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KISS if kisses were rain i'd send you showers, if fun was time i'd send you hours, if you needed a friend i'd send you me! In my life, I've met many people Why do I still feel so alone. In a world, with so many people Why am I sitting here all alone. Walking past, go so many people How I wish that I was safe at home. Looking out at all these people Do they all feel just as alone? If I leave here tomorrow Would you still remember me? For I must be travelling on, now, cause theres too many places Ive got to see. But, if I stayed here with you, girl, Things just couldnt be the same. cause Im as free as a bird now, And this bird you can not change. Lord knows, I cant change. Bye, bye, its been a sweet love. Though this feeling I cant change. But please dont take it badly, cause lord knows Im to blame. But, if I stayed here with you girl, Things just couldnt be the same. Cause Im as free as a bird now, And this bird youll never chang
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God, I feel like crap. Getting no sleep last night and now my shoulders and neck are aching. I am sorry for those of you that enjoyed my folder. I felt the need to delete it. It was just time. This site just seems to be kind of boring now. A lot of the people I used to talk to on here never get on anymore for what ever reason and I have kind of moved on as well. I miss these people but do know that I can talk to them on msn as well. Also I would love for you to sign up on facebook to be able to converse there. Just know that I have real life friends on there and you might need to watch what you write to me on there. About the only thing I do is write on here. I miss Kim & Steve, I miss Melissa, Padma, I miss Henry, I miss and a bunch of others. It just isn't the same. Maybe I should just take a break? I don't plan on deleting my account, just the folder for now. So ciao for now. Getting off to get some more work done. kisses and love to you all. I
Am I really a part of a life that consists of love, care, and gentleness? Am I really a part of a social respect that has me understood by most? Do I really have every last ounce of you to hold forever? Please tell me that I am the one that makes your heart stop. Please tell me that I am the one that makes your mind race with anticipation. Tell me honestly my love for I can no longer be left in the great wide unknown. I want to know every part of your mind, your soul, and your being. I want to be stuck in oblivion with you, revolving around you. An orbit of loves true meaning... Is it true? Is it really true? Am I yours for the rest of my life? COME LET ME TIE YOU UP COME LET US DOMINATE YOU! NOW HIRING PROMOTERS, GREETERS, BARTENDERS, DANCERS, & ENFORCERS
Today is a day of pent up energy. Filled with wants needs and desires. Visions dancing thru my head. Fingers tracing their way over my body. Charting their way over undiscovered territories. Moving slowly, mapping each and every cliff and valley. Soft, gentle and flowing. Needing candles, rose petals, tie downs, and torturous pleasure. Wanting heat to envelope every inch of my body, sending me soaring high above any other pleasure imaginable. MMMmmmm....... Way to much pent up energy.
What would you do if you had one moment? One moment of what is what you should be asking right about now. One moment is so vague. You can have a moment in so many things in life, one moment to shine at work or school, or one moment you wish you could just take back. We all have moments in our life, some good and some bad. We live our lives and forget that every minute is a moment. There isn't one that is truely greater then another. Every breath we take leads us to another breath and another moment in our life. Yes, we do run into situations that are a matter of timing that leads us to such benefits or sorrows in our lives. We cherish those moments or regret them. We dwell on those moments so much but we fail to remember what got us there. At that one moment the burns its way so deeply in our minds, we don't realize there was actions that led up to it. Maybe you left the house five minutes early or you stopped for a coffee or you forgot something at the house. Whatever it was there was
Thoughts...real Thoughts
So, I'm here having this conversation with someone who within 5 minutes of me adding as a friend, has read my page and appreciates the fact that I am one of the few that don't have to put naked pics up to get a good decent convo. I have talked to many on here that have said that they have met women from here and other sites whom, after looking at their pictures and conversating with them, decided to meet in person...and guess what...the woman was not who she said she was...the pics they had up were from 10 yrs ago when she was 50 pounds lighter and younger. Just for GP, my profile pic I have up now, I took today. I am still wearing the same clothes. I am why is it that men still refuse to conversate with me or "get to know the real me" because I don't have ass, tits and just skin showing in all my pictures...isn't that what porn is for? I mean I am a freaky woman as well with the right person but why must I show everyone in cyber world that? I am not needy with low self estee
I stand, at the edge of the abyss, with only darkness below. A storm of self doubt rumbles on the horizon, foretold by the thunder of disappointment. I shake, precariously balanced at the edge; serpents surround me, grinning at the confusion. The storm roars closer one last step into the abyss. A quick glance above, thru the darkness, thru the confusion, I search. I find. Filtered thru the clouds unfolds a clinging glimpse of hope. A treasure to embrace: My Sunshine, My hope, My future, My life.
Thoughts Out Of An Unstable Mind
Thank You to all of my Fu-Friends and Fu-Family who have helped me get this far and actually get my Birthday Spotlight.   Everyone needs to take the time out and go F/A/R/C all these wonderful people who helped me out in any way they could.   It is not everyday that you find amazing people to interact with.. . Here They Are:   The Love of my life who has had to put up with my Fubar addiction: bew1769(Master of Firechick728) @ fubar And of course all of my Awesome Fu-Friends and Fu-Family:   DevilGirl~Fat Sonny's Keeper~ Owned by Stitch and Cherry Princess @ fubar Texxas***OWNED BY brian perkins ALSO OWNED BY DJ COUNTRYBOY SUPERMAN.. @ fubar Steve ~Club United~ @ fubar
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Ai, it has been an ok week. Up and down with my son. Hhe did something bad that his girlfriend can't forgive him for, he apparently had sex with another girl. Yes, my 16 year old son! So they have been here fighting a lot and I have had to listen to it. Not pleasant. Especially having my 12 year old hear it is not cool at all. I think I see my daughter just as much now that she has moved out. Kind of funny. She stops by all the time, to do laundry or to eat. I have some workers here right now doing yard work for me. Peter sent them over from work since they had 2 hours to kill waiting for something to finish at work before they could work again. It is nice having all the yard work done for you. They are great employees we have. I really wanted to boycott Mother's Day this year. I didn't want to spend it with my Stepmom and my mother is dead. I also don't feel like a very happy Mom either since my son is putting me through Hell. So I told my Dad we would not be jo
Thoughts From A Friend
Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their best friends lived barely a wave away. I can see them now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a housedress, lawn mower in one hand, and dish-towel in the other. It was the time for fixing things. A curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven door, the hem in a dress. Things we keep. It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy. All that re- fixing, eating, renewing, I wanted just once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence. Throwing things away meant you knew there'd always be more. But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more. Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up and goes away...never to return. So... While we have it... its best we love it... And care for it.... And fix it when it's broken..... And heal
I often wonder is this what god had planned for me? Is the trauma that I go through to make me stronger or beat me down. Was my life already planned out before I was even born. Im thinking of how I can impact my life to be content with myself. Love, happiness, contentment and joy are yet to be found. I've always second guessed myself. Well no more. This year everything will be different. Im almost comfortable to enjoy being with me. I've learned alot about myself, who i am and how I what to be. I love people and that was always hard for me to believe, now ask me if I trust people I will still say no. There are only a few that I truley trust in my life and those I love dearly and thank you for your support. I will laugh more than ever, be as goofy as I can be, spend as much time out doors drinking in the warm sun and smelling the sweet rain, wrap myself in a blanket on the couch with a good book, use the knowledge & experiences I have to offer for someone who maybe hurting, Be a goo
Thought Everyone Needed A Laugh!!!
a little boy and a little girl are taking a bath and the little girl looks over at the boy and says can i play with that and the boy says hell no you done broke yours off!! how did woman get the name? when god made eve he said woooo man!!! what did god say when he caught eve taking a bath in the river? damn ill never get that smell out of those fish!! why do blond weman have bruises around her belly buttons? cause blond guys are stupid too!!! a little boy goes into a church and asks the preacher is it true that we come from dust yes the preacher says we come from dust the boy asks is it also true when we die we go back to dust the preacher says yes its also true when we die we also go back to dust well you better come to my house and look under my bed cause somebody is either comming or going!!! why did raggedy ann get thrown out of the toy box?she got caught sitting on pinnochios face saying lie to me lie to me tell me the truth lie lie!!!! how do you knowif
Thoughts To Ponder...and Other Nonsensical Thoughts
I am noticing a trend in the mumm department. It seems that a lot of people have forgotten that a mumm is a "make up my mind" type of post. A lot of the mumm's I see are just questions in general. There is no asking for help to make up a mind. It seems to me that they're just becoming a way to make points. I’m not saying I’m blemish free. I did do a mumm to thank everyone that had posted on my other mumm. I was told in no certain terms that I should have done a blog for that. Reflection being, I agree. And I apologize and will try not to do that again. Sometimes a person does need a nudge to make up their mind. When there are two or more options available, and all are good, it helps to have input. Let’s get the mumm's back to what they are supposed to be. Let’s make up my (our) minds more
what makes men do some of the stupid crap they do..i have been talkin with some friends and it breaks my heart to hear the way they put men down, i may be crazy but im a southern gent and i respect a woman as the individual she is and some are good and some are trash but i dont blame all women for the mistakes of the few.. and i wish women would do the same. i know there are some guys out there thats not worth the powder to shoot them but on the other hand a trip into a swamp would teach them some respect for life in general just listen to the song by charlie daniels and you will understand...but really folks we need to respect each other alittle more .. there are some guys i know on line that are abusive and crazy toward women.. i have seen guys treet women like dirt but they should treet women like gold cause they are special... have every wondered what be came of a high school sweetheart ..i have spent over 20 years wondering.. and like trace atkins says every light in the ho
I wrote this a few months ago... was wondering what you thought... lemme know :) There are those days.. When you just want to be noticed You want to feel something real For the right reasons For the person you are For the morals that you portray For the heart that you have For the emotion you feel For the genuine person that you are Not for the clothes that you wear How physically fit or not you are The car that you drive The money you have or don’t have The dwelling you live in The toys that you have The material things that you have The bad decisions you have or haven’t made The hard times that you may or may not be going through Time Spent together shouldn’t be about where you go What you may do How much it costs to get there Who pays for whom It should be about the time spent The interaction The memories made The quality You look forward to That phone call That text message That email That feeling you get when you share a moment with someo
**please read it all** some of you on here are whores or if you like prostitutes. reason: you put yourself out there on a sexy pic but when the typical guy takes a look, sorry you have to do this to see. some of you on here have pride in your looks and dont feel like showing off, good for you, just remember, not all guys are assholes, just most. some of you only let certain people you trust look at your naked bodies, well i hope its someone you know in real life cause lets face it, this is the net, trust on here is like... just trust no one. some of you put a sexy pic and hate it when tons of guys want to see more, in case you didnt know, most guys cant control themselves when all there blood goes from there head down to our other head. so if you are any of the above and dont like what ive said, then dont be it. if you are any of the above and know it and want to be it and proud of it. then good for you and keep having fun. it sucks sometimes. i just want to fuck or ea
I'm generally not much up for talking about my feelings on most things. But I guess it's just a me thing. But here lately, I seem to want to express some things that bother me. The other day, I was reading a post by someone and the comments made about them. Several people, for no apparent reason, decided to make some really derogative comments about the post and the way the individual looked, or were attired, on their page in their pictures. I guess they wanted to try to offend the lady that had posted the MUMM. My question response to this is very simple. Answer the question or comment on the statement made. Other than that, your opinion(s) were not asked for. Because you're down on yourself, don't try to make others feel the same way about themselves. Obviously this person is very comfortable with the way they look (which they should be) and have no problem. If you really are offended by the way hey look or are attired, then take the little cursor and change the page you're lookin
Thoughts Of You
I was thinking about you today and I do that a lot it seems. You're always in my heart by day, at night you drift into my dreams. I cannot shake these feelings for you, but then I'd never had a desire to. The blessing of our love and friendship, is something I want to share with you. I want to feel you near me, when you're so far away. I hope you feel me in your heart, as you travel your path today. Footprints in the sands of time, walking closer towards each other. Holding hands and sharing love, which will not be meant for another. These are some of the memories, that come with thoughts of you. These feelings are from my very heart, and something you can hold as true.
We go through life,excepting things that come to us, with open arms, but then only to late we realize, that the choice's we made were the wrong ones. We go through life giving people around us only passing glances, never truely looking into thier soul. never knowing if they were the one. We go through life, hoping to find the right one. and when we finally do, we never let go. always knowing they are the one.
Thoughts For The Day
Birds of a feather flock together and crap on your car. A penny saved is a government oversight. The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment. If you can smile when things go wrong , you have someone in mind to blame. The sole purpose of a child's middle name is so he can tell when he's really in trouble. Did you ever notice, when you put the 2 words 'The' and 'IRS' together it spells 'Theirs.' The older we get, the fewer things seem worth waiting in line for. Some people try to turn back their odometers. Not me, I want people to know 'why' I look this way. I've traveled a long way and some of the roads weren't paved. When you are dissatisfied and would like to go back to youth, think of Algebra. You know you are getting old when everything either dries up or leaks. Ah, being young is beautiful, but being old is comfortable. First you forget
Here is a few things that have crossed my mind lately. Some you might think are dumb or are just plain stupid.. but you know what.. ITS MY HEAD... Are we alone in the universe??? Big waiste of space if we are.. Is there life after death??? Guess we have to wait and see.. Jumbo shrimp??? Define that plaese.. Outerspace??? Do we know where inner space left off.. Knowing other.. Get to know yourself first. It will make you a better friend!!! Goverment Intelligence??? Define that please.. Live Nudes.. I do not want to see Dead Nudes.. Labels.. Not for people!!! Underwear models??? Where are they??? If I am paying for my TV??? Commercials.. Are for what?? If it is instant messaging.. Why push enter or send??? Why make a date.. And not show up??? Beauty.. Everyone thinks differently!!! NO COMMENTS... THEY WILL BE DELETED
Thought 4 The Day
-If you can't eat it or hump it, Then piss on it and walk away!
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Thoughts From A Cutter
Here I sit with blade in hand All I can think about is the excitement and release I will feel as the blade slices my flesh watching the crimson blood slowly drip I smile and sigh as the pain that engulfed me slowly subsides
its just life out here in my world i dont take it seriously
Thoughts In My Head
Thoughts in my head ,they seam to spread They really should not be, When will I be free? Why do they tease and torment so These thoughts have so much control. Each and every single day. The thoughts never ever really let go. I close my eyes trying not to see. These Thoughts that keep tormenting me . Maybe if I was really truly set free Then these thoughts wouldn't bother me. With a smile on my face I try to hide From these thoughts that torment me inside. I don't want to see, maybe i will brake free From these thoughts that oh so rip & tear at me. Then and only then do i finally see The true nature of these thoughts that bother me. I will never ever be set permanently free No not from these thoughts that bother me.
Keeping someone in your heart is very easy. But to be in someones heart is very difficult. So, realize the heart which cares for you.
At night I sit alone and watch the shadows dance around. I hold my breath and listen yet silence is the only sound. I reach for some comfort yet feel no embrace. I am tired of the emptiness and loneliness of this place. I can feel no more hurt because I have learned to live with my pain. I often wonder how I survived and continue to stay sane. I have hurt so deeply and cried too many tears. I have been empty and broken for so many years. I am tired of pretending that I am fine and all is okay. I am tired of hiding behind this mask I wear every day. I have drifted so far and can no longer be saved. These feelings hold me captive and to them I am enslaved Why do I smile at the sound of your voice? Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice? Why do I let you touch me in places never touched? Why do I like to have you around so much? Why do I melt at the tenderness of your kiss? Why do I feel like I could live forever like this? Why do I put my heart
Thoughts Of The Lost_submissive...
Today as I set here thinking about my life I decided to put it down in words...I, as most of you know, am submissive...and as it states on my profile name, I am a lost submissive waiting to be found by that one true dominate male...I know I know it's a fairy tale...The dominates that have tried to take me as theirs turned out to be fakes and just wanted to degrade a woman...That is not what I am here for. I am here to nurture and mold as a true submissive. I am definately into being a one sub too...I don't want any sister slaves....I myself would like a one on one dominate/submissive relationship. I just can't stand it when men try to be dominate and are just assholes...there is a me I've seen both sides...lmao!... I want the love and warmth and guidance of a dominate. I miss all of those things. I guess you could say I need that in my life again. To have that one true dominate to collar me as his heart skips a beat and flutters at the thought..but as I
Thoughts From The Padded Room
all you have to do to join is put "Member of Wicked Kitties" in your profile and make a salute with your fubar name and that as well... see no flaming hoops here so callin out to the tattooed and pierced sex kittens....and callin out to the bbw and the thick chicks...and anybody who thinks they can show the group long list of voting in....just a real group with real ppl..... SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???? BE THE FIRST ON YOUR BLOCK TO RUN TO THE WINDOW AND SAY" IM A WICKED KITTIE"!!!!!!!!!!!! (ok dont really do that they might call someone) hey ladies AZ's angels are back....if you wanna join just put Member of AZ's angels in your name...and make a group salute as well....WE DO NOT TURN ANYBODY AWAY we call out to the tattooed pierced and the outcasts......but ALL ARE WELCOME so what are you waiting for?????????? well first off i wanna say this....TO FAT SONNY YOU MIGHT THINK ITS FUNNY TO CALL ME A RAPIST AND AN PEDOPHILE BUT THERE IS A LITTLE THING
Just sitting here hanging out, listening to some music, and it dawned on me. I have one more Monday left in theater. One more Monday. I have 8 days and I get on that blessing, that sweet bird of freedom. After a year, I have done a lot, seen a lot, and been through a bit. I have learned a lot as well. One of these days I'm going to reflect back and summarize the past year. For now, just know I have enjoyed it, am enjoying it, am looking forward to getting back stateside, but at the same time, am going to miss being here. I am going to miss the desert. Not the sandstorms, lack of beer, or being on Camp Arifjail, but I have made some outstanding friends and had some fun. Now, I'm back to sorting out stuff to be packed, carried, or mailed. Today I'm clearing the air. Today I am done hiding. Today, I have to put it out there for the world to see. Nine years ago today, I said my vows to the ESUTB. 10 months ago she said "Jared, I don't want to be married to yo
Thought Of The Day! 7/4/08
Your morning thought for the day: Let every nation know, whether it wishes us well or ill, we shall pay any price, bear any burden, meet any hardship, support any friend, oppose any foe, to assure the survival and success of liberty. ~John F. Kennedy~
I watched my aunt pass away because everyone was so worried about my uncle they didnt see she was sick. Now everyones worrying about my father and not realizing that my mother is just as bad. She puts off her health problems and concerns to be their for her children. It kills me to think that I can lose her, shes my best friend and the only one that knows my hopes and dreams. Hell she even knows about every guy in my life. I dont know what to do my father just told me I have to be the bigger person and hes puttin it on my shoulders to deal with this. Because she isnt listening to him. That I have to get my brothers and sisters together and let them know that our mother isnt doing good! This is the most unfair thing in the world to know that someone u love is not well but wont take your advice. Im tryin to be the bigger person but all i get is hot tears running down my face, and thoughts of what if things dont get better. Idk what to do:( Well today my mom told me she couldn't hold it i
Thoughts Of Love
The sunset has faded once more, Gone are its radiant hues That warmed the end of my day. The darkness of night envelopes me. The air is still, the quietness of evening deafening. I sit and ponder the past and question the future. Memories, thoughts, flooding my mind. Just like a pond when a stone is cast upon it, So are the rippling effects borne by my heart and soul. The innocence of a child’s daydreams Now are transformed into a woman’s world of reality. For so long I guarded my thoughts and feelings Keeping them locked behind closed doors, Allowing no one in. You entered my world and became part of it. I learned to trust someone as would a child, And in doing so gave you the key. A key that unlocked privacy secured for so long. Fantasies became reality, untapped passions unbridled. A tenderness and gentleness I’d never known Warmed and comforted me. Finally I knew what it meant to be a woman. With the dawn of each new day I am reminded Of the warmth, the
Hmm... Why do people get angry or upset over nothing? Maybe they should just chill out and not assume stupid crap. What they assume may not be right. But then again to many people jump to conclusions to easily and become irate over nothing. Step back and chill for a sec. I guess I just offend to many women in to many ways. Be more confident of yourself and you won't have these problems. Oh well thats what I get for being me. No wonder I get along with men better. LOL they aren't as emotional over nothing. Not only that they are more fun by far. Oh well life goes on. Chill out and relax.
Thoughts And Anger
SOME MEN HAVE THE BALLS TO COME UP IN ONES SHOUT BOX AND ALL HE HAS TO SAY IS MY C**K IS HARD WHAT IS THAT WHO GIVES THEM THE RIGHT TO SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT what is it because i am a female subbie it gives them right please give me a break. i dont understand it at all not even a good morning how are you nothing but that darn shit sick is all get out. if you going to talk like that to me stay the heck off my page and if i want to look at your pictures i will dont tell me go look please this just kills me they all think all you want is what is between thier legs grow the heck up because i am in the lifestyle dont mean i am about all sex i am not i do have a mind get over yourself. I know i am not that good looking but i am far from ungly now tell me why some ladys can put in thier away message they want something and they get it is it because they so darn hot and show all thier nude picks. I can put it in my away meaagae and everyone looks at me like why would i give you anything i don
Thoughts And Musings
Definition: [Domination] is the desire to exert control over a consenting partner for the purpose of mutual gratification. Now what does this truely mean for most....well its unfortunate but most out there take this to mean a power play....and that its not for mutual gratification only for there own...they do not take into account the other person that is there...thinking only of themselves. Now I'm not going to say that everyone does this...there are those that are true unto the lifestyle in which W/we live, and everyday is a learning experience. No one knows all there is to this life. But I digress in what I'm speaking of....I know most of Y/you already know this but its always good to revisit and refresh upon the basics otherwise sometimes W/we lose sight of things and lose the way. Now there are many different forms and ways of Domination...its different to each C/couple and how they wish to portray the lifestyle in T/there relationship. It can be as simple as so
A Thought On Things To Come
i am thinking about leaving fubar not for a short time but for good, if you wish to stay in contact let me know and i will give you my yahoo and my msn ids' , I have made some great friends and i would like to stay in touch with them, but i will understand if you dont wish too.. your friend Billy aka Addicted to Pain
IM just fuckin tired now. I need a serious lower back fusion from skatin when i was youngert and my days down shovelin coal at the lakefront. i have a inch of height my vertabrea sticks out like 2 inches farther than all the rest. it always feels like i have a screwdriver in my back and im tired. i sleep for days because wasted movement means more pain and i am losing my will to even get up anymore. i am not a quitter so i am against suicide but im losing this battle its 30 mg perks 3 times dayly and im still in some numbed sense of pain it has changed my p[ersonality i find myself nodding and affirming people conversing with me wiht out actually hearing what they are saying. because i am trapped in my pain. i dont have insurance atm and i am fucked. i have always be;lieved when one door closes another opens up but i am starting to lose face here. my attitude for life is deteriorating rapidly and I am treading water right now. just thoughts so any of my friends dont get worried keith w
Thought Of You
A Thought Of You © By Trisha My kind of music, My favorite song, I want to be with you All day & all night long... A spring breeze, A summer sun, Now that I know you You are my one... A winter sparkle, An autumn tree, Added all up It equals you & me... My best friend, My only lover, From here on out I'll keep you forever... A good laugh, With some happy tears, You're the one I go to Through all the coming years... When it rains it rains, When it snows it snows, I wrote this specially for you & you're the only one who knows... You keep me warm, When I'm so cold, As if my heart were for sale To you it was sold... Whether playing our favorite games, Or to music we sing & listen, When it comes to you There's just no competition... Not the best cut diamonds, Or the reddest rose, Could ever amount to When you hold me close... & when everything is said & done, The night is over & we've had our fun, Out of all the men I choose just on
August 24th 2007 7:27pm, As I left my house to go for a evening walk after dinner, there was a tan/gold dog running around outside my house. I kept an eye on the dog to make sure it doesn’t get near me. As I walked further away from my house the dog started trying to attack me. I skid my feet across the wet ground to scare it away but the dog kept getting closer. I yelled at it and the girl who was trying to get the dog “get that damn dog on a leash” the girl said “it’s not my dog!” as I replied “I don’t care if it is your dog or not get the damn dog on a leash!!” at that point the dog again tried to bite me within inches of my legs. A black man came charging out from the duplex where the dog stayed and started yelling at me cussing taking off his green plaid jacket and coming closer. I begin saying “I’m not going to fight you all I want is to go for my walk” that man yelling “are you threatening my daughter?!” my reply was “no I told her she needs that dog on a leash!” and he as
Thoughts On Life,love, And Relationships
Tired of so many things as of late i dunno where to begin.Of course some things dont suprise me because I knew how they would go to begin with.As most of us often do especially if they have been in a situation before.I think what iam most tired of right now is lies.I have no particular use for them.In the end they always end up badly.Mainly because you have to keep lieing to cover up the previous lie.Over time the lie gets so big theres no way to move.Some people get to me because they have no clue what they want.They will persue one thing till the get it no matter what it is and when they finally do they dont want it.Either that or lose intrest in it totally.Gues that could be said bout some relationships these days. That could be said for allot of other things as well.Seams some people are never truely happy with what they got.Even if its something good it often is never noticed till its gone.Then of course they say I want that back it was great.Witch sometimes never happens aga
When one is on a journey of self discovery, there are times that we discovery things about ourselves that we really wish that we hand not discovered or maybe i should say remembered. i have been on such a journey for the past few months and though i am perhaps half way through this part of my journey, i have started to discovery that the last time i truly new happiness as when i was but a small child, everything after that was just me wearing a mask and telling myself over and over agian that i was happy until i believed it. i know that it's crazy but it's true, as i continue on this journey i am slowly discovering that i can be happy even a little bit, my happiness has not come full force, but there are small things that make me so very happy it's nothing major but small things that some might take for granted, such as a message form a friend, a small gift left for me online, these things bring a smile to my face and they seem to always warm my heart. i am not one that finds ha
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Thought Provoking Blogs
"Dont think there are no crocodiles because the water is calm" - Malayan Proverb Like a predator lurking deep beneath the surface,making no noise and causing no ripples upon the water, our denied feeling lies in wait, and when it lashes its tail and sinks its teeth deep in to us we cry out in shock and pain, wondering where it came from and why it has attacked us now? Every one knows that feeling! A certain song that brings back a memory of a lost love. The hint of a fragrance that reminds us of grandma's house. The scent of a cologne that lingers on a sweatshirt, after he is gone. And we always act so surprised when the memory floods our minds, taking over all other thoughts, stunning us into a moment of inaction, as we try to not to remember because the pain of loss is just too much to deal with. We sit and shake, then slowly regain control, and vow that next time. . . next time, it won't overtake us . . . next time we will be prepared. And when 'next time' happ
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family and we're surely limited in the number of them at any rate. socially and Morals(and often our own Conscience ) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be diverse and iniginite as adjectives we choose. Our friends in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life. If we want to be loved, we must disclose ourselves. If we want to love someone, he must permit us to know him. This would seem to be obvious. Yet most of us spend a great part of our lives thinking up ways to avoid becoming known." "Indeed, much of human life is best described as impersonation. We are role players, every one of us. We say that we feel things we do not feel. We say things we did not do. We say that we believe things we do not believe. We pretend that we are loving when we are full of hostility. We pretend that we are calm and indifferent when we are actually trembling with anxiety and fear." "Of course we cannot tell even the people we
Thoughts Of A Mad Man
its six o'clock in the morning, my head is ready to explode. i cant remember where i went or what i was drinking. but i know it made me sick and i am not denying that i get this way when i try to get over you. its hard to face the truth sometimes. god i feel so useless. god i hate myself. why do i feel like dying now? there are times when i am just a shell. when i do not feel anything for anyone all i fell is hollow and bruised, used up and mis-used. forced to be someone that i dont want to be. have i failed somehow or someway and will the weight of today pull me down to drown in the depths of despair where i am alone except for my rage? what does it matter? what is done is done and i should get on with my life. soon the night will take me and save me from my pain. so this is where i say goodbye. this is where my story ends and if theres is one thang that i have learned from life, it is that it gets you in the end. so goodbye my friend. G O O D B Y E i sit here thinking of you as t
8 yrs ago today at 1:49 pm My son arrived in this world. He was immediately taken to N.I.C.U. where he remained for 19 days. We were told he would never leave the hospital. Of course he proved them wrong. Throughout the first year of his life I heard nothing but bad news about his prognosis for life. He would never walk, he would never talk, He would never function normally. 8 yrs later here we are. He would never talk, You cant keep the boy quiet now. He would never walk, You come try and help me keep up with him. He would never function normally, I have the sweetest, happiest and most loving little boy in the world. Physically he is a giant kid. Much taller than most of his classmates. Mentally he is closer to a 5 yr old, but as I said earlier you wont meet a happier kid. He has brought so much pure joy to my life as well as given me so many qualities I lacked previously. I write this not to ask for birthday wishes for my son but to encourage you to hold your own
I have no interest in self-preservation, emptiness is like an old friend. I have no motive or any inclination, of doing anything for any one again. I've been the patsy, I've been the fool, I've been the scapegoat, now all of that is through. Don't want to sit and wonder when the end is near, don't want to know where I'll be in 20 years. Because I bite the hand that feeds. Easy to call me selfish, after years of nurtured apprehension. I have no shame I take the blame, no more subordination. I gave up my self-esteem for a false security, and foolishly I chased that dream, that had to be force fed to me. I play no part in hope that dwindles, reality is such a change of pace. I see things now for what they are, and reality is such a different place. Nostalgia such a waist of time, so much life left to live. I can't dwell on yesterday, I gotta take as much as I give. The clock is ticking on the wall the world is spinning while the billions work to justify their lives. They
Thought About You
Thought about you... All day long, I thought about you. Even when I tried not to think about you, I thought about you. When I closed my eyes, I thought about you. When I opened my eyes, I thought about you. When I thought about the beauty of the season, I thought about you. When I thought about the warmth of the upcoming holidays, I thought about you. When I heard a love song on the radio, I thought about you. When I checked my email, I thought about you. Even when I said goodnight to the stars, I thought about you. And when I slipped beneath the softness of my blanket and gave in to the bliss of sweet dreams, I thought about you. I just can't stop thinking about you.
