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Three Canadian Contractors
Three contractors are bidding to fix a broken fence at 24 Sussex. One From Alberta, another from Newfoundland and the third, Quebec. They go with a government official to examine the fence. The Alberta contractor takes out a tape measure and does some measuring, then works some figures with a pencil. "Well," he says, " I figure the job will run about $900: $400 for materials, $400 for my crew, and $100 profit for me." The Quebec contractor also does some measuring and figuring, then says, "I can do this job for $700: $300 for materials, $300 for my crew, and $100 profit for me." The Newfie contractor doesn't measure or figure, but leans over to the official and whispers, "$2,700." The government official, incredulous, says, "You didn't even measure like the other guys! How did you come up with such a high figure?" The Newfie contractor whispers back, "$1,000 for me, $1,000 for you, and we hire the guy from Quebec to fix the fence." "Done!" replies the government o

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 19 May 18 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 19, May 18, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. This X-press in brought to you by our exclusive sponsors Bellenjoy & ARS. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. Adult Retailer Delivers Supreme Court Petition WASHINGTON, D.C. - Adult retailer Sherri Williams ascended the steps of the United States Supreme Court building at 1 p.m. this past Monday to deliver to the court clerk a copy of her petition for certiorari, asking the high court to rule on whether the Alabama law prohibiting the sale of vibrators for the purpose of sexual stimulation is constitutional. "My attorney, Roger Wilcox, was up all night finishing the petition," Williams told AVN.com shortly before filing her petition, "a

Getting An Im
Am I a bitch for not wanting to give out my Yahoo ID to someone I don't know? I mean, really? Is it wrong of me for wanting to maintain privacy outside of CherryTap? Some people really confuse the hell outta me. Seriously. Why are you gonna get pissed at someone just because you can't chat with them on Yahoo? Is it a popularity thing? A control thing? A pimp thing? What? *sighs*

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 18 May 11 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 18, May 11, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. This X-press in brought to you by our exclusive sponsors Bellenjoy & ARS. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. FBI Inspects 2257 Records of Two Adult Product Companies The FBI has inspected 2257 records from both Shane's World Studios and the now defunct Moonlight Entertainment within a week of each other, a notable resurgence in activity after four months without a single inspection. Moonlight Entertainment's former owner Marc Stone received a visit to his home on May 3. "[FBI agent] Chuck Joyner called me and said that they wanted to check records on four movies," Stone told AVN.com. "I told him we were out of business, and since th

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 17 May 4 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 17, May 4, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. This X-press in brought to you by our exclusive sponsors Bellenjoy & ARS. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. 2257: Judge Miller's Status Conference DENVER, CO - Based on an April 25 status conference in the case Free Speech Coalition v. Gonzales, the Free Speech Coalition expects U.S. District Court Judge Walker D. Miller to dissolve portions of the preliminary injunction (in place since December 2005) that ordered the Government not to inspect secondary producers. FSC hastened to add that this does not mean inspections of secondary producers are likely in the foreseeable future. According to the team of attorneys representing the FSC,

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 16 April 27 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 16, April 27, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. This X-press in brought to you by our exclusive sponsors Bellenjoy & ARS. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. FreedomStreams ’07 Raises Nearly $20K for Free Speech Coalition CANOGA PARK, CA - The Free Speech Coalition is pleased to express its deep gratitude to HotMovies.com for last month’s one-day fundraising event, FreedomStreams ’07, which raised close to $20,000 for the FSC’s Legal Defense Fund on April 15. FSC would also like to express its profound appreciation to the studios that participated in FreedomStreams ’07. This year’s event garnered the participation of 69 donors representing 323 studios, including West Coast Producti

How I've Been...
As you may have read in my last blog, this was a very trying, traumatic and sad week that I had to endure. Two people, one of them a little girl, died in front of me during an accident earlier this week. Truly it was a horrific event, one that has played itself over and over again in my mind, and I had been depressed for the past several days. Well, I went to see the two survivors in the hospital, not knowing how I would be received or how they would be. The mother, who was driving at the time of the accident, was still in a state of shock from losing her niece and youngest daughter. The other daughter, when I was tending to her on Tuesday, could not feel her legs. She was brought in for emergency surgery and I learned that she should make a full recovery with complete use of her legs, so I breathed a sigh of relief that something actually went right on Tuesday. When I saw them, the mother was officially discharged and visiting the daughter. I swear my heart was in my throa

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 15 April 20 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 15, April 20, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. This X-press in brought to you by our exclusive sponsors Bellenjoy & ARS. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. FSC Files Motion to Clarify Recent 2257 Order CANOGA PARK, CA - The Free Speech Coalition filed a motion with a federal court last week seeking clarification and modification of a recent judicial order concerning the organization’s legal battle against 2257 regulations. The motion seeks to clarify an interim decision on the 2257 litigation issued by Colorado Federal District Court Judge Walker Miller at the end of March that covered several aspects of the case, including the proper types of ID necessary for foreign performers

Free Speech X-press Vol X No 14 April 13 2007
Delivering Weekly Censorship Updates to the Adult Entertainment Industry Vol. X, No. 14, April 13, 2007 - A Member Service of the Free Speech Coalition Free Speech X-press is researched and edited by Scott Ross. Copyright 2007 Free Speech Coalition. Permission to reprint granted to FSC members; please give credit. Please support our sponsors by selecting the logos above. FREE SPEECH TAKES NEXT STEP IN THE 2257 CASE CANOGA PARK, CA - On Friday, April 13, 2007, the Free Speech Coalition filed a motion with Colorado Federal District Court Judge Walker Miller seeking clarification and modification of his recent order. “This filing is in response to Judge Miller’s interim decision issued March 30, 2007,” explained Reed Lee, FSC Board member and President of the First Amendment Lawyers Association. Additionally, in response to a joint request by FSC and the Government, Judge Miller has agreed to hold a status conference to consider scheduling further proceedings in the case.

867-5309 Jenny I Got Your Number......
LINCOLN, R.I. - One-hit wonder Tommy Tutone made the phone number 867-5309 famous in the bandfs 1982 hit single, which uses the digits over and over in its catchy refrain. Now, a Rhode Island company and a national firm are battling over the right to use the number, which doesnft reach the gJennyh that Tutone sings about, but could find callers a decent plumber. Two years ago, Gem Plumbing & Heating of Lincoln, R.I., trademarked the phone number in the early 1980s hit, which reached No. 4 on the Billboard Hot 100 chart. Gem acquired the number in Rhode Island when its original owner, Brown University, gave up 867-5309 after growing weary of the constant prank calls. Story continues below « -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- advertisement -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Gemfs number works in the 401 area code in Rhode Island and the 617 area code in southern Massachusett

My Horoscope...
...Was really cute today: 'Some people say one thing and do another -- and they don't notice how their behavior affects others. You, on the other hand, take the high road. The difference shows in the quality of your work and your personal interactions.' I know they're just a series of regurgitated cliches and ambiguities but i liked this one. It perked up my day a little :D

Really Bad Weekend
It occured to me last night while all these thoughts were flying around inside my head that if I didnt get some of them out, Id go freakin nuts. So some of you knew about my plan to move. Since I made the decision I have done everything in my power to figure out how to afford it. So I start saving money. I had $150 saved, kept it in my wallet because dumbass me thought, well as long as I have it in my wallet, I wont lose it. Sure, works well in theory, until someone goes through my wallet at work and suddenly I dont have any money. :| My sister in law was going to do the driving, because a UHaul is well over $1000, and the cheapest moving truck I found was $800+. I made it VERY CLEAR to her that I was counting on her. And she kept telling me, "Dont worry, we'll figure it out." Ok which brings me to yesterday. Started out as an OK day. Was doin shit around my apartment, and decided to call my sister in law. Keeping in mind, SHE said she would figure it all out. To make th

Unshakable Peace
The Lord has only good plans in store for your life. (Jeremiah 29:11) You may go through difficult times, but God promises to use every trial to build "good" into your life. (Romans 8:28) When Satan tells you to worry, God has the opposite in mind. He wants you to trust Him and to experience His peace on a daily basis. How do we gain and retain the true peace of God? - Recognize your dependence is on God. The heart that finds its identity in Jesus Christ is a heart of peace. The person who rushes here and there to solve his own problems quickly can become a person of strife and worry. Take responsibility for your actions, but let God have the reins to your life. - Pray. The enemy cannot defeat you when you are on your spiritual knees before God in prayer. This is the true pathway to unshakable peace. - Trust God. When thoughts of fear invade your mind, tell the Lord what you are feeling and claim His presence as your protection and shelter. David prayed, "Strengthen my arms

Rant About Children Services
Alright, this is a semi-personal blog. This didn't happen to me, but its happening to a friend of mine. Her son was last living with his aunt, and I believe is now living with his great-grandmother. They're trying to keep him out of children services hands. This is all happening because someone got upset with my friend and called them, it had nothing to do with how my friend was treating her child. The claim that was made was that my friend was addicted to drugs. She has passed every drug test given to her. Three of the people closely involved in this child's life failed at least one drug test, including someone who had custody of the child. They still keep pushing this claim. The next claim that they've made is that she has anger/mental health problems. They had one psychologist/psychiatrist make claims that she would abuse her children because she was abused and that she had anger problems, major personality disorders, etc. He also claimed that she was, basically, un

Omg The Pain !!!
Fuck Me ............... sorry for the foul language but FUCK FUCK FUCK !!! First off I burnt my elbow today when I was playing with fire. Was doing a back drop spin with my staff when I misjudged the flames hence dropping the flame on my elbow - OWCH !!! Second I have a pinched something in my lower back and it has got to be the worst pain I have ever felt in my life OMG worse than nipple and septum piercings COMBINED - OWCH !!! I hurt in so many ways right now - help !!!

#8
"1996" anti choice anti girl I am the anti-flag unfurled anti white and anti man I got the anti-future plan anti fascist anti mod I am the anti-music god anti sober anti whore there will never be enough of anti more I can't believe in the things that don't believe in me now it's your turn to see misanthropy anti people now you've gone too far here's your antichrist superstar anti money anti hate anti things I fucked and ate anti cop anti fun here is my anti-president gun anti Satan anti black anti world is on my back anti gay and anti dope I am the faggot anti-pope [bridge] [chorus] anti peace anti life anti husband, anti wife anti song and anti me I don't deserve a chance to be [chorus]

Blow The Whistle!
In 2000 world leaders committed to the Millennium Development Goals (MDGs) to eradicate extreme poverty and hunger by 2015. 2007 marks the half-way point to the fulfilment of the MDGs, and it’s time to Blow the Whistle to ensure our governments the world over honour their promises. The eight UN MDGs were: (i) to eradicate extreme poverty and hunger; (ii) to achieve universal primary education; (iii) to promote gender equality and empower women; (iv) to reduce child mortality; (v) to improve maternal health; (vi) to combat HIV/AIDS, malaria and other diseases; (vii) to ensure environmental sustainability; and (viii) to develop a global partnership for development. Since 2000, poverty and poverty-related issues have sprung up on government agendas worldwide, as the 2005 G8 meeting in Edinburgh clearly demonstrated. Yet progress has been poor and in many areas the situation is worse than before. In sub-Saharan Africa, for example, more people suffer from hunger now than in 2

#7
"Apple Of Sodom" I found the center of fruit is late, It is the center of truth today, Cut the apple in two, Oh, I pray it isn't true, I found the center of fruit is late, Is the center of truth today, I cut the apple in two, Oh, I pray it isn't true, I've got something you can never eat, I've got something you can never eat, I've got something you can never eat, I've got something you can never eat, I drained my heart and burn my soul, I trained the core to stop my growth, I pray to die in space, To cover me in snow, To cover me in snow, Cover me in snow, I'm dying, I hope you're dying too, Cover me in snow, I'm dying, I hope you're dying too [7x] Take this from me, (hate me, hate me,) Take this from me, (hate me, hate me,) 1, 2, 3, he is a speed bump mannequin, 1, 2, 3, he can't move just stand still, 1, 2, 3, he is a speed bump mannequin, 1, 2, 3, he can't move just stand still, I've got something you can never eat, I've got something you c

Come Walk With Me
Come walk with me and be my love Please share your soul with me Tell me who you really are And who you've come to be. I'll listen to your memories To all the dreams you've had I'll listen to your wants and needs The good time and the bad. And as we walk, please hold my hand And let me tell you too Of all the dreams and fantasies I want to share with you. There are many things I want to say As I have many things to do Many things I need to learn Before this life is through. You've come upon a mystic soul With special things to teach Your wisdom and compassion Are goals I want to reach. I know I've met you times before In meditative dreams You are the one who holds the key To unlock this heart it seems. So once again, come walk with me My love, I welcome you Just be yourself and I'll be me In everything we do. And as you gently hold my hand I'll hold on tightly too And together we can walk along Until our time is through.

#6
"Tainted Love" Sometimes I feel I've got to Run away I've got to Get away From the pain that you drive into the heart of me The love we share Seems to go nowhere I've lost my lights I toss and turn I can't sleep at night Once I ran to you (I ran) Now I'll run from you This tainted love you've given I give you all a boy could give you Take my tears and that's not nearly all Tainted love Tainted love Now I know I've got to Run away I've got to Get away You don't really want any more from me To make things right You need someone to hold you tight You think love is to pray I'm sorry I don't pray that way Once I ran to you (I ran) Now I'll run from you This tainted love you've given I give you all a boy could give you Take my tears and that's not nearly all Tainted love Tainted love Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease I love you though you hurt me so Now I'm going to pack my things and go Touch me baby, tainted love Touch me b

#5
"Personal Jesus" Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who cares Your own personal Jesus Someone to hear your prayers Someone who's there Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer Take second best Put me to the test Things on your chest You need to confess I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch faith Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus... Feeling unknown And you're all alone Flesh and bone By the telephone Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer I will deliver You know I'm a forgiver Reach out and touch faith Your own personal Jesus Reach out and touch faith

#4
"Antichrist Superstar" you built me up with your wishing hell I didn't have to sell you you threw your money in the pissing well you do just what they tell you REPENT, that's what I'm talking about i shed the skin to feed the fake REPENT, that's what I'm talking about whose mistake am i anyway? Cut the head off Grows back hard I am the hydra now you'll see your star prick your finger it is done the moon has now eclipsed the sun the angel has spread its wings the time has come for bitter things [chorus] the time has come it is quite clear our antichrist is almost here... it is done

#3
"Tourniquet" she's made of hair and bone and little teeth and things I cannot speak she comes on like a crippled plaything spine is just a string I wrapped our love in all this foil silver-tight like spider legs I never wanted it to ever spoil but flies will always lay their eggs Take your hatred out on me make your victim my head you never ever believed in me I am your tourniquet prosthetic synthesis with butterfly sealed up with virgin stitch if it hurts, baby please tell me preserve the innocence I never wanted it to end like this but flies will lay their eggs

#2
"The Beautiful People" And I don't want you and I don't need you Don't bother to resist, or I'll beat you It's not your fault that you're always wrong The weak ones are there to justify the strong The beautiful people, the beautiful people It's all relative to the size of your steeple You can't see the forest for the trees You can't smell your own shit on your knees There's no time to discriminate, Hate every motherfucker That's in your way [Chorus:] Hey you, what do you see? Something beautiful, something free? Hey you, are you trying to be mean? If you live with apes man, it's hard to be clean The worms will live in every host It's hard to pick which one they eat most The horrible people, the horrible people It's as anatomic as the size of your steeple Capitalism has made it this way, Old-fashioned fascism will take it away [Chorus] There's no time to discriminate, Hate every motherfucker That's in your way The beautiful people The beauti

#1
MARILYN MANSON LYRICS "Irresponsible Hate Anthem" I am so all-american, I'll sell you suicide I am totalitarian, I've got abortions in my eyes I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper I am the animal who will not be himself fuck it Hey victim, should I black your eyes again? Hey victim, You were the one who put the stick in my hand I am the ism, my hate's a prism let's jut kill everyone and let your god sort them out fuck it Everybody's someone else's nigger/I know you are so am I I wasn't born with enough middle fingers/ I don't need to choose a side I better, better, better, better not say this better, better, better, better not tell I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper I am the idiot who will not be himself fuck it [Chorus]

Libra - May 20th, 2007
Why are you spending time with people who, frankly, don't do it for you? Too much niceness can be as much of a drawback as too little. It's time to identify what it is you want instead of giving others what they want. ( lol wow )

Teardrops
You'll never know I cried when I found out you lied So I'll keep writing, hiding teardrops in my heart A woman can't reveal a broken heart until She's all alone some place I know to play the part. Tho' I'm pretending that I don't care To be with you my darling, is my prayer But way down deep inside I can't give up my pride So I'll keep writing, hiding teardrops in my heart. Tho' I'm pretending that I don't care To be with you my darling, is my prayer But way down deep inside I can't give up my pride So I'll keep writing, hiding teardrops in my heart. So I'll keep writing, hiding teardrops in my heart.

Steaming Hot Water!
I'm going to drive home, strip naked, and soak in the hottest water possible. Assuming I don't drown, I will proceed to drag myself out of the tub and make my way to my bed. Hopefully, I will have dried and dressed by the time I reach it, or I just may do the dirty and sleep sans clothing.

Never Been Kissed..
who would believe that at this age, i still haven't experienced being kissed? it's not that i don't have suitors. in fact, i do have a few.LOL :-D it's just that i don't feel like doing with them or kiss anybody just for the heck of it.. how can i really think about kissing when my mind is so focused on my studies, watching animes or cartoons, reading pocketbooks that i can hardly think of boys.. i am somehow a childish person..i still enjoy what most kids enjoy.. (like watching cartoons..) come to think of it, i'm like a ten year old child stuck in a twenty year old woman's body!! :-D do i long for a kiss? on the back of my mind, i surely do!!! i'm sure every girl who had never been kissed would say the same.. i want a kiss that would really take my breath away and i also mean literally!! LOL :-D a kiss that would make my knees go all weak and wobbly.. a passionate kiss with someone i really like and who likes me back.. i'm a hopeless romantic, a love junkie and simply a FOOL a

Mod Of The Day
PLEASE CHECK OUT "APRIL" SHES A TOTAL SWEETHEART,BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT AND SHES TODAY'S "MOD OF THE DAY" ALWAYS LOOKING FOR FUTURE STARS *WINKS* SO IF YOU LIKE THE SPOTLIGHT FOR THE DAY PLEASE JUST CONTACT ME...IT'S THAT EASY HAVE YOURSELVES A BEAUTIFUL DAY

Fun Stars 5-20-07
Good relationships move to the next level under this celestial influence. However, that means one that's faltering is on its last legs. Be open to change, and you'll see results. Fight it, and it'll get more difficult.

Just My Luck
just when i thought things were just starting to finally look better for me.....i end up having a personal crisis sorry if i'm going to be a little unattentive, i will try to get back to everyone but i'm in lots of pain currently and my face is all swollen i have a really bad abscessed tooth.....have already been to the emergency room , so i'm on penicilin and hydrocodone if you get the chance to talk to me...i will be either rather irritable or very flighty depending on where in the cycle the meds are at when we chat so plz be a little patient with me plz understand.....if you are looking to help me in my search for work, i am not going to let this issue stop me or slow me down so plz contact me i am still willing to do odd jobs

A Really Interesting Night
So I was on a date last night O.o when billy calls me at 4:30 in the morning to tell me that hes drunk... i tell him to meet me at my house in 20 minutes cause i m in charles city and he says "i dont know im really drunk.... and people have been messing with me and the last time i was drunk** *trails off* i gotta go" and hangs u. :o i call billy back and make him PROMISE me that he will meet me at my house he says ok we get back to clarksville (which takes forever because we almost hit lke ten gagillion aniimals >.

Army Wife Blues.
I know that I have not put in a blog yet but I dont like to babble on about nothing. But here is a vent... My husband joined the Army shortly after we got married and now we are still in the States as he traines to go over to Iraq. He is gone for a wekk at a time and I know that they are doing this to get the guys and the wives ready for the sepertaion but it still sucks. He got his orders that he is leaving in Dec which means he will at least be able to see our child born in Aug. But then he will be gone for 15 months. The waiting is unreal. I know that he is not gone yet but at times I feel like he is. I can feel him wanting to pull away from me in a way so that maybe I will miss him less. I am so scared that when he leaves I will never see him again. I cry myself to sleep sometimes becasue I can't seem to get the thoughts out of my head. I know that they are training him to do things that he will never talk to me about but I wish he could in some way.

Memorial Day Quote
Memorial Day Quote "We're getting ready for the Letterman family Memorial Day picnic. Last year Uncle Earl, God bless him, got a little confused. Last year he confused his flask with the charcoal starter fluid." ~ Dave Letterman

Cbs Celebrates Bob Barker's 50 Years On Tv
CBS Celebrates Bob Barker's 50 Years on TV May 15, 4:08 PM EST By Sandy Cohen Associated Press LOS ANGELES -- Bob Barker's road to retirement is passing through prime time. The legendary daytime game-show host won't tape his last "Price Is Right" episode until June 6, but CBS is honoring Barker this week with a pair of prime-time specials celebrating his five decades on television. "After 50 years in show business and 35 years on CBS, we want to give Bob a prime-time send-off befitting of an entertainment icon," Nina Tassler, president of CBS Entertainment, said in a statement. The 83-year-old Barker told The Associated Press he picked "just the right time" to say goodbye to the cameras. "I do not have any regrets about retiring," he said. "Isn't that strange? I expected to have second thoughts." Barker started his national television career in 1956 as host of "Truth or Consequences." The CBS special features footage of a black-haired Barker cajoling contestants

Wedding Vows
Wedding Vows A grandmother overheard her 5-year-old granddaughter playing "wedding." The wedding vows went like this: "You have the right to remain silent, anything you say may be held against you, you have the right to have an attorney present. You may kiss the bride."

The Goblin Sketchbook
So on my first day here at CherryTap I started another small blog. Still getting a feel of a place before I can cut loose and share with you all what it is exactly what it is that I do...art. So until I am completely comfortable here I have decided to start off with some older works straight out of what I call The Goblin SketchBook. Hope you enjoy.. -=(gRiMz)=-

Stupid Piece's Of Shit
Please watch out for this Man. His name is Luis Gonzalez. He brutally beat a girl i know to death. Here are two of his pictures. Please repost this for everyone to see so that this doesn't happen to anyone else. This is not a joke. It happend May 12th 2007. It happend just because she couldn't get another girl to join them hanging out. Again PLEASE SPREAD THIS AROUND. Please go and show her some luv. I'm sure she could use a lot of it right now. 2FAST4U!! ~{ Cherry Snatcher}~@ CherryTAP This is off of www.marionso.com Active Inmate Details - GONZALEZ, LUIS Information PIN: A0105206 Booking #: 0700007612 Location: EC219B Name: GONZALEZ, LUIS MIGUEL Sex: M Race: W Height: 510 Weight: 135 Hair: BLK Eyes: BRO DOB: 5/24/1973 Booking Date: 5/12/2007 4:11:00 AM Charges Code Desc OBTS Bond $ Release Case # Charge # 1 784.041-1 BATTERY | FELONY BATT RESULT FROM BODILY HARM/DISABILITY 4201118149 $10,000.00 07023945 Court Case # Bond Type: SURETY

Pics
i have pics but no love from people and i dont know how to get people to look at them other people have lots of love ive seen anyone can look at them ive showed some pepole some love for there pics would some people stop by and look and show some love.

Allow Yourself
The most difficult part of any accomplishment is getting yourself to do it. Once you fully allow yourself to take the necessary actions, the results begin flowing to you with ease. Your ego promotes the false idea that effort and challenge are things to be avoided. In reality, effort and challenge enable you to create great value and bring immense joy to life. Accomplishment is something that comes easily and naturally to you, when you choose to allow it. From the inside out, you are meant to create. All that you are, all that you have, all that you know can work together to bring about your most treasured dreams. You are never too old, too young, too feeble or too uninformed to make a real difference. The only thing that can truly stop you is you, but only if you listen to the insecure posturing of your ego. Choose instead to listen to your heart, which tells you what you know you must do. Find real joy in following your purpose. Find fulfillment by being the positive, creat

For Nothing Can Be Sole Or Whole That Has Not Been Rent.
The maple out front is young and healthy, but it grows in the shape of a Y. Neighborhood tree experts have warned that as it grows, it will split in half as the weight of the two main branches pull down against each other. One of these two beautiful branches, already lush with new leaves, must be cut. But once pruned, the remaining branch will straighten as it reaches for the sun. It will grow faster, and the whole tree will live many years longer - all by cutting it back today. Sometimes we are like this tree. We go in too many directions, and can't seem to do any one thing well. When this happens, we need to give something up, to choose which direction we want and stick with it. The results will be well worth the price. What is holding me back from growth?

