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Two Hearts That Beat As One.
finally i found in you a love that will carry me through life till death do us part. when we make love its like picasso when he made art. your smile can make mona lisa frown. of all the women in the world your the only one i will hold down. give my love all to you and make you happier then any man before me. all i ask is a chance and i promise that you will see. take my hand and lets walk through this game of life side by side. when people say we are the beautifulist couple they have ever seen... they aint never lied..... i love u baby my heart beats for you and anything you ask of me i will surely do....

A Love That Has Been Forgotten
I wanna thank fubar for bring a special woman into my life. hopefully all things will go ok and she will become my reality wife. shes a special woman to me and i wouldnt trade her for anything.when im with her i feel like a bird and she is my wings. together we take flight to a destination of love and happiness i love her for a lot of reasns but they are too many to list. maybe one day those of you who are looking for love will find the one they want and see what i see. shes my baby and my baby's name is casey i love u mamas

Rob Pattinson-never Think
I should never thinkWhat's in your heartWhat's in our homeSo I won't You'll learn to hate meBut still call me babyOh loveSo call me by my name And save your soulSave your soulBefore your to far goneBefore nothing can be done I'll try to decide whenShe'll lie in the endI ain't got no fight in meIn this whole damn worldSo hold offShe should hold offIt's the one thing that I've known Once I put my coat onI coming out in this all wrongShe standing outside holding meSaying oh pleaseI'm in loveI'm in love Girl save your soulGo on save your soulBefore it's to far goneAnd before nothing can be done Cause without meYou got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allWithout me you got it allSo hold onWithout me you got it allWithout me you got it allSo hold on

Tired Of This A-hole's Bs!
Last Thursday, I get an email from some scumbag on fubar. It was a copy of what he sent ot a very close and special friend of mine. Basically he was someone who wants to ruin her life and pretended to be someone he isn't. So my friend is gone from fubar. And the scumbag deleted his profile Today, I come home from a meeting.. and guess what.. another email. he has sent the emails to others as well. And was on my page with 2 profiles.. both of which he deleted after emailing me. I'm pissed because someone is trying to ruin the life of someone very dear to me. I get any more from the bastard and I'm just gonna close up here... that way he can't use me to hurt her anymore.

No Matter
No matter how bad he hurt youNo matter how long you cry No matter how long it's been No matter how much time has passed you by He will always be apart of you, some where in your heart. Whether you like it our not, you can not erase love.

Happiness Is......
Happiness is waking up in the middle of the night for no reason....Shifting under the blankets....And feeling the heat of the person next to you.You turn around and see them in their most vulnerable state.They breathe as though the weight of the world is on anyone's shoulders but their own.You smile and kiss their face most gently so as not to wake them.You turn back,And seconds later an arm wraps around you,They pull you closer and you realize.... *It doesnt get any better than this*

Awww
A girl asked a boy if she was pretty, he said "No". She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever, he said "No". Then she asked him if he would cry if she walked away, he said "No". She had heard enough; she needed to leave. As she walked away he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said "you are not pretty, you are beautiful. I don`t want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."

Hollis!!!!
OK SO I KNO U LOOK AT MY PAGE AND U ADDED ME TO THE OTHER ONE...Y U DOIN THIS....Y U WONT JUS TALK TO ME??? SO IMA BLOCK U IF U DONT HIT ME BACK.....GET ON UR YAHOO LIKE ASAP.....................................................................................

:( Sad
One night a guy & a girl weredriving home from the movies. Theboy sensed there wassomething wrong because of the painfulsilence they shared between themthat night. The girl then asked the boy to pull overbecause she wanted to talk. She told him that herfeelings had changed & that it was time to move on.A silent tear slid down his cheek as heslowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding downthat very same street. He swervedright into the drivers seat, killing the boy.Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, shepulled it out & read it."Without your love, I would die."

Disgusted With Veteran Healthcare
I am completely infuriated about the healthcare that US Military Veterans are receiving as of late. It really disturbs me how they are treated and handled with such blatant inconsideration. For example, I have seen nurses mistreat veterans on several occasions, man-handle and verbally brutalize them. It sickens me beyond belief. They are shown absolutely no respect as a person, let alone the veteran that they are. Furthermore, the treatment my husband has been receiving (or rather, lack thereof) at Jerry L. Pettis Veterans Memorial Hospital is in such disregard of what they should be doing that it is deplorable! The right hand doesn’t know what the left hand is doing, for starters. They have several doctors set up to see the Veterans. That is all well and good, but when you are seeing several doctors for the same problem, this is where it becomes plaintive. My husband has been going to the VA for the last two years for orthopedic reasons. Both of his knees are in crucial need

Lounge Rules
LOUNGE RULES-PLEASE READ-STRICTLY ENFORCED 1.NO ONE UNDER 18 ON CAMS PERIOD! 2.NO DRAMA PERIOD!ITS AUTOMATIC BANNED 3.NO LINK DROPPING 4.NO BASHING OTHER LOUNGES 5.NO DIRECTING OF CAMS 6.RESPECT OWNERS/STAFF 7.YOU GET ONE WARNING B4 BEING EJECTED 8.MUST HAVE DEFAULT PIC TO STAY 9.HAVE FUN AND ENJOY YOURSELVES

Can My Day Possibly Get Any Worse...
So i had to go into work today and talk to my boss... didnt know what it was all about but had a feeling... i was semi right about my feeling.., Due to the fact that i am going to be going to school in July for Cosmetology, and need a schedual change at work and my call ins since i started working there (which for 90% of them i have doctors notes saying i was UNABLE to work) I have to put a 2 week notice in before July. I dont understand WHY they keep picking at me, and never touch the people whom call in ever weekend when it is their weekend to work. I dont fuckin get it... But whatever.. so i have to look for a new job ASAP. I am so friggin pissed off right now... GOD FUCKING DAMN!

More For Her
"A Prayer" I LOVE YOU BABYI can feel it in my heartI can see it in your eyesI can hear it on the windThe moon whispers it to me at nightAnd the sun shouts it to me by dayThe stars twinkle with your brightnessAnd God comforts me in your absenceUnlike all othersBeautifulSereneFunny SmartYou are the one true hope of my lifeThe hope for loveAnd for happinessFor pleasant daysAnd magical nightsAll held in a single smile from youHeart of my heartLove of my loveSoul of my soulYou are the oneI have searched and sought forThe oneFor me

Pandora's Box
Given within seven depths of time, Listen to me now by using your mind. Give me the attention your eyes can't find, Let go of the weight burying you alive. Grasp ahold of the one thing you can't deny, And face the fears you keep lying inside. ~BJC

Went For A Hike...
Notice that you breathe in and out and that the light in the sky changes all the time in waves and that the sky curves all the way around to the edges or your eyes then behind your head to make a full circle. Lawrence Collins Only In A Little Planet

Bling Auction
Hey I have been in this bling auction forever and still no love is shown my way... Stop by and show some love lots of others are still waiting too Ireally need to be loved these days life is a pain ... hugs and kisses for taking the time to read.

4/16/09
Wow, I haven't posted on this one in a while. This is really a rant, it's more of a life observation. Today, while I was at the pain management Dr. they sent me for an MRI. When i got to the imaging area, they told me to empty my pockets and as i did that's when I began to observe. It wasn't so much what was in my pockets but what wasn't. I remember as a small child, if you asked me to empty out my pockets any number of random things would be in my pockets but there'd be 1 guarenteed item, Bazooka Bubble gum. Sometimes coins, maybe worms, caps for my toy gun, a note, rocks, boy kinda stuff. But no matter what else, even in my church clothes, Bazooka Bubble gum was a mainstay. As an older child the mainstay became a pocket knife and base ball cards. As a teen trying to look "COOL" it was cigarettes and matches, the pack was empty until i was 16. In my 20's it became a wallet and a roach clip or two, and i always had a pen or two with me as I always carried a notebook which

Theifs!!!!
Hi all as u all know I have a girlfriend we both have seperate accounts she is time-x check her out she on my top friends..I also have a man she is looking for one blow her up!!!any who ....some person or should I say thing has taken 3 Pics off my girlfriends page and started an account with different name and or location but my girls pics are on there..we have tried to contact this person we have commented this person with no reply..jus deleting our comments....so plz if ur gonna post sumthing becareful....here is the fake account Own Me@ fubar here is my girlfriends account *TIME-X *~LUVS THE *ANGEL*~FU-OWNED by *ΤhΣ ßîg ΜîκΣ ™.. Fu Owned By HIS P@ fubarplz show her sum love an let this theif know they are wrong for doing this..thanks much love to u all....

Lets Just Live A Lil
it seems like times are changeing..life is passin by...makein faces in the car window,giving that trucker the pull your horn sign...tastes are changeing with each day i discover a little something new about myself.where does this road lead anymore..i try not to worry about to far ahead,but to just try to follow the next step...ive gotten this far...at times i feel like ill be alone forever,its not somethin i spend 2 much time thinkin about but it does pop into my head at times...i bring it upon myself i know...im about 2 begin a new chapter in my life.im about to journey down a new road,the road i have been on has been bumpy,ive gone off course a few times and even broke down..truth is its difficult and hard to be out there and alone and im very greatful for the people in my life,im greatful for the help i receive,the generoicity*,the love..im even thankful for the things im not very thankful for.. we all change thats jsut how life goes weather its alot or a little just always hopein

Pudding Surprise
Some not too smart gangsters decide to rob a bank. After several days of planning they agree on the best plan. The next day they get to work and are able to get into the bank relatively easy thanks to their planning. Once inside the main vault they discover one wall is full of safety deposit boxes and start to work on them immediately. They drill and pry open the first box only to find a small container of vanilla pudding inside. The Head Gangster says, "Okay, well, at least we can eat it." So they eat the pudding. They drill and pry open up the second safety deposit box and there sits another pudding. They decide to devour it too. Determined to find the goods, the process continues for the rest of the night until all the safety deposit boxes have been opened. They didn't find any money or jewelry in any of the boxes. Disappointed the head gangster said, "Well, at least they left something for us to eat." The next day, while listening to the news they hear:"Yesterday the largest SPERM

10 Husbands, Still A Virgin
A lawyer married a woman who had previously divorced ten husbands. On their wedding night, she told her new husband, "Please be gentle, I'm still a virgin." "What?" said the puzzled groom. "How can that be if you've been married ten times?" "Well, Husband #1 was a sales representative, he kept telling me how great it was going to be. Husband #2 was in software services, he was never really sure how it was supposed to function, but he said he'd look into it and get back to me. Husband #3 was from field services, he said everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the system up. Husband #4 was in telemarketing, even though he knew he had the order, he didn't know when he would be able to deliver. Husband #5 was an engineer, he understood the basic process but wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state-of-the-art method. Husband #6 was from finance and administration, he thought he knew how, but he wasn't sure whether it was his job or not. Husban

If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had To Do Was Ask.
I'm throwing away picturesThat i never should have taken in the first placeAnd it's cold in my apartmentAs i'm changing all the colorsFrom the brightest reds to graysWell it's 3 o'clock on monday morningI'm just hoping you're not seeing her faceI've been getting calls in these hotel roomsLong enough to know that it was herThat took my placeAnd i hope this makes you happy nowThat the flame we had is burning outAnd i hope you like your pictures facing downAs even broken hearts may have their doubtsAnd i'm burning all the lettersHoping that i might forget him and his bad tasteThat he left when he was leaving meAlive but barely breathing as he walkedOut of this placeAnd you dropped the note and we changed keyYou changed yourself and i changed meI really didn't see us singing through thisThen you screamed the bridgeAnd i cried the verseAnd our chorus came out unrehearsedAnd you smiled the whole way through itI guess maybe that's what's worseAnd i hope this makes you happy nowThat the flame

Heavens Ugliest Women
Three men were waiting at Heaven's Gate. St. Peter says, "OK, guys, pretty much anything goes up here, but whatever you do, never lie, or you will spend the rest of eternity with the ugliest women in the universe." So they all agree and are admitted in. The first guy makes it a week before he lies about how rich he was on Earth. Bam! Right at his side appears the ugliest woman he had ever seen. The second guy makes it another couple weeks before he lies about how smart he is. Bam! At his side appears the second ugliest woman in the universe. So the first two guys are walking around with their monsters of women when they see their third friend walking with the hottest woman ever conceived by man. The first two guys say in unison, "How did you land with that babe when we get stuck with these nasty women?" He nudges the babe and says, "Tell them." She says to the first two guys, "I lied."

A Little More "about Me"
Well I have been doing some thinking as late and while I always new an "About Me" section would never ever be finished, I have determined that its definitely a "living" document that will be expounded on from time to time. Most of the time it's going to grow from some experience that I have had that has affected me in such a way that there is a personal shift in my way of thinking, way of living or way of being and such. Other times it's just going to be updated to include things that were overlooked previously and that should be stated because too many assumptions (a bad thing by the way) were made about me, about things, etc. So... first on the list for some truly dear friends of mine: I do NOT have ESP. I am not Clairvoyant on even a minute level. I do not own a crystal ball, and I am not a mindreader. Honestly, if these are skills that everyone else on the planet has and I don't, then I was apparently wandering around on the day they gave those out. I didn't even see those

The Abridged Version Of Life Up To Now, The Art Of The Possible Makes Its How
I did get to read “The Cat In The Hat” to Jeffrey last night after I’d gotten home from church with the kids where Martha FINALLY brought them with her to choir (we have a single mom in choir whose daughter is almost the mascot). They met me after an LYO session with Pastor Janet downstairs with about twenty youth regarding sex. And it actually wasn’t that nasty, but it was helpful to see sex and love in a Biblical context, even if some of the references are awkward to talk about. We don’t often see that even as adults. While Martha got us dinner, I was with Sarah and Jeffrey and they’d actually both napped yesterday but were tired on their feet. We ate and then the kids both went up – that is, I took them up to bed. Sarah wasn’t awake long enough to hear the story I was going to read her, “Green Eggs and Ham”, and it was getting late anyway. And I DID promise Martha I would meet her for the last night with just the two

Dont Fart In Bed
This is a story about a couple who had been happily married for years. The only friction in their marriage was the husband's habit of farting loudly every morning when he awoke. The noise would wake his wife and the smell would make her eyes water and make her gasp for air. Every morning she would plead with him to stop ripping them off because it was making her sick. He told her he couldn't stop and that it was perfectly natural. She told him to see a doctor. She was concerned that one day he would blow his guts out. The years went by and he continued to rip them out! Then one Thanksgiving morning as she was preparing the turkey for dinner and he was upstairs sound asleep, she looked at the bowl where she had put the turkey innards and neck, gizzard, liver and all the spare parts and a malicious thought came to her. She took the bowl and went upstairs where her husband was sound asleep and, gently pulling back the bed covers, she pulled back the elastic waistband of his underpants and

Magic Apples
A young fellow ran into an old man who was carring a bag. "What's in the bag?" the youngster asked. "magic apples", the old man replied. "Prove it", said the young man. "Well, besides apples, what is your favorite two fruits?" asked the old man. "Watermelon and peaches", he answered. The man handed him an apple and told him to try it out. The boy took a bite and said that it tasted like a watermelon. "Ok, turn it over", he said. The boy did and took another bite and said that it tasted like a peach The youngster still wasn't convinced that they were magic. The old fellow told him to name something else that he liked to eat. "I like to eat pussy." he snapped. The man handed him another apple and told him to try it. He took a big bite, spit it out, wipped his mouth and esclaimed, "That tasted like shit". The old man looked at him, smiled and said, "Turn it over."

"why I Think Your Beautiful"
To the girl whose beauty is present in all seasons I tell you why you are beautiful, here are the reasons: Your beauty extends into the heavens, it goes on forever and never lessens. Even when the clouds heighten you are here and the world brightens. You are like a fruit that constantly ripens your beauty continues to grow no mater what happens. My fondness for you constantly deepens because every time I see you my heart starts to weaken. You make everything else appear hollow where ever you are loveliness is sure to follow. You shine so bright you cast your own shadow a beauty that others would love to borrow. But try as they might your beauty they will never catch because something like you they could never match. Your beauty seems to increase with every breathe it tests the limits my imagination can stretch. It makes me question if what I am seeing is real I only know it is true by the way that I feel. Your beauty is so vast it can't be concealed there is no hiding it y

She Walks In Beauty
She walks in beauty, like the night Of cloudless climes and starry skies;And all that's best of dark and bright Meet in her aspect and her eyes:Thus mellowed to that tender light Which heaven to gaudy day denies. One shade the more, one ray the less, Had half impaired the nameless graceWhich waves in every raven tress, Or softly lightens o'er her face;Where thoughts serenely sweet express How pure, how dear their dwelling place. And on that cheek, and o'er that brow, So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,The smiles that win, the tints that glow, But tell of days in goodness spent,A mind at peace with all below, A heart whose love is innocent! - Lord Byron

The Empire State Building
Two men were sitting at the top floor of the Empire State Building. One man says to the other.. "You know, if you jump out the window here, the force of the wind will blow you back in through the window on the 90th floor.." The other man says "fuck off, you're jokin aren't u?" The 1st man says "No, here.. I'll prove it" so he stands on the window ledge and jumps out.. and comes back in thru the 90th floor window.. The 2nd man says.. "That was just a one off" So he does it again.. and comes thru on the 90th floor.. runs back up and says "See, im telling the truth" The 2nd man says "Wow, im gonna do it then" he stands on the window ledge, jumps out and falls to his death. The barman says to the first man.. "You know, you're a cunt when you're drunk superman"

Signs You Drink Too Much Coffee
You answer the door before people knock. - Juan Valdez named his donkey after you. - You ski uphill. - You grind your coffee beans in your mouth. - You haven't blinked since the last lunar eclipse. - You lick your coffeepot clean. - You're the employee of the month at the local coffeehouse and you don't even work there. - Your eyes stay open when you sneeze. - You chew on other people's fingernails. - Your T-shirt says, "Decaffeinated coffee is the devil's blend." - You can type sixty words per minute ... with your feet. - You can jump-start your car without cables. - Cocaine is a downer. - You don't need a hammer to pound nails. - Your only source of nutrition comes from "Sweet & Low." - You don't sweat, you percolate. - You buy 1/2 & 1/2 by the barrel. - You've worn out the handle on your favorite mug You go to AA meetings just for the free coffee. - You walk twenty miles on your treadmill before you realize it's not plugged in. - You forget to unwrap candy bars before eating them.

"love From The Heart"
I fly like a bird to be where you are, to spend just an evening in your place afar. Beautiful music and exquisite wine - never has love been quite so divine! But soon I must leave so kiss me farewell, the last dance is over as love stories tell. I'll never forget the magic of you, as I'm flying back home OH! are you coming too? Beautiful romance it's love on the wing, never has true love made my heart and soul sing.

"what It Means To Love"
As far as the ocean is wide through miles and miles of sea; You will be someone special a true miracle to me. As high upon the mountain tops as high as one can climb; You will be so dear to me the best friend I can find. As many stars that twinkle throughout the heavens above; You will be a a bright reminder of what it means to love.

Excavator Hits I-45 Overpass In Conroe, Snarling Traffic
CONROE, Texas—Traffic was snarled along I-45 northbound in Conroe Wednesday after an excavator on a trailer hit an overpass. 11 News photo It happened around 9 a.m. at the Wilson Road overpass. TXDoT officials were forced to close all northbound mainlanes and divert traffic around the problem. The road was closed until just after 2 p.m. TXDoT said there was broken concrete on one of the beams, so the debris needed to be removed before the road could re-open

The Christmas Parrot
One Christmas Eve, a frenzied young man ran into a pet shop looking for an unusual Christmas gift for his wife. The shop owner suggested a parrot, named Chet, which could sing famous Christmas carols. This seemed like the perfect gift. "How do I get him to sing?" The young man asked, excitedly. "Simply hold a lighted match directly under his feet." was the shop owner's reply. The shop owner held a lighted match under the parrot's left foot. Chet began to sing: "Jingle Bells! Jingle Bells! ..." The shop owner then held another match under the parrot's right foot. Then Chet's tune changed, and the air was filled with: " Silent Night, Holy Night..." The young man was so impressed that he paid the shop-keeper and ran home as quickly as he could with Chet under his arm. When the wife saw her gift she was overwhelmed. "How beautiful!" She exclaimed, "Can he talk?" "No," the young man replied, "But he can sing. Let me show you." So the young man whipped out his lighter and placed it under Che

Tax Day Tea Party Protests Planned Across The Houston Area
HOUSTON—Protesters who say they’re over-taxed and tired of multi-billion-dollar government bailouts plan to take to the streets around the country Wednesday for Tax Day tea parties. Locally, protests are scheduled to take place in Pasadena, Alvin, Lake Jackson, College Station, Livingston, Seabrook, Sugar Land, The Woodlands and Houston. Tax day 'Tea Parties' Do you agree with the protestors? Story details Yes No What protest? View Results In Houston proper, the protest will be in Jones Plaza near the downtown post office at 4 p.m. The events are all part of the National Tax Day Tea Party. Tea party organizers say their events are non-partisan. They say the tea parties are simply a call to action for those who feel the government’s spending and tax plans are excessive. “The younger generations are going to have to pay for this. That’s our biggest problem here. I mean, it just doesn’t end tod

Parachute Trouble
A man goes skydiving for the first time. After listening to the instructor for what seems like days, he is ready to go. Excited, he jumps out of the airplane. After a bit, he pulls the ripcord. Nothing happens. He tries again. Still nothing. He starts to panic, but remembers his back-up chute. He pulls that cord. Nothing happens... He frantically begins pulling both cords, but to no avail. Suddenly, he looks down and he can't believe his eyes. Another man is in the air with him, but this guy is going *up*!! Just as the other guy passes by, the skydiver -- by this time scared out of his wits -- yells, "Hey, do you know anything about skydiving?" The other guy yells back, "No! Do you know anything about gas stoves?"

Redneck On The Road
This guy is walking along a dirt road when he stubbles upon an redneck lying on the ground with his ear in the dirt. "Are you alright? What are you doing?" the man asks but gets no answer at all. The redneck doesn't even acknowledge that he is there. So after a while of silence the man asks again, "Can I help you sir?" The redneck replies this time. "Ford pick-up truck, blue, 18 inch rims, two passengers, female driver." "Wow! You can tell all that by listening to the ground!" the man says. "NO" The redneck replies with a shocked look on his face "The bitch ran over me 10 minutes ago!"

