Dj GhostV90's blog: "thoughts on Life,Love, and relationships"

I know its been some time since i wrote one of these but then again allot has changed since i last wrote in my life.They say that a person can live there whole life without ever knowing love or being loved.Well I myself figured i would be the one never to find that true thing we all search and look for.In fact when it found me I had given up completely on the whole idea.Then something happend that changed my veiw on just about everything i thought i knew.

        Well one night here in fuland I was mixing live in a lounge when this nice girl asked me to play a song.I was fortunate to have it on hand even though it was a hard to find song.Well we talked  bit became freinds and passively kept in touch.I didnt know at this time how important this girl would be to me and mean to me in the time to come.I just figured hey i made a new freind and all was good.Turn the clock forward a ways and i love this girl with all my heart.She means more to me than I ever thought was possable.The thing is never say never because as soon as you say that its bound to happen.

       That being said and all I do have a little advice to offer if some of you wish to take it for what its worth. Find the one who loves you for you and is true to you and truthful with you.The right person will love you for and in spite of your flaws.We all have them and nobody was ever made perfect.Trust me on this if nuthing else finding that special one is worth all the time and whatever you had to deal with and go through to find them :)....

 

Your freind..... Dj GhostV9.0

Tired of so many things as of late i dunno where to begin.Of course some things dont suprise me because I knew how they would go to begin with.As most of us often do especially if they have been in a situation before.I think what iam most tired of right now is lies.I have no particular use for them.In the end they always end up badly.Mainly because you have to keep lieing to cover up the previous lie.Over time the lie gets so big theres no way to move.Some people get to me because they have no clue what they want.They will persue one thing till the get it no matter what it is and when they finally do they dont want it.Either that or lose intrest in it totally.Gues that could be said bout some relationships these days. That could be said for allot of other things as well.Seams some people are never truely happy with what they got.Even if its something good it often is never noticed till its gone.Then of course they say I want that back it was great.Witch sometimes never happens again.Even if it did would probably end up being unoticed or ignored as it was before.I mean shure its great while its new but after the new wears off it loses its appeal.The people notice those things that had been taken for granted wonders whats wrong with those people.Why cant they be happy with what they have been fortunate to get in the first place.I dont have an awnser for that because iam one of the people that wonder that myself.I think like this if your fortunate to get something,someone,or somewhere be happy you have it.Remember a person out there who would love to have or be where you are.Think about it a little bit because things can be lost in the blink of an eye.

I guess in the last blog it sounded like i had given up completely on the relationship love thing.Thats hardly the case even though it might have came off that way.I was just making observations on what i had noticed over time that some people may not notice because it has became the norm.Yes, people lie on both side male and female alike and use each other but not all are like that.Theres some decent folks remaining out there just finding them is difficult to say the least. In time maybe things will straighten out and people will do right by one another but who knows when that will be lol.....After a while the lies have gotta end somewhere right? Anyways enough on that one for now.I have come to understand in my own way that life is a series of misfortunes and triumphs with lessons to learn from each.There are those parts of that bring great joy that get you through the tough times.While other part bring pain that leave scars long after that sometimes never fully heal. The events we live through and learn from as well as the people we meet along the way become apart of our makeup.It makes us stronger and weaker in allot of ways by what we take from those things.Our own uniqueness come from all these things.Thats just the way I think on that one not saying its right or wrong.I always try to see things from a diffrent point of view.I think if others could do that sometimes some things wouldnt get crazy and out of hand as sometimes they tend to do. Is it me or has everyone got too politically correct these days.They spend so much time going after folks for what they say or do these days.Instead of minding there own things they have goin on themselves.I mean one person will snap on another person for something there guilty of if not more than the person the are slamming.Then they get all shocked and botherd when there hit in the face with it.What ever happend to personal freedoms we are all post to have.I think its kinda messed up when people try to impose there freedoms on another taking there freedoms away in the process.Meaning one persons freedom is more valued over another.Thats just me thinking out loud anyways on that one.Well if you made it this far congrats lol...another rambling in the books but more to come :)

I think its sad that for the most part great relationships have became a thing of the past.I mean shure you see the occasional couple that lasts a really long time but for the most part it has became a short term thing.I gues its because people no longer wanna work things out sometimes.They just dump the person there with and get somebody new.I have seen people that change who they are dateing like they change there clothes. I guess theres allot of things to blame for how things are now.My theory it has something to do with what I call the vicious cycle most times.Its where either a guy or girl burns the person they are with.That person being hurt treats the next they date in the same manner they was treated burning them.Makeing them pay for something they never did in the first place.The whole burn them before they can me thought pattern. The thought crossed my mind about the value people put on others.Looking at them for the wrong qualities and not the right ones.Then later wondering why things didn't work right.Just because a person looks a certain way or talks a certain way doesn't mean there good people.Sad to say but theres people that will tell you what you wanna hear just to get what they want.Then of course burn you soon after and move on. The game is played on both sides and is not in any way fair to either.I Think the words "I love you" have been so overly used that its lost allot of its meaning.In some cases theres people that dunno even what it means and say it anyway.Just don't think its something that should be throw around if its not meant.Just play things straight.The headache and the drama you would safe yourself from going through in the end by lieing would be worth it.