Sick
Sick of the lines they fading me I never kno wat to believe In a world thats crushin me Ur the only one I see I don't change my mind for anybody I won't waste my time for almost anybody I won't share my life wit anyone but u It's such a long road I could follow For anybody but u They put my picture on the wall They watch it wait for me to fall They think they made me who i m Well they dont kno me at all (mmmm) I dont change for anybody I wont waste my time for almost anybody For anyone but u They build u up so high Till u can hardly see the stars beneath ur feet I'm fallin through the clouds They'll be the next to catch me

Open My Eyes - Buckcherry
Are you strong enough Do you feel my touch You are the comfort in my eyes Moving through the lust Feeling dangerous I wanna open the door to your life (Chorus) The steps we take on the way to free our minds And lives have changed by the way we free our minds And being with you was the moment I opened my eyes When you sleep at night Are your dreams delight Do all your fantasies fill your head I want to dance with you With the midnight moon Want emotion and do it again (Chorus) Breathing in, breathing out your love Breathing in, breathing out my love Breathing in, breathing out your love Come in closer now To this love we found Are you able to take this flight It's come down to this The first time we kissed Like the ocean we sway you and I (Chorus)

You Make Me Smile - Blue October
Some kind of light at the end When touching the edge of her skin Once so hard to speak Now so easy to play around Catching your eye you know That eye that slapped you in your face and called you a puppy Well how do you say I was hypnotized Hypnotized My words, they pour Like children to the playground Children to the playground You make me smile There's some kind of light at the end Stoned, forgetful, and then I'm drinking what used to be sin And touching the edge of her skin And could you be the one that's not afraid To look me in the eyes I swear I would collapse If I would tell how I think you fell From the sky Yeah my words, they pour Like children to the playground Children to the playground You make me smile There's some kind of light at the end Stoned, forgetful, and then I'm drinking what used to be sin And touching the edge of her skin There's some kind of light at the end Stoned, forgetful, and then I'm drinking what used to be

Animal Testing
A Valid agrument can be made for some animal testing, esp for drugs that are about to come out onto the market. But regardless if you agree or disagree with Animal testing, It IS your responsibility to know what it entails - what it means, and not pretend it does not happen. Germans once tried that excuse after the Nazi Concentration Camps were discovered - it didn't work then. Neitherdoes it Today. This ARE real Pics. Eugene STOP ANIMAL TESTING!!! .. REPOST THIS. Living creatures are suffering for your comfort. If You pass on any chain mail, I hope you pass on this one. No one cares about your middle name, or what you did in 2006 or stupid stories that involve killers in the night. THEY ARENT REAL. GET OVER IT. THIS IS. This is wrong to the highest level. Please help spread awareness of the animals that go through testing. It is not right and should be stopped. The following images are of animals that have been used

To All My Friends
TO ALL MY FRIENDS…….. I would like to be…..Moonlight in order to enlighten the nights of misunderstood… SILENCE…. in order to silence the voices that turmail people’s hearts… DAWN…. in order to bring one more day of happiness… LIGHT…. For all those who live their lives in darkness… NIGHT…. in order to cuddle those who strive all day long…. LIFE…. So that all those who are dying…may be reborn again…. A TEAR… So insensetive hearts can also cry.. A SMILE.. in order to sweeten bitter lips… LOVE…. in order to unite people…and let them know that I’m just one of them…. IN FACT… I would just like to be a small hummingbird…so I could fly into your home Through an open window, surprise you with a hug, and wish you a beautiful day my dear friends…….. PhD.Moris Hug/Istanbul / TURKEY

Deep Skin
I'm dying inside with no one to tell Trapped in my own personal hell My broken spirit thats all that dewlls The hopes I had, are lost in a deep empty well No one nor my friends can hear my silent screams At night I wake up in my nightmarish dreams Smile on my face is all I let them see My wound that I have, is slowly killing me So many life choices to follow Has made my heart hollow The truth is always hard to swallow All I got to look forward to is tomorrow....

Alone
The night creeps in and brings the loneliness. I feel a chill and look up with a start. This house, this home I know so well, Suddenly seems so surreal. Alone. Parents are tucking children in bed. Lovers snuggle down under the covers Anticipating much needed rest and the sweetest of dreams. So alone I sit here all alone, I dare not sleep. For If I do the darkness may engulf me and draw me deeper into its folds. Always alone I'll stay up and keep watch on the dark. The night is so still and I anxiously await the light. When once again life will hustle and bustle outside my door. Yet I will still be alone, so alone, always alone. Forever alone

Red Pam Jams
An Angel in red pam jams such a lovely sight to see I think I'll get one like it for my Christmas tree I'll check at Harrod’s London for the perfect one And bring it home and place it high when the shoppings done So to Harrod's I did make a trip looking for that thing But all I found was tinsel, lights and Christmassy sorts of bling I asked for help to find it but all they had was blue I told them red and nothing else, she goes to MMU! I left the store and walked towards home with sorrowful tear filled eyes When through a window of a tiny store I spotted my tiny prize An Angel in Red Pam Jams! My heart quickly filled with glee A quick purchase and a rush right home to place it on my tree Now every year on Christmas Eve we gather round the tree And gaze up at the Angel and the secret known to only me. When gifts are given and hugs are shared I think of someone near An Angel in red pam jams who brings us Christmas cheer. Dear Kim, I really dont know h

Total Bulls**t
ok things are going from worse to worser....yeah that is right folks...things are so fucked up right now i don't know which end is up....Ed and i are so stressed it isn't funny.... last weekend my cable got shut off so i couldn't be online to keep you all up to date but i am back online so that is good...but here we go.... on Monday i went over to the apt and Ed needed his clothes washed so i went to the basement to do them and found that my entrance to the basement sealed shut....my mom has no dryer atm but we came to her house at 1:30 in the damn morning and did a load of clothes and he ended up going to an interview in wet clothes....but it worked out ok..... then yesterday evening we stopped by the apt to get some more of our stuff only to find someone had been in the apt and gone thru our stuff and actually pulled my stove away from the wall....WITHOUT NOTIFYING US THEY WERE DOING THIS!!!!! i have no idea if anything was stolen or not but i am pissed....thank God Dale ha

Change
Good relationships move to the next level under this celestial influence. However, that means one that's faltering is on its last legs. Be open to change, and you'll see results. Fight it, and it'll get more difficult.

Do Men Really Notice The Smallest Things
Things you don't think guys notice...but actually do! 1.Your nails. Even without nail polish on they have to be clean. 2.Your accessories. It can be a simple bracelet, pretty earings, or a necklace that matches... 3.Your outfit. 4.Your smile..and how often you show it. 5.Your singing...and if you don't mind other people hearing you. 6.Your laugh. Loud and lively is good; demure Maria Clara giggles aren't. 7.Your sports or physical activities. You don't have to be an athlete, but shopping doesn't count. 8.Your quircks...whether you can't whistle or don't like root beer.

Does Size Matter?
Ok not what you think. Most people hear that and they think I am refering to a mans penis. Well your wrong. I am talking about women. Does size matter? I am over weight, I know this and i hate it because I was not always chubby. After children you know. Anyways I feel very self consience about it, yet my 2 jobs and being a single mom I guess i do not work out enough and when i do get a moment to myself i use it to relax. Anyways i feel like men look at me and think I am ugly because they see chubby not who I am. I do not want a man that sees me as chubby but finds the beauty inside and understands what kind of a person i am. Sometimes I feel like I could be with a great guy if I had my old body back. I dont know sorry i am just down tonight. My little sister got married tonight and I am very happy for her. I just wish I could find that kind of happiness too. I know who i am and what I am about, but do men take the time to see a woman that is a good cook, and a great mother, a hard work

Summer Passion
Summer heat is in the air While the one you love is near You sneak a hug and a kiss Wanting more is what you wish Seeing that sparkle in her eye Gives you the passion that reaches the sky Needing the sweet embrace of her touch Has you yearning for ecstasy so much The smell of her extravagant scent Keeps your mind going with hours well spent Releasing the urges from deep within Your bodies pull together and mend As the room fills up with sweat and desire It makes ya both think that the room is on fire Continuing to pleasure each other in every way With your bodies moving with a magical sway Knowing the end is almost near Your body begins to fill with fear Not for the reason you are thinking But for the reason that has me sinking Summer is now over and done Which sends you back home and thats not fun Summertime is when we had our time together That is when I realized the passion I have for you will last forever

You Must Be An Angel
Magic on the inside magic on the out you must be an angel of that I'm in no doubt a loving, caring smile a warm, calming touch you must be an angel that i can never clutch perfect swaying hair deep swirling eyes you must be an angel unable of disguise wisdom in your voice joy within your heart you must be an angel a subject of great art some dream of angels i dream of you you must be an angel making my dreams true you must be an angel sent here from above you must be an angel sent to teach me love

One Night
Two lovers underneath the silvery stars. Two lovers entangled in a web of passion Two bodies entwined, two bodies made one Two lovers full of passion, full of faith. One night together is all they need to see To see the feelings each one beholds Their hearts posses a love so real a love so true A passionate embrace of two loving souls. The subtlety of each kiss, the tenderness of each caress Two lovers brought underneath the southern sky The tenderness of the nights fades as light draws nigh They will not forget what each has felt, the love of two hearts. As the scarlet sunrise looms they grip each other tight Reminiscent of that tender loving night Two perfect lovers with desire burning so strong A love burning deep inside each heart now for so long

Brink Of Perfection
Silky streams that harness the beaming perfection That is the night-sky when it unfolds to its rapture Reveal shimmers that shine forth true resurrection Of the cycle of moments that we always recapture These auroras spread out under blankets of cotton Gently gazing at us from the Mansions in the skies With soft loving eyes that have not been forgotten Enthralling us smoothly with those serene lullabies Vestal and pure all of these moments are hallowed For they are truly sublime to their centre of elation Discharging true grace leaving us feeling wallowed Within their ravishing well of flourishing sensations Overwhelming pleasure meets exaltation right now Entrancing your heart, while it then makes it blush All of these exhilarating instants that nature allows Culminate at the threshold of this magnificent rush Beaming and breathless you stand in astonishment Completely in awe of what has become your dream From now hereafter your soul shines in amazement Aft

Beach Romance
The bright sun setting over the clear crisp waters Your green eyes sparkling in the light Being there with you fills my heart with ecstasy Arms wrapped tenderly around you Kisses gently placed across your neck The pure heavenliness of the moment Stripping us of all our fears and doubts Creating a passion between two hearts yearning to be one Our bodies and minds combining Into one breath Into one heart beat Into an everlasting pleasurable excitement Beginning within the depths of ours souls Only to be propelled outward through our vocal and physical excitement Penetrating into the depths of passion Our bodies wet from the mist of the waves crashing at our feet Slow love making rhythmically thrusting with the beating of our love And the rise and fall of the ocean's waves As the climax of our romance begins to approach A wave crashes down around us thrusting our bodies against one another abruptly Giving only a magnificent ending to even more fun Because this night

A Woman'a Real Beauty
Love is true, love is strong, But one little problem remains in is song A Womans real beauty is mistaken by many men. It is not in the clothes she wears, nether it is the way she lovely combs her hair, It is not the make-up thats lets her shine in a middle of a crowd or the dress that makes her a celebrity The womans real beauty remains deeply inside her, It must be seen threw her eyes, Because that is the passage that leads you to her heart, the place where honesty is only true A womans real beauty can be seen unfortunately many can't see, The place where love resides It is define, It's sweetly It is...unique The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, But yes the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul It is the caring that she lovingly gives, The passion that she shows and... The beauty of a woman, with passing years-only grows

Letter For Her
I know that I should try to find somebody new. But all I find myself always thinking of you... You don’t even know it. And why should you care? You’re happy just pretending that I’m not even there. Forever means nothing if I don’t spend it with you. But there’s just nothing more I think I can do. I try to tell you I love you but you just don’t stop to listen. Then I guess you’ll never know that I’m the one you’re missing. Give me just one minute and look into my eyes... Forget your friends. Forget the world. Forget the pain and lies. Forget about what people say and what other people might see. All I want you to think about now is what you think of me... Because nothing really matters except for the people you love. And it kills me inside not knowing what your thinking when your all I’m thinking of. Maybe I am wrong and you really just don’t care. But why sometimes do you act so nice to me if no feelings are actually there. All I want is for you to tell me exactly ho

The Fake Romance...
Each day is like living with out no meaning each day is like living with out no feelings i never thought love would be so hard i never thought death and pain would be so real and true it's like a part of me wanted to eat the poison apple and see what will happen when my life is gone and over i keep telling myself i love her and I'll take care of her to the point where i keep myself up all night and day to watch myself slowly break down into pieces and tears i try to keep my eyes open and show my mind that she just a fake and not real she just a fake image that my lonely mind made up to make fun of my loneliness in life no matter what it is she a fake and she always will be no matter how many tears i drop and bleed she will always be a fake thing i made up... no matter how much i want to be with her she will always be that fake thing I'll always create when I'm alone and sad....

Yogurt Sensations
With your hands behind your back, Blind fold over your eyes. Something cold and velvety A luxurious, sexy surprise. Greek style honey yogurt. Creamy, sweet and delicious. Runs across your body, This love now so capricious. From your yogurt covered navel, I lavishly kiss your skin. The moment gets so hot, We're covered from head to chin. I work my hands so neatly, Spread the yogurt down your thighs. Caress and stroke so deeply, And slowly sensationalise. Greek style honey yogurt. A taste I now adore. A heavenly night of passion, Left me wanting more.

My Current Heart Song
The song that my heart is currently singing... Samsons Bukan Diriku (Not myself) setelah kupahami - Now I understand ku bukan yang terbaik - That I'm not the best yang ada di hatimu - inside your heart tak dapat kusangsikan - Undeniably ternyata dirinyalah - It's so clear yang mengerti kamu - The one who understands you bukanlah diriku - Is not me kini maafkanlah aku - Now please forgive me bila ku menjadi bisu - In my silence kepada dirimu - towards you bukan santunku terbungkam - Not that I'm speechless hanya hatiku berbatas - It was just that my heart was powerless tuk mengerti kamu - to understand you maafkanlah aku - so please forgive me walau kumasih mencintaimu - Eventho I still love u kuharus meninggalkanmu - I have to leave you kuharus melupakanmu - I have to forget you meski hatiku menyayangimu - Even when my heart still loves u nurani membutuhkanmu - Even when my soul still needs you kuharus merelakanmu - I have to let you go dan ha

Sunday, 20th May 2007
Havent I done just that all weekend :-) see i knew it was in my stars...lol Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Sunday, May 20: Friends? Family? Responsibilities? Social happenings? Life's complicated and busy, and you may feel pulled in a billion different directions now. Amongst it all, be sure to take time just for you.

Sunday, 20th May 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your AstroSlam for Sunday, May 20: During a long bus ride today, you'll make the mistake of talking to the person in the seat next to you, and you'll be forced to listen to a play-by-play description of a day in the life of that person's fish tank.

I Don't Deserve Your Perfect Love
Empty here, without your eyes --Broken, and it's no surprise. You left; I wasn't good enough. I don't deserve Your Perfect Love. You are too good for boys like me; You'll always be a Fantasy. The ones to See, But never Touch -- What I Need and Want so Much You are the One I want to Hold -- It's no surprise you chose to go. I know my love shall never meet The greatness to whom I compete. There is no more significance -- Love's based on just appeal... I know my body won't suffice; There's not a heart my face could steal. Here, you lock me --here, I'm bound-- Locked In chains, I Rocket Down You walked away (I'm in the dark ) And Left me here to Sit and Rot And everyone's pasts are full of mistakes; Although mine depicts many more than most make... I don't really see someone falling for me So I guess I'll just drown in absurd fantasies...

Update?
Eh well, I seem to have forgotten about this place for a bit. I'm a married woman now, as of April 21st, and I couldn't be happier about that fact. My birthday's coming up (June 2), which will mean I'm married before turning twenty three. Yay me? Haha. Not sure whether or not it's a great accomplishment, but I do know that the hubby and I couldn't be happier. He even bought me a Nintendo Wii as an early birthday present! So that's about it I guess. Feel free to send me presents..? Cash is good too? Haha! I wish..

I Need A Title
A dish hits the wall,pieces fall to the floor Things will never be the same not like before The children in thier room begin to cry out Thier voices seem so quiet as thier parents still shout She holds the phone as another crashes by her head Crying and afraid the kids climb out of bed They open thier door and step into the light To late to realize thier now in thier parents fight Sirens scream and flashing lights flicker at the door As a mother and her children lay bleeding on the floor Wounds may heal but the memories will never leave As she puts them in the ground a childless mother still grieves

Ahh Whatever
Have you ever felt.. those sad butterflies.. or the very hurtful ones.. yeah. thats how you make me feel you give me ALL kinds, but you don`t seem to care & theres nothing i can do about it... i feel horrible i hate this feeling, this feeling of self doubt, that i`m not good enough or something it sucks; i just want it to disapear, i want you to disappear, no i just want you to stop hurting me, leading me on, or whatever your doing. i hate it how i let you play with my heart, its out in the open.. and i let you crush it and then build it up again, and then let it fall to peices once more.. i should just lock up my heart & never give away the key. i can`t do this anymore, the hard thing is.. you've got me totally hooked, every time i see you, or hear your voice i go weak.. & it seems as tho theres nothing i can do about it and i just wish i could let you go.. & your not even THAT special.. just to me.. you have no idea. i don`t no how to explain the way i feel about you. i just ugh. wha

My Smile
I get a lot of compliments on my smile, and to be honest, I just don't get it. I'm not getting down on myself or anything but I'd be less surprised to receive compliments on other things. I don't think I have a fucked up smile or anything, I just don't consider it somethin to write home to mom about. I'd maybe understand if it was brought up on a rare occasion but I receive compliments on my smile probably a dozen times a week from strangers. I'm not complaining or bragging or anything other than simply perplexed about it. I've also heard from several men that Jennifer Aniston is number 1 in hottness in their celebrity top 10... I don't really get that either. I always thought she was kind of plain and homely looking. Sweet and all but nothing really striking just overall cute at best. World, you never cease to keep me guessing. I'll probably never understand your taste in appeal... it often seems far different than mine.

Sehe
sometimes i become a girl who is not strong. sometimes i become a girl who needs that push. sometimes i become a girl who is real insecure. sometimes i become a girl who just needs a hug. sometimes i become a girl who needs to show feelings through tears. sometimes i become a girl who needs love. sometimes i become a girl who needs a hug. sometimes i become a girl who needs to hold hands.sometimes, not always. you've gotta see me through. because, in the end; who wants a girl anyone could have

Hello, Henry.
As of late, I've been somewhat moody. I freely admit that I conduct myself in an utterly waspish manner at times. Mayhap it's due to the fact that I'm beyond exhausted, but even so, I should retain control over my tongue. If looks could kill, I'd be behind bars. I've given more than my fair share of drop-dead glares. In general, people just annoy me more easily these days. One of my older officers really hit the spot the other day. His behavior was the outside of enough. I do so tire of men becoming fresh with me, especially in my place of business. You know, it makes me wonder if one of the Kloey accessories is a flashing neon sign that reads, "If you'd be so kind as to treat me like a whore, I'd be most appreciative..." Whatever it is, it annoys me. I don't even think I'm all that striking. I mean, yeah, I'm decently cute, but as far as being gorgeously sexy, I'm not. I don't wear provocative clothing. Every so often you may catch a glimpse of the swell of my

Being Negative Can Be Fun Once In A While
* Dudes who don't flush their toilets in public restrooms. Nobody's interested in seeing how huge your butt nuggets or dingleberries are. - This also applies to people who spit enormous, disgusting piles of snot in drinking fountains. * Waking up with bed hair from hell and a mouth full of germs that make your breath smell like dead fish and give your gums an "extra skin". * People who don't give way to the elderly on public transportation. Can't you see they're about to die standing there? Give them your seat, for crying out loud! * Using Shakespearian English in IM conversations. I rather keep it short and sweet, just like I would in a normal verbal conversation. :P * Being late. I'm the kind of person who'd rather never, ever, be late for anything. Homework, appointments, you name it. * Walking in dog poo. A few days ago, I slipped on a piece of dog poop as I was running to catch the bus. Thank god I didn't fall IN IT. - Missed the bus, though. :( * Playi

Maddie Mccann - Day 17 - Still Missing
McCann Family: 'We Are Coping' Updated: 06:27, Sunday May 20, 2007 The parents of Madeleine McCann have given a glimpse of how they are coping with the loss of their daughter. New photographs show Kate and Gerry McCann smiling as they play with their two-year-old twins Sean and Amelie. The pictures give an insight into how the family is trying to maintain a sense of normality, 17 days after Madeleine disappeared. Madeleine was abducted as she slept in her bed in her parents' holiday apartment in the seaside village of Praia Da Luz, southern Portugal. Mr and Mrs McCann allowed a photographer to take pictures of them eating lunch and reading books with the twins on Saturday in the flat to which they have moved. Mrs McCann has yellow and green ribbons tied in her hair to symbolise hope for her daughter's safe return. Her husband is also wearing a green and yellow wristband and Amelie has her hair tied in bunches with a green clip and a yellow band. Meanwhil

Useful Words Not Found In The Dictionary
Useful Words Not Found in the Dictionary Sarchasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the reader who doesn't get it. Giraffiti: Vandalism spray-painted very high. Karmageddon: It's like, when everybody is sending off all these really bad vibes, right? And then, like, the Earth explodes and it's, like, a serious bummer. Dopeler Effect: The tendency of stupid ideas to seem smarter when they come at you rapidly. Intaxication: Euphoria at getting a refund from the IRS, which lasts until you realise it was your money to start with. 17

That Boy.
When I was a little girl, I always had a dream, I always wanted to be a lucky one. The one who had it all, every wish would come true.but as i got older, I realized that I didn’t need it all I didn’t need to have the newest bike or the best clothing. I needed to be the one that had the biggest smile on her face, and the most amazing things in her life that meant more than money. It took time for me to understand it all but there was one thing that showed me what the world is really about that one thing, was you. All my dreams when I was a little girl, they all did come true in the end. I found everything I wanted in life. I had it all the second I fell for you. No more dreaming, no more wishing. I was the lucky one, that found your heart and was the smart one that never let it go. i wish i still had him - if only he was that boy i thought he was. not the one that he turned into

What Hurts Me Inside - Never Shows On The Outside Because I`m Strong.
The things you always need most always end up being what you dont have That one boy that you wanted to notice you but always was just to far to reach That bestfriend that you felt comfortable with and told eachother everything Now, your nothing but strangers That brother you always wanted to be close with but the things he does scares you That father that you always wished you had that you dont even want to know anymore Its the little things that you never cherished those are the things that just disappear You try your hardest to just have that perfect life the one where you have that boy, that bestfriend,that brother, that father but no matter how hard you try, it just crumbles infront of you. You have the times where you dont sleep for weeks, where you dont want to close your eyes cause your scared Scared that its only going to get worse. But you just have to keep your head up keep it up so high that everyone can see That smile that you hide needs to be shown

I Have Only One Soul One Body One Mind....
Every day i walk this earth wander lost an confused to my purpose i want to know so much yet i want to do just as much too much sometimes that even i get lost within it all i can absorb so much from you all, all the pain the suffering you all go through i hear it i take it in i try as best as i can to help you but even i feel like ive done nothing for some i wish i could do more for you..... But to those im sorry that i can do no more then talk.....

Horoscope Day Some Time Or Another
There's nothing wrong with having stuff. But when it gets to the point where stuff isn't enhancing your life, but preventing you from having one, it's time to let it go. What about having a garage sale or donating to charity?

