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My Rant For Today
Well, let's see. Thinkin it would have been smart of me to leave the past in the past. And left a few people off my buddy list. This back and forth yo-yo crap is done. I am soooo over it. Last time I checked my azz was not a doormat. Some seem to think so. Lets go to her and unload.. then go back to doin the same stuff i was complainin about... how bright is that? I am soooooooo done being a relationship counselor. Hell apparently thats all I am to certain people. Not a true friend as they keep tryin to convince me of. F!@# It the beeotch is back. Ms. Sweet Nice and Caring has been kicked around enough... shes gone. To those of you who have proven to me that i was right to keep my heart hidden instead of lettin you have a chance to break it.... Thank you. I knew I was safer living my way.. all you did was reinforce that fact for me. Alone is best for me... Keepin only a few close... and even of those few.. some must go. Find the happiness within, and you will f

My Rant! Bah!
My Rant! Bah! Current mood: annoyed Things are so fucked up and men have just been pissing me off more and more with their stupidity. No offense guys, it's just that sometimes I want to throw something at all of you because you are selfish and only care about yourself. Or you have a problem with wanting to listen. Here's my story: Certain people have been annoying me more lately. They take pills for there depression and anxiety and brag about the high it gives them and they smoke pot on a daily basis and don't consider how it makes there spouse or girlfriend feel. I try to tell that person to stop the things that they are doing, because I don't want to be around them and others don't want to be around them. For me in the future, it will cause problems with my daughter and I don't want her picking up habits like that. I don't want her thinking that taking pills & smoking pot will fix all of her problems. Am I in the wrong for discussing this matter with that person and wha

My Rant For The Day
I took my exam about 4 weeks ago and I was supposed to get my paperwork for my liscense in a week well I still have nothing and they told me they have no idea how long it will take cause they are switching there stuff up from one computer to another and it wouldnt be so bad if I didnt hvae a job where I cant do shit but stand around and watch all day.. that shit gets really boring and I dont want to do this for very much longer... PISS ON YOU TDLR

My Rapp For All U Hood Ratz
my song "Hood Ratz" a hood rat could rap better than a ball cap when shes bustin caps in ur ass for tha cash in ur pocket so watch it dodge it block it then go for ur gat and fuck chuck it just dont buckle under my uncle.. my rats love my ass cuz i give them grass when they ask as long as i get a peice of ass for the work i use to make the cash to keep them by my side they no that they have no need to hide as long as they down to ride.. ride a dick suck a bitches clit play with ur tit, naw fuck that shit, bitch all u do is use me and confuse me, so dont acuse me of being like this i told u how i am from the get go so dont trip ho, go blow some guy so that u can have another place to go,and thats fo sho..... i sit back and see u kick back with ur click and all u guys talk about is how much u love to suck dick, but bitch all i see is that u are a lezy, says me... bitch get to steppin all u have done was messin my heart when to u and u ripped it and gave it back to

My Random Thoughts For The Day...
Even the strong faulter sometimes, this is my time. Either its my bipolar kicking in because of the drab outdoor scenary or I'm simply depressed but today is just not a good day. Asking my self all the usual questions, like where I went wrong but I already have the answers...Question is...have I realy been doing all in my power? I should already know how to drive, I should've had a job by now(though really that's out of my control considering I don't decide the applicants. I guess really what's going through my head right now is a fear that was kept hidden for the last 7 months, am I failure? I have no job, I can't drive, I don't live on my own...I own a company that produces nothing due to my own inability to accurately keep goals in mind...so is it really a company if it produces nothing? I don't know if anyone really bothers to read these anymore, normally I don't care I just write them for myself. But for years I kept myself closed off from the world and this is just my little way

My Rants
First of all I want to say that yes I do have AIM MSN Yahoo etc, but NO I do not give them out. I have a lot going on and I used to give out my AIM name but I dont have the time to sit around and chat with 50 people on messenger. It just gets too overwhelming and time consuming, before I know it my day is gone and nothing has gotten done. So if someone gives you a SN saying it is me, ITS A FAKE!! 2nd, why do people think that just because I post some pics of myself (like everyone else on myspace and lost cherry, duh that's what it's for) that I am in love with myself, or a whore or whatever!?! If I werent an internet model and posted my pics on here would you still say that im a whore and full of myself? How am I full of myself because I post pics that I like and talk about my animals and things that I like to do and my boyfriend etc.when other people are on here only saying how horny they are and how much they want to fuck and posting pics of their dicks or pussies!?!? How am I a w

My Rants
Maybe its just me, but I just don't get why people will post bulletins about others that rip photos, have hateful or racist messages, and give low ratings to photos, blogs or pages. By talking about these people and posting their names, pics or links to their profiles gives power to their voice or message by giving them the attention they seem to so desperately crave, which just further encourage them to continue being ASSHOLES. As much as we disagree or are offended by their messages, they do have the right to post them and no amount of bitching or complaining by decent people can change that. That freedom is guaranteed to all of us by the constitution and had been fought for and paid for by the blood of soldiers of all races who are the hero's of this great nation! Seems to me the best thing we can do is block them, not visit their pages, not leave them any comments. Just ignoring their stupidity, so all they can do is shout at the wind and look like the morons they are. So

My Rant About The Bs In Bulletins...don't Read If You Don't Wanna Hear My Opinion.
THIS IS MY BLOG, SO I'LL WRITE WHAT I WANT IN IT. I'm purposely keeping it out of the bulletins section cause it'd get buried in all the bullshit anyway. I just went through reading the latest bulletins and all I can say is, "What the fuck?" I've pretty much kept my mouth shut until now. This has TOTALLY gotten outta hand. Let me start by sayin that the intent of this blog isn't to piss people off or alienate anyone. It's my attempt to understand what the fuck people are thinking and why. And please read through the entire blog if you're going to read this. First of all...What is with all these people getting bent out of shape because Mike asked that suggestive pics not be used as PRIMARY photos? What's the big fucking deal if you can't show your tits or dick in your primary photo? You can show, at a minimum depending on your level, 50 if not more pics of your tits, etc. in your pictures section. Ok, 49 cause one has to be for your primary. OMG! GASP! The censorship of it all! Ar

My Rant About The Gov.'s B.s.
Man you know that the u.s. gov. is nothing more then a bunch of money hanger a** holes that want to take what little money you get for working and stik it in there pockets you there are more laws in afect now that whin the judical systum started in the early 1900s but any way I understand such things a progress invents new laws but some are just down right stuped to even have there are more ways to get fined just for owning a vichel house or even a horse these day I mean how stuped is it when this country started out it was nothing more then drank rebeluse people how didn't like how they were being treated by the other gov. but know its getting just as bad here I mean damn you have to have a lissen to do this and a lissen to do that and pay this much to do that or have inscence to do this and have incerance to own that man I thank our four fothers would be ashamed of the Fing berrocacie this is terning out to be any way for the gov to stay rich and the poor to stay poor for povertin

My Rating Scale
(1)-Sicko (2)-Phycho (3)-Have Issues (4)-Not All There (5)-Seems Desperate (6)-Try To Hard To Gain Attention (7)-Have Some Ghost About Ya. (8)-Seems Right On!..But May Have Ghosts About Ya. (9)-Over all desent person and dont have a problem being yourself. (10)-All Of Thee Above And Good At It!!!...Lmao...Just Kidding...If I rate you a 10...that means Ive like everything Ive found out about you on your profile...and feeling as if you are a true genuine person. Iam not a "judgemental" person...I just call it as I see it. Iam a true genuine individual and I like for others to be the same. You get alot further on being yourself and not trying to be what you think other people may want you to be. Peace N Love to you all. Jodie TheeBlackWidow

My Random Thought
juST WHEN you LET YOURSLF THINK~ They say it takes a second to fall for someone, I minute to love em, um, five minutes, to cherish them... haha ... okay I admit it, I dont remember how that paragraph goes, I just know that I liked it. ITs like a lie everyone would love to believe. But no-- wait. IT IS true that within the first few minutes of talking to someone, theres that brief moment of whether or not your attracted to them or not. THAT> is well... very verbally impressive. lmao But HOW do YOU know if youve found the REAL deal. HOnestly... How do u know if maybe, u THINK theyre the one, that really, theres someone better out there that u dont know about. hmm. THen again, someones told me not to look for relationships, it will find u. YOu conjure a picture of the perfect "man" or "woman" in your head, and what you find exotically attractive, but do they really exist out there?? I'm not trying to be complicated. I swear. BUt I cant help it. lol You date someone, but things do

My Rant --- On Bulletins
before i even get into my rant ... please repost this if you feel the same way and also take the time to add on to it if you'd like...SO ... i have recently noticed that A LOT of people on my list as well as friends list's dont read bulletins unless they have sexual reference or they talk about contests OR if the person's text is red ... and half the time you guys dont even read the ones that are about contests ...OH AND JUST FOR THE FACT i have nothing against the top cherries ... i love each and every one of them ... angel baby is a close NYer friend ... fornicates ... is one amazing woman who goes through a lot of shit ... and for the others i DONT know ...im sure they are all amazing people too ... and i give them props for the time and effort they put into keeping themselves in the top 10.. if you are on my list and you are reading this right now *clap clap clap* .... also if you are on my friends list and think i am bashing you in any way ... please remove yourself from my list .

My Radio
Hey all I need help getting more listeners please pass this blog on and if you want the code to my radio let me know and I'll give it to you to add to your sites or profile! Thank You!!! Please be sure to listen to my internet radio and me DJ live and make reqeusts at anytime www.Space-Radio.com

My Randomness
Today I let my music playing after I had gotten back from hanging around with my best buddy kristen's house. The song "The final countdown" came on and I thought nothing of it. But the singer as he always does in teh song let's out a very dramatic it's the final count down and I had to yell it with him.

My Race Week
Ok, as promised, here is a glimpse of my wonderful week working at the races. Tuesday night we had rain. Lots and lots of rain. Saw some old friends like George, Gypsy (his Weiner dog), Robert, Linda, yadda yadda, bunch of em! I also found out that some of my other friends that I work with were all scattered out on different shifts! UGH!!! That was bad. I only get to see most of them twice a year so that sucked. Night over, went home done homework and tried to sleep. Wednesday came, and one of my friends from high school came by to visit. His name is Chris. We talked and hung out for a while. Then, I got PISSED!!!!!!!! Around 2 a man walks in bleeding all over the place. He is fussing with the guy who helped me and a security guard. Well, neither one decided to do anything about the BLOOD so I told them basically to shut it and started trying to clean up the mans face best I could. Come to find out he had smacked a ladder on the camper beside him with his face and needed stitche

My Rant Of The Day
Why can't people just say they don't know anything about a subject instead of acting like they know it all and aviod making themselves looking like ignorant know it all pricks? god when will people learn to just say I don't know and leave it there I was having a nice conversation with a friend of mine but it all changed after I said I wouldn't do a few things because I didn't want to do anything to put my relationship with my bf in harms way then he started to spout his mouth off about something he obviously knows nothing about well here's the whole conversation from start to finish because I'm too lazy to weed through it lol. woodl2k2 (4/10/2007 11:34:13 AM): hey girlie, what have you been up to? fire_pixi_180 (4/10/2007 11:35:57 AM): hey just working, and splitting up the rest of my time between my family, my friends, and my bf. and what about you woodl2k2 (4/10/2007 11:36:40 AM): cool deal, just been chillin' & workin' out fire_pixi_180 (4/10/2007 11:36:51 AM): thats cool woo

My Rant 4 The Day!
I'm not gonna name anyone, but alot of people & higher leveled people on here, think their shit dont stink, they apparently have no life or personality, They get off by putting others down. Grow up!! Get a life!! Think about it, if ur online this much, maybe its because ur this way in person and thats why you have no friends! To those posting bulletins, saying "Repost or delete me" come on people, remove that part of the title before reposting. I mean come on, are u gonna remove a friend over a bulletin? And to people using fake pics and women/mens pics to get people to their page! Just be urself! What are u gonna win, being level 25?? I mean come on, this is an adult site. I think its time for all the jealousy, haters, racists to stop with all the BS!! And to those with fan me, rate me, or...... I love this one, rate me, fan me, before u add me lmao well I wont be adding anyone begging for that crap! Im here for friends, and ive made some awesome ones! If people wanna rate u, fan u, i

My Rant And Rave For The Day.
You ever just get tired of it all. All the bullshit floating around. How not one thing ever seems to go your way. Everytime I turn around its more and more shit piling up. It's never ending. My head is so full that there isnt room for anything else. Nothing else will fit in there. If it isnt money problems, its health problems, no health probs, well then trouble with the kids, no kid toubles, then love life problems. and on and on it goes.. Each of these problems alone isnt enough to make you go over the edge, but all at the same time and the deep end isnt too far away. Do we bring some of these on ourselves, yeah we do, but, when its a non-stop situation you just seem to give up. I give up, I surrender. I am tired of drama and issues and of not being in charge of the screen play that is my life. I only star in it, I have no say anymore. I dont want peace to come when I am dead, I want it now. Its such a strange feeling to not know how you feel. Its like things g

My Rant For The Day!!!
MAYBE IT IS JUST ME AND MY RELATIONSHIPS BUT IVE NOTICED THAT IT IS OK FOR HIM TO STAY OUT TIL 1-2 IN THE MORNING "WORKING" OR "BSing" OR TELL ME THAT HE IS ON HIS WAY HOME (HES ONLY 20 MIN AWAY) AND ILL SEE HIM 2 HRS LATER !!!! BUT IF I TRY TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT....ITS ALL WRONG!! HE DOES HAVE A VERY DANGEROUS JOB, AND ALTHOUGH WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 6 YEARS, I NEVER LOSE THE FEAR OF SOMETHING HAPPENING SO WHEN HE SAYS THAT HE IS ABOUT TO LEAVE WORK AND I DONT SEE OR HEAR FROM HIM IN 2 HRS....I CALL HIM! IF HE DOESNT ANSWER, ILL WAIT ABOUT 20 MIN AND CALL AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN TO MAKE SURE THAT HE IS OK!! BUT LET ME TELL HIM THAT IM ON MY WAY HOME AND NOT SHOW UP FOR A FEW HRS AND NOT ANSWER MY PHONE AND SEE HOW PISSED HE GETS!! MAYBE ITS JUST ME BUT I THOUGHT THAT U SHOULD DO UNTO OTHERS AS U WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO U!!! OK...IM OVER IT NOW.

My Ranting
pronunciation [AP-UH-THEE] 1. Absence or suppresion of passion, emotion, or excitement. 2. Lack of interest in or concern for things that others find moving or exciting. 3. Also, AP...A...THEI...A, AP...A...THI...A stoicism. Freedom from emotion of any kind. Think about it, why don't we help the homeless, even though the inconvenience of them (like death and suffering) is so much greater than the inconvenience on ourselves (50 whole fucking cents). But why don't we give up the change? Well, apathy. We don't feel what they feel. I'm sure if we had to beg and fight for every meal we ate than we wouldn't mind giving up that 50 cents at all. Im just wondering if any of you, (maybe it is an inconvenience to read this entire entry, BECAUSE OH MY FUCKING GOD INTELLIGENCE IS SO PAINFUL...) would ever take into consideration, hhmmm... Someone else?

My Ramblings
Something new has come from this place i used to call hell! Change i greet with a smile and positivity. Begining to see the end clearly. No more sorrow or anger towards those who have hurt me. Like water on a ducks back. I have given that all away no longer to carry it with me.. Smile and your get one back even if the person hates you.. Thank you for reminding me that i have a reason!

My Ramblings
BUMPER STICKERS....!!!!!! 1. Constipated People Don't Give A Crap. 2. Practice Safe Sex, Go Screw Yourself. 3. If You Drink Don't Park, Accidents Cause People. 4. Who Lit The Fuse On Your Tampon? 5. If You Don't Believe In Oral Sex, Keep Your Mouth Shut. 6. Please Tell Your Pants Its Not Polite To Point. 7. If That Phone Was Up Your Butt, Maybe You Could Drive A Little Better. 8. My Kid Got Your Honor Roll Student Pregnant. 9. Thank You For Pot Smoking. 10. To All You Virgins Thanks For Nothing. 11. If At First You Don't Succeed...blame Someone Else And Seek Counseling. 12. Impotence: Nature's Way Of Saying "No Hard Feelings". 13. If You Can Read This, I've Lost My Trailer. 14. Horn Broken... Watch For Finger. 15. It's Not How You Pick Your Nose, But Where You Put The Booger. 16. If You're Not A Hemorrhoid, Get Off My Ass. 17. You're Just Jealous Because The Voices Are Talking To Me 18. The Earth Is Full - Go Home 19. I Have Th

My Rant Against Holidays....part 1
Ok, I hate the holidays. It is all just a bunch of crap. People suck. Like, Christmas for one is so commerial, that it isn't funny anymore. Anyone remember what the TRUE meaning of Christmas is all about? I'll tell you what it is about: the birth of our Lord and Savior, Jesus. It isn't about presents and getting fat, and hanging out with the family. It is about the Man that changed Life for us... Most people don't realize that, much less care. I say, screw them. Hell, most kids nowadays only know Christmas for the presents. What are we teaching our children if we aren't teaching them about the Lord? Don't get me wrong...this is NOT a religious speech or debate, just the honest truth. Then there is Thanksgiving, also. Say, lets get family that usually hate each other in the worst way together to get overstuffed on usually dried out old bird, and that stuffing that just never seems to compares to grandmother's (Lord knows that whoever is making it isn't trying hard enou

My Rant Against Holidays....part 2
What to rant about? Oh yeah!! Valentine's Day. Who the hell thought this one up? Some guy sitting in his momma's basement, in his underwear, watching cheezy girlie flicks while munchin on Little Debbie's? I know...he suddenly sat up and yelled out, "I'll go blow as much cash on flowers, candy, and other various expensive gifts to impress that girl I like down the street!" Wow. Rocket science at its best. So he goes out and blows his cash, knowing that the girl, all pretty and pink, sweet and charming, little Miss Popular, has never once looked in his direction, in fear of having her gorgeous blue eyes melt from her lovely face, is probably gonna reject him for this, but he doesn't care. His heart is set, his cash is blown, and now he is ready. He looks at the calendar, "Sweet! It's Feb. 14th. This is the start of a great day!" He puts on his best suit, combs back his unkempt hair, which one strand is bound to pop up, no matter how much gel and mousse he uses, now maki

My Rant Of The Day 6/29/07
Dude, one thing that pisses me the fuck off is the assholes that drive their corvettes or mustang cobras, BWM's, etc. in the left hand lane right at the speed limit or UNDER the fucking speed limit! It's always some fucking cu-tip. You know what? Get the fuck over! Let those of us that can see the damn speed limit drive fast in the left lane while you insult your FAST car buy driving it in the FAST lane like a jackass. Whew. Glad I got that out of my system. I feel better now.... :) Carry on

My Rant For The Daty . . .
so 2 of my pics were flagged NSFW... yet my boobs were covered then i see all this females where their boobs hangin out all over lostcherry, cherrytap, fubar... whatever the hell the name of this site is anymore even the today's cherry spotlight girl has her boobs hangin out in a bra yet theirs don't get flagged?!?!?! can someone please explain to me why?????????

My Rant For The Night.
why is it that when you try to do something that you want to do, a few ppl try and ruin it for you. first they tell you that they will support you no matter what. then a month later they tell you that " your think your better then me" how is it that when you try to get ahead in anything theres that 1 person that claim they care for you. but then turn around and post crap about you in there blog, stash whatever. this is supposted to be a fun site where ppl help each other and not a competition. but to some thats all it is, its like a contest with no real prize at the end. how would you feel if you went to someones page and they were talking smak about you in a round about way and then act as if they are the victim when called out on it????

My Ratings
I rate people honestly. I expect honest ratings back. Not ratings just because I gave you a 3 I get a 3. That's stupid. What's the point of this 1 through 10 rating system if no one is honest and everyone just get's 10s. Or 1s because you get all your friends to rate someone low that rated you low. Stop taking yourself so seriously this is not real life!

My Rant #1
Ok everyone let me start this off by saying that as you read this please understand that no I am not saying things are better over there or anything like that this is just things I see and the way I feel about a few things and i know alot of you that might read this will probley disagree or get mad at me or something to that affect then again some of you might understand where i am coming from and agree with me i have no clue to be honest i have no controll over your thoughts or any thing like that nor am i trying to do such a thing so let me get to my point you know i sit here day in and day out preparing to go to basic trying to get my self ready for what i am about to undergo i turn on the news or just normal tv shows like CSI and things like that and you know sadly what i am starting to see is just how sick the world really can be and the sad thing is that its not the shit in Iraq that is really making me shit and this is way when our troops the brave men and women of the US Milita

My Rant About 911
i hate the mass media and the corporations that control it.i hate the propoganda and lies that are always forgiven while young americans die everyday in iraq.i hate that we supported saddam in killing people who wanted to overthrow him and we told him to kill them cause we wanted him in power.i hate we gave him the weapons to do it.i hate that over a half a million iraqis are dead in a war thats a crime.i hate that the american people had the fear of god instilled in them over weapons of mass destruction that we knew the weapons inspecters said he got rid of after we bombed them in 91.i hate that the president made jokes about him not having the weapons.i hate the fact if americans protest the war they can be locked up for domestic terrorism.i hate the fact we are lied to about fighting for democracy in iraq when we are supposed to be a constitutional republic.i hate that a democracy is what the founding fathers didnt want cause they knew that was 2 wolves and a sheep deciding whats fo

My Random Thoughts
Lifes too short for bullshit. Dont use someone unless you plan on getting used in return. Dont go thru life not telling someone how you feel about them. Tell them. We are not promised our next breathe. Keep your friends close,but your enemys closer. Tell your friends how much you care about them. Not only will it make them feel good but their day will go better as well. Life is a journey. It has its ups and downs. Dont go thru life holding a grudge towards someone. Forgive but never forget. You burn me once shame on you,you burn me twice shame on me. We learn from our mistakes. So do others that our watching us without us even knowing. Someone somewhere thinks about you all the time. Now if you only knew who. Tell him or her how much you love and care about them. Even if your not speaking to each other at that moment. Someone is alive today because of you. You took the time one day to talk to them when noone else would. And for that they are thankful. Be thankful for what you have in y

My Rant On The State Of Michigan
I don't know if all of you know what is going on with the State of Michigan. Basically...our political parties can't get their heads out of their asses and look past themselves to realize how many millions of people's lives they are affecting. They will still get their huge paychecks, why should they care? It is absolutely ridiculous that a government shutdown will likely happen because they can't reach an agreement on anything. They knew this was coming for months and detrimental the situation was, yet, it's coming down to 12:01 a.m. tonight. This link: http://blog.mlive.com/michigan/2007/09/granholm_releases_list_of_serv.html goes over all the agencies that would be affected. It's just a really disturbing thought. Solutions? Raise the state sales tax? Again? Come on. Lower health care? No. Luxury tax for concerts, sporting events, etc. No thanks. We pay enough taxes as it is, people will leave and go to states that don't have that. We have the highest unemployment rate in the nati

My Rage
Something from long ago.... MY BURNING RAGE, is still here, My violent rage is an endless fear. If you took the time to live my life, I'm sure you'd slit your wrist with the blade of a knife. If you pondered and slipped into my corrupted head, I'm sure you'd scream with hate, wishing you were dead. I cry for someone to love, someone to hold and kiss, I fall to my knees to ask, "Why is my life like this?" I'm tired of the hurt and all the pain, Tears fall from my eyes, like a storm of April rain. My dreams are grey and my love is black, I feel no affection, only the attack. I'm trapped in an air tight bubble, My messed up life is filled with so much trouble. I feel so empty, and I feel so alone, Lashes of hatred, cut right to the bone. The tears in my heart get deeper everyday, I don't hurt anyone, but I'm the one who has to pay.

My Rantings
I try to be the person I was meant to be but how to do that I don't know I just try to be froggie I should not let my feelings show To the people I've wronged, shame on me To the people who've wronged me, shame on you Through the veil of bullshit I try to see as I get older, the lies get harder to see through Many people will not understand all this The person they thought they knew On me, certain people feel the need to piss The anger builds in me, what am I to do? For most people I know There are certain songs I aquait to you Other people I know It's the sounds of bongs Many have told me, "here, there's someone for everyone" but when you first meet the "One" and all they've ever done is lie to you It makes me believe that's not true Therefore I must do my own thing To get through this life I try To try not to feel the sting Of another lie To all the people who call me "friend" and read these words For me to say "I love you" as you know Never lig

My Rawkin Birthday!
Well today made my 27th birthday! And it was the GREATEST! My husband called and told me happy birthday which completely floored me, I was so shocked I cried b/c I wasnt expecting him to do that, then my mom and zack went and got me a cake, balloons, flowers and a starbucks gift card while I was out taking caleb to the doc and surprised me, then Heather that TRASH got me flowers and a card, last night manda and I went and saw 1 missed call then went to cici's where James wasnt greedy with the buffalo sauce on our pizza LOL then today coming home on Jeff highway I saw Eric and yelled out sexy as he was walking, manda said he looked, I had been wanting to do that for SO long, my birthday was really great. James even called and wished me a Happy Birthday and that was so special for me too. I appreciate all that everyone did for me, even my online friends on Fubar and Myspace made it SO special. I got flowers, cakes, cards, It was really great. I hope 2008 is a better year for me. Ah well

My Rating System Idea
Ya know it's interesting how the rating system is determined here on FUBAR - anything rated a 9 or under and we are labeled as a downrater and called vulgar names.... So here's my idea I am going to submit to FUBAR Fubar should impiment a "privacy" system... RATING 1-9: The owner of the item being rated should only be notified by saying "Someone just rated you a (#)" and they will not know who it was unless the rater decides to admit his rating to them RATING 10 & 11: This probably should just be left alone. I propose this system to be impimented for ANY profile and/or item which has the 1-10 and 11 rating possibilities. --------------- It's wither that or just get rid of the 1-10 thing and use Thumbs up or down (like in stash items) and kee the 11 system!

