Fubar Blog Posts 2

My Mental State At Times
Its fragile. Im not some big ole perfect human, no I'm flawed. I like to try and see the world as some happy place, but its not, its horrid. I have thoughts of suicide almost daily. I am sad. I am lonely. I live in utter despair. I try to find other avenues to help take my mind off my pain, but even that doesn't always work. Than I become irritated, and I lash out to those who care. Than I am ashamed of myself, and those feelings of suicide are even stronger, cause it is than, that I know I would be the least missed. I should work, but why? For me? I hate who I am, why fucking bother. They say I have tons of talent, and many skills, yet without confidence, something a lack a lot of, they will never get noticed. People don't take a chance on a maybe or even a might.....everyone requires that sure thing. I don't offer sure things. Relationships, sure...friendships sure. If I can't have love in my life, FUCK ALL WHO DO. Walk in my shoes for the many years I have, and tell me some

My Medicine
My Medicine Your presence has the power to heal You drain away the negative Your love is like a seditive Letting me know what it's like again to feel You put my heart in my throat You rearrange my anatomy When it hurts to walk You are like a cordotomy When I cant seem to stand You are better than any drug You are my medicine I'll always remember you Even after I grow old with age You were in that small handful of people That caused my heart to hemorrhage

My Messenger Id's
OK IT STATES ON MY PROFILE THAT I DO NOT GIVE OUT MY MESSENGER ID'S, ON A DAILY BASIS I'M BEING ASKED FOR THEM. I DO NOT WEB CAM CHAT WITH ANYONE THAT IS NOT MY FRIEND ( WHEN I SAY FRIENDS I MEAN PEOPLE THAT I TALK WITH ON A DAILY BASIS ) I DO GIVE MY ID'S TO PEOPLE THAT I KNOW WILL NOT ABUSE IT. I HAVE YOUNG KIDS HERE AND MY HUSBAND SO FOR ME TO WEBCAM IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE AS MY COMPUTER IS ON THE LIVING ROOM, SO WEBCAM CHAT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE. I RESPECT MY HUSBAND A GREAT DEAL! PLEASE RESPECT THAT!!!

My Memory
Nobody knew what it was like to be your own witness to be your own victim A spirit was stolen and was devoured Now a memory that plays over and over Just a nightmere that goes on forever Only if you knew what it was like A trusted friend that has made you scared A friend you wouldn't think would have dared I fought hard and was cryin Just to have a piece of myself stolen Forced into rape and left half beaten Why wont this memory go away Having to relive this pain everyday I feel that my mind has been betrayed ~Alexus

My Memories Are Killing Me
My Memories are Killing Me I wish I could have told you these things; I wish I had the chance. Knowing I will have to wait a while longer has left me in a trance. You were one of the best people I knew in action and in deed. You could never say no when one of your friends were in need. Laughter was your gift to the world and you gave it out for free. The world will never be the same for your family, friends, or me. I'll see you again one day; it just might take a few more years. And then when we meet again there will only be happy tears. How do I live with my memories when my memories are killing me? I feel like I'm bailing water out of my ship that is sinking in the sea. I hide behind this stoic facade, but there's something I must confess. I'm fighting a never-ending hopeless battle of emotions and distress. I start to think of you randomly and I don't even understand why. Sometimes your memory makes me want to break down and cry. Losing you was the hardest thing t

My Message
My eyes burn from the tears, down my face they pour, My heart is broken, soul is damaged, my body is sore. The emotion flowing through me as free as the tears, The memories bring back pain from over my years. My mind is tired from thoughts racing all day long, My ears hear nothing but the melody of a sad song. Alone at night I cry feeling nothing but pain, All alone I am standing in the cold rain. So cold my heart has become with all its been through, Seldom there's a person whose feelings are true. Love I felt at one time is there no more, Loneliness accompanies me now like never before. Desolate my world feels from my point of view, Depressed I am is the message I am sending to you.

My Message To Thickndaazz4ya
on your special day and yes I said special cause it is I hope that you can find joy in the simple fact that you are still here to see your babys grow up and see their smiles and know that with no doubt they love nobody else more than they loveyou. So many times this year I have had to think sadly of loved ones I have lost and God tends to bring people in your life not to replace them but to bring balance to our lives and I feel like he did that the day we first introduced ourselves to each other. In a round about way we came together but in the time we have known each other we developed such a strong and loving friendship until right now at this time if your brother said we were done he could never stop our bond and friendship for each other. I love you as if you were born to me as my sister. I have sat and confided in you things I would never dream of sharing with others because we are so close and I rhank you for being such a wonderful friend to me . so smile on your day diva its you

My Mental Age
16 Years Old A delicate blend of childlike enthusiasm and adult-style maturity. Well, a little bit of maturity. You've got a free spirit, and you love to have fun. Admirable qualities for sure. Just be sure not to have too much fun. You know, like, one-way-ticket-to-the-emergency-room fun. Oh, who are we kidding? You'll do just fine.

My Mental Illnesses
1: Intermittent explosive disorder Road rage. Domestic abuse. Angry outbursts or temper tantrums that involve throwing or breaking objects. Sometimes such erratic eruptions can be caused by a condition known as intermittent explosive disorder (IED). Intermittent explosive disorder is characterized by repeated episodes of aggressive, violent behavior in which you react grossly out of proportion to the situation. People with intermittent explosive disorder may attack others and their possessions, causing bodily injury and property damage. Later, people with intermittent explosive disorder may feel remorse, regret or embarrassment. 2: Bipolar disorder Bipolar disorder is a mental condition that usually involves extreme mood swings. A person with the condition may feel happy and excited at one moment and depressed the next. The disorder was once called manic-depression. Mania is a mental disorder characterized by great excitement and sometimes uncontrolled, violent behavior. D

My Me
Ok everytime I start to chat with a guy and hit it off preety good. He tells me things I like to hear. We exchnage pictures and talk on the phone. And then i ask or he tells me he single when the truth is is married!!! I mean does every freaking guy look at me like im a sex toy!!! I want to meet a REAL guy not married who really like me for me. And to be honest with me!!. Is that really to much to ask for gee!!

My Medical Update - April 21
I have this tumor on my neck and need a operation asap before I choke to death - I already have nearly lost use of my voice. The surgen wanted the primary doc to do a test on my heart because 20 years ago I went to a heart doctor who told me that I had survived a major heart attack and was one of the lucky 10 percent to do so. Half my heart does not work and is concidered dead and cannot be repaired via medical surgery. To get tumor removed I must get approval and my primary doc said no surgen would operate on me because the ekg tests show that my heart is not pumping blood smoothy. She arranged an appointment for me to go see a heart doctor (again) for more testing. Meanwhile the clock is ticking. The testing alone delay things for perhaps another month. Without the operation to remove or drain the tumor ( aka mass ) on my neck is needed also to get the contents tested to see if I do or not not have cancer. I have survied about 25 years with this heart condition without the

My Memorial Day
I spent most of the day with my parents. We had breakfast at some Pancake place. It was very okay. Then we drove all they way down by Olympia WA to a casino called Little Creek. Spent a few hours there and ate at the buffet. I didn't win much...but mroe enough money for my next piercings.....weeeee Drove all the way back to town. Went to the store to grab some memorial stuff for my little friend and visited her grave stone. She would of been 22 if she was still alive. Came home for a bit, woke up Rich....went out and grabbed some food. Met up with one of his coworkers, his wife and their new baby. Damn, she's got big titties...lol I'm sure it's cause she's breast feeding but still! Damn!! Went to the piercing place cause I had called earlier to see if they were open, since it was a holiday...yeah, they were open until 8pm. I got there a little after 7pm and they told me they were closing early because of the holiday and no one was coming in...bah!! So I couldn't get my piercings...b

My Mental List Haha Im Labled...
so yea im labled with these mental problems i think its kinda funny but im on meds to control it and it works so here it goes names and deffs. ADD/ADHD is a common behavioral disorder that affects an estimated 8% to 10% of school-age children. Boys are about three times more likely than girls to be diagnosed with it, though it's not yet understood why. Children with ADHD act without thinking, are hyperactive, and have trouble focusing. They may understand what's expected of them but have trouble following through because they can't sit still, pay attention, or attend to details. Extreme Mood Shifts Are the Hallmark of Bipolar Disorder People with bipolar disorder have 2 different mood extremes: "depression" and "mania." An episode of depression or mania can last for days, weeks, months, or, rarely, years. A person with untreated bipolar disorder may have more than 10 total episodes of depression and mania during his or her lifetime. Between episodes, you may have mild sy

My Message To All
"America these soldiers, everyone of them young and old, Made a choice to serve their country, Never forced never told". "They're strong America, the bravest in the land". "And if you'll allow me the time, I'll tell you my plan". "It's simple America, freedom must withstand". "I believe it should encompass the entire globe, Not just one nation or other selected pieces of land". "They are called to duty America, To fight for a worthy cause". "To rid the world of evil, "Forgetting not the cost". "I stand with them America, As they tread on foreign land". "I give them strength to complete their task, So they may return home once again". "The lives of many America,

My Melbourne Trip
Hey Everybody this my full blog from my melbourne trip i recently came home from Hi everybody yes i know i haven't been on fubar much recently well that's because i am in ballarrat i left Sydney at 4:40am and arrived to Melbourne at 2:40pm and to Ballarrat at 3:40pm on Friday the 11th of september i was tired and also happy to meet my neices Wren Saffron and Willow and i have been on a farm feeding chickens and horses and watching dvds and tomorrow my time thursday 17-9-09 i get to pick them up and hang out with them again after school for them and then i go into melbourne for the next part of my awesome holiday from Bruce ,then Saturday the 19th of September iwas at Kirks Reservior for a wedding in the gardens there went to a hall for the reception it was good bcause it rained while we were all inside the hall for the reception isaw my cousins and my second cousins that day too the Sunday 20th of september i left the farm and went to Ringwood with my sister and her boyfriend then

My Memories
OPEN UP THE TOP DRAWER OF MY DRESSER, MOVE A PIECE OF PAPER TO SIDE. I SEE THE KEY CHAIN SHE GIVE ME WITH THE WORDS I LOVE. JUST LAYING THERE IN SIDE. I CLOSE MY EYES AND THINK OF HER AND ALL THE THINGS WE SHARED NOT HAVING TO DOUBT MY HEART WANDERING IF SHE CARED. I OPEN MY EYES AND ON THE NIGHTSTAND SITS A WINE BOTTLE CORK OF A BOTTLE OF WINE WE SHARED ON A COOL SATURDAY NIGHT. I CLOSE MY EYES AND REMEMBER THE TASTE OF THE WINE ON HER LIPS. AND OF THE SWEET LOVE WE MADE THAT NIGHT. EVERYTHING AROUND ME REMINDS ME OF HER. HOW NERVOUS I WAS THE NIGHT WE MET ON APRIL 17, HOW JUST THE TOUCH OF HER SKIN EASED MY WORRIES WITH JUST A KISS ON THE CHEEK. WHEN I AM DRIVING DOWN THE ROAD ON ANY GIVEN DAY I CAN LOOK AND FROM MY MIRROR HANGS A NECKLACE THAT SHE GAVE. I CLOSE MY AND THINK TO MYSELF THAT I WAS A LUCKY MAN I JUST HOPE TONIGHT SHE IS AS HAPPY AS ME. BECAUSE MY MEMORIES OF HER I CAN TRULY SAY I AM. B.W.C.

My Memoris
OPEN UP THE TOP DRAWER OF MY DRESSER, MOVE A PIECE OF PAPER TO SIDE. I SEE THE KEY CHAIN SHE GIVE ME WITH THE WORDS I LOVE. JUST LAYING THERE IN SIDE. I CLOSE MY EYES AND THINK OF HER AND ALL THE THINGS WE SHARED NOT HAVING TO DOUBT MY HEART WANDERING IF SHE CARED. I OPEN MY EYES AND ON THE NIGHTSTAND SITS A WINE BOTTLE CORK OF A BOTTLE OF WINE WE SHARED ON A COOL SATURDAY NIGHT. I CLOSE MY EYES AND REMEMBER THE TASTE OF THE WINE ON HER LIPS. AND OF THE SWEET LOVE WE MADE THAT NIGHT. EVERYTHING AROUND ME REMINDS ME OF HER. HOW NERVOUS I WAS THE NIGHT WE MET ON APRIL 17, HOW JUST THE TOUCH OF HER SKIN EASED MY WORRIES WITH JUST A KISS ON THE CHEEK. WHEN I AM DRIVING DOWN THE ROAD ON ANY GIVEN DAY I CAN LOOK AND FROM MY MIRROR HANGS A NECKLACE THAT SHE GAVE. I CLOSE MY AND THINK TO MYSELF THAT I WAS A LUCKY MAN I JUST HOPE TONIGHT SHE IS AS HAPPY AS ME. BECAUSE MY MEMORIES OF HER I CAN TRULY SAY I AM. B.W.C.

