Fubar Blog Posts 2

My Hair
Ok, so it is that time again to dye my hair....yes I am covering up the grey my kids give me and making my roots match my whole head. :) But anyways, I am debating....keep it dark brown or go red.....hmmmmmm I don't know. I am always up for a little change in my life, and I guess if I don't like it I can always re-dye it, but will I look stupid?? What if I like it but others say it looks funny? Oh well, screw em' I think I am going to go red. Tell you what... I will post the new hair color when it is done. I am sure you guys will tell me what it looks like. OK, I am going to go for now. Have a great week, and I will talk to yall soon!! Love, Jamie

My Hair, My Style...my Profile...lol
So FYI...a little change in my life...I dyed my hair brown. Yes I love it and it actually looks really good on me. Im heading for a dark red though. School starts soon for me so I will be really busy and on here all the time. LOL!!! I have found a new outlook on life. I just recently have had some serious medical problems, including a seizer which scared the wholly living fuck out of me. But through all this turmoil I have found what truly makes me happy in life. That I really do like myself...just the way I am...and I want to live my life to the fullest....Carpe Diam...DAMNIT!!!!

My Hair
hey all well here is an update i dyed my hair a like bright rich auburn i am back to my normal color well kinda not really it is still really dark but yeah ill have pics up later i am going to have my friend heather take pics well i am off have a good day lydia

My Hair
Ok people Im sitting here with some hair dye in my hair. It tottally fucking stinks!!! Its making my nose run my eyes burn, and everyone in the house went outside because of it!! Who invented this shit? They need to change the smell its toxic!!! When applying it to my head i almost fell to the ground, so i turn the exhaust fan on, boy that didnt help any!!! This shit is dangerous, Ive never smelled hair dye that could peel paint off a wall, welll this shit definetly could! You will either die from the fumes or get high thats for sure, so since im not dead im guessing im high from it all! got a killer headache. blurred vision and a runny nose, all this for what?? Oh yeah Beauty is pain!!!!! Ive decidedno more blond again, so i dyed it brunette nothing fancing!! I'll definetly have new pics soon!!! Peace

My Happy Hour
Tonight at 8:00 p.m. pacific or for those of us on the east coast 11:00 p.m.EST is my happy hour. I want to thank Cappy for the Happy Hour givaway. A special thank you too all of my friends who bombed me to get it done. This one is for all of you. My title line says for all my friends and Levlers Rawk.. I just want to thank all of the Shadow levelers and other leveling teams for helping others level up. So I hope alot of you get to level up tonight. Thank you again for the countless hours you all spent on bombing too help me.Love to you all.

My Happy Hour
I SEE THOSE THAT NEED LEVELED GO ING TO TRYTO KILL THEM THEN ~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~ HAHA MADE YOU LOOK!!! BOOBOO HAS WORKED VERY HARD TO HELP PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE ON HERE! SHE AND ALL HER FRIENDS TEAMED UP AND WON A HAPPY HOUR! LETS DO ALLLLLLLLL WE CAN TO MAKE IT THE BEST HAPPY HOUR IN FUBAR HISTORY FOR HER!! THE MORE PEOPLE THAT LEVEL UP DURING HER HAPPY HOUR, THE BETTER IT WILL BE...SO LET'S SHOW SOME FUBAR LOVE TO ALL THE N00BS GIVE THEM A WARM WELCOME AND HELP BOOBOO AT THE SAME TIME! AFTER ALL SHE HAS DEVOTED HER WHOLE FUBAR EXPERIENCE TO LEVELING AND HELPING PEOPLE ALL SHE CAN...SHE IS ONE OF A KIND...SO LETS MAKE THIS A ONE OF A KIND HOUR FOR HER!!!! IT STARTS AT 8PM PACIFIC....11PM EASTERN OH AND IF SHE IS NOT ON YOUR LIST...YOU ARE SO MISSING OUT ON ONE OF THE BEST PEOPLE ON HERE...SHOW HER SOME LOVE TOO!!! MY FRIENDS ARE AWEEEEEEEESOME I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! HERE SHE IS!!!! ¢¾BooBoo¢¾@ fubar THIS OFFIC

My Happy Hour Pimpout
~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~♥~*~ HAHA MADE YOU LOOK!!! BOOBOO HAS WORKED VERY HARD TO HELP PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE ON HERE! SHE AND ALL HER FRIENDS TEAMED UP AND WON A HAPPY HOUR! LETS DO ALLLLLLLLL WE CAN TO MAKE IT THE BEST HAPPY HOUR IN FUBAR HISTORY FOR HER!! THE MORE PEOPLE THAT LEVEL UP DURING HER HAPPY HOUR, THE BETTER IT WILL BE...SO LET'S SHOW SOME FUBAR LOVE TO ALL THE N00BS GIVE THEM A WARM WELCOME AND HELP BOOBOO AT THE SAME TIME! AFTER ALL SHE HAS DEVOTED HER WHOLE FUBAR EXPERIENCE TO LEVELING AND HELPING PEOPLE ALL SHE CAN...SHE IS ONE OF A KIND...SO LETS MAKE THIS A ONE OF A KIND HOUR FOR HER!!!! IT STARTS AT 8PM PACIFIC....11PM EASTERN OH AND IF SHE IS NOT ON YOUR LIST...YOU ARE SO MISSING OUT ON ONE OF THE BEST PEOPLE ON HERE...SHOW HER SOME LOVE TOO!!! MY FRIENDS ARE AWEEEEEEEESOME I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! HERE SHE IS!!!! ¢¾BooBoo¢¾@ fubar THIS OFFICIAL HAPPY HOUR UPDATE AND PIMPOUT BROUGHT TO YOU BY: Oh No..It's ME

...my Happenings...
...hello all, I know I have not been on for ages. I have not been able to get on line very much. I have moved in with another friend, so I have very limited Internet. I do try to go on Yahoo on my phone, so please don't be afraid to message me. I may not be getting your messages if you are, but I have made the effort show that I am still among the living...I am still working in downtown San Diego at the One Hour Shop...nothing really too much has gone on with me, some drama, some good stuff, but I am doing all I can to look at the positive of my situation. I will post more at a later time. Please feel free to message me if you see me on Yahoo. I hope that all of you are doing okay. Your Friend, Michael

My Hair And Other News Lol
I just colored my hair, yet agaim, a diff. shade of red, yet again LOL I like it, although it turned out way darker than I thought it would...it is cool..It kinda reminds me of a chocolate covered cherry LOL...I will have to take pics sometime next week..the reason being for that is that my camera is alreayd packed and ready to go with me to my trip to North Carolina :-D woot! I leave tomorrow night and will be back next Thurs....I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited...I am gonna have some fun, which I highly need...so if anyone wonders where I am for the next few days I am outta here lol....I got most of my shit packed, just have to pack what I used in the morning...going for six days and listen up girls..I only have ONE suitcase and my backpack lol...I hate traveling with tons of bags, so I back tight LOL....My backpack has my digital cam, snacks, reading material, my DS Lite, and a few others odds and ends lol So yea I think I have done quiet well not overpacking lol So h

My Happyness
K TO THE PPL THAT CALL THEM SELVES "MY FRIENDS" I AM WITH SOMEONE ELSE NOW...I KNOW THAT THERE R SOME OF U THAT ARNT HAPPY ABOUT THIS AND IM SORRY..BUT MY HAPPYNESS MEANS MORE..I HAVE BEEN SEARCHIN 4 SOMEONE TO COMPLETE ME...SO IF UR MY TRUE FRIENDS ULL B THERE 4 ME...IF U LIKE ME OR NOT ULL B THERE 4 ME....I KNOW SOME OF MY FRIENDS HAVE PUT THEIR FEELINS ASIDE CUZ THEY KNOW IM TRYIN TO B HAPPY AND I REALLY WANT TO B HAPPY..SO 4 THE ONES DOIN THAT THANK U...MEANS ALOT WHEN PPL CAN PUT ASIDE THEIR OWN FEELINS AND MAKE SURE IM HAPPY/ B HAPPY 4 ME...IM SORRY TO THE PPL THAT I HURT I KNOW THERE R SOME SO IM SORRY BUT I NEED TO B HAPPY AND I CAN MAKE EVERYONE THAT LIKES ME HAPPY...IM SORRY IF THIS IS BLUNT OR MEAN N ANY WAY BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS...I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE LIKE ME N MORE WAYS THAN ONE...AND FINGERS CROSSED THIS LASTS...I REALLLY REALLLY REALLLY LIKE THIS GUY AND I CAN SEE MY SELF WITH HIM 4 AWHILE...SO PLEASE B A FRIEND AND B HAPPY 4 ME NOT MAD OR PISSED OR ANY THANG ELSE BUT HAP

My Halloween Weekend
This past weekend was great. My boyfriend spent the weekend with me again and Saturday night we went out to the local bar to the big Halloween dress up bash they were having. I dressed up as a naughty nun with my crow contacts in and came bearing a whip while my boyfriend went as a priest. (We just had to coordinate ya know?) Haha. Unfortunately my digicam has been taking fits and wouldn't work at all for us that night to take pics. First my fuckin' 20GB MP3 player dies almost 2 months ago and now my digicam is not working. They're both 3 years old but I was hoping to get a little more life out of them but guess not. Our one friend at the bar with long hair came as Jesus and as we approached him he was joking around with us and was like "I work alone." LoL. My friend Patty dressed up with a masquerade ball outfit that was really pretty and my other friend Elisha dressed up as Cruella Deville. She also ended up winning first place and $50 cash. Some skanky lookin' chick in a naughty mus

My Halloween Dream
it's one more day till halloween! it's almost time to treat the ghost,goblins ,ghouls and monsters.( and thats just my kids). and when it's over and all is quite and monsters sleep. it's time to cuddle up on couch with your sweety and a bottle of wine and watch scary movies. till bed time thin make love all night .i will or i would if my bf was a romantic . i'll get a couple hours in bed . better than nothing!

My Happy Hour!
Repost this if you guys don't mind :D I have a happy hour coming up today at 5pm PST (Fubar Time)!! Woot! I am hoping to Godmother during it! Soooo! If all my awesome friends would save some love for that hour, I would really appreciate it! Mwah! You guys rock! drkreflections~CLUB F.A.R.~INTERCEPTOR FOR THE PRIDE~@ fubar And for those who don't know already... Club F.A.R. Rocks! If you aren't a member yet, what are you waiting for?? :D Hit one of these awesome people and they will get you started! Show them some love while you are there! Boricua God~Daddy * Owner Club F.A.R.♥ Co-owner*♥ PobreDiabla ♥Club Far ♥@ fubar #●Mölly●Nëw Cö-Öwnër●Öf Clṻb F.A.R●#@ fubar ~JaMie~CO OWNER OF CLUB FAR~TIM's FB WIFE~ I.B.I.C.~D.S.C.~@ fubar ~♫Splash♫~Co-Owner Of Club F.A.R.♫I.B.I.C.♫DSC~@ fubar ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

My "harry Potter" Rankings
Now that I have read all seven books and seen the first five movies, here is how I rank the varies series. The Books: 1. "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" 2. "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" 3. "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" 4. "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" 5. "Harry Potter and the Deadly Hallows" 6. "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" 7. "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets" The Films: 1. "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets" 2. "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" 3. "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" 4. "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" 5. "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix"

My Hand Won't Stop Shaking.
Three old guys are sitting around complaining. The first guy says, "My hands shake so bad that when I shaved this morning I almost cut my ear off." The second guy says, "My hands shake so bad that when I ate breakfast today, I spilled half my coffee on my toast." The third guy says, "My hands shake so bad that the last time I went to pee I came taking my cock out."

My Hair
Ok, today was the first day back to work since I dyed my hair black. And now I think I must have looked totally awful before I dyed it. I'm in TOTAL shock how many people stopped me and said how good my hair looked. :O And how becoming it was .. holey hell 8-P

My Hair
ok so I want to get my hair permed. The weather in North Carolina is pretty humid.Or it can be I mean. The best and easiest hairstyle for me and my frizzy hair is a perm. I'm not sure if I can get one though cause i just colored my hair in november. I dont want to over-process my hair. UGH! what should I do? right now I just end up putting my hair up most of the time. so help please!

My Happy Hour
My Happy Hour First off let me start by thanking everybody who helped me get this Happy Hour, you are all amazing. As I said this is going to be dedicated to my son Steven. Steven is very seriously ill in hospital suffering from Cancer, we have already been told its is terminal. Steven is also down syndrome and to him been happy is all he has ever known. Even during this illess he has never complained once, not even after going through major brain surgery. Im takin screen shots during the HH to show him. He has already seen the love and prayers people have shown him so far. The Happy Hour is going to be between 10 pm and 11 pm GMT. so everybody have a great hour. Make new friends and enjoy yourselfs. Thanks once again Dave Bette Midler Lyrics Bette Midler Music CodesMusic Codes by SongArea.com

My Happy Hour Dedicated To Steven
Happy Hour Dedication Tonight at 10pm gmt i will be having a Happy Hour which is dedicated to my son Steven who a lot of my friends already Know has Downs Syndrome and is battling so bravely and cheerfully against cancer. A special folder has been made for steven especailly for this Happy Hour. This is the link to the first photo Steven is really excited and looking forward to seeing the screen shots which will be taken of the Happy Hour and show to him in hospital. Thanks to all my friends old and new ones and the ones i have yet to meet. Dave

My Happy Hour Today!
I (Tulsa’s Angel) am hosting a happy hour today at 11 AM Fubar time which is 1 PM Central and 2 PM Eastern. Be sure to stop by and rape my page! (meaning rate the hell out of it) Also, if you want to OWN me, then click on this picture to bid on me: If you don't want to or can't bid right now, please just click the above pic to just rate it a 10 or 11 for me. I'd REALLY appreciate it! Thanks all! Do enjoy the happy hour! Also, do check out the sticky bulletin in which ^Sin^ offers fubucks for rates: http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=3407716698

My Happy Hour Tonightt
its at 6 pm pst lets really rock fubar and use it well...lets show them all that fubar is for fun helping friends out and showing the love xoxo and please stop by fatsonny and devilgirls page...come join in our good times and laughter xoxo its a date see u all there muahssssssssssss

My Happy Hour
BEFORE AFTER MY SUMMARY > Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love.245 members leveled up during your happy hour: boki 'Newfu' (1) Phillipusa1 'Wasted Fu' (7) rfrett 'Fu-ling' (2) OInnocentone 'Twisted Fu' (6) lanaki11 'Newfu' (1) cowboyroy_28 'Grasshopper' (3) inwardhaloo 'Newfu' (1) bigdaddyg75 'Regular' (12) thisbitchistired 'Chill Fu' (4) Amber69 'Fu-ling' (2) BigFish 'Fu-ling' (2)

My Happy Hour- Show The Love!
Hello all again! I used my Happy Hour.. It will be February 9 (Saturday) at 4pm (Fubar Time) 7PM EST. Thanks again all who helped me and to Steph & Mark Also for hosting! Stop by during my HH and show me some love please! This is my first and more than likely the last! lol Let's make it good! :D Thanks bunches! Your Friend Sheri

My Hair Black .... My Flesh White
Red lights flicker through the atmosphere Music blares through?your ringing ears As a swinging insatiable dances Dances a top a center Insatiable sends a sign of acknowledgement As?you caught?my eye? My hair is black my flesh is white? Your ?interest grows with anticipation As?i walked towards?you With silence in?my eyes? You heard the air breathe a chime of mystery As?i stepped into the red light? My hair is black?my flesh is white? Your?conscience is enveloped with?my scent? My scent filled up the place? You could feel?my legs wrapped around?you? I am?wrapped souly around?you? You could feel?my legs wrapped around?you Insatiable in red lights You could feel?my legs wrapped around you My?long sharp nails tore into?your skin Tore into?your skin,?you bled dry,?you bled dry? You bled for?me to suck?your blood until Until it was gone, until it was gone Insatiable in red lights? My hair was black?My flesh was white

My Happy Hour
Watch Out For My Happy Hour Tomorrow Night: Sunday 2-24-08 @ 7 pm pst *Ü* Drink It Up and Show Me Some Luvin *Ü* **muah** PS: Thanks ☣ SatCommTech ☣ for my HH!!! Misbehavin2 ♥ Fu Owned By ☣ SatCommTech ☣ ♥ Fu Owner Of Countryboy Superman & DJ Tommy Six ♥ @ fubar

My "happy Hour Contest Winner" Bulletin
ForestRican@ fubarThis is the winner of my Happy Hour Contest, she had many friend helping her and got the allowed comments in only two weeks...Her Happy hour Has Already been brought so check for her and then do lots of stuff during her happy hour so that she can get a ton of pointsCheck out for future contest, auctions, giveaways and all that other stuff i do on fubar...Brought to you by:Emanon~~Forever Fake~~Father of The Fallen Ones@ fubar

My Happy Hour
WHERE WILL U BE @ 9PM CENTRAL TIME??.... COME JOIN LISASWEET TONIGHT DURING HER HAPPY HOUR AND HELP HER LEVEL UP TO DISCIPLE!! SHO' HER SUM FU ♥'N & RATE HER PIX AND STASH!! IF U'RE NOT ALREADY A FRIEND, FAN, ADD & RATE HER! SHE'S TRULY A SWEET LADY, JUST LIKE HER NAME!!☺♥☻♥ LET'S HELP HER GET TO THAT NEXT LEVEL! SHE'S BEEN A GOD-MOTHER FAR TOO LONG!

My Happy Hour
WOOOOHOOOOOO! LIBERATED SPICE IS HAVING HER FIRST HAPPY HOUR AND YOU ALL GOTTA BE THERE!!! IM SURE YOU KNOW HER...IM SURE YOU'VE SEEN HER..YEA SHE THAT LEVELER WHOS ALWAYS HITTING UR PAGE..HMMM HMMM.... LETS SPANK THIS SEXY GURLS PAGE WITH SUM LOVEIN TODAY!!!! ITS GOIN DOWN AT 5:00PM FUBAR TIME WHICH IS 8:00 EASTERN TIME!!!LOTS OF PICS AND LOTS OF STASH IM SURE U CAN FINE SUMTHING THERE TO RATE! LOL SHE ALWAYS RETURNS LOVE SO LETS SHOW HER HOW WE DO IN HAPPY HOUR! Liberated Spice*FuWife to Big Jimmy*Club F.A.R.*DSC*I.B.I.C.*LOL Family* F Circle@ fubar PIMPIN'EM OUT AS ALWAYS: MZ.DREAMS*CLUB F.A.R*Promotions/ Door Girl 4 Centerfolds*I.B.I.C**@ fubarL

My Happy Hour Tonight
BE SURE TO SHOW UP AT MY HAPPY HOUR TONIGHT @11:00 P.M.PACIFIC TIME AND 2:00 A.M. EASTERN TIME HELP ME DO THIS FU~HEADS ! TRYING TO LEVEL UP,PLEASE STOP BY AND RATE THE CRAP OUT OF MY STUFF. STASH,PICS,BLOGS WHATEVER I HAVE. I NEVER ASK ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.PLEASE SHOW THE FU~LUV !!! ADD/FAN/RATE TOO WHILE YOUR @ IT PLEASE ALL MY FRIENDS WILL YOU REPOST THIS PLEASE? THANKS IN ADVANCE...:) ~ŦØMM¥ßØ¥~@

My Hands Say I'm Confused. =/
What Your Hands Say About You You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be well though out. You're willing to wait out a bad situation, and you're never too quick to act. What Do Your Hands Say About You?

My Hate Is My Fuel
I have fucking snapped. I just dont give a fuck anymore. Everyone has turned on me. Even those that have claimed to love me betray me. I just dont have any emotions left anymore, with the exception of hate. "We are the Hate Breed" is taking a life of its own with in me. Its no longer a catchy slogan, its now who i am. I hate, and I dont think that there is a way back for me. Dont try and save me, because I dont want to be saved. Besides you will just turn on me eventually, just like everyone else. What is Hate...ME

My Handwriting
What Your Handwriting Says About You You are a laid back person with rather low energy. You aren't lazy... you *are* sensitive and empathetic. You are reserved and not very outgoing. You are deeply thoughtful and introspective. You have a lot of control over your actions and emotions. You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others. You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well. You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart. You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively. What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

My Hair
So I'm standing in the kitchen and my ex holds a knife to my head and says he's going to cut me. I pull my hair up into a ponytail and say, go ahead, so he actually cuts a bunch of my hair off with the knife. It was not a whole lot, but it was enough to make it look a uneven. So, then I went and sat down on the couch and picked up a pair of the kid's scissors and just hacked the rest of it off. So, now it's all uneven looking and stuff, and I can't get ahold of my cousin to come and fix it for me. I'm thinking about going and just kinda making it look like it was supposed to be all hacked up, like on purpose, if I can't get a hold of her. That's my excitement for the day...

My Happy Hour Monday 10:00 A.m. Pst!!!
> My very FIRST Happy Hour is coming up! Thats right, me, The Baddest MILF we'll be at the top of your screen for a whole hour( I know you guys want longer but hey LOL) on Monday, 10 a.m. PST (1:00 p.m. EST). Since this is my first time and first times are always supposed to be memorable (hehehe) I would appreciate if everyone would come by and show me lots of luv! No worries, I LUV BACK :D The Baddest MILF®@ fubar PLEASE REPOS

My Happy Hour Tonight Hope To See You There. 9pm Fu Time
HOSTING MY HAPPY HOUR FRIDAY NIGHT AT 9PM FU TIME / 9PM PST / 12PM EST / 11PM CENTRAL / 10PM MOUNTAIN / 6PM HAWII / 8PM ALASKA TRYING TO GET MORE POINTS SEEING IT'S A LONG WAYS TO GO TO NEXT LEVEL LOL AND I'M TRYING TO RAISE FU BUCK! I WILL BE ADDING MORE STASH BY THEN AND I HAVE PLENTY OF PICTURES TO RATE. PLEASE IF YOU HAVEN'T RATE/FAN/ADD/CRUSH AND IF YOU CAN BLING ME, BLING PACKS ARE GREAT IF YOU CAN. ANY AND ALL LOVE WILL BE APPRECIATED. PLEASE LEAVE A PRIVATE MESSAGE WHEN YOU SEND LOVE SO I CAN RETURN IT. HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE AND I WANT TO THANK YOU ALL FOR GETTING ME TO GODMOTHER THE LAST HAPPY HOUR. THANK YOU! MUAAAAH!!!!!!! PLEASE SHOW TINKERBELLMN84 MUCH LOVE SHE WAS FU-KING AND WOULD HAVE BEEN GODMOTHER BY NOW IF SOMEONE HADN'T OF HACKED AND DELETED HER ACCOUNT. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!! HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE ~BABS~ ""GODMOTHER""@ fubar

My Hair
Well guys....I went and did it. The one thing that I didn't think I was ever gonna do and that was......I GOT MY HAIR CUT SHORT....well its not that short....its to my shoulders at least. I had to though it was soooooooooo dead at the ends. But it really does look cute. However my boyfriend didn't like it at all. He made that pretty well known too. I thought he was gonna have a heart attack when he walked in and saw it. He asked what I did to my hair....and I told him that I had to get it cut. I knew he wasn't gonna like it and I really felt bad after he said that. He tells me know sex til it grows back....I'm pretty sure he was kidding though. Well I sure as hell hope so anyway....lol. Oh well! Not much I can do about it now. Well I rambled on enuff.