I Was Amused...
I've been reading through the blogs that BabyJesus (Mike) has posted. One that caught me in particular was entitled "want something to whine about? how about this!" This particular blog entry was about the new "So-and-so's friend just walked into the bar" notifications. We all have Mike as a friend, so go read it for yourself. It occurred to me after reading this that Mike has the same sense of humor that I do. Honestly, I think that if he wasn't so busy running this site and making all of us whiny bitches happy, he'd probably be hanging out in the mumms, slagging the fuck out of them, and then retiring to a happy yahoo conference afterwards. He'd probably be in my family list. I have decided that I really like his sense of humor, and he'd probably like mine. Anyway, I'm not posting this to kiss ass. I'm posting this simply as an observation. Mike is one funny motherfucker, and I like him. P.S. If you're on my friends list, and not someone that has prevented me

Mix It Up With Mma Fighter And Fans
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The Closing Of One Chapter And Opening Of Another.
Its been thirteen years of school and to date, seventeen years of tears, laughter, runny noses, chicken pox, and sighing. She dons her cap and gown tomorrow for a walk down the aisle at baccalaureate and again next week for that final crossing the stage and pulling the tassel over to the right side of her cap. Declaring her a graduate. When I first found myself pregnant with her, I swore up and down I didn't want to have another baby. Her sister was only fifteen months old and she was sick and had to go through surgery, but for me.. for my family, we don't believe in abortion and theres just no way I could bring a baby into this world and give them away.. so here she came. Kicking and screaming her way into my world, taking over our lives with a such a humorous persona. She's the middle the child. The one that has the ability to make life heaven or hell and without much effort at all. At the worst of times she can make me burst into hysterical laughter. She has an amazing sense

Take Me Away
Can't stop moving Death awaits if i rest for even a moment brain in overdrive overloading Jailed thoughts bang tin cups against the bars of my mind Incessant clanging sounds in my ears like an alarm Core meltdown is near Assume the postion Abandon ship Everyone out, She's gonna blow! Insanity is on the horizon Getting closer by the hour As it approaches, I wrap its threads around me like a cloak Protecting me From the world? From myself? It's nice in here Warm and kinda fuzzy I think I'll stay a while Stop It Tickles I can feel my mind eating its self It's not an altogether unpleasant feeling Kind of like pop rocks

Stop Your Fuckin Whining About Downraters
I see a lot of blogs, mostly by women, about people being totally irate and hateful about getting downrated. Most of these women are irate because they get downarated by a man because she won't share her naked pics with him - as if somehow the rating is a personal attack on, or destroys, her image, self-value or self-worth. I see them calling each other names, because the girl thinks she needs to be a bitch because some asshole is being inconsiderate and is asking to see her nude or is pushing sex on her. Then the guy gets irate and calls her names because she is belittling him now and they just get into these stupid arguments that solve nothing. Hating haters is like trying to fight terrorism with war. War IS terrorism, in and of itself. You cannot beat war with war, terrorism with terrorism, hatred with hatred or sexism with sexism. You will hear me say this, time and time again. Love Is The Only Truth. Also, The World Is Your Mirror. When you judge someone it is be

Date Night
date night oh i love date night date night is a wonderful night for me lol if you guys can't tell i'm in a really really good mood i had a date tonight and he's a honey and i likes him and yeah thats it for now cause i don't feel like sharing any more Meg

Lovin Youu With Words
Loving you with words Tantalizing words flow onto the page, provoking reactions inside me today. Making me wanton. Driving me wild. I am becoming one with the page, wanting to feel close to each stroke of my pen as pleasure mounts. Merging with words, my emotions start to whimper as my senses react to their heated embrace causing my breathing to accelerate. Visions of kisses, tongues, hands find their way into my mind as sweet rapture spreads delicious heat to every needy place. I come apart as I dot each "I" and cross every "t." Stroking intimate places with intense manipulation wanting to prolong the immense pleasure as I love you with words

One Day
One day you're going to wake up and realize how much you care about me and when that day comes, I'll be waking up with the guy that already knows... "...and he takes her for granted thinking she'll always be there. Because he knows she's always been the one who cared. But one day when he needs her most, her back will be turned and she will be walking away just like he did to her..."

Bar I Work At
hey all, I'm a bartender in this crazy ass bar. My blogs, which I will post as often as i can, will be mostly about the crazy ass place I work. This place is full of crack heads, crazy people, and they all sit next to the doctor, lawyer, funeral directors, and postal peeps. Have a great night, and please support my blog!

Lord Byron's "when We Two Parted" This Is My Favorite Poem By Lord Byron I Hope You Enjoy It As Much As I Do
When we two parted In silence and tears, Half broken-hearted To sever for years, Pale grew thy cheek and cold, Colder thy kiss; Truly that hour foretold Sorrow to this. The dew of the morning Sunk chill on my brow-- It felt like the warning Of what I feel now. Thy vows are all broken, And light is thy fame; I hear thy name spoken, And share in its shame. They name thee before me, A knell to mine ear; A shrudder comes o'er me-- Why wert thou so dear? They know not I knew thee, Who knew thee so well-- Long, long I shall rue thee, Too deeply to tell. In secret we met-- In silence I grieve, That thy heart could forget, Thy spirit deceive If I should meet thee After long years, How should I greet thee?-- With silence and tears.

Hold Your Head High
if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, its this: When theres something you really want, fight for it. Don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. && When you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're going to wish you gave it just one more shot because the best things in life don't come easy

Can U Understand This (haiku)
words sex life death sand out ways post meanless thing unwanted fear most alone when know rest for the time seeks a bitter end begin stop go reset over a period of time never wins in an everclear downing in pain what real is this if we need to not expain live

This Is For Everyone Who Knows Me
Hey everyone i am writing this cause i feel i really wanna pour my heart out so here it goes i know i can't be perfect all the time no one is perfect but i do try to be a good friend i try to be there for all my friends but sometimes i feel i'm not being there or helping enough and i feel really bad but i do try hard and my best and I'm gonna be the best girlfriend to john cause i really do love him he means the world to me he's my everything and my life and i would do anything for him i will treat him very good thats a promise and i will never ever hurt him in anyway cause john is special and he makes me feel special he's the love of my life i thank god everynight that i have john in my life i'm so very lucky to have him and if i lost john then my life would be a big time mess i would be so messed up but i just want to say I Love You John with all of my heart but i have the greatest friends family and boyfriend in the world but sometimes i feel that i suck that i'm a loser and that i'

Ok A Forewarning This Is Vain And Not Important But I Am In Need Of And Honest Opinion
I am putting a before and after pic in this blog, I would love all opinions as long as they are constructive and not mean. I got extensions in my hair and I want to know if they look good or not. My husband and close friends wouldn't want to hurt my feelings by saying it looked bad so please be the judge and I appreciate it and as I said I know this is vain and I apologize in advance for it but also need to know and appreciate any and all comments. Thank you, Jami Also if you click on the pics it will go to a larger pic if you can't tell by the tiny pics. This is the day before This is the day I got the extensions

Slave Girl...
Online I act pretty crazy, pretty sleazy, a freaky fun girl who never says no. Well I am a freaky girl, I loove sex, am very bi~sexual, and love threesomes... but I say no quite often and go without sex alot because of my self image and worrying about what others think. I am now in a situation where i am not sure what to do... I am talking to a guy online who lives about 10 minutes from me, he is a complete dom (he put on a web cam show for me with his slave)..I hve always found that kinda thing quite exciting and hot, but I am very nervoous about meeting this guy, and very excited at the same time... just some thoughts... ciao

The Bar + Alcohol = Analyzation Of Life
Ugh, it's almost 3am. So tonight I went out to the bar again. I saw a few people I knew from school. They were all telling me how they just had their second and third children, how they're married, and etc. and all this great shit about their lives. Ofcourse I had to play it off like I was okay and it didn't bother me. But you know what? It fucking did. Everybody has these great things happening to them and I have nothing. Nothing at all to show for and I'm almost 23. No boyfriend, no husband, no child, only 2 best friends anymore (and they're female believe it or not!). It really makes me feel bad. All I've ever wanted was something somewhat to a "norm" of how the average person would have a life and family, even though I know my ways and beliefs are far from average. And I'll tell you I saw it ALL tonight I really did...bar drama, lesbians all over eachother, even married people cheating on their spouses and etc. I wonder if they even realize that life is just a stupid test until

Countdown...
TEN FIRSTS: First Best Friend: jay First Screen Name: sigmund999 First Pet: dog fritz First Piercing: ear First Crush: cindy rosen...1st grade First CD: patrick moraz 'i' First Stuffed animal: Teddy bear First Makeout: prolly 7th grade at a party First Failing Grade: German Class on purpose...long story First assignment: erra.....wha? NINE LASTS: Last Beverage: Mike's wicked ale Last Car ride: home from the gig Last Movie Seen: flushed away Last Phone Call: mom Last Cd Played: ELP brain salad surgery Last Bubble Bath: ummmm..no? Last time you Cried: not recent enough! Last thing you ate: steak Last bad thing you did: taking over someone elses gig EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS: Have you ever dated one of your best friends:yes Have you ever been arrested: yes... no convictions Have you ever skinny dipped: yes Have you ever been on tv: yes Have you ever kissed someone: yes Have you ever cheated: no Have you ever been in love: yeah Have you ever been in a car

Yeah...
WELL TODAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO OUT OF TOWN FOR THE NIGHT.. BUT THAT FELL THROUGH... WHICH I WILL ADMIT I WAS PRETTY CHOKED ABOUT. BUT I WASN'T GOING TO SIT AROUND POUTING ABOUT IT. I WENT FOR DINNER WITH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS. WHICH I WILL ADD...MMMMMMMM CALAMARI!!!!!!! THEN... HAHAHA WHEN WE GOT IT, WE REALIZED WE COULD HAVE SHARED ONE OF THOSE... LMAO! LESSON LEARNED.. I HAD A SHRIMP COMBO, WHICH WASN'T TOO BAD... THERE WAS WAY TOO MUCH FOR JUST ME THOUGH! AND YES...ANOTHER LESSON LEARNED... LOL! AFTER WE LEFT THE RESTAURANT, WE WENT TO A BAR AND HAD A FEW DRINKS...A COUPLE OF ROWDIES (TO BE EXPECTED) ANYWAYS, HAD FUN THERE AND WENT AND GRABBED SOME MORE DRINKS CAME TO MY PLACE AND HUNG OUT FOR A BIT.... AS OF RIGHT NOW... GONNA GO PLAY SOME CARDS. I HAD TO SHARE MY NIGHT WITH EVERYONE. HOPEFULLY EVERYONE'S WAS EQUALLY ENJOYABLE. SINCERELY, ~BETTER THEN IT SEEMS~

New From T1nyvision
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Strange Facts
Saturday mail delivery in Canada was eliminated by Canada Post on February 1, 1969! In Tokyo, a bicycle is faster than a car for most trips of less than 50 minutes! There are 18 different animal shapes in the Animal Crackers cookie zoo! Should there be a crash, Prince Charles and Prince William never travel on the same airplane as a precaution! Your body is creating and killing 15 million red blood cells per second! The king of hearts is the only king without a moustache on a standard playing card! There are no clocks in Las Vegas gambling casinos! There is one slot machine in Las Vegas for every eight inhabitants! Every day 20 banks are robbed. The average take is $2,500! The most popular first name in the world is Muhammad! Tablecloths were originally meant to be served as towels with which dinner guests could wipe their hands and faces after eating! Tourists visiting Iceland should know that tipping at a restaurant is considered an insult! One

Just A Draft I'm Tossing Around....
she stares at the black sky, one star cozies up to the moon, as if the dark expanse of space is so cold it can't bear to be alone. walking underneath the night-drenched leaves, she's unfolding, unraveling herself. the whisper of cloud cover wafts over the light, covering her in darkness for a moment, but it's just as well, she needed the moment to hide.

I'm All Yours, Take Care Of Me..
My heart pounds, every beat I feel like it's trying to escape.. Where love now stays, once there was pain, anger, maybe a little hate.. I let the images of your body cross my mind, wanting you more each day.. I am hard people have said, don't fuck with her, never get in her way.. They don't know how you have gotten to me, soften the shell.. Each night you are not touching me, kissing me, each night alone, I am in hell.. I question my sanity, putting my heart in a strangers hands, am I wrong.. Don't hurt me, my vengence would be painful, loud, and long.. I'm trusting you to care for what has been broken before, take care.. I am yours, each breath, each word, my soul, each curve, here I am for you bare..

Something So Real
You said you cared Your kiss felt so real Never before had I felt something so real Until the day I met you The way you held me, I felt I would melt. Every word you spoke, Made my heart race. Your breath so angelic Always made me sigh. Every gaze into your eyes, Made my world come to a stop. All Fears lifted, Every thought so blissfull, Thinking in the back of my heart, This is the one. True Love could be here. Knowing in my heart, It wasn't true, Nothing as good as this could be true. You said you'd never hurt me, That you cared too much. You said I was your one and only. Looking into my eyes, holding my hands, each promise you sealed with a kiss. Should I have ever listened? I believed your words, How could a lie come from lips so sweet? Wishing I had never fallen for you. Hoping I leave all this pain behind. Each tear shed strikes me deep within, Hitting a place deep inside A place I never knew existed Fire from within lashing out unto innocent

Just Feelings 7
Oh,what can i say youe tease me in so many delightful ways,I wish that we could meet in reallife and just see what happens, think your very good at geting me going,hehe.Just wonder what would happen if we did meet in real life how far would it go,:)

Grumpy Is In The Hospital
hello this is grumpy's wife hello the reason grumpy and i havent been on cherrytap or yahoo is because grumpy is in the hospital. we dont know when he will come home. he was having bad chest pains they think he had a stroke or a heart attack. im gonna get back to the hospital. love you all nightshade2526 & grumpy2553

Once
Watching you sleeping How peaceful you seem you're so beautiful "I love you" I whisper though I know you're not awake "love you too" you mumble in your sleep you can't know it's me you think I'm someone else I know you don't love me but that's ok you'll keep loving someone else and I'll keep loving you and when your heart is broken you'll cry on my shoulder and then you'll love again and always someone new and I'll always be here cherishing you cherishing your smiles and your tears storing each memory in a secret corner of my mind how the sunlight strikes your hair or how it sparkles in your eyes I'll cherish this moment you may never say you love me again but it's ok because once is enough and I may never tell you again but once was enough and even when you wake and the memory is lost in mist and dreams somewhere inside you'll know and your heart will cherish the memory I steal a kiss from your sleeping lips soft and tender every detail painted

Least Romantic.
Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you. But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head. Oh loving beauty you float with grace If only you could hide your face Kind, intelligent, loving and hot; This describes everything you are not I want to feel your sweet embrace But don't take that paper bag off of your face I love your smile, your face, and your eyes - Damn, I'm good at telling lies! My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife: Marrying you screwed up my life I see your face when I am dreaming. That's why I always wake up screaming My love, you take my breath away. What have you stepped in to smell this way My feelings for you no words can tell, Except for maybe "go to hell"

Grumpy Is In The Hospital
hello the reason grumpy and i havent been on cherrytap or yahoo is because grumpy is in the hospital. we dont know when he will come home. he was having bad chest pains they think he had a stroke or a heart attack. im gonna get back to the hospital. love you all nightshade2526

Part To Of My Last Blog.
wow. just saw him again. walking down the street. he saw me. and im fucked i ran he chased after me. and ya. you can imagin. oh and after that i came home only to find out that my friend is leaving for the marines and i dont even get to see him before he leaves. be gone a year. and yeah. shit my night is gettting worse and worse. kill me please someone. gah im like crying my eyes out right now.

"u' Must Read The First Word Down To Know The Name
When a man and woman comes together, a bond is made between there love. Man knows what a woman wants and, loves to give himself to her every need. A chance to make his love right to the, woman his heart,mind,and soul loves. Sign:Raymond Starns Dated:3/96'

Just Feelings 5
What can I say about you sweetie, you make me cry and laugh. But sometimes I think you really don't want me and Devon to even be friends. That sucks because I love you both,and true I miss him like hell and I think about him to much,but then again I think about you a lot more then you know. I just hope someday we will meet all 3 of us.

Poem: U Must Read The First Word Down To Know The Name
Every woman knows that a, rose is a sign Of Love and, has a reason for being this way. Its on the man to give his love and the, thorns are to show that he'll protect her. Sign:Raymond Starns Dated:3/96'

What Kind Of Boyfriend Am I?
What Kind of Boyfriend Are You? RESULT: Dream Guy You’ve got it all – affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that girls want their boyfriends to have. You’re light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy – a great combination. When you start a relationship, there’s a good chance the girl will totally fall for you, whether she intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you’re sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)

Just Feelings 3
I love the way we hit it off. I wish you were here. I know that we would have a good,fun time if we were near each other. I just love the way we turn on each other we seem to know what the other one wants. Just wish You were around more!!

Sacrifice
I see a tear...running down your face A song in your head...amazing grace Feelings that haven't stirred for years As you embrace the love... lose fears You thought I stopped loving you Didn't think that i would see it through Never knew you were the world to me Now I hope through my eyes you'll see.. So please don't cry for me I'll be here where you can't see And don't forget me cause I'm gone Cause I'll still be here In this song You didn't know how i felt inside Watching all my fear come to life My heart stopped and so did time Then I realized The Blood... Was Mine. ...J copyright..2007 Justice Sherrick..

* 12 Human Senses *
********************************************************************************************* * Senses * ********************************************************************************************* (12 Human Senses) ********************************************************************************************* Senses are the scalar-wave apparatus, and their seemingly manifest parts, that allow the personal morphogenetic field to synthesize and translate frequency from the dimensional bands of the Unified Field, into coherent perceptual and experiential qualities that give embodied consciousness a translation of its relationship to other forms of consciousness within the Unified Field. Senses or the apparatus which give us the Ability to Sense - are scalar wave arrangements inherent to our forms that translate energy signatures from the Unified Field into usable data of relationships. The Senses are simply energy constructs within the human morphogenetic field,

Bad American
YES, I'M A BAD AMERICAN by: George Carlin I Am Your Worst Nightmare. I am a BAD American. I am George Carlin. I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid level governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican! I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way! I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American. I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything. I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, do it in English. I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to. My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and whoever canceled Jerry Springer. I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor. I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time watching or arguing about it. I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neith

Whateva
sitting, spinning silent, I'm screaming a place ever sacred my life what I make it decisions regrets mistakes, don't forget ask myself why pretend not to cry hold in the pain it runs through my veins poison my soul I feel no longer Whole sitting, spinning is this the end or beginning how many more times until I make up my mind what will be enough what will feel like too much shouldn't I be there already on my way to living steady how much will I hurt how many tears must I cry when will I stop having to ask myself why

* Merkaba Mechanics *
********************************************************************************************* Merkaba Mechanics ********************************************************************************************* (See: Merkaba) ********************************************************************************************* 1) Merkaba Spiral 2) Merkaba Field 3) Merkaba Vehicle 4) Trans-Harmonic Merkaba Vehicle (Space-Time Travel) 5) Merkaba Vehicle Phases ********************************************************************************************* The 15-dimensional personal Merkaba reflects the 15 dimensional Universal Merkaba of the Time Matrix. ********************************************************************************************* 1) The Merkaba Spiral: ********************************************************************************************* Two Counter-Rotating Merkaba Spiral Sets (electric/magnetic), when fully activated represents one Mer

Flaw "wait For Me"
"Wait For Me" - Flaw All these miles, haunting questions linger in my mind. And all the while, making bad decisions out of line. Still I've tried, to let go of the danger in my life. It's alright, when that's the only thing I've left behind. And there's still time... Wait for me. There's so much more of life for us to see. You must believe, it's not because of you I've had to leave. Wait for me. I only hope that you'll remember me. At this time, I'm counting all the reasons I should stay. Bottom line. I'm missing all the things I gave away. I remind, and see your face every single day. Still I'm blind. I wish that there was something I could say To make things right... Wait for me. There's so much more of life for us to see. You must believe, it's not because of you I've had to leave. Wait for me. I only hope that you'll remember me. Just hold on a little bit longer. Thoughts and memories will be enough My need for you is only growing st

Hate Me
I know its not a new song but demmit its new to me. I admit I've been crying like a baby on and off for the past few hours. Never ever has one song ever been written that has just pointed out my flaws to me and more than anything just encompassed a time period of my life. And the only thing stopping me from basically thinking this song is completely about the failure of my marriage is the fact that the woman he's talking about in this song has blue eyes and Taryn has brown eyes. Hate Me by Blue October I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I t

Tired Wandering Mind
Today, a day stetching hard to shiverus at 35C, instead sweated us out in the early morning. A day when the berg cfinishes celebrating their birthday, honoring the apple blossoms, kills the travelling carny show, and shoots off half the towns budget in fireworks. Why a town that long ago pulled out all the fruit orchards, sold the property to housing developers, and the business to Chili farmers, still celebrates the fruit it no longer has is at best puzzling. It is also one of those days when the irrigation pump decided to spring forth with the funeral poppy and the dogs hid from all the people trying to escape the town and the parade. A purchase of a new pump obtained a sleek black shiny new casing, but no plans on how to convert from one pump to the other. Isn't family politics wonderful? The parental units at 77 and 84 took in the parade and helped the police block streets, while I strugged in the pump house, covering myself with cobwebs and dirt. Only to find that t

Where The Hell Have I Been?
Sorry I haven't been around in 12 days. I was admitted to the hospital with an asthma Attack but I am home now and feling better. The days of hell have woken me up enough so that I won't be smoking any more. I need some support to get through this though. It will be a rough but hopefully healthy road.

An Alpha Male Response To The 'i'm Sorry' Chain Letter.
This piece of crap chain letter has been showing up in my inbox for years now and I’m sick of it. Here is the Alpha Male response to Mr Nice Guy: Body: I'm sorry That I was raised with respect; not to sleep with you when you were drunk Alpha Male: Come on, we both know she got drunk so she could f*ck me and not feel guilty about it. I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants ALPHA MALE: I'm not a body builder but I don't live on cheezits and McD's either, ya flabby ass. I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised ALPHA MALE: I do that too! Then I throw her on the bed, rip off her clothes... I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" ALPHA MALE: My self-confidence makes me sexier than wearing leather pants and stuffing the crotch. I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole ALPHA MALE: You're not an asshole, you are a damn doormat... I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account t

Ideas For New Cherry Gifts....please Pass On
OK WE GOT SPICY,LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP,VIC,PIMPIN,AND SEASONAL..HOW ABOUT FOR THE LIGHTER SIDE...HOW ABOUT BIBLES, CROSSES,PRAYER BLANKETS,..CHERYY TAP DOES HAVE ITS INSPIRATIONAL MOMENTS...WE DO PRAY FOR ABUSE, CHILDREN, DEATH, SICKNESS, ETC...WE NEED SOME THINGS FOR PRAYER FROM LEV... Love that idea of inspirational gifts...and flowers, like peace lilies, or Lily of the Valley, would be nice too. I'd also like to see something that can be given to firefighters, emt's, police/sheriff... We have the US flag, and yellow ribbons for our veterans and fighting men and women, but nothing to commemorate the others... just an all around "to honor you" ribbon, or something, if not one for each. (repost of original by 'bad girl (angel family)' on '2007-05-19 21:12:13')

Some Of The Feelings I Hide From Everyone.
Here is my feelings the ones that I hide from eeveryone. I feel as if everyone I love leaves me. I also feel that Death hates me,because he takes everyone I really love away. I have lost so many of the ones I care about and love that it's not funny.One thing that always stays the same is I'm always left when everyone eles is gone. I am truely alone in this world everyone says oh thats not true but It is, my family has turned their back on me all the way. I have no real offline friends that leave near me. The online people who say their my friend are only my friends untill I get to personal with them or untill they find out that I'm not going to get naked for them on cam and play for them, then the find someone else. Don't get me wrong I like to do that every once and awhile with those that I trust aren't going to post me playing with myself all over the net. But It's like F*ck you theres more to me then that. If thats all you want then go hit up a porn site or get in one of the yahoo

Putting It Behind Me.
Im 27.... my life has been a long hard road. Already you could write a book on my life and wot i have been through. There are loads of things in my past i am not proud of, but that i would not change because they have made me who i am. I have spent the last half of my life hiding who i really am and closing myself off from the rest of the world. I didnt want to take the chance of getting hurt. On occasion i have met a boy or two who has made me think of wantng to come out of myself, but its never happened. I have always been afraid to take that last step. Untill now. Dont ask me how, or when....but someoen has gotten past every defense i have and i never even seen it comming. lol i was blindsided. All of a sudden a love song makes me smile again. Im dreaming of spending my life next to someone and doing stupid things like laughing till i cry and watching the stars. lol maybe even chasing lightening bugs.... Yeah i know, so not me. Thats where were ALL wrong. Im opening up again slowly.

