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I found this and really liked it so i thought i would share it with you... A Special Note to the Christians who tell me I am going to burn in hell for eternity by Summer Fey Foovay A special note to the Christians who like to tell me I am going to fry in hell for eternity You believe in the Devil. I do not. You believe in a firey Hell. I do not. Maybe you believe in an earth shattering apocolypse as well. I believe that if that happens, it is because we allowed it to. The big difference between our religions, as far as I can see, is your God of Love will condemn me to eternity in Hell. My loving Goddess will greet you when you enter the spirit world. Sit down with you and a box of popcorn and watch the movie of your life, then ask you how you judge yourself and the way you spent the power of your spirit in this life. If the two of you decide you spent it spreading negativity and pain, she will embrace you, pat you on the head, and then chose another life for you on th
Pagans In The Military
Wiccan/Pagan Military Groups to Support In Iraq, Kuwait, Kyrgystan, and Afghanistan Most Recent Update: 06.08.07 To request this list, or for most recent updates; please contact: SGT Eric Cooper at: or Rev. Kay J. Ahl at: Desert Moon Open Circles and Study Groups Sponsored by Aquarian Tabernacle Church – Wiccan/Pagan: Home Military Group: Forest Moon Grove, Tacoma, Washington: - 160 members – founded by Sgt Eric Cooper Wiches Voice page: Iraq Groups and Contacts Camp Speicher Contacts - approx. 40 troops meet on base in Tikrit James Pitman HHC 57th Signal Bn. APO, AE 09393 Email: David Farris HHC 3/25 AVN ATTN S-3 FOB Speicher APO AE 09393 Email: Key Elliot 8-11 Soldiers, HSC 1ENG COB SPEICHER APO AE 09393 keyfoxfa
Pagan Kitties
"A fundamentalist preacher was taking a walk one day and happened upon a young girl who was playing with something in a cardboard box. When he got closer he could see that in the box was a litter of new-born kittens. "What kind of kittens are those?" asked the preacher. "Why, they're Christian kittens," replied the little girl. The preacher walked on, pleased to see that the little girl had Jesus foremost in her thoughts. A few days later the preacher saw the little girl again. "And how are your little Christian kittens doing today?" asked the man of God. "Oh, they aren't Christian kittens, they're Pagan kittens," replied the girl. "But...but.. . I thought you said last week that they were Christian kittens," sputtered the flabbergasted preacher. "Oh, they were. But now their eyes are open." *sigh* so tires, refuse to sleep. need to be occupied. help.
"I AM A WITCH" When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a "Witch". When I stand up for those I love, they call me a Witch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts, or do things my own way, they call me a Witch. Being a witch entails raising my children to be strong people Who have a solid sense of personal and social responsibility Who are not afraid to stand up for what they believe in Who love and respect themselves for the beautiful beings they are. Being a witch means that I am free to be the wonderful creature I am, With all my own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty. Being a witch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak up against it, I am defined as a witch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone else's maid or when I act a little selfish. I am proud to be a witch! It
Pagan Bill Of Rights‏
PAGAN BILL OF RIGHTS ONE - Pagans shall have the same freedom to worship that is granted to followers of other religions. TWO - Pagans shall have the same respect of all elected officials who represent them that is afforded to followers of other religions. THREE - A Pagan parent's religion shall not be used as evidence for the purpose of deciding child custody issues. FOUR - Pagans shall be free to work without regard to their religion, and shall be free from proselytizing and harassment at the work place. FIVE - Pagans shall have the same freedom to conduct their lives that is given to followers of other religions, within the boundaries of the law, without interference by or discrimination from representatives of their local, state or federal government. SIX - School district personnel and classroom visitors shall not proselytize or harass Pagan children while on public school property or at public school functions. SEVEN - Pagans shall have the sa
Pagan Holidays
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What kind of Pagan are you?created with You scored as Kabbalistic PaganKabbalistic study derives from Judaism, and acknowledges that the divine is vast and unknowable. The Torah was reinterpreted because of this idea, to gain a greater understanding of the sacred text. Kabbalistic mysticism is still alive in our world, specifically in tarot cards; symbolic color is a Kabbalistic belief and study. Those who follow this path are generally those who are open to the concept that we cannot know the Divine, and accepts the connection of all things, even religion, itself. Celtic Pantheonic Pagan 40%Kabbalistic Pagan 40%Ecclectic Pagan 40%Sumerian, Babylonian, and Mesopotamian Pagans 30%Egyptian Pantheonic Pagan 30%Eastern Pagan 30%Catholic (Pagan?) 30%Zoroastrian Pagan 20%Norse Pantheo
Pagan Presentations
The Druids were a Celtic priesthood, who live in the British Isles around 1000BC. They used a lunar calendar of 13 months each of which had 28 days on one intercalary day to calculate their year and their important holidays. Centuries later the medical knowledge of herbal medicine relating to trees and plants were found in Ireland. The Celts and others in the old world thought that certain types of trees held special significance. They could be user for building shelters, heating the home, cooking the meals, and weaponry. Many woods that held a most powerful presence would differ from culture to culture and from location to location. Trees which were considered to be “sacred” all shared similar type of traits. Beauty, size and materials provided by the tree or spirit of the tree would or could place it in a central place in the local folklore or mythology of a culture. Trees are living things and are filled with essences and energies of all the elementals and Mother Earth. Po
The words 'Paganism' and 'Pagan' come from the Latin 'paganus,' meaning 'country dweller. In simplest terms - Paganism is a religion of place, or a native religion, for example the Native American's religion is Pagan, Hinduism is a form of Paganism. All Pagan religions are characterized by a connection and reverence for nature, and are usually polytheistic i.e. have many Gods and/or Goddesses. Paganism is a religion of nature, in other words Pagans revere Nature. Pagans see the divine as immanent in the whole of life and the universe; in every tree, plant, animal and object, man and woman and in the dark side of life as much as in the light. Pagans live their lives attuned to the cycles of Nature, the seasons, life and death. Unlike the patriarchal religions (Christianity, Islam, Judaism) the divine is female as well as male and therefore there is a Goddess as well as a God. These deities are within us as well as without us (immanent); they are us. They are not simply substitu
Pagan Symbols
THE MOON Changes it's face roughly every 28-29 days, at about the same rate that female humans menstruate, it has long been associated with the feminine and hence the Goddess - Artemis and Hecate. THE SUN The God symbol - Apollo and Jesus THE CHALICE Cup used in ritual It is a container and is associated with the womb and vagina, and hence a symbol of the Goddess. Two examples of Chalices in myth are the Cup that Jesus had drunk from at the last supper, and the Holy Grail, which the knights of the round table had to search for in order for Arthur (and the land) to become whole again. THE ATHEME It is a dagger used in rituals, primarily to focus and concentrate power. It is a phallic symbol and as a cutting tool a divider, and thus represents The God. Magic swords are another version of the Atheme and are popular in fantasy novels and myth. One example is Excaliber, which King Arthur uses via "divine right". Another is Stormbringer, as used by Elric in the sto
Paganism, Wicca, Magic
In today's world, as in the ages long past, certain things disrupt the flow of power. In today's world it is technology. To truly connect with the power, involvement with technology is, out of necessity, to be limited. Consider the following truth: As humans evolved and grew more civilized and began to utilize technology in more ways, the human ability to channel the power for magic has been lost, or greatly interfered with. With each passing century, things vanished from our world, moving to just beyond the veil. Rarely do these beings and creatures cross back. Sadly, many of these mystical things have become jokes. To truly regain the power and ability, one must first learn to do without technology for long periods of time, then one can cross through the veil, not in dreams but fully awake.
Pagan Humor
(Tune: The Beverly Hillbillies by E.Scruggs) (Lyrical adaptation by Hare) Now listen to the words of the Great Star Mother, In days long past called by one name or tuther, "I am your Mammy, Queen of Earth, Air, Fire, Sea, So you better quit your yappin' an' listen to me." (Isis, that is...Astarte...Cerridwen) "When the Moon is full, bright as a silver dollar, Open up yer winder an give your Mam a hollar. I'll hear you callin, jest as clear as a bell, An I'll come a runnin an visit fer a spell." (Circle, that is...Esbat...Draw down the Moon) "Now y'all listen up, 'cause I'd hate to be a bitch, When we have our shindigs t'aint none should wear a stitch. Y'all will eat an' drink an' dance an' love, to show that you're free, 'Cause all acts of pleasure are sacred to me." (Skyclad, that is...Great Rite...Cakes an' Wine) "If you wanna know my secrets, then look in your own hide, 'Cause if what you seek ain't there, well, it won't be found outside. The greatest Myst
ALEXANDRIAN WICCA: Founded by Alex Sanders in England. Alex claimed to have been initiated as a Hereditary Witch by his grandmother, when he was seven years old in 1933, but critics claim many Alexandrian rituals are almost identical to Gardnerian ones, with a little more emphasis on ceremonial magic. The tradition\'s rituals, while basically Gardnerian, are modified with many Judeo-Christian and Ceremonial Magick elements. Covens work skyclad. The eight Sabbats are observed and the Goddess and God are revered. Alexandrian Wiccans are considered to be Traditional Witches who trace their line of initiatory descent from Alex and Maxine Sanders, through a line of Alexandrian High Priests and High Priestesses, according to the Alexandrian Book of Shadows, and who practice the Alexandrian Tradition of Wicca. ALGARD WICCA: Mary Nesnick, an American who was initiated into both Gardnerian and Alexandrian traditions, combined them in 1972 and created a new tradition called Algard. AMERICA
Pagan Humor
Dear Mr. and Mrs. Thomas, I write this letter in concern of your daughter, Aradia Moon. Please don't take this the wrong way, however, although she is a straight-A student and a very bright child, she has some strange habits that I feel we should address. Every morning before class, she insists on walking around the classroom with her pencil held in the air. She says she is "drawing down the moon." I told her Art Class is in an hour and to please refrain from drawing until then. And speaking of Art Class, whenever she draws a night sky, she insists on drawling little circles around all the stars and people dancing on the ground. And that brings up dancing, I had to stop her twice for taking off her clothes during a game of "Ring Around the Rosey"! By the way, what does the term "skyclad" mean? Aradia has no problem with making friends. I always find her sitting outside during recess with her friends sitting around her in a circle. She likes to share her juice and cookies. I
Pagan Humor
(Tune: The Beverly Hillbillies by E.Scruggs) (Lyrical adaptation by Hare) Now listen to the words of the Great Star Mother, In days long past called by one name or tuther, "I am your Mammy, Queen of Earth, Air, Fire, Sea, So you better quit your yappin' an' listen to me." (Isis, that is...Astarte...Cerridwen) "When the Moon is full, bright as a silver dollar, Open up yer winder an give your Mam a hollar. I'll hear you callin, jest as clear as a bell, An I'll come a runnin an visit fer a spell." (Circle, that is...Esbat...Draw down the Moon) "Now y'all listen up, 'cause I'd hate to be a bitch, When we have our shindigs t'aint none should wear a stitch. Y'all will eat an' drink an' dance an' love, to show that you're free, 'Cause all acts of pleasure are sacred to me." (Skyclad, that is...Great Rite...Cakes an' Wine) "If you wanna know my secrets, then look in your own hide, 'Cause if what you seek ain't there, well, it won't be found outside. The greatest Myste
The words 'Paganism' and 'Pagan' come from the Latin 'paganus,' meaning 'country dweller. In simplest terms - Paganism is a religion of place, or a native religion, for example the Native American's religion is Pagan, Hinduism is a form of Paganism. All Pagan religions are characterized by a connection and reverence for nature, and are usually polytheistic i.e. have many Gods and/or Goddesses. Paganism is a religion of nature, in other words Pagans revere Nature. Pagans see the divine as immanent in the whole of life and the universe; in every tree, plant, animal and object, man and woman and in the dark side of life as much as in the light. Pagans live their lives attuned to the cycles of Nature, the seasons, life and death. Unlike the patriarchal religions (Christianity, Islam, Judaism) the divine is female as well as male and therefore there is a Goddess as well as a God. These deities are within us as well as without us (immanent); they are us. They are not simply substitu
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Pagan Pride Day
Celebrating the Ancient Gods & Goddesses Biloxi Pagan Pride's 3rd Annual Event Saturday, September 27, 2008 at Biloxi's Town Green Musical Guests - Lucidian Presentation on Heathenry by Guests of Honor the Hildulf Kindred Author, Dr. Daniel Capper of USM, will speak concerning religious diversity plus... Amnesty International of USM ...this years food drive will benefit the pantry at Camp Sister Spirit Folk School Vendors for 2008 Whiltierna - Celtic & Pagan artwork by Kathy Shannon McKee, tarot, palm & past life readings, loose semi-precious stones, and herbs by Judy Smith Pottery Your Way - sculpture, pottery, paintings by Gulf Coast Artist, Nimue Aeon, plus pottery demonstrations and children's crafts Toad's Bone Apotheca - Traditonal Witchcraft and Conjury supplies... featuring HoodooULove washes & baths Circle of the Green Faery - incense, oils, candles, statuary, jewelry and a small selection of books Enchanted Knoll -
The 13 Pagan Commandments
Thou shall not turn thy ex into a frog. Thou shall not meddle in the affairs of dragons, for thou are crunchy and taste good with ketchup. Thou shall not laugh at nekked snow sprites. Thou shall not get drunk with thy Goddess's wine. Thou shall not sacrifice thy little sister. Thou shall not go running around proclaiming thy witchhood if thy are in times of burning. Thou shall not question the word of thy High Priestess - She is God. Thou shall not laugh at being nekked at coven - thou shall be killed. Thou shall not commit to signing anything that declares any single person as thy lord and savior. Thou shall not invoke thy Watchtowers only to say "never mind". Thou shall not burn enough candles to burn thy house down. Thou shall not have the magickal name "Sir Stinky Fartsalot". Thou shall not call coven only for laughs.
Paganman Goes Live!
Hi, any you guys and gals want to join the Paganman party, be a promoter or affiliate? Get in touch! PaganMan Well today we launched our online magazine, lots of excitement and lots of buzz about the place. Best thing is meeting all the new promoters of our mag, setting up the affiliates and sharing our success. Thank you beautiful people
Pagan Humor
Now for those of you who are new, and have never encountered persons calling themselves pagans, witches, goddess-worshippers, here's how to tell us apart--with a healthy bit of tongue in one's cheek. Is this the first time you've seen this many pagans together? Well, you're in for a deflowering, young earth-worshipper, and you've come to the right place. However, you should realize that there are many, many types of pagans. In the old day's, we old farts just had to keep making the rounds until we either found a group that wouldn't kick us out or founded our own clique. But now, progress has brought us many different flavors to choose from. 1. Bright-Eyed Novice: You just read this cool book about a religion where there's a Goddess and a God, and they meet outside in nature, instead of some scary old building. They think sex is GOOD not evil, and you want to know where to sign up. Distinguishing Signs: Mispronounces god/dess names, has to think a moment about which is deo
Paganman Magazine
If anyone is looking for extra cash drop me a line. We are currently hiring online sales reps. Pagan Man is launching its sales subscription positions and would like you to be part of our team. Can be easily worked along side your present employment. “Nice little earner”… No sales experience, well don’t worry. Below is a brief outline as to what it’s about and how you can make money. Subscription Sales The cost per yearly subscription is $49.95. For each yearly subscription you sell you make $14.98 Pagan Man Publications Pagan Man Publications is an online Adult Magazine publisher, providing high quality content to the adult market, replacing the need for printed top shelf magazines. Pagan Man Publishing has released its first publication, Pagan Man, in conjunction with Hustler & Dennis Publications International Based Sales: Subscription (full time/part-time) The first of a new generation of sales, delivering targeted lead generation and sales for
Pagan Creed
Pagan Creed I am Pagan and I dedicate myself to channeling the spiritual energy of my inner self to help and to heal myself and those around me. I know that I am a part of the whole of nature. May I grow in understanding of the unity of all nature. May I always walk in balance. May I always be mindful of the diversity of nature as well as it's unity and may I always be tolerant of those whose race, appearance, sex, sexual preference, culture and other ways differ from my own. May I use psychic powers wisely and never for aggression or for malevolent purposes. May I never direct it to curtail the free will of another. May I always be mindful that I create my own destiny and reality, and that I have the power within me to create positivity in my life. May I always act in honorable ways: being honest with myself and others, keeping my word whenever I have given it, fulfilling all responsibilities and commitments I have taken on to the best of my ability. May I
why is it that when ppl find out ur religion and its not theres they automaticlly label u a devil worshiper?well im pagan/wiccan,and it is a very peaceful religion,loving the earth,and changing all the negitivity todays world gives u and turning it into positive energy.and helping ppl that needs help if u can.where do u get devil worshiper from that?   i just dont get the world these days,and sumtimes i wonder how the human race has lasted this long,maybe its luck,maybe not,who knows.
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Toshiba laptop with full software upgrade.....$1800 Bottle of Remy-Martin VSOP Cognac.....$175 Tag Heuer Aquaracer Chronograph Watch.....$1450 Not having to dip into the rent money for new toys.......Priceless There are some things money can't buy........for everything else, there's your annual tax refund!!! :) Top 10: Things Women Love To Hear 10. "How was your day?" When you ask her how her day went, her interpretation is that you are thoughtful and eager to know about her 9-to-5 routine. Downside - By saying this, you will have opened the door for her to babble on and on about how her day actually was, effectively killing any chance you had at watching the baseball game or for that matter even getting a word in for an extended period of time. 9. "I can't believe how sexy you look!" Straight up, this tells her that you find her attractive, and to a lesser extent, that you want some. But, if you're in a relationship, she'll hear more than that -
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I'm still workin on my page wit wut lil time i have to spare on it. I'm wondering if any of you know how to upload music from ur own pc if it is even possible cuz i want sum songs that are not on any of the video codec sites. If you have any sugestions on how I can pimp up my page better feel free to let me know. I welcome constructive critism so feel free to give it up. I'm also pretty new to the site and trying to move up in cherry points so feel free to comment on my page and blog. Holla at cha gurl!!! ThRoWd OfF * BaByGuRl *
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It has just been brought to my attention by my beautiful, sexy and wonderful soon-to-be-wife, Jamie, that because I put all my posts under one blog that I do not get any points for them because you cannot rate more than one post per blog. I did not know this. Now I do! :) Welcome to Page Two! Thanks, baby......I love you!!!!! xoxoxoxo
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Do you talk in your sleep? Allegedly Red jello or Blue Jello? Jello is schnasty!!! What's getting on your nerves right now? Not a thing Whats your favorite color(s)? Blue Window seat or aisle seat? Window seat of the emergency exit row Ever met anyone famous? Yeah. I live in NYC. Everyone here is famous. Do you feel that you've had a truley successful life? Not yet, but I've got a few shots left. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl Dr. Phill or Oprah Winfry? I wish the two of them would have a freakin chainsaw fight and hack each other to bits. Basketball or football? Football How long do your showers last? I guess maybe 5 minutes Do you know how to drive stick? Yup Personality or looks? Personality, but looks matter too. Are you self-conscious? Yes Have you ever given money to a bum? No Where do you wish you were? Minnesota Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? lol....sure Last gift you received? ummmm....
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"I arise in the morning torn between the desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day." - E.B. White A guy with a black eye boards his plane bound for Pittsburgh and sits down in his seat. He notices immediately that the guy next to him has a black eye too. He says to him, "Hey this is a coincidence, we both have black eyes; mind if I ask how you got yours?" The other guy says, "Well, it just happened. It was a tongue twister accident. See, I was at the ticket counter and this gorgeous blonde with the most massive breasts in the world was there. So, instead of saying 'I'd like two tickets to Pittsburgh,' I accidentally said "I'd like two pickets to Tittsburgh'. So she socked me a good one." The first guy replied, "Wow! This is unbelievable. Mine was a tongue twister too. I was at the breakfast table and I wanted to say to my wife, "Please pour me a bowl of Frosties, honey." But I accidentally said, "You ruined
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Ok Friends, Family, And Bitches. I Added One Of Those Photo Guestbooks To My Page...SO GO FUCKIN SIGN IT
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A woman was shopping at the local supermarket where she selected: A half-gallon of 2% milk, A carton of eggs, A quart of orange juice, A head of romaine lettuce, A 2 lb. can of coffee, and A 1 lb. package of bacon. As she was unloading her items on the conveyor belt to checkout, a drunk standing behind her watched as she placed the items in front of the cashier. While the cashier was ringing up the purchases, the drunk calmly stated, "You must be single." The woman was a bit startled by this proclamation, but she was intrigued by the derelict's intuition, since she was indeed single. She looked at the six items on the belt and saw nothing particularly unusual about her selections that could have tipped off the drunk to her marital status. Curiosity getting the better of her, she said: "Well, you know what, you're absolutely right. But how on earth did you know that?" The drunk replied, "Cause you're fuckin ugly."