Ever wonderd about things in genral like why things are the way they are now today? No iam not gonna preach about stuff its not my style as you that read know.Think about it though guys look at girls mostly now for whats to be gained not what emotions are envovled in things.Its like oh the relationship isnt workin my way ..get a new one.... That girl seams too good to be true ..get a new one.. This guy doesnt have enough money...get a new one..this guy doesnt drive the right car.. get a new one. I could keep goin on the list is huge.I was inspred by a comercial i saw today witch I normally dont watch a whole heap of TV myself but it got me thinkin.Ever wonder why or how old couples got to be old couples.Its pretty simple actually they worked through the bad times to get to the good ones.People have become so independent and self obsorbed they pay no attention to the world around them.they say yeah i pay attention but they truely dont.Only see what they want to see.Only in times of tragedy you will see people go to help another for the most part.Not saying that people dont just saying in genral.In some cases certain people will even refuse help to avoid somebody seeing there weakness.Needing help sometimes is never somethin somebody should be ashamed or afraid of.Everyone eventually falls if you live long enough its apart of things.Allot today would rather destroy there fellow man than to help them.I think thats a sad thing indeed when common decency is outlived and outlasted by a profit margarine.Things have become to harsh so harsh in fact that being decent and doing the right thing means youll get barried by the next man/women.I was llistening to the politicians on TV like a few weeks ago they was gabbing about one thing and now there goin totally the oposite way...hmmmmmmm.. makes ya wonder why and how you can vote somebody in when they all lie only looking out for themselves.Then again politicians stopped lookin out for the little man long ago just nobody has noticed yet.Iam sorry got a little off point there and went on a bit of a tangent.Point is simple how can you say we stand united when all we do is seek to divide and destroy one another to get an upper hand.Maybe somewhere along the line people got money confused with everything else.Bottum line is money cant buy things that are priceless.like for instance ..Respect...Decencey..love..passion... those things dont have a price tag on them anywhere.I just wonder why things have become so emotionless and more machine like these days.Whatever happen to doin the right thing just because its theright thing and not for the advantages it might bring you.In the end no matter what you do you allways have to look at yourself in the mirror and you can possably fool everyone but you can never ever completely fool yourself.Blah..lol that was a long thought process thanks for reading if you feel like it leave a comment I allways apreciate those. ~Ghost~ special treat for those who like poetry and random writting below-- "Love grants us the strength to fight when all is lost...Gives us the ability to overcome the impossable...Give us a light of hope when all around us is dark .... The loss of Love shatters the heart into as many pieces as there are stars in the heavens but its the feeling of Love and that of being in Love thats worth the risk." ~Ghost~08~

When you look back to things of long ago in your life one thing comes to mind bout some of those events....What was i thinking? lol..Life never came with an instruction manual that made things easier.We make mistakes we fall and we get back up.Its all trial and error and if something doesnt work well we dont do it again...least we hope we dont at any rate.If life wasnt complicated enough you throw in love and that all by itself is enough to drive you crazy. Time goes by and you hurt peolpe along the way due to that lil word.If you look at it as a word just 4 letters but those for letters carry with them huge impact.Well they used to at one time till it was so overused to the point allot of meaning was lost.People say it just to say it now instead of using it when they mean it.Although that word has been a source for allot of great things it has also been s source of pain. Anyone who has even had a broken heart can tell ya its one of the worst pains to have.To care for somebody soo much and to be hurt by them is brutal but we risk that anyway.The reason is simple as well because being in love is the most amazing experience almost a person can have or hope to have.We all look for it in our own way and its not easy to find.A person can go there whole life and never experience it even.We just hope we are lucky enough to find it. We waste time on worrying on the little things and not the big things.We tend to value the wrong things most times and realize it too late.we try to change people to what we want them to be and expect it to happen witch most times it never does.We choose to fool ourselves sometimes even though we know what will happen and are hurt when it does. Yes we all have time in our past we have wasted but we learned lessons from it.Those lessons learned makes us who we are and makes us stronger in ways others may not know.We all carry scars that nobody sees or knows.We are all complicated in our own way.Judged from the outside by those who dont know a thing about you but what they see.Those people are just passers by the ones that count are the ones that take the time to know you and you them. Yes.... life is a cruel thing at times but we take the hits and keep moving on.. :)