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Naughty Application
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? Email your answers.....

Ugh!
I just don't get it i really don't... And i am guessin i never will.. Men say women are so confusing, well i find it to be the other way around, a man can be so nice to you when he "Wants" something, and then BAM right after hes in his own world, and sorta forgets you.. its pissin me off to no end.. I mean damn, this is the 1st weekend in 2 years no kids.. and he wants to go to his friends and hang out> rather then spend time alone with me and fuck like rabbits or hold one another or what have you, its pissin me off, cause there are so many others out there that call me and wish they were with me, and say that ima too good for him, and ya know what.. there right i am !!! But it don't stop me from loving him, and wanting only him in that way! But.. geezus what is a chick to do! No kids + no sex = Pissed off wendy

A Bottle Of Merlot
A Bottle of Merlot A gentleman asked a waiter to take a bottle of Merlot to an attractive woman he spotted dining alone. The waiter took the Merlot to the woman and said, "This is from the gentleman seated over there, Indicating the sender. She regarded the wine coolly for a second, not looking at the man, and decided to send a reply note to the man.The waiter, who was lingering for a response, took the note from her and conveyed it to the gentleman. The note read: For me to accept this bottle, you need to have a Mercedes in your garage, a million dollars in the bank, and 7 inches in your pants." After reading the note, the man decided to compose one of his own returns. He folded the note, handed it to the waiter and instructed him to return this to the woman. It read: For your information, I have a Ferrari Maranello, a BMW Z4, a Mercedes CL600 and a Porsche Turbo in my garage. There is over twenty million dollars in my bank account. But, not even for

Lucky
I don't really think anyone has ever asked me how I got the name Lucky...I am bored so why not make a long winded Blog about it...lucky is short for luckydice40..which I have been using forever....when I started Djing for JFR (which I miss Btw) I shortened it to Lucky....I have Irish blood in me but that is not why I use it...I use lucky because I grew up in Las Vegas and the name rminds me of home and the good times that I had.

Finally
It's always been my dream to climb Everest, or at least go there. I used to go on about it all the time, recently though I'd given up. Well, I think I might be going next year, I'm only going to base camp but it's still gonna take 19 days in all counting trekking time and various stops to acclimatise on the ascent! During the climb we'll summit Kala Pattar which is 5,545m high! This is something I'd given up on and now there's a good chance that I'll be going!! :D I'm doing it as part of a charity event and have to raise a lot of money in the process, £3500 ($7000). Even if I do this, I plan to go back sometime and attempt to go a bit higher, cost is the only thing holding me back, that and the fact that it'll probably kill me! I can't believe this, actaully going to Nepal!!! :D

Bumper Stickers Sayings
Bumper Stickers; IF YOU CAN'T FEED EM, DON'T BREED EM! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Constipated People Don't Give A Crap. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If You Can Read This, I've Lost My Trailer. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Horn Broken... Watch For Finger. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Earth Is Full - Go Home. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I Have The Body Of A God - Buddha. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ So Many Pedestrians - So Little Time. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Cleverly Disguised As A Responsible Adult. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If We Quit Voting, Will They All Go Away? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Eat Right, Exercise, Die Anyway. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Illiterate? Write For Help. ~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Honk If Anything Falls Off. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Cover Me, I'm Chang

Heavens Just A Sin Away
(Verse) HEAVEN'S JUST A SIN AWAY OH-OH JUST A SIN AWAY I CAN'T WAIT ANOTHER DAY I THINK I'M GIVIN' IN HOW I'D LOVE TO HOLD YOU TIGHT OH-OH BE WITH YOU TONIGHT BUT THAT STILL WON'T MAKE IT RIGHT 'CAUSE I BELONG TO HIM (Chorus) OH WAY DOWN DEEP INSIDE I KNOW THAT IT'S ALL WRONG YOUR EYES KEEP TEMPTING ME AND I NEVER WAS THAT STRONG DEVIL'S GOT ME NOW OH-OH GONE AND GOT ME NOW I CAN'T FIGHT HIM ANYHOW I THINK HE'S GONNA WIN HEAVEN'S JUST A SIN AWAY OH-OH JUST A SIN AWAY HEAVEN HELP ME WHEN I SAY I THINK I'M GIVIN' IN

Sadness ....
I tried to do a good deed yesterday, but it didn't work out. :( I found a chipmunk drowning in a barrel outside my house. I don't know how long he had been in there, but I fished him out and held him so that the water would drain out of his lungs. I guess I just didn't get to him in time, and since I don't know much about how to do CPR on an animal that small, he ended up dying in my hands. It was sad, because I like chipmunks. I tried to do what I could for him. :(

Please Answer These 1000 Questions...
I hate to be a pain in the ass...butt just like all the stupid PLEASE VOTE FOR ME... contests, these survey's are getting to annoy me to no end... I have only a lil of "play time" each day and I would rather spend it flirting with my World Wide Harem members instead of filling out a "new" survey of 100 questions that I swear I answered already about 10x... Let me put it this way... If you are my friend - YOU KNOW IT... I chat with you often or harass your page... I voted for you by talking with you... I found you interesting... LEAVE IT THERE... Anyway -- have a great day!! I am going to!!

Justa A Monday In Michigan
Good Morning…A Monday morning at that… On Msn there is a video site about sharks…I was not on there either…dang it. Sharks do have a mind of their own. Now there is a great saying that means absolutely nothing at all… Ya ever hear anyone say. “They have a mind of their own?” Well I would hope they do…if not they would have someone else’s right? Oh well people and goofy sayings. Still too soon to talk about work and moving it...perhaps I will get a urge to do it tomorrow…or not...but one thing is perfectly correct… That is my wishing you a wonder yet fabulous day. Oh and hopefully you had a wonderful weekend, I did and did not do a lot…LOL Lazy ass boy for a change…I bird watched…now if that is not old age setting in… we have Orioles happy day… along with hummingbirds. I can sit and watch them for hours on that swing…I am getting old…LOL But, not too old to wish you a wonderful day…be good or be bad…just have fun doing it.. A huge Michigan hug and numerous pats Mart

Monday Links: Opie And Anthony Live, Father's Day Giveaway At The Bunny Ranch, Frank Vincent, Carlos Mencia, New Boobs On Ratemywow, New Club Soda
Happy Monday, boys and girls... The Opie and Anthony Show is live (on terrestrial stations) and there's a hell of a show in store for you today. First off, our pal Frank Vincent will be checking in to say 'Farewell' to The Sopranos (oh...what...an...ending...blech). Dennis Hof from the Bunny Ranch (from HBO's Cathouse) will be calling in to help us promote our upcoming Father's Day Giveaway. Finally, Carlos Mencia will be calling in to talk about this year's Traveling Virus Tour. As always, if you need to see any of the cast and crew LIVE in studio, turn on your Paltalk so you can see everyone picking their nose and eating breakfast. Of course, you could also head on over to the 'Opie and Anthony LIVE' room and watch all of the WOMEN SHOWERING (RedRum, we're looking in your direction).... which is what we usually do. NEW FATHER'S DAY 'BUNNY RANCH' GIVEAWAY: We're looking for desperate fathers who may not have had a 'date' in a while, so if you think your dad is a lonely schlub wh

A Fire In The Sky.
About 5 miles, that's what it ended up being. Not that 5 miles is a lot, hell I did 12 a few days ago, but 5 miles at 3:00 in the morning while high as a fucking kite; that my friends is one hell of a bike ride. The atmosphere was perfect for it: a dark, calming silence filled the streets and once I got to the lakes it was even more serene. Even when the company is mixed riding my bike always seems to place my mental and emotional being into a better head space, the green helps too. Here we are, 5:30 in the morning and I have to work in about 6 hours. What, I ask, are the odds of getting a good nights sleep? Slim to none is my guess. I'm gonna go listen to some records and read a book.

11 June 2007
Dear Alexa, Here is your single's love horoscope for Monday, June 11: A more emotional state than usual doesn't necessarily mean you're less calm -- in fact, letting life's loveliness wash over you and feeling it intensely can make for a very beautiful state of heart and mind.

11 June 2007...damn Lol
Dear Alexa, Here is your AstroSlam for Monday, June 11: Wear your favorite underwear today. You'll need the boost when rejection comes your way -- and yes, it's headed in your direction. But, don't let the impending crises hold you back from tossing your ego into the ring.

Hey!
Alright people... For those of you who live nearby probably have heard of a band called Winter Agony... well babies pack up because we're going!!! Their going to be LIVE in Winchester!! And I will be damned if I gotta go alone! Supposed to be a biiiig show. Winter Agony is headlining so their doing 10 songs!!

Delete Account
Does anyone know how to delete an account? If so please let me know, it would be a great help, yes I will be coming back immediately, just got some asshole screwing with me and would prefer to delete this one and set up a new one.

Hollow
im so hollow inside it like my soul just died all i do is smile and lie when all i want to do is cry i hold my head up when all i want is my life's blood in a cup i swallow my hatred knowing theres no place its the only thing i can do to save face im hollow again is it because of all my sins am i some demon given form like lightning from a storm i watch all these happy people i watch all these sad people i watch all the people i hate that im not one i wake up from my nightmares of hell i feel nothing i wake up from my life i want nothing i wake up from this world i am nothing this is slowly going out of control its all i can do to get out of my hole theres a void inside me something only i can see i hide inside myself because i dont have a heart anymore its stuck on a shelf where i left my souls core im so terrified i cant help myself i can only help others to fill the void i can only try to help everyone in the hopes that i will help

Fallen Angel Radio
SO I WAKE UP TO THIS EMAIL LOL HELLO PUDDIN HEAD IS PRETTY MUCH ALL I CAN SAY BACK NOW FOR ONE THE BOUNCERS YOU SENT IT TO MUST BE AS USELESS AS YOU CAUSE THE STICKY STAYED UP YOUR LOUNGE SUCKS I GOT OVER 30 MESSAGES SAYING THE SAME THING AND YOUR PROMO AND GREETERS SUCK SO SUCK UP AND DEAL WITH IT A LOUNGE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A PLACE WHERE MEMBERS OF THE SITE CAN GO LISTEN TO THE MUSIC TYPPE OF THEIR CHOICE CHAT AND MEET PEOPLE NOT LIKE YOURS I SAT THERE READING ALL OF YOUR MEMBERS SLAMMING EACH OTHER AND OTHER LOUNGES MOST LOOKED LIKE FAKE ACCOUNTS AND GROW UP SECURITY ON YOUR NAMES WHAT THE HELL ARE U GONNA DO CYBER SLAP PEOPLE???? THERES PLENTY OF COOL LOUNGES HERE LIKE STANGS PLACE AND DAVES HIDEAWAY AND Club Revolution THERES ALOT OF GOOD ONES YOURS JUST ISNT IT THERE BUDDY YOU AND IT WELL THEY BOTH KINDA SUCK SO HERE ILL LET U ALL DECIDE SINCE HE SAID THE BOUNCERS MAY DO SOMTHING TO ME I DONT THINK SO ASSHOLE ALLS THE BOUNCERS CAN DO IS FLAG PICS AND DELETE COMM

Rodney
Why we miss Rodney Dangerfield WE MISS RODNEY DANGERFIELD, BECAUSE . . .. He said . .. . My wife only has sex with me for a purpose. Last night she used me to time an egg. It's tough to stay married. My wife kisses the dog on the lips, yet she won't drink from my glass! Last night my wife met me at the front door. She was wearing a sexy negligee. The only trouble was, she was coming home. A girl phoned me and said, "Come on over. There's nobody home." I went over. Nobody was home! A hooker once told me she had a headache. I went to a massage parlor. It was self service. If it weren't for pickpockets, I'd have no sex life at all. I was making love to this girl and she started crying. I said, "Are you going to hate yourself in the morning?" She said, "No, I hate mys elf now." I knew a girl so ugly that she was known as a two-bagger. That's when you put a bag over your head in case the bag over her head comes off. I knew a girl so ugly, t

Fakers
FAKERS. www.myspace.com/blondebitchbabe www.myspace.com/blondefitchbaby www.myspace.com/blondefitchbabie www.myspace.com/brandix0x www.myspace.com/thatbitchmadison http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=80916709&MyToken=fd2a0b9a-bace-4641-b7fc-897790c03ff2 http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=98820004 http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=113614280 http://www.myspace.com/blondefitchbabi http://www.myspace.com/leahlove89 http://www.myspace.com/xglamourrr www.myspace.com/lindsay_so_what http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=116119098 www.myspace.com/Jake_is_my_lover http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=114541751 http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=123381062 http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.vie

Come Bring Ya'lls Sexy Asses To The Ace Cafe And Rock Out With Yours Truely Dj Adema :d
COME ROCK OUT WITH YOURS TRUELY DJ ADEMA FROM 4-6 EST. EVERY NIGHT HERE AT THE ACE CAFE ON NONE OTHER THEN THE BEST TERROR BROTHERS RADIO COME AND CHECK OUT THE GREAT PEOPLE, THE GREAT DJ's AND THE LAUGHS THAT MAKE US THE BEST LOUNGE TO JOIN THE BEST IN ROCK, HEAVY METAL, SOFT ROCK AND GOTHIC ROCK. YOU ASKED FOR THE BEST??? I HAVE THE BEST!!!!!! DONT BELIEVE ME??? THEN COME CHECK ME OUT NOW!!! ALSO WE HAVE THE TERROR BROTHERS ROCKING OUT IN THE LOUNGE!!!

My Babies Sly And Antonio
Sly is on his way out. He has stomach cancer and has slowly been loosing weight. He should by all accounts be gone now but he is still up and walking around on his own and manages to keep enough food down to sustain hisself. Just pray for him. Pray that he will go peaceful in his sleep, cuddled up with his two lifelong buddes Agnes and Spectra, with no pain, no fear, and feeling loved. I dont know what is wrong with Antonio. I have had him and his buddy Dominick for several months now and Antonio has never come out of what just seems to be depression. He misses his mommy or daddy that gave them up. He just sleeps and doesnt play. He eats well and gains weight but everytime I pick him up and snuggle he is whining and looks so sad with his ears back and looking so meek and tired. The vet says there is nothing wrong with him physically. But he just started vomiting today which is not a good sign. I am snuggling with him now and hope that I and your prayers can get him throug

My Summers
Okay, facts on my Illness for the curious. Current mood: bouncy Category: Life Common Variable Immunodeficiency (CVID) Most of us are no strangers to infections. Just about everybody has had colds and coughs and infected cuts, the flu or chicken pox. Some people have had first-hand experience with infections that are even more seriouspneumonia and meningitis. Usually, we expect to recover quickly from an infection. We count on our bodys immune defenses (sometimes with the help of antibiotics) to get rid of any germs that cause infection, and to protect us against new germs in the future. Some people, however, are born with an immune defense system that is faulty. They are missing some or, in the worst cases, almost all of the bodys immune defense weapons. Such people are said to have a primary immunodeficiency (PI). A PI disease results whenever one or more essential parts of the immune system is missing or not working properly at birth because of a genetic defe

Ache
I stare at nothing Barely blinking Waiting For the waves Of Pain and Self-hatred Loneliness and Desperation To pass away Or me from it I pray To anything listening Just take me Just let this end Just close this Open ended Never-ending Ache

This Guy
i like him alot. i mean WOW!! he makes me smiles and laugh, he knows, but i think he likes another girl on here, it sux, i finally met a decent juggalo and i feel torn like maybe i shouldn't like him like him, idk, odds are, he'll like her more den me its koo tho, ima lette il move on...i hope :(

Still Up
Hi all, well I have a really good friend, and something happened a few months ago, and she still seems to be mad/upset at me. She doesn't chat with me as much as she used to. We were like sisters before this happened, and even though she told me that she wasn't upset/mad anymore, it just seems that she is ignoring me. I have messaged her, and left comments for her and everything, and she just doesn't want to talk to me anymore, and I feel sad because I thought we were friends. She is very busy and all, it's not like I expect her to answer me right away or anything, but at least acknowledge that we are still friends, by writing me a quick line or something. We are both apart of pogo.com and everytime she is in a room, I try to go in just to chat with her, and play some games, but either she isn't at her computer, or if she does answer me, it seems like she is giving me the cold shoulder, like she doesn't even want to chat. I have written her a note asking her whether she still wants to

I Wanna Say
i wanna i sorry i wasnmt there and i sorry that i didnt care sorry for the way pushed and i sorry for the way i looked that i'm not as strong as used to be cant see to shake that vibe something wrong with me this time and maybe not always them seems like it wasnt him and i paint my self perfect trying hard not to be a wreak i wanna be what they need anyone but me seem to my self but i cant find someone else i dont know who to be i dont know who is me she got lost along the way and there really nothing i can say but i sorry i wasnt there i sorry i dont know care sorry i cant be me sorry sometimes i am to blind to see int he morning i look in the mirror trying to see something clear i look my self in the eyes i dont know that girl by my side i hate to be a lie but i dont know how to get by i paint me perfect everyday trying to be all the ways everthing they expect of me but i cant seem to find my self i lost in someone e

The Morning Poem (fuck Yeah, I'm Posting This)
this is for every morning hater out there...just because i'm one..and it is 5:15 am that I'm posting this lol The Morning Poem I woke early one morning, The earth lay cool and still When suddenly a tiny bird Perched on my window sill. He sang a song so lovely, So carefree and so gay, That slowly all my troubles Began to slip away. He sang of far off places Of laughter and of fun, It seemed his very trilling Brought up the morning sun. I stirred beneath the covers, Crept slowly out of bed, Then gently shut the window And crushed his fucking head. I'm not a morning person.

Boy In A Box
You’re dressed in nothing but a chastity belt and I’ve got you locked in a metal cage, lined with chicken wire, only large enough to crouch in. For the moment I have you on your feet, but at any time I choose I can toss that box around and send you flying. I stand before you, and turn slowly, making sure you have enough time to take it all in. Red, thigh high, leather boots, white faired skirt just long enough for the hem to brush my boot tops. White leather vest, red satin bra, my mohawk divided into several small braids each spilling well past my shoulders. Normally I don’t wear make-up, but for this I have donned a lipstick color that can only be described as cock sucking red. Walking circles around you I look over my property, poking you through the cage, I use a wedged wooden dowel to pry open your mouth and a flashlight to inspect your teeth, much the same as I would a horse Crossing behind you now I pull your hair through the cage braiding it tightly so you can’t

Profound Success
Real success is not merely a matter of getting what you want. After all, a newborn infant with a loud cry can accomplish that. Real success comes from fully being who you are. Real success comes from giving your own unique value to life. The less you need, the more fulfilled and powerful and effective you are. As your peacefulness increases, so does your energy level. Choose not to let the small things anger you, or annoy you, or distract you. And keep in mind that most things are small things. Stop fretting so much about whether or not you're getting your way. Seek instead to relax your judgment, and to find the unique value that is in each moment. You cannot ever fully control everything that happens, and in fact you would not want to do so. Enjoy true success by learning how to take whatever happens, and to make it work for the good of all concerned. -- Ralph Marston

Scratch
I scratch and I claw Away the wounds you left inside I scream and I sing Reaching down to where it all resides It may not be poetry in motion More like torment in emotion But its true and its real And right now its all that I feel So let the tears fall like rain And let the screams crash like thunder Releasing all this fucking pain Let it fade away and be assunder I'm tired of fighting my way through All the wounds you rip into me So I am purging them all anew Let the pain run free Let the pain run free

Angel's Rant!
OK This is fucking bullshit! I swear to God, lying and cowardice are running rampant in the world today, even in cyberspace! And now, for me, the shit has hit the fan, so I want EVERYONE reading to PLEASE READ THIS VERY CAREFULLY!!! First off: anyone has an issue with me, whether it is something I did to you, your profile, a friend of yours or the profile of a friend of yours, COME AND TELL ME!!! I am not hard to talk to and I'm sure we can come to a resolution quickly, easily and without the need for harsh words, violence and bloodshed! Second: if you're gonna hide something from me and make like everything is cool, I got news for you...I WILL FIND OUT EVENTUALLY!!! If this is how you are, I want nothing to do with you! Either grow up and learn to accept some responsibility or get the fuck away from me! I have no time, nor tolerance, to deal with your melodramatic bullshit! I say all of this because in my life, it has been the cause of too much heartbreak and misery fo

Time Is Short.....
Well, the plans are finalized and ticket is purchased. I will hopping on a plane and headed for Tennessee for at least the summer, possibly longer. No longer will I be a California girl!! I am a transplant anyway. When and if I return the this state, I will be talking with a slightly different accent. Something about that southern twang seeps into my voice very easily. It will be a huge change for me, but it one that I am looking forward to. I will be spending time with my mom and that pleases me a great deal. Here's to a different kind of life.....