My Rant!! Please Read!!
I have a rant….if any family members has anything to say about some other family member ….why not go to the person and talk to them. Don’t be chicken shit and go post silly bulletins or blogs and be a child about it….Go to the person….guess some people just love to keep drama stirred up…and YES WE KNOW WHO YOU ARE!! So here is who I am talking about Karma, Cherokee, Mystical Dreams …want to talk to me or about someone else, come to me please.

My Rant
Ok so here's my rant for the day lol. I've cleaned up my family list to the people i talk to. This is how i look at people. LOWER CLASS = They'll help others if they can MIDDLE CLASS = They'll give a hand to those who need it if they can provide it. HIGHER CLASS = Will help to a certain degree than when they get what they want, they're too good for the ones that aren't up their level. lol not sure if any of that made sense...but i've been getting to realize that more and more. Don't mind this bullshit talk haha as it's just my rant for today...ta ta for now ;)

My Rant
You know what really bothers me, is your so called friends on here that only talked to you when you were single, but as soon as you become "not single" anymore they forget about you.. what the hell is that about? To me that shows you who your true friends are.. fuck all you fake as friends!

My Rant. Its A Quick One.
lets get a few things straight... #1 just because im your "friend" on fubar does not mean im really your friend, nor does it mean i consider you my friend. odds are i just added you for the points. #2 im an asshole, get over it. dont like it? then delete me. period. #3 dont ask my opinion if you dont really want it.itll probably just piss you off. #4 no, i dont currently look like what the pics show, im actually about 25 lbs lighter than when i took those. #5 no, im not going to add new pics just to satisfy your curiosity. #6 i have a job, if i dont answer you, its probably because im working...or youre an ignorant twat and i just dont feel like listening about how your boyfriend jimmy (or john, or bob, or pedro or what the fuck ever)is treating you like shit...suck it up, dump jimmy and shut the fuck up. #7, im not paying you (even in fubucks) to see your tits, if i want to see your tits, ill look you up and wait til youre alone so i can bash you in the head

My Rant For The Day
Well I usually sticky bulletins for ppl and myself on here, had a problem for awhile with paypal but got that taken care of and have been able to sticky bulletins again. Had a problem last week, kept getting error code and then when the day was over I was just able to do them again even though I got no response back from support. Well I am having the same problem again for about 24 hours now I have emailed supportcontact.com 4 times, sb a bouncer and emailed Mike. I even asked someone that was recently able to do a sticky. Still no answers. First off I'm trying to put money into the site and it won't let me, second St Patrick's Day is my birthday and I'm in WildCat's St Patricks Day auction and want to be able to sticky and can't and I haven't gotten much for bids. There I got that out of my system. Going to take break from the site for a bit, I need it lol If anyone know's about this problem or has a solution please pm me. Thank You for listening to me ramble on. :D Babs

My Ranting
As I live evryday as a lie. I once believed he loved me. I believe no more. He talks with her, but only plays with me. He cares that shes crying. Only calls me a bitch when I cry. I know now I mean nothin to him. Just living a lie everyday. As my heart breaks in piece he doesnt even care. Just tries to lie to me more and to my face no less. He once told me he was in love with me. What a fuckin joke of worldly proportions. I know now and should have remembered I will never be happy. I fucked up a long time ago. Now all I get is lies lies lies from everyone I am with. I thought I got better at reading people and there lies. But the jokes on me yet again as I sit here and try not to cry, because if I do I am just a bitch. He says he doesnt want to be with her, but he sits on the phone and has an actual conversation with her. We barely talk unless he wants something. When she cries he makes sure he calls her back to find out why then sooths her hurt feelings. When I cry he tells her I'm j

~ My Random Thoughts~
~ my random thoughts~ ~ Women who do too much are not always great at pausing or taking deep breaths. They are good, however, at learning new things. This year, they should learn to pause and take deep breaths. ~ There is nothing noble in being superior to someone else. The true nobiltiy is in being superior to your previous self. ~ One of the by-products of doing too much is taking for granted people and things that are precious to us. When we do this, we rob oursleves. ~ Sometimes life seems like we are trying to find the end of a ball of string. What we are looking for is elusive and we know it is there somewhere. We get so bound up in looking that we don't see it when it's right in front of us. Stop....Look....Listen. ~There are a lot more crazy people out there than our mothers told us there were. We don't need to participate in their craziness.... We can recognize craziness for what it is.....and move on. ~ It's good to be aware of some changes that we know

My Random Acts Of Kindness
I've been known to practice random acts of kindness to unsuspecting friends and family members. Not saying to who, but to date, I have given as follows. 4-VIPS 2-Bling Packs 1-3 day Blast So don't forget me if I am on your list and spread the love, you never know, you may be next. Get your own glitter and more at BlingyBlob.com

My Rant!
I don't understand all the chaos that shows up when someone mentions a single parent question. So I will start out this way: Definitions: par·ent Audio Help /ˈpɛərənt, ˈpær-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[pair-uhnt, par-] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun 1. a father or a mother. 2. an ancestor, precursor, or progenitor. 3. a source, origin, or cause. 4. a protector or guardian. 5. Biology. any organism that produces or generates another. 6. Physics. the first nuclide in a radioactive series. –adjective 7. being the original source: a parent organization. 8. Biology. pertaining to an organism, cell, or complex molecular structure that generates or produces another: parent cell; parent DNA. –verb (used with object) 9. to be or act as parent of: to parent children with both love and discipline. sin·gle Audio Help /ˈsɪŋgəl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[s

My Rant
ok yeah so like many people in the crazy world i am married, but i am also seeing someone else. and for the purpose of this blog i am going to skip over how many people think it is morally worng to cheat. i just need to ven adn get it off my chest. i have been seeing this guy for about 3 years. things have been great! lots of fun sex is great, i have experienced things with this man i never thought i would. he knows i am married and has from the very begining, and i know he also sees other women. however the first time it was put in my face it broke my heart!!! well over the years you think i would get used to it. i mean i love this man but i am not in love with him. I am married and i love my husband very much. i have always prided myself on not being the jealous type. so why now? why does it break my heart every time i see this guy with someone else. Most of the time i never cross paths with his other women. Until last night. the problem is that this guy is a real good friend of

My Random Surrrvey
50 Odd ThingsTAKE THIS SURVEY! Take this survey 1. Do you like blue cheese? sorta 2. Have you ever smoked heroin? every day 3. Do you own a gun? not yet 4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? diarrhea 5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? yeah, esp for my STD exams 6. What do you think of hot dogs? I eat them 7. Favorite Christmas song? Granma Got Ran Over by Reigndeer 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Vodka, duh 9. Can you do push ups? yes 10. Why do you post surveys? so I get famous one day 11. What is your favorite piece of jewelry? dried penis necklace 12. Favorite hobby? krafts n shit (in that order) 13. Are your toes painted? no 14. Do you have A.D.D.? lookie, a bird! 15. What is one trait that you hate about yourself? lazy, stubborn, unattentive...oh, just 1? 16. Middle name? Grigorievna (ok, its Russian, means daughter of Greg) 17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment i have to pee, its raining, I wonder why I am doing thi

My Rant For The Day
My rant for the day because I am hot and cranky Hello my peeps! Welcome to Massafreakinchusetts where we have another day of over 100 degree weather. Today, it was 107 degrees at lunchtime – but that’s okay, because you can always cool off in a shady spot where it’s a nice cool 101 degrees. WTF???? The weather center put out warnings about the heat dangers and air quality dangers. Yes, walking outside is like sticking your head in an oven. The air quality for breathing is somewhere between “GASP” and “SHOOT ME NOW”. Neither or which is very appealing. Driving – well, yes, here is another fun experience. I feel bad for anyone who doesn’t have air conditioning in their car. Even with the A/C running full blast, you can work up a sweat that threatens to drown you. Take for instance my commute on the Mass Pike (and anyone from New England is all too familiar with this lovely turnpike) – it’s not so much driving as it is sitting… and sitting… and sitting… Average speed

My Rant About The Greeters I Hired
I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE ME BEING A BITCH BUT I HIRED GREETERS AT LACE UR LEATHER AWHILE BACK, AND THEY WERE AROUND FOR A FEW DAYS AND NOW FOR SOME REASON THERE NOT AROUND TO HELP PROMOTE! OR DO ANYTHING!!!! I MEAN I UNDERSTAND THAT THEY HAVE THERE OWN LIVES TO LIVE AND JOBS TO GO TO EVERYMORNING OR WHATEVER, BUT I DONT WANNA SOUND LIKE IM A BEING A GOODIE TWO SHOE OR ANYTHING BUT, I CANT DO ALL THE PROMOTING BY MYSELF! IM POSTING BULLETINS AND SENDING OUT THE INVITES AND PLUS IM LEAVING THE LACE UR LEATHER COMMENT ON PEOPLES PAGES JUST RANDOM PEOPLE THAT HAPPEN TO FLOAT ON BY, YA KNOW! ITS NOT THAT DAMN HARD! TO DO THAT AND PLUS ITS NOT HARD TO GREET SOMEONE WHEN THEY COME IN EITHER! I MEAN DAMN! I COME INTO LACE UR LEATHER LIKE EVERYDAY! AND EVERY MORNING! IT HURTS ME SO DAMN MUCH THAT ALL YOU GREETERS THAT I HIRED DONT SEEM TO GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!!! YOU DONT WANNA COME IN DURING THE DAY A FEW TIMES A WEEK AND GREET PEOPLE?? MY GOD! ITS NOT THAT FUCKING HARD!!!! YOU HAVE WAS

My Random Azz Thoughts For The Day..
I'm not here to impress anyone. I say whatever comes to mind, whenever I want no matter how crazy it sounds. I am extremely random, and sometimes I don't make sense. But that is just how I am. Sometimes I swear I can be Happy,Sad,Angry,Confused,Anxious and Excitied all at the same time. No, that doesn't make me nuts, it makes me complicated. There is no middle ground with me, either you love me or you hate me. When I love someone I love them with all I have. I hate doing things half assed. My friends are my family. I do not have to meet you in the flesh to care about your well being. Most mistake my kindness for blindness. Sucks for them when they find out I can be a real bitch when I'm being used. I don't like to be a bitch but some people force me to show that ugly side. I believe that if you don't work hard in life you will have nothing. I hate lazy people. I hate men who sponge off their women while being a trifling ass cheating around on her. People who get thi

My Ramblings...
Sitting here alone on another holiday, plenty of time to think, and write... Just the last poem is from today, the first to are from last fall.... I'm sitting here, dead tired, yet I can't go to sleep. The noises are keeping me awake, yet no one is making a peep. Questions beget more questions, yet no answers can be found, No matter how deep, how wide, how far my mind pushes its bounds. Who? What? Where? When? Questions that mean more now than they did then. Who has she become? This woman I love. Her spirit has fled, as if on wings of a dove. What did I do to drive her away? What could I have done to get her to stay? Where did our relationship turn to such sour grapes? When did her heart, for me, fill with such hate? She's here, but she's gone. Living in this house, but never home. I'll love her always, but I can like her no more. My heart jumps, yet my temper flairs when she walks in the door. This question I've saved for last, as I can think of no more, What wors

My Ratings (of You)
To All the ladies I have rated and will rate,I only rate you as high as a "9" unless you are nude THEN the score goes up,I know I sound like a "pig" or a "jerk" but hey alot of the "9"s I have rated are in the "upper 9".,huggsssss

My Rant About My Life
Ok well today I dropped off my daughter Breanna 4 her 1st day of pre-k. I was so excited that I hardly had any sleep. She was so cute and funny this morning. There were no tears shed, but I am a little sad. My little girl is growing up. I will have 3 hrs w/out her. I will not be alone as I have the baby, but at least I will have a liitle time to myself. Isabella is a very good baby. I am very blessed, considering she was an accident and I didn't want her in the beginning. It may sound cruel, but me and her father had a very abusive relationship and we were in the process of getting a divorce and he threatened me. So Isabella is a product of that. I love her very much, but I really didn't want anymore kids with my ex. I won't mention his name as it is none of anyone's business. I also know that he is on Fubar and I don't want people 2 pass judgment. Although, I really don't care about his feelings and we will never get back 2gether despite his begging and pleading. Having a 2nd chil

My #1 Rawks I Love This!! :)
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My Racing Stats
Well I really didn't pay attention to most of my stats for most of the things I did since I was a kid. Now how ever I do have stats for the ASA and ARCA Remax. I raced the 21 Ford Car in the ASA Racing Series and 28 Ford Car in the Arca Remax Series. My ASA Career: 148 Starts, 25 Wins, 32 Top Fives, 51 Top Tens and 1997 and 1998 ASA Racing Series Champion. My Arca Career: 15 Starts, 2 Wins, 5 Top Fives, 12 Top Tens. Well this is where I stood when I stopped but I have another 10 starts and in those 10 starts I have 1 dnf(Did Not Finish), 5 Top Fives, 8 Top Tens and ended up with a total of 6 wins for the series and ended up 2nd in the points standings in the ARCA Remax Series. The wins are between the total of the 25 starts I had in that series.

My Rant For The Day
I swear some people need to have their head examined big time, one of them is not my girlfriend Kate here, she goes to the grocery store up the road to get some canned cat food for our two cats, she was given the money by me since I have the money because she likes to loose the money, well, she comes back home and come to find out, she finds a kitten probably 3 mohths old that some idiots lets out and she finds it outside at the store so she puts it inside her coat and shirt and brings it back here and the cat was cold and it's not even 40 degrees out up here, I swear, I'd like to find the idiot that does that to let a 3 month old kitten out and doesn't take care of it here. If people are going to be that careless and cold to let their cat have kittens and then just let the kittens go free like that, they shouldn't have pets at all, that pisses me off to no end here!

My Rants 'cause No 1 Else Will Listen
I feel like a tortured soul, it's been 2 months since he walked away and hasn't returned! His touch, his smell, his laughter still linger in my mind like a catchie sound you just herd on the radio. After almost 17 years of LOVE! how can he just walk away? I catered to his EVERY beck and call. He got more respect in one min. that most people get in a lifetime! Woke up almost every morning the way men like too! Fed him, cleaned his house take care of our family, I did everything for him! And HE JUST LEFT! No explainantion, nothing just an I DONT KNOW! Is it over? He wont say! Is he coming home? We'll see! With these stupid holidays coming up all I want is HIM HOME! Or to sleep till The middle of Jan. All I want to know is WHY WHY WHY! What did I do? He calls or sends me texts, gives me momey, his ring is still there, but he... is not! Come home Papi! Please come home!

My Rantings
When I was a child I believed in childish things; I believed in Santa Claus I believed in the tooth fairy I believed in the Easter bunny I had such high hopes, I wanted to be a cowboy I believed in happy endings. When I grew up: I found out the truth of Santa, the tooth fairy, and the Easter bunny. Not much call for cowboys these days and there really are no happy endings.

My Rambling
I am one of those people that feel song lyrics make or break a song. Lyrics allow people to say things they have always wanted to say, express what they are feeling in a way that can be felt and understood by many. I am never one good at speaking up about how I feel nor am I eloquent or well versed. These lyrics reflect my attitude towards things happening in my life. Have you ever felt that the world is just spinnin so fast and you are close to losing your grip, and slippin away? If that makes any sense. That is how I have felt for a long time. It isn't till recently, due to certain people in my life I have had a few hands be reached out towards me and those those I thank you. Thank you for making me feel whole again

My Rant
One thing that I can absolutely not understand is how people can take a half naked or naked pictures of them self with the room they are in nasty. I mean come on do you really think that people are going to be turned on to that and if they are they are probably nasty too. What it take to clean your dang house get off fubar and CLEAN because more than likely you aren’t clean either. That shows people that you are not willing to take care of yourself. Lastly edit the dang picture there is something called a cropping tool when editing pictures. Crop that nasty crap out...........Oh and one other thing don’t post a dang picture where you are naked or half naked where your baby or kid is in the room. That is just plan degrading to the kiddo and CPS should be picking that kid up because bottom-line you are more worried about you and your body than you are your kid and house.

My Rant Of The Century..fuck Some Of You!
First off I must say if you really dont like me then you can kiss my ass and delete me.I will say what the hell I want to say when I want to say it.Im a strong woman and I will never shut my mouth when someone tells me to.This site is really annoying sometimes and then really awesome sometimes.Lately Ive had some real winners become "friends" with me.First off who the hell are you to judge me?Why did you add me as a friend if you didnt like my page or what I do.I am a grown adult woman who is quite intelligent and can make my own decisions.Dont tell me my pics are immoral.Dont tell me Im a whore.Dont tell me Im a bitch.If you dont like me simply move on.That is what I do.If I dont like someone here I block them and go about my day.Lately Ive had friends mark pics NSFW when they clearly arent.Ive had friends tell me they thought I was something bad and then figured out I was quite kind and actually talk to people.Im no stuck up snob.I talk to anyone.But Im sorry I have 3000 friends.Stop

My Race
I get asked wild questions about my race,like am I from india or am I a paru indian,also am I mexican? lol.. even aztec!no to all I am native american indian,its kinda hard to explain to people who dont know history,I can do some bird noises ,I can sling an axe yes I do speak very little indian...and no I am not full blooded...thanks peace out...

My Ramble Thoughts And Song In My Head
i bent to pick something,suddenly i felt a pain in my waist, ouch, what was tht? so i sit for a while and rest.... i have been working for days, i looked around, good , everything is clean and sleeking. i looked at my hands, shook my head, what an ugly hands i got! wrinkled and tired, you can see the sign of damage of too much work, and badly damaged by harsh detergent and chemicals. i looked at myself in the mirror"..yes, i am nearly 40, ... and you can see the tiny wrinkles around my eyes...though, there are times i still very much like a girl inside.. still kool... but then there are many times, i am tired, and my life is wearing me down.... and tearing me down into pieces....leaving me very unhappy most of the time. i asked myself this questions many times, though, i feel i am blessed with many things, yet, there is something missing,,, i fought tht thought, and search for that.. yet , i am still left unanswered... i am still not through with my journey for finding happiness

My Random Mind
So I was driving today adn an older movie scene popped in my head as things of a random nature tend to do often....Its the one where one person tells another before a date bout the "test" to see if shes the one, she opens/unlocks the car door from the inside of the car as you go around. keep in mind it could be a father son duo , two friend or any combo of the above... another random blip happened while writing this blog.... anyone seen or talked to Schad?!?! is Ning back yet? will it be coming back !??! If you do not know what ning is by pass this part of the blog and go straight for the tits..... but be warned I heard sugah britches is one mean sob.

My Racing Career 2 Date
10-17-09 Went to drift & drag event, my entry 282, out of 375. In the drift event I ran 7 times. 6 mono runs & 1 tandom. I placed 4 overall in the drift, the highest placing privater at the event!wooohoo!!! In the drag event I was diqualified for safety voilations. I entered the 14sec. class of et [estimated time] drags I ran a 13.99sec at 103mph.My second pass I ran 13.92sec at 105.4mph. Both runs were D.Q.'ed, but they qualifed for a backed up 13.92sec. pass at 105.4mph. which is my personal best to date. Future improvements: 6 point Rollcage,5 point safety harnesses, racing buckets & external electrical shut off. All for the 13sec. class.

My Rant
Long life energy saving light bulbs are total bollocks. They don't last ten years and they are so dull you have to buy the highest wattage, which still feels like a flickering candle and end up buying another lamp to brighten the room. How is that 'energy saving'? I now have two lights running to make up for the ONE light I used to have. Apparently if you use the energy bulbs on the ceiling they don't last long with heat reflecting from the ceiling and they are only going to last ten years if you only use them for 3 hours a day, and to make matters worse, if you continually switch them off and on, THAT reduces their lifespan as well! On top of all that, the light gives me a dull thudding headache and I end up with a battery lamp beside my laptop! So, basically I am going through these energy saving bulbs at a rate of 2 a year! My old bulbs lasted longer and I don't know if that's less energy used, but when you work out the carbon footprint of supplying these bulbs at the s

My Radio Hates Me
On the way to a xmas dinner today, I hit the scan button on the radio and it tuned to the oldies station. The worst possible 3 songs in a row came on: You're the One That I Want from the Grease soundtrack New Kid in Town- The Eagles Always a Woman to Me- Billy Joel I managed to rewire myself before getting to my desitination somehow but it wasn't easy.

My Ramblings....
.... *sighs* ... well lemme start by saying... i have zero typing skills and i can't spell for shit so in reading this ur takin a big chance of either gettin to know the real me or gettin a big ass headache tryin to understand what i'm sayin... i ramble.. alot... its a curse of having a random brain that jumps from thought to thought with no reguard for the convo at hand... maybe because i have spent my life tryin to change the subject from things that had to do with what i was feeling or how much i was hurting... it's a coping mechanism... just like my smartassyness (is that even a word?... oh well lol) and my sumtimes flagrant disreguard for the nonviolent....i can be very mean and sumtimes downright evil if u hurt the ones i love ... i'm one of those i can b ur best friend or ur worst enemy dependin on how u cross me. to put it bluntly... i'm a bitch.. but i figure if i'm a bitch and u keep talkin to me then your worth the time to get to kno... i don't let people in easily which mak

My Rap Bout My Ex
Well I knew this would happen, so that's why I'm rappin. Yea you standin me up, but Bitch you lettin me down. Tellin your lies to me, you da hoe of dis town. Best be lookin round, Cause ain't no one lovin you now. Damn Katie, you broke my heart. The last few times you said your on your way, I stayed up all damn night, and through the next day. I'm tired of ya games, and this is what I'm sayin. Best believe this shit, Cause girl I ain't playin. Go Fuck YaSelf! Bitch you ain't good enough for me. Go Fuck YaSelf! Is is too hard for you to see? Yea you standin me up, but Bitch you lettin me down.

My Rant. :)
If another person {man} tells me I just leveled again because I have tits I may delete them. For the record... I don't have a VIP I didn't have a rang I didn't have a bomb I didn't have auto 11s I wasn't even in anyone's family who ran a famp I don't think I didn't have a blast I didn't even have a ticker I DID polish enough bling in the past 24 hours to rack up 6 million points. I did have a few friends that help. Old friends who have been on my list for a long time and 1 newer friend. Mostly females who don't care about my tits. Yes, I had some pimpouts. Anyone can be pimped. To those of you who helped, thank you so much. *hugs* That is all.

My Rant And Rave, If Your Offended....then Obvisously You Are One!!
I honestly don't care if you think I'm crazy. You're just a figment of my imagination anyway! ;-) People come to this site to make friends and have fun, Of course its an adult site and frankly fubar lets you get away with just about anything and more or less if you have up NSFW pics its to gain your popularity and 95% of the time it works, But I have to say the way it make u look both men and women. If you worked this hard in life as you did on a website. You might end up somewhere in life, So your not sitting your ass on a computer all day seeing how much you can gain off someone else.I have come to the point if I am going to do, I will do for myself.I am so tired of being nice and get nothing back in return, Oh but these people who show there ass get all they want even from fubar them selves..Screw that I am WAY above that!!!! I dont have to show and will not show my ass to get what I want.. If someone is going to give me a gift thats fine if not fine to i wont die!! I don't

My Ramblings On
sometimes love is illogical, irrational, and uncontrollablemost often times love is a surprise attack you never see coming in a form you'd most certainly wouldn't expect.there's no reason for no answers for whyit just iseither you take it in stride and be happy with it as it comesor you reject it spending your life always wondering what ifwhat if i ignore everything everyone sayswhat if i thought for myself just that one timewould life with person have been better would we still be togetherwould i have never lost my best friendquestions that will never be answeredso why is it then love is unmanageable why does love have to be random why is it when it's real love you never have a fucking clue. it;s like a having a duh moment when it hits you and your whole world changesyou become scared your behavior around them changes despite how hard we try and hide itinternal debate on whether or not they feel the same wayand the what ifs beginwhat if they don't feel the samewill you loose a friend

My Rant
Just sitting here thinking about the past and such. Made some good and bad choices. Been around the states and a few countries. Thinking how certain people screwed me over. Talk with all the sugar coating talk only to be lied to. Some days i wanna give up and some i dont. I can be a fool sometimes. Like someone you pick up. Use it til you had your fun and toss me away. Due to this one person they made me think who to trust and who not to trust. I was once married for 13 years and thought life was grand til something happened and lost it all. Then one time i traveled acrossed the united states to be with this one person and had a good thing only to be let down.

