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M. H.
When I close my eyes Your smile is what I see Your sparkling eyes I hear your laugh Your voice in my ear Soft and sweet You cared so much Never letting me forget But now All those things They are mere phantoms I cant bring myself To face them But I cant let them go either My heart shattered that day And I just keep cutting myself Trying to pick up the shards I know I must But I don’t know how I cant seem to Get past this Cant pull myself together I fear I may Be eternally broken

Ludacris Feat Mary J Blige " Runaway Love"
Not really feeling this song today but when It came out the part with my name Erica in it, is and was me.... so u know... lettin ya in my mind through music today yall I ran away at 15 and was beat into a gang Folk when I was 15 also ... was a rebellious kid tomboy and tough raised by 2 alcoholic parents...lived here and there when I was younger also..so ya know each blog will reveal more about me as I reminise and find songs that tell a little about me LudacrisRunaway Love Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Runaway Love lyrics Songwriters: Jones, Jamal; Bridges, Christopher; Walters, R; Hilson, Keri Lyn; Davis, Douglas; Yeah and it go a little somethin' like this Yeah and it go a little somethin' like this Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Runaway love, runaway love Now little Lisa's only nine years old She's tryin' to figure out why the world is so cold Why she's all alone and they never m

For You...
Tormented All these thoughts Constantly streaming Creating a longing Deep in my soul Desperately wanting Something That may never be Wondering how I could have been So very blind My past Haunts me Wishing For just a moment In your arms Knowing within The pain I Have caused All those things I cant take back Crying For the love I know ive lost

Ratings/comments Contest..help Me
HEY LADIES AND GENTS.... I'm in a rating/comments contest that runs until April 17th. The concept is easy. Rate and comment and each rating or comment equals a point. Please help me!!! Love on me because you know I like it COL MUAH

Anthony Hamilton "coming From Where I'm From"
JUST FEELIN THIS SONG TODAY THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE IN BLOGS TODAY HOW I FEEL THROUGH SOME SELECTIVE SONGS Anthony HamiltonComin' From Where I'm From Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com Hmmmm sitting here guess I didn't make bail got time and a story to tell it started when I was nine years old woke up my daddy was gone I started hustlin they couldn't tell me nothing, frontin in the hood trying to be somebody,my soul was on empty I was searching for somethig, trying to be good, trying to keep from trouble, living to fast, trying to make good for my hustle (chorus) sometimes it gets rough (coming from where I'm from I'm from)times get hard yeah (coming from where I'm from I'm from) Sometimes you gotta walk to work yeah (coming from where I'm from I'm from) sometimes you gotta do a little dirt (coming from where I'm from I'm from) wasn't really looking guess I found it 5 foot 3 light brown skin, coming from the university nice style looking kinda upbeat,

What The Fvck?????????
Dudeeeeeeeeee I don't get it!!!!!!!! You let people in and out of your life that sometimes you get so freaking confused on why you either let them in or why you let them go..... Then you have certin people you want desperatly in your life but you let them go cause it's just not time and You think Ok that person is comeing around, then you don't hear from them again for a few days.. When you do it's all I miss you so much Blah blab blah.. You know the normal BS guy's like to spew out thier mouths, I want 1 guy to NOT lie to me, I don't get what that is so freaking hard to do.... I venting, it's been a really strange week.........

Here Is My Attempt.
Today you make me the happiest man, because in marriage, you give me your hand. I promise to love you for all of my days, until death do us part, still a long time away. I vow to you now in front of family and friends, I'll stay beside you, through thick and through thin. You mean more to me, than my own life My lover, my friend, my faithful wife. Only a lucky few find true love twice in their lives. I can now say that I am one of those few, Because you've said the two greatest words to me...I Do. So now I'll repeat them to you, my love so true. To everything asked of me, I say I Do

Pain........
Ok I am in alot of pain and trying to keep up here I dont know if i will be on much more it is really killing me I am to the point that i was B4 and it sucks I hope I dont have to have Surgery again...Omg just venting and in alot of pain!!!

Who
That alarm clock cannot defend itself As water cannot walk on land Stars cannot fall to earth I cannot walk in space. We are all and we are none. The object rings The element splashes The energy shines The human laughs We are all and we are none. The object breaks. The element freezes The energy fades The human dies. We are all and we are none.

So Busy These Dasy
seems like I never have enough time in my day these days...... I have been very busy these last few weeks. Last weekend my hubby and I went on a MUCH needed vacation. We went to Virginia for a HotWheels show. He is really into his toy cars and I really needed to get away. He did very well and placed second with one of his cars. I went for the hot tub!! It was wonderful and so relaxing. Of course he drank way too much and came stumbling in the room one night. I, on the other hand, just nursed a bottle of water. I just don't get into drinking. I did just relax and hang out in the room more and I really enjoyed that! (I know I am a homebody!!) Since returning home I have been busy with one thing or another around here. Besides playing the part of MOM.....I have choir practice 2-3 times this week for a musical I am in on Sunday and I am team captain for a team for the American Cancer Society Relay for Life...I am also the committee chairperson for Mission and Advocacy for t

You Have No Idea .....
I have never been a truely stupid person ... at times I challenged the line between stupid and mildly intellegent.( i actually have a genius level IQ nearbouts loll ) With men in my life it was always frustrating and always an epic fail in one way or another ... Still being the eternal optimist i would continue to wait ... test the waters ... That being said ... I love a man so much it hurts ... i am patient with him.... he was battered by someone who used him and played with his heart... some days all i want to do is take his pain (or severly kick her ass all too hell )....... he says no ... he learns from it........... i will stay with this man thru whatever comes along ... i am committed in a way i have never committed before...... Have i finally found the man that makes me shiver with a whisper .... yes i wear his collar....and it calms me ....i feel total trust and have no doubts he loves me and would protect me as i would him... He is the Man- the Father-the Lover- the

Internal Elegance
INTERNAL ELEGANCE "Love is the nature of life, beauty is the outcome of life, harmony is the means by which life accomplishes its purpose, and the lack of it results in destruction. When we reflect upon this whole creation we cannot but see that its purpose is to express an ideal of love, harmony and beauty. Love could not have manifested itself if there were nothing to love, eyes could not have seen if there were nothing to see. What could love have done if there were no beauty? Love would have been silent." Hazrat Inayat Khan Do you find yourself, from time to time, wishing to express something but knowing that the words will fall on deaf ears? Not deaf exactly, but ears that are not yet ready to hear what you wish to express. If this happens to you then you also are probably struggling with whether or not it makes you somewhat superior to those whom you realize will not hear. It is often an effort to avoid feeling this. And, more often than not, I suspect that you may co

Vows 1
As most of you guys know that Craven and I plan to wed in August of this year. I would prefer to write my own vows. Please let me know what you think of this one.. At last the day has finally come when I can say my dreams have come true. After many nights of getting down on my knees, my prayers have brought me you. My search is finally over, and the journey of loving you I will now pursue. I can't think of any better way to say I love you, except to say...I Do. Though we walk to the alter separately, we leave together as one. To build a happy future around the miracle that He has done. I'm thankful for everything that you have given me, and together we'll make a brand new start. Staying together as long as we live, only in death we do part. As I stand here before you, and I say to you here and now. As God is my witness, I Do promise to keep every word of each vow. I wish this moment could last for ever, It's almost hard to believe It's true. And with this kiss, I'm in

The Secret Of Poetry
When I am lonely, I think of death. When I think of death...I'm lonely I suppose this error will continue. I'll walk into each grey morning, delighted by the frost that is death, and the trees that stand alone, in it's mists. When I thought I'd met my true love I was lonely. But it was the love in her body that was lonely. That error went on & on. Mornin's I would kiss her cold lips, devoid of altruistic passion. But the nights...the nights, her body dripping with those mists. This is the error that fascinates. I suppose too, you are secretly lonely. Thinkin' of death, thinkin' of love I'd like please, to leave a flower on your window. Just one cold flower, whose beauty Will leave you inconsolable all day. The secret of poetry is cruelty.

And If
You are my sunshine, My light at the beginning of everyday. You are my longing breath, The exhale I so deeply crave. You are the moon in my sky, The shining in my vacant darkness. You are the softness in a whisper, That keeps harshness at a distance. You are my compass at sea, Whenever I am lost, you are my North. My body reaches for your touch, You are my feeling and emotion. If a flower was to be, You would be the fragrance. If a clown was to laugh, You would be the smile. If a bird was to sing, You would be that song. And if a sunset could blossom, You would be the vibrant color. You are my longing day, That keeps me from persisting night. You are my sweet in chocolate, That melts in my mouth and not in my hands. And my trust in you is strong, Like the ancient mountains that still stand. The stars in the sky belong to you, In the mere blackness you are radiant light. You are the joy at tearfall, Where every moment counts. You are my lake of calmness

I Need Some Advice
I am the best of friends with a woman named Brenda and she is both in the same area as me and on fubar as well. Brenda started talking to this guy whos screen name on fubar is simply " GRIM REAPER " and she allowed him to come over and say hello. She even had me come over to her house to make sure that everything went smoothly. Anyhow, this guy talked her ear off and after a short while started following her around like a stray or lost puppy. She started getting freaked out and so after he left she told me that she didnt really like him he made her uncomfortable. I confronted him and he said that he couldnt help himself that Brenda made him feel things that he hadnt felt before and he felt strongly for her. THIS WAS ONLY AFTER MEETING HER ONE TIME...!!! I told him of and both me and Brenda both blocked him and since then we have had to block him three more ties because he makes a new name and either views or makes comments to one of us or both. We have tried to keep ignoring him but he

Where Do I Stand...
do i stand beside you do i stand behind you do i stand with you do i stand against you i want to stand beside you everyday i want to stand behind you when scared i want to stand with you in life i want to stand against when i need too

At Times
at times i feel so closed in at times i feel so empty at times i feel like im lost at times i dont feel at all my heart is fragile my heart does break my heart is open to real love my heart is closed to being hurt my feeling are mine my feeling are true my feeling may change my feeling are my feeling my heart can be mended over time my heart will mend my heart will find true love my heart wlll open if loved i understand my feelings i understand my heart i hope in time you shall understand these things of mine for if you do they shall be yours yet if you break my heart yet if you hurt my feelings i shall mend i shall feel again i shall leave i shall disappear

Wat You Said
you said ...i love you you said....i need you you said ...i want you you said ...i cant live with out you but it feels like you ment ... i love the way i want you to be i need you to be what i want you to be i want you to be who i want you to be i can live with out you if you are who you are why can you not say what you mean why can you not see me for who i am why can you not want me for who i am why can you not just let me live

Catching Wild Pigs
A chemistry professor in a large college had some exchange students in the class. One day while the class was in the lab the Professor noticed one young man (exchange student) who kept rubbing his back, and stretching as if his back hurt. The professor asked the young man what was the matter. The student told him he had a bullet lodged in his back. He had been shot while fighting communists in his native country who were trying to overthrow his country's government and install a new communist government. In the midst of his story he looked at the professor and asked a strange question. He asked, 'Do you know how to catch wild pigs?' The professor thought it was a joke and asked for the punch line. The young man said this was no joke. 'You catch wild pigs by finding a suitable place in the woods and putting corn on the ground. The pigs find it and begin to come everyday to eat the free corn. When they are used to coming every day, you put a fence down one side of the place w

Help
If you know anyone who would be interested, please pass this on. Brand new set of 4 Incubus wheels and Good Year Wrangler tires. 245/75/16. I am asking 2K or OBO. These have never been on a vehicle so they are brand new.

Hmhm
I said if we never get a chance to be together go with Jah,Jamie loves ya, wha me seh? It's a pity you already have a Man and me done have a Women inna mi life rudeGirl it's such a pity I woulda like one of these mornings to wake up and find your face on a pillow lying right next to mine I woulda cut out the partying the smoking and the rum and buss a extra wine and make we seal up a son well everytime mi fantasize me see your lips me see your eyes Your trigger finger do something a lef the rudeboy hypnotized For you it's just a thing, just another little fling But for me this is Heaven and the angel them a sing Fi buck you up inna public and cant even touch It really fuck me up because me check fi you so much The respect weh mi have fi your woman fi your kids believe me rudeGirl mi criss, a nuh matey this who knows? maybe one day the world will be evolved enough we'll share you in a civilized manner between the two of us But until then I woulda love see you again,

If I Were A Boy
If I Were A Boy - BeyonceIf I were a boy Even just for a day I’d roll out of bed in the morning And throw on what I wanted and go Drink beer with the guys And chase after girls I’d kick it with who I wanted And I’d never get confronted for it Because they’d stick up for me If I were a boy I think I could understand How it feels to love a girl I swear I’d be a better man I’d listen to her Cause I know how it hurts When you lose the one you wanted Cause he’s taken you for granted And everything you had got destroyed If I were a boy I would turn off my phone Tell everyone its broken So they think that I was sleeping alone I’d put myself first And make the rules as I go Cause I know that she’d be faithful Waiting for me to come home (to come home) If I were a boy I think I could understand How it feels to love a girl I swear I’d be a better man I’d listen to her Cause I know how it hurts When you

Politics
Obama funds $20M tax payer dollars to immigrate Hamas Refugees to the USA This is the news that didn't make the headlines... By executive order, President Barack Obama has ordered the expenditure of $20.3 million in migration assistance to the Palestinian refugees and conflict victims in Gaza . The "presidential determination" which allows hundreds of thousands of Palestinians with ties to Hamas to resettle in the United States was signed on January 27 and appeared in the Federal Register on February 4th. Few on Capitol Hill took note that the order provides a free ticket replete with housing and food allowances to individuals who have displayed their overwhelming support of the Islamic Resistance Movement (Hamas) in the parliamentary election of January 2006. A review of Barack Obama's most recent actions since he was inaugurated a little more than two months ago: His first call to any head of state as president was to Mahmoud Abbas, leader of F

Time Warner To Alter Fee...bastids!
Time Warner to alter fee for Road Runner KATE PERRY • STAFF WRITER • APRIL 2, 2009 Read Comments(20) Recommend Print this pageE-mail this articleShare The days of flat-fee Internet charges are dwindling if your provider is Time Warner Cable. Prepare to pay by the gig. Starting this summer, the company will ask customers to review their usage and pick a plan from 5 gigabytes to 100 gigabytes. If customers use more gigs than their plan allows, they'll have to pay overages. The new billing system will roll out this fall. The 5-gigabyte plan will start at about $29.95 a month, Time Warner spokesman Alex Dudley said Wednesday. A majority of Time Warner's customers currently have the standard tier plan, which costs about $49.99. The soon-to-come 20-gigabyte plan will cost about the same and allow customers similar Internet usage. The new payment plan will be more equitable, Dudley said. Now, a small portion of customers use a massive amount of the company's bandwidth —

Boring Flight
Bored during a long flight, an eminent scholar leaned over and woke up the sleeping man next to him to ask if he would like to play a game. "I'll ask you a question," the scholar explained, "and if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5. Then you ask me a question, and if I don't know the answer, I'll pay you $50." When the man agreed to play, the scholar asked, "What's the distance from the earth to the moon?" Flummoxed, the man handed him $5. "Ha!" said the scholar. "It's 238,857 miles. Now it's your turn." The man was silent for a few moments. Then he asked, "What goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four?" Puzzled, the scholar racked his brains for an hour--but to no avail. Finally he took out his wallet and handed over $50. "Okay, okay, what is the answer?" the scholar asked. The man said, "I don't know," pulled out a $5 bill, handed it to the scholar, and went back to sleep.

He's A Turd!
**Congratulations!!!** Today's spotlight winner is a great guy. For reasons I'm NOT going to get into, I can't post a picture link to his profile. Just know that he deserves every amount of Fu-Love he gets. Rates/Fans/Adds/Blings. So PLEASE go show him some love!!! Whoremaster

"rabid Squirrels" !!! --
Everybody here? Okay - If you didn't hear that it's not my fault. The 'Worm' was not my fault - Last night I was NOT on Fubar for the first time in many nights. I 'cleaned' house and watched the tube - when I heard it was morning and no virus had eaten Australia - yep - I started composing this 'Blog' in my head. . . *Special 'Hey' to my new (angry) friends overseas* O.K. - I may have over-reacted a teeny bit. . . But I woke up some folks and I learned how to blast a 'Blog' to everybody with a PC. . . - No good, huh? Well, there could be a virus - and you could get it someday and ___ O.K. - Line up here - this is where you can insult me; give me a piece of your mind, call me names - What? need help getting started - Ooh, how about - 'Old Woman' - 'Paul Revere' - or that good old standby - 'Chicken Little'. . . *And hey; if you ever want to show your friends a 'horses ass', just show 'em one of my photos. - Have you heard about this

Cell Phone Trick
Cell Phone Trick Here goes nothin... am not sure if it will work Lets just see shall we....... Don't know about the wish, but i got a text when i got to the bottom . . . coincidence? -- DeAnna Holy smokes, after i read this my boy mike called me....Sammii ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Mine did it tooo!!!!! - Bryan WOW EEEE!!!2@@@ ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Didn't work yet but I had a hell of a wish -------------------------------------------------------------------- My phone did to!! =l -------------------------------------------------------------------- My phone rang while I was reading this shit my phone rang too ---------------------------------------------------------------------- hOLY MoLy, mY cell phone RANG!!!!! ahHHHHHH -------------------------------------------------------------------- I hate chain letters, but my phone rang and it freaked me out Collin ---------------

Drinking
A lot of people are completely shocked by the fact that I am from Russia, and do not drink (beer on a rare occasion). The truth is, my last time when I was obliterated to hell was 14 years ago, when I was 13 and chugged down a half a bottle of bad Russian vodka. It did not end well, and it took 4 guys ti prevent me from stabbing them with a metal broomstick. However, thats not the reason why I don't drink. Growing up in Moscow during not so good times, I remember the filth the country was drowning in. Drinking was a national past time because of a shitty life-at work, at home, at school. I remember walking home past the liquor kiosks, seeing corpse like creatures with red faces and soiled clothes lay on the ground, completely passed out. I remember coming up the stairs in a pitch black darkness (because the alkies would steal lamp bulbs and sell them for vodka), trying to feel my next step just to plant my foot onto someone laying there. Or having to step over a zombie-like th

Really?
How can you be so wrong? I call you out for being a fucking idiot for using the word “nigger” and you tell me that I am a bitch for doing so? Who are you? Then you tell me that I am saying it’s ok for one race of people to use a disrespectful and fucking historically abominable term like that but not another? You get in my face saying this… Brad. But no I didn’t fucking say that because I don’t agree with either ignorant side. You get in my face and ask me if I am even black… Do I have to have a reason for calling you out for being completely ethically WRONG? But YES actually I AM black. I fucking hate you goddamned idiot fucks. I try to help you by educating you on why what you are saying is just insensitive and incorrect that makes me a horrible bitch from hell. I actually ended up being a total bitch and calling his friends fat clones because they all dress like these fuck asses I knew when I was 16, when they were obsessed with being “hard core” and “straight edge” and w

So Pissed..just Venting
Ok...so when you become friends with a individual..the one thing most people look for or expect is honesty and trust. And when one or both are broken, for me it's almost impossible to get either back. That is just who I am and something that will never change. So this individual pretty much broke my trust in him/her by telling me one night on the phone that I was a bitch, cunt, whore, blah blah... Of which I know that yes.. I really can be a bitch when pissed off or accused of something I am so not...like a whore...LMFAO...if dating 2 men and being in 2 very long term relationships in my 38 yrs is being a whore... DAMN...I hate to think what women are called that fuck anything with a dick... (Oh yeh..drunk was the excuse...and oh... I really like you and it bothers me when u talk to other people online) NICE excuse. NOT. I forgave this individual once...and was told next time...sorry...you lose a friend. Well, happened again tonight. And Im soooo done with that bullchit... Needl

Hrmm..
ok.. so people spend there entire lives looking for that somebody to make them complete.. why? personally.. i want somebody to make me want to do better in my life.. someone to build me up and be my rock. I want somebody that is a part of me but doesnt complete me. I dont want to be completed. I want to be whole. I dont want to need anybody.. needing somebody is like needing cough syrup. Nobody wants cough syrup but they have to have it to feel better. i want to want somebody.. like a cheeseburger.. sometimes you just HAVE to have that cheeseburger.. you feel like it would just make your day if you had that cheeseburger. best way i can put it into words. well what then after that happens.. what do you do. Love isnt always a feeling you have.. sometimes on some days, you dont feel anything.. but you make a DECISION to still WANT them anyways. You make yourself love them on the days your mad or upset.. because you want them in your life....

Yeah Thats Right The Wang Is Comin
TONIGHT..10PM HIS TIME!!!...THE 2ND OF APRIL......THE DRAGON...WILL SHOW HIS DRAGON--WANG!!!! IM WILLING TO SHOW MY WANG FOR BLING!!! BLING,CHERRY BOMBS,AUTOS!!!! AND I WILL SHOW MY WANG TO YOU PERSONALLY!!! BE THERE OR BE SQUARE DONT BE TOLD ABOUT IT!!! LIVE IT!!! DGETODRAGON FLASHES WANG FOR BLING,CHERRY BOMBS,AUTOS!!!! PM THE DRAGON AND YOUR REQUEST SHALL BE GRANTED!!!!

