Fubar Blog Posts 2

My Crazy Mind
It days like these where i really think If I will ever be able to stay happy. I know i am still young and have a full life ahead of me and all but really.. whats so wrong with trying to be happy now? I guess for some people it comes easier then others. All the time I have went and tried to find a girl for me it always ends up the same with me and unhappy. This time i was not looking but this one come with its own new problems and I really don't know what i should do. I have not felt this happy in years but still at the same time I am not sure if i should go with it or be scared. I am really falling for this girl( not more of love but Liking her a lot) When I have spent time with her i cant see anything wrong with her. Yeah she might smoke but for once it does not bother me, does not turn me off or anything.. its like I don't even notice it when i ma around her. I have a smile glued ear to ear the whole time. When I first kissed her nothing else mattered at that point. everything aroun

My Cross
Has anything changed, do you still turn it around Did you wash your hands me You made that all too clear Do you just keep on living that lie You refuse to see I'm in agony The cross I bear But you don't seem to care Even Judas knew he had lied I keep wondering why I'm still calling your name through my tears Why have you waited to embrace this, my dear? Cold is your silence, denying what is real I'm still wondering why I'm still calling your name, my dear I'm sorry if you can't stand the naked truth All you see is how you want it to be So you keep on living your lies Release me from this cross after all these years Call my name and help me with this weight Even though it comes far too late I keep wondering why I'm still calling your name through my tears Why have you waited to embrace the truth, my dear? Cold is your silence, denying what is real I'm still wondering why I'm still calling your name. If my heart is too hold, to cold, can friendship

My Crush...
Dearest crush, I want to bite you when your sleeping, smother you with thy boobies, I want to do u in many positions on your lunch break from work...I wana spank your tushie cause I really love to touch it. I wana let you know that I will make you so happy every day of our fubar life together...Till death do us part

My Crush?! Who Are You!?
If only i knew who it was that had a crush on me! i would want to hold them and kiss them. make them feel as the most important person ever!! go to the beach and watch the sun set!! oh the things that i would do!! only if i knew!

My Crappy Thanksgiving In The Hospital
I woke up in the middle of the night last night with the worst pain in my throat and had a mini freak out because it seriously felt like my throat was closing and any second I wouldn't be able to breathe. I took some tylenol cold medicine and tried to go back to sleep but I kept waking up with horrible pains and since I was up visiting family with NO insurance or car I had to have my cousin drive me to the emergency room since that was the only place open. I got into a room pretty quick and the doctor came in almost immediately and looked at my throat and goes "wow....im amazed you can even swallow your tonsils are so red and swollen we're going to take some blood to test you for mono and strep". Great..I HATE needles but I figured Id rather be stuck with needles than feel like shit. While I wait for my test results to come back I called my manager and told him I wouldnt be able to come into work in the morning because Im in the ER and I felt like I was dying and he got all pissy with

My Crazy Lil Shit Tune
My Crazy Lil Tune I spread my wings,tried to learn to fly I flew High in the sky,but only for a while Somehow I fell and landed in a SHITPILE The CRAP was so heavy, it weighed my feathers down So I shook and I flailed,trying to shake off the SHIT Just as I thought I had shook my self free, down came more CRAP, straight from the sky It fell so fast and it fell so hard I knew that very soon I'd drown,and my song would be herad no more...NO MORE CRAZY LIL TUNE!!!! REBEKAH S. EAST 4-23-07

My Crying Soul
My soul cries for lost love, That will never be found again, My soul cries for friends, Who have been betrayed, My soul cries for peace, In a world where there is none, My soul cries for acceptance, When there is none to give. My crying soul… My soul cries for the broken hearts, Of every little girl, My soul cries for all the lost souls, Wandering this world, My soul cries for hate, Which brings death and destruction, My soul cries for the lonely, Who have nowhere to go. My crying soul. This is the first poem I ever wrote..lolz. wrote it back in '04 sometime, I do believe. Don't quite remember

My Crazy Life...
Hi All, I just wanted to let everyone know I don't know how often I will be online anymore. I am homeless right now, was kicked out of the sober-living house I was staying at and staying on people's couches until I can find somewhere to go. I am using the PC at the public library right now and won't be able to come here too often. So please pray for me and wish me well. My phone has been shut off so I can't recieve or make any calls, but hopefully that will be changed soon. I will try to come on whenever I can. I will miss you all in the meantime. Hey! I'm still sober Marc

My Crayon Color
Your Result: Pine Green You are Pine Green! Ah, such and Earthy color. You are serene and mellow. You love to commune with Nature and take quiet walks or hikes to get away from your busy life. You are trustworthy and you are centered. Your friends like you because of your calming effect on them.

[my Crispy Bits]
Bitches don't know shit about my carbonara...yo. Well... I had the oppurtunity to try someone else's carbonara, to kinda gauge how I did, and I was in the mood for some bacony goodness. >>It was fettucini alfredo with bacon.*scratches his head* no go. So here's my take (don't forget- God is in the radio)You will require 1/2 cup of shredded cheddar3 cloves of grated garlic (you could get away with less garlic)linguine or fusilli (the corkscrew pasta)[I think this particular sauce and small bit meatses adheres better to fusilli]2-4 egg yolks (depending on how big assed your eggs are)SaltPepperBACON!!! Cut into lardons. (about 2/3 cup)And...lamb/ham/cured sausage ~ 1/3 cup (accent meat) Boil your pasta boy!While that's going render fat from your bacon in a skillet, and get it crispy, toss in the additional flavorant meat and salt KEEP THE ACCENT MEAT TINY! It's carbonara so you want bits of well done toasty crunch.JUST BEFORE the pasta is done, toss in the garlic and distributecombin

My Crimson Dream
Intertwined between the folds of silk lays my virile vampire god. Tantalizingly tempting me with licks upon his crimson lips. Does he know what he does to me, deep within the night? Dreams of bodies intertwined , glistening with dew of the sexual kind. Hidden whispers upon the wind take hold of me deep down inside. Hands start to explore and search deep inside for that intimate spot for which you desire. Passion ablaze and skin on fire as my alabaster god tastes of my desire. Deep down growl of lustful pride utters from his lips as he deepens his kiss. Smelling the essence that exudes from him turns me into a wantonous beast. Never before has one evoked that hidden passion that wriths deep within. I feel what he needs as he tastes of my skin. Little small licks as he marks his spot to quench his thirst. Piercing my flesh as he enters deep within. Thrusting inside to sate the lust while he drinks of me in total trust. In flows my life to fufill his need, pulsing and throbbing I am fille

My Crazy Meanderings
Ok my friends. I was trolling through the mumms, and noticed all the alternate accounts playing. Those of you that really, truly know me.. know that I view this as a fun game. I like to read their "About me" or check out their friends, pics, fans... etc. So, i have noticed this one asshole in particular, and wanted to check him out. The following, was his "about me" I nearly DIED!!! HERE GOES: There is nothing more beautiful to me, than a woman cumming. The way her body flexes, stomach muscles tighten, hips rise up, then she squeezes. I'm 6'2 and over 200 pounds. All women are small, to me. I've always heard that they feel safe when they are with me. I like it when women are reserved and quiet, yet i know the dirty thoughts that go on in their heads. I want to exploit EVERY fantasy she has and make it happen. I can fly you to see me, with only two calls. So don't think i'm just another flake on this site. I AM looking for the ONE that can fulfill every fantasy

My Crazy Fetish.
Hi friends well I realy have been teasing more then long enough but once I post the site of my fetish I don't want no harsh and rude nasty comments about it ok I get more then enough flack just because I have pet snakes ok. I have deleted friends before for giving me nasty comments 1 lady i knew for yrs until I found out she would lock her kid in a closet so she can spend the day on this site maken friends and racking up points. But I will say this only the brave should view this site ok, alot of men are into this and some women also I have been into this sence I was a teen I have paid to see this via the site and even paid to see it live up to 1,000 dollars to see it live also you may leave me comments but please don't be nasty about it ok. here is the site Joyangeles.com Thank you for your time hope this will kill everyones goat finnaly lol lol.. thank you... Jay

My Craptastic Poetry Part 2, Religion.
RETURNby DAMAGODDESSShe lies buried in deep places,Beneath the stones of ages burdened upon her shoulders.The men of the sky ravaged her bodyUntil she lay down, broken, and cried.She rested upon the haunches of eons,And was slowly forgotten amongst the spirits of the lost.Temples and streets grew around and above her.Soon even her sisters did not know where she dwelt.But whispers of her survived through the centuries,In the eyes and the bellies of prophet and pauper alike.Her voice spoke in secrets and talismans,Watching and waiting from the caves at the edge of the world.And now the sky gods begin to fall.She awakens and her whispers transform into screams,Too much hurt for too long in too many ways!And she will no longer lay in silent repose.Her children call her return in their hour of need,And slowly she arises from the forgotten realmsShe will return to claim what is her own, And illusions of progress will crumble in her wake. Her cries will echo to the corners of the universe,Suc

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 1, Bdsm.
EVERYTHING by DAMAGODDESSDeep beauty springs forth from the silent places of her icy heart.Within him, hurt, laid manifest for all to see, to use, to abuse.Let me deliver you into the pleasure of pain. Let me teach you to worship at the altar of my body.Let me bind you to a life on your knees.Let me show you how divine servitude can be.Let me give you everything.Transformation erupts from the burning places of his latent mind.Within her, desire and shame, hidden from most, for him, laid bare.Let me sustain you on the taste of my blood.Let me teach you of torture and love.Let me show you the right ways to hurt me.Let me have love the way I need it to be.Let me give you everything.Intimate connection flows from the depths of their eyes.Within each other, a bond that transcends all reason.Let me lead you where your wild mind could not see.Let me teach you the ecstasy of total surrender.Let me join you in the abandon of perfect love and trust.Let me show you how complete you can be.Let m

My Crew Shines True - Supernatural (bkps Reps + Guests)
My crew shines true - supernaturalSAVV Brass Knuckle Poets Society said:My crew shines true - supernatural, like the third eye on a blind dude. Let me remind you - B-K-P-S is a life-style; fuck a rhyme, fool. I'll blow the hand off the sign you throw up, if it ain't mine: schooled. Like a mine field and if it mine - screwed. Kinda' rude, hella nice - tried and true, immaculate, like Jesus Christ to a ripe bruise.. Each1Teach1 of Brass Knuckle Poets Society Said:fuck is up with the lack of nice crews? need to take heed and some advice too, if you aint coming hard as fuck you aint spitten to the right dude, better hope you catch yer boy in a nice mood, cause i crumble flakes into the water like fish food, B is to the K like its P into the S, synonymous with ridonkulous when we rockin this...youd need the 3rd eye and an eagle or a hawkeye with a twist, to even catch a spy report before you conquer this...Teach1 sponsors this, and any and all brodcasts, download it to yer eye phone,

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 3, Self-referential Prophesy.
ARCANA by DAMAGODDESS I am the Fool. I am the blind, the vulnerable, the outcast.Seeking, losing, never knowing. Play me with all you are, I will follow.I am the Magician. I am the mystical, the enigmatic, the hidden.Twirling, dancing, always learning. Know me for what I am, I will not acquiesce.I am the High Priestess. I am the esoteric, the strong, the Goddess.Sharing, shining, never dying. Love me with your purist heart, I will reflect.I am the Empress. I am the noble, the detached, the Queen.Looking, waking, always persisting. Take me for all I've been, I will not relinquish . I am Arcana, the natural and the divine. I am the Emperor. I am the ruler, the tyrant, the wisdom.Leading, winning, never breaking. Want me for all I've seen, I will take.I am the Hierophant. I am the learned, the arrogant, the ascendant.Wondering, thinking, always growing. Teach me all you have heard, I will not forget.I am the Lovers. I am the desired, the yearned for, the needed.Wanting, burning, never t

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 4, Twisted Fucks Who Read Too Much.
STITCHESby DAMAGODDESSShattered nothings, fumbling in the dark for the chaotic pieces of their yesterday. Answers dance in the shiftless void, waiting to be chained to reason.Syncophantic fissures consume them, feeding on their twisted web of fate.Pieces of the whole, bound in a million different broken promises.The body succumbs with ease, desire the primal scream to which attaches no cognition.Clawing fiercely from the undertow, drowning in the rhythm of being taken.Anything for oblivion, for a moment's reprieve from the weight of the pain, the burden of the broken.Serenity is a distant dream, so the fallen take their solace in the turbulence.The mind resists the body's urging, begging to be left within its hell.Tortured genius is no pretty companion; she is a cruel Mistress with a heavy hand.Monsters born in countless waking nightmares, mutilating the synapses with greedy fangs, Making it weep blood and vomit agony and succor on the hopes of impossibility.The heart strains against t

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 5, Disturbed And Twisted.
MORBIDby DAMAGODDESS"She's not a normal child" they say."Too precocious, too intellectual.Why does she talk that way?" they say."With no emotion, no inflection?"The other toddlers finger paint.She draws and colours in the lines.She creates scenes of death and gore.Something is wrong with this child."She's just a little Morbid" they say."From such a good Christian home.Such a shame, such a shock" they say."Did Satan mark this little angel's soul?"The other girlies giggle and point.She reads of ancient battles and graves.She imagines she is a queen or king.Something is wrong with this child."She's just a little Morbid" they say. "Something might be wrong with her mind.She won't grow up to kill" they say."Jesus will save her from shame.".The other children grow and talk. She does not try to reach out.She's a beauty but they do not touch her.They all steer clear of Morbid. "She's just a little Morbid" they say. "It's just a phase that will go away. She'll stop flirting with the devil so

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 6, I'm Turning Into A Mushface.
BOUNDby DAMAGODDESShave you melted into me?crawled through the mire to believein everything you've lost and can be?have you broken yet, my sweet?from this precious one kneeling before me,eyes etched in the past beg to be freedfrom a lifetime of doubt and invisibility.how could anyone fail to see you, my love?have you let go of your chains?tied your mind to the ecstasy of pain,a place you can at last feel sane?have you surrendered yet, my slave?from this divine soul next to me, a heart carved in sadness and silent pleasfrom enduring too much pointless indignity.how could anyone be so unkind to my love?have you embraced what you are?looked inside and learned your worthfrom the change loving me is bringing forth?have you accepted yet, my pet?from this amazing man in front of me,a time lived in darkness and beauty unseenfrom endless shadows of uncertainty.how could anyone fail to hold you, my dear?have you satiated your need?intoxicated your will and let yourself bleedfrom the wounds of ab

My Creed.
All of life is Lived by creeds; Either known or unknown. When it comes to pussy Eating, as for me, There is a ceed: 1) I will respect and honor all pussies as being special and the owners as special. 2) I will eat no pussy before it is ready. It isn't fair to rush this beautful experience. 3) I will never harm or abuse a pussy. It is the Queen of the universe, 4) I will always ask the owner how she wants her pussy eaten; she is the perfect person to know. I am always a student. 5) I will put the pussy's pleasure before my own pleasure. Time doesn't matter. 6) I will never leave a pussy unsatsified or wanting more. Total orgasms is the goal! 7) I will use my whole body in my quest to satisfy a pussy: tongue, mouth, cock, fingers, lips, nose, teeth, chin, etc. 8) I will keep all eatings confidental. 9) I promise never to say NO to a request to eat a pussy. 10) I will never retire from pussy eating; it's a lifetime commitment

My Crazy Ida :)
So here's my idea: In this app, you can pimp your friends out. First you select the friends you want to pimp out. Second, you select the services they offer as well as the prices for such services. The price then goes up, as other people select the services they want from those people. People who recieve such services can rate the quality of them. This rating will be seen by others before purchasing such services. Prices will rise and fall with demand, and ratings, but may be set by the pimp as desireable. So you can wait for natural market fluxes, or decide someone is worth more and raise their price betting people will still choose that person for those services. Sometimes people assume the quality of things based on the price, which is why people feel good paying for overpriced things even if they aren't that great. If the simple cost of something, no matter the quality of it makes it a rarity, then it's actual worth may rise. People can feel " cool " knowing not

*~my Creed~*
I would be true, for there are those who trust me;I would be pure, for there are those who care;I would be strong, for there is much to suffer;I would be brave, for there is much to dare.I would be friend of all - the foe, the friendless;I would be giving, and forget the gift.I would be humble, for I know my weakness;I would look up - and laugh - and love - and lift.~ H******May you experience each day as a sacred gift woven around the heart of wonder.*

My Ct Family
So Im In The SK Family Now..Its Not A HUGE CT FAMILY..Just A Group Of Close Friends (as MarQ says :P) I Have An Album Of Pics Of Us Plus A Cool One I Made..Click My Profile Link And The Pic Album Is Called SK Family...Go Leave Comments And Ratings Plz Thanks Lovlies x0x Mrs.Flyhead@ CherryTAP

My Ct Lounge, Rocky's Place Is Open For All
http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=4619 THERE IS THE LINK TO MY LOUNGE HERE ON CT. PLEASE LEAVE THE ARGUING AND BICKERING AT THE DOOR PLEASE. THIS IS A PLACE TO CHAT AND HAVE FUN! THANKS ROCKY

My Ct Family
My CT Family Below is a list of my CT Family, i thought i would do this to express to people, as well as yourself what yu mean to me, you are the bunch of people who have been kind & thoughtful, Honest & generous, this are my friend, and i would like to show you off and say a big thanks.... innocentprncss™ (Sorceress of the royal family)@ CherryTAP R*bLuEeYeDcHiC*K@ CherryTAP Your Neighborhood Porn Star@ CherryTAP Renea@ CherryTAP MiSs_TrEsS~'Witches Of CT'~@ CherryTAP Miss Jessica@ CherryTAP Lexxii {Sexxii Family}@ CherryTAP sasha@ CherryTAP sexceva@ CherryTAP An you know you always save the best til last trishie pie@ CherryTAP

My Ct Downfalls - 4 All Please Read
Hi everyone! I am so overwhelmed by the response to the bulletin that Vannatastica put up about me. I am loving it but I have to warn you of my CT Downfalls! I hope you will understand. 1) I have an ancient PC and can't afford a new one just yet. I am very low on virtual memory and I move like a snail around this place. So it takes me a LONG time to get caught up on returning all the Cherry Love! 2) Because of my health issues, I have a terrible memory. I may need you to remind me if you have rated a lot for me and I owe you a bunch of ratings in return. Right now, I am at least a day behind!! The easiest way to remind me would be to send me a private message. THANKS to all of you that do this for me. 3) I'm one of these that is absolutely TERRIBLE about voting in contests and reposting things in bulletins. My health causes me to be slow as it is and I am unable to keep up with a lot of things around here. Those 2 things are something I usually avoid. I've made a ve

My Ct Downfalls - Part 2
I failed to mention that due to my piece of *(&*^(*&)_*)(*^&^ pc, lol that it is EXTREMELY difficult for me to post comments to people on a daily basis. Let me know if you start feeling left out! Pamela

My Ct Hubby, Oifsapper (roger) Is On His Way!!!
Sometimes, people just "click" and then they want to see what happens next. Roger is probably the best thing that has happened to me in a long while. Ever since I started talking to him, I think we both felt a special connection. He's a very sweet, kind and thoughtful person - that special someone that we all wish we could have in our lives. Fortunately, for me, he's in my life. We have been talking for some time and we have both found that we have more in common than any two people could possibly have. Tuesday, Roger will be leaving MN to come visit me here in FL. I am truly excited about meeting him and seeing what our reaction to each other will be. We hit it off on here, so after much conversation, we decided we wanted to see where this friendship could lead. Who knows??? :) Personally, I can't wait to find out.

My Ct Wedding
oh wow... where do i start?..... DjBubba~Pastor~CO Owner~Wicked Intentions Radio~Chancellor/DJ of the Underworld did our service for us... it went by very quick... but let me tell you, before i was nervous as hell... the whole bit... sweaty palm, butterflies, pounding heart... what a rush... I'm so happy right now... i couldn't even put into words how excited i am... thanx to all that were there... WOW!!! I'M LUCKIEST GUY EVER"S CT WIFE!!!!!

My Ct Wife
If u all havnt heard, i am now married to the most amazing woman, not only on ct but in the world, and i cant think of a better way to tell her that i am madly in love with her... i dont know how it is possible to fall in love with someone u never met face to face, but i have. there is nothing i wouldnt do for her and i miss her every second that i am not talking to her, and i want her and everyone else to know that i will never hurt her, and i want to spend the rest of my life with her. ♥♥♥I LOVE YOU KAT ♥♥♥

My Ct Horoscope
Is a no-nonsense type suddenly buttering you up? Are old friends suddenly being ultra assertive? Listen to these topsy-turvy signals and be cautious. Moving with a measured tread helps you avoid any snakes on the path. I have recently learned that there are a lot of effing snakes on my path, even the ones I thought safe and comforting I am finding out are full of venom. So, just kill me now.

My Ct Marriage To Lord Nightwing
Hey everyone just letting you all know that this Thursday my fiance and I will be getting hitched in lounge Tourture Chamber...all are welcome to listen in!!! He is the greatest and just wanted all to know! Love Bella

My Ct Friends!
I just want to thank you all for the love that you have shown to me! If I havent gotten back to you via comments/emails/etc, I apoligize, Im working on it though! Everyone here is so great! I love you guys!! Much love!! XOXOXOXO

My Ct Horoscope For Today.
Love! It's a mystery, and that's both the fun and the frustration of it. Instead of trying to control it or figure it out, let it be. Examine what's going on, but don't try and make it become one thing or another. WILD, BUT VERY TRUE.

