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More Things I've Learned
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and eventually give in. That you should never compare yourself to others....they're more screwed up then you think. We are responsible for what we do.....unless we're rich and famous. That 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house......your kids did it. If guys want to look appealing to women....dress as a Visa card That time heals all wounds....but tequila makes you forgot it alot quicker McDonald's does not like Schwin's going through their drive'thru. People will look at you funny if you walk up to the drive-thru ATM machine Old men wearing short shorts with no underwear on will cause small children to ask to see the baby bird he hiding.

Why Are Some Men Idiots And Others Good Guys?
well there is no answer. but when a man says no commitment and no strings attatched should he get mad at the woman for dating other people? answer: hell freaking no! he made his bed and he has to live with it! if he wanted a monogamous relationship he should have said so from the get go! no strings means u can see who the hell u want to. now if said you would be my girlfriend then that ment you see only him. then you got guys that are good men! they are loveing, honest, straight forawrd about wut they want,and most of all faithful. and most of the time these are the ones that are either taken or get hurt so much that they loose trust in the female species! i guess the same can be said for women. cause women can be the most loving person on earth or the biggest freaking bitch you ever met. all i can say you can't blame all the opposite sex for the failures of the few idiots and bitches out there. so people give love a chance and give the opposite sex a chance cause you

509...guess I Have No Friends??
I know your not going to read this...nobody ever does....Think I have had enough....posted a bulltin yesterday and a blog ( i just deleted it) aksing you guys to cheer me up and make me laugh.....but nope.....oh well.....dont act so surprised when I just dont come back on CT...... I'll try One more time.....Cheer me up, say somthing funny, don't tell me to hang in there, I dont want to hear that, I want some funny stuff...I want to hear from my "friends" I even offered yesterday to buy a big pimping gift if somebody made my bulliten sticky..... Again.....Say what you want, ,just no bs, and make me laugh!!!! Show me you are a friend......

Excerpt From My Ebook.
As some of you know I am writing an ebook to sell online in a web site I am trying to create. I am trying to write more of it as I find the time (and that is rare lately). I thought I would post an excerpt from one of the chapters. This scene is from the shower scene where the female lead of the story is getting ready for a private party at a hotel with her husband. They are going to a private swingers party for the first time and writing this scene really got me aroused. This is just part of the entire scene in the shower. There is some more before this section and there is more that follows too. I hope you like it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Again I lather up my skin of my right thigh with the foam crated from the shaving gel. I sneak in a quick massage of my thigh using the foam as the lubricant as my personal massage oil. "Jesus", massaging my thigh sends an even more intense tingle up into my loin and deep inside. My thigh is complet

Problem....
You know when reality sinks in, and you have to tell some one about it and you have NO idea who? Yeah, that's where I'm at. See, last few days my back and legs were jacked up...apparently the legs were part of the back problem...I was pinching a nerve. ~rolls eyes~ but because I couldn't walk or move very well, I had a LOT of time to think back in my life. I realized just how different I could have made it. All I really would have had to done was stay in contact with ONE person my whole life...prolly would have saved me alot of greif. when I was like...8 or 9 I lived in this ghettoish hell hole...and there was a kid that was a lil older than me that I used see walk down the street. I would actually hide behind a fence and throw rocks at him! (My one truly mean thing I did growing up) cuz it was instant dislike. Later on in life, as with most people, we moved, and I became used to harrassing people on the internet...you know...round 12-14 age...prolly closer to 14, I was usuall

Something For Everyoneto Read!
Hey Everyone, Guess what! I have been Challenged by My friend Heather a Mary Kay independent beauty consultant to sell $25.00 dollars in product per. Person to 30 people by April 20th 2007. You’re probably asking why I would do this right. Well I want to start up my own Business with Mary Kay. So while you will be getting great products. You will also be helping me get started! I’d have more time for friends and family plus not just a Job, but one I would love doing! If you want to order you can call Heather Martinez @ 1-541-791-4364 Or you can order from her website. just click anywhere the had shows up to get the the Mary Kay website the follow the derections below Just go to find a consultant then type in her name Heather Martinez Everyone who purchases $25 or more from ME by the 20th of April will get entered in to win a $25 gift card from me and when I finish you goal and become a consultant we will do the drawing and that winner gets the $25 gift

Chapter 4 { Moby Dick
CHAPTER 4 The Counterpane Upon waking next morning about daylight, I found Queequeg's arm thrown over me in the most loving and affectionate manner. You had almost thought I had been his wife. The counterpane was of patchwork, full of odd little parti-colored squares and triangles; and this arm of his tattooed all over with an interminable Cretan labyrinth of a figure, no two parts of which were of one precise shade- owing I suppose to his keeping his arm at sea unmethodically in sun and shade, his shirt sleeves irregularly rolled up at various times- this same arm of his, I say, looked for all the world like a strip of that same patchwork quilt. Indeed, partly lying on it as the arm did when I first awoke, I could hardly tell it from the quilt, they so blended their hues together; and it was only by the sense of weight and pressure that I could tell that Queequeg was hugging me. My sensations were strange. Let me try to explain them. When I was a child, I well remember a

What Happened?
well i havent been on cherrytap much lately because my computer crashed and i lost everything on it.. photo's, music.. everything.. because of that my radio station (R)Evolut!on Rad!o has been off the air till i can get my music back. I will be running the station on a seperate computer which will allow me to keep the station running 24/7. its hard to do when i run the station on my main pc.. obviously.. i have to restart the computer every now and then. so thats the deal, i have been discouraged because it seems like i have to start all over so i havent been on ct much. i miss all my friends.. sorry i havent written and kept in touch the past month.. i will be back soon.. hope u all dont forget about me.. much love to all... (R)0bb!E T.

Angels ( In Memory Of Abagail)
Thank You Grandma Thank you Grandma but it's ok Yes I know you and the world prayed me to stay Earth bound was not God's plan Now I sit with him and Jesus by his hand You will see me someday I know Please don't cry because I had to go I have the most beautiful set of white wings Tears to your eyes I know this brings I now have eternal life with not pain you see This was God's plan and he needed me As I watch you and mom all of you everyday Please don't be sad and gray Thanks for all the love and taking care of me Now wipe the tears and close your eyes Some day in the future you will all see me Then there will be no more Goodbyes From a special angel with her new white wings As I sit by God and Jesus and listen to heavenly angels sing I love you all and always will you see For giving my short life all the love and joy it could be Love From Heaven Written by Anne

Worried-sad-confused
I cant see the light to take flight To get away from this sadness that intertwines with my madness How can we say we are happy but inside we want to cry? How can someone who has everything still want to die? Longing to feel the warmth of the sun to be in the group having the fun Wiping the tear from our eye looking at the clouds in the sky Hoping the dark ones fades away so please stay and be a friend help me,my mind & soul to mend.

Thoughts
just a few thoughts today, why is it that all the guys i like dont like me and all the guys i hate all like me..im not gonna take less than what i want...so if a guy has to think about rather or not he can date me then his LOSS.....im a very nice person and i have things to offer too, maybe they arent ready for anything but i wasnt asking for a fucking relationship...its called fucking dating, hello...anyways, who cares ???

Capter 9 The Mummy { The Jewel Of Seven Stars
Mr. Corbeck seemed to go almost off his head at the recovery of the lamps. He took them up one by one and looked them all over tenderly, as though they were things that he loved. In his delight and excitement he breathed so hard that it seemed almost like a cat purring. Sergeant Daw said quietly, his voice breaking the silence like a discord in a melody: 'Are you quite sure those lamps are the ones you had, and that were stolen?' His answer was in an indignant tone: 'Sure! Of course I'm sure. There isn't another set of lamps like these in the world!' 'So far as you know!' The Detective's words were smooth enough, but his manner was so exasperating that I was sure he had some motive in it; so I waited in silence. He went on: 'Of course there may be some in the British Museum; or Mr. Trelawny may have had these already. There's nothing new under the sun, you know, Mr. Corbeck; not even in Egypt. These may be the originals, and yours may have been the copies. Are there any po

Idiot
WOW. I generally don’t like people. But this is fucking ridicules! Alright so there is this chick on Myspace going on a hunger strike until Sanjaya Malakar is voted off of American Idol. It’s a TV show, it’s for entertainment. If you don’t like what’s going on don’t fucking watch it. I’m not an American Idol fan myself. I honestly can’t stand the show.. So do you know what I do? I DON’T WATCH IT! Although her stupidity makes me want to vote for Sanjaya as much as I possibly can! She says “We have no problems with Sanjaya personally, he seems like a very personable and charming young man. However, he does NOT belong on American Idol.” Who is she to say this. Now I’m not standing up for him. I have no idea what he’s like or his singing is like and I don’t really give a shit. I’m simply putting her down for being an idiot! “This means I will refuse to eat anything until American Idol voters wise up, and stop voting Sanjya through each week.” pffft. Who cares if you don’t eat!? I hope

The Wonders Of My Child
I never could have imagined how different my life would become after I had my son. Before he came, all I ever thought about was myself. Not as in " I am self absorbed woman, hear me roar" more like whatever happens, happens. I never thought about things the same way as I do now. I cant cross the cross walk anymore unless the signs tell me I can cross. I can't rush to eat, or take my food into the living room to watch tv. It's now sit at the table like good boys and girls. Play time is no longer me and the clubs, it's leggos, coloring books and cartoons. When i go to the store to buy something on a whim, it's quickly forgotten and replaced with " Ooh ooh Mommy!". I am supposed to be the teacher but in return I am the one that is being taught. I'm being taught how to laugh and play as if I was 2 again. I'm relearning how to color within the lines, and I am finding Waldo all over again. I am learning that it doesn't matter what people think of you as you do a silly dance in public, just t

Blah
One of my close friends has been going through a lot of shit recently that seems so similar to what i have gone through... mainly in feeilng than literal sense.... but when all that bullshti was going on with lindon... i would just cry sometimes because i didn't know what else to do... i loved him so much, and wanted more than anything to not love him... to not feel anything for him... to pretend like he wasn't real, like he never existed in my life.... It sucked... a lot... and she's going through the same basic crap... I hadn't thought a lot about lindon very much recently, until i was reading her journal... and i remembered how tough it was wanting so badly to not love him... i wished i could just remove him from my life, and be ok with it... and not cry, not hurt, not be mad, and just be, ok with him moving on... and do so myself... And, honestly, i don't actually remember when i happened... i just, stopped caring... stopped crying, stopped thinking about him... and just, moved

Alshimers!!!
ALSHIMERS!!! Stuttering lost within clouds of mind he said. “I carry a stagnant love that has for years now been dead” Then when I asked what caused the end of this love he cannot forget. “My love was killed by scars we had before we even met”

Wednesday 3/28/07
It's a yucky, wet rainy day here, so I've not done anything but stay in the house and chat online and mess around on here and I'm now bored out of my mind. I've been trying to ask my online dad about my online sister but he never answers my IMs, so I'm also kinda frustrated over that today, since it's been probably been at least 2 weeks since he said he'd get back to me last. Oh well, guess I just have to wait it out lol. Anyway, that's all that's going on in my life at the moment lol nothing all that exciting ever happens here. Well, I guess this is all I will write for now. Have a great evening everyone.

Tickets On Sell Now!!!!!!!!!!
the indianapolis inner city tour tickets are now on sell. the tickets are $15.00 if purchased now. the tickets are $20.00 at the door. the tour is 8 weeks long and all the shows are in indianapolis. if you are interested in getting your tickets leave me a comment.

Chapter 6 { The Hound Of The Baskervills
Chapter 6. Baskerville Hall Sir Henry Baskerville and Dr. Mortimer were ready upon the appointed day, and we started as arranged for Devonshire. Mr. Sherlock Holmes drove with me to the station and gave me his last parting injunctions and advice. "I will not bias your mind by suggesting theories or suspicions, Watson," said he; "I wish you simply to report facts in the fullest possible manner to me, and you can leave me to do the theorizing." "What sort of facts?" I asked. "Anything which may seem to have a bearing however indirect upon the case, and especially the relations between young Baskerville and his neighbours or any fresh particulars concerning the death of Sir Charles. I have made some inquiries myself in the last few days, but the results have, I fear, been negative. One thing only appears to be certain, and that is that Mr. James Desmond, who is the next heir, is an elderly gentleman of a very amiable disposition, so that this persecution does not arise from hi

Lent Can't End Soon Enough...surprisingly Enough I Cant Wait To Have Sex!
So, Yes Im catholic, and yes I've been participating in Lent, I gave up sex and swearing, But I can't help swearing so, it's just sex. Im down to about two weeks at this point and im having a -really- hard time... -browraise- really hard.. *Giggle* So, the last 4 weeks I've been having dreams about a small set of very specific people. 3 to be exact. The first one a local dude, i've never had sex with him, so why this is even happening is beyond me...But for whatever reason, all the things i want done, want to try, what ever, it's him...-shrug- we've tried making shit happen.. no such luck. I always seem to end up tied to my bed, screaming his name...Hmm... The second and I have a TON in common, he's from MI, but not too local. Never met in person, but we talk and he's just... damn *Big wet grin* Tattoos, the music, just everything..We've done some crazy shit in my dreams too.. He's down for whatever like I am, He appeals to my sex in cars side :D *Such a whore*

Wwe Event.
I just got home from seeing the WWE press conference. It was great. I got to see everyone. The best part was when I got to see Trump give McMahon a billinare bitchslap. Lashley bodypressed McMahon too. I had so much fun. I had a perfect day.

Chapter 5 { Twenty Thousand Leagues Under The Sea
CHAPTER V AT A VENTURE The voyage of the Abraham Lincoln was for a long time marked by no special incident. But one circumstance happened which showed the wonderful dexterity of Ned Land, and proved what confidence we might place in him. The 30th of June, the frigate spoke some American whalers, from whom we learned that they knew nothing about the narwhal. But one of them, the captain of the Monroe, knowing that Ned Land had shipped on board the Abraham Lincoln, begged for his help in chasing a whale they had in sight. Commander Farragut, desirous of seeing Ned Land at work, gave him permission to go on board the Monroe. And fate served our Canadian so well that, instead of one whale, he harpooned two with a double blow, striking one straight to the heart, and catching the other after some minutes' pursuit. Decidedly, if the monster ever had to do with Ned Land's harpoon, I would not bet in its favour. The frigate skirted the south-east coast of America with great rapidity.

The Leaveing Song!!!!!!!!
YOU WALKED AWAY FROM ME AND NEVER LOOKED BACK NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN AND THAT WAS THAT WHEN DO I GET CLOSURE FROM THIS TRAGIC EVENT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE WAY YOU WENT WHEN I LOOKED UPON YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY LAST TIME THEY REFLECTED OF HURT YOUR GLARE WAS BLIND YOU STOOD THERE SO STRONG WITH BLACK TEARS ON YOUR FACE THEN YOU WERE GONE A GHOSTS ELEGENT TRACE my soul fades away now my heart aches of pain my soul becomes my shadow my heart cant win this battle YOU USE TO TELL ME YOU WOULD NEVER GO AWAY YOU WOULD LOVE ME FOREVER WE WERE INSEPERABLE THAT WAY THE WORDS THAT YOU SAID TO ME REPEAT IN MY HEAD AS I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP IN WHAT USE TO BE OUR BED SO GOODBYE TO MY LOVE THAT LEFT ME THIS PAIN IN MY DEEPEST REGRET I'M THE ONLY ONE TO BLAME I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR WHAT LED TO THIS I NOW LIVE WITHOUT YOUR BEAUTIFUL LOVE I WILL MISS my soul fades away now my heart aches of pain my soul becomes my shadow my heart cant win this battle

A Few Haikus
Well, I'm elevated like my soul is residing in Moksha. I figured I'd write a Haiku. We all know what a Haiku is, right? Generally 3 stanzas...That follow the 5/7/5 rule. Of course, nothing is written in stone and that's just one simple formula. And the one I'm gonna use. 5 syllables for the first line 7 syllables for the second line 5 syllables for the third line ============================ Tired and Panting My body flaccid and moist I wish she would leave ============================ Dachau crimson blood Bleeding over Kerry green Fields Isaac meet Patrick =============================

Watching You Sleep
by:Leatherface You don't know anything and you don't know what's happening, And chocolate is like everything, there's no you and me. That's why I'm all at sea. And everyone came along, everyone singing songs, Everyone drank some more and everyone giggled at the bore. That amount of hindsite makes me blind. And what's more and I like watching you sleep, I never knew anyone quite like you I'd like to be. And I know more than this fishing is more for you. And there you lie next to me, I'd love to know what you dream I love to listen to you breathe, I hope you don't watch me. Because I'd never sleep. It's all become polarised, look at the sky to tell the time, to idolise through idol eyes. Well I'm not getting it. He bought you flowers and I bought you drink, You can't drink flowers but flowers can drink. It's a hunger in me, I never knew there was anything or anyone else you see. And it's like that key ring, living is more than life. We're alive, we're al

Chapter 8 The Mummy { The Jewel Of Seven Stars
Sergeant Daw at first made some demur; but finally agreed to advise privately on a matter which might be suggested to him. He added that I was to remember that he only undertook to advise; for if action were required he might have to refer the matter to headquarters. With this understanding I left him in the study, and brought Miss Trelawny and Mr. Corbeck to him. Nurse Kennedy resumed her place at the bedside before we left the room. I could not but admire the cautious, cool-headed precision with which the traveller stated his case. He did not seem to conceal anything, and yet he gave the least possible description of the objects missing. He did not enlarge on the mystery of the case; he seemed to look on it as an ordinary hotel theft. Knowing, as I did, that his one object was to recover the articles before their identity could be obliterated, I could see the rare intellectual skill with which he gave the necessary matter and held back all else, though without seeming to do so. 'T

Updates On The Seizures
We breezed through December with no signs of a seizure. On January 14, 2007 she came home from a weekend at her dad's saying that her legs hurt. The seizure kinda hurt, mom! I kept a close eye on her and thankfully, nothing came of it. She has been under a lot of stress the last two weeks due to FCAT testing, and it's the time of the month she seems to have seizures. When I went in to wake her up this morning because her alarm had been going off for 10 minutes, I had a feeling but didn't really want to worry. First words out of her mouth were, "I felt weird last night, but I think it's just where my Care Bear flopped over." I of course asked her what she meant she felt weird. She said it felt like her legs were in the bed but she realized it was her Care Bear. But it wasn't her legs, it was her arms. "But it's just where my Care Bear moved." To me, that means she's headed for another seizure. My cousin, who is epileptic, tends to have the tingly feeling in her hands and feet b

Ladies...can You Relate...lol
Dear Kotex, I recently noticed that the peel off strip of my pantyliner had a bunch of "Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as: Staying active during your period can relieve cramps. Avoiding caffeine my help reduce cramps and headaches. Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh. Try Kotex bla bla blah other products... Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a funtioning set of overies. Go ahead and tell a menustrating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh. Like we need nore fluid inside our bloated bodies from hell...but go ahead....I triple dog dare ya...see what happens and report back...I'll wait. While your at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I garan-dam-tee you that the first responses will be females who just ovulated. Staying active will relieve headaches and cramps...well guess what, the only acti

Cancer Research / Support
I have been working on a project to raise money for cancer support workers for sufferers. If you would like to see this project so far please click on the link below or copy and paste it into your browser Keep your tissues handy many thanks for taking the time to look http://www.manksinatra.co.uk

Chapter 5 { The Hound Of The Baskervills
Chapter 5. Three Broken Threads Sherlock Holmes had, in a very remarkable degree, the power of detaching his mind at will. For two hours the strange business in which we had been involved appeared to be forgotten, and he was entirely absorbed in the pictures of the modern Belgian masters. He would talk of nothing but art, of which he had the crudest ideas, from our leaving the gallery until we found ourselves at the Northumberland Hotel. "Sir Henry Baskerville is upstairs expecting you," said the clerk. "He asked me to show you up at once when you came." "Have you any objection to my looking at your register?" said Holmes. "Not in the least." The book showed that two names had been added after that of Baskerville. One was Theophilus Johnson and family, of Newcastle; the other Mrs. Oldmore and maid, of High Lodge, Alton. "Surely that must be the same Johnson whom I used to know," said Holmes to the porter. "A lawyer, is he not, gray-headed, and walks with a limp?" "

Well Now......
So I decided today that my patients come into the office to torture me. They all get together over coffee in the morning and discuss which certifiabley insane people will come to see me on which day. I believe that the conversation goes something like: Patient 1: So, you have an appointment today? Patient 2: Yes. I have determined that the girl up there has had an easy week, so today I am going to go in and make her think that she is crazy.......ha ha ha Patient 3: I have an appointment too, I think I will yell at her and tell her that she is the reason for all of my problems in life. What about you? Patient 1: I am going to cancel and show up anyway and say that I didn't cancel, then get irate and insanly beligerent, then when someone else walks in pretend that I don't know what the hell she is talking about. I think this week we can break her..... While all this is going on I sit completely oblivious to the chaos that is about to slam into me. I am evidently the ro

50 Mistakes Women Make While Having Sex
1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out. 2. Thinking that kissing needs to be this sweet romantic thing all the time. Sometimes pressing your lips against your partners mouth while you get off is the hot. It depends on the situation. 3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoozing and you're all wound up. 4. Expecting him to cuddle. Men and women are wired differently. Sex makes most women want to talk and bond and all that shit. It makes men pass out. It's a biological thing. Stop fighting it, and stop holding it over his head, it's not his fault. 5. Expecting him to fall asleep with you in his arms. That shit is uncomfortable after awhile. A little snuggling isn't unreasonable, but when it's t

Drunk Driving,being A Good Samaritian,and The Rabbid Squirrels
Well it's been quite a week for me....the new yr started of fuckin GREAT!!! good friends good times and good music. spent monday just chillin out recovering from the weekend..nothing exciting..ENTER TUESDAY!!!! (cue dramatic music) Started off by driving all the way to fremont for an appointment to get my window fixed on my car...get there and they over booked so they couldn't get my car in......grrr (not like gas is cheap!!!) so get back to B.G. decide to go to the (s)mall and get me a new book.went and got it. and then on the way home some kid fuckin rear ends me! no damage to the car so I let it go...I got 1 ticket for already for kickin some guys truck door in for clippin the front of my car. so I get home and read for awhile.... Tuesday night..Matt,Dan, and myself decide to go out for martini night @ Skybar..it's been a rough week or so for Dan so it would be good to get out and have some fun..we all had a couple and went back to work out..well that was the plan for me till I

Chapter 14 { The Invisbel Man
XIV. AT PORT STOWE Ten o'clock the next morning found Mr. Marvel, unshaven, dirty, and travel-stained, sitting with the books beside him and his hands deep in his pockets, looking very weary, nervous, and uncomfortable, and inflating his cheeks at infrequent intervals, on the bench outside a little inn on the outskirts of Port Stowe. Beside him were the books, but now they were tied with string. The bundle had been abandoned in the pine-woods beyond Bramblehurst, in accordance with a charge in the plans of the Invisible Man. Mr. Marvel sat on the bench, and although no one took the slightest notice of him, his agitation remained at fever heat. His hands would go ever and again to his various pockets with a curious nervous fumbling. When he had been sitting for the best part of an hour, however, an elderly mariner, carrying a newspaper, came out of the inn and sat down beside him. "Pleasant day," said the mariner. Mr. Marvel glanced about him with something very like terror. "V

**** The Street Soldier ******
***************The Street Soldier*************** BY *********The Poet Magic Mike C-Towns Finest****** THIS IS A POEM ABOUT THE GRIND,AND IT IS ALL TRUE AS SEEN THROUGH MY MIND..A FATHER FIGHTS TO KEEP HIS FAMILY TOGETHER, WORKING AND HUSTLING THESE MEAN STREETS NO MATTER THE WEATHER.. JUST TRYING TO TO MAKE ENDS MEET, TO HELP HIS FAMILY HE MUST WORK THE STREET.. FROM EARLY MORNING TO LATE AT NIGHT, HE CAN'T MISS A SINGLE TRICK OR HYPE HE HAS TO BE SMART AND CLEVER, BECAUSE HE KNOWS HE CAN'T DO THIS FOREVER.. THEN HE IS BLESSED WITH A BOY CHILD, AND HE KNOWS THAT HIS SON BELONGS IN NO COPS FILE..SO HE LEAVES THE BLOCK HE WORKED FOR SO LONG, AND NOW TO HIS FAMILY HE RUSHES HOME..HE NOW WORKS AT A CAR WASH FROM SUN UP TO SUN DOWN, NOT MUCH MONEY BUT HE JUST CAN LET THE FAMILY DOWN.. SO HE WORKS TWO JOBS AND SOMETIMES THREE, AND THIS SON HE LOVES SO MUCH HE CAN BARELY GET TO SEE.. HE IS ALWAYS AT WORK TO GIVE HIS SON A BETTER LIFE, NOT REALIZING HE IS REALLY CAU

10 Ways To Put Passion Back In The Bedroom
Are you ready to take your passion to a new level? These tips are sure to take just about any relationship from ho-hum to WOW! Some ideas may seem like basic romance… but let's be honest… when was the last time you ACTUALLY did them? That's right… the only way for this to work is to put the ideas into practice. Try all 10 and see what happens! Take a hot shower or bath together. When you are in the bath or shower, keep close physical contact. Wash each other and whisper in their ear the things you specifically love about making love to them. Share a romantic dinner in front of the fireplace. Nothing speaks romance like sharing a meal in front of the glow of a burning fire. It's even better if you're nude or barely covered with lace and silk. Make sure the dinner you share is conducive to a romantic setting. Food that can easily be eaten with the least amount of utensils is usually your best bet! Keep constant close physical contact when you are not at home. Keeping

My New Rap
THIS IS THE MUSIC TO GO WITH IT Aint a nigga on the grind but im straight street Everywhere I go man I gotta pack heat Rollin wit my niggas yo we dat famed fleet Aint nothin changed man im still the same G Another day another dollar its still the same fight Sleep all day and run the streets nigga all night Your hood my hood its still the same sight My hoods just like yours just a little less bright When you roll through Green Run you better break bread It don’t matter who you wit or what the fuck they said My niggas come out the shadows and leave ya ass for dead They da sheriff you da outlaw theres a price on yo head I seen the big lights they don’t fuckin phase me The problem with stars is they too fuckin lazy But don’t go gettin buck dog don’t call me crazy If you do ill leave yo ass ghost like Patrick Swayze People that I meet never cease to amaze me No matter where you go theres always someone shady But they don’t bother me I just let them graze me I aint go

Fucking Rant !
what do i have to do to find someone reliable trustworthy and faithful on this site? beg?? kill??? do more weed???? WHAT! i'm so sick of finding people that i have a great time with they do something wrong or decide that they don't want to be that close after a few weeks something goes wrong anyway and i'm left in this mode where i'm expecting to have a good time with these people and its not happening anymore! why is it soooo hard to be honest and trustworthy i mean would it kill you people?? i don't think it would kill you i mean i think it would make you better people in the fucking long run so SHAPE UP GET YOUR ASS OUTTA THE FAKE PERSON POOL AND START BEING GOOD!