I Wonder
I wonder sometimes if its worth blogging or writing or even using this as a journal. I have had a thought on my mind about a week as long as I was on vacation. And I don't know if I understand it or don't believe in it. The thought is "It's better to have love and lost". Why would you want to lose someone you love or have feelings for. I know some people will wonder. But, thats just how its got to be. Why does it take someone so long to change, or realize what is in front of them. Life is tough enough, and I know I work to much. But, that is the simple fact that someone has to be responsible. And if others are not going to do it then I will. I just feel like I lose out on a lot of things in life. But, I was talking with a friend last night and was upset and I mean pissed off at him. Because I had to learn something second hand. And I have known this guy for 25 to 30 years. And after talking to him I realized we are similar in a lot of ways. It's not that I am about the

Haters!!!!
I had to set all my pics to "friends only" because of haters marking things NSFW that are not NSFW!! If things still get marked NSFW I will DRASTICALLY downsize my friends list! This is SUPPOSED to be an ADULT site, 18+ it's NOT like I'm posting nudes, I had a pic of me in a tank top marked, a JOKE pic that shows NOTHING marked and even a MUMM marked. If people are THAT immature as to mark those things NSFW then they should not be on Cherry Tap at work anyway they should be concentrating on GROWING UP and learning work Ethics, because they obviously lied about their age to get on here, and are about 15!!!!!!!

Hawaii
So This Paradise Born Again…is what the Christians call it…saved, reborn, redeemed…is what The New American Roget’s College Thesaurus says…revelation, epiphany…after a years of searching for love through sex…trying to perfect my skills…trying to compensate for the emptiness…trying to find comfort with women… whether it is a year, a month, a week, a day, or a moment…searching for purpose…I have used and I have been used…sex was how I showed love…sex was how I said I love you…it’s what they all wanted…I would stay away from women who liked the “beach muscle”…superficial…I needed the connection…I needed the empathic connection…anybody can just fuck…I had to make a connection that goes beyond the physical…a connection that made me special…something that made her stay…even if it was just for a while…Lord knows I am not gifted in the crotch area…have to make do with what I got…always learning…always trying to get better…reading books…watching porn…trying different things…I found out that

How Close Are We..survey
I hope everyone does this survey.. even if its bare essentials.. 1. Are we friends.. 2. Are we close.. 3. Fill in the blank: If I had it my way, Timmy and I would be _____________. 4. Do I have your phone number? 5. Do you have mine? 6. How long have we known each other? 7. Am I "boyfriend material"? 8. Are you attracted to me? 9. Of all the men in your life, how many more are closer to you? 10. Name me one thing you know about me that is unique. have a great sunday

How Rude Is That??????????????????????????
ANOTHER LOW RATER CHECK OUT BELOW SHE STOPPED BY AND WENT THROUGH ALL MY CONTEST PIX AND THATS WHAT SHE RATED ALL HOW RUDE IS THAT????????????????? moonstar@ CherryTAP · moonstar rated your photo a '5'! 7 min ago · NATIVE HUNNY... left you a new photo comment! 8 min ago · moonstar left you a new photo comment! 8 min ago · moonstar rated your photo a '10'! 8 min ago · NATIVE HUNNY... left you a new photo comment! 8 min ago · Rob rated your photo a '10'! 8 min ago · moonstar rated your photo a '7'! 8 min ago · NATIVE HUNNY... left you a new photo comment! 9 min ago · new friend request from 'steelpalace' received! 9 min ago · Rob just checked you out! 9 min ago · steelpalace rated you a '10'! 9 min ago · moonstar rated your photo a '7'! 9 min ago · moonstar rated your photo a '7'! 9 min ago · steelpalace rated your photo a '10'! 9 min ago · steelpalace rated your photo a '10'! 10 min ago · moonstar rated your photo a '8'! 1

Thanks For Helping!
I've leveled up, with the help of so many... You know what that means...I can add new pictures of the granddaughters. To refresh you...Eva and Lilly are my oldest son's children, and he lives in Australia. I haven't even seen Lilly yet...other than in these pictures... Keep your eyes open, they should be showing up before long. Thanks again...

To All My Ct Friends!!
SO ITS SATURDAY NIGHT! AS I AM ON MY WAY OUT THE DOOR TO GET MY GROOVE ON, I WANTED TO WISH YOU ALL A SEXII SATURDAY! HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU ALL SOON. ALL MY HUGS AND KISSES....MWAH!! ~SEXII CAPRIQUEEN~ PS REMEMBER VIA SIDEKICK MEANS I CAN'T RESPOND TO YOUR SHOUTS!

Block Me Pls
OK TO ALL THE FUCKING ASSHOLES THAT HAVE STARTED SHIT HERE FOR ME AND A FEW OTHER PPL THAT I KNO PLS DO ME A FAVOR AND FUCKING BANN ME FROM YOUR FUCKING PAGE AND DO IT NOW PLS I'M SICK AND FUCKING TIERD OF THE FUCKING SHIT PPL SAY THEY ARE STANDING UP FOR YOU BUT IN REALITY THEY ARE STABING YOU RIGHT IN THE FUCKING BACK WELL YHALL KNO WHAT FUCK ALL OF YOU FUCKING LOW LIFE PEICES OF FUCKING INTERNET SHIT AND YHALL KNO WHO IM TALKING ABOUT I HOPE YOU ALL DIE AND RIGHT IN FUCKING HELL YOU CALL YOUR SELFS FREINDS HAHAHAHAHA NOW THAT SHIT RIGHT THERE IS FUNNY IF YOU ASK ME BUT PLS DO ME THAT FUCKING FAVOR AND BLOCK ME CUZ I COOULD CARE LESS IF I EVER FUCKING TALK TO YOU FUCKING BITCHES/ASSHOLES GO TO FUCKING HELL AND HAVE A VERY NICE SLOW PAINFULL DEATH YOU FUCKING PEICES OF FUCKING SHIT the wicked one is out PEACE DJ WICKED

In Love
I am soooo in love with a wonderful woman!!!! I met her about a year ago on the internet and have been very good friends with her. We have basically been there for each other and it has been wonderful. My feelings for her grew over time to utter love for this woman. I've just recently declared my love and found out that she has the same feelings(if not more!!!) for me!!! Everytime i talk to Bonny, i smile. When i wake up in the morning, she is the first person that i think of. When i go to bed, she is with me right there every night in my heart. We talk to each other at least twice a day, if not more. Do you think that we are in love with each other?!

Come In Have Fun And Listen To Some Good 80's
COME ON IN TO THE NEWEST LOUNGE ON CHERRY TAP INTRODUCING LOWRIDERs 80's LOUNGE!!!!!!!! MEET GREAT/NEW PEOPLE, HAVE FUN, LISTEN TO MUSIC {PICK YOUR OWN}...... PLEASE:: COME IN AND JOIN THE FUN NO DRAMA, NO BULLSHIT, NO HATERS ALSO LOOKING FOR HELP SUCH AS BARTENDERS,BOUNCERS,GREETERS,DJ'S,MANAGERS APPLY WITH IN THANK YOU WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR??? CLICK ON THE BANNER BELOW AND JOIN THE FUN NOW OPEN 24 HR 7 DAY A WEEK BE THERE AND BRING YOUR FRIENDS

Gus Riding
YOU WILL LIVE ON Tall man in leather with animal grace Such depth in your eyes what a beautiful face You stole my heart when you gave me your soul I still hold it inside but I'm a fragile bowl How I miss your deep voice softly speaking my name Or calling me "Sugar" lighting my flame I so miss everything about our life The way that you asked me and made me your wife You made everything else, me happy most of all When we ate you cooked it You made the art on our wall You made our nest perfect you made me walk tall I miss the ways that you loved me How you loved to wear black Your tattooed shoulders Your tattooed back My face misses your hands My body does too My head on your chest Hand stroking that tattoo Your strong arms around me Holding me tight Kept me close to you All through each night Your voice in my ears Professing your love Making me laugh Dispelling my fear

My Love, My Life, My Past....
I wrote this Poem for Gus, less than a month after he died in my arms. Those were very dark days for me, I no longer cared to be alive. I wanted only to be with him wherever he was and I kept remembering how he had saved me and his Little Sister both on the same day from domestic homicide. We owe him our lives, but we couldn't save his. We still talk on the phone once in a while, she and I, but it's very hard for both of us as we are living reminders to each other of happier times when Gus was with us, holding us within his strong arms and surrounding us with his powerful love and protection. Erica called me the other day to share with me the happy news that she is going to have a baby girl in April. I knew I had to somehow for her sake hold back my tears this time until after we hung up. Somehow I did. But once again I was reminded of when Gus saved us, both she and I, and on the night that he did it, after I fell asleep safe at last, he told his little sister it had been the

Life After High School
Well as of Friday May 18th, 2007 at 7pm.....I became an High School Gradute of Hope High School better known as the Hell Hole, and yes thats the nickname of the school to. It was 159 students to graduate high school outta 168. It went by quicker than what we thought it would have. It was alot of cryin goin on and yes i cried a lil bit b/c i knew that was the last time i would see my friends. So we all said our farwells 2 each other and took alot of pics together. We all told wat our plans would be after that night....Well most of my friends r goin 2 the navy, army, us coast guards, air force and marines......The biggest of the friends i keep in contact with r goin upstate just like me.......Well me myself i got accepted 2 some good colleges and i got the acceptance letter i have been waitin for.....I will be a freshman at Missouri Western State University and i will be studyin Occupational Therapist. I got a scholarship to college 2.Well ill have my own place and now i have 2 step up a

Longing
This is for all you Harley riders waiting so impatiently for spring... LONGING As weeks go by she sits alone Cold and lonely without me Her smooth clean curves And her strong stark beauty Haunt my waking thoughts And call to me in dreams A constant longing a powerful force Unseen yet always there Patiently awaiting the time When finally I'll come to her Tenderly stroking those curves and say "The sky is clear and the snow has gone The time has come once more for us to be as one." Then straddling her saddle I let her engine roar And once again ride This beautiful Harley I adore. By A.L.Bois 01-24-07 copyright ©2007 by the author. All rights reserved by author.

Moving
I AM GOING TO BE MOVING SOON AND I WONT BE ON HERE FOR A FEW MONTHS I JUST HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO JUST CLICK AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS ITS GONNA BE HARD AND I AM REALLY UPSET ABOUT IT ALL BUT THE PLACE WE ARE MOVING TO IS BETTER AND BIGGER SO ALL IN ALL ITS GONNA BE GOOD BUT I WILL MISS THE TIME I HAVE ON HERE SO DONT FORGET ME I WILL BE BACK AS ARNOLD WOULD SAY LOL....TALK TO U LATER LOVE YA ALL.

Riding 2up
TANKS FOR THE RIDE "Wanna take a ride?" you say I thought you'd never ask I climb aboard and we're gone all day I wrap myself around you tight You bring me home under full moon light Anytime you want to play You know exactly what to say Look over your shoulder at me and grin You know I wanna take it all in I love it when you ride me fast I'll even chip in for some gas I'm hoping we'll be out all day Whenever you look at me and say "You wanna take a ride?" By Andrea L. Bois copyright ©2008 by the author. All rights reserved by author.

Teens Telling Chuck Norris Jokes And Have Never Seen Walker, Texas Ranger. Come On!
i came across this in an acticle and i was dumb founded, if these teens dont know why Chuck Norris is getting made fun of then how do they come up with jokes? You would have to have watched Walker texas ranger to know he will round house the fuck out of you! haha! Newho can some one explain this to me? and there are his top 20 jokes that he has looked at or some thing! Chuck Norris jokes? Really? --> begin content --> Submitted by pswider on Thu, 2006-02-02 20:44. Teens As you may have read in the Times, teenagers all across the country, many of whom have never even seen Walker, Texas Ranger, are telling Chuck Norris jokes. Why? We have no idea. But maybe you can help us figure it out, or at least share some good jokes. CHUCK NORRIS' FAVORITE 20 FACTS (BASED ON THOSE HE'S SEEN) When the Boogeyman goes to sleep every night, he checks his closet for Chuck Norris. Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down un

Hello, New Life!!
Before you read this, please read my previous blog entry Goodbye, Old Life to get some context. Well, I went down to the dealership, traded in my old automotive baby, and bought myself a new one. The whole occasion was a bit sad -- saying goodbye to my old car. And of course my ex-husband had to be there as well, to sign off on the trade-in, because his name was still on my car (as mine is on his). We sat there and chatted for 45 minutes as they did all of the paperwork (and of course there was a lot). We are friends, and we enjoy talking with one another, and we hadn't seen each other in a couple weeks so we were catching up on things. The lady doing the paperwork even said, "I don't mean to be nebby, but you two are divorced?" (Side note: "nebby" is a uniquely Pittsburgh term meaning "nosy.") When we nodded our assent, she said, "You two are the sweetest divorced couple I've ever seen." Hehe. So it really was a send-off to my old life, in a way. Goodbye to my car,

I'm Zleepy
lol yeah i'm tired, nothing new on monday i'll start 2 new classes.... mondays 8 classes, tuesdays 4 classes some review in .net and java yah it's way much better for me, i need it lol and my weekend is going good and super relaxing not a lot to do chatting, being at home, here doing my bouncer job in ct, enjoying music... yeah i have to do mention of my friend dj eternal, he was playing some goodies in his lounge for me :) hummmm yeah and like a good nerd i'm home on saturday night :) lol so nothing to complain about! lol laugh with the jokes i'm gonna paste here ♥ much love Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

I Have No Clue. . .
I have sent hundreds of emails to different women that I would like to talk to on this site. To date I have talked to exactly two. So besides the obvious, my looks, why won't anyone talk to me? (That came off more whinny than it was intended, sorry) I like to think I am a very kind, funny and articulate person. I am intelligent and can hold my own in any type of conversation. I like romantic comedies, holding hands, talking about feelings, puppies and kittens. I am also a man's man who enjoys sports and getting his hands dirty. I will listen to you when you are telling me about your bad day while rubbing your feet and your back, never expecting anything in return. I remember birthdays and anniversaries. I will bring you flowers or some other little thing just because. I love to cook and am good at it. So what is it? Women say they want these things in a potential significant other but when it comes down to it, they never date or talk to guys like me. Women end up with a jerk

Floaty's
I have a new idea! This one isn't AS crazy I swear! HeHe! Any who... So, I'm gonna buy a pool this summer because it's so fucking HOT already! Damn global warming! So, I'm gonna get a big floaty. And, I'm gonna get those little arm floaty thingymajigs so I wont drown when my dumb ass friends throw me off. LoL! I haven't work out all the technicals yet, but idea will work, I just know it!

Wheres The Punstange???
Hummm If u read the title then I guess u already know.Hum Maybe not so. R u illiterate???? I wonder what this looks like to you??? Jack daniels is my friend ummmmm tasty. Jack daniels and Monster family recipe :o

Ok Family Time To Pay Backwell
Well boy's and girl's time to pay the piper,this is what it means to be a bomb squad member.These people helped us out enormously in Bombfest and we return all that's done to us.So as alway's let's GIT-R-DONE. ~Sweet*Angel~ends the 21'st Chelle45365 of the Confederates(left her contest to bomb us) xxxdog2000 of the confederates ~TastyTease~no time limit to 20,000 Native Hunny-she helped us large

I Know I'm Not Normal!
I've been paralyzed since June 30, 2006. I am so ready to get better, DUH! It's just that I dont know if it is going to happen, because it has been so long. Granted I have gotton so much feeling and movment back, I'm just not sure. I'm just coming to reality I think. Trust me I have not lost hope that I will get better, you can't loose hope in my situation. Anything can happen. If I don't get better, well thats ok too! I'll just get one of them motorized chairs and soop it up! Start having races or something. That would be very funny. Don't know how leagal it is, but i've never really paid too much attention to the law anyways. What I have been day dreaming about lately is making my wheel chair into a flying machine. HeHe! i dont think it will be that hard. I just need a battery, a fan, and a blow dryer. I think! Maybe a parashuit, just in case. So I might be a little crazy. Maybe I should just stick to getting cup holders! LOL! Anywho...you all probably think I see

Insight Into Me
My score on The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test: 5 - the Observer(Thanks for taking the test !)you chose BZ - your Enneagram type is FIVE (aka "The Thinker"). "I need to understand the world" Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful. How to Get Along with Me Be independent, not clingy. Speak in a straightforward and brief manner. I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts. Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable. Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity. If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place. don't come on like a bulldozer. Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy. What I Like About Being a Five standi

Chapter Two
Well, I spoke to my husband and there is a place for me to go to when I get to Eugene. I have decided to go ahead and go, so that I can try to work thinks out with my husband. I feel that it's only fair, because he is doing what is needed on his end. I am now waiting for a call from my friend that is suppose to be picking me up to take me down there. If he doesn't take me then I have a ride down on Monday. So, I'm most likely going to be gone by Monday at the latest. I do want everyone to know that I'm not going to have my comp with me, so I'll get on as much as I can until I do get my comp with me. I'll have to go to the library, or to a friends house in order to get on. I'm really looking forward to getting back with my husband. I miss him very much, and have been wanting to get back to him for a while. Anyways, there is a party going on here tonight so I am going to go and have some fun with Baby Sis before I leave. Thanks for taking the time to sit and read m

I Am At War
Its bad... i mean its been bad before but i think this is really getting bad. My parents and I have been living together under this very very thin sheet of ice that if and when it breaks all hell is going to break loose. Well my friends the cracks are starting to really show. On friday my father flipped on me he's sooooo sick of me drinking and he thinks i lie about everything i do so no matter what i tell him when he's in this sort of mood he thinks i'm lying. I can't talk to him when he's like this. He threatened to make me give him money every week since i supposedly have so much money to drink beer all the time( 2 to 3 times a week isn't that much is it? )... anyway i started to pack my shit cause i was going to leave and well he woke up and saw me doing this.. Well i was in absolute tears and not really in my right frame of mind so i told him to go fuck himself.. then i said it again and well he flipped and hit me. Now there is such tension between us that we can't even be i

Loving Someone
Did you ever love someone so much that it hurt? It hurts even more when they don't understand why they you love them! I don't get it. I am thrilled when I know someone loves me. I may question it for a minute, but if I know it's real....I catch on real quick! What does it take to really make someone know how much you really care for them? I thought words and actions could be enough, but apparently I need more. Anyone care to help me with this one? Obviously I need it!

Chreating Men!
Now why is that guys feel the need to cheat? I do realize that woman do too, but alas I am a straight woman so that doesnt affect me so much! What I really hate is when every one tells you the guy is so great and that he would never cheat. Well my theory is that all men cheat and you just have to find the right guy that you can put up with it. I havnt found that man yet. In my case everyone feels sorry for him! That is sooooo bull shit! he cheated on ME! What about my feelings, huh? did any body ask how is Lindsay doing in all this? NO! Its like no body blaims him! Like I did something wrong, he is the one who was going on dates and shit behind my back, standing me up, ignoring me for a week. But, whatever. He cant say that i just used him for sex. Yes, I love sex and cant get enough but thats not all we did. I dont understand some people. If he wanted to break up with me he should have just done it and not pussy footed around. Im njust like anybody else, just because I am in a whee

Un-churched
My parents are visiting, and my mother asked me if there was a church nearby. Sugar: "Yeah, I think there's one on the way to the grocery store." Sugar Ma: *glares* I think I'll sleep in. Then mow the lawn. Then, if I'm feeling up to it, I'll go to this other ceremony. Wish me well. I hope there's a piece of paper in the envelope they give me, not a steaming slice of poo.

My Life Revisited
Well It has been two weeks now since my wife left me for this guy in OK. I am getting more depressed as time goes by. I been trying to think what I did or did'nt do that was so wrong that she would leave me after almost 17 yrs of marriage. I asked her the question but she has yet to tell me an answer. As I am waiting, I am trying to figure a reason to live, but I am coming up with no reasons.

44 Things A Girl Would Die For (a Repost Thing)
i wish some people would do this... ladies: this will make you tear up :) ¢¾ fellas: read it, all of it! :) 1-touch her waist 2-talk to her 3-share secrets 4-give her your jacket or t-shirt 5-kiss her slowly ARE YOU REMEMBERING THIS? 6-hug her 7-hold her 8-laugh with her 9-invite her somewhere 10-let her be with you when you're with your friends KEEP READING 11-smile with her 12-take pics with her 13-pull her onto your lap 14-when she says she loves you more, deny it. fight back 15-when her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved ARE YOU THINKING OF SOMEONE? 16-always hug her and say "i love you" when you see her 17-kiss her unexpectedly 18-HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST! 19-tell her shes beautiful! 20-tell her the way you feel about her! OH AND ONE LAST THING YOU NEED TO SHOW HER YOU MEAN IT 21-Open doors for her, walk her t

The Wall
There's an area on the border of the French Quarter and "The Bywater" known to the homeless as "The Wall". Anyone in New Orleans who has extra meals knows to bring them down to The Wall at 7 pm each evening to feed the homeless. I'm at The Wall usually on Thurs through Sunday nights serving the homeless and offering what ever advise I can give them (as well as handing out cigarettes as a hook to bring them to me). The Wall is usually a safe place for them to come and eat without being hassled by NOLA PD. What we are doing is illegal and we can be arrested for it. It doesn't matter that BB & Sam are NOLA PD they know they can be arrested too by supporting this feeding operation. So does Sam's Mom & Dad, Sisters and Nephews. But his entire family shows up night after night along with a few neighbors and some local preachers. They are an inspiration to me. Tonight was cute as a Priest was walking around with a squirt gun full of Holy Water squirting EVERYONE! Afterward Sam and I

Be Very Gentle.... Popping My Blog Cherry !
This is a very verrry wild place. Have patience while I pace my self learning the ropes of cherryTAP !!! I wanna have lots of fun this summer... peeps from Windsor,Chatham,London.... tap me. I want to have fun under the sun... maybe on your boat ???? Catch you later

Some Stuff
Do I grow old for you so fast? I realize now my time has passed a sparkle lost, forgotten in place concerned for me no more I am a thing of the past, a night which is not to remember words spoken now gone forever echoes of me, a shadow, a ripple pieces thrown, my heart crippled effect unknown, life as I am Sworn to be forgotten in the end ...J I am reaching for you in dreams finger tips touch soon release cannot have what you cannot hold always quiet, as Beauty unfolds wind blows through hair as from afar captures a moment pure at heart this image burned into my mind I long to drink your water fine giving life to me, still my mind hearts race towards the thought In your ocean of love, I bathe covered with drops of light outside I feel my hate start to slide My blackened heart begins to fade locked inside my body, this cage J

The Saint And Me
It's been quite sometime since I've been able to find time to write on this blog. But since I got laid off from work this week I've had time to dust off the old resume and keep myself busy during the day doing some additional volunteer work around town. One of my favorite things to do is to help Officers "BB St. Roman and Sam Scaffidi" Of the New Orleans police Department Homeless Assistance Unit. I've been working all week with them visiting clients and following up on a few success stories. The following is one such story; Last summer an elderly gentleman by the name of Chris lived at the Wedding Chapel with me. Then one day I woke up and Chris was gone! I asked all around the Quarter what happened to Chris? No one knew. Later that summer I ran into Chris up on North Rampart and discovered he was homeless and sleeping in an alley. I checked him into the Days Inn for a night to shower and wash his clothes. I then told him to meet each Friday at 5pm on a certain corner. Each week

Computer Magic - A New Poem
computer magic loneliness computer madness have to tear myself away from this false magic and rediscover the magic the creative magic within... so many lives in my soul to tap into reacquaint my self with who I was to rediscover who I am... this depression is eating my love my heart my true sensuality my true poetry... big black computerized hole of empty promises empty dreams empty souls empty magick empty hearts and empty me me myself and I am lonely... never never never more never again c. 5/19/07 t c redfearn long beach, ca

Females
why do females say they love a guy but when it comes down to it there just full of shit . for me i'm tired of hearing this shit.they need to really learn the diff of love for those who wanna know it's love is a hot injection in the middle section with no objections! to all those who are offened well fuck u

Lol Something I Thought Up Talkin To A Friend Tonight!
Just thought this was funny...made it up tonight what do ya'll think...should i do the next mastercard commercial?!?! LMAO 56.00 to a man = fun at the titty bar 56.00 to a married man = 28.00 - piece of stripper booty 28.00 - divorce AIDS - F*k'n priceless

Celestial Day
Adieu my friends and kinderd dear: For silent dust conceals me here: And when the mighty trump shall sound: To call the nations from the ground: I'll then reanimate my clay, and wing my way: To join the great celestial day.

