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West Tshirt Contest
Dinos Bar & GrillWet T-ShirtContestApril 24 @ 9pmRules 1. White T-Shirt with Dino's on it(be creative) 2.You Will get 1 Song a piece to win the judges over 3.No Bra and No Skin during Contest Requierments for viewers1.1,000 fubuck Door Fee Prior to contest(5min to pay during, if not recieved-Eject)1b. Contest door fee collected by DJ ICE2.Must Rate and Fan all Contestants3. NO WARNING for VULGER comment(Immediate EJECT with NO REFUND) judges criteria 1.creativity 2.overall look and style 3 song choice/performance prizes. 1st- win one month vip 2nd.60% take 3rd-40%take

Random Thoughts
here i sit in the darkness afraid ta live and wanting to die. the only thing that keeps me going is my one family member that i claim the rest have been disowned by me. my heart is sad that it has come to this with them i sit here tears running down my face. i feel trapped by life but i know i cant die. i sit here knife in my hand. i look at the knife and will myself to end it but i wont cause i love my bro so here i sit alone and afraid but yet comforted by the fact the no matter what my bro has my back. as strange as it seems my brother keeps me going and keeps me sane ty bro.

Do Not Lie.
It has come to my understanding that when someone says they love you. They show it by never leaving you. Never fucking you over. Never turning their back on you. Being there for you. To hold you. To show you love. To treat you with love. To be the personification of love. Love is never boastful or prideful. Never lies or cheats. Never comes with strings attached. Love is kind, and patient. Understanding and committed. If you do not like committment, do not fucking tell someone you love them. God's of the universe damn you if you ever fucking tell someone you love them and then do not fucking follow through. Fuck you and you're wishy-washy ways. Fuck you and everything you stand for. Fuck you and the horse you rode in on. Fuck you for making me feel this way. Fuck you for making me say fuck you too many times to even make this sound coherent anymore. FUCK.

Up For Auction! Look Here
COME BY MZCH@OS IS HAVING A AUCTION FOR EARTH DAY! AND GUESS WHO UP FOR AUCTION AKAMR.S T! CLICK ON MY PIC AND RATE/BID...............MUAH! SAVE OUR PLANET! HOSTED BY MZCH@OS♥MzCh@osR☼xx♥R/L Wifey 2 TinMan22/Own'd by Cassandratoo/SexyMexicanChica♥@ fubar

Soo Sad
Well today while I was out visiting my Best friend I decided to stop by my old house. My family bought it back in 98 or 99; we sold it back in 2003 to move up to Missouri. It was heart breaking to see what was once the most beautiful house has now turned in to. The yard was torn up in must places and in others the grass was higher than my ankles. There are gas cans and trash everywhere in the yard, even a broken down ass pos sitting in the drive. I am afraid to even think about what the inside looks like. About a year before we sold it my father built a beautiful dinning room with an arched doorway, it was just beautiful the way my mother and father had fixed it but turned it in to this great house and all… Sorry but this just breaks my heart.

Ex's
Well, my ex husband is being a total asshole to me.. I got some legal papers from him Saturday afternoon saying that he was going for custody of our kids, I was a unfit mother, which im not. He is also saying a bunch of other shit. He is trying to make himself out to be the perfect father and that he has done nothing wrong. Well, I can surely tell you he isn't. He puts everything and everyone one before his kids. When I got these papers my blood pressure shot thru the roof. I was ready to strangle his ass when I got them. He is so scared to even talk to me cuz he thinks im gonna say something to him about it. Everything thing that I do now is thru my lawyer.. I've had about enuff of his shit and im done playing games with him. Well, now im out for blood. He should know me after 14 yrs that when ya piss me off the bitch mode comes out. So, now he's gonna see the bitch in me.. God help him! Im not sure that I can handle much more of him, cuz right now I have enuff on my plate and it'

Help...and Stuff
So, I'm compiling ideas for geek like tattoos for a 3/4 sleeve for my left arm. The main design of the tattoo, which will take up most of the space, I think, will be the blueprint for a printed circuit board. Basically a bunch of interconnected lines detailing how circuitry components interconnect on electronics. That may even be the tattoo in it's entirety, something simple. But I'm not sure if it will be filled in enough to really look right. I have skinny arms so not a lot of real estate to fill. So, if I could have ideas from people, that would be awesome! I've already gotten a couple, but the more the merrier! Gracias.

Samantha Reveals All
HELLO AND WELCOME.... Check out my Blog to see what I'm up to these days. I can show you a secret that you will really love and appreciate. Hurry, because it's almost time for bed. Samantha http://growthsystem.blogspot.com/

Feel Bad Dad
i feel bad, my lil princess works as a counselor in a home for troubled teen girls. two of them were arguing and she went to go diffuse the situation when the girl that was in her room slammed the door. it pinched off the tip of her middle finger, taking all the meat from the bone up. she went to the trauma center and they flapped it and closed it over the bone. instead of going home after this she went back to work to talk to the girl to tell her she wasn`t mad at her. the girl is one of my daughters favorites and she knew it was an accident. she made sure she lost none of her privileges and took her to lunch today i feel bad i wasn`t there to hug her but i am so proud of her for thinking more of her young charge than her own injury.

How Is Not Giving Out My Yahoo Im Drama?
I don't get it... lol. He was the one who randomly shout boxed me. It's read from the bottom up. No Drama Q...: NO drama, MEANS no dramaNo Drama Q...: buzz off->No Drama Q...: lol ok. If you had read my profile you would have knownNo Drama Q...: whateva->No Drama Q...: I don't give it outNo Drama Q...: cool, what's your yahoo?->No Drama Q...: yesNo Drama Q...: question, do u have yahoo messenger?

Today Sucked
Ok so today the head gasket blew in my car. I made it part way to work and it just died on me. Waited about an hour and it started again so I turned and tried to make it home. Got about two miles from my house and it died for good. Now I'm stuck. If I get someone to change the headgasket (Or attempt to) and it's more than that who knows how much I will end up spending. GAWD I'm hating life right now!

Hopeless
I am living life one day at a time. i rather love and loose than not love at all. we all have our weaknesses and our strongness but we all get hurt somehow someway. i hope everyone who loves dont end up in the same kind of situation i am in right now. but for me i cant stop loving no matter how much i get hurt. she is my future my love of my life and she can do no wrong as long as she comes home to me at night. i know am alot soft hearted but i cant help myself when i look in those blue eyes i melt. she has me wrapped up tight in the palm of her hands and i cant seem to exscape the clutches and i dont want to either.

Help A Deployed Soldier
Ever wanted to do something for a soldier overseas but didn't know anyone over there.... Now you don't have to. There is a great website that you can log into and be able to send letters, cards, care packages, ect.. Just go to http://www.anysoldier.com and click on where to send. You can search through them and find one you wish to send to. You can look by state, location they are at, or by branch. Then all you have to do is get the address and send your package on it's way. There are men and women both on there and most of the time the packages you send gets distrubuted to more than one person. Some of the service personel on there get more packages than others so you can look and see how many times the address of a particular soldier was requested. Just remember that these soldiers are trying there best not to get hurt so they do not have time to send thank yous to everyone they get packages from. So if you are doing it to get a reply then this is not the site for you.

Lesson Learn Never Type Wrong Email Address
Wrong Email Address This one is priceless! A lesson to be learned from typing the wrong email address!!! A Calgary couple decided to go to Florida to thaw out during a particularly icy winter. They planned to stay at the same hotel where they spent their honeymoon 20 years earlier. Because of hectic schedules, it was difficult to coordinate their travel schedules. So the husband left Calgary and flew to Florida on Thursday, with his wife flying down the following day. The husband checked into the hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an email to his wife. However, he accidentally left out one letter in her email address, and without realizing his error, sent the email. Meanwhile, somewhere in Vancouver , a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral. He was a minister who was called home to glory following a heart attack. The widow decided to check her email expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message, she scre

Some Random Writings
A person very dear to me inspired me to write this...it is something that fits a lot of different people in my life but I as I am writing this I have two very special people in mind so here goes:I have neededI have neededNeeded to know youTo have you in my lifeI have waited so longI have neededNeeded to learnTo experiance new thingsI have tried 2 be advendtrousI have needed Needed someoneSome one 2 hold me when I am blueI have been holdin on 2 uI have neededNeeded to find a dreamTo fallow that dreamI have been dreaming of youI have neededNeeded someone to accept meTo truely love meI have waited so patiently 4 uBecause most of all I have needed youNeeded to be held by youTo be loved by you..... let me know what you think

The End?
Ahh it’s been awile and it might be an even longer while. As many of you may or may not know, I’ve been on this site for almost three years. Through many ups and downs, highs and lows, personal and mostly not so much, I’ve always been well, pretty much the same. You knew what to expect when you came here. You knew what I was going to say in a shoutbox conversation or a message. What not to expect from me: cash , blings , camera shows , lounge drama and phone calls. Yeah there’s a cute owl. That was cute back in the day when the site was more of a tighter knit community and people “got” the joke. There were many 20 hour days on here, many countless and sleepless nights. Many angles, many plots, many schemes. Did many of you know that at one point I was #23 in Top Scores, #7 Legend and got as high as Red overall Top Member #9? Did you know that me and my gf were the only Red top member real-life couple (she was #4 and I was #9)? .. That was nearly two

Now Where To Go?
Finally decided, we shall be moving to NJ. Either back to Spotswood/Helmetta or North Brunswick. So I guess I'll be looking to find "friends" in that area whom my wife & I can "connect" with. We put our house up for sale a coupleof weeks ago and we are hoping to move sometime in September. Is that a realistic timeframe in this market? Boy I hope so. Kinda tired of this area. Would like to get back closer to my kids in Plainsboro & closer to friends/family in Brooklyn. Would luv to move to Brooklyn, but I definitely can't afford a home in the areas I want such as Dyker Heights, Bensonhurst, Bay Ridge or Boro Park. Can't believe 30 yrs ago the house I lived in went for $35K & now it's around $850K. Wish I would stuck around and bought there all those yrs ago.

Brothas..sistas...love & Relationships
As I discuss issues with my fellow sistas, I have discovered it’s much harder for the good sistas to find a really good brotha. A brotha that is not focused on her nice curves but more on her spiritual relationship and her intellect. A brotha that’s not more interested with laying down with her vs. building a spiritual relationship together. I realized ladies, that if we seek after the spiritual relationship then everything we need from the brothas will fall into place! This is not a male bashing because there are some good brothas out there, at least I would like to think. Ladies, we must portray that spiritual relationship that I’m talking about. Now, if you’re not living the lifestyle, then you can expect to get that which you are living! But for the ladies that are living a spiritual lifestyle and still being approached by mess, continue moving forward in that which God has ordained for you. Right now, your ideal man is Him until He sends that man that is to

Beautiful Little Saying
I love you enough, to fight for you and compromise for you and sacrifice myself for you if need be, Enough to miss you incredibly when were apart no matter what the length of time is for and regardless of the distance . Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worse of times, to have faith in our strength and to never give up on us Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me , and never ever want to leave you or live without you. I Love you this much

420
Warren Haynes, the Allman Brothers Band guitarist, routinely plays with the surviving members of the Grateful Dead, now touring as The Dead. He's just finished a Dead show in Washington, D.C. and gets a pop quiz from the Huffington Post. Where does 420 come from? He pauses and thinks, hands on his side. "I don't know the real origin. I know myths and rumors," he says. "I'm really confused about the first time I heard it. It was like a police code for smoking in progress or something. What's the real story?" Depending on who you ask, or their state of inebriation, there are as many varieties of answers as strains of medical bud in California. It's the number of active chemicals in marijuana. It's teatime in Holland. It has something to do with Hitler's birthday. It's those numbers in that Bob Dylan song multiplied. The origin of the term 420, celebrated around the world by pot smokers every April 20th, has long been obscured by the clouded memories of the folks who made it a phenome

Changing Your Life...
So today has been a pretty quiet day and I thought it would be a good time to write down my thoughts... Overall, I am very satisfied with my life and accomplishments thus far. I just feel like there is this empty space that I want filled. I want a man in my life that I can have adult conversations with and enjoy adult time with. Now don't get me wrong, I have dated plenty in my 8 years of divorced life, but I want so much more than a 2 week relationship with a random stranger. Again, I am content with where I am in my life, but there are still many things that I want to accomplish and it would be great if I had a man, a best friend, and a supporter standing right beside me! He's out there..........I just hope he knows his purpose in my life when God presents it to him! : ) Everyone have a great evening!

What Is A Pawg?
Hello ladies. Just want to that these days their are a lot of pawgs out there and it seems some are proud of and some are not. But i am here to tell u all that being a pawg is the best thing in the world. So when you are walking down the street the next time u r out and about be proud of what u have behind u and show it in those tight ass jeans or behind closed doors with that lucky one. I do when i can and it makes me horny as hell.

Subway Fresh Fit 500 At Phoenix International Raceway
8:45 p.m. -- GREEN FLAG: Mark Martin and Kyle Busch get the Subway Fresh Fit 500 under way from Phoenix International Raceway. Lap 1 -- Mark Martin pulls ahead to lead the first lap as Kyle and Kurt Busch fall in line. Lap 5 -- Several battles have broken out in two-wide racing, beginning with Dale Earnhardt Jr. and Greg Biffle for 14th. Lap 10 -- David Reutimann has the fastest lap this time by. He runs in seventh. Lap 15 -- Mark Martin continues to lead and has the fastest car on the track this lap. Lap 17 -- Kurt Busch passes Kyle Busch for second place. Lap 20 -- Kyle Busch has fallen back to fifth position. Lap 23 -- David Reutimann moves around Kyle Busch for fifth position. Busch is complaining of a tight race car. Lap 26 -- Tony Stewart is on Jeff Gordon's tail in a developing battle for third place. Both drivers began the race with loose cars as part of their strategies. Lap 30 -- Regan Smith is hanging inside the top 10 in 10th after starting the race in nin

Relationship Hypocrisy
So once someone posts a mumm about open relationships, people become experts on what is right and what is wrong in relationships. Ofcourse me stating that I am pro open relationships when people are comfortable enough with each other, blah blah blah. And ofcourse all of a sudden that makes me and like ppl whores. Ironically, people that posted the most advice on which types of relationships are the "right" ones are either...hideous and insecure because of it, or single and in their 40s, or have indicated that they have been used and abused in their lives. Yeah, if thats not an indicator of a poor judgement, I don't know what is. One person that irks me the most is always on her high horse, calling ppl whores and skanks, while bragging about her hot husband and her wonderful relationship with him. Well, earlier she posted a mumm about them making plans to have a BBQ, then him completely disregarding those plans and inviting his friends over for a game without even asking her

Reason For My Fu Vacation
Two of my pics were reported as NSFW, I do not understand why they were reported. There were no sexually explicit bady parts showing and nothing offensive was said in either of the pics. I am not going to mention any names, but I was then accused by a former fu family member if reporting her pic(s) as NSFW because I was the last person in her folder. Its poddible that the person then went into one of my folders and reported a pic of a female covered in body paint(artistic) as NSFW. I felt attacked and betrayed, I do not like to deal with drama and to fix the situation I blocked several people, deleted 24 pages of so called friends and locked all of my folders so that only I can view them. Fubar support sent me a message stating that if the issue continued they would delete my account without notice. I did the only thing that I could do to protect myself from being attacked again and being forced out completely. I know that this is only an internet social gathering place but I ha

Men
I HATE when MEN talk 2 U say they want to see U and when U PUSH IT THEY BLOCK U!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO MEN WHO WANT U TO TALK DIRTY TO THEM AND THEN THEY BLOCK YOU!!!!!!!! WHATS UP WITH THAT????????? BUT WHEN THEY BLOCK U AND KEEP CHECKING U OUT????? I JUST WANTED A FRIEND!!!! SORRY!!!!!!!

Wishing You Were Her [for My Mother]
Another special day comes along I have a flash back of you,Being where you belongDuring the conversationsThere would be things I would loveThings I would hateIt felt so normalIt felt so timelessIt was not perfect but it was rightThat was then This is nowWhere have you gone?My love for you has not changedYou will still be here on this dayYou are always in my heartBut I find myselfLonging with my heartWishing you were here Wishing I could see youWishing we could experience this day togetherA whole family as oneStill I am wishing you were hereMore than just inside my heartI am longing for your presenceI wish you were here

Homeward Bound Indiana 5k Walk For The Homeless
We are joining the Homeward Bound 5K Walk for the Homeless.. Body: ...and you can help!Homeward Bound is a 5k walk to fight homelessness and provide housing. A yearly event across the state of Indiana that raises money through donations from people like us.We've decided to participate this year and you can help out by making a donation, joining my team, or signing up to walk! All donations are tax deductible of course, it is a charity! You can make donations securely online or you can contact me or any team member about picking up checks or money orders, made out to Homeward Bound- St Joseph County.We are getting very close to the May 9th walk date and we are very short of our goals. That is Mother's Day weekend, you could think about donating in your Mother's name??? There are so many homeless mothers that will spend Mother's Day with their children and no roof or dinner...reality hurts huh??Visit my personal donation page to learn more about Homeward Bound and how you can h

Back When
I keep on growing olderwith each and every stepEveryone starts judgingEmo, skater or prepWhy can't life be the way it wasWhen boys were always ickyWhen it didn't matter what you looked likeWhen my only love was MickeyI remember when getting highMeant you went really far up on the swingEveryone was happyWithout life's precious stingI remember Donald and GoofyPooh, Christopher Robin,Tigger and EeyoreAll the little smurfs That was long beforeBefore I grew upBefore I cared Before everything matteredBefore I needed to be preparedI wish I could returnTo be small againI wish time could reverseWhat would happen then?

When Will It Be My Turn?
When is it my turn To feel the tears burn? When can I cry And express the need to die? Why must I be strong And pretend that I belong? When can I be weak And receive the comfort I seek? I get exhausted from the pretense The pain is just so intense. I hide from all of my fears And continue to hide my tears. Why is it so wrong to show emotion When I feel I could cry enough to fill an ocean? Why can’t I be just another person Instead of letting the pain worsen?

New Friends
In my quest to Lost Soul, the one thing that I'm lacking is referrals. So, I've bugged a few real life friends (I only have a few), into signing up. Go and show them some love and a warm welcome! diva_escort@ fubar stevejr@ fubar cherry bomb@ fubar

Changing Animated Gifs Part 2
ok so here we are again had a few ask me how to further enhance the animated gif files i showed u how to make in my last blog my example is this pic (btw right click pic and then click view picture to enlarge it) well all this is done in animation shop so open animation shop then click file then click animation wizard this time when the wizard opens set the size to 300 x 300 click next again use opaqe background and use the color black click next then next again when u get to the box where u add image add the gif file you made from before then click next until u get to the box that says finish now click edit and then click select all now click the effects tab first lets add sum text so click effects then click apply text effect box will pop up so first click the font button on right side select your font and size (remember dont pick a font thats too big now once that is done to the left in the box type what you wanna say mine will say Mrs.Face now lets pic

Smiles
Today is friggin beautiful ouside and my mood is certainly reflecting it. I went and got insurance on my drivers license, so if I get pulled over I am not screwed. I feel like a big girl now, cuz I haven't had car insurance since I was married and that was for a short period. I know that it's illegal not to have it, I just couldn't afford it. So yay me, I iz legal!! Second, with the medical I got a little under $200 so I did the insurance and gave my mom $85 of it. At first she was like what am I suppose to do with this, and I said its basically 1/2 of what I got, and I had to get insurance. She was like you either need to get that surgery done or get a job, well the nerve conduction test is May 13th and if I need the surgery I am so doing it. I also told her once again to reassure her that my name is on the list at both the transitional housing place and the shelter. And believe you and me, if I get into one of those 2 places soon, I am soooooo jumping on it because I hate be

Possession...
So as the saying goes, ownership is 9/10th's of the Law. So my prolific question is, if you become fu-owned on-line, does this law still apply? I mean, come on, your in a virtual setting that only exists as a bunch of binary code in someone's server stack...So does the person who supposedly purchased you REALLY own you, or does the person who physically has possession of the server database own you? And if so, does that make that person some sort of deity/god-like figure since they possess some many profiles? I'm JUST sayin...Thoughts are always welcomed, just as are opinions...maybe I'll simply make this a MUMMM. And no, I don't do drugs and I'm not drunk.

Current Events/prison Corruption
The state of Ca has more people in prison than the entire Federal Prison System. There are more people on parole in CA than the total of all of the other 49 states combined. Ca has the only parole in the country that is 3 years long, extendable to 4 years. In reception centers, where inmates 1st go before being assigned their permanent living space, at a regular prison, there are approximately 75% parole violators caught in the "revolving door" syndrome. They say.... Come to California on vacation.... Go home on probation.

Will You Stay, Or Will You Go?
Ok, it's getting to be the time when i am tired of all the one-way friendships in here. I do my best with the time that i have, to try to stop by the pages of all my friends and at least rate their pages. And when i can, i go in and rate as many pics as i can. I guess my point is this: everyone wants to be Fanned/Added/Rated which is great. BUT, people should at least have the courtesy to return the love to those of us who take the time to show it. Soooooo, I am going to start cleaning out my friends list. If you truely are a friend and want to stay, let me know. If I don't have a reply by the end of the week, i will start by deleting those of you who I have not heard from.