San Antonio Firefighters Honor Hfd's Fallen
SAN ANTONIO -- More than two dozen San Antonio Firefighters will be in Houston Thursday morning to honor two fellow firefighters who died in the line of duty. Captain James Harlow and rookie Damion Hobbs died early Easter morning when they were trapped inside a house while battling a fire. Some of the San Antonio firefighters plan on helping out by volunteering to work firefighters shifts, while others hope their music will help heal heavy hearts. "Firefighters are action-oriented problem solvers, but there's nothing we can do in this situation. By marching in the procession, we can offer some comfort to the family. This is something we can contribute," said Jeremy Walker, who heads up the San Antonio Pipe and Drum Brigade. In the six years since the band was formed, their solemn sound has paid tribute to fallen San Antonio firefighters and police. This will be the first out of town funeral for the band. Six members of the band will march along the funeral procession, but more than

No Beginning And No End!
When you are sad, I will dry your tears. When you are scared, I will comfort your fears. When you need love, my heart i will share. You will feel my love when we are apart, knowing that nothing will change my heart. It is said that there are angels in heaven above, and that they shine with the light of an inner love. of these things i had not a clue, but that was before i found you. A love that is so right, it shines all around, with the brightest of lights ever to be found. It comes frome somewhere, so deep within, that it knows no beginning and has no end!

War Story (revised)
War Story The teacher gave her fifth grade class an assignment: Get their parents to tell them a story with a moral at the end of it. The next day the kids came back and one by one began to tell their stories. "Tony, do you have a story to share?" the teacher said, getting to her most troublesome student. "Yes ma'am," he said. "My daddy told a story about my Aunt Jane. She's a pilot in the Iraq war and her plane got hit. She had to bail out over enemy territoryand all she had was a flask of whiskey, a pistol and a survival knife. "She drank the whiskey on the way down so the bottle wouldn't break and then her parachute landed right in the middle of twenty enemy troops. She shot fifteen of them with the gun until she ran out of bullets, killed four more with the knife, till the blade broke, and then she killed the last Iraqi with her bare hands."

You
When you are feeling alone like no one cares, Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least fifteen people in this world love you. The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. There are at least two people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. Always remember the compliments you've received. Forget the rude remarks.

Poision
You are my addiction My perfect poision The thirst I crave The bitter sweet taste That is upon my lips As night brings a new dawn Your touch coursing thro my veins Leaves me longing for more My heart is defenceless You are My curse My addiction My perfect poision

Hilarious Book
So I am just wonderin if any of you have read Denis Leary's new book? I am just now in the prologue and am LMFAO. Give it a glance..it is worth it. BTW.. it is called 'Why we Suck..a feel good guide to staying fat,loud, lazy, and stupid'

Show Some Love
HEY PLEASE SHOW SOME LOVE FOR A REALLY GOOD FRIEND THAT PASSED AWAY SATURDAY. HE WAS A BROTHER I ALWAYS WANTED. GIVE MUCH LOVE PLEASESCREEN NAME DOPEYREAL NAME NICK LATHORPR.I.P. WE MISS YOU SO MUCH AND WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTENhttp://fubar.com/user/1683073

Reported Paranormal Activity.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 E.M.P.S. It has stood as a dark and intimidating sentinel over the city of Baltimore for years, it's castle like structure guarding this great port city of America.It has seen it's share of tragedy and pain over the years, with fires, deaths, and the training of thousands of soldiers, preparing them for the wars in which they took part, and does so to this day.Its dark hallways echo with the reverbrations of time and memory. Its legends go back to it's beginning. From the WW2 Soldier who one sees rushing up and down it's flights of stairs, to the unseen stalker, who follows those foolish enough to wander into it's terrain, late at night.It's watchmen are usually silent about these regular occurences which they witness during the night watches, never talking about them to the outside world, keeping it only to themselves, until now.We have been graciously granted access to investigate this site, though we cannot give its name for security reasons. Who can tell

Your Mother Is Always With You!
She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street, she's the smell of certain foods you remember, flowers You pick and perfume that she wore, she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not feeling well, she's your breath In the air on a cold winter's day. She is the sound of the rain that lulls you to sleep, the colors of a rainbow,She is Christmas morning. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop. A mother shows every emotion... Happiness, sadness, fear, jealousy, love, hate, anger, helplessness, excitement, joy, sorrow... And all the while, Hoping and praying you will only know the good feelings in life. She's the place you came from, your first home, and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your First love, your first friend, even your first enemy, but nothing on earth can separate you. Not time, not s

Auction Arpil 18th Cb & Cg 9:pm Eastern
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Please Help Ninel To Henchman!!
Ninel is only 541,475 points from getting to Henchman. Please so him all kinds of luv...he is a great guy and such a sweetheart. You will be glad he is one of your friend:) Here is the link to his page becuase i can't figure out how to do the photo link that acutally takes you straight to his page with this new blog setup. if anyone knows i would greatly appreciate knowing how to do it. http://fubar.com/user/2388122 Ninel@ fubar Thanks so much for checking this out and helping him out:)

Needle Manners
While I was working as a pediatric nurse, I had the difficult assignment of giving immunization shots to children. One day I entered the examining room to give four-year-old Lizzie her shot. "NO! NO! NO!" she screamed. "Lizzie," her mother scolded. "That's not polite behavior." At that, the girl yelled even louder, "NO, THANK YOU! NO, THANK YOU! NO, THANK YOU!"

Some Thing To Think About
Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine. I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. >>From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible. How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word 'refrigeration' mean nothing to you? How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television? I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, 'How about going to lunch in a half hour? She would gas up and stammer, 'I can't. I have clothes on the line. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast, It looks like rain.' And my personal favorite: 'It's Monday

Twittering
I am on twitter now. toastedcherry. look me up. twitter with me. i truly don't understand it yet but i am liking the updates and all that stuff. its new and interesting and i love knowing what other people are doing and stuff like that. its cause im nosey.

This Is Kinda Cute
What a kiss means....actually read the whole thing cuz its nice+Kiss on the stomach = Im ready+Kiss on the Forehead ="i hope we're together forever"+Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything+Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"+Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"+Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together"+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"+Kiss on the Lips = I love you"What the gesture means...+Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other"+Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"+Holding on tight = "i don't want to let go"+Looking into each other's Eyes = "i just plain love you"+Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me"+Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go"+Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable

Top 15 Dog Pet Peeves About Humans"
When you run away in the middle of a perfectly good leg humping. Blaming your farts on me...not funny. Yelling at me for barking... I'M A FRIGGIN' DOG YOU IDIOT!! How you naively believe that the stupid cat isn't all over everything while you're gone. (Have you noticed that your toothbrush tastes a little like cat butt?) Taking me for a walk, then not letting me check stuff out. Exactly who's walk is this anyway? Any trick that involves balancing food on my nose....stop it. Yelling at me for rubbing my ass on your carpet. Why'd you buy carpet? Getting upset when I sniff the crotches of your guests. Sorry but I haven't quite mastered that handshake thing yet...idiot. How you act disgusted when I lick myself. Look, we both know the truth, you're just jealous. Dog sweaters. Have you noticed the fur? Any haircut that involves bows or ribbons. Now you know why we chew your stuff up when you're not home. When you pick up the crap piles in the yard. Do you realize how far behind sc

Blonde Logic
Two blondes living in Oklahoma were sitting on a bench talking, and one blonde says to the other, "Which do you think is farther away... Florida or the moon?" The other blonde turns and says "Helloooooooooo, can you see Florida ?????"

Car Trouble
A blonde pushes her BMW into a gas station. She tells the mechanic it died. After he works on it for a few minutes, it is idling smoothly. She says, "What's the story?" He replies, "Just crap in the carburetor" She asks, "How often do I have to do that?"

Speeding Ticket
A police officer stops a blonde for speeding and asks her very nicely if he could see her license. She replied in a huff, "I wish you guys would get your act together. Just yesterday you take away my license and then today you expect me to show it to you!"

The Last Entry For Me
Finding my space in my lonely worldSecretly depressed as an emotional girlSo here I am under the dead treeWith fog drifting about and my mind wandering freeIt's too cold for me to move, so I stayI wait and freeze until my life has gone awayBut nothing around me seems to changeIt's just so awkward and very strangeI can't feel any pain or the suffering I enduredI my secret world, every thing's securedDeath lurks below me like a river of bloodStalking my lifeI sink in my problems like sinking in endless mudI have to put up a fightTears roll down my miserable faceNothing is rightI just need someone to keep me safeAnd holding me tightFinding my space in my lonely worldSecretly depressed as an emotional girlSo here I am in the wild woodsWith cold rain pouring and darkness floodsI am too wet to move, so i stayI wait until I'm drenched and the rain has passed awayBut the rain never stops and sunlight never shinesAnd all I hear are the wolves' and ghosts' whinesStill I can't find any pain or su

Of Hooves And Hearts
in my crazy freakin life i have found that some of the best ways to deal with your inner demons are some of the simplest i find it imposable to be in any kind of bad mood when i climb up into the saddle, when its just me and my horse with miles of open country in front of us i cant focus on anything but the ride. as i dig my heals into the sides of my horse i feel every muscle in her body tense up as a wave of raw energy starts at her hooves and blasts through her body all the way up and through me . the world itself stops as we bolt forward like a bullet from a gun nothing else matters ,nothing else all you can hear is the pounding of hooves and heart the adrinaline cuts through you like a blade everything around you becomes blurred and streched as you tear through the world, nothing is as pure as this ,nothing as natural,this is where i find my true freedom,this is where i find my inner peace,there is nothing,all you can hear is the pounding of hooves and hearts when the world

River Walk
There's this blonde out for a walk. She comes to a river and sees another blonde on the opposite bank. "Yoo-hoo!" she shouts, "How can I get to the other side?" The second blonde looks up the river then down the river and shouts back, "You ARE on the other side."

At The Doctor's Office
A gorgeous young redhead goes into the doctor's office and said that her body hurt wherever she touched it. "Impossible!" says the doctor. "Show me."The redhead took her finger, pushed on her left shoulder and screamed, then she pushed her elbow and screamed even more. She pushed her knee and screamed;likewise she pushed her ankle and screamed. Everywhere she touched made her scream. The doctor said, "You're not really a redhead, are you? "Well, no" she said, "I'm actually a blonde." "I thought so," the doctor said. "Your finger is broken."

Who Is Og Geno & Where Is He From?
OG Geno was born and raised in Chicago Illinois until he was 3 months away from his 17th birthday. His mother then moved to Flint Michigan, which is where he still lives today. He first got into rappin & songwriting when he was about 13 years old, and that's when he found out that he had a love and a talent to do both of them really well. His friends and family had no idea that he could rap or write songs because he never shared it with anyone for a long time. But when he did, all the people that heard him were impressed that he could do it, and do it well. Although he started rappin and writing songs at age 13, he didn't get into making beats until age 29.Basically because he never had access to a real studio, So he bought himself a keyboard and the process was then set into motion. OG Geno says, that in his young teenage years and in his young 20's, he didn't have his own studio, he didn't know anybody that had a studio, and he didn't know anybody that knew anybody that had a s

Blonde On The Sun
A Russian, an American, and a Blonde were talking one day. The Russian said, "We were the first in space!" The American said, "We were the first on the moon!" The Blonde said, "So what? We're going to be the first on the sun!" The Russian and the American looked at each other and shook their heads. "You can't land on the sun, you idiot! You'll burn up!" said the Russian. To which the Blonde replied, "We're not stupid, you know. We're going at night!"

Fly Away
Butterfly, you flew awayAnd at first I didn't knowHow each hard day wasStraining on you soLittle butterfly, so fragileWith a wingspan of compassionYou flew with swift emotionWhile I was grounded by my rationSmall butterfly, I know thatYou can do it, when you flewBecause I have seen thatLonging freedom deep down inside of youMy lonely butterfly, my dearCan I call you my own? Or were you meant only toBe free to forever roamButterfly, will you come backTo this home I've made in my heartIf you should come, I feel thatTogether, we can make our brand new start.

In A Vacuum
A blonde was playing Trivial Pursuit one night. It was her turn. She rolled the dice and she landed on Science & Nature. Her question was, "If you are in a vacuum and someone calls your name, can you hear it?" She thought for a time and then asked, "Is it on or off?"

Broken Butterfly
Wings of tattered sadnessOf suffering and in painWith nothing for poor butterflyTo be able to gainRetrieved from such betrayalA pin placed in the backNow on frontal displayOn visual attackThrough such clear glassEveryone can seeBeautiful broken butterflyPerfect you cannot be

Rolex And Timex
A girl was visiting her blonde friend, who had acquired two new dogs, and asked her what their names were. The blonde responded by saying that one was named Rolex and one was named Timex. Her friend said, "Whoever heard of someone naming dogs like that?""HELLLOOOOOOO......," answered the blond. "They're watch dogs!"

Am I A Little Rough Around The Edges?
You bet your two butt cheeks I am, but at the same time, I'm one of the most honest, dependable, friendly, open minded & non-selfish humans you'll ever come across in your life. In the words of Eric B. & Rakim, "I Ain't No Joke". I find my characteristics to be extremly useful in today's world. I'm sure some people will hear my music & "ASSUME" that I'm a negative person, But if those same people would spend some time talking with me, I'm sure they'll see that their "ASSUMPTIONS" of me are all wrong. Do I get a kick out of proving people wrong? You bet your two butt cheeks I do. I know I use a lot of strong language in some of my songs, But as a songwriter I feel it helps add to the authenticity & integrity of the song. Do you think the characters in movies like Scarface & Hustle & Flow would have had the same powerful impact on screen if they all talked like Ernie & Burt from Sesame Street? Of course not. So when you hear me using strong lanugage in a song, it's not for shock v

Words On The Screen
You never know what you have until its gone.Life shall pass you by, and never once will you think of me.Not once will you remember our loveNot ONCE will you long to have me again.For me life will STOPAnd ALWAYS i will think of you.ALWAYS i will remember our love,and i will always wish i had you again.Love has Failed me once again.the agonizing pain won't stopit will not be numbed again.Im so close to losing my life, my lovemy everything.you.when you are gone i won't carry oni will watch life go on as if it were paint drying,and every night i will cry in suffering.you will always have my heartwhether you want it or nottake good care of it please.if you don't i will understand.it is only a lonely little heart,so small and fragile,so battered and ugly.What use is it to you?Love has Failed. ONCE AGAIN.unless you prove me wrong,and prove your love true.show your heart and give it to me to keep.trust me.love me.for ONCE, cry to me.i love youI'm sorry.If you wish me to leave i will go,i hope

Mere Words
I searched among the card displays, To see if I could find, A little something that would say Just what was on my mind. However there was not a one, That captured it just right, For no one else can understand Just what I'd like to write. I even find it difficult To try to write it down, For how do I portray to you, The love that I have known? I close my eyes and what I see, Is someone I adore; A person who is beautiful, Right down into their soul. Mere words cannot describe The many qualities you show, The love and caring nature that You share with those who know. Your kind and gentle temperament, Your sweet angelic smile, Your softly spoken sentiments, That reach across the miles. Your smile and laugh that sparkle with The softness of your sighs, The way your face lights up a room ... That twinkle in your eye. The loving gestures through the years, That quickly come to mind, For always you've a gentle word To calm and soothe I find. I struggle and I search to try To find some words an

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I want to put these words downLike they meant somethingI want to make you thinkThat I am a great artistI want you to feel some deep heart changeI want to write as if my soul is reeling with ecstasyBut the feeling of clay has come over meI feel deadAn empty vesselHolding cold liquorWhich may as well be waterWhich may as well been never boughtOr even thought aboutI want to put these words downBut I cant even think of a harmonyOr violenceOr a smart wordI want to put these words downBut I will never be heard.

She Said Kill Me Faster
We were going to go to the zoo today, but the rain prevented that. The DC zoo is pretty large, and admission is free, so I'm sure when we do go, it will be more than a simple one day affair. We also have to hit up the smithsonian natural history museum. Dan is very excited for that last one, he is a big history buff. I just want to see this dinosaur bones.I have been having a back and forth battle of the myspace messages with Rachel ever since I told her I would be coming for Lucas this weekend. She was bound and determined I would be leaving him for good. That very much annoys me. And I can't wait to see my boy.Ship just reminded Danny tonight that he gets housinig allowance, and so now after he speaks with his case manager tomorrow, we will be looking into apartments. It is undecided as of yet if that will be an apartment in DC, or a place in PA he will come visit on weekends until he gets out. We're pretty sure he will be out in about a month, give or take a week. But will know more

Bangin - A Poem I Wrote
Bangin is a thing a lot of brothers do,They do it for the red,They do it for the blue,They do it for the six,They do it for the five,They do it till the day they're no longer alive,You see a brother like me,Man I've been bangin for years,Thru the good,Thru the bad,Thru the laughter,And definitly thru the tears,But now comes the time that I make a decision,Will I continue on my gang bang mission?I'm 50% out, But I'm 50% in,And it seems like my homies are my only friends,So do I leave? Or do I stay?Until the day I get blowed away?If I leave my homies, then I'm not real,But if I stay with my homies, I might get killed,It's a tough decision I have to make,Tryna decide which route I should take,I wanna stay in, because of the love I have,I wanna get out, because I might get stabbed,I wanna stay in, cause I'm real as hell,I wanna get out, before I rot in jail,I wanna stay in till the day I die,I wanna get out, and give a new life a try,See, some of y'all feel me,But some of y'all don't,A few

Two Serious Questions
I want to beat this issue once again, for my own sanity and for my friends who I care about. Two questions... 1. Did you see my blog about the death of my nephew? http://fubar.com/blog/12327/999640 2. PLEASE Have you talked to the young people in your life? A week after my nephew was killed a kid in FL was killed the same way, which makes me wish I would have hit this thing harder. Last night, like every day, I had to drive my car along that stretch of tracks where Andrew was killed. I always live that scene vividly in my mind. Then I was driving on a four lane near a Walmart and a kid with a bag of groceries all dressed in black was running through the traffic against the light. I slowed way down and when I got close to him, YEAH, he had a wire coming out of his hoodie. You can imagine how mad I was. Don't be affraid of making some kid mad by telling them to take those damn earbuds out of their ears while walking in dangerous areas. And keep educating people about this.

Baby Bird - A Poem I Wrote
I was a baby bird when I learned how to fly.Would I fly low or would I fly high?Would I fly far or would I stay close, to the other baby birds I flew with the most?Will I grow strong or will I die weak, like the other baby birds found dead in the street?Will I die slow or will I die fast?Will I die first or will I die last?Will I eat well or will I eat crumbs?Will I live well or live in the slumbs?Will the other birds choose me as the leader of the pack, Because I have the strength that the other birds lack?If they choose me to be the leader of the flock, Will they follow me for more than a block?If I leave and never come back, When I'm gone who'll pick up the slack?Who'll be the next bird to take up the lead & guide the flock that I use to feed?Who'll be the next bird to spread his wings & take his place as the baby bird king?I was a baby bird when I learned how to fly, Would I fly low or would I fly high?Would I fly far, or would I stay close, to the other baby birds I flew with the

Lost
I sit here lost wondering where I should go... I feel like ive lost something but I am not really sure what it is. Is it my heart? Is it my soul? is it my dream? I really do not know. I love a man with all that I am but I feel like he is slipping away and i cant stop that. I am losing a friend slowly inside... like water through a sieve I am overwhelmed with everything around me..work..home. I just want to smile with the 2 men that mean the world to me. Maybe thats what Im losing. All I can do is smile and hold onto the love I have and hope that it wants to stay with me. If not... There is nothing i can do about it.

Feathered Fury
A burglar broke into a Chri stian family's home one night.He shined his flashlight around, looking for valuables; when he heard, a strangevoice echoing from the dark saying, 'Jesus is watching you.'He nearly jumped out of his skin, clicked his flashlight off, and froze.After awhile when he heard nothing more, he shook his head and continued. Just as he pulled the stereo out so he could disconnect the wires, clear as abell he heard, 'Jesus is watching you..'Freaked out, he shined his light around frantically, looking for the source ofthe voice and finally, in the corner of the room, his flashlight beam came torest on a parrot. Did you say that?' He whispered to the parrot.'Yep,' the parrot squawked, 'I'm just trying to warn you.' The burglar relaxed. 'Warn me, huh? And what is your name?' 'Moses,' replied the bird. 'Moses?' the burglar laughed. 'What kind of people would name a bird Moses?''The kind of people that would name a Rottweiler, Jesus.'

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born in to pain and hurt growing in pain and hurtliving in pain and hurt sleeping in pain and hurt waking in pain and hurt cuting in pain and hurt bleeding in pain and hurt crying in pain and hurt i know nothing other then pain and hurti use drugs to end the pain and hurt but all i get is pain and hurt is there nothing other then pain and hurt

{you Won't Find Nobody Else Like Me}
I'm not worried bout the ring you wearCuz as long as no one knows than nobodycan careYou're feelin' guilty and I'm well awareBut you don't look ashamed and babyI'm not scaredI'm singin' Follow me everything is alrightI'll be the one to tuck you in at nightAnd if youWant to leave I can guaranteeYou won't find nobody else like me

Annie's 12 Years Old, In Two More She'll Be A Whore. Nobody Ever Told Her It's The Wrong Way.
Got me my phone! Wooo! Moving up in the world. My bestest friend and I are about to reeck havoc on the outside world today. it's so fucking pretty outside. So we're going to take me niece to the park. Then take her to her dad's. Then go back and and do some crazy shit. Why you ask? Because we can...

Bling Auction
Bling Auction I am auctioning off a 35 credit bling, either a A-11 or a Cherrybomb, it's your choice. The bidding starts at 500k, with a buyout option of 15mil. The Auction ends at 9 p.m. FU-TIME on Friday the 17th. Winner will be notified as soon as the auction is over. Depending on how high the bids get, I might give another A-11 or Cherrybomb to the 2nd highest bidder. HAPPY BIDDING! Please don't bid on the blog, the photo to bid on is in my albums "Bling Auction". Thank you!