My Happy Hour Now!
Well there are Happy Hours all morning and afternoon! SO KEEP RATING! $15,000 FUBUCKS for 100 11's $10,000 FUBUCKS for 100 10's New Rate a Thon Folder! I will make you a salute if you BLING ME a 3 credit bling or more! xoxo RATE, RATE, RATE as much as you can! MUAH

My Hair
im stupid if you know me i take great pride in my hair. i didnt something stupid as hell today. i dropped my son off at his dads house for his 2 hour weekly visit. ne ways i was bored as fuck just walking around downtown fargo by myself its not so bad when i have someone there to talk to but i didnt this time so i decided to go ahead and get a trim bc my hair needed it desperately. i told her to even it up so it looked good and to leave as much of the length as possible she took off 5 INCHES i almost started crying. i went to joseffs so i know all the terminalligy and how everything goes. so after that i told her i wanted disconected layers top starting at a 180 degree angle. how hard is that uff. over all it looks pretty good i think i just miss my long hair, not too worried it will grow back not too mention im gonna get some extensions and put them in lol.

My Happy Hour
I was very shocked and am thankful for getting this! During my Happy Hour I will have my shoutbox set to family only. I am setting things up now so......... it is currently family only. Message me if you like. Remind me if I forget to reset it! I am saving all my 11's to use during this time! I have seen a few pics that deserved an 11, but will have to rate higher next time. I appreciate any bling you send my way. I will try to rate you a bunch as repayment or something. I do not spend money on here. This HH was a gift as was my VIP. I have some pics to upload and a few other things to do. TTYL Also........... I have three entrants for my auction currently. Am I gonna have to enter it myself to get another entry? lmao

My Happy Hour And Stuff To Do!
Things to do on Friday the 13th!!!!! #1 My friend Just Jilly is going for Spotlight for her Birthday which is coming up! So, she's Auctioning off a JET BLING! click this pic to bid... #2 Bid on some AMAZING FUs in My Auction! Click Naughty or Nice and find someone to make your own! #3 I am in a Giveaway for a Happy Hour! I need all the help I a can get to finish it. It's gonna take Happy Hours to get me off this level. lol. click here to bomb as much as you can 4 me... #4 Rate, Fan and Add the following AWESOME GUYS and DOLLS for me if you don't already have them on your friends list! Argonutz@ fubar Texas Camaro Nut@ fubar keith67@ fubar Just Jilly ~~~~ Owned by

My Happy Hour
Hi everyone, Wow what a great happy hour. Thanks to all the wonderful friends for the rates and blings. Also thank to my new friends and fans. Congratulations to all the following people who leveled during my happy hour, this is what my message said ... Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love.You collected 246,876 bonus points as Happy Hour sponsor. Cheers!190 members leveled up during your happy hour: jvargas1 'Newfu' (1) belano 'Chill Fu' (4) thykelilma 'Fu-ling' (2) Keeley 'Fu-ling' (2) Kamikaz1 'Fu-Fighter' (5) Christy_m_hodges24 'Fu-ling' (2) bigjohn7272 'Friend of fubar' (10) jessicacupcake 'Newfu' (1) SaD_LoKiTa 'F

My Happy Hour Summary
'fubar shop' wrote the following at '2008-06-15 15:00:11'.. > > Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love.You collected 263,830 bonus points as Happy Hour sponsor. Cheers!231 members leveled up during your happy hour: Abominae 'Chill Fu' (4) Aaron1985 'Fu-ling' (2) onelove 'Fu-ling' (2) tiffanydobson 'Fu-ling' (2) thegreat84 'Newfu' (1) sexykells008 'Chill Fu' (4) hotscott 'Newfu' (1) mickey 'Fu-Fighter' (5) barbarahall 'Newfu' (1) S3xyLissa 'Fu-ling' (2) Fire_med 'Friend of fubar' (10) Dr. Tino 'Twisted Fu' (6) So Cal Red Sox Fan 'Rock Star' (20) skips6666 'Newfu' (1)

My Happy Birthday From Gem... I Love You Gurl!
Pssst....Tuesday, July 8th is Beth's (AngelGurl) birthday!! Be sure to stop by her page and leave her comments, blings, balloons, blings, cards, blings, ice-cream, blings, cake and oh yeah blings! I hear she likes it rough so while you're on her page make sure ya spank her hard!! AngelGurl Beth I hope your birthday is a great one and when you blow out ALL those candles (snickering here) may every wish you make come true!! This bulletin brought to you by ♡aGEM4life♡ ~♫♪HockingRadio™'s DJ Gemini♪♫ Traditional - Happy Birthday to You -

My Hair
I have had a love/hate relationship with my hair since I became a teenager. (I think all girls do) Some days it does so wonderful. No fly aways, straightens perfect, ahh the joys of a good hair day. Other days I would wanna shave my head. You couldn't even put a hat on or pull it in a ponytail that looked worth a fuck. Then as I got older, I learned little tricks to aid in my good hair days and fell in love with my hair. It's my pride, well besides my tits. Recently though I have been losing my hair. I'm not talking one or two strands either, I'm talking clumps. When I take a shower I have to keep removing hair from the drain so the tub wont fill up. =[ I can tell how thin it is getting in pictures, when I brush it and when I pull it up. It makes me cry =[

My Happy Hour
This lady is having a Happy Hour Sunday at 1:00 p.m FU TIME (4:00 p.m. EST) and she needs some MAJOR luvin She is ALWAYS here for everyone else so I think everyone should make it a point to stop by her page and luv her up! If she isnt leveling she is off somewhere leveling (LOL) and we can ALL appreciate her and her efforts! So go by her page and RATE, FAN, ADD, and BLING this lovely lady I dont have to say it, we know she returns all the luv! Thank you in advance...XOXO ♥BooBoo♥ Founder of Shadow Levelers.Owned By Farscapecat & Happy Country Girl@ fubar Brought to you by.... The Baddest MILF®~ Wifey to Fornicates™@ fubar (repost of original by 'The Baddest MILF®~ Wifey to Fornicates™' on '2008-07-10 17:18:20')

My Happy Hour Summary 6/20/08
=== 'fubar shop' wrote the following at '2008-06-20 17:00:08'.. > > Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love.You collected 323,144 bonus points as Happy Hour sponsor. Cheers!182 members leveled up during your happy hour: HornDog♥Owner of ♥Sexi Army Brat♥ 'Ninja' (19) xxprttyzombiexx 'Chill Fu' (4) shanealuvsu@yahoo.com 'Chill Fu' (4) Elixier 'Psycho' (8) Black-in-White 'Psycho' (8) **MiSS**TuDeY** 'Henchman' (22) §håñgð 'Fu-ling' (2) just me 'Fu-ling' (2) DrrrtyLilSkeez 'Twisted Fu' (6) TeddyBearGrandma 'Regular' (12) The Blind Pupil (fu-owned by SER) 'Regular' (12) whispers.shadow 'Grasshopper' (3) AJENA 'Chill Fu' (4) harleydavidson1

My Happy Hour
Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love. You collected 413,036 bonus points as Happy Hour sponsor. Cheers! 215 members leveled up during your happy hour: There were so many people, I can't even begin to name them all, but just know I ♥ you guys for all the help! Thank you Ernie for the HH, I actually got close to 800,000 points when you include all the rates and comments and stuff to my page. You guys rock, and I ♥ all of my friends:)

My Hands
My hands may be small, But they'll be there when you fall, Reach out and hold on, Hold on till the pain is gone, Just hold on tight, We'll make it through another night, Another night, Another day, I promise I won't go away, So keep holding on, And I will keep being strong, Your hand in mine, Patners in crime, Together we'll make it through, I won't let go of you, So take my hand now, We'll make it somehow!

My Hands
I WISH IT WAS MY HANDS THAT CARESS YOUR FACE THAT EXPLORES YOUR BODY TEASING THAT SPECIAL PLACE TOUCHING YOU WHERE IT COUNTS TREADING WHERE ANGELS FLEE MAKING YOU BITE YOUR LIP TRACING CIRCLES ALONG YOUR KNEE GENTLY SPLITTING YOUR THIGHS LIGHTING YOUR SKIN ON FIRE GOOSE BUMPS ON YOUR SKIN EVERY MUSCLE ACHING WITH DESIRE EVERY TOUCH FILLED WITH EMOTION EACH SIGH DRIPPING WITH LUST NAILS DIGGING INTO FLESH A PASSION DRIVEN TRUST STROKING YOUR PANTIES JUICES FLOWING FROM WITHIN YOUR BODY TENSE WITH DESIRE THE EXPLOSION SOON BEGINS MY FINGERS STROKING FASTER AS YOU BEG AND PLEAD FOR MORE HARDER AND HARDER AGAINST YOU YOU FINALLY CANT TAKE ANYMORE AS I RELEASE YOU YOU COLLAPSE WITH A MOAN I KISS YOU ON THE LIPS YOU BEG ME TO GO ON I WHISPER SWEETLY TO YOU "THERE IS MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM" I LEAVE YOU CRAVING MORE OUR NIGHT HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN

My Handbag, Lmao!
What Your Handbag Says About You You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace. You are a high maintenance person. You feel lost outside of your normal environment. You are a very creative person. Your life tends to be a whirlwind, but you always seem to pull it together. You are an outgoing and expressive person. You always speak your mind, and you're very approachable. What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

My Happy Hour Bulletin By Jamie... Ty Darling
Hey everyone!!! There is a very great woman having a HH tomorrow!! If you have rode any of the Fubar trains, there is a good chance you already know her!!! I'm talking about the one and only......... CARRIE Carrie ~~R/L Wife to Syrano~~ Proudly Owned by Johnny Riggs~~ Proud Owner of Johnny Riggs~~@ fubar This is her first Happy Hour!! She is only about 1.3 mil away from GodMother!! If you have ever had a HH you know what kinda points you get!! I KNOW we can Godmother her during her HH!!! She is a great friend on here!! She is always making trains and tags, LoL So lets all go spank her hard during her HH!!! Which is TOMORROW (Tuesday Oct. 21st) It's at 5:00 pm Fu-Time!! So here is the deal..... Go rate at least 150 of her pics and I will make you a F/A/R tag like one of these. **This is the folder to rate** I know that 150 sounds like a lot of pics but it's really not. You can do it in about 15 mins or less. And these tags take some time to

My Happiness
I have lived all my life to trying to please and make others happy before myself. I am done doing so I am now thinking of myself first. Those who do not like who I talk to or what I do tough shit. I could really careless what anyone thinks of me anymore. those of you who think that I am so sweet well get used to it cause I not gonna be as sweet and loving as I used to be. I will not let anyone walk on me or treat me bad. If you all cant deal with it then please remove me from any list I may be on. I will treat you as I am treated so if you want love and respect then treat me with it. I may have came into some of your lives easy but it will be just as easy for me to leave it. NOW ITS ALL YOUR CHOICE ON IF YOU CAN DEAL WITH ME IN YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!! To the few that really know me loves ya and thanks for always being there for me (You should know who you are.............

My Halloween Hareum! (from The Sarge's Bad Girls Contest!)
Do You Know This~*~Bad Girl~*~?Well You Should! She Chose her Sarge's Bad Girl's Halloween Date! ACTUALLY! She chose a Halloween Hareum! She had 43 comments to choose from and narrowed it down to 6 really good ones! These guys will get salutes from me, 100 rates, gifts from me and comments. AND my attention! VAMP MORTICIA~Fu-WIFE of DEVILSADVOCATE927~Fu-wifey of LaLa~Owned by Steph Lynn & Bulldaddy@ fubar This is Vamp Morticia's Halloween Hareum! thetilly **Fu Luv Bomb Squad Greeter**@ fubar ben dover969@ fubar ALWAYS HOPE@ fubar Dj Carnage(AOD)Private 1st Class@ fubar ♫ÐĴ FäßŨ£ðŨ§♫ OWNED BY ROSIEOWNED BY ISLANDGIRL

My Happy Hour Today 11am Fu-time!
Reeka's got a Happy Hour! Auto 11 will be on! Come help me move closer to Disciple pweeaasseee :D This would not be possible without the loving support of my friends who gave this to me: .violets. Monica the Great Who Knows Vixen260 Bounty Hunter Majik Philemon ♡Reeka♡ ~ Anti-Lounge whore ~ owned by half my fu-familly ~ Fishinrod's Human@ fubar

My Handsome Boyfriend
I love him so much i wish he would listen to me i alwayz tell him whats best for him and he does say he loves me but i dont really think he acts like it. I want to stay with him he works at our job Wendys but I hate that he is mad at other people at work and at times he takes it out on me. I hope one day he will wise up and know I am alwayz rite and tell him whats best for him. All he thinks about is drinking beer, hanging with his guy friends and smoking weed. I hope that one day he will know I care love and just want him to spend time with me more then his friends. Val Loves Johnny Johnny Loves Val September 24th 2008 thats when we started dating Love, Val Valley xoxoxoxo hugs n kisses

My Hair Should Be....durrrrr
Your Hair Should Be Brown You are an intelligent, well respected person. You are very confident. You take yourself seriously, and other people take you seriously too. You are a good leader, and you can be trusted with someone's life. You motivate people well, and you command respect easily. You are competent, successful, and organized. You can't stand chaos. Some people mistake you for being cold, calculating, or elitist. What Color Hair Should You Have?

My Happy List
okay, i'm a little bit behind the rest, but i decided to post my own happy list. it was fun random evan-isms evan giggles a really good song--songs make me feel a myriad of emotions...eh, most often "really good" songs make me horny especially considering I like both music and sex to be hard and dirty, but sometimes certain songs do bring happiness.. examples: The Theft by Atreyu-happy My Confession by Otep-horny The Reflection by Trustcompany-horny Plush by STP--happy staying up all night by myself for no good reason books that beg to be finished (the last example--Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk) cute panties sarcastic comebacks that catch me off guard...sarcasm altogether really surprises--like when several pharmacy customers sent me flowers on my birthday When someone pushes my hair out of my face and touches the corner of my mouth Scooby Doo Meets the Boo Brothers Amazon.com morning sex singing in the

My Hair,,,
Ok Here we go... i have a set of pictures of my hair... I just want top let everyone know why the hell myy hair is looking like shit... lmao ok well me and my friend were bored as hell and decided to let our hair grow. The thing is that i hate my hair long, i have a bad hair line and it really bothers me. He has had braids so he doesnt care. well the thing is that we have decided to put up a wager, whoever cuts it first has to buy the other a xbox game. I was cool with the whole thing until he put the rule of not being able to get shape ups. SO i threw in the rule of no styling products... we both look like fools but f$^k it it is something to do... the purpose of this blog is to just inform everybody y the hell my hair looks like shit lol...

My Hand
as some of you may know my left hand is still fucked but its still very weak have not got all my strength in it yet and its still numb and it hurts tomorrow iam going for a image test its a never test so hopefully i no what the hell is going on with it

My Hand
ok well i was a lil late and no thanks to some really stupid person who was way to big to fit in her outfit made me even more late then i really was i was finaly able to be seen then gave me shocks in my hand and arm then they stick some needles in me and come to find out i got some nerve damage in my hand and elbow bad thing is now i cant use my left hand at all for a while my left hand is very weak again i cant pick up anything that weights alot for some time and it hurts like hell now again also i dont no when they are going to do anything abount it either no date or anything they just told me i have to wait tell my doctor see the test results ha easy for them to say they are not the ones who got this problem

My Hair And My Job
So I dyed my hair pink and purple 2 days ago. I was pretty nervous about work. I was afraid that my customers would hate it and I would get fired. Well I was wrong. My boss loves it, my customers do too. I made twice as much as usual. For those who don't read my profile I have 3 jobs. Model, I can do what I want with my body. Musician, again I can do what I want. Last but not least, Stripper! Thats touch and go. If you make the wrong descision about your look your money runs away and your left poor. Thank goodness they guys here love the alternative lok! Oh and for those who keep asking, yes I have a site for my modelig photos uncensored Morgan dot thedarkdruid dot com /gallery you DO need to register, top left hand corner 2nd button. But its free, for now. Edit: If you aren't getting your activation letters i your email check your spam/junk mail box. Chances are thats where it went. If you have your spam/junk mail set to dump all messages imeadiately it will eat the activa

My Happy Hour ~ 12/29/08!!!
Monday ... December 29th at 6:00 PM FU Time, Tulsa's Angel is Hosting A Happy Hour! ღTulsa's Angelღ At The Time of Happy Hour, Auto 11s WILL Be On! ღTulsa's Angelღ Hit Up Tulsa's Angel During Her Happy Hour And Make 60 Points Per Rate! ღTulsa's Angelღ The Happy Hour is courtesy of an awesome soldier heading back to Iraq, Hazeleyed Soldier. Hit him up with lots of love too! Hazeleyed Soldier

My Haze
Scattered thoughts lost in a haze, Dazed and confused im stuck in this maze, Freedom or death we'll set your plans ablaze, Cause we see you comin and its not what we hoped for change, You've re-constructed your outer shell to appear like us, Cant fool me, with x-ray vision i see through all the dust , You kicked up as you blazed your trail, But see i know your success was designed for you to fail, The new world order will never relinquish their power, Until we the people take to the streets and destroy all their followers, ..Myself i cant believe we let it get this far, Where we have no clue what we believe or who we really are, We allow our government to ravish and murder innocent ones, Then tell me for my safety it had to be done, Some believe this lie but not I, I choose a higher path to fly, where with my hands i control the wheel of time, Normalcy can return through reason and rhyme, One mind, One decision to love mankind, And poof, next thing ya know, We awake

My Happy Hour
Friends, I am hosting a HH at 3pm Futime (6pm EST) today Monday 1/26/09. I totally forgot tho that I have to be at court at that time, so if you all could show me extra love AND I WILL HAVE MY AUTOS ON...and If anyone can get a screenshot of my HH for me...I'll love u all forever :) Have a great day and I hope you all level up off me today. Kisses

My Happy Hour - 01/31/09 - 6 Pm Fu Time
Saturday ...January 31, 2009 at 6:00 PM FU Time, Tulsa's Angel is Hosting A Happy Hour! ღTulsa's Angelღ At The Time of Happy Hour, Auto 11s WILL Be On! ღTulsa's Angelღ Hit Up Tulsa's Angel During Her Happy Hour And Make 60 Points Per Rate! ღTulsa's Angelღ FYI...Cherrybomb is hosting the very next happy hour at 7:00 PM Fu Time! She also has auto 11s running!

My Happy Hour! *******read And Do Me*******
COME PARTY WITH ME! I know we'll have a good time! A very special thanks to: Dark Defender "Fu Hubby To Italian Princess@ fubar He is absolutely amazing! Go show him lots and lots of love and tell him I said "Thank You" for the Happy Hour! A very big thank you to: Tony411@ fubar He is a total sweetheart and the reason I have 11's running during my Happy Hour today! Be sure and show him lots and lots of fu luvvin' as well. Things to Do: Rate all the pics in this album during my ...or ANY Happy Hour for $5,000 Fubucks on top of what you'll earn anyway for rating! Be sure to private message me when you are done! If you'd like a personal salute...Rate all the pics in this album... (Be sure to private message me when you are done and let me know you rated my salutes for a salute of your own! Don't miss any...just rate nice and slow!) Or, you can Bling Me for a Thank You salute... I am also out of blasts....I KNOW CRAZY

My Happy Hour Tomorrow!
I'm celebrating a turning point in my life, and I want you there! Not only am I celebrating getting rid of the "trash" in my life, I'm soooo close to Oracle! (12 Mil!)(Not to mention I hope it gives him hell!)I want your rates during my Happy Hour on Wednesday, March 24th @ 3PM FuTime.I'll pay with FuBucks!I have a few 250 EZ Rate Folders!Stop by and rate ALL of them and then send me a private message and I'll send you fubucks! How easy is that?!I'll have Auto11s on, so I'll be paying 25K for 250 rates.Bomb me for 30K in FuBucks!!Remember, this is valid ONLY during my Happy Hour on Wednesday! PM me for pay on the rates, I'll see the bomb automatically! *muahs* So what are you waiting on? ϛὡᶓᶓʈ Ҡתּɳɗɣ Ҡiϛϛʈina@ fubar

My Hardest Life Moment
while growing up i thought I had made it through the worst times that i could have, from the constant beatings, watching my brother be tied to a bed post and a knife held to his throat, being stabbed as well as having glass jars and knives threw at me, being raped by 3 people when i was 13, to eating flour and ketchup on bread, but now that i have my own children , to which i am lucky and thankful to have made it out alive,I have quickly realized that those things were nothing compared to the constant torture of watching your child beg and plead and wish she wasn't alive every time she has to go to her dads , for every time they go through things like abusive natures and emotional beatings, it not only hurts because it is my beloved child, but because i relive my own as well, with every tear they shed, my heart bleeds a little more, you can't imagine what it's like to have to sit and watch your daughter be in such dismay, not that there aren't much worse things one can go through , but

My Happy Hour!
There is NO WAY that I can personally thank everyone personally! I'm going to try to thank those heavy raters here. Shoshonni ~Fu-Owned by Trucker~@ fubar Non-Model Ninja@ fubar Jacob Black@ fubar Sweet Turtle@ fubar NSFW~♡TinaTinkles♡~@ fubar "WARLORD"@ fubar Bounty Hunter™@ fubar Ms. D™@ fubar higgs boson

My Happy Life
My Happy life And now it’s just my heart and dreams that’s on line broken this time and every time. .........starting out with my ex friend. I loved my ex. I loved everything about her. The way we talk and the way we can talk about anything. Starting out she made me feel good. We talked on the phone everyday, up tell the day when was she kick out her mom's house. that's when hell started. she told me that she didn't to talk everyday, and she always act like she was to busy for me. Just to see her I had to go an hour and 30 minutes out of my way to see her. I come down every week to see her at her job or just to chill with her. But when I do call she was always over some friends house. Never names or anything of the friends. Just I'm over my friend house doing this or thing. She had a lot of guys friends. Never come up to see me, her boyfriend. But can always see her friends go out to the clubs on days that I told her was going to call her. I did a lot of shit for

My Hands Are Itchy
Why are my hands so itchy? I took baxter for his walk and half way through my palms got itchy. I thought maybe a mosquito got me but now the whole palms of both my hands are itchy. I've washed my hands like 4 times now with anti-bacterial soap and they are still itchy as can be. I checked on web md they say I have the black death. i don't think so though because i haven't been around any Europeans or rats. Man this is frustrating. Also... What makes you so damn special? no really, i want to know.

My Hair..
I'm having an issue with my hair. I know that this week I'm going to get it cut and I want something done. I just don't know if I should go with... 1. Touch-up on my highlights 2. Dyed a different color, if that, what color 3. Dye it back to natural, medium brown. 4. put in some odd color highlights. Help a girl out, would ya?