Giving Head
Penis breath, a lover's dread, Is what you get when you give head. Unpleasant as it tends to be, Be grateful that he doesn't pee. It's times like this, you wonder why, You bothered reaching for his fly. But it's too late, can't be a tease, Accept the facts, get on your knees. You know you've got a job to do, So open wide and shove it through, Lick the tip then take it all. Don't drag your teeth or he might bawl. Slide up and down, use your tongue. And feel the precum start to run, Your jaw it aches, your neck is numb, So when the hell's he gonna cum? Just, when you can't take anymore, You hear your lover's mighty roar. And when he hits that real high note, You feel it oozing down your throat. Salty, fishy, sticky stuff, Okay already, that's enough. Let's switch you say, before you gag, And what revenge, you're on the rag!

Confused
OK BECAUSE YA MEET SOMEONE ON THE INTERNET AND SPEND COUNTLESS HOURS/DAY TALKING GETTING TO KNOW THEM AND YOU TELLING THEM THINGS ONLY YOU WOULD TELL YOUR BEST FRIEND, IS IT NOT SUPPOSE TO HURT WHEN THEY JUST DUMP YA LIKE THAT? THEN SAY ITS NOT YOU ITS THEM? IT F*CKIN HURTS, BUT ITS INTERNET...... IS IT NOT SUPPOSE TO HURT? IM CONFUSED

Anyone Interested In Making Some Money?
Im looking for some serious people, to make money at home typing data, for me. It's not to be confused with a get rich quick scam. If you think you may be interested e-mail me and leave your details: andy_b_home@yahoo.co.uk Thanks Andrew Briggs

A Man Is:
So, here is a little exercise. I want you to write what " A man is to you". Here is mine. ============= A man is… -Someone who focuses on his dreams. -Someone who does not apologize for his testosterone, i.e. for his desires. -Some who never feels he has to prove himself to anyone. -Someone who feels his sexuality and is not afraid to show it Ok, so what is yours?

Hmmmm Wtf?!?
WELL OKAY..... SO I THINK IT'S FUNNY AS HELL... I SEE REPOSTS FOR CONTESTS AND LOUNGES.... BUT WHEN SOMEONE POSTS ABOUT KIDS... NO ONE LOOKS!! SO, WHAT DID I HAVE TO PUT? "HEY WANNA SEE ME NAKED"? I DON'T GET IT.... SO FAR TWO PEOPLE HAVE READ MY BLOG ABOUT THE SAME THING, THANK YOU BOTH..... YOU BOTH KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I THINK IT'S FRICKEN STUPID!!! WHY IS IT THAT PEOPLE COME HERE TO HAVE FUN, AND GET TO KNOW PEOPLE, BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THE REAL WORLD BULLETINS, THEY PUSH IT ASIDE? I'VE SEEN PEOPLE READ BULLETINS ABOUT, "IF WE HAD SEX" OR, "24 HOURS ALONE WITH ME" OR SOMETHING EQUALLY LAME...... WHO CARES? I MEAN ARE YOU ACTUALLY GOING TO MEET THAT PERSON? OUT OF ALL MY FRIENDS ON HERE, I CAN SAY, SURE I'D LIKE TO MEET A GOOD PORTION OF YOU, BUT WILL IT HAPPEN? UHMMM NOT LIKELY, UNLESS LOTS OF STRINGS ARE PULLED AND SACRIFICES ARE MADE. I CAN SERIOUSLY NAME A HAND FULL OF PEOPLE, I'D ACTUALLY GO OUT OF MY WAY TO MEET.... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! ANYWAYS...THIS ENDS THIS BLOG! SINCER

Let's Do Some Gardening In Our Lifes To Make Us Grow Better As People
Here are 10 ways to bring more growth into your life as spring approaches: 1. Rethink Your Landscape. Adopting a new perspective is the first step to successful re-potting. Just as some plants need a different environment if they are to thrive, you need to start thinking in new ways, too. Ask yourself: What is really important to me? What trade-offs do I need to make to bring more light and meaning into my personal garden? What will bring color to my landscape? For example, if you are constantly traveling for work, but missing important family activities and milestones, you could revisit career/family priorities, and after consulting with colleagues and supervisors, make adjustments to your travel schedule. 2. Realize That Planting Is a Process. Slow down and create time in your schedule to research new avenues for personal growth. Don’t be afraid of empty spaces. A friend of ours who cut back on her schedule immediately filled the open time slots with new activities. Remember

Recently, I Was Diagnosed With A. A. A. D. D. - Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder
Recently, I was diagnosed with A. A. A. D. D. - Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder. This is how it manifests: I decide to water my garden. As I turn on the hose in the driveway, I look over at my car and decide it needs to be washed. As I start toward the garage, I notice that there is mail on the porch Table that I brought up from the mail box earlier. I decide to go through the mail before I wash the car. I lay my car keys down on the table, put the junk mail in the garbage can Under the table, and notice that the can is full. So, I decide to put the bills back on the table and take out the garbage First. But then I think, since I'm going to be near the mailbox when I take out The garbage anyway, I may as well pay the bills first. I take my check book off the table, and see that there is only 1 check left. My extra checks are in my desk in the study, so I go inside the house to My desk where I find the can of Coke that I had been drinking. I'm going to look for my checks, but

" Go Fuck A Goat" And The Frequent Pier Card.
I told three people yesterday to "go fuck a goat." I did not utter these words in anger, but thru snorts of laughter....(Yes I snort). I ignore most. I do not have the time to answer everyone who asks to see my vagina. Only the very crude get asked to go fuck a goat. "Hey sexy" *yawn* "let me be your god *puke* "Nice ass. I wanna see more." *eyeroll* These scroll by.... I ignore. I do not talk to many people in the shout box. And I usually do not give out my Yahoo. "Hey Goddess...lets fuck" heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeK!!!! I inhale a squeak. I imagine that I sound very pig like. "Go fuck a goat! mutherfuckaaaa." I type back. A smile hitches my mouth. I love the multiple a's. They make me happy. "Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!?" he types back. I roll my eyes. Oh HE'S offended. At the top of my screen I see a woman's profile with this name "CUM HELP ME FILL UP MY HOLE." I click on it save the link and shout box it to that guy. There. Don't say I nevah gave you nut

The Coupling Of Passion And Erotic Lusts
With the hint of hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, As the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, To abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, Probing gently as if drawing sex, From a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, Of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, Our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece, Until there were no hiding places, For the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, As the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, And lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, Your hands stroked the stray strands, Away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way, To urgent and demanding thrusts of passion, A

I Love My Kids Enough To Spread The Word.....
If U care about ur kids whether their urs or friends then send this to every parent/guardian you know. This is absolutely insane! McDonalds, Chuck E Cheese, Discovery Zone... Some of you might not be parents, but you may have nieces, nephews, grandchildren or friends with children. This will pertain to you too. As I read the following, my heart sank. I urge each and every one of you to pass this on to as many people as you can. I cannot stress how important this is! This is very disturbing news. In addition to the following true story... One son lost his watch, and was very upset. We dug and dug in those balls, trying to find the watch. Instead, we found vomit, food, feces, and other stuff I do not want to discuss. I went to the manager and raised hell. Come to find out, the ball pit is only cleaned out once a month. I have doubts that it is even done that often. My kids will never play in another ball pit. Now read this: Hi. My n

A Perfect Ending
Lingering in the moment, lost in your eyes, Content, I cherish the sweet surprise. Kissing tongues tangle, making me ache, No longer can I wait, for you to take. Laying back, I plead without words, As if hidden lips could somehow be heard, Raising hips high to greet your stare, Hoping to speak to some part of you aware. I Beckon please enter with no hesitation, Yet you stand firm, with no reservation, Taunting me, teasing me, grin on your face, Admiring how you've put me in place. Then suddenly, you grant relief, Knowing now I must have peace. Penetrating with your pride, Charging, you thrust deep inside. Planting feet upon your chest, To brace us both, I do my best, Not to scream loud like before, When places reached cut to the core. Wondering if you're hurting me, You ease mo-men-tar-ily, Slowing, then come "please-don't-stop" please, Whimpering I'm at your mercy. Back in our entrancing dance, I catch your eyes stealing a glance, At contorted exp

As You Slide Down The Banister Of Life, Remember:
As You Slide Down the Banister of Life, Remember: 1. Jim Baker and Jim my Swaggert have written an impressive new book. It's called "Ministers Do More Than Lay People." 2. Transvestite: A guy who likes to eat, drink and be Mary. 3. The difference between the Pope and your boss...the Pope only expects you to kiss his ring. 4. My mind works like lightning. One brilliant flash and it is gone. 5. The only time the world beats a path to your door is if you're in the bathroom. 6. I hate sex in the movies. Tried it once. The seat folded up, the drink spilled and that ice, well, it really chilled the mood. 7. It used to be only death and taxes were inevitable. Now, of course,there's shipping and handling, too. 8.. A husband is someone who, after taking the trash out, gives the impression that he just cleaned the whole house. 9. My next house will have no kitchen - just vending machines and a large trash can. 10. A blonde said, "I was worried that my

Be Strong
A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed. He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife: "Listen, this guy's an escaped prisoner, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you." To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"

Bad Luck Blue Eyes
With my winter time My idols and stage fright In another night Where the lights are loud and bright One dream from waking up saved Too shy to hold in the rage I know no luxury Of knowing what your eyes read I know one million ways To always pick the wrong thing to say A love that you never gave Always a time zone away It's not out of spite I know what's right Bad Luck Blue Eyes Goodbye Sometimes a memory Only sees what it wants to believe And what's filled in between Are days and nights that don't mean a thing Such a simple suicide A second chance never tried And you don't understand I need a helping hand So you think that you've seen it all Is that a fact? So out your mouth a dictionary Spouts about this and that You got your do's, your don'ts Because and why I don't trust no one who don't Take their own advice Bad Luck Blue Eyes Goodbye

I'm Piss Off. Read It And Repost Asap
Texas Teen Gets 7 Years for Pushing Teacher By Tracy Stokes, BET.com News Staff & Wire Services Posted March 28, 2007 – In Paris, Texas, last year, a 14-year-old White girl burns down her family's home. Her punishment? Probation. In the same town three months later, a 15-year-old Black girl, Shaquanda Cotton, is sentenced to seven years in prison for pushing a hall monitor at her high school. Shaquanda had no prior arrests, and the monitor, a 58-year-old teacher’s aide, was not hurt, according to Black leaders in the northeast Texas town of about 26,000 residents. But in March 2006, the same judge, Lamar County Judge Chuck Superville, who let the White teenage girl go on probation, convicted Shaquanda of "assault on a public servant" and sent her to prison at least until she turns 21. Officials at the Texas Youth Commission declined to discuss the case with BET.com, citing Texas law. "State law forbids us from acknowledging whether we have any youths are in our system, d

Yesterday's!!!!
Yesterday I wept to hear the words that were said. We spoke of our life together and you marked that shit as dead. No more idle kisses and no more I love yous. We once were as one but now we’ve come back to two. Each one so much different in judgment and in thought Despite our lessons together both learned and taught Your teachings have marked me for life this I know When I said my feelings had changed Id lied Please Don’t go Then here today I almost wept I turned and I cried I’ve long cherished this love that has seemed to have Died And I tried not to show all the destruction in side And I had it under control till you left then I cried My arms ached to hold you and my lips stung for your kiss My heart was so broken how'd I let it come to this……WITHOUT YOU? Without you here in my life Who am I to be? And were am I to go? What am I to become? And what I to feel? Without you with me in my life And if I ever find another To come and be here by my side I know s

Hopeless
The hopeless romantic ends up alone. Isn't it a shame? So much love to give. Each day a guessing game. The hopeless romantic left out in the cold. Lying alone in her self pity. Where did it go wrong? Lost in this filthy city. The hopeless romantic is just hopeless. Living life as a dream. Making more of nothing. Always swimming upstream. The hopeless romantic is tired. She needs more but is getting older. With each day that passes by, she settles. Her heart grows colder.

A Ballad In Urgency
Here with me And this price you pay Just a wishful dream could be blown away Ask yourself for better or worse Because whats the use if its just good luck A black cat has crossed my path Tell me whats good luck about that Hate and greed Swollen and sweet Lets start this misery If thats where you wanna be Fear and love From down or form up above Come to me Come to me I bet you please Come set me free Excuse me please For my definition But deeper still are my convictions Urgently I wait to hear an answer While I misconduct A sad lost anthem An anthem like you have never heard Have you heard something so absurd Hate and greed Swollen and sweet Lets start this misery If thats where you wanna be Fear and love From down or form up above Come to me Come to me I bet you please Come set me free

Kid Rock -- Lonely Road Of Faith
Up and down that lonely road of faith I have been there Unprepared for the storms and the tides that rise I've realized one thing, how much I love you And it hurts to see, see you cryin' I believe we can make it through the winds of change God is great indeed If you believe, in the everlife Yeah we gotta Make some sense of the piece that's not defined And if you just hold on, I wont let ya fall We can make it through the storms and the winds of change Though I walk through the valley of darkness I am not afraid Cause I know I'm not alone And if the wind blows east, would you follow me And if the wind blows north, would ya stay your course And if the wind blows west, would ya second guess And if it blows to the south, would you count me out And if the sun don't shine, would you still be mine And if the sky turns grey, would you walk away Would you say I do, if I say I'll be And walk this road through life w

Kid Rock -- You Never Met A Mother Fucker Quite Like Me
Yep I've been on the cover of the Rolling Stone I met the president when I was half stoned I been so high I've gotten confused I been beat down, broke and used Motherfucker I drank with hank, talked blues with Billy Rocked with Run sang with shotgun Willy Went from small time philly to big time Bobby From 3 day old chili to saki with wosabi I'm home hey I'm home You never met a motherfucker quite like me Not like me, dida dada like me, hey like me No more bein' poured drink specials at winners Or being ignored by the think straight sinners I used to smoke pinners while my moms made dinner Now I smoke bombs and rock with Lynyrd skynyrd No beginners here I'm a seasoned vet Educated on jazz by my man Amed Heard again my friend I been the world n back But I'm Michigan boy can you feel that And I'm home You never met a motherfucker quite like me Not like me, God damn like me, hey hey like me Never th

Kid Rock -- Picture
Livin' my life in a slow hell Different girl every night at the hotel I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky Wish I had a good girl to miss me Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways I put your picture away Sat down and cried today I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her I put your picture away, sat down and cried today I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her I called you last night in the hotel Everyone knows but they wont tell But their half hearted smiles tell me Somethin' just ain't right I been waitin' on you for a long time Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I saw ya yesterday with an old friend

Kid Rock -- Devil Without A Cause
You knew that I was coming 'cause you heard my name But you don't know my game and never felt my pain Can't read my brain but you read my lips And got scared when you heard that I was coming with hits Now don't even trip, be a man instead Give thanks I'm alive when I should be dead I'm in the red 'cause my mind's distortin’ People claimin' that they know me, but they only know a portion I'ma move mountains and touch the sun Don't get scared now, you knew this day would come So hold your bids, all bets are closed And fuck all you hoes 'Cause it's been a long time comin' But I finally broke...like an egg yolk I ain't no joke Like some uncut dope motherfucker, Kid Rock's to blame Same game, same name, ain't a damn thing changed No sell-out, I ain't no hoe, fuck the radio...comin' from the R-O-M-E-O Watch me throw like a fist of rage Self-made and paid and sawed off 12 gauges Up that ass for the 9-8 Never fake, shake, straight fro

Kid Rock -- Forever
I'm back (back) the fog has lifted The earth has shifted and raised the gifted You knew I'd be back so pack your bone And hit the road jack cause daddy's home With the funky hot rifs Thick like Al Rowker Pumpin out hits Gettin chips like Oprah Bitch I told ya, do not hate Or question the music i make (uh) I make punk rock and I mix it with the hip hop I get you higher then a tree top You wanna roll with the Kid Rock I make southern rock And i mix it with the hip hop I got money like Fort Knox I'll forever been the Kid Rock Forever The junkies are, still cigar puffin Still the same cause I ain't changed nothin Huffin and puffin I got you rookies All in check doin' the redneck boogie The king is back to retract the whack Repacked my sack with a double deck pack Forget all that i'm still singin And like kids on monkey bars i'm still swingin Thought I got dusty Thought I'd get rusty

Waking In Worlds.
Opening her eyes she finds she is no longer where she was when she closed them. She looks at herself and sees she has on a little low cut blue dress with a white apron that cuts about three inches above her knee, and black flats. "Great," she thought "I'm Alice." After comming to the conclusion of who she is supposed to be she takes a look around at her surroundings. The walls are warped and bulging and the windows hang crooked. There are doors on all sides some black and some blue. The floor is a twisted mess of black and white checkers and the are gaping holes just waiting for someone to fall in. "Oh very original." She laughs sarcastically. Walking along carefully manuvering around the traps she find a mirror. Unlike the Alice she knows whoes hair is yellow, her hair is jet black and falls just past her shoulders. Her lips are painted a blood red, and her eyes are a deep emerald green instead of the gray they usually are. She smiles revealing pearly whites, "Hmmmm, why

Ms Symptoms
When we say we can't do something because we don't feel well, put yourself in our shoes by using the examples of our symptoms below--- What You Can do To Understand Painful Heavy Legs... Apply tightly 20 lb ankle weights and 15 lb thigh weights then take a 1 mile walk, clean the house, go shopping and then sit down - how ya' feeling now? Painful Feet... Put equal or unequal amounts of small pebbles in each shoe then take a walk. Loss of Feeling in Hands and/or Arms... Put on extra thick gloves and a heavy coat then try and pick up a pencil, if successful, stab yourself in the arm. Loss of Feeling in Feet and/or Legs... Ask a doc for a shot of novocaine in both of your legs and then try and stand up and walk. TN (Trigeminal Neuralgia). ..Take an ice pick and jam it into your ear or cheek whenever the wind blows on it, or a stray hair touches it. If you want something easier to do, get someone to punch you in the jaw, preferably daily. Uncontrollable Itching... Glue or

Kid Rock -- American Badass
Yeah And I set up and tore down this stage with my own two hands We've travel this land packed tight in mini vans And all this for the fans, girls, money, and fame I played their game And as they scream my name I will show no shame I live and die for this And if I come off soft Then chew on this Are you scared? Devil Without A Cause And I'm back with the beaver hats And Ben Davis slacks Thirty pack of Strohs Thirty pack of hoes No rogaine and the propane flows The chosen one I'm the living proof With the gift of gab From the city of truth I jabbed and stabbed And knocked critics back And I did not stutter when I said that I'm going platinum Sellin rhymes I went platinum Seven times And still they ill They wanna see us fry I guess because Only God Knows Why Why why why why Ohhhhhhhhhhhh They call me cowboy, I'm the singer in black So throw a finger in the air

So Fuck It...goodbye
sO FuCK It...GooDByE Ripping like tidal waves through my veins Its the rush of the darkest moment from pain The split second you hear those intensified words The ones that leave the stomach flipping with turns Sight blacking in and out no peripheral view Trying to comprehend these words I'm not use to Heart starts to skip Sweat starts to drip Mind starts to trip Fuck get a grip She speaks again i cover my ears wipe my tears As i think to myself we've had to many years So many years and so many memories But half of those years we were nothing but enemies Hold on Stay steady Don't shake Get ready On that thought alone i gaze past her cold eyes Thanks for the good times the bad times the lies This is the end of my sleepless night cries Here's my farewell to our lost love failed tries I look down at the ground look back up in a frown This is all i know now So Fuck it GOODBYE

Be Honest With Yourself
Golf is a funny sport in that it mirrors life on a grand scale. It is a sport in which you will get out exactly what you put into it. It is a game that you can talk about for years and still not cover everything and it is a game that takes years to learn. You can play it for a lifetime and still not be as good as you want to. It forces one to be completely honest with ones self, for at the end of a round nothing can change how you actually did, no matter what you say and it is always only you against the course. A game where you can be as good as you want, you can play it simply to relax on a weekend now and then or you can play it to be the best in the world, most importantly, your world. Hell, you can even make it your religon. Each time you play whether it is only yourself or you get placed with some people or even playing in a tournament; it always comes down to how well you do against the course and in a tournament the winner is usually the one whoe does best against what

Pregnant
So everyone im pregnant FINALLY i will be 2 months in like 2 weeks. And for everyone who knows that Nick and I were having some serious relationship problems we are staying together hopefully it all works out we will be a year in may ohh and the estimated due date for the baby is Nov 23 so yea

New Job
hell fuckin yeah, i just got a new job offer today and they pay 3 dollars more a hour...!!!woo hooooooooo...hate to leave where im working now but the money is calling me....steph come on and take the job, remember more money means more stuff, FOR ME!!!