My Rap/hip Hop Travels
to start this off I have enjoyed Rap/hip hop since the late 80's. I got started on Hip Hop while watching "Fresh Prince of Bel Air" of course, I listened to a lot of Will Smith. but then i discovered LL Cool J, Whodini, Schooly D and Slick Rick. it was in the 90's i found gangsta rap and christian rap; my cousins introduced me to Cypress Hill, Jay-Z, Tupac and Xzibit. while my friend, Marcus gave me the likes of DMX, Notorious B.I.G. and N.W.A. while in my own time, I discovered Ice-T, christian MC T-Bone, Wu-Tang Clan, A Tribe Called Quest, The Fugees, Mos Def, Nas, Common, The Roots, Beastie Boys, Gravediggaz, Scarface and AZ to name the main recogizable MCs. through a series of bad choices from 1997 to 99 i ended up in a minimum security facility for youth (juvenile hall) for 2 yrs, but got out in half a year for good behavior. anyways, while i was in there I continued school classes-one of these being art. well one project was to make our own CD of music, no one had the rap i was u

My Rant (10-12-11)
What the fuck? Why can't people hold a conversation? Now, I dont get much shoutbox action (and why should I? I have a penis) but the action I do get seems to follow along the lines of the example that follows. This is a real shoutbox from a random stranger last night/this morning. The name has not been changed to protect the innocent: 12:22am GatorGurl352: heyy 12:48am No One: hello 12:50am GatorGurl352: hi there No One: hi GatorGurl352: how are you No One: i am well how are you? GatorGurl352: tired..lol No One: long day? GatorGurl352: yeah ive had 2 hrs of sleep if that No One: well not to be obvious but you should get some sleep GatorGurl352: yeah i will soon No One: good GatorGurl352: yeah..lol No One: do you have insomnia? or is there another reason you cant sleep GatorGurl352: no just streesed out No One: yes stress will keep you up

My Ragged Company.
Sometimes you have to pull stuff out of your arm...The knife was clean, the sink was filthy.I could hear a slide guitar in the background.And I started to squeeze.I think this is supposed to hurt. So I complain, I whince, I grimace, I yelp.There's a tiny redhead that wags her tail when she looks at me.Painted on jeans, twiggy and fragile. I wouldn't mind, but I try not to invite.Talk. Favor. Advise.Wonder what she thinks of battered condom wrappers, and novelty boxers, and men rapidly approaching thirty.I think I'm supposed to be happyso I smile, I laugh, I bump, I lean, step closer by step.Sometimes we rest in long, ornate boxes.The suit was clean, the body was empty.I could hear a slide guitar in the background...I think this is supposed to hurt,but nothing comes out.No matter how hard I squeeze.She told me she loves me.In a blindside without sex, jewelry, or tragedy.I wouldn't mind.I wish it had been the first timeso I could trustplungesuccumb.I think I'm supposed to be happy...

My Rabbit Blue Doesn't Like Mice!!
Well I was sitting here last night just before bed and blue when into bunny 500 mode (or so I thought). He got over by the front door and was thumping, and binking high into the air ( nothing uncommon so far). he ran up to me and sat by my foot at the recliner, so I thought he was saying he wanted to have the recliner (cause he is getting to big for us to share now) and I told him no I was sitting there. well he started thumping. I finally said what and I stood up to let him up. Well instead of him jumping up into the recliner like normal, he ran to the corner and did 3 or 4o binkies strait into the air, ran back to me and repeated the process. Now I understand humans are not as smart as rabbits so it took me a min for me to realized he wanted me to go over there. I walked over to see him binking over a dead mouse!!! he had thumped it and binkied on it to death!!! As soon as I got over there he ran to my recliner hopped up and flopped in it like normal, as to say my work

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My 2013 Racing Season
It was a pretty good year for me got to drive different classes...made my 13th year racing. Honestly starting to get a little burnt out with all the long nights working on em and bullshit that comes with racing people wanting to fight etc. But, in all I dont think that I could really give it up, I have a passion for dirt track raicng like no other! Good times good friends different type of people when you go to a dirt track there more like a family than anything,the smell of that 110 octane,the beautiful sight of dirt being thrown beating and banging, going in a corner wide open throwing it sideways along side 2-3 other cars a addrenline rush that no drug will never get you.

My 3rd Blast..
I just sent out a request for my third Cherry Blast to run for 3 days. This will be interesting. If you have not read my sample of my writings be sure to do so while you are here by clicking on the subject line that reads STORY 1. I am still working on the first chapter of the book and I am still aroused each time I read about how I shaved my legs in the shower before going dressing for the party on Friday night. Just wait till you read it.

My 3rd Place Finish In The Best Chest Contest
This is the reason why I already won 3rd place in the best chest contest while the contest is still going on. I sent messages to friends and posted bulletins asking to be bombed in this contest since bombing was allowed. It seems that one friend of mine decided to stake a claim and decided to message another friend of mine that was bombing me. She told this friend that I was her boyfriend (NOT TRUE!!!) and that she better stay away from me. The one thing that pisses me off more than anything is someone making a claim like that and involving me in their deluded little fantasy world here on CT. The one friend that received the nasty messages said she couldn't remember who it was that sent the nasty message to her. I posted a bulletin asking the person to have the intestinal fortitude to come forward, but as I already knew, they wimped out and didn't answer. I went to the contest moderator and asked to be pulled from the contest because of this drama some childish woman decided to start.

My 23rd Birthday Is Comming Soon
So with the many other changes and challenges i am facing this year, i have decided to do something for myself that will change my life... my kids lives... hell everyone within standing distance lives too... so what is it? I have decided that for my 23 birthday i am quitting smoking... through hypnotherapy...support lines... and the help of my family and friends. I believe all the years i have smoked thinking it was something that was helping me stay calm... it was slowly eating away at the time i had to be with my kids as they got older, and i wanna be around for a very long time! I am taking the steps i need to ... now i am asking for help from all of you.... if you see me smoking embarass the living fuck out of me! stop me at any cost..... bring up the fact that i wont be around for my kids... that seems to be my only stop button.... I want a healthy and active life and i cant have either with a cigarette in my hand... so this is my vow to all of you April 6th 2008 is my final d

~~my 3rd Hh Contest Bulletin~~
WANT_A _HAPPY_HOURI am doing my third Happy Hour Contest since my second one was a great success... come on i wanna make Godfather on this one!!Like the last one all you do is contact me at the link below, and send me the link of a S.F.W. picture that i can SAVE AND UPLOAD to the contest folder, My last contest i had 20 people i would love more this time around...won't start with less than 30 people (please do not join if your are not in it to win it)As Before the contest is First to 50,000 comments will get a Happy hour.Of course you can bomb yourself, have friends bomb you, if you are apart of a family they may bomb you... anyone caught using any programs, regardless of the amount of comments you have your entry will be deleted WITHOUT NOTICEPLEASE NOTE:To ensure that this doesn't last forever there will be a ending date (one month after start date), note if by this closing date no one has gotten the 50,000 comments required NO HAPPY HOUR will be given out============================

My 3rd Hh Contest Winners
Winners of My Happy Hour Contest Winner of the Happy Hour 50,000 Comments Needed Carnie@ fubar Winner of 30 Day Blast or 3 Month VIP 30,000 Comments Needed Since i stated this is my last contest i just did something a little different, though this spot was meant for one person who received 30,000 comments, these two ladies were each less than 700 comments away from 30,000 comment and were only 67 comments difference between them so being my usual self i said WHAT THE FUCK so i gave them both the spot! •DREW•@ fubar~*Pebbles*@ fubar Winner of 7 Day Blast or 1 Month VIP 20,000 Comments Needed ♥DJ Lezka♥Owner Of Ace Cafe&TBR~Dj Satanics Wife~Juicy's Fu GF~Archangels Bitch~@ fubar Winner of 150,000 Fubucks 15,000 Comments Needed BigDaddySparkslovesSweethotmoma@ fubar~Shauny32 ~owner of The Mile High Club~fly with us~ staff@ VIBRATIONS ~ F.A.R.@ fubarDJ*CuffedDesire*(FuOwnedByDjPrick!)@ fubar~Princess~Proud Member of the Confederate Bomber Fa

My 3rd Auction Bulletin
I am holding yet another Auction, trying to save for a Spotlight, so this one like my other ones going to be pretty simpleEntry Fee for this Auction will be 100,000 Fubucks and the minimum bid will be set for 200,000 and to ensure no one is cheated or anything if by some small chance someone who enters doesn't get bid on, and they are offering a good amount of stuff for their auction entry then i will bid 250K for the owning WOO HOO i own you... lmaoLike all my other Auctions you private message me by clicking the link below and send me a link to the picture you will like entered into the auction. I will RIP the pic so that i can know who it came from at the end of the auctionPrivateMessageLinkClick hereStart DateApril 4th5:00 PM EST&Will End onApril 18th5:00 PM ESTWhen i do auctions by myself i always do both men and woman so all are welcome to participate if they want toRULES*Rates are not needed, though appreciated* No Comments Please, Only Serious Bids.*Can bid anything fubar rela

My 3rd Auction
Yes that is correct, I'm in an auction yet again. LOL! if you would love to own me then click on the link below. the auction ends at the end of the month. happy bidding everyone. Wanted Man - Johnny Cash

My 3rd Happyhour 2night..
HAPPY HOLIDAYS MY FU FRIENDS, FANS & FAMILY! YOUR ONE AND ONLY THICKNESS85 IS HAVING HER 3RD HAPPY HOUR.... THANKS TO HER FU-OWNER PUDDY! 8PM FU-TIME.... BUT FOR ME IT WILL BE 11PM. AND MY AUTO 11'S WILL BE ON! SHOW ME LOTS OF LOVE.... AND I WILL BE SURE TO RETURN THE LOVE! HAPPY HOLIDAYS LOVE YOU ALL! (repost of original by '♥Thickness85-R/L Wifey 2 BiigEvil♥ n Fu-Wifey 2 Trixie Mort-Member of Dangerous Curves' on '2008-12-18 09:09:10') (repost of original by '✿❤aMaNDa j0❤ (☆Fu Bomber Family Manager☆)✿' on '2008-12-18 09:14:15')

My Response 2 Her Blog!!
OK, so my girl Claudia from Myspace posted this blog and this is what I had to say>> ~HER~ Friday, September 08, 2006 Through with love. Current mood: refreshed Category: Romance and Relationships Only God knows when I will be ready to try it again. But as for now, I have enter into a loving relationship with my self. I am tired of these men tryin to half step me-- Wantin' relations and no relationship. I am better then that... I deserve not your best, I deserve your all. I am sick of "these" type of men. I don't believe in sharing my man nor being involed with one who's torn between the two. I am not the one to ride in "old school terms", stashed away - meaning... I'm available at his convenience. Naw, not me man-- try that on a sister who acts like a nicca which y'all classify as a 304 'cause she let y'all take ownership of her pussy. I love my self; therefore, I have commited to my own well - being. ~THE QUEEN~ Alright, I have to put my two cents in on this o

My Reflection
I look deep into the pool of the universe and see my reflection staring back at me I can not know that all I have foreseen has been created by my will and energy My mistake has always been that I thought destiny was a face, that choices were a prequisite of this life. I find now that nothing is real, all is a dream. Each evening I close my eyes and each morning I am reborn into a new and fresh dawn of life to pick and choose my way again. © Copyright 2002 Amawitch-granny witch

My Reward
I know you are near as surely as I know that the sun has set. I can smell the candles you have set to burning to provide light, their flames licking at the darkness causing shadows to jump and leap around the room. I can hear your breathing now and the sound of your feet on the floor. Your footsteps are getting closer; the closer they get the quicker my heart leaps in anticipation. Lying on the bed, I cannot move; you have secured my wrists and ankles leaving me vulnerable to your whim. I cannot see you for you have also blindfolded me. I lay on the bed, my body trembling, waiting for your first touch. I have been waiting like this, helplessly tied and sightless, for 30 minutes or more. I hear your footsteps stop about 2 feet away from me. I turn my head in reflex but groan from my blindness. I pull on my restraints in an attempt to gain even an inch of slack in the ropes. You watch as I test my restraints, knowing it is hopeless. My breathing is quick and shallow, my heart

My Reality
As I lie in bed I dream of every touch, your lips apon mine, and how your fingertips slowly massage my hand. I dream of your skin so soft and how you look into my eyes, I can't help but stare! As you hold me your warmth keeps me there, right next to you I just can't control my hands! Your body so smooth I touch you and my heart skips a beat. As my lips touch your skin all I can think about is kissing away your pain. I sit here wishing your hurtfull memories would fly away. You look into my eyes, so gentle and sweet, for my soul is floating and all I want to do is weep! I love everything about you even you pulling at my hair, knowing it will get to me, for my whole body goes weak. I can't help dream of a world with right by me if you weren't i would be so empty. Everything about you is what I dream for that is all I think it is but when I awake your lieing next to me! I roll over and hold you and my dream becomes reality.

My Results
You scored as Loving Eyes. When people lood at your eyes they see warmth, comfort, and love. They know who you like because your eyes drop off hints, but they know how much your secret means to you so they wouldnt tell him.Loving Eyes100%Happy Eyes83%Sparkle Eyes83%Caring Eyes83%Window Eyes67%Lonely Eyes50%Eyes Filled With Pain And Hate50%Hidden Eyes50%Hurt Eyes33%What Do Your Eyes Say To People (Pics)created with QuizFarm.com

My Results From The Think Fast Game
Don't think about an answer...just put the first thing that pops into your head down. 1. My ex is still... Hippy trying 2. I am listening to.. more cowbell!!! 3. Maybe I should... tattoo my penis 4. I love... lamp 5. I dont understand.... people that like child porn 7. I lost... my right leg in a boatig accident 8. People say... I'm the life of the party 'cause I tell a joke or two 9. The meaning of my screen name is... serendipitous 10. Love is... overrated 11. Somewhere, someone.... is munching on mangos from a manic meat market manager 12. I will always... part my hair to the left 13. Forever seems... ah.....who cares? 14. I never wanted... ....why do I have "Wichita Lineman" stuck in my head? 15. My cell phone is.... does anyone know what "The Butterfly" is? 16. When I wake up in the morning... ...and the Wichita Lineman...is still on the line.... 17. I get annoyed.... I wonder if it's safe to eat spinach again?

My Response To Comments On My Last Blog
I was going to do this as a comment but it started to turn into a blog of it's own. Woody...Good looks have NEVER wooed me. It's intelligence that woos me. You can be as good looking as you want, but if you're an idiot...I'll pass you by quicker than you can say "Bob's your uncle" Mr. Rush...Please do not ASSUME what I am on the net for. Truth be known, it's my form of entertainment because raising 2 small children totally by myself is expensive...I get NO help from NO ONE. Their father has been dead since before they were born. So this means I can't AFFORD to go out and have a good time so the net is where I do it. As far as you all being REAL ppl and not just fonts...No one seems to remember that I am also a REAL person with REAL feelings either. On here or in REAL life. Pretty girls don't really have feelings you know, we're just objects that are supposed to stand around & look good. Nothing really HURTS us because we don't FEEL anything. Hence my user name. Do I use it in the

My Religion
So I've been thinking a lot about my religion and who I am and I realised music is my religion. For me its not about a paticular god or goddess but its about the passion in my soul. When I play and can touch somebody with that music and passion that for me is worship and prayer and ritual and sacrifice and communion all in one moment. There is a spirit that I feel when I play and I hope I can capture that feeling and pass it on to you all. Mike

My Reason For Being
Today everything went wrong nothing went right, and there was an unsettling feeling that something is wrong or that something bad is going to happen. This feeling or premonition is never wrong, so i await in fear and dread the phone another is hurt or await the night that will never end for me. In that fear came thought, pondering over my reason for being. Since i was young, I knew what my reason for living was, life has continued to prove that i am meant to be here. i am meant to sacrifice, to give, to love and accept. i am a fighter for the weak, a protector if you will, i am your shield and your sword. i am a lover. i am meant to love those believing love is not real or meant for them. i am meant to be a guide, a guardian, and a lover. though my path does allow love to stay in my life or to be granted to me for long, this saddens me with knowing this, though it shall and must be. To those of you who know me, my heart holds true love and love for any i speak those words to. my love i

My Red Haired Goddess!!
Ok, My red haired goddess!! For a year you have haunted my life!! You know how to tease me !! Play with me!! Lead me!! Hold me!! I love the way you move your soft curves around! I love the way you whip all of us in shape!! I love those eyes of yours that see right through us!! You have a kind side to you !! But You let us know that you have a wicked side to you as well!! You love your chains ,whip,ropes and all the other tools. But most of all you love your play pets!! Just for you sweetheart!!! You know I love you girl and that will neveer change!!

My Results, U Should Post Yours
You're a Romantic Kisser For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet What Kind of Kisser Are You?

My Resignation...
~*~Resignation...~*~ I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the

My Resume =)
1. My first job was working in an Orange Juice factory, but I got canned. I couldn't concentrate. 2. Then, I worked in the woods as a Lumberjack, but I just couldn't hack it, so they gave me the axe. 3. After that, I tried to be a Tailor, but I just wasn't suited for it -- mainly because it was a sew-sew job. 4. Next, I tried working in a Muffler Factory, but that was too exhausting. 5. Then, I tried to be a Chef - figured it would add a little spice to my life, but I just didn't have the thyme. 6. I attempted to be a Deli Worker, but any way I sliced it I couldn't cut the mustard. 7. My best job was a Musician, but eventually I found I wasn't noteworthy. 8. I studied a long time to become a Doctor, but I didn't have any patience. 9. Next, was a job in a Shoe Factory. I tried but I just didn't fit in. 10. I became a Professional Fisherman, but discovered that I couldn't live on my net income. 11. I managed to get a good job working for a Pool Mai

My Relationship
So here is the deal. Lately, I have been putting a lot of MuMM's about my relationship, or relationships in general. I just wanted to make sure that everyone was clear on my relationship. I am very happy and content in my relationship. I am in a very serious relationship with a guy named Josh S. He has been a very supportive factor in my life over the past almost two years. He was one of the few people that understood when my aunt was sick and dying that I needed my space, but was always there when I needed him. He gave my space, but within the space there was the understanding that he was just a phone call or txt away. We have been friends for a long time, via the internet, and have only been a couple for 7 months. I know to a lot of people, that doesn't seem like a long time, but it really is. There are no ifs ands or butts about our relationship, we are what we are. We don't apologize for the way we act when we are together, we don't apologize for the way we

My Religion!!
The article below was written by our late webmaster, Herne. In it, he describes how Wicca draws from the Old Traditions of Witchcraft. While this is true, we would simply like to clarify up front that Witchcraft and Wicca, while simular in many respects, are not the same. One can be a Witch, without being a Wiccan, just as a person can be a Christian, without being a Baptist. Futhermore, Wicca is a recognized religion, while Witchcraft itself is not considered a religion. Thus, Wicca might best be described as a modern religion, based on ancient Witchcraft traditions. What Is Wicca Contrary to what those who choose to persecute or lie about us wish to believe, Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking and life which promotes oneness with the divine and all which exists. Wicca is a deep appreciation and awe in watching the sunrise or sunset, the forest in the light of a glowing moon, a meadow enchanted by the first light of day. It is the morning dew

My Red Beast ( Author: David J Knight)
A vision on which I allow my eyes to feast every time I approach the big red beast shivering as it lets rip it's throaty roar as if eager for some approaching war Though been done far too oft to count excitement still grips as I approach my mount with her heat throbbing between my thighs I set out to reconquer my gorgeous prize Today I'm offered her most precious gift she promises my low spirits to lift with an exhilaration guaranteed to work my scowl replaced by irrepressible smirk Together to the country we swiftly fly enviously watched by an unclouded sky my hidden lips pursed in now perpetual smile as we so gracefully cover yet another mile Sweeping around long invigorating curves passing all others with delicate swerves bonded together as if we were just one not wishing the moment ever to be gone T

My Retirement (and Old Blog)
My Retirement, July 2003 I lost more money in the stock market. I think I\'m going to give up on the day trading idea. Not watching the market yesterday made me realize why I took the package to begin with. It wasn’t to day trade on a full time basis. I just wanted to improve my life. It was to travel and live a totally free lifestyle. I was not doing that by spending the day watching the market. I woke up a 4:00am this morning and decided to clean my house. I was throwing out a lot of junk that has been around for years. I put away some clutter around the house and now I’m mentally and physically preparing myself to get ready for my travels. Letter to Noy, July 16, 2003: Hi Noy, I\'m sorry that I haven\'t returned any of your phone calls. I have been having a busy last couple of days. On Monday I went to drop off Masha at her place. I went to central park to log into my computer. I emailed Donna if she is available for lunch and then I went downtown to v

My Reply To A Sex Appl. Bulletin By The Stallion
The Stallion date: 2006-12-05 15:21:55 subject: sex application submission, bigboy read receipt: Yes read: Yes replied: No block user 1. Your Name: You can call me whatever you like. 2. Age: Wait, if i remember correctly, what turns you on are 12 year old boys. 3. Favorite position (s) ? You on the ground with your legs spread and your hands behind your head. Me standing over you with a loaded pistol aimed at your back. 4. Do you think i'm hot? You must be, i always see you sweating for no apparent reason. 5. Would you have sex with me? Only if i had AIDs or something would it be worth it. 6. lights on or off? Anything that involves you're being present is better with the lights off... and with a clothes-pin over my nose. 7. Would you have to be drunk? If drunk were the horizon, i'd have to be whatever you'd be after circumnavigating the globe, and almost returning to exactly where i started. 8. Would you take a shower with me? Shower? Is th

My Response To The 3rs Mumm
I think it's a break down on everyone's part. People pointing fingers at the parents. Parents pointing fingers at the system. The system saying, "We don't have the money for education but we do have the money to bring Capitalism to the Middle East!" Sorry, I have to point the finger at the media too. We all allow ourselves to do cut rate work. Look at how we all have started to reduce words even in our comments here. We start sentences with lower case letters. We excuse letters missing in words. We use alpha and numeric in words and in sentences. We aren't talking about an administration; we are talking about butchering the entire english language. The sad thing is; we have all learned to adapt to this new system of garbage talk and type. We have actually allowed ourselves to become lesser than instead of setting the bar higher. We ALL expect our children to do better than we did. We put a lot of pressure on them to do better and get frustrated when they get o

My Reality.. (it's A Few Months Old But It's Still True For The Most Part)
My Eyes only (that was my original title for this document.. I think it still fits.) Life is painful and humanity is a joke. I want to die more than anything. Everything I was ever taught is a lie and I can't fucking deal with it. I don't believe in christianity, I swear, I curse gods name for fuck sake... I am nothing that my family wants me to be but I used to pretend so as not to hurt them. Now I won't hide it if they ask me.. but I'm not running out to tell them.. If one of you finds this I'm sorry... The point is everybody creates an image of me that isn't even close to reality. They all think "he's a good kid and he'd never do anything wrong." But I think about doing terrible things all the time. I have considered murdering many people and made plans to do so in my head. Every time I went to do it I stopped myself because I didn't want to hurt my family. Sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna snap on a person.. so I'll hit inanimate objects so that I don't.. I thi

My Retarded Poem
i love you but do you love me? i give you my heart have u given me yours? i try to be in a better mood because i know it's just one of those days where everything seems to piss you off but how can if you can't seem to see the big picture? i wear your balls and the bracelet that you have matching of i sleep with the penguin that you gave me i just can't seem to get anything right today everything is so messed up today i wish it would just go away it almost feels like we're falling apart you are everything to me and i don't want to loose you do you want to loose me? this past year has screwed with my head big time i know what i want in this life i ty to strive for it but the only thing standing in my way is my age i hate being 16 you think you're old enough to do something than you get shut down you probably don't care about anything i have to say S.T.F.U that's what you want to tell me isn't it? well go ahead cause i'm already dead to you

My Resolutions
I will remember to put on underwear before opening the limo door I will finish saving up to get the Right Said Fred tattoo lasered off I will buy my wife an expensive gift I will listen more closely the next time she explains what the nanny cam is for I will not shout "Yahtzee!" every time a light turns green I will not invade another country to try to get Jodie Foster's attention

My Recovery
Please, keep an open mind! Don't judge my past, as I won't judge yours (should I learn about it). I'll just come out with it. At my 3rd job, Godfather's Pizza, I met a co-worker who (both on and off the clock) dealt marijuana. Knowing nothing about it, he "taught" me about it, then gave/sold me some to try out, hoping I'd become a "customer" (which I did). Since then I was hooked, spending half the money I acquired weekly on pot. I say WAS because my current "unemployedness" is really starting to grate on me. As of January 5th, 2007, I have 9 months clean. I've joined a Narcotics Anonymous group that I attend twice a week (sometimes more). I won't lie and say kickin' pot and stayin' off it was/is easy, but neither is it impossible. I'm glad my addiction didn't last long enough that I got a pot leaf tattooed on my body, 'cause then I'd be forced to spend a grand (or more) to remove it. I'm not posting this blog to brag, I'm just kinda proud of myself, AND I believe I shouldn't keep

My Research Of Crushes Pt. 1
Alright. So I have done some research seeing as how none of them are even trying to play the game. I decided to do it myself. It's not easy mind you, some have crushes on other people. So I had to becareful. I have came up with alittle list. The list grows the more I look at it. So I'll just start with the closet I talk to. Hahaha. They could be wrong, if they are, just tell me so I can continue. Hahaha. If not, fess-up because it took a long time to get it!! The List: 1) crazycowboy 2) avengerki 3) silveroak Those are the start off's. If I'm wrong tell me so I can try again.

My Response On Az Central
I was reading an article on AZ Central.com about the peace march here in Phoenix. For those of you who must know, I am not a far left liberal, centrist or moderate would be a better term, I am not delusional about the Democrats any more than the Republicans, as I have been pretty embarassed about the activities about my own party (the Democrats) as much as anything. But with that said though, I'd like to copy on here what I responded with when I saw someone post about how "Dubbya had cojones"........please, let's not get stupid. Bush didn't "have guts", Bush had a case of very, very poor judgement. I am very pro big military, but I am also for using those resources wisely, and we simply should've focused our efforts on Afghanistan. But here's my response...it starts by going after another "it's all Clinton's fault" fan.....here goes I love the "blame Clinton" crowd, they're always so, well, ignorant. First of all, "party of accountability", need I remind you who received a mem

My Response To The Future Ct Strike!
From my experience, it has never been the issue of BabyJesus running his site the way he want to. I think its a great alternative to the "younger" MySpace & I have made lots of great connections with it. But from my view, its the double standard from where the "Thought Police" can report anything they want & its supposed to be gospel. Where as mumm I posted a few days ago can get deleted by CT, but others that, in my opinion, are far more sexual, rascist, offensive, etc. not only are able to stay on, but have recieved hundreds of votes & comments. I feel I was reported by someone who had a grudge on me, for whatever reason that was. But CT took it as gospel & now I am unable to post any more mumms. And I think that's wrong. It just gives me the impression that CT took their side on this matter & I'm being completely ignored from that situation.I think the NSFW concept is a great idea! But allowing everything to be publicly scrutinized is like leading the lamb to slaughter. I can under

My Recipe
3 smoked ham hocks 1 onion 5 cloves garlic 3 tabs. crushed red peppers 2 pounds collard greens 3 tbs.franks hotsauce in a large pan over med.heat add ham hocks onion and garlic place the greens in a sink full of cold water let sit for 15 min. add 4 cups of water 2 the pot with ham hacks and add crushed red pepper cook till ham hocks are tender tear the greens down the stalk then rinse a few times 2 get all the dirt out of them.when ham hocks are tender slice them and add the greens 2 the pot and the 3 tbs. franks hot sauce simmer over low heat for 1 hour. then enjoy

My Reason For Being
A fragment of the unknown in thought. So much that is out there. Pondering all of these things on my mind. Wondering why Im here. A voice with so much meaning. I possess it to the core. Reaching out is what I do best. Is that what Im here for? Relates in ways that are truly special. Ive been there and know what its like. Ive felt the worst pain possible and yes survived that fight. I feel like I am drawn to those who have burdens in thier heart. I too have had those burdens and felt so ripped apart. My reason here is still unknown but I follow what I feel. That alone makes me unique. Im doing what is real.