My Meaning Of Fu....
I have been on fu over a 2 years now and have seen and heard things I would prefer to forget about. Like most here, I was invited with no warning or explanation of what Fubar is. I almost didn't stay but I looked around and tried to figure out the "rules" and how "the game" was being played. I soon found out the posted rules are often broken or ignored completely and the game was open for interpretation. I read the blogs written by the yellow names and still find myself confused as to what the hell I am supposed to be doing here. The game even changes by it's creator quite often. I always joke that fubar must be baby jesus thesis or a cruel experiment on human behavior. When you combine people from all walks of life and give them the anonymity of a computer, you are bound to see people acting like they never would in real life. Which brings up the question, why does fubar say this is "real fun"? Cracks me up every time I read it. There are those here that only ask you to be

My Memmories Of My Little Girl
my little girl was something else though i was not her father in real life she was still my little angel and could do no wrong they say a girle is made of suger and spice and every thing nice, lol this may be true but my daughter had a dose of shit and vinger to' my daughter,whose not my daughter any more,is now a women doinng women things and starting her life anew..it dose not mean i love her any less for my love for her will never change.in any shape or form..now it hurts to to see her now and the memmeries of her growing up are vage for i never took the time for pics or movies or even to save her school crafts i was too pre occupied with other things oh i remember other things and i remmember alot of good thing its just i dont have many objects to rememmber her by . but those i do have im looking at now because thoe it hurts like hell its her birthday june 17 and the pic i chose is the one i took on the day i first layed eyes on my little angel, and here now

My Mewsick
Yes, us two, you and me I ain’t talkin’ bout nobody else you and I. Just trust me and follow me, I ain’t lyin’I promise baby it’ll be the best time in our life.this might sound lame but I knew my life was destined to change ever since I learned your name. No need for long words, just love that’s all we need. After the night passes, and when morning comes I will lay by your side girl I promise thats no doubt I’m a hustler but you tought me how to grind, kiss me like it’s our first kiss we’re still on time. Im a rapper but I will even sing for youSo come closer to me.Every time I’m with yeah baby I laugh a lot such great humor and on top of that damn you’re hot every cat be staring at you whenever you passed the block you’re so fly you be chilling with them astronauts.I love you girl more than I love my selfyou can count on me baby don't hurt your selfI love you girl more than I love my selfyou can lean on

My Meaning
My Meaning by Kenneth Matlock on Monday, January 14, 2013 at 6:01am Meaning... just meaning it keeps me up at night. All this meaning I'm lacking makes me a little trite. I try to find this meaning in all of your gawking faces. I look for it in competition or maybe in all the races. I can find no meaning in either your or I. I want this meaning someday... someday before I die. I fear this meaning I'm searching for has surely eluded. It seems that this meaning has purposely become convoluted. Maybe the search is what this is is all about. Maybe the meaning lay within the doubt. Dancing little pieces crawl away from my puzzle. They leave me while I'm foaming and clasped in my muzzle. Spin right off the table and swin down through the floor. This meaning... oh this meaning.. It leaves me wanting more.

My Medicine
You make me smile. I would go with you every mile. You chat me up. You say more than what is up? You are always nice. I never have to pay a price. You are wise beyond your years. I can confide in you my fears. You asked for prayer. I prayed for you with every layer. You make my heart glad. I never have to be sad. I will never play a trick on you. I will always be true. You are my medicine. You are my cure. You are my sunshine. You are my friend until the end. ========================================

My Miracle
The only mother I've ever had in my life was you If I would've lost you in that accident I don't know what I would've done I know in my soul I would've died but GOD granted a miracle because your still alive Everyday I'm thanking GOD beacause,you,my mother survived

My 15 Minutes Of Fame...
In less than a month I'll be making my television debut/premiere, or whatever you'd like to call it, LOL... It's not exactly Hollywood, I won't be walking down the red carpet anytime soon, however my CSPAN debut is almost here. In approximately 3 ½ weeks, I'll be testifying before congress, and the Nation, on matters of National Security. I'll be putting together a robust presentation on how the drug trade works in the Middle East and how it can potentially fund terrorist activities not only abroad, but here as well. This is something that I've had the privilege to work on for the past 6 months, and I tell you what I worked extremely hard to find the nexus between these two entities. I'm extremely excited, yet nervous, I have so many different feelings going through me, that I have to push them aside and focus on the task at hand. It's a bit overwhelming to think that I'll be sitting in front of policy makers, and briefing them on this potential threat. If you would've told me that

My Mirannas Chinese Synbol Born 2000
DRAGON BABY: The Dragon baby is extremely unpredictable. You may think that he or she is ready to sleep on their own and all will be fine until suddenly they demand to be back with Mom and Dad. The Dragon isn’t awkward by nature, it is simply that the Dragon has the capacity to be the most powerful sign of all and sometimes this means that our little baby Dragons can try and run before they walk. In fact you may find that this last notion is literally true for your infant as patience does not come high on the Dragon’s list of priorities. The Dragon is a born pioneer, so expect to find your bed covers to be regularly turned into a base camp tent for one of their many and carefully planned expeditions into the unknown!

My Mind
Did I really take her and keep her with me? Cover her face up so she couldn't breathe? Cut her eyeballs out so she couldn't see? I still feel like she is looking at me. Brought her to the basement and took off her clothes Did I do the right thing? God only knows! Maybe I was only wondering if I could open up your body Take your heart out and consume ("God only knows!" throughout chorus) Am I really like this? Is this really me? Am I really the person I want to be? Is it this life that has created me? Am I a product of society? Did I really eat pills cause everything's fucked?! Can I fall asleep and just never wake up?!!

My Minds Exausted From These Issues
i sleep at least 8 hours yet when i wake up i feel as i never got any sleep. i feel so cold, and no heater can warm me up im watching mona lisa smile, im suprised at how cruel the 50s were, how women had to wear girdles to make them appear thinner. but i see anorexic people as people who need more meat on their bones, how they look is sickening. i dont understand the war how many people have to die before we actually start winning? when can these troops come home?

My Mind Is....
MY MIND IS CONFUSED ARE YOU TO YOUNG IN THE HEART ARE YOU WHAT I REALY WANT OR JUST SOMEONE THAT I REALY NEED I KEEP TELLING MYSELF YOU MY EVERYTHING BUT I AM NOT HAPPY AND I JUST FEEL ALONE WITH NO ONE TO HOLD ME WHAT DO I DO, WHERE DO I GO AS I LOOK DOWN THE ROAD I SEE NO FUTURE WITH YOU IN MY LIFE WE OFTEN HURT THOSE CLOSEST TO US MANY TIMES IT'S ONLY BECAUSE WE ARE ANGRY AT OURSELVES AND I SCREAM IN FEAR FOR SOMEONE TO UNDERSTAND I AM VERY SORRY I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU FOR WHAT EVER I DO OR THE THINGS THAT I SAY I KNOW THEY WILL NEVER BRING BACK OUR YESTERDAY I SHALL FOREVER KEEP YOUR WARMTH INSIDE ME FOR THAT IS WHERE YOU ONCE WERE

My Mind Weeps
My Mind weeps tears in my mind never told screams in the night fall on dreaming ears keep your hugs, keep your jibes find me, find my life don't you hear me? can't you see? all this courage is but a plea find me find my life know me know my strife your life is deaf mine is loud i search for solitude i find a crowd give me a moment all my own that my mind may gently weep for from these eyes sorrow may no longer seep Vince Miller

My Military Career
I joined the military on August 14, 1991. I started my career as a watercraft operator. I went to FT Lewis, WA for my basic training and then I went to FT Eustis, VA for my occupational training. Once I completed my training I went to Panama for my first duty station. I met my wife as soon as I got there and after 4 months of dating her we got married. This was in April of 1992. I spent 3 years in Panama with my wife and then we got stationed at FT Eustis. I spent about 2 years there and during those 2 years we had our first 2 children. In 1998, I got orders to go back to Panama for 1 year. After that I was sent back to FT Eustis, where we had our last 2 children. I spent from 1999-2002 there. In 2002 I changed my occupation to a Repair Parts Specialist. I went to school at FT Lee VA, and then I was stationed in Korea for 1 year alone. After that I was stationed at FT Lewis, WA. I spent about a year and a half there and during my stay there, 5 months after signing in to m

My Mirror; My Coin
I reached out towards the mirror looking in at the reflection staring back at me. My other half the strong mirroring scent of my soul connecting. The other complete side of my coin. I sit down and tell her stories she listens through them all relentless like a pillar. She keeps me standing even through the fog. She helps me see that I am a great woman also in this life. She keeps me holding onto the compassion and love that she embraces people with, I know I want to be just like her. The mirror is the strongest part of me the greatest half of me. I found an angel behind that glass wanting for its other half. I found a beautiful kind soul that I wanted to be part of. I love her deary for she wipes away those fears, and torches my heart from that darkness. When I slipped she held me back up; holding my head high. I love her bad days even though I shouldn't because then I can return the favor or her helping me out. I offer that same hand s

My Middle Name Means..
A : You like to drink. L : Everyone loves you I : You Are Great in bed. C : Best kisser ever. E : You are really silly. ------------------------------- A : You like to drink. B : You like people. C : Best kisser ever. D : You love to drink. E : You are really silly. F : You are dead sexy. G : You're wild and crazy. H : You have a very good personality and looks. I : You Are Great in bed. J : People Adore you. K : You never let people tell you what to do. L : Everyone loves you M : Damn Good Kisser. N: You love to drink. O: awesome kisser. P : You are popular with all types of people. Q : You are a hypocrite R : Fuckin crazy. S: Easy to fall in love with. T : You're loyal to those you love. U : You really like to chill. V : You are not judgemental. W : You are very broad minded. X : Your friends are nuts. Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for. Z : Always ready.

My Mind
Sometimes I feel like I am not really living my life. Things are driven beyond my control. I need you to make me complete. Without you I just feel defeat. I need my cross the one in the livingroom where you chain me to for your simple desires. You walk in and out of the room watching me. You see that sweat is dripping off my breast you raise your brow, I know you catch me looking at you, I automatically have the need to apologize because I know better than to look up at you. You walk over and tell me that I am yours somehow that makes me so happy knowing what is about to happen. You lightly blow on my breast making them chill. My mind is wandering all the time what you are about to do to me. The exhaliration you send throughout my being drives me to the unknown sexual powers that you control!

My Mind 1
here I stand looking over the edge not knowing if I want to or not but then I look back in my life and see why I don't want to he's so beautiful so small so needing what would they tell him if I did tears fall down my face I jump, I jump back on solid ground and run in to the arms of a man, a man that look like a gift from the gods what I have been looking for my hole life the man I will marry someday if only I can let my anger go

My Mind 2
I pull my vail over my head and wonder if I would ever wear it for him I still see it the wedding we wanted in my head I see the tear fall from my check onto his soft lips as we kissed I see us dancing in each others arms on the floor alone to are song with the look of never ending happyness in are loveing eyes never wanting this moment to end but till he comes home to my loveing arms it will never be it will just remain a dream, a dream of pain. pain I wish I never felt pain I never thought I would be able to live though pain I wish on no one but pain I have pain I'm feeling right now pain I can barly handle. blood dripps from my arm as I try to cut my pain away I witch the blood pour from my arm but still no releaf but just more pain, pain of seeing your face every time I close my eyes every time I look in to are sons eyes I'm hurting in side it feels my mind with thoughts I cant cure on my own but subside every time I hear your voice or read the words u write to me everyday but I hu

My Mind, My Body, My Soul
MY MIND, MY BODY, MY SOUL "THE INTIMIDATOR " With the love of my parents and the help of my God gave me life. A soul was given to me in a structure of a free spirited woman. A soul of strength love compassion, trust, honor and loyalty. It is my Inner Being, it is me. Not to intimidated or be intimidated. A body was given to me in the shape of a Higher Power. It is my temple my temple to nourish and make strong. It is a body of a woman and yet a Warrior A body of beauty and strength. Not to intimidate, or be intimidated. A mind was given to me to learn and to expand what I learn, into knowledge. Not to intimidate or be intimidated. These three marvelous things are me and I here, to let the world know of them. My Body, that is strong inside and out. My Mind Of knowledge and of wisdom; (a book of experiences). My Soul The soul of a human being, and the heart of a warrior; both with extremely equal strength, love and compassion. This is

My Mind 3
blood falls from the sky tears of sadness tears of pain tears for the children of the war children she lost to a war only a few still belive that is worth fighting for the ground is now covered with the blood of these children that all they wanted is to fight for what they thought was right and died so harshly. she walks the grounds in witch her children lay cold so cold, her tears fall harder knowing there is no going back now but now all she can do is try agin try to make it right. she bends down to tuch the face of a young man about to die she holds his hand and tells him that it will be better soon soon his pain will be gone and he will be just fine soon as she takes hes soul to the havens to show him the world he wonts lived in as she lets go of his hand he fads away to go to his new begin as the blood stops falling the grounds clear of the bodys that once layed there now it is all new grass and trees and black roses that lay now were the bodys once layed she was right a new begin

My Mind 4
don't look me in the eyes and tell me about love why would you try to hurt me like that try to break my heart like that I have love I have ever lasting love I have everything I ever wanted but you cant have prfection with out pain, pain you will never forget, pain that will make your love stronger only if you live though it its a test to see how strong you are, how much you are willing to give and lose for love how many tears your willing to shed for your love so don't look me in the eyes and try to tell me about love I have died for my love and was reborn to try it agin so don't tell me about love I have looked love in the eyes and beged it to never stop to never go away to give me another chance to never stop loveing me and I was givin another chance for love so please I beg you don't try to tell me about love just let me love cause that is all I need in this world to live is my love my life my never ending, so please I do beg you leave love out of it

My Mind Has A Leak.
As some of you may or may not have noticed... I've had that fun little "sick" status symbol up for the past few days. No, I'm not making a web trend... I'm actually quite ill. It sucks. The plus side is that I'm already 3 whole days without a cigarette... but quitters never win, so I'll pick it back up when I've got the strength. I have not done any of those oh so boring daily photos either. By now, my reasoning should be obvious. I don't even think I'm really sick anymore. I only had symptoms for about 12 hours, most of which I slept through. After that, I just sort of... have been recovering from being so sick. Mind you, it was a rough 12 hours. Anyhow, I'm all strung out, and not on medicine, but just on exhaustion. I don't really do the whole "nyquil/pepto-bysmol/Tylenol" thing. I know far too much about chemically processed drugs to voluntarily put them into an already ailing body. My immune system deserved an opportunity to handle business before I go in and start trying to run

My Mission...my Drive....revised
Over the course of the last few months...say since October '06 or so....my drive and mission has been to reach as many people as possible and help whoever I could that has suffered the same sort of loss as myself or worse in some cases. I wanted my blog to get to #1 and I wanted to get my page as high in the ranks as I could get it all in the name of reaching more people. Some might not believe that and thats fine...I could care less what the nay sayers have to say about me. I think I have grown past that need to get everything to the top because I know that no matter what...I AM helping people and if others out there feel the need to keep me down JUST so they can be better and higher up in the food chain so be it. I wont be the one with my conscience to deal with. So...my vow from here on...and my true friends please help me stick to it...I will continue to support pregnancy and infant loss awareness and support its survivors...but I will no longer be asking for blog rates or bla

My Mind
time to get older trying to be a man without getting colder trying to be all I can being myself and being my own man working to get anything I need give a little back cause I don't believe in greed helping those who can't help themselves I've been getting taken advantage of since I was twelve some people are sharks who want all you have getting what they can from you then they laugh it's not fair is what I used to think I never smoke weed and I don't drink I don't go to clubs I've never been in a bar fight cause I make my own choices and I hope they are right Damon Taylor Copyright ©2007 Damon Taylor

My Mistress Of Wolves
This is written for a very special person to me who has helped me come to a better understanding of me , and yes ok I adore her :) she is very easy to adore and noone can tell me otherwise :) There is a howl in the wind that still's my heart a sound I know as well as my art It is as though her voice were calling I hear it in the breeze and the leaves falling I smell the scent of her pack comeing behind me on my track I run on through the chill of the night and there on the ridge I behold her, what a sight I can run nomore I fall to the ground shivering I change my true form I've found now I run but no longer in fear I serve for one whom I hold dear My Mistress of Wolves yes it maybe obvious how I feel about her from some comments you may notice :) , this is my thanks to her for helping me understand myself :)

My Mind
I get asked why I did that tattoo on my arm that says Elmo with a heart around it. I did it cause of my ex. I know we never going to be with eachother again. I do love him to death an care about him. Ya we fight alot but its normal in people that knows eachother for to long time. Im not obbessed with him I just truely love the man. And dont wanna loose him. I dont know anymore.