Rhetorical... I Think.... I Hope... Yes I Am Sure, It's Rhetorical
Right now, at this very moment in time, how content are you with your life? Is it everything you wanted it to be? Is it somewhat like what you imagined it would be? Are you enjoying your studies, your work or whatever it is that you do? Do you wish you had done everything differently or somethings differently? Do you think at least some of your dreams and ambitions would come true before you die? Are you brave enough to let go of everything you have built up so far and make a life altering decision? Are you prepared for change? Is love and commitment overrated? How important is higher education? Is it impossible to live your life without a single degree? If you consider the feelings of everyone around you, would you ever be content? But if you don't consider them, who will catch you incase you fall? Is it wrong to run away from things once in a while and let a few shots of tequila take charge? Why is it so difficult to want to do well in life and al

To All My Friends
Those of you that know me know I've been a good friend with very good qualities. I'm honest, I'm loyal, I do my best to help my friends whenever they're in need. I may have been in trouble with the law on several occasions but that doesn't change the fact that I'm a good man with a good heart. I stand up for my friends and family and I stand up for what I believe in. There are people in my life who try to put me down and make false claims against me but those of you who know me know that I'm true to my word and my promise to you all is I promise to continue to be a true friend to the end no matter what anyone thinks of me. You can put down my name but you can never put down my heart, my spirit, or my faith in God. In the end the only judge I have to answer to is God and as long as I live a life that is true to his teachings I will have a place in heaven with Him. Your friend always, John Chapman

Insta Gig
Aurgh... I love music... I ever tell you that? I think maybe i did, but whatever... so i get a call last night from some guys i've known for years. They need a replacement bass player NOW. OK... so I get to the rendezvous point and follow them to this bar... OMFG make it stop... I haven't played in a place that rough in 15 years. I didn't know they still existed. I should be crying it was so bad, but no... I'm a trooper. I played. and as the evening wore on, the guys in the band got ... well, tipsy... So I played for about 45 minutes by myself. ALONE just me and my 12 string. and the place was COOL WITH THAT. when the band was playing they're trying to tear the walls down, and when I'm alone they sat and listened... or sang along...(HOLY CRAP!!!) they were actually THERE for 45 minutes... I need to get mack to doing this more often, and now i'm thinking maybe i could do a one man show if it came down to it... pretty fuckin' cool huh?

The Definition Of A Krystal
Krystal - profoundly disturbed, slightly neurotic and psychotic, likes to ponder upon the most mundane as well as the most extraordinary, creative, passionate about her work, carries the first prize for greatest amount of self esteem found in one person...ever..

This Downrater Needs To Be Fuckin Told What Her Place Is...
THIS IS THE PICTURE I DID ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS THAT ARE IN THE SAME FOLDER AND THIS CHICK DECIDED TO FUCKING BE A BITCH AND RATE A "1" HERES THE PIC BELOW DOES THAT LOOK LIKE A "1"? I FUCKING WENT OFF ON THIS BITCH FOR RATING MY WORK A "1" PEOPLE ARE SO DAMN RUDE AND HERES THE PROOF TO GO ALONG WITH... · Pixie-face rated your photo a '1'! THEN I SENT HER THE COMMENT STATING THAT SHE SHOULD GO BACK TO WHERE EVER THE FUCK IT IS SHE CAME FROM BE IT MYSPACE OR W/E BECAUSE DOWNRATERS ARE NOT WANTED NOR APPREICATED HERE... THEN HERE WAS THE CONVO THAT WAS HELD IN SB Pixie-face: No I rate how I see it. and you just fuckin suck. kthxdie ->Pixie-face: no you dont rate truthfully tyvfm im sorry ive got talent i can do that kind of shit and you cant dont hate Pixie-face: you're just pissed cause I rate truthfully ->Pixie-face: so take ya down ratin' ass back to myspace or where it is you came from k thanks Pixie-face: well aint that to fucking bad ->Pixie-face: yeah yeah um

Maybe He Would Love Me If I Had
her stomach her face her shoulders her boobs her butt her legs her back i wish i had all that cause he hates this but he'll see, i'll be perfect then he'll love me soo much and never leave me.

Return Of Stupid!
The Return Of Stupid Current mood: hungry Category: Automotive Ok. Here is the full list of stupid things customers have said to me and my co-workers. Now remember that I work for JC Whitney a car catalog company and that we sell car parts and such. And Thank you to all my co-workers who have helped me come up with this list. Withg out them I wouldn't have half the material I have on here. Enjoy. PHONE REP CUSTOMERS MY THOUGHTS -How many come in a pair? (Two I think?) -Do you want the whole credit card number? (No just the last four will be fine. Duh!!!) -I found you number on the website. Later- Do you have a website? -The rear glass aint a back window. Then what is it. -Are you free catalogs free? Nope thats just a ploy for us to steal your info to sell to other companys. -Do you sell car parts too? And trucks, and motorcycles and Jeeps. You would be suprised how many times I hear that a week. -Can I have you daytime number, area

Blonde Degrees
FIRST DEGREE A married couple were asleep when the phone rang at 2 in the morning. The wife (undoubtedly blond), picked up the phone, listened a moment and said "How should I know, that's 200> miles from here!" and hung up. The husband said, "Who was that?" The wife said, "I don't know, some woman wanting to know if the coast is clear." `´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´*:-.,_,-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´` SECOND DEGREE Two blonds are walking down the street. One notices a compact on the sidewalk and leans down to pick it up. She opens it, looks in the mirror and says, "Hmm, this person looks familiar." The second blond says, "Here, let me see!" So the first blond hands her the compact. The second one looks in the mirror and says, " You dummy, it's me!" `´*:-.,_,-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´*:-,_,-:*´`´*:-.,_,.-:*´`´* THIRD DEGREE A blond suspects her boyfriend of cheating on her, so she goes out and buys a gun. She goes to his apartment unexpectedly and when she

My Hair
Hair I was thinking about this. Next year when I get me hair cut and donated for Locks of Love and I have those other people doing it to, wouldn't it be cool to see if we can get a bunch of people to also donate money for every inch of hair we get cut off? Like say a buck for each inch we get or some thing like that. Its just and idea. I cant wait for the Relay this year. It should be pretty cool. We had a meeting last night and got a lot of things suggested and such. I am hoping for the trivia night. That would be awsome. So just a reminder that if you want to join me in donating your hair, let me know. The more the better. And if you do, you cant dye your hair after December this year. So drop me a line and let me know ok. Thanks

Your Body Becomes A Part Of Mine
you are inside me, your cock reaching that point so deep that i can hardly breathe for the sheer perfection of it. never has a key fit so sweetly into a lock. when i slide my hands down your back you groan, and when i squeeze your hips tight and pull you into me you get even harder, spreading me open a little wider, touching me a little deeper. you know i love this part. its my almost-favorite moment. you look down at me. you take my hands in yours and hold them tight. the bed underneath us is soft and the sunlight peeks around the corners of the shades. your body is hot, so amazingly hot inside me that i can imagine it warming me from the inside out. i feel it, in fact, as the warmth spreads into a tingle. that tingle spreads through my limbs and by the time you begin to move i am moaning in mindless pleasure. you watch every moment of it flicker across my face and for the first time in my life the thought of hiding, the thought of sharing too much, the thought of keeping a bit

May 19~weekend
Friday~went to the track n worked like always.well whn we started to Crystal just had to go n talk to Roy.well he said the wrong thing about something tht i prolly wasnt suppose to know. n i flip the fuck out on Roy.so me n Roy kinda got into friday nite.thn after the races me n Crystal went back to Joyces my aunt.thn Me,Crystal,Joyce,Mike,Fran,Perry,Sadie,Josh,Kalida all went out for breakfest.didnt get to bed until 3 am n was up at 8 am cuz of my aunt n unlce n grandpa making so much noise. Saturday~omg sunfest was a bad/good for me well got there had to paint faces for awhile thn after tht started doing saftey fund.well while we were doing tht me n Crystal were standing at the fance watching the race well i told Crystal we should just keep goin n watch at the same time n Crystal was like thts a good idea well Kathy Jeffers was standing there n she walked by n was like yea tht is a good idea n we werent even fucking talking about her.she just dont like me cuz i said she needed to

Open Heart
Light crawls across the ground,The sign of a new day I smile as I ready for the challenges that come my way Like a knight with new armor or so it would seem You have opened my eyes giving me reason to dream Filling the cracks,covering the holes in my soul Teaching and showing me things I thought I'd never know Fullfilling my life,bringing happiness where there was none My world is fresh and new,as if my life had just begun You are my smile,the beat of my heart,in my eyes you shine Heres wishing our hearts remain toghether till the end of time

Thanks To All My Friend And Family
I just want to give everybody a great big thank you for helping me leveling up Im almost there and you have all pitched in and been great friends. Anytime I can let me know and I will return the love....I only have 1,800 more to go so I think I will make it ..Again thank you all very much for all your help ....Muah to you all....

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It Went Just Awful Like
we told the kids about daddy. somewhere in my mind I had hoped they would almost just go.."ok" and turn back to whatever they were doing. not so. Both went into instant hysterics. I finally sent the boy off to a bath after a benadryl to try and calm him down a bit. He is now listening to some music and has calmed down. I expect he will crash out soon. Hubby took him for a drive. The girl cried and then got control, went for a walk, then went to a friends house for awhile to play. It was truly heart breaking. I had started the crock pot earlier to have a nice "comfort food" dinner, but at some point today a child changer the setting on the pot and now it will not be done until quite late. oh well, I am sure I will still eat it. I will still be up I can guarantee. Today I went to my dads house to just sort of start throwing out trash, I needed to do something. He saved all sorts of papers he never needed to. He had a bad habit of just "putting it in a drawer for now". I knew ther

Replacing Shakespeare With Malcolm X
by Dr. William Pierce Just when you thought that the people running this country already had inflicted every sick and degenerate program imaginable on us, they come up with yet another program wackier and more destructive than anything which has gone before. This time it's a program by the San Francisco Board of Education to step up the rate of "multiculturalizing" of the curriculum for San Francisco's public schools by phasing out most White influences. For a long time, of course, the more "progressive" elements -- that is, the nuttier elements -- in America's educational establishment have been fretting about exposing young people to all of the racist, sexist, homophobic, and elitist influences inherent in the writings of White authors from generations less Politically Correct than our own. These include all of the writers whose works American schoolchildren traditionally have read: Homer, Chaucer, Shakespeare, Milton, Dickens, Tennyson, and Kipling. They are hateful people whe

Paying The Organizatsiya
by Dr. William Pierce Illegal immigration is a huge and growing problem for this country. So is legal immigration, to the extent that the immigrants are nearly all members of minority groups these days. Immigration is changing the complexion and the character of America. We are becoming less European and more Middle Eastern, Asian, African, and mestizo. I have discussed what this non-White immigration is doing to our schools, our cities, and our tax burden. Let's look today at some of the other costs involved. Before the Second World War we had immigration laws which insured that most immigrants to the United States were Europeans. It was extremely difficult for Asians or Africans or other non-Whites to enter the country. Then in the rush of feel-good egalitarianism and yankee-doodle democracy which were promoted by the media after the war, the members of the liberal elite let themselves be persuaded by the media bosses that our immigration policies were "racist." What we needed

Nationalism Vs. The New World Order
by Dr. William Pierce An interesting thing happened recently. The government of India detonated five nuclear warheads in underground tests, and the establishment in the United States reacted with shock and dismay. This is good news for at least six reasons. I'll name them, one reason at a time. First, the nuclear tests were a complete surprise to the Clinton government. That's a wonderful proof of the fallibility of government. Too many people believe you can't fight the government because the government has the secret police working on its side, and the secret police know everything. Our Central Intelligence Agency spends $27 billion a year to be aware of what's happening around the world, including the building of facilities for making nuclear warheads and other weapons of mass destruction, and the CIA didn't have a clue! An even better scenario would be that the CIA knew but kept it a secret from the Clinton administration. But that is unlikely since the head spook himself

More On Reparations
by Dr. William Pierce A subject we've discussed often enough on these broadcasts for many of you to be tired of hearing about it is the continuing -- make that the escalating -- Jewish effort to extort reparations from the rest of the world for claimed injuries done to Jews of past generations by Gentiles of past generations. I would drop the subject, except that every week Jewish leaders make new demands which surpass all previous bounds for greed and arrogance. You wouldn't believe the arrogance and pushiness of these Jews when they smell gold -- except that it's all documented, all in your daily newspaper for you to read. Therefore, this Great Jewish Gold-Hunt makes a wonderful educational tool for helping others to understand the nature of the Jews, and I cannot resist using it. You remember, this current gold-hunt began early last year, when Jewish leaders came up with the idea of expanding their claim for reparations from the 1930s and 1940s to include countri

Media Myths
by Dr. William Pierce The subject I've discussed most often is the dominant Jewish influence in the mass media of news and entertainment. I've spoken most often about this because it is the most important problem with which we must deal. It's also a subject on which I receive a lot of flak. One of the most common forms of flak is the objection that it doesn't matter. Sure, the Jews control the media, but it doesn't make any difference, critics tell me. They're just good businessmen, and they know how to run the media profitably. That's why they've gained control, and it's no worse than it would be if a bunch of Irishmen or Mormons were in their place. I think that many of the people who tell me this don't actually believe it themselves. They just want to be Politically Correct, and it's Politically Correct to absolve the Jews of blame for anything. Even many of the people who are distressed about what Jewish media control is doing to our society don't want to identify that contro

Lew, Bill, Tupac, And Mitchell
by Dr. William Pierce I was surprised to receive a number of letters from irate citizens who were angry and frightened about what Bill Clinton said in a speech to graduating seniors at Portland State University in Oregon on June 13. The Fastest Zipper in the West told his audience -- and that included television viewers all over America -- that we must not do anything to slow the flow of immigrants from the Third World into the United States. He denounced as "wrongheaded" those White Americans who fear that "the America they know and love is becoming a foreign land." That is a wrongheaded view of Third World immigration, Clinton said. Instead we must welcome more "diversity." More "diversity" will be good for us, he said. Anyway, he gloated, there's nothing you can do to stop it. The White majority in America will become a minority within the next 50 years, so get used to it, you wrongheaded bigots. The White America you knew and loved will become non-White. And to try to oppose thi

Judicial Insanity And Schoolyard Massacres
by Dr. William Pierce Clinton's sexual escapades, his lying about them, and his attempts to get witnesses to lie, show us what sort of person he is. These things help us to understand what a degenerate piece of White trash we have in the White House. But they are not the really important things about the Clinton administration. They are more like a sideshow, more like comic relief from the real damage Clinton and his controllers are doing to us and to our country. Consider, for example, Mr. Clinton's appointments to the Federal courts. He has done more than any other President in history to increase the number of Jews in the Federal judiciary. His most notable moves in that direction have been his appointments of two Jews to the nine-justice Supreme Court, but nearly all of his judicial appointments have been aimed at increasing so-called "diversity" in the courts. In most cases when his appointees haven't been Jews they've been Blacks or other non-Whites. The rule seems to be, a

Agreement.
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My Trip Continues
Hello my blog readers. Greetings from Tucson, AZ. Drove almost 900 miles Saturday. I left San Marcos, Texas before the sun came up to San Antonio and then got on I-10 West toward El Paso. The skies were cloudy with temps in the low 60's. By the time I got to El Paso, the sun was out and temps were i the 80's. Drove across the lower part of New Mexico into Arizona. Hot and dry. Temp in Tucson was 92 when I arrived. I will make my California destination late Sunday. Time to post more pics of my trip.

Jews And The White Slave Trade
by Dr. William Pierce Steven Spielberg's pseudo-historical film about a 19th-century mutiny and massacre aboard a Spanish slave ship, Amistad, and the subsequent trial of the Black mutineers is being praised by the reviewers. Spielberg, one of the wealthiest and most successful of Hollywood's Jewish film makers, is also being praised by his kinsmen in various so-called "human rights" organizations for using his propaganda skills to sensitize White, Gentile audiences to the horrors of slavery and make them feel just a little more guilty for treating non-Whites so badly in the past. What the film doesn't mention, of course, is that Spielberg's Jewish kinsmen owned many, though not all, of the ships involved in the 18th- and 19th-century Atlantic trade in Black slaves and, in fact, played a very prominent role in bringing Black slaves to America. The film tends to steer one away from blaming anyone for slavery except White Gentiles. This bit of misdirection is interesting in light o

Flirting
at first SEALED WITH A KISS WAS OUR BOND FROM THE START PERFECT UNION OF MIND BODY SOUL AND HEART CAN I BE THE ONE TO MAKE HER COMPLETE OR A PAIN FROM THE PAST THATS DESTINED TO REPEAT DO I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO PUT THE WIGGLE IN HER WALK CAN I LEAVE HER SPEECHLESS AS SHE TRIES TO TALK WILL I BE FLOWERS AND CANDY SENSUAL AND SWEET OR ANOTHER SHE LABLED AS A LOWLIFE DEADBEAT WILL IT BE A WIDE SMILE SPREAD ACROSS HER FACE OR A WISH FOR ME TO VANISH WITHOUT A TRACE ONE NEVER KNOWS HOW AFFAIRS OF THE HEART GO SET ASIDE YOUR PROLEMS LET YOUR TRUE FEELINGS SHOW I'LL TELL HER SHES THE STARS, MOON AND THE SUN THAT SHE CAN'T BE REPLACED AS MY NUMBER ONE I'LL COMMENT ON HER DRESS AND THE CUT OF HER HAIR HOLD HER HAND, KISS HER NECK JUST SO SHE KNOWS IM THERE

Jewish Policy Against Iraq
by Dr. William Pierce It used to be that before we would wage war against another country, we had to believe that we had some moral justification for doing so. And it used to be that the only moral justification which we considered sufficient was self-defense. No matter how much we disliked another country or its policies, we would not attack them with our armed forces -- we would not wage war against them -- unless they attacked us or one of our allies first. We used to put a lot of stock in never being an aggressor, but acting only in self-defense. We had to wait until we were hit before we would hit back. Even the Second World War, in which all of the media Jews -- and therefore their boy Franklin Roosevelt -- wanted the participation of the United States in the worst way, had to wait until our government could maneuver Japan into attacking us at Pearl Harbor. Roosevelt and his Jews had been trying for more than a year before Pearl Harbor to provoke Germany into doing somet

Improving Our Souls
by Dr. William Pierce Perhaps you won't mind if today I just share a few thoughts with you about where our people are now and where we're headed, instead of doing my usual news analysis. One of the things I've complained about often is that when so many terribly destructive things are happening to us, most of our people are simply remaining as spectators, refusing to lift a hand against the enemies who certainly will destroy us if we permit them. We have Bill Clinton in the White House, the clearest proof there could be that the present political system in America, the system by which we choose our legislators and our governmental executives has gone completely haywire. We simply cannot have people like Bill Clinton as President, and the gang of criminals in the Congress making our laws, and expect America to survive. Hundreds of thousands of responsible men and women should rise up in righteous wrath against Washington and its system. But they don't. Or conside

Tears
Have you ever heard a lonely heart screaming into the night? Have you seen the tears,that are never shed? Does a broken heart heal? Can the lonely ever be loved? I'm tired of always being a stand in. For someone who's not their. Just once I want to come frist. Why are the ones left behind? The frist to cry. Why am I always the one, watching people walk away? Dream weaver, please weave a dream for me. Make this feeling of lonelyness disappear. Let me feel whole. Even if it's only in my dreams. Why do I always feel like I can just disappear. And no one would notice? Am I so invisable? I envy those people who belong. Who know how to have fun. Who actually have freinds. I take on so much. So that I fall exhuasted into bed and sleep. That way I don't see how lacking my life is. Poems of fantasy. Words written on paper. Dreams that will never come true. Life a game. That I am destined to lose. I feel like someone standing outside the party. Looking in. Because no one thought to ask me. They

"hate Crimes" And The New World Order
by Dr. William Pierce There have been a few items in the news during the past few days which have caught my attention, and I want to share my thoughts on these things with you. One of these items was the reaction to the robbing and killing of a homosexual man in Laramie, Wyoming, earlier this month. I'm sure you've heard about that a number of times by now: the controlled media really have been raising a fuss about it everywhere. Mr. Clinton, of course, commented solemnly to the nation on it and held it up as another reason for enacting the Federal "hate crime" law that the Anti-Defamation League of B'nai B'rith and other Jewish groups have been clamoring for. Just to refresh your memory, on October 6 a 21-year-old homosexual, Matthew Shepard, went into a bar in Laramie, picked up two other young men he thought were homosexuals but who were not, and left with them. Shepard's intention was to have sex with his two new-found acquaintances; their intention was to rob him. And tha

Fashion For Genocide
by Dr. William Pierce A month ago I told you about the murder of two White girls, Tracy Lambert and Susan Moore, in Fayetteville, North Carolina, as part of the initiation of new members into the Black and Hispanic Crips gang. I'm still receiving comments about that program. Apparently many listeners -- especially those with Internet access -- checked out the facts as reported in the Fayetteville newspaper, and they were shocked that, just as I said, there was no media coverage of these terrible murders outside the Fayetteville area. They were shocked that virtually all of the mainstream media around the country would deliberately hide the news of these racially motivated murders from the White public -- and these were the same media which had made such a sensation about the killing of a convicted Black drug dealer and his girlfriend in Fayetteville by a White soldier, James Burmeister, in December 1995. But really, no one who has been listening to my broadcasts should have been

Democracy
by Dr. William Pierce Let's talk about democracy: about democracy as a system of government and its implications for our future. Democracy is a system where a country's legislators and its top executives are chosen by a direct vote of the citizenry, more or less; I'm not concerned at the moment with such details as the electoral college. The basic fact is that nearly every citizen over 18 years of age has an equal vote, and the politician with the most votes is elected to office. We also have a Constitution, of course, and the Constitution is supposed to constrain to a certain extent what these politicians can do after they're elected. Sometimes it does, and sometimes it doesn't. We also have a system of Federal courts which are supposed to make sure that the politicians don't deviate too far from the Constitution. But the judges on these courts are appointed by the politicians they're supposed to keep an eye on. Very roughly that's the system we've had for the last 210 years

Just Need 4,700 Pts To Level Up Need Your Help
Hey everyone that get a chance I need some help leveling up please Im almost there just need 4, 700 more pts to make it to level 11 so I would appreciate all the help you can give me and I will return the favor whenever you need it thank you all so much for all your help

David Geffen, Steven Spielberg, And Bill Clinton
by Dr. William Pierce I referred to Steven Spielberg's new film, Saving Private Ryan, in the August issue of Free Speech. We talked about the way in which that film -- and every other film about the Second World war which has come out of Hollywood -- have perpetuated the myth -- the deliberate lie -- that the Second World War was a necessary war and a good war. I mentioned that the Jews have elaborated on this basic lie with their postwar lies about lampshades and soap supposedly manufactured from the corpses of millions of gassed Jews: poor, innocent, inoffensive, sensitive, blameless, high-minded, talented, violin-playing Jews murdered by the brutal, vicious, sadistic, Neanderthal Germans. That's the standard Hollywood lie perpetuated by Jews like Steven Spielberg. And the Jews use this lie to extort billions and billions and billions of dollars from the rest of the world. Switzerland is their current target, but believe me, they intend to suck the last drop of blood from all the

Cowardice And Individualism
by Dr. William Pierce In various Free Speech articles I've spoken about our problems with Blacks, with Asian immigrants, with mestizos, and of course, with Jews -- especially about our problems with Jews, in deference to their demand always to be at the head of the line. Now, I'd like to talk about our problems with ourselves, with European-Americans: about what's wrong with White people. Actually, this is such a huge subject that I can deal with only a tiny part of it. In the organization which I head, the National Alliance, I've been talking with members about two aspects of the White problem: White cowardice and White selfishness. Here are some of our thoughts. If most White people weren't such terrible cowards, we wouldn't have problems with Blacks, mestizos, Jews, or anyone else today. We would have solved all of those problems long ago. There are plenty of people who agree with us about the type of society we want, the type of future we want for our people. There are man

The Corruption Of America's Police
by Dr. William Pierce Two weeks ago I began telling you about the corruption of American police officials by the Anti-Defamation League of B'nai B'rith: the ADL. Because this is such an important matter, such an urgent matter, I promised I'd tell you more about it. It is a shocking thing, and I needed time to present the details to you -- details which you can check for yourselves, so that you will have no doubt that I am telling you the truth. It's easy to doubt this truth. It's easy to believe that the ADL is the so-called "human rights" organization that the mass media say it is. It's especially easy to believe this when you see ADL officials palling around with prominent politicians and policemen, when you see police chiefs and U.S. senators receiving awards at ADL banquets. I'm telling you that the ADL is an anti-American gang of racketeers who break our laws with impunity because they have succeeded in corrupting our politicians and many of our law-enforcement people as wel

Anger-rage-lonliness
god i hate you I HATE YOU I HATE THE WAY YOU LOOK THE WAY YOU TALK THE WAY YOU SMELL THE SMILE THE CHARM THE VOICE THE AIR YOU BREATH I HATE YOU I HATE YOU WHEN YOU WAKE UP WHEN YOU GO TO SLEEP MOST OF ALL I HATE WHEN YOU LOOK IN THE MIRROR THE FACE OF LIES DECEIT BETRAYAL I HATE YOU FOR LOVING ME FOR KISSING ME FOR HUGGIN ME ALL JUST AN ACT A MEANS TO AN END I HATE YOU FOR EVERYTHING FOR THE RING FOR THE PROMISE FOR THE ENGAGEMENT FOR THE HOPE THAT ALL WOULD BE FINE I HATE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART TO THE TOP OF MY EMPTY HEAD IT USED TO BE FULL OF YOU BUT YOU WERE JUST FULL OF SHIT I HATE YOU EVERY INCH OF ME FOR SACRIFICING FRIENDS FOR YOUR SO CALLED LOVE I HATE YOU BECAUSE MY MOTHER LOVES YOU BUT NOT FOR THE BITCH YOU ARE I HATE YOU BECAUSE EVERYONE SEEMS TO LOVE YOU I HATE YOU BECAUSE WHY SHOULDNT I.