Thoughts That Flow
Today I peeped, searched, and read. Today I learned the bitter truth. The culmination of my doubts and fears. Simple black ink stared back at me. A letter, ungiven, yet plainly addressed. Folded and hidden from view. Somehow I was drawn to it, like a moth to a flame. Unaware that I would get burned, yet I feel like my skin is flaking off. Lies were exposed, infidelities revealed. The words cutting like a knife, deep and true. Your words will leave a scar, thick and puckering. I won't forget, someday I may forgive. Emotions stirred, feelings revealed. I've left a scar of my own, for you to see and remember. -------------------------------------------------- This was written over a year ago. I am long since past the circumstances that sprouted such feelings. (This was written a while ago. Thought I'd share it). ---------------------------------------------------- A million thoughts unspoken clutter my mind, warping my perspective. Endless seas of desi
With a tenderness he will cradle you, And whisper his words of love to be true, As your heart races he will kiss you then, A shiver passes along your spine as you give in, You taste the hunger in his kiss, As he shows you this new bliss, Into his kiss you moan as you grab his head, Kissing softly he makes his way down the bed, With a gentle grip he slides your legs apart, He teases with his warm breath before he will start, You sight as he disappears between your legs, Your grip growing tighter on sheets of the bed, When he is finished you lay panting, Your mind is racing is this happening, Kissing your lips lovingly he enters you, To complete this joining of souls you know is true. HE walks from the darkness around him, The shadows part as he pulls his hat brim, Blade in hand he goes to find the place, Where he shall find the one to match his pace, Cloak bellowing behind his eyes set forward, The pain means nothing to what he heads toward, His armo
THE EGO The ego is our sense of self-importance, how we feel about our bodies, our accomplishments and ourselves. Additionally, our occupations help to construct the ego. A healthy ego is well aware of its physical image,personal success and effect upon others. A mature person respects such things and does not flaunt them or abuse them. That person is also very much aware that authentic self-worth is based upon the ability to look beyond one's projected image and the willingness to contribute to something bigger than me. Such selflessness and charity actually nourish a mature person's self worth However, for many of us, the ego is a perpetual 2 year old that screams to be spooned fed with power, prestige and possessions. And fools that we are , we actually waste too much time chained to the ego's high chair trying to entertain and satisfy this spoiled child. We cave in to its temper tantrums and selfishly demand position and recognition. We jockey for center stage and the place of
Thoughts On A Lonely Night
Ever since we met, I know I can't live Without you by my side, and all you have to give You're always there when there's no one around You put a smile on my face when I'm feeling down When things get tough, I come to you You hold me in your arms and help me through Wash my pain and stop my cries You give me your word, your word never lies You've accepted my faults And gained my respect I trust you, and love you no less You know everything that's on my mind You're always there, being sweet and kind i dreamt of an angel riding in the darkness searching for something, searching for the light; when i looked into your eyes, i realized the angel is right infront me! never i have spent a moment wanting to hold on for the rest of my life and never let go of until you came into my life; searching for the meaning of life, i spent long time tucked away in darkness, and never did i imagine, i would find the meaning in you! fantasies inside me evoke dreams that can
Thoughts And Rants
ive decided to take alot of time to work on myself and stay away from here in the process. i come here everyday but it seems to serve little purpose other than to waste my time. i am taking this moment to look deep inside to see what will truly make me happy and work to achieve it. for those of you that have been nothing but a good friend, i will miss u. i will get on yahoo when i i will not have internet for awhile. but when i do, those who have it and say hi i will respond. but i simply can no longer expose myself to the things that only hurt me in the long run. my happiness and the happiness of the person who means everything to me, my daughter Cassie, are what i will be focusing on. I wish you all the best of luck and all the happiness in the world. Im sure ill be back...hopefully a changed person for the until then, save my seat at the bar.   Neil I woke up to silence today. Sometimes, silence is golden, but today, I am scared of the silence. Ive live
Thoughts On Ufos & Our Space Progam
AN ENLIGHTENED VIEW: Could it be that most "UFOs" are not extra-terrestrial in origin at all, but merely the product of 60+ years of post WWII Reasearch & Developement by the superpowers, with the help of brilliant, captured German Scientists, to create Anti-Gravity Areo-Spacecraft? (Could it be that the "Alien" explanation is more "Disinformation" than anything?) And if one can get their head around this concept, does it not seem highly likely that there might be a Secret Space Program we know nothing about, achieveing "Great Things" in space with our tax dollars while we scratch our heads watching NASA try not to blow up shuttles on the launch pad? (Food for thought cousins)"Please respond with your feelings on the matter"
Thoughts Of A Blasphemer
Thought Of The Day
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As I sit along the shore line watching the sunset I reflect back over my life . I think back to the choices i have made in my life . I wounder if I made the right ones. I wounder if  could go back in time would i have done things diffrently.  I watch the colors fade from yellow to purple. Its strikes me that when we take the time to look back at ones life that all the choices we have made be them right or wrong we did for a reason . We may never know the true reason we made them. We may regreat the choices we made . In the end it comes down to trying to make the best out of the life we have right now . Just as the sunset is a beautiful part of nature, so are we . The sun will set everyday . Each one is diffrent there are no two alike . Just as with ppl there r no two alike . We must take a page from nature and see that what choices we have made  make us just as beautiful as the sunset.  Just as the sunset touches our lives we touch the people around us . We make there life a little b
Dreams of Love soo pure and Intense in the begining have turned in to the sobering reality that Life punnishes those who dream past their grasp. That was my sin... To have ever thought myself worthy enough have your heart as my own, to have dreamed that our two loves would transformed in to one heart beat... I have been humbled to the point of dust... My pride has long left me... In the early morning hours right before sun rises,memories of the scent and feel of your body torture my mind.. And in the breezy summer moon lit nights of August your tender voice and the indescribable delight of your gaze upon me rush in to my consciousness like an un-expected storm ravaging all in it's path... I wish I could rip out the memory of you from my veins, I wish I could tear out my heart from my chest and throw this pain away... I curse the four winds and the celestial stars above for putting you in my path... Such emotion, Such intensity was not made for one person... But yet...
Thoughts In The Silence Of The Night
Thoughts And Prayers Needed
Thoughts On A Silent Day
underneath the bright moon light with the stars in full view we walk hand in hand along the sea shore whispering sweet nothings so softly that only we can hear; the waves gently caress our feet, the cool night air lifts us off into the clouds; basking in the moonlit rays, as stardust falls from above hand in hand, eye to eye, we stand locked in our embrace; surrounded by captivating starlight, majestic moon shine on this night, with the blackened skies as the backdrop love radiated and drenched us in absolute euphoria; with our romantic cruise nearing its end, under the stars on a moonlight bay there is more to this i know, every dream can come true; as the brilliance of the shooting star drifts down to earth here is a chance to wish; time to wish for something new; all that i seek is a place for you and me, dream of a happily ever after, make this love sure and true; with dawn creeping over the horizon tears well up inside me and the dream v
Thoughts & Ponderings
How can you give your heart to somebody and then turn around and have it smashed to bits and yet still fall for every line that they tell you ? How can the one person that swore to never break your heart is the one that breaks it and yet you still fall for everything they tell you ? How can somebody tell you everything that they fear will go wrong and you the same to them and yet they hide things from you and you fall for every line they tell you ? How can your heart pick it's self back up and get back together again when you fall for the same line again ? MY TEARS......YOUR FAULT !!!!!!! Once I was just like every other girl out there that dreamed of having that one special man in my life that would never lie to me never cheat on me never hurt me never make me cry. I thought I had that man after many years of trying to him with no luck and only finding the losers that got drawn to me time and again. I opened my heart up to this man and gave him everything I had an
I gaze out of the window, a leaf tumbles its way down the gutter unhindered on the late summer breeze. Sun contrast to the shadow within the cool buzzing atmosphere. My mind wanders the thin sheet of glass a fragile prison separating desire from reality. The hum alters pitch distracting me from my revere. I turn the cadence registering demanding a response. I nod an affirmative seeking a return fantasy's release from the mundane. The monotone changes I focus for a moment disdain registered. I realize my affirmation is in error out of balance I hastily tack to the contrary which seems to restore the resonance back to normal harmonics. I pause a brief moment only to satisfy etiquette before returning my gaze to the passing world that holds so much allure filled with the possible the potential. I see only one that fill my heart with song in everything that holds beauty……..
Thoughts And Quotes
Thought For Today..
ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders. - Jewish Proverb Sometimes the only way you can take a really good look at yourself is through somebody else's eyes.. You don`t drown by falling in water. You drown by staying there. - Robert Allen
Thought Of The Day
If you have the same candy bar everyday. At first you love it and enjoy every bit of it .everyday and years go by . Then you go to a new big candy store. It has so many differ kinds of candy bars . But you do not want to betray the old candy bar. You see a new candy bar and it looks so good . But you are to scared to try it. So you try it to in enjoy every bit . If you try it you may like it more then the old one. What do you do just enjoy it from afar? Or try a piece of it . Or do you stay with the same old candy bar. Why is when you give someone everything your heart, body and soul. They do not give it back . They walk all over you. What ever you do is never good for them and you work you ass trying to make it work. They act one way when other are around and another when you are a alone. They are not like when you fell in love them. What if you are seeing the people in differ eyes . They say thing that hurt and it not funny but to them. But you do not say thing that hurt or t
While you SCREAM at your woman, there is a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear..While you HUMILATE, OFFEND, and INSULT her, there is a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is...While you HURT your woman there is a man wishing he could make love to her...While you make your woman CRY, there is a man stealing smiles from her.. "A woman is like a rose, treat her well and she will bloom, treat her badly and she will wither." Anybody agree???
Thoughts & Memories
Arlene Beckham Joura what can I say? The passing of you was a very sad day. You are gone & not in pain. Still the tears flow like rain. Forget you never, always love. Now our protector from above. Your touch, your smell, your gentle kiss. Your singing will be greatly missed. No more yoddles or burnt popcorn. Everything about you we will mourn. A mother, a grandmother, a mor-mor you are. Now to that list our shiny bright star. Love and miss you!! RIP... 2.2.10 muah!!!
Thought This Was A Great Bully
Thoughts Of Her
I was thinking, and I find it rather ironic that you got insanely mad at me for recording a tv show on a tape for an ex g/f of mine. Knowing that I never even seen her when she dropped the tape off. (her daughter brought it to the door and dropped it off). But yet its ok for you to have many (and I mean allot!!) "guy friends" on different sites, giving your number out to them, talking to them online, and phone... Giving some directions to your house, or sending them "private pix" of your self via yahoo or email. The most ironic thing is your current b/f... He started off as one of your "friends"... You going there to his shop "reading to him" for whatever reason you gave me. Some test or something I guess.. That comment still rings out loud in my mind that you wanted to end our relationship, but were scared to say anything to me....Oh wait you were "loosing your mind"...I forgot... Its just ironic... Baffles my mind really still to this day... The fact that you were "So in LOV
It's amazing how time really does change things, and thankfully it's usually for the better. It allows all time to grow and think. i for one am so very very thankful that time was on my side in regards to certain recent things in my life. Making it so someone from my past and i have been able to once again get closer and share things like we used to. "Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived."
Thoughts That Very Few Understand....
I believe that people argue just to make themselves feel better. I believe that it is not necessary to love yourself before you love another. I believe that everyone can do better. I believe that a beautiful mind is more important than a beautiful body. I believe that some people are simply meant to be alone. I believe in Jeffism (you'll have to ask or read later). I believe broken hearts are more common than happiness. I believe that world peace can be achieved. I believe people can learn to accept almost anything. I believe that trust is a more precious commodity than gasoline. I believe forgiveness is not always possible. I believe that marriage is an outdated institution. I believe that God has turned his back on us. These aren't lyrics, just thoughts. ;) I believe the sun should never set upon an argument. I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands. I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you. I believe your parents did the best
Thoughts Of Danielle
Thought For The Day!
The Pastor's Ass The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again. The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT. The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race. The next day, the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS. This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent. The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline the next day: NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN. The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10. The next day the paper read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10. This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild! The
He just turned 18 he graduated high school this past may.I lost touch with him being I was going thru things over the summer. I learned yesterday when he called that right now he is in basic training for the Marines. When asked if I am proud I told him I wish I could reach thru and smack him. I am proud but I am afraid. The only two men who ever made a difference in my life I lost because they were Marines. Now the only thing running thru my mind is how to deal with the fact my favorite nephew is gonna be a marine.
Thoughts Of A Restless Mind.
Meh, just sitting here bored basically. I'm new to Fubar, don't really know much about it all to be honest but it's checkin' out to be a pretty cool place to waste time. Well I've decided to pretty much start my first blog off about my future. A lot of people tell me constantly, "Hollywood will eat you alive!" Well, that's probably true. I come from a small town (roughly 30,000) in Oklahoma and I haven't an ounce of experience besides my own little projects that are more just experiments. But before I get off topic, my only dream since before I can even remember, has been to go to Hollywood and prove all the naysayers wrong. Easier said that done I'm sure, but that's been the plan. Writing has been and always will be my biggest passion. I've written many screenplays (mostly shorts) and am trying to ink out the big feature length. But acting is the real reason I want to go to Hollywood. I've never been the "life-of-the-party" kinda guy, but it's something I'm trying to
Thoughts...   Link to the article about the kids getting hit today :(  I've waited to see what would happen after giving over 5 million fubux in 2 weeks of my own before I wrote about how I feel. The ones with Auto 11's.I have waited for the love back. You know who you are, yet do you come back and return it??? NO! You asked me to help and did I?? Yes!! Because thats how I am! I am a good person and I return the love. Or give it! To those who I have donated to!Over 5 million I might say again! Shame on you for not thanking me, blinging me or even showing me any kind of love. I reposted your bullies. I've blinged you when I only had a few, Iv'e pimped your asses when I had more deserving that needed it. The birthday spotlight ones, the I made it to godfather and its my birthday, I would love the spot light, the I am military and deserve it ones. The ones who drop your please repost and if you can leave me love on
Thoughts From The Padded Room
PLEASE HELP ME OUT Listen people... Let's be honest here for a minute. I am not, for whatever reason, the most liked individual on this website... and I've come to terms with that, however, it's about time I find out who my TRUE friends are here. I am trying to go for a SPOTLIGHT and I need all the help I can get. I need my friends to band together and help me out. I would really appreciate any and all help you could give me. I'm not asking for much here. I'm just asking for you dig a little bit into your fu-wallets and lend a hand... Use FUPAL and give me whatever you can spare. In return, I'll help YOU out with rates or whatever. Please help me show that even the fu-hated, can make it! Thank you in advance. Please repost this. CLICK BELOW TO VISIT MY PROFILE IF YOU ARE WILLING TO HELP. ☥DJ ÃZ®Ï€£™@ fubar i have lost sight of what is really important to me the ppl that are good to me...i lost myself in trying to be fu-famous and it ate at me
I find myself dweling on the past Where I was, who I was with, and what I had Many thoughts retrace back to you And why we ended this way Where did we start to go wrong? Where did I start falling out of love? I don't blame myself I don't wonder what I did wrong I know that I gave all I had possible A fire lit inside me From the day I met you I longed to have you And I willingly gave myself to you Thou I also took it away Thought you were mine Thought you understood How much love I possessed For you and our child All the lies and stories The rumors and trouble I was real with you Honest; faithful; ride or die Its only right to expect it in return My faith was lost My purity taken My morals; gone My heart broken I just couldnt accept it any longer Revenge was never my agenda I dont get down like that No games; no disputes Not angry; just hopeless I slowly slipped away Slowly left my love Left my hopes and dreams Of you and I; together You dispise me
Thought Of The Day
Thoughts In My Mind
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN WITH THAT ONE PERSON WHO YOU KNEW YOU LOVED SO MUCH THAT IT WAS HARD TO TRY AND FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TO EXPLAIN HOW YOU REALLY FELT ABOUT THEM AND THEN THEY JUST WALKED OUT AND LEFT YOU STANDING THERE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT AWAY TO PICK UP THE SHATTERED PIECES OF WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS A PERFECT LOVING RELATIONSHIP? HAVE YOU EVER ENDED UP SO BROKEN HEARTED THAT EVERYTIME YOUR EYES SHEAD A TEAR IT DIDN'T EVEN EFFECT YOU? WHAT DID YOU DO TO RELIEVE THE PAIN?? COMMENT ME hey all i know that since i'm now offically staff in HipHopz that i needed to fix my yim so i id is similar to my fubar id it's and my fubar id is 2178004 user name RoxStar see how close they are lol Have you ever had to sit back and try to let something go that you didn't know how exactly to let go of? Next time you have to let something go and it seems hard just keep one thing in mind to help you through the change... "IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE LET
276 QUESTIONS TO ASK BEFORE YOU MARRY WORK 1. Are you working on your chosen field? 2. How many hours a week do you work? 3. What does your job entail? (For example, do you often travel for business, work at home, performs dangerous tasks?) 4. What is your dream job? 5. Have you ever been called a workaholic? 6. What is your retirement plan? What do you plan to do when you stop working? 7. Have you ever been fired? 8. Have you ever quit a job suddenly? Have you changed jobs a lot? 9. Do you consider your work a career or just a job? 10. Has your work ever been a factor in the breakup of a relationship? HOME 11. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? 12. Do you prefer urban, suburban, or rural settings? 13. Is it important to have your own private home, or do you prefer apartment or condo living, with a management company responsible for the maintenance? Are you a do-it yourselfer, or would you rather hire professionals? Do you prefer to clean your ow
A Thousand More Words
I want to see my heart beating right beside your rib cage and vice versa so that when one of us cries The other one will automatically feel the pain and know why And then wipes each others tears from our eyes A mirror would be perfect right I mean one with your picture engraved in it So that when I look at it I see the images Of you in me and me and you And if I have company they could look in the mirror so they will see our picture book This is how tight I want us to be Because it is how much you mean to me And with you in me at a little moment in time lets me know that my life will be all right I must let every one know the importance and meaning of you in my life But the only problem is I would stand in front of it at all times to see you and me blended together I guess happiness does last forever I hope to make you my love poem for other people to read Because it will be the only way they will find out and see That my purpose in life is to shower you with me Bu
This is not merely nuclear fusion. The usual scientific terms do not apply. It is ... imagining matter into existence by the power of the will. And beacuse we have been given thought, will, and imagination, albeit on a human scale, we too have this power to create. Once in a while, however, there are moments for which the burden seems worth carrying: moments of transcendent joy, of inexpressible beauty, of wonder that overwhelms the mind with awe, or in this case a moment of such piercing charm that the world seems more right than it really is and offers a glimpse of what Eden might have been before we pulled it down... They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them. Have you ever met someone unexpected that just totally catches you off guard? Makes you think about what you're doing and why you're doing it even though that person hasn't said a word about what you're doing? Sometimes someone comes
Thoughts And Poems
Im just me and thats all I can beNo 2nd guessI laugh...I love...I live...I cryand some times I wish I would dieSome days Im funnyothers Im notSome times Im in overdriveand I cant stopYou may not like me...but thats okThis is me...and this is how I'll stay. MY UNCLE ROGERS OBITUARY FROM TODAY'S PAPER..... Roger "Santa Claus" Smith Born Feb. 6, 1953; passed away Dec. 13, 2008. Roger will be greatly missed by his family and friends. He is survived by his wife, Karen; children, Michelle (Troy) Bonfils-Thibeault, Douglas (Victoria) Smith Jr. and Summer (Josh) Smith. He is also survived by four grandchildren, Arrianna, Morgan, Samira, Draven and Blaze. Wednesday, December 17, 2008 2:38 AM MST I THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN HELPING ME DEAL WITH THIS DIFFICULT TIME. I WAS VERY CLOSE TO MY UNCLE, AS HE WAS LIKE A FATHER TO ME. YES MY STATUS HAS REFLECTED THAT MY HEART HURTS UNBEARABLY BECAUSE IT DOES AND PROBABLY WILL FOR AWHILE. I WAS SITTING RIGHT NEX
Thought Of The Day!~~~~~~~
I read this somewhere, not mine, but appreciate and hope to attain this sense of awareness ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You believe you are your thoughts.And so you identify yourself as the culmination of your entire past in memory. Your identification is linear. One thought connects to another and another stretching all the way back in time. This is who you believe you are. So in every moment you carry the burden of your entire past. In this, it is impossible to be present because you associate every moment with your memory and use this association to anticipate the future. But the idea that you exist as memory is a false presumption. If you are willing to let go of the idea that you are your past and be fully present in this moment,you would experience yourself completely new. Born again freshin every moment. A thought arises all on it's own without any relation to another thought and burns away as fast as it comes. No thought connected with another. No m
Thoughts And Stuff
You Didn't See Me I saw you hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant. But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But you didn't see me driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But you didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But you didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and
some people are so fucking selfish it makes me sick. how can u only care about urself and nothing around you. how can u put down the only thing u have and throw away everything. let alone shit on the only thing in ur life that dosnt deserve it. i cant even being to understand how some selfish fucking people can forget everthing besides what is in their face. be fucking mad about the problems in your life. dont spread ur hate onto those who should never feel it. im not saying walk on egg shells but get a grasp on the reality of which u live in. realise your purpose and live it. if you can stand alone dont knock down the only stability u have. the only one thing that will pick you up. realize what the fuck you have til u fall... xoxo
Thought This Was Funny!!!!!!!