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Ok, so if you read my last blog you know that I am just stoopidly in love with my baby, Jamie. She rocks my whole world and makes everything about me better. We're entered in this "Best Cherry Couple" contest. I'm sure my older friends are shaking their heads and laughing at me thinking of all the stuff I always said about contests in the past. lol Well I told you...Jamie makes me better and now I like contests, so nyah, nyah. :P Anyway, we're doing pretty well in this and I know we're gonna win, but if you guys could help us out some we'd really really appreciate it. I'm sure love and gifts will be flying all over the place. lol It's a rate and bomb contest, so if you got a few minutes come drop a few on us at the link below. Just click my face. Love you guys.....thanks for helping! :) I joined this site late last summer because I saw it mentioned somewhere and just thought I'd give it a look. I was hooked on it from the start, but at that time I had no idea that c
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"I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin deep. That's deep enough. What do you want, and adorable pancreas???" Jean Kerr Playwright and author
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A guy goes to the supermarket and notices a beautiful blond woman who waves at him and says hello. He's rather taken back, because he can't place where he knows her from. So he says, "Do you know me?" To which she replies, "I think you're the father of one of my kids." Now his mind travels back to the only time he has ever been unfaithful to his wife and he says, "My God, are you the stripper from my bachelor party who I laid on the pool table with all my buddies watching, while your partner whipped my butt with wet celery?" She looks into his eyes and calmly says, "No, I'm your son's math teacher."
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Simple Simon met a pieman going to the fair Said Simple Simon to the pieman "What have you got there?" Said the pieman to Simple Simon "Pies, asshole!"
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Here’s the story of a lovely lady Who was bringing up three very lovely girls. All of them had hair of gold, like their mother, The youngest one in curls. Here’s the story, of a man named Brady, Who was busy with three boys of his own, They were four men, living all together, Yet they were all alone. Till the one day when the lady met this fellow And they knew it was much more than a hunch, That this group would somehow form a family. That’s the way we all became the Brady Bunch. The Brady Bunch. That’s the way we all became the Brady Bunch. The husband had just finished reading a new book entitled, "You Can Be the Man of Your House." He stormed to his wife in the kitchen and announced, "From now on, you need to know that I am the man of this house and my word is Law. You will prepare me a gourmet meal tonight, and when I'm finished Eating my meal, you will serve me a sumptuous dessert. After dinner you are going to go upstairs with me and we will have t
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Husband: Ya know.....if you learned to cook, we could fire the chef!!! Wife: Yeah.....and if you learned to fuck, we could fire the gardener too!!!
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Ok....this is a little random, but I just thought of it so I'm doing it The Winter Olympics are BORING AS HELL!!! Although I appreciate the dedication and athleticism involved, curling and modern biathlon just don't keep me riveted to my TV. I skating......bobsled...... All exciting events. But there's a whole lot of airtime to fill and not a lot of thrills to do it with. I have come up with 5 new events that I believe would "spice up" the winter games and send the TV ratings through the roof. I am sending this list to IOC chairman Jacues Rogge for future consideration. "THE NEW WINTER GAMES" 1) Team Snowball Fighting Teams of four compete in a double elimination tournament. The teams face each other on a basketball court sized field. Each team gets a small "snow fort" and 500 snowballs. The match lasts for 2 five minute periods and is scored on a "points for hits" system, scoring as follows: Arm or leg - 1 pt B
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Do you know what love is? Real love? Soulmate love? Do you know what it feels like to have the most beautiful person you ever met love you unconditionally? Do you know what it's like to have that person think you're wonderful and adorable and sexy....and think these things about things that you've just always done and been....and no ones ever thought they were wonderful or adorable or sexy before? Do you know what it's like to have someone be so embedded in your soul that you dream about them every single night? Do you know what it's like to wake up in the morning and go about your day and feel like you never even left the dream? Do you know how it feels to have a person come along and change everything? Do you know how it feels to have someone make you better just by being in your life? Do you know what it's like to have someone make your heart melt? Do you know what it's like to meet the person that you've been looking for from the time you were born? Do y
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The PAGE Prayer: Our Father, who art in England, Hallowed be thy Name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, in America as it is in England. Give us this day our daily rock. And forgive us our inferiority, As we forgive those who are inferior to us. And lead us not into temptation, But deliver us from the Beastie Boys. For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever. Amen. BY: Unknown
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This is an old one, but since I'm on the bus again I thought I'd repost it. Sociopath On A Bus.... Hey big sleepy fat guy....why are you here You're smelly and sweaty and snore in my ear I'm not your alarm clock you big freakin' load Your stop was a half mile back up the road Hey 90 year old lady, where are you off to your face is all wrinkly your hair's sorta blue you haven't been laid since 1962 and you can't have my seat cause I'm tired too Hey babbling psycho, I knew YOU'D be here at the top of your lungs from a seat in the rear you give a great sermon we pretend not to hear everyone moves away, no one wants to be near All the freaks and the geeks and the wierdos and pimps the crackheads, the hookers, the gangstas and gimps From this mass of humanity I'll rise to the top Move your ass big fat sleepy guy, here comes my stop
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1. What is the status of you and the last person you held hands with? My sons, last night crossing the street. 2. Whats bothering you right now? My head hurts a little bit, 4. Wallpaper on your computers desktop? My sweetheart! 5. Backround on your cell phone? ummmm.....I dunno 6. What do you want in your life right now? My WHOLE family 7. Listening to? TV 9. What do you smell like? WD-40. Just got home from work. 10. Drinking? Nothing 11. Whats your favorite thing you have on your bed? Sex 12. Who was the last person to sleep with you? 8 ) My son Kevin 13. If you could change something in your life, what would it be? I'd jump forward a few months 14. What do you wear to bed? Usually shorts and a tee 15. Who will you sleep with tomorrow? Nobody 16. Have you ever been gambling? I have 17. Whats something you wish you could understand better? Why all my "pre-qualified" Fu surveys tell me I'm not qualified 18. What did you do la
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"A Tourists Guide to Driving In New York City" I've spent many years driving in NYC both for work and for pleasure. I thought I'd share some insights to the skills and mindset needed to drive here for any of you that might ever be thinking of doing so. Hope this is helpful. 1) DO NOT DRIVE IN NEW YORK CITY!!! There's no reason for you to drive here. We've got trains, taxis, ferries, buses, horse drawn cariages, helicopters, rickshaws (really!), trams, and many more ways to get you wherever you need to go, and faster than you could drive there anyway. Seriously...park your car in Fort Lee, NJ and take a bus into Manhattan. Trust me, you have no idea what you're getting into driving here. 2) HOW THE STREETS WORK There are 12 "avenues" that run north-south. The first through third are 1st, 2nd and 3rd Avenue. 1st and 3rd go north only while 2nd goes south only. The fourth is Lexington, except in Harlem where it's Malcolm X goes south The fifth is Madiso
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It seem that people are hacking into peoples pages and changes things they dont have permission to do. I resently noticed this on one of my pictures. Which has since been deleted. I do not know why they people do this and risk going to jail and/or prison. This is out very disturbing. They messed up my eyes and took out a tiny mole. And changed the blinds in the background. What d*@K$! SO BEWARE.
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Dirty Little SecretsTAKE THIS SURVEY! Take this survey Whats your fantasy? Will Be for her only.... Ever had sex on the beach? Well yes do Live in flordia... Would you? Yes just answered that lol Do you like it on top? OF course Are you aggressive in bed? Yes I am a GUy lol Whats your favorite position? As Long as I in all of them are.... Do you like it doggy style? Of course Have you done it standing up? Yes Have you had sex in public? YES Would you? Yes Have you had sex in a vehicle? YES What was the most exciting time? I DON'T KISS AND TELL SORRY Would you have sex in front of thousands of people? HAVE ALREADY Do you like it rough? NO Are you loud? NOT REALLY Do you talk during sex? OF COURSE What do you say? DON'T KISS AND TELL SORRY Do you like 69? OF COURSE IF YOU DON'T YOUR A IDIOT Ever made a sex tape? YES WANT TO SEE THEM LOLOL Would you? JUST ANSWERED THAT Have you thought of someone else during sex? HELL NO Do you watch porn? OF COURSE Do you have sex
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I am finally home from a bad day at work. You meet me at the door. I am spent and disturbed by the cruelty and ignorance of a few of my customers. You smile at me and wrap me in your warm arms. "I'm so glad you're home Honey" I can smell the dinner you cooked but underlying that a warm smell that is yours and yours alone. Clean and earthy, calming because it is yours. I don't want the hug to end. I feel safest within these strong arms. You have wrapped all your love and concern within it and it soothes my injured soul. Yet you pull away with a gentle smile and lead me to the couch. You have my tea set ready and are pouring me a cup of chamomile tea. You prop my feet and tell me " Dinner will be ready in about 10 minutes" You come around behind me, rub my stiffened shoulders and ask, "What has you so upset Honey?" I melt and blurt it all out. By the time dinner is done we are both laughing at how absurd the situation was. I try to stand to help with dinner and you push me
Paging Dr. Luv
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Pagon's Thoughts And Random Tidbits
Hey ya'll just wanted you to go check out the temptation x radio lounge here on cherrytap and also go check out the website . There is alot of good DJ's on there. I will be starting to DJ there soon and I am gonna put on some awesome shows. We all take request and will play music that is good unlike fm radio. So come check it out and give us some love. I will update this when I know when I am gonna be on the air. Later ya'll. DJ Pagon well i just got a new router today so now me and my wife are back online at the same time. my car died yesterday so i have know clue whats going on it might be the battery or it might be the starter. in the next couple days i am gonna be putting alot more pics of my wife and my son. i hope more people rates and comments on them (joey is just so cute when you see his pics you will understand). i made both files for friends only so if you want to see them you have to add me as a friend. well thats all for now i'll blog more anot
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Hello everyony! I'm sorry it took so long for me to start this blog. I've been quite busy these past few months trying to get my site back up! As of last Thursday, it was done! (YEAH!) Now I can spend time doing the things I love most! Emailing, chatting, blogging, etc. (My first cam tomorrow! :) )I'll be checking in with news about me and what is happening in my little corner of the world! Until then....XOXOX!
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Paige Brewer
My mother is friends with the mother of this girl and this is the note that she left on facebook concerning the well-being of her daughter Paige...... My 16 yr old daughter Paige Marie Brewer has run away from home. She was living with my mother in Faribault MN to finish high school after my move to the cities. I visited with her Saturday and she showed me a card and bear that was sent to her. She said it was from a 17 yr old she thought was gay and "nothing to worry about". The card was proclaiming his love for her. I told her I didn't approve of her giving out her address on line and would revoke her computer privledges if she continues with that lack of judgement. She mentioned something about a man named Johnathon "The Impaler" Sharkey who thought he was a vampire and had run for governer. I thought it was just someone she was researching because of the Vampire thing, she seems to be enthralled with that lately and I figured it was due to the whole "Twilight" craze. I didn't
Is there anyone here going to Voodoo Unrest at CBZ on Oroville...if so..what side are you on and why that particular side? I cant fucking wait to get the parts for my ion! Im gonna go tear up the field at 30+ BPS with my Supaupped ION biatches!!!
well i had surgery lastnight i have a staff infection on my leg and the had to cut it open from my upper hip to my lower calf and i have 401 stiches in my leg so just pray for me that i will be able to play football again plz and thank u for all of u that do i love all of u guys bye dustin i fuckin hurt my leg in a game monday and i hurt it even more today i broke a window by punching it becaz i was so mad and in so much pain and i fell becaz me leg gave out and it hurt so bad i had tears coming out ofmy eyes and im playing friday night so if u wanna say im a pussy u go break ur ankle and then play a fuckin fooabll game frieday and then u can call me a pussy
Pain Is Love
My heart is full of pain caused by things said in vain No hope shines upon me my regret is torturous tearing my heart from corner to corner blood seeping into internal wounds deep Will tomorrow shine as it did when i looked into her eyes? Will I be forgiven,or must i forgive myself first? My mind is shattered,along with my heart why is my world falling apart?
Pain Isn't Always Good.
Hmmmm... so that maybe some poor soul doesn't have to go through what I am.. Next time your tooth hurts.. Don't use painkillers til the pain killers no longer work... After that usually equals a root canal. I learned this now.. LOL. Vicodin rocks but pain does not. Learn it, live it, do it right.
We give our heart, then they take theres away. I dont understand the games that are played. Why do they sit you up on there shelf. Leave you there while they go out by them self. You collect dust, waiting around.. Your heart and soul becomes bound. No longer do words come from your mouth, a doll that has broken, tattered and used. You sit there only to amuse. Abused, confused, and misunderstood, why in the world do you do this to yourself. So beautiful to others, so fragile and free you could be. Yet your falling like a leaf. So many options, yet your eyes stay closed, and that poison jus goes right through your soul. A door has closed, but another always opens... dont be afraid sweet angel, your day will come.. N like all others you will find the one.... I sit here thinking to myself, How come I have to play this hand I was delt. Why can I not change my stars. Why do I get thrown to a far. I give my all, heart and soul, only to be struck by a wooden poll. Hit again, and down I go. Sim
Pain And Darkness
Pain And Darkness I can't describe the pain i feel inside the pain you made me feel..I trusted you, gave you my heart. You said you wanted to be with me you told me you cared. I should have known it was all lies.. My heart was locked and chained with no key but somehow u broke it free...I loved you so much you made the pain go away, made me feel like there was hope that i would make it through that I would finally have someone to hold me someone to care..But it was all a dream...I should have known it was all to good to be true i told you of my pain and how I was tired of bein hurt, you said you wouldn't hurt me you wanted to be with me and make me happy.. lies..all lies I can't believeI fell in love with you now all the pain all the darkness has returned, the feeling that I wont make it through there is no light all I see is darkness...I see no hope i have no one to hold me no one to love me no one to care for me.. The lonliness darkness and pain is worse than ever this I d
You know people is suppose to be here to help you but when you ask for help some people come up with dumbass remarks and there suppose to be there to help well I consider that dumb ass hell and if I needed help like that then I'm better off by myself so yea Bouncers or whatever you wanna call yourselfs are nothing but biggest joke I've ever seen you sit there behind your little computer judgeing someone by there screen name your suppose to be here to help someone not sit there and judge them by there screen names I can now see why people is leaving cherrytap or lostcherry whatever you wanna call it because there is nobody here to help us just so called helpers your the ones that need help not ous just because alot of us is gothic or wiccan or whatever dosnt make us any diffrent then anyone else in this world and you shouldnt sit there and judge us ok just because we dont dress like you or even act like you or look like you dosnt make us any diffrent I thought cherry tap was suppose to
Pain Replaced With Pain
Pain Replaced With Pain i cut to forget i cut with no regrat i cut to get them back i cut as to kill the shallow soul of the dark angel within i hurt my self before i hurt another for they cause more pain then my razor can as hard as they try to crush my soul i just beat them to pay the toll
Why do people take it out on other people when they cant do any thing there problems it not are fault that the world coming in on then. I hate been a punching for some people and been used for there shit.I have friends that help with my problems they listen some of friends dont even give shit.I cant help I cant think fast or do things I want the pain to stop or Ill stop the pain some way some how.
Wed I had my ankle operated on and I can barely walk around. So I have been sitting home alone eating pain pills wishing someone would so me some love.
so its been a while since i did this. so heres kinda an update on things...i moved back in with my sister...had my share of bad nights...and bad relationships...but their over now and im enjoying the single life...i havent been feeling good lately but thats okay i will be better...right now i feel really clamy and my heart is racing. not sure why. i wrote my dad a letter and told him about how he has affected me. some of it good but the memories were short lived...i think hes drinking again. im worried. but i have no room to talk because im still drinking although its not as bad as before. im really calming down now and its not an everyday thing its only every now and then...but im gonna go for now i'll try to keep up on this shit i guess this is one of the hardest things in life. it seems like i lost another one once again...but this time this was the one person that i honestly cared about...his name is josh. and we were together for almost a year. it just hurts to know that thi
We have all had feelings on helplessness at least once in our lives. Mine decided to come today. I got a call from my best friend and there was so much emotion in her voice as she was telling me about a trip to her doctors office. I don't need to go into details. She's only 18, same age as i am. I wish i knew what to do to help her or i knew what to say. I just feel so helpless. Shes sitting here crying on my bed right now and i just wish that there was something i could do. Well, guys any advice is greatly appreciated so please feel free to comment. Talk to you guys later. much love and kisses Yea, this is pretty much a vent/rant. My tooth hurts like fuck, my wisdom tooth is coming in, so i have to get the other one pulled to make room. Unfortunately, i cant get ot the dentist for about 3 more weeks, i have been taking everything from ibprofein to excedrine migraine to even percocet and nothing will kill this fucking pain. God help me, please. or if someone knows another way, please g
Pain In The Rain
stormdreamer@ CherryTAP There is no pleasure in having nothing to do; the fun is in having lots to do and not doing it. After losing my apt for notoriuos reasons, my fate has been decided. Mistress Thorn has decided that i should live in the family abode. All is working out well! i was pretty much family already. It sure is nice to have a roof over my head again and a family to come home to! i'm sure that life will be a little more interesting know and am looking forward to it! Hope all my Cherry family and friends are well!
Pain Pain Pain
If I scream real loud Will you hear my cry Or the pain I feel inside. If I scream real loud Do you think the mirror That watches me cry Will break If not i'll break it I'M so tired of the tears falling from my eyes And resting on my breast If I scream real loud Do you think he would wonder why And if I told him why Do you think he would care I don't think so I don't think so...not at all I guess i should yell inside I maybe the only one listening So why not scream loud..... I should I am I'm going to keep screaming Screaming out loud until my vocal cords Die!!!!! I just lost one of the most important people in my life I am so crushed and hurt and now i lost another ver important by by pure i don't know what to call it...i'm so hurt i was fin dealin gwith the first now i just can't do this I dont know wht to do what do i do the pain has intensified....i dont think i spellled that righ tbut i
You get inside my head, and I think of yesterday I think of what we were, and it never goes away I pop another pill to take away the pain But now i'm dreaming more, and I guess your here to stay I hit the lights, go out, there's laughter in my head I try to shut it out with fears I'll end up dead I hear the shots go by, it's the voices in my head And now my time is up This mass confusion has become a part of me, I turn and run away, and I pray you'll never see The clock hits 12 o'clock and the voice says in my head, "We'll never make it here" - I swear that's what she said I hit the lights, go out, there's laughter in my head I try to shut it out with fears I'll end up dead I hear the shots go by, it's the voices in my head And now my time is up Where do we go from here There must be something near Changing you, changing me forever Places changes, faces change Life is so very strange Changing time, changing rhyme together There's no where else to
Pain Of The Night
Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll
I hate the fact I love you, I hate that I care I hate you for not knowing this, I hate it you not there. I mostly hate our memories, That make me cry each night I hate how all these come about, Each time you are in sight I hate how when I see you, My heart just breaks in two And yet with all the pieces, I know i'll always love you I hate how life goes on, When mine just stays in place, I hate how my world shatters, Each time I see your face I hate it how you did this, And that you know how much I care I hate how you just bring me down with every little stare I hate it how you know, That none of this is true Even though i'm hurting I can't hate the fact, I LOVE YOU The images I can't seem to shake. The memory's still clear in my mind. At any point something triggers them and i fall apart all over again. I hate that you have the power over me. I hate remembering the touch just like you are touching me at that moment. My heart seems to mend and with one
Pain with out love Pain cant get enough Pain i like it rough I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
The Pain..
When you've had so many rough, hard times You've written it all down with songs and rhymes You get tired of being a companion with pen and paper You feel like you're nothing, clear, like water vapor. Wishing someone was there to hold you tight Someone to help you through times, tell you everthing will be alright. You feel like you are a nobody and no one looks your way Someone walks by, you think that maybe today will be the day But that someone walks on to meet up with their girl Oh my gosh, not again, I wish that was me, it makes me wanna hurl Sigh once but it goes back to the way it was Wow Emily, you look like an idiot again, sarcastically everyone applaused This is really how it is, a small town girl, figuring who she wants to be When you see people, it's easy for them, like one,two,and three Why is it so hard for me? I am smart, I should be a catch to someone My problem is I haven't started, not yet begun So I'm going to end this rhyme, leave my pen and paper
Pain Of The Night Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll
Pain That Has A Name!!
Sara hates me for what she doesnt even know. I tryed to love her and tryed to show her but she only wants to make things hard. She throws all my belongings away. Stomped on my heart. She even trys to ly and say I stole from her car. How could I? I have been at my friends the whole time we have been apart. I dont like playing childish games and I dont like being lied to. I never wanted to hurt her but for some reason thats all she wants to do to me!! What does one do to stop loving someone who doesnt deserve it??? I just want to move on with my life and I even offered my friendship to her. Some friendship this has turned out to be. I wanted to be there for her and I thought things were different with her. But for some reason I didnt listen to her friends when they told me she was nothing but a heart breaker. A slut. Someone who soaks all the good and happiness from you and leaves you an empty shell. Why?! Why would someone be like that? Nothing but pain, and pain has a name. Sara!!!!
The Pain Of Love
Pain & Love
Pain The pain is so much that I lay my head down The pain is so much that I close my eyes The pain is so much that I wish I never had a heart Will this pain ever go away. You said that You loved me, but you lied to me You said that you would never hurt me, but you lied to me You said that I would never feel pain, but you lied to me You said that I would know Passion, but you lied to me No more Pain, No more Hurt, No more Tears Love To feel Arms around me To feel a soft Kiss on my Neck To feel a Heartbeat against my Heart To feel Hands in my Hair To hear you whisper my name To hear your voice To hear the keys in the door To hear you laugh To see your eyes shine just for me To see your smile Just to see you here with me To know that I don’t feel the Pain anymore To really know what love is You have given me a wonderful Gift A Gift Of Love, A Gift Of Happiness.
