kreig's blog: "Thoughts from the Edge"

I walk the shadows always alone.Looking watching as people run around like the sheep they are.Dearh walks beside me as I scater my darkness in the lieght of day.But even he fears what I can do.And I thienk of my lost love and grow colder inside.Hunting for that which will fill my dark and lost soul.
I have walked this earth long enough to know what man is.And what he is not.I have waged war on 4 out of 7 contanenets and sent many a man to his god what ever form that god took.I am warrier,hunter,and master of the nieght. Ihis world trys to kill me time and time again.And has come close twice as I died once only to come back 3 minets latter.Death fears me as dos the God of christens and there devil.I am nothing to fear i am only tierd and lost traveler.Looking for a warm harth,strong wine,and nieghtly play.My days of blood and death I leav be hinde.And hop to never unsheth my sword again.For Wine and cum can be washed away but the blood stays forever if only on my soul and in my dreams

I wrote this for my Gail after the second time she ran off.She ran away from home 4 or five times.Just to come back and say that no one treats her as I do.And she loved and missed me.I never showed or gave this to her but I post it to share it so I mieght get it out of my head and out in open.
You say you always stand by your man.So tell me something I don't understand.You said you loved me now thats a fact.Then you left me said you felt trapd.Some things you can't just explane away.But the hart ach and dowt is still with me to this day.You did not stand by me not at all.
All the times we were close.I remember thes times the most.I saw all my dreams come crashing down.Every time you walk out that door.I can't be happy with out YOu around.Now alone I keep the wolfs at bay.And ther is just one thing I can say .YOU did not stand by me why?
You must explane to me why this must be.Did you lie when You spoke to me about all we were going to be.Now I have a job but it don,t pay.I need cloths and a place to stay.But with out all of thes things I can do.But with out your love I can't make it through..But you don't care or understand my point of view.I guees there is nothing I can say or do.Just.Move on and show that you were rong about all you said and did.I was always true to you.
Since this time I have become a head chef and don verey well.But I still miss you and now you are always in my hart and soul.I thank you for rebilding after the army was done with me.And makeing me the some what normal person I am today.Ilove and miss you always Gail good bye

The futer has imploded into the present.With no nukler war the new battles are fought over peoples miends and souls.
Mega corporations are the are the new true goverments.The computer has created the new frontier.Though there is better liveing throuhg sciens and chemistry.We are all becoming to relient on it to simply survive.
The computer is the new way of expresing are selfs.Thouhg we say all infomation should be free it is not.Infomation is power and curancy in the virtual world we inhabit.
So now it is time we must miss trust authority.Question all it says and dos.Cyber Punks are the new rebels.Cyber cultur is comeing in under the raidar of the ordinary world.A unholly allienc of your hiegh tech world.And my world of organiezed decent
NOW I WELCOME YOU ALL TO THE NEW CYBER WORLD
MY CYBER PUNKS

Like all of the best we have been taken.Like all of the lost we have been had.Do you pray God kingdom come deliver us this day.Oh love is it all lost did they win.
There is no ls no love in the concrete kingdom.And there is no lite and no life.I hear crys in the nieght.there is no love,no life,no lite.I must pull my sword.
When all of the good have been taken.When all of the brave have been slain.Ravaged then raped anialation is all they left.Oh love is it lost did they win.
Where have all the lost gone to.Where have the strong disapeard to.There is no one left to stand against them.Oh love is it lost did they win.
I hear crys in the nieght.There is no love in the concrete kingdom.And there is no lite and no life.I hear no crys in the nieght.There is no love,no life,and no lite.I must pull my sword.
I want to know why we are shrienking from the fieght.I said I want to know why we leting then poisen every ones miends.
I hear crys in the nieght.I must pull my sword be fore they fall quiet.We must all make a stand befor there is no one left to cry in the nieght.

