1 HoTT SeXy MaMMa's blog: "Thinking of Him"

**When I turned the corner,
I saw you down the way.
I smiled and you waved.
My heart melted,
Just watching you look at me.
Someone called and you turned away,
But I’ll keep on looking,
I’ll keep on dreaming of the day,
When you really see
That I don’t want a wave, a nod.
I want to feel your breath on my neck,
Your hands in mine.
I want to see your eyes looking at me
With the love I feel for you.**

**What he doesn't know
Is that I love him in my heart
I knew that he was special
I could tell right from the start

What he doesn't know
Is that when I close my eyes
All I can see is his image
As he slowly passes by

What he doesn’t know
Is that I remember every word
Every single thing he says
Everything I've heard

What he doesn't know
Is that I dream of him at night
And what I really long for,
Is for him to be in my sight

What he doesn't know
Is that I long for him to say
Just one single word
Anything, so I can stay

What he doesn't know
Is that I treasure all the time
Every minute that I’m with him
Seems like a lifetime in my mind

What he doesn't know
Is that we’re so far apart
I wish that he knew
Because It’s tearing at my heart

What he doesn't know
Is that when he doesn't say goodbye
He just gets up and leaves
It almost makes me cry

What he doesn't know
Is that I long to see him smile
To be with him just once
To make this all worth while

What he doesn't know
Is that every day I find
He becomes more desirable
And always very kind

What he doesn't know
Is all of the pain I feel
Because keeping this from him
Makes it all too real

What he doesn't know
Is that I want to hold him tight
Keep him close to me
To make everything alright

What he doesn't know
Is that everything he said
Repeats over, and over
As I replay it in my head

What he doesn't know
Is what I’ll never say
Everything I thought of
I threw it all away

What he doesn't know
Is everything I hide
Afraid of what he’ll think
I keep it all inside  **

**A shooting star flew by
And you quickly came to mind
You're exactly what I wanted
You're what my thoughts would find

Our friendship flashed before me
And a smile I found on my face
I loved each and every moment
Of your sweet enchanting grace

I was memorized so much
By the words that you would speak
I couldn't seem to help
That I'd always grow so weak

At first I liked our friendship
How we could trust each other
How our friendship grew so strong
With one another

I'm not sure when it started
But i began to fall for you
I couldn't stop my feelings
There was nothing I could do

But soon my feelings grew stronger
And you're all I thought about
My heart was beating only for you
And in that there was no doubt

I tried to get over it
Knowing it would never be
Knowing I was just playing with my feelings
Thinking you would fall for me

I didn't tell anyone
Not even my best friends
Didn't want to risk our friendship
Didn't want it to end

I couldn't control it
I yearned for you so much
Didn't want anything else
Except your gentle touch

I kept my mouth shut
Trying to deny it to myself
Pretending I didn't have those feelings
Lying to myself

This love is starting to hurt
Pretending it's not real
Trying to put it in the past
Refusing to reveal **

**I'm keeping a secret
a secret from you
and this little secret
is that I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you oh so fast
i don't know how it happened
but it's happening so fast
i want to tell you
i promise i do
but i dint know how
i dint know what to do
i guess i should tell you
for that's the best thing to do
it's time to get rid of this secret
this secret I'm hiding from you **

Thinking of him :(