Fubar Blog Posts 4

This Is Disturbing
BRIDGEVILLE, Pa. – George Sodini seethed with anger and frustration toward women. He couldn't understand why they ignored him, despite his best efforts to look nice. He hadn't had a girlfriend since 1984, hadn't slept with a woman in 19 years. "Women just don't like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one. Not one of them finds me attractive," the 48-year-old computer programmer lamented in a chilling diary he posted on the Internet. For months, he also wrote vaguely about using guns to carry out his "exit plan" at his health club, where lots of young women worked out. On Tuesday, Sodini put his plan into action. He went to the sprawling L.A. Fitness Club in this Pittsburgh suburb, turned out the lights on a dance-aerobics class filled with women, and opened fire with three guns, letting loose with a fusillade of at least 36 bullets. He killed three women and wounded nine others before committing suicide. "He just had a lot of

Dark Corners
IN THE DARK CORNERS OF HER WORLD SHE SITS AND STARES AT THE WALLS. WONDERING WHY THIS TIME. WHY NOW. WHAT COULD HAVE SPARKED YET ANOTHER FIGHT. SHES LOST SHES CONFUSED. SHE HAS PENT UP ANGER PENT UP PAIN. SHE NEEDS TO RELEASE. EVERYONE AROUND LISTENS YET NO ONE UNDERSTANDS. THE PAIN ONE HOLDS DEEP INSIDE. SHES IN A DAZE LOST AND SCARED. SHE WALKS TO THE KITCHEN AND GRABS A KNIFE. SHE SLOWLY CUTS HERSELF TO WATCH IT BLEED. THE RELEASE THE PAIN BRINGS ON THE TEARS SHES HOLDING DEEP INSIDE. THE PAIN IS FREE. WHEN IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE HER MIND IS CLEAR. SHE CAN THINK YET AGAIN. AND PREPARE FOR ANOTHER DAY. ANOTHER DAY OF COLD LONELYNESS MISERY AND PAIN. SHE WONDERS WILL IT HAPPEN AGAIN. WILL SHE PICK UP THE KNIFE YET AGAIN AND DO IT ALL OVER ANOTHER DAY? NO ONE WIL KNOW ONLY HER MIND HOLDS THE SECRETS TO THIS. AND NOONE WILL UNDERSTAND WHY. FOR ONLY SHE DOES. THE SECRETS SHE HOLDS DEEP INSIDE. THE PAIN SHE HOLDS NEEDED TO BE RELEASED OR SHE WOULD HAVE LOST HERSELF YET AGAIN. IN THIS CO

Please Say A Prayer For My Brother
my mother and I found out this evening that my brother has to have a pacemaker put in first thing in the morning (8-6-09). the stress of battling his mental illness has ruined my brother's heart. over the past months my brother had been complaining of extreme fatigue. we assumed it was a side effect of his depression. not so. my brother's heart has been failing him for at least a year now.this is excruciating news for our family. yes, the process of getting a pacemaker is done frequently...its a very routing procedure. but just because something is routine doesn't make it any less dangerous. my brother is only 35...younger than i am by a year and a half.the doctors told my brother that he WILL die if he doesn't have the pacemaker put in.my brother doesn't want the pacemaker. he understands fully what that means. he told me he's tired of this world. i didn't know what to say to him other than i love him and that i will be there in the morning for his surgery.

Bleh
I slept in today, felt nice but wasn't planning sleeping in that long. Didn't get the chance to do some cleaning, laundry and test bake a cake. I want to try to bake a Mango flavored cake for my mom's birthday on monday. Went out to eat at Buffalo Wild wings with Rich's mom, her truck boyfriend...if that's what he still is, and even Rich..wow..actually got him to come out and off playing WoW. He said he was sorry for acussing me about the whole arguement a few days ago. Something he thought I did to ruien his nerd night or whatever...Like I want him home when I'm home. I'm working a extra day tomorrow....bleh.....but it's money...money in my bank and money to move out....yup yup

The Look In Her Eyes
the look in her eyes is full of pain full of wonder seeing her breaks my heart makes me want to hold her close let her know it will all be ok the pain is fron past hurts hearaches, and disapointments can she love dose she know how to she feels nothing but pain only knows hurt before you get hurt but as i look in her eyes i see the color change from a dark hateful color to a light help me please gray i see the ice around her heart break and melt away the hard gaze turning lighter as my eyes penitrate her soul shes knows by my stair that this is real it from my heart that love is alway there never failing never falling the look in her eyes is full of love full of hope full of joy now and a smile appears on her sweet face how long will this last who knows and who cares it mine for now ill hold her close and not let go till it is time to let us move on never give up on the look in her eyes it will change and she will be happy as i look into her eye

Green
I am in a state where they actually have stuff that falls from the sky. It is called rain. What a concept. Somehow, this "rain" stuff gets into the soil and inturn is absored into the trees and grass making them a beautiful green color. At my hometown we have water, but it is sitting near the beaches and we can't seem to use it for anything, except raising property values to those who live by it.

Military Initials
When I was a newly commissioned Lieutenant in the Army, I was assigned as a temporary assistant in an administrative office in a Military Intelligence unit. One day a long came around with a cover sheet instructing all assigned officers to read it and initial it as indication of their compliance. I figured it meant me too, so I read and initialed it. However, a few days later, it came back addressed specifically to me. An attached note read:"You are not permanently assigned to this unit and are thus not an authorized signee. Please erase your initials and initial your erasure." So I did.

Ponder-1
What is the speed of dark? - When you're sending someone Styrofoam, what do you pack it in? - Why are there Braille signs on drive-up ATM's? - If women wear a pair of pants, a pair of glasses, and a pair of earrings, why don't they wear a pair of bras? - How come you never hear about gruntled employees? - What is a "free" gift? Aren't all gifts free? - After eating, do amphibians have to wait one hour before getting out of the water? - If white wine goes with fish, do white grapes go with sushi? - What's another word for synonym? - If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation? - When sign makers go on strike, what is written on their picket signs? - Where do forest rangers go to "get away from it all"? - Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food? - Why are builders afraid to have a 13th floor and planes don't have a row 13, but book publishers aren't afraid to have a Chapter 11? - How can there be self-help groups?

Ponder-2
Are there seeing eye humans for blind dogs? - If knees were backwards, what would chairs look like? - When you open a new bag of cotton balls, are you supposed to throw the top one away? - When your pet bird sees you reading the newspaper, does he wonder why you're just sitting there, staring at carpeting? - What happened to the first 6 "ups"? - If an orange is orange, why isn't a lime called a green or a lemon called a yellow? - Why does your nose run, and your feet smell? - If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from? - Hermits have no peer pressure. - Whenever I think of the past, it brings back so many memories... - There's a fine line between fishing and just standing on the shore like an idiot.. - How much deeper would the ocean be if sponges didn't live there? - What a nice night for an evening. - When I was in high school, I got in trouble with my girlfriend's Dad. He said, "I want my daughter back by 8:15." I said, "The middle of August? Cool!"

Ponder-3
Why are they called buildings, when they're already finished? Shouldn't they be called builts? Why are they called apartments, when they're all stuck together? Why do people without out a watch look at their wrist when you ask them what time it is? Why do you ask someone without a watch what time it is? Why does sour cream have an expiration date? The light went out, but where to? Why do banks charge you a "in-sufficient funds fee" on money they already know you don't have? Why is it you have a "pair" of pants and only one bra? Does the reverse side also have a reverse side? Why is the alphabet in that order? If the universe is everything, and scientists say that the universe is expanding, what is it expanding into? If you got into a taxi and he started driving backwards, would the taxi driver end up owing you money? Why is a carrot more orange than an orange? When two airplanes almost collide why do they call it a near miss?? It sounds like a near hit to me!! Do fish get

Ponder-2
I went to a bookstore and asked the saleswoman, "Where's the self-help section?" She said if she told me, it would defeat the purpose. 2. Why do they call it the Department of Interior when they are in charge of everything outdoors? 3. Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle? 4. Do Roman paramedics refer to IV's as "4's"? 5. Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? 6. If man evolved from monkeys and apes, why do we still have monkeys and apes? 7. Should you trust a stockbroker who's married to a travel agent? 8. Is boneless chicken considered to be an invertebrate? 9. Do married people live longer than single people or does it just SEEM longer? 10. If all those psychics know the winning lottery numbers, why are they all still working? 11. Tell a man that there are 400 billion stars and he'll believe you. Tell him a bench has wet paint and he has to touch it. 12. How come Superman could stop bullets with his chest, but always ducked when someone threw a gun at h

Waking Into A Bad Dream
I wake up, my memories are fadedLike the pictures on the walls and my body feels sedatedHow long have I been asleep my bones won't moveLike rigor mortis where they haven't been usedBreak myself from the mood, then this bedThings don't seem right like it's all in my headLayers of dust cover everything in sightWindows boarded up leaking rays of moonlightI must have been out for quite some timeThere's blood on my clothes but I don't think it's mineBut whose is it? So many pieces are missin'There's broken shards of reality scattered where I'm sittin'I can't pick it up, it's out of my reachI fight the stiffness of myself and make it to my feetStumble to the dresser and I grab a book of matchesLight a candle, goto the bedroom door, undo the latchesMy reality is so silent, everything is surrealI would have to be a corpse if this is really how I feelI must be dreaming but I'm fully awareI'm waking up, waking into a nightmareMy reality is so silent, everything is surrealI would have to be a cor

Dear Diary
Dear Diary, I'm sorry I haven't been around much, but I wasn't feeling well. I am doing much better but I have a long way to go to be back to my normal crazy self. I will try to send you some new pictures as soon as I can, I see that I am still full so I will have to delete some old ones to post some new ones. I'm sorry they won't be new new as I am not going to take any pictures for a while, I don't want anyone to see me like this. But I have a folder of pics that I can upload. I've been told to make an eazy rate folder too. I just can't load that many pictures yet. I hope all my friends are doing great. If I'm not on, I'm doing schoolwork (home schooled and tutored right now) or resting, which I will be doing a lot. I'll try to send out all the love I get, at least a little to everyone I get from. Much Love, Cait.

San Francisco Busts On Marijuana
http://www.kron.com/News/ArticleView/tabid... "SAN FRANCISCO (BCN) – On Wednesday, San Francisco police continued a series of busts targeting large marijuana-growing operations in the Sunset District, raiding two homes, arresting three people and seizing 1,000 plants, handguns and an assault rifle. At about 3:30 p.m., officers from the Taraval station raided a home in the 100 block of St. Charles Avenue, located in the Merced Extension Triangle neighborhood, police Capt. Paul Chignell said. Police had obtained a search warrant based on complaints from neighbors and other evidence of a marijuana-growing operation. Chignell said about 1,000 plants were confiscated along with other items inside the home, as well as evidence electricity had been stolen to power the operation. The find then led officers to another home in the 2400 block of 17th Avenue, where a fully automatic assault rifle, three handguns, ammunition and ammunition clips were discovered, Chignell said.

The Republicans Now Make The Toriesat Their Worse Seemachingly Inclusive..
Thursday, 30 July 2009 As we gloomily maintain the deathbed vigil for a Government whose end cannot come soon enough, it is the opposite end of the life-cycle that fixates US politics. Fittingly enough, on the eve of the nine-month anniversary of Barack Obama's election, America obsesses about the President's birth, and specifically his birthplace. The gestation period for any conspiracy theory is far longer than that for human infants, of course, or even elephants. It tends, in fact, to be endless. It is 45 years since JFK was murdered, 40 since the first moon walk, and almost eight since the Twin Towers fell, and while the various notions (second gunman, studio mock-up, Mossad plot) were conceived almost immediately after those events, they have yet to deliver anything more substantial than lovingly nurtured insanity. That rag-tag coalition of shock jocks, publicity hungry attorneys, the credulous and simple-minded, plain nutters and above all frustrated racists collect

My Dog (chopper)
my sweet chopper got loos and got hit last night some time? well got him taken to the vet this morning, they took x-rays (2) his right leg is broken and the left hip is dislocated! its going to take a lot ofcare and love to get him back to health!! but i know i can do i he is like one of my kids, i couldnt let them put him to sleep!! so far there putting his hip back in place wraped up for 2 weeks, ( there is a 50% ) chance that it will stay, he's about 85 lbs, then bring him back in 2 weeks .. and hope that it stays and that he wont need surgery, on that hip... also the right leg there going to splint it up, and that could take up to about 3 mos to heal? its broken in a way that there is a big chip taken out thats y it take so long to heal.. but even when i get him home theres lots of work id have to keep him from moving, and move him from side to side every 2 hrs! and have to carry him out to potty 3 to 4 times a day... also hes going to be on pain meds, and some atibiotic, to help

Solar Power
Here comes the Sun - with all the energy for free. You can take care of all your energy needs simply by tapping into 'solar power'. All day, and if you can store it, all night. All you need is a device that saves and converts solar energy. There are different ways of going about it, depending on your particular needs. Solar Power for Home

Let's Write Together And See What Comes Out!
Okay, object is a joint story. LOL.. Just for shits and giggles.. add a line to the last one.. muah! This morning, when I awoke, I wanted to look at the lovely sunrise, but when I opened my window, much to my surprise..... (Begin here)

Well Crap!!!!
My girl and I were out running around doing errands, and I heard that noise we "men" are familiar with ... That annoying noise called the "Power Steering whinning"... Well I always carry extra fluids with me in the trunk such as oil, power sterring fluid, and of course cant be with out trans fluis, and brake fluid.. So I reached under the dash and "popped" the hood latch and walked around and opened the hood to check out the power steering reservior.. And it was fine but I noticed everywhere a slight film of oil, I looked at the oil dipstick still was about half a quart low well within the the safe level... I looked closer and I said to Joy, " WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!" wheres the oil cap!? I looked around the engine comparment didnt see it anywhere, I looked at Joy and said What did you do with the oil cap, I further commented and said "I know I put it back, I'm to anal to forget it"... Joy said " I dont touch the oil cap, Master...laughing, then she added, infact I dont go anywhere

All Alone
I float in a pool of darknessCold presses in on meI am aloneFloating aimlesslyI reach for sparks of hopeBut rather than warmThey only burnI ache with sorrowI hunger to leaveTo escapeTo leave this prisonI crave to be freeTo be heard To be loved

A Heart Warming Story
Here's a truly heartwarming story about the bond formed between a little 5-year-old girl and some construction workers that will make you believe that we all can make a difference when we give a child the gift of our time. A young family moved into a house, next to a vacant lot. One day, a construction crew turned up to start building a house on the empty lot.The young family's 5-year-old daughter naturally took an interest in all the activity going on next door and spent much of each day observing the workers. Eventually the construction crew, all of them 'gems-in-the-rough,’ more or less, adopted her as a kind of project mascot. They chatted with her, let her sit with them while they had coffee andlunch breaks, and gave her little jobs to do here and there to make her feel important.. At the end of the first week, they even presented her with a pay envelope containing ten dollars. The little girl took this home to her mother who suggested that she take her ten dollars 'pay' she

"my Real Long Hair" - - Down With The Jealous Bitches!
New Vlog: "My Real Long Hair" - - down with the jealous bitches! Sort of self explanatory HERE. (Direct link.) Why are some people so negative and miserable? Why do they have to pick others apart? Or spread poison? (In real life, and a thousandfold on the internet.) Being miserable is so BORING and DULL and UNIMAGINATIVE. Anyone can slip into misery. It's easy. It's a crazy world, I know that. We have wars, a recession, and some very unsure times. Yes. So it takes some creativity and imagination to see things in a positive light. To spin situations and circumstances, so you can learn something and benefit in that way at least. And being happy feels SO MUCH BETTER, right? So why not? SHUT UP AND BE HAPPY!!! Who's with me? Down with the bitches!!!!!!!x Fluffy.P.S. This post is directed to those who are habitually poisonous for little or no reason. Not to people who are really going through some heavy stuff.

Oregon Leads The Way!
Oregon: Legislation To Regulate Commercial Hemp Production Becomes Law Salem, OR: Democrat Gov. Ted Kulongoski signed legislation into law this week that seeks to license farmers to cultivate hemp as an agricultural commodity. Hemp is a distinct variety of the plant species cannabis sativa that contains only trace (less than one percent) amounts of tetrahydrocannabinol (THC), the primary psychoactive compound in marijuana. As approved by the legislature, Senate Bill 676 authorizes the state Department of Agriculture to regulate the commercial production of cannabis containing levels of THC under 0.3 percent THC. Similar legislation was also signed into law in June in Maine. A handful of states – including North Dakota, Montana, and Vermont – have enacted regulations to allow for the licensing of industrial hemp production under state law. However, such production remains criminally prohibited under federal law, which defines all varieties of cannabis as illegal under th

Personality By Blood Type
Blood type A: The Perfectionist Positive qualities: Reserved, Patient, Sensitive, Responsible and Punctual. Negative qualities: Obsessive, Stubborn, Conservative and Tense. Compatibility: A is most compatible with blood types A and AB. Famous people with the same blood type: George H. W. Bush, O.J. Simpson, Britney Spears, Alan Alda, Adolf Hitler, Lyndon B. Johnson, Richard Nixon. Blood type B: The Individualist Positive qualities: Creative, Passionate, Strong, Animal loving, Optimistic and Flexible. Negative qualities: Wild, Unsociable, Critical, Indecisive, Unpredictable and Unforgiving. Compatibility: B is most compatible with blood types B and A

Poll Shows Generational Divide Over Health Care
http://www.cnn.com/2009/POLITICS/08/05/hea... Americans appear split over President Barack Obama's health care proposals, according to a new national poll. Fifty percent of those questioned in a CNN/Opinion Research Corp. survey released Wednesday morning say they support the president's plans, with 45 percent opposed. "Obama's plan is most popular among younger Americans and least popular among senior citizens," CNN Polling Director Keating Holland said. "A majority of Americans over the age of 50 oppose Obama's plan; a majority of those under 50 support it." That's funny though, old people need it the most!

Aftermath
well life brings us through all kinds of trials,we all lived a past and some times we dont make good decisions,although some people come to a reality and change there old ways to rebuild themselves to a better person....... And others stay dorment..........Life!

Ap Propaganda - 3 Flu Shots Needed This Fall
Get ready to roll up your sleeve three times for flu shots this fall. That's right, three times. This year's flu season is shaping up to be a very different one. Most people will need one shot for the regular seasonal flu and probably two others to protect against the new swine flu.Experts suggest you get that first shot as early as this month — if you can find it."We'd like to get to Job 1 and get most of it done," said Dr. William Schaffner, a Vanderbilt University flu expert, referring to seasonal flu vaccinations."Get it done before we start to tackle Job 2," the more complex task of swine flu vaccinations, he added.The five vaccine manufacturers that supply the United States are finishing up production of seasonal flu vaccine earlier than usual. Health officials say they expect about half of the more than 120 million doses of seasonal vaccine to be available by the end of this month. Most of the rest are due out by the end of September. Some manufacturers report that distrib

My Heart
How do you let go of a love you know is so right and say Ok? How do you say I will be ok? Sometimes when you both love each other it doesnt matter. There are so many obstacles they can not be overcome. My friends told me last night something that makes complete sense to me. From Budah. When you have one foot in the past you can not step into the future. This was the most true thing I have ever heard. I am willing to walk into my future. To let my past go and live. To be the best person I can be. To be kind, loving and true. I am ready for the future. Unless you are ready there is nothing another can do for you. You need to in your heart say OK. If that means losing a love? I do not have a choice but to walk into my future and pray that it will be OK.

"the Real Thing" Lyrics And Song Track
Right now....where I am on things this song exemplifies my feelings as of right now on things as I reflect back on the life I've come to know,a lot of the words in this song describes my outlook and how I feel about the journey I've had and just what it is I'm facing,ESPECIALLY the last 5 lines of the song,only a few of you may know what I'm talking about but thats where I'm at right now. The Real Thing I know the feelingIt is the real thingThe essence of the truthThe perfect momentThat golden momentI know you feel it tooI know the feelingIt is the real thingYou cant refuse the embrace...Its like the pattern below the skinYou gotta reach out and pull it all inAnd you feel like youre too closeSo you swallow another doseThe pinnacle of happinessFilling up your soulYou dont think you can take any moreYou never wanna let goTo touch the roots of experienceThe most basic ingredientsTo see the unseen glitter of lifeAnd feel the dirt, grief, anger and strifeChe

Change Your Thinking...
Change Your Thinking It will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking. Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

Fu Pastor
Need a Fu-Pastor? Look no further! I need a few things from you first! The names of who is getting fu married!(fubar or real names your choice) The date and time do you have a lounge to do it in?( if you cant find one no worries i'll hook you up!) Pick out a wedding cert. (its in my pics leave a comment) send me a message with all the info once you got it Many pastors have a set price on a fu marriage not me you pay me whatever you think is fair. Any more questions hit me up in a private message or a shoutbox and i'll answer all your questions to the best of my ablilty Mr. Sunshine

What I Feel Like
I don't feel like loving you today, So don't you even try to change my mind, The best thing you can do right now, Is just go away, Cause I don't feel like loving you today, I don't wanna talk about last night, I'm angry and I haven't had much sleep, And I'm so tired and bloodshot, they ain't no tellin' what I'd say, I don't feel like loving you today, But you know I will anyway, Even though we make it hard sometimes. I'll wind up forgiving you and probably loving you, For the rest of my life, But I don't feel like loving you today, And I've got 16 hours left to go. I might tell you that I'm leaving Even though you know I'll stay, Cause I don't feel like loving you today. But you know I will anyway, Even though we make it hard sometimes. I'll wind up forgiving you and probably loving you, For the rest of my life. But I don't feel like loving you today. I just don't feel like loving you today.