Kid Rock -- I Am The Bullgod
I am the bullgod...I am free...and I feed on all that is forsaken I'm gonna get you....I see through you...I'm gonna get you I'm like a train I roll hard...lettin' off much steam In the Carhart flannel and dusty jeans baby I never was cool with James Dean But I be hanging tough with my man Jim Beam I swing low like a chimp Back in '86 man I was seein' a shrink But now I'm humble and I can only think About New Orleans and those jumbo shrimp So ask no questions and I'll tell no lies I got big ol' pupils and blood shot eyes I'm on the brink if you know what I mean And a 12 step program couldn't keep me clean 'Cause I'm the bullgod...you understand The illegitimate son of man The T-O-P to the D-O-G Or the P-O-T to the G-O-D And I'm trippin' Said I'm trippin' I am the bullgod...I am free...and I feed on all that is forsaken I'm gonna get you...I see through you...I'm gonna get you A lot of people poke fun and that's alright

Kid Rock -- Bawitdaba
[Chorus fades in] Bawitdaba-da-bang-da-dang-diggy-diggy-diggy-said-the boogie-said-up-jump-the-boogie. Bawitaba-da-bang-da-dang-diggy-diggy-diggy-said-the boogie-said-up-jump-the- boogie.(5X) My name is Kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidddddddddd. Kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidddddddddddddddddddd Roooooooock!! Bawitdaba-da-bang-da-dang-diggy-diggy-diggy-said-the boogie-said-up-jump-the- boogie. (4x) And this is for the questions that don't have any answers The midnight glancers and the topless dancers The gander freaks, cars packed with speakers The G's with the forties and the chicks with beepers The Northern Lights and the Southern Comfort And it don't even matter if the veins are punctured All the crackheads, the critics, the cynics And my heros in the Methodone Clinic All you bastards in the IRS For the crooked cops and the cluttered desks For the shots of jack and the caps of meth Half pints of love and the fifths o

Kid Rock -- Cowboy
{In a mechanical voice} Cowboy. Cowboy. Well I'm packing up my game and I'm a head out west Where real women come equipped with scripts and fake breasts Find a nest in the hills chill like Flynt Buy an old droptop find a spot to pimp And I'm a Kid Rock it up and down your block With a bottle of scotch and watch lots of crotch Buy yacht with a flag sayin' chillin' the most Then rock that bitch up and down the coast Give a toast to the sun, drink with the stars Get thrown in the mix and tossed out of bars Sip the Tijuana...I wanna roam Find the motown chillin' fools then come back home Start an escort service, for all the right reasons And set up shop at the top of four seasons Kid Rock and I'm the real mccoy And I'm headin' out west sucker...because I wanna be a Cowboy baby With the top let back and the sunshine shining Cowboy baby West coast chillin’ with the Boone's Wine I wanna be a Cowboy baby Ridin' at night 'cause I

Kid Rock -- Only God Knows Why
I've been sittin' hear Tryin' to find myself I get behind myself I need to rewind myself Lookin’ for the payback Listen for the playback They say that every man bleeds just like me And now I feel like number one Yet I'm last in life I watch my younger son And it helps to pass the time I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain I made a couple of dollar bills still I feel the same Everybody knows my name They say it way out loud A lot of folks fuck me It's hard to hang out in crowds I guess that's the price you pay To be some big shot like I am Outstretched hands and one night stands Still I can't find love And when your walls come tumbling down I will always be around And when your walls come tumbling down I will always be around People don't know about the things I say and do They don't understand about the shit that I've been through It's been so long since I've been home I've been gone....I've b

Nickleback -- How You Remind Me
Never made it as a wise man I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin' Tired of livin' like a blind man I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling This is how you remind me This is how you remind me of what I really am It's not like you to say sorry, I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken for handing you a heart worth breaking I've been wrong, I've been down, been to the bottom of every bottle These five words in my head scream "are we havin' fun yet?" It's not like you didn't know that I said I love you and I swear I still do And it must have been so bad Cause livin' with me must have damn near killed you This is how you remind me of what I really am This is how you remind me of what I really am It's not like you to say sorry, I was waiting on a different story This time I'm mistaken for handing you a heart worth breaking I've been wrong, I've been down, been to the bottom of every bottle These five words in my head scream "are we havin'

Nickleback -- So Far Away
This time, This place Misused, Mistakes Too long, Too late Who was I to make you wait Just one chance Just one breath Just in case thereâ€™s just one left â€˜Cause you know, you know, you know Â That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming youâ€™ll be with me and youâ€™ll never go Stop breathing if I donâ€™t see you anymore Â On my knees, Iâ€™ll ask Last chance for one last dance â€˜Cause with you, Iâ€™d withstand All of hell to hold your hand Iâ€™d give it all Iâ€™d give for us Give anything but I wonâ€™t give up â€˜Cause you know, you know, you know Â That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming youâ€™ll be with me and youâ€™ll never go Stop breathing if I donâ€™t see you anymore Â So far away Been far away for far too long So far away Been far away for far too long But you know, you know, you know Â I wanted

Sad Poem!
I went to a party, And remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mom, so I had a sprite instead. I felt proud of myself, The way you said I would, that I didn't drink and drive, though some friends said I should. I made a healthy choice, And your advice to me was right. The party finally ended, and the kids drove out of sight. I got into my car, Sure to get home in one piece. I never knew what was coming, Mom, something I expected least. Now I'm lying on the pavement, And I hear the policeman say, the kid that caused this wreck was drunk, Mom, hi! s voice seems far away. My own blood's all around me, As I try hard not to cry. I can hear the paramedic say, this girl is going to die. I'm sure the guy had no idea, While he was flying high. Because he chose to drink and drive, now I would have to die. So why do people do it, Mom Knowing that it ruins lives? And now the pain is cutting me, like a hundred stabbing knives. Tell sister

Nickleback -- Photograph
Look at this photograph Every time I do it makes me laugh How did our eyes get so red? And what the hell is on Joeyâ€™s head? This is where I grew up I think the present owner fixed it up I never knew we ever went without The second floor is hard for sneakinâ€™ out This is where I went to school Most of the time had better things to do Criminal record says I broke in twice I mustâ€™ve done it half a dozen times I wonder if itâ€™s too late Should I go back and try to graduate Lifeâ€™s better now than it was back then If I was them, I wouldnâ€™t let me in Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor Itâ€™s hard to say Itâ€™s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say Itâ€™s time to say it Goodbye, Goodbye Remember the old arcade Blew every dollar that we ever made The cops hated us hanginâ€

Just So You Know
ok i made a comment on someone elsa blog about being rated a one because i would not listen to someone on my list who did nothing but bitch and moan about how there life suck well the only reason it suck so bad is because there ass was on here 24 7 and not spending it with there wife who even told him thats what the problem was....so go ahead and rate me whatever you want ...it doesnt hurt me in one bit it just shows how very stupid you are for not knowing the whole picture before you go and do something..if thats how you feel about me then get the hell off my friends and fan list i dont need people like you as friends....i support my friends who are in the service 100% if that bothers you i dont give a rats ass...now its your choice...

Damn I Love It
damn it feels good to have my lovly wife back in my arms again to love and to hold forever and it also feels good to be away from the my living hell which is Norfolk VA away from all the assholes that live there and away from a blood sucking apt complex called The Gates Of West Bay no longer to be annoyed by dickhead neighbors and no longer have to worry about my wife being ok cause i can be there for her now and forever to the end of days PYRO

My Page
Just wanted to tell everyone that I've been making changes on my page....new background....new display name....and gonna be adding some new music....and maybe even some new pics....lol....who knows....just making changes....so...let me know what ya think!!! Have a great day!!! xoxoxox

The One Bum I Ever Gave Money To.
Recently, there was a mumm about whether or not people give money to the poor. My first response was pretty caustic, just thinking of all the fucking bums feigning helplessness to get my money. Those fuckers can rot in hell. After my caustic response, there was another comment I saw on it that reminded me of the only bum I ever gave money to. Since the greatly abridged version I posted in the mumm doesn't suffice for me as far as telling the story, I'm posting it here again. I think the year was 1998 or 1999. Three friends of mine and I got a hair up our asses about going to New Orleans to experience Mardi Gras. I was the oldest in the group at 22 or 23 years old. We ventured down in my old 1984 Thunderbird, complete with loose rear axle, and realistically, not road worthy enough to make the trip. We did it anyway (and we still made it from Baltimore to New Orleans in 12 hours - with a four hour stop at a friend's house on the way down). Ah, to be a kid and invincible a

Nickleback -- Saving Me
Prison gates wonâ€™t open up for me On these hands and knees Iâ€™m crawlinâ€™ Oh, I reach for you Well Iâ€™m terrified of these four walls These iron bars canâ€™t hold my soul in All I need is you Come please Iâ€™m callinâ€™ And oh I scream for you Hurry Iâ€™m fallinâ€™ Show me what itâ€™s like To be the last one standing And teach me wrong from right And Iâ€™ll show you what I can be Say it for me Say it to me And Iâ€™ll leave this life behind me Say it if itâ€™s worth saving me Heavenâ€™s gates wonâ€™t open up for me With these broken wings Iâ€™m fallinâ€™ And all I see is you These city walls ainâ€™t got no love for me Iâ€™m on the ledge of the eighteenth story And oh I scream for you Come please Iâ€™m callinâ€™ And all I need from you Hurry Iâ€™m fallinâ€™ Show me what itâ€™s like To be the last one standing And teach me wrong from right And Iâ€™ll show you what I can be Say it for me Say it to me And Iâ€™ll leave this life behind me Say it

Inquisition
Inquisition There are so many things you need to do to please the human race you need to talk like them and walk like them and look like fantasies born Why should I be a clone? a figment of perverse imagination? Why can't they see the inner being? Does living always have to feel like a living curse? Why are all the hiding places taken? Questions asked are never answered find yourself through your tour of pain Welcome to this heartless nation where attraction is warped insane Bend over backwards hurdle over boulders Clean yourself up and cut your hair They'll never be satisfied no matter what you look like just as long as you're controllable inside like a fucking mind slave So why is it fat or thin they whine and stick their nose up their asses long hair, short hair, black or white schizophrenic tastes for schizophrenic minds Questions asked are never answered find yourself touring pain Talk into an empty well and hear your hollow

One Of These Type Of Days
TAKING BACK SUNDAY "Cute Without The "E" (Cut From The Team)" Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel I know exactly what goes on When everything you'll get is everything that you've wanted, princess (well which would you prefer) My finger on the trigger, or (me face down, down across your floor) Me face down, down across your floor (me face down, down across your floor) Well just so long as this thing's loaded And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking And will you tell all your friends you've got your gun to my head This all was only wishful thinking, this all was only wishful thinking let's go... Don't bother trying to explain Angel I know exactly what goes on when you're on and How about I'm outside of your window (how about I'm outside of your window) Watching him keep the details covered You're such a sucker (you're such

My First Contest
I have joined my first contest. Kind of on a whim. But it is the sexiest trouser snake contest. The first link that I sent does not appear to work. This is the guys page that is hosting the contest. ~Gay_Countryboy~(BOUNCER & MEMBER OF GLBT~GOT PRIDE~FAMILY)~On CT~@ CherryTAP If you have the time and are inclined to see a bunch of mens privates parts, please stop by and drop a few comments. Thanks, Bobby

Nelly -- Dilemma
I love and I need you Nelly, I love you, I do Need you No matter what I do All I think about is you Even when I’m with my Boo Boy, you know I’m crazy over you No matter what I do All I think about is you Even when I’m with my Boo You know I’m crazy over you Uh-uh-uh-uh I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me And she got the hots for me, the finest thing I need to see But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son, oh-oh, but that’s okay ‘Cause I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position Like a shortstop, pick up e’rything mami hittin’ And in no time I better make this friend mine and that’s for sure ‘Cause I-I never been the type to break up a happy home But there’s something ‘bout baby girl, I just can’t leave her ‘lone So tell me, ma, what’s it gonna be She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on No matter what I do All I think about is you Even when I’m with my Boo Boy, you know I’m crazy o

Nelly -- Country Grammer
(HOT SHIT!) Chorus: [Nelly] Hmmmmm I'm goin down down baby, yo' street in a Range Rover (c'mon) Street sweeper baby, cocked ready to let it go (HOT SHIT!) Shimmy shimmy cocoa what? Listen to it pound Light it up and take a puff, pass it to me now I'm goin down down baby, yo' street in a Range Rover Street sweeper baby, cocked ready to let it go Shimmy shimmy cocoa what? Listen to it pound Light it up and take a puff, pass it to me now [Nelly] Mmmmm, you can find me, in St. Louis rollin on dubs Smokin on dubs in clubs, blowin up like cocoa puffs Sippin Bud, gettin perved and getting dubbed Daps and hugs, mean mugs and shoulder shrugs And it's all because, 'ccumulated enough stretch just to navigate it, wood decorated on chrome and it's candy painted, fans fainted - while I'm entertainin Wild ain't it? How me and money end up hangin I hang with Hannibal Lector (HOT SHIT!) so feel me when I bring it Sing it loud (what?) I'm from the Lou' and I'm proud Run a mile

Nelly -- Ride Wit Me
Where they at (8X) Chorus: If you wanna go and take a ride wit me wit three women in the fo' with the gold D's Oh why do I live this way? (Hey, must be the money!) If you wanna go and get high wit me Smoke a L in the back of the Benz-y Oh why must I feel this way? (Hey, must be the money!) [Verse 1] In the club on the late night, feelin right Lookin tryin to spot somethin real nice Lookin for a little shorty I noticed so that I can take home (I can take home) She can be 18 (18) wit an attitude or 19 kinda snotty actin real rude But as long as you a thicky thicky thick girl you know that it's on (Know that it's on) I peep something comin towards me on the dance floor Sexy and real slow (hey) Sayin she was peepin and I dig the last video So when Nelly, can we go; how could I tell her no? Her measurements were 36-25-34 I like the way you brush your hair And I like those stylish clothes you wear I like the way the light hit the ice and glare And I can se

Nelly -- Loven Me
Ay yo ma, how you doin, it's ya son now And I picked up the mic and put the drugs down Now I'm tryin to do some things that'll make you proud Instead of everytime I call it's to bail me out Oh why didn't I listen to things you used to tell me Knowin that everything that you said would never fail me Like 'they got plans for ya Ain't nothin I can do when them laws get they hands on ya' But I ain't listenin, even payin attention I'm just tryna get mine Takin advantage, you would get two jobs at the same time Ungrateful, complainin about Nike and Polo signs But you always come through, and what do I do I wreck both ya cars, stole money from ya drawers Sold dope out ya yard, stayed into with them laws Tryin to pay you back for all the stress that I caused And always be there to give you whatever you want (Hook) (Don't stop ever lovin me) Uh, uh, I said whatever you need (Don't stop ever lovin me) Uh, uh, I said you don't have to worry no more (Don't stop ever lovin m

Net Friends
Net Friend I type my love for you On the TV screen Never will you truly know Just how much you mean Some may say it's crazy But I don't really care They could never understand all that we have shared All the nights you've spent with me Felt like you were here Always with a open heart And an open ear I never had to wonder If you truly care Because when I turn on my TV You words are always there

Nelly -- Hot In Herrre
Hot in..... So hot in herre..... So hot in..... [Nelly] I was like, good gracious ass bodacious Flirtatcious, tryin to show patience Lookin for the right time to shoot my steam (you know) Lookin for the right time to flash them keys Then um I'm leavin, please believin Me and the rest of my heathens Check it, got it locked at the top of the four seasons Penthouse, roof top, birds I feedin No deceivin, nothin up my sleeve, no teasin I need you to get up up on the dance floor Give that man what he askin for Cuz I feel like bustin loose and I feel like touchin you And cant nobody stop the juice so baby tell me whats the use [Hook x2] (I said) Its gettin hot in here (so hot) So take off all your clothes I am gettin so hot, I wanna take my clothes off [Nelly] Why you at the bar if you aint poppin the bottles What good is all the fame if you aint fuckin the models I see you drivin, sportscar, aint hittin the throttle And I be down, and do a hundred, top down

The Traveller
The Traveller A traveller in need of shelter walks through the snowy tracks of pain Appearances, they may decieve about him a mere cloak and boots, decrepit and rotting Wretched refuse with a smile and lo he walks with nothing a mere whisper away upon his conscience Freezing in this bitter cold of anguish he chances upon a towering metropolis Bathed in glorious light, a temptation most delicious; it steams of kindness, food, friends and family The traveller hears the joyous music blare and like a siren's sinful calling, he beckons to it Therein he beholds a wondrous inhabitance a habitat of festival, abundance, variety He is greeted by many, the gatekeeper, the merchant accommodated by the King himself, annointed New life did plunge the knife twixt his lungs breathing the air of affection as if it were pure incense Reveling in the pleasure of sensation, the traveller began to speak. Of his journey through darkness. Through every shop and lodge in the humb

I Love Cherry Tap -_-
How about if you use an avatar you use your own pic instead of some model's. It's great to see salute photos rofl. I've never seen so many ugly people in my life. do people purposfully take them right after they roll out of bed? congratulations! You spent 734038438490384903 points to win the spotlight of the day only to make my gag when I saw your salute which wasn't your avatar.

Anybody Got Extra Pepper?
A man and a woman were sitting beside each other in the first class section > of an airplane. The woman sneezed, took out a tissue, gently wiped her nose, > then visibly shuddered for ten to fifteen seconds. > > > The man went back to his reading. A few minutes later, the woman > sneezed again, took a tissue, wiped her nose, then shuddered violently > once more. > > > Assuming that the woman might have a cold, the man was still curious > about the shuddering. A few more minutes passed when the woman sneezed > yet again. > > > As before she took a tissue, wiped her nose, her body shaking even > more than > before. > > > Unable to restrain his curiosity, the man turned to the woman and > said, "I couldn't help but notice that you've sneezed three times, > wiped your nose and then shuddered violently. Are you OK?" > > > "I am sorry if I disturbed you, I have a very rare medical condition; > When ever I sneeze I have an orgasm." > > > The man, more

Wishful Thinking
Wishful Thinking I want to cover you in roses until the thorns make you bleed. Make you feel the pain you have forced me to see. The rain falls around me like a million stabbing knives, And you don't seem to understand why my heart dies. Your soul is mine; my heart is yours. Why can't we stay like this; please stop slamming doors. I'm locked out without a key. To the ground fall pieces of me. Pieces that your touch made warm Your love was like honey that bees did swarm. My life ends when you give up. I wish I was the wine you drink from your cup. I want to be the breeze on your hot day. The sun on your back as you lay. But some devious spirit has blown out the flame. We are different, yet we are the same. Lay with me here in this grave, And pray for God my life to save. For there is no me when you disappear. My cries to you you do not hear. The pain is unbearable; I hope you can feel it. You can see the hurt in my face; I cannot conceal it. Come back

Hope
Hope So frail the lover, she weeps so alone this betrayed, cold shell At arms with emptiness at war with the lonely void There she is, dying and here I am, to join her If such light she will witness be so glorious then it blinds me with pitch black Hope is a four letter word but I find many more that follow its path Such as lies. Hate, And above all, pain.

Illiterate Rage
Illiterate Rage Forr I may saave yor lyfe some dayy yu never know if the stuupid will turhn out tu be sumone you maay haf two dephend on az a frend? Forr us, cant you open yor hart and try to treet us as an equall and whith thu respekt that wee shuld be given thaht I know you du not have for uss illiterate, dumbass typs wee are below youu like dogs like animalls Du you kno the meaning of frendship or do yuo chuse onlee the ones you feel worrthie to bee bye yor side? Becaus no one is invincibull foreverr and if u go onn castiing aside the peeple who arr 'uncivilised' thenn truulie the daay will come when yu will be ahl alon, with your massterful inteleckt, and your grate acheevements, and yor wunderful suxess. Cuz when yor world wil fall apahrt, yu will find onlee us therr, survivurs of thiss refuge wether you lyke it orr not won day, you will neeed a frend. and that frend will be a peece of garbage that you think wee are.

What Am I Doing Here
You know, I made this account in hopes to start selling my work again, in order to do that I need peoples in put on my work, I have to drawn them in and for some reason Holly and her sister thinks that I am here to pick up women. Well now she has ended our little coo by staying with Matt, her abusive pot head. I would like to ask you all something, have I hit on any of you? Have I made a pass at any one of you in any questionable manner? Do you think for one second I am here for any one of you or to gain a new female relation ship?? You know what I need? a fucken break, a little god dam trust would be really nice.. Holly, I have done nothing in question, nothing to any one and yet you test me, you call me out and do this, I sit here with a life building around me and you throught it down so easily, I cant live like this, I gave 200% to you and wantted to give you more.. You just dont get it.

Nelly -- Grillz
Rob the jewelry store and tell em make me a grill. Add da whole top diamond and the bottom rows gold. [J.D.] Yo we bout to start a epidemic wit dis one Ya'll know what dis is...So So Def [Nelly] Got 30 down at the bottom, 30 mo at the top All invisible set *in* little ice cube blocks If I could call it a drink,call it a smile on da rocks If I could call out a price, lets say I call out a lot I got like platinum and white *gold* , traditional gold I'm changin grillz errday, like Jay change clothes, I might be grilled out nicely(oh) In my white tee (oh), Or on South Beach (oh) in my wife *beat* V V and studded you can tell when they cut it ya see my granmama hate it, but my lil mama love it cuz when I... [Woman] Open up ya mouth, ya grill gleamin (say what) eyes stay low from da cheifin' [Nelly] I got a grill I call penny candy you know what that means, it look like Now n Laters, gum drops, jelly beans I wouldn't leave it for nothin only a crazy man woul

Could You Be Loved? Then Be Loved
The old saying of, "you complete me" is only possible in Love. It is not the loss of self, but the broadening of self with another. Love is a connection, like the Rastafari concept of God -- I and I. I am part of God and God is part of me. I am part of you, and you are part of me. We are bigger, more expansive than ever before, in Love. Love, above all other things. It is my motivation, my truth, and the reason I bother at all. These past two years have become all about love and working from that place. What would love do? How does love react? How does love act in any given situation? Love is not a competition. I am far from perfect, but I Love. It is the answer. I don't want to be smart, I want to Love. I don't want fame and fortune, I want to Love.