About Me
A little about me.. I'm 21 and from East Moline, Illinois. i have hazel eyes and reddish-brown hair. I'm a little on the plus side and I'm 5'7. I have four tattoos and piercings. I just recently got my nipples pierced.. yay! They really hurt but I'm excitied to have them because I've wanted them for a while. I have my own place and my own car. I also have a three-year-old son. I am not with his father.. his father has not been involved in his life since he was born. I love music.. it's pretty much my life. I listen to mostly rock and alternative and some metal. Anything else you want to know about me... just ask!

Memorial Service Under Way For Capt. James Harlow, Damion Hobbs
Thousands of firefighters from across the state have joined the Houston Fire Department Thursday to honor Capt. James Harlow and rookie Damion Hobbs. Harlow and Hobbs died early Easter morning in a southeast Houston house fire. The memorial service is being held at Grace Community Church.

Yes, Please!!!
She knelt calmly on her soft pillow as she listened to the sounds. He was in the bathroom. She heard the toilet flush and the water in the sink running for a while. He must have been waiting for the water to run warm. She was naked and the air was chilly causing her to shiver and her nipples to perk up with soft little bumps rising on the areolas surrounding her dark, pink buds.He was so very good to her, so loving yet firm. What pleasures would he seek from her tonight? She looked down at the floor, not seeing anything, just lost in her thoughts of pleasing him. The intense love she felt for him filled her with joy and she smiled. Oh yes, anything her Master desired, that is what she would give to him. They gave those gifts, the give and the take, the sharing of being completely in tune with one another.She thought about dinner, how she had made a delicious meal and served his favorite wine. She had wanted to welcome him home with love, knowing he'd had a busy day. She had wanted to c

Time
Pink Floyd 'Time' Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way. Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town Waiting for someone or something to show you the way. Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking Racing around to come up behind you again. The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older, Shorter of breath and one day closer to death. Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time. Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way The time is gone, the song is over, Thought I'd something more to say.

So I Just Made This New Friend...
i dont know him really...lol...just that his name's howey...and he's a friend of shanny's and a member of bad habitz lounge...so he cant be all that bad...lol...but anyways...he's havin this contest...how do you fly your fu...i reposted a bulletin about it... check it out!! i'm gonna be enterin a pic shortly :D you SO should too

Gay Marriage - Aka Karma's Bitch Ranch
I see that New York is looking at a bill to legalize same sex marriage. They actually passed the opposite here in Virginia 2 years ago, defining marriage as between a man and a woman. I'm all for gay marriage, let everyone have the same chance as misery and loosing half their shit. But I am sooo screwed if they legalize gay marriage in Virginia - do you have any idea how many bitches I've promised to marry?

Loss Unexpected
Sometimes we really need to stop and think, "DO the people in our lives really know how we feel about them". Yesterday I recieved a call from a friend I haven't spoken to in five years, he called me from the hospital, barely able to talk. He wanted me to know that he was admitted for an overdose and wasn't feeling too great! He had called me a while back and I was too busy to call him back. Dustin was my friend, my first kiss, my first boyfriend! He meant a lot to me, he was by my side through all my years of foster care and was always there to hold me when I cried. How could I have been too busy for someone who dropped their world for me? He had the worst parents you could imagine, I think they actually hated him! Last night we only talked about five minutes but it was heart breaking. He sounded like and 80 year old man, all out of breath and weazing! I held back tears as I told him I was soooo sorry for ignoring him! I told him I would call him back today, well he didn't make it to h

Come Join Me
Come rock out with your kroc out tonight at krocs's bar Twisted Thursday featuring DJ Kaos spinning the latest dance hits half price drink specials on domestic and wells from 9-11pm. So come rock out with us every Thursday. Cant come Thursday? Every night is "special" at krocs drink specials every night email me if u want more info 21 and up krocs bar is located on the corner of midland dr and neely ave in midland texas Hope to see your Krocs :)

My Pic
I want to change my pic more often but I don't know which pic to change it too....please leave me a message and let me know which one you think I should change it too. The most popular one will be my default for that month...Thank you and love to all.

Dora, Dora, Dora The Explorer
Boots and super cool explora Dora... K...Nick Jr is the bain of my existence. So watching it the other day they were teaching kids how to stand still in case of a T-Rex attack and it got me thinking. Wouldn't it be time better spent if they taught kids how to avoid gunfire in Compton or how to steer clear of vagabonds downtown? When was the last time we faced a T-Rex attack? Its been a while...and I know we should never totally throw the idea away because who knows what can happen...but c'mon...real world skills please!

,l, (-_-) ,l, How Do You Fly The Fu?!?!?! Contest
I'm gonna have my first contest!!! All it will take to enter it is lettin me rip or recon a picture like good ole Johnny Cash's!!!When i get 250 entries for my How You Fly The FU! album I'm gonna have a Happy Hour and give away two 35 credit blings. Ya can choose between the auto 11 or the cherry bomb. One bling will go to the entry that has the most rates after the Happy Hour. So its up to you to promote your picture... I'll repost bulletins for everyone as i am fair and well it helps me out as well. The second bling will go to people who bomb the album durin my Happy Hour. How's I'll do that is Fubar sends a message for every bomb and the order in which i get bombed is the number that person receives. I'll put the numbers in a hat and draw then on cam in Bad Habitz Radio lounge after The Happy Hour... Disclaimer- Its my first contest so bare with me... I think my rules are fair but open to suggestions to make it better!!!!

*sigh*
ok..so if ya live in the houston area you more than likely heard about the 2 fire fighters that died on sunday...and today's the service for them... i went to school with damion hobbs...the younger of the 2. my lil sister lives onteh street his family lives on. she just called and told me of the escort the family got walkin down her street. it breaks my heart... i'm freakin out on how many people i went to school with have passed away...i'm just barely havin my 10 year reunion in june (bh)

Rules Of Fam.. Nsfw.
OK AGAIN MY SEXY FRIENDS.. IF U GET ME A AUTO 11 BLING.. U WELL BE PERMENT. (BUT I GOT TO SEE U N MY NSFW AT LEASE ONE EVERY TWO WEEK)IF I DONT C U N THEM.. IM TAKIN IT.. THAT UR BORED WITH THEM.. AND TAKE U OUT OF FAM.. AND PUT A NEW PERSON IN.. I GOT LOTS OF MEN THAT WANT TO C THEM.. SO LUV THEM.. MUAH.

Gone For The Weekend...
So, I'm going to this seminar/conference thingie and I decided NOT to take my labtop (shocking I know...). So that means I'll be off the FU for a few, but I didn't want anyone to think I'm ignoring them ;P I AM taking my iPod touch so I MIGHT jump on the wi-fi and bug some of ya quickly =P And for those that have my number, feel free to call/text when bored. I'll be busy during the day hours, but have a feeling I'll be bored as hell at night *sigh*. Anyway, take care all you lovely peoples!!!

Tpg Staff Auction...come Own Me!!
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A Wonderful Surprise
A guy is sitting at the bar just staring at his drink for half an >> hour when this big >> trouble-making biker steps next to him, grabs his drink, gulps it >> down in one swig and >> then turns to the guy with a menacing stare as if to say, >> 'What'cha gonna do about it?' >> >> The poor little guy starts crying. >> >> 'Come on man I was just giving you a hard time,' the biker says. >> 'I didn't think you'd >> CRY.' 'I can't stand to see a man crying'. >> >> 'This is the worst day of my life,' says the little guy between >> sobs. 'I can't do >> anything right. I overslept and was late to an important meeting, >> so my boss fired me. >> When I went to the parking lot,I found my car was stolen and I >> don't have any insurance. >> I left my wallet in the cab I took home. I found my wife in bed >> with the gardener and my >> dog bit me. So, I came to this bar trying to work up the courage >> to put an end to my >

The Old Farmer
An old country farmer had a wife who nagged him unmercifully. . From morning till night she was always complaining about something. The only time he got any relief was when he was out plowing with his old mule. He tried to plow a lot. One day, when he was out plowing, his wife brought him lunch in the field. He drove the old mule into the shade, sat down on a stump, and began to eat his lunch. Immediately, his wife began nagging him again. Complain, nag, complain, nag - it just went on and on. All of a sudden, the old mule lashed out with both hind feet, caught her smack in the back of the head. Killed her dead on the spot. At the funeral several days later, the minister noticed something rather odd.. When a woman mourner would approach the old farmer, he would listen for a minute, then nod his head in agreement; but when a man mourner approached him, he would listen for a minute, then shake his head in disagreement. This was so consistent, the minister decided to

Shit
It seems the farther we get in life the more shit we have to deal with. Weather we have to eat it, take a bunch of it, or be under it (get shit on), it seems like it gets rougher as the days go by. I've been shit on mostly my whole life - school bullies, ex wives, girlfriends, whatever. Yet for some reason I'm happy this way. When my life is in turmoil is when I'm the most happy and when I'm the most productive . I'm not good at working under stress but you make my life hell and you better be able to keep up with me. Those that say they love you are always the ones that will be first in line to shit on you. Why is that ? I don't understand why I let myself get into the situations that I get into. Yet everytime I get myself in a pickle, I'm always o.k. and am twice as wise fom it. At one time I really wanted to die. If it was by my own hand or the hand of God, I truly wanted my life to end. I was angry, I was terrified, I was every emotion a person could possibly have but all at once.

Dj Ice Bling Contest
For Every Person That sends me 1 Mil in Fubux Your name Will be Entered into a drawing. You can Enter your name more than once. One week from today I will hold the drawing and the winner will receive the bling of their choice..whether it be the Auto or The Bomb ... Every 1 Mil in Fubux Gets you 1 Entry. If You send 2Million fubux at one time you get 3 entries. If You send 5 Million fubux @ 1 time you get 7 entries. The chances of you winning this contest with only 1 entry is 1 out of how many ever join If Interested in joining this contest all you need is to send the fubux with a message stating "For The Cherry Bomb/Auto Contest"

And Now, Deep Thoughts By.....
Yeah, nothing deep around here...I'm a shallow biznitch like the rest. Apparently I have time traveled back to age 14 and restarted having a terrible complexion...Wtf?! I'm 26, and suddenly have a pizza face. I take the shortest fu-cations ever. My life is so vapidly empty that I literally need Fubar for entertainment. It most certainly makes me sad, but it beats folding more laundry. Texas trip...T-5 days and counting...I'm stoked. Its been in the 80's down there now for a week. I can't wait to drive through the base and see all the hot soldiers doing PT *drools* I'm also uber excited to eat at Popeye's again. Don't ya just love being tricked into a blog only to read crap that means absolutely nothing to anyone else?

What Is This
what is this that I am feeling? Everyday I feel incomplete. Everyday I feel like my world is smaller then it should be. Every time I talk to you everything changes. I feel whole. I feel ready to take on the world. I feel as if this world is not big enough to contain me. I have been saying I love you, yet as I sit here writing this I have came to believe that I do not even know what love really is. I know that I care about you more then anyone else in this world. I want to see you smile. I want to see you happy. I want to spend every waking moment with you. There are times that I feel full of pain thinking about you. I worry everyday if you are ok. If you are happy. If I am good enough. If this is truely what love is then I never want it to end. I want it to go on till the day I die. not sure what I am trying to say except that I want to know what love truely is and I want to find out with you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way cause I am not sure I can explain what I mean exce

Annoyed
Okay most of you who even attempt to read any of my mumms can see I am and havent been in a good mood since God knows when. Well sorry but this is my outlet for ranting so deal or dont read. I personally dont give a flip. Any how, have any of you out there have to get your ass up at like 4am in the gawd dam morning. Feed the cats and dog. Let the dog out for a pee, turn around make 4 lunches, get the coffee going and wake the family up for work and school Only to listen to them all piss and moan about being tired, bitch bitch bitch. And when you ask them something what ever that may be they jump down your ass . And God!! help you if you respond back in the same tone they barked at you. They have the balls to look at you and say "whats your problem" you stare at them and think am I fucken nuts or what. I get barked at and they have the balls to ask me whats up my ass . Ohhhhhhhhhh k then. I am just a frogs hair away of losing my temper again and trust me it isnt prett

Tell Me What You Think
Well its been a minute but, done a lot, thought a lot. You know its weird, you know who you are and you feel like you dont know yourself at all. Are we who we say we are. I dont mean like are we from another planet or anything no, but like do you ever really stop and think about who you are? Why you do some of the things you do. You are supposed to go through all the shity things in life so that you will have a better understanding on what life is supposed to be about. Why though? Why have all those bad things happen, you try to stop them before they happen you see it coming but it happens anyways. Its like what the fuck man come on. Then you start to think, what was the lession that i was supposed to learn about life that i didnt know before. Was it a reminder of use of emotions, to be cold hearted. I feel i have come into a new in my life. Where to start though, how to start. Am i complete or just broken. You know you spend your life, well some of us, looking for that person that we

Vulnerable
can you see the barriers i throw up so you cant get inside i cant have you get through the walls you cant see what lies underneath the hurt vulnerable man that cant help but feel with all my heart and love with all my soul i cant let you hurt him you dont deserve that you cant deserve that no matter what you promise its just lies just so you can have ultimate victory over my being you can never break down my walls you cant see the tears that flow you can never feel the passion i love with or the desire i have yet its hard to hide them you still seem to get inside yes so more walls go up and i keep fighting to keep you out stop trying to get inside me you dont belong there you dont deserve to be there yes this means you every single one of you

The World To Someone
i remember a time not long ago when i was someones world when i woke up and my first thought was you and i was your first thought i remember what it was like to watch you sleep what it was like to look into your eyes and see a love and passion i had never felt before and i could see it in my own eyes and how the day would pass as i thought about you your touch your soft skin your blue eyes how the world seemed to be at my command yes those are just passing thoughts now you are long gone and i am left with the pieces of what use to be my heart but we all go through it one day your someones world the next they tell you that your arent important anymore that your love meant nothing and that fire you had inside you burns out and now with all the time that has passed i still cant find that fire

Did You Ever? (episode 1)
Did you ever have one of those days, morning even.. my day hasn't even started.. that you just wake up roll over and KNOW.. KNOW! its going to be one of those days you wish could stay in bed with hopes that the day rolls on without you? Like you already know the day is gonna bring nothing but shit?but you still pray, hope even that it will get better as the minutes pass. False hope if you will? if so,is there room at your table for one more? Later days.

Some For My Ladies
IF A MAN WANTS YOU If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn`t want you, nothing can make him stay.Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that`s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can`t "be friends."A friend wouldn`t mistreat a friend. Don`t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don`t stay because you think "it will get better." You`ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.Avoid men who`ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn`t marry them when he got them pregnant. Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friend

,,i,, Bc Unlike You, I Mean Everything That Comes Out Of My Mouth...
A half-wit gave you a piece of his mind, and you held on to it. Don't you realize that there are enough people to hate in the world already without your working so hard to give us another? "Attention is given to those who earn it and not to those who beg for it".. Yeah blame me for your own shortcomings, why don't you. Your name should be "DJ Drama"... It's fitting.

Family Member Needs Help!!!
Friends.....Family.....Everyone.... One of my family members decided that she wanted to be in a contest...her first contest ever...but since she joined it late, she's way behind.....now she needs our help to at least catch up. Even if you know someone else in the same contest, a few comments wouldn't hurt......Who knows, maybe she even give you a lap dance......yeah, right.... But seriously, stop by and at least comment and rate once.... Here is the link to her photo...... http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2373265&i=820950308&albumid=1615626">

Your Help Is Wanted And Neded
Please forward this to your family and friends if you think they would they would be interested. this is from the head of my community please read Hello, I wanted to take a minute to thank you for being a part of our effort to help make some real changes in the lives of our children. Please go by our "Inaction = Tolerance" page to visit the National Sex Offender Registry today. If you have not been by there in a while please refresh your knowledge of who is in your neighborhood, around your family, in any zip code in the U.S. It is free, no fees, no credit cards, nothing, just keep your self informed of those around you that have hurt children in the past.Abuse in all it's ugly forms is more than one person, group or effort can address, that is why this e-mail is focusing on the many different groups and their issue specific goals that we are networking with, and that are working together to keep our kids safe.While I wish I could send all the e-mails I get daily in, to show the dept

American Men...
...are so easily pussywhipped :) It is so easy to weed out the gullible easy ones: ones that scream TITS, or GTFO! Or that drool over any NSFW pic like dogs. Or that try to come up with any come on. Thats the ones that are so easy to throw the lasso over, lay them down, and step all over. So easy to manipulate, to lie to (they are usually not the brightest ones), to control. I know how to play my cards well with men like that, but I don't do it. Itsa pity/decency thing I suppose...This is mostly a warning to men that would meet other women with that knowledge, who WOULD use it. Is there any wonder that there are so many married/divorced men on FUBAR that complain about bitchy wives/gf's? You made your bed, you lay in it.

Stripper? Say What?
So... My friend has been working at a strip club.... She has been telling us she was a waitress... no biggy... but her man seemed to have a major issue with it and is only letting her do it till she gets enough money put up for a semester or 2 of college.. (she doesn't have long till she graduates) Well.. i have been wondering if she really was a waitress... so i sent her a text asking if she was working up at the club that night.... she said yeah.. so i said.. ok.. see ya in a couple hours.. she was like yeah right... when i walked in.. her face was pure shock.. she comes up and goes omg you were serious... i said yeah.. and she goes... damn.. come to find out... my suspicion was right! she is stripping... i stayed for a while.. she got 40 bucks out of me haha... then i left I drove 1.5 hours each way.. just to prove to myself something i knew... I love strippers LMAO (seriously... she was shocked i was so cool about it)

The Updated Heavy Metal Story..
THE NEW HEAVY METAL STORY BY DEE AND SON.. one day as I was walking down the street I stepped in a PUDDLE OF MUDD. Low and behold my shoes got STAINED.. As I was walking along I met a strange manHe seemed a little DISTURBED he kept shouting at pigeons. Sayin DIE PIGEON DIE he seem to have been on some kind of DOPE. I swear he must of gottonSTONED in the TEMPLE with PILOTS. He smiled at me and his teeth were full of METALLICA> I think he was a little AC/DC he was in a PSYCHOTIC HOMICIDAL DISMEMBERMENT or something. I started chatting with the poor WEEZER and he said man my SOUL can FLY. He sure was some kind of DIVINE HERESY let me tell you. I asked him were he was from and his name. He replied my name is PINK FLOYD, and i am from a small town called OZZY. I continued the conversation with him but he kept pointing and said look at the GORGUTS. As I continued to chat with him a chick said hey my name is OUR LADY OF PEICE. I seem to notice that some kind of TOOL in her han

Of Broken Hearts
How have I come here, I'm receiver of broken hearts. I don't break them, But they get delivered to me. (NO! I DON'T WANT THEM HERE!) I cannot consentrate into this. No more broken hearts for me. I cannot take others' pain. I have my own pain in my heart already. (Because I love you so much.) And now that you're not here with me, I'm trying to stay sane, alive. My heart can take this, I'm used to it. (Can yours? I can only hope.) This is the truth, Lying here opened. No addons, nothing taken. Truth, completely: I love you, I'm not afraid to say it. Because I mean it.>

Rf's Funnies (bah, I'm Bored)
I am writing down all the funnies I make, for my future great grandchildren Q: Whats the diff between a zombie and a man? A: A man will never hear "you just love me for my brains" some people are born with a silver spoon in their mouths, you were born with a hanger in yours

Demons
Demons Sometimes they're in a bottle, Sometimes a pair of high-heel shoes, Some come rolled in paper Some have six strings and only play the blues Once you've met the devil There ain't no way he'll let you be When I'm not chasing demons, There's demons chasing me Skeletons in closets Ghosts underneath the bed They hide out in pictures And words better left unsaid They hang around like perfume And haunt me like an ancient melody When I'm not chasing demons, There's demons chasing me There's things that I can't leave alone 'Cause they won't leave me alone What I want ain't what I need Still I reach for the things I crave Then try to run away Am I afraid of being free 'Cause when I'm not chasing demons There's demons chasing me So roll one up and light it Pick up my old guitar I'm playing crossroads Drinking whiskey from a mason jar Heartache at my front door Says she needs my company When I'm not chasing demons There's demons chasing me There's

Thoughts
I thought of you with love today But that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday And the days before that too. I think of you in silence.I often speak your name. All I have now are memories, And pictures in frames. Your memory is my keepsake, With witch I will never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart. Oh millions and millions Of times I’ve cried. If love alone could have saved you, You never would of died. In life I loved you so dearly, In death I love you still.