Im Sorry
Girly glitter comments from www.GirlyTags.com Semms no matter what a person does on here another one gets pissed off , None of us are perfeect . God Masde us that way . If by chance you have a complex where you think yo uare get a reality check . If i Do something to hurt you Im sorry please forgive me I would you . IM not the kind of person to hurt anyone intentionally . Well usless you get on my bad side then i maight depending on the situation . I love and care about all my friends but , Im not perfect . i do make mistakes, Love to you all you mean the world to me . Gold is priceless but so is our freindship. More precious then the finiest gem . Girly glitter comments from www.GirlyTags.com

Hole In My Heart
theres a hole in my heart i feel empty the pain never leaves just hearin those words makes me cry everytime i feel like i lost apart of me i was on top of the world until the day u walked out of my life and she walked into urs now im alone in the dark with this pain that never leaves and the hole in my heart take a look down u can see the tears that surround me depression clouds my mind memories stay strong wishin i could relive them to turn back time would be wonderful but it can never happen i had the world in my hands and it just slipped away i couldnt hold on tight enough i regret the things i didnt do if i did things differently then maybe just maybe i could hold u one more time

April= Sweetie
Pick your birthday month and read it, then repost with whatever you are... ¢À JANUARY =SHYNESS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boys/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Eas

Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained… Right?
I took a giant step today, and it's kind of scary. I e-mailed 2 different guys about trying to get onto an open mike night comedy show. They are both supposed to be this Thursday, I have wanted to be a stand up (only I'd sit, cause I'm lazy) since I was in my single digits. Cut me some slack about the previous joke, I was in my single digits when I thought it up. I honestly don't know how I'll do. The last time I did anything like this is was to most of a Middle school and it started like this "Hi my name is Shane, and I'm an alcoholic and a drug addict…" in a bad Bill Shatner impersonation. Well, I started drinking again, and I'm doing more drugs than I could ever conceive of at that age. Grant it, it is mostly heart medication. But, hey drugs are drugs. That all I'm saying. Where was I, oh yeah, comedy and 2 open mike nights. The first one is incredibly structured complete with it's on rules and regulations. Don't misunderstand me, it still seems like a lot of fun. Most of

Tears Are The Words The Heart Cant Say
theres a hole in my heart i feel empty the pain never leaves just hearin those words makes me cry everytime i feel like i lost apart of me i was on top of the world until the day u walked out of my life and she walked into urs now im alone in the dark with this pain that never leaves and the hole in my heart take a look down u can see the tears that surround me depression clouds my mind memories stay strong wishin i could relive them to turn back time would be wonderful but it can never happen i had the world in my hands and it just slipped away i couldnt hold on tight enough i regret the things i didnt do if i did things differently then maybe just maybe i could hold u one more time

Forgotten...
oooh ya forgot thos site totaly... past time... i splitted up with joakim .. i moved out to stockholm... lived in stockholm for 2 months now.. but i have been visiting my firends in norway that tiem never kind of was at home :P 2 days ago now i moved again .. this time to Västervik i live with my firend Jonnie and his 6 year old son Pontus :) i love it here... town is one of the most visited summer town in sweden :) its by the oacen with a small harbor u can seriously smell the damn oceon breeze just by sitting inside with a open door :) the heat here in sweden is horrable but at the same time prolly the best in a few years... around 35C in the sun ... u sweat like a pig if u go outside .. its okey if ur talking a walk down to the oceaon to jump in for a cooldown :) ooh and ya im still playing wow .. have been on a break now and then my main http://armory.wow-europe.com/#character-sheet.xml?r=Daggerspine&n=Kristall and my horde main that im powerlvling atm http://armory.

Unbowed
This is the most recent poem I wrote. Writers block set in not long after I wrote this 4/25/07 Unbowed Every new beginning bears the seeds of future loss From the moment of conception, dooms clock begins to tick, The only question to be answered is not the outcome of the toss, But just how long we have from triggers pull to hammers click The sense that its inevitable might make one hesitant to start, One could so easily be overcome by angst or filled with ennui, Paralysis by analysis, that icy stillness of the heart, When all that we intend will come to naught, its plain to see Yet, we as a race, despite the facts there in our face, Persist in marching gamely on to the bitter end, Though the only destination be our final resting place, Our deaths the only things on which we can depend The game goes ever on; as only the players change, It is my sense that it has been this way forever, So my own optimism might strike some as strange, But here

Never Ending
3/28/07 Passion pours out into this simple ink pen The only way I can express what I keep within I dont think Ive ever written a poem I can end I just stop, turn the page, and begin again Words flow from each scar my soul clings to And each time I write those wounds reopen again Its hard to write but even harder not to do When the rest of your life is just something that you pretend Tender moments haunt me and I can see her face Eyes closed in a slight smile as I remember her taste Remembering times we clung together when there was no time to waste But now its all gone and our love vanishes without a trace I plead with the sky to make me forget And leave myself adrift on this lonely sea Staring at the horizon and wondering what course is set Is this the way that fate has determined for me Im sorry but I think I have every right to say That love isnt so trivial that it can be just thrown away And maybe the truth is you never loved me that w

Purgatory
10/16/06 A cold empty building Decrepit and out of place. A girl stared out of the window With a cold and hard face. Her hair was long and matted Her skin was pale as sleet. Her eyes held diamond hail That silently fell to her feet. Her hair was black as a raven That perched on the old oak tree. Not really living, just Manifestation of memory. The building was old and rundown Apparantly no one cared. No one cared to visit her, Visit what wasn't there. You didn't visit what didn't exist, She was there day after day. Always at the window Though thousands of miles away. When you called she didn't answer, Shouted, she didn't hear. There was nothing for her to care about And no one to call her "dear". Shadows moved behind her Reflected on the wall. Slowly moving spectres Only she can hear their call. Always there in spirit Their bodies in the ground. Never again to leave the house When guarded by Death's hound.

Masochists Of Fate
4/11/06 Is love too much to handle; An ever burning vigil candle… That flames us all deep within, We injure gladly burns on skin, And if we make it through today, Will love stand hurdle in our way? Isn’t it true, fire signifies the love we see, The craze that chains us yet sets us free… For, through the time and all foul ages, Through old books and empty pages, Through the tears and all the pain, Through demise and souls in vain, There was hope and endless love; Our sacred blessings from above Yet beware of things untold Love is not yours to behold… Should you end up right from where you fell, Unto the deepest dungeon of Dante’s hell, Know that that the worse have yet to come, For love is an agitated mistress of the dawn, She won’t concede, love cannot fail, Her cosmic power will prevail, We shall yet be remorseful on her account, With streaming eyes & knees on jagged ground, Begging to spare our lives once more, Oh let us consum

I Got Rated A 5
So wow....a newbie on CT rated me a 5!!! I feel sooo damn special. Guess he's not familiar with CT ettiquette. Feel free to welcome him to CT!! He's a really special guy! i even asked him why such a low rating...no answer of course.....here's his link if you're at all bored... http://cherrytap.com/user/935787

The Fires Die Down
I wrote this on 5/19/06 slip deep in to the caverns of hidden torments, and raven coloured dreams the dark wont dry your eyes not here, every torment is as it seems the whispers in the backlay pull away slowly, surely at the delicate grasp of sanity as the seams begin to tear, failing to keep together the boundaries of reality self neglect and punishment seeps poisonously through every single vein as the pain wells higher tightens to the core decaying hope and 'sweet'dreams but the fire dies down at the glimmerring of what was and meant to be of the thoughts inside and the contradictory cries maybe...just...maybe

Darkness
Even in the brightest places there lurks a darkness. Behind the most vibrant colors, it waits. Calmly, silently, it bides it's time. It waits for that one true moment of despair. One definite moment of sadness. One crystal clear instant when it can envelop it's prey. Things going in a downward spiral, it almost shudders with glee. Soon it will be upon you, claiming you for it's own. It takes total control of everything it touches. Blacking out the sun. Making you believe that it could all be over so quickly. It has several ways to keep you, hold you, condemn you. The quiet, peaceful ways of a razor across the soft flesh of your arm. The dizzying, spellbinding way of oh so many pills. The loud, violent way of a bullet straight through your brain. It doesn't care the path you choose. All it wants is your soul. To drag into the black abyss that it maintains. It's so quiet and still you really don't know it's there. That is unless yo

Tell Me What You Think
well got some good news and bad news, good news is that i dont hve cancer, but the bad news is that the doc told me i needed to have my breast reduced, all the pain that i was having that i thought was from surgery wasnt from surgery after all. so i have to go see the family doc and have some more test run and then go see a plastic surgeon. but i would really like to know what you guys think. just please keep your comments to helpful suggestions lol i love you guys but i know how you can be lol

3 Some # 1
Saturday night. Mom is watching the girls because she has Cort & Kay Kay too. We decide rather than to just sit at home, we should go out and enjoy the free time for a while. I go to the bedroom to get ready while you go to the bathroom to shave. You get done before me and walk into the bedroom to see my standing there in nothing but my blue bra and matching lace "cheeky's". I see that twinkle in your eye and the growing bulge in your pants and laugh before I push you back out and close the door. A few minutes later I come out fully dressed in my low cut melon colored shirt (the one I wore the first night we all went out), a pair of jeans , and my knee high black leather boots with 3 inch heels. You look at me with that look and say "DAMN baby...you look good enough to eat!!" I walk over to where you are sitting, straddle you, flick my tongue across your lips and say "Thank you daddy." While still straddling you I feel your cock press against me as you grab my ass and pull me forwar

3 Some # 2
We actually had a night alone. You decided to take me out to a really nice restaurant for a change. We were all dressed up with somewhere to go lol. Anyway, we get to the place and weren’t in a big hurry to eat and leave so we decided to have a few drinks first. We drank and laughed and just spent time with each other away from the kids. Before we knew it several drinks and a couple hours had gone by and the place was going to close soon. We decided not to eat after all and just continue sitting and enjoying each others company. Continuing to drink and getting even more “tipsy”. As we order one last drink, you lean in and tell me that you want to play a game with me. I see that look in your eyes and eagerly accept. You tell me that you are going to do whatever you want to me, and if I can’t contain myself then when we get home I have to suck your cock and then let you fuck me in the ass. But if I win, when we get home you will eat my pussy until I am ready to scream and

To All My Family And Friends ;
i am asking everybody i know that is friends with me or family that really cares if they can PLEASE help me out i will not go in to detail's on here hit me in my sb or on yahoo if you have me and i will tell you their thank you ~Lost In The Dark~

Senseless Sense
I wrote this on April 28, 2006 Walk a path of conflict Sign on the dotted line Give yourself to the enemy Illegal bindings promise "you'll be fine" Tailor made with flaws Dire consequences from truth Lame excuses with an aftermath Nameless faces, do you know which is you? Trapped in an infinite background Truth deriving from lies An animated reality You always know what's not on my mind A short step to far away A book of tainted truthes Cold heart longing for a lover Law over ruled by youthes In need of forgiveness An ever-green turning red A candle burning for the living Someone's lover lying in your bed An honest deed from a thief Thunder making no sound Liars preaching of truth Rain that stops before the ground Pay before seeing the price Love someone you've yet to know Float with a weight in you pocket The wrong map's leading you home.

Home From La
I had so much fun. I went to the Hollywood Stars on the sidewalk, stayed by the Santa Monica Pier, went to Beverly Hills, Malibu, and Air to see where all the stars live. I went swimming and got some exercise in which is hard while you are on vacation. I was able to stay on my diet. I ate at Bubba Gumps which was fun. I was able to enjoy this trip with a friend that made it all the better. I will post some pics later. I just got home from airport and have to go to bed.

As We Grow.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Death's Broken Heart
Love hurts long after it has taken wing to a distant shore. And left behind we pray for... just one more. To touch to caress with lip and eyes.. To kiss away the tears of sudden, senseless goodbyes. Amidst the regrets of time wasted on foolish prattle life lost its hears valiant battle Beneath the sea of tears... One heart leth behind will search until its end of time Only death's broken heart will embrace this rhyme

Spirit Whisper
Spirit Whisper I am the beauty in all you see but at times burdened in misery I am the joy and sadness in your heart.... the pride and courage that set you apart Whit words often felt but letf unsaid I am the silent tears you shed I am the echoes in your memory golden treasures held close to me.. I am joy , laughter and smiles with the bright energy of a child I am in your every thought and bear scars from battles fought I guide you with strength and care I am the given love you shear I am reflection of what is your best I am the peace that brings you rest I am the strength and dignity you hold I am the reflection of your soul Invisible like vapors of air... Yet i am always there Our destinies are locked together I will be with you forever You will always feel me near a

Hello?is There Anyone Who Cares?
sometimes things just get to a person and there just doesnt seam to be anyone you feel can help. well,i guess noone is excluded from that,especially me.tonite my heart is really heavy.i have been going through old photographs and trying to remember things and trying to forget others.well i ran across one picture that really brought me to my knees. it was a photograph of a little child.who that was isnt important for this blog but what the picyure was,is very important becouse it made something that is going on right now leap into a whole new prospective. the child was 6 years old and in a wheel chair .the reason,child abuse.the picture was 27 years oldyet there is no change in his condition.he will live and die just as he is. well,since i knew that child personally it made another child burst into my mind.poor kaleb.once a healthy robust child and cuter than anything you can imagine yet,now he lies fighting every second for his life becouse of some adults abuse.it isnt fair. as i

I Have Been Ask
I have been ask many times why no picture. The answer is quite simple. This virtual place is filled with images. Some are true and some are not. My physical image is not some sweet young thing. I would rather ... if you have the interest ... talk with me online; send me an email; read my blog; scan my pictures and listen to the music I have chosen. All of these thing will tell you more about me than any photograph ever would. Coexisting Peacefully, Barbara

What's Your Personality Type?
You Are An ISFP The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive What's Your Personality Type?

My Fallen Angel
my fallen angel come dance here close to me my fallen angel come and breathe with me tonight your sad eyes, and your sad smile makes my world go round and round let me crawl into your darkside one more step to fall behind cover me with your painful miseries hide me with your bitterness take me to your world of darkness shower your color into mine we can move the whiteness into black let's take this madness and embrace this moment i'll be here beside you, just waiting on and waiting on ~diwata~

What's Your Element?
Your Element Is Water A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful. What's Your Element?

What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You?
table width="350" align="center" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"> What Your Favorite Color Blue Says About You: Emotional --- Affected --- Sensitive Peaceful --- Tranquil --- Connected Spiritual --- Experimental --- Deep What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

Every Fathers Day I Cry
Every Fathers Day I Cry I see every Fathers Day kids and moms celebrating a special day for Dad. They give him Fathers Day cards and other things to let him know how appreicated he is; I see the smiles of these Dad's and the joy it bring every year,as for me every Fathers Day I cry cause my kids aren't here to share it with me. Poem By: Charles LaMark Nelson Dedicated To: My Deceased Kids

Spirit Love
Born to mountains on high An Indian maid gave a first breath sigh Hers was a spirit wild and true Legends of her beauty grew. Soon a young man came Who the maid's spirit would tame Their love burned like a flame But their parents knew only shame The young man was not of Indian land.. Theirs was true love of the heart But her white uncle torn them apart. The young man fell ill His was a broken will without the maid and no love to give He no longer wanted to live. The day the young man's body died His spirit went into a wolf to abide Now he's always by the maid's side He became her spirit's love guide. Look unto Great Spirit'e sky Let not your heart ask why... Watched by wolf spirit's eyes Theirs was a love never to die, Hearts Blessed to be... They still run the wind free With spirits locked together Their love will live forever...

~ Friends ~
As we walk our path of life, We meet people everyday. Most are simply met by chance. But, some are sent our way. These become special friends Whose bond we can't explain; The ones who understand us And share our joy and pain. Their love contains no boundaries. So, even we are apart. Their presence enhances us With a warmth felt in the heart. This love becomes a passageway, When even the miles disappear. And so, these friends, God sends our way, Remain forever near. Thank you Tom...

Busy Ass Weekend
My weekend was busy as all hell I had 2 gigs dj wise Saturday was a grad party We dont need no education...We dont need no thought Control... Schools out for Summer... Anyways was a good time lots of food to be eaten Me my boss and his wife stopped at Dq afterwords had some ice cream now ths was no ordnary dq it was a gas station/dq and what do we get to sit by? lol condoms.... Naughty Naugty.. Cute and horny tease tease tease me.. Sunday was Another car show went from 10- 4 was a long day but a good time

Loss Of A Bestfriend
i found out on friday the 8th that one of my best friends died at 9 pm after a horrendous moterbike accident i miss him alot he always made me laugh he was my lil internet brother he was 27 years old had 1 daughter that he never got to see he loved his cars and motercycles he always had to share what his cars looked like with me cause i love cars and motercycles also, even though he lived in canada an i live in ohio i loved him like my brother i have alot of extended family online and offline i take people into my family i dunno why but i do an i was blessed when i took him into my family he was a great person R.I.P SAL MY LIL BRO (this person is from camfrog if ur from there then u know who he was)

Man's 7 Deadly Sin's......greed
I've heard so much about these and learned so much i was baptised at birth but do not believe in anything i respect all religions but do not have one for myself Death frightens me i fear it for i do not understand it. I cant comprehend whats waiting for me on the other side, Ive heard so much from people and what they believe but i cannot come to believe what they share...i need to know what im dealing with i need COLD hard facts proof i dont do good with blind faith or belief. I've questioned everything growing up some or most people dislike that about me some have even hated me for simply not swallowing the lies they tried feeding me. Onto the main topic Greed..... I was told by my ex that i practised the Satanic Bible Naturally and what exactly she meant by that i had to find out so i bought the Satanic Bible for myself an began reading it its all about getting what you want without consequences. I will admit i do commit the 7 Sins of man but i do not go overboard with them and

Cherokee Rose
In great sorrow it grows A beautiful white rose Nourished by silent rain the result of the Cherokee\'s pain Taken is evil greed and pillages Cherokee were driven from their villages So heavy of spirit and heart As their clans were torn apart Stripped of dignity and pride tears and blood fell along the trail\'s side Where so many hearts died Cherokee hearts looked up to the sky Thier brave spirits asked the Creator why... When woman an children were weak and dying Some kneeling at broken bodies lying... All along the trail\'s struggling line.. The braves asked the Creator for a sign There along the heartbroken trail were their spirit\'s teardrops fell White roses bloomed along the way as their brave hearts trudged each day Despite heart breaking cold snows Clans spearated and tears shed Along our hearts trail forever grows a beautiful white Cherokee rose The spirit of this beautiful white rose in Cherokee hearts still grows... From hearts and spi

Could Someone Please Help Me Out
this is weird im usually the one people are askin 4 help cause i'm a damn computer nerd but now i need help. i was wondering if anyone knew how to get one of those CherryTAP ID's. i want one but cant seem to find out how to get one, if u know could u please let me know i'd really appreciate it. Thanx Bo (AKA Mr. Nice Guy)

Irish Logic
The wife came home early and found her husband in their bedroom making love to a very attractive young woman. "You disrespectful pig!" she cried. "How dare you do this to me - a faithful wife, the mother of your children! I'm leaving you. I want a divorce!" And Paddy (for it was he) replied "Hang on just a minute luv, so at least I can tell you what happened." "Fine, go ahead", she sobbed, " but they'll be the last words you'll say to me!" And Paddy began - "Well, I was getting into the car to drive home and this young lady here asked me for a lift. She looked so down and out and defenseless that I took pity on her and let her into the car. I noticed that she was very thin, not well dressed and very dirty. She told me that she hadn't eaten for three days! So, in my compassion, I brought her home and warmed up the enchiladas I made for you last night, the ones you wouldn't eat because you're afraid you'll put on weight. The poor thing devoured them in moments. Since

Odds And Ends. Mostly Just Odds. Lol
Not much happened over the weekend. Friday was my little brother's birthday. We played poker and stuff. It was interesting. I spent most of saturday lieing in bed thinking saturday. The time just kknida dissapeared into nothingness. I've been stressed out and upset with school lately. I went to see my grandma today in idaho. That was fun. We had a little barbaque, and then went fishing. It was ok. No one caught fish, but it's still nice to get out and do stuff. I watched an old movie with my parents when we got back to their house. Then I went home. People were watching heroes, so I watched some of that. It was interesting. I made links to other parts of my page below. Just incase people are bored and haven't been to those pages before. They might be mildly amusing or whatever.QuizesPicturesBooze, drugs, and big girls.

Lounge Showing 0 Members
There is a glitch that shows 0 members in a lounge when there are more than that in the lounge. Not all lounges have this happen, the fubar crew is working to fix this for those it does happen to. While it has NOT been completely figured out why this happens to only some lounges, the crew believes that it may have something to do with the lounge coding... THIS HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN YET, and we do not know exactly how to fix this problem at this time, however, we the support team has been working hard to solve this problem, we thank you for your patients. sincerely, Vampiro

My Profile
Well got my profile up and running the way i want it. Have some glitch with the music player...no big deal i'll fix it tomorrow sometime. If anyone has anything to say as far as opinions or suggestions pls feel free...love the comments.

Sunglasses Contest???
OK I SAW A BULLETIN EARLIER FOR A CONTEST FOR "BEST SHADEZ PIC" OR SUMTHING LIKE THAT HAVING TO DO WITH A SUNGLASSES PIC. AND I WAS ON WAY OUT AND DIDN'T GET TO GET ALL INFO SO WHOEVER KNOWS OF THIS BULLETIN OR KNOWS WHO IS HOLDING CONTEST PLEASE GET BACK TO ME !! APPRECIATE IT AND TY XOXOXOX

Favorite T.v. Shows
I\'d Like to Know What my friends and families favorite t.v. shows are:: please no porn or anything like that...please add your name and a list of your favorite t.v. shows..... my favorite t.v. shows are 1.supernatural 2.desperate housewives 3.smallville 4.all of the c.s.i.\'s 5.law and order svu and criminal intent 6.criss angel 7.heroes 8.niptuck 9.the dead zone 10.dog the bounty hunter

Come With Me To Fantasy Land
Smiling he said “Come with me to Fantasy Land.” I wasn’t sure of what he meant Though I found out in the next hours we spent Into the bedroom was where he led me “Close your eyes and you will see” So I closed my eyes, I was curious he kissed me; eyes open; he smiled victorious Once again we kissed, tongues and all I couldn’t resist, like something inside me fell victim to his call His hands began to wonder over my skin he must have planned this so he would win I thought how could this be wrong if felt so right Caressing and kissing as we undressed that night he looked deep into my eyes as he laid me on the bed All the while passion and ecstasy filling up my head he explored every inch of me with his tongue When he reached my dripping core he knew I was ready to cum he licked a little lick then plunged deep inside In passion, in pleasure I moaned and cried Whatever you want, I will give it to you.” he smiled with a spark in his eyes I knew right there an then what h

What Color Is Your Psyche?
Your Psyche is Green You radiate love, empathy, and acceptance. You are able to relax almost everyone you meet. You are naturally comforting. Balanced and flexible, you only seem perfect! When you are too green: you are jealous, manipulative, and deceptive When you don't have enough green: you feel sluggish and out of sorts What Color Is Your Psyche?

Head Crunchies And Endings?
The wheels roll forward, the mother is frantically screaming for help, "My babies, my babies! They're in the car!" Slowly the wheels roll on toward the prostate gangster, dead from the gunshot. "My babies, my babies!" A man tries to get in the car, but no, it is too late, the car turns slightly, it's back tire headed toward the dead head. People take notice at the screaming and frantic activity; they turn, just in time to see the back tire roll over the head, crushing the already dead skull of Phil. A guys screams "Damn!" and another one throws up. And then, another 20 minutes of what? Nothing? Talking the kid out the army...accepting the idea that the girl is going to be a lawyer...yada yada yada...Uncle Junior gets a visit. The cat haunts Pauly Walnuts....and then, the family meets in a diner. The end? Really? You gotta be kidding me. That's it? No resolution at all? C'mon! I'm pissed.

