Silver Diamond's blog: "Thought for the Day"

I have been getting a few messages as of late, about my mafia character being mean or saying things that some feel is either offensive or cruel.

SO, I decided to write this blog to explain something to you folks that don't understand the concept of a "game."

On Fubar, I am me, Silver.

In Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie. Frankie has a COMPLETELY different personality than I do. She is a mobster that her sworn enemies are the Whack-A-Moles. She hates the moles and will stop at nothing to exterminate them.

Now, although Silver and Frankie are both smart asses, they are different entities. Whatever Frankie does or says in Fu-Mafia is NOT, I repeat, NOT a reflection of Silver. Silver doesn't hate anyone, including the real people behind the WAM's.

Get it yet?

When I am on Fubar, I am Silver.

When I am playing Fu-Mafia, I am Frankie.

If Frankie has done or said anything to anyone that pissed you off, while playing Fu-Mafia,  well, then, YAY! That's part of the game!! Keyword here being "game."

I am not going to apologize for playing a game.

Or I should say, Silver is not going to apologize for Frankie. Frankie is merely a character in a game. Nothing more.

If you can't get that, well then, you really need to just get a clue, or a life, or better yet, therapy.

I was just informed that I needed to change my mafia name because of the "profanity."

My mafia name was Frankie "Jeezuz" Fuggetaboutit.

Now mind you, no one was insulted by Frankie, or even the Jeezuz part. It was the last name that had people freaking out and running to Scrapper.

Fuggetaboutit? Really?? Srsly???

You idiots DO realize that it is a run together sentence of "Forget About It" only spelled the way an Italian mafia person would pronounce it. It is a common mafia expression.

What part of that do you FUCKTARDS not get??

Well, in order to keep the peace with admin, NOT the idiots that were some how offended, I have changed my name to Frankie "Jeezuz" Fettucini.

Gee, ya think maybe all the pasta loving people in this world will get offended?? I fucking hope so.

I received a call yesturday from the nursing home my mom has been in for the last several years. She was diagnosed with Lewybody's disease.

This is a disease that is closely related to both Parkinsons and Altzheimers as it tends to mimic both diseases symptoms.

She does not know who I am anymore. She hasn't for about 2 years now. She is lost in her own world.

The nursing home informed me that my mom is declining. She has withdrawn farther into her world and has stopped eating. The hospice nurse says that they don't expect her to last much longer. She's dying. Probably within the next couple months, if not sooner.

I have had my older brother and my step-mom both die in December. My step-mom ON Christmas day. Now my mom is not expected to make it to 2010.

I'm beginning to wonder if there is some weird Christmas curse on my family.

I'm wondering if knowing that someone is going to die is better than a sudden death? Both my brother and step-mom were sudden. Which was devastating to my family. Yet, in trying to make my kids understand and deal with it, I find myself questioning my own strength. I have always been the strong one, the one everyone leans on for comfort. But I'm wondering who will be my shoulder?

Death has never scared me before. But as I think about and watch my mom slowly dying, I'm beginning to get a little scared.

At least the hospice nurse says she seems to be happy and safe in her world. I can only hope she dies feeling happy and safe.

I love you mom.

It has been a long time since I typed anything. I'm not really sure what is going to come out now.

I'm just typing and going with the flow.

Feeling a bit lost lately. A little disengaged. Day after day, night after night surrounded by my own thoughts. My friends have their own life, they aren't interested in mine. Then again, I have a hard time letting anyone past my barriers. Just when I think I have my emotions in check, a tear finds its way down my cheek. I capture it with my sleeve of toughness but another one just replaces the captured one. It becomes a never ending cycle.

No one sees this, of course. This is my own private nightmare. A nightmare I can't seem to awaken from.

Someone needs to shake me or something.

sheesh

....it is the worst time of year for me.

But it doesn't have to be bad for others.

This year, I am asking anyone within the sound of my voice or the reading of this blog to do one thing this holiday season. Just one small gesture that will not only make the day of someone in need, but make your day as well.

Buy just 1 homeless person a hot meal.

Don't give them money, just buy them a meal. Go to McDonalds and buy a homeless child a Happy Meal.

You have no idea how much that one small gesture will be appreciated.

Kindness is the best gift.

Is gonna fuckin rock!

1. I have never had a Happy Hour or the Spotlight.

2. I have never had a blast or a ticker bought for me. I have paid for 3 and won 2 in auctions.

3. I have always paid for my own VIP. Don't have it now because I'm broke.

4. I have bought VIP's, blasts, tickers and bling packs for others, but never have recieved one.

5. I have donated millions of fubucks to people. I have never recieved any back unless I worked for it.

6. I have never been given an Auto 11 or a bomb, but I have given many.

7. I have never recieved anything higher than a 10 credit bling.

8. I have given 416 blings. I have recieved 192.

9. Tomorrow is my 3 year fu-versary here. I've been here since Lost Cherry and still have yet to make it Prophet.

10. I have never had my account deleted.

Some of you may think this is a ploy to get stuff, but if you really know me, you know that's not true. I see a lot of people on here, begging and crying for stuff and if they don't get it, they get all butt hurt.

I'm thinkin that if anyone has a right to get butt hurt about this kind of stuff, I do.

But, alas, I'm not.

This was basically just to let those of you know that whine and cry about not getting stuff on Fubar, or for those that are sick of those people, as I am, that there ARE a few of us non-point-whores left on the Fu.

Are you one of the few?

hehe

About 5 years ago, I was in the shower doing my regular breast exam, and I found a lump in my left breast. It was rather large and tender to the touch.

Needless to say, it freaked me the fuck out!!

I stressed over it for 5 days until I finally went to a clinic that offers free mamograms and had one done.

The results of the mamogram were that the lump was just a cyst, not cancer.

The doctor told me the fact that it hurt to the touch, was a good sign. He said that a cancer tumor would not hurt to the touch.

I'm not a VIP anymore, so I can't make my name pink, and I can't say that I'm a survivor or anything, but I do support Breast Cancer Awareness month.

PLEASE, go get a mamogram done, no matter what your age.

It might just save your life.

Ain't my grandkids cute as HECK?!!

Not that I'm partial, or anything! hehe

My Grandson, Jesse

My Granddaughter, Justice

Just had to show them off a little!

I'm done now!

Just a sort of pimp out blog to let these people know that I appreciate the fact that they NEVER fail to re-rate me.

In no particular order, these fine people are:

IT'S ME IS THAT YOU?

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PONYBOY0827 ~owned by Carolvision63~ PLZ DONT SEND LOUNGE INVITES

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~ Cherrybomb™ ~Owner of BUMP N GRIND~SBG~PLZ DONATE FUBUX SO I CAN LEVEL~

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»HoRnY AnGeL™« *Nasty Girl *

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Sproet

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~Ancient1~

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Witchie~~edition number 4

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ღ Ms. Mona Doll ღ

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Amoorty

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Kid SyN Owned by Pink & Gail & Devilish Impressions

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MЯ♣PΔÜŁ

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There may be more, but it's too early to think.

Anywayz, just know that you are appreciated! :)