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Do I Ever Cross Your Mind
Do I Ever Cross Your Mind Oh, sometimes I go walking through fields where we walked Long ago in the sweet used to be And the flowers still grow, but they don't smell as sweet As they did when you picked them for me And when I think of you and the love we once knew How I wish we could go back in time Do you ever think back on old memories like that Or do I ever cross your mind Do you ever wake up lonely in the middle of the night Because you miss me, do you darling Oh, and do your memories ever take You back into another place in time And do you ever miss the feelings And the love we shared when you were with me, tell me darling Or do I ever cross your mind Oh, how often I wish that again I could kiss Your sweet lips like I did long ago And how often I long for those two loving arms That once held me so gentle and close And when I think of you and the love we once knew How I wish we could go back in time Do you ever think back on old memories

Just Because
This is a conversation Lady Di and I just had this morning..My friend CT DADDY is on a contest here against someone in the CT Mafia.. and I mentioned I was on a contest with "someone" and she had to Join the Mafia to win against me.. and I called her a loser.. and SURPRISE Lady Di knew it was her. and you have to read this blog from the bottom up.. since it is a shoutbox conversation.. Just remember Lady Di.. "THE MAFIA CAN'T VOTE OR COMMENT AGAINST THE MAFIA" Just because of her joining that Mafia to win that contest.. it made people lose people as friends. Anyways.. have a good read. I know I did when she was trying to feed me the "I didn't know my joining the Mafia would cause all this trouble" bull!..Remember read from the bottom to the top. ->LADY DI ....: Anyways Di.. Enjoy the "family" because in the end.. that is all you'll have.. I have to head out for a bit.. Have a nice day. ->LADY DI ....: Just those in the Mafia.. just because of that one rule.. the Bomb Squa

Taps Wuz Here
heh heh... I am posting this site in hopes that you will have a little fun with it. Its just something I have been playing around with. Please don't be offended by it. Its all in good fun. http://TapsWuzHere.Iniquity.Org

Here We Go - Another Week!
Good morning/good afternoon, everyone! Hope everyone had a really wonderful weekend. Already had one of my clients today postpone, which is fine, lol. I have plenty of paperwork to catch up on! Be prepared for more blogs this week - I'm in heavy thought mode these days. Lots going on, lots of things being stirred up in my mind! My favorite question keeps popping up: "Why?" A new friend of mine, who also works with energy, made the comment that he helps those that come to him and then they drift off again! I had noticed the same thing, especially of late. I'm learning to let go a little easier! But there are times, with my past life companions in particular, that letting go comes hard for me! Even remembering we are always connected, it is becoming more difficult for me to just let go. I am pondering this daily, and asking why, lol! Enough for now, lol! I'll save it for the other blogs! Have a wonderful Monday, my friends! Much love and warm hugs to one and all! Blessings

Winchester House
Winchester House United States, California, San Jose Many mysteries surround this surreal mansion. There are a hundred and sixty rooms in this house, many having unique features such as windows looking into other rooms, doors opening outside from the third floor, and various sizes of doors. “Why,” one might ask; the reason is quite simple. After Sarah Winchester’s husband and child died in 1884, she went to try to contact their spirits; she wanted to know what to do concerning the ghosts of all the people that had been killed by the Winchester rifle. She was unable to contact her family, but was instructed to incessantly add rooms to the house to constantly confuse the unfriendly spirits. When the earthquake of 1906 struck, she was pinned a room. Building continued and she was never seen again. Today, residents hear ghostly music emanating from the house. Many other strange activities have been reported as well. Ghost Hunters investigated this place..

Sitting In...
The past three weeks have been extremely challenging here. Mom has become increasingly difficult to deal with, and as anyone who has cared for an alzheimer's patient knows, this is to be expected. However, when the scowls, screams, names and such come from someone as close as your mother, it's hard not to take it personally when all you are trying to do is help them. Yes, there have been many other factors in the equation as well, and the four walls here began closing in too quickly. It was definitely time for a change and thanks to my oldest and dearest friend I got that change yesterday. Many years ago I used to do a lot of lighting and sound work for local and a couple of nationally known bands. I also did DJ work for parties and the occasional club. My friend Carol started something that culminated in my return to the studio as the Guest DJ at Ocean 98.1 radio station in Ocean City. One hour of air time, 60 minutes of annonymous greetings, pluggings. pontificating and most impor

The Judgement Stands
Silence is often acquainted with sin. A quest for thoughts ending badly. In this innocent world's perpetual lies Life and Reality go gladly. My Hear, my Soul, my Weakness, my own, a familiar ghost I feel, Love acquainted with being alone, my deluded confusion conceals. Sweet gallantry thou hath once see Sorrow, for Passion changes not, Time's fool. It abides on the edge of a new tomorrow while the Virtue of Light becomes cool. For Cruelty wears a sordid mask that slashes across the Soul, and words lie voiceless at your feet, your Reality, a ghost of old. They say Life knows no great sin than Pity and Despair. To sit and judge the souls of men my Spirit deems unfair. I do not judge your passion's route mine eyes can see your soul, the shallowness of your Love is out, your heart I don't care to hold. © 2006 KG

Sorry To All My Friends
Haven't been on a lot lately, been really busy at work. I am feeling a bit guilty that I have not been able to reply to all of you who sent me comments. So I will just take the minute that I have just to let you all know that they are appreciated more than you know. Hopefully I will get a chance to respond to all of you but until then, I thanks you and hope that your days are nothing but beautiful! xxxooo

Quote For May 14
This one makes you think.... By the skillful and sustained use of propaganda, one can make a people see even heaven as hell or an extremely wretched life as paradise. -- Adolph Hitler Bonus Quote: All sorts of computer errors are now turning up. You'd be surprised to know the number of doctors who claim they are treating pregnant men. -- Isaac Asimov This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Poem And Lyric Contest
Ok so for the past few days I've been trying to figure out some sort of contest to run. Well I think I've figure out what to do. This contest will be a lyrics or poem contest. Now these poems or lyrics have to be personal, which means they gotta be about me or have my name in it. The Winners poem or Lyrics will be posted on my page, and the winner will also recieve a Cherry Blast from yours Truely. So lets do this and have fun with it. Send the poems or lyrics to me by message here on cherry tap. I will create a new folder in my pics to put them in so people can vote on them. But the only vote that really counts is mine, so see if you can make my heart melt. Good Luck to all those who enter.

University Chapel
University Chapel United States, Alabama, Auburn Once used as a theater, the University Chapel was a hospital during the Civil War. When the chapel was used by theater students, it was haunted by a ghost identified as Sydney Grimlett. When the thespians moved their operations across the street to the Telfair Peet Theater, Sydney followed. Sydney Grimlett, a confederate soldier, had his leg amputated before he died. When there are theater productions, Sydney makes his presence known by opening and closing drawers, making rattling noises, locking and unlocking doors, and destroying equipment only to repair it again. There have also been reports of pianos playing and footsteps on the catwalk.

Parkwood Apartments
Parkwood Apartments United States, Alabama, Birmingham During the 1970’s, these apartments were the site of a multiple homicide. On the anniversary of the murders, which occurs in January, the stench of burning human flesh is pungent. Blood appears to ooze from the upstairs foyer. One woman even reported feeling fingers caress her neck and bosom on that January day. Many believe the apparition to be that of the murderer; he was never found.

Haunted Mining Town
Haunted Mining Town United States, Arizona, Jerome During the turn of the century, thousands of miners flocked to this boomtown to seek fortune. After the copper mine was depleted, all but one hundred of the miners left. Today, the community is a haven for artists, and has been designated a historical landmark. Ghosts in the town include that of a prostitute that resides in the building now called “Spook Hall.” In the Old Episcopal Church on Cleopatra Hill, a white, misty sprit of unknown origin has been spotted on numerous occasions. In the Old Company Clinic, the ghosts of the influenza epidemic of 1917 are said to reside.

*here's Another One*
I wish this song had been around when I was dealing with the drama. Even though there is still a little bit of it left I just want to dedicate this song to a few people. "Not Ready To Make Nice" By The Dixie Chicks Forgive, sounds good Forget, I’m not sure I could They say time heals everything But I’m still waiting I’m through with doubt There’s nothing left for me to figure out I’ve paid a price And I’ll keep paying I’m not ready to make nice I’m not ready to back down I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round It’s too late to make it right I probably wouldn’t if I could ‘Cause I’m mad as hell Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should I know you said Can’t you just get over it It turned my whole world around And I kind of like it I made my bed and I sleep like a baby With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’ It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect str

The Myrtles’ Plantation
The Myrtles’ Plantation United States, Louisiana, St. Francisville The Myrtles’ Plantation House was built in the late 18th century by General David Bradford, a Revolutionary War officer. After leading the Whiskey Rebellion in Virginia, General Bradford was to the area that would soon become Louisiana. There, through a Spanish land grant, he acquired the land that would eventually become the Myrtles’. Gen. Bradford chose the location since it was the highest point around. Unfortunately, the spot had served as a burial ground for the Bayou Goulas and Houmas Indian tribes. When his workers came across bones as they were laying the foundation, they were ordered by Bradford to stack and burn them. For many years, Gen. Bradford lived in the house with his family. He only once reported seeing a ghost–a naked Indian woman that was always crying. After he died a natural death, Gen. Bradford’s house and plantation were passed on to his daughter and son-in-law. Soon after taking over the pla

1,000 And A Contest!!!!
Hey guys...thank you to everyone who has become a friend and a fan. Over 1,000 of you so far I feel loved and appreciated. To give back to you all i'm going to have a contest. Leave some love (a comment) on my main profile and be entered to win a signed Kazy CD. Good luck to all those who participate. I love you all Rock on! Kazy

Naughty Morning Story Part 1!!
I get up and thought just another day. So I hoped in the shower and started to wash my hair!! As I do this I wonder if they'll be at the coffee shop this morning or not. So I get out of the shower and start to dry myself off. As I do I think of them and what they did on their last visit. I remember it very well, she was wearing a red dress and he was wearing lose fitting jeans and a open shirt. They had took their table off to the side, I went over there and they order what they always did,tea for her,and a black coffee for him. I came back and to my delight I got a show. His hand was going up her left thigh and she was opening for him. So I gave them their order and I came back to get the order of another group of people,two girls siting in a booth to the left of me. One had her hand on the others right arm,it seemed that day everyone had sex on the mind. So I was about to go on break when the man with the open shirt asked me to come over,so I went to see what was on his mind.When I g

----the Best Way To Love--------
WELL THE BEST WAY TO LOVE IS TO LOVE LIKE YOU HURT NEVER BEEN HURT. AND YOUR PRESENCE IN MY LIFE BRINGS WONDERFUL SMILES AND LOVING THOUGHTS WITHIN MY HEART. BUT U WANT TO TURN IT DOWN WITH SILENCEY. THE FLAME I HAVE FOR YOU NEVER DIES. BECAUSE THE COMMITNENT NEVER ENDS AND THIS FAR BETTER TO GIVE YOUR ALL AND SNOTHER THAN TO WITHHOLD IN HOPES OF A LONGER RELATIONSHIP.

War Of Souls At 10 Am Starts Today!
BLUEDEMON ~bbG ct husband ~KING OF DEMON HOUSE@ CherryTAP THIS IS THE ENEMY LEADER OF DEMON HOUSE MAKE SURE TO FRIEND OR AT LEAST FAN HIM /THE SHOWDOWN STARTS IN A HALF HOUR LETS DO THIS YOUR FRIEND AND BROTHER, DREW AKA ARCHANGEL (repost of original by '" archangel "co-owner of the angel family" S*U*P/F-A-R' on '2007-05-14 06:26:11')

11 Signs...
ELEVEN: You walk really slow when you're with them. (YES) TEN: You feel shy whenever they're around. (YES) NINE: You smile when you hear their voice. (YES) EIGHT: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. (YES) SIX: They're all you think about. (YES) FIVE: You relize you're always smiling when you're looking at them. (YES) FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them. (YES) THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time. (YES) TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing. (WHAT?) ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself. (HAHA YEAH)

The Old Farmer
The old farmer had a large pond in the back, fixed up nicely; picnic tables, barbecue pit, horseshoe courts, along with some apple and peach trees. The pond was properly shaped and fixed up for swimming when it was built. One evening, the old guy decided to go down to the pond and look it over. He hadn't been there for a while. He grabbed a five gallon bucket to bring back some fruit. As he neared the pond, he heard voices shouting and laughing with glee. As he came closer, he saw it was a bunch of young women skinny dipping in his pond. As he approached, he made the women aware of his presence. At once, they all went to the deep end. One of the women shouted to him, "We're not coming out until you leave." The old man frowned, "I did not come down here to watch you young ladies swim naked, or to make you get out of the pond naked." Holding up the bucket, he said, "I'm just here to feed the alligator."

Daily Horoscope May 14
"If you know a certain outcome is inevitable, why are you wasting time by pussyfooting around it? Face your fears bravely and you might just discover that the situation wasn't nearly as bad as you thought it would be." Well that would depend on WHICH situation you're talkin about there, horoscope. I only have like a fuckin million things goin on right now. I'll assume it's the second thing I thought of when I woke up today and just run with that.

Down =(
14 May 2007 Sitting here being down....Rudi is out of town till Wednesday for work, which I understand completely, but missing him extremely and knowing I have to go back to the states in a few days is killing me. I keep feeling like my heart cant take it. I know I am strong enough and will pull through this cuz I do have Rudi's love to see me through. Yet at this moment I feel so weak. I know that I basically keep writing the same thing over and over but I have to express it some how. I am despising going home and ending up in the drama of the family. For once I am free from that and not missing it at all. I know where I was in my life and I know where I am now, so they can speak evil thoughts all they want. For once I am able to hold my head up high towards them, cuz I know their scandulous thoughts are no longer true. Now back to Germany, yesterday I asked Rudi to fly to Spokane a week before I come back to Germany. I would love for him to meet my kids and some of my family. Then

Mommy's Day!!!
I had the most wonderful Mother's Day. I spent it at a cookout with my entire immediate family!!! My mom is getting up in years and it was really good to get to spend some time with her and my dad!!! My kids bought me roses and a necklace it was just so wonderful. I am so blessed to have such beautiful children and such a nice family!!! Hope the rest of you mom's had a great day too!!!

Change....
If there is one lesson that was the hardest for me to learn , it was "CHANGE". We as humans can not really stand change. For every relationship a "change" occurs. You have to accept the other for who they are or who they present themself to be. And as each of you get comfortable with each other, you begin to see things that you may or may not like. And the first things out of our mouth is "you have changed". Actually that is not true. We never really change, we just kinda hide our self. And as we get comfortable we let them out. So we are the same as we were when you met them. This is a hard concept to grasp because out of pure habit we say, we "he did or she did, he said or she said", when the reality of things is it is not about them!!!! Now you are probably saying to your self "she is nuts" but hear me out. It truely is not about them it is about you!!! You see these things and for what ever reason decided you like it or don't like it, there fore it is YOU that wants to change!!!!

Tomorrow = Deletion Day
Tomorrow I can delete my account, YAY, I'm migrating back over to myspace, =) Anyone wants to add me on there, here's my addy! I'll be looking forward to keeping in touch with most of y'all My Myspace Link

Why Does Love Hurt
you know there are warnings about not using drugs because obviously some are addictive and not continuing the use can be painful and sickening the with drawls ........but you remember that first hi that feeling of uforia and you chase after it trying diffrent stronger drugs but its never quite the same ........but how do you stop .......how do you break this insane cycle ? i wish it was as simple just lock myself away in some hospital and take it step by step but see love doesnt work that way .........no you run from it you avoid and and bamb its back in your face and that feeling you thought you'd never feel wow that rush that hi that oh crap i'm hooked i'm scared but i have to have more all is good and then you get it laced with some bad shit and your on a bad trip from hell how the hel do i get off this ride? i think i'm going to be sick and then the chills and the pain and you find yourself on the floor again ........not again..........

Something Witty Before I Sleep...
So I heard the funniest joke today I thought I'd share it for a giggle.. it was something about the size of a pickled pecker..pepper.. penis.. pickle.. ahh hell I already blew it. *grin* this joke is trademarked by myself :P

Decision Making
I like this stroy because of the way it ends, and explains itself. Sometimes we do not think about the impact of our decisions. When I was in the military I was taught about "intent vs impact". Sometimes our best intentions have an adverse impact. So, with that being said, I hope you enjoy the story below. Here is a small story on decision making. Please go through the story very carefully to get the sense of it. Which one will you choose? A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track. The train came, and you were just beside the track interchange. You could make the train change its course to the disused track and saved most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way? Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could

A Poem I Wrote
These I wrote for a person that hurt me bad.. You came into my life when I thought it was at its lowest. You made me smile and laugh again. When time passed you made me feel love again. You mde me feel there was happiness and love out there for me. You made me feel I was a type of person That deserved all this happiness. Then I was honest with you and you just walked away and dissapeared. You didnt even stay to talk about it. So maybe it was all a lie on your end. But my end was true. You gave me hope and ripped it from me. I gave you my heart and soul you tore it out and stomped on it. I feel no love anymore. I feel nothing. I will never so carelessly give out my heart again. Like I did with you, no matter what my feelings, I will never trust so easily. YOU did this to me. Now I have to pay for it. As you go on with your life. So now Locked away, Is My heart.

Uff Ohs
This weekend just gone, my parents went to their friends' daughter's wedding in County Down, in Northern Ireland. All the usualy stuff to report, Lorna (the friends' daughter) looked beautiful, the food was great, your Dad got drunk and acted an arse, blah, blah, blah. After all the food and stuff, there were rumoured to be fireworks. The Fireworks actually turned out to be three small hot air balloons, made for paper with a little tea-light candles to make them fly. So up they went, all glowing and orange, and after a while the light went out and they floated down to Earth. My mum phoned me to tell me all this this morning. Then my dad phoned and directed me to this on the BBC website: Residents spot strange UFO lights Residents in County Down have raised the possibility of a UFO sighting above the skies of Bangor. Several callers to BBC Northern Ireland have reported a series of strange orange lights in the night sky. Air traffic control at Belfast International Ai

You Ask How Was Your Mother's Day
Well the answer to that question is: We got up put our clothes on.Met the kids at their house.Jumped into the car.Went to the flea market to hunt for a gift to take to Texas,with me.But,couldn't find that special gift.You know the one that makes the receiver cry.Anyway,we ended up with a 42" HDTV.Now how in the world am I going to load that up in a bronco,I have no clue.So,we set it up in our livingroom.Desperate to find this perfect gift.Anyway,Happy Early Father's Day.A did get a wonderful cook meal From:"Ole Time Cookin" reastaruant from the kids,and a phone call from my grand-daughter,and a very special called from my son.So,overall it was a good day.By the way I really enjoy watching Nascar.Ha!ha!

Red Marbles - A Story To Touch Your Heart
RED MARBLES During the waning years of the depression in a small south eastern Idaho community, I used to stop by Brother Miller's roadside stand for farm-fresh produce as the season made it available. Food and money were still extremely scarce and bartering was used, extensively. One particular day Brother Miller was bagging some early potatoes for me. I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas. I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes. Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Brother Miller and the ragged boy next to me. "Hello Barry, how are you today?" "H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas. They sure Look good." "They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?" "Fine. Gittin' stronger

Sappy Shit
This makes me look sappy, but my man is out of town and I am bored + horny without him. That is what a sexy man, and drugs do to you...hahaha!!! I just wanted to announce I miss him, and think out lound....Peace Out!!!

Today's Starting Idea- A Poem I Wrote
A Single Survivor By Beth November 27, 2005 I wonder what people think of me. I worry that not all is well in my life. Will all the bills get paid? Will the car start today? With a meager income I decide who will wait. I struggle to buy clothes for my children, and forget about a date. I choose this life as I study round the clock in this way. My household chores suffer, my kids want to play. Friends and family are pushed to the side While I finish my homework that never seems to die. People ridicule me for having no job with clout. My loved ones say the kids should help out. The kids are fighting over a movie or toy. Who started it this time,. Oh Boy! The stress piles on as the housework and schoolwork collide. I give up on thing and try to finish another. I wish there was somewhere I could hide! It is past a normal person’s bedtime but my night is not over. Do I do the dishes or give homework a quick once over? I struggle to finish just one

Naughty.
NAUGHTY APPLiCATiON" ** you will get a reply!!** 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Endoscopy
i am off to the doc today..yay i get to swallow a camera so he can check out my insides...maybe stretch a stricture or two ..so i can eat again without pain...woohoo..i will post a foolow up with the results..too bad they can't give me photo's :)....see you all soon....

Welcometo Hell
15 gone from the blast of a car bomb 1 more gone when got shot being robbed 3,000 more with the falling of the towers All because an arrogant man had to prove he had power Another gone through an abortion of convenience Acting without thinking and then decided "We don’t want to deal with this" One more when she said "No" Blamed herself just because he said so Another lost because mommy can’t control her temper He will never grow or become a father Count another one gone with a bullet to the head Thought no one cared and that she was better off dead Maybe we should stop hiding in our shells Ladies and gentleman, welcome to hell

Modeling
We are looking for attractive models (amateur or professional) that are interested in being filmed. The type of shoots range from R to XXX and are determined by what the model is comfortable with. Travel and lodging are also taken care of. If you are interested in this opportunity please either email us3 pictures of yourself. All models MUST be over 18. Try and take one picture of your face and two of your body (from the front and behind). Please include your name, contact info and birthdate with the pictures. email: Chicagomodeling@hotmail.com People From the United States and SERIOUS INQUIRIES ONLY!

Things To Ponder..
Here are a few things to think about while you are relaxing... Can you cry under water? How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to? Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? What disease did cured ham actually have? How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours? If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing? Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV? Why do people pay to go up t

I Wouldn't Want To Belong To A Club That Accepts People Like Me As Members.
One thing that happens when the borderlines of gender are transgressed toward power is that those in power defensively miss the point. Eve Merriam's 'The Club', in which four gentlemen, a page, a waiter and a pianist in an Edwardian men's club, drink, play billiards, sing songs, tell jokes (while keeping an eye on the ticker tape), opened Off-Broadway in 1976 to reviews by one male critic after another who dismissed the show because its cast of seven women failed to convince the audience that they were really men. In the 'New York Times' Mel Gussow chided: "Did she [Merriam] think we wouldn't notice the latent femininity under the blustering masculinity?" (Gussow 1976). And Douglas Watt in 'The Daily News' complained that one actress in particular "didn't fool me for a minute" (Watt 1976). Of course she wasn't really trying to. Other critics were more obtruse - and more vicious. "The idea itself is the sort of thing one would expect to find in a girl's boarding school on pare

Depression & Misery Go Hand In Hand
Can someone plz help me end my misery? I just wanna fuckin die. I've had nothing to live for ever since the one guy (outside my family) that really, truly loved left me alone and miserable w/out even a reason why. I've tried to live, but as each day goes by, I grow even more depressed. And the bad luck just keeps on comin. I feel I have no one I can count on. Hell, my own sister, who's been one of my closest friends, is even going behind my back. And if I can't count on her, then who can I count on. Sure as hell ain't me, for the simple reason that I'm so fucked up. My life has gone upside down, and the only way I see out is thru Death's door.