Haven't Been Here For A While
haven't been here for a while, been too busy starting my own business, going out on other endeavers such as setting up and working out of a piercing booth during a 3 day festivel, other random shenannigans and such... If you're intrested in talking to me, get ahold of me on AIm: Dismay36 Yahoo: Gazoo_37 MSN: Dismay36@hotmail.com Hope to hear from you soon.

The Great Destroyer......
Fully captioned captivated by time words come quick to sound the vibrations traverse time an space you wander aimlessly around finding things to put together waiting mending hoping praying, The day doesnt come fear insecurity settle in making their home inside ur head and heart you wonder still holding dearly onto hope wishing yelling crying.... still alone you seem to be, Crying an yelling quickly turn to violent outbursts fists torn an bloody anger now filling ur once naive heart the once beautiful woman you were now cold frail an full of so much hate reflections of you remind you of a time long past holding onto grudges making them all pay the suffering the hate why did it all have to turn out this way?..... A dark figure approaches from the shadows bone clawed hand reaching out to you your time has come will you join him.... The Great Destroyer? will you be his right hand woman of destruction? harming those that harmed you taking what you want and need from those that do n

Broken Spirit
With broken spirit inside feelings of soul so hard to abide, some have been hidden away and it seems they are there to stay. Each and every day is the same, lifes spirit fickers like a low buring flame. the spirit knows not joy, sadness nor fear, with eyes that can not shed one tear. The evenings long and into the night, sleep evades the soul with vengeful fight. Shadows dance slowly across the floor bringing back past memories once more. No feelings of happiness or pain knowing not loss nor gain A spirit that can no longer give or take No feelings of any kind can it make. Only my God knows the greatest sin is to break one's spirit from within. And this only He knows,but the spirit never shows... mine was broken long ago..

Stress Relief
We all needed to blow off some steam, to sit back and have a relaxing weekend without drama or unnecessary complications. I could feel the weight of the weeks garbage—work, home, bills—heavy on me like a layer of grunge. I needed out. The camping trip had been last minute, but spontaneous is one thing that we are very good at. Within hours my jeep was loaded and we were on our way. Hours latter we sat around the site, our tents up and our gear stowed. The warm breeze ruffled my hair, calling me to the lake that was only a short walk away. With the energy and excitement of a ten year old, I rushed to my tent and changed into my baithing suit, a black, low v cut with a strip of red that ran from my right breast down across to my left hip. The cali sun was high, warming the water perfectly. I ran to the top of the hill and jumped without looking—I never look. The water surrounded me, cooling my heated skin and pumping me full of pure adrenalin. Pushing off the rocks ben

Husband Off The Walll
i want some feedback on this blog.... shouldnt everything in a marriage be equal instead of the male wearing the pants should the women have the right to wear the pants to. a man and woman should be equal when it comes to marriage or any relationship. not in front or in back, unless ur having sex of course. lol. let me know if u feel the same ladies and gentlemen.

I Left My ♥ In New York
He speaks again. He calls again. He steals my heart, yet again. He makes me smile. He makes me cry. He makes me feel, as sweet as pie! (lol corny i know) "Foolish puppy love" i'm starting to agree, after all isn't it fact that "we" will never be? He's not ment for me. Oh how i wish he could be... He's my everything. He's the cause to my effect. He's the ying to my yang. He's the lyrics to my song. He's the Apple, to my New York. He's the Palm Tree to my Miami. He's the only Kermit for this Miss. Piggy. if only it could be a "happily ever after" but he's in new York, where the "gangsta" girls are. and i'm in Texas, where the "cowboys" are. the only thing i really want is to simply hug him , and kiss him again. simply put he's my NEW YORK.

Pissing People Off!!!
Ok so usually I do not like to have ppl mad at me but there comes a time when I have to say, I'm soory I can only plz one person at a time and guess what it is not your time right now. I am only human and I have tons of stuff to do everyday but ya know there are times when I want to take off for myself and ppl can just get over it. IT IS MY ALONE TIME not my alone time but hey you can come pester the hell outt of me time!!! I can't just drop everyting and do something for ya either, you know who you are if you rad this and No military cowboy i am not talking about you. But anyways i have that off my chest so I am going to bed. Goodnight.

The Eyes Have It
You scored as Eyes full of Pain, People tend to overlook you, which makes you feel less worthy of their attentions. You sometimes wish you could just disapear from the world around you. You have been hurt very badly in the past and you just wish that someone would understand you, and what their cruelty is doing to you.Eyes full of Pain58% Mysterious50% Passion25% Diamond Eyes8% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Enough With The Fanning
ok, since i've been on ct if i felt like you were worth adding as a friend i would fan you also but i just realized i've fanned twice as many people than who has fanned me. so from now on i'll really have to be a fan for me to fan you....what's so hard about returning the favor?...even if you look cute in tight jeans ur not better than anybody else....handle that!!!!

Interview Blood Rose
Chicago and the leading ladies of Metal are facing some competition of a different color these days, as white Gothic girls enter the Black Metal arena in search of success. Names Jessy Blood Roes and jessy group Metal gothic each have their own sound, write their own lyrics and want the world to know white women can Metal. Born in Puerto Rico on may 25 1975..Jessica colon was the youngest girl of the family.Jessy parents were both and an elder sister endured a strict religious upbringing. Sarai (search), a strawberry Gothic from Puerto Rico, Dj would probably disagree. The 32-year-old has been dubbed "satan" for her hard-edge style, and hits on subjects like the problems of adolescence. In "It's Not a Fairytale," she Dj about the stressful life of a satan: "Drama problems of all sorts, Stressing started smoking capri, Carefree about the ones who care for me,Lost teen giving up on my dream, And as worst as it seems, Had me thinking crazy things, Like suicide that bet

Kid Rock Ft. Sheryl Crow -- Picture
Picture(feat. Sherly Crow) Livin' my life in a slow hell Different girl every night at the hotel I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky Wish I had a good girl to miss me Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways I put your picture away Sat down and cried today I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her I put your picture away, sat down and cried today I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her I called you last night in the hotel Everyone knows but they wont tell But their half hearted smiles tell me Somethin' just ain't right I been waitin' on you for a long time Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I saw ya yesterd

Realism
Lately, those who u think are friends, seem to be shady and two sided. In the past several months, i have made many "friends" on CT, some of which turned out to be fake, and some who I believe to be real. I have seen staged deaths and mockeries enough to drive you insane. That's the realism of internet communities.. fakeness to a degree. I had became a DJ at a lounge that at one point was very popular, and had many friends in it, and i have seen many other DJ's come and go, some to start their own lounges, so therefore creating a rift in our lil family, others have "died" but not really. I have spent months dedicating myself to the lounge, and when times got rough for the owner, i said i would take over for them, and ease the load. I gave my ALL on top of my daily life. Working numerous hours for the benefit of the lounge, while other's were "to" busy to help us out, when they were needed the most. On that note, when it comes down to it, the owner decides that the lo

The Choice...but The Hesitation
Virginia.. my home and where all my friends and my family are.it feels dreary....and somewhat dead sometimes here...but no matter.... I've decided to finish my GED as soon as possible and get the diploma then find another job to aide in being able to pay for a colledge to go to ya know?.....but I wish to either disappear or just...leave....and do something with my life....HARDEE'S ( and fastfood in general) ain't a way to go in the working world...atleast that's how I feel. I want to start a family but ...I will work to prepare myself for such an occurance ... but I love him...and he loves me...so it's worth it right?

Rhianna -- Umbrella
Umbrella Rhianna [Intro: Jay-Z] Uh huh, uh huh. Chyeah. Rihanna. Good girl gone bad. Take three. Action. Hov. [Rap Verse: Jay-Z] No clouds in my storms. Let it rain, I had this glame in a fame, coming down to the Dow Jones. When the clouds come we gone We roc-a-fella, we fly higher than weather and G 5's are better. You know me, an anticipation, for precipitation, back chicks in the rainy day. Jayy. Rain man is back, with little miss sunshine, Rihanna where you at? [Verse 1: Rihanna] You had my heart. And we'll never be world apart. They be in magazines. But you'll still be my star. Baby, cause in the dark. You can't see shiny cars. And that's when you need me there. With you I'll always share. Because… [Chorus: Rihanna] When the sun shines, we'll shine together. Told you I'll be here forever. Said I'll always be a friend. Took an oath, Ima stick it out till the end. Now it's raining more than ever. Know that we'll still have each other. You c

If You Had Me Alone...(be Honest)
IF YOU HAD ME ALONE... LOCKED UP IN YOUR ROOM FOR TWENTY-FOUR HOURS & I HAD TO DO WHAT EVER YOU WANTED ME TO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... CUZ ITS A SECRET... THEN REPOST THIS IN YOUR BULLETIN... YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED WITH THE RESPONSES YOU GET. THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE .. lol IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS YOU ARE A COWARD AND ARE TO AFRAID TO SEE WHO ACTUALLY LIKES YOU...........DONT BE SHY...

Nasty Freak Quiz
Welcome 2 the Nasty QUIZ. Are u daring enough 2 answer this 4 this person? if so, message them your answers!!! Rules: Answer this 4 the person who posted this and then repost it 4 your self! 1.Would u have sex with me? answer: 2.What position would u ........ me in? answer: 3.Would u suck me up/eat me out? answer: 4.Would u sex me hard? answer: 5.Would u have sex with me the first night u met me? answer: 6.Give me a naked pic? answer: 7.Would u do me in the shower? answer: 8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up 2 the bed and then do me? answer: 9.Would u use desert? answer: 10.Would u have a 3-some with me? answer: 11.What makes u want 2 have sex with me? answer: 12.Would u talk dirty 2 me while we sexed? answer: 13.Where would u do me @? answer: 14.Would u do me in front of people? answer: 15.Would u do me again and again? answer: 16.Would u do me in the rain? answer: 17.Would u mind if we did it like ........

Ct Men Are Evil
meeting one male and thats all it took. he said hids sweet whispers of nothing than turned to the dogs. thats not fair. ladies beware of maleairhead. he will make u feel irresistable until he gets what he wnats. signed angrycitizen aka latinagoth

The Sun Is Rising In My Head
so i think im going to take it easy for a little bit. go back to work part time at my old job make a little bit of money, enough to get by. i figure i need to get back to what i use to be. myself that is. get back to enjoying life. i want to get back into art. i want to get back into boarding. i miss the ocean oh so much. i miss sitting out in the great big ocean waiting for it to create something wonderful and beautiful. i want to get back to my free spirit ways instead of my cold hearted asshole ways. i need a change in my life. the only way it will happen is if i do it myself. so yyes this is a short one but its a very positive one. so enjoy life.

Best Ride On Ct (fora Friend )
i am starting a contest on ct for the best rides of 07 the contest will start as soon as the entries are full it will be a 2 week contest with 100 enitial entries each entry needs 3 separate pics and the vehicle MUST be your own vehicle this contest is a rate and comment bomb contest and at the end of 2 weeks i will get the top ten entries and enter them in a finals contest top five recieve gifts as follows 1st VIC 2nd month blast 3rd week blast 4th 24 hr blast and every entry will recieve a gift from me please no down rates if you dont like the person and no rude comments this contest is for fun and to see who has the phatest rides on cherrytap visit my page for entry and further details neo8405@ CherryTAP

Girl Anachronism
Girl Anachronism Artist: Dresdon Dolls Album: Dresdon Dolls Year: 2004 Submitted by: sophie you can tell from the scars on my arms and cracks in my hips and the dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that i'm not the carefullest of girls you can tell from the glass on the floor and the strings that're breaking and i keep on breaking more and it looks like i am shaking but it's just the temperature and then again if it were any colder i could disengage if i were any older i would act my age but i dont think that youd believe me it's not the way i'm meant to be it's just the way the operation made me and you can tell from the state of my room that they let me out too soon and the pills that i ate came a couple years too late and ive got some issues to work through there i go again pretending to be you make-believing that i have a soul beneath the surface trying to convince you it was accidentally on purp

17 Reasons To Become A Lesbian
After having some very bad experiences with various boyfriends I have compiled the following list of reasons to transfer to the "other team": 1. When having sex he avoids kissing my lips. 2. He grabs and touch my breasts like they were bread dough. 3. He bites my nipples and thinks I scream of pleasure. 4. The 30 second foreplay. 5. He thinks it is OK to have sex with his socks on. 6. He asks if I have got an orgasm yet. Repeatedly. 7. One time when we were doing it doggystyle, he tried to slip it into my ass. I got angfy and he told me it was "an accident." 8. He asks if he can take nude photos of me with his new digital camera. 9. Biting my clitoris. He thought I would enjoy extreme pain in the most sensitive area of my body. 10.Insisting on putting my legs behind my back when having intercourse.My limbs are not made of jelly! 11. The toilet seat. 12. Not shaving his face before giving oral sex. Ohh.. bleeding from inside my thighs.. 13. He co

Love (for All Eternity)
Come and fly into this world that we made our own. Nobody can touch us, we're all alone. Take my hand and lead the way into this light that you bring to me. I give all that I am to you, and the fear from inside rips out into shreds. You keep me alive and breathing, just waiting to grasp your being in my arms. Peeking around the corner with my single rose, you took it away and gave me more. You set my pain entangled heart free. You're now every part of me. Imagine this world that we will create. Taken away by sweet blissful thoughts of you and I. You've taken my heart, and it's yours to keep. Never ending beating will always sound as long as you hold it. Cradle my heart, care for it, let it remain. For as long as you nurture it's living, it can remain yours for all eternity...

Never Welcome In Your Own Home . . . State That Is.
I have alot of people on my friend's list whom I get along with rather well. They do not judge me for my interests or the things I post on my page. In fact that's what drew us to be friends in the first place. Some I just popped in payed compliments to their pics and interests and was warmly thanked and a conversation brewed and common ground was formed on simular beliefs and interests. I have alot of wonderfull, friendly people on my friends list whom I've never had cross words with. Thing is . . . none of em are any where close to where I live. Except one. Tara You rock!!! I've searched for people in my home town and state found some rather interesting people and left friendly greetings and good rates. I don't even get a thank you or even a courtesy rate. WTF???!!! That leads me to believe that the 'Southern Hostpitallity' motto is merely a show for tourists. Well I shouldn't say that. There are alot of people here that I know without a doubt will have my back if it ever h

Further Along
Hello, many things have changed in my life over the past few weeks.. I have become re-acquainted with a friend. Will be learning several ceremonies this summer. Am presently working on re-building myspace site....you can find more about me there. myspace.com/runningrain2003

Cherokee Love Porm
you.... ni-hi are the sunshing ..... a-ga-li-ha of my heart a-da-nv-to joy .... u-li-he-li-s-di of my dawn .... u-gi-tsi-s-gv my eyes..... di-tsi-ga-to-li become mist....ka-nu-yo-la-di?a at the thought of your love you ..... ni-hi are the song .... ka-no-gi-s-di of my soul.....a-da-(nv)-to i saw ... a-gi-go-'hv the dove,... wo:- ya spirit.... a-da-nv-do (cry)....tsu-ga-sa-wo-dv ta-li meaning two cherokee as we become one angel.... a-ni-da-we-hi- keeper....u-(ga)-se-di of my heart...a-da-nv-to we ... o-gi-na-li-go-hi journey....vi -s-vi below the star ...no-qui-si of love (to love) ....a-da-ge-yu-di sweet.... u-ga-na-s-da is the wind ....u-no-le wing song ka-no-gi-di sing your name i love you .....gv-ge-yu-hi you are the sunshine of my heart.... joy of my dawn... my eyes... become mist... at the thought of your love you ...ni-hi are the song ....of my soul.... i saw the dove,...wo:-ya spirit....(cry)....tsu-ga-sa-wo-dv ta

Rides
i am starting a contest on ct for the best rides of 07 the contest will start as soon as the entries are full it will be a 2 week contest with 100 enitial entries each entry needs 3 separate pics and the vehicle MUST be your own vehicle this contest is a rate and comment bomb contest and at the end of 2 weeks i will get the top ten entries and enter them in a finals contest top five recieve gifts as follows 1st VIC 2nd month blast 3rd week blast 4th 24 hr blast and every entry will recieve a gift from me please no down rates if you dont like the person and no rude comments this contest is for fun and to see who has the phatest rides on cherrytap visit my page for entry and further details

Me
Scorpio You are very dominant in bed, and you like to control your relationship in general. You are so intense in the sack that none of your partners will ever forget you. You are an amazing lover, because you like to have an equal amount of give and take. Sex matches: Cancer, Capricorn, Pisces Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

This Blog Has No Subject, If Youre Offended Youre The Subject!!!
So Ive taken a few days off this site and as I made my way back to it, Im thinking to myself WTF am I doing here? All I see is everyone bashing everyone, Bulletins about the downraters, the "stupid" people of CT, blah , blah... and to beat all this is all coming from friends/friends of friends on my page!!! I dont know about ya'll but Id rather not be a part of some site that talks shit about everybody on it. If you dont agree with one theory then youre stupid, ousted, declared un-friendworty.. Well heres a clue, I dont really give a fuck. Chances are I wont be on here much anymore anyway due to the fact that a group of adults cant act adult enough to conduct themselves on the internet. But what gets me the most is how "significant others" or wanna be "significants" will come stalk ya page all because they think they have the right to because you are friends with their bf/gf/wife/husband...GROW THE FUCK UP!! If you act this way on the internet, Id hate to see the way you act

I Love My New Toy.
Get your head out of the gutter! Hubby bought me a Nikon D80 SLR Digital Camera! That's right, this crazy woman just got herself an AWESOME camera and I am damn happy about it too! Yeah just thought I'd share.

For Dillion28
Dances of veils.... shimmering mystique.. glances of her looks - wanton submissive... then hidden from view. You wish to capture her... hold her in your hands, caress her till she is malleable, but you can't catch her soul. Like chaining a butterfly... the wings beat and the body lifts... the leg slipping from the golden manacle. Forever free... A gift.. given for the moment... then gone, leaving you not knowing if it will return. Taming a river.... deep and quiet... but always changing.. capture it by dams.... but it will forever elude you. A lightening bug... capture it while you can see it.... it will glow for you in your hands.

Nsfw = Out Of Control
Ok, I have 2 pictures in my album that were marked by Cherry Tap staff as NSFW, so i had to move them to their own separate album. These 2 pics are nothing more than simple cleavage pictures, i am dressed in BOTH pictures, and what is shown is nothing different than what you see any and everyday while going down the road, at work, at the grocery store, whatever. Now what really pisses me off about this is that i see tons of other female member so here, which cleavage pics, some of which show much more than mine and are dressed less than me, but still, their pics are no different than mine. But yet, THEY are allowed to keep theirs up NOT rated as NSFW....and it's not like CT can say "oh well, we haven't seen them" i'm talking about members who are on blasts (which have to be a approved) and members who have extremely high ratings and are some of the top CT's on here. Not only is their MAIN pic like this, so are many others, and they are no different than mine. Yanno, I paid for a blast

Goodbyes
I Loved You once an I left . I put a wall of steal around my heart ! You slowly pulled it down I let you love me again and u cut my heart into pieces an made me bleed and hurt ! Most of all you broke your promise ! I had no choice but to leave for my 4 kids an yours . Parents should be able to have both a love of thier life an their kids ! It wasn't always our kids that misbehaved we did too ! this is my last goodbye to you ! I hope for once you learn how to deal with your past open your heart an let someone love you! I tried and fail! I am so sorry for that ! Please be happy with someone and love your son an daughter openly and honestly from the heart not the wallet! Love is priceless you can not buy it , It is all ready there! Thank You for loving me wish we could have always been but we can't make it as husband and wife ! Goodbye Michael Landon Miller ! Just to let you know I did Loved Landon tooo! We will always be friends one day we may even make it to best friends ! To

Pomes
This morning when God opened a window to Heaven, He saw me, and He asked: "My child, what is your greatest wish for today?" I responded: "Please, take care of the person who is reading this message, their family and their special friends. They deserve it and I love them very much" The love of God is like the ocean, you can see its beginning, but not its end. This message works on the day you receive it. Let us see if it is true. ANGELS EXIST but sometimes, since they don't all have wings, we call them TRUE FRIENDS. Pass this on to your true friends. Something good will happen to you at 11:11 in the evening; something that you have been waiting to hear. Do not break this prayer; send it to a one day god will see you thow your prayers i hope so that is have a good day god blass you What I'm Into computer. phone. parting. music. daning,fishing , damping ,swiming ,on my cell phone texsing.taking pics of friendsand family and other thaings its cool your the PEANUT to my BUTTER , your the

My Father Died Today So Here Are Words When I Remember Him
I recieved an email today from my family 4000 miles away in Calgary Alberta. My father had an anurizum which ruptured in a heart valve and was havin emergency surgery. He pulled through but in ICU well tonight at 11:30 pm found out he had passed. My days dilemmas well June 10th is my youngest daughter Iris's birthday :( she turned 22 Saturday June 16th my eldest daughter is to be married she's 24 and now The funeral to bury my father soon Not sure which to do So when I think of these I thought of this Dad Dad...so many images come to mind whenever I speak your name; It seems without you in my life things have never been the same. What happened to those lazy days when I was just a child; When my life was consumed in you in your love, and in your smile. What happened to all those times when I always looked to you; No matter what happened in my life you could make my gray skies blue. Dad, some days I hear your voice and turn to see your face; Yet in my t

Need To Apologize
I need to apologize to you my friends i was involved in an accident a bad one and a person i tried to save did'nt make it. I have been in shock and disbelief. And i have'nt been here for my friends on cherry and i am so sorry. I realized just how in a split second our life can end and it scared me to think i would lose all of you. So i want you to know i love my friends on here and would do anything for you. When death is that close you realize how you have to live each day as if it where your last and to always tell the people you care about just how much. So i am telling you now i love and cherish my friends on here and i will be telling you guys this every day till you get sick of me. Stay safe my friends and know i love you. always and forever your friend Angel xxxxxxxxxxoooooooo

The World
the world..... i see the world it goes round and round...all the world has turned to black. and i lay down to sleep, make the world so bright and neat. as for me just let me sleep.for i am not one to awake.make the day go away .make the night come and go.for i am glad the night has come. the dead is dead and the liveing stay alive...hopefully the world still turns...as i run throw woods and fields. running running nevr stoping never breathing.just running till i drop...let me breaht let me see..let me say good bye to you...hold my hand never let it go.. let me see throw thoughs eyes.let me laugh and sing agin...let me laugh and sing like befor....in the life after death...lets share a love the love of the dead....

