Was but a dream to me... A dream that once was out of reach Has become reality... Ever present in my thoughts Always in my heart... Forever shall I love him And never shall we part. I met an angel on my screen So full of life and love... An angel that was sent to me From Heaven up above... Always with a kind word His laughter fills the air... His love is neverending A love that’s always there. So if you ever meet someone My wish for you is this... I wish you all the love I’ve found For it’s the sweetest gift... The feeling that you are so loved No
Get To Know Me
Please allow me to introduce myself. I am you, I am everything you want to be, and everything you don't. I do everything you wish you could and everything you wish you had not. I am your dreams, and yes, your DARKEST damn fears. I am the friend next door, and the guy you walk across the street so as not to have to pass. I am that rowdy S.O.B in the bar, and Yet, I am NORM, cause everyone knows my name, and the conversation just starts when I get there. I am the Leader, but yet, I too follow (just so I know where exactly to shove that damn blade). I am the desire of all that know me, and I am hated by all that love me. I am the Eternal cunundrum, the rubix cube of life. Alas, you can not cheat and change my stickers, although I do change my colors. Oh yes dear one's I am a chamelion in this life as I was in all past lives. I will entice you, I will desire you but always in the end I will make you hate me with a bitter vile tortured lust. Oh indeed I said Lust. For when love has ended, g
~rip~ My Dear Sister, God Has Gained A New Angel.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008  IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY SISTER: Sasha Bentley & her unborn child Current mood:  crushed Category: Religion and Philosophy Lunapic Photo Editing Sasha Gabrielle Bentley, Born Sasha Gabrielle McCroskey on June 6th, 1987, in Launstul, Germany. She was 4 months premature and her lungs were not fully developed. The first 3 months of her life, she spend in the hospital and we were praying she would live. At 18 months of age she developed Bacterial Spinal Meningitus and spent another 1 month in the hospital fighting to survive. Sasha grew up the first 4 years of her life in Germany and had Double citizenship as American and German because of her birth in a German Hospital. She was the type of person, who did not know a stranger even when she was little. She would go up to anyone and start talking to them like she had known them her entire life. I always worried about her for this reason and kept a close eye on her. I did not discourage this though
In Loving Memory Of Aaron Collins
You And I
Sunday, November 30, 2008  you and I... Category: Writing and Poetry You And IYou and I are connectedin a way that goes beyond romance,beyond friendship,beyond what we've ever had before.It has defied time, distance,and changes in ourselvesand in our lives.It has defied every explanation.Except one:Pure and simply, we're soul mates.I can't explain, I just feel it.It's there in the way my spirits liftwhenever we talk.The sound of your voice brings me home,in a way I can't explain.It's in the delight I feel, when we laughat exactly the same things.When I'm with you,it's like a tiny piece of the universeshifts into place.A place it's supposed to be,and all is right with the world.These things and so many more,have made me understandthat this is a once in a lifetime,forever connection.A connection that could only existbetween you and me.And deep in my soul,I know that our relationshipis a rare gift.One that brings usextraordinary happinessall through our lives.
~rip John Boy~
Lunapic Photo Editing Monday, June 22, 2009  ~RIP John Boy~ Current mood:  sad Johnny Richard Carroll, Jr. Johnny Richard Carroll, Jr., age 30, of Maryville, passed away Friday, June 5, 2009, at UT Medical Center. He raced at Smoky Mountain Raceway, driving the 01 car. He was preceded in death by his grandparents, Robert and Colleen Thompson. Survivors include his wife, Amy Allen Carroll; children, Tre' Carroll and Shelby Carroll; parents, Johnny and Patricia Carroll; father-in-law and mother-in-law, Jim and Connie Allen; grandparents, Betty Roberts and Glenn Carroll; sisters and brothers, Angel Leeson, Justin Carroll, Star Carroll, Jason Carroll; nieces and nephews, Collin Leeson, Bodhi Leeson, Drake Hill, Ava Carroll, Antwaun Couche; many special aunts and uncles. Funeral services will be at 8 p.m. Saturday in McCammon-Ammons-Click Funeral Home Chapel with Rev. Kenneth Carpenter officiating. The interment will be at 1 p.m. Sunday at Sherwood Memorial Gardens with Re
R,i,p John Thomas Anthony Brewer
JT passed away on june 22 2009 at 12 20 am from a jerk who beat him. JT you will always be in my heart my prayers.  this little boy id DJ DRAGON'S son.... he will be missed terrably but never forgotten, JT you will be in all of our hearts and in are prayers.. see you up there little buddy... keep looking over all of us.... love you like my own....       to everyone who reads this... if you know someone who is abusing a child please find the stregnth to stand up and fight for that child. children do not deserve what happend to this lil boy its a tragity please dont let this happen to a child you know
addicted to a kiss that never blessed my lips addicted to a touch that never caressed my skin addicted to a look that never met my eyes Addicted to a warmth that never wrapped my body addicted to his voice his laugh so sweet addicted to his soul his heart on his sleeve addicted to him when I don't hear him daily I feel like in withdrawal need to hear him say I "care for you"baby...
All Parents Please Read!!
This blog was posted by me on my main account: PLEASE READ AND DO WHAT IS ASKED THIS MAN WITH THESE PICTURES THINKS STUFF LIKE THIS IS A GAME AND IS FUNNY WHEN IT CLEARLY IS NOT! Please Downrate And Mark NSFW created @ 2009-07-28 03:08:30   Merry Meet Y'all. I was rating pictures and I came across 4 that someone thought was obviously funny but as a parent of a little girl myself, I didn't find them the least bit funny. I originally rated them 10's but then went back and rated these pictures as 1's. I ask all my friends and especially parents of children or even teenagers to go and report these images as NSFW and hopefully send this dumbass a message for posting such stupid pictures. When you see them you will understand instantly what I am talking about. Read the captions to understand where my anger is coming from.
Come Here!!!!!
Time is passing by and I have not been able to kiss you, to give you love, to hold you. I know you feel the same as I do, but I’m tired of not being with you. When you call me, I am able to pretend that I am happy with it, but as soon as I hang up the phone there is great sadness. I am tired of all the “I like you” and the thousands “I want you” that you send me through email. Come here and tell me face to face, because through the computer I can’t feel a thing. You are keeping me from seeing your body laid on my bed. I notice time passing by and you are so far. Come here and make my life longer, come here and heal this wound, come here because through pictures I can not touch you and less give you love. Come here baby, because none can be adored by chatting on the computer. Come here because is not the same to talk to you, than to touch you, and feel your warmth.
Is It Is It Not
 having sex, a 1night stand, or just oral        i luv having sex, i hate 1night stands        i love sex because 1hr or 5. im da bomb like tic tic        i hate 1night stands because i need to open it up      at least twice so i can get da feel of it        i love gettin head ( licking, kissing, crazy head fakes )      but coke2dope dont eat anythang that walks away. i know      it isnt fare or cool, but hay their are reasons.......       what i want is da business b4 & after. after i smash it so good       u shouldnt want da face action because you should be sleep      or unable to move. i know it sounds great but so true                                  what you think get at me
Damn Hot Weather
Damn it was hot today... 104 I think? Gonna be hot again today and tomrorrow. i didn't do what i planned on doing on Monday..was a bum most of the day. I went to Sharies with my friend Kari and my brother later in the evening. Took Michael home and Kari and I went driving around....i think it was around 2am? Or later..I forget. Found a 24 hour coffee joint...didn't know about it until recently. Stupid place only had 3 parkings...seriously..and I couldn't park anywhere else because ya can't park on the streets at that time of night. Even the public couldn't park there until certain times of the day. You'd think in a busy city, there would be more parkings...but noooo beaverton is just so gay I said fuck it and parked in a place that I wasn't suppose to...I wanted my damn coffee. kari did too... also got some yummy espresso was spendy but sooooo good. I was nice and even let Kari have half of my piece of cake... 3.50 for it.. see, Im so nice... Then we drove a
You Hold The Key To My Heart
As we lie beneath the stars,We wonder who we really are,I wonder what you see in me,We'll fall asleep beneath the trees.Show me that you truly care,Day by day, and night by night,When I'm with you I have no fright.The day you told you loved me,That's when I gave you the key,To my heart, soul and mind,I'm glad to know that you're all mine.I want it to last forever,To know that we'll always be together,Feel no pain or sadness dear,I want you to always be near.In every hug and every kiss,When I'm with you I feel true love exists.Hold me close and never let me go,Don't let me fall amidst the shadow.For I am yours, forever it may be,I am yours for all eternity.I mean it all; all I've said,Without you, a part of me is dead.
Infatuation tears me apartRipping through my heartAs I seek the painThe hurtMakes me feel aliveAlmost as though I had cutStand and watch the blood flowMake me feel as no otherMy wounds open and rawExposed To the fury of my wrath As it pummels me with all its mightAnd I refuse to stop it ©xoxoJ
A Mother's Love
The most precious gift the world was given outside of God's own love Is the love of a mother, surely sent from God above. She's always there to comfort you when life has let you down; When all others may forsake you,her love is still around. She's surely sent from heaven, an angel in disguise, To kiss away each fallen tear that pours from saddened eyes. There to hold and comfort you when things aren't going right; She's there to chase away the fears with love so very bright. And mother's as the gift they are, deserve the highest praise, For standing there right next to us through our most trying days. They know that we're not perfect, so they give us room to grow; And when we need advice, it's surely mom who'll know. So thanks for all you've given me these many trying years; Thanks for always sharing both the laughter and the tears. And thanks to God for blessing me with a mother just like you, Never could I ask for love more strong or true. Love you mom © LT.David Martin
A Healthy Relationship
Based on a conversation that i had with a friend a few days ago, we had a typical conversation about dating, respect, the elements of loyalty and our personal views of a healthy relationship. I gave him an example of my point of view that i shared with another friend i have on another website and the conversation transpired as follows: A healthy relationship is based on respect.It's when:• you have fun together • you both feel like you can be yourself • you can have different opinions and interests • you listen to each other • you trust each other • you can both compromise, say sorry, and talk arguments out • you don't have to spend all of you spare time together - you can spend time on your own, or with your own friends and family."I really love and trust my boyfriend, he's like one of my best friends and I can tell him anything. He just wants us to have fun together, there's no pressure, and he doesn't make a big deal of it if I don't want to do wh
Male Sensitivity Test
MALE SENSITIVITY TEST   1. In the company of females, intercourse should be referred to as:  A. Lovemaking.  B. Screwing.  C. Taking the pigskin bus to tuna town.   2. You should make love to a woman for the first time only after you've both shared
In Loving Memory
Poem By: Adam Tellijohn
R I P Tyler Heilman 7/20/2009 Michaela Widmer 7/25/2009 This world keeps spinning faster to a new disasterInnocent lives are being takenFamilies being torn apartChildren having to grow up without a mommy or daddyIt leaves us here to sit and wonder WHY?Whats next, whose it going to be, what else can possibly happenWe sit and wait for answers, justice to be servedWe sit and wait for the times of a wake and funeral to be announcedYet no matter how much time will passThese lives will never be forgottenOne day you can wake up with a happy familyThat happy family can be torn apart by unexplainable acts of crueltyYou never know when something like this will happenYou don’t have any time to prepareYour friends, family and inner strength is your only backboneYou can rewind time, and you can’t fast-forward itFriends and family you haven’t seen for a while come closerTo help you ease your pain and recoverYour everyday thoughts flashback to the scene of where everything happe
Fellings Untold
You was very selfish And didnt think bout how others felt My heart was so hot but so cold It felt that i'd literally would melt From the way that it looked to me It was going great Late night on the phone Going out on dates Time had past just so fast But it wasnt long time till it all came down My spirit was once lifted high But it suddenly came crashing down I suffered a little bit And i felt i'd never mend But i didnt realized Who was hurting the most, a friend We shared the same ambition But his was for real He loved wat he loved Me i just made the deal His love for her Was none i could ever match If i could just rewind time I'd take it all back But the past is past And the future is now Might as well look up 'Cause im tired of looking dowm.......... TO BE CONTINUED
Dreams Aren't Real [and Tears Are Just Lies]
Dreams aren't real. It's what you always say, But they slither into my sleep, And trun night into day. Daytime is a little scary, Especially when you're [not] there. Left alone, always alone in this godforsaken nightmare. I can feel the panic ripple, I can taste fear on my tongue. But, dear, it's not real, So just suck it up and run. Run for you life, Until you can't anymore, Then lay down and die, Die right there on the floor. Nightmares, so real. It's like I'm dying every night, But no, no. It's okay. Everything's alright. Not real. They're NOT real. I don't care what you say. Just go back to sleep, 'Cause dying is A-Okay. Those tears, they don't matter. Oh, no they don't. It's just a dream. It's just a lie. I won't care. I won't. Hold my breath, Until sleep holds me still. Tears still stain my cheeks, But it's okay, dreams aren't real.
Well My VIP is gonna expire in 7 days and I need some help if anyone can please....I would so appreciate it hugz Cindy!!!!
