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I don’t believe this.  I never thought this could happen again, or at least till I was in my fifties.  Some of  you may be wondering why I am even bringing this up in the first place, I don’t know, bored, get it off my chest.  I don’t really expect sympathy or pity over this, so bear with me.  The reason I am talking is that in the next month or so, I will have completed my second time since becoming sexually active that I have went without sex for two years.  Now, I will have to say it was more by choice than of something that was forced upon.  For one, my situation for the past year or so was not very good and a relationship was the last thing on my mind to have, because I tend to want to have money first before having a relationship, mainly to me that is the whole idea.  Of course, I do know some of my friends that do tend to jump first into whatever they get their hands on and worry about money second, if they do worry about money.  Obviously, the relationship tends to not last very long and they just repeat the process over again.  I can never understand that with some of my friends, just not really care about their current situation but yet care about getting into some girl’s pants.  I don’t know, I guess I always try to be more responsible than that, but the sad thing is that these girls they do end up going out with do end letting them get into their pants.  Now, why could someone be such idiots about it, and then turn around and get dumped or break up with the guy because he’s a loser and complain why they did it in the first place?  I swear, some people can be just stupid when it comes to this subject.  At least, however, for my friends that do tend to have a lot, their quality is not as great as their quantity of sexual partners.  Which is something I do pride myself, a little bit at least, that with the exception of one girl, which I will not name names but it doesn’t matter because I don’t talk to her anymore, that every girl I have had sex a lot of guys thought or even said they were hot as hell.  As oppose to some of my friends that sleep around a lot, yes once in a while they do tend to get with a girl that’s very good looking, but most of time their choosing of women are very, I don’t know how to say it, lenient or if they’re breathing and walking on two feet sort of way.  I don’t know, I could never do that, I mean, if there isn’t any kind of attraction with me or the girl, nothing is going to happen.  Which is something I do have to say is another reason for my abstinence, I am very picky with who I sleep with.  Now, physical attraction for me is not very important, I usually like to be with someone that can actually think for themselves than anything else or have actual good taste in some categories, like music, books, art, culture, the important stuff.  For me, as far as physical attraction goes, there can be a girl that is super hot, I mean have a perfect curved body, beautiful brown hair, I mean literally perfect looking, but if they have a hard time counting to ten or don’t know who Lou Reed is, I’m going to just slowly walk away and not look back.  I’m serious, I would, if you don’t believe me, try me!  Now, being picky can have it’s good side, but then have it’s bad side towards things.  Another thing I am picky of is sexual past, which does tend to get me into trouble quite a bit from time to time.  Now, let me mind you, I’m not someone that expects to have a virgin when I am going out with someone.  To be honest, I feel I don’t deserve one, being that I didn’t wait to have sex till marriage.  That’s fine, but I don’t want to be with someone that has been around the block more times than my car has, if you want to know what my car is it’s a 1993 Mercury Cougar, but besides the point.  I would like to be with someone that believes the same how I feel about sexual relations: keep it towards long term relationships, no one night stands, and pretty much not whore yourself out.  I know that this may sound ignorant about how I feel about sex, but this is how I feel about it.  I mean, I know I am not perfect about it, because if I was I would still be a virgin waiting till I get married to have sex.  Of course, some of you may be thinking, well people can change their ways or typical guy thinking about that.  Well, I do believe that people can change, that’s all well and good, but let remind you, not just guys think about their partner’s sexual past.  Oh no, in fact I knew a couple that got married and after they tied the knot, they decided to admit to each other how people they had with before they got with each other.  The wife said she had sex with four other people before getting married, and the husband said fifteen people beforehand.  The wife got so furious towards the husband that she didn’t talk to him for almost two weeks.  So, just remember, it’s not just guys that think about that.  I mean, like I said nobody is perfect, in fact, I would give the woman I would marry a three person leeway, which she can have three more sexual partners than I have, and I will not care.  However, anymore than that, well, as I said before in a blog long long time ago, sometimes it’s just best to lie.  Of course, as you can see, this is why I tend to not have sex very often.  But, to me, it’s not being jealous of the person of having more sexual partners than I do, it’s just the thought of STD’s.  That’s my issue on that, I am literally a phobic to STD’s, and I believe and always will believe that the more people you have sex with, the greater chance you have to get an STD, point blank.  Now, some of you may think, well that’s why they have condoms.  Yes, but condoms are not one hundred percent effective, and even if you wear a condom while having sex, there is an exchange of fluids.  It may not be as much as without a condom, but there is a little bit.  And if you sleep around with enough people, as use a condom, that little bit starts building up and after about, say, thirty partners, it will be a lot.  In fact, once someone gets to only six sexual partners, their chance of getting an STD increases to eighty percent.  No joke.  However, some of you would say, well that’s why you get checked up every year.  True, it’s good to get checked up, but a lot of people don’t do that.  It’s either their irresponsible or just don’t have the money to do it.  Either way, I would just like to be with someone that has, and always has been responsible when it came to sex, and treat it more than just for pleasure.  Blah, much better, I guess.  I feel better getting it off my chest, and I hope I didn’t anger too many people doing so.  However, thinking about if this period will ever end.  I sort of don’t like going through one of these, because I remember the last time I went without sex for two years, I ended that period on a pretty bad note.   I don’t want that to happen again.  But this may even be longer than before, I’ll be going into the military in the next few months and I’ll be even more busier than before, so I may not have the time.