Thought For The Day
To surround yourself with love does not mean surrounding yourself with loving people. Fill your heart with kindness and love first. Those who are able to recognize that will be drawn to you, just as you are to them. Our friends are only a mirror reflection of who we are. Everything needs to start from within us, as individuals. What do you see in your mirror? ~My own words~ They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world; Someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for. ~Tom Bodett~ No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. ~Eleanor Roosevelt~ When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl~ Hello Friends I just figured I would write a blog in an effort to "catch up" a bit. This week has been incredulous!! Monday I worked a normal 8.5 hour day for the last time at our old store. Tuesday was an 11 hour work day spent packing up our entire store, load
IF A MAN WANTS YOU, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of frie
The Though Of Other Beings Contacting Us
sands of time slipping slowly away falling gently to the bottom of the glass while fate and destiny do battle for control of your soul in there cruel dance of life bringing uncertainty of what the future holds or tomorrow will bring happyness sadness whos to say all you can do is live for today never sure where you stand in this world never sure which way to turn
A Thoughtful Look At Ourselves
Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.    End of "Balloons" From Mark  2/23/2008   A friend of mine opened his wife's underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package:"This, - he said - isn't any ordinary package."He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box."She got this the first time we went to  New York, 8 or 9 years ago. She has never put it on, was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is it." He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothing he was taking to the funeral house.
Thoughts Of A Stacked Southern Gal
Why is it that a man finds it hard to look at a womans eyes and not her chest when he speakes to her? Is there anyone who can answer that for me?
Thoughts For This Day
As I sit thinking of and waiting for you Goes thru my mind, the last few months, Ive been thru. Your love for me I do not doubt Tho thru hell i went, you without My mind it wonders everyday How you could leave me to wait this way I have nothing but love and hope But on my own everyday I cope How much longer are you gonna leave me there With hope of you lingering in the air. My mind is strong my heart is pure My hope is dieing with you the cure YOu said you never wanted to make me cry Then I hear "Im still not coming I love you, Goodbye" I love you and my patience is not yet gone Tho I wonder how long you will have this go on The hope is dieing slowly to gone As I sit reading your words wondering why im still alone The sorrow closing in from every corner to me bound From the shadows hearing the hum of sorrows sound Your cold words they pierce my soul like a knife bringing to me heartache and strife Your coldness it lingers wi
Thought Of The Day
i have known this woman since i was now 45 and even though her daughter and i have parted ways i never stopped loving this woman...she was a great person.....she gave my son a home when he chose not to move with us...and through her illness my son has become a man and stepped up and took care of both his very proud of him...miriam was a lady very set on her ways....she had sponk...she was very opionated but thats what gave her her unique prospective on life itself..she always had a way to make me with her passing my heart cries for the void thats left in all our hearts.....Miriam thank you for being there for our son and giving her the love that groomed him into the man he has become i was told by my wife of 22 years that she was no longer in love with me...its very hard to face that when you are still in love...but it is what it is...and because of todays economy neither one of us have the resources to start now im here at a home that n
Thought In Words
So yeah whats the hardest things about Love, Life and everything. To me forgetting those I've known and I mean not just girls. I was army brat for the first 10 years of my life so there not many I remember from then. But the people I knew in Colorado that I dont even talk to anymore and those that I do its so different Now. I do so miss the times I shared with those that I loved the memories are still fresh in my head they haunt me to the point of insanity. Maybe thats one of the things thats wrong with me now. Not being able to just forget. As much as I miss those days I sometimes am in so much pain. The loneliness is unbearable. I trust no one any more. I try so hard to go on but there seems to be not light at the end of the tunnel. This tunnel called life. I look at everyone I knew and they seem happy but this will be continued I hide myself and theres no one I care to talk to. Theres only you. I anxiously await the day till I see you again. I try to keep myself distan
Thought For Today
The Eight of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in space. I am true to myself and will only regret the chances I don't take to seek or follow my hearts desire. I turn away from or make a clean sweep of that which does not honor or sustain my passion and love, and in this, I am not afraid to be alone. I am empowered to move forward or make space and my gift is letting go. Truth is full of ups and downs..highs and lows...just love every part of it. Choose to be happy. Make your own destiny never regret...Love you all. Truly.... B
as i sit here and think about everything that has happened in my life over thepast few weeks i find myself wandering around in my thoughts and i feel so lost. i feel like part of me is gone and i feel so alone. I know im not actually alone as i do have my lil girl whom i thank god for everyday cause i have no idea where i would be at the moment. (prolly going crazy coming home to and empty house everyday after work and talking to myself, lol.) i did have one other very important person in my life but we are no longer together. I do understand why he did what he did and we did decide to remain friends (which isn't me normally i normally shut them out of my life and open a new chapter so to speak). I was doing really well then tonight while chatting with friends and listening to music a song comes on that made me lose it and i started balling all over again. I thought i knew what heart break was like when my daughters father walked out boy was i wrong. After so many fail relationships i
When you care for someone, you let them into your heart. When you love them, your heart can feel what they feel. When they are happy, you feel joy. When they are afraid, you are scared. When they feel pain, your heart aches. What even hurts more, is when you feel that the person you care about so deeply about, has put up a wall because they are scared. Scared of the unknown and the fear of having their heart hurt again. Faith. Faith in him and his love for me. The same faith he put in me months ago.
Thoughts Of You
I woke up this morning to these thoughts of you, If my sky were grey you would turn it blue, Thoughts about your smile your beautiful hair your unique style, Thoughts about the miles laundry sitting there in piles To have my words uncensored and the distance for instance, Thoughts about how it all seems to much to bare I want you here to share.. the pillow the covers the ice cream the cone, Just wishing you were here or even on the phone, You have my telephone number if you ever feel alone !
Thoughts Of The Day
Thoughts About The Election
Thoughts About the 2008 Election Commentary By: Dr. David Reagan Our nation has just elected the most pro-abortion, pro-homosexual, anti-Capitalist, and anti-Israel president in our history. In short, God has given us the kind of leader that we deserve — the kind we have been begging for. The new President now has the power to put his radical secular imprint upon this nation for decades to come through the appointment of activist liberals to the Supreme Court. I fear that our nation has been irrevocably changed for the worse. Two factors in this election were particularly disappointing to me. First was the fact that only 59% of eligible voters bothered to vote. That was less than in the last presidential election. How could people be so apathetic in an election so important? The second voting statistic that hit me hard was the revelation that even among self-identified Evangelicals, the majority voted according to economic considerations rather than m
Thoughts & Footnotes
Hi Fu Fam and Friends,   I really wasn't  looking forward to writting a blog and of all blogs especially this one which crushes my heart. I'm not sure who all is aware about one of our very own Mike Hardway who past away early this morning in his sleep due to a seizure.   Apparently he has suffered them many times before but this one would not allow him  to wake up :(      Here is information for anyone who would like to send sympathy cards or flowers to the family   His sister's address (The last couple of months he stayed with her) Mrs. Dee Dee McCracken  231 Lighthouse View Drive  Stevensville, MD  21666 The funeral home where the service will take place (some time next week , details still pending) Fellows Healthbine Funeral Home Kent Island  106 Shamrock Road, Chester MD  21619   ~While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil~  John Taylor   R.I.P Mike     Feb 16, 1957 ~August 20, 2011   One of my good friends f
Alright now!! Wont you listen? When I first met you, didnt realize I cant forget you, for your suprize You introduced me, to my mind And left me wanting, you and your kind I love you, oh you know it My life was empty forever on a down Until you took me, showed me around My life is free now, my life is clear I love you sweet leaf, though you cant hear Come on now, try it out Straight people dont know, what your about They put you down and shut you out You gave to me a new belief And soon the world will love you sweet leaf I’m an axe grinder, pile driver Mama says that I never, never mind her Got no brains, I'm insane The teacher says that I'm one big pain I'm like a lazer, six string razor I've got a mouth like an alligator I want it louder, more power I'm gonna rock it till it strikes the hour Bang your head Metal health will drive you mad Bang your head Metal health will drive you mad I'm frustrated and out-dated I really wanna be over-rated
Top Ten Predictions For 2009 1. The Bible will still have all the answers. 2. Prayer will still work. 3. The Holy Spirit will still move. 4. God will still inhabit the praises of His people. 5. There will still be God-anointed preaching. 6. There will still be singing of praise to God. 7. God will still pour out blessings upon His people. 8. There will still be room at the Cross 9. Jesus will still love you. 10. Jesus will still save the lost. God whispers in your soul and speaks to your mind. Sometimes when you don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at you. It's your choice: Listen to the whisper, or wait for the brick. ~~unknown Christmas Magic The holly’s hung The lights are strung. I’d breathe if I had time. There’re gifts to buy The time is nigh Soon I won’t have a dime. I’m in a spin Here I go again I begin to really panic. So much to do I come unglued The pace just makes me manic! Then…. “Peace, My Child, be
~thoughts Inspired By Coffee ~
I own everything about ME, my body, including everything it does. All it's thoughts and ideas; my eyes, including the images of all they behold. My feelings, whatever they may be, anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement. My mouth, and all the words that comes out of it, polite, sweet, correct, incorrect or rough. My voice, loud or soft, and all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself. In this world there is no one else like me. There are persons that have the same parts as me, but no one adds up exactly like me. Therefore everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone chose it. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own me. I can become intimately acquainted with me. By doing, I can love me and be friendly with me in all parts. I can make it possible for all me to work in my best interest. I know there is no aspect about me that p
If I knew it would be the last time, that I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the lord your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last time, that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and a kiss and call you back for just one more. If I knew it would be the last time, I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would tape each word and action and play them back throught my days. If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two to stop and say "I Love You" instead of assuming you know I do. So just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get, I'd like to say how much I love you, and hope we never will forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, Young or old alike, and today may be the last chance, you get to hold your loved one tight. So if your waiting for tomorrow, Why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day, that you didn't take that extra time, for a smile, a hug or a k
Thought It Was Cute
Put "yes" "maybe" or "no" and answer me back be honest!! Kiss me: Hug me: Date me: Get tipsy with me: Kill me: Love me: Hate me: Hold me: Lie to me: Hurt me: Sing with me: Dance with me: Grind with me: Touch me: Lick me: Fuck Me: Cuddle with me: Let me make a move on you: Make a move on me: Play with me: Watch a movie with me: Get me a B-day gift: Caress me: Let me borrow your car: Let me see you naked: Be there for me: Buy me a drink: Take a shower with me: Bring me around your friends: Give me a massage: Take me to the club: Go to sleep with me: Do me: Drink kool-aid with me: Look if i was naked: Take advantage of me: Let me take advantage of u: Hangout with me: Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good: Hold hands with me: Do something incredibly sweet for me: Give me a lap dance: Tell me you love me: Let me call you: Get drunk with me: What would you do if you woke up next to me ? BORROWED FROM DRMAMI0031
you know what i hate the very most.... stupid ass women that are never happy or content with what they have always looking for something "better" take my might as well be exwife for instance.... she chose to go out and screw some OLD ASS BEAT UP looking POS and then stole my son on his birthday while my back was turned... now she ran out of state with this guy taking the kids (which didnt even get a decent christmas cause shes a MOOCH) i mean with me she had love and respect... guess that wasnt good enough... though it seems thats never good enough for most women theres always something more they want or as they put it "need" seriously what does money have to do with relationships? i cant say that ALL women are like this but seems that a lot are and its not only women who are like that i will admit that guys are like that too but in this instance im focusing on women (now can they really be called women or just girls?) its really really frustrating that all most women seem to be mo
Thoughts From The Corner Of My Mind :)
Ya know when people think of Tupac they usually think of a rapper, a thug, someone from the streets. He was more than that. I feel that what he believed in during his lifetime can be used for many generations to come! Lately I've been thinking too hard about numerous things but I feel when i turn to these poems, they put me at ease. So here are a few that I like hope whoever read this like them too! "Jada" u r the omega of my heart the foundation of my conception of love when i think of what a black woman should be its u that i first think of u will never fully understand how deeply my heart feels 4 u i worry that we'll grow apart and i'll end up losing u u bring me 2 climax without sex and u do it all with regal grace u r my heart in human form a friend i could never replace "In the Depths of Solitude" i exist in the depths of solitude pondering my true goal trying 2 find peace of mind and still preserve my soul constantly yearning 2 be accepted and fro
It is funny how you can have lots and be around lots of people and still feel empty and lonely.. I have a child and a man but feel like I am laking.. I feel alone in this world and it hurts me and scares me. Men have used and abused me.. Women just treat me like a piece of shit. I want people to see past my outside and see the inner me for a change.. Is it wrong to be sensative? Is it wrong to care? I just don't understand but don't want to feel epmty anymore..
Thoughts On Life
"To those who see with loving eyes, life is beautiful. To those who speak with tender voices, life is peaceful. To those who help with gentle hands, life is full. And to those who care with compassionate hearts, life is good beyond all measure." "In every important way we are such secrets from one another, and I do believe that there is a seperate language in each of us, also a separate aesthetics and a separate jurisprudence. Every single one of us is a little civilization built on the ruins of any number of preceding civilizations, but with our own variant notions of what is beautiful and what is acceptable - which, I hasten to add, we generally do not satisfy and by which we struggle to live. We take fortuitous resemblances among us to be actual likeness, because those around us have also fallen heir to the same customs, trade in the same coin, acknowledge, more or less, the same notions of decency and sanity. But all that really just allows us to coexist with the inviolable, intrav
"thoughts Of Prettybaby"
You know I come on this site and I have met some wonderful People who have a caring heart and they are always there for you to give you strengths to help you make it through the day and to bring that smile and glow back into you eyes,When you feel that you are losing your hope, I believe there are angels among us, I call them my friends, their, there always to comfort me in my time of need.Give back my hope and assure me everything will be ok..I am so blessed to have friends like this and My heart loves you. Cause see right now I am an angel, There is no guarantee for me of tomorrow, But today I am so thankful for what I have, My Friends, My Family. It's all the simple things believe me.. "Make Me Whole" Darling I want you to listen I stayed up all night, so I can get this thing right And I don't think there's anything missing Cause a person like you, made it easy to do I've waited for so long, to sing to you this song Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Thoughts Of An Irish Woman
These past few weeks have proven to be confusing to me. I'll explain it this way, when I am sick, I sleep...I stay asleep for however long it takes for my body to recover. When I finally get the energy to even mess with my computer, I find out that I was dumped for supposedly flirting or cybering with someone when I haven't even logged onto my account since sometime late last week. I have now had my opinion proven to myself, some BOYS pretend to be MEN....if you don't have the balls to tell me why your breaking up with me, then you have no honor, no respect, and you'll never be a man. Maybe the shit everyone said about you wasn't just bullshit, maybe they were trying to warn me... All I ever asked was love, devotion, and respect...yet those seem to be the hardest things to come by in modern society.. This year is going to be very interesting. 2008 sucked so much donkey dick I thought I was going to suffocate. This year I plan on getting the fuck out of oklahoma once and for all. I hav
A Thought, A Wish, A Prayer! Give Them Five Minutes Of Your Time.
Thoughts From A Neurotic Woman!
So, the time has come when life is uncomplicated. At the age of 34, one would THINK that you would know who you are, what you are and where you want to go. The thing is, I have reconnected with old friends and old "friends" from HS and I have discovered that the perception people had of me was WAY off, and while flattering (Thx Becca), it was so far from the truth that I found it comical. Apparently I was much better at pretending then even I or the Academy knew...:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /> So, here's a little background....I fell "in love" my Freshman year. Now, as a mom I have serious doubts how real this was, but I know what it meant to me up until said male decided some life altering things that shattered my world one day in 1993. Such is life! Then there were guys I "dated". Guys I drooled over. Guys I wanted. Guys I knew better then to be anywhere near ALONE (coughtonycough). and then there was a guy who never knew I wanted
Thoughts Via Music
Yeah..Uh In the name of Jesus (that's right) No weapon formed against me shall prosper (preach) And every tongue that shall rise against me in judgment thou shalt condemn (preach) (Lord give me a sign) For this is the heritage of the servants of the Lord (preach) And their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord. (preach) Amen [Verse 1] Lord Give me a Sign! I really need to talk to you Lord Since the last time we talked the work has been hard Now I know you haven't left me But I feel like I'm alone I'm a big boy now but I'm still not grown And I'm still going through it Pain and the hurt Soaking up trouble like rain in the dirt And I know! Only I can stop the rain Wit just the mention of my saviors name IN THE NAME OF JESUS! Devil I rebuke you for what I go through And trying make me do what I used to But all that stops right here As long as the Lords in my life I will have no fear I will know no pain from the light to the dark I will show no shame spit
Thoughts Of You
I was thinking about you today and I do that a lot it seems. You're always in my heart by day, at night you drift into my dreams. I cannot shake these feelings for you, but then I'd never had a desire to. The blessing of our love and friendship, is something I want to share with you. I want to feel you near me, when you're so far away. I hope you feel me in your heart, as you travel your path today. Footprints in the sands of time, walking closer towards each other. Holding hands and sharing love, which will not be meant for another. These are some of the memories, that come with thoughts of you. These feelings are from my very heart, and something you can hold as true.
i have been in a lot of mental turmoil.lost and just havnt found who i am or who anyone else "friends" are seemingly just not around.i cant trust anyone and the ones i trust i cant seem to trust.i dont know why i am this way.i lose myself into darkness.i see people who are happy,while i am unhappy and very lonely.i ahve tried all everything to get happy yet i fail hopelessly most of the time.i care for all my friends online and in reality,yet happiness is just always out of reach.i do not know where i am going or who i am gonna meet on the way.maybe i will meet you and it could change me or my outlook but no one knows for sure what tomorow brings or if we will make it through tomorow.
Sometimes I wonder why I exist in this world. More often than you can imagine. I wonder if I will ever meet that one person that I can give my everything to, give every fiber of my being to, and all of my love. I have put myself out onto the table for the taking and have been stripped down to nothing. I had a wonderful woman in my life but I was too immature to notice and I took advantage of her. Now that I don’t have her I cannot live without her. She doesn’t want to have anything to do with me she seems almost repulsive of my actions. I would do anything in the world to have her back, but she will not take me back she has found a new man and it hurts me to say that I’m happy for her when I truly just want to be with her for the rest of my life. But I cannot be the one to keep her from her dreams and I cannot keep her from happiness. I will not keep her from happiness. On the other hand I have moved on in life I have tried to move forward but any time I try to get close to someone els
Thought And Whats Goinging On
6 days to go Well its getting close now, I have 6 days of training left here in Lewiston Id after today woo hoo. I was setting here playing a game and listening to the music I have on the laptop and the song "My Wish" by Rascal Flats started playing and got me thinking how true the words of that song are. For those of my friends that have never heard the song or just set and listened to the word, you should. It sums up my wish for all my friends and family here on MySpace. I may have more news other then the the training here in Lewiston. If anyone just can't wait to find out whats the news is and you have me on yahoo hit me up and i will bring ya up to date other wise stay tuned same bat time same bat channel LMAO Well I got to Lewiston ID on the 2nd of December and will be here until the 23rd of December for training. I have to admit I thought Kingsport was a slow town that is until I got here. since I have been here I have learned a lot but I can't wait until I'm done and c
Thoughts... & Sweet Dreams
Thoughts On Love
I am setting here wondering about my ex( the girls mother) I am thinking to myself why did she do the things she done to these beautiful little girls. I mean sure hurt me and leave me with the pain but leave my girls with emotional hurt and desires to be with their mom is another thing. I am also thinking about the one I have to let go. I used to be in love with you but you just don't know what happen to my love for you. I know you think I am the worse person on the planet for the tricks and the mind games that I have done, But you don't know the real person inside. I was dying of a emotional heart ache when you came into my life. I was looking for a true friend and a true love and you had it all until I found out that you was in it for the good times. I know now that love is out there for me and I need to move on for the best love of my life. I wish you would understand what you did to me by making me jealous, and ripping my heart apart. I will no longer call you or write you or maybe
Thoughts In My Head...
A Shotgun and A Single Shell. Thats all i need to end all the pain and confusion. Thats all i need to get these thoughts out of my head. Thats all i need to make the ones i love feel like they have a shot at happiness. A shotgun and a single shell. Thats all it will take to finally spill all these words i've wanted to say for so long but just didn't know how. All the things i needed to say but didn't. All the apologies i should have given you. All the things i've done and seen in my life that i just didn't think you were interested in hearing. All the things i've done wrong and the few i've done right. A shotgun and a single shell. Thats all i need to be able to spill all the right words. But When you finally see the words would you take the time to make sense of them all? Or would you just keep walking and trample them under your feet.... Someday I'll make everything ok, someday you will have all the things you deserve to have and there will be no one to hold you bac
"He took this from me as if it was nothing and threw it in my face as if it was everything... " The final words of a paragraph ended. She's seen the true side of who she befriended Souless and empty, alone with regret The devil is always who youd least expect A wing dipped in blood and a smile for deceiving. Eyes of false promise and a tongue of misbelieving. Was it taken from her or as easily given? Could she be so jaded of the life she is living? Perhaps all is not lost, some hope may be left. A way to undo this unjustified theft. Maybe a god that cares and can answer the plea Of an angel thats fallen, begging to be set free. The most intriguing butterfly in the world did land, Upon the open palm of an undeserving hand. Captivated I could not help but smile. Calm and serene if only for a little while. In all this darkness her light did shine. An image I will save for the rest of my time. And as quickly as she came, she flew off to wander. A part of my life she
Thoughts Of A Mad Man
to any and every one that may read this. for some reason or another i have not been quite my self. i dont know why or what caused it. if i am not on for a while, it is either because i do not have internet access or i am doing some deep thinking. Ven! Pick that up, boy! Pitbull! Casely! I know you see me in your dreams (My mind's playin' tricks on me) I know you see me in your dreams (My mind's playin' tricks on me) I know you see me in your dreams (My mind's playin' tricks on me) I know you see me in your dreams That's why In the middle of the night In the middle of the night In the middle of the night You think about me In the middle of the night In the middle of the night In the middle of the night Don't try to fight it In the middle of the night In the middle of the night In the middle of the night Don't try to hide it In the middle of the night In the middle of the night In the middle of the night You think about me, girl Yo me siento caliente Tu
Thoughts ...
The next time you hear a politician use the Word 'billion' in a casual manner, think about Whether you want the 'politicians' spending YOUR tax money.A billion is a difficult number to comprehend,But one advertising agency did a good job of Putting that figure into some perspective inOne of it's releases. A.A billion seconds ago it was 1959. B.A billion minutes ago Jesus was alive. C.A billion hours ago our ancestors were Living in the Stone Age. D.A billion days ago no-one walked on the earth on two feet. E. A billion dollars ago was only 8 hours and 20 minutes, At the rate our governmentIs spending it. While this thought is still fresh in our brain...let's take a look at New Orleans  ...It's amazing what you can learn with some simple division.Louisiana Senator,Mary Landrieu (D) Is presently asking Congress for 250 BILLION DOLLARSTo rebuild New Orleans .  Interesting number... What does it mean? A.Well .. If you are one of the 484,674 residents of New Orleans    (every
A Thought Of You
My kind of music, My favorite song, I want to be with you All day & all night long... A spring breeze, A summer sun, Now that I know you You are my one... A winter sparkle, An autumn tree, Added all up It equals you & me... My best friend, My only lover, From here on out I'll keep you forever... A good laugh, With some happy tears, You're the one I go to Through all the coming years... When it rains it rains, When it snows it snows, I wrote this specially for you & you're the only one who knows... You keep me warm, When I'm so cold, As if my heart were for sale To you it was sold... Whether playing our favorite games, Or to music we sing & listen, When it comes to you There's just no competition... Not the best cut diamonds, Or the reddest rose, Could ever amount to When you hold me close... & when everything is said & done, The night is over & we've had our fun, Out of all the men I choose just one, The best one of all & that's
Thoughts- Things To Do!