Pain And Suffering
February 15, 2007 Every time I look at my scar I know that I am lucky Yet at the same time it makes me cry I know I will never be the same I get so angry at that jerk I hate him so much! I just want to kill him Then I cry even more because I’m not that way The scar now becomes my curse And I just want to hide It’s so ugly and it makes me feel ugly I will never be the same again in so many ways Will I ever feel beautiful again? Will I ever stop crying when I see that ugly thing? I hope that in time I can say yes to both! For those who don't know yet! On January 1, 2007 my best friend was taking me to work around 7am. We made it maybe a block and half away from home when a drunk driver hit us. I had to have exploritory surgery on my stomach to make sure I had not interal injuries. I was lucky to even live. I spent another day and half in a regular room to make sure that everything was in order. I finally made it home today around 3:30pm today with staples in my h
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Pain In The Ass
my girl is such a pain in my ass, but i love her to death.she makes me mad, and then she always seems to cheer me up. sometimes i want to choke her but all i can bring myself to do is hug and kiss her. yes im an asshole but i would kill or be killed for her. sometimes i yell at her but its because sometimes she doesnt think before she does something. oh well i will roll with the punches and love her just the way she is cause thats all i can really do
Laying in bed, two days after Thanksgiving, I get a phone call from my daughter, who is living in Alabama going to college. All I remember her saying is, "mom, Waynes dead". Wayne is my ex who I had left May 20th due to personal reasons. He was also my best friend and had been for many years. The night before he had gone out to meet a friend and hang out. Well when he left to head home, about 10 minutes down the road, suddenly there were lights coming at him and he had no where to go and no time to do it anyway. He was hit head on and killed instantly. He was the 1st fatality of the season, thanks to a sorry ass drunk driver who survived because he was so damn drunk. Now there is a 7 yr old little boy, who no longer has a daddy. A daddy who thought his son was the best gift from God. A daddy who had custody of his son because the judge knew he was the best parent for the child. I hope there are special angels for children left so suddenly. Now there are two parents
Pain By Steve Cook No cuts, no bruises, no broken bones There’s nothing like this pain of being alone No blood just pain and tears to gain Heartache that can drive you insane Emptiness fills my body, a soulless shell I feel like I’ve been put through the fires of hell Sleepless nights with no one to hold My heart is growing bitter and cold Drowning my tears and sorrows for years With this empty liquor bottle I have no fears Hangovers from hell I sit and dwell About the cards I was dealt and the way they fell When someone gets close I push them away See no one can hurt you if there not here to stay You’ll be lonely and sad, depressed for a while But one of these days you’ll learn to smile So hold your head up have patience you’ll find That every heartache heals with time
Pains Release
It's not a toy It's not a game It breaks when hurt It feels the pain Slow deep slices into flesh Trails of blood still remain I just don't seem to understand Why I'm left to love in vain What is a phantom which roams the night, lodges in every heart, but dies at dawn? (Hope) What darts like a flame, is feverish or languid, red as the sunset? (Blood) What is ice and fire, clarity and obscurity, makes you a freeman and a slave, a slave and yet a king? (Love) They all are elusive and hurt you deeply and cause heartache and pain. So why is it that we struggle, to grasp the ultimate entwining of two people's souls, over and over again? Dusting the cobwebs, from out of my eyes It’s all clear to me now, there’s no more lies There isn’t a reason to cloak the pain Tears still well, flow and fall like rain Clouds slowly now, are starting to part Pain’s releasing, it’s cloak from my heart Occasionally a glimpse, a ray of light Pulling me from never-ending darkness, ni
March 26, 2007 5,499 What this number means Today's primary allergens: Oak, sweetgum, sycamore, birch, mulberry and beech National pollen index chart Pollen Levels Low: 0-30 Moderate: 31-60 High: 61-120 Extreme: 120+ Nationally 120+ is considered extremely high, Atlanta had a polllen count this morning of 5,499. So if 120 is extremely high, is 5,499 deadly, or enough to just drive you absolutely insane? Remember don't eat the yellow snow, oh wait that's not snow, its pollen!
come on, do it. Take it, take it all. why not? you took my mind, my soul....ripped out my heart. everytime you touched another woman, you took a piece of me. I am now left with self esteem...nothing. It took me yeaqrs to build one from my fucked up child hood and you took it away from me in 6 yrs. why are you still with me? to punish me? to kill me softly? i will never heal this time..never. i will always be a nothing....thank you. why do i have to go on like this? why does he look at me like i am nothing. it hurts. smak me in the face with a hammer and it does not compare to the pain i feel when he looks at me that way. it makes me want to rip my eyes balls out so i cant see it anymore. I just want to throw myself on the couch and hide behind the pillows. I want to rip my face off cause maybe, just maybe it isnt good enough for him. take my heart, rip it out i dont give a flying fuck. what can i do to ease my pain. maybe im not good enough i know. he says when can i smil
The Pain Inside
Tell me one word, One word that you'll stay even through the rain, You’ll stay with me, Watch the falling rain with me, Don’t leave me here alone, I don’t want to wish for your love, I don’t want to beg, I want you to look at me and tell me you love me, Tell me you’ll never leave. When the nights come I want to hear your heart, Beating beside me, When the years pass by I want to know, That you’ll always love me, No matter what I do, No matter what I say, I know deep inside I’ll never hurt you, I’ll never let you go, Even if one day, Your love grows old from mine. Even in the rain, I’ll watch you through the pain of loneliness, I’ll remember you If one day, The pain in my heart begins to grow again, I’ll remember of those beautiful days, And be happy, Happy knowing that, I’ve met you, I’ve had your love beside me.
The Pain Of Love
everyday i bleed black for you and still i soar high...the pain of not being able to touch you kiss your lips wake up next to a saint and go to sleep next to an angel....i hurt everyday and yet u pain me more because you dont see me at mayb thats the way it has to be me and the crimson harmony i bleed....after all my pain is my pleasure and my heart is in a box inside my chest the thing is i have the lock but who got the key?
I NEED TO MOVE UP TO ANOTHER LEVEL TO POST MORE PICS..... I HAVE MORE AND I'M NOT SHY BUT I NEED YOUR HELP!!!! YOU ALL KNOW WHAT TO DO.... AND IF YOU DON'T WANT TO, THAT'S OK TOO... THEY WILL BE PRIVATE ANYWAY......WOOHOO I just got back from rollorblading and it's been two years. boy am I gonna feel it in a couple days. I thought the skating would cure my boredum.
Ok this really sucks. Here it is 3:05 in the morning and I really should be in bed but I'm not. Why you ask, because my back is killing me. It hurts all the way from my lower back to my shoulders and I can't get it to stop. I have taken everything I can think of to help that won't knock me on my ass. I have to be at work at 8 am. I tried to go to bed but couldn't get comfortable. I really hate this. Luckily we have what is called "slow time" at work. So if we aren't getting alot of calls and they can afford to send people home I will be on that damn list so I can come home and go to bed.
Pain An Lonelyness...
Can you feel what i feel?, Am i wrong for wishing my heart would be still?, Just please oh please leave me alone and go away, I beg of you just one time of peace for just atleast one day, Spend one day in my shoes and deal with my pain, My heart is a battlefield after the war and everybody is slain, Your killing me like a leech just sucking the life out of me, I gave you everything and it just didnt work so let me be, The words cut like a 1,000 teeth that dig into my flesh, The sweetest dessert for me right now would be a big bowl of death, So hand me a fork and let me eat, Until my strength disappears and i cant hear my heartbeat, Halloween isnt just a holiday but every time of the year, Because you shouldnt believe everything you hear, And an open mind just might be the key, Because everyone isnt what they appear to be, Hello? Is anyone listening to my words?, Or are you refusing to listen because of what you've already
there are days i feel like doing this... and this is all i have to say cuz its pretty self explanatory (i just make these here i dont cut in real life)
i was just watching montel tryin to fall asleep since i been up for like 3 days straight and i busted in tears. it was about families that are over in war.and it all brought up pain that im feeling about my moms death.her death was unknowing and unexpected. the day i got the voicemail from my uncle(my moms brother lenny) and said she was life flighted to ruby memorial i morgantown cause they thought she was havin a stroke i was shocked,i called her cell and left a mssage sayin nothin was gonna happen to her that she'd be ok and that i loved her, but then when the dr called me and said she had suffered severe brain damage on the left side cuz she had, hada spontanious hypertension anorism,and there was nothing else possible for them to do to save her and that i hadta get there in person to give permission to take her off life support that moment i totaly lost it, and from that moment i might look and act strong on the outside but truthfully on the inside im just withering away to no
Pain Family Members
He likes to break your heart and leave you there to bleed to death. Choking on your own regret and remorse for the things you should have known better for. These things I tell you for you to be careful. Keep your heart walled and locked for there are those who are just out on a mission to see how far they can unlock it and tear down the walls just to throw it away. I thought I would be the one that god would have to forgive for bringing into to my world. Well the devils joke is on me. He who has the last laugh wins and its not me. Make sure you make them feel welcome and send a hello and add. This Is a family not like some others ok guys Kisses for all
I will be your light when you have nothing but darkness surrounding you. I will be your arms when yours are to heavey to carry on. I will be your back when yours is bend from the weight of the world. I will cover you with my wings and let them burn from the fire of life, to protect you.. Courtesy of
Pain In My Side!!
Ouch! Why won't this pain go away. I'm falling apart and I'm only 24. Is this some kind of punishment. I can't eat, I can't sleep. Nothing makes the pain go away. Stupid doctor vampires that take my blood and never give me answers. At first it was just diarrhea and vomit. Good old stomach flu that never went away. At the same time, check blood sugar. Want to make sure its not diabetes. Twelve hour fast...nada...nope I don't have diabetes!!! Yeah for me but still there's pain. Ok..draw blood for another test. Nope no ciliac sprue. Yeah I can eat what I want. Now the pain is worse. Go back to the doctor. They don't know whats wrong with me. When do they ever know! It's just a guessing game. Have to get an ultra sound...yet another 12 hour fast. No results yet. Where are they? Hey..doc says you have to go on a clear liquid diet. Just water, juice, jello, tea, and popsicles! Five days of hell!! Eat for one day and oh my g** the pain! Again doc says..go back on the die
Weapons There are many types of weapons But the ones that hurt the most Are the weapons made of memories And the deadly midnight ghost Not all wounds are red and bloody There are wounds that touch the mind These are wounds that always fester They're the never healing kind Why are we who've done our duty Plagued by wounds that never heal Made by weapons of our memories Which are worse than lead and steel
love whut is it is it a life time of to find it or is it a life time to make it is thir such thing as love at frist kiss or is it a lost hope of those who are wirting for it to find them or is it for those who go out and make it work please let me know whut you think Photo By M. Known by his troops in World War II as "The Soldier's General" because of his care of and compassion for those soldiers under his command. He graduated from West Point, just missing service in World War I. At the outset of World War II he was a training officer and felt he would miss involvement in another World War until he was assigned to the European Theater. There he served for a period under General George S. Patton, Jr., prior to taking command of the United States Army Group, the largest single command ever held by an American general officer. In 1950 he was promoted to 5-star General-of-the-Army rank, served as Army Chief of Staff and Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff. He also served as
Pain And Sorrow
Pain and sorrow fill every part of my being. I lost what I most wanted. A dream shattered into a million pieces. Never to be put together again. I see you and want to reach out to you ,hold you like I did so long ago.To tell you its alright,everything will be alright. A lie. One I must continue to tell myself to be able to go on. Thoughts of you constantly run through my mind. I know you have moved on. My pain and sorrow so strong. Just wanting to see you to be near you. To touch you to hold you once again. Yet another dream never to be realized. I will go on living with my pain and sorrow. Till another angel shows me the light I long to walk into and take me out of this hell that has been created by the loss of a dream
How can I forget? Your love was so strong I felt nothing could ever hurt me. But I was wrong. Many nights alone I cried myself to sleep. Wondering where you were, what you were doing or whether you were still alive. You'd come home and Id ask you where you were. Your reply "Out...just out that's all." I never let you see the hurt. You never knew my pain. How could you when I kept silent? Our lives started to fall apart. We didn't talk. We clashed at every turn. One of us had to give so I left. I see you now and I long to be with you. I long to touch you and hold you in my arms. I want to fall asleep and wake up with you near me. My heart melts whenever you smile at me. My body quivers at every touch. No matter how much I want you or long to be with you. I cant forget. The pain never spoken. The pain never heard.
OK... you know how you always hear about WOMEN bitching and nagging... Well.. once upon a time when I was young and stupid, 10 years ago to be exact, I married a man who can bitch and nag worse than any woman I have ever met. Divorce was final 6 years ago, and the man is still finding things to throw bitchfests over. OK.. now.. his biggest complaint is money. Our divorce left me with a Sears Card Bill, approx. $4000. OK.. the account was in his name only, and already in collections when our divorce was final. I had no access to the account even when I tried to pay it. But he has since paid the bill himself to get it off his credit report. OK FINE. He is now screaming and jumping up and down because I keep telling him I don't owe him the money. I owed it to the COMPANY. There was no written or verbal agreement between us that I would pay him back for paying it. This is also the jerkoff that is attempting to terminate his rights to my 9 yr old daughter because he says he can'
Outside she is smiling, but on the inside she is afraid. Her true self is cowering, hiding in the shadows of her own torn heart. She can not break free so she turns and runs down the dark corridors never looking back. She seems so distant and so alone, its because of the this demon so cold burrowing in her soul. She waits in the darkness of her abandoned heart and soul watching another scar form that is stained with the colors of fallen stars and false hopes. The demon now covers the outside making a mask of unleashed tears as misery drips from her lips, believing that she is insane. Her soul is finally breaking as the demon becomes her she becomes truly lost forever. MySpace Graphics & MySpace Codes MySpace Graphics & MySpace Codes
Painted Cat
Pain In My Heart
theres a hole in my heart i feel empty the pain never leaves just hearin those words makes me cry everytime i feel like i lost apart of me i was on top of the world until the day u walked out of my life and she walked into urs now im alone in the dark with this pain that never leaves and the hole in my heart take a look down u can see the tears that surround me depression clouds my mind memories stay strong wishin i could relive them to turn back time would be wonderful but it can never happen i had the world in my hands and it just slipped away i couldnt hold on tight enough i regret the things i didnt do if i did things differently then maybe just maybe i could hold u one more time
The Pain Inside
Would you hear my cries from miles away? Would you know that I'm suffering just by looking at me? Words I cannot express, pollute my mind, my soul, and my heart. I'm the shadow of what I once was. A shell of myself, Hollow inside, and all I can do is hide behind my facade. Tears have fallen in darkness Heartache a silent assassin. There are no rainbows, no sunshine Only cold, dark, hollows. The pain eats at me. The fear stabs at me. I have no hopes of a better tomorrow. Only darkness of the days past.
The Pain
What the point of falling in love?After awhile the love you had leaves anyway,leaving you heart broken and depressed...You feel like your life is shit and can't take it anymoreYou feel like everything is falling apart in front of youYou feel like everyone is looking at you and judging youThey say when life gives you lemons make lemonadebut if you have so many woundsWhy hold them when it burns so bad?Lemons do nothing but hurt you even moreJust like love.... MY HEART NEVER FELT SO MUCH PAIN AS IT DOES NOW... I JUST WANT TO DIE KNOWING I CAN'T BE WITH YOU. NOT BEING ABLE TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS, KISS YOUR LIPS, HEAR YOUR VOICE, OF EVEN SMELL THE SWEET SCENT.. THE TEARS RUN DOWN MY FACE EVERY NIGHT KEEPING ME AWAY FOR HOURS... MY LOVE FOR YOU IS STRONG  AND IS KILLING ME INSIDE..                                                   I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT...
Pain Is My Muse
I yearn to sculpt you Beautiful face fine lines and angles Your lips...sensual tantalizing Shoulders broad Chest so fine Michaelangelo's David Adonis... Beauty... To capture your beauty is to capture your soul. Suicide My life without you would be a total waste of breath A life not worth living loneliness invading Sinking deeper into my dark despair Slipping farther away from reality My mind an ocean of tender memories I cannot move forward for fear of regret Loss of the memories that barely keep me alive Hanging, just hanging dangling from a string Fragile and wearing this string is growing thin My life is feeling worthless tired and alone I cannot face the music I cannot carry on Peace come to me softly and pain, please be quick My life without you, Love Was a total waste of breath 1999 Fear Cold Chilling An icicle piercing my heart An avalanche burying my soul
It hurts inside, all the pain is sucking up energy within Everyone says just be yourself, but the truth is I dont know who me is I've been someone else for so long that I lost who I am In a world where if you're not a certain way you get judged I dont know if i could ever be whole again, but then again you can't make something whole that never was It's like a missing peice of me Without it I can't live After all I've been through you'd think I could handle this, but the thing is I can't take it anymore and I don't think I could make it I want to reach out to someone, but I'm scarde to let someone in Scarde I might get rejected So many people have betrayed me in my life, so many people have left me, so many people never actually got the chance to know me before they walked away I only let people in so far...don't get me wrong I'm just misunderstood I want to let people in I try to reach out, but they just don't get the clue I used to look in the mirror seeing the person I
A Painful Experience
Let me tell you what happen to me when I was 13. I was watering cotton here in the Rio Gand Valley of Texas when I notice a lot of the Texas Red Harvester Ants floating by in the ditch. Didn’t pay much attention to the ants I was busy keeping my water flowing down the mile long rows of cotton. I got stung on my legs by a couple of ants. No problem just brushed them off and went back to work. Soon I felt “tickling” sensation in my goring area so being out in the country I grab my crouch and you gust it wham I got stung on the tip of my penis. I screamed so loud my Dad heard me a ½ mile away. Down came my pants followed by my underwear. Got the ant crushed it with my fingers and fell into the ditch in throbbing with pain. Luckily the ants had floated by and were down stream of me. Dad drove up wondering why I was in the ditch with my pants and underwear down around my ankles. I told him what had happen. He was laughing so hard that he couldn’t help me out of the ditch that was on
Pain, Power, Persistance
You have a sexual IQ of 157 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at I'm sick of everyone and all the desensitized, demoralized, and over rated dramatics that follow close behind. When you meet just about anyone these days they have very personal, but also very publisized issues. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not refering to everyone out there, just the majority. These are the people that are your best friends while within ear shot. As soon as you turn your head, they are making up stories about you that rival those are Dean Koontz and Ridley Scott. You maggots need to plug those fucking ipod headphones back into your echoing cavern you call a head and close your mouth. Everytime you speak you are just ostrasizing yourself and sending the rest of us into an egsos
Pain & Pleasure
Desperate Measures ~MK Into the darkness of my soul where only demons dare to go he lies awake and waiting there telling me tales and stripping me bare his hand against my breast so light a feather there the heat and pain mixed into reality Desert skies, and wanton lust It never fails to break the just The night that comes with a sigh leaves with a gentle caress against my thigh Tonight the cries of lost and found swallowed whole by the demons bound Yes, Yes please No, No more. Grace and love are just pretty words No place for that your punishment's due Love and hate pain and pleasure Here they are the same in measure. 6/28/2007
First I have to say, I don't get what the big deal is about Ikea store. Harborcure & I went there Saturday morning, yes it was neat but didn't really understand the big hype people make about it. I did find a really neat curtain rod for the bedroom that will look great once we paint it to match. Other than that, I wasn't overly impressed. By the time I got done fiddling around & got down to painting it was 7pm. Thanks to my wonderful friend, Harborcure, I was able to get 1/2 of the room painted before crashing. Was up & back to work Sunday around 8am. Didn't stop until the room was done which was around 8pm. Got the desk moved back & computer hooked up too. I still have the door trim to paint & some wall touch ups. Not to mention painting the curtain rod before I pull out the new bedding & make it 100%. With my head in painting all weekend the kids reeked havoc on the rest of the house so this morning I cleaned. I'm to their bathroom & Noelle's room, which I hope will
Pain Without Love
Painful Poetry
Four o'clock in the morning Afraid to open my eyes Another day of grief, A day of fear. All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain, All of this guilt before my eyes. Another day of confusion, A day of wondering. Is it ever just going to go away? All this pain that I feel, And all this anger, is it going to stay? Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares. Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night. What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying, A night of hiding, Alone once again. My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear. Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder. Is this ever going to end? there she was, on the floor crimson blood flowing through the cracks the knife she had used lie on her chest forever stained red the mirror cracked and broken, everything thrown pell-mell over the floor sadness and depression etched into the very depths of her eyes tears had streamed down
The pain Too slow I get up and look at my ugly face In the mirrior And Scream HOW COULD ANYONE EVEN WANT ME!!!!! I'm ending this mistake This mistake thats me, my life I'm fed up with life I hold the knife to my throat I thought it's a few seconds of pain or the rest of my life I make one final slice My last words are Good-bye thanks for all the pain and misery!