My Mind Is Dangerous
I LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND GUESS WHAT I SEE A BABY BLUED EYED SPIRT WHO SEEKS YOUR EVERYTHING MY MIND IS CHAOTIC, UNLESS I CHOOSE TO BE FREE SOMETIMES I JUST CANT HELP MYSELF, SOMETIMES I JUST CANT HELP MYSELF MY MIND IS DANGEROUS, THATS WHO I'LL ALWAYS BE MY MIND IS DANGEROUS, THATS WHO I'LL ALWAYS BE HIDOUS DEVASTATION, LIFELESS SERENITY MY ABSTRACT EMOTIONS, SMOEHOW, GET THE BEST OF ME LOAD TAKE AWAY MY SORROW, LORD TAKE AWAY MY PAIN ERASING LIFE TOMORROW, AINT THE MOTIVE TO THE GAME MY MIND IS DANGEROUS, THATS WHO I'LL ALWAYS BE MY MIND IS DANGEROUS, THATS WHO I'LL ALWAYS BE ERASING LIFE TOMORROW, AINT THE MOTIVE TO THE GAME ERASING LIFE TOMORROW, AINT THE MOTIVE TO THE GAME (LIFE OF AGONY - MY MIND IS DANGEROUS)(1996 SOUL SEARCHING SUN ALBUM)

My Mind
Your Mind is NC-17 Rated You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap. If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you! Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

My Mission In Hope.....
"God has created me to do him some definite service: He has committed some work to me, which he has not committed to another. I have my mission.... I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good. I shall do his work." Cardinal John Henry Newman "Never doubt that a small group of committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has." Margaret Mead Two quotes from the "Chicken Soup for the Nurse's Soul" again.... I find this book more and more interesting as I have re~read it several times over. Each time I find more enjoyment from it. I received it from my female bestest friend... Irene! I love you Reeny!

My Mistake The Lips Contest Ends Tomorrow Night At 5 Est.... I Will Be Going To Work Tomorrow So Keep Me Ahead Cause Im Winning Whooohoo Thanks To You
THE LIPS CONTEST IS ONLY FOR THE WEEKEND AND THE OTHER ONE I FELL BEHIND IN BEING SICK ALL WEEK :-( IM IN THE SEXY LIPS CONTEST AND ALSO WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST.. HERE ARE THE LINKS IF YOU GET AROUND TO HELPING OUT THAT WOULD BE GREAT ;-).. SEXIEST LIPS CONTEST WHICH COLOR HAIR IS THE SEXIEST THANKS FOR YOUR HELP IN ADVANCE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT ;-)!!

.my Mi Amour. 1o-23-o6.
as i sit here listening to them same old songs i keep thinking that i have that betrayed you. i have told something that came up in my life. something very dear to me, i may lose. i want you to know that i have not betrayed you. you are here in my mind, heart, & soul. i am here for you in always, my mi amour. as i have told you times & tomes before that i am never going to leave your side. but right now i have to be with the one i may lose. but u will be waiting for you. i know i will see you soon. bit not soon enought,mi amour. please believe me i am herefor you & only you. you are part of my strength & my happiness. as of now my mi amour, i am going to be here for a short time. but lost lost for a short time. i am going to come back to you my mi amour.

My Minds Eye (short Story)
In my mind I can take a long walk. I can picture the trees in the forest and smell the pine in the air. The snapping sound of the dried grass and breaking twigs as I push forth into the trees. I need to let my mind wonder where it will, to get into sight the things my minds eyes feels is most important to me. You know what? I feel him...all around me. How could I have gotten so lucky?!! I'm scared as hell about this damn it! I think to myself. Every time I lower my guard, I get hit hard! Do I really want to take that chance again?!?!? "yessss" a small voice whispers inside my head. "You want him and you know it!" I tell myself ... lol I stop.... I hear the sound of running water... "Can there be a waterfall over there?" I ask myself as I start to drift to the sound of the rushing water. Waterfalls are a fantasy for me.... I think out. As i come to a part in the bushes I see the most beautiful sight of all. A crisp and clean stream of water .... bright and shinn

My Mind. :-)
Your Mind is NC-17 Rated You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap. If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you! Do You Have a Dirty Mind? Yeah...this will definitely get me in trouble. LMAO.

My 17 Minute Survey
The longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends. Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff. Starting Time: 5:18 pm Name: Angie Holmes Brothers: 2 Sisters: 1 Shoe size: 9 Height: 5'7" What are you wearing rite now? navy booty shorts and pink Nike Tee Favorite Number: 32 Favorite Drink: non alcoholic? Pepsi Favorite Month: October Favorite Breakfast: french toast ***********Have You Ever***************** Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes Broken a bone: no Been in a police car: Yep Been on a boat: Yes Came close to dying: no Been in a hot tub: Hell yeah.. Swam in the ocean: yes Fallen asleep in school: yes, Broken someone's heart: yes Cried when someone died: Yes Fell off your chair: lmao, wh

My Military Carrer
well im getting discharged my medical information said i had a spontanious pnmothorax in 2001 witch i didnt wasnt clasified that wasnt server enough it wouldnt have even been found out if it wouldnt have been for my gf telling the hospital about it and there for the military thinks i failed to disclose medical info specaifically my right lung collpasing 5 percent in 01 whitch yes it did but it wasnt that bad the doctors said it wasnt a sopntanious pnemothorax so i didnt need a chest tube or surgery but my loud mouthed girlfriend just had to tell em and they automatically assumed that i had one in 01 also fuckin hopitals so the military was taken from me by several elements

My Mistake
She told me she loved me and I turned away. The words wouldn't come, I had nothing to say. Her beauty was real as I stared Into her deep brown eyes. She had picked me and I couldn't understand why. Was it giving her a smile ,an arm on her shoulder? Her heart cried out for what I couldn't tell her. She wanted something that I couldn't give. A past mistake I didn't want to relive. Her eyes welled up, her tears bagan to flow. Her deepest,darkest feelings had begun to show. She offered me forever along with her heart. She swore on her life we would never be apart. If I would have lied then her heart I could save. Then maybe I wouldn't be here kneeling at her grave.

My Mind Has Gone
My mind has gone, so long, have a nice trip. I've lost control of my brain again. My brain just twitches and my arsehole itches but I won't scratch it beacuse I'm scared that I might lose my hand. I was irritaed that my thought were unrelated, I got so paranoid my bowles closed tight and I was constipated. I cannot say that drugs are bad, it's my mind that has gone wrong; goodbye brain, so long. Sometimes when I wake up I find I've lost my bed and all the birdies flying around my head are dead. My feet look like bananas and my bananas all look square. I think I'll start a themepark in my hair. Please do not laugh at me I do not understand humour. My girlfriend's not a blow-up doll, that's just a rumour. But walks like a penquin and talks like a gorilla and has all the sex apeal of a backing dancer out of Thriller.

My Mind Runs To Fast I Cant Keep Up
when did i become a cute attractive guy? i ask myself this all the time. i continuosly see myself as a dorky, nerdy, and goofy guy that i have always been. i guess i keep seeing myself as i was so many years ago. no confidence and a loser. i guess i ahvent overcome that fear of being a success in the game of life. it keeps throwing me curve balls and i keep missing them. its only been a few years since rather attractive people have given me the time of day and i dont know how to handle it. ive always wanted acceptance from people but then when i do get it i dont know how to handle it. it seems like it all came at once almost like overnight. i just wasnt ready to accept it then and im still struggling with it. i have started to at least consider myself and mildly attractive and interesting. ive always been interesting i guess more people are accepting and into the same kinds of things. maybe its just the times we are living in. they are very different from say even 5 year

My 9 Minute Survey.
The longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends. Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff. Starting Time: 1:06 am Sisters:5 Brothers: 4 Eye Color: HAZEL? Shoe size: 11 Height: 5'10 What brands are you wearing right now? NONE. Where do you live?:GREEN VILE. Favorite Number: 18. MAKES THEM LEGAL. Favorite Drink: BOOZE!!!! Favorite Month: OCTOBER. Favorite Breakfast: THE ONES SOMEONE ELSE MAKES. ***********Have You Ever***************** Love/Liked someone so much it made you cry? NAH. Broken a bone: 29 TO BE EXACT. Been in a police car:MORE THEN MOST. Been on a plane: A FEW. Came close to dying:FEW TIMES. Been in a hot tub: YEAH. Fallen asleep in school: MORE THEN ONCE. Broken someone's heart: DOUBT IT. Cried when someone died: NOPE. Fell off your chair: MAYBE TWICE. Saved e-mails: YEAH Ever been

My Mistress
She touches me And my heart races She speaks my name And it skips a beat When I cry She wipes my tears When I'm down She picks me up She is strong Challenging Driven Demanding She knows what she wants Knows how to get it A look or a glance A single word Dropping to my knees Eyes to the floor Waiting for her domination To take control Hands behind my back Eyes to the floor Speaking only when spoken to Glancing towards the door Seeing the knob turn Hearing the hinges click Seeing the tip of black boots As they enter the room Feeling my heart race My palms start to sweat My body begins to quiver Tonight is about to begin © LouAnn Goodrum

My Mistake, My Life, My Destiny.... :'-(
As I look over my whole life, I realize there was only one person that was always there for me if I ever had something that brought a tear to my eye. To love me unlike nobody ever has. As I wake to my newly created Hell, I realize that angel is not here and cannot see my soul that I am being honest. When the one you really needed and your heart wanted, is no longer there. At that moment you realize just what it's like to actually feel like your world has been pulled from your life and you are soulless and meaningless. They're no longer there to hold you tight and tell you it's alright, to wipe that tear away from your crying eyes, to love you when no one cares and be there when you are scared. I made a big mistake that I can't seem to fix. My nightmare I've always feared is finally here. Hoping and wishing something will make the day brighter, but at sunrise, no bright sun, just complete darkness. Nothing to look forward to, no one to smile and share laughter with. No one to talk about

My Mind
as i walk threw the streets of what i call hell my mind so clouded with thought that you call what was that made you wanna leave,.what was that i had to mess things up it seems,for when i fall what will ever become of me,will i see my true destiny for what use to be is no longer there please forgive me if it seems so rare, my mind so numb and my body so weak you see in my eyes what i must seek.for the pain i see in your eyes is something that i caused you to find.your words so harsh. yet so clear, and unmistaken,as i lay here in my own mind,the pain rushes threw my head like a thick growing vine, i walk away and see you in my eyes.for what i thought was there is so far away.please tell me im dreaming and this is not a lie,please tell me to stay or say something or try.as you walk away i hear your crys.,someone please save me from this hell , i try to make out what is is that you see.something so mistaken can it be copyrighted by catherine levasseur june 22nd 20

My Mind
as i sit here alone in the dark and cry if i call your name will you hear that im dying the words that i thought were so true and dear tainted with.words of only pain in the nite your kisses i miss your sweet words will ease my pain,as i slip into my own world and cry i wonder if you miss me or will i just die. for everything i,ve ever done wrong i wish i could take it all back,and figure out how i did you wrong.the love that i thought was strong does not appear, your touch i just wanted to feel,sit here and a thought crosses my mind what will become of me if i die.will you miss me, or will you cry or maybe im just wishes that i would die.the pain pierces my mind that a sharp knife that keeps jabbing at my skin.i must leave but i promise to try.to come back and visit you from time to time copyrighted by catherine levasseur june 22nd 2007

My Mistaken Friend.
A few weeks ago, an old friend, a girl I used to date who has long since gotten married and raised a family, called and invited me to a party at her place. I said I’d be there. That night, I met a bunch of her and her husband’s friends, one in particular, a girl who had just broken up with her boyfriend. She drank and the more she drank the more she talked….about her boyfriend. She told me how wonderful he was, how much she missed him and how long they had been together. At this point, I was a bit surprised they’re broken up. Most break ups result in anger, hostility and finger pointing covering the hurt, the pain and the broken promises. This one, I didn’t get. I asked what the deal was, "did he break it off with you?" She said “no,” she ended it. Now I’m impressed. What a classy woman. Ends the relationship and speaks well of her ex. I don’t see that often enough. I told her I was surprised given how fondly she spoke of him. I asked her why she broke it off. She e

My Mind
A tear is shed A life is torn One’s heart is broken The next filled with joy I will die at the beginning and live at the end my life is torn to pieces I think of death Then I think of u And id never let u win this easy Take what you want of my body Have some pieces of my shattered mind The worst has happened There is nothing left But this wretched body

My Mind Is In The Gutter!!!!
WHERE TO START (EDITED)???? IF I HAD YOU IN FRONT OF ME I WOULD GRAB YOU AND START KISSING YOU. I WOULD THEN MOVE TO YOUR NECK. AFTER THAT I WOULD TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT WHILE I AM DOING THAT I WOULD BE KISSING YOUR CHEST. AS I AM KISSING YOUR CHEST I MOVE DOWN SLOWLY TO YOUR WAIST AND START TO UNDO YOUR PANTS. WHEN I GET TO YOUR WAIST I THEN TAKE YOUR PANTS OFF. I THEN START TO PLAY WITH YOUR BIG HARD DICK. I TEASE YOU WITH MY TOUNG FOR A LITTLE BIT. I STOP AND STRATTLE YOU ON THE BED THEN TEASE YOU MORE BY TAKING YOUR DICK AND SLOWLY MOVING MY HOT WET PUSSY UP AND DOWN IT THEN I PUT YOUR DICK IN MY HOT WET PUSSY. AS I AM RIDING YOU I GO FROM THE TIP ALL THE WAY DOWN NICE AND SLOW A FEW TIMES THEN I START GETTING FASTER AND FASTER...... SORRY YOUR TURN NOW!!!!

