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Love
Love can be an amazing thing. When your in love you never want to let it go. When your not in love you look and look to try and find it. People spend years trying to find love. People spend years trying to find out what love means. When they do find love they don't know what to do. But when you lose the one that you love is when you realize what love is. You also realize that you don't know how you have lived that long without love. Most people give up on love when they lose that special person. But you will soon realize that you can not live without Love

Help Out Peter Britt
Click anywhere below to visit one of the numerous web sites Peter Britt's >music is on. >Peter needs your help, so please show your love and support by sending in your request or calling Wal-mart radio flood their inbox and keep their request line busy!!! Requesting they air Peter Britt’s music. Wal-mart/sams club is a big company with several stores worldwide with their station played 24/7 in every store. This would be a major step for Peters career. See you can help him achieve his dream. Request him everyday, several times a day if you can by e mailing them at wmradio@wal-mart.com Request line 888-379-6677 If you have a Walmart in your area and if you know the store location number, you can find it on top of any sales slip. Add that to the e-mail or give it during the call, if you don't work at wal-mart say you are a customer and they hate turning down a customer request. So please show Peter how much you love him and support him, lets get this done for him. Thank you Jody D

I'm Gonnan Be Out Of Town...
I'm going to be leaving to go to Pensacola today. I'll be gone until Sunday July 22, and probably won't be online again until Monday the 23rd. But I'll let y'all know how it went! Rock on! Durham

Yes Im A Dreamer
used to think that i was standing on the brink of insanity but i came to find that all my fear was in my mind and so i just threw it away and i started a new day and now i'm through it and dreams they used to be everything to me but some they don't come true but i don't let that make me blue i still believe in love and dreams yes, i'm a dreamer and i know that sometimes the sun never seems to shine in my life but i choose to see the light that shines inside of me and so i just keep moving on and i keep getting strong and i will make it ***I think that there must be an optimist somewhere inside us that tends to prod us into continuing on a task that we find either impossible or extremely difficult. I tend to get through the rough spots in life with the attitude " What doesn't kill me will make me stronger" It seems to be working well so far.

Tainted Anticitizen Complete And Up!
Have finished recording Tainted Anticitizen and it's currently uploaded to myspace here. Hope you enjoy it. This is the first of a new direction for Earthwhore with far less synth and more general ambience. See how you like it anyhow.

Life
A Life Poem Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind. Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind... Life can be blissful and happy and free... Life can put beauty in the things that you see... Life can place challenges right at your feet... Life can make good of the hardships we meet... Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin... Life can reward those determined to win... Life can be hurtful and not always fair... Life can surround you with people who care... Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs... Life's days can bring you both smiles and frowns... Life teaches us to take the good with the bad... Life is a mixture of happy and sad... So... Take the Life that you have and give it your best... Think positive, be happy let God do the rest... Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet... Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet... To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall... Take

Even More Ignorant People!
Undignified Deaths A 54-year-old man was killed while running to catch his bus in Greater Manchester, England, in May; he accidentally ran smack into a lamppost and fell into the street, where the bus ran over him. [BBC News, 5-9-07] Police in Los Angeles said in May that they believe a 21-year-old man deliberately parked his car on railroad tracks, with his girlfriend inside and a train approaching. However, the girlfriend survived (with serious injuries), and the man was killed by shrapnel from the collision as he was fleeing. [Los Angeles Times, 5-22-07] ***HAHAHA KARMA IS A BITCH ASSHOLE......*** Fetishes on Parade Police in Guelph, Ontario, were on the lookout in May for the man they thought responsible for three incidents in which someone approached a woman and asked that she kick him in the groin. A police spokesman said no crime had been committed, but that they are "concerned." [Springfield (Mo.) News-Leader-AP, 5-28-07] In New York City in June, Frank Ranie

Baby! :d
A dear friend of mine that I haven't talked with in at least 7 or 8 months, long story, contacted me last night and we got to catch up a little bit with each other...... Great news for him and his wife....... They had a baby! :D I'm so happy for them. The doctors had told them that she would never be able to conceive or carry a child because of all the chemo. treatments she'd had through-out her life, due to having Leukemia all her life, so they didn't think they'd ever be able to have a child of their own. But, she got pregnant and after 5 months they found out. lol. The baby was born 3 months premature weighing only 2lb. 10oz. but now is just about ready to come home! She's currently at 7lbs. 1oz. :D He told me that if she fits in the car seat that they have for her this coming Monday or Tuesday then the docs said she can come home! Yay! :D lol. I swear I was in tears as he was telling me about the baby!I know how bad he always wanted to have a child of his own and no

Lmfao Some People Are Just Too Much To Handle!
Crime Waves In May, a woman in Jacksonville, Ill., reported the theft of a bong from her house; she told police that she valued it because it belonged to her son, who is in prison, and it is all she had to remember him by. [Jacksonville Journal-Courier, 5-25-07] The sheriff's office in Clyman, Wis., reported that a man called 911 on April 21, alarmed that he had just paid $20 to a woman at a club after a lap dance and then realized that she was not the one who had danced for him. [Pittsburgh News-Tribune-AP, 4-22-07]

Whew That Took A Load Off, Lol
Wow, I just read my own blog, yeah me, lol. I have lost 18 pounds so far with just diet and exercise and im loving it. I can see my feet real good, and even for a pretty good endowed man i dont have a dickety doo anymore, ya know, where your belly hangs over more than your dickety do.Lmao...anyway, I am happy, my stomach is getting more flat and I am loving life. Not because i want to be some GQ male, but because my old self was inside this whole time, just took some fighting to get him back, so to all my peeps who know what im going through, I love ya!!! 40 more to go......

Naked
Now that I got you, i want to hold a contest. I wanna try something for both male and female, so I want to do a Best in Uniform. It can be a work uniform or military uniform. It will be the most comments. Prizes to be determined once I see how many people I get. If interested let me know.

Women
I just ate a girl's puss for over an 1hr and she got off i know of twice but she said I was wrong and hadn't got off. Bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!! Next vthing I know she is getting off for the 3rd time. I don't know about the rest of the men in the world but when I get a woman off I sure as fuck know it. I'm not being cocky but when I know , I know so women respond. I'm not trying to be a jerk or self-centered I'm just being me and honest so write me back.

To Live. To Die
as i live, i feel pain. if i die, it means nothing. to live. to die. what does it matter. in life, im a ghost. in death, im just a stone. no servise, no flowers, no morners. no one to remember me. no one to think of me. to live, to die, it all the same

American Idol
The Semifinals - Simon Picks- A FightJordin Sparks emerged Tuesday as a true contender for the "American Idol" top prize, turning in three solid performances during the show in which each contestant sang one song picked by one of the judges, one song chosen by the producers, and one number of the singer's choice.In a night when most of the judges' comments were positive, Simon Cowell was even more of a boor than usual when it came to Sparks. He criticized her performance of Rose Royce's "Wishing on a Star," even though he picked that song for her!And after Sparks' third number, a powerful rendition of the Lieber/Stoller classic "I (Who Have Nothing)," Cowell groused that he hated the fact that a 17-year old was singing "a 60-year old song."First of all, the song isn't that old. "I (Who Have Nothing)" written by Jerry Lieber and Mike Stoller, was originally recorded by Ben E. King in 1963, and has been notably covered by Shirley Bassey, Tom Jones, Petula Clark and many others.Second, it

Don't Fret America
Well it seems another season of American Idol has been completed and another winner crowned. But don't fret America, a new season will start in January. In the meantime, allow American Idol to fulfill all your vocal needs. Do you need vocal talent for your Broadway or off Broadway musical? Do you need a vocalist to sing the national anthem at your ballpark, stadium, or arena? Do you need somebody to sing at the ribbon cutting for the grand opening of a bank, massage parlor, trailer park, or bingo hall? Again, don't fear my friends. A former American Idol contestant can fill the bill. One can envision the day when the American Idol finale will rival the hysteria and overblown excitement of the Super Bowl. It will become an all day event laden with its own "pregame" activities culminating with the grand announcement of who got the most cell phone votes. And while that person will no doubt possess superb vocal skills, so do millions of other folks who choose not to subject them

Fire In The Night
Where was I, When I first looked at you. Lost in my own turmoil, Not knowing what to do. When I saw you again, its like I was in a trance. One look at you And my heart began to dance. With that look in your eyes And that smile so right. Sprang my heart back to life On a cold and lonely night. Your eyes and smile sparkling, Your hair all aglow. How far my heart will fall, This I'll never know.

Quote For The Day
Up to a point in a mans life is shaped by environment, heredity, and movements and changes in the world about him. Then there comes a time when it lies within his grasp to shape the clay of his life into the sort of thing he wishes to be. Only the weak blame their parents, lack of good fortune, or the quirks of fate. Everyone has it within his power to say, "This I am today, that I will be tomorrow." Louis L'Amour

I Love Nylons
what is it whith nylons and pantyhose.i love the legs and bodies in it. i can`t stop looking on it so i hope you will send me some of yours pics to me for inspection. send me the pic on scon67@yahoo.se and join my sexy dream here on the net

Funny Pictures
I HAVE SOME PICS FOR YOU UNDER FUNNY SHIT THAT I GAURENTEE WILL MAKE YOU LAUGH ..AND A LOT OF NATIVE THINGS IF YOU ENJOY THAT ...I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO GET AHOLD OF ALL OF YOU SO I DECIDED TO TRY THIS LOVE JESSY GREYEAGLE

Friday The 13th Always Sucks
it was good till my man couldn't sleep and then as uasual he made me feel like it was all me fault,seems like i'm always the one who is shitty until a week later :( yet again on a friday night/saturday morning this hot girl is not having fun seems i never am:(

~~me An You~~
Tonights the night for me and you ,The night to prove we were meant to be. You mean the world to me,and so much more. I would give my life for you, the one i adore. You're the one I think of,when im happy or sad. You're the one i think of, and im very glad to have, Your touch is so gentle, your smile is so sweet, Everytime I'm with you, my heart skips a beat. Together, forever, I know its meant to be, for you to only be wit me, When we hold hands, my heart fills with joy, Just to hear you tell me, I'll always be your boy, When we hold each other close, the world seems to move fast, And it seems like forever, though much time has past. When we hug each other, and i look into your eyes, Your sweet adorable smile, catches me by surprise. Your kisses are so sweet, when our lips begin to meet. To hear you say, I Love You, means so much to me, and I hope and pray that you, will always be wit me.~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~

God Said ,no
I asked God to take away my habit. God said, "No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up." I asked God to grant me patience. God said, "No. Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned." I asked God to give me happiness. God said, "No. I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you." I asked God to spare me pain. God said, "No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares, and brings you closer to me." I asked God to make my spirit grow. God said, "No. You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful." I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life. God said, "No. I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things." I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as he loves me. God said... "Ahhhh, finally you have the idea

Wat Its Worth
Wats it Worth .. How many times have you fallen in love just to find out that theres something just not right?? you break up, fight, whoop ass, watever your temper level is depends wat ya do , or if your the calm type.....i'm the calm type myself.. i'm pretty blunt to, once ya get to know me im told im a good person but a lil twisted with my humor, anyway wats it worth to be happy, worth a bumpy ride, you meet someone you go out have fun, talk up a storm, then they dont talk to you again, or you make another date, goes good till you light up a smoke or say something that just came out wrong, was it worth it? i'm upfront about everything, then someone says theres gotta be something wrong with you , you to nice, yeah there is its called being lonely, but not desperate, lookin for the specail someone that will just turn your world inside out and fill your heart back up with love and a feeling in your soul to last forever, wats it worth?? its worth everything....feelings people have a

How To Smiley's
Okay, I don't know if everyone knows but I just found out. Here are the smiley faces and things. No spaces. : ) = :) : D = :D : ( = :( : P = :P : O = :O ( D ) = (D) ( B ) = (B) ( Y ) = (Y) ( N ) = (N) 8 -P = 8-P : -S = :-S : @ = :@ END [Massacre]

3 Am And 8 Hours To Go
I feel like a zombie; nothing seems real and nothing seems solid; I know it's because I'm trying to be a lot braver than I was a year ago when I totally fell apart at the funeral but all this is doing is ripping my heart out and hurting worse than when she died. I figured that I needed to get these feelings down now and no wait until the last minute. It hurts so bad; I knew it would but why does it have to hurt this much? I've got to keep it under control since i'm going back to work in a day. I'll write more later; I just needed to get something down and in cold hard print. Hope that you all have a great weekend!

July 14th
What gives? Are you secretly thrilled that this business opportunity/ostensibly hot date didn't pan out quite as expected? Deep down, your instincts sensed that this may not have been the right time or place for this. Ok so far as I am aware ...not had no buisness oppotunities and certainly no hot dates. Soooooooooooooo are the horoscopes a pile of do do?

Gifts
This will be the first of many short, stupid, waste of time blogs... I have 5 gifts thus far, and i noticed three of them are alcohol!!! is that what I am? guys just trying to get me drunk to throw me around the sack? DANG, i thought it would be different in Miami! Okay, totally joking, keep 'em coming lol. I just wanted something to say.

What-one-word-best-describes-you?
What one word best describes you?You are ExhilaratingBreathtaking, Thrilling, Stimulating, Exciting - You are like electricity, WOW! Hanging out with you is for the brave and for thrill seekers, because your life is fast and adveturous. No one can ever be bored with you!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

The Beast Has A Name...
One by one Kill by kill Taking lives Honing my skill I live inside you An unendurable disease No pills or booze can cure Ill bring you to your knees Ive seen you hanging from a rope Or overdose on pills You try and destroy me But youre the only one it kills Unexplained anger Sometimes you just want to cry Neverending sorrow and darkness All you want is to die Im the blackness in your heart Im the reason you have no soul You may know me as depression I have complete control Ive seen you hanging from a rope Or overdose on pills You try and destroy me But youre the only one it kills

Why-do-people-fall-for-you?
WHY DO PEOPLE FALL FOR YOU?YOU ARE THAT WiFEY MATERiALYOU ARE EVERYTHiNG THAT SOMEONE COULD ASK FOR. YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE THEM HAPPY, WHEN TO BE SERiOUS & WHEN TO BE FUNNY. YOU PUT THEM FiRST & ALWAYS MAKE AN EFFORT TO BE WiTH THEM. YOU ARE FAiTHFUL, AND ARE A LOVER. YOU ARE THAT TRUE WiFEY MATERiAL, AND ANYONE WHO iS LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET YOU, BETTER KEEP YOU!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

I Just Do Not Get It
over 456 people on my friends list 97% are female and i do not understand why or makes me so hot and so sexy and so on and so on as i have been told and whats with my bedroom eye's i keep hearing this i am flaterd really its all very nice compliments you all have givin me but there are so many better looking guys on ct i'm just an average joe on here really i am noting special here but thank you anyway its very nice of you all

Projekt Revolution
i am there at jones beach wed august 15th!!!! yay Linkin Park / My Chemical Romance / Placebo / Taking Back Sunday / HIM / Saosin / The Bled / Mindless Self Indulgence / Madina Lake / Styles of Beyond / Julien K - "Projekt Revolution" Wed 12:45P

Ugh Men Frustrate Me
Well, I have been seeing this guy for almost 3 months well the past month that we have been together things have completely changed. He got two jobs and yet have no time for me anymore. At first he made sure he always had time for me now we don't do shit. He don't call me anymore or anything. I am so stress lately I don't even know what to do. Should I try and make this work or just give up and leave him because I can't sit around wondering if were still okay or whatever =[

Ill Never Find The Words On How Just To Tell You:
Friday, July 13, 2007 ..ill never find the right words on just how to tell you... Rules: 1)List things you want to say to people, but never will 2)Don't say who they are. 3)Never discuss it. 1) I cant explain in words the way you make me feel. Its like, when i want to be with you, you dont want me. but then as soon as i get enough courage & strength to leave you alone, you act like your in love with me, & you wont let me go. this has to stop. you know i love you. ive even told you i was in love with you. and i meant it,but i cant keep letting you hurt me. its better to let it go now. You have another gurl thats crazy about you, [[literally that tricks crazyy too:D]] but. whatevers meant to be, will happen:) 2) you really need to grow up, & realize that your not a little kid anymore. me and brittanys tried to tell you plenty of times. YOUR IMMATURE. and one more thing..he would of been much better off with brittany anyday. 3) Even though we've never actually met,

Poetry
Though my feelings can be endless. Like the moment that could be by feeling your kiss. Your touch against my face was a lost moment in time. Not loving you is the greatest crime. What can i say but i've failed. Instead of loving you i've pushed you away and yelled. My heart beats to every cherished moment with you. The day you have left my heart broke in two. Now i carry this heavy burden on my chest. When can i go on when can it rest. I'm sitting here the world is cold and empty. I sit hurting and felling but yet my heart is bleeding. Everyone feels what i have written. But don't they know it doesn't concern me. What am i to do if this is the actuall me. I myself live with no fear. Yes i'm the one to put I WAS HERE. I have this raod i call life to walk. I have my ways of doing things including the way i talk. I wonder what the true purpose of being here would actually be. Doesn't matter now this is the real world the world i see. People have lost their way through

Men
yeah so I got played again.........FUCK ALL MEN.!!!!!!!!!!! Im fucking done.......the old Shannas back im so fucking tired of being sweet and nice when all it gets me is heart ache and I hope the little ass reads this......cause thanks to him.............. im back!!!!!!!!!!

Each Man
Our bodies are both physical and spiritual. At our very center we are spiritual. Our bodies are built around the spiritual. The center is the unseen world. Therefore, we cannot see it with our eyes and we tend to judge the body because we can see it. The body is not who we are. We can see thes piritual if we are spiritual ourselves. We won't see this always with our physical eyes. Usually we will see it with our spiritual eye. We will hear ourselves say "I know this to be true." At the center of all human beings is the place of good. That includes myself. At my very core is good. I can find this place by staying free of resentments, fear, dishonesty and self-seeking motives. My Creator, keep me free this day of resentment, selfishness, dishonesty and fear.The human ego is a place that can do more harm than good. It is up to us to make sure our balance is in check daily Rebelbreed

How-will-you-die?
How will you die?Horrible DeathYou slip and fall at the top of the stairs with a knife in your hand and stab yourself in the throat on the way down. You run out itno the middle of the street for help where a trucker who is tweaked out and not paying attention hits you and drags you 20 miles while your still alive and your skin rips from you body. You are then eaten alive by hungry coyoties.How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Why Not To Buy An Iphone (yet)
Once again, everybody's talking about the iPhone. Reminds me of the way it was when Apple showed the first prototype and everyone went nuts. Now people are actually getting their hands on working models of the thing and everyone's going nuts again. And the praises - and complaints - are rolling in. Here's a rundown of some initial observations:http://www.engadget.com/2007/06/26/iphone-facts-from-the-first-reviews/ So now they're saying that it does support Exchange, "in some capacity." I perked up my ears at that. The reported lack of Exchange support was the number one deal-breaker for me. It still remains to be seen exactly what that "capacity" may be but it is cause for hope. I do love the way it looks. That huge, gorgeous screen sorely tests my loyalty to Windows Mobile. And I don't really give a flip about some of the things that others are whining about, such as no text messaging and the inability to set MP3s as ringtones (although the latter feature would be nice). I could even

On The Iphone Pricing Plans
NO GREAT SHAKES Well, Apple and AT&T announced the pricing plans today for the iPhone launch this Friday. And there are no major surprises. But one does need to get mentally ready for the financial commitment involved here. Here's the low-down:"Pricing & Availability iPhone goes on sale at 6:00 p.m. (local time) on Friday, June 29 and will be sold in the US through Apple?s retail and online stores and AT&T retail stores. iPhone will be available in a 4GB model for $499 (US) and an 8GB model for $599 (US), and will work with either a PC or MacÂ®. All iPhone monthly service plans are available for individuals and families and are based on a new two-year service agreement with AT&T. Individual plans are priced at $59.99 for 450 minutes, $79.99 for 900 minutes and $99.99 for 1,350 minutes. All plans include unlimited data (email and web), Visual Voicemail, 200 SMS text messages, roll over minutes and unlimited mobile-to-mobile and a one-time activation fee of $36. Family plans

One Flaw To A Woman
One Flaw In Women By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands." The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish." "But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hours a day." The angel moved closer and touched th

Shocking Body Facts
Thursday, June 07, 2007 Shocking Human Body Facts!!! The average human brain has about 100 billion nerve cells. Nerve impulses to and from the brain travel as fast as 170 miles (274 km) per hour. The thyroid cartilage is more commonly known as the adams apple. The only jointless bone in your body is the hyoid bone in your throat It's impossible to sneeze with your eyes open. Your stomach needs to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks or it would digest itself. It takes the interaction of 72 different muscles to produce human speech. The average life of a taste bud is 10 days. The average cough comes out of your mouth at 60 miles (96.5 km) per hour. Relative to size, the strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. Human thigh bones are stronger than concrete. When you sneeze, all your bodily functions stop even your heart. Babies are born without knee caps. They don't appear until the child reaches 2-6 years of age.

Backstage
So you've been wandering around the FU-Bar and you've ended up backstage. You've either been invited with an official pass, are drunk or have taken a wrong turn while trying to find the bathroom. By rkrgrl If you're up for it hang out and party with the band. Post up some pics of your own backstage passes or old concert stubbs you may still have laying around. Free drinks for those that actually do this! If your a musician then become an Official FU-Bar Rocker yourself and join the band! Post your info here. What do you play? Are you in a band? Got demos? Post a pic! You're backstage live it up!