My Remix Of Pjnfx - Zig Zag - Pre-released Today
Lukas Greenberg aka PJ NFX's brand new release Zig Zag is now available on Electo Oryx via DJDownload.com There are 4 great mixes....including one by me PjnFX - Zig Zag (D-White Noise Remix) Get it here:- http://www.djdownload.com/artist/PjnFX/234934 Cheers, Dave. PS...preview on my myspace page at www.myspace.com/dwhitenoise

My Response To The Trash Talk About The Military Wives
military skanks huh? for your information the majority of military wives are either enrolled in school or already have their degree so that they can help with the income. We do not bitch or whine to those who are not in the same situation that we are in. In fact we do not bitch or whine at all. we are proud of what our husbands do. and you need to do your research first before you go off on us. We do NOT get extra income for "breeding" as you so put it. First of all we didnt' give you the "civilians" term... that's what you are, non-military. We do not get extra money for having kids. Nobody thinks you're beneath us just because you or your spouse chooses not to join the military. We completely understand that we signed up for deployments when we married our men. Yeah it's part of the job. It sucks but we deal, we don't whine or complain or bitch. As to your part about everyother job being just as dangerous, if your husband gets shot at everyday, has mortars aimed at his camp when he'

My Recent Resignation Letter (honest)
(This is my actual recent (last Friday) resignation letter to my current employer. I'm moving on to a position that meets my career objectives (it pays to be your own career manager). My direct manager got a scream out of it; my VP thought I meant to poach resources from the company. I don't know; what do you think?) After an appropriate period of deliberation, I have come to the decision to tender my resignation from ___, effective February 16, 2007. Please know that I still maintain a high level of respect for you as a manager and colleague, and I thank you sincerely for the support and assistance you have offered me in each of those roles. I have been proud to work for ___ over the past year; it has been a journey that has provided me an unparalleled foundation to move forward to new and exciting opportunities. As such, I have decided to become a professional pirate. It has always been a dream of mine to live the life of a swashbuckling corsair, beholden to none and mas

My Reality Is A Dream
My Reality is a dream you were the one who touched my heart it was love at first sight at the start the more i got to know you the closer we became our love was pure and true not a game. we spent each day together hand in hand and in the evenings we'd lie on beaches sand it was your hand together with mine as we lay in peace as time went by. its your name and soul that i hold close to my heart cause a love like ours is too strong to part one so special so true and forgiving i could stand here forever beside you just hugging and kissing. we talk on the phone for hours sharing stories or secrets our love is so strong so you don't have to put it to the test for ages we could look into each others eyes and every word spoken between us has never been a lie. it was your body laying next to me that night all i felt was pleasure cause you made everything alright it was your lips that i felt on mine at the same time we were both on each others minds. all your

My Recent Hospital Visit
On Saturday Febuary 17, 2007 I was hit with a severe asthma attack and was hospitalized.I was in contact withTHE EXECUTIONER,RACECHICK, AND TAMMY and they, thankfully, enformed some of my friends and family of my situation.I am writing this to say "THANKS AMILLION FOR YOU CONCERN AND BEST WISHES". None of you will ever truly know just how much your coments have meant to me. One never knows what they mean to someone untill you find yourself in a situation like this. The staff tell me that I amd doing better, but nothing in this world could have made me feel any better than all your best wishes.I've been told that they will let me out of here tomorrow and I will get to go HOME THANK GOD! I hate hospitals but I guess they are a necassery evil. Again thanks for your concern and I can only hope that in the future I can return the favor. MUCH LOVE AND MAD RESPECT FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HORSE

My Religious Beliefs
You are a Self-Discoverer You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality. Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine. You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion. You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans. What's Your Religious Philosophy?

My Recent Absence
Guys and sexy chics, I just want to take a minute to tell you that I have been packing to prepare for a move and my time online is somewhat limited. I'm going through withdrawals BIG TIME so I don't see my shakes subsiding anytime soon. ANYWAY, please know that if any of you decide to swing by, if only for a moment, in spite of my absence - I will be so GRATEFUL and shocked really...I can't stand when people start a page and neglect it. On my part, it's not neglection, it's other priorities - trust me and the withdrawals are killing me. grrrrr... ;-[ Ya'll be good and I promise not to shave my head. I'll go insane to a degree but trust me when I say that my vanity wins over on any momentary lapse of koo-koo'ness

My Reflection
Driving to work I was stopped this morning for a logging operation. A nice patch of forest that I wanted to pick chanterelle mushrooms in last fall but never got around to it. It made me feel sick, first in line at the flagger, stopped for five minutes, watching some glorious lichen-draped douglas fir trees turn into $$$ and stumps. I took some snapshots of them falling but after awhile I lost my cool and yelled at the flagger, "hey, can I go to work?" They kindly radioed the feller and let me through... Tonight I cooked stir fry with a wooden spatula and cleaned up with some paper towels. I am the logger, same but different. He is whereas I pretend.

My Real Age
does anyone else have this problem. whenever i put my actual birthday in it says i am a year older then i really am. I am 32 people not 33..lol so i changed it and it's a year off. oh well. at least it has the right age for now.

My Release......age 15
it sits there staring, laughing at me tempting me to just do one more, one more release is all I'll need I think for a nanosecond, the repercussions of my actions, time slips by, pop another and some more drown you pain in a prescription, meant to heal you, make it hurt. Not cause it wants to but because you need to, cause the pain give yourself a purpose a reason to fucking feel. Anyone who matters is gone, without a goodbye they left, to sad for them I guess it was. Now I'm lost, forgotten while they spread out and grow. I'm left, here in my sorrow, dying by myself, cause of myself. No one gets to pick the cards they are dealt in life , well fuck me I wanna new dealer and a new deck. Fuck the rest of them their better off with me to worry bout, constantly wondering if they'll come home and find me face down in pool red. A pool of red, fuck I don't do pain they don't know shit about me, my own, they claim they don't want me to when asked why they reply, they don't have the m

(my Real Name)terryann's Sexy Acronym
- Terryann's Sexy Acronym - Tis for...TitillatingEis for...EnticingRis for...RisqueRis for...RacyYis for...YummyAis for...AppetizingNis for...NakedNis for...Nasty The Sexy Acronym Generator at QuizUniverse.com

My "repost This Or Your Off My Friends List...yea And ..fuck Off" Bulletin
Stop the bullshit i am tired of seeing this shit on bulletins oh ya ok i never open em so please take the time and DELETE me now...i promise not to take offense to ur dumbass actions of me caring if some one who doesnt want me on their list and never speaks to me actually takes me off... ok hmm well i didnt have much to say... hope to see a few ppl follow through with they are reposting and take me the fuck off your list ...

My Reason
Well I have met alot of fun ladies over the past couple of months I have to say i am still searching for my reason.When I was with an old girlfriend I remember having a reason to work harder,wake up,and pretty much know why I wanted to be anything in life was because I wanted to be with her.I wanted to buy her things not to just impress her but cause something I saw reminded me of her so I bought it. I have not felt that way in some time. I still search for my reason,my love,and that person who makes me smile just being next to me.I know most people want things in life and feel that having a status or high profile in life think thats important,but not to me.the only thing that I really want that could really give me any drive would have to be my reason. some people get what I am saying some dont.Take it any why you want its just how I feel.

My Resignation Letter What Cha Think
March 23, 2007 This letter is to inform you of my voluntary resignation, without notice, on this 23rd day of March 2007. Due to situations and actions out of my control, I believe that working in that environment is unsafe as well as unhealthy mentally, and with that I was not able to perform to the best of my capabilities. My performance was dropping and with that my co-workers and customers suffered. That is unacceptable to myself and .... I respect the company and the team I have had the chance to work with. I would have wanted nothing more than to have a career with Verizon yet I know in that store it would not be possible. One of the reasons I came to this decision was the entirety of confidence with my manager, and being notified that it had been released to a co-worker in which the taunting became more directed at me. Which is unethical and difficult to accept. I have much respect for my manager .... on many aspects and I have enjoyed learning from him and wo

My Redneck Family
Just have to share this story... My daughter, Taylor, is a 17-year-old new driver. She's driving on her permit, so each driving experience is new. Last night, she got her first experience with very heavy rains. She called home to say she was on her way to pick up clothes but would be a minute because the streets were flooding and it was slowing down traffic. When she got home, without thinking about it, pulled in to her usual spot, in the yard by the garage. Of course, as a new driver, she didn't consider that she shouldn't park on a flooded lawn. The girls came in the house and gathered their things. As they were leaving, I went in to do some laundry. Had I not gone into the laundry room, I wouldn't have heard them spinning tires as they tried to get out of the yard!! I told my hubbie they were stuck. He got dressed and went to help push them out, all of them getting drenched in the rain. Well, the car is a front wheel drive, with a bald tire on one side and a donut on

My Resume Part 2
Saturday Night... same Drill... brothers go to bed at 10.. fun begins at 10:30! After 5 minutes of kissing Viki says, "I swear to God if you ever say a word...." In typical teen fashion I roll my eyes and swear to all that i hold holy that I wont utter a peep! She smiles and in one fell swoop... off comes her t-shirt and she reaches for her bra... "Well? Take your clothes off" she said releasing those beautiful orbs into view for the first time. I thought I would pass out when the blood left my brain and headed southward so fast! The only thing headed south any faster were my jean shorts and tidy whiteys! I believe I just might have broken the speed of sound I ripped them off so fast. I looked down at the floor to fumble them off of my feet and when I looked up... there she was.... naked. I swallowed hard... this was it... HOME RUN! I mean... what did I know about sex? As far as i knew... I had just HAD sex! She stepped towards me and for the first time I realized th

My Resignation
Body: I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes; but that didn't bother you because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair; that everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life

My Results R In......
Well,here's the results bck on my test> A BIG NEGIATIVE!!!!! THANK GOD & THANK U ALL FOR UR PRAYERS & THOUGHTS,WITHOUT YA'S I WOULDNT OF MADE IT THRU IT! PEACE & MUCH,MUCH LV TO YA'S! WOOOHOOO I CAN LIVE AGAIN,LOL!

My Regret
Regret flows from the depths of my soul With the strength of a flood I have held these gates shut for too long And though tormenting, they should not be stopped. The thought of your anguish Even as I write to you now Stops my heart cold As well it should What I see in front of me Is a painting of our love Its most thoughtful brushstrokes Mottled by hurried abstraction and inattention A person who had not seen this masterpiece created Might think it to be refuse and pass it by unknowingly Letting be obscured the deep beauty of its many scenes By layers of the tarnish of mistreatment But as the painter I see beyond the dark smears To recall the hours that I attended to the details And wonder how I could let it become so discolored The painting that took me my life to create Has lost its divinity in my careless treatment And even if I were to refine it I fear you would always see it as it is today So today I paint a new masterpiece One inspired by the

My Reactions To The Virginia Tech Shooting
My Reactions To The Virginia Tech Shooting Now Im not saying that I sympathize with the shooter but it could be understandable. Some people get so fed up with how people and society treat them. Bullying is a biggy. Day in and day out these kids are tormented by others both outside and in school. Some kids hang themselves in front of their school, some drop out, some shoot it up, some blow it up. When you are angry at the world and the people treat you like crap, some lash out. Its like beating a dog. One day the dog is going to get so fed up that it will bite or even try to kill you. Think about it... All through out school I was bullied alot, everyday in fact. For some odd reason they always found something to pick on me about. It got really frustrating. I withdrew from people, started cutting myself (home was rough too) and just really started to hate people in general. Yeah I wished that some where dead, ok not dead, would just leave me alone. So maybe I didn't have to run hom

My Reason For Starting This Blog
I'm creating this blog so I can post all the funny jokes I find across the net and theres alot. I hope e1 enjoys them as much as I do. I think ones personality comes out when we discover what makes them laugh.

My Resolution
my resolution Nothing but an empty page Breathing in an open space Captured by your moment's grace again There's so much I left behind Even more that waits in time Everything's so undefined I'm standing on the edge of my fear And I see it clear Here's my resolution I'm letting go All I need to learn is along this road And I just want to be the best man I can be Breathe, it's my resolution Living life without a plan Finding solace where I stand And learning how to love again And all I want is something real That I can feel Here's my resolution I'm letting go All I need to learn is along this road And I just wanna be the best man I can be 'Cause here's my resolution I'm letting go All I need to learn is along this road And I just wanna be the best man I can be Breathe, it's my resolution My resolution

My Recent Life.
Blah, blah, blah, blah........life sucks! I am working crazy shifts and stupid hours. I'm going from the Fire dept. to the Ambulance and back again. been sooo busy (and sick) that it's driving me crazy. I try my hardest to be nice to jennifer but it's hard when EVERY word I say she tells me is a lie. I miss coming home and having someone to talk to (face to face) about the bad calls and shitty day's. Jen will listen but their is no sympathy. I remember coming home one night after having a close call and I woke her up to talk about it and she was like "well your still alive" wtf? I try my best to tell Akira that daddy is home safe when I do get home, atleast she cares. My Life, work and art seem to matter to know one. I just go to work and do the best I can. Atleast I can make someone's day better (the patients) I lived far too much of my life angry and this is what I get. Fine! I don't want a GF, why? so I can play the "get to know you game" fuk that! I am a work-aholic and that's j

My Recollection
MY RECOLLECTION waiting on the dark fringes of reality... merely hoping you'd come bring me my fatality... all of these things you mean to me, merely images inside my fantasy... so here we are, i should've known we'd never go far... we're just another sky full of falling stars and i'm always the 1st to fall far away from where i think you are... my impatience is what terror brings... facing the darkness i create always with my ass in a sling... sometimes the love you bring lacks that familiar sting...as i'm lying on the floor begging for more... my sweet addiction is killing me, but then again, isn't that what all your love is for? satisfied living, satisfied dying... letting them fight each other 'til the bitter end... why is it i always seem to break where others bend? the quicker the delivery the longer i take to mend, walking around with your voice inside my head... hands in my pockets looking ahead to my own death... but at least i'm still looking ahead with a handspan

My Reply To My Own Survey
JUST HIT REPLY TO SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A MESSAGE THEN, REPOST THE EMPTY QUESTIONS AS A BULLETIN. 1. What is your full name? Brian Sons 2. When is your Birthday? 3-9-72 3. How tall are you? 5'11" 4. Do you smoke? Cigs unfortunately 5. How many sexual partners have you had? 6. If you can't answer, is it really that many? 20 7. Can you cook? Very well 8. What was your dream growing up? To have a family and happily married 9. What talent do you wish you had? I am very talented as it is so...I do not wish for any 10. Favorite place? Beach 11. G-strings or thongs? Either 12. What was the last book you read? Lord of the Rings 13. What zodiac sign are u ? Pisces 14. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? ONe tatt.my son's intitials 15. Worst Habit? Smoking 16. Do we know each other outside of CheryTap? NO unfortunately 17. What is your favorite sport? Football 18. Pessimist or Optimist attitude? Optimist

My Reminders...
WELL AFTER MY LAST BLOG, I HAVE HAD REMINDERS THAT I'M NOT ALONE. NOT AS ALONE AS I FEEL MOST TIMES. I VENTED IN MY LAST BLOG ABOUT HOW PEOPLE CAN BE MEAN AND HEARTLESS AND VERY "EXPECTANT" WHAT I HAVE FAILED TO SEE OR WRITE ABOUT... IS THE PEOPLE WHO ARE TRULY THERE FOR ME. THE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME. THE PEOPLE WHO LET ME VENT WHEN NEEDED. THE ONES WHO UNDERSTAND ME.. FOR ME. THIS IS SOMETHING, I WILL NEVER FORGET AGAIN. I'VE HAD REMINDERS ABOUT MY TRUE FRIENDS, FROM MY TRUE FRIENDS. I'M LEARNING AS I GO ALONG IN LIFE. AS DOES EVERYONE! WHY IS WHEN ONE IS ANGRY... IT TAKES CONTROL OF EVERY OTHER EMOTION? WHAT IS IT ABOUT ANGER THAT CONTROLS YOU? FRUSTRATION IS RIGHT BESIDE ANGER. I'VE SPENT THAT LITTLE BIT OF TIME, VENTING AND BEING ANGRY. WHEN I DIDN'T MENTION ONCE, ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT TRULY CARE!! I'D LIKE TO TAKE A MINUTE TO THANK YOU ALL!! THERE ISN'T ENOUGH WORDS IN THIS WORLD TO DESCRIBE THE FEELING OF HAVING TRUE FRIENDS. AND THAT'S WHAT I SHOULD BE FOCUSING ON AND NOT TH

My Religious Philosophy.. Sort Of. Lol
You are Agnostic You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you. What's Your Religious Philosophy?

My Results
My results Category: Life My results were better than i expected i dont have cancer thank fuck excuse the french lol but i do have an under active thyroid which can be kept under control with tablets i have raised thingys that say i have inflamtion which i knew anyway but that was neither here nor there all in all im not very well. I knew that too but at least now i have something on paper that says it. At long last now maybe i will get someone to listen to me which is the worst of my trouble unless you have something on paper no one seems to want to listen they told me to stop looking for answers well if i had my health would have gotten worse and things would have been allot worse. This still doesnt answer whats wrong with my back but it tells me why all my joints hurt i suppose miracles will not come this way but ANSWERS I WILL HAVE im not giving in or giving up Im just gonna see how much this new lot of medication helps before i start yelling again and maybe i can find out s

My Reasoning
ok so you know there are so many people that know im joining the army. most support me and try to understand me but others do nothing but bitch and tell me im fucking up. well first of all if any of you bitching are parents and have a significant other helping you shut the fuck up and leave me alone cuz you will never understand what im going through. if your a single parent well you might understand a lil more but please dont put me down for what im doing. my daughter is almost a year old and every day i look at her and think "damn if only i had tried harder, done things differently you would have a better life". i can barely support her the way i feel i should be and it kills me every day. and yes i know joining the army is dangerous but what in life isnt??? with me joining the army i can go to school, get the nursing degree i want, support my lil one, and if i stay in the twenty years i can put her through college, an oppurtinity i never had. so yeah i know what im doin and i

My Return
I guarded myself But not for too long Let the guard down To prove myself wrong But instead of returning My displays of admiration You've broken my spirit With your hesitation You left me waiting Yearning for more Confused and wondering What's next in store So I'll return to the ways I was accustomed to Pretending it's fine And hiding from you

My Reminder... Who's Yours?
THERE'S SO MANY THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT OF THE DAY. THERE'S SO MUCH TO SORT THROUGH... SO MANY THINGS I NEED TO KNOW... SO MANY THINGS I NEED TO FIGURE OUT. I WAS WALKING A ROAD I THOUGHT HAD TO BE THE LONELIEST ROAD KNOWN TO MAN... OR WOMAN. I LOOKED AROUND AND COULDN'T FIND ANYONE... BUT WHAT I FAILED TO REALIZE... WAS TO ACTUALLY SEE THE ONES CLOSEST TO YOU, YOU DON'T LOOK WITH YOUR EYES, BUT YOUR HEART. I LOOKED DEEP INTO MY HEART AND SEEN SO MANY PEOPLE I'M CLOSE TO. I HAVE LEARNED THAT I'M NOT LONELY, JUST BLIND... I FAILED TO SEE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU, BUT YOU NEVER LEFT MY SIDE. MY TRUE FRIENDS HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME, THROUGH SO MANY THINGS... JUST TONIGHT, MY BEST FRIEND SHARED SOMETHING WITH ME, THAT HAS EXPANDED MY THOUGHTS TO SO MANY LEVELS. HE SHOWED ME THAT HE REALLY CARES, NO MATTER WHAT...I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE WHAT HE SHARED WITH ME. BECAUSE I STARTED CRYING READING IT, BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING THAT I NEEDED TO BE TOLD AND MY BEST FRIEND TOLD

My Revolution
my revolution never ending contributions a puppet of the institution drug induced prostitution i cant believe the things i see and hear today sometimes i take something to make it go away i remember when things were so easy now it seems to only sicken me black skies and little lies can kill easily poison thoughts in my mind wont break me cant you see ive left it all behind and once again im free revolution of the mind will surely save me too many people think they know about me im the one who invades your mind and makes you really see your heart melts with mine and they become one walk among the lost souls the damage has been done my revolution my prosecution my revolution my execution

My Respect Of The Brotherhood Firefighters
CHARLESTON, S.C. - To many of his fellow firefighters, Capt. Billy Hutchinson was more than just a veteran fire captain with three decades of service under his belt ...he was also their barber. When he wasn't on duty or playing golf, Hutchinson, 48, worked a side job trimming hair at a barber shop in the Charleston area, Fire Chief Rusty Thomas said. He would even set up a chair at the fire station to give haircuts to co-workers dropping by during their shifts. Hutchinson was known for working at a slow, deliberate pace that earned him the nickname "Lightning." But Thomas said Hutchinson tackled his assignments head-on, from making sure his firefighters were trained to raising money for children's charities. Despite his soft-spoken demeanor, Capt. Mike Benke had a quiet confidence and leadership abilities that were never questioned by Charleston firefighters. With nearly three decades at the department, Benke, 49, would fill in for battalion chiefs when they took vacation.

My Red Raincoat @ Parris Island
Get More at COMMENTYOU.com i was at Parris Island. my son didn't know i was there for his bootcamp ceremony. i told him i couldn't make it. then at the last minute i found a way to get there. once there signing the guest book, i asked the young marine female could she let my son know i was there. she said, 'no mam, we don't do that here'. then i PANICKED!!!!! now what??? so i ran to the bleacher area where they were practicing their drill. i waited for my sons platoon to come out, there he was so handsome and standing like a statue in formation. but he was too far away to see me. i didn't give up. hmmm, what to do. the letter said wear red. i had my big red raincoat shaped like a poncho. so while everyone was up front by the ropes taking pictures i jumped on the highest bleacher and spread my red wings and started walking back and forth. i wouldn't stop, i kept walking from one end of the bleacher to the other end. i kept thinking i hope he knows i'm here. the next day after the

My Retarded Brother! Lol
Well my brother has done the unthinkable and signed me and him up for a singing contest. I mean he can sing his heart out...almost got signed by Motown a few yrs back, but I'm a little shy about my singing ability. But I don't wanna disappoint him being that he already paid and all, so please wish me luck!

My Resignation
If you have life responsibilities, then you qualify to read this. It is a new take on an oldie! I thought you might enjoy this. RESIGNATION I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year old again. I want to go to McDonald’s and think that it’s a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think that M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer’s day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn’t bother you, because you didn’t know what you didn’t know and you didn’t care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make yo

My Resignation
My Resignation I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; when all you knew were colours, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair; that everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

My Return
After being gone for a month and numerous delays switching internet carriers I am finally back. Thank for all the love given me and concern while I was gone. You are all the greatest and very true friends.

My Results...
You scored as Mermaid, Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid.Mermaid100% Angel75% Faerie59% WereWolf42% Dragon42% Demon0% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

My Results...
You scored as Passion, You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change?Passion100% Diamond Eyes67% Mysterious33% Eyes full of Pain0% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

My Results...
You scored as Marius, You are the quiet cool. You are so mellow people are lulled into a false sense of security. When you are pissed god help anyone who crosses you?Blade100% Marius100% Lestat92% Dracula92% Armand67% Deacon Frost67% Spike50% Louis50% Angel25% Akasha17% Whose your Vampire personality? (images)created with QuizFarm.com

My Relationship Horoscope
SECTION I: How crystal Relates to Other People Sun Opposition Uranus with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees You are restless and independent and, no matter how close you become to someone, you always remain your own person and there is a part of yourself you cannot share. You are uncompromisingly true to your convictions which must be shared by those close to you. Mercury Opposition Mars with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees Since you tend to be rather irritable and sharp-tongued at times you require a partner with a sense of humor who is not too thin-skinned. You are bright, curious and restless and enjoy the company of those who are equally high-spirited and enterprising. Mercury Sesquiquadrate Neptune with an orb of less than 1 degree Your imagination is so powerful that, if you don't have a strong creative or spiritual outlet, you may at times be over-influenced by your own fantasies or those of others. Beware of gullibility. In the long run, telling

My Remorse
As I lay here the words they won't come. The sadness I've caused the things I have done. The hearts I've broken,for me beyond repair. The loves I've lost because my heart wasn't there. Lies that I told with a smile on my face. Have left me ashamed and full of disgrace. When I remember tears rolling over lips that once smiled. Seemingly leaving you devastated me not caring all the while. The cruelty and pain I caused only now can I see. My only hope is that someday somehow you can foregive me.

My Recent Mumm "shit, What Did I Get Myself Into?"
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who voted, left a comment and advice on my current situation. Your advice was very helpful and I am going to use it tonight to have the talk with her. Thanks again!!