My Mind Will Matter
The easiest way to forget I'm told is to walk on. I go forward not looking back,but the memoreys carry on. I trudge through the muck and mud with my heart in tow. How can I forget,this answer I do not know. Maybe all these thoughts are to remain in my mind. To try to stop me the next time I try to be unkind. To learn,to grow,to guard myself this is where I begin. To rule my life with my mind,my heart just can't take this again.

My Mind ( All The Thoughts Of Love)
U KNOW IN A MONTHS TIME.. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE HERE.. FOR SO LONG I WAS A GOOD GF AND WIFE TO MY X.. I MEAN THE FUCKER WAS TREATED WELL.. I KNOW HE WOULD CHEAT ON ME AND I STILL WAS THE GOOD GF, THEN THE GOOD WIFE..TRYED TO BE AS PERFECT AS I COULD BE FOR HIM.. I LEARNED SLOWLY THAT I WAS JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH.. NEVER HAD A GOOD MAN BEFORE.. I WAS THE GOOD GIRL THAT JUST GOT THE BAD BOYZ.. SUCKS TOO.. CAUSE ITS MESSED ME UP.. MY VIEWS ON RELATIONSHIPS, LOVE, LIFE WITH SOME ONE, AND TOUGHT ME NOT TO TRUST WELL.. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN IM ALONE I LOOK AT MY SELF.. AN START TO TRY AND SEE IF ITS MY BODY THAT MAKES MEN WANT OTHER GIRLS.. I MEAN I HAVE SOME TRICKS THAT ROCK.. IM TOLD IM GREAT IN BED.. SO I KNOW ITS NOT THAT.. SO MAYBE ITS MY LOOKS.. MAYBE IM JUST NOT PRETTY ENOUGH TO STAND BY IN PUBLIC.. CAUSE I KNOW IM A LOVING PERSON. VERY CARING.. I GIVE MY ALL TO SOME ONE I LOVE.. ITS HOW I AM.. SO SEE IT HAS TO BE LOOKS.. I MEAN IM NOT THE BEST LOOKIN THING TO LOOK AT.. I MEAN U AL

My Mind
i sit her everyday and try to figure why i am so out of it why i have so many issues and all i can think is it was ment to be this way for me i am a very nice guy and i seem to have alot of problems with alot of things no matter how hard i try i seem to always make a mistake then you realize that its just part of life i guess i am here and life is what you make it so i guess if you want a good life and a happy life you should make it that way no matter what blocks life dish you

~my Minds Eye~
I have thoughts floating around in my head.. Some I've written and others have read. I like to express that which I feel, To put them on paper makes them seem much more real. Things, with my voice, I can't seem to say.. so for me, to express them, pen and paper's the way. Sometimes along the way, I pick out what others feel, to them, I write things to help them cope - help them deal. Whether it be a kind word or a pleasant phrase, to express what THEY feel in many different ways. I have a way with words that I like to share, A way to let friends know I care. I guess when I write something other can take... and with a thought or a glance say.. 'Yeah, I can relate'... It makes me glad to know, that what I write, into someone else's life it can go. If what I write helps others express that which they can not.. Then by all means... take one from the pot. I have many more in this head of mine, Lots more that will come out in the span of time. :) ~Candyce~

My Mind
My mind. Well its dark. Alot of hate. People us me then abuse me. Thay dont care that thay leave a scar. My thoughts cant keep the bad out. The light fades. Total darkness. The vocies wont leave me alone. I just want them to stop. For it all to be over. No matter what that means. Darkness and silence. Finly I am alone. No one here to hurt me enymore.

My Middle Name
what my middle names means... Body: What does your middle name mean? Delete the other person's MIDDLE name and repost this with the title "what does your middle name mean?" in 11 minutes and something wonderful will happen..... A : You like to drink. B : You like people. C : You are really silly. D: You like to drink E : Awesome in bed F : You are dead sexy. G : You never let people tell you what to do. H : You have very good personality and good looks. I : You Are Great in bed. J : People Adore you K : You're wild and crazy. L: Everyone loves you. M : Best kisser ever. N : You like to drink O: Awesome kisser. P : You are popular with all types of people. Q : You are a hypocrite. R : Easy to fall in love with. S : Fuckin crazy. T : You're loyal to those you love. U : You really like to chill. V : You are not judgemental. W : You are very broad minded. X : You never let people tell you what to do. Y: Best bf/gf anyone could ask for. Z : Always

My Mistake
As I lay here wide awake Recounting all the heartache You've put me through, I realize now that I don't need you. Right now I'm left here with all this pain, And I only have you to blame. It makes me sick thinking about you, It makes me sick thinking about what you put me through, And about all the games you play. How can I still love you after all you've done? How do you expect me to carry on? How do you expect me to forgive you for what you've done wrong? How was I able to live like this for so long? You mean absolutely nothing to me, I really don't care how much you hurt I don't care if I did break your heart, You are the one who tore us apart. I have had all that i can take And that is why you are MY MISTAKE!! June 7, 2007

My Mirror
This should probably be taped to my bathroom mirror where one can read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true. 1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for. 2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. 3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. 4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. 5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep. 6. You mean the world to someone. 7. You are special and unique. 8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. 9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. 10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look. 11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks. So........... If you are a loving friend, send this to everyone, including the one that sent it to you. If y

My Mind Speaking Out Loud....
So, I've been thinking.... I really like her, but it's just so frustrating, 'cause I know she's far away, and these cyber/online relationships are kinda silly. I know it won't work out. But what if I'm falling for her? Should I say something to her, or do something about it? Will I be able to travel to meet her in person? Hell, why not?! But what if she's not real? What if she is the opposite of what she projects here? If she only had a clue...... *frustrated look on my face*

My Misfortune
New lyrics! I just finished this. My Misfortune Though you’ve been a good friend Never thought that I could fall You had too many problems So I built myself a wall But the bricks have slowly crumbled Now the gateway’s open wide And before I even noticed I let you come inside… I guess it’s my misfortune That I fell in love with you But my heart’s full of emotion That my mind cannot subdue Powerless to save you From the pain that you go through Yeah, I know it’s my misfortune That I love you like I do. Now you’re soundly sleeping As I lay awake and think If there’s something that I’m missing That could save you from the brink Of desperation where you’re standing Saying no one’s on your side You just ignore the hand I offer As into the depths you slide I should be old enough to know that I can’t save you From the nightmares that enslave you And the demons that plague you But when I turn away, your eyes are all I see I’d give anything to be The o

My Military Support And Flag Pictures
I am so sorry everyone! I have been so busy and distracted that I didn't notice that I had set two folders to friends only that should be for everyone! My Military and Flags pictures are for everyone to enjoy...Please feel free to rip any of them after rating AND commenting on them...Thank you! P.S. If I am your fan...please come back and check these pictures out especially...you will see why I am your fan!

My Mind
Ok so typically I don't rant and rave or much less use a song to relate to my life this way but in light of the recent travisties that I have "commited" I would like to take this time to go ahead and say I'm sorry and Blame It On Me. I will take that blame. Akon said it best because sometimes the blame isn't on me, but I will take that blame from you cause that's just the type of person that I am. So go ahead and put that blame on me. Jon

My Mind Is Beautiful, Or So I'm Told
My mind is beautiful, or so I'm told It's housed in a body none cares to hold A beautiful mind screams just as loud But with such a body, it can't be allowed No touch freely given, breasts hide in waist When I see my body, I'm filled with distaste I see the scars, the taints of old age My mind, a prisoner in a decrepit cage Senses, mind things, still rage the same Doused, almost drowning, in horrendous shame My mind is sick, this I know to be I am loved by others yet hated by me Even if man desires to draw me near I cannot relax, I react in fear Distrusting that this can ever be true Imploding and hiding, concentrating on you Take charge, learn how to be a great lover Attention on him so I can hide undercover Orgasmic pleasures something obsolete Aversion of body, mind takes hasty retreat My mind is beautiful, or so I am told Aimed at myself it is relentless and cold ©dutch2lips

My Mission Statement
Never expect anything but the best in yourself. Excel in everything possible; do more than expected. Try as hard as you can, push yourself. Don't speak negatively of others, even if they do to you. Question them and try to understand things form their point of view. Try your hardest to always be honest, even if it may not be something you want to believe as the truth. Find, follow ,and devote myself to a spiritual path befitting to me.

My Mind Is My Tool
This muscle between my legs is good for fertilizing your eggs, but it will never make or break our love affair. Although it gives you great pleasure, and those moments I do treasure, it will never be the main way to show I care. Thus, revealing the fact, that sex is just an act, and love is never anything one should fall into. I may sound like a fool, when I say my mind is the tool, that I'll use to make love to you. It may be big, firm, thick, strong, it may even last long, but never as long as the images I leave of me, in your thoughts. I feel you, when you say all the other misters, never took you there, but it ain't my fault. I love to touch, I love to feel, but first and foremost, I love to keep it real - you know this to be true. Although our physical acts, bring you the ultimate climax, my mind is the tool, that I'll use to make love to you. Wondrous emotion in a mixed up love potion - a combination of the men

My Mind
so my mind is wondering again and i hate when it does that. i was told recently that i was good at repelling unwanted men and that the reason i'm good at that is because i don't look them in the eyes. i didn't say much to respond to that but i have to confess that thats nor entirely true. i don't look people in the eyes because i don't want them to see my pain, anger and hate. i'm afraid that they will see my weakness and take advantage of that. well most people do anyways so what the hell! also i once saw myself in someones eyes and i saw myself fade from his eyes and trust me it's not a good thing. my uncle use to tell me that my eyes sparkled and shined, they haven't done that in a long time. they tried to but i guess it just wasn't enough to keep them shining. yea so this is what is going through my wonderful mind tonight. don't you all just wanna live in my mind?

My Mind
Still it rushes through me, in every pore, through every cell. What is this . . . what feeling is this? I cannot tell, what secrets unveil capabilities unknown to limits. This absolute emmersion blankets my every conscious thought. Drawing you closer, bringing you here. So close to me I dare not say - still not within my sight. I feel your breath, heat penetrating my skin like a hard summer rain. I feel your face, your eyes, trace your mouth with my fingers. You give me breath so close to your mouth, still we do not touch. Smoldering fantasies ignite burning, lust and longing. Desire tempts me. "Move closer . . . " she whispers, "closer, closer. " A paradox? Closer to you, like the finest lace - our bodies occupy exactly the same space. Deeper I come! Taking me in - surrounding you and filling you up- and down- push, shove CRASH! Eyes open, must I see? Truth is now . . . this reality.

My Mistress And Her Evil Ways
This little light of mine..........oh how it used to shine. I heard a song on the radio yesterday morning, wasn't a station i listen to........gma was bumpin to the classic country station. The song was up goes the bottle down goes the man. thats probably not the name. but the verse struck me like a speeding train. I realize that my Mistress and her sweet lips, have been what has kept me unfortunately sad all this time. My Mistress of course is alcohol. People ask me if I'm a cheater, a liar or a deceiver. I have to say yes. I cheat myself of happiness each time I take that long drink from my lovers lips. I lie to myself telling me that I don't have a problem. and I deceive myself by not accepting that I put Me where I am. I went out Thursday night and had only 3 drinks, walked over to the pool table where a buddy was and left my drink at the bar. Last thing I remember was sitting back down. I came home and for no reason ripped into a couple very dear friends, and lost a couple of t

My Mistakes!
I've made my fair share of mistakes in my life. Now recently I made some mistakes that are completely unprecedented for me. I'm trying to do everything I can to make things right. Even if things don't work out the way I hope they do, I certainly hope the person that I betrayed with these mistakes can realize that I really care very strongly about them. The mistakes that I made are rough, and I'm finding it pretty much impossible to even forgive myself, let alone have someone else forgive me. All in all i'm not asking for forgiveness from this person. I'm just hoping that they realize that I really do care about them...no games involved....just for once the honest truth.