Bronco & Waybeyondhelp
Thank you to two amazing owners, bronco and waybeyondhelp. These two were the winners in the set of auctions I participated in last month. These were my first auctions, and I can only hope I was not a disappointment to them! Go show them lots of love, as they are sure to return it :)

Part Four...the End
He had prepared, planned, and prayed...now it was time to do the dance, to literally lay his life down and stare his own mortality in the eye. 16 lbs of polished aluminum street luge, 7 ft long, 16in. wide, and only 2 inches above the roadway...this is OUR MANS mode of transport, capable of speeds in excess of 85 miles an hour on this road. Not a one of "THEM" at the picnic ground could comprehend a ride like this...so blatantly dangerous. Ever done 'crunches' for your stomach? Now do one, and hold it as you rip down a mile and 3 tenths of glass smooth asphalt, hold it as gravity begins to pull 176 lbs of man and luge downward at ever increasing velocities. Hold it thru corners as your body is pinned against the steering grips at your hips, hold it while blasting past steel guardrails and rocks bigger than a semi truck. Hold it as you try to spot entry spots and braking points, all the while knowing one error could allow 'them'.. THE GAWKERS..to see your body flung across the roadway

The Garden
In the deep purple sky the moon shall glow. On all that is below - until the morn when the sun will make it's show. The garden is open where wildflowers grow - peacefull and safe from the trafic and madness where most people go - gentlly the wind's messages through the green will blow - for those who take the time to know. The earth soft and brown - waiting for seed's some planter might sow - for the purpose of life is to evolve and grow - at least until the winter's snow -

Thinking Of Leaving
Got to the point again for a second time , sick of the people on this dam site and how they act . If you are a friend of mine and want to stay in touch then stay in touch on my yahoo or like to stay in touch dont know how let me know , This is not for sure ill give it untill tonight and see what happens let me knwo if you like me to stay or you like to see more of my artwork , i get enough comments on this blog about staying then i will , if not the stuff above will apply. Rick

Homeless
Am going to be down a honest about whats going on with myself...... I am homeless and don't have family that I could run too, Like my profile says am the black sheep of the family.....I had a camping spot and I guess its agest the law here in Oregon to be homeless..... AM not a drugy, and I don't do anything wrong to anyone and it seems that the damn cops here like missing with a good girl that don't do anything wrong....... Almost everyone that has a place looks at all us homeless people and think we did and we decide to be homeless, and that we a buch of druges and everything in their books....... I could talk for a hand full of peps thats not true......I lost my place to keep myself out of jail because I had to pay a dibte that my ex missed up and I was told I don't pay $600.00 or I was going to jail for grandtheft auto....... AM a mother that was thinking about my kids and then someone had people come in and take my kids from me...... Am fighting to get them back and now am homeles

Job Well Done
They have given their timeThey have given their allFor a country that said we made them fall.Some say this is for power,Some same this is for the fame.We need to stop placing any and all the blames.We have a country that has needs to, look at our veterans that have no shoes.Many lost their lives, and many lost their limbs.Some lost their minds, and others lost their will.Some don't have homes, some don't have food.But this is our country who's out to do good.Give to your own, and then think of the world.Lets fix our backyards before we fix theirs.Our country is rich, with many things indeed.But lets give aid to our people in the time of their needs.So when you see a Veteran or someone in Uniform,Please salute or shake their hand, and say JOB WELL DONE.

Dedicated To Michael ...soldier Angel
As I lay in bed tonight;I grip two hands together tight.I pray for another tomorrow;That I hope will bring no sorrow.But yet again, I will see;Another Soldier missing on T.V.I pray for you. I pray for all.I will keep standing firm and tall.I have faith and hope in you;For what I believe is true.That you fight for our country every day;To keep the enemy far away.I thank you for what you’ve done for me;My family and friends, do you see?You are my “Soldier Angel”;And for other people as well.I have never met you. And I do know your name;But I still feel the same.I may only be a 29,But I know what I believe.If you ask; I will say,my “Soldier Angel” protects me every day.

The Truth About Me
well its like this I am not the kind of guy who ask wanna chat unless u wanna. or say hay can I see ur nsfw photos unless u ask me,or ask hay u wanna web cam...most of all I dont cybersex,so ladies if ur feelin alittle miss treated sometimes. u know were 2 come 4 some of that little respect we all need from time 2 time,thank u peace out

Heart Breaker
I have found that there are those that have been going around and telling women not to add me, because I will break their hearts. Is that true? Yes, it is. I do not do it intentionally. Hearts will be broken, not just by me, but by all of us. We fall in and out of love. We change our minds. We fight. We are all heartbreakers. We know what we want, or sometimes not. Don't sit there and tell others not to add whoever, because we are heartbreakers. How about telling them not to add you, as you will eventually break hearts as well. It is a chance we take, when we come to these sites. We know the risks. Let us make the choices as to who we add or don't add. We are masters of our hearts and we give them to who we want and take them back when we want. We break hearts on purpose to protect ourselves or them. Whatever the case may be, the bottom line is we are all heartbreakers.

Thingz That Make Heartz Break ..
Pretty Smiles Deceving LaughsAnd People who Dream with their eyes wide open Lonely ChildrenUnanwserd CriesAnd Souls who have givin up hopeing the outher thing that breaks heartzR fairy talez that never come true And Selfish people who lie 2 me Selfish people just like you

Apple (still In Works)
"This is the best apple I've ever had". He plunged his incisors into a thin red waxy skin, piercing it with a crisp popping sound and letting a stream of sweet juice run down his chin and drip onto his shirt. She looked up and smiled, revealing a perfect row of even ivory teeth. This sent shivers down his spine, and he felt hairs stand on the back of his neck. There was something about that smile that made him uneasy. With semi squinting icy grey eyes unchanged by the smile and transfixed on him in a way a predator might eye its prey, it was primal and cold, almost animalistic.

Banned
So IL made it illegal to text and drive. Whats next?? Are you gonna tell me I'm not gonna be able to steer with my knees while playing yahtzee with a midget in the back, and reading Cosmo through binoculars?? Its racism, at its best!

Climb Inside My Dreams
If you lie down and close your eyes Inside my dreams are lullabies No pain, no fear, no need to run Inside my dreams a warm bright sun Inside my dreams we are pure with youth Love and honour beauty and truth Inside my dreams there is no remorse No death no anguish no divorce Inside my dreams inside this door Are hugs and kisses love and more? Inside my dreams a place for you These dreams are mine I share with you

My Special Someone
I bet you didn't know That you just passed my mind. You do this so many times each day Since a guy like you is so hard to find.I saw a falling star Just the other day For I sat there and thought But only had one thing to say.The wish I just got I really do not need. Because the only wish I want Is a wish I have already received?Some might even say That I'm in another place Every time I think of how you look And that smile on your face.To conclude the way I feel About all the things you do You are that special someone. You're like a dream come true.

Death's Promise
Death's Promise By: Ember Copyright 2006 I hate this depression that seeks my embrace Overwhelming me, tearing away my happy face I scream inside, unable to open up my soul, To the feelings inside, the forgotten goal I feel such pain, intense and insane Question everything in my life, again and again I try to love, but I don't know why Am I even capable of living a lie? I put on a happy face, I pretend it's all good Nobody can see inside to my dark mood Love and care for one, give up another The confusion I feel is enough to smother Rip out my soul, shreds of agony Heart bleeding out, black passion of ecstasy Seeking pain I can feel on my flesh Releasing it all with the touch of dead breath Fate beats me and takes me no choice of my own Makes me forget I want love alone I can't do this, I can't, I can't, go on I don't deserve their love, I'm a worthless one So I curl up alone as I've always been Accepting myself and my list of sins

Do You Want A Bomb Or An Auto 11 Bling?
ITS A RAFFLE...TICKETS SALES STOP TONIGHT AT 6PM EST...best chances to win......HIT THE LINK IN MY BLOG LIST TO THE LEFT for the info....sorry this is kind of a pain.....BUT!!!! ..IT SAYS... "DO YOU WANT A BOMB OR AN AUTO 11 BLING?"

To Die
To Die By: Lady Ember Fifteen years of seeking death Wanting to take my last breath I'm tired of having this painful heart My soul is dark and I'm falling apart. I take the razor so shiny and Thin Light pressure against my skin I slide it up from wrist to elbow Precious pain the blood starts to flow. Drip drip drip blood on the floor Did I remember to lock the door? I start to feel my life slip away The colors fade and change to grey. My soul released from a body prison Could joy so complete really be a sin? Light and beauty surround me now But I have broken a forgotten vow.

As She Awakens
As She AwakensBy Ember ©2008 It is a night of dark desire, a song of hateful pain,wolves voice their loneliness. As the thirsting one awakens an empty unfulfilled soul.Wisps of darkened emotion shroud her pale form,an unidentified lustful agony.Her midnight hair cascades overnaked alabaster shoulders. Her full red lips part slightly, fangs glisteningto taste the blood flowing from the pale flesh beneath herhe writhes in pleasure. Now unto a night of ecstasy,I have awakened, aching.

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List For The Confused People...
In case you didn’t know it, here are a bunch of ways to tell if you’re gay. Maybe you are, maybe you’re not – we don’t really care (freedom of expression right?). This is more of a guide. If at least 5 of these things describe you, you just be a homosexual. Congrats. 1. You could care less who Brittany Spears is sleeping with. 2. You understand the differences between 27 brands of imported chardonnay. 3. You can call anyone “honey” including pets. 4. You know someone who was in the emergency room with Richard Gere the gerbil. 5. You understand the immense importance of quality lighting. 6. You can be at a crowded disco the size of a baseball field and still spot a toupee. 7. You can tell a woman you love her bathing suit, and truly mean her bathing suit. 8. You can explain the nuances between steady date, boyfriend and lover. 9. You really have “Been there, Done that.” 10. Your women friends will tell you everything you want to know about their boyfriends. 11.

Poem
A friend is like a flower,a rose to be exact,Or maybe like a brand new gatethat never comes unlatched.A friend is like an owl,both beautiful and wise.Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,whose spirit never dies.A friend is like a heart that goesstrong until the end.Where would we be in this worldif we didn't have a friend.

True Meaning Of Life
Money is not the truer measure of a successful life and it does not buy happiness. Don't equate material success with achieving dreams. They are not one an the same. Some people have everything they ever wanted and they are still not happy . If you sacraficed your dreams for money, or pushing your dreams aside for lack of funds, you will miss out on a meaningful life. Ponder ways you can have a good life, have a good home life, an help make the world a better place...

Usama..may Hide But Not Escape.....
Imagine if we had assassinated Usama bin Laden in 1995. No September 11. No Afghanistan War. No Iraq War. Without Usama bin Laden, the world be an infinitely better and safer place today. That's the equivalent of what happened in Pakistan this week. An American drone aircraft wasted Pakistan's Usama-in-Waiting, Baitullah Mehsud in South Waziristan. Mehsud was one of the nastiest characters on the planet. He is thought to be behind Benazir Bhutto's assassination in 2007. He was the mastermind of the wave of suicide bombings in Pakistani cities. He was the godfather of a new type of suicide bomber -- young children under the age of ten who he had strapped with explosives and sent out on suicide missions. He was the leader of the Pakistani Taliban, and closely associated with Al Qaeda and their host and collaborator. He was bent on bringing down the Islamabad government. To give you some idea of what Mr. Mehsud's fondest thoughts were, how's this sound: "We want to era

I Wish
i feel the darkness consume methere is a tear in my soulit hangs on after waves of desperation i feel nothinglacking courage destiny is a lie nothing remains of this weakened soul left with out a lightnothing remainsbut the cries

Toxic,where Are You?
Roxie,my sweet,where are you?Why are you avoiding me like the plague?What did I do to make you leave me so?Even if I was acting moody,or upset,is that any reason to just dump me like that?I thought real friends stick by eachother no matter what...especially if their friend is upset or something.They don't just leave 'em alone.And to be honest,I don't even care about that.What bothers me is that you think I've left statuses about you,insulting you.I would NEVER treat you that poorly....ever.Why aren't we talking to eachother anymore?Is this really how you want things to be between us?Why?What were all the things we talked about?Did they mean nothing to you?You know I treated you like a princess,and you know you were my kitten.Doesn't that matter to you.Don't I matter to you?

Whats With Always Rating A 10?
Now here's something I can't fuckin' understand.Aren't we ALL entitled to our opinion?Even if it's not what people would like to hear most times?We're still entitled to OUR OWN OPINION!SO...what's with always rating everyone a 10?And when you come across someone who's NOT worth a 10 and you rate them anything lower,why do they get mad??You're obviously not worth a 10.They shouldn't get mad,and they shouldn't call us downraters,we're just being honest.Plus,I never knew this site had rules that it's mandatory that you rate everyone a 10.So if you've been rated anything less than a 10,take a minute to stop and think about WHY you were rated a 10,ok?Don't immediately get all pissed the fuck off and wanna start shit with whoever it was who rated you less than 10.The way I see it,10 means perfect,and sadly,the truth of the matter is this...if you weren't rated a 10,it probably means you're NOT a 10.Also,there's NO rules saying you have to rate anyone a 10 all the time.We ALL are entitled to

No Closure
A day after the four former employees were indicted on new charges, Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart announced that authorities were concluding their investigation at Alsip's historic Burr Oak Cemetery and were turning the property over to the court-appointed receiver. In doing so, investigators conceded that they still don't know for certain the name of a single person whose remains were disinterred, meaning identifying the bones will almost certainly never happen. "Unfortunately, the closure that a lot of people expect and have grown to expect from television shows quite frankly, you're not going to get here," Dart said. There will be no DNA testing on the remains, according to Thomas Trautmann with the FBI. "Even if we could have obtained the DNA profile from a bone or bones or fragments thereof, then we would have the problem of, who do we compare them with?," he said. Officials have been on the property for nearly a month, after word broke that as many as 300 graves were dug up s

So Unfair
This is very disheartening. I knew they would eventually set up a memorial of some kind, but who's names do you list since no one knows for sure, who is buried where? Cook County Sheriff Tom Dart on Friday said investigators are done collecting evidence of an alleged grave-re-selling scheme at Burr Oak Cemetery in Alsip. But it's unlikely that most of the 1,200 human bones recovered from the cemetery will ever be identified, he said. It's also unknown when the cemetery will reopen to the public. It was declared a crime scene last month. Dart said his investigators and special FBI forensics experts have gathered enough evidence to back up the criminal cases against four Burr Oak employees accused of digging up graves, dumping remains in piles or in shallow graves and then re-selling the plots. Three graves were exhumed last week, indicating evidence of illegal grave stacking. One man's body was found buried in a concrete vault without a coffin. Tom Trautmann, the FBI's assistant spe

Are You Happy To See Me Or...
HOUSTON (AP) -- An obese inmate in Texas has been charged after officials learned he had a gun hidden under flabs of his own flesh. Twenty-five-year-old George Vera was charged with possession of a firearm in a correctional facility after he told a guard at the Harris County Jail about the unloaded 9mm pistol. The Houston Chronicle reported Thursday that Vera was originally arrested on charges of selling illegal copies of compact discs. The 500-pound man was searched during his arrest and again at a city jail and the county jail, but officers never found the weapon in his rolls of skin. Vera admitted having the gun during a shower break at the county jail.

Awake At Last-john Mcintosh
No hidden agenda masks my Love,fearsome, serious, rigid ...the disguises have fallen away.My skin is tender, new, receptive,smiling at the unknownin child-like wonder.So many gifts left unopenedlay at my feet ...waiting for my acceptance.And everywhere my new eyes look,laughter shimmers like leaves dancing,blown by happy breezesthrough forests of living green.John McIntoshOM-IAM.com

Six Pack
WHILE SHOPPING IN A FOOD STORE, TWO NUNS HAPPEN TO PASS BY THE BEER COOLER. ONE NUN SAID TO THE OTHER, " WOULDN'T A NICE COOL BEER OR TWO TASTE WONDERFUL ON A HOT SUMMER EVENING?" THE SECOND NUN ANSWERED,"INDEED IT WOULD SISTER, BUT I WOULD NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE BUYING BEER AS I AM CERTAIN IT WOULD CAUSE A SCENE AT THE CHECKOUT STAND." " I CAN HANDLE THAT WITHOUT A PROBLEM" SHE REPLIED AS SHE PICKED UP A SIX-PACK AND HEADED FOR THE CHECK-OUT. THE CASHIER HAD A SURPRISE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN THE TWO NUNS ARRIVED WITH A SIX-PACK OF BEER. "WE USE BEER FOR WASHING OUR HAIR" THE NUN SAID, "A SHAMPOO, OF SORT, IF YOU WILL." WITHOUT BLINKING AN EYE, THE CASHIER REACHED UNDER THE COUNTER. PULLED OUT A PACKAGE OF PRETZELS STICKS AND PLACED THEM IN THE BAG WITH THE BEER. HE THEN LOOKED THE NUN STRAIGHT IN THE EYE, SMILED AND SAID ," THE CURLERS ARE ON THE HOUSE."

What The Hell
I don't get people on here and their pics. Why in hell do you post pics where people can't even figure out what the hell it is because it is so blurry? I have enough eye fatigue I don't need you helping me with it. I can't believe how many people just keep posting the same damn picture over and over again - oh wait I am sorry you did change your shirt so that makes it oh so much different. Bull shit - do something completely different please!!! Ok lastly - for right now - I hate bombing folders. They are the stupidest thing on the planet. Filled with retarded pictures that people grab off the internet - many of them are just avatars and crap that have really no reason to be up in the first place. Those of you that do put some thought into those folders - bravo. Still think the whole idea of them is stupid. Well that is my rant for the moment - later.

My Poetry
Walk a mile in my path and smell the danger of my wrath , come upon me as i say forever gotten i shall stay/ Once she was young and had a weak heart but now all all grown up and ready to start. come upon me as the wavs clash breath behind me and my wrath... forever gotten i have gone down the path on nowhere beyond... sticks and stones under my feet but really boys you are in for a treat. my heart so cold my feel so warm but underneath i am torn.

Did Ya Know..?
You Can Only Type ONE Word.Not as easy as you might think.Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same.Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.It's really hard to only use one-word answers!1. Where is your cell phone? ----- desk2. Your significant other? ----- sick3. Your hair? ----- peppered4. Your mother?----- preachin5. Your father?----- sailing6. Your favorite thing?----- compy7. Your dream last night?----- oblivious8. Your favorite drink?----- coffee9. Your dream/goal?----- peace10. The room you're in?----- hotel11. Music?----- eclectic12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?-----Alive14. Where were you last night?----- work15. What you're not?-----dead16. Muffins?----- danish17. One of your wish list items?-----son18. Where you grew up?-----haven't19. The last thing you did?-----Fu20. What are you wearing?-----Glasses21. TV?-----Movies22. Your pets?-----missed23. Your computer?----- re-build

He Needs All The Help He Can Get!!!
Hello everyone, I know you all like to add nice people who appreciate love and return it to your friends listI just felt the need to introduce to you a really good friend of mine.He Is an awesome person and will always be there if you need any help. He needs to level, and to accomplish that he needs some people to gift him some abilities & add him to their family till he levels.He will return all the Fu~Luv, Even If you only have time to rate his profile that would be awesome..:) http://fubar.com/user.php?u=232801&friend=232801

Did Ya Know
You Can Only Type ONE Word.Not as easy as you might think.Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same.Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.It's really hard to only use one-word answers!1. Where is your cell phone? ----- desk2. Your significant other? ----- sick3. Your hair? ----- peppered4. Your mother?----- preachin5. Your father?----- sailing6. Your favorite thing?----- compy7. Your dream last night?----- oblivious8. Your favorite drink?----- coffee9. Your dream/goal?----- peace10. The room you're in?----- hotel11. Music?----- eclectic12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?-----Alive14. Where were you last night?----- work15. What you're not?-----dead16. Muffins?----- danish17. One of your wish list items?-----son18. Where you grew up?-----haven't19. The last thing you did?-----Fu20. What are you wearing?-----Glasses21. TV?-----Movies22. Your pets?-----missed23. Your computer?----- re-build

To All My Friends On The West Coast
yes, a dark storm is coming, BUT its gonna be a fun one-- that's right I'm planning on riding MY Happy Ass from WA along the west coast to see yall :) hit up this blog if you want me to cruise by your way :)

A Blind Eye (ch 1. Act 1)
Hatred. Violence. Anger. Wrath. Red. Red splattered the floor, sightless eyes staring up at the ceiling. The anger of a person's wrath clashing with the loss of life. The Jury stood up, twelve people from different walks of life. They sat through a six month trial period, listening to the horror unfold before them in graphic detail. It was the State VS. Robert Mathison, charged with Breaking and entering, Rape, Sodomy, and ultimately murder. A table rested on it's side, the phone cord having been cut. The butcher knife lay dead center in the middle of the female's chest, a phantom's mask covering her face. Her lips were parted in the form of horror, an expression that held no true emotion behind it any longer. Not a breath left her lips, not a word from her tongue. Ultimate silence. Only one spoke. "Governed by the state of Lousiana, charged with Breaking and entering, Rape, Sodomy, and Murder in the first degree, we find the defendant not guilty." A gasp r

A Blind Eye (act 3)
Everything seemed to be going in one big circle for Jeffery. From the time he had gotten into the Force, allegations against him haunted him. The death of one child lead to a year long hell in which he was under the heat for displacing evidence. He had a feeling that his own partner had something to do with that. "You need to take a break, Jeffery." Elizabeth seemed to have some kind of sympathy in her heart. Of course she had been the one to befriend him when he got on to the force. "This case has been rough on you..It's been rough on all of us. Maybe you need to take a few days off.." "- I can't. I won't.. I don't think i will be able to." He shook his head, "I'll be fine. Just keep Douglas off my ass and i'll be able to do what i have to do." His eyes met with her's for a moment. He was tired, but that had been from the drain of the day when everything just piled on top of one another. There was a time when he found himself in peace. Once. Now his own demons were chasing him every

A Blind Eye (act 6 )
Sleep didn't last too well for him. The vivid dreams and memories of what was passed through the subconscious process of his thinking, driving him into a dark hell where mercy no longer existed. There was no Auntie Cherrie, no way to get back to the radio to call for help. Just him and the reaper. For a while, he did sleep. It was something that had pulled him in with a twisting effect, spiraling into the confines of darkness where the dreamless venture unfolded to an unkind monstrosity. He could see his mother standing there, holding her arms out to him. She had a smile on her face- But that was the last thing he remembered before the phone began to ring somewhere. It was a battle of awareness and mechanical function as he was pulled from such a sweet slumber. His eyes snapped open and for a moment, the reaper was staring him in the face. He rolled over to his side and reached for the cell phone that lay resting on the stand. The number was blurry as he tried to focus but he still a

Are Those My Pants Or Are You Just Happy You Got In Them?!
Apparently I'm not in the best of moods today. This weekend had it's good points. Friday evening I'm sitting in the living room after getting home from Wal-mart with Cheryl and Shelby. Which by the way, had an awesome time. I'm sitting in the living room after doing homework and the kids are playing on the playstation. Travis had went to bed and then about 15 mins later or so he comes back down the stairs. As I look up he has this shit eating grin on his face and says something about thinking that they pants he has on are not his. I look at him and he has MY yoga pants on. OMG.. I swear this man needs to come out of MY closet already. Has he lost all shred of dignity that a man can have. I mean come on, you know damn good and well when you have womens clothes on.Then today I'm relaxing and he starts cleaning. Mind you in the almost 8 years we have been together he does not clean on his own freewill. So I go up stairs and I notice he is doing laundry. I'm like "what are you doing?" he s

Just Thoughts...
a smart man once said, as he was preaching to a group of people, aka believers with hope,aka lovers who've been hurt..... that life is like chapters in a book, some characters from a chapter disappear, and others last through out the whole book.......... some bridges were meant to be burned, nothing last forever, and by saying forever, its a promise, and you know you can't keep it. for you can't say never, because you never know what tomorrow will bring. the world is magical and it bound to create some crazy things. you can try to hold onto what’s broken for fear of losing something, or you can be brave and learn that it isn't everything. People aren't possessions or material things. They are born with a heart and feelings. And for you to treat a person worse than you would treat your sneakers is inhumane and how low will you stoop to have what you want? some people will do anything to have control.. and you have to look at people and the situations like you would gas in a car..