My Harem
I have been gone for 4 days so I figure instead of repeating the story 10 times ill just blog it .... on a side note: WHO BOUGHT ALL MY BISHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This weekend was a long weekend in Canada, don't ask me which one I dint pay much attention to the names, anyways John was gone for the weekend so I decided it would be a great idea to debachelorize Jeff's house...... There's something to be said about a man and his Bachelor ways, Non Matching furniture Decepticon posters Hockey memorabilia Garage full of other peoples shit White walls Needless to say, I went in like a hurricane, we scraped stipple of the ceiling painted in colours other then white... Jeff let me loose in Home Depot. I painted a fireplace walls, cabinets and counter tops. All the time Jeff just smile politely and paid. I think it was somewhere between me commenting on buying a new stove and adding a shoe closet that something snapped..... Jeff realized that his safe haven wh

My Hate
So I decided to go and jump off the deep end.... Don't exactly know why, but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with the fact that every time I try to change myself for the better (my attitude towards others, my general outlook on life)..., I feel like tearing the walls down with my bare hands........ Leaving everything in my path in ruins for someone else to pick up. Am I an asshole? Or are people just that stupid.

My Hatred Grows More Day By Day As I Try To Ignore Everything...
Trying not to give in to how I once was before,someone that I'm not proud of nor ashamed of either.To be honest I was a very mean angry and brutal person that didn't care about who or how I delt with them for for saying or doing anything or whatever I felt was disrespectful to me! And because of how I carried myself and my life it had me in and out of jail and prison,18 years of it as a matter of fact! After losing many things in my life that meant alot to me,time,love and many other things I can never replace! After making the changes in my life that needed to I've been a very different person for the 10 or more years! Now its not the easiest thing to ignore things that made me angry,but I have been doing it for awhile now! The problem is now that its built up inside of me so much that I've become afraid of myself and what I might do!

*my Hate Top 10*
*making my own "HATE" top 10 * by lorelei~then u can repost your own~10. ungratefulness-if sum1 does sumthin nice...fuckin say thanxs 9. ppl who want to fight for no reason-now if u wanted me to run ur ass over then stay where u at stupid head! CANT U READ WHAT IT SAYS BEHIND MY CAR? "a.d.h.d"-lol...it really is there but its my bros band :) 8. when ppl whine about stupid shit-if u aint got da $ then dont be going buying shit like a grill (for ur mouth?) 7. all us women at once say it..."GUYS PUT THE FUCKIN TOILET SEAT DOWN!!!-hate in the middle of the night when ya gatta go and so tired we dont turn the light on...well ass...next time...im gonna clean the toilet w/ur toothbrush...now thats some funny shit! 6. when u pull into a gas station-the tard in front of u doesnt pull forward to empty one and stops and then a car pulls up to the empty one then sum1 pulls in back of u...wtf??? 5. you get a call @ 9 p.m -NO ASS...I DONT WANT BETTER INTEREST RATES!!!

[my Hands Hurt]
Actually my everything hurts. Let's bring it in kids. For some reason we're only putting SHIT pitchers on the mound tonight I mean Tajeda?Are you fucking kidding me? Why is he even pitching in the major leagues? ... oh right I've been busy. Wedding shit.Work shit.And now I'm mowingand shit... I'm mentally and physically exhausted and I'm ... pretty much cooking and eating to stay alive and it is PISSING ME OFF! Oh well. I probably have 1/3 of the job done.And 7 or so blisters on my hands (I keep finding new ones) Don't use a hand-scythe to trim your HUGE weeds (above my knees) after it rains and you can't mow the day you want to. Alsofuck grass, just in general. All the recent muscle use though is making me more slender.:3 That part I like. I'm about ready for an asian kick. I keep craving udon and fish broth and fishiesand thai saucesand steamed pork buns (which I have tabbed and read over a few times) I could just be really damn hungry... So...porkbuns?Those crazy

My Happy Hour
I just bought the next Happy Hour. I'll be using my bomb with it. I don't want you to get mad if I don't bomb you. I don't mean to offend anyone, but I'm going for points with this. So more than likely I'll be bombing people with Autos only. I love ALL of my friends, even if I don't bomb you.

My Hazel Eyes Gaze Upon You.
My Hazel Eyes gaze upon you. Black EyesPeople with black eyes spend the shortest time in relationships except for the one with their current addiction. They always fall in love with anything that has two legs, a pulse. They are great kissers----until they vomit all over you.___________________________________________________________Blue EyesPeople with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are kind, pretty or handsome, very good kissers and are really hot. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why. They are very funny, outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They love to party.They are very satisfying and love to please. Are straight up WARRIORS((aka wolves)) when they need to be. ___________________________________________________________Green Eyes People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, honest and trust worthy, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the

My Hat Goes Off To...
After the last two days my hat goes off to anyone who decides to make a career out of working with troubled children/youths (mostly on the high school aged scale). Being only a substitute paraeducator I was so not prepared for the last two days, lack of experience and only previously working with preschool and a bit of middle school threw me into a sink or swim situation. It took everything in me to keep reminding myself that its not the children’s fault that there are underlining emotional/psychological issues and most don’t have the greatest of home lives, especially when some of these children are in your face using langue that would make a sailor blush and directing it at you. Safe to say the rumors I had heard about substitutes leaving that school in tears in the middle of the day to never return were not rumors after all (neither were the rumors of violence). I can honestly say it was a learning experience and even though it was very difficult I would

My Haters Who I Don't Get Along With
andria t & crystal m, ally j and my ex girls sunny kiss & alyssa l & mereidth c everyone else pretands to care about me & ex bf daniel armstrong &ex bf thomas roberts when they don't really give a damn about me they all suck ass i learned that from sk klik i can't trust any of them anymore deathmetal music is only way i can go only current boyfriends that this bisexual girl can trust is its only thing that can save me & satan &biddusim cotey dewing & johnny eagle & donnie d & brian roberts&mikeg its a bigger darker side to me then you even know those are only guys that can treat bisexual hottie right this is my deadly abnormal double life wich is all she has now you know to drown everything out:

My Hardest Temptation
Should I resist you ?Always lacking the courage.Should I just give in?You are like the heights I want to climbAny time that you are nearThe feelings rush through my veinsAs I watch all my problems disappearYou cause me to free my thoughtsAnd take many risksYou have become my addictionThough I know you are toxicJust one day in your armsIs my only lasting wishYou are all I wantedYou are the smile on my faceUntil I remember you are mineI fight the excitement that you presentBut I find myself unable to winYou are to strong of a attraction for meYou are my hardest temptation

My Handicap
I have a memory problem, Relating names to people. I MUST see your name in print 7 times to relate it to a face. Change your picture or name before I see it 7 times and POOF gone,I must start again. THis dosen't reflect on how much I like or dislike you, Its a genitic thing in MY memory. A disability that causes me more hardship than you can imagine. Do you get angry if a person in a wheelchair slows you down, A seeing eye dog prevents you from getting to close to his master. Just because you can't SEE my problem dosent mean it dosen't exsist. If it offends you BE GONE, If you understand I thank you.

My Hero
Wondering when my hero will be here I sit at my piano As each finger hits a key I feel this little hand touch me I look down at him He just grins When will my hero be here I lay alone in my bed I wish I knew what was in his head I feel a little hand touch me He says what is the matter mommy I look at him and know he will make me proud one day I sit and sketch to wipe away the pain Hoping my hero will be here one day I feel a little hand My son what is wrong You are looking for your hero? No mommy you are my hero I look at him with a tear This little boy is so dear I pick him up and cry tonight My hero is here to help me through this fight One day I hope he knows He was my hero He never left me once He showed me strength and tenderness in my life Maybe one day I will meet a man that will inspire me to love again But right now my hero is just fine

My Heart & Soul
My soul was so sad Because of a man My soul was so sad It could not be consoled My heart was so sad Because of a man My heart was so sad Even more then my soul My heart told my soul You will one day be happy My Soul told my heart you will love once again My heart and my soul May some day be right But my heart and my soul Are still lonely tonight

My Heaven
My Heaven By: Amanda J. Hollis I look in your eyes and see all that I feel. I see the passion, the love, the warmth I see what we have and I know that it’s real. I think of your touch, your kiss, and it takes my breath away... The words you say linger in my mind and I get chills... I dream of holding you close, whispering I love you, knowing that I’ll always feel this way... Feeling deep in my heart, the love we share is meant to be... Smiling everytime I think of your eyes, your voice... Knowing that how I feel about you, is how you feel about me... Heaven has smiled down on me, by blessing me with your love... You've become my comfort, my peace, the one I want to share my dreams with... Am I dreaming, it seems too good to be true, but I know that you are real, you are my gift from above... As long as you'll let me, I'll make your dreams come true... My love is never ending, I will bring you the moon, everything you desire... All this earth has to offer mean

My Heart,my Soul
The pain in my heart,the pain in my soul This is a pain that no one will ever know Everyone say I have to let it go but sometimes its hard to let the past go There is so much pain that I keep inside Like the things that I cry about every night I would give you my sight,so,that you could see life through my eyes The pain,the suffering,and the lies that I've been told in my life would catch you by surprise But its my life The pain inmy heart,the pain in my soul This is a pain that no one will ever know

My Heart
My heart Lately it seems my heart has become an impenetrable fortress, some have tried and failed. It is not that I do not want love for I long to be loved and love someone wholeheartedly. Feeling my face blush whenever I think of them and what I want to do with them, the emotions I want to experience with them. I smile when I remember how it was to be woken up by a voice saying I love you, I miss it... Yet I am so scared to allow anyone come in out of fear to get hurt, will the curse of fear keep hounding me? Have I not progressed enough to cross the bridge? Maybe all I need is a special someone to open the doors to my heart and make me feel again. Special ladies I have encountered yet before they got the chance I made sure my doors were closed firmly. Enjoying the brief moments of hope they gave me, why did I not let them enter? Is making them believe in themselves, all I am supposed to do? Where they not right? Was I not ready? I do not know this... Maybe there

My Heart....
My heart is ... Is an open book waiting for the right reader to come and turn the pages of my soul, for found within this book are the secrets of my love. Come sit and talk for a while ask me questions and listen carefully for you might understand that within the cover of this beaten, battered, and crushed book lies a strong story line full of love,compassion, heart break, cheating,lust, longing, and wanting. So come and sit by my fire and turn the pages of my soul, IF you think you can. Ok. I wrote this as an answer to a bulletin survey question...but a friend of mine thought it was good enough to post in a bulletin of its own....Belive me when I say this I am flattered. so I thought if it was good enough to put in a bulletin by itself then it must have its own blog page...lol its a shanna original so please feel free to comment on it. let me know what you think.. It is my joy to know that my writings are enjoyed.

My Heart Believes In You
My Heart Believes In You by Stewart Bradshaw I kept my head up high, and then you came my way. I have been hurt so many times. My heart filled with so much pain. but now that pain has gone away. For I have found a place I want to be. This place I see is with thee. For in your arms I have felt and seen, a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe. A safe haven in your arms just for me. Now I give my heart to thee. For my heart believes in you.

My Heart Wrote You
deep chocolate covered kisses in the bath hungry heart and mouth ready to begin again comfort food for the soul, sex and chocolate writing love poems on your hot flushed skin mouth warmed chocolate rolls upon the tongue songs from my heart written on sandy shore freed to dance, swept up in a primal tidal flow deep chocolate covered kisses in the bath I smile at you, lick you clean and beg for more burning bright, I whisper and croon the words sweet songs My heart wrote for your ear alone hungry heart and mouth ready to begin again freed to dance, swept up in a primal tidal flow sex and chocolate, comfort food for the soul

My Health
Hello everyone. I have been trying to enjoy my time here on earth. Well it just seems like no matter how bad things get they can get worse. I'm sure as most of you know by now that the hip replacement went well. My recovery is still ongoing and it looks like it will be a success. But now comes along another problem. I have neuropathy in my legs. I don't know too much about it other than it is a nervous system disorder. And that it only gets worse. this on top of the hemoglobin SC disease. I have been in extreme pain for a few months now but I must say that having my daughters here for the summer has eased the pain a bit and given me a boost of energy. There was a point in time not to long ago that I just wanted to give up. I didn't like the pain. Not being able to do the simple little things I use to do. But the little ladies have opened my eyes and given me something to live for.

My Heartfelt Grief
I sit in a world filled with horrible people. I endure hell everyday as I walk through the hallways of school, realizing how people truely are. Lies, backstabbing, secular feelings; They're all I see. People no longer stand up for what they believe in. Instead they care bout what others think. They don't let their own opinions be known. People enjoy causing others pain. They survive off other's hurt. And the thing that bothers me most, is that many of these people claim to be Christians. They claim to be one of God's Children. Yet they act and say exactly like He told them not to. Trust no longer exists in the world today. I can barely count on two hands the people i trust. The world is slowly turning into a living hell. Where people strive to be better than others. Where people judge people and look at them with their eyes, not with their hearts. People are looked at for their outward appearance and attitudes. No one looks at their souls for who they are. Where stealing has humor, a

My Heaven
I look deep in your eyes. I see there what I feel inside. We share something between us, Neither one of us can hide. I feel your lips touch mine, I loose all my control, All it took was a look and a kiss, To know you were part of my soul. I see your hands on my skin, I want and need you to do more, The passionate look you give me, Tells me heaven is in store. I feel your need against my thigh, I know you will fulfill every wish,. We were made to fit together, And all it took was a look and a kiss. I look deep in your eyes, And I see heaven there inside, You make me feel so beautiful, What I feel for you I cannot hide.

My Heart
Sometimes you are lucky enough for a shining star to come into your life.What happens to your heart when that light goes out of your night?All it takes is a little time and patience and everything will be all right. Here is my heart bleeding before your feet. Here is my love!Go ahead take it from me. I ask only in return for your strength. Give me your hand pull me up again! it feels like love is just a game of hide and seek!What you might find will never reveal the hidden.The pain behind a face!A girl could walk a million miles before being knocked down again. Here is my heart bleeding before your feet. Here is my love!Go ahead and take it from me. I ask only in return for your strength. Give me your hand and pull me up again! In a world spining out of control were does happiness reside?Can you give it to me?Will you erase the pain inside or give some more to me?

My Heart
My heart breaks when i think of you Not loving me. My heart cries when i am not near you. My heart rejoices when I see you. My heart bursts when you hold me. another written during a bad time in my life. (i was in a very stupid faze too, I'll blog it later)

My Heart
My heart is so lost It beats with no rhythm My mind is so raw It thinks with no actions Time has stopped yet once again No where to go, nothing to hold Scared to death of what might be Is it me, all that you need My limbs are stuck No feeling of touch My eyes do not see They act out so desperately My life is just on pause, till the end Nothing to do, Nothing to feel Reacting reactions out of control Kept inside no one will know My soul is beaten down again Nothing left but my glow Forgetting the past, brightens the future No one can tell, no one can judge Soon end will began, I will see you again Time will tell, I can only cope The distance did not loose us Forever we may live in hope.

My Heart Bleeds
"My Heart Bleeds" Sacred cries I call to thee a lifetime of endless memories I sit alone with only my dreams my heart sits on the counter beating within I ripped it out when the love died what we had shared killed me inside what was i suppose to do? live a lie going believing that we could try try again give us another shot instead i did the one thing i never thought i would do i ripped my heart out and left it beating for you -Written by: Ashley- Social Misfit 10/15/06

My Heart
how does it hurt how can i make it stop how do i know what to do should i let go an jump freely or hold on tight with all my might the pain almost kills me i shudder with every moment i feel the tears begin to flow i feel the love leave i see myself slowly leaving i see my self gone

My Heart Will Hold
I have spent the majority of my life with men who say they care but act quite differently. They tell me they love me but ignore me. They act jealous and thoughtful only in the company of others. i am a simple girl who wants very little from life, to be loved as i would love back, unconditional and whole without reservation or hesitation. will i ever find this love, i dont know. i am hopeful but strained because as i get older and time grows shorter i feel it is all but too late for me.. ladies and gentlemen if you have this love, nurture it, hold it close to your heart and never take it for granted because there are those of us who would give there souls for one true love.

My Heart Of Passion Burning
It takes time, it takes time, Once you fall in love, you will never rise again, One you fall in love, you will never receive me, You will be a totally loss angel, Loss your way from heavens’ light, The Fire is red, and Flame is blossomy, A fire of your kiss is what burning mine heart of desire, Touch me, baby, just kiss me deadly, Feeling ours naked body rubbing against each else, Making love to you, made my heart contend, I like to feel your warm lip kissing all over my body, It takes time, it takes time, Once you fall in love, you will never rise again, One you fall in love, you will never receive me.

My Heart
How little in me is not touched by you! A friendship is a light that fills the heart, Painting with its gold each darkened hue, Providing warmth to each sequestered part. You are the mirror of my better self, Verifier of the best in me, A bridge across the unsuspected gulf Lodged between what can and ought to be. Expectations can be wings, not bars, Necessary to sustain our flight. The faith of friends in us is wholly ours, Incoming to uplift us to its height. No soul can see itself, but must depend, Each on each, upon a trusted friend

My Heart
hmmm..tonight i was just reading to other people's blogs and how their life was going on..and i was thinking that i rarely do that..most of the time i'm hiding myself behind the funny stuff and have a wall arround my heart..not because i'm heartless but just cause i got so many feelings..so sensitive..i don't want to be in that way..but i can't change it anymore..too much stuff has happened in my life..to trust others with my heart..so many people who are playing..i'm no ball to play with although i'm a playfull person..so many sides..it's full of opposites..i guess some one has to find his way to get through to reach it at the end..

My Heart Beat
once when i looked at you my heart would quicken its beat with joy. now when i look at you my heart starts to cry for the pain you have caused me. how could you treat me so. did you not care how i felt. did you not value the love i gave you. how could you do this when i gave you all i had to give. once when i looked at you my heart would skip a beat with exitment, now it only shivers from the cold i feel inside when i look at you. i gave you my all never asking for anything other than your love. maybe i should have been like all the rest and only wanted material things you had to give. when i am gone dont cry for me. dont ask me to stay for i can not. you treated me so calously and threw my love to the side for another. how can i bare your touch knowing you were with her. how can i fix a heart you broke. i would have given my life for yours now it looks like you so easly tossed me to the side for what a quick trist with another. why for a quick ease in your pain. does it matter anym

My Helpfull Tools Around The House & Office
The 2 things all households can't live without . . . duct tape & WD 40! Use WD 40 to remove crayon off walls! WD-40 - Water Displacement #40. The product began from a search for a rust preventative solvent and degreaser to protect missile parts. WD-40 was created in 1953 by three technicians at the San Diego Rocket Chemical Company. Its name comes from the project that was to find a "water displacement" compound. They were successful with the fortieth formulation, thus WD-40. The Corvair Company bought it in bulk to protect their atlas missile parts. The workers were so pleased with the product, they began smuggling (also known as "shrinkage" or "stealing") it out to use at home. The executives decided there might be a consumer market for it and put it in aerosol cans. The rest, as they say, is history. It is a carefully guarded recipe known only to four people. Only one of them is the "brew master." There are about 2.5 million gallons of the stuff manufactured e

My Heart
Your Heart Is Red You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart. Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person! Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense What you bring to relationships: Honesty What Color Heart Do You Have?

My Hero
The thought of you lingers in my mind. Vitalizing and warm the images I find. And before I can stop I’m consumed with flame… craving your touch calling your name. Surrounded by the scent of sandalwood and manly skin. My imagination bent on touching you again. Needing hot kisses on each inch of lady skin. If you start at my neck who knows where ….they might end?? Now it’s just too hot to wear any clothes I strip off all I’ve got on the floor each stitch goes. But I can‘t cool down, Baby I’m so hot for you. Bring that big hose, Mr. Fireman and see what you can do.. to put out this fire blazing out of control, quench this burning desire in my body and soul. Come over here Darlin. Feel the fever of my skin? If you know CPR that’s where to begin. Cover my lips with the sweetness of yours. I’ll open the lock no pounding down doors. Wrap me in your arms and carry me away The wetter it gets the longer you s

My Headache
I currently have 3 toddlers running destruction around my house. Heather my daughter is the ringleader, and tends to think up the trouble to cause. Natalie and Nathan, Mikes kids are just all too eager to go along and usually they all get caught at the same time, so sometimes its hard to see who started what. We are really lucky to have Anna living with us she is a huge help with the kids, if we just need to run any errands or even if we just need a night out she loves keeping the kids. She is also great with them. We have been getting the kids often enough to enjoy the weekends that we dont have them. I love having my daughter but i do enjoy just having time with Mike as well. Short sweet and to the point...

My Heart Aches
you keep telling me to trust in you. to belive in you and i do over and over again. yet it seems there is no reason for me to belive in you. all of your countless women keep coming out of the wood works. making my heart ache more and more each day. why cant you just be faithful and true. you say you love but how is this so when you have so many others. when i am in your arms i know i am the only one for you. when these women approach me it kills a lil more of me each time. oh how my heart aches how it cries in despair. why do you do this . why cant you be true. why why do you have to lie either to them or me. each time another one appears it pushes me a lil futher into a shell a shell you beg me not to go into. yet you cant seem to understand its your women killing me. you say you love me and only me then prove it!! you sayou want me and only me then prove it!! stop making my heart ache. im tired of the pain im tired of the despair. if you dont love me let me be free

My Heart
In the still of the evening Without sunlight to intrude I see the twilight's in your eyes As the moon sets up the mood Playing music soft and low While romance fills the air I can't help but feel aroused The very moment you come near You submit to my embrace While candles flick their flame And the smell of sweet perfume Seems to drive my lust insane As I look into your eyes And run my fingers through your hair I taste the sweetness of your neck As I nibble at your ear I then whisper words of love As you answer with a sigh And in a very sexy way Your sweet body comes alive Your the heat of my desire As we slowly come undress I then start to lay you down While you welcome my caress With your luscious sexy curves You have a taste I can't resist And your breast show some response When I touch them with a kiss As I soak inside your love To a sexy love condition Feeling passions start to rise While making love in all positions You give me so mu

My Heart
feeling it ripped from the chest stomped on an thrown into the trash feeling the numbness set in as you drive in some pins hurting me so making me feel so less what did i do wrong to lose what we had my carefree days are gone never to return for i loss something dear can't you hear me my dear i cry so hard inside hardness is now my reply how can i change when the fates have stepped in never to return the happy man

My Hero My Friend.. If Only One More Day
R.I.P. SPC James A. Chance "Jimmy" November 6th 2003 "My Hero My Friend" SPC James A. Chance "Jimmy" to his loved ones and friends was a child that dreamed of growing up and being a soldier. On the day he turned 18 he went and enlisted. His dream was becoming reality. Never thinking that down the road he may meet the woman he would want to have children with and want to marry, Jimmy took to army life like a fish towater. He never wanted to leave the military. In Feb 2001, I met Jimmy at a friends house. He was home on leave. We hit it off from the start. He was kind, caring, loving. All the things that make a man special. We were inseperable. All too soon, it was time for him to return to the army. I had to let him go. The day he got on the bus to go back to base was the hardest day in my life. Unknown to me it would soon end up being the third hardest day I would ever have to go through. Of course, Sept. 11 happened and after that it seemed like all of the soldiers were se

My Hero Type
What type of hero would you be? Dark HeroYou are a dark hero. Your name is whispered instead of shouted, and for a good reason! You are hard on yourself and likely have a dark past, or perhaps you seek forgiveness for an ancient wrong you seek to set right. In any case, your tales are are filled with vengeance, loss of innocence and a uniquely personal kind of justice. These aside, your good intentions still make you a hero, despite whatever means you use to achieve your ends. On the positive side, you are quite badass. Take The Quiz Now!Quizzes by myYearbook.com

My Heart Breaks
I am in love with a man who does not love me any more but is still calling me every day. I am trying my best to get over him but he wont leave me alone..I have already changed my cell # twice and he seems to be able to still get it,but I dont know from whom... I have told him countless times to let me go so I can move on and try and be happy...I just dont get how this is fun for him to keep me all twisted up like this... I want him to let me go!