Remember Me
Remember Me To the living, I am gone. To the sorrowful, I will never return. To the angry, I was cheated. But, to the happy, I am at peace. And to the faithful, I never left. I can not speak, but I can listen. I can not be seen, but I can be heard. So as you stand upon the shore. Gazing at a beautiful sea-Remember Me As you look awe at a mighty forest And its green majesty – Remember Me Remember Me, in your heart, your thoughts And your memories of the times we loved. All the times we cried, the times we fought. And the times we laughed. For if you always thi

This One Time At Rough Riders
I met Jeff at a Charity function they were having at the hotel. It wasn't the type where they ask for donations and have auctions and themes. Those are cool. It was the type they have for the actual charity cases. Those are lame. It was a Christmas party and the Rough Riders were going to show up and deliver bears to the guests. Tracy said i had to go. She said that the Rough Riders are always hot and into charities so they must be good people. Sometimes I think Tracy Just says stuff to get me to do things I normally wouldn't bother with. Most days I am stupid enough to fall for it. Most of the Rough Riders were very old. They were all very nice but still a little to old for me. The youngest one there was about 41. His arms were full of teddy bears and he was wearing that uniform that makes them look like overgrown boyscouts. I mean a polka dot ascot, a stetson hat and flare? Really? But he was the youngest one there so I quickly turned to Tracy and said "called it". It didn't matter

Google Cash...hustle Or What
JasonsMoneyBlog.com RSS Feed Subscribe to the RSS Feed Add to your Favorites How I Make Over $5000/month Thanks to Google Working Part Time From My Living Room Posted on April 06th, 2009 | 15 Comments by Jason Hayes - Downey, California Imagine making around $5,500 to $8,000 a month from Google, only working Part-Time a few hours a day. Not a ton of money. But, very solid and good. I was able to replace my previous job’s income, working less than 10 hours a week on my computer at home. Hi, my name is Jason Hayes and I live in Downey, California. I’m glad you have visited my blog, because now you have the chance to take advantage of this great program I use. Let me back up for a minute. I’ve always struggled, working my nine to five job. I have kids, and I could barely see them because I was always at work. However, I was never interested in those fly by night “get rich quick” business opportunity, pyramid scheme or netw

Ultimate Sex Survey
The Ultimate SEX Survey by game_gurl69 Do you like it rough or sensual?: Sensual Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: I have a boy friend for now, but I like women just as much. How often do you like to have sex?: Is there a time that isn't good? Is sex a top priority for you?: Its up there Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: Yes, and I like it from behind too LOL. How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: Not ofen, and not for a while. How do you feel about one night stands?: They can be fun How many one night stands have you had?: A few What's your favorite position?: Boys: from behind; girls: 69. Where's your favorite place to have sex?: In the butt LOL, the bedroom I think. Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: Depends, making love is nice and sometimes fucking is just plain needed. Have you ever watched porn while having sex?: y

Whistling
I dip my bokken into the clear water.Dragging, writing, dancing in the currentnot contemplating, not pensingjust fighting the flow as my toy blade sloths against the stream. There's not enough weight to this bladenot enough sin in my heart.It's too gentle. An artist's weapon.Delicate- refined- balanced.Bruising, not cleaving. The even, smooth worksmanshipthe artisan sanding, the thick varnish chipped finely against hardwood floors and claustrophobic ceilingsa meer bauble that served to only teach me the gravity of my swing those punctuated- perfect strokes of misery.Each escape of air a cry for helpa drowning plee unheardeach downward plunge another petalfall of sorrow.If I were to put a blade to it... if I were to... thrust that sadness- with the same perfect swinginto the heart of an opponent-would I be understood?For just one moment...before pain twisted his facebefore fear took what was left of his mind and heart? I flip the bokken from the tips of my fingersgently, apologetic

Summertime Breeze Auction
**Summertime Breeze Auction ** Starting on Wed April 22nd at 2 pm (central) Come join this auction of fun for only 25k fubucks entry fee. Enter soon to insure a good spot . Random bling during contest . Open to all Ladies & Gents ** Verified Salute needed ** So all know we're real ** LoL Let's have so fun fun fun in this auction. Only rule is No Drama . Contact Sinfully Delicious Blondie below for added details. Also think of your offerings & send them thru my pm's. Ask me for ideas if you wish also so that it's all posted with your pic you want entered. ~Sinfully DelicIous~Blondie~ (repost of original by '~Sinfully DelicIous~Blondie~Dangerous Curves ♥IßïC♥DSC♥RR♥ ♥' on '2009-04-15 21:11:29')

How To Treat A Woman
Its a joke. Dont get butt hurt >;-) How to treat a woman 1. When she asks how she looks, shrug and say "could be better." This will keep her on her toes, and girls love that.2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. If she grabs your hand, squeeze hers really, really hard until she cries. This will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are.3. Once a month sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs. They love to be roughed up.4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If she is, say "you better be." Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her you care.5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement, and every girl needs some improvement.6. Recognize the small things; they usually mean the most. Then when she's sleeping, steal all her small things and break them. Because jewelry is for wussies

Wanna Be My Gf?
Being the dreamy young stud that I am, I am only accepting high quality applications. Don't bother applying unless you meet the following requirements: 1 – You're at least a 7.0 2 – You will work out at least 3 times a week while we are dating 3 – Since you are a female and will probably lie and cheat, I expect you to be very good at this so that I do not find out. 4 – You know tongue tricks 5 – Willing to clean my home on a daily basis 6 – Can cook amazing meals 7* Are an intelligent, spiritual and somewhat mysterious person. * (lol ok seriously, I don't care) Still Interested? (100% of females): Continue below!

Dallas Fetish Ball
Here are some pics from the Dallas Fetish Ball at The Church. The whole show was good, but Rubber Doll and Athena Fatale really put on awesome shows. I didn't get many pics, because I didn't take my camera, since my friend is always bragging about how great her camera is ;). She didn't mention that it only holds like 20 pics...

Waste Of My Time!
Ok i need to vent. To all the people that know me and who fall in this catagory thanx. When I talk to someone and I make plans to come see u and take time off of work and look into flights and then all of a sudden I never hear from u and u never respond back that is some shit! When I talk to you and u have nothing to say and it is your idea to talk to me, U are wasting my time. If u cant be honest with me and u have to lie to talk to me and play fucking mind games, u are a fake mother fucker! I always am honest and I always try and keep to my word. I dont do phone sex or take my clothes off on web cam so stop fucking asking me to, cause all u are doing is working on getting yourself deleted from my page and u are a waste of my time! So to all u people that are fake and liars dont bother getting to know me or sending any friend requests cause I will not accept them, I find out that u lied to me and played ur childish little mind games I will delete u, cause u are a waste of my time!!

[weekday Update]
Do I reek of desperation? The good news is, I got 400$ I wasn't expecting today. The bad news is I'm pretty sure my dog broke her tail somehow. So mystery money won't be spent on a new PSP it'll be spent on her broke ass bone. What tipped me off? She went to chew on her tail- like she had a bug bite and immediately started screaming as she did it- she didn't STOP but she did scream about it. Ever since then she's not letting it be handled and whimpering and yelping at the slightest touch. There's no lieson's or cuts or bumps, makes me think there's a break- dunno how that happened. Stayed at my parents' old house god that was traumatizing, but I did get to see my goddaughter- got called uncle, that was different. I do miss that town, but christ know's I can't make a living, and I'd go insane with no late night life there. I mean, sure I don't hit the bars much here but having the option is nice. That place is TEENY. I've been dutifully adheering to my workout routine and pseudo diet

The Best Family And Friends I Could Ever Ask For
You talk about having great family and friends I got the greatest ones here on Fubar my staff is all family and friends to me and I love them so very much and would not trade none of them for anything in this world. You can be having the worst day and they can bring you up in no time and make you feel welcome to be around they are awesome I could not ask for better people in my life.They are very careing people also and always check on all those in the family and friends are sick and how they are doing they are very careing and that means alot to me when I am sick they always call or get a hold of me some how to make sure I am ok. My son made me the name Redneck Chipmunk mom cause my voice is not there and cant talk and I love the name so I changed it to that so thats why I have a new name and thank you son your awesome and so is all my family I dont call them staff cause that just means people that work for you family means more that is what they are to me also each one has there own

Broken
A feeling came over me tonight one i didn't want and wish would go It filled me with sorrow, pain and fright something I never thought would happen I trembled, shivered and shook with tears I opened my heart and took you in held you there and dreamed of the years and in one night you shut me out the words you spoke, true but fierce don't worry, you left no doubt My heart it shattered, but will mend though the feelings are there, I love you I wish you the best, my friend

It's You
Feelings change develope and grow people rearange distance, run with the flow some lives diverge stray from the heart But ours converged i don't want to be apart You are so special to me what i wanted, I have found You're everything I want you to be I hate when you aren't around I feel that we were meant for eachother Like two missing pieces fitted together My ins are your outs

Momma Said There'd Be Days...
Ever have one of those days that just feels right all day, but when you get home, you sorta feel a little empty? You kinda feel like you've made a lot of progress in really every fundamental aspect of your life, then you come home, sit down, and really wonder what it was all worth? I know as humans we tend to always strive for better, strive to improve our positions in life, but at times the work that is done seems so redundant. I need food, shelter, and clothing. I work for those, attain them, and I'm done with that. But now I need friends, people to talk to, understand me, etc. I strive for that, and once attained I realize a need in my life for companionship, someone to care for and be cared about. There always seems to be something that has to be chased, attained, or desired. Sometimes it would be nice to come home, sit down and content with what is around you, who is around you, and why they are there. Maybe my desire to be content is just another thing to be chased down, and onc

Opened Eyes
You came into my world unexpected, at best My put ups, you've unfurled my doubts you've laid to rest Kisses so sweet words so amazing Touches, so deep I can't explain how you phase me the thoughts you have me thinking the things u have me doing the dreams that I am dreaming I just don't see me losing you have brought me out taken me back to me Shown me what love's about you just might be Who I bet you are

Save Me
Will somebody save me pull me from my wreckage And just help me ignore all the damage Anenjoy holding me Will anyone save me care enough to stop my pain Truely trust me forsee our future gain And beleive in me Will you save me forgit indiscretions And laugh with me put behind depressions And respect me Will you love me?

The Climb
I can almost see it That dream I’m dreaming but There’s a voice inside my head sayin, You’ll never reach it, Every step I’m taking, Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking but I I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an up-hill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb The struggles I’m facingThe chances I’m taking Sometimes might knock me down but No I’m not breaking *I may not know it But these are the moments that I’m gonna remember most yeah Just gotta keep going And I, I gotta be strong Just keep pushing onCause...There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an up-hill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting o

Like It Is
Things change people rearange But it's always the same yet time doesn't rearange And people never change but we stay in this game we modify what we don't like bitch about what we don't accept And turn on friends in spite why not sit back and reflect? think about what you've done remember places you've gone sad stories you've sung people you have wronged. what kind of life do you live? do you take in As much as you give I think you live in SIN Call your names play your games But don't judge me

Something I Believe In..
WHEN THE MUSIC STOPPED For those who are unaware, at a military theater, the National Anthem is played before every movie. From a Chaplain in Iraq : I recently attended a showing of 'Superman 3' here at LSA Anaconda. We have a large auditorium we use for movies, as well as memorial services and other large gatherings. As is the custom back in the States, we stood and snapped to attention when the National Anthem began before the main feature. All was going as planned until about three-quarters of the way through The National Anthem the music stopped. Now, what would happen if this occurred with 1,000 18-22 year-olds back in the States? I imagine there would be hoots, catcalls, laughter, a few rude comments; and everyone would sit down and call for a movie. Of course, that is, if they had stood for the National Anthem in the first place. Here, the 1,000 Soldiers continued to stand at attention, eyes fixed forward. The m

Ladies & Gents Come Check Out This Summertime Breeze
**Summertime Breeze Auction ** Starting on Wed April 22nd at 2 pm (central) & thru May 2nd at 2 pm Come join this auction of fun for only 25k fubucks entry fee. Enter soon to insure a good spot . Random bling during contest . Open to all Ladies & Gents ** Verified Salute needed ** So all know we're real ** LoL Let's have some fun fun fun in this auction &a meet new friends. Only rule is No Drama . Contact Sinfully Delicious Blondie below for added details. Also think of your offerings & send them thru my pm's. Ask me for ideas if you wish also so that it's all posted with your pic you want entered.~Sinfully DelicIous~Blondie~

Life
hello all thank u for taken time to get to know me im 23 and singel i live in yuba city california and im a former prisoner i jest got out of prison last month iv been in love once but she broke my heart i want to find love agen but its been hard to find a girl who will be with a xconvict oh i went to prison 4 woopen some dudes ass and he didnt like it lol well thats me hit me up if u want to no more.

Bleeding Hearts
Words are spoken tears begin to fall Dreams are broken and the heart rests on the edge of it all The bond is gone future looking bleak Dreading the impending dawn devoid without the love we seek We made the choices that we did thought the worst in our head Lived the lives we've lived stubling on words we said Imagined better days getting lost in the past Said the same thing a million ways and always ended up last Never matters what's d

In A Rambling Mood
I found this quote earlier: "We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation." How many of us can look at that, read that and truly understand what it means? It really hit home for me. While circumstances in some relationships make it seem impossible that it'll end in a good way, how many of us simply give up, lose faith and move on? How many of us realize what a treasure we hold and WORK at making it possible? I'm a firm believer that your happiness is what you make of it. Most believe that luck plays a huge part in it. I dont. I'm the one responsible for the happiness in my life. I'm the one that has to work hard to make it stay that way. I dont rely on anyone else. I've realized just lately, that you can appreciate what you have and work on making it better, OR you can sit there and try to place the blame of your misfortune on others and let it go because of lack of faith. I've always believed that each person has their ONE true love. I'm not saying you c

Falling.. Flying
Am I falling or am I flying Am I living or am I dieing How am I to know when I turn and you're not there Which way do I go what road is more fair My life opens before me while another closes behind I open my eyes but can't see what I expect to find I look up, but see down still I know I will achieve I reach for you but you're not around and the world's still there before me I am falling and yet i'm flying

Have Either A Cb Or Auto Avail To Sell/trade
Okay, I have enough Bling credits to buy you either a Cherry Bomb or an Auto 11 for the right deal. Please don't SB me your offer, send me a PM I don't think I have my PM's set to friends only, SB if you can't PM me. The best deal will win there choice: Here is a couple of the offers I have already received 1. 5 Million Fubucks 2. 4 Million Fubucks and a pimp-out a week for an entire year 3. 5 Million Fubucks and a 6 bling pack (not 6 blings but a pack that I can use) So, let's make a deal. Since I'm spending real dollars I don't want to be unfair but trading fubucks (in place of real bucks) let's see what kind of deal you can come up with. Thanks for reading and good luck! I'll let the winner know tomorrow and see which one you'd like to have! UPDATE: So far DB has made me the best deal as always won't close this Blog until tonight at which time I will update who is the winner! **UPDATE, THANKS TO ALL WHO PM'D ME AND MADE AN OFFER, DB MY NEW FU-OWNER MADE A DEAL I

Prfile U.s Gov.
From: bikecop24To: Date: Apr 15, 2009 5:25 PMSubject: profiling by US govt.please read NOW AINT THIS SOME SHIT!!!!!!Profiling by the U.S.GovernmentBody: I don't have many friends left on my friends list on myspace because of my stance on government and religion. So I cannot get my message out like I would like to. So if any of you want to re-post this you have my permission.Homeland Security Warning.pdf (2026KB)The above came out yesterday. Why is it ok for the government to profile and label others when it is condemned for our police officers to profile or it has been stated they have. Well if they want to label me as a right wing extremist or a threat because of the list below, well Obama, DHS, and the socialist regime in Washington save the tax payers dollars and label me. If it has come to this kind of dictatorship in our Country that I am considered a extremist because I believe in the following put my name on your list.1. I stand for pro life not murder of babies.2. I believe a

Killswitch Engage - The End Of Heartache
Seek me, call me I'll be waiting This distance, this dissolution I cling to memories while falling Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day Waking the misery of being without you Surrender, I give in Another moment is another eternity (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart You know me, you know me all too well My only desire - to bridge our division In sorrow I speak your name And my voice mirrors my torment (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart Am I breathing? My strength fails me Your picture, a bitter memory For comfort, for solace (Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace (I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart (Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting

Iced Earth - Dracula
Do you believe in love? Do you believe in destiny? True love may come only once in a thousand lifetimes... I too have loved...they took her from me. I prayed for her soul....I prayed for her peace When I close my eyes I see her face, it comforts me When I close my eyes Memories cut like a knife The blood is the life, and Christ I defy. My sworn enemy...birth of a new creed. Is this my reward for serving God's own war? The blood I've spilled for faith fulfilled. To damn her, a disgrace, you spit back in my face. I served you loyally, and you spew blasphemy. I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life There are far worse things awaiting man than death Come taste what I have seen I'm spreading my disease I will feed upon His precious child The human race will bleed, they will serve my need. [Pre-chorus] I avenge with darkness, the blood is the life The Order of the Dragon, I feed on human life [Chorus] I am t

Hell Yeah - Rotten To The Core
Time to light the fires and spill the waste, (It'll be okay), drain the oceans, Who needs them, Anyway, (Not Me) Pick the region then pick the fight, (Pin the tail on you) Shit on your neighbors, And blow it up tonight (Now lets go) No time to fix it, just move along, more damage to do, destruction for you I've heard some people say, were rotten to the core, rancid, bitter, No voice, nothing to say, no options anymore, rotten to the core! Time to burn the bridges, waste resources away (hooray) where's out superman to save the f**king day (Lets go) No time to fix it, just move along, more damage to do, destruction for you I've heard some people say, were rotten to the core, rancid, bitter, No voice, nothing to say, no options anymore, rotten to the core! Worldwide cattle call, one more drop of the ball, no more, no way wake the f**k up! I've heard some people say, were rotten to the core, rancid, bitter, No voice, nothing to say, no options anymore, rotten to the core!

Hatebreed - Live For This
Let's go! Live for this, Live, Live Live for this Live for this, Live, Live If you don't live for something, You'll die for nothing. Through the best and the worst The struggle and sacrifice. For the true who've remained and the new blood. Motivation, undying allegiance Striving through the hardships and affliction. Every drop of blood Every bitter tear Every bead of sweat I live for this Live for this, Live, Live Live for this Live for this, Live, Live If you don't live for something you'll die for nothing. What we have are not possessions we own It's not weighed by greed or personal gain This is real a desire for freedom. A place apart from a world in abandon. Every drop of blood Every bitter tear Every bead of sweat I live for this Live for this, Live, Live If you don't live for something you'll die for nothing. I live for this. Every drop of blood Every bitter tear Every bead of sweat I live for this

Drowning Pool - Tear Away
Im tearing awayPieces are falling I cant seem to make them stayYou run awayFaster and faster you cant seem to get awayBreakHope theres a reasonFor questions unanswered I just dont see everythingYes Im inside youTell me how does it feel to feel like thisJust like I doI dont care about anyone else but meI dont care about anyoneDo I really want thisSometimes I scare myself I just cant let it goCan you believe itEverything happens for reasons I just dont knowI dont care about anyone else but meI dont care about anyoneI dont care about anyone else but meI dont care about anyone or anything but meDamn I love me

Hatebreed - This Is Now
This Is Now - HatebreedAnother memory and I'm asking myself How can I let the past be the past. Once and for all take a hold of the future And not let it control what I aspire to have. I see where my decisions have brought me What's done is done and it's time to start again Can't let it tear me in two waste me away I gotta believe Cause this is now How can I change tomorrow if I can't change today. This is now If I control myself I control my destiny. What I've seen and what I've been through has made me who I am There was a time in my life where I had no desire to carry on I couldn't see a place for me or a will to survive I never thought to rely on myself or the beliefs that I have denied But this is now How can I can change tomorrow if I can't change today This is now If I control myself I control my destiny If I control myself I control my tomorrow I got to change today Cause this is now How can I change tomorrow if I can't change today. I must control myself if I 'm to control my

I Have No Idea What To Call It?
I was chating with a friend and all she could do was talk about her sex life. What the hell is that. I have forgotten what that is. Can someone tell me? It has been so long I think I forgot. I wonder if it is true that you become a virgin again if you don't have sex for 7 years. Just Wondering!

Slipknot - Vermillion
She seems dressed in all the rings... of past fatalities So fragile, yet so devious - she continues to see climatic hands that press her temples and my chest Enter the night that she came home - forever Oh... She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic My dahlia, bathed in possesion - she is home to me I get nervous, perverse, when I see her, it's worse But the stress is astounding It's now or never, she's coming home - forever Oh... She's the only one that makes me sad Hard to say what caught my attention Fixed and crazy - aphid attraction Carve my name in my face - to recognize Such a pheromone cult to terrorize I won't let this build up inside of me... I'm a slave and I am a master No restraints and unchecked collectors I exist to my need - to self-oblige She is something in me - that I despise I won't let this build up inside of me... She isn't real - I can't make her real

Slipknot - Vermillion Pt 2
She seemed dressed in all of me Stretched across my shame All the torment and the pain Leaked through and covered me I'd do anything to have her to myself Just to have her for myself Now I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sad She is everything to me The unrequited dream A song that no one sings The unattainable She's a myth that I have to believe in All I need to make it real is one more reason I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sad But I won't let this build up inside of me I catch in my throat Choke Torn into pieces I won't - no I don't wanna be this But I won't let this build up inside of me She isn't real I can't make her real

Celldweller - Frozen
Inside this fantasy It seems so real to me Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open True Love behind a wall Where men and angels fall A fading memory, when my mind is frozen I can see a frozen point in time Where her figure still awaits Tongue of fire tracing lips outline Where frozen breath originates With one motion of her waiting eyes She strips everything away This one moment is intensified And colors all fade to grey I am in the only place that i want to be Though we know that it ends eventually But it's alright because right now we're frozen "I want to forget mistakes they've helped me make It's better to be broken than to break" Inside this fantasy It seems so real to me Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open True Love behind a wall Where men and angels fall A fading memory, when my mind is frozen I can see a frozen point in time That is easy to retrace Light and darkness are both intertwined The elements are in their place with One motion of her wanting mind The real

Frustrated
I am very frustrated and on edge today. Today marks a week since I was told that I had two weeks to leave. I haven't gotten anything else accomplished and really feel I have done all I can at the present for this situation. Right now I am waiting on a call to pick up some old medical records so I can turn them in since my nerve conduction test isn't scheduled till mid May. I hate trying to buy people roses and shit on here to find out I can't, duh me..... I hate feeling so damn useless.

Demon Hunter - Carry Me Down
And if you see me losing ground Don’t be afraid to lie I know the pain inside my heart can’t break the fear inside of yours And if you see me losing faith In what it means to die Don’t let me leave before I know what lies behind the stained glass doors Save sorrow for the souls in doubt Bleed every care out [Chorus:] Will you carry me down the aisle that final day With your tears and cold hands shaking from the weight When you lower me down beneath that sky of gray Let the rain fall down and wash away your pain For every word we never spoke We have a tear to cry For every silence like a wall between a better you and I So if you see me losing sight Of all the death in life You’ll find the peace in every time I failed to see the death in mine Let all the fear inside you drown Tear out the blade and lay it down Save sorrow for the souls in doubt Bleed every care out [Chorus] Oh, the blood is rushing out Oh, I’m better off without Oh, the walls are closi

I Am Gathering The Family (juggalo & Letts)
listen up everyone who needs to care i am lookin for all juggalo family members. that includes juggalos and juggaletts. pass it on to ur friends everybody. facepaint or none family is family i want to bring everyone together. i am waiting,,,,,

Who Do You Want To Impress?
You Want to Impress Strangers You want strangers to think you're attractive. You want to be seen as gorgeous and sexy. You want your friends and family members to think you're smart. You like been seen as insightful and wise. You are at your most playful when you are around people you don't know well. You're more serious around those you're close to. You let strangers see parts of you right away, but you believe in keeping some things private. You don't become close to many people. You only let people you've gotten to know very well in. Who Do You Want to Impress?