Hello
hey im not gonna be on for a while , but i will be back , cause ya know i love this site , cant keep me away, well going through alot right now so you all take care , an love all my friends on cherrytap, love ttweety/teresa

Monday Links: Ozzy Osbourne, Turn On Your Webcams, Danny Dance Dance Revolution, Traveling Virus Tickets, New Hotness, New Videos Online
LISTEN TO TODAY'S SHOW ON AUDIBLE (link usually active by 3pm EST) Happy Monday, boys and girls! We have a devil of a show for you this morning. The one and only OZZY OSBOURNE will be in studio with Opie and Anthony talking about Ozzfest, his new disc Black Rain. If you want to see the Prince of Darkness LIVE in-studio, you should install PALTALK and go to 'Opie and Anthony LIVE'. Of course, if you're like us, you're in there staring at naked showering/sleeping women all morning. Our own FoundryMusicDanny was at Dave & Buster's over the weekend playing Dance Dance Revolution (click link for YouTube video) Tickets for the Opie and Anthony Traveling Virus are going fast, kids...so if you want those up-close seats CLICK HERE FOR TICKET LINKS AND LINE UPS New Traveling Virus T-shirts - On Sale NOW! CLICK HERE TO ORDER YOURS TODAY! The lovely Gisele from FOUNDRY CAMS has sent in a BRAND NEW video showing off her new 'F*CK ME' shirt (get your F*ck Me shirts here): GISELE Shows o

Horoscope May 13, 2007
Figuring out what makes you happy is tough, but figuring out what makes someone else happy is next to impossible -- and will drive you nuts. So put down this task and do something that is easier and more enjoyable. -This is easier said than done!

A New Week!!
Monday again! I have been trying to go out and fan and rate some newbs and I hope yall try and do that too. Its hard to get the know the new ppl but if they interact with me you never know!!! I am gonna try and do a new sticky bulletin and pimp out 10 newbs this week sooooo be sweet and you may end up on it!!!!! An oldie but a goodie to start the week! The silicon chip inside her head Gets switched to overload And nobody’s gonna go to school today She’s gonna make them stay at home And daddy doesn’t understand it He always said she was good as gold And he can see no reasons 'Cos there are no reasons What reason do you need to be show-ow-ow-ow-own? Tell me why I don’t like Mondays Tell me why I don’t like Mondays Tell me why I don’t like Mondays I wanna shoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oot the whole day down The Telex machine is kept so clean And it types to a waiting world And mother feels so shocked Father’s world is rocked And their thoughts turn to their own little g

The Blonde And The Deodorant
(no offense to any of my friends!) The blonde walks into a drugstore and asks the pharmacist for some bottom deodorant. The pharmacist, a little bemused, explains to the woman that they don''t sell anything called bottom deodorant, and never have. Unfazed, the blonde assures him that she has been buying the stuff from this store on a regular basis, and would like some more. "I''m sorry," says the pharmacist, "we don''t have any." "But I always get it here," says the blonde. "Do you have the container it comes in?" "Yes!" says the blonde, "I will go and get it." She returns with the container and hands it to the pharmacist, who looks at it and says to her, "This is just a normal stick of underarm deodorant." The annoyed blonde snatches the container back and reads out loud from the container: "To apply, push up bottom."

A Man Has Six Children...
A man has six children and is very proud of his achievement. He is so proud of himself that he starts calling his wife "Mother of Six" in spite of her objections. One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, 'Shall we go home now Mother of Six?" His wife, finally fed up with her husband, shouts back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four!"

About Your Mother
Your Mother is always with you. She's the whisper of the leaves as you walk down the street, she's the smell of certain foods you remember, flowers you pick and perfume that she wore, she's the cool hand on your brow when you're not feeling well, she's your breath in the air on a cold winter's day. She is the sound of the rain that lulls you to sleep, the colors of a rainbow, she is Christmas morning. Your Mother lives inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop. A mother shows every emotion, happiness, sadness, fear, jealousy, love, hate, anger, helplessness, excitement, joy, sorrow.....and all the while, hoping and praying you will only know the good feelings in life. She's the place you came from, your first home, and she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love, your first friend, even your first enemy, but nothing on earth can separate you. Not time, not space.......not even death! "The best and most beautiful things cannot be

Gump, You Are A Genius
You have a sexual IQ of 157 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Ethel
Well its Monday..another two shifts done..and I am off today. Off the wall more like it, and ready for that white jacket. Sometimes my job gets on my last nerve and the need to get the hell out of there is strong...but then I think of how much I would miss all of those people...so I keep going back. And getting a hug and a "I missed you, glad your back" from some of them, makes it all worth while. But some days...ARRRRGG!! I feel like I am ready for the loony bin... On that note..here is a joke..but in retrospect..this joke is really what I see at work sometimes..and you just have to laugh. Ethel was a bit of a demon in her wheelchair and loved to charge around the Nursing Home, takikng corners on one wheel and getting up to maximum speed in the long corridors. Because the poor woman was one sandwhich short of a picnic, the other residents tolerated her and some of them actually joined in. One day, Ethel was speeding up one corridor, when a door opened and Kooky Clarence

Poem Written To Me By My Dearest Friend
For at night came a shadowy figure, The passion that came without measure, One kiss and one bite was all that was needed, for heart was beating the song of a thousand lovers, only time would put an end to this endeavor, for the daylight would take away the kiss and bite of the nights lover...

A Fast But Enjoyable Weekend
Good Morning. I trust your weekend was a good one, hopefully anyways. Back to work Monday, yuck…The weekend started out like a frenzy for me with Mandy’s Softball team arriving for dinner at 5:45-6:00 and at 5:15 I figured I would start the grill and get the hamburgers ¾ of the way done incase there were cheese burger lovers in the group. Well, 5:15 came along and Bonnie asked whether or not I picked up any NON-meat items to cook? “I said ah..no..! was I supposed to?” Apparently one child on the team is a vegetarian and does not eat meat. I guess that is the definition of an vegetarian, but anyway so I mentioned to her that someone needs to get the burgers on and WATCH them…so they don’t burn…oh you know where this story is going. I leave and rush up to what is called Vitale’s Market a great place for sub sandwiches but again Melissa the one who does not eat meat would not do a sub although I guess I could have gotten her a meatless sub or vege-sub…anyway Pasta Salad and Potato salad w

Fun Stars 5-14-05
Figuring out what makes you happy is tough, but figuring out what makes someone else happy is next to impossible -- and will drive you nuts. So put down this task and do something that is easier and more enjoyable.

Sign Of The Times?
Sign of the times? A little boy goes to his father and asks "Daddy, how was I born?" The father answers: "Well son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on Yahoo. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a little Pop-Up appeared that said: Scroll down...You'll love this.... 'You got Male!'"

Clinical Depression
She walked quietly into the room and dispassionately dropped the towel in her hands to the floor. She meandered around the piles of dirty clothes and dishes piled on the table over to the window. She laid one hand upon the sill, and gently touched her fingertips to her forehead, as one tear trailed its way down her pale cheek. She stared out the window into a nothingness that echoed within her soul. She ached to feel something, ANYTHING beyond the grief of a life she longed to live. A life that brought a sense of joy and fulfillment. But what could possibly bring that was beyond her when life meant living through one tragedy after another. She wondered how the people in her life seemed so happy when all around her was the despair, the agony and the torment of her past filled with demons she didn't dare confront. She looked out the window again and wondered is there something out there for me?

The 2 Most Powerful Truths To Understand And Live By
There once was a beloved king whose castle was on a high hill, overlooking his shire. He was so popular that the nearby townspeople sent him gifts daily, and his birthday celebration was enjoyed throughout the kingdom. The people loved him for his renowned wisdom and fair judgment. One day, tragedy struck the town. The water supply was polluted, and every man, woman and child went insane. Only the king, who had a private spring, was spared. Soon after the tragedy, the mad townspeople began speaking of how the king was acting "strangely" and how his judgment and wisdom was a sham. Many even went so far as to say that the king had gone crazy. His popularity soon vanished. No longer did the people bring him gifts or celebrate his birthday. The lonely king, high on the hill, had no company at all. One day he decided to leave the hill and pay a visit to the town. It was a warm day, and so he drank from the village water fountain. That night there was a great

(pet) Leash Me Beat Me Toss Me Aside.......i'm Used To It Promise.....=)
The more i meet the more i learn the pain from the past you want to know something about me well cmere, come closer look into these eyes see the pain see the tears all this anger all this hate is all i am....I've been used ive been hurt so many times makes me feel worthless...you may all think im nice happy cheery nothing could dent the happy attitude an uplifting tones.... its all a cherade... a mask an act im dead inside i feel but very little my first love was the very first step into anything to do with a woman... she was 18 i was 16 so you know she's seen alot more...i was attracted to her for her inteliegence and her breast size.... yeah two great things i love one part of me i shouldnt have been thinking with... we got to know eachother i fell in love so naive was i at that age the pain the darkness in so many hearts i was blind to see what trutly was there.. soon she began showing me things doing things with me that were amazing..so i thot the more we went out the deeper i dug

The Chosen One
Mr Boss they know u well, Hours of passion u do sell, Black, red, or blond brunette Pick your girl and u are set, No one fucks with u…right Sir? Leather boots, designer fur, Pay your money, take a seat, Make it quick, don’t draw the heat, Rooms are full, both hands u rub, Another soak in your money tub, Leather wallet full of bills, Another night of healthy tills, Velvet sofa all brand new, Open only to a few, Heavy drapes that u unpin, Pull ‘em closed to hide the sin Bar is closed, deals are done, Waiters off and out they run, Dancers home and off to bed, Lusty thoughts roll in your head, U lock the door and sit back down, And slowly u untie your gown, Fingers fat and full of gold, Rooms of sex that u have sold, Gin in hand, u light a joint, Raise a hand, u start to point, Come my dear, its time to play, I am your boss, u will obey. Remove your dress and dance for me, Now it’s I…not him or he. Show me what I taught u well, Give me what u have to sell,

Its 6 Am.........
yeah its 6 am here....feeling rather...odd and kind of pathetic. yeah yeah like you care; but wtf why not find some place on the web to describe my idiotic feelings? *smiles w/ no mirth* I could go on and on but.......mostly i feel this because i have no control in my life. Or right now thats how i feel....having been up xx hours so far.(can;t recall exact number too tired) and need sleep. but thats not why i'm writing is it? No; just want some real friends. those that won't turn their backs on me, those that i can actually see and hang with. Hopefully by me coming on here i'll make some local friends. feeling pathetic because i have hardly any friends i can relate too that will in turn trust me. Trust and loyalty are big things with me. i'm willing to give it, if i will recieve it in turn.....

Late Night Play
Well.....not really...more like morning play :D So how's Everybody's Mom's Day eh? Hope it was good. Mine was.......decent. It could have been better. I just wish my Mom wasn't so demanding sometimes.... :p My Job hunt has gone stagnant....I'm not doing the whole Online crap anymore....that hsit will get you no where.......I'm going to have to pound the pavment if I want to get what I want. :p So yeah....... Much Luv

Hit & Run On My Son .........
Today, "Mothers Day" ................. My son was hit on his skateboard by a car with two young kids in their early 20's.... Heavy Sigh They didn't stop to see if he was ok, they slowed down just a bit and then sped off as if they didn't care, there was 2 friends along with my son when this happened and several by standers who saw it all.... My son suffered from very badly bruisings on his butt and up his lower back along with his leg, and a broken wrist (cracked) other then that he is ok Please ALL take the time to think when behind the wheel driving ANYTHING, you can seriously hurt someone.......... My 17 year old son was LUCKY today !!! it could have been his life taken away..... I guess my gift for mothers day was my sons life!! and I'm very Thankful for that !!!

Clean Up On Isle 5......
OK Mothers Day today...I went to the cemetery and just wanted to stay and be with my mom, Clean up her and my brothers grave sites, plant a few flowers, and just talk to her about my life today...So...Got there about 10 am this morning was a lil chilly so went and grabbed some hot chocolate from the coffee shop... Now my mother is buried in Detroit and i am from Ida..So thats about a good hour drive from me with all the construction on the expressway...So as i said i planted and talked to my brother first..He was 17 when he got killed by an idiot with a switchblade that started a bunch of shit.. Anyways hes buried by my mother...So talking with her and just wanting to be with her today...So took a book with me so i can just be there..I know kinda sounds weird...But talking to my mom telling her what is goin on in my life makes me happy...So was there for about 5 hours today...Had a MRI scheduled for my ankle today (yea on sunday at 630 weird huh) so was watchin the time....So on the w

What Every Kiss Means
**what every kiss means** -Kiss on the stomach; I'm ready. -Kiss on the Forehead; I hope we're together forever. (I miss those!!) -Kiss on the Head; Your my everything. -Kiss on the Cheek; I like you. -Kiss on the Hand; I adore you. -Kiss on the Neck; We belong together. -Kiss on the Shoulder; I want you. -Kiss on the Lips; I love you. ____________________________________________________ **What the gesture means** -Holding Hands; We definitely like each other. -Slap on the Butt; That's mine. -Holding on tight; I don't want to let go. -Looking into each other's Eyes; I just plain like you. -Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me. -Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go. -Laughing while Kissing; I am completely comfortable with you. ____________________________________________________ **Advice** Don't ask for a kiss, take one....... If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Lo

**what Every Kiss Means**
**what every kiss means** -Kiss on the stomach; I'm ready. -Kiss on the Forehead; I hope we're together forever. (I miss those!!) -Kiss on the Head; Your my everything. -Kiss on the Cheek; I like you. -Kiss on the Hand; I adore you. -Kiss on the Neck; We belong together. -Kiss on the Shoulder; I want you. -Kiss on the Lips; I love you. ____________________________________________________ **What the gesture means** -Holding Hands; We definitely like each other. -Slap on the Butt; That's mine. -Holding on tight; I don't want to let go. -Looking into each other's Eyes; I just plain like you. -Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me. -Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go. -Laughing while Kissing; I am completely comfortable with you. ____________________________________________________ **Advice** Don't ask for a kiss, take one....... If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Lo

Hahaha.. My Creepy Myspace Stalker.
Okay... first... I only replyed to one of this guys letters... which makes it even SO much better... Letter one. Titled: Hi Normally, I would look at someones page and go straight to their other pics and skip the song, but something was different here. I dont think ive ever heard something so sad yet beautiful. Tell me, do you choose music to show your personality? I just am curious. I know people have their reasons. I guess I'm curious about you. You've peaked my interest. Please dont take this as just another email from some stupid horn dog. I am not the type, but if given the chance, youll discover that. You've already disarmed me with that song. I wait with anticipation to see if you can break down my walls with the rest of your personality. Letter 2. Titled Please read and reply. SAME DAMNED LETTER. Letter 3. Titled Totally Rude. How rude is it not to show someone the common courtesy of even a reply when they take the time to comment on your page and th

Sad With Out You
My red heart is blue, because I'm missing you. Every day, I think about you, and I imagine how great every hour, every minute, and every second would be if you were here with me. Every night, when I lie in bed, I dream that you're beside me, holding me close to you. If you were, I'd whisper in your ear, how much I love you. Since you came into my life nothing has been the same. I've experienced love to its fullest, and I've tasted a beauty that never ends, because you're where my happiness begins. I'm incomplete without you, and I'll never stop loving you. You're the world to me, in brilliant colors. You're my best friend, a favorite song that will never end. And together is where we should be. Someday soon, I pray, that you'll walk through the door and take this heartache away.

Green In The New Job, Bearing The Wound That Never Heals
Have you ever wandered what life would have been like if only a few things had been different. Its a road we all walk down one day. I firmly believe that everyone thinks about what could have been. The process is long and seemingly endless. I sit sometimes and wander. You can not help but wander. There is a time for everything the Bible says. I'm not a religious freak, but there is once or twice that I had to reference it... just for a reality check. I remember back in the day when I enlisted, war was on the horizon or at least as all soldiers want to believe it is. I had a serious talk with my Dad... this is one of those rare occasions when he probably even would cared if i cut my arms bleeding. He was always closer to the Bible than I was, however farther from me than most times, with the exception of this occasion. It was if life caught up with him and this was his shot at the big moment. He referenced that there is a time for peace, and a time for war. And that if memory ser

Two Lovers....(written 04-14-07)
Two lovers, Stand so close, For both to taste, Naked, bare. Hands caress, Lips tease, Tongues meet, Eyes seek, Words inflame, Hearts are seduced. Two lovers, Lay skin to skin, For both to see, Rough, ready. Hands roam, Lips graze, Tongues plunder, Eyes devour, Words excite, Hearts are ignited. Two lovers, Seek to please, For both to smell, Wet, wild. Hands discover, Lips suck, Tongues sample, Eyes shine, Words encourage, Hearts are united. Two lovers, Come together, For both to feel, Hot, sweaty. Hands clasp, Lips seer, Tongues battle, Eyes open, Words electrify. Hearts are entwined. Two lovers, Side by side, For both to hear, Soft, sensual. Hands joined, Lips sigh, Tongues sooth, Eyes glow, Words Promise, Hearts are surrendered.

Purely Physical... (written 08-08-06- Adult)
Purely Physical, Thats right, thats what I said. Slam me against the wall, Rip my clothes off, Jerk my head back, And punish my lips. Purely Physical, Thats right, thats exactly what I said. Tear the clothing off me, Pull my hair, Spank my ass, And nip my neck, Purely Physical, Thats right, Thats definitely what I said. Push me down on the bed, Spread my thighs, Lick my breasts, And caress my heat. Purely Physical, Thats right, Thats totally what I said. Cover me with your frame, Grip my hands, Suck my nipples, And drive into my core. Purely Physical, Thats right, Thats truly what I said. Rotate your hips inside of me, Listen to my hisses, Take my scratches, And catch my gasp of pleasure. Purely Physical, Thats right, Thats indeed what I said. Your legs entangled with mine, Sigh against my cheek, Wet my lips again, And then, get the hell out of my bed.

Enslaved... (written 05-13-07- Adult)
I am shackled to your bed My gown caresses my skin heightening my pleasure Intensely I listen for any sound you may make I know your watching I can feel your eyes on me but my eyes see nothing here in your darkness My entire body tingles with sweet anticipation I feel a heady fire all the way down to the tip of my toes This yearning pools in the center of my very soul My breasts ache they long for your touch teeth lips I fantasize for a moment about how good your hot mouth will feel against my ever so sensitive peaks

Maddie Interpol Poster
Interpol issues global alert for missing British child Interpol has issued a global alert following the disappearance of a three-year-old girl from a holiday resort in Portugal on 3 May. An Interpol Yellow Notice for Madeleine McCann has been circulated to each of Interpol’s 186 member countries, after the toddler went missing from an apartment in Praia da Luz in the western Algarve. The notice was issued at the request of Portuguese authorities who are leading the investigation into the toddler’s disappearance. Interpol Yellow Notices are circulated to help locate missing persons, especially minors, or to help identify persons who are not able to identify themselves. Anyone who has any information regarding this case is asked to contact their local police or the Portuguese authorities. MCCANN Madeleine Beth F-131/5-2007 Present family name: MCCANN Birth name: MCCANN Forename: MADELEINE BETH Sex: FEMALE Date of birth: 12 May 2003 (4 years old) Place of

Bark At The Moon!
Saturday night, I had the honor to attend the 2007 VH1 Rock Honors show at Mandalay Bay. I knew who the bands that were being honored were, of course: ZZ Top, Heart, Genesis and Ozzy Osbourne. When I lived in Texas...hmmmmmm...I don't remember which time, but I think I was nine or ten, my family lived on post at FT Hood. I think my Father was a Major, so we had a better house, but our neighbor was this Air Cav pilot that was a little crazy. Anyways, he was my introduction to ZZ Top. When he would cookout in his backyard, he would play ZZ Top songs at top volume...until, of course, the neighbors complained. Then he would turn it down. But, I would play in the backyard so that I could still hear it. The other bands, Heart and Genesis...well, i love their music. It was hard to not be familiar with it, even for a person like me that was pretty much restricted to Christian music. ZZ Top opened...and did a fantastic job. They sounded great live, just like I always thought that th

Maddie Search Fund
MONDAY 14TH MAY 8AM MADDIE'S PARENTS MAKE A STATEMENT TO THE PRESS AND PUBLIC 'We Have To Believe Madeleine Is Safe' Madeleine McCann's parents have said they have to cling to the hope that their daughter is still alive. In a brief news conference this morning Gerry McCann told Sky News presenter Jeremy Thompson: "We've had excellent support to help us look forward and to channel everything into looking forwards. "Until we have concrete evidence to the contrary, we have to believe Madeleine is safe and well and being looked after." He added that the couple had taken "tremendous support" from the "warmth and spiritual outpouring" from all around the world. Kate McCann made it clear that they had no plans to return to the UK at the moment. Gerry confirmed that they have their own lawyers with them to relieve them of the burden of working out how best to use the offers of financial support to help in the search. "This has allowed us to concentrate on our own phys

Living In Fear = Inviting Horror Into Your Life
I got this recent email that I will post soon and it was the most arrogant email I have ever read. It was a Christian based letter talking about how Muslim religion and Islamic extremists were scary because they have claimed "Holy Jihad" on the world and that all non-believers of Allah need to be murdered. It talked about how they instill fear into their children. Yet in this email it totally IGNORED how Christian religion instill fears into children, teaches them the Armageddon with tones of war, belligerence and violence and condemns most of humanity to eternal torture for being non-believers in Christ. Bush instilled fear and judgment to make Kerry look wish washy and if you watch the DVD "So Goes A Nation.." you will see how many Bush voters became violent, judgmental and how their hatred for Kerry voters got out of hand. How arrogant and stupid is this country. Humanity is deeply sick right now. I have a surprise for you all. Bush is responsible for mass murder and tr

Hook It Up
I need your help to keep me in first place in the calendar competition!It's also My BIRTHDAY month!!! I think I should represent May... no? Send your votes please and tell all your friends. Repost this Bulletin and help me out. We have 15 more days! Vote in the Calendar contest as well as playing cards contest! ** Remember, joining with my recruit number gives me five extra vote points! If you're not from the Tristate area, use zipcode-08869. My Recruit ID# is 325. PLZ DO THIS!!! Help me win!! Vote for Miss Lush for May!! Let's do it this time Really! Thanks for all who have been participating and helping and thanks to those who will make me win this upcoming month!!