My Heart Cries
My heart cries, but you don’t hear it. My heart breaks, but you don’t feel it. My body longs to feel your arms around me. My lips long to feel your kisses. My ears long to hear you say I love you. My eyes long to see your smile and eyes twinkle. My life longs to have you in it. My world longs to have you make it complete. My body longs to feel you lie next to it. My love longs to have you return it. My heart will cry, my heart will break. My body will go limp, my lips will only speak. My ears will miss your words, my eyes will shed tears. My life will be so lonely, my world will be so empty. My love will go unreturned. My heart aches as my life is turned inside out. My mind will never forget, my heart will never let go. I have loved you since the day I met you But now my heart cries, and you don’t hear it. Orignal post by:*~1mIsS bRaTt!~*

My Heart Cries *by Miss Bratt Thank You For Letting Me Repost*
This is so true, spoken so heartfelt, it had to be seen. thank you for allowing me to blog it. My heart cries, but you don’t hear it. My heart breaks, but you don’t feel it. My body longs to feel your arms around me. My lips long to feel your kisses. My ears long to hear you say I love you. My eyes long to see your smile and eyes twinkle. My life longs to have you in it. My world longs to have you make it complete. My body longs to feel you lie next to it. My love longs to have you return it. My heart will cry, my heart will break. My body will go limp, my lips will only speak. My ears will miss your words, my eyes will shed tears. My life will be so lonely, my world will be so empty. My love will go unreturned. My heart aches as my life is turned inside out. My mind will never forget, my heart will never let go. I have loved you since the day I met you But now my heart cries, and you don’t hear it. Orignal post b

My Health
i am a nurse but due to an autoimmune deficiance (what you dont need to think to do example breath)i am disabled but only that i am unable to work. what it is that i have is my heart rate goes up to around 200 beats per minute my blood pressurs drops and i pass out. not to worry i have it under control i know before this is going to happend but this does not hinder my sex life oor my having fun. i also have neve damage in my back and am percribed some really strong meds. i can onlty take a med that is used for cancer patients because of my other condition. so i am pretty much feeling good all the time the only downfall is i cant get enough sex. weather it be self gratification or with my partner. so to all my friends i am not ignoring you when you want to im it is that i am ussually just checking in and probably not feeling well. know that i love all of you and have a wonderful day and life

My Hero
You were always there to listen, When my heart began to break You never left me standing alone, You were the best friend God could make Slowly I fell in love with you, I can't explain the reason why Maybe it was your enigmatic soul, That gave me wings to fly Maybe it was your loving smile, Your warm and gentle embrace Maybe it was your soothing eyes, That lit up the darkest place Maybe it was because you saved me, Reminded me of how love feels I don't know for sure the reason, Only the way you made my heart heal I look up to you, I love you so, There may be times that we fight, But you will always be my hero

My Heart Will Go On
Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you That is how I know you go on. Far across the distance and spaces between us You have come to show you go on. Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on. Once more you open the door And you're here in my heart And my heart will go on and on. Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime And never let go till we're gone. Love was when I loved you One true time I hold you In my life we'll always go on. Near, far wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on. Once more, you open the door And you're hear in my heart And my heart will go on and on. You're here, there's nothing I fear And I know that my heart will go on. We'll stay forever this way You are safe in my heart And my heart will go on and on.

My Heart
MY HEART found a resting place I finally found a woman who loves me for who i am not for what i have. It took me awhile to realize but i am @ peace finally with this. The past is behind me and the future is dead ahead so to all that have been my friends may u find what ur lookin 4 in life and it brings u the same peace sooner then later. My best to all GOOD NIGHT

My Heart Is Always Weak (written On 12-3-06)
My Heart Is Always Weak By: Jeremy Malloy I look at the stories of how you been hurt To treat you good some day will be my turn I want to give you more than the world Around your pinky finger my heart is twirled Once I see that beautiful face My heart beats at a faster then normal pace With you it’s not about the chase It’s about how I feel when we’re face to face For you my heart is always weak And feelings for you will never at their peak No matter what happens I’ll be around for ever Just hoping you will give me a chance Will you ever? Sitting alone in my room Plotting and figuring all the ways to keep you from doom

My Heart Is Dead
I want to leave the memories behind. the ones that made me feel so blind. when im gone you will not see anything that used to be. bound by feelings from my heart, i think it died, cause it will not start. im sitting here dying for you. so that is that and now im through......

My Hell.......
....LET IT WASH AWAY THE PAIN THAT CONSUMES YOU.... .Another little slave and his possession are we....never allowed one little concession...... Tis not just me that has to suffer....for my suffering is but bliss....yours shall be but sorrow... I am afraid for you...should you dare to rest here... this rotten being sees all the lurks...i pray you are worthy of this...your seat of arrangement....... We are trapped...... we cannot leave.... he will forever more deceive...... We will suffer this struggle alone...never for others this to be known..... So much pain and utter despair.....we wonder if he will ever care.....for me i know he shall for eternity...for you ...a shadow...a shroud....doubt.... We hurt so much we do not know....if we will ever go with the flow....and swim within his sulfur... Sometimes it is so hard to bear... life that is an utter nightmare...lives....living under the threat of knives..... Not one friend to call ones own.....

My Heart Is An Ocean Away
Amongst the bullets and the blood There is a man who has my heart Through all the troubles and trials I know that if he just comes home safe All will be fine He is my rock he is my love Even still between the bullets and the bombs He worries about me and how I am doing Yet the only I crave him and only him He has something of mine I just can't get back

My Heart....
Nothing hurts more than realizing that he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him. If you are going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears. I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too? Even crack it a little? Theres a place in me where your fingertips still rest...your kisses still linger... your whispers softly echo...Its the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me. Theres a girl in my mirror crying tonight and there is nothing i can say to make her feel all right. You dont die from a broken heart...you only wish you did. You dont realixe how much you care about someone until they dont care about you. Look in my eyes and you will find me. Look in my heart and you will find you. You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if it means that you are not a part of it.

My Heart
why does love hurt so much.why is it so hard to tell that one person you love them and them not run away.why do we always fall for the guy we kno we cant have or dont have a chance with.why does love always make u do stupid things and say stupid stuff.why does it take control over you and make u do everything and anything it wants. why is it so strong. well love for me is bad cuz i always fall for the wrong guy well not really the wrong guy just the guy i kno i cant have and the guy that makes me feel so sad yet happy at the same time cuz it makes me want him even more knowing i wont ever get him and it makes me miserable and i hate how hes the first thing on my mind everyday and i hate not being able to do anything about it and i hate how perfect he is with his awesome personality and wonderful heartand the eyes that can make u do anything for him and how sweet he is and cocky at the same time i hate how he makes me feel so comfortble when i talk to him and how he makes me smile

My Hercules My Baby (march 8, 1992 - Dec 25, 2006)
The Pictures on this blog did not come through as they did on my myspace blog but if you look in my pet pics he is there! In Memory of Hercules (Mar 8, 1992 - Dec 25, 2006) Protector, friend, companion and family pet I have always bred, owned, rescued, and loved German Shepherds - I was raised with one named Misty from about 3 years old until I was 16. When I married I began rescuing them from shelters and pounds and finding them good homes. Sam and Dominique were two I took in and sheltered that made excellent pets I kept them to their final days. Hercules was different. Hercules was mine from the time he could leave his Mother and raised by me. One of many Shepherd I have owned but by far the one closest to my heart. He never let me take walks alone and made it his job to be at my side every step of the way. He was a great dog both inside and out. Protective and loyal as well as friendly and lovable. I shall miss him very much. Hercules my baby! resti

My Heart
The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

My Heart........
My heart burns with desire for you When you lie to me over and over again Especially when we are together And you tell me you love me and that you care If I could compare my heart to anything It would be to a wildfire burning to no end My heart aches with sorrow for you When I see you are hurting And when you see me hurting too If I could compare my heart to anything It would be to my knees, because they feel like falling to the ground and I feel like calling out for you to hold me My heart dies and turns into a lonely sulfur I told you "I Love You" I said I would forever You told me you loved me too Then you broke up with me If I could compare my heart to anything It would be to a cemetery on a dark, rainy night, raining without any end The only end is without you! Written for the one I love and I always will I told you I'd love you forever and I swear I never lied!!!

My Heart.
I sit here everynight. Looking at my computer and watching movies where the ones in love with the unreachable end with getting together. I am a lil disturbed with this for the fact is i'm a hopeless romantic who's going no where fast. all i do is use my computer, work and sleep. I fell in love with a girl who lives far away. i wish she ws here with me all the time. i wait for her to get on the computer, just to talk with her. I put a lot of thought in the christmas gifts i bought and set to her. all the money in the world couldn't show her what she means to me. Even with the love i have for her i am still living with an empty soul. when i talk to her i feel like there is nothing else in the world but her. I have only known her for a short time, but she means the world to me. I know this is pathetic but its how i feel like every day. if only she could be here for me to show her just how much i care for her. she'd probably kill me if she found out how much it cost me to send her the gift

My Heart, My Mind, My Soul, Dose Ne One Care?
Well here i am again sitting here thinink and starting to hurt so i am going to try and write this in hopes that a little bit of the pian will stop but like always i don't think it will i am starting to think that the pain will never go away althou i wish it would every day but the wish never comes true like always i wish and wish for rhings and it never happens but i don't give up althou right now as i sit her looking back all i see is a little happynest surronded by heartake pain and alot of other things and right now i want to know one thing WHEN IS IT GOING TO END WHEN DO I GET TO LOVE THE WAY I WANT TO LOVE WHEN CAN NE ONE ANSWER THAT QUESTION FOR ME something tells me i wont get a answer to it but there it is and as for everything elese hell if i know right now i just want to know what it is like to have love in my love and it not run off for a change or me fuck it up or what ever i just want to be able to know what the feeling feels like in my heart my mind and my soul cause i h

My Heart Is Yours Harry
My Heart Is Yours by MaTtY ViLlA LoBoS ~ My Heart Is Yours, My Sweet Lover ~ To Love And To Keep, ~ With You Always Through The Day ~ And In Dreams, As You Sleep. ~ So Treat It Gently, With All Your Love ~ And Never Let It Go, ~ It's Yours Forever, And Thereafter ~ Just To Let You Know. ~ It's Full Of Love For You ~ And Never Will It End, ~ My Heart Is Yours, So Be Assured ~ On This You Can Depend. Dedicated To The Man Who Stole My Heart: Harry

My Heart On A Tarnished Platter
I can always find another you You think you are irreplaceable But you're just like the others A waste of my time. Out of all my wants and all the needs I just wish I didn't want to need you. Because the hardest part about walking away From your warm comfort Is knowing that you won’t chase after me You won't chase a moment That you once told me Made you a better woman For all of the hours in my day I would spend 25 of them Beside you But you don't want that Now I'm here wondering Wishing for just one more sunrise But my world is dark And my days are dreary That is my soul without u "I'll be back in two weeks" And if that were true Then why have I waited So long without you For the first time in my life, I am starting to believe That I’m meant to die alone... Alone with my thoughts The shadows of what once was How I wish you were here To show you the meaning of myself How with one kiss You’ve made me the man That was once but a glimmer Bu

My Heart Is Gone
so i run into my xs mother today, we get to chatting. so before i go to leave i ask how is angel? she gives me a blank stare? my son is such an asshole omg i cant believe he didnt call to tell you im like hey kay slow down whats up? shes like we told him to call you before he went and did that, again im like did what. he got sick of the dog he fought so hard to keep and had her put to sleep. my love, my heart. because some bastard wanted to hurt me so badly, ive never honestly wished harm on anyone til now, i called him and told him to go slit his wrists in the bathtub. all he had to do was call me and i would have gladly taken her

My Heart, My Head And My Balls!
The human body is a kingdom were every organ wants to be king. In every man there are three leaders who try to impose their law. This permanent struggle(fight) is the biggest source of troubles. A longtime war between the head, the heart and the balls. Would the young ladies excuse us if we do weird things. If one day we are lambs and if the next day we are wolves. It is because of the disputes in our body between our head, heart and balls. My heart is a true sponge, always tend to open. But my head is a soldier who is rarely allowed to move. My balls are motivated, they would like to take this brunette. But there is one that doesn't want it, damn my balls give me a headeache. My head said to my heart that it doesn't give a shit about my balls. But my balls listened and said my head had no heart. And as my heart has no balls, my head is not ready to be afraid. My heart is weak. And when my heart loses his head, my balls stay well in the warmth. And if my head leaves it over to my b

My Heart Belongs To You(this Is For Adam)
My eyes first started seeing When I looked upon your face My heart first started beating When I was held in your embrace My mind first started dreaming When it filled with thoughts of you I first started feeling When I fell in love with you My world first started turning When you came into my life I first started living When you held me close that night For me you are the only one My eyes see only you No others could be of interest For my heart belongs to you

My Heart Hurts
Im sick sick of meaningless realationships and promises that never bear fruit i long for a warm body someone that is willing to give just as much as recieve to listen and love to care and be cared for just to cherish time together i am tiered of the hurt deep within a pain that seems to devour my thoughts i need a cure a cure for my heart a heart that hurts and wants to be healed

My Hero
You are my hero and my reason for life You were the on I ran to in the middle of the night You taught me right from wrong You taught me that nothin is free in life You taught me to get respect you must give it For now i know that you are my hero Even though you are gone I will always and forever be strong

My Heart Was Hurt The Day You Left Me
The day you left I thought something was wrong with me But the thing was i didnt need you at all For i did not shed a tear I did not cry for in time i know i would be alrite You never thought td be fine My heart is healed and i am fine.

My Health And Well Being. Chapter 1
Doctors........quacks, money grubbers, Rx pushers. I have been to mine alot over the past year. More then I like by far. What has bothered me lately is the asking me 4x in a row, "How old are you now?" The last time I checked I was 45 and my Birthday was not in December. Then out comes the prescription pad and then a second thought. Wait! I have samples so you can try out the high blood pressure medicine before you pay for it each month. Now, I am educated and well read but I know nothing about blood pressure meds and do not know what questions to really ask. I was taken off balance when it was taken 3 times over an hour and stayed higher then my previous visits in the past 11 months. I said sure to samples. Now I get them home, have taken them for 3 weeks and discovered they are for someone age 55 with a history of Stroke, heart attack or PAD of the legs. I do not qualify for any of the terms mentioned. I also take cholesteral meds and now take them faithfully t

My Health And Wellbeing Chapter 2
My options for my future health is to change my PCP, I currently have an Internal Medicine dr that has been pretty good up until this year. I see more drug company advertisements in her waiting room then ever before. I use to get in within 15 minutes of the appointment time. Now I get in within 30 minutes and I always arrive about 10 minutes early to be sure I am on time. That is probably not going to get better as this year rolls out. Who do I get for a replacement doctor? Well, I will check our insurance website for ones close by, get a list then try word of mouth. Also, check what I can for "free" report cards for Florida doctors. I am disheartened by what I am experiencing and can only imagine what others are too. I am in a pretty good position to know the basics of doctors I work for the insurance company. However, finding a good doctor takes valuable time and getting to know the actual doctor for who they are and how they treat you when well, ya know the bed

My Heat!
SERIUOSLY MY HEAT IN MY APARTMENT IS DRIVING ME NUTS! IM FREEZING. I TURN UP THE HEAT AND IT'S ROASTING IN HERE. THEN IM SWEATING. I CANT WIN! IT'S EITHER TOO COLD OR TOO HOT. :( ARRR. ITS FUNNY TOO AS I WRITE THIS CAUSE IM EATING COLD STARBUCKS JAVACHIP ICECREAM RIGHT NOW. LOL! *SIGH* IMA WIERD GOTTA LUV ME.

My Hero
Seems like I write about a lot of the bad stuff from my past, so here is something about my Dad. Probably just rambling thoughts and memories. Dad is a retired minister. Still goes out and preaches a lot. He had 2 churches that he was minister for. One was his first church, and he was there almost 40 years. The other he filled in as a temporary position.. which lasted probably close to 30 years. He could have gone on to bigger churches, gone into administrative jobs. Jobs with more money. Jobs with more of a itle. Jobs with prestige. He didn't take them because he wanted us to stay with our friends and graduate where we started. Dad came from the suburbs of Philly. He ended up in Brogue. A little village where there are no stop lights... no sidewalks. Just 2 roads that intersect. Ok, there used to be a third road, but since we had to mow it they removed it from the offical maps..lol. Dad loved to garden. Unfortunately for me I hated my veggies. But Dad would be

My Heart
Will I ever find the man of my dreams? The one that will always stand by my side. The one that will give me my children. The one that won't run. The man that is meant to be my husband to always treat me like I am meant to be treated. Will I always be used and abused? I am begining to think so!! I know I have a protecter, but I won't always be safe. Will I ever get to show what I feel? Will I ever know the pleasure of it all again?

My Heart Lies Here
Sorry to disappoint some of you guys but my heart belongs to a wonderful guy who works for the York County Sheriff's Department. We have been seeing each other now for 7 months. I hope that you will still be my friends. I hope you all understand!! Thanks for being my cherrytap friends, family and fans!

My Heart Full Of Compassion
I cannot ease your aching heart, Nor take the pain away. But let me stay and take your hand And walk with you today. I’ll listen when you need to talk, I’ll wipe your tears away. I’ll share your worries when they come, I’ll help you face your fears. I’m here and I will stand by you, Each hill you have to climb. So take my hand lets face the word, Live one day at a time. You’re not alone for I’m still here, I’ll go that extra mile, And when your grief is easier, I’ll help you learn to smile

My Heart, My Daughter, Walked Out Tonight!
I went to see my ex-husbands son today at the juvenile facility he is locked up in. That is how my day started. We still consider each other mother and son. It was a good visit till he tried to get in between me and his fathers relationship since the divorce. He wants us back together and when he brought it up, I didn't tell him what he wanted/hoped to hear. Other than that, the visit went well. While visiting with my stepson we noticed the baby had an absence seizure. I decided to go to my ex-husbands house to be with the baby and watch the Colts game there. Things were going ok there. We didn't fight once.......for a change. While I was there, my daughter was here at home with 2 of her friends. No big deal, that was fine. I had agreed to have my ex take one of her friends home after the game around 10:30pm. I had forgotten the time because I was watching the post game. My daughter called me at 10:40pm reminding me of what I was to do. Since I had forgotten, the girls wanted me

My Heart
MY HEART IS BURING MY BODY SO NUMB YOU TOOK MY LOVE YOU JUST HAD TO STAB MY HEART YOU MAY NOT KNOW IT YOUR MY LIFE MY HEART IM SO BLIND YOU DONT LOVE ME IM COMPLETELY BROKEN INSIDE WITH YOU GONE FOREVER I CANT STAND THIS PAIN I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART KNOW ITS BROKEN INSID AND YOU DONT EVEN CARE

My Heart Returned
This is a story i wrote about the man who i started to see who had died in a work accident..i guess you will find how i felt then as to why i have the heart i have...hope you can understand this... My Heart Returned by: Flo I was walking along the beach one day without even really knowing how I reached this place. I had so much on my mind, but only one thing in my heart. You. The sun was out that day, I remember because I had been thinking it would have been more fitting if it were cold and gray and gloomy because if would have matched what I was feeling. I mean, how dare Nature be so bright and wonderful, when true life isn't? I was walking along, barefoot, my shoes hanging from my finger tips. Usually the beach is my favorite place to go, to explore, find new agates, pretty sea shells, and watch the kids play in the surf. Today, somehow my mind knew my heart and I ended up alone on a beach with no shells, no agates and luckily no one else either. The only noise w

My Heart
If you can hold my heart in your hand, Tell me the truth What would you do? Would you take care of it So it wont break Or would you leave it around So anyone can take Would you put it in a safe place So it wont get lost Or would you leave it around So it can find its own way out Would you look at it every minute to make sure its still there Or would you forget that it was even ever there Would you look at it and admire it or would you deny it and forget that you once desired it Would you hold it tight Or would you let go without even trying to fight Would you take it everywhere with you Or would you leave it behind Would you feed it well to make sure it survives Or would you not care and let it die If you can hold my heart in your hand, What would you do ? Will you tell me the truth If I tell you ill give it to you Or would you lie And make it cry

My Hero My Life
The day i came to know you were there was the day the feeling of joy and fear entered me...I instantly thought of the brothers and sisters you should have had and wondered if you would be here with me, or would you be joining them.... As each day passed I felt a more warmer feeling inside that you were gonna be the one....I could start to feel you move inside me gentally at first and then with more force toward the end..... As the day came for you to enter the world the same feeling of joy and fear entered me....I awated the day to finally look in your eyes.......And as the gentlemen that took you from inside me held you up, I looked into your eyes and realized my miracle was here.....I love you baby ...Danielle...

My Hearts Suicide
Many a times Have I witnessed My heart commit suicide Confusion My only state of mind recently Happiness Comes from closing my eyes I can't see behind me So I strive forward with all my strength I would feel alot better if I could sleep the days away I'm fightin' back feelins' of uneasiness emotionally Very few people have been selected to accomplish contentment My view of society ain't got no point Just an answerless question Listen to the hurt In these words and You'll hear my voice Love will outlive me My heart is gonna stop before I do Why can't my nightmares stay asleep Even the rain is ignoring my voice Left in the closet of my heart You my love The one I shared with you. Those wilted flowers On the kitchen counter Have turned icy blue. I will never tell you Of my pain or Baby, come back to me My heart is filled with sadness. Only you and your return Will fill my heart with gladness But I wont say Witness my hearts suicide....

My Health
**An FYI before you read this. There is much more going on than the brain disease. This is lengthy but if you are truly curious, towards the end it will list several of my other health issues.** As a few of you know, I am a rather ill person. I'm asked fairly often what it is that I have. To save time from having to repeatedly type it out, I guess I will just blog about it. The past week has been extremely rough for me. The pain is out of control. Since we've moved, I am nowhere close to any of the 21 specialists that have worked with me the past 7 years. Oh gee, the things I get to go through again while finding new doctors. I'd rather be dead than to go through all the hellish testing that I will have to go through again. I literally mean that. The testing just can't be described. If you can think of it, I have more than likely gone through it and I get to go through it again. Some of the testing is extremely painful, some testing is tolerable and some testing is

My Heart
Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me" A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

My Health
Im not doing as well as what I was.Since the accident I have been in lot of pain and now I am running a fever and bleeding.I might be going to the hospital soon to be checked out.It might be nothing or it could be an infection.I dont know.Thats all I can tell for now.