A Poem I Wrote
Darkness used to cloud my soul With a fever so dark and cold. Shadows were my friends Fear was too familiar, but then, Something came along Like a bittersweet song. The darkness began to fade And I began to see a way For my soul to be set free From my previous torn memories. Rescued my heart had been Love was flowing from within. And to you I give this thanks For freedom from these shanks. I'm now sheltered in your arms With an embrace so warm. For once I can feel safe And I have no reason for escape. Love is now my pleasant torment For, together, we are truly meant

For The Ladies.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.Slower is better.Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreata friend.Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate from his.Maintai

Just 1 Rate And Possible Bid Plz. Tyvm
Up For Auction It's time to... BID ~ BID ~ BID You know you want to... Ponyboy0827 is a wonderful man Just read his offers! Talk about awesome... and the best part, he stands by his offers and completes them all. RATE ~ RATE ~ RATE This is a contest auction The pic w/the most rates gets an Auto 11 or a Cherry Bomb PLEASE click the pic and rate it....

Left Standing
come stand by my side. allow me to see the world through your eyes. let me see what you see and let me know the world within. take these fears away. show me who you are. tell me i'm the one for you. speak your secrets into my ear and show me what i mean to you. i need to know that everything will be ok. i need to know that the world through your eyes is the same as my own. will you allow me to look through your eyes or will you leave me here standing?

On Line Lovers
OK,, first let me start out by saying for the last 16 month I have been under the weather.. I hurt my shoulder at work and eventually had to have surgery on it . That took from April 2008 to may 2009 I finally got released from the doctor on that.. just to go to work and get a severe sinus infection and had to go to doctor to get antibiotics for it.. and after that was over 2 wks later came down with inner ear infection,, and got antibiotics for that.. after that I was doing good for 3 wks and came down with a kidney infection in which I have had since June 28th.. lol after 5 rounds of diffferent antibiotics and no success I had to sleep on sofa so I could sleep sitting up because that is the most comfortable way for me to sleep so I had not slept with my husband for 3 wks on the 13th of July.. I have to go to a specialist and have a camera stuck up into my kidneys to find out why they are infected.. lol.. great life huh.. Well to top it off on July 13th almost a month ago.. my

Been Thinking
today i had a couple drinks with my buddies that are here with me. i started wondering about what is appealing and unappealing about me. i talked to a couple ex's and got some feed back. one said she couldnt find anything unappealing about me. the other said i was unappealing in the fact that i had a military dick attitude. she also said i was appealing in that i had great eyes and that i was charming. Feel free to let me know what you think.

Adhd
Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is a common neurobehavioural disorder that has been related to the brain's chemistry and anatomy. ADHD is a persistent pattern of inattention and/or hyperactivity/impulsivity that occurs more frequently and more severely than is typically seen in people at comparable levels of development. Symptoms must occur for at least six months and some symptoms have been present since before the age of 7 years. ADHD begins in childhood and symptoms can persist into adulthood as well. While some children outgrow ADHD, as many as 60% continue to have features of ADHD persisting into adulthood. According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) (a physicians manual for diagnosis), the symptoms of ADHD fall into the following categories: inattention, hyperactivity/impulsivity, and a combination of the two. Although the exact cause of Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) remains unknown it has become in

Another Day Another High..
Well it's 9:00 Am in morning and im ready for a beer.. Sounds crazy but hell i didnt get no reast last nite and i just wanna get drunka nd go swimming and wear my ass out and then. crash for 2 days if it will let me..

You Can,t Have Your Cake , And Eat It Too. It Just Don,t Work!
OK so I have to be honest I want to have my cake and eat it too don,t you? But I know I cannot. I struggle with being fleshly and human and being Godly and SAVED all the day long..... But I also know i have to eventually make a CHOICE and here,s why: The Bible clearly states in (! Corinthians chapeter 10:verse 21) and IQuote "You cannot drink the cup of the Lord AND the cup of demons; You cannot partake of the Lord,s table AND the table of demons. and there was a big period there at the end! so now I must choose...... how about you?

Popular Insect Repellant Deet Is Neurotoxic
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/... The active ingredient in many insect repellents, deet, has been found to be toxic to the central nervous system. Researchers say that more investigations are urgently needed to confirm or dismiss any potential neurotoxicity to humans, especially when deet-based repellents are used in combination with other neurotoxic insecticides. Vincent Corbel from the Institut de Recherche pour le Développement in Montpellier, and Bruno Lapied from the University of Angers, France, led a team of researchers who investigated the mode of action and toxicity of deet (N,N-Diethyl-3-methylbenzamide). Corbel said, "We've found that deet is not simply a behavior-modifying chemical but also inhibits the activity of a key central nervous system enzyme, acetycholinesterase, in both insects and mammals". snip These insecticides are often used in combination with deet, and the researchers also found that deet interacts with carbamate insecticides t

Who,s Table Are You Dining At?
At the Lord,s Table... The Lord,s table is a powerful occasion for the christian faith. In 1 Corinthians (chapter)11:23-26(verses) The Lord gave his disciples instructions that this supper was to be repeated over and over untill his return to the earth and what the acted out symbols were to represent. Just as the act of water baptism outwardly declares an inward experience of salvation through the blood of the Lord Jesus, so the observance of the Lord,s table is the repeated confession before all heaven and earth that the Christian has accepted the Lord,s broken body on the Cross and his death as payment for his sins for salvation, but also to proclaim to lay hold of all the benefits of Jesus Christs full redemption for your life. Forgiveness of sin, wholeness, strength, health, sufficiency. The Lord,s Supper is not just a ritual of rememberance but an ACTIVE confession of faith as the Lord has instructed us to do untill he comes.... 1Cor 11:24-25 "Take eat: this is My body whi

Got My Freedom
It's almost a year now since I've been dating anyone and during that time I've been very bitter and angry about how things turned out. Woke up yesterday very happy and finally free of the feelings that lingered for that person. I've realized one thing about myself that probably is the source of why so many men run from me, the thing i couldn't understand before until yesterday. I have a very high view of myself. If I talk to a guy then I see him as lucky for me to take the time out to do so. Guess it's kind of reverse sexism lol. I've been through so much bad that when I'm approached I assume the worse and for someone to hold my attention long enough to exchange names I assume they just only want one thing. I don't forsee me ever changing been that way a very long time. So I have come to accept it would take either a highly intelligent man to see me for me or someone with high confidence and wisdom to see that i'm not some evil greedy female but only very cautious and disbelieving o

About Me
WELL WHERE SHOULD I START LET BY SAYING IM REALLY SICK OF ALL THE DRAMA AND THE BULLSHIT THE PPL BEEN BRING IN TO MY LIFE WILL NO MORE I DON'T WANT IT IN MY LIFE ANY MORE SO IF YOU GOT IT STAY AWAY FROM ME I DON'T MIND BEING FRIENDS WITH ANY ONE I JUST DON'T WANT THE DRAMA IM GOING TO BE ME AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN GET TO STEPIN BECAUSE THERE ARE MORE IMPORTIN THINGS IN LIFE LIKE MY FAMILY THEY COME FIRST AND ALWAYS WILL I HAVE PUT TO MUCH TIME IN TO WORRING ABOUT WHAT PPL THINK OF ME AND LET THEM RUN OVER ME WELL NO MORE IF YOU ASK FOR MY APPION YOU ARE GOING TO GET THE TRUTH YOU MAY NOT LIKE MY ANSWER AND IT MY PISS YOU OFF WILL GET OVER IT YOU CAN TAKE OR LEAVE IT I REALLY DON'T CARE ANYMORE IM GOING TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST AND TAKE CARE OF WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE THE BITCH IS COMING OUT SO IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS THAT COOL BUT DON'T THINK YOU OR ANY ONE ELSE GOING TO COME IN BETWEEN ME AND MY FAMILY BECAUSE IT WONT WORK TO MY TRUE FAMILY AND FRIENDS I LOVE YOU AND TH

Dream To Own Me
Can everyone do me a HUGE favor? I'm up for myfirst auction it ends the 14th of August, go to the link below and place your if you can't see what you are bidding on please don't hesitate to ask me. If you can't afford to bid at least rate the picture because that counts too!! Let me know when you have I'll come return the love on your page!! Thanks everyone for helping me!! MUAH!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2253187&albumid=1786238&i=513354339&idx=36

The Latest On My Eyes
So I went back to the Eye Dr today. It wasn't good news. He thought the drops he gave me last week would help. I think they did help my left eye, since I can still see to type lol. My right though is still all a blur. I sit with my face 6 inches from the screen. So now he says he does not know what is wrong and is sending me to another dr for his opinion.

Thank You!!!!!!
I WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO WRITE OUT A LETTER OF APPRECIATION TO THE BEST FU-BOYFRIEND / REAL BOYFRIEND I WOULD ASK FOR.. WHEN SOMEONE BAD MOUTHS ME NOW YA'LL BETTER WATCH OUT CUZ I WOULD NOT WANNA BE LIKE THE LIL PRICK TODAY WHO SAW THE MOST PROTECTIVE SIDE OF MY BABY I HAVEN'T SEEN IN A LONG TIME... ANYWAY I ALSO WANTED TO THANK ALL ME FRIENDS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND REMINDING ME WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE REALY FRIENDS EVEN IF WE ARE JUST FRIENDS CAUSE OF THIS SITE IT'S BEEN A BLAST KNOWING ALL OF YOU AND I'M SURE YOU ALL KNO I'VE GOT YOUR BACKS A MILLION PERCENT SHOULD SOMEONE STEP ON YOUR TOES THE WRONG WAY..... I especially wanna thank the CLUB CHRONIC 420 fam for being the best damn peeps i've worked with here on Fubar......

Stealing Loved Ones
I can't believe that people would steep that low to steal other peoples spouses. People must not: 1 be able to find a person who would go out on a date with them so they have to steal others loved ones. 2 have no respect for themselves. 3 no personal morals. 4 set examples for there kids. All this is showing them that it's ok to let your self stoop so low and have no respect for your self. Before people should go and steal other peoples loved ones they should stop and think how much hurt, pain, trouble, and drama they are going to cause. Also they should stop to think of what others will think of them before they do what they do. Also people shouldn't put pictures up because all it saying is how much of a horrible person they really are. It also causes more pain, trouble, and drama. Next time people should really stop and think before they go and do things like stealing other peoples loved ones.

Should I Host Another
Should i host another auction? I will not be entering this one. I have decided that i just dont want to due to a few bad events that happen with this last one. however if you are interested in entering one please comment.

A True Scotsman
A Scotsman walking down the street sees a woman with absolutely perfect breasts. He approaches her and says, "Miss, would ye let me bite ye breasts for $100?" "Are you nuts?!!!" she replies, and keeps walking. He turns around, runs around the block and gets to the corner before she does. "Would ye let me bite ye breasts for $1,000 dollars?" he asks. "Listen, I'm not that kind of woman! Got it?" So the Scotsman runs around the next block and faces her again. "Would ye let me bite ye breasts just once for $10,000 dollars?" She thinks about it for a moment and says, "Hmmm, $10,000 dollars; O.K., just once, but not here. Let's go to that dark alley over there." So they go into the alley, where she takes off her blouse to reveal the most perfect breasts in the world. As soon as he sees them, he grabs them and starts caressing them, fondling them slowly, kissing them, licking them, burying his face in them, but not biting them... The woman finally gets an

Fresh Start
I have met the man of my dreams. He is my soul mate, my lover, my Daddy, my Master and King. MasterdaddySir has shown me more love and understanding than I have recieved in my whole life. He is a kind gentle caring man who loves with all of his heart. I am fortunate to have met him and fall deeply in love with him. Thank you baby for coming and staying in my life. I Love You very much

A Good Test To See If Someone Gives A Damn
Friends Friends do not let friends drive drunk. Let me add to this you also do not take someone's car keys from them and send them to walk home at 2 a.m. If someone is not safe to drive a car they are not safe to be walking home alone. They are vulnerable to strangers. ANyone can more easily grab them and do whatever they want to them. No if you allow someone to drink at your house, especially female you ask them to stay on the couch unless you call a cab or drive them home. Sure taking the keys away, you are not responsible for that person then getting in a wreck. However you are responsible for the person consuming alcohol in your home. If that person is assaulted, raped or murdered on the way home-- you are to answer. If you do not bother to call to make certain they arrived home; if you can go to sleep given the above, you have no conscience. I am not proud I drank too much. I am responsible for drinking. However I did learn how one person operates. She clued me in that perhaps

~comfortable Insanity~
I'm unsure of my own existence. I pinch myself and all I feel is a dream that I cannot wake from. I do not exist to live, I live to exist. Always moving inside one consistent idea. I have things, but I have nothing at all. Looking inside me, I'm looking out at you. Free in a trapped world. Dying to live. Building towards, a ruined understanding. I run with no destination.

Eunice Kennedy Shriver
(CNN) -- Eunice Kennedy Shriver, the sister of President John F. Kennedy and a champion of the disabled who founded the Special Olympics, died Tuesday, the Special Olympics said. She was 88. Born on July 10, 1921, in Brookline, Massachusetts, Shriver was the fifth of nine children to Joseph P. and Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy. She emerged from the long shadow of siblings John F. Kennedy, Robert F. Kennedy and Sen. Edward M. Kennedy as the founder of the Special Olympics, which started as a summer day camp in her backyard in 1962. Today, 3.1 million people with mental disabilities participate in 228 programs in in 170 nations, according to the Special Olympics. Shriver's husband, R. Sargent Shriver, and her five children and their spouses and all of her 19 grandchildren were with her when she died, the Special Olympics said in a statement. "We are tremendously grateful for the extreme outpouring of support and prayer from the public as we honor our beloved founder," Special Olympics Pres

Ministering Angels...
Just as we need natural disciplines such as discipline to work, and disciplines concerning finances and appetites and so on... we also need spiritual discipline. We need prayer and Bible study and the confessing or agreeing with, GOD,S WORD and we need to do it outloud. Why? Well because although we may not WANT to do these things, the will become habits over time. Then we will see good results just as we see good results from any other discipline such as diet etc. Doing something good one time does not produce long term lasting good results. Discipline doesn,t produce immediate joy thats for sure, but it does produce an investment that will pay great dividends in due time. (Hebrews 12:11) OK and back to why say it outloud?? Well because we have Angels available to help us and THEY LISTEN ONLY TO GOD,S WORD!!!! They are God,s servants only and they are not activated by our complaining, murmuring, doubting, or our unbelief! They WANT TO work on our behalf, that is their assignm

Poem) Why Good Things Have To End!
When love is in the air you have a reason to care the feeling is near the scent is there you are here tight against me no sound any where. Stars burn the night sky they show me a little twinkle in your eye is this a dream shall I ask? or do I have to make it last? the vision of you haunts me day and night your arms wrapped around me alittle kiss on the cheack a whisper in my ear saying "stay here with me you will be alright" I looked up into your eyes which the stars have filled the smile you gave the heart you saved emotional feelings came over me like a racing horse that is dying for a win. Pounding, hearts trembling hands, words unspoken dreams being real. So, I drift up and we share a little kiss the only moment that I surley miss. We, stoped for a while come take my hand walk with me until the sandy beach ends."You say that won't be true the sands will never end just like the love I have with you no end nothing to wait. The foot prints that we leave behind in the sand laug

Losing My Soul
Losing My Soul By: EmberSlender beams of illumination enterthis darkened cavern as I kneel,always sorrowful, always despairing.Frozen here, waiting accusing robed forms wrought in blackened stone loom, As dust dances in the air,forming an image in my mind,infiltrating my exposed soul. Embracing the unknown,accepting a lonely fate,as bloody tears begin to fall.Realization dawns on a lover's face.I raise my head, now caressingthis oblivious immortal darkness.

Viagra Ice Cream Anyone?
http://www.thelondonpaper.com/going-out/ba... Forget traditional vanilla. Londoners will be able to treat themselves to a new “vice cream” in autumn when pop-up ice cream boutique, The Icreamists opens in Selfridges . Entitled The Sex Pistol, this bespoke creation is served as an ice cream cocktail and is packed with libido-boosting ingredients such as ginkgo, biloba, arginine and guarana. It’s served with a shot of the highly intoxicating La Fee Absinthe and is guaranteed to get your blood pumping. Customers are limited to one serving per person. Matt O’Connor, founder of The Icecreamists, says: “This is the perfect après shopping treat. Just one Sex Pistol will leave you feeling energised and confident – but please, don’t pester the staff!” The Sex Pistol costs £11.99 and is available to customers aged 18 and over. From 10 September, Selfridges shoppers will be able to indulge in more guilty pleasures when The Icecream

Slipknot-snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocenceAnd leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflageFor what resembles rage againSo if you love me let me goAnd run away before I knowMy heart is just too dark to careI cant destroy what isn't thereDeliver me into my fateIf I'm alone I cannot hateI don't deserve to have youMy smile was taken long agoIf I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn't face a life without your lightBut all of that was ripped apart...When you refused to fightSo save your breath I will not hearI think I made it very clearYou couldn't hate enough to loveIs that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren't my friendThen I could hurt you in the endI never claimed to be a SaintMy own was banished long agoIt took the death of hope to let you goSo break yourself against my stonesAnd spit your pity in my soulYou never needed any hel

Addiction_enmeshed Confuses Unbridled Desires???
Addiction - the agony and the ivory. It's nothing new, is as ancient as man…Is an escape route - a temporary, momentary one. It's nothing new, is as ancient as man…Is an escape route - a temporary, momentary one. There has never been a time when man didn't need an escape route. Everyone seems to have a need at the end of the day: a few beers, cigarettes, drugs, womanizing - any short cut to relief. None of these things bring any satisfaction, yet the desire for some sort of gratification continues… The main cause of addiction is that man does not know how to live; how to live in totality - a complete awareness. And that is how he gets exploited by society which has a vested interest in making him suffer and offering temporary relief. A person who lived totally will not consume any alcohol, smoke cigarettes ot take any form of drug. Naturally, people who are earning millions of bucks out of alcohol and drugs cannot let you live totally. What would happen to busin

Crystal Methamphetamine Addiction-crystal Meth Effects
Crystal Methamphetamine Addiction is largely similar to the addiction of amphetamines and has horrible effects on central Nervous System of body. This article elaborates the Crystal Meth Effects in detail. Have a look... Enlarge Image Crystal methamphetamineCrystal methamphetamines are drugs with high potential of violence, they are also called „speed", and they stimulate the central nervous system. They belong to the amphetamines family. Just like cocaine, they are strong, exciting drugs, which lead to a series of adverse reactions, and their effect is longer lasting than the effect of cocaine. HistoryDiscovered by a Japanese chemist in 1919, methamphetamine was used during the second world war in order to keep the troops awoken and to energize workers in factories. Nowadays it is prescribed carefullt for the cure of some diseasas, and in some countries it is a legal medicine. As drug it is taken under the form of powder, as inhalation or injected in watery dilution. apoasa

Adolescent Stages Of Addiction
Addiction among our youth is a growing concern. Learn about the different stages of addiction, in adolescents. Enlarge Image Addiction has powerfully negative effects on adolescents, their families and the realization of their hopes and dreams. The sad fact is that that every addict started life as a human being with great potential. The addiction, like an overwhelming cancer can consume these hopes and dreams. There are different stages of addiction. Each stage would require a different type of treatment modality. They are the early stage, the middle stage and the late or advanced stage of addiction. In adolescents, the stages of addiction can progress more quickly than as an adult, although this is not always true. It can take a few months or a few years to reach the later stages of addiction. Early stages of addictionBegins smoking cigarettes Experimentation with drugs Begins smoking pot and drinking Hangs out with the drugging and drinking crowd May steal medications fro

Prison
Prison Entrapment is a common and interesting dream event. While some would also classify it as troubling, the flip side of being stuck somewhere is relative safety from the threats of an unknown outside world. Often, this safety facet of entrapment is neglected because of our obsession with freedom. Being entrapped is often a dream about self-awareness. As the old saying goes, Wherever you go, you take yourself with you. As this relates to dreams, being unable to escape usually is a picture of being unable to grow or accomplish in life what you desire to do. Jung's theory of archetypal individuation may be helpful for interpreting this dream. Entrapment can be portrayed as either an absence of choices or too many choices. The absence of choices is a one-room cell. You are alone with no where to go. Too many choices is the mansion with no exits. Wherever you go, you are still stuck. This dream indicates that while choices may exist, they are unsatisfactory for effecting the new fr

Tca
So my eight year old step daughter and i were watching the teen choice awards because my step daughter is a big fan of miley cyrus. Well they announced her perfomance and my step daughter glued herself to the t.v. First she comes out in booty shorts and does a leg open dip. The song goes on to say my hips are going like yea. then she does a stripper worthy belly roll. At this point my brain did not process what was going until my step daughter stood up and started copying her. then a ice cream truck glides its way in with guess what... A STRIPPER POLE on top... then she starts provactely dances upon it. Thats when i turned the channel and had my step daughter go to her room. How could the tca allow a minor child to dance like a stripper on their stage and the worst of all her dad gets up at the end of her performance and claps o.0 wth billy whats wrong with you! id kill my step daughter if she did that crap im sorry.(video embedded on the bottom )

Camera
Camera Dreams where cameras are important often reflect a desire to stop the action, gain additional information, or capture hidden meanings. Are you taking specific pictures, or are they random? Are you photographing people, places, or objects? Is the nature of your photographing recreational or are you trying to capture something in particular on film, such as evidence? It may be that your life is going by too quickly for you to appreciate the nuances of it.

