There are a couple people in my life, that no matter what I do, or how much I love them, it just doesn't seem to be enough. I try to always be there, that doesn't work. I try to step back and let them....be. Maybe I love them to much. So much that I just don't see the things I need to. The signs that would tell me. I don't want to lose either of them!!! I can not handle the pain my heart can not release. They have been through so much. I try to be understanding and tolerant to their situations. (So absolutely different, by the way). I know they need a friend like me. To be there for them & help them to heal, & deal with all these things they don't understand. Help find answers and the strength, I know they have with in. I don't know if I am strong enough. I get so drained, confused, I start to doubt myself. I worry so much, so often, for them. I make myself sick. How can I help? It hurts so much that I can not make their pain go away. Though I did not cause this pain, I sometimes feel responsible for some of it. This is a constant battle within my heart. Do I continue to be there, or do I walk away? I don't easily give up on people. It is really hard for me, What if they need someone, & I have gone? Then they are alone.....
How do you know when to let go? How do you let go? I will continue to love them ALWAYS!!! Maybe I will try to love them from a distance... If I can...... I don't want to....