My Heart
When will the madness end. When will my sorrow leave. When will my heart not feel so heavy. I want so bad to tell you how I feel. I don't want you to leave but I want to be alone. I have loved you for so long. Since you first smiled at me. I knew you were mine and I was yours. But now I wonder who you are. I wonder why you act the way you do around me. I want to go back when everything seemed normal. When we were able to go out, go and do stuff together without fighting. Without wondering what was going to happen next. What happened to those days. My baby just remember one thing. I will always be there for you. No matter what happens. No matter who comes between us. I love you

My Heart My Love
Be strong my heart for I must be able to endure to challenges of life; the good and the trying that come with my love. Be courageous my heart for I must make decisions that effect not only me, but also my love. Be faithful my heart for temptations are a fact of life; the will to withstand such evils only strengthens my love. Be hopeful my heart that each day will bring new discoveries to my life; for these discoveries will allow me to grow with my love. Be honest my heart about my feelings, my dreams, my ambitions, my needs; for to lie to myself is to lie to my love. Be happy my heart for there is good in everything around me; as I have found goodness through the eyes of my love. Be still my heart for with my love I have found strength, courage, faith, hope, honesty and happiness. And with these, together my love and I shall prosper...day by day, year by year.

My Heart's Symphony
She was my guiding light in times of darkness, My rock when I was devoid of strength, Wisdom when I had no clue what to do. Understanding when I performed the unexpected Encouragement when fear reared its ugly head. I miss the sound of her laughter, And the love that poured from her lips with each word she spoke. She lived a life full of God's unconditional love. An angel, my angel, here on earth. I miss the touch of her still baby-soft skin That 94 years on this earth did not weather I miss asking her what she needed Because I certainly needed her caring words To guide me, lift me, and carry me through my day. It has been a little while now Since she has gone to meet the Creator, The One who allowed me to have her in my life And Who allowed her to nurture me To become the person you see now. I feel bittersw

My Heart
With you my heart is calm, and you take my breath away. And every time I speak to you, I hardly know just what to say. You know my heart is yours, you stole it from the start. I never even had a chance, and you clearly left your mark. As I review my heart, I swore it to another. But now I give it to you, and after that no other. Always in my heart, you've changed all that I know. So even though we are apart, I know our love will grow.

My Heart
My heart is very fragile you know It’s been stepped on, smashed, ripped and torn And not long ago it was dealt a great blow I’ve been trying to protect it, and shelter it too Not letting anyone in or sharing my feelings If it takes any more beating I’m not sure what I will do Then I met a woman, so pretty and fair One who made me smile just at the thought Could I? Should I? Might I dare? She spoke so softly, as if breathing life into me Giving me hope that maybe, I could try So I opened the door ever so slightly As she walked in my heart lit a fire Her warmth embraced me with such care I felt ready, strong, yet still balancing on a wire We shared something special, and it felt so right It was magic in motion, a sweet harmony in perfect tune Something memorable, a most magnificent night Then something happened, something not forseen The light went dim, and the heat drifted away My heart felt empty again, my stomach was green I don’t know if opening my

My Heart
Poetry in motion My "heart's" like an ocean Made out of tears On it swim my fears Hope is an island so small Of it any moment I may fall Faith is a tiny palm tree To slight to even shade me Pain's the name of the shark Trying to leave more then a mark On this soul that's badly scarred By many things hiding in the dark Friendship is a dolphin, I can see Swimming around, trying to defend me Love's a siren sitting on a rock Laughing and waving, just to mock The ghost ship Evil is ever close Out of the sea it one day arose Lies are the sailors on this boat Cruelty is the one in the captain's coat Deceit is the flag they sail under Oh, the noise! I can hear the thunder Trust was shattered a long time ago By a big storm that's not letting go Trying to make it whole once more Lightning strikes, broken it falls to the floor Loyalty is concealed deep in a cave From being discovered by an evil knave Happienes, will be hard to find It's a b

My Heart Is Empty..
www.hostdrjack.com My heart is empty, why did you leave, so much left unsaid, emptiness and tears still linger as though it was yesterday.. Our son is a reminded image of you, his smile, his strength to be the man, how hard this must be for him still yet.. Our kids keep you near with pictures and stories, You now watch over them and must smile as they are growing up so quickly so wonderful.. I do know how hard it must be not to hold them or kiss them, as we live this everyday not being able to reach out to you.. Just know you will always be loved and missed and although our paths are changing everyday you will never be forgotten..

" My Heart Is Torn In The Piece"
I see a happy couples hold the hands I see Children are laugh when they are playing My heart is torn in the piece I see a wife and husband smiling when they are kissed I see a man celebration for a newborn baby My heart is still torn in the piece I see people around me being laugh, smiling, yelling and in love my heart is broke because I was once of them

My Heart Is Just A Shell....
I dreamt that the doctor pulled my heart out of my chest only to find it was empty. As he went to pass it to the nurse the nurse dropped it and kicked it out the door. This began a series of events that I will continue to write about.... The place the heart went to was a bar to get a beer, it asked the bartender for a drink. The bartender said sorry we don't serve broken hearts here, we just numb em. The heart said, ok give me a carrot juice.... to be continued.

My Heaven
I look deep in your eyes I see there what I feel inside We share something between us Neither one of us can hide.. I feel your lips touch mine I lose all control All it took was a look and a kiss To know you were part of my soul I see your hands on my skin I want and need you to do more The passionate look you give me, Tells me heaven is in store.. I feel your need against my thigh I know you will fulfill my every wish We are made to fit together And all it took was a look and a kiss I look deep into your eyes And I see heaven there inside You make me feel so beautiful What I feel for you, I can not hide.

My Heart
Deep within this slave, There lies a secret place, Treasured and protected, Once lost without a trace. Hidden well within this girl, Cold and lonely and scared, Once beat a trembling heart, Aching for a secret to be shared. She jumped at every shadow, Wanting, needing to break free, From the trappings of a life, Unable to breathe, unable to be. One day a light began to shine, Curling around this slaves heart, Illuminating long hidden desires, Pounding fear once more to start. Afraid to trust, afraid to love, shaking and scared to death, A fire began to burn, A need growing with every breath. A word, a touch so gentle, A firm and guiding hand, Molding an eager slave, hajira heart, beginning to understand. Each day the light grew brighter, The slave becoming kajira true, A glow surrounding her heart, Reveling in feelings brand new. Today, la kajira shines, And Your love was just the start... Each heartbeat is for You, My Master, My Love...my Heart...

My Heart
Because you live and breathe Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help Because you live, my Master My world has twice as many stars in the sky It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again Cuz of you, made it through every storm What is life, what's the use if you're killed inside I'm so glad I found an angel Someone Who was there when all my hopes fell I wanna fly, looking in your eyes Because you live there's a reason why I carry on when I lose the fight I want to give what you've given me always. With all my love my Master to You....Your slavegirl

My Hearts Desire
Things I love I love when my face is held. I love when a guy looks into my eyes I love when someone plays with my hair I love it when my back is rubbed I love to hold hands I love to lay my head on my guy's chest I love to be snuggle while I am sleeping I love to have the top of my head, my forehead, the tip of my nose and my hand kissed ( a kiss on the forehead means you are mine forever) I love to have doors opened (and closed) for me I love when a guy gives me his coat when I am cold I love to be helped out of cars, and up & down steps I love to sit on peoples laps I love to slow dance I love a slow passionate kiss that goes on and on

My Heros! (im Nuts) My Facinations!
"Edgar Allan Poe" "Elizabeth Bathory" "Joseph Merrick a.k.a. The Elephant Man" "Queen Elizabeth I" "Jeffery Dahmer" "Albert Fish" "David Berkowitz aka Son of Sam" "The Zodiac Killer" "Jack The Ripper" "Emily Dickenson" "Theodore Robert Bundy a.k.a. Ted Bundy" "Hello Kitty" "Joey Jordison"

My Heart Beats Like A Drum
!~@@__**Silly.Little.Raver**_@@!~ My Heart Beats Like A Drum I close my eyes close the door i won't worry any more i've been waiting for you everyday and everynight cut the lights let it fade i don't wanna be afraid i've been waiting for you tonight it's right stars shine bright i just really wanna be with you i celebrate wait for the day when all my wishes will come true my heart beats like a drum dum dum dum i think of you everyday waiting for a call just the sound of your voice stars shine bright i just wanna be with you

My Heart Is Breaking.....
My heart is breaking Current mood: crushed I MISS MY BEST FRIEND!!! DAMNIT!! why did the gods and goddesses have to take you so fucking soon brotha fox?! I NEED YOU HERE NOW! my heart is breaking..my tears are falling..come comfort me! I havent cried for you in awhile. I dont know why i am right now. I want to live the life that you wanted for me. but i cant do that without you. I NEED MY BEST FRIEND!!! Heartache Heartache Cry Walking away Loyalty Heartache Enless Tears Why me and now? Heartache I just need you here! so much of my life is just crashing down! I need you here to talk with. You are my sounding board for so much that i go through and without you here, i dont know what to do! GRR GRR GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRR GRR GRUMBLE! damn you!! DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT!

My Heart
It’s not only hate Fighting my heart. Cause I do love. So maybe I don’t Fight for myself. But I do fight. My tears are falling Not only from pain Cause I can laugh. I love I fight I laugh. For my friends, for my soul mates. They are what I need the most. They’re my heart. And no Human can live without a heart.

My Heart
my heart here,... My heart less than a mile or two away And yet my heart isn't all the way there,... Yet I care. It is more than 3,000 miles away It is my heart my love, How do I explain this to my dear heart??? my dear heart you really know where you want to be.---And it is not here. The one I want to be with is with someone else that is hard on my dear heart. Cause I won't say I love him, I won't kiss him,but he holds my heart and maybe unaware.

My Heart
I love you Rebecca I love to just look into your eyes I just want us to be by each others side like we should be When I look into your eyes, I see my heart I love that because your the one who holds my heart I just feel so alive when your around I love you so much Rebecca These are not lies this is how I feel straight from my heart I just want my wife backby my side

My Hero
Just wanted to jot down some thoughts. As many as my friends know, my mother is dying. I want to say THANK YOU to everyone who has been there in thought and prayer. I got back 400am this morning from yet another trip to hospital. She has Hepetitus from 20 years ago from a blood transfusion. A year ago it got down to the wire where we had to make a decision. Liver transplant or a "stint" in liver and medically manage her. Since she was weak from beating breast cancer, we opted to do the stint. She just was not a good candidate and liver failure would be certain. THEN, last November we were dealt yet another blow. They told us she had liver cancer and could not treat it. It was the biggest hematoma they had ever seen. This woman is a saint. She brought me and my brother up single handedly. No help from Dad, and she did not date. WE were first. Always. I love my mother. She is my friend, my fan. My mother was an Scotch-Irish lady with VALUES. Unheard of these days. I want the world to kno

My Heart Is
My heart is an open canvas waiting for a painter My heart is a blank paper waiting for a writer My heart is an empty vessel waiting to be filled My heart is an adventuress waiting to be thrilled * My heart is sitting in darkness waiting for light My heart is the moon waiting for the night My heart is colorless waiting for the rainbow My heart is a mighty river waiting to flow * My heart is rhythm waiting for the right dance My heart is anticipation waiting to take a chance My heart is music waiting for the right words My heart is whispers waiting to finally be heard * My heart is the sun waiting for dawn so it can shine My heart is lonely waiting to make your love mine My heart is calm waiting impatiently for the storm My heart is cold waiting for the heat to make it warm * My heart is a seed waiting to be planted and grown My heart is a skeptic waiting to be convinced and shown My heart is learning waiting on the right

My Health
i still do not feel 100%.... bronchitis and a sinus infection seem to KICK MY ASS!! I am on an antibiotic since friday so i feel worlds better than i have...but fuck me! i wanna feel better! So yeah...ps friends, romans, countrymen..... you all only have 3 days left to find the perfect gift for me...my birthday is the 8th.... don't let me down....remember i am sick lol

My Heart, Is Not Used To Be Happy
I'm laughing, but it doesn't mean i'm happy; I'm tearing, but it doesn't mean i'm sad; I'm alone, but it doesn't mean i'm lonely; I like laughing when i feel sad; I like crying when i am moved; I like being alone, cos i have never felt lonely,and I feel lonely when i'm not alone. I like all these feelings, cos my heart is not used to be happy all the time!

My Heart.....
The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

My Heart And Soul
My Heart And Soul My soul was so sad Because of a man My soul was so sad It could not be consoled My heart was so sad Because of a man My heart was so sad Even more than my soul My heart told my soul You will one day be happy My soul told my heart You will love once again My heart and my soul May some day be right But my heart and my soul Are still lonely tonight

My Hearts Voice
the voice of my heart, like a whisper in my head, a thousand voices indeed. the voice of my heart, should it speak no joy nor pain, as every natural thing should, the voice of my heart, like soft pillows, enchanting meadows, never as calm, peace unforetold' darlyn amazingly in all the words i hear from my heart, it passes on a message filled with pleasure i cannot explain, all for the love of you, with all my heart

My Heart And I
ENOUGH ! we're tired, my heart and I. We sit beside the headstone thus, And wish that name were carved for us. The moss reprints more tenderly The hard types of the mason's knife, As heaven's sweet life renews earth's life With which we're tired, my heart and I. You see we're tired, my heart and I. We dealt with books, we trusted men, And in our own blood drenched the pen, As if such colours could not fly. We walked too straight for fortune's end, We loved too true to keep a friend ; At last we're tired, my heart and I. How tired we feel, my heart and I ! We seem of no use in the world ; Our fancies hang grey and uncurled About men's eyes indifferently ; Our voice which thrilled you so, will let You sleep; our tears are only wet : What do we here, my heart and I ? So tired, so tired, my heart and I ! It was not thus in that old time When Ralph sat with me 'neath the lime To watch the sunset from the sky. `Dear love, you're looking tired,' he said; I, smi

My Heart
I have given a part of me Do you see it I have opened up my heart to you Do you feel it I have stood in the shadows and adored you Do you notice I have shared your pain in every way Do you know it I have put my thoughts to paper And sent them to make your day I love you in every way a man can Yet, still i have so much to say And so if some day you can feel my words And know in your heart they are true If the lord permits, I will still be here The one, ....who is loving you.

My Heart
My heart, locked away Walls so strong, no one Could enter there Living this way, no feeling No pain, No emotion Was survival for me All alone, no one to hold No one to touch, to kiss I lived this way for so long Centuries passed, time flowed Bringing me here, gently To this place, to love again He was unexpected I did not search, by yet He was here, with me He smiles, my heart melts His touch starts a fire Burning out of control He is just a man This simple man, awakened A heart long thought dead We share a kiss Something sweet, pure Releasing us, forever Releasing from the pain Of longing, lonlieness Of our solitude

My Heart On My Sleeve
Sometimes I wear my heart on my sleeve, It's there for the taking and I make the wrong choices! Sometimes, I open my heart too much and to the wrong people. Being put through the wringer and messed with emotional is no big prize. The pain runs deep, the healing has only just begun!! Somehow, I feel free to be me! I know that love heals all wounds and truly feel that today! I have gotten through some really hard times with the help of my friends. Those of you who know me, know who you are! Some friends I run the risk of losing because of a several choices I am making in my life! I hope they know I love them and appreciate them for who they are and with no strings or judgments attached! With me, friendships are unconditional, the good, the bad and the ugly are accepted! I have had a lot of ugly in my life but have also had many blessings! For me one of those blessings is my friends! Thank You For Being My Friends!!!!!!

My Hero Of September 11
I prepared myself, for the moments, too near; I would walk through the door; I would face my fear. Would he be alive? Or would he be dead? The party of firefighters that he had lead. I turned the golden knob, of our brown timber door, Next second I would know, whether he had survived this war. But when I entered the archway of my home, my castle, My world was shaken as I saw a small gift rapped parcel. My mother was looking at it but did not shed a tear, When heard I was home, all could be said was “Oh, Emilie, you’re here” We didn’t have to open it, we knew it was, It was father’s possessions, and a note telling our loss. I brushed my hair, and wore my best dress, For this day was special, better then the rest. My mother, so tired, so frail, Tried to argue against but burst into a wail. “Are you sure…” she said as she awoke “…That you want to go,” she quietly spoke. I told her, “fear not, for he will be grateful” He would be happy, rather

My Hex
My hex I cast my terms spellbinding through your head made you disoriented. Obtained your heart and fiddled with it as I wished. Displayed to you my husk and caused you to thirst for me. Stroked your skin while you hibernated and infested your mind. I played my hex within and fashioned you mine. You desire me for the blaze- I bloomed over your skin. You hunger for me because of the hex I installed on your body to embrace me. I caused you to hunger at night to cleave me close to your side. Conceived hope inside your heart to frame a future around your illusions. My hex frolics within and you are a puppet– on the string.

My Heart.......
By: ALLEN.. (my heart smiles with thoughts of u) In my heart, I hold your love close, It's your love that I need the most. I sit here as I watch the sunrise In the morning dew, I see the tip of it looking like a flame, As I'm feeling this burning love for you. I sit here alone with all my thoughts of you, Watching the sunlght begin to fill the room. Thinking of our future, And all the things that we will do, You holding me in your arms, Your heart beating against mine, As we get lost in time. As I dream of that distant place, Where you will always be mine. In my heart you will always be, The one, the only one for me! I don't look forward going through the day, Knowing you're not here with me. Thinking of the endless hours, And the days dragging by. Why does it have to be this way? I have a wish for you and me, And I hope that the good Lord grants it, For you see, I wish that you would bring your love to me. In my heart, You will never leave, So I don't h

My Heaven, My Hell
the darkness inside burns out the light drowns out the feeling that i just might live in peace the endless hole gets deeper and deeper darker and darker i try to clime out with now success im trapt in the dark were i am know im stuck in the pit that i call home this endless pit causes endless pain fighting back tears to just move on one more step one inch closer every time i see the light the darkness returns covers my soul like a dime grave yard dead bodys surround me the same for years hatefull feelings starting to surface the light is dieing faster each day if i dont escape soon it will conmume me swallow me whole like a peice of meat create a bein as evil as death end the life of just another man souless and painless killing each day tricking others into the path im on showing false hope and fake emotion laughing at how they connect with me while im feeling nothen hurting those as i once was this is my peace this is my hell wa

My Heart
I TELL MYSELF NOT TO CALL YOU UP BUT I LONG TO HEAR YOUR VOICE SO MUCH I'VE TRIED TO FIND THE STRENGTH AND WILL BUT I FIND MYSELF WANTING YOU STILL LATE AT NIGHT LYING IN BED THE FEELINGS IN MY HEART FIGHT WITH MY HEAD THEY SAY IN TIME I'LL FIND SOMEONE NEW BUT ALL I DO IS DREAM OF YOU MY PAIN FADES WITH YOUR TOUCH AND KISS IT'S THAT AND ALOT OF THINGS I'LL TRULY MISS YOU'LL BE WITH ME IN EVERYTHING I DO IT'S ALL BECAUSE I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU

My Heart Is Crying Out
Crying in my head Crying In my bed Crying I get my pillow wet Crying and you dont care I bet My heart is in pain My heart says theres nothing to gain My heart begins to pound My heart has no sound My mind begins to reel My mind says this isnt how you feel My mind wants to make me believe My mind shows me there is no relief Looking at the bedroom wall Looking at myself, at it all Looking around I begin to see Looking at something I knew couldnt be Telling myself I know it was a trap Telling I cant take anymore crap Telling you about how I feel Telling me you dont believe Im for real Im soon to be dead dont you see Im crying out for you to save me Im feeling my last breath slip away Im watching you as you cry and say I love you in every way I am dead by the end of the day I know you will go and be happy I know this is how you wanted it to be

My Heart
I place in your hands my very being, I close my eyes and without seeing, I give to you, my heart. As you wrap me in the warmth of your love, I shall never place another above, I give to you, my heart. With all the knowledge I have within my soul, I know tis you who will make me feel whole, I give to you, my heart. With all that I feel for you, trust, faith and surrender, It is within your power, you bring about this feeling of splendor, I give to you, my heart. For over the years it has been told, stories of love lost and hearts left cold. Here I tell you of love found by few, And the joy that is brought to the soul, when love is anew, I give to you, my heart.

My Heart , My Hand
When you are feeling lost and all alone; as though your world is falling apart. I will take you gently by the hand, and hold you safely with my heart. I will walk with you, hand in hand, in your search for a better tomorrow. And give you all I have within my heart, to chase away your tears of sorrow. I will not let go, but hold you close, so we can find the strength of two. No matter where your journey takes us, together, we will make it through. My heart will be your shining light, as it disperses the darkness with my love. And my hand will hold you in a prayer, found in our faith, with the Lord above. I will give to you my heart, my hand, whenever life fills you with despair. For no matter where I find myself, you can always trust me, to be there.

My Heart Tells Me........
What my heart tells me Is that there is no one else on earth Who can make me feel the way you do From the first day that we met You made me forget all my fears And you have shown me that God really does Have one special heart for each of us to find You are the one God has guided me to What my heart tells me Is that I can never love anyone As much as I love and care for you And how my feelings grow stronger each day I can't imagine not being able to hold you I want to share my life with you for the rest of forever You make me the person I have always hoped to be What my heart tells me Is that God has provided me with your loving heart And I will do everything within my power To provide the best for you each and every day Everytime I see you walk into a room My heart never fails to beat faster and stronger This is how I know you are the one for me For the rest of the time the Lord gives me I give you my heart and for you I will do What My Heart Tells Me

My Heart
Be careful with this heart you touch. For it is a fragile one indeed. It can easily be broken, But does not easily mend. For I give you my heart, Out of trust. And I trust you. That you will not break it. For if you touch this heart, You will see. You will see the power it holds. The power to amaze thee. Now I ask you, To be careful with this heart. This heart is fragile indeed.

My Heart
You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You\'re grateful for what you have in life, even if it\'s not perfect. People love you for who you are, don\'t ever change that- it\'s what makes you the great person that you are.Blue93%Pink75%Yellow68%Green29%White21%Red14%Orange14%Black11%Purple11%~What colour is your heart?~created with QuizFarm.com

My Heart Is Breaking ... Does Anyone Care??
so me and timothy broke up after 7 years together ... i am so tried of the bullshit ... i cant take it anymore ... all we do it tear each other part ... even he said that all we have done it the last year is fight ... i am tried of fighting ... but why does it hurt so bad ... why am i am the crying and he's not ... can anyone answer my questions ... i know i am going to get over this ... but at this point in my life right now ... i dont see how ... is there anyone in this world ever really happy being single ... or am i just being a girl ... lol ... all my friends that care in ct world ... leave me some love ... please!!

