ANG 1964's blog: "thought of the day"

i was told by my wife of 22 years that she was no longer in love with me...its very hard to face that when you are still in love...but it is what it is...and because of todays economy neither one of us have the resources to start anew....so now im here at a home that no longer feels like a home....i never felt more alone in my life....and we dont hate each other...she feels so guilty that shes causing me the pain that she has caused me...so much so that she wants to make sure that im not lonely...she wants to find someone that can replace her in my heart.....but i do appreciate it....see as wierd as it may sound i need to be loved i need to be wanted by someone..my greatest fear is that ill be alone for the rest of my life..i feel so lost and alone..at this point i dont care whether i live or die.....i dont want to wake up anymore..i rather be dead than face a life where im left to feel alone and worthless ....i dont think i have anything that anyone would find worthy...maybe its me....i guess im not worth loving

is it a stupid question..maybe for some but for those who cant get along with or wont get along with thier blood family or find yourself in a place where your blood family is far away...if you open your eyes you may find family in a friend or a group of friends and what may surprise you is that the dynamic may be inviting encouraging and beneficial...lucky are the few that can sustain a relationship that makes you feel better about yourself..blessed are the ones that can return the favor

had a conversation with a friend about crime and punishment...he couldnt understand that true justice has nothing to do with serving time...its about suffering the ills that you inflict on your victim...thats what it should be

some are chosen...others we choose..whatever the circumstance...as you travel that path just remember that strangers may become friends and friends may become strangers and thats ok as long as you embrace the change

they say silence is golden...the one thing to remember gold is heavy...keeping things inside can weigh you down and slow your inner growth..maturity is having the courage to raise your voice...let things out..free your soul

Depending on the type of person you are,loneliness can be a result of circumstance or personal choice,others however are just surrounded by the wrong people and if you can recognize that then you can start the process of changing your life and thats when inner strength comes into play because changing the known into the unknown can be the scariest thing you do