Friendship
You know I've been thinking of some stuff, mainly friendship. You see one of my friends, well I don't even know if we are still friends or not. But anyways, she's the kind of friend that wants to talk every day. Me I define friendship as, someone being there for you, it don't matter if I've talked to you yesterday, 5 minutes ago, or hell 13 years ago. You see one of my high school friends got married last weekend. I was suppose to go to it, but couldn't do to the fact I had to work. Aww...the military gotta love it. But I do have friends that live in Panama City, that I don't talk to on a daily basis. Yes we do play the catch up game, which for me is really nothing new to talk about. Yes I would drop everything for a friend, done it before. Gave up sleep just so I could go to a friend's place and help them out with a problem they were having. But the thing is don't get mad at me, when I decide I want to have my own life. You know, you can't really get mad at me, if you don't leave a me

Wolf Whispers
The wolf stood with her ears perked high when suddenly a man appeared close by The wolf was drawn to man, but why? As their eyes locked in a mystical trance Had these two met only by chance...? What was not understood by the man this was all part of the Sky Spirits' plan They looked down at the unsuspecting pair Hoping the man would learn to love and share The wolf an the man were bound by their hearts Whether they walked the same path or apart.. Together their heart's devotion was such that their spirits would forever touch... as the Sky Spirits watched amd gave guide The man an the wolf walked side by side If the man became angry or lost in the dark The wolf would whisper softy to his heart They lived and loved with their spirits in harmony As they ran with the winds wild and care free.. but all too soon there came a fateful day when the man in anger ordered the wolf away.. He no longer loved the wolf with the golden eyes His heart had grown cold f

Sad Poem
sad poem Current mood: crushed you said you wouldn't hurt me but you did. you promised me you love me bu you don't you promised m you wouldn't mak me cry. buy you did. you said i was your whole world . was that a lie? you made me laugh.was that just part of your plan? you wanted me as your wife. so does everyone else. you lefted with out a word. i gave you my heart, now it is bleeding i gave you my love,now it is gone i hurt you ones , witch i am sorry for i made you laugh , so happy were we i kissed you so , evn though i know your sad, i love you so ,but you are gone i am soo sorry for being this way i am so sorry for telling you to go away if i cold change this i would but you are gone gone away from me my heart is shatted my mind is lost my eyes can see the pretty colors around my soul is gone. its just me alone in the dark

Turn The World Upside Down!
turn the world upside down!!! if you turned the world upside down would that make things better?? would all this shit with this one girl stop???? would i not want to deck this one girl is her fucken face??? would my best friend be happy again!!!!! shit if you turned the world upside down everything would be the same!! just upside down!!! if i cryed would my tears fall up or down??? would you care? would you be a good friend like i am? would you try and keep this girl from your bestfriend cause she messed up her life? what would you do? if the world was flat would you feel my pain? if the world was square would you care???? this is all a dream pinch me and see i will wake!!! or maybe its a nightmare that i cant wake up from!!! maybe this is hell ! and i dont know it !!!! alls i know is i have the worlds best friend and i wont let anything bad happend to her again even if that means haveing everyone else hate me!!!! i dont care!! she is the best friend i all ways wante

Into Ecstasy
You caress me into ecstasy as I watch you lower yourself onto your knees Kissing my breasts and licking my nipples ... Looking up into my face your hand would touch all over, until they found the place where I was moist and wet for you.... You would look into my eyes and slip your fingers gently between my thighs only to bring them back to your mouth to savor ... The sweet scent and taste of me..... You part my legs and lower your head to where my wet flavor waits You lick and suck penetrate me with your tongue ... Massaging and caressing my wanting lips as only you can do probing tasting, wanting more of me.

Strange Videos....
Ok this is weird... Barney the purple dino in his first xxx rated video. A Prehistoric Threesome! http://www.sexyofvideo.com/html/sexy_video/2007/0515/1082.html ------------------------------------ Oh you men would love to work here ..... hahaha http://www.sexyofvideo.com/html/sexy_video/2007/0514/1073.html ------------------------------------ Sextop 2000 (hehehe) http://www.humor4you.com/movie.asp?movie.asp?movie=Sex-Top-2000.wmv -----------------------------------

I Poem I Wrote
rain over head Category: Life oh how the rain falls it only falls in one spot, over my head! why does this rain turn red? its redness it just one thing, its bitter tasted is another why does it rain only on me? everywhere i go it rains this red stuff! only on me! why does the air fell thin and small , why does my mind wonder so far? little clouds above my head, why are u here and what do u want? cloud: i am here cause u are there, your mind is far but u are near! little cloud above my head wont u come back another day ? cloud: i am here for you are there, i came when things are feared, little cloud go away i want to be along today cloud: i will go , but you will see, nothing is better then me what a day , what a week, what a month oh dear me! no family to see me maybe i should disappar what a shame,what a shame! where has all my family gone? firsted you saw me all tall and pretty then you see me slowly shrink next i start to slowly think

Lust Afoot (warning: Adult Story)
Ken had always had a fascination with women. Not in a sick and perverted way, but in a admiring and loving way. He thought there was nothing more beautiful than a woman that took care of herself and had self-confidence. From her shiny hair, silky soft skin, luscious lips, curvy hips, tight stomach, down to her shapely legs. Including, of course, her well manicured and pedicured nails. However, as much as he loved beautiful women, there was one part of a woman's body that he had only recently begun to really appreciate. That was the feet. He had always thought of feet as nasty and off limits. That was until he was watching a porno one night and saw a beautiful woman give a guy a foot job. She stroked his cock using nothing but her pretty little feet. Up and down his shaft, and rubbing the tip with the soles of her feet. She also rubbed the balls of her feet over his balls as her toes ran across the base of his cock. Ken found himself so aroused by this that he literally co

Wanna Be My "dirty Little Secret?"
A friend of mine was messing around and decided to become "My Dirty Little Secret" I of course thought he was adorable and decided to start a folder of pics of my friends that might want to be my "Dirty Little Secret" (Thanks Sylikkon) Of course this is all in fun and i'd just have your sexy face to display in my photo album. I'd love for any of you to come by and become my "Dirty Little Secret" I'll eventually be sending pimp outs on all of you via bulletins. Remember it's all in fun, so message me and be part of my FUN! Please give me permission to rip a photo and if you have a preference to which pic please let me know. Otherwise i'll just pick my favorite! This isn't just for the guys, come on ladies be my "Dirty Little Secret" Much luv, Jackie AKA Irish Sweetheart

Another Loss
My heart is heavy For you, my friend. Your sorrows just seem To never end. Now another loss Has just occurred; A family member, I just now heard. My tears fall down, As I pray for you And I ask the Lord To see you through. God be with you, my friend

The Storm
she sat and watched as the storm rolled in from across the western sky the clouds grew dark,and the lighting flashed and then she began to cry she could not explain why she felt so blue or why her heart was so much in pain then suddenly cam a loud clap of thunder and then it began to rain oh how the wind did blow and trees did bend the rain pooured with all it might and she walked the floor and trembled as she cried on through the night as the storm raged on , so her termoil too and the wind it took its toll but when it was over, it had refreshed the earth just as her tears had refreshed her soul..

My Muscles Hurt
today was really nice. had a wonderful outing and went to breakfast with sissy and lil sis. (mmm mimosas) after which we did a little window shopping. you know stores that you don't usually go in with kids and such. this afternoon they both came to my place with the kids and we all went swimming. those kids have some energy, after some major eating of the bbq'd hotdogs, they all played a little more while we (grownups) watched a movie on tv. my kids are now watching grease which then reminded me I liked the broadway version much better so I downloaded the album, since I lost my copy ever so long ago. soon as the movie is over I will send them off to bed, and I am sure hubby will play his new video game he bought today and relax with that. I am thinking I will eat some watermelon..because it sounds good

Licence
I just got my motor cycle licence! I have never ridden before so it was pretty tough for me. Grwoing up my brothers never had motor cycles so I had to take a class. I passed today! Now i need to buy a bike. what should I buy???

What I Love About You
The sparkle in your eye, The warmth of your skin. Your breath on my neck, That quivers within. The touch of your hand, The smell of your hair. The kindness in your smile, That strength in your stare. Your kiss on my lips, Your body near mine. The stroke of your touch, That feeling inside. The sound of your voice, Compassion in your embrace. The serenity in your stride, The power in your face. The calming of your presence, The beating of your heart. The promise of tomorrow, That we may never part. The beauty of your kiss, and that magic in your touch. It is for all these reasons and more, Why I love you so much.

You Can Order A Bracelet For Baby Kaleb At The Above Site.
The address to the bracelet page is: http://www.myspace.com/kalebbracelets You can order a bracelet for baby Kaleb at the above site. You can use paypal or a credit card to order it. They're $5.00... $3.00 goes to Kaleb's fund $1.00 for bracelet $1.00 for shipping It's all legit and I think this is a great way to show our support for this little guy! Thanks and keep praying!!! http://www.myspace.com/kalebbracelets

Trust
When you say the word trust, people automatically think of the word honesty. For me there is much more to it than that. That is the surface trust for me. I give that to everyone. I shouldn't but I do. I trust everyone until given a reason not to, and honestly it usually takes me getting burned a few times before I quit trusting them. I used to look hard for the good in people, I am tired of looking though. If it's not there, why should I create it for them!! I am wanting to experience the trust that comes from your soul. I know people who have that, and I want it!! They never have to doubt anything or wonder what is really going on, they just know that the trust is there. They also seem to be the most open people, because they are comfortable with what they have and who they are. I have the open part down pat. And I am one of the most giving and honest people that I know. But why is it that I can't find anyone to share that with? The one that will be able t

Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On Ct Contest!
Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On CT Contest! I Need Tattoos of Arms And Legs for this! 1st Tattoo is...... with 1 comments! 2nd Tattoo is...... with 1 comments! Comment bombing allowed and Self bombing allowed! 2 Gifts from gift shop per winner! If u want to enter the contest plz send me link to ur pic in my messages or tell me and i will rip it for u ! Contest will start on 6/12 thur 6/19 Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~~ Plz Sign My Guess Book Plz...LOL@ CherryTAP

Baby Kaleb Bracelets
The address to the bracelet page is: http://www.myspace.com/kalebbracelets You can order a bracelet for baby Kaleb at the above site. You can use paypal or a credit card to order it. They're $5.00... $3.00 goes to Kaleb's fund $1.00 for bracelet $1.00 for shipping It's all legit and I think this is a great way to show our support for this little guy! Thanks and keep praying!!!

Howdeeee, Hello, Guden Tag, Buenos Dias
Just thought I would say something in here, I went to the NHRA Summer Nationals Finals on 6-3-07 and it was a blast. I watched, and took pics of the first elimination round then after I went to the pits to check them out. I was at the Lucas Oil booth & one of the people that was running it gave me a paper to get a pit pass at Brandon Bernstein's Budweiser Top Fuel Dragster pit area & was fed lasagna, pasta salad, baked beans, and choice of drinks between beer & soft drinks so to me that was well worth the price of the ticket... And to top it all off, Brandon made it to the final round and won it. Now a little about me to all who want to read on, Im 37, overweight, Daddy to 3 daughters that will kill me a slow painful death but we all have to go sometime, just quicker than others it seems like, Im a corrections officer for the State of Misery for the time being, ready to get back to getting off work when its afternoon to be with the kids more they are getting to the age now where daddy

When I'm With You
When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you... you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart, I've never felt before, with each touch of your hand, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever And Always, I Will Love You."

I Give Up
I FU**ING GIVE UP...THEY SAY ONE THING THEN DO ANOTHER...THEY TELL YOU WAIT AND IN THE MEAN TIME SCREW SOMEONE ELSE...AND THEN HAVE THE NERVE TO CALL YOU AND TELL YOU ABOUT IT...WHAT THE HELL...I GIVE UP...IT AIN'T WORTH IT ANYMORE....I ALWAYS WONDERED WHEN WAS IT MY TURN...WELL I GUESS THAT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN...

School
I start school tomorrow. I have to get up at 5 AM to leave before 6 AM to be there by 7:30 AM. Its going to be a long day. I have a book to pick up at the library and a job coach meeting (as I do every Monday.) Means lots of bus riding and sleep loss. School is going to be a lot of stress. And put that on top of being unused to the sleeping hours and being horribly lonely. (No this does not mean I need a new man. Please do not ask.) Only time will tell if I can really go back to school at 30. If someone had suggested this a year ago, I probably wouldn't have laughed. No resources, need a job, etc. But I got the financing. Now I just need to make it work.

Trimming Off The Dead Weight
Yes, it's that time again. Friends list is up to 106. Out of those, I hear from maybe... two of them, semi-regularly? Others can't be bothered. I think it's time for the delete button. Someone posted a bulletin requesting a nifty feature to allow us to delete multiple people at once. I think I'm going to second that idea, because there are people here who literally spoke to me once and once only and they just take up space on my list. I think I'm also going to target the people who used to speak to me and then suddenly stopped (but haven't removed me from their list - after all, a body is a body). Those people won't know anyway... so I don't feel the least bit bad about it.

How Did I Get Here?
So i'm 25 in a serious relationship with 2 kids and have been workin at the same job for 4 years now. i feel like i've hit a wall. like i'm in a rut. how did i get here so fast. this is not what i expected out of life. i do the same thing day in and day out. i concentrate on work to escape my home life. at home i clean to escape the thought in my head. how did i become so boring. i feel like i'm 40 somedays. i do nothing anymore except go to work. clean, cook, and take care of the kids. i used to be a party animal. i used to do everything under the sun. i used to be happy.

You
When we are together, my world is so at ease. I feel there are no worries and no one else is around. I feel so comfortable in your arms. I feel like they were made for me to be held in. I look into your eyes and see so much love, but know you are afraid to express it, because of the pain you have suffered. I am sitting here wondering what has gone wrong. I feel you have pulled away because I have done something wrong. If I have done something wrong, I just wish you would let me know. If you have found someone else, I wish you would tell me. I am in a state of confusion, please help me clear it up. If you dont want a relationship, but just a friendship, I can do that. Tell me please tell me what you want to do.

It Could Have Gone Better...
Well... the gig was this past Thursday night... and I really wish more BBW's would have shown up... We worked our asses off... and the Club owner was condesending and unpleasent... He didn't care that my partners and I wanted to bring his club more business with the BBW crowd and the guys that love em... ME! My business partner... Josh.. wanted to go punch the owners son in the face... but we didn't want to alienate ourselves from working in other places in the AV... so we were pleasent.... [good business sense!] Anyway... I guess Uncle Sams in Lancaster, CA has something against people who try to bring them more business on an off night! [They seem to Especially despize the Size Acceptance crowd!.. Hmmmmm] We will press on and find another venue for our BBW event! :) Thats it! Have a Great Day!

Survey
1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? n/a, im a guy, i dont shave my legs, but if it was the least bit "acceptable" i might, lol 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am? sleeping, lol 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? online and watching tv 4.What are you wearing? shorts, boxers, t-shirt 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? no 6. Last person to say they loved you? um parents 7. Last time you kissed someone? hmm...two weekends ago 8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile? dont have one 9. Last thing received in the mail? umm, i think a credit card offer 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place? um, besides inside a car in a park, no, lol 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? no 13. How long is your hair? ha, i have no hair 14. How many different drinks have you had today? different kinds, um, 3 15. What have you eaten today? mt. dew, choc. milk, tacos, and nachos 16. Are you any goo

Dj Dark Soul Ropeman Radio
Get your own glitter and more at BlingyBlob.com JUST CLICK THE PIC. (repost of original by '¢¼ CRAZY BITCH ¢¼ ¢¾ (DJ Lost Souls) ¢¾ GROW ROOMS CO-OWNER' on '2007-06-10 18:10:23') (repost of original by 'DJ Dark Soul~*~ AKA: Fates Fool ~*~Shattered Soul~*~' on '2007-06-10 18:35:07') (repost of original by '§adistic Lìght~Ånarchy §kulls Mistress' on '2007-06-10 19:00:19') (repost of original by 'DJ Dark Soul~*~ AKA: Fates Fool ~*~Shattered Soul~*~' on '2007-06-10 19:17:35') (repost of original by '¤Fålleñ Añgël¤..of thE GraVeYard GirLs.~Graveyard Family~' on '2007-06-10 19:23:50')

Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On Ct Contest!
Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On CT Contest! I Need Tattoos of Arms And Legs for this! 1st Tattoo is...... with 1 comments! Comment bombing allowed and Self bombing allowed! 2 Gifts from gift shop per winner! If u want to enter the contest plz send me link to ur pic in my messages or tell me and i will rip it for u ! Contest will start on 6/12 thur 6/19 Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~~ Plz Sign My Guess Book Plz...LOL@ CherryTAP

Join Up
I have started a Family. I want you as a recruit it is about togetherness and watching each others backs. I have two counterparts Athena and Aphrodite. They will be around in my absence. Please email me or contact them for info on joining!

*** Upclose & Personal With Echoangel ***
JUNE 2007. Well I am nervous to be opening up like this. I am a bit shy at first believe it or not, but I love to help and was told that sharing my story might help encourage others. So here goes... Some say being overweight is a sign of laziness & overeating. I hope that this will show that this is not always the case. There are medical reasons that people gain & lose weight. I have always been very active. I love the outdoors - walking, camping, quadding, hiking, playing games like volleyball, baseball, etc. When I got pregnant with my son that didn't stop me. I kept going for long walks and even played Frisbee and tether ball at 9 1/2 months pregnant lol (thought it might help him come out faster - it didn't lol) This first picture was taken June 24, 1999 at about 11:30 am with my son. This was the first time I got to hold him; he was born the night before. My sweet angel baby. Two months ago, I finally met one of my goals by reaching this weight again and presently am work

A Note To Downraters
Most of us online are very secure with who we are. We lead a balance life for the most part. there are those of you who are either afraid, mean, or just so insecure with your selves you have to downrate others. You never know what is on the mind of the person on the other end of that rate, or humiliating comment. I find that most people feel the need to downrate to compensate for soemthing they are lacking. It gives them a sense of power or control. Well I hope you realize that soemtimes that power or control that you are seeking have devastating affects on some people. I know of 3 cases of suicide where the words typed, spoken, sent be email or the rating issued has pushed a person(s) over the edge. To some the internet is all they have. So the next time before you type those humiliating words, click the low rating number think about this can I handle being the one who played the final role is the suicide of another? I have a friend I met here on the net that will be buried next w

June 2007 Dissapointments And Jollies
What a big disappointment in the Sopranos tonite. Paulie and Tony ended on a happy note. The family eats happy at the diner table. What is playing in the background of a mobster, tough guy, NY city sitcom..ends the whole thing on? JOURNEY!?!? wow what a shitty approach to take..everything ends up on a happy note.. c'mon.. I am 100% sure I am not the only person to be walking around going wtf.. anywho.. about my weekend it was really good. CAn't complain at all. Just not enough time to do all the stuff I want to do. I look forward to getting my ass to the sand. chill in like a villain.. My cousin Michelle came over with my aunt Marie. I haven't seen her in 2 years and my aunt in almost 5 years since my grandmas death.. its terribly dissapointing how everything has worked out between my mom and her sisters. Its always disgruntled and durmoil. However I got plenty of concerts to look forward to this summer..got Chris Isaac.. Nickleback, Staind, Daughtry. definitely r

Update On My Grandpa...for Those That Read My Blogs...
Grandpa went home to be with the Lord Friday night at about 7:10pm. We're still in shock here. I have just come home from 2 days in Indiana, where I was trying to get my mind off of the situation. When I returned this evening...things almost seemed normal. But then it hit me - what is normal is going to be different now. I am trying to remember that he didn't really belong here - no one should really call anything on this earth home - because our real home is in heaven. Pete Coleman reminded me of that tonight with his message about how we're supposed to be holy. Each letter stood for something: H = hope should be in heaven, not earthly things O = Obedience L = Love for others Y = be YOU! That first letter is what really got to me...I think God wanted me to hear that message tonight. About the arrangements - Visitation is Tuesday night, funeral is Wednesday morning. Both are in Alexandria, Kentucky at a funeral home there. If I'm on facebook/myspace/etc., it won't be that m

The Horizon
DATE: 09 Feb 2007, 8:23 pm THE HORIZON Far out beyond the azure sea The horizon sits beckoning me Not to swim or to surf or sail But to climb aboard you're big soft tail We'll ride all day and into the night Pressed close together holding tight Content in knowing it will always be Out there, beckoning me. By ALB 9-29-06 copyright ©2008 by the author. All rights reserved by author.

Gmk
A Swarthily Handsome Devil DATE: 15 Feb 2007, 10:01 pm I never would have believed I could survive without him. When I held him in my arms and watched him breathe his last breath, I thought that would be the hardest thing I'd ever do in this life. But I was wrong. Living without him has turned out to be so much harder. It doesn't feel like a year has passed since the light went out of my life, and the taste of food went with him. The reason it's called heartache is because it really is a physical pain in the heart. It seems like only yesterday Gus and I were at Bank One Ballpark in Phoenix, in our season ticket seats that he surprised me with, watching our favorite Arizona Diamondback Luis Gonzalez playing left field, cheering him on together and laughing. Gus was The Sunshine Of My Life and my memories of him and his love for me are all that has sustained me through these long lonely months without him. I dreaded the first anniversary of his death much like I dreaded l

The Never Ending List
Things to get done before I move in 35 days: Graduate Get my license Pack Finish up the financial aid shit since my parents are fucktards Get rid of all the "extra baggage" in my life (( haha, yep that means you MR, you are now considered my extra baggage. thanks for listening to me cry that night, and not giving a fuck. if you cant give a fuck, why should I? )) Pay all my outstanding bills here with what little money I have left Find a way to buy a car down south Switch over my med records Take pictures of only the most important things to me up here. Leave behind the family (( which i do believe is going to be a huge relieve on me since theyr being twats right now and wont fuckin help with a damn thing)) Try and not to be so cynical. Prepare myself for the utter aloneness of down there. (( since I havent met anyone down there & the one person I thought I could count on... well haha, apparently hes just like the guys up here. )) See some of the m

Burning
My love, Are you still mine? 'Cause there are many... Fantasy thoughts going through my head, As all I do is think of you... As I've hungered, For your loving burning touch, As I need your love so badly, Now till the end of time, I am waiting for you with open arms To embrace you with wings of love, To hold you deep within my soul, To kiss you without control. Just being near you, And be able to behold your touch, Takes me to another dimension, But, time just moving so slowly, To feel the heat of your passions. I do want you to know... I will always love you, That you are all I have ever long for, And crave, and yearn... That you are the man of my dreams, The one I have searched all my life, That every day, more and more, I'm falling deeply in love with you!