Poem
Love at First Sight by Wislawa Szymborska They both thought that a sudden feeling had united them This certainty is beautiful, Even more beautiful than uncertainty. They thought they didn't know each other, nothing had ever happened between them, These streets, these stairs, this corridors, Where they could have met so long ago? I would like to ask them, if they can remember - perhaps in a revolving door face to face one day? A "sorry" in the crowd? "Wrong number" on the 'phone? - but I know the answer. No, they don't remember. How surprised they would be For such a long time already Fate has been playing with them. Not quite yet ready to change into destiny, which brings them nearer and yet further, cutting their path and stifling a laugh, escaping ever further; There were signs, indications, undecipherable, what does in matter. Three years ago, perhaps or even last Tuesday, this leaf flying from one shoulder to another? Something lost and

Ok...1 More. Steph Posted It On Ms
Would you change for the person you're in love with? Never again A lyric from the song you're listening to? Not listening to music Have you done something bad today? Yepper What makes you happy most of the time? My fu friends Do you have any siblings? 3 older brothers and a younger sister What did you do last night? Uploade more cruise pictures Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours? Nope Where’s your phone right now? Right here What are you doing tomorrow? Working What are your plans for the weekend? Gonna help my sister sell all of her bastard's things Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes? Yes Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? Night...too lazy in the morning Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes Are you ashamed of your past? No Are you wearing a necklace? Yepper, a double heart Do you have a reason to smile right now? Yes. I have great friends Think back to M

Hey
hey all, sorry that i haven't used this in ages i have been busy, im mainly on here tracking down a good friend i lost contact with for a long while i hope she is still about. not much happenin with me i m now a qualified nurse and i have a man in my life he treats me well. ahwell better run take care all i will try to get on here much more as i can love trilly

Four
Hubby and I just watched a Russian movie "Four", and I dont think he will ever be the same. I warned him about Eastern Euro movies that involve village life, but... Basically, there were some great nude shots of triplets with huge tits(like ANY Russian movie), but I think scenes of 90 year old naked women making out with each other while while drinkin gallons of moonshine and eating raw pig head were a little too much for him to bear... Perfect for anyone with a bestiality/geriatric fetish, this is available on Netflix (vomit)

Why She Got To Be A Ho?!
There is nothing like a woman who can not be happy with just one man. What makes it better is when she destroy's a mans heart in order to do it. All for her own selfish, self centered needs.. You give everything you have to make her happy and you get taken for granted, played, used, and abused. Yet you still love the woman? something is just not right about that. Part of you just doesn't care anymore and yet there is still that other part that does. Only to have her consistantly rub salt on your wounded heart to make it worse. So, why would you continue to need a woman like that, knowing that there is a woman out there that will treat you better, love you more, and would love to have you? I mean come on! I am the best damned man that i know! lmao.. seriously though. I am a good man who has just been abused and left for dead for 6yrs with a woman that still lives with me. We are even still married and she wants me to still have sex with her while she has atleast 2 bf's?!

The Muffin Man....man Back @u~!
hey hey.,,,..its the muffin man....vs the k clucks klan....or them hippies in the mini van.,..i like the fools day, its a always gots some cool ways...i like to do the hip flop..buggin M man...he's got brown bags and shit cop..i mean pig./..how bout a seat on the roid rig n not a tack...got that gay knot c teacher with that ronny dildo x/l pack...sell z oldies hippie crack. or a browny snack. with a little extra april first trick. some sprinkle of ronny dildo slick.,, all on it...call nine eleven on your ass....tell em he burning rubber on z dildo fast....quick ..//dildo fuking Z homo../i like bizz V snatch.... a woman with humor...one you uses a wax patch.....an none of the buck wheat n mold E toe nails//...buckets of weed//roll n sell///roll n sell..smoke it to hear the hell bell.,...0 did you here that.. just kidding.. its april fools day... its not that im sooooo cool ayy.,.yeah im canadian....this old dude would hate me for this his names fay bee enn...i like buggin old people spe

Heading To Gator Country
Tonight is my last night of work for a while, I'm heading down to Florida Friday morning and I won't be back til Wednesday, and I doubt if I'll be online at all. I'm going down to Ocala area to attend a wedding (little Cousin Sara, all growed up!!). Of course since I'll be so close, I'm going to go visit the Don Garlits Drag Racing Museum. Yay. I'll catch up with everyone when I get back until then I wish you all the best. *MUAH* (Enjoy some Hatchet while I'm gone..)

It's A Long One...sue Me
Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail? My daddy Who are all the texts in your inbox from? Myself...lol I sent a bunch of cruise pictures to my phone How's your day going so far? It sucked most of the day. Looking great tonight. Hugs to you What did you eat last? Wow, Rice-a-Roni for lunch Does the last person you held hands with mean anything? It was Simon Jacob, so yep Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? Yes...the first 7 years were good though When was the last time something bothered you? Last week Who was the last friend in your house? Kim Are you drifting away from someone you were close with? Yes, my husband Anything you're giving up on? Love Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? Probably Have you ever broken someone's heart? Probably Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? Yepper. I want a po

Mind Sex
Sit back and relax your mind As are thoughts become intertwine Addicted to your intellect Beginning to pick your brain As insane as that may sound I’m more attracted and aroused By are deep conversations As we lay on the bed Talking about the past And the future that lies ahead For others talks about Religion and Government might be a bit much but to us it feels better then Just sweating up the sheets Because physically you got me Mentally you feel me Sexually you please me But intellectually you read me And remind me that there’s many ways to climax The orgasmic feeling that comes over me when we connect On a different level As the sun makes it way around the earth We have given birth to future conversations As I’m patiently waiting to get back inside your beautiful psyche An open invitation Hoping that you will except Going another round with me as we Have mind sex

New Found
new found hope and desire you did not ruin me you did not break me you couldnt even if id let you because i always knew you would leave maybe not right away but eventually you would now your gone and thinking to yourself "oh god what have i done? how could this have happened?" and im here saying "you lost the best thing you ever had and now you cant get it back"

Auctioning 4 Cherry Bombs
rules for drawing are as follows: STARTS 5PM EASTERN TINE AND ENDS AT 5PM EASTERN TIME SUNDAY if you are bidding on the cherry bombs private message me with your bid. bombers and blingers i get a message from fubar profile raters must f/r/a me and comment at the end of each profile pic that they rated this folder private message me telling me you rated my entire profile. only ppl who comment the last pic and pm me will be entered into the drawing. thank you and have fun i will message the winners of the highest bids and once i get the fubucks i will award the bomb during the next happy hour the winner of the drawing will be awarding during the next happy hour good luck!!! pass the word onto your friends iIF YOU ARE BIDDING ON 2 CHERRY BOMBS IT IS 2 SEPERATE BIDS NOT JUST ONE

Best April Fools Day Ever...
The best april fools day memory that i have would have to be something that actually WASN'T a joke... my cousin Alexis and my best friend Anne were at my house.. we were probably about 7... I was playing video games with my friend stephanie while Anne and Alexis were on the trampoline. I hear this loud scream.. but thinking nothing of it i kept playing... i figured my friends were being stupid and screaming because it was april fools day... then i see my cousin go RUNNING across the hall yelling for my mom.. Steph and I go out and see anne SCREAMING and blood all over her leg... my momma makes me run to annes house to tell her parents... it took me 20 minutes to get them to come over (by which time the ambulance was at my house already) because they thought i was pulling a prank... come to find out.. Anne had broken her leg BAD.. bones were sticking out of her skin... to this day she WILL NOT get on anything that bounces (trampolines.. bouncy balls that you sit on... pogo

The Reason
the reason i drown in sadness i burn in anger but never will your words or actions break my spirit again i will over come this with out you you are no longer the reason for my being nor will you ever be again.

Ache And Break
ach and break my heart aches and breaks only to be healed again we fall many times before we learn to pick ourselves up again we may ache and break but we are never broken we mend our hearts we heal our souls never will there be an ache or break unable to be fixed even if it feels so.

Sum Much Needed Family Time:
I will be leving tomorrow afternoon for Arkansas for a much needed family getaway..quality time w/ my loved ones. It's been a few mths since I have seen them so I am excited and ready for sum good ol hugs!!!!!!! I will miss U but am taking laptop and will be returning love late at night time...till I get it hooked up Friday @ daughter's house, I will be shutting my page down. * No matter what settings U put on here the obsessed/fake profiles still get thru. And I don't need the drama , LOL * Thank U all my dear friends for the love given daily...and I will see u in the midnite hrs. xoxox Laura

No Myth
so, she sayz its time she goes but wanted to b sure i know she hopes we can b friendz i think, yeh, i guess we can say i but didnt think to ask her why she blocked her eyez & drew the curtains wit knots i've got yet to untie what if i were romeo in black jeanz what if i waz heathcliff, its no myth mayb shes just lookin for sumone to dance wit see, it waz just too soon to tell & lookin for sum parallel can b an endless game we, we said goodbye before hello my secrets she will never know & if i dig a hole to china i'll catch the first junk to soho what if i were romeo in black jeanz what if i waz heathcliff, its no myth mayb shes just lookin for sumone to dance wit sumtime from now you'll bow to pressure sum things in life u cannot measure by degrees im between the poles & the equator dont send no private investigator to find me please less he speaks chinese & can dance like astaire overseas, kk what if i were what if i waz mayb shes just looki

My New Fu-owner
I WOULD LIKE TO INTRODUCE EVERYONE TO MY FU-OWNER DIANA...THIS IS THE SECOND TIME SHE'S WON ME IN AN AUCTION, SHE IS AN AMAZING WOMAN & A VERY DEAR FRIEND TO ME...PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT AND GO RATE FAN & ADD HER, YOU'LL BE GLAD YOU DID...SHE HAS TONS OF FANTASTIC PICS FOR YOU TO RATE, SO STOP BY AND SAY HI...THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ THIS AND PLS RE-POST THIS FOR EVERYONE TO SEE... ♠Diana♠ 2nd Alarm Hotties (NO FAN=NO ADD)@ fubar

When Im With You....
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away. My love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, Like I've never felt before. With each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we are apart. Always know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true. "Forever And Always, I Will Love You." WORDS CAN NEVA REALLY EXPRESS TRUE LOVE BUT MAYBE THOSE OF U IN LOVE MAY RELATE TO THIS...HOPE YALL LIKE...PLS COMMENT AND RATE! THANX

:)
Today, bouncing at a local bar. I I.D.'d a girl with a group of people. I told her that next time she used a fake I.D., she at least should get one with a picture that looked like her. She started crying and ran off. A guy told me that she had been in a car wreck, and had been badly disfigured. FML Today, I decided to take a nap. My boyfriend gave me some sleeping pills but I decided last minute not to take them. I woke up to my boyfriend kissing my neck and unbuttoning my shirt. Without opening my eyes, I whispered "ooh this is so romantic." He blurted out shocked, "Oh...you're awake?!" FML Today, as an April fools day joke, I decided to tell my mom and dad that I was gay. After an awkward silence, my mom looks at me, smiles, and says, "well, we have known for awhile." She wasn't joking. FML Today, I went with my girlfriend to the mall. We were looking at jewellery in Zales and she came across the engagement rings. She looks at one and says, "Are you kidding me? That ring

Update
Hey everyone. I know im not the blogging type of guy but i thought id give it a shot. Well as some of u may know i was released from jail in May of 2008 an i have been out for just about a year. It has had its ups an downs but for the most part things are still looking up. Im not working cause i got laid off back in November of 2008 but from all bad things comes something good. I have talked alot about going to school an doing something with my life well i finally did it. On Tuesday April 7th i start college classes an Globe University for IT. For all of those who dont know what IT is it Information Tech. Ill be going to school full time for about 18 months. Once im finished with that im going to start my other major which will be Video Game Programming an Design. Its part of the IT feild so i would have as many classes to take but thats ok with me. Im really looking forward to starting school its the first thing i have done cause i wanted to for me not for anyone else. On a diff

Smoothaway!
I am sure you have seen those AS SEEN ON TV! commercials for that little device called smooth away.. I saw one at walgreens today.. bought it for 10 bucks.. just tried it.. and i have to say OMG THANK YOU AS SEEN ON TV PEOPLE I LOVE IT SO MUCH YOU ARE THE BESTEST FUCKING PEOPLE EVER!!! it works.. NO pain at all.. you just rub for a second and POOF! no more hairs!

My Rambling
I am one of those people that feel song lyrics make or break a song. Lyrics allow people to say things they have always wanted to say, express what they are feeling in a way that can be felt and understood by many. I am never one good at speaking up about how I feel nor am I eloquent or well versed. These lyrics reflect my attitude towards things happening in my life. Have you ever felt that the world is just spinnin so fast and you are close to losing your grip, and slippin away? If that makes any sense. That is how I have felt for a long time. It isn't till recently, due to certain people in my life I have had a few hands be reached out towards me and those those I thank you. Thank you for making me feel whole again

Water Everywhere
One of the guys I work with helps do water conservation education for children (aka water festivals). I know, sounds lame, but it's a really good program. Teaches fourth graders about how our water systems work, why we should be careful with them, etc. Today I was set to volunteer for one here in town. Was pretty big, 800 kids came through. I was there from 7:15 to 2:00 then went to work, and then class until 9:00 pm. I've been practically dead on my feet most of the day. Anyone who knows me knows I'm not an early riser. I sleep in, and tend to stay up late. So six this morning was tough. But I kinda enjoyed today. I was so busy that I didn't have time to think about the stuff that normally bounces around in my head. While that sounds bad, some days I think I need a break from myself. I'm totally sleeping in tomorrow, because I'm actually a little hesitant to go to work. I'm really getting nervous about a sketchy situation there, which I really can't blog about, but things aren't go

You Will See How It Was
If you will read again what is written, you will see how it was.... All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood. "We should understand well that all things are the work of the Great Spirit. We should know the Great Spirit is within all things: the trees, the grasses, the rivers, the mountains, and the four-legged and winged peoples; and even more important, we should understand that the Great Spirit is also above all these things and peoples. When we do understand all this deeply in our hearts, then we will fear, and love, and know the Great Spirit, and then we will be and act and live as the Spirit intends." ~Black Elk~

Truckin And Partying What Else Can Be Better
got to love the open road and partying in every state in the USA hum dam truckers get to have all the fun thats why i am a trucker, I have seen it all and done the rest and not just talking about going from state to state lol ,

Pieces
I'm here again A thousand miles away from you A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am I tried so hard Thought I could do this on my own I've lost so much along the way Then I'll see your face I know I'm finally yours I find everything I thought I lost before You call my name I come to you in pieces So you can make me whole I've come undone But you make sense of who I am Like puzzle pieces in your eye Then I'll see your face I know I'm finally yours I find everything I thought I lost before You call my name I come to you in pieces So you can make me whole! I tried so hard! So hard! I tried so hard! Then I'll see your face I know I'm finally yours I find everything I thought I lost before You call my name I come to you in pieces So you can make me whole So you can make me whole

Breathe Into Me
And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you And this is who I get when, when I don't know myself anymore And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me Breathe your life into me I can feel you I'm falling, falling faster Breathe your life into me I still need you I'm falling, falling Breathe into me Breathe into me And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge And this is how I break apart when I finally hit the ground And this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any pain And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away Breathe your life into me I can feel you I'm falling, falling faster Breathe your life into me I still need you I'm falling, falling Breathe into me Breathe into me Breathe into me Breathe into me Breathe your life into me I can feel you I'm falling, falling faster Breathe your life into me I still need you I'm fallin

Something I Can Never Have
I still recall the taste of my tears. Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head till I dont want to sleep anymore. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this all go away. You make this all go way. I just want something. I just want something I can never have You always were the one to show me how Back then I couldnt do the things that I can do now. This is slowly take me apart. Grey would be the color if I had a heart. I just want something I can never have. In this place it seems like such a same. Though it all looks different now, I know its still the same Everywhere I look youre all I see. Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be. Come on tell me. Make this all go away. You make this all go away. Im down to just one thing. And Im starting to scare myself. Make this

Guess This Is Goodbye...
So, the other blog I posted, about "the most amazing night"... that was THE END of it. Pretty much, all was forgotten between him and I. He's apparently now with this other chick. Guess the 2 of them are dating or something. But hearing opinions from many different people, which almost all told me to let him go, and move on. I'm doing just that. I guess I was good enough that night, but now I'm chop liver... But oh well. His loss. He apparently wants her more than he wanted me or something. She is the dirtiest whore I know, but maybe thats what he's really into. Who am I to judge tho? I should be happy that he's found someone he likes/loves... whichever. I fell for him TOO fast, I tend to do that, and its usually my problem. He told me to my face, before that "amazing night" that they're just talking as friends, but that was about 2 weeks ago. Things may have gotten changed since then and I dont know. I'm not saying all this in the blog to be bitching or whining, but to get it off my c

Thank You!
I want to thank everyone who helped me level to Oracle today! I started this morning with nearly 4 million to go. I got to level before I went to bed. You all rock! Now, I have bombs and pimp-out to pay people back with. Unfortunately, fu is running REALLY crappy for me right now. If you helped, could you PLEASE comment this blog, so I can pay you back tomorrow...? Please?

Blue October - Dirt Room
I'm like a ghost I'll be living in a dirt room Waiting for the day to be closer To the window when you're home I'll be standing by your back door Reaching for the knife in my coat I'm going to put it to your throat Sweaty piggy, you're a bad man What a fucking sad way to go Your mother raised you as a joke I should have wiped away a burden Use the curtain in the kitchen to choke You You think you own me You should have known me You took the future and the food off my family's plate You think you'll use me I'm stronger than you You take my money, but it's useless When see what I do to you Look what I do to you Oh god then you awoke You started screaming through the duct tape Don't ever think I'm letting you go I'm busy digging you a hole Now you'll be living in a dirt room Breathing through the straw of your own Come on I really think that this is fun for the money I'll make it comfy for the time wasted making you rich I want to cover you in ants, bees

Lets Make Love
Baby I've been drifting away Dreaming all day Of holidng you Touching you The only thing I want to do Is be with you As close to you As I can be Let's make love All night long Until all our strength is gone Hold on tight Just let go I want to feel you in my soul Until the sun comes up Let's make love Oh, baby Do you know what you do to me Everything inside of me Is wanting you And needing you I'm so in love with you Look in my eyes Let's get lost tonight In each other Let's make love All night long Until all our strength is gone Hold on tight Just let go I want to feel you in my soul Until the sun comes up Let's make love Let's make love All night long Until all our strength is gone Hold on tight Just let go I want to feel you in my soul Until the sun comes up Oh, until the sun comes up Let's make love Oh baby, let's make love All night long All night long Let's make love

We Have A Long Way To Go....
We've got a long way to go..... Jungle fever, Mud Shark, Cave Bitch, Sell Out, Traitor, N-Lover........these are some of the names and terms I have heard being said to me or whoever I've dated that happen to be of a different race. And as much as it really doesn't surprise me to hear some of these things, it surprises me that it's still that big of an issue to many people, dating someone that's of a different race or culture. I bring this up because of a young lady who I used to date last year basically emptied her soul to me just a few hours ago. She said the reason she stopped talking to me was for other reasons, but now I find out that the main reason is that she felt embarrassed and ashamed to date me because of how her family would treat her or think of her if they found out. And basically she was looking for my forgiveness. As much as I empathize for her, I can't offer her my forgiveness. I'm not asking her to forsake her family for me, but I do deserve more than to be l

Just To Hear You Say That You Love Me
"Just To Hear You Say That You Love Me" (feat. Tim McGraw) If I could win your heart If you'd let me in your heart I'd be so happy, baby Just for these arms to be Holding you close to me There's nothing in this world I won't try No limit to what I'd do to make you mine, 'cause I'd climb right up to the sky I'd take down the stars Just to be in your arms, baby I'd go and capture the moon That's what I would do Just to hear you say that you love me Just to hear you say that you love me If I could taste your kiss There'd be no sweeter gift Heaven could offer baby Oh, baby I want to be the one I want to be the one Living to give you love I'd walk across this world just to be Close to you 'cause I want you close to me, yeah I'd climb right up to the sky I'd take down the stars Just to be in your arms, baby I'd go and capture the moon That's what I would do Just to hear you say that you love me Just to hear you say that you love me For the rest of yo

Just Breathe Baby
"Breathe" I can feel the magic floating in the air Being with you gets me that way I watch the sunlight dance across your face and I've Never been this swept away All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze When I'm lying wrapped up in your arms The whole world just fades away The only thing I hear Is the beating of your heart 'Cause I can feel you breathe It's washing over me Suddenly I'm melting into you There's nothing left to prove Baby all we need is just to be Caught up in the touch The slow and steady rush Baby, isn't that the way that love's supposed to be I can feel you breathe Just breathe In a way I know my heart is waking up As all the walls come tumbling down I'm closer than I've ever felt before And I know And you know There's no need for words right now 'Cause I can feel you breathe It's washing over me Suddenly I'm melting into you There's nothing left to prove Baby all we need is just to be Caught up in the touch The slow

Nevermore-believe In Nothing
into a strange new world, into the after all your tears might find you've fallen too far take another look, take another ride can't we make them leave the hate behind and I still believe in nothing will we ever see the shape of tomorrow? Into the empty storm, into the formless loss of hope, Where we can forget the game And I still believe in nothing Will we ever see the cure for our sorrow Nothing is sacred when no one is saved Nothing's forever so count your days Nothing is final and no one is real Pray for tomorrow and find you're empty still Nothing

Dope - Everything Sucks
If somebody's askin I've gone away Yeah somebody's packin and gone today The sumer was lovely and I enjoyed my stay Maybe I'll be back one day Sorry to hurry but I'll miss my plane Dont worry about me I'll be okay See ya the next time, maybe I'll stop by Maybe, Well, I'll try Hopefully but I guess I never cared that much I never kept in touch And most of all what really sucks is Everything and all of us So and so called me yesterday So and so tells me thats me that so's okay I dont know took me far away Hopefully I'll be back one day So many places so many faces Everything changes and Everything's the same as So many places so many faces Everything changes Yeah typical I guess I never cared that much I never kept in touch And most of all what really sucks is Everything and all of us Everything sucks Everything sucks I never cared that much I never kept in toch And most of all what really sucks is Everything and all of us

Easy
Can you be my heroine I can be a carcrash It's easy to pretend I'm cool like Johnny Cash Nah it's not easy Nah if it's worth keeping For your own You can be my Bonnie I'll be your Clyde It's easy if you want me Shut the door and close the blinds Nah it's not easy Nah if it's worth keeping For your own Would you be my date tonite I can be a train wreck It's easier in the light Then again what did you expect Nah it's not easy Nah if it's worth keeping For your own

Let's Try This Again. Sorry :p
The last post didn't all show up. This is a test I hate my computer! If it doesn't all show up. Well, I will be pissed. I am slacking! Haven't read too much since my niece was born. Starting to get back on track. Read two books this week. So, here I am, pressing on with my resolution. Thinking about what to read next. I have two books here. Think it's going to be Tick Tock by Dean Koontz. I love that man! Well, here is what I have been reading since my last post. -The Jinx by Jennifer Sturman -The Giver by Lois Lowry -Roses are Red by James Patterson -Violets are Blue by James Patterson That is all from me....for now

Favorite Hello
Wake me up with your kisses Feel the touch of your lips, yes Burn me up like a thousand torches Tell me to never let go cuz You're my favorite hello You're my hardest goodbye Say my name, darlin' sweet and low cuz Your love I could never deny Lay me down in your lovin' Hear the sound of it comin' Shake the ground when we're runnin' All around us the world is hummin' You're sweet like sugar On the tip of my tongue Don't need no saccharine To sweeten up this love

Life Isn't Always Fair
Life isn't always fair just when you think you are on top of the world and your every dream is coming threw then at the drop of the hat you loose it all I lost my Baby and then the man I Love was sent to Jail for a drug promble and I was left a lone in the cold cure world all alone once again but I pry that he can get help and get his head stright but I feel like God forgot about me and left me all alone to sufer and be alone I don't know if I should Scream , cry or just lay down and die People say if I can do anything let me know well if you can bring my baby back and make the man I love well again then that's what I want but no one can do that for me so all I can ask is just pry for me to be Strong that's all anyone can do for me cause noone can be God and put things back like they were and make ppl shut their mouths about me and him but you know what I say keep on cause i don't care cause the truth will show its self and God will Get me Threw all this and I am going to be Strong thr

Oracle
OK, so, I'm less than 300k to Oracle. I have autos on. I also have a bomb... but fu is running too sketchy right now to use it to it's fullest advantage, so I decided to save it and use it for the people who have helped me level. So... I would LOVE to level before my autos go off and I go to bed. I wanna use the pimp-out feature...LOL Please? Rating Revolution will help me if I can get to 200k.