Let anyone listening, let all the angels hear, let God himself percieve the depth of my anguish, and give her health. Let every saint and every cherub, every archangel unite in this endevour. and If not then oh dark lucifer take whats left of my soul in return for her very exsistance, let your demons do their worst to me for all eternity for no hell can compare to a world without her in it. There is no redemption save from her lips there is no peace in my world, there would only be cold and dark. and so I beseach what ever immortals would listen, would bargain, would find worth in all that I have, all that I am, all that I will ever be. Give her peace, give her health carry her through this, for she will not allow me to be there to carry her and I scream against the night that is my life to do so. I would do anything endure anything for that laugh when she has every reason to cry for that smile steadfast no matter what life has thrown at her for just the fact that shes the first
laying on her back on the cold wet grass her face towards to sky feeling the breeze,ever so slightly glide across her face she slowly opens her eyes to see the blue sky the white clouds and the sun shinen bright she starts to gaze at the sky her thoughts in her head start to dance,like children playing and they start to come clearer i am a mother a wife a sister a daughter a friend a lover a fighter and im 28 28, and in mother hood wishes she could start it over a wife to a man that doesn't even know that she is alive unless hes has no dinner ready or clean clothes a sister to a soldier who gives her life for us to be the way we want to be,Free a daughter to the best parents in the world,couldn't ask for more right?! a friend, who if u needed it would give you everything she could offer to u a lover,to a person that doesn't even love her back,doesn't feel the same passion as she does, doesn't even want her,feels alone a fighter,
no matter how i try i can never get away, it is always here no matter the time, However you want to put it, I am dieing inside myself, knowing always of being alone, forever hated for my loveless life, Will the shadows be my home, or shall they remain my tomb, where i lay dieing inside. When u took my hand in yours, it was then that i knew, that nothing mattered anymore, Because u gave me hope, I shall forever be grateful, So as the days fade to night, I know where you are, always beside me but so far away, it is my down fall... Always loveing but never loved, when the winds blows my soul crys, For nothing i do is ever good enough, to show my love for you, So i set day to day wondering of my love, did you ever want me is all i say, it is my down fall... With my life id protect you from harm, never a care to my own safety, So as i set and wait, i can not help but ponder, is she happy with the one she has, As i wish my luck to her upon the stars,
Thought For The Day
Have low standards! That way you're never dissappointed! Ok So i was just watchin a vid on youtube bout a dude that wanted a clone of himself n it hit me like a bolt of lightning!!!!!!!! I need a clone of me so the doctors can amputate his arm n leg n put them on me! How fuckin awesome would that be!!! lol. ok so now im startin to think bout the hell frankenstine's monster caught, but hey they can transplant faces, so why not arms n legs im sure its been done somewhere. Anyways that was just a random thought i had lol. But if they start cloneing people like in multiplicity sign me up! Ok I thought id just rant bout sum shit that i think is stupid or just plain dont like! First off I fucken hate Monroe piercings! you'll never been as good looking as Cindy Crawford once was, so pull out the piercing n make us happy.  Second thing is these Stupid ass Foreign language tats that every lame ass unimaginative piece of trash seems to get! You really wanna surprise me, go to china
Thoughts And Feelings
  Promises You keep giving me dates and telling me lies trying to tell me change doesn't come easy, it isn't instant. Well, I guess its me that is the problem and I can't wait because my impatience is persistent; but how much longer do you want me to sit here repeatedly and take this shit so conveniently with stride? Should I lay back while you slowly kill yourself inside, because killing yourself is like killing a part of me and I can't sit back as I wither away, so why shall I do the same when it comes to you. I ask myself over and over the same questions as I ask you, but in the end its all a conundrum, an enigma ,which answer escapes so freely like as if it was never shackled at all. What is there to do? This analytical mind is a killer, however, I don't blame it because it is my heart which fuels its passion to search for a solution and mend its broken ways. This is like an infinite torture, even though, its been so few of years. I been through hell, I've spewed some tears and m
Thought For The Day
Calm your thoughts and be peaceful. Know that all is well, all the time. This moment is already the best it can be, and is everything it can be. Accept it and move forward. Do not fear the worst, for your thoughts of fear give great power to whatever it is you fear. Instead, sincerely expect the best and you create the best. Know that the positive possibilities are always present, and your eyes will be opened to them. Everything that is, can be put to good use in moving toward your highest vision for life. As life unfolds in each moment, new opportunities are being born. No matter what has already happened, choose to create the very best you can imagine. This is the day that you have to work with. Live with peaceful purpose, and use it to create a magnificent world. -- Ralph Marston Hey everyone!   A friend of mine entered me into a contest on behalf of my son for mother's day.  Please take two minutes, visit the page and vote.  Be sure to enter in a valid email a
Thoughts And Feelings
I love the way you look at me, your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, and the way you show you care. I love the way you say, "I love you", and they way your always there. I love the way you touch me, always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, and glad that you are mine.
Thoughts From The Heart Of A Dove
The Cycles of Dove GoddessThe universe moves in circlesthat spin without an end.All things seam to have a beginninga middle and then begin again.And with this new beginningall things become renewed.And this is where I find myselfwhen my heart thinks of you.We met as strangersyet soon we became friendsFriends grew to Loverswhile the eternal circle spinsWe have shared our hard timesour gladness, love and's cycle met an explosive end,and love turned to anger and tearsYet the Pain reminded our heartsthat we had began as Friends.As life's circles continue to spinThe love of a friend never ends.Mistakes of the past are the basefrom which we now learn and grow.What the future holds for usneither one of us truly know.But what our hearts do tell usis that we were to walk hand in handAnd rejoice in each step of the wayand as loving friends we can now stand.From this renewed beginningwe shall begin once again.Knowing that no matter what,We'll walk as loving friends until the
A Thousand Tears
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. A thousand tears I have cried, Before I've seen the day I die. I want no more, I feel no more,And now
Im beginnning to really despise this site yet i find myself drawn back to it like a crackhead. Im sick of girls taking their jealousies and insecurities out on me.. i can't help it.. i don't do anything except be me.. i just kick ass and i know it.. people on here are fickle and its hard to tell who is being honest which sucks for a person like me.. im blunt, and i won't sugar coat anything for anyone.. i think a lot of times my friendship is taken for granted because im a nice person and i do go out of my way to help my friends.. im sick of not getting the recognition and respect that i deserve though it is laughable that it would be possible on a site like this anyway.. i deserve it.. everyone deserves it, and its only my fault if i dont demand a fucking moron.. i know this.. ~~thinking of deleting account~~ Racing thoughts in my head.. hard to separate.. what is your reality? is it mine? are you even a part of my reality? walking in the snow, feeling no cold yet unable to bre
Thoughts From A Seer
It has been six months since I last wrote anything. I have been told that I should not have stopped writting. We have forgotten who we are, how we got here, and forgotten how to live on the Earth. We have forgotten what is sacred or deemed it no longer sacred for the sake of money or progress.Water is sacred, and for the sake of money and progress we can no longer drink our water where once we could. We could drink from any water because it was pure and clean. Now most of our water is toxic and we must drink our water from plastic bottles which we are learning even now that is not good for us. Water that needs to be purified in order to be safe to drink.The earth is mostly covered by water, we are mostly made up of water.Trees are sacred, and for the sake of money and progress we continue to cut down our trees for development and for industry. Trees are a living breathing entity that supports life...our life. Trees breath in what we exhale and we breath in what the trees e
Thoughts On Running A Contest
Thoughts Of A Madwoman
Dearest Benjamin,It is amazing how I can look back at those new pictures, and remember so clearly how happy I was, and how much I loved you. I was so distraught over the thought of you having to move away, but that one night... the one you asked me to marry you, I finally felt like everything was going to be okay, that we could survive it.They say Love is Blind, and it must be... because although I suspected, I never wanted to let myself see. That last night with you, on cam, typing back and forth, you forced me to see. At first, all I wanted was to stop the pain, the burning feeling in my heart, in my mind. I wanted to end it. I wanted to end me. Then, as I read your words, as my mind slowly rose from the shallow fantasy of hope and blindness, I REALIZED something. In trying to end my emotional pain, I was causing myself physical pain... AND IT HURT. Every drag of the knife, instead of bringing me closer to death, brought me more and more back to life. I was numb at first, when you le
Thought.. Random.. You Might Just Like It
I Know none of the people on here. really quite intriguing. I like it. So tell me what you think be honest.. No need to lie really. Were never going to meet eachother so why not. The Name is Annie.. Yes chris you already knew that.. (no chris is not my bf) anyway I like pink. I am a nympho.. Figured ud like that. Anyway.. Im not seeking help for my condition I just look it as a good cardio work out no harm done. lol well no harm has been done. I can controll it and just take it out on my bf. Yep he loves me. Why wouldnt he. haha. Im not your average girl I think I can honestly say. I really honestly think im a dude trapped in a girls body. That happens to have big boobs... thank you all for pointing them out cause I didnt even notice they were there! wow weird. So therefore I am BI.. yep real bi not im a drunk whore I think ill get with a girl but only when im drunk kind of bi.. I also enjoy long walks on the beach.. JK no when im at the beach I enjoy Skim boarding. You know your
The view from here is always breath taking. With the sun rising from my back, casting a long shadow before me, I draw my sword sit and wait. With last nights events weighing on my mind I try to focus on the days events. With a smile I see in the distance my reason to continue the fight. Such a strange contrast of the beauty she posses and the blood stained battle field. This time the two little faces aren't standing behind her, but in front watching my every move. This poses a serious issue (since problems always have solutions). How to win this battle and not let them see. She smiles and reads my mind, sending them off to play. That smile, that beautiful smile, lights a fire of burning desire in my heart. A passion, A pain. A fear. Kingdoms would fall just to see it. Clergy would sin just to feel its warmth. A warrior would gladly give up his life for a glimpse. I would fight through hell itself just to see it more often. That smile. I wonder
Okay, as many of you may or may not know.... I got engaged around the New Year.... well, that engagement didn't last long at all!!! I came home one day and caught the FUCKER in MY BED with some stupid bitch! Yeah... that's right... he cheated on me and in MY bed! SO I kicked his ass to the curb and kept my RING!!! hahaha.... so I am single again.... and thinking that I should stay that way! Just goes to show you.... You can't really trust anybody!!!
So lust is one of our seven deadly sins but that doesnt make much since to me. Don't you normally feel some sort of lust for someone before you date them and maybe eventually fall in love with them?
Words are all I have left. They fill the void. The empty spaces That have become my life. The kiss, the embrace, Love demonstrated and returned Two stand as one United. My spirit cries out. My soul weeps. Oh, the empty spaces That have become my life. Words again fill my head. Thoughts and feelings unleashed, More words To fill the empty spaces. Leonard January 2009 To My Daughter On Christmas Strong and opinionated She cannot be ignored. Words have to be spoken. One mustn't be bored. A great sense of humor Of this I must say. Even when the banter Is directed my way. A laugh that's infectious She's so full of fun It's hard to be serious And not come undone. Sunshine and love Sweetness and caring Spirit and laughter All rolled into one. Loving, trusting An innocent, a dove A beacon of light Surely grace from above I love you my daughter,
As human beings, when we fall into love, we search endlessly for symbols of it. We turn to the time-honored traditions thereof, roses, diamonds, candies and cards in an endless bid to find something, anything, that can fully express what we feel. We hope that, even if but for a fleeting moment, that something we hold can express what tomes of poetry and years and millenia of modern romance has never been able to touch. This quest pushes us to do strange and desperate things. In such a commercialized society, we spend billions of dollars buying jewelry, gifts and trinkets in a bid to express our love. We spend countless paychecks, work second jobs and put untold amounts of strain on ourselves just to prove our feelings through material things. The dirty secret of it all though is that love has no symbols. It is something that, by its very nature, defies all symbolism, especially with material possessions. The rich feel love no differently than the poor and the wealthy suffer no le
Why does most people have to fight and make so much drama. i dont want to fight i dont want to be a part of it. i just want friends on here nothing more nothing less. if i have ever done anything or said anything to affend anyone then im sorry if i have said something directly to u regaurding my feelings then i ment it and leave it at that.
Thoughts, Notion,and Stories
all things in nature have a spirit We believe that when you hunt if you kill an animal you thank the animals spirit for giving its life so that you and your family can eat and live We thank mother nature for providing the animal and father sky for giving good weather for the hunt and both bury the parts that cannot be used in the earth as a sign of respect for the animal and in thanks to the animal, mother nature, and father sky they give back so that it will be reborn the animals are our friends the woods our sanctuary the streams and rivers our life blood the mountains our strength the sun is our warmth the moon is our guide the stars tell of our journey the stones tell us stories if we but take the time to listen the wind whispers to us as we move no creature is more in tune with our mother the earth than we of the clans no one understand the natural world better than the gypsy for we are wild as the world and free as the wind we are Our mothers children now and
self selected to be part of the community listening to my own voice for the next clue to the next dimension never realize until committed and brought through somehow. a sense of empowerment, a song, a cure in a world without real medicine. almost an unimaginable commodity to strive towards. life as health. living fully. the story told and listened to, is the story lived in the moment of the utterance of the thought this lil neuron firing telling where in the world it is and why, and reporting back to the others. self description promoting opening and therapeutic truth telling to the self. an antidote to the sociological lies that are fed to us on sub-lingual levels a revolution through thought on personal levels liberating the moment through some process of energy exchange, moving forward... shared experience through knowing the self and relating that truthfully with another realized being what a romantic notion on a lighter note there's a new pub on the block actually cal
as mornings arise and the day moves to quickly I find my mind wandering swiftly conversations come smoothly for you and me we have a lifetime of pleasures to learn about we feelings and sensations are mounting The days I am counting
Thoughts Of A Mad Man
so I went to clean my hard drive off, got a virus on it... thought I had everything backed up properly... decided to step down from vista to xp in hopes of having a few more gig's of hard drive space... installation went as normal... xp installed, had to spend an hour getting all my driver's loaded, then went to go reinstall my graphix program's from the cd's I just burned not even three hours prior... redundancy error's start flying up, I get the program to install finally, go to slam my plugin's into the folder, double click the familiar icon I have come to love, I even have it set in the same place as it was on vista... I know the movements to that icon by heart... my virus scan goes off, one of the preset filter's in now a virus... I dump the install, try it again with out the plugin's... run's fine... time to put the plugin's back in... double click... virus warning again... maybe I should of just left it all alone, stayed on vista, cleaned the virus out, but I needed the few extr
Thought For The Day!
I just found out the other day that pigs can have 30 minute orgasms. I believe I can do better than that with my tongue, now all I need is test subjects. Anyone want to spare me 35 minutes? If you don't give your best, your all and love with all your heart, why would you expect your partner to? Don't go to bed Mad! Go to bed Naked!
have you ever wondered, like I am doing, just how much you can do, what you can do. I am about to find out, its March 21st, and in exactly 30 days, I leave my home and head to Fort Jackson. Yes, I joined the army, thru the national guard, but I still joined, three years full active, then the weekend stuff. Ok, I had been in a relationship, for fifteen years, fifteen. my oldest daughter was my 21st birthday present, she was born two days before my birthday. Its a bit rough, cause all those things that people did when they were young, I was chasing toddlers. So this is my time. My girls are proud as hell of me, they have let me know this, but its not going to be easy at all. But I am trying, striving, and making people understand how I can walk away from the world I knew, to try and find another, to make another one, this time, standing on my own two feet, without someone with thier hand on my shoulder, learning all the things I can do, being prepared to fall on my ass if I have
A Thought On Life
Thoughts Of Light
what a shitty month... you get stuck in the hospital... you try to get blood poisoning and succeed people who you thought care about ya delete you only because ya havent been on fubar because omg imagine that... your in the hospital... aint that just amazing? There are always reasons for our decisions in this life. Focusing on those reasons will help you stay your course. Knowing that you've looked hell in the face and still striving for excellence is one of my main goals. Not surrendering like so many others when life gets you down. Our choices in this life will echo and follow us for an eternity. Life is at times hard and we all have a choice. Following your heart, your honor, and your own moral standards is also a choice. No one can ever tell you differently. Anyways just some curious thoughts i had. Some friends told me to start blogging. So now i have. If you read this and dont understand it... The reason is probably that you are not m
Thoughts Is All
 No matter how much I try, I can not express just how very dear you are to me, or how very deeply I am truly in love with you.   For so many years now, I have thought each day about you. Wishing so many times I would have simply just said some thing long before now.   There truly are no words nor phrases which could ever do justice for how I feel about you. No song could ever express the love for you I have.   I know deep down you can never be mine, for your heart belongs to another. All that I can be is a dear friend who is always here for you.   Please just know how what I truly fee is pure love for you, and always shall in life. For you my beautiful darling will always be my love in life!!   PJ   11/21/2012   2:49am Wanting Back My Sanity!! Feeling the urge to just say the hell with it all, I think as well, of those I would leave behind. Wondering if they would be able to cope with the decision I am looking at. Wanting this pain to go away, but not wan
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Everyone makes mistakes. I know it – I’ve made many mistakes. But some are unforgivable. I remember my first boyfriend so well. I remember everything about him: his voice, his smile, his touch, his laugh, even the way how he walked and the shop he bought his clothes in. I still walk into my room to find his scent in my room, even though it was years since he was there. I was the unlucky girl. My life was one of sorrow, with all the hate and the pain. And when I gave up, when I stopped trying, when I only wanted to die, die, and nothing more… He was there. I just needed him so badly that I would do anything to be his. And I did became his. It felt so good to finally be loved. Finally I could smile, think about him, talk about him, counting the seconds until I’d see him again. I was so happy… But then things started to turn out weird. He started lying to me. And I knew it, I knew every lie he told me was anything but the truth, but I took it all. I just didn’t want it to e
Thought I Was Not Looking
Photobucket WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING A message every adult should read because children are watching you and doing as you do, not as you say. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew that there is a God I could always talk to, and I learned to trust in Him. When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had nothi
Thought Of The Day
We do not have the option of choosing our blood relatives. We do however have the option of making a difference in the lives of many other people who cross our paths. In October I met a woman who has changed my life considerably. She knows my children my life in general. She offers advice and loves my family. When asked she says that she has adopted us. My kids call her grandma and their eyes light up especially isaacs when we say we're going to see her. I have been her caregiver for a while now and have done the one thing that people in the medical field should never do....I got emotionally attatched. I love her and am very worried about her. I have enough medical knowledge to be concerned. She was hospitalized Friday morning and still is admitted. I know the ins and outs of her home, her friends, and even slightly her finances. I was the one who called everyone to let them know what was going on and spent most of my day doing so. I was locked out of her house earlier today by her
Okay so i googled my name just to see what would come up and one of the pages was a poem i wrote about 3 or 4 years ago. This has got to be one of the best ones i've ever done and i forgot that i even had put ot on along with a few other poems that i did. One of them being a poem i wrote back in my SR. year of high school titled I'm sorry which was wrote about 8 years ago. Looking at these i realize that my style of writing hasn't changed much in the past 4 or 5 years. It's still very dark and full of despear and pain as you will see. I am gonna post two poems that i think are the best ones i've ever done. This one i am about to post is called my final breath than after i am gonna post one that i wrote just last year. My Final Breath I feel the blade cut my skin releasing all the pain with in as I see the blood pour out I wonder what my life was all about I feel darkness as it surrounds me knowing in a few seconds i'll be free with my eyes closed as I try not t
Your morning thought for the day: Dancing is like dreaming with your feet! ~ Constanze ~
Thought For The Day
I have been getting a few messages as of late, about my mafia character being mean or saying things that some feel is either offensive or cruel. SO, I decided to write this blog to explain something to you folks that don't understand the concept of a "game." On Fubar, I am me, Silver. In Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie. Frankie has a COMPLETELY different personality than I do. She is a mobster that her sworn enemies are the Whack-A-Moles. She hates the moles and will stop at nothing to exterminate them. Now, although Silver and Frankie are both smart asses, they are different entities. Whatever Frankie does or says in Fu-Mafia is NOT, I repeat, NOT a reflection of Silver. Silver doesn't hate anyone, including the real people behind the WAM's. Get it yet? When I am on Fubar, I am Silver. When I am playing Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie. If Frankie has done or said anything to anyone that pissed you off, while playing Fu-Mafia,  well, then, YAY! That's part of the game!! Keyword here being
Thoughts I Have Is All
For the past month now, nothing seems to be able to bring me down from these clouds I seem to be walking upon. I keep a smile now and my heart honestly has some one it truly cares for more than this piss poor life I live. Never in a million years could I have expected to be so happy and joyous as you have made me. Every day we see one another or talk on the phone, I fall further and further in love with you. I can honestly say now my life feels complete because Julie, you very much so make me feel amazing!!!     PJ .... 2:19pm .... 6/11/2013 WHYWhy does this life always seem to have to be so cruel? Giving us moments of hope and joy, only to take them away and slam us to the ground like a pile of bricks hitting the concrete?Why do we feel we can be cared for or loved, when there are so many who only wish we would simply vanish from this society which truly could care one way or another if we are happy?Why does some idiot redneck like myself ever feel as if there is actually someone out
Thoughts Of The Dark Poet
I made an dedication to all the soldiers fighting with and fighting for love... It is in my gallery, in the folder "My Art"... It is rather simple, but I like it that way, it is not supposed to be top notch art, simply just an dedication to those who work hard and fights for love Hope you enjoy it everyone It is not the first time I have had an entry with this name... But it is the last time for me to ever mention the brick again... To those that have no idea what I am talking about and about to call me a total wacko, well I might be but listen up...   Serenity, aka "Clothing Optional", a former friend of mine and the girl I used to be in love with, and I have grown apart... At the last entry I mentioned "The Poet and The Brick" I meant her and me, those entries have been removed but this one will stay... I had known Serenity for like 8 years or so I believe, been in love with her from day one and she knew it, since I told her and she did flirt with me... But as time went by,
Here are a few thoughts that I have had in my mind about this lovely little website: 1.) Why do people expect you to fan/rate/add/bling/whatever them BUT 90-99.9% of the people that expect that don't do anything in return? I have found very few people that if you spend the time to rate their profile and pictures that they come by your profile and rate your stuff! I've found even fewer people that do that BUT will rate either all of your pictures or the amount of your pictures that you rated of theirs. 2.) I have noticed that there are many different "clicks" roaming around on here and if you aren't part of their "click" that you don't mean a single nanosecond of their time. 3.) I've noticed a good amount of lounges are so worried about getting new members but they seem to not care about their current members or members who have been a member of certain lounges for a long time. I personally only go into 2 different lounges, and to be honest they have great people/staff
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Thought For The Day
A horse and a chicken are playing in a meadow. ========================= The horse falls into a mud hole and is sinking. He calls to the chicken to go and get the farmer to help pull him out to safety. The chicken runs to the farm but the farmer can't be found. So he drives the farmer's Corvette back to the mud hole and ties some rope around the bumper. He then throws the other end of the rope to his friend the horse, and drives the car forward saving him from sinking! A few days later, the chicken and horse were playing in the meadow again and this time the chicken fell into the mud hole. The chicken yelled to the horse to go and get some help from the farmer. The horse said, "I think I can stand over the hole!" So he stretched over the width of the hole and said: "Grab for my penis and pull yourself up." And the chicken did and pulled himself to safety. If you're hung like a horse, you don't need a sports car to p
Thoughts To Ponder
To those of you that know me and know what I do for a living, this Blog may not come as a suprise. However, to those that do not know, I am a molecular biologist working on my PhD. Within the scientific community, religion is not typically discussed (unless you're praying about an experiment to work. haahah). It is typical for most scientists to question creationism, and I myself am one of those people. And as a man of science I search out answers to questions that are unknown. Not only do i question creationism, I also question the validity of the Theory of Evolution. So first, my beliefs at the moment: 1. I do believe in God, and i do belive in eternal salvation once you've trusted in Him. 2. I support the ideas of Biological/geographical/social evolution. The reason of this blog is to see what others think and/or whether this can lead to a CIVIL conversation. Can Creationism and Evolution exist in the same context. i.e. Could the 7 days of creation be thro
Monday, March 02, 2009 if anyone knows me at all , the would know that i'm one of the most over analytical people that they have ever met. looking over the pros and cons of every situation, constantly looking for any and all outcomes for any one situation etc... nostradomeous made it seem like child's play the way he leisurely came up with predictions . but they were generally open ended and open to interpretation. sure , he got a few names wrong. hister( hitler) being one of them , yet he managed to get most of his story correct. everything comes and goes in cycles. reasons for conquest never change but the people ,places and things usualy do. the end only has two outcomes. win or lose. there is no room for horseshoes and handgrenades here. you never hear the defeated of serious situations say things like " damn, my nigga! i was this close!" obviously because there was an objective in mind and that objective wasn't reached. after all the planning, the hrs, the execu
Thoughts N Stuff!
There's always 2 side to every story told no matter what kind of story it is. Lately I have been feeling betrayed, stabbed in the back, lied too & many other feelings to go along with it.  I had a very good friend of the family pass away & was buried on 9/11/2010.. I went to reach out for the 1 person that was always suppose to be by my side to help me get through the rough times. But nope he couldn't even get online or fkin call me cuz he was to damn busy playing cards with his buddies. I'm sorry I maybe wrong but if u love someone & wanted to marry her, you'd drop anything to comfort her when she's hurting deeply. I have always been there for ppl and it just seems like the one time I needed someone he turned his back on me which hurt me even more then I was already hurting. Let alone I was reliving the whole 9/11 cuz I was there, I saw the hurt children, adults, etc & doing everything I could to help out that day. But for some reason all that didn't matter to him. Back in july of 201
Thoughts & Quotes
“Most men are the same. They're only interested in fucking you and they don't care whether you're happy or sad. They just want to get on with their business in and out of bed, and they make you feel that you don't count except as their sex toy.” ~Cameron Diaz “We flatter those we scarcely know, We please the fleeting guest, And deal full many a thoughtless blow To those who love us best.” ~Ella Wheeler Wilcox A broken heart is a lot like a broken bone... Sometimes to make it heal properly it needs to be re-broken. ~me
Thats IT!!! Im SSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO giving up on the existence of "love"!! I guess its time for me to be a cold hearted bastard! All these years....just waiting around for that perfect match.......when all along all i meant are perfect headaches.Everyone knows that im a good man, i stand for righteous and humble morals......but if you think im going to let my kindness be my weakness.....your sadly mistaken. For years ive spent my life as a single man, looking for a good woman to match.............but since nowadays, society is too twisted and self centered for that to exist, im going to spend the rest of my life by myself. Youve ALL lost the chance to be with the best man on earth (ME). Even after i die, im going to wait for you in the abyss of eternity and didnt want me at my worst, who says you can have me at my best? God, i need a good woman. I need a woman, with my charecteristics, with my ideals......but most as real as i am. A woman, who much like
everyone talks about what is faair and what isn't. well this is life its not fair and never will be. Though i feel pain as i right this. it is about me and everyone else if this touches you. When people needed you, you was always there for them. but when the tables turn are they there for you?. no instead they are off else where leaveing you to deal with it yourself. All through-out our lives we try to shape who we are but, its the people we keep around us that makes us who we are. and as we get older we all seem to come to these roads keep helping others and risj getting fucked over ( oh an you will me fucked over) or do you become the one doing the fucking over. eventually we have to decide to be the prey or the predator. in many ways we are all both and neither those who have good hearts and good intentions will make it out better in the end but of those owho use will always be the losers. but what of those who have become cold and hateful from the lives we have lead and the
My question of the day is simple.. Why does bad things always happen to good people. You find somebody thats awesome.. they let you down.. You find a job and in turn get 10 more struggles in the financial department, Your nice to a person you cant stand with the most inner part of your being.. they screw you over. Why is it people always seem to kick when your down. They never put a burden on you when you feel like you can take the world.. And it has always been like this as long as man kind has been in existance  The world is so full of evil.. why are humans, the smartest of all the species. the most relentless of them all?. Why do they feel the need to create wrong doing on others? why do they feel the need to lie, cheat steal and murder their way through life.. everyone does it.. all of those They murder everyday!  They kill each other on the inside.. and create more chaos then ever imaginable. People in this world need to learn that the misfortunes we expirience in life will
Nothing matters anymoreI've turned away and locked the door I've turned the key and closed my eyes Let spill the tears and stop the lies I want no more to do with this place I want to leave without a trace To pack my bags and disappear To have no regret to have no fear To abandon all my life long dreams To stop the nighttime nightmare screams To leave behind the pain and despair To move on with existence without a care If only this could all be true To go away and start anew But I must live with these tears and lies So I'll lock the door and close my eyes Allow me to be my own person accept me for who I am. Not the person others think I should be. Sometimes I have a lot to say and don't hesitate to say it, but sometimes what I have to say can only be read in my eyes. Understand me my moods and my feelings on days when I’m feeling sunny and on days when there's rain in my heart. I'll never go back on a promise and I will always be there for when you need me. Understand me trust me
Thoughts Far And Away
Im crying insideLike the howl of the windCold and all aloneThe hurt in my throatLike air caught up trying to get freeIf I let these tears flowI may not have the strength to hold backAs every teardrop falls without wingsSo I sit silently holding in the pain of my heartWhen you look into my eyesYou will see a smile so fake, for so longEven Im fooledHappinessIs a word once filled my heartThey had turned to tears so long agoAnd shattered like mirrors hitting the floorThat was when I saw my lifeThe reflection of meThat was when the light went outAnd felt the darkness's embraceThe comfort she shared I took for loveAs she hid me away from the worldAnd lonely wasnt so lonesome anymoreShe holds me tightAs I shed silent tears into my soulSoaked with sorrow and griefI died so long agoAnd today, all I want is to live againThe kind of life shared with someoneSomeone to hold you tightTo love you just rightTo share with you their worldAs I would share with her mineYou see, this manThis personHas been
I have loved and I have lost. I have hurt and been hurt. I've been lied to, cheated on, rejected, and taken for granted. I may not always let you know how much you've hurt me because I will try to maintain a smile...choosing instead to bear the pain in private. As often as I sometimes do it, few know how much I cry. Even fewer will ever see it. Everyone in my life is there because they choose to be. Should you choose to walk out please know that I will not ask you to stay. I refuse to beg. Those who remain in my life know just how much they mean to me. To all those I've ever hurt in my life, I'm sorry. I pray one day you will forgive me. To all those who have hurt me in my life. You're forgiven. I realize now my best isn't always going to be good enough and that I won't always make everyone happy. I also realize I deserve happiness because dammit, I AM worth it. As much as it may hurt, I will no longer let anyone treat me less than I deserve to be treated because dammit, I AM wor
Thoughts From A Shattered Mind
Thought Of The Day....