My Ct Rant And Rave
Something About BigD (IMPORTANT, PLEASE READ) It has been a couple of months now on CT, and I have met a lot of really wonderful people. But what i have also experienced is a lot of really disturbing things that I have not noticed in this world. Seems like a electronic medium where you can hide behind a fake profile, fake pictures, and fake conversations is rather popular....waht a sorry state we are in! I have seen the good, and bad, so this is a summary of how I see things! I am an eternal optimist, and like to walk by a person who is looking down, and just walk up and say "It doesn't hurt to smile, someone likes you!"...and walk away. Suprising how that will make a person feel...if you look back and smile at them as you walk away, you will see them smile..(almost always). Who knows...they may have been thinking of suicide....and you may have changed their mind! Find the good in everybody, and your life will be filled with smiles, loves and friends you have never met, as wel

My Ct Wife
THIS IS MY CT WIFE. I LUV THIS WOMAN & I HAVE GROWN 2 FEEL VERY CLOSE 2 HER. I HAD SOME CLOSE CALLS OUT THERE, BUT SHE'S THE 1 THAT CAUGHT ME. SHE HAS BEEN VERY SWEET 2 ME. HER NAME TELLS IT ALL. SHOW HER SOME LUV. I'M PROUD & HONORED 2 BE HER CT HUSBAND. HER CT NAME IS SWEETER THAN U THINK. HER MORPH HERE WAS MADE BY BAD BAD MAN SHOW HIM SOME LOVE ALSO THIS IS HER SON. HE NEEDS SOME CT LUVIN' ALSO. RATE, FAN, & ADD HIM. baller89@ CherryTAP THIS SWEET LADY SPENT SOME TIME ON OUR MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE. ADD, FAN, & RATE HER ALSO. IF YOUR LOOKING 4 SOME1 2 HELP, SHE CAN. ~X~Just Meee™~X~S.B.A.B.~ Œlìte Bõmber§~Œnfôrçer~X~@ CherryTAP

Máy Cắt Cỏ Cầm Tay Giá Tốt Nhất Tại Siêu Thị Máy
Máy cắt cỏ Honda giá rẻ mỗi ngày tại Siêu Thị Máy Sieuthimay.net.vn đại lý phân phối sản phẩm máy cắt cỏ Honda giá rẻ nhất, chất lượng nhất tại Việt Nam. Máy cắt cỏ Honda UMK 435 U2ST Trạng thái:Còn hàng Bảo hành: 12T Giá bán:7,350,000 vnđ Loại máy: 4 thì, 1 xi lanh,làm mát bằng quạt gió Dung tích xi lanh: 35.8 cc Công suất tối đa:1.6 mã lực / 7000 v/p Dung tích bình xăng: 0.65 lít Dung tích nhớt: 0.1 lít Suất tiêu thụ nhiên liệu: 265g/mã lực.giờ Hệ thống đánh lửa: Transitor từ tính (IC) Hệ thống khời động: Bằng tay Kiểu liên kết truyền động: Càng bố ly hợp khô Trục truyền lực: Trục cứng

Máy Cắt Cỏ Thế Hệ Mới Hoàn Toàn Tự động Miimo
Máy cắt cỏ sắp được nhập khẩu: máy cắt cỏ cầm tayThương hiệu HONDA đã có mặt phổ biến trên các sản phẩm như xe máy, xe ô tô, robot và nhiều sản phẩm khác nữa, tuy nhiên hãng cũng có sản xuất cả may cat co tự động với một sản phẩm mới ra mắt mang tên Miimo. Robot nhỏ gọn này sẽ chỉ xén 2-3mm cỏ mỗi lúc nó hoạt động, tuy nhiên việc này được thực hiện nhiều lần trong tuần. Máy sẽ cắt theo những quỹ đạo khác nhau để giúp giảm áp lực lên sân vườn của người dùng, tăng sự phát triển của cỏ và giảm thiểu rong rêu, cây dại. Không giốn

My Current Status
Or is it something, you decide. Right now so many things in my life are up in the air, and I have no idea what the outcome is gonna be. I'm not trying to dump my drama on anyone so I won't be very specific, unless asked, okay? The time that I am able to spend online is pretty sporatic so I'm gonna try to make the best of it from now on. I love talking to people and making new friends. Actually, right now, I have no close friends. I have family and that helps, but there is still a blank spot in my life. I adore my kids and am very thankful for them, but I would love to have a close friend, either male or female, sex included or not, doesn't matter. I am a good person basically, but I can be evil, if provoked.I guess I'm kinda rambling, sorry. I would love to hear from anyone, I will respond when I am able. Take Care. Well, here I am again. Lucky you, lol. Okay, I am so very tired of being alone, lonely, unloved. It has been over six years since my husband died, and I am really ti

My Current Mood...
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but I remember everything what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts I cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else I am still right here what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt if I could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way By Nine Inch Nails (Covered by Johnny Cash)

*my Current Personal Anthem*
++EVANESCENCE: WEIGHT OF THE WORLD++ Feels like the weight of the world Like God in heaven gave me a turn Don't cling to me, I swear I can't fix you Still in the dark, can you fix me? Freefall, freefall, all through life If you love me, then let go of me I wont be held down by who I used to be She's nothing to me Feels like the weight of the world Like all my screaming has gone unheard And oh I know you don't believe in me Safe in the dark, how can you see? Freefall, freefall, all through life If you love me, then let go of me I wont be held down by who I used to be

My Curse And Pain!!!
For me Chrismas it the worst. I think I am stuck with the Cristmas curse!!! Every time it is the same every year. I spend thousands of dollars for holladay cheer. The person i am with eather engaged want too be with or married too runs away with fear. I dont know why and i may not understand, Maybe being alone is apart of God's big plan. I hope you'll remeber the good times. Cuz every time that i do it makes me feel bad. i wish that i could just lay down and die. but all i end up doing was to sit down and cry. My life is over I hope that you soon see, on how much you realy ment ot me!! I bend over backwords for everything that you say. Now all you do is push me away!! you took my heart and ripped it in two. Now in my life i dont know what to do. I loved you with all of my heart, but not i feel all torn apart. you will have to prove it to me to even Knock at my door, cuz i dont think i can trust you anymore! I will still talk if you give me a call, but I dont think that

My Current Schedule
Saturday, February 3, 2007 Outlaw's 722 E. Burnside Crazy Train with special guests Motorbreath Live Wire The Wild Child Girls will be joining each band onstage for one song! You don't want to miss this! Sunday, February 4, 2007 Superbowl XLI with the Wild Child Girls Hawthorne Theater SE 39th and Hawthorne The Girls of Wild Child Magazine will be watchin the Colts kick ass and raffling off prizes and cool swag! Get your picture taken with the Wild Child Girls and I will post it up in a special album here on CherryTap!! Wednesday, February 14, 2007 Roseland Grill 6th and W. Burnside Metal Church with special guests Kapuda Saturday, February 17, 2007 Dante's 3rd and Burnside "Rockstars and Pornstars Ball" Pauly Smooch's Birthday Bash Smoochknob with the SmoochGirls With a very special appearance from the Wild Child Girls! We will be joining the SmoochGirls and Smoochknob onstage for, "Rockstar Mother Fucker!" I will add to this as new gigs come u

My 'current And Future Happenings With Me Friends Read ' Bulletin
MY STASH Emanon's Stash (1787 items) (WILL NOT BE GIVING HER NAME OUT..HAS SOTHERN IN IT AND THATS ALL I AM SAYING) HAHA I HAVE BEEN BLOCKED BY ANOTHER OVER RELIGIOUS PRICK, OK ANY ONE ON MY LIST KNOWS I AM NOT RELIGIOUS, BUT CAN SPEAK WITH ANY ONE...UNLESS THEY ARE TOO OVER RELIGIOUS, LIKE ONE PRICK WAS TALKING ABOUT PPL BURNING IN HELL...WHICH SUITED ME FINE..THEN STARTED BRINGING IN FAMILY MEMBERS HAHA I DUN LOSE MY HEAD FOR EVERY FAMILY MEMBER SHE CONDEMNED TO HELL (IF YOU TRULY KNOW ME U KNOW MANY OF MY FAM ARE CHRISTIANS WHICH IS WHY WE DUN GET ALONG) WELL ANYONE SHE WAS CONDEMNING PPL IN MY FAM TO HELL, SO I WAS SIMPLY SAYING WOW THANKS SO I WILL SEE THEM HAHA THEN SHE STARTED ATTACKING PPL ON MY CT FAM LIST, STARTED SAYING OOO U "HAVE A FAG ON UR LIST" THEN STARTED QUOTED BIBLE SHIT COME THE FUCK ON ITS 2007, IF YOU HATE ANY GROUP JUST REMOVE ME OFF YOUR LIST, I HAVE FRIENDS ON HERE FROM ALL BACKGROUNDS, GAY, STR8, LESBIANS, AND BISEXUALS AND EVEN MANY DIFFERENT RELIGIO

My Current Unlife
Welcome to my blog. Whats going on with me you might ask? Well I'll tell ya. I work for a computer helpdesk. sometimes a great job, sometimes a royal pain in the ass! I'm 6'2 with very long brown hair and blue eyes. I am married to a wonderful woman. (I know all guys say that, but how many guys have a girl that gets them a 3 some for christmas?!) We like to drink and have a good time. I love going to heavy metal shows. I'm a die Ozzfest Vet with 6 shows under my belt. I have survived the pits at Ozzfest, Slayer, Pantera, and Slipknot shows. I don't really care for drugs but will smoke pot from time to time. I don't like beer but I love flavored liquors. I am adventurous and love to do new things. I like being outside in the spring and fall before allergies render me legally dead. I like to camp, fish, take long drives, and travel. Hell...I'm sure there is alot more I could put here but i dont want it to be a freakin book. So if there is anything else you wanna know ask. I won'

My Culture Vuntut Gwitch'in First Nation
this is a poem that was made because the US wants to put a pipe line through our caribou breeding grounds which in turn cause my people to lose tradition when it comes to traditional caribou dinner. We have lived off the caribou for hundreds of years no and if they put that pipe line through the caribou breeding grounds the numbers will decrease because the caribou will not beable to have their young in a place they know and trust so they will slowly parish. this poem will be in english first then it will be in the Vuntut Gwitch'in language the amount you comment this will tell me how many people still care about the wildlife. any ways here is it in english.enjoy Imagine Imagine a land Of powder blue sky Where caribou roam And many birds fly Imagine a river So wide and so clean Imagine a people So strong and so lean The Vuntut Gwitchin A proud ancient band Live off the earth And love this land See now the sky Turn ashy and blac

My Currrent Contest
The contest is actually going better than i waqs expecting, Old friends and new friends have voting for me, it is really surprising what some friends can do for you, so thank you all, Carlos, here is the link!

My Current Addictions
1) The OFFICE. Yes yes yes. I cannot survive and wtf is the hiatus about. I CANNOT wait til April 5th... I am so obsessed with it. I mean JIM HALPERT = My future husband! and Jim and Pam are MENT TO BE! TEAM PAM FO LIFE YO! 2) Stevemadden.com you can create your own shoe and thats HOT. 3) No One Would Riot For Less by Bright Eyes. Conor is going back to his roots and I LOVE IT. I just was so unhappy with Im Wide Awake...Cause I had heard everything live for years now... and I loved Digital Ash...though no one else did, but Conor is back in full force!!! Plus come on.... these lyrics... ...Little soldier, little insect You know war, it has no heart It will kill you in the sunshine Or just as happily in the dark Well, kindness is a card game Or a bent-up cigarette In the trenches, in the hard rain With the bullet and the bit He says help me out Hell is coming Just kiss my mouth Hell is here... 4) Ask a gay guy on Youtube. YES. William Sledd makes my die hys

My Current Heart Song
The song that my heart is currently singing... Samsons Bukan Diriku (Not myself) setelah kupahami - Now I understand ku bukan yang terbaik - That I'm not the best yang ada di hatimu - inside your heart tak dapat kusangsikan - Undeniably ternyata dirinyalah - It's so clear yang mengerti kamu - The one who understands you bukanlah diriku - Is not me kini maafkanlah aku - Now please forgive me bila ku menjadi bisu - In my silence kepada dirimu - towards you bukan santunku terbungkam - Not that I'm speechless hanya hatiku berbatas - It was just that my heart was powerless tuk mengerti kamu - to understand you maafkanlah aku - so please forgive me walau kumasih mencintaimu - Eventho I still love u kuharus meninggalkanmu - I have to leave you kuharus melupakanmu - I have to forget you meski hatiku menyayangimu - Even when my heart still loves u nurani membutuhkanmu - Even when my soul still needs you kuharus merelakanmu - I have to let you go dan ha

My Current Theme Song For The Half Year End.................lol
oh, to hell with it I'm gonna have a party [x2] I had the blankest year I saw life turn into a T.V. show It was totally weird The person I knew I didn't really know Time don't move We're the only ones who do Bendin' reason 'Cause its all we hold on to I had the blankest year I saw life turn into a T.V. show It was totally weird The person I knew I didn't really know And I was lonely Thank god the band's doing well But you don't own me I'd like to return this spell 'Cause it's not my size And your lies are so much bigger than my lies And your ties are made of things that shouldn't be ties Oh, fuck it I'm gonna have a party [x3]

My Current Schedule - Adding Muscle
Saturday = Abs/lats/lower back seated crunches 95 side bends on cables full stack, 150 hanging leg lifts use 15 lb (dumbbell) between the feet side bends on the v stand with 25 lb plate Crunches on the bench with 15lb dumbbell (I come up in a full crunch while balancing the weight between my feet incline situps, full incline with 25 plate on my chest cable crunches 130lbs 1 arm cable rows 40 lb (seated) 1 arm cable rows (to the side) bending 50 1 arm pull down 40 t bar pull down 90 pull ups 8 in between sets, sometimes 6, depends how tired my arms are. Lat machine 80 or 85, I forgot. Lower back, roman chair, single leg for 2 sets, then 2 sets of both legs holding 25lb plate. Sunday = Legs extensions 140 curls 110 kickbacks on cables 70 squats(smith) 125 hack squat (machine) 200+ leg press 180+ Adductor 150 Abductor full stack V hack 180+ Romanian dead lift 80lbs Monday = Back/Biceps Pull ups 3 sets of 5 (unassisted) Lat Pull Downs 3 sets of 8-10

My Current Situation
As most friends on here now know that i have finally got out of London and moved to Ireland to be closer to my family,right now i do not have internet access until my new place is ready which right now could be 3-6 weeks but i will try and be here when i can so just to let you all know i've not gone missing but after being fucked around by Orange(my old UK ip) and moving here i've not been able to be online as much as i can

My Custom Made New Toy!
This is a new commissioned flogger I got made by My specifications, I found a craftsman who works leather, and he is going to make some more nice things for Me, this was his first work for Me and I am very pleased.... My pet on the contrary is a little worried about it... :)

My Curves
Without my curves I would be straight, Up and down this I would hate. A real woman is what I am, No plastic to enhance this little lamb. I am proud of every inch of me, And there is a lot as you can see. My breasts are big and this I like, Especially when they entice. My butt is rather big and round, Huge, soft and zip code bound. It doesn't matter what people say, Accept yourself each and everyday. But the thing I want you all to see, Is I love myself for just being me.

My Current Life.....
Sometimes we make decisions in life that we think are the right thing to do, or for that matter what seem like the only right thing to do. But as they say hindsight is 20/20 and sometimes we find out that they weren't the greatest to begin with. Right now I am in a situation that I am now regretting and it happens to be a very big one. I am not about to air out all of my dirty laundry on here because for some reason I feel that it would be a waste of my time. To be blunt about it, I don't notice too many people on my "friends" list stopping by from time to time just to see if anything is new. I really enjoy making new friends, talking about mutual things to other people, and the sorts like that, but to be perfectly honest, I am a bit on the shy side. I am not really your typical "male".....and yes I am a male, but I DO have respect for other people and their feelings. Anyway, back to the topic of this blog, I am currently in a position that I find very difficult to get out of and wish

My Custom Jewelry
I have placed some of my custom stone jewelry designs on my page to see if anyone likes the current designs that I have made.. feedback is all ways good. I hope to start my own custom stone jewelry business and you guys get to see the first designs. I hope you like what has up til now just been a hobby. I will keep everyone that is interested updated as I go...

My Current Status
This entry deals with the current bullet points of my life and I shall edit and update where they apply. ~REVAMPED~ I guess I never truly wanted to believe it but I assume that the reason I'm so quiet and why sometimes I can't answer certain questions is because in the past I unknowingly let people change me. Overall I think it was definitely a change for the better (though I do wish I still had some of my old assertiveness back...) but damn do I hate awkward silence! so many times I want to just chat away with folks but I have not the words or I rely on feeding them random general questions and it just feels so forced and phony. I guess that's why I prefer talking to people who have a lot to say or talk about themselves and their life the majority of the conversation as that way I can emphasize my strengths (Listening, nodding and occasional agreeing) and hide my conversational weaknesses. If it's something I can relate to or know a great deal about I have no problems at all but

My Current Lounges
My Latest Lounge Creation : Clik the Pix for Instant Access In Need of the Following Staff : - DJ's - Bartenders - Pole Dancers - Managers.. If you are up to the task & Wanna have a ton of fun please contact ME : OºTîK£îÑ Ú® G-§ÞØTºO **I do Graphix & Code skins & lounges for other members if you would like something done..please let me know.**

My Current Ex And My Best Friend
Ok so this includes a little myspace drama here...lol My roommate jamie is the one that introduced me to my current ex...he is her bf's best friend. Anway we have went our separate ways...we still talk and were going to eventually get back together after he dealt with his issues. Well my best friend from Minnesota came down fora visit not to long ago. Jamies bf met her and then mine met her. They all hit it off pretty well...now im asking myself how well they hit it off ya know. I go to myspace today just browsing around cause i was taking a break from fubar for a little bit. Well I run across jamies bf's page that i didnt know existed and on his friends list is my current exes page too (which i didnt know existed either) and on both of their friends list is my best friend. Jamie isnt even on her bf's friends list....lol kinda funny huh. I know for a fact that jamies bf has a thing for my best friend....you can just tell when hes around her....i hate it cause i know its goi

My Cum
She hated me so much she spat out my cum and for a moment we looked at that mess of half-life and saliva on the hardwood floor of her kitchen. she didn't want my protein. didn't want a part of me to be a part of her. It had nothing to do with taste. It had everything to do with hostile sex. Sometime lovers who hated each other, emotional sadomasochism. Being with her tore me like paper. I couldn't spend this life with her, ever. I didn't spend two more weeks with her. But I wouldn't spend the night alone. It felt so good when we hurt together.

My Current Feelings...
Hello, Is there anybody in there Just nod if you can hear me Is there anyone at home Come on now I hear you're feeling down I can ease your pain And get you on your feet again Relax I'll need some information first Just the basic facts Can you show me where it hurts There is no pain, you are receding A distant ship smoke on the horizon You are coming through in waves Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying When I was a child I had a fever My hands felt just like two balloons Now I've got that feeling once again I can't explain, you would not understand This is not how I am I have become comfortably numb O.K. Just a little pin prick There'll be no more aaaaaaaah! But you may feel a little sick Can you stand up? I do believe it's working, good That'll keep you going through the show Come on it's time to go. There is no pain you are receding A distant ship smoke on the horizon You are only coming through in w

My Current Addction
my current addiction ... Current mood: blah Yes i can openly admit it, i've got a new addiction, but this one isnt as bad as some addictions i've had in the past. some how it just snuck up and bit me in the ass. and its japinese animation.... i've allways liked it weither it be giant robots battling it out in space, or a samurai wandering around doing odd jobs for dumplings. girls with basket ball sized breasts are nice also.... but up untill recently i was only picking up a dvd maybe like once a month if at all. but recently thats all changed. i just looked at my recent invoices for roberts anime corner store, and well lets just say in the last 2 months i've spent over a 1000$. now its not like i cant aford it, allthough that money probbly could have been spent on something else. i just think i'm going a little overboard ... or am i? anime is a little expencive ... normally like 24$ for a dvd and most series are normally 4 to 6 disks .... now as to whats been drawing me in ...

My Curse
Lost in all hope, lost in a dream..... Lost in empty promises from what it seems… You'll see her again, there's no other way… A lie I have to live with day after day…. As I dream about her, I wake up and laugh… Until I realize my life's been cut in half…. Half here half gone when she walked out… Not knowing what my next day will be about… Endless tears drown out my pain… Drowns out the sun, and brings forth the rain… I stand alone and try to make it through… But sometimes I just don't know what to do… My mind encircles my tragic loss… And brings a spiritual holocaust… I try not to think, I just try to fight… But it seems I can't even get that right… To what to turn, to whom to say… I just can't deal with this another day…. No silver lining to my dark cloud… No one to hear me cry out loud… Deaf ears they fall upon my words… They get me nowhere, like wingless birds… No wings to spread, no sky to soar… Everyday my hope f

My Current Feelings
These are lyrics to a song that has really stuck to me and it's sad but it's how I feel sometimes. Cold As You By: Taylor Swift You have a way of coming easily to me. And when you take, you take the very best of me. So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin' And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted. (CHORUS) Oh, what a shame. What a rainy ending given to a perfect day. Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say. And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywhere cold as you. You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray. And I stood there lovin' you and washed them all away. And you come away with a great little story of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you. (CHORUS) Oh, what a shame. What a rainy ending given to a perfect day. So just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say. And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through, I've never been anywh

My Current Status And Orders Leaving The Usa
Camp Fallujah, Iraq – Once in a lifetime you get an opportunity to do something truly heroic, something that when you are old and grey, bouncing your grandchildren on your knee you can look back on with great pride and say, "I was there, and I made a difference. " As we said our final goodbyes and boarded the bus to the airport, that picture was fresh in my mind. "Remember this moment, remember this moment." These words kept running through my mind like an old fashioned record player scratching and skipping along. Looking out the window of a plain white school bus, its only identifying feature the small spray painted letters USMC, I could see heartbroken wives who would not see their husbands for a year, proud fathers sending their sons to war, and worrisome mothers wondering if their baby would be alright. I guess it hadn't hit me until that point, I was going to war. I thought of my father and what he must have felt like departing for Vietnam, or my Grandfather for W

My Current Life
Hello friends and family, Well, I haven't been on here too much lately and here's why. First, school started up for me again and I'm very busy. You know how that goes. Plus, I started dating a nice lady and have been spending a lot of time with her. I do jump on here every now and then, so if you send me an email, I'll certainly reply. Todd

My Curse By Killswitch Engage
Killswitch Engage-My CurseAdd to My Profile | More Videos I watched you walk away. Helpless, with nothing to say. I strain my eyes hoping to see you again. This is My Curse-the longing. This is My Curse-time. This is My Curse-the yearning. This is My Curse. There is love burning to find you. Will you wait for me? Will you be there? Your silence haunts me.But still I hunger for you. This is My Curse-the wanting. This is My Curse-time. This is My Curse-the needing. This is My Curse. There is love burning to find you. Will you wait for me? And still I wait. And still I ache. But still I wait. To see you again. Dying inside these walls. And I see your face in these tears,these tears. And I see your face. There is love.

My Curse
I watched you walk away Helpless, with nothing to say I strain my eyes Hoping to see you again This is my curse (the longing) This is my curse (time) This is my curse (the yearning) This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? Will you be there? Your silence haunts me But still I hunger for you This is my curse (the wanting) This is my curse (time) This is my curse (the needing) This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? Still I want And still I ache But still I wait To see you again Dying, inside, these walls And I see your face in these tears? In these tears And I see your face... There is love

My Cup Runneth Over...
Since around the seventh grade I've been sportin' a descent "B" cup. Nice when your twenty but akward when your in jr.high. I realize it's just a part of life and something my girls will have the fortunate opportunity to go through, although, I don't even want to fathom that inevetable moment right now! What I never really realized is that these things can grow after puberty! Of course, having kids can do that, I understand but they go back, I can attest to that fact, it's happened to me, twice! I have been working my ass off for the last three weeks now, granted, not a whole lot of time but still they stay the same, no looking back, completely skipping "C" and firmly planting themselves at a heavy D! (snicker...I said "heavy d") The akwardness starts all over again for me. Uhg...it takes two, count 'em two bras to contain these things whilst running the treadmill, towhich I did three miles, thank you very much, today in less than 40 minutes, yay for me, but not f

My Cuzzin Survives.
Two weeks ago my two year old cuzzin had a tv fall on her and crack her skull, she had severe brain damage and the doctors thought she wouldnt make it. But a couple days ago something strange happened her wounds healed themselves and then she was takin off the medication that keep her in a coma. and now she has wakin up. shes doin better now and my lil thizzle baby will be back to normal soon. u might ask why i called her a thizzle baby, and i call her that because she use to do the thizzle dance with me and most of the people in cali know how that dance goes.

My Curse Or My Salvation
Born into the world I could not see The cross to bare that was passed on to me. These entities inside my brain, At first made me think I was insane. Not knowing what was wrong and wondering why, Destroyed myself esteem and I wanted to die. It was too much to endure, this pain and strife, It got to the point I wanted to take my life. Learning from doctors these demons in my head had names, Little monsters that loved to play head games. ADHD and Bipolar had caused my mental demise, Laughing at my fears and the tears in my eyes. So now that I know what is the case, How shall I fit into the human race? Forever viewed as a social outcast, I knew I shall never fit in as long as this last. In a pool of ducks, I am the ugly one, Trapped in the dark not able to see the sun. To be only ridiculed and never understood, I have always been the freak of the neighborhood. Alone in the world with no one to relate, These demons were out to seal my fate. Suddenly, a ray of h

My Curse
I watched you walk away Hopeless, with nothing to say I strain my eyes Hoping to see you again This is my curse...the longing This is my curse...time This is my curse...the yearning This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? Will you be there? Your silence haunts me But I still hunger for you This is my curse...the wanting This is my curse...time This is my curse...the needing This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? And still I want And still I ache But still I wait To see you again Dying inside these walls And I see your face in these tears In these tears And I see your face... There is love.