Humble Dwelling
Where have you been all these years? You never saw the estate change. You see it just now, and declare that it's a keeper. But all you keep is yourself, at bay. You admire the house, gaze through the windows, dream of what its like to be within, but never do you come inside, in spite of many warm welcomes. You stake a flag in the lawn, tell me of danger, comfort me in my time of need, helping me wash up the shabby shutters. You speak of unavailability, yet romance the owners of other humble dwellings. I know you'd find yourself a cozy fit beside my hearth, but you cheerfully refuse to enter. If only you knew the things I would do for you, The sacrifices I would make, The time I would spend making my heart your home. You lifted my foundation to have a peek, then left me all jacked up, never seeing the walls crack, or hearing the crushing sound of this lonely heart being put back in its place.

Lifelines
What if each person Who looks at us Even just sees an image we chose to capture in space and time in a photograph. Maintains our existence... Then add another Who reads our name Much less takes time to think Or speak aloud a sentiment about us Keeps us walking around And it was that person or those people Who brought about a dramatic shift From feeling hopelessness to inexplicable hope When we say I choose not to give up. I may not know why, but I will keep trying. Was it you? Have you ever thought that Perhaps this is what is meant by the power of prayer Or the strength spoken of in two or more gathered together in my name... Lately I feel alone And sense I am not Even if it takes an hour of tears And an hour of silence to get through to me... We allow others to bring us down But this means We can choose others to hold us up in their place. Three years ago I smas

Queen Elizabeth And Dolly
The Queen & Dolly Go To Heaven !! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Queen Elizabeth and Dolly Parton die on the same day and they both go before an Angel to find out if they'll be admitted to Heaven. Unfortunately, there's only one space left that day, so the Angel must decide which of them gets in. The Angel asks Dolly if there's some particular reason why she should go to Heaven. Dolly takes off her top and says, 'Look at these, they're the most perfect breasts God ever created, and I'm sure it will please God to be able to see them every day, for eternity.' The Angel thanks Dolly, and asks Her Majesty the same question. The Queen takes a bottle of Perrier out of her purse, drinks it down. Then, wees into a toilet and pulls the lever. The Angel says, 'OK, your Majesty, you may go in.' Dolly is outraged and asks, 'What was that all about? I show you two of

... :)
Wind whispers through brown strands of hair, Sunshine rays caress skin so fair. Placid pond water reflects back her past, Sees struggles and pain of love that didn't last. Remembering a time when hopelessness obscured All the beauty which she once procured. Just because of one "love" gone astray, Gentle, naive, her heart he betrayed. Confidence shattered, life left in fragments, Wallowing in despair, put up a permanent guard. Until one day a new chapter unfolded, And a man unlike the rest was molded. Filled her with love, showered her with rainbows, Heavenly feelings, long forgotten, in her soul now re-arose. He colored her world with the power of the moon, Together they created an unstoppable monsoon. Never again did she weep in silence, Never again was she trapped in self violence. He rescued her heart from Satan's glove, And all it took was someone to love.

Looking For Like-minded Peeps
this is a crazy site with all shorts of blinking lights and scrolling pictures. where can i find people who are into bondage? i'll give this site a try, but it's no bondage.com. we'll see what happens! if you want to know what i'm into, you can go to...(http://www.bondage.com/u/2348063/user.html)

Update
So about a week ago we went for a conference with one of the doctors in Neurology from the hospital in regards to the EEG test that my son had. According to the test it is confirmed that my son is having small brain seizures that are lasting from 1-2 seconds. Although they aren't lasting very long it's still enough to raise a concern. They have now started him on a medication, but I probably won't see any major improvements for a least a month. This will give us time to raise the dosage based on height, weight, etc. This is all the information I have for now, but would appreciate any prayers you can toss his way, and I will keep my peeps that care updated.

Me
Taught to smile when the world would cry Confused by the moisture that fills her eyes It falls like rain and smears her smile On her painted face once so beguiled Her makeup washed up over the street And the harlequin holds her head in defeat Without her mask she feels exposed And these tiny tears make the anxiety grow She shuts her eyes to make them stop But they pour even harder with every drop She cries for help in fear she'll drown But no one takes interest in a sobbing clown

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I remain to stand outside By the way, I can barely believe That the the people inside Would bring the ones to conceive And I see a figure in the rain That watches my every motion A figure looked in pain As if we looked across the ocean I just saw the eyes They were ones that made nothing everything They made a great disguise As they made a lady with a broken wing

Leveling Blog #432
M Classic Beauty Debbie is Soooo Verrry Close to Oracle-she is 300,000 away:)She is an Awesome Friend please stop by and Help her reach ORACLE!Classicbeauty "Goddess"@ fubar imikimi - Customize Your World! M imikimi - Customize Your World! This Loving Pimpout Bully by:JoAnna

You Know Who You Are
If You Had Called Yesterday lyrics I’ll admit it got to me Hearing your voice on my machine It took all I had to just let you talk And not pick up where we left off Every night since your goodbye I hit my knees and closed my eyes And I pray that you’d come back Too many tears washed out that bridge You wanna cross, but baby, it’s too late for that Last night would’ve been a different story But the morning sun must’ve done something for me ‘Cause I bet I’d gone the other way If you’d called yesterday If you’d called yesterday This victory runs bitter sweet Through the heart and soul of me But I sip my coffee and watch the sun rise Makin’ its way to a bluer sky Every night since your goodbye I hit my knees and closed my eyes And I prey that you’d come back Too many tears washed out that bridge You wanna cross, but baby, it’s too late for that Last night would’ve been a different story But the morning sun must’ve done something for me ‘Cause I bet I’d gone the

Bullsh*t!! -- Not Really A Blog But Damnit
Ok... So I really dont who it is or why they are even doing this but its crap. Please stay out of my personal business.. I hate Drama and whoever thinks that I am theirs... is freaking wrong! Stop leaving dumb messages to my friends, grow up, and get a life!!!!

Disciple??
**WICKED LETTE** SHES ALMOST DISCIPLE! AND SHES BEEN ON HERE 12/22/06 WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??? SO SHE IS ASKING FOR ALL THE HELP SHE CAN GET SHE NEEDS TO BE LOVED ON A WHOLE BUNCH SO LETS MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME AND LEVEL HER SEXY ASS!! FAN HER ADD HER RATE HER PAGE RATE HER PICS RATE HER STASH COMMENT HER STASH COMMENT HER PAGE COMMENT HER PICS BOMB HER BLING HER BUY HER A VIP BUY HER A CHERRY BOMB BUY HER A AUTOS 11 BUY HER A PONY TOO :p BUY HER A HAPPY HOUR DONATE FUBUX CRUSH HER DO IT ALL THIS IS A MESSAGE FROM HER: DEAR FU, PLEASE HELP ME LEVEL IM TRYING SOOO HARD ILL DO ANYTHING!! PLEASE DONATE ANYTHING TO ME THAT CAN HELP ME GET TO SPOT LIKE IT WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IT. IM REALLY TRYING HARD. I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS GETTING CLOSE TO MILLION THEN IT WENT TO 5 AND I WAS CLOSE TO 5 THEN 10 AND SO ON I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT GET THIS ON MY OWN THANKS FOR EVERY THING I LOVE YOU!!!!

Part One
once there was a fair maiden in a kingdom by the sea she was of rare beauty and her hand was sought by many but what one did not know was that if upon capture of her hand the capturer would have to embark upon a mystical journey that would take him far from her side and thru perilous lands full of danger and dark magic. at the end of said journey if he proved his worth he would inherit her heart body and soul and forever live in peaceful bliss............ do you wish to hear more?

Broken
when you heart is broken and mind is blank. you search deep inside yourself to find answeres. the answeres you wish you knew. the ones that make everything seem right and fix all problems. you look inside yourself deeper. not only for the answeres but to find out who you are as well. you wonder for years and years and think you know but never realy can grasp it. its like its there but not there. you want it so bad but cant seem to have it. i know you know the feeling. feels like pieces of you are gone or found. feels like your life is comming to a end. all around you turn away or never can understand. all that you want to understand is never there to care. all you want is someone to be there to help you through. for support to find what you want so dearly. what will make sense of everthing. what fixes the life you have or what will atleast lead you in the path to create the path you never felt you would follow. but still in the end you feel broken until it seems right. until it seems t

Please Vote
I'm asking for your help again! Message: Hey guys, my buds band made it into the final four of March Bandness. The winner will win thousands of dollars in equipment and money...get a year of radio play on a major market station and studio time to record an album. I am asking all of you to please please go to this link and vote for Xit27. You can vote over and over just by refreshing the page. I would appreciate it and if any of you want me to rtf with something, then let me know and I will. Send this link to all your friends to, please. http://www.947thebuzz.com/pages/MarchBandnessVoting.html?_show

Makes You Wonder
Just wondering were all my fu friends go after i run out of bombs or 11's or blings to give out. I can count on 2 hands the amount of people who show me any love when i am not able to get them anything. I go through hundreds every weekend and millions of fu bucks but then when its gone I cant barely get people to even talk to me. It's a bit aggrevating and sad all at the same time. Just don't know how to feel anymore.

Love
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes..... To every guy that would give his seat up... To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every

"pepole"
"dont believe every thing you here, because every thing you here is not true.." "Life is to short and misserable,to be unhappy" "don't take things for granted,you just may not have or see that person or thing again" the point is: "live life to the fullest and have no regrets, and look back once just to say i'm done or i have done that.."

Question #1
What do you call a woman who sells her body for money? I don't get why all of these women on here think it is okay to sell themselves for money. Do they want to be called what that is? I would think most women would not want to be considered prostitutes. I know it is the oldest profession known to man, but still. I would really love to hear what everyone's opinion is about this selling of women.

Fu Golddiggers
The following was inspired by a fu-whoring gold digger...anyone have any other questions a gold digger asks on a first date? dante: i bet she will only put out to guys who buy her shit in real life to steph: im sure she's a golddigger dante: first thing she asks " what kinda car you drive "..lol steph: do you own your house? dante: where do you bank ? steph: do you have an amex black? dante: whhats your credit score steph: heh dante: whats your gross net worth ? steph: how much do you think a man should spend on an engagement ring? dante: whos your CPA ? stephm: does your maid work weekends? dante: how do you feel about pre nups

Stole From Asb
...it's a long one... 1. What is your best friends name? Matt, Angie, Jimmy 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? none, have the basketball shorts going on... 3. What are you listening to right now? Shiny Toy Guns - Le Disko 4. Whats your favorite number? X 5. What was the last thing you ate? Philly steak sam'mich (god, pay attention to my mumms) 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? A Sharpie. 7. How is the weather right now? wet, but nice 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? Trent 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? MANY things. Hell, I'm not in middle school anymore... 10. Do you have a significant other? My money... 11. Favorite TV show? The Office 12. Siblings? one brother 13. Height? 5'11 14. Hair color? Brown 15. Eye Color? hazel... whatever THAT is... 16. Do you wear contacts? They scare me... 17. Favorite Holiday? Any that are paid time off!!! 18. Month?

Well Bullfuckingshit!
So I WAS going to North Carolina this weekend. I've taken the days off and everything. Me and my cousin were going there and now she sends me a text saying she can't go...she has to work. So I'm gonna be stuck here. Ugh. I wonder how much a plane ticket would cost....lol

Butt Train
Ok, something screwy is going on here. the links don't work so please go to the bulletin http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=3600581584 to join the train It's the BUTT train! It's easy! First please rate the pictures in the Butts folder starting with this one. Please leave a comment on the last one. Then just fan, rate, and add everyone who has joined before you... or leave a comment on their profile if they are already your friend. In the friend request, or comment, put "I'm joining the butt train!" or something similar. When you receive a request or comment, please rate, fan, and comment back. When you are done with everyone on the list, send me a private message so I will know to add you. We're all here to have fun, so no drama please! Start with me, your hostess.

I Lol'd
I got this in a text message earlier & nearly pee'd my pants.... A WOMAN'S SEX PRAYER As I lay him down to fuck, I pray he rips this pussy up. But if his dick is small & week. Lord I hope this man can eat! I thought it was funny, enjoy!

Hot Steamy Sex (bottom To Top)
->sdclerk18m: i find that pretty hot ->sdclerk18m: have you ever eaten yor own feces? ->sdclerk18m: it cleans my colon, so I can take awesome dumps ->sdclerk18m: the bristle end sdclerk18m: hot ->sdclerk18m: i like having sex with a toothbrush sdclerk18m: nope ->sdclerk18m: have you ever had anal done on you? sdclerk18m: hell yes ->sdclerk18m: you want to talk to me about sex? sdclerk18m: sex ->sdclerk18m: what kinda stuff? sdclerk18m: idk stuff...lol ->sdclerk18m: what about sdclerk18m: cause i want to chat with u ->sdclerk18m: so why do you have to add me? sdclerk18m: ur hot ->sdclerk18m: why? sdclerk18m: hey sexy ur so hot add me on yahoo im sdclerk18m

Mort & Sarah
Mort decided to propose to Sarah, but prior to her acceptance Sarah felt she had to confess to her man about her childhood illness. She informed Mort that she suffered a disease that left her breasts at the maturity of a 12 year old. He stated that it was OK because he loved her sooo much. However, ;Mort felt this was also the time for him to open up and admit that he had a deformity too. Mort looked Sarah in the eyes and said, 'I too have a problem. My winky is the same size as an infant and I hope you can deal with that once we are married.' She said, 'Yes, I will marry you and learn to live with your infant size winky.' Sarah and Mort got married and they could not wait for the honeymoon. Mort whisked Sarah off to their hotel suite and they started touching, teasing, and holding one another... As Sarah put her hands in Mort's pants, she began to scream and ran out of the room! Mort ran after her to find out what was wrong. She said, 'You told me your winky was

Little Johnny Lol
A teacher in Elmira , New York asked her 6th grade class how many of them were Barak Obama fans. Not really knowing what an obama fan is, but wanting to be liked by the teacher, all the kids raised their hands except for Little Johnny. The teacher asked Little Johnny why he has decided to be different... again. Little Johnny said, "Because I'm not an obama fan." The teacher asked, "Why aren't you a fan of Barak Obama?" Johnny said, "Because I'm a Republican." The teacher asked him why he's a Republican. Little Johnny answered, "Well, my Mom's a Republican and my Dad's a Republican, so I'm a Republican." Annoyed by this answer, the teacher asked, "If your mom was a moron and your dad was an idiot, what would that make you?" With a big smile, Little Johnny replied, "That would make me an Obama fan."

Only 3 Questions
HERE IT IS: I am giving you the opportunity to ask me any THREE questions that you want.. no matter what it is i HAVE to answer them all and answer them truthfully (which i always do) I cant judge, or say no.. if you ask I WILL answer.. so just send me a message with your questions and i will reply... so get as crazy as you want and..well... HAVE FUN Staj

Inspired
A mumm about squirrels reminded me of this. One of the funniest things I've ever witnessed. My old house had this garden wall adjoining 4 neighbouring gardens. We'd thrown out a load of seeds and stuff for the squirrels. This one squirrel was sitting on said wall munching away, and another was staring at it from the other end of the wall. This second squirrel proceeded to sprint full length down the wall, head butt squirrel #1 up the arse in to the neighbour's garden, and steal it's seeds. Man oh man was that hilarious.

Red Bandit's Auto 11's April 4th Save The Date
Red Bandit@ fubar While my Auto-11 is active and during Happy Hours only, if you rate all of my pictures, Private Message me with your choice of a reward. And don't forget to rate my profile while you're there ... LOL Choice of: A: 100,000 fu-bucks. ********or******** B: An entry into the Grand Prize bonus drawing. The prize for the Grand Prize Bonus Drawing will depend on the number of entries: 01 - 25 entries: 1,000,000 fu-bucks & a 1-credit bling gift. 26 - 50 entries: 3,000,000 fu-bucks & a 3-credit bling gift. 51 - 75 entries: 5,000,000 fu-bucks & a 5-credit bling gift. 76 - 100 entries: 10,000,000 fu-bucks & a 10-credit bling gift. 101 - 200 entries: 10,000,000 fu-bucks & choice of 35-credit bling gift. 201+ entries: 10,000,000 fu-bucks, choice of 35-credit bling gift, & a 3-month VIP. I hope to have 500 pics up by then, but no more than that. Leave comments with feedback, and watch for my Auto-11 ON APRIL 04, 2009. Make sure you tell all your friends, be

Religion
okay just so people understand i have a religon. its the dark carnival aka jugalisim. so people before you jump down my throught read my last post...and you will understand. that i do belive in god but i dont see it in the same way as you do.

Texting Fun
I got this as a text and I thought it would be fun to see what all of you came up with for me. So let's hear 'emGive me a nickname only YOU can call me! If you're brave you'll forward this and see what all the crazy names you get.I'm guessing I could have changed the wording to make it fit a "blog" better..but yeah. Give me some nicknames!!

Any Guy.....
Any guy can mess around, it takes a real man to find a girl and stick with her. Any guy can call you sexy, hot, and all that.. it takes a real man to call you beautiful. Any guy can call you in tears begging you to take him back, it takes a real man to not have a reason to be in those tears. Any guy can say I love you, it takes a real man to say it and mean it even if all of his guy friends are standing around. Any guy can drive over to your house to hang out with you, it takes a real man to show up unexpected. Any guy can have sex with a girl, it takes a real man to wait. Any guy can be with you on the best days when everything is ok, it takes a real man to stay by your side for weeks if thats what it takes when it feels like your world is falling apart. Any guy can talk noise with his friends when a sexy girl walks by, it takes a real man to look the other way. Any guy can be sweet and true to your face, it takes a real man to stay sweet and true when you're gone. Any guy can give yo

Pmsl
So, I just ran a bomb, right? I had my status set at: "beggars ignored...kthxbai" I had a list of people I wanted to hit, and I was going down my messages list. I have my shoutbox set to friends only, so if my friends pop up and say they have autos, or ask for a bomb, it's cool with me... but when people send begging messages through PM... meaning that they aren't even a friend, I feel I have every right to ignore them. Well, I get a message from this dude asking for a bomb, then I get the following message. By the time my bomb was done and over, he'd blocked me... the pussy. PS... If you're a friend, and thought I meant that YOU can't ask, it doesn't apply. If you can get me in my SB, feel free to ask. I'll let you know if I don't have time to hit you cuz I'm doing paybacks or whatever (Y) ***edited to fix gross misuse of apostrophes*** ***edited to add screenshot of dude's bling***

Why I Don't Want Kids...ever.
I get a lot of people tell me that I will want kids someday. That I'm young and I may not want kids now, but someday that maternal instinct will kick in. I hate those people. I know I'm young. I'm 21. But I know beyond all doubt that I will never have kids... 1.) I really don't like them. They are gross, loud, annoying, and they don't listen. I can't even babysit my niece and nephew. 2.) I like being an Aunt. I can see me niece and nephew, spoil them, love them, and the best part: I can give them back. 3.) I will graduate college in 2 years and plan on getting a career. 4.) I like my life the way it is. 5.) Were I to even consider kids, I would want to wait until I am financially stable enough to support them. And by my standards, I would never make that kind of money. 6.) I really don't want to be responsible for another life. 7.) This isn't a reason per se, but I don't feel that it is my duty as a woman to have children. Nor do I feel that a woman needs k

Crow Creek Reservation Electricity Disconnects
Mar 26, 2009 12:06 ET Native Americans Face Third World Conditions at the Hands of Electric Company. Reports CAN-DO Central Electric Cooperative Disconnects Electricity in Nation's Poorest County Despite Freezing Temperatures. FORT THOMPSON, SD--(Marketwire - March 26, 2009) -Temperatures reaching below 7 degrees F with the wind chill and blizzards on the Crow Creek Reservation this week have become an emergency situation as Central Electric Cooperative continues cutting power, leaving many residents in the nation's poorest county without heat, losing their food, water, and in some cases, threatening their lives. 'This is blatant abuse and the destruction of a community,' stated Eric Klein, Founder of CAN-DO. 'What people need to understand is that when a person gets their power cut, they not only lose their heat and lights, but they also lose their food and often times water when their pipes can break due to freezing temperatures, costing the residents thousands of dollars in rep

∞wolfie The Ftm Boy∞ Alex *the Wolf Of Infinity*~r/l Wolfie & Hubby To Lil Bear Boi
Because of this person, I've made it so only friends can leave me comments now. Because I'm tired of people wasting my time talkin stupid 4th grade shit to me. It's funny, he's a member of a lounge called Infinity, a lounge for GLBT people. I fall in that category because I am bisexual. It also says "OPEN TO ALL!!!" I tried going in there once and nobody was there, so I joined the lounge in order to come back later. All of a sudden everyone in that lounge starts harrassing me. I don't understand what I even did. All I did was join the lounge. I didn't talk any shit to anyone, I wasn't mean or nasty, I just said oh I guess nobody's in here and I left. Since then I haven't heard the end of the barrage of bullshit from these people. What I don't understand is that I'm one of them and they're turning on me. Like I did something wrong. I just don't understand. This person (the subject line) was the most horrendous to me. Sent me a condom and said to go fuck myself or somethi

Auction!
So, I'm having a member auction in my lounge soon, looking for people to enter! I am not charging an entrance fee to be auctioned, but DONATIONS for the Lounge Spotlight, would be greatly appreciated! Thank you! PM me if you'd like to enter and let me know what you want to offer to the highest bidder!