Life
In everyone's life, you reach a turning point. Some of us are actually fortunate enough to get a few "turning points." Our problem most of the time, is that human nature gets in the way of us recognizing our "turning points", and so we let them just pass us by. I had no idea that life would be so full of challenges & heartaches. But now that I do, I sit back and look at my beautiful children and pray to God every nite to give me the knowledge and strength to raise them in this Hell Hole, that we all call "life." For the most part, your life is what you make it. We all sit around and whine how we wish we had more, or did better...but thats just it...we TALK. Life gets more challenging with every passing day. Technology has now replaced our need for actual, "personal" relationships. Now we have text, and we can even date conviently online. All that leads to is a bunch of people involved in "relationships" that begin on a lie to begin with.

Fun Night
Well I went and hung out with friends I ended up hanging out with an ex which I'm still cool with, damn I miss hanging out with her but o well, fuck I sound like a kid, o well, and tomorrow, well later today, I'm going to the beach so I probably won't be on much during the day

Las Vegas, Nv (part 2)
So for the most part, the whole Friday the 13th oddness really does not bother me. But yet another random event has caused yet another random problem in the grand game plan for the weekend. Work is work and that was just another thing to deal with like normal. To the point, a random idea for a road trip was starting about 4 weeks. Destination was Las Vegas and my co-worker had never been. Every one of my close friends knows I'll plan everything. Like clockwork the plans are down on paper, with a few changes to who is going along and the hotel room booked. So it is down to the moment of leaving, about 45 minutes before the mark. Just got out of the shower. 4 missed calls on my cell phone. My co-worker has a family emergency and will not be able to go. Alright, that is understandable with the emergency and all. No I am not acting selfish. Just a bit uncomfortable about randomness. One gets used to the change of plans at last minute. On a positive note, I'm just glad this was not the tri

Hmm
Red eyes just keep my heart beating Your secret's safe with me Just drive, I've broken our mirror So our past won't look so tempting I never thought it'd feel this good to quit Failure tastes so sweet I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me I'll swing here, I'll hang from this rope Just at least until they've found me Stay close dear, the note on the floor says I wish that you were here At this point I'm not concerned I never thought it'd feel this good to quit Failure tastes so sweet I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me

Is Paris Hilton Asset Or Liability For Online Diamond Retailer?
Online diamond retailer Abazias.com recently introduced millionaire Paris Hilton's designer watch brand on their e-commerce site and indicated: "Paris Hilton has made a name for herself on the fashion scene with her newly launched watch collections that tie together her exceptional sense of fashion with classic and wearable pieces. Available only at exclusive retailers, Abazias Diamonds is proud to carry exclusive pieces from Paris Hilton's newest watch collection." Paris Hilton with Oscar Rodriguez, CEO of Abazias.com The "Paris Hilton Watch" Typically, a company selling a luxury product will associate themselves with a high profile, celebrity "ambassador," to help promote a stable, consistent, refined, upscale, classy, etc. brand image... For obvious and well known/well documented reasons, Paris Hilton's name doesn't exactly conjure up any of the aforementioned attributes and characteristics...... In my linked article above, brand expert Ramesh Thomas, mentions

Slaying Media Statements: Paris Hilton
One of the least understood and possibly most abused tools in the public relations arsenal is the media statement. Once upon a time, it was simply meant to grab the attention of reporters and give them a lead on a story. Today, however, it seems like more and more celebrities, elected officials, and corporate executives are attempting to use them as masked position pieces with little interest in reporter follow up. In fact, most statements made today try to end stories, not begin them. It almost never works. Sure, there are plenty of examples out there, but Paris Hilton's recent weekend statement, published by the TMZ, really drives the point home. (Hat tip to Spin Thicket for the link.)"Today I told my attorneys not to appeal the judge's decision. While I greatly appreciate the Sheriff's concern for my health and welfare, after meeting with doctors I intend to serve my time as ordered by the judge." Stop. The first graph of her statement works. It might have worked better with a littl

30 Day Blast Giveaway
14,000 to go ..thanks to everyone that helped me so far..I will also be there to help you when ever you need me 18,000 let's set a RECORD for BooBoo and set that mark HIGH.This is for a 30 Blast Givaway. Its the least we can do.. Click the image above and bomb her pic please. (repost of original by 'KDM' on '2007-07-13 23:38:03')

Starting From Scratch
so, this is a lot harder than i thought it was going to be. my entire life revolved around my mom. it wasnt a burden, i made sure thats how my life was. i love her more than anything. my social life was shoved to the back burner. i dont know where to start. ive got my few close friends who have really been there for me through all of this. then those friends i dont see that often but who i know i can talk to if i ever need anything. but i honestly feel like somethings missing. maybe its just the empty space now that my mom is gone. i dont know when this is going to get easier. ive gotten good at not showing how upset i am because i know that will just upset everyone around me...not to mention i know that my mom would be furious if she saw all of us all mopey. but fuck...this is the hardest thing in my life i will ever have to deal with...i miss her so much. i miss sitting in the front room talking about life at 2 in the morning when we both have to get up at 6. i miss sitting in her ro

Friday The 13th
Normally this is my lucky day. Today....not so lucky. Well, unless you count the fact that an $85 battery fixed my dead car in the 85+ degree heat. Oy! That was fun. (note my sarcasm) Overall it was a great day. We got to meet the new teachers for our little ones. (who are NOT so "little" anymore *pout*) I got some major cleaning done. Worked on my site a bit. Caught up with a few friends. Just that one nasty and very inconvenient snag that made me think my "lucky day" may be turning on me. (the whore!) I hope everyone else had a very fun, safe, and happy Friday. (Yes, I know it's technically Saturday now. It's not a new day for me until I pass out, wake up, shower, and start all over damnit :-p LoL) Now I'm off to finish uploading some vacation pics then hit the sheets. And on that note..... ♥XO♥XO♥ Peace~

Entries 4 Contest Still Needed!!!
MY FIRST CONTEST! I WANT IT TO GO WELL BUT I NEED YOU TO ENTER, FIRST PLACE GETS 1 MONTH VIC, SECOND GETS 1 WEEK BLAST! MOST COMMENTS WINS, I'LL START EVERYONE OFF WITH 1 GOODLUCK COMMENT, I AIN'T GONNA START UNTIL I HAVE ENOUGH ENTRIES!!! SEND YOUR PIC LINK NOW SO I CAN GET IT READY, MUST BE RIPPABLE! IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO MAY WANT TO GET INVOLVED PLEASE PAST THE WORD OUT THERE IN CT WORLD THANK YOU AND HOPE TO HEAR FROM U SOON! STARTS MON AT NOON, ENDS AUG 7TH AT NOON. chicagobeebs1978

Profile Skin Coding (old)
(NOTE:THIS IS THE OLD SKIN CODING, AND DOES NOT WORK CORRECTLY WITH THE NEW PROFILE SETUP... I WILL POST THE NEW CODE AS SOON AS I CAN) Skin coding is alot more simple than it looks, it is basic CSS... the first thing i will do is explain all of the different parts of the code, then i will post the code below... The 1st thing is the background: ***background-color:black; ... black being replaced with the background color of choice, if a url image is being used this does not need to change, or it can be changed to background-color:transparent to make things a bit less complicated (transparent being invisible) ***background-image:url(URL HERE); ... this is the place to put a background image, the background must be uploaded to a hosting site such as http://photobucket.com then the url to the image is placed in the code where it says URL HERE make sure the parenthesis () are around the image url ***background-position:center center; this is the basic CSS positioning, the

Happiness
Well you know how they say if you look hard enough you can find happiness?? Wel, everyting happens for a reason. So, folks Strawbery is going to take a vacation from CT. The bartender is taking a leave of absence ntil further notice from the cherry tap world. Please don't get mad and I will still ge on here every so often to check my mail, messages and such but hurts to be heart broke these days worse then it use to...... ~Steph~

Poem 7-9-07
When you lay your heart Next to mine At that moment I know Everything will be fine Our love is untouchable and great Someday with the help of faith we will take our stand and walk out in this world hand and hand At that moment we can breathe And not worry about who might see A love as Stronge As ours seems to be

Rodeo Fever
Ok, im gearing up for the 2008 rodeo seasonstarting in Oct. I've watched the movie 8 Seconds about 20 times in the past week! Im also pricing gear that i'll need. I havent rode in 8 yrs, and im 35 yrs old.. But like the saying goes.. I gotta Cowboy Up and face my fears.

Joy
joy joy, that creature elusive dwells not in the places it seems but it lives in the life of another the one that we've given our dreams the selfish cannot hold it too long their tight grasp strangles it's breath and the want to feel it too closely only quickens it's impending death love makes rules fresh every morning to hold it you must learn to bend to squeeze it for only your pleasure is only to promise it's end hard as stone it will strike you when your loss is all that you see when the panic of loss slowly settles there's something more soothng to see so go down the path you must follow your joy still will make someone bright just remember your past has a promise to be held to the rest of my life though tears may escape on occassion and the days may become maudlin sad inside there's a smile deeply hidden borne on the good times we've have so look past the sadness you're seeing and think past the pains that i'll feel your happiness borne o

Sex Quiz
1. Would you have sex with me? Answer: 2. What positions would u want to be in? Answer: 3. Would u suck/LICK me ? Answer: 4. Would u fuck me hard? Answer: 5. Would u hav sex with me the first night u met me? Answer: 6. Would u let me pull your hair while i did you? Answer: 7. Would u do me in the shower? Answer: 8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up to the bed and then do me? Answer: 9. Would u have 3-some with me? Answer: 10. What about me makes u want to hav sex with me? Answer: 11. Would u talk dirty to me while we sexed? Answer: 12. Where would you do me? Answer: 13. Would u do me in front of people? Answer: 14. Would u do me again and again? Answer: 15. Would u do me in the rain? Answer: 16. Would u mind if we did it like a porn star? Answer: 17. Would u have phone sex with me? Answer: 18. Would u cheat on me? Answer: 20. If I gave u my heart would you love it or let it go? Answer: 21. Would you do me once and

Hello Anybody Home?
ok look in my lounge i have 11 mods 2 of which are ct bouncers the other 8 are friends that are suposed to help me out and only one is helping me out at all i can excuse 2 of them one being a friend of mine she is away on a vaction so she has a reason to not be on helping me the other is my fiance she is working on stuff and has a job during the day so she has a reason what about the rest of you ? oh i forgot 2 others are the owners of the stream so they are excused 2 so hmm i do not know about the rest of you ? hit me up soon i would like to know why you are not trying to at least give me ideas to make my lounge jumping again ~ Lost In The Dark ~

How Do You Know?
There are a couple people in my life, that no matter what I do, or how much I love them, it just doesn't seem to be enough. I try to always be there, that doesn't work. I try to step back and let them....be. Maybe I love them to much. So much that I just don't see the things I need to. The signs that would tell me. I don't want to lose either of them!!! I can not handle the pain my heart can not release. They have been through so much. I try to be understanding and tolerant to their situations. (So absolutely different, by the way). I know they need a friend like me. To be there for them & help them to heal, & deal with all these things they don't understand. Help find answers and the strength, I know they have with in. I don't know if I am strong enough. I get so drained, confused, I start to doubt myself. I worry so much, so often, for them. I make myself sick. How can I help? It hurts so much that I can not make their pain go away. Though I did not cause this pa

Hey All
Had a little free time to jump on my sisters computer for a minute so i thought i'd drop a ;ine and say hi to all of you that i have missed and thank my sweetheart once again for helping keep my page going on here and to also say hi to the few f you that talk to me alot and have managaed to catch me online now and then I am still having problems with my computer and also still have alot going on in my family as well, I look forward to being able to get back to CT in the next few weeks.....lord nows I do miss all the time I spend on here love ya all Janet AKA tasty

Mysterious Is My World!
You scored as The World of Mystery, Night can bring you fear and intrique. You are very cautious when alone in the night. You feel safer in numbers cause of what might be out there. You're not saying there is such things as vampires and things, but you're not ruling them out either. clickThe World of Mystery70% The world of child60% The fantasy world55% The world of a romantic55% The high rollers world50% What world do you live in? (PICTURES)created with QuizFarm.com

Attention All Members
OK THIS IS HOW WE ARE GOING TO WORK FOR RIGHT NOW. WE ARE ONLY GOIN TO TAKE CONTEST, WE DONT WANT TO DO GIVE AWAYS RIGHT NOW TILL WE GROW A LITTLE BIGGER. IF YOU WISH TO BE IN A CONTEST PLEASE LET US KNOW RIGHT AWAY WE ARE GOING TO DO A FIRST COME FIRST SERVE. WE HAVE TWO CONTEST GOIN RIGHT NOW SO LETS SHOW THEM WHAT WE GOT.

That About Right!
You scored as Violent, You are violent. To you there is nothing better than a good spank. You like scratching and biting 'cause that's what people are for.Hot100% Violent100% Wet75% Exciting75% Sweet56% Soft31% Awkward6% Shy6% What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

All I Want
All I Want When I tell you I love you, I want it to mean, more than when anyone else in the world says it. I want it to mean, that your happiness is everything to me. and I want the best for you always. No matter what it takes. I want it to mean, that you are more important, than anything in my life. When I tell you I love you, I want it to mean, that you are a part of me, and I am a part of you. No matter what happens in this world, we will be together till the ends of time. Sharing our lives and happiness. All I want, is to love you for the rest of my life. To wake up each morning with you by my side. and knowing that no matter what happens, I'll be able to come home to your loving arms. All I want , is to share everything with you. To talk about our ideas, our dreams, and all the little everyday things, that make us laugh. and the not so little things, that we can't help but worry about. All I want, is to give you my love. As a place where you can a

Happy In Hell
An angel born of hell With wings of glistening night With a rusted, broken halo Drifting further from the light A sin so dirty, so vile, so filthy It can never be scrubbed clean Something so forbiddingly evil Something so morbidly obscene Dark Days filled with laughter Dead nights with perfect dreams Always feeling content Never broken at the seams. I am not sure who is right, Heaven or Hell, I have my views, but who can tell? I thought of heaven, where God is said to live, But is Hell more accepting, thatâ��s why im hear that is, Whoever you choose, this is your fight, The fight that continues well through the night, Up into dawn, and then into day, The fight that will never go away, But its too late now, you cant go back, the ailing demons are your only hope, the pain is the only thing to rock you to sleep, now you can truly call this wonderful hell your home You may think that I'm an angel. Happily sleeping on a bed of dead ro

My Angel
My Angel Beyond our world there is a place, where true happiness runs free, and only the purest of feelings are felt there. My heart and mind begin to wonder, moving around endlessly, traveling at the speed of sound, but only looking for the light. Never have I knew true happiness, untill I met you. Now that is all I know. emptiness and loneliness are nomore. My life used to be like a big jigsaw puzzel. but now all the pieces have found their places. My heart has now became whole again, and I have you to thank. The foundation in my life has been rebuilt, on my own two feet I can stand. With your love guiding me through all the down times, and your love lifting my spirits through the sad times, now I have found new meaning, all that was in the pats has now been erased, and all I can see now ia a clean slate. You helped me find my way, through all the obsticals that were in my way, and cleared a path so I can go straight in life. Looking in the future and n

Just A Thought
Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Things I Think About
things i think about well i think about if ima going to wake up tomorrow or not sometimes i hope not just because i dont want to face facts and or the day some days i cant wait to go to work or something i used to love to wake up it was like being 5 again and waking up on a saturday morning to watch cartoons or see it was sunny to go out side and play now days my days just keep getting darker and darker and i just dont want to move anymore i think sometimes maybe if i dont wake up the world would be alot better off with out me maybe i should be like a ghost or something just want to wonder around and never talk to anyone probably the best take on my life a ghost or a phantom yeah i just might give up the game was fun to play but the shraid is all over the dark cloud will cast its dark night and i am the one it shines down on or just maybe i said to much .

Yo
my peeps my peeps my peeps im back yayz who missed me or who loves me uh i need a girlfiend in my life to have hold cuddle kiss give lapdances and strip teases for ya know its lonley over here on the westcoat whos gonan answer the call crying out loud for love yayz everyone i hope you have a safe sexy wild weekend drink but keep it cool dont want anyone to get hurt or anything always make love never war only make war when tha peeps want helll you dam skippy im an american red white and blue when will i have sex again well its not gonna be again its gonna be for the first time yayz im a new virgin i can do it i just did it and i am letting the hole world know im a virgin yayz whos gonna pop my cherry winks

Putting Out A Fire ... A Short Story That Was Sent To Me ... Thought I Would Share
As she was dressing for a sexy night out on the town She smelled smoke and saw that a grease fire had started in the kitchen She frantically called 911 and a team of fire fighters were there immediately To extinguish the blaze The young hunk of a firefighter Followed her into the bedroom To console her from what could have been a raging inferno He guessed she was slightly over 40 But her long flowing blonde hair and angelic face Made her seem much younger He noticed that other than her high-heeled boots She had very little if anything on under her robe As he gave her a gentle hug from behind His lips brushed against the nape of her neck And he whispered to her what he would like She turned and looked up at him with a smile He undid her robe and much to his pleasure Her tight little sexy body was adorned in “Playboy Bunny” black lace bra and g-string Letting the robe fall to the floor She embraced him Her lips lightly brushing his Then they kissed passionately

Just Wandering Thoughts!!
My mind wanders tonight as the storm rolls over us. I think about how time rolls in and out. How so many things change. How so man things stay the same. I wonder how your heart turns like the tide. I wonder how you drift in and out. How sometimes your half/half. Light/Shadow at the same time. How time has changed us. Yet hasn't change us. How we cross each other. How your hot/ I'm cold. I'm light/ Your dark. Your tears/ I'm laughter. How we make no sense. How we do make sense. It's strang how we lasted this long. This world is mixed up. But not as mixed up as we are. So why try to be what we are not. Why not be just what we are. So now I'm done with my meanless wandering through my thoughts tonight.

Rant
Younger men. I'm very popular with them, ya know. And while my search for a serious relationship has gone nowhere, I'd settle for a decent friends with benefits relationship. So, since 80% of the local guys who contact me are young and cute, why not take one adorable and energetic kid up on his offer? As long as he understands the concept of friends with benefits -- getting to know me, ensuring we have things in common, hanging out with me, being my friend outside of bed as well as in it -- it should work out just fine for both of us, right? But egads, it's like pulling teeth! I mean, I'm cool, right? I'm fun. I own lots of movies. I like to play Nintendo. I have a great sense of humor. I'm young in spirit. I'm comfortable with myself and who I am. And I'm pretty good in bed, or so people tell me. You'd think it wouldn't be that much of a chore to hang out with me. But noooo. They say they want a friend with benefits, but in the end, they're blowing off plans with m

50 Similarities Between Jesus And Horus
Written 2004.12.19 © Gavin C. Schmitt 50 Similarities Between Jesus and Horus The following was adapted and expanded based on an article available from religioustolerance.org. Upon revision, each point will be fleshed out and this will be more of an essay than a list. As it stands, this list is hardly original... but revised, will hopefully be more authoritative and objective than many of the Christ-bashing pages out there. 1. Both were conceived of a virgin. 2. Both were the "only begotten son" of a god (either Osiris or Yahweh) 3. Horus's mother was Meri, Jesus's mother was Mary. 4. Horus's foster father was called Jo-Seph, and Jesus's foster father was Joseph. 5. Both foster fathers were of royal descent. 6. Both were born in a cave (although sometimes Jesus is said to have been born in a stable). 7. Both had their coming announced to their mother by an angel. 8. Horus; birth was heralded by the star Sirius (the morning star). Jesus had his birth her

Peter Britt's Book Cover!!!
Well, the book cover is here. The publisher is currently fixing the title, but I felt that it is time to reveal my book cover. The title will be different, but the rest will stay the same. So, go get your book today!!!!!!! lol Here are the links to get your copy right away: Use this link to purchase the hardcover book:Click here for the hard cover book Use this link to purchase the paper back book: Click here for the paper back book

Misunderstandings Its Happens
Misunderstandings its happen ever try talkin to somebody ok you online using yahoo or msn and your chatting to someone and all of a sudden you get booted,well thats what happen to me then the person i was chatting with thought i cut her off and trying to log back on i got blocked and trying to send her am email saying what happen i got blocked i few people sometimes shouldnt hit conclusions so fast give a person a chance to explain its happens it life but jeeze why me lol anyway i guess im the misunderstood cowboy lol,but remember misunderstandings do happen

Should I Or Shouldnt I Need Some Advice (requires A Yes Or No)
OK LAST FEW DAYS I HAVE BEEN DEBATING IF I SHOULD OR SHOULDNT CALL SOMEONES GAME OVER SO HERE IS MY QUESTION IF YOU HAD SOMEONE ON YOUR LIST THAT HAS DONE SOME PRETTY SHITTY THINGS IN RECENT MONTHS/WEEKS WOULD YOU OR WOULDNT YOU LET THAT PERSONS DIRTY LITTLE SECRET OUT I MEAN AFTER ALL THIS MAY BE CHERRY TAP BUT IF YOU NEW SOMETHING THAT WOULD PROBABLY MAKE YOU DISGUSTED TO KNOW SPECIALLY IF YOU HAD THAT PERSON ON YOUR LIST WOULD YOU WANT TO LET THE COMMUNITY OF CHERRY TAP KNOW PROVIDING YOU HAD PROOF WITH TIME STRAPPED DATES AND THINGS THE PERSON SAID SO WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK I SHOULD DO CALL THE PERSON OUT AN LET CHERRY TAP KNOW JUST EXACTLY WHAT THE PERSON DESERVES FOR ALL THE SHIT THEY HAVE DONE AN SAID TO OTHERS? I WOULD SIMPLY JUST LIKE A VOTE AS YES OR NO?