Paint Shop Pro Users
TO those of you out there that use PSP to make your graphics tags and more, I am looking for tubes or pics designed by artists... ~Keith Garvey ~Jasmine Beckett ~Jennifer Huntington(I know this is the right last name...may have first name wrong) And any Goth/Dark/Fantasy/Halloween Tubes also, if you have any you'd be willing to share, I'd greatly appreciate it! I also have many PSP tubes,masks,accents and more to share if anyone is interested. Thanks!! ~GT~ P.S. I love any tags done by 'Simone's Creations' too if anyone has those to I do also! =)
Pain And Sorrow
in a way life is like a hammer a hammer that has no mercy on what it strikes or beats down. Its wild swings of fury and pain and its glory times when this hammer stikes and only needs one strike to feel good. But this hammer has a warped head and sick sence of what is and is not right. Please find me take me and put me up, pain will follow but i will handle what ever needs be done. I can say this all who check out my profile are either friends or sexy ass women only. Or i will bring the pain.
such an abundance it holds within and many to which it feels akin but why in times when all is felt does it seem to it not enough is dealt? so much is held that's yet unseen but now it remains in the constant -between- the void of neither... the unwanted - nor needed just to be used- tossed and mistreated. will such a wealth than be lost to all- that into the void it should choose to fall... for all its given and not to take should it just sleep and never again... dare to wake. ~Candyce~ when dreams become like the shadows of a dying day- and hopes become like the rain washing fallen tears away- how does one have a feeling of being complete? when the heart becomes like a sieve from all the hurt endured- and the soul becomes like a winter's endless night unfurled- how can one truly feel whole? when feelings become like the air in which you breath- and your eyes become the beholders of what's unseen- - tell me- how can one ever tru
Pain Verses
bleeding on the inside giving in to the pain not hiding it from the outside letting it ooze from my veins more then enough of my rage to share torn asunder and heart still beating most don't even care not sure that i do on most days thousands of pin pricks all in the same place. pain fills the world and i add my share. enjoying the suffering like most wallowing in my disrepair.
Whats the deal with this web site ? Is it a place to meet people or is it just too check people out ? Anyway.. Whats up for the weekend ? anyone doing anything ? Whats up with no one asking to see my NSFW pics.. haha there are no too bad ones.. and whats the deal with my BFF not posting pics yet? its thursday and im bored.. some one comment on my pics.. ill return the favor Is she really gone ?? Current mood: sad Jillian... I’m at a loss for words.. you are my best friend.. you have been there through everything with me. you are the one unconditional friend, the person who never judged me and would do anything for me. and i would to the same for you. we have always helped eachother out. we battled addiction were my shoulder to cry on, and now your not here to cry on.. i wish ther was something i could have done.. i just talked to you the other day and you were in such good spirit... and now... i cant tell you goodbye i cant give
Painted Beer Box
a friend asked me to paint an old wooden JAX beer box, so i painted a desert scene on one side & an Indian woman making a magical pottery bowl, in beautiful bright colors, it was a sucess! i enjoy painting rocks, cloths & any many objects, like sckulls & bones & rocks, wood, how can i add the pic? i painted several cow sckulls that is my favorite. these items are hard to find, even in texas. im always on the lookout for items to paint, like furniture & murals. if you look on my website you can see some samples. thanks this is my first blog here, i have one on yahoo 360 if your interested here is a link with a pic :) thanks aj edit: the pictures links are in my stash :)thnx guys & gals!
ok in the last 12 hours i have been band from blitz 2 fuckin time and latty i get teh feelin ever one dose not want me there to i am done with blitz bye to all my friends there and fuck off to all u people u hate me bye my fangsAdd to My Profile | More Videos
No More Pain Her eyes are swollen. Her cheeks are red. Tears pouring out of the lonely girl. Love was all she asked for. She got walked all over. It seemed that no one cared for what she believed in. As she lays in her bed, saying a prayer to make the pain go away. She can't sleep, as the dreams run through her head Trying to put the memories in her past. She's waits to see, Is she's going to make it. As she struggles to get out of bed, thinking of what went wrong. She has lost all the faith, there's nothing left. She is lost in the waking of her day. As she has no one to talk to. She's done everything she thinks she can As one night she made her choice, There was just no way she could make it without him. As days go by her eyes are just blank. She wrote him a note,it was but a poem she wrote Saying that she will always love him. One night she lost it. She couldn't take the pain anymore. Pain pills she did take, just enough to end the pain o
Painful Love
Purity once had a name, And beauty once had a face. Life once had a meaning, And once I was safe. Once there was freedom, And once I could laugh. Happiness once was alive, And once I had another half. Once I shared her love, Once I was by her side, Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died. Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast, All I ever wanted, Was for it to last. Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love, But it all fell apart, The hand too big for the glove. Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories. Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide my way. Watching you from across the room sends searing pain through my heart. I think back to a year ago, when I thought we'd never part. My love for you just won't die down - it just grows with each new day. I wish you'd dare to look at me and hear what I have to say; "I love you and I want you back - " but these words you just won't hear. Yo
Painful Love
Painful Love Watching you from across the room sends searing pain through my heart. I think back to a year ago, when I thought we'd never part. My love for you just won't die down - it just grows with each new day. I wish you'd dare to look at me and hear what I have to say; "I love you and I want you back - " but these words you just won't hear. You don't seem to remember them - all the memories I hold dear. You were my first kiss, my first love and now you don't even care. How could you just blow it away? We were the perfect pair. you seem content to let me go - You're doing fine as you are, while I'm still missing how we were. We had the best love by far.
Pain In The Grass
The Pain Of Losing Some One
I wrote this a year ago to the day. It is for two ppl I loved an lost with in a week of each other. *two very good friends* Tears I have seen the years I have cried the tears, but through all there has always been you to be my stone an my shelter. With out you I am alone in this world of decet an hate an pain. I fear I have no one left to turn to. Out side I put up a front that I am strong that I am alright. But inside I slowly die a little more each day. To not see your smile on your face because some one you care for has walked into the room or just because you are happy to be alive, to not have you hold me an tell me it will be ok, to not hear your laugh because of some stupid thing I have done or a silly face made at you, to not be able to just sit there an call you cause I am bored or you are bored. I fell alone an broken with no one left to turn to. My heart feels shatterd as if it is in a million pieces an I can never put it back together. People say time will heal my heart
The Pain Is Unbareable
Pain Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll
So my dumb ass got hurt yet once again, im so stupid for falling for another girl!!! This 1 i honest to god thought we were perfect, but her ex bf that she loved jumped into the picture and i was dropped like i didnt even matter!!! Why does this shit always happen to me?? ok so my old yahoo got delted somehow....if you wanna talk add me at
why should i deal with this pain in my heart when it could all just go and fall apart why help others if i cant help myself why love you when you dont love me the same way why show my love that i got for you when you dont see it why deal with this pain in my heart why deal with this pain thats called love why deal with this pain thatS called pain why cant i just walk outside in the rain and let go of this pain you know why cause im just insain im just crazy im stupid you cant let go of pain cause pain will return back to you twice as hard and make you feel like 5hit even more but who cares bout how i feel cause this 5hit just aint real so why deal with this 5hit called pain and hear that word that i always get hurt with "love" Behind my eyes I softly cry holding this pain so close inside behind my smile I slowly frown as my tears come rushing down a feeling inside I tried to hide suppressed by my deepest fears and I still feel the pain after all of these years Think of what
Pain And What It Does To People
I write this today feeling a very intense pain...... and I finally realized, that as much as people run from pain, hide from pain, we all need pain to help us grow, to understand the world around us. I know this sounds odd, but the pain I feel now I know will give me knowledge later on. I have so many people in my life that live there lives with masks on, making them immune to pain, but causing pain themselves. Guess they are the lucky ones...........I could never find my mask....... well for anyone that reads this, thx for your time......
We all sometimes go thru times in our lives where nothing ever makes since and you feel lost and alone even tho your truely not alone and people do care about you, but that feeling is still there. Especially around the holidays its worse. All i really wanted for Christmas this year was to be able to spend it with my children... Even that i cant have. Between being so angry wanting to tear someones head off and being so depressed over everything lately i almost just want to say fuck it all and give up.. To any of my friends on here that may read this, Im not avoiding, im not mad, Not being online for a while does not mean i hate anyone, or am personally mad at anyone. Ive got a Shitload of shit on my mind right now and i dont want to talk about it. Im sorry if that offends anyone but i will talk about it in time if i feel the need to. I Do Wish everyone Happy Holidays. ~DJ Khaotic Wolf A.K.A. Sean... Sometimes in life we come across days in ourlives that really mak
Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can me managed, but sometimes pain gets you when u least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't out run it, and life allways makes more.
The Pain
i have a pain that is so deep not just on the ouside but very damageing on the inside badly it feels like a blackhole that just keeps sucking and just when i think i got rid of it just for a small min it eats me up quickly i dont no if anything can be done sometimes i even cry my self sleep wish i would not feel nothing at all sometimes beig happy never last long much iam not asking you to feel nothing for me that not what this is abount/ its just so you no more abount me since no one really reads the profile
Pain - 3 Days Grace
The Dedicated Soldier You stay up for 16 hours... He stays up for days on end. You take a warm shower to help you wake up.... He goes days or weeks without running water. You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.... He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.... He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.... He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.... He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.... He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. You complain about how hot it is.... He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his
wtf ppl....i dont wanna go live somewhere else, i dont wanna come here and go there. i wanna have time to find me, i never did that. yea it sounds cliche but its true. i go from my parents slave to being with an ass who likes to hit women and snort coca. i need me time now, im not asking ya'll for shit, just bc ur some1 that i feel is family and i'll tell u about my problems when u tell me about urs, doesnt mean i want ur help to fix them. i just wanna vent to someone like ya'll do to me. come here do this, u'll be safe here. im not safe anywhere. he's everywhere. so i might as well learn to live with that fact. he's going to run behind all the things im trying to make of myself and talk shit and destroy friendships and other things i might have going for me. but some of ya'll should know that very well, ya'll have done it to me as well. sure u lie ur way out of it, and i'll know the truth but i'll forgive u bc of our history. well, im tired of being miss nice girl, as of now im miss e
Pain Is My Muse
The pain of the flesh dosent compare to the pain of the soul.So we find the need to torturer our bodys,To mask the pain thats in our souls,when so many times we think its our hearts that are broken maybe its the soul that suffers.Funny how you can never see my pain from the inside out. But surely with the help of tattoos and putting holes into your skin now a days, you can see pain from the outside in.I have always considered my insides my temple and my body just my form that what you see is not who you are and that I beleive the the more you stay,out of the mirror the better you feel,though the only true passage way to your soul is through your eyes , that is for some eles to see, my thinking on that is that I dont need to see my soul through my eyes I already know my soul and learning more about it everyday................................ The memorize engulfed my being last night As I laid awake listening to the sound of the rain Pounding on the roof Like the pain in my gut
The Pain Of It All...
The Pain Iis Real
~The Pain Is Real~ Can you see what I see, even when your not around to comfort me, you hurt me like no one else will know, inside I feel I'm ready to explode, Do you feel what I feel, you said words to me that will never heal, I cant help myself inside i want to bleed, your friendship and generousity was all I would ever need, But now it has came and it has gone, and somehow my twisted little fucked up life will move on, what is sad is many men wish death upon me, it's like I'm not even meant to walk this earth or even be, My mother said I was an accident sometimes I think it's true, I didnt think it was when I met you, but now its over and I have to live with the consequences, just know that I still care regardless of the morose and awkward faces, Look into my eyes you will see pain deeper than a flesh wound, why is it that a baby is so innocent while resting in his mothers womb, is it because they know not the difference between right and wrong, or be
i fell in love with this guy and he said he loved me too. everything was fine 4 the longest time untill he said he needed space, i thought we would get back together. But boy oh boy was i extreemly wrong. I guess i wasnt good enough or pretty enough. but i still love him and i always will but now he talks to me in anger sometimes and it hurts like hell. he knows that i love him but its like he dosent care any more. i waited 4 him to leave his gf i wasnt gonna force him to leave her i was cool with being friends but when i found out that he was single i got up the curage and asked him out. then after he asked for space he would still tell me that he loved me and like and idiot i still believed it. hell i still think that. everyone tells me i got played bad. but now i think that im just not wat he needed. and my heart might heal in time. but ill never 4get the love that i had 4 him. he was really sweet and caring at first then he got moody, i know im not perfect and that i do piss off al
i just caught my girl in bed with someone else and it about killed me .im shareing this with you because .i know the r others that have felt that same pain .if not worse. im just saying be strong. there r way more fish in the it means youlle feel good when the pain goes away
Today....I lost my brother. Fourty seven years old.....two years and 6 months after his own 21 year old son and my beloved nephew was killed in an accident. My pain is immeasurable. I've lost the ability to think and function. I've spent the last 3 days at his bedside...praying for a miracle that was never to come....and watching the last breaths of his life. Now I'm lost in a sea of anger, confusion, grief, sadness and denial. Words usually come easy....but now, I can't find them.
I saw the river, just pulled him down I knew the man who hunted him down We watched the river, take him away Before he died, I could have sworn he said I am the only one I am the only one left Tired and afraid lies a saddened man Knelt beside him with head in hand And escaped on a lonely breath But before he died I could have sworn he said I am the only one I am the only one left Who ever gave a damn about you I am sorry I am sorry I was wrong I was wrong I've been wrong for way too long I am sorry that you're gone I'm tired of being what you want me to be Feeling so faithless lost under the surface Don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) [Chorus] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want
Pain And Pleasure
She could not believe how hard her nipples were. They stood up from her breasts proudly and she fairly ached for them to be touched. She could practically feel the blood rushing into them. They formed almost perfect circles of crinkled flesh with their rosy red tips. He looked down at her and smiled. She could see the approval and arousal in his eyes. He reached out and very lightly touched one nipple. She sighed and arched her back, thrusting her breast toward Him, eager for His touch. His fingers manipulated the sensitive flesh and she began to moan. It felt so incredibly good. Involuntarily, she began rubbing her legs together looking for friction for her burning clit but He reached down and spread her thighs apart. "Wait," He said and with an effort, she did. He reached to the table beside the bed and picked up the clamp. She stared wide-eyed at it and watched Him very closely. Silently, He worked to adjust the width of the opening then paused and leaned over to kiss her deeply.
Painful Reflections
; Rate my poem, Go here I tried to start anew But what has happened to you? You are suddenly gone When I wake to see the dawn You are still not here So I shed another tear So back up goes the wall No one can touch it all My heart is safely put away and will not see the light of day Behind those walls made of steel that help me to not feel. The pain is real Its all I feel. These tears they fall I cannot stop them at all. Freely they flow Will they ever go? Can I forget and live without regret? This pain will disappear When I shed my last tear.
Painting A Porch
A blonde, wanting to earn some extra money, decided to hire herself out as a "handywoman" and started canvassing a nearby well-to-do neighborhood. She went to the front door of the first house, and asked the owner if he had any odd jobs for her to do. "Well, I guess I could use somebody to paint my porch," he said, "How much will you charge me?" The blonde quickly responded, "How about $50?" The man agreed and told her that the paint and everything she would need was in the garage. The man's wife, hearing the conversation, said to her husband, "Does she realize that our porch goes all the way around the house?" He responded, "That's a bit cynical, isn't it?" The wife replied, "You're right. I guess I'm starting to believe all those 'dumb blonde' jokes we've been getting by e-mail lately." A short time later, the blonde came to the door to collect her money. "You're finished already?" the husband asked. "Yes," the blonde replied, "and I had pa
Painting Rainbows
Ok, I know it's been a while since I have mass mailed any of you guys....and surprisingly enough this e-mail isn't quiet like my others...filled with pics of my girls or links to autobiographies! This attachment is a picture of the most feared creature in my life....And as most of you already know...that is a BUTTERFLY!!! OMG! I am beyond terrified of these demonic creatures who I swear God put on this Earth to scare me senseless!!! I was setting here at my dinning room table...minding my own business when suddenly outta the pots of plants I rescued from the first frost outside by bringing them in...there fluttering around as if it belonged there was this creature of sin...the BUTTERFLY!! Well of course I did the right thing first, and I screamed like the girl I am and I began fearing for Keilah who was playing close to the plants and the demonic winged creature...I began to tremble as I looked around for anything to help me!!!! The only thing near me was the Cover to a large
Silent Paws Silent paws trotting on a well beaten trail, alone in the wilderness, so young and so frail. Little yips go unanswered, the moon is now his guide, looking for ones just like him, or have all of them just died? He sniffs the dampened ground and senses man everywhere, the silence is deafening no howls in the air. Oh why did he venture so far from his den, while his pack fell silent at the hands of men? His stomach is growling but the hunger he’ll endure, his pack family is out there it’s their blood he smells for sure. He stops in his tracks and raises his head up high, the terror overwhelms him as he lets out another cry. But still there’s no answer he can’t understand why, he’ll follow their trail or he surely will die. For days now he’s traveled his spirit and body gone weak, he lies down in white clover no more energy left to speak. Soon the soul hovers over this tiny, frail pup, whose future now will be guarded as his soul tr
guess i should explain the reason behind my 2 pics huh? lol Well at the start of my workshift yesterday i was moving some metal cart/racks and as i was laying one on the ground due to it almost falling a second one fell and busted me in the head and caught my left wrist between the 2 carts. Luckily all i suffered was a very bad abraision (no stitches needed) and a sprained wrist. Im completely ok today except for the wrist.
the world's pain; cali fires, war, famine, sickness: a prayer is said for you.
How is that your eyes see’s the selfish person inside of me I tried to hide it, I guess not too well Feelings are gone Just don’t care about anything anymore LIVE OR DIE it’s all the same Endless cycle of pain No end in sight When did I become this person? Leave me to be in my dark hole Manipulating minds take over me Can’t see clearly Existing never living Black heart Stupid silly ***** Never be anything Fooling no one Demons took my soul I want to lie cold in the dirt Never feeling again Take me away sweet angel … Arms open for you I bleed for you I want peace
Pain! The pain love gives… Love is painful, love is wonderful hate to be alone but afraid to love rather sulk in silence then get stabbed by love rather stay single then take the chance. Sorry to all those people that had to go though pain, I'm with you so you’re not alone. Nobody warned me to guard my heart so I gave it away and know I'm lost, I'm in this world of darkness and can't find the light. Don't ever let anyone into your heart!
Paintshop/photoshop Tricks
This tutorial will describe how you can create a page curl effect using just the built-in Photoshop options. No extras are needed for this effect. As usual, though, you can learn more than just the actual effect. If you scratch a little below the surface of this tutorial, you'll see that I'm also demonstrating how to create paths from selections and how to manipulate them. As well, you'll see how easy it is to create your own gradient patterns. Enjoy. Open a new file at 200x250 in RGB mode. Set the contents to white and the resolution to 72 dpi. Click the New Layer icon at the bottom of the Layers palette (it's the one with the bent corner). Set the foreground color to a bright yellow. I used 255, 255, 0 as this color won't dither on a web page. Fill the new layer by selecting the Paint Bucket tool and clicking anywhere on the image. Set the foreground color to white. Select the line tool. Set the width to 1 pixel and the anti-alias option to on (both of these opti
Its messed up when you have someone on your mind and u can’t get them off of it... Its messed up when u have someone in your heart and u can’t get them out... I hate the way life is sometimes...She left me so quickly, yet it is hard to move on with my life... It wasn’t mutual.... I still feel destroyed inside without being able to share my life with the woman I love.... She is in my every waking moment and it hurts... I feel like a fucking loser and a fucking retard with my mind and heart still caught in the past... I lost her cause of the mistakes I have made and my ways I just couldn’t change... It hurts the pain is unbearable in my heart and yet I wake up every fucking morning... My life is simple now and so boring with no one to share it with... She is the only one that I wanted to share my life and my love with... When you have had the best woman in your life in every single way possible... u know no one can ever get close to that...She was my soul mate and I miss her badly... She
Holding onto the slats of the stairway My face pressed against the wooden bars A prisoner, struggling to hear the warden I hear their yells and I know I am helpless Pain is memory's glue It's what keeps things important It places value on ordinary life. On my bike with a mile to go I take the back way through the wood They won't look for me there I see the fallen tree and know Before I see the five of them I am helpless Pain is memory's glue It's what keeps things important It places value on ordinary life It's Christmas and the house is full I have a room mate for the holidays As the light goes out I know I am helpless Pain is memory's glue It's what keeps things important It places value on ordinary life I'm half dressed in the middle of winter He's drunk as I'm propelled out the door I'm at a disadvantage Far from helpless Pain is my friend It helps me focus It keeps me creative and strong I'm in a strange land when the rocket hits I'm
Pain Without Love
I just came to the realization that I am not living my life. I'm just existing. And that breaks my heart. It's also causing a lot of stress on other people. I dont care who reads this....i wanted to say it.... I'm beyond stuck in a rut to those of you who care here is what has happened to me About 4 years ago I started suffering from an intense pain in my lower back and hip region. In the beginning I had gone to several emergency rooms, Urgent care etc. No one could figure out what was wrong with me. They weren't paying attention. Finally I got an MRI done June of 2006. My primary care physician as well was myself had forgotten about reviewing the test results until last Saturday. What we found was that I am suffering from degenerate spinal disease. The outcome is grim there is no cure. The pain is so severe at times that I can not walk at all or move, sit up or down or lay down. I basically am in pain no matter what. I have tried heating/icing, massaging, special vitamins,
Though I try and try to make it end I can’t seem to find the strength to try again Burdened by the weight of a cold hard world My anger and sorrow building like a runaway train I slit my wrist to release my pain I feel the depression flowing out my veins I plan to keep typing until the bloody deeds done As I sit here dripping, remembering my waste of a life Wishing for a magic button that says rewind So I can go back and begin anew This fucked up existence That I’ve been through Or ………at least enough time To explain…………… you All the shit I’ve had…………. to deal with The shit I’ve……….. Had to do But my head is growing heavy ………………. My sight…………….. Is growing dim Going to try to hit……………. Enter Before all my pain………………ENDS.