Thousand Voices
A Thousand voices bring me to you Telling me the story of your body. Thousand voices tell me of your lips cherry red with wine as a smirk forms into them.A Thousand voices tell me of your hands as they run across my every secret place as i shiver beneath you. A Thousand voices tell me I LOVE YOU
Uploaded Photos Really For Viewing
Cool, after a few days of preparing and going through countless photos in the internet, I have finally put together my Illinois folder.  Now, you may be asking, why are you posting a bunch of pictures of Illinois on Fubar?  The reason for it is this:  in a next few months I will be getting shipped out to Basic Training for the Army, and after it I will be stationed out of state, in Alabama to be exact.  So, I began to think about it, and realize that I am going to be living outside of Illinois for the first time in my life.  I mean, granted I travelled a lot when I was younger, but never moved out of the state.  As a result, I began to think about all the places I went to in the state of Illinois, and I thought I should make a folder of some sights around the state.  Also, the folder is for people that are on my friends and fans list that want to learn about where I live, how the area looks like and just get to know me a little more.  Plus, making this folder for me would give me somet
Random Sayings And Quotes
 ~ It is a curious sensation: the sort of pain that goes mercifully beyond our powers of feeling. When your heart is broken, your boats are burned: nothing matters any more. It is the end of happiness and the beginning of peace.~   ~I self destruct every relationship so that i don't get hurt... but in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run..~     ~Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...... ~    are there real men out there like that????  My money is on NO WAY ~People a
My Mom's Birthday Wish
I am sending this out to all of my fu-friends for my mother.  If you can and want to to help, A much thank you to you.  If not, thank you for your time in reading this blog and being aware of this disease.  It could happen to you or to one of your loved ones without warning. I will be celebrating my 66th birthday on August 13th. I have been thinking about how I can give something back instead of taking something. As all of you know I have the disease of Myasthenia Grave, a Neuro muscular thing with no cure. It is kind of rare and there is not a lot of research being done. Dr. Michael Benetar at Emory Research Center in Atlanta has worked for 20 years doing research in this. He has done wonders for me. In the 2 years I have been going to him, I have improved greatly.  Now here is what I am asking each of you:   Please send me a donation, (no matter how small) and I will turn it in to Emory. If you want to make your checks to Dr. Michael Benetar Emory Research .I am sure
Fake ass friends with theirDemeaning, snarky smilesAnd their false greetingsThinly disguising vicious wilesSo I keep onPlaying this gameWondering if it'sThem or me to blameAnd I keep biting my tongueTo keep from sayingWhat I really want to sayBecause it's not at all whatThey want to hear and they'llLeave me aloneI don't want to be leftOn my own In this cold, dark hellOf my own creationDying slowly fromMisanthropic starvationSave me from myselfDon't let me push mySelf destruct buttonDon't let me push my... Self destruct... 321...Terminated.
What is this feeling I have?I seem to be falling for youBut other times I seem to be ok without youI can't be without youOr maybe just without anyoneI think about you all the timeBut why do I have this feeling?I long for your voiceAnd I would die to hear your laugh or your singing voiceBut is this something that could ever beOr merely lust of wanting something you cant not have? These are questions I have to ask myselfWhy let myself fall for something or someone that may never beAre you a game or whatAre you  something that I long for? What is this and could it ever be?This is something I have to figure outI thought I knew the answers to my questions But now I am not sure. Some how I seem to second guess my self, Are you real, is what you say for real?Or is this just what I want to hear? In time all questions will be answered. They say all good things come to a end,When will this end I am wondering?I will find the truth I am looking forTime always tells.  
I Am Here
I Am Herei am here, do you see me?i am here, do you hear me?i am here, can you feel me?i am here, in your heart. i want you here, so i can see you.i want you here, so i can hear you.i want you here, so i can feel you.i want you here, in my heart. i was there, did you see me?i was there, did you hear me?i was there, did you feel me?i was there, in your heart. you were here, i saw were here, i heard were here, i felt you.but you left, and broke my heart. Melanie
This World
This World this world is no longer happy its become dark and desolate we are all at war with one another when will it all end? now hurricanes have ripped through our country and many lives are gone but what about the ones that made it where are they to turn? can anyone save us, from this devistation or are we doomed to live in this hell forever in this not so great nation? can anyone, anyone please answer these questions? Melanie 
My Baby Girl
My Baby Girl the day i held her in my arms,i knew she was someone special.for nine months i wondered,and thought how she would be.and then there she was,with eyes so bright,staring up at me.from her crib i'd watch her peaceful and so calm.her little hands rest on her chest,her music box played on.quietly i'd stand over her,watching her every breath.wishing for that day she takes her first that day has come and gone,she's almost a teenager.boy do i wish for those peaceful days,when she was still in diapers. Melanie
Savage Garden "affirmation"
i did not write this...these are the lyrics to a song by savage garden...   I believe the sun should never set upon an argument I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are milli
Emergency Room Stories....
ARE ALL TRUE STORIES FROM EMERGENCY ROOMS AROUND THE COUNTRY: ---------------------------------------------------------------------- FEMALE SOFA----- A 500 lb.  woman from Illinois was examined in a hospital. During the examination, an asthma inhaler fell from under her armpit, a dime was found under one of her breasts and a remote control was found lodged between the folds of her vulva.  eeewwwww.....   -------------------------------------------------------------------------- PRICKLY PAIR-----OUCH!  In Michigan , a man came into the ER with lacerations to his penis.  He complained that his wife had "...a rat in her privates..."which bit him during sex (not the first conclusion I would have drawn, I don't think)...  After an examination of his wife, it was revealed that she had a surgical needle left inside her after a recent hysterectomy. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- PING PONG ANYONE?  ----- A 20 year old man came into the ER with a stony
You Know You're A Redneck When..
Brand new edition of... 'You know you're a redneck when......1. You take your dog for a walk and you both use the same tree. 2. You can entertain yourself for more than 15 minutes with a fly swatter. 3. Your boat has not left the driveway in 15 years. 4. You burn your yard rather than mow it. 6. The Salvation Army declines your furniture. 7. You offer to give someone the shirt off your back and they don't want it. 8. You have the local taxidermist on speed dial. 9. You come back from the dump with more than you took. 10. You keep a can of Raid on the kitchen table. 11. Your wife can climb a tree faster than your cat. 12. Your grandmother has 'ammo' on her Christmas list. 13. You keep flea and tick soap in the shower. 14. You've been involved in a custody fight over a hunting dog. 15. You go to the stock car races and don't need a program. 16. You know how many bales of hay your car will hold. 17. You ha
Poem For Fu
men think cuz a chic is on fu she is a cyber slut here for u. at ur disposal no im not. could it be that most women here have tainted the land of fu there is no doubt that is true  fakes and fonies im sure u men have had but not all is bad in fu land  
Sex And More Sex!
Sunday was a down day for me, not as is being sad but no sex at all.  When my friend and Sam came home, she barely had time to kiss me bye, her parents were taking her out for dinner and later she called saying they wanted her to spend a few nights with them before they head off on a cruise and my friend was off to help his brother with something and by the time he got home he was too tired to fuck me and the lady I met Saturday couldn't make it, so I had to break out mr rabbitt and had an exciting cum but wished I could've shared it. Work today and yesterday was blah!!! same old shit, but we get ice cream later this week for being so safe, yippie, i luv ice cream!!!!!  when I got home last night my friend was working on something in his den and Sam was with her parents, so it looked like another night with mr rabbitt, I like playing with myself but two days in a row!!!!!  I was sitting on couch and watching dvd that I bought the other day, the one with spanking, I was getting a lil h
A Make Belief Dream
A MAKE-BELIEF DREAM   I feel empty, hallow and ragged inside And while reaching to grab the unraveling thread presented in front of me I realize that my whole life has been a make-belief dream It has been a seemingly, exciting yet an unfulfilling roller-coaster ride So much deceit and dishonesty Lies of the truth and taking advantage of me A cover up of what I see
27 July 2009
Stuff like this doesn happen very often, but when it does its a tidal wave of mixed emotions. As i was letting the troops and civilians off my chinook helicopter, a civilian passenger handed me a small piece of paper. Looking back now I wish i would have read it as soon as I recieved it.  It read " Dear flight engineer, my father was a F.E. in vietnam (69-70). he just passed away last year. thanks for everything you do." To me that was an honor. But at the same time I wanted to find out who it was and give them the American flag we fly in our aircraft. Thank you for everything your father did, and thank you for serving along side us while we are deployed. It means the world to us.    
My 3 Auction For Bids See Muuahh
First i would like thank you all who help me to get level 37 ofcourse with out you I never get level like that and I want to tell you I have lots of fun: I have open an auction before and I want to do it again for fun Just click every pic to get in to bid if you have any question on me pls. sb me TY!KEEP SMILLING AND ENJOY YOUR FRIENDS IN HERE IN FUBAR! GOODLUCK MUUAHH its end tuesday 11 pm Shine   JUST CLICK THIS LINK BELOW AND BID I PUT 2 PIC.IN MY GAL 2 35 cridit give away just for you muuahh!
Ugh...Damn room mate needs to shut up.....blabbing about his nerd stuff on the phone to some other nerd, Evan I'm sure. Slept very ok last night...still tossed and turned. I took a cheap ass sleeping pill but that didn't do anything for me...I need to call my doc to get my prescription sleeping pills again. Welp, I'm on my way to work...Feels like it should be Friday since I don't work on Wednesdays..I hope that today goes by fast...
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My Aunt Really Really Needs Your Help
All My Friends my Aunt needs HELP! Only a few days left 2 vote. Just follow these quick steps 2 help out hr and her family. Send me a comment if you helped so I can send a lil thank you! Hi Everyone! I am asking every single one of you, if you have not already voted for me, please do so by midnight Friday, July 31.  It appears I am about 12 votes behind the leader so YOUR VOTE REALLY DOES COUNT since the leader will probably continue to get votes, too.  You, your husband/mother/father/sister/brother/cousin/co-worker/plumber/vet/mechanic/etc. can vote.  I know a lot of you have long email address lists so feel free to beg everyone to cast a vote for me.  Every vote is very important since these are the last few days and I am sooooooo close.    1.     Click this link. 2.     Click “Sign Up” on the upper right side and complete the sign-up process. 3.     You will receive a confirmation email in just a few moments at the address you provided. 4
Woman Only
Dear Kotex... down2basics: Dear Kotex:I recently noticed that the peel-off strip of my pantyliner had a bunch of Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as:    a.. Staying active during your period can relieve cramps.    b.. Avoiding caffeine may help reduce cramps and headaches.    c.. Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh.    d.. Try Kotex blah blah blah other products...Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a functioning set of ovaries. Go ahead and tell a menstruating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh.Like we need more fluid inside our bloated bodies from hell...but go ahead. See what happens and report back. I'll wait.While you're at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I guaran-freakin-tee that the first responders will be females who just ovulated. This advice was some brain functionof a male.... right???Staying activ
7%: Life Lessons
This is something we should all read at least once a week!   Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written." My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:   1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
Better Update
Well for those who didn't know, I am deploying.  I got a date today, and well, it is about when I thought it was going to be, but had 2 weeks of training thrown in on top of it, and just don't see me getting to enjoy my last few weeks of life stateside before I have to leave.  It looks like training, pack out, take a few days of leave, and then....well.....leave.  It's been fun, won't be around a whole lot, got quite a bit of crap that needs to be done around here.  See ya when I get the chance.   For those that want it, let me know and I'll hit ya with an address of where I am scheduled to go.
Night Terror
So out of no were you find yourself falling asleep and bam.... You see the faces, demons that rest on your shoulders they dont say anything you just see them. you wake up so freaked out that u dunno what to do almost like you been drugged your body wont move.......   When well they go away
Yeah Yeah It Is...
Soooo.... It's about 0730 ( or 7:30am) in the morning in Korea, and waiting for TMO to pack, pick up my things, and ship it off to Germany. 8 more days until I finally leave--you know, the more I think about it, the more it's starting to become bittersweet...I hate being here, and yet i'm going to miss this place. The partying, drunken nights, being sick during an readiness excercise LOL, and meeting people, new and those I haven't seen in a long LONG time. Well, as I about to log off and shut my desktop computer down to also be shipped to Europe, I just wanted to say that for those that are STILL in Korea, " Don't worry about a thing, it'll all be over soon..." That I can assure you...until then...SEE YA IN GERMANY!!!  
Chapter One (i Think) Of My New Book. Its Sure To Piss Off A Lot Of People
I was walking. I remeber that much from within the earliest, hazy part of it all. I was walking and I think I was in or around a Motel 6. Thats weird enough cause i got banned for life from the chain years ago in the wild days of Fatal Demise, so i dont generally hang out in the Motel 6 world, ye know? Anyhow, I was walking there, I can remember the bland muted colors of the place and the stucco walls. I may have tried the Ice machine just to test Fry's theory, pretty sure it was borne out. I came then to the end of the semienclosed hallway, and found an old friend with a gelatinous face that nonetheless bared a wide smile. He was alone but said he was waiting for some other folks and could i join him for a while, I should really meet these girls, they were "primo tail". I dont think like that to be sure, but I am a guy so I put political correctness away as it has been far too long since Ive even conversed with a woman and I sat down. The pool was boiling in the summer sun, drops of i
In Memory Of My Late Uncle
fubar is soooo confusing!! lol
I'm tryin to check my mail, and yahoo is being fuckin SLOW. WTF??? they have some new twitter type feature, and it seems that ever since they introduced it, its been much slower. POS, I jut wanna smash my comp right now
60 Things You Shouldn't Say To A Nude Man
60 things you shouldn't say to a nude man 1. Eww, there’s an inch worm on your thigh. 2. Ahh, it’s cute. 3. Wow, and your feet are so big. 4. Why don’t we just cuddle? 5. You know they have surgery to fix that. 6. It’s more fun to look at. 7. Make it dance. 8. You know, there’s a tower in Italy like that. 9. Can I paint a smiley face on it?