What A Jerk
http://www.fubar.com/user/2244438 nolan_84: there's your 1, it wouldn't let me rate a negative number, go fuck yourself fat ugly bitch ->nolan_84: keep thinking that, lots of men want me, i dont have to go around looking for some person to talk to me nasty and never would, take ur dumbass away from my sb nolan_84: well you better hold on to his stupid ass because if you lose that one, you probably wont get another one ->nolan_84: omg i have a man and told u that, and i am beautiful........u are ugly as fuck, and the status is a joke, dumbass nolan_84: so go back to pretending that you're getting some dick because that's as good as it's going to get for you nolan_84: apparently you didn't deserve to be beautiful...that's why you're NOT....i added you for the points, and i made a joke about your sucking off a pillow, your lonely and pathetic, so much that you pretend a pillow is a dick ->nolan_84: i dont give a shit about what u think about me, u dont even deserve to have a di

My European Angel
This is a wonderful conversation. I changed the name for more laughs and less drama I wrote a script to change her name to lady I'm too lazy to go in and change when i spoke to my name so... lady = her ->lady = me lady: well, since i have a cunt...shouldn;t i be 1 ->lady: clearly not lady: why mr. big stuff..explain ->lady: nah, I don't need to explain, thank though lady: i have cunt...i be cunt... lady: treated like cunt...act like cunt...you ->lady: good luck with that, thanks lady: then get off my page ->lady: I'm on your page now? wow magic lady: then enjoy i have zero to hide ->lady: you just told me to get off a page I've never been to? are you an idiot lady: sorry ->lady: I forgive you. lady: should i say get off m mumm? lady: or you don't want to chitty chat....since you sb'd me lady: well then why are we taling lady: *talking ->lady: busterxxoo: well, since i have a cunt...shouldn;t i be 1 lady: oh yeah...then go away youngin' ->lady: oh thank you for

Whyyy
Under my required courses it says I have to take a computer literacy course. And this course I have to take is all about learning how to use Microsoft Office 2007. Why? Also, I understand if you want to rate people 'honestly' on fubar. But a 1? Am I really? I have all my teeth. And two eyes that point straight forward. So... Why?

Ed Freeman
You're an 19 year old kid. You're critically wounded, and dying in the jungle in the Ia Drang Valley , 11-14-1965, LZ X-ray, Vietnam . Your infantry unit is outnumbered 8 - 1, and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200 yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in. You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns, and you know you're not getting out. Your family is 1/2 way around the world, 12,000 miles away, and you'll never see them again. As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day. Then, over the machine gun noise, you faintly hear that sound of a helicopter, and you look up to see an un-armed Huey, but it doesn't seem real, because no Medi-Vac markings are on it. Ed Freeman is coming for you. He's not Medi-Vac, so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey down into the machine gun fire, after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come. He's coming anyway. And he drops it

I'm So Wrong...
There has to be something wrong with me. I have this new fascination with Maury, but I only watch the paternity test episodes. Well, for every single mom who is on their claiming "they ain't no other man." "i'm 190% sure he's my baby daddy!" I always home the guy isn't the father. ALWAYS. Even if its like a married couple where the wife had one small indiscretion....I always hope the guys aren't the father...What's wrong with me? Shouldn't I be hoping that the poor baby has a father? Shouldn't I have enough faith in humanity to think that the Mother hasn't slept with 18 guys in the last month?

Getting Worse By The Day!
Yesterday my husband thought it might be a good idea to take me out before I got to sick to do anything, it all started out good and well lets just say that we had to come home, we had stoped to get our son something to eat seeing he watched the kids for us & while we're sitting there waiting on the food my stomach turned for the worst, we're @ the window and I started to vommitt in the damn parking lot, this morning got up to get the kids off to school & started again I'd say another 3-4 more times. I went to get my radation done & the woman @ the window said that I didn't look as if I was feeling well & I told her no, she called me back into the area where you see the doctor but had me speak to a nurse I had told her what was going on and she said it would be best if I went to the place in which I get the chemo treatments to get 500cc's of fluids & some meds to stop the vommitting & just to think this is the begining I've got 20 more exteral treatments to go 5 more chemo's & I am now

Pimp Yo Azz
So, I'm not normally one to pimp out friends on here, mostly because it's degrading for all involved. Sex for money, however titillating, is just dirty. Dirty. Of course, so is my friend ketch22. He just posted his first bit of drivelly prose here, and he probably wouldn't mind if you went and read it. He's kind of an attention whore. And by "kind of an attention whore" I mean "a total whore." So yeah, I guess I'm pimping him out. Enjoy!

Heart Vs. Head
I've got so much going on in my life now. I am planning a move to Georgia in a couple of weeks. It's been in the works for quite a while. My boyfriend of 2 1/2 years is coming with me but we've been having a lot of problems and I have been so torn with what to do. My heart says I can't be without him but my head says, I would be better off on my own for a while, to heal, to live independent for once in my life. The fear of being alone is very powerful though. I have a lot of friends who really think that I am making a mistake by taking him with me. I think I already lost a friend who is upset that I still am and I care a lot about that person and I don't want to lose contact with that person but they kinda of stopped talking to me and I am feeling bad about it. Oh well, such is life. I have to do what is right for me when it's right for me, not when someone thinks I should. I think my life is going to turn out really great. I am going to do great things with or without my bf.

Conficker Live Blogging
By now, most of you have heard about the computer virus / worm known as "Conficker". The worm was scheduled to launch today, April 1, and wreak havoc amongst the world's interwebs. Death, grief, sorrow, and troupes of circus freaks are expected to be unleashed in a pageant of macabre armageddon. Being that this is such a monumental event, I have sequestered myself into a fully provisioned bunker ( to avoid the upcoming food riots ) and will be live blogging all day with the impact of the Conficker Worm. The bunker is small, but there is room for a threesome should we need to procreate ( to save the human race ) or to just rub olive oil all over ourselves and slide across the marble floors. 0715 am PDT – Woke up late. Conficker must have hit the snooze button a bunch of times. 0730 am PDT – Water pressure in shower was low. I wonder if the water department has been hit and the pumps are runny dry? 0745 am PDT – My toast is burnt. Checking the microprocessor in the toas

Her Through My Eyes
her through my eyes Its all in her eyes, everything she is, was, would, will, could... be - her wants, dreams, wishes; her pain, hurts, sadness; her heart, soul. I see her smile, though she isn't - even when she is. I feel her warmth yet she's so terribly cold... at least to herself but not for me. I know the 'love' within her - I know its there, I 'see' it with every look, everyday and everywhere. She can't hide from me - anything from me, just from herself. She wants to give - thinks that she doesn't, can't, and won't ever... give. Doesn't know how to, nor just what to - give or, for all that matter, be. But she 'gives' so much that she doesn't know... she gives herself to me... ever and always - with every look. I know her 'fear'... and the reasons - all the why's. The lil lies she tells herslf and tries so hard to believe. The tears held within, all her 'moments' afraid. Wishes - of stopping, of wanting more, and not know

Her Face
HER FACE Her face could launch a thousand ships, So I am at the port, To see the beauty that she is, And give my own report. I see the mystery in her eyes, And watch her silly grin, And just the way she moves her head, It leaves me in a spin. The way she walks, the way she talks, It leaves me mesmerized, And then the way she looks at me, It takes me by surprise. For somehow she has noticed me, I beckon to her call, I’d give her everything I have, I’d give my very all. I wonder why this wondrous thing, Would ever notice me, I’m nervous as I contemplate, Which makes me want to flee. But then I see her gentle side, And feel her loving touch, The way she pampers me with love, A thing I need so much. And now I’m living on the shore, As mighty ships sail past, And though her face could launch them all, I know our love will last. copyright jas 2007

Her Eyes
her eyes Its all in her eyes, everything she is, was, would, will, could... be - her wants, dreams, wishes; her pain, hurts, sadness; her heart, soul. I see her smile, though she isn't - even when she is. I feel her warmth yet she's so terribly cold... at least to herself but not for me. I know the 'love' within her - I know its there, I 'see' it with every look, everyday and everywhere. She can't hide from me - anything from me, just from herself. She wants to give - thinks that she doesn't, can't, and won't ever... give. Doesn't know how to, nor just what to - give or, for all that matter, be. But she 'gives' so much that she doesn't know... she gives herself to me... ever and always - with every look. I know her 'fear'... and the reasons - all the why's. The lil lies she tells herslf and tries so hard to believe. The tears held within, all her 'moments' afraid. Wishes - of stopping, of wanting more, and not knowing what t

I Want It...
It's just catchy and the fact believe it or not..Micheal Jackson is pretty good in this song, lol. Hold My Hand (Remix) Feat. Michael Jackosn) - Akon[Akon] Ohhh... Konvict Music... [Michael] Ohhh [Akon] Yeahhh [Michael] Yeahhh This life don't last forever (hold my hand) So tell me what we're waiting for (hold my hand) We're Better off being together (hold my hand) Than being miserable alone (hold my hand) [Akon] Cause I've been there before And you've been there before But together we can be alright. Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold We hold each other till we see the sunlight [Michael] (So if you just) [Michael/Akon] Hold my hand Baby I promise that I'll do All I can Things will get better if you just hold my hand Nothing can come between us if you just hold, hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand. [Michael] (Hold my hand) [Akon] The nights are getting darker (hold my hand) And there's no peace inside (hold my ha

Her Beauty
HER BEAUTY My pen hath not the ink, Nor my mind the wit, To capture here in verse by my hand, Her Beauty I behold. Light from an endless star filled sky, Her eyes. Countless summer's warm gentle breeze, Her whisper. A thousand crystal cool mountain streams, Her kiss. Miles of pure white sand beach, Her smile. Wave after wave of crashing crimson tide, Her passion. Ranges of majestic snow capped mountains, Her strength. Deepest and widest of dark blue oceans, Her love. All of Creation itself fails to compare, In the entire depth of Universe, No single being past or now resides, Her Beauty I behold. copyright jas 2008

Hello My Friend
HELLO MY FRIEND Hello my friend and give me a smile cause that is what I'm here for. To be your friend and to make you smile and even cheer you up some more. Here to cause happiness, not to cause pain, but to help you get over today. Not with a joke or even a smoke, but by listening to what you have to say. Oh now my friend, don't worry or fret, for I don't have to leave now. I'll fill you with cheer before I go, and make you smile somehow. This is a promise that I'll make to you here and before you this day. Whenever I can and whenever you will, I'll listen to what you have to say. Oh now my friend don't worry or fret, for I don't have to leave now. I'll fill you with cheer before I go, And make you smile somehow! copyright jas 2007

Friendship Crystals
FRIENDSHIP CRYSTALS When the pearl of one life drops, A new diamond arises. It’s a miraculous cycle of The twinkling gems of lifetimes. Those sparkles of life; Aquamarines, rubies, gold, And a spot of silver. They all have their own dreams. They are privileged To realize and fulfill them all, And they live their life in luster. Though, not all are as fortunate There are those rare moonstones, The purest ones of all. And for that, they are left with no choice But to hang alone. Hang in the cold wind of fate In which they have no path, But that long, lone stretch of garnet Leading to the pit of steel jaws Made to corrupt their light. And that pit has swallowed so many Pure moonstones who were so good At heart, at soul, at mind. Only a frail, narrow bridge of Shimmering opal May reach out in the darkness To help a friend. It is for my true friend I vow to help and support; All through our lives, I will build a bridge of opal. So that she ma

Friends Forever
friends forever Friends Forever We're joined in a friendship That time can not sever. With bonds we have built We'll remain friends forever We're welded in spirit, Attached by our hearts. We're fused by the feeling That Friendship imparts. We're tied by emotions. Connected by dreams. Reinforced by our hopes, Unified by extremes. No longer a function Of time or of space, Our love is a substance That life won't replace. No matter how distant, We'll always endeavor To sense the full meaning Of frienship forever. copyright jas 2008

Friends
FRIENDS The bestest of friends are the ones you can hold. The ones who you feel in your heart. The friends that will cry with you, When you feel alone, in the dark. The friends who will love you. The friends who won't laugh. The friends who will smile, No one else's smile is the half. The times when you're old, And you look back on memories. You smile at the times together, And remember the breeze. They are always with you. Unlike any other. They will always care for you. Much like your own mother. The best thing about them, Is the love that you share. You love them in your heart of hearts, And they also love you there. copyright jas 2007

Friend To Lend
FRIEND TO LEND Just keep smiling, never let anyone see your frown. Just call me up if you are feeling down. I will try my best to stay by your side, And help you until you can abide. But in return I will expect you'll do the same for me That you will stay until once again I can see. Please, don't run away if I am looking mad. I just need a friend so I'll no longer be sad. All I need is a friend, Even if letters is all I can send. I would be happy if I had one... Then maybe I'll be able to again see the sun. But even if I don't have a friend, I'll be a friend for people to lend. So if you need one, call me up, I'll be glad to fill your cup; With smiles and laughter is what I hope, In order for you to cope. And I won't complain for myself, I'll be known as a helping elf. I'll try to help and be a friend, A friend for someone that they can lend. I won't stay long, Just long enough to sing my song, And I hope it fills your cup, With joy and

Friend 2
FRIEND I felt so empty inside last night, When I didn't receive your call. I felt like crying but instead... I laid there staring at the wall. We've been through a lot this year together, And I know that it hurts to hear me reply to your questions with WHATEVER I honestly don't think that I want to ever understand, That we could never be no more than just friends. Is that what your title will always remain? Because whenever I look at you, I don't feel the same. I took a picture of you and held it real close to my heart. I prayed that we'd always be together. And yet, were falling apart. I told myself that I wouldn't cry whenever you decided to let go. And if you were to ask me if I cared about you, the answer would never be NO. I love you FRIEND. And that title is all you'll ever be. Instead I promise to never let you leave my heart or become a faded memory. Because I know that deep down inside, you will always be apart of me. copyright jas

My Kids Father
Im not exactly sure how to get all this out and still make sense, I suck with wording sometimes, please bare with me... I have been with my kids father for 10 years, all together... we split up for most of 07 but we are back together now... have been since nov 07... when I was gone, he was with this other chic and while he was with her, he ended up getting addicted to pain killers. she had like three different types and was more than happy to share them with him... well, now he FINALLY wants to get off of them... he had his first appointment at a methadone (sp?) clinic this morning and he says he feels pretty positive that it will be a good thing here's where I need the help: Do any of you know anyone that has ever been through this??? Was there still a detox period?? Is there ANYTHING at all that I can do to help make things easier for him?? we might not always get along but I will always love him and dont want to see anything bad happen to him any suggestions are

Friend
friend A friend is someone who cares when little things get to you she listens to your problems and takes away your blues She can come from far away or come from your next door her words are always great she never is a bore This friend who I am talking about just happens to be you whenever you have a problem I will always come through copyright jas 2008

Forgive Me
FORGIVE ME The gates of Hell stare back at me Trapped in this downward spiral I have nowhere to go Wasting away so slow Haunting me still, they pull me down As my sanity crumbles Sucked down into this lie With my last breath I cry Forgive me I'm a dead and broken soul Take one hard look at the pain That's swallowed at me whole Release me I cannot take it anymore Please help me to forget This useless life that I deplore Demons chase me through the night I'm backed into a corner Why can't they leave me be? Is it so hard to see? On my knees, I pray for death I do not fear the end Buried neck-deep in sin I see no way to win Forgive me I'm a dead and broken soul Take one hard look at the pain That's swallowed at me whole Release me I cannot take it anymore Please help me to forget This useless life that I deplore This war inside my head And all the blood it's shed All these words I've said For when I wind up dead Somebody save me from this dark

Forever Friend
FOREVER FRIEND Forever friend reach out to me when you feel despair and when your burdens are too many the load I will gladly share and when your heart grows weary and dark clouds cover you My friend I will stay beside you until the sun shines through. Forever friend, we have shared so much a special love we have come to know we have laughed and cried together and helped each other in love to grow Forever friend within my heart a special place for you is there because you are my forever friend and I will always care. copyright jas 2007

For My Princess
for my princess Another day has come and gone still im thinking if you are the one, I know i told you once before that our time apart makes our love grow more. And if that is true, then the hands of time for every stroke makes our love as strong as the oak. But even so it hurts my heart with the thought of me and you so far apart Even though I see your beauty but once a week rest assured, my love has not grown weak. If in time our paths go astray my love for you, still in my heart will stay. I know our love will stand the test of time 'coz tearing us apart is such a crime. My heart's contents to you I bare for you are the one that I love and care copyright jas 2008

For My Friend
FOR MY FRIEND As a friend I do wish you The best of life's blessings And freedom from sickness and pain. May your prayers and oblations, As blooms of carnations, Flourish in sunshine and rain. May the blessings of heaven Be showered upon you With favor from God and from man. May you harvest with pleasure The fruits of your labor To share with whoever you can. May the dew in the morning Refresh and delight you, And your days be filled with great peace. May your nights without number Be filled with sweet slumber; Your dreams filled with hope never cease. May your mate and your children Bequeathed and beloved Be cherished as jewels set in gold. May your joy blend with laughter, Both now and hereafter, As the days of your life unfold. copyright jas 2007

Far Away
FAR AWAY There are a hundred things that I wish I could share with you my love. A walk in the park as the sun is setting, a smile in the morning, a soft touch as we pass in the hallway, soft kisses as the moon begins to rise and we fall asleep in each other's arms. But even though these things are not possible right now... We share the sky as night closes around us. The stars that you see are the stars in my vision, and I often wonder if you're looking up, too. Thinking of you and our shared love, so far away, but just as close, as the stars in my eyes. copyright jas 2009

Eyes Like Yours
eyes like yours Eyes like yours can touch a mans soul Whether he’s young or old Timid or bold Eyes like yours look like oceans of crystal Beautiful, mysterious and mystical I want to know what thoughts are behind your eyes The place where your loves desires and soul lies Eyes like your look supernatural No joke, just being factual My love for you is nonexistent But my eyes long to watch you their insistent Eyes like yours entrap my mind And I don’t even know whether your personalities bad or kind Eyes like your send shivers up my spine And I’m not looking you so that’s no line. copyright jas 2009

April Fool Comment
Due to I'm on vacation in Gtmo,Cuba the Navy Base for a week or so . I'm working with a slow connection I thank everyone that leaves me a daily profile comment, but I'm working with a slow connection and unable to return the luv one by one so I'm going to try to leave a daily comment here for all my Fu-Friends to share.Pls remember to rate the blog and we both get credit Thanks miss ya'll. Myspace April Fools Day Comment Codes Movies Videos

Enchanted Lands
Let your mind entwine with mine as I take you to enchanted lands, don't be scared, 'cos you're with me, I will hold you by the hand. Come fly with me, between the clouds, the clear blue sea below, you will never, ever tire of me, I will dream so many places to go. I will show you all things spiritual, even faerie tales and spells, there's no need to wear a mask, with me you can be yourself. I will create a dreamland just for you, it will keep you safe from harm, a heavenly place to play around, full of frivolity and charm. Entwined with my mind, I will share it all, you will experience all things sensual, with the gentlest touch upon your skin, I will delight you to the eventual. I will explore your very intimacy, I will heighten all your senses, I will relax you so completely, you will slumber in my embraces. Your eyes will see such wonderment, my imagination knows no bounds, your emotions will ride a rollercoaster, an experience so profound. Your ears will bathe i

Dreans Of Beauty And Evil
Dreams of Beauty and Evil Dreams of beauty Dreams of evil Visions in the night Phantoms brought by the Sandman to liven up my sleep Playing with dragons or hunting vampires in the gloom Dreams of love Dreams of adventure My mind's way to escape the travails of the day Sometimes reviewing times gone by and sometimes days yet to come A few dreams I can remember Most vanish with the dawn Dreams of beauty and evil Dreams of angels and succubi Wizards and driving and hikes in the woods or swinging among the stars Strange images in my nighttime mind I wonder what I'll dream tonight copyright jas 2008

Dreaming Of You
DREAMING OF YOU I've been dreaming Of the day when I meet you My heart beats so softly But it races to see your smile I've been feeling Like I'm melting down inside Your voice chases me away And I can't seem to stand I can't wait To have you in my arms My breath won't slow down And I can't hold my ground So take my hand Bring me to a special place Love me and hold me Until it's time to go home copyright jas 2007

Dream Of You
As I laid down last night, I thought of you I thought of your smile, a shine so bright As I thought of your smile, I noticed your eyes Eyes that burn with love like fire I thought of how your sexy lips taste So soft and sweet as delicious strawberries Juicy from the hot summer sun of June As I thought of your lips I heard your voice So calm and tender, innocent as a young child As it brings silence to the songs that birds sing as you begin to speak Then I started seeing the physique of your body Fragile as china doll, beautiful and delicate Wanting to be held by my tender and loving arms That’s when I saw you lying next to me Our bodies flesh to flesh, your skin soft as velvet As I glanced deep into your eyes you released intimate desires, that have lived long within my soul That’s when I saw you give me your body to hold copyright jas 2008

Dragon Skies
DRAGON SKIES Ride now the Dragon Skies In all of wonder, upon a Magic dragon's back with Fair maiden in your arms. Let doves of love surround And hummingbird with Nectared flower invite a Gentle kiss upon her lips. Valiant dragon soaring high, Wing beats lifting to the skies Above the clouds and cares Of mortal man below. Hear rumbling roar so great The stars do cower with Dragon's passage high, through Time and Space, itself. Scaly scales smooth to Touch and warming heat from Dragon fire within the Cavern of his mighty light. Call an angel faerie forth That she may ride upon This magic wonder, too And give her faerie's love To the embracing lovers As they ride the Dragon Skies And see the wonders, Magic orbs of light And those of sound of Music sent by Pixie Down below, as gift of Pleasure nothing more. Higher, still, into the night The mighty wings beat Ever strong as roar of fire Bursts overhead like Molten crystals do they form

Double Edged Sword Games
DOUBLE EDGED SWORD GAMES Contaminated by this pure passion, saturated by it Never far beneath the surface and like a drug it’s always missed Catch a glimpse of it reflected in these eyes, a dark light there is no mistaking it Stare at this murderous gaze in the mirror then watch the glittering pieces litter the floor Scar that pretty face until it’s just as unrecognizable as my own, distorted by the cracks and bits of missing glass, kept pushing until this is all that’s left No more compassion and respect left, through giving warnings ***** it this bullet’s got your name etched on it Trained at your heart ready to blow you apart, think this is game? Couldn’t be more serious, told you more than twice just don’t have the time Said I wouldn’t go there but the line was crossed at last, been waiting for this moment No more apologies on this end and it’s far too late for you to begin We can’t go back in the past, prevent the events that have come to pass Only miss you until I ge