My Current Living Situation Explained (for Those That Keep Asking)
I live in a studio apartment in Des Moines, WA, which is just south of Seattle. The upper part of Des Moines starting with Pac Hwy and about half a mile going down towards the water, is a place full of drugs, prostitutes, drug pushers, thieves, and what I like to describe as soulless carcasses roaming the streets. I even had a guy try to jack me of my car while I was parked at a stop light. It was some white dude, walked up to my passanger door as I tried to lock my doors and reach for my razor blade knife. I forgot that my car automatically locks when i put it into drive so I quickly looked back at him and have him a "If you do it you are FUCKING DEAD!!!" He put two hands up in the air and back pedaled away very slowly. The light turned green and I was gone. The bottom part of Des Moines is like a different planet. Down there is the Marina and the water-the South part of the Puget Sound. No crack whores, drug pushers, or anything like that. Just peace and serenity, l

My Current Feelings Plz I Need More Prayers
PLEASE PRAY FOR US Right now I sit at work and I am over here debating my life wondering where i went wrong or why i am having to go threw what im going threw its almost as if the abuse inflicted on my by my parents growing up wasnt enough for me. Because of all the abuse i always day to day threw and threw I constantly judge myself negatively and never take good complements from anyone i shoot them down. I wonder what god put me here for if its only been nothing but 90% of pain,abuse,loneliness. the last 5 1/2 years of my life was good up till i started fighting to get my children back and my mom beccame more of a moster then ever someone i dont even know and my ex whom i have been best friends with and with 24/7 since i met him is now moving to Texas on Saturday I feel like i have lost my own soul and im loosing the rest of my heart along with it. I have never been alone since i left home after I graduated now i have to live alone for i dont know how long which i hope isnt long and

My Current Ordeal
I am 5 months pregnant and I am having a girl. I have decided to name her Emily Nicole. I am also currently living inbetween homes at the moment because I don't have the money to get my own place right now. I hope that someday soon I will have that money to get everything I need for my daughter and my own place. I am also hoping that when my daughter gets big enough that she won't think of me as a bad parent for putting this on here in the first place. I need advice, if you would be so kind and lend me your ear.

My Curse
For The Approval of the Midnight Society . . . Sometimes I wish a lot for a chance to truly vanish or even change my name! but one can't do either without funds Gods I cry for help but it seems none but myself can hear these cries Falling is what I feel listlessness pain..such harsh realities hit when you aren't able to see nor hold that someone you cherish..such distance from him..we barely seem to talk now..but I know he loves me.. He's waited for me this long..heh.. yet I'm scared of hurting him again... I need him so much..but is it my curse to love and then push someone away?..I wish I really knew maybe I'm being emo...there is love burning to have me..yet still I want and still I ache... I JUST.FEEL.SO.EMPTY I don't want to push you away again... Ilove you

My Current Band...
In case you haven't heard, The Tree Brains is a theoretical rock band from TheSneeze.com.I am, of course, a member. I play both the hair-monica and the skin flute.The weird thing is that even though I am in possession of a skin flute, I can't play my own. It has to belong to someone else. My wife's the same way with her hairmonica.Mind you, we both like it when the other plays our instrument. We're even thinking of getting our own band together...

My Current State Of Mind...
It is going to be next to impossible to get into contact with me from now on. I'm going to be busy making the world a much worse place to live in. As I disappear down this long tunnel... I bid none of you farewell Sektion... OUT

My Current Favorite Song
Leave it to Axl to write so many songs about relationships. I guess he got fucked over by someone he loved, too. From the CLASSIC - Use Your Illusion I - Here's my current fav. Oh baby, pretty baby Oh honey, you let me down honey I ain't playin' childhood games no more I said it's time for me to even the score So stake your claim, your claim to fame But baby call another neme When you feel the fire, and taste the flame Back off, back off bitch Down in the gutter dyin' in the ditch You better back off, back off bitch Face of an angel with the love of a witch Back off, back off bitch Back off, back off bitch Makin' love Cheap heartbreaker, broken backed, Nasty ballbreaker, stay out of my bed, outta my head If it's lovin' you, I'm better off dead Back off, back off bitch Down in the gutter dyin' in the ditch You better back off, back off bitch Face of an angel with the love of a witch Back off, back off bitch Back off, back off bitch Emotions rip

My Curse ~ Killswitch Engage
I watched you walk away Helpless, with nothing to say I strain my eyes Hoping to see you again This is my curse (the longing) This is my curse (time) This is my curse (the yearning) This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? Will you be there? Your silence haunts me But still I hunger for you This is my curse (the wanting) This is my curse (time) This is my curse (the needing) This is my curse There is love burning to find you Will you wait for me? Still I want And still I ache But still I wait To see you again Dying, inside, these wallsDying, inside, these walls And I see your face in these tears, In these fears And I see your face... There is loveThere is loveThere is loveThere is loveThere is loveThere is loveThere is loveThere is love

My Customers
1) Big 5 has nothing to do with the ordering of hunting and fishing license/stamps. we get them when fish and game send them. maybe you shouldn't have waited last minute to get them. 2) really you're going to buy a $5 item and then come back and return it. how much is your time worth? and how much did it cost you in gas just to do that? 3) No i can't return that item. why? because its not ours its sports authorities. how do i know? because it says sports authority on it. No we are not the same company. 4) ohhh you want the shoe that is 19.99 in the ad? yeah the black one? ok i'll just put all 40 of the black shoe that is 19.99 in the ad. just so i know i have the right one on hold for you. 5) me "hi how are you today?" customer "-----------" ok nice talking to you :) 6) customer "i want to buy a 9mm gun" me "sorry sir we don't carry any real pistols" customer "well what do you call these!" me "those would be bb guns" 7) customer "can i buy a gun if i have a felony

My Curse
You say you know, that you understand. But do you really, reach for my hand. Let my blood, pump through your veins. Dry my tears, as I scream out their names. Mom, Dad, where were you? When your little girl, was black and blue. Beaten, raped, tossed away like trash. Bouncing back on her own, refusing to relapse. Fourteen years old, and all alone. Living, fighting, without a home. Bleeding, crying and screaming, while winning through it all. I am strong now, I survived the fall. But at what cost, look what I've become. So I take it all back, looks like you've won. Now that you have felt my pain. seen my blood tears. You can say you understand now, my pain, my fears. Don't assume you understand, unless you've seen it all. Stared it in the face, taken the fall. I don't bow or beg, all I have is me. That's the way it's always been, the way it will always be. Simply because, it's easy. Being lonely is hard, but being hurt is worse. This face and b

My Current Situation
Ok.. So here is the situation.. I have quit my job. More on that later. In the meantime, I have all my tax information and registry information ready to go for college. Oh, I am going back to school. More on that later. The conundrum... I am too late for FAFSA to approve my grant before fall quarter starts. I can start in the fall provided I come up with around 1500 bucks. So, I am posting this in search of odd jobs; really, any job, that you would be willing to pay me for. I am willing to work hourly, by the job, or whatever other scheme we can come up with as long as it is cash. I am good with computers, plumbing, and yard work. If you need a lawn mowed, something cleaned, raked, a sink unclogged, a drain fixed, a roof re-shingled, a WoW character power leveled, a fence built, or whatever you can think of; I'll do. Pass the word along and let me know if you need anything.

My Current Issues
I dont really know how to blog but will give this a shot! I hate my Laptop but am thankful I have it! The battery is shot and the power cord connecter is finicky so I have to hold it just right with my left hand and type with my right if I dont the screen blanks and i cant get it back then i have to power off and reboot the darned thing but it is small and pink and cute! also the usb and sim card ports are finicky too so my external drives may or may not connect and it takes 3rd try or longer to get it to accept the photo card from my camera! my left hand cramps and falls asleep from holding the power cord just right then i have to shut it off for a bit but atleast I haver her! I am nursing her along til I can get my income tax refund next year then will retire her....

My Cyber Friends!!
i admit!!!i'm an internet addict..i stay up late just browsing the net & chatting with someone.. i never thought i would meet friends that are as kind, thoughtful & as cool as what i have now..it's hard to find friends in the net that also share your interests and i'm so glad i had the priviledge of meeting such cool people like MS. EVE, MS. NIMFA, TON, TIN, ZAIYEN, ANNA, CATE, AYAN, KRIS, CARMILINA, RUFFA & many more that im that i'm having trouble counting.. we talk about what anything under the sun.. one time TON & TIN said that they would send me two pocketbooks (which i didn't believe at first..) i mean, who would send a package to someone that you hardly even know..but when i saw their pictures holding that two pocketbooks, i was so happy..not only because of the gift but because they really consider me as a friend 4 sending me that gift.. & for that i'm really thankful..it's really the thought that counts..they are my "cyber best friends"!! and im really lucky for having them

My Cyber Slaves
Check out My cyber puppies.... is their honor to be on this list... Check their profiles, read their blogs... and turn green in envy for they have My attention and serving Me is their pleasure. Mistress M's toilet boy@ CherryTAP lik i said i've just been accepted as Mistress M's internet slave, i am new to this but am really lookin forward to serving under her. i am looking forward to the tasks that she will set out for me, i want to please her as best i can, i am after all her toilet boy!i've always been into bdsm, love being controlled by a woman, used as a toy, as her plaything, used and abused as she sees fit.. i would love to become full toilet slave of mistress m's maybe some day my dream will be realised. till then i am glad to obey her every command and desire online.. Mistress M's sissy bitch@ CherryTAP i have been accepted as Mistress M's sissy bitch. i am so very happy. i hope to someday be completly owned by Mistress M, but that is a distant dream that wil

My Cycle
Each day that goes by Is a reminder to me Of exactly why I like things the way they used to be. Unfortunately there is this thing called change Usually for the worse Because all the good in my life gets rearranged Thus, into this pain I immerse. My heart doesn’t know How to keep up with my mind For each crack and tear is beginning to show And a cure, not even a temporary, can I find. I want to get away Start over new Something continues to make me stay And that something is you. June 2004 By NYBella

My Cyber Experience
Enjoy my cybering experience............................I get all the damn nut cases.........*Grins* ....... let me know how you think I did.........haha. at: you wanna really know what I imagined ~Lisa_Lynn~: sure......why no lol..........cause your gonna tell me sooner or later......i just know this lmao at: no I wouldnt lol at: but I will tell you now ~Lisa_Lynn~: lmao im gonna snort haha at: ok start off by just kissing you passionatley and your right my hands cupping your ass ~Lisa_Lynn~: lol....jesus at: breath a little into your ear and nibble on your ear lobe ~Lisa_Lynn~: lol dont make it up as you go at: work my way down your neck at: Im not ~Lisa_Lynn~: lol at: trust me I will tell you the whole thing ~Lisa_Lynn~: hahahaha at: it takes a while to type it ~Lisa_Lynn~: why am i laughing over here? at: but if you heard my voice saying it, I didnt want it to turn you on so typing will make it calmer at: I dont know why ~Lisa_

My Day
I mowed 2 lawns today for peopel who are deployed, it was fun, first time I had mowed a alwn in 10 years though, haven't done it since I joined the Air force, other then that, just been kickin back doin nothin all day, oh what a life on vacation

My Day
id the worst day ever yesterday, i got up at my usual time of 630 but missed my bus so i was late going into work, then at about 1 the boss told me that the night man wasnt coming in so would i go home and come back in tonight, so i had to work 730 to 730. So in the end i worked like 17hrs and im exchusted now

My Day Today
Damn, can't I catch a break? I got a call from my stepdad shortly after work and I found out that one of my little brothers got stabbed in the chest and was in the hospital for a few hours. Apparently, he got into it with his ex... yet again. Not sure what he did last weekend, but he had a warrant out for his arrest. But anyways, he's in jail. I wish he gets his life together. But on a good note, I'm registered for my first two classes! I start next month. Wish me luck!

My Day Off
Thank god its Tuesday. It has been great to actually relax all day and not worry about going to work. This is a big deal to me because I have worked the last 16 days without a break. I thought when I became Restaurant Manager a month ago that my work load wouldn't change that much, but I was wrong... endless paperwork... people calling in sick... people wanting days off... no definatly more work invloved. I do love my new role, it's alot of fun and I am enjoying it. But now that I'm in to my 1st day of and have tomorrow off, I thinkim going to enjoy kicking back and enjoy spring as it rolls in and the snow melts away.

My Dark Prince
MY DARK PRINCE (DEDICATED TO : MY DARK PRINCE, HE KNOWS WHO HE IS) THOUGH, I WALK THROUGH THIS CASTLE'S GARDEN MAZE , WORKING MY WAY TO YOUR FRONT DOOR KNOWING ALL THE WHILE EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT'S IN STORE FOR ME. I FEEL NO FEAR WHAT SO EVER . I PLEAD OF YOU.. I BEG OF YOU... NO, I PRAY OF YOU DRAIN ME MY PRINCE, AND TAKE ME AWAY FROM IT ALL , I WISH TO FLY AMONG THE IMORTAL. AND NOT HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD. WHEN I STEP UPON YOUR STEPS, ALL THAT I ASK IS ,YOU DON'T GIVE IT A SECOND'S THOUGHT TO EMBRACE ME AND DRINK OF ME IT'S WHAT I DESIRE WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL. SO, MY DARK PRINCE MAKE ME, YOUR DARK PRINCESS LET'S WALK OVER THIS WORLD AND RID IT OF THE PITIFULNESS IT WITH-HOLDS CREATING A RACE TRUELY WORTHY OF RULING. LET'S CREATE, A WORLD FILLED WITH ETERNITY, WHERE WE ALL, SHALL NEVER GROW OLD A WORLD THAT OUR, QUEEN MOTHER ; AKASHA WOULD BE PROUD TO BEHOLD. PRAISE BE TO LESTAT MAY AKASHA KEEP HIM FOREVER BY HER SIDE

My Darkest Enemy
We would've been perfect together For some reason you rejected me If only you gave us a chance… How do you think that made me feel? I breathed deep and cried for so long You don't deserve a single tear of my own Still, I can't help myself from loving you Every breath I take is for you Every sigh I make is because of you You're the only who could help me from myself My darkest enemy, my closest friend Be mine

My Daughter
I took my daughter kayla to cdrc in eugene. what fun..LOL.. For those of you that don't knoe kayla is a special needs child! She has mental delays they call them mental retarded. but I totally disagree. ADHD AND NOW ODD..LOL. the appointment went well. They are setting up a ton of new appointments. like a cat scan, ekg, cromison x test, sleep test, speech specialst (another trip to eugene.LOL). gentics testing in portland.. and som many more i can't even think straight, Kayla is having surgery on wenesday. so please say prayers. Thanks for reading this. I'll tell everyone more laters.!!!!!

My Day
I'm not feeling too good tonight. I feel tired, my back hurts, I pulled a muscle in my side, laundry wore me out, work wore me out. At least I got a new job waiting for me in about four weeks. I finally got around to telling everyone that I'm leaving. My "going away" party (if I get one) will be the third one my department throws in a month by the time I leave. (I'll be #3.) But I'm not expecting a party. I just don't want any crying when I'm gone. (by the way... I'm talking about leaving my job. Not this site.)

My Dating Personality
Your dating personality profile: Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart. Your date match profile: Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need. Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship. Traditional - You need someone who is a bit old-fashioned. A person with traditional values and beliefs will perfectly compliment your lifestyle. Your Top Ten Traits 1. Shy 2. Liberal 3. Traditional 4. Big-Hearted 5. Romantic 6. Funny 7. Sensual 8. Adventurous 9. Practica

My Dad Died September 28, 1990
"Every once in a while I would see him smile and it would turn my day around. His loving smile, his gentle face, no one can fill his vacant place" R.I.P Dad Larry D. Havlik born to eternal life 9-28-90 I love you and I miss you.

My Day
today, i stayed home from school. I havent been feeling well, and i am sick. I miss my friends, and i miss all my love. I just wish i didnt have to go into surgury in 3 weeks. plus i have to miss school for a week, then i have to miss school for court, and i really hate all my shittyness pileing up!! *sigh* someone help me please!!

My Daughter And Me
Well summer is over and here is Oct all ready I had a pretty good summer there was one thing missing I have't talk to my daughter for almost for almost 9months now she lives in the same town I do. We had little fight I told her if she could't respect me she could leave my house she lives on her own she 23 and she is a lot like me I was going to stop by where she work and tell her we should have a talk well as mother day came I thought she would call me and she never did I feel that was very wrong of her so I hope she is doing ok I think of her everyday and night she is still my daughter and I love her very much and maybe someday she will grow up she has to realize that she was in the wrong to it just not the other person and that she does make mistakes and that she not perfect Like I said in some ways we are a like put no in other ways we are not she also has to learn not to be so selfish and that family is family and that she should be there for them no matter what I feel blo

My Daughter...
Well we are 7 hours and 45 mins away from Bree's surgery ... We have to be there in the morning at 7... Ya'll wish us luck and keep us in ur prayers... Kisses and Huggs... :) ~♥~South Carolina Baby~♥~

My Dark Prince Of The Night
BR> MY DARK PRINCE OF THE NIGHT a> As I watch the lightning, I see my memories flash before me. I see all the things I've done and all the places I've been. as the thunder roared on I couldn't help but hear his low growly voice, as if he was right behind me. while i close my eyes I hear his words, and can almost feel his touch. how I miss him and long to hear those three little words, for he was the only one who loved me for my mind. I miss those days, the days of fun and freedom. when the lightning flashed bright as day, I saw a figure of a man. he was tall and had a darker soul, a loving and kind soul but dark non the less. as I drift away into a deep slumber, I see him yet again. he slide up by me in my dream, resting his head on my shoulder. i felt he every breath on my neck, & his deep sexy growl in my ear. as he grabbed my waist I could feel him becoming excited and breathing deeper & heavier. while I begin to drift farther into my lust filled slumber he tells me "I L

My Darling Baby Get Better Soon
To my darling wiz, ihope you start to feel better very soon ... i don't like being so far away and u feeling so ill. I hope my love makes you feel stronger xxx xxxxxxxxxxx Get better soon

My Day..
well my day has been going really sucky i couldnt sleep all that great last night and my sister is baby sitting my cousins baby and its crying alot lol umm im bored as hell right now and theres nothing to do im on AIM and no one is talking to me it sucks ass oh wellz well umm buh-bye

My Daughter Savannah Hanging Out With Daddy...
My daughter Savannah, who is five loves to hang out with her daddy and play in my home office while I work. I thought I would snap a few photos and put them up here so you could see one of the many reasons I am always so happy.

My Date Tonight
well i'm back from my date tonight ...i had fun but i miss bill already ...before i left he called and was like "hey sweety" and then he was like "gotta question for ya...are we just dating or are we together" and i told him it was up to him and he said "well i really wanna be with u so lets make it official" ....then i came home earlier from the date cause i got sick but before i left he gave me the best kiss i've ever had and told me he'd call me tomorrow ...he is so sweet ....then i got into the car and shawn, tammy and this guy jamie said "we saw that kiss and it wasn't just a peck" and jamie said "aww how cute he gave u the tongue ...i saw it all" ....but damnnnnnnn can bill kiss oh my god i felt like i was floating in heaven ...when he calls tomorrow i'mma ask him if he wants to do something and if he wants to bring his daughter cause she's really adorable too ........thanks to everyone who wished me good luck...it worked!! lol laterz all

My Daughter
Check out the page for The Real Radio Show on myspace. The #1 fan of the month is Ivania from Puerto Rico. That's my baby. She has been invited as a guest on the show. Mommy is so proud. God Bless her, she's great. She is also the mother of my sweetie pie, Angel. http://www.myspace.com/realradioshow

My Dark Angel
My Dark Angel Sharing laughter and tears My pains and fears With you my Dark Angel. Sharing thoughts from the light Through the darkness of night With you my Dark Angel. Sharing hopes and dreams And mending torn seams With you my Dark Angel. Sharing heartfelt emotions In a friendship of devotion With you my Dark Angel. Sharing no strife But instead of the joys of life With you my Dark Angel. Bequeathing everyday stories Without any glories With you my Dark Angel. You were sent down from above With a heart full of passion and love And you will always be my Dark Angel. Written: 27th March 1999.

My Daughter
Tomorrow my 8 yr old daughter will be having open heart surgery. Ive known since she was 2 that she has had these defects and now its time to fix them. As her mom Im going nuts and I think I lost my mind a few times but I know I have to be strong and help her through this. This is her first major surgery and hopefully her last one for I pray they will fix them for good. I wont be on at all for I will be by my daughters side the whole time. I will try and keep everyone posted on her condtion as much as I can. I just ask that everyone keeps her in their prayers and thoughts. I know she will be just fine!

My Day Off
its my day off and my daughter and i are both sick, this friggin bites ! hopefully the weather and my illness will clear up so i can go do some shopping . my baby is getting way to damn big , lol . but shes still a lot of fun ! love always dee and hannah oxo

My Day....
I sent Fred a package today. And let me tell you it is not cheap to send a 5 pound package to Japan. it cost $115. It should be there Monday. I put a surprise in there too. But I cant say what it is because he reads these. But he will love it. I miss him soo much right now. I am going crazy sitting here with these four kids. Thankfully I have my best friend right next door. She took the kids for an hour tonight so I could unwind. The good side to freds new job is the benifits and money. They are so awsome. He works for Toyota. He gets to play with humanoid robots and gets paid for it. How cool is that? Well I think I am going to bed now...Good night all!

My Daughter's ( I Wish You )
My Daughter's ( I Wish You ) I Wish You When You're Lonely I wish You Love When You're Sad I wish You Joy When You're Discouraged I Wish You Hope When You're Spirit Is Low I Wish You Beauty When You Are Troubled I Wish You Peace

My Daughter
my daughet breanna who is 7 has been going through alot on nov 2005 she started having seizures for no good reason. Dr dont why she has them. then she started going into rages and gettin violent so now she has to take antipsyhcotic meds. And she has gained so much weight that i have to get her more clothes. then i had a sleep study done on her cuz i notice she wasnt breathing right at nite. Now she has to have surgery to fix that problem. i hope that she gets better!

My Day...
ive had a bad day... i wake up with a migrane and end up puking my guts out for 14 hours then i go to the doctor and they give me two effing shots in my ass! yeah im still feeling it almost 12 hours later! So i had to pack all my stuff for GA and i cant help thinking im forgetting something... I have to be on the plane at 10am and its now 3:20am yeah its been great. Im at my grandparents house in the cities so i dont have too much traffic in the morning. I wont be on here for a while so people better be sending me love! or ill weep... and then it will be your fault and i duno about you but i wouldnt wanna be responsible for someone else crying.... so if you know whats good for you.. youll say nice things about me while im gone. I promise to give back comment for comment when i return from seeing my wonderful boyfriend! ahh i miss him so much. And then hopfully there will be many pictures! yey! but for now its bedtime. I love you all and god bless!

My Day Went Nothing Like I Planned
Thanks to me being a snooze junkie, my day went nothing like i had planned at all. I planned on waking up around 11 this morning, because well i stayed up all damn night long enough to get the kids off to school at 7 am then i laid back down expecting my check today and i had some errands to run and so forth and so on. Well when the phone rang at 1 this afternoon, I was pissed at myself because i knew i had hit the snooze button a few times eventually just turning the alarm clock off all togehter. These are the times i thank God Kenedi stays up at night but sleeps till noon during the day. I think.... anyhow here was my sleeping daughter in the bed beside me and she was warm and snuggly, I didnt want to wake up, i wanted to sleep all day long and not get up till the boys came home from school but alas i had errands to run and toilet paper to get. We hopped in the car and went and cashed my check making our 1st stop the smoke shop because we had been out of smokes since about 5 thi

My Darling Husband
Dear John, I am sending you this letter in a bogus software company envelope so that you will be sure to read it. Please forgive the deception, but I thought you should know what has been going on at home since your IBM computer entered our lives two years ago. The children are doing well. Tommy is 7 now and is a bright, handsome boy. He has developed quite an interest in the arts. He drew a family portrait for a school project. All the figures were good, but yours was excellent! The chair and the back of your head are very realistic. You would be proud of him. Little Jennifer turned 3 in September. She looks a lot like you did at that age. She is an attractive child and quite smart. She still remembers that you spent the whole afternoon with us on her birthday. What a grand day for Jen, despite the fact that it was stormy and the electricity was out. I am also doing well. I went blonde about a year ago and was delighted to discover that it really is more fun. Lars--I mean

My Daughter Continued
i just found out on 11/28/06 my daughter has too have surgery to remove her tonsils and adnoids so she can breathe at nite. She was cryin and she begged me to have her dad here with her when its time for it. He iz in Ohio and i dont have much money due to her other problems i keep losing my jobs. Its been a tough year 4 here first seizures then bipolar and now breathing problems. Im tryin to find the money to bring him down 4 her so if anyone knows of away to help me pleaze let me know!!