There is a fly, flying above the water..There is a fish watching the fly, fly above the water.. and he says to himself " if that fly drops just 6 inches I will be able to catch it and have myself a good dinner"There is a Cat watching the fish..watching the fly, fly above the water and he says to himself "if that fly drops just 6 inches .. the fish will be able to catch the fly.. I'll be able to catch the fish and have myself a good dinner.."There a bear watching the cat.. watching the fish watching the fly, fly about the water and he says to himself "if that fly drops 6 inches The fish will be able to catch the fly.. the cat will be able to catch the fish I'll be able to take the fish and have myself a good dinner!"There's a man watching the bear watching the cat watching the fish watching the fly fly above the water and he says to himself "If that fly drops 6 inches the fish will be able to catch the fly.. the cat will be able to catch the fish.. the bear will be able to take the fish
Thoughts For The Day..
Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue. Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them. Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it. Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker. Eat a live toad in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you for the rest of the day. If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague. If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others. Never buy a car you can't push. Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you don't have a leg to stand on. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. The early worm gets eaten by the bird, so sleep late. The Second mouse gets the cheese When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane. Birthdays are good for you, the more y
Thoughts Prayers Needed
Thought For The Day...
Thoughts About People On Fubar
is it me or does everyone on here sound greedy as hell. i mean i see some profiles with messages saying "bling me now". really???? and if i dont then what. im sorry but i work my ass off to earm my money so y should i spend it on somethign that is meaninless here let me pay money to buy u a stupid icon.... sorry but not happening. and fo rthe peopel who fall for that bullcrap im sure are the same peopel who are always scrounging people for money cause they spend it on here. and aother thing about the blings is that i must give u a bling to see nudes of people...... guess what still not interested. sorry but in my opinion if im buying u bling to see ur nudes doesnt that basically make u a prostitute????? and further more it makes u look slutty if u have more than 10 nudes. yeah sure ur gonna say im just showing what i have and comfy with my body. well i dont mid anyone saying they are comfy with their body but showing it to guys on here who are nly here to get nudes and do crap with the
Crazy day trying to keep up with everything that can be done in fubar...    I will learn!!!   It is interesting that this actually helps me feel less lonely...
"That's a sweet ass ride!" "Go blow it out your ass" "That's one ugly ass..." "Butthead" "Butt munch" 'Cavity searches' The term 'butt pirate' ect. The world is full of quotes/things that seem to have an 'ass' connection. There are times I can't even believe how  many terms relate to it! Don't get me wrong, I don't care but I can't help but observe how popular it tends to be a topic, I mean women think all guys think/care about are boobs, but, nope, the ass is the view point :P 'Anal probes' You can tell the world is ass focused here. They talk of aliens, advanced life forms and yet, these 'advanced life forms' got a thing for the ass too LOL. I mean I always have found this amusing but seriously, don't think any aliens have come to visit and don't think there's any reason to think they want to go out of their way to shove objects up our ass. This HAS to be in relation to the human race's obsession with ass lol... The planet 'Uranus' Am I the only one who DOESN'T think this
Thought And Lyric
Filled with bliss covered in shit Down and out far and away. liked by chance and fucked by desire Filling the voids that have overtaken me I feel like the middle man in this overrated sanctity Lost and abandoned in this bittersweet abyss I lack the taste or even the function Rather useless now and distraught My mind is all amuck, I'm lost in thoughts about you   I have fucked and followed, drank and swallowedall this life has given meto bring myself to this pointForgot never forgaveBitches, fucks, lively muckingalways in the back of my headburning a hole through what I ever hadFuck the bullshit, caught with a bitchstickcursed , fucked, forgiven, but never the other wayFuck them all forget the pain but it lingers moreTo haunt my dreams and fuck my brainHate the dreams hate being awakeFucked and followed forgotten and swallowedThe world has spit me out spoiled The more I realize how awake I've become, the more I realize how horrible things were and are. Its seems as though some
Thoughts Of Fubar Part 2
Recently, in a large city in France, a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said, "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"A middle-aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.To Whom It May Concern,Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans.) They have an active sex life, get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of A
Thougths Of A Trouble Mind
My question is do ppl actually read the blogs that ppl write or do they rate them just for the points? do they actually care about the ppl behind the blogs... My life is in shambles at the moment as I sit and think about all that is going on in...where did I go wrong with all that could have been done differently...could I have been a better daughter to my mother? could I have been a better mother to my children? the questions keep going thru my mind without fail...over and over again... These are all normal questions that we all ask ourselves...of this I am sure...but could things have been different with my children if I had not decided to fight for my life and decide to fight for that of my children knowing now what they would go through in their lives...the stuff that I think about doing would get me committed to a hospital for sure...but it would make me feel so much better for vindicating what they had to endure and what I had to endure while living with their biological fathe
Thoughts On Life
Ok, I reckon its time to rant a little about this site. The views and opinions expressed in this blog are absolutely those of the editor and owner of is profile, if you dont like it, fuck off. So without further ado, here I go... This one is REALLY starting to irritate me, Ladies, if you put up naked pictures of yourself, advertise them as being naked but make them private, dont get pissed off when dudes constantly ask to see them. I dont see the point of posting pictures that only you can see anyway. If you dont want guys to ask to see them, dont post them. I mean its not rocket science here people, damn.  The second part of that is to the guys, Gentalmen, stop being so fucking disrespectful, you give us honest men a bad name. Dont start talking to a chick by asking to see her naked. I mean, would you walk up to some chick on the street and open the conversation with, "Hey baby can I see your tits." Heres a quarter, buy a fucking clue.  Will someone please tell me how people on he
Thoughts About Friendship
Hello to every one of my friends :) first thank you for reading this and also my best wishes for your day. Hopefully it is beautiful and successful in all the cases you think of. After a week at school I’m finally back and glad to see you all again but on my long hours drive I made me thoughts of many of you. First with a little skepticism what I would expect here I can say with proud and HAPPY J feelings more than I ever estimated. Although I certainly never forget my real life I changed a little in the last months my free time in order to spend as much as I can here because it’s a true lovely thing to talk with so many wonderful people and found them as friends. Some know me also a little bit better … my funny, my naughty and even my serious behavior what means the most to me. After all the time I told many how I separate the people here … a lot of them are just here for leveling and rating (my God how often I had to laugh seeing as they beg for Blings),
Ok, now I know I'm not a perfect person however there have been some things going on lately that have really been pissing me off.. So someone in your life calls themselves your "best friend"... ok what do you expect outta that person? I expect unconditional and unjudgemental love. That's what I put out there to all my friends and I stupidly expect it back. Now, my best friend as of late has not been acting like one. One of our good friends from HS is wayyy into me and when he didn't get what he wanted, he made a fake account on here and started spying on me. When I let him know that we weren't going to be an option (seeing as how I HAVE A MAN!!!!!) My best friend has slowly but surely taken his side. Over Memorial Day weekend when I was out of town, She went out to the bar with him and to his house the next night for a bonfire. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they shouldn't be friends but seriously??? When I have backed up every stupid thing you've ever done... at least give me
Thought For The Day May 27
Every strong and beautiful flower must have a strong root in the ground. It must send a root down so that it may be rooted and grounded while at the same time it sends a shoot up to be the flower that shall gladden the world. Both growths are necessary. Without a strong root, it would soon wither. The higher the growth upward, the deeper must be the rooting. My life cannot flower into success and helpfulness unless it is rooted in a strong faith, or unless it feels deeply secure in the goodness and purpose of the universe.
Thoughts On Vows
I recently posted a mumm, in which I posted the wedding vows I had written for a friend, and it generated alot of feedback. Now first of all I would like to thank everyone who voted and commented on them for better or worse (Pardon the pun). I greatly appreciated the votes and thoughts as they did give me lot to think about and I took all of your opinions into consideration. What I have come to is this, I wrote those based on two things one being the way my friend said he felt about her and the other being the way I felt about the last woman I truly did love. So through the melding of both I was able to give voice to some feelings I thought long since dead within myself and newly awakened within my friend. Now sincerity I have concluded does not come from the words spoken or written but from the sentiment behind the speaker therefore I feel that if my friend can read them and speak them and they translate the depth of his love that he cannot express himself then they are as truly his a
Thoughts Of An Inner Phyco
i wonder how fast it takes for one to go absolutly insane from solitude, a week a month or years. if the state of inertia is to be an un-interuped state of action, thought , emotion , or a consistancy of property, then is it to be asked when inertia is no longer needed or wanted, if that is the question in the first place , or will the thought of a lone survivour with a mind torn between a darness inwitch you can not escape and a light inwitch surounds and comforts them be a more or less blinding peace of mental inuety ? who will have an answer to shake this annoying inertia of mine? will it be some one expected , or some compleat stranger? i guess that just like a tootsie roll , the world may never (k)now. your pain is the breakeing of the shell that encloses your understanding. it is the potion by witch the physition within you heals your sick self.Therefore , trust the physition and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility. "Khalil Gibran" Obi wan kenobi once said 'your eyes can
Not really sure why I've developed a sudden interest in this site, I only joined because my GF spends what I deem to be ridiculous amount of time on here and it pissed me off enough to sign up to see what the big deal was(yeah doesn't make sense to me either, but i still did it). At first I wasn't very impressed and I actually got a even more pissed. I tried to get into it but to no avail and eventually I just kinda gave up and abandoned the whole thing. I thought I was fairly numb to the whole situation but recently I've been getting really curious and I've spent the last couple of days popping on to rate picks and just poke around a little. Now here I am at 2 am writing a blog, hmmmm...Interesting. By the way I know I'm a crappy writer I don't need any grammar or other technical criticism, did I mention its 2 am?
Isn't it ironic how hate can be defined but love truly can't be you can hate love  but can't love hate.....I really think I am starting to hate love because all it ever has done is betray me....oh well.....
It is amazing how some feelings for people are like a flame on a match fast intense and go out all most immeditaly after it is lite. Others are slow and take work to get it going and the flame is sometimes non-existent.
Thoughts On Belief Structures
After talking to a few people I know, I have come to the conclusion that, if for no other reason than to get my thoughts out there in case anyone agrees, I should have a blog. The blog itself (or at least, the one under this title) will primarily be my thoughts on belief structures, but anyone who reads these should feel free to comment with questions, or even just your thoughts. FIRST BLOGOver the course of my life, it has occurred to me many times that there are a plethora of very significant similiarities inherent in many of today's religions across the world. As a newly ordained reverend (non-denominational) it is part of my responsibilities to know the many forms of ceremony in most of these religions, if only for the sake of being thorough. It is also beholden to me to at least attempt to understand some of the basic forms for many of these religions, so that through understanding, I can better serve more people. As it currently stands, I don't have a specific religion that I cla
Thoughts Of The Moment
  I look in the mirror,and all I can see,is an unhappy little girlstaring back at me.Things have happened in my life,some things I cannot change,but I am the only personwho has to deal with my rage.I'm upset because I'm all alone,and I feel like I have nothing of my own.I can't take it back,because I'm ready to go,because love in my life is something I lack,and a feeling I will never know. I cry all the timebut in front of friends I laugh,why can't they see it's really a sad smile?Probably because I make them think crying, is just not my style.I always feel downand people turn away, sometimes it seems as if,I have nothing left to say.People don't want to listento all the hurt I feel,they just blow it off,and tell me it's no big deal.I cope with problems myself,because I have nobody on my side,I cry all these tears alonebecause sadness is something I hide.My friends are friends that never seeif something is really bothering me,they all have their own lives other than to worry about me,
From the moment he stepped into my world...I knew...that HE was different from the rest. By the way he spoke, how he carried himself... the way opposers were handled...all spoke of one greater than the rest. Never had I met someone like him... nor will I ever in my lifetime know another like him. He is truly an original.   When I met him, I was a lost soul.. not knowing my path, not knowing my worth. Through much diligence, he has given me hope...has made me aware of what I AM... what I can become. With him behind me, I can conquer anything. It is his strength which I feed from... his courage empowers me. His knowledge makes me wiser. His love makes me stronger. He is my rock...    
Alone in a roomIts just me and youI feel so lostcause I dont know what to doNow what if choose the wrong thing to doIm so afraid, afraid of disappointing you
Ok, you may or may not have noticed; and you may or may not care, but I've eliminated the "Top family" and "Top friends" classifications from my profile. Yes, I do believe they are evil. That may sound extreme, but hear me out first. Does it not create jealousy and drama? Would the fu-world not be a happier place if no one was whining (whether out loud or to themselves) about where they rank, or don't rank in someone's family?Is that what "family" is about?Is this really a competition?!Anyone that knows me, knows that I'm pretty forthright about my feelings... I talk about them. I tell people that are close to me how I feel about them.So I won't play the ranking game...If we are close, you already know it, I've told you! If we're not close... Either we just don't hit it off, or we don't know each other that well yet? I don‘t know, I suppose there are many possibilities. Anyway, if you want to change that, let me know... If I want to change it, I'll let you know...Is it really so
I have fount there are lots of rules or guidlines to follow in a relationship that are very important like it or not. Here is my list of must do’s to save any relationship. So if you truely love someone please read and try to apply what you can. These go for guys and girls. 1. Never go to bed angry! this is very important. Always discus and try to solve any problem as quickly as possible.2. NEVER lie to your partner. no matter what honesty is very important in any relationship. it is better to tell the truth and earn trust than to be caught in a lie. Honesty is very important. it solves problems and lets the other person know what is on your mind and how you feel.3. I love you should only be said if you truely mean it. never say it to make things easier. if you feel your love for someone is fading talk about it with your partner before its gone and all you have is resentment twards the other person.  If you dont want to fix or save the relationship then go your seperate ways do
Thought For The Day
"There is a way to look at the past. Don't hide from it. It will not catch you if you don't repeat it."  R I P Tyler Heilman 7/20/2009 Michaela Widmer 7/25/2009 This world keeps spinning faster to a new disasterInnocent lives are being takenFamilies being torn apartChildren having to grow up without a mommy or daddyIt leaves us here to sit and wonder WHY?Whats next, whose it going to be, what else can possibly happenWe sit and wait for answers, justice to be servedWe sit and wait for the times of a wake and funeral to be announcedYet no matter how much time will passThese lives will never be forgottenOne day you can wake up with a happy familyThat happy family can be torn apart by unexplainable acts of crueltyYou never know when something like this will happenYou don’t have any time to prepareYour friends, family and inner strength is your only backboneYou can rewind time, and you can’t fast-forward itFriends and family you haven’t seen for a while come closerTo
Thoughts.... Ideas....
At heart I'm a very, very nervous guy always worried about making the first move or telling a girl my true feelings. This cowardice has always limited my sex life and the only times I've made love has been well into serious relationships, never having anything remotely close to a one night stand. This has one exception, a night of intense passion which I know I will never forget.That night I had seen a local band with Chris his girlfriend (Emily) and her best friend (Jennifer.) When closing time came I knew Chris wanted rid of Jennifer for obvious reasons. So I offered to walk Jennifer home whilst Chris took the car. This suggestion went down well and we set off saying our goodbyes and making future plans.It was a pleasant night and Jennifer's house wasn't too far so we just took a slow walk together. Now it may seem like a gentlemanly offer but I admit I had other motives. I was in love with Jen. We had met when Chris started going out with Emily and I had been attracted to her from t
The Thoughts Of Mem (please Leave A Comment I Like Your Opinion)
In A City Far Away, In The Purest Of Snow.Lives A Seed That Does Not Grow. Lying In A Crack In The Side Walk. Looking Up At A World That Doesn't Care. It's Beauty Is Taken For Granted. With Each Little Passing Step. The Sadness Within Begins To Fade. Like The Snow That Will Melt On One Faithful Day.  And That Seed That Lives In The City. Will Become A Rose That Grew From Concrete. A Rose That At One Time Was Ugly And Taken For Granted. Will One Day Be A Sign Of Beauty....In This Dark, Cold, Lonely World.   As It Is Written As So Shall It Come To Pass....Quote The MEMesis....Nevermore!! I Am A Being Forever Alone. My Thoughts Are Forever Cursing.  I Am Wandering In The Shadows Trying To Find My Home. Blinded By Life, But Never Afraid Of What's Ahead. The Weight Of The World Crashing Over My Head. I Wish This Curse Would Leave Me Be. And Let Me Rest And For Once Let Me Have Good Dreams. Nightmares They Haunt Me. I Don't Want To Go To Sleep. The Legend Of Happiness Is
A simple thought of you and I'm gone again,Just thinking about your sweet face.Wishing I could touch your body,While giving you kisses all over the place. I'd caress your back,As you stare into my eyes.The thought of you here next to me,Puts my body in a rise. Your hands all over my skin,While your tongue traces my lips.The feeling begins to intensify,As you move just past my hips. I imagine you inside of me,And I let out a slight moan.The thought of you making love to me,Begins to set the tone. Slower in the beginning,I want to feel your every thrust.Your kissing my neck now,As you touch me on my bust. I run my fingers through your hair,As you breathe into my ear.I bite down on my lower lip,Just wishing you were here. You pick up the pace now,And I begin to lose control.I imagine your face looking down at me,As the ecstasy takes its toll. You rub my face with your hands,And softly kiss me on my cheek.You can tell just by my smile,How much the thought of you makes me weak. I ta
Prayer for the Military Wife Dear God, I am proud to be wed to one who defends freedom and peace. My challenges are many and I pray for your love and guidance to meet them. Special to me are the symbols representing my religion, country, community, and home. I pray for the wisdom and grace to be true to their meanings. You are the symbol of my religious beliefs and the source of my strength. Because my life is full of change, I cherish the solid and constant spiritual foundation that you provide. Help me Lord, to be an example of your teachings. My national flag represents freedom. Let me never forget, or take for granted, the hope it shows to the world. Bless those who have made sacrifices for freedom.Please grant us your continued blessings, increased strength and infinite guidance, as we live to your honor and glory. Amen. - Unknown When I was thirty years old, I got married. For a while, I thought I had married the wrong man, but it is more true to say my ex-husband married
Allow Your Own Inner Light to Guide You There comes a time when you must stand alone.You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.You must be willing to make sacrifices.You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way. A STRONG WOMAN VERSUS A WOMAN OF STRENGTH A STRONG WOMAN VERSUS A WOMAN OF STRENGTH A strong woman works out every day
Doing a 360 is cool..if you're on a skateboard. Doing a 360 in life blows. Those of you who are close to me know the absolutely horrible things I've had to face lately. So here I am, on the other side of this awful situation, well several situations, and I'm stuck with this onslaught of emotions. I had a plan, a purpose, and was executing that plan. I gained confidence and strength in myself and then life smacked me right in the face. I fought through one bad situation, and in the end it took a lot out of me. I'm a fighter though, I didn't give up. And then I got hit again with something else, and then again with something else. It got to where the bad things were happening so fast that things were kind of spinning out of control. I'm a good person, so it's bizarre that I've had to go through so much.Anyway, I have all these emotions and nothing to do but sit here and work through them. I don't even know where to start. I have never been one of those people that knows beyond a doubt wh
Thoughts And Feelings
I've been with my fiance for over 2 years now. Things have been rough for a while. I love him to death and I would do anything for him, but at the same time....I'm feeling yucky inside from the stuff that he has done to me in the past year. I feel like my heart is aching from everything that he has done to me and that I'm actually falling apart inside. I act like I'm okay, but deep down I'm not. People think I'm overracting about what has happen, but they don't know the feeling I'm feeling inside. If I wanted too....I would spill all my feelings out in the opening to them, but I'm just afraid that they might say I'm "overracting" again. I mean, how would you feel if you found out that the man you loved told another girl(s) they he loved them, etc.? How would you feel if he touch another girl? How would you feel if he straight up lied to you? How would you feel if he kept doing this to you? Those are the questions I even ask myself even though my fiance has done every single thing I sai
 As my body dies and soul decays I wonder "is this the path I have chosen or has it been chosen for me?".Did my actions condemn me or set me free?Were my thoughts my own or something drilled into me as a seed?I will never be at peace because I will never know.I don't want to know.If you had all the answers then you would not have anything to question.Is my passtion what makes me a hopeless romantic or is it the other way around?Am I made to hold the world or am I afraid of what will happen if I let go?Why mend a broken heart to break it again?Did I not learn from my mistakes or do I procede to repeat the past?
I sit alone in a state of mind that wishes to go back about a year...To go back and change so much...It is a thing that cant be ever truly undone...To avoid leaving a life that was so good to me...Throwing it all away like none of it really mattered...I miss being able to see my sister and talk to her...I regret the fighting we did between the two of us...I looked for a way to run and I found it...Packing my stuff, I ran to live in another world...Thinking it was for the best, I just took off not looking back...I ran into the arms of a girl that I thought was my happiness...Sitting within her grasp I blocked out all my troubles...About a month later, I returned back home...I had come to see my sister, and say Goodbye I Love You...The hardest part was walking in the shadows in the time of the passing...I helped lay her down for her final rest with tears falling down my face...Once returned home, I worried about losing the one person that made me happy...I had nightmares about us splitti
Thoughts On Life
i dont know what else to do. i dont know where else to go. im destroying everything in my life. i was diagnosed with bipolar and borderline when i was a teenager. im 27 now. when i turned 18, i made the decision to stop taking my meds. i didnt want to be tied to them anymore. i wanted, when people meet me, for them to actually meet ME and not my pills. ive learned to track my moods and tell whats going to be a trigger and adjust my behavior.this time is different. its never been this bad. im scared that im not going to be able to pull my self out of this one. ive ended a 9 year marriage with my pregnant wife. i have a shitty job that im trying soooo hard to fight the urge to quit. i called out of work last night to stay home and get drunk. the worst part though is, as lame as it may sound, i actually feel like "everyone is out to get me" i feel like everyone is talking $#%^ about me behind my back. i feel like if anyone is talking to me, that they have some sort of agenda, like they're
Thouhts Of A Rambling Mind
MARRIAGE   When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.   Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?   I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!   With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who
we all have a wild side we all have a dark side some hide the fact while other show it i, back in the day, showed both for i didn't give a damn some loved what they saw others turned and ran i do not dress to impress i dress to be me    
Thoughts On A Rainy Day
You tell me tomorrow, is where I'll find my dreams..... But every today that passes me by,         leaves me empty. Inside this shell my soul lies sleeping, Another day passes and still....        my heart is weeping.   I've journey'd across rugged mountains With violence gushing from my veins....       But that has made me older then I should be,       And now I'm tired, So tired.   You tell me tomorrow, I'll find peace on the oppisate shore... Well why can't it be where I'm standing now!!!!! I've searched long and hard....      And now I'm tired, So tired I bathe myself in a crystalized stream.. Of lonely, unshed tears, I cry for the world and Yes!!,                    I cry for me.  I've seen love drenched, in crimson blood, And I've seen hate         cold,hard hate... Immerssed in the brightness of holy innocense. I've felt the outcome of these battles i my heart......                          And now I'm tired...So damn tired.       (written before my da
So...I came up with this phrase about 16 years ago.  It was a school assignment to come up with a new way to say goodbye without the sadness of a goodbye.  I couldn't think of anything better than cya later and then my GF at the time told me sweet dreams at the end of a steamy chat on the phone.  Thats when I thought about all of the forever, and goodbye's out there and coined the phrase "Sweet Dreams and Happy Thoughts Forever." Its a wonderful saying that lets you know that no matter what happens, no matter where we end up, I will always be thinking of you and wishing you the best.  There has been a lot of happiness and sadness in life, as each day there are good things and bad things happening to all of us.  In the end, as rude as someone may be, there is always a feeling of hope. Hope being something we all share in common.  Whether it is selfless thoughts or greed, we all desire something in life at any given time.  This is what we have been blessed or cursed with; endless thoug
There are a lot of different things I look for in a guy. Everyone wants something different. = The guy has to be smart for sure. he has to be able to have a decent conversation, without his eyes glazing over. (yes, its happened so many times) = He has to like to have fun. For example, if I get in the mood to go do something like go play volleyball on the beach, or go out for ice  cream and walking around the park, or rent a lot of goofy movies and lay on the couch and have a maration. He has to be real. = He has to be sensual. I know everyone would be like, Umm...hello, he is a MAN?. Sensual is a lot different from sexual. Sensual means that you can take your time, and be completely consumed in the other person. wanting to pleasure eachother beyond all dreams. Where emotions are involved too, and not just bodies. = He has to understand me. Like if I have a shitty day at work, and then tell him how bad it was, he immediately knows what to do to make me smile, and forget about everyt
dont know wut i feel,  dont know wut i should feel, dont got any right feelin like i do, shit just hate the way i feel idk im lost lost in thoughts lost in feelings idk wut u want from me idk wut i want myself im so lost lost in my own world lost in ur world idk i just... idk amazing its amazing how  u can smile at mewhen u really just wanna push me off a clip if u couldits amazing how u can whipe my tears, but behind my back ur the one causing it its amazing how u can say the sweetes thing to mebut then turn around n say most hurtfull things u canbut wuts the most amazing wit all off this, is thatu think i dont know*smirks* seriously how stuiped do u think i am?Bitch just fuckin speake up n cut the damn crap,why bother bein fake? i already know why waste ur time bein fake?aint gonna do u no good, just gonna piss u off more actuallyI LOVE MAKIN HATERS HATE ME EVEN MORE *smirks*
I am not much of a blogger but I love to conversate and seeing how this is a way to do it on here, here goes! Why me ask yourself why did you accept and or pick me as a friend. Did you read the about me section or just on looks alone was your choice made, for the record im okay with either but I find the latter a tad more ego boosting lol hey im Italian how people percive my looks is important:).  Moving on if you read what little I have put in and then decided than thank you as well, its not that im lazy or dont want you to know but this is my like 4 th go around in this place, and its just gets old having to put everything in again.  However for the record on why I picked you I always read the profile if there is one but I wont lie as im scanning looks do get my attention.  So if you want to know more about Why me and there is a lot to know I assure you then please start a conversation and what easier way is there than to have somthing to ask:).  see ya!