Dirty 30 From April
1. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Last night 2. What were you doing this morning at 8 am? Sleeping...finally 3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? Driving home 4.What are you wearing? pink tank top, white skirt 5. Are you mad at anyone right now? no 6. Last person to say they loved you? My daughter 7. Last time you kissed someone? 4 min. ago 8. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile?I I don't even remember what it is. 9. Last thing received in the mail? A bill 11. Have you ever had sex in a public place? yes 12. Have you ever been searched by the cops? yes 13. How long is your hair? long lol 14. How many different drinks have you had today? 3 15. What have you eaten today? Grilled turkey ceasar salad wrap at Hart's turkey farm in Laconia. 16. Are you any good at math? Every day math,yes... 17. Do you have plans on Saturday night? Yesterday was Sat. night. We went up to Laconia to check out t

Love Lost
THE WAY IT WAS ORIGINALLY WRITTEN DATE: 06 Mar 2007 By Andrea L. Bois Love was all we knew, and time stood still. He would bring me red roses just because he saw them and thought of me, not because it was any special day. He'd play with my hair while I slept, and laugh when I'd look in the mirror at the mess he'd made of it. He'd wake-me with breakfast in bed, just because he loved to cook for me and see the look on my face when I opened my eyes to what he'd made. He'd sit and watch me eat, having already eaten while he was fixing mine he'd say. He never made a thing that I didn't love completely. I'd rub his back every night to put him to sleep, marveling at the beautiful tattoo he had there, across his shoulders and all down the center of his spine, with my initials he'd had added at the top, above his own. Resting my head on his shoulder, enhaling his scent, I'd often fall asleep too while rubbing his back, but not until after he did. I was alwa

Nsfw - Showin Some Love: A Ct Mumm Experience
**WARNING - This is NSFW do NOT watch it if you are offended by blatant skin pics (and LOTS of them)** YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. IF YOU DON'T HEED MY ADVICE, DON'T START BITCHIN! *UPDATE* There was a second video added by another member. Enjoy!!! :-)

New Rules To Live By
Now that I’ve hit the big 4-0, and as I mentioned before, I have a whole new perspective on things. It’s time for an update on life’s little rules, as unilaterally decided by me: 1. If you’re female and own more than two cats, you are officially a “crazy cat lady.” I’m sorry if you don’t like it or it seems harsh, but it’s the reality. Deal with it. 2. If you are over the age of 80, there’s a better-than-average chance we’ll end up hearing about you on the news as one of those poor souls who died alone in their apartment and the fire department couldn’t get to you because of all the fucking piles of newspapers and magazines going back to Teddy Roosevelt’s time. Thus, if you are over the age of 75, please spend a good chunk of your retirement time keeping your damn house cleaned and throw out that crap. Nobody wants to inherit your polka album collection. 3. There is no need to thank Jesus every time something good happens. Do you BLAME him every time something bad hap

Gus Again
Forever linger DATE: 28 Feb 2007, 7:30 pm / MOOD: Lonely "We will be guided to be in the right place at exactly the right time and to meet the people we need to encounter."---Bob Frissell, American Author. Sometimes I think I conjured up my Gus.... the very first time we ever met in this life, we both knew instantly that we had known each other before. We looked into each others eyes and instantly everything else fell away. The way that he looked at me shall forever linger in my memory. A look that will flash before my inner eyes for incarnations to come, a look of recognition and confusion that perfectly reflected my own. A look that I suspect will be the last thing I see in the cinema of my mind before I die. It was as if at that moment there was no one else alive in the whole world except he and I. His twinkling eyes also hid an intense sexuality that smoldered just beneath his surface that I could feel as surely as I feel the chair I sit in now... Som

An Srv Concert!
Stevie Ray Vaughan Concert! DATE: 02 Mar 2007, 3:17 am / MOOD: Eager to ride My big Brother once took me to a concert at San Diego State's out door ampitheater. I'll never forget it. It was Stevie Ray Vaughan. During the concert, at one point a nice looking woman stepped out of the rows of seating and standing in the isle, opened her shirt to show Stevie her tits. Well of course everyone cheered, and she sat back down. Next thing you know Security starts to surround her from every direction like a small swarm and then began to close in. Well Stevie Ray never missed a beat. He spoke over his shoulder to someone backstage and in moments she was released right then and right there without further ado! You gotta love that, huh ? ! Stevie wasn't gonna let them throw her out. Nope, he wasn't havin' it. I love it!

Update On Dad #4
You know there is something to be said for " there is power in those that pray in numbers". Last night, they pulled the tube out of my dad that was collecting all the drainage. The Dr. came in this morning and told him that he looked a lot stronger and he wanted to release him to go back to the hotel. He still has to stay around the area for a while to make sure there are going to be no problems; but atleast he gets to get out of that hospital bed. He has been there for a month now. He is going to then be sent home. He has decided that he missed home so much that he wants to take his initial 6 chemotherapy treatments here at home; because the Dr. said that he would get the same standard treatment with those anywhere because there were certain guidlines that they have to follow. Then he will Go and take the rest of the treatments (28 of them) in North Carolina at Duke University. I can not even begin to tell you how mentally draining all this has been on us all. I find myself gettin

Dj Dark Soul In The Grow Room On Ropeman Radio! Right Now !!!!
Get your own glitter and more at BlingyBlob.com JUST CLICK THE PIC. (repost of original by '¢¼ CRAZY BITCH ¢¼ ¢¾ (DJ Lost Souls) ¢¾ GROW ROOMS CO-OWNER' on '2007-06-10 18:10:23') (repost of original by 'DJ Dark Soul~*~ AKA: Fates Fool ~*~Shattered Soul~*~' on '2007-06-10 18:35:07') (repost of original by '§adistic Lìght~Ånarchy §kulls Mistress' on '2007-06-10 19:00:19') (repost of original by 'DJ Dark Soul~*~ AKA: Fates Fool ~*~Shattered Soul~*~' on '2007-06-10 19:17:35') (repost of original by '¤Fålleñ Añgël¤..of thE GraVeYard GirLs.~Graveyard Family~' on '2007-06-10 19:23:50')

Best Beach Pic On Ct Contest! I Need Pics For This!
Best Beach Pic On CT Contest! Am looking for pics taking on the beach! 1st Pic is...... with 1 comments! 2nd Pic is...... with 1 comments! Adults or kids any pic that shows you enjoying Yourself at the beach! Comment bombing allowed and Self bombing allowed! 2 Gifts from gift shop per winner! If u want to enter the contest plz send me link to ur pic in my messages or tell me and i will rip it for u ! Contest will start on 5/26 thur 6/1 Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~~ Plz Sign My Guess Book Plz...LOL@ CherryTAP

The Way It Used To Be With Gus And Me
THE WAY IT WAS DATE: 06 Mar 2007, 10:34 pm / MOOD: Eager to ride Love was all we knew, and time stood still. He would bring me red roses just because he saw them and thought of me, not because it was any special day. He'd play with my hair while I slept, and laugh when I'd look in the mirror at the mess he'd made of it. He'd wake-me with breakfast in bed, just because he loved to cook for me and see the look on my face when I opened my eyes to what he'd made. He'd sit and watch me eat, having already eaten while he was fixing mine he'd say. He never made a thing that I didn't love completely. I'd rub his back every night to put him to sleep, marveling at the beautiful tattoo he had there, across his shoulders and all down the center of his spine, with my initials he'd had added at the top, above his own. Resting my head on his shoulder, enhaling his scent, I'd often fall asleep too while rubbing his back, but not until after he did. I was always t

Grief
I will not forget you. You are in my waking thoughts, my sweetest memories, my dearest dreams. I will not forget you. You have touched my soul, opened my eyes, changed my very experience of the universe. I will not forget you. I see you in the flowers, the sunset, the sweep of the horizon and all things that stretch into infinity. I will not forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand. I carry you with me forever. Ellen Sue Stern, Living With Loss, 1995

Please Pray For Kaleb And If You Are Able Help!
this is straight from his Moms myspace page- heres her link- http://www.myspace.com/kristyreynolds heres her update blog- Saturday, June 09, 2007 It has now been One month Today is June 9th and it has now been one whole month since my precious Kaleb was able to smile, laugh, cry, eat, see, and jump in his jumperoo (that was his favorite) One whole month since my entire world was turned upside down and inside out. What I wouldn't give to have those BORING saturdays back... It is amazing how much you take for granted when every thing is just simply "normal", like we want things to be chaotic... Our world has taught us all that simplicity is NOT acceptable...at least that is what it taught me before this all happened. Simple...how simple things were before this. Weak...how weak I was before all of this. My Kaleb has taught me the definition of strength. He has made me stronger then I ever thought that I could be. Kaleb is doing good today. He is moving an

The L.d.c. Family The Laws (ariel Font )
THE L.D.C. FAMILY The Laws Law #1: If you leave the family take LDC off. Law #2: From now on anyone that tried to join that is in another family will not be able to. If your in a family other than this one now they are fine. Law #3: All L.O.A (Leave of Absense) must be approved by a Creator and a Founder. Law #4: If you show inactivity by not reading or reposting the family bulletins and / or blogs for a months time then you will be notified and placed on probation, if it continues then you will be removed. Law #5: All members need to understand we are NOT a comment bombing family. Don not address comment bombing bulletins to the family. If we have time to comment then we will. Law #6: You must make an effort to repost all family bulletins that invovle a new member or a family issue because we do not post much the least you can do is repost them. Law #7: Anyone that has a problem with someone make sure they come to the Founders, Co-Founders, or Creators.

Real Fruit!
Were you voted a hot cherry or a pretty face based on some pictures...were you beat by what you would consider a FAKE PHOTO...do you know someone who has fell victim to mindless and overly repetitive voting? Looking to even up the score? Wanna be put head to head and voted on by real people? Here is your chance... Here at VNC we feel that anyone is game enough to do the show down...we have leveled the field and and want the beautiful people to put the real deal on CAM...thats right...on live stream right there in our lounge and have a show down and see if they can live up to the hype that a photo likes to give us...they say the camera doesn't lie, here at VNC we say the WEB CAM just gets rid of the bullshit! Interested to see if you are really the best...or a DUD like the rest of us average people? Then contact me via Ct email http://www.cherrytap.com/templar friend me so that you can get the updated bulletins.Join the lounge, to make certain you have a quick way in. Tell your f

Discipline (bdsm)
Discipline is the use of rules and punishment to control overt behavior in BDSM. Punishment can be pain caused physically (such as caning), humiliation caused psychologically (such as a public flagellation) or loss of freedom caused physically (such as chaining the controlLee to the foot of a bed, for some misbehavior). Note the issue of legal consent which may or may not represent a defense to criminal liability for any injuries caused. Bondage versus discipline Bondage when used as a punishment is still bondage, but because it is overtly being done in response to a 'rule' being broken, it is also part of the discipline. Punishment does not need to be physical. It can be loss of privileges (such as having an orgasm this month), being ordered to do a task (such as writing lines on a blackboard) on threat of further punishment if not finished correctly, it can be verbal humiliation or really any act that can be inflicted on the controllee or get them to inflict on themselves th

These Are All Painted On The Outsides Of The Trucks!
Here are 7 pictures of (European) semi-trucks whose trailers are decorated to look like the sides are missing. The products they are hauling are painted on the sides and back. The first one is of a bottle of beer which looks so real, like it's coming out the side of the trailer. .... a canvas tote bag. .... Pepsi cases stacked on the ceiling, and it looks like the bottom of the trailer is empty. ....the windshield facing the back and a driver has been painted in the driver's seat looking over his shoulder to appear like he's driving backwards. .... an aquarium with fish swimming in it ....a bookshelf with books lined up and a post-it-note with an advertisement, probably for the company that sells the books. (Again, in a foreign language) ..... the last one is for Pringles-Hot & Spicy. The "inside" of the trailer appears as though it has been through a fire. REMEMBER.. THESE ARE ALL P

Evolve Or Perish.
Everyone around me has lost hope. Everyone except me. Maybe it's just the notion old people are old and just don't care anymore. It's up to our youth to get 'er done. Mom needs my help more than ever. No one has faith in her anymore. My misery got the best of me tonight. I usually hold it in, but I lashed out at her for once, only to prove I'm still a child. Yeah, I'm writing this in prose, glad you noticed. This last semester changed me. I picked up traits that I don't want to lose now because it helped me get through the rough times, but each trait came at a cost of my old self. A piece of the old innocence for a piece of ruthlessness. I've poisoned myself and it's proven difficult to reverse. And others need my help more than ever and I'm too busy fucking myself up. You're letting them down. Yourself down. Who do we turn to when our youth cannot pick up the slack? Evolve or perish.

Boot Worship (bdsm)
Boot worship is a term for the practice of extreme adulation of boots in BDSM. It is related to foot worship in a derivative way, in that the adulation may really be attributable to the proximity of the boots to their owner. If the foot is usually considered one of the "lowest" and least appreciated parts of the body, the "sub"'s reverence for the footwear that encloses her or his dom's foot is a concrete admission of inferiority. Thus boot worship may include sniffing or inhaling from worn boots, as well as licking, kissing or cleaning their exteriors. It may also consist, more passively, of the woman or man lying prone and being "trampled" by her or his dom. Heeled boots may lend themselves to sucking, in an approximation of fellatio. See also: foot fetishism, shoe fetishism, mysophilia

Bondage (bdsm)
In the context of BDSM, bondage involves people being tied up or otherwise restrained for pleasure. Bondage is usually, but not always, a sexual practice. The paraphilia of being sexually aroused by bondage is sometimes known as vincilagnia. Studies in the U.S. have shown that about three quarters of all men find the idea of bondage to be erotic; many women do as well. As with any study of sexual thoughts and behavior, the available studies are not well controlled and the best studies are now out of date. BDSM subcultures It is worth noting that bondage has sexual appeal to persons of both sexes and all sexual orientations. However, a subculture of gay men, sometimes called leather men, were arguably among the first group to make obvious hints of their tastes in bondage in public. The growth of the gay leather subculture parallels the biker culture that arose after World War II -- a number of early leather men were WWII veterans, and the military traditions of discipline and

Experience
Sometimes we have an experience that we don’t understand, but if we look deeply or wait long enough, a reason for that experience will usually reveal itself. All the events in our lives lead to other events, and all that we have manifested in this present moment is the result of past events and experiences. One can't easily tease apart the many threads that have been woven together to create our current realities. Experiences that don’t make sense, as well as any that we regret, are just as responsible for the good things in our lives as the experiences we do understand or label as “good.” Sometimes we take a job or move to a place without really knowing if it’s the right thing to do. We may ultimately end up leaving the job or the place, but often during that time we will have met someone who becomes an important friend, or we may have an experience that changes us in a profound way. When all the pieces of our life don’t quite make sense, we can rem

Homemade Porn, Do's And Don'ts
It's as American as apple pie, and the reason 90 percent of all polaroid cameras have ever sold. Homemade porn is a great way to keep things fun, it's also a great way to remind yourself to go to the gym. Since everyone's homemade porn ends up being publicly consumed, let's get some pointers out there to make the product at least viewable. Invariably, people don't put any thought into the production value of it, so here are some do's and don'ts regarding your homemade porn. 10. Only do it if you're into it, bad attitude or reluctance shows up on film or pictures faster than anything else. Attitude = Sexy 9. Accentuate the positive. Girlfriend have great tits and no ass? No pics of the ass needed, or cover it up. 8. Guys, less is more, trust me. You don't want your pictures or tape to look like a gynecological textbook, that's not sexy. Girlfriend feel sexier in panties and topless? Do that instead of some awkward spread eagle thing you saw in Penthouse. 7. L

Homemade Porn, Do's And Don'ts
s as American as apple pie, and the reason 90 percent of all polaroid cameras have ever sold. Homemade porn is a great way to keep things fun, it's also a great way to remind yourself to go to the gym. Since everyone's homemade porn ends up being publicly consumed, let's get some pointers out there to make the product at least viewable. Invariably, people don't put any thought into the production value of it, so here are some do's and don'ts regarding your homemade porn. 10. Only do it if you're into it, bad attitude or reluctance shows up on film or pictures faster than anything else. Attitude = Sexy 9. Accentuate the positive. Girlfriend have great tits and no ass? No pics of the ass needed, or cover it up. 8. Guys, less is more, trust me. You don't want your pictures or tape to look like a gynecological textbook, that's not sexy. Girlfriend feel sexier in panties and topless? Do that instead of some awkward spread eagle thing you saw in Penthouse. 7. Ligh

Nascar Is Bs
And thank you very much...I think I will!!!!!! Tony knows what is really going on and so do I!!!!! I know it is just not me, because I have had all kinds of friends saying the same. Don't you think it is ironic, that just as Jeff Gordon is getting passed by Ryan Newman the caution flag is thrown???? You have got to be effing kidding me. This shit has gotten way out of hand!!!! I may work for Alltel, but I can assure you, I am not a Ryan Newman fan. But come on.........I can guarantee you this....if he had gotten passed, they would not have called that race. We would have ran again until a Hendricks car was up front. And for all of you punkboy fans....here is what I have to say.....Jeffy started with Hendricks and has always finished good. Lets put his ass in another owners car, and let him show us what he is really made of....then we will see if he is really a good driver, or just happens to drive for the right owner. I don't have to tell you what I think!!!!!! I have been a Nascar

Real I D Act
Is federal Real ID Act for your own good? Not really May 27, 2007 BY TIM O'BRIEN Tim O'Brien says Michigan ought to join the states fighting Real ID. "He also forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on his right hand or on his forehead, so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name." -- Revelation, 13:16-17 We are now less than a year away from the deadline for states to comply with the federal Real ID Act. By next May 12, all state-issued driver's licenses and ID cards must include your personal information, signature and a machine readable zone to contain all the data. That may be either a credit card type swipe strip or a Radio Frequency Identification tag, called an RFID chip, like those used to track products and identify lost pets via low-power radio waves. Though maintained by the individual states, the information will be mutually avail

Age Play
Ageplay is a form of regressive roleplay in which a physical adult takes on the role of a child. This may be purely regressive (in order to re-experience childhood in a non-sexual sense), or sexual (the roleplaying of a child/adult relationship in sex, which may be a sexual fetish and is often grouped within BDSM). Roleplaying adult/child scenarios sexually is controversial as it can arouse concern in many people's minds, due to the sensitive nature of its subject matter. However as with other sexual fantasy it is not, by itself, necessarily a problem, and can be for some, a healthy or healing outlet, and for others like any fantasy an exploration of different roles and feelings. Regressive ageplay The term ageplay can be used as a standard roleplay term, but generally ageplay is a form of emotional regression. Some enjoy ageplay because they feel a need to express a childlike side, others may feel they are of a psychological age younger than their physical age, and some have di

A Poem Soneone Wrote Me Back In2001
I Miss You! It hurts me so bad you were the best woman i ever had why was I so blind to see now the biggest fool is me I miss your arms around me the tender way we use to kiss I miss the way you used to touch me I miss the sweet taste of your lips It hurts me so bad you were the best woman I ever had Why did I ever have to go _______, how I miss you so!

I Am The Diva
I consider myself a DIVA for a couple reasons. Not so much because of how I act, but because of what I do. I work full time for the same company for 4 years now and take care of my 2 beautiful children. Everything I do, I do for my family. I don't do anything for myself besides buy cigaretts and an occasional drink. Other than that, all money that I make I do for my family. My family consists of me, my 2 kids, and my boyfriend of over 2 years that means everything to me. That's why I consider myself a diva. Most women (and even men) don't do that, so I'm giving myself cudos. You may think that I'm full of myself for that, but I don't. I think that I'm just trying to be a good person and do what's right by my family. I know that I need to do more for myself, but to me, family comes first. Due to not growing up in a family where family came first, I think I sort of adopted this policy for myself because of that. No matter what anyone says, in my own mind, I'm a DIVA! I am

Sex Application
Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s) 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 19. Anal yes/no? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like fore play ? 23. What is fore play to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THiS BACK EVEN iF YOU HAVE A BOYFRiEND OR GiRLFRiEND- REPOST THiS! TiTLE iT "SEX APPLiCATiON"

That Special Place
WE ALL HAVE IT, THAT PLACE WHERE WE CAN BE JUST WHO WE ARE.FOR A LONG TIME, I HAD LOST MY PLACE THE WORLD SEEMED TO WANT TO BEAT MY ASS. FEAR IS POISON I LET IT ENTER MY HEART AND IT STOLE SO MUCH FROM ME.IT'S BEEN HARD BUT I HAVE STOOD UP AND TAKEN BACK ALL THAT IS MINE. I KNOW NOW THERE ARE THOSE OUT THERE WHO WANT ME TO FAIL. WELL SCREW THEM! LOOK INTO MY EYES IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I AM ALL ABOUT. I FOUND MY PLACE THAT MISSING PLACE IN MY HEART. THERE ARE SOME I MISS BUT THOSE WHO LEFT ME FOR DEAD SURPRISE YOU DON'T MATTER ANYWAY! I AM REBUILDING MY FAMILY. I HAVE PLACES CLOSE TO ME FOR MY CHOSEN. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE COME TO ME... YOU WILL NEVER REGRET IT. GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO SHOW YOU WHAT IS IN MY SPECIAL PLACE.