My Mind Problem
First let me make this very clear, I am very happily married to the love of my life. So now I can move on to what's bugging me. I was brought up Baptist and believe in the whole only be with one once married. I get that and am (I think) ok with that. (Ok so probably not ok with it cause I'm writing this. To me it's scary even to voice these thoughts out here.)Recently my husband and I have come to discover that we would like to include another woman in our life. I'm total for it my problem is that I'm not sure what to do about this. I'm kinda looking but whatever. My thing is that I love sex and get plenty from my husband all the time but I want more. Is something wrong with me? The love is there the sex is GREAT! and there is even some mixing it up on a regular bases. I think that it's the new feeling you get when your with someone for the first few time that I'm missing. There is a few people that have scaringly gotten me worked up by just a few words or a random touch. (And they

My Mind
I can't get you out of my mind. I keep thinking about how much I enjoy talking with you, how great you look when you smile, and how much I like your laugh. I daydream about you off and on all day, replaying pieces of our conversation... laughing again about funny things you said or did. I've memorized your face and the way you look at me... it melts my hear every time I think about it. And I catch myself smilng when I imagine what will happen the next time we're together. You must be something really special, because I can't remember the last time I felt so strongly about someone Even though neither of us knows what the future holds, I know one thing for sure -- you're one of the very best things that's happened to me in a long time.

My Mind Wont Stop
In my mind there are answers and perfect solutions for everything I have ever done or wanted to do. I could justify my actions not only to myself but other people too mostly because they wanted to believe me so they stayed up there in my head too. It made perfect sense that if you wanted to understand my reasoning that you had to live within my reasoning and leave yours at the door. So by the end of the whole deal I ended up with a really big headache and too many people attempting to decifer the answers and perfect solutions so that they could live in harmony with me. Now I really wish that I hadn't allowed them to come in to attempt to understand me because now I don't understand me and their own answers and perfect solutions are starting to bleed into mine and I can't decifer between what is my own in my head and what they brought in. The whole point of why what was in my head was perfect was that it was mine and mine alone and I didn't have to share it with anyone else. Damn it--T

My Mind
My Minds My mind is a galaxy Memories floating around like planets Details shown with craters and shade on their surfaces Spinning around itself Showing every side of my being In constant change Maturing and learning Ideas shooting like meteors Hoping to be caught by gravity But not to burn in failure Situations trapping me Like black holes pulling me in Stars like dreams Can be bright or dim Supernovas destroying dreams one by one All these stuck in my head secured under one name Milky Way JESSE The universe is infinite Just as knowledge is ever expanding in our own galaxies

My Mirror
I look in the mirror and who do i see , i see a sad face that is so familar to me. The face i see was once so care free , but now its so full of pain its not me. Ive been told happiness is in the heart, but what happens when your heart is broken and to fix it you just dont know where to start.

My Middle Finger
My middle finger is so special I can’t live without it I use it for several stuff and for one thing I really don’t want to miss it I see your eyes now already thinking what is he writing But I’m honest, without that finger I can’t live I guess even you cant But hey, I know you all are thinking wrong now you are all so dirty minded without that finger I wouldn’t be able to write normal with a pen What the hell did you have in mind…???? written by Mr Smiley

My Military Time
Well all my friends know this stuff so here it is. I am a VET. I did 8 years 8 Months enlisted in the United States Air Force. After that I got out for like 2 years then went into the Army National Guard as a Warrant Officer, flying UH-60s commonly known as the Black Hawk. I flew the Medivac version for the 3-160th Aviation Batallion, Charlie Company out of Ft. Indian Town Gap, PA. I have 2 purple hearts, spent over 3 years in the Middle East, and still have a third Purple Heart pending, which means I probably am not getting that one lol. After my final injury I decided to get out on a Medical discharge. Now I work full timeand collect my Veterans Disability check every month. I'm proud of my service and I salute all the men and women of the US Military (past present and future).

My Mind
Well i am usually online but not always on furber,myspace,live journal,yahoo 360 there are more but any who if you like to talk to me my messanger is spookysg@aim.com it is usually always up . so lets chat and start spreading the love people kisses and hugs ,i hope all is well and in good spirits and full of love and joy .my friends i may not be hangout w/you all yet but there will be a day i will come back that is those who still want my company i had to do a lot of shorting out and i found that if people are really friends they will understand and are willing to wait but i will still chat w/you on messanger or i will return your messages as i get them .I dn't call anyone anymore is that my home phone is know more my computer and roomies computers are hooked up now and so only way to contact me is by e-mail messages on websites or ims i will do my best to get back to you guys i am sorry i don't want you to feel i have turned away i haven't just dealing with my own personal demons and

My Mistakes
I have made a big mistake that I regret. I am with the love of my life and I keep pushing him away well after our latest spat I realized I don't want to lose him.So I have decided to not fight with him . These stupid petty little fights I have insited are my biggest mistake. And Chris if you read this I love you very much and I dont want to lose you .I hope to keep you in my life. I am sorry and thats the truth .Poohbear I hope you and I can get our acts together!!!

My Mind Is Going On Over Load.
Current mood: confused Category: Blogging Right now my life is very confusing.I know what I should do about it but I just don’t want to and its killing me I just don’t want to let go.But I certain things will just never be no matter how much I want it no matter what I do are what is said.It will always just be a dream that will never come true.I am also having a problem with missing one of my xses alot.From the point of me breaking up with him I did not see him for months then all the sudden I see him for the first time and it just tore me up in side.I never realized before just how much I missed him.I don’t know what it was maybe it was just seeing him with another girl that got me we talked for a little then he went back to hanging out with her.I keep watching her and him and I found out threw the night she is everything he would always bitch about hating that he could not stand.There was one point when he started dancing with her that just fucked with me so bad I broke down and

My Mirror
I look in the mirror not pleased with what I see There stands this old lardbucket grinning at me Her skin is rimpled and her hair is grey Her war against gravity is a dismay Her breasts are sagging, her belly is too Hair growing on chin, pfft fit for a zoo I look at her nose, its growing longer I look at her face, the lines deeper and stronger I see the under-chin all old people have I see the lips and the way she laughs Fifty years shes been on this earth Has wedded a idiot and has given birth The two things in life that give her hope Her kids are the reason that she can cope A love found online but never in bed Ashamed of her figure it has got to be said Love conquers all the people proclaim But they've not counted on a females shame The world is for the young and forever obsessed With glowing tight skin and perky breasts A lover she'll not have again, not even a taste This is the truth that this old woman must face Wh

My Mind Is My Tool
My Mind Is The Tool ..> This muscle between my legs is good for fertilizing your eggs, but it will never make or break our love affair. Although it gives you great pleasure, and those moments I do treasure, it will never be the main way to show I care. Thus, revealing the fact, that sex is just an act, and love is never anything one should fall into. I may sound like a fool, when I say my mind is the tool, that I'll use to make love to you. It may be big, firm, thick, strong, it may even last long, but never as long as the images I leave of me, in your thoughts. I feel you sister, when you say all the other misters, never took you there, but it ain't my fault. I love to touch, I love to feel, but first and foremost, I love to keep it real - you know this to be true. Although our physical acts, bring you the ultimate climax, my mind is the tool, that I'll use to make love to you. Wondrous emotion in a mixed up lov

My Mistress
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My Mind Is Complicated
iv took a long look at my past relationships bc i havent actually dated anyone in about a year. and i noticed that guys i like i tend to start getting close to em and i get scared to feel anymore than what i already do for them so i push them away, i guess its my defense mechanism. maybe it was the way i grew up in our house love only went so far and then hitting a fighting showed yah the rest. i hate meeting ppl friends in general yah know guy or girl, bc i feel like as soon as i start to get to know them i scare em away one way or another or they are just gonna hurt me like most everyone in the past. its just easier to avoid ppl and situations then to face the light and get burned (if that makes any sense to you). my 3 best friends and my other close friends know how i work, im a very affectionate person, but im an open book i have no reason to lie ill tell yah the truth about anything in my life present or past, but for the most part i my scheilds up and let very few into my wo

My Miraculous Blessing
for those of you who actually read what other’s put in their profiles, i have some pretty amazing news! if you read my other blog (My Injury) or even my profile you’d realize that i’m wheelchair bound. although i’m not complaining about my disability there was one downfall: i wouldn’t be able to have children. yeah, i could conceive, but to carry a pregnancy to term would endanger not only my life, but that of my baby’s as well. well, to make a long story short, i’m a mommy!!!!! gave birth to a beautiful baby girl at 1:39 am Mother’s Day! needless to say i was in shock…due to misdiagnoses by both my primary doctor and pool therapist, i was lead to believe that i had developed fibromyalgia (arthritis of the muscles and joints) and the excruciating cramps i was experiencing was due to my muscles spasming in rebellion to my attempts to walk again. for the entire duration of my pregnancy i was on 5 different medications to combat the pains and symptoms of my “alleged” condition. i had n

My Mind
My Mind by Me Only if I could get some sleep without thoughts racing through my mind memories from a past that has been dead and gone and of things that have yet to come Memories of loves that left me standing still and of friends, dear friends that have since past on then there's you holding me down, curse you for that Only you could do this to me For I have no power only influance over you every night I allow you to control me you being as selfcentered as you can Cause it's you, my subconsious mind that knows Knows just how much I can handle before I brake.

My Midget
What are Midget's? A fubar midget is a mini version of your profile. You can embed it anywhere... your blog, myspace, etc. It's updated in real time, so whoever see's it can find your current fubar status, level, fans, photos, etc,. One of the best things about the midget is that you also receive points everytime someone looks at it!

My Mind Is Playing Tricks On Me
Even though this is not the original song, this is some freestyle version...I just so love this..I cant even say why, but let me tell you what this song reminds me off...and I know its not the song itself, its the time it reminds me off... I think of problem free times, no financial issues...going out and party, didnt do much drinking, yeah I worked, but I just moved out my parents house, my first own place...worked for the government so the money was on time and pretty good...now when I hear it, it makes me think of the times where you almost as free as a bird or something..even though, of course I didnt feel that way then...you fall in love, you learn yourself on a whole new level, and thats not always easy..and so on...I know all this has nothing to do with the song itself, but its the stuff that it reminds me off when I hear this beat...good ole times...but would I want to go back there? NO...no way... ok well enjoy the song, maybe you know the song, maybe it reminds you on s

My Midget~~feel Free To Add Yours
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My Minds Eye
Replaying inside the recessive caverns of my minds eye. So sad and repressive,I have no reply, You have stolen away a part of my soul, In a most elusive, conniving & spiteful role. Losing awareness of the person that I want to be, You have caused me to lose the very essence of me. Too many times i've lost my worth, my self-respect, But, with a man like you what should I expect. You say that you love me, but it is obvious you don't, You leave me lackin, there's something out there I still want. Too many years of my life, now tragically they're gone, This house that we made has never been my home. I cannot go on living this lie, In the deep, recessive caverns of my minds eye.

My Midget Can Beat Your Midget!
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My Mission
Ok today while I was in church, (yeah i do attend church sometimes), the pastor was talking about missions in life, and the paths in life that our mission takes us or perhaps our calling in life. Now, I believe that one of my missions was to teach pre-school, now ok done that one. But as I sat in church he was also talking about the paths in life we all take, and the paths that we take are paths that God has chosen for us. My kids are almost grown and out of the house (16 and 19). As most of you know, Im dating a wonderful man who has 3 small kids of his own that he is rasing basically on his own. He and I have discussed me moving to be with him and his kids as soon as my youngest turns 18. I believe that this is the path or mission that God is planning for me. Im not a very religious person by far, but this sermon really made me think today about the paths or missions that Im about to take. I was somewhat freaked out about this whole thing. I even had some doubts in my head about movi

My Missing Conversation.
My Dad called me the other day. He wanted to say "Hey Bill," and "What's happening?" I wanted to say "Well Dad, things have been kinda tough lately, but I'm managing to push it on through." That's when I woke up in my dark and quiet room; the last vestiges of the sad dream slipping from my groggy mind. Alas, it had not been real this time. We lost him in 1999 to the ravages of Multiple Myeloma; an awful and incurable cancer of the bone marrow. There have been times since when I've gone through some of the more wrenching experiences of life. During the worst of them it seemed that I could feel his presence; as if he were attempting to break the bonds of death to reach through, and help me. Our daily phone calls began when I was younger, and on the fast track to a "go-go" career in Information Technology. He happened to work for an outfit that had the same IBM hardware that I specialize in, and the premise for the call would be to ask my opinion about some issue in those are

My Mind
The road we lay is the path we take brick by brick till we are whole.. walkin alone in the darkness hidin from our fearz.. Lookin back as our memories die one by one until we are dead inside.. buired within swallowd alive fightin to survie we are nothing.. emptyness consuming your every thought screaming out as no one hearz you.. lost alone scared run as far as you can..blindness followz you with every step you take.. Fighting the demonds you have breaking down the walls you put up around yourself.. scratching picking nothing remains hopelessness is a friend.. The abyss is comfortin to you as it sourounds every part of your existence tearing away at anything left.. any piece of life that remains.. Deeper down you fall hitting rock bottom only way is back up.. no one there to offer you a hand.. searching for a way out of the lie.. Life it's so funny at times but what's new you live it the way it's thrown at you.. obsticals in your way every time you turn around.. Sitting with the

My Middle Finger
My middle finger My middle finger is so special I can’t live without it I use it for several stuff and for one thing I really don’t want to miss it I see your eyes now already thinking what is he writing But I’m honest, without that finger I can’t live I guess even you cant But hey, I know you all are thinking wrong now you are all so dirty minded without that finger I wouldn’t be able to write normal with a pen What the hell did you have in mind…???? by Mr Smiley

My Mind Wonders
TO THINK ALL THOUGHTS BEGIN.all dreams ending never to sleep just one conjuss thought.iam who iam and happy that iam this way.BUT BECAUSE OF WHAT I STAND FOR..MOST OF THE SO CALLED freind will flea and hide. i was inlove but not blind enough to leave it alone. I HAVE NO TIME FOR ANYBODY WHO NOT FREE OF THOUGHT AND LOOK FOR THE BEST.cause in this world the worst is always wins. DONT LET UR EMOTION BLIND YOU..I DONT CARE HOW GOOD THE SEX..U NEED UR HEART TO LIVE..DONT GET ME WORNG I LOVE MR.NASTYTIME..BUT AFTER THAT U NEED TO FEED THE MIND. some people rather be with some one unhappy then alone and unhappy.but if u with some one and un happy it better to be alone.