I don’t understand how so many people can intentionally hurt or cause pain to others, especially those that are called loved ones. I don’t understand the need to tear down others to make one’s self feel or look better. Why do some people think that causing pain in someone’s life even remotely acceptable? I have hurt people in my life, as we all have. I have hurt those that I love and care for the most and I wish there were ways I could take away the pain. I know that in life that we all will hurt others, and most seriously the ones that we love, but when we do so without any remorse or even worse do it on purpose is just so wrong. So many people are used and abused by ones that they have given all their trust to and it’s no wonder that they become numb, untrusting and apathetic. The damage that is done becomes a permanent scar on their lives and can shape who they become. While it is true that great strength and growth can come from past hurts when a complete healing comes about, it
Pain And Suffering
The Pain Of Loving
to all those who want to take the easy way out, let me tell you it is not the easyway out, life is far too short to try to step out by suicide, it causes more pain to everyone around, much more pain than one would think, they think that hey i will be out of pain and my family and friends wont hurt anymore but please think about it the ones it hurts the worst is family and friends, if one is having some problems seek out someone you feel that you can talk to stand tall, and stand your ground. it is hard sometime when you have been put down or hurt constantly but it will get better. just turn it over and let the almighty one have it. i know that i was not ready to go and i saw the pain that it would cause the ones that were loved the most but the one that caused the pain and hurt just continued to cause the pain and hurt this did not phase them at what they had caused one to do so please just turn it over and seek the help and seek the love of the almighty creator of all much love to
Love is suicide A bullet in the mouth The rope wrapped around your neck The cuts in your wrist The water that fills your lungs The pavement after a 50 foot drop The crash into the brick wall Love is losing The test you will never pass That ball that always drops What always makes you come in last Love is pain The eternal pain Yet we always surrender I cant wait to feel it again Me and my lady separated this morning. And this is what I wrote. *Shrugs* I feel empty inside right now... And thought I'd end up giving up... But after I wrote this, I guess not. I arise in the morning And a thought crosses my head What if it was only me And the rest of the world was dead? What if I was alone What would I be able to see? Would I want to continue on? Who would I be? Would the flowers smell as sweet Along that dark beaten path? Would the rain still continue to fall? Will storms bring their wrath? Could I be strong enough To blow in the breeze? And wou
The 12 Pains Of Christmas (video Song)
Pain...Pain, What is pain? Why do I cry? Why do I no longer that the will to try? Pain..What is Pain? Why this life I can nolonger take? Why these feeling I can't shake? Pain...Pain, What is Pain? When will things ever be right? When will I finaully see the light? Pain...What is Pain? When will I finaully be whole? When will I gain control? Pain...Pain, What is Pain? I feel I no longer can breathe I no longer want to grieve Pain...Waht is Pain? each day living with this sorrow will there ever be a better tomorrow? What is Pain
The Painter
She sits and crys not knowing where too go . the only thing she's worthy of is the fear of being alone. she sit's on a bridge waiting for the train. she doesent know what too do her faith is driving her insane. she wants too live and just go back home but its like he's controlling her and she doesent know. he's telling her too stay and wait for the train. he's telling her too jump. and dont hesitate. shes trying not too listen trying not too hear. but suddenly she sees the train and its coming near. she wants too move but he Say's no she wants too scream. like theres nowhere too go. as the trains lights hit her eyes. I was a dull portrait of life Reduced by emptiness Dismantled by a rusted knife And darkened by absence of happiness Till you came for me to change Brought a paint and sturdy brush Filled me with colors beautifully arranged With ease I know you're not in a rush Colored my skies with cold blue Scattere
Pain (1989)
All the pain The pain in my life you can't see it but i can Its horrible and discusing I wish the pain wasn't in my life But it is and its killing me The pain is causing me to lose my friends, family and people who i care about The pain is always there, in the car and at school and at home pain follows me everywere I can also see if another persons in pain or upset Pain is everywere in this world its even following you and me right now But the best thing to do is fight the pain I am and its helping a little bit It will either end you up dead or in the hospital Pain is everywere Pain Pain Pain
Painful Things U Cannot Change
My illness played a anxiety, fears, and doubts...but in the end it was my failure to resist...I lacked the strength to prevail...and it cost me the love of my life... Julie was my first real love...the woman who had intended on marriage and one day kids....we were together six months...but my illness insisted I leave her...for reasons Im not quite certain even to this day... I left alot...possibly out of fear...even though I loved her still so much...eventually she came to the idea I didn't love wrong she the end she didn't take me back...and the results I faced were dire... I attempted suicide depression became severe...and my bipolar condition worsened beyond anyones assumptions...I was also hospitilized... to this day I blame myself...I live with this burden heavy on my shoulders...for losing the only happiness Iv ever had in my entire life...for not being strong enough to counter my illness...I hate myself....and my illness....s
The Pain Of Waxing! (from A Friend)
The pain of waxing!!!!! Poor women! *giggle* This is from a friend of mine that had me ROTFLMAO! It was one of those cold wax kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you just rub the clear strips in your hand, peel them apart, press it on your leg (or wherever) and ignore the franticly rising cresendo of string instruments in the backround. No muss, no fuss. How hard could this be? I'm not the girliest of girls but im mecanically inclined so maybe I can figure out how this works. (you'd think) So I pull one of the thin strips out. It's two strips facing each other, stuck together. Stuck together. I'm supposted to rub it in my hand to warm and soften the wax (I'm guessing). I go one better.... I pull out the hair dryer and heat the SOB to ten thousand degrees. Cold wax, my ass. (Oh, how that phrase will come back to haunt me.) I lay the strip across my thigh. I hold the around it and pull. OK, so it wasn't the best feeling in the world, but it
The Pain I Am In
The Pain I am in I know I am a pain, But why does he run. Is it because he has something to hide Or because he is just a good friend I wish I knew because I feel like A piece of paper that keep being trashed But I seem to always blow away I'm sure he’s not running, Or at least I hope not Because I’m not sure, But I don’t want him to run from me. But to me as fast as he can, So we can be happy together. As we live in happiness forever, Please stop the pain.
tears of joy tears of pain i have nothing left to gain just a life full of pain and whatever remains cuz nothing ever stay the same u should be ashamed playin all them head games are u really gonna point the blame ooohhh please god let it rain and make him feel an oz of pain by:JENNiiFER
Pain After The War....
She left me today....she gave up on my heart meant nothing to her....after all we went through, and all the times we was truely happy....she still says she loves me, yet im not worth even talking more calls, no more games, no more hope....all i ever wanted was to make her happy. i dont want to talk more about it right now, i am crying again, i hate what shes done to a soldier, a really decent guy, i dont diserve someone doing this to me... You said you would never do this to us, and i actually believed you. what a fucking idiot i must be. i fell for it again... go to my myspace if you want to read more, i just cant type anymore right now... my best friend killed herself today...i was always holding out that one day we would be together, but we lived in 2 different worlds, not to mention 2 different states...shes who i turned to, who i talked to when no one else one even knows why, but recently she started taking empty syringes and
The Pain
So many women and men are in so much pain love friendship life all combine to make the heart hard and sad. On the rare occasion that you find love and happiness time stress the pains of the world around you suffocate and drive your heart deeper inside of you, taking it away from the tenderness that you may have felt. When the time comes for the heart to feel and love its blocked by all the pain surrounding our lives. Fear of not being worthy of the love fear of not being able to love back equally fear of hurting or being hurt. We run from what may be what could be what might be and we shell ourselves and our heart. The world goes on around us the flowers blooom wars are fought and no longer it seems so we allow ourselves to love anything other then the children we bear, even then do we love them as much as we should or do we distance ourselves from them preparing them for the near future of thier hearts empty pain. We are surrouded by hollywood versions of love cloudign our images of w
something i remember from my childhood that i want to pass onto my daughter. I tiptoed into your room tonight and I looked down at you smiling. You were so lovely my heart nearly broke and I thought how very much like sleeping beauty a little girl is. When I tuck you in I never know how old you'll be when you wake. One night you crawl into your my lap and throw your arms around my neck...and the next morning you may be much too grown up for that sort of thing. You're so quickly approaching that awkward age...too young to drive but too old to be carried into the house half asleep in my arms. You are going on exciting will travel from yesterday..all the way to tomorrow. Leaving behind your measles, mumps, freckles, bumps, bubblegum...and me. Yesterday we could fix your dolls broken leg with a hug...tomorrow you'll be breaking a boys heart with a kiss. Yesterday you were a pain in the neck when you were around...tomorrow you'll be an ache in the heart when you're gon
So I have a stress fracture in my left foot my metatarsal bone, which is located above the tarsometatarsal joint and below the toe line. The pain today is not near as bad as yesterday. It was worse than childbirth or getting a tattoo. Good lord! I have a road trip planned for Saturday to go see the Hockey guys on the road game. Hopefully with my crutches I will be able to still get there. Man oh Man. Keep me in your prayers. Jme Damn one of my favorite actors was found dead today at age 28. That sucks.
We meet for dinner and hit if off really well we spend our time talking and getting to know each other. It ends with a second date and an extremely passionate kiss. The next day you come to my house each knowing that the time is right. I meet you at the door and lead you in. By the hand I take you to the room. You see it is set up like a dungeon and it excites you. You already begin to get wet thinking of whats to come. Begin to undress you slowly removing your blouse to see you have a cup less bra on. Then removing your skirt you are wearing garter belt and stockings and nothing else. I take you to the middle of the room where there are binds hanging from the ceiling you tremble with fear and yet are excited at the same time, I cuff you and then you see the blindfold fear and excitement again grip you as it is placed over your eye's. I begin caressing you all over lightly running my hands tantalizing you. Then I begin to play with your nipples pinching and biting them the pa
i wake up at night and see ur still not there crying myself back to sleep wishing u would just care your all thats on my mind every hour of every day and the one thing i wish is for u just to stay youve ripped out my heart and stomped on my soul i feel like im going crazy and have lot all control and then u smile and it all goes away the hope cums back that ull be back someday so i sit here and wait with nothing else to lose trying to change myself cus i have so mush left to prove i love u more then anything ive ever known i dont know what to say or whetelse is to be shown all i know is i love u with all my heart and thats one thing that will never fade and untill the day cums when u cum back ill be wish youd have stayed never say i love u if u dont realy care never talk bout feelings if they arnt really there never hold my hand if ur going to break my heart never say your going to if u dont plan to start never look into my eyes if all u do is lie never say hell
The pain that u felt after u got hurt doing something aint nutin like this pain, The pain of losin someone that u care bout, The pain that u dont know if u will ever get them back in your arms again, That pain that hits you when u think bout how its goin to be with out them around, The pain not bein able to see there face like you did, The pain that u get when u see them with another person that isnt u, The pain that u get when you go to sleep thinkin bout them, All you can do is cry n think bout if you will ever have them back, That pain kills you like no other, The pain of seein that person kissin another person, It ripes your insides out though your skin, Like when you see them all you want to do is whip the duds ass so bad that he/she will not be able to walk again, That will fell so good to you but, you ever do that cuzz if you ever want the shot to be with that person that you love again you have to think smart n think bout them n think bout wh
The Pain
why is it that on mother days that the lady's get whatevery they like on there day's but the guys get junk. there are good dads ot here in the us we should have good gifts too.let know what you thank?
Pain Of The Night...
Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul The darkness of the night has taken its toll
Pain And Sweet Memories
Sitting here realizing that this next week is going to be so hard on me. Not only am I feeling like I am getting older (my daughter turns 18 on Valentine's Day) but the day after my daughters birthday last year I had to put my dog of 12 years down. My pitbull was my best friend, the only one that really seemed to care when I felt nobody else in the world did. The past few days my status has been set to sick, for some reason I feel that it is more of a depression with what this week has to come. I hate not having my significant other with me on Valentine's Day as well, seems like its been many years since I have gotten to look into another persons eyes and say I love you on that date. I'm sorry for rambling, just feeling very very down. RIP RAVEN..................... ====================================
life whats the point? ...I wish i knew...could someone plz tell me?...i cant seem to find a reason to do anything... i cant find a reason for living but i can find a reason for death...death is the only way out of this hell you call life...ive lost everything & everyone i ever loved so what reason do i have to go on? will someone plz tell me? pain is the only thing i ever feel...what kind of person do you have to be to only feel pain? will someone plz fucking tell me? ive always done everything i thought was right...but maybe i dont know the diffrence between the two...ive gotten to the point were i like pain now not the mental kind but the physical...i cut, i push pieces of metal into my self just to feel...i cant feel love, happieness, joy all i feel is pian, sorrow, anger & angwish... will somone plz tell me a reason to go on?... life whats the point? ...I wish i knew...could someone plz tell me?...i cant seem to find a reason to do anything...i cant find a reason fo
WHAT IS FIBROMYALGIA SYNDROME? FMS (fibromyalgia syndrome) is a widespread musculoskeletal pain and fatigue disorder for which the cause is still unknown. Fibromyalgia means pain in the muscles, ligaments and tendons--the fibrous tissues in the body. FMS used to be called fibrositis, implying that there was inflammation in the muscles, but research later proved that inflammation did not exist. Most patients with fibromyalgia say that they ache all over. Their muscles may feel like they have been pulled or overworked. Sometimes the muscles twitch and at other times they burn. More women than men are afflicted with fibromyalgia, but it shows up in people of all ages. To help your family and friends relate to your condition, have them think back to the last time they had a bad flu. Every muscle in their body shouted out in pain. In addition, they felt devoid of energy as though someone had unplugged their power supply. While the severity of symptoms fluctuate from person to perso
Pain.....and ...pins
My pain is seeing someone day after day that i am so in love with that it drives me so insane that i cant think about anything else but that person and i want to tell them that i am so deeply in love with them but it would be a problem cause i dont know if that person feels the same way for me but it seems like that person does have the same feelings for me in the way he looks at me at times and at times the way that person talks to me but then again i dont think that person does feel the same for me cause the person treats me like crap -------this is my pain that i live with every day
The Pain Trapted Inside
For the past 2 weeks I haven't been able to move much at all. I have spent most my time laying in bed (without the fun benefits). I have this pain in my back that goes down my left leg. REALLY SUX! I just found out today that my back problems maybe a herniated disc....NOT cool. They aren't sure yet, but I have to get the MRI soon and find out. If it is they aren't sure if I will get surgery or not but they said I probably will since I can't move much. Wish me luck, pray for me, however you want to help me Thanks Things have been good so far this year (until this). We went a long stretch with NO money but things got worked out and we are doing fine now. It was scarey there for awhile. We have all been getting along good though. Thank God for good communication I guess huh. We try. Well, I hope everyone has a great day and rates this. I try to get around to rating your stuff and if I don't send me a message that tells me so and I will. Thanks... Very Sexy Comm
The pain in my heart is never ceasing. Some days it may be numb, other days it is a constant. Thrown into a vortex of emotional turmoil and pain that I can not explain. I feel so exhausted. I can not take it any longer. She is the constant pain that is always tearing at my heart. I still smell her scent.
Painted Thoughts
Painted Thoughts By: Deborah Boyd The Painted Thoughts Are there each day Takes one imagination To see it that way They could be a cloud So high in the sky That looks like a rabbit Or a bird that flies It could be a painting So simple and rich That takes us away To places unpitched It could be just words So descriptive in terms That brings our thoughts there And makes our mind swarms Yet these Painted Thoughts No matter the cause Brings us such emotions And give our lives pause So cherish the thoughts These bring each day And life little treasures Are yours to stay.
Painting My Bikes
Pain may last a few hours,a day, a few days,weeks months or years, but eventually, it goes away. If i quit or give, that memory lasts forever. Never Let up. Be on the "full throttle" setting all through life. Or just cruise, and remember what it could have been like.
The Pain
Please someone take this pain away For I know not how much longer I can take it The pain is cutting into me like a knife The pain is making me lose my mind The pain is making me feel that I have no worth The pain makes me cry The pain makes me hurt The pain makes my heart break The pain is just too much The pain I just can not bare So, please I beg someone to take this pain away For I know not how much longer I can survive
The Pain
Pain (love Sucks)
I'm so tired of feelin lonely when i look at you i see the man i love when you talk i hang on every word but when i talk you hear only what you want to when you look at me you really just look threw me for years i have waited for you to see me to hear me to love me I'm so tired of thinkin of what could have been what should be there is only so much waitin a girl can do before it gets to be to much i need someone to see me and hear me love me i want to laugh and be happy i want to feel love from the one i love i deserve it i know i do yet here i am still waitin cant you see how much i love cant you tell I've been here for years every time you need someone to fuck you turn to me every time you need somethin cleaned you bitch at me to do it but when all i want is to talk about what our kids did that was so funny you don't have time to hear me the commercial on t.v. is worth yer time more then i am I'm just so tired of bein tired and lonely i shouldn't have to cry my self to sleep i should
The Pain Inside
by Danny The Awesomest In a room of glass shattering silence, with my shadow I stand alone. Abandoned, left behind, thrown away, like a dog with a rotten bone. Surrounded by darkness of the unknown, fear seeping through my soul. My mind falling prey to tricks of the dark, it's seduction taking a murderous toll. Calling out for you time after time, the results still the same. Nothing but a distant echo, making a mockery of your name. Now engulfed in a sea of despair, longing for deaths final boast. Your presence never gracing again, my a distant ghost. Emotionless I stand here with no life, a puppet on a set of strings. Awaiting for master to take me away, hoping death is the worst he brings. In a room of glass shattering silence, with my shadow I stand alone. Abandoned, left behind, thrown away, like a dog with a rotten bone. All hope a faded memory, all light a forgotten dream. only achievement, n
Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
PAIN: a sharp pain has taken over what i once thought love was and now i know the pain is greater. I've loved so much and lost everytime I've truely opened up. Why is it that this boys call them selves men when a real man should know that they dont like pain and niether do females. I'm in deep thought these last couple nights with out being able to really know what to do. When some one tells u they love u shouldn't they show that every day no matter how mad u make them? Why do u want to cause paing to the ones u love cuz i know thats not love at all. I have to wonder about them who say they love me and wonder why if u love someone so much that u dont show the love u say u have unless u think they are going to walk away from u for good. No one likes to be left i guess but if u love someone and all u plan to do is cause them pain why say u love them. Pain to me is about knowing I'm living. With out pain I'd have to think it was all a dream that is never ending. The world we liv
I miss him like crazt. I'm yearning inside to hold him. Missing his kisses and his muscalur arms around me. Wondering when I will see him again. Hoping and praying it will be the same as it was the last time. Dealing with the lies that are being told. The secrets that are being held inside of him. Sitting and waiting for the truth. When will it come. I wanna ask but knowing it will start an arguement so I don't say nothing. Fighting back tears because it is the not knowing that drives me crazy. I can't seem to get away fromt he one thing that brought me to love him. His charm, sensitivity, love, eyes, smile and the way that he is always there when you need him the most. The one thing I know is I love him. These are my tears there letting out my fears I'm honestly really sad but, I think I should be mad I don't know how to feel I just want to heal These are my tears they wash away my fears I didn't want to let go but its better for you to know these are my tears they know
pray to the lord as i kneel to my knee i pray less pain be struck on me and if once more i'm to feel pain i ask for death while i'm still sane. and now i lay me down to sleep, i pray this pain to not get deep if i should die before i wake i'm free from anymore heartache
The Pain Of Being Me
Do you know what happens to a boy when his mother routinely betrays him for her own personal gain? He either becomes very f***ing angry or turns gay. He learns to never trust a woman ever again. Mine did that to me most of my life. When I had something important to say about how I felt, she told me to shut up because her TV show was on and she couldn't hear it. When she has anything at all to say, even if it's something EVERYONE AND THEIR DOG KNOWS, she won't shut up until she's forgotten about it, and if anyone tries to shut her up or even logically try to make her stop talking, she just starts yelling and screaming and making everyone within earshot want to shoot themselves just to get away. Trust me, if I'd had a loaded gun, I would not be here today. When I told her very personal sh*t as a kid, things I didn't want repeated, guess what? It became part of the conversation when she started talking to her "friends" the next time (yes, even they only listened because they didn'
Pain & Heartache
Why is it that the rich get richer & the poor get poorer?  If your poorer than dirt with no job you, (Not by choice) one simply just gets left behind & in some states don't qualify for help at all? Suddenly people become closed minded & don't bother to help anyone.  This world is for the rich & if your not then you are nobody, no one & not important.   There are times that I wonder if I really make a difference in this world? Times that I wonder if everyone would be better off without me? Times that I wonder how I could have done something different? When my friends & family are down at times I feel the pain & emotions as well. I wonder if I said & or did the right thing? Feelings of hopelessness & helplessness seeping through. At times like this I wonder which of these feelings are mine & which are someone elses & I am picking it up?   I'm Sorry that I am not able to carry the world on my shoulders or make things better for you. I'm sorry that I have not been the best Sis
Pain Inside
It hurts in side this lonely heart It’s all the pain inside Pain with no love Pain with loneliness Pain Inside Lost Lonely Empty Confused Not known where to go Pain Inside Please stop the pain inside this lonely heart Lonely sprit Lonely soul I am hurting inside Needing love Needing someone to care Please stop the pain inside Pain Inside
so first off since this is the pain blog i started lets get to the points   1. just over  a week ago my cousin was shot and killed by the long beach police dept  if you follow such news stories and have been reading about it. its it becoming clear that my cousin was  killed by officers who did not at any  point think about saying anything to him. he was very drunk ( staggering drunk by some accounts) he was most likely not aware of the police officers presence. by the polices own statements of where the officers were placed he wasnt even pointing anything at an officer. in fact some witness accounts in apts that hadnt been cleared state he was in a seated postion leaned agaist the stoop rail. if he had pointed something at the officers with both hands pointing foward as they have stated i am wondering how 3 of the pistol rounds he was shot with were dead center of the chest straight up the sternum, yet no wounds were incured on his hands or arms which if he was actually pointing som
You don't know the pain i feel. Cause you fail to ask. i could not share this pain cause you would not understand.i look in the mirror and all i see is you,then the glass shatters and you disappear.will this pain and hurt ever stop.the pain of losing you and never seeing you again if there was a way for me to hug you i would never let you go.but that is not possible cause you are day i will see you again.i dream of that day.i've tried to get there but i never i sit and drown in my will never know my pain i am in my own private hell
- Paintings
- a piece of a man You say you always take care of me Yet here I am alone I know now that all I have is me When u leave my tears dry on their own Who else is gonna be scared for me these nights when I don't think I'll make it Who is gonna be my therapy When i realize I can no longer fake it As I pretend to be okay And you just never know how much it burns me everyday to have to watch you go I know we shouldn't do this Knowing that we're on borrowed time why put myself through it When you are not mine And although I know You come back every time you don't see the end result you're not there when I cry And you come as you please and you go just the same there are limits, it's a tease When you come but don't stay When I look in your eyes It it not like before your confidence has run dry you look troubled more & more Yet you smile and pretend to have It all planned out and my emotions depend on the cards you hand out And I take what I c
Paint Shop Pro Text Tip
Just a quickie text tip when using Paint Shop Pro ! To Have Nice text, and not all jagged looking Make sure you have Anti- Alias on ! In my psp version 9 and 10 I have option Sharp or smooth or off. but never have it OFF ! Unless using a pixel font! I use pixel fonts for credits! and remember to turn it back on ~ I always use sharp unless using a pixel font size around 5 or 6   !!! This option appears after you click on your text tool ! and appears up top !
its hard to say "i love you" and not draw back in tears its hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. its hard to know the phones at reach but i cant hear your voice. its hard to know that this time breaking up wasnt my choice its hard to see you laughing when im crying deep inside its hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide its hard to live without you when i need you more than words to want to scream how much i love you, but hold back and not be heard its hard to sleep at night when i can only dream of you its hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new its hard to not start crying when i heard your favorite song its hard to sit and wonder where the f*ck did i go wrong its hard to live without you if i only would have known i will NEVER love another
Paintings For Playboy
I normally don't post my artwork I have made an exception! These 2 paintings are from this month. I would love any feedback. Thanks! art. It looks like you have to copy and paste the damn links.. Sorry about that.