Didactic Of Man
I Age itself leaves the mind a sear, wandering cruel radical so crude, burning truth as future left rude, keep well the time a fear let a year. II Solitude oh love I seek you dear, payment for the love land now due: struck a mark upon the soil in prime, voice that lingers brings son no peer: wake and ask the value lain a knew life escapes the palette of rhyme. III Will you the shouldered cross bear face cold and damned into the wind, no malcontent have we shedding life's tear. IV Bleeding hearts dance take love well, flesh as it partakes in the coming spring, bounce tirades on the jack of a string. V Kept in rumbles lost not a tremble excuse, Fingers dance as the bard and live a Muse She is a love to view and part mostly Urn, mantle is the showcase heads and hearts turn, pick and shovel they place a show of shroud. VI Churchyard takes and gives from birth hole in hill, pen graces the page and minds keep words on a rill. VII Ghost

Desire
DESIRE My body has a fever Burning hot to touch, Erotic thoughts fill my head I want you oh so much A shivering sensation Travels down my spine, An overwhelming desire I have to make you mine Churnng in my stomach Dizziness in my head, I am drifting into fantasy Alone here in this bed Heavily my eyes do close In to ecstasy I go.... Now you are mine my love And no one has to know As this passion rises Mt throat feels hot and dry, My hungry gasping breath Becomes a long satisfied sigh One day I will have you Not a fantasy in my head, Be sure that I will get you I desire copyright jas 2007

Connection
CONNECTION What is this magical bond we share? Amidst the constant circus like avalanche of words, How did you know? Once like you stable and secure, He is older, yet betrothed to your dream, Faithful to uncertainty, A spirit yearning to be free. His subtle words lodge in your thought. Why did you pick this stranger With a hunger that you can not see? A young woman's hair kisses the breeze, Her dignity conceals the distance in her gaze. Is it possible that a simple innocent radiant smile, Or a crazy serendipitous verse, Could bring two people so diverse To where we find ourselves today? Strangers once to our own lives, At ease with the depth of our own emptiness, How unlikely it is that we are here It's quiet tonight, light raindrops filter through the leaves Washing away the dust, releasing fragrances On which the gentle breeze sweetens The kind of night you wish you were with the one you love Nestled close to the open fire Watching the moon duck in and ou

Category Update
Official Nominees to date: Drunkest Host: Redlar, Nightshade, Hellermoon, MammaHelle Co-host of the year: Nightshade, Hellermoon, Punkette, MammaHelle Drunkest Listener: Topfueler, OP Best Heckler: Mchgn Worst Heckler: Warmachine Best Segment: Slackney's Wisdom, Mad Lib Worst Segment: Video Game Live Contributor to the show: MammaHelle Quote of the year: Twatwaffle Please keep nominating and 2nding the ones you want to see as a date for the awards show is still to be determined. A new Category I am adding to this list is : Best Cam Dancer: Punkette My picks for that are Punkette, and Lil' Beelzebub

Remember!
As I wander through my day, and wander through my thoughts, I am remembering the moments in time when we shared a space only big enough for two. In my heart is the remembrance of our moments together. As the wind blows it caresses my soul with your sweet presence, with your sweet love! I want to never forget the moments we spent together, the moments we sat next to each other and smiled while looking into each others eyes. When you held me it was like a blanket of silk covering my body, a rush that set my soul on fire. Your kiss was like an amazing fairy tale that had no ending! Whisper to me in the wind, even if no-one else can hear it, I will know what you are saying. As the wind blows back, listen for my reply, as it will be as soft as satin. I will go to the ends of the earth to find you, as the waves of life seperate us into different worlds I will swim harder and swim faster, till I reach the shores of your world again. I will never give up on our love, never give up on us! Remem

Come To You
COME TO YOU When you have know light to guide you and no one to walk beside you I will come to you when the night is dark and stormy you won't have to search for me when you don't know how or why but you have lost you way have now fear when your dreams are falling I will hear your spirit calling and I swear I will be there see even if we can not be together now and forever and I swear that I will be there we all need somebody we can turn to someone who will always understand so even if your soul is dieing and you need the strength to keep trying I’ll reach out and take your hand for I will come to you copyright jas 2007

Cant Get Her Out Of My Mind
After all these years she is still hard to forget. Late at night before I fall asleep I close my eyes, and I see her standing there in her white cotton gown, her hair brushed out and long, a smile on her lips. I cannot get her out of my mind. I remember our last hours together, holding her in my arms. Wrapping her up, close to me. Not wanting to let her go, even though I knew I had to. “There must be a plan to all of this” I spoke aloud not caring if I was heard or not. “No one as good as her is taken without a plan.” I held her as she closed her eyes for the last time, entering a long perfect slumber. I cried for her that night, and all the next day. Feeling empty inside I wandered about the house, looking at the things that were hers. I cannot get her out of my mind. The seconds, minutes, and hours move slowly. I cannot get her out of my mind. I thought of her from waking to sleep and dreamed of her then. I cannot get her out of my mind. Slowly the days start

Broken Promises And Empty Words
BROKEN PROMISES AND EMPTY WORDS Lies all lies Every word that you say, Every moment, every day You look at me with innocent eyes Trying to hide all the lies I see right through you I sense all your lies You might fool everyone, But you don’t fool me Broken promises and empty words How can I trust you? You lied to me Too many times All I see is deception All I feel is betrayal Lies to my face And a knife through my back copyright jas 2007

The Different Attractions Of The Dark Carnival Are As Follows
The Carnival of Carnage is representation of the ghettos and the carnage that is within them. ICP takes this into a traveling "carnival" which shares the carnage from the inner cities with the rest of the world. The Carnival of Carnage is the actual Entity of the Dark Carnival. The Ringmaster is the overseer of the Carnival. He oversees your entire life and decides whether you are worthy to enter Shangri-La or doomed to eternal hell. The Riddle Box represents the mystery of life and also on the record talks about "living dead" as reference of what life could be like. The Great Milenko is a Necromancer and Illusionist who tries to trick individuals into greed and other such sins. He takes out the worst in a individual and you must be able to fight his magic in order to make it to Shangri-La. This record was the first in the track "Pass Me By" to give a big hint of the story to come. The Amazing Jeckel Brothers Jack Jeckel and Jake Jeckel. Jake is the good

Broken Promises
BROKEN PROMISES You’ve made one too many? Are you even aware. Now I wonder, If you even care. Your words mean nothing, Out of your mouth they flow. I used to hang on your lines, But that was long ago. You have crossed the line. Between right and wrong. Your broken promises, Have become a dyeing song. So get on going, Find another fool. Cause this one, Has heard enough of your bull. copyright jas 2007

Best Friends
BEST FRIENDS Someone I can talk to, Someone I can Trust, Someone who will be there, when my relationship rust. Someone who will save me, When everything goes wrong, Someone who will comfort me, And help me to be strong. Someone who listens, At anytime of day, Someone who will brighten up any sky thats gray. Someone who will always remanin, Incredibly beautiful and true, Someone who is my best friend, And that someone is just like you.. copy right jas 2007

Bane Of Existence
BANE OF EXISTENCE Man was born a slave to labor, To await implausible shine of favor. A visage that oft disappoints As much as it anoints. Toil in ominous silence, And barely restricted violence. Hither unto death, One abides until last breath. All for naught, One’s aches bought. From infancy to age, The world is a cage. Here for a blink of an eye, That instant that flies by, Our bodies are mere apartments, Universes tenements. The path ahead has bifurcations, Hoard piled on hoard of complications. A single road is a multitude of offers, But only one will hold the coffers. To dominance every knee bow, Yet flotsam and jetsam does it endow. All the plunder of the earth, Cannot secure a second birth. Contracted was the span, The era of life’s plan. No devious scheme nor art of man, Can hope to alter supernatural ban. No species of decals, Nor gold nor silver equals, Life’s spice- Ultimate price. copyright jas 2007

Balance
All things must balance, so I'm told. Every good word given out, three return. Every bad word offered equal, The same returns ten-fold to haunt. But of a tear, how to measure? The blinding light of morning sun. A gentle butterfly, sipping nectar, An orchid seen high in jungle tree? Softly dancing with a partner loving In the evening moonlight song. The fragrance of a rose that flies away. The soft cricket's chirp a-chiding. New green life, a tender sprout Roughly craggy volcano boulders A golden frog in jungle home so damp Burning cactus in boiling desert. Smell the ozone from a lightning storm, Ears are deafened by roaring thunder. A quiet echo in a cavernous canyon Gentle children playing upon your knee. The silver pine with mountain sage, Crisp cold air, clean and biting sharp. A soaring eagle calls, eager in the hunt, Tiny mountain mice scurrying in the brush. Smell the woodsmoke on a winter night, Hear the birds declare return of spring, Reap

Apology
APOLOGY if I should slip and say a word that hurts a burdened heart if I should frown and darken good intent if I react with arrogance designed to make me smart when empathy would soften your lament if I should wax too long and preach with holy-joe advice if I should walk away while you remain if I should boast in victory where silence would suffice where mercy would achieve the greater gain please forgive my ignorance and say a prayer for me have pity as I reach out and amend - I'm sorry for the pain I've caused, and this apology is sprinkled with my tears for a dear friend copyright jas 2007

Apart
APART I wish I could wipe your falling tears away, as you bravely smile through your pain... You see me suffer, then you break down and cry miles apart... In your dreams I softly kiss you, no one can see the pain, that we both feel inside miles apart... You whisper I love you and I whisper to the skies, I love you too When will this pain ever go away even though we are miles apart... To be by your side is a dream I can't deny But I will wish for it to come true. I miss you so badly my heart is breaking as we cry miles apart... copyright jas 2007

And Yet I Loved You
AND YET I LOVE YOU I dream of you before I lay my head down to sleep. I love you and, yet, I do not love you. I am fearful that we will never meet and that I shall live my life without you. But still, I love you. And when you come to me in my dreams you brush my cheek with your soft tender hand and gently press your lips against mine. And then I awaken And you will be gone once more And, yet, I shall still love you, my love, my dream love, I shalt never forget. And I will dream of you once again. copyright jas 2008

And I Love Her
AND I LOVE HER She is my breath of spring, my shade in the summer heat. And I love her. She is the scent of jasmine in the air, the comfort of a soft rain, the wonder of a star-filled sky, and I love her. She is the sun in my sky, the breeze on my cheeks, the sound of birds in the air. And I love her. She caresses my senses with the touch of love, the wonder of peace, the joy of pure contentment. To the world, she is simply a person. To this person, she is simply his world. And I love her… copyright jas 2007

Americana
AMERICANA America, America Through the years they call Looking for those to take the stand and some to take the fall Here we are, Here we are We will fight for thee And to soldier turns the common man to fight for liberty And here at home, In towers High The world would watch as thousands died This attack meant to cripple us would only make us stronger And we would stand and we would show them, We wouldn't stand it any longer So across the ocean, And across the sea To fall upon the sand Of a white stone desert red with blood Within a foreign land Through the years, We've fought our Wars And the battles of our friends In the solemn and the sacred cause that freedom has no end copyright jas 2007

All For One And One For All
ALL FOR ONE AND ALL FOR ALL Oft ignoring those around us, As they suffer loss and shame, Hiding in our secret chamber, Won't excuse us of the blame. Many hungry right beside us, And we often walk on by, For we feel they just disturb us, We don't say, we just imply. Why should we accept the burden, Of the world in which we live?, It's not us who made this happen, Why do you think we should give? We've been given many blessings, Our abundance we should share, Helping those who have so little, All those living in despair. One day we could be just like them, It could happen just like that, Watching others walk right by us, As they leave us where we're at. Don't be proud of your possessions, After pride, there comes a fall, Stand up tall and take this challenge, All for one, and one for all. copyright jas 2007

African Storms
A blazing sunrise at the crack of dawn across the African plain a new day is born nocturnal feeders make a hasty retreat as the sun slowly rises and turns up the heat a herd of gazelle and wildebeest have come to the river to drink and feast a nearby cheetah watches the pack quietly stalking as she plans her attack then with a burst of sixty or more she drags her prey down to the floor time for a rest before her meal scavengers gather for a chance to steal high above an eagle soars while crocodiles bask with open jaws hippos wallow to try and stay cool elephants drink from the diminishing pool a distant rumble a sound quite rare the sweet smell of rain fills the air menacing clouds begin to form there's a cool gentle breeze ahead of the storm thunder rolls across the sky and lightning strikes the ground nearby the heavy clouds release the rain a welcome relief for this arid plain in the pouring rain the air becomes still and the rivers and lakes sta

Adorn
Adorn Hard to explain with words only, How you light up everything surrounding you, Not comparable to anything else, Only in imagination, And authentic you alone can make it, Adorn was the word that first came up in my mind, When they asked me of you, To lend beauty to, To enhance everything else richly, Just with your presence, The general effect heightened and made to blossom, Nature embellished, People made delightful, The best in them brought out for the world to see, Adorn is what you bestow us, And like a mirror we reflect, What you truly are, Finest friend, a loving person, In which goodness, purity and selflessness Are manifested. And when the Father has missed you long enough, And temporarily separating you from us, Bringing you back in His arms, Know that you have alls undying love, And mine copyright jas 2007

A Vampires Lament
A VAMPIRES LAMENT Forever is so long When you spend it alone Living in the shadows In which you must hide Watching the centuries As they are born And as they die Feeding upon the ones that I envy They have life They have a right They have the gift of death Countless times I've longed for a companion With a touch as cold as mine For one with the warmth of a mortal body Would wither away with time And tempt me to drink them dry Alas, I have yet to find one with a curse like mine This is becoming more unbearable Every passing night I walk down the narrow alley To pick my feast of the night But I feel something different Someone is close behind The footsteps come closer As I run faster Though I have nothing to fear I feel a hand around my throat But being dead I cannot be choked I look to laugh at the stranger To find myself lost in his eyes Finding his touch colder than ice My fallen angel hath arrived Forever isn't long When you don't spend

A True Friend
A true Friend is hard find. They always get you out of binds. They always lend a helping hand. They like the same bands. A true friend is kind. They are as calm as the wind. A true friend does not judge. They never will budge. They might get you in a cram. They can always get you out of a jam. They never treat you with disrespect. They only have one asspect. To treat them the same. They never call blame. A true friend lasts forever. They always endever. A true friend never leaves despair. They are always fair. They do not care how you look. They will not judge you like a book. A true friend has lots of love. From God above. A true friend has alot of time. They will drop everything on a dime. A true friend is always there. A true friend is everything in the world. I am glad I found my true friend in you copyright jas 2008

Bite Me...i Don't Think So
University of Florence shows the remains of a female "vampire" from 16th-century Venice. Italian researchers believe they have found the remains of a female "vampire" from 16th-century Venice, buried with a brick in her mouth to prevent her feasting on plague victims. Matteo Borrini, a forensic anthropologist from the University of Florence, said the discovery was the first confirmation of a Medieval belief that vampires were behind the spread of epidemics, such as the Black Death.

A Thought Of You
A THOUGHT OF YOU My kind of music, My favorite song, I want to be with you All day & all night long... A spring breeze, A summer sun, Now that I know you You are my one... A winter sparkle, An autumn tree, Added all up It equals you & me... My best friend, My only lover, From here on out I'll keep you forever... A good laugh, With some happy tears, You're the one I go to Through all the coming years... When it rains it rains, When it snows it snows, I wrote this specially for you & you're the only one who knows... You keep me warm, When I'm so cold, As if my heart were for sale To you it was sold... Whether playing our favorite games, Or to music we sing & listen, When it comes to you There's just no competition... Not the best cut diamonds, Or the reddest rose, Could ever amount to When you hold me close... & when everything is said & done, The night is over & we've had our fun, Out of all the women I choose just one, The best

A Thank You To My Friends
A THANKS TO MY FRIENDS Thank you for being there when I needed you... and even when I didn't, Thank you for being there through the good times... and the bad, Thank you for being there to encourage my dreams.... and my crazy ideas, Thank you for catching me... before I fell down, Thank you for wiping away the tears... when I was crying, Thank you for cheering me up... and making me laugh, Thank you for all the great memories... and the bad, But most of all... thank you... For being you! copyright jas 2007

A Soldiers Prayer
A SOLDIERS PRAYER It's time to sleep I've been relieved My rifle at my side My knife in it's sheath Lord let me live another day As I put myself in harms way I made my choice, I took the oath I stand for freedom, but I don't boast My God, my country, my family The things I hold so dear With these all on my side There's nothing for me to fear But if I should fall before my next relief I will stand before you Lord with honor and dignity So, while I'm here please make me strong To fight the battles and right what's wrong God Bless America copyright jas 2007

One Of My Favorite Poems
I Think That I Shall Never See A guy who's perfect just for me, A man who's bright and doesn’t bore me, Who has the good taste to adore me, One whose passion doesn't wane When he finds out I have a brain, Yet one who will flatter, charm, and flirt (A lot of money couldn’t hurt). So, if you see my Mr. Right, Feel free to call me, day or night, And if he doesn’t come along, I’ll consider Mr. Wrong. Author anonymous

A Soldiers Life
A SOLDIERS LIFE An army Must Link together To stand together Parts working for the whole A well oiled machine Requires many teams Alone soldiers die Pairs have extra eyes Weapons were sticks and stones Now their meant only to break bones They continue on For so long That some forget why They risk their lives Then as in war they see destruction and death It turns on a heath inside A burning will to provide Each tries their best to help each other Believing them to be brothers They do not mourn when one dies But continue the fight To save the others and remember those Who have died copyright jas 2007

A Sense Of Love
A SENSE OF LOVE Birdsong on the morning of The first warm day of spring, Skillful fingers playing Along a guitar string, The tinkle of a babbling brook As sunlight makes it glisten, All these things were there for me But I forgot to listen. The mirror of a mountain lake Reflecting snowy peaks, A playful child's impish grin Between two rosy cheeks, The orange glow of the setting sun Sad to see it leaving, There I was with open eyes Seeing, not believing. Aroma from a bakery After a fresh batch, Butter fried with onions To cook the morning's catch, A woman wearing fine perfume And all that can entail Persuing my olfactories But I did not inhale. The feather touch of a caress Drawn across the skin, Filling up a steaming bath And slowly sinking in, The warmth of a new friendship as It forms a special bond, These were reaching out to me But I did not respond. The boldness of a red Merlot Dancing on the tongue, An appertif of coffee When the meal i

A Friend Like You
A FRIEND LIKE YOU A Friend Like You Will Never Turn Me Away. A Friend Like You Will Be There For Me Everyday. A Friend Like You Will Hold Me When I Am Feeling Sad. A Friend Like You Will Rejoice For Me When I Am Feeling Glad. A Friend Like You Always Knows What To Say And How To Put It Gently, To Make The Pain Go Away. copyright jas 2007

A Friend In Need
There may be times when you feel lonely But you will never be alone When you need someone to comfort you You can call my heart your home Just take a look over your shoulder And no matter where you are I will be right there beside you Your ever faithful guardian star I will comfort you and hold you And tell you things will be alright I will cradle you in my arms Throughout the cold and lonely night I'll paint more colors in your rainbow And put a light inside your heart I'll build a bridge between us So we will never be far apart As a friend you can rely on me Any hour of any day And to you I will come running I'll bring my love to light your way So when I hear you say 'I need you' Always know that I'll be there My friendship ever faithfull Showing you how much I care copyright 2008 jas

Wednesday Auto 11 Blog
AUTO 11'S RUNNING TODAY. HERE ARE SOME TO START OFF WITH AND WILL BE ADDING AS I SEE THEM. AS ALWAYS, IF YOU HAVE THEM FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT IN HERE IF I HAVE OVERLOOKED YOU! THESE ARE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER. A PAGE AND BLOG RATE WOULD BE MOST APPRECIATED AND MAYBE MY SALUTES? LOL ** PLEASE REMEMBER IF I AM HITTIN YOUR PAGE AND DOING "NOTHING" I AM JUST CHECKING TO SEE IF YOU STILL HAVE AUTOS ON OR GETTING YOUR LINK FOR THIS BLOG, IM NOT A BOT (ASK JOHNNY DEVIL) LOL ~ Cherrybomb™ ~Owner of BUMP N GRIND~Founder of CIA~Club FAR/Team Love~Pegasus Project~SBG~@ fubar ❤HORNY ANGEL❤™@ fubar Kimberly@ fubar ~N~Power~@ fubar SouthernOutlawBiker~DSC~OutlawsAndPu$$ycats~Owned By Cynz Dreams@ fubar Aousche@ fubar

Run Away Bar Stool
In this photo released Tuesday, March 31, 2009, by the Newark (Ohio) Police Department, a motorized bar stool is shown. Police in Newark, 30 miles east of Columbus, say when they responded to a report of a crash with injuries on March 4 2009, they found a man who had wrecked a bar stool powered by a deconstructed lawn mower. Police say Kile Wygle, 28 was charged with operating a vehicle while intoxicated after he told an officer at the hospital that he had consumed 15 beers. Wygle told police his motorized bar stool can go up to 38 mph.