Orchestra
Orchestra The complexity and beauty of the orchestra is almost universally appreciated. Even among those who do not like classical music, it is accepted that the orchestra is a very sophisticated musical machine. Dreams of being in the orchestra may reflect the feeling that you are in a place of either harmony, or profound disharmony, in relation to the world. There may be a facet of your life in which you are feeling a tremendous amount of performance anxiety. If the orchestra has a familiar conductor (a co-worker or boss, a family member, an acquaintance, etc.), the relationship between you and the conductor may reveal the area of anxiety. If you are attending the orchestra, there may be romantic underpinnings involved, based on your companion in the dream.There may also be a sense of wanting respite from the daily grind of the waking world through music. An additional interpretation is that the dream is a wish-fulfillment based on the lessons you took as a child and the inabil

Pool
Pool Swimming in or lying beside a pool is the ultimate wish-fulfillment dream for many people. The rest and relaxation of sunning outside is a wonderful invitation. However, depending on who is in the pool, you may be missing out somewhere in waking life. Evaluating this message depends on who is in the pool and what they have in common with people in your waking life. Perhaps you need to be less of a watcher and more of a joiner. Do you feel as though you should be 'part of the action' instead of on the side, sunning yourself? If the water seems somewhat unwelcoming, there may be underlying feelings that the pool represents something you are being lured into against your will. In this case, the occupants of the pool may be people whom you generally trust, but also have some misgivings about.

Nagging
Nagging One of the reasons we respond so strongly to dream content is because it often is an exclamation point rather than a period. Dream statements exist in the superlative as often as not. This is especially true of the interpersonal relationships-some are revealed as the best; others as the worst. Over time, no interpersonal event is more draining than the nag. Who is nagging you and why? Some dreams include the nagger as a caricature of nagging, and the droning eventually becomes funny. Other dreams create a symbolic avoidance of a person because of a fear of nagging. The final version of the nag is the forward, ongoing sapping of your emotional strength through the dream story. There may be a facet of your waking life where you have chosen denial as your modus operandi. Nagging dreams may be a specific attempt to draw you back into dealing with it. More often, the dream is about a person that you are taking too seriously or not seriously enough. The interpretation depends

Ocean
Ocean The ocean is the place of origin for all life. Especially in Jungian interpretation, this is a place of creativity, fertility, and birth. There is also a lingering sense humans have of rising up out of the collective origins of life in the oceans. It is easy to see the Darwinian influence of these ideas. More importantly, it is easy to see the lack of connection some dreamers could have with this approach to dream interpretation. Given the widespread popularity of boating, scuba diving, and cruise vacations, numerous people have experiences with the ocean that were not available in the past. It may be that the dreamer has one of these connections to the ocean, rather than a general perception of fertility. For some, the ocean can impart a sense of fear and foreboding, especially if they can't swim. Its ultimate vastness, coupled with their lack of swimming ability, can appear in a dream as a reflection of some insurmountable struggle they may be having in waking life

Jokes
Jokes Jokes are funny because of the element of truth contained in them. In dreams, we may access our own sarcasm or humor about our circumstances. However, we may have characters in our dreams that make jokes that we do not find at all amusing. These may reflect our own ambivalence or a need to lighten up because we are not enjoying ourselves as we could.

Nurse
Nurse The nurse is a unique figure in medical personnel dreams because of the romance attached to the helping professions. Sometimes nurses are even portrayed as angels. Aside from the romantic component, nurses often functions as extras in other medical or sickness dreams.

Laughter
Laughter In dreams, we may feel emotions and responses to them much as we do in waking life. This is especially true about very funny and very sad events. Dream laughter may often come from a deeper level than waking laughter in that our emotional expressions are often more outward and unrestrained in a dream. The interesting part is that dream laughter may also be very inappropriate. Since we often dream of ourselves as archetypal caricatures, we may laugh with a diabolical twist; whereas in waking, anger would be the more expected response. This sort of unchecked laughter can usually be an expression of the id. If you experienced laughter in a dream, did others laugh with you? Did you laugh at something inappropriate?Did you feel ashamed or somehow empowered by laughing at such

Story
Story If you see yourself as hearing or acting in a story, you probably have the feeling that others are controlling your life and making choices for you. While the narrator of the story is probably unknown to you, he or she represents the person controlling your life. If you feel that you are the narrator watching yourself in a story, this may indicate uncertainty about the choices you are currently making in your life. You are wanting to test them without consequence before acting on them in waking reality.

Playgrounds
Playgrounds Playgrounds are the scene of many of our most favored childhood memories. What makes a playground dream significant is who accompanies you and what age you are in the dream. It is not uncommon to have a playground dream where the dreamer is the only child among adults or the only adult among children. These dreams usually indicate that there is a disparity between how you are acting in the world and what a more appropriate disposition would be. You may need to either lighten up or take yourself more seriously, depending on some of the distinct images in the dream. Equally important in the playground dream is the presence of particular friends or family members. This is especially true if they have passed away in waking life but participate in the dream as living characters (see dead people as live characters). Dreams of this nature are often pointing towards incomplete relationships that are either repeating themselves in waking life or need resolution. A 44-year-old

Problem-solving
Problem-solving Problem-solving in a dream situation and solving waking-life problems through dreaming are two very different experiences. The former is a dream event while the latter uses the dream event to address waking concerns. In dreams, you may find yourself able to solve more problems than you normally do in waking. Problems that you can solve in dreams are virtually limitless because you are not bounded by logic. Many times this can work to the dreamer's advantage. If you are able to solve problems effectively, it is a reflection of untapped competence in a particular area of your life. The idea of problem-solving through dreaming comes from the saying, Let me sleep on it. The ego is designed to differentiate which ideas are allowed to enter consciousness. Consequently, some thoughts are dismissed before they even get a chance for deliberation. The problem is that most of us are prejudiced by our experience to eliminate potentially good solutions to our problems. This is

Yoga
Yoga If yoga is a feature of your waking life, then dreams of it usually do not have substantial interpretative content -- they are merely replays of normal events. However, if you are not a yoga practitioner in waking life, this dream may indicate a desire for more mind-body balance or harmony with the universe. Or, it could indicate some sort of reference to a convoluted situation in your life.

Help
what do u do when thelove of your life is slipping from your fingers. o you cotinue to fight and get them to see how happy you make them and how much you love them or do you just let it fall apart like nothing ever happend?

Read And Fill Out For Me......
if ur bored and have a few read and fill out for me........ 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now that you know me? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 29. How well do you know me? 30 When's the last time you saw me? 31. Ev

What Is Love?
hmm, where do i start this? love..ok well i guess i'll just throw things in at random. have you ever abused the word love? sometimes when i hear someone say the word 'love' , i think of it as an overused term like 'lol'. i mean think of it, whats the most overused word or term on the internet? its 'lol'. well anyway, that fuckin word has got my life so jacked up. out of every person i've ever dated, i can only think of one that i actually 'loved'. but i really fucked that shit up, and i really think i had the hole buried when i started dating this other person. however, i think i covered that fucking hole AND sealed that bitch when i married this other person. anyway, does anyone actually know what 'love' really is? could it possibly be putting every fucking ounce of care in your life and devote it all to just that ONE other person? possibly. could it possibly mean putting every once of care in your life and devote it to multiple people? absolutely not. that was my problem in certia

Dangerous
DangerousOkay, so I was pissed off and that probably wasn't the best time to suddenly accept an invitation to meet a stranger in a bar but frankly, I just didn't care anymore. My boyfriend was a no show for the third Saturday night in a row. He always had a good reason for it but enough was enough. We were on a downward slide toward a break up and the reality was that I had dressed up expecting a good time and I was stuck at home again. Well, no more I decided! If he thought I was staying at home waiting for him again, he had another think coming. My dark brown hair was fixed and hanging in loose curls down my back. My makeup was done, I had on a white dress with fringe at the hem that was made for dancing, and by golly I was going out! I slipped my high-heeled sandals on and ran my hands up my long legs to smooth out my pantyhose. I'm 5'8" and the heels added 3 inches to my height. My boyfriend is 5'11" so they put us at the same height but the guy who had been flirting with me onli

Don't Mind Me
Emptiness consumes me Loneliness takes hold I can't fight this feeling My body grows so cold Agony engulfs me In never ending streams All that's left within me Are swiftly shattered dreams Sadness overwhelms me Eyes, pour out my soul All the broken promises Make me lose control Where were you when I needed you? You left me here for dead Paint yourself a pretty picture Of what you need instead. You don't care that I'm hurting Cuz you ain't got the time Don't mind me, if I'm cryin' I'll Be Just Fine.

Agent Orange And Dioxins: The Most Destructive, Poisonous Substances Ever Found
http://salem-news.com/articles/july302009/... About 1970, the U.S. was spraying Agent Orange, Agent White and Agent Blue all over Vietnam and American Infantry Soldiers were getting poisoned in large numbers. The Army and VA doctors were told that the soldiers’ illnesses were caused by SMOKING BAD MARIJUANA and they would get over it when they got home and quit smoking pot. It didn’t turnout that way. DIOXINS are the extreme poisons in many chlorinated pesticides. The Dioxins combine with DNA/RNA which are the building blocks for most functions in metabolism. One of our reader/correspondents, Chuck Palazzo, just brought to our attention that Agent Orange, actually DIOXINS, have been re-discovered to cause all sorts of damage to humans. These include Heart Disease, Parkinsonism, Diabetes etcetera. Dioxins are already known to produce serious birth defects and a variety of cancers. Because of the extremely high reactivity of the DIOXINS, which are poisonou

Members Tags
Please stop by and grab you members tag!! Make sure you rate and comment to.. we are going to be looking for recruiters and help if you are interested pm SexyBadbicthcca ot Lips Of an Angel please.. Try to stop by and say hi to our memebrs this group is about making friends and getting to know one another so feel free to say hi

Midsummer Nights Dream
Tonight, I journyed to one of my favorite sanctuaries, the Halcomb Gardens. The moon was bright, for a half moon, illuminateing the sweet rows of fragrent flowers in a blue hue, their perfume caressing my skin alight the gentle breeze. I walked the length of the garden breathing in the cool damp air of after rain. I could hear the canal rolling lazily by to my left and the wind dance in the trees to my right. And as I approached the statue of Persephone, I noticed that she was gone, the pool of water around her was drained. I figured that she was just off being cleaned. I reached the steps leading to her pedistle and lay on the cool stones looking up at the stars. The rain clouds had cleared and I could see infinity above me, when I saw a shooting star. Smiling I thought back as a child when magic was around every corner and shone through the simplest things and made a silent wish. I wished that I knew how your lips tasted, whether they were sweet as candied strawberries or juicy as ri

August 12th - Rope
Another amazing session tonight. My legs are still shaking.Master was kind to me tonight. He let me feel the silky slide of rope against my skin. A tongue of another kind. Not one of flame or ice but of restriction. He wrapped my breasts in a pentacle harness restricting my breathing just enough that I could not forget its presence.He commanded me to kneel and I licked the length of his cock. After a moment he began to fuck my mouth, deep enough to press against the back of my throat. He commanded me to my back and straddled me as I licked his stiff member from base to tip.Then, commanding me back to my feet, he tied my wrists and ankles and secured them to chains and hooks. I could barely move with my arms stretched over my head and my legs spread. I couldn't close my legs and still stand. It's one of my few experiences where I have been completely vulnerable.He began by whipping me. The kiss of the whip is a feeling I can hardly describe as it's lashes curl around my body turning the

Police Your Mumms
Today I posted a Mumm that was completly SFW in its content. This Mumm upset the Mummers so badly they posted NSFW comments on it. I didn't think this would be an issue since I'm not the one that posted them, so I let them stay. About 3 hours after I posted this Mumm I got a message from Fubar Support saying that my Mumm had been deleted because it was NSFW and my Fubar account was in jepordy of being deleted as well. After going to the Fubar Help Lounge, I became aware that I, not the Mummers, am responsable for the comments the Mummers post on my Mumm. So, the bottom line here is POLICE YOUR MUMMS! You, not the Mummers, are responsible for the comments posted in them. If NSFW comments are posted your Mumm can be deleted and possibly your Fubar account as well! P.S. From this day forward ALL comments on ALL pages concerning George Feelsgood must be approved before they will be posted.

You're Unbelievable
You blow me away with the loving things you say I feel like a breeze on a warm summer day. You fill my heart with so much love how can I not thank the heavens above. I can't believe I finally found you I can't believe it's a dream come true I can't believe that you love me too.

Who: 1,154 Dead From H1n1 Flu Worldwide
GENEVA, Switzerland, Aug. 5 (UPI) -- More than 1,000 people have died worldwide from H1N1 flu since it first emerged last April in Mexico, World Health Organization officials said. The WHO officials in Switzerland reported 338 new deaths pushing the total H1N1 flu, or swine flu, deaths to 1,154 worldwide, CNN reported.. By the end of July, 168 countries and territories had reported at least one confirmed case of the H1N1 virus, in every continent. Recently the H1N1 flu has spread to Azerbaijan, Gabon, Grenada, Kazakhstan, Moldova, Monaco, Nauru, Swaziland and Suriname, WHO officials said. WHO officials had said that the H1N1 flu has spread worldwide in unprecedented speed -- moving worldwide in six weeks what took previous influenza viruses six months.

Who Sees Swine Flu Vaccination From Next Month
GENEVA (Reuters) - The first vaccines to combat H1N1 swine flu should be approved and ready for use in some countries from September, the World Health Organization said on Thursday. Marie-Paule Kieny, WHO director of the Initiative for Vaccine Research, said manufacturers had initially reported poor yields in making vaccine, leading to worries about supplies, but this was now improving. "We are on track in development," Kieny told reporters. First results from clinical trials are expected early next month and these tests will show whether one or two doses are needed to provide immunity -- another big swing factor in determining how many people can be vaccinated. Once initial clinical trial results are in, regulators will be able to approve the vaccines from next month, Kieny added. The H1N1 flu outbreak, declared a pandemic on June 11, has spread around the world and could eventually affect 2 billion people, according to WHO estimates. Fears the strain could bec

Frog
This guy is 72 years old and loves to fish. He was sitting in his boat the other day when he heard a voice say, "Pick me up." He looked around and couldn't see any one.. He thought he was dreaming when he heard the voice say again, "Pick me up." He looked in the water and there, floating on the top, was a frog. The man said, "Are you talking to me?" The frog said, "Yes, I'm talking to you. Pick me up then, kiss me and I' ll turn into the most beauti ful woman you have ever seen. I'll make sure that all your friends are envious and jealous because I will be your bride!" The man looked at the frog for a short time, reached over, picked it up carefully, and placed it in his front breast pocket. Then the frog said, "What, are you nuts? Didn't you hear what I said? I said kiss me and I will be your beautiful bride." He opened his pocket, looked at the frog and said, "Nah, at my age I'd rather have a talking frog."

1st Love
Reflecting back on my past and past relationships this song fits a certin situation that I was in some years back. Please comment if you like it. I grew up a wonder yearShe was saved by the bellI was boys in the hood, She was ATLUsed to sell weed to her rommate, that`s how we metOl` girl didn`t smoke, but she had jokes on deckNo disrespects, it`s just the way it wasShe claim cuz` I was broke and always say cuz`I was kind of always saying shawty and y`allShe smile everytime I did my little Southern drawCalls became frequent, we hang out on the weekendStart to feelin` like, she`s the one I`ve been seekin`Didn`t take it far, third base, at mostNever seal the deal, but always came closeI knew that if I hit it, I would have to stay commitedI was young, 21, man I just wasn`t with itKnew what was comin` and you can`t run from itAin`t no feelings that strong between man and a woman. She said she wanted more than a friendshipBut I wasn`t willing to bendI said I wanted friends with benefits

Love Defined
We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love. When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.” Our Similarities bring us to a common ground; Our Differences allow us to be fascinated by each other. We're our own dragons as well as our own heroes, and we have to rescue ourselves from ourselves.” Love is the ultimate outlaw. It just won't adhere to any rules. The most any of us can do is to sign on as its acc

Ghosts
Ghosts A ghost may represent something that is gone but not forgotten-or something that is almost forgotten but that you simply cannot release. The appearance of deceased relatives usually tells of unresolved issues. In these cases, you should pay particular attention to the surroundings, the other characters present, and any unique aspects of the apparition.

Pearls
Pearls The pearl has become an archetypal semi-precious stone. Individual pearls in dreams usually have to do with moments of personal discovery. Most people who dream of pearls understand where they come from and view the pearl as a treasure to be discovered. However, in dreams the pearl is rarely discovered in an oyster but simply found and conveyed to the dreamer or from the dreamer to others. Usually, this is done as a metaphor for some other kind of conveyance of intimate personal knowledge between the dreamer and other characters in the dream. Pearl jewelry is often a gift of wealth and is something associated as classical, rather than contemporary. Metaphorically, this could be contrasting old versus new money. How did you come to possess the pearl or jewelry in your dream? Was the pearl a material possession or did it seem to have heirloom-quality emotional features to it as well? Did you experience the pearl as a gift from the world, a gift from another, or a gift you

Signed Up!!!!!
I did it! I just got back from signing up for Networking Technician (Net+) classes. I will not know my start date until I talk to the lady at DWS, but I know the days of the week and the times my classes will be held on.Tuesday: 6 PM – 8 PMWednesday: 8 AM – 12 PMThursday: 11 AM – 3 PM (with a lunch break in there somewhere)Friday: 8 AM – 12 PMI already have two different books that I have been reading through, so we will see how things go. What is really nice about this is that I go at my rate, at the longest I will be in school for 10 months shortest 2 months.Well I'm off to finish reading my E-Mail and then lunch. Have a great day!

Royal Pain Family
Need to level and want to join a family but can't deside which one you want to join well let me help you deside..... I have started a new family we are known as the royal pain levelers which is a family to help one another get to the next level weither it be level 11 or level 40.... the founder will be known as queen's or king's owner's are prince or princess co-owner's the same the greeter's will be nobles promoter's will be known as jesters YOU MUCT ADD FAN RATE ALL MEMBERS OF THE COURT BEFOR JOINING when a member of the family has a bomb please keep in mind the family should be bombed as well when a member has auto's on i wish for the family to go rate -re rate them DRAMA WILL NOT BE PERMITTED If you have a problem with a member please come to either the founder's or owner's founder's/co-founder's our job is to make sure all family is rated and happy Owner's your job's are to make sure all member's have been rated faned and added if not come

A Great Poem
I was shocked, confused, and bewilderedAs I entered Heaven's door;Not by the beauty of it all,Nor the lights or its decor.But it was the folks in HeavenWho made me sputter and gasp -The thieves, the liars, the sinners,The alcoholics and the trash.There stood the kid from seventh gradeWho swiped my lunch money twice.Next to him was my old neighborWho never said anything nice.Herb, who I always thoughtWas rotting away in hell,Was sitting pretty on cloud nine,Looking incredibly well.I nudged Jesus, "What's the deal?I would love to hear Your take.How'd all these sinners get up here?"God must've made a mistake."And why is everyone so quiet,So somber? Give me a clue.""Hush child, " He said, "they're all in shock.No one thought they'd see you!"JUDGE NOT!

Being Focused
its time to talk about being focused that means doing what you have to do and staying on point no matter what youdo this is just my opinon so dont take it seriously i stay focused whether its school or work even when im not doing those im focused it isthe fact you know what being focused is stay safe and read this

College
they say after high school you should try college well i didnt go to college i waited awhile before i did that now that i am in college im expericing things i never seen or herd beforeif you want to try college be my guest but they also say college isnt for every one theyre other thing besides college after all there is a song called i love college listen to it see what you think college is a great start to the real world thats reality calling you and me

We All Need Money!!!
I have just startedtrying this out, and I'm already getting money, so I thought I'd share it with my fubar friends. 300 MILLION + HAVE AN EMAIL ADDRESS WORLD WIDE!96 MILLION + HAVE PAY PAL (Do the Math)!I am going to tell you a magic method for Earning thousands ofdollars.Believe me. Initially I was also skeptical but I decided to takethe offer.I did Exactly what was written in the message for around 20 days.Then I checked the account. Oh my God! My Account had received 3700USD.Again I started posting the message and in next 20 days my PaypalAccounthas ballooned to 12526 USDIt would take 15-30 minutes only and costs just $6.00. But it is100% worth it to make thousands so quickly. This is not another scamthat takes lots of your hard earned money;This is a no risk investment that will make you thousands of dollarsvery easily and quickly.Turn $6.00 into Thousands in just a few weeks. Just follow theinstructions exactly as set out below and then prepare yourself forahuge influx of cash ov

I Am An Extremist
I am a Christian and meet regularly with other Christians to study God's word. i am a veteran with skills and knowledge derived from military training and combat. I own several firearms, frequently shoot them, buy ammunition and consider efforts to infringe on my Second Amendment rights to be wrong and unconstitutional I fervently support the sovereignty of the United States, am deeply concerned about our economy, increasingly higher taxes, illegal immigration, soaring unemployment and actions by our government that will bury my children beneath a mountain of debt. Apparently, all this makes me a "right-wing extremist." At least that's what it says in the April 7, 2009 "assessment" issued by the Office of Intelligence and Analysis at the Department of Homeland Security (DHS). The nine-page report, titled, "Right-wing Extremism: Current Economic and Political Climate Fueling Resurgence in Radicalization and Recruitment," is full of warnings about American citizens who share any of my

What I Have Learned...
Well here it goes after four years of adultry, jackass's, lawyers, cops, and a divorce I have learned this. God does fail; Evil does win; Happly ever after is for fairy tales; Women are just as big of cheaters and liars as men can be; Love is overrated; Never Ever trust the ball coach;

Another Poem
sunrise in your eyes i watched the sunrise in your eyes today all the reds ans blues shimmering off water the light clouds streaking across the sky just added to the beautie of it all i could only imagine what you feel like in my arms at this moment feeling you close to me see the sun rise with you only takes my breath away when you turn to face me and the sun rises behind you you seem to blend in to the background fade into the rise of the sun i reach out to you and you disapear as the sun rises higher your gone and i am all alone wit just the thought of you by my side and i remember the sunrise in your eyes

Heart Ache
Looking back i realized how much have change...as my heart continue to ache i cnt do nothing but just to move on..but for some reason i cant help but to miss everything that i had..how it felt when sum1 holds you close wit the same passion that your feeling..how u can only think about that person and knowing the fact that his doing the exact same..but now as i question myself how can something perfect end to completely nothing..how i wish that im still feeling wat im feeling then..how can it end so soon..I just hate the fact that i miss you and what we have..its killing me that i cnt still 4get about you and that I still love you..i tried to move on but in the end my heart always crave for only you..How i hate that i love u so much that im suffering at this moment because i believed on us so much..how i fought for it and gave my all and nothing turned out..why even now tears are still fallin..and wat hurts more is that how can you act dat nothing did ever happened and how u can 4get ab

Intense Pain
the intensity of the painits so high i dont think dont think i can standthe pain stabs deepWhy does the one we love so much doesnt know suchhow much we love themmaybe its they have in mindno matter what ever they dothey know we cannot let them golike air itself i cannot breath

Loneliness
is it the loneliness and depression, which darkness leaves inside the heart when love has failed and gone astraywhere the darkness has blinded the will to live becomes that moment of desireor is it that moment of truthwhen you're told that you are no more in favor

Eternal Night
not a place for me to benot a person to care for mealone now no friends or familyliving in the past with no strengthor will to return no return to beno place to turn to wander forevernot a kindness or compassion to be seennot wanted or needed forever alonedarkest before dawn alas night be eternalnot to see an end in sightto end it all maybe only choiceto think is frightening, so not to thinkhope that somday shall find my placea place where I trully belongalone and frightened in the eternal night

Hmm
If I had a more vivid imagination, My words would have no limitations, My muse she lies in misery, This happiness it stifles me I search for words but they evade I sit smiling and unafraid Still after the words I chase If only a tear would run down my face The words would flow, this I know don’t question it I’ve seen it before Reams of papers on the unknown, peace, love, and joy, the search for home. All the things I’ve found in you, Two hearts melded beating true In reading this, one might think I’m venting an anger, or trying to complain, But away with the words, also left the pain

Men That I Have Knowen And Know
Over the years being married, and knowing a few male friends. There is one thing they all do, weather or not they are consuious or aware they do this , I do not know. All I know it gets under my skin, like a bad rash. Have you ever noticed, if something in your man's day goes wrong he tends to bring it home with him or even if hes home and something goes wrong, and is totally pissed off he will make dam sure, every one else in the house is feeling just as lousey and possibly as upset as he is. Just a thing happen to me lastnight. I am visiting a friend in pa. And his nurse told him that if he missed another doctors appointment and didnt get a hold of his sugar blood count he would lose her care of his medical problem and his doc. OMG he went blastic after she left getting all pissy and shit. And in this fit of rage decided to pull me into it. He wanted to know who was making all the noise in the hall. I said looks like a chinese family is moving out. He lost his mind.