~bdsm Collars~
Collar’s by Master Z There are as many different collars in the BDSM lifestyle as there are people that wear them. A collar can signify ownership of a slave or submissive or be worn as a type of jewelry by a Dominant. As I examine the different types of collars and their significance, I will begin by pointing out that there are differences in the collar worn by a slave, an alpha submissive, a beta submissive (second or multiple submissive’s in larger households) and the collar a dominant may choose to wear. Not all disciplines of the BDSM Lifestyle recognize the fact that a dominant will wear a collar; however there are a number of communities that do embrace the practice. It does take on a different symbolism when on the neck of a dominant than on a submissive or slave. A Dominant’s collar tends to mark that person as a participant in the BDSM lifestyle and signifies the wearer as being a ‘Top’ within SM play. This is ‘flagged’ or signified generally by the design and style of t

Its Time
So ive been thinking of moving to California for the past 4 years and havent had the guts to go through with it. Tonight ive finally decided to go through with it. Ive realized that this isnt the town for me. Im going to visit a friend In San Diego at the end of may and my flight has been booked for some time now. Just worried about my mother. But we already talked about it and its all good. I love the weather there and the kind of people. they are more laid back and like to have fun. chicago just gets too cold in the winter and very humid during the hot summers. And the people here are just mean! and withdrawn. So im out. bye :)

~master Z's Abc's Of Bdsm~ (i Really Like This One!)
ACCEPT Him as your Master, accept Him in your life, BELONG to Him completely, In good times and in strife, COME to Master freely, Come on bended knee, DEDICATION and servitude, will surely set you free, EROTICIZE yourself for Him, Always look your best, FOREVER show submission, until you're laid to rest, GIVE of yourself freely, to give your Master pleasure, HUMBLE yourself always and you will be his treasure, IDOLIZE and adore Him, your Master should come first, JUDGE not anyone else, Because life is unrehearsed, KNEEL at His feet and always know your place, LOYALTY to Master, Will earn His warm embrace, MANAGING your time is key, to fulfill His every need, NEVER lose sight that He comes first, And you will succeed, OBEDIENCE to your Master, Is the way to show your worth, PLEASING Him completely, Will give spiritual rebirth, QUEST to be better for Him, To always persevere, RESPECT and Honor, will rule your life, all doubt will disappear, SURRE

Haven't Been On Much..i Know
As I am starting over completely i need a new blog. so here goes... As life plays a role of a roller-coaster with quite a few of us, this is one of those deep dips that leaves little to be desired. Just letting my friends here know that life could be better and things need to be sorted out/changed for the better. I hope everyone I know (really know here) is having a decent beginning to their spring and all that good stuff. Once I have much less quandary to deal with and swimming in better quality of life, I'll be around again. Hell, I'll even change my page up dramatically with some fun stuff you can play with. :) Later, people...and thanks for all the comments, emails and loveage. It *does* mean a lot to me. Yours Exasperatedly Lately, forni

~blueprint For A Master~
Master Z's BLUEPRINT FOR A MASTER INTELLIGENCE Intelligence is the ability to learn the proper way of playing with the toys inherent in the "lifestyle" before using them on another person. The willingness and ability to research and learn about the "lifestyle" itself. How many times have you admitted you didn't have the experience, or know how to use a certain toy? The ability to take the time to learn their partner outside the roles of Domination and submission, to learn her as the person that she is, her likes and dislikes. The ability to learn what pleases his slave and to remember those things. The successful Master should take the time to know the physical as well as the psychological tools of Domination, along with some basic psychological aspects of his slave (knowledge should grow as people change constantly). There is nothing uglier than seeing an ignorant Master trying to use humiliation as a tool of dominance. Humiliation is a difficult tool that requires maturity, in

Braindead.
My intellect Struck like a lightning volt Slicing through my veins Cluttering illusions Is the world going insane? an empty glass sits Waiting to be filled My mind wants more knowledge Instead it sits still Despicable world of wickedness From birth to eternity The frigid fear of aloneness Paranoid with no gleam Anxiety intensified My mind a big blur patiently I stagger Will my mind ever learn?

Well Ill Be Back
Hello everyone. I miss everyone very very much. It sucks not being able to get on and talk with everyone. I still check my email on yahoo and hotmail. both start with losttexan2006. If anyone would like to send me an email. I hope to be back full time soon. Peace and lots of Cherry love.

Another Fallin Soldier
on may 3rd we lost more of our soldiers again to cowards who cant face them and fight fair.i know we have lost thousands.but this death stood out.it was someone i acully worked with.i work for a company that he was related to the big wigs if thats what u want to call them.he was supposed to turn 22 next month.he was killed by a ied coming to help the vechicle in front of them that got hit with the ied first as soon as they got to there comrads to help them there lives where taking to.all you people out there that hate the government and the soldiers.fuck off.because they are doing something that u are not.they are protecting our freedom.and protecting other people.please feel free to leave comments and so forth and i got a pic of the young man i knew that lost his life this month.so please check that out.thank you to all of you in the armored forces that are protecting us and fuk the people that hate you.

And Here Is Something
For everyone who has wondered how I was doing since my last blog, I am doing better now. I had a LONG talk with some friends that I have (and some that are especially like my family) about everything I was feeling and it finally made sense. I was doing better because I had the knowledge of what the chances were that I could have been pregnant, and what the chances are that IF I had found out I had been pregnant and then it, I would be so devastated. I am not saying I'm not devastated this time but you know what I am saying. With my friends listening to me cry, and all of the comfort knowing that I still had a chance. This past week on the "rollercoaster of emotions" has been something I never wanted to have to deal with like that, but I had friends that supported me and loved me enough to care. That's what made Mother's Day special for me even if I am not a mother yet myself.

Omg, You Gotta Read This....lol
Now, think hard on this one! You are on a horse, galloping at a constant speed. On your right side is sharp drop off, and on your left side is an elephant traveling at the same speed as you. Directly in front of you is a galloping kangaroo and your horse is unable to overtake it. Behind you is a lion running at the same speed as you and the Kangaroo. What must you do to safely get out of this highly dangerous situation? If you do not know, scroll down to see answer below. Get your drunk ass off the merry-go-round!

~to Be A Master Requires Humility~
To Be A Master Requires Humility A Master is a Ruler, but never a Tyrant. But to rule requires understanding and understanding requires humility. A Master has Pride, but never Arrogance. But pride requires dignity and dignity requires humility. A Master commands Respect, but never Fear. But respect requires serenity and serenity requires humility. A Master employs Strength, but never Force. But strength requires knowledge and knowledge requires humility. A Master criticizes, but never derides. But criticism requires insight and insight requires humility. A Master receives, but never takes. But receiving requires giving and giving requires humility. A Master completes, but never tries to alter. But to complete one must be able to see what is there, not what is missing and THIS most of all requires humility. ~ Unknown ~

Nsfw Pictures
I find it hilarious that someone would be offended by a picture of me in JEANS showing my tattoo on my lower back and actually mark it as NSFW.. come on i thought that we were supposed to have some freedom here and actually act like adults...

To The Fallin
i want to thank you all for what you gave up for us.u paid the ultimate sacrafice to protect our freedom.and to save the lives of many more people.you and your families will always be in my prayers and all the fallen you will never be forgotten.

Broken
i wish i felt as happy as i let everyone think i am i wish i didn't hurt i wish he still didn't matter but no matter how much i tell my self that he doesn't it doesn't go away i'm afraid that i will always feel this way that a part of me will always belong to him and it kills me a little bit more each day i'm tiredof feeling this way until now i never realized i was capable of feeling so much pain though i think if i didn't love him as much as i still it might not be as bad but i guess that happens there are times when i wish i hated him but i don't and it hurts i wish it would all go away i wish i could drink it all away or smoke it all away but i know it won't work i tried it all it did was numb it until the next day when soberiety kicked in i don't know any more Broken" I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm bro

I Am A Marine Wife
By Pat Egan I am a Marine wife. I share my husband's pride in the Marine Corps. My husband has conquered the most challenging military training program that the United States has to offer. The Eagle, Glode and Anchor give testimony to his title: "Leader of Men---United States Marine." He has taken his place among history's Marines who have made the world feel safer just hearing the words, "The Marines have landed, and the situation is well in hand." I am proud that in an age that scorns fighting men, he chooses to be ready to defend his country. Although I can never fully understand his devotion to this fighting faternity, I realize that these closed corners of his heart and mind are no threat to our marriage. That without this dedication to the word "Marine" and all it stands for--honor, courage, patriotism and devotion to duty--he would not be the man he is. I try to be familiar with the job so I can appreciate his abilities. I wait when longs hours

My Story
She stands at his bedside as he sleeps. Smiling... she disrobes and slips into bed next to him. He stirs as her hands roam across his naked body and he pulls her closer to him...so he reluctantly yet passionately takes her hand and guides it to his cheek. Slowly to his puckered lips where it is possible to kiss her lovely fingers. He pulls her gently yet firmly to him. As he pulls her close he grips her tightly in his arms and whispers in her ear as he licks it all around and in and out. Her arms encircle him, stroking the back of his neck, her fingertips gliding lightly across his skin. Turing her head slightly, she kisses his neck...making her way towards his mouth..soft kisses become more urgent Her tongue traces first his upper..then lower lip...gently parting them..as she tries to gently probe his mouth with her tounge, he stops her. Holds her head still and with his lips gently caresses hers. She is trying to kiss him yet he withholds and caresses..... He all

Ughhhhhhhh Men
I JUST WANNA RUN AWAY FAR FROM HERE. I CANT DEAL WITH THIS ANYMORE. I JUST NOW FOUND OUT THAT MY FIANCE WAS PLANNING A VACATION TO GO TO LOUISIANA WITHOUT ME. HE WAS NOT EVEN GONNA TELL ME. HE SAID HE TOLD ME. BUT HE DIDNOT OR I WOULD OF NOT HAVE GOTTEN UPSET. PLUS HE HAS BEEN TALKING TO THIS GIRL HE WENT TO SCHOOL WITH. SO I BELIEVE HE WAS GONNA GO SEE HER WHILE HE WAS DOWN THERE. I CANT BELEIVE HE WAS NOT GONNA ASK ME TO GO. HE WAS GONNA BE GOING AROUND HIS B-DAY.HOW I FOUND OUT WAS HE CAME HOME FROM LUNCH AND CHECKED TO SEE HOW MUCH VACATION TIME HE HAD. HE WAS GONNA GO SEE HIS FAMILY. I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO GO. WE HAD PLANNED ON GOING TOGETHER BEFORE AND MAKING A TRIP TO SEE SOME FRIENDS. WHY WOULD A GUY DO THAT? I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I JUST WANNA CRAWL IN A HOLE AND DISSAPEAR. TY FOR READING THIS. HUGS,CHARLENE

Mothers Day
Ok yeah noone wants to hear the sappy stuff but i have held this in all day and i really need to get it out my mom was murdered 16 years ago and last friday one of my best friends was murdered so this has been one screwed up week for me I have done really good pretending that i was alright today but deep down i was really hurting bad because everyone around me was loveing there mother amd i couldn't life is so unfair sometimes don't get me wrong i have learned so much from this experince in life it has made me a great person who i think god everyday that i am i love myself and who i have become because of the trials in my life but then there are days like this when it really hurts because you so badly wanna feel that love have that spot in your heart filled with joy nut its just an empty space that noone else will ever fill sry for ranting on and on Jenn

My Heart Wont Stop Breaking
the thing is when vic i knew that i was in love with him and one day i would love me, but little did i know just how deeply that love would grow to be! it is so fucking hard to describe in words how badly my heart hurts each and every time that i wake up and realize that hey man victor's gone. i know this may all seem very wrong to some you who read this because i am currently in a relationship but i cant help how i feel about vic and it might sound wierd but i love ci and they have nothing to do with each other i mean i love ci TOTALY but vic will always be a huge part me!any ways back to the subject..... i wish i had a way to tell victor how it feels to have been left completely alone without ever hearing good bye how my heart breaks every single time i hear his friends or some random person just happens to bring him up and say his name telling a story to tell him that so many days i feel like i'm empty that it hurts or how sometimes i wake up crying out his name my face soaked with

Winterborn
Dry your eyes and quietly bear this pain with pride For heaven shall remember the silent and the brave And promise me they will never see, the fear within our eyes (my eyes are closed) We will give strength to those who still remain So bury fear, for fate draws near And hide the signs of pain With noble acts, the bravest souls Endure the heart's remains Discard regret, that in this debt A better world is made That children of a newer day might remember And avoid our fate (I've waited all day in the pouring rain, but nobody came, no, nobody came) And in the fury of this darkest hour We will be your light You've asked me for my sacrifice And I am Winter born Without denying, a faith is come That I have never known I hear the angels call my name And I am Winter born Hold your head up high-for there is no greater love Think of the faces of the people you defend (you defend) And promise me, they will never see the tears within our eyes (my eyes are closed)

10 Irritating Things People Do Or Say
1. People that point at their wrist when they are asking you for the time. Yes, I know where my watch is.. where the hell is yours? Do I point to my crotch when I ask where the toilet is? 2. People that are willing to get off the couch and search the entire room for the remote, because they refuse to walk to the tv to change the channel. 3. When people say "you just want to have your cake and eat it too" Well, of course..what is the sense of having cake if you can't eat it? 4. When people say "its always the last place you look" when they are looking for something. Well, of course it will always be in the last place you look. After you find it, why on earth would you keep looking? 5. When you go see a movie with someone and they say "did you see that?" No, I paid for the movie to sit and stare at the ceiling, and have you tell me what is going on. 6. When people ask you if they can ask you a question. Do they really give you a choice? 7. When people say somethi

Bitch
BITCH When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call me a bitch. Being a bitch means that I am free to be the wonderful creature that I am, with all my own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. I am proud to be a bitch! It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated, and determined. I want what I want, and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try

Does This Make You Think About Who U Are
hmmmm. make sence to u? Current mood: indescribable This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style. This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female fri

Weird???
You scored as Yeah.. you're really weird. Okay, so pretty much, you're a freak of nature. But you're fun to be around and everyone loves you, so don't ever change. We'd be good friends I reckon =DYeah.. you're really weird92%Bahaha.. normal83%You're getting there =D75%Uhh boring, much?67%You're extremely strange o.O42%Are youu weird?created with QuizFarm.com

Mothers Day Sucked
My Mothers Day sucked. My 17 yr old daughter ran away, and the cop that found her told her she was of age and didnt have to come home. 3 weeks left of her SR. yr and she fucken wants to run away to live with her boyfriend That treats her like shit.!!!!!!!! Omg I need a hug. I am sooooooo mad!

Just Some Advice
Guys.... advice.... WHEN SHE ACTS SHY -SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN SHE RUN AWAY FROM YOU - CHASE HER WHEN SHE PUTS HER FACE NEAR YOURS - KISS HER WHEN SHE KICKS & PUNCHES - HOLD HER TIGHT WHEN SHE IS SILENT - SHE'S THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN SHE IGNORES YOU - SHE WANTS ALL YOUR ATTENTION! WHEN SHE PULLS AWAY - GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO WHEN YOU SEE HER AT HER WORST - TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL! WHEN SHE SCREAMS AT YOU - TELL HER YOU LOVE HER BUT MEAN IT WHEN YOU SEE HER WALKING -SNEAK UP BEHIND HER GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND GIVE HER A KISS WHEN SHE'S SCARED!!!!!!!!! -HOLD HER AND TELL HER EVERYTHING WILL BE OK CAUSE SHE'S WITH YOU WHEN SHE LOOKS LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER - KISS HER AND TELL HER NOT TO WORRY WHILE SHE HOLDS YOUR HANDS - PLAY WITH HER FINGERS

Accidents 5/12/07
So I HAVE to buy a new car now So yeah, I finally got my car fixed. It was running great, had new front tires, just passed smog, paid the registration, had just put in a new starter, new throttle positioner etc. and now it doesn't work. Why doesn't it work you ask? Well some asshole slammed into me when I was making a left hand turn. I was at the corner of Evergreen and Harbor and was going to make a left hand turn to go towards the Pomadessie bridge. I was heading to Target to buy another plant for my mom for Mothers Day. She likes to garden and she wanted a new Hibiscus, but that's off topic. So my light turned green and I started to turn. A brown car (no i don't know what the make was or who was in the car etc. it happened so fast and it was yesterday) came barreling through their red light and slammed into me. I can remember seeing the car coming at me while in the intersection and thinking "Oh shit their going to hit me!" They slammed into my drivers side. Where the hood an

Off
OFF Locking myself in dreams Dreaming something that is timeless Being timeless all my life has hurt me Being hurt still hurts me even i am experienced Impossible thoughts in my mind Gotta sleep but no wish Going to work, paying the bills No body no mind no soul Not knowing what I have What I could have, gone Because of a mistake of a moment "O Lord, give me that moment back", I can't say Don't know what to do Getting desperate each day Life is going on Me, myself & I, off

Wanna Be A Vamp
You scored as Born to be a vampire, You know what it means to want to live forever in the darkness all alone living off the blood of mortals...and your ok with that. try this site for a little fun: http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=Soranna And btw: this quiz is just for fun..if you take it seriously you're a fuckin idiot! Born to be a vampire100% Not quite there yet30% 100% human0% Do you really want to become a vampire?created with QuizFarm.com

Mom
My mom just recently has been to the hospital twice. She wont tell me what is going on. She's been dating someone that, I guess it over now cause she was cryin. But I have my own boyfriend problems. My gram is messing up my life. She is such a !!! Anyway I miss my Chunky and I am in love with him. I am worried I am gonna end up like her.

A Good Man
"I'm gonna rob a bank." Owen had barely touched his fettuccini, preferring his fingernails instead. Thor didn't look up from his plate of pasta primavera. A good man doesn't take his eyes off a good plate of food. Especially Bertolli's pasta primavera. He said to himself, "Almost as good as in Italy." His mouth half chewing. Owen took his fingernail out of his mouth long enough to say again: "I'm gonna rob a bank." He never took his eyes off his finger. Thor coughed on the last swallow of Bertolli's best plate. "What?" He grabbed the fabric napkin from his lap and wiped the corners of his mouth, giving his attention to his friend. "Come again?" Finally taking the cannibalized fingernail out of his mouth, Owen leaned closer into the table. "I can't say it any louder, Thor. I'm serious." Nodding, he wanted to be sure of what he was saying. "I think I'm gonna rob a bank." "Jesus Christ, Owen..." Thor

Whats Up?
So i was just looking around and saw that theres blogs on here... i should have assumed that but as you can tell i havent dont much on here.. i havent explored too much... it is quite fun though... i just love cherries so it kinda fits haha well i was bored and yea now im done.. merey

Time To Clean Up Again
Tommorrow, well today I'm gonne have to redo my computer so i will be beack in a few days no worried unless i catch a shit load of problems doing it, plus i just started getting very very sick so that explains the other fews days i'll b gone from CT and myspace so to everyone see ya when i get better and back

Smiles Key
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Ct Lover
Send me your best resume for you to become my CT Lover! Make it unique be creative and you could be my CT Lover! Just tell me all about yourself and why you want to be my Lover! blueyedgirl30 *Head Stripper *SIN*sational Cafe*Real/CT Wife of Countrycop74* @ CherryTAP

I Need A Ct Lover!!!
Do you have what its takes to make me happy? I want a CT Lover.Drop me a line by private message and let me know.Hum......Just think about all the good things we could do.You ready to get your freak on? Well click my pic below and let me know how freaky you are. CountryCop74 *** *SIN* Cafe -- Head of Security ***~rl/ct hubby of blueyedgirl30~ @ CherryTAP

This Was A Test
http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=576109&albumid=0&i=3654505887 "This is a test. This is only a test of the CherryTap Rating System." The tappers of your area in voluntary cooperation w/the bulletin whores, mummers & local bouncers have developed this system to keep you informed on how people really rate pictures. If this had been an actual "real" default picture, drooling may have occurred followed by tingling of the groin area &/or fapping. This concludes this test of the CherryTap rating System." I'm behind on my bloging but this was a test to see how ppl really rate pictures on cherrytap but mission failed, someone marked it NSFW a hour after I uploaded it LoL! to be continued...