Divorce
Divorce Divorce is an excessive commodity now days. A first grader recently said, My parents haven't gotten their divorce yet. Unfortunately, divorce has translated from a social taboo to a rite of passage. Often, it symbolizes anxiety concerning insincere commitment from a partner or underlying resentment toward a partner. It may be represented by other significant persons in your life going through the divorce as a displacement of your anxiety over the matter. Do you have relationships that are very tiring or emotionally draining? Perhaps you are wanting to get someone out of your life, but lack the diplomacy skills to address the situation. Do you feel excluded from or cut off by past friends over a current disagreement?

Computer
Computer The computer has become a symbol of access to knowledge and power. It also has become a ball and chain. The good thing is, we can work anywhere thanks to Internet connections and laptop computers. The bad thing is, we can work anywhere thanks to internet connections and laptop computers. You are either on the verge of excelling at work, or you probably need to quit working such long hours. Was the computer simply background furniture in your dream, or did it play an integral part? Was the computer more powerful than you are used to, or was it causing you problems?

Something I Did When I Had Cancer
HAVE U EVER WATCHED KIDS ON A MERRY-GO-ROUND?OR LISTENED TO THE RAIN?SLAPPING ON THE GROUND?EVER FOLLOWED A BUTTERFLY'S ERRATIC FLIGHT?OR GAZED AT THE SUN INTO THE FADING NIGHT?U BETTER SLOW DOWN.DON'T DANCE SO FAST.TIME IS SHORT.THE MUSIC WONT LAST.DO YOU RUN THOUGHT EACH DAY ON THE FLYWHEN YOU ASK HOW ARE YOU?DO YOU HEAR THE REPLY?WHEN THE DAY IS DONE DO YOU LIE IN YOUR BED WITH THE NEXT HUNDRED CHORESRUNNING THOUGHT YOUR HEAD YOU'D BETTER SLOW DOWN DON'T DANCE SO FAST TIME IS SHORT THE MUSIC WON'T LAST EVER TOLD YOUR CHILD, WE'LL DO IT TOMORROW AND UN YOUR HASTE NOT SEE HIS SORROW EVER LOST TOUCH,LET A GOOD FRIENDSHIP DIE CAUSE YOU NEVER HAD TIME TO CALL AND SAY,"HI"YOU'D BETTER SLOW DOWN DON'T DANCE SO FAST.TIME IS SHORTTHE MUSIC WON'T LAST WHEN YOU RUN SO FAST TO GET SOMEWHEREYOU MISS HALF THE FUN OF GETTING THERE WHRN YOU WORRY AND HURRY THRUGHT YOUR DAY,ITS IS LIKE AN UNOPENED GIFT...THROWN AWAY.LIFE IS NOT A RACE.DO TAKE IT SLOWERHEAR THE MUSIC BEFORE THE SONG IS OVER THE MUSI

Sold!
Hello little babies. I am going to be holding the FIRST ever Purgatory Dance Party Auction...Its a Chace for our PDP fans to own us like lil bitches....or us own each other (we know the boys will love this). While getting some perks too. If you don't know about auctions this is how they bascially work. You offer things like Salutes, Rates, Comments, a spot in Top friends/family, Artwork, Their name in ur display name in exchage for Fu-bucks, Bling Packs, Bling, VIP's or whatever else they offer. They own you for a month. If you want to you can offer NSFW salutes. Anything goes. Just Keep it fun and lets hope its succuesful. If you would like to be in this auction Leave a comment in here...letting me know. I'm asking that the Staff of PDP get involved along with the regualar PDP fans. So lets have fun! It will only work if ya get involved! Also if you would like to be involved, and I don't already have your YIM, SB me the add so we can discuss what you would like

The Big Move
I'm due to be moving from TX to CA in a few days (Sunday, to be exact). I will not be online between the 25th of April until after I get settled in wherever I end up moving. LOL Yes, at this point that's an uncertainty - still doing lots of last-minute apartment hunting. I'm asking everyone please do not rate until I get back online, since I'll feel awful knowing Fubar deletes the "Bar Tab" feature frequently and I won't see where you rated me; anything else, at least I'll have a notice for that whenever I'm back online. LOL I'll return the favor as soon as I do get back online. Have a wonderful rest of the month and a great May, everyone!

David's Knots~
His slut and his alone!I arrive at the hotel with instructions to be ready.. You would be driving to the hotel right after work and I was so excited at the idea of seeing you again. It has been so long. I don’t have a lot of time to prep so I lite the candles and drew the curtains, fold down the spread and fluff the pillows.I take a shower to get myself ready for you. I know you will be upset that I didn’t have time to shave my pussy. I still don’t have time now but I am hoping that your desire to fuck me will have you over look my lack of the smoothness you prefer. I stand under the warm water covering ever inch of my body with scented soap so you will enjoy it as you touch and kiss me. My soapy fingers follow the trail yours did the last time we were together. Down my neck, so sensitive for your kisses and bites. Down to my breasts. Oh god, I can still feel your slaps and bites. How you pulled and sucked them. Each touch of my hands are like electricity. Each shock

Care Packages Ideas For Our Troops!
"Surviving the Sandstorms"- Eye wash; Nasal spray; Chapstick; Bandana; goggles/sun glasses; etc "Laundry Load" Soap to pack in their clothes if no washer; Fabric sheets; clean socks & undershirts; Febreeze"A Day at the Beach!"- sunscreen; beach towel; beach snacks; flip flop sandals (shower shoes); aloe vera gel;"Medicine Cabinet"- band-aids; Neosporin cream; A&D ointment; cold medicine; alka seltzer; Rolaids; etc."Staying Healthy"- nutrition bars (ex: Powerbar; Tigers Milk); vitamins; Nutri-grain bars; Gatorade"MRE Survival "- restaurant Size packs of: bbq sauce, mustard, ketchup, mayo, salt. Pepper, taco sauce, ranch"Correspondence Carton"- notebook paper; stationery; pens; pencils; stickers ; envelopes, address book, camera (with a note to send back once it is full);"Action Hero's"- Powerbars; squirt guns; Red Bull drinks; small Army figurines; comic books; Gatorade; etc

Dance For Me~
I had accompanied my Master to the Arabia's. We had taken 3 long months touring with the other Knights of the Realm, the reason of the tour was to establish a route for the forth coming Holy Battles, to draw all worlds into Christianity. Where my Master went I followed as was customary. A Sultan invited my Master James and his fellow Knight to an evening of entertainment. It was a rowdy event, with many loose women and looser men. Women of Arab persuasion openly and brazenly showing flesh and throwing themselves upon the Knights. I sat quietly at my Masters feet as was my duty, ready to serve him should that be his wish. My eyes widened in shock as a group of veiled women began an erotic dance before the Sultan. The three women performed a dance in front of him, removing an article of clothing at each move of the routine. My gasp was audible as they were totally naked and in front of their Sultan; their brown bodies undulating before him, parted legs standing just above his face. Thei

Blah
I dont even know where to begin. Most of you know the situation. & most of you know how stupid i am. So, im just gonna do a lil venting. Ughh. Im losing my fucking mind. Why do i keep running back to him? Im hurting someone that i reallyyyy care about. Someone that deserves so much better. He's the sweetest person in the world. I feel like a fool. I can only help myself b/c its obvious that i dont fucking listen. I wanna get out of this! I wanna stop feeling this way. So this is what im saying to EVERYONE. Its over. Everything is over. All the lies. All the hurting. All the pain. All the drama. All the bullshit. Its over. IM ENDING IT NOW. I shouldve ended it a long time ago. Im making myself unavailable to everyone. So dont ask. I need to set aside my love life so i can find myself. Im in a turning point in my life, n it's obviously not good. So it might be best if you all just take a step back. I dont wanna hurt anyone else, and i dont wanna be hurt again. I feel like the bitch

Thank You
I want to thank my friends for sticking by me While my life's sometimes so fucking shitty It warms my heart and makes me smile Even though I'm still in denial I fall too far, far too fast I fall so hard it kicks my ass I try to think I try to dream I fathom only noise and fucking screams You have reached into my inner soul You too noticed I have no heart of coal I will eternally be thankful to those who knew And stuck by me after the shit I have been through You never judged, you never bitched You dragged me out of my pit-hole ditch I can not thank you yet enough I try to show it through this kind of stuff I write this shit cause I want you to know I care And the kind of burden I put down you always bare With a show of a finger by a flick of a hand To the asshole bitch: Fuck you Diane. Thanks again to my friends, to the very few I will always love each and every one of you.

I Iz A Point Ho
This Thursday at 7pm fu time I will be hosting the happy hour. I will also be activating auto 11's a few minutes before my HH. Not sure if I will be bombing during my HH or not. I will also be hosting another HH at 2am fu time this Saturday for mah friends across the big pond :) I am trying to make it to whoracle. Just wanted to let everyone know. xoxoxo, Lippy

I Find This Very Interesting!
HATFIELD, England – In the search for Earth-like planets, astronomers zeroed in Tuesday on two places that look awfully familiar to home. One is close to the right size. The other is in the right place. European researchers said they not only found the smallest exoplanet ever, called Gliese 581 e, but realized that a neighboring planet discovered earlier, Gliese 581 d, was in the prime habitable zone for potential life. "The Holy Grail of current exoplanet research is the detection of a rocky, Earth-like planet in the 'habitable zone,'" said Michel Mayor, an astrophysicist at Geneva University in Switzerland. An American expert called the discovery of the tiny planet "extraordinary." Gliese 581 e is only 1.9 times the size of Earth — while previous planets found outside our solar system are closer to the size of massive Jupiter, which NASA says could swallow more than 1,000 Earths. Gliese 581 e sits close to the nearest star, making it too hot to support life. Still, M

Sorting Feelings
Love too strong to be severed by the burning of ashes Life defined by the enriched contrast of death Reality obtained though enlightenment of the implausible Dreams defined by the experience we perceive ~

Forever?
the term forever seems to be a stretch of ones wants. when in reality nothing can last forever...unless your onea them bible thumping people who think there is eternity and heaven and hell which seems to be the trend these days But in reality i dont see forever actually happening cause who can tell you what really happens after you die? no one. and most typically all those who say they will do something or be with someone forever are those whom never last doing or claiming to do or be with whomever or whatever they say will last forever I just see it a damn shame so many peoples judgements and reality perception is clouded by wants

Desire
Desire Dice your desires up into bite-sized bits.Dine on desire, the sweetened loaf of dreams.Dive into desire with a reckless bliss.Dire, this desire; it threatens to choke me!Price your pleasures, your faith and belief.Vice is the sanction of succulent sin.Entice your passions with hope of relief.Dice your desires up into ite sized-bits.Combine in my mind the ingredients;Divine in conception a passion theme.Mine is the hunger of the innocents.Dine on desire, the sweetened loaf of dreams.I've had enough! I'm bursting at the seams!Strive as I might, it remains hit and miss.Alive, I witness miraculous scenes.Dive into desire with a reckless bliss.Conspire now to consume my innocence.Empire, my world of words and poetry.Pyre, oh pyre, consume these passions intense!Dire, this desire, it threatens to choke me!It's hit or miss on the roll of the dice;Relief in the feast as you deign to dineOn the theme of dreams into which you dive.Intense innocence betrays passions dire...

Don't Know Why I Didn't Come
Don't Know Why I Didn't Come Norah "Just moi" Jones I waited 'til I saw the sun I don't know why I didn't come I left you by the house of fun I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come When I saw the break of day I wished that I could fly away Instead of kneeling in the sand Catching teardrops in my hand My heart is drenched in wine But you'll be on my mind Forever Out across the endless sea I would die in ecstasy But I'll be a bag of bones Driving down the road alone My heart is drenched in wine But you'll be on my mind Forever Something has to make you run I don't know why I didn't come I feel as empty as a drum I don't know why I didn't come I don't know why I didn't come

Bad Luck
When will my bad luck end....I just want to scream ....AGHHHHH... Well my vacation was last week..It wasnt the greatest..You live and you learn I guess. Went with a friend. I have 3 little ones she took 3 teens with her. We just clashed. Mine go to bed early teens stay up late. Mine get up early. Having a diabetic we kind of stay on a scedule with eating and gettting up and stuff just didnt work out well. Next time we go by ourselves. Well there and back my van was loosing water we thing oh just a little repair no biggy.. Well of course not its a major damn thing...AGHHHHH. I rented a damn car for 2 days so far. Well today at lunch a rock hit the windshield i think let me just go get it repare no biggy they tell me they cant i have to replace the who F???King thing AGHHHHHHHHH ........ MONEY MONEY MONEY...i am so tired of crying...i keeping thinking I will run out of tears but noooo more just come. I am so depressed and so angry and so frustrated. Between the car rental and the car re

'we're Not Alone,' Ex-astronaut Says
'We're Not Alone,' Ex-Astronaut Says CNNposted: 1 HOUR 6 MINUTES AGOcomments: 867filed under: Science News (April 21) -- Earth Day may fall later this week, but as far as former NASA astronaut Edgar Mitchell and other UFO enthusiasts are concerned, the real story is happening elsewhere.Mitchell, who was part of the 1971 Apollo 14 moon mission, asserted Monday that extraterrestrial life exists, and that the truth is being concealed by the United States and other governments. 'We Should Be Ready to Reach Out' Former astronaut Edgar Mitchell, here in a NASA portrait from November 1970, said Monday that extraterrestrial life exists -- and that the United States and other governments are trying to keep it secret. He delivered his remarks during an appearance at the National Press Club following the conclusion of the fifth annual X-Conference, a meeting of UFO activists and researchers studying the possibility of alien life forms. Mankind has long wondered if we're "alone in the univer

Total Destruction With Total Deliverance
“And the LORD spake unto Moses, saying, Speak unto the children of Israel, that they turn and encamp before Pi-hahiroth, between Migdol and the sea, over against Baal-zephon: before it ye shall encamp by the sea.” Just when you thought the LORD would be done dealing with Egypt where the Israelites had ended their four hundred thirty year slavery, we see the LORD once more hardening Pharaoh’s heart (and I expect acting on his frustration at his will being defied by another god – how he’d think, since Pharaoh was supposed to be a living god himself – who spoke through a fugitive from Egyptian justice and a former slave) as Moses leads the children of Israel in the beginning of the fourteenth chapter of Exodus. Understand that hardening Pharaoh’s or anyone’s heart doesn’t mean that the LORD takes away a person’s free will; He’ll never do that. Verse five begins with Pharaoh “the king of Egypt” being told that

Joy!
Everything has came through for me. I can't stop crying because I'm so happy. I am overjoyed, people! My struggle has lessened...and I have my baby girl back. The battle is over...and Jesus took me through it. I've learned how to be patient. God, have I learned the virtue of patience. I feel free. The burden is off my shoulders now! God never left me. I thought that these past four months would never pass. Look...its complete. El Shaddai=More Than Enough. God provided me with more than enough to pass this hurt in my life. And, its done...GOD ITS FINALLY OVER...THANK YOU JESUS! I LOVE YOU LYANNA! YOU'RE MY HEART...NOW ITS YOU/YOUR BROTHERS/ME. I SUFFERED FOR YOU WILLINGLY AND HAPPILY...BUT I CRIED, TOO. I DEALT WITH A LOT. JUST FOR YOU. AND IT WAS FRIGGIN' WORTH EVERY ORDEAL, LEELEE.I WILL POUR OUT MY HEART FOR YOU! I LOVE YOU!THANK YOU, LORD! I CAN'T STOP THANKING YOU FOR MY BLESSING...I DON'T DESERVE IT. THIS IS SURREAL...::LAUGHING::iNDEe

Now I Know
now that i know wat a blog is i would like to use it for good and not just to bitch. most things that are bad for u make u smile, think about it americans smoke the asians smoke two to three time more as a population so why do we get more lung cancer than they do, think about it why is it a compliment to call a man big in the pants but not a women or to call a woman smallntight but not a man, think about it

Unexpected
The warm water cascades over them, his hands softly smoothing the suds over her supple form. Teeth bite her throat gently, plucking ever so slightly at flesh. She is before him, hands resting flat on the glass, back arched slightly to push her shapely, lovely bottom back. He brushes against it - slightly - as his hands wash her sides, the scrub of the fluffy scrubber followed by the soft scritch of fingernails over her stomach, circling and teasing. She shivers, arching slightly more, expectant; but his hands don't dwell, instead rushing outwards to take in the curves of her hips. Still nails scritch, following the scrunchie exfoliator. His tonguetip teases up her throat, tasting the rivulets of water trickling downwards, and then cups her earlobe with a following fluttering of flicks. His breath is warm in her ear as his fingernails scratch lightly along the line of her hip to her pelvis, reaching down between her thighs but cupping, letting water pool there against her flesh, only to

Anger
i dont know wat blogs r sposed to be bouut so ima jus say i cant stand the way people act in the damn grocery store always rushin around actin like there better than the guy greatin them at the front that shit pissss me off thank u for readin

Consideration
Consideration Waves washing upon the shore Eroding, taking substance, Swift current churning Leaving a vacancy, lost safe harbor. Asking for what’s not there, From a person who needs. Is not to consider the other,

Hi Everyone.
Hello Everyone, Of course I'm new here. Looking for friends or something more. But first let me tell you about me. I'm fun loving person who likes to be outdoors. When I'm out in the woods I like to look for snakes and lizards, so I need someone who loves animals I have sugar gliders, rats, dogs, cats, birds, fish. But all my guys are sweet and loving. But I need more than just them. I love movies and all kinds of music. And i want a guy who knows hows to treat a woman. I do have a kinky side that is very bad. But that is to find out later. See you

For Chewbacca (chewy)
FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT HAVE RATED MY PICS, YOU HAVE SEEN MY PETS AND KNOW THAT I HAVE HAD A PRETTY SPECIAL DOG NAMED CHEWY. SHORT FOR CHEWWBACCA. I FOUND OUT YESTERDAY WHILE I WAS @ LUNCH THAT SHE HAD TO BE PUT DOWN DUE TO HER AGE AND HEALTH ISSUES. SHE WAS THE PERFECT EXAMPLE OF "MANS BEST FRIEND." SHE WAS MY FISHING, HUNTING & WALKING COMPANION. I HAD GOTTEN HER FROM THE ANIMAL SHELTTER IN JUNE OF 1999. I WILL MISS HER AS SHE WAS THE BEST PET I HAVE EVER HAD. OC the MAVERICK (AND LIKE ALWAYS, COMMENTS ARE WELCOMED & ENCOURAGED. THANK YOU)

Grow Up
Do you ever get that feeling that the only reason your here is to help others with there problems. All the things you go through in life you were supposed to go through them to help you through your life later on to make easier. So why does it seem like it is only to help other with it. We are all here for our own reasons, so what mine to go through an ass of fucked up shit to help other people so there life is easier. Well fuck that shit man. But on the other hand does make since because of the perftion I want to do, but that has to deal with children, I fucking hate adults that cant deal with there own problems. Grew the fuck up already. Get over it shit fucking happens move on. Whats the point in living in hell for the happieness of others. The only time you should make your life hell over someone elses shit is when it is your kids. Also if you do have kids they see the hell you dont want them to know no matter how much you want them not to they now. Never under estemate your kids.

Ca Daring
It is believed that Miss Californa lost the 2009 Miss America/USA contest because how she answered a question on gay marriage. When asked her opinion, Miss CA said she believed that marriage should only be between a man and a woman. What surprised the crowd wasn't her answer but that it was someone from CA that didn't support gay marriage. I guess Californians are sterotyped into all of them being Liberal, pro-gay and she simply didn't fit that sterotype. My View: Miss CA was brave for answering the question honestly. The Miss America/USA contest people should question contestants but not on public policy issues. This question was a gotcha question set to embarrasse her by the blogger who asked her. In the end, Miss Ca is getting good press while the winner Miss NC isn't even getting press time.

Place Your Bets - Will I Call?!?!
The Contestant: The Shout Box Conversation: Big Bob 42...: Hello My name is Bob can we chat for a few? ->Me: Sorry. Currently at work and was just checking in right quick Big Bob 42...: Ok Please when you get a change call me (708)990-31** ->Me: I don't think so Big Bob 42...: Y' ->Me: Why would I call someone I don't know? Big Bob 42...: So I could get to know you? You can block your number til we get to know each other? ->Me: You can do that here. You don't need me to call you. However, you have yourself a lovely day Big Bob 42...: So you do not want to get to know me? Big Bob 42...: I was just trying to be a nice guy DAMM ->Me: I'm not calling someone I don't know, so if that is how you want to interpret it. so be it. Big Bob 42...: Ok Would you let me get to know you here then ->Me: I truly need to get back to work, but you have a good one. Big Bob 42...: Damm See even if I try to get to know you here you still tell me N

I Don't Get It
I have been talking to my ex from HS on facebook and he's In Iraq. Well I was talking to him just now, and a rocket hit his base, And he acted like nothing. I on the other hand started shaking And he was scting like it was nothing. Apearently this happens offten.. I couldn't Imagin being a military wife/girlfriend, Now he went on patrol to make sure everything is ok. He knows my situation so He knows If I get on at night he can't IM me even thou he's on my friends. I'm so not ready for a friendship with a military guy, He get's leave in Sept and he's coming back to Philly But still He's right in the mix of shit out there :( He was my 1st boyfrined so nothing ever happenend between us and were strickly friends so get your minds out the gutter.