My Dark Thoughts....
Though we are but lost souls, the vacuum of our emptiness draws us together over the void of time and space. Death may claim us in the end, but it's victory will be a hollow one. For those of our kind know that we are born alone, die alone, and in between the womb and the grave we have learned to embrace loneliness rather than fear it. Therefore, we fear not the grim Reaper and are prepared to return once more.... Let me also address false Gods and false hope. Such as technology; although not truly a religion it holds to alot of the same tenants as those would be saviours of mankind. It (like any religion) is sound and pure in it's infantile idea stage. While it is still being nurtured by our imaginations and bound to our souls. However, once life is breathed into that infantile idea (and it's direction is guided by such concepts as morality, self-loathing, and contempt...) it becomes rigid and unyeilding. Ultimatly it will do mre harm than good. With judeo-christianity come

My Daughter
TODAY, I WENT TO PICK UP MY DAUGHTER FROM MARCHING BAND PRACTICE. I WENT TO HUG HER AND SHE TURN AND WALKED AWAY. MY HEART................................................................................................... I CANT EXPLAIN. I FEEL LIKE ON THAT ONE EPISODE OF THE SIMPSONS WHEN BART FELL FOR THAT OLDER CHICK PLAYED BY THE CHICK FROM THE ROSEANNE SHOW... OK, I WENT ON A TANGENT..... ANYWAY THAT EPISODE BART TOLD HER HE LIKED HER, SHE SAID SHE DIDNT LIKE HIM. IN HIS MIND AND ON THE SHOW..SHE RIPPED HIS HEART OUT AND TOSSED IT IN THE TRASH..... OK THAT IS HOW I FEEL. WORSE I HAVE HAD RELATIONSHIPS THAT WENT SOUR. I HAVE HAD SOME CHEAT ON ME. BUT SOMEWAY;; SOMEHOW I STOOD BACK UP AND KEPT MY HEAD UP. BUT THIS RIGHT HERE........MY HEART IS SO HEAVY...MY EYES ARE SO BAGGY.... I AM AT A LOST FOR WORDS...... I AM WEAK.VUNERABLE.EXPOSED I AM NOTHING...... MY DAUGHTER MY FIRST BORN MY ONLY DAUGHTER MY BABY GIRL I AM HURT I LIVE FOR MY KIDS I BREAT

My Dadz N Da Hospital!
my dad iz in the hospital and in CCU(Critical Care Unit) they have him on a ventalator cuz he cant breathe on hiz own! they dont know xactly wutz wrong with him yet.....they say he iz in crital conditon but doing ok but until i c him i wont believe it ya know what i mean ? newayz um b4 my dads almost died twice cuz of thingz so i am kinda scared everytime he getz admitted into the hospital so can ya all keep my dad ronnie in ur prayerz? thank you sabbycat

My Daughter Pt 3
We have been going through alot in the last yr we have lost out home due to my daughter having all these problems i keep losing jobs. So now we are living with my parents which sux. Tryin hard to get money up to get a place cuz rite now me and my kids share a bed. To all that do not know me here is what is wrong with my daughter she has seizures, bipolar, and sleep apnia. She is only 7 and she has gained so much weight and i cant even afford to buy her clothes! I'm just so frustrated with everything that iz happing to her.A few mths ago she wuz going into these rages and wuz screaming at me all the time and thats not my girl at all. So they had to put her on antipsychotic meds. to keep her calm! When she has siezures i cry i feel soo bad 4 my girl! We are tryin to put together a benifit to raise money for us to have a family home for x-mas if u have any ideas let me know!!All i am asking is that u keep us in ur prayers so maybe i can get blessed because rite now im feelin cursed.ples

My Dad Called Me A.....
Hay check this out beleave it or not it's up to you. http://healing.about.com/od/empathic/a/empathessential.htm Every had this before? They paged me on the dot.. even with the word I have use to the "T".

My Daddy
Hey everyone just wanted to ask a lil favor from you all...my father is in the hospital for the millionth tyme dealing with his heart i dont know if theres anything the hospital can do for his hes had countless bypasses includeing a quadruple bypass...and now hes back in the hospital with chest pain...we dont kow if hell make it through the night so if you guys dont mind please keep him in your thoughts and prayers id really appreciate it Love all you guys Tabbie

My Daughter Pt4
YESTURDAY WAS A BAD DAY MY DAUGHTER TOTALLY FLIPPED OUT ON MY SON WHEN THEY WERE WALKIN HOME AND SHE PUT HER SELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD AND SAT DOWN. MY SON HAD TO CALL ME CUZ HE TRIED TO MAKE HER COME HOME SO I HAD TO GO PICK HER UP TO MAKE HER COME HOME. SHE IS ALSO ACTING OUT AND DOING STUFF OVER AND OVER AGAIN ITS FRUSTRATING TO SEE YOUR CHILD GO THROUGH SOO MUCH! TODAY SHE HAD TO STAY HOME FROM SKOOL CUZ SHE CANT STAY AWAKE DUE TO HER NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATHE AT NITE. I JUST DONT KNOW WUT HER FUTURE IZ GOING TO BE.

My Daughter
Alayna Diane was born March 15, 2004. I didnt find out of her birth till she was a month old, So I asked for a DNA, a month later it come's back of her being mine. I only had 2 simple request's!! All I wanted is for Alayna to have my last name and tha right to see her. I've done everything her mother want's me to do but yet she still refuse's to let me see her. In 2 year's I've seen my daughter 10 time's and that was only because she happened to be in a store or at a carnival that I was at. It kill's me inside to know that I have a child that I cant see, hold, read a bed time story to and kiss goodnight. Court's refuse to help me cuz I dont have a lawyer. That shit shouldnt matter. I'm her Father I have right's to her to, yet if I dont pay support I go to jail but it's alright for her mother to hide and keep her from me. I pay support every week, I've begged tha court's to help me only to be refused. Her mother is married to a damn Convicted Child Molester and tha court's say it

My Daughter
let me tell you about my daughter. she is 14 and lives with her dad in another city. just bc she isn't here with me physically, don't mean i don't think about her and her older brother daily. she was and still is one of the biggest lights in my life. she is a freshman in high school. From the day, she was born she has been a unique human being. she can be such a jerk one moment and so loving the next. her dad and i chose to divoce when she was 7. that is now coming back to bite me in the ass. I haven't spoken to her since 6-17-2006 for any great lengths. you have to understand this young woman and i used to be so close. buildabear days, Csi watching days, craft days, cooking days, reading days we did them all. sometimes all in the same day. she is in counseling to deal with her anger/depression management. i got a call last nite regarding her and her life. she was a cutter/SI. she mentioned to me recently that she is cutting again in one of the oh so brief calls. I wi

My Daughter Talks
Well today 11/5/06..she is beside me while I am on CherryTap. We went to Hampton, VA for a marching band contest. She plays the clarinet. she is in the marching band and yesterday i went but didnt bother her but only when she spoke to me , so i wouldnt embarrass her. It worked, we sat on different buses and it was cool. She only talked to me when she needed money. Well i will take one day at a time....lol

My Daughter Pt 5
The dr put her on a new med hoping that it will not make her act so drugged up. And not make her eat so much. Cus she has gained 9lbs since she was put on it. she hardly has any clothes to fit her and i dont have the money to buy anymore. Im so frustrated with all the things that are happin to my baby. I had to keep her home from school today cuz i just started the new meds on her last night. And she wet the bed last night in her sleep probally another small seizure. and she was too tired to wake up today. Im tryin to get her father down here to help me take care of her and i cant get a job every interview i go to i dont get hired. Maybe its god way of sayin to me that i need to stay home with her. I have an ssi application on her which wuz denied so i appealed it. But no word and i need to get a home soo bad!!!!! Livin with parents is terrible in this small trailer plus my dad iz a constent asshole and talks 2 me like shit. He like have an abusive husband that u wanna take him out i

My Darker Side (preview Of My Adult Writings)
"You are helpless. In a very real sense, you are my prisoner." The words echo in your ears, your sight is gone, something is covering your eyes. You try in vain to reach down and uncover them, a clinking of chains and cold metallic pressure on your wrists the only fruit of your efforts. You try and respond, the words won't come out. Something hard and smooth is pressed between your lips, tied around the back of your head. You try to shuffle your feet, again the cold metallic clink answers as you find your legs spread underneath you. Your standing, your ankles are tied with your legs spread, your arms tied over your head. Helpless, you sag against your bonds, trying to speak through your gag. "None of that, babe...you will be silent" the mocking voice responds. You try again to reason, and a sharp burning pain spreads across your ass as thin lines of heat appear. A sharp crack makes you think of a whip, one with many strands. A cool breeze blows across your skin, letting you feel yo

My Daughter's Big Day In Drama Club
Tonight is my daughter, Cait's opening night for her first play in Drama Club at her HS...she is in 9th grade...I am so proud of her..only sad thing is I won't be able to be at her first Show...:( (Crying now) Waaaahhhhh!!!!! The play is "Wind in the Willows"..you know that old british story with Mr. Toad...all the kids have to act with english accents..My daughter does an Awesome "Arry Potter" LMAO Sry that was a bad accent on my part...LOL Anyways, just wanted to share this all with you...Cause I'm a Proud Momma..hehehehe Have a Great Day!

My Daddy My Hero My Best Friend
poem to daddy Love Poem #250581 My Daddy, MY Hero, My Best Friend by Jessica Sedor He's my daddy, my hero, he's my best friend. I'm scared to death to lose him again. I love him so much words can't explain, he might think he knows how much i love him, but he has no idea. No matter what my mood, to my face he brings me smiles. If ever he needs me, i'll always be there. I've shed many tears over him throughout the years,but now that he's here he wipes them away. Every night as I lay in my bed I count up all the times he's told me he loves me that day. Without him I'm nothing, he makes me whole. I love him more than anything, he's the greates man on earth. He's my Daddy, my hero my best friend. Notes From The Author: You may e-mail me with any comments about my poetry. --> S: feedback --> I love you Daddy by your babydoll, Jessica Lynn Sedor

My Daddy The Man Of My Life
YA'LL PLEASE PRAY FOR MY DADDY HES GOING TO REHAB IN THE MORNING....MY FABUOLUS BDAY PERSENT FOR ME ...I LOVE MY DADDY WITH ALL MY HEART YA'LL JUST DONT KNOW...IM STILL THAT 5 YEAR OLD LITTLE GIRL IN MY DADDDYS HEART...HES GOING IN FOR METH AND COCANE ...HERES A SONG MY DADDY USE TO SING TO ME WHEN I WAS LITTLE AND I WANNA SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS Music Video:WHY NOT ME (by The Judds)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone

My Day Today
So Today I Had A Pretty Weird Day...I Got Up...And Went To The Gym And Did A Body Pump Class Which Felt Amazing After My Nice Warm Shower...Then I Learned How To Make Sushi...I Love Sushi:P And After That I Went Out On A Date For Diner...And I Bought Fuzzy Dice For My Boss For The Staff Christmas Party Tomorrow...I Bought Him The Dice To Go In His Hot Red Hard Top Convertable Lexus!!! I Love That Car :P

My Day
think of this...day off. happy i am. made a new friend. good coffee. good weed. so now, my computer (and oddly my boyfriend) both have some kind of bug. hey, i am new to this cyber world, i still listen to vinyl! why would a window (i.e "my space") close when you try to log in? PLEASE HELP TEACH THE TECH CHALLENGED!!!

My Daughter's Surgery
WELL ITS NEXT TUESDAY IS THE DAY SHE GOES IN SO ITS GETTIN CLOSER AND IM GETTIN MORE NERVOUS. I WHISH HER DAD WAS HERE HE CALMS ME DOWN CUZ HE IS AND ALLWAYS WILL BE MY BEST FRIEND! WE BROKE UP 4YRS AGO OVER SOME DUMB SHIT CUZ HIS BEST FRIEND NEVER LIKED ME AND HE STARTED A BUNCH OF SHIT. ANYWAYS ME AND P HAVE THIS WEIRD DESTINY THING GOIN I SWEAR ITS STRANGE. OK LAST YR WHEN MY DAUGHTER HAD THE FIRST GRAND MAL SEIZURE ON THANKSGIVING NITE I HAD JUST GOTTEN OFF THE PHONE WITH P AND WE HADNT TALKED IN FOUR YRS HE JUST HAPPENED TO SEND ME A LETTER IN THE MAIL AND I GOT IT THE DAY THAT CHANGED MY DAUGHTER AND MY LIFE WEIRD HUN. SO WE ARE GETTIN BACK TOGETHER BUT HES IN OHIO AND IM IN FLORIDA BUT WE IS TRYIN TO GET A HOME HERE WHERE I AM. I HAD TO TELL MY DAUGHTER THAT ON THIS FRIDAY SHE HAS TO GET HER BLOOD TAKEN FOR THE SURGERY. AND SHE IS FLIPPIN OUT THIS IS SO HARD TO DO ALONE. IM GONNA HAVE TO FIGHT WITH HER OVER THE FREAKIN BLOOD TEST AND SHE PUTS UP A GOOD FIGHT AND IM SO NOT LOOKIN

My Day....
work sucked....it was slow as hell. I talked to a good freind for a while..he helped me see that something wasn't right so I talked to somoneelse too...I got hit by a car in the courthouse parking lot....yeah so as I said...my day sucked

My Date Of Death
Tim Location of Death: Tewksbury, MA Date of Death: 11/23/2026 1:08:57 AM Last Person Called: Sung Last Number Dialed: 911 Autoposy Performed: None Performed Date of Autoposy: N/A Cause of Death: Food poisoning See your own death. Or Try this Awsome Game

My Daughter
I have not seen my daughter who is 10 years old now for 2 years as we had some problems with her. I have been on a site my sister goes on and my daughter has been posting on there and say's I am a fat hippo and that she never wants to see me again. I am dead to her and she wants nothing to do with me, what do I do??? I feel like killing her father right now I really do I hate him so much.

My Day Off
its kinda nice to have a day off in the middle of the week, it almost fells like the weekend but then reality hit me and i relize that i still have to work tomorrow. I dont think i would hate it so much if i didnt have to deal with old people all day. who knows maybe i just dont like people in general. i never really know or maybe i dont like working. i wish that i could be rich so that i didnt have to work. or i could just marry a 94 year old millionair. he would have to be on his death bed tho, or else i couldnt do it.

My Dad.......rip
Dad. Words are few, thoughts are deep memories of you we will keep In tears we saw you suffer we watched you fade away our hearts were almost broken you fought so hard to stay But when we saw you sleeping so peaceful free from pain we could not wish you back to suffer once again We sat beside your bedside our hearts were crushed and sore we did our duty till the end till we could do no more Your presence we miss your memory we treasure loving you always forgetting you never Sad are the hearts that love you silently tears will fall living our lives without you is the saddest part of all Our family chain is broken nothing feels the same but as god takes us one by one our chain will link again. In loving memory of Keith Haywood 1929 - 2005

My Dark Side
If you are under 18. Sensitive to matters of a sexual nature. Or a personal acquaintance of mine - please don't read any further!! The best sex I have had in my life was with a lady called Jenny. She was petite, and a good athlete. We had a relationship that on and off last about 5 years. However all the best stuff was encompassed in a 2 to 3 year period in the late 1980's early 90's The games we played. Are you interested in finding out more? Dressing up. BDSM. She WAS an anal virgin, but in the end she would beg me to 'do her'. One day she went out and bought me a present - a riding crop! I used it on her regularly (at her request). She would suck and swallow without complaint. She had multiply orgasms and some times was so drained after sex that she was so good for anything for ages. (I am not taking the credit for that)!! We sex in all sorts of places. The best I think was on a large boulder in the midddle of a stream above Calendar in Scotand, in a fairly

My Daddy's Hands
I Remember Daddy's Hands Folded silently in prayer, And reaching out to hold me, When I had a nightmare. You could read quite a story, In the callouses and lines, Years of work and worry, Had left their mark behind. I remember Daddy's hands, How they held my Mother tight, And patted my back, For something done right, There are things that I've forgotten, That I learned about that man, But I'll always remember The love in Daddy's hands. Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was crying Daddy's hands were hard as steel when I'd done wrong, Daddy's hands weren't always gentle, But I've come to understand, There was always love in Daddy's hands. I remember Daddy's hands, Working till they bled, Sacrificed unselfishly, Just to keep us all fed, If I could do things over, I'd live my life again, And never take for granted, The Love in Daddy's hands.

My Day Was The Worst...
OK here it is the most horrible day of my life so far... I went to work this morning and when I got done and walked outside my car wasn't there... So I went to our security at work and we went over hte tapes and someone stole my car around 3 hours after I got to work... The I had to sit at work for 3 1/2 hours waiting for th cops... Not to mention that I have a few christmas gifts in my trunk... So thats how it started then after I got home my monitor died on me so I had to take my sons monitor... My day is just getting worse and worse... But I want to say thank you to my husband because I dont think I could've made it thru today without him... He keeps telling me everything will be ok and I know that it will but I have to get over the devisation of losing my car cause it was the last thing my father bought for me before he died 2 years ago, he bought it for me like 2 months before he died so that I could take him back and fourth to the doctors and the hospital and now i lost him and m

My Day
OOOOO I just hate it when Kristi posts another blog...cuz then what do i feel like doing? Yup you got it! I need to come and write one myself...she just seems to get me in the writing mood! I went to see my man today, got to get my whole hour in this week...and most of the time we dont even get that. I get there a little early cuz i hate being there at exactly the time we have to go in for visit and figured that if I am a little early then they will leave me in to sign in and all that good shit. I get there, ring the buzzer and they let me in. Im standing there waiting and they tell me that I have 6 minutes yet and to go outside and wait. Ok so im pissed, once again I am not gonna get the whole hour. I stand out there and wait and the probation department shows up with a new inmate, so that means that I have to wait more cuz they have to get her in there and situated. Such bullshit! So finally after about 12 minutes of waiting they let us in...me and another lady...but beforehand ther

My Dark Love
My dark love. How you hurt me in so many different ways Why do I love you but that love I have for you its turning into hate. I really do love him but he doesnt care about my feeling. He has no heart. If you he really had a heart. He would know how much I love him. My Dark Love. Why do you treat me so bad? I know that he has good inside. I can feel it. My heart is slowly filling up with hate. He is the angel of death. He comes in my room to do one thing that is to suck my blood dry. My dark love. I told him that I am an angel from Heaven sent down to watch over you. You will never be human again but I can show you a path that you have to take if you want to be free from your demons. Your soul can rest in peace if you want to change. God see what you have been doing. You soled your soul to the devil. Just to become a vampire. But why? I sold my soul but I just want see if be a vampire is better than being a human. My dark Love. I am sorry

My Day So Far...
Well first off... My oatmeal exploded in the microwave... We all knoe what fun that is... Little pookie (the nice cat) Scratched me...ouch Big pookie (the mean cat) Puked...eww I got bored and decided to gloss my hair... (Like I said...bored) When I went to wash my hands... Little pookies cut burned... Still burns...oww Now I'm making a blog about my oh so boringful morning... Ehh... Atleast I get to see my baby today

My Daughter's Best Friend
My 13 year old daughter came home from school everyday with her best friend Jennifer. Jennifer was a couple of years older than my daughter but to my surprise was a virgin. She had a boyfriend but spent very little time with him due to the fact that he lived two counties away. Jennifer was an absolutely drop-dead gorgeous girl and I could not figure out why she was a virgin for she talked about sex a lot. One particular day Jennifer came by the house with my daugher after school just like she always did and completely blew me away. She was short, only about 4'10 only wieghed a handful of pounds. She was incredibly skinny and had waist length red hair and just the cutest little ass you ever saw. She was dressed in a tight pair of jeans that showed every curve of her ass and she knew how to work it. Her perky little nipples stuck out of her equally tight pink teeshirt. She approached me in the kitchen as my daughter went into the bathroom take a shower. "Mr. Johnson," she said with

My Day, And Dream.
I'm excited, I start school tommorrow and my birthday is the next day. :) Today the roads have iced us in, can't go no where and my husband has to go to work around 2pm so hopefully it will happen. If not, I get my hubby all to myself again!...its like 17*F outside. I had a weird dream last night about marrying Apu [from the simpsons] and i left my algebra class to go to the bathroom, and ended up by my house, trying to catch the bus to make it back to my algebra room. never made it there. Then i was sexually assulted by some guy trying to steal something from the Queen of england, and Karl was wearing shorts white tights and a cream coloed sneakers. lol. weird huh.

My Daddy's Serman.. Its Been A Month Since Hes Passed
A Faithful sheperd is my lord In the name of jesus, dear family and friends of our voctorious brother in christ , Dale: Jesus says to us, " i am the good chepherd" his sheep follow him because they know his voice. Dale is one of the lords sheep. in the hour of trial the faithful christian knows where to go-- to the good shepherd- to this words of comfort and hope. The lord knows his sheep.. the sheep know their lord. Dale is one of those sheep.. he was born on August 1, 1958, here in sheboyan, Dale was a life long member of bethlehem and in the past served his lord as an usher. He had been emplayed at the THonet furniture. richardsons brothers, maslund. and lear.. HE enjoyed playin darts. and in later years playing cribbage with his father , joe. and brother steve. To be sure dale was a lovin son, and brother, and father. and he truly did love the life that god gave him. Meeting with his family yesterday, i certainly learned things that dale never shared with me w

My Day
I love school. It's crazy, pretty tough, but interesting.... Lisa Jobes did a DARE graduation today, and I attended it. It was really cool. I had never seen one... and Tash LOVED it... she went with me... i took some pictures while i was there... i may post them. it was a cool deal.... But she is my teacher in two classes... so I got extra credit for going since i had never seen one... it was cool. And scott is being amazing still!!! he is SOOOO sweet, and soooo crazy awesome!!! KISSES BABY!!! Other than that, not alot going on... just, hanging out... goin to class... that sorta stuff... nothing else new to report!!

My Dad Again And Randomnesss
Well as I said in my No idea one, I talk about my dad alot. Well just because he's one of those things that make me angry. (did I even spell that right?) anyways. He isn't the most postive person ever. In fact I'll say he is the opposite. My dad I guess since he grew up in a miltary way of life he carried that over to parenting. And since he was a Drill sgt. He loved to boss me around. I remember one time he woke me up at 2 in the morning on a school night (I was 8) to tell me that I had left my doll house a bit open. Anal really. But anyways. To be honest I can't remember his favorite colors in order for the life of me. That's okay because he keeps thinking my favorite color is yellow. My favorite colors are Green, White, Black, Orange,pink and red in that order. I dont' really like yellow. Anyways back to the subject that's just to give you a lil background about my dad...whoever you are. Okay love you all much

My Day
GALLERY BY MARIO VASQUEZ TO CLIPS FROM PHANTOM OF THE OPERA "JUGGALO FAMILY" BY DARK LOTUS (THE VIDEO DOESNT MATCH UP TO THE LYRICS...AT ALL) well the good news: my cousin dannette and her husband brian had a baby, maddox. he's so small! i just got the pics my mom forwarded me on my email. in other shit, i officially hate life. i just dont care anymore. i dont care about the people who care for me (friends, admirers, family). i've hit a point where everything hurts but even tho my heart hurts, my mind doesnt give a fuck. i know guys SHOULDNT fall for me, i hurt them. i hurt everyone i know either intentionally or unintentionally cuz when i get doubts about something it seems to hurt someone. people dont deserve that...no matter wat ppl say, i wont make you happy later in life, i could but at wat cost? will it cost me my happiness and make you wonder why i dont smile anymore? i dont want more questions or doubts or wondering. i wish i could die. i wish peo

My Day
I got 'em in my sight Aimin' right between his eyes fiending for the sight of blood squirting when the bullets fly decapatatin' muthafucker with that heavy ammo posted up on rooftop dressed in black latetes and camo a crazy insane sniper with an appitite for that crimson tirents arteries or introduce the light and no, i cannot cope' unless i see it in my scope fallen to your knees and that red mist leaves ur throat

My Date
Well for a few months now this guy i know had been asking me constantly to go out with him and the other week i eventually took a risk and said yes. It was so amazing. We went tothis place where it overlooks the ocean and it was so beautiful just sitting in the car with each other talking. When i first met him i thought he was a dick but then i really got to know him and i found him to be special. Gorgeous and just my type. He sang to me and im listening to that song right now its kinda making me sad lol.And then we made out lol felt really nice. So anyway we decided to go to another place and we ended up going to this private beach where the wealthy live. And we had sex lol and i cant stop thinking about it. He hasnt called me since and im really depressed cause he said he wanted to get closer.It sucks cause im too scared to call him to find out how he feels.