Unbelievable !!
Makes you wonder who exactly won World War II...             THE AFTER PICTURES ARE VISUALLY EXTRAORDINARY    HIROSHIMA 64 YRS LATER... Hiroshima, Nagasaki 1945 
Omfg R U Serious Lmfao
DAVID LETTERMAN MAY BE IN TROUBLE WITH NASCAR!!!!   Now, THIS is funny.   David Letterman may not get any flak from NASCAR, but I'll bet he does get some 'flak' from the NAACP, and others such as Al Sharpton and the Rev. Jackson will absolutely go nuts!!!   David Letterman's reasons why there are no black NASCAR drivers: Top 10   # 10 - Have to sit upright while driving.   # 9 - Pistol won't stay under front seat.   # 8 - Engine noise drowns out the rap music..   # 7 - Pit crew can 't work on car while holding up pants at the same time.   # 6 - They keep trying to carja
Chicks !!
Farmer John lived on a quiet rural highway. But, as time went by, the traffic Slowly built up at an alarming rate. The traffic was so heavy and so fast that his Chickens were being run over at a rate of three to six a day. So one day Farmer John called the sheriff's officeAnd said, "You've got to do something about allOf these people driving so fast and killing all of my chickens.""What do you want me to do?" asked the sheriff. "I don't care, just do something about those crazy drivers!" So ! the next day he had the county workers Go out and erected a sign that said: SLOW: SCHOOL CROSSING Three days later Farmer John called the sheriff And said, "You've got to do something about these drivers. The 'school crossing' sign seems to make them go even faster." So, again, the sheriff sends out the county Workers and they put up a new sign: SLOW:&NB sp;CHILDREN AT PLAY           &nbs
A Little Bout Me
was sup ppl new on flube as you all know a little bout my i have twin wonderful twin boys im a single father they live with me ther mom chooses not to have anything to do to them.I posted a few pics of them and ugly me >.> but for you single ladies around ohio hit me up if you want to cat to get to know me or jsut to be friends
15 Do You Believe Quiz
In love?Yes...just seems to elude me...loolYour soulmate exists?I believe we have several In an afterlife?YesYou can be in love with 2 people at the same time?YesIn marriage?I believe in the idea of it...don't have much faith in it thoA relationship can last if both people are 100 percent honest?Yes Everyone is inherently good or evil?I think they are bothIn nature or nurture?BothIn coincidence?YesIn the death penalty? Yes... eye for an eye!A man can be completely faithful? This means emotionally too!Not sure about this one...haven't seen it in exsistenceEvery parent has a favorite child?Not every parent...You can GROW to love someone and be happy?Yes...if your heart is open it can happenIn miracles?Yes...everyday is a miracleThis survey was worth you time?Not sure....let me tell you after I see how many actually read
TODAY WE CELEBRATE FRIENSHIP DAY IN MY COUNTRY SO I WANTED TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO TELL YOU HOW SPECIAL YOUR FRIENDSHIP IS TO ME: Cherished Friends God must have known there would be times We'd need a word of cheer, Someone to praise a triumph Or brush away a tear. He must have known we'd need to share The joy of "little things" In order to appreciate The happiness life brings. I think He knew our troubled hearts Would sometimes throb with pain, At trials and misfortunes, Or goals we can't attain. He knew we'd need the comfort Of an understanding heart To give us strength and courage To make a fresh, new start. He knew we'd need companionship, Unselfish... lasting... true, And so God answered the heart's great need With cherished friends... like you!
God had made us free,  to do as we will. Also gave endless glee, over every thrill. On we go in a spree, never standing still.   Having love eternaly, never having fill.   That is how we will be,  till the day we ill.   Evermore you and me, for love you can not kill.
Last Weekend
Last weekend was the best weekend i think ive ever had. my fiance came up from chicago.i loved every moment we spent just laying in bed cuddling i wish i could spend everyday in his arms.. i dident want him to leave it hurt really bad and still does.. i love him more then anything his smile his voice the way he looks at me and the feeling i get when he touches me is just so incredible i couldent be happier.. been almost 3 days now and i miss him more and more as each day goes by.. no doubt about it i wanna marry him one day   for those who dont know he goes by the name a.b.k on fubar and he is the best thing that ever happend to me   for those who dont like it feel free to block me  
The Tiger A Poem By William Blake
The TigerWilliam Blake Tiger Tiger. burning bright,In the forests of the night;What immortal hand or eye.Could frame thy fearful symmetry?In what distant deeps or skies.Burnt the fire of thine eyes?On what wings dare he aspire?What the hand, dare seize the fire?And what shoulder, & what art,Could twist the sinews of thy heart?And when thy heart began to beat.What dread hand? & what dread feet?What the hammer? what the chain,In what furnace was thy brain?What the anvil? what dread grasp.Dare its deadly terrors clasp?When the stars threw down their spearsAnd watered heaven with their tears:Did he smile His work to see?Did he who made the lamb make thee?Tiger Tiger burning bright,In the forests of the night:What immortal hand or eye,Dare frame thy fearful symmetry? The TigerWilliam Blake
Sick And Tired
Got your bag on your shoulder, Never thought once about thinkin' it over. Feel like you're the only one, Who's ever been in a bad situation. Now you need to take yourself a love vacation, 'Cause after all, what's done is done. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. Everything around you's growin' old. The days drag on, the nights last forever, Every day's tougher just to keep it together. Forget everything you've ever known, Except for home. He made a promise he couldn't keep. I bet he's not losing a bit of sleep, Over how you're getting down the line. Now don't you fret, now don't you worry, Don't get in too much of a hurry, 'Cause up ahead's that city limit sign. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. Everything around you's growin' old. The days drag on, the nights last forever, Every day's tougher just to keep it together. Forget everything you've ever known, Except for home. Home is where the heart is: That's what somebody once said. (Yeah.) I think your heart is where y
Girls And Guys
30 THINGS GIRLS WANT GUYS TO KNOW     1. We like sex, but only when we get pleasure too2. Comparing us to your ex's is NOT a turn on3. A hug is sometimes 1000 times better then something from the store4. When we buy you something, we are also asserting OUR independence5.  If you want to be pampered when you come home, your ass better have a job to earn your self the pampering.6. Your friends are only cool when there not making you act like a Dick7. Don't leave your shit on the floor and then complain about a dirty house8. You don't like the way we cook, your ass can pay for take out9. WE LIKE GOING TO THE MOVIES, take us for just the hell of it10.If a gay man walks into the room, don't go spastic unless you yourself are having doubts about your own sexuality.11.Your car, my radio12.You don't like going to the doctor, we don't like gett
Enneagram Test
Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test... 6 - the Questioner Thanks for taking the test ! you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX (aka "The Loyalist").   "I am affectionate and skeptical"   Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.   How to Get Along with Me • Be direct and clear. • Listen to me carefully. • Don't judge me for my anxiety. • Work things through with me. • Reassure me that everything is OK between us. • Laugh and make jokes with me. • Gently push me toward new experiences. • Try not to overreact to my overreacting.   What I Like About Being a SIX • being committed and faithful to family and friends • being responsible and hardworking • being compassionate toward others • having intellect and wit • being a nonconfor
The Stranger In My Heart
i've fallen for a stranger... my heart he has stolen, but he does not know. i wish i could tell him... but  another has stolen his. i see him frolic with his new love, while i watch in agony as my heart shatters... tell me oh broken heart of mine, what am i to do?  you tell me to forget, but how, when he shown me that i can love so deeply. how am i to forget when my heart yearns for his touch, his love, his very soul? i beg of you, do not wish me to forget, for i have fallen so terribly in love with a stranger. a stranger i can never have in my arms... i pray to the gods above. hear my pleas and answer my prayers, guide my forsaken lover to my tender, broken heart, for only he can heal the wounds that were unitentionally inflicted upon my soul... Sincerely yours, Raven Renae Cassiana
I Miss You
Something about a girl drives me insane...Is it her eyes or maybe its her touch, but still...She drives me crazy with every little thing she does...Yes, I know its weird for most to understand but oh well...She makes me happier than anyone else on the planet...I used to say livin for the future only destroys your chance at the present...Today I am more curious than ever to wonder what our future is gunna be like...I think my future will be great because I have a wonderful girl in my life...Being unlike anyone I have even known, I have had my heart stolen...I just want you to know that she is my baby and that I miss her...Whether its a rainy day or sunny day, I know I have her to hold me when needed...I worry not about losing my life, but losing our chance...She helps me when I get worried about my past catching up with me...I trust within her for reasons I cant explain...But hell, I cant even explain my true feelings for her...I just know I honestly want to be with you, a couple....
Just Close Your Eyes
This song by Waterproof blonde has a certain meanng to my life.   Deceived by my eyes and all I was told I should see Opinions not mine, the person they taught me to beOne night in the dark, a vision of someone I knew And in the darkness I saw, a voice say, I'm you.Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealedDreams you never lived, and scars never healed In the darkness, light will take you to the other sideAnd find me waiting there you'll see, if you just close your eyesHearts uninspired, trapped inside somebody's dreamToo close to the fire, yet cold and numb with the painBut the fever has broken, and the river has run to the sea Washed to the ocean, and saved by a voice inside me.Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealedDreams you never lived, and scars never healed In the darkness, light will take you to the other sideand find me waiting there you'll see, if
Love On Northern Angel
Show Northern Angel Lovinz On Her Auto Northern Angel@ fubar
Wondering Where To Turn To...
with everything going on, I feel beyond lost; confused; even dead on the inside... because numbness doesn't begin to cover how I feel. I'm just battling with my own emotions... I can't even describe anything else so musik & videos will have to do...Lost in the darkness, hoping for a signInstead there is only silence,Can't you hear my screams...?Never stop hoping,Need to know where you areBut one thing is for sure,You're always in my heart.I'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happened,The Truth will free my soul.Lost in the darkness, try to find your way homeI want to embrace you and never let you goAlmost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul...Living in agony 'cause I just do not knowWhere you areI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happened,The Truth will free my soul.Wherever you are, I won't stop searching.Whatever it takes, I need to know.I'll find you
Tooth Number Eighteen, Stay With Me
No, I do NOT want tooth number eighteen – to my now-official dentist, Dr. Greer, whom my wife referred me to and I saw for an “extraction” yesterday morning, that’s the tooth furthest back on my lower left jaw – back.  Part of it had broken away and I’d been dealing with intermittent mouth pain there for weeks.  Usually when I ask to see any doctor it takes a back seat to my wife and children’s medical needs for sheer financial consideration.  But Martha can relate to tooth pain and how annoying it is – she’s missing several back teeth and also has a gap in her smile now due to a chipped, broken tooth.  And since my bill got merged with hers, we’ll be paying what I think is quite reasonable for an extraction of a tooth; considering I’d last visited a dentist ten years ago, the penalty on my mouth was not steep at all! Dr. Greer and his assistant Monica did an x-ray of my whole mouth since those folded boards dentists pu
Absolutely Divine
Our love is so greatthat no words can define it,no poet can write it,no artist can design it.It's a miracle beyond mortal conception,the closest thingto true perfection.It's brighter thanthe heavens aboveand holds more beautythan I ever dreamed of.It's about so much morethan mere fascination,arriving with the promiseof lifelong duration.It speaks with the heart--never with the mind.It's ever unselfish,patient, and kind.It always givesmuch more than it takes,and never quits,never forsakes.It's never harsh,and never deceiving.It's a faith in the heartthat's worth believing.It's far grander and deeper than I could define--our love is absolutely divine.
The Reason...
We go through lifeasking why,but love is the reasonwe live and die.Love is all the soulyearns to seek,the only wordthe spirit speaks.We dry our tearswith the hand we hold,heal our woundswith a heart of gold.For love we seekrainbows in the skyand plant our dreamson the stars up high.Only love lightsthe candle in the our souls,instilling hope and faithto make life whole.And we cling to lovethe only tie that bindsthe spirit and souland heart and mind.