Too Much On My Plate? ( Bad !)
I skate cross country but all i do is wana come home to you, yeah i make enough money but, its not enough. when i come home i get fucking wasted. Every minute of every fuckin' day i want to say "FUCK OFF IM DONE, I QUIT!" MQT is a a great place to skate... I know this. MQT rocks periods. I don't know maybe im drunk but when im sober i need a new job damnit.

Who Here Believes
That there is entirely too many people on this site that believe they are all knowing wanna be's whose shit doesnt stink, yet are feeled with so much hatred in their lives that the only way they can be happy is to pull people down to their mere pitiful existence while they are here.

Depression
shit i know that im getting played like a fool , but i cant control it.....it hurts so bad that im in a depression stage now....im not sure what to think i cant even get my head straight thats not me to let someone hurt me like that....it hurts so bad that my heartaches every time i see him walk away....he's telling me what i want to hear just so that he can get what he wants......he tells me that he cares.....one night he tells me that he loves me and but then the next its like were just friends...i cry myself to sleep at night wishing that he would just let me be....to stop playing games with me to love me for me and not that other person that im not....i want him to know that i will always love him.....just one of these days im not going to be there any more....it hurts so bad that i have to say good-bye...he is pushing me away i have no choice but turn my back and and walk the other way...im sorry if i hurt you....im sorry that i let you down...im sorry that it didnt work out for u

It Hurts
it hurts my head hurts when i think of you....its like a drug that never ends.....just when i think its gone i see you again....the pain inside just keeps going...its like you just dont care about anyone.....who can you sit there and say that you do....when you give nothing but mixed feels and emotions to....you say that you want me to stay...you say that you will never let me be.....all i see is nothing that you've said to me.....you say your not ready....you say that your not over her....you say those 3 words to me....like they dont mean anything....so if you didnt want to be with me....you shouldnt of started....you played with my heart....you may have me fucked up and confused....so this is what i have to say to you....im not or bitch to be doing this to....so i have no choice be to retaliate on you....

This Is Who I Want To Be When Im Old (my Favorite Poem)
When I Am An Old Woman I shall wear purple With a red hat which doesn't go, and doesn't suit me, And I shall spend my pension on brandy and summer gloves And satin sandals, and say we've no money for butter. I shall sit down on the pavement when I'm tired And gobble up samples in shops and press alarm bells And run my stick along the public railings And make up for the sobriety of my youth. I shall go out in my slippers in the rain And pick the flowers in other people's gardens. And learn to spit! You can wear terrible shirts and grow more fat And eat three pounds of sausages at a go Or only bread and a pickle for a week And hoard pens and pencils and beermats and things in boxes. But now we must have clothes that keep us dry And pay our rent and not swear in the street And set a good example for the children. We will have friends to dinner and read the papers. But maybe I ought to practice a little NOW? So people who know me are not too shocked and s

Hair Cut Or Trim
I don't think some ppl know the different's between a hair cut & trim,Seems like every time I go in for a trim I get a hair cut. Really pisses me off happy scissor people GRR.I'm just wondering if other people who have long hair have this same problem as me?

Ugh!!!
OK LOOK IF YOU WANNA BE AN ASS AND RATE MY PICS A LOW NUMBER GO FOR IT BUT BE ADULT ENOUGH TO GIVE A REASON... I MEAN DAMN IF YOU DONT LIKE HOW I LOOK OH FUCKING WELL... I AM MARRIED AND AS LONG AS MY HUSBAND IS HAPPY THATS ALL THAT MATTERS... SO RATE ME LOW BUT ALL THAT SHOWS IS HOW LOW YOU ARE IN YOUR LIFE

Bleeding Ulcers
Today I was just chillin drinkin some water and all of a sudden I felt really sick so I ran to the bathroom. I puked up some blood and it really sucked. I been dealing with bleeding ulcers for a bit now and they said if they get worse, I might have to get a gastrobypass and I been losing weight from it. I am down to 180 now. So yeah someone make me feel better or gimme a gun.

And I Did Get My Highlights Done And Other Things That Had Gone On.
Since I had a hair appointment, I need to say that I am grateful that Bill (aka Colonel_Deckard) did call and wake me up this morning since it was apparent that I forgot to turn on my alarm (had the time set just didn't turn it on) and I guess after talking to him last night until about 2 this morning you can realize that I was tired. The relationship between Bill and I is very complex. To me he is the big brother I never had, and wish I did have him for a brother because he and I get along so well. But then again, he also knows me too well as it is. When you have known someone for over fifteen years, you learn more about them than they possibly will ever know about themselves. The same goes for us. But I know I can trust him to listen to me when there are problems. He does treat me like a sister. He understands that there is more to me than just what is on the outside. But we talked about his going to drill this weekend, and I know how it is. He didn't want to go, but he gets out

Thing For The Military Guys And Gals Fighting This War. Keep This Going Let Them Know We Still Care And Love Them Also They Are In Our Prayers!!!!!!
I HOPE I DO NOT HEAR OF ANYONE BREAKING THIS ONE OR SEE DELETED This is a ribbon for soldiers fighting in Iraq. Pass it on to everyone and pray. Something good will happen to you tonight at 11:11 PM. This is not a joke. Someone will either call you or will talk to you online and say that they love you. Do not break this chain. Send this to 13 people in the next 15 minutes. Go. SLEEP LAST NIGHT? Bed a little lumpy... Toss and turn any... Wish the heat was higher... Maybe the a/c wasn't on... Had to go to the john... Need a drink of water... ?????????????????????????????????????? ?????????????????????????????????? ???????????????????????????????? Scroll down Yes... It is like that! Count your blessings, pray for them, Talk to your Creator and the next time when... the other car cuts you off and you must hit the brakes, or you have to park a little further from Walmart than you want to be, or you're

Without You
with out you i would be lost drifting through life never knowing the cost with out you i would be lost wondering aimlessly through the tree moss from the moment i met you i knew you were different i couldnt put my finger on it before there was you there was no me just drifting in the sea thank you for all the wonderful things you have given me the smile on my face the light in my eyes the spring in my step and the wind in my hair.. :) -Cassie Brandon

Somethings Are So True That Its Just Sickening......
Remind yourself that nagging someone to take care of a task doesn't technically counts as helping -- and resist the urge to just do it yourself. Look for more compassionate, constructive ways to help the situation along. Horoscope...... 7/13/2007...... SUPER!!!!!!!

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You have a sexual IQ of 134 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Same Old Stuff
Ya know you sit and think that maybe one day everything will change. That maybe life will start to be a happy place to exist. I am really starting to reconsider this opinion that I have had for so long. It seems like every time that I get happy something happens to make me sad again. I am sick of it all. I really am. Why try when no one else cares?

You Are
You are my moon You are my stars You are the light that guides me from a far You are the days That make my nights You are the sun That lights my way You are the heart That helps guide my dreams You are the hope That help me keep going You are the spirit That guides me though the night You are the angel That reaches out to me in my darkest hours - Cassie Brandon

Have A Great Weekend...repost Please For Lev
Well, this may be the last you hear from me for a couple of days. Unfortunately, I have to work tomorrow, so probably won't be online for long, before I have to leave for work. I normally don't work on Sat. and this wasn't the best weekend, with us going to Indy. So, as soon as I get off work at 2...and hopefully sooner, then I have to come right home, and pack for the weekend. We're hoping to be on the road by 5. So, once I get home from work, I'm just not sure if I'll have the time to drop in and write, so thought I'd do it now. We'll be home late Monday, so it will probably be Tues. morning before I get back in. Earth Angels...I've got a little over 8,000 to go, before I reach that 20,000 mark. I don't really think I'll have that many points between now and the time I get back, but if someone see'se hit that 20,000 ...please let Gail know... It would be GREAT to be leveled when I got back!!! ;-D Hope you all have a safe, and happy weekend!

Token
A small token of my friendship for in ever pedal is woven with love entwined with friendship grows with cherished memories with this flower i bid you a good day and good dreams from one friend to the next let you day be that of this rose and as sweet as its scent i bid you a good day for any day with a friend like you in it is a very good day. -cassie brandon

Our Tree
In a tree We carve What will be Countless smiles and Everlasting love We carve our names In this tree So many ways So everyone can see Love not matter the distance No matter the way No matter the time No mater the place We are connected as one Heart Mind And being This tree is a token of our love And will never die Will only grow stronger As the years go by It’s the bond that will keep us strong Through bad times Through good times And even those in between times When we feel like we are being tested All we have to do Is come back to this tree And remind our selves What we mean to each other -Cassie Brandon

I'm Back
Ok some or most of you have been wondering to yourselves where's Bruce lately why hasn't he been on ct/lc recently and there's reasonable answers to that 1 question 1. i had been blockedby the server for the internet for some time and i had difficulties getting on ct 2.my original msn email address got hackedd into so i had to change the email address and this morning i got back on ct finally after months of trying to get back on i tried for days non stop to get back on ct because i missed my wonderful and cool friends here on ct/FUBAR from Bruce

Sunset
In the grove Under the tree We sit awaiting The spectacle before us Embracing the whole while Taking in the beauty Over the horizon And in our lives We sit there never wanting This day to end For we know have Had our first Special moment Looking into each others Eyes we see the sorrow Of the day to come But we assure each other That we will not be apart for long Soon we will be back At our special spot Doing this very thing Amazing a sunset Can make a person This special. -Cassie Brandon

Giving Away Sum 11's
HEY EVERYONE IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY RATED MY PIC IN THE SALUTE CONTEST COME ON BY GIVE ME A RATE AND 10 PHOTO COMMENTS AND I WILL GIVE YOU "10" 11'S IN RETURN I ONLY HAVE 93 SO FIRST 9 GET THEM JUST LET ME KNOW IN THE SHOUTBOX WHEN YOUR FINISHED ..REMEMBER ITS HAPPY HOUR DOUBLE POINTS......WOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO......... http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=513720&i=1484022720

Where Did The Week Go?
Thanks to all who commented and sent me messages about my last blog entries. You know who you are, and know that there is much love coming your way from me. :) Please accept a huge teddy-bear hug from the Big Guy, that would be me! ---> {O} (PS- kisses too ;p {XXXX}) It was a totally heinous week back to work, but since I didn't win the lottery, I had to go back. Too bad they won't just pay me for staying home all the time, but I am working on that too! At least I survived, and the eekend is here - time to catch up all the chores. My grandson Jude made it through the first surgery and can now see with the one corrected eye. The other eye was scheduled to be done today, but no news yet. I am totally ragged out about that, but I always say, no news is good news. Bad news seems to travel fast. Thanks again for your thoughts an prayers, they do make a difference. I hope to have an update by Sunday or I will have to run down to Texas and kick some butt for sure! Other than that

Pass No Judgement
[[You have to click 'Reply To Poster', and then copy and paste in a different bulletin or you wont get the whole bulletin]]Why do people commit suicide?Why do people cut themselves? Why do girls become anerexic and belimec? Why do kids bring guns to school?Why do kids get depressed...so they start using meds, and abusing them?Why do girls feel the need to act like sluts to impress guys?Why cant people show their sexuality freely, without worrying about being judged?In the Bill Of Rights, it says we have FREEDOM OF SPEECH! So why are we so afraid to speak up for ourselves?I KNOW WHY! Cliques"Gangstas""Preps""Nerds""Goths""Emos""Scene//Hardcore kids""Punks"^^^AND THATS NOT EVEN HALF OF THEM!Society in generalWe live in a world where if your not skinny, not beautiful, not sexy, not straight...your tortured, abused, and humiliated. We say that we are all equal but, there is still racism, sexism, and people judging others based on there religion, color, size, heritage, ect.IS THIS AMERICAN?

Diary Of An Assassin
Her schedule is my own I sleep when she sleeps I become her and she is me I’ve toyed with her thoughts for weeks now Hours into days she’s paralyzed to put a single word on page I’ve Planted seeds of susceptibility to deceive and frustrate her creative state Every line must top the last Every piece must be the peak She cant even write her name Without challenging its lyrical heat My strategy speaks: 1. I penetrate the lair 2. Cut off supplies to her head 3. She doubts her poetic worth 4. By the time I deliver my escape she’s already dead She never sees me but Im always so close that I hear every concept her synapses fire Stability prior to disruption The smoke before the fire Stealth movement in her domain I lie in wait for her return She wont see me coming They never do….. Since man picked up the pen I’ve been waiting for him Silently biding my time Until his frustration becomes my sustenance I defeat him before he knows of my existence My

Retrospect
When I close my eyes I am there, away from here, a peace beyond felt for a fraction of five minutes, I hear the choir as it breaths my name, pulling my soul in a direction that you gaze in envy- not understanding the distance I've ran. If you tasted this song you might love the fill. These tears are strong taking me by surprise, and I realize I am swept away. Held in arms I am truly home~

When It Rains It Pours Pt 2
WELL HOLY SHIT REMEMBER WHEN I SAY THINGS COME IN 3 WELL FUCK ME IN THE ASS MY HUSBAND GOT LAID OFF TODAY FUCK TEXTRON FUCK THEM LOOSING CONTRACTS FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK..TO MAKE U LAUGH WELL THEY ARE NOT RACIST THEY FIRED MY HUSBAND WHO IS WHITE..A MEXICAN..A CHINESE..AND AN AFRICAN AMERICAN..DAMN I NEED TO GET DRUNK...

My Mind Is In The Gutter!!!!
WHERE TO START (EDITED)???? IF I HAD YOU IN FRONT OF ME I WOULD GRAB YOU AND START KISSING YOU. I WOULD THEN MOVE TO YOUR NECK. AFTER THAT I WOULD TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT WHILE I AM DOING THAT I WOULD BE KISSING YOUR CHEST. AS I AM KISSING YOUR CHEST I MOVE DOWN SLOWLY TO YOUR WAIST AND START TO UNDO YOUR PANTS. WHEN I GET TO YOUR WAIST I THEN TAKE YOUR PANTS OFF. I THEN START TO PLAY WITH YOUR BIG HARD DICK. I TEASE YOU WITH MY TOUNG FOR A LITTLE BIT. I STOP AND STRATTLE YOU ON THE BED THEN TEASE YOU MORE BY TAKING YOUR DICK AND SLOWLY MOVING MY HOT WET PUSSY UP AND DOWN IT THEN I PUT YOUR DICK IN MY HOT WET PUSSY. AS I AM RIDING YOU I GO FROM THE TIP ALL THE WAY DOWN NICE AND SLOW A FEW TIMES THEN I START GETTING FASTER AND FASTER...... SORRY YOUR TURN NOW!!!!

Molestation
A Catholic priest, a Pentecostal preacher and a Rabbi all served as chaplains to the students of Northern MichiganUniversity in Marquette. They would get together two or three times a week for coffee and to talk shop. One day, someone made the comment that preaching to people isn't really all that hard. A real challenge would be to preach to a bear. One thing led to another and they decided to do an experiment. They would all go out into the woods, find a bear, preach to it, and attempt to convert it. Seven days later, they're all together to discuss the experience. Father Flannery, who has his arm in a sling, is on crutches, and has various bandages, goes first. "Well," he says, "I went into the woods to find me a bear. And when I found him I began to read to him from the Catechism. Well, that bear wanted nothing to do with me and began to slap me around. So I quickly grabbed my holy water, sprinkled him and, Holy Mary Mother of God, he became as gentle a lam

~~molestation Can Be Dangerous~~
A Catholic priest, a Pentecostal preacher and a Rabbi all served as chaplains to the students of Northern MichiganUniversity in Marquette. They would get together two or three times a week for coffee and to talk shop. One day, someone made the comment that preaching to people isn't really all that hard. A real challenge would be to preach to a bear. One thing led to another and they decided to do an experiment. They would all go out into the woods, find a bear, preach to it, and attempt to convert it. Seven days later, they're all together to discuss the experience. Father Flannery, who has his arm in a sling, is on crutches, and has various bandages, goes first. "Well," he says, "I went into the woods to find me a bear. And when I found him I began to read to him from the Catechism. Well, that bear wanted nothing to do with me and began to slap me around. So I quickly grabbed my holy water, sprinkled him and, Holy Mary Mother of God, he became as gentle a lam

What Happems When You Shower With Boys Around
okay so wes is like one of my closest guy friends right ( juston is his brother the guy i had sex with * wes is still pissed about that *) so like wes is in the ytp with me so he went to the convintion with me his room was next door to mine so we were planning on hanging out and stuff after the watch dogs went to bed , but after the firstday of the convention we went to the mall ( our theatre group) wes and i hung out and stuff then when we got back to the hotel he was like " mike took a shit in our room can i brush my teethin your bathroom " i said " sure but im gonna take a shower" he goes its cool todd i wont peak " so i get in the shower and pull the curtain then get undressed and as soon as i turn the water on the shithead runs out luaghin then comes back and gloating " ha ha todd i have your clothes he took my towles as well then comes back in yet again with a video cammera and i got shampoo in

` : Simple Home Remedies (funny!!)
` 1. If you are choking on an ice cube, don't panic. Simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat and presto, the blockage will be almost instantly removed. 2. Clumsy? Avoid cutting yourself while slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop away. 3. You can avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat just by using the sink. 4. For high blood pressure sufferers: Simply cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use an egg timer. 5. A mouse trap placed on top of your alarm clock will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button. 6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives. Then you will be afraid to cough. 7. Have a bad toothache? Smash your thumb with a hammer and you will forget all about the tooth ache. 8. Sometimes, we just need to remember what the rules of life really are: In life, you only need tw

Fuck Buddy Game
haha... you opened this ok you can't turn back now there is at least one person in your friends list that wants to either sleep with you or go out with you if there is someone on your list that does then you will recieve a message saying either " i'm yours" or "i'd hit it" if they want to go out with you then you will get a message saying"im yours" if they just want to sleep wit you you will get a message saying"i'd hit it" so, come one if you want to know who likes you then repost this as fuck buddies (game) (repost of original by 'Dj JoKaZ ** ~JUGGALO~FAMILY~' on '2007-06-14 13:55:58') (repost of original by '**Nikki~The~Ninjalette**Sign my guestbook**' on '2007-06-14 15:30:36') (repost of original by '+*¨^¨*+Lø§†$øûL+*¨^¨*+" Tat2ed White Trash"' on '2007-06-14 15:32:37') (repost of original by 'BBW Pin-up Girl Luscious Lillyth Crow *Freaks R Us Family Member*' on '2007-06-14 17:55:42') (repost of original by 'tattmndo69***freak show family****sick weird and t

Reflections
And it's winter before we know it.... REFLECTIONS You know, time has a way of moving quickly and catching you unaware of the passing years. It seems just yesterday that I was young, just married and embarking on my new life with my mate. And yet in a way, it seems like eons ago, and I wonder where all the years went. I know that I lived them all... And I have glimpses of how it was back then and of all my hopes and dreams... But, here it is..the winter of my life and it catches me by surprise... How did I get here so fast? Where did the years go and where did my babies go? And where did my youth go? I remember well... seeing older people through the years and thinking that those older people were years away from me and that winter was so far off that I could not fathom it or imagine fully what it would be like... But, here it is...wife retired and she's really getting gray...she moves slower and I see an older woman now. She's in better shape

Kelly Christina Williams
Kelly Christina Williams Just sitting here, and It's a REALLY BAD night. I can't stop thinking of kacey. My Kacey, My baby , My angel. Why ??? I can't help but wonder WHY!!!!!!! I can't stop crying. I have a really hard time remembering most things about my past, but about her I remember EVERYTHING, I remember holding her , I remember the doctor and the nurses sitting there with me, I remember the doctor asking me what I wanted them to do. Did I want them to do CPR, she was a pound and half, The doctor said it would do more harm than good, again asked me what I wanted to do. What the hell did he think I wanted to do ?!!?!??!?! I wanted her to be ok, I wanted her to live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Before I could make up my mind ,she died , right there in my arms. I remember the doctor telling me , she's gone.My Life about ended right then and there.. I gave up on anything and everything for awhile. They sent me to the "Family Bereavement Room" Then brought me my daughter, It was th

The One's Who Hurt U The Most..
those who lie are not true to you at all..the ones who hurt you the most are the ones that are true to your heart..... to learn a lifes lesson is to live it....a angels life is short and meaning full...to love and to serve is a passion not a pleasure!

Trusting People
it seems though in life where ever it might be.when things happen to you,you lose trust in what you stand for and what your goal is in work,marriage and freinds,but you have to keep plugging away until there is some light at the end of the tunnel

Calling All Tappers Is This Bullshit Or What????????
Ok my complaint is, if they can't fucking punish us all and have a fair and decent way to ensure equality for everyone...The hypocrisy is so unfair on this site it makes the game not very fucking fun to play..I mean so I have haters..their problem, but WHY DOES CT HAVE TO MAKE THEM MINE...IF IT WERE EQUAL AND FAIR I WOULD TAKE MY SPANKING W/ A SMILE...THIS OUTRAGES ME...I MEAN ALL OF YOU THINK ABOUT THIS, DO YOU TOO NOT DISLIKE THE UNEQUAL TREATMENT....WHO HASN'T SENT A RACY COMMENT OR PISSED OFF SOMEONE ELSE........................ ************************************************* ****COMMENTS APPRECIATED PLEASE AND IF ANYONE ELSE DISAGREES..PLEASE LET CT KNOW YOUR FEELINGS!! ************************************************* From Scrapper: Your comments were shut down by an admin for abuse. I do not know what for exactly, but that is what the error is. ************************************************* On 7/13/2007, hotcherrylicious@cherrytap.com wrote: Hey, Sorry to bot

Having A Great Summer
Well so far this has been a great summer. The past two weeks have been fun filled. I've been hanging out with some great friends. We have been spending time going to the drive in, the fair, watching fireworks, and well have a couple cold ones. Hope everyone is also having a great summer and staying safe. Have a good one.