You
I can't see you I can't smell you I can't touch you And I can't feel you But, somehow, I know you're there. A distance, so brutally far A feeling, so uncomfortably near It fills me with want and desire And I realize- I must not conspire. I cannot think and can't imagine I fear if I do it will make me closer While you remain out of reach And probably with someone else... I know I could be her... if I was there. I can't see you I can't smell you I can't touch you And I can't feel you But, somehow, I know you're there. I long to hear your voice once more. In the past it filled me with exhilaration And then left me in despair. Fill my soul once more with your proper tone And then jerk it away, as we say, "So long". I want to know feelings I never felt before But will I ever experience your gentle touch again? Or your warm breath against my neck, As you solemnly whisper, "I love you, I need you." But............. I can't see you I can't smell you

Looks
I am writing this,because one of my new friends was made to cry,because of looks.took me abit to muddle on it. hope it comes out ok. Look into my eyes; and see the soul that is. This shell; is just what it is a shell. Find my heart and soul;it resides within. See that beauty; it may blind you yet. Look within and not without;for this is where I am. I am just a traveler; seeking a like soul. Look deep into my eyes; what i am. I am just me; it's all I can be. I offer no riches; none are here. I offer no beauty; I know my countrance. I do offer what is;this heart and soul. I all I have is my word;honor begets honor. Look deep within and know what is; you may like it. I am just a simple knight;seeking a lady. A lady to defend; always and evermore. Look beyond what is and know; what lies here. As all things; In Time ,Truth. Within this shell; lies all the things that can be. Just look with

Stalkee Application
I, ________ herein known as "stalkee" agree to and will follow the below guidelines: 1. To always carry a cellphone, pager, or other messaging device. 2. To be available at all hours for the purposes of being stalked. 3. To leave curtains/blinds open at all times especially in areas where undressing occurs. 4. To enjoy being stalked. 5. To never mention the words "Police" "restraining order" "911" or other such negative language. 6. To understand these rules may change at any time and adhere to new rules as they apply. 7. To immediately upon signing this application, give stalker all information regarding home address, phone number(s), place of work, hours of employment, and any other information deemed necessary. Stalkee ___________________ Date: __________

There Is
There is no forever and there is no yesterday just now and now feels like wasted time u cant press rewind or fastforward to 2moro theres nothing but this moment nothing but right now theres no forever and theres no yesterday so there is no one to come and u never were But there is me and thats all i have for Guaranty There is no forever and no yesterday

Why I Am No Longer In The King Of Ct Contest
OK all, I am posting this because I have been getting A LOT of friends, fans etc asking what happened to my picture in the contest. It appears that some people who have voted for me were using a spamming style program that allowed them to post rapidly and without anything in the comment box. These people did this on their own, and did so even though the rules specifically stated that no fake accounts or comment bomb programs were allowed to be used. For this reason, PlzNoExcuses removed my picture from the contest. She is totaly besides herself and hated to do that. And if she was able to get a hold of me during the day, I would have withdrawn myself from it on my own. I am one who does not believe in cheating and this was all supposed to be fun. I hate that this happened. Not for me, but for all of my legitimate friends who spent hours typing in comment after comment. YOU ALL ROCK! My suggestion for anyone who runs a contest on CT, there are only 2 fair ways to do

Friends
This is GOOD..I expect it back too! I especially like the last Sentence!!!!!! A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens Your Refrigerator and helps himself (and doesn't feel even the least bit Weird Shutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her foot!) A simple friend has never seen you cry A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.. A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book. A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean. A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call. A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems. A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it. A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you ha

Legal Laughs
The following questions from lawyers were taken from official court records nationwide.. 1. Was that the same nose you broke as a child? < 2. Now, doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, in most cases he just passes quietly away and doesn't know anything about it until the next morning? 3. Q: What happened then? A: He told me, he says, "I have to kill you because you can identify me." Q: Did he kill you? 4. Was it you or your brother that was killed in the war? 5. The youngest son, the 20-year-old, how old is he? 6. Were you alone or by yourself? 7. How long have you been a French Canadian? 8. Do you have any children or anything of that kind? 9. Q: I show you exhibit 3 and ask you if you recognize that picture. A: That's me. Q: Were you present when that picture was taken? 10. Were you present in court this morning when you were sworn in? 11. Q: Now, Mrs. Johnson, how was your first marriage terminated? A: By death. Q: And by

Grrg!
I am feeling like shit. Today is a bad pregnancy day. I am all bummed out I miss my babies daddy and I want my Robin where with me too. I am crying one minute and laughing the next. I cant wait till my family is all back together and things settle out. I had a guy I went on a date with a month ago offer me 100 bucks for a BJ--I about killed him. What the fuck are people thinking? Seriously-If my guy was here he'd be dead. Well he still may be dead when the man gets here but one can only hope that the jackass runs off the road in his semi and dies first. Yeah I am being a bitch but that shit pist me off--I am ay need money but I dont and will never need it that badly. ----On a better note--I got a job at the bar I go to waitressing(no I am not drinking). SO that will help the money flow and make it possible for my family to be back together soon. YAYS!!

Why Did The Chicken Cross The Road?
Why did the Chicken cross the road? ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the road. KARL MARX: It was a historical inevitability. RONALD REAGAN: What chicken? PAT BUCHANAN: To steal a job from a decent, hardworking American. BILL CLINTON: That depends on what your definition of "did" is. GEORGE BUSH JR: I don't know, but I'll tell you this: That chicken may run, but it can't hide. God bless America. DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes! The chicken crossed the road, but why it crossed, I've not been told! ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die. In the rain. MARTIN LUTHER KING JR.: I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives called into question. GRANDPA: In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Someone told us that the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough for us. CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK: To boldly go where no chicken has gone before. FO

Opinions
Never let the opinions of others define for you who you are or what you can or cannot do. For though other people may sometimes know you well, they can never know you completely. You know who you are, and what is in your heart, and what you're willing to do. No mere opinion from someone else has the power to hold you back. Pay attention to what others say if you think it could be of use. Seek to understand and to make yourself understood as well as you possibly can. Yet always keep in mind that the person who knows most about you is you. You know what you can do, and you know why you're doing it, even if no one else understands. The hurtful, limiting comments say more about the people who make those comments than they say about you. Whatever they may say, you know who you are. Move on confidently forward with the best that you can be.

Guess What ??? Im Backkkkkk
Hello all my Wonderful Friends .. Hoping your doing good... Welp The Graduation is Over with .. What a wonderful nite .. other than the damn tornado's comin thru ... But we made it . He's got his diplomia . and has since told me he's goin to College . ( YAYY ) he wants to be a teacher .. So .. the Next step of the SAT's are in the process of being taken . and he'll be movin on .. Had some big tears the other nite .. I could see that lil face with all those lil curls looking up at me .. Now a Man .. as he leaned in to give me one of the biggest hugs id ever gotten from him ..He leaned in .. and Said Thank you Mom for everything .. I love you .. Yepp I was flooding the yard with the tears .. Then he asked me for the keys .. and went to pick up his girlfriend to spend a lil time before Graduation .. I told him NO goin out and makin me a Grandma ! Welp .. Whats next for this chickie ?? Who knows but whatever it is .. is going to be AMAZING !!!!! Thank you all for putting up

My Pics Went Into Overkill!
Ok friends!! Because I have soooooooo many pics, I have made things a little easier for you to locate a particular pic. I have numbered all my albums!! 28 in all I believe! Yeah, I know, WHEW!!! lol The only pic in my default album is my default pic. If you see a pic, that you know to be me, but you can't see my face, PLEASE let me know first! I will flag it NSFW myself immediatly. If YOU flag it, I'll get a nasty letter from CT staff threatening to "Delete my account!!!" PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just tell me what number album has the "offensive" (cough cough) pic in, and I will flag it myself. Thank you soooooo much!!! I love you all!!!! MMUUUAAAHHHHH!!!! Silver

Naughty Application
NAUGHTY APPLiCATiON" Best and hottest one will get a reply...... 1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Threesome? 20. How many times would you like to cum? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 21. Can I use you as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Eternity Bliss
we lay in eachothers arms the sky our blanket the stars our light sweet kisses of passion the heat that keeps us warm bodys of sweet passion come to make one as sweet eternity bliss is our days and our nights in eachothers arms it feels so right so I wish of this sweet eternity to never end.

Embrace Me
Embrace Me I'm intrigued by your sweet lover notion. Filled with hope and integrity, purest devotion. Every breath, now, I long for your touch. To be freed from my curse into your warm and darkened clutch. Embrace me Fallen Angel, envelope me in your wings. Whisper sweet nothings until dawn blinds me with it's sting. By: Tim Kern AKA Lestat 06-10-07

Let See What You Think ...
I posted this in my MS ... at 6:10 AM .. I am still teary eyed .... Current mood: teary Oh my God... I woke up at 5:38 to screams and no they were not my own. I waited thinking that it was a dream because there was a pause and then over and over again i heard screams with less intensity. To call 911 or not ... hmmm. I know exactly where it is coming from and who it is. and for a moment all I can think of is that the girl next door (who has a baby) may be getting hurt by her husband since they have had problems before (i.e. fighting and he has hit her [per her]). Ok i call 911 ... ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring, ring (did i just hit re-dial and call Wendy). Nope, 911 operator is now on the line. Give name. address, issue, etc and then hang up. Well now there is no way i can get back to sleep and unfortunately my brain is taken back to childhood to several moments in time for both my self and my mom. Let me tell you no one called 911 then especially when i screa

The Numbers Game
I WANT UR NUMBER... I DONT CARE WHO U ARE... I BET U WON'T GIVE IT TO ME... I DARE U! COPY AND PASTE THIS AND SEE HOW MANY NUMBERZ U CAN GET!!! NAME:________________ NUMBER:________________ IT DOESNT MATTER IF UR SINGLE OR NOT. COPY AND REPOST OR U AND UR TRUE LOVE CAN NEVER BE REPOST AS...I WANT YOUR NUMBER

Vampyric Pheonix
Vampyric Pheonix Dance me, romance me, necromance me with your enchanting darkness so sweet. Equally as deranged as mine, powerful, blatant, anything but shallow and discrete. I look forward, most famously, to each entrancing moment we share. Physical, metaphysical, normal, paranormal to you my soul I shall bare. Eternally grateful for every breath no matter how difficult or easy in it's release, earned! This is the kind of treasured sharing of spirit for which my very core has yearned and burned! Embrace me and I shall embrace you, two kindred minds act as one. Unholy union feared and revered by all, a challenge issued and won. Lestat's Dead Heart Beats Again... Cast Your Spell, Show What I've Been Missin'... By: Tim Kern AKA Lestat de Lioncourte 06-10-07

What Would You Call It?...
Finding someone unlike anyone you've ever met. You're not sure what makes everything about them so special, but you're going with the flow for a while. There are limitations to this new friendship you have encountered. You know them and understand your boundaries. When you see him/her you feel that bubbly feeling in your heart that you just love. You can look into a mirror and sure enough, that smile has now returned. When you walk, you can feel that extra bounce in your step. When you have to walk away, you feel that deep throb in your heart that aches to see them again. You still aren't sure what it is about them, but you really like being around and seeing this beloved person. The sound of their name, when you close your eyes you can almost make a perfect image, the sound of their voice when they say your name... You snuggle up in your bed at night with something dear and close to them. If this is as close as I'm ever going to get to them, I'm ok with that, You say to you

I Dunno
Why is it that only guys comment on my page? I am straight, but I would like it if girls commented as well. I mean, if I was ever in a bar in real life, i would probably be more likely to talk to girls cause im too shy around guys, especially really good looking ones, lol. so i hope that i can make more friends and get more comments on here, from both guys AND girls. thanks! :-)

No More
No more. I've had enough. Don't fuck with us any more. Don't mess with our lives, please. Don't play fight with us, then haul off and slap us in the face. It hurts; it infuriates. Don't choke me any more. Please. I don't want my son to come up to me and complain that he's been hit in the face, and hit in private areas. It hurts and angers me. Tony, please...stop.

Where I've Been
I have been trying to keep my shit together....with working 2 jobs, 2 teenaged girls and a disabled hubby (oh yeah, and 3 dogs and 2 cats). I don't know how the hell people have energy to clean their homes after work and such! My life is topsy-turvy, and don't see an end in sight. If I make it on to CT, it's usually not for long, maybe enough to say hello to a few random people, post a few things, then off I go on another tangent. Thanks you all of you who read this, since you obviously care enough to look. Just know that I think about my CT friends a lot, and when I find some time in the VERY near future, I will be posting stuff, other than changing my music about once a week as I've been doing (I'm eclectic and spontaneous...ok probably borderline ADD as I can rarely listen to a song the whole way through anymore). Oh, that time in the VERY near future...should be within the next day or so as I took some vacation time to get stuff done around my house, and give me some *M

Spelling Isnt As Important As I Thought Lol
Cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervy lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!if you can raed tihs rpsoet it.

Sue & Gloria's Baked Beans Via Paula Deen
4 (16 ounce) cans baked beans 1 (20 ounce) can crushed pineapple 1 cup molasses 1 cup barbecue sauce 2 tablespoons yellow mustard 6 slices bacon, cooked and crumbled 1 (6 ounce) can French-fried onions, crushed 1 tablespoon hot sauce 2 teaspoons garlic powder Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Combine all the ingredients, BUT ADD ONLY HALF THE FRENCH FRIED ONIONS (crush the onion in the can before using them). Pour into a 9x13 sprayed casserole. Sprinkle with the remaining onions. The casserole will be very full, so set it on a cookie sheet to save your oven.:-). Cook for aproximately 1 hour or until it bubbles.

Taco Bell
when a couple has 2 computers it can go horribly wrong amanda says: im hungry william says: me too amanda says: i love you amanda says: if you only show me william says: let me get ready for my journey into the unknown william says: taco bell? amanda says: hm amanda says: belly amanda says: ow william says: nachos amanda says: no william says: wet burrito from caso ole amanda says: tacos william says: wet amanda says: you want my wet taco william says: i want to put my beef burrito in you wet taco so we can have a combo platter amanda says: i have a feeling this is gonna be bad amanda says: good job william says: i'll hold the sour cream amanda says: yucky amanda says: this sounds nasty amanda says: i want chicken william says: yeah hopefully since i haven't bathed there won't be any guacamole amanda says: i almost threw up william says: sorry william says: let me go leave some black olives in the bathroom then i'll run for the bord

This Little Boy Is Fighting For His Life!! Please Pray To Keep Him Safe!!
Everyday children all over the world have to fight for their lives due to circumstances out of their control. This little boy for instance needs all the prayers he can get! He is fighting that fight everyday to stay here on earth and be with his mommy and daddy! Kaleb is only 6 1/2 months old and is spending this ever so precious time of his life in the hospital fighting for it! Please watch this and Remember Baby Kaleb, Just think this could be your child..... Pray for baby Kaleb. Add to My Profile | More Videos

Book Of Knowledge
a, as is a in father e, as a in hate i, as in i in pique o, as in note u as oo in fool v, as u in gun, nasalaized (unh) Letters in parentheses are sometimes not spoke in everyday language ' indicates accent on that syllable, following a consonant means the vowel has been left out ? indicates pause after that syllable : indicates that the vowel is long and takes twice as long to say Animals, Insects, Reptiles and Fish, and BirdsEnglish/Yonega Tsalagi Phonetics English/Yonega Tsalagi Phonetics chipmunk ki-yu:-ga mink ta-ni:qua mouse, rat tsi-d-de-tsi weasel (yellow rat) da-lo'-ni-ge tsi-d-de-tsi ant do-sv-da-li bee wa-du-li:-si earthworm u-tsi:-ya, u-ni-tsi:-ya spider (a-ni-)ka-na-ne'-s-gi wasp,hornet ka-n(a)-ts(i)-s-de-tsi, a-ni-ka-n(a)-ts(i)-s-de:-tsi alligator (also, iron pot) tsu-la-s-gi, tsu-n'-la-s-gi black snake (climber) ga-le-gi bullfrog tsu-li-s-da-na:-li, tsu-n'-li-s-da-na:-li crawfish tsi:-s-dv-

Sts-117 Atlantis Flight Day 3 Recap.
STS-117 Atlantis Flight Day 3 6.10.07 8:15 p.m. The STS-117 crew entered the International Space Station for the first time after the hatches between the station and Space Shuttle Atlantis opened at 5:20 p.m. EDT today. Space Shuttle Atlantis and the STS-117 crew arrived at the International Space Station at 3:36 p.m., delivering a new truss segment and crew member to the orbital outpost. One of the first major tasks is the station crew rotation. STS-117 Mission Specialist Clayton Anderson will switch places with Expedition 15 Flight Engineer Suni Williams, who will be wrapping up a six-month tour of duty on the station. Anderson is scheduled to stay on the station until he returns to Earth with STS-120 later this year. Anderson will officially become a member of Expedition 15 when his custom-made seat liner is swapped out with Williams’ in the Soyuz spacecraft docked to the station. The crews will prepare for Monday’s installation of the Sta

Checking In
I haven't been on here in a while. As the matter of fact, this is the first time I've been on in over a week. It's practically the first time I've even just been online in a week or so. I know that even though I haven't been on CT long, I've been on here long enough to make a few friends who notice when I'm not here. To you guys, thanks for making me feel welcome and noticing when I'm not around. It's nice to feel missed. The reality is, much as I enjoy being online, life happens...and that's always going to take precident...which is as it should be. And that's what happened this last week. In the last week I've attended a wedding, had house guests, had car trouble, had 3 meetings, 1 corporate visit, and fired someone. Yeah, I've had a lot going on. But I have missed being on here. This is my escape from reality...it's where I come to play. When I've been gone for a while, I miss it. I am just glad I had a few minutes to just relax today.

Welcome Cherokee 2
Seven Ceremonies There are six major ceremonies which are observed yearly by the Cherokee. They are held during the year which can be of twelve to thirteen months depending upon the number of moons occurring in that year. A seventh ceremony occurs every seven years. First New Moon of Spring Celebrated about the time grass begins to grow. Prior to the festival the Uku and his council of seven ask the women to perform a friendship dance. Then using a crystal divine when the new moon will appear. The festival is a time when the old fires in the homes are extinguished and ashes removed and replaced with new fire started at the festival. As a offering of thanks, the tongue of the next deer killed by the husband of each house is sacrificed to the new fire in his home. New Green-Corn Feast The Uku issues instructions to his seven counselors for the regulation and watching of the growing fields. When the corn has reached the stage (fit to taste) for the New Green-Corn Feast, messengers ar

Just Another Ramble
I'm becoming terribly resigned. pretty much just life in general I'm resigned to love, and don't even know if I believe in it anymore. there's plenty of signs in my life that point to YES and I should believe, but I'm not so sure if it's going to wander my way any time soon. I'm resigned to the passage of time, I can do nothing to stop it. it will continually speed up and unless I accept it, I'll simply be drug behind it. Maybe it's not even really resign. maybe it's just apathy. I can feel that old numbness creeping back up my spine, just waiting to take over again. I hated those days. I was such a mess. I felt nothing for a months. nothing hurt, nothing was pleasurable, nothing was tolerable and nothing set me in any direction except further into complete indifference. I don't know the exact moment when it happened. but I became a former shell of myself. My inspiration has been lacking. Am I only the only person in the world who literally acts out scenarios? I'll come up with som

Racist By Default...?
Well, I was informed today that I'm a white girl, and as such, I'm racist by default. Apparently, members of the caucasian race cannot help it. We're possessed of an innate racist attitude. Please note the fact that I differentiated between the "white" people and everyone else of every other race. I mean, if I'm going to be racist by default, I need to make certain that they know that we're different. I was tempted to explain that this whole being white thing was just a minor birth defect because deep down inside, I'm really a "sista" and if I wore earrings, I'd take 'em out whenever I was ready to get my fight on...

One Simple Word
I gave you my strength, my essence of being I gave it openly and freely, you did not take it from me like a thief in the night. I gave to you all that I am In order that you could become the person you are. With one simple word YES

Writing Sample
I wrote this as an intro to a speech for my Communications class. Hehe I am pretty sure the subject will make itself clear as you read. Just felt like sharing, which is not generally something I do often when it comes to my writing. The room had been ransacked, to the unsuspecting eye it would appear as if she had been robbed. Table tops had been cleared, dresser drawers emptied, and bedding thrown about. No, she hadn’t been robbed, she did this. She was sitting in the corner of the room, her body still trembling from the adrenaline that had surged through here only moments ago. She sat cradling her knees as she slowly rocked back and forth, tears steadily streaming down her face. Tearing the room apart piece by piece hadn’t been enough, her head was still full of noise. She was searching for a way to put an end to all of this feeling. You could see her thoughts collecting in her eyes, Suicide? No, too permanent. She had been so certain that physically taking out

Remembering Me
Listen. Every time you feel the wind blow, or the birds sing, or the rain coming down, I am there with you. Breathe. Just because I am not on this earth does not mean I am not here by your side. I am with you always. Talk. I hear you always. Even when you think that I am not paying attention, I am. I will always listen to you. Rejoice. After you heal from this tragedy, I want you to be able to laugh and sing again. I will rejoice with you. Heal. Time will be on your side because I am there to comfort you when you think no one is. I will help you through this. Live. Although you think you cannot go on anymore, you have to. I will live through you and my family. Pray. God will help you. When pain is too much to bare. He will show you through the darkest tunnel. Even now that I am gone. I will not be forgotten because you were the person to make sure that someone knew me…. Through you.

~escape~
Jherik suddenly heard the locks to his cell door click open and raised his head to see Grimaldi walk in, flanked by two guardsmen. The look on Grimaldi's face was that of arrogant satisfaction as Jherik stood glaring at the man responsible for his imprisonment. "I trust you find your accomodations...." Grimaldi waved his hand around the room with a flourish,"....acceptable?" Jherik smirked. "The wards are exquisite, Grimaldi- shows how much you really fear me." "Fear?" Grimaldi snorted, eyes turned to stone. "No, foolish child, but contempt? Oh, yes, there is a lot of that. Speaking of children, you should know that your mother should be on her way here- I trust she will be happy to see her only child?" Jherik's expression turned from confusion to fear. "What? Why?" "Oh, did you forget?" Grimaldi sneered, eyes glittering with manic glee. "According to Coven Law, the family of those accused of treason or murder of an official are also brought in for question

Family Affairs
The 6th affair is my favorite! > > I couldn't resist sending these out....Too funny! > > I though these were so funny....enjoy! > > The 1st Affair > > A married man was having an affair with his secretary. One day they > went to her place and made love all afternoon. Exhausted, they fell > asleep and woke up at 8 PM. The man hurriedly dressed and told his lover > to take his shoes outside and rub them in the grass and dirt. He put on > his shoes and drove home. > > "Where have you been?" his wife demanded. > > "I can't lie to you," he replied, "I'm having an affair with my > secretary. We had sex all afternoon." > > She looked down at his shoes and said: "You lying bastard! You've > been playing golf!" > > > > The 2nd Affair > > A middle-aged couple had two beautiful daughters, but always talked > about having a son. They decided to try one last time for the son they > always wanted. The wife got pregnant and delivered a healthy baby boy. > >

Friends And Confederate Family
I have been comment bombing when i am able....so i haven't forgotten any of you.... I am in the process of trying to move again and have taken on the task (proabably temporary) of caring for Joyce's dogs(the lady that owns the house we are in) and sitting at the hospital with her mother(she has been there almost a week)...things with her aren't looking good at all...I miss talking to you all and helping in contests like I once could....I hope that as soon as we are settled at the farm we are moving to things will slow down a lil bit....plus on top of all the other stuff i have been really sick due to sinus infections and allergies.... LOVE, GLENDA(REBELROSE)

Having Surgery
Well i will be out of comission for a bit...i am having surgery tomorrow on my arm. they have to go in and release the ulna nerve at my elbow and at my wrist and while they are doing that they are going to take care of my carpal tunnel. I am a bit nervous but i know i am in good hands, my doctor is supposed to be one of the best at this proceedure. I am just not looking forward to the recovery time it is seriously gonna cut into my play time LOL! Oh well, I WILL BE BACK!!!!