Chamillionaire Ft. Trick Daddy -- Bet That
[Chorus: Trick Daddy] Sittin high, still ridin dem big whips Still fly, still grindin, getting big checks Still thuggin, still leanin to the baaack, you can bet that You can bet that I ride I shine, nigga you can bet that I smoke, I drank boy you can bet that 22's, 24's all we roll...I'm a dope rider fa' sho [Verse 1] Everyday me and my dog we wylin 7-Tre 7-5 dope ridin' And we ain't trippin' on nothin', just vibin' Big 9 with me 'cuz a fuck nigga tried me They already know, how I let him go Kill his ass and make sho' at his funeral How the hell a O.B. gon' try me? I'm O.G. on and off TV, see Middle fingers in the air, tell 'em fuck yall Tryin to hate on my dawgs, hell fuck nah Why you hatin on a nigga like that Why you tryin' to stab a nigga in his back I know some niggaz don't like this But them niggaz is the reason I'm like this Fuck niggaz done made me mad I'm 'bout to snap 'n' put this K on his ass [Chorus] [Verse 2: Chamillionaire] Hey I pull up B

Luricris -- Blueberry Yum Yum
Yeah, Um, I think ima try somthin that I ain't, that I ain't neva did before on this one, lets go [Hook] Get ya lighters, roll that sticky, lets get higher (lets get higher) Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its that fire Get ya lighters, roll that sticky, lets get higher (lets get higher) Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its that fire [Luda] Got a lil bit of Blueberry Yum Yum and I neva would of thought that they could eva taste this goooooood Thank God for the man who put it in my hoooooood Its got me singin' melodies I neva thought I woooouuuuld I'm feelin' sorry for the homies that be smokin' wooood Chop Chop, break it down for a playa like me me me me me I'm 'bout to find me a women that skeet skeet skeet skeet Ima keep smokin' 'till I reach my peak peak peak peak Or till I'm stuck and my body feel weak weak weak weak weak headed down to the dungeon woundren, if they got, some more and if they don't then ima have ta settle for some droooo and it just ain't cool c

Seduction School: Pimpology 101
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I Need You As My Friend
I Need You As My Friend!! I've been hurt so very deep By the one who once made my life complete She left her scars they do not show Imprinted them within my soul So forgive me friend if I get scared but my emotions are temporarily under repair I work on this heartbreak everyday Slowly its damage is drifting away IF you've ever been here I know you'll understand That what I need right now is for you to stay my friend

Madness
Madness I am madness, hear me scream and shriek my deafening cry of rage obliteration, oscillation, devastation chaos all around me, push me down and hit me HARDER, FASTER, bloody my face like you Bloodied my heart you liar, thief of trust to legged desecration of the human spirit! I am madness, watch me bleed pouring from the ears and nose you think me mad, I am now, was not before the cruel cold hands of manipulation came to roost upon my soul and shred it to crimson-soaked ribbons! Do you hear me scream? DO YOU HEAR ME POUND THE WALLS of your conscience?! AM I TO ROT HERE in this CELL you CAST ME IN?!!! OH how madness breaks takes smashes grinds apart a man Crashes, lashes, corrupts the babe to sin and HERE WE GO TO HELL AND BACK AGAIN!! MAKE UP YOUR MIND, do you speak truth or spew out lies

Songs That I Have Stashed Already . . .
Amanda Marshall -- Dark Horse Bryan White -- I'm not supposed to love you anymore Bryan White -- Blindhearted Bryan White -- Rebecca Lynn Brandy -- Have you Ever ? Boys 2 Men -- I can love you like that Blaque -- As If Blackstreet -- No Digity Black Eyed Peas -- My Humps Billy Currington -- Walk alittle bit straighter Billy Currington -- Must be doing Something Right Stephanie Bentley -- Permanent Hurt Stephanie Bentley -- If Promises were Gold Amy Grant -- Lucky One Alan Jackson ft. Cletus T. Judd -- Redneck Games Alan Jackson -- She don't know she's beautiful Alabama -- Song of the South Akon -- I wanna fuck You Aerosmith -- Pink 50 Cent -- I'm supposed to Die tonight ABBA -- Super Trouper Martina McBride -- This One's for the Girls Martina McBride -- Concrete Angel Martina McBride -- Wild Angels Martina McBride -- God's Will Martina McBride -- My Valentine TLC -- Kick Your Game TLC -- Let's Do It Again TLC -- If I was your Girlfriend TLC -- W

I Will Love You Anyways
I Will Love You Anyways You walked into my Life, when my world was dark and cold, you held out your arms, and my heart and soul you did hold. You promised you would never leave, that you would always be there, I never knew that I meant so much, that my heart was worth enough to care. You showed me so many things, I started to dream of you every night, you melted the coldness in my heart, with the warmth of your light. I ended up falling for you, how could I not - you're an Angel in disguise, and every touch from you makes my soul hot. But then you told me it's not the same. for you only think of me as a friend, I cannot understand this, the wrong messages you did send. I never knew you bought your friend flowers, and touched them like a lover, I never knew you held your friends' hand and caressed them under the covers. I am so far, I cannot turn back now, you are My Best friend, so what do I do now. I don't know much, except here I am again in Love with another w

A Letter From Men To Women
To all women, On behalf of all men I would like to clarify a few points: The floor is considered an acceptable clothing storage location. Never ask me to purchase feminine products. Assume that I will come home with the wrong thing. When watching TV hugging is always fine because I can still see the screen. Kissing should only be done during timeouts and commercials. Questions should also be limited to this period as you stand a much better chance of getting an immediate response. When we are watching your show and I change the channels during a commercial do not hassle me that they are over to change the channel back. I always know when the timing is right. Also, when we are channel surfing do not ask me to go back, there was a good reason why I skipped it. If you need help with the laundry, I am more than willing to carry it from the bedroom to the washer. In my mind this is half the chore and I am now free to return to the couch. If I mention that a male friend of min

Are We Still Friends?
Are We Still Friends? I could have held you all night long, I could have laid next to you forever, But then I know tomorrow soon would come, And still we couldn't be together . . . I went against what my head was saying, and followed my heart through, And instead of quitting while I was ahead, I started falling in love with you We had so much fun together, the memories we made so great, all those nights laughing and smiling, staying up so late. As the snow falls on the sidewalks, I know this too will pass, for feelings are like the seasons changing, and one season never lasts. So, I know this must stop now, and tomorrow soon will come, as we walk away and never look back, as our warm feelings become numb.

Fun
Two Truths & a Lie? Here's the deal: I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything. I may opt to e-mail answers to particularly sensitive questions, however. Then I want you to go to your blog, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. Here's the twist: Of the three questions you ask, I will answer two of them absolutely truthfully. As for the other question -- I'll lie like a goat. (Well, not a truthful goat, obviously. The untrustworthy type of goat.) I will not reveal which two answers are truthful and which one is the lie.

.criss.crossing.lines.
its this mountain or its this molehill or it is what it is and im not exactly sure what it is. yes. ill take that last one final answer and everything maybe peoples timelines in their lifetime are the same on certain lines and thats why certain paeople are drawn toward each other and remain friends thru hell and highwater. i dont know. what i do know is this. where she is now is eerily similar to a place i was such a time ago id almost forgotten. maybe her line and my line are exactly where they're sposed to be so that she could have someone who almost completely understands and i could purge while remembering the good and exactly how i felt. i say 'almost' cuz hardly anything is identical. it just seems lately all my lines are crossing someone elses lines so that i have some insight into their situation and while this is an incredibly good and enlightening thing, it also leaves me feeling...odd man out...if only cuz it feels like there isnt someone ahead me on my line

My Resignation
Body: I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes; but that didn't bother you because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair; that everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life

Perfect Porcelain World
Perfect Porcelain World I am shining so accept me I am bright as the morning sun I am glorious please accept me imperfect loser I am fun so do take me will make you laugh so hard you'll bust I am handsome in that odd, imperfect loser kind of way I don't know what is wrong with your mechanics I don't know what does on inside that tick tock ticker of yours Oblige me with instructions in english, if you may on how all you see are things you want to see?

No Sense Or Non-sense
No Sense Its makes me no never mind because I’m blind to the foolishness I allow myself to drift as I lift up my thoughts to those things in life that I’ve bee taught It’s not my fault, but really it makes no sense How people try to destroy things that they don’t know Trying to stop the growth of a passion With distraction of selfless satisfaction and await a rewarding reaction Foolish thinking on your part You see even though it makes not a bit of sense to me the feelings do from my heart And that is where it all starts All your childish wishes and wishing for things to snap like the most Delicate thing It just isn’t going to be something that will be happening You see like Martin Luther I too had a dream And that is one day as I lay and gaze at the Blue sky I will no longer need the tears in my eyes My life will be without the downpour of sorrow from the roar Of a man that has for all his life cried I feel so alive and now I’m seeing things differently a

Female Comebacks
Man: "Haven't we met before?" Woman: "Yes, I'm the receptionist at the VD Clinic." Man: "Haven't I seen you someplace before?" Woman: "Yeah, that's why I don't go there anymore." Man: "Is this seat empty?" Woman: "Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down." Man: "So, wanna go back to my place?" Woman: "Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?" Man: "Your place or mine?" Woman: "Both. You go to yours and I'll go to mine." Man: "I'd like to call you. What's your number?" Woman: "It's in the phone book." Man: "But I don't know your name." Woman: "That's in the phone book too." Man: "So what do you do for a living?" Woman: "I'm a female impersonator." Man: "Hey, baby, what's your sign?" Woman: "Do Not Enter" Man: "How do you like your eggs in the morning?" Woman: "Unfertilized!" Man: "Hey, come on, we're both here at this bar for the same reason" Woman: "Yeah! Let's pick up some chicks!" Man: "I'm here to fulfill your every sexual

Plug Me In (swan Song Of Society)
Plug Me In (or 'Swan Song of Society') Line me up to that long list of multiple redundancy where we are all the same and feed from the same bottle Take us where we are supposed to go by law, by social proper Plug me in into the pestilence of society Here is my life bleed my pocket dry meet me, date me, rape me, kill me show me what we're all equally entitled to experience Join the circle of the same, of the rule and guideline teach me what I already know mold my talents into what this society this pestilence will accept with open arms slave to the fool puppet to perversion clone among clones on the mass production line Plug me in deep way inside society Give me that mantle that dorm, that diploma all the stress you have to offer hand me the keys to complexity let me boost my problems high and higher add to the blood debt give to the blood bank suck me to the last drop of my individuality let me be hindered by standards on all levels so

Adult Learning Center
Fall Classes for Men at THE ADULT LEARNING CENTER REGISTRATION MUST BE COMPLETED by Monday, Oct 30, 2007 NOTE: DUE TO THE COMPLEXITY AND DIFFICULTY LEVEL OF THEIR CONTENTS, CLASS SIZES WILL BE LIMITED TO 8 PARTICIPANTS MAXIMUM . Class 1 How To Fill Up The Ice Cube Trays--Step by Step, with Slide Presentation. Meets 4 weeks, Monday and Wednesday for 2 hours beginning at 7:00 PM. Class 2 The Toilet Paper Roll--Does It Change Itself? Round Table Discussion. Meets 2 weeks, Saturday 12:00 for 2 hours. Class 3 Is It Possible To Urinate Using The Technique Of Lifting The Seat and Avoiding The Floor, Walls and Nearby Bathtub?--Group Practice. Meets 4 weeks, Saturday 10:00 PM for 2 hours. Class 4 Fundamental Differences Between The Laundry Hamper and The Floor--Pictures and Explanatory Graphics. Meets Saturdays at 2:00 PM for 3 weeks. Class 5 Dinner Dishes--Can They Levitate and Fly Into The Kitchen Sink? Examples on Video. Meets 4 weeks, Tuesday

If Only Once
If Only Once... I write this poem for the woman that I feel but can never see I know the tears I shed are twice the pain I sense is combined You're already inside my heart and yet I do not know you... Where are you such a redunant question which I know you ask as well when can I ever see you be near you when can this torment stop? I always think you are near me but yet my sadness grieves our distance I'm so afraid to miss you out there that I would endure a lifetime of loneliness if only to meet you, my love my idyllic, sensual concubine if only, once Where are you can you feel me need you needing the invisible the phantom lover I am warmed by the fires of your gentle, kind soul yet I have not caressed your skin or looked deep into your eyes if only I could... if only once Could I see you stand up to me and fall in love with me this man who has loved others but never those who have loved him do I dare believe in such miracles are the fates

This Was Written For Me Or I Guess About Me
Death was myself when I was alone Death was my soul when I was alone Death was my body before I met the person of my life Life was my soul becoming brighter every moment we talked Life is my soul becoming alive when we meet for the first time Life is now complete You are my other half You are my soul You are my happiness You are my smile You are my every breath You are the twinkle in my eye You are my heart beating ever so loudly now You are the blood that runs through my veins You have opened my eyes ever so wide now I can see all You have opened up my thoughts You have opened up my hearing I can hear all You are all that makes me live You are all that is US

Can You Read
fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it.

The Day You Said "i Love You"
The day you said "I love you" Was the day my wish came true The day you said "I love you" Was the day that I finally knew You are the one My search is done The day you said "I love you" Was the day I'll always be true The day we split apart Was the day that broke my heart The day you said "something's missing" Was the day I started wishing The day you said "there is no love" Was the day I wished to be up above The day you said "goodbye" Was the day my heart died The day you walked away Was the day I stopped to pray The day you said "I'm done" Was the day i cried alone The day you said "no more" Was the day I felt like a whore The day that you lied Was the day that I cried The day you said "something's wrong" Was the day I had to be really strong The day you said "never" Was the day I said "always and forever" The day you said "this is the last" Was the day I wanted to be in the past The day you said "I have to go" Was the day

Thank You My Love
Thank you my dwaine for being beyond awesome, for being you. Thank you for being there for me, for my kids and for spending most of ur free time with Austin when you know he needs us the most. Thank you for going for a walk with us around the block last night when you were tired, for playing hot wheels with Austin on the living room floor, for grasshopper hunting and playing frisbee with him...and thank you for making plans to spend the day at the river with friends so Austin can have fun this weekend when you know he is beyond hurt and dissapointed his other weekend plans were changed. Thank you for taking charge of Austin's school work, for taking the day off work to go to the school conferance, for taking extra time helping Austin with his math, for getting him to go from bad behavior reports to him getting his first 100% report and his grades going up in these last weeks. Thank you for being the best thing to ever come into our lives and for all you do just to make us h

Sexxy Man Contest Opens Tonite At 6 Pm
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More Stuff To Think About
Don't You Ever Wonder... Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin? Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed? Why you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"? Why "abbreviated" is such a long word? Why doctors call what they do "practice"? And... Why is it that to stop Windows, you have to click on "Start"? Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons? Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker? Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour? Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food? When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it? Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes? Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections? You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes? Why - don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff? Why don't sheep shrink when it rains? Why are they called apartments whe

News For Today (march 27th, 2007)
Ok first of all I got my Risprodol shot today in my ass lol. Then dad took me to look at trucks because I've just gotten my check for the other car that blew up. I've found a truck that costs alil bit over 5,000 $s. I'm also planning to start traveling with the carnival, if I can find them. I'm getting the hell out of this town. That is all the news for now.

Amazing Love...
What more can I say About that fateful day The two of us became one My only wish had been done I finally felt complete You swept me off my feet Now I'm all empty inside I just want to run and hide I would walk a thousand miles Just to see that wonderful smile That makes me beam And fills my dreams I really would like to know What caused this horrible blow And now all I can do is wait Until I find my way back to fate Until I become again under your charm And can once again be in your arms Until I feel you nice and close And awnt an even bigger dose Of your amazing love....

Damn I Wonder At Times
WHAT KIND OF SELF CENTERED GOLD DIGGING MOMMY AN DADDYS LITTLE PRINCESS OR KINGS RUNNING THE WORLD THEN I COME HERE OR MYSPACE AN FIND OUT I USE TOO LOVE CHERRYTAP BUT PEOPLE ON HERE MAKE IT A WASTE TOO VISIT I EVEN PONDER WHY MANY OF THEM BREATH

Camping?
I been wanting to go camping again for a while so I was seriouslly thinking of trying to get all our close friends and family out at the lake camping maybe the weekend after Easter. The kids have a blast camping, running around and getting dirty, playing in the lake and sitting by the camp fire at night where Dwaine's mom makes em all smores...plus its like the only time my son is allowed to not take baths for days which makes him happy cuz the kid has to be told to take a shower daily..why is it 11 year old boys hate to shower? LOL

New Slang I Made
New slang for the year .. buttery biscuit.. in reference to a really hot female. Coz nothing looks better than a hot buttery biscuit when u are hungry. So a hot female is a buttery biscuit. Random thought of the day "How can you be rich and be depressed, buy something expensive and smile u fuck nut."

Some Say Love
Some say love is blind But that's all in the mind Some say love is the best thing you can find But now it's not too kind Some say love is really great But it leaves you in a terrible state Some say love is amazing But it always leaves you dazing Some say they want a taste And enjoy love without haste Some say love is such a wonder Then why does it cause such a blunder? All I want is to make a start And have someone steal and keep my heart

Think On This ...
And as He hath given, "If ye love me, keep my commandments; for they are not grievous to bear. For I will bear them with thee, I will wipe away thy tears; I will comfort the brokenhearted, I will bring all to those in the ways that are in the Wisdom of God for thy expressions through each experience, in each activity of thine." For thy soul in its Wisdom seeketh expression with Him. Smother it not in the doubts and the fears of materiality but in the spirit of love and truth that encompasseth all, and that is open to ye who have set thy hearts, thy faces, toward the love that is in Jesus, thy Friend, thy Brother. Edgar Cayce Reading 262-105

This I Swear.....
When you said "I love you" I didn't believe it was true I never thought I would find the "one" My search is now forever done All I want is you I'm sure My love will always be pure Now I just wait for the day You call me just to say "I love you more than anything And I want more than a fling I'm here to take your pain away And hold you each and every day." Now I'm nothing but scared For a life without you I'm not prepared My heart was crushed Even through all of my trust I will wait all my life For the chance to be your wife This I swear.....

I'm A Fallen Angel!!!!!
My score on The Sexual HELL Test: HELL LEVEL 1(Raw score: 42%)You're a fallen angel. There's some innocence there, but the sexual dark side has called you and, possibly, is already using you. But you're not evil, just naughty; dirty, but not filthy. You're certainly hellbound, and you'll most likely seek out other imps like yourself to work your wicked will. There might be a moral core inside you, but it's been overtaken by lust. AVOID: the heavenbound. Your path is downward, and you'll need a guide. Link: The Sexual HELL Test (OkCupid Free Online Dating)

Today
Today I don't know what to do Now that I have lost you Today love means so much more Now that my heart is really sore Today I just want to be his Now that I'm still left a Miss Today I hope and wish and pray That I can be yours again someday Today all I do is regret And hope that you could ever forget Today I hope that I can live And that you could ever forgive Today I go on for you Even though I'm very blue Today I wish for you to say "I miss you and will you always stay?" I love you as much as life itself And store my heart on the dusty shelf To see that day that I can state "Today I met back up with fate."

People Keep Asking So Here It Is....
this is only my second blog so bear with me if you give a shit.my past,drug use,cultivation,breeding seeds and misc. other shit fuck ups like that waste their days doing, and if you think youre one of those people and im casting stones then think again because you have no idea and should probably not even read this.i was and still am a true "no fear" kind of person , it doesnt register in my mind that what im about to do or consider doing can be dangerous or even life threatening, not because i dont value my life ...well it is that...honestly i dont, but what i do value-whats keeping me on this fucked up ball of dirt is my kids. the only reason youre reading this is ode to haven and hunter, the two strongest forces of love in my existence.ive disappointed them for the last time. that time was almost 3 years and 8 months ago - the day i got locked up. so b4 you try to piss on my black kettle about how i dont love my kids stop yourself because its wiser to keep your mouth closed and be t

It's My Life!
For All The Years. All the Patience's. All the Talks and The I'm sorry's The Tears The Pain This is all a fucking game! Don't you see!! What you are doing to me!! LOOK!! I'm a human being!! I'm alive! I See I Feel I Hear I Hurt I Cry I Care I Love and Now I Hate!! But I do have a Heart That you can't Take. It's not broken. It just has scars Scars from my life. Can't you see!! You can't break me!! You try and try Years and Years go by All the knots and bruises go away The blood and tears wipe away But the scars always stay! It's Time for YOU to fade away!!!! You can't break me!! (I wrote this 3-28-07)

Sorry!
If you feel I have been ignoring you guys... I haven't! I have been "truely" busy... I am trying to make a place i nlife for my name. I want my name known. So therefore I have an invention that I hope will put my name in lights. It's for the "ADULT INDUSTRY". Because, well... if you know me, you know how I think! LMAO! Anyways, at the moment I am doing research to see if it exists. Good news is, I haven't found it yet! And soon, I will be building a prototype! Cross your fingers for me! I'm going to need the luck and the good fortune! After that I talk to a patent lawyer! And then! We'll have some fun! So continue to hit me up... at the very least say "HI"... I would really appreciate it! And once again, Sorry for being distant!

When
When will I be good enough Cuz I'm not sure I'm that tough When will my life join yours Cuz my love is to the core When will I lose the burn Cuz my stomach always turns When I think about being alone All my insides turn to stone When I think of all those nights and days I can do nothing but cry and in bed lay When I remember all the times we had Whether they were good or bad They never leave my mind I cannot leave you behind When I think about all the love we sared And how much I thought you cared Was it all a lie? Am I without you till I die?

How Much You Mean To Me
How could you look me in the eyes And tell me all those lies How could you make me believe Then just get up and leave How could you cause this much pain And put my heart in all this strain How could you let me go? When all I did was let you know. How much you mean to me....

Love
LoVe..... ...we think about it, sing about it, dream about it, and we lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it; and when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain, but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word - easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.

If Only.....
Everyone has a soul mate...Someone who you consider your best friend, and the one you can talk to about anything. The one you can sit around and do absolutely nothing with, but be just as happy. The one who you go to when you are upset and they will do anything in their power to make you happy again. The one who can read your mind when you haven't said a word...The one who does the little things, but means the world to you.

Good News On Grandpa Dick :)
The infection in his bloodstream is something they feel they can control, but he will be fighting it for awhile. He will have these infections until his leg is healed enough to take the rod out. The infection came from the "pick" they had in his arm so he could receive the IV of antibiotics at home the last few weeks.

Footprints
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. 'LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd wlk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most trboulesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most yuo would leave me.' The LORD replied 'My precious, preciuos child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering. When you see only one set

Rent
Ok, so I am moving and all when I can figure out where I am going and have been looking all over for a decent apartment and or a roommate and I found something that I am just not sure what to make of it. This may be an example of how blonde I really am or just how country. What the hell is a rambler? Is it like a trailer or a pre-fab house? I don't know I have emailed a couple of potential considerations but so far heard nothing back.

Let The Echoes Of My Words Bounce Through Ya Mind.
So over the last couple weeks I have been uploading imagery... alot of it. Most of which I think is just comedy but have gotten some messages from people who think I have crossed the line here or there. Which is unavoidable I know... but thought I would post a lil some somethin to give ya'll a lil insight to who I am and what I believe in. Problem with this is, I easily go into rants about some of the subjects I'ma talk about so going to try to give a brief version of this, if anyone wants to follow up I'm always here to chat. First Religion. I absolutely despise organized religion in all its forms. I mean honestly take a college history course on western civilization and you will see how rediculous the bible is. I don't say this blindly, but wake up people we had a 800 year "Dark Age" where only people in the church were allowed to be literate. During that time the church was THE GREATEST POWER in Europe. Kings couldn't do shit to them, there are more then a couple accounts of po

The I'm Bored Button
Anyone else noticing a lot more picture rates now that Cherry has added the I'm Bored selection? Maybe being women you get rated all the time but I have noticed 5/6 times a day someone, a stranger, just rates my pic a 10 that never happened in the past. Oh well nice break from the boredom.

Wolf
The wolf is often a symbol of loneliness or predator behavior in dreams. If you dream of a wolf, you are probably in a situation where you lack friendship or companionship. Another scenario may be that you feel others are preying on you, or you are preying upon others for personal gain. Does the wolf appear close up and snarling, or do you notice it far off at bay?

Senior Sex
After his exam the doctor said to the elderly man, "You appear to be in good health. Do you have any medical concerns you would like to ask me about?" "In fact, I do," said the old man. "After I have sex I am usually hot and sweaty, and then, after I have it with her the second time, I am usually cold and chilly." After examining his elderly wife, the doctor said, "Everything appears to be fine. Do you have any medical concerns that you would like to discuss with me?" The lady replied that she had no questions or concerns. The doctor then said to her: "Your husband had an unusual concern. He claims that he is usually hot and sweaty after having sex with you the first time, and then cold and chilly after the second time. Do you know why?" "Oh, that crazy old fart," she replied. "That's because the first time is usually in August and the second time is in January."