Not My Day!
Now I try to be a glass is half full kind of girl, but this day seems to be testing my patience. Up until about 5 minutes ago, the glass was still half full. It's amazing how a simple incident can really transgress your happy space. Backing things up a bit to the previous day: My best friend has just returned home from a two week visit with her son in Okinawa, Japan. We are two peas in a pod and cannot go very long without seeing one another, so we have had a lot of catching up to do. We went out last night to chat and have a few drinks and eventually ended up at her place where we sat and talked to the early morning hours. At approximately five in the morning, I decided that it was time to go home and get some sleep, because I was pushing the limits of exhaustion. Since my best friend and I are neighbors the walk home was only a few steps to my door. As I drew near to my house, I noticed a large puddle of water in the street that I had seen earlier the night before, had n

Summer Night
Sweet summer nights Heat up and so does our passion As the temperature rises our desires ignite Leading us to explore our wanton needs with open abandonment Our bodies glistening from the steamy air You touch me here I kiss you there hearts racing, hands exploring our motions in perfect accord wondrous delights awaits us both Flesh meets Flesh thirsty , tempting,tantalizing two bodies entwined as one Desperately seeking a satisfying release Hips arching in a delectable plea hungers demanding to be set free Yearning to be fulfilled In a summer night ecstasy ©Elaine(Angelic4now) 2005

My Number One Fans
first off if ure gonna come at me, come correct. if u aint got ur facts straight then shut the fuck up. if u think im "fat" a "whore" "ugly" or anything else u should not feel threatened by me. if u are worried about ur man cheating on u with me , im not the problem he is. werd. and i didnt know it was a crime to be friends with a guy. its like u cant be friends with someone of the opposite sex with out people assuming ur sleeping with them. im not on this website looking to steal ur man , find a man, fuck a man or anything of that nature. its like myspace, aol, yahoo or any other website im just here to be here and waste time that i could be doing something productive. but im just to lazy...maybe ill do it tomorrow, nah. cant we all just get along and be friends? cause im here for friends , people to talk to, ill talk to anybody thats just how i am i love people. and u shouldnt feel threatened by me in anyway and if u need to, ill let that be known from the get go. i change my away me

Sin To Sin. My Asshole Of The Month.
http://cherrytap.com/user/126932 This fuckface stole one of my default pix a couple of months ago before I was as paranoid as I am today. Since then, a friend notified me one morning that someone had visited their page using one of my pix. I immediatly notified the shithead until he removed it and contact CT "no"Support to no avail. Now today another sharp-eyed friend in Romania noticed "Sin To Sin" using the same pic again. Same process again today. Contacted them (got blocked). Not before I commented on my pic, his page and as many people that was on its friends list. Now this is the kicker. I contacted every bouncer over this issue and only 3 have responded. So lets see what going to happen now. 2 months down the road the guy pops up with another bogus profile. One lesson to this problem is for the other members to always check for salutes. If they dont have one. Blow them off. Its easy to post one. Dont need a fancy camera, or dress up ;-) Just grab anything to scribe

Sex On The Couch
YOU HAVE 900 MINUTES TO REPOST THIS IF YOU DONT YOU WILL BE SINGLE FOR 3 YEARS JUST PICK THE MONTH OF YOUR BRITHDAY REMEMBER IF YOU BREAK THIS CHAIN YOU WILL BE LONELY FOR 3 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JANUARY-SEX IN THE BATHROOM FEBRUARY-SEX IN THE SHOWER MARCH-SEX ON TOP OF A WASHER APRIL-SEX ON THE FLOOR MAY-SEX ON THE BEACH JUNE-SEX IN THE POOL JULY-SEX ON AN AIRPLANE AUGUST-SEX AT SKOOL SEPTEMBER-SEX ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE OCTOBER-SEX ON THE COUCH NOVEMBER-SEX IN THE CLOSET DECEMBER-SEX IN THE CAR

People Who Don't Own Up
I am really tired of some one at work who won't admit that they fucked up. They will place the blame on anyone and everyone else. Even if you have them on video doing it. My customer was pissed starting to take it out on me but then stopped them selves when he looked at me and realized that I was in the same boat and was trying to fix the problem. I can only hope that she really offends someone with her getto mating call that they complain to corporate claming racial decrimination. I wouldn't bring up that one if her lack of sales ability wasn't getting anywhere but pissing those of us off who have to clean up the wreckage.

The Real Me !!!
I am looking for a TRUE FRIEND the next time I fall in love. Someone that will get to know my heart and who I truly am before SEX is mentioned. There is a heart inside of me, that wants to be treasured and loved . Am I a model? No. Am I the most beautiful woman in the world? No. All of my true friends here know who I am and the kind of person I am. I am caring of other people and try to share hope for people who need it. Am I perfect? No and I never want to be. I don't know the long prayers that some of you write and I think they are very meaningful and beautiful. When I started my page here,it was to help me. I don't read the Bible everyday but I do say my prayers for friends and families. I say them privately between God and myself. I am still the same person you have come to know here . It has taken me almost 36 years to come to terms where I can live with myself. Will I get married again someday? I don't know but I do get lonely and miss friendship and goi

Why Try?
Why try when your not going to end up anywhere? You put your blood, sweat, and tears, and in the end, no one cares. You tried so hard you gave it your all. But without someone having your guard, why keep going if everything you achieved will eventually fall. Why try if no one is going to pick you up? your just a sitting duck. When everything of your's is taken away, you just don't give a F**k. Your mind turns blank you feel like your in space. And without anyone around to pull to back, you'll be stuck forever in that place. Why try when someone is going to take your spot. They will take your glory and everything you got. So why try when everything you did will wash away. It's not like your going to get it back someday...

The Real Deal 1
AND NOW THE REST OF THE STORY!! AT LEAST I DON'T HAVE TO BLOCK MY BLOGS TO KEEP HIM FROM SEEING THEM. WELL HERE GOES! 2 NIGHTS AGO NATIVE HUNNY POSTED A BULLETIN HEADING (CONFEDERATES AND GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY) IF YOU HAVE A MIN. PLEASE HELP OUT MY FRIEND. SO I REPOSTED IT CAUSE NATIVE HUNNY IS A VERY PERSONAL FRIEND OF MINE THAT HELP US IN THE BOMB FEAST 2007 GIVING UP HER OWN CONTEST AND THEN REBEL BREED COMMENTED ON THE BULLETIN SAYING NOT TO USE HIS NAME THAT HE HAD INSTRUCTED HIS PEOPLE ON WERE TO BOMB BEING GOTHICS CONTEST SO I SAID TO HIM THAT SHE WAS ONLY ASKING FOR HELP IF WE COULD. NOW!!! ACT 2!!! TODAY BEING 07/13/07 MY SECURITY OFFICER POSTED A BLOG SAYING HE WANT ALL OF OUR FAMILY BOMBERS IN RUBIS CONTEST CAUSE SHE IS BEHIND AND GOTHICS IS 9000 AHEAD WELL THAT IS WHEN THE WHEELS CAME OFF LOL REBEL POSTED A BLOG FOR ALL TO GET OUT OF GOTHICS CONTEST UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE AND HE WAS GOING TO TALK TO HITMAN6 TONIGHT AND THERE WOULD BE NO ALLIANCE WITH GIT-R-DONE FAMILY AND

Eh,whats The Point.
Today being friday the 13th was almost eh a good day thou.I spent most of this day drawing,and being online here.I did had an ugly arguement with one of my female friend,but what do you expect from an 18 teen year old emo brat.She thought i loved her(hahahahah)come on,i'm not that kind of a guy.Anyway it turned out ugly,and she wish me death upon me.what a moron little twit.Anyhoo i can't complaint thou,what comes around goes around,so fuck her.What can i get from Myspace.Dramma little brats,especially one thats emo goth.Well that day continues thou,So i'm here on Cherrytap,just looking for someone to chat thou,but eh no one seems to like me here,so no biggy thou.I try thou to make friends,but i guess all of them are intrest in leveling up thou.Trying to get people to rate their stuff.Oh well that the life of a cherrtap people thou.I well only do surveys to get to where i am right now.I mean whats the point thou,everyday i'm here rateing people photo,getting ignore,thinking if people l

Voices From My Past
Echos from the past fallow me through the halls what you say reminds me of the other taunts and calls nightmares chasing me over those many years caught up to me just now bringing forth held in tears glimpses of my pain come rushing back to me the words you say are just like there's your one of them, to me fears for my future ghosts from my past these walls built to keep them away crumble around me all too fast And as my false smile crumbles with laughter turned to tears I turn away with hooded eyes you have just confirmed my saddest fears

Blah Blah Blah You're A Whore
Aquarius You are very random, changing moods everyday. You are very genuine, and you like to do a lot sexually. When you find something that you like, you like it a lot and want your lover to like it too. Ideally you like to find a partner who is as into sex as you are. You want a lover who is just as independent as you are and you like an equal amount of give and take in the sack. Sex matches: Aries, Gemini, Libra Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com haha yea maybe the sex match is right but i dunno this thing isn't to right. I think the only think that is on is I am very random, changing moods everyday. As well as when I find something that i like, I like it alot.

Fettuccine With Vegetables
Fettuccine with Vegetables This wonderful combo of pasta and summer vegetables is creamy and satisfying while remaining light and refreshing. It's perfect with a glass of crisp white wine. Credit: Eater's Choice Servings: 2 to 4 Ingredients: * 1 cup sliced carrots * 1 cup sliced zucchini * 1 cup broccoli flowerets * 1 cup green beans, halved * 8 ounces fettuccine * 1 1/3 cups low-fat cottage cheese * 2/3 cup skim milk * 2 teaspoons basil * 1/4 cup chopped parsley Directions: Steam the carrots, zucchini, broccoli and green beans until tender. Put in a serving bowl to cool. Cook the pasta according to the package directions, then drain and set aside to cool. Using a blender or food processor, puree the cottage cheese until smooth. Blend in the skim milk, basil and parsley. Combine the vegetables and pasta. Pour the sauce over the cool vegetables and pasta and mix until they are thoroughly coated. Serve at room temperature.

Transformers
I had the day off today so i decided to finally go see transformers, since everybody has been talkin about it at work, in the magazines they gave this movie bad ratings, it really wasn't that bad if you ask me, the movie was longer than i thought it would be with alot of action, they even had a clip of the area i'm stationed in, that really made my day....

Tripping Again
Well there I was down by the brook, Basking in the weather questioning whether, Life is worth the dues I pay, And wondering why I stay. Can't say I'm sure about why I'm here, And why death is something I've never feared, It seems the days just slip away, When I start thinking this way. Raindrops find their way to my fingers, And the thoughts still linger, Why do I feel so unreal, And why does it eat at me still? I thought I washed away it all, When I rose from my fall, But it never seems to end, Because we can all trip again.

The One I Love
Sweet and nice, As the person I can be I often wonder, Do you really love me? I know sometimes The things I do, May seem so cruel. But, I want you to know, That my love for you is true! Watching the sunset, I saw a dove. Then I realized, That I am in love!

Marbled Chocolate Brownies
Marbled Chocolate Brownies Fend off any Friday the 13th frights by baking up a batch of these sweet, delicious cream-cheese-swirl brownies. Then munch them all weekend long! Credit: Nestle Servings: 30 brownies Ingredients: * 1 1/3 cups all-purpose flour * 1/3 cup Nestle Toll House Baking Cocoa * 1/4 teaspoon baking soda * 1/4 teaspoon salt * 1 1/4 cups granulated sugar * 1 cup (6 ounces) Nestle Toll House Semi-Sweet Chocolate Morsels * 1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce * 2 tablespoons margarine * 3 large egg whites * 1 teaspoon vanilla extract * 4 ounces light cream cheese (Neufchatel), softened * 1 tablespoon granulated sugar * 1 tablespoon nonfat milk Directions: Combine flour, cocoa, baking soda and salt in small bowl. Heat 1 1/4 cups sugar, morsels, applesauce and margarine in large, heavy-duty saucepan over low heat, stirring constantly just until morsels are melted. Remove from heat. Stir in egg wh

The Road I've Chosen
Once before I have been pushed down, and hit hard into the ground.. But I knew I had to continue on, so I picked myself up and went along.. As I went along the road began to get longer, but i I knew if I kept going it would only make me stronger... I knew my destination was so far away, I cant give up, I will continue this road day after day... Suddenly up ahead, a crossroad was found, and which ever I continue down, I cannot turn around... I chose the road that looked easier for me, the obstacles ahead I could not see.. The road began to get narrow and thin, and I began to tire, not knowing what will soon begin.. My belief in continuing started to die, I could no longer walk with my chin high.. Storm clouds forming in the sky, all around me, dusk began to fly.. And as the rain began to fall, I slowed down and began to stall.. Gusting winds began to surround, all I could hear was a thundering sound.. My feet turned into heavy bricks, and my arms felt as

Stroke: Remember The 1st Three Letters.. S.t.r.
STROKE: Remember The 1st Three Letters.. S.T.R. My friend sent this to me and encouraged me to post it and spread the word. I agree. If everyone can remember something this simple, we could save some folks. STROKE IDENTIFICATION: During a BBQ, a friend stumbled and took a little fall - she assured everyone that she was fine (they offered to call paramedics) and just tripped over a brick because of her new shoes. They got her cleaned up and got her a new plate of food - while she appeared a bit shaken up, Ingrid went about enjoying herself the rest of the evening. Ingrid's husband called later telling everyone that his wife had been taken to the hospital - (at 6:00pm , Ingrid passed away.) She had suffered a stroke at the BBQ. Had they known how to identify the signs of a stroke, perhaps Ingrid would be with us today. Some don't die. They end up in a helpless, hopeless condition instead. It only takes a minute to read this...A neurologist says that if he can get to a stroke victi

Well I Have A Boyfriend
Okey well I have a boyfriend and he don't like me to talk to guys if its family or not.... I don't know what to do.... I understand like if a guy walked up to me that I didn't know.... But if I know the guy whats the big deal??? I don't know.... If you can help me understand the male mind I would love to hear it! Thanks Jessica

I Know You
I know you I know you You were too short You had bad skin You couldn't talk to them very well Words didn't seem to work They lied when they came out of your mouth You tried so hard to understand them You wanted to be part of what was happening You saw them having fun And it seemed like such a mystery Almost magic Made you think that there was something wrong with you You'd look in the mirror and try to find it You thought that you were ugly And that everyone was looking at you So you learned to be invisible To look down To avoid conversation The hours, days, weekends Ah, the weekend nights alone Where were you? In the basement? In the attic? In your room? Working some job - just to have something to do. Just to have a place to put yourself Just to have a way to get away from them A chance to get away from the ones that made you feel so

Deppressing Gift
Deppresion. the feeling of betrayal. no one understands, i'm gone...no longer here. friends. there are none. alone. lonely. No reason to walk this earth. if no one understands whats the point of living there's so much this life demands. I try to force a smile for all the world to see but the pain that grips my heart creates a face of agony. I laugh at your unfunny joke to make you turn away then I feel the tears return once more the hundreth time today I don't know why but I cry at the most unlikely times but the sickening spirit holds me tight "I have you now you're mine" I hold myself back knowing that this is no way to live deppresion is an ugly thing but one I'd never give

Blow By Blow
I've played the game with the fatman in the city I've seen the lies become the truth I've learned the name of the game is have no pity I've learned it's all inside of you You've got to throw away those sympathy feelings Stick to your guns and make a stand You've got to throw away those cards that they are dealing You've got to take it while you can When it rains you know it's gonna pour The storm outside is knocking at your door The pain it brings something you'll never know All the time it's coming blow by blow All you're wicked nightmares you say that you don't know All the time it's coming blow by blow All the time it's coming blow by blow Blow by blow Sometimes I wonder what is going wrong Where my next heartache is coming from I hear the thunder I know it wont be long Before I see the night take down the sun You've got to throw away those sympathy feelings Stick to your guns and make a stand You've got to throw away those cards that they are dealing

Angel
"Angel" Empty arms torn apart Angel walked out and left me with a broken heart Everyday I take the blame I let my whole world slip away I had an angel That time was everything to me In the beginning we were, we were forever Clouds in my future Now all alone I'm in the rain The pain, it whispers my name Empty arms torn apart Angel walked out and left me with a broken heart Everyday I take the blame I let my whole world slip away Never so lonely, alone I'm locked down In this cage the key She took it away from me Someone release me I've done my time now set me free I need someone to help me Empty arms torn apart Angel walked out and left me with a broken heart Everyday I take the blame I let my whole world slip away I remember when We were lost back then Lost in time on our own I'll see your face forever Your eyes, Your touch I'll never I'll Never feel again Empty arms torn apart Angel walked out and left me with a broken heart Everyday I ta

Candy
I'm gonna tell you about Candy Maybe you already know Found her at a backyard party So I took her home She never gave me no feedback So how was I to know that when it comes To her cocaine, Candy don't know Candy ran me out of my money Candy ran me out of my soul I didn't think it was funny Too bad she never gonna make it She never gonna make it all the way home I packed my bags for New York City I heard she had some friends Found her at some big time party And it never ends She told me some lie about her money I knew my soul was on ice She had me playin' her game And I paid the price I ran out of my money I ran out of my soul I didn't think it was funny Too bad she never gonna make it She never gonna make it all the way home I found myself this roadside cafe Thought maybe I'd get some rest Candy walks in the front door Goddamn, she's lookin' her best I knew that this was gonna be the last time I'd get safe to speak my mind I told her where she cou

What I Want To Show You
You went away Never to return again I wish you could stay And take away my pain. You don’t know How my heart beats true I wish I could show How my heart beats for you. How I wish I knew Just how to tell How I feel for you But I always fail.

One Shot Away
When I was young somebody once told me You don't get what you want, you get what you need All I needed was fortune, fame and glory When I got it, it wasn't what it seemed I woke up in a room that had no window Sick as a dog no home and in the rain Look at the fool too cool to stop and listen He'd rather try to deal with his own pain One shot away to meet your maker One shot away no easy way out One shot away and you'll leave everyone behind One shot away no easy way out Strungout No easy way out Lights out No easy way out It's not so easy to make it today I'm here to tell you tomorrow's too late One shot away to meet your maker One shot away no easy way out One shot away and you'll leave everyone behind One shot away no easy way out One shot away and you'll leave everyone behind One shot away the easy way out

Loved One's Who U Lose
Hi ev1...I am soooo sad today cus my Uncle passed away...My Dad passed on Thanksgiving day of 2004, but this was his little brother and he was my other Dad...I always thought I would have him(my Uncle) to turn to cus my Dad is gone, but I was totally wrong...Now I feel so alone and left in the dark...I am sorry for writing this, but I had to say something...Peace to all and God Bless You...