My Journey
Over the past week I have been on a new journey. It is one that I never thought in my lifetime I would take. What I have learned from my Daddy so far has been intense. It is a lifestyle that I freely and totally want for myself. My Daddy has been very patient with me, teaching me and guiding me into this new wonderful life. He is a kind, understanding, gentle but very strict Master. Over time he will be transforming me into what he wants me to be and I cant wait for the end result.

Sad Sad Girl
Dear My Bank, We’ve known each other for a long time. You know how I deposit my humble paychecks every so often, how I rarely use the ATM, and how I hate to use my debit card at the gas station. I know that you like to decorate with bullet-proof glass… guns, I get it… have pens that don’t always work, and always want me to sign up for your credit card. As much as I hate to admit it, we sort of have a thing going. Let’s be honest Bank. We’re not friends. We don’t even really like each other very much. I know that you have rules. You know… if you’re being honest with yourself, that I do my very best to follow your rules. And I do… Bank…..! Unless, I suppose, I just forget to add one payment to my balance books, leading me to believe I have several hundred dollars in you, Bank… instead of less than zero. Here’s my beef with you… Bank! Jerky bank. When you penalize me several tim

One Last Note For The Day
Reason #457 why I love this warm weather, sunny summertime: the ponytail. It’s bouncy, it’s festive, it helps me look like I’m having a good time even when I’m just standing in line at the grocery store, and it makes me feel like a cheerleader… which is strangely satisfying. The ponytail is simple and uncomplicated. I think I’m going to make the ponytail, and the fun simplicity it represents, the theme for the lovely summer. So go forth and please, sport a ponytail this summer. It's rad.

The Other Side Of The Coin
Recently, I started a new path for making money (also known as a job) and I cannot believe how hard it has been on me. For those that know me well, you know that I have been working in the security industry for over 10 years. My new career path is in the home health aide field, talk about a change huh, lol. IF this blog does actually get read by one of my friends I wold like to point out that I have been out of work for over a month and off of Fubar too. While things are looking up, barely, I am still scared shitless about doing this job. The worst part is that I dont know why I am so freaked out. The job is not "hard" or physically demanding in any shape or form and I have worked in some very high stress situations doing security work. Yet here I am shaken and unsure about myself about working in a house with a few people that just need some help doing the things that we all do everyday. Washing dishes, mopping floors, washing clothes and paying bills. Not a single harmfull thing on

Vamp
as i walk in this cold dark word i sem to fall in love with a vampire.. his eyes get me lost in them. his kiss drives me wild. when he bites my neck i loss all fram of time and space.. when he talks to me i loss were i am at and get lost in him.. he body drives me so wild that i shiver at the site of it... know that he loves me is the best part of loveing this vampire... i bet all wonder how this vamp how stole my heart is.... his name is spike he has stole this dur's heart in more ways then one.... yes i have fallen for a vampire .. but how cares he has me for ever... spike i love so much that i be lost with out you

Getting To Know Eachother
Getting to Know Each Other If you've been tagged or you are reading this, you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions, writing your own response, and tagging 25 other victims. You have to tag me so really you just need 24 more people. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you - but not in a creepy stalker kind of way. To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your title as "Getting to know each other!", tag 25 people including me (tagging is done in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish. 1. What time did you get up this morning? 8:26am 2. How do you like your steak? Well Done 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Angels and Demons 4. What is your favorite TV show? CSI, Smallville, alot of others 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? ATL but I always wanted to travel so im not sure 6. What did you have for breakfast? A cok

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Original Poem By Fallenman76
As I walk alone in this life of pain and misery I hide the suffering I feel by faking a smile for all of the world to see No one can look inside of my heart None of you can see that I am falling apart Sometimes all you need is someone to care Longing for love you look only to find that no one is there You desperately look for a shimmer of hope You don't want to admit that you are at the end of you rope Just when you think that all of your choices are at an end You turn a corner and become embraced by your true friends

The Script-breakeven
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayin 'to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven ... even ... no What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even ... no What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving)

Avenged Sevenfold- Dear God
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find While I recall all the words you spoke to me Can't help but wish that I was there Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again There's nothing here for me on this barren road There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed Can't help but think of the times I've had with you Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again

The Gift
Seether - The Gift Hold me now I need to feel relief Like I never wanted anything I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to I'm so ashamed of defeat And I'm out of reason to believe in me I'm out of trying to get by I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm not well I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living Right on the wrong side of it all I can't face myself when I wake up And look inside a mirror I'm so ashamed of that thing I suppose I'll let it go Untill I have something more to say for me I'm so afraid of defeat And I'm out of reason to believe in me I'm out of trying to defy I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm not well I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living Right on the wrong side of it all Hold me now I need to feel complete Like I matter to the one I need I'm so afraid of the gift you give me I don't belong here and I'm not well I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living Right on the wrong side of it all Now

Maybe Im Nutz Maybe Im Crazy.
I don't know what to do, I can't find the right thing to say, Every thing seemded to be fine, Yet in a blink of a eye, The world I knew came to a end, People tell me I'm crazy for the way I feel, They tell me I shouldn't love her for the things she's said and done, Even through all this B.S. I've figreut out I'm still in love, No matter how much I want to disbelieve I know it's true, For no matter what the mind say's the heart will never lie.

Is This Guy Nuts?
A man and his wife were working in their garden one day when the man looks over at his wife and says: 'Your butt is getting really big, I mean really big. I bet your butt is bigger than the barbecue.' With that he proceeded to get a measuring tape and measures the grill and then went over to where his wife was working and measured his wife's bottom. 'Yes, I was right; your butt is two inches wider than the barbecue!!!' The woman chose to ignore her husband. Later that night in bed, the husband is feeling a little frisky. He makes some advances towards his wife who completely brushes him off. 'What's wrong?' he asks.. ............... She answers: 'Do you really think I'm going to fire up this big-ass grill for one little weenie?

Things I Want To Do Or Experience Before I Die( Aka Az's Bucket List)
1- I want to be tased 2- would love to be slapped in the face with a live catfish no less then 4 years or older 3- to be angrily compared to pumkin bread by a preacher 4- sex with Abby from NCIS 5- to say to a group of cops... "arrest those men" 6- to wear spandex... (every fat kids dream) 7- to at long last hear snoopie say these words "hey you know what?... your right" 8- taste hot lava wearing a tu tu 9- make the worlds biggest chocolate cream pie 10- to finally get enough bling to sooth my addiction

Funny Gotta Read
REDNECK FARM KID in the Marine Corps Dear Ma and PaI am well. Hope you are. Tell Brother Walt and Brother Elmer the Marine Corps beats working for old man Minch by a mile. Tell them to join up quick before all of the places are filled.I was restless at first because you get to stay in bed till nearly 6 a.m. But I am getting so I like to sleep late. Tell Walt and Elmer all you do before breakfast is smooth your cot, and shine some things. No hogs to slop, feed to pitch, mash to mix, wood to split, fire to lay. Practically nothing.Men got to shave but it is not so bad, there's warm water. Breakfast is strong on trimmings like fruit juice, cereal, eggs, bacon, etc., but kind of weak on chops, potatoes, ham, steak, fried eggplant, pie and other regular food, but tell Walt and Elmer you can always sit by the two city boys that live on coffee. Their food, plus yours, holds you until noon when you get fed again. It's no wonder these city boys can't walk much.We go on 'route marches,' which t

All Over.
So, people always have a negative view on starting over. Wether it be a new relationship, or a new job. I'm starting to think that when you have to start over, maybe it was meant to be that way. When a relationship ends, it means that you haven't found the right one yet. Although, many people will argue that sometimes you let the best things in life slip away, and you don't realize what you've lost until it's gone...and I'm almost certain that it's not always the case. Sometimes, the people who have come and gone have left lasting impressions on you. Wether it be on your heart, or in some cases...your entire soul. They teach you things. How to cope with loss, and how to move on. Moving on is such a scary thing to some...but in all reality it's an adventure! Almost like throwing out old clothes, and then going to buy new ones! You never know what you're gonna' find, but after window shopping for a while...you finally find that perfect pair of shoes, or that shirt that you've been lookin

[still Reeling]
I asked my brother if I was a dating fuck up- but he just reminded me not to alot time, or autoreject and just go case by case.Pretty sound advice.I'm in a -better- but not good mood after talkin to my brother for four hours straight, doing some cases at work independently, and talkin to my nfl Brandon. My Goddaughter is nowCRAWLING! Woo.And I had another paternal dream.Third one this month. This time I had a brounette daughter who broke her leg.I think I drove 90 to the ER.Even in dreams being an amateur stunt driver has its perks.It was a pretty bad break. I was scared. She was scared.Always have really cool, insightful kids in my dreams.My dog has ass scabs, but she's doing better about being outside all day, appetite's returning- disposition sweetening.Maybe I'll get around to some gangsterific antics with Chris this weekend. Dunno, he's on nightshift, I'm on day- roleswitch from last year, but at least he's not calling me at 3 in the morning to talk about anonymous sex (roughly th

Ok So Here's The Happs
9:40pm PST yes I'm back to timing my blogs lol Nothing's been new ... except for one thing. No one knew but I was at the hospital a while ago. I was there overnight. Nothing major to worry about. I went to visit a friend! Well more like an ex friend since I parted ways with that person. Work: DRAMA! DRAMA! DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!! I don't like my supervisor at all. And she didn't grant me my days off. FUCKIN BITCH!!! All i asked for was for my b-day weekend off. (for those who don't know... I have been working on my bday every year for the past 6, and so this one will be 7 grrr)... Relationships: My Love Life doesn't exist :( My sex life doesn't either!!! Any guys wanna help?!?!?!?! j/k But seriously none of them exist. Gee I wonder why? Fun: I've been going to work and that's not fun really. I almost went to the beach this past weekend, but my friend totally cancelled on me, and I know why. Guys: can only bring pain and drama and not much comfort =( Yeah I know

Sdgfas
Alas, my weekend is over...and my work week begins tomorrow. I did a bunch of cleaning this week and gotten through some boxes of junk. Almost done sorting things in the bedroom then I'll work in the other rooms. I also seperate our stuff on the book shelves...Now I have all of mine on one and his on the other. Looks a lot nicer and not so cluttered too. I can't wait for this work weekend to be over...hopefully it will go by fast. Weeeeee!!

Chris Ayala's P.o.v. On Women And Their Issues Part 1: Fat Vs. Thick
INTRODUTION: Hello friends, this is the first time i have ever spoken my mind on this site, but have to address an issue that has been annoying me for some time. In various jobs I have had wheather corporate, bartending, personal training, or others I have had to hear the mouth of women and their issues. The issues tend to vary based on situations such as weight, appearance, relationships, personal self worth, etc . I am taking this opportunity to express my opinion and feelings about these situations. I am in NO WAY degregating or critizing ANY WOMAN that this may apply to, so please do not be offended. It is not my intent to insult anyone, but just to give my point of view, and anyone who reads this can respond to it and give me there feedback. I welcome everyone to read and respond to this and give their opinion as well. Once again I am basing this soley on my life experiences, and IS JUST MY POINT OF VIEW. This week I am going to address the issue with women and their weight. PAR

*lost In The Crowd
Have you ever felt numbOr incompleteLike all the goals you setYou'll never meetHow it will be when you're not aroundHow happy you'll make The people you've let downOr if it's all a phaseIf you'll ever winBounce back from all the timesThat you gave inI've got an addictionThat can't be curedSo I sit and ventI tell you with wordsI'm only humanAnd I make mistakesHow much moreUntil one guy breaksI'm not trying to bring you downI'm telling you how it isJust thinking out loudJust another faceLost in the crowd

*there's A Perfectly Good Explaination
My chest is achingMy heart is on the floorI've given up on everythingYet you still want moreMy throat is still bleedingFrom the screams that I've madeYou've turned your back on meNeglecting all that I gaveThere's a distant look in my eyesGod gave up on meWhy shouldn't I?

How I'm Feeling
I'm so tired of people not doing what they say they going to do and so tired of friends not being there when they say they going to be. I honestly feel like I'm alone here and I have no one here with me. I fucking hate this place even the people I cared about the most have let me down and you sir know who I'm talking too. You of all people know that I love you and your opinion mattters to me but apparently because of your new girl I mean nothing to you and it angers me. I try to talk to you and all you can say is what am I suppose to do? Be a fucking friend you jackass I tell you I have no where to go and you say what am I suppose to do fuck you stick your head further up her ass and go fuck yourself. Damn I never trusted anyone and I trusted you and you broke that trust and love. You don't care if you did you would say more than that and you would try to stop me from moving. You were all I had to hold onto and now I have nothing enjoy your girl and when you get hurt guess what I won't

Should Lounges Have Theme Nights
My lounge Owner and i are kicking around the ideal of having a theme night .This mean going back in time .. Playing oldskool music ... We are wondering if this is a good idea?? We are at Royal Dragon.

Referals Pls Help
LAPANTARA AND WHY IS THERE AIR NEEDS REFERALLS CAN WE HELP THEM OUT AND I WILL PAY 100 THOU FOR EACH ONE WHEN THEY JOIN SB ME COMEON YOU KNOW HOW I AM I LOVE TO HELP HAVE HELPED ALOT LEVEL LETS HELP THESE 2 OUT PM ME WITH THE REFERALS SENT TY

This Morning
At 7.10am I got on the road as I normally do. I drove up the street, along the road, along the other road then onto the highway where I proceeded to accelerate to a mere 74mph. This was in a 65mph zone, splendid! Remember the 9 and your fine rule an life will be great. However whilst driving west on my 9 miles stretch on the highway this Friday morning, on a not very busy highway AWAY from the NYC direction at 7.10am, about 2 miles in as if from no where a vehicle (one I can only describe as the Chevrolet Washing Machine model or at least their smallest compact with what must be a washing machine motor as an engine) decides to pull right in behind me to the point of where they nearly hit me. I looked in the rearview window and saw that the driver was no more than 19yrs old and gave them the old WTF was that look. This went unnoticed. They then, when I didnt move over within 2 seconds to allow them to pass while being 1ft behind me travelling 74mph (I was on cruise it hadnt changed), d

Blueberries Offer Hope For Hep C
Blueberries Offer Hope for Hepatitis CAugust 13, 2009 Japanese researchers have found evidence that an extract from blueberry leaves hinders Hepatitis C viral replication. Blueberry supplement could help treat hepatitis CAugust 8, Charlotte Health and Happiness Examiner Kathleen Blanchard RN Results of a new and promising study show that a supplement made from blueberry leaves could help treat hepatitis C. Researchers from Japan found that beneficial chemicals in blueberry leaves can stop replication of the hepatitis C virus. So far, treatment of hepatitis C yields standard results that are fairly successful, but with no guarantees. The hepatitis virus can lead to cirrhosis of the liver and liver cancer. Hepatitis C, spread from dirty needles, at unsanitary tatto parlors, and from body fluids, affects 200 million individuals worldwide. Researchers at the University of Miyazaki and elsewhere in Japan found that a particular type of blueberry leaf shows much promise for treatment of

Bored
I was just wondering.Are there any Guys out-there that are:Between ages of 25 and 35 years old !Between 5'0" inches and 6'9" inches Tall !Between 125 lbs and 205 lbs !Are natural Red-Head, Blond, or Brunet.Either White, Mexican, or Pacific-islander.Body-Type Slim, Thin, Fit and/or In-Shape.DRINKS-socially and like to sit and talk.Listens to Alturnative, Rock, Techno or Punk-Rock music.Is ( Not ) a hateful Jack-Ass.lives with-in 10 miles of my location... lol... No-Drinking-&-Driving.Girlfriends are always welcomed to tag-along.I just need a drinking buddy that fits (Matches) the info above. My good friends moved and or PCS-ed, lol

Good Idea?
Headin back to Jim Beam to start work again Monday. Should I be happy? Good question. Love workin hard, but as a recovering alchoholic, this could like, destroy my hard work. I haven't had a drink in like..2 days! Hrm..nah. I dun have a alchohol problem. I got it all under control, heh ;)

Wandering Around Nude
WELLINGTON (Reuters) - An extremely drunk, naked man lost his way at a New Zealand hotel and ended up sleeping in the wrong room, forcing its female occupant to hide in the bathroom, local media reported. The 29 year-old Australian man had gone back the hotel in the resort town of Queenstown with a woman, but got up in the night and wandered into a bedroom where a couple were sleeping. "He was a bit surprised that there were two people in his room and he was butt naked," Sergeant Steve Watt of Queenstown police told the Southland Times. As the intruder slept, the startled woman took refuge in the bathroom as her husband summoned hotel staff. The man, who could not remember whom he had been with nor what room he had been in, and had no clothes or wallet.Police gave him a ride home clad in a hotel bathrobe, but let him off after the guests and hotel decided not to press charges. "It was far too funny," said Watt.

Thomas Jefferson To William Stephens Smith, 1787
"The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time with the blood of patriots and tyrants. ... God forbid we should ever be twenty years without such a rebellion; what country can preserve its liberties if their rulers are not warned from time to time that their people preserve the spirit of resistance? Let them take arms." -- Thomas Jefferson to William Stephens Smith, 1787

Thomas Jefferson
"The two enemies of the people are criminals and government, so let us tie the second down with the chains of the Constitution so the second will not become the legalized version of the first."-- Thomas Jefferson

Mark Twain
"The government is merely a servant -- merely a temporary servant; it cannot be its prerogative to determine what is right and what is wrong, and decide who is a patriot and who isn't. Its function is to obey orders, not originate them..." -- Mark Twain

Thomas Jefferson: Note In Tracy's "political Economy," 1816.
"To take from one because it is thought that his own industry and that of his father's has acquired too much, in order to spare to others, who, or whose fathers have not exercised equal industry and skill, is to violate arbitrarily the first principle of association--the guarantee to every one of a free exercise of his industry and the fruits acquired by it." -- Thomas Jefferson: Note in Tracy's "Political Economy," 1816.

David Crockett, U.s. Congressman (1827-1835)
"We have rights, as individuals, to give as much of our own money as we please to charity; but as members of Congress we have no right so to appropriate a dollar of public money." -- David Crockett, U.S. Congressman (1827-1835)

John Adams
"The moment the idea is admitted into society that Property is not as sacred as the laws of God, and that there is not a force of law and public justice to protect it, anarchy and tyranny commence." -- John Adams

James Madison, National Gazzette, 1792
"As a man is said to have a right to his property, he may be equally said to have a property in his rights. Where an excess of power prevails, property of no sort is duly respected. No man is safe in his opinions, his person, his faculties, or his possessions." -- James Madison, National Gazzette, 1792

Thomas Jefferson: 1st Inaugural, 1801
"Bear in mind this sacred principle, that though the will of the majority is in all cases to prevail, that will, to be rightful, must be reasonable; that the minority possess their equal rights, which equal laws must protect, and to violate would be oppression." -- Thomas Jefferson: 1st Inaugural, 1801

Daniel Webster, June 1, 1837
"...There is no nation on earth powerful enough to accomplish our overthrow. ... Our destruction, should it come at all, will be from another quarter. From the inattention of the people to the concerns of their government, from their carelessness and negligence, I must confess that I do apprehend some danger. I fear that they may place too implicit a confidence in their public servants, and fail properly to scrutinize their conduct; that in this way they may be made the dupes of designing men, and become the instruments of their own undoing." -- Daniel Webster, June 1, 1837

Thomas Jefferson To Edward Carrington, 1787
"If once [the people] become inattentive to the public affairs, you and I, and Congress and Assemblies, Judges and Governors, shall all become wolves. It seems to be the law of our general nature, in spite of individual exceptions." -- Thomas Jefferson to Edward Carrington, 1787

James Bovard In No One Deserves The Power
"We are asking the wrong question. The issue is not who should be trusted with all the power of the Presidency. Instead, we must ask how much power any candidate can be trusted with." -- James Bovard in No One Deserves the Power

Justice Louis Brandeis,1928
"Experience should teach us to be most on our guard to protect liberty when the government's purposes are beneficent. Men born to freedom are naturally alert to repel invasion of their liberty by evil-minded rulers. The greatest dangers to liberty lurk in insidious encroachment by men of zeal, well-meaning but without understanding." -- Justice Louis Brandeis,1928

Harry Browne
"The coercive power of government is always a beacon to those who want to dominate others -- summoning the worst dregs of society to Washington to use that power to impose their will upon others." -- Harry Browne

Danzig - Thirteen
Bad luck wind been blowin' on my backI was born to bring trouble wherever I'm atWith the number '13' tattooed on my neckThat ink starts to itchBlack gon' turn to redI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngGot a long line of heartacheI carry it wellThe list of lives I've brokenReach from here to HellAnd a bad luck wind been blowin' on my backPray you don't look at meAnd I pray I don't look backI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngFound me with a preacherman confessin' all I doneCatch me with the devil playing 21And a bad luck wind been blowin' on my backI was born to bring trouble wherever I'm atI was born in the soul of miseryAnd I never had me a nameThey just give me a number when I was youngWhen I was youngWhen I was youngWhen I was young

*drama*
I hate it when I tell someone something... trusting them not to go run their mouth... and all it does is cause drama. Apparently I can't say a fkn thing without some people opening their traps... so this is my new saying to E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E with ONE exception: KISS MY FKN ASS... I am so tired of this shit. Sad part is... I knew from the beginning that you were nothing but trouble. FKN fake ass friends... NOW HAVE A FK-TASTIC DAY B*TCHES!

