lilgirl89's blog: "pain"

WHY DO GUYS THINK ITS COOL TO TELL A GIRL THAT HE LOVES HER JUST TO GET HER TO SLEEP WITH HIM?? WELL I FELL FOR THE DUMB LIE. IM SICK OF THIS NO MORE WILL I LET THEM RULE ME IM TAKING CONTROL NOW, AND YES IM STILL HURT THANKS TO MY EX BF(U KNOW WHO U ARE) HE LEFT ME NOT LONG AFTER I GAVE HIM SEX AND THEN HE HAD THE BALLS TO TELL HIS MOTHER THAT I WAS THE ONE THAT WANTED ALL THE SEX! HE IS LUCKY THAT I STILL TALK TO HIM BUT IDK IF I CAN PUT UP WITH HIM. IM SICK OF HIS DUMB LIES AND GET THIS AFTER HE LEFT ME LIKE ON THE 23RD HE SAW ME AND WALKED FROM WHERE I WAS TO GO TO ANOTHER GIRLS HOUSE PROBABLY TO GET LAID. AND THAT DID HURT ME. SOMEONE TELL ME WAT I SHOULD DO. OBVIOUSLY IM NOT DOING ANYTHING RITE HERE.

well everyone i just broke up with my bf of 4 months and he is still hurting me. he would control me and be possesive over me. but the bad thing is that i still love him. im so confused, i just wish that i could hold my dad and let him help me but i cant. im just so confused, he begs me to take him back but i dont want to and now im always upset and depressed. WHY do i some how find these guys that hurt me??????????? I just wish i could hide and never get hurt or get my heart broken again.

Why am i all alone in this world? no one knows wats going on. Its like im loosing my self. i just dont know wat im gonna do any more. i keep fearing that im gonna just give up because i have nothing to hold on to any more. mabe i should give up on this fucked up life i live. it feels like no one cares about wether i live or die. i want my dad. i need a friend. god gave up on me. i know it sounds like im having a pitty party but im just lost.

I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS IS SLOWLY SLIPPING AWAY. INCLUDING MY SANITY. ALL I THINK ABOUT IS MY FATHER. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. I FEEL ALL ALONE. WHY DID I HAVE TO LOOSE HIM? I WASNT READY TO SAY GOODBYE. I MISS HIM.

Daddys lil girl Im daddys little girl, He catches me when i fall, He picks me up when im down, He dries my tears when i cry, He will always be with me, I will always be his baby, I could tell him anything, and everything, He was my 1 true friend, He believed in me, trusted me, and supported me in everything i did, So how could i see my life without him in it? He was a sensational father, and great best friend, i could confide in him always, he never dissapointed me, i always tried to make him proud to sum all this up............... I WILL ALWAYS BE MY DADDYS LIL GIRL!

i fell in love with this guy and he said he loved me too. everything was fine 4 the longest time untill he said he needed space, i thought we would get back together. But boy oh boy was i extreemly wrong. I guess i wasnt good enough or pretty enough. but i still love him and i always will but now he talks to me in anger sometimes and it hurts like hell. he knows that i love him but its like he dosent care any more. i waited 4 him to leave his gf i wasnt gonna force him to leave her i was cool with being friends but when i found out that he was single i got up the curage and asked him out. then after he asked for space he would still tell me that he loved me and like and idiot i still believed it. hell i still think that. everyone tells me i got played bad. but now i think that im just not wat he needed. and my heart might heal in time. but ill never 4get the love that i had 4 him. he was really sweet and caring at first then he got moody, i know im not perfect and that i do piss off alot of ppl but its who i am.