Hidden Light
I don't love youthe way I lovethe sunset,or the way I lovea rose in bloom,because sunsetsand roses fade.I love you the way I love the night's glowingpromise of dawn,the way I love the hidden lightcarried by the stars.I love you the way I lovea winter gardenthat holds the beautyof flowers that have not yet bloomed.I don't love youthe way I lovethe sun or the wind,because they only touch meon the outside.I love you likesomething beautifulthat lives inside me,like the fire of existence,a beautiful memory of childhood.I love you with allof the passionthat feeds my soul andinspires my greatest dreams.Without knowing how or from where,I love youas completelyand as naturallyas the circle of life.I love you as perfectlyas the way the stars shineupon the whole world,as perfectly asthe way your handlies upon my chest.I love youthe way that I lovethe unity and flowbetween us,the way we close our eyesand dream of tomorrow together.I love you,infinitely,passionately,and profoundly,with everything I
My Apologies
I wish to apologize for building a lounge and not being able to be in there as much as I was.I am visiting a friend in Germany that needed help and now our time zones are way out of sorts.It is now after 11 pm & if I am correct it is only after 3 pm back home in the states.When I do get on to try and hook up with everyone it is so late here that I can't focus for to long because my eyes wish to go to sleep.I Know that the lounge is being taken care of when I am not there but still it seems when I go no one there,hence {time zones}.I saw someone left a statement once that the lounge doesn't stay busy anymore..If this is because of methen I am truly sorry.I try my best to get there as pften as I can.When I get back to the states it will be time for me to go back to school and start my teaching for the year.My times then will be after school or on breaks at school and only until maybe 10pm at night,I get up to early to stay on any longer than that. So this is my apologies to you for not
POEM – THE DASHThis poem was written by Linda Ellis.  She wrote it while working at a company with a tense working environment.  She saw people’s priorities were messed up.  The bosses and her fellow employees were worrying far too much about what seemed to be unimportant in the larger scope of life.  A letter was sent around her office written by a wife of an employee who was dying.  Her words were: “Regrets?  I have a few.  Too much worrying!  I worried about finding the right husband, and having children, being on time, being late and so on.It all works out and would have worked out without the worries or fears.  If only I would have known then, what I know now.  We all are going to die.  Stop worrying, start loving and living.”The Dash – Linda EllisI read of a man who stood to speak   at the funeral of a friend.He referred to the dates on her tombstone   from the the end.He noted that first came the date of her birth   and spoke of the f
Eternal Flame
I spit wicked lyrics that are gonna kill your PreacherAnd it will reach ya, and if you're listenin it'll teach yaInvert the crucifix, light the candle sticksAnd tell the Lord himself he can suck your fuckin' dickNo respect for the Holy cause they try to control meAnd hold me, but I would never ever fold seeI am the wicked the definition of a sicknessMy rhymes are cryptic, the Holy thing is self inflictedBlack candles in the midnight mistI am a Prophet to some and to some I'm a JudasA Demonologist with a slit wrists that bleeds for one KingThat's some Holy wicked shitSo I touch myself when I think about JesusLittle Mary Magnalene should have killed the fetusBelieve this, cause we on the attackAnd the Devils got a message, Team Death is BackWelcome to our minds and welcome to, our worldSay hello to your Saviors, say goodbye to the wordIgnite the Holy Bible with Eternal FlameAnd write all your shame in the Book of Dead NamesWhy have faith when you are so oppressedLight the candles, renoun
What is your full name? What is your birthday? What is your favorite color? Are you spoken for? What is your biggest fear? What is your most embarrassing moment? Do you love someone? Can you eat cereal without sugar on it? Do you like coffee? If so how do you take it? Are you interested in the opposite sex or same sex? If you were to win the lottery what would you spend the money on? How old do you think a child should be before they are left home alone? What was your greatest wake up call in life? How many children do you have? Do you like sex? What is your favorite position? How many sexual partners have you been with? What is the kinkiest place you've ever had sex? How many times have you been caught? Are you glad the questions are over?     I'd like to get to know you! Leave a comment with the answers or post this as a blog yourself and answer! Thanks!
Finally the city of Vancouver has decided to review Translink and the Ferries.  From everything to fares, saleries and service.  The article was in the paper the day I decided to complain about the bus driver incident I had.  Not that it was the first time but it was the worst so far.  As far as i am concerned they should never had privatized public transit.  Since they had prices have gotten out of control  as the service sucks.  I was telling a couple people at work what happened and they shared thier stories about the system as well.  It seems like anone who uses the service has a bad story to tell.  I think the worst one I heard was the one driver who kicked off every high school student due to 2 kids playing with sparklers at halloween.  It was very snowy outside and the kids had to wait forever.  Lots of complaints and the driver was moved to another route on a short bus that no one ever uses.   I still can't believe how the bus driver reacted the other day to me when I asked
I looked inside my heart to find out where I'd gone wrong what I would find I was not sure I opened up a memory to see what was inside your picture fell out at me with emotions I thought had dieda love so pure buried so deep I don't know how it survivedone look at that picture was all it took I sat and cried for what I lost the special bond the part of me so purenow it is gone all that's left is this memory picture of you
A Cyber All Loved Ones Out There In The World
God, please helpthe troubled,the suffering,the hungry,and the heartbroken.Ease the minds of thosewho feel as ifthere's no way tobreak free fromdespair and dejection.Touch their heartswith a renewedenthusiasm for life.Inspire those who havefailed to try again.Take the sufferinginto your warm handsand infuse their body and soulwith strength and courage.Cast your light uponall the children of the earthand put comfort where there's pain,peace where there's worry,joy where there's sorrow,light where there's darkness.Let all who tread the earthknow the healing power ofyour love.
Chevy (Noun) A Brand of cars/trucks that that breaks down often and is very unreliable, But some people decide to continue to push them around town. If you have a Chevy you might want to make sure that you have a friend with a Ford so that he/she can tow you home so that you don't have to push it.Cracked Heads Every Valve Rattles On Long Extended Trips new battery 73$new tranny 500$new motor 1000$cost of stolen stereo due to crappy locks 900$wishing it would burst into flames=priceless
This Town
In the morning wake me up And tell me everything So I can understand your world And you can understand my dream Yeah I could be anywhere And you could be there with me But I just want to be a ghost And see everything I don't want it to be the way they want it This Town, this night, this crowd Come on put them up, let me hear it loud This Town, this city, this crowd Stand up on your feet put your worry down And everyone of you all around Come on ya'll let's take this town Let's take this town It's better that we keep this close Keep you close to me Walking under every sky Over every sea You can be my modern girl And I can be the one you found If we're taking on the world today I know we got to leave this town I don't want it to be the way they want it This town, this night, this crowd Come on put them up, let me hear it loud This town, this city, this crowd Stand up on your feet put your worry down And everyone of you all around Come on ya'll let's take this town Let's take this to
Arousal from cold water.
Rednecks live in the Southeastern United States. While they do not comprise the entire population in this region they do make up the vast majority of the people here. Typically, rednecks live in rural settings. They avoid urban settings. They are proud of their pick-up trucks or older cars and stick with them despite rising gas prices. They typically work industrial or manual labor jobs. The majority do not have anything beyond a high school education. They depend on the "Good 'Ol Boy" system of advancement. They are extremely weary of those who do possess the desire to act educated -- these people are perceived as sell-outs. You can often see rednecks hauling lawn equipment or hunting (dog) equipment even if they do not plan on using these items in the near future. It is a proud symbol of their social class. Rednecks often are seen about in hunting attire even though they do not plan to hunt anything. Dressing up comprises of dockers and a tucked in polo shirt. Baseball hats on men ar
Ice Castle
Using Only Song Names From One Artist
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 10 people and include me!Pick Your Artist: ElvisAre you male or female: Girls! Girls! Girls!Describe yourself: Hard Headed WomanHow do you feel about yourself: I Did It My WayDescribe where you currently live: Beach ShackIf you could go anywhere, where would you go: Hawaiian SunsetYour best friend is: Amazing GraceYour favorite color is: Roses are RedYou know that: Home Is Where The Heart IsWhat's the weather like: Night LifeIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called?: Put The Blame On MeWhat is life to you: Pocketful of RainbowsWhat is the best advice you have to give: RelaxIf you could change your name, what would it be: Sweet CarolineYour favorite food is: Cotton Candy Land
Who Wants To Be Bombed
Pleased To Meet You
"I'm only going to say this once. I don't give a flying fuck what your fantasies are. You are now my slave. I own your sorry ass. The rules are simple. You will not speak unless spoken to and you will do everything I say. You break the rules you get punished, Any questions?  Just sit back and let me take control. I’ll have you jumping thru hoops and begging for just a morsel of my attention.Mistress Morgan Le Fay    
Grow Up And Accept Your Losses
   We spend our lives meeting people, making friends, having our first crush, dating, experiencing life.   we all make  mistakes, we all have sad moments, we have moments we will always remember, the good and the bad.   So if someone doesn't want to be with another, even if they thought that is what they wanted.  It is their right to say I'm sorry it isn't working and move on.  We have to accept those things, and learn from them.  Unfortunately their are some people who cant handle the rejection and the heart ache.  No one likes hurting anyone, no one who cares that is.   We cant always help this though, sometimes we are going to hurt people. That doesn't make us a bad person, is most definitely make us a liar. So why go out of your way making assumptions, deliberately hurting others to make your "point".   Ultimately it only hurts one person, "YOU". No one wants to be with anyone who is going to drag out personal information about them, true or false just because they find that your
Check This Out
i have another blog for the biggest bomblist ever if u can't find it u can sb me or on the left there is a list of my blogs just click on the biggest bomblist ever blog it is marked nsfw so haters can't mark it thanks
When everything goes wrong, push! When you wish for something, push! When people don't understand, push. When you wish for love, P-ush U- ntil S-omething H-appens! Love is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end, coz love is all there is. Love has its ups and downs, its twists and turns. Love leaves you pain, teaches you until you learn and even if love takes so long, it always takes you to where you belong. Women listen to music because they are in love. Men listen to music because they want to fall in love.
The Knight And The Dragon
There was once love, so strong and bright, it could change all from dark to light. The knight's and dragon's love so strong, it would have lasted their whole lives long. Evil seeped through the land, in search of this love so grand. Across the land rode an evil knight, To exterminate them both in a fight, Back at the lair, the black knight versed the white, The dragon went hunting, thinking all was right. While she was flying back, She heard the almighty crack!, She saw the spirit of her true love, floating reluctantly to heaven above. The final fatal unexpected blow, Made all her sorrowful emotions flow. She then fell dead on the floor, As the black knight struck a blow once more. Now the two lovers can't be apart, One in one, a great big heart.  
A Poem I Wrote
ok so I dabble in poetry....hoping to get some more of it published...this one seems to be a favorite of all my friends...hope you like it.   ROMANTIC INTERLUDE A touch A quiver A whisper A sigh A moan A hand A breast A thigh A smile A look A kiss A grin Both nervous about Whats about to begin Heat building Passion stirring Windows steaming Bodies purring Tender touches Warm embraces Erotic meeting Seductive gazes Soft skin Sliding in Pressure mounting Heart pounding Hours pass Then at last Relaxing release Cuddles and kissing These are all the things You're missing. -Summer Fry 2006  
Life And Netships Lol
SO here we are i dont blog much...but its something i thought i would try  to do to get my thoughts out.....before i go completely insane :P.  Anyway lets talk about the interenet and friendships on the internet.  Now i know what ya'll are thinkin...."oh great another internet love story...wonderful"....kiss my ass.  Anyone that says you can't use the internet to find someone is fucking retarded.  People will say "oh internet ppl are fake, oh they aren't real. oh thats someone pretending to be someone else, oh ur gonna let lied to/cheated on/betrsyed"...whatever....I want you to explain to me how thats different from r/l?  YOU CAN'T becuase it's NOT.  Usually the only difference betweenreal life and the internet is you cant look the person in the eyes or judge reactions....ya know...shit most don't pay attention to anyway.  In reality espically in this and age its almost the same as bar hopping....hell it even carries some of the same dangers as abr hopping does.  So is it
Where The Hell Have I Been?
Holy shit. 11 days. No net. No time. I have spent the days down in Baytown working as an interior decorator. Y'all do realize I have a BA in Art and once was given a scholarship for my talents? Well folks - I was using my degree... In a home completely full of objects we managed to switch rooms for the bedroom, office, living/dining, a sewing room AND the hall. We had to move every single piece of furniture three times. Example: We started by deconstructing what was once a bedroom. We put everything from there into the room that would become the new sewing room. We took out all the books from the shelves and cleared out the closet. Once it was all relocated we began the custom paint job. Did you know that trim high gloss paint is hard as shit to get to not streak when painting built ins? This room got two colors, so it took us extra long. Anyhow, before we could move the items from the other rooms into here we had to figure out if we could fix the cement floors or not. Time won an
Pot Activists File Ballot Measure In California
Oakland marijuana activists have taken a step toward asking California voters to legalize pot. The ballot measure they filed Tuesday with the California attorney general's office would allow adults 21 and over to possess up to an ounce of pot. Homeowners could also grow marijuana for personal use on garden plots up to 25 square feet.