A Fairy Tale
Once upon a time there was a princess who lived in the most beautiful castle on this earth She had everything a young girl could wish for but she hated her life and swore it was a curse. All the men loved to see her she was the fairest sight anyone could ever see I know the exact points of view of the princess because that princess is me. No one ever understood her, no one took the time no one cared of how she felt she never talked to anyone, and she was always by herself. She wrote what she thought, wrote things that would happen to her she didn’t know how good her life was and how important the people around her were. She was always locked up in her little room deeply looking out into the clear blue sky wishing on all she had that her handsome prince would soon ride by. She wished and prayed and hoped her little heart out she long awaited her unknown prince She longed for the day he would find her and dreamt upon their first kiss. Every night she would count t

A Dreamers Dream
A DREAMERS DREAM Let me dream this dream with you, A dream nestled in clouds for us two; On your chest my head I’ll rest, Let’s make this night our greatest. Dark and cold this moonless night, Warm my body and hug me tight; Touch my lips with heavenly bliss, Let’s explore the mighty space. The music played was sweet and romantic, Made our bodies moved with mystique; Arms seems reaching while hips keep swaying, Two most common steps in dancing. Clouds of white envelops our bodies As we get higher to the sky, Precipitation falls as we reached high There we give our sweetest smile. copyright jas 2007

24 Karats
24 KARATS You know gold is valued according to its purity And that purity is measured in karats 24 being the purest. I was thinking what if people were measured the same way 10 karat gold has impurities added to make it the strongest, yet still valuable. 10 karat people are the same way, they are very valuable Yet life's impurities have hardened them so they feel little and love even less. 14-karat people are a bit softer, yet in their minds softness is a weakness so they hide it; allowing life’s little and most precious pleasures to pass them by. 18 karat people are most special, they love everyone but themselves, thinking that they have to be perfect in every way. Not knowing that trying to reach perfection is the one thing that keeps them from achieving it. Then there are the 24 karat people, like pure gold they Are soft, warm, and bend at the merest touch They are the ones that realize that perfection does not have to be in the body or mind, but only in the heart

9-11-2001
9-11-2001 Two thousand one, nine eleven Three thousand plus arrive in heaven As they pass through the pearly white gates Thousands more appear in wait A bearded man with a pipe and a hat Steps forward saying, "Lets sit, lets chat" They settle down in floating clouds A man named Martin shouts out proud "I have a dream!" and once he did The Newcomer said, "Your dream for a fact still lives." Groups of soldiers in blue and gray Others in khaki, and green they did say "We're from Bull Run, Yorktown, the Maine" The Newcomer said, "You never once died in vain." From one man who shouts out proud on sticks. "The only thing we have to fear. The Newcomer said, "We know the rest, trust us sir, we've passed that test." "Courage doesn't hide in caves You can not bury freedom, down deep in a grave," A silence fell within the cloudless mist Somehow the Newcomer knew that this Meant time had come for him to say What filled the hearts of the five thousand plus tha

3 Words
3 words here are three words in this world that when put together mean more than any other These three words are told to one another when two people really care for each other It comes from the heart and the center of your soul When you feel these words you should let them know If you feel it inside and never tell them you may deeply regret not doing so Well I'm writing you this to let you know That I love you baby and I'll never let you go. copyright jas 2008

Andy Hallett
LOS ANGELES (AP) - Andy Hallett, who made his mark playing green-skinned, good-guy demon Lorne on the TV series "Angel," has died of congestive heart disease. Hallett was 33. Hallett was taken by ambulance to Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles after having problems breathing and died there Sunday, following a five-year battle with the heart condition, his agent Pat Brady said Tuesday. His father, Dave Hallett, was by his side. "Andy was the all-American boy from Massachusetts," Brady said. "He was a hoot. He was comfortable wherever he went. Girls loved him. He was a very gregarious, happy young man." Born and raised in Osterville, Mass., Hallett moved out to Los Angeles when he was 23 and worked as a messenger at a talent agency, said Brady. He went on to become an assistant to Joss Whedon's wife, Brady said. It was when Whedon saw the lanky Hallett perform karaoke that he had him audition for "Angel," a spinoff of Whedo n's hit series "Buffy the Vampire Sl

Good Guys?
It's come to my attention that a lot of women always ask where are all the good guys at but yet they can't see when they are right in front of them. Sometimes I often find myself wondering if it is even worth being the kind of guy that I am. I mean I'm the type of man that ACTUALLY likes to spend time with his lady. I like to go out and shoot pool and whatnot, but I would much rather spend time with that special someone. I'm the kind of man that would cook for his lady or send her text messages/voice messages just to tell her that she's on my mind or that I love her. I'm not afraid to express how I feel. I'm not even afraid to hold hands out in public. When she's feeling down, I'll act like an jackass just to see her smile. When she's angry or upset, I'd lend my ear and let her vent. If we were living together, I'd help maintain the household duties instead of let her do it all. I'd do little things like write her poems or send her flowers "just because". Hell, I have even shed a tear

Waa's
LOL. So Texas Blondie was apparently rated somewhere below a 9 and she got pissed! Ugly people make me laugh! She did think my status was funny so i need to thank her for that. But i can't because she blocked me with the crafty words"blocked". Now i am all sad. LOL. Guess that is one less friend. Awwwww -G- Ah I was able to get one of them back today. So I rate this Sweet Kitty person a 9. Now 9 is not bad at all. In fact I thought the woman was pretty cute, but the picture just didn't say 10 to me. What did I say? Oh the picture. Not the person. Anyway, she says something about thanks down rater or something like that which is no big deal but she left a message all cussing me out like "you think you're an 11 fucker?" Come on. No where on here do i say i am an 11. Can't give myself one. Nor do I ask for one anywhere. I really could give two shits and a fuck if i get one or not. I have got a few of them from the real women here that are smokin like say anyone from my friends lis

Friends
Current mood: bummed Category: Friends Ok I have no idea what I have done but one of my friends will not talk to me and has not since like 3 weeks ago, it is really starting to piss me off. This person used to text me every day or at least once every day and now I have not heard any thing from this person in like 3 weeks it is really starting to make ne think you don't want to be my friend any more and if you don't please just text me and tell me what the fuck is up with you. ¢¾

Thanks, Andrea!!!
Hey...YOU..ya you! this is the BEST group of people you could know get your butts over to their profiles and do the FU thing R/F/A them all you wont regret it ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ my hubby i loves him so! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ my bestest friends ever

Wolf Who Steps News Howl!
SITTING HERE ENJOYIN MY SIS'S OLDIES RADIO STATION HOWL! http://www.rockintotheoldies.com/ HER NAME IS SHE WOLF BITES AND IS JUST A 'PEACH' AMOUNG HUMANS! I AM STIL IN OCALA FLORIDA AND WE ARE FINALLY GETTIN A BUNCH OF RAIN HERE. SEMINOLE/CHEROKEE POW-WOW COMIN UP THIS WEEKEND CLOSE TO HERE IN FT. McCOY THAT IS ALWAYS GRAND HOWL! THANKS FOR READIN MY LAST BLOG AND WORDS OF SUPPORT. WHISPERS SOFT NEVER MADE IT HERE SADLY BUT I AM STILL HOPIN AND PRAYIN AND TALKED WITH HER RECENTLY. SHE BEING A VERY PRIVATE PERSON I DONT WANT TO GO INTO ALL WHAT IS GOING ON BUT MONEY ISNT AN ISSUE ANY LONGER K. PRAYERS FOR HER AND HER MOTHER WOULD BE APPRECIATED AND NEEDED. THANKS! THIS WOLF IS STILL SEEKIN AND WANTING TO MEET AND DO SOME RIDIN WITH HARLEY WOMEN WHILE I AM IN FLORIDA K. I WONT BE IN THIS NECK OF THE WOODS TOO MUCH LONGER SO DONT MISS OUT ON BEING WITH THE BEST WOLF IN THE WORLD AND RIDIN HIS WOLF HARLEY K HOWL! 585-300-7783 LUV AND BITES STEPPINWOLF

Funding Ran Out For My Aunt
So as im calling yesterday wondering why my aunts MDS medication Revlimid is almost 2 weeks late,in the last 2 weeks they have told me numerous excuses as to why, from being lost in the system to some other bullshit stories...so I finally get a hold of someone that can give the answers I need.I think I have it all straightened out her meds are being delivered today at some point...so they call me back after I think it is all good and tell me the one of the societies I go through for funding doesnt have enough to cover her copay which by the way they tell me its over 3k this month,so my heart sinks, but, I remember I had applied for co pay assistance through the Leukemie and Lymphoma Society so I do all my faxing bullshit and all my phone calls yesterday...and its covered but for this month only..so my task today is to apply to as many co pay assistance programs I can find out there to cover her for the rest of the year...all this due to the fact that her previous med dosage was upped f

Bleh!
Im just not feeling so fantastic today. Probably because of all the crap that built up and exploded in my face yesterday. Postponing the wedding seems to have just wiped out just about every care I have in the world. I could care less about pretty much everything lately. Bleh! S.P.G

04-01-09 April Fools!
A horse and a chicken are playing in a meadow. ========================= The horse falls into a mud hole and is sinking. He calls to the chicken to go and get the farmer to help pull him out to safety. The chicken runs to the farm but the farmer can't be found. So he drives the farmer's Corvette back to the mud hole and ties some rope around the bumper. He then throws the other end of the rope to his friend the horse, and drives the car forward saving him from sinking! A few days later, the chicken and horse were playing in the meadow again and this time the chicken fell into the mud hole. The chicken yelled to the horse to go and get some help from the farmer. The horse said, "I think I can stand over the hole!" So he stretched over the width of the hole and said: "Grab for my penis and pull yourself up." And the chicken did and pulled himself to safety. If you're hung like a horse, you don't need a sports car to p

Cant Believe
i cant believe what they say is true how could you be gone away forever never to be seen again on earth but you will always be seen in my eyes its still hard to this day to know that i missed your funeral it kills me day in and day out just to know that i didn't get to say my last good-byes to you the. the only person that ever truly cared for me no i didn't even make it to your brothers funeral and that kills me also but i wasn't nearly as close to him as i was to you my grandmother you were then just a grandmother your were my best friend we had alot of laughs but it is sad to think that we will never be able to have those laughs again on earth but you always remember that i love you more then anything in this world you r my heart my soul and most of all your my grandmother the kids still ask about you every now and then but i haven't had the heart to tell them that they wont be able to see your smiling face in this world again we know you love us but still why did

The Fool, Dear Brutus, Is Not In Our Stars But In Ourselves
That line from William Shakespeare's play "Julius Caesar" should be fault, not fool, but I'm taking some liberties with it. I did that with the title of a prospective novel of mine as well that still sits three-fourths done on my computer from three years ago too. I honestly thought the line was "LIES not in our stars but in ourselves". By the time I found it didn't it still made a great title. Perhaps that should be one of my projects this year; I certainly relieved Pastor Gerald at my church this morning by taking responsibility for writing a short presentation we'll deliver Palm Sunday when the procession carrying a cross around Minot makes its third stop at Bethany Lutheran. Once I've played Pontius Pilate and Pastor Gerald's played Caiaphas and our as-yet-unnamed narrator has spoken, we'll be proceeding with the cross to our next stop. The Red River in Fargo is actually down from its high point as of this morning, but the snowfall expected there this weekend could still ca

Stone Sour - Bother
Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I'll never live down my deceit

Confuzzled
right now im quietiong all of my friendships. because most people just feel sorry for me thats why they talk to me. i dont know but of a few people who are realy there for me. i know trusting people is going to be hard because of last night. right now im with some one who is 15 and i dont want to be with him. im going to be 20 in 15 days..this song is how i feel about they guy that im in love with.

Linkin Park - Givin' Up
Wake in a sweat again Another day's been laid to waste In my disgrace Stuck in my head again Feels like I'll never leave this place There's no escape I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all the way I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me I don't know what to take Thought I was focused but Im scared I'm not prepared I hyperventilate Looking for help somehow somewhere And no one cares I'm my own worst enemy I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all the way I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me Goddddddd!!!! Put me out of my misery Put me out of my misery Put me out of my Put me out of my fucking misery I've given up I'm sick of feeling Is there nothing you can say Take this all the way I'm suffocating Tell me what the fuck is wrong With me

Hmmmmmmmm
Ok i got beef!!!! I want to know why if you have friends and you think their good friend, how come when they have something good happen to then you are the first to say something, but when you have something good happen you get nothing? Ok it's open people let Tiggea know whats up.

Idk...
Wakened to another cursed day, I breathe the stale air of remorse. I want to leave this monotony behind, and end all that I hate to witness. Love is weak and pointless, allow the hate to prevail within. The burning passion for destruction, it pulls me under to see my destiny. Down that path of devastation, I see my reflection of a damaged soul. The broken heart among the shame, my permanent reminder of misery. I will inhale the smoke of anger, and taste Death’s kiss. By my own hand, I will bleed my life down to nothing, and open my arms to Death’s embrace. The razor so inviting, the sting so enticing. The hot sensation of the crimson nectar, A comfort in its own. Let this feeling take me over to my final passing.

Speak Out To Defend Conscience Protections
Recent weeks have demonstrated the dangers of increased government intervention into private matters. Now the Obama administration wants the federal government to meddle in perhaps an even more disturbing matter: personal conscience. The Department of Health and Human Services wants to overturn important federal regulations that protect health care professionals who act according to their deeply held personal convictions. Speak out against this injustice and post your comments at www.ADoctorsRight.com. Current regulations make sure doctors, nurses, and pharmacists can uphold their personal beliefs while practicing medicine--without facing discrimination or retribution in the workplace. This problem is a serious one, as real health care providers have been fired and denied opportunities because of their desire to not participate in procedures, such as abortions, that violate their consciences. It is imperative that HHS hears the voices of liberty-minded individu

Coming Home Soon Sfc Louis G Mp
SFC LOUIS G MP . IRAQ I have known Louis G for only a short period of time. During that time, I learned a lot about life from him. He is definitely a HERO, who will be demobilized out of Iraq and back to the United States very soon. Lou has spent quite a lot of time in the military, and has been stationed in Iraq for one (1) year. Soon he will be reunited with his wife and daughter, who are waiting patiently for his return. Bless you Lou, and thanks for being my "friend," You are truly a special person. My prayers and thoughts of love are with you as God continues to keep you safe, now and always! Additionally, for those who do not honor our soldiers, should be ashamed of themselves. “War,” is no joke! It takes courage and great fortitude to tolerate what our soldiers have endured. Love you Lou, from the bottom of my heart! Magdalena M, Delaware USA

University April Fools! Lol
UC San Diego -- a school for the smart ones, supposedly -- mistakenly congratulated nearly 29,000 applicants on their acceptance, according to university officials. Earlier this month, about 17,000 student were offered admission for the fall, leaving nearly 29,000 hopefuls out in the cold. But on Tuesday, the school's communications office said an e-mail was sent Monday afternoon to all 46,377 students who applied for admission -- including the 29,000 rejects -- welcoming them to the campus. A half-hour later, school officials said, they realized their mistake. Almost two hours after the first note went out, a second e-mail was sent, apologizing to 28,889 freshmen applicants for the mistake. "No member of this department is more acutely aware of the emotional roller-coaster that this could cause for our applicants," Assistant Vice Chancellor Mae W. Brown said. An anonymous parent told the Los Angeles Times it was a "colossal screw-up." Similar incidents have happened at

My Dick Of A Best Friend
brotherhood and all its humor So you know that old saying "you cant pick your family?" or what about this one, "blood is thicker than water," have you ever heard the rest of that? cuz it goes somthin like this "but love is thicker than blood". So i received a phone call about a week ago while i was at my moms, from the woman i rent a room from. She told me that a guy called Black Boots had stopped by and told her that he was looking for me. I was kinda surprised since he was supposed to be in jail and all. That and the last time i had really seen him I was re-arrangeing his face for him. You see Black boots is really named Jason Stull, my once dearest friend. I had kinda cought he and my long time girlfriend Shannon Antonelli together and we had not spoken since, well not civily anyway. So you can immagine my surprise. When He and Shannon were sneakin around behind my back, they were on some seriouse drugs, not gonna say what, but i think we all know. It hurt, not that he ha

Loves Palace
If I could pour my heart into a golden chalice a moment to entice you to stay in loves palace Allow this time to reveal the horizon beyond curiosity since every trace becomes more evident of its decree Just a little taste is never enough just a little spank, just a little nibble nothing to rough I want to live on the edge of outside to give you my all and set aside pride Reaching out to lift you off the ground bringing out that wonderful smile of your to be found A precious treasure that ignites my desire enflaming passionate nights under stars to admire Just another sleepless night without you won't do just another hour and I'll miss you Just one more day to make 1+1=2 I want to live on the edge on the edge of outside to give a love that refuses to hide I won't quit anytime soon as I reflect the suns rays like the moon

Clayton Bruster
Clayton Bruster Photgraphy, Atristics, Creatives Http;//www.brusterphotograhy.com http://brusterphotography.com/index.cfm View the model Nicole video with music from Shania Twain The Woman In Me Did you ejoy that video while you were there ? Did you see the other Clay has done ? If you like what you have seen and would like to own this mans work for your home , office , friends , family , co worker Contact Clay Bruster email; claysphotoart@hotmail.com or claysphotoart@yahoo.com He understands the State our economy is in at the moment and can work out a payment plan if you see something your really want . http://www.ArtWanted.com/widget/w.swf?r=0&a=7140&d=fade&th=blackgradient&k=Random" quality="high" wmode="transparent" width="400" height="250" name="Widget" align="middle" allowScriptAccess="sameDomain" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer">>

Little Angels
Little Angels When God calls little children to dwell wih him above, We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love . For No heartache compares with the death of one small child . Why does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild. Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold .So he picks a rosebud before it can grow old . God know how much we need them, as so he takes but a few to make to the land of heaven more beautiful to view .Believe this is difficult still some how we must try The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye"So when a little child departs , we who are left behind must realize God Love Children , Angels are hard to find . Send to us in August 1987 when we lost our son jason to SIDS . From Bob and Jean Melton Chula Vista , California . Jason Micheal Kestner Born May 22, 1887 Died August 14,1987 We love and miss him so much he is always in our hearts ,

Loss Of Jason
Loss of Jason(Done by Mom ak swwet southern angel) Sept. 24th 1987 1 month & 10 days after Jay died) post date: 2008-08-27 16:38:46 views: 4 comments: 1 ratings: 0 The pain is hard to handle. I miss his sweet smile in the mornings his face would light up so much when he smiles. The way he loved to sit up and look around. He would look when you held him up and he was looking at you or I. His smile would and look would make you feel so wonderful. He has twinkling blue eyes. He was our angel sent from heaven. His loved touched us all. But, God took our angel home with him. God is watching over our baby. We miss him so much our beautiful baby Jason and trying to go on living without him is very difficult because our love was so strong for him. His brother Chris misses Jason but, he loves Jason with all our hearts as we all do. Jason touched our lives to a great extent. The apartment is so quiet now. With no cries for a bottle or to be held. No r

Grilled Spicy Tequila Chicken
Grilled Spicy Tequila Chicken Recipe Feedback: User Rating Be the first to write a review By Chelsie Kenyon, About.com .Filed In:Main Dishes> Poultry, Veal and Fish> Got Chicken? 267 Tequila Infusion- Chile Pepper Sponsored Links Chicken Tortilla Soup Good Family Eats of the Week Make Something Healthy & Tasty www.ParentsConnect.com How Rachel Ray Lost 30lbs Obey Rachel's Diet Recipe! Read My Diet Success Story. www.RecipeSource.com Grilled Chicken Recipes Bring flavor to your next chicken dish using Swanson® Stock. www.swansonstock.com Mexican Food Ads Chicken Breasts Recipe Chicken Alfredo Jerk Chicken Orange Chicken Rotisserie Chicken I made this recipe using 267 Tequila Infusion Chili Pepper. It is a good quality tequila that has hot chiles in it that gives the tequila big kick of heat and a subtle chile flavor. If you cannot get a hold of this tequila, you can just use regular tequila and add some sliced chiles to

Salsa Chicken
Salsa Chicken Recipe Feedback: User Rating 4.5 out of 5 (2 reviews) 22 Write a review By Chelsie Kenyon, About.com .See More About:mexican chicken recipesquick and easy recipesbudget recipes Sponsored Links Fried Chicken Good Family Eats of the Week Make Something Healthy & Tasty www.ParentsConnect.com Chicken Crockpot Recipe Slow Cooker recipes. Quick prep time for simple & delicious meals. www.CampbellsKitchen.com On The Border® Restaurant Featuring Traditional Mexican and Mesquite-Grilled Specialties! www.OnTheBorder.com Mexican Food Ads Mexican Tamales Chicken Quesadilla Recipe Free Mexican Recipes Tamale Recipes Cappuccino Recipe This recipe is so simple you will wonder what you ever did without it in your collection. Ingredients: •4-6 boneless, skinless chicken breasts or thighs •2 cups of salsa •3 cups chicken broth Preparation: Bring chicken broth and salsa to a boil in a large pot. Add chicken and simmer f

How Can This Be Lord
how can you take everybody away from me means so much to me its like my whole world has fallen apart i know that people say you don't take them away unless it is there time but sometimes i find that hard to believe and i honestly don't understand where you are coming from wen you take a father of two lil ones then a lil over a year later you took a 16 year boy and i know that he had no right to be out that late driving, now they have to live on in the hearts of there loved one they will always and for ever live on in my heart i know that much for sure but i still don't understand why there time on earth they were both so young when they had to come home forever i know you more then likely had or have something very special for them to do i know that they are the angels i feel around me all the time i see them in my kids all the time and they never got to meet either of them it just really hard to deal with sometimes cuz they act so much like them its not even and i thank god everyday

Venting I Guess......the Sad Thing Is I Know Several People Like This!!!!!
You ever wonder what it is that turns a child against their parents. Makes them disrespectful and just plain rude and obnoxious? You ever wonder why or how a child develops no respect for themself or for others? You ever wonder what makes a person become so bad that they harm themselves, rape or kill another? You ever wonder why there is no respect in the world or not enough? You ever wonder why the world is the way it is? You ever wonder why the economy is the way it is?.........Crooks, Politicains and then some.

My 1st Sale On Bully's Ty Crazed Maniac!!!
Plz help me Oracle!!!! A big thank you to all my Friends ,Family and All who helps in advance!!! Click on any pic to take U to My profile!!! This bullY brought 2 U by: ® ♕ Make me be good! ♕..Proudly Owned By Teddy Bear Beer Hunter & Crunchman8117@ fubar

Lessons For Life.
1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. 2. Memorize your favorite poem. 3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have, or loaf all you want. 4. When you say, "I love you," mean it. 5. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 7. Believe in love at first sight. 8. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much. 9. Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. 10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name-calling. 11. Don't judge people by their relatives, or by the life they were born into. 12. Teach yourself to speak slowly but think quickly. 13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 14. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk. 15. Call your mother. 16. Say, "bless you" when y

It Still Sucks
It was one year ago today that we lost my 20 year old niece to diabetes. It was also 27 years to the day that we lost her sister shortly after she was born(premature). The first time I lost my faith in God. This time I questioned my faith in everything else. I had since come to realize that my faith was a blind faith based on what I had been indoctrinated with, not what was in my heart. It was my religion I had lost faith in, not God. I still believed there was a God, we just weren't on speaking terms anymore. But this time I couldn't fathom how such a thing could happen twice to my sister and on the same day(did I mention that it was her birthday as well?). I questioned whether there could be any God in a world where such things could happen. Ironicly enough I found an answer at her funeral. The pastor at her church uttered one of the only statements that any official of any organized religion has ever made that rang true for me. He stated that the God who makes peop

A Fun Blog Game
WARNING: This thread may become addictive and may result in brain torture and severe laughter! Please, keep this CLEAN, it's NOT tagged as NSFW and I want it kept that way..... Here we go: There's a bottle on the beach, washed up by the tide, you open it and out pops a Genie who grants you a single wish, although you may make a wish, the genie will grant it, with a twist.... for the genie is a bit demented with a sick sense of humor. The object of this game is to screw up the previous person's wish then make a wish for the next person to mess with. I'll Start: I wish I had enough money to never work again.