Dancing around the fire circuling the flame.Now lisen to the shadows calling out are names.I cry rock me like a baby.Cover me in your lieght.Bath me in your rainbow.Your sun restores my sieght.
Holy holy breath your lieght in to me.Holy holy Your are the dawn and I am your nieght.
Now I reach in to your lieght.Come and take a jurny through my land of nieght.The darkness strokes your face and takes away your sieght.My nieght is all around you.And the stars are in your hair.You will become tangled in the secrets we will finde hiden there.
Reaching through the madness to the other side.Where you my sun is riesing.With your arms streched wied.Holy holy breath your lite in to me.Holy holy you are the dawn And I your nieght.
The morning star rubs against the tapestry of the nieght.And the earth revolvs in perfect semitry to seek the sun.The nieght takes its final bowl.And the burth of the day exploded as the nieght fades away.
Reaching through the madness to the other side.When the moon is fadeing.With his arms streched out.But as it fades she crys.Rock me like a baby.COver me in nieght.You are going to bath me in your darkness.And your stars restore my soul.
Holy holly breath your nieght in to me.Holy holy you are my nieght and I am your dawn.


This is for a verey special some one you know who you are hope You like.

He was shoot up bad In Iraq.The fourth time in thirteen years of fieghting these wars.Some people knew about and other no one ever knew we were there.For a goverment he questaned more with each passing year.
He was tacking a Gray Hound (bus) back from home.After resting up befor he went back.Though the fire in his hart and eyes never flickerd or dimed.He knew the best of his good years were gone.
He got on the phone.he said to her I am thienking a lot about retiering.But the warier and army life is all I know.I do not know what to do with the rest.But I am just to burned out to go on.
So he told her scater my ashes over the road then let the strong wind blow.When I can't walk away it's my time to go.
He said girl my road map to heaven has lead me far out of the way.Through burned out rubel tha once were home and towns.To my drunken nieghts trieing to forget.They take me to a early grave.
But befor he hung up the phone.He said be for you put dirt on these bones. Tell me one thing.What do you do with broken and baterd warier that has spent his whole life in the combat zone.
he told her again scater my ashes iver the road then let that strong wind blow.When I can't walk away it's my time to go.Now I must go.

I have been thienking it over.And I know just what to do.I have been thienking it over,And I know I just can not trust my self.
I am the Tutonic Prince covered in armor and steel.Hiden away till my time will come.Then my lover exposes me.And I know just what I must do.Know that she has made a dam fool of me
I will do what I have to do.I will do what I need to do.I want live my life.I am going to live my life.
On the run again just like in the past.But am I the hunted Or am I the hunter.As I lower my pistol of fine German steel.I never thought I would be so down and out haveing what could be my last meal.
But i know I can do this.It just took a few years.The time exacute my would be killers is near.As the morning comes I fiend the shadows to hied in once again.
Till the people a that made what I am come for me again.For they fear what I know and what I can do to them.I an the seed of there destruction.And One day will striek out and rule them all
I will do what I have to do/I will do what I need to do.I need to live.I am going to live my life

Man will kill man spreding blood across the land.Killing for religeon something I will never understand.t Then from across the sea comes wolfs like me.Blessed are the sheep killing on there gods camand. A country devieded will not stand.The end it is crystal clear.Blood will spill as a master warier race sweeps the land clean.And are baner soon will fly over what was once your land.

In the darkest depths of the shadows I walk.With the mist and vapors of forgoten ages clining to me.I am a lost traveler in this world.Always lonely but never alone.
With sword and spear I first walked.But over the years my wepons have changed.But never what I am or what I must do.
I give birth to change.I have bilt up empiers to only tear them down in four genarations.I set kings on thrones to only strip it from there sons.
I slay with out care of age,sex,or race.Change is violent and brutal at times.You must destroy so you can bild.Many must die so new and better life can grow.
Am I a force of evil.Or am I a force of good.This questan many have asked including my self.I am truely niether I am just a force of the Univers.A tool to be used and do a simple job.
There is a saying simple but true that replys to what I am.It is closeing time for this world.it is my job to clean up the mess,Turn out the lieght and look the door.

You see me now a vetran of a thousand difrent battles.I have been liveing on the edge where the winds of limbo roar.I am young enough to look at but far to old to be seen.The scars are all on the inside.I am not sure if there is any thing left of me.
You ask me why I am tiered.Why I can not speak to you.You blame me for my silence.And say it is time I changed the rules.But the war is still going on my dear.And just knowing what I know.I can not say if we will ever no.I can not say if we are ever gona be free.
You see me now a vetran of a thousand diffrent wars.My armor is destroyed and my wepons are all used up and broken.I am tiered and standing alone in the field.Wounds are all I am made of.Dare they say that this is victory.We are fighting the rong battles.It is time we clame victory for us not for them.