On My Knees
On my knees I am ready to pleaseYou stand before me hard, naked willing me with your eyes to let you insideAnd I do as you likeTaking hold of your dickI feel you tense and take in a breathThat makes me smile as I move my head closerplace you on my lips and kiss and lick the sweetness that is now dripping outI tease you with my tongue sliding up and down your shaft and right on the tip of your Carmel colored dickI begin to draw in inSlowly no need to rushI hear you begin to moanAnd I feel your hands caress my hair"Damn this feels so good." you sayI take you in fartherSucking and licking"Don't stop, Don't Stop Mami."And I don'tSucking you like your the last thing on earthMoving my head fasterwith my hand insincThe grip you have on my hair tightensRight then we look at each otherYou began to quiverI get myself ready for youYou move your hips to the movements of my mouth and scream my nameI feel you flow down my throatMMMMM you taste so goodYou slide out of my mouth and claps on the floorO
Another Edition Of Random Andy Facts
1. i have been arrested twice...the first time i took the rap for my roommate so he wouldnt miss his kid's birth and the other was my stupidity along with a friends...i have done my time and paid for it...leave it be thanx 2. i was the fat kid that got picked on and i still am self conscious about it from time to time 3. i have a brutal temper, it takes a lot to have it come out but it has and i have the scars to prove it 4. i sometimes feel im a failure as a parent 5. i think of someone constantly but i cant have them and i know they feel the same 6. i have never cheated on a gf nor have i ever thought of it 7. if i could hold my heart in my hand it would be shattered to the size of grains of sand 8. i have a hard time showing my feelings unless i am extremely mad 9. i still have yet to cry over dad's death 10. if things had gone right i would have 3 kids now instead of just 1 11. i sometimes i think i write these random things so i can get them off my chest and feel a litt
Corazon Aquino
MANILA, Philippines – Former President Corazon Aquino, who swept away a dictator with a "people power" revolt and then sustained democracy by fighting off seven coup attempts in six years, died on Saturday, her son said. She was 76. The uprising she led in 1986 ended the repressive 20-year regime of Ferdinand Marcos and inspired nonviolent protests across the globe, including those that ended Communist rule in eastern Europe. But she struggled in office to meet high public expectations. Her land redistribution program fell short of ending economic domination by the landed elite, including her own family. Her leadership, especially in social and economic reform, was often indecisive, leaving many of her closest allies disillusioned by the end of her term. Still, the bespectacled, smiling woman in her trademark yellow dress remained beloved in the Philippines, where she was affectionately referred to as "Tita (Auntie) Cory." "She was headstrong and single-minded in one goal, an
The Defiler
I laugh at your painI rejoice in your agonyI revel in your shameI am giddy with your lack of visionI have taken my timeWaited and waited, patientlyWatching, observingListening, and sniffing the air for weaknessThe moment has comeYou do not see meI strike like a virus, unbiddenInfecting you with the impurities of this worldYou no longer have directionEvery decision you make is wrought with idiocyYou lash out at others, thinking they are the reasonYou fool, you think you are in controlI will bleed you dryAnd revel in the stink of your decayI will make you sufferAnd mock you while you wallow in self pityI will make you hateFill you further with the sins of this worldI will make you my puppetAnd take your free will like a thiefYou will become the hatedYou will vomit volumes of illegitimate babblePeople will become disgusted with youAnd those that take pity on you, will soon see you are not worthy of itYou inbred offspringYou waste of spermYou now have nothing to offerYou are nothing to beg
She turns it on when they're all gone.Then she flips and slips her high heels on.Arching shadows fill the room..With the dim light of the longing moon.No doubt her love has diminished.Finally with him she is surely finished.No false hopes of lingerie and his caress.She is within her own loveliness.And she concedes,that she is the only one she can please.....In the dark kisses,always your,Keppiebad to the bone.....xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Walking With An Angel
Walking with an angel,I do it every dayYour guardian angel is with you,come what may.Assigned by God,and sent to watch over youHe's with you each day,no matter what you do.You don't believe,you don't think this is soHe guards each step you take,he wants you to know.Ever been close to death,just one step away,Catch yourself saying,boy was I ever lucky today.Luck didn't do it,whether you realize it or notProtected in his arm's,the Lord has not forgotYou don't believe,you don't think this is soHe guards each step you take,he wants you to know.More times than you know,death does knockBut your angel will protect,if you're planted firmly on the rock.The next time you come close,take a good look around,He may be right next to you,or no where to be found. You don't believe,you don't think this is so,He guards each step you take,he wants you to knowYou may or may not see him,but he's always thereRemember that the next timeyou miss death by a hair.Do you need an angel,do you know where to lookAl
Wishing For A Dream Lover
Wishing for a Dream Lover ............Reach out your handAnd place it gently in mineLet us become oneAs ours souls intertwineThe night surrounds usFilled with the starsAs we danced under the moonAnd make love in the darkYour kisses like velvetYour touch like silkAs we envelope each other And create a love stiltLet our bond be unbroken And lasts many nightsFrom the beginning to the endNever losing its sightSo if by chance we let goAnd drift slowly apartLet the love we endeavoredContinue silently in our hearts
An Angel Walks Beside Me
AN ANGEL WALKS BESIDE ME...........An angel walks beside me,I feel him everyday,he helps me through lives ups and downs,and whatever comes my way.He guides me down the road of life,and lights the darkest roads,he picks me up and carries me,when I can not bear the load.He helps to ease the pain I feel,he mends my spirit, too,he holds my hand, and shelters me,and gives me courage and strength, too.He speaks to me with words of love,and he listens to my pleas,he was sent here from the lord above,to guide and comfort me.I know he's always watching,though his form I can not see,its a peace I feel deep in my heart,that leads me to believe.An angel walks beside me,I feel blessed everyday,that the presence of this angel,will never go away.
That Kiss
That Kiss....................Time stands still.There you are, Holding me,Kissing me, Loving me.I've never felt more lovedin my life.A moment to cherish forever,Real or not, It doesn't matter.You only you,Hold the key to my heart.That Kiss...The most loving, tender kiss.A fleeting second in time thatChanged my life forever.That Kiss...Was it just a fantasy, a wish,A dream.A moment that holds myheart as tight as a vise.A moment etched foreverInto my memory.It feels so real...My skin shivers from your touch.Then, as you lean downTo kiss my lips once more,The alarm awakens me.My fantasy, my wish, my dream.That Kiss..
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Through The Darkness
Through The Darkness Do I deserve what I've got?Unable to see straightProbably not.I sat alone insideUnable to seeOr even to hideI searched for someoneTo maybe be my light;Shining through the shadows..But in time i've come to findThat I seek someone in which to share;These shadows, it's caressI've found happiness in darkness You felt my rage consiquently;No apology could take it awayI saw what I wanted to see.Like my brain forged an entryA cryptic memoryRegretful of my mistakeNeeding something, someone to beWanting something I couldn't just takeBut I was to blind in my search to see;Through the darknessYou came to me.
The Invitation
Pardon me but I must voice myself.  I’m enjoying our friendship, but today I demand a little more.  I have always been sincere with you and I speak what I feel.  I will be bold at the risk of a slap. Pay attention if you like sex.  I am inviting you to an adventure that you won’t regret.  I will bring protection; you just bring your body. I want to use you from Friday through Sunday.  No, no, no, I don’t want to talk about love, let’s talk about what turns you on and your favorite position.  I will be your teacher and my house your school.  Be good and learn new things. Mmm, you have such a beautiful body, come here and lay it on my bed!  Your wish is my command as I begin to caress.  You don’t worry about the time forget about the clock.  Turn off your cell phone, please don’t ruin the occasion.   We are mature and this is not a crime.  If they accuse us of anything, just laugh quietly and I will do the same.   Last night I had a dream,
Clarence A. "bud" Hill-my Grandfather
Clarence A. "Bud" Hill, 69, of 1817 Riverside Drive, South Williamsport, died Thursday, June 30, 2009 at the Williamsport Hospital. Born March 27, 1940 in Williamsport, he was a son of Chester G. and Olive Rhoads Hill. Bud was a truck driver and had worked for Follmer Trucking and retired from Harrison Brothers Trucking. He belonged to the Teamsters Union and was an avid hunter. Surviving are his wife Carol A. (Calvert) Hill with whom he would have celebrated 49 years of marriage with on Sept. 24, three children Robert A. Hill (Tammy) of South Williamsport, Gregory M. Hill (Kelli) of Spokane, WA, and Krista R. Burkholder (Ron) of Williamstown, NJ, seven grandchildren: Robert Jr., Andrew, Bryan, Amber, Cody, Nathan, and Brayden, one great grandson Robbie, four siblings Chester Hill, Jr. of Williamsport, Edward Hill (Sherry) of Nisbet, William Hill (Dawn) of Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, and Susan Bradarich (Paul) of Spring Hill, FL, and a sister-in-law Joan Hedgcock of Williamsport. He was p
Dave Matthews Band; Noblesville, In; July 31, 2009
Setlist: Bartender Proudest Monkey Satellite Seven Shake Me Like a Monkey Funny The Way It Is #41 You Never Know Why I Am Crash Into Me Spaceman So Damn Lucky Lie In Our Graves Shotgun Squirm Alligator Pie Jimi Thing Time Bomb Encore: Rye Whiskey (Tex Ritter cover) The Maker (Daniel Lanois cover) Stefan solo All Along The Watchtower (Bob Dylan cover)   Erica and I both cried during Crash, and I cried like a baby during Watchtower. What else needs to be said?
So the last few days have gone by so fast.  I didn't really have all that much time to have any sex but did help myself to a few orgasms in the shower and of course my friend helped me a few times.  Sam had been away with her parents and Trish hadn't been over since the other night. I managed to get my license plate sticker in time this year, last year I forgot and got pulled over, I tried to flirt with cop but he still gave me a ticket, so it cost me the price of the sticker and the $20 late fee and ticket......gawd this state sucks big time!!!!!!!!  The state usually sends you a reminder but I didnt get one then or this year, I was told that they didnt have to send them but i have to have one in my car, like i said this state SUCKSSSS!!!!!!!! Anyway, I'm over that now, got my sticker in place and everything else is taken care of.  Yesterday at work, my line went down early so I kinda went to my friends office instead of going to another line right away.  We just talked, you dirty m
Mind Control
no contact just words in the distance i can't see you reaching out but there is emptiness i wait emotionless caged visions of another time arrived here which path did you send me on  
I use  to  and  I  still  Do  and  I  don't  care  if  I  don't  , Whenever  I want to !!
Song Is Me At Times
Its just one of those daysWhen you dont wanna wake upEverything is fuckedEverybody sucksYou dont really know whyBut you wanna justifyRippin someones head offNo human contactAnd if you interactYour life is on contractYour best bet is to just stay away motherfuckerIts just one of those days{chorus}Its all about the he says she says bullshitI think you better quitLettin shit slipOr youll be leavin with a fat lipIts all about the he says she says bullshitI think you better quitTalking that shitIts just one of those daysFeelin like a freight trainFirst one to complainLeaves with the blood stainDamn right Im a maniac*You better watch your backCause Im fuckin up your programAnd then your stuck upYou just locked upNext in line to get fucked upYour best bet is to just stay away mother fuckerIts just one of those days{chorus}Its all about the he says she says bullshitI think you better quitLetting shit slipOr youll be leavin with a fat lipIts all about the he says she says bullshitI think you be
Sn1006 Supernova Remnant
I Have Come To Realize.
I have come to realize something today. No matter how much you want someone you can't change the past. No matter how much you say you love them, unless they truly believe its wasted words. People need to change for themselves. I am a strong girl who had endured many things in my life. I am still standing. Maybe just maybe, when you realize you can not change the past you can finally let it go. Until you can you will never walk into the sunlight. You will forever chase happiness but not seem to catch it. You will live in the shadows of others and never feel your worth. I have been deeply saddened today that the love of my life can't seem to walk into the sunlight and live.   ITS UP TO US TO DECIDE OUR FUTURES. YOU CAN NOT CHANGE THE PAST. STEP INTO THE LIGHT, LOVE YOURSELF, LIVE, BREATH, LOVE
I Want To Hold You
I WANT TO HOLD YOUI want to hold you in my arms while you sleepI want to hold you while you creep into your dreams so deepwith you next to me everything feels so rightI want to hold you all through the nightI want to hold you 'till the moon stops shining throughI want to hold you 'till there is no morning dewI want to hold you 'till the sun turns blueI want to hold you 'till one and one is no longer twoI want to hold you 'till the mountains turn to hillsI want to hold you 'till time stands stillI want to hold you 'till hell gets coldI want to hold you 'till the truth be toldI want to hold you whether you're wrong or rightI want to hold you whenever we fightI want to hold you 'till the anger is goneI want to hold you 'till you sing your songI want to hold you when you're blue and sadI want to hold you when things make you madI want to hold you whenever you cryso I can dry your tears from your eyesI want to hold you whether it's early or lateI want to hold you 'till the birds and bees no
Arousal from cold, or arousal from seeking another that is cold.
Italian Grandfather
Why Italian Fathers and Grandfathers pass their handguns down through the familyAn old Italian Mafia Don is dying. He calls his grandson to his bedside. "Guido, I wanna you lissina me.. I wanna you to take-a my chrome plated .38 revolver so you will always remember me.""But grandpa, I really don't like guns. How about you leave me your Rolex watch instead?""You lissina me, boy. Somma day you gonna be runna DA business, you gonna have a beautiful wife, lotsa money, a big-a home and maybe a couple of bambinos ""Somma day you gonna come-a home and maybe finda your wife inna bed with another man.."Whatta you gonna do then?  Point to your watch and say, 'Time's Up'?"
Please All Friends And Family And Fans If You Could Vote And Comment My Sister Wicked Wanda   hey all friends family and fans if you could please go vote on my sister wicked wanda and leave her a comment it would be much apprecited blessings sisterskylove           hey
I Think Of U Gothy
as i wake and beagain the day i think of the one i love. i think of u. as i get dress and beagain the day work i think of u as i sit and have lunch i think of u as i start again to bget home to take to u i think of u. as the  the job ends i think of u as i clock out and know soon i talk to u i think of u. as we talk and say i love u i think of u. as we say good night and i face the night without u i think of u as i sleep at night i think of u.gothy my love i always think of u thats how my days go i think of u
Mental Break Down Interupted By Kaosway
I want to like me. I want to like the mirror and not just the reflection in the water. I want to talk loud without fear and without a crack. I want to be clear about things without the need for a pause to think. I want to not care for people the way I say I don't. I want to justify what I do to me and not seek the approval of another. Far more then most I want to smile.Crease my lips and look wide eyed in confidence, instead of this brilliant act I portray. Give that look as if it has been there all my life. I want a day that doesn't lead to this.I want to not feel Friday doesn'tt matter if im going to kill myself onThursday.. My only vice, my only concern should be the happiness I expect and not the sorrow that is coming. I want to give my life for love and not the over dramatics of reality. I want the madness that I experience to have meaning in the end and not just there cause someone else needed the fix of my sympathy. I want to be as human as the smile I want on my face. I want
Empty Or Half Full?
