i sit her everyday and try to figure why i am so out of it why i have so many issues and all i can think is it was ment to be this way for me i am a very nice guy and i seem to have alot of problems with alot of things no matter how hard i try i seem to always make a mistake then you realize that its just part of life i guess i am here and life is what you make it so i guess if you want a good life and a happy life you should make it that way no matter what blocks life dish you