Pain & Pleasure
Hunter slouched back into the large oak back chair...dressed in his knee high boots....his black leather pants clinging tightly to his body. The bulge of his manhood pressed against the front of the soft leather....his eyes moving to the direction of the door just as fawn stepped through the doorway. "Ah slut...guess you think your Master has nothing to do but wait on his bitch..." he spoke in his firm agitated voice...leaning forward in his chair...his eyes never losing contact with her beauty as she approached him. Fawn quickly tipped toed in her bare feet toward her master...dropping to her knees in front of him. Her head bowed...her hands grasped together like in prayer... "I'm sorry Master...the traffic caused me to run late.." she spoke in her meek voice. The quietness of the room was deafening as he slipped from his chair. The sound of the leather soles on the tile floor broke the silence as he walked behind her...his eyes never losing contact with her. "Bitch I don't wa
how is the only man that never wanted power over me the only one that has it. how can saying I can't date him right now break my heart so badly? I miss him, I want him, I love him, but how do you explain why your poly to a mono person...or am i really even poly. yes the thought of having more than one love in my life is nice, but when it comes to them finding someone else will I still get jealous? I find myself in a very hard situation. on the one hand i have that desire to love and be loved, on the other hand until I know what and what i am can I truly love the way they both deserve? talking at coffee tonight just confused me all the more. I think i know what i want and then change my mind at the drop of a hat because I dont know who I am let alone what I want. I just dont know any more why not play the game? why not play the chaos..embrace it...become the darkness. this is the new me, dark, ethic less, uncaring, fucking deal with it...if you dont want to be a used like a tool, then d
Pain And Depression
YES dear friends i am at it again!!!! i stumbled on to his video and its only labeled PAIN AND DEPRESSION... and most ofthe images are ones that some ppl have plastered up all over fu here... well u know me i go 4 the music, haveing both images, words and rythem to bring it all together.. i hope this little tidbit helps others understand what not only a teenager may see and feel but an adult as well... its all real...the pain and the depression
have you ever felt one way, then a day later, just feel like nothing exists anymore? Pain is a word that people dont know until they feel it. Pain is what keeps us going, or shuts us down. Ive been through so much of it, i honestly dont know how much more i can take. It seems like the only way to escape it, is to just not exist at all. How can someone erase themselfs from life. Even with death we are still rememberd, so that is away that will not happen. Anyway, it seems as if pain is the only feeling we can have when dealing with life. Some how some way, i will find a way to not feel it anymore, until then, Pain, is my weakness. Pain, is my downfall. Pain, is what i feel, when i write in here, or on paper, at my desk.
Pain squeezing my heart Pain ripping apart my soul Pain coursing through my body Pain clouding my mind Physical pain Mental pain Emotional pain When will the pain end? When will i find relief? When will i start hurting? When will i live again?...... Sick of living/unwilling to die cut. clean. if red / clean. blood spurting, dripping, spilling; all over her new dress oh well it was red anyway. life draining into an uncertain death. she won't die. this time someone ll find her. just wait till next time.
If you don’t know by now I recently had back surgery and it went great the dr said. The funny part is that I am in more pain now then I was before the surgery. Now my right leg has this shooting pain that goes all the way down to my foot. My leg is also numb it really does suck. To help the pain the dr gave me meds, but the said part is I am 23 and I am have to take 7 different kinds of meds. They have me taking 15 pills every 6 hours. Some of these pills are heavy narcotics like morphine. I am afraid that I will get hooked on the and it will be a pain in the ass to get off of them! And another thing is when I take all these pills I fill like I cant do much cause I fill weak and drain all the time. My days are just passing me by. The pain gets worse at night so I don’t sleep that much so I just lay in bed thinking! I love all my friends and family on here, A lot of you help me through this hard time in my life and I thank you all for you kind words, rates, and gifts you give me the s
why wont this pain go away it hurts like a bad dream i cant escape from it its sufficating me draining the life from this helpless body no one hears my screams as i struggle to live i wont win
Pain And Punsihment
Editor's note: Please bear in mind that the author is writing from a heterosexual male Dom/fem sub point of view. I have a simple fast rule - I don't tolerate people putting themselves down. That doesn't mean we can't have bad days, however to put one's self down demoralizes everyone who is around you. It calls into question their own ability to choose friends, lovers, etc. It calls upon their social expectations in who we accept within our sphere of socializing and friendship. Call me "nose in the air" but I have high standards for those I choose to be around, and to put oneself down in front of me is to question my ability to choose friends, lovers, etc. As I have already pointed out this does not apply to those bad hair days or life troubled days we all have. Nor does it mean I don't go out of my way to help those with low self-esteem. I simply put my foot down in the beginning and say "hey around me there is no reason to feel low nor will it be tolerated." We all have to acce
Pain And Love
Pain Within my heart is a pain deep down inside can't see it but it is there I feel it when I open my eyes I feel it within my soul everyday feel my pain guide me through the discomfort only feel your pain feel every heart beat continues through the day in the evening pain creates the rapid heartbeat pain deep inside your soul beating in our hearts, so strong feel pain even in each breath you take who knows pain? feel my pain! give me your strength guide me through this life."> My life has been really busy sorry I have not been able to visit much..I really need some lovin....hugs...and big
Don't look in my eyes If you don't want to see pain Don't look for the sun Where there's only rain. Don't look into my heart For nothing is there Don't look inside me My soul is bare. I feel dead inside My love's not enough To keep the life we're living From being so rough. Sometimes I wish I could sleep And never awake Maybe it'd be better For everyones sake. No more sorrow No reasons to hide No more crying Or hurting inside. Just happiness and joy Peace and love Standing with our God In heaven above.
What is pain? Is it when love is slain? When it goes who are we to blame? Sometimes we just want to forget? But it stays and sticks. Pain hits us hard like bricks. And there is no way to get out the way. People play with out hearts like its a game. When they get caught their excuse is lame. Can love just disappear. Even though we feel it so near. Or is it an illusion? Where do we find love with out the lose? Or is pain always the cost? I wish someone could tell me whats real. Tell me whats the deal. Are we curse to be alone and cold? Is all the love in the world already sold? Please tell me how we should feel. Or are we to busy trying to kill. Kill our hearts and souls. Just trying to find that person to remove their clothes. Is that all there is? With out sex love can't fit? I want more the just physical enjoyment. I want peaceful, passion, love and a commitment. Is that to hard to find? Could that ever truly be mine?
Pain Pills.
So, me being the dumb ass that I am have gotten myself into one hell of a pickle. I had a minor accident at work and got popped with U/A. The results came back that I was possitive for opiates, no surprise there to those who know me... Anyway, I won't be fired but I may have to attend drug and alcohol classes for a week before being allowed to return to work. Having been clean and sober for one week now and thinking clearly, I honestly believe that this turn of events is for the best. I was at the point where I was taking as many as twenty vicodin/percocet at one time. And thats way bad! Way, way bad! I am most greatful that I still maintain my good standing at the foundry and will be allowed to continue working for Atlas. At any rate. I guess the point is that nothing is worth losing a good job over, NOTHING!!!! And did I mention that those little pills are spendy? For reals! I'm glad that it's over now. I can focus on what's really important to me and get on with things. Here's to fo
Pain And Hurt
Pain And Misery
Sexy is standing in the rain as you push me up against the hood of your car, tearin' at my shirt, as you kiss me with the intent never to stop!!!!! Never say I love you,If you really don't care. Never talk about feelings,If they really aren't there. Never hold my hand,If your gonna break my heart. Never say your going too...If you never plan to start. Never look into my eyes.If all you're gonna do is lie.... Never say hi,If you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever,Then say you will try Never say forever,'Cuz forever makes me cry!! TO MY HATERS I keep it real and that's a promise. I may be a bitch, but atleast i'm honest. When i walk by, you stop and stare, well keep on lookin 'cuz i don't care. I have my own life and style, not tryin to please you or make you smile. When it comes to competition you are out. Now shut your hatein ass mouth, and keep me out your mouth!!!! FUCK THE FAKE
It hurts. When you give your heart to someone completely, and they step on it. It tears a piece out, and you can feel every centimeter of it as it rips away. And the pain never gets better. It hurts. When you trust someone completely, and they hide secrets and lie. It tears a piece out, and you can feel every centimeter of it as it rips away. And the pain burns your soul. It hurts. When you give someone everything you have, and they give you nothing. It tears a piece out, and you can feel every centimeter of it as it rips away. And the pain washes away who you were. It hurts. When you tell someone everything, and they decide you aren't worth it to try to tell you anything. It tears a piece out, and you can feel every centimeter of it as it rips away. And the pain destroys your mind. It hurts. When you devote yourself to someone so faithfully, and they lay in the arms of another. It tears a piece out, and you can feel every centimeter of it as it rips away. And the pain only
Pain Is My Passion
Something for the pain inside me that will never die The pain inside me that will never die My heart bleeds look at you hiding all the things to endure me I need you here with me breathing wanting you to believe me Something for the pain inside me that will never die The pain inside me that will never die I see you in all of these faces blush with shame when I think of you and your pale skin I sell my soul for you Hush Hush never enough never enough The pain inside me that will never die Something for the pain inside me that will never die
Pain And Sorrow.
I am beginning to feel that the Gods have cursed my life, everywhere I turn, every time I begin to feel a small measure of joy. Something occurs to damage that or totally destroy it. What in my past has caused this, I know that we pay for and learn from past mistakes on this plane. But, why in the infinite wisdom of the Gods, must it always affect someone else as well? The pains I suffer should be mine and mine alone to face, no one else. I have recently, without choosing to, caused great pain in someone very dear to me. Someone who has touched me deeply and shown me things that have allowed me for the first time to experience a more enriched view of life. My life has always been so very dark and for once I could see the potential of finding true happiness, now I grow concerned because so many causative factors are working to destroy that. I pray the Gods are just testing our resolve, but it is all to familiar to me. I hope the answer comes soon, I am not sure I can b
IT SUCKS!!! I'm tired of hurting I'm tired of being like this day in and day out I'm sick of waking up in pain I'm sick of going to bed in pain I'm sick of all the pills I have to take I'm just so tired of hurting everyday I want it to go away but I know it never will My pain is here for the rest of my life If people can't deal with me like this, or deal with my disabilities then they don't need to be a part of my life.
Painless Events!
Well Just got ranked number one in my district in Saint Louis Area For "Best Dicus Thrower". Well it was a weekend before Sectionals, and i decided to go out with a couple of friends too a party which rounded out tobe the best nite every. Intile i decided to take my moms Yukon XL 2007 truck out on the road drunk and under age. Which I crash into a house 60 mph dead on into a brick house almost killin my friend who had left ten mintues before my accident running throw his room and into the kicthen. I lost my scholarships for college my friends and most of all almost my "FAMILY"! But what makes the story worst i had no set belt on and should of been DEAD!
U know things in this world r really getting to take their toll. And since some people don't have back bone enough to face what they've done and tell the truth. Just remember! #1 I never lied to you.(and that's a biggie for a lot of people) #2 I didn't start any of this by myself,u did most of it. #3 U should never make a promise u don't plan to follow through, especially to a child. (that was cold). #4 U probaly r laughin' as off right now.Until the day it comes back to u, but worse. #5 I'm sure I was not the 1st, and deffinatly not the last, u done this to. #6 U don't screw people over,not a very good idea. Last but not least the pain u caused,even to the innocent ones,will be remembered. When it comes back to u,with full force.
tears of joy tears of pain i have nothing left to gain just a life full of pain and whatever remains cuz nothing ever stay the same u should be ashamed playin all them head games are u really gonna point the blame ooohhh please god let it rain and make him feel an oz of pain by:JENNiiFER
This is somethig /i wrote awhile back except for the 38 things part at the end but yea whatever. Why is it always when a guy says he cares 9 times out of 10 he truely means it but when it is told back to him he has a hard time believing it but devotes his whole heart to hoping that its true even if it aint meant to truely be? Why is it when a man is hurt he balls his eyes out after trying to act tough and realises he is alone? Why is it always when a man is afraid he confides in himself to find hope or an answer to get himself through? Why is it when a man cares he tries to show it but can never really come to terms with how he wants it to be done? Why is it that the simple words I Love You can mean so much to the mans heart and do so little to help but cause so much pain in a man if the words are broken? Why is man the one thats toyed with but yet called a dick if something even remotly similar is cast into play? Why is that if someone tells a guy something bad a
Why is it that once you move on an ex always has to come and pop up and try to blow your shit up ya know?? Im pissed bout it
When will it be enough they say god only gives you what you can take I am telling you I can take no more loss , I am fighting the biggest battle in my life Cancer was not this hard . If I had known the pain that was ahead of me in life I would have never faught the Cancer. My friends mean so much to me and I think I lost one at a time when I need my friend the most god help me to win tommorow because if I dont I give up fighting , I give up on caring about people because they care not for me or they never would have called me friend and walked away so easy.
Pain's Word
Here is the correct link to bid on me!!! Show Sum luv!!! This is the first auction  I have been in. [ photo: 2680805671 ] I look into your eyes and I see the past. I see the see the pain I've caused,the sorrow I brought and the life I shattered. I see the past. I look into your eyes and I see the present. I see the hope and the fire that once was lost. I see a love that has returned. I see the present. I look into your eyes and I see the future. I see happiness that was long forgotten. i see worry and fear slipping away. I see living life. I see the future. I look into your eyes and I see your soul. I look into your eyes and I see me. I see the eyes looking back at me and I see that they for mine. Come and win me for a month!!! My first Auction!!! Show the LUV [ photo: 2706753030 ]
Ok I am in alot of pain and trying to keep up here I dont know if i will be on much more it is really killing me I am to the point that i was B4 and it sucks I hope I dont have to have Surgery again...Omg just venting and in alot of pain!!!
Pain Of Love
My heart yern 4 a love so true and at that moment we both will kw its true. The world wld stand still. The war.s of love wld come 2 an end. I have given up on that true love. My heart achs from not being able 2 show the one i do that this much is true. I wld die just 4 u. Just so u wld never have 2 feel the pain in love that i do. A waterfall of blood from my hand. god damn wish i was dead. put a bullet in my head. Wishful thinking. life now cascading. my life 4 the taking. broken heart and recreation. a soul not 4 the taking. blinded by the darklight. Soul burns out of sight. Searching the brake of daylight. no comisarating. death by a mental patiant. captured my soul in hells damntion. Heart in enraged i feel like a rat in a cage my heart yerning and burning all the heart felt day now my heart traped in a cage my love that can not be gaged. heart tourment like a hellish soul. beating constantly out of cotrol. vampiric love is good 4 the soul.
Pain? Ever Had It?
born in to pain and hurt growing in pain and hurtliving in pain and hurt sleeping in pain and hurt waking in pain and hurt cuting in pain and hurt bleeding in pain and hurt crying in pain and hurt i know nothing other then pain and hurti use drugs to end the pain and hurt but all i get is pain and hurt is there nothing other then pain and hurt
Pain Push Alwys Me
tyvm good nght and sweet dream love u ture brother and keep head up high about of wether my heart to ture friend to ur heart and lady head down call home easy time  fall prise my smeat my heart and soul far always and wood and pick and school high game and year and take alot soulmeet school meet and care and time end rd  i froud end a rose beside head store and deal not who im now and i see fly bye eyes and am high and keep ur dream save for a rain day and night feel taz live on life and  love more going down in darkside world my life? A gun beweet eyes and  i take love pull rope up and take soul love heart for sister ture and brother hod out my real world peoples!
for lack of better words hurt? devastated dying? aren't we all lonely? every second without her suicidal? i think not coping? medicated happy? far from it sorry? to no end love her? with my all
Painshock's Blog
As you can tell from the subject of this blog, this is about friendship. It's about true friendship, and about how a true friendship can be blown to dust in a matter of few hours. I'll tell you my story now. Friday 24th april me and my band Painshock were playing a gig at a band competition at Emergenza Music Festival. We did incredibly well, winning the semi-final clearing our way into the finals by audience votes. After the gig we all retreived to our tour bus to celebrate our victorious performance, along side with other people we didn't even know that joined us. One of the unknown people asked me if he could take a beer from an open six-pack that was lying on the table. I had no clue who those beers belonged to, and I gave him the permission to take one. Apparently, our bassist's wife, who was sleeping at the back of the bus, heard me giving him the permission, so she came over to me, and that's when all hell broke loose. She basically made me look ridiculous in front of everyone
I lost my brother in a motorcycle accident almost 2 months ago and the pain is so bad.I didn't get alone with him very well and now I never will have that chance again. So if you have a love one that you are having problems with than do all you can to change things before it is to late.I loved to ride motorcycles and now I have a fear of them that I can not shake. Just seeing one or the sound of one makes me sick to my stomach. I hope that in time this will pass.
Line's crossed,Hearts fell.Feel's like I'm crossing over & I'm lost.You've confused me,hurt me,& lied to me.Never again will I confide.Poeple say"yes you will"but you've made my life a living hell.   You say you're sorry but you're standing on the edge.Hoping I'll catch you when you fall.Truth is I'm walkin tall thank you for the wake up call. Now your showing your true color's.They become you.The time has come & now I'm numb.You're holding her & not meIs this how we were suppose to be?I try to block it out.I'm so dumb for beleiving you.Guess the joke's on me but I'm not laughing.
there so much going wrong. you cant make anyone happy. you cant find happyness with in you. nothing but pain. you ask why. no one  ansewer's. you try to move on. but there no point. you have dreams. of a better life. you never see that happen. your trying but nothing works out. you live for a reason that's in you. that makes you smile everyday. you spend your life. in darkness. thats all you know. where yourself is happy. the most. what more can you do. except live one day at a time. intill your time is up. the end.       why are we here. there is always pain. some are here cuz we where planed some where not. we wish for death. but we wake up the next day. some think they have you wrapped around there finger. but they learn the hard way there not. when life goes bye. its too late to start over. they say pain is weakness leaving the body. more its like hurt that u dont want to feel. u get sick of love cuz your always gettin hurt. then u find another
Painful Reminder
In the end its just a strand. It reacts to touch constricting a muscle, vibrating skin, speeding up the heart, and inflating the lungs. It pulls in my exhale and steadies for my lips that cause several others to follow suit. Vibrations  get faster, breathing eratic, and eyes, clear and focused on my hands moving lower, turn blured and blind in the closing of your eyes. In the beginning its just lost affection turning into playful lust. A hand misplaced turns to motive fulfilled in its urge to find every nerve on your body. A kiss so innocent to touch places no other has tried. Finding the distance of skin from your smile that can control its shape. Find touch so strange to control your spine. To lick paths to welcome wants. Finding you the desire for your body. Lack of help, lack of reason, lack of anything but the presence. Lack of love, lack of trust, lack of anything in the moment.  No need to fear no need not to just to know your desired. No lack of unfamiliar paths because of t
Painting Hollywood
I am a professional painter in Upstate Ny, I have just finished painting the house of Stephen Lang. He is a Hollywood actor. He has a movie coming out w/ Johnny Depp in July. It's called Public Enemies.He is also in a new movie called Avatar. Look him up. His family just moved to Kinderhook, NY. How cool is that. I also painted the house of Dr. Shaw who operated on Christopher Reeves after his accident.