My Reply To Her....
Ya know something...That's fine. I ain't mad at ya. You're just one more person in the world that I'm going to wake up every morning and BRUSH OFF MY SHOULDER. I've been NOTHING but a friend to you and would have NEVER tried to get your PRECIOUS little baby girl to be gay or anything of the sort. THIS is MY life. If I choose to be with a girl, then that shouldn't matter to my REAL friend because to them, as long as I'm happy, THEY'RE happy. I REFUSE to change who I am to try and re-gain a friend I lost for all the WRONG reasons to begin with. You say you don't want gay/bisexual in your life or AROUND you? HONEY, LOOK AROUND. IT'S EVERYWHERE. Let me ask you this...And I HONESTLY mean no harm by it; What are you going to say if Emily grows up and decides she'd rather be with a woman? Are you going to disown her? Kick her out? Go without talking to your own DAUGHTER because she chose a different lifestyle than you wanted for her? I honestly hate to think that you may one day be one of tho

(my) Request
(my) Request by Raindear816© (Sweet Lil Wicked One) seduce me lead me tie me to a chair torture me pry from me sweet confessions quakes of surrender take from me all i possess leave me begging for more

My Red Haired Goddess: Pt. 1
It was December, a few days before New Year's Eve. I had spent the entire week resisting masturbation for her. Though she lived in Ohio, and I in Texas, I was more than ready to have sex with her and only her. We had met in a chat room four months earlier and while I wasn't ready to truly commit completely (I.E. pop the question) I knew that this woman was someone I could spend the rest of my life with. She was the first person who could drive me to have multiple orgasms, and this was simply over the phone. And we had both gotten to the point that we could barely even get hot without each other. It was going to be a week of bliss for me, and I prayed that I didn't fuck it up. She was going to come down just to see me, and I knew that almost half of the week would be taken up, just acting out everything we had typed on the computer and said to each other over the phone. I woke up early that morning to run around the house and make sure everything was clean, if not immacula

My Reality
so many broken hearts so many tears i cried replaying moments in my head wonder why, i thought i tried to make things work giving it my all winding up with nothing a broken heart yet again i should be able to deal so many times it's happened before the story of my life like into love to heartache supposed to be alone, i feel

My Results
You scored as Anal Sex, Damn you lubricated vagina, damn you to hell! Butt seriously you like to try a "hole" ASSortment of things in bed. Anal Sex100% Oral Sex89% Orgy89% Phone Sex72% Cyber Sex72% Gay Sex50% Normal Sex17% What kind of SEX do you love? (pics)created with QuizFarm.com

My Real Life Best Friend Just Joined Fubar!
Will U go give my bestest friend ever some fubar love. Rate her, fan her, and add her and she will return the love. As most of U know I go out on the weekend. lol This is the chick that I roll with! She's cool as hell! She'd make a great new addition to ur friends list. Well, thanks yall for reading now go get Fubarred! j*LiZzLe@ fubar

My Recovery
well i started physical therapy and the doctors are very optimistic about my recovery the stroke did not do as much damagge as they first thought..just trying to get my motor skills back..try to re learn simple things how to hold a fork etc. and they think that i should make a 90%-to 100% recovery...wish me luck on the plus side even though my physical therapist is pure evil...she a hottie!!!

My Rescue
Buried at PhotoCasket.com My warm blood drained from my body, as he sunk his teeth into my flesh. I felt so alive, as if I could fly. A full moon shone brightly into his deep dark eyes. A drop of blood dripped from his lips, and he smiled at me gently as life surged through me. He rescued me from hell and lead me through the portal to heaven.

My Reason For Living...
It's 1 am and I can't sleep... So worried about my little boy. Just a little over 2 weeks left before he has surgery. I was dumb enough to read about the whole procedure. His heart will be stopped and he will be on a ventilator during surgery. If I lose him, I will lose myself as well. He is my reason for living and I love him more than I have ever loved anyone or anything in my life. Everyone tells me to think positively but that's so fucking hard when you know your baby's chest will be open. At this point, I would give my own life or even sell my soul just to know he will be ok.

My Real Dating Profile
My friend riffing wrote: So a bunch of friends have been writing personals for themselves that deliberately break the mold. The idea is to write an absolutely honest ad that doesn't make you sound very attractive, but isn't obviously trying to be unappealing. I liked this idea, so I tried to do the same for myself. I am empathetic and warm and genuinely want to help and emotionally bond with people, but I can become drained from overdoing for others and not take good enough care of myself. My intense need to understand myself and others results in stronger, closer relationships, but is frequently intimidating or frightening to those not prepared to be as vulnerable, open, and honest as I am. In a romantic relationship, I am not demanding, jealous or possessive, and I will fully support your outside interests and friendships. I will, however, also have my own. I am very emotional, but also very analytical, so I will rarely react irrationally because I'm all too aware how irrat

My Results From The Doctor
Well, I went to the doctor yesterday. I found out that I have a tine tear in my muscle in my neck that needs to heal on it's own but I have not been letting it heel. I was told that I have to stay in bed for 2 days and do nothing. No computer, no work, no anything! I am breaking his rule at the moment but just wanted to tell everyone why I won't be on for a couple of days. I am on a strong anti-inflammatory and muscle relaxers that I have to take 3 times a day so I am going to be out of it. If my neck isn't better within 2 weeks, then I will do physical therapy. Apparently it has to calm down first! lol So I hope all of you have a nice weekend. Kiss Ciao~

My Reason To Live
Just thought I'd let you know Why you are my reason to live The beauty that surrounds you And everything that you give You've shown me there's more to life Than video games and TV And to be myself instead of what others want me to be Just thought I'd let you know How every time I look at you No matter our situation or relation I still see the same beauty from when I met you And like the guy at the restaurant Who's waiting for that special girl I'll always be waiting for you My love......my world.

My Reality Check
Today I got some sobering news, news that just brought me to a haunting halt. One of my friends that I work with has been coping with breast cancer for the past two years. She is always so confident, so supportive of everyone. She has been my rock and my ear, especially over the past couple of weeks, helping me to deal with issues I have been going through lately. Today I found out...Janetta's cancer has spread to her brain...she has been given a month to live. Not what anyone expected to hear. It's not fair, she is such a wonderful and inspiring woman. Today I got a phone call from her mom. She said that the first coherent words out of Janetta's mouth today were concerning work. She was afraid that we were upset with her for not coming in and wanted to make sure that we knew she would be back to work next week...she is going to fight this as hard as she can. Can I please ask you all for your prayers conerning this wonderful and courgeous woman. Thank you

My Real Friends Will Read This
My cat has been sick all week and we couldn't get him to do much of anything. Late last night he said his goodbyes and early this morning he passed away. I've overwhelmed with emotions, this was /MY/ cat while his brother was everyones, I know Monster (when he was born his paws were bigger than he was so we named him Monster, I called him Moo Moo) was mine. I know you all mean well when you tell me your sorry about my cat but he was more then a cat... Moo Moo was an extension of me and when he died so did a peice of me. So if no one minds for the next few days don't take it personal if I don't speak, I'm just so sad. I love my Moo Moo and now he's gone and I can't stop crying.

My Realizations........
1) Time doesnt heal ALL wounds. 2) No matter how much good you do in life, sometimes it just doesnt matter. 3) Nice girls really do finish last.... 4) Just when you think life is going to bless you, another battle begins. 5) Rather then be hurt, I would much rather never open my heart again. 6) Morals an values are wonderful traits. But having them only brings loneliness and solitude. 7) True love is just a trick played on your heart. 8) Being a workaholic isnt a bad thing. Thats it for now. Just my feelings tonight and the things these last 2 weeks that have finally become very clear to me.....

My Revelations
Well now it is time for me to ramble. I have to do all of these interviews about my award. And it is amazing how some people in the media will try to take what a soldier does in a split second and microanalyze it. I just want peopl to know we do what we do in those brief seconds because we have no other choice and it is the right thing to do. Do I like shooting people? No. Was he going to kill me? Yes. It is that simple!

My Reputation Has Been Hurt
My reputation has been hurt this past weekend and I didn’t even know about it until today. By people who’s names have not been mentioned to me, yet I know them, and have spent A LOT of my time with in a lounge I considered my family. Things were assumed about my doings, or lack there of on Fubar that simply were not true or greatly blown out of proportion. The lounge I was apart of for maybe a year sadly closed, yet in some way split into two other lounges which I stayed with. I helped both out as much as possible. Yes I made a big mistake once and learned from it, made my peace, apologize to the people I hurt. But that’s not the point. I was helping out one more than the other because it needed my help. But my help was not scene by the individuals who assumed. And if they are reading this… I’m NOT bad mouthing…I am simply expressing my thoughts. No names of anyone or lounges are being mentioned for anonymity and to protect the ones I have come to love. Which is why I am s

My Recurring Urge.....
I keep having a recurring desire to get decked out in camouflage and lurk around on rooftops with a paintball gun, maybe a sniper-style. LOL So that's all fine and dandy that I have the urge to do this, but once I get to that point, then what??? LOL

My Reading Just Blew My Mind. Had To Share
I have been a client of Joanna Ammons for seven years. I came on here because I was doing a search online and some weirdo from Greece wrote a false letter on here about her. I decided to set up this blog to track the accuracy of the predictions she made for me. I know she has other people doing that, I just wanted to do something for her because she has done so much for me. I will tell my story in another blog. But for now. My gynecologist told me last year that I would not be able to have any more children because I was a was starting menopause. In February 2007, I checked in with Joanna and in my reading she told me that I would be getting pregnant this year. Well, my period completely stopped. I thought I was in full menopause. Upon going to the doctor today, I learned I was 7 weeks pregnant ! I have an ultrasound of my beautiful baby! I am so excited I just had to shout out ! I AM PREGNANT!!! I cannot wait for my husband to come home.

My Release
I'm a free spirit that has been shot down and wronged I pleaded for help a kind gentle mercy My heart felt like it rose up to my throat as you choked the life from me I cried with pain; can barely speak your name Throat swelling burning like a flame This fire this burning I'm yearning for help This is all I have ever felt My life as its slipping Veins running cold My blood as its churning its last My lungs choking for air breathing heavy And nobodies there to hold me tight Or watch this site as I fall to my knees In a last try to be set free abandoning all of me Because there is nothing left for me Why can't I ever just see? As the rain falls it sucks the life from me My one joy to hear and feel the rain and it consumes me And this ending pain; no more shame

My Results
Follow up to my other blog..had my iodine test for my thyroid everything came back great,I still have my nodules in my thyroid but none look cancerous...yeah...Anyway everyone on here has been so great just wanted to let everyone know that was interested that I am alright:)

My Response On The One.org Blog
I stand with those comments before me literally with tears in my eyes. To see the impact for jubilee that can be made because we join our voices, because we dare to join a growing list of people committed to eliminating poverty. There is much work to be done, and even with this major victory, it can seem a daunting task, but as the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King reminded a weary and divided nation in his message about the song “We Shall Overcome,” delivered at a meeting of the AFL-CIO in 1961. May we take heart in his words” “And as we struggle to make racial and economic justice a reality, let us maintain faith in the future. We will confront difficulties and frustrating moments in the struggle to make justice a reality, but we must believe somehow that these problems can be solved. There is a little song that we sing in the movement taking place in the South. It goes something like this. “We shall overcome. We shall overcome. Deep in my heart I do believe we shall overcome.” And

My Reality
I exist now dreaming in reality shades of deep reds and purples, evolving at the speed of light my closed eyes see all. bringing fingers to lips time stops as I taste you, ponder you wallowing in the memory of your scent and way how you call me your love the way you touch my heart to make me believe undeniably knowing we are one conquering happiness together. I am alive with possibilities endless wanting you to taste my soul it is unimaginable, the way you knew I could and did once you said the word. I have your heart and heaven opens up bearing angels singing because we chose to love (c)2007

My Reality Check While Visting Mumbai,india
Current mood: content well this is my experience from being in india for three weeks. i really missed home alot while being there and believe me it made me see that i've got it so much better here than people in india.it gave me a serious reality check on alot of things i was lacking.people in india who are extremely poor live in what they call temporary houses and they are made out of whatever material these people can find. they have dirty clothes i mean these people work thier fingers to the bone to get enough money to supply thier families with food that day or however long it will last for them.its really sad how bad poor people are treated there.it just breaks my heart that i cant just hug them and tell them im here to help.all i can do is pray to god to ask him to help these needy people who need the help badly. anyways i would love to advise anyone to go see how poor people live in other countries before complaining about how bad they have it here, to see we have it al

My Real Page Read Before You Ask
I have disabled my profile comments. If you would like to say hello or get to know me read a blog or two, send me a message or use the shoutbox. Keep in mind that I AM NOT YOUR BABY , CUTIE, HONEY ECT.. My name is LIL use it or don\'t bother...My private photos are just that, private. Dont ask to see them, Ill let you know when or if I want you to check them out.Also ,DO NOT ASK to be my friend if you dont intend on TALKING to me! That means if you make a request you had better say something more then \"hi\" or some corny ass pick up line, although if you make me laugh I probably will accept. Before you even ask YES I AM TAKEN! I love my boyfriend and DO NOT CHEAT OR CYBER! I have some really good pornos at home I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOUR WANKER THANK YOU. Although if you have a great ass I might want to see that lol. Yes I AM BISEXUAL. Yes we do have an open relationship but we only play together. Don\'t like that? SOO SAD,TOO BAD!! Goonie Googoo to you too...

My Red Heart Is Blue
My red heart is blue, because I'm missing you. Every day, I think about you, and I imagine how great every hour, every minute, and every second would be if you were here with me. Every night, when I lay in bed, I dream that you're beside me, holding me close to you. If you were, I'd whisper in your ear, how much you mean to me. Since you came into my life nothing has been the same. I've experienced joy to its fullest, and I've tasted a beauty that never ends, because you're where my happiness begins. I'm incomplete without you, and I'll never stop caring for you. You're the world to me, in brilliant colors. You're the best of friends, a favorite song that will never end. And together is where we should be. Someday soon, I pray, you'll open the door to your heart and say: I feel the same for you.

My Results To: "do You Ruin Relationships With Men?"
You Are A Relationship Doormat! Surprise, you ruin relationships. Bet you didn't see that one coming :-) While you're a nice, understanding, and caring girlfriend - you don't put your needs first. And deep down, it's probably because you worry about getting dumped. So speak up for yourself, weed out the losers sooner, and you'll find a guy that *deserves* you. Do You Ruin Relationships With Men?

My Results To: "who's Your Inner Rock Chick?"
You Are Sheryl Crow! Down to earth with tons of creative energy When you talk, everyone can relate to you "Life springs eternal On a gaudy neon street Not that I care at all" Who's Your Inner Rock Chick?

My Results To: "should You Break Up With Him?"
This wasn't a surprise! Not at all! It Was Time To Break Up Last Month! You're way overdue to get rid of this guy. It doesn't matter who's at fault... Just cut him loose! This relationship is no good for you, even if you did him wrong Cut your losses now, not a year from now :-)! Should You Break Up With Him?

My Results: "how Do Men See You?"
Men See You As Desirable Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily How Do Men See You?

My Results: "are You Ready For A New Boyfriend?"
You are Ready to Date Again If you're not out there already, you should be. Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship. Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage. Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him. Now, on to a better guy :-) It's time for you to start dating! Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites. Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights. Are You Ready for a New Boyfriend?

My Resurrection....
I came back. In the same suit that I was buried in. Similar to the one my grand father was married in Yes... I was still fresh to death. bling, two ear-rings, a chain laying on my chest. I still had it cuz they couldn't find it And the bullets from my enemies sat like two inches behind it. Smelled the Hennesy from when my niggas got reminded and poured out liquor in my memory, I didn't mind it, But... I couldn't sip it fast enough. So the liquor was just filling the casket up, floating down by my feet was the letter from my sister Beautiful hand-writing simply read "I miss ya" Suit jacket pocket held my baby son's picture. Right next to it one of my man's stuck a swisher. I had a notion as I laid there soaking Saw that the latch was broken, so I kicked my casket open............ Not at all nervous as I dug to the surface. Tarnished gold chain is what I loosened up the earth with I used my mouth as a shovel to try and hollow it and when I couldn't dirt spit...I s

My Recent Mumm
seems that the repost from someones mumm turned out that the person was found so i removed the mumm but not before a few people got rude with others about it witch is grammer school people now this subject hits verry close to home for me as i have lost a few freinds exactly the same way i was only trying to help find this person i have had the original poster remove it so it dont happen again just want to say im sorry did not realize she was found

My Results: What's Your Personality Type?
You Are An ISFJ The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. In love, you express your emotions through actions. Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well! At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

My Results: Are You Happy Being Single?
You Are Not Happy Being Single You're just one of those people who does better in a relationship. It's as simple as that. And most people who are honest with themselves feel the exact same way. Try to make the best of your single times. There's no rush to fall in love - even if being single sucks. Are You Happy Being Single?

My Results: What Flavor Of Mountain Dew Are You?
What flavour of Mountain Dew are you?created with QuizFarm.com You scored as OriginalHell yeah! Your prefered flavour is the original, old school Dew. Right on. Original 100%Code Red 40%Pitch Black 30%Livewire 20%

My Results: Which Holiday Character Are You?
Which Holiday Character Are You? Holiday movies are packed with classic characters, including one that is kinda-sorta-exactly like you. So… which one is it? You're Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer! Even if you feel like you don’t fit in, please don't run away to the Island of Misfit Toys just yet. Your friends and family may tease you, but they're about to realize that they really need you around. Without your glowing personality and innate sense of direction, the holidays might as well be cancelled. You're the beacon that guides the rest of us through the darkest, stormiest days of winter. We are totally shouting out with glee that you got this result. Glee, we tell you! 13% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.

My Results: What Holiday Treat Are You?
You are a Christmas cookie. You are Miss/Mr. Popular during the holidays. You always look festive, but it's not just a surface thing – your personality is sprinkled with sugar. It's like someone took a blob of you-dough, shaped it with a cookie cutter, and said "THERE. Now you are someone who loves everything about the holidays." Wondering exactly which cookie you are? You might be a reindeer, a snowman, an angel, or a tree, but we have a feeling you're a star. Like this quiz? Send it to a friend. 18% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation. You are a Christmas cookie. To display this badge on your own website or blog, cut and paste the following gibberish (a.k.a HTML) into it. Magic!

My Resolution
This year I'm gonna set my new years resolution and obtain it... I won't give my current stats but will post pictures along the way... my hope is to reach 270lbs by next year. this is a big task for me and I will be fighting with it... I want to lose it the healthy way but I don't want to make myself sick in the process... wish me luck and support this the end results will blow your mind...

My Reason To Smile
After I stopped believing that love could ever be real. Giving up on what I knew, I thought my heart wouldn't heal. To me love was just a game, a game that I could never win. Losing everything I had, everything that could've been. Then here you come into my life changing the thoughts in my mind. Bringing me to a new start leaving all my pain behind. You're the reason that I write, brand new poems of true love. You've given me the things I need, everything that I've dreamed of. You showed me how to love again, the things I lost; in you I found. You gave me a reason to smile, you said I had no need to frown. I will forever be grateful for everything you have to give. All the happiness I needed, and another reason to live. Every time I hear your name, a smile forms across my face. A new feeling...everlasting, that I know nothing can replace. I'm so thankful that I have you, you're there when I need you most. I don't want anything else, I just w

My Real Man
I NEED A REAL MAN TO HANDLE ME TO GIVE ME ALL I TRULY NEED AND I DON'T JUST MEAN SEXUALLY GIVE ME WHAT I DESIRE TO BE PLEASED A REALNESS THAT WILL BLOW MY MIND NOT SHALLOW CONVERSATION TO WASTE MY TIME NOT A FAKENESS FOR I'M NOT BLIND COME WITH SOMETHING NEW, NOT THAT OLD ASS LINE BE STERN, TO THE POINT, HELL, JUST BE REAL STIMULATE ME WITH SOMETHING REAL NOT WITH WHAT'S BETWEEN YOUR LEGS BUT ASTOUND ME WITH WHAT'S IN YOUR HEAD CAPTURE MY HEART WITH A THOUGHT OUT PLAN CAN I SEE THROUGH THE BS,? WELL YES I CAN I TOLD YOU MY DESIRE, YOU UNDERSTAND? BUT ONCE AGAIN,I'LL TELL YOU, I NEED A REAL MAN

My Request Its Simple!
LOVE A MAN WHO CAN APPRECIATE THE GOODNESS OF MY HEART. WHO WOULD APPRECIATE ME FOR ME AND NOT FOR WHAT HE CAN GET FROM ME. I'M STRONG AND BOLD, FUNNY AND WITTY, FEAR GOD AND RESPECTS LIFE, BUT I ALSO CRY AND LAUGH. I DON'T NEED A RICH MAN BECAUSE MY LOVE CANNOT BE BOUGHT. I DON'T NEED A MAN WHO IS FULL OF PROMISES WHEN THE WORD PROMISE HAS THE WORD MIS IN IT. I DON'T NEED A MAN JUST FOR PLEASURE FOR A GOOD PIECE OF TOY OR CHOCOLATE CAN SATISFY THE URGE. I DON'T NEED A MAN WHO ALWAYS RUN TO HIS MOTHER WHEN HE CAN'T STAND ON HIS OWN. I DON'T NEED A MAN WHO ONLY THINKS OF HIMSELF WONDERING IF I WOULD SERVE HIM HIS MEAL, HIM TELLING ME GIVE ME THIS AND GET ME THAT. A RELATIONSHIP THAT MY HEART DESIRES IS ONE WE BOTH SHARE TOGETHER DON'T GIVE ME 50% WHEN I WANT 100% BECAUSE I KNOW I WOULD BE GIVING YOU 110% OF ME. I DON'T WANT A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE I KNOW THAT DOESN'T EXIST WE ALL HAVE FLAWS SOME VISIBLE TO THE EYE AND SOME WELL HIDDEN. RELATIONSHIP ARE NOT PERFECT B

My Request?
My Request? My Friends here at fubar? This has nothing to do with fubar its personal. I have a business web sight and for that sight I have a tool bar..... now the people who let one to make a free tool bar for your sight are running a promo and i get points for the number of times the tool bar gets downloaded these points are then converted to actual "DOLLARS" I cant cash it down till it gets to $150.00 what I am asking is some of you could help by downloading the tool bar I don't care if you download then delete it takes about 10 seconds. Check it out if you want maybe it will interest some of you if not then by all means delete..here is the URL http://CT6867.ourtoolbar.com Thanks in advance...Denno...I hope I don't get into trouble for this action....have a great day... PS // I will buy myself a VIP with the dollars.

My Real Name
I went to Cajun Cherry's blogs and found this interesting so I thought I would do this. HowManyOfMe.comThere are 0 people with my name in the U.S.A.How many have your name? WITH THIS BEING SAID NO ONE SHARES MY REAL NAME DOES THIS MEAN I AM SPECIAL ?

My Reality
Until August of last year if you would've asked me I would've told you that people who meet on the internet and end up starting a relationship are all crazy. Then on August third I found a picture of this beautiful girl sitting on some rocks in front of a waterfall. I left her an ordinary comment about loving the sound of flowing water (not expecting any kind of response) and the next thing i knew we were talking for about ten or twelve hours a day! well the more we talked the more we began to realize how much alike we are. After about a month we decided to take the next step and meet in person. so here I was flying across the country to meet someone i had never been able to look in the eye. I dare say I've never been so nervous in my life, about half way there I started thinking I must be crazy, what was I doing! I can't begin to explain the feeling I had when that plane landed in Utah. But as soon as I crested that escalator and saw her standing there I was a little more at ease, and

My Regret
I was looking at one of those bulletin surveys, and I started thinking. We all say that we don’t regret anything. It’s like if we admit regret, we acknowledge a failure in our lives. Well, to be honest I do have a regret. I think that you can only really regret things that you had the ability to change. Here is my one regret. My Brigade Command Sergeant Major offered me a position as his driver. He wasn’t slotted a driver, but offered me the job. His plan was to get me a board date and get promoted. He was offering me a place at his table, and it would have been a great boon to my career. I respectfully turned him down. I thought that my place as a soldier was to do my job. At the time I had a team of my own and I enjoyed the responsibility of leadership. In my head sitting around doing nothing and riding the CSM’s coattails isn’t something a real soldier did. Had I taken his offer I would have stayed in and they would be pinning E-8 stripes on me right now. However I can’t

My Real Thought's
I've spent most of my life thinking everything was about me.Then one day it hit me that it wasn't about me but it's about everyone in the world..The blacks whites asins i mean everyone.We are all humen but not one of us can say we are perfact.We all have hate we are able to kill and hurt others weaither it be someone we where close to or a stranger....We need to put aside our diffrences and look at the people next to us...Do you see the color of there skin or there religion....No we see the hurt the anger the sadness the fear and there happyness thats what makes us humen....If we put the gun's knives and fist's down maybe you'll see what i see.....What i see is hurt anger fear of others we don't know ..Put a white man with a good job and dresses well with a black man who deals drugs and dresses poorly...thay are both the same trying to provide for there familys trying to put f ood on the table and a roof over there heads but then we say the black man is wrong for trying to provide for

My Reason
A poem is something, Not everyone can write, A poem can make, Long and restless nights, A poem can be, Anything you feel, A poem is also, Something you can steal, A poem is personal, From the start to the end, A poem is one time, No one can pretend. Because when you write one, It may be filled with doubt, A poems a good thing, Because its my way out.