*~my Heart~*
My heart is his my love is his my family is his my joy that he brings me all that he can give me then some....he keeps me strong he keep me here on this wonderfull place i call my cloud nine with ever motion that is called love with keeping me safe from the people that walk in our path and try to hurt us and all i do for him is the same...HIs heart is mine ...His love is all mine his life is with me.. we carrie each moment together and love every minute of it ...All thats well is a wonderful life i cant wait till things that get to a better place withy smiles hugs kisses and wonderfull nights side by side each other ~*Mandie*~

My Hero
My friend, my mentor, my inspiration to live with what life throws me, my hero is my MOM. She is now gone to heaven but she still lives on in my mind, heart & soul. She had Polio, that hit her as a child but never let it stop her from doing anything that her brothers/sister did, if they climbed a tree she was right there, if they walked a fence, she was right there, at the beach, she was the one that got covered in sand with braces on and when they rode their bikes she was with them on the handle bars. She was not treated special and she was not left out of anything. She did not think as herself as being special but she was a very special woman. She raised 2 children with my dad in the Marines, brave woman, child under 1 arm and a crutch under the other. Nothing never held my mother back. When she was young learning 2 drive, a stick was the only car they had, she drove the car, worked the gas/brake with 1 crutch and her dad worked the shifter, she said it was so fun. The only really ba

My Heart
The blood now flows from deep inside my heart the hand that holds it shall keep us far apart and place my love in a box to stay for years until this heart may love again sans tears. My heart is cracked, so worn by years of pain The fragile monster shall not again be plain Oh, the tears I've cried, the blood I've shed for love The pain I've felt the Hell I've known from above My thought my hopes so dashed so torn, so meek That hate has burned my heart so black and bleak It is my hand that holds this heart so frail I'd rip it from my chest to stop my wail I've loved, I've lost I've cried the tears of white I bleed this white and prepare for coming night In the night I'll stay, in the night so dark I'll lie never to taste a kiss of love I'll sigh but never again shall I cry...

My Heart
Where to start..... well here we go. I keep telling someone that I need space and time and that I want to be alone and yet I feel like even though he tells me he is willing to give me that he is not. The more I tell him that I want to be alone the more he pushes for us to be together. The more he pushes for us to be together the more I seem to push him away. I just wish he would understand that I need time to be alone. To be with me and my son. He tells me that we don't have to do things together all the time, but yet when it comes down to it I feel like we have too. What I don't understand is why he can't just give me this one thing. The saying goes if you love it set it free, if it comes back it was meant to be. Well then he needs to set me free. I don't know how many different ways I can say it. If you love me like you say you do then you will give me this one thing. It is all I am asking for. Please, please do this one thing for me and let me go for now. I know that it will break

My Heart Goes Out
I am in my first year as a Mechanical Engineer at BFIT. This week I was upset to hear what has happened so close to home. I give my heart felt apologies to all the victims and families who have felt this in any way, and to let you all know that all of you are in my prayers and heart, and I am trying to find a way to get a word across to stop school violence..If you have any suggestions please let me know

My Head Hurts
JUST CAUSE MY OPINION DIFFERS FROM URS U BLOCK ME WHAT AN ADULT THING TO DO HAVE U EVER BEEN TO A BAR????????????????????? SHOOT DARTS DRINK BEER SHOOT POOL DON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THNINK THAT'S WHERE I GO . TALK TO PPL NO POULARITY CONTESTS. FIST FIGHT OR TWO THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN DAMNIT QUIT THE FUCKING WHINING

My Heart
My heart by Erik When you talk to me good, my heart feels like a cord of firewood. when you talk to me mean, my heart feels like it left the scene. when you sing a lovely song, my hearts racing more than 500 laps long. when you sing a loatheful rhyme, my heart feels like it ran out of time. whether you talk to me good or you talk to me mean, my heart feels like an out of control machine. whether you sing a lovely song or a loatheful rhyme, my heart feels like it's reached its prime. baby when you're here right by my side, my heart feels like a roller coaster ride. now the end is coming and i know it's near, i hope it never happens cuz that's what i fear.

My Heart
My pain inside... i woke up today tear stains on my pillow i cried myself to sleep again once again i sank so low yesterday was a living hell no one seemed to care no one seemed to notice and it was more than i could bear maybe its for the best that no one sees my pain so i hide behind a smile concealing all my shame i go about my day wishing i was gone again, they dont notice that im barely hanging on i dont dare tell them the truth ...lowering my head that deep down inside me i wish that i was dead

My Heart Ach Poems, U Want 2 Know Me? Read These
"HE DREAMS" Sitting, again, without that which gives him comfort, company, security, faith, feeling, his reason for being. numb 2 the fact that in the void whare love once had a firm hold, there is comtemptment with the outcome of the choices and actions that proceded this moment. minuits, hours, days, time is irrelevant in the solitair of his nights. how long its ben is not the question. how much longer is the only answer that eludes him. haunting his days. with each darkining of the evening leads him 2 an eturnity of wonder. wonder, the feeling that leads 2 countless endevers of self medacation and his indulgance of substances that worsen his chances of a happy furture. even though the realisation of his owne actions are self evidant his alternative is uncompreheandable in his persuit of what matters most. the love of one that is simply unattainable. shadows of memories not yet formed is the only hope

My Heart Is Doing Cartwheels Of Joy
You made me complete with one look in your eyes. You told me of what is to be. You looked in my heart and found nothing but love. You allowed me to become a daddy :). Nothing can touch what I feel right now. Im addicted to you and our love. Regardless of what has become of my past. I can now look at something above. Something that means the world to me after losing the world I once had. You are my life and I love you to death. Thank you for letting me become a dad. I love you with every ounce of my soul, my heart, my life. Theres just no way I could not let you in so yes, I would love you as my wife. 7 and a half more months and then the light will shine. Everything is coming together. Im so thankful you are mine.

My Heart Belongs To?????????
My feelings for you seem to have no boundaries or secrets. It's in my essence, devouring the fiber of my being and is devoted to you alone. My feelings for you reaches far and wide and travels through the four corners of the earth and far beyond what the mind can understand My feelings for you is a journey of the highest mountain tops, the most beautiful gardens, the deep seas, the bluest lakes, rivers and streams. My feelings for you consumes my heart. u make me feel like i can soars beyond the edge of the world, up into the sky, through the clouds, past the sun, the stars, the and heavens, just so i can searching for you, my feelings, it is hard to even begin tell you how much I care. My feelings for you is the totality of all existing things. My feelings my love for u is unstopable, unexsplainable, and wonderful.. the sound of ur voice sinks my heart in a ocean of love and passion. it remains in the center of my heart, if fact my whole heart...

My Heart
The falling rain a heart in pain the dark of night no more light Will I ever be free to just be me to fall in love or see the stars above Is it too late to find my soulmate I thought all was good I definitely misunderstood The tears pour out what is love about I thought I knew but I know it's not true How I wish you could see what it's done to me I have been through hell not all is well So if you still care please do share and give me a sign that you are still mine

My Heart Grieves For You
My heart grieves for your lost love, My heart grieves for your smile, My heart grieves for your delicate touch, My heart grieves for the compassionate side of you, My heart grieves for the thoughtfulness you put into my life, My heart grieves for the emptiness I feel since you been gone. My heart grieves for the need you felt to give me pain, My heart grieves for the humility you chose to put me thru, My heart grieves that I can’t show you how much you are worth, My heart grieves for the darkness that is in you, My heart grieves for the vicious nature you tend to show often, My heart grieves for the deception you have dealt, My heart grieves for the other side of you that I can’t live with. My heart grieves for our lost love, My heart grieves for YOU. Written by Paulette ~09-04-2006~

My Heart Aches
I cant believe the person I have become.So cold on the inside and not very warm on the outside.Its hard to believe that the loss of one love can do so much damage.I hate the person I have become,but yet these past 5 years havent mended the break in my heart.I push on everyday and yet those memories find a way to intrude in my life.How long does one ache for the love that they once had?? One more day and yet the pain is still thier.What must I do to forget and let myself heal??

My Hero's
I have several hero's that I am very proud of. First is our Military. They are what keep our country free. I am very patriotic and I always will be. Thank you to our military troops here at home waiting to be deployed and a very big thanks to our troops that are in Afghanistan, Iraq, Iran and every place else. I love you all. Then there's the military wives and their families. These are the ones who put up with alot when our men and women come home. They hear all about what our troops have seen. We military wives have to stick together and help each other get through the really bad times.I love you too and I pray for your husbands, brother's, sister's, daughter's son's, uncle's and aunt's and all the relatives who have troops fighting overseas. Next comes our firefighter's. They have the most dangerous job back here at home. They work hard at training and they even try to teach kids not to play with matches or anything else that would start a fire and to only call 911 in an emergen

My Heart
Longing for the day your mine, I think true love is something I will never find, I always long for the day our eyes meet, That would be my hearts only defeat, I wish you were there to wipe my tears, Tell me everythings ok when I tell you my fears, Your touch I want to feel, Your the only one that can make my wounds heal!!!

My Heart Prayers
i wanted to share this beautiful prayer i just love Dear Jesus, Most of us always desire , a perfect life. Yet , you do not grant a perfect life. What You give instead is a perfect heart in the midst of an imperfect life/ teach me to cheerful.hopeful smiling amidst of imperfectionand to enjoy Your wondrous blessing every moment in time.. Teach me Lord to have the sernity to accept thing that i cant Change.the courage to do what i cant do and the wisdom to know whats the difference. Amen. I never expected life will be a bed of roses,, im just a 21 year old girl who stil struggling in this big big big world..Life is not easy there will be ups and down but what can i wish for or should complain for , when i have beautiful people around me..people who cares and people who love, you know who you are..i thank you all..my Prayers will always be with you.. ahmm Jeff, I thank you for giving me the strenght to carry on and thank you for making things easy for me

My Heathen
Fire My Words I'd like to introduce to you my Joey. He has to be the sweetest guy I have ever met. He's kind and gentle, caring and understanding, and he spoils me rotten. Joe has an awesome sense of humor and keeps me laughing all the time. Joe puts up with my silliness, and joins in most of the time. He also is willing to go out in public with me, Andrew and one of the Juniors, at the risk of being embarrassed and kicked out of wherever we go! Joe is so good with Andrew, which means the world to me. I can't think of anything negative about him. He's a wonderful human being and I'm so glad we found each other. Love ya, Sweety! *hugs and kisses*

My Heart
Big heart big rip Trying to let it go but it keeps its grip Slowly fading at night in my dreams Things are never what they seem Keep going day by day Giving up on what games we play It is what we are it is where we have been Life keeps going in the end Why stop to be so broken it aint worth the ache My heart broken piece by piece every time but never stops for my sake I will be there for anyone all over again That's just me I will never bend So eff u all who say your heart is a piece of stone I have more love in my heart than some have ever known Finding someone to give it to is my dream Now to just make it a reality

My Heart Wont Stop Breaking
the thing is when vic i knew that i was in love with him and one day i would love me, but little did i know just how deeply that love would grow to be! it is so fucking hard to describe in words how badly my heart hurts each and every time that i wake up and realize that hey man victor's gone. i know this may all seem very wrong to some you who read this because i am currently in a relationship but i cant help how i feel about vic and it might sound wierd but i love ci and they have nothing to do with each other i mean i love ci TOTALY but vic will always be a huge part me!any ways back to the subject..... i wish i had a way to tell victor how it feels to have been left completely alone without ever hearing good bye how my heart breaks every single time i hear his friends or some random person just happens to bring him up and say his name telling a story to tell him that so many days i feel like i'm empty that it hurts or how sometimes i wake up crying out his name my face soaked with

My Heart Is Missing You
Today I feel so alone I woke up with an empty bed Your voice on the other end of the phone Your words and love filling my heart & head I ache for your touch I want to feel the warmth of your skin My loving heart is missing you so very much I cannot wait to feel my arms holding you tight again Our lips finding the others Our hands caressing the others flesh The heat building between intense lovers Clothes coming off, as our wild hearts mesh Our love running free The ache being chased from my heart Intense pleasure and passion, just you and me All night, kissing and touching, can’t tear ourselves apart Hot, full body rub My hands upon your skin My hand in yours, off to the tub The heat, the aroma, as we kiss and touch again Hot skin on cool sheet Our wild kisses and intense touch We are like this each time that we meet The love, the passion, the fire, it will never be too much I crave all we give My heart is missing you The pleasure and passion, how

My Hero Is
Rocky Dennis.Ive loved him since i was about 10 or so and i always will.If u dont kno who he is read his poem and go google him! ~R.I.P~ These things are good ice cream and cake, a ride on a harley, seeing monkeys in the trees, the rain on my tongue, and the sun shining on my face. These things are a drag: dust in my hair, holes in my shoes, no money in my pocket, and the sun, shining on my face. -Rocky Dennis 1964-1980

My Heart Has Mended And Pain Is Forever Gone.
My phone died last night But this Shocked the hell out of me. I'm trying so hard not to cry... Cause i need to be strong.. Iceblueeyez, (My Boyfreind) Got into a car-accident, His Mustang is totaled, and He's in pretty bad shape. I Promised I would not cry and I would be strong, and everything will be okay. My heart shuttered of that frighting Shock. Like this nightmare would end... But It wasn't a nightmare it was real. I will be strong and I will never forget that He told me " I love you..." and i said it back.. My heart runs of Happieness and I will always remember he Says You are beautiful Rogue, My accent drives him wild. But I finally snaped out of My daze. I Love Lee and nothing is ever going to change that. Rogue

My Heart Is Shattered
my baby was taken from me not to long ago by her father.he told me id never see her ever again!i dont know what to do!we all worry about these things when we become a parent!i just am going out of my mind with worry!!!!!!!!!!!!!someone pklease help me get out of this hell!!!!she'ss 22 months old has brown hair and black eyes, please someone help me find my babY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Head Game Part 1 & 2
I PUSH U UP AGAINST THE WALL, REMOVE YA CLOTHES, GET DOWN MOUTH LEVEL, WITH THAT BIG OLE POLE, KISSING ON THE HEAD, LICKING DOWN THE LENGTH, TEASING THE BALLS, LICKING BACK UP, NOW TAKING THE FULL LENGTH, AS FAR AS I CAN IN MY MOUTH, MMMMMMM U TASTE SO GOOD, I HEAR U LET OUT A SOFT MOAN, I START WORKING ON THAT DICK, LICK ITS THE LAST THING I WILL EVA HAVE IN MY MOUTH, U GOT THIS BYTCH GAGGING ON THAT DICK, THATS IT HOLD ME HEAD, N FUCK MY MOUTH, SPIT JUST DRIPPIN, I KNOW HOW TO GIVE THAT SLOPPY SHIT RIGHT, FUCK THIS U RELAX N LET ME HANDLE THE REST, GOING AS FAR AS I CAN AGAIN, NOT EVEN COMING ALL THE WAY BACK UP, U TRY TO GRIND BACK IN MY MOUTH, I DON'T LET U, NOW I COME UP TO THE HEAD, GIVEN U SOME OF MY TONGUE PLAY, SUCKING THAT HEAD WIT MY WET TIGHT MOUTH, U LOOK DOWN AT ME N SAY SUCK THAT DICK BYTCH, SUCKING U FASTER, WIT MY MOUTH NICE N TIGHT AROUND IT, U DOWN IN MY THOART, FEEL THAT HEAD GET BIGGER, I KNOW U READY TO LET GO, SO I MOVE BACK TO TH

My Head
Last night was another late one... OMG, so much fun. At the end of the night it came down to just me and Jody. We had fun, went to another bar, played some pool, drank a beer (yuck) and went back to the club with the intention of dancing some. But that didn't work out so we just talked to the bar tender and went home, not together, she doesn't want to get involved with anyone before she ships off to basic training. I could see us together too that is what sucks, we have so much fun when were together...Why is that always the case? You find someone, it's all there and it goes nowhere??? Anyway, I made it home, stripped and passed out... Woke up, showered and all that and then came to work. I thought that I would be busier than I am, so I guess that is a good thing.. That is about all I have for this one... Have a great day! Ciao!

My Heart Believes In You
My Heart Believes In You I kept my head up high, and then you came my way. I have been hurt so many times. My heart filled with so much pain. but now that pain has gone away. For I have found a place I want to be. This place I see is with thee. For in your arms I have felt and seen, a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe. A safe haven in your arms just for me. Now I give my heart to thee. For my heart believes in you

My Heart
I can't believe this is happening, You were always just so strong, You never turned your back on us, Even though sometimes, We were wrong, You always helped in any way that you could, And you always had something to say, But now God has called you home, Knowing your at rest makes it ok, You havre endured alot in your life, And made alot of friends along the way, Your heart was pure as gold tata, And so for you to God i pray, Dear lord, please take care of my tata, Help him to rest and hurt no more, Cause we want him to earn his angels wings, Thank you for letting walk through your door, We thank you tata, For your presence in our lives, We know you'll be smiling down on us, From the kingdome of heavely skies, So now i want to end this, With an I love you and welcome home, So go in peace and may god bless you, God has happily welcomed you home,,, Written by: Azalia On: Jan 10th, 1992

My Head Is Swimming!
Wow! That's all I can say. I'm so pleased with the progress my dear sub llw is making. Last night I was in a funk and had errands to run after work. My dearest one racked her brain in an effort to figure out how we could get things done and how she could please me while we did so. She has been making strides to become more comfortable embracing this new lifestyle, and since we had to go out in public, she asked if it would please me if she ventured out of the house plugged and clamped. I smiled and told her it definitely would. We lubed her up well and inserted a butt plug deep inside her. A crotchrope kept the plug secure while providing her with some delicious friction in her naughty parts. I tightly clamped her nipples, making sure to shorten the chain so they were not simply clamped, but pulled as well. We then dressed her and headed out. She kept her arms behind her for the duration of our shopping trip. I led her with a hand on her shoulder, directing her on

My Hero......i Will Miss You!!!!
When i got a myspace like four years ago, i dint know who or what to put down as hero or hero's. Well in a rescent passing i have determined that i have been missing someone from that list for a long time. My Nan-Nan. She passed away exactly 24 hours ago to this minute, with her two children, and her two oldest and closest grandkids by her side. After a very short fight with cancer. I have never ever lost a family member before, so i have all these new emotions going through my head, i am having trouble venting so i hope this blog helps......... Nan-Nan Wherever you may be right now, i just want to let you know that i love you with all my heart. You are responsible for so much in my life.I am following my fathers footsteps,but you have helped through every problem along the way. I just want to let you know that i am thankful for everything that you have done for myself and this family through your life. Thank you for the vacations every summer to Stone Harbor, our favorite place on sun

My Head
my head feels like its about to explode i have a million mile a minute thoughts running through my head is the one ever coming back will the other hate me if i date or chill with this person does this person only want to chill with me cause it might miss some one else off do i only want to hang with them because it might piss some one off and you know what i don't have any answers except that i want it to all stop i want to stop feeling this way i want to have good faith in people that they like me for me not for what they can get from me but that left and i'm having a hell of a time letting it back in trust is a terrible thing to have broken because it takes forever to feel comfortable with giving it out again

"my Heart Wants To Know"
"My Heart Wants To Know" I would like to know what is on your mind the last five minutes before you fall asleep. and which words you overuse when you're pissed. i want to know what your voice sounds like when you stutter.. and how your face crinkles up when you cry i wanna know what made you lose trust. and why you're trusting me** what your favorite shirt looks like and who sings your favorite song how many houses have you lived in growing up and who was your favorite uncle? what's your deepest secret.. and what makes your skin crawl. do you believe in "happy-ever-afters" and if so..what's your's? is there anything that makes you elated? and how many words will it take? do you prefer your mother or your father (mother??) and what will you name your children? are you afraid of heights.. and what's your biggest dream? how many colors are your favorites? and can you speak another language? do you believe in FATE? and are you honest all the t

My Heart
UNINHIBITED The rain beats on the window pane As if it demands to come in. The fire crackles and sizzles As if alive It's radiating glow highlights the Tiny beads of sweat on our bodies As we continue to gently escape into our Glorious moment of passion. My heart jumping with every touch. My body shuddering with every gentle Erotic thrust from your loins. Craving more, to have you inside Of me for the rest of our lives. Feeling this day and night would be A dream come true. Don't stop, don't stop Just keep loving me as you are Right now UNINHIBITED

My Heart To Rest
When you leave, lay my heart to rest I love only you, all else would be but a guest I had your life, but only for a short while In just a few short months the spirits will take your smile Leaving me with memories to hold for life They must have another plan for you on the other side I promised you id go on living, I promised to succeed He is waiting to care for and love only me "Im leaving you in good hands", is what you say But my love will follow you to heavens gate Ill try to move on, Ill promise to give my best But when you leave, they also lay my heart to rest

My Heart Stays With You
You know, sometimes being on the road is rough Especially loneliness..... Girl I miss you And it's only been one day Since I went away And already I say I long to kiss you And hold you in my arms The nights are much too long when you're gone Baby, that's why Wherever I go Girl, my heart stays with you After every tour I wanna rush over to you My heart stays with you Trust me, when we are apart I won't break your heart Wherever you are I know you feel me Baby, 'cause I can feel you too No matter what you do I think of you Girl, my heart stays with you After every show I wanna rush over to you Baby, yeah When I'm leaving town Girl it hurts me too But I've got a job to do I'll be back around To feel your sweet face Your dear embrace No one can take your place I want you to nooooooooo, where I go, Where ever I go, my heart stays with you... Written by Slim Shady The Poet

My Hear Feels Torn In Two !
My heart is torn in two I wounder where do i go from here for all i wanna see never seems to be right in front of me . I tried to close my eyes and seek the truth that this world may bring my answers never heard or spoken my the goddess lead me on the right path towards my one true and un dying love !!!!!!

My Heart Is Black
My heart is cold, broken and black I have only one that i can blame This name i shall not give unto you For the things you did to me I've been hurt before but never like this My heart is cold My heart is broken My heart is black I scream out profanties at you You act as you hear not a word Evil and mean you have become I refuse to speak you name The one who has damned me My heart is cold My heart is broken My heart is black I longer can look you in the eyes So i shall not step into a mirrors view I am the only one to blame ME.....Myself.....and....."I" I made my heart Black

My Heart Cries For You
My Heart Cries For You I silently gazed out my window as daylight faded into darkness, and still, I thought of you. I envisioned images of you gazing in the distance while slowly tears ran down my cheeks, my body could no longer contain, the multitude of emotions flowing in and out of me. "Please don't cry" U uttered into the wind No matter, the many miles between us our hearts will be together again, this U promised Me.