What Is Your Life's Mission?
You Are the Communicator You are a collector and facilitator of knowledge. You love storytelling and teaching. You light up when you're around other people, and you especially light up in front of a crowd. You are a charismatic person who's genuinely a joy to be with. You remind others to have fun. You love life, and you're wake up grateful for every new day. This attitude makes the people around you love life as well. What's Your Life's Mission?

What My Name Means
You entered: Frank Martin Oliver There are 17 letters in your name. Those 17 letters total to 89 There are 6 vowels and 11 consonants in your name. What your first name means:Teutonic Male Free. Latin Male Diminutive of Francis: meaning from France, or free one. French Male A diminutive of the Latin Francis, meaning Frenchman or free one. Famous bearer: American singer Frank Sinatra. English Male Diminutive of Franklin: Free land-owner. Your number is: 8 The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals. The expression or destiny for #8: Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with

What I Want
I was sitting here thinking about what I want. It's not something unusual of me to do. Just seems like I'm doing it a lot more lately. I'm not sure why, and honestly...the feeling sucks. I feel alone a lot of the time. It's quite possibly the worst feeling in the world. It's like no matter what I do, the feeling of "mattering" isn't there. The more I dwell on it, the more I realize that I try my hardest to make other people happy. I'd like to think that that is what makes ME happy. But I'm not so sure about that. To me it sounds a little too "easy". I think deep down I just want someone to be "with" me. Someone that really does understand me. Understands that I'm fuckin moody as hell. Someone that understands that I'll probably have a bad day at work and without thinking, say something pretty hurtful to them. But give me a few minutes and I'll probably come to them crying telling them how sorry I am. Someone who understands my sense of humor and thinks it's funny too. Someone who wi

I'm The Guy
This fits me to a T, especially the very last line!!! I'm the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams. I'm the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears. I'm the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt. I'm the guy who won't pressure you to do things you don't want to. I'm the guy who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well. I'm the guy who kisses you on the forehead. I'm the guy who'll randomly tickle you just to hear you giggle. I'm the guy who doesn't kiss and tell. I'm the guy who actually listens to you when you talk. I'm the guy who's excited all day because I'm looking forward to our date that night. I'm the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more. I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room. I'm the guy who'll say I love you first because

Sandy Has Auto-11s!
Sassy 5 Souls ~ Rate Spanker ~ has AUTO 11s!!! Sandy is a really good friend and is never shy about returning the rates. Sassy 5 Souls ~ Rate Spanker ~@ fubar Brought to you by..... cAUSE iM tHE fCKiNG pRiNCESS..dUHH@ fubar and RedZ28@ fubar

Divorce Update
today i requested that my "wife" meet me at the courthouse to get signitures notarized and to officially file the divorce papers. She tried to set me up. Her flavor of the day was 2 blocks away waiting for her to call and tell him there was trouble. In a fit of rage i ripped the papers up and told her off. I then went back into the courthouse, and redid the papers. Although this time i filed them under the reason of mental cruelty. Oh yea and there is a surprise waiting for her when the sheriff serves the paperwork on her. So the way things are looking now, cinco de mayo will be my new independance day. Wish me luck you sexy fu's!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Thoughts
I have very few close friends to me right now, because i have either pushed them away or have just plain out stop talking to them. it has taken me plenty of time to figure out what I want in life and what makes me happy. I know what i want in life, but I don'tknow whats going to make me happy all the time. At one point in my life I was very Happy. I had a man named Eric, he was the love of my life He made me so happy, but then he left me to go to Iraq. We would have been together for three years this past November and would have been married in May 2009. Yes i did say would have. Unfortunatley we lost contact a few short months and gained contact back. Just in time to hear him say that he loved me with all his heart and that he always will and then the phone went dead.My heart stopped. I didnt think anything was going to be that painful. The love of my life was no lponger in my life. he was gone.I still think about him often and I still miss him terrible. Sometimes i wonder what my lif

:) Poem Poem Poem.
the sun setting, a gentle wind blows.Your eyes into mine, your emptiness shows.They all say you're shy, but give it time.But i'm unsure, if i can make you mine.You speak perfection, I speak only flaws.Never ending cycle, at my confidence this gnaws.And you could complete me, paint me like art.Sharing all our gifts, sharing one heart.Yet my nerves control me, from you they hold me back.Making me see, it is your love i lack.It is you i cannot touch, cannot hold.But time will tell, our story to be told. Love may bind us, or tear me apart.We'll not know this, until we start.So open thine eyes, and give in to me.Together forever, we can surely be. MYYYY WORK!

Show Me The Way
APC 'Thomas' Humble and helplessand learning to pray Praying for visions to show me the way Show me the way to forgive you Allow me to let it go Allow me to be forgiven Show me the way to let go Show me the way to forgive you Allow me to let it go Allow me to be forgiven And show me the way to let go Illuminate me Illuminate me Illuminate me I'm just praying for you to show me where to begin Hoping to, hoping to reconnect to you.

From A Friend
Hello You Know It is sad when people you know become people you knew...It is one of life's hardest when you meet someone that you really like & care for and have a real good feeling about them and it turns to unexpected circumstances and misunderstandings becomes someone you knew. Or when you used to be able to talk to them for hours about the little nothings in life...And now you can barely talk to them ...And all you have left is that aching feeling left in your soul...sometimes life is bitter sweet and we choose bitter cause we don't realize how sweet it was until it's too late... just like time will pass so do memories tomorrow will come and they look back to yesterday & say what have I done memories are a wonderful thing untill you forget where they were made cause you can't get them back once they are gone Its sad for how many people can relate to this. Guess we are all in the same boat,missing someone...Be honest...If you really miss someone, & can't get

Why S*x Is Like Riding A Bike
1. You have to keep pumping if you want to get anywhere. 2. It's best to wear protective head-gear when going into unfamiliar territory. 3. You can do it with no hands, but it's best not to try it until you have a lot of experience. 4. It's easier to learn with the help of someone who has a lot of experience. 5. You can do it by yourself, but it's usually not as much fun. 6. It's usually hard to control your speed the first few times you try. 7. It's best to have a soft place to land. 8. You don't need any special clothing, but you can get some if you are really into it. 9. If you're with someone who is having trouble keeping up, it's usually best to slow down and wait for them. 10. Most people think it looks easy until they try it for the first time. 11. Once you learn, you never forget how. 12. If you fall off get right back on. 13. If you get a flat, try pumping it back up. 14. Remember to signal before you change direction. 15. Make sure that you've got a firm grip. 16. Sometimes i

Fk You
Alright let me start from the begining well for one i started talking to this great guy well he seemed that way at the time.. were listening to each others problems just talking on yim and all that for a while then after a week or so we started to talk on the phone, but i didn't actualy think anything was going to come out of it cause at the time i was dealing with other shit and he was just there to talk to but the more i talked to him the more i liked him which seemed that he did like me as well so we agreed to be seeing each other yeah yeah long distance stuff never works 2 months go by im growing more fond of him which he now says i was clingy to him but almost 3 months i fell for this guy which was weird cause i hadnt felt like that about anyone in so long..an now..i was scared to tell him an when i did he told me the same NEEDLESS TO SAY i found out he lied about that claimed he was going to come an visit me on my birthday in february..which he said he got in a car a

Darkness
As I venture off Into the darkness alone The cold night wind Chills to the bone The emptiness I feel Turns my heart blue Although I have tried I know not what to do So I travel this road Fears isolated from view Keeping them hidden Especially from you Strength is what you need Weakness I can not show I lift you up high Though I feel so low Limbs go numb I feel no pain My tears are shrouded By the falling rain No one can tell The loneliness I feel Day after day alone Behind this wheel Like on a deserted island I cast a single stone I understand why I am destined to be alone For who could love Someone like me Like a solitary captain Asphalt, my sea Every morning I wake To spend another day Lost in this world Not knowing my way Searching for that Which will bring me joy When I find my heart To people, a toy My life twisted A rope begins to fray My existence A murky shade of gray I may not be perfect Not in any way Someti

Looks
Why Do We do judge people by their looks? It just makes me sick we all have done it we just go by the looks before we actually see the inside which is the most beautiful part of us. But society is very judgemental which can cause death anoxeria and obesity etc..what can we do to stop ourselves from doing this again? because in the world we are in is under enough pressure as it is we dont need someone judging us by our looks it's our soul that matters.

So Bored And Now So Blonde...
Well Im jjst sittin here, being my usual bored self. Thought I would atleast write a blog while Im soo bored. Well I thought it was time to make a serious change. So, I got my hair dyed blonde. Its been like 10 or 11 yrs since I was a blonde (natural color) and now that Im newly single and a hott momma, I figured hell might as well give it a shot. It can always be dyed again if it gets old...lol As soon as I get some pics, I will make sure 2 upload them. You all just make sure you tell me what you think. Well thats all, my weed man is here. YAY! lmao...Oh shit, Ima blonde who smokes...Does that give me an excuse to be seriously dumb now? lmao...Probably not....*snaps fingers* damn

Me... In A Nutshell
So i love people to death. I am a people person. I would help anyone in the world that ask me for help. Now anymore i get people that come to me on everything. They will ask for advice on things that deep down inside i dont really want to give them the advice. But the reason i do, is because i know it is the right thing to do. I guess i am too nice of a person. Maybe thats why i get hurt and everything. I know that in time, all the help will be appreciated. And my listening ear and advice may be what helps someone tremedously. i am glad that people can come to me and not worry. But there are times i just dont really want to talk about the subject they want. Oh well thanks for reading about me! You are awesome for giving me your time.

The First Pup
This week the First Family took delivery of their new puppy, Bo. He is a Portuguese Water Dog that may or may not be hypoallergenic. He is a gift from US Sen. Ted Kennedy (D-Mass.). In getting Bo, US Pres. Barack Obama (D-IL) fulfilled a promise to his kids in getting a dog if he won the 2008 presidential election. (Well at least he kept on of his campain promises.) The whole "finding Bo" storyline points out some interesting (maybe even ironic) things about BHO: 1. The choosing of a First Pet was a closely guarded secret that BHO didn't want to discuss with the press. But BHO was slipping state secrets on our moves in Iraq like crazy as soon as he could. 2. BHO gets a dog bred for swimming from the only US senator who killed a woman via drowning. 3. No dog or cat is hypoallergenic, so BHO could have still have gotten a dog from a shelter. 4. Liberal hypocracy was on full display. BHO says we need to help out shelter dogs and public schools. But when he has the chance to do both,

I Want It All To Stop.
Ever since my Whitney passed away, my life has been such a wreck. Now... I have a corneal ulcer and iritis. I can't wear my contacts for over a month so I'm stuck in my 5 year old prescription glasses for a month or more. Thank the gods for my wonderful husband. I don't know what I'd do without him!! Through everything, he's been so supportive. He's been kicking ass for me and will do anything for my happiness. We've had our problems, but he truly is my knight in shining armor and nobody can take that or him away from me - ever - I love you babydoll... with all my heart

Rough Couple Of Days
Well, let's let people know why I am not happy in life right now. Ok. I leave on Wednesday for Oklahoma, and my leave form for the 4th time has been kicked back. My Granny is not doing so hot, so I am going to go and see her. I leave from Oklahoma (mom's house, gotta deliver her Mother's Day present) and head for Maryland to spend a couple of days with the boys. Leave from Maryland on prolly the 28th for Georgia, where I get to spend the next 2 months in class/training. But to add to the frustration, I was getting ready to give a class yesterday, and picked up my cellphone to call my supervisor and ask where the hell everyone was. "This call is not allowed from this line." I was pissed. I still had a day to pay the bill. I finished the class (4 people were in the class, and it is mandatory everyone receives it.) So I headed to my shop and jumped online. Logged into AT&T and clicked on pay bill, paid my $111, and though woohoo! Well the confirmation screen comes up, no p

Auction
Hey! So, I'm in another auction. I need bids, bids, bids! So, come check me out, rate my pic, and bid on me! I promise to spoil you! Mwah! Jessi http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2316619&albumid=1610916&i=592562123&idx=4

Death In Family
I had a relative who was in a accident this morning her children were with her. Her 11 yr old daughter died at the scene & the mother is in very critical condition they don't expect her to make it. Her son only had minor injuries. This accident was caused by her speeding because her kids were late for school she lost control going aroung a curve. SO the next time you think that speeding is accepted tell that to someone who loses a child. Please keep the mother in your prayers!

Damaged Beyond Repair
TODAY WAS A NOT SO FABULOUS DAY. SINCE I WAS VERY YOUNG I DIDN'T LEARN ANYTHING POSTIVE FROM THE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I AM TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY. LIKE THE ODD BALL. THE UGLY DUCKLING. I WAS TALKED ABOUT, PUT DOWN, LIED TOO, LIED ON, ALIENATED FROM EVERYONE, BEATEN AND RAPED BY PEOPLE THAT SAID THAT THEY LOVE ME. I GROW UP ALONE. I CHOKING ON MARY JANE AND DRINKING BY THE AGE OF 9. MY TEENAGE YEARS WERE A LOT WORSE. MEN MADE ME BELIEVE THEY WANTED ME AND ONLY ME. THEY BEAT ME, FORCE ME TO DO THINGS I DIDN'T KNOW PEOPLE AT THAT TIME REAL DONE. ONE MAN IN MIND HAD ME SO WRAPPED UP IN HIM I JUST KNEW WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED. I WAS ONLY 15 AND I JUST KNEW. I WAS SO WRONG. HE DIDN'T LOVE ME, RESPECT ME OR EVEN CARED IF I LIVED OR DIED. HE USED MY BODY LIKE SOME COMMON WHORE. THIS MAN I THOUGHT I LOVED HAD SEX WITH ME IN THE BACK OF A MOVING TRUCK OWNED AND DRIVEN BY HIS COUSIN. THEN AGAIN UNDERNEATH A HOUSE ON A DIRTY COUCH. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I PLEADED WITH HIM ON H

Given The Boot!
Last friday my wife came home at 8am from going out thursday night. she didnt' tell me she was going to be that late plus the only text i got from her was that she was ok and they were playing pool. yea well her daughter was sick and started throwing up, but did she call and ask about her daughter? nope. all she said was "ill be home as soon as i can" yea well that was in the morning. So, being fed up and pissed with her and her crap playing me and other guys at the same time i said fuck you and packed her stuff up, put it next to her car (she got picked up by the same guy that helped her move the furniture out of the house monday) and texted her she was done and that she could live with her parents. yea...i did go there.. I was tired of her lying, cheating on me, being an adultress, and taking me for everything i had. so that morning i said enough is enough! of course now i kind of miss the companionship and have cried on occasion because of the fact of being together for 7 years and

Pissed Off!
I'm so fucking irritated. I had to write an essay for admittance into my grad program. It was rejected. My content, organization, and language were unsatisfactory. But there are only four little notes on my actual essay. The first one says "wording" over a phrase that I used, "well rounded academic program". On one of my paragraphs it says "organization" in the margin. The third is crossing out And and capitalizing the next word. And the final is "what is this?" written over that same phrase I used. What the fuck? With those minor things how can the essay be that unsatisfactory? That's total horse shit. I don't have the time to go back over to that damn office and type another essay. I know the essay is good, what the hell is wrong with these people? If anyone wants the essay to read it and maybe correct some things let me know. I'll gladly email it to you. It's not very long.

Regrets To Forgive
Do you know how it feels to be dying inside?to feel so lost,unknown?insanity is setting in.my head is spinning.lights are flashing!somebody stop this feeling!when will my body rest?my heart races,i can feel it in my head.put me in straught jacket.anything to hold me from blowing!i dont want to be lost anymore.why wont you notice me?am i dead or am i just invisible?this tears me up inside.Am i dying?please,kill my fears, because they just won't leave me alone

Taking A Break
Due to my life going crazy, i am going to be taking a little break from Fubar for a while, not too long of a break but one just long enough to get some things taken care of, so if you would like to keep in contact with me while Im gone send me a msg thank you

Well, There's A Well Sought Out Plan.
Let's take a dumbshit, make a fubar profile without a picture, follow a link from another webpage, and be added without knowing it to the links friends list, therefore getting the one person in the world that's not too excited about you, pissed off, cause their friend is "pissed off" at them for not knowing who I am. Great. Oops, I did it again. Man i just wanted to check this site out, didn't know it would stir up a cauldron of issues and irritated people, jeezus. I think I apologized too much though, but it was an honest mistake really. Meh, oh well.

Thanks To All My Fu Friends And Family..
I really would like you all for being such a great support and raters... Its been fun talking to all of u...But tonight is my last night of being online...I am leaving for my basic training in the air force and will be in Texas the whole summer...Hopefully i will talk to you guys sometime in july... Thanks again for all the ratings and comments... Love, Katie aka YouKnowIt...

Broken To Whole
Broken promises - ties that bind - Lies that were told. All rip apart my soul. My heart to never heal - My life so empty - Lies, killed it all. Wounds open - Picking - Bleeding - So sore - Your lies did it all. Innocent - I am not - I have my faults, I admit it. But lies ruin it all. Scream - is all I want to do - Your love - All Lies - Your promises - All Lies. My love - The realest it has ever been. Ripped from my soul. I lay bleeding - Pools of blood surrounding my life. I cut - To take away the pain. The blood flows so smooth and graceful. Soothes the emptiness inside - Fills a void if only briefly. Slowly the wounds heal - Pain becomes less - Life moves forward. Love will rise again - I will become whole.

Can You See Me Now?
Fractured thoughts are too slow, Your touch is so cold, Illusions of my fears show, You're not mine to hold, I reach out but grab air, You smile with a waving hand, It's all I can do to stare, A moment I'll never understand, Time passes to give one more chance, I recognize the look in your eyes, You don't remember our romance, As if I'm wearing a disguise, My senses are torn apart, My image is blurred somehow, I scream with all of my heart, Can you see me now?

Lost Dreams Don't Shatter; They Bleed Hope.
Tripping on broken promises and unchanging liesFaithful love destined to shift mountains...buckledOptimism building in yearning heart diminishedHis soul abandoned the chance of a happily ever afterShe fell deeply in the unknown with no fear, worryDownside? Young girl required to carry a safety netDrying tears visible on a face where smiles once shinedTaking her compassion selfishly with nothing in returnDamaged heart, an apparent understatement ...fadingLost in an abyss of distorted shrills and unfamiliarityFalling, falling...disappeared; young spirit gone astraySearching for love to penetrate light into dim eyes"Lost dreams don't shatter dear, they bleed hope"Oh boy does it bleed, trickling with enigmatic tearsEndless wishes whispered to the stars seep throughHe might have altered her, slightly clouding judgmentBut his rejection instilled in her passion to thrive; flyShattered dreams might remain but she's kept the piecesOozing...dripping...seeping...leaking...bleeding...hope.Another

The Rose
The roses' thorns cut through my skin,A drop of blood falls down;My heart is broken, my soul is burnt...I'm falling to the ground.The rose you gave me long ago,I hold onto it still;A love that was lost long ago;A love for which I'd kill...I know I'll never let it go,This rose composed of blood...The more and more I miss youMeans the deeper the thorns go.You kissed me on the cheek,and then you handed me this rose...And even on my deathbed,I will never let it go...

To Everyone On Fubar!!!
For Everyone On Fubar!!!This is for everyone asking me to CAM/Cyber. I'm getting Sick and Tired Of Guys Asking to See my Cam or Voice Chat . I Do Not Own A Cam and I do Not Do Voice Chat Unless Your a Friend or My MAN...So Everyone Else Quite Asking..Because the Answer is Always NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!If your a Friend or want to be a Friend thats fine..but Do Not Come to me wanting to Cyber or See Me On Cam!! If your a true FRIEND you'll READ my Profile and understand!!To All The Haters...Keep Stepping on and back Off!!!!!!!!!! Look To Get Your Rocks Off Some Were Else!!!!!!!!!!!!Thank You,Panther

The Shooting Star That's Never Seen
Trying hard to not just be the shooting star no one can see; I'm trying hard to be someone and not just drown alone. I want to make a footprint in the sand upon the earth; Although I try it's always wiped away with the high-rising surf. I'm trying hard to turn into a star that makes wishes come true; I'm trying hard to glisten; shimmer --All I ever do is flicker... For one million years I have waited to shine but I can't foresee light in my life anytime; I'm just wasting in space, wasting space in spaceless-ness as everyone flies with shooting stars of brilliance. Do I lack the fire? Do I lack a flame? Without wick am I just set to rot my life away? Hopelessly existing in this gravity-less hell while every hour upon hour my cold heart becomes a shell; Dreams of shooting far across the pristine-lit night sky become a distant memory of times where hope was still alive. Perfect timing and position high upon the clear night sky, hoping at least one person

Let Me Slip {just Close Your Eyes}
It feels like you're so far away even though you're right here. I feel like such a fool for love when all it brings is pain and fear. It feels like I don't have you even though I guess I do... ... it feels as if it's out of sync -- the feelings that I have for you. I feel as if I'm losing though you're telling me I've won... as if I'm closer now to failing than I was when I begun. I'm so afraid to lose you though my heart is giving in because although I really want you I feel like I'll never win. Nobody thought to warn me that I'd ever feel this way -- as if I'm running in a circle while someone sprints far away. I just wanted to fall in love and now I'm wishing I did not because it's easy letting go when you were never holding on. I'm holding onto you, though I try hard to loose my grip because it hurts less letting go than knowing that you let me slip, and even though it's hard to say just what the ending's gonna be I must admit, it feels as if you'

For Everyone!!!!
For Everyone On Fubar!!! This is for everyone asking me to CAM/Cyber. I'm getting Sick and Tired Of Guys Asking to See my Cam or Voice Chat . I Do Not Own A Cam and I do Not Do Voice Chat Unless Your a Friend or My MAN...So Everyone Else Quite Asking..Because the Answer is Always NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! If your a Friend or want to be a Friend thats fine..but Do Not Come to me wanting to Cyber or See Me On Cam!! If your a true FRIEND you'll READ my Profile and understand!! To All The Haters...Keep Stepping on and back Off!!!!!!!!!! Look To Get Your Rocks Off Some Were Else!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank You,Panther

Jokes Of The Day
1. Who was the greatest prostitute in History, Ms. Pacman! For 25 cents that bitch swallowed balls til she died. 2. A pimp had three hoes. Hoe # 1 was sucking dick, Hoe # 2 was strippin and hoen, Hoe # 3 was reading this message not making me any money. Get back to work Bitch.

