GALLERY BY MARIO VASQUEZ TO CLIPS FROM PHANTOM OF THE OPERA
"JUGGALO FAMILY" BY DARK LOTUS (THE VIDEO DOESNT MATCH UP TO THE LYRICS...AT ALL)
well the good news:
my cousin dannette and her husband brian had a baby, maddox. he's so small! i just got the pics my mom forwarded me on my email.
in other shit, i officially hate life. i just dont care anymore. i dont care about the people who care for me (friends, admirers, family). i've hit a point where everything hurts but even tho my heart hurts, my mind doesnt give a fuck. i know guys SHOULDNT fall for me, i hurt them. i hurt everyone i know either intentionally or unintentionally cuz when i get doubts about something it seems to hurt someone. people dont deserve that...no matter wat ppl say, i wont make you happy later in life, i could but at wat cost? will it cost me my happiness and make you wonder why i dont smile anymore? i dont want more questions or doubts or wondering.
i wish i could die. i wish people didnt care so much, then i could and no one would care. i dont care if anything happens to me. i could get shot in a drive by (sooo unlikely) or murdered by a psycho or kill myself...and i wouldnt care. i wish i could...
guess i'm ready to call myself a juggalette. i cant think of myself as anything else and the word seems to have become part of who i am already. guess that's my decision then. wonderin if i should start becomin like my sis...of course if i do, i'd be doing harder shit than just weed. prolly not worth it.
i dont fuckin care anymore