My Daughter
MY DAUGHTER IS 11 AND JUST STARTED BOWLING ON A LEAGUE,SHE HAS ONLY BOWLED MAYBE 5 TIMES HER WHOLE LIFE TILL THIS LEAGUE.IT STARTED 3 WEEKS AGO,WELL TODAY SHE HAD 6 STRIKES AND BOWLED A 145 HER FIRST GAME I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER.I HOPE SHE KEEPS UP THE GOOD WORK,BUT IF NOT THATS OK TOO JST WANT HER TO HAVE FUN.

My Dad And My Son......
how do i tell my 8 year old that his grandpa has terminal cancer with only a few months to a year or so left? they are the best of buddies and do everything together. I know im lost and numb and what not. Im dadys little girl and i know how hard it is on me right now but my son isnt talking about any of this so i dont know how he is feeling or what he is thinking.....

My Darkness
my soul weeps in solace my numb heart rejected finding solitude only in the desolate oasis within my beloved nomads land basking in delicious agony crimson comfort seeping through my flesh once again as i scream unshed tears threaten to break through the enigmatic cloak i show to hide my evident fear of lonliness my very essence appearing to dwindle in the great nothingness of my demise as my fading happiness ebbs and weakens the eclips of my heart forces my sorrowful entity to coo a sweet forlorn lament for my decaying spirit

My Day
my day was cool i went to my moms house today spent some time with my siblings and my neices and then i set back and chilled with my sister i spent most of my day with her didnt get home till about 9 and god it was freaking freezing out it was 12 below and my sister in laws van window decided to come off tract on middle of the high way couldnt fix it so lets say going about 65 mph with the window down and it 12 below can i say it was a ungratfuly cold ride home i was frozen so iwent to take boiling hott bath to warm me up and i ended up crashing out and now here i set bored as hell and everyone is sleeping lol

My 30 Day Notice
Well...if most have noticed I havn't been online recently. My last entry was that I was kicked out for 2 days...well..that moved up to a week of not being welcome back home. I finally convinved this women to let me come home..and was agreed I could. But only on that condition that it is temp. and I have to move out in 30 days or less. the Story of how it all happend...... I moved back in with my mother...when I was living in Georgia I had bank accounts, credit cards..but all was canceld when I left ( no use carrying em around if not in Ga. right?)..soooo when I cam back home my mother was adding me to her account plan so that I could use a credit card again. Till then me and my brother worked out an agreement on his card..since his card was linked to his account. He told me the day when it all had to be paid and said I could use it as long as I paid it on the due date. After I put a few charges on there...my mother goes online to check activity (why she sticks her nose in this bu

My Day ... Not Good
I know, complaining is NOT a good way to start a new blog, but when a girl's got to vent, a girl's got to vent. The crap with my neighbor was just the beginning. My kids were actually dressed and ready to leave the house by the time I got the van cleared off - so I thought today was going to turn around. I ended up getting stuck at the end of my driveway in all that yucky stuff the plow leaves (we live on a rather busy road here and they clear it often). I tried to dig myself out, but no luck. I ended up walking the kids to school, bundling them up as much as I could since we had a zero degree temp this morning (we're a 1/2 mile from their school). We're almost to the school when my brother-in-law passes me in his van. He didn't slow down, just waved and went on home. I have two shivering children (I was pretty chilly by then too) and the buttwipe just drives on past. I refuse to do anything for them anymore. I pick up their kid from school when they need me to.

My Daughter *babygirl*
Our first years together were fun and play Never a worry, Making memories each day! We were best friends or "sisters" in our own little world! You were my angel from heaven, my precious little girl! A gift from God and I've loved you so With a love so strong only a mother would know I've tasted salt when you've shed tears My life's been your life all through the years! Life's about changes, nothing stays the same Together we've stood to face whatever came! We've fought the battle, we've won the war The "proof" is in the person you are! It was "just us two" for oh so long "Don't worry be happy" was our theme song! We've made it through times I didn't think we would We've accomplished things I never dreamed we could! Now as you've taken your own path, your own direction you go You'll make it just fine, that "proof" will show! I'll still be here for you through tears or laughter Today, Tomorrow, and Forever After!

My Dad
My Daddy the Dancer... > > > > > > One day a fourth-grade teacher asked the children what their > > > fathers did for a living. All the typical answers came up -- fireman, > > > mechanic, businessman, salesman, doctor, lawyer, and so forth. > > > > > > > > > > > > However, little Justin was being uncharacteristically quiet, so > > > when the teacher prodded him about his father, he replied, "My father's > > > an exotic dancer in a gay cabaret and takes off all his clothes in front > > > of other men and they put money in his underwear. Sometimes, if the > > > offer is really good, he will go home with some guy and stay with him > > > all night for money." The teacher, obviously shaken by this statement, > > > hurriedly set the other children to work on some exercises and then took > > > little Justin aside to ask him, "Is that really true about your father?" > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > "No," the boy said, "He works for the Democratic National > > > Comm

My Day
In no particular order: Got thanked for averting small disasters. Watched a lot of "Angel". Bought a gift that merited a, "You DO listen!". That might sound mean, but it's a genuine compliment. Was so happy not to be at work. Devoured half a large bag of potato rounds. Took out a LOT of trash. Got mad because I cannot find a lot of my recently printed pictures. Deposited my first of six returns, bonuses, and refunds that are on the way. Dared to go back to the world of mascara... not doing too well I'm afraid. Bought a few "Happy Job Quitting Day" gifts. Practical things like toilet paper and mouthwash. Mourned my messy bedroom that I cannot seem to clean up. Tried to talk myself into taking the deposit recycles in... and failed again.

My Daddy The Dancer
My Daddy the Dancer One day a fourth-grade teacher asked the children what their fathers did for a living. All the typical answers came up--- fireman, mechanic, businessman, salesman, doctor, lawyer, and so forth. However, little Justin was being uncharacteristically quiet, so when the teacher prodded him about his father's work, he replied, "My father's an exotic dancer in a gay cabaret and takes off all his clothes in front of other men and they put money in his underwear. Sometimes, if the offer is real good, he will go home with some guy and stay with him all night for money." The teacher, obviously shaken by this statement, hurriedly set the other children to work on some exercises and then took little Justin aside to ask him, "Is that really true about your father?" "No," the boy said, " He works for the Democratic Nat'l Committee and is helping to get Hillary Clinton to be our next President, but I was too embarrassed to say that in front of the other kids." T

My Dad In College
My dear old dad. I know, I know, you've heard quite a few. Trust me when I tell you with my dad there are always stories just waiting to be told. Before you read this, I should warn you. There's doodoo in it. I know y'all remember how I said my dad's stories start one of two ways "Well, I was bored..." or "Well I got to drinkin'...." This is the latter. Anyways, my father went to college. He was forbidden to live on campus after his first year (more on that later), so they moved into an old house. One night, his friend Petit went to sleep early while the rest of them stayed up drinking. Late that evening my dad gets bored (he was already drunk), so he tells his roommates, "I'munago over and sh*t in that corner." "Nuh uh!" They respond. Note to YOURself: Never tell Venus's father he won't do something, because he'll be hellbent on proving you wrong. My father takes a sack, goes to the corner, and proceeds to empty his colon. "You sh*tting?" His friend asks. "Uh, yeah."

My Daughter Turned 16
OMG! It finally happened, my oldest turned 16 on February 16th............I guess I thought if I ignored it a bit, it would go away, LOL.........WRONG!! Now she is going to be driving herself around, to school, swim practice, work, etc................. I am seriously going to have "empty nest" syndrome before I know it.............

My Daughter (tionna)
Heaven's Very Special Child A meeting was held quite far from earth "It's time again for another birth," Said the Angels to the Lord above, "This special child will need much love." Her progress may seem very slow, Accomplishments she may not show And she'll require extra care From the folks she meets way down there. She may not run or laugh or play Her thoughts may seem quite far away In many ways she won't adapt, And she'll be known as handicapped. So let's be careful where she's sent We want her life to be content Please, Lord find the parents who Will do a special job for You. They will not realize right away The leading role they're asked to play But with this child sent from above Comes stronger faith and richer love. And soon they'll know the privilege given In caring for this gift from Heaven. Their precious charge so meek and mild Is Heaven's very special child.

My Daugther
Thursday morning I thought I would get some housework and my homework done as I was out of school but unknown to me things were going on at the High school. I received a phone call fro mthe consler and she informed me of a letter my daughter had written. She tlaked about running away and killing herself. I know my daughter so I wasn't to worried but once i hung up the phone the social worker came a knocking. She threathened me that if I didn't put her in a hospital she woudl take ALL my kids away from me. I did it becasue I love my kids and I don't want them takign away. We got lost tryign to fidn the damn hospital and then once we foudn it it took a whiel to find a parkign spot. Once inside we went ot emergency as that is where the social worker todl us to go. We sat in a room for 4 and half hours. No food or bathroom. They told me they were going to keep her over night. Well overnight turned into all weekend. Once I got home that night I went straight to bed. The next mo

My Daddy The Dancer
My Daddy the Dancer One day a fourth-grade teacher asked the children what their fathers did for a living. All the typical answers came up -- fireman, mechanic, businessman, salesman, doctor, lawyer, and so forth. However, little Justin was being uncharacteristically quiet, so when the teacher prodded him about his father, he replied, "My father's an exotic dancer in a gay cabaret and takes off all his clothes in front of other men and they put money in his underwear. Sometimes, if the offer is really good,he will go home with some guy and stay with him all night for money." The teacher, obviously shaken by this statement, hurriedly set the other children to work on some exercises and then took little Justin aside to ask him, "Is that really true about your father?" "No," the boy said, "He works for the Democratic National Committee and is helping to get Hillary Clinton to be our next President, but I was too em barrassed to say that in front of the other kids." -------

My Day, Thus Far....
everything's running smoothly in it's own way. i'm bummed. i'm having pains. doing pushups to stay awake. listening to dumbasses from two media's(he he). g.f.'s being an a.w. i'm tired of living a lie. tired of lying to myself, saying i'm happy. knowing i can never really be. if i ever am, i usually pay with a cataclysmic upset. why lie. for a sense of false hope. you know... the usual. yep... smooth as silk.

My Daily Prayer
My Daily Prayer 'Oh Lord' Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. The courage to change the things I cannot accept, And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those People I had to kill today that pissed me off !! AMEN

My Daugther
I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT 1)SHE IS HOLDEN HER OWN 2)THE DRS, SAID SHE IS NOT DUE TILL THE 18TH OF MARCH, BUT AS IT LOOKS NOW THE BABY WILL BE TAKEN BY C-SECTION ON THE 9TH OF MARCH,DO TO HER HEALTH AND TO MAKE SURE THE BABY REMAINS HEALTHY. 3)WE KNOW IT IS A BOY RIGHT NOW 8 LBS AND 1 OZ. THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND PLEASE KEEP HER IN THEM SHE WILL STILL HAVE A LONG FIGHT AFTER THE BABY GETS HERE WITH THE CANCER . YOU GUYS AND GALS ARE THE BEST

My Daughter And Dominos.com
My Daughter Laurelyns song Wild Ride is on the top under Race Day Riffs at Dominos.com Please Give her a listen and let us know what ya think!!! The Link Below http://www.dominos.com/home/dtPlayer.jsp

My Daughters Car
My little girl is about to get her first new car. I'm scared to death, I know she will wreck it. I just hope she is smart enough not to drink and drive. Because if she does she won't drive again until she is 30.

My Days Off Work
You know, you would think I would be able to sleep in these next couple days... hahaha! yEAH rIGHT!:p Not with my son around... :P I sleep whenever I can lately... Early to bed early to rise I guess you could say!:P I miss my sleep-in days... maybe I should take him for a night with grandma and grandpa!:P There's a thought!:P That's all for now!:D

My Dad Is A Trip.
So, I am hanging out on CT, listening to the playlist from my iPod, and I hear a song that triggers a memory. The song is Fat Bottom Girls by Queen. The memory goes a little like this. He and I are in the car, driving somewhere. I'm in my late teens, and a bit of a smart ass (oh how things change right?). The aforementioned song comes on the radio. Dad:"Ah, What a song." Me:"It's an old one." Dad:"Yeah, but I always get a kick out of hearing Freddie Mercury, an infamous homosexual, sing about big women." Me:*with an overt aire of sarcasm* "You mean Freddie Mercury was GAY?!?!?" Dad:*With a broken sarcasm detector*"Oh yeah! He was Gay as a three-dollar-bill." Me:"Um... not to be argumentative, but I believe the expression is "Queer as a three-dollar-bill"." Dad:"That's not very politically correct of you Ken, I'm surprised at you." Forgive me if you don't see the humor in that memory... I just laugh now every time I hear that song. Ken

My Dad Is A Father
A little boy got on the bus, sat next to a man reading a book and noticed he had his collar on backwards. The little boy asked why he wore his collar that way. The man, who was a priest, said, " I am a Father." The little boy replied, "My daddy doesn't wear his collar like that." The priest looked up from his book and answered "I am the Father of many." The boy said, "My dad has 4 boys, 4 girls and two grandchildren and he doesn't wear his collar that way." The priest, getting impatient, said, "I am the Father of hundreds" and went back to reading his book. The little boy sat quietly thinking for a while, then leaned over and said, "Maybe you should wear your pants backwards instead of your Collar."

My Day So Far
HA! What can I really say? My parents have asked me to dog sit for their puppy Cooper for the day and so I'm stuck @ my parents' house all fucking day lol. What fun! Anywho...not too much is going on...well I guess thts all I gotta say for right now ...Later!

My Daddy
well everybody its been a while since you all have heard from me but ive been trying to heal from my back surgery and trying to take care of Gwyn and Daddy the best i can the last time i wrote i told yall about daddys cancer and how it was going but the news im trying to get to yall now is daddy needs yalls prayers..... hes needing prayers to be pain free till the good lord comes to get him and bring him home ....yeah yall thats right my daddy is losing his battle with cancer and the doctors are giving him 3 to 4 days hes only on oxygen and pain meds to keep him comfortable but in a few days he will be in no pain at all ..its very hard for me to talk about because my little girl Gwyn loves her papa but i wanted to tell yall cause yall are like family and yall mean the world to mean even thow im not able to be on the computer very much nomore ....if yall would like to call my home my number is 1-22-798-6083 and daddys hospital room number is 1-229-891-9507 if yall would like to send a h

My Daughter Wrote This To Me At 12yrs Old
WHO I WANT TO BE Is someone related to me She is very smart She has a big heart She works all day and still has time to play She cleans and she cooks and even has great looks Who I want to be, can only see, When I am mad or sad Maybe even glad she is the one Who lets me have fun Who I want to be really loves me She is kind and nice Like sugar and spice She is buzy and sweet and hard to compete She is really the Bomb Who I want to be is my MOM

My Day
HEY ITS TUES, JUST RAN OFF SOME JEHOVA'S WITNESSES!! LOL ABOUT 1:30 IN THE PM. I JUST LIKE TO TELL U ABOUT MY DAY!! I'M OFF GOT A CRAZY SCHEDULE SO ANYTIME IS THE WEEKEND FOR ME!! GOT SOME RIBEYES MARINATING!! YUM!! FOR LATER, SOME BEERS ICED DOWN. BOUT TO GO FISHING, IN THE REALLY WELL STOCKED POND IN MY BACK YARD!! ITS SEVENTY PLUS DEGRESS HERE IN SE KY!! BLUE SKIES!! GOT SOME LED ZEP IN THE BOSE STEREO AND SOON AS I CATCH A FEW FISH N CLEAN EM GONNA HAVE MY FAVORITE FRIENDS COME OVER AND DRINK SOME BEERS AND EAT LIKE ROMANS!!! THEN PROBABLY FINISHED GETTING HAMMERED AT A BUDDYS HOUSE SHOOTING POOL AND THROWING DARTS!!! HOPE U HAVE AS GOOD A DAY AS I AM ABOUT TO!!!! AS ALWAYS!!! JAY!!!

My Dark Lover.....
THE night Is my LOVE... only then does my true self show.. only then do i open myself to my Demon lover he comes to me with ferocious appetites i welcome him with open arms for only truly does he know what i desire i will drown in his seed of hate i will drown in his seed of bLACK LUST i will free my soul with his lust and hate i will scream his name in estatic rage FOR THEN I SHALL BE TRULY FREE....

My Day
Hoping one of those days happen throughout the year where its cold. than it just gets really warm . Well today was one of those days in the year. those flirts of heat that you wanna feel throughout the year. Like the first time you sleep together with someone you really like. Than its really cold... It was almost 80 today.. the office was fucking hard to breathe. It is like that in most offices. it'll be sweldering hot during the winter and cold as hell during the summer cause they got the generators going. Our freaking high school back in the day never had anything workin... so when it was hot..you'd just sweat your ass of learning about trigonometry..zzzzzzz anyways im sitting here doing nothing.. come by and say whats up.. peace out ~Timmy~

My Dating Style??????
Your Dating Style:Committed Relationship You are all about being in a committed long term relationship. You are all about the love and security that it brings. 'What is your dating style?' at QuizGalaxy.com

My Dad Is Very Sick
I FOUND OUT YESTERDAY MY FATHER IS HAVING MORE COMPLICATIONS DUE TO HIS DIABETES, HE HAS HAD ONE TOE REMOVED SO FAR DUE TO FEET ULCERS, NOW HE HAS TWO MORE ON HIS FEET, THIS COULD LEAD TO APUTATION OF HIS FEET, I AM VERY SADDENED BY THIS NEWS, I HAVE ALMOST LOST HIM TOO MANY TIMES ALREADY, I CANT IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT HIM, I AM VERY HEART BROKEN.

My Daughter Wrote This
Face In The Mirror My face in the mirror Isn't wrinkled or drawn. My house isn't dirty. The cobwebs are gone. My garden looks lovely And so does my lawn. I think I might never Put my glasses back on. Andrea Nicole Harris

My 'dark Enigma Grand Mother Pass' Bulletin
I was asked to do this bulletin by this person, my great friend, Lori..known to most on here as Dark Enigma, well just a short time ago, after being sick for a while now..Her Grandmother passed away. So please go to her page show her some love..send her your condolences, shes a great friend that any one would love to have on their list, so because of this i am unsure when she will be on again as this happened less than an hour ago... Dark EnigmaĆŦМǎҒїǻ@ CherryTAP Paul Anka: And now the end is near And so I face the final curtain, My friends, I'll say it clear, I'll state my case of which I'm certain. I've lived a life that's full, I've travelled each and evr'y highway And more, much more than this, I did it my way.

My 12 Days Of Xmas Gifts
The Twelve Days of Christmasfor azzura:Day #Who?What they got you1sta fitted corset made of cling wrap2ndLED christmas anal beads3rda leather blindfold and a motel key4tha dusty bottle of absinthe5thA nude portrait of your done from memory - when they were standing outside your bedroom window6thcrotchless panties7thA key to the playboy mansion8tha tray of lewd ice cubes9tha one-man puppet show using three simultaneous puppets10thA signed document releasing their body to you upon their death to do with as you please11tha dildo built for two12th

My Daily Wish
~ My Daily Wish ~ My daily wish is that we may See good in those who pass our way; Find in each a worthy trait That we shall gladly cultivate; See in each one passing by The better things that beautify A softly spoken word of cheer, A kindly face, a smile sincere. I pray each day that we may view The things that warm one's heart anew; The kindly deed that can't be bought That only from good are wrought, A burden lightened here and there, A brother lifted from despair, The aged ones freed from distress; The lame, the sick, brought happiness. Grant that before each sun has set We'll witness deeds we can't forget; A soothing hand to one in pain, A sacrifice for love - not gain; A word to ease the troubled mind Of one whom fate has dealt unkind. So, friend, my wish is that we may See good in all who pass our way.

My Darling Soldier
My Darling Soldier My darling soldier, how much I love thee For it is thee who has much faith in me But I love thee for more than that only For it is thee who keeps me from being lonely If something were to happen, my heart would break It would be more than I could ever take But I always pray to God, to keep my darling soldier safe

My Dad
My Dad I remember your smile as you look down on me, I remember the sights you told me I'd see, I remember your kiss, the affection so real, I remember the love that I used to feel, Your presence made me safe, so happy inside, A respect for you that cannot be denied. We were always so close; I had nothing to fear, There was a time I thought you'd always be here, I could face the future, with you at my side, I could openly live with nothing to hide, So long ago, it seems like yesterday, With you in my dreams, my memories stay. The day that you left, tears fell from my eyes, I didn't have a change to tell you goodbye, Yet still I feel you, I know that you see The life I am living, with you guiding me, You gave me strength, built up from my heart, Although you are gone, we are not apart. I remember your smile as you look down on me, I remember the sights you told me I'd see, Your guidance is part of my destiny I thank you for

My Darling Lil Bear.
My darling lil bear how i wish you had lived. I wish your daddy and i had not lost you before you had a chance to live. We had such hopes for you my lil one. How your daddy would have loved you my son. How you would have been a mix of both of us . looking like him yet being kind of heart like me. My darling lil bear how i wish you had been able to be born. I love you LIl Bear where ever you are. I know your daddy loves you to.

My Day So Far
I got about 3 hours sleep so that sucks in itself. I gave my son a bath and then decided to hop on the computer. In the meantime of me mumming and rating, my clean son decides to knock the ashtray onto my nice new couch and then proceeded to smush cheetos into my bed. What a lovely damn day for me. I can't wait till he's 12 cause then he's doing all the house work while i smush cheetos into his bed.

My Dad
my dad my dad is the angel in my life he has cancer but he is still there when we need him i know he is in alot of pain but he tries to act like it dont bother him he dont want us kids worrying about him all the time my dad is the angel in my life they say he shouldnt be walking he still is my dad has alot of health problems i worry about him alot even though he dont want us kids worrying about him most of the time that is all i can do is worry my dad is the angel in my life he worked two jobs to help the family till his doctor made him quiet one of the jobs he works so much he isnt there all the time my dad is the angel in my life when i was born he was going to give me blood to get better he was proud that i pulled thru even though i didnt need the blood my dad is my angel he has been here with us thru the good times and the bad times the doctors are surpised that he is still walking they are surpised that he is still alive according to the doctors he should h

My 'dark Enigma Month Blasts' Bulletin
A great friend of mines, has entered a contest to win a month long blast, go BOMB!! the hell out of her entry, and repost so that she has a better chance of winning this one...The contest is over once the contest Holder CT Daddy reaches Godfather and then the person with the highest amount of comments will get the month long blast, The person who comes in second also get a gift, so go bomb the hell out of her

My Day
so i decided to be lazy and get up around noon lol and have now spent most of the day consumed in laundry and errands...at least i got a lot accomplished. hopefully this week will go by fast...im not so much looking forward to the weekend as i am easter...that means i get to go home and see my family since i am still single and don't have someone to share the holiday with really :) anyway....hope all is well with everyone and drop me a line if you read this and feel the need to respond...talk to you all soon...

