Darkchild's blog: "stuff"

I am not sure exactly what I feel today. I don't feel sad, for once I am not angry, I just feel sort of empty.

I wanna find someone to share my time with, but I don't trust anyone based on how things have been for me. If I do run across someone I MAY have something in common with, I seem to sabotage any possibility. I am not sure why I do that. I feel like the screaming is so loud someone will hear it & come rescue me, but no one hears it but me.

I guess that means I am not ready, or just no able. Maybe I am far too damaged now. I guess someone will have to do it for me since I don't seem capable to do it for myself, but since it doesn't happen, I  just......am.

Oh well.  Maybe next life...