This is a test (from me and to myself) to see how well I know myself. Obviously I know my name. (I choose not to tell you my real name though) :) I know my age. (though I could be lying about that too ^_^) I know where I live. (Okay I definitely lied there lol, pick one out of my photo albums... ^_^) I know that I hate school, but some things are fun like the electives. Its hard though. Criminal Justice for example, is hard but interesting. Im on my last year of english but it suckssss. I'm stuck on math and may have to do some credits at Adult School to finish up my math credits in an easier way. I wanted to do a blood drive but I don't know where to look for people who are interested in helping. I get headaches alot. I smoke ... and I drink alot. I have as much fun as I can. I take whatever opportunity sounds good to me, if it seems like a once in a lifetime chance, or taking whatever I can get. Bad things have happened to me... but lets not go there. I try to focus on the good, bu
okay so, you wanna discuss your feelings with a male. wait stop right there. because one males don't understand feelings like we do,and two, if they are assholes. they really don't give a fuck about how you feel. now sometimes you'll get lucky and find a male who is truely understanding and will listen to you, and try to help if they can.but this is really rare. so, how do you deal with this? this is really quite simple really 1. find something that you find funny to get your mind off of these feelings that you are having 2. always remember that you are never alone, because somewhere there is another woman who is feeling the same way you do. 3. and most importantly always know that the pain does go away, but it is up to you, to rid yourself the pain of the male causing it. 4.spend time with friends and family members, because they truely care and want you to be happy. 5. avoid anything that would cause you to think about those feelings, because it will only make matters worse.
It is quite interesting how I woke up this morning and was off tp wprk as usual at about 420 am and I decided to put in what I thought was a Korn CD that I got from work about a wk ago.  Because it was dark and i really wasn't paying attn to nothing but the case, I put it in and let it commence to play.  Once it got going, this is what I heard:All I Think About Is You I woke up today in London As the plane was touching down All I could think about was monday Maybe I'd be back around If this keeps me away much longer I dont know what I would do You've got to understand it's a hard life That I'm going thru And when the night falls in around me I dont think I'll make it thru I'll use your light to guide the way Cause all I think about is you But L.A. is getting kind of crazy And New York is getting kind of cold I keep my head from getting lazy I just cant wait to get back home And all these days I spend away I'll make up for this I swear I need your love to hold me up when it's all to mu
Thoughts And Ramblings
Well here is my first entry in my blog.  Its getting real exciting around here for me.  Tommorow I have a phone interview with a company in texas, and if all goes well i will no longer have to travel around and can finally get some stability in my life.  Not saying I dont love to travel, but when you do it 90% of the year, it gets  For those of you who dont know, I am a wind turbine technician and it is the most awsome career anyone could ever have.  I LOVE MY JOB!!!!lol  Now its just a matter of getting a new car.  I love my crown vic, but its really killing me with gas prices....  I'm still working on my music, and im going to be posting my lyrics in the other blog for people to read and tell me what they think.  I might even put in some of my short stories in here but i dont know about all that heh.  My one big dream is to have one of my songs published and be able to hear it on the radio.  I think i have a good shot at it, but i have to actually finish up more than one
Thoughts & Feelings
Thoughts Of Fubar
I created my fubar account a couple years ago but never really used it until recently. When I found lounges I thought wow this is cool I can listen to some Jams talk some shit and make some friends. This doesnt seem to be the case. Most of the lounges I have been in are filled with staff and bullshit whos sole purpose it seems is to make themselves seem important. If your being an asshole you should be able to be called on it instead of hiding behind some bullshit title of lounge staff. I thought the purpose of a lounge was to shoot the shit enjoy each others company and talk about whatever. If your a member of a lounge that plays good hard rock and arent full of youselves please get a hold of me.
A Thoughtful Mind
Last nite was Thanksgiving. Hope you all enjoyed a wonderful evening and a delicious meal.   And I hope you families with soldiers abroad had called them to show them that you think of them, sent parcels and letters.   I was a soldier, 13 years ago. It was the aftermath of the Balkan Conflict - Serbs and Bosniaks, Croats and Albanians fighting and my unit was in Sarajevo as peacekeepers. Today, our soldiers - American and German alike - stand in Afghanistan and fight against - who ? and for what ? We are told by our politicians, that they defend our freedom there. I wonder if this is so. Our freedom is attacked by a bunch of religious misguided dumb towelheads who never managed to build up something of worth. In 20 years of the terror of the Taliban regime, they blowed-up ancient artworks like Buddhist temples, Hindu shrines - even artifacts of the ancient realm of Bactria, invaded by Alexander the Great, were destroyed by the wrath of the Taliban. Museums were plundered, women p
Thought For The Day ....
March 24, 2010 ~ Wednesday Minding my own business, as I usually do on FUBAR because I'm shy & stuff, I get this mental case in my shout box .... ems1160: question for yaTo ems1160: yepems1160: you are in a bathroom stall smoking a cigarette suddely a penis comes through the hole and the voice on the other side says "surprise me" what would do?To ems1160: put my fuckin cigarette out on his dickems1160: ouch! any warning firstTo ems1160: and tell him ... SURPIRSE MOTHER FUCKERems1160: ouch! youd really put the cigarette out on his unsuspecting penis?To ems1160: now get your ass outta my fuckin shout box with that bullshitTo ems1160: if he's stupid enuff to stick it thru the hole ... hell yeaThought for the day????Don't put your fuckin dick thru a hole ... Especially if I'm the crazy bitch smoking a cigarette on the other side
Thoughts, Writtings, Letters Never Sent
I wrote this a few nights ago on my phone.  I just wanted to write it down.  I suppose it's weird to most folks but thanks ok.  I am weird LOL.  I wrote it so please give me the credit if for some odd reason it appeals to you and you share it.  Thanks! :)   Dear Soulmate, I miss you all the time.  It seems like a millenia since we were together.  Could be, maybe longer.  I often wonder if you remember me, heaven, the love we shared.  I've searched for you in the eyes of a million souls.  But none were you.  I know, I shouldn't've followed you here, I simply didn't feel that I would quite be as at home in heaven without you.  Plus I was afraid you might not make it home for a very long time, if ever, if I didn't come to remind you.  I also remember us wanting to experience human passion together.  Did you land here as a demon/fallen angel, or as a man?  Are you still here?  Have you already gone back home to heaven, and left me here to yearn?   None of these senseless selfish human
Thoughts From An Epiphany
So in any normal circumstance I'd never post anything here, but I figured I might give it a try. Actually, I was a frequent blogger years and years ago back during my undergraduate days (wow, I'm starting to feel old just thinking about it. And I just barely graduated a year ago as of Dec 13th here in 2 days). BUT, looking back on it; I see how immature I was back then. And as I've gotten a bit older, posts are fewer and far between; unless it seems important or something of relevance. Now on with the post... Abandonment? Meaning (as defined by Merriam-Webster) "given up." A lot of things can come to mind when you think "abandoned" (or any form of the word). Myself? It unfortunately brings back a lot of painful memories. Memories I never thought I'd ever remember. Not until 2 nights ago... I was on the phone with one of my best friends in Shreveport and while I was speaking, I happened to mention a few things on my mind. In particular, my string of horrible luck in relationships...
Im sitting here being ooo soo lazy this AM or evening if  you will and just have alot on my mind!!!  lol i am not gonna sit here and try to catch my miss spells, or my punctuation. lol i am on IE not firefox so this could get ugly spelling wise!! those of u that know me well know my fingers are way faster than my brain!!  I been sitting here looking through some pics from a friend that is stationed over in Afgan, as u will see in my pics i Uploaded a few of em!! Just yesterday i was fussin with my mom about the shoppin and the blah and the blah lol i just been really bah humbug this year, So i was getting ill with a few things on fubar and i decided look through the pics cus i had been meaning to do it!!!So i layed here and i really looked through those pics and I really let it sink in whats going on over there, ever since my cousin got killed in Iraq a few years back i have kinda blocked it out and some how managed to just pretend that its not going on till i came in contact with KW
Thoughts From Beyond The Living
hey first blog. put em up. LOL First and foremost i neeed to enter the newest theory that sprung from my mind today. health care is nothing more than a scam to force the general population to conform to neofacist docterins designed to clone us and then sterilize us so the World population growth can be dropped to nothing, allowing the government total control over our lives. Next........i'm at a lost, i not good about talking aboutt myself..... so please forgive if my thoughts are chaotic. oh i got stopped tonight. cop was going for glory bust. kept trying to get me to say i had drugs on me or in my car. which i didn't. but i also didn't have my liscence. which due to being so angry about not gettin his glory bust, he completely forgot about it, let me fof on a warning for failure to use my blinkers. freaking glory hounds.   not much else happened. so i guess i willl close. Ordum Necronis
Sometimes you think you know someone, and you see the side of them they show to people that they for some reason they hide from you. I just joined here, and just started using all the net stuff that my sister has been using for decades. As far back as i can remember she has had some sort of book or eletronic device in hand. But to day I saw what I guess most do, but I have always over looked. She is talented, and more pretty than I ever gave her credit for being. I feel sad in a way having over looked her in so many ways. But we are still here so maybe in time I can let her know the beauty I saw today viewing her and her world from where she spends so much of her time. I love you Tame'ra !!! I hope you know at least that !!!
Thoughts On Life
  i used to be searching for a permanent place. someone to stand by and take care of. i found it and it was wonderful for a very long time. but as the saying goes... people change! i didnt... but i have to now i see. i always loved making children smile. thats why i knew i had to have some of my own. i just didnt think about the heartbreak it would cause me to lose them. they say life isnt fair and i know how true that is. i love them more than anything in the world! its so troubling to know that someone will take my place and raise them as they want. the most i will miss is being able to be there for them at any moment they need me. i will always love her for giving me those little angels... but i know i just cant trust her anymore. the saddest thing is she never trusted me... why? im not really sure. most tell me she probably had a guilty conscience and was justifying herself by accusing me all the time. maybe... i dont care anymore!    im gonna find where i belong one day and then
Thoughts (works In Progress)
  1. Do not ask for what you can not take. Anything worth having will not just be giving freely. Ever. Everything has a price. 2.Being virtuous is overrated. It’s a sinner’s world. Having virtue while a lofty idea is a fools game. 3.People lie. Even by omission. 4.Do not want. Wanting can lead down the road to despair. If it is something you want try to do without. If you can not than it’s a need and that is a whole other case of worms.  5. Be careful of who or what you need. To need something or someone is to give control to some out side force. Don’t. 6. Remain in control. You control your fate and your destiny. Do not get side tracked by petty wants and diminishing needs. 7. Accept the truth about yourself. Do not live in self denial or have false hope. Try not to hope. Nothing hoped for is guaranteed. 8. Patience is a virtue worth subscribing to. Some things are worth waiting for 9. Look for the truth within The answers can be found in t
   Many people will walk in and out of your life,    but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.    To handle yourself, use your head;    To handle others, use your heart.    Anger is only one letter short of danger.    If someone betrays you once, it's his fault;    if he betrays you twice, it's your fault.    Great minds discuss ideas;    Average minds discuss events;    Small minds discuss people.    God gives every bird it's food,    But He does not throw it into it's nest.    He who loses money, loses much;    He who loses a friend, loses more;    He who loses faith, loses all.    Beautiful young people are acts of nature,    But beautiful old people are works of art.    Learn from the mistakes of others.    You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.    The tongue weighs practically nothing,    But so few people can hold it.    Friends, you and me....    you brought another friend...    and then there were 3...    we started our group...    Our
Thoughts For The Day
♥This is for all the strong ladies who have been through a lot in life and survived!! Say this out loud "I am strong because I know weakness. I am compassionate because I have experienced suffering. I am alive because I am a fighter. I am wise because I have been foolish. I can laugh because I have known sadness. I can love because I have known loss." Re-post if you are a strong woman who has weathered the storm but still loves to dance in the rain!♥♥♥ "Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't li
Thoughts Rolling In My Head
The new year Current mood:  accomplished Category: Blogging Well its that time once again, the new year is upon us, and so the fun begins (and the lies....ha ha). You may ask what I mean by lies? The lies of NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS. So we gather together and begin the celebration of ending the old and welcoming in the new. And as ussual, we create these outlandish goals for us to complete for the new year. The problem is we r never truely commit to what it is we wish to change. U want to be debt free? Can't wish for it to happen, you have to change your spending habits.  In fac,t in whatever u wish to accomplish its going to come down to "U" changing your routines. We r creatures of our routines. From driving to work, to taking a shower, and to when we even have sex 80% of the time. If u truely want to be successful in your resolution.....change the habit and routine of the item u wish to have differant. Just a thought, HAPPY NEW YEAR and good luck.....LMAOp.s. .........and commit It
Thoughts Of Nothing
  Well, it all looks the same, Bored, with playing this game. Anger, for what  was never done, The promise, that died in the sun.   You, pretended you loved me, Tell, me your down while towering above me. You won’t see, you won’t see, You won’t see the truth here, Much too  inconvienet, That you hurt me, and keep me down.   You say , your friends are all gone, Then why, am I the one who’s always alone? While you’re out running around? You’re tears they weigh my wings down,
"Everything we do is infused with the energy with which we do it. If we're frantic, life will be frantic. If we're peaceful, life will be peaceful. And so our goal in any situation becomes inner peace."
The riddles and games take a walk through a maze Can anyone solve these puzzles? Please fucking stop these puzzles! Intense the complexity that boggles my mind with the mystery- instilled by the ones who act kind. How frusterating! How disheartening! Can I obtain the patience to furbish solutions- so the questions stop pounding inside? -Oh how they fuck with my mind. The games and these riddles must die! FIN
Thoughts Of The Day
So I haven't done one of these in a while so here is my thought after a long break.......... hard to figure out where anyone goes and what anyone is doing. You can put it however you would like but facts are facts you never matter what you try to do. How hard you work to get where your at. In the end your just like everyone else. A nobody trying to be a somebody and a somebody trying to be a nobody. If fighting what you believe in is wrong then why even fight at all? Given its something worthy of life itself. Sad really....were all fighting in some way or another to keep happiness faith or what have you. When sometimes you should just take a step back
When you are literally a thousand miles away with true friends, drunk out of your mind, singingand generally happy but you are  still constantly thinking about that person wishing they were here wanting to hold and be held, it tells you something about  your heart. I have never believed I'd love someone like that and that it'd be one of the deepest pains i've ever had.  I just don't know what to do with you...You got under my skin and your making amends is falling apart at the seams. I just want to know the right answer to this, the right answer for my life and not just for the moment.      
Thoughts Of My Mind...
I missed my chance I sat and watched you walk out of my life. Not that I did anything to stop you but off you went, on to bigger and better things.  I was just person you saw out the corner of your eye some days as you came in and out of the coffee shop. In my head we did this dance like I would say hi and you would say hello and out the door you would go. Then the next day I would say hi and you would smile brush the hair over your ear and say hi.  And after bout a handful of hi and byes we would sit and chat over coffee and doughnuts. Then came time for me to ask you out and you would smile and say yes. Yes would have been the best phrase one simple man could ever hear.  Dating would be a breeze, there would be no fights just love and passion.  Passion that burned so bright it would rival the sun.  And the kids we would have would be gorgeous. Little talented angels that could hum a tune, turn a phrase, and are the humblest kids a person could ask for.  I would love till I lay down
Thoughts Of A Raven
My Heart beats with every thought of you. It knows no bounds to the joy that you bring to my life. You make my day with the sound of your voice. I know that right now we're apart and it won't be for  much longer. Soon my love , we'll be together again in each other's arms, were we belong. You make me laugh like nothing in the world is wrong. And the smiles that the thoughts of you bring to my face. In knowing you, I now know the true me. The  real woman that  I was meant to be in this  life. You mean everything to me. I am yours and you are mine. Forever this will be. I love you, baby.  Here's to us..  Hoping to have many new memories with you.   Hinder: Heaven Sent Lyrics   Never saw the chemistry that was there with you and me It's been a long time coming Well come on It's freaking me out that I didn't see You're so damn hot girl it's just crazy And without a doubt I still can't believe That you were right there in front of me Never saw the chemistry That was there with you and me
Thoughts Of A Sick Mind
English Translation: In a dress made of light she came up to meI know like it was todayI was so youngFeeling awkwardBut still I never regretted itShe shouted words into my faceThe tongue bristled with lustIt was only her language I didn’t understandI didn’t regret itOh no, there’s nothing at allOh no, I regret nothingWhen I left her skinSpring bleeds in ParisI didn’t know my bodyToo shy to look at itShe showed it to me in the lightI've never regretted itThe lips often sold but softAnd touch them eternallyWhen I left her mouthThen I began to freezeShe shouted words into my faceThe tongue bristled with lustIt was only her language I didn’t understandI don’t regret itOh no, there’s nothing at allOh no, I regret nothingWhen I left her skinSpring bleeds in ParisA whisper fell into my lapAnd would lead a fine soundSpeaking a lot and saying nothingAnd it felt goodShe shouted words into my faceAnd took a deep bowIt was only her language I didn’t
Hmmmm I don't really drink anymore, but I do have some fond memories of my drinking days.  And who was that passing me long island ice tea's.  Holy crap.  Those things used to be my drink, but now days that makes me think of Rolaids.  Never the less I can still in joy the thought of you folks trying to get my drunk. lol    Now I know that it is supposed to be a party.  But what do you know.  I get invited. Desided to check it out.  Even from a security stand point.  Seems cool to me, and here I am on a machine that I don't have any mug shots loaded on too.  Than again.  Must I brake another camera?  lol   A bit about me.  I am a father or four year old twins with full custody.  So real bars are kind of out of the question for most of the time.  Also I do have my own small business that I'm not going to talk about shop at this time.  What I will say is that those that really have something.  Papers and all, but nobody willing to hire you.  If you got what it takes, and it may mean a
I would like to put forth that we change what we call ourselves to Humanimals.I hear people all to often deny that they are animals or using the term in a derogatory manner. If you are not an animal, are you vegetable or mineral? We are the animal Human, we are subject to many of the same afflictions that other animals have, but supposedly have the intelligence to overcome them. We see them in our day to day lives, even make jokes about them. The 'terrible twos', the 'little adult' stage,the 'teenage rebellion', the 'seven year itch', the 'biological clock', and the 'mid-life crisis' are all examples. Most are designed to facilitate breeding and a diverse gene pool, but do not fit well into a monogamous relationship, if any wish further explanation on how these were meant to affect breeding, feel free to drop me a line and ask. If we are to overcome them we must be aware of them, educate ourselves about their effects, and be smart enough to overcome the; however in order
Thought I Would Say...
A field full of swaying long grass Memories of yesterday and far gone past Love gained love lost Though remaining locked in my heart A grave stands alone Bare and cold Nobody cares Nobody knows The bluest of skies Turning dark through thine eyes One lone rose remained standing Now it has died.   Something happened today that got me really thinking. I hate it sometimes when that happens. So, the question is... what is love? Is everyone lovable?My dad always said if I couldn't love myself then no man would love me either. How many think this is true? How does a person learn to love themself who doesn't know how TO love themself. Maybe someone could love someone who doesn't love themself and that person would learn they are lovable and would eventually love themself? Isn't it supposed to be about accepting someone for who they are inside and out.. with all their faults and insecurities? Oh well. I could go on but that is enough for now. So I have been sad the last couple days
Thoughts Please
My dear friend Kim Evans who fell over a waterfall in Sandy Utah on the 26th's body was found today I'm glad to see that she was found, It hurts still, but some sense of closure. THank you all for the thoughts and prayers on the matter.  I have an old friend from HS< who is missing. She was hiking on a first date, fell over a waterfall, body is missing, presumably dead. Please, if you are religious keep her family in prayers, if not, at least keep them in mind.
Thoughts And Rambles Of Txrose
Thoughts, Musings, And Other Crap
i have been on and off this site for almost 4 years, and when i first got on fubar i said and did lots of fucked up things to many ppl, now i admit while nobody is perfect, i was way out of line and a real asshole... i'm not here to try to make excuses for my past mistakes however... i am simply tryin to say that i have done lots of growing up and changed myself and the way i treat others for the better.   Yeah, i know i still have a long way to go and im not tryin to play a guilt trip on ppl i just want to ask anyone that i have wronged in the past to take the time for me to show that i have changed... and i am aware that i still make mistakes but over all i want to be a friend and someone that you all can be proud of and respect not think poorly because of my past mistakes or rumors.     in short, please give me a chance to show that i am someone with a good heart that is worth knowing...                                                                      thanks,             
Thoughts On The Sundry
As most of you know I have been talking about our place in the universe and how we can decipher some meaning for our lives from the clues given us by that unseen force that created this mess.  I have taken issue with a few aspects of the game plan as presented by that Creator as being not very well thought out and have been getting messages from some very well meaning people who want me to see the error of my thinking before I go straight to hell.  The problem is, as I readily inform them, I am already in hell so their warning does not ring true for me.  I am living on a planet that has been decimated on more than one occasion by other rocks flying at random and that have run into us basically wiping out life as we know it and if you watch the Discovery Channel we are told that is going to happen again....oh great!!! Have a nice day???   We have mountains spewing fire, tidal waves, the ground moves under our feet without warning, strange and very mean people who want to kill us for a v
Thoughts Of Everything, And Nothing
A heart beats within a troubled breast. Made from glass, once pure and clear. Now blackened by knowledge of evil. The beats slow, slow, slow... Then beats no more. I walk along the path life has given me... I wish for it to be smooth and straight.... Yet, by design, it twists and writhes as a serpent   Each of every fork in this path, I have turned the wrong way. The dead ends, the termination, lash scars upon my heart And penetrate my flesh,until blood flows as water   My mind is assaulted with behaviors, images, that speak only the slow death of decay Sheer evil seeks to rend flesh from my bones, and twist me into gross rictus The depravity washes over me like a tidal wave, and I can only stand there and scream as it does   Once I have returned to my path, I continue onwards I am alive, but bleeding with every part of me in anguish I continue on, for I cannot stop until death greets me in another fork in the road
A Thought That Just Came To Mind
Was wondering if anybody knew if waiting til im 29 was to late to start looking for a girlfriend.  