Slipknot - Snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence, and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hateI don't deserve to have you…My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn't face a life without your lightBut all of that was ripped apart… when you refused to fightSo save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.I never claimed to be a Saint…My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you goSo Break Yourself Against My

Slipknot - Child Of Burning Time
Child of burning timeThe child of burning timeMy only consolation is all liesThe apex of my consequence is dying here tonightWinter has returned and it always looks like rainI cant remember anything...anythingInside the absolution is to comeAnd appetites are bittersweet I think I'm coming homeA chance to give up Avarice has marked my one regretThe child of burning time has gone, he hasn't come back, he hasn't come back yetBefore I tell my story please consider who I amI missed my window years ago, I'm doing all I canA tragedy is commonplace but in the end they go awayA skin is still the only stain I'm left to wear in shameAnd I cut my need into my heart, I tear it all apartI beg you burn me away, I won't become your hero just to fight the life I savedBurn me away, I won't give up tommorow just to lose it all todayI burn awayI burn awayI burn awayI burn awayMy isolation is my courseThe effect it has on life itself is a cancer on its sourceI rue the moments spent between the fetish and t

Thomas Sowell
"So many idealistic political movements for a better world have ended in mass-murdering dictatorships. Giving leaders enough power to create 'social justice' is giving them enough power to destroy all justice, all freedom, and all human dignity." -- Thomas Sowell

Poems && Quotes I Found While I Was Thinking Of Him
**When I turned the corner,I saw you down the way.I smiled and you waved.My heart melted,Just watching you look at me.Someone called and you turned away,But I’ll keep on looking,I’ll keep on dreaming of the day,When you really seeThat I don’t want a wave, a nod.I want to feel your breath on my neck,Your hands in mine.I want to see your eyes looking at meWith the love I feel for you.** **What he doesn't knowIs that I love him in my heartI knew that he was specialI could tell right from the startWhat he doesn't knowIs that when I close my eyesAll I can see is his imageAs he slowly passes byWhat he doesn’t knowIs that I remember every wordEvery single thing he saysEverything I've heardWhat he doesn't knowIs that I dream of him at nightAnd what I really long for,Is for him to be in my sightWhat he doesn't knowIs that I long for him to sayJust one single wordAnything, so I can stayWhat he doesn't knowIs that I treasure all the timeEvery minute that I’m w

John Stuart Mill, On Liberty
"If mankind minus one, were of one opinion, and only one person were of the contrary opinion, mankind would be no more justified in silencing that one person, than he, if he had the power, would be justified in silencing mankind." -- John Stuart Mill, On Liberty

Absinthe
My soul is dying of thirstI drink you in and then bring you to my lips.You are absinthe - sugar melted over 140 proof inspiration.Intoxicated by youI am not haunted by visions of skulls and deathnor by grotesque masks best left for carnivaleIntoxicated by you I see visions of mornings spent whispering about the meaning of lifewith legs and arms intertwined.Intoxicated by youI see visions of passionate debates about origins and causationover steaming cups of coffee.Intoxicated by youI see visions of souls exposed, secrets shared, hearts opened widewhile walking through the woods.As soon as my vision quest is completeyou become to me cool clean waterand my heart and soul are thirsty no more.

Alan Keyes
"Do we really think that a government-dominated education is going to produce citizens capable of dominating their government, as the education of a truly vigilant self-governing people requires?" -- Alan Keyes

Active Ingredients In Marijuana Found To Spread And Prolong Pain
ScienceDaily (Aug. 14, 2009) — Imagine that you're working on your back porch, hammering in a nail. Suddenly you slip and hit your thumb instead — hard. The pain is incredibly intense, but it only lasts a moment. After a few seconds (and a few unprintable words) you're ready to start hammering again. How can such severe pain vanish so quickly? And why is it that other kinds of equally terrible pain refuse to go away, and instead torment their victims for years? University of Texas Medical Branch at Galveston researchers think they've found at least part of the answer—and believe it or not, it's in a group of compounds that includes the active ingredients in marijuana, the cannabinoids. Interestingly enough, given recent interest in the medical use of marijuana for pain relief, experiments with rodents and humans described in a paper published in the current issue of Science suggest these "endocannabinoids," which are made within the human body, can actually am

This Song Is Deadicated To Someone They Know Who They Are Now This Is How They Make Me Feel :(
Aaliyah The One I Gave My Heart To How could the one I gave my heart tobreak my heart so badHow could the one who made me happymake me feel so sadWon't somebody tell me so I can understandIf you love me how could you hurt me like thatHow could the one I gave my world tothrow my world awayHow could the one who said I Love Yousay the things you sayHow could the one I was so true tojust tell me liesHow could the one I gave my heart tobreak this heart of minetell meHow could you be so cold to mewhen I gave you everythingAll my love, All I had insideHow could you just walk out the doorHow could you not love me anymoreI thought we had foreverI can't understandHow could the one I shared my dreams withtake my dreams from meHow could the love that brought such pleasurebring such miseryWon't somebody tell mesomebody tell mesomebody tell me pleaseIf you love meHow could you do that to metell meHow could you just walk out the doorHow could you not love me anymoreI thought we had foreverI can't

William G. Hartwell
"If your most basic right is the right to life, then it seems obvious to me that you have the right to defend your life. Guns are, in this century, the most effective means of doing so - so effective that every genocide has only been carried out against victims who were disarmed by their governments." -- William G. Hartwell

Highschool Reunion...
I made rolls, of the cinnamon variety. I use cinnamon rolls as a sort of… well, anxiety calming drug. I don’t pop pills, I definitely pop cinnamon rolls. See… there was this thing invented a good long while ago called the 10 Year Class Reunion. It’s where you get together with all the people that made fun of you during your painfully awkward teenage years. Yea. Why? Why do I have to do this? Can’t we all just become friends on Facebook and twitter and consider ourselves properly reunited!? Seriously. The future is now! Since I think I’m going to gracefully bow out of the reunion festivities, here’s the CliffsNotes of what I might have said to my old classmates. Hi. Yea, it’s me C. I sat behind you in.. a bunch of classes probably. Here’s the update. I went to college. I read a lot of books. I have almost graduated. I traveled around some. I got married didnt get pregnant yet. Yea.. I’m prettier now, b

John Locke, 1690
"Whenever the legislators endeavor to take away and destroy the property of the people, or to reduce them to slavery under arbitrary power, they put themselves into a state of war with the people, who are thereupon absolved from any further obedience." -- John Locke, 1690

Benjamin Franklin
"There is scarcely a king in a hundred who would not, if he could, follow the example of Pharaoh, get first all the people's money, then all their lands and then make them and their children servants forever." -- Benjamin Franklin

Lover I Don't Have To Love...
I picked you out of a crowd and talked to you I said I liked your shoes You said, "Thanks, can I follow you?" So it's up the stairs and out of view No prying eyes I poured some wine I asked your name, you asked the time Now it's two o'clock The club is closed We're up the block Your hands on me; Pressing hard against your jeans Your tongue in my mouth, trying to keep the words from coming out You didn't care to know who else may have been you before I want a lover I don't have to love I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck Where's the kid with the chemicals? I thought he said to meet him here but I'm not sure I've got the money if you've got the time You said it feels good I said, "I'll give it a try." Then my mind went dark We both forgot where your car was parked Let's just take the train I'll meet up with the band in the morning Bad actors with bad habits Some sad singers they just play tragic And the phone's ringing and the van's leaving Let's just keep touching; let's jus

Chain Letters Wtf!!!
I don't whats up with all the chain letters as of late that is why i hate giving out my email. Once i sent this out all that junk stopped coming .. so if you get these please feel free to pass it on.... Hello, for you that don’t know my name is Morphy, I am suffering from rare and deadly diseases, a suck ass job, lack of sexual activity, fear of being kidnapped and executed by anal electrocution, and guilt for not sending out 90 billion fucking forwards chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe that if you send them, they will be handsomely rewarded by MicroShit. Or that a poor 6-year-old girl in Arkansas with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her to a traveling freak show. Do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you, and everyone to whom you send "his" email, $1000? How fuckin stupid are we? " Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by

Not Good Enough
Was I not good enough for you? Or was it all just a lie? Another clever deception That you gave me eye to eye? Such beautiful things that you say Such pretty words that you gave Oh, such an exquisite heartbreak That I will take to my grave

I Dnt Knw!
im a slave to my mind,i am a slave to the daily grind,no matter hw hard i catch up i am behind,luv is what i look for but i never find,my heart makes my soul blind,there is noone left of my kind,i am lonely,i am the only,who wears my heart on the outside,my feelings is hard to hide,i have had a fucked up life,i relieve my emotional pain with a knife,noone understands hw i feel,i am a open heart needing sum1 to steal,my heart to help me feel sumthing real and true,someone to help me when i am dwn and blue,someone to be my only one,the one i would what for until there is no sun,in the sky!~meow~

Cdc Public Discussion Meetings
The CDC has announced “public discussion” meetings on the coming flu pandemic this autumn or winter. “The CDC is asking for public discussion, deliberation and input as the agency considers whether to simply make vaccines available to those seeking immunization, to promote vaccination to those most at risk or to implement a widespread immunization program,” the announcement explains. “Space is limited. Registration is required for participation and you must be able to attend the meeting for the entire day.” “The CDC will host 10 public engagement meetings to receive input on whether the nation’s vaccination plan should be a giant, comprehensive effort or one of a more modest scale,” reports HC Pro. “Informed citizens are being recruited through health departments and civic groups for meetings.” It is critical we have a presence at these “meetings.” Here are the times and places: Vincennes, Indiana, Sa

R.i.p Baby Crystal And Her Possible Siblings...
December 17th, 2004 a baby was found on the side of the road dead, naked and frozen in a garbage bag. December 20th the autopsy declared that this innocent infant was born alive and full term and 7lbs , 3 oz. and only 191/2 inches long. Death to be said caused by exposure of weather, no trauma was found involved to Baby Crystal. Police and investigator did a lot of searching and looking for clues, interviewing people whom lived in the area but nothing came up. Also, the baby has cocaine in her system as well as positive for Hepatitis B.Apparently investigators were still hard at work quietly for almost 5 years when the mother was finally found and arrested a August 5th, 2009 in Kansas then was extradited back here to Rockford, IL. Timeline for her arrest is as follows; October 2008: Stockton fails to submit a blood, tissue or saliva specimen for DNA testing within 45 days of her plea as ordered by the court.December 2008: Stockton refuses to submit to a DNA test as directed by the Winn

Phenomenal Woman
Pretty women wonder where my secret liesI'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's sizeBut when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth, The swing of my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them, They say they still can't see. I say It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I d

To The Bat Tank!
So yea, ever have one of those days(and I suppose I'm speaking to all enlisted people here), where you run into something that makes you say fuck this civilian shit. I'm glad I'm in the fucking army(or what ever service you're in)? Either way I'm havin one of those momenets. I could be an army snob and say I'm a 19Kilo and leave the rest of you to guessing, but I'm not that big of a dick at the moment. Big fancy way of saying I run Abrams tanks. *Takes a shot* Here's to the Army kids!

Leftover Crack Lyrics To Burn Them Prisons
A lie i once heard: "we're innocent until proved guilty" But the truth is absurd We're poor until proved rich And the scales of justice are fixed by lying pigs A plot of human terror unfolds behind the precinct door To cage all the minorities, the immigrants and poor Next they'll hunt the handicapped, disabled blind and deaf And what will all these piggies do, ha! when there's no one left Swat police in riot gear are bombing us tonight An all our civil liberties will die by morning's light While crooked politicians lie and rig the ballot book We whitewash fake democracy and paint another coat We'll keep you here to stay; you'll never get away Your property ain't mine, until your dying day We'll crush your soul inside; there is no easy ride The hotel's never free and the rooms are always occupied Nice of you to join us welcome to the prison age Financial quest for new frontiers to build a bigger cage Surplus populations growing all around the world Capital invests quick to cage the

Your My Perfect
Dreams come true because of youyour my perfect sunshine timefrom climbing trees to playing with skies your my perfectfrom laughter to the talk about our futureyour my perfectmy sole matewild and crazy statemy grateful baby loveso humblemy perfectwe've grown so muchour love so strongand always hit tin bongstogether foreverwhat ever we want to do we dowere ever we want to go we gowhat ever we want we getWere Engels of the skyand the Owls eye your my perfect

[monkey Play In The Jungle]
Has the last person you kissed ever taken your shirt off?Yup- also not a big deal. Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?*shrugs* I was in one a month ago, maybe? If I get to pursue cute dark skinned girl across the cubehall. Do you cry easily?Probably. I did cry during Transformers >> Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?Promabably but I can't recall. Are you excited for anything?DUDE! I'm gettin me fuckin PSP Tuesday. Where was your profile picture taken?In front of my bedroom closet mirror. Self portrait is a bitch. What should you be doing right now?You're lookin at it, its my day off I getta do whatever the fuck I want. How many tattoos do you have?Zero... awww... I express myself other ways *pat pat pat* Do you have any drugs in your bedroom?... *checks* ... no. What is something that can easily kill your mood?Someone's incessent whining after I've reassured them- basically doing anything three times in a row

From Ideas To Institutions
We all want to be a part of something. Those like-minded individuals, usually 2-4, who come up with something amazing that works well for them.. Those are the idea makers. But the idea grows. More people get involved. Pretty soon, the idea becomes an institution. What was once mutually beneficial to everyone is now choc-ful of rules, regulations, honor committees, etc. The idea gets forgotten. I have a friend who went to a prestigious women's college. She was very proud of this. She was proud of the unity there, being a part of something. She loved the idea, and loved the institution that the ideas grew to be. But eventually, as with all institutions, she got fucked by the rules and regulations and honor committees and inquiry boards and all of that bullshit that eventually destroyed the ideas the institution was founded on. What originally was to be made as a mutually beneficial group turned into yet another beaurocracy. It's that kind of thing that has kept me from eve

Economy. Please Read And Comment!
Read this article.http:../../..findarticles...com/..p/..articles/..mi_..m1272/..is_..n2622_..v125/..ai_19217175/I would love to live in the world of the author that wrote that. While the ideas and strategies he is suggesting would do wonders for our economy, the sad reality is that there just arent enough people in this country that have hope that things can change and that, by the constitution and laws our forefathers founded this county on, they have the power to make it happen. Unfortunately I myself believe that the only true way that any of that could possibly come to pass is if America's citizen's rise up and force them to happen. Voting apparently is no longer enough, because not enough people believe their votes count for anything. And honestly, with the way our country is swimming in corruption and greed, I personally can't say I blame them. I've never been one for extremist ideas such as anarchy because I believe that most humans are too stupid and irresponsible to rule thems

Appetite For Deception Rocks The Refectory!
Hello my friends! Have ya missed me? lol Last night, at the Refectory in Portland, Gun's and Roses premier tribute band, Appetite for Deception rocked the house down! 105 the Brew was on hand to give away swag and concert tickets and to keep the party going! I saw some people I haven't seen in over a year! It was good to see old music biz friends. Appetite for Deception never lets the crowd down. They come out rockin and don't let up. I had a great time. Thank you to the boys of AFD. You always rock my world!Rock on baby!!Si

A Year Ago
"A Year Ago Today"A year ago todayI’m little bit strongerI can't believe what happenedA year ago todayAnd I just can't forget about itYou mean every thing to meYou went awayA year ago todayAnother year gone byOh the tears still runLife seemed so unkindA year ago todayAnd I just can't understand itAnd I don't think I ever willYou went awayA year ago todayAnd how many times have I questioned myselfWhat more could I doI’ve gotta pick myself up,Take another lookAnd dust myself off cause life's too short,I'll say it to myself and I'll say it againYour Love is with inAnd though we're so far apartYou're forever in my heartA year ago todayI’m a little bit strongerOn this anniversaryYou're watching over meAnd keeping me safeAnd warm with yourKind words in my heartYou went awayA year ago todayI miss you so muchYour always on my mindAnd in my heartR.I.P. Dad I love you with all my heart.

I Don't Write Them, I Just Share...
FINALLY, SOMEONE'S CLEARED THIS UP For centuries, Hindu women have worn a dot on their foreheads. Most of us have naively thought this was connected with tradition or religion, but the Indian Embassy in Washington , D.C. , has recently revealed the true story. When a Hindu woman gets married, she brings a dowry into the union. On her wedding night, the husband scratches off the dot to see whether he's won a convenience store, a gas station, a donut shop, a taxi cab or a motel in America. If nothing is there, he must remain in India to answer telephones and provide us with technical support.

Puppet
Origami For Your Penis The koki is a little paper costume or adornment that wraps the penis in preparation for him to offer his special gift to his lover. Kokigami is the practise of wearing a Koki to enter ‘The Play’ or practise of interactive theatrical presentation. Some men like to put their koki on themselves and surprise their lovers, but many find their partner’s involvement in this delicate stage helps overcome any initial awkwardness. This plays an important role in gift giving, where it is considered most discourteous to pass an unwrapped, unconcealed gift to another. In the past, Japanese men of the upper classes would wrap their penises in layers of cloth before going to bed with their wives and mistresses. This was because the more complex a man could make his wrapping, the longer his wife might take to unwrap that “gift”—thereby prolonging the pleasure.

Jager Time
Tonight is the first night in over a month that I'm going to a decent party. I can't wait to see how this goes :) Nothin but bombs and beer. I haven't "busted a move" in quite some time, so here comes the jager!

Job Update
SO I'm very excited. I FINNALLY got a call back from one of my applications. Walmart called me looking for a cashier. I know its not glamorous but its better then nothing. Unfortunately the assistant manager wasn't in when I called. But thats ok.I've an interview comming up.I've never not gotten a job that I was called in for. So I think I got it.

Prayers Needed Please
My 14yr old son has to see a lung specialist on Oct 8 ....I need lots of prayers for him that whatever is wrong with him can be treated easily..his regular dr did exrays on him and they found some sort of black cloudy film over his lungs....(he was dead for the first 10-15 min when he was born) so he is a real miracle for us.

General
question : ? why does people spend every day foulishly by trying to get everything done in one day instead of doing it at alittle a time nd not taking time out for thier family or their self because is like money once its spent ,its gone for ever

Leather And Lace
I saw her from afar, her dark skin and smoky eyes; for those moments between breath times does fly. For I figured she would lose me in the fight; for I am one among many and wish as i might. She spoke as in code and I would not despair; I had this woman as a farmer leads a mare. Her pulse throbed as I led her away; and used my might to fight the fray. Against the car I pressed her fast; the fragrance of rose caused my lust to mast. Her shirt slipped afar and i gasped one last breath; buttons flew free and caused my death. She grabbed me hard and held my mace; as I slipped to other worlds of leather and lace.

Thank You All
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Who Wants 13 Million Fubucks?
Who wants 13 million fubucks,100 11's for a week, to stay shitfaced for a week, a SFW personalized photo, a daily gift of my choice, and a link on my profile? If that is YOU, then contact me! I am looking for 1 auto 11, and 1 cherry bomb! Wanting to level badly! I am almost to Oracle! Please help friends and family! Click the photo below to go to my profile! *Huggles* Dee*JustMe*

Hemp Fest- Seattle
http://hempfest.org/drupal/node The event spans three Seattle waterfront parks: Elliott Bay Park (North Entrance), Myrtle Edwards Park, and Olympic Sculpture Park (South Entrance). Held the third weekend in August. Hempfest Theme: "A Decade After Prohibition, a Hempen Future"

Agent Rosas
Border Patrol Agent Robert Wimer Rosas United States Department of Homeland Security - Customs and Border Protection - Border PatrolU.S. GovernmentEnd of Watch: Thursday, July 23, 2009 Biographical InfoAge: 30Tour of Duty: 3 yearsBadge Number: C255 Incident DetailsCause of Death: GunfireDate of Incident: Thursday, July 23, 2009Incident Location: CaliforniaWeapon Used: Gun; Unknown typeSuspect Info: At large Border Patrol Agent Robert Rosas was shot and killed while on patrol near Campo, California, at approximately 9:15 pm. He was shot multiple times after exiting his patrol vehicle on the Shockey Truck Trail along the border. Agent Rosas was following a group of suspicious individuals and had radioed for backup from other agents. The group split up before the backup agents arrived at the location and Agent Rosas began to follow one of the smaller groups. The responding agents located him suffering from several gunshot wounds. Three suspects were arrested in San Jose, California t

New Goal :)
Well I'm not dating but everyone tells me I should. I'm rather bored but happy and so I shall start something new. I know some of you have enjoyed the ocassional story or poem over the years. Some know of my erotic writtings or lessons learned writtings. I am now going to do my best to do a writing a day and yes I will warn in the subject what rating it is so I don't pollute the innocent. Feel free to comment in any which way, and keep in mind I tend to burst my thoughts through the key strokes as they bounce through my head. Enjoy a taste of the sweet thoughts at the summit of my mind, a surf through the waves in my hair, or a tip toe through the passionate pastures of pleasure.