Fear
People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain Rhino

My Medical Update - April 21
I have this tumor on my neck and need a operation asap before I choke to death - I already have nearly lost use of my voice. The surgen wanted the primary doc to do a test on my heart because 20 years ago I went to a heart doctor who told me that I had survived a major heart attack and was one of the lucky 10 percent to do so. Half my heart does not work and is concidered dead and cannot be repaired via medical surgery. To get tumor removed I must get approval and my primary doc said no surgen would operate on me because the ekg tests show that my heart is not pumping blood smoothy. She arranged an appointment for me to go see a heart doctor (again) for more testing. Meanwhile the clock is ticking. The testing alone delay things for perhaps another month. Without the operation to remove or drain the tumor ( aka mass ) on my neck is needed also to get the contents tested to see if I do or not not have cancer. I have survied about 25 years with this heart condition without the

Another Erotic Story..by Me..a Lot Longer Though
Every Summer in the city of Ontario,Caliornia, I kept seeing this shy girl by the pool side who looked insecure with her body and looks and rarely smiled. One Summer I saw her by the pool side again, she was wearing a one peace and thick glasses, but still didn't smile. There's something about this girl that I can't stop thinking about. Then in the start of the school year that Fall, I saw her again, it was the same girl, but yet it wasn't, she has gone through a great transformation, she was wearing her school girl outfit, a pair of silk stocking that complimented her legs all the way up to her skirt, a pair of black pumps, golden locked hair that shines and a pair of glasses that made her look sexualligent(sexy+intelligent), she walked by me, her scent was intoxicating, adn then out of nowhere, she said hi and released a bright beautiful smile, it gave me butterflies in my stomach.I just know under this sweet innocent girl is a bad girl just waiting to come out... The Following

Fuck You
You have torn my heart in pieces You have taken my life and thrown it to the ground You have spoiled everything that is fucking great in life You have betrayed all aspects of honesty You have fucked the world in which I knew You have gone and undone all I wanted You fucking asshole Fuck you

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Bill Of No Rights
"We, the sensible people of the United States, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid any more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior, and secure the blessings of debt free liberty to ourselves and our great-great-great-grandchildren, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guiltridden, delusional, and other, bed-wetters.We hold these truths to be self-evident: that a whole lot of people are confused by the Bill of Rights and are so dim that they require a Bill of No Rights".ARTICLE I: You do not have the right to a new car, big screen TV or any other form of wealth. More power to you if you can legally acquire them, but no one is guaranteeing anything.ARTICLE II: You do not have the right to never be offended. This country is based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone - not just you! You may leave the room, turn channel, express a different opinion,

The Penis Asks For A Raise
The Day the Penis asked for a Raise I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor.I work at great de pths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do.I do not get weekends or public holidays off.I work in a damp environment.I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures.My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely,P. NissThe Response Dear Penis:After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight.You fall asleep after brief work periods.You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.You don't always observe necessary safety

Rip Jg Ballard
As many may have heard, prolific science fiction/dystopian author JG Ballard recently passed away. Quite a number of his novels and short shories found their way onto the Silver Screen such as Crash, onto TV such as the BBC series Home which was based on The Enormous Space, or into the music of many artists such as Joy Division, Orbital, the Boggles, Radiohead, Hawkwind, The Normal, Madonna, Sisters of Mercy, etc. Today my profile playlist shall feature a few of those that I was able to find files for. here is my personal favorite. Inspired by High Rise and Man on the 99th Floor, I present Hawkwind- High Rise . If the video doesn't work check my 1st comment (Calvert / House)Flat blockOf two dimensionsNeon totem pole to the skyKeeping scores of people stacked up so highAbove the groundBut all they can hear is the soundOf the wind in the antennaeIt's a human zooA suicide machineChildhoodOf concrete cube shapedA flypaper stuck with human lifeCaged up rag

Tomorrow Is Going To Suck...
It seemed like I had so much time before I had to do this. But like eveything beore I knew it, it was here. Gettign my teeth ripped out tomorrow. I only get local anestetic. All of them, eh. I just hope the pain meds are rockin.

Most Wanted Auction- Rules And Explanation
To start off- the entry fee is 10k ( the reason why there is an entry fee is because there is a lot of work I need to do) What is an auction? An auction is simple, fun, and easy to do! So what do I have to do? You have to send a linka to me of one(1) picture of you that you really like. PLEASE keep the picture SFW! Make sure you send this picture to me in a private message so i can always refer back to it if I need to change anything. What are offers? Offers can be fun and very creative! A simple offer would be (you the one being up for auction) 1)You would rate your new owner all the pictures he/she has. 2) possibly re-rate. 3) Daily drinks, 4) daily gifts, 5) your YIM! it doesnt really matter what you offer just make it want to be ownerable! What do YOU ( the auctionee) get? You get 100% ALL of the BID! Whatever the bidders bid, you get it all!- EXAMPLE- if a bidder says they will give you a 65bling pack or 2mill fubucks, whatever it may be, YOU get it all! RULES!- #1If you d

~maybe's~
Maybe ... we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.Maybe ... when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.Maybe ... it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.Maybe ... the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.Maybe ... the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures, and heartaches.Maybe ... you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the t

Spoiled By Me 4/21
Its a Spicy style spoiling and Pimp out!!! Each day I am going to select 2-3 fu-members who really stick out to me and bust their butts helping me out to spoil rotten and pimp out. All day long I will be rating their pics, stash, keeping them drunk, leaving comments and pimping them out the spicy way. They will be in my bulletin and blogs as well as i will be sending their link around to my friends. If you would like to be next, here is what you have to do: 1. Make sure you get noticed by me. Don't be a stranger stop by and say hello make sure that you have put forth an effort to help out. One hand washes the other :) 2. You must have gone to the peoples pages that I pimped out the day of or day before and rated, fanned,added and rated a good bit of their pics. I will be checking with them 3. Don't whine. If I don't pimp you out the next day it doesn't mean I won't on future pimp outs. However if you whine or complain you will not be pimped!!! So with that being said

My Suicide Note
dear cupcakes... i have come to the realization that *cough cough*... you dont bling me enough... dani doesnt put out the way she used to.. and bobbi only gives it up @ night *wheeze* thereforez i am going to take a toaster bath.... dont try to stop me.. *HACK* its too late.... i am tiredz of the abuse u all putz meh through and im done.. guh BYE cruel world.. i'll make another account i mean no.... no... i wont... im done........... i have 7 yims u can reach me @ and dani has my cell #.. ignore the fact that when her answering machine picks up it says its dani's phone.. its a lie... *cough* *snort* .........i die now........... .........if u buyz me a HH i might stay........... *HACK* no... i diez.......... this isnt me its my zombie sprink......... guh bye.............

Here We Go...
So. Another blog to try and express the chaotic thoughts rocketing through some grey matter I call a cerebra cortex. It is only a big bunch of nerves and chemicals. Hell, that is all that I am -- a large collection of atoms, chemicals, and electrical impulses. None of those things ever feel pain. Why the hell then do I hurt? Where can it come from? Why is it that this emotion called Love can cause more damage than anything else on Earth? I can see what physical interactions do to the muscle, sinew, bones, chemicals, and even electrical processes in the body, but why is it that Love can do more and not leave a single mark? It makes no sense. I know there is no particle for Love, but yet I feel a great chasm where mine should be. Einstein could not figure this out either. We know light is both a particle and a wave without knowing how or why, but no one can tell me why Love has no form or substance but it acutely noticable when it is absent. I sit here contemplating this as

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Good Vs. Evil
I Still Can't decide...What should I do? I think I'm pretty good, but being evil is soooo much fun. Help me decide, especiall if you can use your abilities, let me know what you like about them. Thanks!!!

A Poets Life
we are a dying breed society has no use for us we bring no money we bring no offering of what society feels they need all we offer is our passion , soul, and heart our gift is simply us a poets life is filled with passion for life and love but they are not loved they are alone no one loves a poet they love a poets work but never the holder of the words i could write for days and never tire i can pour more passion and life into a word then most but to just feel that love and passion returned is something i know i will never have does sorrow fill me no does anger touch me no do i regret my gift no i know what i am and i cannot change me i am either accepted as such or treated as less then human my love for others is undying i will never stop caring

Ear Infection
Ear InfectionThis is so true! They always ask at the doctor's office why you are there, and you have to answer in front of others what's wrong -- and sometimes it is embarrassing..There's nothing worse than a doctor's receptionist who insists you tell her what is wrong with you in a room full of other patients. I know most of us have experienced this, and I love the way this old guy handled it:A 65-year-old man walked into a crowded waiting room and approached the desk.The receptionist said, "Yes, sir, what are you seeing the doctor for today?"He replied, "There's something wrong with my pecker."The receptionist became irritated and said, "You shouldn't come into a crowded waiting room and say things like that.""Why not? You asked me what was wrong, and I told you."The receptionist replied, "Now you've caused some embarrassment in this room full of people. You should have said there is something wrong with your ear and then discussed the problem further with the doctor in private.""You

Updates And Members! Read!!!
OK! NOW we're down to 33 members. I hope everyone in the group can help each other out and show love. It's not that hard! Leave comments, help them level, bling, etc. I have updated the leveling blogs and put the page links under everyone names that needs leveled and you have to copy and paste their links! I will continue to do Member of the week and post auto 11s. Those should be checked everyday! The links in the roster blog have not been fixed. I just posted that everyone in the group is in the family section. Just r/f/a them from there. ALSO! I'm in need of someone that is online more often that can help me out with the group. JDHUNT (my man) isn't online as much as I would like. You can be a co-owner. HIT ME UP! JD is set to move here to Omaha, NE with me. He will be here on the 28th. I won't be on much for a few days til I get him settled. I'm NOT LEAVING FUBAR! FUBAR is where my friends are! :) SO...just be patient. I'm also sick right now with some horr

Ty To All My Good Friends
JUST LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO RATED MY PICS ON MY AUTO 11 VERY MUCH APPRECCIATED I WILL BE HAVING ANOTHER AUTO 11 ON 30TH APRIL AS ITS MY 4OTH BIRTHDAY SO HOPE U WILL HELP ME THEN TO CELEBRATE MY BIG DAY XXXXXXXXXXXXXX SEXY & HOT COMMENTSCLICK HERE

In Your Face, Purse Snatchers!
I lost tickets to see Flight of the Conchords this coming Friday...they were in the purse that was snatched a few weeks back. But! Because I ordered online and knew the last 4 digits of my stolen debit card, now Ticketmaster shall guarantee replacements for me, waiting at the will call. Brett and Jermaine, here comes Kitty! =D

Ace Cafe Auction
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Take That
You light the skies, up above meA star, so bright, you blind me, yeahDon't close your eyesDon't fade away, don't fade awayYeah you and me we can ride on a starIf you stay with me girlWe can rule the worldYeah you and me we can light up the skyIf you stay by my sideWe can rule the worldIf walls break down, I will comfort youIf angels cry, oh I'll be there for youYou've saved my soulDon't leave me now, don't leave me nowYeah you and me we can ride on a starIf you stay with me girlWe can rule the worldYeah you and me, we can light up the skyIf you stay by my sideWe can rule the worldAll the stars are coming out tonightThey're lighting up the sky tonightFor you, for youAll the stars are coming out tonightThey're lighting up the sky tonightFor you, for youYeah you and me we can ride on a starIf you stay with me girlWe can rule the worldYeah you and me, we can light up the skyIf you stay by my sideWe can rule the worldAll the stars are coming out tonightThey're lighting up the sky tonightFor

The Things We Do As Humans
i know i can't be the only one who feels this way. sometimes feelings feed into the things we do rationally or irrationally. i think before we decide to jump into things you must know yourself first. i thought i knew myself, but realized that i didn't in some weird way. i looked for nurturing because i didn't find it in my life and things went awry. i am left hurt and feeling like i am worth nothing. i don't know why i let myself get emotionally involved and get used, but i guess thats the MO i need to break out of. hell, i don't even let people in my life unless i've known them for a while, but sometimes you take a chance and fear rejection and guess what......you go in with arms wide open and find out that you are rejected in the end. i plan on taking some time to know myself and to know when the signs are heading for the irrational risk taking events. when its all over i know that its like falling off a top cliff and hurting everywhere from pain and then crying in agony.

Run
RunI'm broken and bruised, punished and used, my spirit and heart have been crushed.It was bad for so long, I tried to hold on, to the few things i had felt. I finally ran,I far i ran fast,trying to out run the pain.Now I can't stop running,can't stop running, No matter how happy I feel.I know it will end, and once again, the pain and the hurt will come back.So i won't stop running,I can't stop running, some hearts will get broke in the end.So i'll run till I'm safe, I'll run till i'm free,I may love and be loved again.Until then i run,I run far i run fast,trying to our run the pain.

Not Closing
To All My Friends and Fu Family, I am writing this blog to let everyone know that Roughstock owned by CB is still one of the best country bars on the fu. It is not closing nor is there any intention by CB to close it. Due to a staff issue that went bad rumors have been started. This is to let everyone know the truth. Please shoe CB your support and love by taking time to go into roughstock and spending time and buy him and his staff a drink. Thanks Your Sinful Friend Suzy

Gots To Love Kids
The only way to pull off a Sunday afternoon quickie with their 8 year old in the apartment was to send him out on the balcony with a Popsicle and tell him to report on all the neighborhood activities.He began his commentary as his parents put their plan into operation: "There's a car being towed from the parking lot", he shouted.A few moments passed... "An ambulance just drove by!?A few moments later, "Looks like the Anderson's have company!" he shouted."Matt's riding a new bike..."A few moments later, 'Looks like the Sanders are moving!"A few more moments, "The Coopers are having sex!!"Startled, his Mother and Dad shot up in bed! Dad cautiously called out, "How do you know they are having sex?" "??cause Jimmy Cooper is standing on his balcony with a Popsicle, too!?

Always Hit And Miss In Life
I watched a show today and the more I watch it the more I like it. The show was Boston Legal. Any how one lawyer said to the other she thought he was lost cause one way he does whats right and t hen does about face and screws up. I thought about that for a bit and realized yanno, I am just like that . I try hard to do the right things by every one and try to help out were ever I can and yet some how manage to fuck things up for myself and thus feeling like a piece of shit. I use to try and try to get people to like me and would sit and cry to my father and ask what am I doing wrong. He said nothing just sometimes trying to hard is hit and miss . Now I am in my 50's and still I cant seem to make a good friend. I dont know I guess how. Yes I suppose I am feeling sorry for myself seems, that is the one thing I am good at. I try and put my best foot forward but again ..end up putting my foot in my mouth. I thought about just going back to the old me, were I wouldnt speak much j

Why Hip-hop
My Hip Hop is more than krs-one,nas,and other MC's.but she is a beautiful,honest,and a amazing thing to see.Angelistic voice to hear the amazing songs that she held in her heart. The love that she bring to her friends and her family is where it all start. To albums to mixtape, from a hook to a hot 16. her walk with christ is all the music is need .if 16 bars is your best, she walk around about 365 bars and all with no rest. She play sometimes the same songs to mess around with you. but, soon she refix to a hit like the "we fly high" remix .Her eyes are like lose you to a unknown world full of Dj scratching boards,Her smile is like a spotlight so bright that you can't ignore. She is the definition of "sexy love', and she is The "One" for me. I ain't Jay-z And she not BEYONCE, but together we are "Bonnie And Clyde 03". I have "1Wish' is that soon she can be real with me,cause i can't breath without her with me. My Hip Hop is you and i hope you can see. That You are the music in me.

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Wet Teeshirt
Dinos Bar & GrillWet T-ShirtContestApril 24 @ 9pmRules 1. White T-Shirt with Dino's on it(be creative) 2.You Will get 1 Song a piece to win the judges over 3.No Bra and No Skin during Contest Requierments for viewers1.1,000 fubuck Door Fee Prior to contest(5min to pay during, if not recieved-Eject)1b. Contest door fee collected by DJ ICE2.Must Rate and Fan all Contestants3. NO WARNING for VULGER comment(Immediate EJECT with NO REFUND) judges criteria 1.creativity 2.overall look and style 3 song choice/performance prizes. 1st- win one month vip 2nd.60% take 3rd-40%take

Iraq Bound
hey to all my friends, just wanted to say that im pulling out on the 20th of may and i will keep all my friends in my heart while im there. we can keep in touch on here. lol i think its gonna be a fun experiance except for the heat. my and 130 degrees dont get along. OK friends drop me a line every now and then. Your sexy soldier, me

Werk Week F'sho
so yeah.....just finished workn coachella this weekend...and kik'd ass so th@s good..... not to mention Stagecoach comin up this weekend.... the kuntry music fest.,,, sew its gonna be a busy week.....and the best part is is th@ melissa n i r going to louisiana in may for like 3-4 days....then we're goin somewhere...we havnt decided yet...but it'll be fun. ill put up all the pics next week...or after we get back from vaycay....so look forward to some awesome pics and some funnyass shizzle... well....gotta run... its like early ...so i want to get the day started.... l8r fukrs. RP

History Of The One Dollar Bill
Fwd: Fw: The history of our one dollar bill file003.jpg (241KB), file004.jpg (36KB), file005.jpg (13KB), file006.jpg (37KB) This is something you should print and save for your kids or grandkids. It would ma

Changing Animated Gif Files
ok so ive been asked a million times how to change an animated Gif file such as this 1 img a First off unlike sum assholes on here that wanna charge something for info or to do this i for 1 dont charge anything i simply enjoy teaching peaople new things so on with the tutorial... First u need 2 programs (yes i know u can do it with 1 but they look like shit that way) i use Photoshop CS4 and jasc animation shop first off open the raw animation pic in jasc animation shop i chose this 1 img b once open click on File at top then click on save as, save the GIF file as a AVI file now minamize animation shop open Photoshop cs4 at top click on file then click IMPORT and then click VIDEO FRAMES TO LAYERS as seen here img c now again click file then open at top open the picture u want to add to the animated file once it opens u wanna use the marquee tool as seen here img d make sure u right click on the marquee tool

Where To Start
Well i have a few minutes so just thought i would stop and say hi and that i am still around. Kevin and i are still having some problems but we are still together and are trying really hard to keep out of trouble lol, we are really missing everyone on here and hope to get back here again soon but until we can get on our feet i can just stop by and say hi and we miss u all

Wasted Life
A man lies in the street dead A child sleeps with out a bed A man lives with out a home doomed for life he must roam for he sleeps in the parks he sleeps in the subways he does not know today is Sunday it makes me mad and makes me sad why can’t he get a job? or even steel or rob he wants my money I find that funny what made him this way? could I be this way one day? he could have been a business man but some thing happen that he not planned he could of fought in the war in this could be his reward no he must be lazy or maybe a little crazy

U+ Me + My Room =_________?
U+ ME + MY ROOM =_________?WE'RE LOCKED UP IN MY ROOM FOR TWENTY-FOUR HOURS & WE COULD DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED, WHAT WOULD YOU DOWITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... IF ITS A SECRET... THENREPOST THIS IN YOUR BULLETIN... YOU MIGHT BE SURPRISED WITHTHE RESPONSES YOU GET.THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE OR EVEN DISGUSTED

Poetry
i walk this road this road is mine i'm willing to share but i can't see anyone one it why? i hate this road, all alone i hear people all around me why can't i see them must i walk alone if so, how long what must i learn how to love, hate, or accept i never had someone to love i have been alone i hate to hate it is never good to hate i guess i must accept must i accept to be alone

You Think You're Ok, And Then.........
......POW it hits you right in the kisser! Something happens, a song plays on the radio I glance over at my wifes picture and the memories start pouring out of me again! It's tough being a widower. It hurts more and more each day. I just come on FUBAR to cope with it. All my friends on here help me so much you really have no idea! It's also has come to my own attention that I'm mortal and that there are fewer days ahead of me then there are behind. Thats why I ask to meet some of you, not because I'm a lonely old man or a pervert......ok, wait a minute, I'm putting my foot in my mouth lol. But really thats why I want to meet some of you wonderful people. Who knows how long anyone has left. Ciao for now! :)

Miss Usa Contestant Claims Her Answer On Gay Marriage Cost Her The Crown
Carrie Prejean claims that since she said a marriage should be between a man and a woman, she lost her chance to be Miss USA. Carrie was from California and her question was presented to her by Perez Hilton (the gay blogger). 19 award(s) ringsting top "Miss California is not backing down from the answer regarding gay marriage she gave on Sunday night's Miss USA telecast. "I think that I believe that a marriage should be between a man and a woman," she said on the live broadcast. "No offense to anybody out there, but that's how I was raised." YOU DECIDE: Did Miss California's answer cost her the crown? One person who was offended was Keith Lewis, co-director the Miss California competition, which Prejean won to make it into the Miss USA pageant. Lewis told FOXNews.com that he was "saddened" by Prejean's statement. "I am personally ... hurt that Miss California believes marriage rights belong only to a man and a woman," sai

It's Time To Leave Fubar
Well I think that it's been a interesting ride here on Fubar, but I think that the ride has come to a stop! During my time here on Fubar I have dj'd for others and owned my own lounge and I loved it all. But there comes a time when the fun turns into a "job." When it does that, it's time to cut the ties and move on. There are so many people on this site that are two-faced, liars, cheaters, heartbreakers, assholes, bitches but there are those people that have touched me in a way that I can never forget and for that I Thank You. You know who you all are. I have been on this site for almost 2 years and I feel that it's just time. Some of these lounges claim to know their music! They don't know SHIT. Like Godsforsaken, omg they claim to be a metal lounge...would you expect to hear Nickelback and boy bands in a metal lounge? FUCK NO! People on this site feel that it has to be a popularity contest. If that is what you feel then YOU AIN'T SHIT! There is life outside this fuckin b

Vest
So I got a new uniform vest, and...holy cow! Can we say "my vest brings all the boys to the yard??" I was about to leave, and stopped outside for a smoke. A hick that is doing construction gave me a light, and saw my wedding ring: "How long you've been married?" "4 yrs" "does that mean you won't go out with me before I leave?" "no, sorry" he proceeds to ask stupid questions (like if I was amail order bride, ffs), and can barely make sentences either from being shy, or retarded. Or both. He has been staring at me intensely for 2 days already, pointless parading through the lobby. UGHH! I wish I had a cattle prod... Also, my favorite guy is staying at the hotel. He works for a big company here, so he's been coming here for almost 2 yrs now. He barely used to say hi for a year and a half, and one day he came up and said: "wow, I didnt know you were married" I said I was, and he started a convo and introduced himself. I found it weird that me being married all of a sudden made him

Meaniepants
Ugh, my son is ricocheting off the walls right now. He's crazy excited to leave later on today. I hate his teacher this year and am half tempted not to give him his chill pill just to torture her crabby ass all day. I feel sorry for him though, poor kid can't contain himself. It's going to be a very looooooong day in 1st grade. I'd keep him home today if I wasn't such a crappy ass mother and don't feel like dealing w/ him all day...