Thought You Should Know
Lindsay Lohan, 24, gets her name and face all over the news because she went to jail. But did you hear about any of the following? Justin Allen, 23, Brett Linley, 29, Matthew Weikert, 29, Justus Bartett, 27, Dave Santos, 21, Chase Stanley, 21, Jesse Reed, 26, Matthew Johnson, 21, Zachary Fisher, 24, Brandon King, 23,
Thoughts...mostly Evil Lol
Read the rest of the comics at Snafu-Comics   Read the rest of the comics at Snafu-Comics The colour grey: The sun shines through the crack in my curtain... My eyes slam shut. Not another day of agony inside of my mind! E very waking hour i spend trying to forget. The feelings within.   The steam rises, like many silver snakes from the kettle.. Listening intently to the sound of boiling, Almost like rage. I can feel it building inside of me. I feel like the colour white. Alone. Restless.   As i sip on my tea,Trying to wake up and see sense. I wonder what things would be like without me? I start to dream of how to die... I feel like the colour green. Calm. And safe when i wonder this.   I long for the steel colour of metal in my skin. I desperately need to see the sound of blood. The feeling of escape. The knowing of peace. The colour black. Silent. Still.   The sun shines through the crack in my curtain... My eyes slam shut. Not another day of agony in
Thoughts, Ideas, Opinions (i,e, Reading Material)
I found this in on the world wide web. It's not the actual dark side astrology but it made me giggle and go hell yea at the same time. Thought I would share. Enjoy. Aries:Unless you are a masochist, never get tangled up with the sadistic Arian. They love to humiliate you, control you and inflict pain on you. They are the megalomaniacs of the zodiac and have an ego the size of the Empire State Building. Don’t cross them or you’ll find just how short a fuse they have – yes, they’re a notoriously bad-tempered lot. They have a propensity to invade Poland.Famous Arians: Adolf Hitler, Hugh Hefner, Alan Sugar, Celine Dion, Piers MorganTaurus:Taureans are completely materialistic. They know the cost of everything and the value of nothing. They are totally obsessed by wealth and fame and may end up as a stalker. Despite being so starstruck, they are jealous and resentful of anyone who has made it. They are stupid, dishonest and overbearing. If you suspect a Ta
We women are born detectives. In our eyes, all men are suspect and their adventures will end up being discovered – it's just a matter of time. Even if we are not in love with you, hearing "I love you” is a balm to our souls. And if you don't say it, we will notice and become sad. The same thing happens with "you are beautiful”. It takes less than two seconds to say these three magical words, which can change our nightmares into real fairy tales. If we ask what clothes we should wear, don't be annoyed if we put on exactly the opposite of what you chose – that's part of our nature. At a party we are capable of scanning the whole room in less than a minute to find out what interests us. Just watch. We think of sex with the same compulsion as men - or maybe even more so. The only difference is that we don't show it. If we don't accept immediately an invitation to dinner or a first date, don't worry – we just need a few days to lose the extra kil
Ugh.   I hate the holidays. Yeah call me a damn Scrooge....but I have my reasons. I could whine and bitch about my family being full of fail- and trust me they are seeing as nobody wants to take over hosting from my dad and stepmom, and both of them are tired of dealing with the ingratitude and catty infighting. Hell I don't blame them for that....unortunately my solution is the verbal equivalent of blunt force trauma. Crude, to the point, and rarely effective in anything but uniting the world against he who shoved his boot up its ass. So yeah, this year is the same as the last 4 family get together, not really much to honestly do, blah blah blah.   The holiday BS isn't the only thing bugging me. No no no I get to be a special kind of dumb as dogshit this year. I am- get this, it's honestly funny as fuck- deathly afraid that everything I have been trying to do for the past year is going to start coming together. Yes that's right those of you who even bother to read this
Thoughts And Other B.s
I feel like writing but I'm not sure what to say. I feel like rambling on about mindless bullshit but not in fear that no one will read. I feel like standing on top of the highest mountain to see what I've been missing and if I jumped, who would miss me. I feel like screaming Fuck You All but who would hear me, my voice would go horse because there's a long list of people who need my wrath. I feel like running for my life but not for a good cause, only to get away, far away from it all. I feel like shutting up now because this sounds like a pitiful cry but its not, its the truth, the freak that lives inside. I feel like ending it all but who would stop me, why would you want to if you knew my history. We all cant be perfect but some of us damn sure try. I cant be your mother figure, that job is already set aside. Aside for the 2 people in the world that are the ONLY reason why I haven't end this all. The only people I can truly call my own. The only people who look like me, the only pe
Thoughts Of A Man.
  Staind - Epiphany   Your words they make just a whisper Your face is so unclear I try to pay attention And the words just disappear Cuz it's always raining in my head Forget all the things i should have said So i speak to you in riddles Cuz my words get in my way I smoke the whole thing to my head And feel it wash away Cuz i can't take anymore of this I wanna come apart And did myself a little hole Inside your precious heart Cuz it's always raining in my head Forget all the things i should have said I am nothing more than A little boy inside That cries out for intention That i always try to hide Cuz i talk to you like children Though i don't know how i feel But i know i'll do the right thing If the right thing is in fear Cuz its always raining in my head Forget all the things i should have said All I want is a dam peace of mind. Thats all. Why so F@#$ing hard. I'm not a bad guy. I'm the nice guy thats ok with wining last the point is i was done. Shit sucks
Thought And Ponderings Orig Created For My Tagged Account
Ever been hurt so bad that your so numb you can’t function or even think straight. Your cruising along in a relationship and it’s great, everything is more perfect than you could have ever imagined. You get closer and closer, confessing feelings for each other. Finally, after all that searching your happy and content. Your basking in the sunlight and even rainy days seem somehow wonderful. You start to make long term plans with that special person, you share inside jokes together, you keep bonding closer and closer. You have finally found someone who totally gets you and you have a connection you have never felt before ever. And then one day that special person decides it’s just not right and they want out. You hit a brick wall full force and think to yourself that any kind of physical pain would be better than that feeling at that single moment. Been there? We all have. You sit there in utter disbelief and confusion. You just can’t figure out where or what went
Led To Believe A Lie. when you believe you've found the right person, You're mostly likely wrong, You're led to believe that everything is fine, Nothing is wrong. Your the happiest you have ever been. Till the day they crush your heart. They led you to believe you were in love. Some people can have that effect on you. With every touch, Every time they smile, Or look at you, Every breath they take, Every word that comes out of there precious mouth, Every hug, Ever time you look into there gorgeous eyes, You find you self lost every time. You're led to believe your in love. You believe every word they say. They LOVE you, You believe them. They could and would NEVER hurt you. You believe them. They say they want to see you smile, They get what they want every time. But that smile will fade away. In the end you realize you believed every lie. You're hurting so much, You can't hold on for much longer, Every tear you shed was for ever memory you made with each other, And knowing
When a man appreciates you for who you are and makes you feel like a real, beautiful woman and not some ugly, disgusting nobody. I haven't felt this way in the longest time
A fundamental skill for the survival of our species.  comprehension of what life, love, liberty, and freedom, mean, to all of us.  so that we may all, continue to, peacefully, co-exist.  Why? Why? do smart people not comprehend?  is it age?  At which age must they learn such lessons? in which environment?  whose decision is that? who the fuck do i sue? Funny thing... People often wonder why I'm so serious about things when they chat with me.   I find that funny, amuses me.  The reason I find it so amusing is because what most do not realize is that while I'm playing this game, I am not 'thinking' about this game.  This game is just a hobby, a past-time, a way to make a few friends.  Which, I'm oddly surprised, I've managed to accomplish exactly that.  I made a few friends, whom I like, or respect for various reasons. However, only a small handful of people, are actually aware of what I'm currently thinking at any given moment.  I, choose my friends, carefully.  I only reveal
Thoughts On Post Rock
to me music is, is one of those things that typically you don't get into conversations with your friends religion or politics, it's one of those things that can only lead to an disagreement.but recently, while i have been at work and put some kind of music on in the background just for some kind of extra noise that isn't the hustle and bustle of passing through customers at our establishment. people have been liking it. most of what has been played has music of the post-rock genre, with the exclusion of the staples of music that anyone actually likes music will like, (i.e. bowie, hendrix, miles davis, etc..).post-rock is to me a loose genre of semi-experimental, mostly instrumental form of music with a high demand for strong with that being said it incorporates a lot of musical influences from varied styles and genre of music, making it a very universal form of music.i believe that almost any person can find a part from some song of the genre and associate with
Thoughts From The Padded Room
You Know Youre Old Skool Fu..... If you can remember only being able to rate a profile ONCE in a lifetime Making it to the rank of Godfather was a big deal If you remember leveling groups If you competed in contests with the prize being a Big Pimpin Gift If you use to win spotlight every couple weeks with a bid of 32,000 fubucks.  If you remember Sporks You remember big nasty dimple ass pics being OK to run as default If you said to yourself... "Yeah RIGHT!" when 1 credit blings came out If you ever comment bombed  If you can remember JD being a chick ;) If you couldnt use a credit card on here if you wanted to. If you remember only being able to rate a pic once in a lifetime VIP? WTF is that? If you actually spent most of your time on here rating pix You paid attention to Bulletins If shouts were shitty... Oh no, that hasnt changed. Sorry If you use to trade stash rates If you can remember WTF a st
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Thoughts And Ramblings Of A Mad Man
since im getting older ive come to a cross roads in life of thought do i stay my path or do i look at all in a whole am i right in my ideals or am i wrong damed down a path of failure but given in to religion thats like calling defeat but is that my pride talking dont know but all i know is i try to keep good karma and what really is religion is it truth or is it a system of rules made by man with the threats of a place called hell to make us be better out of fear or is it a way to control a mass of people but in all religions and faiths there is the good but human intentions get in the way then greed anger and hate sorry to send like yoda but we are a broken people sitting on the edge of self destruction for the love of one ideal or people creates hate of outsiders look at all the events between the religions and people its always killing in the name of my god but why are we this blind that we forsake the teachings thats in our books of faith to throw back love peace and sernity for t
Got to thinking this week, I know a dangerous thing.  I'm new at this, so forgive me.... Recently I got hurt by a guy I cared alot for.  The funny thing is, like an angel, I made a friend just before it ended.. That friend has been absolutely wonderful.  He stood by me and listened to me cry, he helped me to be strong, to hold to my values when I wanted to sell myself short.  In just a few weeks he has come to mean alot to me.. So as I sit here and think of him, I got to wondering, how long does love truly take?  I have often told people to beware of infatuation, that soulmates don't exist.  Lately I have begun to wonder if I was kidding myself.  Friendship is a wonderful thing.  Never before have I felt that I can just call him, depend on him to be there.  I am very independent. I never lean on anyone for long... and I am not used to having someone that knows what a friend truly is.  And in teh same way, although I would do much for my friends, I have never truly done all that he h
 2/6/2011 8:03PMI lay awake, In our room, there's nothing left just me and you. we seem so cold, distant and used. I'm all alone, even when I'm with you. I reach out for you, Though nothings there. Where'd we go? what's with this dispare?At night I cry, wondering why? Why is this love so bitter sweet? What happened to us? You tell me it's all in my head, Tonight I'll cry in our bed. I feel so numb, So left out in the cold.Where you went? I do not know.  I miss you though. You're out of reach, where does that leave me? Who'll hold me tight, As the nightmares creep in? Who'll tell me it's alright, when  I cant take it anymore? Baby it's cold, I whine and I plea, But no ones here, Not even me.
There comes a time when you must stand alone.You must feel confident enough within yourself to follow your own dreams.You must be willing to make sacrifices.You must be capable of changing and rearranging your priorities so that your final goal can be achieved.Sometimes, familiarity and comfort need to be challenged.There are times when you must take a few extra chances and create your own realities.Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.Be confident enough that you won't settle for a compromise just to get by.Appreciate yourself by allowing yourself the opportunities to grow, develop, and find your true sense of purpose in this life.Don't stand in someone else's shadow when it's your sunlight that should lead the way.           Work hard at what you like to do and try to overcome all obstaclesLaugh at your mistakes and praise yourself for learning from themPick some flowers and appreciate the beauty of natureSay hello to strangers and enjoy the people you kno
So today was a really good day. Met a really cool guy and had a lot of fun with him...without falling into bed with him. Something very new for me. I really didnt want to leave when it was time to go and so we're suppose to get together again tomorrow only I'm thinking he doesnt really want too. I feel like I could just be a new toy and honestly I'm to a point in my life Im done being the toy and really honestly ready to settle down and find someone that I can devote my life too. Even if we never marry just to have that person by my side day and night. Im done being alone. Not saying I wanna move in with this guy or have him promise me things neither one of are even remotely ready for but I most definately want to see where this could go and really give it a shot. I guess I'm just beyond terrified to be hurt again and thus starting to protect myself because I had just a great time and truly got to be me with someone. Something I havent been able to do in a long time. What to do?! UGH!!
I STEPPED OUT ON YOU AFRAID OF GETTING TO CLOSE TO YOU ... AND NOW I WANT TO STEP BACK IN . YOU JUST HAVE THAT SOMETHING ABOUT YOU I CANT STEP AWAY FROM .. FEELING MAY CHANGE OVER TIME BUT WE BOTH KNOW THAT THERE IS STILL SOMETHING THERE . EVEN IF WE BOTH TRY AND HOLD BACK WE CANT HOLD BACK OUR FEELINGS .. YOU KNOW THAT YOU STILL WANT ME . AND I STILL WANT YOU .... SO  EITHER YOU TAKE THE FIRST STEP OR I WILL .... IM NOT GIVING UP THAT EASY ANYMORE !!!! Never thought a day in my life that i would be a widow at the age of 34 years old ..i lost my 38 yr old  husband  of 16 yrs to a massive stroke on june 11 2011 . it took us all by surprize but from this tragic lost i have leraned that you dont take things for granite  and you charish every momment like there your last . I sit back and  think what if ...... what if  we would have done this  or done this  but  know we'll never get that chance im still trying to get threw a day with out crying my eyes out bcuz im still waiting for him to c
Thoughts To Ponder On..:)
Thoughts From The Ride
Last year at 52 years of age I started riding a motorcycle. For the last 30 years the only two wheeler I had came with pedals. I was a little uncertain if this was a good idea, but I was at a time in life where I felt the need for something new and different. I got enough parts off of e-bay to piece together a 1981 Honda CB900 Custom and started my journey. I am so glad I took the leap! Rolling down these old county backroads has been a time of reflection I would not have had if I had remained on the couch. I think about everything and the ride usually gives me a fresh perspective. It is just a different way of seeing the world and you have to do it to understand. I was sharing this with my friend Bill, and he told me a story about him and his riding buddies trying to beat a storm headed their way as they were two states away from home. He said that they were fighting the wind hard trying to keep the bikes up and on the road for miles and keeping an eye on each other hoping no
Thoughts Of A Confused Woman!!
♥ Watching you walk out of my life hasnt made me bitter or cynical about love,but rather it has shown me that if i wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it would be when the right one comes along ♥   What do you do when you think your happy, But all they wanna do is run away or be around other people....Never giving you the chance to express your feelings and allways yelling when you cry...Your mind is a flame almost to ash, Cant think or Breathe, All you wanna do is die, Seems the easiest way out. Each passing moment is another heartache..Where do u go from here??   U go through life day by day never knowing whats going to happen in the next five minutes! u wake up each morning to start your day with a cup of coffee or whichever drink u prefer in the morning then u head off to do whatever it is u have planned for that day only to come home and eventually go to sleep and wake up to do it over again the next day! Maby your day will go differently th
Thought I Was A Gonner
Thought This Was So True
Lately I've been hard to reachI've been too long on my own Everybody has a private worldWhere they can be alone Are you calling me, are you trying to get throughAre you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for youI'm just so fuckin' depressedI just can seem to get out this slump If I could just get over this humpBut I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumpsFell down and I got right back up
Life is just a trip in to the unknown with a navigator without any clear picture. You can get hints and ideas but you will never know what will be behinde next cornor, and thats the beuty of it all. You can never tell what will be you can only follow a path that feels good what the outcome will be is left to see.   So make youre choises decide where to go follow your road in to the future and enjoy the ride! Morning and for others night time its all in a circel leading nowhere. Rain and sunshine humid and dry all in all its in balance all over. There can be no hate if there is no love its always two sides of a coin. The question is where do we go from here Sitting home all alone quiet after a day in the car its peacefull its silent its a way to get back in balance, to keep the balance is the ultimate challange for all of us. If we lose our balance we glide and try to hang on to life instead of be in controll balancing ón the edge, or traveling on the road that could lead to rui
Thoughts And Feeling
I give you this one thought to keep I am with you still - do not weep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the wswift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not think of me as gone - I am with you still - in each new dawn.
Thoughts From The Attic... Random Thoughts Of House
after a recent conversation with an amazing friend of mine about me being single... i decided to have a little open dialogue with myself. this is what transpired:   hmmm. the single life. the good life? most times. the sad times are the lonely times. better to settle and learn to love? been there, tried that. fuck that. just tired. tired of having relationships end bad. tired of giving my all to the wrong ones. tired of making the same mistakes the other guys make. ive learned though. ive spent time in a self induced prison. to reflect and pay for mistakes ive made. and like a reformed man, i refuse to make them again. the guy sitting in jail for killing someone drunk driving wishes every second of every day for his freedom. hes reminded everytime he opens his eyes and looks around of where he is and why hes there. and he swears to never repeat the actions that got him there. my mistakes. ive made the same ones everyone has. but im done making them. ill never forget the time in th
Thoughts In My Head
i was sitting on the edge of the abyss looking down into the darkness wondering what awaited me below my mind filled with thoughts of loniness and despair i sat there for hours gazing down into the abyss i stand ready to jump into the blackness when i hear a voice behind  me saying don't jump i reply why not jump into the abyss and end this suffering and pain i feel in my heart you step to my side and take my hand in yours and say because i love you and want to replace the suffering you feel with my love for you so please step away from the abyss and come be with me forever i look at you and turn away from the abyss and walk towards the light with your hand in mine.
The Thoughts Of A Nerd
Try to read this: TH15 M3554G3 53RV35 T0 PR0V3 H0W OUR M1ND5 C4N D0 4M4Z1NG TH1NG5! 1MPR3SS1V3 TH1NG5! 1N TH3 B3G1NN1NG 1T W4S H4RD BUT N0W, 0N TH15 L1N3 Y0UR M1ND 1S R34D1NG 1T 4UT0M4T1C4LLY W1TH PR4T1C4LLY N0 TH1NK1NG 1NV0LV3D R1GHT? B3 V3RY PR0UD ! Y0U D35ERVE 4 P4T 0N TH3 B4CK!  ok i wrote this before i became a "true" christian   and is good to read it and see how much of a different person i have become   You say your god has done so much for you you speak of how he changed your life well he has given me dirt and place on this forbidden earth but everything else has been lost in time everyday that passes by is a day that i feel further away from where it is that i stand I dont think I  dont know why I praise you when something good comes my way you always come along and take it all away you say I may fall but where I land is 10 thousands steps away to a new and brighter day I have never felt so pure inside until i met you at first you didnt see me the way i loo
So it was asked of me on here; Why so few friends ? you must not be very popular! I replied just in this way. It's true, I don't have a friend list in the 10, 14, 18 or 28,000+ numbers. Quite frankly I find it rediculous to be so egotistagle to believe that anyone has thousands of "friends". I'm not here to be in some popularity contest. I have no illusions that I am no more that who I am. If that's not good enough for people then that's their hang up. No, I don't have a tremendous amount of friends on here but that's not a bad thing. I have a manageable amount of friends so as to show each one a small measure of time and love and friendship. It's been my experiance that a great number of people get hateful and rude because they feel neglected and ignored. I say to them: Get over yourself, it's a damn internet site an electronic machine to communicate with people you don't know and most likely never will. These people don't give a damn about you or your problems. If they do, it's becau
To move on from such a toxic relationship is hard, especially when the other wishes you ill.  But I will not, and as much as this person thinks he has, let them destroy me!   I am far too good of a woman and person to be let on by a false prophet!  I knew the game the second time around and I played along while they played me. A fool I know, but I needed to be sure.  And unfortuantely I was correct!  I will no longer be bound to a single sheep again!  or any sheep for that matter.    The fact is this:  a cold heartless slab of meat isn't one to love or to even hate!  They are just that...meat!   They forgot one thing though.   My wrath! Thine is greater than Satan his self and I don't have to do a thing! not even lift one lil finger.  However, it is that great, more so than ever spoken of by that toxic one!   Never underestimate me!  I am a wonderful person, but to be fucked with isnt a good idea!   I have moved on.  I have great and "real" friends, and a few takers in line
“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.” — Michael Peake When your life is falling apart, there’s always the impulse to hold on: to him, to her, to it; to the way it was, to how you wanted it to be, to how you want it now. But in order to get through a crisis, you will have to let go of whatever is standing in your way or causing the problem; these are the handcuffs around your ankles, the tin cans tied to your tail. You will have to let go of whatever isn’t serving you, whatever you no longer need, whatever keeps you from moving forward, whatever you’re so attached to that you can’t see where you’re going. You may have to let go of your marriage, your friends, your job, your career, your house, your family members, your self-image, the way you deal with things, your past, your dreams of the future. I don’t know what you’ll have to let go of. That’s for you to discover, but I do kn
Thoughts From Moi
  There is a strong possibility that most people NEVER change.   There is a strong possibility that most players deny their game.   There is a strong possibility you are not the first, last or only.   There is a strong possibility that you can't fuck the pain away.   There is a strong possibility I am in a good place.   There is a strong possibility that I wish you nothing but the best.   There is a strong possibility that you need to learn how to love yourself, before you can ever be happy....espcecially with someone else.    There is a strong possibility that you are beautiful and you have NO idea.   There is a strong possibility that you will not see it until you are ready.    There is a strong possibility that I will never be there for you.   I will never hold your hand.   I will never be your friend.   I will never be what you need.   I will always be the answer to the question you cannot find.   I will smile.   I will laugh. I will be happy.   Wi
Thought Of The Day!
The Thought Of Her Beauty
With the thought of such beauty My heart skips a beat To hear an see this angel"s picture Starring straight back at me I can barrely believe my eyes With How pure her beauty is I can hardley catch my breathe An then i see her smile an my mind goes into awww If only i could hold her in my arms The amazing life we could have An only then I would know The rest of my life would be complete
Thoughts Opinions And Bullshit Or Simply Bullshit
There are many people who see pornography as a harmless expression of human sexuality. There are many men who see watching pornography as a mere leisurely activity. This sort of perspective is downright delusional and completely irresponsible. First of all, pornography is a highly regulated industry. It is regulated by the oppressive state to deflate the emotional and psychological energy in millions of people. The average male in the United States watches countless hours of pornography each week, estimates range from 3.2 hours to 5.1 hours. This becomes even more problematic when you consider the fact that pornography is a very complex form of consumption. When you watch pornography you are essentially watching a machine that is milking your sexuality. When you focus your eyes on the image on the screen, you are essentially having sex with the machine. When you devote all of your sexual and emotional attention to the screen, you are essentially becoming one with the screen, worshipp
The street light outside my window fli fli fli fli flickers and then connects filling the room with neon maybes and accidental babies and a girl in a spacesuit waiting at the airport with a suitcase full of letters she has been writing all of her life but no one on the planet seems able to understand even though she has written every single word in finest fluent english using both of her hands fli fli fli fli the street light disconnects again like the heartbeat of a dying man who lies there forever wondering if he has done enough said enough lived all that he can 12 more days and counting until he reaches the promised land fli fli fli fli the street light reconnects once more and the girl in the spacesuit sits down in the middle of the airport and slowly begins to unpack the contents of her suitcase carefully placing each page of her life in an illogical order that would make no sense to anyone not anyone except perhaps perhaps a dying man fli fli fli fli the streetlight d
this is a question that i wrote up on a called compatible astrology...but i figured i would post it up here as well....maybe i can get some answers.....please be kind...this is a very touchy subject for me and i dont really do well with mean things said to me when im down....if you havent any positive advice then please do not respond to this......   ok i am a 23 year old libra..(october 2nd) and my boyfriend of going on 8 months is a scorpio (november 1st). we first dated about 5 years ago, and he broke up with me because i moved to fast (damn libras and our need for love) and i never thought i would see or hear from him again. Well back in august i found him on facebook and it was like we were never apart. we started out as friends (for like 2 days...again im a silly libra) and when the subject of getting back together came up i told him "look, if you want to just be fuck buddys then thats fine....but dont sit here and get my heart in it by telling me you want to be with me again i
Word are just words until someone decides that they are worth putting into action. People talk all the time, they say words, but most of the time they never act in them. So just cuz you say something, doesn't mean shit. When you act on your words then I will believe it. Birth a beautiful and yet depressing process. Growing up is fun but always sad. Adulthood rewarding and painful, Is there ever a time in life that is not depressing, sad, or painful? From the moment that you are born you start to die. Which would mean, you are only happiest on your death bed?
Thoughts And Musings...
Now that I've trimmed down my friends list, I thought it'd be a good time to get to know you a bit better. And what better way to do that than by giving you the chance to tell me what you'd like to know? So here goes... You have one question. Ask me anything you want. I won't give out my full name, address, phone #, and bank account numbers. But anythng else I'll answer honestly as best I can. So who's going to be first? :-D  Wow... hard to believe I've been on Fubar over 4 years.  To be honest, I spent little time on the site at first because the real-life friends who'd invited me had already left. But about a year later, I checked back... and to my surprise found several friends from MySpace were now genuine fu-addicts. So I stuck around and naturally became hooked as well. Here on Fubar, I tend to keep things easy. I avoid drama, and for the most part stick to my own page. Although I do play a few games (Mafia, PowerPool, and occasionally Secret Admirer). And lately I've been p
i trap you in a hug im cozy as a bug you can be found with me in this room and i usually come only in one collor who or what in the bloody hell am i ?         joke  the dr calls this guy he says i have some bad news and i have some worse news the guy on the phone asks the dr ok whats the bad news the dr said u only have 24 hours left to live then the guy asks what could be worse then the bad news dr says i been trying to get ahold of you since yesterday En su habitaciónCuando el tiempo se detieneO se mueve a tu voluntad¿Dejarás que la mañana llegue pronto¿O me dejes tiradoEn tu oscuridad favoritaSu favorito a media luzTu conciencia favoritaTu esclavo favorito En su habitaciónDonde las almas desaparecenSólo que existe aquí¿Usted me lleva a su sillónO me dejes tiradoTu inocencia&nbs
Thoughts Of The Synner
1. Make vanilla pudding. Put in mayo jar. Sit on porch and watch the looks. 2 Wear shirt that's says "LIFE". then stand on corner handing out lemons.3. Get in to elevator and say ."Bet you all are wondering why i gathered you here.4. Run in to store ask what year it is. When someone answers yell "It Worked" the run out cheering.5. Follow jogger around with boom box playing Eye of the Tiger. For encouragement
Thoughts I've Just Jotted Down Over The Years...