Rock On The Range
ROCK ON THE RANGE 2009: ROCK FESTIVAL RETURNS SATURDAY, MAY 16 AND SUNDAY, MAY 17 TO COLUMBUS, OHIO’S CREW STADIUM; FEATURING SLIPKNOT, MÖTLEY CRÜE, ALICE IN CHAINS, AVENGED SEVENFOLD AND KORN; MORE THAN 35 ACTS TO PERFORM ON THREE STAGES. ROCK ON THE RANGE--America’s premiere destination rock festival-- will return to Columbus, Ohio’s Crew Stadium Saturday, May 16 and Sunday, May 17. The 2009 line-up for the nationally renowned festival centrally located in the heart of the country will be highlighted by performances from some of rock’s biggest artists including Mötley Crüe, Slipknot, Alice In Chains, Avenged Sevenfold and Korn. Tickets for ROCK ON THE RANGE, as well as VIP Packages that include festival tickets, hotel accommodations and festival merchandise, go on sale Saturday, February 21 at 10:00 AM (ET) via www.rockontherange.com and www.ticketmaster.com, all local. Ticketmaster outlets and at the Crew Stadium box office. Two-day ticket

Just Thoughts
Just in the year that i have been on this site it has changed so much. Not exactly for the good either. I have made some good friends on here and met some of them in person but the site in general is goin to hell in a hand basket. The regular member cant get help without having to basically beg for it or pay for it. We help all the ppl that have their HH's or Autos but in my own experience...even when i help them cuz they want it....i don't get the help back in return. I do have a few friends that are always there when i need help but for the most part....this online popularity contest is more than that. there are alot of women that will do anything ( and i do mean anything to get what they want) and that to me is just crap. Gives real women with morals a bad name. Anyway...these are my thoughts on Fubar at the moment. I'm just tired of the bullshit

A Song And A Story
I was discussing some Alt-Pop tunes of the 90’s today with a friend, and military rank with another and it got me thinking of a song with a story. The song is “Hey Jealousy” by the Gin Blossoms. A side note of the Gin Blossoms, being really one of the few bands to make it from Arizona, the day they broke up was front page headline news in the Phoenix paper. The opening to that song starts out: “Tell me if you think it would be alright, If I could just crash here tonight, See I’m in no shape for driving, Anyways, I’ve got no place to go.” This song will forever be in my head the “Alpha-10 Song.” To explain, let me give you some background information, in the military all vehicles are assigned numbers, and they use the phonetic alphabet, so A-10 would be referred to as “Alpha-Ten”, though on the radio you would say Alpha Won Zero but that’s not important. Alpha-10 was a HMMWV (High Mobility Multi Wheeled Vehicle aka a Hummer) which was issued to Staff Sergeant “Millhouse” (

Step Up
This was the comment I just submitted to CNN lol... thought I would share Let me just explain one thing. I'm a 35 year old smoker from Canada who pays nearly $10 for a package of 25 cigarettes. I know the choice I am making is not only physically harmful, but it is also a financial strain to my paycheck every week. For now, I don't mind paying the extra knowing that at anytime I can goto the hospital and be treated free of cost. Regardless of if I need it or not, it is important to me that is privilege and right for others to be tended to while they are ill, obligates me in my choice to do something harmful to myself. Taxation of cigarettes and alcohol seems only right. Sure you will be harming the less fortunate people of your society as they are typically the ones to turn to a vice in tough times. But consider if they had the option to be treated for illness or injury free of charge, imagine what extra money these individuals would have to enroll in training for a better jo

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.

Haters :)
I love haters.....you know why (drum roll please)....cause they cant keep my name outta there mouths. i love it when people i dont even know talk shit. just shows im doing everything right. yea i know im that fucking amazing that u gotta always be up my ass and all up in my business. honestly how freaking pathetic are you to go out of your way to look at my page and actually try to get crunk when you know in all honesty you a damn nutcase? hahahaha!!!!!! people have nothing better to do with there own life. your life must be really fucked up seriously. cause why the fuck you worried bout mine. so like i always say KEEP TALKING SHIT BITCH YOUR MAKING ME FAMOUS!!!!!!!

More Venting Lol
When are some people going to learn that you have to take what you have learned in your life and move foward? Everything that happens to us is a lesson that we must learn and learning that lesson does not change what has happened. We can never take anything back, but why would we want to? It would change who we are and how we look at life. I have lost more in this lifetime than many people will ever have. But I have also gained more than I ever imagined. I have gained insight into myself. I have learned that my life is limitless and I can handle anything that you want to throw at me. I have also learned when to walk away. This is a lesson that has never meant more to me than it does now. Sometimes you just have to let yourself go. The fall is not nearly as terrifying as the jump and I have always landed on my feet. I am too proud not to! I stumble from time to time, but few see it and those who do know that it is just temporary. I do not understand those people who fall and just lay th

I Love My Ex Hubby Alot
my ex hubby his name is devon aka bonez i love him so much and i will always want him i couldn't get enough of him . i love him with all my heart and i hope he realize soon that i was the best thing in his life. and that i'm waiting for him.

I Love You
I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It's not a box that holds you in. I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I love you. It's not to make you change. I love you. It's not even to make you love me. I love you. It's as pure and simple as that.

Auto & Cherry Auction
IF YA WANNA BID ON AN AUTO11 OR CHERRY BOMB CLICK THE LINK YA WANT BELOW. THANK YOU ALL THAT STOP BY! AUCTION BROUGHT TO YOU BY "GRLSKIKASS2" (repost of original by '~THE ORIGINAL PONYBOY1966~~Fu Owned By NJExoticDiva77~~GRLSKIKASS2~~' on '2009-04-01 08:06:13')

Delieve Me (sara Brightman
Deliver me, out of my sadness. Deliver me, from all of the madness. Deliver me, courage to guide me. Deliver me, strength from inside me. All of my life I've been in hiding. Wishing there was someone just like you. Now that you're here, now that I've found you, I know that you're the one to pull me through. Deliver me, loving and caring. Deliver me, giving and sharing. Deliver me, the cross that I'm bearing. All of my life I was in hiding. Wishing there was someone just like you. Now that you're here, now that I've found you, I know that you're the one to pull me through. Deliver me, Deliver me, Oh deliver me. All of my life I was in hiding. Wishing there was someone just like you. Now that you're here, now that I've found you, I know that you're the one to pull me through. Deliver me, Oh deliver me. Won't you deliver me.

Prayer
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. This is a prayer I say quietly to myself each morning when I awake. It is one I have known since I was a child, but as I get older and wiser it has taken on a whole new meaning. When I was younger I thought I could change anything or anyone. Now I know that I cannot, but I still seem to try. My problem is not having the wisdom to know what I cannot change and accepting things as they are. It is a pride issue. I never want to feel defeated, and in my eyes acceptance is defeat.

My Friends Brother ...
"The day my best friend brother died was the day after Anna Nicole Smith died. I spent three days looking for something on the news about what happened in Baqubah, and all I heard about was what Anna Nicole Smith was going to wear when she was buried. Every once in a while I would catch a little blurb at the bottom of the screen about how three soldiers were killed in Baqubah. I think it's sad. Today's society spends too much time focusing on things that don't matter. That's why military families stick together. At times it feels like we're the only ones who understand, or even care." Those are the words of Amy , whose brother SSGT Alan W. Shaw of the United States Army, was killed in action on February 9 of this year. Amy remarks are part of a brief tribute to her late brother that will be telecast on the Military Channel this Saturday, one of many dedicated to fallen soldiers that the network will run throughout the day. At 10 p.m. Saturday all of the testimonials will be pre

Tabula Rasa
Tabula rasa... A blank slate. Void of everything... including emotion . This signifies a new beginning or a bitter end. From this point I can make my life what I want it to be. What has happened does not have to determine what will happen if I start every day with a blank slate.

Rambling
Just recently I hit what I thought was a road block in my life. I wondered if my life was really going in the direction I wanted it to. I questioned everything about myself and my life and realized something... I am OK! I am who I am... That is not a bad thing. Like I said in my last blog, Love me, leave me, or both! That hurt that you feel way down deep in your stomach does go away eventually. I have felt it before and I am sure I will feel it again, but it will not stop me. I live my life every day to the best of my ability. That is all any of us can do. Sometimes people want to be a part of it and sometimes they don't. You know what I have learned about people walking out of my life... That is just an opprotunity for others to walk in! As long as I am thankful for the ones that have been a part of our life and I learn from them I will become a better person for having had them there. I am a better person than I was before and everything is going to be okay.

From My E-diary
Want to know how to save a life? Be an organ donor!!! Today I was VERY fortunate and had a very RARE oppurtunity as a nursing student to scrub in on a liver transplant. I can honestly say it was THE most amazing thing I've ever seen! From ONE person donating their organs, 4 lives were saved today at this hospital alone! Not only is it rare for a student nurse, or any nurse that doesn't work in the OR for that matter, to see a surgery like this but also thankfully the surgeon was so nice to us and he let us stand beside him at the operating table and see pretty much everything he did! He was very involved and concerned about teaching students, even if they weren't medical students, which is another rare thing in itself! I was able to see a diseased liver taken out, a new donated liver put in, and be there to witness this gray, lifeless liver come to life and turn pink as the patient's blood filled it with life. What an AMAZING thing to witness! After seeing a person give

Mafioso Heroes
Last night, since my purse got stolen, I barely got any rest thinking about all the things I have to do today. A moment of peace finally came to me when I started to dream, sometime around 6am. I spent the night at a friend's house, and in my dream, he was sitting in his recliner chair in the living room, when two big guido brutes walked into the house. My friend is not even Italian, so this was random, at best. Like the Godfather, my friend told these meat heads to go and retrieve my purse. Shortly thereafter, in dream time, of course, they came back into the house with my happy kelly green purse, which still retained all of my missing items. I hugged my friend some more in my dream, thanked him for rescuing my stuff for me, and then drifted off to sleep for a few hours. I told my friend this morning about my odd dream. He laughed, and told me he wished he was that cool. The human brain is a mystery. This is for certain. Mine, especially.

If More People Understoond
I am married to a wonderful woman that I adore and love with all of my heart. Her and I have been through so much in our 10+ years of marriage now and we are not perfect by any means. But to us we are a rare find as far as a couple goes. We are able to communicate openly and honestly with each other and I feel that that is the reason that we have survived and flourished. Our problem if you want to call it that is that people just can't understand how her and I can love each other so much and yet still find friends with benefits. Yes its true. I don't mind her getting some different cock and she doesn't mind if I get some different "kitty". It isn't for everyone and we fully understand that. We just wish that we could find other people that can accept that we are human and the desire to explore our sexuality with others is a driving force that is not understood because we feel that there has been to much brainwashing and not enough free thinking. Some people will call what we d

That's Oatally Delicious.
I recall being at my grandmother's house when I was a child and her offering me some oatmeal. I hadn't previously tried oatmeal, so I didn't know what to expect. I nodded yes, and my grandmother opened up a crock pot and scooped some globby substance into bowls, handed one to me. It didn't look so appetizing. I was raised to be a polite child (what went wrong?), so I gingerly took a bite. And then tried to stifle my gag reflex. (Foreshadowing of stories to come.) My grandmother had taken instant oatmeal, I believe, and put it in her crock pot for, oh, several hours. Perhaps half a day. Maybe a week. It had transformed not into a breakfast food, but paste. Had we been wallpapering that day, it would have been quite useful. I couldn't eat the oatmeal. I made some excuse about my stomach hurting, and I pushed it away, set a napkin on top of the bowl so I didn't have to see it. (I know. Rude. But! It was paste!) I was perhaps six years old when this happened, a

Direction
life keeps coming at my so fast right now. so many decisions, so many consequences, so many things beginning and ending, all at once. things are wierd right now. i have so many things that i want to change, but where do i start? and how do i change them? how do i get from point a to point b? do i take option 1, 2 or 3? or do i skip point b and go straight to point c? i've met some people that have made me happy recently. i'm glad that i have them as friends. i've lost a few friends as well, but there's not much i can really do about it, but remember that when one thing ends something better always begins. seasons change and people come and go, it's nature. the only thing i can possibly do about that is just not care. if people don't like me, it's not my loss. i hate to seem self-centered, but there are times that call for it in order to survive... in order to be positive. i just want to say thank you guys for being supportive of me and trying to cheer me up. you guys are awesome. y

Purse Snatchers
Last night, at about 10pm, I was leaving the local grocery store near my house. I had my purse in the back of my cart, basket full of groceries. I only stopped to buy cat litter, but came out with more, since I wanted to have food in case the guest that was supposed to stop by Wednesday evening wanted to stay for dinner. The day was plenty stressful as it was. I had a house closing that took place at the last possible minute. I have to split the money with my partners, so I'm only going to make about $200 for FOUR months worth of work!!! The client was really needy, and I couldn't be there because I have a job now. I have only missed one other closing my whole three years in real estate, so it was hard for me to take being side lined. Work, thankfully, was easy. I was excited for my guest to come. I wanted to clean a bit, then pay bills online and over the phone with the BF, etc. Prepare for tomorrow, have a nice day off... Well, as I turned to grab my purse from my

Headache Powder?
WTF is with this shit? Do you just swallow it or mix it in water? The directions don't tell you shit. They just tell you how to open the damn package. I just ate it without water and it tastes amazingly brutal! Oh yea, I feel like crap because I stayed up till 3 to bid on the spotlight...

Good Friend Saying
My friend, life is too short.So here are some rules to follow. Forgive everyone love slowly, laugh loudly, and never ever forget to smile.Thanks for being such a great friend. Love happiness always

Fubar's Pink Girls Club
Fubar's Pink Girls Club In order to join do the following, men are welcome too: rate these pictures http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=229107&albumid=106563&i=3200728318 then: 1)RATE 2)ADD 3)FAN everyone on the list, the ones already on your list, let them know your joining "Fubar's Pink Girls Club" once your done send a PM to TotallyHugeObsessedMariahCareyFanatic4Life ~TotallyHugeObsessedMariahCareyFanatic4Life~@ fubar THE GIRLS ~TotallyHugeObsessedMariahCareyFanatic4Life~@ fubar ~Sweet~N~Sexxay~Proudly Owned By~Dr@gonMaster©~FU Bomber~Sarges Bad Girl@ fubar S@ssi~N~B@d ~'LilOne'~DSC~Srg'sBadGrl~FuFinestLvler ~@ fubar *Pink0828*@ fubar ~?~TEXAS TWISTER~?~TEXASMAN'S FU FIANCEE~?~SHADOW LEVELER?CLUB UNITED&#@ fubar

I Promise
I can't promise you that dark clouds will never hover over our lives or that the future will bring us many rainbows. I can't promise you that tomorrow will be perfect or that life will be easy. I can promise you my everlasting devotion, my loyalty, my respect, and my unconditional love for a lifetime. I can promise that I'll always be there for you, to listen and to hold your hand, and I'll always do my best to make you happy, and make you feel loved. I can promise that I'll see you through any crisis, and hope with you, dream with you, build with you, and always cheer you on and encourage you. I can promise that I'll share my dreams my world, and every aspect of my life with you. I'll willingly be your protector, your advisor, your counselor, your friend, your family, your everything. And I believe that's what love is truly all about.

A Jumble
Sailing along a smooth piece of ocean No waves in sight, just the perfection of Nature at her best Closing your eyes to enjoy these feelings floating around you Hands closing over the life growing inside of you Turning your life upside down and inside out Knowing that no matter what You'll do everything in your power to protect that life................................................................................................... CRASH Such simple words printed on the screen Yet they have the power to destroy your whole world Everything you've had figured out, destroyed from those words Watching the waves crash around you The sky turning a dark, rolling mass of terror All your fears pressing down around you Curling your arms protectively around that precious life growing in you Bracing your body against the waves and vicious winds swirling around you Not allowing those fears and terrors to stop you from standing up for your chil

Me
Sitting here in the dark. Listening to music. Feeling the tears forming behind my eyes. Trying to grasp the reasons for those tears. Not sure why or where they are coming from, just knowing that they are there. Afraid of the changes to come. Not sure if I'm strong enough to handle them. Wishing for things that can't happen. Knowing that this isn't how I had my life planned out. Smiling slightly because I've been told over and over that you can make plans.. But God is the one that has the final say in a majority of those plans. Knowing that I wouldn't change certain things that have happened. Knowing that I'm a better person for the things that have happened. Even if no one else understands or even respects it. I am me. For all of my faults and promises. For all of my mistakes. For all of the good things I've done. This is me.

Ducks To Swans
Kelly was one of the swans. You know them every school has them But Kelly was the queen, one of those Nymphets blessed from the beginning with the perfect body and perfect smile. The kind of girl who blossom magically from cute kid to curvaceous woman without the awkward puberty stage the majority of us suffer through. I wasn't so lucky, and Kelly let me know that every day for four years. She had it for me, putting me down when ever she could from the first day of school on through graduation. She wasn't just a bitch to me but to almost every girl at school who didn't make the cheer leading squad (or who didn't care to try out). The typical ugly duckling, I had no idea that someday I might actually join the ranks of the white feathered ones. Or that the very a condor, an egret, some beautiful creation that would make bird watchers (and girl watchers) stop and take notice. My legs grew before the rest of me developed, so I was extra tall for a freshman. I didn't get over being gangly

Trains,clubs And Bus
I'm just adding all my train;s/club's/bus into one folder, To make it easier for people to read and go through. As well as it makes it look cleaner and better in the blog section. Some of these may get deleted not sure yet.

Mfkn Is So Awesome I Gotta Love Her...
Got Some Time 4 THIS AWESOME PERSON? *********************************** (DJ) Army Medic-Handyman--- Is Running Autos ALL DAY *********************************** (DJ) Army Medic-Handyman @ The Playground/Owner of Weldingangel RATE/FAN/ADD/CRUSH/COMMENT/BLING HIM! Brought to you By : •• . .ΜFĸŋ JÇ. . ••. . §ëЯ. . ••. .@ fubar (repost of original by '•• . .ΜFĸŋ JÇ. . ••. . §ëЯ. . ••. .' on '2009-04-01 06:57:25')

Mirror
Standing in front of the mirror Watching all of life's possibilities go flashing across it Reaching out to grab onto one of them Trying to hold it close Wishing for a solid road to walk on Looking down at your feet Imagining walking along a broken and cracked road Trying to avoid all of the potholes and missing pieces Looking forward and seeing a smooth piece Wondering if this is just a mirage A trick played on you to help ease your fears Struggling to try to trust yourself Standing at the fork in the road Trying to see ahead Looking for that sign A sign saying "Take this one" Feeling a small hand slide into yours Looking down Seeing a little face looking up at you Trust written on his face Feeling your heart constrict Sweat making your palms slick Watching a smile bloom on his face The grip on your heart lessening Feeling your palms go dry Smiling down at him as you Take that first s

Past
Walking along this desolate and cracked planet Feeling like the air itself is pressing down upon your skin Weighing you down with life's responsibilities Looking behind you All of your past mistakes rushing forward to try to trap you again A part of you knowing that it would be easier to turn around Let those same mistakes swallow you whole again A shudder racking your body as you fight those intense urges to give up Digging deep down inside yourself, deeper than you've ever dared go before Amazed to find that small spark of strength The strength to turn your back on past mistakes Feeling that small spark growing as you face the future Growing as you place one foot in front of the other Rolling your shoulders as every foot gained gives you a little more space to move The beginnings of a smile caressing your lips Knowing that you have the strength to face new challenges The strength to turn your back on past mistakes To drop t

I Love You??? What A Load Of Shit
I love you You hear people say these words almost every day. Whether it be in passing or just someone saying it to you. But honestly? Who the hell actually knows what it means to be in love anymore? For the majority of people out there, they don't. Its just something you say to your bf/gf. Cause its what people do. Or they are just saying it because their partner said it first and they don't know what else to say. The reason for this rant is this. When you tell me that you love me, that I'm the one you want to spend your life with, make sure you freakin mean it. Saying you love me one week and then turning around 2 WEEKS later and saying you love someone else....is bullshit. You have no idea what that word actually stands for. You didn't truly love me for me. You loved the idea of being with someone. And that someone just happened to be me. I don't believe in love at 1st sight. I'm sorry. You can LUST at 1st sight. But that isn't the same thing as loving someone. Lo

Fancy Bulletins/pics Made Here :) N This Blog Section R Other Bullys N Auctions I Have Made 4 Examples!!
On making special bulletin requests / or fancy pics I have come up with a small fee. I love making them for friends but it does take up alot of time and patience. I think U will find my prices pretty reasonable ...for a 2 layer bulletin I am askin 10 K , 3 layer 20 K, 4 Layer 40 K , 5 layer 50 K ...any special personalized pics/Graphics...( I can do most any , holidays, weekly graphics, black 7 whites ...) 20 K a piece. I will be still be making auto 11's bully's for my top friends as a gift, but if U like to request one, let me know colors u want used and theme of bully & send links of pics U want used in it. . Thx All!! :) * This is a 5 layer bulletin * *Example of pics I can make and personalize w/ ur name on it!Whatever U want said n bully @ bottom will be put like this with my link

You Are Invited!
Come talk with me on everything Wicca. I would love to know if there are any more like me in the Tallahassee/ Crawfordville, Florida locations. I will post a photo later when I can get my camera hooked to the computer. Maybe on my 4 day weekend coming up. I just would like to know I'm not alone in my religious world. Please blog in and show your pride and support!!