This Is Important!!! Tell Everyone
FREE GREAT MUSIC! No SHIT! Got your attention? Good! Now I'm not one to get on here and promote anything (Ask the handful of people who know me, they'll tell you I'm not really into stepping out from behind the curtain, ever), but this is a bit different. Nothing earth-shattering or dire; Just a very dear musician friend of mine is doing a bit of promotion on his personal website, and you can download one of his albums absolutely 100% FREE! FREE! Once more for the cheap seats; FREE! And if you buy any other of the “virtual” albums on his site, you can download what, IMHO is the finest work he did with his Band, and one of the real gifts to just classic American Song Writing. The link is coming, but just let me pontificate for a bit. My friend Bill Mallonee is a song craftsman without equal, a truly gifted performer, an unyieldingly spiritual being, and a wonderful, genuine, and authentic man whom I’m proud to call a friend. Form 1990 until about 2001 he fronted and

Deep Thoughts :)
Deep Thoughts 1. Save the whales. Collect the whole set. 2. A day without sunshine is like.... Night. 3. On the other hand, you have different fingers. 4. Remember, half the people you know are below average. ( 5. He who laughs last thinks slowest. 6. Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. 7. Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have. 8. A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory. 9. How many of you believe in psycho kinesis?... Raise my hand. 10. OK...so what's the speed of dark? 11. When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane. 12. Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film. 13. How much deeper would the ocean be without sponges. 14. What happens if you get scared half to death twice? 15. I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder. 16. Why do psychics have to ask you for your name? 17. Inside every older person is a

My Friend
you know, since this war has kicked off i never thought i would here myself say this, but all of our troops need to come home. i've been sitting here the last few days reading online about troops dying in iraq. and knowing that a friend of mine died just made the little voice in the back of my mind jump up and shout at me. knowing that my husband is going to be leaving again sometime soon just scares the hell out of me. i've had two friends die and mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, husbands & wives have lost their loved ones. i support our troops, don't get me wrong, i support them 110% in all that they do. but how many more lives must be lost until we win? i just don't know what i would do if i lost my husband and my kids lost their father. Jason i miss you and love you! you were a great friend to me and everyone that you came in touch with and you will NOT be forgotten!

I'm Glad I'm A Man
I'm glad I'm a man, you better believe. I don't live off of yogurt, diet coke, or cottage cheese I don't bitch to my girlfriends about the size of my breasts. I can get where I want to - north, south, east or west. I don't get wasted after only 2 beers, And when I do drink I don't end up in tears. I won't spend hours deciding what to wear. I spend 5 minutes max fixing my hair. And I don't go around checking my reflection in everything shiny from every direction. I don't whine in public and make us leave early, And when you ask why get all bitter and surly. I'm glad I'm a man, I'm so glad I could sing. I don't have to sit around waiting for that ring. I don't gossip about friends or stab them in the back. I don't carry our differences into the sack. I'll never go psycho and threaten to kill you Or think every guy out there's trying to steal you. I'm rational, reasonable, and logical too. I know what the time is and I know what to do. And I hon

A Chilling Story
I am warning you, this is very, very, VERY sad! You may need a tissue... She was only five, This is what happened When she was alive... Her dad was a drunk, Her mom was an addict, Her parents kept her, Locked in an attic. Her only friend was a little toy bear, It was old and worn out, And had patches of hair. She always talked to it, When no one was around. She lays there and hugs it, Not a peep of sound. Until her parents Unlock the door, She'll have to endore A bruise on her leg, A scar on her face, Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear, And softly cries. She loves her parents, But they want her to die. She sits in the corner, Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking?" Such a bad life, For a sad little kid. She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did. Then one night, Her mom came home high, And the poor child was beaten As hours went by. Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade, It

Keep The Love Going
BAD NEWS THEY ARE PUTTING ME BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL TODAY.... MY LEGS TURNED PURPLE OVER NIGHT & MY LEFT HAND WENT NUMB.... I DON'T HAVE MY LAPTOP TO TAKE WITH ME THIS TIME... I ASK ALL OF YOU PLEASE KEEP THE LOVE FOR ME GOING... I DON'T KNOW WHEN I WILL BE GETTING OUT.... I WILL HAVE MY DAUGHTER OR MY HUBBY KEEP YOU ALL POSTED....I WILL CATCH UP WITH ALL OF YOU WHEN I GET HOME, AND AS SOON AS I HAVE A ROOM NUMBER & AS PHONE NUMBER AT THE HOSPITAL I WILL HAVE HUBBY OR DAUGHTER POST IT FOR YOU ALL WITH THE TIMES YOU CAN CALL ME.......... I LOVE YOU ALL XOXOOXOXO VELVET

Sex Sex Sex......
> >LOUD SEX: >A wife went in to see a therapist and said, >"I've got a big problem, Doctor. Every time we're in >bed and my husband climaxes, he lets out this >earsplitting yell." >"My dear," the shrink said, "that's completely >natural. I don't see what the problem is." "The >problem is," she complained, "it wakes me up!" > >QUIET SEX: >Tired of a listless sex life, the man came right >out and asked his wife during a recent lovemaking >session, "How come you never tell me when you have an orgasm?" She glanced >at him casually and replied, >"You're never home!". > >DECEPTIVE SEX: >A married man and his secretary were having a >torrid affair. One afternoon they couldn't contain >their passion, so they rushed over to her place where they spent the >afternoon making passionate >love. When they were finished, they fell asleep, not waking until 8 >o'clock. They got dressed quickly. Then the man told his secretary to take >his shoes outside and rub them on the law

Would You?
If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you care? If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened, Would you come? If I had one day left,to live my life, Would you be part of that last day? If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours?

Death Be Swift
I once again trsuted my heart and like an old fool that i am it got hurt. Why do I keep trying? Why am I so damn stupid? Why lead me on or make me think that there may possible be a chance? Maybe I bost your ego I don't know butI Would love to have soem straight answers. My world was happy for a whiel and now al lI see is darkness. Life use to be sweet becaseu I thought I had someoen or the possiblity of someone and now i know...I am nothing...Once again I am back otbe nothing. I hate this....Life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're [clearly Not] A 10, Baby!
Last week "skillful" (http://www.cherrytap.com/user/587541) stopped by and rated my profile a 7, so I left him a user comment asking if I was really that good. He never responded. The "downrating" (a misnomer, in my opinion) fascinates me, as it is generally used only by people who are either 1) new here, or 2) angry at you for some reason. Since 10 is the "default" rating, I usually want to know WHY someone rated me less than a 10. Sometimes it's obvious, as when I've posted rude comments on someone's profile. Other times it is less clear. Today Skillful came and re-rated my profile a 5. My user comment in response: Wow... I'd worsened in your estimation? From a 7 all the way down to a 5? What, pray tell, is so interesting about me that you keep coming back and changing your mind about me? Have I emasculated you in some way today that I wasn't even aware of? He sent me a private message, saying "simply because u ignore my msgs...." I responded: Hm. Mig

8 Inches...o Yeah
RANGE OF 8 INCHES LONG. THE FUNCTIONING OF WHICH IS ENJOYED BY MEMBERS OF BOTH SEXES. IS USUALLY FOUND HUNG, DANGLING READY LOOSLEY FOR INSTANT ACTION. IT BOASTS OF A CLUMP OF LITTLE HAIRY THINGS AT ONE END AND SMALL HOLE AT THE OTHER. IN USE, IT IS INSERTED, ALMOST ALWAYS WILLINGLY, SOMETIMES SLOWLY, SOMETIMES QUICKLY, INTO A WARM, FLESHY, MOIST OPENING WHERE IT IS THRUST IN AND DRAWN OUT AGAIN AND AGAIN MANY TIMES IN SUCCESSION, OFTEN QUICKLY AND ACCOMPANIED BY SQUIRMING BODILY MOVEMENTS. ANYONE FOUND LISTENING IN WILL MOST SURELY RECOGNIZE THE RHYTHMIC, PULSING SOUND, RESULTING FROM THE WELL LUBRICATED MOVEMENTS. WHEN FINALLY WITHDRAWN, IT LEAVES BEHIND A JUICY, FROTHY, WHITE STICKY SUBSTANCE, SOME OF WHICH WILL NEED CLEANING FROM THE OUTER SU

Our Gang
Interesting! What do you think? Remember Our Gang? These pictures are great -- in case you forgot who is who. Remember Our Gang? What ever happened to those people? Well, here it is..........sad..........! ...THE OUR GANG CURSE... Alfalfa -- Carl Switzer was shot to death at age 31. Chubb y -- 300-pound Norman Chaney died at age 22 following an operation. Buckwheat -- WilliamThomas died at age 49of a heart ttack. Darla Hood -- The Our Gang leading lady contracted hepatitis and died at age 47. Brisbane ! -- Kendall McCormas, known as Breez y Brisbane , committed suicide at age 64. Froggy -- William Robert Laughline was killed in a motor scooter accident at age 16. Mickey Daniels -- He died of liver disease at 55. Stymie -- Mathew Bear led a life of crime and drugs. He died of a stroke at age 56. Scotty Beckett -- He died at age 38 following a brutal beating. Wheezer -- Robert Hutchi ns was kill ed in an a

This Is Beautiful, Try Not To Cry.
I found this on a friends yahoo 360 page When you're down to nothing, God is up to something." This is beautiful! Try not to cry. She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ? " The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was

Memory
its funny how some songs make memories flood back to you that youd normally not be thinking of,....the mornings id lay there while ud be hanging the clothes out on the line.....i ask you why when we had a dryer ,..you said you liked the way they smelled on my skin....you seem to be the reason to smile everyday for me ,.....its funny how when the song ends so does the memory.......or does it....

Penis Study
PENIS STUDY In 1993, the American Government funded a study to see why the head of a man's penis was larger than the shaft. After one year ... and $180,000.00 they concluded that the reason the head was larger than the shaft was to give the man more pleasure during sex. After the US published the study, France decided to do their own study. After $250,000.00, and 3 years of research, they concluded that the reason was to give the woman more pleasure during sex. Wisconsin, unsatisfied with these findings, conducted their own study. After 2 weeks and a cost of around $75.46 and 2 cases of beer, they concluded that it was to keep a man's hand from flying off and hitting him in the forehead.

Please Read Its Important
I AM ASKING ALL MEMBERS TO PLEASE FOLLOW THE LINK BELOW AND REJOIN SOMEONE HAS DELETED OUR LOUNGE AND ALL THE HARD WORK WE PUT INTO THIS. LETS SHOW THEM THAT WE CANT BE PHAZED BY THERE CHILDISH ACTIONS. (repost of original by '~Fiesty Lil Vixen~Co Owner Of Club Fantasia~Soon To Be CT Wifey to Brian~{CHERRY SNATCHER}~' on '2007-03-27 23:38:13') (repost of original by 'KERRY~OWNER OF CLUB FANTASIA~soon to be ct wife of Airborne~CHERRY SNATCHER~' on '2007-03-27 23:54:46') (repost of original by '~DJ BaByGirL~~~QuEeN BeE CHERRY SNATCHERS~~**CLUB FANTASIA GREETER**PLEASE SIGN MY GUESTBOOK' on '2007-03-28 00:18:13') (repost of original by 'KERRY~OWNER OF CLUB FANTASIA~soon to be ct wife of Airborne~CHERRY SNATCHER~' on '2007-03-28 02:14:56') (repost of original by 'vampeiro692. enforcer for club fantasia_realf life bf/ct husband too strawberryjuggalette wickham' on '2007-03-28 08:00:36') (repost of original by 'KERRY~OWNER OF CLUB FANTASIA~soon to be ct wife of Airborn

Workplace Issue
This problem has been going on since I started working here in 1998. This older gentleman has a problem with women in the workplace. I guess that he feels that we should be secretaries and not be making equivalent or more than him...Do you think that we will ever get to the level that we can be appreciated for the work that we accomplish as a person and not our gender?

I Hate Windy Days
i only made a custom speaker box yeasterday b/c the damn wind was terrible. now i have speakers in the center consol as well. can't wait for another nice day so i can wire all the front speakers. then i'll hook up the battery to see if the radio works.

World's Women's Hockey - Update
Hey gang. Just a quick update on what's going on as far as the World's Women's Hockey Championships due to start up soon. I went in for training and it was a real fun night. Lots of pizza, drinks and a tonne of people to meet and get to know. There was the obligatory overview of the what the deal was with the championships and overview of the conduct expectations for all the volunteers and then we got down to business. At first, I was slated to be a Team Lead for the ushers. You know...hang out in the stands and guide people back and forth to their seats, help the elderly and children get around, that sort of thing. Now, I'm leading the team in the volunteer lounge at the venue. Basically, my responsibilities are to look after all the other volunteers who are looking after all the visitors to the games. I gather information on what's going on with the games and stand ready to funnel directions on where key points of interest (ATMs, hotels, etc..) are in the area, provi

Why They Call It Falling By "lee Ann Womack"
Love is Like this : It's like jumpin It's like leapin It's like walkin on the ceilin It's like floatin It's like flyin through the air It's like soarin It's like glidin It's a rocket ship you're ridin It's a feelin that can take you anywhere So why they call it fallin Why they call it fallin Why they call it fallin I don't know There was passion There was laughter The first mornin after I just couldn't get my feet to touch the ground Every time we were together We talked about forever I was certain it was Heaven we had found So why they call it fallin Why they call it fallin Why they call it fallin I don't know But you can't live your life Walkin in the clouds Sooner or later You have to come down It's like a knife Through the heart And it all comes apart It's like someone takes a pin to your balloon It's a hole It's a cave It's kinda like a grave When he tells you that he's found somebody new So why they call it fallin W

Update
so my week hasnt really gone that well started it off by my car breaking down on monday i have to replace the engine monut$$$$$$$$ too much money. theres this girl in kuwait that i was seeing before she left in febuarry i really miss her wish she was here i dont really date many girls unless i know them well so i dont have anyone to really talk to its upseting. well anyways im done talking

The Zen In Dancing
I had such a zen moment the other night...in line-dancing class, of all places.....twice........I knew it the first time it happened, and I got excited and lost it. It might not have been a true zen moment, for I've never been trained in that, but it is the only word I can think of to describe what happened to me. Okay...here is what happened. We were practicing a waltz. I had waltzed as a child in a 4th grade play. I loved it then. My body had forgotten all of it.......I was having trouble at first, and I was frustrated. I felt that I was trying to grasp something from my childhood, and could not seem to relax enough to get into the steps. The counting was different from all the other line dances we had done. I was letting it throw me off kilter. Then, for a moment, I had it.....lost it.....had it......DAMMIT.lost it. I knew I had to relax. I took a deep breath and began to get it together again........Suddenly, I found a part of it, and I managed to hold onto it. I

Haters!
Whats that all about, someone just did a drive by rating and stuck me with a four! I guess four is better than a one! but ouch that hurt. i may be ugly but im a sweet guy; cant you see that from my picture dammit?????!!!!!!! ROFL If, i suffer everyone suffers from now on honest ratings, heffers beware!!!! lol am just kidding. I love everyone! hee hee (well almost everyone) But to be honest, if someone has taken the time to upload a picture and put them selves on display i guess you could say they deserve what they get, but still, people are people and they deserve love, praise and support. Rest assured Friends and fello tappers. you will alsays get a compliment and a ten from me.. Love Jman xxx

For Those That Question My Charity Work, To You I Say Fuck Off
Dear Michelle, Good news! Yesterday, the U.S. House of Representatives approved the Animal Fighting Prohibition Enforcement Act (H.R. 137) by a landslide vote -- 368 to 39. It's thanks to your calls and emails to your Representative that we were able to secure such a decisive victory. Click here to find out how your Representative voted: https://community.hsus.org/ct/x7ahJaE1_XE9/ Now, we're focusing on the U.S. Senate -- in order to complete the effort to make it a federal felony to move fighting animals or cockfighting implements across state lines or foreign borders. Please help us keep up the momentum and make a short polite phone call to both of your Senators. Senator John Ensign: (202) 224-6244 Senator Harry Reid: (202) 224-3542 First, see if your two Senators are cosponsors of S. 261 (the companion to H.R. 137): https://community.hsus.org/ct/xpahJaE1_XEo/ If they are, call and thank them for their support and ask them for help to get this legislation passed

Scars
Simple things trigger the strangest tangents sometimes.....I was shaving my legs this morning....(sorry, I know that's personal)......and I got to looking at the scars on my legs.....small scars....little things really.....things no one might notice but me. Recent scars.....I felt and skinned my knee when I was still recuperating from the tail bone break....a recent scar.....There's the scar on the front of my left ankle at the top of my foot.......barbed wire hidden in the tall grass tripped me when I was in the 6th grade. There's the long narrow one from when a cut on my right shin got infected from the blood in the chicken factory getting down into my rubber boots.... I proceeded up my body, taking account of all my scars, reliving each memory for just a few seconds....... The appendectomy scar from when I was in the 5th grade......I remember I wasn't supposed to play softball for 6 weeks afterwards, but I was out there in 3 weeks. I remember thinking I would prove them wro

How Well Do You Know Me? -- Lenora Love
HOW WELL DO YOU KONW ME? Lenora LOVE Create your own Friend Quiz here ============================================ *** (CLICK) or COPY & PASTE LINK *** ============================================ HTTP://www.testriffic.com/friendtest/2920845

Our Heat
We came together In a frenzied embrace Mouths locked, Nostrils flared Snorting like fighting bulls Kissing, stroking, groping Fumbling with buttons and belts Hooks and eyes Until we lay in a heap Disordered in our semi nakedness I caressed her breasts Teasing her nipples First with fingers Before attending to them orally I moved my hand across her soft belly And pulled up her skirt My mouth alternated between Her swollen nipples and her eager mouth My slipped under her skirt And I reached up Until I felt the silk of her underwear I pulled them down to her ankles urgently Then I moved my hand steadily Up her long stockined leg From ankle to calf to her inner thigh The soft naked flesh above her stocking Before combing my fingers through Her luxuriant growth She turned her attentions once again To my ear frantically exploring it with her tongue I cupped her pubic bone in my hand And rocked it gently Then I slipped my fingers between her lips Into the cre

A Lonely Soul-for U
You are so brave to be so strong, but inside you aren't any stronger. You hurt just like the rest of us. You may not voice your hurt, but your skin is your canvas. There you will show it, There you will tell us all. The true meaning of fear, the true meaning of hurt. The images left behind will live, They will live fresh in your mind. You can not scrub it away, you can not wipe away the sounds. For in your head, They will always be. With my words I wish to cast a shadow on them. I wish to soften the memories. Although it may be a short time, though it may only be a line. Your friend is what I will be. Friends can live apart, friends can share their heart. Lovers can't do all that, Lovers can't speak freely. But friends will always.. By Me

Think You Know Me?
Think You Know Me? Think You Know Me??? Fill this out.... 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out about me? 13. Emotionally, what stands out about me? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Would you do me? 22. Would you give me your number? 23. What is it? *Send me a private message with the answers then repost*

Converting To "boring Good Girl"
Men... fun times. ::eyeroll:: The men in my life enter through the door, browsing, looking for "something different" or "something fun". Well... you came to the right place. I'm fucking unique alright... These men are tired of relationships without adventure, sex, stimulation of the mind... They're tired of their dead end jobs, beige walls, fake women, stale food. They end up leaving me for various reasons... too extreme, can't be controlled, too honest, not accessible. Or they just weren't honest with their needs and abilities. When lamenting on this subject... Nor (my dear) gave me some insight: "You're like a Porche, and they can only afford a Honda". Okay, well that makes me feel a little better... but I wanna be a VIPER instead! Thanks Nor ... and to all the other wonderful guys in my life who are just awesome as hell: GREG (Reck), Lief, Keno, Ben, Russ, and Justin.

Again
He came to me again as he always does touching my soul and wetting my eyes with tears. His dark eyes searing stright into my soul leaving me empty when he leaves. His arms that once made me feel safe and warm in his embrace now leaves me cold and alone. his words that once comforted my tired and restless mind just leave me longing for a another time. Perhaps Ive lost what little sanity I have left. Perhaps I want to be near him again so badly that I create his appearance to somehow torture my wounded soul. Or perhaps its the guilt I feel that creates his image over and over again to remind me of my past sins.There are times I could spend hours dwelling upon things I have done wrong in the past but dwelling will solve nothing for its in the future that I can make a difference. And its in the future that he will come again and again.

So Friggin Tired...
Am fighting some sort of "kill the fat bastard bug" Tired all the time, dizzy and feeling generally URRGHHHH! Am sitting here listening to will young and trying to organise work in the next few weeks.. The bug must be brining our my gay tendancies... shit not good.. Big shout out to Cindy and Luvinitback for chatting to me recently.. Sweet, what did i say? HUH? lol Seens there are some good ppl on here that wanna be friends, its cool baby!

Victor Crowley, New American Horror Icon ( Hatchet)
Hatchet - Old School American Horror Fan of Horror films? Sick of all the remakes and PG-13 shit that's been swamping the masses? Then follow the link and be amazed. Scope it out, nuff said... http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=69931110

How Many Have You Done?
How many have you done? 1) smoked weed or cigs 2) consumed alcohol 3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex 4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex 5) made out with someone of the opposite sex 6) made out with someone of the same sex 7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex 8) watched porn 9) bought porn 10) done drugs TOTAL: 11) taken pain killer 12) taken someone elses prescription medicine 13) lied to your parents 14) lied to a friend 15) snuck out of the house 16) done something illegal 17) cut yourself 18) hurt someone 19) wished someone to die 20) seen someone die TOTAL: 21) missed curfew 22) stayed out all night 23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself 24) been to a therapist 25) been to rehab 26) dyed your hair 27) recieved a ticket 28) been in a wreck 29) been to a club 30) been to a bar TOTAL: 31) been to a wild party 32) seen the Mardi Gras 34) had a spring break in Florida 35) sniffe

Funny - What Women Mean!
Words Women Use: 1.) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. 2.) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. 3.) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with Nothing usually end in Fine. (Refer back to #1 for the meaning of Fine.) 4.) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it! 5.) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word , but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of Nothing.) 6.) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a m

Runaway Love By Ludacris F/mary J. Blige
[Hook - Mary J. Blige] Runaway love [8x] [LISA] Now little Lisa is only 9 years old Shes tryin' to figure out why the world is so cold Why she's all all alone and they never met her family Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy Part of her is missin' and nobody will listenin' Mama is on drugs gettin' high up in the kitchen Bringin' home men at different hours of the night Startin' with laughs--usually endin' in a fight Sneak into her room while her mama's knocked out Tryin to have his way and little Lisa says "Ouch" She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own Forced to think that hell is a place called home Nothin' else to do but some get some clothes and pack She says shes 'bout to run away and never come back. [Hook - Mary J. Blige] Runaway love [8x] [NICOLE] Little Nicole is only 10 years old She's steady tryin' to figure w

Famous Sex Quotes
I believe that sex is one of the most beautiful, natural, wholesome things that money can buy." Tom Clancy "You know 'that look' women get when they want sex?...... Me neither." Steve Martin "Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand." Woody Allen "Bisexuality immediately doubles your chances for a date on Saturday night." Rodney Dangerfield "There are a number of mechanical devices which increase sexual arousal, particularly in women. Chief among these is the Mercedes-Benz 500SL." Lynn Lavner "Sex at age 90 is like trying to shoot pool with a rope." George Burns "Women might be able to fake orgasms. But men can fake whole relationships." Sharon Stone "My mother never saw the irony in calling me a son-of-a-bitch." Jack Nicholson "Clinton lied. A man might forget where he parks or where he lives, but he never forgets oral sex, no matter how bad it is," Barbara Bush (Former U.S. First Lady, and, you

Misfits
All MISFITS....Next time you see me I am gonna be pimped out in Misfits...Anywho..Yeah I am still a bum at home..Jumping from job to job kinda..well I dont have to work..I just want extra money to spend..lol..Rockabilly is my new lifestyle..and I am LOVING IT...I hope before the tattoo convention this year I will have my chest tattooed to show off...I want to finish my back so that I can be in contest for my tats...I love TATTOOs....