She smiles to hide her fear,To hide the pain that's always near.Her stomach aches from being sadShe wants to stop feeling so bad. She wishes the world were a happier place,that way she could put a smile on her face.Will no one notice the pain that's inside?Can no one see how much she's cried?Wanting to feel free, wanting to be happy. She is tired of pretending there is no miseryWhat will it take for people to know that the smile she shows is fake?She has the world fooled into thinking shes pleasedWith how her life is going. Can they be so naive?But someday soon someone will seeSomeone will notice there is no bright light to light up her misery.To fade away the pain and someday soon that one person will make her really smile.   If you ever come to feel my pain or drown a day in my lonely rain,You would know what it's like to suffer in my hell. If you listened to the tales I have to tellyou would never again pass judgement on me.You may even understand why sometimes I flee, why I ru
A Thought To Think Without The Mind.   Four piece post punk band from columbus ohio. A Peaceful End. Please like us and support us.  Time after time your thoughts race as if they are falling like a penny dropped from the empire state building. Live to die, die to live. Its all in your head bottle after bottle you may end up dead. But you see the words are speak are never so clear and day after day I just filter my fear. The wrath of anxiety or the hope of a drug, the nauseating righteousness of a path of a thug. Liberation may be death and death is a living element if there is an afterlife. Well fuck if you don't fuck if you do, if I am arogant than so are you. So tell me the ways in which I must live, to bleed for an honer to take for a give. To look to the truth which may be the sky, but the truth isn't real the truth is a lie. A flase accusation a dying sensation a love for the hate a hate for the kill will you have the parasite to writ
True Love in todays day and age is a rear thing. Half are always in a hurry to find that special someone and build a life together. While the other half is loving recklessly into many hearts. While it seems that just a few find that true heart that magnifies true Love.What happends when you do meet that special someone who Loves like no other. Who cares so deep that you find yourself doing what may seem, to many, foolish things to show that Love. What happends when you loose that Love and not because the lack of Love but not trully knowing how to see it within that person but more importantly not seeing that Love and independence within yourself.In life to discover and keep the Love that you find that is more precious to you than the dreams that you keep inside for you only. You have to be ready to let your pride down and give that pride to the one you Love. Never give up the power within yourself. Only enhance that power with the Love and passion of that one person that makes your spi
Thoughts And Words.
Never thought i would feel so lucky..I have two great kids, my own place, and a family that loves me.Happiness really is priceless..
You'll never know what you really mean to me.  You'll never know how I see you, and how when I hear your voice my whole world lights up.  You dont see the smile I get when you text me while I'm at work, or hell, how I jump for my phone every time I get a text, my heart beating out of my chest hoping it's from you.  You don't know how much I hate falling asleep without you, waking up every hour or so because you're not beside me.  Or how my heart falls because I missed your call.  Or how it breaks at the disappointment in your voice when I hear your voicemail.  You'll never know what I would do for you, what I would give to be by your side.  You'll never understand the safety I feel in your arms. You are my world, my heart, the other half of my soul.  When we're apart, I don't feel whole, when we're together, I feel like we could do anything.  I miss you so desperately tonight, I want to cry.  I have cried tonight.  I love you, and the next 13 hours are going to drag! Jugga, you are e
Thoughts Of A Dom
I will update as needed:   First off I have nerve damage in most my body so I am often in a lot of pain, So if I seem grumpy I am not I am slow to type mostly because I type slow and my fingers swell or lose feeling. This is not said so that I can get sympathy but so that I Some will have a better understanding of who I am if I seem silent. I am a Dominant, my personality is the same but I am easy to get along with. BDSM is a lifestyle to me not just a game. I am very easy going and love to read, do outdoor activities, and most important spend time with my Daughter. Being a single father is a badge of honor for me. There are some good reasons to use Non Physical Punishments. One is in certain relationships the sub just cannot handle pain. Another is the opposite the sub loves pain. Some say it depends why the sub is getting the pain and this is true as well. I have tried both ways and they are effective but this will be a list of non physical ways of punishment. Write about the er
Little one with eyes of blue Hands small  Smile broad Dreams big  Heart pure How you're so forgiving of my faults I have no clue To be your hero is an honor I have let you down so many times But you still say I love you With your eyes , with a smile  You remind me that life is so worth while  I have to believe while I held the bottle my little one GOD held you Now as I grow as adults sometimes have to do  I know no one could ever love me as much as you Thank you little one for your trust and faith You knew I could be more than I ever showed  And because of your love I can grow May your eyes be wide and seeingMay you learn from the view where you're kneelingKnow the fear of the world that you're feeling Is the fear of a slaveMay you know how the fight was started Won' as much the snake as the gardenWear them both like a glove that you can't wainMay your mouth betray your wisdomMay you get what they failed to mentionMay your love be your only religionPreach it to us allM
Between us, there are so many miles Separately we share our smiles When I lay in bed at night I think one day together we will be But, that one day seems nowhere in sight I begin to toss and turn dreaming of you Then stop as I feel you near But upon opening my eyes You aren't really here I roll back over silently weeping Holding my pillow Thoughts of you begin to billow Like a dove with it's mate Soaring through the sky With such love and grace Together they fly Like theirs, my love for you is so alive There's so much of our life left untold No need to feel so alone
Thoughts And Poems
About YouYour touch is with me always,It’s burnt into my skin,As soft and warm as sun raysWhen a summer day sets in.Your soft voice never silent,It’s forever in my ears,Serenading every momentAnd calming all my fears.Your arms always enfold me,The strength of angels wings,They support and protect me whollyWith the safety a true love brings.While I can never repay you,For the wonder you bring to my life,I can forever be true,And forever be a true wife. Are There Angels?It is said there are AngelsIn Heaven aboveAnd they shine with the lightOf an inner loveOf these thingsI had not a clueBut that wasBefore I found youFor in you I’ve foundA love that is so rightIt shines all aroundWith the brightest of lightIt comes from somewhereSo deep withinThat it has no beginningAnd knows no endYour love is a lightThat brightens each dayOf all of the peopleYou see on your wayWhere ever you goOr whatever you doAll see the loveThat you have inside youThat God sent you hereTo a place whe
Thoughts From The Edge
Like all of the best we have been taken.Like all of the lost we have been had.Do you pray God kingdom come deliver us this day.Oh love is it all lost did they win. There is no ls no love in the concrete kingdom.And there is no lite and no life.I hear crys in the nieght.there is no love,no life,no lite.I must pull my sword. When all of the good have been taken.When all of the brave have been slain.Ravaged then raped anialation is all they left.Oh love is it lost did they win. Where have all the lost gone to.Where have the strong disapeard to.There is no one left to stand against them.Oh love is it lost did they win. I hear crys in the nieght.There is no love in the concrete kingdom.And there is no lite and no life.I hear no crys in the nieght.There is no love,no life,and no lite.I must pull my sword. I want to know why we are shrienking from the fieght.I said I want to know why we leting then poisen every ones miends. I hear crys in the nieght.I must pull my sword be fore
A angel came to me in my in my dreams last night,she whispered in my ear"fear not even when your alone I'am near.'' She wiped the tears from my eyes as she whispered once more" I will always keep you safe,these words i tell you, like my love are clean and pure forever lasting and futhermore just believe in me and you will see." As i opened my eyes from this dream I realized it was you whispering so softly..... I don't need to leave a light on to know your gone I don't need to be alone in the dark to feel this pain in my heart I don't need to hide my tears I've learned to confront my fears I don't need ... to return to when and dream again your memory will always live deep inside of me Will you swear on your life if I asked you tonite that your love for me is true Will you see through the lies unmask the disguise and never sever the ties that bind Will you hear the love in my voice know it's my choice when I say I love you Will you stand over m
Thoughts And Questions!!!!!!!
how did scooby doo and his gang get all that money to travel? how come ed edd and eddy had enough money to buy unlimited supplie but never enough money for a chaw breaker? and why the hell is there only one girl smurf???
The Thoughts Of The Filth
Subject Matter:: " OBVIOUSLY I am annoyed right now " Gender of the subject matter :: MALE   I am not one of those spiteful hateful females who feel the need to bash every man in the history of the penis, but right now...right this second I have one male in mind who I want to bash across the face with my words of wisdom. ( He is not on this site )   OBVIOUSLY... The word never made me more sick in my life.. " OBVIOUSLY I am annoyed right now..." How the fuck am I suppose to know when your annoyed when your bitch ass called me. " You Ok? " I ask in a sweet tone because unfortunately he is the only male that I also have the softest spot for. " Drop it. " He yells back at me..   Really?... This is how he treats I am utter garbage. He HAS to be bipolar...or just fucking special.   Not only has he cheated on me, left me numerous times and made fun of me behind my back..but each time when his stupid ass goes into the hospital because of his " disease " of sorts..Do
I wish I could find the words To tell you how I feel There is so much I want to say But I don't know where to start There is a thousand questions That I'd like to ask But I fear The answers might not be What I want to hear So I stay quiet Like there's nothing on my mind But the less I open up The more I find myself confused It leaves me lost and lonely I think I'm being used. There is a lot I need to know To help me understand To find the truth The hardest task Is how to learn, how to ask.   *Not my work
As I sit here at 130 AM EST, next to my grandmother who will likely not make it the rest of the week. I am left only to ponder the meaning of life, who my friends are (which comes without question), why we are who we are, and why people cant accept someone for who they are anymore. I sometimes wonder what the point to life is.. then as I watch my little boy play.. i realize.. its to learn.. and gain as much knowledge as possible before the last breath of life. Its also our purpose to pass on as much knowledge as possible to others so that they too can gain and enjoy the knowledge that they may not know. While I enjoy living life.. and enjoying things the way they are I also enjoy the way that I can put a smile on someones face when they need it. Knowing that a smile is on someones face because of me is one of the greatest feelings Ive ever had. My family at Constant Motion Radio has helped me a lot over the past couple months to better myself. Not only have they helped get sober and su
Thoughts And Ramblings
 I sit here in the ashes of yet another failed relationship and I am left wondering why does it seem that the only women that want me are ones with a grudge against men.I give me whole heart to these women,thinking that I have found the one....according to their words....only to find out that they have lied to me and cheated on me and then they bail....usually with no explanation as to why they did what they did to me.Don't get me wrong....I am FAR from perfect but,why do they always rip out my heart and feed it to the cat when all I did was give them my heart and try to show them what a GOOD man really is?Do these females seek out guys like me just to destroy us?  When I get into a relationship with a woman,I treat her like she is the only one...meaning that I don't play single online or anywhere else for that matter.I do this because I want the woman I am with to feel secure in knowing that there is ONE guy that won't cheat on them,or beat on them,or use them.Am I the one in the wro
My Love, My Life, My Loss Suicide My Heart The Cost The one who matters Gone Forever Ties that bind Burned and severed I miss Her, I miss HER, I MISS HER Something never gives Always Pain The Whole Is Big Deep And Dark it Grows and grows Hungry for my corrupted soul
If you try your going to fail so just do then cause then you wont fail! If you fall in love you open yourself to pain so then is it not just easier to not love so you wont feel pain? Why do people say I love you then turn around and treat those they love like their insignificant? Whats the use of making someone feel special if they are going to turn around the 8 days later and make them feel unwanted? If you have a reason to hold onto someone stick to it cause if they walk away you'll regret losing them. If I was meant to be here for a purpose what is it is it to suffer or is it to be happy? These are things that constantly run through my head in the past few days I have been doing some critical thinking cause of problems that have been arising in my real life after i brought someone to fubar.. I mean this site has ways of corrupting people it seems one minute your really close with eachother then the next you mean next to nothing to them its a vicious reality that im starting to notic
Thoughts And Quotes
Perhaps to her I was a knight in shining armor who couldn't fail to win the day. I know that I am less capable and less noble than the Knights of folklore and fairy tales. My only armor is my belief that life does have some kind of meaning to it. That when my last sun has set and last moon has risen, when the dawn comes that marks the moment when I am born with the dead, there will be mercy. If her thinking me a Knight nourished her hope and dreams, I might count myself a success for having done this and nothing more. She has survived by not by forgetting but by remembering. I see in her a diligent and obsessive accountant who records every offense in a mental ledger. When the day comes to settle accounts and past dues, she will know exactly what the payment must be. Although she is still young and fragile, she will do whatever it takes to extract from him the full balance that he owes. I’ll be the bad guy,I’ll take the black eye,When I walk out,You can slam the doo
Thoughts N Such
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you bec
Thoughts That Should Be Irradicated
Thoughts To Remember
2. A snowflake is one of nature's most fragile things, but just look what many of them can do when they stisk together. 1. Who recalls when folks got along without something if it cost too much?   3. If all your dreams don't come true, don't fret; all your nightmares don't either.  
I wish I still knew what it was like to have a real life. To have friends, to go out and do things. I wish I was like all the friends from High School I have on Facebook who are married and have kids. Or just have boyfriends or girlfriends, or are even single. All the ones I've been able to look up seem like they're doing great. Have the career they want or the family they want, or are on their way to achieving them. Or maybe they just have a day job that they're content with because the rest of their lives fulfill them. I wish I still remembered how to even want those things.  It's not that I don't care, it's that I can't. Somewhere along the line I think I forgot how to be a person. I really try to, but for some reason I just can't bring it out in me. I used to care. Probably too much. About what people thought of me, about finding someone to love, about going to school and starting a career. Now I literally could not care less about any of those things. Apathy is a funny thing. By d
Thoughts Or Words From A Nerd
Thought About It
My name is Brittany. I am 19 years old and I live in a small town on the West Coast. I'm not into all the girly things like shopping and getting my nails done or wearing high heels. I was raised by my father, therefore, I like things like: riding quads, shooting guns, having mud wars, playing video games, wrestling, and watching sports. Don't get me wrong, I have a few girly qualities. I scream like a little girl when I see snakes or spiders, I use baby talk with my animals, I cry during certain movies or TV shows, and I always run to my daddy when I'm hurt, sad, or pissed off. My other hobbies include drawing, making music, singing, writing, hanging out with friends and loved ones, and meeting new people. I can't tell you my favorite color. Mostly because as an artist, I favor all the colors. Because every color brings out the beauty of at least one object. I am a VERY opinionated person. I have experienced hate at its worst. I have been bullied and judged by the way
If you have found a smile that is the sweetest you've known, If you have heard, within a voice, that echos of your own. If you have felt a touch that stirs the longings in your heart..And still feel that closeness in the moments you"re apart, If you have filled with wonder at the way two lives can blend.   To weave a perfect pattern that is seamless end to end, if you believe some things in life are meant to be, Then you have found your soulmate, your hearts own destiny I had completely given up on the hope to find my twin flame in this life. But then I found you…my best friend forever …my perfect passionate soul mate. . You just charmed me from the first glance. Sometimes I pinch myself to check if I am dreaming. Ever since I met you I feel like I am the luckiest person alive Darling you have been the first and will be the only one ever to touch my heart and soul. I want to grow old with you and I look forward to the wonderful years ahead in our lives. Now wh
Thoughts Of Someone Beautifully Wronged...
Thoughts That Make It To The Outside World.
The Warrior of the Light has learned that it is best to follow the light. He has behaved treacherously, he has lied, he has strayed from the path, he has courted darkness and everything was fine, as if nothing had happened. Then an abyss suddenly opens up. One can take a thousand steps in safety, but a single step too many can put an end to everything. The Warrior stops before he destroys himself. When he makes that decision, he hears four comments: "You always do the wrong thing. You're too old to change. You're no good. You don't deserve it." He looks up at the sky. And a voice says: "My dear, everyone makes mistakes. You're forgiven, but I cannot force that forgiveness on you. It's your choice." The true Warrior of the Light accepts that forgiveness. -Paulo Coelho
Hey, and thanks for taking some time to hear/see so more from yours truly.  I dont even know if this is the right place for this but it's gonna be where it is so there.  With regard to Friends I will add most anyone, with that I have my own reasons for being here. There is Fubar the Game which is so far beyond me I just dont get it and I hope there is fubar the Social site where people who actually want to talk to each other can meet.  btw before your radar goes off talk is not code for hook-up!!! so lower your shields now! I like conversation I just moved to a new area and im meeting people here but I enjoy meeting people everywhere. So if you have like 3000 or 7000 or whatever ridicoulous number of "friends" you have which it is physically impossible for you to even talk to half of these people on one to one basis in a year let alone a week or day.  then I am not the guy you want to add or ask to add.  sorry I am not one of your drones to fuel your FU rank.  There is nothing wrong wi
Just some thoughts running through my head, so I thought I'd share.  My grandfather has been really sick with leukemia and other diseases/infections. It's been really rough seeing him go downhill like this. It's even harder to see the effect it has on my grandmother. She's 76 years young, and this has been draining her. Lack of sleep and lack of food- she is worn out. Through all of this though she's remained strong. My grandfather is too weak to fight at this point, sadly, it's become a waiting game at this point.  I won't forget the other day I was leaving their house and I went to say bye to my grandfather. I took his hand as he was resting in bed, told him I loved him. He said he loved me too then he began to pat my hand and said "it'll be okay." I want to believe him so badly.  What I'm getting at is, is that Christmas is around the with your family. Enjoy the time with them as much as you can. Even people that aren't your family memebers. Close friends. Tell them y
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Thp Killed In Line Of Duty
this is a sad day in tennessee. this young trooper was shoot and killed in the line of duty my hearts and prayer go out to this man family . may god keep his family safe.we need to think of these lawinforcement officers in are communty.just take the time and tell them what a good job they are doing for the communty
4th Plae Need Ya
4th Place Who Wants To Help
in order to help me win u must rate,fan,add sexygirl then u may comment the shit out of me lol ooh i was told if i dont win... well forget wat i was told lol starts at 5pm today.... runs for 10 days but i need it done in 5 so the other 5 will be play time to add more 67,000 point min... thank u all.... *SEXYGIRLBLONDE* OWNER OF *THE DYNASTY CLUB*@ fubar ok i hope this all works but i think this is it and NO cheating...of course we have no cheaters as my friends lol ok so after u click on her link rate,add and fan her comp back to mine and click on mine and rate and comment the shit out of me lol.... thank u all.... ok i would love to thank everyone who has helped me and a few who has so much bad everyone i morphed for couldnt jump in and bomb me for 20 win for sure... thanks.... tongue....
44 Th President Barack Obama
WASHINGTON – "At Last" may have been just what President Barack Obama and his wife Michelle were thinking Tuesday night as they glided through their first inaugural dance to the Etta James classic. The Obamas were the star attraction at the Neighborhood Ball, the first of 10 inaugural celebrations they planned to attend, going into the early hours of Wednesday. The celebrations marked the end of a long day of formal inaugural events and the two-year campaign that put them in the White House. The president pulled his wife close and they danced a slow, dignified two-step while, offstage, Beyonce sang. The president spun first lady Michelle Obama once in a half-turn. Obama cut loose in a faster groove a few minutes later, as Shakira, Mary J. Blige, Faith Hill and Mariah Carey sang along with Stevie Wonder to his "Sign, Sealed, Delivered." The song was played at nearly all of Obama's rallies throughout the campaign. "You could tell that's a black president from the way he was m
Three Guys In Heaven
3 men died and went to heaven. At the Gate St. Peter stopped them and told them they each needed to answer a question so he could decide what type of transportation they each would get in Heaven. The first guy steps up and St. Peter asks him if he has ever been unfaithful to his wife, the man says that he has cheated on her 3 times. St. Peter considers this and hands him the keys to a little econemy car. The next man approaches and St. Peter asks him the same question. The man says he has cheated on his wife twice, St. Peter hand him the keys to a mid- size sedan. When the third man gets there St. Peter asks him the same question, The man looks him right in the eye and tells St. Peter that after 25 years of marrige he has never once cheated on his wife. St. Peter hands him over the Keys to a classic sports car. A few weeks later the three meet up again. The third guy is really upset. The first two look at him in disbelife and ask him what's wrong, he has this grea
Three Men
Three men in a plane crashed into an island full of cannibuls. The cannibuls found the 3 men and took them back to their village, and made a deal with them. They will let them live if complete their task. The men had to go into the forest and find 3 fruit of the same kind and stick it up their ass without an expression. The first guy returned with 3 apples; as the 2nd apple went in he made a weird face. So they ate him. The 2nd guy returns with 3 berries as the final one was going in, he started laughin. So they ate him. He meets the 1st guy again in heaven. The guy asked why did he laugh if he almost won. He said because the other guy had pineapples.
Three Names You Go By: 1. Mummy 2. CareBear 3. Mistress Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: 1. Gimp Mask 2. Drunken perverted grin 3. Leather Thong Three Things You Would Want in a Relationship: 1. Total Obedience 2. A marital sound-proofed basement 3. A shared love of Bumble Bees Three of Your Favorite Things to do: 1. Failing at being amusing 2. Laughing like Donkey from Shrek 3. Laughing like Donkey from Shrek when I fail to be amusing Three Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment: 1. Coffee Cake 2. Viggo offering Coffee Cake 3. Bugger the Coffee Cake, just Viggo Three pets you had/have: 1. A Bumble Bee called Eamon (sadly he died 2 days into my ownership but it was 1978 and veterinary care for suicidal insects was scarce) 2. Puppy Beast 3. A Manatee named Doris (ok so it's not a REAL Manatee, but she counts dammit!) Three people who will fill this out: 1. Pffffft.....erm Kaytie! DO IT! 2. Viggo Mortensen
Three Days Grace
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Three Days Off And Nothing To Do
Well its hump day again and am all alone and I have to work tonight :( what should a man do but make the best of it and wish all his friends a Happy ump Day :) Stay Warm every one and if you can do that fine some one to help!!! I have three days off and nothing to do but clean and wait for the big snow strom to come! Wait I take that back Thurday Night Is Beer Night!! Every one in the Mankato area go down to Mum's bar for beer night! What would u do with 3 days off? Let me know because I have no clue!
Obviously you are not understanding what we are looking for. We are looking for someone who is going to be with both of us. No strings attached, it is fine if you think i am attractive but you need to understand that this is a fantasy of ours. I am not trying to replace my wife, nor am i looking for someone to cheat with. We are looking for someone who is interested in both of us, and is not looking to hook up with me. You must understand that I am not looking for someone who has feelings for me, or is hoping to be with me in the future. We want someone who is gonna come into it for the same reasons as we are, just bringing a fantasy to life. We are not swingers, for right now this is a one time thing. We would also prefer someone who is experienced at threesomes, but not a requirement. We are very picky so if you reply you must have a recent photo. If you live a distance from us we will travel. We will also consider being with a married couple if they are interested. You can reply to
Three Love Poems!--read It!
Three Rednecks Working On A Tower
Three Rednecks were working up on a cell phone tower - Steve, Bruce and Ed. As they start their descent Steve slips, falls off the tower and is killed instantly. As the ambulance takes the body away, Bruce says, "Well, damn, someone should go and tell his wife." Ed says, "OK, I'm pretty good at that sensitive stuff, I'll do it." Two hours later, he comes back carrying a case of Budweiser. Bruce says, "Where did you get that beer, Ed?" "Steve's wife gave it to me," Ed replies. "That's unbelievable, you told the lady her husband was dead and she gave you beer?" "Well, not exactly", Ed says. "When she answered the door, I said to her, 'You must be Steve's Widow'." She said, "You must be mistaken, I'm not a widow.".... Then I said "I'll bet you a case of Budweiser you are." Rednecks Are Good At Sensitive Stuff......LOL
Three Burned Alive After Witch Hunt
A lynch mob has stoned and burned to death three women they accused of being witches in a Ugandan refugee camp, police have said. The victims were burned alive The victims were burned alive The police chief of Kitgum district Charles Oumo said the victims were attacked after the mysterious death of a motorcycle taxi driver. Mr Oumo said: "His skin started swelling up and blistering, he had pains all over. "He died in hospital after his condition worsened." Mr Oumo said police did not know the cause of the man's death, but locals assumed he had been poisoned. "They thought he was bewitched by someone who had sprinkled a potion on his boda-boda (motorcycle)," he said. In a harrowing echo of Europe's witch-hunts in the late middle ages, camp elders conducted a "trial" in which they determined who they thought was the witch by secret ballot. The police chief said: "They hunted down the top three and a mob descended on them. "They beat them with stones, sticks and
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Three Ladies
Three Murders
Study Carefully.....the clues are so blatant youwill be kicking yourself if you miss them!Don't look at the answers until you are sure youhave all three right. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Mystery one A man was found murdered Sunday morning. His wife immediately called the police. The police questioned the wife and staff and got these answers: The wife said she was sleeping. The cook was preparing breakfast. The gardener was gathering vegetables. The maid was getting the mail. The butler was polishing shoes in the pantry. The police instantly arrested the murderer. Who did it and how did they know? ------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- Mystery two A man walks into his bathroom and shoots himself right between the eyes using a real gun with real bullets. He walks out alive, with no blood anywhere and no, he didn't miss and he wasn't Superman or any other crusader wearing a cape
Three Things To Think About...
Three Things to Think About: 1. Cows 2. The Constitution, and 3. The Ten Commandments Cows - Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that our government can track a single cow born in Canada almost three years ago, right to the stall where she sleeps in the state of Washington? And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe we should give each of them a cow. The Constitution - They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq. Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore. The Ten Commandments - The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments posted in a courthouse is this: You cannot post "Thou Shalt Not Steal," "Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery", and "Thou Shall Not Lie" in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians. It creates a hostile work
Three Things To Ponder
1. Cows 2. The Constitution 3. The Ten Commandments . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Cows Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that our government can track a single cow born in Canada almost three years ago, right to the stall where she sleeps in the state of Washington? And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe we should give each of them a cow. The Constitution They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq . Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore. The Ten Commandments The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments posted in a courthouse is this: You cannot post "Thou Shalt Not Steal," "Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery", and "Thou Shall Not Lie" in a building full of lawyers, judges and p

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