I Did It!
I did something significant today. For 2 years I collected and dried every single flower given to me by the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Today, I tossed every single one into a trash fire.What's really cool is that it didn't even phase me! He had certainly talked a good game, marriage, a home together on a river, even kids! 3 of them. And I loved him far more than I had ever loved anyone in my life. There was the little matter of his never allowing me to meet anyone who knew him, and only allowing me into his house twice in those 2 years; and his disappearing on me every few months, without so much as an “F you”, then coming back a few months later with some lame excuse. My fault for letting him get away with that crap, I know. Mea culpa. A year and a half ago; the second time I was permitted the rare privilege of being allowed into his oh so sacred house, I pulled a ladies watch from between his sheets. I hadn’t worn a watch in y

Save Me
Save me please From these haunting dreams Rescue my soul That he left dammed for eternity Each dream Played from a memory The last Worse than before Feeling his presence Afraid to sleep Knowing whole heartedly That he once tried to kill me Seven years suffered More than two years apart Yet the damage is done His memory haunting my heart Save me please From his hauntings Protect me Do not let me suffer Yet another beating

Hiding Bruises
Mommy How did you get that bruise Where did it come from Why won't you tell me You always say don't worry Mommy I am old enough to know now Please, do not hide anything from me Did daddy hit you last night Is that why you were crying Mommy Don't worry anymore We will protect you From now on Mommy I promise You will not have to hide another bruise Written by an amazing girl Kionna Lynne!

Universal Laws - Mainly For Me ...
Universal Laws There are 12 Universal Laws, and 21 sub-laws, that describe ways in which cause and effect are related. The Universal Laws can also be viewed as guidelines for behaviors that will enhance our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual growth. The Universal Laws are all inter-related and are founded on the understanding that everything in the universe is energy, including us, and that energy moves in a circular fashion. At the microscopic level, we are a whirling mass of electrons and energy atoms spinning rapidly. In fact, everything in the world is comprised of energy and we are intimately connected with this sea of energy, this sea of whirling electrons. Our thoughts, feelings, words, and actions are all forms of energy. What we think, feel, say, and do in each moment comes back to us to create our realities. Energy moves in a circle, so what goes around comes around. The combined thoughts, feelings, words and actions of everyone on the planet creates

Fuhubby...
I need a FuHubby. Seems all the Fumen I want are taken. I need me a good fuHubby to take good care of me. A nice sexy chocolate one that will makes sure I'm alway well taken care of! Preferably close to my own age. But, hell if ya sexy enough I'd most likely make and exception. Show me the love I'm waiting.... oh and BTW Don't forget to stop by my one and only Fuhangout.... The Gentlemen's Club Lounge! It's a must for any real applicants lol. MUAH!

"holding Hands"
Here is the story about the baby holding the surgeons finger from within the womb during fetal operation. Story and photo gratefully supplied by: The Irish Independent online: 30 October 1999 Take a good look at this picture. It's one of the most remarkable photographs ever taken. The tiny hand of a foetus reaches out from a mother's womb to clasp a surgeon's healing finger. It is, by the way, 21 weeks old, an age at which it could still be legally aborted. The tiny hand in the picture above belongs to a baby which is due to be born on December 28. It was taken during an operation in America recently. Paul Harris reports on a medical development in the control of the effects of spina bifida ... and on a picture which will reverberate through the on-going abortion debate here Your first instinct is to recoil in horror. It looks like a close-up of some terrible accident. And then you notice, in the centre of the photograph, the tiny hand clutching a surgeon's finge

Why Are The Bad Ones More Fun?
Why are the bad ones more fun?They want to take you strange places and makeyou squirm and scream.They encourage you todo things you might notnormall do other wise.They make your bloodboil in your veinsat the thought of whats to come.They take you beyondthe ecstacy thatany drug can give you.They cant ever think of anything than what is naturally on thier minds.They talk in that sexy voice thatmakes your toes curl.They touch that spot no oneelse can seem to findEven though thierthe bad ones they makeyou fell like your the only one.Even though thierthe bad ones you canthelp but want them no matterwhat it may cost you in the long run.

Teary Eyes
I laid in bed tonight and cried Tears of loneliness With heartbreak filled my eyes In a world full of people I've isolated myself somehow Maybe because I'm afraid Of being hurt once again Hiding my feelings Is what I do best Never shall I be the first To confess Running away Is how I survive Rather easy to do in my life Anytime I begin to love I get beat on once again Another tactic I suppose To prevent me from gaining control I laid in bed and cried tonight Tears of loneliness with heartbreak Have become my life

~does He Know~
I taste those muskey lips to mineCurls in my stomach as I think of youMy heart pounds for your soulThe toughness of your hands wrapped around meA man I know who can love meDay to day and night to nightI think about the man who still love's meJust thoughts ponderDoes he know how much I miss him?Does he know how much I love him?Long for a touch?A kiss?A hug?To cuddle?Does he know these things?I just wanna know in my heart and soulI love him alotMiss him dearlydreams that awake meI want himI need himDoes he know!

I Love To.....and I Am...
You Are a Painting You are a passionate person. You see the emotional undertones that others miss. Compared to other people, you are sentimental. You allow yourself to feel everything. Believe that art should capture the beauty and mood of a moment. The best art speaks to your heart. It makes you smile, dream, or even cry. What Type of Art Are You?

Only A Heart That Wants You...
No words to sayNo way to feelNo tears to showOnly a heart left that wants you...A dream of years, shatteredA romance of time, brokenA memoir of past, burntOnly a heart left that wants you....A wait for no tomorrow in sightA battle too long to fightA distance of miles to goOnly a heart left that wants you...A sun refusing to shineA romance running out of rhymeA life losing on wineOnly a heart left that wants you...No strength to carry onNo people to count fromNo light to see throughOnly a heart left that wants you...

Movies
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I Wont Forget
Today I visited a place Located deep in the mind, Felt a strong presence linger Melody of the love song Memories awakening Providing unwanted feelings Only one felt so strongly The feeling of missing you Can't stop myself from reminiscing Thinking of our time together How is it that I'm able to smile... when I've got this hint of sadness? Torn by remembering That you once were a believer We use to share imaginations That brought our love to life Even though it has been a while It's clear that I haven't forgotten Just know that I never will Because It's my heart you got in

So Def True
You Are Apple Juice You're very likable and quite popular. It's hard not to find something to love about you. You are playful and fun. You try to bring levity to situations. While you are entertaining, you're not very hyper or mischievous. You are laid back, low key, and even a bit sensitive. What Kind of Juice Are You?

Won't
While You Are Away I'M Waiting I'M Out Of My Mind You'Re Out Of Town You Know I'M No Stranger To Frustration I Won'T Break I Won'T Let You Down Cause I Know Right From Wrong And I Know I Can Be Strong You Know I Won'T Let Me Let You Down I Look Back On My Past, I'M Dirty I Know That Guy Would Always Let You Down But While I Am Away Don'T Worry Just Keep Your Faith In Me And Have No Doubt Cause I Know Right From Wrong And I Know you Can Be Strong If There'S No Lying Then There'S No Crying Arrive In Your Own Time Stay Patient You Know I Won'T Let Me Let You Down You Know I Won'T Let Me Won'T Let Myself Be Led Into Temptation It'S You And Me Nobody Else Allowed Well You Know I'M No Stranger To Frustration Just Keep Your Faith In Me And Have No Doubt

Name Thing...
What Your Name Says About You Your name says that you are mostly: Intuitive but high strung Your name also says you are: Ambitious but stubborn Thoughtful but slow Artistic but extreme What Does Your Name Say About You?

Another Break
Welp, it's that time again. Time for me to disappear.....taking a lil time off from here. To all the real friends, thanks for the support, to those that just added, thanksfor reading. Luv Ya Alls....lol Laterz!

Pt. 1
What I’ve Learned The dumber the man, the louder he talks.If you drink good teguila and only good teguila, and are disciplined enough not to think, 'Why, a glass of red wine would taste nice right now', you will not be hungover in the morning.And water. Lots of waterLesbians make the best breakfasts.When you talk about golf, you run the danger of everyone in the room, and especially all the women, thinking - no, being fairly certain - that you are an asshole.Nothing good has ever been done ironically.One morning at breakfast in Austin, Lyle Lovett's girlfriend, got up from the table, and as she did, Lyle rose from his chair. Lance Armstrong was also at the table, and he asked Lyle about his gesture. Lyle said this: "When you look like I do, you need every advantage you can get." I think that applies to us all.Bill Murray is one of the very few things we can all agree on.The most intellectually satisfying pop song ever written is "Everyday I Write the Book."It's hard to look

Island Girl Auto 11's
HEY EVERYONE...ISLAND GIRL HAS HER 11'S RUNNING IF YOUR LOOKING FOR THOSE EXTRA POINTS.....SHOW HER SOME LOVE ISLåÈDGIßL☠ DSC ^ Zodiaks ^ Fu-Polygamist ^ DØN'T TØUCH THE CØCØNUTS@ fubar

Haters
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 CurrentlyHi Hatersee related A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall. They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters...That's why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can't handle seeing you blessed...It's dangerous to be like somebody else... If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?You never know what people have gone through to get what they have...The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don't know my story...If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!We've all got some haters among us! Some people envy you because you can:a) Have a relationship with Godb) L

Music
if anyone likes country music and wants to have a good time if u ever get a chance to hear this band u will not be dissappointed they are awesome and i always have a good time u can check him out on my space and facebook

I Lol'd.
From Date Message ACCEPT DENY doctordave1969 (Online) 2009-04-15 13:14:29 wow what a doll !!!! you have to be the most sexy female i have ever in my life seen! you are truly my dreamgirl come to life your eyes , hair , nose , lips you are just fucin perfect in every way!!! please add me ?ill rate all your pics 10s

My Blog
Well i really don't know waht to write but i guess... it has to be about me ........ so i'm going to start by saying that i am a fun and awsome person who enjoys meeting new people and loves to make friends and just likes to be happy b-cuz i never get mad (lol):)

Zomg!zomg!zomg!
I have a severe phobia of worms, and a moment ago I was eating pisatccios, and I opened it, took out a nut, and ...there was a fuckin LARVA lookin thing in there! OMG!! I am so fuckin traumatized!! I dont think I will ever eat pistaccios again...and I"m not kidding

And A Person Behind Those Nasty Fake Accounts Is...
Jai When someone made a nasty Russian Slutt accnt, posting all my private info, the IP address was from his computer, resulting in him getting deleted. Ash and I were just talking about the stupid cowardly fake Cunty Cunt aka Slut profile, and I told her how I STRONGLY suspect that it is Jai. Not even 5 mins later, the Slut logs off, and Jai, who hasn't been on in a while...logs in. Speak of the devil! I am rarely wrong when it comes to my intuition (cuppyfake scandal, lol), and I KNOW it is him. People, beware of Greeks bearing gifts. The guy is an unstable psycho...

Have You Finished Your Tax Return?
Today’s the day in the United States to have it sent in, but I know when people owe money they will wait to the last minute to send it off electronically or through the mail! I still have a bad memory of one year when I did owe money and the return wasn’t done until April 15. It was in 1999, when I still lived in Florida and had my return done professionally (I don’t know why, my finances have never been that complicated) at a county H&R Block office. I get a call on the natal day about my return; apparently when I was there everything got done except for my signature. That rush to get to the office and sign the return before turning around to get to work (I’m actually wearing the Winn-Dixie shirt today, the only thing that indicates it is the store’s name sewn on the left sleeve) put me off ever referring anyone or going into an H&R Block office ever again! But that was ten years ago, I was unmarried and often felt unwanted, four moves away from bein

Myoldsoldier43hasaveryyoungmind!!whoooohooo
oldsoldier43 owned by MzBooti2Big sent you Edible Panties Here is what I have in mind! We are lying on the bed i have on a pair of silk boxer shorts and your are wearing a push up bra type thing but it exposes the front of you great breasts. you have on crotchless panty’s and thigh high nylons. we are drinking wine and kissing. our kisses become deeper and longer and our hands roam over each others body’s. i kiss and nibble on your ear and make my way slowly down to your breasts i push them together so i can lick and suck both nipples. rub and caress them for a long time and then kiss and lick my way down your stomach my tongue tickles your belly button lick my way lower and you spread your legs for me. i tease you with my tongue lightly licking with the tip of my tongue from your clit to your ass. you push into my face and my tongue dips deep into you your juices coat my face which is so deep in your pussy my nose is against your clit. i move up and suck hard on your c

Way Too Funny For Words
In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic name. For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen.The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin. Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix, and of course, Ibepokin. Pfizer Corp announced today that Viagra will soon be available in liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to literally pour himself a stiff one. Obviously we can no longer call this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning to the names of 'cocktails', 'highballs' and just a good old-fashioned 'stiff drink'. Pepsi will market the new concoction by the name o

Dewdrops On The Grass
DEWDROPS ON THE GRASS a poem of remembering by john p reedWritten from January 2007 through February 2008 I thought of pearls on a string, of a seagull dip-skimming the Sea of Time flap dip - flap - flap - dip - flap - dip - dip this came out... Dedication This piece speaks of and toa love that I have always knownthat I have always been a part of.This is dedicated to her and she knows it.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Outside of this time-frame, there is only us.Speak or type - feel or imagine - dreaming or awake, the words are the same - we are one in this loving and knew it when we first traded words. Our world was immediately circumscribed into us, and them. Ever since then, we have danced together, motes in the simple continuum of YHVH, knowing always that while we may wish our love to be carnal at times, our love

A Song About How Girls Make Me Feel After Dating Them
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re g

A Song About How I Make My Girls Feel
I'm used to opening my own doorsand splittin' the checkshe introduced me was always just the friendi bought a new dresshe never noticedAlways fallen for these bad boyssuch a challengeI'm getting tiredof cleaning up after themi think im ready to be a womanoh love i think im readyready for itYou were such a suprisean unexpected giftsaid i was prettyand i believed itnot really used to all this attentiontold myself i don't deserve youand this is just a phasecould i get used tobeing loved the right wayi wanna argue but there is nothing to sayoh love i think im ready, ready for it(i think im ready)ready for itoh love i think im readyCuz you send me flowerswhen theres no occasionyeah, we talk for hoursyou still want to listenwont hold it against meif i just need you to hold me tonightMy mother always told methat you'd show up one dayso scared to feel this waybut love i think im ready,ready for it (ready for it)oh love i think im ready,ready for it

Loving You Makes Me A Better Person
Every time I think about you... I am reminded of the reasons why I love you from the depth of my heart and soul. And I wonder what I would do without You, without Your healing smile, Your words of faith, the caring and sensitive way You touch me so deeply, lifting me just when I need it the most. Without You what would I have ? What would I be ? I can not imagine existing in a world where someone does not love me the way You do. Your the only one who ever loved and accepted me for who I am. And I think You are nothing short of amazing. Your love will always be life's greatest gifts.

Yim Love
A little bit of insight, to those who have wondered how our conversations go daily. This was our most recent convo, over YIM, while she was at work Kara Peregrine: I haz a mouth vag? scorpiofire: hah...way bettter though Kara Peregrine: Way better why? scorpiofire: well, cuz i can grab your ass, and hips...and fuckin pound into it...and cum inside you...i try that with your mouth, youll choke and bite me ween0r off Kara Peregrine: Pretty much... But then you'd have your dream of being a chick fulfilled. scorpiofire: fuck no..i want chick tits, not bitch tits...My names NOT robert Paulson Kara Peregrine: You wouldn't have to tuck it anymore for your nude pics if I bit it off scorpiofire: Im blogging this conversation, lmao Kara Peregrine: Go for it.. You're the one who will look ghey. scorpiofire: i know.... Kara Peregrine: Not like you haven't before though... scorpiofire: i look ghey all the time, woman Kara Peregrine: I know. People even t

Intresting
Keep your Jesus off my Penis by Eric Schwartz Keep your Jesus off my penisKeep your bible off my ballsKeep your prayers out of my earsAnd your crosses off my wallsYou can keep the virgin motherAnd the resurrection tooKeep your Jesus off my penisI'll keep my penis off of youWell I'm frickin' sick and tiredOf turning on the newsAnd seeing the religious right'sUngodly fight to take our right to chooseWhen to bear our childrenWho to love and howEducation and protectionIf we're just practicing for nowSo dubya look obey a bookIf that's what works for youBut I don't tell you how to praySo don't tell me how to screwKeep your Jesus off my penisKeep your bible off my ballsKeep your prayers out of my earsAnd your crosses off my wallsYou can keep the virgin motherAnd the resurrection tooKeep your Jesus off my penisI'll keep my penis off of youSo you're screaming bloody murder'Bout the taliban regimeFor subjugating womenAnd being too extremeAnd basing legislationOn some ancient holy bookDoes t

We Can Only Get Pimped 3 Times!!
The new rules are.. your only allowed around the block 3 times.we only get 3 pimps. so why cant we get pimped more then 3 times.if your friends want to pimp you they should be able to.if i new this i would have picked demon. at least you can shitface someone 10 times.I say a least 6 time are friends should be able to pimp us.please comment on this..tell babyjesus what you think on this..thank you..ryellowfast07..

12 Steps For Fubar Addict's
I wrote these while bored ..The Twelve Steps for FuBar addicts1. We admitted that we were powerless over FuBar, that our lives had become unmanageable.2. We came to believe that a friend's list greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of babyjesus, as we understood Him.4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of our lounges and shout box.5. We admitted to ourselves our friend's our fan's and our family, and to FuBarer's everywhere the exact nature of our wrongs.6. We were entirely ready to have babyjesus remove all these defects of character.7. We humbly asked babyjesus to fix all technical glitches.8. We made a list of all persons we had commented on, and became willing to make amends to them all.9. We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure our FuBar reputation.10. We continued to shout box and add friends and fans, and when we were wrong promptly d

Death's Of People I Was Fond Of
Here in Afghanistan it's the rainy season. We get rain almost every day and/ or night. Depressing for sure. Monday was no different. I woke up at 4:45 and walked to the shower room in a downpour. At 6 I began doing my 1st turn for the week doing headcount in the dining hall. The only fun part of it is being able to see everyone and say hello. Later i came back to my room and checked out the news on yahoo where I found out about two losses I took very hard. The 1st was the worst. For anyone who lived in or near the Philadelphia area in the last 40 years Harry Kalas was as much a part of spring, summer and early fall as anyone could be. He was the lead broadcaster for the Phillies baseball team and everyone loved him. His signature home run call of "Outta Here!" never got old to us and his death at the age of 73 has hit us all hard. We're sure gonna miss him. Hearing playbacks of some of his most famous moments left me crying harder than I had for many years. Later on I saw that anothe

The Late Great Marilyn Chambers
I am making this post to honor the memory of Legendary Porn Goddess, Marilyn Chambers. I had the privilege of meeting getting to spend some time chatting with her at the Girls and Corpses party at Meltdown this last October. I was quite flattered that she had sought out to make My acquaintance and conversation in a room of people. And now that she has passed I am even more thankful that she had. If she hadn't been so forward and social I might have just bounced about the party and totally missed the chance to have such a wonderful conversation with a woman who left quite an impression on the adult industry from the very first film. where even as a complete unknown, she was paid more than any other porn performer had ever earned before. Her first porn, Behind the Green Door, not only made her an instant legend; it made history as being the very first hardcore adult film to be released to the mainstream. And it could be considered by some to also be the first kinky hardcore film

Loss Of Respect
Its one thing to call yourself classy, but when it comes to acting like it EPIC FAIL. Man I seriously lost respect for someone on here i had held in high regard. long story short, I noticed a change in behavior, went to a mutual friend about it and got slapped in a literary sense by both of em. one explanation is it had something to do with me, and if it did and said person didnt even say anything about it, but just chose to ignore me, shame on her. other explanation is it had nothing to do with me, in which case, what the hell happened? and can ya blame me for coming to that conclusion with that particular timing? I think not. I know Im being vague but this is venting more than anything. so let me make this clear, I expect my friends to be accountable for themselves and upfront with me. If you cant be upfront with me, especially when its an issue that may have to do with me...... delete me now. I expect high quality of people as my friends and it saddens me when

Friend Poem
So often you're there when I am lonely,You always sound glad when I call,And it seems every time that I need you,You say it's no trouble at all.So, I hope that if you ever need a favour,I'm someone on whom you'll depend,And I hope I can beall that you've been to me-For that's the true meaning of "friend"

Unforgiven
It's my life falling and spiraling This is my time living and dieing You held my hand you dragged me down you lifted me to higher ground you owned my heart I believed what you said As I fell apart you fucked with my head. Tearing back and ripping skin seek the pieces Deep within drowning soul Can't seem to find any reason as to why FLOODING MIND I gave you my all you threw it back at me Stand

I'll Take You On A Moon Light Ride...
*But let me get, to the point. Let's roll another joint. Turn the radio loud. I'm too alone to be proud. You don't know how it feels, to be me...* Mmmk, that song has been stuck in my head for 3 days straight, that's right, three days. Everytime I try to think of a song, here that song comes. And I start singing like some mildly retarded kid. But it's all good. I'm feeling super awesome right now. Today is going to be slightly eventful. If I can just get my Mother out the door. Procrastination is not your friend. A week from now I get my wisdom teeth pulled. So the rest of this week better be good. And so far, looks pretty alright... :) Indeed...

You Know You Want Them
Hiya ladies, I am buying bling packs and auto 11s. The deal is I will be giving away 3 bling packs and 10 auto 11s. I know your gonna call me a pervert, but I love the womans body. So heres what you have to do, Find the best way to be sexy, nsfw pics,send me panties,bras ect... cam time works,phone time ect.... Anything sexy!!

What Do Men Want Emotionally?
This blog is going to be short and sweet, so here goes… I am going to start out by saying that I am still old fashioned and believe in traditional roles. I believe that men were created to be leaders and to honor/respect their wife like the queen she is. I believe that as a person, we are both equal however when it comes to roles in life we are not. Personally I think deep down most women want this as well, its just too hard to find a man to trust and let have that role these days therefore they are forced to turn into an "independent woman". I can't tell you the number of times I have heard this from a single mom or a mom with a deadbeat husband: "Every day, I make every decision in our entire family's life from the minute I wake up until the minute I go to bed. I carry the stress of providing for and taking care of our lives all day every day, I was not built for this. I need a man to take care of things, to carry that stress and I will suppor

Stupid People
And you wonder why the banks Fail!!!! This should be sent to every financial institution Cancel your credit card before you die..........Now some people are really stupid!!!! Be sure and cancel your credit cards before you die. This is so priceless, and so, so easy to see happening, customer service being what it is today. A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service chargeson her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00 when she died, but now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.