Someone asked me the other day if my glass was half empty or half full.  I was going to say it's empty, but that's not completely true.  My life isn't void and I have my happy moments; but they usually just seem to disappear, or get worse.  So, my glass is cracked.  Yes, cracked.  It gets filled up with happiness and hope, but it always ends up escaping my grasp.  It always ends up empting out.  It will never be full because it's always leaking.  And one day, it will get thrown away, because no one wants a broken glass.
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You've Borne Your Burdens Well
The Marine stood and faced God, which must always come to pass.He hoped his shoes were shining, just as brightly as his brass."Step forward now, you Marine, how shall I deal with you?Have you always turned the other cheek? To My Church have you been true?"The Marine squared his shoulders and said, no, Lord, I guess I ain't.Because those of us who carry guns, can't always be a saint.I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was tough.And sometimes I've been violent, because the world is awfully rough.But, I never took a penny, that wasn't mine to keep...Though I worked a lot of overtime, when the bills got just too steep.And I never passed a cry for help, though at times I shook with fear.And sometimes, God, forgive me, I've wept unmanly tears.I know I don't deserve a place, among the people here.They never wanted me around, except to calm their fears.If you've a place for me here, Lord, it needn't be so grand.I never expected or had too much, but if you don't, I'll understand
An Open Letter From A Witch.
An Open Letter from a Witch:I am a witch. I do not worship Satan; I am not interested in Satan. Satan was invented by the Christians. Satanism is a form of Christianity. I am not a Christian. I don't go to church on Sunday. Jesus is NOT my savior. He was simply a holy man who lived 2,000 years ago. I am not afraid of going to Hell because I don't believe in Hell any more than I believe in Satan. I believe in reincarnation; that I will come back to this world or another and live out another life. I am not evil. Telling people I am a "good witch" or asking me if I am a good witch implies that there are evil witches. There are evil people in the world and there are people who chose to work with the forces of nature in a way that harms others; those people are NOT witches.The central law of being a witch is: "if it harms none, do as you will." Please don't ask me about sacrificing cats or desecrating churches. I love my cats! And I don't go into churches or synagogues unless a friend from
Plzzz Rate Me
Reasons Far
well... ive got to write about it. like i always do about things that mean something to me. good or bad. just so happens this is a very good thing im writing about. my reasons far. i know theres a shitload of people that go off and on and in and out with other people they are attracted to or have things in common with online. especially on fubar. seems like its a meat market with disclaimer pictures and profiles. and i know most people get a chubby because someone rates them or says some great thing about them. then...they never continue...they leave at hope or just acting like theyre the king or queen of pick up lines via the internet. no need to worry about rejection when you can say whatever you want and then the only thing you have to do is be deleted or ignored. i treat it all as reality. excluding the bombs,the blings,the fake drinks and fake comments. anyway. im on here so i must like it a little bit. haha but...and this is where most stop. stopping at
Torn Part 5
“Lisa? Lisa, wake up,” a low voice whispered in her ear.  Lisa's eyes fluttered open. The light hurt her eyes, so she closed them again. She didn’t want to be here, wherever here was. She wanted to go back.  “I saw that Pippy, come on! Wake up!”  She was confused; who was whispering, why was someone whispering, and why did she have to wake up? She was in a safe place. Brian and her were laughing and talking like they used to. It had been so long since things felt real between the two. Struggling to sit up, she looked around the room. It wasn't her room. “Where...? Where the hell am I?” “The hospital,” Josh said matter-of-factly.  “Why? What happened?”  “You don't remember?”  “I remember I'm supposed to be going to a dinner party for my friend Wendy tonight, but other than that... no it's all a blank. Where are my parents? My brother?” Panic was beginning to creep into her voice.  “Ma
Mr. T Facts!
23; That's the number of people Mr. T has pitied in the time it has taken you to read this sentence.   Mr. T's edition of the VH1 show 'Where Are They Now' was the shortest in the show's history. It was 10 seconds long, and consisted of a black screen with the words "Right Behind You" written on it.   Mr. T is allergic to doorknobs. That's why he can only kick through doors.   The last time Mr. T went to McDonald's, Ronald McDonald greeted him. What occurred next proved to be the most violent beating of a clown ever recorded in human history.   Despite popular belief, if there is a fool in the woods, and nobody is around to hear his jibba jabba, Mr. T is still able to pity him.   Originally the A-Team was named T-Team and consisted of Mr. T and six of his genetically engineered clones driving around in a van made of pure gold. Producers changed the format after every criminal known to man was killed in the pilot episode.   Mr. T's hair style is actually a comple
a smile is everyting. its what pelope notice first and it can hepl make a random strangers day better if you smile more. smiles aqre what make people happy but not really but people maght be happier only if you smile more. i domt know but smiles are important to me i dont mean to sound wierd... actually i do. im a strange person and proud of it so be yourself and be strange who cares if people stare and gape its what makes you feel good that matters oh and sory people im dislexic i dont even think i spelled that right but again i dont give a flying fuck yeah 4 me
Mj Haters
As a life-long fan of MJ, I have taken it upon myself to hate on his haters. This usually involves a simple curse-out. There are two types of MJ haters: 1) those who always hated MJ 2) those who were fans at some point and became traitors for one reason or another (most likely peer pressure or that hating MJ was a trend at the time like in the mid to late 90s) Why they hate MJ is really not important. All MJ haters can go fuck themselves. MJ haters are my enemies in the realm of Michael Jackson related topics. I don't give a shit if you're my real-life friend, relative, or whatever. Hating Michael Jackson makes you now and forever a 500 pound pile of hot, sick, steaming shit in a 200 pound bag. I'm not saying they shouldn't be able to hate who they want to hate. I want everyone to express their opinions, just as this blog expresses mine.
A New Life
The moment your lips touched mine i knew what love meant Like shifting time a light has lit our path Between the hurt and the lies, stronger we have grown To never have known you is like being empty inside As we travel the long road i hope your hand is in mine Love is what you make of it Love me or not My feelings will remain the same Trusting me to bring you a new life  
-p • I • S • C • E • S: The Piece Of Good Ass
Once you have opened this bulletin, there's no turning back! Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictions;Read your sign, then repost this in a newbulletin with your zodiac sign and label;If u don't repost this, u will have bad luck for as long as it says in your description :)-S • C • O • R • P • I • O: The badassCan be mean sometimes, and will Probably knock your ass out, if crossed the wrong way!! EXTREMELY Sexy,passionate, Intelligent,knows how to have a great time, Energetic,one of a kind, Predict future, Most erotic, the BEST and BIGGEST Freak in bed, GREAT kisser, knows how get what they want, Creative, Very Down to Earth, Sexy, Attractive, Easy going,knows how to have fun,knows how to make people laugh,FEISTY, Loves being in long relationships,frisky, unique,complicated,simple,not very hard to please,appreciates the little things in life, The sexiest ever; Romantic, Caring &
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Broken Halo
The wind roars in her ears, as it flows past her, her hair billowing behind her at war with the wind itself, the strands lashing back and forth.  her arms stretched to either side, her delicate fingers playing an imagined tune into the wind.  An uncomprehending smile plays across her lips.  The Wind stings her face, drawing tears from her dep blue eyes.  Her expression serious as it almost always is, her foot tapping along to the beat into the open air, still unsure of what is happening.  Her eyes go blurry as she tries to make it all make sense.  Her mind mulling over the decisions she has made, her past present and future coming together to make her the person she is today.  her eyes catch hold of the ground coming up at her quickly.  It all snaps back in her mind, she stretches her wings out, knowing all to quickly that they are no longer their.  The despair in her eyes evident as the last few feet of air dissapears, she hits the ground, and bounces back into the air, the tinkle of
Was having a good day at went by pretty fast until I get a text my husband...ex...roomate..whatever the hell ya call him now. He's all like, "thanks for freeing up my Wednesday". I'm like...what the hell are you bitching about? Aparently Emory found out that him and some of the other nerds been doing D&D night on Tuesdays because they didn't want to game with Emory, Fesha and JP. So they decided to have a private game...a hush hush game on Tuesday nights. Well, Emory found out and I guess he been talking to Rich. So Rich was going on accusing me for saying something to them. Why the hell would I even mention anything about their nerd night? I don't give a shit...I don't care what the hell he does with his life. Why would I want to mess up his cool nerd nights when stuff are already messed up? Then he's like...well I was just guessing, assuming it was you because you are still upset with me and been giving me the silent treatment the last few days. he said I gave him a smirk
Fidelity is the sister of justice.  -  Horace
Top 10 Rules To Being A Plus Size Woman
My girl, Thick & Curvy wrote this. I thought it was funny and wanted to share it with you: My Top 10 Rules to being a plus size woman!1. No Moomoos--- tarp like dresses they are called that for a reason.2. Absolutely No t-shirts with Looney Toons, cats or others animal/cartoon characters--- It will look like Bugs Bunny has a weight issue too.3. No hip huggers--- no one wants to see your fat hanging over the top it looks like a cellulite muffin.4. No bikinis. (You should know why)--- If the belly hangs past the breasts we're all set with seeing that.5. No Slippers in public--- Skinny girls do this to but why do you big girls have to make it worse wearing a Taz shirt too...come on now!6. No Juicy or other words across the butt--- If it really is Juicy I think everyone can tell. And by the end of the day they have rode up so far no one will understand what JY stands for. 7. No tube tops--- it looks like someone is trying to squeeze play dough through an inner tube.8. Please make sure yo
The Opportunity Is Endless
Dui At Its Best!!!
Now here's a hard core drinker and  one tough Dodge truck. The driver hit and sheared off the light post, and then kept driving about 2 miles to a bar, where he stopped for more beer! How impaired do you have to be to NOT notice that you are carrying a stop light? (I wonder if the light was green?) The truck was towed about 2.5 miles to the towing yard, with the light still pinched between the two tow hooks and the bumper bent around it It took several good hard pulls with a backhoe to get the pole free. Now that's what you call drunk driving!
Thinking Out Loud
holy shit what the hell happened??  friday things were great... i come back and shit's everywhere!!! i think i know why i'm so damn reclusive... cause i'm sick of putting myself out there for ppl and getting nothing in return... maybe i have a bad picker or i did pick a good friend just too scared to have a backbone.. but for once it would be nice if someone proved me wrong... for once i would like to have ppl in my life that i can truly care about and not have the fear of attachment only for them to leave... then again like i said maybe it's me.... eh well... hopefully when i wake up later it will be a better day... i know it won't be better but i can hope that something goes right... good bye to my friend i hope he stops beating the shit out of you, goodbye to my baby sitters 1) i hope that you don't do what you told me you would on friday and i have the same hopes for your brother 2) i will pray that your mother finally listens to you all before something terrible happens 3) in my d
"how I Spent My Weekend", Or "i Can't Decide If God Loves Me Or Hates Me".
Some of you are already aware that I was in a major car accident on Saturday. If you aren't, then sorry for the abrupt news. If you are, then here are more details.No other vehicle was involved. Both hands were on the wheel. Both eyes were on the road. The weather was fine, the traffic was light, and I was going the speed limit. I turned on my blinker to switch from the fast lane to the center lane, and the car must have hit some oil on the road or something, because the back end fishtailed and I couldn't get the car back under control. I went head-on into the wall. Thank God I didn't go over it. This was on a monstrous overpass, and if I'd gone over the's about 500 feet straight down into a Marathon refinery.The lap belt, shoulder harness and airbag saved my life. I got out of the car on my own because I thought it was going to explode. I only lost consciousness for a moment. There were three guys from the Border Patrol behind me that saw it happen, called 911, put their own
Two Questions
Life really boils down to 2 questions...1. Should I get a dog....?       OR...   2. Should I have children?         No  matter what situations life throws at  you.... No  matter how long and treacherous your journey may seem...Remember  ~~ there is a light at the end of the tunnel.           You're  laughing aren't you? That's good ~~ my job here is  done! Have a great  day
Why I Will Be Mia
There are a few reasons why I will be missing pretty soon here. (and yes I am waiting until I gift that HH, as I always keep my word) First of all the crazy bitch that is my sister has gone COMPLETELY off her rocker. To the point she spit on me and broke my necklace (that I can not replace because it was sent from Bahrain). Now yes, after she spit on me, I wiped her spit up and I slapped her with it. I also came about 3 inches from putting her head into my knee. Later, she decided to slam my laptop on the floor, breaking it. Oh then she hit me with a broom. After that, I picked her up, put her in her room, and told her she pulled this shit again and I would beat her like a man. I know I am a LOT stronger than she is, both physically and mentally, and I know where to stop. But I will not live in an environment that is violent, and I will send her ass to jail, and make calls to CPS to keep her son away from this shit. I trained horses for 10 years, and I kick boxed. She knows full
The Morning After Reality
Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know in there heart and in there mind that it will never happen. Can two souls be so alike.. being in total sincronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant. What is truly love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is. When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks ..
I Need Your Help! Please!
Hey I'm in this contest called Naughty Nightie contest. And I really need your help! Go to my #2 friend called the Candy Shop & send them a friend request & go and vote on my photo in the contest! Please help a sweet girl out. If I win One album that has been only open to family on here will be opened. BUT I need your help!!!! Please just vote on my picture in the contest! If u need any help finding your way there shout box me! plz! If I win I win a happy hour and please I want to win something for once! Thanks all I love u!
Well Said Grandma!!!....
Lulu was a prostitute. One day there was a raid. All the prostituteswere lined up outside the police station as they took them in one byone.As Lulu stood in line, she saw her Grandma coming down the street andwas so ashamed. Grandma didn't know her occupation.Grandma stopped to say hi, and asked what the line was for.Lulu, saving face, said that the police were giving away fresh Orangesto those waiting..Grandma said wonderful, she loved oranges and got at the end of theline.When the policeman got to the end and saw her, he was amazed.He said "How the heck do you do this at your age?"She said "I just take out my teeth, rip the skin back and suck' em dry!"The policeman fainted.  