In Memory Of "adam Michael"
Saying Goodbye Go now, my child, the time has come. All tasks today are done. There are others waiting there for you, And songs yet to be sung. Go quietly, go softly, Leave all pain and fear behind. Today has left a part of you In our hearts, our souls, and minds. I’ll remember you, my dear one, As I lay down to sleep. I’ll remember that you made me smile, Although, it makes me weep. As you go to face your future, As you go to touch the sky Know that God makes all things possible, Angels never die. Go now, my child, the time has come. All worldly tasks are done. There are others waiting there for you, And songs yet to be sung.

Boys..boys...boys
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. Oh I can't take another heartache Though you say you're my friend I'm at my wits end You say your love is bonafide But that don't coincide With the things that you do And when I ask you to be nice You say you gotta be Cruel to be kind, in the right measure Cruel to be kind, it's a very good sign Cruel to be kind, means that I love you Baby (you gotta be cruel) You gotta be cruel to be kind Well I do my best to

The Realms Of Fantasy
The man awoke,with his home,smoldering in ashes.As them puke fuckin peasants laughing what they had done.He climbs out of the ashes as them puke peasants look on.The Moon is Full,My Ancestors built this house built your Town an u have the Nerve to burn my house to the ground.With 1 mighty slash,of 1 powerful arm.The heads of them to hapless peasants rolling on the ground.He drinks there blood from thee headless corpses.as others appear,they see not the man but a Great an Fierce Wolf of a Creature whom stands on 2 legs.They are Frighten'd,an try to Run,With one Swift Bound they are all dead or dieing Writhing in pain.Begging to be Finished off.As they die a merciful death.The Wolf Creature sniffs around smelling fear,of one who ran off hideing.Stand you piece of shit,beg me for your Life.He is some sort of Royalty.I should have known it was you,my own cousin twice removed.Strip off your clothes u worthless piece of shit.He does what he's told.I shall let u live cousin,I shall cut out yo

Good Woman
I am here to say one thing that we all need to remember and live by. Behind every good man there is a good woman and behind every good woman there is a good man. It takes two to be really good at being a turly good person. I would love to have a good woman to make me good again make me that rock I am but just don't let out till I am with some one that unlocks that gate. Remember money can't buy love so don't always go there.

For Smart Women Who Need A Laugh
WOMAN'S PERFECT BREAKFAST She's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box. Her daughter is on the cover of Business Week. Her boyfriend is on the cover of Playgirl. And her husband is on the back of the milk carton. WOMEN'S REVENGE "Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet, I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse. "So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked. "No," she replied, " but my husband refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally. UNDERSTANDING WOMEN (A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE) I know I'm not going to understand women. I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and STILL be afraid of a spider. MARRIAGE SEMINAR While attending a Marriage Seminar deal

Heart Broken
i have to have surgery on my back april 13th. iam alittle scared of whats going to happen. the doctor tells me if i dont have surgery ill be in a wheel chair. that means being a emt and fire is out for a while. i hope every thing goes while iam sure it will. i want to say to my ct friends thank you for the comments and cards and gifts and leting me rate your pictures. you all mean the world to me big hug. love heather. i will not be on ct on the 12th 13th and 14th but i will be think about all of you while iam haveing surgery.

True Man
I feel to be a ture man I have to be there for my kids. That means let them know I am here for them to count on cry on and pick them up when they are sick. To show them the love of a father. To be there for them when they need a father to fall back on and count on. I want to be their wall to stand on for life or till the have become their own wall to stand on. A man that can't be there for their kids is not a ture man now is he?

Show Your Love And Support....please
I am lv this weekend for iarq!!! If you want to come by and rate my pics and show some love or do what u need to do!!! I well be on here on and off well i am going but othere then that well see you when i come home!! I well try and stay safe too!!! God bless all of you pls keep me in your prayers!!!! If you all could do me one fav would pls add yourself here PLS I support my military, do you?@ CherryTAP THIS IS THE MAN BEHIND I SUPPOURT MY MILITARY,DO You? PLS STOP BY AND SAY GOOD BYE and RATE & ADD & FAN HIM PLS Sexy Crazy Marine@ CherryTAP Courtesy of MsTags.com Courtesy of MsTags.com (repost of original by 'Sexy Crazy Marine' on '2007-03-27 13:58:29') (repost of original by 'I support my military, do you?' on '2007-03-27 14:22:51') (repost of original by 'Sexy Crazy Marine' on '2007-03-27 14:24:13') (repost of original by 'DvlDog91 ~JLM~Angel Family~' on '2007-03-27 14:52:53') (repost of original by 'Sexy Crazy Marine' on '2007-03-27 15:24:42') (repost of origi

Foot Research
Man Caught Videotaping Women's Feet Mar 27, 5:06 PM (ET) SANTA CRUZ, Calif. (AP) - A cameraman was caught with some creepy video footage. The man was surreptitiously videotaping female feet in the science library at University of California, Santa Cruz, campus police said. "Officers indicated he was embarrassed by his behavior," university spokesman Jim Burns said Monday. "He offered no resistance to the request that he leave immediately and indicated he would not be back." It's not illegal to videotape feet so no charges were filed. The name of the man, who was in his 40s and had no affiliation with the university, wasn't disclosed. He was banned from the campus for two weeks. Vince Nova, manager of the Science and Engineering Library, said the man was seen pointing a small video camera in the vicinity of three students' feet. One of the students confronted the cameraman and he fled. One of the female students spotted him again last Wednesday, and campus police w

Like A Cat Who Got The Cream.
I was watching the TV the other day, as I tend to do most days. Not that the TV does anything interesting, like double-back summersaults or synchronised swimming with the toaster in the fish tank. No, the TV kinda just sits there but, if I switch it on I get amazing glowing pictures that can amuse me for, well, almost minutes! So, there I was, watching an episode of Will and Grace, or Everybody Hates Raymond or something, when the adverts came on. Now, I hate adverts, so I try not to watch them but sometimes they can be more interesting than the programme you get to see two-minute clips of between the commercials. So, this time I started to half-watch an advert for Head and Shoulders, a shampoo for people with....well, I'm guessing a head and some shoulders. Maybe they called it that because it's difficult to keep the product on your hair? And, I don't know about you, but I have hair on other parts that need shampooing as well. The marketing world needs me!!! I guess calling it "Head,

Hey All What Cooken
hi im a regualer girl who just wants to meet new friends and have fun i am 28 and all femaile so any single guys out there who want to meet me check out my photo on myspace under lastunicornklp@hotmail.com and see what u think.

Some Useful Fyi
Pathological liar From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to: navigation, search This article or section does not adequately cite its references or sources. Please help improve this article by adding citations to reliable sources. (help, get involved!) This article has been tagged since February 2007. This article or section may contain original research or unattributed claims. Please help Wikipedia by adding references. See the talk page for details. A pathological liar is someone who often embellishes his or her stories in a way that he or she believes will impress people. It may be that a pathological liar is different from a normal liar in that a pathological liar believes the lie he or she is telling to be true—at least in public—and is "playing" the role. He or she sometimes is seen to have a serious mental problem that needs to be rectified. It is not clear, however, that this is the case. It could also be that pathological liars know precisely what they are do

Morning!
Well gotta work tonight, but got some good news too! Got a new job starting Monday which should help me raise the money alot quicker to get my Southern arse to Nashville! I want to be completely moved no later than May21. Can't wait to get out of this burg!

This Is A Bunch Of Bullshit
news home | top | world | intl | natl | op | pol | govt | business | tech | sci | entertain | sports | health | odd | sources | local AP • Photos Willow Trees Cut Down at Wis. Nude Beach Email this Story Mar 27, 5:07 PM (ET) MADISON, Wis. (AP) - Willow trees lining the Mazomanie nude beach on the Wisconsin River have been removed to reduce alleged sexual activity and provide more sun for nesting turtles, the state Department of Natural Resources says. "These willows just became a cruising area for people looking for sexual activity out there," Steve Colden, the Lower Wisconsin State Riverway's property manager, said Monday in an interview with The Capital Times of Madison. The nude beach has been used by naturists for more than 50 years. Bob Morton, executive director of the Naturist Action Committee, said his Oshkosh-based group approved of the DNR's attempts to control sexual activity on the beach. "If there is overt sexual activity in publi

Wish My Ex Would Have A Damn Sex Change!!
Man: Ex' Sex Change Should End Alimony Email this Story Mar 27, 4:57 PM (ET) By PHIL DAVIS CLEARWATER, Fla. (AP) - Lawrence Roach agreed to pay alimony to the woman he divorced, not the man she became after a sex change, his lawyers argued Tuesday in an effort to end the payments. But the ex-wife's attorneys said the operation doesn't alter the agreement. The lawyers and Circuit Judge Jack R. St. Arnold agreed the case delves into relatively unchartered legal territory. They found only a 2004 Ohio case that addressed whether or not a transsexual could still collect alimony after a sex change. "There is not a lot out there to help us," St. Arnold said. Roach and his wife, Julia, divorced in 2004 after 18 years of marriage. The 48-year-old utility worker agreed to pay her $1,250 a month in alimony. Since then, Julia Roach, 55, had a sex change and legally changed her name to Julio Roberto Silverwolf. "It's illegal for a man to marry a man and it should likewise be il

Im A Asshole
there is this female i like she knows who she is but i was a big asshole to her yesterday and i hope she can look deep in her heart and forgive me i love you and hope you will forgive me for hte shit i pulled yesterday but if youdont i will understand i think about how it would be nice tohave this person in my arms and show her how much i want her and to be with her so i hope you will forgive the bullshit i pulled

People
So my mom always told me if you don't have something nice to say about someone don't say anything at all...what is with the people that are going around and rating peoples pictures 1 and 2??? When I first got on this website a couple months ago people were really nice stopping by to rate a 10 and showin some love to help you get your score up. And now we have the dipshits that are just going through peoples photos rating low numbers just to be assholes or whatever, and it probably happens more with girl on girl and guy on guy....come on people you can rate someones photo a ten without being gay that is ok now. And lets say you find the photo tasteless or you just don't like it then move on to a different photo...I've ran across a lot of tasteless photos and I rate them their ten and move on to the next one, but I guess thats just being courteous...Anyways just thought I'd share my little bitch fit.

Fucking Moring
okay well ive learned about a bad morning today. i woke up around 7:30, went to bed sometime after 4:30, of course never get a ton of sleep and now i wont be sleeping the rest of the day. So i had to drive to Eurka or however its spelled which for those who dont know who thats bout 35 minute drive but me being me i can make it there in a shorter time. Fucking my friend was in a crappy mood so i was i was pissed mostly cause he turned off my Bob And Tom which was keeping me in a good mood. To make things worse he was bitching bout me getting lost cause ive honestly never been there before. But i have this great talent of once i driven to a place i can get back with no problem. So we fucking finally get there with no getting lost or anything, its not 9 am yet for the court date so i dropped them off and figured id go put gas in the car and go back. Well i got gas, got back to the court house and guess fucking what..i fucking got lost in the court house. Small court house, small town, fuc

Think Before Speaking
OK NOW THAT I GOT UR ATTENTION LISTEN UP. I AM SICK N TIRED OF HAVING PPL TELL ME TIME N TIME AGAIN THAT I NEED TO STOP BEING SERIOUS OR THAT I NEED TO GIVE THEM A CHANCE. FIRST OF ALL I AM 25 YRS OLD. I MIGHT BE IN A WHEELCHAIR BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN SHIT FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THAT I AM SINGLE N ON MY OWN... AGAIN I AM SINGLE... DO I LIKE BEING SINGLE? NO. BUT ITS MY CHOICE CUZ ALL GUYS NOWADAYS WANT TO DO IS MEET U FOR SOME FUN. I AM TOO DAMN GROWN FOR THAT. IF YA WANT TO GO SLEEP AROUND THEN GO AHEAD BUT DO NOT THINK IM GOING TO SLEEP WITH YA. I HAVE WAY TOO MUCH RESPECT FOR MY BODY. IF YA CANT SEEM TO RESPECT THAT AND ONLY WANT SEX OR SEE ME NAKED THEN GUESS WHAT DELETE ME FROM UR LIST CUZ IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN! GOT ME! CARMEN... PS. I CAN CARELESS WHO IS OFFENDED WITH THIS MESSAGE... IF YA DONT READ IT THEN U R NOT A FRIEND N ONLY WANT SEX.

Dying Heart
Excruciating heartache pounding on my chest to free itself of captivity. Wanting so much to make the person it loves trully happy. Those tales of the broken heart are not forgotten. Heart is kept in captivity to be guarded and watched. To never go through a similar tale again. Yet heat hurts because it's love is forcing it to forget. Therefore, the blood is falling with no signs of stopping. The pools of it filling the captivity drowning the heart. Heart wants to make the love happy but at what price is it willing to risk it or the love willing to risk it's well-being? How far will they both go? The answer is until one no longer exists like before.

Standing Afar
Standing afar waiting for her gazing at stars my anticipation is a blur as the seconds near close to seeing the most beautiful angel fall to me from a place i will always have faith and know she is my life every time i see her face

Latley...
so thigs havnt been going that good. i want ot moveback to oxford or just out of this state all together cuz i hate it here now. on the plus side tho i died my hair this weekend it was great i did redish-pink highlights qwith the whole underneathe that color, yeh it looks pretty hot! but yeh other then that not much else has happened witch is sucky and boring but oh well! thats all for now, dezi

Random Questions
1 What you listening to now? Frog's water filter. 2 What you wearing? White tube dress. 3 Fav food? Mexican. 4 Fav Jack Nicholson movie? Anger management, a few good men. 5 Fav sexual position? reverse cowgirl or missionary. 6 Short hair or long hair on your girlfriend or boyfriend? short 7 Can you do the Macarena? Only when drunk while at weddings. 8 Fav tv show? ANTM, Heroes, Dexter 9 do you shower everyday? yes 10 would you pierce your nipples? If I had a reduction first, my boobs are too huge for that. 11 Do you find Conan Obrien attractive? Nope 12 fav topping on a pizza? Pepperoni and mushrooms. 13 do you have pets? A whole zoo. 14 stewie or bart simpson? stewie of course:) 15 Bra size? 38 G/H 16 shaved or natural? shaved 17can you whistle? Only sucking in! lol 18 fav singer? Christina Aguilera at the moment. 19 what are you thinking about now? Court tomorrow. 20 are you into BDSM? As long as there's no "real" pain, I'm do

Once Upon A Time
Once Upon a time, There was a beautiful princess named Easter Egg. Easter Egg was a nice girl who was sweet and loved to play in cherryland. Well she had her share of drama in cherryland but it too passed when the evil Mr Slush went to prison. The cherries were all getting along in harmony. Easter Egg had a best friend in cherryland named Poisoned Heart. They had fun being silly and stuff. One day Easter Egg met a new boy in cherryland. His name was Blame Ogre. Easter was enamored. He treated her like the princess she was until he got the awful disease. This disease changed him and it was tragic. He became green. His skin was a horrid color green and his eyes turned red. He didn't like poisoned heart and was very condescending to easter about her friendship. He became controlling and made easter a very sad girl. She didn't know what to do as she couldn't make Blame happy. Nothing she did was right. And she was sick too...not with the same illness blame had but with a very real one that

A Deep Pain
Through my life many people have come and gone. When they go, they leave my in a horrible state. Tears flowing down my face. Mind filled with memories And a broken heart I only hope is one day my heart will heal for good.

For The Anti War Crybabies,,, Though I Doubt You Will Get The Meaning Behind It...
The other day, my nine year old son wanted to know why we were at war ... My husband looked at our son and then looked at me. My husband and I were both in the Army during the Gulf War and we would be honored to serve and defend our Country again today. I knew that my husband would give him a good explanation. My husband thought for a few minutes and then told my son to go stand in our front living room window. He said, "Son, stand there and tell me what you see?" "I see trees and cars and our neighbor's houses." he replied. "OK, now I want you to pretend that our house and our yard is the United States of America and you are President Bush." Our son giggled and said, "OK." "Now son, I want you to look out the window and pretend that every house and yard on this block is a different country," my husband said. "OK Dad, I'm pretending." "Now I want you to stand there and look out the window and pretend you see Saddam come out of his ho

Going On With Life
Well its been 2 months sence he left me lost and alone but i'm getting on with life because i think thats what hed want me to do. He was the best man in my life but for a very short time, but what we had together nobody can take away all i can do is go on and try and build something else out of my life. I still and always will love him because he came into my life and gave me what i always wanted ...and that was a true love. I miss him everyday and always think about him all the time....but life still has to go on.....RIGHT??? Well gotta go..more to come.

A Heart Tells Tales
A shattered heart tells many tales of times that a lovedone has broken it. Many stories of painful moments that have left a heart torn into pieces and never whole. The gashes grow bigger with each moment it cannot undo or force itself to forget. A heart never forgets or trully heals it only mends temporarily until another tale is born.

Worthless Ego
Grieve for your ego Down the hole it goes Ripped and shattered Torn apart by worthless words Confusing the mentally disordered You slither away Crawl back into your little hole Let yourself be numb Let me lurk into your mind Control you to be my own slave Twist and turn your emotions Tell you lies you want to hear Sweet talking gets you no where Push you down and crucify you Chained to your own mistakes How you feel now Bigger than them Or is your ego still humble

Understanding Domestic Violence.it Can Happen To Anyone!!
If you read my other blogs and don't understand them or what is going on. Maybe this will clear up my writing and words. Take Care Rene' (I got this from a good friend) Domestic violence toward women: Recognize the patterns and seek help Domestic abuse can happen to anyone, regardless of age, economic status, race and educational background. Find out how to recognize an abusive relationship and what resources are available to help. He says he's sorry and that it won't happen again. But you fear it will. Angry outbursts, hurtful words, sometimes a slap or a punch. You may start to doubt your own judgment, or wonder whether you're going crazy. Maybe you think you've imagined the whole thing. But you haven't. Domestic violence can and does happen to people of all ages, races, and socioeconomic and educational backgrounds. Domestic violence happens to men and to same-sex partners, but most often domestic violence involves men abusing their female partners. In fact, the Dep

How To Forgive
Subject: 7% ************ How To Forgive One day a while back, a man, his heart heavy with grief, was walking in the woods. As he thought about his life this day, he knew many things were not right. He thought about those who had lied about him back when he had a job. His thoughts turned to those who had stolen his things and cheated him. He remembered family that had passed on. His mind turned to the illness he had that no one could cure. His very soul was filled with anger, resentment and frustration. Standing there this day, searching for answers he could not find, knowing all else had failed him, he knelt at the base of an old oak tree to seek the one he knew would always be there. And with tears in his eyes, he prayed: "Lord- You have done wonderful things for me in this life. You have told me to do many things for you, and I happily obeyed. Today, you have told me to forgive. I am sad, Lord, because I cannot. I don't know how. It is not fair Lord. I didn'

Still Around
Sleeping peacefully in bed to the sound of a spring rain dancing on the roof. Waking up to enjoy the music of nature, you lay in bed a while longer. Trapped in the melody from outside, wishing the day didn't have to start or stop. In that one moment in time life and all that is, is in perfect harmony. That would be about how I felt this morning when I first woke up at about 0630. Hank and I laying in bed with the rain dancing outside. It's a very peaceful thing to me.It's mornings like this I recall why I don't mind getting up everyday lol. Now when I get to work on the other hand I tend to forget that but that's life right? We are still trying to sell the house and I'm hoping soon that we do. I mean I like it here but I'm not a fan of field mice or the snake that Hank says sometimes sunbathes on the porch. Ok so the poor sap got a girly girl nothing I can do about that now lol. Just latley my sisters got me going to the tanning beds. I just started so I'm still wwhite compare

Drowning Sorrows
The distressed-looking man had downed several drinks in rapid succession before the bartender asked him, "you trying to drown your sorrows, buddy?" "you could say that," the guy replied. "it usually doesn't work, you know." "no shit," the man moaned. "i can't even get my wife anywhere near the water!"

More Art Project Stuff
Last night I started a new art project. I showed my wife what I had done and she laughed. (Don't worry, it was in a good way. )I asked about the laughter and she said that the project definitely reflects my personality, just like the last one.Anyway, since I need to buy some stuff for the project and since I won't get paid until Monday, you'll have to wait before you can see it. So there! tag: art, computers, crafts, fun-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-Ave Satanas!Join me at CherryTap.com

Viagra Lmao (make Sure Your Date Shows Up )
A middle-aged guy went to his doctor and asked for a prescription of the strongest Vagra available because he had got two young nymphomaniacs staying at his house for a few days. Later that week he went back to the doctor and asked for painkillers. "What's the problem?" asked the doctor. "Is your weenie in that much pain?" "No," said the guy. "It's for my wrists, the girls never showed up.""

Anxiety
Didn't feel quite right last night before bed. Then wwhen I tried to go to sleep I really started to feel the anxiety coming. For once I slept better, until about 5 when it got to the point of being close to an anxiety attack. Have not had one of those in years... since around the time of my divorce. Feeling better right now though. No idea on what caused it last night.

Hey Guys Im With Crissy Right Now
hey guys on cherry tap im with crissy my gf and we r doing a morning cam show only today we will do it at this time if ur interested hit me up on my messenger just to tell u its 5 bux too see us ok thegirl_nextdoor26 yahoo fore519@hotmail.com hope to here from u soon the shows at noon est

For Her-------
WHAT IS THIS LIFE I LIVE,....I LIVE HAUNTED WITH YOUR MEMORIES ,..MY HEART BEATS AS IF I SEE YOU COME HOME TO US AGAIN...I NEVER CRIED,I NEVER WOULD HAVE.....YOU MADE ME STRONG ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF THEM I KNOW.BUT SOMEHOW IM HAUNTED,...I WANT TO TOUCH YOU ONE MORE TIME.,...AM I GOING MAD,....AS I SOMEHOW FEEL YOUR PRESENCE,.....IM HAUNTED......YOU LINGER WITHIN ME AS I CANT LET GO YET I CAN NOT,...I WILL NOT ,...LET YOU GO!!,.......IM HAUNTED,.....BY THE LUV YOU AND ONLY YOU GAVE US,...... ITS ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW,...YOUR SHADOWS,YOUR VOICE,THE THINGS YOU SAID,....YOU BELIEVE I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE WAY WE SAT NEAR YOU JUST TO TOUCH YOU,....THE WAY I LAYED MY HEAD IN YOUR LAP AS YOU RUBBED MY HAIR.....O MOMA'',.....THE SILLY PHONE CALLS,.....THE GOWNS YOU WORE..WASHING YOUR HAIR,...WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOURE TOUCHING ME YET YOURE GONE,.....I SEE YOU...BUT MOST OF ALL,.........I MISS U ,....MOMA!!,...