For Baby Kaleb & Family
PLEASE WATCH THIS WHOLE VIDEO IF YOU HAVE KIDS OR LOVE THEM PLEASE WATCH IT...I SUPPORT CHILD ABBUSE AWARENESS...SO IF YOU HAVE A HEART WATCH IT...NO CHILD SHOULD GO THROUGH WHAT THIS CHILD HAS AND NO FAMILY EITHER. Pray for baby Kaleb.Add to My Profile | More Videos

I Think I See To Much
I see so much working the job I do.I see everything from couples that have been married for 30 years all the way to the quick pop one night stands.I get to watch and read people and sometimes I don't like what I see,but it is also my place to keep my mouth shut...BUT YOU KNOW ME sometimes I just can't... I can not stand to see a young girl come in with someone that you can clearly see is useing them all the while they are standing there playing dumb,or if they are not playing dumb then they are acting like the king big shyt..then there's the ones that play the innocent "Who... Me" casting THEMSELVES as the humble servant ..Yea duhhh.. I think the way we are sometimes, is made up of not just the things we go through in life but what we are around..the things we see and hear..and I think I see way to much.I don't date in RL and I don't play online because it is my choice.I keep watching people, studying them, listening to what they say,wondering how much is really ment and how much

Chance Meeting..once More
Thinking about the first time we met,the day I suprised you at your office, and how my skin danced to your touch. the second time I saw you from a distance you were standing on the corner on your way to work when it started to rain,I remember the puzzled way you smiled at me when our eyes met,just for a fleeting instant I thought you might have remembered me. Would I dare chance another meeting? How could I arrange such a meeting without you being supicious? hmmmm..the office is out,so is a chance meeting of me running into you.. .let me see now. I know you take meetings outside the office ,,hmmmm ,,yea! that might just work.... After I get the time and place arranged next step to call your secretary to set up the appointment with you,and inform her that there will no need for you to take a taxi that I would send a car to pick you up.{That way no muss no fuss you are delivered to my door}hmmm ok that'll work.. I have decided that at this meeting that I am going to be the one i

Describe Yourself
If someone asked you to describe yourself what would you say to them?? How could I put into words that the person I am now at this moment is not the person that I was yesterday and its not the person I will be next week..next month or next year..Without sounding like a nut case..lol.. I am forever changing..I do not use the term personal growth,{that shit is to much work}grin but I do keep a open mind to new experiences,new cultures,new religions..My mind is constancely evolving,new doors opening up to me everyday. Right now this very minute I would simply have to describe myself as......A forever changing woman with a kind heart and a mischievous mind...

Cruel Love
I just recently got out of a relationship that i thought was going really well. when two days after i last saw her and thought everything was ok she deicieds she's not happy and wants to go our seperate ways. i gave this girl alot of money cause she had finacial probs and a kid. gave her all this money so she could keep her apartment, car, and her kid and leaves me cause she wasnt getting enough sex. she doesnt even want to continue to be friends just pretty much said f u and goodbye.

Only U
YES IM HAVING A HORRID NIGHT SO EVERYONE DO ME A FAVOR IF U HAVE TO TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE OH YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE IN THE *HAREM* DO URSELF AND ME A FAVOR FUCK OFF!! NOW TO THE POETRY!!! miscommunication malfunctions mistakes they dont know me they cant feel me you know me from the looks i give to the way i breathe how i act you can feel me inside you only you know the cures how to treat me talk to me right bring a smile to the saddened face your voice warms your touch heals your presence brightens the darked sky no one understands me as you do

Movie Stuff
I just wanted to post the promotional trailer for my film trilogy in my blog. This was shot in August of 2006, about 3 months before cast was finalized and the real first movie was shot. Only one cast member in this trailer was actually playing the same role as in the real movie. The trailer is really just a series of gags from all three movies. Not even the cast is consistent. If anyone has any thoughts, I'd love to hear them.

Absence Of Mind
Dead scrolls forever lost, Until another lost soul encounters my tale' I adore what hurts me, thats why I must softly whisper it, so my soul can withstand the gash, Its digging itself between my mind and heart, and my yeses and nos, I realized that I can no longer be reborn without you, you took all my faith in my improbable romance, and put it all in a expected calamity, that makes nirvana wonder just where is paradise, and Corgan wonder what is romance, so I waved goodbye, and wished I had never said hello, since I was half dead and tired of dreaming the rest in my unnamed dream. I feel down the stairs, since with my obsession I will tear this world down, to spite god and I will laugh at him for ever giving a muse, while I laugh I will cough tears, and intent, Oh and no Dont think he will hate me, cause the world is cage, and I will free you all, I will fight the reptiles without a shield under a roof, kind of cold huh, I will do Gods dirty business, he will p

School....
Amy's first day of pre-school..... Current mood: accomplished Today was Amy's first day of pre-school over at the Early Learners center here next to NJC. I was a little nervous at first, but once we got inside the building, that eased up some. I think I was more anxious then she was. Aamy got right to business pretty much after we arrived. I stayed there for about 20 mins as well just to see if there were going to be any problems....there was already one little boy there, and they seemed to get along just fine.... It justs seems like yesterday I brought her home from the hospital though. Its truly amazing how much time can really go by almost unnoticed really. We get so busy living our day to day lives to even realize that one day our children will leave us, just as we did the same to our parents. You spend all the time in the world teaching them to be people, and how to react to the world, almost forgetting we all leave each other one day. I think about all the things A

Marriage....
Sunday, May 20, 2007 my one year wedding anniversary...... Current mood: happy Today is my one year wedding anniversary. One year. Wow. Honestly this year has been great and not so great. But, we can't be perfect all throughout the year, its just not possible.................................................. I look at my husband now, and I still think to myself he is one of the greatest people I may have ever come into contact with through my exsistence right now. I couldn't ask for a better mate, and friend. But like I aid by no means are either one of us perfect. there have been some pretty rough times, even before we were married, and there are still so many trials and tribulations now, but i wouldnt trade any of the times we have shared together. None of it. Through think and thin, here we still are. I remember the day he looked on our weddding day, and it almost brought tears to my eyes, when he was the one actually balling the whole time. He could barely do are

Great Explanation
This is one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen. It's an explanation people will understand. A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists." "Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving a God who would allow all of these things." The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the c

Mmm...
Upon her bed he lay soundly sleeping Just looking at him set her heart leaping Gently she kisses and strokes his face Causing his pulse to quicken and heart race Murmuring her name he rolls onto his side His want and desire he is unable to hide She stands before him in a sexy pose Very slowly and teasingly removes her clothes Revealing lingerie of the most vibrant red She seductively crawls on to the bed Passionately she kisses, strokes and caresses Covering his chest with her long auburn tresses Lower and lower her mouth and fingers roam Kisses and touches making him shudder and groan Taking his manhood into her mouth, she licks and sucks Sensational pleasure making his body buck His body shudders as he releases his load Over her face and mouth he explodes Written by my sis but for me...

..moment In Shower.........????
SHOWER CAN CURE YOU NOW AND THEN.IT,S EASY TO PUT WATER FLOW ON YOU,GET CLEAN YOURSELF,WHIS THAT YOU CAN GO WHIT THAT WATER IN WASTE PIPE. FIRST COULD WATER,SKIN TURNING TO GREY. THAT COULD WATER CANT CLEAN YOU,BUT IT CAN FREEZE ALL OVER,AND STUCK. (i deserve that,i turn to iceprinces.i,m pure ice in frosty weather,beautyfull and perfect. i dont let myself to crack.) WHEN I WAS A LITTLE,I LOVE TO BE IN SHOWER LONG LONG TIME. I SIT IN THE WARM FLOOR,COVER MYSELF IN THOSE "RAINDROPS". I JUMP TROUGH THE WATER,I DRINK IT,I LET WATER GO TO IN MY EAR,RUB SOAP IN MY SKIN,LOT OF SOAPSUDS. SOAPSUDS I PUT ON THE WALL,ON THE FLOOR,TO THE FLANK OF WASHING MACINE,,,,AND THATS CLEAN TOO. WHEN I GO TO THE SWIMMING IN SWIMMING POOL,I DREAM IN THERE THAT I AM BEAUTYFULL MERMAID. Better Graphics Hottest CodesTop Graphics Tweaks I SWIMM SO PROUD FOR MYSELF IN CAVE AND THOSE WATERCRESS,GET STUCK TO MY SKIN. MOSTLY SOMEONE FOLLOW ME THERE,SOME HUMAN OR ANIMAL,FREND OR ADMIRER. SO

Yea I'm A Dork
Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell? Why can't I write when I have so much in mind? Why can't I sing when there's music in my heart? Why can't I dance when there's rythm in the air? Too many words left unspoken Too many things left undone Why can't it be and why can't I? For all I know this pain deep inside Took the gladness from my heart. Is this the pain of missing you? Is this the reason behind it all? Hear the agony of my heart Longing for you and for your touch Feeling your lips, feeling your face Missing your kisses and warm embrace. When will the waiting ever be over? For as long as were apart I can never be whole Oh! My Dearest Love I just want you to know That my heart is aching because "I'M MISSING YOU!"

Fool...
Fool... You've smiled those perfect smiles, Darling, you've got it all; everyone is waiting, on the edge of their seats, Darling, they're waiting for you to fall. Oh, no one can tell what's behind the make up, Nor can they see that you are torn, Where all you truly want in life is to be loved; because your heart, oh well, it's worn. And laced in perfection, you are, Darling, you're stereotypical queen; you've been labeled and judged all your life, This is just another secret left unseen. They've put you up so high, So very high, upon a pedestal so tall; you're slowly dying inside as your mind collapses, Darling, we've been waiting for you to fall. Oh, and no one, no one, is going to catch you, Darling, this is life where you no longer rule; you've become a nobody, Darling, somehow you've become everybody's fool.

Trust
What is trust? Trust is: Letting others know your feelings, emotions and reactions, and having the confidence in them to respect you and to not take advantage of you. Sharing your inner feelings and thoughts with others with the belief that they will not spread them indiscriminately. Placing confidence in others so that they will be supportive and reinforcing of you, even if you let down your "strong'' mask and show your weaknesses. Assuming that others will not intentionally hurt or abuse you if you should make an error or a mistake. The inner sense of acceptance you have of others with whom you are able to share secrets, knowing they are safe. The sense that things are fine; that nothing can disrupt the bond between you and the other. The ability to let others into your life so that you and they can create a relationship built on an understanding of mutual respect, caring, and concern to assist one another in growing and maturing independently. The glu

Womens Ass Size Study
Women's Ass Size Study There is a new study just released by the American Psychiatric Association about women and how they feel about their asses. The results are pretty interesting: 1. 5% of women surveyed feel their ass is too big. 2. 10% of women surveyed feel their ass is too small. 3. The remaining 85% say they don't care; they love him; he's a good man and they would have married him anyway.

Life
Well, I thought my life was good, but lately it has just been going to shit.. my kids won't listen to nothing I say, wich I guess that is just part of being a kid, but when your old man is acting like more of a kid than your kids.. than there is a problem !!!Our relationship started out sooo good.. full of compassion, understanding, equalism, and great sex all the time, and now it is just all about him and I am so tired of it. You know ladies.. the baby blow me and then take care of yourself bullshit.. him doing whatever the hell he wants and expects me to do nothing except stay home 24-7 and take care of kids and clean house. Example.. him and his father and a couple of our male friends put the boat in the water yesterday about 4:30 and he said that he was going to go put the boat in the water and comee right back since it was so late in the day, I was already stressed, I had a ton of kids here, mine and my friends.. anyway, here I am trying to make a nice roast dinner and clean house

I Admit That Even This Will Not Make Sense
After last night, I have come to the conclusion, that I have more faith in one person who, for the following reasons will be the only one to know what really is going on in my head. 1. HE listens. He doesn't think that thare has to be something "attached" to our friendship, because we have known each other long enough to know what matters. 2. HE treats me like a person which is something many people seem to forget. I am a person who does happen to care and have feelings. My life has never been handed to me on a silver platter. I have rebelled against my parents on more than one occasion, but I learned from those mistakes. I learned that although my life is all complicated it doesn't mean that I was raised to be a wild girl. Nope, I am far from that once again. I had my bad as I can be phase and I learned from that. The only thing that HE hasn't seen is my complete nervous breakdown, I hate myself and my life phase. Ok, I take that back. he has seen the I hate myself and my life

Just In Case,i Love Ya
One day a woman's husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the >warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning >that sometimes there isn't anymore. No more hugs, no more special >moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more >"just one minute." Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used >up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say "I >love you." > >So while we have it it's best we love it and care for it and fix it when >it's broken ... .. and heal it when it's sick. This is true for marriage >... and old cars .. and children with bad report cards and dogs with bad >hips and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are >worth it, because we are worth it. > >Some things we keep - - like a best friend who moved away or a classmate >we grew up with. There are just some things that make us happy, no >matter what. > >Life is important, like people we know who ar

June 10th~my Weekend
Friday~they got the heats in n thts all so no one got to race there fetures n i dont know how there gonna make it up cuz the limited stocks arent even on the seducle for next friday so idk. n i stayed at my aunts house with crystal Saturday~went fine no fighting someone prostested one the races for what reason idk n idc lol.didnt do to much while i was there anyways just hung out with crystal,ben n allen after we were done working so tht was kinda boring lol n i stayed at my aunts house with crystal. Sunday~yay i get to relex dont have to worry about geting up early tommrrow cuz the kids i watch dont have school no more thank god lol well im out much love britt

Who Did It?
Be judge and jury in this short story. This personality test sets a moral dilemma in a love story and a murder. Answer the five questions at the end to reveal its meaning and something about your personality. There is a river with a bridge and a wife and her husband live in a house on one side. The wife has a lover who lives on the other side. The only way to get across the river is to walk across the bridge or ask the boatman to take you. The husband has to go on an overnight business trip in a faraway town. The wide pleads with him to take her with him. She knows if he doesn't she'll be unfaithful to him. The husband absolutely refuses to take her because she will only be in the way of his important business. So the husband goes alone. That night the wife goes over the bridge and stays with her lover. Dawn is almost up when the wife leaves because she must be back home before her husband returns. She starts walking across the bridge but sees an assassin waiting for her

Birthchart
Name: Michelle May 17 1975 1:32 PM Time Zone is EDT Rising Sign is in 28 Degrees Leo You love to be the center of attention and you want to appear strong, confident and dominant. You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! Very dignified and honorable, you enjoy the power and privilege, but not the responsibilities, that come with leadership. You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Others impress you only if they have integrity (but wealth, power and influence can also turn your head). You prefer rich, elegant surroundings and possessions, and will try to acquire them as your budget allows. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff! Sun is in 26 Degrees Taurus. You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable tim

Some Lame Survey
Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff. Starting Time: 6:21 Name: Nicolette Sisters: 0 Brothers: 4 Eye Color: blue Shoe size: 9 0Height: 5 ft 7 What are you wearing right now? my pjs Where do you live? WV Favorite Number: 8 Favorite Drink: Arizona Green Tea with Ginsing and Honey Favorite Month: September Favorite Breakfast: Scrambled eggs and buttered toast with a hint of cinnamon and sugar ***********Have You Ever***************** Loved someone so much it made you cry? yes Broken a bone: Yes Been in a police car: Yeah but not in trouble lol Been on a plane:yes Came close to dying: Yeah Been in a hot tub: Yup Swam in the ocean: YES! Fallen asleep in school: yeah lol Broken someone's heart: Probably Fell off your chair: yes Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: yes Saved e-mails: yes Been cheate

Never Felt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you When you whisper such sweet love In my ear when we talk You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long I want to taste your love for me By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know That I really do love you When the day comes and we are together You will alway

The Joys Of Stupidity
Title says it all. I'm not one to sit here and get caught up in someone elses stupidity or drama. However, with that being said, the more I witness on CT I have discovered one thing. No matter who it is, or where in the world they are, we all have something in common. We all have our fair share of drama, and/or crosses to bear. However, I've decided that regardless of what seems to occur on here, I am distancing myself from it. For those in my family list, well you, for the most part will be exceptions to the above. As for the rest, well, don't bring your dramas to me.. I won't bring mine to you.. because frankly my private life is just that, PRIVATE. Those that do repeatedly try to involve me in their melodramas will be deleted and blocked, simple as that. Enjoy.

Dazed And Confused
i am at a crossroads in my life right now. confused, mad, sad, angry, just not at one thing, but several different ones. I consider myself to be a good person. I do what i can for people and try my best at all that i do, but i see things as wrong and right in life and there is no in betweens. I am a very honest person and always have been told that this is the best policy. I am beginning to wonder if it is, as it gets me nothing more then confused. You know i think i have lots of great qualitys for someone, but when i just try to be honest with people, then they dont seem to like that. thats ok i guess as that is them. The things that confuses me in this life is people always say how they want better and want to better therselves and when i have lended a hand to someone and really push for them to make there situation better then what they have, as i feel they deserve better, then i tend to get pushed away and to the side. I know things cant always go my way and i accept that, but what

Hookah Radio
just a quick blog check out www.hookahradio.com for all you ppl who dont know about hookah radio go check it out and be sure to send an email to jim@hookahradio.com and tell him your new to hookah and your thoughts about it both positave and negative also where ya heard about hookah thanks.....poker

Diaries Of A Married Woman
So, i was recently involved with a married woman who claimed to wanting be with him and wanted out of a bad situation, but then claimed to family that it was a non exsitent relationship as that is not true as this person has plenty of proof. so below is a copy of one of the juicy emails that someone got form this married woman, to prove they were not lying as i have a 150 of them to be exact, this person still stalks there profile on myspace and has no idea and there husband is stupid if he dont think it did not really happen and if he knows and excepts it, then thats fine, but now the world will know. names have been left out to protect identity, but i have all of this stuff saved Date: Apr 22, 2007 8:28 PM Hello! How are you? I'm just talkin to you on the phone right now. And yes very much thinkin of you. I'm missin you. I'm hopein your missing me too. I love you too. Well, gonna go for now. Miss me and dream of me tonight! Date: Apr 16, 2007 12:38 AM As far as th

Another One
I wish that I could be with you And hold you in my arms, Whisper all my love to you And kiss away your tears. I wish that I could take your cares And put them all away, Neatly folded into drawers While pleasure lights your smile. I wish that joy could step inside Your heart and stay awhile, And all the rain could turn into A rainbow in the sun. And all our loneliness like mist Could fade into the blue, A memory of sad, hard times That happened long ago. But I cannot come home right now, And you cannot come here; And so our dreams must be the fields On which we laugh and play. If life cannot be what we want, It will, it will be so; For love can turn the harshest light To gold through sheer affection.

Lesbians
Ok this is dealing with my school. I have a girl that is in two of my classes and she told me from the begining that she was a les. I was like are you all the way or bi. She said that she was all the way no bi. Ok well of course i was going to talk to her and see about things cause well im a guy and let me ask you all some feed back. If your a les would you kiss another guy?? Would you call him baby?? Would you call him hun??? These are question i need you all to answer for me please!!

Guilty Pleasures Lounge
CLICK ON THE TAG 2 START UR GUILTY PLEASURES! LOOKIN FOR RELIABLE PEOPLE TO JOIN THE STAFF OF THE "GUILTY PLEASURES" LOUNGE. CONTACT ME IF INTERESTED. LOOKIN FOR WAITRESSES/WAITERS, BARTENDERS, SECURITY AND GREETERS. LIVE DJ "EXCALIBUR RADIO" AWESOME DJ FAMILY! COME JOIN THE FUN, HANG OUT IN CTs HOTTEST NEW LOUNGE! THE FAMILY OF GUILTY PLEASURES RAWK, COULDNT ASK FOR A BETTER FAMILY! CONTACT ME OR MICKI IF U WANNA JOIN THE FAMILY. THANKS, MUCH LOVE, JEN ~*Huggable*Lovable*Kissable*Jen*~Owner of "Guilty Pleasures" Lounge. CT Wife 2 "Achilles@ CherryTAP Micki"Blue Eyes"{dirty south crew}CO-owner guilty pleasures lounge@ CherryTAP

Better Known As Southern Princess- And My Friend.
THIS IS SOUTHERN PRINCESS- ONE HELL OF A LADY GUYS- SHES A GREAT PERSON TO KNOW AS WELL AS A GREAT PERSON TO HAVE AS A FRIEND. CHECK HER OUT- YOULL LIKE HER TOO- ~~Southern Princess~~@ CherryTAP

Victoria Christopher Murray
THIS MS. MURRAY IS A VERY TALENTED WRITER. ESPECIALLY FOR CHRISTIANS. TAKE A PEEK AT HER BOOK AND MAYBE BUY IT I WILL. It's that time of the year again! Coming June 19th, my newest novel, The Ex Files will be released. You'll meet four women who are dealing with their exes - we've all had a few of those - and who come together to pray through their challenges. One woman, Sheridan Hart (from Grown Folks Business!) is faith-filled, another, Kendall Stewart, is faithless. Then, there's Vanessa Martin who's weak-willed. And (I hate to admit this, but my favorite) Asia Ingrum, is revenge filled! Please visit my website at www.victoriachristophermurray.com to read the first chapter! And to see if I'll be coming to your city this summer on tour. I hope you'll enjoy The Ex Files and as always, I thank you, thank you, thank you for your continued support. You have no idea how grateful I am for your support and how much I appreciate you! Remember, June 19th! And, please pass the word!