My Redneck Christmas
'Twas the night before Christmas in my redneck house; Junior was wringing the neck of a mouse. My .357 sat right on my lap Just waiting for Santa, to take all his crap. The young'uns were restless and watching in shifts To see if he'd come and I'd shanghai some gifts, When out from the yard came a godawful noise O could it be him with a shitload of toys? I jumped from my chair and my crotch screamed in pain I caught my left nut on my wallet's big chain But then I unwrapped it and flew out the door Yelling, "Hold it right there, you old son of a whore!" "Hands in the air and kick over that sack, And then real slowly move 20 feet back." He did as I told him, fat, stupid old elf; I laughed so damn hard I near pissed on myself. I grabbed his big bag with a hearty guffaw Then I dragged it inside after spitting some chaw. I heard him take off - in a second he split, Leaving my yard heaped with fresh reindeer shit. Back in my chair I let out s

My Reality
I base my life on failure. I know that I am wrong for doing this but it hard to fathom it any other way. For a long time regardless of what I have said in the past. I did and do sometime before I die get remarried and maybe have more kids. Is that ever going to happen I really can't say for sure. Do I want it to happen. Really right now I really don't know. For the last 2 years I have been looking to fill that void that has been missing in my life. It is not just having my children in my life everyday the way they used to be. I was nothing but a hard working Dad providing for his (ex)wife and his children for so long. That when that disappeared I think I lost total focus on my life. I have never been able to get it back. I honestly believe that is the reason why I cannot be with anybody. It's kinda like the movie "Just Friends" it could be a friend zone thing. I don't know that just sounded foolish. lol It's not a friend zone things. I just need to regain my focus. But what I wan

My Response To The Stupid Bitch
Look bitch, Dan asked me to lay off you, and, quite honestly, I was going to leave it at that until I saw this fucking blog. Listen little girl, if you seriously think that you're pregnant, more power to you, but basic biology says that you're not, if you were having a period the weekend of the 29th, unless you were lying about that too. I know that it's always possible, but if you went to ANY clinic and told them when your last period was, chances are they wouldn't test you anyway, unless you lied about when your period was to them. As far as having something, then you had it BEFORE you met him because he and I fucked the day before the two of you decided to be in a relationship, and I am clean. It was our last little "fling" and I was asked not to tell you, but now all bets are off. So yeah, he fucked me the night before he committed himself to you, and I have nothing, so that's all on you. I never said that you had been on my page. I have some new visitors from South Bend,

My Recommendations For All...
When you find a friend, a lover, a partner, a mistake, a one nighter, a father or a mother to your child, a business associate you admire... anyone... you are trusting them to take a piece of you. I want to recommend from my heart and soul to consider that. unless these poeple are able to jump into your mind or have lived your exact life... you just have to learn to come to the understanding what they are meant to be in your life for. I am struggling with the fact that i am too trusting and that i have been genuine in all my endeavors. I get scared as much as anyone and I jump into relationships with heart . This has burned me, through and through. Now others are suffering for mistakes made. without going into detail .. just know... open your eyes to bigger things not only physical. sometimes when you "blind" yourself to the physical ... you see the real deal. ~ Holly

My Response To Dark Side From An Ex Amanda Who Claims To Be "gothic"
Ummm what kind of spelll did you put me on God is with you God loves his children and you will repent and end up going to Hell if you don't want to come God your not a child of Christ our lord Jesus Christ!!!!!!! Satan i rebuke you out of everyones life i will save thee in Gods hands your not along Because God is watching your every move HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's funny as Hell!!! Oh yeah, and she tells me that I'm "Going to Hell" like it's a bad thing. LOL.

My Return Home From The Hospital
YES...JMOS IS BACK ON FUBAR! I came home this past day (Wednesday). I had surgery last week as you all will know. I will go through how the week went in depth at a later time. But for right now, here's what will go down. Next week I return to the doctor to get the staples in my stomach out. After this I will then go in another week after that, and, unfortunately, this will be an OR visit, however it will be outpatient. That will be when the stent holding the new opening open will be removed. At that point I will be free and clear.

My Reality
my desire for him so powerful, so poignant it transports me to a strange new state of mind as if the desire for him is a crystal with magical properties enabling me to see myself like never before i see inside my mind the self assured, self contained person everyone sees yet i am now aware of my anigma never visible to me before i see that within the cool, analitical person i am lies another an insecure, lovely woman a secretly hungry creature driven by emotional needs and wants filled with a longing for more an abstract and spiritual, more then a physical peace a true satisfaction... (copyright protected ownership belongs solely to me)

My Redneck Buddies...
Three rednecks, Cooter, Pete, and Billy Bob were workin way up high on a cell phone tower. As they started to work their way down, Cooter slipped, fell off the tower and was killed instantly. As the ambulance took his body away, Pete said " Well i guess someone needs to go tell Cooter's wife he's dead". Billy Bob said " I'll do it Pete, i'm purdy good at that sensitive stuff." Then he left to go tell her. Later on, Billy Bob came back carrying a case of Budweiser. Pete asked " Where did ya get that beer Billy Bob?" " Cooter's wife gave it to me." Billy Bob replied ! Pete said " You mean to tell me, that you went and told that woman that her husband just got killed, and she gave you a case of beer?" Billy Bob said " Not exactly, What i said was, you must be Cooters widow?" Then she said " You must be mistaken, i'm not a widow." And i said " ill bet you a case of beer you are."

My Religion And What It Means To Me
BEGINNING NOTE: Wiccan. Yes, I am Wiccan. Witch. Yes, I am a Witch. No, this is not new. All I believe...all I have experienced...not new at all. Now, however...they have a name. That is new. The more I read...the more I pay attention, the clearer my path becomes. I have never felt so exhilirated and calm at the same time. My whole being has been validated...making me feel whole at last. I expect that many of my friends and family will not fully understand. I expect there to be many questions, as I have seen them already start to roll in. I have decided to share my journey here. However, not all will be disclosed as there is much that is personal when it comes to Wicca. I hope what I do disclose and share will be enough to help you understand. WICCAN OR WITCH? I would like to start off by mentioning a blog posted by my mentor, Amy Leanne. Her blog reads like this: "In response to a seemingly common misconception- It is my st

My Reunion
I have my 20yr HS reunion coming up this month. I am going to this one. It just amazes me that it's been 20 yrs! I can still remember HS with such clarity. So many times we go thru life and never fully realize or appreciate just how good things were when we were children. We all grow up, move along with life, start families, get jobs and go to college. But for many of us, our mind always wanders back to the days of HS, the friends we knew and loved, and the dreams we once had. As i was looking through my year book I came across a section that was a basic questionaire that every senior took. It asked things like: where do we want to go after HS? Where do we see ourselves living in the future? I had to laugh when reading some of the responses from my fellow seniors but the sad truth was that many were so much alike. More than 80% wanted out of Ohio. Can say I blame them. Ohio blows. Then I seen my answers to the questions. I wanted to win the lottery and retire to a beach

My Reality
As you look at her you see the women she become but if you looked into her eyes you see a whole another story. You see the scare little girl that still there. Robbed of her innocense and never quite good enough for his love. Her messed up veiw on sex make her a whore in everyone else's eyes. But she puts on a front not letting anyone get close. Yet if they do she only does everything in her power to push them away. Yet she seems so strong not ltting anyone know the hurt she has inside. Hopeing one day that the empty bottle, that she does one too many lines will be the end for her. Yet she goes on breathing one more day. It only numbs her pain and she worst then before. This is her reality, this is my reality. This is our life, so everyone around us only see this smiling face.

My Reunion Part 2
Here it is.. less than a week away and I am so nervous. It's been 20yrs since I’ve seem most of those people. Some i can only imagine where life has taken them. Others, quite frankly, I could care less. No matter what, I'm going to have fun and enjoy myself.

My Redneck Family
PLEASE COME SHOW US SOME LOVE AND JOIN OUR FAMILY:-) cricket aka 'S3XYCRICKET(SARGES'BADGIRLS)(FWC)(CONVOYDRIVER)(FU_ANGEL)(FANTASYFLYER)(BILLBOARDHOTTIE)(PIMPMYR' S3XYCRICKET(SARGES'BADGIRLS)(FWC)(CONVOYDRIVER)(FU_ANGEL)(FANTASYFLYER)(BILLBOARDHOTTIE)(PIMPMYR @ fubar '*Redneck Angel* "Club Far, *DSC*, "Bdgrlz",*Lollipop*, *Fu-Bom* !Redneck Family! Owned' *Redneck Angel* "Club Far, *DSC*, "Bdgrlz",*Lollipop*, *Fu-Bom* !Redneck Family! Owned @ fubar '~Dust Me Pink~ Owned By *Redneck Angel* ~Club F.A.R ~ SBG'S ~The Lollipop Gurl ~Redneck Family' ~Dust Me Pink~ Owned By *Redneck Angel* ~Club F.A.R ~ SBG'S ~The Lollipop Gurl ~Redneck Family @ fubar www.missfoundation.org aka 'BAD A$$ TX COWGIRL -SARGE'S BAD GIRLS -- MEMBER -REDNECK FAMILY CIRCLE' BAD A$$ TX COWGIRL -SARGE'S BAD GIRLS -- MEMBER -REDNECK FAMILY CIRCLE @ fubar 'Breakn71 THE TOUNGETASTIC WONDER member of the redneck family circle' Breakn71 THE TOUNGETASTIC WONDER member of the

My Reunion 'part 3
Life sure has a way of smacking people back into reality. The reunion sucked. Without going into any great details, let me just say that no matter how much time has passed, some people never change. They were and always will be total dillweeds! I can't say it was a total loss. I did get to spend some time with my family and some friends from long ago. I guess the saddest part of my journey was that my parents are getting divorced after more than 23yrs of marriage. I got that bomb dropped on me the day after the reunion. Such is life i guess. I kinda seen it comming for the last few yrs. My mother beingall wrapped up in her church and ministry. She left dad by the wayside. I guess I can't really blame him too much for wanting to end the marriage. I know he wasn't very happy for the last few yrs. Qite frankly, i'm suprised it took this long.

My Resume, I Posted It Eveywhere Else.... Why Not Here... Lol
DAMION W. FELDMAN xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx SANTA CLARITA, CALIFORNIA 91387 PHONE xxxxxxx// E-MAIL DAMION6@GMAIL.COM EMPLOYMENT DESIGNER/ MEDIA SUPERVISORJANUARY 2002 –JUNE 2008 THE FIRM/FIRM MUSIC/BEVERLY HILLS Head of department, responsible for creation and editing of digital video as well as published materials for promotion of clientele at elite Hollywood talent and music management firm. Working and developing image and brand concepts for separate prominent film, music, and talent arms within the company. Maintaining corporate client library as well as technical consultant for company’s print and new media projects for Internet campaigns. Audio and video technician responsible for purchasing and installation of equipment needed to maintain daily productivity in private and professional circumstances. Published ads for client awards as seen in Hollywood Reporter/Variety Magazines. PRODUCTION/DESIGNERNOVEMBER 2001 – ANNUAL AMERICAN FILM MARKET/BEVERLY HILLS A

My Results
You have a Sexual IQ of 153 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. 'What is your Sexual IQ?' at QuizUniverse.com

My Relationship Status
Just in case any of you are wondering, as far as I'm concerned I am still in a relationship. That will never change. I love her, I'll never replace her, and I'll never try to replace her. She broke up with me 25 days ago today. And I'll always love her.

My Return To Fubar
Well I am back. And on more FIRE then before. Go ahead and promote me to your friends. I need all the help I can get. I was at a level 21 or 22 before I left. I missed it here. :( I shall never let another man come between me and my fubar again. :P *SNORTS*

My Resolve Is Firm
My resolve is firm and nothing can deter me. I will get tested. If there is the slightest chance, then it should not be wasted. 5-24-03 (when my friend, up visiting, asked me over drinks if he could have my kidney, this is the first thing that went through my mind. I wrote it out and presented it as my answer. less than a year later I gave him my left kidney)

My Reply To Fubar Shop Re:nsfw Mumm
I dont appreciate the "shoot first, ask questions later" mentality of Fubar's representatives interpetation of the Fubar bible ... the fact that I, or anyone, can constantly mark anything, and literally everything "NSFW", and eventually be the cause of someone to be deleted and removed from Fubar, appalls me without end! The "family" of Fubar is acting more like a machine, rather than a real person, who DOES NOT face execution, Fubar style (deletion and removal from Fubar without explaination or common sense reasoning). We are people, with feelings, and to make, literally 60,ooo people follow a rule that only one or two may use is not good business...in other words, make 300 conform to one's view, rather than one conform to 300...it is exactly what our gov't is trying to do regarding the Pledge of Allegiance and illegal aliens. subject: Your mum has been removed! received: 07/20/2008 06:53 pm replied: no block this member Flag as spam A mum you have posted has been removed

My Reason For Living
I wrote this when I thought all in my life was lost and there was no reason to live. I looked at my daughter and then began to write and this is what came out. A daughters love I look at you and I see The kind of person I long to be. You love without reason No matter what the season I look at you and I see The kind of person I long to be. You don't know pain or shame, You don't know greed to how to blame. I look at you and I see The kind of person I long to be. You know no hate you have no fear, Your lifes not hidden in suffering and tears. I look at you and I see The kind of person I long to be. I see your love so true, I see the life inside of you.. I look at you and I see The kind of person I know I can be. I see the love of a beautiful daughter, I see a child who loves her father and mother. I look at you and I see The kind of person I long to be. My sacrifice I'll make for you, To show to you my love is true. I look at you and I s

My Resume
I work at a grocery store and its between two restaurants (a chinese restaurant and a mexican restaurant) Ok so our store has a cat in the back one day i told an associate in front of my store manager that i was gonna go to the chinese chef and ask how much it would cost for black cat and fried rice.. Next thing i know my store manager says, "If I find my kat missing 'Youre FIRED!!', so I asked the asscoiate after she left, "how do you put on your resume you were fired for eating your boses pussy??"

My Remix Kinda Of To Superman
I KNOW UR HURTING RIGHT NOW BUT ILL BE UR SUPERWOMAN I CAN LOVE YOU LIKE NO ONE CAN ILL BE YOUR SUPERWOMAN I PROMISE ILL BE THERE EVERYDAY. IMMA LOVE YOU TILL I DIE. IMMA LOVE YOU WHEN NO ONES LEFT. IMMA LOVE YOU TILL I DIE. ILL BE BY UR SIDE.

My Rewritten "serenity Prayer"
Self, Allow My Serenity To Blossom Forth, So I Can Accept The Things I Can't Change, Courage To Change The Things That I Can, But Don't Know It Yet, The Wisdom and Clarity To Know and Accept That I Am Human. Living One Day At A Time; Enjoying Life As It Comes, Recognizing Hardship As The Pathway To Peace (Inner and Outward). Trusting That I Will Make As Many Things Right If I Stand Strong and Unfaltering, And Being Supremely Happy With My Self, Knowing That We're All Human. -Nokkie aka Nokaveli-

My Response To "bullied"
KNOWLEDGE IS A WEAPON, KINDNESS CAN TURN AWAY RAGE, A LIGHT HEARTED RESPONSE, OR EVEN APATHETIC ONE WILL SUBDUE RAGE AND CONFUSE A BULLY BECAUSE YOU ARE DEVIATING FROM THE PATTERN THEY HAVE GROWN COMFORTABLE WITH. KNOWLEDGE-WHY IS A BULLY A BULLY? OUT OF THEIR OWN INSECURITIES, INADEQUACIES, AND FEAR. A BULLY IS A JEALOUS PERSON. THE PAYOFF MUST EXIST, OR THE BULLY WILL NOT BE FULFILLED AND MOVE ON TO OTHER EASIER TARGETS. YOU ENCOUNTER A VERBAL ATTACK ONLINE. CLEARLY THE BULLY LIVES WITH PAIN AND GETS RELIEF IN UPSETTING YOU. WHAT IF YOU CHANGED TACTICS? RESPOND LIKE A MATURE AND KIND ADULT. "I WISH I COULD CHANGE HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME OR CHANGE THE LANGUAGE YOU USE TO REFERENCE ME. I FORGIVE YOU. BUT, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, I NEED RESPECT. SO YOUR PERSISTENCE IN HARRASSING ME ONLY MAKES ME FEEL THAT YOU MUST REALLY HURT INSIDE-I WISH I COULD HELP YOU. THE WORDS YOU HAVE CHOSEN TO INTIMIDATE ME ARE WORDS THAT I WILL NO LONGER RESPOND TO. NOTHING YOU COULD SAY WILL EVER

My Return!
Ok, so I'm now finally home from half a year of computer training. I'm an officially licensed and certified geek now. The ceremony where they give you taped up glasses and a pocket protector however had to go on without me however, as getting back was all I was concerned about. Now I AM back, and I can access the internet again. There's something ironic about an information technology and networking school that makes it so difficult to get on the internet. All of that aside, I'm home again and I mean to enjoy it. I'll likely be on and off of computers more lately, so feel free to drop me a line if you haven't in a while. I'm still alive, in fact, perhaps more so now then before! Ken

My Resume
The Personal Resume of Jimmy Komet a/k/a J. Kris Halley Artist For Hire: Acting: “As part of the audience, I looked around and noticed that you could have heard a pin drop during your performance--that was really something special…I haven‘t cast anyone on the spot in 15 years as a director” --Michael O’Steene, Director, The Scranton Players Acting is my primary focus. With Mike’s encouragement and enthusiasm, he influenced me enough to see the value in my ability as an actor. Although, it is untested, the instincts are there. It is inherent and a product of my environment. It is the ability to assume the identity of someone else and be convinced. Drawing: -Customized TATTOOS - Hand-drawn Portraits - Illustrations and storyboards - Photography Writing: Page 2; Jimmy Komet Screenplays: The Meek Ones -- A story that is based

My Religion
People have been bugging me to finally write this down so here goes. None of the religions out there are working for me, so I have decided to start my own. Feel free to convert, since you are getting in on the ground floor, you have to bring your own pillows. Basis of faith: This is simple, to join you have to already be familiar with some theology. Everyone has to bring their holy book and we start from there. Our faith is in the blind men and the elephant vein. (See previous blogs for full description)We are all praying to the same God, but our limited, human minds can only see one portion of the totality that is God. Hopefully, together we can get a better picture. This is not just a One God theory, but SAME God theory. Why is it on the news whenever they talk about the leader of Israel they use the word “prime minister’? That is an English word, I doubt they use the same word over there. It is because they are translating the word into something the viewer can understand. T

My Reality
Heh you know reality is a funny thing these days...why? because there is so much in this world now that takes away from reality. I mean between video games, movies, internet(aka messangers,fubar,myspace,online gaming ect ect) but you get the idea. But what about the reality of real pain..and hurt that people endure everyday? *sighs* sadly we endure this pain and sadness even in the virtual world...in fact sometimes the pain can be worse.So even tho this is a virtual world...is it reality? Who can judge just because you believe you cant fall in love over the internet...does that mean its not possible? Just like popularity, fubar has one of the biggest popularity contests i have ever seen since high school. Thats reality but does that make you a bad person? No depending on how you use that popularity and how you present yourself is what makes you a bad person.I've seen the most popular people always remember the little guys...then you have the ones who shit on the little guys...but that

My Reaper Poem
Follow The Reaper (Death be not proud, though somehave called thee mighty and dreadful, art not so) Loosing the war I'm feining to win though I never tried to to strive deep from within. Life could be beautiful for anybody it's for, but I'd swear this mothafuckin' shit is rotten to the core. The portal has been past and it's time to make a turn, to follow the reaper until the point of no return. When your blindly death-raying blade sweeps the griefs and fears away. I cross my heart and hope to die thy freedom will be mine. Sinking down in the ocean of severe emotions. Grab a bottle to drink up the pain-reliefing potion. But after all, that got boring too, so no matter what happens, I couldn't give a damn or too. The portal has been past 'til the point of no return. No more lines to cross, no bridges to burn. Now when your blindly death-raying blade swept my griefs and tears away. I'd never go back to cross that line. I cross my heart and hope to di

My Reason For Not Having A Colonoscopy
My reason for not having a colonoscopy. Do you need anyother reason???? I called my friend Andy Sable, a gastroenterologist, to make an appointment for a colonoscopy. A few days later, in his office, Andy showed me a color diagram of the colon, a lengthy organ that appears to go all over the place, at one point passing briefly through Minneapolis . Then Andy explained the colonoscopy procedure to me in a thorough, reassuring and patient manner. I nodded thoughtfully, but I didn't really hear anything he said, because my brain was shrieking, quote, 'HE'S GOING TO STICK A TUBE 17,000 FEET UP YOUR BEHIND!' I left Andy's office with some written instructions, and a prescription for a product called 'MoviPrep,' which comes in a box large enough to hold a microwave oven. I will discuss MoviPrep in detail later; for now suffice it to say that we must never allow it to fall into the hands of America 's enemies. I spent the next several days productively

My Results Of The Sex Survey
Do you like sex rough or sensual? Depends on my mood..but a little more on the rough side Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? Or both? Opposite..kinda straight here How often do you like to have sex? More then I currently am:( Is sex a top priority for you? Kinda Do you have sex face to face with your partner? No..I like doggy too! :) How often do you have wild crazy sex with a complete stranger? Not often enough...LOL How do you do you feel about one night stands? Honestly I prefer to have a regular partner How many one night stands have you had? more than 1 What's your favorite position? 69 Where's your favorite place to have sex? somewhere with enough room to get freaky Do you prefer to make love or fuck? again depends on mood Have you ever watched porn while having sex? of course How long do u usually fore-play b4 doing the deed? usually quite a while...I like giving oral...a lot Do you get off first or do t

My Reality
In life you experience pain and it is something no one can avoid. Pain is normally a thing that goes away so it only effect your life for a brief period yah it sucks but you know it will pass. For me is it a content thing, sleepless night after night so many tears pushing me to the point of just wanting to end it,these are the bad days and they are hard on me, not only the pain but the disappointment in myself of not being able to take care of myself let alone my home and my children and as if that isn't enough stress I have to be strong in front of my children so they don't have to see that it is too much on me, if I show I am weak in front of them then it effects their lives. I lie in my bed in the dark try to fight my way through the day in hope tomorrow will be better

My Real Husband And I
Its my first auto 11'S me and my real husband have them on hes only member in my family and only fan. Anyone can rate us.This is great this auto 11!My husband used to be level25 without them it took him 47 happy hours and a year to get there.It was hard and he was a trainee bouncer when there wasn't training lol.We had several lounges me and husband and he was dj of loads.Does anyone remember the candy lounge?Thanks all for reading.

My Resignation
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day. I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly e

My Reailty .....
ok so I am in love with him . I am honestly and truly in love .. I have broken down a lot of my personal walls that were in my way of having a happy healthy relationship .. and now here I am stuck in this twisted mess I like to call my life . I find myself smiling a lot more than I have in quite sometime .I told myself and quite a few people that this is exactly what I did not want . And now that I have it I do not know what I would do with out him . He says he loves me .. I believe him I really do …here come the part that I chose not to accept he is not sure where his life is headed . I chose to ignore this .. Chose to not hear this ..I know somewhere deep down that this is the actual reality of where I stand in his life .I know he may not be here at some point .. But such is life . I will live in my reality .. I will choose to ignore this possibility until such a time comes that he makes this decision . As long as he is happy that is all I can ask for . I mean yes I hope he does not

My Reputation
Someone here in Yuma is trying to ruin my reputation by telling people at the bar that I like to go to that I am a prostitute. This person doesn't know me...even so, I have never had sex for money or anything else besides pleasure. I think it's a fucked up thing to do to someone. Should I just quit going to this bar, or do something about it? Although I don't know what I can do about it since I don't know who exactly is saying these things.

4 My Real Ass Women
THIS IS TO MY REAL WOMEN,I LOVE EVERYTHANG BOUT YALL,FROM HEAD TA TOE. IM NO WHERE NEAR NO SUPER MAN,THIS AINT FOR NO HOOD RATS,OR HOES AND CROWS YALL ONLY GET HULK BASHED AND GANGSTA FUCKED,THIS FOR MY REAL WOMEN MY QUEENS. I LOVE CAREESING YALL,NO MATTER IF ITS MASSAGING YA FEET,OR RUBBING YA BACK,KISSING YA SEXY LIPS,OR PUSHING INSIDE OF YOU.BODYS IN UNISON,BECOMING ONE.HOLDING YA TIGHT,DAMN I LOVE WHEN I HEAR YALL MOAN,OR BITE THE PILLOW,GRIPPING THE BED,NAW THATS SOME LOVE MAKING.MAKING YA EVERY DEMAND COME TRUE.WHIP CREAM AND ICE ON DECK TA MAKE YA EVEN MO WET,GRIPPING YO SILHOUETTE.YEAH LADIES IM A FREAK.THUGS NEED LOVE TO.

