WYZE's blog: "thoughts far and away"

created on 04/15/2009 | http://fubar.com/thoughts-far-and-away/b290800

posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;08:05&nbs-07:00;pm

I CRY INSIDE
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Im crying inside
Like the howl of the wind
Cold and all alone
The hurt in my throat
Like air caught up trying to get free
If I let these tears flow
I may not have the strength to hold back
As every teardrop falls without wings
So I sit silently holding in the pain of my heart
When you look into my eyes
You will see a smile so fake, for so long
Even Im fooled
Happiness
Is a word once filled my heart
They had turned to tears so long ago
And shattered like mirrors hitting the floor
That was when I saw my life
The reflection of me
That was when the light went out
And felt the darkness's embrace
The comfort she shared I took for love
As she hid me away from the world
And lonely wasnt so lonesome anymore
She holds me tight
As I shed silent tears into my soul
Soaked with sorrow and grief
I died so long ago
And today, all I want is to live again
The kind of life shared with someone
Someone to hold you tight
To love you just right
To share with you their world
As I would share with her mine
You see, this man
This person
Has been crying for so long
His search for comfort to rest his head
An ear to listen
Or maybe even a voice with sincerity
That's when the sadness would fade away
And darkness would release my heart
The silence would cease
And I know, I would love
Honestly
And my loyalty would forever be hers
That is my true
Always and forever
Im crying inside
As silent tears fall
I remember once long ago
Someone touched my heart
That stopped the hurt
And the pain in my throat went away
I could breath again
I could see again
The warmth of the light embrace me
I began to piece back the shattered happiness
Was I so naïve
I open my heart to her
The one I call, the illusionist
Her magic devastated my world
That was when I lost my way
And the word "love" equaled "lies"
It became something I didn't believe in anymore
Today, I wish for trust and loyalty
In the one whom id share with my heart
The one who would "hush" my silent tears away
Im crying inside
And I really don't know why
Its like mixed emotions
Wound into a giant ball
A burden unto myself
And I begin to smile inside
As laughter fill my heart
Such a fool to cry
Over the past, I must let go
And find joy in the now
And into the better tomorrows
Im crying inside
Because Ive been an idiot whom lost too many years
To the yesterday
Never once lived for today

As I played with the ghosts
The world passes me by
I cry inside

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posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;08:05&nbs-07:00;pm

the pain, that hurtz so sweet
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I think about you
and I smile
I think about you
and I wonder how you are is
it feels like forever
since I heard your voice dance
Im sitting here today
missing you my friend
the laughter
your smart azz wayz
I think about you
and I begin to laugh
remembering our talks
and telling you of the lil' stupid things I do
I cant think of any other time
I felt full of joy
its the little things like that
having me inspired to all my artistic wayz
its some one special like you
that has me dreaming
my heart begins to pound
and my mind becomes the rocket
and up up up and away
and Im gone
Im carried away
to worlds that only the wonder can create
taking me away to a place
where all the wonderful thoughts live
its not easy, to do this without you
its not easy to bring my thoughts to life
its like as though they only live off your aura
its like food to my heart
and when its nourished
I am fill with endless emotion
like drowning in the deep dark ocean
I think about you
and life is as simple as a smile
now
since you have been gone
I think about you
its not enough anymore
everything has become so far away
and I cant reach for it anymore
I think about you
and my heart
misses you too much
the wonders
is only pain
pain that hurt so sweet
thinking of you
is a teardrop away
where have you gone
its so lonesome without hearing your laughter
without hearing your songs
without hearing your voice
I think about you
I still smile
because you are happiness to my heart

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posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;08:05&nbs-07:00;pm