White Town-your Woman
Just tell me what you've got to say to me I've been waiting for so long to hear the truth It comes as no surprise at all you see So cut the crap and tell me that we're through Now I know your heart, I know your mind You don't even know you're being unkind So much for how your highbrow Marxist ways Just use me up and then you walk away Boy you can't play me that way Well I guess what you say is true I could never be the right kind of girl for you I could never be your woman I could never be your woman I could never be your woman I could never be your woman When I saw my best friend yesterday She said she never liked you from the start Well me, I wish that I could claim the same But you always knew you held my heart Your such a charming hansome man Now I think I finally understand Is it in your genes? I don't know But I'll soon find out, that's for sure Why did you play me this way? Well I guess what you say is true I could never be the right knid of gi

Dear Daddy
18 years ago you left us....never to hear your voice or see your face again...how i miss you...Jackie is so big now she is 15 and you would have spoiled her beyond belief...you never got to see her or any of your grandchildren...there are 5 now...but wait you do see 2 of your grandchildren everyday don't ya....how glorious it will be when we are all reunited.... Daddy i miss you so much and i want to see you again...to hear your voice, to see you, to talk to you even though you always wondered where my off switch was....i used to watch you sit on the porch with Taffy and play your guitar so softly....and how i wish i could look out the window and see you sitting there 18 years hasn't taken the pain of losing you away...i love you as much today as i ever did....i know that you are in a better place and that you aren't sick anymore but that doesn't help to ease the pain of you being taken away so young...there was so much you wanted to see and you didn't live long enough to see any

This Goes To You Fag Boy
What I have never understood is the nerve of some people, people who say they are tollarent of everyone, yet when it comes to actually practicing what they preach they fall well short of the mark. I for one can’t stand those people who say they a diverse, the people who try to force their views and opinions on you and tell you that your views are wrong. I espically can not tolerate those self proclaimed chirstans, the people who say that since you do not believe what I believe that makes you a heathen. Well god dam it if that makes me a heathen I proclaim that loud. People need to learn that just because our views differ means very little. Yes I am racist, yes I believe that the white race is far superior to every other race, and I do not hide that fact. But when you call me that to my face and tell me I am wrong, not only do I get pissed but I will retaliate with vengeance in my heart and hatred in my eyes. I will not stop because you call me what I am, I will not faulter in my

Not Missing A Damn Thing...
TODAY I HAD THE BEST DAY!! IT WAS NOTHING I EXPECTED AT ALL.... BUT EVERYTHING I WISHED FOR. :D I HAD COFFEE ON FOR ME IN THE MORNING. I EVEN GOT TO LOUNGE AROUND FOR A FEW HOURS BEFORE DOING ANYTHING. (EVEN BETTER) MY SISTER TOOK ME FOR LUNCH!! (GOTTA LOVE PINA COLADAS) LOL THEN I CAME HOME TO A CLEAN HOUSE WITH SUPPER BEING COOKED! I LOVE BBQ.. WELL ANYTHING BBQ'D LOL. TO END OFF THIS DAY... I PLAYED POKER AND DID AWESOME..TILL I WENT ALL IN. *NOTE TO SELF* NEVER GO ALL IN!!! DOH! OH WELL.. JUST WANTED TO SHARE MY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY STORY. HOPE ALL YOU MOTHER'S ENJOYED IT AS MUCH AS I DID!! *HUGS* TO ALL THE MOTHER'S THAT I KNOW! SINCERELY, ~PROUD MOTHER~

Candyland Club!!!!!!!
WHATS UP MY SWEET CANDIE HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO THE ONES THAT ARE. G R E A T NEWS I BELIVE CANDYLAND WILL HAVE ITS GRAND OPENING TOMMROW..WANT TO DO SOMTHING FUN ANY IDEAS....DO YALL WANNA DO A GAME A CONTEST A GIVE AWAY.. YOU ARE THE CANDIES YOU LET ME KNOW GIVE ME SOME FEEDBACK!!! LETS MAKE THIS THE BEST DAYUM CLUB ON CT AND THE FUNEST :) *HUGS* LOVE MY CANDIES

For Who Gives A Dam
well people i'm still alive, u know its pretty shamefull that when u get close to someone from far or near and the only time they get in touch with u is when they need something, what happend to just a call or a txt mess, sayen hi how have u been, well u know what , its gone out the window there are too many fakes in the world. contest here contest there and i can give a rats ass about the fake ass contest, so i dont want anything to do with contest. going bk to the phone calls, i call someone and u know who u are, and get no answer and no return call back but u say on here u miss me "blah" now how is that missing someone??????? hmmmmm u tell me so yea too many fakes in the world why this attitude? tired of the fucken head games is all. no i have not been drinken nor on drugs for the way i am speaken here, just getting shit off my chest, and if i'm a jerk or an ass for speaken my mind so be it sparkey

To Clear The Air.
Since Firemyst and Nasa seem to have a vendetta against me, and have blocked me from defending myself with the trash they post about me, I figured, since their friends will likely be coming here to look at my profile, I'll go ahead and post the entire story here. They certainly won't post it. The entire story can be summed up in two links, and a few of my own words. After the latest attack and slander, I sent this email to Firemyst, as she was the one to start the entire issue. I think it sums everything up nicely. You know, you may want to move out of the glass house before you start casting stones. Let your mindless followers know the ENTIRE story before you just select parts of it completely out of context. For instance, why have I never once seen you post a link to either of the mumms you reference? Oh, lost track of them. Here. I bookmarked them for you. "Support the troops" http://www.cherrytap.com/mum.php?id=50340 That one, I never even made a single c

Confused
Seriously, I dont know why the father of my kids that hates me so much would not call to talk to the kids each week. If he actually cared about his kids then he would at least try to be in their lives even if I am in the way. But I guess that is all that he is all about. I know that some fathers would actually die to talk to their children on the phones, even some fathers that would like to spend at least one hour with them. But because of living situations, Im here in NE and he is in AL, it makes it hard to travel back and forth. I was willing to meet half way though to make the exchange around father's day but yeah, that is just like one month away. And it is I guess too soon and they do not have the money for anything like that. Oh, but I dont have a family of five to take care of at this time, like he does; his wife wont get a job, she is just a stay at home wife that complains too much about how I am taking the time away from her hubby just because i want him to spend time with hi

Mothers Day
WOW WHAT A MOTHERS DAY I HAVE KIDS SO I AM LUCKY ONES HOWEVER THIS YEAR I FEEL LIKE I AM LOSEING MY DAUGHTER .HER BOYFRIEND GAVE HER A FRIEND SHIP RING TODAY. ON MOTHERS DAY SHE WAS EXCITED I WAS NOT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT SHE WAS PLAYING BARBIE NOW SHE WANTS LOVE AND NOT A MOM OR DAD KIND OF LOVE TEEN LOVE FOR A BOY HER FIRST BOY AND AS THEY ALWAYS SAY THERES NO LOVE LIKE YOUR FIRST LOVE YOU NEVER FORGET IT .I AM GLAD SHES GROWING AMD HAPPY ALL A MOTHER WANTS IS A HAPPY CHILD .WE ALL KNOW LOVE HURTS AND ALL I WANT IS TO MAKE SURE HER HEART DONT BREAK. BUT BOY OH BOY DOES IT NOT MAKE YOU FEEL OLD ON MOTHERS DAY WOW .GOOD LUCK TOO ALL YOU MOTHERS OUT THERE EVERY DAY WE MOTHERS LEARN SOMETHING NEW AMAZEING .

This Was Cool!
Wikipedia Bday Game! It's fun and different so I decided to play! So here are the instructions:1. Go to Wikipedia and put in your birthday, without the year, in the search bar.2. List on your blog 3 events, 2 births, 1 death and 1 holiday that happens(ed) on your birthday./>====================================3 Events:399 BC- The philosopher Socrates sentenced to deathSocrates (Greek: S????t??, invariably anglicized as ['s?k??ti?z], Socrates; circa 470–399 BC) was an ancient Greek philosopher who is widely credited for laying the foundation for Western philosophy. The most important source of information concerning Socrates is Plato. Plato's dialogues portray Socrates as a teacher who denies having disciples, as a man of reason who obeys a divine voice in his head, and a pious man who is executed for the state's own expediency. Socrates disparages the pleasures of the senses, yet is excited by beauty; he is devoted to the education of the citizens of Athens, yet indifferent to his own

Bombfest 2007
RAWR FAMILY...Please post in your blogs, bulletins, and homepages. Click Pic 4 Contest Link... _____________________________________________________ FRIENDS...I would really appreciate your help & support...You must have a verified salute & add the host! Link listed below. Jokers_Wild - Diary Of A Mad Trucker ‡± You Dont Have To Like Me But You Will Respect Me‡@ CherryTAP _____________________________________________________ Please rip & wear the tag below by clicking on the pic If you have any questions or won't be able to help, plz contact Myself or Lucy Thank you, .:Lµ¢¥:. Ðĵ Çã§ђs CT Wifey {Co Founder of RAWR} Tha Verdicts Bitch HollieHottie~InsaneAsylumRejects~[RAWR #1]No Fan = No Add

Random Thoughts
UNSOLVED MYSTERIES! Can you cry under water? How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? Why do you have to "put your two cents in"... but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to? Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? What disease did cured ham actually have? How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours? If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing? Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV? Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground? Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you

Parents Job Description
I read this and laughed my ass off!!It is perfect for all parents!!! POSITION : Mom, Mommy, Mama, Ma Dad, daddy, da, father JOB DESCRIPTION : Long term, team players needed, for challengin Permanent work in an,Often chaotic environment.Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work Variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends And frequent 24 hour shifts on call.Some overnight travel required, including trips to Primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities!Travel expenses not reimbursed.Extensive courier duties also required. RESPONSIBILITIES : The rest of your life.Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily,Until someone needs $5.Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a Pack mule And be able to go from zero to 60 mph

Hotrods
seriously, who out there reading this, knows what i mean when i say "if you can't race it or take it to bed it ain't worth keepin'"? i LOVE american muscle. cars make me feel things some men can't..lol. i'm not your typical gal i guess. i'm the kind of chick you'd see in guns and ammo, not just for the pretty picture. i'd be showing you how to use it!! i love the old classic muscle cars with the big blocks that could smoke the pokey and they wouldn't bother catching up. i swear, if i were a car, i'd be a 1976 hemi cuda, bright red with black racing stripes, side pipes, blower on the hood, barrelling down the road, leaving all the guys longing for a ride. Mmm, hotrods all the way baby! whatcha think??

Death
IF TEARS COULD MAKE A RIVER AND MEMORYS A LANE I WOULD WALK UP TO HEAVEN AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN LIFE IS SUCH A PRECIAS THING LIVE IT TO YOUR FULLIEST NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE WE ALL GO THREW BAD THINGS IN LIFE SOME MORE THEN OTHERS EVERYTHING HAPPENDS FOR A REASON NEVER TURN YOUR BACKS ON THE ONES YOU LOVE BECAUSE THEY MAY NOT BE HERE TOMMROW SO IF U HAVE SOMEONE SPECIAL IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT KNOW ENJOY WHAT TIME U HAVE WITH EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE DO NOT NOT WHAT TOMMROW WILL BRING US NEVER GO TO BED ANGERY AT EACH OTHER ALWAYS TELL THAT SPECIAL PERSON JUST HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU AND HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM EACH AND EVERYDAY LOVE IS A PRECIAS THING NEVER WASTE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here's Another One (story)
You are sitting at the desk upstairs at the grocery store finishing the order for work. Your head is pounding. You've taken Excedrin migraine but it has not worked. You and I are supposed to be doing grocery shopping after work which irritates you, but is the only time we can accomplish this this week. You're surprised when I walk in the door. I have a strange smile on my face which confuses you. You wonder what weird thing I've done now. You hear: "Produce, line two," over the speaker and take the call. You are then put on hold. "What?" you ask, a little irritated. "What's the matter, baby?" I croon. "Headache." "Oh poor baby. I'll fix it." You think I'll do something girly like rub my temples or fuss over me, and you're about to open your mouth to let me know that you've taken some medicine but I don't let you speak. Before you can respond, you see me under the desk, kneeling facing you, and I'm unzipping your pants, finding your cock and slipping Him into my mouth. "We can't do this

Solo Travel
Wrapped in my bedroll, I look up at stars colder than any woman I have known. I need a break from towns and streets and bars. I need to be out here and on my own. There's something in these waves of rock and space that I can learn to call on, I expect; Someone -- and I might never see His face -- who'll know my need to center and connect. I keep on riding, day by night by hour, not knowing what's ahead, what rocks I'll climb, praying for some connection with a Power that I can ride with, down this trail of time.

Alright ..im Back..testing The Waters!
Hey everyone....or anyone that actually reads these farking things...lol...Im back...but just testing the waters....so far so good....I missed everyone of ya and its good to see some familiar faces still hanging around. just a heads up though..one of the main reasons I left was because of the constant bombardment of requests for graphics and skins...NOW don't get me wrong...I was and still am flattered that everyone liked my work but seriously...40 to 50 emails a day asking for something to be made...thats insane....and I just couldnt keep up and I pissed a lot of people off when I said NO...and I think thats bullshit...but its all in the past...anyway... it would be nice to have a go at this without having all these requests for skins and tags to be made. I hope you guys understand...It would be a lot more fun for oh Stevie boy if it was like that. :) Thanks ..and Ill see you guys on the other side! Hugs! Steve

To My Friends
For those who wish to stay in contact here is my e-mail: Harold (Hank) Stratton silverdragon32656@comcast.net silverdragon32656@msn.com as I'm leaving CT. I want to keep in contact with my friends and those who would interested in staying in contact with me. Maybe I'll be back later, who knows. Blessing and Peace SeidrDragon

Love And Loss.
This is about true love and of course loss, as we all know true love and trust is hard to find . alot of men treat women bad and its realy hard if there are kids envoled too. To many men judge a woman hy her looks or kids and even worse these days her body and thats not fare at all because its ok for him to get big and drink and party. no woman should be treated bad by a man no matter what she has done or her children have done a man should not control and threaten and scare a woman. everyone yes has there momments and things happen and are said too but still it dont mean that the man needs to beat or even kill a woman to get his point across. there is alot of drama these days in relastionships and no one should ever go threw that at all. we all need true love and trust in our lives .

Sex Application
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Job: 4. Favorite position (s) ? 5. Do you think i'm hot? 6. Would you have sex with me? 7. lights on or off? 8. Would you have to be drunk? 9. Would you take a shower with me? 10. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 11. Would you leave after or stay the night? 12. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 13. Condom or skin? 14. Do you give Oral pleasures? 15. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 16. Have sex on the first date? 17. Would you kiss me during sex? 18. Do you think I would be good in bed? 19. Three sum? 20. Anal yes/no? 21. How many times would you like to cum? 22. How many times would you make me cum? 23. Do you like fore play? 24. What is fore play to you? 25. Can we take pictures of the act? 26. Do you like toys 27. your perfect night of passion with me would be: 28. What would you do to turn me on? 29. Want do you want to do more than anything..? 30. Any

Ask Me Out
ASK ME OUT Body: post this saying "Ask Me Out" Even if you are single or not. Whoever wants to go out with you will message you saying "I would go out with you" Repost this in 90 sec you will be surprised who replys 2 you. even if u have a boyfriend or girlfriend PS. must do even if your taken

Sir Edward Bruce Hamley
A moth-eaten rag on a worm-eaten pole, It does not look likely to stir a man's soul. 'Tis the deeds that were done 'neath the moth-eaten rag, When the pole was a staff, and the rag was a flag.Sir Edward Bruce Hamley

Child Beating
Body: She was only 5 Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic Her only friend was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of sound Until her parents unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endure A bruise on her leg A scar on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear And softly cries She loves her parents But they want her to die She sits in the corner Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking? " Such a bad life For a sad little kid She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did Then one night Her mom came home high And the poor child was beaten As hours went by Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade It was sharp and pointy One that she made She

Angelia(is A Story)
alright folks Sitting in the office watching the people come in and out of her boss's office. She wondered what it would be like if she where just to hide under his desk, with her mouth wrapped around his lushes cock while people came and went. She leaned back and closed her eyes, enjoying that thought. Slipping up and down his cock, eagerly waiting for his cum to come rushing out of him. Hearing him moan with pleasure. "Angelia!" came his voice. Still dreaming of the pleasure she was giving him she didn't realize that he was calling her name for real until he said it again this time more firmly "Angelia!!" snapping out of the dream she looked over to his office door where he stood. "Yes, sir!" angelia said as clear as she can. "Come in my office I need to talk to you about the proposal for Smith!" he said as he turns around and walks back into his office. His hair slightly tussled from running his fingers through it. His suit jacket was off and so was his tie. after all it

Great Weekend
I had a really good weekend down in Washington DC with 2 of my old roommates from college. It was just a reminder of all that I have waiting for me after I graduate. Its all so close... all I have to do is make it through the next year alive and I will be in Washington working and keeping myself busy. Who knows, maybe meet a girl and start a family. Its all just right there, I just need to survive so I can take whats rightfully mine. Live- Lightning Crashes Lightning crashes, a new mother cries Her placenta falls to the floor The angel opens her eyes The confusion sets in Before the doctor can even close the door Lightning crashes, an old mother dies Her intentions fall to the floor The angel closes her eyes The confusion that was hers Belongs now, to the baby down the hall Oh I feel it comin' back again Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind Forces pullin' from the center of the earth again I can feel it Lightning crashes, a new mother cries This moment s

~pablo Neruda~
Sonnet LXXXIX When I die, I want your hands on my eyes: I want the light and the wheat of your beloved hands to pass their freshness over me once more: I want to feel the softness that changed my destiny. I want you to live while I wait for you, asleep. I want your ears still to hear the wind, I want you to sniff the sea's aroma that we loved together, to continue to walk on the sand we walk on. I want what I love to continue to live, and you whom I love and sang above everything else to continue to flourish, full-flowered: so that you can reach everything my love directs you to, so that my shadow can travel along in your hair, so that everything can learn the reason for my song.

I Did One Of Those Quiz Things...
You scored as The Amazing Spider-Man. After being bitten by a radioactive spider, Peter Parker was transformed from a nerdy high school student into New York's greatest hero. Peter enjoys the thrill of being a super hero, but he struggles with the burdens of leading a double life. He hopes someday to win the heart of his true love Mary Jane, the woman he's loved since before he even liked girls. Right now, he just wants to make it through college and pay his bills. The Amazing Spider-Man63%Lara Croft58%Neo, the "One"58%William Wallace54%Maximus50%Captain Jack Sparrow50%Batman, the Dark Knight46%The Terminator46%El Zorro42%Indiana Jones

Soulmates And "your Better Half"
People may find someone that they can call a "twin flame" in that they have integrated appreciation (love) for their physical, mental, spiritual and emotional bodies; they know their roles in the relationship and play well together without power struggles... ...but there are no such things as soulmates or "your better half". These romantic ideas are based on neediness and teach low self-esteem and self-rejection. The romantic notion that there is half of you missing that you need to find...is false. You are a complete soveriegn being and a god with free will. All you need is to love, accept, trust in, have validation in and be content and happy in yourself, cause you are the only person that you have your entire life, 24/7. If you rely on others or circumstances outside of yourself for those things, you will always set your self up for disappointment. When you love yourself and abide in love, that is when life starts to truly be magical.

Pablo Neruda~sonnet Xvii
Pablo Neruda Sonnet XVII (100 Love Sonnets, 1960) I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire: I love you as certain dark things are loved, secretly, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries hidden within itself the light of those flowers, and thanks to your love, darkly in my body lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

Buster 1997-2007 Mother's Day
Today I buried my family pet. He was a wonderful Shelty breed dog and one of the best dogs I have known for many many years. He will be missed ... he just got old and died. He was one great watch dog and was loved by my family. He is gone but not forgotten. His place is empty, his food dish no longer to fill and his water dish is empty. He brought us joy and happiness for many years. His bark no longer heard when I return home for me to come to him. I will miss you, Buster. xoxo, Celtic

Pablo Neruda~sonnet Lxiv
Sonnet LXIV My life was tinted purple by so much love, and I veered helter-skelter like a blinded bird till I reached your window, my friend: you heard the murmur of a broken heart. There from the shadows I rose to your breast: without being or knowing, I flew up the towers of wheat, I surged to life in your hands, I rose from the sea to your joy. No one can reckon what I owe you, love, what I owe you is lucid, it is like a root from Arauco, what I owe you, love. Clearly, it is like a star, all that I owe you, what I owe you is like a well in the wilderness where time watches over the wandering lightning. ©Pablo Neruda

Ct Scattegories
CT SCATTEGORIES...it's harder than it looks! Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following...They MUST be real places, names, things...NOTHING made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question. Your Name: Sunny Famous Artist/Band/Musician: Slipknot 4 letter word: Shit Vehicle: Scion TV Show: South Park City: San Diego Boy Name: Shamus Girl Name: Savannah Alcoholic drink: Shady Lady Occupation: Systems Analyst Flower: Spiderlily Something you wear: sari Celebrity: Steven Spielberg Something found in a kitchen: Seive Reason for Being Late: subway late Cartoon Character: Spongebob Squarepants Something you shout: Suck it!

Goodnight Sexy Ladies Of Ct!
goodnight sexy ladies of Ct! date: 2007-05-13 21:26:45 Keep showing me love throughout the night with pic comments and ratings, preferably comments, btw i'm in a contest starting tomorrow, the sexiest male dj contest when it opens i'd love ur votes!!

About Me
Is your hair up? Yes Is your phone right beside you? no, i lost it Do you have a bf/gf?boyfriend? No. Do you miss someone? of course. Do you wish you were somewhere else? no Do you have plans for tonight? nope. bedtime soon Are you wearing makeup? nope Are you wearing chap stick? nope. Are you cold? yup. so im wrapped up in a blanket Are you tired? kinda Are you excited? no Are you watching t.v.? yes. Are you wearing pajamas? ya Who's the last person you messaged? cell phone? the chadmister Who's the last person that called you? dustin PAST Recently done anything you regret? not really. Ever lied? oh yeah. Ever spit at someone? nope. i think that's really disrespectful Ever trip over your own feet? ahahah of course. Ever had your nails done? yes Ever thrown up because you cried so hard? nope. TODAY Have you yelled at someone? ohmygod yes. Have you gotten mad at someone? veryvery. Have you cried? yep Have you called more than 3 people? nope. Have you

What I Look For In A Woman.
Hi this is what I look for in a woman, I want a woman who is fun to hang out with likes to hold hands walk on the beach under the moon and stars and loves my cooking thats a big plus hehe. Im looking for a woman who feels good about her self and knows what she wants in life and looks for a man in his heart not his looks. I never look or judge a woman by her looks or body size but by her heart and no it dont both me if she has kids either. I am 36 I have never been married and no kids I have had 3 x's in my life and it has been a hard learning experence for sure but it has not changed my heart or thoughts towards women even men have there faults too. at times alot more then even women . I love to spoil a woman buy her flowers and make her a home made dinner and give her a nice hott bath or shower and a good massage too. I do love to cuddle of course who dont right . I am 6'3 with size 13 feet and im 200lbs soo there is alot to cuddle with lol. I have been

So Much For...
I thought when a person turns 21 they would have a pretty decent birthday. So much for that! My birthday consisted of sleeping on the couch, because I was bored. No drinking, no laughing, nothing. My "friends" had planned to go drink, but every half an hour I'd get another call, "you know what amanda, I just can't make it" So it was just me my old man, and Ke'li. That was fine, but then of course Royce just had to get out of the house, and went for a bike ride... I guess I'm just gonna have to get used to this feeling that people just don't give a shit.

Trivial
Trivial malise Haunts my lucid mind Compelling madness Rational thoughts are not an option Nor a solution Consumed by fictious anguish Desire grows In search of the everlasting truth The validity of reality Is just human nature A heart with out a soul is not to be trusted

To All Who Helped Me Win The Mother's Day Contest Thank You
Wow!!! I'm speechless believe it or not.. I know anyone who knows me don't believe it I talk all the time. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!! For the first time in many years I've had a Happy Mother's Day! You made it possible by helping me win First Place in The Mother's Day Contest! I could not have won without each and every one of you. It has been a very long contest and each and every one of you worked hard every day to keep me in front the entire time. There aren't enough words to express my appreciation. I love you all very much. You are the greatest friends anyone could ever have. The Round Table Bombers are the best family I could ever have. Thank you for accepting me into your family. We are the greatest bombers on CT. We may be small but "Dynamite comes in small packages". Also thanks to the Confederate Bombers for your support when I needed you. You guys are great. All the other bombing families that helped thank you to you as well you

0n Line Friends
:~Online Friend~: Although you are a friend of mine and letters we exchange, I wouldn't know you on the street, and doesn't that seem strange? You hold a place within my life, unusual and unique; We share ideals and special dreams, and still, we do not speak I picture what I think you are, perhaps you picture me . An intriguing game for both of us for someone we can't see So for this friendship we possess, we owe this mail a debt, Perhaps the charm lies in the fact that we have never met.

Time For An Update
ok so its been since last thanksgiving since i wrote a new blog, so i think its time i write a new one. as of then, i have gotten a new job as a groundskeeper at an apartment complex. its pretty damn sweet even though the job is pretty tough. ive been broke for the past 3 months, but now i finally have money to get my life back on track. ive stopped drinking as much as i used to, im in the process of quiting smoking, and im on a regular sleep schedule. ive met this really cool chick named stacy. she's awesome. i dont think she knows just how much i really like her, but on the other hand, maybe she does. ill leave that up to her to find out. i dont wanna push her away by being so strong... things are finally starting to look up...for now. all good things come to an end. but im not worried about it now. ill deal with it when the time comes. other than that nothing really much new has been going on. sooo i guess this is the end of this blog. ill write more when im not so

Asshole.....
when i first read thiS i was seriouslY LMMFAO! When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying "Hello."I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?"Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f***ing number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude . When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits.After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled "You're an asshole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was p

Sometimes
Sometimes you just have to use someone's words to describe how you feel........ Black then white are all i see in my infancy. red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me. lets me see. as below, so above and beyond, I imagine drawn beyond the lines of reason. Push the envelope. Watch it bend. Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind. Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines. Black then white are all i see in my infancy. red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me. lets me see there is so much more and beckons me to look thru to these infinite possibilities. as below, so above and beyond, I imagine drawn outside the lines of reason. Push the envelope. Watch it bend. over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind. Withering my intuition leaving opportunities behind. Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line. Reach

A Mother Love
There are times when only a Mother's love Can understand our tears, Can soothe our disappointments And calm all of our fears. There are times when only a Mother's love Can share the joy we feel When something we have dreamed about Quite suddenly is real. There are times when only a Mother's faith Can help us on life's way And inspire in us the confidence We need from day to day. For a Mother's heart and a Mother's faith And a Mother's steadfast love Were fashioned by the Angels And sent from God above.

