LAUR1's blog: "Thoughts...."

I find myself dweling on the past Where I was, who I was with, and what I had Many thoughts retrace back to you And why we ended this way Where did we start to go wrong? Where did I start falling out of love? I don't blame myself I don't wonder what I did wrong I know that I gave all I had possible A fire lit inside me From the day I met you I longed to have you And I willingly gave myself to you Thou I also took it away Thought you were mine Thought you understood How much love I possessed For you and our child All the lies and stories The rumors and trouble I was real with you Honest; faithful; ride or die Its only right to expect it in return My faith was lost My purity taken My morals; gone My heart broken I just couldnt accept it any longer Revenge was never my agenda I dont get down like that No games; no disputes Not angry; just hopeless I slowly slipped away Slowly left my love Left my hopes and dreams Of you and I; together You dispise me for leaving Years have passed us by You are a different character Within a different world Living a different lifestyle A lifestyle I would NEVER allow My children grow in my heart With a Father that loves them and cares for them As you did my niece All those years before To this day I love you I love the man you once were The best friend I once had I don't weep in anger I weep in love

When we two parted In silence and tears Half broken-hearted To sever for years Feb 25th, almost morning State police, $2k they allow It felt like a warning Of what I feel now Outside frigid; cough and cold Lover's Day; a child, his. Truly the future was foretold Immiturity lead to this. Dec 14th, Your name came before me She knelt to whisper in my ear I wept uncontrollably Knowningly on the other side; You were here. The laws are all broken & freedom is your fame I pray your name; hear it spoken And share in the shame They know not, what I know thee Who knew you so well Indecisive to just let you be. My love is too deep to tell. In lust we met In love we conceived I shall never regret In silence I grieve If I should meet you After all these years How should I greet you? With silence and tears.