2 Dead Boys
One fine day in the middle of the night, Two dead boys* got up to fight, Back to back they faced each other, Drew their swords and shot each other, One was blind and the other couldn't, see So they chose a dummy for a referee. A blind man went to see fair play, A dumb man went to shout "hooray!" A paralysed donkey passing by, Kicked the blind man in the eye, Knocked him through a nine inch wall, Into a dry ditch and drowned them all, A deaf policeman heard the noise, And came to arrest the two dead boys, If you don't believe this story’s true, Ask the blind man he saw it too!

Ode To Makeup Sex
Walking up to his women he smiled with his pearly whites,He looked her in the eyes and sighed with pure delight, Taking her in his arms he held her close and tight,He bent her head back and stared at that beautiful sight, He kissed her deep and grabbed her ass,They fell to the floor knocking over a glass, Rolling on the floor they ripped and pulled, Their clothes flew off as if they were in high school, She got on top and gave a roar,The cock was hers now that she'd won the war, She slipped it in her sweet pussy lips,They shook and shuddered as she lowered her hips, He lifted her up and slapped her ass,As she rode his rod like it would be her last, They tossed and turned as he struggled for power,He pinned her down and she prepared for a shower, The cock was pulled out and was getting stroked hard,She licked her lips as he dropped his guard, The cum flew out pouring each and everywhere,He even shot some up and into her hair, They fell to sleep soon after that,Dreaming of what

So I Was Looking At Your Picture And Thinking About...
How hot your look and how perfect your breasts are. I love the panties you have one, and the color goes great with your body, I can imagine you have deep eyes? Anyways I am imagining you doing a strip tease for me and about to throw your shirt at me. You throw it in my face and as I pull it off I notice you ran and jumped me (pushing me back on the bed). You started to give me deep kisses and slid your hand down my chest and you grab my belt and pull. I give a little groan and you feel my pants immediately fill up with my hidden hardness. You then undo and rip off my belt and quickly rip my cock out and begin to fondle it and my balls. Meanwhile you are still kissing me and I am caressing your sides, ass and chest. After about a minute you bite your lip and look into my eyes and then nibble and lick your way down my body and give a long lick all the way up my shaft. This causes me to shiver and arch my back a bit as you take me into your mouth and give me the most amazing head ever. As

I Miss My Mutt!
*sniffle* i lost my best friend due to the stupid actions of ignorant ppl. Just because of her breed "pit bulls" They arnt all vicious attack dogs hell bent on blood shed and violence. Infact reygan would run from a 6 pound kitty because he would beat her up. i miss you crawling up in my lap right after chow and letting go of nasty stank burps . i miss all of your great doggy greatness that filled my life ,tail wags,licks, cuddles,you would just listen to me talk never judge just happy to be near me and me happy to be near you , how you were the only thing in my life that ever loved me unconditionaly and were willing to sacrifice yourself just to get a pat on the head . I MISS YOU REYGAN "DONT EVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER"

Trust
An invisible chain deep inside made of worry soft to the touch could easily be broken when subjected to trust. When confronted with denial it begins to rust, when facing doubt it turns to dust. So simple the chain when tied to another, but easily swayed and made into a tether. It opens you up and frees you from self awareness, and closes you down into despair and stress. And yet it is something that is a must to have an open mind and be free to trust.

Breed Specific Legislation
Have been fighting this crud for several years now havee seen it not only limited to Pit Bull type dogs but also Dobermans, Rotts, etc. I have owned Pits since I was a child and never had any bad dogs. Wanna make them better get rid of some owners who think the dog makes them tougher. Get rid of the Aholes who own various breeds and all the dogs will benefit. Remember your dog is what you make it. My red nose has been on fundraisers for animal care with hundreds of other dogs around and never raised a hackle. If you are against this type of government control keep in touch with your elected officials.

The Hands That Bind Me
I walk down the hallway sadly not noticing the flashing light above me, I walk slowly towards the bathroom in a daze, open the door, switch on the light and walk in. I stare at the reflection in the mirror. It doesn’t look like me at all, the face is pale and you can see lines of tears from where the person had been crying, hair all over the place and looking like a complete wreck! My hands slide down my breasts, onto the hem of my nightgown, I lift it up over my head and it drops onto the floor. I gently untie my necklace and place it on the bench. Now I am totally bare naked. I turn on the shower, the cold one then hot. I step onto the cold tiles, my nipples go hard and my body shivers. I step into the warmth of the water. The water trickles down my face, onto my breasts, down my tummy and down my warm spot, running down my silky smooth legs. I move my soft hands against my slippery body from my belly up the sides and up to cup my perky breasts. While massaging with one hand, m

Naughty Girl
Daddy slowly pulled his cock from between BabyGirl's lips. A trail of salvia and cum hung from the tip of is dick to her devilish lips."Oh god," moaned BabyGirl, as she tried to regain her breath. She was bent over on all fours and was absently rubbing her pussy lips with her thighs, squeezing the soaked aroused zone. She lifted her right hand and started playing with her swollen clit. Pushing first one finger and then quickly a second into her cunt, her thumb flying over her clit as she tried to bring about another orgasm.Daddy smiled willfully down at the sexy female lying on her knees on his carpet fingering herself. He too was trying to slow down his breathing and gain some kind of control. With a shake of his head he forced his brain to focus and his body into action. He reached down and grabbed BabyGirl, who cried out with loss as her fingers were yanked from her pussy."Oh no you don't," he grabbed both of her hands in one of his."You've been a very naughty girl, and I promised y

Just Something To Get Off My Chest.
It's eating at me like cancerAs each day goes by it get's worse and worseI don't know if she even thinks of meYet I find myself thinking about her Every say's it'll take timeThat we will be friends once it's done and overI don't want that I want her in my life I want.I want to be a familyI want ... her to be my wife.. I want to get alongI want the fights to endI'm tired of being told to do one thingAnd when I do I get yelled atI'm tired of not being herdI tried to be more affectionate an getting dirty looksGetting acused of things I haven't done.I'm tired of hurting and being in tears I just want a Sweet, Affectionate, Nubile, Delicate, Risible, and Amazing.Yet these words will be taken as suger coated lies, just like every thing else I have ever said or told her.So why do I bother cause Im in love and I just figured it. A day late and a dollar short and about as worthless as tits on a boar thats me.Till I met her, does it matter no cause now Im without her and without my child. I just

Tears And Blood
What do you do when the tears won't stop? When your heart cries enough? But your blood won't clot? When your hands won't stop shaking? When your heart's begun to rot? When the blade won't stop quaking? But you can't let it drop? When you just want to scream? But who knows how long you've got? What do you do when the tears won't stop?

Grow The Fuck Up.
I'm really starting to hate girls who like to tease because they think it's funny to make guys frustrated. I'm talking about the self-absorbed "I'm hot, the world should worship me" types. You know the ones. They're the ones you want to slap with a two by four and just keep at it until they learn how to act like a human being for two seconds and actually care about someone besides themselves and their own pathetic little vain existence. They bitch and moan and try to act like life's so unfair because they feel so unloved, but the truth is they'd rather have twenty guys drooling over them from afar than actually be in a serious relationship with anyone. They'll never love anyone else because they're too damned in love with themselves. Maybe I'm just whining. Maybe I'm just venting. But some chicks need to grow the fuck up. Life doesn't buy you a goddamed Porsche for your sweet 16. It tosses you the sledgehammer the second you step foot outside of your parent's mansion. So

Heals All Wounds
I want you, I need you Then, you left me alone again You hurt me, you broke me, But, I am coming back again It isn't, my fault that My, demons see the light of day It's what you, did to me, DAMN, you for MAKING ME THIS WAY And they say, that time will Make my pain go away But all, I ever wanted Was a way to make you stay I breathe you, I taste you Then, I feel you slip away Now I must, remind you That, you can't simply walk away With what you, did to me So, I will pay you back some day You strike me, you curse me Then, you just THROW IT ALL AWAY And they say, that time will Make my pain go away But all, I ever wanted Was a way to make you stay... [repeat x3] I loved you but You burned me then Saw my demons So you broke me I touch you but You don't feel me Why can't I just Make you love me?? And they say, that TIME WILL Make my pain go away But all, I ever WANTED Was a way to make you stay And they SAY, that TIME WILL Make MY pain go

Broken
Broken I lay in bed, with a surrounding fearWhen i close my eyes, I can feel it draw near What looms in the dark, I do not know But when it is light, it does not show Deception, hurt, and years of pain It consumes me like, a never ending rain It blankets my body, heart, and soul What will come next, how will it unfold I prepare for the worst, and hope for the best Soon it will be here, then i will know the rest I fight through each day, with all of my heart Now i realise, it has torn me apart The final strands, and nerves, of a tattered man I dont know how, much more i can stand I lay in bed, with a surrounding fear When i close my eyes, I can feel it draw near.......

Until I Die
Hey, another day goes by And I'm, still thinking 'bout you and I And oh, if there's one thing I miss It's oh, the sweet taste of your lips... God, the days just seem so long But somehow, I've gotta learn to be strong Yet I, wish I could turn back the clock And I, wish I could make this PAIN stop! 'Cause, I had you I had you But then I fucked it all up Yeah, I lost you I lost you And I'll never make that up Did it hurt, when you fell from on high? Such a sin, to make an angel cry But I, will always see you through Because I, gave my word to you... Girl, I never meant to hurt you Poor girl, you'll never know how I love you I'm sorry, and now I pay for my crimes, but will Love you, until the day I die! 'Cause, I had you I had you But then I it all went wrong Yeah, I lost you I lost you But then I wrote this song And now, another year's gone by, I may have Lost you, but I have got to try, are we Doomed, to never be more than friends, oh this Can't be,

Hurt A Friend
And all I do is sit and think.....Only about you without a blinkThe days pass and the nights yearnFrom all that has happened I wish I could learnThat life isn't always what you desireIt leaves you lost in flames of fireYou see your day and see it throughKnowing what I'm writing is all so trueYou ignore the meaning of all of thisThinking that I’m being childishI've tried to ignore I've tried to forgetBut all I see is the first time we metI don't know why this happened to meMaybe it's a dream, pinch me and seeAll I request is a closing chapterMeet me for 5 don't let me wonderAll I want is for you to reflect onWhether I lie and this is for funHopefully you'll find the answer is noThat this for me isn't a showDon't forget the moments we hadThe day you left I was sad

I Is The Queen!!!
You are Fayleen, the Queen of the trailer park. Trailer trash children want to be just like you. You know how to get what you want, just by flirting. You ...are the envy of all the trailer park wives. The wives hate you because as hard as they try, they will never live up to your standards. You are the best at what you do. You can hold a baby on your hip, have a cigarette in your mouth, talk on the phone, all while making the best Frito Pie any man has ever tasted.. LMFAO!!!!

A Reason To Smile
How can one smile such sweet smiles, When one is so saddened by sorrows for miles, How can I smile the same smiles, When life brings me nothing but tears, I wondered for so long, What reason you had to smile that long, To keep smiling though troubles come, And still remain sweet and silently overcome, It's such a mystery to me, Your smiles from heaven with glee, I adore and yet envy thee, But I'd rather you smile those at me, I feel happy when I see you smile, Even if I'm sad and lonely, Your smiles bring me somewhere, I don't even know where, But it was you, You gave me the reason to smile, To smile with no reason, To smile for a smile, I guess life is just like that, We need not a reason to smile, For a smile is the reason itself, To rejoice and open-heartedly give thanks, I learned to smile because of you, Because your smiles bring me joy when blue, It proves how well and powerful, A simple sweet smile can become so beautiful, Smile for the sake of a smile, Smile for the sake of

Sweet Slumber
Legs and arms entwinedGently caressing Your shoulder as my pillowSyncopated breaths so softDrifting to sleepSkin on skin Vanilla and caramel Bodies warming each otherCurled like spoonsWrapped in your embraceA nuzzle to the neckSweet slumber Just you and I

Swine Flu Inspires New Video Game
http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/E/EU_... Since swine flu first emerged in April, it has sparked panic, vaccine production and now, a video game. In an effort to further raise awareness, Dutch researchers have created a game that challenges players to control a new pandemic. "It is actually what is happening now, what is happening in the real world," said Albert Osterhaus, head of virology at the Erasmus Medical Center, who designed "The Great Flu" game with colleagues. The game can only be played online at http://www.thegreatflu.com and it is free. A World Health Organization spokesman said Monday the agency was not familiar with the game and had not had time to play it. WHO has reported nearly 178,000 cases of swine flu including 1,462 deaths worldwide, though those numbers are believed to be a gross underestimate of the actual caseload, since hard-hit countries no longer test all cases with flu-like symptoms. As the virus has spread worldwide, countries have t

Freedom And A New Life
Freedom started today... no more pain and neglect you wanted her and me too cant have it both ways i loved u as i have loved no other the pain will ease in time the loneliness i can handle the cheating i cant i hope you will be happy with her i hope she is good to you cause it ruined our marriage a marriage i thought was for life now i know different but you made your choice and im making mine freedom from the pain, freedom from the neglect just freedom So today is the start, i wont feel the pain today

Hunting
Dave was so excited to be going bear hunting. He spotted a small brown bear and shot it. Then there was a tap on his shoulder, and he turned around to see a big black bear. The black bear said "You've got two choices. I either maul you to death or we have sex."Dave decided to bend over. Even though he felt sore for two weeks, Dave soon recovered and vowed revenge. He headed out on another trip where he found the black bear and shot it. There was another tap on his shoulder. This time a huge grizzly bear stood right next to him. The grizzly said "That was a huge mistake, Dave. You've got two choices. Either I maul you to death or we have rough sex."Again, Dave thought it was better to comply. Although he survived, it would take several months before Dave finally recovered.Outraged, he headed back to the woods, managed to track down the grizzly and shot it. He felt sweet revenge, but then there was a tap on his shoulder. He turned around to find a giant polar bear standing there. The pol

Politics As Usual
You know...I like Obama. I voted for him, and I actually thought things were going to change. With the Democratic majority they should have been able to pass any legislation that they wanted. Health Care, Foreign policy, The economy... Instead we have the same gridlock on the exact same problems that has faced this nation for decades. We vote for two different parties, but the fact is that we have had, philosophically, the same exact government since Nixon. Look back before Nixon. We had strong leaders...Eisenhower, Johnson, Kennedy, FDR. It doesen't matter if you agree with them or not, the fact is that they were Leaders, with IDEAS and principals. Then came Nixon...The conservatives love Nixon but guess what? Some of the USA's most Liberal programs came from his administration. Head Start, Education and Job Training, Trade agreements with Communist countries, all flourished under Nixon. Carters policies, regardless of the conservative hate thrown his way, were far more conservati

Torrid............
Tori had been hooked on cyberspace for six months. Using "Online, USA" had begun as a lark, something to fill her time and an outlet for her need to write. There are so many interesting people out there, she'd reasoned, why not meet a few? And indeed she'd met more than a few. Since she herself had two screen names, she could be anyone she chose to be. Take for example the guy in Seattle with 48 piercings. He knew her as TorridOne. She had told him she was a tattooed sexual submissive. Which was mostly true. Besides, she had laughed, did he really have a subincised penis? Or what about her favorite friend in NJ. A very addictive man who loved women. She spent hours talking to him. Even got a POBox for there special mail. With him she was BlackLace. Often she had contemplated meeting him, wondering if he was really as good as he seemed. Truthfully she didn't really care if they were real or fantasies. She longed to live out, safely and vicariously, all the dark little sexual fantas

Let Me Know
Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute.Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fi

Conspiracy!
Top 10 Wackiest Conspiracy Theories Published on 1/16/2006 Dinosauroid-like Alien Reptiles are dominating the World Christine Fitzgerald, a confidante of Diana, Princess of Wales, claims that Diana told her that the Royal Family were Reptilian aliens, and that they could shapeshift. David Icke's --BBC reporter-- claims that humanity is actually under the control of dinosauroid-like alien reptiles who must consume human blood to maintain their human appearance. "Evidence" goes from Sumerian tablets describing the "Anunnaki" (which he translates as "those who from heaven to earth came"), to the serpent in the Biblical Garden of Eden, to child abuse, fluoridation, and the genealogical connections between the Bush family and the House of Windsor. Icke theorizes that the reptilians came here from the constellation Draco. Like most conspiracy theories, falsification of Icke's hypotheses is nearly impossible, but Icke continues to sell books and give speaking engagements

A Letter To Grandma
I know it’s beautiful where you are hope to see you again soon.Things aren’t so great down here I miss you every day. I’ve been trying so hard to get it right since you been gone just seems like a losing battle. The family is a mess, I don’t see my kids, I hope to see you again soon. Lord I am so tired I hurt so much, I feel out of luck, out of love, out of time. Next month I will be thirty five, no wife, no family ,hope to see you again soon. Each time it rains I know that it is you crying for me, wish you where here to show me the way, hope to see you again soon. I look back and see a trail of broken hearts and dreams, I miss you so much hope to see you again soon. I just need a little help down here, I can’t seem to get it right, don’t know how much longer I can fight. I pray each night for an angel to hold me tight, but each morning I wake there is no hope in sight. I struggle to keep my head on straight, I try to hasten my fait. Don&rsqu

Kisses
I signed my life away to you when we kissed and forever do you have my heart.Touch my lips once again with ur love for my heart yearns for your affection I suffer when I am apart from you and suffer when I am with you .This love is too great to be unnoticed it is to powerful to live with alone, it controls me, controls my mind,controls my heart ;controls the pain I live with day in and day out.The undying fire within me burns inside me,boiling my blood with a heated cold sensation it was ignited when I met you,sizzled when I kissed you and slowly started to die when I lost you.We made a secret bond neither one of us were prepared for,a bond so powerful to be apart from you destroys the spirit within,and to be with you satifies the desire i have to be near you my skin crawls when im apart from you,I feel death creeping upon me in the dead of night when im without you,without your touch,or love.Im dying inside without your love.When we kissed I signed my life away to you,I signed my hear

Serene Drop
I didn't want to tell youbecause I'm not real..In the serene dropyou are the fall and the ripplethe course and the chaos.The peace and the fear.One, twelve, many,and then you realize such things don't really matter.Above below and beyond.The best is a downpour, though a drop can make you melt.The surrender to the fallin that needless multitude of your singularity,In that you are free in your prison.

Yo I Am Pregnant Lmao
2star2: kkRoger Sanford: now whats ur secret2star2: i am pregnant with your babyRoger Sanford: hell nah ur notRoger Sanford: stop trippin2star2: oh now yougonna deny our baby2star2: wtfRoger Sanford: we never had sex so how could u br knocked up with my badyRoger Sanford: baby**2star2: you are just that goodRoger Sanford: ya see here comes the excuses2star2: i will be sure to tell all the ;ladiesRoger Sanford: then ill turn this convercation into a blog hahaha2star2: i can not believe you are gonna deny our babyRoger Sanford: even if u were knocked up with my kid u still couldnt have her2star2: you crushed me2star2: imma cry now2star2: i am pregnant with our baby and you gonna deny itRoger Sanford: u raped me2star2: you mentally enjoyed it2star2: i did not hear any complaintsRoger Sanford: nah i was drunk2star2: omgRoger Sanford: u raped me while i was wasted2star2: aww wow you gonna tell the baby thatRoger Sanford: no when the baby is born i want a dna test2star2: are you vcalling me

Thinking Of You Again..
Wake up rise to my little world I left the T.v on I can't sleep again.... so I look to get it on track as soon as the morning what the hell is wrong with this situation get me thinking of you again.. today was supposed to be the last time I thought of you and Im alone an on the edge of that grey blue water seemed like everything else to late its going to be goodbye to our love and all that lies alone along the edge of that lonely water took a chance threw it all away Don't know the time to think about it so the memories won't seem to fade so i keep kicking myself to move on to something else better the wounds won't heal rip up those love letters I drove miles to get away and ..miles took a chance and threw it all away Today was supposed to be the last time thought of you and im alone into that pale blue water to our love and all that lies alone back to that lonely water .

Still Wishing
I wished on my star again tonight.The same wish every time.It has yet to come true.But I still keep wishing.I have worked all my life to be different.Different from all the rest.Yet all you want is the same.The same games.The same misery you claim to despise.I can show you a new way.A happier way.All you have to do is be brave enough to hold my hand.I've been reaching out for so long.My arm grows weary.Save me?

Many Things
So many tears never wiped awayHearts broken---and that's how they staySo many things that I wanted to sayBut never got around to it So many things no one ever knewShattered souls----broken in twoSo many things that I wanted to doBut never got around to it So many people living in the streetEmpty eyes---lives so incompleteSo many people that I wanted to meetBut never got around to it So many things that we'll never knowRueful memories----reaping what we sowSo many places that I wanted to goBut never got around to it So many things that will never beAngry ones----who cannot agreeSo many things that I wanted to seeBut never got around to it So many things that don't seem realSelfish minds----that rob and stealSo many things that I wanted to feelBut never got around to it So many things never to be againClosed-up hearts---letting no one inSo many things that I wanted to winBut never got around to it So many things that seem so badHopelessness---everyone so sadSo many things that I c

Broken
I went to see my spirit guidehe is a wise and kindly man.I told him how my foolish pridewas broken into grains of sand.He heard me rant he heard me wailagainst my sense of harsh betrayal.He took my heart into his handsand then led me to understand. He told me not to waste my hearton those who would tear it apart.To only, share my peace of mindwhen my heart again,learns to be kind.But much more than all of thishe said the way to perfect blissis to accept what I've been given,learn to laugh and keep on living.I spent all of my precious timehoping for a love sublimeweaving fantasy into rhymeuntil I found out you were lying.You never read a single wordmy voice and heart you never heardand so you never will be minethis truth is that I was so blind.Therefore, I spend my precious timeto weave my hopes into a rhymeand maybe one day you will seethe love I gave so tenderly. Poem By Tammy C.