Let Me Go.
"Let Me Go" Hey mister police man Better make the call I think your bullet, I hit me Before it hit the wall Don't get me no doctor Just let me fall and fade away I close my eyes now and I see I'm not alone I hear the angels and they want me to come home He was the joker they'll be writing on my stone Just lay me down, just lay me down and let me go Just let me go I never wanted no trouble But it follows my name Just the way the cards fell At the end of the game Dont' call me no preacher Just let me fall and fade away Dont' call me no preacher Just let me fall and fade away I close my eyes now and I see I'm not alone I hear the angels and they want me to come home He was the joker they'll be writing on my stone Just lay me down, just lay me down and let me go Just let me go Hey mister poilce man I place no blame Fate has it's reason's I was in the way Don't call my sister Just tell them all, I went away Don't call my sister Just tell them al

The Worst "anal Sex Accident"
The worst "Anal Sex Accident" -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Date: 2004-12-09, 1:52PM EST Never have anal sex after a fish dinner. Most people contract some form of food poisoning at least once a year. Most of the time the symptoms are mild, and can even be mistaken for a 24 hour flu bug. Other times, the symptoms are similar to one having a very bad case of the flu, but rarely do people ever need to go to the hospital for food poisoning. Just by its nature, the probability of contracting food poisoning from fish is always higher than most other foods. This is why, based on personal experience, I recommend that no one ever engage in anal sex after your date ate a large fish dinner. We hadn’t been dating that long, only about a month. Even though we'd only been dating a short time, we were having sex since the second date, and it was the best, freakiest, porno-style sex of my life. Seriously, this was the kind of sex

Suicide Mind 1
HOW I FEEL Current mood: uncomfortable Category: WEAK IN SIDE :( Friends I AM SO ONE THAT HURTS SO BAD INSIDE ALL THE TIME, THE PAIN IS LIKE BEING IN A GAS CHAMBER AND TRYING TO BREATH IN BUT IT ONLY BURNS THE INSIDES. I MISS MY CHILDREN THEY ARE INSEPRATE FOSTER HOMES AT THE MOMENT, CAUSE THERE MOM SAMANTHA F-CKED UP ! AND LOST EM :( I MISS MY XWIFE CAROL MORE THAN ANY ONE I HAVE EVER BEN WITH THAT I COULDNT TAKE IT ANY MORE SO I TRYED TO KILL MY SELF ON THE 10TH OR SOMETHING I TOOK 30 SLEEPING PILLS I HURT WITH OUT MY LIFE LONG PARTNER ! ITS LIKE HAVEING A TWIN AND THE LOSEING IT LIKE SOME ONE IN MY FAMILY. (BILLY I HURT FOR YOU BROTHER) TIFFANY IS ALWAYS ON MY MIND ! THE PAIN HURTS EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT IT BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I KNOW I WOULD OF BEN GREETED BY HER IF I COULD OF JUST DIED :( I KNOW ITS NOT GOING TO BE THE LAST TIME I DONT WHY ? I THINKS THATS WHY I WENT TO HAWAII ! I HAD TO GO BEFOR IT WAS DONE "( MAYBE THIS IS HOW I DIE T

Suicide 2
WELL FUC- I DONT FEAL ANY BETTER THE THOUGHTS STILL MAKE MY HEART FEEL LIKE IM FALLING AND MY CHEST GROWS ICE COLD FEELING LIKE I COULD VOMITE ICE CUBES.WHATS WRONG WITH ME ? WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE MY SOUL IS LOST OR JUST DIEING INSIDE ROTTEN MAKEING ME FEEL LIKE IM ALONE LOST AND SAD. I NEED MY FRIEND CAROLS ADVICE BUT I KNOW I WILL NEVER GET THAT ! I SURE MISS IT MORE THAN ANYTHING I HAVE EVER MISSED ! I CAUGHT MY SELF TODAY LOOKING AT THINGS THINKING BAD THOUGHTS ABOUT SOMETHING I STOPPED REALY QUICK AS SOON AS I FELT IT MY BODY FELT THE WIERDEST IT HAS EVER FELT LIKE SOME ONE REALY GRABBED MY HEART AND YANKED IT OUT TOOK A BIG BITE OUT OF IT STILL HOOKED TO EVERY VEIN AND I COULD FEEL THE TEETH SINK IN AND RIP A PIECE OUT ! PHHH THAT WAS LONG BUT I NEED TO TYPE IT OUT SO I CAN GET IT OUT !!! WHY ME ? I NEVER WANTED TO DIE BUT IT FEELS LIKE DIFFERENT LATELY DEATH ? OR BE ALONE ? HOW MUCH CAN ONE TAKE WITH OUT JUST SAYING I QUIT ! I KNOW I CANT TAKE MUCH MUCH MORE OF ANYTHING ? I KNOW

Mumms
you know there is alot of people who post some stupid ass mumms and when someone post a serious situatoin and needs support from everone to know how to deal with it there mumm privledges r ripped from them this is sum dumb azz shit

Why Am I...?
You ask why I look at you that way, You ask why I talk to you like that, Why do I care so much? All you do is ask… Can you not see it in my eyes? Can you not hear it in my voice? Or feel it in my touch? You ask why I am so gentle, So caring, so kind, You ask why I offer all I have, When did it all start? Well, funny you should ask. Boy, you are my one true love And you stole my heart away The very first time you said those three words. You know them very well! At first I did not know, then I understood You felt for me, the way I feel for you! When you ask? I told you… After you said those three words: I Love You!

Mike Let The Cat Out Of The Bag Today.
If you haven't seen this post. Here it is. FUBAR will change the world! sometime next week i'm going to rename the site to fubar. you'll still be able to go to cherrytap.com, or fubar.com.. both will go to the same place and all the old cherrytap.com links will still work. you're probably asking yourself why is babyjesus such a psycho? well, if you've read my blogs you'll notice i've never been a super best friends fan of the name cherrytap...(anyone get that reference?) fubar is also much faster to type. besides, the name doesn't make the site... the people that use it do. before any rumors start: * no the site hasn't been sold to anyone, it's still the same crazy folks running things. * no we're not planning to do anything different on the site after the name change. * we're not resetting accounts or anything. * old salutes with cherrytap.com in them are still valid, but after the name change you'll have to specify fubar in all new salutes. * once we have fubar

The Blank Page
With a pen and paper in front of me I couldn’t believe my eyes No words would come to me And I didn’t know why. No ideas in my head Cats, dogs, music People said But then I realized I just couldn’t do it. A blank page is all I had Why are there no words? Now I am very sad With nothing to insert. Since I have nothing to say And my pen has not moved I guess I will be on my way To help some friends be soothed.

The Cat Is Out Of The Bag
Mike let the cat out of the bag today. If you haven't seen this post. Here it is. FUBAR will change the world! sometime next week i'm going to rename the site to fubar. you'll still be able to go to cherrytap.com, or fubar.com.. both will go to the same place and all the old cherrytap.com links will still work. you're probably asking yourself why is babyjesus such a psycho? well, if you've read my blogs you'll notice i've never been a super best friends fan of the name cherrytap...(anyone get that reference?) fubar is also much faster to type. besides, the name doesn't make the site... the people that use it do. before any rumors start: * no the site hasn't been sold to anyone, it's still the same crazy folks running things. * no we're not planning to do anything different on the site after the name change. * we're not resetting accounts or anything. * old salutes with cherrytap.com in them are still valid, but after the name change you'll have to specify fuba

Funny Quotes & Sayings
Good afternoon cyberspace! Just a collection of amusing quotes and sayings I've come across while surfing the web...hope you enjoy them! You know that look women get when they want sex? Me neither! -- Drew Carey I think I mentioned to Bob [Geldof] I could make love for eight hours. What I didn't say was that this included four hours of begging and then dinner and a movie. -- Sting A woman's mind is cleaner than a man's. She changes it more often. -- Oliver Herford I think men who have a pierced ear are better prepared for marriage. They've experienced pain and bought jewelry. -- Rita Rudner The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese. Constipated People Don't Give A crap. Some people drink from the fountain of knowledge, others just gurgle. It takes 42 muscels to smile, so instead pick up your middle finger and say bite me in a bitchy tone! Do stairs go up or down? If Hooters were to become a door-to-door serv

Mumms
Now I'm confused about something. Earlier today I had a mumm removed because I didn't think it would be marked as nsfw. My crime was using the word "horny" and getting over 260 views in 10 minutes. Like everyone else I'm sure we have seen far worse mumms on here. There are probably some on there now as we speak. I hope that I can post another mumm sometime soon. Oh and I will have to mark this blog nsfw so that I will not offend anyone.

Well Feeling Somewhat Better
well im glad to see that some people cared enuff to view my blog and leave a comment or send me a card. yay i feel a little loved. so im feeling a little better right now but then again ive had a 6 pack of smirnoff and 2 valume, so im not quite all here but hey at least im not hurting right now. thanks to all who viewed my blog or bulletin and to the few who tried to talk to me. again like i said i knew some of u wouldnt listen, and i thank you for not listening. well hopefully i'll talk to the guy that put me in this state soon so i can reassure him im okay with his choice and i'll be his friend. though he didnt view my blog i think he saw my stat msg on yahoo. he didnt try and talk to me but then again he's good at listening when im pissed or really hurt. im glad some ppl dont though bc it helped me feel a little better too bc it showed someone cares. thanks a lot to Marine52 and Bitch Bow Down its a big girls world for the cards. and also thanks to all who left me a comment expressi

Sheilded Rainbow
I used to see in black and white Never anything in between Waitin’ on the love of my life To come into my dreams Everything in shades of gray Never any blues or greens I needed someone else to turn to Someone who could help me learn to see All the beauty that was waiting for me My life was so predictable Never any mystery But ever since you shined the light All that is history Now I have a hand to hold And a reason to believe There’s someone in my life worth living for I was hanging ‘round just wishin’ on a star To put the happiness back into my heart I left those hazy days behind me Never to return again Now they’re just a faded memory “Cause baby it’s all so clear to see The beauty that was waiting for me You put the blue back in the sky You put the rainbow in my eyes The silver lining in my prayers And now there is color everywhere You put the red back in the rose Just when I needed it most You came along to show you care And now there’s color eve

Why...
Why do you look at me like that, As if I’m not good enough for you? Why do you care what people think If you truly love me? Why do you turn and walk away Instead of trying to explain? Why do you hurt me so bad? Why can’t you just be a man?

He Became My Love
I know alot of you don't know me but i just want to share something with you. Alot of times you may not know who is going threw the same things as you. Well I never really was the one to party until I met these 2 girls from college they said you know you never party so why don't you go out with us I said ok. Well I was very scared and didn't know anything about clubs or going out because my mom and dad was very strict well I drunk a couple of shots (as you can tell by me drinking I was 21) the liquor burn my chest so bad I need ice water to cool it off lol. Well I was dancing to "back that thang up" well I was backing it up. This guy started dancing with me I was just amazed and so excited because up until then I have never did any thing like that I never went to my prom never did anything "high schoolish" well he made me laugh so much I said you know what I love you! He was like what I said I didn't say anything he said yes you did you said you love me I said yes I did I said I love y

Y'all Are Gonna Hate Me...
ZZYZX RD LYRICS- Stone Sour I don't know how else to put this. It's taken me so long to do this. I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight. My muscles feel like a melee, My body's curled in a U-shape. I put on my best, but I'm still afraid. Propped up by lies and promises. Saving my place as life forgets. Maybe it's time I saw the world. I'm only here for a while. Patience is not my style, And I'm so tired that I got to go. Where am I supposed to hide now? What am I supposed to do? Did you really think I wouldn't see this through? Tell me I should stick around for you. Tell me I can have it all. I'm still too tired to care and I got to go. I get to go home in one week. But I'm leaving home in three weeks. They throw me a bone just to pick me dry. I'm following suit and directions. I crawl up inside for protection. I'm told what to do and I dont know why. I'm over existing in limbo I'm over the myths and placebos I do

Big Girl (you Are Beautiful)
Big Girl (You Are Beautiful) lyrics Big girl you are beautiful Walks in to the room Feels like a big balloon I said, 'Hey girls you are beautiful' Diet coke and a pizza please Diet coke I'm on my knees Screaming 'Big girl you are beautiful' You take your skinny girls Feel like I'm gonna die Cos a real woman Needs a real man is why You take your girl And multiply her by four Now a whole lotta woman Needs a whole lot more Get yourself to the Butterfly Lounge Find yourself a big lady Big boy come on around And they'll be calling you baby No need to fantasise Since I was in my braces A watering hole With the girls around And curves in all the right places Big girls you are beautiful Big girls you are beautiful Big girls you are beautiful Big girls you are beautiful Walks in to the room Feels like a big balloon I said, 'Hey girls you are beautiful' Diet coke and a pizza please Diet coke I'm on my knees Screaming 'Big girl you are beautiful'

My Friends Band
I went to see my friends band tonight and they were doing ok. There was alot of girls hanging all over my friend and his wife was getting a little pissed so i had to leave kinda early.They did ok tonight but could of been a bit louder. I hate pa systems sometimes.

Changing The Name From Cherry Tap To Fubar
Instead of changing the name lets change the cherry tap crew they love to fuck shit up the old sane is it's not broke don't fix it thats why this site is so slow the dumb ass don't know what they are doing then panhandling votes for there good deeds fuck that shit get a new crew

Fall Apart (poetry)
for so long now, i have been away. away from it all. all the hurt all the pain it comes and it goes yet remains the same. i find that one thing to keep me sane yet everything else just fades away. what can make this better this hurt deep within its a direct reflection of my own sin longing to be loved for such a long time but never a soul, that i could call mine. everyone has walked away he is the only one that has ever stayed. he's right by my side he always knows how to make me smile or when to leave me alone. i give thanks for my soul mate each day because as long as we're together i can't fall apart.

Cherry Bomb Me!!!
Cherry Bomb me at the address below so i can win a 3 month VIC!!! Plz help me... Ill do something in return somehow, I'll bye a gift for every1 that does 100 comments! http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=831990&albumid=452353&i=1432719953#

Fallen
Go to sleep and close your eyes, And dream of broken butterflies, that tore their wings against a thorn that hold no hope against their scorn. Envy those that are still able to fly. Starring up to the majestic blues skies, as the body of the once beautiful falls to the earth. Shutters the wings trying to catch the air, falling silent with despair. With hopes all lost and promises crossed, the butterfly lies still and awaits faith. Darkness comes shallow the breath take, torn wings will not mend . One by one they all begin to fall, the wings of the hopeful are now the wings of the fallen. What was once the light of the beautiful is now the black marks of the fallen, with the end so near death is all but calling…

Get Me To The Airport...
I tell the driver to hurry as I slide into the deep leather seat of the limo. Feeling self conscious of the glancing eyes from the rear view mirror. I’m being silly I tell myself, chauffeurs see these things all the time I’m sure, it is LA for god’s sake. Half naked women dressed in ankle length fur coats, racing to the airport. Well, maybe so, but this is new to me. The anticipation of meeting you, no surprising you, on your arrival, months of planning what to wear or not to wear has me in a near state of panic. I finally decided on the black lace bustier with the red ribbons laced up the back, matching satin garters and sheer, thigh high silk stockings, and fabulous black stilettos. The naughtiness hiding under the satin lined mink is almost more than I can bear. I love how it feels sensuously sliding across my barely contained breasts and bare bottom. I may have to have a quickie myself before I get to the airport… I laugh just thinking about the look of surprise on your face when

Pointless....
The pointless obsessions are calling out my fears. Facing myself just as I appear. Decisions undecided and thought interrupted. The corrupt minds of those wandering alone. Those stumbling in that darkness trying to find the path to a place called home. Losing control of the elapsing time, for getting the facts of our never ending mistakes. Pointing out the misfits of the world, the undesirable un-norms. The meek light from those who attempt to shine, wings ripped from angels and placed in the devils hand. When lies conquers all and honesty with no stand. The breath of the past wanders through the minds but takes no future place in our ever changing times. The past is the past and the future the future, trying to unit them with only cause failure. Life giving you a false statement at birth, when all this world has to offer is numb tears, and ever changing fears. In the endless possibility's of our pointless lives, why is it that life only starts when death shows its eyes...

Gosh This Sucks
Man, this sucks big time. It is a Friday night and my big ass is sitting home bored as hell. Plus it is only 10:00. Since I am so bored I will probably be going to bed early if I don't find anything to do. I think it will do me some good just sitting home tonight and relaxing anyway. I wish I would get rid of this dang cold that I have. I had enough Jager for a week anyway. I think after Monday I refuse to have any Jager. Whew the next day I was miserable! But I guess Ill sit on the Internet until I get tired and play on Mojo, MySpace, and CT. Atleast the house is pretty quiet though. Father and his girlfriend went to bed as soon as we got home from Texas Roadhouse tonight. I was going to lay down but decided not to. I knew if I did I might have slept the whole night. I really don't want to do that. Then Ill be up all early tomorrow and I don't want to get up around 7 am. I don't have no clue on what to write so I guess I will write more tomorrow.

Huh ??????????/
I GOT THIS IN THE MAIL TODAY....DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MAN....OMG !!!!!!!!! Hey, How are you doing?Impressing is what i describe your captivating profile as a near perfect description of what i desire in a man ,even your profile goes a long way in describing the quintisential underlying Handsome any woman would seek for in a man ...i think i like you..now..i know i like you but all that don't matter as all real love relationships begin on a basic foundation of friendship..i would like to know u better and be good friends with u and am sure something deeper will spring from there...my name..Terry..and i am just as simple as u want...i would like you to write to me and tell me all about urself as i would do too if u so wish..well i am a mixed, african and mexican born in Texas but raised in the states...i lost my dad when i was 10 years old.My Mom later moved back to West Africa Nigeria where she is rigth now........i stay in Beaumont Texas (terry_duff202@yahoo.com) email address y

Poem: High In The Sky
Those precious thigh's, its the inner sides, that I loved to kiss as you, spread your wings to fly.. I would love to be the bird, that gets trapped between, your beautiful legs, and does make you sore, high in the sky. Sign:Raymond Starns Dated:7/13/07

Leaving
I MAYBE LEAVING CHERRY TAP. SORRY BUT IT SEEMS THAT ALOT OF PEOPLE WANT ME TO . DON'T KNOW WHY ...BUT IF YA WANT ME TO STAY LET ME KNOW ..DON'T WANT TO BE WHERE I AM NOT WANTED:) I LOVE YALL AND HAVE MADE SOME AWESOME FRIENDS HERE ONE'S I SHALL NEVER FORGET:) XOXOXOX TO YOU ALLL:)

My Contest
Well, guess I'll just try and reach everyone this way. Some of you may have noticed, if you tried to go in and leave comments for me, in the contest, that you could not get to the picture. Apparently, from what I've been told by the person holding the contest, that due to some "drama"...between some contestants, she was forced to close the contest early. It was not due to be over till the 19th. I wanted to take the time to thank everyone who stuck beside me through this. We really did kick some hiney, in posting conments. When I left for work this morning, I was just a little over 200 comments away, 257 to be exact, from taking over the 5th place. I guess I'll just use some wishful thinking, and just assume that I had made it there, before the contest was closed. I would like to think that those few comments that I needed, came in, in time to count. Thank you all again so much for helping. It is a shame that the actions of a few, spoiled all the fun for the rest of us t

So This Is My Friday The 13th!
so today i got stuck in the elevator at work. its a big elevator tho, so it wasnt that bad. i put my cargo in it and pushed the button to go down to floor 1. once it stopped it made a noise and the doors wouldnt open. i thought it was just a delay, but no. the door was stuck shut. i was pounding on the door for 10 minutes waiting for someone to help me. no answer. i stood there waiting to see if someone was going to notice that the door hadnt opened. nope. finally i decided to call my boss's office to get him to help. no answer. so i called the main desk and asked the woman to get me some help, and she thought i was joking! finally i convinced her that i was serious and she got me help. i heard switched being flipped and i heard machines turning off and on. thats when i got a little scared. if the machine is broken, maybe when they turn it on it will shoot me up to the second floor and then come falling back down to my death! luckily not. it went back up slowly, but the door still didn

Stir Crazy
I so cannot wait for Mercury to get a move on. I am so restless. I can't find one spot to find more than a couple of friends, let alone friends that aren't busy. Ghosts that I am not ready to face yet are haunting as well. ugh, maybe a few days of EQ will help

The Girl I Fell In Love With
has a boyfriend a husband or both likes the things that i wrote and quotes them to me as she's soothing her new man's thighs never loved me that's what she told me she was confused i was her refuge from abuse or at the time she was too loose with her lips loved me before now unsure if i wait she can offer me more but i shouldnt wait because she might change her mind over time she said thinks she wasted x amount of years after she tasted the club and was touched the right way by a guy with sandals doesnt think it will work and though it hurts she has to move on after i changed to the way she wanted me to be now she's gone 2 do it 2 some1 else wants 2 b friends but doesnt think i should see any1 because i have issues after a date w/ her new man text message-- i miss u is happy wants 2 know who i'm sleeping with 'what's HIS name first?' to be honest 'bard it's none of your business.

Bambi Visits The Horses
Bambi paid the Horses a visit one day while Momma Deer watched. The horses didnt pay Bambi any mind at all and eventually walked off. After they left, Bambi and Momma Deer went on their way........was a pretty cool sight to see :D

Fun With Pizza Hut
I just tried the online ordering at Pizza Hut. Everything went well, created my online account, found a coupon and placed my order. That was easy, but what I didn't know was that the store would call me to confirm my order. When I got the call I knew who it was because I have the # programmed into my cell phone and it came up on caller ID. I answered the phone "West Salem Pizza Hut, how may I help you?". Dead silence for about 5 seconds then the girl says "Sorry wrong number" and hangs up. Wanting my pizza I called Pizza Hut back. The guy that answered was laughing so hard I could hardly understand him. I told him who I was and confessed to my little prank. When my order got here the delivery guy smiles at me, says "That was a good one" and hands me my pizza with a free order of bread sticks, compliments of the Manager. LOL

Another Poem
i'm afraid i'm in love with her deep down in my soul it's beyond comprehension beyond self-control the way i feel about her can never be changed she causes my heart to be enflamed when she's around my heat accelerates my hands begin to shake a smile covers my face then when i see her husband it all disappears everything is ruined it trails down in tears i love her with all my heart but she can't see i try to impart but its not that easy she chooses not to listen to protect her husband i guess it's imppossible to be a part of her world in this position i'm in i feel very touched some people would never love someone this much knowing she loves someone else makes me grow colder i feel like i can't breathe like i've been run over it's very hard to deal with but i know that in the end she'll be the one that's sorry her love for him will descend

Salvation Lies Within...
Watching The Shawshank Redemption. Good movie. Go watch it. I'm bored so I'm writing. Don't have much of anything new to write. Oh well I'll just ramble on and you guys will keep reading on. I'm just that damn good ain't I? Ha. what a load of shit right? False confidence. I've got tons of it... or so I like to think. Put on a good show for all the good people. When truly, anyone with half a brain and some common sense will be able to see otherwise. I wish life was more black and white. I have a hard time thinking in terms of a halfway point. At least in regards with everyone else. I straddle the fence on a lot of feelings and such. But no one else is like that. No one could be as complicated as I am! (/end sarcasm.) So as a result I tend to over analyze and nitpick and drive myself crazy. That is, until I slap myself. So yes, I am probably crazy. It's self imposed though. As result I get to pay some women to listen to me and tell me what? I don't know. I take a pill every m

Keep Your Keys.............
Put your car keys beside your bed at night. If you hear a noise outside your home or someone trying to get in your house, just press the panic button for your car. The alarm will be set off, and the horn will continue to sound until either you turn it off or the car battery dies. This tip came from a neighborhood watch coordinator. Next time you come home for the night and you start to put your keys away, think of this: It's a security alarm system that you probably already have and requires no installation. Test it. It will go off from most everywhere inside your house and will keep honking until your battery runs down or until you reset it with the button on the key chain. It works if you park in your driveway or garage. If your car alarm goes off when someone is trying to break in your house, odds are the burglar or rapist won't stick around... after a few seconds all the neighbors will be looking out their windows to see who is out there and sure enough the criminal won't want that

The Difference Between Men And Women. Lol
It's not difficult to Make a woman happy. A man only needs to be: 1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist 19. a healer 20. a good listener 21. an organizer 22. a good father 23. very clean 24. sympathetic 25. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable 43. passionate 44. compassionate WITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 45. give her compliments regularly 46. love shopping 47. be honest 4

Men
Why can't men just be up front and say they are not interested? Why be such cowards? Is there something that women do, that I don't know about, that men are afraid of? Wouldn't it waste less time being up front and getting it over with, then leaving a girl wondering? I mean if you are not interested, then any further e-mails or phone calls or texts, just seems like a huge waste of time to me! Let's face it boys...........girls don't take HINTS any better then you do!! P.S. This goes for "just friends" too!