What Do Men Want Sexually???
I can't speak for every man, but I can speak for every man that I have ever met. 85 percent of women reading will not like this blog and think I am a shallow asshole. Of course you 85 percent are also the ones at home alone right now wishing that guy would call you some other time than 2:15AM when the bar closes, he needs a ride somewhere or he needs to borrow money. Or your home alone while your boyfriend/husband is "hanging out with the boys", often referred to as bending his secretary over the copy machine. So put on your big girl panties and pay attention. This is exactly how men think, they just don't have the balls to tell you, because men these days are pussies, not men, which is a whole new blog topic we won't go into. It's common knowledge that I like for a womans bra and panties to match if she is planning on getting naked for me. Here's the typical response to that. Her: "Matching bra and panties, that's so shallow! I want him to be attrac

They Have Laser Surgery For That
Can I just stab every wanton, whorish, skank in the eye? Please? Put some fucking clothes on, ffs. It's fucking old. Just like your tore up girly parts. You give it away with coupons. Shits hangin, almost touching the floor. *FAP FAP FAP* That's not a dude gettin off on your fish taco, that's the sound of your bat wings tryna take off for flight. Meat curtains. Gaper. Axe wound. Close it up!! -REL

What I Want In A Man
What I Want In A Man! Original List: 1. Handsome 2. Charming 3. Financially successful 4. A caring listener 5. Witty 6. In good shape 7. Dresses with style 8. Appreciates finer thing 9. Full of thoughtful surprises 10. An imaginative, romantic lover What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 32) 1.Nice looking 2. Opens car doors, holds chairs 3. Has enough money for a nice dinner 4. Listens more than talks 5. Laughs at my jokes 6. Carries bags of groceries with ease 7. Owns at least one tie 8. Appreciates a good home-cooked meal 9. Remembers birthdays and anniversaries 10. Seeks romance at least once a week What I Want in a Man, Revised List (age 42) 1. Not too ugly 2. Doesn't drive off until I'm in the car 3. Works steady - splurges on dinner out occasionally 4. Nods head when I'm talking 5. Usually remembers punch lines of jokes 6. Is in good enough shape to rearrange the furniture 7. Wears a shirt that covers his stomach 8. Knows not to buy ch

Life And Death....
I have spent my whole life opening my heart, arms and the doors of my home to anyone in need. I have given them whatever I can whenever I can. All I ever wanted in return was to be happy and feel loved. When I was 19 I got married, I was head over heels in love with her. But all she wanted to do was drink, party and do drugs. I got mad alot, she never wanted to just be a family. A couple weeks before our 1st Anniversary she took my son and ran off with a guy who supposedly a friend of mine and apparently had been seeing on the side for quite some time, at the time I didnt know it but she was pregnant with my daughter. When she left me I tried very hard to end my life, I slept with nasty women, drank myself into oblivion and did enough drugs to make Snoop Doggy Dogg blush. Just when I thought it couldnt get any worse, I get a bill in the mail for 10,000 dollars from the state of Arizona for child support. Great My wife cheats on me and now I have to pay her for betraying me, what a worl

Easter
EASTERNo matter what Easter means to youit could be dyeing eggs pink, yellow, or blueIt could be a bunny that brings baskets full of candy and toysand brings them all over the world to good little girls and boysEaster could be about being with family as a traditionjust getting everyone together could be your missionEaster egg hunts with kids and grand kids can surely be funthe one that finds the most will be the winner when it's all said and doneIt could mean a big dinner with family and friendsthere could be stuffing, peas, yams, ham, and some big fat hensIt could mean an Easter parade with bonnets that look a little funnyor it could mean an Easter pageant with women that look like a Playboy BunnyEaster may just be another day, it may not mean anything to youit may just be another reason for you to get out and barbequeEaster might just mean the Lilies are in seasonor it could mean that the NFL draft is close, if no other reasonEaster means a lot more than all these thingsno matter wha

Your Morning Thought For The Day ~ 4/15
Your morning thought for the day: Why is it that our memory is good enough to retain the least triviality that happens to us, and yet not good enough to recollect how often we have told it to the same person? ~ Francois de La Rochefoucauld (1613-1680)

Truhatas Update
found dis piece of crap joinin da crappy group of -=[TruRaters]=- dis group spreads hate though out fubar we have enough hatas there block dis crap now Ruben -=[TruRaters]=-http://fubar.com/user/2508339 - = [TruRaters] = - update OMG da disease is spreading, now have another member now http://fubar.com/user/2508339

~passion - I Will Be Here~
~I will be Here~ (The Video to this blog is in my stash under 'Passion ~ I will be Here'...plz take the time to listen to this young man's beautiful voice....he captures how I feel about all of you....I did not know how to put it on here....Thank You.) For All My Precious Friends Old and New...this song captured the Passion and Feelings I have for Our Friendship.....Each and Every One of You......Hope it brings a Smile to Your World as You do Mine......Peace. ~I Will Be Here ~ Tomorrow morning if you wake up And the sun does not appear I, I will be here If in the dark We lose sight of love Hold my hand and have no fear ‘Cause I, I will be here I will be here When you feel like being quiet When you need to speak your mind I will listen And I will be here When the laughter turns to cryin’ Through the winning, losing and trying We’ll be together ‘Cause I will be here Tomorrow morning if you wake up And the future is unclear I, I will be here As sure as seas

Pittsburghese
I’ve realized that many of my friends on here not only have no idea how to speak Pittsburghese, they’ve never even heard of it. Pittsburghese is commonly spoken by Yinzers in the Western PA area. Here’s a small sampling: Abaht About. It's abaht time you brung us those Arns! (Submitted by Melissa Cupp, Pittsburgh) Acrosst Across. The dog was acrosst the street. (Submitted by Ray Wargovich, Marlton, NJ) Agin

How It Is
the day goes on and i'm sitll here and i nener understand the things that happens but i keep going. i may never understnad but i will get over this things.i get up every day and i go to sleep every night thats what happens one day it will change hoping 1 day soon that sounds stupped but thats what i thought about hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Fu-break
For now I'm gonna be taking a break from fu for awhile. Yes I know I've leveled quickly, but for the exception of a few who have supported me thru it all, the work on leveling has been all ME. Call it whining or whatever, I'm just tired of doing it all myself. Those who really want to reach me can on either Yahoo or MSN. Yahoo ID: rmurphy1701@yahoo.com MSN ID: rmurphy1701@hotmail.com I will check in from time to time though.

Snooping And Searching..
I was meandering through this site that we're on, Fubar. I noticed that some people with morals, self worth and some other big words that i don't know the meaning of...has asked that comments related to sex, f*cking, oral...etc (yeah you get the picture) weren't to be tolerated. And yet, some dudes just go on and see what they want to see in the picture, without really looking at it as a whole. They see boobs, tits, ass and god knows what else, and that's human nature, i look too but i keep those "those are the whitest teeth i could come across!" comments to myself. It's just really elementary, and immature to me, sure i say that around my best (male) friend, but it's between us, unless it's not. I mean I think that me liking photography i can see what pictures are about, i can see how they were formed, or even guessing what they are, sometimes you just don't know, and that can be fun in itself. I noticed also they had posted comments related to pictures of (ass, boobs, ..etc.) but th

Update 4/15/09
Well, I made it to Dahlonega, GA on Sunday. Set up camp, looked around a bit & called it a night. About 12:30 am it started raining & didn't stop till Tuesday:(. Slept in the truck the last 2 nights! Mother nature ain't gonna rain on me!!! Anyways the rain cleared tuesday afternoon. Got kinda cold last night, down to 45. Wish I had a snugglebuddy here to keep me warm!!! Any takers??? Heeheehee. Apply at the campground in Dahlonega... Found a little Gold yesterday. A couple small nuggets, couple pickers, and a bunch of flakes. At least I found some!!! Made this trip worthwhile. So that being said, I'll close this update by saying that I miss you all and will be back on tomorrow. I'll try to come to the library in the afternoon to hopefully catch some of you online. This place closes at 5pm est so hope to talk to you all soon!!! Much luv, kisses, hugs, and nibbles to all! Jeff

You Might Be A "radicalized Right-wing Extremist" If…
Well now... It seems that some of us are now considered right wing extremists AND disgruntled veterans. All I can say is I was disgruntled before... NOW I'm pissed. This can be found here You Might Be a "Radicalized Right-Wing Extremist" If…by Michelle Malkin What and who exactly are President Obama's homeland security officials afraid of these days? If you are a member of an active conservative group that opposes abortion, favors strict immigrationenforcement, lobbies to protect Second Amendment rights, protests big government, advocates federalism or represents veterans who believe in any of the above, the answer is: You. Department of Homeland Security Sec. Janet Napolitano has turned her attention away from acts of Islamic jihad on American soil (which she now refers to as "man-caused disasters"). Instead, her department issounding the alarm over an unquantified "resurgence" in "right-wing extremism activity." On April 7, DHS sent a nine-page warning memo to law

This Is My First Post..
I'm not sure how to do this site, it seems overwhelming and has "too much" crap, I don't like that. It should be easy to use, which I'm sure it is...just not now. It looks fun, way more fun that m*space but who knows?!

Dreams
Dreams are somewhat of a complicated thing to have. Some people say that a dream is something they do when they sleep. Others say dreams are things they aspire to be. I say they are both. See we all have dreams. Some dreams are bigger than others but we all do it. Me personally I have both aspirations and dreams. So what are your dreams

Words From My Heart
If I lost youI wouldn't know what to doYour brighten my dayand always know the right things to sayThrough the good and the badthe happy and sadYou are always there for meshowing me all the good there is to seeYou are my best friendwe have a connection that will never endYou help me deal with all my fearsand let me shed all my tearsEven when things go so wrongyou make me feel like I still belongSome days when I feel like I just can't winyou never let me give inYou have shown me unconditional loveI believe you were sent from Heaven aboveNo one could ever take your placeif you left there would be a huge void spaceYou never leave me outand you trust me without a doubtIn my life you are a huge parteverything I wrote came straight from my heart

Mikey
WARM HUGSSSSSS To have a friendSuch as youWith a heart of goldThat I know is true. You can make me smileEven when I'm sadBy sending your hugsIt makes me so glad. I hope that I tooPut a smile on your faceFor I treasure your friendshipNo one can take your place. Huggsssss

Bidding Starts Today Ends June 15th
KEEP YOUR EYES PEELED FOR MY BULLY ON THIS AUCTION AND PLEASE REPOST IT OFTEN......48 STATE FU LAND REAL LIFE POKER RUN....BIDDING ENDS JUNE 15TH.....GREAT PRIZES FOR HIGHEST BIDDERS IN EACH STATE.... Cruising all of the lower 48 states on my Harley has been a dream for MANY years now, THIS YEAR that dream comes true....in July 09 im going to begin my quest and you have a chance to meet me in person...as well as a chance at some great prizes as i "Ride Across America"......... LIVE FREE ....RIDE HARD!

Cross Country Move
When we moved cross-country, my wife and I decided to drive both of our cars. Nathan, our eight-year-old, worriedly asked, "How will we keep from getting separated?" "We'll drive slowly so that one car can follow the other," I reassured him. "Yeah, but what if we DO get separated?" he persisted. "Well, then I guess we'll never see each other again," I quipped. "Okay," he said. "I'm riding with Mom."

Lies
My heart sinks to new depths, Torn in places I never knew I had. So sore, Picking and bleeding. Why do I let you get to me this way? You left, Never being honest. Fuck you and your games. No more will I be used, Fuck you and your lies. No more will I cry, Go be with your dirty whore. No more will you control me, Fuck you and your love. The wounds are open and bleeding, But will close and heal. Fuck You, Fuck You, Fuck Your Lies. Fuck your cheating ways, Fuck the lies you spread about me. I know the truth. I gave you everything, a place to live, food, money, LOVE. I took care of you when everyone else ditched you. The lies you spread. I am controlling. Thats why I did everything you asked of me. Fuck I sold stuff to get you here. I make you do everything, That's why I always asked for your help. That's why I gave up the things you asked of me. FUCK YOU. YOU LIAR!!!

Lost
is it lost? By me ........for someone who is lost seen through vales of nothing in this blacknessthis hole in the world ,can we cast our shadows in the void ?,the world around falls spinninghere where the light has forever come to its endare we giving up on hope ?can it truely all have crashed down ?we adjust our views to focus on the thunderdscrapes of this hole in the worldin here is lost, the hopes of tommorrow .not all can be lost ?is it lost ?is it lost ?No .......not all is lost .....you have Friendsyou have me.MRRCP 2009

Evil Curse
Damn evil aunt flow is here.....cramps are killing me. Pills not even working... I did some shopping...sorta. Went to try to find some new jeans but didn't like most of them and with how fat i am, they didn't have any good ones....then again, I went to Ross. went to target to get some stuff....took a nap...clenaed..stupid ants are back and that's about it...oh so exciting

Cause Living Makes Me Feel Ashamed
Sometimes I feel Like I wanna leave this place for goodUnder the groundI'll live down there without a soundAnd never hearThese hissing voices all the sameI'll disappearCausing living makes me feel ashamedI must believeThere's more above us and belowI must believeStranded with this bitch called hopeIt keeps me hearWhen all I wanna do is goIt keeps me here When all I wanna do is disappearIf this is itWhen all we have and ever willIf this is itTime is running out and standing stillI'll leave todayCause there's nothing left to keep me herrI'll fade awayI'll turn my back and disappearThe city movesLunges up right from the groundThe seething EarthIt opens up and spits us outThis vicious childNature never wanted usThis vicious childA cancer burning black into it's heartIf this is itWhen all we have and ever willIf this is itTime is running out and standing stillI'll leave todayCause there's nothing left to keep me hereI'll fade awayI'll turn my back and disappearSometimes I feelLike I wa

Poem
BREEZE Felling a cool breeze as it moves across my body. Cooling my body on a warm summer's night. After a long hot summer's day, it feels like an angel kisses. So very soft and sweet. Refreshing my body with a gentle breeze. Looking towards the clouds that are in the sky above me. Whiling I could be flying among the clouds like a falcon. Flying in and out of the clouds. Just being the sky would be so very amazing. That experience would last a lifetime. Another cool breeze starts to move towards me. I can feel it start to move across my feet and it is flowing up my legs. Now I can feel it reach into my chest. It reaches into my chest and I feel it softly touch my soul. I can hear a soft and angelique voice telling me to relax. I start to smell the sweet scent of flowers after the rain. The breeze reaches my face, it feels like an angel is touching my face. The breeze is moving all around my body. Now as I start to open my eyes I'm no longer standing on the gro

Poem
PEACE I'm now at peace with myself. I'm no longer at war with myself. My whole life I was always putting myself down when things went wrong in my life. The times I tried to take my own life. There was always someone or some thing to stop me from ending my life. It took a lot of time for me to love myself. It took a lot of help to get me to where I am today. The help from my mom, who help me through the hard times. My dads, who could make me laugh when I need a good laugh. My little brother who always had my back when I needed it. My teachers who taught me the things I need to learn in life. The friends I could talk to when I needed to talk to someone other than my family. The times I tried to take my own life. There was always someone or some thing to stop me from ending my life. The peace I found after all these years. The peace has made me become the man I always wanted to be.

Going Insane
it pisses me off, i work 10-12 hours a day, bought a house, my 'ol lady and kids live with me and everytime the little bastards are home alone they need to destroy my shit, i came home for lunch tonight as soon as i walk out of the house to head back to work, my ol' lady follows me out and no more than 10 seconds later theres a loud crash, from the little idiots breaking my dining room window, and to make matters worse, my ol lady defends them, shit is really starting to piss me off now.

I'm In A Contest And I Could Use Some Help Over Here
I Need Rates And Original Creative Witty Comments !!! I have entered a contest and could really use some help.. Please click the link below to rate the pic and leave an original comment on it.. we could both win some bling if your comment is chosen as the most original.. any and all help is appreiciated and all luv will be returned.. i will be keeping an eye out to see who actually helps me when i need it !! CLICK HERE TO RATE AND COMMENT Thank You, *Evil.. Wicked.. Sweet & Naughty*

My Friend
I know, its been awhileSince we communicatedIn any way...When you repliedMy heart stopped...I smiled with my thoughtsRemembering our talksOver the phone...The laughter we sharedThe fun we had...I even rememberedThat one, most special day...With, all who have been in my lifeHave I ever been more honestWas only with you...I gave you my true and loyaltyAnd promised youALWAYS and FOREVER...No matter what happensYou would always find a friend in me...Even if the love we sharedDidn't last, but, what we had feltIt remains in our hearts...Even though, things happenedYou were the only womanWho reached further into my heartRe-lit a fire that burned out long ago...And from the flame, I was reborn...Softly touch me with a passionThat would become a double edge swordI had to learn to wield...I believe you were sentTo give life back to my heartAn angel only for me...With a sweet and sensuous voice like yoursAs I can still remember...I still remember you saying my nameThat was like a song, I can nev

First Time
our first time....we would go for a walk along the beach...bringing with us a blanket and a picnic basket....holding hands until we find a secluded spot to spot and eat as we watch the sunset.....I would hold you close to me...we would be feeding each other the goodies we brought with us....I would have you close your eyes and take some fruit and gently run it down your jaw...your neck...gently teasing your cleavage with it before bringing it to your lips...again with your eyes closed I would take another piece and place it between my lips before bringing it to yours...kissing you as you take it from my mouth...you would open your eyes to see me smiling at you...drinking in your beauty....slowly and gently I would lean forward kissing you deeply...letting every possible feeling I have for you flow into that kiss....running my fingers through your hair.....I would very slowly lay you down on the blanket..never taking my lips from yours...as we made love under the setting sun...when we w

Jealousy
so i got uber jealous tonite when i have to remember who it is He sleeps with every night...jealousy is not allowed in a kajira mind and it keeps creeping into mine...how do i stop it and when will i be able to fully trust that nothing will go on? i trust Him with my life but yet i get jealous over a lil flirting online...get your head out of your ass Susi...He loves YOU! it upset Him and i promised not to do it again but i should have promised to try harder not to let it happen again...i am really sorry Master....this is eating me up more than a punishment ever could...i really do love you and only you...and i want to be a good slave for you and i will do my hardest not to let the jealousy over take my mind again...

I'll Eventually Call The Song I'm Working On "falling For You" But For Now It's Unfinished.
Not sure when it happened. When you stole my heart from me. It seem'd just in an instant your beauty had me on my knee's. So now I have to say. How you make me feel this way. Make me feel this way. ......... I want to hold you til the end of time. Make love to you until I die. See the love in your eyes. Know that your forever mine. ....... Didn't think this could happen to me. To find love's a reality. Please don't tell me I'm making a mistake. ...... Cause falling for you is all I can do. There's no escape from this spiral. I just wanted to let you know. ......... You have my heart you have my soul. Please to these do not let go. In your hands their so fragile.

Sevendust-
Xmas Day Sevendust~My Heart Will Break Into Million Pieces Xmas Day -SevendustIf she's all alone again Still she hasn't seen sun But I promise you now when she wakes There will be none Don't know how she gets by Sleeps with a phone on her chest And a bottle that's totally dry Forgets the day I was born But if she saw me right now She would hold me until we both die I could be the one who would die to feel you breathe I could break into a million pieces So just run as fast as you can for me You mean everything I can't deny her. I'll do whatever To stop all the bleeding that makes her world so red Such a delicate one She screams so loud that I run to hide from the sound And I could be the one who would die to feel you breathe But it's too far-gone And this love must die My Heart Will Break Into Million Pieces Author: Lourdes S.I have opened my eyes to see...All the most beautiful things in this world,As the sun, and all the stars in the sky.But none can compare to the man alluri

[chicks With Kids...]
Anosa... as I get older, my available dating pool shrinks, especially in the midwest, especially in topeka the anus of the civilized world. Which brings us to tonight's topic "beggar's can't be choosers" now... I don't want people to come down with a giant iron feminist hammer about women with kids and women over 24 and yadayadayada What I want to say here is that my problem with women with kids are... multilayered, atypical. My first statement is: I'm LESS turned on by women with kids. Like... not significantly, and I don't have any big hangup with physiology on this point or "eww that kid crawled out of there" its not even a matter of "wow- there's PROOf some other asshole has been here before me" nah- its more that I wanna START a family, not waltze into one. Its not a turf war, its not an old-cow phenom. It's that its just that much more fuckin complicated with baby daddy drama, babysitters, and cartoon time. Relationships are hard enough on their own. So... I checked my

Missing 4-3-97 Help Please
Endangered Missing CHRISTINA MARTINEZ DOB: May 10, 1981Missing: May 3, 1997Age Now: 27Sex: FemaleRace: HispanicHair: BrownEyes: BrownHeight: 5'4" (163 cm)Weight: 120 lbs (54 kg)Missing From:PHOENIXAZUnited States Christina's photo is shown age-progressed to 27 years. She was last seen at home on May 3, 1997. She has not been seen or heard from since. Her ears are double pierced.ANYONE HAVING INFORMATION SHOULD CONTACTNational Center for Missing & Exploited Children1-800-843-5678 (1-800-THE-LOST)--------------------------------------------------------------------------------Phoenix Police Department (Arizona) 1-602-262-6151 picture is in issing folder thanks everyone

Pain
When will this end? Every day I go through the motions, an actor in someone else's life. Then I stop off the stage and my entire world falls apart. I stumble, I fall, and I shatter, broken pieces of me scattered for everyone to see. But they don't do they?