My Son
My Son A mother asked President GW Bush, "Why did my son have to die in Iraq?" A mother asked President Clinton, "Why did my son have to die in Saudi Arabia ?" A mother asked President GHW Bush, "Why did my son have to die in Kuwait ?" Another mother asked President Johnson, "Why did my son have to die in Vietnam ?" Another mother asked President Truman, "Why did my son have to die in Korea ? Another mother asked President FD Roosevelt, "Why did my son have to die on Iwo Jima ?" Another mother asked President W. Wilson, "Why did my son have to die on a battlefield on a field in France ?" Yet another mother asked President Lincoln, "Why did my son have to die at Gettysburg ?" And yet another mother asked President Washington, "Why did my son have to die on a frozen field near Valley Forge ?" Then long, long ago, a mother asked..."Heavenly Father, why did my Son have to die on a cross outside of Jerusalem ?" The answer is the same -

Clinton's War
by Dr. William Pierce Today let's talk about Bill Clinton's new role as war hero and commander in chief. You know, when I told you a little over two weeks before Clinton launched his new war against Iraq that war was imminent -- that I was sure he had made a deal with the Jews to use any pretext at all for starting a war, in return for Jewish lawyer Sam Dash's effort to sabotage Ken Starr and derail the impeachment process -- I couldn't imagine that Clinton would choose such disastrous timing for his attack. I knew the man had catastrophically poor judgment -- I mean, he's the jerk who when he was governor of Arkansas used to send out Arkansas state troopers to scout up women and bring them to his hotel room, who used to let his brother Roger deal cocaine out of the office next to his in the governor's mansion in Little Rock, and who after he became President used to unzip for action right in the Oval Office -- but even I am surprised by the recklessness and foolishness of his timin

It's About Time, Is It Yours?
Well it has been months since my last blog of thought. I have been working on my book in the last few months... Yes, you are reading correctly. I am an author. I am coming to an end with my book, though have come to a halt due to creative troubles. I am in need of new blood, new characters to capture the readers' eyes. There are those few of you who I have felt would bring something new of desire to my writings though I am curious to find who wishes to have their fictional fantasies read and described beauties imagined. James McFiery

Clinton's Legacy
by Dr. William Pierce Bill Clinton is a psychologically defective person. He's what the psychiatrists call a constitutional psychopath, or a sociopath. He is not only amoral, but he also lacks the judgment and self-control necessary to conform his behavior to reasonable norms. Amorality, lack of any inherent morality, is not an uncommon condition among lawyers and politicians, of course, but most of them manage to curb their greed and their lust enough to conform to accepted standards of behavior. A person who wants to get ahead in politics should be a person who looks ahead and tries to understand the long-range consequences of current decisions and policies. Bill Clinton has never had that faculty. For him it's always been doing what he wants to do at the moment and figuring that later he'll be able to lie himself out of any problems which arise. He behaves as if he's been lobotomized or as if he has a substantial non-White component in his genetic makeup. He displays the type of

Update On Family-1
Lets see well both my Mom and Dad are now in a nursing home to recoup..My Mom now has her leg in a cast,if that dont help she will need surgery on it..I call them daily, good thing for cell phones LOL,cant afford to go over there as much as I would like due to gas prices as there almost 2 hrs from me. For those of you that dont know whats going on ,reab my last few blogs...... Luv ya's Hugssssssssssssss Julie

Check Your Blankets And Candles
by Dr. William Pierce I was hoping that I'd have enough new information on the Middle East situation before this broadcast to make a forecast, but I don't. I do see the displeasure of the Jewish policymakers in the Clinton government with the agreement between Iraq and the UN which has temporarily stymied their war plans. It's clear that Madeleine Albright, for example, hates the new agreement and would much prefer to be bombing Iraqis now instead of later. And I see that the Republican politicians, in an effort to please the Jewish media bosses and money men, are rattling their sabers even louder than the Democrats. Mississippi's Republican Senator Trent Lott is a good example of that. He's a man with Presidential ambitions, and I'm sure that he's not issuing his calls to ignore the UN agreement and launch an all-out war against Iraq without having consulted with his Jewish advisers and financial backers first. So my guess is that the war against Iraq has been delayed f

Which One Are You??
AQUARIUS - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Seven Years of bad luck if you do not repost. LIBRA - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun, & sweet. Five years of bad luck if you do not repost. SAGITTARIUS -The Slut Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. Seven years of bad luck if you do not

More Bad Luck
I'm sorry i havent been in contact lately but ive not been feeling well at all and Friday was not a good day either Ive just had some more blood tests the results came in on Friday my doc rings me up and says i need to see you asap as your thyroid is showing to be very wonky her words not mine I have an appointment on Monday. The last time I got a call like this i had canser as you can guess i am scared to death and not very happy. I wish all of you the best of health and i will let you all know the results as soon as i have them. Please keep your fingers crossed for me

Building Understanding
by Dr. William Pierce We recently took a survey of just under a thousand regular listeners to American Dissident Voices who also subscribe to the texts of the broadcasts by e-mail. We wanted to know what listeners especially like or dislike about these broadcasts. We wanted ideas which will help us do a better job of reaching and moving as many people as possible. We were gratified by the many compliments and expressions of appreciation we received from listeners. It's nice to know that our efforts are being well received by so many thoughtful people. We also appreciated the criticisms and suggestions for improvement made by listeners. The most frequent criticism we had was that I talk too much about Bill Clinton. One listener told me that everyone already knows that all politicians are lower than scum, and it doesn't do a bit of good to prove that to them over and over again by using Bill Clinton as an example. Another listener said it makes him depressed and sick to his stomach

Why "geeks & Nerds" Are Worth It :-)
In the wide world of dating, there are many options. Do you go for the flashy guy with the smooth smile, or the dude in the corner typing away on his laptop? The following are reasons why I think my fellow females should pay more attention to the quiet geeks and nerds, and less attention to the flashy boys. 1.) While geeks and nerds may be awkward, they’re well-meaning 9 out of 10 times. That smooth dude with the sly grin and the spider hands? Wonder what HIS intentions are... plus, I’ve never had a geek guy not call me when he said he would. Score major points THERE. 2.) They’re useful. In this tech-savvy world, it’s great to have a b/f who can make your laptop, desktop, and just about anything else that plugs into a wall behave itself. 3.) They’re more romantic than they’re given credit for. Ok true, their idea of romance might be to make up a spiffy web-page with all the reasons why they love you, with links to pics of you and sonnets and such... but hey. It lasts longer

Death And Loss And Choices
Death is a rough subject for me lately and i figure its about time i talk about it. I am in the military and I know the importance of life. i always though going to war would be the death of me and that I would be the first of my generation in my family (between me and my cousins) to die. Well on the 29th of April God proved me wrong. I find it very hard to admit when shit goes wrong, and this time is no exception. My cousin Kenton died in a car crash on the 29th of April. He had moved down to Seattle 8 days prior to his accident. I found out he had moved to the area, and I got ahold of his cell number and gave him a call. My parents were supposed to come to see me in a couple weeks so i kind of worked a little family get together with him and mom and dad. this was on a Wednesday. I was talking more and more with him and he was updating me on his life and how he had cleaned up everything and finally gotten off his parole. I was so proud of him and still am for taking the responsibilit

Bill, Monica, And Saddam
by Dr. William Pierce As we all watch the U.S. government deliberately move closer day by day to the war I predicted a year ago -- when Clinton appointed his all-Jewish foreign policy, national security, and defense team -- the question must come to many minds: Why do the American people permit this? Why do they vote for a government which clearly doesn't care at all about American interests? Why do they tolerate a government which plunges them into unnecessary wars? Well, of course, we already know part of the answer. An electorate which will put a creature like Bill Clinton into the White House twice clearly doesn't care much about American interests. All most of them care about is the size of their welfare checks. But there's more to the war mania in Washington than an irresponsible lumpen electorate. There is the conviction on the part of those pushing for war against Iraq that they can get away with it, that no one will call them to account for it, because the controlled med

I Never Got To Say Goodbye
I was doing something simple, taking out my trash and i noticed something very odd. No noise, nor light comming from my neighbor's apartment. Well my neighbor down the way. Then i saw the lights completely off and the windows all closed off and only the living room blinds half open. The place completely empty. Talk about shock. He was here two days ago! And today he is gone! I was beside myself because a good friend of mine was gone. It was just something else. I didn't know what to think. Why didn't my friend have the generosity to say goodbye to me? I mean i know within less than two months he had met an army girl and picked up things with her. I knew he was going to move with her, and when his daughter said "This is my new sister." when introducing his girlfriend's daughter to me, i was taken aback because i've never seen him move so quickly with anyone. I guess it hurts because my friend never said goodbye. Just picked up and left. I never thought it would hurt becuase i guess mayb

Bill And Monica
by Dr. William Pierce What would I do without Bill Clinton in the White House to provide me with a non-stop source of material? Unfortunately, this latest escapade of his, involving not just another bimbo romp but also perjury, suborning of perjury, obstruction of justice, and a number of other felonies, may put my source behind bars for the next few years. When the Lewinsky story first broke and I saw the grim expressions on the faces of the newscasters, I thought, hey, they're worried that their boy is really in trouble this time. Bill Clinton has had the media covering for him so many times, and has gotten away with so many crimes, that he has fallen into the error of thinking he can get away with anything. I've talked with a number of people about the significance of Clinton's latest problem, and the opinions fall into two categories. First, there are those who don't want to see him go because they figure there's no one else who could do a better job of discrediting the wh

Aesop's Fables And The Rules Of Engagement
by Dr. William Pierce Last week I gave an interview to a news reporter from a television station in Charlotte, North Carolina. That's station WSOC, channel nine, Michael Eisner's ABC affiliate in Charlotte. The reporter and his cameraman drove up to my broadcast studio in West Virginia. My organization, the National Alliance, has been doing some recruiting in Charlotte, and someone had given a copy of one of our recruiting leaflets to the reporter at a Charlotte gun show. The reporter apparently had checked with his superiors at his television station and been told that the National Alliance is a "hate group," so he had come up to check us out and interview me. The reporter was an enthusiastic young man of apparently normal intelligence, although clearly a bit trendy, as virtually all media people are. While we were talking off-camera, he told me that he is a recent graduate of Auburn University in Alabama. During the interview we toured our book department, where we stock the bo

Top 13 I Dont's
hate unless you make me. let little shit get to me like liars like thieves like fake friends(#1 reason 4 hate) see a persons skin color i see a person think weed should b illegal smoke weed,(trucker) like the new drugs that are killing our people(meth,crack,crank,ect.)the people are stupid but they dont deserve to die 4 being stupid.maybe a near death exp. would b enough! like arrogance little titties assholes

Little Green Marstian
One day a little boy was getting ready for school when he got his thingy stuck in his zipper. He ran downstairs to his mother. "Mommy mommy I got my thingy stuck in my zipper and I cant get it out!" His mother tried to free him but couldn't so she painted it green and told him it can be his little green marstian. So the little boy when to school. When the kids were at recess a little girl came up to him and asked him what it was. "Its my little green martian." "Can I play with it?" said the little girl Awhile later the bell rang and it was time to go in and when he looked down he noticed his green martian was gone. He went to find the little girl. "Where is my green martian?" he asked "Well it spit on me so i bit it off"

The Genocide At Vinnitsa
by Dr. William Pierce In the May issue of Free Speech, I discussed he mass murder of the leadership stratum of the Polish nation by the Soviet secret police in the Katyn Forest in April 1940. We discussed that genocidal atrocity in the light of the ongoing Jewish campaign to portray Jews as the principal victims of the Second World War. A good deal of interest in that article was expressed by readers, many of whom had not been acquainted previously with the facts of the Katyn atrocity. I will now explore this general subject further. Here is some information about the fate of the Ukrainian nation at the hands of the Soviet secret police. In 1943 Germany was at war against the Soviet Union. Twenty-five years earlier, at the end of the First World War, when communist revolutionaries were attempting to take over Germany, Adolf Hitler had sworn to devote his life to fighting communism. He was only a corporal at the time, recuperating from his war wounds in a military hospital, but 15

What We Owe Sam Dash
by Dr. William Pierce Something very interesting happened on Friday of last week. Samuel Dash, a high-profile Jew lawyer that Special Prosecutor Ken Starr has employed for the past four years as a high-priced consultant during his investigation of Clinton's illegal behavior, suddenly torpedoed his employer in a sneak attack that severely damaged the effort to impeach Clinton and remove him from office. Let's look at the details. Samuel Dash gained his high profile 25 years ago, when he was the chief counsel of the Senate committee investigating the Watergate scandal. He had close ties to people at the Washington Post, and it has been widely assumed that he orchestrated the torrent of leaks from his investigating staff to the media. It was these leaks to the media day after day, for month after month, virtually all of them damaging to Nixon and his allies, which unraveled the Nixon presidency. In any case, Dash played a key role in the process which eventually forced Nixon to resi

Dying Dream
I don’t know what to do anymore I’m so tired and lonely, scared, and bored I’ve been waiting so long for someone to adore I give up I don’t even care anymore Maybe I don’t belong in this world Can anyone understand, my mind swirls, My emotions could rage to the extreme and then die again all in a single moment It seems theirs nothing left to dream. Nothing left to reach, Why should I strive to achieve a dying dream, One that’s understood by only me no one to share it with, It is back down to me, alone with myself no where to flee happiness eludes me My strength, My will bleeds out. Surrounded in loneliness and debt. The mind, the heart, clouded in confusion and doubt. I long for a false reality another dimension any way to get out. I just want to feel nothing right now. Instead I’m stabbed in the chest by my own guilt and regret, So many things, so many things I’ll never forget Why can’t all these things get out of my head. They won’t stop the feelings

Get Your Butt In Here
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Poem: Erotique 3
PLEASE DO NOT COPY WITHOUT PERMISSION. MATERIAL IS COPYRIGHTED. THANK YOU. Erotique 3 The warmth from the fireplace Cool compared to heat from you As seen from the flush on your face As your beauty is exposed to view The twinkling of the stars this night Fade next to the sparkle of your eyes That come as I take infinite delight In the form that my eyes apprise The sweet curves cause desire Passion flares and then burns Need becomes a growing fire Which in my heart adjourns Reaching out with soft caress To show the feelings of my soul As each gentle curve I assess Seeking to learn of the whole Finding places sweetly hidden Tongue darting, tasting in delight To those secret places bidden Hot passions in you to ignite Never wanting this to end Forever wishing this to last Wanting time to suspend There be no future or past Finding in that special flower Hidden in its petal's folds The sweetest of any nectar As slowly it opens, unfolds Yet nature demands

My New Hot Slide Show
Come and see my new hot slide, with nice and sexy pictures of Moi! check it out.. it's under the Dunno section of my stash! now... don't drool all over your keyboard LOL ... well, perhaps, I will allow you to drool and then make you lick it!! Spanks M

My Twisted Life
Can't you see, The pain in my eyes, For every scar, And every cry. Don't ask me, What you can do, Because now I'm broken, It's because of you. Dare to kiss me, One last time, Choke me sweetly, And say your line. Maybe we, Weren't the best, Couple in the world, But we, always beat the rest. Can't say I won't miss you, Can't you see, I love you baby, And I asked you not to leave. But slit my wrists, Kiss me goodnight, It's over now, My twisted life.

Poem For Mother-in-law
Here is a poem my sister wrote for my mother-in-law. My time here is done,It may not have always been fun, But memories I take with me, Will keep me happy for the next eternity. I know as you sit there and gaze upon my body that your tears will fall and your heart will break, For I to was once in your place. But remember now and in the future hours the memories that are our's. Keep me close to your heart and always know we are never truly apart. To my children I leave behind this sad sad day I want to say You made my life whole in so many ways. You taught me love I would have never known. And to my grandchildren that put the sparkle in my eye I will keep watching as you grow from my new home here in the sky. And to my family, loved ones and friends Who's love and blessing never came to an end When you see that hummingbird fly by Its only me checking in to say HI

Just A Silly Poem
Sometimes when life gets you down You need to smile but can only frown You need picked up cuz you fell down Always remember I will be there. Sometimes I will not be able to lighten the load So pull up a stool or sit on a toad I will be there All the way along the road. Life can be hard But friends we are To the end of time Even without these silly rhymes.

Type Of Crystal Meth
from www.snopes.com/horrors/drugs/candymeth.asp There is a very scary thing going on in the schools right now that all needs to know about.There is a type of crystal meth going around that looks like strawberry poprocks.It also smells like strawberry and is being handed out to kids in school yards in Arizona.Kids are ingesting this thinking that it is candy and being rushed off to the emergency room in dire condition.Please,instruct your children not to accept candy that looks like this even if it from a friendand to take any that they have to the teachers or Principal.Please,pass this around,it could save some family alot of heartache.This is what they are calling strawberry meth or strawberry quick.

Party Poppers
Hello everyone my name is Rakia Dunn and i am an event planner. The name of my company is called The Party Poppers. We specializing in making your Party Pop! We can work with any size budget check out our web page to see what we can do. http://partypoppers.vpweb.com You can have a peace of mind knowing The Party Poppers will be by your side

Mini Golf Friday, May 18, 2007
Last night, Joe treated Andrew and me to eighteen holes at the local miniature golf course. We arrived there around 9pm, hoping they would still be open. They were! Yay! There was an "unofficial" bet placed that Joe would wipe up the greens with us. LOLOL! By the end of the first nine holes, it was obvious who was doing the greens wiping! Andrew had TWO holes in one in the first nine holes! Joe and I tried to keep up with him......well, we got an A for effort, but couldn't catch up. In a little side note, someone put laundry detergent in the waterfall at the back of the golf course. There is a little river attached to the waterfall, that runs all through the golf course. There was foam everywhere! It looked like fresh mounds of snow. Snow in May! Can you imagine? LOL We had a wonderful time! And the winner was.......Andrew! He got another hole in one in the second nine holes! Par for the course was 54 and he had a 46! Joe and I tied at 55. They close

Disillusioned (a Poem)
Like bubbles floating on a breeze You've stolen a dream from me Snapping like a bubble popping What was once bright Is now dull I've lost the fight Love was once full Is now a child crying in the night Soapy bubbles Washed away the rose colored light Now I see with a clarity The truth I tried to hide from me Truth is a glaring brightness Stinging the eyes It resonates Breaking free And helps me to love me

In Talks With A Wrestler!!!
I'm currently in talks for working in a movie with a wrestler!!!! I cant say much right now..but just who it is ..I'm like..hella excited..it's also giving me the chance for them to hear my band too!!! ::happy dance::

Letters From Nobody (the Dragon Journals) Pt. 1
...and the dragon wept. Sitting amongst the ashes and ruins of what society had caused to well up inside him. He had burst forth, full-faced and screaming into the abyss that is this world. No one in their right mind would have or could have even imagines that this world harbored such a creature as himself. Lurking in the dark shadows, he studied his prey with a daily diligence. Hoping to find at least one glimmer of hope to save this place that he had loved so passionately. But alas, like Lot and Sara, there is none that is worthy of the escaping the disastrous effects of the Ancient One. The Unnameable. The Unspeakable. The Dragon....

Wow What An Evening
Hello all, hoping everyone is doing better than myself at the moment. I juat got word that my first ex husband was almost hit by lightning. Their home was hit,all this went down on the 15 and I am just now finding out about it. but as the story goes they was all celebrating his birthday with cake n ice cream. My ex was walking out of the kitchen with his plate in his hand and it came through the window and went in front of him but was so close that it knocked his plate out of his hand , took my 2 sons plates and melted them to the bar where they sat and blew a hole in the side of their out building, blew up his cell phone, blew his Cb radio equipment up , his scanners and alot of other things, messed their cooking stove up and actually did zap my great uncle who happens to have a pacemaker, he is in Owwnsboro ky hospital. They are all ok for the most part other than that, what a hell of a birthday. This isnt the first time it was hit, when he and I was together it did the same thing ,

Fun Fun Fun
church had hope 4 kids weekend tonite with a puppet show & really entertaing magic show with prizes ..... was a fun 3 hrs event ..... continues tommorrow with games, food, drinks & free bicyles for the kids ...... should be FUN FUN FUN starts after outside church service 11-4 pm

When Life Hands You Lemons...
I've adapted a wonderful life motto: "When life hands you lemons, slit your wrists and start squeezing..." Am I bitter? Yes. LOL... but I admit it, right? Okay, okay...now that I'm over my dramatic shpill for the day, let me just explain to you the insurmountable, overwhelming chaos that has just entered my life lately. I don't understand the pattern, but it's certainly chaotic. But I'm still happy, so I guess it can't be too bad. Well, upon my adventures outward, I decided to stop by the acoustic cofeehouse to see a friend of mine. No big deal, right? I do this like, several times...and it never turns out TOO crazy. I found my exception. I began to walk out to the patio, AKA "the smoker's lounge," still on the prowl for my friend. I reach for the screen door... and this is where the camera begins to slow down just a tad. My eyes slowly shift from my feet, to the door handle...and from the door handle, upward. Upward to the open square of black

Update On Goings On In My World
I just got out of the hospital today after spending 6 days in there. I was having real bad pains in my upper abdomen and the DR thought it was my gallbladder. After running 3 diffrent extensive tests he couldnt find what was goin on, but by then (day 3) i had contracted one of the worst cases of Strep throught he had seen (so bad, my throat swelled to the point it was trying to close). But we got that under control, I still cant go back to work and he is going to do a scope on me and a colooscopy to rule out Crohns disease. YAH. fun. I feel absolutely miserable. I hurt, the 3 diffrent spots they had my IV in all infiltrated and hurt and are swollen and have bruises and knots. The vampires from the lab stuck me 2-3 times a day to check my white count which had gotten to 20 at one point so my arms and hands look like i'm a heroin junkie or somethin. IT SUCKS. :(

Accident!!!
Hello everyone I just wanted to send out a prayer request. Last night about 11:00 my mom and sister were hit by a semi-truck on Lincoln and 41(for those who live ine E-ville). They have discharged my mother, although she is still in pain. My sister so far as of right now has broken ribs, and a broken arm. They are running more tests on her to see what else if anything is wrong. Please pray that she will be fine and that nothing more will be wrong w/her. Don't forget to keep my mother in your prayers too. Just pray that everything will be ok and that God will be w/them. THANK YOU ALL .....AND PLEASE KEEP MY FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYERS!!!!!! GOD BLESS, TACARRA Update….Chrissy's surgery went fine she has two metal plates in her right arm. They are going to make her get up tomorrow and start moving. She has 3 broken ribs, as far as her ribs and her lumbars go..they have to heal on their own. Mom got her x-rays back and they told her that she has a fractured tibia and a chip missing from her

Im In A Contest
to all my friends, fans, fans of mine, and family. i start in at contest tomorrow a 3pm est. i wont be online unti late tomorrow night i would like for you all to come and commnet bomb me and rate me. i dont ask much from any of you but this is my first and only comtest i am going to be in but the pic i have submitted into the contest is the one that is my defult pic which is of me my sister. i would greatly appreciate it especially from the ones that i usually help in contests. i know i have helped a few people out in them so please be kind and help me.