My Heart Returned
I was walking along the beach one day without even really knowing how I reached this place. I had so much on my mind, but only one thing in my heart. You. The sun was out that day, I remember because I had been thinking it would have been more fitting if it were cold and gray and gloomy because if would have matched what I was feeling. I mean, how dare Nature be so bright and wonderful, when true life isn't? I was walking along, barefoot, my shoes hanging from my finger tips. Usually the beach is my favorite place to go, to explore, find new agates, pretty sea shells, and watch the kids play in the surf. Today, somehow my mind knew my heart and I ended up alone on a beach with no shells, no agates and luckily no one else either. The only noise was the relentless pounding of the surf, crashing madly against rocks in a white seafoam of energy. And of course the lonely cries of the seagulls over head. Today though, they brought me no peace. Maybe I ended up at this deserted beach,

My Head
i feel off and real wierd today. i cant think straight and im having bad headaches. throbbing in my neck and this empty feeling. i dont remember when i fell or where i hit besides my head...is that normal? i couldnt talk right after it happened and i was in a daze. my shoulder feels out of place too. oh well though right? screw it! whatever happens happens. i dont care anymore. so yeah, whatever. for those of u that do care lol haha i might update when i come back from the hospital, if i decide to ever get back on here. hahaha

My Heart Is Missing You
My Heart is Missing You!!! When you are gone I feel so alone I miss you dear when you are not here You make my day Like when the sun shines in May I need to see your smile and I wish I could see it more then just once in a while You are such delight and add joy to my nights I want you to know what you mean to me and oh.. I hope that you can see My heart is missing you and I wonder... do you miss me to? I hope that you do because I know I miss you!! I always hope you are ok, and nothing is wrong When will I see you again.. oh I hope it won't be long! I need to know that you care and that no matter what you will always be there Remember this is for you, my friend and to you I will send So keep it close to you heart and if you do, we will never part. My heart is missing you!!

My Heart Is Like A Symphony!
My heart is like a symphony That sings of only pain. Of all that makes a life worthwhile, Only you remain. Only in the thought of you Safe and cared for well Can I find happiness within My self-inflicted hell. Only in my love for you Is there sufficient grace For me to want to live at all In this forsaken place. Ah, God! Were life not beautiful And love not full of light, I could, perhaps, embrace the rage Of an embittered night. But as it is, I cannot help But hope for what might be: That though I gave you up, you might Someday, somehow love me.

My Heart
DARK, I AM DARK, I SEE DARK ALL AROUND I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT, I KNOW THE LIGHT AND I WANT TO FEEL THE LIGHT AGAIN HELP ME! SAVE ME! RELEASE ME! BRING ME BACK TO THE LIFE I KNOW IS GOOD I ONCE WAS STRONG, STRONG AS I WAS, I AM WEAK HELP ME! SAVE ME! RELEASE ME! TAKE MY HAND, LEAD ME HOME HELP ME! I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE, YOU ARE THE KEY I AM INCOMPLETE, ONLY YOU CAN COMPLETE ME HELP ME! SAVE ME! RELEASE ME! SEE MY HEART, FEEL THE WARMTH, KNOW MY HEART I WANT TO GIVE IT TO YOU, IT'S YOURS KNOW ME, I WANT TO KNOW YOU, BE WITH ME ALWAYS HELP ME! SAVE ME! RELASE ME! YOU COMPLETE ME YOU, AND ONLY YOU

My Heart
I gave my heart to one i know, or at least i thought i knew. He left for a while, but I kept him in my heart. He returned to me just to leave me. My heart hurt, but odly enough not a whole lot. For I knew I was not alone, I still had others who loved me. I went to a friend fo find comfort. I found it, plus more. He has mended my heart and in return gained it and my trust. With him I am happy for it is impossible for me to stay sad around him. He makes me laugh to much. He.... is the real, *~Jett Darknight~*

My Hell
The Hell from which I was saved from I have been unwillingly returned to. I hate it here, I've been here for almost my entire life that has come to pass. But I cannot leave, the rest of my life depends on my suffering. Even though it was unbearable before it is excruciatingly worse now. This is because in the past I have had a time where I would have most of my friends with me, this is not the case anymore. I still have the time, but I don't have any of my friends. I think about the future and realize that I'm stuck in this Hill of mine for over a year. This is because next year everyone is leaving me. All of last years seniors have left. Which means half of my friends, my boyfriend, and many other people who I get along with and have known for many years. I only have a few actual friends with me next year. Even then, I don't have any of them in any of my classes. So I'll be completely alone, all day. For those of you who have no idea about what thi

My Heart
i give to you my heart though some would seek to tear it apart i seem not to know what to do how can i tell if you are true should i build me a wall only to have it fall dont want to hurt dont want to fill like dirt if i am to stay what should i say how do i know what you think if i stand on the brink sould i jump and take that chance and follow my heart or lisen to my fear dont know what to do so i just stand here and drink my beer

My Heart Is Lost To Him
So It has been four days since my heart left me. The wierd part is it feels like the person I love hasn't left me. I feel like he is with me every minuate of the day. I am sadden that he is not with me here in this state but I know it is apart of life. And if it is God's will we will meet again. But I will never forget him because he was and is always there for me. I love him endlessly. And he knows this. He has made me feel whole again. And every moment I shared with him was perfect. Even if it was Love Hate! I am simply in love with him and my heart is with him.

My Hero!!!
Hello all you wonderful cherries. Normaly I am all about fun and good times on CT but today I want to tell you a little story about my hero and what he did to day. This afternoon I came home to my husband on the phone with his travel agent which to me usualy means he is off to do sum buisness for a day or two. After he got off the phone he told me that he had purchased two tickets for our freinds wife and son to fly out here they are going to spend a few days with there family out here, and on sunday they will be cumming to our house where my husband has made arrangements for them to video chat with him. then he went out this afternoon and purchased a new pc for her to take home with her so she can get online and talk to him from home more often. Now I have allways known my husband has a huge heart but I have to admitt today he evan suprised me and all he could say about it this eavening is he wishes he could do the same for every family that is going through simaler cercumstances. T

My Hero's
there are people in my life who i cannot live without. One would be my mother though she and I do not get along at times, she is always there to comfort me at times of sorrow. My second hero is my brother Justin he is my bestfriend If I wouldn't have had a bro like him well then there is no sense living. Justin and I hangout alot and currently i am missin him cause he is away on business. My third hero is my other brother jason he is in the Navy and I think you very well know why he is my hero. My fourth is my best best bestfriend kimmie, she is my twin sister well not really my sister but she might as well be if it were not for her bein my friend then I probably never know just how great she is.

My Heart Is Lost
MY HEART IS IN TEXAS AND I GOT TO GET IT BACK..ITS GOING TO BE BROKEN IF I DONT DO IT FAST. MY BABY IS GOT A FRIEND WHO I CANT STAND AT ALL SHE GOT TO HER HOUSE TO STAY THE NIGHT YET SHE DONT CARE IF IT ENDS UP IN A FIGHT!SHE IS TRYING TO MOVE IN FAST WHEN THERE AINT NO ROOM AT ALL!!! I FEEL SO LOST, I FEEL ALL ALONE, WHAT DO I DO IF SHE NEVER COMES HOME?

My Heart
My ever bleeding heart still beats only for you. It won't accept the fact that you said we're through. Inside my head I've moved on to other things. But my heart refuses to be free and spread its' wings. You'll always be the one I'm with when I close my eyes. I wish your heart would answer to my hearts' cries. It screams your name and longs for the love you gave. To that love it became a slave. Now I'll have to try and force myself to move on. My heart will continue to be yours even though you're gone.

My Heros
For those who don't know me, I have two special needs children, one with autism, and one with CP. This is for the people that change their lives every day. The people that I really look up to are the ones that look like you and me. They wear regular clothes, and carry no badges, guns, or hoses. They don't make profound speeches, and they don't write the laws. They don't run into burning buildings, and they don't chase down crooks. They don't fight for their country, and they may not even salute a flag. They're the folks who have the talent, and have chosen to work with those who have autism, or cp. They sit on the carpet in your home, going over that puzzle, or that one sign, over, and over again. They come in a few times a week. Sometimes more than one. They come armed with books, puzzles, toys, even just some string sometimes. They might bring some play-doh, or maybe just a small plastic brush. Sometimes a great big yoga ball or even a parachute. Sometimes, if you're l

My Heartstrings Come Undone
My Heartstrings Come Undone Demon Hunter It's buried deep with in the past, I hope it doesn't last It's something I already chase, I already chase I try to give it all away, but it's never gonna fade It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face I know you feel it's all the same, But I promise that'll change It's something I already chase, I already chase You know I'm trying to believe that you're never gonna leave It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face There's nothing left! The fear is gone! When my heartstrings come undone I will wait for you, I will pray for you Before I make my final run I will stay with you, decay with you I know I'm not the perfect one, This pain has just begun It's something I already chase, I already chase You bring me to a better path, It's everything I asked It's something I don't wanna face, I don't wanna face There's nothing left! The fear is gone! There's nothing left! The fear is gone! And when my he

My Health
Well in the past I have posted blogs about the illnesses with my mother and mother in law, Well now I guess its my turn. Im my last blogs I wrote about me having fibromylgia syndrome. Well, at that time I was in a mild attack, I could walk with the help of a cane and the pain was not quite unbearable. Since then I have got worse. The pain is excruciating at times. I am now unable to walk. I have to use a wheelchair to get around. It hurts to sit to long but I am not able to move. I have to depend on my kids to bring me what I need and it sux. I try not to be a burden on him, hes only 16, but if i need him hes here in a second. I honestly dont know what I would do without him. I want this to go away so bad, I need it to go away. I wouldnt mind anyone that knows what I'm going through to talk to me, I would love to share with someone that knows. Well, I'm finnished venting for the day. I will post more later

My Heart
a rip in my heart so deep it bleeds pain and fear you refuse to see why say you love only me if you dont why promise forever and always if you wont she's taken my place by your side i am left alone with a heart that dies. written 7-10-07 copyrite raven queen aka alecys drake (my pen name)please do not use without my permission.

My Health
Just wanted to update you guys on my health problems. I have been down for the past week, confined to a wheelchair. I havnt been out of the house for 10 days and barely out of the bed. Well Saturday and Sunday I started getting around better, now walking with a cane and not is as much pain as before. I just hope it last and don't come back. I want to think everyone that kept me in their thoughts and prayers since the last blog. You don't know how much I appriciate that. Loves to you all.

My Hearts Words For You.(my Oath)
You came into my life and my heart began to glow. I was scared how was I supposed to know. We could take each others hearts and make them our own. Our love and desire sprouted so the seed was sown. Caught in a whirlwind that wouldn't slow down. Falling for you has turned my world upside down. Without you I'm lost a ship run aground. My willingness to live would not be found. The days would go past by minute by hour. My heart would wither like pedals on a flower. Wanting you needing you I reach through the air Never wanting to lose you,to lose a love so rare. Whatever in this world that I have to do. I will try to prove myself worthy of you. As I write this your smile comes to my eyes. Hoping with all my heart you'll never say goodbye. our love and desire sprouted

My Heart Believes In You
My Heart Believes In You My Heart Believes In You by Stewart Bradshaw I kept my head up high, and then you came my way. I have been hurt so many times. My heart filled with so much pain. but now that pain has gone away. For I have found a place I want to be. This place I see is with thee. For in your arms I have felt and seen, a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe. A safe haven in your arms just for me. Now I give my heart to thee. For my heart believes in you.

My Hearts Killing Me
You were so sad you made my dogs howl You kept the ring, forgot the vow You were so sick that you almost died You needed help, but nobody tried Will this crime ever go to trial My heart's killing me, my heart's killing me This love won't let me be My heart's killing me It's just you, it's just me My heart's killing me One sad bird, one sad fence I cannot love, I've no defense Staring at two helpless hands And all I want is to hold you again Will this crime ever go to trial My heart's killing me, my heart's killing me This love won't let me be My heart's killing me It's just you, it's just me My heart's killing me

My Heart Of Everything!!!!
Nor the pain and the sorrow caused by my mistakes Won´t repent to a mortal whom is all to blame Now I know I won´t make it There will be a time we´ll get back our freedom They can´t break what´s inside I´ll face it cause it´s the heart of everything Open up your eyes Save yourself from fading away now, don´t let it go Open up your eyes See what you´ve become, don´t sacrifice It´s truly the heart of everything Stay with me now I´m facing my last solemn hour Very soon I´ll embrace you on the other side Hear the crowd in the distance, screaming out my faith Now their voices are fading, I can feel no more pain I´ll face it cause it´s the heart of everything Open up your eyes Save yourself from fading away now, don´t let it go Open up your eyes See what you´ve become, don´t sacrifice It´s truly the heart of everything Open up your eyes Open up your eyes Open up your eyes Save yourself from fading away now, don´t let it go Open up your eyes See what yo

My Heartsong
What is this I'm feeling? From oh so far away That has captured my heart In an oh so subtle way. I have never felt it Quite this way before So quietly soothing My emotional core. Something it's different Somehow I know What I am feeling Is starting to show. Passionate stirrings From deep down inside Feelings I've longed for No longer can hide. Where can I run to? Oh where can I hide? Nowhere my dear Lord I've already tried. The wall I had built Is crumbling fast Real or imagined How long can it last? Come be my heart song Let two beat as one Our hearts together Will rise like the sun.

My Heart Has Been Ripped Out And Shattered!
Oh My God. My insides are hurting, this pain is unbearable. The girl I have been talking to recently has shot down all my hopes and dreams of finding true happiness. No matter what anyone would say she was perfect for me. Her personality and main big interests matched me so well I was thinking I found the one. I still believe that. I don't think I honestly will find one exactly like her and I've talked to lots. This one captured and interested me like no other has. Funny how we was planning on meeting, even when we talked earlier today she said yes that the plans were still on. Then her phone mysteriously is turned off! Not just off, but really off! Says the number has been changed, disconnected, or out of service! WTF? After everything we have talked about and said to each other. I feel like I was played and lead on. Just to torment me and kill my hopes and plans. So many wonderful things said between us and now what? I had a ton of wonderful fun things for us to do together around to

My Headline
Alot of people keep asking about my headline, and my previous headlines. If you would actually take the time to read my profile you would clearly understand! My music section explains it all!!! Yes there are days that I change it and my profile really doesn't explain what i'm talking about fine that's understandable. I just don't understand why it's so hard to actualy read someones page before you talk to them. I always take the time to read your pages before I try to talk to you!! I'm constantly getting messages saying crap like "i would really love to learn more about you" well something like that kinda makes me think that you read it or attempted to! But then you go and ask me where I work! And all I do is tell you to read my page and then you get pissed! Oh and the one I love is when you ask me what I look for in a guy when my page clearly states that i'm only looking for friends!! Now don't get me wrong...i've meet some kick ass people on here that have actually taken the time to

My Heart
This is what I want. I want you to love me an hold me tell you care. Show that through the tough times u will always be there. Let me care for u at all times . Show me that your happy to be mine. Love me with all your heart hold me close so we don’t ever part. I want a lover a friend and more maybe you be all this over time. I want a family so true that doesn’t give up when things get blue I want you to hold me when I cry an kiss me good night. I want to look in your eyes an make love to you all night. I want us to forget our past and move on with our future. I don’t want you to walk away cause you don’t have the money to stay. Money is nothing more then an deadly sin that likes to tear the love from with in. I am not one who thinks money makes the world go round in fact I think it more brings it down ... Yes money may buy you all your material things but life with out love is a tragic thing. So I will stay living following my heart ,cause life with love is much m

My Heart Is Wriping Open
My heart has been cut, sliced, pulled, and wriped out of my body.. An just when i feel things will be ok.. I find out that my very very best friend.. Is living in hell again.. Yes the word there is AGAIN. Its not even been a year.. An here he is again fighting to live.. A year ago he found out he had a brain tomur on the left side.. He had a 50/50 changes.. They took it out.. An he went in to a coma for about 2 weeks..DEING Now its been a year.. His life has changed.. People say i need good men in my life.. Well he is one.. One of the best men that i could have as a friend.. A loving dad, friend, and a great cop.. Every one loves this man.. has a wonderful life.. A great job and a wonderful son.. Just got his divorce from the bitch from hell.. OMG i HATE HER.. Any ways.. The thing is.. It happened again.. But this time.. It was a 85% chance for him to live.. Today he went under again.. i really didnt tell any one cause its so sad.. Last time this happened.. I stoped talking, eating, dr

My Heavenly Father I Pray Now>>for In The Ones Who Are In Darkness In This World
Oh Heavenly Father I come to thee now in prayer for guidence and your help and strenght too. My heart is very sensitive and I do need Thy strenght and love.; Keep me , my vision where Ill see and do what im suppose to do..Help me oh LOrd not to hate thy enimies ; For they to have a say , wether it be right or it be wrong too ; Help me not to judge them or hate them,; Just help me to show love to all even if Im not shown love back.; .help me to listen , hear and understand their point of views ; Help them oh Lord to see ,help them to hear Thy points of views( thy word of Truth Oh Lord Not my words) and to come to know thy word as the only Words needed in ones soul and You oh Lord as Thy Saviour.. I also prAy theiR eyes be open and they see the light before all is to late to see. I pray that their souls and minds and bodies be guided toward You oh Lord and your light. and they be not lost or lied to by Satan any more I thy servant ask this inthy name heavenly father . Amen.. diana

My Heart
I am a liveing thing! , Why do you hurt me ? I have feelings. , Why do you tell me that ? I am here for you. , And not only you ? Do you know i am alive! , Why do you hurt me ? Do you care i have feelings! , Why do you tell me that ? Do you know i am here for you! , And not only you ? I am alive. Even if you hurt me. I have feelings , so dont tell me that! I am here for you. Are you here for me too ?

My Hero My Daddy!!!
hERES A POEM I WROTE IN HONOR OF MY SONS DAD AND FOR MY SON!!! My daddys hands hold me really tight He squeezes me and tells me it will be all right. My daddy puts me down and holds my little hand My daddy says softly in my ear while im gone your the man. My daddy stands tall, taller then mommy and me My mommy loves him and everyone can see. My daddy lets my hand go and wraps them round my mommy. He loves my mommy he told me so and hesays she pretty to. He holds her close as she cries and whipes her tears away. My mommy cries and sqeezes my daddy begging him to stay. My mommy in her jeans and tee my daddys in his army greens My daddy leaves today he was given a mission to keep us all free. My daddys like superman hes strong and brave. My daddy heads to the plane as he turns and waves. My daddy waves till i cant see him no more. my mommy holding me while her tears fall to the floor. Daddy is our hero hes a soldier brave and true. My daddy never ma

My Heart Is In California
With a tear in my eye And not a cloud in the sky I watched you leave I watched you grieve You gave me a wink And said everything will be all right You gave a warm embrace A feeling I’ll never replace In my heart I know you’ll return In My mind lay no concern ‘Cause I know you’re here But…My heart is in California You lay in the summer Sun You say “Wow, I’m having so much fun” You roam the streets of LA You say “Oh my, what a day” I lay alone in our cold bed All I think is… “My Heart is in California” Praying for the day you arrive Hoping that I’ll survive Wishing I could kiss you Wishing I could touch you With the fear of loss I reach for empty air In my mind I see your smile A sight I won’t see for a long while Your shimmering green eyes A glimmer of love that could never lie I know you’re here But…My heart is in California You lay in the summer Sun You say “Wow, I’m having so much fun” You roam the streets of LA You say “Oh my, what a day”

My Heart
you are my heart when you lefted i started to die you are what keeps me alive i tired to take my life its funny though even after i survived they say you get a second chance to change but life was still meaning less because my heart was gone i had broke into so many little pieces to sharp to put back togather and too small to matter yet days passed and everything moved forward i stayed still dont know which direction to go i guess i'll stay here alone

My Heart Is Waiting
No matter how far you are or where you are No matter how much space between us My heart can only picture you But I will wait for you with hope in my heart My love still lonely and search for your soul Yes, it is miserable when you are not close to me I am sure my world is better when I am in your arms My love for you is pure, divine and grows sure in me Waiting to feel your gentle touch Waiting to hear your soften voice Waiting to get hugs Waiting to get your deep kisses I can see your smile I can hear your voice I can feel your touch I hold you inside my heart I find all my happiness in loving you No matter when or how soon you will come back But my heart is waiting for you.

My Heart Burns For One Man *&* One Man Only!!!
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My Heart Goes Out To Those In Dean's Way
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't relieved that Dean didn't bare down on us (Houston), but my heart goes out to those that will have endure it. I'll say a little prayer to the sea and the wind, that they may find peace and rest easy again.

My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon
I spent most of last night dragging this lake for the corpses of all my past mistakes sell me out - the joke's on you we are salt - you are the wound empty another bottle and let me tear you to pieces this is me wishing you into the worst situations I'm the kind of kid that can't let anything go but you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears rather ones that just don't care cause I know that you're in between arms somewhere next to heartbeats where you shouldn't dare sleep Now I'll teach you a lesson for keeping secrets from me Take your taste back peel back your skin and try to forget how it feels inside you should try saying no once in a while oh once in a while And did you hear the news? I could dissect you and gut you on this stage not as eloquent as I may have imagined but it will get the job done (you're done) every line is plotted and designed to leave you standing on your be

My Heart Is Broken......and I Have So Much Rage.
Well did I say love sucks?? I hate love. It can be suck a temporary heartless, ending thing. IT DOES.....BIGTIME. ALREAYD the man I broke up with is persuing another girl.(her name her is sweetlyps4u) (hugh larson "demonstar".) And I feel like I was fucking nothing. I haqte you hal. I hate how much of a heartless fucking asshole jerk and prick you are. I hate that you only seem to feel with you DICK and not with you HEART. And I know that girl you want is just apiece of ass. Yeah shes got a nice pussy to look at. I say all her NSFW pics. I pet you jack off whenever you look at the fucking picture, dont ya?? Well HAVE FUN JERK! YOU HURT HURT ME BEYOND REPAIR AND I HOPE U ARE FUCKING HAPPY. HAL....YOU FUCKING SUCK!!!!! It hurts like hell. Hopefully I will survive. I feel like, I was nothing to hugh. LIke I was just a piece of fucking ass to pass the time. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT HUGH????? I have someone that wants to come back into my life too. He has feelings for me. He loves me, and I lo

My Heart
LOL... walls? Your Heart is Feeling Safe Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way. Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of. You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted

My Heart Cannot Lie!
Even though she is next to me I turn my head the other way Why I vision you and not her I honestly cannot say I've tried to shake the feeling That you are here, not her Even at dawn when she awakes Thoughts of you kissing me occur When I'm alone I'm free Free to dream of you and I Even when she calls me There are thoughts of you I can't deny I told her she was my only one I guess I proved myself wrong Even though she hugs me tight What I feel are YOUR hugs strong! I thought I knew love existed But now it's hopeless to try You are now my only target Because my heart cannot lie!

My Heart Died Without Sound
I watched you walk out of my life. It hit me hard, like the stab of a knife. As you went away, the tears came down. My heart died then without a sound. Depressing thoughts instilled my heart, my soul. They overtook my mind, began to take control. I realize and now I see, your mind and soul are always a part of me. It hasn't been long but I miss you so much. I miss your fingertips, I miss your touch. I pray for God to help me through. I can't help but cry when I think of you. Alone at my house not a soul in the world could feel my pain, nor watch my thoughts uncurl. No one understands my sorrow, can feel my pain, or knows my tomorrow. But I know you're there possibly thinking of me. You'll be back someday, then we can have eternity

My Hell
IF I DIE AND GO TO HELL REAL SOON,IT WILL APPEAR TO ME AS THIS ROOM AND, FOR ETERNITY I'D LAY IN BED IN MY BOXERS HALF STONED WITH A PILLOW UNDER MY HEAD,I'D BE CHATTIN ON THE INTERWEB,MAGGOTS PRAY UPOUN THE LIVING DEAD,I HAD NO INTEREST IN THE THINGS SHE SAID.