The Black Bra
I had lunch with 2 of my unmarried friends.One is engaged, one is a mistress, and I have beenmarried for 20+ years.We were chatting about our relationships and decided toamaze our men by greeting them at the doorwearing a black bra, stiletto heels and amask over our eyes.We agreed to meet in a few days to exchange notes.Here's how it all went.My engaged friend:The other night when my boyfriend came over hefound me with a black leather bodice, tall stilettos and a maskHe saw me and said, 'You are the woman of my dreams.I love you.' Then we made passionate love all night long.The mistress:Me too! The other night I met my lover at his office and I waswearing a raincoat, under it only the black bra, heels and mask overmy eyes.When I opened the raincoat he didn't say a word,but he started to tremble and had his way with me.Then I had to share my story:When my husband came home I was wearing the black bra,black stockings, stilettos and a mask over my eyes.When he came in the door and saw me,
Grandpa's Drink
 Grandpa's Drink There was a family gathering, with all generations around the table. Mischievous teenagers put a Viagra tablet into Grandpa's drink, and after a while, Grandpa excused himself because he had to go to the bathroom. When he returned, however, his trousers are wet all over.'What happened, Grandpa?' he is asked by his concerned children. 'Well,' he answered, 'I don't really know.  I had to go to the bathroom. So I took it out and started to pee, but then I saw that it wasn't mine, so I put it back!'
when first the mist of color and light and then the dark of new moons night has came and went all that's sot will hence be sent  
Dish Network
U.s.s. Abraham Lincoln And The Lighthouse
This is based on an actual radio conversation between a U.S. Navyaircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authoritiesoff the coast of Newfoundland in October, 1995. (The radioconversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on10/10/95 authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.) Canadians:  Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South toavoid collision. Americans:  Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to theNorth to avoid a collision. Canadians:  Negative.  You will have to divert your course 15degrees to the South to avoid a collision. Americans:  This is the Captain of a US Navy ship.  I say again,divert YOUR course. Canadians:  No, I say again, you divert YOUR course. Americans:  THIS IS THE AIRCRAFT CARRIER USS LINCOLN, THE SECONDLARGEST SHIP IN THE UNITED STATES' ATLANTIC FLEET.  WE AREACCOMPANIED BY THREE  DESTROYERS, THREE CRUISERS AND NUMEROUSSUPPORT  VESSELS.  I DEMAND THAT YOU CHANGE YOUR COURSE 15  DEGREESNORTH--I SAY AGAIN, THAT'S
Connie Darko
I Hate Losing People You Absolutely Love....Today Is A Day That Kills Me!!! Today Is One Of My Best Friends Bday....But I Cant Celebrate It...I Cant Walk Up To Him Or Go Out With Him To His Fav Hang outs...I Cant Do Anything Ever With Him....June 28, 2008 Is The Day That Forever Changed My Life...I Got A Text Saying "I Cant Take This Anymore And Just Wanted To Say Goodbye" Getting This I From Him Wasnt Shocking At First....Cause Ive Gottin Text Like This Ever Since We've Met......But Seeing That He Did answer his phone or text from me was what made it shocking and worse....Hours Later I Got Calls From Alll Of Our Friends Saying Conrad Passed Away................. I know Some People Dont Condon The Idea Of Suicide...I Was One But I Get Why He Did It, And Understand His Deep Loneliness That His Family and some friends Put Him Through.....This Was A Caring Guy That No One Really Respected And Took Serious....And For Those Who Say He Was Weak "FUCK YOU"..... He WAs The Most Strong Will
Husband 1.o
Dear Tech Support,  Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in overall system performance, particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.  In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5,  and then installed undesirable programs such as NBA 5.0, NFL 3.0 and Golf Clubs 4.1.  Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.  Please note that I have tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.   What can I do?     Signed, Desperate   ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- DEAR DESPERATE ,   First, keep in mind that Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.   Please enter command: ithoughtyoulovedme.html and try to download Tears 6.2 and do not forget to install theGuilt 3.
All Around Me
My hands are searching for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place The music makes me sway The angels singing say we are alone with you I am alone and they are too with you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing And so I cry The light is white And I see you I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing Take my hand I give it to you Now you own me All I am You said you would neve
Fight In The Desert
From the underside of this warhe couldn’t see what it was forthe mud, the filth, and the killing,the fear that his blood was chillingand his soul was headed for hellhad distracted his thoughts as wellHistory books had always said,there is fame and fortune insteadbut, like the sergeant said last night,“We’re in for a hell of a fight”This damned hole in a foreign landis full of bugs and gritty sandStories of knights on sturdy steedscarrying out their honored deedswere probably fabricatedor at least exaggeratedSome of those battles were fought hereand their reasons were never clearSome knights died in this very holethey’re not the ones who we extolor whose histories will endurebeyond a truer literatureBut, he expected, just like thema final night both scared and grimVery much like those first crusadesthe reason for this battle fadesBeyond the politician’s liesthere is the fact that someone diesand in the midnight of his soulplays out his harsh and final
Alex Friend Request
[11:29:45] AphroditeIsis:  AlexOnline23 mins agoblock memberhi... is your submissive behaviour as good as your outer appearance? i message you, because i have seen you while i was roaming arround the profiles... i am looking for an online-sub. when you are interested in bdsm related chats, cam-to-cam chats, tasks, exercises and when you would like to know more, just send me a message. it would be really nice to talk with you about this...have you ever thought about serving someone? to serve someone mentally or sexually... to take care about somebodys needs to talk with me about mental or sexual desires... to act as submissive for me. a dominant who tells you what to do, how to react and that takes care of your submissive needs if you have some? to please me mentally or sexually... to act as submissive on command... to know how it is to serve as submissive take a look at my profile and blog. i am sure you will like what you see there. exspecially my bdsm related pictures. feel free to c
What To Wear, What To Wear
“And take thou unto thee Aaron thy brother, and his sons with him, from among the children of Israel, that he may minister unto me in the priest’s office, even Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, Eleazar and Ithamar, Aaron’s sons.”  One imagines how Aaron, one of the co-leaders Moses appointed while he’s up on the mount with God, will take this news from the beginning of the twenty-eighth chapter of Exodus. In the fourth chapter of Exodus that deals with the various physical aspects of the tabernacle that the children of Israel are intended to worship God in, we now read about those will actually work in the tabernacle and how they will appear.  It’s important to note in all this description if your eyes aren’t glazing over that this is all (making the tabernacle items, the mobile building itself, and others) voluntary; the people are going to do and make and serve all this because they are commanded by God and because they WANT, and have to want, to do it
Vets Rock!
  Viet Nam  1966  Richard, (my husband), never really talked a lot  about his time in Viet Nam other than he had been shot by a sniper. However, he  had a rather grainy, 8 x 10 black and white photo he had taken at a USO show of  Ann Margret with Bob Hope in the background that was one of his treasures.  A few years ago, Ann Margret was  doing a book signing at a local bookstore.  Richard wanted to see if he could get her to  sign the treasured photo so he  arrived at the bookstore at 12 o'clock for the 7:30 signing.  When I got there after work, the  line went all the way a round the  bookstore, circled the parking lot and disappeared behind a  parking garage. Before her appearance,  bookstore employees announced that she would sign only her book and no memorabilia  would be permitted.  
Poems About My Baby Sean, I Adore Him
Love of my Life - 3rd August 2009 Pushed aside for so longLeft aloneTreated like a jokeKilling me slowly on the inside Now, overjoyed I embrace these momentsMouth dryTears in eyesI'm finally happy in my skin Gentle smile melts my heartI relish this momentThe sound of that voice makes me trembleAnd I go dizzy with the words spoken Anticipation when he isn't aroundI wait and hope he will come todayHeart in throatHands nervous and excited I didn't know such love existedLight of day welcome nowBefore it seemed so dullNever wanted to awaken Confused as to what I did to deserve himQuestions pointlessLove is here to stayI sleep with him in my dreams He is my everythingA new light is shiningLove, Lust, AdorationMy counterpart, My love, My Sean Ode to Sean - 23rd July 2009 Besotted with your smile I lose another dayI want to touch you wish there was some wayMy life is so different now you are aroundI feel like I'm floating, feet dont touch the ground. For years I have longed
Neddly Mandingo Iii
Life On Mars?
I dont normally do blogs, but im changing my page and ive recieved so many comments on my very real drunken posting im going to save it in a blog.       Im an asshole, don't think otherwise. Why am I an asshole, because I joined the United States Army. And that apparently gave girls the universal right to treat guys like shit and consider them just another booty call regardless of whether or not they actually have feelings. Which we must not because we are fucking soldiers right?! Just mindless fucking drones put on this planet to appease the fucking man. I was born with an IQ of 80 and with the tenacity of a dung beetle. So here I am, hot off the press. My only request is to give me an incurable disease or hit me with a really big car, so I can die as soon as possible. Because apparently certain people in America think it's better for soldiers to die rather than live, or at least they say so when they picket soldier's funerals. Or so they say so when they sue soldier's families be
Sometimes...(this Is My Last Lash Out At Jenna)
I just want to fucking rip everything up I just want to find you, hunt you down and kill you You left a stain on my heart, you fucking cunt, that just wont wash away and now I'm left with your face in my mind everyday you annoy the hell out of what sensibilities I have I like to think I'm everything you lack I never turn around when youre near me, because I know you'ld fucking stab me in the back
Truly Beyond Insane!
A skeleton wearing a suit and tie sitting in an empty burial vault. Two bodies buried where there should have been one. And a married couple buried together -- only now the wife is missing. These were the latest gruesome details to emerge from the ongoing horror story at Burr Oak Cemetery, as investigators exhumed three graves Friday under court orders. The unidentified skeleton was found in an unmarked vault that was only partially buried, Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart said. A photograph taken before the exhumation "shows us remains of an individual sitting in a vault with no casket," Dart said. "We have indication to believe that there was a casket at one point." Another site confirmed for the first time the practice of "double stacking," which investigators had suspected was a frequent practice at the cemetery. Dart said cemetery workers dug up a woman who had been buried last fall, dropped another vault in, then placed the original occupant back on top. "The family, as you wo
A Little Pissed
I absolutely hate being ignored! I've really felt as if people are ignoreing me as of lately. I feel as if in the lounge I'm  a staff member to ignores everything I say, and I in fact am only talking to myself.  I'm me.... THis is who I am,  i'm not gonna pretend to be someone i'm not to get some people on a website to like me.   I'm all so pissed because people don't understand what married/commited relationship means,  i will not, i don't want to, and I'm not interested in cybering with ANYONE, stop asking, stop trying to... AND NO I WILL NOT SEND BOOB PICTURES! i just don't know what to do,  I don't know what I'm going to do.  I just feel like maybe this isn't the place for me,  or maybe I need to shop around and see where is for me on this site....   I just don't want to always feels like im talking to myself... It sucks.  and 90% of the time thats how i feel.
All My Vip Friends Read Please can  you go there and rate/comment all 3 pics plz? if you have a VIP and hv already rated me 11 then rate 10's plz or vice versa tysvm     VIP PEOPLE can vote twice once a 10 and once an 11 plz do this for me i have come really far even though the haters keep coming at me to make me lose!! ONLY CAN VOTE UNTIL 8PM PST WED NIGHT!! TY ALL
Its All About The Pix.......
Part 5
After the steamy sauna we decided that we could use a cool off. I was so weak in the knees this was the most sex I have ever had in my whole life, I turned to look at my dark stranger. He laid his hand upon my back and it sent shivers up my back and I could feel the heat start burning again. I could not believe that after all we have done tonight I still craved this man inside me. We slid our bodies into the water of the hot tub that was in the room. I laid my head back and was starting to relax when I felt my lovers foot caress my leg. I opened my eyes and looked into his grey smoldering eyes, then he looked down and so did I and I seen that my breasts were sitting above the water and the nipples were so hard from the chill of the room, or it was from the way that he was staring at them hungrily.He moved in front of me and took his tounge and flicked my nipple ring and captured it in his teeth, he pulled on it and I moaned in pleasure. He tugged and then released it and moved to my ot
New Things
wow its been forever since ive been there life is a changing. Lots of things happening new chapters opening and others closing. I started a website business which is scary in its self but something i did. if you get bored you should check it out. there are some crazy custom pool cues for those who play or those who just want a cue. bedroom linens and kitchen gadgets with more to come its catchy isn't love ya'll vix
Watch And Laugh
Stop The Madness
  Good Morning all,   Had a terrible time getting into mail this morning. Yahoo messinger---not at all. Have no idea if it is because Yahoo is makeing a change, or what. This morning, happen to hear a commerical from my noise maker (T.V) concerning the new health insurance plan Obama is planning. The commerical said that our taxes would raise considerbly. Getting in to see a Doctor, might take months, and so on. ( bet this all sounds familar to my friends from Canada) It gave a site for us to go to, to protest what is about to take place. I am so sorry, I missed it. But will continue to listen, hopeing the commerical has not been stopped. Have talked to Panda, and Jane about the health plan there in Canada, and know they pay 15 per cent on everything purchased.  We all know how long Panda had to wait to get into the hospital, to have kidney stones removed. Thank God, she had very little disconfort--or non at all from the stones. Those things are worst then haveing a baby.