My New Life
Well shortly my old life will be ending and I will be creating a new one with the man of my dreams and the man in my life. We have only been waiting almost 4 years now to get married. I am so excited that I can't wait for this divorce to be over with. So YAY ME....life will be grand and the kids are very happy about it as well. They say I get a new daddy that will love me and care about me....pretty sad when the children call their father a sperm donor. So we will all have some closure in our life and I feel wonderful about it!

A Wish For Co
I wish I could see you, Your eyes stir up my passion. I wish I could hold you, And feel your arms tight around me, Keeping me safe. I wish I could kiss you, Moist lips pressed together, Tongues entwined in the ritual dance That nobody teaches, but everyone knows. I wish for the pressure Of your body on top of mine, Or of mine on yours, Close as possible, So wonderful. I wish I could lay my head on your chest To cuddle while watching a movie, And really watch it Just knowing you're there. I wish for this reassurance That you'll always be there for me. That you love me. I wish to show you How much I love you.

Today Is A Back The Fuck Off Day....
Today is one of my stay out of my bubble days. I woke up pissed off and don't know why. I just have my days. Ya know I get really tired of cherrytap bullshit. We do the I post you post shit back and forth but don't really take the time to say hi how are you is everything going good in your life. I mean really would it kill some of us to spend an hour a day just seeing how the misc. people on our friends list are doing. I try to leave comments off and on for the people on my friends lists and leave the people on my family list them as often as possible. It doesn't always work when I am dealing with school and 4 kids but I try. And I always try to leave someone a comment who has left me one even if I don't take the time to leave a personal comment at the bottom. I guess yeah once again I am bitching about people and their bullshit. But last time I checked I said I wanted friends not points and to be someones friend YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO CONVERSE WITH THEM AND ASK HOW THEY ARE AND TRY TO

Him
There's someone special in my life Who dosen't know i care I wish i could let him know it But let it show, I wouldn't dare. I don't want to even risk it I don't want to even try For if he knew i felt this way I'd feel insecure and shy. I never thought I'd feel this way I never thought I'd care There's something in that smile of his That makes me stop and stare. How can i tell if he likes me? Will he ever look my way? I'll keep my feelings hidden for now And save them for another day.

A Person Very Close To My Heart Lost Her Mom!
It was really her grandmother but, people tend to love the ones closest to them more! I want her to know that I love and care 4 her very much! MeMe I love u! U have my heart and I pray 4 u!

What Color Is My Psyche?
Your Psyche is Violet You are spiritual, intuitive, and serene. People trust you to rescue them from bad situations, and you usually come through. While you are quite enlightened, you find that your path is very lonely. When you are too violet: you can't connect to ordinary life or ordinary people When you don't have enough violet: you lack wisdom and can't learn from the pastWhat Color Is Your Psyche?

Ldc Chain Of Command
** To ALL LDC Members, Founders and Co-Founders !!! ** As of June 9th, 2007 there will be a new Chain of Command put into place within the LDC Family and the Clan Lupin Family. These chains are basically so that nobody goes over anyones head in doing something. How this chain works is simple. You will start with the Number 1 spot if you have a question or a problem. If they arent on, you will go down to the Number 2 spot and so on. This Chain of Command is to be used when dealing with ANY family situations or drama. Use this Chain of Command before posting any bulletins or comments over anything. Clan Lupin is in place to deal with any drama or problems within the family but when dealing with the more serious situations, the Chain of Command needs to be upheld. Should the need arise that a creator steps in on ANY situation, then the decision of that creator over rides any decision previously given. Below you will find the Chain of Command for the LDC Family and below that you will

Tonya Baker
http://cdbaby.com/cd/tonyabaker2 http://cdbaby.com/cd/tonyabaker About Tonya Baker Singing since the age of 11, Tonya knows that it is God who has brought her to this place in her life and given her an assignment: to minister His word to the world through song. "More than just another singer, God wants someone whose life will be a testimony of His goodness and grace toward His people. I believe people are looking for a life and not just another song. That is what empowers me to not only sing for Him and His glory, but to live for Him as well." Tonya recognizes that it will take the anointing of God to truly minister to people and change their hearts and minds. She longs to draw people closer to God through her singing and songwriting and let them know that He truly is a personal God, concerned about their lives and everyday affairs. Tonya has made her mark on the Gospel scene all over the nation appearing at numerous churches and industry events. Tonya is recognized and criti

News? Maybe..
UPDATES YOU ARE ALL WONDERING WHY I NEVER SEND YOU SHOUTS? BECAUSE CT BANNED ME FROM THE SHOUTBOX:( THIS IS WHY I CAN ONLY COMMUNICATE THROUGH MESSEGES. UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE LOL! MY LIFE HAS BEEN CHANGING BEFORE MY EYES. I MAY BE MODELING A NEW URBAN STYLE CLOTHING IN SAN FRANSISCO. THAT IS EXCITING. I NOW WORK FOR A COUPLE OF DIFFERENT WEBCAM COMPANIES. I AM JUST TESTING THE WATERS.... HEHE. GENERALLY I AM ON EVERYNIGHT. A LITTLE MORE ABOUT ME I WAS INTRODUCED TO THE ADULT ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY IN APRIL OF 2007. I STARTED OUT BY MEETING WITH DEREK FROM LA DIRECT MODELS. DEREK SAID I HAD NO FUTURE WITH DOING ONLY GIRL/GIRL MOVIES. THIS WAS AN EYE OPENER..AM I NOT ATTRACTIVE ENOUGH FOR YOU GIRLS TO DESIRE ALSO? I LEFT THE AGENCY WITH A SOUR TASTE AND DETERMINED TO GET MY IMAGE OUT. I HAVE SINCE TURNED TO WEBCAM. THE CAMERA AND I HAVE A CONNECTION....THE WAY YOU SEE ME...THE WAY YOU LUST AND WANT ME. I WOULD RATHER BE ONE ON ONE WITH MY VIEWERS..TELLING ME WHAT

Attention All Friends
ALL OF MY FRIENDS READING THIS REMOVE ME AS A FRIEND NOW I AM GIVING THIS ACCOUNT TO SOMEOEN ELSE AND NOW LONGER WILL BE ON THIS ACCOUNT. PERSONALLY I DONT CARE IF YOU KEEP IT ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST MAYBE THE NEW OWNER OF THIS ACCOUNT WILL STILL RATE YOU 11S AND ALL LIKE IVE TRIED TO DO.TAKE CARE AND HOPE CHERRY TAP MAKES ALL OF YOUHAPPY AND MEEST GOOD FRIENDS

Ok Here The Rest Of It
ok! i was with this man 15 year of my life and had two wounderful kids with him.All he did was use dru and cheat on me , beat on me. I got smart one day and just left him with the kids.he came sick after that, to have surgyer .the court gave him placement doning the school year and me in there summer with every other weekend.I think one of the reason he is doing this cause i will not go back to that life style again

So You Know..
I just wanted to tell you all a few things about me, first off Gekeler is REALLY my middle name I was named after my Grandfather ( and both Grand mothers just to make life complicated try living with 6 names)so it doesn't mean anything in case you've gotten that impression. I'm not going to get on a different IM and have cyber sex with anyone, I know here that seems to be the going thing but it's just not for me. I'm honestly NOT a huge bitch like this is comming off as, I am a very nice person I just know who I am and what I like and what I am looking for...which in my case is friendship, if something else comes of it fine but I am not going to pursue it. I think it's a crime the way other women treat each other over men and I am not about to get involved in any of those games. I was married for many many years to an Air Force pilot and lived many years with a musician so I know the "ways" of the world so to speak, and I know what loving someone is and means. I hope that this d

Horoscope
I keep having these great horoscopes but doesn't anyone ever follow them? Mine have been so good I hate not to. Todays:You know what you need. Well, you know what you want, and that's a good start. Now it's time to figure out how to get this certain element into your life. Use as little effort as possible and you'll be off to a good start. (This is very possibly true) Fridays: You have just the thing to chase those naughty blues away, but you're hesitant to actually do it. It's just too weird or outlandish. Who cares? Nobody's watching. It won't hurt anyone and it'll perk you up, so go for it. (now I did follow this one, glad I did!)

Update
to all my friends out there i'm sorry that i haven't been online but i had emergency surgery done and just got outta the hospital today. Steph i'm so sorry that i missed your wedding. but i was in the hospital. I'll be back on as soon as I feel up to being on here and will fill you guys in on more later kk.love you all

Regina Skeeters
About Regina Skeeters With her soaring voice, boundless energy, and unmovable faith, South Carolina native Regina Renee Skeeters is one of the most innovative risk-taking artists today. Reginas life has been dedicated to the anointed delivery of gospel music since childhood. She was born and raised in Conway, SC, by her mother, Mrs. Jean Blain Skeeters and her father, the late Eugene Skeeters. She began to develop her gift of song at an early age while singing at Bethlehem Baptist Church and with various groups well into her high school years. Upon entering college, Regina continued to blossom and blaze new trails with her golden voice and undeniable writing ability. During her tenure and Benedict College, Regina served as a very instrumental member of the Benedict College Concert Choir and Benedict College Gospel Choir. Regina was voted top alto vocalist at the National Collegiate Gospel Competition, where the gospel choir was number one for three consecutive years. The well-renowned

Joy Colclough & Co.
About Joy Colclough & Co. Joy Colclough & Co. hails from Sumter, South Carolina. The group was officially formed in May 2006. Since forming the group they have participated in "The Gospel Choir Concert Series", an event hosted yearly by Glory Communications, the biggest gospel radio station franchise in South Carolina. After ministering at this event, Joy Colclough & Co. were asked to participate by Tony Gee "Your Partner in Praise" and Vice President of Programming in South Carolinas biggest Youth Explosion to date featuring Tye Tribbett & GA. After participating in this event, Joy Colclough & Co. were asked by WLTX News 19 to participate in "Songs for the Seasons" holiday segment which was an live broadcast. 2007 Joy Colclough & Co. will be going into the studio to record their freshman project.

People In General
I just cant figure people out,on here (CT) everybody wants to get rated,but when u go to look at their pics,it usally says "u need permission". what the hell is this? r these people that conceided about themselves? or r they scared? and on top of that, what is up with the location of where their from? big deal if their from the u.s or not. if these people r that screwed about themselves then they should go back to "myspace" and be scared there. and last but not least, the people that cant take critisism, these r the people that cant handle anybody making comments on their stuff without getting offened, when people make these comments about this so called "rightous stuff" they r at risk of getting a low rating then getting blocked, and yes it happened to me when i made a comment about a mustang. "fords a junk". there is a bunch more that i dont feel like putting down yet because it deals with work and thats a whole other rant. please let me know if u agree thanks

At My Desk
I sit at this desk typing away as the sky changes from light to gray. As I sit here an wonder what to say. You set the mood upon my screen of loving things you want to do to me which is perfect to see as far as this night can be with each stroking of the keys I start to gaze in what a night with you can be .Envisioning I am your sexual slave for you to shape, twist ,and mold free of will an for you to hold you give me your sweetest pleasure laced with loving pain stroking me , teasing me an kissing me in your ways toying my senses showing me that with you is where I long to be...

I Am
I am yours totally With a whisper My soul turns to fire With a light touch of fingertips Utterly, I belong to you To have an To take In a way like no other With a smile an a glance I am trapped I am captivated By the very essences of your being I long to belong to you To have you take me with Your power Has me pinned up with pure desire Your will Is all that matters for you are my master....

Im Frickin Cursed!!!
Hey there well I have left this morning from Illinois got to Michigan and noticed my front tire pulling to the right and acting funny. I Pulled off the side of the freeway to check the problem there was smoke coming from my tire. I decided to drive to next exit and pull in a gas station and explained to the guy what was happening. He told me not to drive it any more that my wheel barring went on my car. Man if I would of droven it any further I wouldnt be here right now! I am now stuck in Stevensville Michigan 235 Miles from home 50 Bucks to my name and thanks to my dad he put me in a motel room for a night so this is how im on the comp until I get my car fixed in the morning. I know im cursed and hopefully this aura I have around me will disappear. Sometimes I wish I was better off dead then to put up with any more stress in my life. Im going to try to send comments out today. I Havent aten in 2 days now so my strength is weakining. I will miss all My Friends. I dont know when ill be

Set Me To Burn
Well i've been talking to a few close friends of mine about my general life situation...why i'm so miserable all the time,angry..ect even when my life is going relativly well. And i've come to a conclusion why..well i've always known why..and here it is..I am really sick and tired of suppressing the darker aspects of my personality because of Moral and Social constraints all its doing is making me miserable pretending i don't have these impulses to tell people what i think and actions i want to preform..it's causing me to drag ALOT of dead weight in my life. the only thing i have to really consider is if i want to keep going with this is the consequences that will be far reaching for friends and family... all i know is i've got a lighter in one hand and i'm about to light the fuse on this holocaust...

Some Parts From A Movie That Represent The Ending Of My Last Relationship
(Person 1)The problem is shit like that. It was one thing when it was just girls - that was weird enough. But now you throw guys into the mix - two guys at once, no less. All that experience...What am I supposed to think? (Person 2)You think good; because now she'll be all true blue and shit. The girl's tasted life, yo. Now she's settlin' for your boring, funny-book-makin' ass. (Person 1)Settling. That's comforting, Thanks. (Person 2)That's what I'm here for. (Person 1)I'm lust having a problem with all of it I can't get it out of my head these visuals of her doing all this shit. And I don't know why I can't let it go. Because I'm crazy about her, you know? I look at this girl, I see the future. I see kids. I see grand-kids. (Person 2)You're scaring me. (Person 1)I'm scaring myself. Because I think so much of her, and then I can't get over shit like 'Finger Cuffs'.I don't know what I'm doing. (Person 3)I went through something like what you'r

Hello Everyone!!!
Well I wanted to thanks everyone for being so nice to me, All the BIRTHDAY gifts.. I have made some every sweet friends, Love ya ALL!!I wish everyone a wonderful new week, Bless you ALL XXox Brandy Graphics & Layouts

Yeah....no.....i Know...
Someone call an ambulance, cause something's not right it’s all going wrong tonight. Tonight. In between the bottom of this bottle and you, I think I’m running into rock bottom This time I’m in over my head from counting the times that I’ve said “this time I’m in over my head from counting the times that I’ve said it’s over it’s over.” Someone call an ambulance. It took time to fashion this noose from fine threads of self abuse, but it fits your neck perfectly. Securely. Your heels hit heavy on the hardwood…not that it did any good. My love, you’ve been a constant headache for me. If it came down to this act or one more near heart attack, you wouldn’t have a hope in hell, my darling. It all comes down to this act. Don’t stop the heartbeat counting. I know that I’m responsible for this, and I’ll miss you. Maybe, in time, I’ll find out what it is that I’m supposed to do. I’ve made a million messes, and I’ll make a million more. Trust me, baby…maybe I’m not the man y

Recovering
old habits die hard, growing bitter from trying to be broken while these comfortable routines are smothered with affection well, i choose to switch between the two i choose whatever convinces you, that I should be allowed to slip through the cracks and get back to the living these walls are unforgiving send someone to check on me and take notes on my recovery one pill will get me through the day but I take two anyway when I take three pills the song begins to play one that won't go away. And even though I know one pill will get me through the day I take two anyway when I mix four pills with a drink the song starts to play its in the back of my head and its everywhere and its all I can think about its all spinning out of control for one day this thing is out of my hands while under severe supervision, everything is, everything is but when unsuspected, addiction is under the radar and anything goes, so here I sit, comatose almost I float between hospitals and

You Asked Me Why You??
Well I have given that alot of thought. Now that Im being ostracized by my friends I've had alot of time to think about it. And what I've come up with is really simple. I came to this on my own terms, you know, I didn't just heed what I was taught. I wasn't with you because of what family, society, LIFE.... tried to enistill in me from day one. The way the world is, how seldom it is that you meet that one person who just gets you. Its so rare. My parents didn't have it. There were no examples set for me in the world of relationships. And to cut oneself off from finding that person, that just seems stupid to me. So I didn't. But then you came along, YOU THE ONE LEAST LIKELY. And while I was falling for youI put a ceiling on that. Untill I remembered why I opened that door in the first place. To not limit the likelihood of finding that one person who'd compliment me so completely. So here we are. I was thorough when I looked for you. And I felt justified in lying in your arms.Cause I got

Player Alert
hes so in love, but sent me these, lmao links at the bottom >>>>>>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>she had the abortion today...but my car broke down about 200 miles from home in toronto....I can afford to get it fixed till the end of the month...it needs a new clutch but i dont have the $500...I had to pay credit cards debt off...so if you are sneding me some money...I need it now doll to help pay for my car to be fixed...email me your number so I can call you sweetheart. >>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>>>> >>>>>>>>I am going to work a deal with the mechanic where I will have my car before the end of the month so you will be able to still come visit me if you want to...you need to give me your number so i can call you...I dont know what the big deal is of me calling you. >>>>>>>> >>>>>On 6/7/2007, ct77192@cherrytap.com wrote: >>>>> >>>>>>you can fly right to sarnia...we have an airport here and I am a da

Mary Mary
http://www.myspace.com/therealmarymary Over the past decade, contemporary Gospel has been one of the fastest growing segments of popular music, and other than Kirk Franklin, no act is more responsible for popular acceptance of the genre than Mary Mary. Consisting of sisters Erica Atkins-Campbell and Tina Atkins-Campbell, Mary Mary has brought a fusion of gospel themes with soul and hip-hop sounds that has resulted in exceptional music that has crossed not only the Gospel/Soul boundary, but has even brought a level of pop radio acceptance to God-based music. The Atkins sisters were raised in Inglewood, California, the middle daughters of an Evangelical minister and part of a well-known singing clan locally. They began to separately land gigs as backing vocalists for various Soul and Gospel performers, including Brian McKnight and Kenny Lattimore. While they were known mostly as singers, the two were also developing their songwriting skills, and a chance meeting with hot young prod

Siege
The warning never came But it should have Emotions left dangling Upon a thread of hope Out there in the world beyond Lay a heart abandoned Reason no longer mattered And sanity held no value It was not openly apparent That all would soon vanish Yet it came quietly in darkness Whispering the farewell With daybreak came the emptiness Love had surrendered to the siege

Find Out Who Your Friends Are
Sometimes it feels like it is better not to know that your friends really aren't your friends. You never know who you can count on till you need them and for some reason it is never who you think. I am lost right now for my best friend isn't quite what I thought

Hypothetically Speaking - The Lipstick List
HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING - THE LIPSTICK LIST OK so I need 2 explain what a lipstick list is before I get into this. A lipstick list is the list on the wall that u wrote with lipstick cuz ur ass is Schizophrenic. U know like the 1 in Billy Madison when Billy calls everyone from school that he picked on & apologizes. The sniper guy crosses Billy off the list he has on the wall and puts on his lipstick afterward. Crazzzzyyy. Well anyway, hypothetically speaking, if I had a lipstick list these r some things or some people that would be on it!! Just 4 future reference. Then u know not 2 be or do any of these things to me!! They make me a little anal! 1-McDonald's cashier: U know that biatch that gives u ur $30 worth of food with no napkins, no straws 4 ur 4 drinks, no ketchup & 1 barbecue sauce for 4 orders of nuggets. Then u say "can I borrow ur pants real quick so I can wipe my hands on them since that's what you must do since u think I do!" Come on I can let the ketchup slide & the

What If??
I am calling this what if. Here's how it goes, I will say a bunch of things starting with what if and leave them unanswered or I might just answer them hypothetically. Just some things that I wonder here and there. What if everything always went the way you wanted it too and you never had to suffer in life? Would you be happy? What if there were no homeless in the world? Would our housing be overwhelming and would we have less land for the animals because of it? What if men were all faithful? Would we be in relationships that should have ended for other reasons? What if things never broke? Would businesses fail because we didn't have to buy new things? What if there were no natural disasters? Are they meant to cleanse the world where we do not ourselves? What if all children grew up perfectly? Would there be no crime? What if there was no crime? Would there still be criminals? Would they be unemployed? What if no one ever died unexpectedly? Would others die beca

Thank You All For Visiting My Profile And Ur Sweet Comment.
lately i couldn't log on or even open the tap site, so all who stopped by and gave me a comment i thank you a lot and a big hug and kissessss to all of you there, wish every one had a rocking weekend:P.

My Kids
how far is it for a dad to keep the kids from there mother? my ex hubby will not let me see the kids. i have been going back and forth to court from 1998 to now . they live with him but i am to have them every other weekend and split hoildays. he gets mad over me haveing a boyfriend or i live some where diffent.every time i take it back to court .they don;t do any thing about it.well let me know what u all think about this.

Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On Ct Contest!
Best Arm And Leg Tattoo On CT Contest! I need arm and legs tattoos for this one! Comment bombing allowed and Self bombing allowed! 2 Gifts from gift shop per winner! If u want to enter the contest plz send me link to ur pic in my messages or tell me and i will rip it for u ! Contest will start on 6/12 thur 6/19 Thanks Maria Click on pic to enter contest! ~~AnGeLHeArT~*Majorboredum* LoVeR69*~~ Owner Of *AnGeL FaMiLy *&* A.F.H.* ~~ Plz Sign My Guess Book Plz...LOL@ CherryTAP

Can You Get It?
A time comes in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in t

Thoughts
Well I really don't know what to say here about my self. Lately I don't think I even know who I am or what is going on in my life. All I do know is I feel pain. My world has been falling down around me for the past two years now and it does not look like that will be changing any time soon. I am just so confused I have all these hopes and dreams for my life. But at the same time I feel this huge void in side me that nothing fills. I have tried turning to the lord and praying but I don't feel like I am getting an answer any where I turn. I am tired of being alone and betrayed not knowing if I am getting the whole truth from people or just half truths. I want honesty in my life and assuredness. I am just so tired of this numbing pain that never fades. I am lost in side my self in this sea of uncertainty and I just don't know where to turn. I feel my soul slipping as odd as that is to say back to a place it took me a long time to escape and it scares me. This pain is so familiar an emptin