My Day From Good To Bad To Just Fookedup
Hello dear friends Wolfie here just writing a blog about nothing! What can I say I’m in pain right now! My head hurtz and no pain killer in this world bar morphine can stop the pain! Ok so now on with the blog! Went to the shops today and this old woman asked me for $2.. So what do I do! I have 3 chose’s 1:say fuck off ya free loader. 2:act like I care and give her the cash or 3:stab her in the eye with my new bladed keychian and walk away knowing I just killed someone?......what would you do? Well I’ll tell you what I did... no:2 ok..... I didn’t act like I cared I just said “why?” that was the worst thing I could have done in my life! She runs strait into a long ass story about smokes and her check and something about a dog.....*??WTF??* Ok that is just too much for me so there I am diggin through my kool bag that reads “What are you looking at!” with a pick of little Jason on it pissing..... Lmao!.. Gift from my girlfriend.... anyway! I’m diggin round and then the old goat has th

My 'dark_picture_contest' Bulletin
Dark_Picture_Contest For this contest I want you to send me the darkest art pic you can find. I am looking for pics with blood, gore, and any type of a dark feelings, reach within and find the best expression of darkness you can come up with. The pic does not have to be original art, no duplicate entries will be accepted.. Rules and Guidelines No Downrating Use any means to get people to your entry, stickies, Bulletins, Leaving Comments on peoples pages... If you would like to enter send me a private message with a link to the picture you would like to enter... a stated duplicates will not be accepted so please have a back or a second choice just in case that happens As i get your entries i will send each person a link to their entry which will work once folder is open I will contact Each person personally, once i have gotten ten entries to let them know that the the contest will start 24hrs after i receive the last entry This is a open contest, meaning peo

My Daughter Wrote This About Alan
THIS IS A POEM I FOUND IN MY DAUGHTER'S ROOM THAT SHE WROTE ABOUT HER BROTHER.(ALAN) (THIS IS ALSO POSTED IN ALAN'S BLOG FOLDER) hes a little angel to me but i can clearly see hes not doing to good hes not living the life a little boy should and me just knowing that any day something could happen and take him away it hurts me so bad thats the reason i walk around so sad hes always been my baby and i dream that oneday maybe he will be better i hope that day is near until then all people will hear is the sound of my cry and me sitting up all night wondering why why its possible that the little boy thats like a little angle could die

My Daughter
Ariana who turns 11 on easter, should i choose another day to celebrate her bday, it being easter its not really her day. i never ran into this problem before lol. i got her a cake and presents.mmm i dont know, maybe ill let her rent a movie or game and next weekend have her friends over, even tho shes on spring break i still have to work hehehe maybe ill let her stay up later and bug her sister for the night. lol im just rambling now , anyways thanks for reading and if you have any ideas let me know!!!

My Day On The Set Of "the Middle" By Warner Bros.
Hey everyone! Just worked a 12 hour day, I am pooped but it was so worth it! I played an elementary school teacher on the set of a new TV series called "The Middle". The release date is undefinited, as it is just a pilot, which means that they have to decide whether or not there will be a lot of viewers to make it a TV series. The main star is Ricki Lake. She is such a sweetheart by the way! She LOVES her sons, they were on set with us, she looks amazing, has lost so much weight and always smiling. The first scene I was in consisted of a church scene. I was the girl in the black suit sitting DIRECTLY behind Ricki, so look for me. The next scene I was in, consisted of me being in the background and walking back and forth on the sidewalks. The last scene I was in, I had to carry a church bulletin and walk in front of the camera and walk and pretend like I was talking to someone, I was wearing a greenish sweater and black pants for that one - wardrobe change! I met a lot

My Daughter
MY DAUGHTER IS A CON ARTIST. AS MOST OF MY FRIENDS KNOW I AM THE DIVORVCED FATHER OF A 9 YR OLD GIRL. SHE KNOWS THERE IS NO EASTER BUNNY OR TOOTH FAIRY OR ETC. AND YET SHE STILL PRETENDS SHE DOES. WHY YOU ASK? WELL, I HEARD HER TALKING TO A LITTLE NEIGHBOR BOY WHO WAS CHALLENGING HER BELIEFS IN SUCH CHARACTERS SUCH AS THE EASTER BUNNY. WHEN I HEAR HER SHHHHHUSING HIM AND SAID IF I KNOW OR LET THEM KNOW I KNOW ~~ I WON'T GET AS MUCH~ IF I SAY THERE IS NO SANTA_ DO YOU THINK I WILL STILL GET PRESENTS FROM SANTA AND MY DAD~~ NO! MY OLDER COUSINS DON'T GET AN EASTER BASKETFUL OF GOOD STUFF~~ SO I AM SAYING NOTHING!! SO I AM IN TROUBLE. AND CONNING ME AT NINE MAY GOD, MOTHER EARTH, THE GREAT SPIRIT OR WHOEVER HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL!! DAN

My 'dark Picture Contest Has Started!!' Bulletin
Dark_Picture_ContestThe Dark Picture Contest is now open, below are the entries that were received, choose your favorite one, and go comment it.Each rate is equal to 10 comments, and the most comments win the contestThe Prizes AreFirst Place: 3 Day BlastSecond Place: PorscheThird Place: Silver MotorcycleThis is an open cap contest meaning people will still be allowed to join at any time before the contest ends~if any one joins after the contest starts you are responsible for getting your own link and whoring your self out, your entry will be added with the entries below and the bulletin will be reposted with your link on the list.

My Day
Today was a very weird day indeed. I clocked in and everything at seven am...and I went straight to Junior dresses and it took 5 1/2 hours to work everything out and get it all sorted and crap. So when I got off work I went to my mom's job to take her a check... When I got home I ate like popcorn, cheese, crackers and candy. I felt so bad that I got on the Gazelle for 30 minutes and then the Ab Lounger. So all in all I did 2.32 miles on the Gazelle and even on there I burned 280.6 calories plus however how many I burned while doing my ab lounger. I am so proud of myself and from now on...no more junkfoods, no more cokes...and when I go out to eat it has to be healthy. Yes I know...I'm always falling off the bandwagon but I can't help it. And now that all these pretty clothes are coming out and all these gorgeous dresses are coming out I want to lose the weight to be able to wear them. I miss Teddy. And I know for sure that he's in a good college. Florida State University is well

My Day Running Around
this is what i did today with my life. I moved forward and got up at 8:30.. drank some OJ, took a shower, got in my brothers car and drove over to this place to have my finger prints for security clearance for a job as an armed security officer. then i ran around did some chores instead of sitting at home all day watching TV or be on the COmputer. I'm hoping i get a good paying security job. I'm a little behind on my bills so i need the money for 1 thing and second, my parents are devorced. once i find a job that pays well and can afford to move out on my own i think i can a million times happier. I also would like to find a g/f sometime... my main focus is on this security job. Its better than sitting on my ass doing nothing all day. I'm tired of retail as a cashier, i don't like a receptionist... so, yea.. that was my day today.

My Daily Insights
The difference between great people and everyone else is that great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing. Michael E. Gerber Free Comment Codes

My Daughter
A cold morning in feburary changed my life for ever, it is a day that I will never forget since that was the day that I became a father. I remember the day like it was yesterday. I was awoke by a smack on my back. I was told that it was time, trying not to panic I got dressed and made sure that her mom was doing ok. Calling all the family to tell them that it was time and that they needed to head to the hospital. Getting in the truck we rush to the hospital. Once we got there we got into the room and tried to get everything situated to make sure that every thing was perfect for my baby girl to be born. Time seemed to drag on as the anticipation grew, family and friends arrived to lend encouragement and support. I remember the nurse calling the doctor in to tell her that it was time. The moment was growing nearer and the tension was getting higher. The doctor looked at me and told me that it was my turn to step in and take over. My babies head was sticking out of her mother. I placed

My Dad And Stepma
Today I got a letter from my dad and my stepma.They have decided to adopt my oldest son and give him a stable home in which he will be able to grow up in.My oldest son his name is Cory has been bounced around a few times in the last few years.Nothing that I am proud of but also I had no control over the siyuation either.But I cried when I read the letter enclosed with the court papers.My dad and stepma have unconditional love and I know that my son will be taken care of and get the attention and love he needs as a growing boy.Even though my parents nor my son will ever be on cherrytap I just wanted to give them credit where credit is due.And yes I thanked them with my whole letter as I signed the papers handing my son over to them.Good luck dad and ma...Love your daughter...

My Daughters
My Daughter- Perhaps not now But in the near future She will read these words And understand her mother. I want her to see my life Without having to live it Know where she's going Without going where I've been Understand my sorrows But never feel my pain Find time for the laughter In the pouring rain Search for the good in the bad 'Cause it all happens for a reason Never allow them to take her pride That is God's greatest gift When the chips are down Keep a stiff upper lip Reach for the impossible Even when the world says you can't Don't live in the past You can't control where you start Hold hope in the future That is where you go If they ask your opinion Don't let your lips part Unless the words you speak Come straight from the heart

My Daily Insights
Often the difference between a successful man and a failure is not one's better abilities or ideas, but the courage that one has to bet on his ideas, to take a calculated risk, and to act. Maxwell Maltz Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

My Daily Horoscope!!!
Daily Horoscope: Aries For April 18,2007 You're all about hitting the ground running -- aren't you? The current astrological influence suggests that you mellow out and enjoy being instead of constantly doing. Why don't you take a long bath and sing silly songs? what a hoot!!! i like this feature :) its pretty accurate too :Þ Daily Horoscope: Aries For May 07, 2007 Usually the simplest, cheapest solution is actually the best, but your analytical self doesn't want to admit it. Opt for the obvious option, then sit back and breathe a sigh of relief as your life gets much easier. Daily Horoscope: Aries For May 9,2007 Expect the unexpected. Better yet, greet it with open arms and a big hug. Not only will your attitude be disarming, the universe will find a way to integrate this new event smoothly with the rest of your life. Daily Horoscope: Aries For May 11,2007 You want to start kicking butt and taking names. Easy, tiger. Once the heat of the moment cools o

My Daily Horoscope...
i normally don't ever believe in these but i found this one to be particularly ironic especially in light of my current feelings and such... Taurus: Your heart feels like you're missing a key piece of the puzzle, but your brain insists it's all systems go. What to do? Well, listen to your heart, first of all. Remember that feelings are a form of evidence, too.

My Day My Life A Little More In Depth About Me The Hbic
Alrighty then so as I told you I have two beautiful wonderfeul children...Mileena is the youngest of course I told you that also but anyways, Mileena ended up being diagnosed as blind a little while back. It's kinda upsetting but I am definately coping with it and infact I believe it has made me a stronger person. I am making something of my self slowly. I know i am missing out on the best years of my life but the way i actually look at it i am having the best years of my life because i have tow wonderful children that entertain me more than any party or bar could. they are my everything. I am a very random person. I will most likely post poetry on here but who knows. when i have the time i will

My Daughter
My daughter is so cute. She is 10 months old she is starting to feed her self. She is a happy baby.She has been a happy baby since the day she was born. She is always doing something funny. She has a high pitch scream.

My Day
my day was ok i went out with freinds got askled to have a 3 some i got pissed this girl kept toching me thy werent hot either.and im not that type of girl anyhow.im well respected in my area..i had my house inspection today evrything went good.i need more freinds in my area im from pottsville i hang there alot all the time si work there to so any one from pottsville hit me up..i like to meet people get to know theme and hang out and chill.

My Daily Insights
MY FRIDAY STORY Smiling Is Infectious Author Unknown Smiling is infectious, you catch it like the flu, When someone smiled at me today, I started smiling too. I passed around the corner and someone saw my grin. When he smiled I realized I'd passed it on to him. I thought about that smile, then I realized its worth. A single smile, just like mine could travel round the earth. So, if you feel a smile begin, don't leave it undetected. Let's start an epidemic quick, and get the world infected!

My Day 4/20/2007
Hey everyone, I will be off and on in short intervals this afternoon, it is way too nice here to be online all day and I am riping ugly vinyl siding off of my porch roof, then power washing, yayyyyyyyy me. I just might wear a nice white tee shirt while power washing too bad there is no one here to take pictures tee hee, anyhow, If we are chatting in my shoutbox, Muah, you are always a lot of fun, and try and catch me as I take breaks, can you tell I am a CT addict lol, oh yea I am really close to leveling up, 2 cherry blasts will do it, plus you get into my family, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, over 60 nudes of me? Spread wide, yes I drip when I cum lol, so those are in there too, I think I even use my police baton(use your imagination lol Muah Hugs and kIsses Cannot wait to chat so I can hear about your day MUah one more time for an extra amount of love to all my family members and fans and friends, if you are just a fan, , why aren't we friends :( Luxurousskies your fav

My Dating Scan Appointment Letter.
Well i guess this is it then hehe, im so happy, yet nervous, i want everything to be ok, and fine and im nervous theres nothing there lol, well pictures will be out up regardless. Fingers Crossed we have a healthy developing baby. (P.S i did the copy of the Scan Letter on paint lol so if its not really all that clear im sorry hehe)

My Daughter
My daughter is my life saver. God send her on time because if she wasnt here today, I wouldnt be here, too. I had throughts of killing myself because I never had anyone to love me for who i am then for my parents.But now I want to live because of her.

My Daughters
today went to the DR., Ariana shes my 11 year old is 5' tall and weighs 73 pounds, Salina who is 9 is 4'9 and weighs 93 pounds. Ariana got 3 shots and Salina 1, both freaked out and cried, poor girls, but they are cute and growing up too fast. gotta love em tho!

My Dating Scan
well today is the day ive been dredding and been really excited about, i dont know if its every womans fear but it is mine, and its that whn i get to the can that there will be nothin there so we will see, its why i havent got myself too involved just yet, well trying not to anyways lol. but here goes .... got up at gone 10am and comming round like i said takes me ages to come round in a morning lol. im surposed to drink 2 pints of water and hour before the appointment, should be fun i hate water at the best of times but i have to do it. so i got my first pint and a straw lol its quicker for me to drink it with a straw, and within 2 mins it was gone, yuk yuk yuk. next one lol went to get it and started to drink it, i started to struggle halfway down it lol, but hey ho. i had drank the 2 pints and feeling really uncomfortable and bloated we made our way to the bus stop, waiting for the bus we met chris's friends mum, and started to talk to her, she too was goin to the hospital

My Daughter Makes Me So Happy!!!!!!
this past week my beautiful daughter Arielle aka rellexia turned 16 this beautiful heart is so loved by her friends and teachers it started last week when she was inducted into the national Art Honor Society what a honor for both of us her teachers complimented and honored me by saying I did a good job in raising such a wonderful talented expressive person. On her birthday Her teachers gave her a surprise Sweet 16 attended by her closest friends and around 50 teachers she was overwhelmed and very happy by this but inside I felt cheated because I couldn't give this to her due to my current situation but still my heart is swelled because even though things aren't going right my child is happy and when she's happy all the bad stuff melts away and is forgotten. To end this day her wonderful teacher took her to get a beautiful hair cut because the month before she donated her golden brown hair for the second time to locks of love. now she has a beautiful stacked bob and is now dyed blac

My Dad
For those of you that know me....I never write in here very much. But this morning I sit here with a heavy heart. I am hoping that writing will help me so far nothing has, I have only slept about 2 hours, so I decided to sit down and remember all the good times . Well first off I should probably start with what happened. Yesterday (May 6th) started off good...Ash filled me in on some of the things that happened at her prom, Tom was cussing the lawn mower for not working right....lol...if you know Tom that is a common occurance when he is mad about a mechanical problem...then Ash left to go shopping and Tom went to his friend Brians. So I was sitting here watching a show on the History channel on TV and my cousin Brucie shows up to tell me that my dad died in a motorcycle accident...He went to Richmond, Va to see the Nascar race...(God knows how he loved that bike and he loved to see the races!) Seems that he was on the interstate and the person in front of him braked and they ha

My Daddy
Ok I'm a serious Daddy's girl.I mean who doesn't have their favorite parent?Mine is my daddy.he's easy going,non-judgmental.The total opposite of my control freak of a mother. I like the fact that even though he is heading for 63 this year,he listens,really listens to what I have to say.When I am done crying,we talk about all sorts of things.Everything from sex to my kids.I like the fact that he seems to put every-one around him at ease. He came from a very humble back-ground where they had next to nothing,sometimes only each other.ONe of 9 nine kids is my day.Hard to believe he can remeber when shoes were like only 25 cents.Kinda crazy but MEH whatever. One day he's going to leave me and ya I will cry but until then I will continue to be daddy's baby girl. PS Thanks to Daddy I have a car.......lol

.my.dad.my.hero.
so dad stopped by after talkin to stupid bitch. and that man can work miracles... tho even he said 'thats one hard bitch' n mah dad dun cuss so after telling her whatfor dun dun dun 30 day notice n im outta here! *does a lil dance* so after dad left moms n i went to go get alltel... er or at least we THOUGHT we were gonna get alltel... but they were bein fuckers... soooooo we went to verizon where they werent snickering n didnt want a $300 deposit... n wound up with 2 phones for the price of one and a better plan with unlimited text, pix, n IM. so alltel can eat me :D n we did boxes too. not as many as i should have... but some is better than none. ima do more...after i rest my eyes. then ima hafta text mah peoples with mah new phone number. n that'll be fun too. dear universe...please let me breathe...love, me.

My Day Today...
Had a strange day today...I thought alot about the past in my life..The ex finacee who cheated...The disappointments, the things in life that make you a bitter and mean person...And something they read at my grammys funeral that she said...Life is to short to go around hating people..How can you grow when you keep things inside of you that makes you not want to experience life again...The only way to really learn from the past is to confront it and get rid of all the aggression that is inside of you...I have been doing that letting him win these past 4 years...Letting all the anger and the disappointment that i have for him make me not trust people and want to get involved with anyone...So sitting in the tub and thinking about all this...(With the help of 2 bottles of wine) I called Michael and told him how i felt when i found out he cheated on me and he listened to me and explained things and said that he cant say hes sorry because hes said that many times and really meant it..(i did

My Daughter, My Miracle
My daughter was born June 10th, 1998 weighing in at 8lbs 2oz. She was so beautiful. She was a very happy and healthy little girl for the first 10 months. April 17th 1999 we were sitting at home and she started having a seizure. I was only 19 had no clue what was going on. So scared. She wasn't breathing. She was taken to the local emergency room. They found ot she had aspirated during the seizure (vomited and it went into her lungs). Then they had her life flighted to the nearest childrens hospital. At this hospital they find bleeding in her brain. As a young motr i am sitting there trying to remember if she hit her head hard on something or what, when a Dr. comes to me and her father telling us that she has shaken baby syndrome. Talk about shock. I am the one taking care of her 24/7 and these Drs are look at me like some murderer. They get children services involved and telling me i won't get my daughter and stuff. For a month and a half my baby is laying in a hospital bed and the drs

My Day
Everyone has the right to spaz every now and then. I hear a lot of the shit goin on. I hear Mom spaz about Dad, I hear Dad spaz on Mom, I hear Dess spaz on Kev, I hear Shanika spaz on Drew...hell, sometimes I even spaz on Corinn and Cookie. Shit happens, people spaz out, start yellin, then shit cools down. Yesterday, I was sitting in the living room watching Mark and Kev fight Tee-Ski and Nevon in No Mercy for the Nintendo 64. Yeah, old school classic shit that evidently to them never gets old. I can relate. Not my cup of tea, but I can still relate. Anyway, Mom walks by saying "I hope someone fixed Dessa's plate. All the food is gone. Did someone fix it?" Nobody answered. I certainly didn't know, and honestly I didn't think about it. She made spaghetti and meatballs. Dess was at work and was on her way home. It's really not like me to not even think about who didn't eat. I guess it's always because I'm usually under the impression lately that there's enough food for

My Dad Used To Say....
My Dad used to say this when I was younger and having problems socially or professionally: "You have to play the GAME"! This is what I say: "If there is no chance for me to win the GAME...I'm NOT fuckin' playin'!!!!"

My Dad
March 6, 1980 is a day that I will never forget. I was 14 years old. My dad used to work for a large steel company here in Dallas and he was in the Steelworker’s union. This particular night, he was at a union meeting and my mother had allowed me to stay up later than usual so that I could see my dad before I went to bed. Well, my dad came home from his meeting and had brought me a chocolate shake from our local Dairy Queen. He handed me the shake and said, “This is just because I love you”. Shocked I was, because my father really didn’t say that to me often… I drank my shake, hung out with my dad for a few minutes, and then headed off to bed. (Much later, I realized that he must have known…) The next morning, at about 6:00am, I was awakened by my mother’s frantic screaming out in the hall outside the restroom…”Melvin, please open the door”….”Melvin, please answer me”…. I bolted up out of bed to see what the commotion was and found that my dad had been in the bathroom, my mother

My Dad
As I sit here and I'm thinking, thoughts are running through my mind, so many things I wanted to say to you, but the words were so hard to find. I knew you were always there, to catch me when I fell, after all you were my father, you loved me I could tell. Most people only knew your outside, with your hands calloused hard as steel, but I could see your gentle soul, it's was just something I could feel. I feel like there's this dark cloud, that hangs above my head, I wish that I could turn back time there's so many things I left unsaid. There were things I want to tell you, feelings I had you couldn't see, I wish I could let you know right now, just how much you meant to me.

My Dads Cafe In Maplewood, Nj
to anyone in the northern new jersey area. looking for a cozy cafe with great music from local and national artists please stop by heres to the arts in maplewood, n.j. it is located in the village on baker st. we have had musicians such as oz noy, keith carlock, lee finkelstein. and great local bands like dubious pastry and no outlet. come by and enjoy the food as well, cooked by my twin brother larry. the website is herestothearts.com to see who is coming by to play. thanks andy

My Dad's Hands
My Dad's Hands Bedtime came, we were settling down, I was holding one of my lads. As I grasped him so tight, I saw a strange sight: My hands. . .they looked like my dad's! I remember them well, those old gnarled hooks, there was always a cracked nail or two. And thanks to a hammer that strayed from its mark, his thumb was a beautiful blue! They were rough, I remember, incredibly tough, as strong as a carpenter's vice. But holding a scared little boy at night, they seemed to me awfully nice! The sight of those hands - how impressive it was in the eyes of his little boy. Other dads' hands were cleaner, it seemed (the effects of their office employ). I gave little thought in my formative years of the reason for Dad's raspy mitts: The love in the toil, the dirt and the oil, rusty plumbing that gave those hands fits! Thinking back, misty-eyed, and thinking ahead, when one day my time is done. The torch of love in my own wrinkled hands will pass

My Day, Thoughts, Ideas And More...
Okay so I went to work today and everything was fine. My hand/wrist hurt a bit but nothing a little tylenol couldn't heal. I had to go with Aunt Judy today to take Kayleigh to a friends house for a party >.< When we returned I finished watching the movie "Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion The Witch and The Wardrobe." It was a really great movie. I went walking today and if Aunt Judy and Uncle Howard had kept going I would have lapped them because I passed them anyways. I did my 6 laps. I talked to Selina today and asked to be worked strictly nights and she said that I could and even thanked me for it because they needed more people for night shift. It's easier on me because I won't get confused about when I'm closing and such. I thought about something. I'm going to try really really hard at setting aside as much money as I can for my future wedding to Teddy. I want to be able to ride away in a stretch limo. I want everything to be perfect and I don't want everyone hustlin

My Dark Side
I started to develop a liking for the darker side of music, movies and art around the time my brother introduced me to GWAR... so around 13. My brother often talked about gruesome things, probably trying to gross out his little sister and only sibling, but insted it sparked more of an amused following from me than a retreat from his presence. I liked to gross out people as much as my brother did. I have since surrounded myself with horrorcore rap, horror movies and graphic reality fatality movies, which have pretty much scarred me from actually enjoying seeing graphic violence to being more thrilled by the concept. Developing into being grossed out by gore has only heightened my liking for horror. I started getting into demonic art around the GWAR time as well. I would draw graphic pictures of people dying and would hold on to any clippings of gorey art I could find. The internet made it much easier to appriciate dark and morbid art. I have downloaded graphic programs and made da

My Day With Mr.brooks!!
I went to the movies today with a couple of friends and saw the new thriller (or so it was supposed to be) Mr. Brooks. Upon entering the movie, I was under the preconsumed notion that it was about a daughter who finds out her daddy is a serial killer. Turns out that wasn't really the story line for this film. It was a twisty one I will say that. Its about a man named Earl Brooks. He is an upstanding citizen with a successful box company. He is even named the prestigious Man of the Year.... Hmm... You soon find out that Mr. Brooks has split personality... Marshall... Marshall and Mr.Brooks are the thumbprint killers.... They stalk their victims, always couples it seems, and then finally kills them, and arranges their bodies romantically and takes pictures. Pictures in turn that he burns when he goes home. (He does pottery and has the glaze machine to burn all of these items with) Mr.Brooks is tired of killing though, and in the first kill, he is telling his other half Marshall, that thi

My Daughter
In Memeory of Shianne Michelle Greene (03-23-99) Shianne Michelle Greene March 23, 1999 Many years have passed since the day we saw you last I guess something just went wrong but you're memory still is very strong you're our angel girl you're hair all in curl we can't wait for the day that we get to say, "We love you, Shianne." in that great heavenly land.