Weird Kids
So I was sitting with my friend in my car in the parking lot across from his apartment and we're talking. About ten minutes into our conversation we notice these kids staring at us out the window of an apartment complex across the street. We clearly look straight at them and when they see that we have discovered them, one goes over and turns out the lights. My friend is freaking out and won't get off the subject that the kids are staring at us. I think to myself that they must be waiting for someone. And sure enough a car pulls into the parking lot and the person that gets out heads right for the apartment complex. Problem solved. Wrong! The kids are still staring at us 5 minutes later. lol SO I conclude that they must have thought that since we were a guy and a girl aone in the dark that we were going to get nekkid and they would have seen a little something something. Voyeuristic, I guess that's what we get when there's nothing on T.V.

I Miss You~~
I miss you my beloved mother I know your watching from above. During this time of the year I really can feel your love. So many times my heart aches Just to have you here. But I know if I close my eyes I can feel you standing near. Not a single day goes by Without you on my mind. Just remembering your sweet face And a heart that was so kind. I remember how your eyes lit up

10 Words Women Use
10 Words Women Use (lettered inserts and #10 added by Bobby Eaton/Wikkid) 1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (a) No one is allowed to argue with me. Arguing, fighting, nagging, bitching, complaining or generally being a pain in the ass is NOT okay with me. When you argue with someone you are training them to manipulate, control and lose respect for you. Any woman who has the privilege of sleeping with me at night, does not talk to me like this during the day. I know I'm always right and she's wrong, because love is the only truth. When you come from love, you can never be wrong, proved wrong or argued with. If the woman in my life argues with me I say something like "You love me! So shut up and kiss me NOW! or "Can we stop arguing and f%$k already? I don't care about that shit. I wanna f*#k." or "You have 3 seconds to stop arguing with me, or you need to take a walk or go write down what you need to talk about and don'

Being Offended Is A Choice To Be A Victim
Being offended is a choice to be a victim. Have you ever thought about how silly it is to go around being offended?There are people who turn on the radio and get offended because they hear someone speaking in a certain tone or saying a word they don’t like. Some people have a whole list of words that they are offended by, and anytime someone says one of them, they go off into a tantrum.Albeit, it’s just like allowing someone else’s behavior decide how you are going to be emotionally. You can be the person whose emotions or strings are pulled by someone else, depending on how they choose to act or what words they choose to use.You choose your own emotional responses, and you own them. You can blame others for how you choose to feel and pretend that you are a victim.Or you can choose not to give anyone permission to take away your happiness, joy or good mood away from you.You can give away your power and allow someone else’s behavior to pull your strings….O

5 Dimensional (5d) Compassion Formula
5 Dimensional (5D) Compassion FormulaThe 5 Dimensional Compassion Formula is a series of questions that are designed to help men calm down before you “train” and “spank” your girlfriends. Whenever you feel anger, hatred, frustration, jealousy, resentment, and so on, it's HIGHLY recommended that you use this technique to help yourself move beyond such fear-based emotions.Believe me, if you choose to talk to a lot of women to find one you like, or you choose to teach people this stuff, you will most likely need a lot of compassion work along the way. A lot of people, even women, can be very rude, unstable, or not really want your help or love. They just want attention, pity and other forms of energy. Some women can be rude when you approach them, especially if you go to clubs, and some times people can just be very annoying. Most people are too hard on themselves, and worse, they try to motivate themselves with anger, guilt and other painful, unhealthy, imbalanced

I Guess He Is Bein Honest??
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God Is...
My religion is Love. Love your Self.... then you can love and honor all things and people as they are. Then you always know what to do because love is the only moral, truth, reality and energy we need. -Bobby Eaton The right religion is the one that compels you to love yourself and others more, to help others more and be more accepting. Does your religion and view of God work for you? Does it serve you well? The right religion causes you to give up prejudice and brings you inner peace. It causes you to care about the world and all those who live in it. The right religion goes beyond branding people and beyond a book. The only true religion is LOVE and simply loving others. Love is the only truth. When you come from love, you can never be wrong, proved wrong or argued with, because you always know the right thing to do. Love is the only truth. How can you be wrong? Our nature is love. It is fear that we have learned that blocks us from loving action. We are created in God's

Me
i'm missing Indianapolis, his mom, sisters, old room, friends,nieces, Nephews, and rolling around late nights. what really kill him is that every time he hear his Nephew keishawn tell him that he miss him and when is he coming back. All he can say is i don't know. sad thing i just cry writing this part.

Life
What is the point sometimes! i have been movin every 6 to 8 months now, for the past 3 years. i meet new people jus friends and some people it felt like a little more. i work my ass off all the time and i am never able to get ahead ever. Now i am heading out west. Suposivily it is supposed to make things better but at the same time i know it is goin to come to me and my brother mike fightin to survive. i am a open person i am will in to try new things to make life a little better. but i am exhausted i want to settle down stay somewhere and be happy. will it come i dont know. i hope it dose and fast before i give up for the last time. ( iam venting this is not a suicide note)

I'm Up For Auction Again
I AM IN NEED OF A NEW OWNER. SO GET YOUR BIDS IN. I WILL BE THROWING IN SOME EXTRA SPECIAL SURPRISE GIFTS TO THE WINNER SO MAKE YOUR BID REALLY GOOD. CUZ TRUST ME, THE SPECIAL GIFTS WILL BE VERY GOOD. QUITE POSSIBLY NAUGHTY! ;)

Grrrr
im so sick of doing everything that i can to make someone happy and it not being good enough. i mean every now and then it would be nice to feel like someone gave half a shit about the stuff that i do for them even if its not alot....i mean sometimes a girl just wants some flowers and a kiss to know that shes doing something right but half the time i cant even get a little thank you for being there and dealing with the stress of dealing with a crazy baby momma or thank you for takin care of our little girl all the time i mean anything would work alls i want is a thanks every now and again but i feel like no matter what i do its not enough and i feel like im competing against the past and the girls he never got to have i mean its kinda funny that his "friend" gave me the stink eye and didnt even mutter a hello. is it me or is that rude like im not going to even say anything to the mother of this mans kid and im going to stick my head up this guys ass......i dont know ladies let me know

25 Random Things About Me
1.I'll defend almost any woman or child that is being scolded or threatened by any man, bottom line! 2.I don't care for drunk drivers especially after my head on car wreck in 1995 where I ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks and then months of rehab too! 3.I hate the word retard with a passion!!!! Say it in my presence and I'll blow my top! Say to one of my friends or to my friends kids and I'll be over you verbally like a lit dynamite stick! 4.I don't like going to church, been there, done that, all I do is fall asleep in church. 5.I don't like smoke from cigarettes or campfires, definitely allergic since my eyes water like a faucet here. 6. I only drink alcohol, namely beer socially, I don't drink to get drunk, never have and never will. 7. I don't care for illegal drugs, you offer me that and you'll get told off or worse, guaranteed! 8. I'm physically challenged with Cerebral Palsy, blind in my left eye and deaf in my left ear but that don't mean I can't do things, it just mea

Its Like I See Her Murder
It's just like a dream to meThat some how came to meI see u as I sleepI see u as I rise in the morningI see u as I pass out in bedI now praise that I know uWhen I see u I gaze in your eyesI try to see your thoughtsI wish I can open up more with u but it's hardBecause I'm afraid…Afraid of crying because of what I see and feelThe pain is just too realEvery time I see my mother's murderIt's like I'm getting murderedI'm getting stabbed over and over in the same places as she isI can feel her pain every time the knife hits herI feel how much its hurtsI see her crying and screaming for helpBut it's to late...She is gone She is buriedCarried by the lord up to his world of happinessWhen I first knew she was gone I had hope of her coming backBut as the days increasedMy tears increased And somehow I knew something bad has happened to herBut I still had hope of her coming backSo id sit by the front door crying…Waiting for her to walk throughAnd me to be able to jump into her arms&he

Why I Haven't......
I haven't been rating the pics if people haven't had auto 11's on because I wasn't getting any points for it so I contacted support (A very good friend that works in support!) told me that I will eventually get the points so I will be getting to all yours soon that don't have 11's on thank you for being patient with me! :D

Life
This pain is just to real The things I feel and the things I need Are not here So every now and then I drop a tear I cant sleep I just seem to weep Im trying to forget those bad memories and those nightmares But they keep coming So I keep hiding. Nobody here is confiding So I keep crying remembering those nightmares My mother in heaven is sighing because im falling in her footsteps if there is a god I don't think he is a good god Because everything I wish for never comes true I wish I had some clue to y this happened to me Its just to real..

The Loners
The LonersThey travel through life alone. They exist alone. They are loners.They cry out that they are lonely, but deep down in their souls, they prefer it that way.They do not live alone. They have family. They do things with their family because they truly do love them. They do things with them also to keep their families from knowing what they are. They keep the few friends that they have at arms length.They want minimal outside human contact. They must leave their comfort zones at times, because they have needs that must be fed, but soon….. They must retreat back to their worlds. Are they afraid to not be alone? Are they afraid to love another? Are they afraid to trust? Are they afraid of true friendship?Are they afraid of true love?Are they afraid to share themselves?

So You're Hiring??
What exactly do lounges offer cam girls, greeters, ect? Why should we invest our time to it? I never figured out what the big hooplah is. Ooh, watch me type on cam! Plus I'm sure I'd get all kinds of morons demanding I take it off. :p

Pieces Of Shit
Nothing irks me more than a pathetic failure at life that tells me how awful and corrupt this country is, and how lucky I am to have been born in Russia. That scum wouldn't have lived a day in Russia, before gettin killed and dumped in the woods. Pathetic ignoramuses like that are what makes me tic. They have no idea what I lived through, including starvation and limited opportunities.

What Are Friends For?
FriendsFriends are there: To support youTo help youTo listen to youTo comfort youTo stick up for youTo talk to youTo do favors for youTo yell at you (when necessary)But they are also there for:You to support

Memories Of My Dad
Life has taken a drastic turn, your days are filled with heartaches,Tears and concern.The house may feel empty,You may search for something that you wish was still there.You know in your heart,That emptiness will always be there.It is our memories that keep them near.As each day goes by,It seems hopeless no matter how hard you try.You may find yourself listening,Hoping you hear.The sound of their voice so soft and clear.If you listen closely that hope you will hear,The memories are what get us through these many tears.Listen to the sound, the sound of angels dancing around.Though they aren't here upon the ground,It is because of them the laughter will soon be found.So listen closely, I say,All of the angels will together one day.When you sit there and hope to see,A glimpse of what life used to be.Dont' be said if it doesn't appear,It will be in the slightest breeze that I will.Gently kiss your cheek.It will be that memory to give you peace.If you find yourself starring up to the sky,It

Life Changing
At different times in your life you have life changing events. Some stronger than others, but affecting you and changing the direction of your life. I have had a wonderful life and when I least expected it, someone comes along and just grabs ahold of my heart and hangs on for dear life. I have found what love is all about again with a woman who means more to me than anyone who I have ever met. She loves me for who I am and who I will be. All that matters is our future together which is full of love for one another. She has opened up many suppressed feelings and emotions that were long since gone. You go through life sometimes aimlessly or actually thinking that you know where you are going. My course has changed from where I thought I would go. Kim, you have changed my life for the better. You have given me reasons to go forward in a new direction with my life and want it to be with you. I love you with all of my heart and soul. I thank you for what you have brought to my life. I

The Fall
It happens so slowly that it isn't even noticeable at first;brightness fades,colors dull,personality dies,sound minimizes,activity lessens,andwarmth leaves.Until eventually;there is almost constant darkness,everything is monochromatic,the shell is empty,sound is barely audible,activity is halted ,andthere is only coldness......Fall has become

Real
This is something i need to get off my chest and I am gonna be real with everyone on here so just sit back and listen to wat I have to say. Ok for everyone on here that says I only want to be with u and u only be real I played the same game but looking for someone who is real.I think I found the real one but Idk things get shadey after a while. So if u got someone on here make sure its real and not fake cause a broken heart is not a good feeling trust me I know . KK

Happy
Life is so damn good right now. I am loving it. Life is a lot like a book. You're born and each year you get older but also that year is a story of your life. For each year that is a chapter in your book. As you grow, and get older not only are you taught but you learn lessons, make memories, meet people, you love, and loose people and so much more. You can't write your life as you would a book, you just have to live and try be happy as you do it. Hope for a happy ending. Now I will be the first to admit not all the chapters in life I like, hell I would love to forget a few, but we all would. Really if we did that, it could change things as they are. You may not have what you got. For all those that know me, and what I have been though understands this blog. All my fights in my life, the lose of my daughter have brought me to this point. Not only have I learned to love and live again, I have found love again. Never thought I would be happy, but damn I am. I smile all the time, an

Why Do We Base Our Self Worth On What We Can Do Or Be For Others?
Maybe I am alone in this thought (and if I am, I apologize for generalizing), but it seems everytime I try to see how far I have come in my life, I look at what I am able to do for my friends and family or what I have done for them. I think of how valuable I am to others to measure how good of a person I am and what more I could do. Why don't we take self worth for what it really is?........ what we are worth to ourselves.

Fallen
Title: Fallen By: Detox Disturbing thoughtsImages of the world Cold and distraughtPictures painted of a world now blackUnknownA spiteful attackThe world desolateEmpty as can beStreets littered with the dead,And debrisShadows dance in broad daylightArmageddon approaches,Nearing sightIt's darkDay turns nightNothing leftNo birds, No treesNot even you Not even meIgnorant to the fate we cannot seeFallen,This crown of misery

Prego?
So, I found out that my little sister is pregnant. I am so unbelievabled pissed at her, and I know that won't help her out right now at all. Apparently, her and my mom have known for almost 4 weeks now. She couldn't even tell me herself, she had to have my mom tell me, at like 5 a.m. today when I was heading to bed. So far, only her, my mom, my mom's sister, and my mom's mom know besides me. Apaprently, I have been giving the job of letting one of our other sister's know. I have been trying to tell my sister since last summer she was going to fuck up her life. Now she is having a baby, with a wigger boy, who dropped out of high school. Oh, yeah and she doesn't want to go to college now. I wish my dad were here. If he was still alive, none of this shit would have ever happened. Oh yeah. Might as well add in she is getting 6 months probation for trying to steal from Kmart. Jesus Fucking Christ.

Creativity In A Can...
OK, Supplies are ordered, stencils are in the making... yeah baby lets breathe some aeresol (cough-wheeze). Can't wait to start & have so many pieces I want to do. The static list: Jerry GarciaJim MorrisonBob DylanBob MarleyJimi HendrixMarilyn MonroeRolling Stones TongueBettie PageLucille BallThe Three StoogesMarilyn MansonAlice CooperOzzy OsbourneBillie HolidaySammy Davis Jr.Louis ArmstrongBB King w/ LucilleKurt CobainElvisBetty BoopMickey MouseThe Blues BrothersHerman MunsterEinstein

One Before Bed...
Promise you won't lie?sure. Is there anything currently hurting on your body?my back is aching and has been for quite awhile What's the last song you sang along to with a friend?that would be before my best friend stef left for jersey... it was a hip hop song but i cant remember which tho... Have you kissed anyone in the past 5 days?absolutely How old were you when you stopped sleeping with a night-light?as pathetic as this sounds i still do.... Last person you gave a hug to?my babies Whose car did you ride in last?my own Last person you shared food with?dinner with a friend/neighbor friday evening Ever kissed someone with blue eyes?yes Who was the last person that made you cry?my husband indirectly Was the last person you flipped off someone you knew?i cant remember flipping anyone off in quite awhile, atleast not out of spite Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?i use to... but i grew up and have to come realize alot of things, especially on why people cheat, bu

In Memory Of My Dad My Hero 2/4/54-1/13/05
I sit here and pander,My mind starts to wander.It is you that i see,You're smiling face, loving arms,They are right there to embrace me.It is you're loving voice that I hear,It is there to comfort me.In this I feel you are and always will be,My True Dear Friend.It is thoughts of you that I think of day and night.It is you that gives me hope to wake up with the morning light.It is all of you're guidance that has helped me through,It is all of you're guidance so warm and true.Why have you been given this awful fate,Why did it have to be a moment too late.It is your strength to help me cope,Yet there is no hope.When that hope is gone,We have to still live on.In this sadness i find,That it is you're love and support to help me on my way.In this sadness I still know, you are and always will be,MY TRUE DEAR FRIEND.You are the breathe I take,You are the light that shines when I wake.You are the peak at the top of that mountain top i must climb.You are the one that i will find,When it has beco

Long Day...
Been a long day at work today. Hate waking up at 4 am.. a hour earlier than i should get up. Was a good day..considering it was tuesday. We usually get slammed with admits. Was a bad day though..due toa patient passing away. I feel so bad for his family..especially his wife. To be married that long..and still in love.. has to be rough on her. I am so glad that I do not have to deal with that , as in taking care of the patient..and that happening.. dealing with the family and all. I do to some extent but not as much as the nurse had to. I am so lost for words over death. Never been one able to handle it to well.

Let Me (wip) 2.0
Every broken promise like shards of broken glass under my skin I pray the day will come when I will hear your voice again… Until one day it dawns on me the truth you kept behind your eyes The truth that you never loved me, how could I fall for your cold lies? Do you think of me when you’re sad? Do you still wish that I was there? So many thoughts of you I’ve had seems more than I can ever bear So now I'll thank you my darling, for you have finally set me free It'll be your name upon my lips

High-speed Sex Costly In Norway
A man faces a hefty fine and a driving ban after being caught having sex with his girlfriend while speeding on a motorway in Norway, police have said. Officers initially trailed the couple's car after noticing it was swerving from side to side and travelling at 33km/h (20mph) over the road's speed limit. But they soon realised the erratic driving was due to the woman "sitting on the man's lap", a spokesman said. After filming the exploit for evidence, they pulled them over at a rest area. The 28-year-old man's punishment will be decided within the next week, but police said he was likely to face a fine of several thousand Norwegian kroner and a lengthy driving ban. "Why they did it on a highway with such a high risk we don't know," Tor Stein Hagen, a superintendent with Soendre Buskerud Police District, told the AFP news agency. "[The vehicle] was veering from one side to the other because the woman was sitting on the man's lap while he was driving and doing the act, shall we s

He Only Took My Hand...
Last night while I was trying to sleep My friend's voice I did hear I opened my eyes and looked around But he did not appear. He said: Tammie you've got to listen You've got to understnad God didn't take me from you, my friend He only took my hand. When I called out in pain that night, The instant that I died, He reached down and took my hand, And pulled me to His side. He pulled me up and saved me From the misery and pain. My body was hurt so badly inside, I could never be the same. My search is really over now,

My Bros Or My Job.
So.. my super at work blowin me up to the other formen... Tellin them. Don't worry I'll have Ben come clean up your mess.. Alot of the guys I work with are bros. Their gettin mad at me for this shit.. So I ask if your not doing your job is that my fault.. I'm no captin save a hoe.. I'm not gonna cover your ass. I was on a confrence all for 45 min over this shit.. I love my job alot.. my freinds are cool.. they don't feed my kids I do. Should I talk to the super and ask him to stop or have the bros step up and take care of shit?

Unrecognized
peaceful deafening sign of hope sign of doom life-giver destroyer of homes pleasant terrifying how can you be one thing and yet all of these things at once? water-one of the unrecognized wonders of the world

Missing You.....
Tears keep falling though its been two years. My heart is calling for a chance to know your fears. They say memories fade over periods of time. But I still see the color of jade and remember your eyes gazing in mine. Parts of my life halted the moment frozen in time. My moments with you exhaulted to know that for too short a time you were mine. Your life was ripped from my arms too fast. Some days I can not get a grip and remeber that what you were is in the past. I knew you longer and better than anybody whos life you touched. Your touch as light as a feather your smile as bright as a gold hutch. Though I'm told the memories will fade and you have already done your part. In no time at all you were made to be the biggest hole in my heart.

Friends........
dirt in the ground is what I needI got another one to tell youand another one to make you believepity in the grass tried to bethe one you needed when I told youthat you wanted something bigger than meI've got friends in all the right placesI know what they wantand I know they don't want me to stayI said that I've got friends in all the right placesI know what they wantand I know they don't want me to stay'cause you are not alivewhen I need youI need it quicklyin case you never knowI can't play where I'm not supposed to anywaydirt in the ground is what I seeI need another reason whyI need another reason, tell me to breathethe dirtier the sound, the best I breatheI tried to do it all for youit didn't do anything for me'cause I've got friends in all the right placesI know what they wantand I know they don't want me to stayI've got friends in all the right placesI know what they wantand I know they don't want me to stayand you and I will findthat when I need youI need it quicklyin fact, yo

Looking For An Erotic Artist
I am persuing a erotic artist who can illustrate a book that I am compliling. I just need about four or five pics drawn in black and white of a symbolic scene from just as many stories. If you think you are talented enough to mak some drawings let me know. Unfortunately I cannot pay you but you will receive a free copy of the book for your portfolio to show to some in the future who can pay you. Please contact me by private message here on Fubar. Thanks, 36d hugs, Ms. Cleavage

Update To "project Peanut"
Joey is now just over 7 months old. (7 months, 10 days)Here's the latest update to "Project Peanut". I have surprisingly kept up quite well with this project. I originally thought I'd slack off after a couple of months, but I haven't! Yay me!!!!Out of Pocket: Carol: $3,280.33 Thom: $610.00 Others: $675.00 Total: $4,565.33 Medical Billed: $34,302.46(of which $479.30 was paid by Carol [included in amounts above], restpaid by insurance)

Hunting! Written Awhile Ago But What Do You Have To Say On The Subject?
Today a rude comment was made to me at work. I was talking about one of my pets and a coworker said to me "How can you call yourself an animal lover when you plan to try and go kill some soon?" If I hadn't been so shocked by their ignorance, I probably would have been hurt. I AM an animal lover and although it may seem as an oxymoron to some, it makes perfect sense to me. So, I felt as though I would put some of MY thoughts and feelings down about this topic and see what others think. First and foremost, allow me to reiterate that I am indeed an animal lover. My entire life, I have had one pet or another - from cats and dogs to tree frogs and snakes. I've had birds and ferrets, gerbils and turtles. In fact, I have two tattoos, one of a sea turtle and one of a tree frog. Not only did I own these pets, I took good care of them and treated them with love and respect. I take a strong stance against animal abuse and I volunteer at the local animal shelter. There is a picture that my paren

I Have Such Great Luck...
Yaaaaaaaaaay!!! The backlight on my laptop went out, Im at my moms right now. I just thought Id let people know cuz chances are I wont be on for a bit unless I check from a friends or go to my moms