Lately, those who u think are friends, seem to be shady and two sided. In the past several months, i have made many "friends" on CT, some of which turned out to be fake, and some who I believe to be real. I have seen staged deaths and mockeries enough to drive you insane. That's the realism of internet communities.. fakeness to a degree.
I had became a DJ at a lounge that at one point was very popular, and had many friends in it, and i have seen many other DJ's come and go, some to start their own lounges, so therefore creating a rift in our lil family, others have "died" but not really. I have spent months dedicating myself to the lounge, and when times got rough for the owner, i said i would take over for them, and ease the load. I gave my ALL on top of my daily life. Working numerous hours for the benefit of the lounge, while other's were "to" busy to help us out, when they were needed the most.
On that note, when it comes down to it, the owner decides that the lounge is finished, no more radio, and no "intent" on returning. For the sake of this instance, to preserve what it had worked so hard for, i open a new one, in hopes to keep it alive. Me doing this, has deemed me as a "traitor" so to speak by certain "friends", in which i held dearly and thought to be true. Those who are my friends are with me now, and the others are pointing fingers and ridiculing me. FUCK ME or fuck them they say, they abandoned the lounge.
The lounge was done for, it was a "sinking" ship, it was sunk. Did they patch up the Titanic? Did they manage to save Poseidon? NO, they sank, but the strong build a new ship and try to make it sail, in hopes of keeping a dream alive and a purpose for it being.
Those who say i walked out, walked out on us long before this , and say that I was not loyal. The lounge was my family along with the people in it, and I did not want to see them be dispursed elsewhere. I wanted to preserve the family, so what if the place was or had a "NEW" name, that isnt the importance of it. Where were they when we needed them most, busy "training" or to tired after work, boo hoo, i work too, and yet am able to maintain the ship, and keep it afloat. I can trust what I build, for that's what i do anyways, build things, and build them strong.
I'm hurt that these "friends" say bad things about me for trying to preserve and ideal, and me doing what I thought was most important, family. Just cuz the house burns down doesnt mean u can't build a new one.So in the end, who was it that really abandoned who? It's sure as hell wasn't me..
That's all for now.. blah shit