Hauted Eyes
A vision in the nightCascading downSurrounded by the fragmented skyA glimpse of hopeDancing on the horizonSpeaking softlyCaressing my emotionsLeads me onwardMoving towards the musicI am spellboundI found a gypsyWith yellow and green rosesTied in her hairHer haunted eyesHold theFading sunlight thereConfiscated emotionsThey linger stillHeld hostage by a touchThe gentlest breathThat grazes my fleshLost in fantasyMy soul is searedSacred temptationsClose my eyes againForever boundI found a gypsyWith yellow and green rosesTied in her hairHer haunted eyesHold theFading sunlight thereI sit for hours waitingI long for hours hatingI dream for hours dying

Lol
You're a Detective! Just call you Sherlock Holmes! Your love of complicated concepts is reflected in the way you spend your free time. Detectives tend to like reading, chess, word games – anything that stretches their mental muscle. Science-related activities, such as astronomy and computers fascinate Detectives! Mysteries, puzzles, brain-teasers and Sudoku can keep you happy for hours. You would rather play with ideas than objects. Your natural curiosity shapes your hobbies and interests. You easily use both deduction and intuition to solve a problem – as long as you discover the answer, you're satisfied. Detectives can find a great partner in any of the Interest types, but tend to work best with other Detectives, as well as DIYers and Artists.

Physical Exam
An 85-year-old man was requested by his doctor for a sperm count as part of his physical exam The doctor gave the man a jar and said, 'Take this jar home and bring back a semen sample tomorrow.' The next day the 85-year-old man reappeared at the doctor's office and gave him the jar, which was as clean and empty as on the previous day. The doctor asked what happened and the man explained, 'Well Doc, it's like this - first I tried with my right hand, but nothing. Then I tried with my left hand, but still nothing. Then I asked my wife for help. She tried with her right hand, then with her left- still nothing. She tried with her mouth, first with the teeth in, then with her teeth out- still nothing. We even called up Arleen, the lady next door and she tried too, first with both hands, then an armpit, and she even tried squeezing it between her knees, but still nothing.' The doctor was shocked! 'You asked your neighbor?' The old man replied, 'Yep, none of us could get th

Fubar Drama
Ok...this is fubar...in case some of you don't know what it is...it is an online adult bar. I joined this site to meet new people...make new friends. I have met tons of great people on here...and thank you guys for showing me so much love! Saying that...I have also met some crazy ass lunatics on here! I am not on here to find a potential husband...in fact...I have already had one of those, and not looking to pick up another. If you cannot be a friend to me w/o bringing your petty ass drama on...I suggest you delete your profile and go elsewhere. Get over it and move the fuck on! I feel better...love you all!

Ski Instructor
As a ski instructor, I sometimes tease my little pupils. Once I told seven year old Luke that if my skis were faster than his, it was because I'd waxed them with butter. The next morning his grandmother came to class with him. She took me aside and said, "We had no butter left for breakfast. Luke had spread it all over his skis, claiming that it was the proper way to wax them. I think you should tell the children that instead of listening to nonsense from other beginners, they should only take advice from their teacher."

Never Imagined
I've seen majestic mountains tipped in snow....Jellyfish in the water glow, as they passed me by......I've seen my daughters birth....I've lived and learned lifes worth...I've seen the best and seen the worst......I've come in last but always first......I've even tried so hard to forget you that I cried.....I've felt the softest touch.....Been on top and I got crushed.....But I never dreamed I'd live without you in my life......

You
Plenty people throughout my life told me that perfection don't exist....but from my point of view, they haven't kissed your lips.....Held your hand Or touched your skin......It's obvious they never looked into your eyes and saw the ocean deep and wide......Or seen the clearest skies, lost their breath and damn near died, from their hearts skippin beats.....They must have never felt your touch...It's crystal clear to me that your smile has never lit their life.....They must be out their minds.....Cuz I seen perfection with my eyes...Seen my reflection deep inside......

False Pride
[KRS-OneFalse Pride]-------- A mystical teacher sat by the seaside It was about five o'clock cause we heard the free ride Anyway;the teacher was talking in stride sitting upon a rock that was wide and warning against false pride "Come to where I reside!" a woman criedand the teacher replied, "Do you serve your fish fried?" "Yes," she replied, "with potato salad on the side." And the teacher replied, "Well where do you reside?" She said, "Up on the hillside, it's not a far ride. If you came to have dinner, I would be so gratified." The teacher replied, "It's six o'clock, seven o'clock, you decide." She replied, "Seven o'clock, do you like stir-fried?" She was mystified and felt so dignified The teacher was coming to the house where she resides So she purified with pesticides Called her friends up nationwide Some of her friends were tongue-tied they felt so glorified She made steamed fish, baked fish, fish that was friedSoup, steamed vegetables, potato salad on the side You could sm

Does The Heart Know?
Does my heart know what it wants? Does my heart know what it needs? Can my heart heal? Can my heart survive the tourture? Does my heart know how to be whole? These are questions only I can answer. But do I even know how? Do I know what real love is? Or is it all just a game? How can you give one your heart when it is not whole to begin with?

I Believe...
I BELIEVE... Current mood: contentI believe there is sweetness where theres nothing but sour bitternessI believe happiness is best achieved through unconsciousnessI believe in counting minutes backwards towards the hour because time is not foreverI believe sexy is a naked man standing erect in a heated shower not noticing my stare I believe love to be a bandit who robbed my 3rd eye blindI believe ignorant bliss is closing your eyes and taking a piss while sitting in the midst of your own aromatic shit, and enjoying itI believe a fist can be a loving relationship between your lips and my fingertips, or sometimes your anusI believe true love is when sweat drips from my chest down to the nest where I lay my eggs that rest with all intents of one day being blessed with the process of procreation...I believe sex to be a mutual dance of two dead souls reuniting in the flesh where they awaken refreshed from death to find happiness... sacred bliss, synergistic nothingness captures my insi

The Booger Man!
THE BOOGER MAN Current mood: amusedI am that shit stain on your sheets I am that queef that blows out your fuckin kneesI am that ring around your toiletI am that damn plastic bag stuck to your spoilerI am a fart that lingers...that remainder booger thats stuck to your fingerI am that asshole staring at your assI am the pleasure when you pass gasI am the booger man... oh no not the boogy manI got the masterplan so come and take my handI am the booger man, oh no no Im not your friendI am the booger man!

Call Me
"Call Me"Wrap me in a bolt of lightningSend me on my way still smilingMaybe that's the way I should go,Straight into the mouth of the unknownI left the spare key on the tableNever really thought I'd be able to sayI merely visit on the weekendsI lost my whole life and a dear friendI've said it so many timesI would change my waysNo, nevermindGod knows I've triedI finally put it all together,But nothing really lasts foreverI had to make a choice that was not mine,I had to say goodbye for the last timeI kept my whole life in suitcase,Never really stayed in one placeMaybe that's the way it should be,You know I live my life like a gypsyI've said it so many timesI would change my waysNo, nevermindGod knows I've triedI'll always keep you inside, you healed myHeart and my life... And you know I try.Call me a sinner, call me a saintTell me it's over I'll still love you the sameCall me your favorite, call me the worstTell me it's over I don't want you to hurtIt's all that I can say. So, I'll be o

April 21st 2009/online Respect
doesnt seem that there is much computer dating or gaming respect tween people...since they know they cant be attacked physically they can be attacked emotionally and just hurt the same. I reafd somewhere online and even the news had it some girl was treated disrespectfully and was taunted till she killed herself now iam not that kind of person but my feelings usually are verysensitive when im pissed off, and angry about something, so i try and vent it off.....sometimes it does and some times it doesnt.....i can be hurt big time..and at times these people think i dont feel that ican laugh it off. i wont try and "kill" myself like some will that they get that depressed, but pissin me off and getting verbal is one thing ican do. and have done it..for what its worth? nada lol. so im here venting away on my blog..read or not im just venting and pondering abouty leavin someplace or just not show up for any sessions

Faith
April 20, 2009 Every Nation: Turn Excuses Into Creative Thinking by Rick Warren In our Devotionals series, Pastor Rick Warren discusses the Bible passages that inspire him the most. Today's Devotional is based on this passage: "The Lord replied, 'Don't say, 'I'm too young,' for you must go wherever I send you and say whatever I tell you'" (Jeremiah 1:7 NLT). Here are some common excuses for not fulfilling your commission:• "I only speak English." This is actually an advantage in many countries where millions of people want to learn English and are eager to practice it.• "I don't have anything to offer." Yes, you do! Every ability and experience in your SHAPE can be used somewhere.• "I'm too old or too young." Most mission agencies have age-appropriate short-term projects.Whether it was Sarah claiming she was too old to be used by God

To The Fidiot Warhorse
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ATTENTION ALL HATERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Theres a fidiot named Warhorse ( http://www.fubar.com/user/1709722 ) spreading a rumor bout me saying I hate the military when infact i NEVER said those words.......I said that I dont trust people and just because someone wears a uniform doesnt mean their the greatest most loyal person! He just got mad cause I found out hes a huge flirt and I rejected him cause I been played enough!!!!!!!!,,,,,,,,,he just wanted a booty call and I seen through it......... now u haters can leave me alone cause i NEVER said i hated the military!

Just One Wish
If i could have just one wish, i would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck. The warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin and the feel of your heart beating with mine forever.

Have You Ever Noticed
Have you ever noticed that when a mummer makes a logical honest mumm. They are called names and be littled? I think its funny cause the ones that are doing the bashing are just inscure narrow minded idiots. Are they afraid of the truth, and being centered out? Is that why they try and amuze them selfs by bashing cause they are as they say butt hurt? Its like posting a mum bashing someone for whinning in a mum, then turning around and doing the same. Because they are complaining about this persons mum and they in fact are whinning about it. Or woman and some men (weird) pissin and moaning about people marking their pics nsfw when their not. And turning around and doing the same. I could go on and on but you get the picture. These people need to check them selfs in the mental ward for evaluation . Because why piss and moan about someone when your doing the same. Is it because you see your self in them and you dont like what you see. If thats the case peeps seek councell

About Me
hi....i am ayasha 21 yrs old i live in coloradoi like malling and hang-out with friends...i love playing guitars and piano...i love to sing while playing that instrument..i dont like a person who thinks for its own good..and he/she taking for granted all my sacrifices..i love surfing the net and make some friends by used of chatting and online games..i want you to be my part of my daily routine...so if u want to be my friends just add me up or lets talk or chat to each other so we can enjoy our company..all i can say is if we could be friends you will know who is ayasha is..me? im 5'7 in height,white skin,curly hair,thin, and if you want to see me just add me up..all i can say is im fun to be with and i can make you happy whatever you want..i like a person who have a sense of humor so we can tackle anything under the earth...i like bar hopping and drinks some beer and when i get tipsy i like to dance all night long until i will get tired..i go to church twice a week because i believe i

Mens Rules For Women!!!!
The Man Rules At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys' side of the story. These are our rules! Men are NOT mind readers. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. Sunday sports, It's like the full moonor the changing of the tides. Let it be.Crying is blackmail. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!Yes or No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days. If you think you're fat, you probably are.Don't ask us.If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways

Bloody Night!!!
BLOODY NIGHT i am powerless of the night the cresent moon makes me feel alright come on baby dont be afriad in hellfire we dance and play missing her every closeing eye the wakeing morning is so bright mislead thoughts that i give in so peace!! please come to me again it's a bloody night!!! my love was lead to these lies the bloody night!!! i sit awake and cry this bloody night!!! throw away all my strife my bloody night!!! i strip away all my pride so i stomp down these silent streets a knife in my back as it shakes with the breeze the smileing faces surely tell you lies frozen postures, the ones i disspies so i reach out for a friend but there to help in the end so baby tell me " am i all alone" to face this frightful night alone it's a bloody night!!! my friends have all left my side the bloody night!!! my mistakes have hit your eyes this bloody night!!! your the only one in my mind my bloody night!!! forever shall i leave

Unknown Thoughts
Forever caged in sense of no point chains that bind me has now locked forever in darkness the red river flows from the bodies of the guilty sins forever enraged by the ones the hurt like a blade to the wrist feeling nothing but numbness and no pain am i alive or is my soul dead the only way to find out is if i walk on these hollowed grounds forever my soul is condemned to wonder this life time will i find peace or will i find him waiting for me to forever abind my soul its only life after death but who are we to judge what we do.

Ever Get A Random Im From Someone You Don't Know Who The Hell They Are?
Random Dude12:52Hey can i ask you something a bit random?Me12:55sure, only if I get to ask something first12:55Random Dude is now known as Random Dude.Random Dude12:56sure why not...Me12:56who is this?Random Dude12:56a random person from the internetmy turn?Me12:57sureRandom Dude12:57im having cell phone issues... i have a sprint rumor LG and its not charging... it only says its charging for about 10 seconds and then it stops.....so would that be the charger?any idea of how to fix it?Me12:58wow that is random... it's probably your batterywell does it say battery full?or does it just stopRandom Dude12:58no that battery is completely and utterl deadpretty much it just stops... like... the first bar blinks for about 10 seconds and then poofMe12:59hmmm I would think it was the batteryit almost always isRandom Dude12:59i tired my other battery that had for my older phone and im getting the same issuetried*Me1:00could be the phone itself themRandom Dude1:00triedMe1:00then*you might want to t

Slim Pickins....: |
I am truly convinced that a lot of women in Indiana are crazy, manic depressive, or mildly retarded. They always complain about needing help, or having to do so much on their own, but when you help, they're not appreciative of it, or even snap at you for it. All because they want to keep this false illusion of independence going. And if that's not enough, God forbid you give them a sincere compliment about their physical appearance. Better sit down, because they're about to talk your ear off about how ugly, fat, flabby, bumpy, hairy, pale, blotchy, or illbuilt they are. Yes, no one is perfect. But just once in a while, can you let someone compliment you and leave it at that? I don't wanna have to scan your body with a magnifying glass to find something that ain't that glaring to the public, but seems to scream out at you every time you hop out of the shower. And for fuck's sake, STOP IT WITH THE EX'S!!!! Yes, I know you're unlucky at love, but haven't you ever thought that the reason

Path To Redemption
in a hundered ways i suffer each day learning how a soul and body can merge into a shapless blur of carrion nightmares the heart beats, the lungs draw air,time ticks the surface calm and warm never revealing inner war of hellish hateful timless grip thoughts linger like cancerous foul breath why must i embrace malignant lies long trip my foundations chiseled hammered chipped in evil most heinous im set adrift she knows not of damge deeply done like flesh in fire can never be healed anew the phoenix will rise to do no right set

The Way I Feel At Times..
I feel this way at times..in real life and on here. I just give up. Why even bother having friends? I get bitched at on here..if I am not talking to just that one person. So, if I am to devote my attn to only one on here..why bother having friends?

[as Defined By...]
I looked up fullfilment today I dunno why, some kinda existential self actualizing exercise I guess. It didn't really lead to anything. I'm still just as bored, just as directionless. I wish I could say something ending in "and I could reflect on this for the rest of the week" but I can't. My ideas are goin nowhere fast right now, my projects are spinning wheels. I just wanna cook. I wanna cook amazing delicious dishes. Then I want to wave a magic wand and have my comic done, and have enough money for my video game. I dunno what I want anymore, I'm not sure if I ever did, people said I was trying to think too far- but how can I justify the work without a prize in sight? Where's the carrot at the end of the stick?What do I need to trick myself into needing? I'm just not material enough to work very hard at something predictabley money-making. I don't want acknowledgement for my cooking, I want it for my stories. I think I learned to cook... to eat >> weird huh? I told stories beca

No! You Can Not "haz A Cheezburgur" >: (
Ok people....Yes, LOLCATZ is funny and irreverant, but honestly, it's only funny when there's some strange or adorable animal picture accompanied with it. It's cute to watch a cat beg and struggle for the cheeseburger. Don't take the whole phenomenon and milk it dry. Yes, LOLCATZ can unite all types of people and all walks of life, but it loses its luster when middle-aged "humans" take the phrases and just uses them in their vernacular ad nauseum. Just like the ditzy girl who actually says "lol" in a spoken conversation :| Please, let the cute cat pics have their glory. It's bad enough we steal damn near every clever music lyric or chorus, every hackneyed catch phrase on tv, and every viral video phenomenon that hits the net. I'm just disheartened to see grown folk talk like theoretical cat speech, just to get chuckles. But hey, that's just my opinion......my word ain't law......:|

Time Will Tell
So I'm not gonna lie, I completely forgot about this site, which is kinda crazy cuz for a short while I though it was a pretty fun site. I wonder if i can get back into it. Time will tell....that it will.

"home Sweet Home" By Motley Crue
You know I'm a dreamerBut my heart's of goldI had to run away highSo I wouldn't come home lowJust when things went rightIt doesn't mean they were always wrongJust take this song and you'll never feelLeft all aloneTake me to your heartFeel me in your bonesJust one more nightAnd I'm comin' off thisLong & winding roadI'm on my wayWell I'm on my wayHome sweet homeTonight tonightI'm on my wayI'm on my wayHome sweet homeYou know that I've seenTo many romantic dreamsUp in lights, fallin' offThe silver screenMy heart's like an open bookFor the whole world to readSometimes nothing-keeps me togetherAt the seamsI'm on my wayWell I'm on my wayHome sweet homeTonight tonightI'm on my wayJust set me freeHome sweet home

"helter Skelter" By Motley Crue
When I get to the bottom I go back to the top of the slideWhere I stop and I turn and I go for a rideTill I get to the bottom and I see you again.Do you, don't you want me to love youI'm coming down fast but I'm miles above youTell me tell me tell me come on tell me the answerYou may be a lover but you ain't no dancer.Helter skelter helter skelterHelter skelter.Will you, won't you want me to make youI'm coming down fast but don't let me break youTell me tell me tell me the answerYou may be a lover but you ain't no dancer.Look out helter skelter helter skelterHelter shelterLook out, cause here she comes.When I get to the bottom I go backto the top of the slideAnd I stop and I turn and I go for a rideAnd I get to the bottom and I see you againWell do you, don't you want me to make youI'm coming down fast but don't let me break youTell me tell me tell me the answerYou may be a lover but you ain't no dancerLook out helter skelter helter skelterHelter skelterLook out helter skelterShe's com

"on With The Show" Motley Crue
Frankie died just the other nightSome say it was suicideBut we knowHow the story goesWith his six string knifeAnd his street wise prideThe boy was a man before his timeAnd she knewAll their dreams would come trueBut ya see, Frankie was fastToo fast to knowHe wouldn't go slowUntil his lethal doseAnd she knowsHe'll finally come too close[Chorus]Well, on with the showGoing on with the showCome on babyNo, no, noOh my, my, my . . . [repeat]He was badHe was never goodBut one thing that he understoodAnd she knewAll those lies would come true The time has come andHe's paid his duesSuzy finally got the newsShe always knewThis day would come soon[Chorus][Chorus]He was stopped on a dimeWith a switchblade knifeSome damn punk went andTook Frankie's lifeAnd she knewShe'd have to pull throughBroken down, with his broken dreamsWith a wink of an eyeSaid Suzy, listen to meYou must goOn with the showGo on with the showGoing on with the showCome on babyNo nonoOh my my my my [repeat]Oh baby

~admiring Best Friend!~
You are the best My best friendA soul to my heartThat is wonderfulFilled with graceI am glad I met youYou are the sweetestI admire your soulA great caring manA heart like yoursCan capture any womansI admire you By the care you give meThe heart that you haveA soul of you Is a charming Way of you That I seeMy admiring best friend Written by: Amber M. Kestner I wrote it to all my good friends on here and for Blue Room Flirt! All my friends rock you guys have been here for me an I apperciate it alot.

For The People That Want To Be My Friend..
i might be old fashion but its wrong to have any kind of sex talk to women that your not married to.. so if i dont call women sexy or hot that because im married and i hope that you will understand.... i am only looking for people to talk to online nothing more .........and thank you for being my friend......