LIES, my heart tells
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Im not gonna cry
no, Im not gonna shed a tear
man
I thought it would be forever
everytime you..
everytime we..
dont you remember what we shared
it was real for me
everything was perfect
oh, was I so wrong
was I so blind
when you said that you loved me
was it your shield of suspision
then you left me alone
with these memories
taking me back to the time
when you held me tight
when you wispered them words, just so right
creating all them "feel so good" moments
the laughter, the joy
you were even there when I felt so low
telling me that everything will be okay
I believed you then
now, who is gonna tell me that
as I sit alone
with these thoughts falling into my hands
you were my baby, my love, my sweety
my heart filled with illumination of our love
I always felt warmth
even when the thought of you snuck up on me
covering my mind asking
"guess who"
I smiled, you silly girl
making me happy, when I wanted to be sad
then you would pounce on me
we would kiss
led from that to the bedroom
and everything would be alright
now, Im holding back tears
and the cry in my throat
I cant smile from these memories
because I know I would ball
no Im not gonna cry
no Im not gonna shed a tear
its like fighting superman
and every blow he gives to my heart
the pain of our love
begins to form as tears
gerl, Im missing you so much right now
your my baby, my love, my sweety
and heart shaped tears begin to fall
and break as they crash to the floor
I cant let you break my heart
because I love you so much
but, I guess I lied
when I said I wasnt gonna shed a tear
thats my love for you
and shedding the happy memories of you and I
remember
the time when we were stranded in the night
our ride broke down
we were far away from the world
just the stars in the night
the rain had passed and it was a lil cold
trying to get the car out the mud
you were in the drivers seat
as I tried pushing one more time
I slipped and fell into the puddle of mud
you began to laugh
I was pissed, trying to be serious
but, you kept laughing
I started to laugh with you
we couldnt move and we spent the night
I had to get out of my clothes
damn, why did you have to leave me
the times we had
I cant ever forget
tell you the truth
as I remembered that time
I began to laugh
and I started to cry
sitting here next to my phone
hoping you text or call
telling me
you wanna come back
I will always be waiting right here for you
I will not let my heart break
I will not let my heart ache
Im not blaming you baby
my love is as I promise
the one and only thing in my life that is not a lie
is true, real, alwayz and forever
Im so in love with you
I sign off
as my image of you fades away
that smile
I would never forget
I will not cry
I will not shed a tear

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posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;08:05&nbs-07:00;pm

rain
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have I found what Ive wished
Ive escaped into the idea
but, it seems Im still far from it
like clouds in my hands
it is untouchable
days I dream
and nights I seek
through my heart
as honest as I could believe
like rain falling down

where is this new world
all that beauty and wonder
the fireworks crashing in the deep blue
the moment that would last forever
and warm comfort
the extreme pain of joy in a heart
the sweet kiss
soft and gentle
to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth
like rain falling down

its a world made of candy
and everywhere you look
its a magical place
somewhere I could lose my mind
I want to be scared
tremble at the thought
this all could work
all of this is very real
the taste, the smell, the texture
the sounds and the sight
its like rain falling down

the lightnings flash fills my thoughts
a thunderous roar echos throughout my soul
the awakening
free falling into something Ive never
never ever truly known
what would it take
to hold you just once
to feel your touch
to bring to life all I dream
like the rain falling down

I can dream all the beauty of my heart
and share with you my wonders
and create amazing
I am a rainbow
with a pot of gold here in my heart
but, it seems I can only be found after the rain
leaving behind a new world
as I take away the old
someday
I will return, when the time calls
and I will be falling
like the rain

maybe, that is when someone
will finally catch me
and I will fall no more
as I become her embrace
with her lips to mine
we quench each others thirst
and our heart will beat as one
and forever I will stand by her
a day
a night
will come, as we share a slow jamm
in the rain from which I once fell
woul be the beat to our dance
and this love will become always
like rain falling down
I fall

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posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;08:05&nbs-07:00;pm

trail of truth
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yesterday

are memories

my mind, thinks back on them

many teachings

many learnings

thinking about where I have been

thinking about all I have done

lessons

of life

like walking through a place

without a path

its like

as you walk in this world

you must make this trail

first it may seem as though

you are walking in circles

you miss a step

you trip

you fall

you get hurt
there...

that is a lesson

was a lesson

its what you may see it as

then again

some paths end quickly

a little too soon

yet, they leave a visible tail

and...

some have walked far

yet, their path is faint

some learn to walk by watching others walking beside them

using their little tricks

and adapting them

for themselves

while...