Just Keep Holding On
We're always thinking that the perfect boy is going to come along & say all the right things. We keep dreaming someone's gonna care about us as much as we care about them. We get our hopes so high, just to be shot down. There's nothing we can do about it; we're girls & we need to realize that the best things come when you least expect them. just keep holding on babi One day you're gonna want that girl. That girl knew she wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you. That girl who wanted nothing more then to be there for you. The girl who sees your flaws but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still cant bring herself to hate you even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one eles had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart but will carry the image of you in her forever. The girl that should have you but doesn't, even though she deserves

First Here Is A Beautiful Article About Mothers.it Was Written By Cindy Lange-kubick And Appeared In The Lincoln (neb.) Journal Star. Happy Mother'
First here is a beautiful article about mothers.It was written by Cindy Lange-Kubick and appeared in the Lincoln (Neb.) Journal Star. Happy Mother's Day. This is for all the mothers who didn't win Mother of the Year. All the runners-up and all the wannabes. The mothers too tired to enter or too busy to bother. This is for all the mothers who froze their buns on metal bleachers at soccer games Friday night instead of watching from cars, so that when their kids asked, "Did you see my goal?" they could say, "Of course, wouldn't have missed it for the world," and mean it. This is for all the mothers who have sat up all night with sick toddlers in their arms, wiping up barf laced with Oscar Mayer wieners and cherry Kool-Aid, saying, "It's OK, honey, Mommy's here." This is for the mothers who gave birth to babies they'll never see. And the mothers who took those babies and made them homes. For all the mothers who run carpools and make cookies and sew Halloween costumes. And a

For All The Mothers Out There
For All The Mothers Out There MOTHER'S LOVE A Mother's love is something that no on can explain, It is made of deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain, It is endless and unselfish and enduring come what may For nothing can destroy it or take that love away . . . It is patient and forgiving when all others are forsaking, And it never fails or falters even though the heart is breaking . . . It believes beyond believing when the world around condemns, And it glows with all the beauty of the rarest, brightest gems . . . It is far beyond defining, it defies all explanation, And it still remains a secret like the mysteries of creation . . . A many splendoured miracle man cannot understand And another wondrous evidence of God's tender guiding hand. ~Helen Steiner Rice~ Another Poem I Found For Mothers Why are you crying, a young boy asked his Mom? "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will, but that's O.

If A Man Wants You
IF A MAN WANTS YOU If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat yo

Every Sunrise Is A Second Chance
Every Sunrise Is A Second Chance Every Sunrise Will Bring With It A Second Chance... My new way of thinking reflects this... Just give me 12-24 hours and I will be ok... If I am pissed off just let me ride it out, tomarrow I will smile with you and laugh with you... Today might not go as planned but you will end up doing something else with someone unexpected and end up having a story to tell... You will find out who your real friends are, the ones who can handle your jokes and handle you are the friends who truely care, those who lash out against your jokes are the ones that are there to use you... I expect my friends to be the same way I am, if you are pissed at me about anything I am giveing you a 12-24hour time out before I speek to you again... And if you see that I am upset with you I would hope for my friends to give me the 12-24 hour time out in return... If I ask you to drop something and you continue to attack me then I am likely to blow up at you and I will walk away

Because Of You
Because of you In my room alone. I sit and wander.... What made me fall for you? Like thunder, like lightning You came to me and made me yours So easily. You smiled, you whispered.... Words that made no sense. But all that I could understand, Was that my life would come to an end. I would feel the pain, I would see eternity And it would all have been in vain. It was so quite all around me, My soul was almost lost for good. And then you came, And whispered softly; Remember LOVE...life is a game. I looked around and I saw nothing. Ohhhh......but that cool breeze, Reminded me of something. Reminded me of you my love I smiled and fell asleep With thoughts of happiness. The pain I had was gone for good. Because of you.

Learning To Live Without You
Learning to live life without you has been very hard these past 2 weeks, I find myself always wanting to pick up the phone to call you and then relize you wont be answering the phone, theres still so much that i really need to talk to you about... The shit at home still aint no better, and Im still trying real hard to find a real job, and a place..... the baby was talkin bout you the other day.....im sure you herd... i was talking about how beautifull you were and how much of a solid gold heart you had, and how luckey i was to have had you as my friend... i ment what i said about you being all of our gaurdian angels... Nilton isnt doing good, im sure you know that as well to huh? he still has the bad days, i guess like all of us... i couldnt bring myselff to call your mom today, because i couldnt bear to hear her cry... and not for me but for her.... i cant keep taking on all this pain that your passing has caused because i will never beable to move on.... i want so badly to move on, a

More Quotes
I love quotes, sometimes they help to see that there is hope. I found some that i really loved tonight thought I would share them with you ...... Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. -- Robert A. Heinlein Live through feeling and you will live through love. For feeling is the language of the soul, and feeling is truth. -- Matt Zotti Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness. -- Bertrand Russell The way to find out if you love someone or not, is by talking to them. The more you talk to them the more you either hate them or love them. -- Brad Breitenstein The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart. -- Jaime H. Young No woman/man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. -- Source Unknown If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go

I Love You And A Kiss
I love you and a kiss As the day turns into night, I feel your touch Right on my thigh. Your soft wet lips Across my tits Your tender kiss Right on my lips. Your fangs of passion Vampiric way They bite into my flesh And make me stay. You lay your body On top of mine Your skin like silk caresses mine. I look at you and all I see Your evil look that stares at me. You love me hard and bite my neck You make me yours...a kindred mate. You show your fangs and kiss me slow, Your hands move slowly....from head to toe. Your body's hot, hotter than hell You make me cum....again, again. And then you take my legs apart And touch me slowly as I sigh. My blood pours heavily from my neck And then you stop it with your hand, You bite yourself and make me drink Your blood feels hotter than you think. Now we are one in mind and body Your fingertips that feel like feathers They touch me softly on my lips Shhh........just listen.... I love you....and then....a ki

Would You.....
this is just something light hearted and fun. be respectful and keep it clean LOL Put "yes" "maybe" "no" or ur own answer and answer me back Kiss me: Hug me: Date me: Get tipsy with me: Kill me Love me: Hate me: Hold me: Lie to me: Hurt me: Sing with me Dance with me: Grind with me: Let me touch you: Touch me: Stare at me: Cuddle with me: Let me make a move on you: Let me make you scream: Have sex with me: Make a move on me: Play with me: Watch a movie with me: Get me a B-day gift?: Let me borrow your car: Let me see you naked: Wanna see me naked: Do you think im hot: Could i turn you on: Could i make you scream: Would you be there for me: Buy me a drink: Take a shower with me: Bring me around your friends: Give me a massage: Take me to the club: Ask me out: like me: Drink kool-aid with me: Take advantage of me: Let me take advantage of u: Hangout with me: Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good:

Mm Another Fantasy
pretty coed is in a bar just drinking her little fizzy special drink. wait a minute that is me. what the fuck. i ain't naive. "bartender i need a double shot of whiskey. I throw the shot back and slam the shot glass down on the bar almost hard enough to shatter it. You are sitting on the other side of the room when You see me do this and as soon as the glass hits the bar...Your cock twitches, it is telling You that IT is interested in this white piece of meat. so You get up and nonchalantly grab Your drink and walk over to me. You look me up and down in my short short mini-skirt and my skin tight top that leaves nothing to the imagination. You reach out and brush the back of Your hand across my breast and instantly my nipples become rock hard. You say " mmm interesting your tits like Me as much as My cock likes u". i bite back a moan and say Maybe. You tell the bartender to line them up and keep em coming cuz You are gonna get lucky tonight. i re

La De Da
Some days, weeks, months or even years,are hard to get through and sometimes its hard to find a reason to smile. But everyone makes mistakes and you have to ignore the people that think less of you because of things you've done.The past is the past, and it can't be changed. But it can be learned from. Find people that can accept who you are and forget about the ones who can't. No ones perfect so don't try to be especially for other people. Sometimes taking chances is scary; but remember, boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. You've just got to be strong and keep holding your head up high. They'll be so suprised when you prove them all wrong.

Love
" LOVE " When U Were Only 5 Yrs Old, I Said ILove U. .. U Asked Me: "What Is It?" When U Were 15 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. ... U Blushed.. U Look Down And Smile.. When U Were 20 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Put Ur Head On My Shoulder And Hold My Hand.. Afraid That I Might Dissapear.. When U Were 25 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Prepare Breakfast And Serve It In Front Of Me, And Kiss My Forhead N Said : "U Better Be Quick, Is's Gonna Be Late.." When U Were 30 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Said: "If U Really Love Me, Please Come Back Early After Work.." When U Were 40 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Were Cleaning The Dining Table And Said: "Ok Dear, But It's Time For U To Help Our Child With His/Her Revision.." When U Were 50 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Were Knitting And U Laugh At Me.. When U Were 60 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U. . U Smile At Me.. When U Were 70 Yrs Old. I Said I Love U. . We Sitting On The Rocking Chair W

Mother's Day Contest Final Results
I apologize for the delay in releasing the results of the mother's day contest. There was a dispute as to the validity of some of the comments on one of the photos. After speaking with Cherrytap support and BBG. I have come to the decision that no cheating took place at all. And that is all I will say about it at this point, Anyone that has any questions or concerns is welcome to talk to me about it and I will explain how we came to that decision. Okay the Results of the mother’s day contest are as follows: In 4th Place and winning a 1 day blast is (voted on by a group of my friends and I per the contest rules) tabby*team leader*UAO BOMB SQUAD~arons chick~@ CherryTAP In 3rd Place and winning a 3 day blast is (most number of rates per contest rules) broken_hearted420 CT wife of hsingyedruid@ CherryTAP In 2nd Place and winning a 7 day blast is (2nd highest number of comments + 10 pts for every rate ~Tracy#7 of the Texas Bombers~/~#4 pet of dj chaos~/~slave to sex

Mothers Day
mothers day is a time to stop and thank our mothers for everything they do. its not about the cards and flowers or the gifts. its about taking the time to really think about what our mothers really do for us. now i know now that my own mother did so many things for her children, and now that i have my own i truly know how my mother feels. i would give my own life for my little girl just so she can be happy. so i'm very glad that i did not get any cards, flowers or gifts for mothers day. just hearing my little girl tell me happy mothers day and that she loves me is all i will ever need. so thank you to all the moms in the world for loving your children no matter what they do.

When Your Lonely
When the camera stops And the lights go out When the set is dark An the extras are clocked out It's a feeling we share A feeling we all know is there One we hide from of friends Though our friends are the cure That feeling I get after all is over That feeling I get when everythings done No matter where you go it haunts you No matter what you do it's upon you When the work is done and your ready to break That's when I feel it most That's when I see it coming There is no rhyme I find to share this It's empty, and longing It's lonely

Chris Cagle
I saw it in her eyes when I was sayin' goodbye That girl, she ain't gonna be alright 'Cause I could tell that she'd be goin' through a livin' hell And I, I wouldn't be there by her side And Lord I felt so bad as I sat and watched her cry Thinkin' I was movin' on and she was barely gettin' by Look at what I've done to her Look at how I made her feel I gave back her heart the broken part She got the raw end of the deal And look at what it's done to me You gotta know it tears me up I gave it everything I had and Lord It just wasn't enough Hurtin' her like this seems so wrong Yeah look at what I've done to her Now she's alone I saw her out last night and she was havin' a good time That girl, it looks like she's doin' fine But then I saw a man walk up and take her by the hand And I, oh God I almost died And then it hit me she didn't really need me I just sat there for a while until I finally smiled Yeah look at what I've done to her Look at how I made her feel

Website Promoting.
This is a new website kind of like myspace. Everyone is welcome to join it..http://geek-space.ath.cx/ No email confirmation on there yet. Spread the word to everybody you know. My very good friend Joe runs it. ^_^ Thanks.

My Baby,
My baby, I am hopelessly falling for you. I told myself it would take longer I begged my heart to be tough for me. I pleaded with my brain to stay strong. My baby, you sway me, you make me see in color. My heart flutters for you daily In my brain is where you are constantly On my skin is your scent. My baby, you are the reason there is a smile on my face. My hair looks good now, that it too is happy. I've told my heart to wait longer. I've asked my brain to start to think better. My baby I could love you forever. I could be nice all the time with you. I could laugh at your jokes And I could cry only at stupid commercials.

Wondering
For about a year and a half now my life has been ripped upside down. I was with my ex for almost 10 yrs and about 3 yrs ago I would have never thought we would have seperated. I thought we would live our lives out in dispare, becasue granted I wasn't happy but I made the best of it. Little did I know that us seperating would be the best thing for me. But it doesn't feel like I am at the happiest moment of my life. I love eveything that I have accomplished and the goals that I am currently reaching for...but there's one thing missing in my life and thats someone who can share certain things with me that my mom or kids can't. Right now I am sad and lonely and I just want to curl up and cry. I am a strong person on the outside but on the inside I am screaming, screaming so loud that I just need someone to hear me, to put their hand on my shoulder and tell me that they will be there for me and help me through the tough times that I will have. Then I find someone I like, someone I cou

Her Soldier
all the graves mean nothing to her. just the one in the corner next to the oak tree. there she can be with him again. she can lay on the grass next to him longing to touch him one last time. she will clean his headstone with love and her tears will make the flowers grow. she will talk to him and ignore the peoples stares. she doesnt care she is with him in this moment. not to be disturbed longing to hold him and wishing she could be there. she would wipe his fear away with one kiss and when he said "i want to go home" she would have taken him there. She only prays the moment he left this world he thought of her. his buddies say he did and that he was smiling. she hopes this is true cause then she knows he was happy, not in pain and free. As she leaves she kisses his headstone and says "ill see you soon my soldier"

My Mother's Day
Well, my mother's day was fun! I sat around, slept mostly, had some grilled steak and corn, and played w/ my girls. I had to work last night, and I have to work tonight, so it wasn't quite as much fun as it could have been, but it was nice. First mother's day I've had that there wasn't some sort of fight over something. Yesterday I also went out to the cemetery. Got my mother's rose bush trimmed, put smoe new pretty flowers out, and cleaned up a little bit. It looks nice now. The girls were putting the roses we were cutting off on other people's graves. It was sweet. It was tough though. It finally just hit me. It took longer this year, but it hit me. I cried, and bawled. I just couldn't help it. I want my mommy. I want her to hold me. I want her to love me. I want her to be here for me. This is really not easy for me at all... But it never is, nevr will be. Other than that, nothing new is going on in particular. Dennis and I are getting along fairly well. He used to always shit

My Sex Survey
The Ultimate SEX Survey Do you like it rough or sensual?: Both - but mostly rough Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: Both - depending who it is How often do you like to have sex?: AS MUCH AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE!!! Is sex a top priority for you?: DEFINTELY - YOU'D THINK I WAS A MAN WITH HOW MUCH I THINK ABOUT IT Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: SURE - WE LIKE IT BOTH WAYS How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: LOL - OCCASSIONALLY - WE ARE SWINGERS...LOL How do you feel about one night stands?: I DONT MIND - BUT SAFETY IS KEY How many one night stands have you had?: hEHE What's your favorite position?: DOGGIE STYLE, BABY! BUT I ALSO LOVE ON MY BACK WITH MY LEGS WAAAYYY UP OR BACK Where's your favorite place to have sex?: ANY PLACE THAT IS SPUR OF THE MOMENT ON NOT PLANNED Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: MAKE LOVE TO MY MAN - FUCK MY BUDS :)

My Own Prison
stuck in a prison..no windows..no door...no air..suffocating in my own private hell looking for the light...the way out..clawing at the walls..crying from the pain...release me from my prison doesnt anyone have the key..let me out its dark and cold in here...the ceiling is dripping its loneliness on my head...please free my from myself...lyin on the floor in a puddle of my own blood i realize no one will come..i wont let them..my demons keep them at bay...the demons scream at me from inside my head...they warn me the price ill pay for freedom...crawling to the corner i lay my head against the wall and cry for my own personal sickness in my head....and for the one that will never come.

My Horoscope.
My horoscope for the day: "Some changes are coming your way when it comes to this funny thing called love -- especially regarding those rules you thought were etched in stone. This is a great thing: You can kick old habits that were holding you back." Anyone want to tell me what on earth this could possibly mean? Since when does love come with a set of rules etched in stone? I thought that love, by it's very nature, defied all the rules. Maybe THAT'S what I've been doing wrong all this time. Heh.

Ultimate Sex Survey
The Ultimate SEX Survey Do you like it rough or sensual?: Both depending on the moment Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?:opposite definitely!! How often do you like to have sex?: As often as humanly possible till I'm dead!!! Is sex a top priority for you?: Pretty much. Gotta keep up with the wife! Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: Yeppers! How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: I don't think I have...hmm... How do you feel about one night stands?: I've done it..eh...no big deal How many one night stands have you had?: A few What's your favorite position?: Her laying on her side with one leg up on my shoulder and one between my legs. If you can't get a visual I'll have to show you...lol Where's your favorite place to have sex?: Someplace comfortable Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: Both Have you ever watched porn while having sex?: Alot!!

Scented?
Ok. For those of you who don't know me, my mind works in mysterious ways. Some people call me random...and i can't really disagree with that assesment. Anyway, the point of all this nonsense is that sometimes i have these..weird thoughts or things that bug me and i feel the need to share. (don't u all feel blessed?) The random thought of the day is: I'm all for condoms. I don't need any more fatherless children and have no desire to get an STD for my birthday. I'm all for flavored condoms (latex tastes bad, but i've never had a disire to explain how i got THAT disease in my mouth), and colored condoms make everything pretty. However, WHAT THE FUCK is the point of scented condoms?? While i totally understand the need to breath while down there (can u picture it? "dude she totally suffocated on my dick!!") but i've NEVER felt the need to sniff that shit. No deep inhaling through the nose. So. I'm done with my random thought of the day. If any of you know the purpose of scented condoms

Rules Of Dating My Daughter
Rule One: If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering a package, because you're sure not picking anything up. Rule Two: You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I will remove them. Rule Three: I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise: You may come to the door with your underwear showing and your pants ten sizes too big, and I will not object. However, in order to ensure that your clothes do not, in fact, come off during the course of your date with my daughter, I will take my electric nail gun and fasten your trous

Rate His Richard?
I've been chillin' here, minding my own business. I'd been doing a mother's day blog on my blogger account when I get a message from some random guy in my shout box. Him: Hi! Me: Hello. Him: What are you doing? Me: Blogging. How are you? Him: I'm fine. How r u? Me: Doing fine Him: Ur naughty. Me: I am? How so? Him: I was trying to ask if you like rating cock pictures. Me: Not unless I know the guy and have a reason. Him: Nevermind. I'm still scratching my head and wondering what the heck is with people. Not that I'm against seeing a Johnson...just not random ones from strangers.

Slap Me Again Chick
SO I'M CHILLIN WITH MY HOMEGIRL WHO IS WHITE AT WAL MART. SOME THINGS AREN'T A RACE ISSUE, BUT THIS CAN BE. WE JOKING AROUND TALKING SHIT IN THE PARKING LOT, AND SHE SAYS WHILE LAUGHING. "I'MMA SLAP YOU". I PAID IT NO MIND AND KEPT WALKING TOWARDS THE STORE. ALL OF A SUDDEN SHE SLAP ME ON THE SAID OF MY FACE. SO YOU KNOW I'M PISSED OFF. NOT ONLY THAT SHE SLAPED ME, BUT THEN DID IT IN PUBLIC. COME ON, A BLACK MAN EGO WOULD NOT STAND TO GET SLAPPED IN PUBLIC BY SOME CHICK, AND NOT SOME WHITE CHICK. SHE SAID SORRY, WHICH I CAN ACCEPT, BUT THEN SHE SAYS AFTER THE APOLOGY " I TOLD YOU I WAS GONNA DO IT. I THOUGHT YOU WAS GONNA BLOCK IT". SO IF I TELL SOMEONE I'MMA POKE THEM IN THE FUCKING EYE, ITS THIER FAULT THAT THEY DIDN'T BLOCK IT. SMMFH. SHE ALSO SAID IT WASN'T THAT SERIOUS. IF ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS, I WANT TO SEE HER SLAP ANOTHER NIGGA LIKE THAT.

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~the Lion And The Mouse~
A mouse skittered across a sleeping lion's nose. Before you could say "twitching whisker" - CLUMP! - the lion covered the mouse with his paw. "You tickled my nose, you measly mouse. I think now you will tickle inside my tummy!" The mouse peeked between the lion's claws. "You Majesty, before you swallow me, consider this. If you let me go, I will never forget it. perhaps one day I shall return the favor and save your life." At this, the lion roared with laughter. "It would be a shame to eat such a witty little creature. run free, funny fellow. I will sleep well tonight knowing you are watching over me." The lion's loud laughter shook the ground beneath the mouse's feet as he scampered away... Later, the mouse heard a familiar roar, not a roar of laughter, but a desperate roar for help. He ran to the lion, who was tangled in a hunter's net. The mouse quickly chewed through the cords with his small sharp teeth, freeing the lion. "It is pretty funny, Your Majesty," chuckled the mo

May 13th, 2007
Today is the last day that I will let my heart hurt over something I can not control. I have learned that you can't control someone else or someone elses actions. All you can control is how you react to the things they do. At times it is really hard. Its hard to not just curl up in a ball and cry when the person you loved for two years, is calling you a nigger loving whore, telling you he hates you and wants you to die, telling you he doesn't care if you eat, and he is going to burn your wedding dress because you can't wear white anyways. Alot of people have been telling me to keep my head high and not let it get to me, don't let it get me down, forget that he ever existed. Now everyone knows that is all easier said than done. But the thing is, I thought, or I know, that I have been doing a damn good job. Aside from his somewhat absent attempts to fuck with my head... I thought I was doing quite well. Why is it that my past mistakes are still being thrown in my face. Why is it that eve

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Sincerely Yours
She looked down at her own hands, so clammy and cold, trying not to lose their grip on the pistol pointed between his eyes. Her lips quivered as she repeated herself again. "You stole it! Give it back!" It came out so weak and muffled she could hardly understand what she had said. His brown eyes widened and turned black with fear. A few beads of sweat had pooled between his brows and slipped down his nose. "Please," he stuttered, "I don't know who you are or what your talking about." Frustrated, Alexus holstered her gun and began to pace. The room was in a bit of disarray. Shards of brass were embedded in teh walls, part of what once was a doorknob, blown apart by a single ear blistereing shot. The coffee table before the sofa lay upturned, magazines pinned beneath the glass, framed like an impressionistic painting. Alexus turned to gaze at the man's two daughters huddled in the corner. The younger of the two, cowered against her sister, sucking her tumb nervo

When Your Hands Go Out
When your hands go out, love, toward mine, what do they bring me flying? Why did they stop at my mouth, suddenly, why do I recognize them as if then, before, I had touched them, as if before they existed they had passed over my forehead, my waist? Their softness came flying over time, over the sea, over the smoke, over the spring, and when you placed your hands on my chest, I recognized those golden dove wings, I recognized that clay and that color of wheat. All the years of my life I walked around looking for them. I went up the stairs, I crossed the roads, trains carried me, waters brought me, and in the skin of the grapes I thought I touched you. The wood suddenly brought me your touch, the almond announced to me your secret softness, until your hands closed on my chest and there like two wings they ended their journey

Trix Is For Kids
Class is dismissed. Run back home to play with the others. The streets are empty on the way home. You never turn to look down the dark alleys. You were told to never look. Because that's where we delve. Because that's how we lure you in. Maybe just one glance wouldn't hurt. But that's all it takes. You belong to us now. Join us.

