Country chick's blog: "life"

so i thought at time goes by things are supposed to get easier, i guess who ever said that was so so wrng it is just gettin wrse and hrdr to deal with. Day after day i sit and try and figure y i love someone that does not seem to love me back and it hurts. i have never loved and hated someone so much at the same ever in my life. i guess i jus want what i cant have. I wish it was all diffrent and that it will get easy soon. I cant handle bein hurt any more and seem to just keep gettin hurt more and more every day. I really do not kno how much more my body handle if it can handle any at all. Im worn and my body is havin a hrd time adjustin to this along with other things im currently not able to mention. I jus want it all to better bit idk that will eva happen. I think of my life and things that i want to say and can't and jus cry for hrs on end, i cry myself to sleep every nite as i think y me. There are so many thing i want tell him but cant find a way and when i do he seem alwatys idk or i get silence, idk wat to do any more but me miseriable, and lovin and hatin him and wondering how i am goin to do any of this alone. I guess i took on too much at a time and can't handle cause my plate is way way to full. WAT TO DO I HAVE NO CLUE I HATE MY LIFE !