I Remember
I remember how it all started. And now, it appears to be ending. I remember the first time we met. Wondering just what you wanted of me. Never quite getting an answer, but always feeling calm despite my nerves. Dreading the day I knew would come, but making plans like it wouldn't. I remember many a questioning by my friends. Especially once I asked them for favors so we could be together more. The speculations, the insinuations, the questions I never knew the answer and likely never will. I knew only I enjoyed your presence and I was willing to let you set the limits. I wanted you to be happy. And now, you are. I remember the time the limits were breached. Wondering if I had gone too far. Wondering if you were like my history. Wondering if you too; would leave me. You did. But not then. You smiled at my fears and told me not to worry. It did affect you and I felt the first cold winds of fall blowing. The summer died and dried, but we carried on. I remember the time togethe

Dedication To My Hero
cm91b@ fubar DEDICATION TO MY HERO!! (one of, more to follow) Who is this man you ask? Well, thank you for asking, let me tell you .. This is one of my DEAREST friends who is currently deployed and SOON to be arriving back in the states after having served YOU and this country in the military for more years than some of you have been alive .. and been to Iraq more times than some of you have seen the sun come up in the wee hours of the morning. He is one of the most genuine men I know with a heart of GOLD. He loves his country, the people in it, his family and friends. He has a daughter who is his heart, pride & joy. He left all to fight a battle, maybe not cuz he believes in it in it's entirety, but he believes in his job .. and that is to defend your right to be a FREE citizen and help ensure a lifestyle we all know and love .. without having to duck & cover!! People like this man sacrafice so much so that the likes of some never have to know what REAL LIFE is all about, an

My Song
Полная луна вышла из за туч На лицо твоё набросила свой луч Белой кожи мрамор светом освещал Обо мне ты не подозревал Сон твой не хочу нарушать сейчас, Не свожу я взгляд

Texting And Driving
Ok I was riding with a friend of mine a few days ango and it was pouring rain and her wipers didn't work and she was freakin out because of it and to make matters worse she was texting on her cell phone WHILE DRIVING!!! Now tell me people is that a time when I'd have been safer to have a good life insurance policy?

Flower Oil
When I go to a local discount store to get oil and filters for my car, I buy my wife a bouquet of flowers on display near the checkout counter. During one trip, some women in line behind me were oohing and aahing about a husband getting flowers for his wife. "How often do you do that?" one asked. Before I could answer, the cashier, more than familiar with my routine, said, "Every three months or 3,000 miles, whichever comes first."

Imposter Alert!! Snakes And Wookies
User Profile: http://www.fubar.com/user/2310968 User Profile: http://www.fubar.com/user/2117960 BTW Red Serpent has a happy hour later...hmmm wonder who bought it... ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Update: This was just sent my way: It's been brought to my attention that this account was froze which is why the red serpent account was created. User Profile: http://www.fubar.com/user/2022866 I couldn't resist I HAD to add these fake salutes that Mr. Harley had in his photo albums of red serpent ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Update: Then he blocks me so I can't respond...Interesting HÃRLÊÝBÊHÃ...: ahhh the wonders of the ole block list lmao HÃRLÊÝBÊHÃ...: so please go snoop somewhere else ok inspector HÃRLÊÝBÊHÃ...: and has bought many of our friends happy hours and bling packs HÃRLÊÝBÊHÃ...: no not sexy wookie another friend princess snow water HÃRLÊÝ

Surgery
COME AROUND THE FIRST WEEK OF JUNE I WILL BE GOING IN FOR SURGERY ON MY LOWER BACK. FROM WHAT THE DOCTOR SAID I WILL GOOD AS NEW AFTER IT IS DONE AND I'M ALL HEALED UP. I'M GOING TO BE CROSSING MY FINGERS AND HOPEING FOR THE BEST. I'M SCARED AS SHIT BUT IT HAS TO BE DONE SO I CAN START DOING MORE WITH MY KIDS. THIS IS ALL FOR NOW WHEN I HEAR MORE I WILL POST IT.

My Nsfw's
a few of you have recently discovered that you can no longer access my nsfw pics. while I had no problem sharing these with you since I am not in the least bit shy, I recently discovered that many of the people that used to talk to me daily have decided that Im no longer good enough to talk to since I announced that I have a bf, however they still liked to come to my page every day n use my pics as jack off material and since I've apparently become useless to talk to not because of anything Ive said or changed but for the simple fact that I have a bf I no longer wish to be your get off girl. thanks to those who've wished me well and have been supportive in the change in my relationship status. what I find funny is that I have been nice and friendly and open to chat with anyone regardless of anything..guess u find out who your friends are right? I will be giving access to my pics to people who seem to be genuine and not just out to get off...though if thats what you use them for

What Is Love?
I know a lot of people are going to hate me for this, but the truth must be told. Love is not some four letter word you can use to get what want. It’s much more. Love is a feeling that is kind of hard to describe, but demands action in some form or another. It is impossible to say you love some one and not show some form of action. A female friend of mine was in a relationship with a guy for several years, during the relationship he stole from her, abused her and even cheated on her. Now let me ask you is this love? Once I myself was in a relationship where love was not often showed. In this relationship I took her where ever she wanted to go and even would pick her up from school and yet behind close doors I was getting treated like a dog. She threaten me, tried to stab me, killed my fish, cheated on me and to make things worse one them was a friend of mine. Now let me ask you is this love? What is love to you?

Another One That Fell?
=== 'emmaneoo' wrote the following at '2009-03-31 23:18:03'.. > > Hello, > > I contact you bcos i would really love to start to know you and lets share life as best way it should be.To be honest with you,i may not have the sweet and perfect words to make you feel better here online,but i do have the soft and gentle arms to give you a hug,ears to listen quietly and attentive to whatever you want to talk about,and am sure that i have a heart,sweet heart that's aching to see you smile always. > > Finding a soul mate,a woman with a heart full of loving,one who is not a time waster,one who understand life and never play with heart,one who understand the us fullness of a man in a woman's life,one who will never cheat on me,willing to share of her private and hiding secrets to me so to grow more in love and show to me caring and cuddle,a woman that value future and believe deeply in herself and willing to take care of my valuable belonging so to become many for the benefit of us whole

Hahaha
A furious British wife has called in divorce lawyers after spotting her husband's car parked outside another woman's house — on Google. She saw the Range Rover while using the Internet giant's new Street View service to snoop on a female friend's home. The hubby had claimed he was away on business, but his missus recognized his SUV immediately because of its blinged-up hubcaps. The love cheat is not the only husband trapped by Google's controversial new 360-degree photo search, which covers 25 cities and towns throughout Britain. Top media lawyer Mark Stephens said: "I was talking about the Range Rover case when another divorce lawyer came up to say his firm was dealing with the same sort of thing. People are getting caught out on Google. I suspect the husband's lawyers will claim it was an invasion of privacy that will cost him his marriage and Range Rover."

Conficker It!!!
*brushes off her streaming 0101010101010 shoes, ala THE MATRIX* Lions, and Tigers, and CONFICKER, Oh FUD! Lions and Tigers and CONFICKER, Oh FUD! LIONS, AND TIGERS, AND CONFICKER, OH FUD!!!!!! Fer Realz, dewds - I hear about the Conficker and I keep thinking that its an amazing way to stimulate the economy. Imagine the line up at Best Buy for computers to be reformatted by people that have no idea what all of it means - they just know that they never did say a prayer when using windows updates - so they cannot have been said to have been using it religiously (which is what the tech guru SAID you needed to have been doing in order to fear NOT the CONFICKER worm). The Geek Squad is in lined up, engines revved - white shirts and black ties flapping in the breeze of deep breaths. Calmly...calmly...AND GO!!!!! Slaving computers is an old school trick - any real child of Cyberia knew how to access an unprotected computer. And Windows did have some back doors creaking open to inv

Suzy Is Up For Grabs!
COME AND GET HER! China Suzy Is Up For Auction Do you want to own her? Well click on the link below and go make an offer. She has offered the usual things like:- Owned in your name Keep shit-faced SFW Salute (NSFW if VIP or Higher) 500 11's a week if VIP offered 25% of any Blings offered will be spent on you AND she has already added:- 200 stash rates a week during Happy Hour Rate all SFW pics in HH if less then VIP Family Access if VIP offered (she does not have one now) An invite to her "private Pics" if 6 month VIP or Higher Negotiations are open for offers of $150 plus What are you waiting for? Click the B & W pic and make an offer!

I Just Don't Understannd!!!!
Okay, maybe I might be venting a little bit, here goes. Why do wemon, or anyone for that matter, think the grass is greener on the other side? If you have something or someone that you care about, why would you let that go? Just to figure out you want it back. I am so confused about life and relationships right now, I just do not understand why for the life of me if you give something up, why you would want it back. Not to mention the countless lies, making me always feel hidden, not knowing any of her friends, but her knowing all of mine. Shady actions, such as hiding your cell phone, making sure I do not see you computer conversation as I pass by. going out of your way to make sure I am not in hearing distance of your phone conversation. I'm not sayin i'm any saint either, but at least you could look through my computer or my cell phone because I have nothing to hide!!! I am starting to think that I am a fool or just not cut out for this relationship thing. I swear that there is not

Quick $50!
Interested in a quick $50? Be at 700 S. Main St. in Fall River, WI at 1:00 p.m. today! I will be demonstrating for all interested to see the art of pleasing a man. Hey, he's cute even if you aren't interested in me! For those interested in personal visits, I perform for lasagna. It takes hard work to keep up my figure! Happy April Fool's!

Watch Out For This One
I am going to make this short and to the point! Beware of this one! She said she was Single and then once I had Blinged her twice, her fiance came to my page and thanked me for looking out for her! This one is a con-artist, she got me for two Bling and she should have been real, instead of lying like she did! I try to be as honest as I possibly can be and I would not feed someone a bunch of shit to get something out of them, that just isn't cool but hey, she will not be the last to pull a scam like that! Lisa Babe

My Son Is A Idiot
Im amazed seriously I am at the imaturity of my oldest son. I have been married over 30 years and as every one knows couples fight. Would be strange if we didnt. We cant agree on every thing and stress and financial hardship plays a role in it to. Any how.....hubby and I got into a knock out drag out fight over mis communication. We sorted it out like we always do. Any how my idiot son decides like nothing new to put it all on my shoulders and decided he is gonna hold a grudge against me and not talk. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh K then .....I thought about not making his lunch for work or starting his coffee for when he wakes up and helping him tie back his hair. As protest to his behaviour but nahhhhh I am the better person and he can as my dad would say.."Scratch his ass and get pleased again"

Behind Blue Eyes (limp Bizkit Version)
No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes And no one knows What it's like to be hated To be fated to telling only lies [Chorus:] But my dreams they aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free No one knows what its like To feel these feelings Like i do, and i blame you! No one bites back as hard On their anger None of my pain and woe Can show through [Chorus] Discover l.i.m.p. can you [x4] No one knows what its like To be mistreated, to be defeated Behind blue eyes No one knows how to say That they're sorry and don't worry I'm not telling lies [Chorus] No one knows what its like To be the bad man, to be the sad man Behind blue eyes.

And When I Wake Up You'll Be Here... And It Will Be The Way It Was...
Well I couldn't tell you what the title was about. But it is what it is. I'm losing my sleep again, which probably means I'm thinking too much, but fuck it. I want my life. Like I want to grab the reins and do this shit, now! Takes time I know but I'm growing impatient with this motion. Give me the money for school, or a job. Give me a car. Son of a bitch something to get this mother fucking ball on a roll. Too many set backs, too many let downs. Let me walk on stable ground. I'm also missing a companion. Not something I need, per say. Just something that's nice. Someone who's not confused. Or a fucking cock faced ass head (this statement has nothing to do with the confused ones, dickish as it all may have been I don't hate either of you, just get your fucking shit together) I don't deal with assholes, get to stepping, I have no tolerance for your ignorance.. I needs someone that won't tell me that they're sure, then turn around and dip, ain't got time for that shit either

A Few Things I Wrote That I Haven't Given Titles To...
#1. You were the only one standing next to me when the world caught fire. When everyone ran. You burned there with me. We became ash together and fell into the earth. Everyone else disappeared into the abyss. The flames became smaller until they were nothing. There we were. We grew from nothing. When we were less than nothing. So, we stand alone. We stand strong. And there we are. #2. Driving. The destination has yet to show it's face. Never seems to come from behind the fog. Never. I'm going to see my friend for the last time. To early to say good-bye. But good-bye just the same. Too young of a face. He lies there in silence. My heart lies there too. My vision in a sense becomes clearer. Yet twisted. I know I'm going somewhere. I live for a reason. Though the reason my flicker out like a flame and fall into the winds. Disappearing without a trace. Those I leave behind will hold the ashes.

Let Me...............................
at one time things mattered to me... then things changed im not sure when that happened was it one day one time over time but it has and that is why im not sure i can trust you with my heart now from time to time you show you care... other times it is if im not there im tired of playen second to everything im tired of putting on a face for you in time you will see what you fake love has done to me i hope just once you get hurt the way you have hurt me they way you have hurt my heart but dont you worry for im not broken .. to bad i have found someone that does love me doesnt hurt me does make me feel like i feel i should maybe i asked to much maybe i didnt ask enough maybe i didnt ask the right questions maybe i did and you didnt answer but in time you will see that what you think matters not to me but the only thing i ask of you know is that you let me go let me love let me see what i can be you hurt me with out knowing you see

One Of The Best Days Ever.....
so there i am sitting on the bed thinking of what the night will have in store for me. the bathroom door in the hall opens up and out steps this complete goddess. Now at this time in my life i wasn't particualarly the outgoing type and in my mind this was a woman that i believed i never stood a chance with becoming friends, let alone bringing her home with me. She has got to know that she completely captures me at this moment. My eyes are scanning her perfect ( in my eyes ) body. She had excused herself just before to slip into this beautiful peach babydoll set which was a perfect contrast to her skin. She had the body that every man would love. Just right and soft as velvet. I know i have some goofy grin or something as she walks toward me cause she gives this nervous smile while biting her lower lip ( you know ladies, that sexy ass smile that buckles me ). Her hair is perfect as always. You see latin women have the perfect hair. Thick and black with subtle waves that you can run

Poem
Seeing the smiles of people as I walk down the street. Seeing a parent teaching their child about the world around them. I love the look on a child's face as they learn something new. The way their eyes light up as they start to smile. It makes the world seem so much easier than it really is. Amazing how we begin in life as children and then grow up to become adult. Things that have been in our lives as we become adults. Watching children playing the same way I did as a child. Seeing them smiling and laughing without a care in the world. Walking down the street watching as the people are greeting each other. Feeling so calm, enjoying the world around me. Seeing different types of people walking on the streets. People of different race, the young and the old, men and women. Seeing them smiling at each other. Feeling so at ease walking down the street. Stop by a chain link fence, to watch a street basketball game. Seeing the other people

Things I Love About A Woman
What is there not to love really..... Soft skin that warms to the touch and makes you forget all your troubles if even for a minute. All their sweet smells from all of their lotions and perfumes. The way a sexy set of eyes can make you melt when you think you're a tough guy. The look they give when you take them and hold them just before you make love. The trust in their eyes when they open that robe and walk up to you with nothing on but a nervous smile. Complete satisfaction when my warm hands are going over her body. Exploring every place as it was the first time everytime. Naughty giggles when I go places that are "forbidden". Atleast for the moment. Nothing is better to me in the world then a sexy woman. All you ladies deserve the best. -G-

Friends
FRIENDS friends are there for you when you need them the most they pick you up when you are down , or even take you out for a night on the town they make you feel welcome when ever you are around , and they never kick you to the ground they laugh at your jokes even though the may not be funny , they are there when life has be bad, and take you under their wings and protect you from those evil things they help you out any way they can , and try to help you out from doing the same wrong things all over again friends come in many ways, you mother , father, people you just meet , and yes even your kids sometimes i wounder is one friend truer than another cause they do some things more than others to me there is not cause to me they are all one in the same some friend we have lost , and carry their memories with us through the rest of our life , but one thing for sure they will never be for gotten cause their spirit lives through us , and we rem

Beautiful Is
Beautiful to me is: That little area in the small of a womans back. Ya know where they love to be massaged. Eyes that make me forget what I was thinking. Smiling eyes Olive skin and black hair with green or blue eyes Country girls in Sunday dresses. Boy shorts pulled halfway down. A woman nervously biting her lower lip. That place on a womans neck where a diamond sits just right. Goosebumps on an inner thigh when you kiss it. Blondes with southern accents

To Be Free
Once in a house on a hill A boy got angry He broke into my heart For a day and a night I stayed beside him Until I had no hope So I came down the hill Of course I was hurt But then I started to think It shouldn't hurt me to be free It's what I really need To pull myself together But if it's so good being free Would you mind telling me Why I don't know what to do with myself There's a bar by the dock Where I found myself Drinking with this man He offered me a cigarette And I accepted 'Cause it's been a very long time As it burned 'till the end I thought of the boy No one could ever forget It shouldn't hurt me to be free It's what I really need To pull myself together But if it's so good being free Would you mind telling me Why I don't know what to do with myself To pull myself together But if it's so good being free Would you mind telling me Why I don't know what to do with myself

Artist: A New Revolution Song: Saddest Song
With these words On a blade 'cause my heart is bleeding It's not enough, not enough for you I'll sing these word in your ear 'cause my heart is screaming It's loud enough, loud enough for you TAKE something that makes me SMILE something that its worthwhile Something that keeps me hanging on And all you are Odd to me The saddest song I will ever sing And all you are Odd to me The saddest song of the saddest thing Take all the fault All my wrongs And i said im sorry It's not enough, not enough for you SAY something that makes me FEEL that what i thought was REAL something that keeps me hanging onAnd all you are Odd to me The saddest song i will ever sing And all you are Odd to me The saddest song of the saddest thing And all you are Odd to me The saddest song of the saddest thing And all you are Odd to me The Saddest song i will ever sing And all you are Odd to me The saddest song of the saddest thing

Artist: Five Finger Death Punch Song: Hate Me
It`s not enough It`s not enough It never was or will be I never had the chance to thank you (FOR RIPPING OUT MY HEART) It`s not enough It`s not enough It never was or will be I never got the chance to say (FUCK YOU) [Verse 1:] I don`t want to be your tourniquet For minor lacerations Don`t wanna be your Romeo Because you`re no Goddamn Juliet (you always did know just what to say; insult and injury) (YOU JUST LOVE TO HATE ME!) [Chorus:] It`s not enough It`s not enough It never was or will be I never had the chance to thank you (FOR RIPPING OUT MY HEART) It`s not enough It`s not enough It never was or will be I never got the chance to say (FUCK YOU) [Verse 2:] You`ve got a gun I`ve got a gun Let`s write a tragic ending Don`t wanna be this way again Don`t wanna be the one to blame (you can have the high roads; I`ll take the lows, disguise the frailty) (I JUST LOVE TO HATE YOU!) [Chorus:] It`s not enough It`s not enough It never was or will

Funny Joke
Sunday School Little Mary was not the best student in Sunday School. Usually she slept through the class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, ''Tell me, Mary, who created the universe?'' When Mary didn't stir, little Johnny, an altruistic boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear. ''God Almighty !'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good'' and Mary fell back to sleep. A while later the teacher asked Mary, ''Who is our Lord and Savior?'' But Mary didn't even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again. ''Jesus Christ!'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good,'' and Mary fell back to sleep. Then the teacher asked Mary a third question, ''What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?'' And again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin. This time Mary jumped up and shouted, ''If you stick that damn thing in me one more time, I'll break it in half!'' The Teacher fainted.

Artist: Five Finger Death Punch Song: Never Enough
I'm so fed up with everyone around me (No one seems to care) I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change (I'll never be the same) It's always do this, do that, Everything they want to I don't want to live that way Every chance they get their always Pushin me away [Chorus:] It's never enough No it's never enough No matter what I say It's never enough No it's never enough I'll never be what you want me to be It's all so messed up and no one ever listens (Everyone's deranged) I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change (Wanna lay it all to waste) Their always say this, say that, Nothing that you want to I don't want to live that way Every chance they get their always Shovin me aside [Chorus] I'm Done [Bridge:] In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete Drawn only to be washed away For the time that I've been given I am what I am I'd rather hate you For everything you are Than ever love you For something you are not

Poetry...
I want to hurt her, make her feel a pain she’s never known. Her delicacy, I want to shatter. bruise upon bruise, scar upon scar. I will break her very existence, I will damage her very soul. I see no worth of her life, no value to her breath. Their love for her will perish, I will see to her demise. I want to see her blood, watch her suffering by my hands, smell the stench of Death, and feel the thrill of playing God. Her destruction is my amusement, her pain is my pleasure. Every part of me burns with a passion, a passion to see her slow and excruciating end. I want to toy with her hope, and obliterate her faith. The hatred thrives within my veins, she deserves a torturous passing. I see her face so vivid and it sickens me, the mirror shows my rival. Tonight, she will cease to exist, then I can rest easy, knowing that I can finally break free from…Her…

Let Them Shine
People change day by day, Hoping someone will show them the way. Some changes are for the best, And that’s when we are put to the test. Test your will to live, And also your will to give. Live like you were dying, And give with out trying. Trust in yourself to make the right choice. Scream loud so the world can hear your voice! Push through the hardships, And work out all broken relationships. Remember all the precious moments, And let go of all the false movements. Never forget the way they made your eyes glisten, And take the time to stop and listen. Hear them when they sit and cry. Hold them close when they are about to die. Tell them everything will be fine, And let them break loose and shine.

Don't Play
To let you bring me down to your level, would be like you telling me to dig my grave, and here’s your shovel. Shove the blade further into my heart. Better yet give it to me and I’ll start. That tired old line still plays in my head. If I hear it again, I’ll wish I was dead. “I won’t do you like they did.” Yeah, the words from the mouth of a kid. Tell me all of your sweet, sweet lies. Then please ignore all of my cries. Promises of happiness and love, Just ripped away like a cheap plastic glove. Being played with like a new game, Then to be tossed out is a real shame. Don’t you dare point your finger at me. Step back and reflect, then you shall see. I was the one who gave up everything, and in return got nothing. I packed my bags and started a new. I do owe you my undying gratitude. Thanks for opening my eyes, and letting me see. The only one I’ll ever need… is me.

Always There
You were there all along, But it took forever to know that I belong. Your hearts I have broken, And your words I have spoken. You left me to grow, And did I ever put up a show. I left your lives pained and concerned, And had no idea of the bridges I burned. I know I can’t take my actions back, But I will show you that I will not crack. Your faith in me has been repaired, And to ruin that would never be dared. Your trust and faithfulness means so much, And the bond we have can’t be touched. Just know that I won’t stop trying, And those tears will be from happy crying. Life has dealt me a bad hand, But by my side you will always stand. You taught me everything you know, And you sat back to watch me grow. Thank you for everything you give, And showing me a path to which I live. Alone I am strong and true, But with you nothing can break through.

Wtf?
Someone please explain to me how I got my HH summary before my HH was even over? LOL wtf? Congratulations! Your happy hour was a great success: lots of people gave lots of love. You collected 3,872,093 bonus points as Happy Hour sponsor. Cheers! 243 members leveled up during your happy hour