My Daughter
my daughter has gone crazy. she is not yet 2. but she is bagging her head on the walls, sicking her hand in her mouth to make herself throw up, and is biting herself!!!! i thought the treable two's were just like throwing herself on the floor... i gusse i was wrong...

My Daily Rant!
Ok. So cherrytap is starting to lose some of it's appeal to me. It's not really fun anymore. To be honest, it was just a way to pass the time. When I come on, and look at the bulletins, all i get are the same few people posting about new contests, lounges, and other random stuff. I rarely see a cool bulletin, or one that makes a difference. I've reposted a few, and I feel stupid in doing that. The only bulletins that I repost, and gladly so, are the bulletins that have anything to do with helping find a child, or ending abuse of some sort. But how can I see them when I have 2 pages filled with "HELP ME WIN A FAKE PORCHE WITH SOMEONE ELSES CHERRYBUCKS!!!" or "WE NEED BARTENDERS/BOUNCERS/DANCERS FOR OUR FAKE ONLINE BAR!" Now, don't get me wrong. I'm glad you all have your fun hangouts online, and people that you can chat with. But I on the other hand, prefer to go to a REAL bar and have a REAL shot of yukon. More power to you, more power to me. But come on people. I'm sorry if you REALL

My Dark Soul
Come to me, little mortal I can bring you to heaven's portal There'll be no sorrow, there'll be no pain Feelings of joy will fill your brain Come to me, sweet human thing Give me your heart and I'll make it sing Forget your fears, leave them behind Forget the troubles of your kind Come to me... yes, that's right Now hold still, it's no good to fight I'll take your blood, and leave you dying Didn't you realise I could be lying? I shall feed on you drink you away Your blood your life shall feed me I shall leave your corpse behind as i have no use for it

My Daughter
Yesterday was one of the worse days of my life,nothing is more scarier than seeing your child hurt to the point that you yourself cant fix it. My 3 year old daughter was swimming having a good time.She decided to get out the pool and go potty,well coming down the ladder she was getting frontwards facing out.She slipped off landing head first on the bucket to rinse off thier feet. (Note i was using an old mop bucket cause it was the shortest bucket i had)The prongs that hold the handle gashed her head 1 1/2 inches.Resulting in a 6 hour wait at the ER,and 3 staples to the head. Just letting you all know that these things are the scariest things to ever happen to a mother.I sat up with her all night while she slept to make sure she didnt stay sleeping forever. Nothing worse than the thought of losing a child to a pure accendent. She is doing fine now,fighting with her sister for the TV,and being her normal 3 yr old bossy self.!! Much love to everyone who takes the time to r

My Daddy
This is for my daddy who passed away and wont be with me on Fathers Day!!! Fathers day is a day to remember Dad All the love and good times we had We remember today,All that we shared The years you made happy by showing you cared You gave so much encouragement along the way Listened to our problems and know just what to say We remember all the all good things you've done The memories we made ,The laughter and fun You now know the joy of Heaven above Where you will always be protected by Gods Love Our hearts are broken and often we're sad You'll always be with us, We love you Dad

My Dark Encounter
it was a pretty unusual night.nothing that I was expecting.it started to rain,and on top of the rain,it was a bit stormy.lightening and wind.I was just getting out of the shower and decided to lay my naked body upon my sheets.and a light brezze was blowing through the open window in my bedroom. I finally fell asleep and as I was sleeping my body was about to be taken.taken in a very seductive way.very sexual and intense. I laid in bed and this figure appeared,he was dressed very masculine and sexy. he had fangs that were very long and sexy.long jet black straight hair.I just felt the warmth on my body from his presence.I felt light touches on my body trailing from my lips all the way down to my inner thighs.I felt deep kisses on my skin and I felt myself let out a soft moan.I allowed myself to be taken. I felt my body lift into the air and it was firmly pressed against the wall above my bed.the figure came up to me and began sucking an bitng on my neck,he began sucking on my t

My Daughter....
So, my daughter was up last night with ear pain. She got up this morning and was playing with her cousin. She came to me, I was laying on the couch, and told me that she had "drool" in her hair. I said, WHAT????? She told me that "her ear was drooling into her hair"! LOL! She has an ear infection and her tubes were draining it but I thought that was the CUTEST thing I had ever heard!! LOL! Just thought that I would share! LOL!

My Day Off
god love it, its been warm and sunny all week, so i thought why not go for the day out with our lass on my day off, so we awake to see that its lashing it down! still going to york tho so it will probably be a pub crawl and end up with us wetter than an otters pocket. god must love me!!!!! lol

My Darkness
Tonight I walk a ruined and broken path my feet bleed a trail from the jagged stone's wrath Where it shall lead I do not much care because life has become nothing without you there I pray for the shadows of my soul to consume me rend me to shreds and devour me completely My demons they torment me still even in this hour I have lost the will to fight, no longer the power I stop on the path and lie myself down knowing in my pain soon I shall drown The release shall be sweet and I shall embrace my fate my time is running short and I shall not be late As my darkness envelopes me and like an old friend always know this, I loved you till the end

My Day...
My day started out so nice. I got to work late because of a therapy appointment. This meant I missed the weekly company meeting. I had managed to buy a phone card for my old cell phone over the weekend (cheaper than the one I bought to talk to the poly family) as well as buy some more blades for my electric razor. I was (and still am) wearing a new shirt and undies (as well as older shorts, socks & shoes).I felt on top of the world. Then...Well, over the weekend my wife mentioned that one of the poly family members looked at her CherryTAP page. I thought it was odd, but didn't think much else about it.Until I found that the same person looked at my page... Hmmmm... I went back to that person's page because (supposedly) in CT if you block somebody, they can't view your page. I could view the page, so I wasn't blogged. Just a bit confused, I went on my slightly-less-happy way.However...I received a message from the person, asking why I went to that page. I told the person that

My Dark Printzess
Here I am Deep in the darkness alone. Then I come across another lost soul. I walk up to her and drop to my knees. " I though noone shared this darkness with me." She gives me a slight glance and then I know. I share the darkness with another lost soul. " I am the printz of darkness here. Stay with me and lonelyness I shall no longer fear." She is my Printzess and the drakness we share. A dark Printz and Printzess is now here.

My Dad
MY DAD TURNED 65 ON JUNE 13. I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH. HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A GOOD FATHER AND PROVIDER FOR ME. BUT, I WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING. WHY CAN'T I HUG HIM OR KISS HIM OR EXPRESS THE WAY I FEEL TO HIM? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY AM I LIKE THIS? HE LIVES WITH ME BUT, HE SPENDS MOST OF THE TIME IN MEXICALI, MEXICO. 2 WEEKS AGO HE WAAS RIGHT HERE AND HE WAS NOT FEELING TO GOOD SO HE WENT TO MEXICALI TO SEE HIS DOCTOR. YESTERDAY HE CAME AND I ASKED HIM WHAT DID THE DOCTOR SAY? HE SAID THAT THE DOCTOR TOLD HIM THAT HE SUFFERED A STROKE. OF COURSE I FELT REALLY BAD BUT, I DID NOT SHOW IT. TODAY WHEN HE WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE BECAUSE HE IS GOING TO MEXICO. WELL ALL THE WAY WHERE HE IS FROM. HE STARTED CRYING AND I ASKED HIM WHAT'S WRONG? HE SAID NOTHING. I TOLD HIM WHY ARE YOU CRYING? WHAT DIDN'T YOU TELL US? HE SAID NOTHING. HE HAS GONE TO MEXICO BEFORE BUT, HE HAS NEVER CRYED BECAUSE HE WAS LEAVING THAT'S WHY I WAS ASKING HIM SO MANY QUESTIONS.MAN PEOPLE WHEN I SAW HIM CRYING I WA

My Day Today
So when I get out of the shower this morning I see I have a voicemail message on my phone. I call it back it's my ex wife's ex boyfriend telling me she called him at midnight telling him she want AWOL from basic training out in SOuth Carolina. She just joined the Army 2 weeks ago. Well he tells her he will not help her out and that she should go back to the base and turn herself in. I tell him that's the right thing to do, make sure he doesn't help her in any way and let me know if he hears from her again. After I take my kids to school I try and call the base she is at to find out if this is true, the regiments headquartes tell me they know nothing about it but give me the company she's in phone number. I call get no answer so I decide to call her mom and see what she knows. She tells me she doesn"t believe this guy and that not to worry about it. I keep trying the base after about 3 hours someone answers and tells me yes she has gone AWOL. I tell them what I know and promise to let

My Day Thus Far.
So I go into work, a friend gets fired. I get the highest upsells overall for the day. Again. ha! This weekend is going to be interesting. Above all this, something is going on. I dont know what but I know something is up.

My Day
Well, to day seems as if it has been 48 hours long...LOL On the bright side, my antidepressants have kicked into 5th gear and I am SOOOO good to go! I feel like I am on finally on the open highway after being stuck in the back woods for over a year! Its so good to be back! I feel like I am finally getting it all together and I can actually do more than one thing at a time! The kids seem to be a little more livlier than they have been the past couple days. It has barely rained; I think we are officially in a drought! I keep watering my poor little flowers and I think I am fighting a losing battle though. Poor things! My dad is feeling better today; he went to the Dr. yesterday here; and he put my dad on an insulin pill to control his sugar levels. Now that that is nearly fixed, we just need to get him to eat... LOL anyone got any suggestions on how to get a 69 yr. old to eat? We have to get him strong enough to start his chemo in 2 weeks! That is all for today... Hope you gu

My Day
Well to start off my mother has been going through radiation and chemo since January, she had her last treatment 3 weeks ago. Shes been very sick from the chemo. Today I took her to her family doctor who discovered she was dehydrated, so we went to the ER for fluids and the ER doctor discovered she has a bowel obstruction and admits her to the hospital.

My Daughter
so last night around 11:30 at night i was woke up by my daughter having a seizure...so up i go and get the meds to inject her with to help her come out of the seizure...but had to call 911 because she couldnt come out of the seizure...so the mets and fire rescue come here and because this is a monthly thing they know shelbie and were very wonderful with her and she finally came out of the seizure... i am very tired today with no sleep ... but you know the thing that just makes me smile so very much is all that is "wrong" with my little girl you would never know it... she smiles all the time and laughs and is a miracle....

My Darlin' Princess
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under a

My Dating Requirements
1. You MUST have a job. Keep in mind that I am NOT your sugar momma. I don't care if you're flipping burgers at McDonald's. As long as it's an honest job and you're a hard worker, I'm kewl with it. 2. Do NOT mistake my kindness for stupidity. I know far more than you think I do! 3. NO DRAMA. To quote a t-shirt I saw: "please cancel my subscription. I don't want your issues". 4. NO LIARS 5. NO CHEATERS if you want to be w/ someone else then be man enough to break it off with me. Refer to ..3 and a previous blog of mine about not giving a shit. 6. You must enjoy kids and be a positive male role model for them. They all have daddy's (good or bad) and I'm not looking for replacements. 7. No hypocrites or wannabe's. If you can't be honest, straight forward and YOURSELF just stop reading now. I don't want to try to change you and I don't want you to try and change me. I change for myself and kids ONLY. 8. No lushes. 9. Absolutely NO drugs. 10. I am a giver and a nu

My Dating Profile
Your dating personality profile:Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.Your date match profile:Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind.Your Top Ten Traits1. Liberal2. Adventurous3. Big-Hearted4. Sensual5. Intellectu

My Daddy!!!
Well guys u won't be hearing from me for a while...My dad had a massive heartattack at 3 this morning so I'm headed to Ashville. I'm dying inside, this man is my whole life, he raised me by himself when he didn't have to, he has done so0o much for me and now I'm losing him...I really don't feel much like writing so I'mma go..L8RZ..MWAUH!!! *~J~*

My Daily Horoscope
Daily Horoscope: Leo For July 16,2007 You're committed to seeing this action all the way to the end, but you also understand the importance of giving yourself a little creative leeway. Other people may not get it, but they don't need to: You know it works. HUH????? Does anyone else's make sense?

My Day
has been eck. is that even a word? it all started last night when my now ex friend's wife messaged me and said hey we're deleting you off our friend list because we dont think your a good friend. and so i proceeded to say what i was gonna say and so she replied back and this went on for about a good 30 minutes until she decided to pull out the name calling... Now i've been called every name is the book, but this one just makes me laugh.... she called me a "sheltered slut" hahahahahahaha soo me being me, i got alittle ethnic on her ass. and i said what i needed to say and then her husband comes in the picture and he starts all this drama and why he doesn't trust me and really he didn't even answer the question... he went on, on how if you had a problem then come to me and not to anyonelse and blah blah fucking blah soo i said i was dont with it.... that i was dont with him and his wife and jsut everything in general...... then my ex gets involved. haha and he basically says to the both

My Day 2 Day Life On Life Terms
Today, its my choice...... I invariably find that at some time in the past I've made a decisions based on self which later placed me in a position to be hurt. With the realization and acceptance that I had played a part in the way my life had turned out came a dramatic change in my outlook. It was at this point that I had to turn my life over to someone greater then me and that someone is God who then began to work in my life. In the past I had always blamed others, either God or other people, for my circumstances. I never felt that i had a choice in altering my life. My decisions had been based on fear, pride, or ego. As a result, those decisions had led me down a path of self-destruction. Today I will try to allow God to guide me on the road to sanity. I am responsible for my action (or inaction) what ever the consequences may be. I accept my humanness. Charles

My Day Of Excitment
Hey my sexxy Fucked Up Beyond All Recognition (FUBAR) Friends! Ok first off I HATE THE NAME!! I was ok with it changing too CT but FUBAR! WTF name is that.... Anyways! Just leaving a Note. My family is coming into town this morning soo Ill be pretty busy all weekend... Im sooooo excited! As many of you know I finally moved back to AZ. Loving it... Ive been here about a month.. Anyways!! I better get going. I have to be out the door in an hour to meet my mom and dad a the park! WOOT (Yep im a daddy's girl.. I hope everyone has a great weekend!@!! MUCH LOVE JEN

My Day:)
My Day Is An Average Day! I Got Up Today With One Difference Than Other Days,I Felt Loved & Cared For All Because I Had Friends To Share My Day With! For Those Reading This I Run A Internet Radio Station.Although We Dont Yet Have The Listeners I Would Like To Have,I Know That www.Megatunez.Com Will Take Off.It Is Just Taking Awhile.I Been Looking For Competent People To Dj That Have Time To Volunteer.I Like To Dj Because I Like To Share Music With The Potential Of The Whole World Listening!

My Daughter's Birthday
12 years ago at this moment I was in Pre-Op preparing to have a C-Section with my first child, my daughter. I hadn't planned on a C-Section and at 19 years old, to be honest, I was scared to death at this thought. Granted now, I'm glad I had both of my children that way. At 11:36 pm, 7/26/95, weighing 6 pounds and 6 ounces, my daughter came into this world. I remember Melissa, my doctor's nurse first comment when they were bringing Christal out was about the head full of hair that she was born with. Unfortunately, that dark full head of hair didn't stay long and for months after that she had very little. (Now though she's got incredibily thick hair.) Hard to believe that at that single moment my entire life changed forever. It wasn't just about me anymore, it was about being a mother from here on out. I have never regretted becoming a mother, sometimes I just wish I had more patience but I think that is all parents. I was recently looking at a picture of her when she was about

My Dad Is My Life
Well as some of my friends know my dad has been in the hospital and very ill...my vacation was canceled due to the fact he ended up in the hospital...he is diabetic and has been over 20 yrs. Well now he is havin major issues due to this. His kidneys are failin too and is anemic too. His prostate is enlarged which is common for a man his age. Well I had been takin care of him the for the last month thats why I had been gone....My brother and his wife took him for the week to give me alittle break and release some stress...I just got a call that he is back in the hospital and is bleeding internally. The only reason I am on here is cuz I am waiting for my friend to get here so she can stay with my little girl. I am a nervous wreck and feel like I am about to lose it...I cant lose my father he is my everything and I need him in my life still. After I lost my mother almost 8 yrs ago he became my best friend. I just want to let my friends know whats going on since I wont be on here muc

My Darling Husband.....
To my darling husband, Before you return from your overseas trip I just want to let you know about the small accident I had with the pick up truck when I turned into the driveway. Fortunately not too bad and I really didn't get hurt, so please don't worry too much about me. I was coming home from Wal-Mart, and when I turned into the driveway I accidentally pushed down on the accelerator instead of the brake. The garage door is slightly bent but the pick up fortunately came to a halt when it bumped into your car. I am really sorry, but I know with your kind-hearted personality you will forgive me. You know how much I love you and care for you my sweetheart. I am enclosing a picture for you. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms again. Your loving wife. XXX BE SURE AND SCROLL PAST THE PICTURE P.S . Your girlfriend called.

My Dad
Well, I have just been through one of the toughest weeks of my life. I just got home from Michigan last night, 07-28-07. I went out there on Tuesday after recieving a call from my brother telling me that my dad was in the hospital and the doctors were only giving him 4 days to live. It was a long drive, 16 hours to be exact, maybe a little longre with all of the road construction that I had to go through. I stopped at a rest area in Flint, Mi and slept for a while before continuing Wednesday morning. I finaly got there at about 10:30 Wednesday morning and basicaly went straight to the hospital. Manistee, Mi is where I went. Sorry. My mind still isn't functioning all that well. My brother finally got there at around 4:00 that afternoon. As a testament to how strong willed...and stuborn my dad was, he held on until about 10:30 Wednesday night. He waited until all of us were in the room and then just slipped silently away. This was after we all told him that it was ok, he could let go

My Dad's Knee Surgury...
Well my dad had knee surgury yesterday, and today the anesthesia has officially worn off. He's in some serious pain right now, and it put me just as much in pain to see my dad that way. All i ask if you read this blog is to please pray for my pops for a quick recovery. And after you pray for him, to please pass this on to all you know, so everyone could pray for him. I just hate to see anyone in pain, especially a family member. I know if any of my friends in here asked this of me, i'd damn sure do it. Thanks for the favor, and i'm in great appreciation of everyone's kind words and prayers for me and my dad and all of my family that's effected by this. Thank YOU, Derek

My Daughter Is The Shit!!!!
SHE TURNED 21 LAST WEEK AND I AM SO PROUD OF HER. SHE IS REGISTERING FOR COLLEGE COURSES TO BECOME A DENTAL ASSISTANT. SHE JUST CALLED ME AFTER HER 2ND INTERVIEW WITH HOOTER'S AND THEY JUST HIRED HER AS A HOOTER'S GIRL.....CHECK HER OUT IN " ME & MY GIRLS FOLDER"....LIFE IS GOOD FOR US BOTH!!

My Daddy
i got to talk to my dad and hes realy sad right now he had to go in today and get a MRI done to see what going on with his liver and they wont know what ups for at lest a week or so and then theres the fact that he missess us(me my sis and bro) we havent seen in a year and hafe the next time i might be able to see him will be in late January or early Febriary and thats only if i have the money to fly out to see him i wish that i could be out there now or on the 19th of this month cause that is day my grandma died last year my dads mom so i know hes realy sad right now cause he was unable to come out last year when she died the only thing he was able to do was call her on her death bed and i know that killed my dad to do that! ya i know she was never that best grandma to me and my family but she was still our grandma and i love her

My Daddys Fav Song
The Dance lyrics Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I a king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance Yes my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

My Daily Grind Pictures
Ok here it is, My daily grind pics are not of me. they are of sailors and soldiers that are going away overseas. They are of the units i train and evaluate. They are not for public view, and dont just think since ur not able to see them i dont like ya. or ur not my friend. this is my Career and i love what i do. I love my fellow brothers and sisters in arms. hope u all understand, and respect my choice to not make these photo's public

My Damn Dog!!!
I am so damn frustrated! I take my dog out every hour...sometimes more and he runs and goes potty outside...but than twenty min. after I bring him back in...he potties again. I have shampooed my carpets, tried deoterizors, tried rewarding him, and gotten as low as to put his nose in it and spank him. He just doesn't get it. And I don't know how to help him anymore. If there is anyone that has either successfully trained a dog, or knows some tips, please feel free to help me out. Thanks for reading anyhow. ~Rach

My Day Was Horrible
i had to work from 5:30 to 3 and i was the only barista there. i didnt have a break until about 11 and after being outside for maybe 30 seconds lupe comes out saying ive got a customer and hes pissed. so i go in there and he sees me and he starts yelling "youve gotta be fucking kidding me. a cigarette break. thats totally unreasonable" and so i said im sorry sir i have no help today and im required to take a 15 minute break for every four hours i work. and he said "well if youre the only one here you should never leave. whats your name, give me a pen and piece of paper, im reporting you to your district manager" so i said my name and i spelled it for him and i asked him nicely what he wanted to drink, made his drinks, gave him a free drink coupon, was nice and smiley the whole time...then he left and said thank you... wtf

My Darkling
I miss you for the pain you brought me. You know, I always loved you in sadistic ways. Now you seldom pass through my thoughts, that I don't bite my lip and feel your touch. I'm lost in time that's slipped away. I'm not sure how to move forward though I always felt that you were the one holding me back. Grasping parts of me that were lost so long ago, you held me to your shattered heart. And those moments that were the most depraved, are the moments I dream of while I hurry about my day. I miss our sordid love affair: your anguish brought me comfort, my obsession brought you peace. In in the darkest hours of the night, I feel your arms embracing me, your heated breath against my neck, and I am discontent at these soft memories that haunt me. I long to feel your teeth tearing at my neck, your claws ripping at my flesh... our passions pushed to the brink of death. Mostly, I long to feel you rip apart my soul. You know, I still love you in sadistic ways.

My Darling
Thinking of her being so far away, wish I were with her everyday. She needs to know how much I care, letting out all the feelings I share. She know all about me,but yet I havent scared her away. Demons in a closet so deep still everyday she is here to stay.I dont deserve what she gives me.Always giving it to me so freely. Told you all about her eyes and her voice, but its her heart that is what I want the most of all. Doesnt matter where or when I will be at her beckon call. What has come over me I am not sure, Just know that we have a love that is pure. Taken me a while for you to hear me say, and yes i think of you all day. Trying to let my light shine through, and my darling I LOVE YOU!!

My Dang Computer
This is just to let everyone now that I have not forgot to return the love, but that I am having problems with my Lap top internet. with all the Fires here were I live in MT it has affected the connection, But I will be in Spokane this weekend so I am going to do my best to catch up, so If you have given me some Fubar Love and I have not got back to you just leave me a shout or a message, so it will be easier for me to get back to you. thank you everyone ~COPE~

My Day Off
Wow what a day! its too damn hott out to do anything and its my day off. go figure! hopefully it will cool down a lil later so i can go out and actully enjoy the day! But until then ill just be here chillin talkin to whoever talks to me. so if your bored and got nothing to do hit me up.....im just chillin! and can use a good convo! holla at your girl! erika

My Dad's Memorial B-day Party And Balloon Launch....
Hi all!!! Well, here is the deal. I held a memorial birthday party and balloon launch for my dad on his birthday Saturday the 11th. I had a blast and can't wait to do it again next year. The only thing is...only one of his sisters came and none of my sisters came. I have a butt load of family that lives in this town and my Aunt Marsha is the only one that showed up. It is fine, cause my family and Aunt Marsha and Jose are all the people we need to make a party, but it really hurt my feelings because I wanted it to be like a mini family reunion of sorts. My oldest sister (who is a total bitch) is pissed off me and refused to let my little sister come. Anyway, I will quit bitchin' now and show you some pics....