Insatiable
Insatiable? My excellent friend writes of her dilemma, as such- Lives with a boyfriend. They make each other happy. He is good to her and her child. They used to have wild sex, but since they have lived together, its maybe a couple times a month. He also has been working massive hours at a new job, and while successful, and getting promotions, he comes home, eats, and goes to bed. He never wants to go anywhere or do anything, he is too tired, even on his day off. She does all she can to entice him to go out and have fun, and also sexually, but gets rejected and feels like crap, and begins to withdraw from him. And the kicker- "But you know, everyone I know thinks I'm an idiot because I have a great man, a good dad to my kid, a provider, a loving person that would kill or die for me but yet I am still unsatisfied. That's why I question myself, am I insatiable?" _________________ Is she being too hard on him? Asking too much? Insatiable? I'm gonn

About Last Night....
Last night I posted quite the pessimistic blog and I woke up this morning wanting to delete it. I have a tendency to get a little over dramatic when I have been let down, lied to or just over all disappointed in people. That all has subsided, however, I felt as though I would leave it up just to remind myself that there are better ways of handling things. The root of my anger stemmed from my teenage daughters...I swear they are going to be the death of me! They decided to go to a friends house for the night and I assumed the girl lived in our neighborhood....well, what do they say about assuming? You look like a fool! My girls took it upon themselves to take a bus to the light rail station to Downtown Denver, then catch another bus to half way to Boulder! I was pissed!! They are only 13 years old for crying out loud!! I got in the car and went and picked them up at 8 pm. I refuse to be one of those parents that allows their children to run wild all over the city. I was so upset last

And She Feels Love
wel this past weekend i went out with a guy i hadnt seen since the 8th grade and well its been quite a few years we had a great time and he asked me to be his girl (i feel so highscool lol) and i said yes. so in all my messed up days ive had lately there is finally a light at the end of the rainbow and a treasure its david and im so glad we reconnected

Dr. Phil
I am passing this on to you because it definitely works and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. Dr. Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you've started and never finished." So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, a bottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates. You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those you feel might be in need of inner peace.

Update Time
On the 27th of March I had an appointment with the dr that put in the heart valve..After 5 and a half hours of tests they found out there is nothing wrong with the valve.That means I am fucked because they have no idea whats wrong with me.....On the 28th of March I got a phone call from them setting me up with another appointment with another DR doing an EKG and seeing this Dr as well. I guess I should feel better that they are doing everything in their power to figure why I am so sick.But the thing I hate is the waiting game...Some of you will be like "Good things come to those who wait"...I been waiting since September of 06'...So I am a lil tired of waiting..I just want to get better and move on witgh whats left of my life and enjoy playing with my kids again...I miss that more then working or anything else....Seeing the enjoyment in their eyes that Daddy was playing with them or rough housing with them or chasing them...If your a parent you seen this look and enjoy it all the tim

Brother, Friend, And Hero. He Was A Marine!
I had a friend who was a Marine. He loved God and served his country to the best of his ability. Right now his family and friends are hurting but he gave his life for a cause he believed in and a country that he loved. Trevor Roberts was the 50th Oklahoman to be killed in Iraq. He was a good friend of mine that I have known since before he was born. Unfortunately I found out the worst way possible that my friend was gone, while delivering papers this morning I saw his picture on the front page beside the words "Bomb kills city Marine." I know so many men die daily over there, but I wanted to honor a man I loved like a brother and who's life was honorable and ended too soon. Please forgive me for any rambling or not making sense, Its still hard and I just want anyone who reads this to please say a quiet prayer for his family and remember a man who deserves our respect. God bless~ here is a version of he article- OKLAHOMA CITY -- A 21-year-old Marine from Oklahoma City died in I

Post Secrets.
Post secret is amazing. Maybe when I get more stamps I will send in mine... They make me feel better when I read them to know someone somewhere feels the same way I do... I just wish I could talk to that person. It would make me happy.

The Folded Napkins...
A Truckers' Story If this doesn't light your fire..your wood is wet! I try not to be biased, but I had my doubts about hiring Stevie. His placement counselor assured me that he would be a good, reliable busboy. I had never had a mentally handicapped employee and wasn't sure I wanted one. I wasn't sure how my customers would react to Stevie. He was short, a little dumpy with the smooth facial features and thick-tongued speech of Down's Syndrome. I wasn't worried about most of my trucker customers because truckers don't generally care who buses tables as long as the meatloaf platter is good and the pies are homemade. The four-wheeler drivers were the ones who concerned me; the mouthy college kids traveling to school; the yuppie snobs who secretly polish their silverware with their napkins for fear of catching some dreaded "truck stop germ;" the pairs of white-shirted business men on expense accounts who think every truck stop waitress wants to be flirted wit

Breakfast At Mcdonald's .
Breakfast at McDonald's . Please read until the end. This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!): I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called "Smile." The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone

Worried About Gizmo
I'm sooo worried about Gizmo. Hes probably around 19 years old. I really dont know his age. When I was in 4th grade I got him from a friend and he was they said already 3 years old. I have had him over 15 years. So hes a old boy,I know he is. He has been the best cat anyone could ever ask for. I love him sooo much and can't stand life without him. He is my comfort pillow. He is the only one that can take angry out of me in a instant of cuddling with him. What will I do with out his comfort.. *sigh* Why I am worried is because he was shitting out of the litterbox. kept getting smaller and smaller. he was peeing fine. for 2 days hardly anything came out. i didn't see him eat much dry food, but i gave him can cat food which is his treats and some milk to see if that would help loosen him up and plus he loves it. he enjoys both so he did eat and drink. He's been throwing up alot lately too. mostly with big huge hairballs so I gave him the stuff for it. Last night he threw up before I

Stardate 03-28-2007
Hello all, hope all is well. Not much has happened, ant least nothing out of the ordinary. I go thru fits of depression, and unfortunately this is right smack dab in the middle of one. So once again I'm battling the blues. Last night was my son's first night of counseling for some problems he had. We spent 95% of the time making sure the place is getting paid, and 5% filling out forms about his past medical history. Myself, I don't think that he needs it, but his mother and my wife both are gung ho about it. He is open to it, but I have told him if he doesn't feel its helping, he can stop anytime, which will add more grief to my life, but less to his. A worthy trade in my book. My ex, his mother, went into counseling when we were married for anxiety attacks. The counselor convinced her I was the cause for anxiety, and that if she divorced me, she would be cured. I did get vindication three months after the divorce when she was put back on her meds. But she swears by the cou

Tears
Tears are such strange things one night their there the next there's no sign of them people can see the hurt in your eyes they can hear the strain in your voice when you say goodbye but they can no longer see the tears in your eyes Tears are such strange things one night they're their the next there's no sign of them exccept for maybe a tissue or two and the hurt they leave in your eyes

Golf Lessons
A foursome is waiting on the men's tee while another foursome of ladies is hitting from the ladies' tee. The ladies are taking their time, when finally the last lady is ready to hit the ball. She hacks it 10 feet; goes over to it, whiffs it; and then hacks it maybe another 10 feet; and then hacks it another 5 feet. She looks up at the men who are watching and says apologetically, "I guess all those Fucking lessons I took this winter didn't help." One of the men immediately replies, "Well, there you have it lady. You should have taken Golf lessons instead."

Sorry
When I'm with you I laugh and I smile when I'm without you a cry seems to wail from within me and I can't seem to breathe everyone say's their sorry but I don't know what it can help They just say they want me to smile what good would that do my dears I'm sorry I'm not stronger then you and my dears I;m sorry I can't give you what you wanted you say you just want me to smile well my dears I'm just not strong enough I'm sorry Sorry I can't hold you up I can't even hold myself up I think I have lost but I'm not very sure my dears I'm sorry I can't seem to hold anyone up anymore

Update
Hey everyone Please keep the prayers going for my sister. She is having surgery today. Unexpected surgery. I will keep you updated on her condition Thank you to those of you that have showed your concern for her and my family. huggles Bren

Bad Day
Ok well I dunno. Yesterday I had a really shitty day. I wrote about a novel in my actual paper journal thing explaining why I feel like I do... And honestly. I don't know what to do about it. I need to say something to someone because I have no reason to feel this way its wrong. I shouldn't feel this way should I? SHouldn't I be happy? I think I should be... Somehow, though, it doesn't seem to be that way. Why does it feel like I am getting fuckered around by a few people that think I am retarded? Well, maybe they don't... But I feel like they do. At times anyway... Now, now, I know I have a tendency to read into things a little much, and I know I over react, but I can't help that. Thats who I am. Maybe I should include some of what i wrote yesterday afternoon. i think things were better worded then... I think I will do that... TUesday March 27: I feel psycho... I just don't understand how or why I can let someone control how I feel so much. This isn't right. I wish I knew

Will This Person Please Identify Themselves!!
I've decided to take this public, to a certain degree, as it could cause me a real problem, lol! One of my past life companions is sending me energy the past couple of days, in the morning, my time - that's Central Daylight Time! This morning it hit between 7:15 and 7:30 a.m., WHILE I WAS DRIVING THE GUYS TO SCHOOL!! Yesterday, I received this energy around 10 a.m., again WHILE I WAS DRIVING, alone this time! The reason this is an issue is the particular type of energy I'm being sent - it is overtly sexual in nature!!!! I would not mind at all, although I would like to know who this is - I can't seem to figure that out; too many past lifers have made their presence known to me!! The problem is THIS OCCURS WHILE I AM DRIVING MY CAR!!!!! I was inadvertently hit with a blast of this flavor of heat last Fall and just about ended up in the ditch! Yeah, it is funny!! After the fact! WAS NOT FUNNY while it was occurring. Once the individual was made aware, and I strengthened my shields

Tattoo
TO MY RAPISTS AT THE AGE OF 6 TOOK MY VIRGINITY TO MY MOLESTER BY THE AGE OF 9 DID NOT REALIZE THAT HE WOULD HURT ME TO MY MOTHER WHO DOESNT EVEN CARE AND IF SHE DID CARE SHE JUST DOESNT EVEN WANT TO KNOW TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEATEN ME IN LIFE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TREATED ME WRONG THIS BUTTERFLY MEANS TRANQUILITY AND PEACE BUTTERFLIES ARE FREE AND I FEEL FREE I AM DEFFIENTLY FREE FREE OF HATE, ANGER, AND FEAR!

For My Rider Friends
I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old coats and glov

"rebuild"
No more sorrow, no more pain Only love and understanding is left to gain No more words without meaning Only phrases and gestures full of feeling No more lonely days and sleepless nights Only quality time filled with hugs so tight No more thoughts of worthlessness Only moments shared together engulfed in happiness No more starving for attention and a look of disgrace Only daily kisses accompanied with a warm embrace Love is patient, kind and complicated To make it work communication must be initiated God and His words play a big part Hold Him near and dear, close to your heart

Reason For Being
She's sexy, uninhibited, unafraid and never shy in what she wants. But we have to look deeper to find out what exactly makes the perfect woman. What makes men and women alike go weak at the knees when she enters a room? What, in this stumbling scribe's opinion, makes you want to spend the rest of your life with Veronica? I saw her after many years apart in a pokey living room, wearing a brown pullover hanging from her just so, as to accentuate her figure without being clingy or slutty. She might have been wearing some other clothes as well, but I couldn't tell you because as she saw me she smiled in recognition. Nothing amazing about that, except that you weren't there. That smile lit up her eyes, the room, and very possibly could have kept a large-ish town in light for a decade. I was dazzled, and thought what everyone who is privy to this experience thinks (sadly, its not just for me but that's ok because it would be like depriving the world of sunlight). I thought, I will do

Song Of The Day! Morning Edition!
voila! we're back! yes linkin park! breaking the habit is a great video! they wanted to do this video in real life style but they couldn't afford it or somethin like that... but i think its probably one of the coolest animated videos out there so enjoy and if your goin to bamboozle to see em let me know so we can meet up or somethin cause i'm gonna be there on sunday Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not all right So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than any time before I had no option

33 10 Hours
LYING AWAKE IN BED HEARING YOUR VOICE IN MY HEAD SMILING LIKE THE FOOL I AM MY HEART EXPLODING IN MY CHEST 10 HOURS LATER AND MY NAME IS FOREVER ALTERED NEVER TO BE HEARD THE SAME AGAIN SOUNDING SO PLAIN FROM EVERYONE'S TONGUE I HAVE A STAR PICKED OUT FOR YOU AND I WATCH IT MOVE ACROSS MY SKY EACH NIGHT SLOWLY STEADY TIL IT FADES INTO THE BREAK OF DAY 10 HRS AND COUNTING

The Dream
She has to be dreaming of me, Watch as she squirms, twist and turns in between the sheets. Observe as the sweat inches over her perfect curves. In her mind she has to be calling to me. As she slowly removes her clothes soaked in her delicate joy, The electricity can be felt traveling throughout me, As I begin to feel the heat, My heart increases to a rhythmic beat, The intensity in my veins, the rush of blood throughout me. Let me join thee, in this steaming voyage of erotic pleasure. From the moon light my shadow lays upon the walls Now watch as I come alive to indulge thee in sexual exstacy

Stupid Rant
Ever notice how people claim things all the time , yet their actions speak so much louder. I wonder if some people purposly play head games , but whats even better , is when your only an option to communicate with when no one else is around , I guess people dont realize how obvious they really are I love being second best always please stop pissing on my leg and trying to tell me its raining. Im not as blind as you think

Just Out Of Curiosity..
IS THERE ANYONE ELSE OUT THERE ON MY FRIENDS LIST THAT WISHES ME TO GO "FUCK MYSELF" CAUSE IF THERE IS PLEASE DELETE ME NOW. I HAVE NO TIME FOR THESE STUPID LITTLE CHILDISH GAMES. AND JUS FOR THE RECORD MR LOST4NOW, I AM NO WHORE, YOU R JUS JEALOUS THAT I WOULD NOT GIVE U THE TIME OF DAY IN MY LIFE. SO TO THIS I SAY "YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF" AND SULK IN THE DEEP DARK NASTY CORNERS OF YOUR LIFE YA SIMPLE ASS. HA HA HA. AND IF YA STILL FEEL THE SAME BRING IT ON ASSHOLE I GOT SOMETHIN FER YA!! DON'T FUCK WITH ME IT WILL BE THE VERY LAST THING THAT YOU EVER DO!!!

Blah
Mmmm to the left, to the left Everything you own in the box to the left In the closet, that's my stuff Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch (don't touch) And keep talking that mess, thats fine Could you walk and talk, at the same time? And it's my name thats on that jag So go move your bags, let me call you a cab Standing in the front yard, telling me How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout How I'll never ever find a man like you You got me twisted You must not know 'bout me You must not know 'bout me I could have another you in a minute Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby) You must not know 'bout me You must not know 'bout me I can have another you by tomorrow So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin' You're irreplaceable? So go ahead and get gone Call up that chick, and see if shes home Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know What did you think I was putting you out for? Because you was untrue Rolling her around in the car tha

Have You. . .?
Ever felt totally alone???? Yeah, I feel like that today. I'm literally all alone, and there's not a single trace of my family. They won't answer phones, no one showed up for work, NOTHING. Its raining really hard outside and the hospital won't tell me if anyone has been admitted in the last two hours. I'M FUCKING WORRIED! I can't stand not knowing if my family is alright!

Why Parents Drink
A father passing by his son's bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to "Dad." With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter. Dear Dad: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion...Dad...she's pregnant. Stacy said that we will be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children. Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone. We'll be

Hump Day, Again!?
The weeks just keep going faster and faster. How can it be Wednesday again, already, lol?? I have one client this morning. Then I'm back to pick up Dakota from early dismissal at school at Noon. THE DAY has finally arrived - The Day of the Dreading!! OOOOOOOooooooooh, I like that, lol! Sounds like a SciFi Movie of the Week, lmao! Yeah, Kota gets his dreadlocks today. I will try to take pics of this procedure and the final results! I need to take pics of the guys anyway, since I talk about them so much. Must see who I'm talking about!! Not to mention that effing Salute is hanging over my head! Hey, that sounds like an idea, lol!! Got to get that stupid thing done so I can level up. I'm tired of seeing 99.99% on my point graph, lmao!! It's almost Guy Transport time, so I'd better end this. Strange dreams last night! Wonder what they meant, afraid to ask, lol!! Have a wonderful day, everyone! Much love and warm hugs for everyone! Blessings and more love, all over the map, lol!

It Was Upsetting News When I Heard It On The News...
but it really hit home, as well, when I learned that it was a friend's cousin that was a victim. The family is in Houston advocating for her while her ex-boyfriend is in jail with a $250,000 bond. Who says that domestic violence doesn't have a rippling effect? Can you imagine having to have to search for the remains of your loved one's ashes and bones among the city's dumps??? Don't go to my site to click on the article from Houston's Channel 2 Station on my site under Domestic Violence, unless you are really prepared to hear about the whole story. It is certainly a maddening nightmare that shall be unravelling for a while. Please pray that the young girl's family will be able to find some justice in midst of it all and find peace in the end. www.iwim.wordpress.com

Very Emotional Video From Pink
This is an emotional video for me. I have several friends and family members fighting in the war. These are many questions i have asked time and time again. I dont think i am the only one that feels this way either. When is it going to end? All of the pain, hurt and suffering has to end.

Photo's And Stash Update !
Happy hump day all !! I have updated my stash and my photo albums. So please stop on by and take a look and show some luv !! Thanks lots to my friends who have already stopped by ((big hugs)). Take care Lin xx

Against Me
Don't hold it against me That I like to see you That I am aggressive That I know how to cook Don't hold it against me That you make my days fly by That the thought of kissing you That the time I have available Don't hold it against me That I almost worship you That holding you while you sleep That your breath on my neck Don't hold it against me That I wish I was different That I enjoy having fun That you are what I want Don't hold it against me That I'm not hands on That I don't play the field That I've hung up my players belt Don't hold it against me That I am insecure at times That I'm nervous That I wish this was simple Don't hold it against me That I wish I could lay in bed with you That I wish you would want me more That I wish I was your world Don't hold it against me That I'm probably rushing this That my flaws with ruin this That me being me will destroy us Don't hold it against me That I look and don't touch That I diet That I

No, It's Not About That
Late at night Right before I Fall asleep I have this dream It’s like you Are still there Even though you Never Were before A nightmare Of a Fantasy A bitter truth Of you and Me The other side Of the pillow Provides no Release I could not Protect you So now I don’t sleep

Nostalgia ... ( What I'm Thinking Of At 3am In The Mornin.)
Thoughts of being found when you were so lost give hope of the fondest dreams. It breaths life in to a whole new realm of it's own. To feel is to touch & to see is to look. Most of all, taste is to experience the flavor you never expected. Something perhaps the French gave a name to. It is all too familiar. The scent, of the wild flowers that bloom in the spring. The sweet smell of fruity blossoms that carry through the air by way of a soft breeze. Then it's all of the sudden gone, but the memory remains. Nostalgia brings to mind the essence of a forgotten past, some how the past is brought to life by the smell that swings by. There is a notion that many let pass, the things they refuse to deal with only because they've not gone there before. Warnings are heeded as a way to alert ones self with the identity of the past. Especially when the past hasn't always been so pleasant. What if the past is of another life time though? One to pick up where it had abruptly ended. To revisit the

Was Sanjaya Re-inventing The Roman Head-dress?
Good Morning. It’s a Hump Day again. Can one have seven hump days in a row? No idea and not that I have or anything foolish as that. Just seems the week is not getting over the hump. Mandy Had two singles and a walk in last nights game against Saugatuck. The Saugatuck Indians or something of that nature. I believe then had an Indian Logo on their warm up jackets. No idea and actually not even sure that was the school log… But, Manda played well and the team also did well so I was entertained. Ok, without going to much on the Sanjaya Bashing wagon. But, if you did not get a chance to see Sanjaya freak of nature doo, Do tell me what you think. The child has to be on something… I mean…I seen Mohawks before. I am seen weird doo’s before.. But this kids doo last night was way off the mark. I think a razor and a shaver is needed on set 14.. My gosh what kind of weirdo not safe drug is this kid on? And you watch, the RB will stay this week and perhaps be in the top scoring… I am speechle

Heather I Absolutely Love This Song, Thank You
Toothpick: Scars for Entertainment I thought we kissed under the blue moon How can there be six walls in a square room Hide my eyes through the glare in the window I saw you making angels in the pink snow I reached out and touched clouds it was so real Now the sheets on my bed are made of cold steel Why is it me that's not thinking in a straight line So scared I only sleep in the daytime And even then I can only close one eye I hear you walk a little slower as you go by With no shoelaces no fork and no knife I guess they don't trust me with my own life Friends of yours are friends of mine Now let's get together and have a good time Sayin' it's alright the sun still shines The earth still spins and you're still mine With your hands on your chest you take a deep breath Still afloat but you know you have to jump ship See I remember the time when we were all friends Now I can't see over the picket fence If I look straight up I see the yellow

Memorable Quotes
may angels take you upon there wings and protect you from the demons of the world and allow you a peaceful rest i speak of a poetic nature but do not show it through till my senses are aware of peoples intentions and there demeanor These two quotes were said by a friend of mine. I loved them so i thought I would share them with you

Say Goodbye Time
Hey everyone its time for me to say goodbye to my old friends for a while. I need to get my life back on track here with my sister and my job. I am also interested in a guy alot that I'm hoping things will work out sooner or later with this guy. Some of my friends know him but I'm not mentioning no name to anyone.. Only 2 people knows who I'm talking about.. PLZ DONT SAY NO NAMES TO NO ONE. Oh ya I finally have a cell phone. Thanks to my older sister she got me a phone today through US Cellular. I have to say thanks to her alot. Only 3 of my friends an my family have my new number an thats all thats getting it. Sorry to you know who, I wont give u my cell number cause I was told today from people that u an ur wife where fighting again cause of me. I dont wanna ruin ur life if thats the way its all going to be. NO IM NOT PISSED IF THATS WHAT U ARE THINKING!! I want u to be happy with her. Im trying to get my self into a relationship with out anyone fucking it up for me. I wanna start a

Everyone Has The Right To Defend Their Property (beit Home, Work, Or Car) With Deadly Force????
Texas Governor Perry thinks so. He just signed The Castle Doctrine into law yesterday. Read the following as posted in MyFoxAustin and let me know what you think: AUSTIN -- Governor Rick Perry today signed into law a bill that gives Texans a stronger legal right to defend themselves with deadly force. The bill says no person has a duty to retreat from an intruder before using deadly force. In some cases, previous law imposed an obligation to retreat. The new law takes effect September first. Perry says the measure is "reasonable legislation." The bill is dubbed the "Castle Doctrine," from the idea that a man's home is his castle and he has the right to defend it. A building or vehicle must be occupied at the time for the deadly force provision to apply, and the person using force can't provoke the attacker or be involved in criminal activity at the time. The new law will also provide civil immunity for a person who lawfully uses deadly force in any of the circum

Wednesday Links: Whip 'em Out Wednesday, New Boobs On Ratemywow, Gene Simmons, Louis Ck, New Videos
Oh boy... Boobies on Paltalk... totally derailing the show... LISTEN TO TODAY'S SHOW ON AUDIBLE (link usually active by 3pm EST) It's Whip 'em Out Wednesday and FINALLY warming up in New York. SO warm in fact, that you may actually see a pair of bosoms... You should probably make sure you have a WOW Sticker if you want to partake in this goodness. There's a few ways to go about it: 1. GO TO THIS LINK FILL OUT THE FORM, AND WE WILL MAIL YOU ONE. 2. Send a self-addressed, stamped envelope (NOT A SMALL ONE, DUMMIES) to: The Opie and Anthony Show WOW Sticker Requests 111 West 57th Street Suite 500 New York, NY 10019 3. Get yourself an OFFICIAL WOW T-SHIRT!. Don Imus has been known to wear one his show (we know because we've seen it on MSNBC. CLICK HERE AND GET A SHIRT...DAG NABBIT... and be like Imus. Speaking of SHIRTS, check out what WE do now... ORDER YOURS TODAY (male and female sizes available) NEW BOOBS ON RATEMYWOW: If you STILL

Changes
Where can I turn too? nowhere to run, life is a puzzle, with so much left undone, lost and empty, lonely and cold, would it really be better, with a dream I could hold? running in circles, hide all the fears, so many heartbreaks, for to many years, there has got to be some way, to stop all the tears, to make life right, starting tonight, it's time to make, Changes..