My Health
Over that last few months ive noticed some subtle changes in my body. Four weeks ago i weighed 228 lbs. I was a little chunky around the mid section but nothing excessive. Weighed myself today. I weigh 178 lbs. I find myself weak. Things i use to be able to do no problem now require me to use alot of energy. And i feel sore after wards. My vision is getting worse. Im not at the 20/70 in both eyes. Those of you who dont know what the numbers mean if you have perfect vision, how blurry things are for you at 70 feet away. thats how blurry it is for me 20 feet away. I have pains in my chest and get muscle cramps daily. I drink over a gallon of water a day. And today was the worst thing that scared me. I sat on my couch to watch a movie. Half hour into it i wanted some ice water. I stood up took two steps and instantly had my body fall asleep. Like when your leg or arm does but it was all over. I slammed my face into the floor and busted my nose. The part that scared me wa

My Hero
So Saturday my Luvy and myself decided to clear out my closet. It was nice of her to volunteer cause Lord knows I'd still be there. Anyway we're in full swing and cleared a path into it when she goes, "Wait wait! Spider SPIDER!" I looked down and saw this gross brown spider thingie, and I immediately freaked. I started screaming at her to kill it so she grabs my water bottle and I had a total oscar worthy moment. I threw my hands up like I was going to get hit by a train and screamed, "No! Not my water bottle!" Laughing she tossed it onto my bed and grabbed a cain of mine and jabbed at it, missing completely.... and sending it running towards me. Soo... this is what I did. I screamed bloody murder, jumped clearly over box that we had pulled out and did an olympic dive into a pile we had pulled out of the closet. Then I started jumping up and down in place SCREAMING Kill it Kill it! She just looked at me and says... "You know, I'm scared of spiders too, but YO

My Heart In Words (just For You My Special Friend)
How can I turn away my eyes From this face so beautiful Just like the bright and golden sun Enlightening this cold, wide world In which you refuse to see me At times I feel just like a ghost Cause you seem to walk right through me Even though I hold on so desperately I always fail to reach you As if I just wasn't there Though when the sun has set Your eyes suddenly fly to me Their color as dark as night Sparkling like a newborn star And passion burning like the morning sun No word might pass your lips But your hands seam to speak your heart As we lay there, right under the stars You hold me tightly in your arms Just as if you're never letting go Should I ever ask you What kind of game we play You pretend there's nothing to know What do I even expect from you Well, nothing dear, just some honesty Shout out how you love to be so alone Chase me away with your icy words Act as heartless as you want I might even believe every

My Heart Is Yours Forever
Never thought that I would find The one who'd steal my heart Someone who I could give my love Right from the very start It seemed like there was nothing left All hope was gone from me I'd never find that special guy... It wasn't meant to be But then one day, to my surprise Inside my world you came And from that moment, I knew that I'd never be the same I've found who I have longed for And I thank God we're together I love you more each coming day My heart is yours forever

My Hell
As the moon turns Blood red and the Wolf howls her hunger deep in my soul at the edge of the abyss of my psychosis,she parts her jowls to sing her praise to the moon of death.Packmates dispersed as she has been abandoned and continues the journey to nowhere.As the soul and heart reach for their mate they are turned away for Leon and Lynk have gone and taken another.But to be scorned by the very reason I live, the source of all my emotion,my ability to love at all,I am given over to the beast as it is her wont to wreak havoc and destruction upon her own ravaged body.Hear my cries as I rend myself into Oblivion. Raksha Soulraven ©2007

My Heart Has Fallen
Tonight I have felt the pain My heart sinks lower and lower within my chest Tears form from the corner or my eyes My lips sag with nothing but a painful frown I wish to cry till my hearts content, till I feel that the pain is gone My one chance to true love and beauty has been spent Has been ruined due to my stupidness I feel it is my fault, but others try to make it their's Her eyes are no longer looking my way For I failed to tell the truth and now I must pay I feel the pain of my worthlessness I feel the sarrow of her hearts breaking I wish to hold her and tell her how much I am sorry But that shall never happen because of my story Why must it be like this, why must my life treat me like this? I wish to be hers, but I wish to be his I wish to have my freedom once again, but then again, I do not want it I feel broken in half I feel lost in my sarrows To wish and to have is another world Now, what is a broken hearted girl to do? I'm so sorry, my beauty. P

My Heart
My Heart The stones were chizzeled away. The locks were broken. Light and warmth broke through. Piercing the dark and cold, Hidden so deep inside, No one could have seen. Yet you found it. In cold and stone, My heart found a new life. A new meaning. You chased away the frear and pain My heart you gained. In your hands you caressed it. You showed it how to love and live. You brought it to life. Now it set on your shelf. Longing to be caressed and held again. Its growing dark and cold. Scared to be alone. Longing and wanting the light and warmth. Begging for the attention once lavished upon it. Time is not its friend. Soon it will wither away. Never to be brought to life again. Your choice, Will you caress it, give it warmth and light Or will you leave it to set on the shelf To wither away and die?

My Hero
If I died tomorrow I know someone would care and if it was my last day here I knew he'd be there he helped me live it to the fullest and made sure I wouldn't miss a thing he'd made me overcome my fears he helped me achieve my goals and forget my flaws it did'nt matter what i was, an angel was what he saw he dried my tears with his loving smile even if it meant walking walking a thousand miles with accomplishing this all in one day he must be a hero he must be my hero

My Heart
My heart is falling, Knees are shaking, Eyes are wondering, Mind is crawling, Back of the line just like always, No ones cares, My eyes are bawling, Life can bring sadness, joy, or pain, But all i know is that it can stain, Stain your heart and stain your soul, Can change your idea of all you know.

My Heart Bleeds For You
My heart bleeds for you..it is bruised black and blue..your love is what hurt me, worse then any pain i ever felt.. Now youre gone from my life,i had to give up with out a fight. this is what you wanted was to run away,causing me more pain each day.. the sun comes up and the sun goes down,you have me looking like a clown.. i stand here with my heart on my sleeve, you stick a knife in and slowly turn. to see how much i bleed.. my blood is red, my heart is true. come back baby i still love you..... this poem is dedicated to my best friend jen... i wrote it for her.... she will always be my best friend no matter what some say.....

My Heart, My Soul
You have my heart you have my soul... you have my life, you make me whole... without you here i couldn't be who i am... without you here i wouldn't be able to last another day... you came into my life and turned my world upside down... you picked me up when i was down, you turned my frown upside down... i love you so much it's very plain to see that in this life i know you were made for me... the angles have sent you to me from up above, they have given me happiness by sending you... you're all i need in life to get by... you're all i need to survive... please understand that you have my heart... please understand that we can never be apart... you're the glue that holds me together, and without you i will fall to pieces... you have my heart, you have my soul, i beg of you to never leave me out in the cold

My Heaven
My Heaven I look deep in your eyes. I see there what I feel inside. We share something between us, Neither one of us can hide. I feel your lips touch mine, I loose all my control, All it took was a look and a kiss, To know you were part of my soul. I see your hands on my skin, I want and need you to do more, The passionate look you give me, Tells me heaven is in store. I feel your need against my thigh, I know you will fulfill every wish,. We were made to fit together, And all it took was a look and a kiss. I look deep in your eyes, And I see heaven there inside, You make me feel so beautiful, What I feel for you I cannot hide.

My Heartache
Why are you my beloved? Why do I care so much about you, Yet feel like I know so little? What do you have that draws me to your love, Like a moth to the flame? I feel like I know you not, but I know you. I don’t mull over the visible, But I fall for the credible. I've come to terms, it will never work out. I want it to, I desire it to, But it won't. At least not for this moment in time. Your existence lies far away from my own. But I love you. I see you have possible current terms with someone. But I LOVE you. What do I even have that you could possibly desire? What do I possess, That makes me a door and not a window? But both can be opened, By the touch of a hand. But I LOVE YOU! No! I can't take it! I can't breath. Your love, my love is to strong to bear. At first it was a want, Now it is a passion. I need to quit before I dig myself to deep, To ever get out, Because the only other way out, Is by the help of your loving hand. I need to stop, but

My Heart!
Shhh!! Listen; can you hear it beating? The silent, thump, thump, thumping? Sounding like the flapping wings of a dove? That is my heart saying, “I am in love.” Awaken my heart! Meet the man who came along and breathed life into you. Look closely, those eyes can not lie, call out heart – call him to be by your side! Rest easy dear heart your search is over now, your one and only has finally come to town. Dear heart beat quietly – like a distant drum you found the best that could ever come! Sinan is the name of my true heart I hope he will never want to depart. Shhh, listen, there’s not one heart beating – but two that’s the love making sounds coming from me to you! LSR 29 September 2007 2030 hours To my love From Lori

My Heart Tell's Me
What my heart tells me Is that there is no one else on earth Who can make me feel the way you do From the first day that we met You made me forget all my fears And you have shown me that God really does Have one special heart for each of us to find You are the one God has guided me to What my heart tells me Is that I can never love anyone As much as I love and care for you And how my feelings grow stronger each day I can't imagine not being able to hold you I want to share my life with you for the rest of forever You make me the person I have always hoped to be What my heart tells me Is that God has provided me with your loving heart And I will do everything within my power To provide the best for you each and every day Everytime I see you walk into a room My heart never fails to beat faster and stronger This is how I know you are the one for me For the rest of the time the Lord gives me I give you my heart and for you I will do What My Heart Tells Me

My Heart's Love -part 1-
This is a little blog about my heart. I've been looking for love, and by looking, I mean feeling out the women in my life. In the real world, I've got a few females in mind that would be Mrs. Right, Ms. Right Now and/or Ms. Booty Call. (I didn't make the rules, but I have to live by them) I've been on what is best said to be a dry spell. I've not dated in 2 1/2 years and not had sex but 2 times in my life. (with the same girl, 12 years ago on the 27th of November) Now, I know someone is going to say that I'm lying, but think about this. Why would I say this about myself if it wasn't true? I have had some luck with the ladies, but could never seal the deal, due to my somewhat unlucky choices. I've never truly been discriminating, but to a degree I have. I dated all races, religions and mindsets because of my own heart. I will not go for the Hottest girl in the area but will date the cutest. In my eyes, Cute girls are the most likely girls to steal my heart before the Beautiful on

My Heart
My heart has been trampled on I have still yet to recover 10 years will pass before I am free My heart was bled dry My trust is gone My trust is gone My heart is absent I remain for two Never to leave their side My heart is heavy My soul is dark 10 years will pass before I am happy

My Heart!
My Heart beats only for you do you care? My Heart sings softly for you do you care? My Heart belongs only to you do you care? My Heart has been broken for you do you care? My Heart was shattered cause of you do you care? My Heart stopped because of you I guess you didn't care.

My Heart Is But Complete
Moonlight splashes through my open window, the glow drenching me. I am caught up, and exposed. My thoughts go back, many moons before, when alone I would sit in darkness, waiting for my time to come. Reflections dance across her face, as she stands in the light of its glow. Her beauty pleases me, entices me, I find myself in a trance. In this fixated moment, what was once lost to me, has been found. I tremble, excited, pleased with the gift shown unto me. My heart flutters, I feel faint, never knowing I'd find such happiness. I wish to speak, but fear of loosing the scene keeps my words at bay. The sounds of the sonata, as I show love in my expression of music, enriches and enhances the room. My love, my sweet sweet love, eyes closed, basking in this moment of self ecstasy. She turns and smiles. My heart but Stops! As if time itself stands still. I loose myself, yet so easily maintain in my play. I no not hurry myself, yet the desire is so strong. With sheer force, I contin

My Heart Aches
My heart aches when I talk to you My heart aches when I don’t hear from you My heart aches when I long for you I don’t know why You’ve taken over my thoughts I can’t explain You’re still a stranger Far away I want you close by I miss your embrace Holding you close My heart aches I miss you!

My Heart!
Sometime I sit and wonder why Why it is I sit and cry I wonder why I am so sad When I think of what we could have had When I think of things the way I dreamed I guess some things arent as they seemed What can I do to make you see All I want is you with me Sometimes I wish I had just one more night Just one time to hold you tight I fear that day will never come But always know you have my love

My Heart
When you!! my love, my heart, my soul, my life walk beside me and my voice disappears slowly into your lips to scream your name, My steps goes by the boulevard keeping our eternal love. In every step..... In every instant. Everywhere I can hear that beautiful song which only a heart in love can hear!!. Tell me slowly that you love me, as I do my beauty girl, came and give me your love which teaches me to dream that of my lips you cannot be separated, and where you are I feel you, I believe in you, in me, in us........ I know that one day will not be goodbyes cause with you will come all what I need to put and end our solitude..the love that began in a cold night and to came to stay with us, cause Noone can separate us although they say that silly is our love.blessed love there exceeds words to tell how big you are and how needed to my heart you are!!!....

My Heart Is Empty And Blue
I feel so empty inside My heart is broken You did that to me You used it as your token For what I once felt Was love for you Now all you do is be mad Yell, cuss, and argue That is all you ever do anymore You are always pissed What happened to you? The guy I first kissed I feel my heart is made of glass You took it and it shattered You kept stomping it more and more Now you act as if I never mattered Now I feel so empty inside I feel so blue My heart is ripped apart Did I ever really matter to you? Yes, this question I really must ask For I don’t really know You treat me so badly But say you love me so If this is your LOVE for me I wouldn’t want to see HATE You treat me like this And then say you are my soul mate? Why do you say and do these things to me? You must love to see my cry You say things so angry and hateful Are you trying to make my heart die? It is still in many pieces on the floor You put it there by yelling at me I can’t t

My Heart
No one ever touched my heart in such a gentle way until there was you. I've discovered something wonderful about you - something that took me by surprise. I've known for a long time that you were someone special, sensitive, gentle, romantic...always bringing out the best in me. But now I've realize that you're so much more than that...you're my my friend - the best friend I could ever imagine. I never dreamed that such a perfect combination could exist in one person. But there you are & here I am...loving you

My Heart
I love you with all my heart, I hate that I feel so far apart, I would love to talk to you all day and all night, to me you are my white knight, the need I feel inside for you is so strong, and I feel that with you I do belong, I wait in anticipation for you to be my companion, the delectable taste of you I envision every night and day, and thinking of it takes my breath away, when I look at your eyes I feel I can see right through, into you, and wonder if you feel what I feel too?! The things I feel are undying and everlasting, and fills my heart with anguish to think nothing will ever happen! I love you with all my heart, are we really that far apart?

My Heart Does Desire For You Touch
My heart does desire for you touch, I never had a single notion, Of the amount of your devotion, Your kind green eyes are the ones I need, The ones that made my heart bleed, Bleed all the sorrow trapped inside for so long. I need your sweet soft voice, To tell me that everything will be alright, I need it to guide me out of this everlasting night. Everyday you are on my mind, Giving me a reason to go on, Every night you?re in my dreams, All nightlong, Keeping away dire dreams, That want us to end our destined love song. This song will play for an eternity, A love song, Our love song, Our devotion, care, and fidelity, We now stand here, (Waiting for the test of time) Our hands held together, Our souls intertwined with each other, Knowing that we?ll make this last Forever!

My Hero
As I ponder the love that I saw in his eyes, A Godly love, given without compromise.... I recall many times that he stood by my side, And prodded me on with great vigor and pride. His voice ever confident, firm and yet fair, Always speaking with patience, tenderness and care. The power and might of his hands was so sure, I knew there was nothing we couldn't endure. It's true, a few others provided insight, Yet, he laid the foundation that kept me upright. He's the grandest of men to have lived on this earth, Although he's not royal by stature or birth. He's a man of great dignity, honor and strength. His merits are noble, and of admirable length. He's far greater than all other men that I know, He's my Dad, he's my mentor, my friend and hero.

My Heart
MY HEART She's always be there for me Just talking to her can make me happy She tells me of the hard times she's been through In hopes that I won't go through them too She's an independent woman of stature and grace She has beautiful eyes and a lovely face An audacious strength from deep inside In her I know I can confide She's my guardian angel who'll always be A very special part of me She takes pride in caring for her kids She gives us hope and things to believe in If I didn't have her there for me I wouldn't be half the woman I turned out to be I Love You Mom

My Heart To Your Heart
From my heart to your heart, My love i will send 'cos i know over time Your heart i can mend. I see the love in your eyes When i look in them deep, A love to be treasured For our hearts to keep. I would write your name Across the sky, For the world to see What you mean to i. Look deep inside Understand what you feel, Whether naer or apart Understand that it's real.

My Heart
Sometime I sit and wonder why Why it is I sit and cry I wonder why I am so sad When I think of what we could have had When I think of things the way I dreamed I guess some things arent as they seemed What can I do to make you see All I want is you with me Sometimes I wish I had just one more night Just one time to hold you tight I fear that day will never come But always know you have my love

My Heart
My Dear Sweet Teresa, I thought I would let you know that my love for you is burning very brightly this afternoon. My heart longs for you. My heart longs to leap at the sound of your voice. My heart longs to be filled with joy by your smile. My heart longs for my love, respect and adoration to flow to you as I gently kiss your hands. My heart longs to be warmed when I hold you in my arms. My heart longs to feel the passion as I caress your face, stare into your beautiful eyes and tenderly kiss you. My heart longs to see our love for one another grow as we sit on the couch and we share from the heart. My heart longs to express my love for you as I rub your leg while we talk. My heart longs to be calmed and comforted as I lovingly kiss and caress your bare arms. My heart longs for me to cup your face in my hands and draw you in for a tender, loving and passionate kiss. My heart longs to feel the sensual passion and desire as we feed each other grapes. My heart longs to exp

My Heart In You....
My heart it beats Deep inside you. That tingle you feel My breath upon you. Whispers sound like rain Echoing in your mind. Your hair, it's blown In the day's sunshine. What makes me love you Is what you give me. What makes you love me Is what's inside me. Hold back no longer What's burning inside. Hold you forever I did decide.

My Heart
My heart is made up of all diffent thing from this world. What i have done what has been done to me. The pain that That i have made for my self and pain that i have sent to the ones that ki have care for or loved in my life. My heart is full of love and will always hold places for the ones i have loved or care for in my life that is all good night and sweet dream and always rember when u wake in the morn it is always a new day to start over. Matthew

My Heart
My Heart You hold my hear In your hands, So do as you will with it. You can crush it to fill Me so full of pain, You can lose faith and, Leave it to bleed.. You can play games with it To let it believe you love it, Or you could be true, And love it like like no other... You could show you have faith, No matter how long it takes, You could keep it safe To show you care.. Just remember, No matter what you choise, Without a doubt I shall always, Love you with my heart!

My Heart Hurts
One of my best friends told me today that he started drinking again. "It's not an everyday thing and it's not a lot. It's only 2-3 beers nefore bed". He was sober for 13 years before he fucked it up one night and landed in jail. It was 3+ years since then and he was doing so good and then all of a sudden this. I told him awhile ago that I would stop talking to him if he ever started drinking again (as a joke) and I guess he remembered that because he told me he wanted me to know from him instead of someone else, like his g/f or her daughter. The only thing I could say was just be careful and I will always be there for you. I am always a phone call away. The thing that makes me upset about this whole thing is that he has it at home and his girlfried didn't stop him and he didn't call his sponsor if he was that bad. I mean I KNOW it's his decision and all but if anyone really cared about his at that time he was buying it, they would have helped him. Do I have the right to be upset? I thi

My Heart Bleeds..
My heart bleeds, and sometimes I think it will never stop. It's so scared and bruised and torn, and it happened so much that I don't think it's gonna heal anymore. My dream dried up, and I long for my passion to return... I am begging, pleading for all this hurt inside to stop. When is it gonna end?

My Heros Folder(heros On Fubar) Video Please Take The Time To Watch This
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My Hero Uncle Story
Sgt Alfred H. Alonzo, Sr Birth: Jun. 28, 1922, USA Death: Dec. 31, 1953, North Korea More than a half-century ago in Tampa, two fatherless boys grew up a mile apart. The older one was Alfred Alonzo Jr.; the younger, Fred Alonzo. The two never met. Their mothers, the widow and the ex-wife of Army Master Sgt. Alfred Alonzo Sr., told them their father had disappeared in the Korean War in November 1950. His remains had not been found. But news last month brought the half brothers together for the first time. DNA evidence had finally identified their father. The remains of Mr. Alonzo, along with those of seven other U.S. servicemen, were discovered in the summer of 2000 near a North Korean village south of Unsan. His regimen, the 8th Cavalry, had been attacked by the Chinese People's Volunteer Forces. His first wife, Regina Alonzo, since deceased, never believed her ex-husband was dead. She figured he had escaped and was living with a Korean woman, said Alfred Alonzo Jr., a Vie

My Heart!
38 is too young to have a heart attack or atleast that is what I thought! Just about a week ago I suffered a small but painful heart attack. I seriously didnt think it could happen to me. I found my simple life style and family history was not in my favor though. Ive got a few things to change not all i like but if i want to continue to be then i guess the changes are for me. My habits-smoking lack of exercize-and the type of foods i eat. Ive seen my father and my brothers go through it all but i dont think i understood the seriousness of it all til it was me. I was scared then but what scared me the most was this time it was me laying there in a hospital bed and my babys eyes all looking at me with fear is our mommy going to be ok. I hugged them and kissed them and reassured them all i could but cried when they left. I have a second chance thanks to some wonderful doctors doing what they had to do. But for me the hardest part is not over. Some definate changes have to occur and I

My Hero,my Best Firend, My Love
I sit here thinking every sec that goes by how much I miss you! How with you not here leaves an empty feeling in my world. I think back to all our memories all the times you made me smile and bring my sadness to all smiles. You always told me keep my head up things will turn around. You changed My life in more ways then you could ever imagine. I have hurt in my heart from losing you sticks out like a knife was put through it! There are times when I shut everyone out and just want to be alone to hide my tears. I cant help it. I miss those words that came from you "I love you babes" or "you are my angel" How I miss the times you sang the song you wrote for me. I miss everything about you and the love that we shared. I will hold you and our memories and love forever in my heart! There are many times I find it hard to get by if it wasnt for my kids and your words to keep going I dont know where i would be! Those whom read this I was engaged to a wonderful man whom was one of the bravest I

My Heart Is Gone
When I turned cold, I went to the Elmhirst memorial where I sat writing in the rain. Through the mist, interlaced with crimson and orange confetti falling from the trees, I told myself I saw someone. He wasn't surprised to see me; he knew I would be there. He knew even before he knew me. He just knew I would be there. I asked him ' Are you as warm as you look or as cold as I feel?' He didn't answer. He just came and sat beside me. We shivered together in silence as my heart haemorrhaged. Hallucinogenic longings for viridian oceans and elemental boudoirs poured out of me but I made sure to keep them invisible to my ethereal lover. He stayed till I was empty. Then, as my body became brittle and my mind a ruin, we knew it was time and I invited the parting blow. Every last inch of me, every aching vein, each scorched nerve was consumed by the final measure of pain, and through the white heat of blissful excruciation, I transcended into peace. Who would have thought t