Not Exactly A Fantasy Or Erotic Story But It Is Part 1
A young man sits watching the day light fade smileing as he sees the moon riseing.as he watches the full moon rise,he smiles.he then rises and walks to the spot he has set up for this night.he quickly walks through these woods knowing them all to well,he arrives at the very spot he was told to set up.as he lights the candles set up around the symbol he created in the ground.he then goes to the center of his symbol,and starts the ritual as he was told.after finishing the words.he sees six figures appear all around him three male and three female.he turns to each of them in turn greeting them.one of them speaks"we have heard your prayers and the request you have made.and your answer is yes we will grant it to you,so please kneel"the young man quickly gives thanks to the gods as he kneels.as the gods fill him with the power he has asked for.he rises and pulls a mirror from his pocket and looks upon his reflection seeing the pale eyes and long silver hair he smiles.as he starts to walk awa

My First Track!!
That's right Bitches I have started working on my own cd I have the intro created and here it is! Hope You enjoy it! I'm having trouble with the embedd code but go here if you would like to hear it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fboezr-Zrbc

My First Drop Out In Fubar For Being Non-racist.
the funny thing about this online thing... cowards run rampant. sure sit behind a catchy handle and percieved personality...but how real is the person using it? addressing racist pricks who hide behind the internet...i dont believe they say the same things in public. its still an eye opener no matter how many times i encounter these people. just crappy to know that even though with all this new technology and advancement with humanity...there are those stuck with unevolved rhetoric and bullshit. -jerm

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My Chat Today
I went and talked to a couple people today about getting deployed. I can pretty much get on any deployment i want. I just have to give them the word and i will be gone. The only thing i have to decide on is where and what type of deployment i want. If i go to the one place i havent been to yet, i will do the same thing i did the 2nd time i was in iraq.I'm still trying to decide what i wanna do.

Life
I have regreted this since the day my little boy was born . The fact of knowing that my pride & joy would grow up & leave the nest . I'm kind of depressed right now , my only son turns 17 , on Thurdays . Soon my baby will be going off to College , & I hate the thought of that . Yes I will still have 3 other kids at home , but it's not the same . See my son is my first born & my only son , & I have always had a special bond with him . To this day he still tells me he loves me , hugs me before he goes to bed , calls to let me know he made it to his friends house alright ,& asks for permission before he goes anywhere . I have been wondering that when he goes off to College if he will call just to say I Love You Mom , or if he's going to come home on the weekends . I can't imagine my life without my son in it , & hate the thought of him growing up . It's really depressing not knowing if he will still be my little boy . All I have ever asked of him was to do good in school & stay out of

My Final Words
April 20/09 Even though i want to leave this site so badly and i keep saying every single day of the friggen week. These amazing ppl down below r the reason i stay on this site. *shakes head*So if u want to meet some amazing ppl. U don't need to look that faraway at all. There pretty much in this bully.So y not go and rate, fan, and add them. They don't bite, i promise**¥êþ Ìm HêR**@ fubar☮ beautifuL XO ☮ ∞ ஐ*ღDangerouS Curves Memberღ*ஐ@ fubarAmong The Wildflowers@ fubar♥ Angel Baby ♥@ fubarQüéêñ ☼ƒ ♥'š ~Fu-Married and Owned by DarkDragoon86 ♥~Fubar's Most Finest@ fubar Rachelicious@ fubar Kimberly**owned by Kevin*@ fubarsilly@

Are You Kidding?!
dleal18 and ♥Lovely♥ become friends! · reverend richie... and ♫ѕυℓтяу1♫ become friends! really now? Do I REALLY need to know when people become friends now? No seriously, who the fvck thought this was a good idea?? /facepalm

Friends That Dont' Really Understand
HOW DO YOU TELL SOMEONE THAT THE DECISION THEY MADE REALLY HURT YOU AND MADE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU DIDN'T MATTER TO THEM? WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM NO MATTER WHAT AND THEN THEY TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU AND ACT LIKE IT IS NOT BIG FREAKING DEAL. WHEN THEY JUST MADE IT SEEM LIKE YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH THEM WAS JUST A CONVIENCE AND THAT YOU NEVER REALLY MATTERED... ALL THOSE PHONE CALLS STOPPIGN WHAT I WAS DOING TO CONSOLE AND TELL THEM THAT IT WAS GOING TO WORK OUT. NOW I AM SITTING HERE HOLDING WHAT IS LEFT OF MY HEART WONDERING IF I COULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER FRIEND AND IF SO HOW SO I DON'T FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING THAT I DID WAS IN VEIN TO BE TOLD THAT I DONT CARE IF YOU LIKE IT OR NOT BUT THIS IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO AND ESPECIALLY TO KNOW THAT THIS FRIEND IS DOING SOMETHING WITH SOMEONE THAT HE/SHE KNOWS IS GOING TO TURN THIER BACK ON THEM AGAIN AND THEN HERE I AM PICKING UP THE PEICES BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT A GOOD FRIEND DOES AND YET I AM STILL HERE WONDERING IF I WAS E

Suicide
WOW, Have u ever jsut given someone your heart? NO i mean your whole heart? lol what a waste. I just couldent live with myself .. knowing I just killed myself Least maybe then u will remember me .. suicide always kills 2 people

Lost
lost... i am lost in your eyes.. i am lost in your soul.. i am lost in my life cause sometimes your so cold. lost in my tears lost in my fears lost in my life with no way to go.. lost from myself.. lost from my family.. lost from my cares lost from my love.. one day i may find all that i seem to have lost.. lets just hope its not to late...

More Then Words Lyrics
Is not the words I want to hear from youIts not that I want youNot to say, but if you only knewHow easy it would be to show me how you feelMore than words is all you have to do to make it realThen you wouldnt have to say that you love meCos Id already knowWhat would you do if my heart was torn in twoMore than words to show you feelThat your love for me is realWhat would you say if I took those words awayThen you couldnt make things newJust by saying I love you More than wordsNow Ive tried to talk to you and make you understandAll you have to do is close your eyesAnd just reach out your hands and touch meHold me close dont ever let me goMore than words is all I ever needed you to showThen you wouldnt have to say that you love meCos Id already knowWhat would you do if my heart was torn in twoMore than words to show you feelThat your love for me is realWhat would you say if I took those words awayThen you couldnt make things newJust by saying

Scammer Alert --- Ck It Out And Pass On The Word
~~Sexy Mom ~~ 2nd Alarm Hottie **R/L Engaged To $$*DragonKing*$$**@ fubarShe is offering to trade auto 11's for a bling pack.. After you send her the 11.. she blocks you... Watch out for her.She also offers to buy bling packs in trade for fubucks.....dont send her or her #1 anything!! They will scam you like they scammed me and many other people on the Fu![[[ The same slag has just ripped off a friend of mine, same scam.. so please repost... her #1, whos also her real life 'boyfriend' (if its even 2 ppl), is also doing it, to women, while she scams guys..... hugs ...`]{at` PLEASE REPOST!!]]]***********UPDATE - SHE'S CHANGED HER NAME TO SPARKLING ANGEL(repost of original by 'Viχεή ßεℓℓα ღ [[ƒ*m*ƒ]]' on '2009-04-18 01:03:13')(repost of original by ' ☠TØTÅLChÅØ§69☠ ..l./ Øwnër Øƒ Grëën ÐØØr *FHSG*Owned by ♡ sugarNspice ♡' on '2009-04-18 01:19:59')(repost of original by '☠ISLåИÐGIЯL

How Many?
How many times dose a person get's hurt until they found the right person for them. The kind of person who like's the person for who they are and not juge them by apearance's. The type that will apreate for the little thing that you do for them and the kind of person that will make any situaion funny or when you are mad at them they say or do something that will make you luagh and that kind of person will make you smile!

My Friend
You're...My Friend,my companion,through good times and badmy friend, my buddy,through happy and sad,beside me you stand,beside me you walk,you're there to listen,you're there to talk,with happiness, with smiles,with pain and tears,I know you'll be there,throughout the years!

Get It Straight!!!
I finally know how to say what i feel... Do I care what you think? LOL NO!!!! I dont... Do you care how I feel?? LOL again NO!!! Whats left to be said?? Im not the person you thought I was.. Im sick ... SICK of Being ignored.. Sick of being walked over!!! this goes for every one!!! Dont under estimate me!!! you dont know me and what I am capable of.. Do you throw the word Love around like a toy?? lol Peace betches!!!

Distraction......
Describe your relationship status:married What were you doing at 10am this morning?finishing up doing stuff around the house Is there someone you wish you were still close with?yes... but shit happens How was your Valentine’s Day?it was ok How much older/younger is the person you're currently interested in?does age really matter? Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?yes Has anyone said they love you in the last week?of course!! Do you usually have weird dreams?sometimes Have you ever made anyone cry?i have. i sorry...... How long do you have until your birthday?about 10 months Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?yes... i have 2 daughters.... so dont get gross on me Who did you last talk to in person?my BFF Stefanya!!! Will the next person you kiss be the same person you last kissed?always! Do you want your tongue pierced?ewww... Are there any bruises on your body?nope Last awkward moment?a couple weeks ago in a very

Big_daddy
HEY EVERYONE....IF YOU ALL HAVE TIME....PLEASE GO HIT THIS GUY UP....SHOW HIM SOME ZODIAK LOVE.....HE IS ONLY 35K AWAY FROM LEVEL 16.....HE DOESN'T HAVE A TON OF PICS SO IT WON'T TAKE LONG TO SHOW HIM SOME LOVE...... Big_Daddy@ fubar

The Way You Make Me Feel
The Way You Make Me Feel You make me feel special,You make me feel new,You make me feel loved,With everything you do. You hold me close when I am sad.You wipe the tears from my face.Every time we are together,It seems like the perfect place. My eyes light up when you enter a room.I smile when we are together.No matter how bad things are,You always make them better. I love the way you kiss me,The way you hold me tight.I love the way you touch me,I could be with you all night. I love the way you can make me laughFor absolutely no reason at allI love how no matter what I do,You will be there to catch me when I fall. I just want you to know,That even though we sometimes fight,I will always love you!No matter what, day or night

Kentucky
I'm flying to KY tomorrow morning, seems to say goodbye to my mom who is being kept alive with breathing machines right now. unless its too late by the time. they put me on the phone with her and i said i love you.

Interesting *wink*
From: Sol Lightman The following is the text of a pamphlet I wrote for an organization at UMASS Amherst. It is an attempt to point out some of the absurdities in the marijuana-is-bad-for-you-like-cigarettes bullshit, as well as take a few cheap (but well aimed) shots at the tobacco industry. It is written from a pro-marijuana-relegalization perspective, and if you want a copy, mail us a Self Addressed Stamped Envelope. (we're poor.) An address and some sources are at the end. So, you thought it was the tar that caused cancer... Think again. Cigarette companies will have you believing anything just as long as you continue to buy their products. The fact is, although insoluble tars are a contributing factor to the lung cancer danger present in today's cigarettes, the real danger is radioactivity. According to U.S. Surgeon General C. Everett Koop (on national television, 1990) radioactivity, not tar, accounts for at least 90% of all smoking related lung cancer.

The Hero
our dog merv saved our two kids from two bad pits [ not all pits are bad ] but thease two went after my kids in my yard merv got in between them . he got quite mest up but he saved our kids .merv is the greatest pet ever

When I Cry
//Sometimes when iim alone ii Kry... I Kry, cause ii am on my own. Th3 tears ii Kry are biitter and warm. Th3y flow wiith liife but tak3 no form. I Kry b3caus3 my h3art iis toRn. I fiind iit diifficuLt to KaRry On. If ii hAd An 3aR 2 cOnfiiDiinG. I wOuLd KrY Am0ngSt Th3 Tr3asUr3 of FriI3nDs, bUt wHo d0 u Kn0w tHaT sToPs thAt LoNg, 2 h3lP An0th3rR KarRy 0n? Th3 w0rLd Mov3s FaSt AnD iit w0uLd Rath3r PaSs by. Th3n StoP AnD Se3s WhAt MaKeZ 1 KrY, s0 pAiiNfuL AnD SaD. AnD ii KrY AnD No1 KaReZ WhY//

The Capture
He descends upon me A creature of darkness A being of pure sexuality Consume by his words Craving his touch He has embraced my soul His magic is pure thought His power is confidence as he walks through my dreams Engulfed by his wings I long to be one Bound by similarity as we ascend to eternity

Chain Daters
I have several friends on another website who are what I like to refer to as chain daters. This website gives you the standard social networking feed that tells you everybody's business. I pay attention to these particular people because it seems as if every week they are falling in love with someone new. I'm not sure what the overall deal is, but for some reason they are in and out of relationships faster than most people change their socks. I think they are really hopeful people, too, because every new guy brings them this sheer joy of being with someone, and they throw every bit of themselves into it. Then sure enough, a couple of weeks later they hate men, or think they are being cheated on. I'm not sure what drives people in and out of relationships like that, but sometimes I just kinda wish I could tell them to really look at what they are doing. It can't be fun, and has to have some serious consequenses over their future. But, I'm learning to keep my mouth shut. Well, besides

Beautyful Eyes
BEAUTIFUL EYES Staring into you're beautiful eyesI see loveI see warmthYour my hearts every wish Your my minds every thoughtYour my hearts antidoteYour my minds healthThere is not a day that passes by that I do not think of youYour the reason I am living Your the reason I am hereI love you and do not ever disappearBe with me foreverHold me tight Hold me like a teddy bearHold me rightKiss the oceanKiss the seaDo not kiss any one else but me If I showed you how much I love you Ten thousand roses would not do it Ten thousand emails would not do itBut ten thousand smiles would do itYour smile is contagiousYour smile is lovedI love when you smileI see happinessI see loveYour my eyes staring figureYour my hands soft touch Your my eyes happinessYour my hands feelingEveryday is a special day when spent with you Catch a raindropCatch the rainCatch me when I am falling insaneYour smile is better than I have ever seenI could hug you foreverMy safeness is in y

Help Me Get Spotlight Please
I am at a level 25 and would love to get my very first spotlight......I will take donations, rate pics, rate stash or other things depending on what them other things are in order to get spotlight....if you would like to help me out and want me to rate pics or anything like that for fubucks towards the spotlight please message me or leave a message in this blog and I will let you no when i will let you no if I will do it and also notify you when its done. I would appreciate any and all help to get me the spotlight. Just to let you all no..if you do help me out in anyway...i would like to make a picture with everyone that helped me and when i get the spotlight it will be put as my main display to thank you all for helping me out...it will show one person then another and so on and so on. I can't make the pretty bulletins or anything like that but if someone would like to make me one it would be greatly appreciated as well. Please Help Me Towards A Spotlight. Thanks So Much For

A New Life
The new chapter in my life is opening. I cannot wait to unfold the pages that will spill new words into my being. There will be an absence from here from time to time in the coming days. My absence brings a welcome new presence. During the next week the relationship that has been blossoming is about to come into full bloom. John and I are to join our lives to be one. So as with being as such, I will not have time to tend to all of you lovely folks that I treasure and hold dear. Please keep my spot warm as I will be here to sit with you all once again. Thank you all for your well wishes and friendship. Until our next meeting. Good day Andrea

It's A Bird, It's A Plane...it's A Flying Fu!
Flying Fu's! So, Howie is hosting a "How do you fly the Fu?" Contest, and I'm doing this blog to help out a friend! So, if you could copy and paste the link below and cast your vote, it would be greatly appreciated. Howie is also still looking for people to participate, so if you'd like, make a "How do you fly the Fu?" photo, and enter to win a HH and Bling! :D Thanks. http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1036935&albumid=1627705&i=3313171858&idx=73

Awakening
Have you been sent here to save me from myself? Free me from this prison of mediocrity? You force me to want more... Crave more... Demand more... A touch means nothing if it does not move my soul A kiss is empty if it doesn't burn me within My acceptance of ordinary, no longer an option You have stirred all that I have allowed to settle and I am rejuvinated I can no longer allow anything less Than burning passion... Raw emotion... My desire is to be swallowed whole not merely pecked at To be engulfed by the flames not just feel the heat Thank you for the awakening for my very core sings I am reborn in your light and live again for extremes

Jobs Available With Athena's Corporation
Athena's Corporation is always looking for good sales reps, managers, models , designers, promo girls, etc. This economy sucks right now and jobs are far and few between. There are plenty of openings everywhere, especially in the Portland area with the corporation. message me to find out more,

Sbg Pimpouts ....
SBG Pimpouts!!!Sarge and Tulsa's Angel are pimping out the Bad Girls. Check out the blog. Read and comment it if you want to get in the pimpout.Also go show Sarge and Tulsa's Angel wicked love.Sarge's Bad Girls@ fubarღTulsa's Angelღ Sarge's Bad Girl/Club FAR Team LOVE/The Pegasus Projectღ@ fubarHere is the bog link.http://fubar.com/blog/291478/1012187(repost of original by '~*Angel Eyes*~ Sarge's Bad Girls*~Owner of The Lustful Dragon*~' on '2009-04-19 14:05:03')(repost of original by 'ღTulsa's Angelღ Sarge's Bad Girl/Club FAR Team LOVE/The Pegasus Projectღ' on '2009-04-20 05:05:50')(repost of original by '~katie~ *SBG* *SINNERS FAMILY* *BAD BITCH* *F.A.D.D.*' on '2009-04-20 16:44:07')

...just Curious Really...
I really have no blogging experience, so I guess this is just a test...a test to see if anyone even looks and sees that I have posted one. It isn't to see anything other than that and from the esult of my "test"...well...that will determine whether or not I do more. To my friends and family, if you take a look, let me know something? Plz? To everyone else, ditto...It will not go unnoticed...

Sheer Fustration
warning I am probably gonna be out of sorts for the next few days. The rescue I volunteer for is full we can not possibly take anymore dogs in until some of the ones we have get adopted and the ones we have in boarding can go to foster care. There is a momma rottie with mixed pups in a high kill shelter in NC. There is also a 5 year old male in Va that has been so neglected he can not stand on his own. I have posted and cross posted to every rescue site I am on and who knows how many emails I have sent. Now, I have to hope that one of the rescues will respond asap or I am gonna lose these babies. If that happens... UPDATED 5/11/09 Unfortunately we were not able to save the pups and had serious doubts over whether momma would make it or not. This email just came through and it is about "momma". Hi again, After reading your email we brought her home. Needless to say I was very happy to have you remember my request for a dog that fit us.Yes she is not in the best of health but

Top 10 Things That Irritates The Hell Outta Me
1. someone that says one thing, but does another 2. People who can't just be a friend 3. liars 4. cheaters 5. getting the wrong thing in a drive through lol (and being miles down the road) 6. trying to do your best, but it never works out 7. people who have the high and mighty attitude 8. stupid woman, guys to, but damn, stupid woman ruin it for the rest of us lol 9. slow people in the fast lane 10. know it alls.. I am sure there are other things too haha...

So Near Yet So Far
You are my hope you are my inspiration you make me hold on when i feel like letting go you came into my life when i no longer cared but then you made me see the person i could be you have saved my life you have made me strong you are the person i have waited for this long you are so brave you make me proud I'm so happy now you have gave me a life i wish i could be there to know you really care i know you'd keep me safe i know you'd be my cure i would feel so free i could be the real me we are so far apart the distance is killing me i cant feel you close i fear you will go so I'm writing this cuz i need you to know my dream is to be with you to see your smile for real to know that all this pain i no longer need to feel dreams don't come true they stay in my head but without my angel i know I'd be dead

Please Dont Say Goodbye
This pain is now my torture and i don't know what to do it doesn't seem that long ago when i felt so close to you i don't want you to leave me i cant bare to watch you go but if you are not staying then theres things you need to know i miss you when we don't talk and i think the world of you i look up to you and admire your strength and i am proud of everything that you do when i know your happy and hear you laugh i cant help but feel happy inside my heart but now i have this heartbreaking feeling i can slowly feel us drifting apart i don't know what to do to tell you that i want to make things right i just wish we were close again and know that every things alright i cant help but think your hurting and maybe need some time alone but its hard to watch you suffer i don't want to be on your own i am always going to be here for you and i hope you know i will always care you are the best thing i have had and your the one who was always there i hop

Some Funnies
acting the maggot means: behaving foolishly or annoying. crack or craic means: having some fun. drawers means: her panties or knickers. fella means: another word used for boyfriend gas means: having fun,also enjoyment. bold means: bing naughty. fair play means: well done lad means: another word used too describe a man or group of people. full shilling means: mentally competent snug means: cosy booth shift means: kissing courting means: old word used for dating a person. feck means: another word for the fck naw means: another word for no nip means: nude on the piss means: out pub drinking. plastered means: drunk tackies means: runners up a duff: ur pregnant vixen means: cute woman hows me auld flower? another one used too asking how the person is. hows she cutting? how you getting on? bird: another word used for girl gaff: another word used for appartment or house

Wished Upon The Same Falling Star
Sitting here, in the shadow of the dark No stars in my sky And a frown on my face I'm sure this is the place I die The cold night air, makes me shiver But I sit there, in silence I just think of me and you And I wish the whole situation would make sense I look toward the sky for guidance And in that split second I see a lone star falling I wish upon it, a wish I hope comes true That you will come calling That same, cold night Far, far away from where I sat under that dark sky You saw that same lone star falling And you wished that same wish as I On that dark, cold night The two of us, so far away Wished upon that same lone falling star And that wish, we both happened to say

Love
I am in love with my husband but I am afraid that if I give our life another chance it wont work and then again I don't know if he would want me back to start with. The reason for this blog is that my husband gets out of prison tomorrow and I don't know if I am ready for this. I know I am the one going to pick him up. I guess we will see what happens tomorrow. I thought he had another year and I was going to get a divorce but I get a call today and guess what? He is out and needs a ride home. It has been an abusive relationship and I don't know if the abuse will change. In my heart I know it wont get any better but I want it to.