Nobody sees deep down Down Inside were the pain is The pain that has caused so much hurt The pain that has caused so much grief The pain for those lost in the months past The pain that everyone thinks is over The pain that stays day after day They ask are you ok?
Pain Sadness And Lonlyness
I walk down the long, dark winding tunnel. Darkness consumes my soul with every step…. yet still I walk and walk and walk. Searching, searching for something elusive, something essential that will make my life complete yet not knowing what it is. Despair claws at my core, heartache consumes my being, indifference is what I strive for, always trying to lessen the ache of being alone. Friends are there yet not around, they try to understand, but how can they understand when I can’t fathom what’s erroneous. Smiling faces all around, laughing, full of glee… poison in my soul and wounds, slowly consuming, ever consuming until all is gone. Humanity, compassion, kindness all fades to nothingness in the face of sadness and freezing cold hatred for all things light and pure…the world is inky black and devoid of hope, how much longer until all feel as I do and weep for their salvation? Rodney aka Rhino    
Painful Misunderstanding
Paintings For The Fallen
I have seem to have lost my path on what is important to me,but I have found a place of focus and this is what I want to do. A project called a A Painting For The Fallen. I want to get the word out to anyone with Who has lost or knows of a fallen troop to contact me so I am able to I do a painting for them.,in between the painting's I am working on.   I will get with my Web Master as soon as I am able, so I can set up a picture to be sent and all the info required. I want to give back at least a little part to those who gave all. I will donate all the supplies and my time, it is just the shipping cost is what I will need. I am literally a starving Artist here. Thank you and pass the word Brandon.
    In a darkened room Beyond the reach of God's faith Lies the wounded, the shattered remains of love betrayed And the innocense of a child is bought and sold In the name of the damned The rage of the angels left silent and cold Forgive me please for I know not what I do How can I keep inside the hurt I know is true Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room All the precious times have been put to rest again And the smile of the dawn Brings tainted lust singing my requiem Can I face the day when I'm tortured in my trust And watch it crystalize While my salvation crumples to dust Why can't I steer the ship before it hits the storm I've fallen to the sea but still I swim for shore Tell me when the kiss of love becomes a lie That bears the scar of sin too deep To hide behind this fear of running unto you Please let there be light In a darkened room    WHY DOES LO
The Pains Of Love
Its amazing how love works. First off you fall in love. That makes you act funny and do every thing you can to make the person you fell for feel the same way about you. Usually it works but some times it fails miserablely. then thats where the pain comes in. You sit back and watch the one you love off with some one else oand it feels like they are  a million miles away where you can't see them. So you talk to them any way you know how just to keep the hope that you might win them over alive a little longer. In the end You'll cry and It will feel like your heart is being torn out but you will live...... And that is a fate worse than death because at least in death you would have the release and no pain. But in life after love you find misery every where. Plus it seems like every one knows what has happened and keeps there distance like your a leper or some to the one that know what it feels like, "I feel your pain' and for the ones that don't I pray you never have to
Pain Of The Night
Thursday, November 06, 2008  Pain of the night Category: Writing and Poetry Pain of the night     Watch as this tear falls into empty spaceSee it fall into life's nameless placeCan you see the sparkle as it catches the lightThat sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sightAs it falls watch it, its color has changedFrom blue to bright red, it has a wide rangeThere it goes all alone, it continues to fallWith it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of allWait, can you hear it? A sob has broke freeHas shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to beHere it comes, a force has been built between the eyeA wall of shear water, it's now time to cryA shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soulThe darkness of the night has taken its toll
Pain, Sorrow, Happiness
"57% of women cheat on their partner"   How can things seem so right and then just fall out of place I felt like you were the one now tears are running down my face I gave you all i had to give I thought i could trust you but you abused what we had I thought what you said was true you hurt me more than you realize far more than i will let you see I would have given my life for you how could you lie to me? I hope you enjoyed your time with him I'm sure it was truely special I wonder if i even crossed your mind you have made my life a living hell you promised it would nnever happen because you had been through the same thing I guess you just forgot that part you forgot about the stinging pain it is hard not to hate you hard to just let go hard to think about the "love" we had I just wanted you to know it hurts everytime i see you out and when i hear those stupid songs it hurts when i find pitcures of us you'll never right these wrongs I felt so comfortable w
my heart is broken apart,as the tears begin to start,what u told me was all a lie,all i did was try,u pushed me away,when all i wanted was for u to stay,i am crying over u,i am so sad and blue,u dnt want me even near u,what can i do,for u to hear my hearts call is true,im sorry for what i do,u was the wndrfulest man i knew,y did u lie,y did i try,y did i cry,all over u,because i said i luv u,and i thought what u felt was true,now my heart is thru!uit is shattered in a apart,as the tears start,i am all alone,it is me against the world with noone,by my side,no one i can confide,in this pain sucks,i am just fucked!  im a slave to my mind,i am a slave to the daily grind,no matter hw hard i catch up i am behind,luv is what i look for but i never find,my heart makes my soul blind,there is noone left of my kind,i am lonely,i am the only,who wears my heart on the outside,my feelings is hard to hide,i have had a fucked up life,i relieve my emotional pain with a knife,noone understands hw i feel
So many people in the scene LOOK AT life like a joke But then I met you just when I was losin' hope You appeared in a cloud of smoke You don't look like Aaliyah but your rockin' my boat So you can take me to a punk rock paradise Thats about the time I get lost in your eyes CAUSE I want you, I want what you got Just the thought of it is makin' me hot So baby don't stop I could have you on the bottom and you'd still be on top Just dirty little kids in a crib full of sex toys Got the walls padded from the back to the front So me and babygirl can get as loud as we want Said I love you so much you dirty little --- I LIKE it when you smack me and call me a PUNK And for the first time in my life, I said I feel so alive My whole life has changed before my very eyes Love is in the air, you're like the answer to my prayers All I wanted was a girl that could really take me there NOW ya do, that ya do, that ya do.. I must of met a million girls but I want you. Love is in the air, you're like the
I'm just a step away I'm a just a breath away Losin my faith today Fallin off the edge today I am just a man not superhuman I'm not superhuman someone save me from the hate It's just another war just another family torn Falling from my faith today just a step from the edge Just another day in the world we live I need a hero to save me now I need a hero Save me now i need a hero to save my life A hero'll save me Just in time i gotta fight today To live another day speakin my mind today My voice will be heard today I've gotta make a stand but i am just a man I'm not superhuman my voice will be heard today It's just another war just another family torn My voice will be heard today It's just another kill the countdown Begins to destroy ourselvesWho's gonna fight for what's right Who's gonna help us survive We're in the fight of our lives And we're not ready to die Who's gonna fight for the weak Who's gonna make 'em believe i've got a hero I've got a hero livin in me I'm gonna fight for wha
I have these things, That trouble me. They won't go away, No matter how much I plea. A list of disorders, I consume in my life. Some give me pain, Others give me strife. Schizophrenia and Bipolar, Manic and Psychotic Depression. My Isolectic disease, Kills my expression. Social Phobia, OCD, Both disorders of anxiety. Some I was born with, Some acquired from society. Oppisitional Defiant Disorder, And Cannabis Dependence. With all these meds I'm taking, I still have no independence. I take Seroquel and Risperdal, Both antipsychotic medication. All these chemicals in my head. Such a large combination. Amitryiptyline, Wellbiutrin XL. Two antidepressants I take, That puts me in a spell. Trileptal is for Bipolar, 900 milligrams of it a day. I took three other meds, But they took all those away. I've been in three institutes, I spent in all of them in total of three years. Ever since I left Ridgview, I couldn't shed a tear. I've done jail time for my crimes, I've laughed at every one. I've b
Pain Of Itch Chapter 1
    PAIN OF ITCH By: Aaron M. Klug .. .. Introduction....   The Devil plays it fair; he just never tells you everything. Rules, always invite trouble to the party, even if you follow them. Walking into a dream, you end up in a mask of your own reality .. ..       Chapter 1: Where am I?   Dreaming in a cold state, the demons of your nightmares twist your visions into what god holds hidden. Sending images of blood to your brain as you attempt to run for your life. Circles you continue to move searching for something, anything. The hunter is still out there, with the advantage of sight.  Waking up in darkness you start to breathe. Laying still your pulse consumes you. Your thoughts race towards a cliff at high speeds and no brakes. Your senses reveal horrors unknown to the natural world as your worst fears come to the surface. Chained to what feels like a cold brink wall, you attempt to see through the darkness. You do not sense another being.  Speaking softly, hello emits from
Pain Of Itch Chapter 2
Pain Of Itch Chapter 3
Pain And Darkness
in the midst of loving deaththe warmth of such re'surring breaththe end it seemsthe only wayfor our two soulsforever stayin satan's romance; razor bladesblood's eternal - never fadeslike demon dreams of red romanceour souls now there:the killing dance ©DS 1975 Around, all around, the shadows gather.My dread grows as the dagger of your words falls against my heart.It mutilates me, and darkly mylife's blood dripsto the fallen despairing leaves.In my madness I call your namewhile Death's shadow surrounds me.Now alone, my love falls upon uncaring eyes.This is because of you©DS 1975 DON`T SAY A WORD DON`T STAY AWAKEREST FOR A WHILE, FOR A LIFESLEEP QUIET MY HEART, I DON`T NEED YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO FALLDARKNESS CALLING, COME TO REAP ME FROM MY LOVEI DESIRE YOU, FOR ALL MY HEART I`VE COME TO THISI WANT YOU TO COME, COME FADE MY SUNCOME AS YOU WANT, TONIGHTBURN SLOW MY HEART, I WON`T WEEP YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO DIESAY ONE MORE PRAYER TO FALL DESIRESAVE ONE MORE HEARTB
The Pain We All Bear At One Time Or Another
but you don't...because you won't see...or you don't care...I don't know what I did so wrong to make you so angry with me...I do my best not to step on anyone's feelings on here...God knows it's happened enough to me...but I feel I've done something very wrong and lost a good friend...I just don't understand and I can't talk to you...I would have to admit why this is hurting me so much and I can't do that...It's my secret to keep...The same as I can't tell the real reason why I'm giving up the profile I worked so hard on...Giving up the friends who have forgotten I exist...Oh well...I'm happy where I am right now...And if I had it to do over...I wouldn't change a thing...Except for knowing what I did to make you turn your back on me...You couldn't have hurt me more if you drove a knife thru my heart...But if that's the way you want it to be...I have no choice but to accept it...I don't and won't beg for forgiveness for the real or imagined wrongs...I'll just say "I'm sorry" Tired of be
Pain Tribe/house Of Shock 2009
Pain & Trust
saddness building up in methis pain i cant explaintwisted thoughts inside my headnightmares so derangedcutting me and stabbing mebleedind from insideyet my heart keeps beatingi am death deprivedthe veins inside my skinjust continue pulsingwhile my body starts to shakerapidly convulsingmy eyes begin to waterspilling over the edgeeverything thats happenedi just cant seem to forget.I know I must have hurt you, caused you pain.More, I know that I have lost your trust.I wish I had that moment back againTo pulverize my carelessness and lust.Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherishTo understand how much we are in need.We play with life until we nearly perishTo dare the darkness, though within we bleed.I need you as the Sun must have a roseTo turn its empty radiance to glory,Or as a nation needs someone who knowsThe secrets of its long-forgotten story.I know my need of you more than before;Thus for my trespass you may trust me more.
I am sitting out here watching the rain as thoughts of you begin to flood my brain.I know that it can NEVER be...a relationship between you and me.I want you and you want me.Oh,how I wish that it could be.Just one night,It'd feel so right to feel your arms encircling me.This is a love that cannot be. A forbidden love between you and me.You were my love, you were my life.I wanted so badly to become your wife.Times have changed.Life got in the way.I'm married to another today.                                 PAIN                                                                      Pain is something we feel inside. Pain is something we try to hide.What a fool I must have been to love and trust you over again. You'll never love me, you'll never care. You have shattered my dreams everywhere. Why must I feel this deep down pain? What does it give me? I have no gain. Who is the real you?What's your true name? Why are you playing me as if I were  a game?I have feelings like you do. Our only r
when you find the one you have looked for for so long. you can be unprepared and not be able to change things from your past . and some how they hurt you even if you are trying to do good. I have been a friend to some one and things that have happened in the past are now changing what my future holds.I not sure what i can do . I am scared angry and upset. i feel enraged.I got manipulated in to being a friend to some one who didn't exsist and I was decent enough to at least hear them out and now if ruining what i could only hope for . which is my one chance at love.I met the best woman in the world in the biggest dump online and the wolves ripped it apart.didnt have much of a chance from the start I guess. but I sit here torn and hurting thinking why I even get up in the morning or should I just fucking say it usually in the afternoon. seems like this life is barley worth getting up for .the few people that are real friends are few. the rest are after either money what you have or what
pain is n the heart that's where it start's then n ur chest it begins 2 burn n ake n other pain's accur emptyness hit's like a rock but don't stop, love can be joy n happyness if it's truest of love's nothings perfect we'll have are ups n down's, but working through it, we will, no arguing just talking just here 4 1another we stand as 1 helping with everything without hesitation no matter what it is, massage a shoulder just here n always n always here with n open ear an all of r deapest darkest secrets r like n open book nothing shut just opened up.... writtin by RICHARD O C
Paint A Perfect Smile
 Paint a perfect smile Straight onto my face Wash it off good  Don’t leave any trace Of our happy  times The days we shared Hours of  togetherness Back when we cared But we lost touch My hand slipped  from yours We went our ways And  closed open doors Then times got  tough I needed you My heart was  empty My sadness grew I silently wept  As you left me there Lost and alone I  just can’t bare Another lost heart Or  even more crying I can’t handle much  Of anyone’s lying I need someone here  To do what you never would Paint a permanent smile The way you  never could♥ *Screams Why*  Maybe It Just Wasn't Meant To Be:(
Pain, Depression, Angst
Seether (featuring Amy Lee) - Broken | Music Videos |       I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain[x2] 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away Everybody gets what they want except me...but that's okay...b/c karma is a bitch. I promised to f*ck off for a the jets, etc. If a 32 year old person can't grow up after that then i don't know... "do i have to fall a
Painful Memories
I remember the days years ago When you were still here Still here to dry my tears When I was sad You'd make me feel better  When I felt bad As the years passed by I loved you more Til you decided to walk through  that door Your work left undone And me still drying my tears As I sit here thinking Painful memories flooding back Still thinking as if you're still here Memories, memories, painful ones In memory of your loving soul     ***Side note....I wrote this in 1999...I copied it from the book it's published in...In loving memory of Uncle Brian
im sittting here wondering if after everything i have been through with him if eveytime he tells me he loves me if its true or just a line a shit . i dont know anymore. do i deal with the pain and let him go and be alone? i wish i knew the answers i wish i knew where to turn but i dont one one to ask nothing what do i do?
last nite my cell rang , its my big brother . I knew then that this wasn't gonna be good, due to the fact my mom was admitted in the hospital last friday. She has struggled with breathing problems  for the last 5 years & of course she is getting worse now. Now the steroids are not helping her like  they used to , now they are pumping her full of steroids & morphine. My brother described her as "barrel chested"(she is normally small, 90 pounds) . He says that she is layin there in pain , moaning, begging for rest ! This is where it gets even worse, she is now starting to lose her mind, she is starting to say & do the things that Dad did right before he died. Now my brother informs me that mom's wishes are to be creamated, no preacher, no fancy urn & honestly, i'm glad that mom has chose to handle those things in her own way. My questions are limitless at this point. How does  a person learn to let go of someone that loves me unconditionally, someone that is soo close to  my he
Please, be polite.They will come big, medium and smallBut, this doesn’t matter at allNow, eat it rightSlip your fingers in, gently pull it apartand lick up the juice that may run out and down your chinIt is ready and waiting now, whenever you areYou don’t need a knife, fork, or spoon at all.You only need your mouth and your fingers. That’s allRemember, there is no coreno stemno rindno pitno seedsno throw away at allSo don’t make it a choreEnjoy what you're eating 
Pain Of Love Lost
Pain Relief Pack
Back Pain Relief Pack when sitting is a very common problem for many people today, because the session was to set a higher amount of pressure on the spine has nerves and muscles surrounding the spine. Obtain relief from this pressure is not easy to implement, unless you only resist this to relieve the pressure. Being a developer of office and professional, I explored many ergonomic office chairs since I started in the business of office furniture in 1992. At that time, many fresh products are designed to provide back support in the lumbar region and chairs, which takes the stress of the back with angles and shapes rear seats and even a heated massage. But I found someone who actually offered the option of both hot and cold treatment that was built on a chair. Many doctors support the cold treatment to reduce swelling of the muscle tissue surrounding the area most injuries in all damage not only back pain. Usually after 2-3 days of cold treatment the swelling is red
Pain In Sorrow
iam lost in a world filled with nothing but darkness as i try to gasp the bit of hope i have left i find my self struggling to hold on but as i slip and fall endlessly into nothing more then a deep forgotten void i try and get my self up but i find my self chain up with my demons laughing at me telling me they will never let me go my mind is always racing but it is also my worst foe it always seem to toss me things that i would rather forget the more times i try and fake how i truely feel just to please other people the more i seem to get lost even more how do i over come it how do i conquer it is it so easy to slip into total darkness will i ever find my peace my light forever into darkness i was born in the cold dark world as every seem to not always see things as they really are the world is black and white for that is what i see there is no middle ground who can save me who will be my light to blank out the darkness in witch i feel my ex just show up with her new bf hinding behind
The Pain Of Love Is The Pain Of Being Alive. It Is A Perpetual Wound.
 Life's a game sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. But no matter what your cards in life, whether club, spade or diamond. Always remember never play...  Don't worry if people talk behind ur back. It simply means ur are two steps ahead of them already Don't ever take a fence down until you know the reason why it was put up.
I feel alone and empty after all that's been said. I left crying after the words you have spread. Inside from the love I dying to bleed out. Yet my children keep me here without a doubt. I love you and always will but your words were the knife that tore me through. Its hard to accompany what you say with and response through the pain. But at door I stand knocking and yet in the cold is where I deserve to be. Love is a powerful word and emotion.  It can cause pain and laughter and sometimes love can kill the very soul of a being.  A soul can't live without love in some form.  Love is the wind on a warm summers day.  It is the snow of Winter's bliss.  It is the kiss of spring time showers and it is the color leaves turn in the fall.  Love is the death of beauty as the world once knew.  It is the bellowing cry of a new born baby coming from the womb.  It is the kiss that makes the pain of a childs fall disappear and be no longer.  Love is family joined together no matter what is, wh
Have you ever needed some someone so bad that the effort you put in makes you oh so sad all i want outta this life is someone to love and hold but every time I try Destiny unfolds I feel Im supposed to dwell this world all alone as i rustle throught these shadows all i feel are stones i fight, I try but no aide comes to me so the deamons I unleash protect only me does it make me bad or does it make me mean or does it turn me into, the one i need to be? so tired of the fight, so tired of the scars as i pull my knife, its retained by the bars i bow, i pray i try hide no ones here no ones by my side Today is the first day of the rest of my life much unneeded pain so much strife I try to be a good man but obviously I fail so I dwell in the darkness I dwell in my hell Today is the first day of the rest of my life as I walk through the darkness I weild my barron knife No one to save me no one who cares nothing to shield me from things that scare i am a st
Pain!! & Truth!!!!!