My Mistress, My Artist
My Mistress, My Artist Lovely Mistress, Be my Artist! Strip me naked And make my bare buttocks Your Canvas. Do not sketch faintly: With leather belt as Your brush Paint in boldest of strokes! With unleashed inspiration Paint in vivid patterns of Passion. Paint on, My Mistress. With the fiery color of Love Artfully apply Your brush Until Your canvas Bears stripe upon stripe And flesh blushes bright hues of scarlet. Paint on, Beloved Mistress! Paint until the tender quivering canvas Is transformed Into Your Proud crimson masterpiece

My Mistress Bacardi Girl! (01/27/2009-02/27/2009)
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My Mind Plays It Over And Over ....
I'm leavin the same way I came in It's lookin forward but I can't see straight It's just like I know where I'm going It's just like me to fool myself I'm what happens Buried by the words of a liar I'm what happens But I'm alive and I'm still breathin yeah We're sane because of her taste You didn't say enough (?) My mind plays it over and over Slow motion But we're moving faster, moving faster So much further Let's not lose control Light a match just to watch it burn Struck Light a match just to watch you burn Where are you goin? How far? Where are you goin? Let's give them HELL! We're sane because of her taste You didn't say enough (?) My mind plays it over and over Slow motion But we're moving faster, moving faster So much further Let's not lose control I'll bite the bullet Just to save myself Oh! Oh no, this ship is quickly sinking We gotta take control, gotta take control Oh no, this ship is quickly sinking We gotta take control, gotta take c

My Mind
My mind is a fountain full of knowledgeable words pouring out on the imagination of life. Flowing out to all imaginative minds causing pleasure and inevitable strife. These words float out onto the world like a bottle floating out on a sea of searching souls. Looking for that one like mind to read a message and set itself to new goals. As these words pour from my mind, body and soul on down to my willing fingertips. Placing my thoughts into the minds of their beholder sending them on a journey of imaginary trips. These words are brought about on the knowledge I hold coming to life with every pen stroke. As I write these words down invoking new life looking for like minds to provoke. Seducing your mind as the unsuspecting voyeur, bringing about a variety of sensations. Set forth to awaken senses within a soul with every temptation. I write these words with every birth of thought that comes to me. For I am a poet and my words breath life into dead sheets of paper to inspi

My Mind
When the days seem so long, you are there on my mind, you've been there since the day that we met. There's something about you that I can get out. Is it the eyes that pierce to my soul, maybe its your smile that lights up the room, maybe the way that you look at me. I don't know what it could be. Why is it that you're always on my mind?

My Mind
Got so many things going on in my head... doesn't seem to stop. I'm always thinking of you. Wondering if your thinking about me, or if you feel the same for me. If this is only a game for you.. or if your true to what you say. I don't think my heart can take another disappointment. So, I sit here... missing you. Wondering what is on your mind.

My Mini Me
MY LOVEING MOTHER, BY MOESHA L WATTS MOMMY GIVES ME LOVE WHEN NOBODY ELSE DOSE, MY MOMMY’S ALWAYS THERE WHEN MY LIFE IS BARE, SHE ALWAYS TAKES AWAY THE FROWN WHEN LIFES DOWN, I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH HER EACH AND EVRY DAY, WHAT CAN I SAY SHE BROUGHT ME IN THIS WORLD AND SHE SAID I’M HERE TO STAY, I CAN HONESTLY SAY, I LOVE MY MOMMY!!!!!!!!

My Mind........
Whats going on in my mind?? many things! I think about the people in my life i see everyday, and i think about the people in my life i never see, but would love to meet! I might be a Metal Head! but i still think of love.... Where is it?, how do i find it?, is it out there for me?, am i not ment for it? I have 2 lil boys.... i love them with all that i am! i don't see them much.... or talk to them much... me and thee mother are not on good terms. That was 8 years of my life wasted! But i still stay strong! As long as i keep the "Horns" in the air i will over come all!..... Don't cry for me! Don't pray for me! if anything.......Forget about me.

My Miracle
MountainWings A MountainWings Moment#9097 Wings Over The Mountains of Life My Miracle My husband and I had been married for seven years, and had triedand tried to have a child. No matter how hard or what we tried,we could not have a baby.I had so many miscarriages that the doctor finally told me thatI was putting myself at risk to continue trying. I was so heavyhearted. I grew up in a loving Christian home, my father beinga Pastor. All my life I knew there was a God, but I could notunderstand why he was punishing me so. I was angry with him.I felt as though he was giving me hope with each pregnancy andthen snatching it away from me. I remember on one occasion, Imet this complete stranger, a Christian lady. She walked rightup to me and told me that God had wanted her to tell me to notgive up faith, yet my faith was already gone.The more time that passed, I became angrier with God.The lady told me that God had given her a vision of me and inthat vision I was holding a lit

My Mistake Im Sorry
MY MISTAKE IM SORRYmade some very bad choices this weekend.I made some mistakes! and im sorry.i was so depressed and sad and confused about everything going on in my life right now that i just did it!im sorry...it may seem like i have it good. and i know i do compared to alotta other people.but that doesnt mean that it doesnt hurtit does.it hurts.i couldnt deal with my problems any other wayi couldnt run anywhere elsei should have thought about it before i did itbut i was just too sadi couldnt think.i did what i didand im sorry!im gonna regret what i did and id do anything to erase that nightbut i did what i did. i must face it. but people make mistakesi made a mistake and im sorry.i will live with iti'll live another day...facing my problems a different waycuz i have learned my lessonnext time i will think before i drinki'll talk to someone..i'll deal a different wayim sorryim sorry for putting you through that that nightim sorry for putting me through that that nightim sorry i made

My Middle Son
I have a middle son who I love with all my heart but that boy is so irrespondsible in keeping his word. We have asked him on several occassions to help us with a project at home that need another pair of hands. He agrees to help but then when the time comes, he has excuses why he cant. I know he has his own life and eventually is suppose to get married but ! How sad is it when he will drop all hes doing to go help his future mother and father in law and when it comes to his own family turned a blind eye. I have spoken to him on several occassions and it falls on deft ears . I ask hubby to speak to him and he just mumbles and says whats the point. I wish I could sit him down and tell him just how much it upsets his dad and I with out him getting all pissy with us and walking out the door. I feel so lost

My Mini Vacation
Yeaterday I took a trip to the coast. I got a three hour nap and left around 9 or 10am. First place I went to was to Tillamock Cheese Factory. It's been forever since I been there. Got some cheese samples and took some photos. Went to some town called Otter Creek, I think? Not too far freom Newport where they had the Devl's Punch bowl. It was low tide at the moment, so not too much action there. it was still neat to see how nature created it though. Went to Newport Oregon. Killed time at Ripleys Believe it or not, The Wax Muesume, some underwater garden thing and a few other places. Went to the Oregon Aquiremum which was pretty neat. I got to touch a few star fishes :) Grabbed some lunch at some Crab shack place...kinda like a ma and pop place I guess. Had some clam chower and a tuna sandwich...yum. Drove around town and went to a beach. It was a bit chilly and windy so I didn't get a tan or anything. Drove around some more and ended up at some weird vocalnic like place....almost l

My Mind Adrift, My Soul Set Free
I've spent a life in hiding, Always seeking but never finding... I've thought long and hard, It would be easier to get lost in a shard… In seeking to better me, You are all I see… My mind adrift in what could be, I strive to make something I wish to achieve… I'm lost in the turmoil, Down here rooting through the soil… The longer we dance around this tree, My soul yearns to be set free… Looking down the way… …thoughts running astray… Take a chance, come whatever may... Mr. E

My Mind Goes In A Million Directions
Since the economy has been blasted on the news every day. I tend now not to watch it, as I am depressed to the max and dont want to deal with any more crap then I am. It didnt really bother me at first, because hubby was working and so was older son. But then it hit.....Hubbys company went on a 4 day work week and son got laid off. Bingo right on clue, my depression hit me like a mac truck. I realized then we might lose our home and any thing of value. It got so bad, I was crying over stupid shit. I am worried yes, but hubby keeps telling me as of Sept the work share program is no more. Derek finally got on UI so that will help and I pray he will be back to work before its gone. I honestly hate hate hate being this way. No one understand what a person goes through when your in your dark place. Every thing seems 100 times worse then it is. You dont think your acting any different to your family and resent the fact they tell you your acting like a Bitch. You see them as

My Mind
I cant see the lightto take flightTo get away from this sadnessthat intertwines with my madnessHow can we say we are happybut inside we want to cry?How can someone who has everythingstill want to die?Longing to feel the warmth of the sunto be in the group having the funWiping the tear from our eyelooking at the clouds in the skyHoping the dark ones fades awayso please stay and be a friendhelp me,my mind & soul to mend

My 2000+ Mile Road Trip
This last couple of weeks have been very difficult for me. First I got laid off my job of 2 years, then my boyfriend, Bill, dumped me. Hard. So I decided to get the hell out of dodge for awhile. I thought if I just got away for awhile, I would get better.So here is the journal I kept while on the road.Day 1:Finally left home around 8:30 am. Bill bought me a charger thingy for my phone and 2 flashlights. I made my goodbye as short as possible. That was hard. Probably one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm still not clear on why I'm getting the shit end of life. Gawd, I am so in love with him. More than even I thought. I felt like a complete fool telling him that I loved him after the fact, but I also didn't want to regret NOT saying it ever. Somehow, I need to shake it off. Driving hasn't helped so far, but I still have a long way to go to attempt to continue this odd journey I'm on.I had a place set up in Clear Lake, California to spend the night, but that didn't pan out. Figure

My Mind
growing cold and i don't care my eyes reflect no life anymore i laugh at the pain heart break is that best you can throw at me i've taken bullets and knives had my body broken my soul split in half these eyes are lifeless but in reality they just show your future once you cross me insanity seeping out its cage heart enclosed in ice betrayal abandonment just appetizers for the main dish kidnap rape, abuse, attempted murder, suicide so much shit my soul ripped in half mind more shattered then broken glass this is my war against the world turning your back on me not realizing i'm just wasting for my chance to lash out to drag your ass to the ground slam this fist in your face let you taste your own blood laughing as i wail on your ass can't take it anymore 6 hollow points to the chest tears falling for my eyes as i look at my own tattered bleeding body laughing in front of me eyes as cold as ice body growing colder as i end i weakness walking off gun in

My Mind
I lose myself in the pain of art not to feel happy and accepted but to realize I am alive… That is the latest status that cant begin to describe the overwhelming feeling of confusion and loneliness that plagues my mind. I find myself back and forth between numerous hopes of futures that are only baring down present goals. I try to use this pressure as fuel to help my struggling soul dive through a valley of darkness and pain, but the sorrow is so unbearable I see no way out. I circle around viewing my options, hoping for a break, some kind of gap for me to slip through and lift this burden off my shoulders. I see this small glimmer of light, maybe it’s my way out, venture toward the distant beam. Wrapped in solitude it seems so appealing, but like the valley it’s only a mask for its true ugliness. The feeling of being alone had chipped a small crack into my shell of hopelessness. Being alone pushed me over the already small edge my weathered fingers clenched tightly

My Mind's Tardy Slip
There are alot of people who tell me I’m absent minded. I disagree. I always know exactly where my mind is…That may or may not be where they want it to be at any given time, however! Still, it’s hardly absent – if anything, It’s too many places at once! My mind’s very favourite thing to do is gallop. Yes. Gallop. It rides enormous white stallions across meadows of lucious green, where bees play with daisies and the wind can be smelled. It lays in the thickness of blankets of clover and drinks from streams of silver, Thunderhead at it’s side, whinnying gleefully, begging to gallop again. My mind rides that cloud fast and hard across the sky stopping for no man… and when Daddy asks me what I want for my birthday, I still say “a pony”...

My Miracle
She carries me away Love has redefined it's limits My butterfly My wonder My world She makes me reach to the heavens Brings the light to my eyes My butterfly My wonder My world Swimming through the waves like a fish Listening to your giggle dacing every morning to your favorite...the wiggles My butterfly My wonder My world I loved you since the first kick twinkling eyes and four tooth smile You made me a woman a mom a teacher Baby girl you are the miracle to my world

My Mind
I just don't understand why people don't believe that you can let some one go if you see that they are not happy being with you, and still keep the friendship. If you are not happy I will let you go so that you can be happy, no matter how bad it hurts. If I truely have feelings for you I will put mine aside to make sure you will be happy. That's just how it should be.