Soul Of A Poet's Heart
Written with the soul of one's pure heart Written like a song, some form of art Written with bitter, rare truth from that soul Written with emotions, so out-of-control Pen to paper, as the words are spoken Each word written, is another heart's token Like flowers expanding across a page The truth of the heart is released from its cage Each word is spellbinding, entrancing to the eye In which a beautiful new story always underlies Beauty written, like a sunlight through a gem The writer awaiting praise, or whether to be condemned Each line and stanza written as a magical tale Waiting to be expanded upon or a twist unveiled The soul of a poet's heart is the story-teller now And with the truth, lies a gift that poet's are endowed Pure ascertainty, truth without a doubt on the mind These poet's lives, laid out no matter how unkind With treachery and happiness, longing and freedom The word's of a poet, fortune read like one's palm Read the soul of a poet's heart

On The Edge Of Heaven
Just to have you with me I would have done almost anything Only a blind man could have failed to notice the state that I was in. Every time we met, my heart would skip a beat Never imagined our relationship would end in tears and defeat. There is so much we have in common and in my heart I felt so sure this is the man I have waited for You made me feel so happy and secure. But as time went by, we did not grow closer but drifted further apart The more I held on to you, the more you closed the door to your heart. My other half is what you are to me to know all this but still having to walk away Is more than I can bare, because in your arms is where I belong and where I want to stay. On the edge of heaven but forever on the outside looking in I will turn away from love now, this game at which I will never win.

Silent Pain
Silent pain deep inside no where left to hide Tear drops leave my pillow soaked jus happens with no provoke Asked so many times to be tol all will be fine But it don matta no more cos now ive once and for all shut that open door Eyes finally grow heavy meds kickin in soon ile be asleep an for a while at least i wont feel a thing, only problem is some pain will go others always lay deep with in Loosin faith i neva thought i would but now realise this maybe i shud While sum chose fantasy i choose real and wit me i have set the final deal Wishes just don cum true not old ones and definately not new.

The Dumb Little Things
Simple things she does for he And in return, he for she A sideways glance across a crowded room A cockeyed smile when the worlds full of gloom Serving his coffee with special sweet treats Rubbing her skin, from neck down to feet Gentle nibbles on the ear and the throat Unplanned kisses setting both hearts afloat Saying "I love you" at just the right time Serving her seafood with capers and lime He burrows and nuzzles and smells her sweet hair She gives up control and releases her cares She does the laundry and he does the shopping He does the sweeping and she does the mopping She's patient with him though he frustrates her so And he in return forgets backrubs she owes! Though the Fates have played tricks and toyed with emotions They no longer question the other ones notions They no longer ask what the other is thinking They take it on faith, they take it unblinking He looks at her smiling, she looks at him knowing They look at each other with passion still growing

Offerings
Offerings I don’t offer you a glance Not a turn of my head or eyes In your direction, because it’s your direction. I don’t offer you my opinion Because I would waste the effort To explain what you would not care to understand. I don’t off you any thought Because that would involve my heart And it hides at the very thought of you. I don’t offer you my time As it has become so clear to me That it is the only thing I really have left that is mine. I don’t offer you what you expect Because what you expect is the world When all that is left are shadows and distortions. And I offer this explanation With no hope of your acknowledgement Or acceptance, because it is offered for my sake Not yours.

Doggie
My dog bit the powerman today. He had no buisness in my yard the meter is on the side of house. But because of tghis the animal control took my baby girl. I have to wait 10 days and pay $650 to get her back .

Brook
I took this lil test and this is what my answer was, what should you parents named you~ BrookeYou are very self-conscious, but you are beautiful. You worry about what other people think about you yet you are all they think about. You are very caring and sweet, but you can be aggressive.

Mumm In A Blog
I lost my globals due to some uncontrollable foul mouth swearing in a non- NSFW MuMM ...So I am testing if I have them back. And I didn't have themIt's a nice day ...Should I start my morning with housework like a good girl or ...Should I go for a run, down a street where road workers are working their little butts off. (Maybe stumble and fall and see which gallant gentleman helps a lil lady to her feet) ...Help me make up my pathetic mind.

~~about My Illness~~
Interstitial cystitis (IC) is a condition that results in recurring discomfort or pain in the bladder and the surrounding pelvic region. The symptoms vary from case to case and even in the same individual. People may experience mild discomfort, pressure, tenderness, or intense pain in the bladder and pelvic area. Symptoms may include an urgent need to urinate, a frequent need to urinate, or a combination of these symptoms. Pain may change in intensity as the bladder fills with urine or as it empties. Women’s symptoms often get worse during menstruation. They may sometimes experience pain during vaginal intercourse. Because IC varies so much in symptoms and severity, most researchers believe it is not one, but several diseases. In recent years, scientists have started to use the term painful bladder syndrome (PBS) to describe cases with painful urinary symptoms that may not meet the strictest definition of IC. The term IC/PBS includes all cases of urinary pain that can’t be

Stand
"Stand" [Richter] If you dont stand, stand up for something Then you will fall, youll fall for anything, yeah [Daddy X] Lifes kinda funny man Little crush you hear like this beer can Youll stop your soul and watch you blow away, yeah I know youve heard all this before So ill save your ears from gettin bored Ill tell you this man, I dont roll that way, no way I take the bull straight by the horns I grab the rose and I cut the thorns Cause I was born to roll tight to my dyin' days, yeah They wanna see us suffer man Wanna smack you down with their pimp hand They will make you dance and tax you til your grave But im not a slave [Chorus] If you dont stand, stand up for something Then you will fall, youll fall for anything You got to stand, stand up for something Or you will fall, youll fall for anything yeah [Richter] Now this one goes out to all my brothers n' sisters' No matter if your home, locked up, or unlisted Use your voice, use your mind and your soul To make a change in this wor

Emotions
I'm so tired of being alone. I'm not really sure how to fix this time in my life. All I do is WORK WORK WORK and then I come home and get on this fucking box, escape to this pathetic fake world here on the fu because I have no other life. My past relationships, romantically and friendships have all gone to hell. It's made me not trust one single person and THAT SUX!. Its nice once in a while to have alone time but day in and day out....DAMNIT!!!

Freeworld
"Freeworld" (feat. Brother J) Live my life in a free world [x4][Richter:] It's amazing how this whole world is changing It went from saying "how you doin'" to settin ya claimin Rearranging the landscape, all this fighting is draining Putting walls up for safety but we're really containing Our mind body and spirit and our acceptance of others A world religion racin' wealth I thought we're supposed to be brothers And our mother is the earth and our father the sun Let's put our differences aside and try to love everyone C'mon We need to stop all this fighting And start realizing That there is no future For the youth of today unless we change[Chorus] I wanna fly away all across the skies Look at life through the view of an eagle's eyes I wanna sail away go under the sea Find the truth about the mysteries of the deep I wanna roam the earth as a free man On a planet with no borders explorin' our lands I wanna.. Live my life in a free world Live my life in a free world Live my life in a free

'craigslist Killer' ( No Joke)
BOSTON — Police in New England released new surveillance photos of the so-called "Craigslist Killer," as they continue to hunt the man linked to at least two robbery cases and one death linked to the Web site. Police in Warwick, R.I., released the pictures Monday in their investigation of another robbery at a Holiday Inn Express Hotel there on Thursday. On Tuesday, the body of Julissa Brisman was found in a room at the Boston Marriot Copley Place. She was shot multiple times in the torso during a robbery and pronounced dead at a nearby hospital. The same man was photographed Friday at the Westin Hotel in Boston, where a 29-year-old Las Vegas woman was found bound and robbed, police said. Boston police are investigating more than 150 tips about Brisman's murder. Brisman, of New York City, advertised massage services on Craigslist and had a massage table set up in the room where she was shot Tuesday. The woman attacked in Warwick advertised lap dances on Craigslist. She was

Udb Awards Part 2....
Welcome back to the UDB (U Dumb Bitch!!) Awards!!! We have a lot of categories and criteria, and PLENTY of congratulatory hardware to hand out.... First off, I would like to present the first award to ANYBODY who gets mad or accuses people of doing the SAME SHIT that he or she does on Fubar. Don't you realize that there is a "Bar Tab" that tells all your friends and fans your activities? Gettin' pissed about your friends and special ones leaving profile or photo comments, when it's obvious you're doing exactly the same thing (most of the times BEFORE you accuse said person), makes you a dumb bitch......therefore you get an award.... Second, the women who are attracted to the SAME kind of guy as the last asshole or two that broke your heart or disrespected you in any type of way. You must love pain, because you set yourself up for it on a continual basis. Why cry about it when it's obvious you want to subject yourself to it. Don't need to read any of your shitty poetry on how you'r

Rainfall
"Rainfall" [Daddy X] The sent of god is here and I can smell it What the future holds there is no tellin Thats why I come out strong and twist me ends [Chorus] Let the rainfall Come and wash these tears away Let the rainfall Brings with it bright and sunny days Let the rainfall Come and clense my troubled soul Let the rainfall When you fell there's no place left to go Let the rainfall [Daddy X] Let the rain come clensing down Let it wash all the pain and our troubles away Let the clouds roll in Let the lighting strike Let the wind blow ferice and rivers rise It'll be alright just hold on tight We can make it through even the darkest of nights We when the fall of sunshine on mother earth We'll do a sun dance and we'll burn some herb We'll make a toast up to the gods Light a peace pipe and wish on a star This rain is a gift from the skies above And all living things get strength from the sun Now whats done is done and lets return to dust So in god we trust let him do what he must Caus

Where Im Going?
"Where I'm Going?" Life is dream It's funny thing too sometimes On the road of life it's full of surprises Twist and turns we look toward the sky for some guidance The sun goes down and it rises Withstood the sands of time And we'll find new horizons [Jonny Richter] sometimes I lay awake at night and try to figure it out is my life going north is it heading south I'm walking on a fence between wrong and right trying to keep a level head try to keep my goals in sight it's hard as hell in this world today friends I've known for many years started acting strange things I cared about before seemed to just fade away now I'm left with these questions of today "When is the train ganna get back on track when am I even ganna care bout that why do I always get delt the bad cards took the easy the road so long and now my lifes hard" Still I try to make it work out for the best and I know I've gatta clean up all this mess if I knew when I started where this all would end I'd proll

Hope In The Lord's Faithfulness
Lamentations 3 Hope in the LORD's Faithfulness 22 The faithful love of the LORD never ends!* His mercies never cease.23 Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!"25 The LORD is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.26 So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the LORD.27 And it is good for people to submit at an early age to the yoke of his discipline:28 Let them sit alone in silence beneath the LORD's demands.29 Let them lie face down in the dust, for there may be hope at last.30 Let them turn the other cheek to those who strike them and accept the insults of their enemies.31 For no one is abandoned by the Lord forever.32 Though he brings grief, he also shows compassion because of the greatness of his unfailing love.33 For he does not enjoy hurting people or causing them sorrow.

~*~random Thoughts~*~
Alright, this is just some random stuff that has gone through my mind... and I'm just now feeling comfortable enough to share it... so enjoy... laugh... cry... whatever. I'm sure that I'm not the only one that's ever felt this way... but it's when I was all about finding love... so ENJOY anyway! ~*~Amanda~*~ Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to move mountains... steadily pushing but getting nowhere. I know what I want in life... but no matter how far I reach... I'm not getting closer... winning at a losing game in my peak. I never thought it would be like this. I always pictured a silver-screen story book ending. Instead, I'm constantly wondering "what if". I want that stability that everyone talks about. I know that people argue... problems will arise to which there is no solution... but the point is that even though you may argue with someone and run into a problem that's nearly impossible to solve... it's nice to have someone that's willing to try... someone that's willin

~*~r-i-p Jamie~*~
This is for my best friend Jamie... I miss you so much... and I love you forever! I'll see you one sweet day. Our friendship was all too brief... A few years just wasn't enough for me. We may not have talked EVERY night... but we talked pretty often... about some funny and crazy things... and it's gonna suck not having you around to talk to. I guess God needed you more than we did... I just hate how things happened. Hell, I don't even know what to say... I cried like a baby when your brother told me, but I couldn't believe it. I thought 'No way... Not Jamie... He wouldn't do that on purpose...' I guess things happened for a reason... just know that you'll always be loved and missed my friend.There are so many stories I still want to tellThere are so many I love you's left unsaidThere are many tears left uncriedThere are many dreams left to fall apartI miss our long talksI miss the nights when everything was alrightI love you like a brother, you were my sidekick,Yet I wonder why

*twelfth Hour*
It is written, every man is born into sin, But with each birth, a new life begins, With this life comes a light, That illuminates the world so bright. As the child grows, the light begins to fade, Dimmer and dimmer as it becomes a shade, The child becomes a man, the man has grown old, The light goes out in the old man, making him cold. Now time winds down to an end, While trying to search for the light again, Pray to God and ask Him to give you the power, To walk back into the light... before the twelfth hour.

*shattered Glass*
If I could think like you do, If I could speak like you do, If their ears would listen, If their minds could understand... But I am the broken woman, The Queen with the shattered-glass hands, Our dreams die every day, And loves fade away... Sometimes I just wonder, How did all go asunder? What criminal lied, what hero died? And maybe I could change it all, But my mind's too big, For a world so small, I rise, But you pull me down... For I am the broken woman, The Queen with the shattered-glass hands... Our dreams die every day, Our loves fade away, And the truth and lies become grey... I just wish it would all go away.

#2 "art Of Touring"
With hundreds of bands and thousands of tours, what is touring all about? Is it about pleasing the fans, promoting the music, or is it about the dedication to the road?.....Me personaly, I feel it's all the above. Putting on a good show for the fans, playing the new music, and going from city to city and playing in front of thousands of screaming fans. Let me know what you think......

Long Time...
Well, it's been a while since I have posted a blog on here, so I guess it's time for another one. It's been one year since my ex-husband and I split, and I'm doing great! My daughter just turned 2 and she's a little helion, but she is taking the divorce in stride. I met a wonderful man by the name of Jeremy and we started dating in August 2008. We have been together for going on 9 months now and live together. He loves us both so much. Right now he is in LaFayette, LA doing some flooring, and I miss him. I hate not being able to hold him at night or have him hold me. He's doing everything he can to take care of my daughter and I. I'm also going to school full time to get my associate's degree in Pharmaceutical Tech and from there I plan to continue going to school to reach my ultimate goal of OBGYN. I haven't really changed all that much other than the fact that I don't take crap from my family anymore and will not take crap from anyone anymore. Bottom line is I'm doing gre

Who Do You Lean On???
Lean on Me I don't know which way to go, my strength is very small. I'm looking for direction and can't hear, God at all. It's taking all of my energy to just get out of bed. And when I try to concentrate I just can't clear my head. But then in total silence I hear my Savior say, "Don't lean on understanding just lean on my Today!"

Call Now & Keep My Show On The Radio!!
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23rd Wedding Anniversary On April 19
We had our anniversary on April 19th and drove down to the Oregon Coast to our favorite little coastal community of Florence. If you check my "stash" you can find some video and some pics that were taken yesterday during our stay.

Obsession
I fucking love the movie Fight Club. No, I have not read the book. Yes, I realize that makes me an epic failure. No, I don't care. Anyway.These are some of my favorite quotes from the movie. Tyler Durden: Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off. Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the

:::::iiiooo:::::::
Bored again, so im doin some self-reflecting. I've got several accounts on the internet, well not several but a good amount. And im true to myself at least i think so. A few of you know me well enough to say whether thats true or not. Im here on fu, myspace, facebook, rk/nk mostly. which is fun get too meet people on some and just stay in touch with friends on the others. Get to be a "solider" on one, and a "doctor" on another. Ive always taken myself and others seriously. And it worries me. I constantly wonder do i put too much stock into it? Do i take these "friendships" too seriously? I see all the drama on here and other sites. For this supposedly adult site im surprised to see how much of us act like hormonal teenagers. Comes with the territory i suppose. if im not supposed to take this or any other site seriously, im surprised at the genuiness, if thats a word, of some of its users. If its acting some of you are on another level. Taking advatange of the guillible nature of p

Lost And Drowning....
I have thought about my life lately,thinking of what i want to do with the love i have in my heart I have come to realize that meeting, and falling in love with you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. My love for you is beyond words, beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I am content with our life, what it will hold, the exciting things we have ahead of us, to experience together, as a couple. I am ready for all that our future holds for us, the good and bad, we will get thru it all together. We had withstood the test of time, the test of a long distance relationship, and have suceeded thus far. If we can overcome these tough issues, then any and every thing is possible for us. I am ready to face this future of ours, this wonderful future that we have ahead...together.**I wrote the above on 4-3-09**4-19-09Well since writing this some things have changed, and we are faced with a situation of my creation. I am very regretful for what I did...I am filled with more remors

Would U Just Listen
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,How you felt around me? The memories we shared,And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.You were my first love and my true love, that will al

In The End
In the beginning we are happy and free, no doubts, no fear, just us , our mothers and fathers there for us every step of the way. Some where along in life our doubts, our fears creep in. Am I good enough, pretty enough, smart enough. No matter how confident or how sure of ourselves we may appear we all have them, hiding them away, or running from them. Replaceing doubt with with a shiney car, or good job, or just the appearance of confidence, because we know nobody wants the loner, nobody wants the person in the corner with so much to say and no idea how to say it. The person sitting in the bookstore lost in a book, or at the park enjoying the day. We all want the same things, sometimes in different order but all in all the same thing. In life we all face the same choices, do we want money, happiness, sex, companionship, all of the above, or simply something different. We make our choices and learn from our mistakes, life teaches the question is weather or not we listen. To experience

Busy Week
So... This week can be either very promising or... full of disappointment Tomorrow I have my GED assesment test... which, for those who don't know, is the first thing they have you take in good 'ol K-port TN It just tests you to see how smart you are and what not if you score high enough you take a practice GED test and if you score high enough on the practice test then you can take the GED test w/o the classes So lets Hope i pass the assesment... wish me luck... Then Thursday i have my second Interview with Bojangles seems promising but i dont want to count my chickens before the hatch... so wish me luck on that as well... other then that im just chillin... doin the usual... which lately is cleaning and unpacking.... i can't wait till i get this place the way i want it :D

Never Let Go
So restless at night, when I dream of youI open my eyes, hoping it came true.It didn't again so with tears in my eyesI hold my pillow to soften the cries.But distance means nothing in love that's trueAnd though I long for one touch from you,I'll squeeze that pillow while we're apart,You hold me too, you hold my heart.No one has ever made me feel so complete,My whole life was lived just so we could meet.I'll dream of you now, on into the night,Hoping that soon you'll be holding me tight.My dreams will come true one day, I know,Just hold me close, and never let go.

Silent Thoughts
A simple thought of you and I'm gone again,Just thinking about your sweet face.Wishing I could touch your body,While giving you kisses all over the place.I'd caress your back,As you stare into my eyes.The thought of you here next to me,Puts my body in a rise.Your hands all over my skin,While your tongue traces my lips.The feeling begins to intensify,As you move just past my hips.I imagine you inside of me,And I let out a slight moan.The thought of you making love to me,Begins to set the tone.Slower in the beginning,I want to feel your every thrust.Your kissing my neck now,As you touch me on my bust.I run my fingers through your hair,As you breathe into my ear.I bite down on my lower lip,Just wishing you were here.You pick up the pace now,And I begin to lose control.I imagine your face looking down at me,As the ecstasy takes its toll.You rub my face with your hands,And softly kiss me on my cheek.You can tell just by my smile,How much the thought of you makes me weak.I take a breath and

The Final Goodbye
Dear You Know Who You Are, Goodbye to the end of a era, Hello to the start of new beginnings . I lost a few friends but what else is new. Ask Me if I'm hurt and I'll tell you no. Ask me if it will ever be the same most likely it won't. Yes I have changed so what you wanted me to. It's not my fault it blew up in your face. I'm not to blame because you got what you wanted. Call Me names, spit on me do what you want I no longer have you around so why should I give a damn. I'm better off anyway. You say I was a friend, you say I was fam, but I was nothing but a invisible ghost you never really cared. I wasted many a night trying to make you smile. Good Luck without me on that now. Your drama with a capital D and I get plently of that without your help so here is to your new life without me. Here is one last toast I hope it will be as you planned because this will be the last time you ever see me. Remember the laughs, remember the hugs, because never again will that happen. I can stand alo

Always
I hope to always be the oneThat takes your breath awayI hope to always fill your thoughtsAs you go about your dayI hope to always be the oneThat you dream of at nightI hope it's still my face you seeWhen you close your eyes so tightI hope you always feel the loveThat I have for only youI hope that you knowEverything I feel for you is true.I pray that what we shareWill last for eternityAnd when you need someone so badKnow you can always turn to meI pray that the hurtWe sometimes feel insideWill one day come to an endAlong with tears we've criedI hope to always have this feelingThat you bring to meTake another look into my heart...I love you...honestly.

Who Want To Be Blinged
OK EVERYONE IN FU-LAND. I AM FEELING A LIL NICE THIS 420. SO I WILL BE AUCTIONING OFF THIS BLING TO THE HIGHEST BIDDERONE LUCKY BIDDER WILL GET TO CHOOSE FROM CRYSTAL CORSET OR THE DIAMOND BOXERS.SO GO TO MY DEFAULT PIXS FOLDER AND PLACE YOUR BIDS ON THIS LOVELY BLING..

Lies And Deception
Lies And Deception,Hurt And Pain.From Then 'Till Now,Nothing Feels The Same.Endless Tears,And Sleepless Nights.Is There Enough Love To Stay,Or Too Little To Fight?Happiness, Or Love?Or Just None At All?Fighting For Stability,I Continue To Fall.I Cant Hear Your Excuses,And I Cant Speak.Broken, Yet Somehow Together,Ive Become So Weak.