Our Soldiers!!
You stay up for 16 hours. He stays up for days on end. You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. You make sure your cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. You complain about how hot it is. He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow. You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong. He doesn't get to eat today. Your maid makes your bed and washes your

Dunno
Chocolate said to a lollipop, you are damn sweet. And the lollipop said : Not as sweet as the person reading this! Your smile makes me smile... Your talks make me glad.. Your company makes me happy... But your absence makes me sad... Be always with me my friend!!! Send this to all your friends in your list and also back to me if i am your friend.... If you get more than 7 you are lovable...which I know you are

Bedtime Story
This adventure started one Sunday afternoon with our bathrooms flooded. Sam called a plumber and he found that tree roots were growing through our drain line outside. He charged us an emergency service fee and cleaned the line out the best he could, but said the line would need to be dug up and replaced to really fix the problem. His quote was just under $3000 and several others weren't much cheaper, so we considered making it a weekend project and doing it ourselves. We decided before planning it, we would call the city out on the chance the roots were out past the connection to see if they might come out and replace it. On Tuesday of that week, Sam called me to let me know the guy from the city would be out within an hour of her call. Half joking, I suggested she wear something revealing to help convince the man that it might be the city's problem so we wouldn't have to pay to fix the problem. That night when I got home Sam was wearing a low cut thin shirt and I could tell by her

Im Over It!
I’m over your lies And I’m over your games I’m over you asking me When you know I’m not okay You call me at night And I pick up the phone And though you be tellin’ me I know you’re not alone I’m over it Your smile I’m over it Wanting you to be wanting me No that ain’t no way to be How I feel, read my lips ( I'm so) Movin’ on, it’s my time You never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over I’m so over it I’m over your hands And I’m over your mouth Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt Oh and that’s why your world I’m over it So sure I’m over it I’m not your girl I’m over it, I’m over it I’m over Wanting you to be wanting me No that ain’t no way to be How I feel, read my lips Because I’m so over (I’m so) Movin' on, it’s my time You never were a friend of mine Hurt at first, a little bit But now I’m so over So over it I’m so over it (Oh) Don’t call, Don’t come by Ain’t no use don’t as

Salute
ok, i need some help here,i have to take a salute pic before i can level up, but i can't get my cam to work, lol...anyway what i need to know is do i still get the points from now until i take my pic?....i mean do the points build up or i just don't get any until i take that pic?

Apple Breakthrough
Apple Breakthrough > > > > > > Apple Computer announced today that it has developed a computer chip that can > > store and play high fidelity music in women's breast implants. The iTit will > > cost $499 or $599, depending on speaker size. > > > > This is considered to be a major breakthrough because women have always > > complained about men staring at their breasts and not listening to them

Going To Quit This Site
cuz love here is hope less here cuz my friend found a a cute girl to be my girl soon if u read this ginelle i am sorry but if have ignore me for the last time and i got tired of it so i am giving up on dont kno for sure but if this girl work out then i am sorry ginelle it just u dont call or write to me often so i am going to leave this site

Will I Ever....
I am starting to wonder about things and now more so then ever worried that the simple things in life others enjoy, Starting to wonder if i ever will. Am i meant to be honestly loved? Am i meant to have a normal life? Will i ever meet Mrs Right? Or am i doomed to stay single and be screwed with it all for the rest of my life? Is this how my life is meant to be? Am i meant to feel so alone? I dont know.... I wish i knew. God only knows i wish i did.

Some Stupid Dumbass
What kind of dumb ass would rate my Irish Flag pic NSFW??? That is about fucking retarded. There is no way that, that pic is anywhere close to NSFW, all it shows is my heritage. If you don't fucking like it then don't look at my pics.I've had SO MANY PEOPLE rate it a 10. So to the person or persons that did this well you can FUCK right off. and one day We will rise again and you will be first on our list!

My Sexxx Survey ;)
The Ultimate SEX Survey Do you like it rough or sensual?: BOTH Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: BOTH How often do you like to have sex?: AS MUCH AS THE OTHER PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO GIVE IT TO ME! Is sex a top priority for you?: VERY MUCH SO Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: UMMM...SOMETIMES...HEE HEE ;) How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: NO COMMENT, LMAO! How do you feel about one night stands?: NOTHING WRONG WITH THEM AS LONG AS UR SAFE! How many one night stands have you had?: AGAIN...NO COMMENT LMAO!! What's your favorite position?: DOGGIE SYLE! AND U BETTER BE SMACKING MY ASS AND PULLING MY HAIR!! Where's your favorite place to have sex?: ANYWHERE PUBLIC, WHERE THERE IS A CHANCE OF BEING CAUGHT!! Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: I ALWAYS MAKE LOVE TO MY HUSBAND. I JUST FUCK MY FRIENDS! Have you ever watched porn while having sex?:

Update
Tommorow we move a few blocks over...it's gonna be closer to the schools and closer to the casino. I'll be able to stress alot less about the babies' safety so that kinda appeals to me. Looking forward to starting work next week yet I still have no clue what position I'll be filling. Hopefully either maintence or server. I've always enjoyed pleasing others as is obvious by my lifestyle. Once I do that I've finally decided which bills take priority. I'll have my own room finally so that'll make my move a little bit more comfortable. Um....Guess that's about it lol.

My Blogs
hi guys i was wondering for all the voyers if you dont comment on my blog, can you at least rate it? i feel like no one is reading but then i view and see tons of viewers so please, comments are prefered but at least rate it so i know someone is at least reading it thanks

"in A Dream"
WHEN I SEE YOUR FACE, MY DREAMS TURN TO LACE, FOR I HAVE FOUND MY PLACE, WHEN I SEE YOUR PLACE, WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR EYES, I NO LONGER HEAR THE CRIES, OF MY SOUL DYING, AND MY HEART CRYING, WHEN YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TONIGHT, I NO LONGER FEEL THE FRIGHT, EVERYTHING TURNS RIGHT, WHEN YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TONIGHT, WHEN THE HOPES AND DREAMS I HOLD, ARE NO LONGER TOLD, I HOPE TOGETHER WE'LL GROW OLD BECAUSE YOU GIVE ME HOPE FORETOLD.

This Is Annoying
I keep seeing people post bulletins saying they have new pics up and they want you to comment on them. If we have somethin to say about your pics we will put a comment on there. Don't expect me to do it just cause you want it done. And why is it you expect people to comment on your damn pics, when i can't even get fuckin people to rate my new pics because they're not NSFW. If nsfw pics is all you fuckin people want to see, then take me off your friends list. I don't have any nsfw pics right now, but when I get my new ones on here, I'm making them family only so you fuckers can't see them since I can't even get you to rate regular fuckin pictures. Last time I checked ct was about meeting new people and having fun, not just checkin out nsfw pics.

Eternal Unreason
You took a gun to your compassion, Slowly smothered me with hate. Do you think about the future And the fire you create? With your hand upon my sorrow, And your blade against my will; Do you stop to wipe away what's left Of the acid that you spill? Is your mind possessed by demons, Only suffering can dispel? Did you think of who would catch you, If by chance your reason fell? Will in time your narcissism melt away, To leave your sheltered core? Or have you folded inside yourself, No love left anymore? Bring me closer to an answer, As for an answer my heart cries. But for every question that you answer, Another question shall arise.

Because Of You
I see in you my tangled head With all our love and friendship dead. Now tears of salt flow bright and red ...Because of you I get frustrated and annoyed Because of pains I can't avoid The shattered heart, left destroyed ...Because of you You weren't man enough to say you were wrong And left me hanging for so long Now I feel I don't belong ...Because of you I feel pity for your sake One day your heart will also break I have learned from my mistake ...Because of you

If Your Heart Were Made Of Paper
Incarcerated in my bedroom, I'm staring at the ceiling-- Wishing you were dying And paying for what I'm feeling. The wind rustles at my window, It blows away a tear. Things might be getting better If I'd put away my fear. A box of matches sits beside me. I hate your stupid game... If your heart were made of paper, I would set it all aflame. I'd let it singe to ashes, Then I'd kick it to the wall. I'd ask you almost nicely If you'll miss my love at all. If your heart were made of paper, I would laugh and watch it burn. I will never put the fire out, Not until you learn...

The Addiction Of Distinction
you distinguished me, set me apart from the throng, the mobs who sat in worship at your throne; their lips, their songs, their veiled intentions paled to my wit, my charisma, purity of emotion. you extinguished me, soon battered my wit, fought my charisma, tainted my purity with distrust and the constant badgering of conscience. secrets soon filled my eyes, threatening to spill over clenched fists of suspicion and, now, justified fits of jealousy. I revelled in what you had created, yet, suffered all the same -- worry, guilt, arousal, the intoxication of deception and sensual sin. my once bright words oozing with the mucus of deceit. i thank you... though i loathe you; long to injure, yet, yearn for what i was. you are my fall...

Just Some Great Quotes And Truths
Only the woman who has utterly surrendered-and can utterly surrender-losing herself in a Man's touch-can be truly a woman, and being what she is, then free. It is said that every woman, whether she knows it or not, longs to be a slave_the utter slave of a Man-if only for an hour.-from the Nomads of Gor, book four of the Chronicles of Counter-Earth, by John Norman

The Fool Again
yup, I'm playing the fool and still wanting him in my life... everyone says I'm crazy for still hanging out with him... but do I ever do what others tell me to? Yeah, sometimes but not when it comes to what my heart feels... Hes like a rock for me and he knows how to treat me when I am just being simply retarded about things... He knows me more then my own family and any one of the "semi" friends I have these days... I can't let the best friend get away... But why am I such a fool for wanting him with me?

Look
Statistically speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass... There's at least 1 person on your cherrytap that wants to date you. The rules are simple... if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message to their inbox saying "Im yours". SCARED? LOL THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN & see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your cherrytap that wants to date you. SO... re-post as "Friends with Benefits", as it doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight! You opened it so you HAVE to repost it! A test of your bravery Go on do it!!!

I Don't Get It...
Why is it that women now days say that they want a real Man, one who will provide for them, protect them, love them, shelter them, value them, ect... and then criticize and reject those that are? Why is it that when the full blood of a Man is upon Him, and He sees His female, and will have her, that it should be then that He is not a real Man, but is called a beast, a brute? Women say they want a real Man, but do not recognize One when they see Him. They are quick to point out flaws, say He is overbearing, rude, cruel, when He is being a true Man. But then, these are the same woman that really just want what "society" has deemed a man, a milksop who is walked all over and controlled by a female....not a true Man. Why would you want a man that lets you get by with anything? That lets you walk all over him, lets you do and say anything? How can you respect a man like that, much less live with him? That isn't a man, he's an overgrown boy!!!! What woman out there would

Why Do I Even Bother?
4 hours ago I sent out a Mother's Day message to all my friends and family and I just checked and not 1, that's right not 1, of my friends or family took the time to read it. Now a lot of you don't know, but some of you do but must have forgotten, that I just lost my Mom last 4th of July; it took a lot of effort for me to even post that; there's a huge hole in my heart and my life that's not even begun to heal yet and now I see that I'm just wasting my time to post anything on the bulletins. I'm sorry if this is gonna upset some of you but quite frankly I'm a little bit pissed right now...and no it won't last and no I'm not going off the deep end. Just can't keep the hurt and pain bottled up anymore. Addendum: Boy I guess I just needed to unload; let me say I know that most of us have lots of friends on here and with bulletins flying on the board faster than fleas, we miss them...so once again let me say I apologize for venting like that; I certainly wasn't trying to piss any of

Absolute
Don’t be absolute about yourself being so clever, when you might simply be surrounded by stupid people. Don’t be absolute about yourself being so beautiful, when you might simply be surrounded by ugly people. Don’t be absolute about yourself being so powerful, when you might simply be surrounded by weak people. But be absolute about yourself being lucky and blessed, because you are surrounded by life to fill your days with, people to cast love upon, dreams to bear hope for and miracles to give your name to.

A Kajira's Creed
Q: What are you? A: a slave girl. Q: What is a slave girl? A: a girl who is Owned. Q: Why do you wear a brand? A: to show that i am Owned. Q: Why do you wear a collar? A: that Men may know Who Owns me. Q: What does a slave girl want more than anything? A: to please Men. Q: What are you? A: a slave girl. Q: What do you want more than anything? A: to please Men. from the Assassin of Gor, Book Three of the Chronicles of Counter-Earth by John Norman

High Gas Prices / Lets Fight Back !!!
Collected on the Internet, 2007] GAS WAR - an idea that WILL work This was originally sent by a retired Coca Cola executive. It came from one of his engineer buddies who retired from Halliburton. It 's worth your consideration. Join the resistance!!!! I hear we are going to hit close to $4.00 a gallon by next summer and it might go higher!! Want gasoline prices to come down? We need to take some intelligent, united action. Phillip Hollsworth offered this good idea. This makes MUCH MORE SENSE than the "don't buy gas on a certain day" campaign that was going around last April or May! The oil companies just laughed at that because they knew we wouldn't continue to "hurt" ourselves by refusing to buy gas. It was more of an inconvenience to us than it was a problem for them. BUT, whoever thought of this idea, has come up with a plan that can really work. Please read on and join with us! By now you're probably thinking gasoline priced at about $1.50 is super cheap. Me too! It

America When Will We Be Free Again
listen !!!!Im so freakin tired of rev al and jeese jackson .These 2 men are bigger racsists then the Klan..why is the media so fucking scared of these 2 hypocritical douchebags ..this aint a race thing ,well maybe it is ..maybe im tired of everyone on tv ,radio ,and newspapers bashing white people yet others (non white descent)can say whatever they want to whomever with no reprecussions ,you can call me a honkey,kracker,whitebread,whatever yet If I were to call a mexican a fuckin wetback ,or god forbid i called someone a nigger i would be written about all over the news ..beat a white man and you get no news coverage ,beat a black or anyother non white and then you are public enemy #1 ..Personally I take most people as individuals,so i hate people but love persons.well Im tired of it ...I want white entertainment television ,I want equal treatment for every person as a whole...this nation is giving criminals the big money and the working class cant survive...giving jobs to under qualif

Tortured Soul
Tortured Soul Secret shadows keep me from light, I know I can not win this fight. As hidden flames engulf my emotion, With out them I can not react to the ocean. I try to scream out in pain, Silence escapes my mouth in vain. As a sword falls against my naked soul, Seemingly a fatal blow. No words come to my minds ear, As midnight draws near. Tempted by the hands of fate, Sadness comes too late. A world of endless darkness to come, As I soon become one. Part of a world that knows no bounds, A world where I can’t feel the ground. Blood chilling wind haunts me, I am never going to be free. There is no life for me to live, That is why my life I give. In this hardship I do try, Giving all until I die. Crimson puddles on the floor, Death comes knocking at my door. I answer with grief, As my pain soon becomes relief. The hooded figure standing tall, Casting a shadow on every wall. He speaks with words of ice, Telling me things that will suffice. Demons c

If You Dont Feel This?
What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I / sit here and try to stand it? Or do I / try to catch them red - handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can’t hold on / when I’m stretched so thin I make the right moves but I’m lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again by myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can’t rely on myself I can’t hold on To what I want when I’m stretched so thin It’s all too much to take in I can’t hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I Turn my back I’m defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they’ll Ta

Brighten My Day
i know youre someone special you saved me from my mind I can hear you laughing you taught me to see when i went blind i wont forget the day you took my pain away and kept me dry in the pouring rain you kept me from going insane with your smile you brighten my day now its been awhile I have faded away I think my eyes still have sadness but I can still see that day you gave your love to me just like its supposed to be and you made me feel like me again dried my eyes smiling my friend with your smile you brighten my day

I Hait Wen Pepole Call The Cops On Me Fore Nothing
this is to the one that say she is familiy but she loves running her mouth and cant do shit and the funny this is she called the pigs on me and have them comeing to my mom's house is that low and she say that she can fight but she cant her name is im the gurl ur mom warned u about meaning that she like to call the pigs what a loser and i wont even call them whatever.......kiss my mouther fucking ass bitch......u can runn ur mouth dawn cas u now what its comeing ten fold on ur ass and am not taching ur dum ass

3rd Place....1100 Comments Behind
PLEASE HELP ME IN MY CONTEST.. i know winning isn't everything... i practically forfitted my last contest to help a friend...this is my second try at winning and i really want it. all i'm asking is to go by and leave a few comments here and there...i need all the help i can get...even if i get into second place i'll be happy. please leave a lil love! thanks! ~wendy~ click this pic!

He Died And I Cried...
He died today. I'll never know what type of man he was or if his mind was free of the cloud of regret. I don't know how many hearts he touched or how many smiles he gave to those who needed one the most. I only know that my lashes were spiked with the salt of my tears. Why would I cry over a man I've never met? I don't know, really. I tried to prevent the tears pooling in my eyes from scalding a path down my cheeks, but alas! I'm simply not man enough to restrain such a torrential onslaught of emotion. The sickening sound of his ribs cracking as his son performed CPR on his still form keeps ringing in my ears. It seems so horrible to be on the way to your parents house to celebrate your Mother, only to arrive to discover your Mother sobbing as she tries in vain to resuscitate your Father. I don't know. This death really bothered me. That's fairly strange, as both of my jobs require me to face death head on at any given moment and I've not really had a problem with it un

Stop The War !
UFPJ Iraq Campaign * Legislative Action * Nonviolent Direct Action UFPJ Position on Ending the War on Iraq On May 17, 2004, UFPJ’s national Steering Committee adopted a UFPJ position: 1. Bring the U.S. troops home now. 2. Iraqi sovereignty must be reestablished immediately. 3. The Iraqi people, not foreigners, should make the decisions about the future of their country, including security. Iraqis should decide the structure of their economy and control Iraq's reconstruction. The corporate invasion of Iraq must be ended and the privatizations laws passed under the occupation repealed. Labor and human rights should also be guaranteed. 4. The United States should pay for the reconstruction of and reparations to Iraq, in accordance with international law. 5. The United Nations and other international organizations should refuse to endorse or collaborate with the U.S. occupation of Iraq. But once the U.S. ends its occupation, if representative sectors of Ira

Bleh.
Two minutes too late The rain cannot wash away the dust the death which surrounded The chaos which screamed your name The heart which shattered the pages which burned You can't just say We should have been.. We should have been? Upu should have? I should have? Every song every tear every late night that I cryed your name You turned away. Don't you get it? You turned away and I tryed to follow but the further you got the farther the footsteps they fade it fades I love you still but the pain The pain that you caused Doesn't just go away I still have every video every time I layed open every wound that I turned every truth that I whispered I won't lie I watched them but I don't do that anymore You forced me to turn my back You threw salt in the wounds You ruined me you made me someone that was so afraid You hardened me Maybe you taught me a lesson or maybe you broke What I may have been I couldn't even I wasn't You broke me so that no oth

Jacob - Pre Mri
Hey everyone thanks for taking the time to read this. Jacob has an MRI tomorrow for some things that are going on with him. For those who don't know me, Jacob is my 11 year old son, he's in my pictures. He is nervous about his IV tomorrow and also being sedated and getting his brain scan done. I am asking that you just keep us in your prayers tomorrow that all goes well. Thanks. I will update this tomorrow about how things go and then once more when we get his results. We will take all the prayers we can get :)

Everything In It's Place!
Got the boxes unpacked, put most things where they should be, Did most of the laundering of the things I moved, like 65% done. The carpets are vacuumed, the floors are mopped, the bathrooms are cleaned and so is my kitchen. Now I can relax, tomorrow I go to work. commentburner.com

Finality
...and the dragon wept. We are the Ancient One, the Unnameable, the Myth. We are none to all, and all to many. We are brave, but afraid. Loving, but unloved. A child of none and a father to many. We put our face on every day in anticipation of love and happiness and family. The very things that we have wanted and needed all our life...and what a long life we have endured. If the world only knew that they harbored such a ghastly creature such as us. We lurk in the shadows, greeting the night with an open embrace. We long for the sweet rapture of darkness; allowing it to clothe us in full emptiness.....

Hope Everyone Had A Great Weekend.
Happy Mpthers Day to all again. I hope all the Moms had a greta day and got to spend time with their kids. My stepmom is the greatest and I am so lucky to have her. I could not ask for a better Mom. I miss my own mom, regardless of how our relationship was. Gonna be a long week. David has 2 concerts and 2 soccer games, so I will be making the trip out a lot. Including the trip out tonight to take him home, Thats 5 trips in 7 days. I hope gas prices go down soon! Thought about doing a little work tonight, but I think I am gonna crash early instead. I suppose anything I would do tonight can wait till tomorrow. I hope everyone had a chance to tell their Mom's how much they love them today. Mom and I never quite saw eye to eye on anything. And we fought a lot. As soom of you know I am quite stubborn and refuse to give up on anything. She was used to having her way with everything. As she got sick (cancer) I mellowed and changed a lot to keep the peace, but I was s

It's Over.....
The time of the Ancient Ones is coming to an end my children. This planet was once swimming with those of us whom would die a glorious death to be reborn or re-awakened knowing that of our former selves and lives. To incorporate our prior knowledge to the present and encompass our very livelihood. But as the centuries have passed, we have forgotten how to remember. Forgotten to pay the respects due to the elder Ancient Ones and our ways. They have changed the rituals, the music, and the dance..... As for this old dragon, the last of his kind on this old world; we are tired. We wish for the slumber of the ages. We wish and hope for the music to stop and the dance to cease and be no more.....