others, they teach

teach from the paths they have walked

like laying bricks
each block is a valuable lesson
only they have carried
through sweat and tears
which holds their world together

like taking from the elements

working, to build a sturdy way

visible
"a seen"

just by knowing them

just by the look in their eyes

you can tell

their road is strong

as they stand stong

you take what you can from them

and you try what they have

put your own flavor to it

now, you are growing

now you are becoming

the stength you had seen

to some... a few

somehwere along the way

age depends

maybe the holy people watch

when it is, when it will be
when it might be
that they will bestow

the power unto you

when you are
or when you, may be ready

to carry more

because they see you have built this foundation

that will be very usefull

for what lies ahead

for yourself

the people

a voice within will whisper

what it may be

you begin to use the stars

to navigate your way

you begin to listen

to the whispers in the wind

giving you inspiration

then you remember

the old one's words

"this is a good way to live"

you take from that

what you will

and you carry yourself along

this path

which

will soon become a trail

from all the obstacles you have come across

these obstacles

some are not easy to live with

because it feels like a curse

that you will have to live with, forever

this is where many have fallen

as, I almost have

many times

through it, I found strength to stand

and keep moving forward

from encouraging words

friends, I have the most respect for today

only they know who they are

this path, becomes a trail, then it becomes a road

along this road you meet people

some will hurt you

just to hurt you

some will be-friend you

to have a friend

some will kill you

with your own words

or with theirs

some will, reach out, and touch your heart

so you can be the strength they see in you
its beauty to their eyes

within you, they see something special inside

one will become more

stand by your side no matter

no matter what happens

that is where this trail becomes a road

with this friend, you help start paths

that will become trails

and become roads

in the end, what you have learned on your path

on your trail

on your road

will be a teaching to others

what to do

what not to do
its not a judgement againts them
its a blueprint
its knowledge shared
life is a beautiful road
as many roads lead to many places
watch, listen, feel
understand

because, it will not lie, about who you are

because....

only you
walk the roads you build...

-artistic wayz

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posted on 05/10/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;07:05&nbs-07:00;pm

ive never been this far before
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Ive never been this far before
its like wandering deep into a dream
you dont want to wake from
to be consumed by the wonder
this world has to offer
its sweet, its beautiful, its sensational
its the biggest show ever
and this, I feel was the first time
the curtains ever opened
and you become engulfed
like standing in a waterfall
its great, the feeling of emotions
pouring unto your soul
you cant help but, stand in its rain
its the feeling of every splash
that explodes across your body
you dont wonder
you dont think
because, this time, its all real

then...
for a moment
there is silence
not even a soft gush of air
everything around you pauses
except fear, its the only rumble
the rises from your gut
like a hungry monster
taunting you for the kill
thoughts to yourself
suggests you
breathe...

slowly inhale
hold everything for a second

which feels like eternity
but, it has a sweet watery taste

then...
you exhale
you become alive
and all the darkness
fades away
exposing the monsters hidden away
they begin to scatter
running from something greater
something much more
with heart
and I sit here
with my thoughts floating
like a feather in a breeze
gently...
softly...
as I wander

slowly

into this dream of reality
I think to myself...

Ive never been this far before

as my heart led me here
it looks as though
I have a long ways to go

impatiently

but, with care

I will soon reach your heart

and forever

you will be mine

and I, yours

Ive never been this far before

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posted on 04/15/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;12:04&nbs-07:00;am

my friend
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I know, its been awhile
Since we communicated
In any way...
When you replied
My heart stopped...
I smiled with my thoughts
Remembering our talks
Over the phone...
The laughter we shared
The fun we had...
I even remembered
That one, most special day...
With, all who have been in my life
Have I ever been more honest
Was only with you...
I gave you my true and loyalty
And promised you
ALWAYS and FOREVER...
No matter what happens
You would always find a friend in me...
Even if the love we shared
Didn't last, but, what we had felt
It remains in our hearts...
Even though, things happened
You were the only woman
Who reached further into my heart
Re-lit a fire that burned out long ago...
And from the flame, I was reborn...
Softly touch me with a passion
That would become a double edge sword
I had to learn to wield...
I believe you were sent
To give life back to my heart
An angel only for me...
With a sweet and sensuous voice like yours
As I can still remember...
I still remember you saying my name
That was like a song, I can never forget...

There was nothing bad
The times of you and I
Ive always looked forward
To spending even one second with you
They were just as special
As a lifetime would give you and I

Remember, I took the effort
To learn a song, just to sing only for you
From time to time
I still sing that song, with an emotion
I shared with you that night
I miss you my friend
More that you think
Im glad, we shared a moment
Like yesterday
That is the best gift
You would have given me
Just to say hi
Much luv, always and forever
you left a joy in my heart

I would carry in the the New Year

and Beyond

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