She Tries So Hard To Hide
There is a girl who smiles lots,Although she's sad inside.The pain she feels inside her chestShe tries very hard to hide.It's enough to fool her motherAnd enough to fool her friends.Sure, outside she's smiling,But inside, the pain never ends.Sometimes she fails to smileAnd sometimes her cover slips-But she holds back the tears,And bites down on her lips.She clutches her chest tightly,As she slowly walks along,Fooling everyone in sight-They don't know anything's wrong.

About My Daughter
Well my daughter got to see her father on sunday for the 3 hour time he is allowed. He lives in Missouri in New Bloomfeild so she got to see her sisters Chelsea and Lucy and her Aunt Chris and her other grandma and grandpa Gerstenberger. I just wish he would have more respct fro her and want to see ehr more but he chooses to not come visit when he needs to she calls him Jason because my friend Jason talks to her more then her own father does. He dont really act like he really cares to see her but cares to see me more then his own daughter. I dont care to see him because we got a divorce for a reason and he still thinks he can pull my strings and i will follow and i dont. So it is very stressful when i pick up my daughter from her visitations and he looks at me like he wants shit and i wont give him nothing. So this next time he sees her will in june on the 21st. we will see if it follows thru if not that is his problem not mine if my mom wants to go on vacation with my daughter then so

Gay Or Straight? On Facebook
Bi-Sexual Congradulations! You were completely honest with the questionaire and you are as straight as can be, on the other hand, if you are bi-sexual...STOP! No one likes a fence strattle her..or him. Your ruinning someone's life, right now as you read these results. If your with a man, you secretly want a woman. If your with a woman, you secretly want to get plugged. Stop the BULL and pick a side! YOUR KILLIN ME SMALLS!

Outer To Inner
Decisions so blurry so unclear these altering changes forms mystical tears A blacken rose plunders to the ground broken and open, a source of light The truth inside pours out to night breathing freely for all to see The outside was known but within was never told Too late, because the rose has fallen they never knew but will today A day of conclusion and all the truth some shall be broken and torn apart Those so close will feel internal pain others may see it as a changing lane The crushing elements of that night is a beginning for some to a fruitful life We learn we fall into the deepest holes we climb we rise to heavenly sky's In the end it was never about them but only the one that sees it all

Heat In The Night
he gently wraps his arms around me gently breathing on mehe begins to remove my topbut also with gentle kisseshis hand moves down the side off my armhe then moves in closer into mewanting to make me feel goodhe then brings his one hand down tomy ass and just with his finger tipsrubs againts my skin,he begins to get a little ruffand it begins to get a little moreintenceeach minute he presses againts meputting my hands againts the wallbiteing me just hard enough to feel good we begin to bump each otherthe blood in r vains move fastermy breathing is so deep and heavyhe takes both hands and puts them on mybreastpushing in to me before he entershe kisses all the way down my backlicks and nibbles all the way downto my....he gently plays and nibbles and looks up at meseeing my face with such intence and sweat comeing downhearing me moan places his hands on to my belly and down my legsstimulateing every sexual nerve, he picksme up from my legs and gently puts me on thebed pushing harder on to

Tears By Words
Word by word these tears are born by your true desires they are formed Your written words inflicted on me has raged a sadness deep within me It's not the first time, but this was the last the words you've written has shattered so fast Words written, is our true emotions feelings and desires all in motion It's hard to believe, but I truly see that written words, can devour me So oil painted as tears elope I continue reading this one last note Your words of friendship beautifully engraved will always portray, the love you displayed It's been so long since you've been gone but one day I'll meet you, where we belong Written by: Sierra For the greatest love unknown!

Tears In The Sky
Clouds submerge with tears in the sky as my heart longs for a place so divine time and time tear drops fall reflecting on a place I do call my own A breeze of coldness upon my face delightful it is to feel such embrace fog in the sky producing an icy storm so is my heart missing you more and more Snow like clouds hanging over me as I feel the warm touch of a his love shallow streams flow beside my feet as rain falls down escalading as I speak Late night moon shining down on me painting your face, all around me silence surrounds me with tears in the sky capturing the content of you in my eyes written by her for him!!

Tears Are Words The Heart Cannot Say
My bleeding heart, the fountain of lover's true art words escape through tears burning so sincere Calculating emotions multiplying with true devotion bound by tears of words, which the heart alone endures Words of silence around my lover's heart with tears performing a musical art Count each tear and feel what I feel for my heart is crying out, for you my dear So many emotions in so many ways sometimes it's difficult to show what my heart contains With words through tears I show my love so clear as my heart erupts, distinguishing how I feel A lover's heart captures words it cannot say through tears it shows a realm, unexplained.

Faded Waters
A cloud of mist surrounds us both Faded Waters is all I know Stormy waters is like a story untold So is the love we both deeply uphold The sound of waves deep inside Flowing through my veins all the time. Sadness surrounds our souls tonight The passion that grows is ours tonight For Faded Waters is all I know Love comes and love goes Holding on a love unknown Faded Waters in my heart alone Dreams I dream in misty nights In Faded Waters I sleep tonight written by someone for someone ...

Sunset Lights
The stillness of silence beneath the waterfall cave a memory of golden paths staying each day the same Showering teardrops erupts within my souls delight your beauty and passion portrays our sunset lights Tenderness by touch, a magical explosion by two hearts incrust our pillar of trust, leading our love beyond the ocean shores Whispering love songs embracing the still moon light with painted dreams illuminating a lover's scene Shaking fingertips beneath a heart beat emotion your devoted love strings still lingers underneath my skin A true found treasure with a gem stone of a kind your sparkling eyes inflaming what is yours and mine Our sunset lights will flourish for all to see for the love we contain is all we need.

Leaving
i will be closing my account....don't have much time for this anymore. I have about a million fubucks to give away and around 15 bling credits left. If there is something you want send me a pm and tell me why i should give you bucks or bling and I will see what i can do. I had a great time here and enjoyed chatting with everyone! If you serious want to stay in touch send me a pm as well and let me know and I will tell you how! :) see ya's!

Strategic Wrestling Game Online
Hello Gerard West here to let you guys in on a game known as MSC Wrestling or Masters of the Squared Circle. Basically what this is about is strategy and knowing how to work around your opponents. This game is indepth with moves and game play. No you do not control your wrestlers but you play in a different style of turn based action. Basically you dont attack once and then exchange control. If you are interested you can always go check it out at www.mscwrestling.net Just make sure you let them know MrRKO sent you. Thanks for the support.

Another Me With An Away You
Without you..I see strikes of fire in my brain I see sadness, depression,I feel unbearable pain Without you I see the smile of life crying loudly where the ears of a sad fate listen calmly holding the broken promises about the untrue happiness.. Without you I see a heart that's broken, left between the dust of the worlds biggest desert where the sun shines over my burnt hearts skin how painful shameful it seems to be, for without you makes the biggest cursed sin Without you..I see cold nights singing the saddest tunes, that the sky thunder harshly for Its desire and the stars shine the lightening of Its fire where I shed the fears of how cruel without you is.. For without you means I die, I fall, I end and tire Without you I see life a dark hole with not a slit shed of light..I see not the shiny days but do imagine the unkind dark nights, full of horror drowned by tears. Without you I see my heart pumping pounding all these fears Without you I see the world

Poem
Bring every one down. Make People suffer the way i found. The only way i could escape the way i lived was using the down drug. Smoking every day while the bitch yelled at me. i finlly snaped with my mind was cloudy. I said to to the Bitch "why don't you come down to my level" and then i said also "then you would stop bitching about what makes me feel better". Makes me escape the reallty of my life. Now i thought i would be out of this hell I'm in, but it keeps coming back for me. So that makes a nother 8th is gone to keepmy head stright so why am i still in the same hell of my own mind. Bring up old pain that seems to keep bring me down.

Lol Thats Y They Call Me Evil Lmao
so um my friend had met a native american that shared the same language as i do. she asked me how to say to him your a beautiful person well of course what i told u was no where near that and she said that to him and he said um do u know what u just said to me she said all proudly yes i do and he said ok so where shall we do this she was like what he said u just said to me wanna f**k haha omg lolol she was so embarrassed and of course he and i still laff at that ... wahooooooooooo lmao

Take 2
this is the second convo like this that I have had with this guy...sad mr.snuffell.: yeah........i keep forgetting you have one........lol ->mr.snuffell..: oh..well that sucks...I mean this is the third time you have offerred me your cock in my sb...yet you dont want mine...sad mr.snuffell..: not scared.........just don't swing that way ->mr.snuffell..: bummer I thought this was the start of somethin great... ->mr.snuffell..: ok then so askin if you swallow is outta the question right? ->mr.snuffell..: aw did I scare you off? Guys that ask the shit you do in the sb are always the quickest to run ->mr.snuffell..: gave me boobs and shaved my adams apple...makes it easier to lure the men in mr.snuffel: and what did the doctors do to you exactly then?? ->mr.snuffell: so you open? ->mr.snuffell..: well believe it...docs can do amazing things these days mr.snuffell..: nope.........i just don't believe a woman as gorgeous as you

Stalker 2009
Stalker Complete 2009 Promotional Image Website: http://artistpavel.blogspot.com/2009/04/stalker-complete-2009.html Excerpt: STALKER Complete 2009 ---------------------------------------- This mod has been created with a thought of bringing the beautiful and immersive game of STALKER from the last generation era, when it was created to an up-to-date experience you'd expect from games you play in 2009. I did not try to include every single mod out there that changes the game beyond recognition, that was not the point. The following list is the carefully chosen essential collection of most advanced and aesthetically pleasant modifications, created by talented concept artists and programmers in the past 2 years. These are meant to technically and artistically enhance the game without compromising the original feel and atmosphere developers meant you to see. You'll notice every single detail has been retouched and has a polished feel to it. This is ideal for first time players or peop

Poem
My mind is empty like my soul. My heart is full of love, but thous endless with hate. My soul is empty like my crys as i think of my past. Siting here thinking of the pain i finlly realzed from the endless hate from my soul. My anger comes from rage from thou endless and my empty soul. People sit there and tell me that i' scum bec i don't have a life to live, but i'm try to make it better, but my empty soul is pulling me down. So why is my endless and empty soul still having all i just what my life back and get rid of my empty soul.

Omg I Got The Giggles Lmao
a really good friend of mine who hasnt been around for a long time on here has resurfaced im so laffin remembering a time he used to do nsfw salutes for ppl well he didnt know u cant send them to the bouncers to get approved for fubar and me being the nice person i am just let him send on omg did he get shit omg i still laff at that lmao yessssssss thats y they call me evillllll lmao haha love ya buddy lmao

Life!
Hello all. I have not been on much..due to fact of getting a new member in my family. His name is Bruno..hes a great dane. Hes only 5 weeks old..so he needs alot of attn. Especially at night time it seems. He still crys alot..and I am hoping he eventually gets use to his crate at night..so I do not have to hear it. Its been 8 yrs since I had to do the motherly thing. LOL. Anyways..that is why I have not been on much. That and baseball/work. I got new pics of him in my folder. Luckily hes been doin real well at training. Hes only had a few accidents in the house..and he surely doesnt like to go in his crate. Hes alot easier than when I trained my puggle. I traded a cousin of ours .. 2 rabbits and a ferrett for him. I think I came out ahead. There girl loves the ferrett though. Also.. got a call from the library today.. My youngest won the contest..of how many books were in the library. I helped him guess some. That is so awesome to win! LOL. I can not wait for him to listen t

Stop Marking Pictures
The last time I checked, you had to be 18 or older to join this site. The last time I checked, if you are at work, you should be working, not browsing the damn internet. People who spend all day browsing the web instead of working end up ruining it for those that barely do it. Having said all that, here's my rant... I have a problem with people on this site marking pictures or videos or this that and the other NSFW. Bottom line: YOU SHOULDNT BE ON HERE AT WORK!!!!!!!!!!! I could respect it if you were saying that this should be marked adult content. I could respect it if you are saying that this shouldnt be easily viewed. Again, no problem with that. However, you are at work, who the hell cares whether its safe or not because you SHOULDNT BE VIEWING IT!!!!!!! Disagree with me or agree with me, bottom line is that you go to work to work, not play on Fubar. I've seen thousands of pictures marked NSFW that werent even nude, let alone sexual in content. Some were simply bikinis or cleav

If I
If I could whisper in your earI'd know just what to say,If I could hold you close my dearI'd do this everyday,If in your eyes I could take one glanceI know with your love I'd take no chance,If ever one day I were to lose your lovemy mind could not erasethe love, joy, and smiles you'veput on my face,Not one day do I want to live without you,Not one moment are you off my mind,Be with me forever,until the end of time

Oh Happy Dagger
Oh yea. I just realized I can say and vent all the things on this site that I dare not say when I am at a milonga (a tango dance). And how delicious that feels inside' .The better you get at this dance, the lonelier it has become, because the tango satisfaction is based on the ability to convey its movement, which is a combination of experience, learning and innate talent. In order to express it, one must have a partner of learning also, and without a partner, one cannot express it. And for me without a partner I cannot express it. Got to go back to work, Will continue later.

Plz Help Argonutz 76k To Level!
One of my real good friends needs our help! He has been trying to level to fu-king for a while now and he needs our help. He has 76,965 Points to go to be level so go spank him his A$$ real hard with love. Add, Fan, Rate, Bling His A$$. Argonutz Tell Him Bratte sent you.... Bully Brought To You With Lots of Love: Bratte

Friggin Bastards
No Drama Q...: drama queen bimbo No Drama Q...: whatever dude, don't flatter yourself.....asshole ->No Drama Q...: yes, but youre not getting my ID No Drama Q...: question for u, do u have yahoo messenger? · No Drama Queens... rated you a '1'! · No Drama Queens... just checked you out! definitely time for a fu-cation tomorrow!

I Hate It When Girls Lie!
i hate it when girls lie to me about not talking to them, getting or writing back! if you don't want to talk to me just say it. jamar i don't to talk to you because you are a loser and i don't want anything to do you with you. there i can say it why can't you. you know. why make up something like "you didn't send me anything or i left my computer on when i'm not at home" i keep my computer on too! but i look to see who left me anything because i don't want to be an ass to people. if someone rate me i'l rate them back. if some one send me a gift i send one back and tell them thanks. someone send me a message i send one back. i'm not an ass that well make up something. because if you not online i always send gifts to everyone feel welcome or to see whats up. i have names of people on my friend list that make me feel like shit. and when they lie about not getting gifts or messages i sent. over time trying to talking to them or just to say hi. it hurts me inside.

I Like The Way
I like the way..I like the way he makes me feel.When he holds me tight by his side.And the way he smiles when he looks my way.He has the cutest little dimples.I like the way I can look him right in the eyes.And when he kisses me his lips are so soft and sweet.And the way he thinks about me.I like the way he knows just the little things about me.That no one has ever seen.And the way he knows me sometimes better than me.I like the way he looks deep into my eyes.Like he is trying to see me deep down inside.And the way he is so soft to my body.Like when he wants to know if he is hurting me.And how soft he is when he rubs my skin.Like he wants to be my man.I know I am just a friend.Maybe it will stay that way because I never want to lose someone like him.

Let Me Be
Let me be...Let me be your Angel. The one you call when you are alone. The one you wish was with you at your home. Let me be your lover. The one you want every part of the day. The one you want in every single way.Let me be the one you want so much for. The one you want to do better. And the one you want to give your love to.Let me be the one you call on. When your nights get long and lonely. When you just want to hear my voice or to see how things are going.Let me be the one you want to run to. When things get to rough. And when you think you have had enough.Let me be the one you want around. Because baby I don't want you to feel like I have to be there. I want you to want me in every part of your heart. I want to be the one in your soul. I want to be the one you dream about at night. I want to be the one that you want in your sight.

Ok Here We Go
I have never written in a blog before. I am Jamesie not very good looking and dont have many friends. But I am a happy person who spends a lot of time with my collection of postage stamps and chocloate wrappers. I think collecting chocolare wrappers is really fun, and if you are reading this and you also collect let me know and maybe we can swap some. Thats it for now. I might do some more tommorow

My Life Try Heart About Weater
tyvm good nght and sweet dream love u ture brother and keep head up high about of wether my heart to ture friend to ur heart and lady head down call home easy time fall prise my smeat my heart and soul far always and wood and pick and school high game and year and take alot soulmeet school meet and care and time end rd i froud end a rose beside head store and deal not who im now and i see fly bye eyes and am high and keep ur dream save for a rain day and night feel taz live on life and love more going down in darkside world my life? A gun beweet eyes and i take love pull rope up and take soul love heart for sister ture and brother hod out my real world peoples!

A Man.
A man....A man can be one of the sweetest things you have ever seen but when the lights are out and the door is shut he will treat you like shit.His hand can be soft as angels wings to you when there is something he wants. But when you have nothing more for him his hands can be as hard as the devils horns.A man can make you happy and make you smile, then when he leaves you at home to do whatever he has to do. You know he can't be true.There are very, very few men that has truly made me happy or made me smile and it be true. But now I have gotten to the point that I don't care because I know one day he will fuck up some how. So I can stay to my self and make myself smile.

A Guy
A GUY LIKES TO PLAY GAMES. HE WILL WANT TO PLAY YOU LIKE A CARD IN A HAND OF POKER.THEY ONLY SEEM TO WANT YOU IF YOU ARE GOOD FOR THE HAND.AND YOU HOPE AND PRAY THAT YOU ARE THE WILD CARD THATTHEY NEED TO WIN.A GUYS WANTS A WOMAN THAT HE CAN DO THINGS WITH. SOMEONE WHO IS NOT DEMANDING, BUT IS UNDERSTANDING.A WOMAN WHO CAN DO THE THINGS HE LIKES TO DO.A GUY WANTS SOMEONE THEY CAN BRAG ON. AND BE PROUD OF.AND IS NOT ASHAMED TO TAKE ANYWHERE.YES, I KNOW I CAN BE HARD ON A GUY BUT IF YOU WILL THINK ABOUT IT THATS ALL A WOMAN REALLY WANTS FROM A GUY.WE DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE YOUR LITTLE SLUT.WE JUST WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD US. WE DON'T ALL ASK FOR MUCH.WE JUST WANT SOMEONE WE CAN GET ALONG WITH AND FEEL GOOD ABOUT OURSELF.I KNOW NOT ALL GUYS ARE TOTAL JACKASSES .ALL A GUY NEEDS IS SOMEONE TO MELT THE BLOCK OF ICE AROUND THEIR HEART.

Another Inncoent Guy?
A former police detective told a Lake County jury this morning that Juan Rivera refused to allow recordings, video or audio, of his confession to the stabbing death of an 11-year-old babysitter in 1992. Rivera, now 36 years old and with an IQ of 79, also refused to write out a confession on his own, testified Donald Meadie, the former detective who wrote out the confession. Defense lawyers suggested in opening statements last week that the confession contains language too sophisticated for Rivera to have written. But Meadie testified this morning that he substituted "proper" terminology for the slang used by Rivera. Meadie also said that he threw away the notes from his interview because the statement he typed out contained all of the information. Meadle's testimony came on the fourth day of the third trial for Rivera, who is accused in the 1992 rape and murder of Holly Staker in Waukegan. Rivera was convicted in 1993, won a new trial due to trial errors, was convicted again,

My Cold Heart
MY COLD HEART!!! MY COLD HEART IS STRONG BUT TRUE. IT HOLDS ME HIGH WHEN YOU TRY TO KNOCK ME DOWN.. IT WILL PICK ME UP AND KICK MY ASS TO GIVE ME A START. MY COLD HEART IS THE BEST THING MY FAMILY COULD HAVE EVER GIVEN ME CAUSE IT WILL TAKE ME WHERE I NEED TO GO. NO MATTER WHAT.. SHOULD I CARE IF I HURT YOU? SHOULD I CARE IF YOU CRY? MAYBE BUT I DON'T! EVERY TEAR YOU CRY IS JUST A LAUGH COMING FROM ME....I WILL HURT YOU EVERY CHANCE I GET AND EVERY MOVE YOU MAKE WILL BE JUMPED..TO SHOW YOU I KNOW YOUR LITTLE GAME YOUR TRYING TO PLAY BUT I HAVE YOU BEAT MORE WAYS THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW... MY COLD HEART WILL SHOW ME THE WAY.. TO FREEZE YOUR SOUL AND YOUR MAN HOOD IN ITS WAKE...MY COLD HEART WILL MAKE YOU SHAKE EVRY TIME YOU HEAR MY NAME. YOU WILL BE LOOKING OVER YOUR SHOULDER TO SEE IF I AM THERE.. FEAR ME BECAUSE I WILL STOP YOUR GAME... I WILL HURT YOU... YOU WILL FEAR ME WHEN I AM DONE...