My Mind Boggles!!!
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My 15 Minutes Of Of Fame...part 1?
Sooo, for those of you who are unaware... Last week I went downtown Chicago, to record for an episode on the Judge Mathis show. The gist... My ex boyfriend owed me more than a little pocket jingle, so I sued his ass...this is the same jackass who cheated on me with the durdy skank & married her two months after I kicked him out. I had a signed contract/promissory note as well as other evidence. Since he is in the process of filing bankruptcy for other stupid decisions he has made, my options were fairly limited. I am not big on huge public airing of my dirty laundry, but...this was means to get the debt paid. When you win on those dumb court shows, the show picks up the tab...guaranteed funds. Can't squeeze blood from a turnip, yanno. It required his cooperation, so I opted to 'catch more flies with honey'...needless to say, he cooperated. She decided to tag along as well, since their whole relationship/marriage is based on trust and all...she didn't want him to be in t

My Mind
holla at cha boi, now sit back take ur shoes off an jus read this with an open mind, with this being said, brake it down, open it up, fill it up, light it, inhale, slowly exhale, ahhhh now thats the spot, it is amazing that when people say something and other people dnt knw what the question means nor do they understand wat the question is, its also amazing on how when people get delt alot of shit on their plate,then people being there friends jus holla back, an then they seem like they care but then really dont do they, but frist an formost there was something said on a date that shall never beforgot, something that some people will understand after reading this a few times an look at the aftermath of things, "Will the angel's bring me peace an also comfort me when i shall join them?" you should ask urself this question this is only one of the many questions that i have, i will get all of them questions answered one day everyone shall see these questions getting answered. Is there rea

My Mind Is My Church!
Nothing new as far as generals go. I've been thinking a lot about what motivates me to acheive and accomplish things in life, and it is a sad and lame ass story that nothing really does except Wicca. With Wicca I get motivated to experience things and experience life to the fullest, and be active, and all the shit that goes along with all of that. But then I sit back and ask the question What for? There really is no need to get into all the herbs, candles, and incense, and there's no need for the books and all the lessons that go with it. There really is no need for me to find some specific Wiccan school to go to, there is no need for me to find a sacred temple at all. The simple philosophy that my mind is my church and temple, and all that I need is right there presents me with the issue that maybe I should be spending mone on something more worthwhile. But for me, Wicca is worthwhile because it literally did save my life and does provide me with continual interests. I like Wic

My Minds Emotions
I still feel like I'm about to cry and it's driving me nuts. Its been months and it usually leaves by now. My demons from my past are creating trouble along with the current life situation. My demons... There is nothing like being a 14 year old girl getting a call from her male twin best friends saying their parents have been killed in a head in car crash. The other driver was driving an semi-truck and was driving drunk. Just 2 weeks later they introduced me to a guy nicknamed JJ who asked me out. I said no because I was interested in one of the twins. August 14th 1997 im helping the twins pack the big house and one twin "c" left to get food from a 24HR food place. JJ showed up and wanted to know where I was but the twin "k" who was home with me had me hide in a hall closet. JJ got angry and came to hurt me because I did not want to date him. After JJ went looking through the house and did not find me, he pulled out his knife and gun and shot "k" 36 times and stabbed "k

My Mind
The pain in my heartKeeps ripping me apartThe thoughts in my headTell me to make you deadThe hate inside of meKeeps me thinkingLaying in my bed at nightThe things going on filled with frightStrangers just walking byHow many ways can they dieMy hands , a gun or knifeAll tools to end a lifeFilled with so much hateThis can't just be heart breakThe years trieng to bury itNow I have to live with itAll this painTrapt inside my brainThe way I walk , talk and dressExpressions of my mind's messYou make fun of meI want to make my fantasy a realityIt starts with a lifeIntroduce a knifeStabbing at your headNow you're deadI'm the one laughing nowYour friends are crieng nowYou wanna make funTalk to this gunI pull the triggerJust one fingerHow many people can I killHow much blood can I spillI'm filled with rageExpress it page after pageYou wonder what's wrong with meTry spending one day as meFingers pointingFaces stareingI feel frustratedAlways aggravatedI want to hideAway from my mindSitting by a tr

My Miracle Cure
I can remember everything from age thirteen on....I mean down to the very last detail..wat I wore on a certain day..every damn word that was said from then on out...who said it..where we were....wat we ate drank...the room setting...there is nothing I don't remember from that age on...all the memories...the nightmares..the harsh words..the struggles..the obstacles..the fear I was feeling...the terror of thinking I was going to die....the looks on the faces of those who have hurt me..the lack of remorse...the rage in their face and in their tone...just knowing that was the moment I was going to die....imagine having all of those voices..the names..the numbers..the images..I remember it all...there is nothing I forget...i carry that around with me every damn day...the medication..that's all it is...a pil..it's not a miracle cure...it doesn't make things fade away or easier to deal with...there is no magic pill....you learn to drown it out...but it is just a quick fi

My Mind
expectations from the world willed my troubled mind. pain is my reward from father time. tantalizing thoughts of suicide start to rise. Time for me to take one last cry. O where does the angle of death lie. With My words spoke. transforming my surroundings to a blue sky. Looking around dismayed but never fearful. I have come home to a world that's cheerful.destroying the dark Just by taking one step. over the border my foot, one step. Here comes the next foot as i take a deep breath. Hand up to my heart gripping my chest. Giving up my heart to god is what i do next. this is a moral judgment. Not a statement not a test. Open up your heart and the light will do the rest.

My Mind's Rant
Demons are haunting meMy thoughts are taunting meWhen will this changeWish I could pause everything and rearrangeMy dreams seem strangeFeel like a dead man walkingDeath at the front door knockingYou think i'm just talkingI can't reveal my pastHow much longer can I lastThings are wrong with me that keeps me unhappyI can't mention them so things remain crappyWill I ever get to be happyYou think I have it madeBut I didn't make the gradeWhy would anyone date me if everyone else is an upgrade?My mind is being displayedBut only in sectionsToo many mistakes with no correctionsI'm lost within myself with no directionsSurrounded by people and still feel aloneScared to leave the friend zoneEven with the words i've shown my life is unknownYou say I can tell you anything , but I can'tSo I continue my mind's rant

My Mind
“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

My Mistake
I miss the smile you had when I walked into the room, I still replay in my head all the times you said baby girl I love you too. When I first met you I never envisioned sitting here filled with regret, I know this is all my doing that is why I am so upset. I pushed you away so much and for so long, I know I made you feel like loving me was wrong. I let the fear I had over come me, That is the only reason I set you free. You were right when you said you were paying for his mistakes, I just wish the damaged he caused hadn't put our love at stake. I gave you all I had to give, I would of gave you my last breath to help you live. I know I will have to live with the choice I made, I just wish the second time around I would of been more truthful maybe then you would of stayed. My insecurities and fucked up head allowed me to run you off for the second time, I know what you want me to do but baby there is no more trying. I begged for you to tell me good bye with m

My Mistakes...
All of my mistakes were made, With the best of intentions, Every one of them, Because I was blind, I didn't want to see, So I closed my eyes, While every night I prayed, That God would open up my eyes... A hard heart can't love, Untill it is broken, The only regrets I have, Are Love unspoken And all the wounded hearts my pride left behind. I couldn't see past the pain, Coz all I was inside,

My Mma Action Schedual
Just to let everyone know I am schedualed to fight (MMA Cagefight) on these following days so if you are in the area come check it out. May 20, 2009- Illinois May 23, 2009- Junkyard Bar & Grill (Portage, IN) June 13, 2009- Kancikee, IN June 27, 2009- Porter County Fair Grounds (Portage, IN)

My Moral Standing Is Lying Down
not much is new, i have sort of had a boring day mostly sitting around on the computer and such, though i started watching blue collar comedy which was making me laugh my ass off, and talking to my friend ember which is niftyful. she downloaded aim just to talk to me on it so i feels specialness. i think i've been corrupted lol, tho i don't think i ever truly had morales i just pretended i did and didn't let it effect others but i don't really care anymore. i'm to young to spend my life constantly worrying and sitting around doing nothing. i need to experience things and life, i always come to this conclusion yet never really do it because social situations and always just getting to feeling i ought not cuz its not right or something. i sold my soul the day i fell in love with alexz, and can't expect to ever have it back again. probably sold it long before that. i started two new short stories today which is always niftyful. inspiration can come from anywhere hehe i must thank

My Mom
I thought I would give you all an update. I am the kind of person when it comes to this I keep to myself. One person knows everything that is going on only because he knows me and my mom. Anyways she is stable now. Her heart stopped for about 5 mins on Friday so all week and weekend I have been with her. They plan to keep her at least another week for observation and testing. Thanks all for understanding my absense. Hugs

My Mouth
Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

My Move
Well, I just wanted to let all my friends know I won't be online for awhile. I am moving next weekend but I am thinking about taking my puter to my new place in the middle of the week. I will miss everyone while I am offline but I won't forget my true friends. I am doing better since my surgery. I seem to have more energy. I am just hoping one day soon I will get back to normal. Well I am gonna close for now. I will let each one of you know when I come back online.

My Mother Is Weird
GOOD NEWS! I just talked to my mother and I can rest easily now.Seems she had a few drinks and packed not only a box of crap for me but for my sister as well. Seems she sent my sister MY report cards and she sent me hers. I feel so much better knowing my sister is sitting in her house right now, opening a box of crap from our mother.............. and thinking to herself........... WTF?????????????????

My Mother's Insanity....part Deux
YAY! Got another box sent to me by my mother. I have since learned to open these with great caution and brace myself because well......see post about my mothers insanity, it explains it. This time in the box was once again a combination of items ranging from useful to WTF????? Contents this time.......... A book to job hunting (uhhhhh not looking for a job! ) One do it yourself gingerbread house kit( what am I martha fuckin stewart?) One pound of jamacian coffee ( thats cool!) One tshirt that is scary beyond all reason ( blue and white stripe with BIG ASS nautical like symbol on it. no I do NOT belong to a yacht club!) Strange stuffed animal ( for the kid I guess) One butt ugly precious moments like picture frame with a meanful like saying framed in it (ew ew ew ew *shudder* ew ew ew ) And the the piece de resistance................ MY 4TH PLACE MATH FAIR RIBBON I WON IN 1980( with a small stuffed penguin tied to it) once again.............

My Mood Today!
I am in a really bad mood today so if I dont get back to you right away its because of my mood and I dont want to say anything to offend anyone.....I will get back to you when I feel better...I promise......To all my friends and family....I love you all so please feel free to leave me messages i will get back to you soon!! Love LeAnn aka ~*~Twisted Illusions~*~

My Mom Was In A Car Accident.
ATTENTION ALL FAMILY & FRIENDS: KinkyScreams my mom. She was in a bad car accident last night. She is going to be fine an was released for the hospital this afternoon. She was returning from a gala in Detroit after a photo shoot for one of her companys she works for. And was broad sided. Totalled her camero she was driven. She has a concusion an is cut up some but will be back. She sends her love to all of you. And misses you. DJ KinkyScreams~~Juggalette Homie~~@ LostCherry Much Clown Love to you all. NEEDLES~Juggalo Homie~ Needles~+~Juggalo Homie ~+~@ LostCherry

My Mother Is The Sweetest
My mother is the sweetest and Most delicate of all. She knows more of paradise Than angels can recall. She's not only beautiful But passionately young, Playful as a kid, yet wise As one who has lived long. Her love is like the rush of life, A bubbling, laughing spring That runs through all like liquid light And makes the mountains sing. And makes the meadows turn to flower And trees to choicest fruit. She is at once the field and bower In which our hearts take root. She is at once the sea and shore, Our freedom and our past. With her we launch our daring ships Yet keep the things that last.

My Mouth Obediently
The night is stiflingly hot. The window is wide open and the light, ocean breeze is barely less than warm and not enough to relieve the heat. We lay next to each other on top of the covers, too hot to touch. Eyes closed you try to relax in the heat and you wait for the next faint breeze to offer some relief. You feel me shift my position next to you. After a moment you open your eyes to see me propped up on an elbow looking at your body beside mine. You smile as you watch me gaze glide over you; over the curves of you body all softened by the mockingly cool blue light of the moon sreaming through the window. You close you eyes again intent on sleep when you feel my move closer. You think "Not tonight... it is just too hot." Waiting for the inevitable touch you are surprised when you feel my cool breath blowing on your neck. You relax and enjoy the cool sensation as the air dances across your hot, sticky skin. I draw a new breath and the cool air washes down yo

My Mouth
What People Think of Your Mouth People see you both as reserved and sweet. You tend to be very sensitive and detail oriented. The smallest things can please or annoy you. You tend to be internally moody. Perceptive and intuitive, you understand people quickly - though you usually won't tell them. What Does Your Mouth Say About You?

My Mom's Best Friend
Hope had been my Mom's best friend since I can remember. Of course, I was only 18, so as friendships go, It was forever as far as I was concerned. I have known her and been around her so much that she was as much an Aunt or other close family member than just a friend. Hope and my Mom are the same age. They went to high school together, then college, and after they were married, lived in the same neighborhood. I have never thought of her as anything more than a very close friend and the idea of looking at her sexually never crossed my mind. One sad day, Hope's husband Jerry had a heart attack and died. He was a young 42, four years older than Hope. It was such a loss for all of us, but from this incident, came a moment so special that I cherish it. About a month after Jerry died, Hope was just beginning to end her grieving, and she asked my Mom if I would be interested in helping her move some things out and help her get on with life. Of course, she said I would, and I was happ

My Movie
hey folks. i was part of a movie that was shot at work this past summer. the trailer is now available on line. I play Hotel Owner #1 http://www.hauntedrandrstation.com/trailer/trailerhome.htm thats where the trailer can be viewed. Have a great day Todd

My Monday The 20th
I have met some really cool people these past 3 days and you know who you are each and everyone also thanks to cherrytap i found an old friend from yahoo that i used to hang out with in a chat room called flirting:5 lol none of us hang out there anymore most of them got a life then others moved to new rooms, like my yahoo sister tammy shes still there but moved into number 6 god love her. As most of you know i posted new pics today yeah yayy exciting then i realised when i got home from the hair dressers that i will need to take new ones ... What did she do to her hair!!!!! haha sorry guys if i still have you reading this you really need to think about ass plugs this following sentence is for the guys.fi uoy egassem em retfa gnidaer siht dna dnes em eht edoc drow i evah a laiceps wen cip rof uoy eht edoc si 410nsbi. So its been a long day dont worry female fans i will just pass you on the pic!! Anyway i think i have bored myself enough here i unno about you, Peace out and love to you a

My Monday
one more day...a short day too!! oh thank GOD. we get out at 2 pm tomorrow instead of 2:45 pm. and all i can say is "THANK GOD!!" cept i wont have anything to do when i get home anyway, my reasons for going to wilson are leavin tomorrow (aka hanging out wit reese and her bf...but reese leaves tomorrow) so i dont have a reason to jump the metro and go see zack (if he's there anyway). told rachel about him, she thought it was funny as hell to tell me he is too old. meh, dont have a chance anyway. everyone LOVED my hair! it was so funny to see people's reactions to the blue. my carpool (who didnt pick me up this morning cuz he was late) guy, zack s., stated that he now wants a gf who had her hair the same blue as mine. i laughed when he told me he was gonna make his next gf (whoever she is) call me and i get to dye her hair! it sounds like FUN! we had a class meeting today...i wish i could kill all the people who talk while the grade head is talking. it's so rude and it k

My Mother
My mother lost her battle with metastatic breast cancer tonight at 1030pm. She didn't give up until she was too exhausted to carry on. She has been struggling the last few days especially but she is resting now, in no more pain. She's with her mommy and daddy whom she loved so much and has missed for many years. I've lost not just my mother but my best friend. Nothing in my life has prepared me for this. We've been thru alot together, she's always been my rock, my comfort. And that's just me, her grandchildren, her husband, her son, her brothers and sister (Nyne), cousins, friends, are all suffering the loss and a very large part of our hearts were torn out tonight. No one could ask for a better mother or friend. She touched many lives and will be missed so very much. She was the kind of person people were drawn too, she was very wise, and very caring, she made people laugh even when they felt they couldn't, she would bring a smile to their face. Thunder Bear was her Indian name, Carl

My Mom Is Dying.
I got some bad news recently. My mom was diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer. She has to have her breast removed and go on chemo. She has a 50% chance to live the next 5 years. I am super close to my mom and this is killing me. It's so hard. I can't really think...I've been in a daze. I'm going with her to the doctor tomorrow, maybe we'll hear some good news.