My Revange
Let me light you on fire Watch you burn from the inside out I will let you die Just like you did to me You think this is the end This is only the beginning I won't give up without a fight Unlike you I am not here just for games I am here to make your life living hell I am the last soldier angel god sent To kill those who have killed another You I won't let go so easy Look what you did to me This is only half of what you will get back Scars all over your body Blood all over your clothes This is my revange This is my art work I will hang you up on a cross upside down Now I am nothing but evil because of you Thanks for the memories of pain Thanks for the scars of meaning Thanks for the blood of sorrow

My Reason
My Reason Author: His_Rhyme © Used With Author's Permission MY REASON A journey of a million miles My soul had walked alone Suffering insatiable hunger And looking for a home Lost and fearful i kept moving, Running from my pain, Never going anywhere- Then going there again Looking back upon the emptiness That my restless heart created i longed to still the yearning and render my hunger sated During this reflective pause His voice called out to me- "Come My love your home is here" "I will set you free" Joy and apprehension collided in my mind my ears listening to His words Resonant, commanding and kind In His embrace i trembled He wrapped round me like a vine All my struggles ceasing when He announced- "you are mine" The longing voices hushed in a silence so profound, my burning hunger stopped as i knelt humbled upon the ground Surrendering my bod

My Response To The Teaparty Thing That Got Deleted
poll asked if we supported left-wing extremist or the grass roots movement lame government crap non-mumm poll...yay left wing extremist were communists Lenin being the most famous but communism doesn't work cause people are lazy and humans being the greedy little shits they are have a lust for more then they need or deserve grassroots movement refers to getting local people involved like mini societies... now while self govenment is a good idea but people as a whole are uninformed and easily swayed so there is no such thing as a democracy and self governing parties don't work i support neither... i was a little disappointed that i didn't get to throw in my 2 cents but sho assured me this crap would be posted again by some idiot soon enough... so now i don't have to write it out again

My Reservation
If I were to say that I love someone, I would be telling the truth.If I were to say that I love her very much, I would be lying.Truth is, I dont love her very much. I love her more than I have ever loved anyone in my whole life. She in my eyes is the most careing, wonderful, beautiful, jaw droping gorgeous woman I know. Dont Believe me? Here, take a look! Though far away from eachother at this point, she still makes me the happiest ive been ever! Just the way she says things, what she says, and how she talks. I never thought I would ever hear a woman say those things. Since she told them to me, I believe her and also do honostly believe she is 100% sincere. There is no reason why she should not have my heart. Iv'e worn my heart on my sleeve for so long, and gave it to anyone who would take it. Sadly they've all broken it. I know she wouldn't do anything to hurt it or break it. I feel so lucky to have found her. Why I waited so long to see who she was and what she has to offer me, i'l

My Return
Howdy everyone, hope everyone is doing fine. I just returned from a long time away from social networks, friends, etc. I'm back in action and ready to chat so send me some luv and a message and I'll get back to ya A.S.A.H.P. Have a great day!

My Recent Bullshit
so a few days i got dumped after three years of being engaged now i had to fight to keep it as we are together on a break but what am i supposed to do when i realize that shes the only thing i know that is right in my life i dont know what to do except fight till my death to keep her and get her back completely to myself but idk

My Real Friends...
Those that are always there when all things are lost, The ones that lend you a hand because they love you as a brother, Those that dream our dreams whether they are big or small, The ones who are willing to forget, The ones we sometimes treat wrong and from time to time even forget, The ones we argue with, laugh with, and cry with, The ones we make commitments with to be broken later by us, Those are our real friends. They are the ones that fill our photo albums with a million memories, They are the first ones to call us on our birthday, They are the ones that reminds us that in every bad thing, something good will come out of it, Those are our real friends,

My Renevge
You ripped me away from my one true love severely you will pay for taking my love away i loved her with all my heart and with all her heart she loved me together we were happy happy as can be how dare you take me away form the one thing that i know i hope you burn in hell as well as your soul you will pay for taking her away i shall make your life hell you shall have no freedom or joy as if you're locked in a cell so now i have said what i wanted as i lay you down to rest she is mine once more and our love, our loves the best

My Resident Evil Picture Folder
YES I AM BRAGGING LOL!!! This is how I roll baby!!! 1, (Game discs) Resident Evil: Director's Cut (PSX), Resident Evil: Director's Cut (Greatest Hits Dual Shock Edition), Resident Evil Uncut (PC), Resident Evil 2 Demo (PSX), Resident Evil 2 (DC), Resident Evil 3: Nemesis Demo (PSX), Resident Evil 3: Nemesis (DC), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica (DC), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica X (Greatest Hits) (PS2), Resident Evil Survivor (PSX), Resident Evil: Dead Aim (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak File.. 2 (PS2), Resident Evil (GCN), Resident Evil ZERO (GCN), Resident Evil 4 (GCN), Resident Evil 4 Demo (GCN), Resident Evil 4 (PS2).Not pictured: Marvel Vs. Capcom 2 (PS2), Under The Skin (PS2), and Resident Evil Gaiden (GBC). 2, Resident Evil Uncut (PC), Resident Evil (GCN), Resident Evil ZERO (GCN), Resident Evil CODE: Veronica X (Greatest Hits) (PS2), Resident Evil: Dead Aim (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak (PS2), Resident Evil Outbreak File.. 2 (PS2), Marvel Vs. Capcom 2

My Religious Standing
im not religious at all. i dont beleive in god and i have no intension of ever doing so. in this subject i would like some sort of proof. yes proof. i mean think about it....theres some ultimate being who can do pretty much anything. there are also many religions with different gods...some have multiple gods. whos to say whos right? all religion does is cause some problems. heres what really annoys me. a lot of religions talk about peace and loving all man. but then if your not part of their little pact they just want to kill you. its pretty much "your either one of us or you can go to hell." they also preached these things in the past and yet again if you werent one of them...then they killed you. i also dont agree with them when they say to themselves "with out god i am nothing" "without jesus i am nothing" "god will always be with me" or "god is my strength." honestly you dont need him to be strong or confident. we are our own people. its not some omnipotent being that makes us who

"my Real Long Hair" - - Down With The Jealous Bitches!
New Vlog: "My Real Long Hair" - - down with the jealous bitches! Sort of self explanatory HERE. (Direct link.) Why are some people so negative and miserable? Why do they have to pick others apart? Or spread poison? (In real life, and a thousandfold on the internet.) Being miserable is so BORING and DULL and UNIMAGINATIVE. Anyone can slip into misery. It's easy. It's a crazy world, I know that. We have wars, a recession, and some very unsure times. Yes. So it takes some creativity and imagination to see things in a positive light. To spin situations and circumstances, so you can learn something and benefit in that way at least. And being happy feels SO MUCH BETTER, right? So why not? SHUT UP AND BE HAPPY!!! Who's with me? Down with the bitches!!!!!!!x Fluffy.P.S. This post is directed to those who are habitually poisonous for little or no reason. Not to people who are really going through some heavy stuff.

My Real Scars
Okay so, a few years back, on the morning of halloween about 12:30 am or so we was getting our costumes ready and suk. well we heard yelling from outside. Now I lived in some apartments on the second story in the very end. Anyways me and my roommate at the time went out to see what was going on. It turned out the mexican straight acrossed from me was beating on his wife. well I had friends living down stairs at the time and they was out too so they was calling the police. I yelled at the guy to stop hitting his wife and he got pissed at me and said something like "you want some too?" well at this point my room mate said "if you come up those steps there's gonna be trouble.". Of couse he did, we didn't know it at the time but the dude was methed out. So the fight was on, he got his ass whipped and we thought he left. I went down stairs to check on my friends, and lo and behold he was in the apartment next door getting a butcher knife. Well he came out and stabbed me in the side from beh

My Remix To The Song "jesus Loves Me"
(the challenge in my youth group was to write a rap to a well known song in the church and this is what I wrote...I did a little remix to the Jesus loves me song enjoy!) Jesus loves me this I know For the Bible tells me so Little ones to Him belong They are weak but he is strong Yes Jesus Loves me Yes Jesus loves me Yes Jesus loves me For the Bible tells me so After the fall of man God had a plan To save the whole world from its sin So everyone could speak to him He sent this angel named Gabriel to tell Mary That she should trust God and not be weary Because she was going to have a virgin birth So that Jesus could become like us on earth So God sent His only Son so that he may die On a cruel cross to be crucified Now while he was just thirty years old He got twelve disciples but only eleven were bold They watched him perform miracles in wonder and awe And the ones that hated him were under the law You see the Pharisees thought he was too popular to contai

My Responce To Comment On Women And Careless Driving
Well Now Isn't This The Pot Calling the Kettle Black! Do Tell... Just How is it You Are able to Observein such Incredible Detail the Activitesof "ALL THESE WOMEN DRIVER'S" and Do Your "Job" Driving for a Living, Without Putting other's Safety at Risk?must be "Eyes" in the Back of Your Head! I Notice you'd neglected to make ANY REFRENCE to those of Your Gender, Who Slow Down..Honk..Wave..and Darn Near Run "Women" off the Road just to get a "Closer Look" at One"HOT BABE" or Their Attention!There are Carless Driver's of Both Gender's on every Street,Highway,and side road in every state in this Country,to incinuate " Women are the Issue" is Ludacris at best! Truth is We all Have Broken Road Rules one time at least,admit it.."WE ALL" Need to slow it down..leave a little early if need be,and perhap's exersize a little more Patience and Compassion for one another out there!Have a "SAFE" Weekend out There Folks. " Woman Driver" in

My Response To Tettibear
UPDATE: I probably should have given some context to this. A few nights ago I commented in a blog posted by Tettibear (http://www.fubar.com/user/1374888) about Obama's health care plan. She seemed fairly reasonable so I shouted to her and we chatted for a bit. When I expressed my disgust about people calling Obama a communist fascist socialist nazi, she retorted that Obama is a socialist. I challenged her to find evidence of this, not conjecture. She responded with an article from Accuracy in Media (here: http://www.aim.org/aim-column/obamas-international-socialist-connections/). A poorly written op-ed piece by a conservative think tank penned back in February of 2008. Again, I challenged her to find evidence, not conjecture or talk of loose associations as the AIM article does. Her response is below (you can also find the article she pasted here: http://www.wnd.com/index.php?pageId=78330) My responses are in bold. ŦĕĮĮıßéâŗ: Students and young

My Reality
Where's my reality, I have no actuality. My minds playing tricks on me, telling me things that can not be. Some one pull me out of my mind, I wish there was a way to rewind time. You can't be dead, I need you here. In my dreams you're still here, but in reality you're already gone.

My Reality
The reality is there is nobody left alive that can handle my truth. James always sensed I was hiding something, now he knows. My Devil danced with his Demon and now the fiddlers tune is far from over. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like for everything inside me that is denied and unknown to be revealed, but I'll never know. I live in hiding, my survival depends on it.

My Regrets
I regret giving up learning languages because I was bored. I regret losing much my mother tongue. I regret dropping out of my first college because I was 'bored'. I regret knowing some of the people that I know. I regret not being close with either of my parents or my brother. I regret always being stuck in the 'little sister'/friend section when it comes to relationship with males. I regret always feeling like a 'little sister'/friend to most males. I regret pushing away those males who are interested in me. I regret forcing those same males to treat me as a 'little sister'/friend. I regret not being able to approach the ones that I do like. I regret allowing other people to dictate who is suitable for me to like and who isn't. I regret forgetting to charge my toothbrush before I use it. I regret so many things in the past that is so hard/impossible to change for the future.

My Return
OK WOW SOME PEOPLE REALLY NEED TO GET A LIFE, THIS IS A GAME FOLKS (FANTASY) NOT REAL, A SOCIAL NETWORK IN MY OPINION BETTER THEN ANY OTHER BUT SOME OF YOU JUST WOW! CRAZINESS! OK FIRST IF YOUR BOYFRIEND, GIRLFRIEND, FU-HUSBAND OR WIFE OR REAL LIFE GIRL/BOY FRIEND HAS ISSUES WITH YOU BEING OWNED BY SOMEONE OTHER THEN THEM BLOCK IT SO NO ONE WILL BUY YOU! IF YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER REAL OR FAKE HAVE ISSUES WITH ME MAKING YOU STUFF OR BUYING YOU BLING THEN BLOCK ME FROM COMING TO YOUR PAGE. REALIZE SOMETHING FOLKS I HAVE A LOT OF REAL LIFE FRIENDS ON HERE WHO TRULY KNOW ME SO WATCH WHAT YOU SAY TO MY FRIENDS BECAUSE THE TRUTH MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A JEALOUS ASSCLOWN!! OK ALSO EVERYTHING YOU DO FOR ME IS ALWAYS RETURNED TEN FOLD AND MY FRIENDS KNOW THAT, SO IF WE WERE FRIENDS ONCE AND WE ARE NOT NOW DON'T ASSUME CRAP JUST ASK ME WHY NOT! EXPECT THE TRUTH CAUSE I'M TOO DAMN OLD TO PLAY THE LIEING GAME!! ALSO IF YOU OWN ME REALIZE YOU WILL BE MY #1FAMILY, MY CRUSH & PICS OF YOU PLASTERED ON M

My Reality
my reality my desire for himso powerful, so poignantit transports me toa strange new state of mindas if the desire for himis a crystal with magical propertiesenabling me to seemyself like never beforei see inside my mindthe self assured, self containedperson everyone seesyet i am now aware of myenigma never visible to me beforei see that within the cool,analytical person i am lies anotheran insecure, lovely womana secretly hungry creaturedriven by emotional needs and wantsfilled with a longing for morean abstract and spiritual,more then a physical peacea true satisfaction...

My Reason
My life was so dark and bleak. I thought I could no longer go on. I was ready to end all the pain. But suddenly you came along. My world was no longer dark. It was suddenly filled with light. Your heart was radiant. It blinded my senses because it was so bright.

My Resume
Objectives:To acquire a creative development position within the entertainment industry that would utilize my vast (2 years) technical experience.To find a gig.My goal is to be a meteorologist. But since I have no training in meteorology, I suppose I should try stock brokerage.I demand a salary commiserate with my extensive experience.Reasons for Leaving the Last Job:Terminated after saying, "It would be a blessing to be fired."Responsibility makes me nervous.Being in trouble with the law, I moved quite frequently. In my last position, got nowhere as part of a 60-person herd. I did not give the company my full effort and received no chance of advancement in return.Note: Please don't misconstrue my 14 jobs as job-hopping. I have never quit a job.My last employer insisted that all employees get to work by 8:45 every morning. I couldn't work under those conditions.Was met with a string of broken promises and lies, as well as cockroaches.I was working for my mom until she decided to move.T

My Reply To A Blog That I Liked. So I Kept It!
Why do we allow experiences that we have had with others hinder the experiences we could have had with ones now? Why do we push those who truly care about us away, when they have done nothing but love us? Is there any way to make up for past wrong doings? Is there any possibility to truly forgive and forget? How can we possibly begin to show those we have hurt that we truly love them? How can we possibly begin to show those we have hurt that we are truly sorry for our actions? How is it possible to look back on the past and not even recognize who we once were? How is it possible that we let people have so much control over our lives that we loose all control ourselves? It is impossible to express the pain felt, it is impossible to express the love felt, it is impossible to prove that you would truly do anything for someone you have hurt in the past... All that is asked is to be given the second or third (or fourth, fifth, sixth) chance, as the case may be. Why would that next chan

My Re-write
Head poundin' in the bright sun I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I needed to be drunk, 'cause it's fun. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I left my baby but don't feels so bad Guess her face is done Ain't the best girl I ever had I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the Chasin drinks with a six-shot I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I dropped my shot and I think I'm done I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I miss my baby but don't feel too bad My taste buds are done Ain't the best girl that I ever had I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the booze won. I fought the booze, And the boo

My Regret
I am not real and I am sorry for misleading everyone. I will be deleting my account and will not be back. It really was an honor meeting all of you and I enjoyed it emensely. I hope one day you all can find it in your hearts to forgive me. I wish you all the best and hope you all find nothing but happiness and joy in your lives. Goodbye everyone.

My Recurring Dream About A Girl Going Out Of Her Way 2 Understand My Autism & 2 Help Me
This morning I had my recurring dream about a girl that looks just like a skinny Tiffani but being a teenager and really cute looking too! In the recurring dream the girl goes out of her way to understand me like why the things that are obvious to her are completely invisible to me until she points it out with her finger then I can see start seeing the piece of paper the way she's seeing it for example: the she gave me a piece of mostly white paper with 2 other colors on it and some words in black that were small and vertical on the white part of the paper. I could only see the whole part of the paper being a solid blue color with what looked like large hidden words in a slightly lighter blue color on the paper and I couldn't find the equation that she was asking me to find until she placed her finger directly on it then the paper changed white to me and I could see the words in black that were small and vertical on the white part of the paper and I explained to her why th

My Results....
The "Are You A Born Submissive" Test Written by subthoughts Your result for The Are You A Born Submissive Test ... You are 77% Submissive! Submissive and dominant personality traits are part of everyone's natural make-up. You may be very dominant in the workplace or in being the head of your family, and yet still be submissive when it comes to relationship or sexual matters. If you scored high you may want to look into BDSM as a healthy outlet for your need to serve and obey. If you scored very high it's likely you have already done so. If you scored very low you may want to take my test on dominance, and may have already explored BDSM as a healthy outlet for your need to control and direct others. You can find out more about this topic at my site.

My Return...
Even I would question my own return to this place. Why now? Why here? What actually brings me back? Using the reason of boredom feels too easy of an answer. Could have returned to other sites and other things. Honestly, was just another night where emotionally as always I was unstable and it led me back to Fubar. So what, who cares. Most of those I once enjoyed here is either no longer here or no longer speaks to me. That so called list got smaller and smaller over the years. Which, is what is expected. You dont get involved in these sites looking for anything but something to do, something to pass the time. Yet human interactions can cause connections that can be seconds long, or be the beginning of a life time of friendship. No different than any place you find yourself at over and over again: school, work, church, or same community organized activities with those in your neighborhood. Something must happen, shouldn't it? So here i am once again. Finding myself logg

My Recovery
For those's who have been keeping up with my Status the last few months or on Facebookk or talking to me.. I went back to the Dr. today. I like the news he had given me today. My right shoulder is doing alot better now. He says it will be at least 2 months before i can do some things with that shoulder. I can live that. The other thing is I am done with PT for good. They just need to give me a excrise program to do at home. I know my daughter Terri will be cheering me on and helping me with the excireses that I need to do. Terri is 14 years old and has been my greastest support of getting through all of this and besides from friends who has been there too. I still have some pain here and there I can live with that, I like this pain compare to the pain i had before the surgery. I will be watching what i do with that shoulder as long as I dont hurt it again. I dont want to go through that again. Thanks to the great friends who have been there for me. I couldnt had done this with out you.

My Recurring Nightmare
NIGHTMARE Take off my apron, throw it in the bin and walk to the exit of where i work, exit the doors and attempt to get my car keys from my purse while still managing to walk to my car. i unlock the car ,let my hair down, turn the car on, change the radio station, lower the windows and open the huge sun roof. i put my car into reverse i let out a sigh from a long day of work i slowly move my way to the intersection of my works parking lot. the light turns green i begin to turn BOOMB my car gets hit by a semi truck. the truck slams my car and pushes it about ten feet forward. my body flies and twists around the car, i start to see black and fade away. i hear voices around me screaming my name i try to open my eyes but im in so much pain im scared to look i cant move. i keep hearing my name being yelled its not a simple yell its a crying yell "oh my god valinda are you alright open your eyes can you hear me?". i hear sirens from the police, firetruck, and ambulance. it takes the jaws o

My Reasons Of Not Wanting To Be Green
I wish to explain something if I may.When I signed on I think back in May I had other things come into my life that had to be attended too so I left for while. Since I have been back I have met some GREAT people and they have turned into friendships.Yes I can admit I got caught up in all the hype of this place.(Running the God Modes,Rockstars etc:)I had a blast but when it comes right down to it.I come on here for friends.I don't have to be GREEN to know people like me. I am far from the type of being a person who gives a fuck about what people think of me.I have heard it all from being bi-sexual down to being a bling whore etc:. What I have noticed in being GREEN (most liked) is hatred,jealousy and back stabbers and then they are begging for rockstars just so they can beat me.You guys can have it,I would rather be liked for who I am than to think I am only liked for points and have to pay for it. I admit any girl loves to be spoiled I know I do and I love God Modes and yes I have

My Re-write Of Black Sabbaths Changes For My Daughter
I feel unhappy, I feel so sad, I lost the best thing I ever had, She was my Angel I loved her so, But it's too late now , She had to go. I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes, We shared some memories, We shared each day, Always together, I thought we'd stay. But soon the world , Had it's evil way, My heart was blinded, Heaven took her away. I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes, It took so long to realize, And I can still hear, her last good-byes, Now all my days are filled with tears, If only I could go back and change these years. I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes. Britney Leann Mommy loves you so very much My Little Angel ~R.I.P~

My Return To Music
First Off this is a public blog and I will not tollarate any drama on this blog. This is for me and my freinds who do care about my progress in music. anything not related to music in this blog comments etc digs or drama will result in a ban and or blog to go private. also feed back and encouragement is also appreciated however. certain people only view my blogs to keep tabs of others on here you wish to read it thats fine however one worded comments like cool of congrats is not needed . real feed back not one worded sentances out of lazyness. Ok first a short bio when I began music I was about 9 when I began violin. and I was about 14- 15 yrs of age when I began piano. my mother and father lives focused on music and we were raised. with music classical jazz modern contemporary burth bacharach dion warwick herb albert. debussy beethovan. and even rock. my mom was an up and comming singer when she was younger sang in carnagy hall newyork. untill her voice failed a

My Reason
This is my third starting sentence... I am going somewhere, just ain't sure where yet. Maybe I am busy on someones mind or maybe not. Having difficulty concentrating... watching Benjamin Button. Good movie!! But anyhow I know the sooner I write the closer I will be to being satisfied that I have written what I want to get out of my head. May sound really weird but that is how it is sometimes, with me at least. I wish sometimes that I was someone else all together. Someone that wasn't injured. Although I have accepted I was injured for a reason. Simply because everything has a reason. If I had waited until I was married to have kids I may be really lonely right now. But then again maybe someone would have stayed in my life. But then again I may not of met the love of my life... my dream lover. Once again==== everything happens for a reason. Its strange how things turn out. Time is around hoping to be used wisely and I am trying. Some take the time to see that and some just ignore th

My Relationships
It begins when the object of your affection betows upon you a heady hallucinogenic dose of something youve never even daredto admit you wanted an emotional speedball of thunderous love and excitment.Soon u start craving that attention with the hungry obsession of any junkie.When its withheld you turn sick crazy not to mention resentful of the dealer who encouragedthis addiction in the frist place but now refuses to pony up the good stuff.Godamn him and he used to give it to u for free.Next stage finds you skinny shaking in a corner certain only that you sell your soul just to have that one thing one more time.meanwhile the object of you adoration is now repulsed by you,he looks at you like someone hes never met before. The irony is you can hardly blame him I mean check yourself out your a mess. unrecognizable even to your own eyesYou have now reached infatuation final destination The complete and merciless devaluation of self.

My Regret
This time of year breaks my heart this is my second year without my mom & dad and the first year without my kids for Christmas ... So many of you take what & who you have for granted and it kills me . I wish my mom was here to get in my buisness and tell me what to do , I wish my dad was here to talk shit when I dont want to hear it . I wish my kids were here to make big messes and get on my nerves because at the end of the day I knew someone loved me unconditionally . Now every Christmas tree and happy family just reminds me of what I used to have and can never have back. Don't ever take those little things for granted or the people that you love < because one day you'll wake up and it will all be gone and you'll be sitting here like me just watching all the other happy families enjoying their chaotic messy but beautiful lives at Christmas & wishing you hadn't taken those moments for granted .

My Reasons To Be Happy
For elders, know how to respect; For parents, know how to honor.For friends Gandanxiangzhao; siblings, and expensive.Like to learn, never wanted fame married.Like money, never be unnatural.Engage in management, worthy of leadership, the next worthy employees never Qishangmanxia, Ayu flattery.Employees, leadership, and not in a sample, the advantages and disadvantages of a kind, always remind ourselves conscientious best.Success never proud; fails, never discouraged.Good times, never pampered; adversity, never give up on themselves.Happy, do not get carried away; pain, never complaining.

My Religion
There are people who know I go to church, and they are under the assumption that I am a Christian. However, they are only partly correct. I am a Christian, but I am a different kind of Christian than standard denominations like Catholic, Protestant, Lutheran, Baptist, Methodist, Pentacostal, Apostolic, Evangelic to name just a handful of the different denominations, and I am not even a non-denominational Christian either. I fall under a rare category that most people don't know about unless I tell them, they are in this category, or they know someone who is in this category. I am a Druid Christian. What does that mean? Most people that claim to be a Christian are just claiming it, but don't show it. Most of the world sees these "Christians" being worse than they are so they say I will not follow Christianity because there are too many hypocrites in it. Sadly, this is how about 95% of the world views these Christians, and for the True Christians like myself it makes us look bad.

My Reconnected Soulwealth (modus Vivendi) Pathway Of Life
My Tribe's Belief: Prophet & legendary books are not literature, but genetic code deciperment handbooks boiling together in motion My Planet' Citizen Status: Ritualless, religioseless, superstitionless homeostasis hermit. Questing for living heavenly alive together worldwide by co-innovating mini-panacean-society connection. - Social Darwinism hybridization backup mentoing is my hobby, work, living, travel (visiting model 1 & 2 partnering co-innovators), recreation, learning & unlearning by relearning by and it itself. **Consensus Prophesying Inspiration** Acknowledge social networking academia & Go Beyond "The knowledge of the noble (gas) self (metapsychological BIOS) exists beyoud resoning knowledge (formal logic) of scholars and philosophers. Touch it (by EQ NLP), you'll see it. What is visible is illusive what is invisible is true. Liking (IQ NLP Social norm conformity) is the mere cause of all suffers". ~ Buddha. "Intelligence and wisdom are not the same thing". ~ Me

My Response To The Criticism Mj Recieves About His Rep.
This is an older blog. But I decided to re-post it a few days ago in honor of MJ's birthday. Feel free to comment. But, please, no offensive or vulgar comments. I wrote this and posted it on several sites because I was so sick of all the cruel things people were saying about MJ. Michael Jackson was not only a singing,dancing,musical genius who revolutionized the music industry with his breakthrough performances,dance moves and state of the art music videos(Which were really--as he put it- "Short films" and without which,music video channels such as, VH1 ,MTV, or BET wouldn't be what they are today). He was a great human being in every sense of the word. As far as entertainment- he broke through racial barriers within the music industry by culminating several different styles and genres of music into his own unique style. Beyond his music, he is also one of the biggest philanthropists that has ever exsisted. He gave millions of dollars to sick and hungry children all across the world t

My Redemption
Do not tell me anything, that you do not mean. You ask me what my name is, and it's just as it seems. Everyone is longing, to redeem themselves somehow. That is why I am here right now. Every time I take a breath, it is for someone else. I come here, for myself. I come here to feel loved, to be accepted, to find peace. To vent, laugh and release. My redemption, dwells within this place. Suddenly, I'm not just another girl; one more face. In those eyes I am more, than the world can see. And I don't have to fake anything, I am just me. Choose your words wisely, before typing out loud. For, meaningless chaos, will not be allowed. You can view me as you choose, most do anyway. Although the person that I am, chooses not to play. With people's emotions, I'm outspoken and true. My redemption is here, it just isn't you.