Pain Is The Most Common Symptom Of A Stomach Ulcer
Digestive ulcer will likely be on the list of most typical issues that most of us undergo right now. Ulcers are generally seen as slight illnesses and, consequently, not even presented the seriousness they have to have. People today often feel of ulcer as an element of everyday living. Exactly what many people don't know would be the fact abdominal ulcers could lead to abdominal blood loss as well as, generally, can cause dying.Stomach ulcers may be because of a range of components. In our culture, anxiety, cigarettes, caffeinated beverages, plus an bad diet regime will be the major reasons of ulcers. However, if supplied fast care and attention, ulcers may be placed in control. Aside from sticking with healthcare provider's instructions, there's also the small things you can do to reduce that exacerbation of ones own ulcer. Follow this advice concerning how to deal with digestive ulcers signs:Grab your own medication. Should you skip a dosage, you can anticipate abdominal ulcer signs
Well Mama...   Janice my therapist said I am doing good not hitting people ...I hope you are proud of me not hurting those who hurt me... She did say she is surprised how good I am doing right now.   Mom I have my fubar friends back, this is my family now.  I wish you were here to help me get back on my feet and make them leave me alone.  Dan is an evil little boy and well I hope he suffers but not like what he did to me. Jess called me yesterday crying about how Rodney that dodo head husband of hers was putting her down... she quit crying when she got money from pops...and she calls me the bumb...yeah right... Little Jerry is doing great about helping me with dad.... Last night dad was playing songs that reminded him of you...I cried like a baby cause I do miss you soooooo much.. well I love you mom...Dia de los Muertos is coming quick see ya then ya....te quiero mucho mama   Siempre su hija   Mom,   Dad finally broke down tonight and cried for you..he was
Painfully Paved
Driving away from the store, I felt we were saved. But little did I know, it was painfully paved. That road was my path, bitter sweet and long. And in-order to survive it, I would have to be strong. I didn’t understand, the tragic events of that night. As my mother’s tears fell, reliving her fight. The battle she lost, by saving my life. I find myself wondering, if she made the right. Choice, If both of us, would have been better off. If she had just chose to let that, gun go off. My pain would have ended, right then and there. Instead of carrying this burden, around everywhere. I go, in everyone I meet. It all takes me back, to one more defeat. I see everyone, in the same light. Doing as she did, reliving the fight. This war within myself, that cannot be won. Longing for that unconditional love, from someone. Anyone really, but too scared to try. The memories from that night, tell me exactly why. For, if my mother and father, couldn
I put my faith in you, and you threw it away. I gave you my trust and yet that wasn't enough. You threw my emotions away as if I were nothing a no onje. Did I do something in a past life to deserve being hurt and disappointed? Broken hearted yes. I must learn to stop caring about anyone and anything because everything hurts eventually.
I Have been having some issues lately..with pain.  Alot to due with kidney crap.. Anyways. monday i  had 2 hr spell of pain at work. I ended up leaving early to go get a cat scan done. Found out a day was due to a cyst on my kidney.  pretty good size but doctor said it looked benign. said it wasnt pushing or blocking anything..and that I can live with it..unless it causes me pain..or problems down  the road.  IF anyone knows me they know I am cheap..and do not go to doctors often because i dont wanna rack up a bill. So I will just let it be.  On another new great dane..domino..whos pregnant got into a fight with bruno 2 days ago. He bit her pretty damn a gash on her snout below her eye.  She instantly got infected the next day.  Today her who face is puffy.  So I have to take her to vet.  So..please keep her in your prayers :D and her babies.. Anyways..this is whats been going on in my life.  Some knew about my pain and such but havnt really had time
   "Pain" Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing Rather feel pain I know (I know I know I know I know) That
On Tuesday I am getting an Electrostimulator enplanted. This is a battery pack sending electicity to a nerve in my neck to stop pain in my hand. I lost my index finger a few years ago, and I still have pain in it even tho I had the nerves removed from it. The procedure is very painfull and I want to get fucked up. I need this surgery but I am not looking forward to it. After I wont be able to do what I was able to do before has far as lifting. This sucks I am young and shouldn't have any restictions. The way I lost my finger was by a lawn mower. I was useing a 48" scag "walk behind" mower. The safties were off and when you disengaged the blades it stalled. To get it started you had to pull the pull start 999999999 times and hoped it started. So I left it on to empty the clipens bag. When I went to put it on my hand sliped and went into the belt and pully, which would have been stoped if it was disengaged and my hand wouldn't have went into the pully if the guard plate was on it. The p
Whenever I create a painting, Edward Hopper develop a story about the scene in my mind, but I think viewers will make up their own stories about these paintings and all the stories will be true. Look how he has done her- Dripping with sexual innuendo, carnal to the point of smoldering. Charles, of course, was tragically beheaded, after attempting to ignore the changing tides of English politics. Shocker there, as this is a key theme in Downton.I find the interchange all slightly humorous. I actually like a lot of Picasso's work, especially his synthetic cubism and his much-earlier Blue Period. At home she used these photos and her experiences to execute a small painting and showed it to friends who liked the feeling of the painting.  She had found her subject, one that equally had a personal meaning and a freshness of atmosphere. The painting also appears in the film when Gil is in modern-day times. There's a debate in the museum, where the painting now hangs and Gil shows off his kno
A Pain Worse Than Death
The knife becomes cold, sliding across your skin. You feel it sinking deeper in. You can feel your life, slipping away. Dismissing the possibility, you are taking away.   Life became too much, every day was a fight. You just couldn't take anymore that night. Longing and searching, but it just wouldn't end. The pain was too intense, the wounds wouldn't mend.   With everything they stole from you, they are still wanting more. The past is too powerful to ignore. Then that day rolls around, like every year before. And you drop to your knees, from behind a locked door.   You scream out you're sorry, to the one you love the most. Hoping that one day, he can talk to your ghost. Longing for hope, a pain worse than death. Reality has given you, shortness of breath.   Looking at the light, you now see his face. Something too beautiful, for even death to erase. You are not sure how or even when. But suddenly you start breathing again.   The beat becomes stronger, and you
A Pair Of Singles
Another one written by Heather and myself. Enjoyment of this confession As mastered in independent sway Brings about fulfillment More subtle than hearts convey A new intervention Revives the mundane Something which did not exist Until one very fine day When not seeking redemption For lessor sins than minds command beauty of an ordinary life Minus conflict and social demand Frees the mind of troubled thought Allowing stilled pain to disband As ego breathes its final gasp A calm and peace arrive And take you to a brand new place Where you're happy and alive Love emimantes from every pore What once was blocked can now soar Sailing smooth on sovereign seas The song, so singularly sweet Cannot compare to the fevered pitch Of when hearts in harmony meet As fear finds it's antidote And love unveils their cure A bliss of shared emotion In this vale of varied time Softly inspires a stirring need and makes the ordinary sublime Tenderly this gen
A Pair Of Ballet Slippers
A Pair Of Ballet Slippers A pair of ballet slippers are all that she needs. To walk on her toes without bending her knees. To dance across the floor feeling as free as a bird. Listening for the crowd to give her a good word.   Dancing on stage while the audience give rave. To her best performance with all the desire she gave. You are feeling good inside for seeing her in all her glory. But when people get home it's a whole nother story.   Then what they read the very next day, that the little girl never made it home not even to play. Another child was stolen in broad daylight. Not even a second thought you will give her tonight.   She taught you joy and laughter and style. In a pair of ballet slippers that was well worth her while. A family in pain from a child they just lost.
A Pair Of Glasses
A Pair Of Glasses A pair of glasses is all that he needs, To see the words that could set him free. But this pair of glasses is a special pair, For all the world to be well aware.   You put them on and the things you see, Will make you want to take them off and run away free. From the darkest of hays and the mist in your way, You find yourself trapped deep in a maze.   With trees that say you better beware, cause with your life we do not care. Watching these trees sway back and forth, as you are praying for this game to abort.   Deep in a maze you find yourself dazed, without any wind these trees will amaze. Spinning you around and around and around, until your mind is as soft as the m
The Pair
Paisley Does Dallas Version 22
a. i've never cheated on a girlfriend/spouse/etc.... why you want to, i don't know and don't want to know... i do like sex.. b. i don't like dick.. period.. c. i only like women...period. d. please don't involve me in your marital or relationship drama if you have a boyfriend, i don't want to be involved... in anyway shape or form.. e. don't contact me to fuck you while your husband watches, tries to fuck me in the ass, etc.. "i wasn't born yesterday", bitch! f. don't call me, text me from a phone your boyfriend, sig, hubby, etc.. is paying the bill on... i don't want to go to jail because some asshole calls and threatens me and i end up fucking his face up.. i can.. i have and I will. g. if this applies to you and you still want to fuck, it's going to be a public place, you won't know my address... but i like public places... h. i don't do husbands or boyfriends, get it? 10PM - be there! A special guest appearance this thursday night at wax as Paisley spins re
~paitently Waiting, As It's Supposed To Be~
i am just glad to be out of that whole situation i was in since July, and by a weird ripple in life i am back where i started this journey almost two whole years ago when i went lookin for a room to rent,,,let's hear it for fate, right? It's so close to the end of all the waiting W/we have had to do since He first found me, i am doing the best i can, as i have always done, though with *alot* of help and talks from myMaster on my patience level thing,,,,,mmmmm when He first found me i was a kettle just bout near to bustin' out on P/people, and at times i *did* bust on S/some,,i think this last journey in my life with *one who's name i will not speak* has just topped my level thing off,,,wow in the old(first with Him) days i wouldn't have been able to not snap at her much less not snapped her damm head off for most if not all the crap she pulled on me whenever my cirlcle of life looped into hers
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So today's dilemma is, how to get a hold of US taxpayer buy a sacrifice.  No shit.  As it stands, we're dropping 600 bones of our own money to do this.  Basically as a traditional gift to the needy, in this case, the Pakistani cops how risk their lives to protect us, for the the equivalent of $36 a month. Still, I can't believe my life sometimes.   So Urdu is apparently as dependant on English vocabulary as Mexican Spanglish.   I found this rather amusing.  Especially since Pakistanis write English phoenetically, with a Pakistani accent.  So things like "duty roster"  become "duty roaster."  I'm actually trying to learn Pashto, which is a retarded language with 5 different characters for our letter Z. So my friend Charles had to fix two toilets in one of our offices.  They were western style.  The Paki workers broke them by standing on the toilet seats to squat shit.  Great place, really. I'm going to miss my friend Phil, and his inappropriate comments.  Cal
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created this account just to see a friend's pictures at their recommendation. This place is.... nuts. LOL
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Palace Of The Lost Souls
Palace of the LOST SOUL would like to invite you to there PALACE!!!!!!! So are you a reaper!! That is looking for a SOUL to take. Or the Person that is looking for there SOUL come check us out. If you think your the STAR of all LOST SOULS. Maybe your SOUL is lost in a grave yard. Click on any of the pics and join the PALACE of the LOST SOULS Click on the pic if you would like to join the lounge!!!
Looks like fun but kind of confusing to know what to do first here.  I actually see a few peeps I know - yay!  :)  I've got some more photos to add and some fun stuff when I get time to get it put in here.  In the meantime here is my webcam site: I'm working on some hot high-definition videos to add here too and here is the link to my chatroom (You can see if I'm in there chatting from the indicator and there are a few more photos in there): My Chatroom (the links are NOT safe for work, though my blog here will be).
The Palestinian Problem
This week is an extremely important one for both the Palestinians and the Israelis. This Friday, Palestinian Authority President Mahmoud Abbas goes before the United Nations and demands the creation of a homeland for his people. They want the West Bank as their own, with Jerusalem as their capital. The fact that the actual name of the West Bank is Samaria and Judea mean nothing to them. They want it. To understand the nature of the problem, you have to look back at the facts of history. You need to know what actually happened to make the Palestinians stateless. The concept of Zionism began in the late 1890's, when many Jews wanted to immigrate back to their homeland, then called Palestine. The region was ruled by the Ottoman Empire, and seeing a way of making money, began selling land in Palestine to foundations to place Jewish people there. It was worthless land, not suitable for farming, or so they thought. So the sheiks of teh Ottoman Empire thought they would sell the land to the
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Palin Is A Joke
This woman is a piece of work and continues to be an embarassment to our state. I've already addressed 4 big FAT lies she threw out during her RNC speech, now I'll focus on a few more she continues to try and push down Americas throat. It's obvious (as has been to Alaskans for some time) that this woman is a compulsive, repetitive, demonstrable LIAR, who refuses to come clean or be questioned about ANY of her inconsistent statements, lies, etc.. 1. She lied about the firing of the town librarian and chief of police during her term as mayor in Wasilla. Strangely reminiscent of "Troopergate" this woman LOVES to throw her power around. When asked about these actions by the Anchorage Daily News ( Patholgical Palin responded that she planned to meet with Stambaugh and Emmons that afternoon. She also disputed whether they had actually been fired. ''There's been no meeting, no actual terminations,'' When the Anchorage Daily News contacted the chief of police that same day he
Palin once blessed to be free from 'witchcraft' By GARANCE BURKE, Associated Press Writer Thu Sep 25, 12:27 AM ET A grainy YouTube video surfaced Wednesday showing Sarah Palin being blessed in her hometown church three years ago by a Kenyan pastor who prayed for protection from "witchcraft" as she prepared to seek higher office. The video shows Palin standing before Bishop Thomas Muthee in the pulpit of the Wasilla Assembly of God church, holding her hands open as he asked Jesus Christ to keep her safe from "every form of witchcraft." "Come on, talk to God about this woman. We declare, save her from Satan," Muthee said as two attendants placed their hands on Palin's shoulders. "Make her way my God. Bring finances her way even for the campaign in the name of Jesus. ... Use her to turn this nation the other way around." Palin formally announced her bid for governor a few months later, in October 2005. Palin does not say anything on the video and keeps her head bowed
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Pallmalls And Jelly Bread
so there i was setting at work wondering, "what the hell is a blog?". so my friend said that it is whatever i want it to be. so i decided to tell about all of the crazy shit that i have done in my life. i will post a new story every day from now on and i hope you enjoy. Chapter 1 "the beginning" back in my younger days i was known as one of the quite boys. the only thing that i ever did wrong in elementary school was moon someone from the back window of the school bus. When i hit high school i started experimenting with drugs. my most favorite thing to do was go to wallmart and buy a can of air duster and inhale the hole can i a matter of a few hours. it made me feel like shit but oh well it was a cheap high. i use to have campouts in my back yard with all of my friends. my grand father was a big drinker. so we would always sneek up to the garage and steal his boose. i knew that he knew but he didn't say anything so i didn't give a fuck. tomarrow will be chapter 2 "m
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Palm Sunday
Wishing everyone a Happy Palm Sunday.. and men, that does not mean to spend time with your palms. Giggle.
Palm-reading is a worthwhile talent that an unfortunately small amount of people know how to do. So, under careful research, this article was written so that anyone who wants to can be a palm-reader. However, there are more than just lines on your hand. Your fate and personality can also revolve around your hands, fingers, thumb, and more. So please, immerse yourself in this timeless knowledge. Steps Look at the shape of your hand. The shape of your hand can tell you much about your future and your life. There are five specific hand shapes, all with different meanings. The Pointed Hand: This hand is characteristic of it's delicacy and grace. It has an almond shape where it is wider and round at the base (near the wrist) and narrows as it reaches the top (your fingers). It is possible that your thumb may also be quite long and flexible. The hand is usually pale in color, and the lines of the palm aren't very deep. Likely characteristics of this person - Less of a doer; appreciat
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Pamela's Nonsence And Whatnot.
I have been on this site for a few days now and i have to say i am addicted (thanks Lori Ann)! I have met alot of really cool people and it is just a really cool place to hang out online. Looking forward to meeting alot more cool people.
Pamela's Random Thoughts
You Don't Know Me (dissociative anonymity) You Can't See Me (invisibility) See You Later (asynchronicity) It's All in My Head (solipsistic introjection) It's Just a Game (dissociative imagination) We're Equals (minimizing authority)) Personality Variables True Self? Self Constellations Across Media Altering Self Boundary It's well known that people say and do things in cyberspace that they wouldn't ordinarily say or do in the face-to-face world. They loosen up, feel more uninhibited, express themselves more openly. Researchers call this the "disinhibition effect." It's a double-edged sword. Sometimes people share very personal things about themselves. They reveal secret emotions, fears, wishes. Or they show unusual acts of kindness and generosity. We may call this benign disinhibition. This is ridiculas, more and more daily Im considering leaving this site, its ridiculas to think that they can *force* people to post thi
Pamela Moore - Cross My Heart! My True Awesome Friend! Also Known As Mary In Operation Mindcrime Part 1& 2 With Queensryche !
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Well i'm new here to fubar not use to how it work's i was told it is simular to myspace but better.Well i do not have pic's up on my page but i will soon i promise but hope to make alot of new friend's here on fubar.So far from what i have seen of this site it is cool so have a good one everybody.
Thought i'd try this one more time. Came in 2nd last time... come help me out!!! just click on the pic below, rate, and comment as much as u can!!! Thanx to all that give me a hand...i will always return the favor! THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Innovative 2. Preliminary 3. Proliferation 4. Cinnamon THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. Specificity 2. Anti-constitutionalistically 3. Passive-aggressive disorder 4. Transubstantiate THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK: 1. No thanks, I'm happily married. 2. Nope, no more booze for me! 3. Sorry, but you're not really my type. 4. Taco Bell? No thanks, I'm not hungry. 5. Good evening, officer. Isn't it a beautiful night? 6. Oh, I couldn't! No one wants to hear me sing karaoke. 7. I'm not interested in fighting you. 8. Thank you, but I won't make any attempt to dance, I have no coordination. I'd hate to look like a fool! 9. Where is t
A Pampers Existence
Giving advice is easy. Sticking with folks, and continuing to try and help them is a little harder. You can flash a light on the path to even a perfect stranger. Just tell them what you feel is the best way to accomplish things. What they do with this guidance is up to them. I remember back, 10 years or so, I was having a conversation with my buddy Christy, who at the time was 2 ½. She was sitting on her training potty, and I spoke to her at length about how wonderful things would be if she would always use the bathroom instead of her pants. She looked me straight in the eyes during my entire monologue. I felt a connection. When I had finished, she leaned forward and hugged me. She truly appreciated the effort. During the embrace is when I received a moment of clarity. She loved me, and was glad I was there trying to help her, but she would continue to crap her pants until she remembered not to. And all the speeches and attempts to change her behavior would be mute points, because in t
Pampering Points
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Last night I had a dream that I was in a movie with Jack Black, something set in the forties, and I played his wife, pregnant with triplets, yet! I should not eat a pepperoni and hot pepper cheese roll before I go to bed. It's the same kind of dream every time. I'm in an old, funky, haunted house. Only in this dream, I was kind of like a ghostbuster. They say that dreams are metaphors, and I guess this is one for my having to exorcise my past demons, or some crazy schnit like that. But at least this time I'm after the ghost or monster instead of the other way around. My former boyfriend is stalking me now. I've had to call the police, which I've been trying to avoid.
* Pan Aeon Asana *
PAN-AEON ASANA -- AION. Fall Equinox 1990 In a place that is quiet, after suitable meditation, perform the Asana. (Nameless Aeon) In BLACK silence Squat in foetal position, head down Black-empty-silent-before-birth Inhaling Power The Wordless-word-howl erupts Raise you head and animal-growl: AHhhhhhhhhhhh Be-come the Animal Being (Mother Aeon) From a crouch, flow into the ground Inhaling Power On your back, lying flat Part of the GREEN nurturing Moan the primal cry: MAaaaaaaaaaaaaa Be-come the Mother Power (Father Aeon) Roll to a sitting position Inhaling Power Sitting in the RED aura-fire of Command Centering the Will Vibrate into the gut: AhhhhhhMmmmmmmNnnnnnn Be-come the Father Power (Son Aeon) In one motion spring to your feet Inhaling Power Projecting the GOLD light Solar rebirth and renewal Hands at you sides, take the one step forward Propelling forth: AaaaaaHaaaaaA Be-come the Son Power (Daughter Aeon)
Panathinaikos Fc
Panathinaikos FC, also known as PAO or Panathinaikos AO (Greek: ΠΑΟ - Παναθηναϊκός Αθλητικός Όμιλος - Panathinaikos Athlitikos Omilos), the Pan-Athenian Athletic Club, is a Greek association football club based in Athens, Greece. The team currently competes in the Super League Greece. Founded in 1908 the football team is the oldest of all the Panathinaikos club’s sports sections. They play in the Super League Greece and play their home games at the Olympic Stadium - Spiros Louis. Panathinaikos is one of the most successful Greek football clubs of all time, winning 19 league titles. In 1971 they were European Cup finalists, losing 2-0 to Ajax at Wembley Stadium. They remain the only Greek club that has reached a European final. In 1985, Panathinaikos reached the European Cup semifinals, where they were thrown out by Liverpool F.C. (4
It has been on my mind lately that some-one that wants to claim you as a friend, but then don't list you as a friend or family on FUBAR, yahoo, live or anywhere else, that has pics of even casual acquaintaces on thier social sites, is not much of a friend. Whats up with that?
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Pan Cake Mix
This is TRUE --Check it out! I recently made a batch of pancakes for my healthy 14-year-old son, using a mix that was in our pantry. He said that they tasted "funny," but ate them anyway. About 10 minutes later, he began having difficulty breathing and his lips began turning purple. I gave him his allergy pill, had him sit on the sofa and told him to relax. He was wheezing while inhaling and exhaling. My husband, a volunteer Firefighter and EMT , heated up some water, and we had my son lean over the water so the steam could clear his chest and sinuses. Soon, his breathing became more regular and his lips returned to a more normal color. We checked the date on the box of pancake mix and, to my dismay, found it was very outdated. As a reference librarian at an academic institution, I have the ability to search through many research databases. I did just that, and found an article the next day that mentioned a 19-year-old mal
Okay I just made pancakes for the first time in wow like 10 years. Okay i suck. I am twenty three years old i should know how to make pancakes. But i dont. I mean i made them so bad the dog doesnt even want any. How sad is that?
Pandora Sage's Blog
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Pandora Music Player For Cherrytap
If you want a personalized music player for cherrytap that will play continous music. Go to Pandora and create a free account. Send me the link to your page on pandora. I will grab the code for you and email it to you so you can put it on cherrytap or myspace whatever you want. Just because Im nice like that. Or Ill email you my code from mine and you can use it and edit it however you want. :)

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