My Daddy Was A Graverobber
In Salome Bob tells the story of what happened in London. First you have the exact date. 5th day of may. The events in London happened in may 1965. -I married Salome on the fifth day of May But I could not hold on to her very long So I cut off my hair and I rode straight away For the wild unknown country where I could not go wrong. He was on tour and therefore could not go "wrong"... -I came to a high place of darkness and light The dividing line ran through the center of town I hitched up my pony to a post on the right Went in to a laundry to wash my clothes down. Strangely Brian also recalls this event: -Didn't I see you down in San Antone on a hot and dusty night Weren't you eating eggs in Sammy's there when the black man drew the knife Didn't you drown the Jew in Rampton when he washed his sleeveless shirt With a Spanish speaking gentleman, the one that we call Kirk. This means something, but what? Entering David: -A man in the corner approache

My Dad's Round 2 With Cancer
My Father had a kidney removed today due to it have a massive Tumor Growing on it. They took it all out and are hopefully that they got all the cancer. needless to say It was not fun to watch your dad there hooked to all those tubes and stuff Please Keep my Dad Me & My son in your Prayers as we go through this situation

My Day,,,
Well today i woke up feeling pretty refreshed...alittle sore but not too bad. I had something to eat blah blah blah lol. Went down to help someone fix their computer cause they couldn't get on the internet, their computer was infected big time so i got down there and cleaned out the computer out. Talked to the ISP (Internet Service Provider) to unsuspend their account to find out what's going on with the internet connection. Well...to make this i got the IP address of the computer and modem however the ISP was having trouble catching the IP address from the modem. So after bypassing a few times, replacing the splitter, running the connection straight through from the wall to the modem still no luck. So all i could do is have someone come out on thursday to replace the modem. That was the first part of my day. Came home and passed out for a few hours than went to the store..blah blah blah...the rest of the night was a regular lol

My Daughter Rocks!!!!!!!!
I was helping my 7 year old with her homework tonight.. and her question was what do you want to be when you turn 25. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes and said " Mama what do you want to be when you turn 25...your not 25 yet your 23 right?" I just smiled and told her I love her so much! She is an angel in my eyes!!

My Daughter
All about being a Mother Current mood: loved Category: Life I love Kylee, she is my world , My life My happiness. to be 100% honest , I would be DEAD , if it wasn;t for her birth. I love that child more than ANYBODY could ever understand.. I still check on her 7-10 times a night after I put her to bed,. I worry if she is covered , I worry if she is cozy, I JUST worry!!! My Kylee is ALL that keeps me alive. Keeps me thinking of all the tommorow's.... yes I worry that I am creating a spoiled brat, because I am there for EVERY beck and call . If she say's mama I come running. My baby girl is all I have that makes me happy, that I can trust ,That I know loves me back..Her smile, OMG her smile, warms my heart , and when she gives me kisses and hug's , I am soo happy and Warm inside I could cry. I don't know how to describe what all happiness my 2 yr old gives me. I don't know where I am going with this, I just got back from checking on her and covering he

My Dad
This entry is going to be long winded, but I had to put these thoughts down before I went to bed. My Dad called me yesterday, and told me that my Mom had fallen, and bruised her hip. Dad is going on 70..Mom is 68. Dad told me not to mention it to her, because it embarassed her, and he also told me that it scared the shit out of him. He's gone to lengths to install a safety rail in the bath tub for her, etc. They will be married 50 years this November, 2007. My Dad and Mom bitch about each other all the time..."He's driving me crazy" "She won't do a damn thing"... you know, that kind of stuff. Funny thing is, they wouldn't have a clue what to do without each other. They are so in love and dependent on each other. I guess what I really wanted to get to in this rambling is that, men, no matter how egotistical and prideful we can be, would lose our mind without a caring woman in our lives. If most men would sit back and think about what really drives them, to be what they want to be...to b

My Daughters!!!!
I've learned the most important lesson about relationships that no matter what we r doin', no matter how little it seems.... All they want is 4 me 2 be fully present, they don't want me 4 what I can give them, where I can take them or what we do together.... They simply want me 4 me, they taught me that my way isn't the only way. I hope through the years, they may have learned from me sum measure of all that I have learned from them!!!! THANK YOU BABY GIRLS SHALAMOURE & DEBORAHA LUV U ALWAYZ MOMMY 8~28~07

My Day Haha
i find life a little funny.. if u know me.. u know that i so dont think i look good.. cute i can pass nothing more.. yet the more the word gets out that im single.. the more funnier things are geting for me.. for get this.. i have been asked by all the guys at my local store.. i had one he is not even 18 yet.. he came up to me and said christy can u make me a cake for my b day.. i told him sure u know i will.. when is it.. well then he asked me that when he turns 18 he wanted to know that if i could go out on a date with him that day for his b day.. i started to lmfao.. i still do.. its funny to me.. he is 17 and asking me out.. haha then today.. omg today is so funny. a girl i work with .. i would always joke with her that she needs to find me a man.. well today at work.. she would see these hot men.. i mean there is no way in hell they would want to talk to me like that.. well this one guy came in.. an yes he was hot.. and very tall.. just a good lookin ma.. well i told her im to old

My Day In A Nut Shell So Far
when all else fails and your day seems to go to hell there is always one person that seems to look on the bight side and looks past all your faults and sees the good in and outside of things no matter how bad things may seem it's usually the person you plan on spending your life with thats stands there to pick up knowing there maybe a tough road ahead and that is when you know you have found that specail someone and you don't let them go making sure you make them as happy as they make you founding a love like that is said to be one of a kind or soulmate, and you say to your self is this really possible , knowing that most people say that you may never find that one that can turn your world upside down with love, and then there are people that say once you have found this one that they are are no the one for you, then you think to your self why do people say this to you maybe they are unhappy with the one they picked for themselfs or maybe they don't want you to be happy that

My Dad
My dad passed away Aug.22,2007 his birthday was Sept.2nd. He was the most wonderful dad a girl could have. He was my dad and my best friend,I could talk to him about anything. I will miss him really bad and try not to cry. I will never forget him nore leave let him be forgotten... I love you daddy....

My Daily Ritual
I have a morning ritual that I need to share. I call it 'the terminator'. First I crouch down in the shower in the classic 'naked terminator traveling through time' pose. With my eyes closed I crouch there for a minute, visualizing either Arnold or the guy from the second movie (not the chick in the third one because that one sucked) and I start to hum the terminator theme. Then I slowly rise to a standing position and open my eyes. It helps me to proceed through my day as an emotionless, cyborg badass. The only problem is if the shower curtain sticks to my terminator leg. It ruins the fantasy.

My Dad
I laid my dad to rest yesterday. He was a great man and I will miss him very much. To all my friends.... THANK YOU for all your prayers and love. His memory will always be in our hearts for those who knew him.

My Daughter
My daughter is being a whiny and defiant little brat. I am at my whits end with her, I really want to throw her out the window with how she is acting, but I know that is wrong. But, man, I really want to throw her out the window. She is screaming at the top of her lungs, she isn't picking up her GIANT mess. It really hurts for me to bend down being pregnant to pick up her mess for her or with her. I am about to go insane!!

My Daddie
August 22, 1998 was a day I will never forget. It is the day that my daddie passed away. Being woke up by my mom... walking downstairs to find my Uncle Bill there also... My mom telling me and my brother to sit down she had something to tell us.... Feeling numb after my mom telling me that my dad had passed away... Sitting there feeling lost and feeling as though in some way I had been robbed.... Sitting there wondering where to go from there... Waiting for someone to wake me up and tell me that this was just a dream... Walking over to my dad's house to find out that it wasn't dream... Looking at my two big brothers... both sitting there crying... Wondering what would happen next... Listening to "Close My Eyes Forever" crying.. feeling all alone in this world... My daddie is gone... My daddie will never return... Then the day comes when we have lay my daddie to rest... August 25,1998... As we sit at the funeral home and people say their good byes to my daddie... My big brother holds me

My Dad
it is in great sadness that id like to tell you all that my dad passed away tonight at 11 30 pm. he was a great dad,, love my alot of people and will be missed. to all my friends on fubar thanks for all your prayors... they really helped me in a tuff time and ill be back on at sometime but for now this isnt good bye.. its just a see you later and thanks.. Give all you love ones a hug and kiss and tell them that you love them.. future

My Darker Side
"You are helpless. In a very real sense, you are my prisoner." The words echo in your ears, your sight is gone, something is covering your eyes. You try in vain to reach down and uncover them, a clinking of chains and cold metallic pressure on your wrists the only fruit of your efforts. You try and respond, the words won't come out. Something hard and smooth is pressed between your lips, tied around the back of your head. You try to shuffle your feet, again the cold metallic clink answers as you find your legs spread underneath you. Your standing, your ankles are tied with your legs spread, your arms tied over your head. Helpless, you sag against your bonds, trying to speak through your gag. "None of that, babe...you will be silent" the mocking voice responds. You try again to reason, and a sharp burning pain spreads across your ass as thin lines of heat appear. A sharp crack makes you think of a whip, one with many strands. A cool breeze blows across your skin, letting you feel yo

My Dad
Richard Grant Kaatz Peacefully, with family by his side, on Friday, September 14, 2007, at the St. Boniface Hospital, Richard Kaatz passed away at the age of 61 years. Rick will be lovingly remembered by his beloved wife Loraine, their sons: Johnathan, Doug, and special grandson Marshall, three sisters: Susan, Barb, Kim (Wayne) and their families, mother-in-law Kay, brothers-in-law: Dennis (Norma), Richard (Deb), sister-in-law Marianne (Rick), and their families. A Memorial Service will be held at 2:00 p.m., Thursday, September 20, Glen Lawn Funeral Home, 455 Lagimodiere Blvd. Interment will follow at Glen Lawn Memorial Gardens. In liew of flowers, donations may be made in memory of Rick to the Canadian Diabetes Association (Manitoba Division) or the chairty of one's choice. Special thank you to the Doctor's and wonderful staff of St. Boniface Hospital for all their care and support given to Rick and his family. "Grandpa will always be loved and Remembe

Myday
Today started off like any other day. Got up, got Kevin up and made breakfast. Loved it, just had a song in my heart, nothing was going to bring me down. Going to make this short I need to go to bed. I found out that my ex is filed for custody of Kevin. I am so upset. Yes I know he will not get him, but that slim, remote chance still lies there in the back of my mind. He abandoned us 9 months ago. we have not heard a word from him. and now he wants custody. yeah I guess he would, his child support is going to be out of this world. (just because of his income). If I could get by without anything from him I wouldn't ask for it. But then I get on here, and one of my friends was rude to me. Knowing that she was upset, I dropped what I was doing and called her. She was still rude to me. I know it isn't me that she is mad at. I really think I know what her problem is. It is being used by a fubarian that we have in common. She really likes him, and I love him to death he is sweet, but I t

My Daughter Again
She comes out with the funniest things. Other day she saw a trolley and started yelling "A TAXI!!!" Today, she told me I have to share the quarters for laundry so she can do her own laundry....she's 5. Her best friend comes out with some funny things too. Last year she was calling Pine cones, Pine CoRns. And other day, she said she had a jelly FISH sandwich, instead of jelly sandwich. They sound so innocent when saying these things, you can't help but laugh at it.

My Days Get Longer
My Days Get longer, I fear they’re harder...I find myself at times debating, why did u have go and do what you did, you tore my heart apart, you broke the family apart...I trusted you until end, and once again I look back in time to see im so alone, I cant fight this feeling tell its gone...I shed that one single tear to see your fear knowing what I knew o so along what you've been keep from me all this years, I know now its a little F**ked up, I've had it with all this fears, I begin to forward to see where I've gone and I gotta im tired of this hating, I just want you to go now and never come back, never show your face again near here and maybe someday I may forgive for what you did..............

My Day Everyday
I would first off like to say hello to everyone its my first fubar day lol its a pretty cool website myspace is getting old and over populated. my eyes grow heavy and burn from the held back tears Finally i found a man after all these years but than you had to go away and leave me here alone I know it was not at all your fault why you had to go but even if i knew this would happen i still wouldnt have said no were raising a family of our own and to everyone it will be known thaat i love you with all my heart and nothing not even this could tear us apart

My Daughters.....comment Plz
I have a strong belief in the Lord above; She was given to me to show my love; My daughter was and is my reason to be; Though trying times she let me see; Little did I know that my greatest fears; I would realize in my years; Now, in my life I should be; But, now where could my little girl be; The hurt I feel is owe so deep; At times I dare not sleep; For to dream will relive my pain; Did I do something to be ashamed; To live without her in my life; I can no longer smell or taste the fruit; You see my daughter is my reason to be; Now without her, what's for me?

My Daughter
THIS IS NOT A SOMETHING YOU SHOULD PASS UP PLEASE READ I AM ASKIN ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY HERE ON FUBAR TO KEEP MY DAUGHTER AND FAMILY IN THERE PRAYERS. MY DAUGHTER IS 17 YEARS OF AGE AND IS UNABLE TO LIVE A TEENAGERS LIFE. YOU SEE AT THE AGE OF 14 MY DAUGHTER WAS RAPPED AND IT HAS CHANGED HER LIFE TO THE WORSE. SHE WAS TAKIN AWAY FROM ME FOR 2 YEARS AND IN JULY SHE WAS BROUGHT HOME FOR GOOD BUT ONLY TO LIVE WITH MY MOTHER. SHE IS NOT ALLOWED TO BE WITH FRIENDS, NOT ALLOWED TO GET A JOB BABYSITTING, NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE HOUSE OR NOT EVEN ALLOWED ALONE WITH ME ALL BECAUSE OF THIS ASSHOLE WHO DONE THIS TO HER. AND NOW HES IN JAIL. I DONT AGREE WITH THE WAY THE PENNSYLVANIA CYS (CHILDREN IN YOUTH SERVICE) ARE RUNNIN THERE SO CALLED BUSINESS. THEY ARE THE ONES THAT ARE TAKIN MY DAUGHTERS LIFE AWAY FROM HER. ALL WE WANT IS MY LITTLE GIRL TO HAVE HER LIFE BACK TO BE ABLE TO GO TO THE PROM TO GET HER DRIVERS LICENSE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS TO GRADUATE FROM SCHOOL AND TO F

My Dark Side...
Most of you know im not really a very bright person. I love rock and dark places. Music is my life. People dont like me couse I am diffrent. I am really diffrent. In more than just one way. But I am who I am and nothing will ever change that. NO matter what you say or think. NO matter if you try to push me down it wont work. Im not going to change for enyone. Evan if that means being alone the rest of my life....

My Daughter Grace
i just put in the lyrics of my little girl by tim mcgraw in my about me section of my profile cause it reminds me of my beautiful daughter grace she is my pride and joy but sometimes in life people have their rough spots and instead of making her suffer i put her up for adoption to give her a better life and that she has now i feel one day she will thank me for it!but it hurts that she is not with me at the same time i get to see my girl grow up in pics not in person! so if you got kids don't take them for granted cause you will live to regret it

My Day Off
Was beautiful out today, I took advantage of it and took a bike ride and hit the gym to start my day. Spent a little time on here saying hello to some friends, old and new. Took off on the trails for another bike ride around the lake and golf course to finish a beautiful day. Back on here listening to some music and seeing friends. Thats right, I have some good friends here and am yet to be spoken for, so stop by, say hello, I make a good friend and decent company and have more depth to me than you may know. I think about my health and remain active with many age groups of friends. We all sometimes need someone to talk to. Keith

My Daddy...
I Miss You Daddy But I Know Your Lookin Down On Me and the Kids and I Know I Will See You Again One Day ... Tomorrow would have been my Dad's 55th Birthday had he not been takin away from me on December 26th 2006 ... I miss him so much he was all I had and he was takin away from me so quick I never got the chance to really tell him how much I loved him everyone keeps telling me he knew he was diagnosed with Brain and Lung Cancer In Sept of 2006 and was takin away December 26th 2006 and no i have never got over it nor do i think i ever will he was to young and im still angry why did they have to take my Daddy and my kid's only Grandpa Grrrrrr it frustrates me so bad and im not dealing with it well .... I have so many questions and I know they will never be answered all i can think of is when I took care of him before he passed away because he could not do anything for himself and that killed him because my dad was very independent and the last time i talked to my Dad was Christmas Night

My Daughters Birthday
Well i guess i'll begin by saying that i have never written a blog and don't really know what to put in one. I do know that it's a good place to vent your aggression. Well that's a damn good thing cause if i didn't vent here i'd probably do something really drastic!!! I HATE MY EX/BABY MOMMA!!!!! She is by far the most fucked up individual in this world. October 5th (yesterday) was my beautiful daughters first birthday. Well i was not able to see my daughter due to the fact that my ex now lives with my mom and has decided to lie and use my daughter to manipulate my mom into thinking that i am a horrible father. Maybe i should back up about 10 months ago and explain how this all came to be. My daughter was born October 5th,2006. Let me tell you, all that shit your parents tell you about how your life will change when that happens? Well they are right! When i saw my baby come into this world i fell in love. Now this love isn't the type of romantic soft and cuddl

My Daily Whorescope....
You may be the smoothest operator in town on most days, but right now you're just not a people person. It's not that you can't get the words out, though -- it has a lot more to do with your impatience with stupidity. Does this mean I am impatient with myself?I am really starting to believe I am retarded,b/c not only did I read the horobox thingy,but I took the time to think about it. Feel free to call me a Stupid Cunt or some other nice names down there.....

My Daddy Is A Soldier
My daddy is a soldier My daddy is a soldier He’s often gone away To some far off country Were he has to stay I really miss my daddy And im not sure what he does Except he helps other people Who need him very much At night when I say my prayers I ask to keep daddy safe So that he can come home to us And sit in his favourite place Some nights I can hear mummy cry When she thinks im asleep I no she misses daddy And her sadness hurts real deep I know that a day may come When daddy wont come home And It scares me even thinking That we will be alone My daddy is a soldier He’s often gone away And am so very proud of him Each and every day Come home to us daddy When your job is done I know that people needed you But they aren’t the only ones !!

My Dad
you know i never really knew my dad he was in and out of jail he beat me when i was younger but i kept going back becs i loved my little sis and didnt want anything to happen to her well one night i heard her scream and i ran to her voice and found her laying on the floor craying. i knew what has happend my dad was drunk and hit her so i beat the crap out of him and told him that he ever touched her aginhe never be able to walk again well someone called the cops becs of noise and i made it look like some one broke in my sis laied for me saying some one did my dad couldnt rember he was to drunk so did i do the right thing there??? to this day i dont know where my dad or sis is but i do know th my sis has 4 kids and hasnt seen our dad in over 10 yrs smiles i think i did the right thing

My Daddy
MY DADDY...taught me to ride a bike MY DADDY...would let me sit in the front seat MY DADDY...carried me when my feet got tired MY DADDY...introduced me to the ocean MY DADDY...told me stories from his childhood MY DADDY...spoiled me roten MY DADDY...took me to the beach MY DADDY...gave me the world MY DADDY...loved the chicago cubs MY DADDY...gave me my first hot dog MY DADDY...let me be his helper at work MY DADDY...watched cartoons with his grandson MY DADDY...loved coffee early in the mornign MY DADDY...was the smartest man i knew MY DADDY...got sick MY DADDY...couldnt carry me anymore MY DADDY...died MY DADDY...didnt know i loved him MY DADDY...never told me he loved me MY DADDY...thought he couldnt pull through MY DADDY...left me MY DADDY...wont know how i felt MY DADDY...was my hero

My Day
MySpace Graphics & MySpace Layouts Hi Everyone... Just a short note to let you know why I haven't responded to anything today. First off, I am sorry that I haven't, but I will.. Secondly, it has been because of a major headache that has kept me in bed all day.. with ice packs on my head and neck. Third, I hope you all had an amazing Sunday and had a great time watching the games.. some I have missed :( Hugs and Loves... Cassie aka Angel

My Daughter
Ok, when my youngest daughter's baby was born, I took care of her...practically raised her and she is 2 now. They moved 42 miles away. I saw her this weekend and took her to the jam room. She loved the live music and danced like crazy. She has always liked music (maybe because of me) and will play drums on whatever she can find. Scott let her play his big drum set and she had more fun than she has ever had. Now, my oldest daughter is very jealous of the relationship I have with Emmalynn. I didn't have the same relationship with her daughter. I told her today I found a real child's size drum set and was thinking about getting it for Emmalynn for Christmas. I thought Kimi was going to have a fit! She got mad because I wouldn't be able to spend the same amount of money on the other two grandkids. I want Emmalynn to do something with her abilities and she can keep a good beat. Am I wrong? What should I do to convince Kimi that I do love AraBella...just not quite the same?

My Day Off.....
blah so i don't have to work today....very happy....what am i doing?....absolutely nothing lol....chillin' on fubar mostly and that's it halloween nite....too damn sore to go out and party lol though i couldn't even if wanted to um yeah thats it for now 8-p

My Dad Died On November 11 1959; My Uncle Died On Nov. 17 2006.
so thanksgiving isnt a happy time in my family but I do give thanks . I know God gives life after death; this is my strength my eternal salvation, to follow believe and know in my heart That God ,s will be done ; and we have to trust with all our hearts in him ; he is our Creator our begining and our end. Hugs all diana

My Dark Princess
MY DRARK PRINCESS MY DRARK PRINCESS magnify MY DARK PRINCESS HERE AT THE PINNACLE OF THE RISING MOON LOVING HER DARK EMBRACE CARESSING AND FULFILLING RAGE AND PEACE OVERCOMING LIGHT NEVER SHINING AGAIN BEING EXQUISITELY EMPTY ENJOYING SHADOWS AND FLAME HERE IS THE PURENESS OF LOVE OVERWHELMING DEVELOPING INTENSITY EXPLODING BLOOD FLOWING DESIRE

My Dad
My dad is in the hospital right now. He has many health problems, at age 27 he had polo, but over came it and Served his country in Vietnam. He also suffer from High blood pressure and heart attacks. He has been on high bolld pressure med since his 30's. He has since due to his high bloood pressure meds, is on dyalsisis, his polo came back, its now called post polo, and his knees have given out. He has 4 stints in his heart. He can't walk. I see this strong man, who is a graduate of West Point and a retired LTC, my heart breaks. He been in the hospital for over 2 weeks now, due to get him ready for a knee replace, this was done Tuesday. now he still has the polo leg also to deal with. He has soo much. sorry I am just so down over everything. I cam home from PA yesturday, we finally find him a good place to go after leaving the hospial, what was offered to him I would not put my dog in!!! But my mom and I just went out on out own and found a place. So remember my dad in your thoughts t

My Dark Lover
:Dark Lover: To Live in Darkness..... From the dark of the night I hear, Your call as you draw near. I open the window and await, The arrival of my dark mate. Yours is the beauty of the night, I'm just a moth trapped by your light. I want you as my dark husband, and for that I gladly sacrifice my life. Into my neck your fangs you sink, And of my blood you deeply drink, As you take what you need to live, Your own blood to me you freely give. When the last human in me does expire, and into darkness I am born Vampire. Children of the night we'll be, You, My love and me. With hunger for the blood we need, Together we will hunt and feed. For our own selfish sake, The life's of innocents we must take. And when in Tomb from daylight we do hide, I will lie contented at your side. and with a shroud used as a cover, I'll lay down with my DARK LOVER.

My Daughters First Year
This year my daughter started kindergarten. It's alot different from when i went. We had nap time, playtime, milk and cookies. Now in my daughters school she gets none of that. They have these kids doing shapes, alphabet, counting, homework, and she even comes home with books to read. If anyone here has kids that are in kindergarten, Do they have to do all this work. I kind of like it because it gets them into the routine of homework. But some of the kids in the higher grades don't even have all the work my daughter does. Tell me what you think.

My Daily Love Astrology!
Daily Flirt: Today is a great time to clam up about your own awesomeness. Just trust the universe to spread the word and you'll get a bonus aura of humility that certain people are sure to find irresistible. Daily Couples: You're laying down the ground rules, taking charge and telling everybody what's what. Your lover adores this take-charge side of your personality. Heck, you're getting to be pretty fond of it yourself. Daily Singles: You're feeling nostalgic today, so spend some time tracking down that old high school flame. Don't be afraid to step back in time. You'll see how much progress you've made over the years. Besides -- he or she might be single.

My Day
Well today has been a downer. Its all over-cast skys and rainy... so I've been stuck up here in the apartment. I've been bored all day, watching T.V. and surfing the great fubar. I really need to get a job around here, but it seems anywhere i put in an applacation there is a waiting list from hell or something. I miss Ohio like crazy and can't wait to get back home, only 8 more months! Christmas is almost here and money issues are coming up and it is just depressing. If I had a job it would be easer. A shitty Christmas is seriously the worse. But I have my friends here so it won't be as bad but issue after issue... damn money. I guess I just needed this off my chest. I just want to get a job and start bringing in some more money, but sadly that out look, looks pretty grim. So if anyone has any advice I would love to hear it. Okay see you all later. Army Angel