10 Reasons Why...not!!
10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is Wrong 1. Homosexuality is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning. 2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall. 3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. 4. Heterosexual marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal. 5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if homosexual marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed. 6. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Homosexual couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren

Why It's Wrong
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me. I

Rip Precious Baby Boy!!!
Please rip this pic from my default folder and use it as ur primary for today Wed March 28th his funeral is today, lets pay our respects, thanks so much!! Have a good day everyone! Keep this family in ur thoughts and prayers!! Take care, xoxoxox Jen

The Nsfw Filter
Ever see those pics that there isnt a god damned thing wrong with and yet were reported as NSFW? Where do these people work? A Fucking Monestary? The rule should be, that if someone reports something as NSFW... THE NSFW CHECK BOX IN THEIR PROFILE MUST BE ACTIVE BEFORE THEY ARE ALLOWED To COMPLAIN ABOUT SOMETHING BEING NOT SAFE FOR FUCKING WORK! Otherwise... their report is IG FUCKING NORED! *ahem* But I digress. Why are Nuns surfing the internet anyway? If you report a chick in a bikini as not safe for work... HOW ABOUT YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING WORK INSTEAD OF SURFING THE GOD DAMMNED INTERNET ON YOUR BOSSES DIME?!?!?

Some Wise Words I Learned From A Friend
Time is too slow for those that wait, too swift for those that fear, too long for those that grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those that love, time is eternity. Don't let doubt lose the magic of love, cause it's not everyday you meet someone who has the magic to let you fall in love. To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if u can't do this!

Odd
So a seris of odd things have happened tonight , two ghosts from my past well one a ghost the other was more a illusion I never was able to speak to . The ghost a ex of mine surfaces and appolagizes for all the shit they put me through , mind you they led me to belive they were killed . They appolagized did I forgive ? No I cant forgive someone for that . Someone I cared alot for someone I shed tears for and blood for . I can't forgive and it was hard . Not for me but for them . The actually said I was the most valiant yet sadistic person they had ever known . Sadistic ? Because when I am angered even the gods cant control me . I like to say I am the pure definition of chaos . In its rawiest form , I dont obide by many laws regulations or rules. I will exploit tecnology to my advantage (for those Anarchists who are technophobes get over it ) . We live in a society where tech rules the world . Yet its so easy to manipulate and exploit, Id never exploit those who are good to me

These Are True.
Loose Lips Sink Ships, Don't Ever Kiss And Tell, This from Chief Roll-A-Blunt, "Poke Smot To All And To All Poke A Lotta Smot", If I Won't Lick it Then Don't Stick It, A Drunken Mans Word Is A Sober Mans Thought, Why Do People Drive On A Parkway And Park On A Driveway? It's Better To Have Something You Don't Need Then To Need Something And Not Have It(like condoms), Why do people forever say never? There's nothing you can not do, ADD SOME OF YOUR OWN QUOTES OR OTHER CRAZY SHIT.....

The Problem With The Internet
too many people out the are bored and cynical and want to rain on other people so they post bs about them and call them fake and don't give a shit about what other people think you know that people are entitled to the opinion they want but damn people don't go throwing shit when you cant back it up or you just want to put other's down

Never Pay For 411 Calls Again
I was online looking at stuff and stumbled upon information to get free 411 calls on your cell phone. Just dial 1-800-free-411 (instead of just 411) and you don't pay the $1.25 per call or whatever your cell company charges anymore. You can save on your bill too. It will cost you minutes if your plan calls for it, but still. Better than the other charge. The next time you're driving and want to place a 411 call use this toll free number, remember to save it to your phone! Your Friend, Nicholas

Busted!!!
I got busted again meeting a woman ive been chatting with!I think its not fair,i get bored and like meeting new people.Maybe i could do it without the sex??What ya all think?She mite divorce me!I hope not,i do love her but its an addiction,meeting new women and of course the sex.Should i go to counseling?Or say hell with it and try not to get caught or just stop meeting new women?Ive met about 5 women off the net.Is that wrong??

For Our Falen Hero's
You left that day Amongst tears and laughter To serve our country For now and after You called that day To say you were leaving Not to worry For Honor you were receiving They came that day To say you were killed That you died a Hero That day my heart stood still You came home that day To be placed in the ground My heart went with you No words were spoken, not a sound You left that day Amongst tears and laughter To serve Our Country Now and in the Hereafter

Art Gallery
All though I get invited to these openings all the time, for some reason this one interested me. I was never really into abstract art. I was more of a Monet type of collector. But some sixth sense told me I should go. So I pampered myself and got dressed up. Which was another reason I didn't like going to these things. I still could not figure out how I got an invitation. Not even my friends had heard about this opening. It was a new gallery. Just opened a couple of months ago. Well time to check it out. As I entered I was shocked at the beauty of the colors and sweeping of the brush against the canvas. They were done with passion and you could feel that passion radiating from the walls. This artist was more than just a painter. He was a phenom with a paintbrush. One painting in particular caught my eye. The gentle swirl of colors, making it sensual. The feeling of sexuality coming from that painting was almost too much to take. Turning away from it, trying to catch my breath, I

The Dirty Thirty
> The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself: > > Recopy this info and fill it in w/ your answers. It might shock you to read. Be 100% truthful! > > 1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? > 5 days ago > > 2. What were you doing this morning at 8am? > sleeping > > 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? > relaxing > > 4. What are you wearing? > nothing > > 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? > not that i know of!!!! > > 6. Last person to say they loved you? > Stan > > 7. Last time you had sex? > 20 minutes ago > > 8. Do you know the words to the song on your Cherrytap profile? > Don't have one > > 9. Last thing received in the mail? > Alumni information 25 years, wow! > > 10.. Do you have any famous relatives? > Yes > > 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? > Nope I'm an angel > > 13. How long is your hair? > 36 inches > > 14. How many different drinks have you had today? > 3 > > 15. What have you

I Knew It!!!!!
You scored as Lara Croft. A thrill-seeking, slightly unscrupulous, tough-as-nails archaeologist, Lara Croft travels the world in search of ancient relics perhaps better left hidden. She packs two Colt .45s and has no fear of jumping off buildings, exploring creepy tombs, or taking on evil meglomaniacs bent on world domination. Lara Croft100%Maximus100%Indiana Jones83%James Bond, Agent 00783%Batman, the Dark Knight67%Neo, the "One"67%William Wallace67%Captain Jack Sparrow67%The Terminator50%El Zorro50%The Amazing Spider-Man

The Lounge
WELL FIRST OFF I JUST WANT TO SAY SORRY TO EVERYONE THAT WAS A MEMBER OF CLUB FANTASIA! BUT WE HAD SOME ASSHOLE DELETE THE LOUNGE TONIGHT! BUT JUST SO YOU KNOW HE DIDNT STOP US COMLPLETELY WE ARE BACK UP NAD RUNNING WE JUST NEED ALL OUR FRIENDS BACK SO PLEASE COME BACK TO THE LOUNGE AND REJOIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS WILL BE ALL BACK TO NORMAL BY TOMORROW AFTERNOON!!!!!!! HERE IS THE NEW LOUNGE LINK! http://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=6497 THANKS SO MUCH KERRY

Support The Local Firefighters, Ems Paramedics, 911 Dispatchers, And Law Enforcement Officers
I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 6 in the morning as I Check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late. But wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to try and save his life. I wish you knew the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled mucus, the feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames crackling, the eeriness of being able to see absolutely nothing in dense smoke-sensations that I've become too familiar with. I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a call, Is a this false alarm or a working fire? How is the building constructed? What Hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?" Or to call and ask what is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life threatening? Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun? I wish you could be in the emergency room, as a doctor pronounces

Wow An Exciting Page!!
DAMN I FEEL THAT THIS IS A PAGE TO ADULT FUN SO I HOPE YOU ALL WELCOME CAUSE I'LL BE TRYING TO HAVE THE MOST FUN WITH MY PANTS ON, LETS HOPE NOT FOR LONG. SO IF ANY OF YOU LADIES WOULD LIKE TOGIVE ME A HAND WITH WHAT WE ARE TO AND DO IT RIGHT I'M OPEN WILLING AND ANYTHING THAT I MIGHT HAVE TO DO WITH IN REASON!!

Boobs
THE WOMEN WHO HAVE THE BOOBS HAVE THE POWER IT DOES'NT MATTER WHAT SIZE THEY ARE,BUT IT SEEMS THE BIGGER THE BETTER.BOOBS ALMOST ALWAYS SEEM TO BE THE FIRST THING A GUY NOTICES BECAUSE THEY ARE AT EYE LEVEL,THE GOOD THING ABOUT BOOBS IS THAT YOU CAN JUST DO SO MUCH WITH THEM THEY ARE THE PERFECT TOYS YOU JUST HAVE SO MUCH FUN,THEY NEVER BREAK,THEY COME IN SETS,A GUY CAN HAVE A BAD DAY,BUT SHOW THEM YOUR BOOBS AND ALL OF THE SUDDEN TREY ARE HAVING A GOOD DAY,AND WOMEN,THEY LOVE TO SHOW OFF THEY'RE BOOBS TO ONE ANOTHER,YOU WILL GET THE SAME RESPONSE OUT OF A 6 MONTH OLD AND A 65 YEAR OLD,THAT THEY LOVE TO SUCK ON THEM,BOOBS MAKE GREAT FLOATATIONAL DEVICES,YOU CAN JUST DO SO MUCH WITH THEM,SUCK THEM,FUCK THEM,TEASE THEM,SQUEEZE THEM,PLEASE THEM,GOD HAD FUN WHEN HE MADE BOOBS ON THE DAY GOD RESTED THAT IS WHEN HE MUST HAVE CREATED BOOBS.YOU KNOW THAT HE MUST HAVE BEEN HAVING A GOOD DAY,BOOBS ARE SUCH A TURN ON,SO HOT,...

If A Child Lives With
1.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH CRITICISM, HE/SHE LEARNS TO CONDEMN. 2.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH HOSTILITY, HE/SHE LEARNS TO FIGHT. 3.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH RIDICULE, HE/SHE LEARNS TO BE SHY. 4.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH SHAME, HE/SHE LEARNS TO FEEL GUILTY. 5.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH TOLERANCE, HE/SHE LEARNS TO BE PATIENT. 6.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH PRAISE, HE/SHE LEARNS TO APPRECIATE. 7.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH ENCOURAGEMENT, HE/SHE LEARNS CONFIDENCE. 8.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH FAIRNESS, HE/SHE LEARNS JUSTICE. 9.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH SECURITY, HE/SHE LEARNS TO HAVE FAITH. 10.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH APPROVAL, HE/SHE LEARNS TO LIKE THEMSELVES. 11.IF A CHILD LIVES WITH ACCEPTANCE, HE/SHE LEARNS TO FIND LOVE IN THE WORLD...

Why Daddy?
The other day, my nine year old son wanted to know why we were at war ... My husband looked at our son and then looked at me. My husband and I were both in the Army during the Gulf War and we would be honored to serve and defend our Country again today. I knew that my husband would give him a good explanation. My husband thought for a few minutes and then told my son to go stand in our front living room window. He said, "Son, stand there and tell me what you see?" "I see trees and cars and our neighbor's houses." he replied. "OK, now I want you to pretend that our house and our yard is the United States of America and you are President Bush." Our son giggled and said, "OK." "Now son, I want you to look out the window and pretend that every house and yard on this block is a different country," my husband said. "OK Dad, I'm pretending." "Now I want you to stand there and look out the window and pretend you see Saddam

Globalization Is Here To Stay
Well, it looks like Globalization is here to stay. I can admit I was wrong. It seems that the same argument I have used to reason that Globalization will fail is the proof that is it the long term trend for the world. It began back in 1890, and maybe further back when Polk decided he wanted Mexican land. The Spanish American War was much the same way. One might see WWI as an adjustment for it, and WWII (among many other things kicking the crap out of two countries who did not want to go along -- can't really diminish the fact that both Japan and Germany were ruled by murderous regimes). World War I and World War II did slow it down, but the greatest speed-bump in the process was the Great Depression and employment/economic policies that came out of it. FDR's New Deal, did slow don the process and gave it a certain humanity that lasted here from 1944 to 1974. I can't say we really treated the masses outside our borders any better, but well we never have had much respect for non Anglo

Muppets And Monkeys
Actual call centre conversations !!!!! Customer: "I've been ringing 0800 2100 for two days and can't get through to enquiries, can you help?". Operator: "Where did you get that number from, sir?". Customer: "It was on the door to the Travel Centre". Operator: "Sir, they are our opening hours". ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Samsung Electronics Caller: "Can you give me the telephone number for Jack?" Operator: "I'm sorry, sir, I don't understand who you are talking about". Caller: "On page 1, section 5, of the user guide it clearly states that I need to unplug the fax machine from the AC wall socket and telephone Jack before cleaning. Now, can you give me the number for Jack?" Operator: "I think you mean the telephone point on the wall". ---------------------------------------------------------------------- RAC Motoring Services Caller

Skullfuck Santa. Christmas Is Cancelled Forever.
I just finished White Void version 2 (the old is... somewhere >> I forget where). Now... normally I'd be ecstatic, I'd kick someone in the teeth out of joy. But... *shrug* I've got nothing. I should. This poem has plagued me for ... three years(?) On how exactly to put it down... its not perfect, but damn if its not a huge improvement from the first. And I Feel Nothing. So I've decided I'm going to do progressively more dangerous things to myself till I enjoy life again. WOO! I need help. Seriously. Lock me up.

Who Woulda Thought This Girl Would Become A Submissive...
You know... I've been thinking a lot lately about my being submissive. It's interesting to me that even 3 years ago, if a relationship as such of a submissive and Master would have been brought up to me, I would have thought the person was nuts.. completely and totally. I would have felt the relationship itself would be wrong. It's funny how with time, and a greater understanding of oneself, opinions can change in a person. When I tell someone I am a submissive, that I hold a Master.. I have rules I follow and I can get punished if I fail to follow those rules.. I have seen many different reactions. I have seen the reactions of those that have never heard of such relationships. That being said.. some have open minds and others do not. I have been questioned on how the relationship works, and why I am in such.. and why I am on the submissive rather than the dominant side. To being told I am completely sick and wrong.. and need help. As I said in an earlier blog... The nar

.loss.of.mood.
i should be sleeping. instead...im finding myself in...a mood. yannow..one of those...cant quite put your finger on it...completely exhausted but it just takes to much energy to extract yourself from your current position...cuz while its not completely comfortable...it is what it is...and your mind is spinning in circles around a drain in which there is no plug so even if you tried you couldnt stop the flow...yet you're not exactly sure where said flow is coming from or even where its headed...so you sit...with those half open eyes staring out into the deep vast nothingness...and you'd throw something...if anything was close enough to be thrown...but the inanimate objects have inexplicably extracted themselves from anywhere near your vicinity...while at the same time wondering how its remotely possible that all these interesting people live inside this box and none of them seem to exist in reality...which also makes you wonder how real any of it is at all. and yes..that was prob

Who Is Your Number One Idol?
My Brother Is My Number 1 Idol Due To One Fact, He Is A Double Amputee, Got Both Legs Cut Off By A Train In 1996 And I Was There And The Pain He Went Through Then And The Daily Tasks And Obstacles He Goes Through To Make His Life MEANINGFULL Everyday Is More Then One Person Should Ever Half To, He Was 14 I Was 16 When It Happend And No I Dont Want To Talk About It Anymore Then This Please, Ive Dealt With This Part Of My Life And Dont Need Old Wounds Opend Back Up.

She Needs Help
Rebekah got into a contest, then her computer got hacked, hacked so had it has to go to the shop to be repaired, so she didn't get to tell anyone about the contest, using her husband's computer she got one bulletin out, she is 8,000 behind, but even then she still is going to give it her best shot, but whould you expect any less from a former Marine. so rate her, comment bomb her and tell your friends, when you see my bulletins repost, thank you so very much, she has a lot of faith and a lot of heart, lets show her it is for a good reason.

White Void
Maybe I just didn't feel like it. Feel. What is it. I miss it. I'm dead to feel. I'm bled to null. My life ... it was a beautiful thing. Like standing on a cliff, overlooking the saphire eternity of the sea- the salt breeze tickling the back of my brain. No that's not it. My life is like watching white flurry powder dancing in the playful gusts of wind. Just chilly enough to redden my cheeks. With enough snow to dazzle you rather than blind you with diamond blanketed fuzzy blue earth. Gray mountain tips teasing heaven. No... but getting closer. My life... is the grass on my fingertips. The rolling infinity of the plains, interrupted briefly by treelines, foggy horizons, golden beams of light exploding from the nimbi. Rolling forever... no matter how far I reach, I will never close my hand around it all. My life... was the cool black forever of an autumn night. Stars, familiar friends, angels flying low... glitter and scream silently for my affection. Name me. Pick m

Sick And Tired
I'm in an irritable mood.. the sort of mood where I find myself behaving in ways I would rather not.. right now I really want to smash stuff.. that's how I'm feeling.. I think its.. well I'm a lil overtired and need sleep... basically.. I listen to this Joseph Campbell lecture today, on you tube.. it was very good.. one that I actually hadn't heard before.. which is good because I can practically lip synch most of them.. so to hear a new one.. means the possibility of reading it, as if , for the first time. This particular episode explored psychosis a little bit.. very much from.. I guess we could call it a pre modern perspective in that the current view of psychosis is a little different.. but I'm not sure that the current thing is really all that incompatable with with what Campbell was saying.. Anyway.. in one way or another it talked about my own journey.. Not that I was ever psychotic.. but that I did set out on a kind of journey, in my life.. set sail, if you wil

Grrrrrr
If I see another bitch with her titties hangin out or her fuckin finger in her damn mouth!!!! Im gonna fuckin scream.. Sure god gave you them saggy bitch but god damn cover them fuckers up.. and do you know where your fingers been??? You better think about that before you stick that nasty shit in your mouth!!!!! And another thing.. Dont you have a little more self respect for yourself? yes Im not perfect by any means.. But I dont need to show myself like that.. I have plenty of men that leave messages for me everyday... Some of yall need to think about what yall put on to show your goods..like some skank ass to little bikini.. have some more fuckin class in the way you present yourself to the world. COME ON

Where Did The Time Go???
There's a beat dancing in his heart and it hammers in his chest He can feel it slow down these days for time calls it to rest The years have flown by leaving scars to mark the days baby showers and funerals mingle together in the haze He hopes that when this all shakes out that He'll be on the positive side He prays that Heaven will open up and that he'll avoid the downward slide Soon the light will fade and He'll have to step over He'd hope to watch my children grow and dance in fields of clover So shed no tears for this dying man For his life was complete and full He'll go to a place where they know his name and peace is the guiding rule Time ticks with each new day and a boy will become a man He'll take his place in the sun and fulfill the Master's plan For with every life, there comes a death and Nature makes this so embrace each moment when it comes because time will never let you know Bryant

Truth
I want to know why some men play games, and are not honest and upfront with someone? I have always thought that being honest will get you so much farther than lying.You never know we might be more understanding than you think, but are never given the oppurtunity to understand because we are shit on.Games are for suckas, and people who have no meaning in there life but wasted time.Those people you are game playing with someones fealings are lost and will always be alone.But the good thing about it , is that it makes a woman stronger in the long run.But the bad thing is it turns our hearts black and not willing to open up to those really great people, who are sincere.I hope alot of men read this and put how they treat some women into perspective and look at thereselves deep inside.

A Picture Is Worth A 1000 Words.. Right?
Hey! Here is a wacky fuckin idea.... HOW ABOUT YOU BE VERY UPFRONT ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE ON CT FOR? You see so many profiles with interesting looking people and lost somewhere in the glitter ads and flashy shit trying to cause you an epileptic seizure might appear something about them being happily married or in a relationship but you missed it because of the Kink O Meter and Slut Puppie Quiz results and the hint of her massive rack or tasty looking ass! Introducing a nifty idea.... right up front... cut down on the unwanted advances with a graphic stating what YOU thought was obvious! Im no artist but... Maybe you just arent READY for YET ANOTHER moron coming on to you? Even just for today! Maybe you are just here looking for other bi or gay chicks? Just a thought

I Am Free!
My eyes have been opened, my purpose is clear. No longer am I enslaved to myself, no longer am I chained to my fears. My Masks are hung up, though I have not left the stage. A new character is born out of an old familiar ones return. A boldness is shown, a confidence never before seen. A grace, a poise, all of that, that is me...

Why Him Among The Others?
...Was the question posed.....When I read what he wrote and realized he was being genuine and not a player...I agreed to give him my number. First night he calls and I am distracted by the goings on in my home. When all was settled...I found that man...6'2 dark blond hair and blue eyes darkening my doorway. He had such a look of joy in his eyes...I lead him back to my room being as quiet as possible...He looked down at me and commented on the fact I am 4'11. He leaned over and kissed me. He stopped, looked into my eyes and said " ..You really are much more beautiful in person..pictures don't do you justice.." From that point, the younger man could not heep his hands...or his mouth off of every inch of my body. First thing he did was threw me back and burried his face into my freshly shaved and showered pussey..licking and sucking me until I came...he slid his fingers into me while i came again and one in my ass. May have been younger but knew exactly how to make me cum repeatedly. H

Enslaved To Myself...
I hurt, my heart aches. Why can't I do anything right? There are so many around, so many to help. Yet alone and afraid I feel captive inside. Who am I? what can I be? Why is it so hard to see my power within me? So week so tired of fighting, so tired of living up to everyone elses desires. Who am I.. why can't I just be me?! The Masks I wear are crumbling apart. The play i'm in rapidly is coming to an end. I yearn for more.. I yearn to be me. I yearn to feel love, I yearn to be free. Enslaved in myself. Chained to my fears. Freedom. is it possible for me? So many voices, so many friends, so many others what do they see in me.. and why can't I see it too? What blinds my mind? What holds me so strong to see the opposite of what they see? My life filled with pains, my heart filled with sorrow. Why can't I feel a desire to keep on living until tommorrow. Tommorrows a new day perhaps something will change... and yet tommorrow never comes for it turns into today.

Depression From A Fallen Freind
well it has been a couple days now. I am getting shit from heathers family. I still have nightmares and I wishe I could change the past. I play her favorit song in my head over and over.I wish I should of said no.. maybe she will still be here..

Updates On Today After Filming.
Wow, another knockout of a day! An amazing one actually. I have never felt this happy before in my life, finally SOMETHING goes right. The Kodak Theater [Where Academy Awards are held], was gorgeous today. I have always wanted to go inside, and I did, that's where the film takes place, but it is supposed to be the 'Cannes Film Festival in France', but they used the Kodak Theater for those scenes. Robert De Niro is a sweetheart, and is always smiley and friendly. Sean Penn was more on the quiet side, can you blame him though? He has a lot on his plate. I had alottttt of guys/fellow actors come over to me today on the set...well about 3 or 4 ..and they gave me a bunch of websites for casting companies that their signed up with and working for and they told me to go for it..I'd do great. So yeah, my day was awesome. Brandi and I had a great time besides the obnoxious blonde bimbo who yelled at her! Pics are posted in my default folder. Much love.

Fakers
I grow so fucking weary of all the bullshit in people...wanting to fool with somebody else's emotions...Why? I suppose for some deranged sense of self satisfaction. Whatever. Where are all the Real people at? If you got a lover at home...don't be out sniffin up someone else's tree...I get so tired of Games and Playas...shit, I fucking quit the dating scene...ain't nobody worthy it seems sometimes...Gay...straight...bi...whatever...love the one you're with...you know. And if you don't...LEAVE! It't all fun and games until someone gets hurt...I'll be assexual...auto eroticism makes the best bed partner