Leaving Fubar
In one week I plan on deleting my account. I need to get some pictures off of here and save them set. But the reason I'm leaving is I have alot of medical problems.... and I have lost touch with everyone on here.  If anyone wants a way to keep in touch after i delete my fubar then leave me a private message. I've had fun with ya'll and will miss some of you alot. Mischief
What You Want
What is a girl suppose to do when the world comes crashing down what is a girl suppose to do when her childhood is standing her right in the face again When all of the forces ban against her at once trying to drag her down into the hole that she took so long to crawl out of People dont seem to give a shit about their actions or the consiquences trying to undo 15 years overnight not very possible standing strong against one obsticle after another smashing them out of her way like glass made out of sugar I can remember all of the memories inside my head I can remember every stabbing pain that went through my every being will it last for eternity? Nobody was ever there for me It is because of my own will that I am where I am today Everybody said that I would amount to no better then what I came from Isn't that what the books say?.....that the way you are raised is the way you will always be..... But if you look deeper the book also says that those who can withstand anythin
I Wanna Tear You Apart
Ripping and tearing feeling the skin rip open as the blood rushes out The feeling of a hand around your neck squeezing just tight enough the pain goes through your very soul and it feels so good clawing the flesh off biting  a chunk of skin letting the sweet taste pour into your mouth one taste and your addicted Hold me close and take me completly As i whisper in your ear I wanna fucking tear you apart
Careful If You Cheat!
This is a freakin' riot! Serves the guy right! A sticky case of revenge unfolded last week in a Wisconsin motel after a woman discovered her husband was cheating and invited three other scorned lovers to settle the score -- with Krazy Glue. The 36-year-old Lothario was carrying on with all of them before his wife figured it out and notified the others, according to a criminal complaint filed in Calumet County, Wis., in a town about 90 miles north of Milwaukee. "We had a plan," one of the women, Therese Ziemann, 48, told an investigator, according to court records. Ziemann lured the man to a Stockbridge hotel Thursday, promising a "rub down," the complaint says. He was blindfolded and tied to a bed. Then Ziemann text-messaged the other three women, including the man's wife, who joined her in the room. One of them, Wendy Sewell, 44, reportedly asked, "Which one do you love more?" After the victim was threatened with mace, punched in the face and taunted, the mischief moved south.
Better As A Memory
I move on like a sinners prayer I let go like a levee breaks Walk away as if I don't care Learn to shoulder my mistakes I'm built to fade like your favorite song Gettin' reckless when there's no need Laugh as your stories ramble on Break my heart, but it won't bleed My only friends are pirates That's just who I am But I'm better as a memory than as your man Never sure when the truth won't do I'm pretty good on a lonely night I move on the way a storm blows through And never stay, but then again, I might. I struggle sometimes to find the words Always sure until I doubt Walk a line until it blurs Buildin' walls too high to climb out But I'm honest to a fault That's just who I am I'm better as a memory than as your man I see you leaning, you're bound to fall I don't want to be that mistake I'm just a dreamer and nothing more You should know it before it gets too late Cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel You never know where they're gonna land First you're spinning, then you're standin
In Neglect
They leave us so to the way we took, As two in whom them were proved mistaken, That we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, With michievous, vagrant, seraphic look, And try if we cannot feel forsaken.
My Butterfly
Thine emulous fond flowers are dead, too, And the daft sun-assaulter, he That frightened thee so oft, is fled or dead: Saave only me (Nor is it sad to thee!) Save only me There is none left to mourn thee in the fields. The gray grass is scarce dappled with the snow; Its two banks have not shut upon the river; But it is long ago-- It seems forever-- Since first I saw thee glance, WIth all thy dazzling other ones, In airy dalliance, Precipitate in love, Tossed, tangled, whirled and whirled above, Like a linp rose-wreath in a fairy dance. When that was, the soft mist Of my regret hung not on all the land, And I was glad for thee, And glad for me, I wist. Thou didst not know, who tottered, wandering on high, That fate had made thee for the pleasure of the wind, With those great careless wings, Nor yet did I. And there were other things:
Words   Though words Like the wind are not Realized solely by creation But through experience   Expressions of love Void the embrace Can be as meaningless As a kite on a windless day  
Weeds You Can Eat.
I can remember as a kid blowing the fuzz off of a dandelion weed and making a wish. Little did I know that dandelions were nutritious. Dandelion greens are considered a leafy vegetable that contain more nutrition than broccoli. Having a higher content of vitamins A, and C, and iron. Dandelions also contain lots of magnesium and potassium. The best time to eat dandelion greens is in the spring and early summer when the leaves are still young. Dandelion greens should be harvested in early spring, before the flowers appear.  They’re a bit bitter but taste fantastic in a salad. You can also saute the flowers, roots and leaves with onion and garlic, serve them on a sandwich or salad, boil the leaves and serve like spinach or add them to your green smoothies like I do!
Penis Facts
Penis Facts Average length of penis when not erect: 3.5 inches  Average length when erect: 5.2 - 6.4 inches  The Longest: 13 inches  The Smallest:  5/8 of an inch  Largest penis in the animal kingdom: 11 feet (blue whale)  Actual amount of semen per ejaculation: 1-2 teaspoons  Average number of times a man will ejaculate in his lifetime: 7,200  Average # of times he will ejaculate from masturbation: 2,000  Average total amount of lifetime ejaculate: 14 gallons  Av Sperm li
Little Kenny
LITTLE KENNY ON MATH  (Part 1)   A teacher asks her class, 'If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence, and you shoot one of them, how many will be left?' She calls on little Kenny.He replies, 'None, they will all fly away with the first gunshot.'The teacher replies
The Shadows Of War
remembrance of rage,bloody brutal battle,and forever silence...of25,000 buried within.Their bronzed vacant eyes mirror hills splashedwith ripped, twisted steel and mounds of bodies.Their nostrils burnfrom smoldered rubber and festered remains.They hear the echo of wailing comrades,and enemies alike.Black, polished granite beneath their bootsbears no name.The epitaph resounds: © LT.David Martin
Life In The Fast Lane
yes it is true, life is a highway. to be more specific its a one way highway with two lanes a fast lane and a slow lane. which is better the fast lane or the slow lane? up until this past year ive been living my life in the fast lane. let me tell you when your in the fast lane theres so many things you dont see. i didnt realize how much stuff i passed up. so many chances to be happy but now its to late, because its a one way highway there is no turning back. living life in the fast lane may be fun but your passing up all the good things in life.if you slow down and take your time you will notice all the things youve been mmissing. word of advice slow down while your still young. i wish i would have. so you ask me which is better the fast lane or the slow lane? i would have to say the slow lane from experiance cause you never know what you have untill you pass it upif your in the fast lane its going to take longer for it to catch up to you. while if your in the slow lane you can deal w
My Submmissive Side
first off to Aany reading this.......... if Yyou do not know what submissive means i can assure NO it doesn't mean doormat nor does it mean kinky for Aany and Eeveryone............ so here goes i kneel quietly waiting for Him i am His gift and His alone my heart, body, and soul shall one day belong to Him i thought Wwe had found Eeach Oother but alas no Wwe remain friends Wwe are close, if that poses a problem, so be Wwe are Ffamily and Yyou dont walk away from Ffamily i kneel, head lowered, my eyes waiting to shine for Him when He finds me i will know my body will tighten, my hearrt will beat to His, and my flame will finally catch my gift to Him is not one given lightly my gift to Him will also be one of true deep love,trust, respect and submission for Him alone can understand this precious gift of His He will be the One to handle my mind and tongue that doesn't shutup i will be His partner and He will respect my opinions and give guidance as needed if Yyou dont
Just humming along…   I was in the pub yesterday when I suddenly realized I desperately needed to fart.  The music was really, really loud, so I timed my farts with the beat.After a couple of songs, I started to feel better.   I finished my pint and noticed that everybody was staring at me.Then I suddenly remembered that I was listening to my iPod.
Vanilla Or Dom/sub
You Scored as Submissive You are a natural submissive, and live to please your partner. While you have a will of your own, you enjoy challenging yourself if it gives someone you care about pleasure. While you are smart and decisive, you enjoy "letting someone else drive" at times. You are a rare and beautiful creature, and will be *extremely* cherished when under the care of the right Dominant. [ Submissive 70% (Wow...neck & neck with being a Dom almost) Dominant 65% Vanilla 38% Sycophant / Doormat 25% Abuser / Jackass 15% Vanilla or Dom/Sub
My Private Pics
If u wanna see my private pics let me know I will tell u how 2 be cum family to view them!
Wanna Own Ur Own Naughty Girl?!?!?!
        Please read the rules before placing any bids (a rate & comment will let me know you read and understand them) Ur Obsession
Happy Birthday Mom!
I did get to go to the movies last night after all!  After I’d taken Sarah to bed and she told me “don’t let the bedbugs bite” and made me pinky swear they wouldn’t, Martha and Mary were downstairs watching “America’s Got Talent” on tape and told me about “Transformer: Revenge of the Fallen” playing at ten fifteen.  It was about nine thirty when they told me this, so I got the money for an evening ticket as well as a small popcorn and drink from them.  (You have to have popcorn or it’s just NOT a movie-going experience, as I learned when I took my nephew Patrick and his friend Peter with me to see “Revenge of the Sith” four years ago!)  At Carmike Cinemas that owns the mall’s theatre (when Sarah found out yesterday the women were taking her to see “Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs” she replied elegantly, “We’re going to the theatre!”) on “Stimulus Tuesdays” you c
Just Say Yes
The Invitation ♫ ♫ It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon… I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you
You're An Angel
You're an Angel that nobody can see,Still an Angel is what you are to meAn angel from heaven is what you areIn my sky you're definably a heavenly starYou're an angel with beauty & graceYou're kind & sweet, you have an angel faceYou have very graceful angel wingsHappiness and joy are just some things that an angel can giveIn my heart & mind is where you're livingYou have hair as soft as the white cloudsA guardian angel is what Ive gotten. Your eyes are like sapphires that shine bright.When everything is dark, you give me light.You're an angel that gives me a reason to live, You're an angel that teaches me to give. You're an angel that teaches me the right things to say. You're my angel & Ill always care.You're my angel & you know Ill always be there.
The Sacred Chao
THE SACRED CHAO is the key to illumination. Devised by the Apostle Hung Mung in ancient China, it was modified and popularized by the Taoists and is sometimes called the YIN-YANG. The Sacred Chao is not the Yin-Yang of the Taoists.It is the HODGE-PODGE of the Erisians. And, instead of a Podge spot on the Hodge side, it has a PENTAGON which symbolizes the ANERISTIC PRINCIPLE, and instead of a Hodge spot on the Podge side, it depicts the GOLDEN APPLE OF DISCORDIA to symbolize the ERISTIC PRINCIPLE. The Sacred Chao symbolizes absolutely everything anyone need ever know about absolutely anything, and more! It even symbolizes everything not worth knowing, depicted by the empty space surrounding the Hodge-Podge.     HERE FOLLOWS SOME PSYCHO-METAPHYSICS. If you are not hot for philosophy, best just to skip it. The Aneristic Principle is that of APPARENT ORDER; the Eristic Principle is that of APPARENT DISORDER. Both
leaving tommorrow for base in schinnen..should be back sunday night///offline till then...take care...and stay safe
All My Best
   All My Best A little something from me to you. So that you know I am with you. I will do what I can for you. I could never give enough to you You've touched me in a special way. I have never know lovelier days. There has always been something special with you. A caring, a sharing, a want to do. You've taken the time to know me. You gave me love and honesty. You my friend will get nothing less, I will always give my very best
What My Heart Feels
“I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare I hate your big dumb combat boots. And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick - it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh - even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around. And the fact that you didnt call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you - not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.”
Do As I Say...not As I Do
Whoever came up with that saying knew what the hell they were talking about...I'm sitting here with those words pounding in my head tonite...As I think about my daughter looking at me today and reminding me "You didn't leave dad when you found out he cheated, remember?" Now I can be haunted by the decision as I watch my baby girl, 7 months pregnant, trying to do the right thing...Keeping her baby, planning to raise it, finish high school, and stay with the MFKN asshole that cheated on her while she's pregnant with his baby... How the hell do you tell her that it's over? Once they've cheated, your relationship is destroyed...It's never gonna be the same...And the baby isn't even here yet...The joy of this baby's birth is marred by the infidelity of a young punk who has no clue what love is...And most likely my daughter doesn't either at her age...But to think that he could do this to my baby girl makes me sick...And to think she is using me as an example of the right decision to make.
The Losers
Have you ever wantedTo be someone you're notBut you look into the worldAnd you see what you've gotThere's nothing thereBut brains and gutsFinally open the doorAnd then it shutsLook to the centerAnd I think you'll findThe people that are gettin'They are blindYou changed the channelAnd there's nothing thereYou weren't born prettyAnd it isn't fair...Here's to the losersThe substance abusersTo the rejectsAll the imperfects'Cause I think we're beautiful'Cause I think we're beautiful'Cause I think we're beautifulNo matter what anyone saysI think we're beautifulThem most beautifulIn the worldYou try for jobsBut they say you're strangeYou're sportin' a styleThat they call painSo you get in troubleAnd your brain is goneYou're cryin' out manBut the words are wrongHere's to the losersThe substance abusersTo the rejectsAll the imperfects'Cause I think we're beautiful'Cause I think we're beautiful'Cause I think we're beautifulNo matter what anyone saysI think we're beautifulThem most beautifulIn th

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