My Moon
it is anther beautiful day with you my angle i wake up today with ur eyes how much they beautiful how much i love u hello cherries i missed all of u it just i feel some thing special inside my heart and i want to say i love all of u my friends so i write some thing for all of u i wish u all doing well i love all of u and i wish i have to take care about all of u but iam so far but i think my heart with all of u iam so happy cause i have all of u my friends i think u all helping my life here thanks from full my heart and thanks to u my princess always u with me 3 b w trible_xxx-alfa-fox-99

My Model Pick Of The Month
her name is rhonda adams, she was considered number three out of a top ten of internet models off of netscape. and out of them all, i really thought she should have been number one. so my solute to her and her outstanding beauty: | View Show | Create Your Own

My Mom Is The Stuff Of Stand Up Comedy
Often my mother likes to lament how dramatic I am. She always says, "Oh, Amy why are so dramatic" or "You're upset over nothing you need to calm down" Now where could this overeacting, overly dramatic tendency come from? Certainly not my father who only yells about money, grades..etc. Well especially money because I refuse to balance my check book and he's a CPA. I do this just to make him a little crazy. I'll admit it my dad and I are very much alike except when it comes to dramatic personality. So now back to the mystery of where this drama comes from. Nancy Drew was on the case and we solved it last night when mom called to tell me and I quote "I've had an awful day, one of the dogs ate one of my new clogs and I'm just DEVASTATED" yup. She's devastated...hmmm. Gee that sounds awful dramatic to me. Especially since the rest of our conversation revolved around the said shoe. She even did some detective work of her own to figure out which dog did it. So I think my sciencetific study

My More Recent Work My Older Work Will Be Here As Soon As I Have The Time To Type It Out
rolling darkness A black existence. Where sky meets earth on the terrible horizon. Stretching out for centuries. Extending on and on in mingled, primordial shades of dimness. Mists mixing with air mixing with sky. And here I sit, so trivial. A fleck of sand in a wasteland of shattered glass. So disappointed. Wholly unmindful of the wonders of the world. Far too weary from regret. I peer out, through rust scented screen, out into the great, abyssal world below. And all at once, as the whistling wind and cooling rain blow in upon me I hear the howling moan. It burrows deep into my heart. A promise carried within the ungodly sound, an oath of suffering. And grief is abruptly summoned by this night. And with it, the uninvited monster of woe. Limitless, this beast, but with a soft, melodic whisper. It begs for me to relent. Implores that I would yield to it’s enticing request. The world opens it’s infinitely vast mouth and the mist below me presents itself with a loving vow. A promise

My Mom
My mom is different. She yells a whole lot. At times I want to talk to her, but then I think “Do I really want to?” Have a conversation that might go bad? I know she is my mom. At times, I’m embarassed that she is my mom. At other times, I’m proud. I want to see her, but I don’t! What Do I Do?

My Mom
My mom’s ‘different’ than most moms, and I know that. Everybody’s mom is going to be Different, of course, but my mom is a special kind of different, though. Some moms beat Their kid(s). My mom didn’t beat my sister nor myself. Some children can’t live with their Parent(s). My sister and I both had/have a little bit of Mom and Dad. Some kids can’t Get out of the unstable environment, into a clean, health, stable environment. My sister and I Both go tout. I guess what I’m trying to say is my parents aren’t totally perfect. But then again, Who is perfect? With my mother’s mental illness, she did the best to her capability at the time. As far as my Dad, he also did his best. It may not have been to the best of his capability, but how Do you expect someone to try and raise his children and to please his mentally ill wife at the same Time? One wrong move he makes in raising his girls or in his marriage and his wife wa

My Move
Well here it is December 27th, 2006.....I am 32 years old, was married for almost 8 years and now seperated for the past 8 months or so. Well the time has come to finally move into my own place come friday....and personally i'm scared shitless.......This will be the first time i have ever lived ALONE!!!!!!!!! It's one of my biggest fears....I'm extremely excited and yet i'm very nervous at the same time...I love my new apartment..it's very cozy and quiet....I guess I just wish i had someone to share it with.

My Mother...
We missed my dad very much with Christmas, but he is still in our hearts. We will never forget him! Love you dear daddy, where ever you are in heaven... Best friends forever mom and me picking flowers and climbing trees. a shoulder to cry on, secrets to share Warm hearts and hands that really care. Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from www.sexiluv.com

My Mother
SWEET AND GENTLE, KIND AND WARM IS MY MOTHERS LOVE, SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, MY MARRIAGE, AND SUCH MOM BLESSED IT ALL WITH HER LOVING TOUCH YEARS FLEW BY, I MET A MAN MAKING MISTAKES, MOM STILL UNDERSTANDS THROUGH DIVORCE, HEARTACHES, SORROW AND TEARS THIS LOVING WOMAN STOOD BY ME ALL THOSE YEARS SO TO YOU DEAR MOTHER, I WILL TAKE A STAND AT BEING THE BEST THAT I POSSDIBLY CAN ILL MAKE YOU PROUD, JUST WAIT, YOULL SEE THATS MY GIFT TO YOU MOTHER, LOVE ME....... WROTE THIS TO MY MOTHER DEC 2002. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!

My Mottos
My Mottos Here are a few of my mottos, I wrote them on my friend Eric's blog but decided I liked them and wanted to post them myself so here they are... 1) The past is gone, the future is far in the distance but the present is now. So live for the present because it is what matters. 2) This is a fairly new one. It kind of points out the extremes we make. If we care for something or want something so bad we lose sight of ourselves and we become obsessed, our mind becomes closed and our vision narrowed to where we would give up everything to get that particular thing. The other extreme is to not care at all. In this we lose all ambition and drive to accomplish goals. But if we care without caring (yeah it seems to be a contradictory belief) we will suceed. You ask what does this mean? Well, let me give an example. Say I want something if I cared too much I would obsess for it, if I didn't care I wouldn't try, but if I care enough to try but not care enough if I don

My Momma
Ok so I just got off the phone with my mom and i cannot tell yall how much that woman rocks! some but most would never know that yrs back we were not the "closest" of relatives. i think that we both grew up and grew closer as we have gotten older. i think that we now understand each other much better and also realize it's ok if we are different. but for all of our differences we are really quite a lot alike. funny how that happens really. we are both strong women and we have finally grown to love, respect, and admire the other. i love her and she knows it, but i dont think she will ever truly understand how i feel about her. all i can say is she is "the shit" and i just hope that i have a tenth of what she has. the good, the bad, or the ugly, no matter i will take it. besides shes the one who gave me the nice tits and great skin. HAHAHA so as yall read this call your mom (or whatever family member you are close to) and tell her/them how you really feel about them. it will make their da

My Mother
Ok my mom goes out of town for work and she is goin to be gone for a few days. So her being the "pack rat, dont clean anythin" person, and me being "OCD" i get to started on cleaning the min she leaves. I clean the kitchen, livin room, and dining room. I cleaned for 7-8 hours that day, and bought a mop, and some cleaning stuff, and mop the floors and etc. Well the kitchen is sooooo clean ya can eat off the counters now. The kitchen is the main part of the house where I have to have it spotless. When she is here the kitchen is a nightmare from hell, you dont even wanna cook in it, hell you dont wanna go in it. Anyways, so the kitchen stayed clean for the 1st time in years, thanks to me. I even put up a curtain in there, and if ya ask me, it makes me think of spring when im in there. Well she comes home this morning at 3:30 am, and i look at my phone and im like, huh todays Fri. She wasnt supposed to be home till Sat. Well i get up from bed at 7:30 and shes up, do you think she says "hey

My Mouth Costs Me Once Again
Today my sister had her divorce hearing. Very simple you see, just show up at the court house with the lawyer and a couple of witnesses that can vouch that she and the mongoon she married have been seperated for a year. I tried my best not to go. I never liked this person she married, even before she married him. Nor do I care for his family. Just my preference. I am pretty picky about people I befriend, especially in the real life scene. Anywho, to continue my babble, she insist that I go, knowing that 98% of the time, my mouth speaks before my brain has even thought about thinking. I am not one that cares who hears me speak my mind. It's my mind and by God, my fat ass can speak it whenever I choose. SO, I really went in the courtroom trying to be nice. I was even smiling. OK, it was a shit eating grin, but hey, it looked like a fucking smile. I sit through all of the bullshit until it's my turn to take the little stand. The judge ask me the questions, I answer. This sh

My Mood
I haven't been online much lately... been trying to deal with some very disturbing issues at home. I dont' want my friends to think I am abandoning them though.. I still luv ya all, just trying to get my head straight and figure out what I'm going to do.

My Morning
i got up pretty early and then went back to bed after i made sure everything was ok. i got back up in the early afternoon and decided i was gonna make myself breakfast. i go in the kitchen and get the eggs out and make myself some scrambled eggs. i came back into the living room and i plaved the plate on top of my monitor. as i went to type something don't you know the plate came tumbling down all over me, the keyboard and then hit the floor. i spent all that damn time making myself food for it to go everywhere but in my damn mouth. at least my dogs cleaned it up off the floor.

My Mom...
Saturday my mom finally a diagnosis of what has been an on-going problem for almost a year. She's been chronically tired, flu like symptoms at times, arthritis flares and rashes. She's had test after test and no doctor seemed to be able to figure out what was going on with her. Luckily the doctor she's been seeing has been leaning towards a Lupus diagnosis. Initial blood tests showed 11 high marks out of 14, but you need to have all 14 for a true diagnosis. She developed rashes on her back that she says look like raw meat. The doctor biopsied those rashes and the results arrived on Saturday. She has Systemic Lupus. She is relieved and concerned with the diagnosis. Relief in that the doctor can now treat her symptoms and concern that my brother or I could eventually develop Lupus. It runs on both sides of my family. Maternal - my mom & possibly my grandmother, but she was never diagnosed & is deceased now. And paternal - my dad's Aunt had Lupus. I got the following information at

My Mom
to all the people who view this my mom is fighting cancer an is undergoing chemo treatment and is very sick an i am pretty much very worried about her so if it is cool with any one who reads this can you please pray that she might get better thanks for stoppin bye an readin myspace

My Morning(damn It Says I)
In the morning I was sleeping and Spicy was barking. I thought nothing of it at first..well that was until she jumped and landed on my stomach. I'll have to say a 90 something pound animal jumping on your stomach tends to hurt. I just looked at the dog like she was crazy, then said to the dog, "Oh...you suck" So then I did my hair, and just as I was about to open my door I slipped on the dog's toy and landed on my ass. Yet again I looked at the dog and said "Oh...you suck" Well Im off to life and so forth...

My Mom
mom i miss u alot.i love u with all my hearty and soul i know u are in a better place with no more pain and suffering.passed away dec21 2006 buried her dec 24 2006.u were my life its hard knowing i cant pick up the phone to call u and tell u i love u..

My Mood
s i sit here typen how my mood is,some people think my life is wonderful and grand. only a few select knows what ive been through in the past year and a half. so much mental abuse i have taken within the past that it has taken a toll on me in a way that it is hard to forget, thats why i work 2 jobs so that i can try to foget the past but hasnt worked,i'm fine wile i'm worken but when i have a day or night off it comes back and beats me down, hard for me to have a social life , its scary because it makes me think i will go through the same mess over . i tried to have a relationship with someone special to me but couldnt not that i dont but its just hard for me right now. i have seen people go through mental abuse in the past but now i know how they feel and it hurts from deep in the heart , feels worse than loosing a loved one cause u get so beat up inside that u start beliving wut that person said u r, sorry for the messed up blog but this is how i feel, i want to have a r

My Mood Part 2
just a little note from last nites blog, what had started this episode last night was my first x beat me down mentaly this past week by malipulating my mind and i lost a few thousand dollars from it, she has a new bf now and he is useing my kids to get through her, my kids live with her for the time being but i have full custody of them, my kids and i were tight up until last week when the new guy came into the pic, now its like they dont want anything to do with me, i was off last 3 nites and they new it but still nothing,every time when things look up for me something else bits me in the ass, i will be glad when things get better and stay better, more later i gotta get to work

My Mood Part 3
to all my friends family and fans;;;;;;;;;;;; sorry i havent been on here much latly guess i been ignoring everyone especially the one person i hold so dearly but guess its part of the territory of worken so many hours, now i dont need to work the night shift but being alone here with no one in person for me i get bored and this is the only way i can occupy my free time so that i will not get into trouble or being alone. so i apologize to everyone and in between jobs i try to get very little rest that i can get, hope this will ease people's mind why i havent been on here, i will write more at a later time thanks