In my mind there are answers and perfect solutions for everything I have ever done or wanted to do. I could justify my actions not only to myself but other people too mostly because they wanted to believe me so they stayed up there in my head too. It made perfect sense that if you wanted to understand my reasoning that you had to live within my reasoning and leave yours at the door. So by the end of the whole deal I ended up with a really big headache and too many people attempting to decifer the answers and perfect solutions so that they could live in harmony with me. Now I really wish that I hadn't allowed them to come in to attempt to understand me because now I don't understand me and their own answers and perfect solutions are starting to bleed into mine and I can't decifer between what is my own in my head and what they brought in. The whole point of why what was in my head was perfect was that it was mine and mine alone and I didn't have to share it with anyone else. Damn it--They all need to get out of my head and back into their own!! GRRG!! I am sick and tired of co-existing with these people. They serve no purpose to me or to what is mine and they just keep screwing up my way of thinking. I am my own influence. They are my own influence and I don't think I like the lines of me and them having gotten soo blurred.