Unstable Love
The love story of Ralph and Edna....Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. Ralph and Edna were both patients in a mental hospital. One day while they were walking past the hospital swimming pool. Ralph suddenly jumped into the deep end.He sank to the bottom of the pool and stayed there.Edna promptly jumped in to save him. She swam to the bottom and pulled him out. When the Head Nurse Director became aware of Edna's heroic act she immediately ordered her to be discharged from the hospital, as she now considered her to be mentally stable.When she went to tell Edna the news she said, 'Edna, I have good news and bad news. The good news is you're being discharged, since you were able to rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of the person you love. I have concluded that your act displays sound mindedness.The bad news is, Ralph hung himself in the bathroom with his bathrobe belt rig

Exorcisms
Exorcisms are often the theme of horror movies. Most people shrug them off and think that they are fake.They’re not.But they are also not the way Hollywood portrays them to be. Instead, when a mere mortal tries to perform an exorcism, the demon leaves its original host, and enter the priest’s body. More than likely though, since they’re priests, the demon has no control over them, and soon leaves. However, there are certain instances when the priest lets the demon take control over him. The demon is wiser this time around though, and does not completely take over the body, which would cause another exorcism. This time, he gently influences the thoughts of the “priests” to do horrific things. Since priests have knowledge and experience in the “Spiritual Realm,” the demon can curse people, damn people, the works. The people around the priest have no knowledge of his demonic possession, and neither does he. After meditating on demonic practi

Image Or Reality
She’s a figure of my imagination, or is she real? A devil on earth; masquerading around as a woman on the prowl for a kill. If I tell you that this woman is bad, then she’s more dangerous then a child on a jackhammer drill. This girl is fly, I can’t lie and she really caught my eye like a base runner waiting for a steal. Is this woman here real or is she fake. An angle sent down that stumbled onto her wake. She’s beautiful and delicate with a gentle sway to her gait. Impossible to wonder what it is she wears up under that silky red dress that she displays. Could she be just another pawn in this game? All I want to do is get close to ask her name. But with all the other guys around trying to spend their change. It’s hard for me to take charge and push through the crowd of gents and dames. All in all, I really just want to know the deal. How could she be a person if her face shows she doesn’t feel? Not even a frown when on her dress liquor did someone spill. But wh

Eris Contemplates For 3125 Years
ERIS CONTEMPLATES FOR 3125 YEARS Pun-jab is Sikh, Sikh, Sikh! THE PARATHEO-ANAMETAMYSTIKHOOD OF ERIS ESOTERIC (POEE) A Non-prophet Irreligious Disorganization MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER, KSC Omnibenevolent Polyfather of Virginity in Gold HIGH PRIEST THE ERISIAN MOVEMENT HOUSE OF APOSTLES OF ERIS Official Business Surreptitious Business page of pages Official Discordian Document Number (if applicable): the Golden Apple Corps House of Disciples of Discordia The Bureaucracy, Bureau of: DOGMAS Council of Episkoposes: Office of High Priesthood, Sect of the POEE Drawer 0 Today's DATE: yesterday's DATE: Originating Cabal: TO: Brother Ram, Your acute observation that ERIS spelled backwards is SIRE, and your inference to the effect that there is sexual symbolism here, have brought me to some observations of m

Big Ed
Big Ed aka Penn Writre was a loving husbandA devoted and true friendHe lived his life to the utmost fullestHe will be missed from each dayHis glowing smile will forever be burned into usHe brought life to every place he wasEvery memory of his life will be treasuredFrom the heart ache to the greatest joysHe will forever be watching over his heartIn his passing those in his heart will celebrate his lifeIn Memory of Penn Writre aka Big Ed

Live, Laugh & Love
Sometimes life is hard, sometimes it’s easy. Sometimes we spread our wings and take flight, sometimes we hang onto those we care for and just need to be loved. I have been stepping over some big hurdles here lately and I am keeping my head up and staying strong the best way I know how. I am trying to make positive changes to things I can alter and maintaining strength about the things I can’t do anything about. Now as I move forward I have to smile and know that it’s all a rollercoaster and I can see the upwards hill coming !

Auction Time Again!
Come and Bid! Ive upped the offer. Any cash bid winner will recieve MUSIC created just for them. Below is a sample of what you may get :) To bid, copy and paste the link below! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=429545&albumid=1811749&i=151569848&idx=46

Little Johnny
The teacher said, "Let's begin by reviewing some American History. Who said 'Give me Liberty, or give me Death'?" She saw a sea of blank faces, except for Little Johnny who had his hand up: 'Patrick Henry, 1775' he said. 'Very good!' Who said, ’Government of the People, by the People, for the People, shall not perish from the Earth?' Again, no response except from Little Johnny, ’Abraham Lincoln, 1863'. The teacher snapped at the class, ’Class, you should be ashamed; Little Johnny knows more about history than you do.' She heard a loud whisper: 'Screw the Indians,' 'Who said that?' she demanded. Little Johnny put his hand up, 'General Custer, 1862.' At that point, a student in the back said, ’I’m gonna puke.' The teacher glares around and asks, ’All right!!! Now who said that!?' Again, Lit

Cash For Clunkers, Lol
CASH FOR CLUNKERS..........I QUALIFY IF MY BODY WERE A CAR... If my body were a car, this is the time I would be thinking about trading it in for a newer model. I've got bumps and dents and scratches in my finish, and my paint job is getting a little dull. But that's not the worst of it. My headlights are out of focus, and it's especially hard to see things up close.My traction is not as graceful as it once was. I slip and slide and skid and bump into things even in the best of weather. My whitewalls are stained with varicose veins. It takes me hours to reach my maximum speed. My fuel rate burns inefficiently. But here's the worst of it --

Fred...
A cop stops a Harley for traveling faster than the posted speed limit, so he asks the biker his name. Fred, he replies. Fred what? The officer asks... Just Fred, the man responds. The officer is in a good mood and thinks he might just give the biker a break and, write him out a warning instead of a ticket. The officer then presses him for the last name. The man tells him that he used to have a lst

Foever In Debt!
Pain, without lovePain, I can't get enoughPain, I like it rough'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at allYou're sick of feeling numbYou're not the only oneI'll take you by the handAnd I'll show you a world that you can understandThis life is filled with hurtWhen happiness doesn't workTrust me and take my handWhen the lights go out you will understand Anger and agonyAre better than miseryTrust me, I've got a planWhen the lights go off, you will understand I know, I know that you're woundedYou know, that I'm here to save youYou know, I'm always here for youI know that you'll thank me laterPain, without lovePain, can't get enoughPain, I like it rough'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Diatribe For Dj Spaded Bytch
Where The Cycle End It seems there is a great deal of discussion on the idea of Drama and how people should interact about it and with it. There does seem to be a cycle that can be simply put as offender-offendee, but it is not that simple. In a dynamic and interconnected world, such as the current media-saturated culture and especially the overly connected world of the Internet, any agitation between two people will have propagating consequences that make ripples in a pond seem like "child's play". The biggest question is exactly how do we react to all these frictions. The main focus here is when someone is slighted and needs to find solace and comfort in others. It should not be difficult to see that the degree of trauma created by the slight will increase the amount and need for comfort. A simple verbal bashing may only require a few comments of support for the "victim" and maybe even a verbal retort to the "perpetrator". Yet, it is the second action that causes all t

Win 1,000 Fubucks!!!
I will be posting funny quotes from movies and t.v. shows.. All you gotta do is know who I am quoting! Simple as that. If you think you know who I am quoting the send me a P.M. with who you think i am quoting.

The Perfect Mini.
Spent last weekend in Southern California visiting relatives. My uncle is a County Supervisor there, and has been for years. He introduced us to his latest acquisition, a 'gift'... for one year.Yes, it's a Mini Cooper. All electric (no gas). Reaches speeds of up to 90 mph. 100 people in the state of Cali were 'given' these cars (for a year), movers, shakers, decision makers, in hopes that they would test it out under differing conditions and report any issues or surprises. My uncle fell ill recently, and has only been able to drive it... ONCE. It's a cryin' shame, I tell ya.Why write a blog about it? I dunno. I just thought it was wicked cool.

Beauty
I could search the world for beauty to match your own,but never see a comparison for me to look upon,I could search the stars and look to the open skies,but only find faint comparison to even describe beauty in your eyes,I could search the ocean going farther than ever into the endless sea,but still find nothing remotely close to that of your pure beauty,your beauty could control the elements to stop the rain on a cloudy day,because god would bring out the sun to shine down upon your face,I dare not look upon the skies, the moon, the sun or stars,not sunsets or rainbows or even glistening diamond shards,because to me I see beauty when i look into your being,from the first time i saw you, i knew it was perfection i was seeing.

Fish Story
A redneck was stopped by a game warden in Central Mississippi recently with two ice chests full of fish. He was leaving a cove well known for its fishing.The game warden asked the man, 'Do you have a license to catch those fish?' 'Naw, sir', replied the redneck. 'I ain't got none of them there licenses. You must understand, these here are my pet fish.''Pet fish?''Yeah. Every night, I take these here fish down to the lake and let 'em swim 'round for awhile. Then, when I whistle, they jump right back into these here ice chests and I take 'em home.''That's a bunch of hooey! Fish can't do that.'The redneck looked at the warden for a moment and then said, 'It's the truth Mr. Government Man. I'll show ya. It really works.''OK', said the warden. 'I've got to see this!'The redneck poured the fish into the lake and stood and waited.After several minutes, the warden says, 'Well?''Well, what?', says the redneck.The warden says, 'When are you going to call them back?''Call who back?''The FISH', re

Hmm....
10:45pmToday wasn't the best of days at work. I kind of sort of knew someone else was going to get the position, but I still kind got upset about it. I didn't let anyone notice it though. I kept myself busy throughout the whole day. Someone else got the position I wholeheartedly deserved. i'm at the point where I'm like, who's ass or who's cock did he have to kiss in order for him to become a Supervisor. It sucks. It really does. I have way more experience than he does. Oh well, at least if you see it from the positive aspect... which there is... I won't get yelled at by the attorneys at work when we're in meetings. Then again, I am the kind to work better under pressure and am a bitch to everyone when I need work to get done like yesterday lol. Ok, so no one knows, yesterday, the 17th, was my baby sister's anniversary. It's been 13yrs since her passing. RIP Isabella. I wonder at times what it would have been like to have her there in my shadow, but I'll never know. I ca

Making Skins
The site recently changed how profile skin coding was done. The upper areas, ie alert, shout, blast, scrolling members list, are non editable. As well, you can no longer code the mouseover. No notes can be added to your codes either, they will be deleted and replaced with a standard Fu CSS code. In order to make things extremely simple...I've taken this standard code, and inserted instructions in the areas that need to be replaced. To find the skin...scroll to the bottom of my profile page and click on "browse this members skins." You'll be in my gallery then. Scroll to the bottom of the gallery. There are two learn to code yourself skins. Use the one dated 8/16/2009. This is the updated one. Rip it. Go back to your homepage and click on "Edit my skins." It's under your default pic. Click on "edit skin." Right click on the code inside...scroll down to "Select All." Open a notepad and paste the code into a new notepad. Now the fun begins. Fo

My Dream...
I need everyone's help!! My dream is to become a DJ/Sound Engineer and my only problem is that I don't have the funds to persue my dream! It would mean EVERYTHING to me if you were able to donate right here -> http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1049918237&ref=profile#/home.php?ref=home

God Bless America
YES, I'M A BAD AMERICAN I Am the Liberal-Progressives Worst Nightmare.. I am an American. I am a Master Mason and believe in God. I ride Harley Davidson Motorcycles and believe in American products.. I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some Liberal governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican! I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way! I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American. I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything. Get over it! I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, do it in English. I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to. My heroes

Ponderings
Things I’ve been pondering…. Why would someone put up a picture of some beautiful woman and then you click on them and their 100 years older that the pict on their page or they are a 110 pounds heavier. Now I’m not that much into looks, just makes me sad that someone thinks they have t use a shinier lure in order to attract people, or that they do such just to attract people at all. Be happy in who you are. People with 5,123 friends… yea they are hot, but do they actually converse with the 5,122 other friends on a regular basis? Or are they accumulated just to be worshiped? I know with this attitude I’ll never level, but I hardly have time to say hello to the small amount of friends I have amassed so far! Fu-Marriage- Really? I proposed to two people lately just to see what happens. But, I don’t know, is it just a way to get more points? Or more Bling? Which I need to do... I need more bling, so maybe I will have to do more of the things I d

A Old Poem At A Low Time.
ok I wrote this at a very LOW time in my life, while i no longer feel this way, its amazing to write such words when you feel like your world has fell apart. abstract thoughts The little girl cries lonely and screaming fighting and weeping hurt rushes through her veins cold cold heroin pulsating in her ears consumed by the hatred instilled upon her innocence has been lost dysfunctional beings we have become who is to say whats wrong whats right soulless creatures come to steal yourun through your body feeling its energy pulling pulling away from the dark light wants to shine cannot see what is behind This is not the life she wants the endless control pain this is not the life she wants mirrors surround the shadows lurking creatures hunching and crawling grabbing for its prey run little girl run she cant caught Pulled down into the depths the endless black hole long black strands of hair frantically blowing This is not the life she wants the endless control pain this is not the lif

Lbb Entry 23
USMCTIM54: Normally I accept music as an art but when the first words on your webpage was "Kill the phuckin pigs first" well I am offended as a retired Ky State Trooper who was about to ask you for your link one vote wont matter to you but at least I got to speak my piece **He blocked me right after he shouted me saying this For the record the lyrics to my profile song: (chorus) Mutilate the beat. Verse 1--My character traits, I consider attractive, hate, bitterness, proactive with blades, grittiness, transform, activate. Like a general, official, hit you with an enemy missile, my extended pistol is beneficial to the issue. I'm hot tempered, the red dot's centered, leave you shot and dismembered, you blood clot, you got dented. Spiritual healing, satanic, walking on ceilings, warped appeal, cold like a corpse with no feelings. Gang territorial, squeeze a banger at ya in a state of euphoria, leave you bleeding like Fangoria. Skeezing Eva Longoria, Slaughter ya, get gorier than

Another One For The Short Bus!!!!
Not only is the prices for taking public transit in Vancouver is getting out of hand but some of the drivers themselves are out of control. A bus driver today slammed the door on me for no reason. I had no where to go and the door did indeed hit me. Well I said something to her and she replied "Are you on drugs" she admitted she shut the door on me and stated it was my fault for not moving, yet I had nowhere to go since there was people in front of me. This is the same driver a couple of days ago that held up the bus because I didn't move far enough down, well I was behind the line and the next person who got on stood inthe same spot without hassels. She is becoming a problem. Today she went overboard. She tried to refuse me getting on and when I refused stating she could not remove me from the bus, she decided to have the bus riders get pissy with me, except most of them are fed up and didn't say a thing to me. They also saw what happened and didn;t blame me for her rudeness.

My First Happy Hour
MY FIRST HAPPY HOUR IS THIS SATURDAY NIGHT!IT STARTS AT 10PM FUBAR TIME.PLEASE STOP BY RATE FAN AND ADD ME.I WILL RETURN ALL RATES AND FANSBlue Dragon@ fubar PLEASE SAVE AN AUTO 11 AND BOMB FOR MY HOURIF YOU CAN I WILL TRY TO BOMB EVERY AUTO 11 I CAN IN THE HOUR

Smile By Uncle Kracker
Your better than the best I'm lucky just to linger in your life Cooler than the flip sideof my pillow, thats right Completely unaware Nothing can compare to wher you send me lets me know that its ok, yeah its ok in the moments when my good times start to fade You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed Sing like a bird, dizzy in my head spin like a record, crazy on a sunday night You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breath shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild oooo- you make me smile Even when your gone somehow you come along just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that, you steal away the rain and just like that... You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed sing like a bird, dizzy in my head spin like a record, crazy on a sunday night you make me dance like a fool, forget how to breath shine like gold, buzz like a bee just the thought of you can drive me wild oh, you make me smile

Dream Of You By Harry Connick Jr.
I spent last night dreaming of your eyes but your hair kept getting in teh way your lips dropped in to tell me how you been and when I tried to kiss them, my pillow told me I missed them your voice dropped by and sang a lullaby and it was then I knew just what to do I'd fall alseep and then I'd dream of you again Your voice dropped by and sang a lullaby and it was then I knew just what to do I'd fall asleep and then I'd dream of you again.

I Am A Popcorn Whore! You Know This!
Can you do me a favor? I cringe any time someone asks me if I can do them a favor. I always want to say… sure, yes, of course… only to be asked to do something like… I dunno… be a bridesmaid in their wedding and wear lavender and ruffles. Ok… so that hasn’t been a favor asked of me just yet. The thought obviously terrifies me. I hope when I ask you to do me this favor you won’t completely cringe. Do me a favor and make this popcorn this week. I wouldn’t ask unless it was totally important, and totally delicious. Believe me. If you’ve never believed me before, now would be the time to start. Make this popcorn. It’s perfectly sweet and perfectly salty. Make it for dinner. Make it and sneak it into the movie theater in your giant purse. Make it and sit out on your patio with a glass of cheap wine. Find the time. Find a way. Just do me a favor and enjoy this popcorn as soon as possible. It’s that good.

Answering Critics
Questions Mormons Should Ask Themselves From FAIR, the Foundation for Apologetic Information and Research Anti-Mormon literature tends to recycle common themes. One popular approach over the years is for critics to ask a series of "questions" under the guise of sincerity, but with the ultimate aim of casting doubt upon faith or tripping up members of the Church. Such tactics are not new; Jesus repeatedly faced questioners from among critics during His earthly ministry. One set of questions that has made rounds is entitled Questions All Mormons Should Ask Themselves. T he list consists of 58 questions that are designed to confuse the reader. Each question is answered in detail in the full wiki article found at http://en.fairmormon.org/Questions_All_Mormons_Should_Ask_Themselves Incorrect Assertions There are a couple of interesting features to look for in this list and others. The first is that many of the questions don't just ask a question; they make an assertion. An exampl

Not Sure What To Call This....
well on another website....a couple of guys asked for my number...we had chated for a quite some time so i figure okay kewl no worries....well i got a call from unknown number and i don't answer those...so it goes to voicemail...i check it and i guess she was looking for becca (name i use on the other site) that the number was saved on her phone but she call in unknown...well if she really wanted the truth she would have not blocked the number or it wasn't her phone it was saved under...either girl thinks i'm stupid as all get out and she got the number from his phone and blocking her number....or this dude is got some bad aweful game....lol...so the lesson to be learned here is to always keep ur phone locked and never save an number from the opposite sex in ur partner's phone.....big big no no!!!

Questions Floating Around In My Head(the Thoughts Of Mem Chapter 5)
Who Am I? What Does The Future Hold For Me? Why Can't I Seem To Do Anything Worth Wild? Why Can't I Get A Foot In The Door? Why Am I So Cool, Calm, And Collected Just To Have People Start Shyt? Why Is It When I Gain Happiness Someone Is There To Try And Rip It From My Grasp? Why Do I Wake Up? Why Do I Go Asleep? Why Do I Love So Much Only To Have Hate Come My Way? Why Can't Haters Go Away? Why Can't Friends Stay? The Answer Is To These Is Easy: I'm Me And My Life Is Your Entertainment!!!! As It Is Written As So Shall It Come To Pass: Quote The MEMesis Nevermore!!

Lumpers
"LUMPERS" Years ago I was Drivin' for this company out of Indy and I was up there in Syracuse NY picking up "1638 Cases Of Cookies" going to Bruno's Warehouse down there in Birmingham. It was one of those "Hot Loads" had to be there so I ran straight through and made my 2:00 AM appointment. I bumped the dock, went in and gave them my paperwork and was fixin' to go back out to the truck and go to bed when they told me that I was going to have to unload my trailer. I told them I was not going to unload my trailer and that I had just ran over 1,000 miles straight through just to get them their "Hot Load". They then told me about their "In-House Lumper Service" that they would unload the trailer. So I had their "In-House Lumper Service" come and check out my load and they said they would unload the "1638 Cases Of Cookies" off the floor for $175.00. So I called the office and the office said they would only pay $80.00 for a Lumper. Receiving then tells me about this little building outs

Funny Story
ok funny story: When me and my ex would do standing doggy she would quif. So one night I had been drinking and she starts quifing, so i start to call her Quiffer Sutherland.Looking back I think she may have been retarded because she didnt get it. Just thought I would share that tidbit with y'all.

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Your lips, your eyes, your soulAre like a work of art,The most creative thing of allIs your beautiful heart.If you were a painting,No colors could expressThe beauty deep inside you,A rainbow, nothing less.If you were a sculptureThe clay could hardly makeYour figure of an angelWithout one mistake.If you were a euphonyNo choir could really singAll the beautiful musicYour eyes could possibly bring.So here I am, an artist,With inspiration beyond beliefBut to capture such rare beauty,I'd have to be a thief.Copyright ©2007 Cecily Nikole Pate

This Fu-scene & My Revue Of It.
Its become more then evident that the majority of the people on this site are either physically or mentally disabled in some form. ORRRR,.. Straight up predators, to habitual liars & then thieves if given the chance. The lack of enforcement, to right the wrongs is as telling as the greed on this site. Where did all the celebrities go? Cant risk another law suit,.. now could we? The "lull" as I'm so kindly putting it,.. thats very clearly going on with this site, aka black to grey cloud looming over it,... seems very much a reflection of how terribly wrong the rights of so many have been infringed upon. Not to mention the fact that there are so very many whom are only interested in harming &/or taking advantage of others in some way or form. Can't leave out the free-loaders & money grubbers whom only seek to take, take, take. Again,.. much like the greed on this site. Its astounding. Its a wonder that the creators even sleep at night with the type of guilt

Boobs, The Perfect Toy? Yes!!
I was thinking, why do men really enjoy boobs? Well Bill Engval says it best, Boobs are the perfect toy! You can squish them squeeze them and POOF! The pop right back into shape. I dont know of any other toy that does that. Boobs really are the perfect toy! :D:D:D

Metal In My Head: Words Of The Mildly Insane.
Weather its the demons inside of me..or the hate i hold for humanity..im way beyound sanity..i could careless..of anothers health..just the tought..of being around..the sickness and death..has made me a bit cold..sold out by others..and yet..hey..here i still stand..not a whole man..just a sick minded fool..used like that of a tool..my appearence..all black..over sized skull candy earphones..hook up to a small size ipod..metal in my head..still rings out..a shallow being..not fit to walk amongst the living..but not wanted amongst the dead..still wasting time..just a line at a time..trying to find..where i belong..weather i have a beer in hand..or a shotgun the next..its all the same to me..i am like fine chaos..or a sweet dark kiss..on the otherside of the fence..come along..and you cant miss..the tall dark and handsome figure..standing in the shadows..just a yard from the edge..wanting someone to come push me..so i can them with me..and all this..from just metal plates in my head.