Why Condoms Come In Boxes
A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boy asks, "What are these, Dad? To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex." "Oh I see, " replied the boy pensively. "Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package? " The dad replies, "Those are for high school boys, 0NE for Friday, 0NE for Saturday, and 0NE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy. He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men, " the dad answers, TW0 for Friday, TW0 for Saturday, and TW0 for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack! With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for the married men. 0NE for January, 0NE for February, 0NE for March....etc."

Ex Beat Me! Woo.. I Was Abused For Not Getting Back Together With Him!
wow i can't even think of anything to name my blog today. damn to much stuff happened last night for me to even begin to actually think about it. damn.. well i got the shit beat out of me by an ex last night because i told him i didnt want to get back together with him. punched me and shit. grabbed me by the neck picked me up off of the ground and like held me in the air for a minute choking me and threw me into a bush. damn i still cant believe that shit actually went down. just thinking about it makes me go short of air. and my neck starts to hurt. and he kept calling me a slut and a tease because i wanted to talk to a guy who is like my brother alone about something really important. i hate my luck with guys! gah. i always get fucking abused!

1907
The yr. my grandmother was born. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Subject: 1907 The year is 1907, one hundred years ago...... >> >> Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an >> AMERICAN in 1907. >> >> >> "In the first place, we should insist that if the >> immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an >> American and assimilates himself to us, he >> shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone >> else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against >> any such man because of creed, or birthplace, >> or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's >> becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but >> an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. >> Any man who says he is an American, but something else >> also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but >> one flag, the American flag... We have room for but >> one language here, and that is >> the English language... and we have room for but one >> sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American >> p

The Rock That Never Falters
Here I stand being the rock that has never faltered, I have given my all in blood, sweat, and tears, yet I have never faltered. I have stood still and let things go, so that time will unfold what is meant to be. I know where my destiny lies and know what is in my reality. One day soon in the near future, all will be revealed and all will be understood. No more fears will darken my heart again. For I have seen my future and know where it lies. The truth in the saying if you love something so much then let it go, if it is meant to be then it will return. I also know that one day I will return from where thou I have left. For it is my destiny, it is my reality. For I have always been there, I am that rock that never falters.

On Death.....
"Life being what it is in our world, the onset of death is often the first taste a man gets of freedom. At least the imagination can come into its own, and as a man yields to it his emotions take on a surprising depth and intensity." -Isaac Rosenfeld, An Age of Enormity "The dying man has probably lost during the course of life things more important than what he is about to lose by dying." -Friederich Nietzsche, The Dawn of Day. "If even dying is to be made a social function, then, please, grant me the favor of sneaking out on tiptoe without disturbing the party." -Dag Hammarskjold, Markings. "When I was analyzing I observed clearly that the fear of death was in proportion to not-living. The less a person was in life, the greater the fear. By being alive I mean living out of all the cells, all the parts of one's self. The cells which are denied become atrophied, like a dead arm, and infect the rest of the body. People living deeply have no fear of death." -Anais Nin, The D

Hummmmmmmm
Daily Horoscope: Leo For May 19,2007 Your sunny friendliness has a flip side -- occasionally, you can get more attached to people than they merit. The first step is to recognize this tendency. The next is noticing when it's interfering with your life.

Show Sum Love
Hey check it out...I have added snapvine message box to my profile...I hope that at least some of my friends and fans will care enough to leave me a message....If you have one let me know and I will gladly drop you a voice message and show u sum love...Or if you are just feeling lonely and need a comment let me know yea I can leave that too...I don't mind at all. Sooo come on and sayyyyy something let me know you are here...Can't wait to hear from you....muahhhhh thanks R4v3Ns Send me a VoiceComment. It's FREE! Just call 1(641)985-7878 and enter *4243057. And, if you have a VoicePlayer too, I'll reply. http://www.snapvine.com

Gas War!!
GAS WAR - an idea that WILL work This was originally sent by a retired Coca Cola executive. It came from one of his engineer buddies who retired from Halliburton. It's worthy of your consideration. Join the resistance! I hear we are going to hit close to $4.00 a gallon by summer and it might possibly go higher! Want gasoline prices to come down? We need to take some intelligent, united action. Phillip Hollsworth offered this good idea. This makes MUCH MORE SENSE than the "don't buy gas on a certain day" campaign that was going around earlier! The oil companies just laughed at that because they knew we wouldn't continue to "hurt" ourselves by refusing to buy gas. It was more of an inconvenience to US than it was a problem for them. BUT, whoever thought of THIS idea has come up with a plan that can really work. Please read on and join with us! By now you're probably thinking gasoline priced at about $1.50 is super cheap. Me too! It is currently wel

Click Click...
Click click click goes the mouse... silently echoing in this house. Do I see you? I think not! Are you sexy, cute or hot?? I can't tell you.. do you know why? I only see pages as they go by If i comment it's heart felt. Insult not.. below the belt. kind I am, until upset :( bastard unseen.. by you yet :) shout obscenely desperate fool... here's a towel for your drool:p lick the screen may you get shocked :s piss me off you will get blocked!!!

Sat Is Here Again
Well Now i am happy its now sat night and almost time to head to Rockin Robins club to dance and have fun with my sis Angel ( mistressangel) on here lol so i / we will be post nwe pics tomorrow some time ... Have a great sat night I know we will !!

New Look Within And Without
"BEFORE" THE NEW BIRTH The Bible can't be true! It doesn't make sense!Why should God call me a sinner when I'm doing the best I can? I've treid to make myself better, but I always fail! I don't see what difference it makes thought! What I do with my life is nobody's business but my own! I can live the way I want and the more I get for myself the happier I'll be! But sometimes a queer hollow feeling creeps over me and I feel strangly dissatisfied. No matter how many new thrills I drum up, the excitement eventually wears off, and life seems empty again! I wish I knew what life's all about! I wonder if I am missing out on something better! I guess I'm just one of those crazy mixed-up persons! "AFTER" THE NEW BIRTH It's just as if someone turend on the lights! Everything looks different. My attitudes have changed completely! Now I see things from God's point of view--not just my own selfsih out-look. More than anything else I want to please the Lord! I thought th

Letters From Nobody (the Dragon Journals) Pt. 5
At some point before I expire from this life, I would appreciate the opportunity to take off this face I have to wear day in and day out. To show the entire world what an unspeakable monster that they have created in me over the years. To show the pain, the sorrow, the loneliness that is the true me... Every morning I must adjust this old guise so as not to offend anyone during the course of an earthly day. To show them smiles, and tell them jokes, to hide the suffering. My life, as it is, is simply a series of mundane gestures and idiotic comments designed to amuse a few; annoy all others.

Telus
so im gonna be offline for a while cause i am switch service providers. the company i am currantly using has lost the last to bill paymand wants me to pay again. ummmmm not gonna happen, i'll just switch to a company that doesnt keep employing incompetent people. and 1 that doesnt try to give thier customers a run around until you just give up. no company should ever be permitted to have a monopoly in the service industry .... as it is in the USA not like in Canada. maybe Canada will clue into this soon

What My Friends Think Of Me......
I WAS WANTING TO UPDATE THE ABOUT ME SECTION OF MY MYSPACE. I CAN NEVER REALLY EXPLAIN MYSELF TO ANYONE. SOO I ASKED SOME FRIENDS OF MINE TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM IN THERE POINT OF VIEW.... AND HERE IT IS! You're a great guy with the greatest sense of humor. You show that you are very comfortable with yourself... outgoing...nice to everyone you meet...I think your very lovable....your very considerate of others before yourself...will do anything for the ones you love....very easy to get along with....a fun person to be around...I hardly ever (if ever) see you in a bad mood, you don't let it show......very open minded about a lot of things... I think you love life, the ones around you, and mostly take each day to the fullest.... I know you don't feel like it sometimes but you seem to enjoy the way your life is going so far..... Thank you for being the greatest friend ever.... -Tiffany Oh lord, ok, here we go.....lets see..... Crazy, funny, sweet, good list

I Wish Kids Had A Off Button
My kids have me worn out!Am I getting to old or something?Geez I rember when I could go all night.Now just a couple hours out and I am so tired Im ready to drop.I cant though my kids are still bouncing off the wall.OMG Why dont they make them with a off switch so parents can get a break?Eh maybe I just need some coffee.

Smileys
anyone that wants adult smileys get ahold of me on yahoo and i can send u the file to use them. the good thing is if the person u r talking to doesnt have them on their computer they show up as regular smileys to them

Awakened By A Flood
my sleeping came at a time most consider the next day, all of a sudden i was in a world free of pain and full of life and happiness, you were there, i held you, you were proud, we laughed, you were gone, and i was awakened by a flood of my own tears glogging my eyes, mouth and nose, i love when you visit in my dreams.. it really hurts when you leave... it seems that as i lie awake in my pitiful state, i cant seem to stop the shudder and shake i can never put you in the back of my dreams cause every time im torn at the seems i wish i could be a dad have son you could see but god did not have that plan for me.. so now i write this awakened by a flood

Trust
I wish I knew why, but I find myself trusting the wrong people all the time. I don't know why I find myself falling into this self destructive behavior time after time. It isn't the fault of the people I trust. It is mine for giving it so easily. I put myself into the position of being hurt, or used, or being part of someone's game. I am responsible for my behavior.. for my lack of discretion. So why do I do it? Do I feel a need to punish myself for some failure? Is it to keep myself from ever feeling I can trust ANYONE so that I won't have to let someone get close enough to truly care? No.. I am not sad.. or hurt tonight. Just in one of those thinking moods. Wondering why I do the things I do... Looking for what I need to change in myself to be happier and more accepting of myself.

I Am Unique
I am a distinct personality--completely separate from any other in the entire world. No other person thinks exactly like I think...No other person feels excatly like I feel...and no other person talks exactly like I talk. Scientista now believe that even my "voice print" is unique, and--like my finger prints--can be used to positively identify me.YES, GOD CREATED ONLY ONE "ME"... No one else has my same mind, my same temperament, my same body, my same abilities. God has endowed me with a particular set of characteristics which no other person possesses. I have thoughts, wishes and dreams that are mine alone. I live alone inside my body walls of flesh and bones looking out at the rest of the world through my two eyes. Although I am strangely separted from others, yet I am not alone. I am mysteriously linked with my brother and my God. I DID NOT ASK TO BE BORN...YET I AM HERE... And becasue I am here on earth, I am under solem obligation to make good use of this personal exist

Bringin Out The Friends!!! ;)
Ok, so if you read my last blog you know that I am just stoopidly in love with my baby, Jamie. She rocks my whole world and makes everything about me better. We're entered in this "Best Cherry Couple" contest. I'm sure my older friends are shaking their heads and laughing at me thinking of all the stuff I always said about contests in the past. lol Well I told you...Jamie makes me better and now I like contests, so nyah, nyah. :P Anyway, we're doing pretty well in this and I know we're gonna win, but if you guys could help us out some we'd really really appreciate it. I'm sure love and gifts will be flying all over the place. lol It's a rate and bomb contest, so if you got a few minutes come drop a few on us at the link below. Just click my face. Love you guys.....thanks for helping! :)

Here's My Number..........
Just interested, so please comment on this one, everybody .... What's the most wierd or wackiest way that you've given out your phone number to somebody of the opposite sex? I think last night was my wacky one...... I wrote it on the guys T-Shirt! LOL!

Where Do I Even Begin?
Okay so last weekend I had the pleasure of visiting Hot Import Nights at the Philly Convention Center. The vehicles there were freakin fascinating! That alone made me wish I had more discretionary income ($20 word people!). I even had my first Bison burger at Buffalo Billards. That was pretty cool. This weekend after smashing my finger in my car door (Yes, I sent Mensa my application) I had a chance to attend Blue and Blue Day with some friends at Chestnut Hill Academy (Its a Philly thing people). I even got a chance to have retro fun and rollerskate today. For those who are wondering, I still wear the original 4 wheel-no blades for me. I even have pom-poms on them. Nice. This girl knows how to work it.

Saturday 5/19/07
It's been a really busy day today, so I haven't had a chance to be online at all today except for a few minutes here and there. I got up at 7:00 a.m. took a shower and got ready to go with mom so we could get our hair cut and colored by 8:30 a.m.. We were finally done with that by 11:00 a.m. Then we went to the bakery to pick up the cake and some pastries for the graduation party we had for mom.(she's a graduate nurse now woohoo!!) We went home and changed clothes and ate lunch. I was trying to find my makeup so I could put it on in a hurry before it was time to leave,so I finished getting dressed and had a little time to look for it before my grandparents got here at 12:30 p.m. but it was nowhere to be found. Anyway, my grandparents got here and we waited until about 1:00 p.m. or 1:15 p.m. for my aunt to get here then we all piled into the car (mom had to be there early so went ahead of us in the other car). We got to the ceremony which took forever and there was only 3

This Is Very Interesting And Just A Bit Scary...
Allah or the Lord Jesus Christ? ...A Bit Scary This is very interesting and just a bit scary... The Muslim religion is the fastest growing religion per capita in the United States , especially in the minority races!!! ------------------------------------------------- Allah or The Lord Jesus Christ? By Rick Mathes Last month I attended my annual training session that's required for maintaining my state prison security clearance. During the training session there was a presentation by three speakers representing the Roman Catholic, Protestant and Muslim faiths, who explained each of their beliefs. I was particularly interested in what the Islamic Imam had to say. The Imam gave a great presentation of the basics of Islam, complete with a video. After the presentations, time was provided for questions and answers. When it was my turn, I directed my question to the Imam and asked: "Please, correct me if I'm wrong, but I understand that most Imams and

Visit My Music Page!!!
Songs that I have recorded with my friends are on my myspace account. to hear them just type in this in your address bar and press enter: www.myspace.com/naptownghettolyfe this will take you right to my music and my songs will automatically start playing. feel free to leave me a comment if you want to. Thanks

Wishes
A love that lasts forever: A friendship naught can sever; A courage never failing, Though evil seems prevailing; And joyous, radiant living, Made glorious by its giving; A faith strong and enduring, Unworthy thoughts obscuring; And eyes for seeing beauty In work, in play, in duty; Life more abudant growing; Love, courage, faith, and sweetness To make up life's completeness. You know who you are my friend. You have bless me and made me want to live again! Thank you!

The Hero
No one knows what all he does but the few whose lives he has touched. Wiht his words of encouragement to just lending his ear. he will listen to us rant and rave about our troubles. He's ready to do battle for those he loves and if you have him as your freind you have found a very specail treasure! Sometimes our hero needs us to return to him what he has given to us. True bravery is shown by performin without witness what one might be capable of doing before all the world. Hero in the dictionary is defined as a mythological or legendary figure often of divine descent endowed with great strength and ability: an illustrious warrior. This man has done so much to touch other people lives and he never ask for anything in return. Its time we, as his freinds, do something for him.

Morden Living
With the way modern living has become, it is harder for a white man to get ahead in society. With the new programs in place grating tax payers funds to immigrants, the ever growing debt incurred by our relationship with the stolen state of Israel and our on going battles in the middle east, one wonders if we are a nation destined to destruction. Positions once held by white gentiles are no being given to the brown black and yellow people of the earth, a media once hell bent on bringing its viewers and readers the truth has fallen into the hands of a minority hell bent on the destruction of any functioning society and laws being placed on the already oppressed majority of the nation, it is becoming more of a chore to make a decent and clean living for a white family. Our children are no longer safe outside our homes, they are being taught to embrace the diversity forced upon them, they are taught out right lies on such issues as the first functioning societies, the inventors of moder

Your One True Love
Comin’ for u, tonite you're mine, Grab your coat, u look so fine, Its cold outside, I’ll hold u tight, Come in close, it’s gonna be alright, We’ll hit the bar and play some pool, Skull a beer and act real cool, Shoot some darts and watch a band, Come with me baby, take my hand, Wanna fly with you, into the night, I love u so, u shine so bright, Be my lover, my best friend, We’ll ride it out, until the end, Board my magic carpet ride, In the darkness we will hide, Let’s be young…wild and free, Your one true love, I wanna be, Lay on the banks of the misty river, Trace your belly and watch you quiver, Kiss your lips and hold u tight, Tender skin, I playfully bite, Your smile is wide, I love the way, Your eyes light up, with each new day. I’ve wanted someone just like u, Pretty face, intelligence too, Hours roll, as we chat away, Wanna play with u, under the hay. Be mine babe, you’re good for me, Your one true love, I wanna be. Stay up real late and run all nigh

Thinkin Of Leavin Cherry
i am so sick of this site and all the bitches/bastard that go through and do the NSFW... this use to be an adult site...so much has changed...check out any of my pics that you might favor.... gonna start deleting....

5-19-07 Astrology
Believe it or not, saying no can be a loving gesture. There's a fine line between giving to others and giving parts of yourself away. Be alert to when you need to take a moment or two for self-care.

Hidden Love
When I first saw you I looked into your eyes I saw a glow about you I loved all that I could see I love to see your smile Spread across your face But when it does seem to fade My heart stars to ache I like to hear you speak Your voice brings me chills It puts me in a crazy setting All starts to haze Whenever I think of you I drift to a far off place Where anything could happen Where I could love you I didn't know what to say I didn't know how to put it So I tried to hide it But it can't be concealed any longer I'll try to say it here and now I'll try to tell you how I feel I love you girl with all my heart Will you return my love for you

Truth Or Dare
I DARE YOU TO FILL THIS OUT!!! Truth Or Dare and be honest.here... Fill this out and send it to my IN BOX!! I dare you... to tell me the truth.. Two things you wonder about me? 1. 2. One thing you like about me? 1. One thing you don't like about me? 1. My best feature? 1. One thing you want to know about me? 1. One word that best describes me? 1. One question for me? 1. How would you rate my NSFW photos here, your top 3 you liked the best. And I know many have looked so be honest here... 1. 2. 3.

Lovin U
Ever since i 1st met you I fell in love w. you I thought if you left i wouldn't know what to do Looking at you i get so happy I love when you come up & talk to me I love your personality w. you to me there is no reality i love the way you make me feel i know this time its real loving you is really the only thing i could you boy this isn't fake you know I'm true boy i just want 2 tell you that i will always love you with out you i will die loving u & not knowing why I'm in love & about to go crazy more than anything i want to be your lady i love you so much get more & more weak by touch your always on my mind loving you till the end of time just know this i would love for you just 2 be mine

New Here
HELLO ALL MY NAME IS TINA IM FROM LOUSIANA USA IM 34 SINGLE AND DO NOT WORK CAUSE I AM IN WHEELCHAIR I WAS BORN WITH SPINAL BIFIDA BUT I GET AROUND VERRY WELL AND DO EVERYTHING FOR MYSELF I DONT LIKE IT WHEN SOMEONE FEEL SORRY FOR ME SO PLEASE DONT:)I LIKE TO MAKE GOOD FRIENDS AND GO SHOPPING,COOKING,DRAWING CARTOONS,AND I LOVE BEING WITH MY FAMILY I HAVE ONLY 1 SISTER AND NO BROTHERS MY MOM IS WHITE AMERICAN AND MY FATHER IS AFRICAN AMERICAN I LOVE PEOPLE ALOT AND I LIKE TO SMILE ALL THE TIME AND LAUGH IF U WANT TO MAKE FRIENDS U CAN ADD ME AND LEAVE ME A MESSAGE I WILL BE HAPPY TO KNOW YOU..IM VERRY HONEST CARING AND SWEET GIRL

Not A Good Day!
Not a good day, not one at all!! Listened to a song and fell apart... Took me this long to be able to write the rest.. Listened to Aerosmith's "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" and started crying and could not stop. If you know the lyrics you will know why. Plus, earlier this week, I let daughter borrow Jerry's phone. Forgot all about his voice message until I needed to talk to daughter. And sick with a cold/sore throat. A mess right now. Still want r/t arms around me, though.

I Have Changed A Bit
Ok yes I know I just finished recently writing a blog saying how much I haven't changed and wow look at the title of this one. I was sitting here today surfing through you tube, yeah I know big shock there, and realized something about myself again. See this isn't really a change so much as something I once had being brought back out of me again. In looking back I think I was always this way.. the Dozen Roses Debacle JR year of High School proves it to me. For those of you who don't now the story I'll be making an entry on it soon enough I guess I've mentioned it enough in past entries some people want to know what it is. But I realized recently I'm romantic. I mean like a hopeless romantic, despite my cyniasim and everything else I admit it, I cry at things I shouldn't and well basically become a bitch at times for lack of better explination. While the impending divorce also proves to me that at some point I lost that or forgot what romance was, I still have to realize that it

Researchers In Utah To Focus On Healing Power Of Stem Cells
Researchers in Utah to Focus on Healing Power of Stem Cells Ed Yeates Reporting British scientists announced this week they have successfully grown parts of a human heart from stem cells. Utah researchers are on the brink of yet another stem cell project here in Salt Lake. Five Utah hospitals and a lab at the University of Utah have become partners to see if stem cells can repair a failing heart. The healing powers of stem cells are the focus of research across the country including here in Utah. "This is like Star Wars medicine. It's incredibly exciting, and it's also incredibly humbling," said Dr. James Long at LDS Hospital. If clinical trials are approved for Salt Lake's Veterans Hospital, stem cells pulled from bone marrow or discarded umbilical cords will be screened and processed. For the trial itself, stem cells from bone marrow will be injected back into the patient's failing heart. Doctors James Long at LDS Hospital, Linda Kelley at the University of Utah Ce

What The Va Does Right
What the VA Does Right BY BETSY McCAUGHEY The average hospital patient is given the wrong medication or the wrong dose at least once a day, according to the Institute of Medicine, a research organization that advises Congress. The good news is that these mistakes are less likely to happen in a hospital run by the Department of Veterans Affairs. Surprised? Recent news accounts might lead you to believe that VA hospitals are a national embarrassment. That may have been true at one time. Not any more. VA hospitals have undergone a remarkable turnaround in the last decade. On average, they earn higher marks for patient safety and quality of care than most other hospitals in America. The shameful conditions of Walter Reed, which is an Army hospital unaffiliated with the Department of Veterans Affairs, have misled the public. The situation has been exacerbated by attacks from politicians in both parties who are excoriating the VA without knowing the facts. The VA system

"lost"
"Lost" Once I was as you are, Now look at me, a shell of desperation, stumbling in the dark. Choking on burning g memories. Hopeless panic invades my mind. As I yearn to be normal. I can't stand eye to eye with the world. Looking down in shame, I walk. Worthless, I am, searching for hope. My wounded spirit begs to curl up and die. Painful tears erupt as I stand on the blurry street. Time goes on until we are in the ground. What does it matter, my feeling? My breathing? Can anyone really touch the world? I stumble until I am lying on the floor. In a pitiful sigh I search for compassionate eyes. Only to find haunted souls, as my own, peering back at me.