Sunday 5/13/07
I actually got out of the house for most of the day woohoo! lol. We went to Dairy Queen for lunch, and to my grandparents house to give them a present for Mother's Day that they can both use, a prepaid cell phone, since they didn't have one and have been wanting one. We visited them for awhile and played with their golden retriever puppy Duchess for a bit, she's gotten a whole lot bigger since we got her for them at christmas, but she's a sweet and beautiful dog. After we got home I just did the usual chatting and listening to music thing lol. Well, I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna end this here and go get ready for bed and maybe chat for a bit longer before I get off for the night. Have a great night everyone.

The Swing
THE SWING Beneath the mighty elm tree,beside the swollen brook was the old tire swing.It was there nestled among the thicket,pussy willows swaying with the breeze they would meet.He was always there first,waiting,waiting to catch the first glimpse of her. A silhouette at first the suns rays beaming outward from behind her adorning her with an angelic glow.It was to be expected though for to him she is an angel. The covered train tressel with it`s fresh coat of red paint framed in the distance by rows upon rows of sunflowers stood in quiet observation as it awaits the clickety clack of the old steam engine.The bullfrogs croak,the fish jump as if to say...look at me, and a rabbit nibbles away. Towards her he would run, then slowing as if to not seam to eager he would call her name.She always looked around as if she hadn`t seen him and said -is someone there? It`s me he cried... oh it`s you , you silly boy , is there no place you have to be? Yes in your arms he cr

Time To Support Our Troops !
SAVE THE DATES! -- June 22-24, 2007 UFPJ's 3rd National Assembly Chicago, IL Logistics * Registration * FAQs Turn Up the Heat on Congress! President Bush vetoed the $124 billion Iraq war funding bill, because it included a timid troop withdrawal plan. If we do not create a national outcry right now, Congress will capitulate and simply give Bush the money he wants to continue the war. Click here for the latest legislative information. It's time to turn up the heat on Congress! Activists are preparing for a peace surge in Washington DC -- to bear witness as Congress again takes up Iraq War funding and the Pentagon budget, and continues to hold hearings on civil liberties, torture, and more. * Monday, May 14: Mother of a March * May 15-July 31: SWARM on Congress * June and July: CODEPINK DC Activist House UFPJ hopes you will get the word out: There is plenty to do in Washington, and a steady flow of people into the nation's

If U Love Me.
If u love me (as a friend or more) u'll read the whole thing. What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend. dont ever leave the one u love for the one u like, because the one u like will leave u for the one they love. If you wake up in a red room with no windows and doors, DON'T panic.. you're just in my heart!!! Send this to all the friends you want to keep forever... Today is Bestfriend Day. Send this

Love Goddess
I took the "I'm Your Venus?" quiz on gURL.com I am...OshunDo you experience love as a sensual journey? If so, that might be because seductive Oshun has seeped into your heart and soul. Oshun is a West-African orisha--a Santerian goddess who rules over fresh water and sweet honey...Read more...Which love goddess are you?

Thewishing Well
THE WISHING WELL He ambled across the meadow,past the copse of trees.Off in the distance rolling thunder chased the wind.The same wind that whipped without notice for his heart was filled with such warmth he would not be affected by it. His steel blue eyes focused on his destination,his mind on her.He held in his pocket a penny,the very penny placed on him for good luck the day he was born.Tarnished except for its shiny worn edge.Funny how it got smoother as it aged while his face a blueprint of his years. Standing there rolling the penny between his thumb and forefinger,his mind now racing a myriad of thoughts,trepidation,longing but always returning to her.The crisp fresh spring air reminding him of her,after all not much didn`t.He wondered if she was allright,warm,safe,if she was looking up or down. It sat there as it had for many a year,its edges also worn and weathered.The cedar shingles a little less pristine.Eight sides,slatted boards and a pully

When Cops Go Bad The Revenge
WELL HELL WERE IN FOR IT NOW.THATS WHAT ALL MY FRIENDS THOUGHT. WE SURE MADE THEM MAD.THATS OK WELL GET THEM.MY MIND ON THAT NEW CAR THEY WERE GOING TO GET. O YEAH EVERY ONE KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO BE GOOD. MY COSINS HOUSE WAS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE ROAD.ACROSS FROM THERE WAS DONNAS HOUSE ALSO ONE OF US.UP THE STREET ON THE LEFT WAS FILDS WITH HIGH WEEDS.ON THE RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO DONNAS WAS DEBBRAS HOUSE. NOW DONNAS HOUSE WAS HIGH ON A HILL THAT OVER LOOKED THE ROAD.DEBS HOUSE WAS AT THE FOOT OF THIS HILL.BEHIND ALL THAT WAS WOODS WITH LOTS OF TRAILS.ONE OF THESE TRAILS LEAD FROM DEBS HOUSE TO DONNAS HOUSE. GOT A PLAN I TOLD EVERY ONE.LETS GO LOOK AT THE TRAILS IN THE WOODS. WOW THE ONE WE NEED NEEDS A LOT WORK FOR THIS TO HAPPEN. EVERY ONE WANTS TO KNOW WHATS THE PLAN BUT I WANT TELL BUT I DID TELL THEM WE WERE GOING TO HAVE TO RUN THIS TRAIL IN THE DARK.ITS OK HE ALWAYS HAS GOOD PLANS. BY GOOD PLANS THEY MENT A STUNT THAT WOULDNT LAND US IN JAIL.HELL E

Sorry I Have Not Been On Too Much Lately
SORRY I HAVENT BEEN ON TOO MUCH HERE LATELY. I AM GOING THRU SOME TERRIBLE THINGS RITE NOW. FIRST MY UNCLE PASSES AWAY. THEN ME AND MY ONE SISTER GET INTO IT. NOW I HAVE TWO OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS ACCUSING MY FIANCE OF GOING THRU MY AUNTS CABINETS AT HER HOUSE AFTER THE FUNERAL. I WAS LIKE OMG WHAT. I WAS THERE IN THE KITCHEN THE WHOLE TIME. EXCEPT FOR THE BATHROOM. WHEN WE TOOK PICS HE WAS OUTSIDE WITH US. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN THEY WOULD START THIS AGAIN. THATS WHY I LEFT OHIO YEARS AGO. I JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT THEY STOOD THERE THAT WHOLE TIME AND WATCHED HIM SUPPOSEDLY DO THIS AND NEVER SAY ANYTHING UNTIL SATURDAY. THEY LET 2 DAYS GO BY. I MEAN COME ON. IF I SAW SOMEONE DOING SOMETHING WRONG I WOULD OF TOLD SOMEONE RIGHT THEN AND THERE. THEY COULD OF PULLED ME ASIDE AND TOLD ME. OR ATLEAST CALLED ME. BUT NO THEY TELL MY SISTER TO TELL AND ASK ME. SO I TOLD HER TO TELL ME WHO SAID IT AND SHE WONT. SO I AM DONE WITH THAT SIDE OF THE FAMILY. SORRY TO SAY BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN STARTING DRA

There Are Gods!!!
Here it is, Five days before my unemployment runs out. Worry had set in a few weeks ago, but for the first time in a VERY LONG TIME, I feel my luck is finally going to start changing. I got the phone call from my former employer tonight; the employer I left in 2003, only to be screwed over big time by the employer I left them for. It is a different division of my former employer, but nonetheless . . . they offered me a job - with full benefits and 401K. I will be working in Westmoreland County at Pro Auto doing A/P, A/R and Administrative. I start on Tuesday. Who would have thought out of the 80+ interviews I have been on, I would end up back at my former company. That isn't even to talk about the fact that they fired someone to give me the job (it is someone they were going to fire in a few months, but because of my situation, they moved it up.) The great thing is that the bosses who did this for me have also told me that if PPG offers me the job, that I am to take it be

I Think I Hit My Head.
The voices in my head can all agree on one thing. Home made tortillas kick ASS. Today I fought age. I fought impulse. I fought instinct. And I lost. I want a cloneling miss. ...at least two in fact. I'm not sure why or when it happened. But I want a chill'n that will blow up the outside world even better than I could. I want a legacy. I want an empire of kung fu trained ninja-kids. Because everyone knows kung fu has nothing to do with ninja. Most of all though. This empire. This... militant insane dream of tomorrow. I'd like to build it with you. It'd be fun. Just make sure to keep the kids away from the sharp objects. And I'll teach them proper napalm handling. ... man. Home made tortillas really kick ass.

For Yahoo Users
chelle pastor: baby_gurl_smurf_2003 (5/12/2007 7:41:29 PM): Kim Dutton (4/18/2007 8:37:03 PM): This is Yahoo President Jay Russell, I am sorry to announce that Yahoo has reached its maximum number of accounts two million. If you would like to keep your account for free send this to everyone on your list. This way we can know which accounts are being used and which accounts we can delete. Send this within 8 days and your account will remain free. Once again I am sincerely sorry that I have to do this. Please start sending. Jay Russell, Yahoo Management Renee: WHOEVER DOESN'T SEND THIS MESSAGE YOUR ACCOUNT WILL BE DEACTIVATED AND IT WILL COST $10.00 A MONTH TO USE IT! TO SEND 2 EVERYONE ON YOUR LIST, RIGHT CLICK ON YOUR GROUP DO NOT DELETE

Haven't Quite Settled
This move was hard and we haven't quite settled and it sounds like we'll be staying with the in-laws for a while (someone pour me a real stiff drink asap). We have to get everything straightened out which was 90% of the move in the first place I guess, but if any of you know what it's like to try to raise a four year old with their grandparents living in the same house you'll know what I mean by pouring me a stiff drink. At least they have dsl so i can keep in touch with my friends. Kind of hard to do that with the two hour time difference. If you guys do read this in Grove I am trying to stay in touch. much love me

Are You Fo Real?!
okay i'm like totally pissed off...my friend packed up her stuff and left today because her roomate was being a total bitch to her because she wouldn't keep giving her rides everywhere...how lame is that?! anyway, other than that i'm having a good day...got to talk to all my homeboyz today...it was pretty awesome, not to mention everybody wishin me a happy mothers day...even those who couldn't tell me in person sent me txt msgs....so it was a totally APRILISCIOUS day!!! Ok, i got sumthin funny to tell ya...ok one of my ex's txt me today tryin to hook back up but i totally blew him off...so he asked me what my deal was...can you believe that?! he's freakin crazy...tellin me all this crap about him breakin up wit his girl dis weekend....when i told him not to be tellin me crap like that because i don't get jealous he quit talkin to me...oh well, his lose right..?! ok this blog is already really long so i'll hitcha all up lata...peace homies~!!!~

Bodies...the Exhibition
I took Matt their on his birthday yesterday, as we've both been meaning to check it out. You're seeing human bodies right in front of your face (no glass for the bodies, just the organs) I could still see pores on noses and backs, it was incredible. There's a special, all black room where nervous systems and veins were given glowing color and it could have been an art exhibit. Organs sliced sideways like meat so you could see everything... it may sound bad but it was just fascinating. Knowing that that was an actual person really gives the whole thing reverence. Tell that to the fucking soccer mom that just ushered her son to the displays that held the answers to his homework, as she read off what he was to write down word to word, not actually learning or appreciating anything. This is why scores are down and kids can't read anymore... parents just care about grades, not actual information. Anyway, sorry for that tangent. There was a room just for babies, fetuses. They had ones w

I'm Sorry
I’m sorry I made you feel this way I’m sorry you dislike me so much today I’m sorry you don’t believe what I say I’m sorry you choose to act this way I’m sorry you think I did something bad I’m sorry your reasoning can’t be had I’m sorry life hasn’t treated you well I’m sorry you believe your own lies about me I’m sorry I lost you as a friend today But I am never sorry you were and will be my friend To my SCA friends

Abnormality
You Are 68% Abnormal You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. How Abnormal Are You? hum, always thought that i was strange.

Just My Luck
ok I thought that it was time for some new photos so since I was suspended from work I decided to put the new digital camera my christmas present to myself to use.its only been sitting on my desk doing nothing ;-) I had stumbled on a great spot when my girl and I were trying to locate a friends wedding a while back. so I pack my tripod, camera and off I go. being a country boy I decided to start out in the woods, took a few photos of the scene befored heading into the woods. I finally found a ridge that was perfect climbed up the steep hill with my gear, set up the camera on the tripod, even made sure to zoom in a little, set the timer..got in position...press the shutter which starts the 10 second timer....race back in position...camera shuts off..turns out the batteries died. packed everything up hiked back to the car and couldnt find a battery to save my life. went home cause I had to get ready for church with my mom took her someplace she always wanted to go. after church I hurried

Idiots In Teh_shoutboxz!!one
I'm totally stealing from Obsidian, but I don't care. He's genius. OK, so this chick posted a mumm going on about how people are mean in MUMM, specifically why people post mean comments when they just want to know peoples opinions. I posted something about how the last thing I wanted to do when I came home from working in a grocery store (where you have to be nice ALL FUCKING DAY) is come home and be nice to people who shouldn't be allowed internet access. Oh and this is my comment, it becomes relevant as the broad tries to justify the conversation as me starting it. 2007-05-13 16:32:34 #46 of 54 is it necessary for you to learn how to spell? No but it would be GREAT. Where the hell did it say I had to be nice? If I'm having a bad day-like today-and I see some stupid mumm that makes me wonder why humanity hasn't regressed back to apes yet-like yours-the LAST thing I want to do is be nice. Why the fuck should I? Give me a good goddamn reason to be nice to idiots who

Erotica: Poolside Part 1
84 The number clicked over in my head as I touched the end of the swimming pool, turned, and set off for another length. I swam quickly, enjoying the calmness, the silence, around me. 85 I turned again, my shoulders starting to ache as I think that a hundred lengths would be about right. 86 It was quite late, which was how I liked it as I had the pool to myself. I had timed it just right -- an hour in the gym, then into the pool just as everyone else was starting to leave. 87 Max, the guy on duty in the gym, didn't mind -- he had to stay to clear up anyway, and as I was a regular he was happy to leave me to it. 88 I turned again, enjoying the solitude around me, the feel of the water swishing past me as I swam, as I dropped my face into the water with each stroke. 89 Crash! As I turned, my solitude was torn away as two people jumped into the pool a few yards from where I was swimming. A wave washed over me, rocking me as I swam past, the water a mass

My Aura
Your Aura is Red You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage. Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon What Color Is Your Aura?

Show My Ct Wife Some Love
Please help my CT wife. She wants to level soon. She only needs a little over 20,000 left to level 19. She doesn't have much to rate. About 200 in stash and the same in photos. Should only take 10 minutes of your time. Please click the link and help her please. ♥Darlin♥{CGW Server}۞Venus of the Beltane Feasts LDC۞Ct Wife to ♠Turd@ CherryTAP Thank you all that help. Let me know if you do help and Darlin' and myself will be sure to return the love(No matter how much stash or photos you have). It's all good.

Answer It.
How far would you go? Put "yes" or "no" copy it and send it to me in a message PLEASE. Kiss me: Hug me: Date me: Get tipsy with me: Kill me: Love me: Hate me: Hold me: Lie to me: Hurt me: Sing with me: Dance with me: Grind with me: Cuddle with me: Let me make a move on you: Make a move on me: Watch a movie with me: Get me a B-day gift: Caress me: Let me borrow your car: Be there for me: Buy me a drink: Bring me around your friends: Give me a massage: Take me to the club: Go to sleep with me: Do me: Drink kool-aid with me: Take advantage of me: Hangout with me: Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good: Hold hands with me: Do something incredibly sweet for me: Give me a lap dance: Tell me you love me: Let me call you: If so whats yo number: What would you do if you woke up next to me: Will you repost this so i can do da same for u:

The Mysterious Murder (chapter 1)
Chapter 1 Shayla's first year of collage was... interesting. It started off as a normal year at Dawn University, getting lost, getting wrong directions, and looking like a dork. A week later, two dectives walked into her english class. "Excuse me. May we speak to Shayla Johnson?" One dective asked. "Yes you may." The teacher said. I nervously collected my things and left. "Miss Johnson, I'm Dective Wakemore and this is Dective Lauman." " Hi! It's nice to meet you and please call me Shayla." "Okay Shayla. I bet you're wondering why we are here. Well there was a murder and your name was tattooed on the victim's arm." Dective Wakemore said. "What's his name?" "T.J. Jackson." Dective Lauman said. Shayla stopped dead in her tracks. " Are you sure his name is T.J. Jackson? I mean are you absolutly positive his name is T.J. Jackson?" Shayla asked. "Yes." Dective Wakemore said. Shayla started crying and talking fast at the same time. "This can't be! I-I mean I just talked to him last week a

Survey #1
Name: Birthday: Birth place: Current Location: Eye Color: Hair Color: Height: Right Handed or Left Handed: Your Heritage: Your Weakness: Your Fears: Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: Thoughts First Waking Up: Your Bedtime: Your Best Physical Feature: One Thing That You Want Everyone To Remember You For: Your Most Missed Memory: Pepsi or Coke: MacDonalds or Burger King: Single or Group Dates: Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Chocolate or Vanilla: Cappuccino or Coffee: Do you Smoke: Do you Swear: Do you sing: Do you Shower Daily: Have you been in Love: Do you want to go to College: Do you want to get Married: Do you have or want children: Do you believe in yourself: Do you believe in God: Do you get Motion Sickness: Do you think you are Attractive: Are you a Health Freak: Do you get along with your Parents: Do you like Thunderstorms: Do you play an Instrument: In

The Kite
The Kite They walked,their fingers interlaced exploring each others like an ice skaters routine.Her hand warm and soft felt tiny in his.A breeze just slight enough to bow the highest branches a welcoming hello.They strolled to the top of the hill She watched in silent awe,the exhileration showing as the sun reflects off it`s shiny surface.He unfurles the tail first for she loved to make it dance while he assembled the rest.He took his time,he always took his time so he could watch her.With childlike curiosity she would make it dance,swirls,figure eights,loop de loops spinning wildly enough to make you dizzy.Just watching,the only sound was the beat of his heart wrapped in her joyous song.Lovely he thought. He attach ed the tail to the kite,gave her the string and moved backwards never taking his eyes off her.He could barely contain what he felt for her,since their first hello she became his world.Ready he said,ready she replied and with that he threw the kite skyw

Am I A Firefighter Yet????
Am I A Fireman Yet?? > > > > In Phoenix , Arizona , a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year > > old > > son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. > > > > Although her heart was filled with sadness,she also had a strong feeling > > of > > determination. > > Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up & fulfill all his dreams. > > Now that was no longer possible. > > > > The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dream to > > come true. > > > > She took her son's hand and asked, > > "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? > > Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?" > > > > Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." > > > > Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come > > true." > > > > Later that day she went to her local fire > > Department in Phoenix , Arizona , where she met Fireman Bob, who had a > > heart as big as Phoenix . > > > > She

What Is Love
What is love, and why do I want it? Why do those who have it always seem to flaunt it?Is it a tender kiss upon the lips, A warm embrace and swaying hips? Is it the look in her eyes when she smiles That makes you forget everything, if only for a while?Is it a meeting of minds with a sense of trust,Or a passionate romance filled with lust? Is it the feeling of peace when she's in your arms,Or is that just her, using her charms? What is love, and why do I want it? Why do those who have it always seem to flaunt it?

Boyfriend Application. (anyone Can Apply)
Saturday, May 12, 2007 - 12:22 PM boyfriend application!! Name: E-Mail: AIM sn: Yahoo sn: MSN sn: Birthdate (m/d/yr.): Sign: Location (city/state): Do you have an accent? (if so, what): Physical: (fill-in) Height: Weight: Build: Eye Color: Tattoos/Piercing (of what/location): MySpace profile link: Education: (fill-in) Graduation Year: High School attending/attended: Ultimate College: Future Plans/College: What you want to be what you "grow up": Would you say you are grounded?: What book(s) are you currently reading?: Job: (fill-in) Do you have a job(s)?: If so, where & for how long?: Your ideal job: Habits: (y/n/sometimes/socially) Drink: Smoke (cigs): Pothead: Druggie: Do you consider yourself…: (y/n) Open: Honest: Moral: Fun: Humorous: Mature: Organized: Sweet: Macho: Responsible: Social/Outgoing: Quiet/Shy: Goofy: Healthy: Considerate: Insecure: Boring: Witty: Sensitive: Idiotic: Expressive: Religious: Carefree:

Thank You, My Friend
Largest Database of ImagesFor Comments And Profiles at FreeCommentTags.com My friends are always there for me, and yet they know so little about me. They don't much care what I look like or how old I am, but they like my company anyway. We chat online, and send cute notes and things back and forth. They cheer me up when I am feeling down, and laugh with me when I am feeling good. We may share secrets, and know that they are safe. We share neat pages, pics and other cute stuff. We give each other little gifts along the way. We learn about each others lives, and send smiles and hugs each others way. We help each other get through the day. If I need someone to talk to, they are there for me.I cherish each and every one of them. Thank you all for being my friend. Tammie Largest Database of ImagesFor Comments And Profiles at FreeCommentTags.com Largest Database of ImagesFor Comments And Profiles at FreeCommentTags.com Largest Database of ImagesFor

Sex
Dr. Romello : Topic - Sex, when is the right time..? Category: Romance and Relationships TOPIC: "SEX, when is the right time to start having it (sex)..?" Each topic is told from my (Dr.Romello's) point of view... Might not be the way you'd do things, but your not writing the damn column, so shut it up.. hahahahaha Now, if you haven't read any of my columns (then your ass needs to be WHOOPED..haha), some of this you might not understand, because either your a RIF (Reading Is Fundamental.. hahaha) or because you don't understand the slang I use... BUT, i will try to make it as simple and basic as possible.. Ok.... The ultimate goal is to know when is the "RIGHT" time to have sex with your boyfriend/girlfriend, just started dating, or etc..etc SOooooo, when is the right time to start having sex with your bf/gf, or someone you just started dating, someone you just met, or even you just got married....???? hmmmmm Now, it's hard really to put a time table on thes

Dip/sniff Or Grab/hold
Topic : DIP/SNIFF or GRAB/HOLD TEST Let me start off by saying: If you don't like my columns, don't read the shyt.! No one is forcing you to..! Ok. alot of people have been asking me, "How the hell to I come up with this stuff..?" haha Usually, I'll just come up with a topic, or someone will send me a question or a topic to write about.. So, I do.. Once I start writing, my brain just gets overflowed with comments, stories I've heard, info, music lyrics..etc..etc Add the fact that I'm a crazy mofo... and BAMMMMMM... That's how these topics/columns/blogs come about. HOLLA... haha Ok. this was the very first Dr.Romello topic I ever wrote.. My cousin called me and was telling me about how she messed with a short d*ck guy... and I asked her, if she did the Grab and Hold test..??? She said, what the hell is that.??? So, I wrote it up, and sent it to her.. She laughed her ass off, and sent it to her friends... and BAMMMMMMMM, that's how everything got started.. :-) N

Mother's Day
I can't remember if I posted it here or not already if I did, sorry! I'm not real close to my parents, brother and sister. It's always been that way, I was brought up to fend for myself that with that I I didn't have the closeness that some people have with their famalies. So today would have been just another day for me except it was my Dad's Birthday, and Mother's Day, I could skip one, but not both...Damn! It takes about two hours to get there and with the kids it seems like 4, yeah it was a kid weekend too.... Grrrrr, don't get me wrong I love my kids, but I only get one weekend out of the month that I can do something by myself... this was a weekend that I could have used one to myself.... Anyway the trip was fine, my Son felt it necessary to badd mout his mother every chance he got. My Mom said said that to me, I was like what do you want me to do about it, he has to get it someplace! The boy isn't happy that he has to live with her, but I refuse to break the kids up, jus

Shout Box
Due to the amount of trash I have been recieving in my shoutbox...I have decided to turn it on to family only. If you are not in my family and have something you need me to know, send it private message or comment. If it's only trash keep it on your own page please. Have a great day:)

Thinking
I am thinking about my friend, he is so sweet and shows how much he cares for me. He knows who he is. I can't wait to talk to him again. Maybe I can talk to him on the phone sometime soon. I did not have time on my phone to talk to him. But he did leave me 2 messages and they were so sweet. His voice is just so sexy...