Warrior Queen Boudica On The History Channel...
I've seen many previews for this show, and am intimately intrigued, as I, myself, am of Celtic heritage, and quite familiar with Boudica. What really strikes me about this show is that the actress portraying Boudica looks amazingly like my ex-girlfriend Monika (who is dead now, due to overdose - knowing her, I think the medical examiner's diagnosis is wrong, but that's not what I'm debating here). I just keep seeing these previews on all of the Discovery networks, and every time I see it, I can't help but think the actress playing Boudica looks amazingly like my ex-girlfriend (and close friend) Monika. Just a thought... I needed to get it out somewhere.

Everyday Angel
Ive been searching around for that special lover man i need some one i can call my life time partner feels like for ever when im searching around the world im tired just waiting for that special girl i know one day that she will come my way but shes got to have a heart and a personality but i see all these girls who just dont understand i just want a girl to love me for me and not to what i have so now all i can do is wait but untill then this is what i need i need a girl who will love me for me a girl wit a personality i need a girl who will love me so so basicly is wat i need is my every day angel shes gotta be beautiful my every day angel ive got to find the girl who doesnt play the game i got to find the girl will be wit me every day grate ful and trustworthy shes gotta have that love and respect dont forget the loyalty i hope this isnt much to ask i just want a love that will last so i want every one to see that this is wat i need i need a girl who will love me

Daddy' Day
"MY DADDY couldn't be here, becuz he live's so far away. but i know he wishes he could be with me on this day and though you cannot meet him, i wanted you to know all about MY DADDY and how he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories, he taught me to ride my bike. he surprised me with pink rose's, and taught me how to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes and ice cream in a cone, and though you cannot see him, i'm not standing here alone 'cause MY DADDY'S always with me, even though we are apart i know becuz he told me, he'll forever be here in my heart." "I love MY DADDY very much, he's my shining star and if he could he'd be here. but heavens just to far but sometimes when i close my eye's, its like he never went away." "I know you're with me DADDY," to the silence she called out. but there placed on her desktop, was a beautiful fragrant pink rose and a child was blessed, if only a moment, by the love of a child was shining bright star, and given the gift og believ

Omgosh
I DONT THINK I'VE EVER HAD THIS BEFORE...I SHOULD HAVE SCREEN SHOT IT! "You’ve successfully completed the study. We have logged your responses and you now qualify for our $50,000 sweepstakes & 10,000 Cherry Bucks. Thank you for taking time out of your day to share your thoughts! We strive to make sure that you have the best possible survey taking experience. After all, your opinion always counts! Click here to go back to CherryTap"

Motto For 2007
These are very good words to live by… I love this…. A POEM ABOUT OUR GIRLFRIENDS Someone will always be prettier. Some will always be smarter. Some of their houses will be bigger. Some will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go, and love you and your circumstances. Think about it! The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. And the most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. And the richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes~~~~might be lonely. And the word says, "If I have not Love, I am nothing." So, again, love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say, "I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed, to be disappointed!" "Winners make things happen~~ Losers let things happen." Be "blessed" ladies~~~~~ and pass this on to encourage anothe

9-9
so crazy to day i had to work form 9-6pm but then the other girl that was supose to cover for me got sick so then i had to work form 9am - 9 pm lol .. i had alaugh though i got to work with this new guy he was really funny and laughing all night mad the time go so much faster and know thanx to those extra hours i get off earler on sat ... can wait big party tomorrow night!!!!!!

Best Ink Contest
Best Ink Contest The Best Ink Contest will start when i have at least 10 entries.Contest will last for one week.Please submit all entries to me by private message with the pic u would like to use. This is a comment bombing contest self bombing is allowed.The pic with most comments at end of week will be winner. 1st place prize will be silver motorcycle and 7 day blast.No drama allowed or entry will be removed. Thank you !!!!! ~~Doing88™©~~My heart ♥ for my angel !!She is my everything !!!!@ CherryTAP

The Devils Bottle
THE DEVILS BOTTLE In your hand you pick up the bottle You feel the smooth Yet soft cool texture as you lure it closer Closer it speaks Almost as if its calling your name Just one drop wont hurt As your conscience testifies against it You know it speaks for you And your body cant cope Yet you take a swig of the Sedative to your soul convincing the bottle into taking over Like a demon it worms you And your body cries out For the fire of hell to stop Yet you cant hear it You cant hear anything You lean back in your chair drinking another couple swigs as your taste buds crave it more Crave the very taste of the devil itself Your body wants to stop but your heart is aching Aching for a sedative to the pain of a broken heart Your vision of the world becomes blurred the room starts spinning like a ballroom dance Yet your thoughts keep aching so you drink even more You grab a friend next to you visiting confessing how beautiful she is ,

I Need Some Help Here !!!!
I need some Love here. I need alot of points to get to the next level , will anyone help me out ? I would show you the love you show me and More, I Love ALL you Guys ( and Girls ).... Big wet kisses and Hugs.. Bambi Ps... Licks to all of you!!!!

Sexy Lips Contest!
HEY EVERYONE I HAVE ENTERED A SEXY LIPS CONTEST.. I WOULD BE GREATFUL TO ANYONE WHO WILL HELP ME WIN THIS. IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO FOR YOU JUST LET ME KNOW. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS RATE AND COMMENT BOMB MY PICTURE!!! THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HELPS ME OUT! MUCH LOVE TO EVERYONE MANDA

The One Of A Kind Friday The 13th Quote Of The Day Post
I busted a mirror and got seven years bad luck, but my lawyer thinks he can get me five. -- Stephen Wright Superstition brings bad luck -- Paul Carvel I think we consider too much the good luck of the early bird and not enough the bad luck of the early worm. -- Franklin D. Roosevelt Some people are so fond of bad luck they run half way to meet it. -- Douglas William Jerrold The only sure thing about luck is that it will change. -- Wilson Mizner I believe in luck: how else can you explain the success of those you dislike? -- Jean Cocteau This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Hope U Under Stand Ladys
sooooo ladys just wanted to say that im new and wanted to see if u wanted to be freinds but if not it all good cuz i have a heart made from concret but i still luve u lady weather u like me or not welllll if people fuck with me u will hate me in the end promise remember that im just a teddy lookin for some luv from some of u ladys so plz comment on this and tell me what u think so peace from ru one and only dragonbuster45

Pics!
Put a couple of new pics up today! Also been rating to my max daily! Let's get some pics rated and commented on folks! I just leveled up and discovered I need over 300,000 points to get to the next level! Argh! Also, thank you thank you and thank you for all you people out there who put nice comments and rated our personal pics! Makes us feel good and definitely improves my wife's self esteem! Everyone has been great! For those who already know, my wife had her surgery last week. It went great, she's up walking and feeling great and ready to make some new photo series, so here's your chance at some requests too! Have a great weekend! Mark and Lina

Avoid This Werdo At All Cost
Beware of this sicko, he just now out of the blue asked my RL GF, CT Wife and the love of my life tha following in her CT Mail: ------>was kinda wondering......have you ever done freaky things with the horse?.......just between me and you.....i really think that is very hot and a turn on if you have.........and if you have can i have details of what all happen and what you did.....and how it felt. His SN addy link is http://www.cherrytap.com/user/46592 just cut/paste that to your search or addy bar and give this sick bastard some hell, I felt this was very insultive. I'm going there now to give him hell.

Oral Dictation
I had been chillin wit a friend all day and recieved a call from a young lady i hadn't seen in bout a month. Her convo started off regular and finally she got to the point of her call. She wanted me to get a room cuase she had a surprise for me. I was a lil skeptical cause of the terms in which i had decided to leave her crazy ass alone in the 1st place, but that's another story. What i did remember of our sexual escapades was that i ended up very satisfied at the end. I agreed. I got a small room and told her the room number. I rolled 1 since i figured she would be awhile but b4 i could put fire to it good there was a knock at the door. I opened and there she stood with 2 overnight sized bags. I smiled fired it up and stepped to the side. "You and that mess" she giggled as she walked in. She stood at 5' 6" 150lbs and boy was it distributed so lovely. This down south thickness got a brotha hurtin i'm tellin ya the truth. And this chick here was built Ford tough almost to Hummer level.

2 For 1
It was a lovely day outside and the plan was to have a romantic time at the park. Well shit don't always go as planned. WE woke at bout 11 and was in the process of plannin our day. I went to the living room to light a Newport and when i came back to the bedroom she was laid across the bed with just a nightshirt on. That azz was lookin so good. I smacked it hard. "Nate must you be so rough" Yes i replied then bit her ass cheek. "MMMMmmm" was her response so i took that as a sign to do what i want.I spread her cheeks wide and ran my tongue from the tip of the ass crack all the way to her clit where i stopped and sucked on it. She exploded with a loud cry. I loved how her body jerked about as i sucked harder and put my thumb in her azz. "OOOOOhhhhh sssshhhhiiiitt Nate". I got to talkin big shit then and stood. "Bak ya ass up to the edge of this bed" She complied and assumed the position. I smacked both cheecks at the same time hard as hell. She looked back and smiled. I opened her again

Who Said 3's A Crowd
"How the hell you get in those shorts?" I had to ask. She had a ass shaped like an onion and the shorts looked like they were straining every fiber to hold it in. I knew i was wrong but hell i wanted to know. She looked at me with a look of disgust and replied "The same way you put them pants on. 1 leg at a time." I chuckled to myself and i guess she got offended. "What the hell you laughing at ?" I smiled. "My ass ain't that round sweets" She cracked a smile and turned to walk off. I took a chance and and smacked it softly and watched it jiggle. She turned to slap me, but i caught her hand, and then kissed it. "Had to see sweets" I walked off and headed to the check out counter to purcase my gas, munchies, and blunts. I was already late for a date i had so i figured i better get the hell outta there b4 trouble started. The line was bout 5 people long so i knew she was gonna be behind me soon. As I'm standin there i felt someone grip my ass and just hold on. I turned to find Ms. On

My Weight
I have been struggling with my weight for about 16 years.. I have tried everything under tha sun.. I have tried pills after pills and I was walking everyday.. I try to do cardio but I have to stop after a few minutes because my back starts to shoot sharp pains thru my spine.. I cant afford to get a personal trainer or pay for a gym membership.. I get really depressed because i cant seem to get rid of my pouch.. its around my lower ab.. if i have those lol.. But I cant get it right... It depresses me so much i just want to stay in tha house.. i dont like to go out much because i am constantly worrying if ppl are looking at me and making fun of me.. I feel like everyone that looks at me is just lookin at my fat butt and judging me.. Im afraid my husband will leave if a better female came along.. also i guess my biggest thing is that Diabetes runs in my family and i want to be healthy for my kids.. I get so depressed sometimes that i dont want to be here anymore.. I dont know why it is su

Today's Horoscope
Someone is turning you upside down and into knots. You've got it bad, but sometimes it feels so good. Go with it. The secret to life is learning to be comfortable with all your feelings, especially the weird ones. Note: not sure what that is all about.

Why I Want To Marry Tigger
The only way i know how to start is blog is with the some of the words that really say how i feel about Tigger! I met him in the lounge late one night He really got me working up an appetite He had me laughing all night There's nothing more dangerous than a boy with charm He's a one stop jive, makes my panties drop He's a swinging rockin sugar coated candy man He's a one stop, gotcha hot, makin all the panties drop I had only been in the lounges a couple of times when I heard this voice come over the radio. I knew right there i was hooked. I had to know more. The personality that Tigger has is something that is so damn sexy. I love his laugh and his outspoken nature. He is not only hot but he is smart as well. His knowledge of music and how quick he is to find what people are looking for is amazing. And I would be a the perfect match for him, need you ask! but i will tell you anyways. I am outspoken, sweet and care about what is going on with my friends. I am proud of wh

Funny Animal Pictures
I was just browsing some Comment Graphic site and found some that sparked My naughty self.. LOL.. hope you like them as much as I did. They are kind of cute :) CBT (Cock Ball Torture) Myspace Quotes ANAL PLAY ANYONE?? Myspace Quotes ASS WORSHIPING Myspace Quotes SCAT FETISH?? Myspace Quotes PANTY SNIFFER Myspace Quotes SISSY MAID Myspace Quotes BESTIALITY Myspace Quotes

Xstacy 101
I was having a good month. My hustle was good. My game was tight. Thangs was lookin up for a brotha. I was tryin to graduate from the nigga stage move up to brotha. In other words i had been off the streets for a min and was workin a regular gig wit legal hustles on the side. I was feelin good bout myself, so when the phone rang and a lil hazel eyed chick i had been spittin at called me up to blaze one, i thought why not. I was on my way to my boys crib to help him do a lil yardwork around his crib and told her to meet me there. I pull up and roll 1 in the van while i waited on my boy and her to arrive. He showed up first talkin bout he was tired and really didn't feel like workin no more that day. cool was my response. I told him bout the chic swingin thru and he shrugged it off like whatever and hit the shower. I heard a horn outside and went to greet her. We sat out side chit chattin and chiefin when he said he had a flick he wanted me to see. I invted her in and he pushed play on t

If Your Bored In Wal-mart Do These.
1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they aren't looking. 2. Set all the alarm clocks in House wares to go off at 5-minute intervals. 3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms. 4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone, " 'Code 3' in house wares".... and see what happens. 5. Go the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on lay away. 6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area. 7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers you'll invite them in if they'll bring pillows from the bedding department. 8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask, "Why can't you people just leave me alone?" 9. Look right into the security camera; & use it as a mirror, and pick your nose. 10. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti - depressants are. 11. Dart around the store suspiciously loud

For Jake...
These poems are for Jake...This is my way of saying goodbye. You would think by now, I would know my way around, I shouldn't miss you so badly, I should be on familiar ground. How many more lonely years, must meander by, until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry. What manner of iron will, must some people possess, to be always looking forward, to never accept regress. Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand, they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land. Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine, I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time. But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside, and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide. So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past, it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last. No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you, for the part of me that'

$5 Store
A man went into a store and began looking around. He saw a washer and dryer, but there was no price listed on them. He asked the sales person "How much are the washer and dryer?" "Five dollars for both of them," the salesman said. "Yeah right, you've got to be kidding me!" the man replied sarcastically. "No, that's the price," the salesman said, "Do you want to buy them or not?" "Yeah, I'll take them!" the customer responded. He continued to look around and saw a car stereo system with a detachable face cassette player, a CD changer, amplifier, speakers, and sub woofers. "How much?" he asked. "Five dollars for the system," the salesman answered. "Is it stolen?" the guy asks. "No," said the salesman, "It's brand new, do you want it or not?" "Sure," the customer replied. He looked around some more. Next he found a top of the line computer with printer and monitor. "How much?" "Five dollars," was the familiar response. "I'll take that too!" the man said. As the salesperson is ringin

Pink
"Dear Mr. President" (feat. Indigo Girls) Dear Mr. President, Come take a walk with me. Let's pretend we're just two people and You're not better than me. I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly. What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street? Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep? What do you feel when you look in the mirror? Are you proud? How do you sleep while the rest of us cry? How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye? How do you walk with your head held high? Can you even look me in the eye And tell me why? Dear Mr. President, Were you a lonely boy? Are you a lonely boy? Are you a lonely boy? How can you say No child is left behind? We're not dumb and we're not blind. They're all sitting in your cells While you pave the road to hell. What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away? And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay? I can only im

Spit It Out
One day a teacher had a taste test with her students. She picked a little boy to do the first test. She blindfolded him, put a Hershey kiss in his mouth and asked, "Do you know what it is?" "No, I don't," said the little boy. "Okay, I'll give you a clue. It's the thing your daddy wants from your Mom before he goes to work." Suddenly, a little girl at the back of the room yelled, "Spit it out! It's a piece of Ass..."

Gap Creek Tea
Well Shannon has inspired me with all her drink mixes, so I thoughtI would share mine. Now I am just going to warn you that certain items required to make this are not available in all areas and may be illegal in some states. TN law states that it is legal to own 2 quarts of moonshine in a year...just a little f.y.i. I make this in a wash tub or a large cooler. This is not a glass by glass mix but 1 large mix...great for parties but get the keys because it is stealthy. Also, if you have some left over the next day----it works really well for killing poison ivy. Gap Creek Tea 1 fifth of peach schnapps 1 fifth of amaretto 1 quart of charred moonshine 1-2 gallons of hawiian punch 1 extra stomach lining (just kidding) Mix well and if so desired you can add fruit. Serve over ice and may God have mercy on your soul!

A Few Reflections
Its not until you lose everything that you are free to do anything Tyler Durdan in Fight Club I have come to reflect on how much my life has changed in the last year. I used to be a miserable person; hostile, in pain, burned out insomniac would have been a kind description. There has been a lot happen in the past year and looking back on it I realized where it changed... I was working in Erwin for an EMS service that treats their medics like shit, paying little and working lots. M called and told me that he had someone he wanted me to meet, this was odd since he had been with the last woman that I met almost a year before I met her and this was their first date. I was thrown for a loop but curious. They pulled up and this beautiful redhead got out and I liked her right off the bat. I thought "Red hair and big boobs...much better than the last one...mental note need to find that psycho and snap her neck." M introduced us and after about 5 min I knew that if he screwed this one

My Anger Management
I have a bad temper and normally I can keep it in check but there are times where there are 2 avenues that release enough anger to where I can control it again. I can either smoke a cigarette, yes I know its bad for me but it is so rare that I get to this point that it is not that big of a deal, or I can punch a wall. I know that neither of these are good ideas but sometimes I can't channel the anger and have to do something.When working I used to throw the clipboard ....unlessmy partner recognized the warning signs and took the clipboard from me. Punching the automatic door was a normal thing for me as I walked out the door but now I have ceiling that is pitched to within arms reach and has more than one fist print. I try not to smoke since I smoked a pack of Camels and a pack of cloves a day when I was in college, but sometimes it is one of the few things that can calm me. I quit cold turkey but can do the occasional smoke just fine without craving the constant taste of a smoke

Heeeeelp
This is for the guys too. I need some advice and every little bit helps. If you have read some of the other blogs then you know pretty much what my situation is with the new relationship and moving in together and stuff. Well he is sacrificing all of these things to make sure that I have what I want that it is starting to make me feel really bad. He is not buying the truck that he wanted because he is going to use the money for the pool that I want and he is selling his favorite lil muscle car to make sure that we have enough money for the new furniture that I wanted and to get a new tv. What should I do I really don't want him to sacrifice anything else when we can do all of this slowly and buy it little by little. I have never been spoiled and he is trying so hard to do it and I don't think I like it.

The Hangover Monster And His Trusty Sidekick
Greetings once again from the land of confusion! I have a question for you all and wondering if I am the only person that had this happen or if the hangover monster decided to visit everyone New Year's morning.... This year for New Year's I was the anti-social asshole and stayed home. I did this for several reasons ranging from not wanting to be humped on the dance floor by Elmer Ho-Handle and his brother Daryl and his other brother Daryl to having to hold the hair of a friend while they vomited from all the alcohol that they drank. Last time I went out on New Years, I came REALLY close to going to jail for especially aggrivated assault (also known as assault with intent to kill) because 2 jackasses trapped me in a corner and attempted to drug me and do things to me that they wanted and I told them would happen about the same time that the tempin hell reached the same as liquid nitrogen. Is it a useless statement to to say that I might have ruined their New Years? Luck was with me a

Frin13th Fluffy Hospital
If you see me answer my phone and look really sad in the next few days, here is why: My Aunt Fluffy (the one in the nursing home) went to the hospital tonight. Her blood sugar was really low and she wasn't responding properly. Her temp was 101. They gave her Tylenol, and it went to 103. So they called the ambulance. Regular Lehigh Valley Hospital ER was full (happy Fri the 13th), so they diverted her to the Lehigh Valley Hospital in town. This is all the info there is at present time. I will be at the Harry Potter movie tonight, because John and I bought pre-sale tickets. Movie starts at 9:40, cell will be on silent. Text only if urgent. And by urgent, the above part of this blog or worse. I can't keep clear thoughts. Happy Fri the 13th. Hope the black cloud of doom isn't upon you and yours.

Wishes Of A Tired, Tired Soul
This was sent to me by my friend David. He and I have partnered up time to time and the fool once wanted to be like me. Well you must be careful of what you wish for, because he got it. We had a local County Officer that was struck by an out of control vehicle at 60-70 mph when working an accident on the Interstate. Police, fire and EMS is a big family, and though we may fight and bicker amongst ourselves, we stand together when there is trouble. So this is for that officer, my fellow public safety worker... I wish you could know what it is like to search a burning bedroom for trapped children at 3am, flames rolling above your head, your palms and knees burning as you crawl, the floor sagging under your weight as the kitchen below you burns. I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 6 in the morning as I check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late, but wanting his wife an

Three Angels
Three angels Three angels were sent to me To love for all there lives To protect and to hold In our hearts never to depart Made of blond silken hair Skin so pure and smooth I look into there eyes filled with blue from heaven Seeing all they can ever be I pull and hold them close Embracing my heart Breathless as I cry Dripping tears of wonder So I stop and ask myself Without them who am I?