Researchers Tested Pot, Lsd On Army Volunteers
Researchers tested pot, LSD on Army volunteers By Richard Willing, USA TODAY Army doctors gave soldier volunteers synthetic marijuana, LSD and two dozen other psychoactive drugs during experiments aimed at developing chemical weapons that could incapacitate enemy soldiers, a psychiatrist who performed the research says in a new memoir. The program, which ran at the Army's Edgewood, Md., arsenal from 1955 until about 1972, concluded that counterculture staples such as acid and pot were either too unpredictable or too mellow to be useful as weapons, psychiatrist James Ketchum said in an interview. The program did yield one hallucinogenic weapon: softball-size artillery rounds that were filled with powdered quinuclidinyl benzilate or BZ, a deliriant of the belladonnoid family that had placed some research subjects in a sleeplike state and left them impaired for days. Ketchum says the BZ bombs were stockpiled at an Army arsenal in Arkansas but never deployed. They were

"the End Of Pretending"
"The End of Pretending" As the cigarette turns to ash, my dreams are floating on the moon. Down into the doungions of my heart, I bury all of my hops. Love, what laughter my bleeding heart now makes! This demented madhouse is my fate. If only my mind could escape to insanety. The dark demon of lonliness has gripped my thraot and has brought me to my familiar hell. All thats left for me is this nightmare life, where love is only a figment of the imagination. The end of pretending! My eyes are open! Love, is someone's stupid JOKE!

Disrespect
Just because me and Onyx Illuzion aren't together anymore in real life, doesn't give anybody the right to go and disrespect her by down rating her, or anything along that line. I never said that she didn't care about me. So to the ones that have gone and downrated her and said things to her. Thank you!!! you have made things more difficult. Hope you all are happy!!!! by disrespecting her you are disrespecting me. if you want to disrespect her, then don't bother being a friend of mine.

Life
BE YOURSELF.THATS IS NEW STEP TO BE BETTER WHO YOU ARE. LEARN TO OTHERS MISTAKES.COS LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO DO ALL THOSE YOURSELF. YOU GOING TO SAY THAT YOU GO WRONG WAY IF YOU GO YOUR OWN WAY. YOU CANT STEP SAME RIVER 2 TIMES ,COS THERE ALLREADY FLOW NEW WATER. THERE BE SILENCE IN WOODS IF ONLY THOSE BIRDS SING,WHO SING BEAUTYFULL. THAT.S GOOD AT THERE IS LIES TOO-THINK IF EVERYTHING WHAT WE HEAR IS TRUE. IT,S BETTER IF YOU OWN REAL ANEMY,THAN UNREAL FREND. FRENDSHIP WHITS DIE.....NEVER START. DONT EVER SAY BAD THING OF YOURSELF,YOUR FRENDS DO THAT. ONLY THING WHAT I FEAR IS FEAR. NO ONE NEVER LISSEN NOBODY IF THEY DON,T KNOW THAT THEY SPEAK NEXT. I TELL YOU DONT ASK WHY OR CAN I...JUST ENJOY YOUR ICEGREAM WHEN IS STILL ON YOUR PLATE..THIS IS MY FILOSOFY. IF IN THIS WORLD BE THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK MORE OF THEY OWN LUCK,THAN OTHERS BAD LUCK,,WE HAVE PARADISE IN A FEW YEARS. ..........................................

".... And You Lied"
".... and You Lied" Inside this frantic, chaotic dream, i scream. Inside this box of darkness, i cry, choking, lost, alone. Can you feel it? Silent screams slambing into your mortality? Decaying hope whithers in my hands. I can't speak, I don't want to think, and picture you. Memories have become my demonds. Clawing retched creatures that bite into my brain, numbing my will to be rational. What made me believe a masochist and a distruction junkie could be forever? My crime, my stupidity, was only to believe you when you captured me. It shocked me to awake from a sleep that reluctantly stole me, to find the world still alive, it survived mine dying. It survived my tragity and so did you. You breath without holding me, you love without me. This catches in my throat when i'm helpless to stop it. Then i'm surounded by a madness that enslaves me to want you. I don't know when i'll be alright. I just know that deep in the night when i close my eyes, your mouth, your voic

Weekend :)
I thought weekends were for relaxing. When did that change? Last night was the third of David's school concerts in the last 2 weeks. It was chorous this time. They did great. Sang a lot of songs from High School Musical- he loves that movie. Today was soccer. They won 8-0. They all played great again. I'm just worn out from all the driving. But it is so worth it. The ex missed all but the last quarter of the game today. The quarter he sat out. He always gets a big grin when he sees me there. :) I guess tonight I will finish cleaning... Been doing that the last couple hours. Who wants to help? Please? lol Ok.. gotta finish making supper. Hope everyone has a great night.

Cheating
SO WHAT IS CHEATING EXACTLY???? WITH THE FINGER POINTING ABOUT FOLKS BEING CHEATERS FOR THIS OR THAT REASON, I FIGURE I WOULD SHED SOME LIGHT ON THE WORD. MERRIAM WEBSTER'S (THE DICTIONARY) DEFINES CHEATING AS: TRANSITIVE VERB 1: to deprive of something valuable by the use of deceit or fraud 2: to influence or lead by deceit, trick, or artifice 3: to elude or thwart by or as if by outwitting INTRANSITIVE VERB 1: a: to practice fraud or trickery b: to violate rules dishonestly 2: to be sexually unfaithful — usually used with on 3: to position oneself defensively near a particular area in anticipation of a play in that area WELL LETS BREAK THIS DOWN. LOOK AT THE FIRST DEFINITION: TO DEPRIVE OF SOMETHING VALUABLE BY THE USE OF DECEIT OR FRAUD. WELL HOW TO DOES THIS RELATE TO CHERRY TAP, YOU MIGHT ASK. THINK ABOUT IT LIKE THIS, TO DEPRIVE OF SOMETHING VALUABLE. WHAT IS VALUABLE ON THI

Proud Mom
Wanted to share this video with you all. So very proud of my daughter and all who participated in trying to pass the California Healthy Pet Act which is a mandatory spay and neuter Act. They took a trip to the State Capital in Sacramento,Ca and all came to together for this and WON!!!! WTG Nisa..love ya and so proud of you!(You can see my daughter in the video..she is shown marching..holding ajoining collars or all the dogs and cats that had been euthanized..she's not hard to spot..she was the only 14yr old kid there)

"haunted I Fall"
"Haunted I Fall" Lost in a maze of hiding in my head.. Killing the lies that drip from my lips Slip into my dream and watch as i fall naked my mind screams for a reason taste the blood that comes from inside its an illusion that breaks your hope in two never wanting more than real bliss only finding wounds that taunt me I walk in my lonelyness and imbrace its cruelty as i fight for my breath from a memory. life it kicks you till you break and laughs when you fall stricken in my silece ill scream for you and love never stays

Seems Like May Long Weekend
Hi. My name is Leah and I'm nobody major. I am a mom and a fiance. I live in a small ass town in the middle of Canada, which kind of sucks but I have friends with people everywhere. Just enjoying my daughter today. It's going to be a beautiful weekend here. Hope you guys don't mind that I'm a mom. My fiance tells me I'm a MILF every day... lol...

Horoscope
If they keep this up I might start to believe in these things..lol Your sunny friendliness has a flip side -- occasionally, you can get more attached to people than they merit. The first step is to recognize this tendency. The next is noticing when it's interfering with your life.

So Sad I Cried
I am warning you, this is very, very, VERY sad! You may need a tissue... She was only five, This is what happened When she was alive... Her dad was a drunk, Her mom was an addict, Her parents kept her, Locked in an attic. Her only friend was a little toy bear, It was old and worn out, And had patches of hair. She always talked to it, When no one was around. She lays there and hugs it, Not a peep of sound. Until her parents Unlock the door, She'll have to endore A bruise on her leg, A scar on her face, Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear, And softly cries. She loves her parents, But they want her to die. She sits in the corner, Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking?" Such a bad life, For a sad little kid. She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did. Then one night, Her mom came home high, And the poor child was beaten As hours went by. Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade, It

No Fluckin Title....
Just decided I haven't done this for awhile so I'd put something up. This is about it. Not much going on really. I've added a few tunes to my stash if anybody cares to look. Other than that, same ole shit.

Military Prepares To Share Medical Records
Military prepares to share medical records By WILLIAM R. LEVESQUE TAMPA - Soldiers wounded in Iraq or Afghanistan are often treated by a battlefield doctor or medic who inputs medical information in a handheld computer the same way another generation's physicians used ink and clipboard. If the same soldier later visits a nonmilitary hospital back home, that health data often proves as elusive and unreachable to private doctors as a stealth fighter over Baghdad. The Pentagon is trying to knock down those electronic walls. Pentagon and state health officials Wednesday announced a pilot program to share the military's huge medical database with health care providers in the Tampa Bay area, a project defense officials hope one day will catch on across Florida and the nation. It's the Pentagon's first effort to link its medical records to the private sector. Local doctors and nurses using some of the same software and handheld devices developed for special operations

New Denver Va Hospital A Reality
Fitzsimons will become home to state-of-art facility By Chris Barge, Rocky Mountain News AURORA - When Jim Nicholson took over as U.S. secretary of veterans affairs two years ago, plans for replacing his home state's aging veterans hospital were "looking pretty dim," he said Wednesday. Nicholson, by contrast, was beaming as he stood on a stage next to an open field on the east flank of the Fitzsimons medical campus and announced that the state-of-the-art hospital would be built after all. Nicholson said he signed a deal last Thursday with the Aurora Redevelopment Authority to buy the first 18 acres of the planned 31-acre site for $11.15 million. The VA will acquire the rest of the property during the next year, while an architect draws up plans, Nicholson said. The veterans hospital campus is scheduled to open in 2011 with 1.4 million square feet of usable space. "This is a red-letter day for Colorado," Nicholson said. "It's a red-letter day for Denver and it's a

Va Opens New Regional Claims Office
By MARTIN J. KIDSTON FORT HARRISON — The Department of Veterans Affairs opened a new $4.5 million regional claims office here Tuesday, touting the facility as the VA’s first energy efficient and environmentally certified building. The facility, an appealing one-story structure, will process health-care claims for Montana veterans, including those returning from duty in Iraq and Afghanistan. Gov. Brian Schweitzer and Lt. Gov. Jon Bohlinger, along with representatives from Montana’s congressional delegation, gathered for the ribbon-cutting ceremony, officially opening the 22,000 square-foot building, which sits east of the larger VA Hospital. Mike Walcoff, the associate deputy undersecretary for benefits with the Department of Veterans Affairs, said the new office currently employs 48 people. In the future, the office could grow to serve as a resource center for other states. Montana is home to 107,000 veterans, the most per capita of any other state

Erotic Dreams
I know you're there, alone in your bed And I want you to think of me And I want you to imagine how it would be Feeling my body So close, so hot and so tender And you hear me whispering in your ears Words you've never heard before Oh, listen, baby And when you fall asleep I want you to dream of me And I know your dreams will tell you All that could happen When you taste my salty skin So wet, so sweet, so longing And your body discovers every spots Spots you've never touched before Oh, touch me, baby, Touch me, touch, touch Touch me baby Oh, come on, touch me, baby Oh, I need you, come on Touch me Ahhh, ahhh, ahhh, ahhh, ahhh, ohhh

#38 M&m's Car Driver David Gilliland
DRIVER, M&M’S® #38 FORD FUSION Birth date: April 1, 1976 ¨ Hometown: Riverside, CA Spouse: Michelle ♦ Children: Todd, Taylor Sunny, southern California, known for its beautiful beaches and big movie stars, is a long way from the southern shorts tracks where NASCAR is king. But over the past decade a steady stream of hopeful drivers have traveled from the Golden State to chase their dreams of becoming a stock car driver in NASCAR’s top series. The latest name on the list is that of Riverside native David Gilliland, driver for M&M’S® Chocolate Candies, who after a quiet West Coast career made a big entrance into the world of NASCAR. Following in the footsteps of a racing family, Gilliland spent the majority of his youth working on the race cars driven by his father Butch. Working his way through the ranks on his father’s team, Gilliland moved from mechanic to crew chief on the #38 NASCAR Winston West team at the young age of 19. Just a year later, he was awarded the Cha

Who Wants To Marry Me
!!!This is called CHERRYTAP MARRIAGE! The first person to message you saying "I do." will be your Cherrytap Husband/Wife. Now, this is just for fun so you can have a boyfriend or girlfriend in real life. You'd be surprised who wants to be yours.

N E Bombers
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Both Sets Of Answers Together Here
And yes this special young lady would be skinnydippindebbi and she is on my family list here... 1. Would you be in control? My Answer: 1/2 the time Her Answer: Only part of the time 2. Would you pull my hair? My Answer: If we were doing it doggie style I might, I would have one hand on one nipple in one hand pulling hair or rubbing your clit with the other... You asked sexy Her Answer: Hell yes 3. Would you whisper in my ear? My Answer: Wisper and slide my tongue in it opppsie Her Answer: Yes 4. Would you talk dirty to me? My Answer: Hell Yes Her Answer: Hell yeah 5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? My Answer: A lot Her Answer: Both and a little tongue sucking 6. Would you say my name? My Answer: Hell yes I would Her Answer: I would scream it 7. Would you go down on me? My Answer: Would go down on you and not cum back up till morning Her Answer: Definately 8. Would you let me give you a hickie? My Answer: H

Reposted With Both Of Our Names
This special young lady would be none other than skinnydippindebi and yes she is in my family... 1. Would you be in control? My Answer: 1/2 the time Her Answer: Only part of the time 2. Would you pull my hair? My Answer: If we were doing it doggie style I might, I would have one hand on one nipple in one hand pulling hair or rubbing your clit with the other... You asked sexy Her Answer: Hell yes 3. Would you whisper in my ear? My Answer: Wisper and slide my tongue in it opppsie Her Answer: Yes 4. Would you talk dirty to me? My Answer: Hell Yes Her Answer: Hell yeah 5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? My Answer: A lot Her Answer: Both and a little tongue sucking 6. Would you say my name? My Answer: Hell yes I would Her Answer: I would scream it 7. Would you go down on me? My Answer: Would go down on you and not cum back up till morning Her Answer: Definately 8. Would you let me give you a hickie? My Answer: Hell yes lik

In One Day
So is very warm day,(like finnish people say when is hot like hell)..and that happend abouth 2 times in year... Every living thing get wet... I sit in little "hill" where i whats flower in my toes. In front of me is road and heaven is my back....(someone is allready make song all of this). 135 000 moskitos fly all over me like i,m only one in hole world.. There come some lady who walk whit her bike. _good day! i say -day! she answear -Pls sit whit me here forwail and we can talk little,I say. -i like to ,but i can.t, cos i,m must hurry. -You must be so hurry ,cos you WALK whit that bike. -Well bike is broken,did you know any who can fix it? -yes i do. Lady sit next to me. -there is lot of moskitos,she say. -yes there is,i say,(we are finnish and we have to be one). -why it make that sound?she ask. -because it is moskito. -But it is not so sure.Thats why cos is it moskito it make that sound.(oh gee). Then we both are silence.We are grown up w

Dont Forget To Sign This And To Send To Everyone You Know
1993 murder case Do you remember February in 1993 when a young 3 yr. Old was taken from a Shopping mall in Liverpool, NY by two 10-year-old boys? He walked away from his mother for only a second and Jon Venables took his hand and led him out of the mall with his friend Robert Thompson. They took Jamie on a walk for over 2 and a half miles, along the way stopping every now and again to torture the poor little boy who was crying constantly for his mommy. Finally they stopped at a railway track where they brutally kicked him, threw stones at him, rubbed paint in his eyes and pushed Batteries up his anus. It was actually worse than this... What these two boys did was so horrendous that Jamie's mother was forbidden to identify his body. They then left his beaten small body on the tracks so a train could run him over to hide the mess they had created. These two boys, even being boys, understood what they did was wrong, hence trying to make it look like an accident. This week Lady Justic

Men!!
ok so i'm doing just fine and actually starting to be happy again and then my ex walks back into my life saying that he missed me and that he had been thinking about how i was the only girl that seemed to love him and treat him right and now he is thinking along the lines of wanting me back with him ..well then i found out that him and his girl aren't even fully broke up yet . Why do men do this? I'm undecided about what to do . After they break up should i give him another chance? Or should I only be friends with him ?

I Don't Like Cats Anymore.
She just pissed on the carpet. After I threw her in the litterbox 5 times because she was walking funny. I know she knows where the litterbox is and how to use it, she used it when she had to poo earlier. Hell, she sat in her poo. Ughh... At least it wasn't poo. Oh well, I don't have to think of toy ideas now, she doesn't deserve one. Grrr.

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Frozen Crabs
A man boarded an airplane in St. John's with a box of frozen crabs. A female crew member took it and promised to put it in the crew's Refrigerator, which she did. Shortly before landing, try as she might, she couldn't remember Who gave her the package, so she announced to the entire cabin ... "Would the gentleman who gave me the crabs in St. John's please Raise your hand?" Not one hand went up. So she took them home and ate them herself. he he he !! Tc n peace..Boo

Something To Think About
To find that perfect island while you sail many many seas Each island that you stop fullfills some of your needs At each island you stop at you see more of what you are looking for Every island you stop at has great things but you are still looking for more As you sail deeper and deeper into the ocean searching for that perfect spot The perfect destination, will it ever be found when will this search stop As the ocean surrounds you, you become scared and fill it will never happen But you know that you have to continue for you are the only captain As you stop at so many placesyou find love and pain in so many faces For all the nights and storms you continue to sail and put behind One final clear morning as you look out at the ocean to see what to find The most perfect island with the most beautiful sand Scared to find out so just take the chance it could be that island Oh yes it CAN.

Someone Once Told Me...
Someone once told me that I wasn't a mother since I didn't give birth to my children... but this is what I have to say to that...A mother's child isn't grown inside of her body.. it is grown inside of her heart THAT to me is what a mother is.

Read These Things?
This is my "daily" horroscope... "Doing the right thing comes automatically to you, but it might be such a conditioned reflex that you're starting to get a spiritual stress injury. Cut loose. Have fun. You don't have to be bad, but be a little naughty." ^Anyone care to translate into plain English??

Fear Only Detroys Fate...
I LOVE YOU LUCIANO.. I WILL FOREVER CARRY YOU IN MY HEART AND SOUL...FOR YOU ARE AN EXTRAORDINARY INDIVIDUALAND...BECAUSE OF YOU.. I WAS ABLE TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS.. I HOPE TO SPEND ALL ETERNITY BY YOUR SIDE, BUT IF I AM NOT THE ONE YOU CHOOSE..I PRAY THAT YOU FIND THAT PERSON WHO ILLUMINATES YOUR SPIRIT AND FILLS YOU WITH PEACE AND SERENITY....YOU TOUCHED MY SOUL AND I AM SO VERY THANKFUL TO HAVE MET AND HONORED TO LOVE AND SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON THAT YOU ARE...I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU AND WILL BE EVEN AFTER I DIE..FOREVER YOU WILL LIVE IN ME.... STEPH

Tom Foolery
I think i am going to start writing again...real soon...I used to blog alot on myspace...not anymore...too much bullshit...it's really amazing how if you rearrange people on the list on myspace...people will get pissed the fuck off. I know on my myspace page, i put the people i talkt o the most up front and so on...it's almost like a big pissing contest. I dunno...

Fun Stars 5-19-07
Everyone has a secret, a burden, something they feel strange about, so stop being so tough on yourself. Try to do at least one nice thing for yourself today. You'll find that it gets easier to be kinder to other people too.

Answers To A Personal Blog Here
This was posted by a very special young lady and here are the questions and the answers I gave her... 1. Would you be in control? My Answer: 1/2 the time 2. Would you pull my hair? My Answer: If we were doing it doggie style I might, I would have one hand on one nipple in one hand pulling hair or rubbing your clit with the other... You asked sexy 3. Would you whisper in my ear? My Answer: Wisper and slide my tongue in it opppsie 4. Would you talk dirty to me? My Answer: Hell Yes 5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue? My Answer: A lot 6. Would you say my name? My Answer: Hell yes I would 7. Would you go down on me? My Answer: Would go down on you and not cum back up till morning 8. Would you let me give you a hickie? My Answer: Hell yes like a vampire 9. How many rounds would we go? My Answer: Till we couldn't go any more 10. What would you wanna do afterwards? My Answer: Sleep and more sex 11. Would you ta

Kitten Confusion!
Alright, so I've got this new cat. She's smushed between me and the arm of the chair right now actually. So cute. She's smaller than my foot. Weighs about a pound hehe. I wrote a bunch about her in my other blog, you can read all that crap there if you want to know the details on how I got her. I'm just kind of updating some things right now. Random thoughts and whatnot. For instance, I don't know what to give her to play with. Toys would be good, I don't have any balls or anything since I don't have any other animals or any kids or anything of that sort. She doesn't want to play with the toilet paper roll which makes no sense to me. All cats love toilet paper rolls, or at least every cat I ever had before did. Maybe she's just too small yet. Anyone have any ideas? Hmm... Well I think I'm going to go find something jingly. Maybe a pill bottle or something haha. Geesh!

Flat Tummy
Flat Tummy A little boy walks into his parents' room to see his mom on top of his dad bouncing up and down. The mom sees her son and quickly dismounts, worried about what her son has seen. She dresses quickly and goes to find him. The son sees his mom and asks, "What were you and Dad doing?" The mother replies "Well you know your dad has a big tummy and sometimes I have to get on top of it to help flatten it." "You're wasting your time," said the boy. "Why is that?" asked his mom, puzzled. "Well when you go shopping the lady next door comes over and gets on her knees and blows it right back up." So does anyone want to help my tummy get blown up?

Lonelyness
Just what is it like to be alone??? It is an empty feeling inside you. You feel like the whole world looks at you and yet thay can't see. It's like you just want to stand on top of the world and shout , Hey I am here!!! You want to reach out and yet you want someone to reach out to you. You lend a hand to people you don't know. And it seems that when you need help, theres no one there to even hear you or sees you. It is not beining showed the kind love you see everyone else is getting. getting pushed off to someone else to take care of you , cause thay don't understand you or don't want to even try to deal with it. It hurts to want the knid of love that you see others get. You know it is kind of funny in a way. You would think that someone who was pushed off like that and not showed the love and care that thay should have gotting, would love others the way thay do. Well you see I am that person. It is hard for me to really go into a full explamation of what I have been through. But I a

Mexican Birthday Party Thought I Would Put This Up Since I Can Relate To It ;(
Mexican Birthday Party 1. Some of the guests didn't bring a gift - but brought extra uninvited kids. Ooooooooooooo busted ........ LMAO 2. The party is separated into women cooking, men drinking, and kids playing. sometimes 3. The party is at Chuck E. Cheese but they brought their own food, cake and a Pinata. LMAO they dont allow pinatas =( 4. It's a child's party, but there are more grown ups than children. TRUE 5. It's Mijo's 1st birthday and the party food is carne asada, arroz, frijoles and 10 cases of beer. (patron please) 6. For entertainment, instead of playing pin the tail on the donkey, there is usually a televised baseball or futbol game, or a live fight. (Damm they know me too well) 7. The party was supposed to be over at 5pm, but its 7:30pm and the party is just starting. that is why we put ??? on the invite LOL 8. The host calls someone who's on their way and tells them to stop and get some tortillas and ice. not tortillas more liquor 9. You hear someon

Crazy Tattoo Contest !
~ Crazy Tattoo Contest ~ Do u have a tattoo that just stands out? Then enter my contest and have some fun! 1st Tattoo is...... Comment bombing allowed and self bombing also Contest will start on 5/21 thur 5/26 2 prizes to each winner! Comments + Rates = Total Want to enter send me pic link or tell me which one and i will rip it! Thanks Maria Click on link to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~Majorboredum* woman ~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~@ CherryTAP