Men And Woman
another blog from dr romello Q&A Q & A biaaaaaaatches... Q: How long should a girl wait to start having sex with her bf, someone they just started dating, or someone you just met...? Answer: Now, it's hard really to put a time table on these... In my opinion, whenever your ready, just let things happen.. you both will know when your ready.. there will be some wet "kitty" (meeeow) involved with some good wood.. haha You could be talking to someone for a while, but never met.. And then have sex with them the first time you do hangout... Then end up dating them for 3yrs or even getting married... Bottom line is, there arent any rules,no times table.. Some people like to wait.. cool, good for them... Others, just are a sexual person.. to each to his own...!!!! it's all about the vibe.. You just have to ask yourself some questions. Is having sex with this person in keeping with my values? If your a freak.. YES.. hahaha Everyone has different values.. just k

A Perfect Death.
I die as I sleep My dreams: A look into the future A temporary death A malicious a taunt A small taste of death to come A tease without sexual desire As I dream As I wander I hope for you. Bereavement takes me within my dreams. Everything is lost. Reality is merely a hallucination You become a vague memory. My engaged thoughts are but a dappled smudge across my mind’s canvas. You are faded still But I will know you were there. I can see the faint smear of your existence As I remember you where once present So clear and evident Erase regret in dreams Expunge the blotches of flaw and defect The mistakes-The errors Hide such imperfection form the eye of a pathetic existence A human sees not my hidden qualms A Horrible regret of what once had been. My concealed miscalculation of my implement Gone. And you are barely observable now Mercifully you remain in my mind. So obstinate, not to leave me in my

When Does The Smile Come Back
When does the happiness come back from the broken heart.They say it takes time but who knows when the smile comes back.Just know that one day it will an that there is always someone better to fill the void.

Do's And Dont's
Dr.Romello : Topic - SEX GUIDE (do's and dont's) Category: Romance and Relationships TOPIC: SEX GUIDE (do's and don'ts)..... Let me start off by saying: If you don't like my columns, don't read the shyt.! No one is forcing you to..! Ok. alot of people have been asking me, "How the hell to I come up with this stuff..?" haha Usually, I'll just come up with a topic, or someone will send me a question or a topic to write about.. So, I do.. Once I start writing, my brain just gets overflowed with comments, stories I've heard, info, music lyrics..etc..etc Add the fact that I'm a crazy mofo... and BAMMMMMM... That's how these topics/columns/blogs come about. HOLLA... haha OKKkkkk... Each topic is told from my (Dr.Romello's) point of view... Might not be the way you'd do things, but your not writing the damn column, so shut it up.. hahahahaha SEX Guide.. OK. we all know the ultimate goal in sex, is to have that ORGASM..! I'm talking about an orgasm so good that it

I Just Realized Y I'm So Afraid To Go To The Next Level With Her
Its taken me all this time but i finally realized something. Y i'm so afraid to be with her. I want to be with her but there is something holding me back and it hit me what it is. It was from watching my parents go thru a nasty divorce. My parents for the i don't know maybe last 3 or so of there marriage was nothing but fighting and shit. Thats y!!!! What do u expect from a 8 year old boy watching his parents fight. I LOVE HER!!!!! But theres the little kid in me saying that what if? What if she does like what ur mom did. I know she wouldn't i just know she wouldn't but i'm afraid to take the chance i really am. Thats y. How in the hell do i get over that me and this girl are NOT i say again NOT my parents. Someone give me some advice i'd really like that. Thank you Devyn

Regretable
I am sorry if I have not been online, I have had a hellish week with lots of stuff going on. not only that, I have been informed by family, an friends, that my Grandmother is doing very poor. With me being a traveling man, I tend to be away for a long time. Its been an up and down road for her, she suffers from COPD, specifically emphysema. It has been a long hard trail for her, and it is finally winning. she was admitted to the hospital Friday and according to Dr's and Nurses she is not going to pull out of this one. I appreciate all of your support and messages. thank you all for being understanding. and Thank you again, to a special lil lady for not only a wonderful support net, but for also just being you ;)

Today I Love....
I've decided to start a blog about things I love. We do this in a forum I'm a mod for and it helps to show appreciation for those things you love and care about....so feel free to post a comment with your own loves for the day...it feels good to get it out!! So here goes.... 1) sunshine....give me lots of it and every day! 2) watching the birds outide my window...some of them are quite mean when it comes to the bird feeders...lol...DAMN 3) the new charm bracelet my boys got me...LUV IT 4) sex...this is an every day thing...LMAO 5) coffee...I'm addicted 6) music...I'm a music junkie and cannot breathe without it ;)

A Friend Costs Nothing, An Enemy You Must Pay For
If you try looking for a friend who has no faults, you will have no friends. A friend is a person who has the same enemies as you have. As I have said many a times; Friendships multiply joy and divide grief's. I believe there are three type of friends; Best friends, guest friends, and pest friends. You can look at it this way. We are all angels born with one wing, we can only fly by embracing one another. Make friends, not enemies. Your world will be a much nicer place. When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy them by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something and just do it. We all need old friends to help us grow old and new friends to help us stay young. We all have relatives we don't seem to get along with to well. God gave us our relatives; thank God we can choose our friends. A loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives. We will all go through life in much the same manner. Most of us will all have several relationships throughout our lif

Home Is Where Our Story Begins
I didn't realize until Martha mentioned it on our way home from church this morning that we've had our new house for one month! I gave her mine and Sarah's Mother's Day gifts before we left this morning, and she was really touched. From me in addition to a card came a framed art sign which says today's blog entry title. I just finished putting it up along with a few other chores to make this house truly a home. With Martha's help, we got Sarah's crib together (YAY!) because we finally found the screws to put it together with. Also we've done more unpacking, and above the computer desk where I sit is now a metallic dolphin mural Martha got as a Christmas present two years ago. She loves dolphins . . . Let's see, now above the entertainment center there's the clock we received as a wedding present nearly four years ago. It reads "David and Martha/July 12, 2003" on the clock face and beneath it is a poem: Marriage is sharing/life, love and laughter/moment by moment,/happily ever

Happy Mothers Day
MOMMY’S BABIES we will always be your babies, no matter how old we get, compared to you behind our ears will always be wet. momma please fix it. that is what we used to say. come to find out we still say it today. you sat by the sides of our beds, to take care of a cold. in turn we will care for you, when you grow old. momma help me find it, i cannot find my shoe. to us you have mommy magic; nothing you cannot do. you gave us life so we give you our love. i wish the blessings rain down on you from heaven above.

Mother
mother (mo-ther) ˈmə-thər: noun,verb, adjective, transitive verb. The word \'mother\' can mean anything and everything. Because anything and everything is what mothers do. In fact, if families would thank a mother everytime they did something for them, that is all we would say, and never be able to get another word in at all. Maybe that is why mothers don\'t hear thank you enough. Mothers do the hardest and most thankless job there is. So thank you.

Things I Hate Today.....
I've decided to start a blog about things I hate. We do this in a forum I'm a mod for and it helps to relieve tensions and anxieties...not to mention let you vent...lol...so feel free to post a comment with your own hates for the day...it feels good to get it out!! So here goes.... 1) Long responses between IM messages or shouts...anyone awake on the other end? 2) men that think they are my Master..LMAO 3) rude customer service....whatever happend to being courteous? 4) weeds...need to pull those suckers soon 5) stubbing my toe on a hand weight and now the sucker is purple and hurts like a MUTHA...shit!

Life
THE KISS Agains a backdrop of seemingly endless azure sky, amidst the gentle shrill of the warblers.The smell of honeysuckle permeates the air as the butterflies engage in an aerial ballet.They lie there, not a word spoken. Impossible as it may seem the stars were out, in her eyes .The prettiest brown eyes with specks of green.She turned her head toward him, the sunlight cascades from her hair with a shimmering display of brilliance on to be shadowed by her smile. Lost,lost in her eyes as he often was, oblivious to the willows swaying in the breeze.He touched her, touched her face.For him each time was like the first time.She smiled as she always did sending a wave of unbridled emotion through him. Yes she is, she`s still real.the rest of the world could only see that kind of beauty in a dream and never really touch it.For him it was her, all the beauty in the world wrapped in his tender embrace. The back of his hand brushes her cheek lingering just long enough to fee

The Joys Of Fake Profiles
You know the ones, people make them to try and trick someone they know for whatever reason... Well this is just a short blog, for the fun of it, and for the fun of saying to the lovely person who tried it... OWNED!!!!! Far too obvious, took about 10minutes to totally work out, and well, we all had a good laugh about it.. And did you not work out the hints i dropped that I had worked it out?? The whole thing was littered with them very quickly.. Anyway, nice try, would say try harder next time, was good fun working it out, but cba with that shit.. Oh and just one more time... OWNED!!!! =D (PS-- for readers sorry for the slight g33ky nature there, but we all need to have that once in a while)

Oh Yay!
Must I cry on every fuckin holiday?! My first Mother's Day got totally fuckin ruined....man this sux. Always somethin. I spend all my time tryin to satisfy and keep the people in my life fuckin happy and only get shit on. I'm sick of it I'm serious. I'm really startin to think that love doesn't exist.....fuck it wutever.

Your The Insperation
I may never hold you, may never tast your warm sweet lips, may never see the moonlight, shineing brightly in your eyes, with my arms around you, where I so long to be, but know that I think of you, in everything I do, you give my life meaning, help me make it through the night, your the reason that I breath, you give my world it's light, Your The Insperation...

Lifter.:)
Watch me with your eyes Been giving god, Ive been on fire I want to be just like you Then Id be cool, maybe not -- but We lift our eyes, big suprise Kiss me goodbye -- whore Without you being here Ive been getting fear -- been unborn I wish I could feel like you When I fuck like you --- being sore -- but We lift our eyes, big suprise Kiss me goodbye And make you burn all that you worked for Every now I want into her And I will fuckin must stop I will never get what I want Inside I found her This gift of mine, resing restring unwind, eyes are closed A part of me gets pissed, a part of me gets sore (3x) A part of me gets sick, a part of me gets sore (11x) A part of me gets sick, a part of me gets -- inside Im burned A part of me gets sore, a part of me gets sick (3x) A part of me gets sore, so fuckin sick!!!

The Night (old School)
Cold is the night Dull for things are never bright So despite the downfalls of Night's calls There is security behind these walls Where one cannot see the lighter side Where they yearn to be Why stay where you hide Behind the Night's mask, you ask 'Cause the journey is not an easy task One cannot simply ride towards the sun To declare they have won Nope, it cannot be done but there is hope So stay on the run for it has only just begun Careful not to trip on the slope Or you will return to the Night's cold burn Enough to make you ill isn't it But do not grab that pill For you have many wrongs to make right Then finally the end will be in sight Nice and bright the death of Night

To Be A Mom
Mothers day was always special to me even when we were fighting I always loved her And now this day means so much more because now I am a mother My life is my son my breath is his my heart is his I never knew love until I held him the first time His first breath was mine I felt alive and scared as shit he depends on me for everything and the most precious gift is a dandilion and kiss from my lil man and my mothers day is made tears gather as I think about what this day means and to have someone wish me happy mothers day i thought once that i would never have this this precious lil man teaching me far more than i am teaching him so sweet so innocent breathing life into me on this day and every other its not easy doing it on my own its not easy to let someone in but life is not easy unless your three and then everything is simple and sometimes it is fun just to play all day and that is all we did we played all day it was the best mothers day!

Her Heat
To a cold soul Her eyes are an oven Her observer beholds her heat He is beckoned beyond ignorance Her touch is like an open flame A warm glow follows her hand across his face Her lips feel like smoldering coals The kiss cures his curse The urge of violence is subsided She retreats the way she came Leaving him with only the ash of a memory

Goodbye, For Good
We knew the time would come When we would have to part ways Wish my feelings were numb But, I'm still left in a daze I wanted us to be us forever Through blood, sweat, and tears I find eternity is never So as the end of this poem nears I just want to say goodbye Iknow its hard but, I know we should If you don't, I won't cry But, it is really goodbye for good

About T
HEY EVERY1 ITS YOUR GIRL T...WITH ONE OF MY FAMOUS BLOGS THAT I USUALLY DO ON MYSPACE BUT IM GOING TO BE DIFFERENT AND POST ONE HERE INSTEAD....LETS SEE WHAT DOES WHY I SPARKLE MEAN...WELL MOST OF YOU KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON IN MY LIFE BUT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DONT...LET ME SHARE...HMMM WHERE TO START...FIRST OFF IM RECENTLY SEPERATED FROM MY HUSBAND OF 14 YRS (NO NOT THE GUY ON MY PROFILE THAT IS MY NEW MAN NEIL) THE REASON WHY IM SEPERATED IS HE TURNED GAY ON ME (OR BI WHATEVER) FOUND OUT BY PUTTING SOMETHING ON THE COMPUTER THAT TRACKED EVERYTHING HE LOGGED ON TO, EVERY WORD HE TYPED, EVERY PASSWORD, PICS OF IT EVERY 30 SEC...AND I DECIDED TO TAKE NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!! SO HE MOVED OUT APRIL 1ST AND YES I HAVE A NEW MAN FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS...SO WHY AM I WRITING WHY I SPARKLE.......SIMPLE...I KNOW WHAT I BRING IN TO A RELATIONSHIP....YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER LIKE ME AND IF YOU LOSE ME---YOU WILL NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER FORGET ME...JUST ASK SOME PEOPLE...I GET UNDER YOUR SKIN......I

Happy Mothers Day...
To all of you mothers out there. Without you there would be no us! Keep your heads up and stay strong. I know a lot of times you come across those men... excuse me I mean males that disrespect you all and call you out of your name when they don't get something that they want out of you. I had to say males b/c those are not MEN. Keep strong and your perseverance will conquer all. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

Old Poems ... Often Introspective ... Some Time Intutive ... Always Me
Freedoms Death Stagnation holds me in it’s grasp Icy hands around my throat are clasp Dragging me down into the mire Burning my hopes upon the pyre Destined to walk the world at hand To never find home within this land To see things with eyes that are too clear To know the loss of freedom through fear Minds that recoil from the challenge to live For security away their freedoms they give And thus the demon in power does grow Till all too late do the masses then know Trapped in constriction and lost in this style See them goose step and hear them scream hiel Glare at those who voice their opposition The land is now sick beyond need of physician Terror has won and a way of life killed Done in by deceit and those in politics skilled Who turn a phrase and twist the meaning of word Till none are sure of what it is they have heard The price is too great and the losses be grieved It is the fault of our own that we were deceived For ours is to question the actions of

Pigeon Feces: Part Deux.
after two fucking hours of feathery nonsense, i lured the pigeon into my hallway. then opened my front door, hoping he would just walk right out. and what do you think he did?! he strolled right into my kitchen, in the OPPOSITE direction. so i picked up a can from my recycling pile, and threw it on the other side of the bird so as to make him fly towards me, thus through the front door.. didn't happen. so i "shoosh" him with a broom and he flies and lands on my sink. not only is that dirty and gross, but the window is not even a foot away from where it is doing a balancing act on a dried up yellow sponge. thankfully, the window is open and waiting for the fucker to free itself. so i go back into my room, and i sit down to finish writing, and i hear it flap its wings and fly away! ... if only it was for good. thirty minutes later the pigeon was back in the plastic blue pot it calls "home". THEE END.

Myne
Roses are red violets are too Im still in love but not with you you thought you hurt me and made me cry but I was in love with another guy simply because you have no class all you can do is kiss my ass you sit around and talk your shit fuck you and your little ass dick you thoughtyou left me but I left you what my man is doing you cant do you tell your homies you played me like a bitch and I tell me girls you have a litte dick you said you loved me but it wasnt ture well guess what motha fuckea I played you too!

This Guy
This Guy Dedicated to Jack Goodman there was this guy I really liked and I did something I shouldn't have done I opened my heart to him and said he was the one he was the kind of guy I wanted my heart could belong to him the kind of guy I wanted there in the lights go dim he took his chance and threw it away for that I am not pleased the lieing that he did himself was not taken in with ease the lies continued on and on I believed every one when he finally told me the truth I wanted to turn and run he had no clue how much I liked him he couldnt start to beleive so he took me for granted and then decided to leave he never really liked me I could see it in his eyes I should have noticed right away from all his stupid lies so if you ever get to read this you really broke my heart and for that my dear sweet love we will always be apart. January 19, 2005

...it Does Count!
So many people, myself included, have suffered the heartbreak of miscarriage. So many people think that if you dont have the baby, you're not a real mother, because a miscarriage doesnt count. Bull. We are mothers just as much as those of you lucky enough to hold your little ones in your arms and watch them grow. While we never got to do that, we are still mothers. We loved our babies and did everything we could to protect them while they were growing inside us. So - to all you mothers out there who were robbed of the chance - this is for you. YOU DO COUNT! And hopefully, someday, you will get to raise a beautiful child, and be the mother you know you were always ment to be. What Makes a Mother? I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today I asked "What makes a Mother?" And I know I heard Him say. "A Mother has a baby" This we know is true "But God can you be a Mother, When your baby's not with you?" "Yes, you can," He replied With c

Fun Stars 5-13-07
Some changes are coming your way when it comes to this funny thing called love -- especially regarding those rules you thought were etched in stone. This is a great thing: You can kick old habits that were holding you back. hmmmmm, I seriously wonder what all this could mean for me

5k Race Report
hey everyone! well my time was 37:19 whoo hoo! 3 minutes off of the last 5k. the race was pretty decent. i'll have some pictures later from the bootcamp ladies. the kids were so excited to be there to see me race. we also got a family picture taken with Simba and Mickey. Totally like Disney World but cheaper. yah! Okay so this was not a chip timed event so we had to hand them our little paper at the bottom at the number afterwards. kind of lame but it's cool. so most of the race was through the metroparks. it was nice and shady. the bootcamps and i all started out together and some of them decided to haul a$$. i knew better for myself. i didn't want to haul until i felt in the grove. i had the ipod going and was trying to ignore the like 150 year old man that totally smoked me. LMAO i could see the bootcampers in front of me. but i was holding my own ground. At one point I was pretty sure I was the last person but slowly and surely i began to pass people as their bodies we

A Blank Canvas
We all desire our world to be a perfect painting Our friends true and gracious Our family healthy and close to us In any given moment that can all change Friends become distant Family are lost or become ill We look at the world around us We wonder what has become of our more gentle world Trees in the distance seen bare Men and women stand apart People not daring to seek comfort from a stranger We have all become so distant in this world of ours Our eyes overlooking a smile, a gesture, even the slightest movement of friendship or compassion Reach out and embrace your fellow man Every moment your canvas of life remains blank: is a moment you have lost A chance at finding a friend or making a difference in someone else's life Or maybe your OWN A chance at finding LOVE A chance at being WHOLE Gather yourself to Him Rejoice in life Make a differnce! Lady Shakira Rose CT: How do you Paint your canvas? What colors do you use? Leave some comments, some examples, so

My Own Worst Enemy....
Can we forget about the things I said When I was drunk I didn't mean to call you that I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me Please tell me, please tell me Why My car is in the front yard, And I'm Sleeping with my clothes on Came in through the window last night And your gone Gone It's no suprise to me I am my own worst enemy 'Cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me The smoke alarm is going off, And there's a cigarette Still burning, Please tell me why my car is in the front yard And I'm sleeping with my clothes on Came in through the window last night and your gone Gone please tell me why my car is in the front yard And I'm sleeping with my clothes on I came in through the window last night It's no suprise to me I am my own worst enemy 'Cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me Can we forget about the things I said When I was drunk I didn't mean to call you that

Underground Footage Of The Bull Run Cars We Took Sat. In Boston!! Unbelievable!
So Karoline and I went out today to find the Bullrun. We headed north expecting to find them on 89 coming from Canada to Boston.. Noooooo they end up going to North Conway. So we found a few guys from the Bullrun that were on the side of the road and we decided to stop and see if they needed any help. They let us know that the rally went another route and they were heading to Boston. We followed them, but they took an exit and we decided to go the route that would get us there faster. (I'm from the area... I know the highways well.) We never saw them again. We ended up in the garage where they were parking the cars for the night. With their permission! So there we are... the only people they were allowing in the garage that were not participants or employees. The sound quality is absolutely crap, but the cars make up for it. Enjoy. http://www.newenglandrally.com/bullrun2007bostongarage.wmv

Happy Mother's Day
Hi all you Cherries and Mothers...lol I hope ur Mother's Day is one you won't soon forget. My mom's not with me she's in Heaven but not forgotten and celebrating with me in my heart..I Love You Ma. Dont forget to tell them how much you love coz they're here only for a moment then the moment's gone. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

7 Werds!
7 Words I'll never be the same, breaking decency Don't be tree trunk, don't fall on my living roots I've been humming too many words, got a weak self esteem That's been stomped away from every single dream But it's something else that brought us feaze Keep it all inside until we feel we can't unleash I think that you made it up, I think that your mind is gone I think you shouldn't have glorified, now your wrong Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck They fuck with my head Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Suck Bitch! You and me are here alone face flat along the edge of the glass But I'm not here to preach, I'm just sick of thugs My parents made me strong to look up that glass So why should I try, act like I'm a little pissed off With all that sh*t that needs to stay back in the shell Because your punk *ss made it up, your f***ing mind was gone Shoud've never glorified, now your right Suck Suck Suck Suck Suc

~* It Takes A Dream*~
It takes a dream to see what one has and want to take it away from someone all becasue its something that u want... well here is a hint for all to see dont take something that is not your's. go out and find something that does belong to you and dream with it because its not fair for something so sweet, careing loveing and meaningful to be taken from someone that probly has just as much care and love for the same thing... All dreams are possiable and all dreams can happen with a little faith and hope that u trust in your self and others around you. I took the chance to dream of one love, I was told to take a chance and see were it took me and when i took the chance and loved who i am with i have never been so happy since that day that i seen that we both loved each other with all that we have. It was a so simple to open my eyes and see that all that i ever wanted was right in front of me and that i was ready to be loved and wanted to love. I thank him each and every day for being