Oh My God. My insides are hurting, this pain is unbearable. The girl I have been talking to recently has shot down all my hopes and dreams of finding true happiness. No matter what anyone would say she was perfect for me. Her personality and main big interests matched me so well I was thinking I found the one. I still believe that. I don't think I honestly will find one exactly like her and I've talked to lots. This one captured and interested me like no other has. Funny how we was planning on meeting, even when we talked earlier today she said yes that the plans were still on. Then her phone mysteriously is turned off! Not just off, but really off! Says the number has been changed, disconnected, or out of service! WTF? After everything we have talked about and said to each other. I feel like I was played and lead on. Just to torment me and kill my hopes and plans. So many wonderful things said between us and now what? I had a ton of wonderful fun things for us to do together around town. Now I feel like I have no will left in me. I can't eat, yet I'm starving, and I can't drink even though I got a bottle of tequila. I feel like I'm dieing inside and wish it would hurry up and end. She also has a myspace page. I have been erased from her friend's list and I know because her page is set private. I take it it's over and nothing is going to happen now. Apparently seems she doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. I didn't do anything wrong at all, except care about her and offer my heart. I wish I could hear her voice. I wish I could have an explanation of what is really going on! Yet like always I'm left hanging in the dark, sobbing and not knowing what to do or say anymore. I wish someone could take this pain away but only she can. Why am I the one always to feel this. All these girls say they are the ones treated like crap, everytime. We'll here is the one good guy were it is all reversed and I'm the one getting the shit end of the stick! I could keep going but what does it matter? Who honestly does care about the good guy? My heart has been ripped out, stomped on, spit on, and shredded into pieces. Finally tossed into a gutter to rot.
{Massacre's heart breaks}