Return
RETURN FOR ALL THE TIMES YOU HAVE HURT ME OR HAVE HURT SOMEONE ELSE YOU WILL GET IT IN RETURN. FOR ALL THE LIES AND CRAP YOU TELL TO GET YOUR WAY TRUST ME IT WILL RETURN .FOR ALL THE TRASHY WAYS YOU TREAT A GIRL AND THE WAY YOU TALK BEHIND HER BACK TRUST ME IT WILL RETURN.FOR HOW BAD YOU TREAT YOUR KIDS AND THE MANY, MANY LIES YOU TELL THEM.TRUST ME IT WILL RETURN!!!!!YOU MAY THING I AM A JOKE. BUT I AM NOT I WILL NOT EVER TOUCH YOU BUT UNDERSTAND THIS YOU HAVE A DARK CLOUD OVER YOUR HEAD AND SOON IT WILL CRASH.. IT WILL HUNT YOU FOR ALL THE ERONG YOU DO AND HOW YOU TREAT PEOPLE...YOUR KIDS WILL SOON HATE YOU AND I HAVE TO DO NOTHING YOUR DOING IT ALL ON YOUR OWN.. THANK YOU....ITS RETURNING TO YOU FASTER THAN YOU THINK.THE KIDS DON'T TRUST YOU AND THEY ARE NOT EVEN 10 YEARS OLD YET.. YOU MAY GO RIGHT ON AND SAY I AM COLD BUT UNDERSTAND THIS....THERE IS A FEW GIRLS OF MINE THAT WILL NEVER FORGET YOUR LIES..SO AS I TELL YOU NOW ITS RETURNING TO YOU FAST.. HOPE YOU LIKED THE COLD H

If I Could........
If I could catch a rainbowI would do it just for youAnd share with you it's beautyOn the days you're feeling blue.If I could build a mountainYou could call your very own;A place to find serenityA place to be alone.If I could take your troublesI would toss them in the sea,But all these things I'm findingAre impossible for me.I cannot build a mountainOr catch a rainbow fair,But let me be what I know best,A friend who's always there.

Common Sense To Me....
I just read report that stated that there is a 50% divorce rate in America. 65% of all 2nd time marriages fail. Low and behold 75% of all 3rd time mariages fail. Apparently people don't learn from thier mistakes. And no, I don't mean getting remarried is the mistake. It's not learning from the mistakes you made in the previous marriage(s)that is the mistake. And yes, I do believe that marriages fail due to both parties making mistakes. With the exception of abusive ones, of course. For example, my father cheated on my mom. He was unfaithful to his vows. That was his part in the marriage failing. But I also saw how he was treated by my mother when they were married. Does that excuse his actions. Not at all. It does however explain them. She treated him terribly. He dealt with it by cheating on her. 2 wrongs don't make a right. So you see they both had a hand in the marriage failing. What I see happening is that people don't learn from the mistakes they made the first time or secon

Perhaps I'm Missing Something
" fubar is for anyone 18 and older" who is interested in meeting new people while connecting with old friends. Sound like you? even if it does sound like you, it wont matter you'll step into a time machine and transported back to when you where 5, iv'e tried to make sense of it, i just can't maybe someone can fill me in on day.

Living In The Light
Living in the Light1 JOHN 1 5 This is the message we heard from Jesus* and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all.6 So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth.7 But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin. 8 If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth.9 But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.10 If we claim we have not sinned, we are calling God a liar and showing that his word has no place in our hearts.

Concepts
When the wind blows skimming my skin thoughts are carried to your smiles heavenly glance When Love had its tracks laid out for true hearts Its kind touch freed our desires In front of reallity the common sense brought its light Some days I forget how many blends of joy were alive sometimes I can't bare to breathe this Maybe its the kiss I miss Perhaps the voice haunts images of deep eyes One of kind one at time Caressing the moonlight I felt too many questions Wasting no time I carried on without this casual beam It doesnt seem right On again Off again You can't resist it I can't clear skies Little bittie foot steps I hope time finds you with all your might Cause My lose was entwined with fate

Looking For Sum 1 For Friendship And May
hello my name is joe, im a single laid back male, im easy goin open minded, likes trying new things, i love movies, playing pool n darts, i like to bowl, hang out, have coffee

Fighting The Department Of Homeland Security
Posted: April 17, 2009 12:00 am Eastern By Bob Unruh © 2009 WorldNetDaily Radio talk show host Michael Savage has teamed up with the Thomas More Law Center of Ann Arbor, Mich., to file a lawsuit against Department of Homeland Security Secretary Janet Napolitano. "It is a civil rights action brought under the First and Fifth Amendments to the United States Constitution, challenging the policy, practice, and custom of the United States Government that targets for disfavored treatment those individuals and groups that are considered to be 'rightwing extremists,'" the complaint announced today said. Become part of WND's re-declaration of our founders' intent to be an independent nation The federal agency recently targeted those individuals in its report called "Rightwing Extremism: Current Economic and Political Climate Fueling Resurgence in Radicalization and Recruitment According to the federal government, members of the suspect group of pe

Innocence
A virgin ship sailing, I embarked on the journey of you,Kneading fingers navigating my every position,Heart racing with desire only a woman can understand,Once she has met the power of a man,One who can take her, wake the core of her erotic longing. I lay face down at your command, As you came around and sat legs spread, Drawing my head towards your bare intentions, Rubbing away my inhibitions. One stroke at a time, I rocked to your gripping rhythm, Ever so innocently brushing your outstretched shaft With my hair swept face. Swaying between your thighs, My sighs showing you appreciation, I refrained from reaching out my tongue, Aching to take you in, Stopping to cherish that moment in time, A moment of innocence between us, One that will never be again.

Y Is It So Hrd
so i thought at time goes by things are supposed to get easier, i guess who ever said that was so so wrng it is just gettin wrse and hrdr to deal with. Day after day i sit and try and figure y i love someone that does not seem to love me back and it hurts. i have never loved and hated someone so much at the same ever in my life. i guess i jus want what i cant have. I wish it was all diffrent and that it will get easy soon. I cant handle bein hurt any more and seem to just keep gettin hurt more and more every day. I really do not kno how much more my body handle if it can handle any at all. Im worn and my body is havin a hrd time adjustin to this along with other things im currently not able to mention. I jus want it all to better bit idk that will eva happen. I think of my life and things that i want to say and can't and jus cry for hrs on end, i cry myself to sleep every nite as i think y me. There are so many thing i want tell him but cant find a way and when i do he seem alwatys idk

Favor's Returned
Each time I reach out to help, more often then not, that outreached hand is gratefully accepted. But as the sands of time run through, and course into the realms of the past, that hand is let go, and for that I am glad. Those that no longer need help, unafraid to stand on their own feet should stand, and stand proud. Standing proud does not include forgetting that which put you were you are. We are all apart of each other's growth and development. To forget where you came from, to dismiss those from your life that have had a part of your life is to deny your own past. Please do your very worst to deny my help, and / or my friendship; in doing so you help me. I too must learn, and I strive to learn. Please, teach me who my friends truely are, this is a lesson I need more then any other. Names not mentioned, they need not be. Those who teach me this day, and each day hereafter will never read this; and on the off chance that they do, they'll likely never realize that it is them this blo

How Dare You?
How dare you walk into my life at the eleventh hour,Causing confusion in my world and seizing the powerThat I possess over the feelings I choose to have for a man,You weakened my wall by holding my hand;By being the man that I missAnd showing you care in just one kiss.How dare you walk into my life through the back door and unannounced;Leaving me dreaming of every momentwe've spent together and thinking of every ounceOf desire I feel to have our souls connect in such passion that it's surreal;To feel your heart pounding against my chest,To be entangled in each other's arms,My lips kissing your neck as your tongue explores my breasts;Back and forth, up and down,On the floor, in the shower,'Til my head rests on your chest at the morning glory hour.How dare you walk into my life and expose these thoughts thatI have buried for so long,That I have been able to suppressSo that I may go on;You've put me in a spot from which I cannot move,You've made me vulnerable again,'Cause you're so damn s

Forbidden
Forbidden pleasuresWho makes the rulesUnfound treasuresAnd beautiful jewelsCan that line be crossedWhat could we truly beAnd at what costDo you see what I seeI know there is more thereWaiting to be foundCan you feel how much I careI feel like I'm being drownedIf you knew the amount of desireThat I feel for youMy burning fireThat wants one to become twoForbidden pleasuresWho makes the rulesUnfound treasuresAnd beautiful jewels

Not You!!!
Anger resonates deep within my soul.The hurt you caused, I will never let go. Will I take you back, You left me broken and damaged.You walked away from me when I needed you most. You left me stranded, alone, and scared. I built myself back up to be strong.You will not get into my heart again.You will not affect my head again.Yes, I will always love you. Letting go, is what I am doing.Take your blood from me, that's all you will get.My love is mine once again to give to someone who deserves it.I will no longer be taken for granted and be used. Broken I may be, but I will put the pieces back together.Lost I may seem, but I will find me.Love to the fullest, Just Not You!!!!

I Love This
Libra - Lovescope Weekly HoroscopePay close attention to your dreams this week, Libra. In fact, you'll be visited, so keep a journal next to your bed and write down any archetypal imagery that floods your mind during the night. The Universe is preparing you for someone who is about to enter your love life. Dream symbolism may give you some insight into this person and his or her intent with you.

Points To Ponder
- A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where a train stops. On my desk I have a work station... - Can atheists get insurance for acts of God? - If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? - Does fuzzy logic tickle? - If they arrested the Energizer Bunny, would they charge it with battery? - I believe five out of four people have trouble with fractions. - How come you never hear about gruntled employees? - How much faith does it take to be an atheist? - I don't have a solution, but I admire your problem. - If a tin whistle is made out of tin (and it is), then what, exactly, is fog horn made out of? - If quitters never win, and winners never quit, what fool came up with, "Quit while you're ahead"? - If atheists say there is no God, who do they think pops up the next Kleenex in the box? - Okay, who stopped the payment on my reality check? - I believe the only time the world beats a path to my door is when I'm in the bathroom. - Do Lipton employees take co

My Family
hello, The girls in my family r special to me they take special pics for me and do special salutes for me!! So if u would like to see "my special girls" in my family its gonna cost u!! Contact me for how much it will cost!!

Joke.......
There is a fly, flying above the water..There is a fish watching the fly, fly above the water.. and he says to himself " if that fly drops just 6 inches I will be able to catch it and have myself a good dinner"There is a Cat watching the fish..watching the fly, fly above the water and he says to himself "if that fly drops just 6 inches .. the fish will be able to catch the fly.. I'll be able to catch the fish and have myself a good dinner.."There a bear watching the cat.. watching the fish watching the fly, fly about the water and he says to himself "if that fly drops 6 inches The fish will be able to catch the fly.. the cat will be able to catch the fish I'll be able to take the fish and have myself a good dinner!"There's a man watching the bear watching the cat watching the fish watching the fly fly above the water and he says to himself "If that fly drops 6 inches the fish will be able to catch the fly.. the cat will be able to catch the fish.. the bear will be able to take the fish

Fuckin Pitbull
So i got on this morning and was graced by pitbull in my SB..what a way to start the day off right...I had to change his name because it gave his link in the blog and gave me and invalid html error...but from his charm I am sure you can all recognize him as always..read from the bottom up pitbull: fail on your part ->bp pitbull -again...I am goin for a few have fun talkin to yourself ->bp pitbull... like i give a fuck..i dunno who the fuck that is fuck her too ->bp pitbull: audience ->bp pitbull: for real I am steppin away for a few...feel free to continue your shit talk without an aud bp pitbull: even diana says i own you all ->bp pitbull: lmfaoo...you dont even own your own cock you piece of trash bp pitbull i own you ->bp pitbull: whatever...get some dcent insults or gtfo of my sb..I am sure there are others who would love to have you in theirs bp pitbull: an your but pals with him so sure you'll say that bp pitbu

Friends
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.Friends are like balloons: once you let them go, you can't get them back.So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you

Angels & Demons Auction!!!
FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER MY DEMONIC ASS IS ON THE AUCTION BLOCK!!! WHO CAN OWN AND TAME THIS DEMON?? THINK YOU'RE UP TO THE CHALLANGE THEN BRING IT!!! LET'S ROCK THE ANGELS AND DEMONS AUCTION AND SHAKE IT TO THE FOUNDATION!!! THINK YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES........ I'M WAITING ;)

Toilet Repair
Because I couldn't unplug the toilet with a plunger, I had to dismantle the entire fixture, no small feat for a non- plumber. Jammed inside the drain was a purple rubber dinosaur, which belonged to my five-year-old son. I painstakingly got all the toilet parts together again, the tank filled, and I flushed it. However, it didn't work much better than before! As I pondered what to do next, my son walked into the bathroom. I pointed to the purple dinosaur I had just dislodged and told him that the toilet still wasn't working. "Did you get the green one, too?" he asked.

Calling Out To My Friends
Calling out to all my friend's , fam, and fan's, I sit here most the time all day helping out loads of people weather it be in there auto's or there just asking for help. if u please could could we please help me out on leveling once more. If u have an auto that u r willing to sell hit me up lets talk i am willing to buy butt 1 thing i am asking for is that my friend's please stop by and show me load's of luv. seem's like this is takeing for ever with me leveling sooooooo please help me out. all luv will be returned. Thank's alot luv Tania

*~*addiction*~*
Tighten the tornique Let your soul slip away paradise is a state of mind... Weakness seeps in Emotions run thick Come to me sell me your soul and I will heal your pain Pay me your dues Let your concious subdue Slip into eternal bliss Tighten the tornique Watch your soul fade away I'll bring you to your knees Fade unto black as black twists unto light Fall to me ill be your extacy Strength you regain When you come to me again From wence the pit of torment begins So.. Fall to me Tighten the tornique Your soul is mine Drift unto the night When you wake you'll still be mine I OWN YOU WHILE YOUR EMOTIONS SLEEP

Emotional Dream
As i lie down and close my eye entering my dreams The mear emortional thought of you begins opening part of me i've never knew i had Pictrues of you flowing through my head Makes me think oh why should i let it end... written by nosforto

Att: Hotties
I am pretty sick today so I need you all to hold down the fort for me. I have tonsilitis and an Ear Infection so I need to rest as much as I can. I will be on every now and then if you need me hit me up on yahoo

In My Head
life is good 7 am and i am sitting on deck in back yard in robe drinking coffee not a cloud in the sky yellow lab sprawled out at my feet snoring just one of those days where all feels right with the world

Good Advise??
Don't close yourself off from the rest of the world. If you find someone who can make you understand a little more, laugh every now and then, give you a new experience, then never feel guilty. You'll just have more to give back to those who are closest to you. Sounds like good advise......maybe I should try more to follow it myself.

Love And Drugs Don't Mix....
So, I was working at one of the local jails March of 2008, and was meeting some very interesting people. But, as with any situation one in particular caught my attention. He was extremely out of place in the facility. He was clean, well spoken, polite, and extremely intelligent. On several occasions when I wasn't having a great day, no matter how hard I tried to mask it; he would call me out on it. It became almost therapuetic talking to him. When it came about I was going to have to leave that job I was heartbroken and scared. Yes I was terribly upset about leaving my job. I loved it. But, I was more scared because I had come attached to this fine man. I came to know Robert as an extremely kind, careing, loving, intelligent, and beautiful man. We worked out a system to write so that it would not cause problems. About two weeks after I left I wrote the first letter. I was extremely shocked to quickly receive one back. From then on it seemed as if each of us was flooding eac

Returning The Favor...
Originally posted on Tagged Apr 18, 2009, 5:15 pm I've never been one to take revenge on someone who has done me wrong...Instead I go out and do stupid shit to punish myself for whatever it was that I did to make them do it in the first place.... Once again someone has enjoyed making a fool out of me...Actually 2 someone's...And instead of getting angry at them for what they did...I'm sitting here taking the blame figuring that somehow it's all my fault... There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to stand up and say enuf! Take charge of the bullshit that is in their life...And cast off those people who want to keep them down...Because it gives them satisfaction having that kind of control over another human being.... Well...I'm done...As my status says... "I'm building a wall so high that no one will want to climb to the top and come over to my side...Anyone who tries...I'm shoving their fucking ass off...Let them stay on their own side...Because behind my wall...I ca

For Those Of You...
Originally posted on Tagged Apr 14, 2009, 11:52 pm who have taken the time to get to know me before you attack me...Thank you! Your friendship is important to me...And I do the best I can to let you know that... And for those of you who are bent on judging me for what you read on my profile...Or the bulletins I post...Or the tags or coments I send... Let this serve as a notice to you... From now on I am not even responding to your rudeness...crudeness ...or plain out stupidity...I'm just blocking you and have done with it! Have a wonderful nite my freinds...Thanks to a few mine is shot to shit! Good Night! Janette

Do You Know....
Originally posted on Tagged Apr 14, 2009, 9:21 pm what it feels like to be lied to over and over again? to have men going out of their way to be as rude and disgusting as they can? when they don't even know you? well try having someone be totally nice to you...give you false hope...make you think that they might be different...only to find out after you've made a fool of yourself that they're just the same as every other one.... it makes me sick to realize that i have four daughters who are going to have to deal with the same shit as i have...and it makes me want to cry to think that my sweet son...who is the joy of my life may grow up to be just like the jerks i deal with on this site and others on a daily basis.... why the hell do people have to treat other people this way? is it any wonder that no one gives a damn anymore about whether they live or die? what the hell would they be missing anyway? a world full of pain...hate...misery ...evil...no good intentions...users.. .lia

So...
Originally posted on Tagged Apr 14, 2009, 10:49 am Yesterday some dude tells me my profile needs revamped becuz it is a pathetic desperate appeal to the world...Hmph! I call a married guy who gets pissed off becuz you send him a friend invite more desperate than I'll ever be...Simply becuz if he's married while the hell is he on a site full of single women??? LOL So to all you men out there...I'm about as desperate as any woman can get...Desperate to find a real man that ain't afraid to talk to a woman as a friend...And one that doesn't think that the only reason a woman makes a profile on line is cuz she's looking for some "action"... And ah...btw...Have a great day all! Peace and Hugs.... Me

Can We Say Pathetic???
Mar 31, 2009, 3:10 pm Yeah that's me...I been over on My Yearbook deleting the hell out of stuff...Preparing to close all my profiles and crying at the same time...Why the hell for??? Maybe because I have been on there for almost 2 years and made a lot of amazing friends...And lost just as many...They find some dream person and all of a sudden they forget the one who listened to them cry...laugh...piss and moan...bitch and whine...yada yada yada...I've always been there with an open ear and a strong shoulder for anyone who needed me...And it amazes me how quickly they forget...But the ironic part is...When that dream match all of a sudden becomes a nightmare...They remember your name and coming crawling or running...no matter...back to start the process all over again...And being who I am...I sit there and listen to them and play the sounding board and mop to dry up the tears of the jerk or wench who broke their heart...Oh well...Such is my life...

Where I Stand
I think of the past Asking for another chanceAs time went onYou moved along in your life I walked away crying I smile and hide my emotionsHappy you have someone newKnowing he's a better manUnderstanding I lost It's over I lost all my chances Looking for my heartI don't know where it isAll I know is you own itMaybe one day I can get it backI will always love you,think about you,dream of what might have beenCopyright ©2009

Well...that's That!
Originally posted on tagged Mar 26, 2009, 12:46 am The packing is almost done...The room is my own...So why the hell do I feel so fucking empty??? Good question...I wish I had an answer...*sigh*

Waking Up In The Morning
When I wake up in the morningThe first thing I think about is youGiving me the invigorationTo keep Fighting life.Gives me the strengthTo surviveAnything the world throws my wayNo matter what.I feel the warmth and strengthWhen you walk in the roomGiving me the warmth...Enough to stand outside during a blizzard.The warmth is like the sunBrightening my dayShowing me the right way to goAnd always keeping me warm and secure. Copyright ©2009

How The Hell Do You Deal With Putting Your Past In A Box???
Originally Posted On Tagged 3/25/2009 Have you ever had to pack up a portion of your life...and watch it walk out the door?? I really thought this wouldn't bother me that much...After all...he hasn't slept here in wow...over 3 months...and even then he slept in the bed and I slept on the couch... But why is it hurting so much...Putting all his shit in boxes...having to look at the accumalation of 16 yrs of living together...And finding condoms in a dresser drawer of his when your tubes have been tied for almost 13 yrs??? Yeah...he wasn't cheating right??? Oh well...guess it doesn't really matter now does it??? The idea that this room will be mine...That I can do as I please and not answer to him...It is leaving me at loose ends...Not knowing which direction to go next...Knowing there is that one person that I want to try to have a relationship with...Being scared to death of even considering another man after this many years... How the hell do people move on to a new relationship w

Never Let Your Guard Down...originally Posted On Myyearbook In Feb 2009
Top Ten Reasons Why You Should Never Fall In Love On Line10. Because the day he finally told you he loved you and wanted to marry you...You had already given up and found someone else...And it left you so broken you cried for two days after...and he didn't say I told you so when that someone else turned out to be the biggest player you've ever met...9. Because you've tried to find someone else...when you know you've lost him...and no one can compare with him...or erase his memory from your mind...8. Because you don't answer when he calls on purpose just so he has to leave a voice mail...and you listen to those six words "Its Me. Call me back. Bye" over and over whenever you need to hear his voice...7. Because you login to your online accts over and over just to see if you have any new messages...and when you do your heart jumps cuz they might be from him...6. Because your heart beats even faster when those messages are from him or you see his sweet face in your inbox...5. Because your

Rules For The Non-military
Rules for the Non-Military; Make sure you read # 13 *Dear Civilians, 'We know that the current state of affairs in our great nation has many civilians up in arms and excited to join the military. For those of you who can't join, you can still lend a hand. Here are a few of the areas where we would like your assistance:* 1. The next time you see any adults talking (or wearing a hat) during the playing of the National Anthem - kick their rear. 2. When you witness, firsthand, someone burning the American Flag in protest - kick their rear.3. Regardless of the rank they held while they served, pay the highest amount of respect to all veterans. If you see anyone doing otherwise, quietly pull them aside and explain how these veterans fought for the very freedom they bask in every second. Enlighten them on the many sacrifices these veterans made to make this Nation great.. Then hold them down while a disabled veteran kicks their rear! 4. (GUYS) If you were never in the milit