You know, I have spent my whole life trying to make something of myself. I have worked many jobs, and regret never being smarter with what I did in that time. I am like most everybody else in the world, who has hopes, and dreams. So many people out there have never had faith in my abilities, and are so blind to see what somebody is really capable of. Several years ago I had a vision that someday I would open my own Skatepark, be my own boss,maybe open my own store. I live in an area, that has a demand for what i want to offer, and so recently I put in so so much of my time, did research, made contacts, talked to many people in the area; radio stations, locals, other businesses, and they thought what i had in mind was awesome. I wanted to be the first in our area, you know? I went to many banks, some didn't give me the time of day, and I finally went to one, that gave me a small glimpse of hope. I waited agonizingly day after day, waiting for them to call me. Making preparations on what I would do and how, talking and setting up contacts, all while waiting. I had this feeling in my chest that my dreams in life would finally come true, that my life and the life of my family would be better. My heart, in my throat, the visions passing through my head, all the hype that I created and trying to prove to the Banks, that I have what it takes. My credibility may be bad, and I like most others out there have made my share of mistakes, but with this oppertunity, it would give me the chance to right all the wrongs I have made in my past. Anyways, "I'm sorry Dan, but with your credit score, and few blemishes, I just don't think there is anything we can do at this time, but maybe if you try again in a couple of years after you get your credit repaired, we Might be able to do something for you".. ok, thats that then huh, thanks anyways for believing in me. NOW, once again I have fuched my self, I have bills due, a family to take care of, people who are going to ask.. "so, how'd it go? Are you going to get to open your store? " No! I can't find anything to do for work, my body aches to much, nobody wants to pay me anything. It's going to be a continuing cycle of dreams and hopes, and the doubt of me being able to achieve them. I thought it was my time, maybe I am just filled with do much hope, and maybe I am just a dreamer, that is stuck in a permanent cycle of never ending dissapointment.