My Rhymez
MY RHYMEz: FORGOTTEN SOULJAH I fight battles off Im kno fo tha heat/crazy niggaz like me don`t need a repeat/I keep my head high in da sky when I don`t exist/try to write a couple lines fo this hip hop shit/I walk around wit a shadow hangin off my back/people sayin I ain`t real cuz Im neva stayin pack/I stay lonely in this world wit God`s protection/when Im bein let down I start askin some questions/If I wasn`t even livin or killin these demons/Hated by many I think I need some mo` reasons/When you rap a tight freestyle do tha peers feel you?/I don`t kno Im guessin not me they ain`t gotta clue/Im a ghost waitin to get up in heaven/Rollin dice wakin to see a 7-eleven/I guess its time to go my sorrows are no mo/Im bout to leave tha mic and hit da doe/Its jus useless,Im not even a poser/Thank you God guess ya kno Im yo forgotten souljah/(peace) UNDERGROUND THOUHGTZ I live tha underground murder to pain equals my fame/ from da war to tha guns that was added to my name/ T-A-Z

My Right Arm
This is a 21-year-old caucasian male who states he\'s otherwise healthy who presents to the ED via squad after an injury at work. The patient was working at kenwood mall in a demolition site. He was carrying a mirror, apparently some drywall fell, cracked the mirror which smashed into his right arm. per the squad, the initial evaluation the blood was \"spurting\" at the scene. They wrapped a pressure bandage on it and he arrived to the ED in stable condition. Upon arrival the patient was complaining of pain on the right forearm as well as numbness of the right fifth finger. Pressure banage was intact. The patient denies any other injury. The patient has multiple lacerations of the right arm. The most significant of which was in antecubital fossa. There was a significant amount of bleeding after the bandage was removed. We reapplied a pressure bandage. The patient was noted to have a 2.5 cm laceration in his right upper arm. He also had a 5 cm laceration above the antecubital fossa,

My Rising Sign
Your Rising Sign is Libra A total charmer, it's hard for people to say no to you. Irresistable and attractive, you have no shortage of love interests. Totally competitive, you tend to thrive in stressful enviroments. A peaceful soul, you avoid conflict at almost all costs. Sometimes you try too hard to please those around you. But you have a great inner strength that helps you bounce back easily. What's Your Rising Sign?

My Rising Sign
Your Rising Sign is Scorpio You're so intense and passionate - you're on fire! You want to be an angel or a devil... you can't decide which. No wonder you seem moody and even a little dangerious. You've got some major mystery going on, so work it! Your personality is the strongest of all signs, making you hard to deal with. While you're ruthless to your enemies, you're loyal to your one true love. What's Your Rising Sign?

My Rising Sign Is
Your Rising Sign is Aries You're full of energy - and people look to you to get the party started. Confident and honest, you'll be the one to say what everyone is thinking. You are easily bored, and you always find unique ways to do things. You don't just dream it, you do it. And that's why you're so successful. Too intense for some, often times people are intimidated by you. But you're usually smart enough to charm them anyway! What's Your Rising Sign?

* Myriad *
A CORNUCOPIA, MYRIAD OF PRECIOUS KARINA's INTERESTS 11:11 ENCODED DIGITAL MESSAGES 12 AROUND 1 GEOMETRY OF CREATION 12 DAYS OF MAGIC 12 FIBONACCI GODDESSES 12 PYRAMIDS OF THOTH 12 STRAND DNA 12 TABLETS - LUNAR JOURNEY THE LOST TABLETS 2000 - ELLIE'S TRIP TO EGYPT 2001 A SPACE ODYSSEY - THUS SPAKE ZARATHUSTRA 2012 - RETURN TO 12 STRAND DNA 3, 2, 1, COUNTDOWN: SEQUENTIAL DIGITAL TRIGGERS 553 & 555 - GRIDS 414 440 GEOMETRY 444 555: THE QUEST FOR THE 555 CHRONICLES 666 MARK OF THE BEAST 90 DEGREES OF SEPARATION 911 ABORIGINAL PEOPLE ACUPRESSURE ACUPUNCTURE ADD / ADHD AFFIRMATIONS - THINKING POSITIVELY AGARTHA - THE HOLLOW EARTH AGRICULTURE AKHNATON AKKADIA ALCHEMY INDEX ABOUT ALCHEMY ALCHEMISTS ALCHEMY & METAPHYSICS THE EMERALD TABLET THE EMERALD TABLETS OF THOTH MYSTERY SCHOOL TEACHINGS PHILOSOPHER'S STONE ALDEBARAN ALECTRYOMANCY - BIRDS ALEXANDER TECHNIQUE ALIEN (ET) ABDUCTION

My Rifle Club
THE ___UNITED _________STATES _______________MARINES ______________________CORPS ___________________________SEMPER FI ____________________________________OOHRAH We stole the anchor from the Navy, The rope from the Army, The eagle from the Air Force. And on the 8th day God rested. We stormed the gates of Heaven and stole the earth from God himself. WE HAVE BEEN RUNNING THE SHOW EVER SINCE. SEMPER FI OORAH OORAH

My River.....
I sit by this rock and watch the raging waters flow, Not knowing a beginning or an end, Never seeing the true way to go. I ride the tides and battle the rocks, I push my way through, against a force with no end, Such is my life as I run with the shore, Praying for a pathway to alter my course. The water pushes me to and fro, Sucking me under pleading for my breath, I hold on tight to that one ounce of hope, To keep my head up, just to stay alive. I reach the sandy, silky shore, Gasping for air only to collapse in the sun, My heart beats fast as my mind darkens towards sleep, Only to realize that my life is not mine to keep. My life belongs to another soul, And my river has brought me to you, In my darkest hour when I could breathe no more, You completed me and gave me life that was renewed. Never will I follow the neverending path, For I have found my rock that will pull me through, In my heart you will stay, never asking which course, You are my rock, t

My Ringtone On Her Phone....
Avril Lavigne "Girlfriend" [Chorus] Hey! Hey! You! You! I don't like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you like me No way! No way! No it's not a secret Hey! Hey! You! You! I want to be your girlfriend You're so fine I want you mine You're so delicious I think about ya all the time You're so addictive Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright? (alright alright alright alright) Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious Hell yeah I'm the mother (fucking) princess I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right (I'm right I'm right I'm right) She's like so whatever You could do so much better I think we should get together now And that's what everyone's talking about! [Chorus] Hey! Hey! You! You! I don't like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend H

My River
MY TEARS FORM MY SOUL MY TERS FLOW LIKE A RIVER RUNNING THREW MY SOUL SPILLING OUT MY EYES NOW YOU KNOW A SECRET BOUT ME MY TEARS ARE THE REASON WHY MY EYES ARE BLUE JUST THE CRYSTAL CLEAR SEA SO DEEP A MYSTER TO EVERYONE THAT TRYS TO FIGURE ME OUT SWIMMING IN EYES LIKE MINE IS DANGEROUS THE WATERS ARE DEEP THE WATERS ARE COLD JUST WAITING FOR A WARM SUMMER TO CUM ALONG TO WARM THEM FOR A WHILE THE TEARS THAT I SHED ARE NEVER MY OWN THEY ARE FOR SOME ONE ELSE A LOVER I HAVE NEVER LOVED A SOLDIER THAT HAS FALL'N PROTECTING WHAT HE BELIEVES IN SOME ARE FOR ONES THAT HAVE SAID GOOD BYE ALONG MY WALK THREW LIFE DROPPING FLOWERS FOR MY FINAL RESPECTS TEARS FALLING WIH THE FLOWERS I JUST WONDER WHEN THE RIVER IS GOING TO RUN DRY

My Right
for the one who stands and fights I wish for him to stand at my right he now knows the truth about me and he has no fears that I can see I would take his right with honer and pride outlaws in the world side by side now he knows whats in store and neither of us could wantit more long days and longer nights finding peace in twilight as the wolves howl in the dark of night a full moon rises to give us light

My Ridiculousness
I know I am just being ridiculous but I can not help myself. I have a boy and I love him but I can not help but feel I am over saturating him with my presence. I want to be able to just give him time away but it hurts me when I don't get to see him or hear from him. I feel like I have nobody all my friends are to far or to busy to hang out with me anymore, things are just so different than it use to be. I use to be without a guy just fine I don't know why he effects me so. I just wish I didn't have to ask him to hang out with me every time. Today has been a worse day than normal. I was so ready to hang out with him after work I brought over my computer and my cuddle blanket and he just took off after work and hasn't called me since I was really looking forward to seeing him today too... so much suckage ... I'm not okay. ~All I ever wanted was to be rescued from myself~

My Riot Grrrl Split Zine Reviewed In Maximum Rock N Roll!!
I guess me & xeroxheart's Riot Grrrl Zine was reviewed in Maximum Rock & Roll! ( i was always too scared to send them my zine like 10 years ago, fearing i wasn't "punk" enough or something silly like that) Her zine Ax Wound also got a great review & was in their Top Ten Zine!!! WAY TO GO HANNAH!!! :D needless to say i am very proud of us :) i wanted to show off so i stole this from hannah's Journal(cos i don't have a copy of the issue of MRR) [Riot Grrrl split review:] This split zine features memoir style essays from Hannah Neurotica and Jolie Noggle, two ardent, diehard riot-grrrl-ists. They write about how they discovered the riot grrrl movement and music, and blossomed into their own righteous riot grrrl selves with an almost religious fervor. Hannah puts it best--she was "reborn" as a riot grrrl following a series of events and personal awakenings. We get to read about their fanatic obsessions with Kathleen Hanna, and all the riot grrrl heroes. Jolie includes a copy

My Right My Choice My Vote
Ok Im starting to get the hang of this and i figure blogs are supposed to be about ranting and getting thoughts out of my head and kinda sorting out feelings here goes 1 I worked my azz off my entire life through teasing from others and torments to have a clean record I did day care with my mom for 12 yrs and by law I kept my background SPOTLESS 2 I raised my son to vote and his vote is his alone and no matter what he has the right to vote for whomever he wants Well we voted my son and my hubby and me and without saying names our choice won last night. Instead of feeling free to be happy about it I for the last 6 months been daily tormented by my family like (parents and brother) like they were trying to tell me WHO to vote for I thought who I voted for is my choice my right! I know this seems pretty hilarious but this might cause me to be ostracized and separated from my family right now i feel pretty disillusioned by the way my family is its not gonna take much to make me cry to

My Ride To Harley Davidson
I had my first motorcycle at 13. It was a Honda 75 Enduro, and was hooked on riding since then. Tearing up the desert in northern Nevada was heaven. I have had a few bikes since then and know that riding is in my blood. I had happened on a few old outdated magazines called "In the Wind", and "Easyriders", and while I knew they existed, had never owned a Harley. I read the articles, and the stories about how it was to be free in the wind, the joy of the open road and no real destination in mind, but in those same stories were countless accounts of these machines breaking down and I thought "why the hell would anyone pay for something that costs more to fix than own, and spend more time in the shop than on the road ??? Fucking insanity !!! Right? I decided that a Harley was not for me. Then one day, I was in my local harley shop (they do have really nice gear), and as usual, a salesman would come up and start a convo about which bike I rode, and once they learned that I did not have a Ha

My R/l Family Members
to all my friends on fubar. past, present and future. can u please stop by my families profiles and show them some mad fubar luv. they are really great ppl. My mother ~spoiled brat~@ fubar My Step-Dad: reload@ fubar My sister: erikab0824@ fubar plz click the links and start spreading the fubar love. tyvm

My Rl Friends...
are almost as goofy as you fu-friends. My hubby went off to a surprise party last night for one of our friends' birthdays. He came home with a giant card decorated with lots of boob stuff. I thought it would be fun to share some of the comments they wrote. "We love u sorry about the tits" Shane (the birthday boy) "your boobies are soooo going to look better than my "26" year old boobs biatch!" sara "now you are going to have to steal my shirts! Again, again, and again! I ♥ you" sara "I have a whole 5th of buttershots and noone will help me drink it! I need help!!" DC OK, so most of the rest of them are "normal" comments. Including well wishes from the staff at Buffalo Wild Wings who gave them the supplies to make the card with.

My Rm(im Going Insane)
I like my RM dont get me wrong, but gotdamn she is on my ever lovin nerves. I need to stay by my self after this. She is nasty in some ways but in some ways she is really anoying. I guess its because she is younger than me.But i am biteing my lip and staying quiet for now. I need to talk to her. Where do I start, first it would be about her cleaness, second the food situation,third the lights and stuff,fourth the fact that its time for her to go before i kill her in her sleep. ok im just jokeing i wouldnt do that. but i feel that way some times. Oh lord give me peace and advice before i say something to her and really hurt her feelings. Im going insane

Myrmidon
myrmidon\MUR-muh-don; -duhn\ , noun;1.(Capitalized) A member of a warlike Thessalian people who followed Achilles on the expedition against Troy.2.A loyal follower, especially one who executes orders without question.

My Road Trip
well, this is gonna be the biggest road trip ever that im taking come october 13th. im heading to gatlinburg,tenn again. but i flew last year, so this year im driving all the way from california with stops in tuscon,AR 2 stops in texas, 1 in houston a night, meet up with friends b4 heading to lake charles,LA. will stay there a few days with friends b4 heading to columbus GA then off the NC with friends a few days b4 heading to the cabin i rented with friends. we had such a blast last year at a cabin in the smokys, we decided to do it again, but for a week instead of 3 days. after that trip, maybe heading up to nyc,philly,ohio and a few other places meeting up with friends on lc as well as myspace and my old friends on AOL. should last about 7 weeks, so if anyone has tips on what to see and what to do, send me a email and let me know, thanks.

My Rose
My Rose It's of the divine the thought of her lips meeting mine it tears me up inside harboring these feelings I constantly hide It's not a matter of pride I question if she can reciprocate the emotions I'd provide I ponder what would happen should love set sail the next casualty would be our friendship which would fail that's not an option worth taking I'd rather remain the friend rather than suffer through a relationships failure upon ground shaking due to the vibrations brought about from our hearts breaking I'd rather remain the friend with whom she shares time, secrets, & meals I rather remain a friend than battle with the onslaught disclosure reveals I'd rather be the friend who on occasion gets to hear her voice rather than falling out of contact to to a selfish choice in secret and minus loves scar I rather she remained my shining star I would be able to bear her no longer having feelings for me to share tell her I love her? I don't dar

My Road Trip
I made it home last night around 6pm or so, and then I passed out. I was dead tired. It took us 3 days to get here. We ran thru snow in Utah and got pulled over in Wyoming for speedin', lol. Wednesday Night: I picked 'em up at the airport around 5:45pm, but they was tired from jet lag so we got a hotel there in the edge of Portland. Miles passed out early and Ryan went to the bar and got fucked up. And I jus stayed there at the hotel talkin' to my trevor on the phone. Thursday: We left around 8:30am, I drove for the first 80 miles cuz Ryan had a hangover, lol. Then we stopped in the next town and got some breakfast. Then we took off. We went through 3 states in one day. Oregon, Idaho & Utah. We stayed in a hotel in Evanston, Wyoming. I guess they got into really bad snow in UTah, they was runnin' about 50 or 55 or so. I was asleep the whole entire time we was in Utah. That helps make the time go by faster. Friday: I got them up around 7:45am and we left the hotel at 8:30. No

My Roommate
My Roommate by Dingy_Jo © It was late, almost midnight and I was cybering away with some guy who was telling me what he could [or would like to] do to me. It was almost working, I was wet as hell, fingering away but I just couldn't get to the point that makes you gasp, your toes curl and your eyes roll back into your head. There was a big wet stain on the towel I had spread over my chair and I was completely nude except for my famous long T-shirt which was pulled up around my middle. I heard a noise in the living room, told my online lover that I would be right back and went to see what was happening. It was Lisa my roommate. She was obviously a little tipsy and had a tall handsome stranger in tow that was in worse condition. At 33 Lisa was 10 years my junior and in appearance quite a bit different. I was tall and slim with very light brown, almost blond hair and blue eyes while she was short, a little heavy with black hair and eyes. My 36c breasts couldn't hold a candle to her

My Role Playing Collection, Updated
Ok we all know I'm a role playing geek so I just thought I would make a list of all the books in my collection Berlin by Night Blood Magic: Secrets of Thaumaturgy Children of the Night Clanbook Assamite (1st edition) Clanbook Assamite (revised) Clanbook Brujah (1st edition) Clanbook Brujah (revised) Clanbook Gangrel (1st edition) Clanbook Gangrel (revised) Clanbook Malkavian (1st edition) Clanbook Malkavian (revised) Clanbook Setite (1st edition) Clanbook Followers of Set (revised) Clanbook Toreador (1st edition) Clanbook Tzimisce (revised) Clanbook Ventrue (1st edition) Council of Primogen DC by Night Dirty Secrets of the Black Hand Gehenna Ghouls: Fatal Addiction Giovanni Chronicles II Blood and Fire Giovanni Chronicles III The Sun Has Set Giovanni Chronicles IV Nuova Malattia Guide to the Camarilla Guide to the Sabbat Guilded Cage Inquisition Los Angeles by Night Midnight Siege Mexico City by Night New York by Night Nights of Prophecy Players Gu

My Romance Look
Romance Romance is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You need romance in your life. You love the extra dimension that romance brings to a relationship and you tend to fall in love very quickly. Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

My Road
The road I have Traveled. Bridges I have crossed. I've gone the extra mile, I've come to many stops. I had a few road blocks, toward what I thought, could be the end. But had to be brought back a mile or two again. So when closure comes, I do know what it will mean. I'll finally have peace of mind, I'll be able to feel,think, and breathe I probably won't believe it. I'll think it is all a dream. And although the journey will have ended. I'll never forget What I've learned along the way, or how I learned to take it day by day.

My Roomate/looking For A New Roomate
ok my apartment is 2 bedroom 2 bathroom its decent its 1500 a month . my roomates using again so hes gonna be out here soon and im gonna be fucked cause i wont have a roomate so i need one or im going to move out of state yipfucking e

My Room
Amongst the covers, uncertainty shutters yielding the soul into a blissful still pillows with scent of love times spent are where dreams remain so chilled flames from the candle, seem to entangle breathes that have long since passed footprints on the floor, haunting even more shadows of love that would never last.

My Road Trip
First of all let me tell ya, I am in the wrong business. I should've been a truck driver. I had the chance with my first husband and I screwed that up but I drove 1.060 miles yesterday. I love the open road. It gives me Plenty of time to think and see new things. I had to drive to North Carolina yesterday to pick up my son for the summer. I have traveled that road so many times it seems like it takes no time to get there LOL Even my 9 year old says "its not taking long at all". Oh, and I love South of the Border. For those of you who don't know where that is its on the NC/SC line. My kids like the "Rocket" and those funny signs going up and down 95. Well Sorry if i've bored any of ya but that was my saturday. Now its Sunday and i'm not going ANYWHERE today if I can help it LOL Look forward to hearing from you all soon. I could've used a shot of rum by the time I got here last night but I didn't. I had tea instead LOL Rumncoke

My Round Up Show You Want To Ask Me
as i said on my round up show last week if anybody had any question they love to ask me there is three things i love to talk about great music, great artist , o hell yea great sex that i would try answer it on my show as long i can keep it under a pg rating and does not pertain to my family so message me the questions if you want me to mention your name on the air let me know as well, muawwh Sugars Much Love Jody

My Roaddogs
ALRIGHT... THESE ARE THE PEOPLE THAT I KNOW HAVE HAD MY BACK FROM DAY ONE AND WILL HAVE IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE... CHEERS TO THESE AMAZING PEOPLE, MAKE SURE TO GO SHOW THEM THE SAME RESPECT THAT THE WOULD SHOW YOU... DJ ELLE ~Warrior Princess~ {RCB-STEVENs RL Wifey}{the Tanks Co-Owner n Enforcer}@ fubar ~STEVEN~*ELLE`S HUBBY*~"HEAD OF SECURITY" @ THE TANK & INFERNO~@ fubar ۞Silhouette۞ { Drink Drank Drunk Tank Bouncer }@ fubar DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR, AND LOYALTY ABOVE ALL Drunk1{NSFW MILFsStalkingVictim}{theTanksGM}@ fubar DRINK DRANK DRUNK Fine Print: Band of Brothers .. LMAO.. now that is the biggest crock of bullshit i have ever heard.... My CurseBy Killswitch EngageBest Video Codes

My Rose
[even though]It's of the divine the thought of her lips meeting mine it's tearing me up inside harboring these feelings I constantly hide It's not a matter of pride I question if she can reciprocate the emotions I'd provide I ponder what would happen should love set sail the next casualty would be our friendship which would fail that's not an option worth taking I'd rather remain the friend rather than suffer through a relationships failure upon ground shaking due to the vibrations brought about from our hearts breaking I'd rather remain the friend with whom she shares time, secrets, & meals I rather remain a friend than battle with the onslaught disclosure reveals I'd rather be the friend who on occasion gets to hear her voice rather than falling out of contact to to a selfish choice in secret and minus loves scar I rather she remained my shining star I would be able to bear her no longer having feelings for me to share tell her I love her? I don't dare thoughts

My Room
Alright a few of you saw i put up new photos of my room, well the reason they are up is for this blog, i need an idea of what to get for my room. Basic overview: It's 10x20 and one side has a door half way through it, and two walls have windows, one of the long walls has a floor board heater. Furniture currently: 5x5 night stand full size bed 2 dressers, one really small and ready to fall, other doubling as tv stand. 1 old entertainment center on side used as a storage shelf (read to fall when stood normally 2 old desk drawers as dvd shelves 1 home made shelf holding misc. items Picturs: Decor: Posters along all but where wall not accessible. Furniture wanting to add: Desk for comp chair with desk bookshelf replace broken dresser blah i need some more money and more room, any ideas on how to create more room?

My Rose
My rose is beautiful and white just like a dove Full of love sent from up above. So many pedals not ready to spread So heavy they feel just like lead. For each pedal I shed a tear As I cry I look in the mirror. So that I can see my pretty face And put my hair up with some lace. My rose starts to die And I start to cry. So I finally sigh And say goodbye. I told myself it would be fine And buried it underneath a sign.

My Roommate's Epiphany
If you listen to Korn's freak on a leash, he does the little gibberish thing. While driving down the road, my roommate finally figured out the message in it. "Mmm! Binaca! Mmm! I'm not emo!" And no, we don't do drugs.

My Roomates Response To My Blogs
1.) How many times a day would you kiss me? answer: never, your breath stinks! 2.) Would you hold me? answer: choke hold maybe 4.) Would you take me places? answer: Fuck no! 5.) Would you love me? answer: Always BFF mutha fucka! 6.) Would you lie to me? answer: I'm guessing I just did 7.) If I was sick what would you do? answer: laugh at you 8.) Would you leave me for one of my friends? answer: Hell no! Your friends are fucked up! Unless she's hot........... 9.) Want to have a future with me? answer: Fuck no! 10.) Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them? Answer: Hell no! 11.) Would you introduce me to your mom/dad? answer: I did..............mom's never been the same since...........asshole! 12.) Would you care about what I wore when we go out? answer: Ummm...........I could care less what you wear asa long as you are wearing some sort of underwear, don't want to see your balls 13.) Would you hang out with me AND my friends? answer: Only if

My Rose
If I had a rose It would sit inside a glass Steeped in the clearest water But dying, nevertheless Everyday Its petals would fall daily To drift slowly down onto the ground Their final resting place Beside the glass Where their living counterparts Still reside Those fallen petals of the rose Are nothing But Little fragments of beauty Destroyed and broken Left to gather dust Day by day my rose would wither Losing colour, losing blood And the air, empty of its sweet scent Weeps for beauty fled with life Taking with it The joy it brings And leaving only Memories Of the joy that it once brought And if I had a rose I’d kill it before it dies Like I wish that I could kill love Before I can have a chance to cry

My Roots
In Cowboy Archaeologists: The Wetherill Family and the Birth of Southwest Archaeology, Paul Mogren from the Marriott Library and Chris Simon tell the story of a family of Quaker cowboys who made some of the most important archaeological finds in America, including ruins now protected in Mesa Verde National Park, Grand Gulch Primitive Area, Navaho National Monument and Chaco Canyon National Historic Park. Their discoveries in the late 19th century, and their subsequent actions, jump-started the discipline of archaeology, changed American attitudes towards the past, and ultimately led to the protection of ancient sites and artifacts by the government. Their dedication to the preservation of Ancestral Pueblo culture also led to the loss of their ranch, the scattering of the family and the murder of one of the brothers. i am sheri wetherill... decndent

My Robot Rocks! ;)
I have been a busy girl today. I have done lots of laundry and got to use my new Scooba cleaner today. I know it sounds silly to be excited about cleaning my floors but it is fun! I put a little cleaning solution in my robot and some water, put it down on the floor and turn it on. It cleaned my kitchen tile and family room tile before the battery went needed to be charged again. I watched it go all around the floor. What a silly girl I am! But my floors are clean! I might buy an extra battery for it just so I can clean all my floors at one time. The Roomba's battery lasts a lot longer then the Scooba. I also made lasagna! I made my sauce for it and let it simmer all day. My lasagna was yummy! Something that the kids love and everyone is happy. It is just a pain to make sauce from scratch instead of coming from a jar but it is so worth it. My youngest brother came by and visited for a while and he had his baby son with him. Julian is so damn cute! He is 7 1/5 months