Well, my mother's day was fun! I sat around, slept mostly, had some grilled steak and corn, and played w/ my girls. I had to work last night, and I have to work tonight, so it wasn't quite as much fun as it could have been, but it was nice. First mother's day I've had that there wasn't some sort of fight over something.
Yesterday I also went out to the cemetery. Got my mother's rose bush trimmed, put smoe new pretty flowers out, and cleaned up a little bit. It looks nice now. The girls were putting the roses we were cutting off on other people's graves. It was sweet. It was tough though. It finally just hit me. It took longer this year, but it hit me. I cried, and bawled. I just couldn't help it. I want my mommy. I want her to hold me. I want her to love me. I want her to be here for me. This is really not easy for me at all... But it never is, nevr will be.
Other than that, nothing new is going on in particular. Dennis and I are getting along fairly well. He used to always shit himself when I was talking to my ex's but now he's talking to his ex... so that did cause a fight cuz he was always such a dick to me about shit like that... but eh, whatever. That's somewhat resolved I suppose. Other than that, nothing major. We're getting along. That's always great...
I was talking a whole bunch of shit recently in my blogs about what happened w/ a friend of mine... it's gotten worse... Him and I had gotten into a huge fight at work due to one of the boys we work w/.... and he supposedly quit, but now he's working over nights, well, on the schedule for over nights... I'm not sure if he'll actually BE working over nights... not sure whats up, but dear god... if he is it's going to suck. That asshole started some fucked up shit w/ me, and then sat there and started apologizing and shit. And i mean he said some hateful shit... I'm just not a forgiving person. I'm like, dude, I don't need people in my life. The important ones are already here. I've got my kids, I've got tiff, and krystal, and sarah, and jill... and Erin and I are starting to hang out, I got to se her Sat and we're planning on hanging out this coming sat too (since I'm off). I've got who I need in my life. Fuck him. I don't him and his drama in my life. So, WTF ever....
Anyways, enough bitching. I had a lovely day.... I hope all the mothers also had awesome days!! Happy mother's day and kep up the awesome work!!!