Me Versus The Management, Aka How The Hell Did I Manage To Keep My Job For As Long As I Did
In my 12 years in EMS there were several times that the only reason that I wasn't fired was because they just weren't sure if I would go postal on the spot. So I thought I would show some of my insanity with you for a bit of a laugh and give you some examples of some things NOT to do at work… It really is a 1000 wonders that I ever went to work for Washington County EMS to begin with, looking back on it. I was volunteering for the rescue division and working full time at a private service when I applied to work for WC EMS. There was a FTO (field training officer) and he had homosexual mannerisms and hated my guts because I was homosexual at the time and not ashamed of it. The rumor mill runs rampant at EMS and someone had told this FTO that I had called him "a rope smoker" even though I hadn't. Hell, I am the first to admit that I say things and the irony of it cracked me up. I was brought into the office where the Ops Director and the lead supervisor grilled me about it

Becoming The Pimp Mistress General: Ruler Of The Pimp Emipire
I may not be a beauty queen but I have my pimp moments, and when I was in uniform, I had A LOT of pimp moments. If you want to get technical about it Ali used to call my phone 'dick-on-demand' until she realized that some of the females fell under the non-platonic category. So I thought I would share a couple of examples of why I was dubbed 'The Pimp Mistress General.' First we will start with what used to be a yearly competition that the guys of EMS and I used to have at the fair. Adira's dear man M and his ex-partner started a fad of bringing one of the hotel desk bells to the fair. We had to sit outside of the station that was setup and we had "mini-meds" which used to be golf carts than had been modified to hold a stretcher and equipment. We would all sit out there watching Elmer Ho-Handle and his entire family comes for their yearly venture to the big city and occasionally we would see a hottie. We had a system of 1 ding was good looking and rated attention, 2 dings w

My Smart Ass Mouth
Today's episode of memoirs of a Redheaded Paramedic is a series of short stories showcasing my smart ass mouth. I have a severe case of Mouthus Overloadus. In normal terms it means that my mouth often gets ahead of my brain and overloads my ass. My friends will tell you that I have several phrases that I am well known for saying and sometimes these can get me into a fight…not that a fight is a big deal since I am crazy enough to fight a circular saw on high. So sit back, relax and realize that you are glad that I have mellowed in my old age…..lmao. First we will start with one that established my "I don't take shit from anyone" reputation and caused many to realize that I wasn't sweet. This was where I wasn't actually working but volunteering so I could get experience. I was living with a woman at the time and was happy in my pseudo-lesbianism, which has now been recognized as being bi-sexual. I had a rainbow flag keychain at the time and we were all sitting around the sta

Safety Tips For Those A Little Short On Common Sense
Sometimes I look back on some of the stupid call that I have run and my theory that the gene pool needs an extra dose of chlorine is reaffirmed. Here are some shining examples of "bright" ideas that had a bad outcome: Thinking that if you filter unleaded gas through a piece of white bread makes it safe to drink. Then compounding the problem by lighting a cigarette after your glass of 87 octane. Funneling concrete or small furry animals is not good for the G.I. tract. Letting go of a vibrator that is implanted in your husband's ass and then smacking him on said ass. This usually requires an invasive procedure to remove and causes great embarrassment when filing for reimbursement for the ambulance bill. Telling the person who is giving you a round of "oral hugging" that they are pathetic and that you have gotten better from their brother. For the geriatric crowd, I don't recommend that when your stubborn spouse refuses to go to the hospital, even if they are seriously ill, PLEASE

Words Of Advice!!!!!!!!!!
This is without a doubt one of the nicest good luck forwards I have received. Hope it works for you -- and me! You have 6 minutes There's some mighty fine advice in these words, even if you're not superstitious. This has been sent To you for good luck from the Anthony Robbins organization. It has been sent around the world ten times so Far. Do not keep this message. It must leave your hands in 6 MINUTES. Otherwise you will get a very unpleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious, agnostic, or otherwise faith impaired. ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it. FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. SIX. Be engaged at least six months be

Grrr...
It's 1:30am and i'm still suffering with my hayfever. I'm not in the mood for this anymore. My rose is running like a tap, it looks like i'm constantly crying, and my eyes are itchy and painful now. I want / need some sleep! The sneezing is keeping me awake *pouts*

When God Made Emts
When the Lord made EMT's and Paramedics, he was into his sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one," And the Lord said, "Have you read the specs on this order? An EMT/Paramedic has to be able to carry an injured person up a wet, grassy hill in the dark, dodge stray bullets to reach a dying child unarmed, enter homes a health inspector wouldn't touch, and not wrinkle their uniform." "He has to be able to lift three times his own weight, crawl into wrecked cars with barely enough room to move, and console a grieving mother as he is doing CPR on a baby he knows will never breathe again." "He has to be in top mental conditionat all times, running on no sleep, black coffee, and half eaten meals. And he has to have six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands....no way." "It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord, "It's the three pairs of eyes an

Friiideeeey
God damn that's a beautiful song. Final Fantasy X - To Zanarkand. Makes me really wish i could play the piano. I guess its never too late to learn. Work was pretty drab today so I took off early. Paid a couple bills and I forgot to stop and pick up Overlord again. I guess it must not be that important to me if I keep forgetting to go get it. Once I got home I logged into WoW for a while on my druid. Got sick of grinding so i logged out and came on here. Well other than that nothing exciting today, so yeah. Oh and that Lil' Bush show on comedy central is fucking dumb.

Quiz
Aries You are so full of energy, you constantly attract hotties, and you are always the dominant one in the sack. It is very easy for you approach people because you have so much confidence and you are very forward about your feelings. You are very likely to have lots of sexual partners, (sometimes all at once), and be the most sexually experienced of any of your friends. Sex matches: Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Spaghetti And Mama
Well people lets take another ride on the bambi-lance, shall we? Tonight's episode of Strange Tales is brought to you by the makers of Fukitol. Tonight we are going to explore the reason why I am not allowed to make spaghetti while on duty. First I will start by tell you that I enjoy cooking and when I was on duty in a county station, which don't run as many calls, I would cook. Now being that no one in my family knows how to prepare a meal for one or two people, I always make enough for others. I have cooked Christmas and Thanksgiving dinners many times for whatever shift I was on and didn't ask anyone to chip in money. I do have my kind moments. What I usually did was make something simple, quick and inexpensive…like spaghetti. I would call certain people like the rescue truck in that zone and depending who are on duty, THP and certain county officers. There is a certain THP Sergeant that is one of my dearest friends, I call her Mama, she and I have been through hell and b

Don The Dick Doctor
I was still in medic school and was filling in with diffferent people to get my time in and working more than I did when I was on regular shift, I was tired....damn was I tired and they had put me on 903, the busiest truck in the service. I was working with Digger and knew that I was gonna get the shaft.I guess I need to explain Digger. Digger has been a medic since the dawn of time. He is also a SWAT medic and a mortician that runs the creamatorium. He is has an extremely dry sense of humor. Anyway, this day we were doing the monday morning drag-ass. We were sent emergency traffic to the college for an 'unknown problem.' When we pull up we find that the address is frat house. Digger and I look at each other thinking "shit" and I grab the jump bag that contains a bit of everything. As we walk in 2 very hot blondes walk down the stairs with huge smiles, we ask them where the patient is and between the giggles they point to the stairs. We walk in and frat boy with no shirt holding a b

My Old Life
Tonight's tale is one that is more for explinations of later installments and to give you an idea of what happens when I am mad.We run alot of calls during the day and at night we pray for sleep, sometimes God takes pitty others well... This is the story of a bad night. This is from my early days before I became a medic and was a simple EMT. I was still new to the company and not many people knew how I would do because I still had a nice side, so they thought. We had a busy day and had been up most of the night. By the time we got to lay down it was 3 a.m. and we were beat. My partner, Blue, and I had been in bed long enough to relax and start to dift off into a much needed sleep when the spider line rang. Now the spider is a direct line from dispatch to the stations and the regular ringer doesn't work when you are dead on your feet, so they replaced the ringer with the period buzzer from a basketball scoreboard. That buzzer isn't bad in a gym but when you put it in a 8x10 room

How To Score On Every Date And Be The Man
1 Find the bar / restaraunt / club / venue of your choice. 2 You need to know which of these venues your friends will be at 3 Call your local escort service 4 Spend your whole months salary on the best looking girl they have 5 Get your blowjob before you go out in case she fucks off later 6 Go to the venue were all your mates will be at 7 Boast about the bird on your arm and look well hard 8 As you have already had the blowjob then pretend that she means nothing to you and totally diss her infront of your mates looking harder than you did half hour before hand 9 Dump her and then chat some other bird up at the bar 10 find out next day that the escort has emptied your bank account in a way of a tip to herself, but being the dumb fucktard that you are. You smile to yourself as at least you got a blowjob!!!!

Dear Husband:
Dear Husband, I'm writing this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you for good. I've been a good woman for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you had quit your job today and that was the last straw. Last week, you came home and didn't notice that I had gotten my hair and nails done, cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new negligee. You came home and ate in two minutes and went straight to sleep after watching the game. You don't tell me that you love me anymore; you don't touch me anymore. You’re cheating on me or you don't love me anymore, what ever the case is, I'm gone. P.S. If you're trying to find me, don't. Your BROTHER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life! Your EX-Wife ************************************************************************ Dear Ex-Wife: Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It's true that yo

Why?
why do men have to be such inconsiderate bastards...sorry to all the decent guys in the world. But im just about sick and tired of gettin walked on and treated like shit! I am nothing but nice to guys and they take advantage of me and then just throw me away when they are done with me or when they find someone else...or in some cases have someone else..but still choose to lead me on...for once i would just like to meet a guy that considers MY feelings...i guess thats just askin too much...cuz i still havent found it yet..so i've decided to just focus on me and my kids for now...and if mr. right comes along then maybe just maybe ill consider guys again...i just dont have any trust in the opposite sex anymore...can ya blam me?

Grandmotha Fuck Myspace!!!
As of Wednesday, July 11,2007 all three of my myspaces were deleted: one regular(primary) and two of my artist pages got deleted. hell not to mention i had 926 friends in my friends space roster olnly to get deleted. why? idk. and after having the nerve to reconstruct another one at the library yestaday only to find out it was deleted hours later. Fuck em. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN OF CHERRYTAP PLEASE WELCOME ME AS I HAVE NOW OFFICIALLY FOUND A NEW HOME BABY!!! MWAZ!

Worst Things Can Happen
A father passing by his son's bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then he saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was addressed to "Dad." With the worst premonition he opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter. Dear Dad: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to Elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Mom and you. I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice. But I knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercing, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion...Dad she's pregnant. Stacy said that we would be very happy. She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children. Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone. We'll be growing it oursel

Expressions That Men Use!!!
Expressions that men use that should interpreted appropriately: 1.) Shut the fuck up! It means exactly that, because you are talking too much about a load of old bollocks and you are saying it far too loud! 2.) I pay the bills in this house! This means be grateful for the fact that you don't have to get of your fat fucking arse and get a job and all I ask in return is that you do the housework, cook my meals and suck my knob! 3.) Petrol money. It is a scientific fact that the combustion engine of the modern automobile runs on a fuel called petrol. This fuel needs money to pay for it. If you want me to run you down to the shops to get more shit for your already over packed wardrobes, then try paying towards it. 4.) You're doing my fucking head in: This is an extension of point 1 5.) Fidelity: The more you suck my knob, then the less likely I am going to stray and yes it is quite normal for a man to come in your mouth 6.) Anal! Yes I know it is uncomfortable for you, bu

I've Gone And Done It!!!!!! Wtf Was I Thinking?
I’ve gone and done it!!! I’ve entered myself in a contest!!! Woot!!! The link to my pic in the contest is below, please rate and comment bomb the hell out of me! I never enter anything and would really love to win something. Please help out! Much love xoxox

Who Died The Worst.
Three men stand before St. Peter awaiting admission into Heaven. However, St. Peter has been informed that Heaven will only admit 33% of applicants today. The admissions standard: Who died the worst death? So, St. Peter takes each of the three men aside in turn and asks them about how they died. First man: "I'd been suspecting for a long time that my wife was cheating on me. I decided to come home early from work one afternoon and check to see if I could catch her in the act. When I got back to my apartment, I heard the water running. My wife was in the shower. I looked everywhere for the guy, but couldn't find anyone or any trace that he had been there. The last place I looked was out on the balcony. I found the bastard hanging from the edge, trying to get back in! So I started jumping up and down on his hands, and he yelled, but he didn't fall. So I ran inside and got a hammer, and crushed his fingers with it until he fell twenty-five floors screaming in agony. But the fall didn't

Something To Think About
When you were 15, your mom came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked. When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could. When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night. When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn. When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends. When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country. When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parent

Voodoo
Voodoo Dick A man and his wife were happily married for 2 years until he recently found out his wife had been whoring around while he was on business trips. The man decides to buy her a sex toy and see if it helps. He goes to the porn shop and looks around but doesn't see anything interesting. On his way out he sees a box labeled "Voodoo Dick." He takes it to the cashier and asks, "What does this do?" The cashier then says, "Voodoo dick! Door!" All of a sudden the voodoo dick hops out of its' box and goes and humps the keyhole on the door. The cashier then says, "Voodoo dick! Box!" The voodoo dick hops back in its' box. The man offers to pay for it but the cashier refuses to sell it. The man then offers 700 dollars and the cashier agrees. The man took the Voodoo dick home to his wife and explained how it worked. One day while he was on his business trip, his wife got horny. She said, "Voodoo dick! My pussy." The voodoo dick then started humping her. After a few hours the wife tries

My Surgery, Kinda Sick Just Warning
Ok so my surgery went better then i expected i suppose. They decided not to do the EP study, so I just got my chest sliced and my heart monitor taken out. Basically i went into the room, they gave me a IV. They got it in wrong in both hands, so then they switched it in my arm. So i was jabbed 3 times no fun! Lol. But then they stuck all these pad electrode things all over my body, which made me feel like robo woman. Then a nurse came in and said my cardiologist is out so i need to have someone else do it for me. I wasnt too happy about that but then he walked in. he had to be a older male maybe around mid 40s, but i have to admit, he had AMAZING eyes and hair and he was sooooo nice *dreamy look* lol hehe but anyways, so they stuck a akward thingy over my hair, so didnt match the gown that my ass was hanging out of but you know it worked :P So they took me into the operating room, freezing like normal it was really bad. But they stuck a blue tarp thing infront of my face and everything

School
Well yay! I just found out that all of my loans, and my fathers were approved... sooooo... I can actually GO to school this fall. AND I don't have to work!!! THANK GOD. I've been doing that for years now. I just want to get through with my BFA. I'm 2 years behind. Trust me, for all of you people who work and go to school, it's a bitch... but when you work, go to school and you're a theatre major. It's real fucking bitch! You also have to commit yourself to sometimes 70 hours or more in the theatre ontop of a 40 hour work week and school. Sometimes I just sleep there. haha. le sigh. Now, I don't think I'll have to do that anymore. I might not like cry myself to sleep, or drink myself to sleep because I'm so stressed out anymore. AWESOME! I'm so excited right now.

Random Thoughts.
Wandering around, it seems so random. Who you meet and how. Where and when. Any change in one would change everything, or would it. Who you chose to bring close and who to push away. Who do you forget and who do you remember.

I....
I am ... A woman With a full heart, hidden Somewhere in an empty room ... With eyes not quite of autumn's gold, and yet Neither all of summer's green; I wonder ... If love is a tale made for children -- A granting of sweet dreams in their innocence -- A honey-coating to help their throats Choke down the bitter draught ... I hear ... A voice that whispers warnings, half-formed, Bodiless as hope, until I swear I cannot draw Another breath unless this spectre be unmasked, His lies mangled ‘neath my righteous tread; I see ... A woman, proud, uncompromising, Diaphanous as air -- less, even, than the tears That fall in desolation about her weary feet, Salt poison pooled upon the withered ground ... I want ... A measure of quietude, a certain silence, The echo of alone which heals me of dreaming, The nothing that stills the wanting, The numb, the cold that laughs at pain; I am A woman, hidden ... I pretend ... That I can live forever -- that Time Has no puissa

No Internet For A While...
well my net is off till i dont know when, but do not fret it is not the end, i will be back with some cherry love, to spread around to everyone... till then all you cherries who are my friend, take care, be well and some luv to me send. just leave a note so i can see, all the cherries who have REALLY missed me....Peace. be back soon:) twoshy

Rip Lord Sabian
To every in this list who may be concerned christopher(Lord Sabian) past away a few days ago due to a ruptured aneurysm. this was brought about from the head injury he received in the air force back in 2003. you may or may not have known but christopher suffer from may symptoms from this injury. he requested that i inform everyone of what was going on but wished that i wouldnt tell anyone of the symptons he suffer from, he wants you to remember him as you knew him. once i have finished replying to every one of his lists i will be deleting his accounts as resquested. to all of you he says Farwell and thank you to everyone who treated him well. RIP christopher 1978-2007 we will miss you. Please pay your respects to this woman.He ment so much to her ~Butterfly~ * Seductive Pleasures*~ Warchyldes Slave~*TDN*~COS~@ CherryTAP (repost of original by '†ĞǾŦĦĬС ŖŎŞĔ†™' on '2007-07-13 15:38:45')

Ty For This Dmeilord
Oh mother goddess hear my prayer touch the hearts of the grieving for they need your comfort lay your never ending love around them so it will comfort their pain and help them remebr the good times so they dont fester on the lost so mote it be so blessed be

Friday The 13th............
MyHotComments :: HotFreeLayouts Just Hope Everyone Enjoys There Night... Happy Friday The 13th!!! Check Out My Pic's,Rate Them,And Comment Them Please!!!Well Anyways Hope Yinz Have A Happy Friday The 13th!!!

Sighhhh
Well I am slowly learning things here. But what I really need is to be happy and a bit less stressed. I have a bad day and I need some fun and chat. Hope I will find it here today but if I dont I will just find something else to do.

Test
You have a sexual IQ of 131 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Crazy Man At The Mall Tried To Kill Us
so yesterday i was at the mall with a friend tryin to find cky vids heh. ayways as were leavin were crossin the parkin lot and i step on the curb an wait for this car to pass by an when it does i step off the curb an this nut comes speedin through the parkin lot an tries to hit us. my friend jumps out of the way an the guy slams on his breaks an stops about a foot in front of me (im like in front of his headlight there) so i punch his hood as hard as i can an i think i hurt my hand anyways he rolls down his wondow an says "YOU FUCKIN LIL PUNKS" n so i say "PEDESTRIANS HAVE THE RIGHT OF WAY ASSHOLE AN UR SPEEDING LIKE A FOOL" so he opens his door to get out of the car so jay runs up an kicks his door shut an the dude yells "YOU FUCKS IM CALLIN THE COPS" so i kick his side mirror off lol anyways he then drives away an gives us the most pussified attempt at the finger ive ever seen an thats my story

True Love
I am 51 fell in true love ,but did I mess up and it was because of drinking ,I may loose the one true love I have had Myheart is so sad. It you see her tell her I love her , or send and Angle to tell her I cant loose her but dont know what todo . IT IS TURE LOVE

Pics
To all of you that are my friends and fans or family members that have asked if they can smack my ass or atleast see a pic lol, there is now a pic of my ass in my nswf folder. But dont get too excited its not bare I do have boyshorts on lol Anywayz lol check them out if you have been requesting them. love yall xoxox

Winners Of The Dream Catcher Contest
PRIZES ARE: 1ST PLACE - 7 DAY BLAST & TROPHY 2ND PLACE - 3 DAY BLAST & TROPHY 3RD PLACE - 1 DAY BLAST & TROPHY 4TH PLACE - SILVER MOTORCYCLE & TROPHY (PAID OUT DURING FIRST HAPPY HOUR AFTER CONTEST ENDS.) THIS IS THE HOST'S LINK. ~RebelBreed~*War Chief* ~Founder~CONFEDERATE BOMBERS of CT@ Here are the contestants: Cherokee Lady....Has (13843) Comments!! lxl Purple lxl......Has (13605) Comments!! Krazy Little Sister.....Has (12281) Comments!! ~Rose2Bee~......Has (4108) Comments!!

Who Can Tell Me?
Who can tell me where I come from? The little boy would ask. His question was a good one Yes he faced a trying task. Each man has different answers As he was soon to learn. This brought him great confusion. He first went to his school mates And they spoke with one another, Then the smartest little toddler said, You came from your mother. Now this had satisfied him, Yet only for a time. For as he grew in years of age His thoughts began to climb. He then looked all around him At all that he could see. And his mind began to wonder How it all had come to be. He thought about the cosmos, The infinitude of space; And every star and planet That exits in every place. He thought about the rounded earth, Spinning in rotation. And all four seasons that occur In yearly circulation. He thought about the darkness And he thought about the light. He thought about the sun and moon That help the day and night. He spoke with many people From various group

Hummm My Thoughts
The new name change to fubar huh lol. I think it's a cool name but lostcherry or cherrytap fits this site too well to have a total different name. What about the top cherries, cherry spotlight, cherry blast, the ratings which are cherries. I think with the new name of fubar it's not going to fit that well with it. Myself i think it's more work than it's worth...remember we all have our opinions and that's mine. What's yours? :-)

My Boobies :/
I can't help but be a little fed up with the vulgar messages I recieve about my boobs. I am fully aware that they are large but this does not give people the right to make certain comments and talk to me in such a rude manner. Im not talking about 'nice boobs' or 'theyre big' comments.. more the 'hello my big titted friend' and 'can i titty fuck you' comments... and even those are tame compared to some. Its rude. You wouldn't say that to someone on the street so why say it to a lady online? I do not put myself across in a slutty way, I have no nsfw photos up so I feel angry at this all. Ive met so many great people on here.. just ashame some people are such perverted assholes :/ Love to you all. (not the pervs obv :P ) XX

~backlash~
I am the best merc in the business, catch the big boys, bring the Syndicate a lotta dough. Yet I am nothing more than a workhorse to them- worth only the profits I stuff their eager little paws with. All praise and fine when I'm on my A-game- racking up the perps- but let me falter, let them hire one merc that can keep up with me and I'm back to being the company freak. Back to being "Little Miss Condescending"- good enough to hand the tough jobs no one will touch, but not good enough to give the time of day to. Now they go to telling me I can't take this job? That the bounty is is impossible to collect- that I will never catch up to him? Tell ya one thing: I never say never. And when someone tells ME "never?" My response is simply: Watch me. I so love a challenge! So, Richard B. Riddick- Lord Marshall or no- you're MINE!

*blink Blink*
My mind just drew a blank, its to hot to think properly. I don't mind, this is when I get the craziest ideas and strangest dreams...urrr well stranger dreams anyhow. Its been slightly pathetic lately, there are so many festivals and so much to do outside and about, and yet this past two weeks we have gone on a huge movie kick. Not just any movies, oh no, cheesy horror movies, and some not so cheesy. So far the winners fall into these categories: Worst Movie Ever: Windigo - Oh my god, its just so bad. I've never ever see anything this terrible before! Meaningless dialogue, freak outs over nothing, terrible sex scene with a perv and a monster that looks like a guy in a uni-tard with a set of antlers on his head. Oooo real spooky. Cheesiest and Yet Most Entertaining: Undead - If your morbid like Jeffrey and I, then this is your movie. It was hilarious! Right from the first scene it became a fav, with the granny getting demolished with a meteor then coming back as a zombie and pun

Change
I see into my own future, once again I am someones doormat. Why do I let people walk all over me, always did let them do that. Insecurity is what I am surrounded by, think maybe they want even like me. Always play the role for others, for what they want me to be. Should I just break out of my shell, and stop looking through there eyes. I hide behind my mask, as if I have to wear a disguise. Maybe I should just be myself, that I think is within my range. You know maybe you are right, it is about time for a change. Change is always a good thing, thanks for showing me the light. I will do what is best for me, and give 100% with all my might. Don`t you think we could all use a little CHANGE?

I Need People To Join My Fantasy Football League!!
I am doing fantasy football again this year and need people to join my league. Last year we had 8 teams and I want to try and get more people this year to participate. It's 100% free and fun! If you're interested, message me with your email address and I'll tell you more about it. Serious inquiries only. I want people who are going to play. I want to be able to draft sometime next month so don't hesitate.

Hurt
You hurt all the time, so do I. When I can`t make you smile, is when I hurt the most. I try all the time, but I just cant! So why do I try, because I want to. You and I both know, what we have. It is just so hard, to put it in words. Thats why I put up with your shit, and you do the same for me. And yes, I know you cant say it, but I love you too!!

The Emotional Orgasm. (no Longer Private)
I think I understand why women like chick flicks so much. It's kind of like emotional porno. Only way I can explain is just to break it down. You know that feeling you get when you want someone, & they want you, but for whatever reason you both hold back. Maybe you're afraid of taking things too far, or upsetting the other. Perhaps for whatever reason you feel they are unavailable. So you are in this constant state of desire. Feeling like two magnets drawn to each other, but forbidding the moment when you touch. The way your hands almost meet, your lips almost connect. The way you can almost feel their skin, even though it's inches away.The intensity of it all builds up until that moment you first connect. The first time your hands graze, that first nervous kiss where ... even during it ... you almost want to run. When you finally do touch, its like an explosion of electricity all over your body. Your body tingles, your heart races. Like I said ... an emotional orga

I Am The Supreme High Bastard!
The reason for the blog title statement, is that I'm almost done with the music for Tainted Anticitizen and am ready to record the vocals, I happen to have a sound which is pretty much the dogs bollocks and after much tweaking, I've got the drums to sound awesome. So much for no cymbals though, I had to take the plunge and go for a regular kit, however with only minor alteration my tribal drums fitted the part nicely. Still sounds primal and kvlt. Hopefully I'll have the track online soon. It's gonna be a long one though, but it's black metal so I'm sure you can find it in your hearts to forgive me. Oh and no complaining about the sound quality. People who moan about my production quality should be stabbed in the face. It's like that deliberately because production quality and polished sounds are for hippies. And in their case you can't polish a turd.

Crying, So Unhappy, And Very Broken Hearted
hey everyone. normally ya'll know im all about talking to my friends but today is not a good day for me so i really dont feel like talking. i was ok til i got home and got hurtful but expected IM on yahoo....those closes to me can probablly guess.... and it has just torned me apart and broken my heart into a million little pieces. so maybe i'll be in the mood to talk again tomorrow as for right now all i wanna do is curl up on my couch and cry my eyes out. (of course i know a few of u if you read this wont listen and since u have my # u will call). thank you all for careing enuff to read this and talk to me most days. much love to all of u.... and to the one that hurt me if he reads this: its okay im not mad, i've been expecting this for sometime now, and i'll still be ur friend. til im in a better mood Nicole 'lil devil' ps. leave a comment if you want. LOVE you all who cared enuff to look at this. (i dont care if its rated i just wanted everyone to know whats going on with me)

More Inspiration
as i sit here in a quiet little park, i hear a sound of a dog bark, can`t get you out of my mind, though i know you aren`t that kind, of person that gets real serious, you have always been so curious, still cant forget those bedroom eyes, and all those other different guys, they really don't mean nothing to me, even though its hard for you to see, i don't care where you have been, that was way back then, before you found someone who cares, told you before i will always be there, even when you don't want me around, and break my heart, stomp it in the ground, so maybe i should leave this place, but, its so pretty shows all of god`s grace, thats why i really come here i think, would take a swim, but would probably sink, burdened by all of my weight, so now i am opening the gate, i need to leave, before i start to cry, though stopping is what i am going to try, it really it a beautiful day, thats why i have decided to stay, here and collect my train of thought, see my heart is what you hav

Lifeless
My hearts been shattered, Like glass hitting the floor. It's been days since I saw your face, I fear I will see it nomore. I promised you the world, Along with things I'd never do. My own unbelievable stupidity, Has caused me losing you. My world is totally empty, No one could ever take your place. My heart nothing more than a void, Nothing more than a hollow airless space. If I live to a hundred, I can never undo the past. Without you my lonelyness endures, That I'm sure will last. Someday through your travels, Maybe again you'll smile at something you see, Until the day I am foregiven in your heart, May God take no pity on me.

My Baby
omg i am with the best guy in the world he does me right in so many ways and when he's around me its like nothin in this fucked up workld exsists... his name is JARED MICHAEL SMOOT..i love him to death..he is my erything..i dont thik i could ever love anybody else as much as i love him..i cant help it.. he is all i could ever ask for...im so happy with him...i would kill myself if he ever left me... i want to spend the rest of my life with him i cant help it well byez

Deepthroat Goddess On The Prowl
I'M GOING OUT TONIGHT....and i'm on the prowl for a good huge....std free/huge/beautiful cock, to practice my deep throating technique on.....I'm blonde now but if you see me out- wisper in my ear....only if you have a package bigger then 7inchs...and no toothpicks please!

Blake And Jordin And Hillary And Rudy
Okay, now that the actual singing is over, it's time for the serious part of the Idol game, which is impassioned speculation on who's going to win. The first part of that equation, the singing, has some relationship to the second part, the winning. Just not necessarily a lot. The voting demographic for Idol is a lot different than the voting demographic for, say, Presidential or school board elections. For starters, the average Idol voter is probably 60 years younger. But it's likely they're quite alike in one critical area: how they decide whom they're going to vote for. The way that works with a lot of voters in politics -- I'd say "most voters," but why be cynical? -- is that they decide very early who they're going to support and they spend the rest of the campaign finding reasons to tell themselves they were right. If their candidate says something good, or something they like, it's a bonus. If their candidates says something stupid, does something stupid or says something wi

"thought You Were Done With Ai, But You're Not" Fun Stuff
Caught you napping..... No,wake up, the beast lives on. Here are some assorted nuggets of Idoldom: From: CJM Date: May 27, 2007 08:39 PMMessage:Error at line 1, column 44-- Subject Constantine's Everybody Loves on Rose Radio's Top 30! Body: Reposting for CMST:http://roseradio.blogspot.com/Constantine's "Everybody Loves" is No. 7 on Rose Radio's Top 30Internet Radio:Rose Radio An internet radio station broadcasting through Live365. Listen to an eclectic selection of pop and oldies as well as recordings by various American Idol contestants including Clay Aiken, Taylor Hicks, Carrie Underwood and many more.Sunday, May 27, 2007Rose Radio Top 30 chart - 5/27/07 Here are the Top 30 Songs on Rose Radio this week. Remember, this chart is based on the votes you placed for your favorite songs while you listened.Top 30 Songs:1. Latoya London - State Of My Heart2. Josh Groban - February Song3. Clay Aiken - Perfect Day4. Paris Bennett - Dreamin'5. David Radford - Take It All6. Clay Aike

Pink Said It Best
Is there anyone out there? Is there anyone out there that will not take advantage of someone efforts in trying to help some one out? Is there anyone who claims to be a friend only to never check in again? Is there anyone who ask how your day was when they know your down? Is there anyone who would not allow some one to go on hoping and waiting for an answer just to get more out of that one person? Why is there people who would CLAIM to be a friend and never trust people to give out there name? Why is trust so easy to some and not to the ones who try to be trustworthy? Why are there people out there who say not to be judgmental but are judgmental and never take anything at face value? If you wish to end all hope in some ones dreams and goals you must be human enough to tell them that there is no chance, dont keep leading them on with nothing said and nothing done, that is a forum of using someone for something other than what is intended. People claim they hate

Job Search Update
This an update: In addition to the email sent by the MD of my former company to the Zone Director for North America, i've sent my resume a couple of days ago. The Zone Director called me today. They are starting up the first company in the US. He wants to meet me, he says, so we can talk about my ambitions and expectations. Sending my resume has been a winning move. That still means nothing, but looks like one step forward to my goal. That's great, i mean, if he called me that means that he's really interested in my skills. My fingers will be crossed from now on. Let me enjoy this ephemeral happiness!!!

Yes It Has Been
Yes I have been having a bad days of late...I think I made someone very mad at me also...even if she hasnt said so.....Hopefully she will forgive me....can't help myself sometimes I get so out of my head that I do stupid things.....I hope that she knows I really do Love her...

Trapped
I just want to be free to find me, I need to have some time for myself, to find my dreams and where I belong. I never go anywhere I sit in this house day after day, I hardly have anywhere to go where I can be me. I have one friend that is always there for me. I don't know who I am or where I should be. All I can do now is dream who I'd like to be, and where I would like to be. I just need to find me and then I will know where I belong. U just need to be me, I need to be free!!! Written on 8-25-06

Omg!!! Cherrytap Is Gonna Be No More??
Yes in a very short time Cherrytap will be on the internet using a new name. Baby J made some new changes and wants to change the name. For all info on this new change please check out Baby J's blog. Cherrytap is going to be Fubar

Punishment
Deeper and deeper into oblivion she falls. Banged and beaten from hitting the walls. There was no escape that she could find. She gave up long ago disappeared into her own mind. Sorrow and grief the understatements of all time. No one will know how much she paid for her crime. She judged herself harsher than any judge or jury. She relentlessly paid with anger and fury. An angel who fell from all of our grace. She now resides in a much better place.

I Don't Know
I don't know who I am anymore, I'm not sure if I have ever known. I don't know where I'm going in my life I'm sure I have never known. Some where in between becoming a mother, In between becoming a wife, I have lost myself somewhere along the way. For once in my life I wish I could, find myself and finally know me. I need some tome alone to find, who I an and where I want to be. I'm lost some where inside, could someone help find me find myself? I just want to know who I am I have no idea who I am anymore. Please help fine me!!! Written on: 8-25-06

Lonely Heart
at night i breakdown and cry and sometimes i don't even know why my loneliness is driving me insane so is my lonely heart the one to blame? heart I'm calling on you give me the strength to pull through but still i must believe there's another lonely heart out there waiting for me waiting for me I'm not sure which way to go is it my heart that i should follow heart I'm so unsure and now i need you more than before heart I'm calling on you give me the strength to pull through but still i must believe there's another lonely heart out there waiting for me waiting for me tell me I'm not the only broken heart feeling lonely I know everything heals in time but can time heal this lonely heart of mine at night I breakdown and cry and sometimes I don't even know why my loneliness is driving me insane so is my lonely heart the one to blame? heart I'm calling on you give me the strength to pull through but still I must believe there's another lonely heart o

In A Fantasy World
In a fantasy world life is all peaches and cream. Everyone loves one another and there is no war. You don't have to lock your doors at night. And you always have the people you want are you around. You always have a smile on your face and love and peace in your heart. Unfortunatly, we do not live in a fantasy world. We all go through trials and tribulations. Alot of the time it feels as if we are in hell. You get hurt either emotionally, physically, or mentally. But we always seem to bounce back with a vengence. Stronger, more knowledgeable, and more careful. This is to all the people who live in a fantasy world. W A K E UP!!! Live life to the fullest and emerse yourself in the real world. You only get one shot so make the best of it. Smell the roses and look at the sky. Because you never know when it may be the last time you ever see, your kids, husband, mom, dad, sister, brother, best friend, or yourself. We will love and loose in life, but we al

Sight
SIGHT Current mood: crappy The sun is out it's clear and bright, but it's so cold we tend to lose sight. Sight of what's lost sight of what's gone, sight of what's right sight of what's wrong. We close our eyes and hope it's all a dream, thats when we wake up and the truth can be seen. That what was lost can be found, what we thought was was gone was always around. What is right we finally see, that what was wrong was you and me.

My Erotica Story
When the slightest touch puts you in a place you have never dreamed of. And to hear the voice that makes you melt. Wanting and yearning for the touch not knowing if it is going to happen or not. When the whispering of sweet nothings make you warm all over and moist at the same time. Wanting and waiting for the time and the place, and coming to the conclusion that it doesn't matter the time or place it is here and now. Getting closer every moment wanting him to hold you in his arms and just to feel the slightest breathe on your neck, the kind that sends shivers down your spin. The softest kiss says so much and not having to say a word. The brush of the hand softly on your cheek slowly moving to the neck, wanting him to grab your hair and tugging so slightly. Gentle kisses on the neck and shoulders, and wanting so much more. Feeling his skin next to yours starting to heat. The breathing becomes more rapid as you don't know what his next move may be. Closing your eyes

I Dream....
I dream of having you all to myself, someday it will happen, only we can hope. I dream of being able to spend every moment of my life with you, touching you, holding you, kissing you, just being with you. I dream of sleeping next to you at night, waking up to you next to me every morning. Being able to laugh with you, Cry with you, enjoying life with you. I dream od snuggling with you on the couch, making love to you all might long, feeling your hands on my skin, your body against mine, your lips all over my body. I dream of looking in your eyes, seeing the love I have for you in return, of hearing you say I love you, saying it in return. This is what I dream... Written on: 8-15-06

Dependency: The 8th Deadly Sin
My heart is heavy today. I found out news that I was totally unprepared for, and floored me beyond the realms of recognition. My friend of 17 years died last night of a morphine overdose. I'm not sure of the exact details and did not wish to inquire about them at this particular point in time. Jimmy is gone now and there is no bringing him back. Jimmy is a few years older than me, and I always looked up to him because he was able to party like a fucking rockstar. 17 years ago that was cool as hell to me. I remember in my days of hustling pool when I was just shy of 21, he would constantly try to slip me a beer or a shot in the local pub where we used to hang out at. I was always allowed to play there, because at hat stage of my life, I was usually a lock to win a significant amount of money playing pool. I would always make sure to give the bartender at least 20%. They knew I wouldn't try and jeopardize my "hustle" by sneaking a drink and getting them into trouble. All who worke

We All Bleed The Same
When your heart gets hurt do you not cry. When you are praised do you not feel good inside. When you are down sometimes you want to be alone. When you are happy you want to be involved. When you are confused sometimes you feel dumb. When you are convinced no one can prove you wrong. It's amazing that you can have so many different feelings and have so many different moods. Knowing not everyone feels or acts the same way you do in those situations but they do feel or act that way sometime. The differences in people are like night and day. One is happy and sunny, the other miserable and dark. Everyone has their own thing, thats what makes us different. It doesn't matter what color, religion, ethnic background, sex, or anything we all bleed red and have feelings

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Leaving Ct
I am still pondering whether I should stay or not. I want to thank the few who have sent me wonderfully sweet messages telling me to stay. They meant so much to me. I am a bit fed up tho with the lies and the bs that are , unfortunately part of the norm hre. I will make up my mind by the end of the weekend. Once again thank you to the FEW of my supposed friends who have made a point of letting me know they will miss me.

The Messengers
Well as I sometimes do after watching a movie I post something about it. Well here is that something. I just finally finished The Messengers. Not too bad of a movie, but to me it comes off slightly as an Amityville Horror witha different setting almost. I have seen quite a few otehr movies very similar to this so I wasnt that impressed. The graphic on the ghouls were pretty good though. I am sure that if I was drunk enough and watched this while listening to tool it would seem top notch but like I said its like amityville with a different setting. im not completely disappointed in the movie but then again I'm not too thrilled either, after all its hard to come up with something new to make people deficate themselves when they watch it you know? Hollywood tries their best and I give them a huge thumbs up for not tossing in alot of unnecessary sex and drug abuse like they do in alot of the horror movies. on a scale of one to ten i give it a 7.5 but hey thats jsut my opinion. ive

Beef Stir Fry For One
1 tbsp. soy sauce 2 tsp. cider or red wine vinegar 1 garlic clove, minced 1/2 tsp. sugar 1/4 lb. sirloin steak, cut into 1/4-in. strips 1/4 cup broccoli florets 1/4 cup cauliflowerets 1/2 tsp. vegetable oil 1/4 cup diced green or sweet red pepper 1/4 cup diced cabbage 1/4 cup sliced water chestnuts 2 green onion, sliced 3 tbsp. beef broth 1 tsp. cornstarch Hot Cooked Rice In a large resealable plastic bag or shallow glass container, combine the first 4 ingredients; add beef and turn to coat. Seal or cover and refrigerate for at least 10 minutes. In a skillet or wok, stir-fry broccoli and cauliflower in oil until vegetables begin to soften. Add beef and marinade; cook on medium-high for 3 minutes. Add green pepper, cabbage and water chestnuts; stir-fry for 2-3 minutes or until the vegetables are crisp-tender. Add onions. Combine broth and cornstarch until smooth; add to skillet. Bring to a boil; cook and stir for 2 minutes or until thickened. Serve ove

Broken Dreams
All the dreams we'e ever had, have nver come true. Sothing always seems to get in the way, Now I never seem to believe in what you say. All the dreams I've ever had as a child, I will never have with you. I don't bother to dream about anything, It will never come true. We have had so many dreams together, but none have come true. So now I have given up on dreams, Why dream? Dreams are always broken. I have learned not to dream anymore, all that I ever seem to get are broken dreams. Written on: 8-25-06

Men And Women In Pews
Entry for December 29, 2005 Church For Ladies Only? "It says in the book of Proverbs that beauty is fleeting and charm is deceptive. But a woman who fears the Lord, she should be praised." Yes and what about men? I have attended 4 different types of congregations in 3 different parts of the country and the one thing the had in common was it seemed that the cover charge was waived for ladies, or at least that's how it looked. At the 2 a mixed race congregations I attended one just outside of Pittsburgh PA and the other in Norfolk VA, the was a 1.3 to 1.5 to 1 woman to man ratio, but at Black Churches in the South, Chicago, and NYC I have seen 2 to 1, 3 to 1 and even 4 to 1. 4 to 1!!? Now I am a football fan and easily bored so I understand why many people, even those who consider themselves Christian, miss church, but why so many more men than women? Beyond men being less able to sit still, less socially minded, and men seem to find other places to exert thei

One Bad Ass Concert
I traveled 650 miles to watch 311 in concert, and it was fuckin awesome. I have never been to a concert like them...They have an awesome stage presences. IF you get the chance to see them...Don't hesitate. They are fuckin AWESOME!!!

The Peace Of Wild Things
THE PEACE OF WILD THINGS... when despair for the world grows in me and i wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my childrens lives may be, i go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives wth the forethought of grief. i come into the presence of still water. and feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. for a time i rest in the grace of the world,,,and am free......

Rules Of The South
The 'Rules of the South' are as follows!!! 1. Pull your droopy pants up. You look like an idiot. 2. Turn your cap right, your head isn't crooked. 3. Let's get this straight; it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 4 They are cattle. That's why they smell to you. They smell like money to us . Get over it. Don't like it? I-40 goes east and west, I-65 goes north and south. Pick one. 5. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 cotton strippers that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 6. So every person in the south waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of doves are coming in, we WILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time. 8 Yeah, we eat catfish &; crawfish. You really want s

How Was I Born...???
A little boy goes to his father and asks "Daddy, how was I born?" The father answers: "Well son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Your Mom and I first got togeth! er in a chat room on Yahoo. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a little Pop-Up appeared that said: Scroll Down